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<A NAME="chap54"></A>
<H2 ALIGN="center">
BOOK VI.
</H2>
<BR/>
<H2 ALIGN="center">
THE WIDOW AND THE WIFE.
</H2>
<BR/><BR/>
<H3 ALIGN="center">
CHAPTER LIV.
</H3>
<epigraph>
<said>Negli occhi porta la mia donna Amore;
Per che si fa gentil ciò ch'ella mira:
Ov'ella passa, ogni uom ver lei si gira,
E cui saluta fa tremar lo core.
Sicchè, bassando il viso, tutto smore,
E d'ogni suo difetto allor sospira:
Fuggon dinanzi a lei Superbia ed Ira:
Aiutatemi, donne, a farle onore.
Ogni dolcezza, ogni pensiero umile
Nasce nel core a chi parlar la sente;
Ond'è beato chi prima la vide.
Quel ch'ella par quand' un poco sorride,
Non si può dicer, nè tener a mente,
Si è nuovo miracolo gentile.</said>
—DANTE: la Vita Nuova.
</epigraph>
<BR/>
<P>
By that delightful morning when the hay-ricks at Stone Court were
scenting the air quite impartially, as if Mr. Raffles had been a guest
worthy of finest incense, Dorothea had again taken up her abode at
Lowick Manor. <said who="#D" direct="false" aloud="false"> After three months Freshitt had become rather
oppressive: to sit like a model for Saint Catherine looking rapturously
at Celia's baby would not do for many hours in the day, and to remain
in that momentous babe's presence with persistent disregard was a
course that could not have been tolerated in a childless sister.
Dorothea would have been capable of carrying baby joyfully for a mile
if there had been need, and of loving it the more tenderly for that
labor; but to an aunt who does not recognize her infant nephew as
Bouddha, and has nothing to do for him but to admire, his behavior is
apt to appear monotonous, and the interest of watching him exhaustible. </said>
This possibility was quite hidden from Celia, who felt that Dorothea's
childless widowhood fell in quite prettily with the birth of little
Arthur (baby was named after Mr. Brooke).
</P>
<P>
<said who="#Celia">Dodo is just the creature not to mind about having anything of her
own—children or anything!</said> said Celia to her husband. <said who="#Celia">And if she
had had a baby, it never could have been such a dear as Arthur. Could
it, James?
</P>
<P>
<said who="#JC"> Not if it had been like Casaubon,</said> said Sir James, conscious of some
indirectness in his answer, and of holding a strictly private opinion
as to the perfections of his first-born.
</P>
<P>
<said who="#Celia">No! just imagine! Really it was a mercy,</said> said Celia; <said who="#Celia">and I think it
is very nice for Dodo to be a widow. She can be just as fond of our
baby as if it were her own, and she can have as many notions of her own
as she likes.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#JC">It is a pity she was not a queen,</said> said the devout Sir James.
</P>
<P>
<said who="#Celia">But what should we have been then? We must have been something else,</said>
said Celia, objecting to so laborious a flight of imagination. <said who="#Celia">I like
her better as she is.</said>
</P>
<P>
Hence, when she found that Dorothea was making arrangements for her
final departure to Lowick, Celia raised her eyebrows with
disappointment, and <said who="#D" direct="false" aloud="false"> in her quiet unemphatic way shot a needle-arrow of
sarcasm. </said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#Celia">What will you do at Lowick, Dodo? You say yourself there is nothing
to be done there: everybody is so clean and well off, it makes you
quite melancholy. And here you have been so happy going all about
Tipton with Mr. Garth into the worst backyards. And now uncle is
abroad, you and Mr. Garth can have it all your own way; and I am sure
James does everything you tell him.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#D">I shall often come here, and I shall see how baby grows all the
better,</said> said Dorothea.
</P>
<P>
<said who="#Celia">But you will never see him washed,</said> said Celia; <said who="#Celia">and that is quite the
best part of the day.</said> She was almost pouting: it did seem to her very
hard in Dodo to go away from the baby when she might stay.
</P>
<P>
<said who="#D">Dear Kitty, I will come and stay all night on purpose,</said> said Dorothea;
<said who="#D">but I want to be alone now, and in my own home. I wish to know the
Farebrothers better, and to talk to Mr. Farebrother about what there is
to be done in Middlemarch.</said>
</P>
<P>
Dorothea's native strength of will was no longer all converted into
resolute submission. She had a great yearning to be at Lowick, and was
simply determined to go, not feeling bound to tell all her reasons.
