I'm thinking of how I live with myself after doing this
Do you think your plan may cause problems to other people?
My plan isn't perfect but the other way is the best for them, they should appreciate my efforts rather than feeling sorry for me.
If your plan does not work out, that is okay. You might need some help, so reach out. It is not a problem whatsoever.
I'm fine, I'm a grown man, I can do all this alone.
It is ok to ask for help sometimes. Pride can be the devil in some situations, as certain tasks are much easier with the help of others. Just try to find balance with receiving help and doing things on your own.