I'm thinking of that moment when you catch yourself acting like the person you hate and you just deflate a little
Is this how you feel all the time.
No it's not, but I just caught myself slamming my head against the wall.
I don't think you should be so hard on yourself. It is good to recognize patterns and try to correct them.
I agree but it's also necessary to take a stand and be authentic once in a while.
Yeah, it is very good to be authentic and tell people how you feel when you are frustrated. I think it is good to do things in moderation and keep realistic expectations so you don't get too hard on yourself.