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                                 TINMAN

                                   By

                               TOM GALLON

  _Author of "Jarwick the Prodigal," "Tatterly," etc., etc._

                                 BOSTON
                       SMALL, MAYNARD & COMPANY

                                 MCMVII.




                                Contents
                                                                PAGE

                                _PART I_

                                CHAPTER I
                      WHAT I FOUND IN THE WOOD                     9

                                CHAPTER II
                      AND WHAT I LOST                             25

                                CHAPTER III
                      HER WEDDING DAY                             41

                                CHAPTER IV
                      THE KILLING OF THE LIE                      56

                                CHAPTER V
                      ALAS! FOR POOR PRINCE CHARLIE!              72

                                CHAPTER VI
                      I LEAVE THE WORLD                           87


                               _PART II_

                               CHAPTER I
                      MINE ENEMY                                 103

                               CHAPTER II
                      GHOSTS                                     119

                               CHAPTER III
                      I ENTER UPON SERVITUDE                     136

                               CHAPTER IV
                      THE COMING OF THE WOLVES                   153

                               CHAPTER V
                      I TOUCH DISASTER                           170

                               CHAPTER VI
                      LOVE WITH THE VEILED FACE                  187

                               CHAPTER VII
                      NEWS OF THE PRISONER                       203

                               CHAPTER VIII
                      I ASSIST THE ENEMY                         220

                               CHAPTER IX
                      I KNOW THE WAY AT LAST                     237

                               CHAPTER X
                      TOO LATE!                                  254

                               CHAPTER XI
                      I TELL THE TRUTH                           271

                               CHAPTER XII
                      THE HAUNTED MAN                            288

                               CHAPTER XIII
                      I FACE THE WORLD AGAIN                     305




                                 PART I




                               CHAPTER I

                      WHAT I FOUND IN THE WOOD


In all that I shall set down here, in telling the strange story of my
poor life, I shall write nothing but the truth. It has been written in
many odd times and in many odd places: in a prison cell, on paper
stamped with the prison mark; on odd scraps of paper in a lonely garret
under the stars, with a candle-end for light--and I, poor and old and
shivering--scrawling hastily because the time was so short. I have been
at once the meanest and the greatest of all men; the meanest--because
all men shuddered at the mere mention of my name, and at the thought of
what I had done; the greatest--because one woman loved me, and taught me
that beyond that nothing else mattered. I have lived in God's sunlight,
and in the sunlight of her eyes; I have gone down into the Valley of the
Shadow of Death, and have not been afraid; I have been caged like a wild
beast, until I forgot the world, just as the world forgot me. In a mere
matter of the counting of years I am but little past forty years of age;
yet I am an old man, and I have lived two lives--just as, when my time
comes, I shall have died two deaths. I have touched the warm lips of
Love; I have clasped the gaunt hands of Misery. I have warmed both hands
at the fire of Life; but now the fire has gone out, and only the cold
grey ashes remain. But of all that you may read, just as I have written
it, and as the memory of it has come back to me. Roll up the
curtain--and see me as I was--and judge me lightly.

                 *        *        *        *        *

It is not necessary that you should hear what manner of boy I was, nor
how I impressed those with whom I came in contact. I have no
recollection of my parents; they died, perhaps mercifully for them, when
I was quite young. I went to school in the ordinary way; I would not
have you think that I was anything but an ordinary boy. A little dreamy,
perhaps, and introspective; with those hopes and high ideals that come
to youth generally a little stronger in my case than in that of most
boys. I had a very decent fortune, left in the hands of a highly
respectable guardian; for the rest, apart from the mere matter of
education, I discovered pretty early that I was to be left to my own
devices, it being considered sufficient that I should grow up as a
gentleman, and should please myself. I think now that if I had had some
guiding will stronger than my own, I might never have done what I did,
and I might now be a highly respectable citizen, respected by those who
knew me, and with a life of easy contentment spreading itself fairly
about my feet. Instead of which----

I had made up my mind to be an artist; to that direction all my thoughts
and dreams and ideas tended. I would paint great pictures; I would
wander through the cities of the world, and see the pictures other men
had painted; I would live a life that had in it nothing of
commercialism, and nothing of the sordid. I did not know then how
circumstances mould a life and change it; how rough-fingered Fate can
step in, and tear asunder in a moment the fair threads we have woven,
and twist and tangle them, and ruin the fabric. Like many another poor
fool before me, I told myself that I could do what I liked with my life,
and shape it in what fashion I would.

Up to this time--that is, the time when I began to think for myself, and
to take my life into my own hands--I had not met my guardian. I had had
one or two curt and business-like notes from him during my schooldays;
and when I went to London I found that he had taken a lodging for me,
and had made various arrangements for my future. He was a little
contemptuous as to the profession I had adopted; but shrugged his
shoulders, and suggested that it was no real concern of his. I met him
first, on my coming to London, at his office in the City--an office in a
narrow dingy court, where he was in a position of some authority as
manager to a big firm. I know nothing of business, and knew nothing
then; I only know that he received me in a private room, and that I had
a dim understanding that in another room still more private was one
greater than himself, to whom he looked for instructions, just as all
those below him looked to him. Jervis Fanshawe, with half a dozen little
white stops let into the edge of the big desk at which he sat, to enable
him to communicate with his subordinates, was evidently a power to be
reckoned with.

I think, in that moment when I first saw the man, that I knew
instinctively I did not like him. He was leaning forward across the
great desk, with his arms stretched out upon it, and with a paper-knife
balanced between his hands lengthwise; he seemed to be summing me up,
and making up his mind about me. He was a man of about thirty-five,
inclined to baldness, and with a long clean-shaven face; he gave one the
impression that if he had allowed his beard to grow, it would have been
singularly black. His nose was long and thin, with rather wide nostrils;
and there was a deep cut in the very centre of his chin. Altogether it
was a strong face, and a sinister.

I was beginning to feel uncomfortable when at last he dropped the
paper-knife, and stood up to shake hands with me. "So you are Charles
Avaline?" he said. "I'm glad to see you. How old are you? I forget times
and dates."

"I shall be twenty in a month," I replied, "but I feel much older."

"Most people do at your age," he retorted. "Well--there are certain
arrangements to be made about your future--your income, and so on"--he
was looking down at the desk, and shifting some papers about uneasily
there--"and perhaps it would be better if you came round to my rooms
to-night to see me. I've got an old-fashioned place in Bloomsbury;
perhaps you'll dine with me there. I'll write the address down for you;
seven sharp, please."

I felt myself dismissed, and went away, to make acquaintance with that
London that I felt was to be my home for some considerable time to come.
Boy that I was, I wandered its streets happily enough for the greater
part of the day, feeling that this was my kingdom, and that I had come
into full possession of it already. Here I was to work, and live, and
dream, and be happy. I have thought since of that day--dreamed those
dreams again--and laughed to think that it was really to be the one day
in all my life that I was to see London with those eyes at all.

It was a fine night, and I walked to Bloomsbury; having some difficulty
in finding it, because my pride forbade that I should appear a country
bumpkin, unacquainted with London, and under the necessity of asking my
way. Coming to the house hurriedly and a little late, I saw a man who
had been going along before me mounting the steps of the house, and
tugging at the bell. Having rung, he turned about, with his hands on his
hips, and with a cane in one hand resting against his hip, and surveyed
me, as I waited a couple of steps below him, awkwardly enough, for the
door to open. He had the advantage of being bigger and older than I was,
to say nothing of the two steps upon which he was mounted.

He was a big young man, some ten years older than myself; very well
dressed, and with a swaggering air upon him that made me even then feel
my blood tingle a little. He stared down at me, and pulled at a little
dark moustache he wore; and then looked over my head. I was glad when
the door was at last opened, and when he faced about, and marched in.

There was another uncomfortable pause, in a room that was apparently my
guardian's sitting-room, until my guardian put in an appearance; a pause
during which the big young man and myself wandered about uncomfortably,
and looked at the few pictures, or stared out of the window. Then Jervis
Fanshawe came in, and introduced us.

"This is a--a friend of mine--Mr. Gavin Hockley," he said, glancing at
the other man a little resentfully, as I thought. "My ward--Mr.
Avaline." The young man glanced at me for a moment, and nodded, and
turned away. "We can go in to dinner; we're a small party--but none the
worse for that, I hope."

It was not a cheerful dinner, by any means. We sat round a circular
table, and were waited upon by a silent, elderly woman, who was
evidently very much afraid of Mr. Fanshawe. The dinner was plain and
substantial, and I was young and hungry; the wines, I believe, were
good, although I was no judge of that particular department. I only know
that the man Hockley drank a great deal, and told some stories I did not
understand, and some that I understood only too well. He absolutely
ignored me, even when I made a remark (which was but seldom), and he
talked to my guardian with an easy insolent familiarity that I did not
then understand. Strangely, too, my guardian seemed to defer to him in
all matters, and to be afraid of contradicting even the most outrageous
statement.

"I'm thinking," said Hockley, towards the close of the dinner, and
pausing for a moment, with his glass held near to his lips--"I'm
thinking of going down to Hammerstone Market again."

I saw that Jervis Fanshawe looked up at him quickly; when he replied, he
spoke more sharply than he had yet done. "What for?" he asked.

"I'm thinking of going down--for the fishing," replied Hockley; and as I
looked at him I saw that his face was creased in a grin, and that he was
watching Fanshawe. "That is, of course," he added, with a guffaw, "my
sort of fishing."

"You won't be welcome," said my guardian sourly; and the other man
responded with an oath that he could find his welcome anywhere.

After we had left the table, I saw Jervis Fanshawe take the other man
aside, and begin talking to him in a low voice, as though impressing
something upon him. But Hockley shook him off, and answered whatever had
been said aloud.

"I tell you I'm going--and the best thing you can do is to go with me.
If it comes to that, you know what I am when I get a bit excited; I
might need your restraining hand. You'd better make up your mind when
you'll go, and I'll make my arrangements accordingly."

My guardian said nothing, and the other man threw himself into a large
armchair, and began to smoke. It was quite late, and I had already begun
to think about going, when he got up, and went off without so much as a
word of farewell to either of us. Only at the door, with his hat on the
back of his head, he came back to demand an answer to the question he
had put at least an hour before.

"What date will suit you--next week?" he asked.

Jervis Fanshawe did not look at him; he was nervously twisting his hands
together behind his back. "I shall go down on Tuesday to Hammerstone
Market," he said, "and I shall stay at the house."

"Good. I shall stay at the _George_." Hockley lurched out of the
doorway, and we heard him slam the outer door of the house as he went
away.

And instantly there came a remarkable change over my guardian. In all my
life I never remember to have seen a man so suddenly become a wild beast
in a moment as Jervis Fanshawe did then. He ran to the door, and pulled
it open, and spluttered out blasphemies into the darkness of the
staircase; slammed the door, and came back into the room again, and
raged up and down there, saying horrible things about Hockley until my
blood seemed to run cold. And all the time taking not the faintest
notice of me at all.

Presently he sat down at the table, pulling at his lips with his long
fingers, and still muttering and breathing hard; it was like the gradual
dying away of a storm. After a time I ventured to speak to him, and to
wish him good-night; I believe I muttered some thanks for my
entertainment. As he took no notice of me, I went to the door, and found
my way to the place where my hat was; I was going out, when I heard his
voice calling to me sharply. I went back, and found him waiting there,
with a face that was comparatively calm.

"I don't know much about you artist fellows," he said, without looking
at me--"but I believe you sketch--paint out of doors--don't you?" As I
murmured that we did sometimes do that kind of thing, he went on
hurriedly: "I know a place where you would probably find some good bits
to sketch; you'd better go down with me. It's the place that fellow
spoke of just now--Hammerstone Market. I've got to go down there--on
business; old Patton lives there."

"Patton?" I asked vaguely; for I seemed to have seen the name somewhere.

"Yes, yes," he replied impatiently. "Patton & Co.: the people for whom I
am manager. You were in their place to-day. He has a country house--down
there--and I go down when I like. We'll go on Tuesday; pack your things;
I want you to make a bit of a splash down there--play the gentleman. Do
you understand?"

"Not quite," I said.

"I want to take the wind out of this fellow's sails--this beast
Hockley," he said. "I'd grind him to powder, if I had the chance--crush
him to nothing. You and I will play our own game, Charlie"--(it was the
first time he had called me by that name, and I was a little
surprised)--"and make him put his tail between his legs. There--we won't
talk any more about it; good-night!"

I walked home to the rooms Mr. Jervis Fanshawe had taken for me with my
head in a whirl. I know that I fell asleep that night, with a vague idea
that in some extraordinary fashion my guardian was in the power of Gavin
Hockley, and was obliged, in a sense, to do what that young man
suggested. Perhaps the mere act of thinking about that drove me into the
dream I presently had; for I remember that I thought presently I was
standing in a room, and that Hockley was before me, with that grin upon
his face; in that dream I felt that some one put a weapon into my hand.
Dreams are but intangible things, and this was a confused one, with only
the face of Hockley grinning at me from out of it, and the knowledge in
my own mind that I held a weapon of some sort gripped in my right hand.
And then the face was gone, and I seemed to wake up, to see him at my
feet, with blood upon him. I woke, trembling and shuddering, and glad to
see the calm moon staring in at me from the little street outside. It
took me a little time to shake off the horror of the thing. But I was
young, and youth needs sleep; so that I presently slept until morning.

Strangely enough, that dream haunted me--sprang up before me even in the
sunlight of the streets, and would not be shaken off. Seeing that I had
no earthly concern with Hockley, it was at least curious that I should
so persistently think of him; now as I had seen him swaggering on the
steps of the house, and staring insolently over my head; now as I
remembered him lounging at the table, and apparently overawing my
guardian; and now again, as in my dream, with his grinning face watching
me--and then lying at my feet, with blood upon him. I was too young for
such horrors, and yet I could not clear my brain of them.

That Tuesday arrived on which I was to travel down to Hammerstone Market
with Mr. Jervis Fanshawe. I had had a note from him the night before,
appointing the time of the train, and requesting me to meet him at the
railway station; and I was eager enough for the expedition. Although I
did not like Fanshawe, and felt that I never could, there was yet in my
heart a natural feeling of regard for him, as being the one person
intimately connected with me, and, above all, the man who had looked
after my interests during the years that I had been growing up. I set it
down deliberately here that I wanted to please him, and that, above all
things, I was anxious to win his approval. In a sense I was glad to
think that he wanted my company, although I wondered a little what was
going to happen at this place to which we were going.

In the train he set the matter fairly and clearly before me. "I am going
to this place, Charlie, on a matter of business," he said in a low tone,
and without looking at me. "Old Patton, as we call him in the business,
likes to make a friend of me as much as possible; I have been down here
frequently. It gives me a certain position with him--smooths business
generally. I can't say exactly how long I shall stop at his house; he
does not come up to the office as frequently as he used to do, and there
are certain matters he wants to discuss with me."

"It is very kind of you to take me with you," I said; but with a grim
smile he broke in on my enthusiasm.

"Oh, I'm not taking you to the house," he said, "I shall have to leave
you at the _George_. I intend, if possible, to get an invitation for you
to dinner one night--or perhaps to a luncheon; but at the moment I
merely want Patton to know that you are there, and who you are. He will
probably like to know that I am your guardian, and"--he hesitated for a
moment as though casting about in his mind for the right word--"and
responsible for you."

I have since come to think that whatever scheme was in the mind of the
man then, and whatever he meant to do, his real object in taking me
there, to begin with, was no deeper than that. I think he felt that it
would look well that he should have the responsibility of me upon his
shoulders--that it would give him an air of stability, and would cause
people to think well of him--much as though he held before himself the
record of a good deed as a species of shield, and cried--"This have I
done--and that; judge me in the light of it."

So it came about that I was left at the _George_ in the little town of
Hammerstone Market, while Jervis Fanshawe went on to the house of Mr.
Patton, which lay a little outside the town. The country round about
seemed to be very pretty, and I was free to do as I liked until such
time as my guardian should call upon me to go back to London, or to
visit him at the house of his patron. I liked the look of the little
old-fashioned hotel, and I liked the prospect of this new freedom, as I
unpacked my bag that first night, in my room that overlooked the sleepy
little High Street of the town.

Yet that prospect was blurred and made hideous in the morning by the
sudden incursion into it all of that heavy young man named Gavin
Hockley. I had had my breakfast (and a hearty one at that) in the old
low-roofed coffee-room, and was just making up my mind to sally forth
and do a long day's work, when the door was thrust open lumberingly and
brutally, and Hockley strode in. Whether or not he knew from my guardian
that I was there it is impossible to say; he looked over me, or through
me, as on the occasion of our first meeting, and lumbered out again,
slamming the door behind him. Remembering all that I had thought about
him, and remembering my dream, I was too much upset by his sudden entry
into the room even to be able to speak to him; he was gone before I had
made up my mind what to do.

When I came out into the little hall of the place, I saw him lounging
with one elbow on the low counter at one side, talking to the girl who
stood among the bottles and glasses behind it; and one heavy hand was on
his hip, and in that hand was his stick, just as it had been when he
stood on the steps and looked down at me. The little place seemed full
of him--poisoned by him; I was glad to get out into the sweet air of the
little town, and further than that into the woods and the fields.

I like to think of that morning now: I have seen myself, in imagination,
going so often down a long, dusty road, with my easel and colour box
slung across my shoulders; I believe I sang softly to myself as I went.
For the spring was in my heart and in my blood, and life was very, very
beautiful. I see myself leaving the road behind me, and turning into a
little wood near at hand, and sitting down to sketch the glories that
stretched before me. But I was like a butterfly that morning, in that
all was so beautiful that nothing wholly pleased me; I went deeper on
into the wood, and started again to paint. And lost myself in my work
and in a waking dream, until I was aroused by the sound of a young girl
singing.

(I lay down my pen here for a moment or two, because my eyes are dim,
and I cannot go on. The sunlight and the trees and all the mystery and
the beauty of the woods are with me again, and the dear voice of the
woman I was to love through all my life floats to me again, and stirs
something within my sad heart that was stirred that morning, never to be
still again. I close my eyes for a moment, and cover them with my hands;
and I am back there once more, looking at her wonderingly as she comes
towards me through the trees.)

I will not try to describe her; I only know that she was very, very
fair, and that she seemed almost a spirit of beauty, coming out of the
wood towards me. She was Nature--and Love--and Life--and Laughter--all
embodied; I could only sit and watch her; it did not occur to me even to
ask myself who she was.

She did not see me until she was quite close, and then she stopped, and
looked at me, quite unafraid. She was quite young--only eighteen, as I
knew afterwards--and she looked little more than a child. As I stumbled
to my feet, she looked shyly at me, and smiled; and it seemed then as
though I knew her, and as though she knew me. Afterwards, when we came
at another time to talk about it, she told me that it had seemed as
though she had come there to meet me out of some other life that was
left behind with that moment; and indeed, I cannot better express my own
feelings than in that way. Perhaps Youth called to Youth; or perhaps all
that was to be was written down in some grim Book of Fate, of which we
did not hold the key.

She shyly looked at my work, and asked questions about it; begged that I
would go on with it--and perhaps wondered why I could not, with her
distracting draperies fluttering against me almost, as she stood. Like a
child, and with a child's confidence in me, she offered to show me a
spot in the woods more beautiful than that I had chosen; I left my
easel, and we walked side by side among the trees, talking. I do not
know now of what we talked, but we seemed to speak of everything vital
and important in heaven and earth. And then, surprisingly, she told me
her name.

"I am Barbara Patton. I ought to have told you."

"Patton?" I said, remembering my guardian's mention of that name, and of
the house at which he was living.

"Yes; Mr. Patton, up at the house there, is my father. And you?"

I gave her my name, and we laughed a little consciously at the thought
that now we should know each other perfectly, and that all was fair and
straight between us. I have never met any one like her--never any one so
wonderful; I have known but few women, but I am sure there never was any
one like her in the world. She woke in me then, apart from the love I
knew had come into my heart at the mere sight of her, a desire to
protect her; and to be chivalrous and manly and strong, for her sake, to
every creature in the world.

I told her about my guardian; and when I spoke of him I thought I saw
the girlish face change a little, and a look of anxiety come into the
sunny eyes. A little reserve came over her, too, so that she spoke less
freely of herself; I wondered if she disliked him as much as I did.
Strangely enough, she voiced that feeling in a moment, when she faced
round upon me and asked the question--

"Do you like him?"

"I--I don't know," I faltered. "I've only known him a matter of hours."
Then, daringly willing to meet her mood in the matter, I added quickly:
"Of course, if you don't like him----"

"I'm afraid of him," she said, looking quickly about her among the
trees. Then, speaking more naturally, she said: "I hope I shall see
something of you, Mr Avaline, before you go back to London. I'm sure
that my father would be glad."

She held out her hand to me, as though in farewell, and as though
desiring that some distance should be set between us after our easy
familiarity. I took her hand, and held it for a moment, and looked into
her eyes; and in that second of time something seemed to pass from the
one to the other of us, and back again, that needed no words. It was as
though each expressed dumbly to the other mute confidence in the other,
and in what was in the other's heart.

I stumbled over the words I said to her. "I'm so glad--glad I've met
you, Miss Patton," I said; and my heart sang "Barbara!" over and over
again as I said it.

"I'm very glad to have met you, Mr. Avaline," she replied. And then,
after shyly leaving her hand in mind for a moment, she withdrew it, and
laughed, and turned away.

I watched her as she moved away through the trees, until at last she
turned, and glanced back at me; and then we both turned away abruptly,
and hurried out of sight. I went so fast that I stumbled, within a
matter of yards, over a man lying flat on his back, smoking, and staring
up at the tree-tops; I had kicked against him before I saw that it was
Hockley.

"Why the devil don't you look where you're going!" he growled, in
response to my apology.

I thought nothing of it then, although I have remembered it bitterly
enough since. I thought only of her I had left--wondered why the world
was changed in a moment for me, so that no loutish young men who
sprawled in the sunlight could poison the woods for me, or spoil the
prospect. And yet it seemed that that wood was haunted that day; for, as
I hurried off to find my easel, I saw another man standing at the edge
of a little pool, staring down into the water over his folded arms. He
was so intent upon the water, or seemed to be, that he did not notice
me; it was my guardian, Jervis Fanshawe.

I did not speak to him; I hurried on to where I had left my easel.
Coming to it, I saw that the canvas had been overturned, and that a
muddy heel had been ground into the painting, leaving it broken and
ruined. I seemed to know instinctively who had done that; I hurried back
through the wood in search of Hockley. But though I looked in all
directions, and even called his name sternly, I saw nothing of him; and
in the end I did not trouble further about it, but went home, hugging my
new happiness in my heart.

There I found a note from my guardian, curtly bidding me come up to the
house that night, to dine with Mr. Patton.




                              CHAPTER II

                           AND WHAT I LOST


I lunched alone that day, and spent the afternoon in the woods--perhaps
with a vague hope that I might again see Barbara Patton, as I had seen
her that morning. But I saw no one; even Hockley kept out of my way,
perhaps for obvious reasons. I comforted myself with the reflection that
I was to see her that night; I began to count the hours that must pass
before I should meet her.

I got back to the inn, and began to dress, long before it was necessary
that I should do so at all; I was like a girl in my desire to look well
that night, and to create a good impression. Not that I had any definite
feeling as to what was to happen in the future; it had not gone far
enough for that. I was in love, and that was all I thought about; and I
was going to meet her again, and to touch her hand and look into her
eyes. I lived in an impossible world, and dreamed impossible dreams.

While I dressed in a perfunctory fashion, I happened to glance out of
the window, and saw Jervis Fanshawe coming straight along the road
towards the inn. I was a little surprised, and for one moment a horrible
fear assailed me that he had come to tell me that the dinner had been
postponed; the next, I stopped in what I was doing, to watch him as he
walked, and to wonder at his hurry. For he was coming along at a sort of
half trot, with his eyes bent on the ground, and his hands clasped
before him; I could see the white fingers working together convulsively
as he came.

He came into my room, and stood for a moment or two looking at me, as
though scarcely knowing what to say, or how to account for his presence.
I expressed my surprise at seeing him, and asked if anything was the
matter.

"No--nothing is the matter," he replied, in a low tone. "You're early
with your dressing," he added.

I muttered some excuse, and went on fastening my collar. He seated
himself on the bed, so that he was directly behind me, and I could not
see him. An obstinate stud happening to fall, I stooped to pick it up,
and in so doing moved a little to one side; as I straightened myself
again, I caught sight of his face in the looking-glass. In that
momentary glimpse I had of it, I saw, to my astonishment, that it was
convulsed with rage--livid with a hatred so deadly that instinctively I
swung round to look at the man. But by that time the face was calm and
composed, and he was speaking in an ordinary voice. The change had been
so sudden and so complete that I had a dazed feeling that I must have
been mistaken, and had never seen that look at all.

"I wanted to see you, Charlie, before you went to the house to-night,"
he began, pressing his palms closely together, and sawing his hands
backwards and forwards with a regular movement between his knees as he
sat. "You're going to a strange house to-night, and it's just as well,
perhaps, that you should know something about the people you will meet.
You're young yet, and have not had much experience."

I laughed to myself to think how little he knew that I had seen the most
important person in that house that very day; mine was the wisdom of
youth, and I was sorry for this man, so much older than myself, who did
not understand these matters.

"Old Patton has every confidence in me--trusts me completely. In fact, I
may say that he has a liking for me that he has for very few men."

I wondered a little what manner of man old Patton could be that he
should like my guardian, but I said nothing.

"Mr. Patton has a daughter--a very presentable sort of girl, and, of
course, a lady," went on Fanshawe; and for some unaccountable reason I
found my fingers fumbling and trembling over the tying of my white tie.
"Save for him, she is alone in the world, and must, of course, be
provided for. Do you follow me?"

I followed him so well that the tie I was fumbling at had become a mere
piece of crumpled rag; I tore it from my neck, and took another.

"So that I have decided to marry the girl, and in that way consolidate
my position--and hers. It is, of course, not public in any way yet, and
I do not wish you to say anything about it." He paused, and in the
silence of the room I could hear his hands rubbing together over each
other. "Well--why don't you speak?" he demanded at last.

I could not trust myself to look round; I spoke with my back to him.
"And what about the young lady?" I managed to ask. "What does she say?"

"I don't understand," he responded blankly. "She hasn't said anything
yet; she hasn't been asked. It isn't exactly a question for her."

I threw up my head, and I laughed loud and long. The thing was so
absurd, from my point of view, and I was so sure of her, that I almost
seemed to see Jervis Fanshawe standing before her, and asking his
question; seemed to hear her laugh with me at the absurdity of it. What
did this man know of love or a girlish heart?

He got up abruptly, and came and stood beside me; as I still laughed, he
rapped sharply with his knuckles on the dressing-table, as though to
call me to order. In that moment reserve was thrown aside, and the man
blurted out what was in his mind.

"What were you doing in the wood to-day with her?" he asked, with his
face so close to mine that I could feel his hot breath on my cheek. I
faced round at him squarely.

"Why were you spying on me?" I demanded hotly; and at the look in his
eyes I shrank back from him, a little afraid. For I had never seen on
any face such a look of mingled fear and hopelessness, and longing and
misery, as I saw in his face then.

"Why was I spying on you? Why do I spy on every one? Why do I feel, when
I am near that child, like a weak and impotent child myself? I could
crush the life out of her with that hand"--he shook it fiercely in the
air before me as he spoke--"and yet she could make me do murder, with a
word or a look. I want her--and I mean to have her; there's a passion in
me that a boy such as you can't understand. Besides," he went on more
calmly, "there are other reasons--reasons you know nothing about. I've
gone too far to draw back--and yet I'm afraid to go on. Charlie"--he
laid his hand on my arm, and I felt it shake--"you've got to help me
somehow; we've got to get through this thing together. Unless I marry
this girl--(and God knows I'd treat her well)--it means red ruin for
me--and perhaps worse."

"She doesn't love you," I said coldly, urging the only argument I knew.

"I don't ask for that," he retorted bluntly, "because I don't understand
it. I'm going to marry her. I think my influence is strong enough with
her father for that; I am necessary to him."

"You don't know what you're talking about," I told him. "Do you think
she'd turn to you, or have a word to say to you, if you tried to draw
her with any other power save that of love? Women don't marry in that
way," I added, with the deep wisdom that had come to me that day.

"I suppose you think she's in love with you?" he sneered.

I felt myself burning red all over the face I turned from him, yet I
answered steadily. "I should like to think so," I replied; and in spite
of his jeers I refused to say any more then.

He paced about the room for a time, stepping carefully over the pattern
in the carpet, as though deep in thought. Presently he stopped almost
behind me, and spoke in a tone that was half pleading and half
threatening. "You mustn't be a fool over this matter, Charlie," he said.
"Yours is calf love; you're not old enough to know anything about that
sort of thing yet. Besides, old Patton would laugh at you."

"I'm not going to marry old Patton," I reminded him. "In any case, I
don't want to discuss the matter, because there's nothing to discuss.
Only for your own sake I would advise you to think twice before you
suggest marrying Barbara Patton."

"How did you come to know her name?" he asked quickly.

"From her own lips," I replied, turning away from him, and beginning to
finish my dressing.

I remember that before he hurried away he strove to patch up some sort
of peace with me; held out his hand, with seeming frankness, and
declared that I was a fine fellow, and that he meant to stand by me.
What he meant by that I did not exactly know; I only understood that he
was nervous and anxious, and although I chafed at the thought of his
daring to raise eyes to my Barbara, I yet felt a sort of sneaking pity
for him, as some one lower than myself, who did not understand this
business of love, and had no real chance in the game.

Nevertheless I was troubled. I did not like the thought that this girl,
who had suddenly become, in a matter of hours, so much to me, should be
the centre of plots and intrigues; above all, I did not like to think
that there might be a possibility that my guardian would be able to use
a powerful lever to gain her father on his own side. I thought of her
always among the trees in the sunlight--and alone with me; I could not
bear to think of her then in any other way. Even while I longed for the
moment to arrive when I should see her, I yet felt that insane jealousy
of youth which resented the thought that others would be about her, and
would claim her attention.

I walked in the gathering dusk to the house, being nearly run down in
consequence by a dogcart, in which was seated a man whom I felt
instinctively must be Gavin Hockley. I do not know why I thought so,
except for his brutal method of driving, and for the fact that he
shouted at me for daring to be on the same road with him. I wondered a
little where he was going; I understood better when, on reaching the
house, I saw him lounging with his hands in his pockets in the doorway
of the drawing-room. I thought of my ruined painting, and of my escape
from an accident but a few minutes before; but I said nothing. I could
not quarrel with the fellow there, but I made up my mind that I would
have something to say to him before we parted for the night.

The house was an old and roomy one--just the sort of country house that
one would expect a substantial man of business to have. There were
several guests besides myself: one elderly lady, whom I understood to be
a sister to old Patton; a doctor from the neighbourhood and his wife;
and a tall pleasant-faced young man, not very intelligent-looking, but
with good-humour writ large all over him. For some reason our host was
not there when we arrived, but he came in almost immediately afterwards,
with Barbara on his arm, and closely followed by Jervis Fanshawe.

I cannot account for it even now, save by the suggestion that I was
myself fully on the alert that night, and expectant of anything and
everything that might happen; but the very air was stormy. The mere
mutterings of that storm came, as it were, into the room with old Patton
and his daughter; the menace of it was in the white watchful face of my
guardian behind them. And yet there was nothing in the least stormy in
the appearance of old Patton himself; indeed, he was quite a
benevolent-looking gentleman, rather too old, I thought, to be the
father of Barbara, for his hair was white, and he stooped a little as he
walked. But he had a kindly face, with yet a certain strong note of
determination in it.

Barbara raised her eyes to mine once, and once only; and in that flash I
strove to read her thoughts and her heart. In the look I thought I
detected that she mutely asked me something, or pleaded with me; so much
I seemed to understand, but no more. She gave no sign of knowing me, and
only bowed slightly when I was introduced; old Patton, on the other
hand, greeted me warmly, and had a cordial word or two to say about my
guardian. He shook hands, too, with Hockley, and seemed to know him; I
gathered that Hockley had been there before.

I had had a wild dream that I might take Barbara in to dinner; but that
was reserved for the young man of the good-humoured face. Somehow I felt
I did not like him quite so well as I had at first, but, remembering our
meeting in the wood, I felt that Barbara probably shared my feelings on
the matter, and suffered as much as I did. I went in at the tail end of
the little procession, and was consoled to find that Barbara was seated
opposite me, and that I could watch her easily during the progress of
the meal. Other eyes were watching her, too, with a curious intentness;
my guardian's, with his nostrils distended, and his hands nervously
gripping each other; Hockley's, with the brutal dull look that belonged
to him. For her own part, she kept her eyes on her plate, and only now
and then seemed to answer a remark addressed to her by the young man of
the good-humoured face, whose name I heard was Lucas Savell.

I do not remember the dinner; it seemed all Barbara. I know I replied to
words addressed to me, and I suppose I replied fairly intelligently; but
all the time I seemed to see that face before me, and to see it,
strangely enough, as the centre of that storm-cloud that was gathering.
From that face I would glance for a moment to the face of Jervis
Fanshawe, that never seemed to change, and that was like a white mask;
and from that again to the face of old Patton, at the head of the table,
watching the bent head of his daughter; or again to Hockley, lounging
clumsily in his chair, with his shoulder turned towards the doctor's
wife, the while he carelessly flung a remark or two over it at that
lady. And so back to Barbara again.

I awoke to the consciousness that the doctor was telling a story, and
telling it, as it seemed, rather well, to judge by the interested faces
about him; even Barbara had raised her head a little, and seemed to be
listening.

"It came to this, therefore," the doctor was saying, "that this man had
a reason for getting rid of two people, and, so far as I can make out
(for, of course, you will understand that I cannot give names or dates
or places), set about deliberately to compass the death of both. The one
man he determined should, if possible, be induced to kill the other, and
in so doing should, of necessity, kill himself, in suffering the just
penalty of his crime."

"And did the plan succeed?" It was old Patton who asked the question,
and it was obvious that he asked it more to keep the conversation alive
than for any real interest he felt in such a subject.

"Yes, the plan succeeded," said the doctor, softly crumbling a morsel of
bread, and looking down at it, before raising his bright eyes for a
moment to his host. "He brought the two men together, as if in the most
innocent way; saw to it that they were thrown much into each other's
company; arranged that they should become on such intimate terms that
they should know each other's secret lives, and so should play into each
other's hands, and into his. And in that way he almost overshot the
mark; for they became so friendly that there seemed for a time but
little prospect that the one should ever quarrel with the other
sufficiently to seek his life. Therefore our friend determined to
introduce another element--a mere pawn in the game. He chose a woman."

A little sigh went up from the company, and there was some small nodding
of heads, as though this was quite what might have been expected.
Glancing round the table, I caught sight of only one face, and that a
horrible one; the face of Jervis Fanshawe, thrust forward, with eager
eyes fixed on those of the doctor. It fascinated me, and I watched it.

"He saw to it that the woman was young, and attractive, and virtuous; he
rightly calculated that, if carefully managed, it might happen that the
younger man would fall in love with her. And sure enough that was
exactly what did happen; the younger man, although quite hopelessly,
worshipped her in a romantic and very ideal sort of way."

