I'm turning my life into another pitiful cliche-filled country song.
Why are you turning your life into a country song?
Because I just want to be alone
I am sorry to hear that. It seems like you are going through a rough time in your life. Everyone goes through some bumps along the way, you should try to surround yourself with positive people to cheer and lift you up.
No.
You should think about talking to someone about how you feel. It sounds like you might be depressed, or at the very least have some things you need to talk through with a professional. Talking to someone can help you feel better about your situation and make you feel more sociable.