If the military rejected me, I was planning on hanging myself, back in 2013.
That's horrible. Why did you plan on hanging yourself?
I couldn't get any other job, if the military rejected me I had nothing.
That's extreme. You shouldn't hang yourself period, and society tends to massively overvalue jobs.
I can't live in a world without a job. It is difficult out there.
It is difficult but there are so many social programs out there to help people who are struggling. They even help people with want to kill themselves. In the future please seek help instead of hanging yourself, there might be something out there for you so that you don't have to resort to that.