My parents used to call me crazy for having an imaginary friend. I realized how crazy it was too when my prayers didn't stop his priests from raping me.
Don't you think what you just said about Christians is insulting?
It is true I know from my own experience.  My Christain Elemantary teacher was a child molester and I got raped by the catholic priest when I tried to report it.
I am so sorry thathappened to you and it must be so hard to move on from that. Joking might seem like a good way to cope, but it can end up keeping it on your mind and hurt others that you're judging. Maybe get together with a counselor or other victims to help find a way through this.