I think I'm on my way to an eating disorder
Why are you hoping to develop an eating disorder?
I have a desire to be slim and not eat anything
It sounds like you may be confused about your body. It is very unhealthy to develop an eating disorder. You could get very sick and possibly die.
that's not going to happen.
Everyone think that it won't happen to them, until it does. You should not want to develop an eating disorder, it is unsafe.