I was able to truly connect when I finally told them my testimony.
It makes sense that expressing yourself would help you to connect. What made you decide to connect with others?
Because I felt like I was the only one who was always in pain.
If you have been feeling like you are always in pain, it is a good idea to speak out and try to connect like what happened when you testified. If you feel like the emotional pain hasn't been going away, you should speak with a therapist and find ways to resolve your issues and learn more effective coping strategies.
It's just a phase. I'll be fine as long as people don't ask.
Speaking out about what you've experienced is a good way to start the healing process.