I really feel like having my YouTube channel at 44,000 followers is more important than having a girlfriend.
Why do you think that is the case?
I have a lot of bills and am falling behind. I need to focus on money right now.
It is understandable you be stressed out about money. If you are in a relationship you are expected to make time for them and be attentive.
I need to get my life back on track and I can't put in the effort. Gotta do what I gotta do.
I understand you need to take care of your financial situation. But putting your girlfriend on the back burner is really going to affect her emotionally. If you feel you cannot maintain a relationship with her you need to be upfront and honest with her.