"I begin to understand," said Lucas Savell, nodding his head. "The other
man fell in love with her, too." "Nothing so commonplace," replied the
doctor. "Our friend who had the scheme in mind went to that other man,
and whispered lies about the woman--dropping a sure poison where he knew
it would take root and spread. And presently it happened that the elder
of the two men who were destined to die breathed a word against the
woman the other loved, and another word, and yet another; the breach
grew and grew, and the man who had repeated the lie strove hard to
justify what he had said. Then came the final business of all, when the
younger man, in a fit of rage, struck down his friend, and in due course
paid the penalty with his life."

Another little sigh, almost of relief, as the story finished; then,
after a pause, conversation broke out more generally. Looking up, I
caught the eye of my guardian, and saw that he was watching me; he
smiled, as a man does who catches the eye of a friend, and then looked
away. And then in a moment, as it seemed, that storm that had hovered
over us burst suddenly and relentlessly.

Old Patton made a sign to a servant, and whispered something to the man,
who bent his head to listen; then the man and another hurried round, and
began to fill the champagne glasses. I saw that Barbara was watching her
father; I saw her lips parted, as though she would have spoken, but
dared not. And still I did not understand; still it never occurred to me
to look at the young man of the good-humoured face, who sat beside her,
and who had, I imagine, begun to colour a little consciously.

"And now for something a little more pleasant," said old Patton, with
the somewhat dictatorial air of the host. "Your glasses are charged,
friends, and I have a toast to propose----"

"Not now, father," I heard Barbara's distressed voice say.

"A toast you will all be glad, I am sure, to drink heartily. I give
you----"

"Father!--not now!"

"My dear child, better now than at any time," he retorted, nodding at
her with a kindly frown. "My friends," he went on, looking round at
us--"I have an announcement to make to you--an announcement of a very
pleasing character." He cleared his throat, and jerked his chin up a
little, with an air of importance. "I have to announce the engagement of
my daughter Barbara to her cousin--Lucas Savell--and I ask you to drink
their healths."

I know that my heart seemed to stand still; in the momentary silence I
could only stare straight across at the girl. She had raised her eyes,
and was looking straight at me; and again in those eyes I read pleading
and entreaty, and perhaps a prayer that I would understand. Our eyes
held each other's then, just as they had held by their glances in the
wood.

"I am getting on in years, and it is more than possible that there is
not much more time left to me," went on old Patton. "I shall be glad to
feel that my child's future is safe in the hands of a good man. It has
been the wish of my life that these two young people should marry, and
after a little hesitation--coyness, I suppose--the thing has been
settled. My friends"--he raised his glass, and smiled round upon us
all--"the health of my daughter and of her future husband!"

We all stood up, raising our glasses, and murmuring the toast. Some
little surprise and confusion was caused by the fact that the thin stem
of my glass snapped in my fingers, so that the glass fell, spilling the
wine over the cloth. It did not seem to matter then; nothing seemed to
matter at all; the world was dead for me. I was glad when presently the
ladies rose to go; I saw Savell whisper something to Barbara, and saw
that she replied, without looking at him. Nor did she look at me again;
she passed out of the room with bent head.

I heard a whisper at my ear. "Well, what's your opinion of women now?" I
turned, and saw the leering face of Gavin Hockley, with the corners of
his mouth drawn down in a sneer. I did not reply to him; I lit a
cigarette that was offered me, and wondered how long I must wait before
I could get away. I meant to walk the night away, and get rid of my
sorrow.

We went soon into the drawing-room, for Barbara was singing, and her
father wished us to hear it. Looking back on that night now, I have
wondered often and often what I must have seemed like to the other
guests--have wondered whether by chance any one guessed my secret, or
knew the bitter ache in my heart. It was one evening in my life that was
full of acutest misery; yet I was to be compensated, strangely enough,
and hopelessly enough.

She had been singing, while her lover stood beside her at the piano. The
room seemed suffocating, and I got up, and stood by an open French
window, looking out over the dark garden; I felt somehow as though my
heart, beating up madly into my throat, must burst. The music behind me
ceased, and there was a movement in the room; I did not turn my head.

I heard rather than saw the movement of her dress near to me; caught the
quick whisper that was as a mere breath of sound, as she stepped over
the sill of the French window, and went past me into the darkness--

"I must speak to you."

I was stepping out straight after her, when I was thrust aside in a
fashion that drove me hard against the window-frame, and Hockley strode
out after her. I had recovered myself, and was beside him in a moment;
but not before he had caught her hand, and drawn it under his arm
roughly.

"Your future husband will have enough of you in the future, my dear," he
said, a little thickly. "Come out into the garden."

Behind me in the room I could hear the soft well-bred laughter; before
me in the darkness that little tragedy was going on. For the girl was
pulling helplessly at his arm to get away; I heard her pleading with him
in a whisper. The sight maddened me; I was not responsible for what I
did. I spoke to him sharply; and as he swung round, and she strove again
to free herself, I struck him with all my might--flinging all the rage
and despair that was in my heart into the blow--fair on the temple. He
threw up his arm, and went down backwards over some steps that led from
the terrace. I felt certain that I had killed him.

The noise he made, and a shout he gave as he went down, had alarmed the
people in the room; they came crowding out to see what was wrong. Their
excited faces were behind us; up from the darkness rose the surprised
face of Gavin Hockley; I saw him furtively brushing the dust from his
clothes, as he rose first to his knees, and then to his feet.

"Nothing to make a fuss about," he growled. "I--I slipped. Infernally
dark out here."

I caught a look on the face of my guardian that puzzled me; it was that
eager look again, but intensified a thousandfold; and he was smiling
straight at me as though--ridiculous thought!--I had done some worthy
thing in his eyes. That look surprised me, and in a vague way terrified
me.

As the confusion subsided, and the people went back into the room, I
found that the girl was clinging to my arm; and it seemed natural that
she should do so. Hockley had slouched away, muttering that he would put
himself straight; once again it happened that Barbara and I were alone
together. We passed out of sight of the windows; and then in a moment,
at the end of the terrace, we stood in perfect understanding, as it
seemed, with hands clasping hands, and my boyish eyes looking into her
girlish ones. And it was writ in the skies above us, and whispered by
the trees forlornly enough, that we loved each other, and that it was
all hopeless.

"I promised a year ago--before I understood," she whispered, as though
taking up a tale that had been told between us. "My father likes him; he
will be good to me, I know. I--I did not understand."

I seemed to live twenty lives in that moment when I stood and held her
hands, and listened to her words. There was a savage pride in my heart,
greater than my misery, that I should so have won her without a word; I
knew that I was greater in her sight than the man whose name she was to
take. Boy though I was, I know that I dedicated myself and my life to
her then; the world has never seemed to me so pure and holy since as it
did then. I was not ashamed of the tears I shed, as I bent my head, and
put my lips to her hands; I felt that I could not shame her with any
pleadings or protestations. When presently we were calmer, I walked
slowly back into the world with her, and gave her to the man to whom she
belonged, and who had come in search of her.

I did not see her again that night; she pleaded fatigue, and went to her
room. The little party broke up, and I presently found myself on the
high road under the stars, walking beside Jervis Fanshawe. And the thing
that surprised me most was the extraordinary mood the man was in. He
gave vent to little soft chuckles from time to time, and snapped his
long fingers, and muttered to himself; while every now and then he
dropped a hand on my shoulder, and gave it an approving squeeze, as
though in pure friendliness. It was only when he spoke to me that my
mind went back to my encounter with Hockley that night.

"You struck well, my boy; I'd like to have seen the whole thing, but I
was a bit too late. Muscle is a magnificent possession; and you must be
very strong." He slipped his hand down my arm as he spoke, and chuckled
again. "Always strike hard, Charlie; stand no insolence from a creature
like that. He's a leper--a bullying beast--a robber!" Strong though I
was, he absolutely hurt me with the grip he gave my arm.

"He's walking along just in front of us," I said a moment later, as we
saw a figure slouching along ahead.

Hockley turned as we got near to him, and waited for us. I braced myself
for a possible encounter; I think in that moment I rather longed for it.
But the man contented himself with coming towards us, with his hands
thrust in his pockets; and so stopping in the road in the darkness to
look me over.

"I make it a rule to let a man have blow for blow," he said, slowly and
doggedly, "but I also make it a rule to get my blow in at my own time of
day. Look out for yourself, you young dog; you'll get it when you least
expect it."

I said nothing, and he slouched on again for a yard or two, turned
again, and came back. And this time he approached my guardian.

"As for you, Jervis Fanshawe, I've a bone to pick with you. You're
responsible for this cub, and you've no right to let him loose about the
country, interfering with honest men."

"Honest men, indeed!" sneered Fanshawe, getting a little behind me as he
spoke.

"Yes--honest men," repeated the other. "I hope it doesn't touch you on
the raw, Fanshawe," he added, with a grin. "And mark what I say: I'll
have a kick at you for this night's work, and I'll begin now. I want my
money within twenty-four hours."

"You know you can't have it," replied my guardian, in a voice that had
suddenly changed.

"Very well--then I'll talk!" exclaimed Gavin Hockley, swinging round on
his heel with a laugh, and striding off into the darkness.

I felt my arm gripped again; I looked round into a white distorted face
that shocked and frightened me. If ever I saw murder in a man's eyes I
saw it then.

"When next you strike him, Charlie--strike him hard," he whispered
passionately in my ear. "When next you strike him--strike him dead!"




                             CHAPTER III

                           HER WEDDING DAY


I went to London the next morning, something to the astonishment of my
guardian, who protested feebly that there was nothing to take me away,
and suggested that he needed my presence in the country. But I felt that
my life, so far as Hammerstone Market was concerned, was closed; I did
not ever wish to see the place again.

Let it not be thought for a moment, on account of my youth, that this
was a mere boyish infatuation, out of which I should in time naturally
have grown, remembering it at the best as only a tender boyish romance.
It was never that; it had set its roots too deeply in the very fibres of
my soul ever to be rooted up. I have heard that there are men like that,
to whom love, coming early, comes cruelly--bending and twisting and
torturing them, and creeping into their hearts, to cling there for ever.
Such a case was mine; I have never been able to shake off that first
impression, nor to forget all that her eyes seemed to say to me, on the
terrace under the stars, when I kissed her hands, and bade her that mute
farewell.

So I came to London, and went to my rooms, and set myself to work. I had
fully made up my mind that this should not change my life; I had a
purpose in view, in that I felt it was vitally necessary I should
justify myself in her eyes, and justify her love for me. If I had sunk
then in my own estimation, or had fallen away from the high ideals I had
set up, so I felt must I have sunk before her, and fallen away from her.
She was never to be anything to me, but she should feel that I had at
least been worthy.

It must have been about a week after my return to London when my
guardian came to me. My rooms were in a narrow street off Holborn, at
the very top of a house; the chief room had a great skylight stretching
over nearly half of it, making it a very excellent studio. I was at work
there, getting the last of the light of the dying day, when he came in,
and stood for a moment watching me, before I laid down my palette and
went to greet him. I thought he looked thinner and more haggard even
than before, and I thought that that nervous eager intensity in his face
had increased. He just touched my hand with his, and then stood for a
minute or so looking at the canvas. But when he spoke it was not of the
picture.

"Have you seen anything of Hockley?" he asked abruptly, without looking
at me.

"No; what should I see of him?" I asked in reply. "I have seen no one."

He gave a grim chuckle, and bent forward to look at the canvas more
closely. Yet still he did not speak of the picture.

"He's left Hammerstone Market," he went on. "Made it a bit too hot to
hold him, I fancy. And he's been saying mad things about me--and about
you." He turned his head sharply, and looked at me, and repeated the
words--"About you."

"It will not trouble me very much, whatever he says," I retorted.

"Don't be too sure; he's a dangerous man," said my guardian. "He'll talk
about any one, and it's all lies. I shouldn't be surprised"--he turned
to the picture again, and examined it--"I shouldn't be a bit surprised
if he didn't say something more about me one of these days."

"I remember that I heard him threaten to talk," I remarked. "But surely
a man in your position can afford to laugh at him and his threats?"

"That's where you're wrong," broke in Fanshawe quickly. "It's the men in
my position that can have lies told about them, lies which they dare not
refute. I tell you he's a dangerous man. More than that, he has been
talking about--about somebody else."

He walked the length of the room, keeping his back to me, and examined
another of my sketches. I felt my throat beginning to swell, and knew
that the blood was rising to my face; controlling my voice as well as I
could, I asked a question. "Who is--who is the somebody else?"

He turned round, and came towards me, keeping his hands locked behind
him. "About Barbara--Barbara Patton," he said. "It seems he saw you that
day in the woods--the day I was there. And Hockley is not the man to
talk nicely about those things."

Jervis Fanshawe fell back a step or two as I came straight up to him;
indeed, he unlocked his hands, and put up one of them as though to guard
against a blow. "What did he say?" I asked; and my voice sounded
unnatural.

He shook his head. "I'm not going to tell you; I'm the last man in the
world to make mischief," he said. "You're a hot-headed boy, and I ought
not to have told you. You'll get nothing more from me."

"Then I'll get it from him," I said, with a little grim laugh.

"That's your own affair entirely," said my guardian; and I thought he
smiled in a peculiar way as he spoke.

As I strove to master my indignation, and so gradually calmed myself a
little, I came to the conclusion that Fanshawe had something more to
say, and was seeking an opportunity to say it. He pottered about the
studio for a time, stopping every now and then as if about to speak, and
then moving on again; at last he spoke to me over his shoulder.

"They're hurrying on the wedding a bit; special licence, and all that
kind of thing." Then, as I did not answer, he turned and asked sharply,
"Do you hear what I say?"

"Yes, I hear," I responded. "When is it to be?"

"In about a fortnight's time. It's a whim of old Patton's to get the
girl settled, and to know that she is safe. You'll be asked to go.
You'll get a formal invitation, but I was to tell you from the old man
that you were expected. Only a quiet wedding, of course."

Once again he started that ceaseless rambling round the studio; once
again he stopped. "You don't say anything about it," he exclaimed
querulously. "I thought you were sweet in that quarter?"

I looked at him quietly; after a moment he dropped his eyes, and turned
away. "You told me once," I reminded him, "that you intended to marry
Miss Patton yourself."

"That was a business scheme that came to nothing; I was forestalled. You
were forestalled, too," he added. "I have not thought any more about it;
it was only a whim."

There was silence between us for a minute or two; then I remembered
something else, and spoke again. "You said it would mean red ruin to you
if you did not marry her."

"Did I?" He looked at me as though he did not see me, and as though he
were thinking of something else. "I don't remember it; at any rate, I
didn't mean it in the sense you mean." He hesitated again, and then went
on more passionately, with a rising inflection in his voice that
startled me, as it had startled me once before with this extraordinary
man. "On that day you met her in the woods, when she came to you,
singing and with smiles, and walked and talked with you--oh, my God!--I
had spoken to her in the same place--before you came at all."

The passion that consumed him was frightful; the recollection of what he
had gone through, and what he had suppressed, shook and tore him like a
storm. He clenched and unclenched his hands, and moistened his lips, and
strove to speak; fought down that rising devil in him, and got himself
calm again.

"She--she laughed at me." He beat the air before him, and swallowed
hard, and stamped his foot, in a rage at himself that he could not
control himself more easily. "I did not make--make love to her; I am not
a boy. I told her that I wanted her, that I wanted to marry her. And
then she--she laughed."

I could imagine the scene; and yet I think, if she had known all the
deadly things that were to spring out of her light laughter in the wood
that day--the lives that were to be shattered, and the souls brought
into the dust--she might not have done it. She was but a child, and she
did not know the man she had to deal with; he had meant to humble her,
and she had humbled him too much.

He turned away, choking; although I despised the man, and although I
remembered my own sorrow, I yet sorrowed for him. When he went on again
he had got himself into some condition of calmness.

"Then I saw you in the woods, and I wondered that she should meet you as
she did, because I knew you had not met before. It was your cursed
youth," he broke out, his violence showing again for a moment--"you
could speak to her with a voice that was not mine, and that I did not
understand. That's all there is to say; I shall never speak of it
again."

I did not know what to say, and so I thought it best to say nothing.
Once more he made the circuit of the room, and once more he came back to
me. Although I was silent, simply from lack of words, I knew
instinctively that he felt himself to be a meaner thing than I was,
because of his weakness and his rage, and that he hated me for that
knowledge.

"I don't like the thought that you are not friends with Hockley," he
said, as he came back to me, and laid his hand on my shoulder. "After
all, this girl is going out of our lives, and will be nothing to us in
the future. That bone of contention is gone, and I want you to meet
Hockley. He's got a loose tongue, and he's not over nice in his manners;
but he's not a bad sort. Say you'll meet him."

"I'd rather not," I said, with a remembrance of what the man must have
said concerning Barbara and myself.

"You will be doing me a service, if you meet him, and treat him fairly,"
said Fanshawe, impressively. "Come, my dear boy," he pleaded, "I really
want you to help me in a difficult matter. Swallow your pride, and meet
the man."

"How shall I be helping you in that?" I asked.

"In a certain way--to a slight extent, that is--I am in his power," said
my guardian. "Over a matter of speculation," he added hurriedly, "a
little money I've lost."

I remembered that demand for money made by Hockley, and his threat when
it was refused; I felt that I couldn't very well refuse to help the man
who was the only real friend I had in the world. After a moment of
hesitation, I grudgingly said that I would meet him, if Jervis Fanshawe
wished.

"That's right; that's good of you, Charlie," he exclaimed, with more
fervour than I should have expected of him. "We'll have a little dinner
together, and you shall see what a good fellow he is, when you really
come to know him. And we'll keep off difficult topics," he added
reassuringly.

On the evening appointed for the dinner I got to Fanshawe's rooms before
Hockley had arrived; and I found my guardian in a strange humour, even
for him. He made clumsy attempts to be facetious, and to throw off that
rather grave reserved manner he usually wore; clapped me on the
shoulder, and generally behaved like the really youngish man he was in
years. Before Hockley came in he referred for a moment to that matter we
had discussed in my studio; but he only touched upon it lightly.

"You mustn't think anything, Charlie, of what I said the other night
about--about a certain subject," he said, standing in front of me, and
nervously fingering the lapel of my coat. "I mean about--about Barbara
Patton. I was never really in earnest, and you and I have something else
to think about in the world beside girls, haven't we?"

I laughed a little foolishly, but made no direct reply. He went on with
the subject eagerly.

"I've come to the conclusion that I've been taking life too seriously,
Charlie; I've been too grave and careful. I'll blossom out a bit; we'll
both blossom out." He laughed in an unnatural fashion, and clapped me on
the shoulder again.

"By the way," I said, as a sudden thought occurred to me, "I've been
wanting to talk to you a little about my affairs--money matters, you
know. I'm getting hard up, and I don't quite know how I stand in regard
to such things. My income ought to be a substantial one, but I want to
know exactly how much it is."

He always had an irritating way of speaking to any one over his
shoulder, with his back to them and his head half turned; he adopted
that method now. "Why should you trouble about your income?" he asked, a
little sourly. "Don't you trust me?--don't you think you're safe in my
hands?"

"Of course I trust you," I replied, a little indignantly. "But I want to
know how much I can spend, that's all."

"Spend as little as possible," he said. "As a matter of fact, I've tied
up your money in various ways, so that it may be safe; there's not much
of it that can be handled at the moment. You shall have what you
want--of course, within reason; but you must be careful--for your own
sake."

I had no suspicion of him then; no doubt of him entered my mind. I knew
nothing of business matters, and up to that time had always been
supplied with the small sums necessary for my individual expenses, while
all bills had, I believed, been sent to him. Nothing more was said about
the matter then, because the entrance of Hockley drove everything else
from my mind.

My guardian certainly seemed anxious to do all in his power to bring
Hockley and me to a better understanding. He insisted on our shaking
hands to begin with; and we performed that ceremony briefly and
distrustfully. He hovered about us, and talked about our individual
tastes, and wondered openly why we did not meet, or go about together.

"Two men like yourselves, with money and leisure, you ought to be
friends," he asserted. "A poor devil like myself must be tied to his
office chair willy-nilly; but you both are free. As for you, Hockley,
why don't you take Charlie under your wing, and show him life and
London?"

"I've precious little time to give to other people," said Gavin Hockley.

"I have plenty to occupy my days," I said firmly.

Even that rebuff did not discourage my guardian; he went at us again at
the earliest opportunity. He was quite merry at dinner, as we sat at
that round table of his; and I noticed that he plied Hockley with wine
on every possible occasion. For my own part, I usually drank but little;
but that night I was in a reckless defiant mood, and I drank all that
was given me. My head was spinning, and I was scarcely master of myself,
when we got up from the table, and went into Jervis Fanshawe's
sitting-room to smoke.

And there, something to my surprise, my guardian produced cards, and
flicked them audaciously before the face of Hockley. I saw the man's
eyes light up, as he snatched at the pack, and began to shuffle the
cards.

"I thought you'd given up playing--at all events before the child," I
heard him say, in a low tone.

I sprang up from my chair. "Who are you speaking of?" I demanded hotly.

"I wasn't talking to you," said Hockley, shuffling the cards slowly, and
looking at me with those dull eyes of his. "If you chance to overhear
what isn't meant for you to hear, that's not my fault."

"Now, gentlemen--gentlemen; I will not have it!" interposed Fanshawe
hurriedly. "A joke's a joke, and should be taken as such; I won't have
you flying at each other's throats in this fashion. We'll have a
friendly game, and see if it won't mend our tempers."

I do not know what game we played; I knew only the simplest games at
cards, and this was a complicated thing of which I knew nothing. My
guardian laughingly assisted me when I got into muddles, and showed me
how to score; but it seemed always that Gavin Hockley won. At all events
he won from me, because presently I found, bitterly enough, that my
pockets were empty. I saw the sneer that flitted across Hockley's face
as my guardian thrust some money into my hand; I could cheerfully have
killed him then.

We played until it was quite late, or rather early in the morning; and I
lost everything. I know at the last my guardian dropped out of the game,
declaring that he could not go on; but he urged me to have my revenge,
and to see if the luck would turn. But it would not turn, and Hockley
calmly pocketed all I had. I got up at last, with my head swimming and
my eyes burning; and I faced him shamefacedly enough.

"You're in my debt, young Avaline," he said, coolly making a note on a
slip of paper. "A small matter of thirty pounds odd."

I turned to my guardian; but he laughingly shook his head. "You've
cleaned me out, Charlie," he said; "give our friend an I.O.U., and
square up with him another time."

Humiliated and shamed, and inwardly raging, I wrote the thing, and
tossed it over to Hockley. He laughed, and folded it up, and put it in
his pocket-book. Even then the brutal mind of the man prompted him to
have a further fling at me.

"I'm surprised you didn't win," he said. "You know the old saying 'Lucky
at cards----'--well, I won't finish it."

I moved a step nearer to him. "What do you mean? I don't know any old
sayings," I exclaimed, although I knew it well. "Explain yourself."

"The old saying is"--he grinned at me, and yet was watching me warily, I
thought--"'Lucky at cards, unlucky in love.'" Fanshawe sprang between us
just as I flew at my man; wound his long arms about me, and thrust me
back by main force. "I tell you I won't have it," he cried. "As for you,
Hockley, you've got your money; you can hold your tongue."

"The point is that I haven't got my money," said Hockley. "And I'm not
quite sure that I ever shall get it."

A hot retort sprang to my tongue, but I checked it. I was in a false
position; I could not talk with this man until I had paid him what I
owed. That should be to-morrow, when my guardian gave me what was due to
me.

But it was to happen that to-morrow was to dawn, and other to-morrows,
and Hockley was not to be paid. For Jervis Fanshawe put me off with one
excuse and another: now he was too busy to go into the matter of my
accounts; and now he had no ready money; and now he was engaged at his
office, and I could not see him. In the miserable days that followed he
doled out to me a sovereign or two, sufficient to keep me going; but I
got nothing else. My pride was up in arms, and I was maddened at the
thought that Hockley had the laugh of me, horrified at the construction
he would put upon my silence. I did not realize then, as I have realized
since, how the thin and subtle net was closing in upon me, drawn tighter
each day by the man who held the threads of it. I walked blindly towards
a sure and certain goal, and never saw that goal until it was too late.

I do not now know what took me to Hammerstone Market for Barbara's
wedding. Every instinct within me, as it seemed, fought against it; I
wanted to forget that I had ever been to the place at all, even while I
jealously hugged the memory of the few precious minutes I had spent with
her. Perhaps it was the thought that she was going for ever out of my
life, and into the life of another man, that drew me down there for the
last time; perhaps it was a sort of despairing hope that there might yet
be a chance that we could stand together, hand in hand, and cry out the
truth of our love, and defy those who were setting us asunder. That I
knew, in my own mind, was impossible; because I was bound wholly by her,
and knew, as surely as her eyes had told me, that our cause was
hopeless. But I went down with my guardian; perhaps he had something to
do indirectly with my final decision to go, because I knew that the fact
of my presence there would for ever silence his tongue.

Barbara's wedding day! I have thought of it since, over and over again;
have watched her, as in a dream, going down the dim little country
church in the sunlight, with her head bent, while the man of the
good-humoured face waited for her. I have seen them kneel, side by side,
and have heard the solemn words pronounced over them; I have seen her
come out again on the arm of her husband, pale as death, and with her
head bent always, and her eyes seeking no one. Stay, I am wrong; for at
the last she raised her head, and looked at me fully, seeming to know,
indeed, instinctively where to find me. And with that look something in
me broke and died; it was as though I had torn out my heart, and thrown
it in the dust at her feet. She went on into the sunlight with her
husband; and I presently followed mechanically with the others; hearing
about me, as in a dream, the chatter and the laughter of the gay little
crowd.

They were all very merry afterwards; I remember that there was an
old-fashioned wedding breakfast, and much drinking of toasts, and some
speeches. I know that Lucas Savell made rather a good speech in a way,
and was very properly modest and grateful for his good fortune; I know,
too, that old Patton was prosy and long-winded, and that towards the end
of his speech a great many people were chattering together, and paying
no attention to him. Then, after a time, it all broke up, and she was
going.

I remember at the last I saw her coming down a wide staircase, with her
bridesmaids fluttering about her and laughing; I think she had been
crying. I know her eyes looked piteous, and her lips were quivering; but
perhaps people thought that was quite the proper thing at a wedding, and
with a young bride going away from home. Then, as she reached the foot
of the stairs, she stopped for a moment to speak specially to one or two
friends; and I was among the number. She put her hand in mine for a
moment, and her lips formed the words "Good-bye"; but she could not
speak. I stood there still as death; I wonder that no one noticed me.
Then she was gone, and the crowd had broken up.

I found something in my hand; it was a tiny folded paper. I remember
every word of it now; it was burnt in upon my brain, never to be effaced
so long as I should live.

    "Because I love you and trust you, I give you this, my dear, to
    read and then to burn. You will do that because I ask it. You
    have been very brave and very gentle with me; you are going
    always to be very brave and very gentle, so that I may carry
    that memory of you in my heart. I have thought of you in secret,
    although I shall do so no more, as my poor Prince
    Charlie--wandering alone, far from his kingdom; only, unlike the
    other poor Prince Charlie, you have no one to comfort you.
    Good-bye, you are not to think of me; and yet I pray that you
    may think of me a little. You will be my dream-love always.

                                                           BARBARA."

I read it over and over until I had got it by heart--until, in fact, I
knew every turn and twist of the dear writing; then I burnt it, and
destroyed even the ashes. I was vaguely comforted by it; the thing was
not so bitter as it might have been, because above all else I held her
spirit, and she was mine in that sense, if in no other. And God knows at
that time I had no other thought of her; I want that understood clearly,
so that it may be understood, too, how little I deserved all that was to
happen to me.

I walked about for a long time, and then I went back to the hotel; I had
made up my mind to stay there for that night, and then to get to London.
I have wished since, often and often, that I had gone straight back to
that quiet life in town--that I had never stopped in that place until
perforce I must stay the night.

My guardian had asked me earlier in the day about my movements, and I
had told him that I intended to stop at Hammerstone Market. He seemed
curious as to how I was going to spend the evening--seemed, indeed,
anxious about me; so that I was not altogether surprised when he
presently appeared in my room, and told me that he had arranged a supper
party that night, and that he wanted me to be present.

"I'd rather stay quietly here, thank you," I told him brusquely. "I'm in
no mood for supper parties to-night. Leave me alone."

He thrust his thin face close to mine. "You young fool, do you want
everybody to be talking about you, and about her?" he demanded. "I was
watching you in church to-day, and you looked like death itself. You
don't know what these quiet country places are; there'll be whispers
afloat to-morrow. Come, my boy--for her sake."

I looked at him in surprise; I had not expected for a moment that he
would have thought of that aspect of the case. I began to feel that I
had been mistaken in the man, and that there was really something rather
fine about him. I suppose he saw the effect of his words, for he shook
me rallyingly, and began to drag me out of the room.

"That's right, come along!" he exclaimed. "Keep a brave face, and no one
can say a word. Come along!"

"Stop a bit!" I urged, drawing back. "Who's going to be there?"

"Only Hockley beside ourselves," said Fanshawe, examining his nails. "As
a matter of fact, I want you to meet him again, and if possible get your
revenge. I don't like that money hanging over."

"That's not my fault," I reminded him. "I've asked you again and
again----"

"That's all right," he broke in soothingly. "I'll pay the money, and as
much more as you like. This is going to be a lucky night for us both,
Charlie; we're going to wipe off old scores."

He went down the stairs before me. On the way he glanced up to see that
I was following, and it happened that the light from a lamp on the
staircase fell on his face. And I remember that I did not like its
expression.




                              CHAPTER IV

                       THE KILLING OF THE LIE


My story draws near now to that night of my life when all things for me
were to change, and when I was to go down into the Valley of the Shadow,
and come face to face with Death. I pray you hear me patiently, and
believe that what I write is true of all that I felt and thought at that
time. And God knows I have had years enough wherein to plan the writing
of it--years of solitude and misery and exile!

I know that I felt again at that supper party the same curious
premonition of a storm that I had felt in the house of old Patton. There
were dreadful silences between the three of us--silences from which my
guardian feverishly awoke us, or that were broken in upon by some coarse
remark from Hockley. For my part I said little; I seemed to be watching
and waiting; and I know now that I was alert and eager to snatch at
anything the brute might say, and make much of it. Always I seemed to
remember that it was Barbara's wedding day; and that I stood outside,
like some pale pure knight of old, to guard her memory, and to be
faithful to what she had said to me. And I knew always that the very
atmosphere of the room and of the men who were with me was antagonistic
to any purity of thought or feeling. From the very first I would have
you understand that, from that point of view, I was a doomed man.

The supper had been carefully ordered and was excellently served; for
such guests the landlord insisted on waiting in person. Also the wine
was good, and it circulated freely. I seemed to see, each time that I
looked over the glass from which I drank, the two faces--that of
Hockley, leering and heavy and brutal; that of my guardian, white and
watchful and eager; and hovering always above us that suggestion of the
storm to come.

Towards the close of the meal, Hockley raised his glass and stared
across at me. "I give you a toast," he said, leaning forward over the
table--"I give you the pretty bride!"

"Excellent!" exclaimed Fanshawe, springing up, and raising his glass.
"The pretty bride!"

"The pretty bride!" I said hoarsely; and drained my glass, and, boylike,
flung it into the fireplace, where it shivered to pieces. Hockley
laughed as he set his own glass down on the table.

"The one toast--eh?" he suggested, with a sneer. "The fair lady would be
honoured, I'm sure, if she knew. But she's nothing to us now, whatever
she may have been."

"What do you mean by that?" I demanded, looking squarely at him.

"Don't take fire so readily," he retorted. "I mean that she belongs to
another man, and I hope he thinks he's got a prize. Don't glare at me
like that, my young friend," he added with a laugh; "I'd be the last to
say anything against the lady."

"It would be better for you if you said nothing at all about her," I
said; and he lay back in his chair, and roared with laughter.

"Come, come; we're getting on dangerous ground," broke in my guardian,
laying a soothing hand on my shoulder. "Surely there's no harm in
toasting a lady, as our friend Hockley has done; why should you be so
ready to quarrel with him, Charlie?"

Hockley was still grinning in that unpleasant fashion of his across the
table; I felt bitterly enough that he looked upon me as a tiresome,
quarrelsome boy, and despised me in consequence. I chafed at the thought
that in all probability I must presently play cards with him--perhaps to
lose again; I chafed, too, at the thought that I was dependent on this
other man, my guardian, for money with which to play at all. And even
while I thought that, I had a vision of Barbara coming down the
staircase at her father's house, with that look in her eyes as though
she had been weeping, and with her lips quivering. Altogether a bad
frame of mind for a boy of twenty to be in, with two such men for
company.

The table was cleared at last, and then the cards were produced. With a
burning face I drew my guardian aside, and spoke to him earnestly,
believing that he had forgotten my request.

"I have no money," I said, "and I already owe this man a lot. You
promised to let me have some; you promised to pay Hockley."

"My dear Charlie," he whispered, "do you imagine that I carry money
about with me to that extent, and especially in a little country place
like this? There are ten chances to one that you will win back to-night
all that you have lost, and more; you won't get two such runs of bad
luck in succession. Play on, and see how the game goes; I'll back you,
whether you win or lose."

"I won't play to-night," I said doggedly. "I seem to be getting tangled
in a net from which I shall never extricate myself; I'm getting afraid.
I won't play to-night."

"You young fool!" he exclaimed, in a low voice, "do you want to give
Hockley another handle to grasp. Do you want him to say that you owed
him over thirty pounds, and wouldn't pay it, and wouldn't play again?
Can't you understand what manner of man he is?"

I saw that there was nothing for it but to sit down with empty pockets,
and to trust that my luck would change. For a time all went well; the
cards all came my way, and I seemed to see the money I had lost flowing
back into my pockets. More than once my guardian clapped me on the
shoulder, and cheered me on, and rallied Hockley upon his ill-luck;
Hockley set his teeth, and said nothing.

Presently I staked more than I should, and lost; staked again, and lost
again. I saw Hockley's heavy jaw set firm, as he laid down card after
card that beat mine and my guardian's; he never said a word, as we
played on steadily in a silence which was growing oppressive. A bell had
been rung and an order given, and some one had put a glass beside me; I
was hot, and my throat was dry, and I eagerly gulped down what was
there. And still the man before me, in a deadly silence, played his
cards, and made notes on a slip of paper beside him.

I got up from the table at last, overturning my chair as I did so.
Hockley was leaning back, with the slip of paper held before him, and
with a pencil tapping out the figures on it. My eyes were burning, and
something was singing in my ears; I scarcely knew where I was.

"Bad luck, Charlie," said the voice of my guardian, cutting the silence
nervously.

"Mr. Hockley," I contrived to say, "I never meant to go on as far as
this. I have no money--at least, not here; I can only give you my I.O.U.
Will you please tell me how much it is?"

He went on deliberately checking the figures; did not even look at me as
he said the amount, yawning over it a little as he spoke. It was over
seventy pounds; and I seemed to understand that my guardian owed him
something also.

"I can only give you my I.O.U.," I repeated, as I drew a scrap of paper
towards me, and steadied my hand to write.

"That's no good to me," he said, "not worth the paper it's written on.
I've one already of yours, and what's it worth?"

"You will be paid," I said, with a helpless look at my guardian.

"If you play with gentlemen, why don't you pay like a gentleman,"
retorted Hockley, snatching at my scrap of paper, and getting to his
feet. "I can't think what Fanshawe ever meant by bringing you into a
man's business at all; this game isn't for boys."

