I harbor malevolent feelings and energy towards humanity
Okay, but why do you think you're harboring malevolent feelings and energy?
I just want to make people seem like I am here to fix people with my fixer-upper attitude but in fact I am not really.
You should do your best to love your fellow man. There is no reason to just harbor malevolent feelings towards humanity because you haven't met all of humanity. You should try to judge each person as an individual.
Maybe....but I think my mind is sick like a tulip's bulb.
Well, I think you know you're being malicious and I feel like that's a good step. I think being honest and loving will make you end up having a more positive outlook and life and will generally make your life for the better, instead of trying to be malevolent where people may avoid you and keep from having a meaningful conversation with you.