I have a history of torturing animals.
Do you still torture animals?
No I used to all the time, but these days I'm tying to make a change for the benefit of nature.
Animal abuse is a pretty serious crime to commit. Even though it sounds like you aren't doing it as often, it is still very important to get help.
I just try to do it for fun sometimes.
There's nothing fun about making a helpless animal suffer -- not sometimes, not ever. It's important to get to the bottom of your feelings about this. It would be good to make counseling a priority.