For some reason, I often think about standing infront of a speeding semi.
Wait, why would you want to do that? Is there something you need to tell me?
I want to end it all, it's just too much to pain to live with every day.
If you're having suicidal thought you should immediately seek help. Talk to your family and friends, go to therapist. It will help you for sure.
I don't see a point anymore. I think I'll mark my calendar to end it soon.
This is a dangerous mindset to continue to hold, people will help you if you reach out. You should really try talking to someone to figure out you why you are having these extreme thoughts and why they're happening at all.