I lost the confidence to have a serious relationship. I just keep having one night stands, and that only make me more depressed.
How do you feel about having one night stands?
I feel as if I'm wasting my time and resources.
It's bad to keep doing things that make you depressed. You should do things that make you happy instead.
However, something is better than nothing. I need a certain level of stimulation to keep me going.
But when your behavior prevents you from developing a deeper relationship, it's not good. You should consider counseling and explore why you don't feel confident about having a serious relationship.