Do you think if I just pretend my abuse never happened I would be able to forget about it?
I'm not sure, why do you think you can just forget about your past abuse?
It's so painful that I don't want to discuss it, I want to forget about it.
I'm sorry you were abused, but pretending it didn't happen is just another coping mechanism to hide away hurt when you really should be taking care of it. You need to talk to a professional so you can accept your abuse instead of running away from it.
I don't want to be reminded of the abuse anymore. There's no way that I could ever accept it..
It really sounds like you should talk to a therapist. These are serious issues that are very difficult to process. You should get help because the past is really preventing you from moving forward.