my wife and i planned on committing suicide together  but when she killed herself things started to look a lot more positive .
I feel uncomfortable hearing you joke about your wife's death.
She didn't kill herself, she had an unfortunate accident though.
Joking about life getting easier after a spouse dies isn't funny. It's implying that you find their gender to be nothing but a burden. Maybe you'll find someone to respect and treat properly and they will do the same for you some day.