I want to clarify about my first post about racism. It is targeted towards me only and I am vocal about things about me only.
What was the reason for your clarification?
Because I'm only kind of racist towards myself, not other people.
Being racist and accepting racism is always wrong no matter how small it may seem. If you feel like you are only racist towards yourself, you are actually still going to be racist against other people of the same race as you. So I would recommend you think very hard about what racist thoughts you may have and seek help on combating those thoughts out of your mind.
Okay and I already did, thank you.
That's a wise decision. You should get some counseling as to why you wanted to accept racism.