I think my ex has a tough life and I'm doing pretty well but karma should be the other way round.
Why do you think he has a tough life?
His penis doesn't work and he is an alcoholic.
Instead of feeling consumed by thoughts of your ex, you should find a more positive outlet to keep busy. Moving on from your past relationship would be the most healthy thing to do for yourself.
That is only because he has a SPA, that's why I think he should feel good about it. I cheated on him, he can't trust anyone.
I feel like you're being a little obsessive about him, which is unhealthy. You should just let the past stay in the past.