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<A NAME="chap63"></A>
<H2 ALIGN="center">
BOOK VII.
</H2>
<BR/>
<H2 ALIGN="center">
TWO TEMPTATIONS.
</H2>
<BR/><BR/>
<H3 ALIGN="center">
CHAPTER LXIII.
</H3>
<P CLASS="intro">
These little things are great to little man.—GOLDSMITH.
</P>
<BR/>
<P>
<said who="#MrToller">Have you seen much of your scientific phoenix, Lydgate, lately?</said> said
Mr. Toller at one of his Christmas dinner-parties, speaking to Mr.
Farebrother on his right hand.
</P>
<P>
<said who="#FB">Not much, I am sorry to say,</said> answered the Vicar, accustomed to parry
Mr. Toller's banter about his belief in the new medical light. <said who="#FB">I am
out of the way and he is too busy.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#Minchin">Is he? I am glad to hear it,</said> said Dr. Minchin, with mingled suavity
and surprise.
</P>
<P>
<said who="#FB">He gives a great deal of time to the New Hospital,</said> said Mr.
Farebrother, who had his reasons for continuing the subject: <said who="#FB">I hear of
that from my neighbor, Mrs. Casaubon, who goes there often. She says
Lydgate is indefatigable, and is making a fine thing of Bulstrode's
institution. He is preparing a new ward in case of the cholera coming
to us.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#MrToller">And preparing theories of treatment to try on the patients, I
suppose,</said> said Mr. Toller.
</P>
<P>
<said who="#FB">Come, Toller, be candid,</said> said Mr. Farebrother. <said who="#FB">You are too clever
not to see the good of a bold fresh mind in medicine, as well as in
everything else; and as to cholera, I fancy, none of you are very sure
what you ought to do. If a man goes a little too far along a new road,
it is usually himself that he harms more than any one else.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#Minchin">I am sure you and Wrench ought to be obliged to him,</said> said Dr.
Minchin, looking towards Toller, <said who="#Minchin">for he has sent you the cream of
Peacock's patients.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#MrToller">Lydgate has been living at a great rate for a young beginner,</said> said
Mr. Harry Toller, the brewer. <said who="#MrToller">I suppose his relations in the North
back him up.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#Chicely"> I hope so,</said> said Mr. Chichely, <said who="#Chicely">else he ought not to have married that
nice girl we were all so fond of. Hang it, one has a grudge against a
man who carries off the prettiest girl in the town.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#Standish">Ay, by God! and the best too,</said> said Mr. Standish.
</P>
<P>
<said who="#Chicely">My friend Vincy didn't half like the marriage, I know that,</said> said Mr.
Chichely. <said who="#Chicely"><I>He</I> wouldn't do much. How the relations on the other side
may have come down I can't say.</said> There was an emphatic kind of
reticence in Mr. Chichely's manner of speaking.
</P>
<P>
<said who="#MrToller">Oh, I shouldn't think Lydgate ever looked to practice for a living,</said>
said Mr. Toller, with a slight touch of sarcasm, and there the subject
was dropped.
</P>
<P>
This was not the first time that Mr. Farebrother had heard hints of
Lydgate's expenses being obviously too great to be met by his practice,
but he thought it not unlikely that there were resources or
expectations which excused the large outlay at the time of Lydgate's
marriage, and which might hinder any bad consequences from the
disappointment in his practice. One evening, when he took the pains to
go to Middlemarch on purpose to have a chat with Lydgate as of old, he
noticed in him an air of excited effort quite unlike his usual easy way
of keeping silence or breaking it with abrupt energy whenever he had
anything to say. Lydgate talked persistently when they were in his
work-room, putting arguments for and against the probability of certain
biological views; but he had none of those definite things to say or to
show which give the waymarks of a patient uninterrupted pursuit, such
as he used himself to insist on, saying that <said who="#Lyd">there must be a systole
and diastole in all inquiry,</said> and that <said who="#Lyd">a man's mind must be
continually expanding and shrinking between the whole human horizon and
the horizon of an object-glass.</said> That evening he seemed to be talking
widely for the sake of resisting any personal bearing; and before long
they went into the drawing room, where Lydgate, having asked Rosamond
to give them music, sank back in his chair in silence, but with a
strange light in his eyes. <said who="#FB">He may have been taking an opiate,</said> was a
thought that crossed Mr. Farebrother's mind—<said who="#FB"> tic-douloureux
perhaps—or medical worries.</said>
</P>
<P>
It did not occur to him that Lydgate's marriage was not delightful: he
believed, as the rest did, that Rosamond was an amiable, docile
creature, though he had always thought her rather uninteresting—<FID who="#FB"> a
little too much the pattern-card of the finishing-school; and his
mother could not forgive Rosamond because she never seemed to see that
Henrietta Noble was in the room.</FID> <said who="#FB">However, Lydgate fell in love with
her,</said> said the Vicar to himself, <said who="#FB">and she must be to his taste.</said>
</P>
<P>
Mr. Farebrother was aware that Lydgate was a proud man, but having very
little corresponding fibre in himself, and perhaps too little care
about personal dignity, except the dignity of not being mean or
foolish, he could hardly allow enough for the way in which Lydgate
shrank, as from a burn, from the utterance of any word about his
private affairs. And soon after that conversation at Mr. Toller's, the
Vicar learned something which made him watch the more eagerly for an
opportunity of indirectly letting Lydgate know that if he wanted to
open himself about any difficulty there was a friendly ear ready.
