I was mean when I was a child.
What do you think the reason was for you being mean as a child?
I was just very bossy and pushy. I always wanted to be the one who was in charge.
I know you wanted to be in control but it's important to share with others.  You have to think about how other people feel and be kind to them. It's difficult to make friends, especially when you were in kindergarten if the other children thought you were too controlling and mean.
It's a lie; I wanted to be in charge so that I could kick the other kids asses. I don't care about the feelings of others.
Well it may be a better choice to try and be more kind to others. You are not going to find yourself having a ton of friends if you continue to act rude and bossy around others.