I feel so lonely that sometimes I miss the abusive relationship I was in. Is that normal?
Why would you miss a realationship that was abusive?
It wasn't all bad. Sometimes my ex would be nice to me.
It is understandable to feel lonely, especially if you are used to being in a relationship. However, you should never go back to an abusive ex. It is better to be lonely than abused.
I still want to feel loved so I want an abusive boyfriend.
You can find a boyfriend who doesn't do that to you. You need to have more self confidence and avoid abusive relationships.