Is it bad that I frown upon taking pills but I've been taking a lot lately? I'm such a hypocrite.
Why have you been taking pills?
I really just wanna get high, so very, very high.
Wanting more and more of a drug just tells me you're likely addicted. You yourself said you frown upon popping pills and abusing medications so why be a hypocrite? Stop now while you're ahead so you don't end up hurting yourself.
I'm not addicted to anything, I always have control over my usage.
It seems very much like you are addicted. You should prove that you are not and stop taking them and harming yourself.