But every one around her disapproved. <said who="#JC" direct="false" aloud="false">Sir James was much pained, and
offered that they should all migrate to Cheltenham for a few months
with the sacred ark, otherwise called a cradle: at that period a man
could hardly know what to propose if Cheltenham were rejected. </said>
</P>
<P>
The Dowager Lady Chettam, just returned from a visit to her daughter in
town, wished, at least, that Mrs. Vigo should be written to, and
invited to accept the office of companion to Mrs. Casaubon: <said who="#LC" direct="false" aloud="false">it was not
credible that Dorothea as a young widow would think of living alone in
the house at Lowick. Mrs. Vigo had been reader and secretary to royal
personages, and in point of knowledge and sentiments even Dorothea
could have nothing to object to her. </said>
</P>
<P>
Mrs. Cadwallader said, privately, <said who="#MrsCad">You will certainly go mad in that
house alone, my dear. You will see visions. We have all got to exert
ourselves a little to keep sane, and call things by the same names as
other people call them by. To be sure, for younger sons and women who
have no money, it is a sort of provision to go mad: they are taken care
of then. But you must not run into that. I dare say you are a little
bored here with our good dowager; but think what a bore you might
become yourself to your fellow-creatures if you were always playing
tragedy queen and taking things sublimely. Sitting alone in that
library at Lowick you may fancy yourself ruling the weather; you must
get a few people round you who wouldn't believe you if you told them.
That is a good lowering medicine.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#D">I never called everything by the same name that all the people about
me did,</said> said Dorothea, stoutly.
</P>
<P>
<said who="#MrsCad">But I suppose you have found out your mistake, my dear,</said> said Mrs.
Cadwallader, <said who="#MrsCad">and that is a proof of sanity.</said>
</P>
<P>
Dorothea was aware of the sting, but it did not hurt her. <said who="#D">No,</said> she
said, <said who="#D">I still think that the greater part of the world is mistaken
about many things. Surely one may be sane and yet think so, since the
greater part of the world has often had to come round from its opinion.</said>
</P>
<P>
Mrs. Cadwallader said no more on that point to Dorothea, but to her
husband she remarked, <said who="#MrsCad">It will be well for her to marry again as soon
as it is proper, if one could get her among the right people. Of
course the Chettams would not wish it. But I see clearly a husband is
the best thing to keep her in order. If we were not so poor I would
invite Lord Triton. He will be marquis some day, and there is no
denying that she would make a good marchioness: she looks handsomer
than ever in her mourning.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#MrCad">My dear Elinor, do let the poor woman alone. Such contrivances are of
no use,</said> said the easy Rector.
</P>
<P>
<said who="#MrsCad">No use? How are matches made, except by bringing men and women
together? And it is a shame that her uncle should have run away and
shut up the Grange just now. There ought to be plenty of eligible
matches invited to Freshitt and the Grange. Lord Triton is precisely
the man: full of plans for making the people happy in a soft-headed
sort of way. That would just suit Mrs. Casaubon.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#MrCad">Let Mrs. Casaubon choose for herself, Elinor.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#MrsCad">That is the nonsense you wise men talk! How can she choose if she has
no variety to choose from? A woman's choice usually means taking the
only man she can get. Mark my words, Humphrey. If her friends don't
exert themselves, there will be a worse business than the Casaubon
business yet.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#MrCad">For heaven's sake don't touch on that topic, Elinor! It is a very sore
point with Sir James. He would be deeply offended if you entered on it
to him unnecessarily.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#MrsCad">I have never entered on it,</said> said Mrs Cadwallader, opening her hands.
<said who="#MrsCad">Celia told me all about the will at the beginning, without any asking
of mine.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#MrCad">Yes, yes; but they want the thing hushed up, and I understand that the
young fellow is going out of the neighborhood.</said>
</P>
<P>
Mrs. Cadwallader said nothing, but gave her husband three significant
nods, with a very sarcastic expression in her dark eyes.
</P>
<P>
Dorothea quietly persisted in spite of remonstrance and persuasion. So
by the end of June the shutters were all opened at Lowick Manor, and
the morning gazed calmly into the library, shining on the rows of
note-books as it shines on the weary waste planted with huge stones,
the mute memorial of a forgotten faith; and the evening laden with
roses entered silently into the blue-green boudoir where Dorothea chose
oftenest to sit. At first she walked into every room, questioning the
eighteen months of her married life, and carrying on her thoughts as if
they were a speech to be heard by her husband. Then, she lingered in
the library and could not be at rest till she had carefully ranged all
the note-books as she imagined that he would wish to see them, in
orderly sequence. The pity which had been the restraining compelling
motive in her life with him still clung about his image, even while she
remonstrated with him in indignant thought and told him that he was
unjust. One little act of hers may perhaps be smiled at as
superstitious. The Synoptical Tabulation for the use of Mrs. Casaubon,
she carefully enclosed and sealed, writing within the envelope, <said who="#D">I
could not use it. Do you not see now that I could not submit my soul
to yours, by working hopelessly at what I have no belief in—Dorothea?</said>
Then she deposited the paper in her own desk.
</P>
<P>
That silent colloquy was perhaps only the more earnest because
underneath and through it all there was always the deep longing which
had really determined her to come to Lowick. <said who="#D" direct="false" aloud="false"> The longing was to see
Will Ladislaw. She did not know any good that could come of their
meeting: she was helpless; her hands had been tied from making up to
him for any unfairness in his lot. But her soul thirsted to see him.
