Did you know that I'm increasingly worried that I won't find a connection like I shared with my ex ever again in this life?
Why do you think you won't ever find another connection?
Because I was so in love and I don't see that ever happening again.
You shouldn't give up on finding love again. You are still fresh from the break up so it's understandable that you feel this way. Give it some time before dating again.
It hurts too much.
I know it hurts now, but you shouldn't be setting yourself up for failure. There's a lot of people out there to date and you should be confident you'll find the person for you.