I got a restraining order against my ex
Do you want to talk about it?
Yes, he had done awful things to me
You shouldn't feel bad about wanting to protect yourself. Some times you have to draw boundaries with people, even drastically.
I just want to hurt him back and make him feel bad.
It is good you are out of that bad situation. But I think it is unhealthy to try and get revenge over a situation, it could go badly and you might get in trouble.