I'm thinking of "letting" my neighbor sue me
Why would you want that?
I hope the process will cost me a lot and I hope this will make me even more depressed
It sounds like you're feeling pretty bad. Have you considered therapy?
No, therapy is for losers and I will definitely kill myself if I go to therapy
You might be pleasantly surprised at how much can be done to help with your depression. Maybe you should give therapy a chance. Think about how happy you will be when you are able to overcome all of the negative feelings.