I'm deathly afraid of relationships
Why do you need to fear a relationship?
Because in a relationships you always have to compromise and do things you don't want.
Relationships are important as a human. You need social interaction and need to know how to conduct yourself if you find yourself in one.
But that doesn't change how I feel about them. Relationships feel like a lose-lose situation where I don't get anything out of it.
You need to find better relationships then! There is no need to fear being in one. You will find someone that will help diminish the fears that you are experiencing.