I'm not fun to be around and I'm stuck in a vicious cycle of loneliness
How does this make you feel?
I feel bad about my personality.
Not everybody has to be the life of the party but you shouldn't be a downer either. People will want to avoid you.
I mean, I don't think I'm negative all the time, if anything I'm kind of positive now...but I still need to work on that.
It is good you are trying to work it out. Maybe if you spend time with people you actually enjoy, you won't be such a downer.