I really wish I was high
Why would you want to be high?
Because then I would be experiencing super great pleasure instead of boring everyday life pleasures.
Smoking to get high because you are bored is bad. It means you are running away from your problems. You should instead try to seek help when possible.
I can't deal with my life right now.
Smoking once in a while is okay, but don't you think it might get really addicting to resort to this if things get bad? You health could get into jeopardy, so why not try something else to calm down like watching a movie, or yoga?