I don't want to be lied to because it makes me paranoid and causes me to lash out in anger a lot more
What makes you angry when you're lied to?
I feel they don't respect me.
It's perfectly fine to hate being lied to. That being said, being paranoid about it isn't very healthy.
It's true I would feel less alienated but...
I think everyone pretty much hates being lied to. Instead of being paranoid, you can confront them and ask they why they felt like they needed to lie to you.