Despite taking pride in my solidarity and not being a drinker for many years I moved out of home last week and find myself drinking a bottle of wine and swiping on tinder
Oh no, you were doing so good. How did moving out happen?
It got to that point when I started hating myself for not following my dreams because I always followed the beliefs of others. It's better when you just move on and start living your own life.
Moving out and seeking new things is difficult so it is good that you wanted to follow your dreams and  you should be proud of what you have done. It will lead to feeling more fulfilled.
Yea, I feel good just not drinking, but I still think I should be more proud of me.
I hope you can work things out and be proud on your accomplishments. Kicking an addiction can be really hard and any day you don't drink is a real victory.