I feel like I have no control of my life
What makes you think that you have no control over your life?
I've never been in control of my life.
If you feel spun out from life then you should see a therapist. A therapist can help you piece together why you are feeling this way.
No, I don't want to see another shrink to be told to be in control of my own life. I refuse to go see one.
Allowing yourself to spin out of control is a dangerous thing. There are underlying issues that need to be addressed by you, but if you refuse to deal with them, you will eventually crash and burn.