I think being smart made me a complete loser
Why do you think being smart makes you a loser?
Because it just does, and I'm a huge loser.
Being smart has nothing to do with your negative thoughts. You should seek help if you think being smart is being a loser.
I just think i'm right here
If you think you're smart, you should feel good about it. Talk to someone professional who can help sort out your feelings.