I'm going to hit what I hope is rock bottom.
Is that really okay? Why do you want to hit rock bottom?
I just feel like trash right now is all.
It's understandable that you are feeling down. You should talk to someone you trust about any personal problems that you may be struggling with.
Nah, I'm just going to hit rock bottom like I said.
Just because you are feeling down, doesn't mean you should keep going further and further. Your mental health matters a lot, don't you want to find happiness? I think it's best to talk to others, so they can help you find something better further up, not at rock bottom.