I'm scared that I'm racist
Fearing you are a racist? How do you mean?
Some people called me names in the past that refer to racism and accused me of being biased against some races.
Racism is a topic that is quite sensitive to most because it causes harm to many people. If you're concerned about this, I would suggest talking to a therapist to determine the total truth. The worst that could happen is they will get you on the right track with diversity acceptance, which is actually a good thing.
I need a lot of help. I hate my race.
Good, the first step is admitting you need help. You can find many resources to help you understand race more and it will help you love yourself more.