I'm honestly really scared that I can't feel love.
What scares you about love?
There's something inside of me that is disgusted by the idea of love for someone.
You need to examine the reasons behind your inability to experience love. Is this a recent development?
No, I have felt this way for many years.
I am sorry that you are having trouble loving others, but you have to seek help to learn why. Part of being around others is showing them how much you care about them.