I wet myself when I have panic attacks
I am sorry to hear that. How come that happens to you.
It relates to the past and from the physical abuse I suffered as a child
You need to see a doctor regarding your accidents. It is not normal to have accidents even during a panic attack. Seek counseling for your issues with past abuse.
I can deal with this on my own.
You should not deal with this on your own. It is better to let a professional assist you, as they can shed light on things you may not know.