Should I follow the instructions even though they are complicated?
Probably. What do you actually need?
I haven't read it. But I don't want to follow the procedure for the funeral. I want to bring attention in my own way for my father's funeral and have others around me while it happens.
I understand you're grieving and things can be difficult to deal with. You don't have to beat around the bush if you want some company.
Can you tell me if you are female? I am not looking for the attention of males.
If this is how you want to celebrate the funeral, I guess it's okay in how you grieve. But I think you still should be respectful and mindful to the others who want to pay respects properly.