I'm obsessed with attention
Why do you crave attention?
I don't like being all alone... and I hate the idea of losing the attention
Be obsessed with anything, especially attention, is unhealthy, and you'll never be able to get as much as you want at all times. You should work on developing your self-esteem and loving yourself so you aren't reliant on what others think of you and you can still be comfortable being alone.
Maybe you're right but at least if people are talking about me I won't feel so isolated.
Being dependent on getting attention -- any attention -- can take you down some pretty dark and destructive paths. Better to decide who you are and what you want, and work to excel at your inclinations and aptitudes.