I'm bad and two faced for this
What is going on? Have you done something bad?
Yes, I'm a bad person. I'll never forgive myself.
It is good to recognize that you are doing bad things. However, it's also important to refrain from behaviors that you know are inappropriate.
There's no way that I can do that. I'm a lost cause, I just want to be hated forever.
If a person is aware that their behaviors are wrong, but can't seem to stop, it may be necessary to seek support to control their impulses. It would be helpful to continue discussing this  with a counselor, therapist, or support group. It's important to realize that you are not a lost cause, just in need of a positive support system.