I think my ocd makes it almost impossible to enjoy anything
I am not sure I understand what this is like. How does having ocd make it impossible to enjoy anything?
It's hard to have fun with the constant fear of ruining something.
Having ocd is hard, but it is possble to manage it. You should see a therapist to help you cope.
If I did that I would just be "diagnosed" w/I don't have a problem. Life's a bitch.
A therapist could give you a diagnosis and help you out. You don't know until you try.