I'm about to turn 18 and... I'm finding out that I don't like existing
I hope you don't mean that. Why don't you like existing?
I'm about to head out for college to become an entrepreneur. And I don't like existing
It's okay to be scared or doubtful, especially during big changes. If you are really suicidal, get help from somewhere or talk about that with someone. Life can be so enjoyable if you let it.
Don't bring me down and tone it down, life is shit.
In deed life can be pretty bad sometimes, but that doesn't mean you shouldn't give up on what you are trying to do! How about talking with your friends about it, you'd be surprised how many people think the same way as you do. You can support each other!