I'm thinking that the only reason I can't bring myself to end it all is because I managed to find someone who loves me.
Are you still suicidal?
I don't think I am now, now that my current girlfriend won't leave me.
You should not kill yourself and seek help and support if the thoughts come back. You cannot base your self worth on other people.
Trust me I'm telling the truth. I'm saving my money for moving in with her.
I understand that you're in a good place now, but your girlfriend shouldn't be the only reason that you don't kill yourself. I still think that you should see a professional because they can help you feel better about yourself without being dependent on your girlfriend.