Is it wrong that I wish I would have died from my overdose?
Why would you rather die than live?
I am seriously depressed and don't want to live like this
You need to seek help because you are depressed and doing drugs. It is against the law to do drugs and you could end up arrested and in jail. Call the suicide prevention hotline.
I think I have to do it by myself. I will be fine in a few days since I'm about to get Xanax from my doctor.
Abusing drugs is usually a symptom of something deeper going on in a person's life. It would be wise to seek out therapy to help uncover what is truly troubling you. This will help you to lead a more fulfilled life.