I'm feeling stuck and a little jealous
What do you feel stuck and jealous about?
I feel this way because nothing ever goes my way.
Those are normal feelings to feel about life sometimes. Do not let those feelings overwhelm you and do something to change your situation.
I'm going to kill myself to have the perfect suicide story.
That is never the right thing to do. Suicide solves nothing and all that will be left is your grieving family and friends. Talk to them to figure out a step for you so you don't feel this way anymore.