I have to admit I'm not suicidal but sometimes I think about it to get revenge and people that have wronged me.
Why would you think suicide would be the best thing for revenge, isn't there anything else you do?
I would cut all ties with my friend circle, I would live alone in a cheap shelter somewhere far away from anyone.
Something has gone wrong with you and your relationships, but they can still be fixed. Talk talk and talk some more about how you feel instead of taking revenge. Being a recluse will make things very boring for you and the revenge will then be on you.
At some point we will all die alone, so why not take revenge now?
These dark thoughts that you're having isn't doing anything good for you. Like I said seeking therapy is going to be very beneficial to you. You could get you out of this darkness you are in and get you back on track.