I remember my first time having sex. I was so nervous that my hands shook, and my palms were sweaty. Of course, it was the first time I'd held anyone at gunpoint too.
What? Are you saying you raped someone at gun point?
I think your knowledge of my behavior is a bit too much. I merely said I had sex for the first time because I held a gun to a woman's head.
What you did was completely immoral and you need to face the reality of the situation. You should consider turning yourself in and confessing to what you have done.
Well it's not like I was traumatized by the whole thing or something
You caused severe trauma to the person you violated and this act will continue to haunt you until you make it right. Turn yourself in and confess your wrong doings. You can't fix what you've done, but you can still ask for forgiveness.