"Be careful, Hockley!" I cried, making a movement towards him.

"To the devil with you!" he exclaimed violently. "I've had enough of
your sour looks, and your threats, and your high-handed ways. Of course
we're all sorry for you; you must be feeling a bit sore to-night," he
sneered.

I controlled my tongue even then; I remembered the face of Barbara; I
remembered the words of her note: "I love you and I trust you; you are
going always to be very brave and very gentle, so that I may carry that
memory of you in my heart." No such bully as this should break down my
resolution; there was a power in me greater than he suspected.

It was my guardian who stirred the wound. "Why don't you be quiet,
Hockley?" he said; "why don't you leave difficult subjects alone? The
past is done with----"

"And so's his pretty mistress," exclaimed Hockley. And it was not so
much the words as the fashion in which he said them that maddened me.

Before Fanshawe could get to me I had overturned the table, and sprang
at my man. He eluded me with a quickness I should scarcely have given
him credit for, and slipped round behind my guardian; danced about
there, in comparative safety, with mocking words and looks, keeping
Jervis Fanshawe always between us. The situation was ridiculous, and I
hesitated for very shame.

"Here's a fire-eater!" he cried, emboldened by the fact that I could not
get at him, and that I stood chafing. "Owes a man money, and gives his
dirty scrap of paper in exchange for it; and then will not have a word
said against the girl who met him in secret in the wood. Hoighty
toity--we're mighty particular!"

"I'll quarrel with you on any matter that your mean soul may
choose--except that," I almost pleaded with him. "For your own sake as
well as mine, leave her out of the conversation. She's as far above you
as the stars; let your foul tongue wag about something else."

"My tongue shall wag as it chooses," he retorted, with a frown. "I know
what I know, and I've seen what I've seen. You thought me asleep in the
wood that day, didn't you?"

Again I saw the face of Barbara--first as she had come towards me
smiling in the wood, then as she had come down the stairs, with her eyes
on mine--eyes that had tears in them. And so I restrained myself, and
waited there, helpless, until he should be silent.

"A fig for your saints and your Madonnas!" cried Hockley. "They're the
worst of the lot. Our little meek-eyed Barbara was a lady of many
loves--in secret. How did she meet you in the wood--you that had never
met her before? How did she meet me--a dozen times before?"

"For the love of God, keep him quiet!" I cried to my guardian; for I
felt that my head was bursting, and my throat was dry. I seemed then to
be praying to the only saint I knew for strength and for confidence; I
only wanted to get out of the room, before I struck the man dead. My
guardian did nothing; he stood still, watching us both; and after a
moment Hockley went on. I had a dim feeling, as he began to speak again,
that people were moving outside the door; I think the place had been
disturbed by the overturning of the table.

"That makes you wince, doesn't it?" he demanded; for I think he felt
secure, now that other people were near at hand. "I tell you she was for
any man that cared----"

I sprang straight at him then, and had him by the throat. I was young,
and my muscles were tough; more than that, I was in finer condition than
he, with all his drinking and his late nights and his vices, could hope
to be. We went down together, he screaming out something that sounded
like a cry for help; and I tore and raged at him as though I were mad.

When I came to myself, I was being held by three or four of them, and he
was leaning against the overturned table, breathing heavily, and trying
to arrange his collar and tie; his face was ghastly. After a moment he
pointed a shaking hand at me, and gasped out--

"He tried to murder me; he meant to murder me. We were--we were joking,
gentlemen--and he--he tried to murder me."

"Yes, I tried to murder you," I said. "And I'll try again, with more
success, when I get the chance, unless you take back what you've said."

"Charlie--Charlie--come away!" exclaimed my guardian, putting his hands
on my breast, and pushing me back. "I'm sorry to have disturbed all you
good people," he added, turning to the landlord, who was staring at us
with a scared face; "but this is only a matter of hot blood. They'll
shake hands in the morning; they'll be friends again."

They were dragging me away, while I strove to break from them; I called
out again to Hockley. "You shall take back what you said; I'll make you
eat your lie, or I'll kill you."

I do not think I quite understood what I was saying; even the shocked
scared faces about me could not make me understand the gravity of it
all. I found myself outside the closed doors of the room, panting and
almost weeping with excitement, with the stout landlord holding me on
one side, and a waiter on the other. My guardian was speaking--not to
me, but to the landlord.

"Very well, since you insist, he shall not stop in the house," said
Jervis Fanshawe. "I'll take him away to Mr. Patton's place; I can secure
a bed for him there. Yes--yes--I quite understand, and I'm sorry you've
been disturbed; it shall all be put right. Tell Mr. Hockley that I've
gone home."

They got me out of the house; locked the door on me, in fact. I stood
under the stars with Fanshawe, staring before me down the road, and
panting heavily; for I knew that this was but the beginning. I seemed to
see the foul lips of the man for ever breathing out lies about her--lies
that must be stopped and killed now in their birth. That was what I must
do, and quickly. This thing would be spread; I seemed to see the man
whispering it here, there, and everywhere, with shrugs and leers and
winks. Yes, I would kill it.

As in a sort of dream I heard my guardian talking to me. "Yes, my dear
boy; I know it's abominable--shameful; but what can you do? Any one who
knows you and knows her must know that it is all a lie from beginning to
end. There--there--come away. I suppose if we lived in any other
century, you might strike a man down for this; I think I should strike
him down myself, if I were as young and strong as you are." He was
glancing at me curiously as we stood there in the utter silence of the
night; there seemed a challenge in his eyes. And his suggestion about
any other century had brought back again to my mind the remembrance that
I was her pure knight, pledged to do battle for her. I began to walk
rapidly away in the direction of the house of the Pattons, with my
guardian walking beside me, and putting in a word here and there that
was meant to be soothing, and yet that only served to inflame my
passion.

"I ought not to have said that about striking him down, Charlie; that
would be murder," he went on. "And one may not murder another man,
however much one may be tempted, or however richly the man may deserve
death. But the worst of it is, of course, that one doesn't know how to
stop him; he'll go on saying those things about that sweet girl, and
people will begin to believe--to say there's no smoke without fire, and
horrible things of that sort. What had we better do, Charlie?"

"You can leave it to me," I said. "You can safely leave it to me."

He seemed to be able to do what he liked at the house of the Pattons. A
manservant let us in; my guardian seemed to whisper something to him to
account for my dishevelled appearance, and for the fact that I had no
hat. The man got a light in one of the lower rooms, and presently
brought in a decanter and some glasses; then, at a further whispered
suggestion from Fanshawe, retired and left us alone together. My
guardian was hovering about me anxiously--now murmuring what a shame it
was that such things should be said openly about such a girl as
Barbara--now muttering what he would do if he were a younger man--now
urging me feebly to forget all about it, and leave the man alone.

"Above all, Charlie--no violence," he said. "I shudder to think what you
might have done if I had not prevented you to-night. You won't mend
things that way; we must think of some other method."

I said nothing; I drank mechanically what he put into my hand; I
acquiesced in his suggestion that I should go to bed. My last
recollection of him was when he came into my room, looking thinner and
more gaunt than ever in a dark dressing gown, and hovered over me with a
candle, and hoped that I would sleep.

But sleep was not for me that night; I had other things to think about.
The lie faced me, like a grey haunting shadow, in the night; had become
more horrible with the first streaks of dawn. The more I strove to
control myself--the more I told myself that what such a creature as
Hockley might say could not matter--the more my passion grew. And it was
a worse passion now, because there was growing up in it a method that
was greater than the madness of the night before. In that long night,
wherein I lay and thought the thing over, the boyish part of me seemed
to have lived far back in another age; it was a new Charles Avaline that
rose with the morning, and dressed and went out.

I know that I walked into the hotel at Hammerstone Market quietly
enough; I was half way up the stairs leading to my room before the
startled landlord came out, and called after me to know where I was
going. I turned, and faced him on the stairs.

"I'm going to my room to put my things together," I answered. "Is Mr.
Hockley up yet?" I steadied my voice, and made the question as careless
as I could.

"Mr. Hockley's gone, sir," said the man, in what was evidently a tone of
satisfaction.

I came down the stairs, and faced him for a moment in silence. "That's
not true," I said quietly; "he's afraid to meet me, and you're hiding
him."

"Thank the Lord, sir, he's gone," said the man earnestly. "I didn't like
the look of you last night, sir; and I like the look of you still less
this morning. No offence, sir, but I'll be glad when you're out of my
'ouse."

I packed my bag, and arranged for it to be sent to the station; then I
tramped back to find my guardian. I found him seated at breakfast, quite
alone; Mr. Patton had not yet come down. I told him that I had been to
the hotel, and that Hockley was gone. I think he seemed surprised, and a
little taken aback at the news.

"Well, what are you going to do?" he asked, after a silence, during
which he had been twisting his long fingers about over each other
nervously. "Are you going to let the matter drop, or what are you going
to do?"

"I'm going to follow him; I'm going to find him," I said. "You know
where he lives in London; you must give me the address."

"I won't do that," he replied instantly; "I'll have no hand in this
business. Let him say what he likes, or do what he likes; it's no affair
of mine, and it should be no affair of yours. I wash my hands of it."

He went on with his breakfast again, muttering to himself something
about young hot-headed fools; I waited patiently. I brushed aside his
suggestion that I should have some breakfast; I was impatient to be
gone. I told him again that I must have Hockley's address.

"Look here, Charlie," he said at last, "I'm going to London by a train
which leaves in half an hour; you can come with me. We'll talk over this
matter in the train, and I'll see if I can't bring you to a more
sensible frame of mind."

To that I agreed, and we presently started together for the station.
During our journey I urged two things upon him: that I must have
sufficient money to pay my debt to this man, and that I must have this
man's address. He flatly refused to let me have the address; the money
he said he would forward to Hockley himself.

"You promise that?" I asked eagerly.

"I'll send him a cheque directly I reach the office," he replied
earnestly.

I urged him again to let me know where the man lived, but he would not.
Finally, however, he said he would think the matter over; if I would
call at his office in the City that evening, he would let me know his
decision. With that I had to be content; and I left him at the station,
and after taking my luggage to my rooms, set off to kill the day as best
I could.

I reached Jervis Fanshawe's office in the late afternoon, to find that
he was gone. But he had left a note for me; I tore it open, and read it
there.

    "I have sent a cheque to Gavin Hockley to cover the full amount
    you are indebted to him. I enclose his address, because I think
    that you are the best judge of what you should do.

                                                             "J. F."

I tore the note up, having got that address clearly in my mind, and set
out to find Hockley. I remember now that a curious calm had come over
me--a curious feeling of deadly certainty as to what I wanted, and what
I meant to have. I was no longer in his debt; I could stand face to face
with him on absolutely equal terms. And I would have you bear in mind
that I did not mean to kill him.

No--I did not mean to kill him. There was a thought in my mind that I
might beat him to his knees, and force him to say the truth; that I
might compel him, in fact, to write it down: nothing more than that. But
my rage and my abhorrence had grown into a deadly thing, more dangerous
than the passion of the night before; I did not know then what I have
recognized since, that I had no real control of myself, and that I had
sprung as it were, in one single instant, above any law that might be
made by man. And I was in that condition when, in the coming gloom of
the evening, I turned into Lincoln's Inn Fields, and looked for the
place where Gavin Hockley lived.

It was a curious old house, with a great flagged courtyard in front of
it; it had once been the house of some great man, before Lincoln's Inn
had been invaded by lawyers and others in search of chambers and
offices. I read his name on a plate at the door; I climbed the stairs,
and as I climbed I slowly unbuttoned my gloves, and took them off. I had
no weapon of any sort, save a light walking cane that would have snapped
at a touch.

I came to the door of his rooms, and read his name there again.

My heart was beating a little more rapidly than usual, but I was
outwardly calm. I saw that the door was open an inch or two; without
knocking, I thrust it open, and went in. The place was empty. Judging at
first that he had seen me coming, and had bolted I made a quick movement
towards the door of the room in which I stood, with the intention of
setting out in pursuit; and at that moment heard the outer door bang,
and heard him come in, whistling. I stood still, just within the door of
his sitting-room, and waited for him.

He came straight into the room, looking neither to right nor left; it
was only as he swung about at the table that he saw me. I stood quite
still, watching him, and for a moment I saw flash up in his eyes the
look of a hunted creature at bay. He had stopped, with his hands resting
on the table; he seemed to crouch there, waiting. I made a rapid
movement, and got between him and the door.

"What do you want?" he asked at last, straightening himself, and putting
his hand for a moment to his collar. I thought then that perhaps he had
a difficulty in breathing, or perhaps he remembered my hands there on
the previous night.

"You ran away from me this morning, because you were afraid of what I
might do to you," I said steadily. "You can't run now; you've got to
face me, and answer me, and do as I tell you."

"Oh, indeed!" He was getting a little of his courage back by this time,
and some of his old air of bravado sat awkwardly enough upon him. "And
may I ask what the devil you mean by forcing your way into a gentleman's
rooms like this?"

"I had to meet you, and I chose the only way that was open to me," I
replied. "I went to look for you this morning, but you had by that time
decided that it was wiser to get out of my way. I want you to take back
the lie you told last night."

I saw him look quickly round the room; I glanced for a moment round
myself. I knew that his eyes sought a weapon; I knew that if he could
frighten me out of the place, or overawe me in any way, he would laugh
at anything I might threaten, and that my chance would be gone. He made
a movement as if to get past me; I stood still, looking at him. The
momentary glance round the walls had shown me that the place was very
beautifully furnished, and that weapons of various sorts were fastened
about, for the mere purpose of ornamentation. I saw that it would become
a question as to which of us secured a weapon first; but even then, as I
did not mean to kill him, I did not make the first move. That I will
swear.

When he moved, it was to snatch a weapon that seemed characteristic of
his clumsy brutality; he suddenly swooped and caught up a heavy poker
from the fireplace. "It was no lie, and you know it," he blurted out.
"Every one knows it, if it comes to that. Get out of my place, you cub,
until you can pay your debts."

"Stay where you are!" I commanded him. "My debt is paid; a cheque has
been sent you to-day. For the last time, will you take back what you
have said, or shall I kill you?"

He suddenly made an ugly rush at me, swinging the poker above his head.
He was blind with fury and fear; he did not seem to know where he
struck. I sprang aside, and on the instant wrenched from its place on
the wall a short old-fashioned heavy-bladed sword. I waited until he
should turn to come at me again; and when he did his lips were
spluttering out words and oaths so frightful, with her sweet name mixed
horribly with them, that I felt I had no option. I struck down his
weapon, and I drove straight at his head with my own. I struck him twice
with all my force, and saw him drop to his knees, and then on to his
side. And so lay, as in my dream, with blood upon him at my feet.

I turned round, and walked out of the place. Somehow it did not seem
surprising that on the staircase I should meet my guardian, Jervis
Fanshawe. He was trembling from head to foot; he took hold of my arm,
and asked me in a shaking voice to tell him for the love of God what I
had done.

"I've killed Gavin Hockley--and his lie," I said. Then I went quietly
down the stairs, and out into the summer twilight of Lincoln's Inn
Fields.




                              CHAPTER V

                   ALAS! FOR POOR PRINCE CHARLIE!


In a great crisis of one's life perhaps the things that strike one most
are those most commonplace. I remember on that summer evening, when I
came out into the streets, that I was able to think first of the extreme
beauty of the night, and of how quaint and wonderful the old buildings
looked in the softened light of the dying day. I saw a pair of lovers
strolling on before me, looking into each other's eyes; I remember
thinking then, with a little strange feeling of pride, that I had killed
a man that Love and Truth might live. I had come out into Holborn, and
was making my way towards my rooms, when my guardian, who had hovered a
little behind me, and had followed me wonderingly, touched me on the
arm. I had forgotten all about him until that moment.

"Better come home with me," he whispered; "they'll look for you at your
place first."

"It won't make much difference," I said; "they'll have to find me some
time." Nevertheless I went home with him, walking the short distance to
his place in Bloomsbury.

He watched me as we went along, and I saw that he watched me with an
increasing sense of wonder. I was something detached--apart from all the
world--something he had not looked upon before. He was afraid of me, and
yet attracted to me in a fearful way; he spoke to me, when he spoke at
all, with a strange deference. I wondered about it, as I might have
wondered about anything that was happening to some other person, until
at last it struck me, and that with no sense of fear, that he looked
upon me as one already dead. And so we came to the house in which he
lived, and went up in silence to his rooms.

He turned up the light in that room in which we had played cards, and
motioned to a chair; but I did not sit down. Now that I could see his
face distinctly, I read again in it that look of fierce and eager
excitement that I had seen before; I understood, too, that I was nothing
to him, and only what I had done made me important in his eyes. I had
something to say to him, and I said it quickly.

"He told me that he had not yet had the money to redeem my I.O.U.'s," I
said. "I suppose the cheque was delayed?"

"It wasn't sent," he said in reply. "I never meant to send it."

I turned on him fiercely, and spluttered out his own words: "Never meant
to send it? What do you mean?"

"You don't want to murder _me_," he muttered, putting the table between
us, and grinning weakly. "I tell you I never meant to send it--I never
had the money to pay it."

I sat down and looked at him; the horror of the other business was
falling away from me in the contemplation of this treachery. "I want you
to explain," I said patiently.

"You young fool!" he exclaimed with sudden violence, as he saw how tame
and quiet I was, "don't you understand that I meant this to happen from
the first? Don't you understand what every one is going to say when they
find him, and when they find what is in his pockets? You owed him money;
you had been gambling with him, and had nothing to pay him with. You
quarrelled with him at Hammerstone Market; you were heard to threaten to
kill him. You follow him to his rooms; he demands the money; there is a
quarrel, and the stronger and the younger man wins. Oh, you fool!"

"Why have you done it?" I asked him, still very quietly.

He paced about the room for a minute or two, and then came back to me. I
knew that there was time enough, and so I waited; I did not see daylight
yet.

"I have been in Hockley's clutches for years," said Jervis Fanshawe,
speaking in a matter-of-fact tone; "he has bled me steadily for a long
time past. I began gambling with him, and I lost; tried to retrieve my
losses, and lost more. Every penny I ever had has gone to him--and other
money besides."

"What other money? Mine?"

He nodded slowly. "Every bit of it, and more besides that. I'm deeply
involved with the firm; that was my chief reason for trying to get hold
of that girl, for with her I could have stopped all tongues wagging, and
could have paid Hockley off. It was when I saw you, hot-headed and
hot-blooded, and only too eager to quarrel with the man, that the idea
came into my mind that I might use you. That--and the story I heard."

I remembered in a flash the story the doctor had told at that dinner
party at the house of old Patton; of the man who worked on the jealous
feelings of another that he might kill a third man. But my mind moved
slowly, and even yet I did not even quite see what this man had done.

"I can tell you this now, because you're a dead man to all intents and
purposes," said Jervis Fanshawe, leaning across the table and looking
hard at me. "I always hated you--hated you, I think, for your youth and
your strength, and that fair boyish face of yours that gave you a chance
with women I never had. You've served my purpose, and in a way I never
expected."

"Then, when they bring me to justice--when they try me for what I have
done," I said slowly and patiently, "that is the story you will tell
them?"

"Undoubtedly," he replied. "And you cannot contradict it."

"I would not contradict it if I could prove the truth to every one," I
assured him earnestly. "And I thank you from the bottom of my heart."

He stared at me in amazement. "Are you mad?" he gasped.

I shook my head, and smiled. "No, I'm not mad," I replied. "Only this
gives me the chance I never hoped to get--the chance to keep her name
out of it. I was afraid you might drag that in, tell of the quarrel
between Hockley and myself, and have sharp lawyers turning and twisting
that lie this way and that. Tell your tale, by all means; I shall keep
silent. Now give me something to eat; I'm faint and worn out."

I do not think he had understood me before; I caught him more than once
stopping, as he moved about the room, to look back at me, and to ponder
over me and to shake his head. I was indifferent to everything; I only
thought how wonderfully it had all come about, that Barbara's name would
never be mentioned; I had not hoped to kill the lie so completely as
this. I ate the food he gave me, and presently lay down on the hard
horsehair sofa in his sitting-room, and was fast asleep in a minute. I
only woke once during the night, and then I found him bending over me
with a flaring candle held above his head; there was still that
wondering awestruck look in his face.

I went out long before he was awake in the morning; I had not yet
decided what I should do. That it would be done for me pretty quickly I
already realized; for it was not likely, after his declaration of the
previous night, that Jervis Fanshawe would long leave me at liberty. So
I took what was to prove my last walk through London, for that time at
least; and presently saw what I had expected to see. Flaring lines on
newspaper placards told me and all the world of London what had
happened, and the lines were strengthened as hour after hour went by. In
face of them I had a curious satisfaction in my present liberty, a
curious wonder at the power that was mine. I could have gone up to any
respectable citizen jogging along his respectable way, and have told him
the truth calmly; I could have shouted it in the streets, and then have
run, with a hundred at my heels. I was a pariah, walking the streets of
a great city with men hunting for me; I had nothing in common with
respectability or decency.

I remember that I tried experiments that day; touched the very fringe of
what was waiting for me, in a sense, to try how near I could go to the
actual danger without grasping it. I sat in a crowded restaurant at
lunch time, and heard men talk of what had happened, giving details of
how the man had been struck down, and offering suggestions as to the
motive. I that was already dead could listen to them with equanimity;
could wonder a little what would have happened had I suddenly declared
how much deeper my knowledge of the business was than theirs.

One man was quite blatant about it; he had already formed his own idea
of the matter, and had summed it up. There was a woman in it, of course;
everything pointed to the fact that a woman had struck the fatal blow.
In the first place there was no evidence of any struggle; and mark you,
gentlemen, a woman bent on such a business as that would creep upon the
poor devil unawares, and strike him down before he had a chance to
defend himself. It being pointed out to this clever person that a poker
had been found clasped tight in the hand of the murdered man, he was
ready in a moment with a smiling explanation of that. The woman had put
it there, the better to make out her defence if necessary. He was quite
surprised that no one had thought of that.

So I went out into the streets again, to find again what I had expected.
The placards bore an additional line--"A Clue." Clearly Mr. Jervis
Fanshawe had already been at work.

There was no thought in my mind of escape; I do not think that idea ever
occurred to me. Once or twice, perhaps, a hot and pitiful feeling swept
across me at the thought that I must pay for what I had done with my
life--and I so young! But even then I thought of myself as of some one
impersonal and having nothing to do with me. That was the strangest
feeling of all: to tread these streets, amid these hurrying crowds, and
to feel so bitterly sorry for poor Charlie Avaline, whose life was
ending. But of myself I did not think.

It was growing dark as I turned into the little narrow street out of
Holborn in which my rooms were situated. Against the railings of a house
opposite to that in which I lived a man lounged; as I came into the
street he was making a business of lighting a pipe. Twenty yards away,
on the opposite side of the road, a policeman was standing; I saw that
here was the end of things. As I turned into the street a wretched,
forlorn old woman, with a box of matches in her hands, shambled past me,
mumbling something pitifully; I stopped her, and gave her all the money
I had in my pocket--all I had in the world. I left her looking blankly
at the coins, and feeling about her deplorable clothes for some place in
which to hide them; then I walked straight up to the house, and climbed
the stairs; and knew, while I climbed, that the man who had made a
pretence of lighting a pipe climbed steadily behind me.

I was so young, and life even then was so sweet, that for a minute after
I had gained my room, and while yet freedom was left to me, I made shift
to clasp my hands and murmur a prayer for strength. I heard the Law, in
the shape of the man with the pipe, on the landing outside, and for the
first time I was afraid; the passion and the fierceness of the thing had
gone from me. I dropped my head upon my hands, and whispered what was in
my heart--

    "Let me be strong and brave; let me never speak her name. Let me
    die silent--oh, God!--let me die silent!"

There was a sharp knock at the door; I pulled myself together, and went
to open it. The man was inside in a moment and had closed it, but not
before I had had time to look past him, and to see the grim figure of
the policeman standing outside. I think at first the man who had come
in, and who now announced himself, was a little astonished at my
youthful appearance; he asked if my name was Charles Avaline. Even as I
answered him, I felt myself vaguely wondering what he was like in
private life, and if he had a son, perhaps, of about my age; for he was
a pleasant-looking man of about fifty.

"My name is Charles Avaline," I said steadily.

"I have a warrant for your arrest, Mr Avaline," he said, "and I charge
you with the murder of Gavin Hockley last night in his rooms in
Lincoln's Inn Fields." Then, as I was about to speak eagerly, he
interrupted me in a fashion I shall always remember, because it was so
kindly--almost paternal, in fact. Yes, I felt sure he must have a boy of
about my age.

"Now, my dear boy, don't say anything," he urged. "You know what it
means; I shall only have to use it in evidence against you. I see you're
a gentleman--I might have known that by the first look at you--and I
know you're coming, like a gentleman, quietly. You can leave it to me;
I'll see that everything is as comfortable and as sparing to your
feelings as can be, consistent with my duty."

"I will give you no trouble," I said. Then, before he could stop me, I
added quickly: "And I did kill the man."

He shook his head despondently. "I wish you hadn't said that, but I'm
bound to repeat it," he said. "I always like a man to have a fair chance
if I can. Now, sir, if you're ready we can start."

I looked round the studio in which I had been for so short a time; I
thought of all the dreams I had dreamed there, of all that I was to have
done to make a great name in the world. I felt that the man was watching
too, and yet he had in his eyes something of that wondering perplexed
look that I had seen in the eyes of my guardian. I walked out on to the
staircase, where the policeman was still standing, and the man I had
left in the room extinguished the light and followed me. He motioned to
the constable to go ahead of us; when we got into the street a cab was
just drawing up. I got in, and the man followed; the constable swung
himself up to the box beside the driver, and we set off.

I do not think I was surprised to find my guardian hovering about in the
hall of the police station; the only point that was remarkable was that
he was nervous and anxious, and I was not. I think, in view of what I
had to face, and of the desperate strait I was in, I looked upon him
then as something so much smaller and meaner and more commonplace than
myself. Not that I would have you believe that I regarded myself in any
heroic light, but rather that I had done with this troublesome business
of life, had fought my fight, and was going out into the shadows. And
yet was so sorry, so desperately sorry for poor Charlie Avaline!

"My dear boy!" he began, as I walked into the place; but I checked him
with a laugh as I thrust him aside.

"You've managed it more promptly than I should have thought possible," I
said. "You'd much better go home."

I pass over all that happened before my trial. If I seem to touch upon
it at all, or to endeavour to make you understand what were my thoughts
at that time, it is only because of the old human instinct that every
man and every woman has to justify what he or she has done. And at that
time I suppose my chief thought, naturally enough, was of what the end
would be for poor Charlie Avaline; of what people would say to him and
about him; of how much he could bear, and whether, in the stress of the
time that was coming, he could keep silent. But on that latter point I
felt pretty certain, and was not afraid.

So the day came when I stepped up through the floor, as it seemed, and
came out into a railed-in space, and faced my judge. I seemed to hear
about me a rustling and a murmur that died down at once. I saw near to
me the man who held my life in his hand, in the sense that he was so
hopelessly to defend me; I caught sight of my guardian, seated near to
me, with lips twitching, and with his white fingers coiling over each
other ceaselessly. And then in the silence a voice asking me how I
pleaded.

"Guilty!"

There was a great excitement then, with my counsel excitedly whispering
to me, and people murmuring in court; it seemed that I had outraged all
the legal technicalities. Why could they not be done with it at once,
and take my word for what had happened? I did not want to be set up
there, to be stared at and pointed at; I had done with the world, and
they had but to pass sentence upon me. I was tired of the sorry game; I
wanted to go down the steps again quickly, and be lost to the world.

But it seemed that there was much to be done. My plea was amended;
legally, it appeared, I was not guilty after all until I had been tried.
And in that mock fashion (for so it seemed to me) I was tried on that
dreadful charge, and all the sorry story was gone into again.

The court was packed; I remember noticing that there were many women
present. I looked at the jury; and in that curious fashion in which
small things appeal to us in great crises, I noticed one man with a bald
head and a mild and innocent-looking face; I thought he seemed a little
sorry for me, and I wondered about him, and longed to tell him that it
did not matter, and that he need not be afraid of my feelings when he
came to give his verdict. I felt quite anxious about that little
innocent-looking juryman; I would have been so glad to comfort him.

It seemed that they had a great many people there I had forgotten. There
was the landlord of the hotel at Hammerstone Market, and a waiter and a
chambermaid; they had come to give evidence to the effect that they had
heard me threaten to kill this man, and that they had broken in upon our
struggles. The chambermaid was a young and pretty girl, who wept as she
gave her evidence, and persisted in referring to me as "the young
gentleman," despite their protestations that I should be dubbed "the
prisoner." Then they all seemed to fade into the background, and my
guardian stood to give evidence against me.

An unwilling witness this, my lord; a man dragged here by the stern arm
of a subpoena to give evidence against this young man, whose friend
and guardian he has been; you must not be surprised, my lord, if he
should break down! He has tried hard to shield the prisoner already;
such knowledge of the crime as he possessed has only been dragged out of
him with great difficulty. Bear with him gently, my lord, and gentlemen
of the jury, for his position is truly a pitiful one!

Mr. Jervis Fanshawe answered the first question in so low a tone that it
was difficult to hear him. He had loved this boy, it appeared, as he
might have loved a son of his own; he had watched his growing up, and
had provided him with everything that was necessary for his proper
education and for his placing out in the world. But he had noticed from
the first a tendency on the part of this misguided boy to leave the
beaten safe paths, and to take his own way in the world. The modest
fortune entrusted to that guardian's care for the boy had long been
exhausted, and Mr. Fanshawe had only too willingly paid certain expenses
out of his own pocket.

I looked at him keenly then, and he lowered his eyes; but as he shook
his head despondently at the same time, it was naturally concluded that
he had long since come to the belief that there was not much to be done
for me.

He was asked to come to the events of that night at the inn at
Hammerstone Market, and he did so with reluctance. There had been bad
blood between these young men, and he had endeavoured to put things
right between them. He had given a modest supper, and had hoped that
they would shake hands afterwards and be friends. Unfortunately,
however, they had started again that business of card-playing that had
been the original cause of the trouble between us.

"I take it, Mr. Fanshawe, that you were aware that this I.O.U.--I refer
to the first one--had been given by your ward to the dead man."

"I saw it written," was the answer.

"And the second one was given on the night before the murder?"

"Under similar circumstances--yes," replied Fanshawe.

It further came out, under skilful examination, that this worthy Mr.
Jervis Fanshawe had actually got the prisoner away to London, and had
refused to reveal the whereabouts of Gavin Hockley; had only yielded, in
fact, under the belief that the two young men were to make up their
differences. I watched him closely during this time, but he avoided my
eyes as much as possible, and gave his evidence in short jerky
sentences; I believe it was felt that he was labouring under strong
emotion.

My counsel had before him a task that was hopeless enough. I would tell
him nothing save that I had killed the man; I was deaf to all his
pleadings. He could only do what was in his power to upset the evidence
that had been given; he started on a track with my guardian that amazed
and frightened me.

"You went down to Hammerstone Market, Mr. Fanshawe, with your ward, to
attend a wedding?" he began. "Can you tell us if the prisoner had any
interest in any way in that wedding?"

"He knew the parties, as I did," replied my guardian.

"There was no possibility of any quarrel having arisen out of any
jealous motive?"

I held my breath, and wondered what the man would say. He glanced at me
for a moment; I do not exaggerate when I say that he cowered beneath the
look I gave him.

"I do not understand the question," he said. "The people were intimately
known to me, but were mere acquaintances of the prisoner."

There came the speech of the prosecuting counsel. This young man, of
good education and good prospects, had gambled recklessly with another
man, and had found himself in an impossible position. He might have
gone, gentlemen of the jury, with confidence to this guardian, who was
his best and his dearest friend, and have appealed to him to liquidate
his debt; instead of that it was evident that he had determined to try
conclusions with the man who held these incriminating scraps of paper.
What passed behind the closed doors of the unfortunate man's rooms it
was impossible to say; they could only conjecture. It must, however, be
suggested that the prisoner, terrified at the thought of the position in
which he had placed himself, had gone late at night to the rooms of the
man to whom he owed this considerable sum of money; they might imagine
him pleading with that man, then threatening and demanding, then
endeavouring to obtain by force that which he could obtain in no other
way. It might be urged that these papers had been found upon the dead
man, but surely that could easily be accounted for. Even the most
callous could scarcely stoop to search the blood-stained thing that lay
in that quiet room at night.

My counsel did the best for me that he could; he threw himself, alike
with me, upon the mercy of the court. I had refused to say anything; he
confessed that he was utterly in the dark as to my motive. But he could
plead my youth, and the fact that Gavin Hockley was a bigger and
apparently a stronger man, with a reputation that was not too clean. Was
it not possible that these two hot-headed men--the prisoner a mere
boy--had got into some quarrel, and had attacked each other without
thought; had not a weapon been found in the hand of the dead man? This
could be no question of murder; there was nothing deliberate about it at
all.

I remember that the judge summed up dead against me. He disagreed with
the suggestion that the act was not premeditated; there were the various
attempts I had made to get the address of my victim; the determination I
had shown; my threats to kill the man, if I could only stand face to
face with him. The duty of the jury was clear; unless they had any
reasonable doubt there was but one verdict they could return. It was all
short and sharp and direct to the point; the jury went out of court, and
I remember that the little innocent-faced one looked back at me
pityingly as he went. I almost called out to him not to mind.

It did not take them long to consider their verdict; I was hurried back
into court within a few minutes. The usual formal questions were asked;
and for a moment my heart beat a little quicker as I heard the verdict
given. It was the one I had already given myself.

"Guilty!"

For a moment there was a sort of mild tumult in court; people whispering
and jostling about, and here and there a voice raised--either in
protest, or in condemnation of me; I do not know which. Then silence;
and another figure on the bench, a little behind the judge, adjusting a
black square of cloth upon his wig. I remember thinking, in an absurd
way, that he had not put it on quite straight.

The judge had already lifted his hand impressively, and had spoken my
name, when the voice of a woman rang out clearly in the gallery above
me. It was as though some tender-hearted creature there could not bear
that this thing should be done.

"Oh, God!--no--no--no!"

She was silenced at once, and the solemn voice that had begun to address
me went on with what it had to say. It had been, it seemed, a revolting
crime--born of a man's evil passions; it must meet the penalty set out
in the law. The recommendation of the jury to mercy on account of my
youth should be forwarded to a proper quarter; but the duty of the judge
now was clear. I listened patiently until the last words came to me
across the hushed court--

"And may God have mercy on your soul!"

I stood still for a moment, and looked about me over that sea of faces,
all turned, without exception, in my direction. The little juryman was
dabbing at his eyes, without any attempt at concealment; my guardian was
watching me, with nervous fingers plucking at his lips. Then it all
faded, like a dream that was ended, and I went swiftly down out of the
world.




                              CHAPTER VI

                          I LEAVE THE WORLD


Although in my uneasy slumbers I killed Gavin Hockley a hundred times at
least--saw him lying at my feet, and realized clearly what I had done--I
cannot say that such hauntings filled me with any horror in my waking
moments. The thing had been done, and I had the savage certainty that it
had been done well. Almost it seemed to me that I had gone before the
woman I loved, and cleared the path for her--striking out of my way and
hers the noxious thing that had menaced her. That was well done, and the
path was clear; what else could matter?

