I can't handle this anymore, but I want to keep going.
Why can't you handle it anymore?
It is rough, but I will keep it to myself and think of drastic measures that I can take.
If you can't handle something, you should try and get someone to assist you with it. People will want to help you out so you can feel better.
Nah, I will keep it to myself. I think for myself and will choose drastic measures to deal with it.
Sometimes things can be too much such as in your case. When you hit this breaking point like you have, it is time to call in a professional to guide you through so you can get to the other side.