I kinda miss being a fat depressed but hopeful loser.
Why would you miss being a fat, depressed loser?
At least when I was fat I had a reason to be depressed. Now I am just a sad loser.
It's hard to lose weight, so I hope you will give yourself some credit. If you still feel bad about yourself, please consider trying therapy.
Therapy doesn't work, many people say it does in the news but the real cure is diet and exercise.
But you have tried diet and exercise, right? If it hasn't helped with your depression then there is probably a deeper issue here.