I wasn't just being modest. I just hated myself in a way and was embarrassed.
Are you struggling now? Is this modesty issue from the past?
I think it comes from losing the love of my life
You shouldn't be too hard on yourself. You can still be modest without losing your self esteem over a relationship. There are many more loves out there only if you would just feel free to look around.
Haha, I haven't looked as of now but I do agree loving myself is probably a good thing.
I'm happy to hear you've learned to love yourself. That's a great first step to finding happiness.