I'm estranged from myself.
Why are you estranged from yourself?
I fucked my life up bad and I have distanced myself so that I don't have to look at it.
We all make mistakes, but it is unhealthy for you to break off from your own experience and hate yourself. Try to find compassion for your imperfect self and make peace with yourself.
I felt like I was drowning, and then I saw the light and realized I'm distancing myself.
Improving yourself is admirable. But hating yourself or distancing from yourself is not the way to go about it.