I'm not going to tell my family about my pregnancy until after the baby is born.
Why do you want to keep it a secret?
I do not want them to know yet. I want to surprise them.
I guess it's ok if you dont want to tell your family about it and surprise them. II bet they'll be happy to know about it.
I am feeling suicidal though and I feel like I can't last long with this pregnancy.
You shouldn't take your own life especially since you're pregnant! Think of the baby and how much it depends on you to live.