I miss my abuser and his abuse
Why? How were you treated by your abuser?
He treated me awful but my brain is now trying to tell me that I miss him
You should be happy when you escape an abuser. It's not right that you would actually miss him.
I'm saying that there are things prevalent in the world that people shouldn't miss such as war and abuse. I have a unique perspective.
I agree that you may have a unique perspective, but as you have said, he has treated you awfully and you were abused, so it is not healthy for you to think that you miss him. I do suggest that you book a therapist so that they can help you manage your feelings. In the meantime, try to be with someone who truly loves you like your parents or partner, so that you won't feel that way.