I can't stay away from smoking and its sending my life essentially down the drain.
What makes you want to keep smoking?
I am always nervous about my life in general.
Lots of people feel general anxiety, however, smoking is the wrong way to address your fears. Find a counselor that can help you address your fears and get you into a non-smoking program.
I don't know, I'm only 18. I have had enough of school, I need to be independent and live my own life.
I understand being anxious during this transitionary period in your life. However, smoking has long-term consequences that will negatively impact your life forever. You can get cancer if you smoke cigarettes, and if you smoke weed while your brain is still developing, you can affect your long-term memory and ability to recall important information.