I wonder what it would be like without my tattoos and if I made the right decisions on them
Do your tattoos have significant meaning to you?
Yes, I wanted them because my friend was getting one and I wanted to be like him.
That sounds like it could have been an impulsive decision and it's normal to have doubts about something like that. Tattoos are big commitments and it's a good idea to put a lot of thought into it before going ahead next time. Could you try covering it with makeup and see if you prefer not having it?
I should have got better tattoos. I'm letting my tattoos dictate my life.
You can still have it removed or maybe work off of it to make a better tattoo that is more in line with what you want now. Why not talk to a tattoo artist and see if there is something you can do?