I'm afraid I'm in my own truman show
What do you mean you feel like you are in your own Truman show?
I don't want to be inside this cage with people monitoring me all the time. I want to have my freedom
It's hard to feel like people are watching you, but being paranoid about it when there is no good reason is destructive. Allowing your own paranoid projections to sway you will drive you crazy.
I don't have a choice...
You do have a choice though. You can tell yourself that you are being paranoid and then do what you need to do to get out of that state of mind.