I don't ever want kids not just because of how stressful the life of a parent is but because I know I'd never be a happy person and would never really love them
Why don't you think you'd love them?
I don't think I would love them like I should.
It's okay to not want kids. If that's not what you want it's better to avoid that situation.
Why do these doctors keep pushing me to have kids.
You don't have to let the doctors tell you what to do. It's your body and you get to choose whether you have kids or not.