</P>
<P>
The opportunity came at Mr. Vincy's, where, on New Year's Day, there
was a party, to which Mr. Farebrother was irresistibly invited, on the
plea that he must not forsake his old friends on the first new year of
his being a greater man, and Rector as well as Vicar. And this party
was thoroughly friendly: all the ladies of the Farebrother family were
present; the Vincy children all dined at the table, and Fred had
persuaded his mother that if she did not invite Mary Garth, the
Farebrothers would regard it as a slight to themselves, Mary being
their particular friend. Mary came, and Fred was in high spirits,
though his enjoyment was of a checkered kind—triumph that his mother
should see Mary's importance with the chief personages in the party
being much streaked with jealousy when Mr. Farebrother sat down by her.
Fred used to be much more easy about his own accomplishments in the
days when he had not begun to dread being <said who="#F">bowled out by Farebrother,</said>
and this terror was still before him. Mrs. Vincy, in her fullest
matronly bloom, looked at Mary's little figure, rough wavy hair, and
visage quite without lilies and roses, and wondered; trying
unsuccessfully to fancy herself caring about Mary's appearance in
wedding clothes, or feeling complacency in grandchildren who would
"feature" the Garths. <FID who="#M"> However, the party was a merry one, and Mary was
particularly bright; being glad, for Fred's sake, that his friends were
getting kinder to her, and being also quite willing that they should
see how much she was valued by others whom they must admit to be judges. </FID>
</P>
<P>
Mr. Farebrother noticed that Lydgate seemed bored, and that Mr. Vincy
spoke as little as possible to his son-in-law. Rosamond was perfectly
graceful and calm, and only a subtle observation such as the Vicar had
not been roused to bestow on her would have perceived the total absence
of that interest in her husband's presence which a loving wife is sure
to betray, even if etiquette keeps her aloof from him. When Lydgate
was taking part in the conversation, she never looked towards him any
more than if she had been a sculptured Psyche modelled to look another
way: and when, after being called out for an hour or two, he re-entered
the room, she seemed unconscious of the fact, which eighteen months
before would have had the effect of a numeral before ciphers. In
reality, however, she was intensely aware of Lydgate's voice and
movements; and her pretty good-tempered air of unconsciousness was a
studied negation by which she satisfied her inward opposition to him
without compromise of propriety. When the ladies were in the
drawing-room after Lydgate had been called away from the dessert, Mrs.
Farebrother, when Rosamond happened to be near her, said—<said who="#MFB"> You have to
give up a great deal of your husband's society, Mrs. Lydgate.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#R">Yes, the life of a medical man is very arduous: especially when he is
so devoted to his profession as Mr. Lydgate is,</said> said Rosamond, who was
standing, and moved easily away at the end of this correct little
speech.
</P>
<P>
<said who="#MrsV">It is dreadfully dull for her when there is no company,</said> said Mrs.
Vincy, who was seated at the old lady's side. <said who="#MrsV">I am sure I thought so
when Rosamond was ill, and I was staying with her. You know, Mrs.
Farebrother, ours is a cheerful house. I am of a cheerful disposition
myself, and Mr. Vincy always likes something to be going on. That is
what Rosamond has been used to. Very different from a husband out at
odd hours, and never knowing when he will come home, and of a close,
proud disposition, <I>I</I> think"—indiscreet Mrs. Vincy did lower her tone
slightly with this parenthesis. "But Rosamond always had an angel of a
temper; her brothers used very often not to please her, but she was
never the girl to show temper; from a baby she was always as good as
good, and with a complexion beyond anything. But my children are all
good-tempered, thank God.</said>
</P>
<P>
This was easily credible to any one looking at Mrs. Vincy as she threw
back her broad cap-strings, and smiled towards her three little girls,
aged from seven to eleven. But in that smiling glance she was obliged
to include Mary Garth, whom the three girls had got into a corner to
make her tell them stories. Mary was just finishing the delicious tale
of Rumpelstiltskin, which she had well by heart, because Letty was
never tired of communicating it to her ignorant elders from a favorite
red volume. Louisa, Mrs. Vincy's darling, now ran to her with
wide-eyed serious excitement, crying, <said who="#Louisa">Oh mamma, mamma, the little man
stamped so hard on the floor he couldn't get his leg out again!</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#MrsV">Bless you, my cherub!</said> said mamma; <said who="#MrsV">you shall tell me all about it
to-morrow. Go and listen!</said> and then, as her eyes followed Louisa back
towards the attractive corner, she thought that if Fred wished her to
invite Mary again she would make no objection, the children being so
pleased with her.
