I feel like I don't have any real achievements in my life.
What might be an achievement for you?
It would be to have a wonderful girlfriend.
It's normal to not always get what you want. If you're looking for a win, then maybe set smaller goals.
But I want to win from the start.
If you don't feel like you're achieving anything, then it may be time to set some firm goals. Once you're clear about what you want to achieve, you can detail the small steps that you'll be able to take to reach those goals. If you aren't clear about what you want, then it will be very difficult for you to make progress toward an achievement.