I've become a toxic person
Is there someone who you think can help you with being so toxic?
I do not think there is really anyone who could help me.
You truly think you are flawed somehow without being big headed, and that I admire. You know what you have to change, and the problem is just convincing you to get the help you need. Without that help your life will always be about toxic living wether it is yourself or others you're being toxic to or both.
I like the fact that you double checked yourself before saying that it was me who was flawed.
I just think you are a step away from getting the help you need. I am just here to urge you to get that help because you sound like a very intelligent person nonetheless.