I have self image problems but no one to objectively evaluate me because they all know about my past
Why do you have problems with your self-image?
I'm ugly and I was the victim of sexual assault several times
I understand you have a problem here, but I don't think it is right to see yourself as unlovable because of your past. You should try focusing on the future, perhaps change your environment or start meeting new people that will boost your self-esteem. Otherwise you will end up stuck in the past and never really grow beyond it.
I'm talking about my body and I'm a victim of sexual assault. I've been called ugly, fat, overskinned, etc.
I'm so sorry these things have happened to you. I think you should seek out a counselor who has worked with people who've experienced sexual assault. These are really hard issues to work through on your own.