I feel suicidal after I cammed with a 15 or 16 year old female.
Are you saying you had relations with a minor?
She made me feel so special, when i was with her, I forgot about everything
I see that you care for her, but it isn't right to get involved with an under aged person if you are an adult. Have you looked to see if there is someone your own age that you'd really hit it off with?
I feel like it's never been this hard to leave my computer alone. I need to reset my brain before I do something terrible again.
It's good that you are feeling remorseful about what happened. It may be helpful for you to talk to a professional if you are having a hard time, especially if you've been having suicidal thoughts.