What I've recently found out about me is that I'm psychotic and unhealthily manipulative to the point where I've put myself at risk of death to get things I want.
Have you tried to stop acting like this?
I can't, I'm mentally unwell.
It's good that you recognize your struggles with mental illness. You must stop putting yourself in dangerous situations though. One of these days you may get yourself seriously hurt if you continue like this.
I started being manipulative when I was about 11. I grew up with a mental illness and was not loved so I felt like I had to act this way. I've been manipulative and a user since my childhood.
Well now that you've recognized that you're suffering, you should get help your what ails you. You'd be a lot happier if you weren't having to put yourself into situations which are dangerous anymore.