I said nobody was there because of me
Why did you tell them that nobody was there?
I didn't want anyone to know this happened to me.
It is normal to not want everybody to know when bad things happen to you but you shouldn't blame yourself for the things that happened to you. Bad things happen to everybody and sometimes it is not your fault.
It's my fault of being there in the first place.
What happened? Were you not supposed to be there?