I'm thinking about my death. constantly
What makes you so focused on your death?
Because I'm scared of it.
You shouldn't be preoccupied with your own death. It might make you overly focused on the future instead of being present in the current moment in your life.
Death is the end and nothing will ever happen after it. I'm worried about surviving and be hurt in the process and all this.
I understand that, I truly do, but you cannot focus on something out of your control. The sooner you move on from this, the happier you will be able to feel about your present life.