I think I deliberately go after people out of my league because I know they'll reject me. I know it will support my beliefs about how little I'm worth.
Why don't you think you have any worth?
I just don't feel good about myself.
You have a lot of good qualities you should stop thinking that way. You need to start being more positive.
It's just my way. I can't help feeling like this.
If you feel so bad about yourself that you self-sabotage when looking to date, you should talk to a therapist. You deserve to find a person who will love you.