I miss my abusive ex so much and it hurts but I feel I can't go back to him
Why can't you go back to him?
He can try to kill me one day, that's what usually happens in my community.
It's better to stay broken up with someone who has abused you. You should try and move on from such relationships.
No, I'm going to get back with him. He just got angry and did those things because he was stressed out.
I don't think you are thinking clearly. Abusers do not love you they will hurt and take everything from you. Have you tried going to a support group with people who have been in the same situation?