I feel incredibly suicidal and I am 6 mo pregnant.
Why do you want to end your life?
Because someone else said I'm selfish
It's okay to reach out for help and support when you are having a mental health crisis, and especially so when you are pregnant since your actions can also affect your baby. Feeling suicidal is a sure sign that you need help from a mental health professional. You should contact a mental health professional as soon as you are able so that you can stop feeling suicidal and be better prepared to give birth.
I want to handle this on my own.
I think you really need to get help if you truly feel like you might kill yourself. You should not have to struggle alone with these feelings. And not to be dismissive but there are hormone imbalances that can occur when you are pregnant giving you these feelings.