I'm not suicidal but I wish something fatal would happen to me.
Why do you want something fatal to happen to you?
I'm tired of being surrounded by negative people all the time.
Wishing something fatal would happen to you is being suicidal. You need professional help to see how you cansort through all those negative feelings.
I guess I'm just sad and pathetic.
It isn't pathetic to have thoughts of death, but it would be a good idea to talk to a therapist or psychiatrist about them. It must be very difficult living with thoughts like that all the time.