I'm using coke to numb the pain away
Why would you use drugs for your pain?
I just don't know how to deal with my feelins and coke takes the pain away
If you have so much pain that you can't handle it without turning to drugs, then you should talk to a mental health professional. It is bad to use drugs to cope; you are preventing yourself from learning how to cope in healthier ways. You will only make your pain worse by turning to drugs.
I don't want to deal with pyschs or weed. I think weed is bad.
Weed is much more safe to use than coke. But in any case, you really should get some help and get off the drugs. It's bad to depend on them for our happiness.