I never want to wake up again.
Why do you feel that way?
Because life does not look that bright and I'm starting to be afraid of my own existence.
You should see a therapist if you feel that way. It sounds like you might be depressed and you could use some help.
Wtf I'm happy, I'm sure I'm not depressed.
I doubt that given what you just said. You should seek professional help to deal with these feelings.