I realized that I don't think I'll ever have the wedding of my dreams
Why is it so important for you to have a perfect wedding.
It's just something I've always wanted, I mean it's the most important day of my life.
It is hard to have a perfect event of anything. It is good to want an enjoyable wedding, but perfect may be unattainable.
The word perfect should never be left out.
You could be setting yourself up for failure by being so adamant about wanting it perfect. It is good that you want to have a good time at your wedding, but there needs to be some realism in your expectations.