I'm disturbed by all the evil conspiracies and crimes we commit
What kind of evil things are you talking about?
Mostly violent acts, and I am disturbed by it all
There are certainly some bad people in the world, who do terrible things. However, you should not let this distract you from the fact that the most people are good and kind.  While everyone has disturbing thoughts from time to time, the vast majority of people will never cause any harm, and will often try to help others.
I will still continue to do my research as I find it useful
It is important to understand any topic that causes you concern.  However, you should be aware that history generally records the surprising instances in which people committed evil acts, and doesn't tend to emphasize the majority of people who do good.  Be sure to look up historical instances of kindness and compassion as well.