Sometimes I have random thoughts of running out of school.
What would happen if you did that?
I would get expelled and lose my scholarships.
Do not run out of school. It can be hard, but losing scholarships and being expelled is not worth it. If you need help, talk to a teacher.
I may be close to the breaking point.
Do not do it. There are resources in school to help you learn more and succeed. It is better to tough it out.