I have chronic anxiety because I've experienced infidelity my whole life.
Why do you have anxiety about infidelity?
That's pretty much it. I'm afraid that someone else I know will cheat on me.
Even though you've been hurt in the past, it is important to trust other people. Your relationships will always be suspect if there is no trust.
I need every person I know to be loyal. Just in case they're willing to cheat on me.
I understand that a lot of this trauma is very damaging, but don't you think it's too much? Having a good life means taking some risks and letting people in. How about working with a therapist to learn how to trust again?