I hate myself for still loving my ex, and I can't stop.
What's happened to make you feel that way?
He hurt me and i couldn't forgive him but I still love him and it's eating me up inside.
I'm so sorry that he hurt you. If you really feel that you hate yourself because you still love him getting some profession help would probably do a lot of good. It'll help you deal with those feelings and feel better about yourself.
I don't want to feel better about myself. I like how I feel right now.
It's really unhealthy to decide you don't deserve to feel better. Everyone deserves to feel good. A therapist would really be helpful in this situation.