I hope every day that my mom will die.
Do you think about death in general or just about her death?
I think about both.
If you're hoping every day that your mother will die, then you likely have unresolved issues that are weighing you down and you could benefit from therapy.
I don't want to get therapy about thinking of death too much if it means I'll have to see a doctor.
A doctor is required but you can shop around until you find one you like. It would be good to understand why you want your mother to die and stop wanting that to happen.