I still blame my best friend from high school for my eating disorder
How would a friend from so long ago be the cause of this?
He allegedly found me fat and ugly.
I'm sorry your best friend was such a bully, I hope you are no longer in contact with them. They will still be very harmful to you and manipulate you, so you really need to seek therapy for everything. You can possibly die from an eating disorder unchecked.
Nah, as if. I'm fine.
I think that you should talk to someone about how you are feeling with the eating disorder. It is great to reach out to someone when dealing with an eating disorder.