I'm thinking of starting a relationship knowing that it is doomed to end early
Why are you sure that it'll end early?
Because I'm only interested in women who are soft on me.
Well, if you have a bad feeling from the start, then it probably isn't the right relationship. Maybe you shouldn't get into it right now.
Ok then.
You deserve to find someone who can love and respect you with all of your flaws. It might be a bit lonely but you can really meet a great person.