I'm afraid of messaging the remnants of my old friends
Like friends from school and such?
Yes, I'm afraid to reach out.
It's alright to be fearful about things. We usually make things a much bigger deal in our mind than what they actually are.
I don't want to go back to my small town. I just know I will run into people that know me.
It is normal to feel nervous about seeing old friends. You can do it though and you will feel better once you get it over with.