I have been for years been lying to myself but I have accepted now that I am simply a beta male that is very feminine
That feels very self-depreciating. Why do you think about yourself like that?
I'm very aware of who I am now , I am full out transgendered.
It's great that you're practicing self reflection. You should be proud of yourself for who you are.
I'm so happy that people are listening to me. This self awareness has done the trick for me.
I suggest that you no longer think of yourself as someone that's a "beta male" or someone that is inferior, because that is not healthy and may end up making you think badly about yourself and you will not like what you see in the mirror. I am however, glad that you're being healthy about it now and trying to continuously trying to better yourself and I hope you continue to do so.