I almost tried to kill my friends in my mind, is that okay to say now?
I hope you aren't serious. What was the reason why you experienced that?
I don't feel like they're there for me anymore, I don't feel their presence of being a friend in my life.
Some people in my life have gone very far away from me and I don't feel their presence in my life anymore as well, but that does not give me justification to murder them. I would rethink my actions moving forward and probably talk to a professional where those violent thoughts are coming from and how to eliminate them in the future before you hurt someone else.
You got it all wrong. I told you I just had a violent thought, but you didn't get that I had no plan.
Violent thought or not, sometimes we tend to act upon them if the feeling is right. Therapy will help you get over them and move on to new friends so the anger can escape you. Anger is unhealthy.