I sometimes think about crashing my car to see who shows up at the hospital
Is this the first time you have thought about this? Tell me more about what's going on.
It's a spontaneous thought. I never act on it.
It is not right to want to hurt yourself so you can know the reaction of others. This will cause everyone a lot of stress.
Shit, I just wanted to see who shows up. It'll be good luck.
It's true that people sometimes only care when it's too late, but I believe it's best to not try to do such things. Why not try talking to all the people you want to have a better relationship with, so you can see if they care at that moment?