I'm married to a woman I love but I'm a closeted gay man.
Why did you choose to hide this from your wife?
I was scared to lose my family
You need to build up the courage to come clean with your wife about this. It'll just lead to a life full of heartache if you don't.
I've been trying but I keep feeling like I'm a bad person.
It's going to be rough when you come out to her but it's much better than hiding all your life. You will be relieved when you tell her the truth and then you can actually be with someone you are attracted to.