I realized how disgusting eating is while on acid and 5 years later I have an eating disorder
What made you think this way.
Yes, I find eating really disgusting now. I was so disgusted with the whole concept of eating that I haven't consumed a lot food since 5 years ago
I think that you might need to talk to a doctor or something. Your eating habits are not great and taking care of yourself is super important.
I don't want a doctor overseeing me.
It might not be something you want but you do need to see somebody. It is important to care of yourself both physically and mentally so that you can lead a healthy life.