How do you feel about me being disappointed that my brother survived?
When was he diagnosed?
Since he was 3, but it's ok.
Siblings can be a pain but it is not good to wish that their health had not gotten better. They still deserve to live.
My family is so abusive, that I just wish he wasn't here so that he didn't have to go through with this and make it so much worse for me.
It doesn't matter how bad you feel your family is, that's no reason to wish death on your brother. How would you like it if you had a near-death experience and found out that people who were supposed to love you had secretly hoped that you died.