I sometimes intentionally starve myself to satisfy my depression.
Starving yourself satisfies your depression? How so? It sounds pretty dangerous.
I hope that I won't feel depressed anymore and I can feel happy
Depression is a really horrible thing to bear. Starving yourself will only make it worse, it is not going to satisfy anything in your body. Starving makes your body shut down after awhile.
It's working fine for me and I want to not get depressed, I'm starving myself to death.
Have you tried reaching out to other people for help? It's okay if you want to seek a therapist to help you improve your mental health. What you are saying troubles me, and I can't just ignore it because you are so important to me.