I sometimes when I close my eyes at night I hope that I don't wake up in the morning.
Why do you wish not to wake up?
I feel like my life is a waste.
If you really wish you were dead, you should seek some professional help for suicide. Otherwise you might continue to be depressed for a long time.
Suicide is for losers. I'm alive and I'm going to continue to exist.
I'm glad you're wanting to live. But having these ideas that you feel like your life is wasteful is very detrimental to your health. I would highly recommend seeking professional help, this'll get you back on track.