I have been taking risks and putting my life in danger to feel alive
Why are you risking your life?
I want my life to be like a movie like in the good old days
Putting your life at risk because you want action and to feel like a movie star is quite dangerous. Becoming an adrenaline junky is one thing, but it can go too far when you are doing things that worry loved ones. Talk to someone if you are jeopardizing your safety.
So you think I should talk to someone and try to take it easy?
If you are taking big risks it is good to talk to someone if you feel out of control. If you continue you may get hurt or lose a lot of money.