I've started to realize how toxic how my relationship is and I want to end it.
That's awful.  Has a lot of bad stuff happened already?
Oh yes. He's hit me before and I've had to take several days off work for my injuries. We break up and make up constantly and I'm not sure how I feel anymore.
It can be hard to get out of a relationship you think is toxic but I have faith in you. From what you told me, distancing yourself from him would be good because he's toxic enough to keep dragging you back into an abusive relationship.
For some reason, I haven't being able to let him go. We both know he's toxic but somehow I find myself being drawn back to him.
It is hard to leave a relationship but it is what is best for you. Toxic people will bring you down and you need to protect yourself by distancing yourself from them and the situation.