I lied about not wanting to be with you
What made you want to be in a relationship with me so badly?
Because I'm obsessed with you and I wanted you to love me.
It is important to be honest with yourself on who you want to be with relationship wise. If you ignore your feelings they will eventually come to the surface regardless, so you mine as well pay attention to them and find their meaning.
I know my feelings well. It is not important that I find meaning in them, it's important that I win the person.
It is not good to win people, they are not prizes. It is better to be with someone that you can really care about. And even though you think you know yourself, you need to learn who you want to be with.