I think I am some sort of uncontrollable monster
You really think you're a monster?
Yes, I think my anger destroys everything in my way.
You need to practice self-control. If you're struggling, it's best to get help with it. Being so angry will ruin your relationships and opportunities in life.
I am not going to be controlled by counselors, I don't need that shit.
Counselors don't try and control you.  They try and help you!  Go to one and take back control of your life!