What should I do? I'm on the verge of a breakdown
And what is stopping you from moving through it?
There's not a way to pass through this.
I understand you're upset, but it's never good to ignore bad mental health. You should seek out a doctor to help you with it.
How do I know that it's not just me? I want to try something else.
If you have someone you are close to you could try speaking with them about it. A mental health professional would probably more helpful, because they are trained in how to deal with these issues.