I wish I was hot enough
Why do you think you aren't hot enough?
It's confusing, sorry.
I'm not sure what you mean by that, but I can say that it is normal to have concerns about your physical appearance.  But it isn't good to think that you aren't attractive enough as that has nothing to do with your worth as a person. If you have consistent negative thoughts about your appearance, then perhaps speaking with a therapist can help you become more accepting of your appearance.
Sorry, I need to come clean. I actually think I'm pretty hot.
Well in that case, I can see that you clearly don't lack confidence.  However, the kinds of statements that you are making are very self-centered, and they will likely drive others away regardless of your physical attractiveness.  Remember that even good looks aren't everything.