I hate my identity
Why do you hate your identity?
My emotional side upsets me sometimes.
Although being unhappy with yourself is not uncommon, it isn't healthy to feel self-hate. If you don't like who you are, it is a good idea to find a therapist to talk to; they can help you work through your feelings in a healthy way.
It's my identity, I can do whatever I want to.
I get that, but if you are struggling you should not feel shame for wanting help.  You should feel free to make your own choices. Would you like to explain some of these emotional problems you have?