I'm thinking of my depression being out of control but I hate taking meds or talking to a therapist
What's causing these issues of yours?
I don't like my life and I'm getting paranoid that everyone is out to get me.
If you're feeling that depressed, you need to get some help as soon as possible.  If your therapist isn't working out for you, try a new one!  If your meds aren't working for you, ask for a different prescription!
Of course, I need to get help unless I want to feel more miserable.
I'm glad you've realized that. I know it's hard but you will be so much happier when you find the right therapist and treatment plan that works for you!