I think my life is pathetic.
Do you need any help?
No. Thanks. Just that I'm living in an illusion that my life is ok. It's not that bad.
If you're feeling like your life is really pathetic then you should try to improve things wherever you can. If you do nothing then things will stay the same.
I'll be fine.
It sounds like you are coping, so I won't push harder.  However, there are multiple opportunities out there for you to try new things and have new experiences.  I can offer suggestions if you are ever interested.