I was molested by my brother for years. I never had the courage to tell anyone.
Why didn't you tell anyone.
I didn't want to make any conflict with the family.
It sounds like what happened to you as a child was very traumatic, it would be best for you to talk to a therapist. If you don't handle your traumatic past it could come back to haunt you.
It was one of the darkest moments in life, I don't need shit from anyone. I can handle it myself.
It is okay to ask for help, you don't have to handle it yourself. A therapist is skilled in handling issues dealing with a traumatic childhood.