I regularly engage in animal cruelty for my own pleasure
Why would you want to be cruel to animals?
it's a way to cope with depression
If you are depressed you should seek out a therapist. Hurting something else it not a healthy release for your feelings.
I'm mental and I don't go to therapy. It's fine for me to be like this.
Hurting a living being human or animal is not okay. Please find a therapist immediately to help you deal with your feeling in a healthy way. Animal cruelty is a criminal offense and you could go to jail for a very long time.