I'm an emotional wreck and I have no clue what direction I'm going in life
What you think caused you life to be a wreck?
Some shit in my past I can't get over.
Sometimes it is hard to deal with things that have happened in the past but it is not good to let it get to you so that you are a emotional wreck. It is better to deal with things so that you have more control over your emotions.
Dealing with them doesn't make sense to me. What has happened, has happened.
You should le your past dictate your life. You need to overcome it and move on in a healthy direction with your life.