What should I do? I'm beginning to doubt I have the power to get what I want out of life.
What are your goals for life?
To have a worthwhile job, to have kids and to have a wife who cares for me.
Family and job security are great things to strive for, and not believing in yourself will only ensure that you don't get them. Have faith in yourself and trust your competence.
I'm and I'm going to find out if I really don't have what it takes to get what I want. Maybe I got too used to relying on others and now I'm too weak to stand on my own.
It's great to realize when you have been overly dependent on others. This is definitely something that can stop your growth as an individuals.