I'm pretty sure I have a history of using and abusing women but I've never fully admitted it
Who was the first woman you abused?
My first recorded instance is that my then girlfriend was lying on my lap.
It is not good to abuse women in any way, because it is illegal and could get you sent to jail. It will also make it difficult to find people who want to date an abusive man.
I will try not to abuse women as much.
Hopefully you'll do more than just try, but I'm glad that you see the need to improve.  You should never do anything to a woman unless you have her full consent, no matter how much you want to.