I watched helplessly as my son slowly died following a household accident
Oh my god, I'm so sorry for your loss. That must've been horrifically painful.
There are no words.
If you need to talk to someone about the death of your child, an internet stranger is not the best choice. Finding a good therapist who can help you work through your feelings of grief and guilt would be a much better option.
Thank you for the advice. I just might do that.
It can't hurt. I can't imagine the pain caused by your loss.