Is it so wrong to want to tell you that I love my girlfriend more than I love myself?
Well, well! I am surprised to hear this now. Why do you love your girlfriend more than you love yourself?
She is a bitch and beats me up, I don't feel I deserve anything better.
You should leave your relationship if she is abusing you. You might have Stockholm syndrome and should go see a mental health counselor.
I am staying with my girlfriend because of Stockholm syndrome.
It seems being abused is what you think is normal. It never is, you really should not accept this behavior. I think you would be happier living in a more stable environment so give it a try first and then decide who you love more.