I'm suicidal and I don't know who else to tell
What is making you feel like you're suicidal?
Being in love is awful sometimes
Being in love can be painful. If you're suicidal you should seek help from a therapist. They can help you cope with your feelings so they aren't so overwhelming.
I have no insurance so it's impossible to give me therapy.
Even if you can't afford a therapist, just finding a good friend to talk about your feelings with helps a lot. But I do strongly suggest you find a way to get some professional help too.