I'm beginning to realize that all of my problems are my own fault
Do you need help from others?
I think I can do better on my on if I just try harder.
When you know you are at fault for a problem, the mature and responsible thing to do is stand up and own up to the mistake, accept the consequences, and be part of the solution. Recognize where you went wrong and be prepared to fully own what you did.
I will give this to you, you are a good inspiration.
I'm glad to hear that you're inspired. Now that you're owning up to your mistakes they should be easy to start correcting.