I've got a problem. I don't want my mother at my wedding because she is still with my abuser.
Wow, that is a big problem. Have you discussed this with her?
I don't want to talk about it with anybody, not even my girlfriend. I don't want her to pity me.
In this situation I think it is okay to not have your mother there. If she doesn't know about the abuse I would tell her that way she can do the right thing. It is best to be honest about these things.
I never want to talk about my past with anyone.
You're carrying around a big burden. You need to talk to a counselor; maybe get your mom to join you. I'm sorry you have to go through this.