I had a talk with my brother a while ago and I keep thinking of how I reacted.
What happened? How did your brother react?
I think I handled it very badly because he hurt me before our conversation
You two need to sit down and talk. It's not good to leave things like this festering.
Talking about it seems boring. I would rather go to a BDSM party instead maybe.
BDSM should teach you about how important communication is. Don't you talk to your partners during the parties to make sure everyone is okay before and during the scenarios?