I masturbated on camera to someone I've never seen
What were you thinking?
I was high on camera, I wish I hadn't done it... It was dumb.
Next time, you need to make sure that you really want to do that. You should not take pictures or videos like that if you think that there is even a small chance that you'll regret them later.
At least I'm getting a lot of money per video I make.
Even if you made money off these sexual acts on camera, it is not worth putting yourself in a vulnerable position. Think about how your family will react if they find out that you have been engaging in questionable sexual practices.