I'm going to hide my eating disorder
Why do you want to hide it?
I have done it for so long, I can't control it anymore.
I think it might be better to get help before it spirals out of control. If you need help I would be willing to help you find a professional you could talk to.
But I like my eating disorder. It makes me feel good about myself.
You should get help if your disorder is interfering with your life. Things could get really bad if you lose control.