Ever since I was 13 I've always felt like I was dead inside.
Why would you feel dead inside?
I think you're aware that I've wished I was dead every second since the day when I made the suicide attempt when i was 13.
If you have suicidal thoughts or you're depressed you should seek professional help. Alos, it will help if you talked about this to your loved ones.
It feels good to have no emotions. I'm better than simps who don't think like this.
Feeling like you have no emotions is underlying causes to mental illness. I highly recommend you seek out professional help to get you back on track to good mental state.