I want to forgive my husband even though he is an asshole.
Are you ready to forgive him as well as be forgiven?
Yes. I've been praying about it and I feel God wants me to even though I still think he is a jerk.
It sounds like you're ready to talk with your husband about this. Forgiving others, and seeking forgiveness yourself, is commendable and doing so will free up your energies and heal you.
Even though it's hard, I'm sure I can do this.
I believe in you. Your husband and God would be proud of you owning up to your mistakes and forgiving others. You should be proud of yourself too, because it takes a lot of willpower to admit mistakes.