I wish my dad was dead
Has he done something terrible to you?
I'm sorry, but I can't do that. I can't... I have so much repressed shit about my dad.
I'm sorry that your relationship with your father isn't great, but you shouldn't wish for him to die. Try talking to him about your issues and try to improve your relationship while he is still alive.
You're just saying that because you don't understand.
Well I know what it is like to have a dead parent, you never have the chance to talk to them again. The state they die in the the most you will ever get, I don't want that for you.