What do you think about me being an abuser? Unlike my father I try my best to change. I'm afraid my efforts won't be good enough
How does your abusive behavior differ from your father's?
My father was more severe than me.
You should seek professional help for abusing other people. It might be best to remove yourself from the situation until you are mentally well.
I will take my thoughts to a friend and I need to sort it out myself.
It's great that you are acknowledging your faults as an abuser. This is the first step to making a change. By getting support or talking to a therapist, you can take actual steps to change this behavior.