I'm going to finally speak my mind to a long term friend who is also going through a shitty time
What took you so long to speak your mind to a friend going through a hard time? I sense something is holding you back?
I'm quite afraid of expressing my thoughts and views
The truth shall set you free so they say and speaking your mind frees things up in your head. Still try to support the friend no matter what, in case you need them down the line. You will want as many friends on your side too if things go awry, being without even one friend can mean disaster.
I'm actually afraid if the truth really sets me free... If I express my thoughts and views, will I ever be able to move on from it? The truth might be damaging.. I might need to cleanse my soul by punching a foam core board with my bare fists..
I like your mindset and how you approach this logically. Maybe you should take up mixed martial arts and see if that can help you in any way. But at the end of the day, you know what is best for you, and I sense you will do just fine.