What if I told you that when I have a panic attack,repeating the last sound I heard makes me feel better. No one notices when I'm panicking, even though I repeat a lot.
How does no one even notice?
After a while you just get used to it
It sounds like you found a good way to cope with your panic. It is good that you can calm yourself down in your own way.
Well I just don't really bother keeping it hidden
As long as it works. Your method beats taking meds.