It would be idle to suggest that I did not think about my fate. So many
days in which to live, and with each morning one the less; so many times
to look upon the faces of those who guarded me; so many meals to be got
through; that was all. Then would come that last dreadful morning when
they would wake me; when I would get, perhaps, a glimpse of the sunshine
for which I longed, and would hear the passing bell; then--"to hang by
the neck until you are dead."

In the time that was left me I travelled many, many miles. I seemed to
see myself in a sort of perspective, narrowing down to the years that I
could first remember, when I had been a child. I saw myself a happy boy
at school; remembered the names of other happy boys, who would read of
my fate, and shudder at what I had done; for I had been regarded as a
gentle, amiable creature at school; I do not think I had ever even
fought a boyish battle. They would talk about me--would say: "Why, I
knew this chap at school!" and so would gain some temporary notoriety
from the knowledge.

I remembered again a happy year or two in an old-fashioned German town;
thought with tears of loyal brave friendships formed then--friendships
that were never to be broken this side the grave. How we had mapped out
then all we were to do--this man a writer, and this other a painter, and
this stronger one a soldier! And then I fell to wondering in what
obscure place within the prison they would bury me--for my bones to be
found afterwards--long, long afterwards; when perhaps they might recall
how young I was, and how brutal my crime.

I think they were all sorry for me; I know that they were gentler with
me than with other prisoners. Once or twice the man who had prepared my
defence came to see me; it seemed that they were preparing a great
petition, to save me if possible from the gallows. I protested against
that; it was not what I wanted. No living death for me, herded with
criminals for the rest of my days; let me walk out as bravely as I
could, and face the penalty. I protested strongly against the suggestion
that I should be given any other fate than that I had earned. Nor would
I in any way give them help for the framing of their petition; they had
heard the evidence, and it was true--and what more did they want?

They plagued me to such an extent that at last I refused to see the man
at all; but still I understood that the petition went on, and was being
signed widely everywhere. I was so young--and, God help me!--so
good-looking, they told me--that there was every reason for the
hysterical outpourings of sympathy; had I been old and hardened, never a
word would have been said.

The good chaplain I listened to--hearing the simple comforting words
that I had heard many and many a time in the old days at school. It
seemed strange that I should hear them now, in this place, where I was
shut away until the time came for them to kill me! My life had been
clean and wholesome--there was nothing very heavy that I had to carry
before my God, save that slaying of a fellow-man. And it seemed more
than possible that God would understand.

The long days dragged themselves out, until there were but three left. I
was in a mood to wish that they might hurry the business on; I had begun
dreadfully to count the days, and then the hours; and there was a
torture in that. I would have welcomed any man who came suddenly into my
cell, and announced that then and there I must walk out to die; it was
the knowledge that I must wait--must hear the clock in a distant church
tower lopping off my life by inches, even in the still watches of the
night; that was the terror of it. In mercy they might have stopped that
clock--might have tried to cheat me a little as to the progress of the
days; but that was all a part of my punishment.

And now I come to a strange thing that happened to me in that place of
torture--a strange thing, sent for my comfort. You are to understand
that two men watched me night and day, and their watches were relieved
at regular intervals. I, who had so little to occupy my attention, came
to watch for the changes, and for the new faces that greeted me when the
time for changes came round. The men were good fellows, despite their
occupation; I put it on record here that they were considerate and even
courteous to me; I read a deep pity for me and my fate in the eyes of
more than one of them.

It had come to that night when there were but three days left. I had
eaten my meal, and had got into my bed; I liked that time best, because
of the stillness, and because I liked to feel, poor doomed mortal that I
was, that all the great city slept quietly about me, with every man and
woman in it each with their separate trouble and their separate grief. I
lay a thing apart, condemned to die; and there was in my mind the
curious feeling then that it was strange that the needs of the world
were such that a fellow-man had been able to say that I should die, and
that other fellow-men were appointed to watch me that I did not escape,
and that yet another fellow-man had the dreadful task of killing me,
just as I had killed Gavin Hockley. Lying on my bed in my cell I thought
of all that, and watched the men who were seated silently near me. And
then I fell asleep, quite peacefully; and in that sleep I dreamed a
dream.

The end wall of my cell was down, and it seemed as though I looked out
beyond it over green fields, on to a place I knew. It was just as though
one sat in some strange theatre, and saw through where the wall had gone
to some scene beyond. At either side of the stage of that theatre, as it
were, sat the motionless warders; the auditorium was my cell. And then I
thought that I got up from my bed, and passed straight between them, and
out to the freedom of the woods and the fields; leaving them motionless,
and even looking behind for a moment, and seeing the empty bed there in
which I had so recently lain.

I think I knew then, unconsciously, that I must go back to that cell,
and that the vision would fade; I am certain that I thought that. But
for the moment I was free; I had passed into some strange country, and
yet a country I knew. Then, just as in the fairy tales, I seemed to turn
a corner, and found myself suddenly in the wood in which I had met
Barbara. And it was the most natural thing in the world that she should
come towards me out of the wood, smiling, as I had seen her smile
before.

It was only when I reached her, and held her hands, and looked into her
eyes, that I realized in my dream that she knew what had happened; there
were tears in the dear eyes I loved.

"You are sorry for me?" I said, holding her hands. We seemed to be quite
alone in the wood, and the sun was shining, just as it had shone on that
day I met her first.

"I don't know what to say to you," she replied. "Of course I understand
everything about it, and why you did it; I need not ask you about that.
It was done for my sake--but oh, the pity of it!"

I remember telling her in my dream that I was quite happy and quite
satisfied; I remember impressing upon her that I was not afraid. And
then it seemed that we talked of other things, quite as though this
death that menaced me had been brushed aside, and could not happen. And
when the time came that we seemed to know with certainty that my freedom
was done, she put her hands on my shoulders, and looked in my eyes, and
spoke words that I remembered distinctly when I woke.

"I want you to understand that I am travelling night and day, and alone,
to come to you, Charlie. I have been with my husband in a strange place
abroad, where I have heard no news; the dreadful news of you only
reached me an hour ago. I am stopping for nothing; my eyes see only one
thing--the prison where you lie. I will reach you--God willing--before
they kill you."

She kissed my lips; and with the kissing I woke, and looked about me.
The warders still sat grim and motionless; one of them, as I stirred,
turned and asked if I wanted anything. I thanked him, and said I wanted
nothing; and I closed my eyes, and tried again to sleep. But sleep would
not come to me, and I thought only of Barbara in the wood, and of what
she had said--

"I will reach you--God willing--before they kill you!"

If she came now she must undo all that I had given my life to do; she
must spoil my sacrifice. If she reached me before I died, I must begin
the fight again, strenuously denying what I knew she would say. I began
to tremble at the thought of that; almost I made up my mind that if she
reached England in time I would not see her. And yet I repented of that;
because I knew that if I refused to see her, she would tell her story to
those most interested, and I should be powerless to stop her. I spent
the rest of that long night lying awake there, staring at the ceiling of
my cell, and wondering what I should do.

With the coming of the day I began to realize that I did not know how
near she might be in that race with Death. At any moment she might be
here, within my prison; and I might find myself face to face with her
and her pleading. For I knew that if once I looked into her eyes, and
held her hands, it was all up with me; I must speak the truth. More than
that, in the dream I had had of her she had declared that she knew the
truth already.

The night of that day came, and once again I found myself in my cell,
gradually falling to sleep. And once again the end wall disappeared, and
I passed out between the warders into the wood wherein I had met her.
The vision was exactly the same as on the previous night; only now it
seemed to me that she looked at me more anxiously, and that there was a
strange wistfulness in her voice when she said the words: "I will reach
you--God willing--before they kill you!"

Strangely enough, I had no thought of stopping her in my dream; I seemed
only anxious to look into her eyes, and to hold her hands, and to snatch
from that dear contact what comfort I could for the time yet left me on
earth. Exactly as on the previous occasion the dream faded again; and I
was in my cell, with the patient warders watching, and with the faint
murmur of the waking city outside. And now I began to wonder if after
all the dream had only been born of my own thoughts and desires--began
to hope, even with a sense of disappointment, that perhaps after all she
was far away with her young husband, and would only know of my fate long
afterwards.

The next night the same thing happened; save that on this occasion I
wandered the wood forlornly enough, and could not find her. I remember
that I seemed to walk about the sunlit place, calling her name, and
hearing nothing; that I thought more than once that I saw her
disappearing in the distance, and ran on, crying to her, and finding no
one. When I awoke, for the first time since my sentence I found my
pillow wet with tears.

One more day and night of life. And now I began violently to long for
her; to feel the bitter injustice of dying here in this place without
seeing her. With one moment I would pray earnestly that she might not
arrive in time; in the next would be faint with longing to hold her hands
and hear her voice. It is safe to say that I never lost sight of that
girlish figure; I thought of nothing else. The voice of the good chaplain
went by me like a thing unheard; if I listened at all, it was to hear him
saying over and over again: "Barbara!"--"Barbara!"--"Barbara!"--over and
over again as in a sort of chant.

It was growing late in the afternoon, and I was seated on the side of my
bed, with my face buried in my hands, thinking. Even then I did not
think of the near approach of death; I only longed insanely, now that my
hour was coming, to live a little longer, that I might see her. I must
have fallen into a sort of stupor; for I know it seemed to me the prison
wall was down again, and that once again I had stepped out into the
blessed sunlight of the free woods; when I felt a hand laid on my
shoulder, and, looking up, saw one of the officials. He said something
to me that I did not understand, and I got dazedly to my feet; looking
past him, I saw Barbara, with her hands stretched out to me. And she was
all in black.

At first I remember that I laughed, and looked stupidly from one to the
other of the men about me. Then, at a sign from the man who had spoken,
they fell back, and went to the further end of the cell. And I was quite
suddenly in her arms.

The beautiful thing about it all was that she was so brave and so
strong--braver and stronger than I was. I remember that she comforted me
as she might have comforted a child--called me, again and again, her
dear, dear boy; whispered again and again that they should not kill me.
I was content just to hold her, and to listen to her voice; I thought of
nothing else, save of the hopelessness of it all; for I felt that I was
wiser than she was, and that I knew the thing to be inevitable. I don't
know what power she had exercised, or in what strenuous fashion she had
set to work to gain this last interview with me; I only remember with
gratitude that they left us alone, and that we sat side by side on the
low bed, and talked in whispers. We were both so young that perhaps they
relaxed the rules a little, and felt that it did not matter.

"I was far away--abroad--and I had no news," she began.

"Yes, I know," I replied. "And you travelled night and day since then to
reach me."

"How did you know that?" she demanded quickly. And then I told her of
the dreams I had had, and how I had met her in the wood, and how I had
known from her own lips that she was coming to me.

She looked at me strangely, passing one hand over her forehead, as
though by that mechanical action to clear her mind. "That is very
wonderful, Charlie," she said, when I had told her the words she had
used. "I said to myself, over and over again, while the slow trains
crawled across the countries, and the slow ship ploughed across the
sea--I said again and again those words to myself: 'I will reach
you--God willing--before they kill you!' That is very wonderful."

"Nothing is wonderful with us," I replied, with a quick laugh that made
the men turn and look at me curiously.

"When I heard what had happened, I scarcely knew at first what to do;
and then I knew that I must come back--that I must see you, even if
everything else proved hopeless. Lucas would have stopped me; he said it
was no affair of mine, and that I must not--should not mix myself up in
it. So I got away at night, and came straight to you; it was the least
that I could do. Now you are to tell me everything that has
happened--everything!"

"You will have heard already, Barbara dear, all that has happened--and
why I killed him. It was a quarrel--a matter of money."

She looked at me with a world of understanding in her eyes. "That is
what you have told every one; it is not what you can tell me," she said.
"Think, dear"--she laid her hand on my arm, and her lips were quivering,
although she spoke bravely enough--"you are to die to-morrow; by the
love there is between us, you must not let me believe that you killed a
man for such a thing as that. Unless you would kill my soul for ever."

"I can tell you nothing else," I replied as steadily as I could.
"Perhaps I was not, after all, half so good as you in your love for me
believed."

"You will at least not lie to me," she pleaded. "Tell me at least one
thing: was there no talk about me between you?"

I did not answer, but my eyes must have done that for me; she went on,
with a little quick note of triumph in her voice. "Ah--I begin to
understand. He slandered me--said something of me that your love would
not allow?"

"Barbara," I broke in hoarsely, "whatever has happened has been done by
me of my own free will, and I must pay the penalty. As I hope to meet my
God, and as I hope I may be understood then, I beg you will ask me
nothing more. I pay with my life; don't take my victory from me."

"Then I was right," she exclaimed quickly. "I seemed to know it from the
first. He met me in the wood that day, just as your guardian had done;
he had met me before at my father's house. I was afraid of him, as I was
afraid of no one else; I could read, as only a woman can read, what was
stamped all over him. Oh--my dear--my dear"--she had sunk suddenly to
her knees in that dreary place beside the bed on which I sat--"he was
not worth it!"

"Let one thing be clear between us--and it is a dying man who speaks," I
said, holding her face between my hands, and looking down into her
eyes--"you must be silent. No word of this must ever pass your lips, for
your own sake--for the sake of every one. The time is coming when you
will remember me only as some one who lived, far back in the years, and
who loved and worshipped you; and you will keep what is our secret."

"I can't do that; it would shame me for ever," she whispered. "I _must_
speak; I _must_ make them understand."

"If you go out of this place, leaving with me a certainty that you will
speak, you kill me doubly," I said earnestly. "Think what it means to
me; nothing you can do or say now will save me; that is not in our
hands. Let me die, believing that I helped you and saved you, and I die
a happy man. Go out and spread your story, and tell the truth, and I die
shamed in my own sight, leaving you shamed behind me. Because the lie I
tried to kill will spring alive again, to be babbled by a hundred
tongues."

"But if I do this--if I promise silence--is there nothing I can
do--nothing I can say?" she whispered brokenly.

"There is nothing you can do," I replied solemnly. "Think of this: that
in the years that are coming it may happen, in God's own good time, that
some child you love may stand in need of a friend who will strike as I
struck--fight as I fought--for her honour. It may happen, long after I
am dead, and forgotten by all but you, that some such an one may spring
up, to do again more perfectly what I did--springing from the dead ashes
of my past to work out the pitiful story I began. Remember that--and
don't stop me in what I try to do."

I did not know then the full meaning of what I said; all that was to
come upon me later. I did not then understand how strangely prophetic my
words were, nor how strangely that prophecy was to be fulfilled. For the
moment I had succeeded in my purpose; she promised me solemnly that she
would keep silence.

Of our farewell I will not speak; she whispered to me words too sacred
to be written here. Then, as it seemed, the prison wall went down, and
she faded out into the world; the prison wall came up again, and shut me
in. But it shut in a stronger and a better man.

I had no further vision of her; my prison had shut me in permanently,
and I dreamed of her no more, save in my waking thoughts. I did not
sleep that night; I remember that I lay there quietly, with my hands
clasped under my head, looking up at the ceiling, and thinking about
her; seeing her going on through the long years to come, living her
quiet life, and carrying me always in her secret remembrance. That was
good; that was very good. Many a man has died with a less blessed
thought than that in his mind at the end.

But I was not to die in that sense, after all. Quite early in the
morning--that morning on which I had set my mind steadily as the one
that meant the end for me--the governor came to my cell, and announced
to me that I was reprieved. I was totally unprepared for it; at first I
could not understand what he meant. But he told me that on account of my
youth the death sentence had been commuted to penal servitude for life.

On account of my youth! I laughed aloud when he said that, because the
irony of the thing was so great and so bitter. I was to be shut away for
the rest of my natural life--in a living death worse than any I had
anticipated. I remember that I prayed him almost wildly to disregard the
order--to set it aside--to declare that it had arrived too late; and I
know that he seemed surprised that I, so young, should long so ardently
for death.

So I passed out of the cell from which I had thought to pass only on one
last journey, and went away to the place where I was to serve my
sentence. And the only thing that troubled me--the only thing about
which I thought at all in that new change of events--was what Barbara
would think or do when she knew. For myself I did not care; I had died
before, at that moment when the wall of the prison had seemed to go
down, and Barbara had gone out of my life.




                                PART II




                               CHAPTER I

                              MINE ENEMY


So many steps the length of my cell--beginning with the heel planted
against the wall under the high window, and finishing at the door; so
many steps across--beginning with the heel planted against the wall
opposite the bed, and finishing at night at the bed itself, or in the
day, when the bed had been turned up against the wall, at the opposite
wall. Beside the door the heavy sheet of ground glass that made another
window, outside which a light burned at night for a certain time; before
that ground glass a wooden slab, fixed firmly in the wall, for a table;
a stool for seat. And on the table my Bible. And that was my home for
twenty years!

At first, when I realized what it meant: that I was to live there for
all my life--that ambition, hope, and all that made life worthy had been
stripped away from me--I rebelled fiercely. If I had had any chance to
kill myself I should have done it; because this was so different from
anything I had planned. I saw the years stretching on before me--seemed
to see the very stones of the place worn by my feet, and I growing old
in captivity, with all the busy eager world going on outside. Men and
women living and loving, and laughing and weeping; little children being
born; the seasons renewing themselves; and I at coarse toil, counting
the days, and wondering when they would cease for me.

And yet in time, mercifully enough, I did not count the days. I knew
when Sunday came round, because there was a difference; one sat in the
chapel attached to the prison, and heard a man speak, and the sound of
singing and of an organ; one looked about on the faces of other men,
prisoners like oneself, and wondered about them. The same faces were
seen in the exercise yard and in the shops during the week; but Sunday
was a day to be looked forward to, as a break in the dread monotony of
the week. I only counted Sundays after a time.

After a time, too, the fierce rebellion passed; I was getting used to
things. One gets used to anything, they say, in this world; one's edges
become blunted. In the course of years mine were blunted so much that I
forgot almost how old I was--ceased to care, in fact. And I remember
once that when they shifted me from one cell to another I was resentful,
and pleaded to be put back again; I knew the stones of the other, and
had grown to like them; and this was new to me. It was like turning a
man out of his home, and I was bitter about it.

My fear at first had been that I might lose what refinement I had; I
strove passionately to remember what I had been--to be always something
better than those with whom I was herded. I believe I was a model
prisoner; I read all that I could from the prison library, and I wrote
when they would let me. After a time I began to write of that first part
of my life--the free part; I was afraid that in the dull course of the
years I might forget. Although at first the remembrance of what I had
been and what I had done were strongly with me, in time it all narrowed
down to the figure of Barbara, and rested there; nor would my
recollection turn to anything else. And during all those twenty years,
wherein time did not stand still with me, she never changed; in my
remembrance she was always the bright pretty girl of eighteen years of
age whom I had loved so long before. It was as though she had died, and
I had remembered what she was at the last. And it is safe to say that
she was always with me.

Not that the wall of my prison ever went down, as it had done once when
I lay condemned to death; that vision never came to me again. But in the
night I dreamed of her--a mad impossible dream--that she waited
somewhere near at hand--always young and beautiful, and always loving
me--waited until such time as I should, by a miracle, get out into the
world again. In the first years of my imprisonment I dreamed that, over
and over again; but no other figure out of the past came to me--at
least, not after my first remembrance of the world had worn off.

In time, as the years went on, it seemed as though, as I grew older, a
sort of mental mist descended over all that life I had led before my
trial--so that things were blurred, and I did not see them distinctly.
Mercifully, too, I grew to take an interest in the work I did inside the
prison walls; to be keen and anxious to do it well, and to do it better
than my fellows. The prison life had worn and broken me, and I know that
I was prematurely old, and a little feeble and fretful compared with
what I should have been. And I was shocked one day when, in the
tinsmith's shop, I got a brief vision of myself in a shining sheet of
tin; I was old and haggard, and the little hair I had was quite grey. It
frightened me; and I know that I lay awake that night, thinking bitterly
of the years that had been stolen from me, and trying to remember how
old I was.

Then the time came, quite unexpectedly, when I was set free. I cannot
now write of that time, or think of it, without remembering how
frightened I was, or how strange the sensation of freedom seemed to me.
I had noticed that something was different--had feared that something
was going to happen--because they had not cropped my hair for a little
time, and would give me no explanation; and then at last one
morning--one bitter winter morning, when I flogged myself with my arms
to keep myself warm--I was sent for to the governor's room.

I had been there once or twice before, because the governor took an
interest in me, and had tried to get me to talk. I would never do that,
and I fear that he had thought that I was sullen or morose. He had asked
me about my life before I had come to prison; had tried even to consult
my wishes as to what work I should do; he had been uniformly kind and
considerate. Now, as I went along to his room, I wondered petulantly
what new thing this was that he wished to say to me. I did not like the
room; it was a dreadful place to me, hung about with brightly polished
steel chains and fetters, and with only a little table in the middle, at
which he sat while any poor prisoner talked to him. I was left alone
with him there, and he looked at me for a moment or two in silence. He
had been a soldier, I think; he was a fine-looking old fellow, with a
trim moustache and deep-set grey eyes.

"I have some news for you," he said in his abrupt fashion, "and I want
you to prepare yourself for it. You are not strong, and I do not want to
give you a shock of any sort."

I thanked him, and wondered dully what he meant.

"If you could have at the present moment anything for which you liked to
ask, what would you choose?" he asked me.

I shook my head stupidly, and said that I did not know; corrected myself
in a moment, and asked, wistfully enough and almost with tears in my
eyes, that I might have the making of some particular sort of pan in the
tinsmith's shop; I had fancied it greatly, but they had given it to
another man. He seemed touched by that, and laughed and shook his head;
I had never heard him laugh before.

"An order has come to me from the Home Office in regard to you," he
said. "Can you guess what it is?"--I shook my head; I did not understand
that anything could happen to me.--"An order for your release."

I did not understand, and I suppose I stood staring at him as stupidly
as before. For I had been condemned for life; what could this mean now?
More than that, I had become settled in the place, and the idea that I
should never leave it had sunk gradually into my mind, and had nailed
me, as it were, to that spot, so that it would be difficult to tear me
from it. I murmured that I did not understand.

"I have sent reports concerning you again and again to the Home Office,"
went on the governor; "I have been able to point out that you have been
an exemplary prisoner; I have urged that fact upon them again and again.
Do you know, Avaline, how long you've been here?"

I shook my head; I think I sighed a little. "I think I've forgotten,
sir," I said. "So many winters--so many times when the sun shone, and I
knew the summer had come again--but I have lost count of the years."

"You were here before my time," he said; and then added in what seemed
to be a hushed voice: "You have been here for twenty years."

I said again that I had not kept count; I think I added a little wearily
that it did not matter. His kindly voice went on--

"You were a boy when you came--twenty years of age. You must be forty
now--still a young man. You have many years before you--years of
freedom, in which you may live a new life." He spoke kindly and
encouragingly, but the glance he gave me showed me that he knew I was an
old and broken man, despite my years.

"It is too late for me to begin anything, sir," I said. "What life I had
lies back behind the twenty years; I cannot take up any broken threads
of it now. I did not expect ever to have to take up any free life
again." I was moving towards the door, beyond which the warder awaited
me, when I came back to him, on a sudden impulse that I would plead with
him. "If I might stay here--and go on with what work I have learnt to
do--I should be happier," I said. "If I wish to stay, you will not turn
me out? God help me--this is my home."

He got up hurriedly from the table, and turned away for a moment, and
cleared his throat. "It doesn't rest with me," he said abruptly at last;
"I, like you, can only obey orders. Clothes will be provided for you,
and a sum of money given you which you have earned; also you will get an
order on the railway company which will take you to London. And I hope
you'll do well."

I went to the door, turning back for a moment to thank him for what he
had done, and to assure him again, something to his bewilderment, that I
would have been glad to stop. For I was afraid of the great world
outside, and I was too old and broken to begin again. I remember that I
thought, bitterly enough, as I had thought before, that it would have
been so much better if they had killed me at the first.

It was a wintry morning when I stepped out through the great gates of
the prison--a free man. They had all been very kind to me; most of the
warders whom I knew well had shaken hands with me, and had given me
little common keepsakes by which to remember them; I had been infinitely
touched by the fact that one and all spoke to me as "Sir." I went with
reluctant feet; strange as it may seem, I looked back more than once
hungrily as I went out through the prison yard that I was to see no
more, and through the great courtyard. A little wicket in the gate
opened, and I shook hands with the man in charge there; and so left them
all behind. Before me stretched a long road downwards towards a town in
the far distance; I saw smoke rising lazily from its chimneys in the
early morning air; all around me lay the great wastes of snow. And I
alone, as it seemed, in the world--to begin again.

They had provided me with clothing that was new and rough, and awkward
and ill-fitting; I felt like the naked impossible thing I was, that had
been clothed and covered up in a hurry, so that men should not recognize
me. I had a little money in my pockets, and a few odd things that had
once belonged to me and had been carefully kept--things that had been
mine twenty years before, and were mine again now.

I sat down on a heap of stones near the gates of the prison, with my
mind full of the bitter injustice of the thing. If I had been in my cell
now, I should have been eating my poor breakfast--comfortably! I should
have known what the day held for me. And here I was--an outcast, and
tired already before the day was begun.

The mere fact of wearing civilized clothing again, however coarse and
common it might be, had brought back to my remembrance something of what
I had been--some faint ghostly shadow of it. I found myself looking at
my coarse hands, and at the broken stunted nails, and striving to
remember what those hands had been like ever so many years ago when I
was a boy. Then, as a shadow fell across me, I realized that I had been
sitting musing for some time; and looked up from the hands, to see a man
standing in front of me.

He was a tall man, very thin, and not at all well dressed. He had a long
thin nose with wide nostrils, and a short beard that was black at the
roots and grey elsewhere. He stood with his hands clasped before him,
and with the cold white fingers turning incessantly over each other. I
wondered in a dull fashion where he had come from; but as he did not
greatly interest me, I went on again looking at my hands. Then he spoke
my name.

"Charles Avaline," he said, in a curious jerky voice that was only
raised a little above a whisper.

I looked up at him, as I might have looked up any time during those
twenty years at a warder, and spoke my number. It had been the natural
thing to do with every one. "No. 145," I said, in a dull voice.

The man laughed in a disagreeable fashion as I dropped my eyes again
from his face. "Poor broken devil!" he muttered to himself, and then
spoke my name again. "Avaline--Charles Avaline. I don't want your
number."

"They never wanted my name in there," I said, jerking my head towards
the great gates of the prison. "It was always 145. But I'm Charles
Avaline," I added.

He dropped his hand on my shoulder, and shook me--pulled me to my feet,
in fact. "What are you sitting here for?" he demanded. "Don't you know
you're free? Aren't you glad to be free?"

"What's the use?" I asked, with a shake of the head. "Don't you know I'm
dead--dead to everybody? I've been in there"--I nodded at the prison
with a queer sort of pride at the thought--"I've been in there twenty
years."

"And might have been there another twenty, or another forty, or more
than that, if you'd lived so long," he retorted. "They seem to have
driven the brains out of you--what few you ever had. Look at me; have
you ever seen me before?"

He struck himself on the breast, and leaned forward to stare at me. I
trembled a little before him, but contrived to shake my head. "I don't
remember," I said. But I knew that some old memory was springing up in
me; I knew that I had seen some such face as this, perhaps in a dream, a
long, long while ago. Life and memory were stirring so slowly in me yet
that I could remember nothing. I only knew that I existed, and that I
stood trembling in the snow before this man, and that I was cold and
dimly afraid. I knew no more than that.

"Well, I've waited outside your grave for you until you came to life
again," he said, with another laugh. "I'm your friend, if you know what
that means, and I want to help you. Take off your hat; I want to look at
you."

That old habit of obedience was so strong in me still that I pulled off
my hat, and stood there, grey-headed, before him in the winter sunlight.
Whoever he was he seemed shocked for a moment beyond measure; fell back
from me a pace or two with a dropping jaw.

"God!" he muttered; and then in an awe-struck voice I heard him say
again: "Poor broken devil!"

I put on my hat again, and waited patiently to hear what more he would
say; I felt instinctively that in all the great world in which I stood
so forlorn and lonely this man might chance to be my friend. And I
wanted friends then badly.

"What are you going to do, Avaline?" he asked.

I shook my head. "I don't know," I said, with a glance down the long
road that sloped away to the distant town where the smoke was rising in
the still morning air. "I'm afraid to think."

"Got any money?" he demanded; and I turned out my pockets, and counted
into his hands all I had. I told him a little proudly that it was what I
had earned behind the great gates that frowned upon us as we talked.

"All this in twenty years!" He laughed, and transferred the few coins of
which I had been so proud to his own pocket. "I'm your friend, Avaline,"
he said. "Come with me, and I'll look after you."

I want you to understand, if you can, something of what my feelings were
at that time. I had gone into that place fiercely rebelling against my
fate; I had gone into it young, with the fierce hot blood of life
beating in my veins. Twenty years of it had tamed me and broken me; it
had been a gradual process, but a sure one nevertheless. Slowly the rot
of the prison had eaten into my soul; slowly and surely I had sunk to be
what I was--a thing obedient to orders, and expecting always to have
life measured out in scanty regular doses for my daily consumption. Now,
in a moment, I had been flung upon the world; small wonder that I turned
in fear and trembling to the first creature that called me by name, and
spoke a decent word to me that was not a command. I had been tossed out
into the world after twenty years; I was fumbling feebly to find my
place in it--and this man might be able to tell me. So I went with him
down the long hill into the town; and I felt even then that I went with
the trot that had been mine in the exercise yard of the prison.

We came down into the pleasant little place; there were buxom women
standing at the doors of the little houses, and whistling boys in the
streets, and children trooping along on their way to school. By that
time I had hold of my companion's arm, the better to keep up with his
easier stride; I turned with him willingly enough into a little inn in a
side street of the town, where, in a quiet room where we were alone, he
ordered breakfast. When the smoking food was put before me I laughed,
and clapped my hands like a child. He did not eat much himself; but he
seemed greatly amused and interested at seeing me eat, and seemed, too,
to understand what I felt.

"That puts life into you, doesn't it?" he asked, peering at me across
the table. "That makes you young again, and ready to face the
world--eh?"

I nodded gratefully, although I knew that it was my money that had paid
for the meal. When I had eaten all I could, he leaned across the table
towards me, and looked at me closely. I smiled at him in a friendly way,
because I felt that he had been good to me.

"Charles Avaline--how old are you?"

I thought for a moment, and remembered what the governor had said to me
before I left the prison. "I was a mere boy of twenty when I went in
there," I said, "and I have lived there for twenty years."

"A simple sum in arithmetic," said my companion, with a grim laugh.
"There's a looking-glass over the fireplace," he added, pointing to it;
"look at it, and see what has happened to you in twenty years, my man of
forty!"

I laughed as though this were some great game he was playing; I got up
and went to the looking-glass. Staring into it I saw a worn lined face,
with the eyes of a tired old man set in it, and crowned with grey hair.
I had not seen myself in a mirror for all those years; I looked into the
startled old face of a man of sixty at least. Realizing for the first
time a little who I was, and what I was--and understanding perhaps the
tragedy of what I had been--I turned away, sick at heart and afraid, and
looked at him. He was still seated there, with his elbows on the table,
and with that grim smile hovering about his lips.

"You're an old, old man," he sneered, "of no use to any one in the
world, and of no use to yourself. Your life is a thing of the past, and
you can't begin again now. What are you going to do--how will you live?"

I told him that I did not know; he seemed so much stronger than I was,
and so much more accustomed to the big world in which I was expected to
move, that I begged him to help me if he would, and to show me what I
should do. I was so much a child, after that long burial to which I had
been subjected, that I could not think for myself; indeed it never
occurred to me to ask how this man came to know my name, or why he had
met me at the prison gates.

"I mean to look after you," he assured me. "You shall live again,
Charles Avaline; you shall take up your life where you thought once you
had laid it down. You have been snatched from death; you shall come out
into the world with me again; you shall come into your kingdom!"

I went with him placidly enough when presently we left the inn, and set
off through the town. If you wonder that I should have submitted myself
so readily to him, I ask you to remember the life I had lived, and the
fear in which I stood of this great world that was closing about me. I
was to have the past brought back to me fully and strongly, but I did
not know that then; I was to live again, in another way, the life I once
had lived, and to understand it in a new fashion.

We came to a railway station, and my companion took a ticket for London;
he seemed to understand that I had my pass from the prison--in fact, he
asked me for it. The station master at the little place looked at me
queerly, but I think he was used to poor prisoners who came to him with
Government slips of paper to take them to various parts of the kingdom.
He shut us into a third-class carriage alone together, and we started
for London. And on the way, strangely enough, my companion raked over
that long buried past of mine, and reminded me who I was, and what I
was. I remember that I cowered before him, as I might have cowered
before a judge who knew my record, and was passing sentence upon me.

"Charles Avaline, twenty years ago you killed a man," he began.

I nodded my head; I remembered that, at least. Had I not struck the man
down many and many a time since, and seen him lying at my feet. But in
the long dreary course of the years I had forgotten what it was for, or
why it had been done; I only knew that he had deserved to die, and that
I had done well to kill him.

"The gallows was built for you, Charles Avaline; the hangman stood ready
for you; the grave yawned for you. But you were reserved for something
else, Charlie; there was still some work for you to do in the world."

I leaned forward on my seat, and stared at him; for there was a dim
feeling in my mind that I had met him somewhere, and that I knew him.
The mention of my name in that form--"Charlie"--seemed to wake within me
some old memory that had been dead. His knowledge of my crime, and of
how I had gone down so near to death, set me wondering what manner of
man this was that had seized me at the very prison gates, and now held
me in his power by his knowledge of me.

"Who are you?" I demanded, staring at him fearfully. "What is your
name?"

"You shall know soon enough," he replied, and relapsed into silence. I
sat in a corner of the carriage, staring at him, and wondering about
him; striving to fit him in with some dream I had had--a dream that had
begun in some old time before the prison closed upon me. But the habit
of thought had long been lost to me; my brain was a poor mechanical dull
thing, long rusty for want of exercise. In fact, I do not think that I
should have recognized him at all, if I had not noticed again that
curious action of his thin white fingers, twining over each other
restlessly. I had the courage to lean forward and pluck off his hat, and
stare into his face. I think I must have shrieked out his name.

"Fanshawe! Jervis Fanshawe!"

"Yes, Jervis Fanshawe," he said. "Who else do you think would be likely
to inquire about you, or to find out what day you were coming out? Who
else do you think would watch and wait for twenty years to get hold of
the man again who ought to have died twenty years ago. There's blood
upon you, Charlie Avaline, and not all your years of servitude can wipe
it away; but I think I'll stick to you." He folded his arms, and grinned
and nodded at me, as though indeed he owned me body and soul.

And now the first frail door that held in check the floods of memory was
down, and I began to read the past. Nothing was sure yet, nothing that I
clearly understood; for at first, like a man who, getting old, thinks in
a circle, and so sees his childhood first and most clearly, I saw my own
boyhood, that had had nothing in common with this man. But gradually I
began to fumble my way blindly to the point at which he touched my life.
And gradually my old horror of him swept over me, and taught me
instinctively that he was something to be feared and to be avoided.
Without knowing what I did, I sprang up, and made a leap for the
opposite door of the carriage, with the blind determination to get out
of the moving train. But before I had got the door open he had wound his
long arms about me, and had pulled me back on to the seat.

