I love pinching and rubbing my eyelashes to pull them out. Then I roll them between my fingers relishing the feeling of thick and strong hair in my hands.
That sounds painful. Why do you do that?
There's nothing more natural, soft and long than long fluttering eyelashes. The feeling of them in my hands is amazing.
If you love your lashes so much, you should take care of them! It seems like rolling them cannot do much good for them. They can break off when you do that!
I like them short. They look weirder that way.
That's not a normal thing to do and you need to find something to occupy yourself where you aren't damaging your hair or your eyelashes. Maybe you can find a hobby to distract you from doing that.