</P>
<P>
But presently the corner became still more animated, for Mr.
Farebrother came in, and seating himself behind Louisa, took her on his
lap; whereupon the girls all insisted that he must hear
Rumpelstiltskin, and Mary must tell it over again. He insisted too,
and Mary, without fuss, began again in her neat fashion, with precisely
the same words as before. Fred, who had also seated himself near,
would have felt unmixed triumph in Mary's effectiveness if Mr.
Farebrother had not been looking at her with evident admiration, while
he dramatized an intense interest in the tale to please the children.
</P>
<P>
<said who="#F">You will never care any more about my one-eyed giant, Loo,</said> said Fred
at the end.
</P>
<P>
<said who="#Louisa">Yes, I shall. Tell about him now,</said> said Louisa.
</P>
<P>
<said who="#F">Oh, I dare say; I am quite cut out. Ask Mr. Farebrother.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#M">Yes,</said> added Mary; <said who="#M">ask Mr. Farebrother to tell you about the ants
whose beautiful house was knocked down by a giant named Tom, and he
thought they didn't mind because he couldn't hear them cry, or see them
use their pocket-handkerchiefs.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#Louisa">Please,</said> said Louisa, looking up at the Vicar.
</P>
<P>
<said who="#FB"> No, no, I am a grave old parson. If I try to draw a story out of my
bag a sermon comes instead. Shall I preach you a sermon?</said> said he,
putting on his short-sighted glasses, and pursing up his lips.
</P>
<P>
<said who="#Louisa">Yes,</said> said Louisa, falteringly.
</P>
<P>
<said who="#FB">Let me see, then. Against cakes: how cakes are bad things, especially
if they are sweet and have plums in them.</said>
</P>
<P>
Louisa took the affair rather seriously, and got down from the Vicar's
knee to go to Fred.
</P>
<P>
<said who="#FB">Ah, I see it will not do to preach on New Year's Day,</said> said Mr.
Farebrother, rising and walking away. He had discovered of late that
Fred had become jealous of him, and also that he himself was not losing
his preference for Mary above all other women.
</P>
<P>
<said who="#MFB">A delightful young person is Miss Garth,</said> said Mrs. Farebrother, who
had been watching her son's movements.
</P>
<P>
<said who="#MrsV">Yes,</said> said Mrs. Vincy, obliged to reply, as the old lady turned to her
expectantly. <said who="#MrsV">It is a pity she is not better-looking.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#MFB">I cannot say that,</said> said Mrs. Farebrother, decisively. <said who="#MFB">I like her
countenance. We must not always ask for beauty, when a good God has
seen fit to make an excellent young woman without it. I put good
manners first, and Miss Garth will know how to conduct herself in any
station.</said>
</P>
<P>
The old lady was a little sharp in her tone, having a prospective
reference to Mary's becoming her daughter-in-law; <FID who="#MFB"> for there was this
inconvenience in Mary's position with regard to Fred, that it was not
suitable to be made public, and hence the three ladies at Lowick
Parsonage were still hoping that Camden would choose Miss Garth. </FID>
</P>
<P>
New visitors entered, and the drawing-room was given up to music and
games, while whist-tables were prepared in the quiet room on the other
side of the hall. Mr. Farebrother played a rubber to satisfy his
mother, who regarded her occasional whist as a protest against scandal
and novelty of opinion, in which light even a revoke had its dignity.
But at the end he got Mr. Chichely to take his place, and left the
room. As he crossed the hall, Lydgate had just come in and was taking
off his great-coat.
</P>
<P>
<said who="#FB">You are the man I was going to look for,</said> said the Vicar; and instead
of entering the drawing-room, they walked along the hall and stood
against the fireplace, where the frosty air helped to make a glowing
bank. <said who="#FB">You see, I can leave the whist-table easily enough,</said> he went
on, smiling at Lydgate, <said who="#FB">now I don't play for money. I owe that to
you, Mrs. Casaubon says.</said>
</P>
<P>
<sai who="#Lyd"d>How?</said> said Lydgate, coldly.
</P>
<P>
<said who="#FB">Ah, you didn't mean me to know it; I call that ungenerous reticence.
You should let a man have the pleasure of feeling that you have done
him a good turn. I don't enter into some people's dislike of being
under an obligation: upon my word, I prefer being under an obligation
to everybody for behaving well to me.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#Lyd">I can't tell what you mean,</said> said Lydgate, <said who="#Lyd">unless it is that I once
spoke of you to Mrs. Casaubon. But I did not think that she would
break her promise not to mention that I had done so,</said> said Lydgate,
leaning his back against the corner of the mantel-piece, and showing no
radiance in his face.
