Hello? That's me! I am KJ, yes!
what do you want to talk about ? this is weird
And now I don't have to feel bad about writing ghosts! This is so much better, let me tell you. Not weird at all, no.
how was your week?
Do you know what it's like to be stuck in a conversation by yourself for ten minutes? Um, my week was fine, I guess? Nothing too crazy.
oh yeah all the time
I don't have midterms, see. Noooo, that's so sad. Talking to yourself is one step above being lonely.
that's true never lonely hows mission preparation going?
I guess it's going all right. I'm not fluent in Spanish yet, but I should be okay. As per the other stuff, I need a few more immunizations. I don't know why they're so hard to get. I think I'm just not scheduling them properly or something. But I'll get it sorted out, promise. I just need a little bit more time. Which, ironically, is one of the few things I have in abundance. I have a full four months before I leave. Four months! That's not common from what I hear, so I don't know why the wait is so long, but here I am. It's all right, though. I don't mind the wait. Gives me time to reflect, I guess.
thuat is true
I don't know. There are lots of things I want to do, but I feel like I don't have the time to do it. Like internships.
make sure to go through the check list in the missionary portal
I am, I am. There's lots to do in there, and we're preparing. Especially my mom. She's been going out and buying clothes like crazy. Do you know how cold it gets in Argentina? Really cold, apparently. Enough that girls are allowed to wear pants and not skirts.
i imagine it has to be similar to here
Yes, but it's worse. Because at least here the weather is dry. If it's cold, you put on a jacket and it's all right. And if it's hot, then you stay in the shade and it's noticeably cooler. Over there, it's really humid, which means the weather is a lot harsher. When it's cold, it seeps into everything, and it feels wicked. And the heat is almost worse. It can take a heat that's decent over here and make it feel deathly.
that's true the cold in Argentina gets to the bones
So I've heard, so I've heard. I'm excited for it, sorta. I'm kinda worried about my hair, among other things. I worry about other things, too! Promise. It's just one of the many things. Like, my hair is going to get super poofy. All the humidity is going to be like white death. I'm never going to be able to tame this beast.
I imagine, but you will be fine you will find a nice hair dresser
Do they have those in Argentina? And would I be allowed to use them while on my mission?
yeah totally as long as this doesn't interfere with your missionary objective
I feel like it would't fit in my budget. Missionaries get pretty strict budgets, from what I hear. I don't think I'd be able to afford a hair dresser.
well that is true you would not be able to pay for a good one out of that you would have to use personal money
I don't want to use personal money while on the misson. *mission I feel like that defeats the purpose.
only if you do it for personal satisfaction and just because you know if you need to do something you have to do it that's how I see it
My hair is just . . . it's really extraneous, though, you know? If nothing else, I can stick it in a hat all day. It'll be winter for the vast majority of the time I'm there. I'm sure they're used to people wearing stuff on their heads. Like earmuffs, or whatever they're called. I won't like it, but it's certainly doable.
it is
It's just a little thing I worry about.
the need will motivate you
The need will motivate me to get a hair dresser?
no hahaha to wear the things you don't like and maybe to get a hairdresser as well
Oh. But I like hats. And I'm not so sure about hairdressers. I'm not sure I want them touching my hair. I think I'll take my chances with that hats; at least then, I'll be the one in charge. And if I ruin things, well, I can deal with them. Ugh, this is going to take forever. Do you know how long it takes to climb the leaderboard? I'm in one of those rare spots where the top dog isn't chatting as well. Which means I can actually earn some decent points. But it's still really hard because of how far away I am. I need something close to half a million, though probably more, if I'm to catch up. And then I need to be able to KEEP up. He's online very often; I'm not sure I'll be able to keep up. No, that's wrong. I will. I just wonder if I can do it in time. The contest ends in about a week. I have until then to beat him and stay on top. Nobody else is even close to us, so that's nice. It's just me and him. . . . also, he refuses to talk to me. Shame on him. Though, to be honest, it's not a bad tactic. I might do the same if I wanted to stay on top. No point in giving points to your enemy, right? Especially if that enemy might win your iPad?
