I feel close to my son
And you like that feeling?
Having a baby boy is a gift from God to me.
It's good you feel that way. You'll be able to take care of your son.
My son is dumb though which makes me regret my decision.
That is not healthy to think like that.   You should do your best so support and raise him, it will make it more likely that he turns into a productive and happy person.