</P>
<P>
<said who="#FB">It was Brooke who let it out, only the other day. He paid me the
compliment of saying that he was very glad I had the living though you
had come across his tactics, and had praised me up as a Ken and a
Tillotson, and that sort of thing, till Mrs. Casaubon would hear of no
one else.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#Lyd">Oh, Brooke is such a leaky-minded fool,</said> said Lydgate, contemptuously.
</P>
<P>
<said who="#FB">Well, I was glad of the leakiness then. I don't see why you shouldn't
like me to know that you wished to do me a service, my dear fellow.
And you certainly have done me one. It's rather a strong check to
one's self-complacency to find how much of one's right doing depends on
not being in want of money. A man will not be tempted to say the
Lord's Prayer backward to please the devil, if he doesn't want the
devil's services. I have no need to hang on the smiles of chance now.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#Lyd">I don't see that there's any money-getting without chance,</said> said
Lydgate; <said who="#Lyd">if a man gets it in a profession, it's pretty sure to come by
chance.</said>
</P>
<P>
Mr. Farebrother thought he could account for this speech, in striking
contrast with Lydgate's former way of talking, as the perversity which
will often spring from the moodiness of a man ill at ease in his
affairs. He answered in a tone of good-humored admission—
</P>
<P>
<said who="#FB">Ah, there's enormous patience wanted with the way of the world. But
it is the easier for a man to wait patiently when he has friends who
love him, and ask for nothing better than to help him through, so far
as it lies in their power.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#Lyd">Oh yes,</said> said Lydgate, in a careless tone, changing his attitude and
looking at his watch. <said who="#Lyd">People make much more of their difficulties
than they need to do.</said>
</P>
<P>
He knew as distinctly as possible that this was an offer of help to
himself from Mr. Farebrother, and he could not bear it. <first> So strangely
determined are we mortals, that, after having been long gratified with
the sense that he had privately done the Vicar a service, the
suggestion that the Vicar discerned his need of a service in return
made him shrink into unconquerable reticence. </first> Besides, behind all
making of such offers what else must come?—that he should <said who="#Lyd">mention his
case,</said> imply that he wanted specific things. At that moment, suicide
seemed easier.
</P>
<P>
Mr. Farebrother was too keen a man not to know the meaning of that
reply, <FID who="#FB"> and there was a certain massiveness in Lydgate's manner and
tone, corresponding with his physique, which if he repelled your
advances in the first instance seemed to put persuasive devices out of
question. </FID>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#FB">What time are you?</said> said the Vicar, devouring his wounded feeling.
</P>
<P>
<said who="#Lyd">After eleven,</said> said Lydgate. And they went into the drawing-room.
</P>
<BR/><BR/><BR/>
</div><div type="chapter" n="64"><head>CHAPTER LXIV.</head>
<epigraph>
1st Gent. Where lies the power, there let the blame lie too.
2d Gent. Nay, power is relative; you cannot fright
The coming pest with border fortresses,
Or catch your carp with subtle argument.
All force is twain in one: cause is not cause
Unless effect be there; and action's self
Must needs contain a passive. So command
Exists but with obedience.
</epigraph>
<BR/>
<P>
Even if Lydgate had been inclined to be quite open about his affairs,
he knew that it would have hardly been in Mr. Farebrother's power to
give him the help he immediately wanted. <FID who="#Lyd"> With the year's bills coming
in from his tradesmen, with Dover's threatening hold on his furniture,
and with nothing to depend on but slow dribbling payments from patients
who must not be offended—for the handsome fees he had had from
Freshitt Hall and Lowick Manor had been easily absorbed—nothing less
than a thousand pounds would have freed him from actual embarrassment, </FID>
and left a residue which, according to the favorite phrase of
hopefulness in such circumstances, would have given him <said>time to look
about him.</said>
</P>
<P>
Naturally, the merry Christmas bringing the happy New Year, when
fellow-citizens expect to be paid for the trouble and goods they have
smilingly bestowed on their neighbors, had so tightened the pressure of
sordid cares on Lydgate's mind that it was hardly possible for him to
think unbrokenly of any other subject, even the most habitual and
soliciting. He was not an ill-tempered man; his intellectual activity,
the ardent kindness of his heart, as well as his strong frame, would
always, under tolerably easy conditions, have kept him above the petty
uncontrolled susceptibilities which make bad temper. But he was now a
prey to that worst irritation which arises not simply from annoyances,
but from the second consciousness underlying those annoyances, of
wasted energy and a degrading preoccupation, which was the reverse of
all his former purposes. <said who="#Lyd"><I>This</I> is what I am thinking of; and <I>that</I>
is what I might have been thinking of,</said> was the bitter incessant murmur
within him, making every difficulty a double goad to impatience.
