I'm getting worse and I haven't got help because I just don't feel like it.
Why are you getting worse?
My previous boyfriend always used whatever negative feelings I had to screw me over emotionally.
It's good when you know you need help. You should seek a professional.
It's probably an indication of my severe mental illness that my previous boyfriend wants to screw me over emotionally.
Well, he could well have caused or contributed to the illness.