When I was 8, I dismembered hundreds of monarch butterflies by ripping their wings off
Wow, that sounds so cruel why did you do it?
I don't know, I was just fascinated with the process
It is wrong to harm living things, even insects, so I hope that you have gotten over this desire.  If you have kids of your own, you should discourage them from harming animals, and get them help if they can't control the urge.
You are so judgmental. Because I got turned on watching these butterflies suffer.
Hardly! Torturing animals and getting off on it is not normal. I really think you should get professional help if you still feel the urge.