What if I am turned on by being humiliated and I hate it but can't stop?
How do you feel after you do it?
Irritated for a period of time, but then it makes me feel good again.
You can't help having a desire like wanting to be humiliated. What you have control over is what you do with that desire. Don't feel bad about what you can't control.
But now I feel like crap.
If you really hate the kink then you should get rid of it, but there's nothing wrong with having one. As long as you are the one in control then you should be fine with having something that turns you on.