I'm going to intentionally stop struggling in the water to stay afloat so I can sink to the bottom of the river
I'm surprised to hear you say something like that. Why do you want to do that?
I want to die.
I'm sorry that you're feeling that way, but I don't think you should take your own life. If you're struggling I think you should talk to a mental health professional right away, because they're capable of helping you to feel better.
I'm fine with it and also I hate my life. Nobody loves me and I have nothing to care about.
I understand how you're feeling, but I don't believe that no one loves you. I'm sure many people do. I really think you should remove yourself from the dangerous situation you're in, and talk to a therapist about how you're feeling.