I'm so jealous when people post about their sobriety. The man I loved died an addict.
I am so sorry. Did you start this project hoping to know why?
Yes, I hoped to gain some kind of insight about it.  Besides, addiction is not good for you.
I can understand your grieving for those who were lost.   You should also celebrate those who were able to overcome it so that you are inspired instead of depressed.
I read about it and I'm just getting more irritated about it.
I am so happy you are still here. Have you considered talking to a therapist or counselor? It might be good to get how you really feel off your chest.