When i drink it is to escape from the reality around me and reduce my stress.
How do you feel when you drink?
It just makes me feel more calm and I tend to not worry about my problems anymore.
You're not going to be able to escape reality by drinking forever. Stop drinking and face reality before your drinking gets you into trouble.
I'll drink until I'm numb to the stress.
There are many other things you can do to relieve your stress aside from drinking. Drinking from this reason is going to cause you to develop a habit of drinking, and this will lead to addiction.