What are your thoughts on me wishing my brother was never born?
Why do you harbor so much animus towards him?
He is the only person who can prevent me from being happy. There would be no problem if he was not born.
No one can prevent you from achieving happiness unless you give them the power to do so. You need to concentrate on your own life and stop blaming others for how you feel.
He and my father shows me little respect. It's hard to get experience if no one respects you.
It's important to remember that happiness comes from within you, not from someone else. If your relationship with your father and your brother is strained, you can try to rebuild the bond between you all. This would be better than just wishing your brother didn't exist.