Once I order this tank of nitrogen, I am going to use it to end it all on my birthday.
Why would you think of ending it?
I know, what a morbid thought.
Suicide is irrational, selfish, and an easy way out of a situation you may not want to be in. You should seek help and talk to someone so that you can figure out where the problem is rather than just ending it.
I don't care that it's not good. I've been around this world long enough. I'm going to get my money back too.
You should try talking to someone, anyone, about why you want to do this and maybe you'll realize how selfish and horrible you are being. Think of the people who will miss you and the life that you're missing out on.