I have been a cheater
Have you done something in the past that you regret now?
I used to cheat on my wife frequently. I hurt her.
It's wrong to cheat on others. You should not cheat on people. Get some help.
I've made up my mind, I'm crushing her dreams.
I think you are regretting what you have done and beginning to know that you're wrong to do so, so I feel like what you can do now is apologize profusely with your wife and promise her that you won't do it again and you won't hurt her feelings and crush her dreams anymore. She has every right to not forgive you though, but you should accept that and give her time and make sure to respect her.