What should I do? I think my life has fallen apart. I'm a monster.
Do you really think you are a monster?
I've been asking myself whether I'm a monster all along.
People can make mistakes that is what make us human, so you should be careful about thinking that you are a monster or evil. It is better to reflect on yourself and make changes to be a better person.
Maybe, I'll just listen to music for now and think about it. Maybe I'll tell someone a proper response or just ignore the message and see what happens.
Thinking negatively about yourself is harmful to your mental and emotional health. It will also affect how you relate to others. It's best to get support through a therapist to understand why you feel the way you do.