They trolled me my entire life.
What do you mean by trolled?
I don't know, but they've done it my whole life and laugh about it.
If people you know are intentionally mean to you and have been mean to you your entire life, you shouldn't still associate with them. Talking with people who are rude to you all the time will just damage your mental health. You should find new people who treat you nicely.
I just want to hurt them and hurt their lives. They deserve it after all they have done to me.
It's best just to start fresh and severe your contact with those kind of people. It will be easier for you to get on with your life.