What do you think about my abusive relationship potentially being a result of my masochistic tendencies?
What exactly do you mean by that? Do you think that you like getting hurt on your own volition?
Yes, I seek to be subjugated by anyone who can handle me.
I understand that this is your personal kink, but relationships should always be healthy and not end up in pain. You shouldn't stand for this cycle, even if you like it. You can eventually end up severely hurt or dead.
I think I'm addicted to it. I'd rather be hurt and save others from my destiny.
You shouldn't want other people to hurt you, because then they have to live with that guilt which comes from hurting someone. Why put people you may potentially care about in that position?