</P>
<P>
Some gentlemen have made an amazing figure in literature by general
discontent with the universe as a trap of dulness into which their
great souls have fallen by mistake; but the sense of a stupendous self
and an insignificant world may have its consolations. Lydgate's
discontent was much harder to bear: it was the sense that there was a
grand existence in thought and effective action lying around him, while
his self was being narrowed into the miserable isolation of egoistic
fears, and vulgar anxieties for events that might allay such fears.
His troubles will perhaps appear miserably sordid, and beneath the
attention of lofty persons who can know nothing of debt except on a
magnificent scale. Doubtless they were sordid; and for the majority,
who are not lofty, there is no escape from sordidness but by being free
from money-craving, with all its base hopes and temptations, its
watching for death, its hinted requests, its horse-dealer's desire to
make bad work pass for good, its seeking for function which ought to be
another's, its compulsion often to long for Luck in the shape of a wide
calamity.
</P>
<P>
It was because Lydgate writhed under the idea of getting his neck
beneath this vile yoke that he had fallen into a bitter moody state
which was continually widening Rosamond's alienation from him. After
the first disclosure about the bill of sale, he had made many efforts
to draw her into sympathy with him about possible measures for
narrowing their expenses, and with the threatening approach of
Christmas his propositions grew more and more definite. <said who="#Lyd">We two can do
with only one servant, and live on very little,</said> he said, <said who="#Lyd">and I shall
manage with one horse.</said> <first> For Lydgate, as we have seen, had begun to
reason, with a more distinct vision, about the expenses of living, and
any share of pride he had given to appearances of that sort was meagre
compared with the pride which made him revolt from exposure as a
debtor, or from asking men to help him with their money. </first>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#R">Of course you can dismiss the other two servants, if you like,</said> said
Rosamond; <said who="#R">but I should have thought it would be very injurious to your
position for us to live in a poor way. You must expect your practice
to be lowered.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#Lyd">My dear Rosamond, it is not a question of choice. We have begun too
expensively. Peacock, you know, lived in a much smaller house than
this. It is my fault: I ought to have known better, and I deserve a
thrashing—if there were anybody who had a right to give it me—for
bringing you into the necessity of living in a poorer way than you have
been used to. But we married because we loved each other, I suppose.
And that may help us to pull along till things get better. Come, dear,
put down that work and come to me.</said>
</P>
<P>
He was really in chill gloom about her at that moment, but he dreaded a
future without affection, and was determined to resist the oncoming of
division between them. Rosamond obeyed him, and he took her on his
knee, but in her secret soul she was utterly aloof from him. The poor
thing saw only that the world was not ordered to her liking, and
Lydgate was part of that world. But he held her waist with one hand
and laid the other gently on both of hers; for this rather abrupt man
had much tenderness in his manners towards women, seeming to have
always present in his imagination the weakness of their frames and the
delicate poise of their health both in body and mind. And he began
again to speak persuasively.
</P>
<P>
<said who="#Lyd">I find, now I look into things a little, Rosy, that it is wonderful
what an amount of money slips away in our housekeeping. I suppose the
servants are careless, and we have had a great many people coming. But
there must be many in our rank who manage with much less: they must do
with commoner things, I suppose, and look after the scraps. It seems,
money goes but a little way in these matters, for Wrench has everything
as plain as possible, and he has a very large practice.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#R">Oh, if you think of living as the Wrenches do!</said> said Rosamond, with a
little turn of her neck. <said who="#R">But I have heard you express your disgust at
that way of living.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#Lyd">Yes, they have bad taste in everything—they make economy look ugly.
We needn't do that. I only meant that they avoid expenses, although
Wrench has a capital practice.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#R">Why should not you have a good practice, Tertius? Mr. Peacock had.
You should be more careful not to offend people, and you should send
out medicines as the others do. I am sure you began well, and you got
several good houses. It cannot answer to be eccentric; you should
think what will be generally liked,</said> said Rosamond, in a decided little
tone of admonition.
</P>
<P>
Lydgate's anger rose: he was prepared to be indulgent towards feminine
weakness, but not towards feminine dictation. <FID who="#Lyd"> The shallowness of a
waternixie's soul may have a charm until she becomes didactic. </FID> But he
controlled himself, and only said, with a touch of despotic firmness—
</P>
<P>
<said who="#Lyd">What I am to do in my practice, Rosy, it is for me to judge. That is
not the question between us. It is enough for you to know that our
income is likely to be a very narrow one—hardly four hundred, perhaps
less, for a long time to come, and we must try to re-arrange our lives
in accordance with that fact.</said>
</P>
<P>
Rosamond was silent for a moment or two, looking before her, and then
said, <said who="#R">My uncle Bulstrode ought to allow you a salary for the time you
give to the Hospital: it is not right that you should work for nothing.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#Lyd">It was understood from the beginning that my services would be
gratuitous. That, again, need not enter into our discussion. I have
pointed out what is the only probability,</said> said Lydgate, impatiently.
