I want to date a woman who hurts me.
Why would you want to date a woman who hurts you? If a woman hurts me, I'd rather NOT be with that kind of woman.
Its sexual, I am a sadist.
Dating someone that hurts you isn't healthy. Try to get into a mutually supportive relationship.
I'm mad at social justice warriors and want to feel some pain.
You seem to have some problems if you think pain and abuse equal love. Maybe seeing a therapist could help you work these issues. I don't think you are ready or mentally stable for a relationship.