Do I have to say how I was in a cult at 17? I was.
You were in what? How did you feel when you were in the cult?
I envied other peers who were members of the cult, because they are really talented. I wanted to be their friend.
It is dangerous to be in a cult, as these people will take advantage of you, and get you to take advantage of others.  However, this was not your fault.  They deceived you into following them, and it is good that you were able to get away.
I miss the cult.
Cults and their members and leaders have no good intentions. They are quite the opposite, and want to control your mind. It is better just to not miss them and move on to better things.