I'm crippled, broken and I don't know how long I will manage before I snap and end myself
Why do you think you'll end yourself?
I feel less stress with the idea of suicide.
I'm sorry you're going through such horrible things, but your life is worth living. Everyone you love will miss you when you're gone, so you should immediately get help at a hospital or a hotline.
Nah, I'm broken, it's just a matter of time before i snap. I'm living a painful life.
Please don't do anything that you might regret later. You must have friends and family that will be devastated if you are gone. Think of how much better you will feel when you get the right help.