I'm recovering anorexic and now I'm relapsing
I am sorry to hear that. How are you feeling right now?
I just feel like killing myself now.
Feeling depressed over relapsing is natural. Try reaching out to someone and getting professional help if you feel like you can't accomplish your goal on your own before your depression gets worse.
I'm going to lose weight. I'm going to get over it eventually and if I kill myself I would no longer be able to do that.
Don't you also want to be healthy? How about you consider the length of time that you need to have a healthy body for the things you want to do in life.