What should I do if I want to be murdered?
Why do you want to be murdered?
Have you ever had a night free?
If you feel like you want to be murdered, it is sign of having suicidal tendencies and depression. It is important for you to live as many people in your life will be emotionally affected if you pass away. You should speak with a mental health professional to help resolve those issues affecting you.
I don't care about any of that, I think I will just move to mountains and start a farm.
It's important for you to understand the seriousness of wanting  to die. Talking to a therapist will help you to understand why you are feeling that way.  You should want to live.