What do you think about me relapsing after 9 months sober?
Are you feeling like your will power is beginning to wane?
Yes I'm so scared of relapsing again. That's why I'm locking myself in.
I'm proud of you for being sober for so long, keep at it! I know the urges can be so strong, but you still have to improve each day and take it step by step. You don't want to revert to all those dark days that you left behind.
I'm still scared. I just want to hide forever.
You don't need to hide, just go spend time with people who care about you and maybe get an A.A sponsor who can help you get through this difficult part. I believe that you can stay on this path of sobriety if you want to.