When I was younger my baby sitter wanted to do something to me and said she would buy me some rock candy after. I said okay, and she did buy me the candy later.
What was it that she wanted to do?
Well she sat me down and put my hand on her chest. It started with me squeezing her breast which was kind of uncomfortable. After that she lied me down. She took everything off both off us, which made me very nervous. I remember telling her that I wasn't comfortable with it at all. She told me not to worry about it, but I didn't tell her that if felt weird because I was embarrassed.
Dude, your babysitter raped you. She took advantage of you because you were a child and she is disgusting for it. You should have and still should tell the authorities because you don't want her doing that to someone else's child in the future.
I don' know what to feel.
You were raped. You need to call the police and tell them.