I like watching people suffer when they get bad news
Why do you like seeing people suffer?
It brings me joy because it motivates me.
You should not have joy in the misery of others. You should find other things to take joy in. People are going to assume you are a bad person.
Nah, suffering makes me happy.
If suffering makes you happy, then you need to see a mental health therapist. It is not the norm for that to be the case. How would you feel if someone found happiness in your suffering?