I think I am going to try to eat my food first before anyone else.
Why are you in a rush?
The food is just so awful and I want my life to be over.
Sounds like you're really unhappy. Have you thought about talking to a therapist? There are even medications available the can help in some cases.
I've been sober for 2 years.
Well being sober for 2 years is an amazing accomplishment. Maybe now it is time to start trying to find more healthy methods to get your brain kicked on the way alcohol used to. I know I need my morning coffee to get going and also try my best to eat healthy so my brain is calm.