I'm going to confess the actual life I'm living and trying to hide from others. Long post alert.
Are you alright?
I just wanted to report how fake and also pathetic I can be at times.
Humans put a lot of pressure to make sure they are seen as superior to others. It sounds like you are putting that type of pressure on yourself as well. Have you considered talking to someone about it?
No, I'm mainly concerned about my poor test scores.
No one is perfect, and you're expected to have shortcomings. You should try your best to make improvements where you can, but don't allow yourself to become overwhelmed by your flaws.