I cheated on my abusive boyfriend with a guy I can't get over even though I haven't spoken to him for two years.
That sounds complicated. Do you want a relationship with him?
I'm not sure. It depends on how he reacts to my apology.
It is hard to be in a relationship when they are being abusive but it is not good to cheat on them. It could cause them to lash out and harm you.
I wasn't dating him because I wanted to be, I was being abused. It was only fair that I be with another guy.
Even if you did not want to be in the relationship, you still were in one, so it was still cheating. You should have done more to leave the relationship before cheating on him. You don't know the danger you put yourself in by cheating on an abusive partner.