I secretly miss getting high
Isn't that scary? Why do you miss it?
Violent things don't affect me anymore
Regardless, you should stay away from things that get you high. You can get in a lot of trouble doing illegal drugs.
Drugs are pretty much harmless.
Do you really believe that's true, because drugs kill thousands of people each year. Illegal drugs shouldn't run your life, so how about trying to check into a rehab center? Sobriety is an amazing feeling, and you can get your independence back.