I have to say that I miss my depression.
Why would you miss being depressed?
It made others feel sorry for me.
It seems that you like getting special attention. But being ill is not a good reason for that attention. You should work on improving current skills or developing new ones instead.
But people focused on me all the time and I felt loved because of it.
I'm just trying to say it's not fair to wish you still had depression, it's an unfortunate disorder that many people wish they never had. Why don't you try shaking up your attitude a bit to be more positive?