What do you think about me being the epitome of what men believe women are and I can't stop?
What's making you want to stop?
I think it's the pressure to do so
I think rather than shallowly believing in your own outward beauty, you should cultivate a little more inward beauty instead.  Being superficial is never a good look.  You'll have more meaningful relationships by having a beautiful soul rather than just a beautiful face.
I don't know. I don't even know if I have the potential to achieve it.
You shouldn't care so much about being superficial, because it probably makes you come across as mean. You need to care about yourself, but also understand that achieving perfection is silly.