Did I tell you I want a divorce from my husband but don't know how to tell him+
What's holding you back from telling him?
I want to break up with him but I don't want to deal with the consequences.
You sound conflicted. Before making a rash decision, you might consider therapy or even couples counseling.
I not sure I want to break up, I still love him and we are not that bad. Yet I feel I'm missing something out there.
From the way you're talking, you definitely need to put the brakes on. Make sure what or you want, one way or the other. Otherwise you could regret it for the rest of your life.