I sharpened the knife with the turtle before cutting the meat
What are you going to do with the turtle now?
Absolutely nothing, I was going to let it go.
You are doing the right thing letting it go. The animal needs to be in its natural habitat.
I cut the meat turtle. I did it cause I hate it and I'm a psychopath.
You admit it so that is the first step in getting help. I have a phone # you can call for a good psychiatrist.