Is it okay that I resent my husband when he deploys?
Is there a reason for this resentment?
I guess that's gonna be an endless list of reasons I'm angry with him.
You shouldn't hate your spouse for them doing their job. Have you thought about talking to him about it?
Why should I talk to him about it. He would never understand.
In that case, do you have a support system? You're going through something very difficult, every time he deploys, and having complicated feelings about that is normal. Other military wives very likely would understand your feelings, because they're going through the same thing you are, or you might consider a therapist, as a safe space to vent and work through your feelings.