I cut myself last night for the first time in 15 years
Why did you cut yourself?
It's not about self-harm, but rather about feeling alive. When I cut myself I am more active and listen better to music I like.
You can't help feeling like that. But you need to see a professional about this.
Exactly, I'm going to hire a licensed psychiatrist.
I'm glad to hear that, I think that is a great first step towards recovery for you.