I laid the 6 month old baby beneath the pillow
I hope you are joking! Why would you put the baby under the pillow?
I think he can't breathe and that's why he was crying and actually no one wants the baby. The baby is getting in the way of my relationship and I have been under a lot of pressure from other people due to this baby.
You should not put a baby under a pillow, it can suffocate. You have an obligation to take care of the baby.
You're not understanding that the baby is getting in the way and I was only putting it for a second.
I think you might need to see your doctor for help with your depression. It's bad to let your kids sleep in a position where they might suffocate. The way you are feeling might be cause for more help.