I realize that don't like being a mom
What's wrong with being a mom?
Being a mom sucks because you get so much spam from other people and you need to spend so much money on clothes and baby food.
You can't help if you don't like something so stressful and thankless. But confessing it can be cathartic.
I just feel like I am wasting my time and throwing away my money to be completely honest.
Motherhood is really difficult yeah, and don't feel bad for feeling this way for now. A lot of mothers are troubled, and there is always the risk of postpartum depression. I suggest you try to see a doctor if you have it, so you can get out of it and be a better mom.