On the outside I look healthy and thin but I have been battling EDNOS for 10 years, it has messed me up.
What is ednos? Tell me more about it.
Health issues = not eating. Eating problems = bad self esteem, left with feeling guilty about life.
It is not good to have a negative view of your self. You should seek professional help for your situation.
It's beyond help, but I am not going to kill myself.
Just because you've had it for a decade, doesn't mean it's irreversible! I believe you do have the willpower within you to try and overcome this eating disorder, and you deserve to be free from it. How about contacting a nutritionist and a therapist to work together?