One day my mom called me into the house because she was worried about me.
Were your parents aware of your ideations and wanted to know what was going on?
They were a little surprised but I didn't say anything.
I'm sorry you're going through very hard times, so your parents know the best for you right now. You shouldn't disobey them, because it might lead you down a dangerous path due to your vulnerability.
I disagree. I can take care of myself, I'm old enough.
I know you think that, but you should listen to what your mom and dad have to say, because they normally know what's best. If you don't listen to them then you might find yourself in more trouble.