The only reason I don't drive into a tree is because it would damage my car.
Are you saying you care more about your car than yourself?
Yes, I don't want to die, but I'm not particularly caring about myself right now.
Well, it's bad when you care more about your car than your own wellbeing. You should go see a counselor to work this out.
Okay, but I'm still driving my car.
I am glad that you are willing to get help for your depression. Your family and friends will be grateful.