Did I ever tell you I was jealous of my friend's relationships before he passed?
What made you feel jealous about his relationships?
Because he has so many more friends than I did.
You should do your best to not envy the relationships of other people. Finding your own relationships will allow you to focus more on them over the envy.  Just because someone has more friends than you does not mean you should feel ill towards them.
I was never that close to him.
I just think that being envious over someone else's relationships can be very unhealthy in the long run.