I think I might have lung cancer from smoking but I'm such a coward that I can't go to the doctor
That sounds terrible! Why are you afraid of going to the doctor?
Because I'm scared of the idea of dying.
Seeing a doctor allows them to catch diseases early and help you manage them before they progress into more serious conditions. Get over your fears by talking to a doctor first so you know what to expect when you visit.
I don't want to risk getting it. This is good for me to die now since I'm such a loser.
It's way more of a risk not going. You need to get a hold of yourself and get over your fears and make your way to the doctor.