Being the only one not seriously hurt in this accident has been awful
Why'd you say that?
It's too upsetting to be next to them for this long.
It sounds like you are going through some things. It is not good to wish harm on yourself.
I always wear a helmet and they refused to wear them.
It can be overwhelming being the only person not seriously hurt in an accident. You took safety precautions that they didn't take and that will stay with you. Talk to someone about what you're going through, it will help!