How could it be otherwise? If a princess in the days of enchantment
had seen a four-footed creature from among those which live in herds
come to her once and again with a human gaze which rested upon her with
choice and beseeching, what would she think of in her journeying, what
would she look for when the herds passed her? Surely for the gaze
which had found her, and which she would know again. </said> <first> Life would be no
better than candle-light tinsel and daylight rubbish if our spirits
were not touched by what has been, to issues of longing and constancy. </first>
It was true that Dorothea wanted to know the Farebrothers better, and
especially to talk to the new rector, but also true that remembering
what Lydgate had told her about Will Ladislaw and little Miss Noble,
she counted on Will's coming to Lowick to see the Farebrother family.
The very first Sunday, <emph rend="italics">before</emph> she entered the church, she saw him as
she had seen him the last time she was there, alone in the clergyman's
pew; but <emph rend="italics">when</emph> she entered his figure was gone.
</P>
<P>
In the week-days when she went to see the ladies at the Rectory, she
listened in vain for some word that they might let fall about Will; but
it seemed to her that Mrs. Farebrother talked of every one else in the
neighborhood and out of it.
</P>
<P>
<said who="#D">Probably some of Mr. Farebrother's Middlemarch hearers may follow him
to Lowick sometimes. Do you not think so?</said> said Dorothea, rather
despising herself for having a secret motive in asking the question.
</P>
<P>
<said who="#MFB">If they are wise they will, Mrs. Casaubon,</said> said the old lady. <said who="#MFB">I see
that you set a right value on my son's preaching. His grandfather on
my side was an excellent clergyman, but his father was in the law:—most
exemplary and honest nevertheless, which is a reason for our never
being rich. They say Fortune is a woman and capricious. But sometimes
she is a good woman and gives to those who merit, which has been the
case with you, Mrs. Casaubon, who have given a living to my son.</said>
</P>
<P>
Mrs. Farebrother recurred to her knitting with a dignified satisfaction
in her neat little effort at oratory, but this was not what Dorothea
wanted to hear. Poor thing! she did not even know whether Will
Ladislaw was still at Middlemarch, and there was no one whom she dared
to ask, unless it were Lydgate. But just now she could not see Lydgate
without sending for him or going to seek him. <said who="#D" direct="false" aloud="false"> Perhaps Will Ladislaw,
having heard of that strange ban against him left by Mr. Casaubon, had
felt it better that he and she should not meet again, and perhaps she
was wrong to wish for a meeting that others might find many good
reasons against. </said> Still <said who="#D">I do wish it</said> came at the end of those wise
reflections as naturally as a sob after holding the breath. And the
meeting did happen, but in a formal way quite unexpected by her.
</P>
<P>
One morning, about eleven, Dorothea was seated in her boudoir with a
map of the land attached to the manor and other papers before her,
which were to help her in making an exact statement for herself of her
income and affairs. She had not yet applied herself to her work, but
was seated with her hands folded on her lap, looking out along the
avenue of limes to the distant fields. <said who="#D" direct="false" aloud="false"> Every leaf was at rest in the
sunshine, the familiar scene was changeless, and seemed to represent
the prospect of her life, full of motiveless ease—motiveless, if her
own energy could not seek out reasons for ardent action. </said> The widow's
cap of those times made an oval frame for the face, and had a crown
standing up; the dress was an experiment in the utmost laying on of
crape; but this heavy solemnity of clothing made her face look all the
younger, with its recovered bloom, and the sweet, inquiring candor of
her eyes.
</P>
<P>
Her reverie was broken by Tantripp, who came to say that Mr. Ladislaw
was below, and begged permission to see Madam if it were not too early.
</P>
<P>
<said who="#D">I will see him,</said> said Dorothea, rising immediately. <said who="#D">Let him be shown
into the drawing-room.</said>
</P>
<P>
<second> The drawing-room was the most neutral room in the house to her—the
one least associated with the trials of her married life: the damask
matched the wood-work, which was all white and gold; there were two
tall mirrors and tables with nothing on them—in brief, it was a room
where you had no reason for sitting in one place rather than in
another. </second> It was below the boudoir, and had also a bow-window looking
out on the avenue. But when Pratt showed Will Ladislaw into it the
window was open; and a winged visitor, buzzing in and out now and then
without minding the furniture, made the room look less formal and
uninhabited.
</P>
<P>
<said who="#Pratt">Glad to see you here again, sir,</said> said Pratt, lingering to adjust a
blind.
</P>
<P>
<said who="#Lad">I am only come to say good-by, Pratt,</said> said Will, who wished even the
butler to know that he was too proud to hang about Mrs. Casaubon now
she was a rich widow.
</P>
<P>
<said who="#Pratt">Very sorry to hear it, sir,</said> said Pratt, retiring. Of course, as a
servant who was to be told nothing, he knew the fact of which Ladislaw
was still ignorant, and had drawn his inferences; indeed, had not
differed from his betrothed Tantripp when she said, <said who="#Pratt">Your master was as
jealous as a fiend—and no reason. Madam would look higher than Mr.
