I picked up a bad habit
Why did you pick up a bad habit?
I felt rejected and wanted the attention of those around me.
If you have a bad habit that is interfering with your life, then you should seek counseling to get help with stopping it. You should be open with a therapist so that this habit can be stopped or it will get worse.
Fuck you, I'm not going to therapy.
I don't know what habit you picked up but if you think it's a bad one, you need help to get rid of it.  You should go see a therapist asap.