I keep getting in car crashes. I'm so reckless and suicidal I don't care anymore.
Were you the only one involved in the accidents?
No, many of my friends are also in car accidents
I think they're a danger to others and you should probably stop driving for now. Whatever is troubling you is causing you to endanger yourself and others. Wait till you're healthier before driving again.
It's fun it wakes me up.
There are other ways to have fun and wake up that doesn't involve putting your life and the life of other's at risk. If you feel suicidal there are professional health options available.