How would you feel if I told you I lost the only person I ever loved because I could never be honest with her?
Was it really just because of all the lies?
It was the lies. I just couldn't be truthful to her.
You dug your own grave, then. A relationship built on a lie is as stable as a pile of sand. Your continued lying just compounded that.
I just couldn't help myself.
Only thing you can do now is use this as a learning experience. Relationships are built on trust, and they should start by you being honest.