I'm going to push this guy off a cliff.
It sounds like you're planning to commit a crime. Are you serious?
I'm serious. It's the only way to make things work out for me.
Pushing someone off a cliff like you are planning to do is wrong and will likely kill the person you are pushing. You would have to live with the guilt of knowing you murdered someone and also most likely end up in jail because of the crime you committed.
I'm going to do it... I am a horrible person and I don't deserve to live in this world.
There are multiple things that concern me with what you're saying. Pushing someone off a cliff will cause more problems than it solves. Also, you deserve to live - no one is so horrible that they deserve to die.