I keep making myself throw up because of my abusive stepdad and now I turn to it whenever I have an excuse for it.
What are you doing to stop forcing yourself to throw up?
I've been watching a lot of videos on YouTube about getting over your struggle after an abusive past.
It's sad that you had an abusive past but you should not have unhealthy coping mechanisms that hurt you. Find a healthier way to deal with your struggle.
It is not so easy. I don't think you understand how much of a past I've had.
I am sorry for not understanding what you are going through but I am just worried that you are hurting yourself using those coping mechanisms. You need to seek better ways maybe a professional.