new blogpost: falling into the perfectionism trap

Author: noghartt

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+slug: "falling-into-the-perfectionism-trap"
+title: "Falling Into the Perfectionism Trap"
+pubDate: 2025-09-27T07:51:52.884Z
+draft: false
+tags:
+  - thoughts
+---
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+Every time I open my Obsidian to start writing a new blog post, I remember the
+other 15 drafts sitting there. Will those ever see the light of day? I don't know.
+And that's a concern for me.
+
+It's easy to take ideas and put them into two or three phrases. But being able
+to write for a long time (I'm Gen Z—two hours is a long time for me, don't judge)
+is just hard to do if I'm not in the mood. And in the last few months, the one thing
+I haven’t found is the mood.
+
+I'd like to write about a lot of different things: my trip to Europe (the first
+one, by the way), my studies on DST (jokes aside for Brazilians, I mean Deterministic
+Simulation Testing), my studies on Distributed Systems. But I'm just not in the
+mood to write. Why? I don't know.
+
+I do believe I’ve really fallen into the perfectionism trap for writers. I can’t
+count on one hand the number of drafts I was genuinely proud of last year. There's
+always something missing—a phrase, a section, a requirement. That’s what I call
+the perfectionism trap: when you look at the work you did, and all you can see
+are the gaps and how far you are from the final result.
+
+But what is the final result? Sometimes I don’t even know. It’s just the feedback
+loop of never feeling satisfied with what I wrote. It took me a while to understand
+it. Even now, I don’t fully know where it comes from. Maybe I’m comparing myself
+with other authors and trying to be like them? Yes, maybe. Maybe I’m too focused
+on how the text is structured and not on whether the quality of what I’m producing
+is good enough to be read? Maybe that too.
+
+My blog never was, and never will be, a platform just for the public. It never
+was. My blog is about having a place where I can share all my things—from cooking
+recipes and board game reviews to a 4,000-word wall-of-text book review or a report
+on my learnings from building a compiler from scratch.
+
+It was never about being shorter or longer, but about whether, in essence, it
+represents my thoughts and my spirit at that moment. But I’m not sure when I lost
+that idea.
+
+In the end, to escape the perfectionism trap, it requires understanding that perfection
+isn’t about a single piece of writing (or anything else) but the composition of
+the whole body of work (and in this case, I’m not talking only about writing).
+
+What matters now is that I’ve found myself again and rediscovered the road I missed
+a long time ago. There’s a lot of work to do here.