Some days I have this strange feeling that I'm a ticking time bomb.
That sounds very interesting, why do you feel that way?
I have many weaknesses. I'm relaxed, calm and I never get angry, I have ADHD, I take unmethylated pills for it, I have problems dealing with things.
When you have a lot of problems going on with your health and life in general it's common to feel like a ticking time bomb. You shouldn't be so hard on yourself when evaluating your issues, you should look for someone to talk to and to help better manage your issues. If you continue to just look down on yourself nothing will be fixed and you will progressively become worse.
People never let me forget who I am, I hate them all.
You need to just accept that you have issues, much like everybody else on this planet. You don't have to be so hard on yourself and you are the only person who matters when it comes to you, if you love yourself then who cares what anyone else thinks?