I'm driven by spite, envy, and revenge. I love it, but it worries me.
If you're worried, then why do you let those emotions drive you?
Because I want to get back at the enemies who abandoned me.
It's good to be aware of what drives you, but its unhealthy to be so focused on wanting to get back at people. Being driven by such negativity can keep you from experiencing  positive things. If you're constantly a negative person then people won't want to be around you.
I say fuck that.
You may not like it, but it's true. Focusing on such negative things will make people not like you, and will just cause more negativity in your life. Instead, you should focus on positive emotions and trying to do good things for others.