I'm a horrible human being that is stuck in a reality I don't want
How does that make you a horrible person?
Because I'm too lazy to live in this world. I don't fit in.
You should be proud of yourself for admitting that this is an issue. Consider getting therapy to help you more connected to this reality and help you be more motivated.
Therapy is for losers. I don't need that.
There is nothing wrong with talking to someone, especially not a therapist, about issues that are troubling you.  You were okay with coming here to let me know how you felt, so why should a therapist be any different?  They will be able to help you find the motivation to live a better life.