I didn't know how emotionally numb I've been
How did your emotional numbness come about?
I spent my childhood in an orphanage, my parents abandoned me when they were in their thirties. I did not know how much love I have been missing.
It is good you recognized this problem. Now you can work on getting your emotions back in check with professional health.
I'm still alive, what's the problem.
The problem is there could be things down the road that can impact you negatively because of your lack of emotions. You cannot make connections with others without emtions.