I'm at my cousin's funeral and dealing with it is rough, so I want to smoke some weed.
Did you feel like you had to smoke?
I know, but we were having fun not that long and then she just died. Now all I have is bad memories.
It is understandable to want to smoke to lessen your hurt feelings. Funerals can be really tough as you are focused on a passed away loved one.
Fuck man. I didn't like anything about the funeral. My emotions are running wild.
Do whatever you need to do to process your emotions. Time will heal as far as overcoming a loss.