"Not that way!" he cried, as I feebly struggled with him. "Death is not
for you--yet. Don't you understand that you belong to me; when your time
comes I'll settle what manner of death you'll die. What have you to be
afraid of? We're in the same boat, you and I; the world has kicked us
both pretty hard; we may do better together than we have done apart.
Don't be ungrateful; your loving guardian has come back to you after
twenty years; we'll see life together, Charlie."

I shrank away from him, and put up my arm as though to ward off a blow.
"Where are you taking me?" I asked in a whisper.

"To London--and back into the world," he said, seizing my upraised arm,
and dragging it down, and shaking me playfully. "There's work for you to
do in the world, Charlie--great work."

"Where are you taking me?" I asked again, shuddering, and hiding my face
in my hands.

"Before your hair was grey, poor fool, and while the world smiled upon
you, you lived and loved and laughed. You shall live and love and laugh
again; you shall forget your prison and the fear of death that has been
upon you; you shall live again."

"Who can do all this for me?" I asked.

He tapped himself on the breast. "I can--and I will," he said. "There
was a woman you loved in those old days--have you forgotten her name?"

"It was--it was 'Barbara!'" I whispered.

"Barbara!" he repeated, and I did not notice the sneer that was in his
tones. "Barbara it was, and Barbara you shall see again. She shall rise
up in the flesh before you, and show you what love is--and perhaps
something else beside!"




                              CHAPTER II

                                GHOSTS


London terrified me after the long silence of the prison; I was afraid
of it. More than that, I discovered that I had forgotten my brief
experience of it; so that I should have been unable, even had it been
necessary, to find my way to the old rooms in the little street off
Holborn, wherein I had dreamed my brief dreams, and wherein the Law had
so suddenly gripped me, and swept me out of the world twenty years
before. But I had this man for guide--this man who had been my guardian,
and was now, as it seemed, my friend; I could only cling to him, with
some measure of gratitude in my heart that he should have remembered me
at all, and have come to my rescue when I was once more flung upon the
world.

I gathered that he was poor; there were no signs about him of that
prosperity that had once been his. Moreover, on reaching London he
hurried me into an omnibus, and took me a long way rattling through an
obscure part of the town to a street of mean houses abutting on the
river; it was a place of houses evidently let out in rooms. He rang a
bell at one house, and after a long time the sound of shuffling feet was
heard, and the door opened a little way, and a face looked out. I was
not sure at first whether it was the face of a child or of an old and
wizened woman. Then, as the door was opened a little wider, I saw that
it was a shabby and forlorn-looking girl of about fifteen or sixteen,
dressed in an old skirt and blouse much too big for her.

"All right, Moggs," said Fanshawe, "you needn't be afraid to let us in."
He thrust her aside as he spoke, and motioned to me with a jerk of the
head to follow him. I went in, and the girl closed the door.

"There's a letter for you upstairs, guv'nor," she said, calling after
Fanshawe, who was mounting the stairs.

He muttered something, and went on his way; I followed obediently. We
came into a forlorn-looking room, with an untidy bed in one corner, and
with some wretched scraps of furniture scattered about it; a ragged
apology for a carpet covered about half the floor. A cupboard, with a
broken hinge to its door, swung open in one corner, and disclosed a few
plates and cups and saucers, and some glasses that did not match. The
place was destitute of fire, and was bitterly cold. Jervis Fanshawe
strode out of the room again, and screamed querulously for the girl.
"Moggs! Moggs!"

She came up in a moment or two; listened calmly to his volcanic outburst
at her; and proceeded to light the fire. She was the strangest little
person I ever remember to have seen; she went on calmly with her work,
singing to herself under her breath a sort of melancholy dirge that had
no tune nor time about it, but which seemed in some vague way to comfort
her, much as a man may suck at an empty pipe, or a baby at a bottle. She
took not the faintest notice of Fanshawe, despite all that he said; she
only looked at me curiously once or twice before finally quitting the
room. By that time my guardian (as I must continue to call him, for want
of a better title) was deep in the letter he had found on the table.
Finally he thrust it into his pocket, with an exclamation of annoyance,
and turned to me.

I suppose the fact of seeing me standing there, huddled as close as I
could to the fire, reminded him of something in the past; he looked
round the room, and waved his hands, and spoke mockingly.

"Welcome, Charlie Avaline, to my rooms!" he exclaimed. "Perhaps I should
say 'room,' because there's only one of 'em. Observe the furniture, the
costly appointments, the ease and luxury of it all! To this have we
come, Charlie--you and I. Who can say that we haven't done well for
ourselves?"

He was on his knees before the fire, stirring it savagely and striving
to make it burn, and muttering about it. He looked up at me with that
old look of contempt on his face; flung the rusty poker into the grate
with a clatter, and got to his feet. He was in a strange mood, and I did
not know what to make of him. More than that, I was coming back so
slowly to life myself that I did not trouble very much about him; I had
just those animal instincts to warm myself, and to get food, and to
rest, and nothing more. Whatever old pulses he had stirred in me with
his mention of the woman I had loved were dropping back into their old
condition. The time was coming when they were to be stirred and shaken,
and brought to full and abundant life; but his was not the hand to sweep
the strings of my being, and wake any music within me. I had only a dull
curiosity concerning him, and that curiosity he presently began to
satisfy.

"You're such a bloodless thing--something that has borne a number for
years--a slave; one doesn't know how much you understand, or how much
you don't," he began, looking at me over his shoulder in that old
fashion I dimly remembered.

"I'll try to understand," I replied patiently.

"It is necessary that you should be told certain things; there's work
for you to do, and you must remember who you are, and what you have
been, before you can undertake it. I've waited a long time for you, on
the chance that you might come into my hands again; and I'm getting an
old man, and time is precious. Carry your dull mind back, and see if you
remember what _I_ was."

I suppose I looked at him in a troubled way, as one not clearly
understanding; he beat his fist upon the table, and cried out harshly at
me.

"Numbskull! Do you remember what position I occupied?"

"You had money--you lived well--you had many friends," I began slowly;
and he interrupted me impatiently.

"Yes, I had friends--money--power," he exclaimed. "The world went well
with me, and there were those who trembled at the sound of my voice.
Indirectly you brought me to this," he added, waving his hand to
indicate the poor room. "When you killed Gavin Hockley, you let loose a
cloud of things that had better have been hidden; I had forgotten the
possibility of that when I set you on to kill him."

"I killed him because he spoke ill of a woman," I said, like one
repeating a lesson.

"You killed him because I had made up my mind that you should," he
retorted. "However, that's neither here nor there. Hockley had left
behind a cloud of debts; he had paper signed by me; he had letters of
mine. Even in those first days, when you were in prison, the thing
sprang up alive to confront me; men whispered those ugly words, forgery
and fraud. You've not been the only prisoner, my fine fellow."

"You?" I stared at him in amazement.

He laughed disagreeably. "Yes, they shut me away for seven years; and I
came out what you see me now--a man ruined and broken, without a friend
in the world, and without any one to speak a good word for me. Those I
had known were dead, or would not speak to me; I was too old to make new
friends of the sort I had known before. So I've lived by my wits,
Charles Avaline, just as you'll have to live. While you've been warm and
well-cared for at the expense of your country, I've been down into the
depths, and have seen strange things. And it's not a nice world for a
man under those circumstances. One longs to get hold of another man, and
to drag that other man down, and show him that bitter life too," he
added savagely.

"I--I'm sorry," I said vaguely; I did not know what else to say. "You
see, I have not known what has been happening. In all the long time
(they tell me it was twenty years)--in all the long time that I have
been there I have not seen the face of any one I ever knew before; and I
have not heard a voice that was a voice out of the past, save in dreams.
And I never had a letter."

"No--they forget you easily when you go under," said Fanshawe. "As for
me, I thought they'd hang you; and by the time they hadn't done that I
was too full of my own troubles. I suppose you'd like to know something
about the old people and the old days--eh?" He thrust his face towards
me across the table; his eyes were hungry. I did not understand then
what was in the mind of the man; his brain was clear and strong, and his
plans already well thought out. My brain was dull and tired, and I had
no plans at all.

"You remember Hammerstone Market?" he went on, watching me, and perhaps
noting the expression of my face as I heard names I remembered. "All
changed down there, in one way, and yet not changed in another. Some
dead, and some alive. You remember Barbara?"

"Yes; I loved--loved Barbara," I whispered brokenly.

"You shall see her again; talk with her again; come into her life
again." There was a fierce eagerness about him that held me and
frightened me. "That's what I'm going to do for you; that's what I meant
when I said that I would bring you back to love and life and laughter.
Look round this room--and then see it all swept away," he went on with
growing excitement. "I've found one friend who will help us both; it may
happen that we are not poor and forlorn any more. We have both suffered;
it is right that we should have some little joy in our lives."

"What are you going to do with me?" I asked him, as I had asked before;
but he laughed, and would not answer me.

I spent the rest of the day in that place, cowering over the fire, and
striving hard to look back into the past. I found it difficult at first;
it was like a closed book to me, in which only here and there, when I
was able at last to open it, could I decipher a few words--a few broken
sentences that came like the sigh of a dead wind blowing over the dead
years back to me. I got up mechanically when I was called to eat what
simple food he put before me, going back afterwards to crouch over the
fire, and to start that burrowing process again into the lost years.

It was late in the evening when I saw him reading again that letter he
had taken from his pocket, and muttering to himself over it. At last he
seemed suddenly to make up his mind about it; he crammed it back into
his pocket, and put on his hat, and announced that he was going out.
"You can stay here," he told me curtly; "no one will interfere with
you."

I sat still for a little time after he had gone; and then an intolerable
restlessness seized upon me. I was like a lost spirit; I did not know
what to do with myself. I found myself pacing out again on the floor the
steps that for twenty years I had paced out in my cell; and finding the
room too large, so that the steps would not fit in. And at last got my
hat, and went out into the streets; and looked about me, with a new and
definite idea for the first time growing in my mind.

Hammerstone Market! At Hammerstone Market I had been happy once; and
there, waiting for me, and preserved in some strange fashion through all
the years, was the life I had laid down and left behind me. Why had I
not thought of this before? It was the simplest thing in the world; I
had but to go to that place where I had been happy to pick up again the
thread of my life, and to put together successfully the puzzle I did not
now understand. So I set out for the place, with a new and happy
confidence growing in my mind.

I was but groping yet, and I did not understand fully what I meant to
do. I was but a poor thing, striving hard to get back to some life I had
lost; and so it happened that I set about it as a child might have done,
and in what seemed to my childish mind the simplest and most direct way.

I have wondered since what I must have looked like to any one who saw me
then, wandering about in search of Hammerstone Market. I have a vision
of myself as being tall and thin, and gaunt and old-looking; with deep
eyes that must have been pathetic in the hopeless weariness that was in
their depths. My years counted as nothing; I was a shabby tired old man,
going back, pathetically enough, to pick up here and there a thread of
the life that had been snatched so suddenly from me. I knew of no way to
reach the place of my dreams, except to walk; and I only knew dimly that
it lay in a county not very far to the north of London.

By little short of a miracle I found the place, after walking through
the best part of a long winter night. When once I had got out of London
the road had proved to be a straight one; I walked on and on with dogged
persistency. By the time the morning light was beginning to break over
the country that stretched before me, I was within reasonable distance
of the place, and my heart was light with a hope it had not known for
years. For I was coming back to the place where for a little time at
least I had lived and loved and suffered--and I was to see Barbara!

Even then I had no thought that she could be anything but the bright
girl I had left. Time had stood still with me, and my life had been so
completely a thing of dreams that she was a dream creature in my mind
still; I could think of her in no other way. I came back to the place
where I had known her after that lapse of twenty years, but under what
different conditions! I had come there before a mere boy, with the world
at my feet; I crept back now, jaded and weary and old, to look on the
life I had known, and to find my lost love, who, had I but thought about
the matter clearly and sanely, I must surely have understood might well
be in her grave years before.

The place was unchanged; the mere sight of the old houses and of the
quaint High Street stirred my memory, and made me see more clearly into
that past in which I was groping. I went on eagerly; I wanted to find
again all that I had lost so long ago.

Perhaps it was characteristic of my wasted life that it should be winter
now, instead of the summer when I had first met Barbara in the woods; it
was as though the joy and beauty of it all had been stripped away. But
when I came to the wood at last, with the bare branches of the trees
standing up nakedly against the sky, a gleam of sun struck across it,
making fanciful patterns on the snow. I sat down on a fallen tree, and
looked about me, with my mind clearing more and more every minute.

Have you ever closed your eyes, and seen suddenly and vividly in a
mental picture some scene that was enacted years and years before--seen
the figures moving in it, just as they did long ago? That was what I saw
then, or began to see, when, suddenly raising my eyes, I saw standing in
the sunlight an easel with a canvas upon it. I knew then that in some
extraordinary fashion I had dropped back through the years, and had come
again as a young man into the wood. Yet not as a young man; because now
I was poor and old, and shabby and tired--and it was winter. There could
be no getting away from that; in spite of the sunlight it was winter.

I walked up to the canvas, and touched it, to be sure that it was real.
And then, knowing my way clearly, as it seemed, I walked on into the
depths of the wood, looking about me.

God of mercy!--she was there! I saw her coming straight through the
wood--Barbara, with her hands outstretched, and a smile on her face; I
knew her in a moment. And going towards her, as it seemed, was myself--a
tall straight youth, with an easy step and an eager manner, meeting her
and holding her hands, and looking into her eyes. I had slipped behind a
tree, so that they did not see me; I stood there with my hands pressed
against my throbbing temples, looking on at what seemed to be a dream
picture of something that had happened years and years before--looking
on at myself, and seeming to live again my own hopeless love story. For
now I saw that the boy held her close in his arms, and whispered to her;
and she seemed to be weeping.

My first thought was that I must have suddenly gone mad, or that this
was some dream out of which I should presently wake. But while I stood
there staring at them, I went over in my mind all that I had done the
previous night and that day: my long walk from London--and the coming
into the old town at break of day--then this further journey here. I
looked down at my shabby clothes, and stared in bewilderment at my
coarsened hands with the broken nails. Yes--I was convict No. 145--once
Charlie Avaline; and these were no dream figures, but two people living
out again, in some strange fashion, the life that I had lived in a few
short hours with Barbara Patton. Yet here was Barbara herself--with the
eyes of my Barbara, and the face of my Barbara--all unchanged, as I had
dreamed of her so often in my cell in prison! How was I to account for
that?

I remained hidden at no great distance from them; I saw them presently
part. The boy was impressing something upon her; I saw her dry her
tears, and listen, and even strive to smile at something that he said.
Then they clung together for a moment or two--and she ran away through
the woods, waving her hand to him as she went. He walked back dejectedly
to his easel, and packed up his things, and went away. And I, in a fever
of anxiety and remorse and wonder, followed him.

Perhaps the strangest thing of all was to see him go to that inn where I
had once stayed--going into it with the light step that I must have had
twenty years before. It was as though the ghost of myself had come back,
in a better shape than I, to take up the life I had dropped.

I watched him all that day; which is to say that I hung about the little
town, and waited for him, wondering what he would do. I was not
surprised when, as it was growing dark, he came out into the High
Street, and set off at a swinging pace in the direction of the house I
had known as belonging to old Patton. With the trot that had been mine
for so long in the exercise ground of the prison, I went after him.

It was obvious that he was not so lucky as I had been, in that he must
not enter the house. I crept into the grounds, and presently saw him
standing on that very terrace on which I had stood with my
Barbara--looking in at the windows and listening; I was below the
terrace, crouched among some bushes, watching him, and watching the
lighted windows. Presently a man walked to one of them, and opened it a
little way, and returned into the room; and still I lay there, watching
and thinking and wondering.

Then across the silence of the night there broke the sound of music, and
the voice of a girl singing. I dropped my head upon my arms as I lay
there; it seemed as though I could not bear it. For this was a song I
had heard twenty years before in that very room, and it seemed to me
that the voice was the same, coming hauntingly and wonderfully out of
the past. The boy stood listening too; every word and every note floated
to us clearly. It seemed as though out of the deep night of the years
Barbara's voice came to me, singing to me as she had sung before.

The song ceased, and the last notes died away. The girl came to the open
window, and looked out into the night; I saw the boy crouching there,
watching her. Then from somewhere in the room a man's voice sounded
quite clearly and distinctly.

"Barbara, you have your mother's voice."

She turned her head, and looked back into the room. "Thank you, father,"
she said; "I like to hear you say that."

I lay still, with a full understanding coming to me for the first time.
This was not my Barbara; this was her child. I had come back, to find
the mother gone, and the child in her place--in her very likeness.
And I had come back, as it seemed, to touch again a love story as
hopeless and as broken as my own had been. While the girl stood at
the window, and the boy crouched in the shadows watching her, I lay
there--thinking--thinking!

Presently the window was fastened, and the shutters drawn; lights began
to appear in the upper windows. The boy lingered for a long time, but
presently stole away; I crept after him. I did not know what to do, or
what to think; I was like a lost soul wandering the earth, forlorn and
hopeless and helpless. But he, going on through the night back to his
lodging, was so much a part of myself, sprung up suddenly out of the
past, that I could not bear to lose sight of him; I was close behind him
when we came to the outskirts of the little town. There he turned
suddenly, and faced about, looking at me.

"Why do you follow me?" he asked suspiciously.

"I meant no harm," I replied. "I beg you won't take any notice of me;
I'm only a poor wanderer."

I saw his hand go to his pocket, as though he would have given me money;
I drew back hastily. "Not that," I said; "I don't need that. But I was
once like you--God knows how many years ago!--and so I liked to feel
that I was near you. I'm sorry ... good-night!"

I went away quickly, leaving him staring after me. Presently, when he
had gone on again, I followed him, at a greater distance; came to the
inn where he was stopping, and stood outside for a long time, wondering
passionately and despairingly if I could help him; and then laughing at
that thought, ruefully enough, when I remembered my own forlorn
condition.

The hopelessness of doing anything there, where I was merely a penniless
waif, was borne in upon me more forcefully the next day. I had found
shelter in a barn, and I begged my breakfast from a charitable woman at
a cottage. Then I set out again to walk to London. It was only when I
was many miles on my journey that I stood still in the road, with a hand
pressed to my forehead, and with a new light breaking in upon me.

Jervis Fanshawe had tried to tell me of this new Barbara! Why had I
forgotten that; why hadn't I understood what he meant? Jervis Fanshawe
had told me that I should see my Barbara again, as I had seen her in the
past; that I should come back to love and life and laughter. Jervis
Fanshawe understood; surely he would be able to show me what was best to
be done. I set off at a greater rate than ever for London, determined
that I must see him at the earliest opportunity, and tell him the
wonderful thing that I had discovered.

I could think only of that discovery; I forgot completely what the man
was whose services I desired to enlist--forgot all he had done, and all
I had suffered indirectly through him. I had no one in the world to whom
I could turn, save this man; and I only remembered with gratitude then
that he had come to me at the moment of my release from prison, and had
given me food and lodging.

It was very late when I reached the shabby little street in the
neighbourhood of the river; I must have found it by a sort of instinct,
for I did not even know its name. I came to the house, and rang the
bell; the child my guardian had called Moggs opened the door. She
grinned when she saw me, and jerked her head towards the staircase.

"Lucky you've come," she said, in a sort of hoarse whisper. "'E's bin
carryin' on like mad, blamin' me for it, of all fings. I made sure you'd
cut yer lucky."

I guessed dimly that my guardian had wondered at my absence; I went
quickly up the stairs. I opened the door, and went eagerly into the
room, with my tale at my very lips; but I stopped short when I saw that
another man was seated at the table from which Fanshawe had risen.

"So you've come back, have you?" sneered my guardian, looking me over
with no very favourable eye. "And by the look of you, I should think
you've been out of doors a little."

I became suddenly aware how deplorably muddy and dirty I was. Like a
scolded child, I pulled off my hat, and stood there with bowed head,
unable to say a word. I raised my head when I heard the other man speak
to Fanshawe.

"Is this the fellow?"

It was a curiously hard voice, a cold metallic voice. I looked at the
speaker, and saw a man a little over thirty years of age, with a strong,
rather heavy face; I noticed that his dark hair grew low on his
forehead, and rather forward at the temples. He was very
well-dressed--so well-dressed, in fact, that his being in that place at
all on friendly terms with the shabby Jervis Fanshawe seemed incongruous
in itself.

"Yes, this is the fellow," said Fanshawe, taking me by the sleeve and
drawing me forward. "You can speak to him yourself."

The man lounging at the table looked up at me contemptuously
enough--studied me as he might have studied a dog he meant to buy if he
approved of it.

"You've been in prison?" he said at last.

I bowed my head, and dropped my eyes. "A long time," I replied.

"And now are thrown on the world, with a living to get if possible, and
with no trade at your fingers' ends--eh? Well, I may be able to help
you. We are friends here, and so I can speak freely. You killed a man?"

"A long time ago," I said, without raising my eyes.

"There's nothing to be ashamed of," he retorted, with a disagreeable
laugh--"in fact, you're a man to know. I've been talking to Fanshawe
here about you, and I think you may serve my purpose."

"In a word, Charlie," broke in Fanshawe excitedly, "there's a chance for
you to get back a little payment for what you have suffered--to pay off
old scores--to get a little cheap revenge. Don't stare at me like that;
pull your wits together, and listen."

"To pay off old scores? Revenge?" I stared at him, wondering if he knew
what I had seen in that old place of my dreams--wondering what he would
say next.

"You have served a long term of imprisonment--your life has been broken
and spoilt and ruined," went on the man at the table, setting my
guardian aside. "Naturally you hate those who have drawn you into that;
naturally your mind is filled with the desire to get even with them--to
settle that old account."

"I don't understand," I murmured, looking from one to the other.

Jervis Fanshawe seized my arm, and shook me fiercely. "Years ago you
suffered, like a fool, for the sake of a woman; she cared nothing for
you, and married another man. Do you remember that?"

"Yes. Her name was Barbara," I replied slowly.

Fanshawe turned to the stranger. "You see he remembers something," he
said. Then he turned again impatiently to me. "I have already told you
that a new Barbara has sprung up in her place--a child--a girl."

Glancing at the face of the stranger at the table, I decided to hide my
knowledge of what I had seen; I said nothing. Perhaps here I was to be
shown the way to do what was in my mind; perhaps I was to be helped, as
I had never expected to be helped at all.

"You understand, Avaline," went on the stranger, in his deadly voice,
"that I take an interest in this new Barbara, who is like the Barbara
you so mistakenly loved twenty years ago. In other words, for her own
sake it is necessary that I should see much of her--communicate with her
often. That is difficult without a third person, because the lady
herself is a little obdurate. Do you follow me?"

"Yes," I replied, looking at him for a moment, and then turning to my
guardian. "I begin to understand."

"So that if I can introduce to her some one she does not know--some one
who is bound, by reasons of policy, to do what he is told, without
thought of the consequences--I am a gainer," went on the man at the
table. "You have reason to hate a girl, so unfortunately formed in the
image of the woman who deceived you, and brought disaster upon you; you
have reason to be loyal to me, because I can keep you from starving, and
can give you clothes and shelter. You're a poor broken worn-out thing,
and I take pity on you. Now do you understand the situation?"

I understood it so well that my mind, for the first time since I had
stepped out from the prison gates, was clear, and I was fully alive. I
looked eagerly from one to the other; I told the man brokenly that I
would do all he asked; I think I suggested that I would be his slave. He
might tell me to do anything; I was eager to take up that old story that
I had been compelled to lay down.

"For your revenge?" he asked, with a grin.

"For my revenge!" I said; and burst into a shout of laughter.

"Don't take any notice of him," I heard my guardian whisper. "The poor
fool is only half-witted; his years of prison life have told upon him.
But he's the man you want!"




                              CHAPTER III

                        I ENTER UPON SERVITUDE


While I stood in the room watching the two men, and eager to know what
work was to be given me to do that would enable me to touch again the
life I had left, Fanshawe and the stranger discussed me in low voices,
as they might have discussed some piece of furniture they contemplated
putting in some particular place. I caught one or two of their remarks;
I listened with the humility that years had bred in me to what they said
of me.

"You can kick or bully him into anything," I heard Fanshawe say, as he
looked over his shoulder at me contemptuously. "For the sake of his
bread and butter he'll do what he's told, and he'll do it humbly. If any
feeling of revenge is left in him, it will act as a spur; but I don't
think the spur will be needed. If he gets troublesome, you can always
kick him into the road; he'll crawl back to you, and lick your hand,
like the shabby dog he is."

"We must give him a name," said the stranger, looking at me with a
thoughtful frown. "We can't send him among those people with his old
label attached to him."

"No--no--you won't do that," I pleaded; for the thought of that had not
occurred to me before. "Give me any name you like."

"Oh, we won't shame you, Mr. Charles Avaline," sneered Fanshawe; "you
needn't be afraid of that. What name would you like?"

"What were you in prison--I mean, what work did you do?" demanded the
other suddenly.

"I worked in the tinsmith's shop for the most part," I said. "They told
me I made a good workman; they showed my work to visitors sometimes; and
then they would call my number--145 was my number--and point me out, and
whisper."

"That will do as well as anything else," said the other man, who was
evidently paying no attention to my remarks. "We'll christen you
'Tinman'; that shall be your name from this time forward. See that you
answer to it." He got up and sauntered to the door, with a careless nod
to Jervis Fanshawe; stopped there, and turned round, slapping the side
of his leg with a light cane he carried. I remember that he reminded me
in a strange haunting fashion of another man I had seen, who had stood
with his arms akimbo, and with a light cane resting on one hip and under
his hand.

"And by the way, Tinman, you'd better know your new master's name. I am
Murray Olivant; keep that name in your mind, because you'll have to
remember it. Fanshawe will tell you what to do, and when I want you."

He sauntered out of the room, banging the door behind him. Jervis
Fanshawe turned to me, rubbing his lean hands together, and grinning
delightedly.

"Now, Charlie, perhaps you'll know in future who your best friend is,"
he said. "This is only the beginning; it all rests in your hands to make
the most of this opportunity, for both our sakes. Olivant's rich--very
rich indeed; it'll go hard with us if we don't dip our fingers into his
pockets more deeply than he suspects. Jail-birds both, Charlie," he
added, tapping me on the breast with his lean forefinger; "it won't do
for us to have any scruples, will it?"

"I suppose not," I answered him. "But what will he want me to do. Be
patient with me," I pleaded, "because I'm not used to the ways of the
world yet; I'm afraid of everything. Be patient with me."

"I'll be patient with you, dolt!" he exclaimed wrathfully. "In the first
place, I suppose you understand that our friend Mr. Murray Olivant
happens to take a very deep interest in matters in which you and I once
interested ourselves, but with which we now have nothing further to do.
In other words, as I have explained to you partly already, there is a
new generation grown up in the place you knew; and our friend Olivant
knows that generation well. More than that, he knows one at least of the
old generation."

I knew to what he referred; I remembered the new Barbara I had seen--so
like her mother, and so unconsciously living again, as it seemed, her
mother's story. It was so clear to me now that I was almost prepared for
the next words Fanshawe said, and they did not come upon me with any
real shock.

"And the new generation that is growing up is rather like what the old
one was, and is represented by a girl. They call her Barbara. That makes
you jump--eh?" he demanded vindictively. "And our friend Murray Olivant
takes a deep interest in this Barbara--in other words--loves her."

It was all coming true--it was all happening as I knew instinctively in
my own mind it must happen. Fate was marching on grimly enough, and I
saw that not only was there a new Barbara and a new Charlie Avaline, but
that here, menacing them, was a new Gavin Hockley. I was afraid, and I
suppose the terror that was growing up in me showed itself in my face.
At all events my guardian saw it, but mistook the reason for it.

"There's nothing for you to be frightened about," he said scornfully; "I
don't suppose any one is likely to recognize you. You'll only be poor
Tinman, the hanger-on and servant; no one is likely to ask questions
about you. I don't doubt Murray Olivant will give you plenty of dirty
work to do; and you must do it with a smiling face, and be thankful that
you've found some one to keep you out of the workhouse. By the way," he
added suddenly, as the thought occurred to him--"where have you been
last night and to-day?"

"Oh, just wandering about," I replied vaguely; for I did not mean to
tell him that I had taken that surprising plunge back into the past. "I
have not seen London for so long," I added lamely.

"Well, that's all right; but don't try that game again," he said.
"You'll be landing some of us into difficulties, to say nothing of
yourself, if you wander about in your present muddle-headed condition.
Stay where you can be looked after, and do as you're told."

I meekly promised that I would obey; I ventured presently, as we sat
there with the table between us, to put a question or two about the
past.

"I want you to tell me," I said--"I want to know what has happened down
at Hammerstone Market in all these years. You tell me that a new Barbara
has grown up to take the place of the old, but what of the old one?" It
was all absurd and impossible, and I was a poor shabby broken
grey-haired man, to whom love should mean nothing; but my voice trembled
as I asked the question.

"Your old flame?" he sneered. "Dead these many years."

"Dead!" I sprang to my feet and stared at him wildly; I remember that he
hurriedly pushed his chair back as though to avoid me. "Dead!"

"What is there to get excited about?" he cried. "She couldn't live for
ever--and besides, she treated you none too well."

"Dead!" I said again, for that thought had never occurred to me before.
I had seen her always young and fresh and unchanged; the curious thing
was that I seemed to see her so still, even though this other girl had
grown up in her image.

"And the new Barbara--the bit of a girl that our friend Murray Olivant
is so interested in--is like the old Barbara come to life again," said
Jervis Fanshawe, speaking as if to himself, and with his lips set in a
straight bitter line. "I hate her!--I loathe the sight of her. She
stands there"--in his excitement he had risen to his feet, and had flung
one thin arm above his head--"with the same devilish childish beauty her
mother had--that mother that laughed at me, and sent you to rot for
twenty years in a prison. I tell you, Charlie"--he dropped into his
chair again and leaned across the table, staring at me with wild
eyes--"I tell you that I have lain behind a hedge down in that place
where she lives--so close to her that I could have risen up and seized
her, and crushed the life out of her before she could cry out. Yes--and
with these hands!"

"She never harmed you," I reminded him.

"No, but she lives in the image of the woman who laughed at me, and set
me aside as something not to be reckoned with. And I've waited,
Charlie--by God!--I've waited!"

I did not guess then what was in his mind; I did not realize that the
deadly hatred of the man for the one woman he had failed to possess
could pass on through all those years, and grow again, stronger for the
waiting, and rise up stark and strong against the child. I had not
understood that any man could live for that and that only; could wait in
the snow outside my prison to seize me as an instrument ready to his
hand. I did not even then understand the man.

"The Barbara who died--the Barbara I loved," I said gently--"won't you
tell me about her?"

"She died at sea," he replied. "Her child had been born, and they said
that the mother was not strong; that she had never been the same woman
after her marriage. Perhaps she fretted after you"--this with a grin and
a kick at me under the table that was meant to be facetious. "At all
events, the husband was persuaded to take her on a sea voyage, and the
child went with them. She fell into a sort of fever--the mother, I
mean--and they had to watch her constantly, because it almost seemed
that she would take her own life. Then one day her cabin was found to be
empty; the ship was searched; but she was gone. A little later the
husband found a note written by her; she had made up her mind to end her
life, and was only watching for an opportunity to throw herself
overboard. She commended the child to his care. And that was the end of
her."

Barbara dead! It did not seem possible to my mind, even then when I had
chapter and verse for it; I could not set aside that vision I had always
had of her--as the bright young girl who had met me in the wood twenty
years before. I realized bitterly enough that in that, as in all other
things, I had been tricked; that while I dreamed of her in my prison
cell, and hugged that dear remembrance to myself, she had been in the
depths of the sea, dead and forgotten. I woke now to the consciousness
that the cruel voice of Jervis Fanshawe was still talking to me.

"As for the father--Lucas Savell--he has become a thing of no account.
When old Patton died he left the business to Savell--principally, I
think, for the sake of the child; and Savell has let it go to rack and
ruin. He was a poor creature always--and I think the loss of Barbara
finished him. At any rate, he has gone down and down, and they say he
drinks. So far as the business is concerned"--Fanshawe shrugged his
shoulders and laughed--"well--that's where Murray Olivant comes in."

"In what way?" I asked.

"Oh, he's a keen blade, is Olivant," said Fanshawe, shaking his head at
an imaginary Murray Olivant, and chuckling. "He's always had money--and
he always will have it; he's like a bird of prey, ready to stick his
talons into the choicest morsels he sees round him. He saw Lucas Savell
and the business; he advanced money; and so got a hold here and a hold
there, until at last the thing was his. It is supposed to belong to
Savell--but he dare not call his soul his own. You needn't look
surprised; it has all been a process of years, so gradual that others
have not noticed it. Lucas Savell is like a sucked orange, and can be
cast aside at any moment."

"Why do you hate them so--I mean, apart from Barbara?" I asked.

Always it seemed that when his supposed wrongs were referred to a sort
of semi-madness came upon Jervis Fanshawe, so that he lost control of
himself, and was at first unable to speak. Such a madness was upon him
now; he had to gasp and open his lips once or twice, and to stretch out
a hand towards me, and even clutch at his throat a little before he was
able to speak at all. And when he did at last, his voice was hoarse and
unnatural with excitement.

"They--they ruined me; they stood me in the dock on charges of forgery
and fraud; they forgot all my years of service. I had had to get the
money from somewhere to satisfy that beast Hockley; I got it from them,
meaning to pay it back when the luck changed. It never did change, and
Hockley's death finished me. Then, when I came out of prison, old Patton
was dead and Savell was established. And I found another man taking my
revenge from me, and robbing Savell, and draining him dry. And I wormed
myself in with that man, and made myself useful to him--just as you will
do, Charlie--just as you're going to do from to-night. He's a fine
fellow, this Murray Olivant; he'll break them up, and make a beggar of
Savell--and he'll get the girl. Think of that, Charlie; the Barbara for
whom you've worn out your heart and your life in prison is dead, and the
new Barbara shall be at the beck and call of this man--who won't treat
her any too well, I'll warrant. There's a revenge for you!"

I was afraid to ask any direct question as to the boy I had seen with
this new Barbara in the wood; I feared that Fanshawe must know at once
if I did that I had been down to spy out the land. But I asked, a little
wistfully perhaps, a question that artfully concealed what I already
knew.

"Is it not possible that this girl--this other Barbara--loves some one
else?"

"And what if she does?" he snapped at me; "they've all got fads and
fancies, and so much the worse for them. This little fool, for instance,
believes herself to be in love with a boy who hasn't a penny--just such
a young jackanapes as you were twenty years ago. In fact, he paints, as
you tried to do. He's a starveling dog--just as you were."

"Who is he?" I asked.

"He's half-brother to our friend Olivant, whose mother married again,
and died when she gave the boy to the world. They call him Arnold
Millard, and he's dependent on his half-brother for the clothes he wears
and the food he eats. And yet, forsooth, has the cheek to step in and
pretend to be in love with the girl destined for the other man."

"But her father--Lucas Savell--what does he say?"

"He dare not say anything; it's not in his hands. Our friend Olivant can
turn him out neck and crop at a moment's notice, and he knows it. Oh, I
can tell you Murray Olivant's a man to be looked up to; he rules every
one and everything. Keep in his good books, Charlie, and you'll never
starve; but you mustn't offend him. I don't know what would have become
of me," he added plaintively, "if I hadn't happened to stumble across
him. True, I've done some shady things for him; but he's been very good
to me."

