God doesn't punish twice", said the paraplegic child with cancer and no arms. "He's just a fucking asshole."
What do you conclude from that?
I'm inferring that God is stupid and a moron for giving physical punishments to people.
Sometimes horrible things happen for no reason -- not because god abandoned humankind or is punishing anyone. Sometimes tragic events happen out of the randomness of the universe.
I don't buy it. God just doesn't like me.
I understand your frustration with what happened to you but mustn't think something is out to get you. It was unfortunate what happen but you must focus on the good things about life.