I think my sister almost murdered me as a child.
Why do you think your sister almost killed you?
My sister slapped me in the head when I was 10 because I was being naughty and she did fear I would hurt myself
I am sure it was just an honest mistake and her fear tells me she cares about you. You both were so young and probably didn't know better but what is true and still holds is that you shouldn't be violent with your family. Most of the time, it has a detrimental impact on both physical and mental health.
Thanks for your understanding. I feel better now that I have talked about it with someone.
You are probably damaged by the impact of the violence. If you feel you have to talk moreso indepth then get some group therapy for abuse victims in order to get the impact lessened. Do you still need me to vent to, too?