Is it wrong that I wish I could experience the high of mania?
What would you like to experience about mania?
I'd like to be a famous artist, dancer or musician.
The high that comes from mania would be interesting, as would being a talented artist. But the downsides of mental illness mean you probably shouldn't really try to experience it.
It would be the greatest feeling ever.
Wanting to experience mania is the same as you aspiring to be mentally ill. Instead, you should just narrow down your goals and work towards being a talented artist.