I guess that is right and tell me what will you do with your Ipad
(Be right back. I'm gonna grab some water.) I don't know. I think it's less about the iPad and more the triumph of winning. I've kinda invested a lot of hours into this. More than I'd expected to. Last time, I won with something like 3.5 million points, which isn't too insane. I'm already at past 4 million and I'm still losing. The guy I'm going with is really, really competitive. Which is good! It means they're getting more data for their machine, and I'm happy about that. The only unfortunate part is, I have to deal with that competitiveness, which makes it difficult. Did you know that last round, the winners only had something like 3.5 million points? It stagnated for a long time. The top player was only around 2.7 million for something like a week. It wasn't until the cut off that the two top players started really competing. It was really fun to watch, actually! You could just see their scores climbing and climbing. I didn't know who was going to win because they were about 20,000 points away from each other, and in this game, it's barely five minutes of chatting. I was really enthralled. I don't remember who won, but I remember that it was by the slimmest of margins. I feel bad for second place; second place doesn't get anything. Which is . . . also kinda why I don't want to lose this. I've already spent so much time here. It'd be kinda a waste if I didn't get anything from it. I mean, yes, I'm happy to be here to give the system some data, but I think it'd still be nice if I won an iPad. That IS why I came here, after all. I happened to meet some good people along the way. And, quite frankly, they have been some of my favorite people to talk to. It's really fun; I'd like to meet them in real life. But, barring everything else, I'm competing for the iPad, which means I'm going to fight to get it. Why're you here?
here where ? t6he chat ? or the us?
I was referring more to the chat, but I'd love to hear why you're in the US, too. See if we can bring a bit of balance to this almost-one-sided conversation.
well the answer is actually very simple I came to study at BYU become an animator work for pixar and live the rest of my life here
Animation is the hardest program to get into. It's insane. It's harder than nursing. And nursing is the most competitive of medical school. Why are you going through all this? Doesn't it intimidate you? You're going to have to fight tooth and nail to get to the top. Which, if you're up for that, is fine. It's just . . . it seems like a lot of work, you know? Especially since if you spent that time in other areas, you could get a lot farther a lot quicker. Is animation something you want to do badly? Are you willing to sacrifice that much to do it? Helloooo?
hi i'm here so what I'm going through is not bad at all itr is hard and confusing sometimes but is a fair prize for the reward that's suppose to come after so many trials rather than scary  it feels very exitiong rather than scary since everything is new and honestly a lit better lot* hard things are always worth it I'm sure of that
I sure hope so. There are a lot of things that I want to do, and they're going to require a lot of work, too. Just . . . They're hard, you know? And I'm okay with that. But I don't see a big point in striving and sacrificing and fighting this hard for something I won't even want later.
that's the trick right there you only do that for the things you love and feel passionated about
But what if you don't know what that is? I feel like I could do a lot with my life if I just knew which direction I wanted to go in. There are so many good people in my class, people who are smart and talented and hardworking and everything. They're going to go far in life--and you will, too. But . . . I don't know how to go far if there's no direction for me to go far to. You konw? *know I'd love to be dedicated and devoted and diligent. And . . . I intend to be, too. But I just don't know where to invest my energy.
how many students do you tutor?
Not a whole ton. Maybe three or something? Why? (Actually, it's a few more than that, but it's not super important.)
because depending of the demand of your services as a tutor you could also try some other job
But maybe I don't want another job?
that's not fast food relates related*
Even so. I don't really see the point in it. Unless I can work at a place like, I dunno, something techy, it's not going to give me the experience I need. And since I'm doing all right financially, I can invest my time into other things. Like . . . winning iPads, apparently. But also personal projects and researches and studies and whatnot. I'm a curious person. I like to learn and sink my teeth into something meaty. Kinda hard to do that with another job. But. I'd be willing to do so if I could get something great out of it.
have you talked to the man that is the owner of the company ?
