I'm afraid that I'll have kids just to keep him.
Why do you think kids will save your relationship?
Because that's the only reason people usually have kids
I get that you want to save your relationship, but it's already at an end when you think kids can save it. Having children is very stressful and will only end up with unhappy children and a bad relationship. Don't burden future children like this.
Ok I think I will move on then.
I am glad you are willing to move on. Things could have been even more messy than they already are. Do you have plans for dating like an app or blind date?