It's weird; I hate being alone but I hate the people that are around me.
Why do you hate the people around you?
None of them are really friends.
If you don't like the people around you then you should try to change that. Have you thought about talking to them about how you feel?
No I'm not good at communicating.
You should get into counseling. You could learn to hone your communication skills and explore why you feel mired is such a malaise.