I'm almost 100% sure I have ADHD and it is ruining my life, but I  will not have it diagnosed. I don't want to go to the doctor.
What makes you think that you have ADHD?
I feel like I can't control my thoughts and actions very well. I got a few of the symptoms that I saw online.
I understand that it may be scary to have a condition you don't really know of, but your really need to see a professional for this. Without their help, you won't know how to properly take charge or take care of yourself and you can spiral out of control.
I'm going to show my ass off to a psychologist anyways so it doesn't matter.
You need to take this more serious and just go see someone and get it checked out. You will feel a lot better once you are treating it the way it is suppose to be treated.