How is it that I'm scared of my thoughts?
Oh really? Do you know why you are afraid of your thoughts?
They are very negative.
You should consider speaking to a therapist. If you are afraid of your negative thoughts, someone might be able to help you.
Therapy is for losers. I want to control my thoughts.
You are never a loser when you want to get help for yourself. Talking it out with someone who has experience in these things is beneficial and you might learn something about yourself.