I stabbed a kid in 12th grade because I was attracted to him
Why were you attracted to him? Why hurt someone you are attracted to?
I was attracted to him because he was charismatic and exuded power. I wanted to take away his power from him by putting him into a vulnerable state by stabbing him.
Stabbing someone is wrong, especially if you are attracted to them. Hurting someone will not give you their power. You must get help for how to deal with your feelings.
Nah I'm good.
I'm just trying to tell you that it's not normal to think you will gain powers by hurting someone. Why not think of this person, how did they feel when they got stabbed by someone thinking that? Hurting someone is bad no matter what, so I think it's best to try to talk to a therapist.