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+## Monthly progress report - Jan
+I clicked on my blog on accident and noticed I had written resolutions at some point. It's a bit bad that I've forgotten about them already, but let's run down the list anyway for fun.
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+1. Willfulness
+	* Complete abject failure. I have made no explicit good choices in the last month.
+	* I have explicitly thought about making good choices on some occasions, and explicitly rejected the good choice in those situations. Arguably this is progress, if you consider flipping a sign to be easier than changing magnitudes.
+2. Exploration
+	* A bit IRL. Not much. 
+	* Exploration online is more important than in-person, so long as I continue to live in the backwater of Southeast Asia.
+3. Health
+	* I have decided that all of my problems are **psychosomatic**. This includes the parts that involve physical evidence, such as waking up to dried blood. The idea that problems cannot be surpassed by sheer willpower is mentally degrading & I choose to reject it.
+4. Epistemics
+	* Nil progress.
+	* I have an idea of where I should be starting, but haven't blocked out the time to do so.
+5. Faith
+	* Negative progress; increasingly undetermined to deal with the real world.
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+Having gone through this, I realise I don't actually agree with the premise of some of these goals anymore. I am more determined to solve (1) and (4), but I don't particularly want to touch the rest.
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+But *because* I've yet to implement (1), my desires remain unanchored, and it's likely I'll oscillate into pinning more value on the other tasks at some point in the future. In particular, I expect unavoidable change over the next week.