I want to tell you something sad, I never told my grandma that I love her
Oh wow... is there a reason why you never said such a thing?
I was bad and I didn't want people to think I was a cunt by being so soft by saying things like "I love you".
So you're telling me you valued your reputation more than your family ties? That's a little sad to hear, because you never have the chance to tell her now. I hope you can make things right by making sure you tell your appreciation to the ones still living.
I'm trying to hide my emotions in order to avoid getting hurt.
This is sad, I hope you can move past this and tell those you love that you do love them.