I have no one to talk to and it's probably my own fault. What do you think?
Why would you think that it's your own fault?
I think I'm too absorbed to be around other people. I lost my friends because of that
You shouldn't blame yourself for everything go on around you. Friendship is a two way street and if they picked up the phone too you might feel a little less like it's your fault. Have you thought about hosting a friend event?
Nah, it's not worth it. I don't want to go through the hassle.
It would be healthy and worth the hassle. You shouldn't be so hard on yourself though it's not all your fault for this.