I would be really mean to my friends cats growing up and have an urge to torment my girlfriends dog.
Wow are you serious? Does this still go on?
Occasionally, yes.
You seem to be repressing something deep down if you're abusing animals. Even the urges alone tell me you should seek professional help.
I never abused an animal, its not my fault I have this urge. It's just that they are so easily teased with a feather, they can't help it.
You made it sound like you were seriously abusing the animals.  Teasing with a toy is one thing and can still be cruel. It isn't normal for people to urge to abuse animals.