I am an extremely talented performer and writer but I squandered every opportunity with drugs
Why did you squander your opportunities with drugs?
I wanted to live out my youth while I still can
Youth is not about drugs, it is about trying to improve yourself for life. I'm so sorry you had this misconception and didn't have anyone to teach you any better. Maybe you can regain your talent and writing abilities now and then start saving your money all over again. Many famous people have done this.
I realize that now.
You still have a chance to turn your life around, there's always time. Get rid of your addiction to drugs and start performing/writing again. See this as a second chance and surround yourself with positive influences this time.