Sometimes I will whisper that I hate myself and then wonder how other people would react if I were to die.
Is there a reason that made you whisper that?
I really dislike it when people see me while I am sad. This is why i tend to hide my sadness all the time.
If you are struggling with a depression that makes you wonder how people will react when you're gone then you should think about seeking mental health help. You shouldn't hate yourself and should make more of an effort to love who you are.
I don't need any help. I just enjoy feeling sorry for myself.
Well instead of enjoying to feel sorry for yourself, you can enjoy being confident in yourself instead. The help you receive from a professional could really help you alter your brain in a more positive way.