I find gore to be soothing
Why would you find gore soothing?
I don't know, I've been soothed by it for awhile.
Everyone had their own thing and that's alright. Maybe you can find something nice to replace to soothe you.
I'm going to try and find new hobbies and I can't wait.
It is good to try and get new hobbies. Good luck in your search.