I'm transphobic about myself and support politics that actively tries to hurt me
Why would you want to support policies that are hurtful to you?
I heard that transgender people should be hated
You should behave more true to who you really are. Be proud of yourself and who you are and don't be ashamed. If you are ashamed then other's will be too.
I'm not ashamed of who I am but those news articles really resonated with my core self.
It sounds like you need professional help if you are okay with yourself but agree with hate speech about yourself. It seems like a psychological tug of war.