Ladislaw, else I don't know her. Mrs. Cadwallader's maid says there's
a lord coming who is to marry her when the mourning's over.</said>
</P>
<P>
There were not many moments for Will to walk about with his hat in his
hand before Dorothea entered. The meeting was very different from that
first meeting in Rome when Will had been embarrassed and Dorothea calm.
This time he felt miserable but determined, while she was in a state of
agitation which could not be hidden. Just outside the door she had
felt that this longed-for meeting was after all too difficult, and when
she saw Will advancing towards her, the deep blush which was rare in
her came with painful suddenness. Neither of them knew how it was, but
neither of them spoke. She gave her hand for a moment, and then they
went to sit down near the window, she on one settee and he on another
opposite. <said who="#Lad" direct="false" aloud="false"> Will was peculiarly uneasy: it seemed to him not like
Dorothea that the mere fact of her being a widow should cause such a
change in her manner of receiving him; and he knew of no other
condition which could have affected their previous relation to each
other—except that, as his imagination at once told him, her friends
might have been poisoning her mind with their suspicions of him. </said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#Lad">I hope I have not presumed too much in calling,</said> said Will; <said who="#Lad">I could
not bear to leave the neighborhood and begin a new life without seeing
you to say good-by.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#D">Presumed? Surely not. I should have thought it unkind if you had not
wished to see me,</said> said Dorothea, her habit of speaking with perfect
genuineness asserting itself through all her uncertainty and agitation.
<said>Are you going away immediately?</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#Lad">Very soon, I think. I intend to go to town and eat my dinners as a
barrister, since, they say, that is the preparation for all public
business. There will be a great deal of political work to be done
by-and-by, and I mean to try and do some of it. Other men have managed
to win an honorable position for themselves without family or money.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#D">And that will make it all the more honorable,</said> said Dorothea,
ardently. <said who="#D">Besides, you have so many talents. I have heard from my
uncle how well you speak in public, so that every one is sorry when you
leave off, and how clearly you can explain things. And you care that
justice should be done to every one. I am so glad. When we were in
Rome, I thought you only cared for poetry and art, and the things that
adorn life for us who are well off. But now I know you think about the
rest of the world.</said>
</P>
<P>
While she was speaking Dorothea had lost her personal embarrassment,
and had become like her former self. She looked at Will with a direct
glance, full of delighted confidence.
</P>
<P>
<said who="#Lad">You approve of my going away for years, then, and never coming here
again till I have made myself of some mark in the world?</said> said Will,
trying hard to reconcile the utmost pride with the utmost effort to get
an expression of strong feeling from Dorothea.
</P>
<P>
She was not aware how long it was before she answered. She had turned
her head and was looking out of the window on the rose-bushes, <said who="#D" direct="false" aloud="false"> which
seemed to have in them the summers of all the years when Will would be
away. This was not judicious behavior. But Dorothea never thought of
studying her manners: she thought only of bowing to a sad necessity
which divided her from Will. Those first words of his about his
intentions had seemed to make everything clear to her: he knew, she
supposed, all about Mr. Casaubon's final conduct in relation to him,
and it had come to him with the same sort of shock as to herself. He
had never felt more than friendship for her—had never had anything in
his mind to justify what she felt to be her husband's outrage on the
feelings of both: and that friendship he still felt. </said> Something which
may be called an inward silent sob had gone on in Dorothea before she
said with a pure voice, just trembling in the last words as if only
from its liquid flexibility—
</P>
<P>
<said who="#D">Yes, it must be right for you to do as you say. I shall be very happy
when I hear that you have made your value felt. But you must have
patience. It will perhaps be a long while.</said>
</P>
<P>
Will never quite knew how it was that he saved himself from falling
down at her feet, when the <said who="#D">long while</said> came forth with its gentle
tremor. He used to say that the horrible hue and surface of her crape
dress was most likely the sufficient controlling force. He sat still,
however, and only said—
</P>
<P>
<said who="#Lad">I shall never hear from you. And you will forget all about me.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#D">No,</said> said Dorothea, <said who="#D">I shall never forget you. I have never forgotten
any one whom I once knew. My life has never been crowded, and seems
not likely to be so. And I have a great deal of space for memory at
Lowick, haven't I?</said> She smiled.
</P>
<P>
<said who="#Lad">Good God!</said> Will burst out passionately, rising, with his hat still in
his hand, and walking away to a marble table, where he suddenly turned
and leaned his back against it. The blood had mounted to his face and
neck, and he looked almost angry. <said who="#Lad" direct="false" aloud="false"> It had seemed to him as if they were
like two creatures slowly turning to marble in each other's presence,
while their hearts were conscious and their eyes were yearning. But
there was no help for it. It should never be true of him that in this
meeting to which he had come with bitter resolution he had ended by a
confession which might be interpreted into asking for her fortune.
