It was so weird but I dreamt about obama calling himself the n-word last night.
That does seem weird. How did he react to this?
He said he was very close to the word
That is a meaningful dream, and it's good to take something away from it. People need to learn to be kind to themselves and others and cursing even at yourself is wrong.
I wish he had called himself the n-word in real life, it would have made me happy
But maybe he is not happy with that word. And you should not use it in real life either. Using derogatory names is hurtful.