I despise not being able to live alone more and more each year.
What makes you want to live alone so badly?
I want to be independent of others, also financially independent.
If you want to live alone, you should do so if you have the means. You will feel better about yourself and will have more freedoms.
I want to be very far away from everyone else, by myself.
That's really okay, not everyone is a social butterfly! I hope you can try to start saving for a remote lifestyle, because your happiness should always be top priority.