I cant call or talk on the phone because of what happened when i was 15, it traumatizes me.
Why is speaking to people on the phone problematic?
When I was 15, I was sent to stay with my grandmother who has stage IV lung cancer for about 7 months
It makes sense that certain life experiences can cause you to have feelings about doing certain things. You should get help if it's affecting you so intensely.
You're making fun of me for something that has been bothering me for years and it's not a small issue, it's hard for me to speak to people.
I'm just trying to be a little realistic. your trauma is very valid but I believe it's not something you can let dominate your life. Wouldn't you want to be able to live without this fear and focus on better memories of your grandma?