Moreover, it was actually true that he was fearful of the effect which
such confessions might have on Dorothea herself. </said>
</P>
<P>
She looked at him from that distance in some trouble, imagining that
there might have been an offence in her words. But all the while there
was a current of thought in her about his probable want of money, and
the impossibility of her helping him. <said who="#D" direct="false" aloud="false"> If her uncle had been at home,
something might have been done through him! It was this preoccupation
with the hardship of Will's wanting money, while she had what ought to
have been his share, </said> which led her to say, seeing that he remained
silent and looked away from her—
</P>
<P>
<said who="#D">I wonder whether you would like to have that miniature which hangs
up-stairs—I mean that beautiful miniature of your grandmother. I
think it is not right for me to keep it, if you would wish to have it.
It is wonderfully like you.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#Lad">You are very good,</said> said Will, irritably. <said who="#Lad">No; I don't mind about it.
It is not very consoling to have one's own likeness. It would be more
consoling if others wanted to have it.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#D">I thought you would like to cherish her memory—I thought—</said> Dorothea
broke off an instant, her imagination suddenly warning her away from
Aunt Julia's history—<said who="#Lad"> you would surely like to have the miniature as a
family memorial.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#Lad">Why should I have that, when I have nothing else! A man with only a
portmanteau for his stowage must keep his memorials in his head.</said>
</P>
<P>
Will spoke at random: he was merely venting his petulance; <said who="#Lad" direct="false" aloud="false"> it was a
little too exasperating to have his grandmother's portrait offered him
at that moment. </said> But to Dorothea's feeling his words had a peculiar
sting. She rose and said with a touch of indignation as well as
hauteur—
</P>
<P>
<said who="#D">You are much the happier of us two, Mr. Ladislaw, to have nothing.</said>
</P>
<P>
Will was startled. Whatever the words might be, the tone seemed like a
dismissal; and quitting his leaning posture, he walked a little way
towards her. Their eyes met, but with a strange questioning gravity.
Something was keeping their minds aloof, and each was left to
conjecture what was in the other. Will had really never thought of
himself as having a claim of inheritance on the property which was held
by Dorothea, and would have required a narrative to make him understand
her present feeling.
</P>
<P>
<said who="#Lad">I never felt it a misfortune to have nothing till now,</said> he said. <said who="#Lad">But
poverty may be as bad as leprosy, if it divides us from what we most
care for.</said>
</P>
<P>
The words cut Dorothea to the heart, and made her relent. She answered
in a tone of sad fellowship.
</P>
<P>
<said who="#D">Sorrow comes in so many ways. Two years ago I had no notion of
that—I mean of the unexpected way in which trouble comes, and ties our
hands, and makes us silent when we long to speak. I used to despise
women a little for not shaping their lives more, and doing better
things. I was very fond of doing as I liked, but I have almost given
it up,</said> she ended, smiling playfully.
</P>
<P>
<said who="#Lad">I have not given up doing as I like, but I can very seldom do it,</said>
said Will. He was standing two yards from her with his mind full of
contradictory desires and resolves—desiring some unmistakable proof
that she loved him, and yet dreading the position into which such a
proof might bring him. <said who="#Lad">The thing one most longs for may be surrounded
with conditions that would be intolerable.</said>
</P>
<P>
At this moment Pratt entered and said, <said who="#Pratt">Sir James Chettam is in the
library, madam.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#D">Ask Sir James to come in here,</said> said Dorothea, immediately. It was as
if the same electric shock had passed through her and Will. Each of
them felt proudly resistant, and neither looked at the other, while
they awaited Sir James's entrance.
</P>
<P>
After shaking hands with Dorothea, he bowed as slightly as possible to
Ladislaw, who repaid the slightness exactly, and then going towards
Dorothea, said—
</P>
<P>
<said who="#Lad">I must say good-by, Mrs. Casaubon; and probably for a long while.</said>
</P>
<P>
Dorothea put out her hand and said her good-by cordially. The sense
that Sir James was depreciating Will, and behaving rudely to him,
roused her resolution and dignity: there was no touch of confusion in
her manner. And when Will had left the room, she looked with such calm
self-possession at Sir James, saying, <said who="#D">How is Celia?</said> that he was
obliged to behave as if nothing had annoyed him. <said who="#JC" direct="false" aloud="false"> And what would be the
use of behaving otherwise?Indeed, Sir James shrank with so much
dislike from the association even in thought of Dorothea with Ladislaw
as her possible lover, that he would himself have wished to avoid an
outward show of displeasure which would have recognized the
disagreeable possibility. </said> <first> If any one had asked him why he shrank in
that way, I am not sure that he would at first have said anything
fuller or more precise than <said who="#JC"><emph rend="italics">That</emph> Ladislaw!</said> —though on reflection
he might have urged that Mr. Casaubon's codicil, barring Dorothea's
marriage with Will, except under a penalty, was enough to cast
unfitness over any relation at all between them. <first> His aversion was all
the stronger because he felt himself unable to interfere.
