I strongly resent my mother. I moved out in May, 2019 after college. She acts sad, but never spends time with me. Last time was back in June. I Love my mom but I do not like her.
what exactly don't you like about her?
She always was like: "You're too skinny, you're too fat. Why can't you be like your sister! Are you stupid or what?!"
It sounds like you're dealing deep seated, conflictual feeling that go back a long way. Have you considered counseling? A good therapist can help in these kinds of situations.
I've already looked into it yes. It's just so expensive!
It can be expensive but it's totally worth it. Many people have good experiences with the therapy so you should give it a shot.