I paid for a marriage license for a marriage I don't want.
Why don't you want to get married after paying for the marriage license?
Well, I probably will get married, but I'll be ready to divorce him if he doesn't appreciate me.
It is okay to end an engagement if you are unsure of your relationship. It is wrong to marry someone who you do not want to marry.
I'm going to get married to him and divorce him so that he will feel the pain I'm feeling now.
Divorce is complicated, and you shouldn't go into a marriage planning to divorce. It makes a lot more sense to delay or cancel the wedding until you're more sure.