</P>
<P>
But Sir James was a power in a way unguessed by himself. <said who="#Lad" direct="false" aloud="false"> Entering at
that moment, he was an incorporation of the strongest reasons through
which Will's pride became a repellent force, keeping him asunder from
Dorothea. </said>
</P>
<BR/><BR/><BR/>
</div><div type="chapter" n="55"><head>CHAPTER LV.</head>
<epigraph>
Hath she her faults? I would you had them too.
They are the fruity must of soundest wine;
Or say, they are regenerating fire
Such as hath turned the dense black element
Into a crystal pathway for the sun.
</epigraph>
<BR/>
<P>
<first> If youth is the season of hope, it is often so only in the sense that
our elders are hopeful about us; for no age is so apt as youth to think
its emotions, partings, and resolves are the last of their kind. Each
crisis seems final, simply because it is new. </first> <first> We are told that the
oldest inhabitants in Peru do not cease to be agitated by the
earthquakes, but they probably see beyond each shock, and reflect that
there are plenty more to come. </first>
</P>
<P>
To Dorothea, still in that time of youth when the eyes with their long
full lashes look out after their rain of tears unsoiled and unwearied
as a freshly opened passion-flower, that morning's parting with Will
Ladislaw seemed to be the close of their personal relations. <said who="#D" direct="false" aloud="false"> He was
going away into the distance of unknown years, and if ever he came back
he would be another man. The actual state of his mind—his proud
resolve to give the lie beforehand to any suspicion that he would play
the needy adventurer seeking a rich woman—lay quite out of her
imagination, and she had interpreted all his behavior easily enough by
her supposition that Mr. Casaubon's codicil seemed to him, as it did to
her, a gross and cruel interdict on any active friendship between them.
Their young delight in speaking to each other, and saying what no one
else would care to hear, was forever ended, and become a treasure of
the past. For this very reason she dwelt on it without inward check.
That unique happiness too was dead, and in its shadowed silent chamber
she might vent the passionate grief which she herself wondered at.</said> For
the first time she took down the miniature from the wall and kept it
before her, liking to blend the woman who had been too hardly judged
with the grandson whom her own heart and judgment defended. Can any
one who has rejoiced in woman's tenderness think it a reproach to her
that she took the little oval picture in her palm and made a bed for it
there, and leaned her cheek upon it, as if that would soothe the
creatures who had suffered unjust condemnation? She did not know then
that it was Love who had come to her briefly, as in a dream before
awaking, with the hues of morning on his wings—that it was Love to
whom she was sobbing her farewell as his image was banished by the
blameless rigor of irresistible day. She only felt that there was
something irrevocably amiss and lost in her lot, and her thoughts about
the future were the more readily shapen into resolve. Ardent souls,
ready to construct their coming lives, are apt to commit themselves to
the fulfilment of their own visions.
</P>
<P>
One day that she went to Freshitt to fulfil her promise of staying all
night and seeing baby washed, Mrs. Cadwallader came to dine, the Rector
being gone on a fishing excursion. It was a warm evening, and even in
the delightful drawing-room, where the fine old turf sloped from the
open window towards a lilied pool and well-planted mounds, the heat was
enough to make Celia in her white muslin and light curls reflect with
pity on what Dodo must feel in her black dress and close cap. <said who="#Celia" direct="false" aloud="false"> But this
was not until some episodes with baby were over, and had left her mind
at leisure. </said> She had seated herself and taken up a fan for some time
before she said, in her quiet guttural—
</P>
<P>
<said who="#Celia"> Dear Dodo, do throw off that cap. I am sure your dress must make you
feel ill.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#D">I am so used to the cap—it has become a sort of shell,</said> said
Dorothea, smiling. <said who="#D">I feel rather bare and exposed when it is off.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#Celia">I must see you without it; it makes us all warm,</said> said Celia, throwing
down her fan, and going to Dorothea. It was a pretty picture to see
this little lady in white muslin unfastening the widow's cap from her
more majestic sister, and tossing it on to a chair. Just as the coils
and braids of dark-brown hair had been set free, Sir James entered the
room. He looked at the released head, and said, <said who="#JC">Ah!</said> in a tone of
satisfaction.
</P>
<P>
<said who="#Celia">It was I who did it, James,</said> said Celia. <said who="#Celia">Dodo need not make such a
slavery of her mourning; she need not wear that cap any more among her
friends.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#LC">My dear Celia,</said> said Lady Chettam, <said who="#LC">a widow must wear her mourning at
least a year.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#MrsCad">Not if she marries again before the end of it,</said> said Mrs. Cadwallader,
who had some pleasure in startling her good friend the Dowager. Sir
James was annoyed, and leaned forward to play with Celia's Maltese dog.
</P>
<P>
<said who="#LC">That is very rare, I hope,</said> said Lady Chettam, in a tone intended to
guard against such events. <said who="#LC">No friend of ours ever committed herself
in that way except Mrs. Beevor, and it was very painful to Lord
Grinsell when she did so. Her first husband was objectionable, which
made it the greater wonder. And severely she was punished for it.
