I hate my life and I hate videogames
Which video games are you talking about?
I mean Warcraft, Counterstrike and StarCraft.
Maybe it's time to make some big changes, then. If you're uncertain about those changes, you can always speak with a professional.
I need to make the changes myself. Too many people in my life are experts and they are doing nothing to help me.
Those might not be the right professionals to help you. There are mental health teams who are better suited.