I'm not going to reconcile with my abusive husband after 4 months of the 8 month restraining order even though he's been going to church and cries every time I see him and says he's super sorry
I'm sorry to hear about this. But do you plan on reconciling with him in the future?
No, I don't want to reconcile with him anymore because he was abusive to me and he cheated on me and because I feel like I was stupid enough to take him back.
Even if somebody is working on themselves, it doesn't mean that you have to forgive them or be with them. It is important to be okay and being in an abusive relationship is not good for anybody.
I'm going to do what my heart tells me to.
You have the right to do so and as long as you're not harming anyone or doing something illegal, then I have your support. You were hurt by this person and it should be your own decision at your own time to forgive them or to even think about getting back together. You have the right to move on and just completely erase him into your life.