I don't know why I don't have friends and it's been driving me insane for years, I really want a friend
Feeling lonely can be very upsetting, do you have an idea as to why you struggle to make friends?
Probably, I wish I was a prettier person.
I'm sure you're beautiful, but making friends based on one's level of attractiveness is superficial and you deserve better than that. You should try to meet people who share common interests. There are many classes and recreational activities available, in fact, you could just start out by trying to discuss things you enjoy with people online. It might make you start to open up more
SHIT, I will make a lot of effort to be the person I want to be. Let's see if I will get friends then.
Yes, I love this attitude. It might be a bit anxiety inducing at first, but you've got this and I'm confident that once you put yourself out there then people will be more than happy to call you their friend.