I want to steal the bolt that holds the lampshade to the lamp... I've been doing this for 5 years now and I'm not sure why or how it started.
That is shocking to hear. Why are you stealing lamshade bolts?
I'm the one doing it in my mind. I don't think I'm aware of it. It just happens every once in a while. I wish I could stop this habit.
Mental issues can be difficult, and letting your mind influence you to steal lampshade bolts is incorrect. Find a counselor to help you learn some coping techniques and address the issue.
I do think stealing the bolt off the lampshade seems like it would be useful, but I'm not sure why. I guess I just don't want to feel like I associate with lampshades.
The first step of solving the problem is knowing that you have a problem. Knowing that it is not useful for you to steal the lampshades is a good thing, and I hope you really find someone who can help you with your mental illness so that you can gain back control of your personality.