What should I do if I dislike being around my family?
Well, why do you feel that way? Does your family affect your mood?
Yeah, I had a lot of bad experiences with them
I'm sorry your family isn't the best, and you are right for trying to want to avoid them. You don't need anyone in your family to be toxic or bring you down, so cutting them off is a good idea.
Sometimes I wonder where I could get without my toxic family.
If you've not been able to connect with your family and they treat you poorly, then just remember that sometimes it is okay to choose your family. You can want to keep anyone out of your life once you're over the age of 18 who you believe holds you back.