I started self harming again after promising not to
What made you self harm again?
I stopped drugs for a while but with no clear future I started self-harming again
That sounds really hard. You shouldn't feel ashamed for doing it, but you might want to get professional help so you can develop better habits.
No one is going to understand me, I need to do it. I'm fine and I'm in control of my body.
It sounds like you're having a hard time. Maybe you can find ways to cope with your emotions that would make you feel better? There are people in the world that you can connect with who will understand what you're going through.