I hope nobody was hurt.
Was there some sort of accident?
Yes, it was horrible.
You hoping that nobody was hurt shows that you're a considerate person. Hold on to this part of yourself.
I was hoping that my ex, my ex's new boyfriend, and I all die in the car crash. I am a terrible person and should be punished.
I can see that you're upset, but you shouldn't consider yourself a terrible person. You are clearly just going through a rough time. Perhaps you should seek out a therapist to help with your issues?