I've been a cuckold as long as I can remember, so I'm used to it now.
Why do you think you decided to be a cuckold and where did this start?
My father use to beat me physically and make me feel like I'm physically weak like a cuck
Being a cuckold is by choice is fine but it seems more like you're this way because of what your father did to you as a child. A parent should never want to harm their child or demean them in such a way that they feel weak and helpless. I hope you're able to move past what your father did to you.
I'm a bad ass mother fucker and I have no problems. Like I said, I am okay with being a cuckold.
This bad ass attitude again seems like an act that hides the issues you have with your father. Your being a cuckold isn't really a choice here and you need to speak to a professional about it.