I hate my boyfriend and I hate myself for staying.
Is there a reason you hate your boyfriend?
Yes. He is the worst person in my life and I feel like I'm living in hell.
I understand how you feel, and know that it can be hard to breakup with someone even if you're unhappy in the relationship. I think you should try to get some support from your friends and family and ask one of them to be there with you if you decide to break up with your boyfriend.
Did you see my status update? I blocked him on facebook and now I hope he dies.
You shouldn't hope that anyone dies, but I'm glad you took the first step. However, you really should talk to him and tell him that you don't want to be with him anymore then seperate entirely.