I've always been a shame to my parents. I always feel the urge to pray for my father's misfortune on a daily basis.
Why would you feel the need to pray for your father's misfortune?
Because it seems to be the only thing my father does right in life is providing for us
If you father provides for you, you should be grateful for that. There is no reason to pray for his misfortune daily.
Oh, you don't know what my father did.
I'd like to know more, but from the information I'm currently getting from you is that he is a provider. If you're having other issues may be family counseling would be good for you and your father