Is it strange that I couldn't wait to devour the pet goldfish?
That is kind of disgusting, don't you think?
I'll tell you something, for the first time ever I actually felt fully alive
That was your pet, and you chose to eat it, that is disgusting, even though it was a fish. Goldfish aren't meant to be eaten, but taken care of and loved. Why can't you just buy a regular live fish at the market and consume that?
But the goldfish outsmarted me by dying.
It is inappropriate to eat your pet. Many people will find this disturbing. Also, you should be sure to take care of your pet in the future so that it does not die.