I think about the life around me without me in it
What is the reason why you think about something like this?
I always think about what I'm missing out in my life
I understand that is can be interesting to know what it's like if you were never born, but you still should be proud that you are here. You make a difference in the world and you shouldn't wish you weren't there. People love you and want you here.
<Not an exact transcript> Why do you have to be so defensive, my thoughts happened and that is that. I fit better that way.
If you find that you are having thoughts about your life without you in it than you may want to examine why. There are people who love you and want you here, so understand that these thoughts are not true. Do not beat yourself for having thoughts like these however!