I'm scared of reality and don't want to deal with life without hiding behind something
Why are you scared of reality?
I'm scared to face how much I suck.
We all have our fears, but they shouldn't be this irrational and get the better of us. You need to muster up the courage and face things head on. You will never get anywhere and will never grow if you just keep running and running away.
Go away now I am not going to talk about it any more.
Problems are scary and you should approach them carefully but never run away from things. This can make things worse in the long run.