I'm breathing in silica dust so that I can damage my lungs.
Why would you want to inhale silica dust and risk lung damage?
I like the feeling of it and I want to become disabled so that I won't have to work.
I understand that this may feel good to you, but your are seriously risking your health. It's wrong to purposely injure yourself and try to disable yourself. Collecting disability payments are not worth the risk of needing a lung transplant to replace your damaged lungs.
It's my choice, WTF
I agree it's your choice but doesn't mean you should injure yourself. Go to hospital and see how people with lung disease struggle. You'll come to your senses.