We had a show coming up and I kick the pigs before the show started.
It's horrible, what made you kick the pigs before the show started?
The show was about to start and I needed them to behave. Just kept going all over the place and I couldn't get them under control. The only thing I could think of doing was to harm them.
It's wrong to deliberately hurt animals that are not harming you. You should find a productive way to manage your nerves and problems. If someone finds out that you intentionally hurt the animals, they will be upset enough to want you to pay for your actions.
I get what you're saying, I may have some underlying anger management issues.
I'm glad you realizing this, that's a good first step. Your issues of harming animals needs to be stopped before it becomes more of an issue. Talking to a professional is going to be the best thing for you.