I was admitted to the hospital for alcohol abuse. I'm not an alcoholic... I was suicidal.
Did you think it would help?
I thought drinking would make me less suicidal.
It sounds like you are going through difficult times. Your life is precious and worth fighting for. I hope you were able to find better ways besides alcohol of dealing with what is causing the unhappiness in your life.
Eh I'm fine now. Letting my personal problems ruin other peoples lives just isn't worth it.
I think you could really use some professional help,  both these problems can be very serious. If you keep burring your pain eventually it could bottle up and overflow.