I secretly hope that whenever I'm in a relationship I don't want to be in anymore, they cheat on me. Is that weird?
Why would you rather get cheated on?
Because then I'll have a justified reason to break up
I get that you want an easy way out, but being cheated on is a horrible feeling even if you don't want them anymore. Trust me, just being honest and having a mutual break up is much easier.
I guess you're right. I need to break up with them properly.
It's just the right thing to do for you and your partner.