I've even started drinking martinis in the morning, before work.
Why are you drinking martinis before work
I've decided to do what I want to do
While it's great to enjoy a drink now and then, doing it before work can be really dangerous. You might have your work performance suffer, or give wrong influences to your coworkers. I think it's best to try to get help with the alcohol.
It's fine. I want to be drunk all the time.
Are you okay? Wanting to drink all the time isn't normal, so I think it's worth it to try and get into rehab or therapy.