What do you think about me being mean to a poor cat?
Are you serious? Why would you be mean to a cat?
I  think that cats are disgusting animals
Being mean to cats is animal abuse. Abusing animals frequently leads to abusing people. You need to seek immediate counseling and be honest about what you have done so that you can get the appropriate help.
Don't worry, I have it under control.
It doesn't sound like you have it under control because abusing an animal is never the right thing to do. I hope you see where you've gone wrong, and try to change your ways.