I think one guy broke me
I don't understand. What did he do that makes you say that he "broke" you?
He drove me mad and hypnotized me into doing what he wanted. I lost myself in his hands and I was blind to the world
Wow, it sounds like he knew just what buttons to press to make you do his bidding but isn't that called being in an abusive relationship? You shouldn't let this happen again because it is not healthy for your own safety. No one should try to break anyone because that's not how happy relationship works.
But I thought I loved him.
I understand, but that's probably because he was manipulating you. I'm glad that you're out of the relationship now, because it sounds like it was a very bad situation. If you find yourself in another situation like that, I hope you're able to get out of it quickly.