What if never have a husband who will not cheat on me?
Are you joking? What makes you think that?
I can't seem to find anyone that I can trust.
I'm sorry these things have happened to you. It's not acceptable to stay with men who disrespect you and your marriage. You may not have found the right one, so you should spend more time getting to know someone before you jump into marriage.
I just can never trust anyone again.
Don't say that, just try to be with people that show you respect. And put strict boundaries with men so that they know that you won't stay with them if the disrespect you in anyway.