I will always hate my life and my personality
Are you hoping your life gets better?
Hope is a waste of time. I need to make my life better.
Making your life better is a good goal, if you don't like something and want to change it, you should. It could lead to a happier life.
I don't have time for that.
I believe that there is always a way to make room for important things! Working on yourself is really important to make sure that you are happy and healthy for a long time. How about scheduling a work vacation so you can get started?