Should I try to meet my dad who abused my mom?
How do you feel about him?
I have strong feelings toward him.
It is wrong what he did to your mom. It is understandable to want to get to know your father.
I want to sick a dog on him and make him run for his life.
I am sorry for how your dad treated your mom, but having a personal vendetta won't change what has happened. If you find and meet your dad, you should prove that you are the better man and scold them on their actions instead of using violence.