I'm white and I say the n-word out loud to myself when I'm home alone.
You know it's taboo to use racial slurs. Why do you say the n-word out loud when you're home alone?
I can't help it. I feel like a negro when I'm alone. It gives me a feeling of power.
Even though you're by yourself when you do it, it's probably not a good habit to have. You may accidently use that word in public one day, and you could really offend someone.
It's nothing to worry about. Everyone will get over it.
People won't get over it because its offensive. Just because you believe no one will hear it doesn't make it okay to use such a word with a deep history of hatred. Have you ever done research into what that word  actually means?