What if I was emotionally abusive to my ex girlfriend?
That's awful. Did she find you abusive?
She must have known I was abusive.
You shouldnt be proud of being abusive to your ex. No wonder she left you. BE kind to people and try to change.
I never got any help, I bet she just got used to me.
It is not good that you never got help. You need to get help before you get to your next relationship and become abusive towards them too.