I think I'm ready to end my life
Do you want to end your life because you're not happy?
I want to so I could be happy
I'm sorry you're feeling so miserable, but you can't stop living. Life is worth it in the end, and you only have one shot. You will miss out on lots of great things, and you need to speak with a professional to get out of this rut.
I don't think professionals would make me happy.
Not directly but they could find you the right therapist and medication to make you happy. It would just take some time.