I feel like not wearing a seat belt when my dad drives recklessly so we get into a wreck and have him feel guilty. of killing me
Why would you take such a risk of dying?
I want to get his shit together, I've been begging him for years but nothing changes
I'm sorry that your dad refuses to change, but your life is not worth this. You shouldn't have to get yourself killed to wake up your father, there are better ways instead of dying.
I've made my peace.
That peace should be place on something important or productive. Just don't ride with your dad when he is not willing to change his driving.