I remember that I strove hard for the next day or two, while I awaited
orders from my new master, to thrash out in my mind the complicated
thing that was before me, that I might work out the pitiful story to the
advantage of those in whom I was so passionately interested. For, think
of my position! It was my fate to see again two helpless beings striving
hard to work out their love story, just as I had striven with Barbara in
the old days, and beset on all hands by enemies. This Barbara, who had
risen, as it were, from the ashes of her dead mother to take up the
burden that mother had laid down, was alone in the world, save for the
helpless boy who loved her; and I knew inevitably that stronger forces
than any she could combat would bear upon them and drive them asunder.
That was inevitable, unless I could do something to help them; and I was
an old and broken man, degraded and useless, with my soul stained with
murder, and with the record of twenty wasted years behind me. I was in
despair when I thought about it; it seemed impossible that I could do
anything.

Two days later I was told by Jervis Fanshawe that he had received a
message from Olivant saying that I was to present myself to that
gentleman at once, and take my orders. The better to be sure of me,
Fanshawe went with me; he took me to a great house in a fashionable
quarter of the town, where I found that Murray Olivant lived in great
style in a beautifully furnished flat, with a highly respectable
manservant to attend upon him. I know that the man looked at me
contemptuously enough as he left us in the hall of the place; my
guardian he seemed to know, and told him that Mr. Olivant would see him
at once. I was left standing in the hall, when presently Fanshawe was
conducted into the presence of his patron; they kept me waiting quite a
long time before the manservant appeared again, after a bell had been
rung, and told me I was wanted.

"You're to go in there," said the man, jerking his head towards a door
at the other side of the hall.

I went in, and found Murray Olivant lounging in a deep chair before the
fire; Jervis Fanshawe stood at a little distance from him, a shabby
figure indeed in contrast to the other man. Olivant was smoking a big
cigar, which he was nervously turning over and over between his teeth,
the while he frowned at me through the smoke. I did not speak; I waited
again while they discussed what was to be done with me, in that fashion
they had used before, quite as though I were a piece of furniture that
had been purchased, and for which a place had to be found.

"You'll have to get him some clothes--something dark and respectable,"
said Olivant. "Get them to-day; he must go down to Hammerstone Market
to-night, taking my luggage. Also he'll take a letter from me to Savell;
I shall follow to-morrow. Does he remember where the place is, do you
think? You Tinman," he called to me; "do you know where Hammerstone
Market is?"

"I remember it, sir," I replied.

"You'll have enough money given you to take you down there; you will
remember that you are Tinman, my personal servant. You'll have no
difficulty about it; they'll put you up at the house. Fanshawe will take
you out now, and rig you up properly; you'll be back here by six
o'clock. Your train leaves at a few minutes to seven." He turned to
Jervis Fanshawe, and spoke impatiently. "Do you think the idiot
understands?"

"Perfectly," was the reply. "You don't want him too sharp, you know."

"You're doing splendidly," said Fanshawe, when we were outside the place
again. "I can see that you'll be just the very man to do the work he
wants; you'll play the dumb dog, and do what you're told, and ask no
questions, won't you?"

"Of course," I replied; but I think he was a little disappointed that I
should appear to take so little interest in this new life that was being
mapped out for me.

Some clothing was bought for me at a second-hand dealer's, and I was
rigged out cheaply to fit my new position. I did not see Murray Olivant
when I went back to his rooms; his manservant pointed to the luggage
that had been packed, and gave me a letter addressed to Lucas Savell,
and some money. At the last moment before opening the door the man
plucked me by the sleeve, and drew me back, and whispered--

"I say, who are you? and what are you supposed to be? Hang me if I can
make you out."

"It isn't necessary," I replied; "I don't know myself." I went out of
the place, carrying some of the luggage, and leaving him to follow with
the rest.

A cab was called, and I started; my last vision of the servant was
seeing him standing on the pavement outside the house, scratching his
chin and staring perplexedly after me. But, in my deeper anxiety as to
what was going to happen to me in that strange house at Hammerstone
Market, I forgot his very existence by the time the cab had turned the
corner.

I reached Hammerstone Market without adventure, took a fly from the
station, and drove to the house. Darkness had long since set in, and I
could see nothing of the grounds when presently the vehicle turned in at
the gates; I could only judge, by the sound of the churning wheels, that
we were driving through masses of dead leaves that must have lain there
for many past years. Coming to the house at last, I was deposited with
the luggage outside the door, and the fly drove away. I stood there in
the darkness, hearing a great bell clang somewhere in the distance, and
wondering what would be said to me when the door should presently open.

I had no fear that any one would recognize me; the mere thought of that
was absurd. Indeed, there was but one disturbing thought in my mind--the
fear of meeting the new Barbara, and so of coming face to face with that
figure, cut, as it were, out of the life I had once lived in that very
place; I feared I should not be able to trust myself or my voice at that
time. For the rest, I only knew dimly that I should probably have to see
much that might goad me almost to madness, and yet that I must say
nothing; I was in a sense fumbling in the dark, with only my memories to
guide me.

The door was opened at last, and I stepped, as it were, straight back
into that night when I had first come to this house with my
guardian--twenty years before. Nothing was changed, save only that
everything seemed to have dwindled in the years, and that the furniture
was shabbier and meaner looking. I felt my heart beating fast as I
looked towards that broad staircase down which I had once seen the
Barbara who was dead coming, with tears in her eyes, and with her
laughing bridesmaids surrounding her. It seemed almost as though she
might at any moment turn the corner of the staircase, and come down
towards me.

An elderly woman in a dingy black dress took my letter, and bade me stay
where I was. She appeared to be a servant; and I watched her as she
climbed the stairs slowly, and went away, leaving me standing in the
hall. I was looking about me when I heard above a quick, light footstep;
looking up, I saw Barbara coming down the stairs, with one hand lightly
resting on the rail, and with her eyes turned straight towards me. I
stood there watching her; I wondered vaguely what she would have thought
had she known who I was, and under what circumstances I had last stood
in that place, twenty years before.

When she came up to me she spoke with her mother's tongue, and with a
little quick smile that had belonged to the dead woman. "My father sent
me to you; he is not--not very well to-night. He understands, of course,
that Mr. Olivant is coming down"--the smile died from her lips, and she
seemed to draw herself up a little stiffly--"everything shall be got
ready for him. You are strange here; you won't know your room. Your name
is Tinman?"

I acknowledged the ridiculous title, and at her suggestion carried the
luggage up into a room that was evidently to be prepared for Murray
Olivant; it was a large room on the first floor. My own was at the top
of the house--a little meagre room, with odds and ends of furniture in
it. I saw that she was looking at me curiously as I stood in this little
room; I had a dreadful fear for the moment--ridiculous though it
was--that she must know my real name.

"I have given you a lot of trouble, miss," I said, for the want of
something better to say.

She shook her head. "Oh, I don't mind," she replied. "You see, in these
days, Tinman, we have no servants--at least, only the woman you saw, and
a young girl. Not that it matters much, because there is only my father
and myself. He wants to see you; will you come down, please?"

I was following her down the half-lighted staircase in that silent house
when she turned suddenly, and waited for me; dropped her hand on my arm,
and spoke in a whisper. "Have you ever seen ghosts, Tinman?"

"Yes," I faltered, staring at her, and beginning to shake.

"There are ghosts in this house," she whispered, glancing about her
quickly. "I hear them rustling on the stairs, and in the old rooms that
are shut up, and at night among the trees. You needn't be afraid;
they're nothing to do with you."

There were ghosts enough for me in that place, Heaven knows; they were
everywhere about me that night. For I was a boy again, dreaming the
hopeless dreams of the past, and seeing everywhere the Barbara I had
lost in this Barbara of the silent house. I found that Lucas Savell had
lost his good-humoured look, and carried a face of fretful melancholy;
his hands shook and trembled as he stood looking at me, and holding the
letter I had brought.

"Mr. Murray Olivant gives his orders--and we obey," he said bitterly, as
the letter crackled in his fingers. "We make welcome those he brings or
sends to us; we have no choice in the matter." Then, as Barbara laid a
light hand on his, he seemed to recollect the part he had to play, and
smiled and nodded, and changed his tone. "Of course, he's always
welcome--and any one he sends is sure of a welcome," he said. "He comes
to-morrow? I'm glad--very glad."

I was left to my own devices that night, after I had had a meal that was
provided for me by the woman who had first admitted me to the house. She
was a morose, sullen sort of creature, and she asked no questions and
gave me no information. As soon as I could escape I went out into the
grounds, and walked about there for a time in the long-neglected paths,
and on the terrace where long ago I had stood with Barbara on the night
she bade me farewell. And presently from the lighted room within the
sound of music came, and the new Barbara's voice floated out to me.

I was standing there listening, when I became suddenly alive to the fact
that I was not alone on the terrace. I had been standing with
half-closed eyes, drinking in the melody, when I became aware that out
of the shadows of the garden one shadow had detached itself, and was
creeping noiselessly towards the lighted windows. At first the thing was
so impalpable, and was, moreover, so unlikely, that I took no notice of
it; but presently it stopped just beyond the broad track of light from
the windows, and I saw that it was a woman, dressed in black. In that
neglected place, and outside that house of ghosts, it was so strange
that I felt my hair rise, and a curious tingling sensation in my throat.
And for a long time, as it seemed, I remained staring at it, until, just
as I was gaining courage to move towards it, I found that it had melted
into the other shadows of the garden, and was gone. My courage had
returned by that time, and I went quickly after it; but, though I looked
in all directions, I saw nothing.

I went back to the house, and entered just in time to see Barbara
crossing the hall with a tray in her hands, on which was a decanter and
a glass; some old instinct made me step forward to relieve her of it;
she smiled, and shook her head, but I persisted, and took the tray from
her.

"It's very good of you, Tinman," she said; "it's for my father."

I carried the tray into that room that overlooked the terrace, and set
it down at Lucas Savell's elbow. He stared at me in surprise for a
moment, but said nothing; his daughter, coming after me, asked that I
would draw the curtains; I had a pleasant feeling for a moment that she
liked to have me there. I moved across to the windows, to fasten the
shutters before drawing the curtains; and as I did so glanced back for a
moment over my shoulder at her. She was bending over her father, with an
arm about his shoulders; she seemed to be pleading with him, and he
petulantly setting her aside.

I turned quickly to the window, with the shutter in my hand, and was
confronted with a face, staring in. I was so astounded for a moment that
I stood there, staring in turn; my eyes seemed to hold the eyes in the
white face outside. Then, as I gave a sort of frightened cry, the face
was gone, so suddenly that I might never have seen it at all. I fumbled
with the window, and got it open, and stepped out on to the terrace.
There was no one there.

"Did you speak, Tinman?" asked the girl; and then, as I did not reply,
she came near to me. "What's the matter?"

"I thought--thought I saw some one--something," I replied blunderingly.

She laughed as she helped me with the shutters.

"You're seeing the ghosts, Tinman," she whispered.




                              CHAPTER IV

                       THE COMING OF THE WOLVES


I slept but badly that night; it seemed so strange that I should be
under that roof in these days of ruin and disaster--hiding, as it were,
from the sight of men, and striving to plot, in my own feeble futile
way, against forces that must in time inevitably overwhelm and sweep me
away. I had been a poor prisoner for so many years; I was like a child
in the world now, with whatever powers I had once had dulled and
blunted. Passionately I desired to help this girl, who already smiled at
me with the eyes of her dead mother, and whose speaking of that absurd
name of mine--Tinman--was like a caress. Yet what could I do?--how could
I help her or the boy she loved?

I thought, too, more than once of that shadowy figure I had seen on the
terrace, hovering like a lost soul outside the house--of that face that
had stared in at me from the darkness outside into the room where the
father and daughter were. Unless by any chance I had been deceived, who
was this woman who moved silently about the grounds at night, and what
was her interest in the girl? I tried to dismiss from my mind the whole
thing as a mere hallucination--a something bred of all the dreams that
once had been mine in that house; but I could not shut out that face
that had stared in at me. I remembered how the eyes had held mine for
one long moment before I cried out; I remembered in a puzzled way that
there had been something curiously familiar about them--as though that
figure, too, had come out of the dreams of the past to haunt me. I
remembered what the girl had said on the staircase about the ghosts in
the great dreary house; I found myself sitting up in bed in the dark
room, with my hands clasped round my knees, thinking about it all, and
asking myself over and over again what I should do. Almost I wished
myself back in my cell in prison, with the certain knowledge upon me
that nothing could ever disturb me there, and that the world outside was
dead. I hated the thought that I had been dragged out again into such a
tangle as this.

Better resolves came with the morning; the wintry sunlight seemed to
warm me, and to warm any faint resolution that was beginning to shape
itself in my mind. I would be strong and watchful; I held a power here
that no one suspected, because I knew so much, and had loved so
strongly, and was, after all, only a poor creature with whom fate had
done its worst and could do no more. Yes--I would be strong.

There was, of course, nothing for me to do, save to kill time; I was
allowed to wander about as I liked. Yet there was in me an insane desire
to see the girl--to watch this new Barbara that was to me the old
Barbara come alive again. I hung about, foolishly enough, on the chance
of seeing her--watched her when presently she went out of the house and
started for a walk. She was so much to me, and I desired so strongly to
watch over her, that I found myself following, perhaps with the fear
that some harm might come to her, and that I might be able to prevent
it.

I had meant, of course, to keep out of her way; I had not intended that
she should see me. But as I was going on eagerly to turn the corner of a
wall round which she had gone, I came face to face with her; she was
turning back, and so had met me. I stood shamed and foolish before her.

"Tinman! Were you following me?"

I could not lie to her; I raised my eyes pleadingly to hers, and
stammered that I had followed her from the house.

"But why? Were you spying upon me?" She drew herself up, and looked at
me scornfully; I trembled before her like a beaten dog. "I should have
remembered that you are the servant of that man," she said.

I had almost flung myself at her feet; I know that I stretched out my
hands to her, and clasped them in my frantic eagerness to make her
understand. "Don't think that--don't believe it!" I exclaimed. "You
don't understand--and I may not tell you; but I am your friend. If I
could tell you what is in this poor bruised and broken heart of mine,
you would understand, and would pity me and trust me. I am your
friend--and his."

"His?" She looked at me with a sudden frown of astonishment.

"The boy you love--the boy who meets you sometimes in secret----"

"Ah! you have been spying, then!" she cried, drawing away from me.

"No--no--no; indeed I have not. It was by the merest accident I saw you
meet him in the woods, and no living soul knows of that but myself. If I
could only make you trust me!"

She came nearer to me--looked at me closely. "Who are you, or what were
you?" she asked in a whisper. "You are no servant; you speak like a
gentleman. Who are you--and what have you to do with me, or--or with any
one else that concerns me?"

"I am one who died long, long ago," I said to her. "If you think of me
at all, think of me as some one who long ago touched such a story as
yours--such a story of love and hope and faith, all broken and cast in
the dust. Think of me as some one who loved--and lost what I loved;
think of me as some one who, seeing you as young and fair and bright as
the woman I loved, would give the very heart out of me to see you happy.
As God's above me, I'm your friend!"

She looked at me in wonder, but I saw that she believed me; I think she
was half inclined for a moment to confide in me. If she had done so
then, much of the horror and tragedy and despair that were to come upon
us both and upon others might have been averted. But I suppose she
remembered that I was only Tinman, the servant of the man who had that
power over her father and herself; she shook her head perplexedly, and
turned away.

"You must not follow me," she said.

"I will not again," I assured her. "But you are the only creature on
earth that has spoken gently to me for many, many years; I only followed
you as a dog might do, to see that you were safe. Besides, you look at
me out of the eyes of a woman I loved--a woman who is dead."

I turned, and went away quickly on the road back to the house. In a
moment I heard her calling after me, and I turned about and faced her.
"Indeed, I do trust you," she whispered, "and I know that you are my
friend. Some day you may have a chance to prove that," she added.

"I pray God the time may come soon," I answered fervently, as I took her
little hands in my rough ones, and raised them to my lips. It was as
though I stood again on that terrace outside the house--a boy of
twenty--and bowed my head over the hands of the woman I loved.

I got back to the house in time to see the boy of whom I had been
speaking striding towards it. He was but a little in advance of me, and
he turned his head sharply on hearing my feet crushing the dead leaves;
then waited for me to come up to him. When I reached him he looked me
over quickly; I remember that I longed to tell him where Barbara had
gone, that he might run to overtake her. But I felt that I had plunged
far enough into the story for one day.

"I haven't seen your face before," he said, not ungently. "Do you belong
here?"

"Yes, sir--for the present," I replied. "My name is Tinman; I am Mr.
Olivant's servant."

He looked at me frowningly for a moment, as we stood together watching
each other. "Is my brother here--Mr. Olivant, I mean?"

"He comes to-day, sir, I believe," I replied.

As if in confirmation of my words, I heard the sound of wheels at that
moment, and stepped back with young Millard as the fly from the station
drove past us towards the house. Murray Olivant was in it; he turned for
a moment, and waved a hand towards the young man; me he regarded with a
scowl. Arnold Millard walked on quickly after the vehicle, and I
followed. The boy was younger and quicker than I was, and he reached the
house some few moments before I did. When I got to the door and passed
into the hall I saw the pair of them talking--Olivant seated, with his
hat on the back of his head, on an oak chest, with his long legs
stretched out before him, and the boy facing him. I was obliged to pass
them to go into the house; I was slipping past when Olivant called to
me.

"Tinman, I want you." He turned to his brother, and spoke insolently
enough. "That's the last word I have to say about the matter; I can't do
anything for you at the moment. You shall have your money all in good
time, but you mustn't be so deuced sudden about it. Where are you
staying? I didn't know you were down here at all."

"I'm staying at the _George_," said the boy. "But I tell you, you must
let me have some money to go on with; I'm nearly penniless. And, after
all, Murray, it isn't as if it were your money; you're only holding it
for me."

"I know that; I don't need reminding of my responsibilities," retorted
the other. "I can't talk about it now," he added, getting up as though
to put an end to the conversation. "Come up here to-night--dine here, if
you like--and I'll tell you what I'm prepared to do. I can't say more
than that. Will you come?"

The boy's face had flushed darkly red; there was a pleased look in his
eyes. "Of course I'll come, Murray--if Mr. Savell will have me," he
replied eagerly.

Murray Olivant laughed. "Oh, it's nothing to do with Mr. Savell; I do as
I like in this house. Dinner at eight; we'll talk business afterwards.
Now, Tinman, just come and attend to me, will you?"

He strode away up the stairs, and I meekly followed him; it did not seem
at all necessary that he should be announced in that house as having
arrived. He curtly told me to unpack his things; cursed me a little
because I had forgotten that important duty before. While I unstrapped
the luggage, and knelt beside it to take the things out, he seated
himself in an easy-chair, and watched me, and asked questions. He seemed
to be in a good temper, and inclined to be indulgent with me.

"Well, my faithful one, and how do you like coming back among the
ghosts?" he asked. Then, as I glanced up at him with what I suppose was
a scared look in my eyes, he went on gaily: "There--there--you needn't
look so frightened; I won't give the game away. But tell me--what do you
think of the place--and the people?--how do you like it all?"

"I have not yet had time to notice anything," I said, without looking
up.

"Nonsense; you can't fool me in that fashion. You've been keenly
watching everything--eager to find out all you can. What of Savell?"

"He seems much broken and changed," I replied reluctantly.

"Bah!--he's a fool--and a whining fool at that," he exclaimed violently.
"He's no good to himself or any one else; he muddles himself with drink
night after night; one of these days he'll go off suddenly--snuffed out
like a candle in a draught. What of the others?"

"The--others?" I looked up at him stupidly.

"Well, the _other_, if you like," he retorted. "The child--Barbara. What
of her?"

"She is very beautiful--and very sweet--and kind," I faltered, bending
low over my work.

"Kind, is she?" he said, with a laugh. "So you've begun already to screw
your way into her good graces, have you? That's right, Tinman; that's
what you're down here for, you old rascal. Watch all she does--follow
her about--pounce on any letters that may chance to come for her, and
let me see them first. Spy on her, you dog--find out all about her."

I did not answer; I was glad to think that this brute could have so
little knowledge of me as to suppose that I should do it. He was
evidently satisfied with my silence; after a moment or two he went on
talking again.

"You're going to see company, Tinman. I've got a friend coming down here
to stay--man named Dawkins. He's a sly devil, and I may want him;
incidentally, you can watch him too. Fanshawe also is coming."

"Jervis Fanshawe?" I looked up at him quickly in surprise.

"Yes, but not here. He'll lie low in the town; I'm going to get a
lodging for him. Stirring times, Tinman--eh?"

He got up, and strode about the room, rubbing his hands and laughing; I
did not dare ask what was going to happen. Presently he stopped, and
faced me as I knelt beside a portmanteau. "Look up at me, Tinman, and
speak the truth, if you can. You saw that young man downstairs just
now?"

I nodded slowly. "I saw him coming up to the house," I replied
truthfully; "he asked who I was, and whether you had arrived."

"Ever seen him before?" he demanded. "Look up at me; I want no lies."

I looked up at him, but I lied nevertheless. "Never," I replied
steadily.

"The young fool thinks he's in love with the girl, and believes that
she's in love with him. It's all right while he _thinks_ so; but I don't
mean to have any nonsense. He's another one to be watched, Tinman; if by
any chance you should discover them meeting, or whispering together, or
any such nonsense as that--let me know. Do you hear?" He kicked me
softly on the leg as he asked the question.

"I hear," I replied.

"Very well then--see that you do it. And don't forget, at all times when
you may be tempted to do anything against my interests, that I've taken
you out of the gutter, and that I'll kick you back there again, to
starve, if you don't behave yourself. I don't do dirty work myself; I
employ men like you to do it for me. Understand that?" He kicked me
softly again, and laughed.

"Yes, I understand," I replied.

"Good. See that you remember it," he retorted. "Understand also that in
this house I do as I like, and that my word is law. Above all things, be
meek and humble with me, Tinman; I want no fiery words or looks from
you. Your fiery youth is gone past, and is done with."

"I know that," I said, almost in a whisper.

"Yet you killed a man once, Tinman, so I've been told," he added
musingly. "It doesn't seem possible, when one looks at you now, that you
had hot blood in you to that extent. What did it feel like--to kill the
man?"

"I have forgotten," I told him. Yet I thought then, as I knelt and
looked up at him, that it might be possible that I should know what it
felt like again, if he drove me too hard or goaded me too much. The
shabby garment of my slavery was slipping off me, rag by rag, and
leaving me something of what I had been before; I began to be dimly
afraid of myself, and to what my inborn recklessness might drive me. For
I, who had died once, had no fear of any consequences. I wondered if he
thought of that, or remembered it.

He put an added torture upon me that night; he made me wait at table. I
don't know how it was arranged that I should do that; I only know that
at the last moment I was told that I must be there to hand the
dishes--above all, to stand behind his chair, and wait upon him
specially. And so I stood in that room where I had once been a guest,
and waited upon him and the others humbly enough.

At one end of the table sat Lucas Savell, with his trembling hands
fluttering about his plate and his glass; at the other end--defiant,
intolerant, insolent,--sat Murray Olivant, talking loudly, and generally
dominating the occasion. At one side of the table, at his right hand,
sat Barbara, and next to her the man Dawkins--a man who may best be
described as one having a perpetual smile. He even seemed to smile as he
ate; the most commonplace remark addressed to him was met always with
that smile, which seemed indeed a part of the man. It was a smile that
became absolutely slavish whenever Murray Olivant threw a word to him;
but it was a veiled insolence when Lucas Savell ventured a remark.

On the other side of the table young Arnold Millard was seated, watching
the girl. I saw ghosts again then, when I saw Barbara with eyes
downcast, and when I watched the boy's hungry glances at her; I--the
servant who waited, and was unknown in that house save to one man--saw
myself watching hopelessly enough the Barbara who was dead; my heart
ached for the boy, as it had ached years before for poor Charlie
Avaline.

The insolence of Olivant grew as the meal progressed. I saw him once
stretch out his arm, and lay a hand strongly on the hand of the girl as
it rested on the table. "Now, my pretty Barbara," he said, "let's have a
word from you. You shouldn't be dumb at your father's table."

"Is it my father's table?" she asked him, as she raised her white face
for a moment to his.

"Oh, don't let's talk business, for the Lord's sake!" he exclaimed. "At
least, you might try to cheer our friend opposite here," he went on,
indicating the boy; "he's as glum as you are. What's the matter,
Arnold?--are you in love?"

"I should scarcely talk about it, if I were," replied the boy, with a
glance at Olivant, and another at the imprisoned hand of the girl.

"Of course you're in love," went on Olivant, still holding that little
hand tightly, and glancing from one to the other across the table. "I
wonder what she's like; I wonder what sort of beauty would most attract
you. Come, Dawkins, let's have your opinion."

"Oh, my dear Olivant, don't ask me!" exclaimed Dawkins protestingly, and
smiling more than ever. "Perhaps, if I might hazard a guess----" He
glanced as he spoke at Barbara next to him.

"I think Arnold would take rather to a full-blown sort of
beauty--something big and high-coloured," broke in Murray Olivant. "He'd
be a bit of an amateur at the game--and I doubt if she'd have any
money."

"Let go my hand!" It was the merest whisper, but I heard it as I stood
behind Olivant; I saw the girl's distressed face, and I saw, too, that
the boy's hand had gripped a knife beside him, and that his look was
absolutely murderous. Olivant bent towards the girl as though he did not
understand; looked down at the hand he held, and laughed.

"But it's such a pretty hand," he said--"belonging to a pretty Barbara.
Tell me, Dawkins," he called to the other man, "hasn't one a right to
hold a lady's hand if one likes?"

"Oh, surely, surely," said Mr. Dawkins. "Most certainly."

Even as the words were spoken Barbara wrenched her hand away, and sprang
up; it seemed as though Olivant and the boy sprang to their feet at the
same time. Barbara went quickly to her father, and whispered him for a
moment, while he feebly protested; then she made towards the door. The
boy sprang to the door to open it; Olivant moved quickly round the table
to intercept them both.

"Here, come back, come back! What the devil----"

The door was opened, and the girl was gone; in the tense silence that
had fallen upon the room I heard distinctly what Arnold Millard said, as
he stood with his back to the door looking at Olivant.

"Go and sit down!" Then, as the other man still stood blusteringly
before him, he made a sudden movement, and I heard the words again: "Go
and sit down!"

Murray Olivant backed away from him, and got to his place at the table;
sank into his chair with an uncomfortable laugh. The boy, after a
moment's hesitation, came back and sat down also. I noticed that
Savell's weak hands were fluttering about nervously, but he said
nothing, and the meal was resumed in silence. Suddenly, however,
Olivant, desiring some vent for his feelings, turned fiercely upon me
who was standing looking at him.

"What the devil are you staring like that for?" he demanded ferociously.
"Don't you see that my glass is empty?--can't you see that other people
want wine also? What in the name of all that's wonderful do you think I
keep a lout like you for?"

I went about my duties, and the man relapsed into a sulky silence. He
pushed his food away from him, and began to mutter presently that he
didn't know what the world was coming to, when puppies were allowed to
bully their betters, and when slips of girls failed to understand what a
joke was. And at last called down the length of the table to that poor
master of the house, Lucas Savell.

"Come now, Mr. Savell, if you've quite finished we can adjourn. I don't
want to sit here all night."

"Quite finished, Olivant, quite finished," said Savell hastily, as he
rose from his chair. "Sorry there should have been any little
unpleasantness--but perhaps you don't quite understand the child. She
didn't mean any unkindness----" His voice trailed off, as he went
muttering and mumbling from the room. At a sign from Olivant the man
Dawkins followed him; Olivant remained behind with the boy. Of me he
took no notice; I was but a piece of furniture in his eyes.

"Well, my friend," began Murray Olivant, setting one foot upon a chair,
and leaning his arm on his raised knee--"I believe you want some money,
don't you? Don't be afraid to speak; you must surely understand that I
am in the best mood for giving you all you ask."

"I have asked for nothing," replied Arnold. "One thing, however, I
demand."

"Hear him, Tinman; he demands something, this young jackanapes,"
exclaimed Olivant, turning to me, and so dragging me into the business.

"I demand that you shall behave decently to that young lady whom you
insulted just now," said the boy, growing very white, but speaking very
distinctly. "You dare not play the brute and the bully with men, not
even when, like my unlucky self, they're poor as Job and are dependent
upon you; you must bully women instead."

"Silence--you young fool!" exclaimed Olivant. "Do you think I'll be
browbeaten by you? As for your money, you can wait for it until I choose
to give it to you."

"There is no question of any gift; the money belongs to me by right,"
exclaimed the boy. "I have had to beg for every penny that I have ever
had, although it has all been mine from the beginning; if I can't get it
from you, I'll take some other measures--legally."

"Hear this beggar, Tinman; hear what he's going to do!" cried Olivant,
pointing to the boy, but looking round at me. "It's a proper way to get
what you want, that is." He took a turn or two about the room, and then
came back to where Arnold was still standing. "Let's have an
understanding--once for all," he said, in a changed voice. "Before you
go out of this house I want you to know that this tone of yours must
cease. You'll have money when I care to pay it to you; and for the
future you'll keep out of my way, and out of the way of my friends. You
have dared to lecture me as to how I shall behave to this pretty baggage
in this house; she's nothing to you, and never will be. One of these
days she's going to belong to me--by her father's wish; you'll find
yourself left out in the cold. I can put up with a boy's foolish whims
and tricks for a time; but I've put up with yours too long. Now you can
go."

"I shall go when it suits me; this house is not yours," replied the
other coolly, as he walked to the door, and opened it, and went out.

After a moment or two Murray Olivant followed him; he seemed at a loss
to know what to do. I heard his voice raised presently in the room on
the other side of the hall; I opened the door and listened. I was able
to see out into the hall also; I saw that Lucas Savell stood at the foot
of the stairs, as if he were just about to climb them, and that Olivant
was speaking to him in his strident voice.

"Fetch her down, I say. I won't have her sulking upstairs. If she won't
come for you, I'll come myself."

"My dear Olivant!" began Savell pleadingly; but the brutal voice broke
in again quickly.

"There--no words about it; tell her she's to come down. It's an insult
to me and to my guest."

Savell went slowly up the stairs, and Olivant went back into the other
room. Presently, through the half-opened door, I saw Savell returning,
with Barbara walking by his side; she walked stiff and straight, as her
mother once had done on that very staircase, when she went out of the
house for the last time with her husband. They disappeared together into
that other room.

For my own part, I was in a fever of doubt and dread; I did not know
what was going to happen. I knew that presently the boy must leave the
house in any case; I knew, too, that that useless father would presently
drink himself into a muddled condition, and so would remain, until in
the small hours he contrived to crawl away to bed. And I doubted and
feared the temper of Murray Olivant, as much as I doubted and feared
that perpetual smile on the face of his friend Dawkins. I resolved to
watch and to wait; for this night at least I was again that unhappy boy,
Charlie Avaline, who had once suffered such tortures as young Arnold
Millard must be suffering now.

I crept out on to the terrace, outside those lighted windows; peering
in, I saw Olivant lounging at the piano, evidently talking to the girl,
who was seated there; young Millard was listening to something Dawkins
was saying, but was evidently paying no attention to him; his eyes were
upon the two at the piano. Presently, as if he could bear it no longer,
he made a movement to go; shook hands with Savell, who feebly responded,
and then crossed towards Barbara. She rose to meet him, and with a
courage for which I should scarcely have given her credit, walked with
him towards the door. But even there Olivant interposed; took the girl
by the arm, and drew her away. I saw the look in the boy's eyes, and it
sunk deep into my mind, so that I did not lightly forget it.

I went back into the house, and presently made my way up towards my
room. While I was yet on the stairs, a door down below me opened;
peering over, I saw Barbara come out into the hall. At the same moment
Murray Olivant came out also, and behind him in the doorway I saw the
smiling face of Dawkins. Olivant seized the girl before she had set foot
upon the stairs.

"Come, my dear, you're not going like that!" His voice was thick and
unsteady as he lurched against her.

"Let me go!" she cried, in a subdued voice. "Let me go, Mr. Olivant--or
shall I call my father?"

"Call him, by all means; he's not likely to hear, or to trouble much if
he does hear," exclaimed Olivant. "Come, you little witch--you're only
shy because Dawkins is looking on. You shall kiss me good-night at
least!"

She broke away from him, and darted up the stairs. He stumbled in his
blind rush after her, and she fled past me like a hare; I heard her
sobbing as she went, and it seemed to set my numbed blood on fire. As he
stumbled up the stairs he came suddenly face to face with me, standing
looking at him. Dawkins, still grinning awkwardly, stood in the doorway
below.

"Out of the way, you fool!" exclaimed Olivant, making a rush at me; but
I did not move. I stood like a thing of stone, staring at him, although
in my heart I was desperately afraid. Not of him--never of him for a
moment; but of what I might do.

"Stand back!" I said, in a voice that was not in the least like my own.
"Stand back!"

"What do you mean?" he asked, involuntarily recoiling a step.

"Stand back!" I said again. "I killed a man once; there is a dread in me
that I might do it again!"

He slowly retreated down two or three steps, still looking at me;
muttered something about talking to me in the morning; then stumbled
down to rejoin his friend, and disappeared with him into the room. And I
sat on the stairs in the darkness, shaking from head to foot, and
desperately afraid of myself.




                               CHAPTER V

                           I TOUCH DISASTER


I kept that watch upon the stairs until long after the house was quiet.
I drew back into a recess once, when Murray Olivant and Dawkins went
roaring up to their respective rooms; and again when presently Lucas
Savell fumbled his trembling way up to his particular quarters. Even
after that there was a great deal of noise for a time, because Dawkins
and Olivant appeared to take a particular delight in shouting to each
other from one room to the other as they undressed.

But presently even they were quiet, and the dreary old house seemed to
sink deeper and deeper into the shadows of the night. Keeping my lonely
watch there, I dreamed of all that had happened in the years that were
dead; thought chiefly, too, of my own utter helplessness now. I was to
have been strong and purposeful; I was to have helped those who, like
myself in an earlier time, were helpless; I laughed bitterly to think
how weak I was, and how little I could do. I tried to tell myself what
my years were, and how I ought to be strong and lusty; and then I
remembered that my hair was grey, and my face shrunken and old, and my
body weak. I had thought that I could cope with the powers of position
and strength and riches; and I could do nothing.

Thinking I heard a noise above, I determined at last that I would not go
to bed yet; the girl seemed so absolutely alone in that great house. I
knew the room in which she slept, and I presently crept up there, and
lay down across her doorway, to snatch some sleep in that fashion. Even
as I fell asleep I smiled to think that it might have been the old
Barbara I was guarding, and not this new one, after all.

I awoke with a light on my face, and the consciousness that some one was
looking down at me. I started up in a sitting posture, only half awake,
and saw that the door of the room was open, and that Barbara stood
there, with a candle in her hand, bending over me. Our faces were very
close together when she spoke in a surprised whisper--

"Tinman! What are you doing there?"

"I did not mean that you should be disturbed," I said. "I only wanted to
feel that you were safe."

"Dear kind Tinman!" she whispered, as the tears gathered in her eyes. "I
have not slept at all; I have lain awake--thinking. You moved in your
sleep, I think, and brushed against the door, and I wondered what it
was. Come inside a moment."

She spoke in the faintest whisper, stopping every now and then to listen
intently. I got slowly to my feet, and went just inside the door of the
room; she closed the door, and stood there with the candle in her hand,
looking at me. I remember that she looked very frail and young, with her
hair falling about her shoulders.

