Should I just refuse to tell my bf about my n count
Why won't you tell him?
He will get mad at me for it.
It's wrong to lie to your partner. You should just be honest about it. It's important to share your history with your partner.
I'm not a cheater for fuck's sake. It was just practice for me.
I'm sure he'll understand that these encounters happened before your relationship. He'll have a hard time trusting you if you lie about it, and he somehow finds out later. It's better to just be honest to start with.