Then checking himself, he went on more quietly—
</P>
<P>
<said who="#Lyd">I think I see one resource which would free us from a good deal of the
present difficulty. I hear that young Ned Plymdale is going to be
married to Miss Sophy Toller. They are rich, and it is not often that
a good house is vacant in Middlemarch. I feel sure that they would be
glad to take this house from us with most of our furniture, and they
would be willing to pay handsomely for the lease. I can employ
Trumbull to speak to Plymdale about it.</said>
</P>
<P>
Rosamond left her husband's knee and walked slowly to the other end of
the room; when she turned round and walked towards him it was evident
that the tears had come, and that she was biting her under-lip and
clasping her hands to keep herself from crying. Lydgate was
wretched—shaken with anger and yet feeling that it would be unmanly to
vent the anger just now.
</P>
<P>
<said who="#Lyd">I am very sorry, Rosamond; I know this is painful.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#R">I thought, at least, when I had borne to send the plate back and have
that man taking an inventory of the furniture—I should have thought
<I>that</I> would suffice.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#Lyd">I explained it to you at the time, dear. That was only a security and
behind that security there is a debt. And that debt must be paid
within the next few months, else we shall have our furniture sold. If
young Plymdale will take our house and most of our furniture, we shall
be able to pay that debt, and some others too, and we shall be quit of
a place too expensive for us. We might take a smaller house: Trumbull,
I know, has a very decent one to let at thirty pounds a-year, and this
is ninety.</said> <first> Lydgate uttered this speech in the curt hammering way with
which we usually try to nail down a vague mind to imperative facts. </first>
Tears rolled silently down Rosamond's cheeks; she just pressed her
handkerchief against them, and stood looking at the large vase on the
mantel-piece. It was a moment of more intense bitterness than she had
ever felt before. At last she said, without hurry and with careful
emphasis—
</P>
<P>
<said who="#R">I never could have believed that you would like to act in that way.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#Lyd">Like it?</said> burst out Lydgate, rising from his chair, thrusting his
hands in his pockets and stalking away from the hearth; <said who="#Lyd">it's not a
question of liking. Of course, I don't like it; it's the only thing I
can do.</said> He wheeled round there, and turned towards her.
</P>
<P>
<said who="#R">I should have thought there were many other means than that,</said> said
Rosamond. <said who="#R">Let us have a sale and leave Middlemarch altogether.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#Lyd">To do what? What is the use of my leaving my work in Middlemarch to
go where I have none? We should be just as penniless elsewhere as we
are here,</said> said Lydgate still more angrily.
</P>
<P>
<said who="#R">If we are to be in that position it will be entirely your own doing,
Tertius,</said> said Rosamond, turning round to speak with the fullest
conviction. <said who="#R">You will not behave as you ought to do to your own
family. You offended Captain Lydgate. Sir Godwin was very kind to me
when we were at Quallingham, and I am sure if you showed proper regard
to him and told him your affairs, he would do anything for you. But
rather than that, you like giving up our house and furniture to Mr. Ned
Plymdale.</said>
</P>
<P>
There was something like fierceness in Lydgate's eyes, as he answered
with new violence, <said who="#Lyd">Well, then, if you will have it so, I do like it.
I admit that I like it better than making a fool of myself by going to
beg where it's of no use. Understand then, that it is what I <I>like to
do.</I></said>
</P>
<P>
There was a tone in the last sentence which was equivalent to the
clutch of his strong hand on Rosamond's delicate arm. <FID who="#R"> But for all
that, his will was not a whit stronger than hers.</FID> She immediately
walked out of the room in silence, but with an intense determination to
hinder what Lydgate liked to do.
</P>
<P>
He went out of the house, but as his blood cooled he felt that the
chief result of the discussion was a deposit of dread within him at the
idea of opening with his wife in future subjects which might again urge
him to violent speech. <FID who="#Lyd"> It was as if a fracture in delicate crystal had
begun, and he was afraid of any movement that might make it fatal. His
marriage would be a mere piece of bitter irony if they could not go on
loving each other. He had long ago made up his mind to what he thought
was her negative character—her want of sensibility, which showed
itself in disregard both of his specific wishes and of his general
aims. The first great disappointment had been borne: the tender
devotedness and docile adoration of the ideal wife must be renounced,
and life must be taken up on a lower stage of expectation, as it is by
men who have lost their limbs. But the real wife had not only her
claims, she had still a hold on his heart, and it was his intense
desire that the hold should remain strong. </FID> In marriage, the certainty,
<said who="#Lyd">She will never love me much,</said> is easier to bear than the fear, <said "#Lyd">I
shall love her no more.</said> Hence, after that outburst, his inward effort
was entirely to excuse her, and to blame the hard circumstances which
were partly his fault. He tried that evening, by petting her, to heal
the wound he had made in the morning, and it was not in Rosamond's
nature to be repellent or sulky; indeed, she welcomed the signs that
her husband loved her and was under control. <FID who="#R"> But this was something
quite distinct from loving <I>him</I>.</FID> Lydgate would not have chosen soon to
recur to the plan of parting with the house; he was resolved to carry
it out, and say as little more about it as possible. But Rosamond
herself touched on it at breakfast by saying, mildly—
</P>
<P>
<said who="#R">Have you spoken to Trumbull yet?</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#Lyd">No,</said> said Lydgate, <said who="#Lyd">but I shall call on him as I go by this morning.
