I'm so utterly lazy and it scares me to death
What scares you about your laziness?
I'm afraid that I'll get so lazy I won't wake up from bed.
We can all be a bit lazy sometimes, and there's nothing wrong with it now and then. However, if your laziness is so severe that you're concerned you won't get out of bed in the morning, then you should make an effort to fix it. Laziness is something that is in your control, but if you make a habit of being lazy then it can be hard to break.
Yeah I was just thinking about that.
I'm glad you got to finally realize your faults, and it's never too late to try and remedy that! Your parents would absolutely love it as well, because your life is more than just sleeping away.