Would oyu believe that I just can;t seem to have a healthy relationship?
Really? Why do you feel like you can't have a healthy relationship?
I can't find the right person.
It might be hard finding the right person but when you do you will have a healthy relationship which will be good for you. Unhealthy relationships are destructive for all involved.
I'm not looking for what society thinks is healthy.
When you find the right one for you, I'm sure they'll have that same mindset. Either way it's all about finding that person who is on the same page as you because otherwise it will again, be a destructive relationship for both of you.