I'm thinking of distancing myself from my dad
Do you not want to talk to him at all?
I can't distance myself completely, he will all ill and die.
It's okay to want to have some separation from your parents, and you can use this to soothe yourself if you feel bad about it. However, you should also keep it in mind if you initiate contact and end up regretting it.
It's alright. Whenever people are not always honest or good to you or push your boundaries I believe it's okay to get away from them.
Well if he is treating you poorly then I think it's acceptable to want to get away from you dad. At least for a while.