No one knows this, but I only "go on a diet" when I'm eating with friends.
Why all the cloak and dagger to your diet?
Only when I'm with my friends do I diet. Otherwise, I binge and eat whatever I want.
If you're bingeing when you eat alone, that's a sign of an eating disorder. You need to get help because eating like that is not good for you.
I guess it is kind of weird.
I'm glad to hear you see you have a problem. Knowing you need help is the first step to dealing with an eating disorder. The next step is to pick up the phone and call a therapist.