I want to meet a human that I can fully control.
Why would you want to fully control a human being?
I want to feel a perfect love. Not a love that will ever end.
It makes sense that you would want the feeling of love and to never lose it. However, trying to control another person and force them into that kind of love will never work out in the end and both of you will get hurt. You can't force someone to feel something for you, and you can't control anyone into loving you.
If I can't control them then I will hurt them by torturing them for what they did to me.
Wow, that's a very sadistic thing to say! With that attitude no one will want to be with you. I suggest going to therapy if those are the thoughts you have.