I feel sometimes like I'm fooling everyone but me.
Why do you feel that way?
I just mean that I'm getting away with things that others can't see.
It is wrong to try to fool other people.  Since you recognize that you are deceiving them, you should start to be honest with them, just as you are being with yourself.
I'm not doing it because I want to trick people.
So why are you doing it? You need to let people know that they are being deceived if that is what is happening, or else you are technically tricking them regardless of if you want to or not.