I think my entire life is a lie
Why do you think your life is a lie?
I feel like I am hiding things from my family and I cannot be my true self.
If you are feeling like your life is lie, you should try to be more open and honest about yourself to others. Speaking the truth can be freeing and is important for good mental health and well-being.
Ok, I'm going to just tell my family about my pedophile tendencies. I'm gonna say it out loud. I have a fetish for little children.
It is good you want to be true to yourself. If you have pedophilic tendencies, then you should seek help from a mental health specialist. It is good you want to take these steps now.