What do I do about the fact that I'm feeling depressed and suicidal again?
What is it that makes you feel depressed like that?
It's everything, I can't stand anything or anyone. It's like I'm dead inside.
It is normal to feel some level of depression or sadness at different points in your life. However, feeling so depressed that you feel dead inside is not normal. You should see a mental health professional to help you work through those feelings.
I don't need these kind of useless people in my life.
I understand that it can be intimidating to talk to someone when you're feeling suicidal, but it's important that you reach out for help in those moments. If you don't get help, you may attempt to harm yourself. A mental health professional can help you to work through your difficult feelings.