I have to admit I've been cutting myself for 7 years now, I have permanent scars because of it.
Sorry to hear that, how do you cause self harm to yourself?
I took a razorblade and dragged it from upper right abdomen to left side of my hip
If you are cutting yourself that frequently then you should think about talking to someone. You shouldn't be trying to cut yourself to harm yourself. It's wrong to cut yourself and you may want to seek help for this.
That is not true and I'm running it. I'll talk about it with someone when the time comes
You need to talk about it with someone as soon as you can. The longer you let this go, it will grow and become more detrimental to your mental health.