How about I cut for the very first time? I am very nervous.
Are you joking? Why have you decided to start cutting?
I've heard so many things about what it's like to cut, so I took the decision to experience it myself
Please do not cut just for the sake of curiosity, you'll get a lot of scars you can't remove and you might even kill yourself. If you want to self harm please talk to a professional to work out your mental health.
I just miss my mother so much and that's why I want to do it.
You should not harm or cut yourself FOR your Mother, because she would never want you to do this. While you may feel down right now, things can always get better and you need to give life a chance.