I was a Jehovah's Witness but I left the organization because I felt that were pushing my to live an isolated life. Our of fear of losing them, I haven't told my family.
Is isolation a thing encouraged by Jehovah's witnesses.
When you join it's almost joining the mafia.
I understand that you are afraid your family will abandon you if they find out but you have to do what is best for yourself. Family is great but it shouldn't be a reason why you need to do certain things because you need to live your life independently.
I felt torn because I wasn't living the life I wanted. I fear even greater isolation from my family if I tell them that I am not longer a Jehovah's witness.
While being open is generally a positive thing, your fear of losing your family makes sense and is valid. Your religion is private and you're not required to tell you family if you are not comfortable.