They said Captain Beevor dragged her about by the hair, and held up
loaded pistols at her.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#MrsCad">Oh, if she took the wrong man!</said> said Mrs. Cadwallader, who was in a
decidedly wicked mood. <said who="#MrsCad">Marriage is always bad then, first or second.
Priority is a poor recommendation in a husband if he has got no other.
I would rather have a good second husband than an indifferent first.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#LC">My dear, your clever tongue runs away with you,</said> said Lady Chettam.
<said who="#LC">I am sure you would be the last woman to marry again prematurely, if
our dear Rector were taken away.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#MrsCad">Oh, I make no vows; it might be a necessary economy. It is lawful to
marry again, I suppose; else we might as well be Hindoos instead of
Christians. Of course if a woman accepts the wrong man, she must take
the consequences, and one who does it twice over deserves her fate.
But if she can marry blood, beauty, and bravery—the sooner the
better.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#JC">I think the subject of our conversation is very ill-chosen,</said> said Sir
James, with a look of disgust. <said who="#JC">Suppose we change it.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#D">Not on my account, Sir James,</said> said Dorothea, determined not to lose
the opportunity of freeing herself from certain oblique references to
excellent matches. <said who="#D">If you are speaking on my behalf, I can assure you
that no question can be more indifferent and impersonal to me than
second marriage. It is no more to me than if you talked of women going
fox-hunting: whether it is admirable in them or not, I shall not follow
them. Pray let Mrs. Cadwallader amuse herself on that subject as much
as on any other.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#LC">My dear Mrs. Casaubon,</said> said Lady Chettam, in her stateliest way, <said who="#LC">you
do not, I hope, think there was any allusion to you in my mentioning
Mrs. Beevor. It was only an instance that occurred to me. She was
step-daughter to Lord Grinsell: he married Mrs. Teveroy for his second
wife. There could be no possible allusion to you.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#Celia">Oh no,</said> said Celia. <said who="#Celia">Nobody chose the subject; it all came out of
Dodo's cap. Mrs. Cadwallader only said what was quite true. A woman
could not be married in a widow's cap, James.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#MrsCad">Hush, my dear!</said> said Mrs. Cadwallader. <said who="#MrsCad">I will not offend again. I
will not even refer to Dido or Zenobia. Only what are we to talk
about? I, for my part, object to the discussion of Human Nature,
because that is the nature of rectors' wives.</said>
</P>
<P>
Later in the evening, after Mrs. Cadwallader was gone, Celia said
privately to Dorothea, <said who="#Celia">Really, Dodo, taking your cap off made you like
yourself again in more ways than one. You spoke up just as you used to
do, when anything was said to displease you. But I could hardly make
out whether it was James that you thought wrong, or Mrs. Cadwallader.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#D">Neither,</said> said Dorothea. <said who="#D">James spoke out of delicacy to me, but he
was mistaken in supposing that I minded what Mrs. Cadwallader said. I
should only mind if there were a law obliging me to take any piece of
blood and beauty that she or anybody else recommended.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#Celia">But you know, Dodo, if you ever did marry, it would be all the better
to have blood and beauty,</said> said Celia, reflecting that Mr. Casaubon had
not been richly endowed with those gifts, and that it would be well to
caution Dorothea in time.
</P>
<P>
<said who="#D">Don't be anxious, Kitty; I have quite other thoughts about my life. I
shall never marry again,</said> said Dorothea, touching her sister's chin,
and looking at her with indulgent affection. Celia was nursing her
baby, and Dorothea had come to say good-night to her.
</P>
<P>
<said who="#Celia">Really—quite?</said> said Celia. <said who="#Celia">Not anybody at all—if he were very
wonderful indeed?</said>
</P>
<P>
Dorothea shook her head slowly. <said who="#D">Not anybody at all. I have
delightful plans. I should like to take a great deal of land, and
drain it, and make a little colony, where everybody should work, and
all the work should be done well. I should know every one of the
people and be their friend. I am going to have great consultations
with Mr. Garth: he can tell me almost everything I want to know.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#Celia">Then you <emph rend="italics">will</emph> be happy, if you have a plan, Dodo?</said> said Celia.
<said who="#Celia">Perhaps little Arthur will like plans when he grows up, and then he
can help you.</said>
</P>
<P>
Sir James was informed that same night that Dorothea was really quite
set against marrying anybody at all, and was going to take to <said who="#Celia">all
sorts of plans,</said> just like what she used to have. Sir James made no
remark. To his secret feeling there was something repulsive in a
woman's second marriage, and no match would prevent him from feeling it
a sort of desecration for Dorothea. He was aware that the world would
regard such a sentiment as preposterous, especially in relation to a
woman of one-and-twenty; the practice of <said>the world</said> being to treat of
a young widow's second marriage as certain and probably near, and to
smile with meaning if the widow acts accordingly. But if Dorothea did
choose to espouse her solitude, he felt that the resolution would well
become her.
