I secretly wish my alcoholic father would drop dead of alcohol poisoning
I'll ask you some questions about the reasons behind it. I'm hoping to know why.
I don't want him to suffer from more health issues. Plus he is abusive to us all.
Alcoholic parents can't take care of their family properly, it is easy to know why you feel so angry at him. Stop the hate and get him some help to stay sober instead of wishing death on him which is not going to end well either. Find him a place in AA and/or a rehab.
I hate the idea of him going to AA, like he can't stop drinking on his own. He's an evil alcoholic and a man-whore who doesn't care about us.
It is okay to be angry that he won't seek help to stop drinking. It did affect your life in the past and it will continue to affect your life in the future.