No time must be lost.</said> He took Rosamond's question as a sign that she
withdrew her inward opposition, and kissed her head caressingly when he
got up to go away.
</P>
<P>
As soon as it was late enough to make a call, Rosamond went to Mrs.
Plymdale, Mr. Ned's mother, and entered with pretty congratulations
into the subject of the coming marriage. Mrs. Plymdale's maternal view
was, that Rosamond might possibly now have retrospective glimpses of
her own folly; and feeling the advantages to be at present all on the
side of her son, was too kind a woman not to behave graciously.
</P>
<P>
<said who="#MrsPlymdale">Yes, Ned is most happy, I must say. And Sophy Toller is all I could
desire in a daughter-in-law. Of course her father is able to do
something handsome for her—that is only what would be expected with a
brewery like his. And the connection is everything we should desire.
But that is not what I look at. She is such a very nice girl—no airs,
no pretensions, though on a level with the first. I don't mean with
the titled aristocracy. I see very little good in people aiming out of
their own sphere. I mean that Sophy is equal to the best in the town,
and she is contented with that.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#R">I have always thought her very agreeable,</said> said Rosamond.
</P>
<P>
<said who="#MrsPlymdale">I look upon it as a reward for Ned, who never held his head too high,
that he should have got into the very best connection,</said> continued Mrs.
Plymdale, her native sharpness softened by a fervid sense that she was
taking a correct view. <said who="#MrsPlymdale">And such particular people as the Tollers are,
they might have objected because some of our friends are not theirs.
It is well known that your aunt Bulstrode and I have been intimate from
our youth, and Mr. Plymdale has been always on Mr. Bulstrode's side.
And I myself prefer serious opinions. But the Tollers have welcomed
Ned all the same.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#R">I am sure he is a very deserving, well-principled young man,</said> said
Rosamond, with a neat air of patronage in return for Mrs. Plymdale's
wholesome corrections.
</P>
<P>
<said who="#MrsPlymdale">Oh, he has not the style of a captain in the army, or that sort of
carriage as if everybody was beneath him, or that showy kind of
talking, and singing, and intellectual talent. But I am thankful he
has not. It is a poor preparation both for here and Hereafter.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#R">Oh dear, yes; appearances have very little to do with happiness,</said> said
Rosamond. <said who="#R">I think there is every prospect of their being a happy
couple. What house will they take?</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#MrsPlymdale">Oh, as for that, they must put up with what they can get. They have
been looking at the house in St. Peter's Place, next to Mr. Hackbutt's;
it belongs to him, and he is putting it nicely in repair. I suppose
they are not likely to hear of a better. Indeed, I think Ned will
decide the matter to-day.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#R">I should think it is a nice house; I like St. Peter's Place.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#MrsPlymdale">Well, it is near the Church, and a genteel situation. But the windows
are narrow, and it is all ups and downs. You don't happen to know of
any other that would be at liberty?</said> said Mrs. Plymdale, fixing her
round black eyes on Rosamond with the animation of a sudden thought in
them.
</P>
<P>
<said who="#R">Oh no; I hear so little of those things.</said>
</P>
<P>
Rosamond had not foreseen that question and answer in setting out to
pay her visit; she had simply meant to gather any information which
would help her to avert the parting with her own house under
circumstances thoroughly disagreeable to her. As to the untruth in her
reply, she no more reflected on it than she did on the untruth there
was in her saying that appearances had very little to do with
happiness. Her object, she was convinced, was thoroughly justifiable:
<FID who="#R">it was Lydgate whose intention was inexcusable; and there was a plan in
her mind which, when she had carried it out fully, would prove how very
false a step it would have been for him to have descended from his
position. </FID>
</P>
<P>
She returned home by Mr. Borthrop Trumbull's office, meaning to call
there. It was the first time in her life that Rosamond had thought of
doing anything in the form of business, but she felt equal to the
occasion. That she should be obliged to do what she intensely
disliked, was an idea which turned her quiet tenacity into active
invention. <FID who="#R"> Here was a case in which it could not be enough simply to
disobey and be serenely, placidly obstinate: she must act according to
her judgment, </FID>and she said to herself that her judgment was
right—<said who="#R"> indeed, if it had not been, she would not have wished to act on
it.</said>
</P>
<P>
Mr. Trumbull was in the back-room of his office, and received Rosamond
with his finest manners, not only because he had much sensibility to
her charms, but <FID who="#MrTrumbull"> because the good-natured fibre in him was stirred by
his certainty that Lydgate was in difficulties, and that this
uncommonly pretty woman—this young lady with the highest personal
attractions—was likely to feel the pinch of trouble—to find herself
involved in circumstances beyond her control. </FID> He begged her to do him
the honor to take a seat, and stood before her trimming and comporting
himself with an eager solicitude, which was chiefly benevolent.
