I want to be someone I'm not
What kind of person do you want to be?
Someone normal I guess. Just a person who has a girlfriend.
Pretending to be someone you're not for long enough will cause you to lose the person you really are. Just be yourself around others and let them find out who you really are.
It's hard to find a gf. I'll try your way.
That's great! Especially you want to meet someone that likes who you are and not some poser. Authenticity is very important and it's quite attractive in a way because it will make you look confident.