I feel something towards my abusive ex-fiancee while dating ms. almost-perfect
Why are you still thinking about your ex?
I love the young perfect version of her as a person
It sounds like you're holding on to something that isn't real or exist any longer. It's good to be realistic and to see people for who they are now. It sounds like your current relationship is pretty great, so why not focus on that and see how it goes?
I will try
Nobody is perfect and all you can do is try.