I ended my relationship with a women I thought was the love of my life.
I am sorry. Why did you think she was the love of your life?
I've always found her ideal and I've somewhat lost all other options
I know it feels that way, but as the saying goes, "There are plenty of fish in the sea"
I feel like I want to kill myself.
Sometimes relationships just don't work out and keeping focused on it can upset you over and over again. It is better to move on.