I'm thinking of my boyfriend abusing me
How does your boyfriend abuse you?
It's because I fell in love with him and it all started when I was drunk that I allowed him to take me.
A relationship is based on trust and you can't trust your boyfriend to keep you safe if he's abusing you. Talk to someone about breaking out of this toxic relationship for you own good.
I don't want to, it's fun to get abused. He has control over me.
You should never enjoy being abused, that's just wrong. You need to break away from this toxic relationship asap.