I'm deathly afraid of my dogs dying
What is it that makes you scared your dogs will die?
My dogs are sick and I live in a foreign country, it's hard to find a good veterinarian.
Even though some fear is understandable, it is never good to live afraid all the time. If you want to care for your pets properly, you should make sure they see a vet, even if you have to travel far to do it. It would give you peace of mind and ensure your pets are healthy.
I can't believe I won't see them grow old, they are just too cute.
It is normal people will outlive their pets. You should just enjoy all the time you have with them and make sure to feed and walk them properly.