I don't want to meet my 'son'
Why wouldn't you want to meet your own son?
He is the product of a rape and I hate rapists.
He may be a product of rape, but he is still your child. You should meet him since he is your blood.
I don't care. I only care about how he is going to destroy my life and make me look like a bad person.
I can understand your feelings. It is uncommon though for a parent to not want to meet their child. He is not like his father, so it might do you good to meet him.