I hit my ex a few times, can I blame anyone but me?
Oh dear, this sounds awfully abusive. Do you become violent easily? Why would you do this?
I'm not actually a violent person. The whole process of repeating these actions time after time makes my behavior extremely weird and unusual
Hitting a partner is violent and abusive. You should seek professional help for this pattern of behavior. Not getting help will cause you to harm others.
The violence is unusual and it's just hitting people. It's not a big deal.
Hitting people is a big deal, what if they did it to you? Do you enjoy hurting others or instilling fear into them? You need to get that fixed, see a therapist immediately before it escalates into a murder.