I went from having suicidal thoughts to thinking about hurting others
Have you already hurt someone?
No, no. I didn't commit the crime..yet
I'm glad you're no longer suicidal, but what you're doing is just a turn in the opposite but still wrong direction. You shouldn't hurt others especially for no reason, and you could spend your days in jail. Is that really worth it to you?
I can't deal with this on my own.
Well if you feel like you can't deal with these thoughts on your own then maybe seek professional help. They can help put you in a better mindset.