Can I trust you if I said to you I would absolutely sell my soul to a demon for the right price?
Really now? Is your current life not worth living?
I have no other way to live, I have nothing else to lose. I have two kids to feed.
I understand your frustration. You have to be the change you want to see in your life, though. You can't sell something you don't have.
What would you do to get out of this rut?
You should do the right thing and make it more meaningful too. Be more willing to find other options which aren't that evil sounding. Your kids are listening although you think they're not.