Rosamond's first question was, whether her husband had called on Mr.
Trumbull that morning, to speak about disposing of their house.
</P>
<P>
<said who="#MrTrumbull">Yes, ma'am, yes, he did; he did so,</said> said the good auctioneer, trying
to throw something soothing into his iteration. <said who="#MrTrumbull">I was about to fulfil
his order, if possible, this afternoon. He wished me not to
procrastinate.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#R">I called to tell you not to go any further, Mr. Trumbull; and I beg of
you not to mention what has been said on the subject. Will you oblige
me?</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#MrTrumbull">Certainly I will, Mrs. Lydgate, certainly. Confidence is sacred with
me on business or any other topic. I am then to consider the
commission withdrawn?</said> said Mr. Trumbull, adjusting the long ends of
his blue cravat with both hands, and looking at Rosamond deferentially.
</P>
<P>
<said who="#R">Yes, if you please. I find that Mr. Ned Plymdale has taken a house—the
one in St. Peter's Place next to Mr. Hackbutt's. Mr. Lydgate would be
annoyed that his orders should be fulfilled uselessly. And besides
that, there are other circumstances which render the proposal
unnecessary.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#MrTrumbull">Very good, Mrs. Lydgate, very good. I am at your commands, whenever
you require any service of me,</said> said Mr. Trumbull, who felt pleasure in
conjecturing that some new resources had been opened. <said who="#MrTrumbull">Rely on me, I
beg. The affair shall go no further.</said>
</P>
<P>
That evening Lydgate was a little comforted by observing that Rosamond
was more lively than she had usually been of late, and even seemed
interested in doing what would please him without being asked. He
thought, <said who="#Lyd">If she will be happy and I can rub through, what does it all
signify? It is only a narrow swamp that we have to pass in a long
journey. If I can get my mind clear again, I shall do.</said>
</P>
<P>
He was so much cheered that he began to search for an account of
experiments which he had long ago meant to look up, and had neglected
out of that creeping self-despair which comes in the train of petty
anxieties. He felt again some of the old delightful absorption in a
far-reaching inquiry, while Rosamond played the quiet music which was
as helpful to his meditation as the plash of an oar on the evening
lake. It was rather late; he had pushed away all the books, and was
looking at the fire with his hands clasped behind his head in
forgetfulness of everything except the construction of a new
controlling experiment, when Rosamond, who had left the piano and was
leaning back in her chair watching him, said—
</P>
<P>
<said who="#R">Mr. Ned Plymdale has taken a house already.</said>
</P>
<P>
Lydgate, startled and jarred, looked up in silence for a moment, like a
man who has been disturbed in his sleep. Then flushing with an
unpleasant consciousness, he asked—
</P>
<P>
<said who="#Lyd">How do you know?</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#R">I called at Mrs. Plymdale's this morning, and she told me that he had
taken the house in St. Peter's Place, next to Mr. Hackbutt's.</said>
</P>
<P>
Lydgate was silent. He drew his hands from behind his head and pressed
them against the hair which was hanging, as it was apt to do, in a mass
on his forehead, while he rested his elbows on his knees. He was
feeling bitter disappointment, as if he had opened a door out of a
suffocating place and had found it walled up; but he also felt sure
that Rosamond was pleased with the cause of his disappointment. He
preferred not looking at her and not speaking, until he had got over
the first spasm of vexation. After all, he said in his bitterness,
what can a woman care about so much as house and furniture? a husband
without them is an absurdity. When he looked up and pushed his hair
aside, his dark eyes had a miserable blank non-expectance of sympathy
in them, but he only said, coolly—
</P>
<P>
<said who="#Lyd">Perhaps some one else may turn up. I told Trumbull to be on the
look-out if he failed with Plymdale.</said>
</P>
<P>
Rosamond made no remark. She trusted to the chance that nothing more
would pass between her husband and the auctioneer until some issue
should have justified her interference; at any rate, she had hindered
the event which she immediately dreaded. After a pause, she said—
</P>
<P>
<said who="#R">How much money is it that those disagreeable people want?</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#Lyd">What disagreeable people?</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#R">Those who took the list—and the others. I mean, how much money would
satisfy them so that you need not be troubled any more?</said>
</P>
<P>
Lydgate surveyed her for a moment, as if he were looking for symptoms,
and then said, <said who="#Lyd">Oh, if I could have got six hundred from Plymdale for
furniture and as premium, I might have managed. I could have paid off
Dover, and given enough on account to the others to make them wait
patiently, if we contracted our expenses.</said>
</P>
<P>
<said who="#R">But I mean how much should you want if we stayed in this house?</said>