There are specifics that I can't speak of.
Is there something you're afraid of?
There are many things.
Being honest and open can help you feel better.
It has something to do with the government but I don't want to say much more.
If the government is a thing that triggers you, I'm available to listen, but I'd guess that there's more than that. What you're dealing with personally matters more and that should be your focus.