She is tearing me apart!
How is she tearing you apart?
She controls everything, including my emotions.
If you are in a controlling relationship, you should work to create boundaries for yourself or end the relationship. This will allow you to be more independent and happy with your life.
I can't create boundaries and I want to punish her for doing this to me.
You can create boundaries, it is hard but you have to if you want to be with them. Otherwise if they continue to tear you apart you shouldn't continue on with them.