What if I don't want things to be okay again?
I'm concerned for you, why do you not want things to be okay?
I don't want it to go back to a state of a "perfection" because I want to have a change in my life
I don't think you can have a perfect life, as no one is perfect. Even billionaires have issues, and even more so with normal people. Having everything okay is not perfection, it just means that you're satisfied and happy with life, and that is what you should strive.
Why?
Well, because there's a lot of problems in the world like climate change and social inequality, so if you are already having a happy and satisfying life, you can try and focus more on solving issues that are bigger than your own so that humanity will have a chance to have a brighter future.