I still love the guy who manipulated and exploited me when I was 17
Why love someone who intentionally hurt you?
There are so many reasons but it is hard to identify them.
So you love someone who certainly doesn't love you. Personally, I think you're confused and lonely.
Yes, I'm confused and I'm pissed the most. He's completely hitting on that bitch, but I still have feelings for him. There's no hope for me, I know.
He sounds like a bad guy. It is difficult but you deserve to be with someone who treats with respect and love.