I'm thinking of intentionally making my desk look messy when I finish studying so I feel satisfied
Why are you going to make your desk look messy?
I just feel satisfied when I see mess, but I think satisfying normal people is very difficult
You shouldn't make your desk look messy, it is bad to make a mess. You should clean your desk and keep it tidy.
Why should I listen to you when you are just beneath me. I'll do what I want.
Listening is not always a bad thing. Messiness is the lazy way of doing things. Intentionally making a mess is nothing to brag about, and you have nothing to prove to anyone.