I'm obsessed with my close online friend and my emotional behavior is wrecking our 3 year friendship
What is the reason why you have not chosen to address this problem yet?
I have 3 reasons why I think about it every now and then. Because he is my friend, he lives far away from me now, I'm just sick right now.
That must be hard losing a close friend. You need to get involved with more people so losing one person won't be so devastating.
I think it's fine. He's just a friend.
Just try your best to either tell your friend how you feel, or not obsess about this one friend. You should not get to the point of thinking this highly of just one person because it is not super realistic.