What do you think about the fact that I lied to my mother when I was 8 and I've always felt bad about it? She passed on 2 years ago and I've never gotten the chance to tell her the truth.
Why did you never tell her the truth?
Because my father was beating me at that time.
I'm sorry that this happened to you. It's normal to feel sad if you weren't able to tell your mom everything you wanted before they passed on. It's not your fault that you didn't tell your mom if your father was beating you. Your father abusing you is what caused these issues, and that's what you should be blaming instead of yourself.
You are right. I should tell my father that I hate him and he was wrong to hit me. I should also talk to my sister, who was my only friend when I was younger.
I understand being angry at your dad for what he did to you since it was a horrible thing to do. If you want to confront him about what he did, do it in a safe way where he can't harm you again. I also think it would be a great thing to talk to your sister, and I'm sure she would appreciate hearing from you!