I'm finding it a struggle just to keep on living.
This sounds serious. What has you feeling so down?
Everything.
It sounds like you are feeling very overwhelmed. There's nothing wrong with feeling like that, but you should talk to a mental health professional. They can help you work through this and get more control over your life.
Maybe, but I hate talking to people about my problems.
I understand it can be difficult to open up with people about your emotions and your problems, but that's what psychiatrists are there for. They just want to help and won't judge you for what you tell them. They will just listen and help you work through your issues to make you feel better!