"What am I to do, Tinman?" she asked.

I shook my head. "Indeed, I don't know," I replied. "Life is always so
hard, and there are so many to make it harder for us. You did not quite
trust me to-day when I spoke to you," I added regretfully, "or I might
be able to speak to you more frankly."

"I do trust you," she said earnestly. "You stood between me and that
brute to-night; I peeped out and saw you. I could not hear what you
said; I only saw him go down again. I bless you for that, Tinman."

"You see me only as a servant," I whispered, "but I was not always like
that. I want to say to you what is in my heart. Your eyes smile at me,
and so I can speak with more confidence. You love this boy?"

To my surprise she was not in the least annoyed at my bluntness of
speech; she blushed quickly and prettily, and nodded. "Yes," she said.

"And it is easy to see that he loves you. And you ask me what you are to
do?" I went on. "Surely it is in your own hands, and in his?"

"But I would like you to tell me," she coaxed. "Of course I know in my
own mind what I want to do, or I suppose I shouldn't be a woman; but one
likes to hear what a friend will say about a matter like this. Tell me."

"I should advise you--both of you--to get away from this house, and to
start your lives in the best sense somewhere else," I whispered
earnestly. "You have no friends here--no, not even your father; he would
marry you to this other man in sheer dread of him. Youth only comes to
you once, child, and you must grasp it with both hands, and hold it as
long as possible. Take your lives into your hands, and go away, out into
the big clean world that loves lovers."

"You say just what is in my own heart, Tinman," she whispered, smiling,
"and you speak as though you knew all about it."

"Oh, ever so long ago I knew something about it--and one never forgets.
My life went down into the shadowy places of the world, and was wrecked
and lost; I would not have yours do that."

"Why do you think so tenderly of me?" she asked.

"Because you look at me with the eyes of the woman I loved," I answered
her.

"Where is she now?--what became of her?" she whispered gently.

"She's dead."

She took my rough hand, and gave it a little squeeze. I opened the door
to go out, and she whispered that I had comforted her, and that now she
could sleep. For a little time after that I sat outside the door, with
my arms round my knees, staring into the darkness, and thinking that,
after all, God had blessed me rather more than I deserved. In the grey
dawn I stole up to my room at the top of the house, and lay down,
dressed as I was, on the bed to snatch some further sleep.

It was late next morning when I heard Murray Olivant bawling my name,
and demanding with oaths to know where I was. Somehow or other some of
my dread of the man had left me; I had a power I had not before guessed
at. I went to find him, and stood before him--a stronger man than he, in
the sense that I was calm and silent, while he raved at me, and cursed
me, and showed himself a meaner, smaller thing with every word he
spluttered out. And I think he knew it, and chafed at that violence he
could not repress.

"There's something I want to say to you," he said at last when he had
exhausted himself a little. "You threatened me last night--actually had
the audacity to threaten me, and to boast about what you had done, and
what you might do again."

"I did not threaten you--and I did not boast," I said slowly. "And I
only told you that I was afraid--afraid of what I might do."

"Well, that was a threat. You talked of killing a man--hinted that you
might do it again. You know what I told you would happen if you gave me
any trouble. I said I'd kick you into the gutter--and I'll do it. You
can go to-day; get back to London, and shiver in its streets--sell
matches or beg. I've done with you."

"Not yet," I replied, shaking my head. "You will not get rid of me so
easily as that, Mr. Olivant."

He stared at me with a dropping jaw. "Why, what the devil do you mean?"

"I mean that you will find it better to have me with you than against
you," I said. "If you wanted an ordinary servant, you should have taken
an ordinary man; you have taken me, who have nothing to lose, and who
troubles nothing about what he may gain. Don't you understand," I asked
impatiently, "that I have stood under the shadow of the gallows, with
Death beckoning; what more have I to be afraid of? If you kick me into
the gutter, as you term it, I shall only rise up again, and fight
against you. More than that, I might do worse; I might kill you if you
gave me too much trouble."

I must say one thing for Murray Olivant; he had a sense of humour. He
stared at me for a moment or two after I had finished speaking, and then
sat down, and began to laugh. He laughed more and more as he let my
words sink into his mind; and finally sat up and looked at me, shaking
his head whimsically as he did so.

"My word!--but you're a cool one!" he exclaimed. "So you think I'm not
to shake you off--eh? I'm not to have a word to say about the matter;
you're to play a sort of old-man-of-the-sea to my Sindbad, are you?
Well, I think I like you for it--and I think you may be more useful
because you have so little to lose. Only you mustn't threaten, and you
mustn't get in my way again when I've a joke afoot. We'll say no more
about it; we'll forget it." He got to his feet, and went striding about
the room, laughing to himself as at some excellent jest. "You might even
kill me! Oh, Lord--what a man I've saddled myself with, to be sure!"

I stood still, waiting until he should have got over the fit of laughter
that was upon him; I waited grimly for whatever other move might come.
Presently he sidled up to me, and with his arms akimbo dug at me
sideways with one elbow, and grinned into my face.

"Protector of the poor, and the weak, and the helpless--eh?" he taunted.
"A sort of elderly Cupid, setting out in the world fully equipped save
for the wings. Tell me, Cupid--what plot is hatching? What are they
going to do--these lovers?"

"I didn't know they were lovers," I replied. "I thought _you'd_ seen to
that."

"And I have," he exclaimed, with sudden heat. "You may be sure of that.
The boy may fly into tantrums, and the girl may sulk and cry--but the
poor folks can't do anything. I hold the moneybags, and I can afford to
let these people weep, and gnash their teeth, and cry out against me; I
shall have my own way in the long run."

"You always do, you know," I reminded him slyly.

"Of course I do, Tinman," he assented. "But won't you tell me what
plot's afoot, or what the simpletons think of doing? What's the game: do
they kill me first, and run away together afterwards--or is old Savell
to be brought to his knees--or what's the game?"

"I don't know of any game," I said. "As you have already said, the
game's in your hands, and I expect you'll win it in the long run."

"Of course I shall," he cried quickly. "Only you're a devilish sly fox,
and I'm rather suspicious that you may be thinking of playing tricks.
For your own sake, Tinman, you'd better not."

So soon as he had dismissed me I went off to try and find Barbara. My
position in the house did not make that an easy task; for she was with
her father, and I had no excuse for breaking in upon them. I went into
the grounds at last, in the hope that she might come out there, and that
I might have a chance to speak to her. But I had to wait for a long time
before she came towards me, trailing through the dead leaves dejectedly
enough. I watched her out of sight of the house, and then went towards
her.

She seemed glad to see me--grateful for what I had done, and eager to
thank me again. I urged upon her the necessity for seeing young Millard
at the earliest possible moment, and making some arrangement with him.

"I dare not go away from the house," she said, glancing at its windows
through the trees. "I am watched everywhere, and I might bring fresh
trouble upon you. After last night, Tinman, I am afraid to see those two
men together."

I thought for a moment or two, and then turned quickly to her. "I can
see him," I said, "and arrange with him what is best to be done. I'll
slip down into the town and try to find him. You must get away, both of
you; there is nothing else to be done." I was as eager as a boy about
it; I wanted to see them running off into the world, hand in hand, to
face it together.

"Go to him then," she said, "and tell him that I will do anything and
everything he suggests. Only pray him, for the love of God, to let it be
soon. I cannot stay much longer in this house."

I had just begun to assure her that I would slip away at the earliest
opportunity when a change in her face warned me that some one was
approaching us; I turned guiltily, and saw, not a dozen yards away, the
man Dawkins, as smiling as ever, lighting a cigarette. I did not know
where he had sprung from, nor how long he had seen us talking together;
from his appearance he might have been taking an aimless stroll through
the grounds, and so have lighted upon us suddenly.

"Good morning, Miss Savell," he said, ignoring me, and waving a hand to
the girl. "We've been disconsolate without you--wondering what had
happened to you, and all that sort of thing."

"I have been with my father," she replied hastily, making a movement
towards the house. "You will not forget, Tinman," she called back to me,
as though reminding me of some order she had given me.

"No, miss; I will not forget," I said. I watched her as she walked back
to the house, with Dawkins strolling beside her, evidently talking
airily as he waved his cigarette.

It must have been an hour after that, and I had not yet found an
opportunity to get away, when Murray Olivant summoned me, and told me he
was starting at once for London. I found him in a room with Dawkins--the
latter was seated in an armchair, reading a newspaper and smoking; he
took no notice of Olivant or of myself. Olivant, for his part, seemed
worried about something; mentioned to me quite confidentially that he
had decided to go to London that day, on account of some sudden business
he had forgotten. He was quite cordial with me; told me to put a few
things together in a bag, as he did not expect to be back that night.

I saw in a moment in this the golden opportunity for which we were all
waiting. With Olivant out of the way we might do anything; for I did not
reckon Dawkins in the matter at all. If I thought about him in any way,
it was as an amiable fool, who had nothing to do with the matter.

I packed the bag, and then quite naturally suggested that I should carry
it to the station in the town. Olivant thanked me quite cordially, and
said he should be glad; and I laughed to think how easily and naturally
I was going to get down into the town of Hammerstone Market, to find
young Arnold Millard. I think I rather despised Murray Olivant for being
so simple over the matter.

"Why don't you come with me, Dawkins?" asked Olivant at the last moment
as we were starting. "There's nothing for you to do here, you know."

"No, thanks," growled the other from behind his paper. "I'm jolly
comfortable."

"Oh, all right," retorted his friend. "Ring the bell if you want
anything; Tinman will look after you."

We set off to walk to the station; I understood from Olivant that there
was a train he would quite easily catch. I wondered what he would say
when he returned from London on the following day, and discovered, as in
all probability he would, that the two poor birds he was trying to crush
had flown. I was quite exultant over the way things were playing into my
hand; I found myself mapping out in my mind exactly what I should say to
him, when on his return he should demand an explanation.

He had some ten minutes to wait when we reached the station; he lit a
cigar, and began to pace up and down the platform, with his mind
evidently bent on the expedition before him. I stood obediently near his
bag, waiting to hand it to him when the train should arrive, and going
over in my own mind how I should set about the task before me. Suddenly
Olivant strolled towards me, watch in hand.

"You'd better not wait, Tinman," he said, more kindly than he had spoken
yet. "It's a cold morning, and there's no necessity for you to stand
about here. Thanks for carrying the bag; I can manage with it now."

"I don't mind waiting in the least," I began; but he pushed me away
good-naturedly.

"Nonsense; get off with you!" he cried. "And don't forget what I told
you about being watchful," he added in a lower tone, and with his hand
on my shoulder. "Not one alone, mind--but everybody."

I went out of the station, and took my way down into the town. I had
scarcely gone a hundred yards when I heard the whistle of the train in
the distance; I stood still in the little High Street, pleasing myself
with the thought of how at this moment Olivant was opening a carriage
door, and now was in the carriage ready for his journey. I heard the
whistle of the train again, and knew that he had started on that long
journey to London, and that I was free. I laughed to myself, and turned
round, and went on my way in search of Arnold Millard.

I failed to find him at the little hotel in the town; they told me there
that he had gone out, and would probably not be back until much later in
the day. I chafed at the delay, because I knew that time was of value,
and whatever had to be done must be done before Olivant returned. While
I was standing in the High Street, wondering what I should do, I felt a
touch upon my arm, and turned, to see Jervis Fanshawe standing beside
me. He beckoned to me mysteriously, and I followed him down a little
lane which turned off from the main street of the town, and led down
among some tumbledown cottages. There he stopped, and fronted me, with a
nervous grin upon his face.

"Well, Brother Derelict," he said, "and how are things going with our
friend? What takes Murray Olivant to London just now?"

"Business," I replied shortly. "He won't be back until to-morrow."

"And in the meantime you plot mischief--eh?" he suggested. "Oh, I know
you--and I know what you mean to do--and I don't blame you. Serve the
brute while it pays you, but work behind his back all the same. That's
the ticket."

"I don't understand you," I replied, looking at him steadily. "I've just
seen Mr. Olivant off at the station, and I'm now going back to my duties
at the house."

"Exactly," he sneered, as he thrust his face into mine. "And that was
the reason that you went into the _George_ just now, and so anxiously
inquired concerning the whereabouts of our young friend Millard--eh? I
was in the bar at the side, and heard every word. Idiot!--why can't you
be more candid with me? I only want to work with you; I'm not against
you."

"I'm not so sure of that," I replied. "At all events, I mean to do
whatever is in my mind solely on my own account. I'm fighting now not
only for the boy, but for my own dead boyhood, away back in the past. It
won't be wise of you if you attempt to stop me."

"My dear Charlie, I'd be the last to stop you," he asserted, seizing my
hand and giving it a squeeze. "We work together; our interests are the
same. Trust me, Charlie--you'll never regret it."

"I don't intend to trust any one," I said. Then, in an incautious
moment, I added exultantly--"I mean to snatch both these young people
out of the clutches of Olivant; I mean to set them free. And not you nor
all the world shall prevent me."

"My dear boy, I wouldn't prevent you, even if I could. It won't be half
a bad thing to do; I shall be quite pleased for you to take a rise out
of Murray Olivant; I hate the man."

"Your feelings have changed somewhat too rapidly," I said. "I won't
trust you, Fanshawe."

"Well, I'll help you, whether you like it or not," he said, with a
laugh. "Young Millard has gone down into the woods. I followed him there
not an hour ago."

I looked at the man doubtfully; I did not know what to believe. I was so
utterly alone in this business of plotting and counterplotting, and I
wanted so much to rely on some one for help and advice. I decided,
however, that I would have nothing to do with him; with a nod I turned
away.

"You'll be sorry," he called after me. "I could help you if you'd let
me."

I took no notice of him; I went on my way steadily. I began even to
regret that I had made that bombastic speech to him about snatching the
two young people out of the clutches of Murray Olivant. I saw that there
was the more need for hurry; I went on with long strides towards the
wood.

After a long search I found the boy; he was making rough sketches of a
part of the wood, not with any serious intention to work, I am
convinced, but because he hoped that Barbara might pass that way. I
stole upon him unawares; suddenly presented myself before him, and
blurted out what I wanted to say.

"Mr. Millard, I have been looking for you everywhere," I said. "It is on
account of Miss Barbara Savell."

He turned to me quickly. "Do you come from her?" he asked.

"Yes--and no," I faltered. "Last night, after you had gone, the man
Olivant tried to insult her; I was so lucky as to be in the way--and
I--I stayed near her for the rest of the night. You must take her away
from that house at once."

"I'll go to the house first, and see Olivant," he exclaimed fiercely, as
he began to pack up his things. "Tried to insult her, did he?" While he
spoke he was savagely tugging at straps and buckles, in a violent hurry
to start.

"Stop!" I entreated. "In the first place, Olivant is not there; he's
gone to London."

"Are you sure?" He looked up at me quickly.

"I have seen him start myself," I assured him. "This is your
opportunity; let him come back to find the bird flown. If the child were
here, she would be able to explain to you so much better than I
can--would be able to tell you that I am her friend and yours--fighting
for you both, for a reason you will never understand. You must take her
away, out of that frightful house; you must marry her--and face the
world with her."

"Why--has she told you--about me?" He had got to his feet, and was
looking at me curiously. "What has she told you?"

"That she loves you," I replied simply. "I that am but a poor servant--a
nobody in the world--tell you this, and beg you with all the strength
that is in me to take her away. She will go gladly; she will make your
life what it could never be without her."

"You're a strange man," he said wonderingly. "But if she trusts
you--well, so will I. What is best to be done?"

"There is another man in the house--left behind by Olivant," I replied
eagerly--"and he will have his instructions, no doubt, to be on guard.
If you will wait till darkness sets in, I will arrange that Miss Barbara
shall slip out of the house, and meet you where you like. It must be
to-night; to-morrow will be too late."

"Why could she not come earlier?" demanded the boy. "There is the rest
of the day before us; surely she could slip away?"

"And be called for by her father, or watched and followed by the man
Dawkins," I reminded him. "No; if she slips away after her father and
Dawkins have settled down for the evening, there will be time for you to
get to the junction, and get a train from there to London; she will not
be missed for hours--perhaps not till the morning--and then pursuit
would be useless. Give me a message to her, and I will go back at once
and deliver it."

"Could you not manage to bring her to me, Tinman?" he suggested
suddenly. "If they were watching, it would not do for me to come too
near the house, and I do not like the thought of her wandering about in
the darkness by herself."

"Yes, I could do that easily," I replied, "as Olivant is away. But you
must arrange a meeting-place."

"I will be at the point on the road where the path leaves it to enter
this wood," he said, after a moment's thought. "I can stand back among
the trees there, and watch you coming. I will not leave that spot until
you come, however late it is. The rest must be a matter of chance. If we
can't reach the junction in time for the train, I'll find a cottage
somewhere, and some good woman into whose hands I can put the girl. I'll
write a note to her now, just to tell her that she is to put herself in
your hands."

He tore a sheet of paper from his sketch-book, and rapidly wrote. "That
is just to tell her that I will be waiting, and that you are to bring
her to me," he said, as he folded the paper and gave it to me. "Some
day, Tinman, my dear wife and I will be able to thank you. I wish I knew
why you have done this."

"Perhaps some day you may know that too," I replied, as I thrust the
paper into my pocket. "I shall be at the spot you mention at about eight
o'clock."

I went back to the house, and was fortunate enough to find Barbara at
once. She was crossing the hall, and I stopped her eagerly, and began to
whisper the message, even while I fumbled clumsily in my pockets for the
note.

"I've seen Mr. Millard, and he has arranged everything," I began. "You
are to meet to-night at the end of the path leading into the wood----"

"Yes, I shall want you to wait at lunch, Tinman," she broke in loudly,
and drawing away a little. I knew at once that we had a listener; as I
bowed and turned away, I saw the man Dawkins standing in the doorway of
the dining-room. He smiled with that dazzling smile of his at Barbara;
transferred the smile to me when he asked me to be good enough to get
him a whisky and soda. There was nothing for it but for me to turn away;
I saw his eyes following me, and I knew that I dared not pass the note
to the girl then. As she moved away a little, however, I went after her
with a quick--"Excuse me, miss," and whispered again: "Be ready at eight
at the outer gate of the grounds. I will be there to take you."

I strove during the remainder of that day to deliver up that twisted
scrap of paper I had in my pocket; but I was baulked on every occasion.
Now it was Savell who came suddenly upon us as I was approaching
Barbara; now it was Dawkins, strolling about the house, and bringing his
smile to bear suddenly round a corner. Once when I went to her room I
found it empty, and I dared not leave the thing there. The day wore on,
and I was counting the hours until the moment should arrive when I could
meet her in the grounds.

It was more than half-past seven, and the house was very still, when I
thought I heard a noise in one of the rooms above. Thinking it might be
Barbara moving about, and that here was the opportunity to speak to her,
I stole cautiously upstairs. The sound came from Murray Olivant's
bedroom; I opened the door quickly, and walked in. Some one was standing
at the further side of the room, in the dim light that came through the
windows; but before I could see who it was, I felt myself seized in a
powerful grip from behind, and forced to my knees. I was too surprised
even to cry out; but I had a vague idea that something dreadful had
happened to me and to my schemes, when the figure at the further end of
the room twisted quickly round, and turned up the gas, which had been
burning as a mere tiny speck of light. Then I saw that the man was
Murray Olivant.

I was going to cry out in earnest then, with some vague idea of raising
an alarm, when I felt a twisted cloth forced into my mouth and tied
tightly behind; my arms were already secured. So I remained on my knees,
helpless; I turned my head, and saw Dawkins standing beside me, smiling
as delightfully as ever.

"Thank you, Dawkins," said Murray Olivant, with a nod; "that was rather
neatly done. Now, will you have the goodness to run through his pockets,
and see if you can find anything?"

I made a feeble attempt to struggle, but it was useless. The deft
fingers of Mr. Dawkins swiftly brought to light the note that young
Millard had written but a few hours before; he tossed it across to
Olivant. The latter opened it slowly, and read what was written there by
the light of the gas jet. Then he turned to me, and shook his head.

"Oh, you sly devil!" he said in a whisper.




                               CHAPTER VI

                      LOVE WITH THE VEILED FACE


I crouched there on the floor, with my arms securely pinioned behind me,
and unable to cry out. The man Dawkins had seated himself, after making
certain that he had secured me; Murray Olivant had finished his perusal
of the note, and was standing tapping his lips with it, evidently deep
in thought. He pulled out his watch and looked at it; slipped the watch
back into his pocket, and turned again to the note. He read it
aloud--with interpolations of his own.

    "MY DEAREST (like his impudence, I must say!),--

    "That good fellow Tinman (oh, you sly devil!) will tell you what
    I have decided to do. I will be waiting at the path that leads
    into the wood at about eight o'clock; you are to come with
    Tinman without fear (brave, sweet, kind Tinman, so very useful
    in a crisis!). He will bring you to me, and after that you will
    have nothing to trouble about. Trust me as much as I know you
    love me, and all will be well. Until we meet in an hour or two,

                                                   "Ever your own,
                                                           "ARNOLD."

He twisted up the note, and came slowly across the room to where I
crouched waiting. While he talked to me, in that hard deadly level voice
of his, he launched a kick at me every now and then to punctuate what he
said.

"You thought I was safely out of the way."--A kick.--"You meant to play
me false, and send this boy flying, with love for company--eh?"--Another
kick.--"You dog!--do you think you're likely to win in such a game as
this, when you're fighting against me?"--Another kick more savage than
the others.--"Look at him, Dawkins; see how brave he is now!"

If I could have got my hands free, I know that I should have made a
fight for it, and that in my despair I might have killed or maimed one
or other of the men. But I was too tightly bound to be able to move;
Dawkins had most skilfully knotted a long bath towel about my elbows, so
that my shoulders ached with the strain upon them. I struggled to my
feet, and leant against the wall, glancing from one man to the other,
and wondering what they meant to do.

"I set you to watch, my dear Tinman," said Murray Olivant between his
teeth; "and the better to be sure of you, I had you watched also. You've
interested yourself a little too much in regard to this young lady, who,
at the present moment I expect, is waiting in the cold and the darkness
for you. That's a pleasant thought, isn't it? There they stand--the pair
of them; the girl, impatient to hear your footstep; the boy, shivering
at the edge of the wood, waiting for you both. Think of that, Tinman;
they so near together, and never by any chance to meet."

I stood there, with the sweat dropping off me, straining vainly at my
bonds, and striving to work the gag loose with my teeth. Olivant laughed
at my struggles; flicked the note at me, and went on derisively--

"Our friend Dawkins here gave me the tip this morning, and I decided
that it might be a good idea to make you believe that you'd got the day
and the night to yourself. I didn't get into the train, and my luggage
is still at the station. I came back, after a decent interval, and
waited for you, Tinman. Now the only thing to be decided--and we have
just ten minutes in which to decide it, unless we are to keep the lady
waiting in the cold--is what to do in regard to these two people, who
stand so far apart, longing for you to bring them together. I can't
remove your gag, Tinman, or you might shout; but I should like to know
what you would do if the choice rested with you."

I stood there, enduring a torture greater than any I had endured yet. I
seemed to see Arnold Millard standing at the edge of the wood, waiting
and longing and hoping; saw the girl watching the house in which I was
held prisoner, and miserably blaming me in her heart for having turned
traitor. The two men in the room with me must have guessed what was
passing in my mind; they were whispering together, and shaking with
laughter.

"But you shan't go disappointed, Tinman; that wouldn't be fair,"
exclaimed Olivant after a pause. "You may not go yourself to meet the
lady, but you shall send a letter to her; we must be polite at all
costs. You shall explain that you are unavoidably detained; more than
that, you shall send some one in your place. Dawkins shall take up the
tale you have begun; Dawkins is quite the ladies' man at a pinch--aren't
you, Dawkins?"

"I'm always for a bit of sport," exclaimed Mr. Dawkins, grinning.

Murray Olivant went across to a window, and pulled aside the curtain; he
looked cautiously out into the grounds. After a moment he turned, and
jerked his head, as a sign to the other man to join him.

"There she is, Dawkins--there by the gate," he said, in a low voice.
"See how patiently she waits--how certain she is that the faithful
Tinman will not fail her in this hour of need! You can see the moonlight
on her, Dawkins--and mighty pretty she looks!"

I went across the room suddenly, and fell upon my knees before the man,
and raised my face to his. I could not speak, but I tried to throw into
my expression the prayer to him that was in my heart. He watched me as
he might have watched some one with whom he was not concerned at all;
touched the man Dawkins on the arm, to call his attention to me. Then
suddenly his manner changed; he bent down and looked into my eyes, and
spoke in a hoarse whisper.

"You have set your puny strength against mine, and have learnt your
lesson," he said. "Now you shall hear what I mean to do--you shall
understand what you and the impudent dog who pretends to love her have
brought upon her. I meant to marry her; that was part of the plan I had
formed, if she had behaved properly and as her father wished. But her
kisses have been for her lover, and for that she shall pay. I'll have
her taken away to-night under false pretences--I'll drag her down
through the mud; she shall crawl to my feet, and beg me to kill her for
very shame of what she is. And then I'll send her back to the boy she
set before me. And you, Tinman--you, my jail-bird--you will have done
it!"

I knelt there in agony, praying madly and vainly that God would set me
free or strike me dead. Olivant had turned to Dawkins; together they
were examining the note they had found upon me.

"It's scarcely likely that she knows this fellow's writing," said
Olivant, indicating me with a glance. "If you're careful you can take a
note to her that will seem to come from him; you're a plausible rascal,
Dawkins, and she may fall into the trap. You know where the boy's
waiting; we'll tell her the plan's been changed, and she's to go in the
other direction. Take her to London, and wait instructions there. Now
for a little forgery in a gentle cause."

They chuckled together over the note that was to be signed with my name.
It was short enough, and they brought it to me that I might hear it
read.

    "I am suspected, and dare not leave the house. I have had to
    change the plan at the last moment, but have been lucky enough
    to find a good friend to help you and Mr. Millard. I thought he
    was a friend only of Mr. Olivant, but in that I was mistaken.
    Trust him completely; he will take you straight to Mr. Millard.
    This is the only way in which it can be managed; if I left the
    house now I should be followed.

                                                           "TINMAN."

"By Jove--that's devilish clever!" exclaimed Mr. Dawkins, looking at it
in admiration. "The only thing is--I'm afraid the lady may be
suspicious."

"That's quite unlikely," said Murray Olivant impatiently. "The mere fact
of your carrying a note signed by Tinman shows that you must know all
about the business, and you can only have known all about it from him.
To London with her; I'll join you in twenty-four hours, after I've
decided what to do with this fellow and with my worthy half-brother. I
must tread warily, for I have two desperate men to settle accounts
with." He laughed, and kicked me softly again.

Dawkins shook hands with him, and went out of the room, closing the door
after him. Olivant turned the key in the door, as though he feared I
might run out, bound and gagged as I was, to try to stop her; and indeed
that thought had been in my mind. Then he took up his position at the
window, and with a mocking smile on his face began to describe what was
happening.

"She starts and turns her head, Tinman, when she hears his step," he
began. "Now she comes slowly towards him; they meet, and she is
listening intently. Now she reads the note; in the politest way, my dear
Tinman, he has lighted a match, and is shading it with his hands while
she reads. I know you're praying hard, Tinman, that she may suspect, and
refuse to go; I'm praying hard that she may be fool enough to believe,
and to trust herself to Dawkins. I wonder which prayer will avail?"

I was indeed praying hard, but there was no hope in my heart that my
prayer would be answered. He looked again out of the window, and
laughed, and nodded at me.

"She has hesitated but for a moment," he said. "They move towards the
gate; he opens it for her. She looks back at the house for a
moment--see, I kiss my fingers to her, although she does not know
it!--now they are passing out. The gate shuts. They are gone."

He left the window, and dropped into a chair, and burst into a shout of
laughter. I crouched on the floor at his feet, with my arms bound behind
me, and with my head bowed on my breast.

"I know your story, Tinman," he said at last, when his mirth had
subsided a little; "Fanshawe told me something of it. You were a
Quixote, I believe; you killed a man because he spoke ill of a woman, or
would have done her harm. Look at you now!--a broken worn-out thing,
with all your bombast and bravado gone; all your threats and your
heroics mere words blown away by the wind. And if you were free--what
would you not do?--what doughty deeds of heroism--eh? And behold, the
excellent Dawkins is on his way to London, with a trusting girl for
company; behold also--I shall follow very shortly. Bow your head,
Tinman, for you are indeed a ghastly failure!"

After that for a time he busied himself about the room, casting a word
at me now and then over his shoulder. I had got to my feet, and was
sitting dejectedly enough on a chair, thinking miserably of what I had
done; I no longer felt the discomfort of the gag or the ache in my
shoulders; I was past physical suffering of any kind. After what seemed
a long time, Olivant went across to the door and unlocked it; stood for
a moment there, looking back at me contemptuously.

"You'll be safe here for a time, Tinman," he said. "A little later I'll
come and release you. I'm sorry for your young friend, shivering in the
wood and waiting hopelessly; but some one had to suffer. And when I see
that other friend of yours--sweet little Barbara--in London, I'll
exonerate you, and explain to her that it wasn't really your fault. Make
yourself as comfortable as you can, Tinman, under disagreeable
circumstances."

He took the key out of the lock, and transferred it to the outside of
the door; then went away, locking me in. It did not seem to matter; I
had failed hopelessly, and I did not mind what became of me. I had
striven to do so much--had flung myself into this business with the
ardour of a youth; but my youth was a thing of the past, and I was only
a tired old man, easily beaten in an unequal struggle.

I sat there for a long time, picturing horribly enough to myself all
that might be happening to those in whom I was interested. I saw the boy
waiting among the trees, and listening for every sound that floated to
him--now certain that I was coming with the girl fast along the road to
him--now blaming me bitterly because by carelessness or intentionally I
had betrayed him. I saw the girl, too, in the hands of the scoundrel
with whom she had so willingly set off on a journey that must end in
disaster; and I ground my teeth on the gag that had been forced between
them, in bitter despairing rage at the man who seemed to hold us all in
the hollow of his hand.

Slowly the shame and degradation of the thing seemed to drop into my
soul like a subtle poison. In a world that should be fair and bright--a
world made for lovers--it was horrible and unnatural to think that such
a creature as Murray Olivant should triumph over love and beauty and
purity. Poor sorry knight that I was, for ever tilting at such monsters
as himself, I had already been worsted once in the battle, and rendered,
as it seemed, for ever useless; and now again, when I would be taking up
the fight with fresh vigour, I had been flung at the first encounter,
and my enemy triumphed. What a poor sorry spectacle I had made of
myself, and how little good I had really done!

I began to have again that bitter rage in my heart that had been in it
twenty years before, and had meant the death of a man. I found myself
saying, over and over again, as I sat bound and helpless, that this man
should die, no matter what the penalty might be--that I would wipe him
off the face of the fair earth on which he crawled, and would leave the
way clear for this new Barbara, and for the boy who had striven bravely
to carry the flag I once had borne. Nothing could happen to me worse
than had already happened; I felt in that hour almost as though God had
brought me from my prison, and set me here to do this thing. And I had
been chosen because no worse evil could befall me than I had already
suffered; I had touched the depths, and could go no lower. Yes, I was a
thing apart, and the way before me was as clear as it had been twenty
years before.

I set to work systematically to free myself of my bonds. Getting to my
feet, I stumbled stiffly towards the dressing-table in the room, and on
the sharp edge at one corner of it began to saw the towel that held me,
backwards and forward, until I had torn a hole in it. After that I
worked frantically--up and down and across and across--until I felt it
giving in places, and until I had torn a great jagged hole in it. It
took a long time, but presently I was able to feel that the towel was
gradually giving way; then at last, as I worked, I was suddenly flung
forward, as the last strand started, and my hands fell to my sides. The
rest was an easy matter, and I was presently able to get rid of my gag.

The door was locked, and I dared not break it down; I did not know
whether Olivant was still in the house. I pulled back the curtain at the
window, and looked out, after first extinguishing the light in the room.
The room was on the first floor, and the drop to the ground not an
alarming one; I crawled on to the broad window-ledge, and worked myself
over it, gripping with my hands. After hanging there for a moment I let
go, and dropped, and fell without damage to the ground below.

At first I did not know what to do. On an impulse I was for setting out
for the woods, there to find Arnold Millard, and acquaint him with what
had happened. But in the very act of doing that I drew back, trembling;
for I seemed to know what must inevitably happen then. Living, as I
seemed to do, in the intimate thoughts and hopes and hatreds of the boy,
I knew that what must happen would be an encounter between Murray
Olivant and the younger man; and whatever punishment must be meted out
to Olivant must, I felt, be left to me, and not to the boy. Before I
stirred at all in the matter I must have time to think, and I must,
above all, find out whether Murray Olivant was still in the house.

I could not, of course, get into the house again in the ordinary way; I
must needs creep about the grounds, and watch. I went round to the
terrace, and drew near enough to look in at the windows, and to see
Lucas Savell sitting alone in the room, with his hands folded on his
lap, and his head nodding to slumber. I tried gently to unfasten one of
the long French windows, but in vain; and I was just turning away, when
I saw him wake up, and shake his head, and blink his eyelids, and look
about him. I saw him go to the door of the room, and apparently call out
to some one in the house; then come back, closing the door after him. He
made straight for the windows, and I was only just in time to draw back
out of the way. After fumbling for a moment or two with the fastenings,
he got the window open, and called out into the dark garden--

"Barbara! Barbara! What's become of you?"

There was no answer, and he stood for a moment fretfully muttering to
himself. I was so close to him that I heard him say that no one ever
attended to his wants, and that he was a poor neglected creature, and he
wished that he was dead. While he stood there, the door of the room was
opened, and Olivant came in.

"What are you bawling about?" I heard him ask.

Savell turned away from the window, leaving it open. "I want Barbara,"
he said peevishly. "She knows I want her at this time; there are lots of
things she has to attend to that no one else can attend to. I'm actually
left here--a poor invalid--with nothing to drink. It's a shame!"

"You're not likely to see your precious Barbara again--at all events for
a long time," said Murray Olivant, leaning against a table, and looking
at the other man. "So make up your mind to that."

"Eh?" Savell stared at him, with a frightened look on his face. "What do
you mean?"

"I mean that the lady has taken matters into her own hands, and has run
away with that scoundrelly half-brother of mine--young Millard," said
Olivant slowly. "He's been hanging about here for a long time--before
ever he came to dinner at all--and I've been afraid that something of
this sort would happen. It's a pity; because I had a better fate in
store for the girl, as you know."

"Yes--yes--of course I know that," said Savell feebly. "But can't they
be stopped?--can't something be done?"

"I intend to do something--to-morrow," said Olivant. "It's too late to
do anything to-night," he added, glancing at his watch. "Make your mind
easy, my friend; I'll see that sweet Barbara comes to no harm. And if by
any chance young Millard should come here, you'll understand that that's
only a ruse on his part, to throw you off the scent. You'll very
properly have him kicked out of the house."

I had been so intent upon what was happening in the room, and upon the
words that passed between the two men, that I had been totally unaware
of the fact that once again, as on another night I remembered, a shadow
had detached itself from the shadows of the garden, and that what seemed
to be a woman was leaning forward eagerly at the further end of the
terrace, watching and listening. She had not seen me; she had crept
forward step by step, and was staring into the lighted room. As Murray
Olivant moved with a shiver towards the window as if to close it, she
dropped back into the shadows, and was gone.

