I'm secretly depressed about my grandmother's eventual death
Were you and your grandmother close?
She is indeed one of the people I love.
It's understandable that you are emotional about your grandmother's eventual passing. You should use any opportunity to spend as much time with her as possible. Spending time with her will help you cope as she goes through this period of her life.
I'm considering rushing to the hospital to see her since she is in critical condition.
I'm sorry that is happening in your life. It is okay to be worried about someone you love and to have such a great relationship with your grandma. Seeing her will help you process your feelings and feel better.