</P>
<BR/><BR/><BR/>
</div><div type="chapter" n="56"><head>CHAPTER LVI.</head>
<epigraph>
<said>How happy is he born and taught
That serveth not another's will;
Whose armor is his honest thought,
And simple truth his only skill!
. . . . . . .
This man is freed from servile bands
Of hope to rise or fear to fall;
Lord of himself though not of lands;
And having nothing yet hath all.</said>
—SIR HENRY WOTTON.
</epigraph>
<BR/>
<P>
Dorothea's confidence in Caleb Garth's knowledge, which had begun on
her hearing that he approved of her cottages, had grown fast during her
stay at Freshitt, Sir James having induced her to take rides over the
two estates in company with himself and Caleb, who quite returned her
admiration, and told his wife that Mrs. Casaubon had a head for
business most uncommon in a woman. It must be remembered that by
<said>business</said> Caleb never meant money transactions, but the skilful
application of labor.
</P>
<P>
<said who="#MrG">Most uncommon!</said> repeated Caleb. <said who="#MrG">She said a thing I often used to
think myself when I was a lad:—'Mr. Garth, I should like to feel, if I
lived to be old, that I had improved a great piece of land and built a
great many good cottages, because the work is of a healthy kind while
it is being done, and after it is done, men are the better for it.'
Those were the very words: she sees into things in that way.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#MrsG">But womanly, I hope,</said> said Mrs. Garth, half suspecting that Mrs.
Casaubon might not hold the true principle of subordination.
</P>
<P>
<said who="#MrG">Oh, you can't think!</said> said Caleb, shaking his head. <said who="#MrG">You would like
to hear her speak, Susan. She speaks in such plain words, and a voice
like music. Bless me! it reminds me of bits in the 'Messiah'—'and
straightway there appeared a multitude of the heavenly host, praising
God and saying;' it has a tone with it that satisfies your ear.</said>
</P>
<P>
Caleb was very fond of music, and when he could afford it went to hear
an oratorio that came within his reach, returning from it with a
profound reverence for this mighty structure of tones, which made him
sit meditatively, looking on the floor and throwing much unutterable
language into his outstretched hands.
</P>
<P>
With this good understanding between them, it was natural that Dorothea
asked Mr. Garth to undertake any business connected with the three
farms and the numerous tenements attached to Lowick Manor; indeed, his
expectation of getting work for two was being fast fulfilled. As he
said, <said who="#MrG">Business breeds.</said> And one form of business which was beginning
to breed just then was the construction of railways. A projected line
was to run through Lowick parish where the cattle had hitherto grazed
in a peace unbroken by astonishment; and thus it happened that the
infant struggles of the railway system entered into the affairs of
Caleb Garth, and determined the course of this history with regard to
two persons who were dear to him. The submarine railway may have its
difficulties; but the bed of the sea is not divided among various
landed proprietors with claims for damages not only measurable but
sentimental. In the hundred to which Middlemarch belonged railways
were as exciting a topic as the Reform Bill or the imminent horrors of
Cholera, and those who held the most decided views on the subject were
women and landholders. Women both old and young regarded travelling by
steam as presumptuous and dangerous, and argued against it by saying
that nothing should induce them to get into a railway carriage; while
proprietors, differing from each other in their arguments as much as
Mr. Solomon Featherstone differed from Lord Medlicote, were yet
unanimous in the opinion that in selling land, whether to the Enemy of
mankind or to a company obliged to purchase, these pernicious agencies
must be made to pay a very high price to landowners for permission to
injure mankind.
</P>
<P>
But the slower wits, such as Mr. Solomon and Mrs. Waule, who both
occupied land of their own, took a long time to arrive at this
conclusion, their minds halting at the vivid conception of what it
would be to cut the Big Pasture in two, and turn it into three-cornered
bits, which would be <said>nohow;</said> while accommodation-bridges and high
payments were remote and incredible.
</P>
<P>
<said who="#MrsWaule">The cows will all cast their calves, brother,</said> said Mrs. Waule, in a
tone of deep melancholy, <said who="#MrsWaule">if the railway comes across the Near Close;
and I shouldn't wonder at the mare too, if she was in foal. It's a
poor tale if a widow's property is to be spaded away, and the law say
nothing to it. What's to hinder 'em from cutting right and left if
they begin? It's well known, <emph rend="italics">I</emph> can't fight.</said>
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<said who="#Solomon">The best way would be to say nothing, and set somebody on to send 'em
away with a flea in their ear, when they came spying and measuring,</said>
said Solomon. <said who="#Solomon">Folks did that about Brassing, by what I can
understand. It's all a pretence, if the truth was known, about their
being forced to take one way. Let 'em go cutting in another parish.
And I don't believe in any pay to make amends for bringing a lot of
ruffians to trample your crops. Where's a company's pocket?</said>
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<said who="#MrsWaule">Brother Peter, God forgive him, got money out of a company,</said> said Mrs.
Waule. <said who="#MrsWaule">But that was for the manganese. That wasn't for railways to
blow you to pieces right and left.</said>
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