I'm married for 12 years but I still think about my first love
Did you really love them or was it really just lust?
I was in love back then but I was just 17.
12 years is a long time to obsess over someone. You should move on. It's not healthy thinking about someone who isn't in your life anymore.
I'm going go online and find other teenagers so I can have sex with them.
It's illegal and unethical to entice minors into sex. If you want to stay out of legal trouble and save your marriage you should not do it. You better seek some professional help to sort out your feelings.