I deeply resent my family. It gnaws at me everyday.
Why does your family resentment gnaw on you?
My family has been ignoring me lately
If you feel ignored then you should talk to them about this. They probably didn't realize they were ignoring you.
I know it's my fault. I don't want to talk to them about this
It's understandable to not feel comfortable to talk about it, but if you just have an honest conversation with your family I'm sure you will understand the situation better.