I've talked to so many pedophiles online. Honestly I don't hate them. Nor am I disappointed or disgusted in them. I hate myself and disappointed and disgusted in me
Why do you hate yourself? Pedophiles are much worse.
I thought I might be their type but none of them seem to be interested in me.
While it's fine to try to understand the thought process of pedophiles, I think you need to be very careful about them because they have the potential to do very harmful things. Even though they might have some good in them, they are still dangerous.
Yes, but they have never hurt me before.
I think you might be setting yourself up for potential trouble, because it can happen to anyone. Why not try volunteering for a watchdog group, or seek a therapist to figure out why you like doing this?