I'm develop feelings for most females that I become friends with then I act out on them causing them to not want to be friends anymore
Do you know why this always happens?
Yes, because my parents never loved me
You can't help who you're attracted to. But you shouldn't hit on others if you know they don't feel the same.
I hate normal, cookie cutter people.
There are plenty of women out there, you don't need to date people you're already friends with. Maybe you can try and do some new activities to meet more people and then you can see new people who you don't know.