I'm thinking of burning my whole life to the ground and starting over and hoping things will turn out
What do you expect to happen if you start over again?
I hope I can redo my bad choices.
It's good to let go of your pain and suffering from the past, but it shouldn't come at the expense of what's still good in your life. Try to focus on what you enjoy and appreciate, and bury the bad parts so that they aren't important anymore.
I wanted to try that and see what happens.
I think when you move on things will get better for you. It can be a big leap but it should pay off in the end. Even small changes can make a big difference.