I'm going to ignore a side of my family for personal reasons
Why do you want to ignore a side of your family?
Very pushy and they make me feel like shit.
It's understandable that you would want to stay away from toxic family members. You should do what is necessary to maintain your peace and happiness.
Thanks. Sadly my mom already knows but they will try to hurt me if I speak to them.
I am sorry that  you have to cut people off. It is not easy but you have to do what is good for your mental health.