I want to get back into my toxic relationship
Why would you want your toxic relationship back?
I guess it's because I want to fit in with the people who try to bring me down
Still, you should not jump back into something that you know if toxic. You are supposed to run from toxic relationships.
I am doing what is going to make me happy. Let me do this.
Just please say you won't get back into a relationship with this person. You should find yourself a nice new partner instead.