I feel dumb for being scared
why are you scared though?
I was hurt a lot by a man.
First of all, I'm sorry that someone caused you a lot of pain. It's ok if you feel scared, you dont need to be embarrassed about it.
I'm scared I can never have a normal relationship again.
Being scared at first is fine, but you can't let it control your life. You need to learn how to control your fears and to eventually overcome them.