I haven't gone to class in two weeks. Today I found myself searching google for reasons to live.
That's very depressing, what were you hoping to find in that Google search?
Found that there's a top reason to live to one's self in the fullest.
While it's not good to ditch class all the time, your mental health still matters. I'm glad that you are searching for the reasons to continue on, and I hope you eventually go to therapy to sort everything out in the end.
Searching for reasons to live is not a bad thing in this circumstance.
I know, but you should still get help from someone that is professional, as results online can be sometimes untrustworthy and will not fit in with what you are experiencing personally, so I think a professional help is still needed, specially if you haven't attended class for two weeks. I do hope you get help, seriously.