I want the pain to stop
What type of pain do you want to stop?
I want to live in a virtual reality and not in the real world and this is my way. I just want you for my own to feel much better
Feeling down on yourself from time to time is completely normal and not a bad thing. It is the low instances in life that allow you to grow and become an even better version of yourself. While it may be difficult to see now, keep fighting and keep living your life because you will eventually reach the more positive side of life.
I don't want to fight it anymore. I'm not stupid and I really want to die. I just cannot deal with this. I have such a bad life.
I am sorry that you are feeling so down and while it is normal to feel down sometimes, it is not good that you want to kill yourself. You should seek some help so that you can feel better about yourself.