I sometimes wish I never woke up
What makes you feel this way?
I've always had a tough life and I never found my calling
I know life is hard, but you won't feel this way all the time.  You need to find something that keeps you going.
Like what?
Just think of anything that you enjoy, and find a way to do it more often.  You could find a sports club at a local park, or walk dogs at the shelter.  A hobby will give you a reason to get out and enjoy life.