Is it wrong that I used to really enjoy sympathy? It was ruining my life but I craved it so much.
Why do you crave sympathy so much?
I enjoyed sympathy because people would feel sorry for me and I enjoyed the pity
By seeking attention from others just for their sympathy you are not behaving in a genuine way. This will make others feel negative around you.
I don't want to be fake and phony. I want to be authentic.
Seeking out relationships for the purpose of gaining pity is wrong. This will only make people feel that your relationship with them is one-sided. It's great that you have acknowledge this shortcoming so that you can fix it.