Only thing I have left to do is figuring out how to defeat that part of the brain that says killing myself will hurt my parents
Are you having suicidal thoughts? Do you not have a reason to live?
Not really. But anyway I hated life anyways, and thought about killing myself numerous times.
If you are having suicidal thoughts there are a lot of free resources where you can find help. Would you like me to help you connect with someone who is a professional?
Don't bother I won't do it even if I do think about it.
Suicide is serious and your feelings are valid. Please reach out to professionals if you are really struggling.