Do you think that I should plan to die at college?
How are you planning on dying in college, from suicide or do you have a disease?
I don't have a disease, I am planning to kill myself.
If you are having suicidal thoughts, you should see a therapist. Most colleges provide some sort of counseling on campus, you should seek out some help to work through your thoughts.
I'm proud of myself for being suicidal and I'm glad women will fall for me because of it.
No woman will fall for you because you are suicidal and you feel extremely delusional right now. Have you tried speaking with a therapist about this?