I have to admit I am relieved you're not taking it all the way to becoming female - I think that would have been an adjustment I'd have a great deal of difficulty making.
Why would it be so hard for you to adjust to someone transitioning to become a woman?
I am just not comfortable with the idea of a man taking an odd hormone cocktail to mutilate their bodies but that's what you people do.
Your attitude of finding it so hard to adjust to trans women adds another hardship in their lives. Think about all the things they have to adjust to and all the hate they face in the world. You should make an effort to make things easier on them, not harder.