I lied to my partner about her not being my first.... in reality she has been my only experience for everything but I am going to change that soon with my ex
Why would you treat your girlfriend like this?
I just want to ruin the relationship
You are already destroying your relationship from the beginning by spouting such lies on who you've been with, the relationship wouldn't have lasted. I hope you come clean and reconsider destroying her life, because don't you think a healthy relationship would be the best?
No
I think that a healthy relationship should be the goal. You should not lie to people you are close to, especially if you are in a relationship with them.