Well . . . not recently, no. I don't want to annoy him. It'd be far worse to talk to him and ruin my chances than to play it more carefully and wait. I . . . think. I don't know. I'd really like to. I guess I'm just . . . worried I'm going to make things worse. I'd really, really like to work there, for sure, but I don't have the experience, and I'm not sure it's something I could do in such a short amount of time. I leave in four months, remember? And I guess that most places don't even have internships that long, but those are summer things, you know? They're not really hiring, I don't think, and just . . . It's hard. And I want to do it. I've nothing against hard things. But, wow, am I worried about messing up.
don't be afraid haha just go for it and do your best what's the worst that could happen ???
It's not just about going and doing my best. It's about my failure actually making things worse. I at least have a shot at Younique after a mission. I don't want to be pesky beforehand, you know? But . . . I guess it's better than nothing. I can talk to one of his kids. I'm on good terms with her. I just . . . heh, I don't know. I go on Monday to their house. Let's, um . . . I guess I can ask. The more time that passes, the worse it gets. And I guess the worst that likely happens IS that he says no. It's not perfectly along the alley that I want to work in . . . But, then again, I don't know what I want to do with my life. So who knows? It might be perfect for me.
what's the worst thing going on right now in the world that you know of? describe it and give your opinion
That's it? We're jumping topics? I feel like this is less a conversation and more me writing essays for questions you ask. And the questions aren't even RELATED to the previous thing.
makes sense
C'mon. You don't have anything to say about what I just said? No concerns? Advice? Random wisdom? Duuuuude.
my concern is that too much intelligence needs to be used to not only solve problems in an external context but also in a more personal level. what I mean is that you need to stop preparing yourself so much and start applying more of the vast knowledge you have good luck doesn't exist remember ? only the combination of preparation and opportunity
I think good luck does exist. Not everybody go becomes successful does so entirely through grit and determination. I'm not saying you don't need those things, because you do. They're quite important. But I know a lot of people who have grit and determination who never go on to become successful. People who work quite hard but never make it. You'd have to be blind not to see that a good deal of opportunity is something that comes by chance. You can do your best to be prepared. You can do your best to give yourself as many chances as possible. You can do your best to be ready for anything. And I can even believe that you can track down opportunities if you fight hard enough. But to deny that luck exists at all?
that last part can be considered as preparation to be honest looking for something is a part of a preparatory process now regarding the lucky nature or unfortunate nature of the life of different people I must say that looking for opportunity is what causes their failure sometimes conditions influence our success but we can shape our own conditions it is a matter of attitude and endurance
I guess so? I know a lot of people who work harder than me who haven't gotten as far as I have, and that's not really fair. If things were based on our effort alone, the world would be a different place. But it doesn't work like that. Some people are born with a really keen mind and are quick to find solutions. And other people are very good with their hands. Both people are wonderful. We need both. But the first has more opportunity. The first can go on to become the next Zuckerburg (or however you spell his name), or the next Einstein or Hawking or anything. Or what about MBA stars? As hard as I want to work, even if I had started when I was very young, I'd never be MBA material. It's nothing to do with my willingness to work or how much I want it. The fact is, I'm about average height for a girl, and because I am a girl, I'm physically weaker than the average man. That's just biology. I could become a pretty good basketball player, to be sure. But the fact is, a man who is two feet taller than me who put the same amount of effort would always dominate me. He would get the spot on the team when I wouldn't. There are things that I can't control. Things that I have no say in. And I certainly intend to do the best with what I have, but, as things are, there are things that I can't do due to an inherent impossibility. I want to work hard. I will work hard. But . . . I don't know. I just don't know. I could be wrong for all I know. Advice? Death wishes? Agendas you want me to fulfill?
remember that even though God is our creator and father, he does not rule over our choices. misfortune therefore is a human consequence of choices through time of those with and without power whether it is economic or philosophical bad things are a result of human choice it is a response to the hearkening of satan's advice