I love the suffering of abusive people
What makes you happy about all the suffering?
They feel like it's okay to hurt you, but not them.
It's understandable that you would want to see an abuser struggle. This may be your way of receiving justice.
Wrong, I'm hoping they kill themselves.
That is a little harsh. I get that you want to see an abuser have a rough time, but I do think that it is wrong to wish death on them.