I genuinely hate my brother and I hope he dies
I'm just asking here, but why do you hate your brother?
He tries to control every move I make when around him.
Not liking your brother is a feeling people have from time to time. Wanting someone to die is horrible and full of ill will, and something that might happen one day. Then you will feel so guilty you want to die too.
It's my family. I won't feel guilty.
Don't you want to have a good relationship with your brother? Try working things out with him instead of just wishing he would die. I really think you'll have a hard time getting over it if something were to happen to him.