I just don't know how to feel about myself right now
What feeling do you have right now?
I don't know how to feel
Its natural to not know how to feel in certain situations. Part of going through life is going through different circumstances and adapting. Every now and then when you come across something new, you are confused and have to create a new blueprint based on how you end up feeling.
WTF. Okay, I want to feel like a man and stop feeling bad after the games I watch.
Having all these sorts of emotions is totally normal, no need to sweat about it! But it's okay if you don't know how to describe it, as long as it doesn't fully bother you. How about trying to talk about it with a friend?