I miss being bulimic
Why would you miss being bulimic?
I felt total control over what I ate.
There are better ways than bulimia to control your weight and eating habits. Maybe consider visiting a doctor or dietician.
I wish I could go back to it.
I have had other struggles where I felt the same way.  When you feel that way, think of the pain that it caused and focus on what you have used to replace those feeling of validation that you used to get from bulimia