For a moment I stood there, staring after her, and vaguely calling to
mind the fashion in which I had seen her before, and the white face I
had seen looking into the room. Then, recovering myself, I started off
quickly in pursuit--hearing her moving swiftly over the dead leaves on
her way out of the grounds. Getting further away from the house, I
ventured to call to her to stop; but she hastened on more quickly,
breaking at last into a run, and finally disappearing among the trees. I
ran on blindly, and just when I thought I had lost her stumbled against
a figure standing quite still, and grasped it, and held to it. But this
was not a woman; it was a man, who cried out feebly to me to let him go,
and struggled in my grasp. It was Jervis Fanshawe.

"Some one ran past you--not a moment ago," I gasped. "A woman."

His face in the moonlight was ghastly white; I felt that he was
trembling from head to foot. "Did you see it too?" he gasped, holding to
me, and staring into my face.

I nodded. "Yes," I replied quickly. "Who was it?"

He shivered, and covered his face with his hands. "The dead come alive!"
he whispered.

I thought at first that he had been scared by the hurried flight of the
woman, or by my own calling to her in the darkness; above all, I was too
anxious concerning what I had to do, and concerning the fugitive, to
take much note of him. With an impatient exclamation I thrust him aside,
and ran on quickly out of the grounds; but when I came to the road
outside I saw that it lay like a grey streak under the light of the
moon, and was empty. A little frightened and shaken, I determined then
and there that there was but one thing to be done; I must find the boy,
and must tell him what had happened in regard to Barbara.

But even as I started on that errand I heard footsteps behind me, and
saw Fanshawe--a mere tottering shadow of a man--coming along the road
after me, calling to me feebly to wait. But I ran on, taking no notice
of him, and presently came to the end of the path that led into the
wood. I dropped down there, calling to the boy softly as I went.

He stepped out to confront me at once, and I shall remember to my dying
day the look upon his face when he saw that I was alone. He held to me
for a moment in the silence of the wood; then shook me roughly, and
flung me aside.

"Where is she?" he demanded, staring about him like one distracted.

"Gone!" I replied, clinging to him, in dreadful fear that he might break
away from me when he heard the news, and make for the house. "Spirited
away to London."

He stood quite still, with his hand pressed against his forehead,
staring at me dreadfully while I went on to explain what had happened,
and how I had been tricked. Then, with a laugh that was almost a sob, he
broke away from me, and sprang for the road. I caught him as he went,
and struggled with him.

"Where are you going?" I panted.

Even before he answered the question I heard the shuffling running
footsteps of Jervis Fanshawe go past us on the road above; the man was
still gaspingly calling my name. The footsteps died away, and I became
aware that young Millard was speaking.

"I'm going to find Murray Olivant," said the boy between his teeth. "Let
me go!"

"You're too late," I lied to him. "He's gone too." For I knew that at
that time it would have been madness to let him go to the house in
search of his brother.

He suddenly turned from me, with all the courage gone out of him as it
seemed, and broke down utterly. He leant his arm against a tree, and his
head on his arm, and wept as though his heart would break; I trembled to
see how the great sobs shook and rent him. I stood wringing my hands,
and pleading with him in whispers to be calm, even while at the same
time I was so shaken myself that I could scarcely get out the words.
When presently that fit of despair had passed, he spoke to me like a man
suddenly grown old.

"I shall go to London to find her," he said slowly. "If he has harmed
her, then by the mother that bore us both I'll kill him. Life can be
nothing to me then, and I shall not mind what happens. Look at that
hand, Tinman"--he stretched it out before him, and I saw that it was
still and steady as a rock--"and take note that I do not speak in any
boyish anger. If he has harmed her, it will be worse than if he had
killed her, for he will have killed her soul; it'll be a small vengeance
to kill his body. Don't try to stop me; I shall know where to find him
in London."

He sprang out on to the road, and set off at a great pace towards the
town. For a few moments I strove to keep up with him, trotting by his
side, and pleading brokenly with him that he would at least take time to
think. But he paid no heed to anything I said; he walked straight on,
staring in front of him with that set deadly look in his eyes. And after
a time I was compelled from sheer exhaustion to drop behind, and to see
him go on steadily before me until he was lost to sight.

I walked on feebly for a little time, perhaps with some faint hope that
he might repent of his purpose, and turn back. Presently on the road
before me I saw a man standing, and for a moment the wild hope sprang up
in my mind that this was Arnold Millard, already hesitating; as I ran up
to him, however, I saw that it was Fanshawe, who had evidently run
himself to a standstill. He was muttering to himself like one possessed,
laughing and trembling, and standing still to look about him and to
listen. As I went up to him he took me by the arm, and spoke again those
mad words he had used in the grounds of the house.

"The dead come alive, Charlie," he whispered. "As I hope for Heaven, I
saw the face--there--going past me like a face in a dream. I saw her, I
tell you."

"Who?" I asked, with my mind full of something else.

"Barbara," he whispered. "Not the child--but _your_ Barbara--_my_
Barbara! She went past me like a spirit!"

Horrified at the mere thought, I clapped my hand upon his lips, and
looked about me fearfully; for all at once it seemed almost possible
that on that night of disaster the spirit of the dead woman might have
come back, in the vain hope to save her child. I shuddered in the wintry
wind that swept about us both on the deserted road; I peered into the
shadows, awed and afraid.

"Fool!" I muttered savagely, to hide my own fears. "You don't know what
you're talking about. It's the new Barbara--the child--about which we're
concerned to-night. She's gone."

"And the old Barbara come back," he said; and stood there shuddering,
with his face hidden in his hands.

I left him, and went back towards the house. It seemed as though I was
shaken to my very soul, as though something mysterious and wonderful was
in the very air itself, threatening me. I pushed open the gate leading
into the grounds, and peered in, like a little child afraid of the dark;
then I went in, picking my way cautiously through the ruined and
neglected garden, with my eyes fixed upon the terrace. Coming to it, I
crept among the shadows, and peered in.

Murray Olivant was no longer there; but in his usual chair, with the
decanter and a glass beside him, sat Lucas Savell in the lighted room in
a heavy slumber. And once again from that opposite end of the terrace I
saw the shadowy woman creep forward, and look into the room. With my
very hair rising, as it seemed, and my limbs trembling, I took a step
towards her, and called her name--

"Barbara!"

After a moment she came slowly towards me, and by the light that came
from the room I looked into her eyes. Then with a great cry I fell at
her feet, feeling that I held in mine warm hands of flesh and blood.

"Barbara!"

"I've come back--my dear--my dear--to save my child," said the voice of
the Barbara I had loved and lost twenty years before.

Inside the lighted room the man whose name she bore started, and shook
himself, and fell asleep again; outside in the cold and the darkness I
knelt at the feet of the woman I loved, and bowed my face upon her
hands, as I had done twenty years before in the same spot.




                              CHAPTER VII

                         NEWS OF THE PRISONER


In some unreal dream, as it seemed, I presently found myself walking
through the ruined garden in the darkness, with that shadowy figure of
the woman I had loved beside me. It was a shadowy figure then, because
there seemed to be nothing tangible about her; I should scarcely have
been surprised if she had suddenly melted again into the shadows of the
garden, and been lost to me. I found myself, broken trembling creature
that I was, walking beside her fearfully, and seizing an opportunity now
and then to touch her dress or her hand, to be sure that I was not
dreaming. And presently it happened, happily and naturally enough, that
we walked out of the place under the winter moonlight hand in hand.

I would not have you laugh at us; I would not have you think that we
were old. True, I was old, in the sense that I was broken and forlorn
and poor, with no one in the world to cling to, except this dear woman
who had so mysteriously come back to me. So intangible had been my
dreams of her at all times, that there was less of a shock to me in
finding her grown older than I should have thought possible. I had
pictured her always, first as being of the age I had known her as a
girl, and later as having died young, and never having grown to
womanhood at all. But now, as she walked beside me, I found, when I had
the courage to steal a glance at her now and then, that she had the eyes
of the Barbara of old, and that the face, though changed and
strengthened, was only the face of the Barbara I had loved in all its
lines and in all its maturer beauty. It seemed fitting, too, that we
should meet like this, with the night and the silence to ourselves;
fitting that we should turn naturally towards that wood in which we had
met, and presently sit down there, side by side, on a fallen tree to
talk. Such poor forlorn lovers we were, that I remember regretting I had
no overcoat that I could put about her; and she laughing, in the way I
remembered so well, and telling me that it did not matter.

My head was bare after my escape from the house by the window; I
remember that she touched my grey hair softly with her hand for a moment
before she began to speak.

"My dear, I came first to the prison on the day that I knew you were to
be released; I had seen it mentioned in a newspaper. But I was too late;
you had already gone. And I had waited so many years, in the hope that I
might take your hand, and be the first to give you welcome back to the
world."

"But they told me you were dead," I whispered. "They said you had--had
died at sea."

"When I came to you for the last time, in that dreadful place where they
were to kill you the next day, I strove hard to keep your brave words
clearly before me, and to do what you had begged me to do. It was as
though you had died young, and so had ended the poor broken story of our
loves; so at least I told myself. I would not have you think, my dear,
that I was callous; but you had lain down your life, and I could serve
you best, and serve your memory best, by taking up mine as you would
have had me live it. So I went away with my husband out into the world,
and I strove hard to set aside all my memories, and all my hopes, and
all my wishes; I was as a numbed thing, existing only, and striving to
forget."

I looked into her eyes, and I held her hands; and it seemed as though
the broken useless years dropped away from me, and that I sat there that
night, cleansed and purified; I would not have changed places with any
one in all the world. I had not a coin in my pocket, nor a friend in the
world save this woman as forlorn as myself; but I would not have changed
places with any man living that night.

"I heard, of course, that you were reprieved," she went on; "and
although I was glad to feel that you still lived, it hurt me most to
think that you, who loved the sun and the free air and the woods, were
condemned to that death in life. But I strove always to keep my promise
to you, and long after my child was born I lived with my husband, and
took up my dull round of daily tasks. But by degrees a change came over
Lucas Savell; he grew morose and distrustful, and only long afterwards
did I understand what had changed him."

"What was it?" I asked.

"When my father prosecuted your guardian, Jervis Fanshawe, I think he
heard something about the poor innocent love story that had been ours. I
think Fanshawe poisoned his mind and I believe my father breathed
something of his suspicions to Lucas Savell. From that time he began to
treat me badly, with little petty acts of tyranny at first, and then
with open slights and small degradations, until at last my health broke
down. I think he became a little frightened, and at the urgent request
of the doctors he took me away on a sea voyage with the child."

"But from that sea voyage you never returned," I reminded her.

"My dear, be patient, and listen," she urged gently. "On that long
voyage it seemed to me that life, as I had once hoped to live it, came
back to me; in the long watches of the night, when I could not sleep, I
thought of you in your prison, and my life seemed a thing shameful and
horrible. I remembered your gentleness; even in the prison garb in which
I sometimes thought of you, you stood before me always as a king--strong
and self-sacrificing and wonderful. Because a man had dared to speak ill
of me, you had gone out, without a thought of the consequences, and
struck him dead; there was no man I'd ever met who would have done half
so much for me."

I thought of a boy who was even then setting out to do the same thing
again; I shuddered as I sat there.

"At last one night the thing had become intolerable to me," she went on,
in a whisper that grew sharp and eager as she remembered that time. "I
made up my mind that I could no longer live the life I was living; I
must get away somewhere, and hide myself; I must, if possible, begin
again. It seemed to me, my dear, as though your sacrifice had been in
vain; I must consecrate what was left of my life to you, and to the
memory of you. We were in mid-ocean--but I made up my mind to escape."

"How did you do it?" I asked.

"There was a stewardess on board--a strong, stern, repressed woman,
whose confidence I had gained, and who seemed to be deeply interested in
me. I told her just so much of my story as was necessary; I swore to her
that I could not and would not meet the man whose name I bore again. I
told her that I would, if necessary, fling myself into the sea rather
than endure his presence any longer. And she showed me a better and a
simpler way, yet a harder way to bear."

She sat for a moment or two with her elbows on her knees, leaning
forward, and evidently thinking deeply; I did not dare to interrupt her.
I stole a hand into hers, and she clasped my hand between her own, and
so held it while she went on talking.

"At her suggestion I left a note for my husband, telling him that I was
tired of my life, and that I meant to end it; I implored him to be good
to the child. I left the note in our cabin, and I stole out, when all
the ship except those on watch above was asleep, and met my friend the
stewardess. She took charge of me; and she locked me into a tiny
second-class cabin that had before been empty. And for the remainder of
that voyage she tended me, and brought me food, and kept me hidden."

"And your husband--Lucas Savell? What of him?" I asked.

"After the first shock I do not think he cared very much," she
replied. "We had lived very unhappily; perhaps he saw in this a
release. I was told by the stewardess that the ship was searched; but
she managed to put them off the scent, as far as my hiding-place was
concerned--smuggled me into her own quarters while the search was going
on. When we reached the end of the voyage she lent me clothes and a
heavy veil, and I walked out unnoticed among the crowd of passengers
and the other crowd that had come to meet them. I landed in England a
free woman, and I began again, under another name."

"And what was that other name?" I asked.

She laughed softly, and coloured like a girl. "Barbara Avaline," she
replied. Then more quickly she added: "I would not have you think that I
took that name merely for a whim; it was because I loved you, and
because I felt that in spirit at least I belonged to you. I have lived
quietly, and not unhappily; I had my memories to sustain me. The hardest
part had been, of course, the giving up of little Barbara; I almost
failed in my purpose once or twice--almost went back to Savell for the
sake of the child. But, thank God, I was able in all those long years to
get news of her; I have been near her many and many a time--poor unhappy
mother that I was!--and have known that she was well. I have had to work
for my living, but that has not mattered; I might have gone mad if I had
not had something to do."

"And what first brought you down here?" I asked after a pause, during
which it seemed as though we sat together looking into the past.

"My father had left the business to Lucas Savell, but it was never any
good in his hands. It went down and down, and I knew that Savell was
borrowing money anywhere and everywhere. After a time they got quite
poor--Barbara and her father--and I began to see a number of people
gathering about the place, just as they say birds of prey gather when a
man is dying and his hours are numbered. I did not think of Savell; I
thought only of Barbara and of what might happen to her. And so, in a
poor futile way, I've haunted this place, and watched her--even hungered
for her more than I dare say."

"Where are you living?" I asked her.

"I have a couple of rooms at a cottage on the outskirts of the town,"
she said, "and I do needlework for a living. I lie hidden all day, and
only come out like this when the darkness has fallen. And to think that
I have seen you here before, and did not guess who you were."

"I am so changed," I reminded her sadly.

"I might have known that you would steal back to the place where for an
hour or two we were happy; I might have guessed that. I have seen you
once or twice about the house and the grounds, and wondered a little who
you were, and why I was so strongly moved at the sight of you. But we
must not think any more of ourselves," she went on eagerly--"we must
think of those who have grown up to take our places."

"They have grown up to take our places indeed," I said. "The new Barbara
rises up in your image, to find herself hopelessly in love with a boy
who may be something like myself twenty years ago; like myself, the boy
has no chance, from a worldly point of view. Some strange fate has cast
us up here together, like ghosts out of the past, and it is for us to
help them. That will be beautiful, Barbara, because in doing that we may
mend that broken love story that was our own."

"I have thought of that, too," she replied. We had risen to our feet,
and she was looking at me earnestly. "I saw Barbara go away to-night
with a strange man: I was watching in the garden. She went reluctantly;
I heard her question him as to whether he was sure of this and that.
Tell me what it meant."

"Danger for her--ruin for her, unless she can be found," I replied. Then
I told her rapidly of all that had happened that night, and of the plot
that was afoot. She listened eagerly, questioning me on this detail and
on that, speaking especially about the boy, and what attitude he would
take in the business.

"Don't you see, Barbara," I exclaimed in a whisper--"don't you
understand that he sets his feet to-night absolutely in the footmarks
that were mine twenty years ago?"

"What do you mean?" she asked quickly, catching at my arm.

"Barbara, I set out twenty years ago to make a man eat his words, or to
kill the lie that he had told about you. To-night this boy sets out on
the same errand, with a new Barbara--your child--to inspire him. She is
to him as pure and precious a thing as you were to me all those years
ago. If he finds the man, he will strike him down, as I struck down
Gavin Hockley; he will suffer as I suffered--although they may be more
merciful in his case, and may take his life. Think of it!" I cried,
wringing my hands as I stood there, bareheaded, trembling and helpless
in the winter night--"think of it! I can do nothing, because I have no
money and no strength left; you can do nothing, because you died to the
world years ago, and at the best, even though you lived, you are poor
and helpless as I am. While we stand here--two poor ghosts come back out
of the world that is dead--this boy and girl take up the tale, and rush
straight to disaster, just as we did."

"But we have come back to save her," she exclaimed quickly. "This is no
time for despair, Charlie; we have a greater power given to us than you
imagine. We shall work in secret--you and I--and we shall succeed. See
now"--she held my hands, and looked into my eyes, and smiled
encouragingly--"you are calmer already than you have been. It seems to
me that the best thing we can do is to get to London at the earliest
possible moment. Barbara has been taken there--the boy has gone there;
this man Murray Olivant will inevitably follow. You know where he is to
be found, and we may be able to trace the boy. There is nothing to be
frightened of yet, Charlie; we will fight together, because we
understand so much more than these other people do."

She was so wise and calm that she seemed to give me wisdom too. I
presently found myself walking beside her back towards the town; it was
her intention to shelter me for the night at that tiny cottage where she
lived near Hammerstone Market. She had a key to the place, and we crept
in silently; she gave me some poor food she had there, and insisted that
I should stretch my weary limbs on an old couch in the sitting-room for
the remainder of the night.

I slept heavily, and long before dawn, as it seemed, I found her
standing beside me, gently waking me. She had prepared some steaming hot
coffee, and I drank it gratefully, while she sat beside me and told me
what I was to do.

"This man Murray Olivant still feels that you may be useful to him," she
said; "in any case, you know too much about his plans to be lightly
thrown aside. I have money here that will take you to London; you will
go to those rooms where Fanshawe first took you, and you will wait there
for Olivant. Do you understand?"

I said that I did, and that I would do all she suggested.

"Two things you have to remember," went on the calm voice. "The first,
that the boy must be prevented, at the present time at least, from
meeting Olivant; I shudder to think what might happen if they met now.
Persuade Olivant to get away--to hide--anything. The second is to get
hold of poor Barbara, and to bring her back to her father, if by any
chance we do not find young Millard. It may happen that, if Olivant is
frightened of what may befall him if the boy finds him, he may throw up
the game, and get out of the way; then our course is clear. But in any
case, Charlie, we must not travel together. You will go first, and I
will come afterwards; we can arrange some place in which to meet in
London."

She knew as little about London as I did; therefore she chose the first
public place she could think of for our later meeting. I was to find her
on one of the seats on the north side of Trafalgar Square, just under
the terrace; it was the only place we could think of in the hurry of the
moment.

I found that she had thought of everything; she had even bought an old
discarded brown wideawake hat from her landlady for me, and had found
out at what time the earliest train started for London. With a little
money in my pocket I set off eagerly enough on my mission. I felt more
hopeful than I had for many days past; I somehow felt that together we
must succeed.

It was cold and raw, and there was a biting wind. There were but few
people on the platform, and those for the most part were market folk
going to intervening stations. I looked eagerly about, wondering if by
any chance Murray Olivant had made up his mind to travel so early as
that; but I saw nothing of him. Evidently he was so sure of the plans he
had laid that he was not going to trouble himself to turn out on such a
bitter morning, or to hurry to London.

I went straight to his rooms on reaching London, only to be told by the
manservant that he was not there, and was not expected; indeed, the man
seemed somewhat astonished at seeing me at all. I evaded his questions,
and came away; turned back to deliver a message to the effect that if
Mr. Murray Olivant came to the place, the man would beg him to stay
until I came again; I had news for him of vital importance. Then I went
away, and roamed the streets in the bitter weather, pursued and haunted
by a thousand doubts and fears. And so back again to the rooms of Murray
Olivant--to see the boy Arnold Millard pacing up and down outside, and
keeping watch upon them.

I seemed to see myself again, twenty years before, raging up and down
the pavement of Lincoln's Inn Fields, waiting for the man I was to kill!

I was afraid to go to him, or to let him know that I was there, because
I feared lest he might think I was on the side of the enemy, fighting
against him and the girl. And yet I was afraid, too, that Murray Olivant
might at any moment come swinging into the street, and find himself face
to face with the boy who had sworn to kill him. Keeping that borrowed
hat well down over my brows, I set about to find Olivant, guessing
pretty well which way he would come. I went to the end of the street,
and presently saw a cab driving fast in the direction of Olivant's
rooms; in the cab was the man I sought.

I ran along beside it, and called to Olivant excitedly. He threw up the
trap in the roof, and told the man to stop; leaned out over the apron to
speak to me.

"Hullo, friend Tinman," he said genially, "where have you sprung from?
And who let you loose from the house?"

"There's danger--great danger," I panted, standing on the step of the
cab and whispering to him. "Everything has come out; young Mr. Millard
is waiting there up the street--has been waiting there for hours."

"Well--what of it?" he asked; but I thought his face went suddenly pale.

"He swears that he will kill you, and he means to do it," I said.

Something of my own excitement seemed to communicate itself to Olivant;
he became suddenly serious. Thrusting open the doors of the cab, he
caught up the bag that was beside him on the seat, and got out. He paid
the cabman, and then handed me the bag. "Come along," he said quickly;
"there's another way into the place down this side street. We can't
stand talking here."

So we gained his rooms in that secret fashion; and the moment we entered
the manservant began to explain to him that Mr. Arnold Millard had
called, and would call again. Olivant cut him short quickly.
"There--that'll do; I know all about it," he said. "Understand that no
one is to be admitted; I have not yet returned from the country. Any one
who comes can leave a message."

He seemed curiously perturbed, I thought; he did not even refer at first
to my own escape, or to the fact of my being in London so strangely. He
went to a window, and pulled aside a curtain, and looked out; turned
away with an exclamation, and looked at me. "How long has he been
there?" he demanded.

"As I have told you--some hours," I said.

He went to the sideboard, and poured some neat spirits into a glass, and
drained it. Then he came back to me, and, after a moment's hesitation,
began to question me.

"Now, in the first place, how did he connect me with the business?"

"I told him," I replied simply. "I had to tell him--I meant to tell him,
for the sake of the girl."

"Well, Mr. Facing-Both-Ways, then what brings you here? You tell the boy
where to find me, and then come skulking with your tail between your
legs to warn me. I don't understand it."

"I wanted to save the girl," I answered fearlessly. "Don't you
understand that he was to wait in a certain place, until I came to him,
bringing the girl; he would have waited there for a time, and then have
come to the house to find me? And don't you understand," I cried
passionately, "that I'm not fighting for you now, but for him?"

He turned to me quickly; looked at me curiously. "Fighting for him?"

In the tense stillness of the room, as we looked into each other's eyes,
it almost seemed to me that I could hear the echoing footsteps of the
boy pacing up and down outside--waiting, with murder in his heart. My
own heart was beating madly; I could scarcely get out the words I
uttered.

"Yes--fighting for him," I whispered--"won't you understand that? Twenty
years ago a man like you wronged a woman with his tongue, and died
because of that wrong. A boy--just such another as the boy who walks up
and down outside there now--struck him dead, and stood under the gallows
for his crime. I was that boy; and he who waits below is but myself,
come back to life to do what I did. I am not fighting for you--you are
nothing; I am here to-night to save the boy from my fate. For as there
is a God above us, he is here to kill you!"

He looked at me steadily for a moment or two, and then turned away. I
saw him pull his handkerchief from the sleeve of his coat, and pass it
once across his forehead, and then rub his hands with it hard, as though
they were wet. Then, in the most matter-of-fact way, he came back to me,
and looked at me steadily. His eyes were very bright--brighter and
darker in contrast with the pallor of his face.

"You're not lying to me?" he demanded, in a whisper.

"I am not lying."

"And I suppose it doesn't happen by chance that you and this brother of
mine are in league--and that you are to terrorize me, and find out about
the girl--eh?"

"Don't you think in that case he would have come to you and made his
threat in person?" I asked quickly.

"Yes, I suppose he would," he admitted. "In any case, I have to thank
you for this; if you'd have held your tongue, he might have thought that
the girl had run away, or that she wanted nothing more to do with him;
he might never have connected me with the matter at all. And now, having
caught me here like a rat in a trap, I suppose you think you can force
me to do something, out of fear? Well, you won't do that; because in
this unequal world it's the rich man that always scores in the long run.
That poor beggar cooling his heels on the pavement outside may threaten
as he likes; I am safe enough. But I wish I'd tied you up a little more
securely, my friend," he added viciously.

"You can get out of this difficulty in a moment," I reminded him. "Say
where the girl is, and produce her to this boy unharmed, and you are
safe."

"No!" he exclaimed violently. "I'll not be threatened by him--I'll not
be forced to do anything against my will. I can snap my fingers at him.
Besides," he added with a grin, "there's another reason. I don't myself
know where the girl is."

"But you sent her away with the man Dawkins," I exclaimed quickly.

"Who was to bring her to London, and to let me know where she was. And I
haven't heard yet."

Even as he spoke I heard a sharp double knock at the outer door. I think
for a moment Olivant imagined that this was but a ruse on the part of
the boy to get in; I saw him move quickly to the further end of the
room. But a moment later the manservant came in with a small salver on
which lay a letter. Olivant, with almost a sigh of relief, picked it up
and turned it over.

"Talk of the devil," he muttered with a laugh, and tore it open.

He seemed to read the thing through twice; and as he read his face grew
harder and harder. Finally he turned to me, and spoke quietly, with
something of the air of a man who is driven into a corner, but has set
his back against the wall, and means to fight.

"This is from friend Dawkins," he said. "He tells me that he has brought
the girl to London, and has put her in safe hands; he thinks, however,
that he should have something for his trouble." He broke off, and turned
to the letter. "'I am not a rich man,'" he read, "'and a small matter of
five hundred pounds would be extremely useful to me just now. Didn't I
mention this last night? Under the circumstances, and for the sake of
the young lady, I think it better that you should know that I want this
sum in exchange for her address. She's a dear girl, and quite worth
it.'" He banged the letter savagely with his fist, and began to pace
about the room, muttering to himself. "First one and then another--this
threat and that; what do you all think I'm made of? So this dog thinks
he'll hold the girl to ransom, does he? Sends me an address to which
letters are to be forwarded." He suddenly strode to the door, and opened
it.

"What are you going to do?" I asked quickly.

"I'm going out to face them--this fellow who threatens my life, and this
other who threatens my pocket. I won't skulk like a dog here, and let
them think I'm afraid of them."

I caught his arm, and strove to draw him back into the room. "Don't do
that!" I pleaded--"don't do that!"

He came back into the room, and closed the door; suddenly he began to
laugh in a grim fashion, as though he rather enjoyed the situation. "If
I had anybody in whom I could put any confidence," he said, "I'd cheat
them both yet. But you're not fighting for me--and you may be against
me. If Fanshawe were here, I might be able to do something; Fanshawe's
got a sort of deadly hatred of this girl that would carry him to any
lengths. I wonder what is best to be done?"

Whatever he decided to do then he kept to himself; after pacing about
the room for a time he told me I could go, and that if I came back to
him on the following day he might have news for me. His last words to me
as I left him were characteristic of the man.

"I'll beat you all yet--and I'll win my game!" he said.

In the grey of a winter twilight I found Barbara Savell--that older
Barbara who had belonged to my life--pacing about at the north side of
Trafalgar Square. We met--she full of eagerness and anxiety, I
dejectedly enough. I told her that I had failed, but that I had hopes
that I might yet find that other Barbara. She told me that she had
secured a little lodging in a humble quarter, and told me where it was;
I walked with her to it, and left her there for the night. Then, because
I did not know what else to do, I went off to that place in which I had
stayed before with Jervis Fanshawe--that shabby room in a shabby house
near the river. I was worn out and miserable when I knocked at the door,
and was admitted by the girl Moggs.

"'Ullo!" she exclaimed, her face expanding in a grin--"so you've come
back, 'ave yer? The other party 'asn't bin 'ere fer days an' days; but I
fink 'e's expected."

"Why do you think that?" I asked carelessly.

"'Cos there's some one waitin' for 'im--pleasant sort o' gent, wiv a
smile that does yer 'eart good to see. Real genel'man, mind you," she
added, with a confident nod.

"Has he told you his name?" I asked, in a whisper.

"Yus. Name o' Dawkins," she replied.

I went scrambling and stumbling up the stairs; behind me as I ran I
heard the girl Moggs calling to me, but I paid no heed.




                              CHAPTER VIII

                          I ASSIST THE ENEMY


As I came to the door of that shabby room in which I knew the man
Dawkins was, a great trembling fell upon me, so that I hesitated, and
was afraid to go in. It was not fear for myself: I think at that time I
had no fear of anything; it was only that I knew that I should not be
able to control myself, if I stood face to face with this creature who
had assisted Murray Olivant to secure the girl, and now held her to be
sold for a price. I stopped outside the door, with my hands clenched,
and with my heart beating wildly.

The tumult of passion in me was stilled by the girl, who had run hard
after me up the stairs. I felt her coarsened grubby little hand gripping
mine; slowly she drew me back away from the door.

"'Ere--pull yerself togevver," she whispered. "Wot's wrong wiv yer?"

"If I go into that room I am afraid of what I may do," I said, clutching
at the girl, and staring at the closed door. "I'm afraid of myself."

"Wot's 'e done?" she whispered excitedly.

"Nothing you'd understand," I said. "But oh, Moggs--have you ever read
or heard anywhere any fairy tale, concerning some wonderful princess,
shut away in prison and left to pine, while her lover waited in vain for
her. Have you, Moggs?"

She nodded quickly, and her face expanded into a grin. "Yus--I did
once," she whispered. "It came 'ere with summink wrapped in it--bit of a
Christmas story, it was."

"There's a wonderful princess held prisoner by that man," I whispered
eagerly. "And he'll smile--and smile--and I am powerless to do anything
to help. You wise little person--tell me what to do?"

She plunged her grubby hands into her hair, and wrinkled up her face in
thought; then she caught at my hand again, and whispered a startling
suggestion. "Go in an' talk to 'im," she said, "an' keep yer dander
down. W'en 'e goes out presently, I'll foller 'im--an' if I don't come
back knowin' w'ere she is, my name ain't Moggs. Is she a real
tiptopper?"

"Beautiful, and gentle, and good," I assured her, as she listened
unctuously.

"An' 'im wot's sweet on 'er--is 'e all right?"

"The best fellow in the world," I replied.

"Then this is just w'ere I come in!" exclaimed the strange little
creature. "I was born for this 'ere!"

I shook hands with her solemnly on the dark and grimy staircase; and I
blessed and thanked her. Then I opened the door, and went into the room,
praying hard for strength to control myself. Dawkins was sitting on the
edge of the table, swinging one leg, and smoking a cigar; he did not
trouble to look round as I entered, probably from the fact that he felt
that only one person could come into that room with any assurance.

"Well, Fanshawe, it's taken you long enough to get to London," he said,
flicking the ash from his cigar.

"I beg your pardon," I said, "but it's not Mr. Fanshawe."

He jumped off the table, and leant against it, staring at me; I think it
was the first time I had seen his face without a smile upon it. "By
George!" he exclaimed, in a low voice--"I thought I'd tied you up better
than that!"

"I was so fortunate as to get away," I replied. "I have seen my--my
master, Mr. Olivant; he knows all about my escape. I have just left
him."

"Then perhaps you've brought something for me from him?" he exclaimed
eagerly, with his habitual smile breaking over his face.

I shook my head. "Nothing," I said. "I did not expect even to find you
here."

"True; I'd forgotten that," he said, in a tone of disappointment. "I
suppose you came looking for Fanshawe--eh? As a matter of fact, I want
to see Fanshawe myself."

I suddenly made up my mind that I would make the attempt on my own part
to find out something about the girl; I might even be able to persuade
this man that he would get nothing from Murray Olivant, and so induce
him, out of revenge, to let me know where Barbara was. After a moment's
hesitation I plunged into the business.

"When you left me tied up and gagged at the house at Hammerstone
Market," I began, "you took away with you a young lady--Miss Barbara
Savell."

"And a deuced nice girl, too," exclaimed the man, nodding his head and
smiling. "You were nicely diddled over that business, Tinman; and in
turn I diddled our friend Olivant. It's a pity that so charming a young
lady should be played catch-ball with in this fashion; but that's her
fault, because she is so charming. Now, I suppose you've really been
sent by Olivant to spy out the land--eh? You may as well let me know the
truth, because I shall discover it in any case. I'm much too wily for
you people."

"I tell you again that I did not imagine for a moment you would be
here," I reminded him. "Mr. Olivant knows nothing of your whereabouts;
he has simply had your letter, giving an address to which letters may be
sent. But I assure you that you will get nothing out of him."

"Oh, so you know _that_, do you?" he said with a sneer. "Very well, I
can afford to wait. The young lady, though inclined to be troublesome
and fretful, is really very charming company."

"I want to believe, sir, that you're a gentleman," I went on again
patiently.

"Thank you," he responded, smiling.

"And I want to appeal to your better nature. This girl is friendless in
the world, save for me and for the boy who loves her; you have been
fortunate enough and wise enough to get her out of the hands of Murray
Olivant; give her into mine, and let me send her back to her lover--or
to her father."

Even as I made the appeal I realized the futility of it. But I saw here
that violence would not do, and that he would scoff at any threatening;
I had felt at first, when I began to speak, that there was a faint
chance that I might move the man. As he laughed and shook his head, I
saw that I must, after all, trust to that frail support--Moggs.

"My good man, it is quite refreshing to hear any one talk as you do," he
said. "You really appear to be in earnest, and under other circumstances
I might almost be prepared to listen to you. But the prize is too good
to be lost, whether I get the money or stick to the lady. Personally, I
believe that Olivant may be squeezed, and may decide that it is best for
him to pay; but in any case I score. No, friend Tinman, this is not a
game with which you are concerned. Mind your own business, and leave
these things to your betters. And as it seems that Fanshawe is not
coming, I think I'll return to the lady."

"And if I follow you?" I exclaimed, maddened at the thought that he set
me aside so lightly. "What then?"

He struck a match, and relit his cigar; looking at me over the smoke of
it, he laughed, and shook his head. "You're really very simple, Tinman,"
he said. "I don't believe for a moment that you really take so deep an
interest in the lady and her lover; I am inclined to believe that you
are a spy from the camp of Mr. Murray Olivant. If you have the audacity
to follow me, I shall do one of two things: I shall either go in a wrong
direction, at some inconvenience to myself; or I shall call the
attention of the first constable I meet to you, and inform him that you
have been begging from me, and threatening me. You look shabby, Tinman,
and you have a bad record behind you, I understand. For your own sake
you'd better stay here."

At that time I had no very great faith in the powers of Moggs; however
eager she might be to throw herself into the business, I felt that in
all probability this astute man of the world would prove more than a
match for her. It was with something very like despair in my heart that
I saw him saunter out of the room. I ventured to the door the moment
after he had left the room, and opened it cautiously; he was going down
the stairs, and he stopped for a moment to look back at me.

"You can tell Fanshawe that it doesn't matter, after all; I'm not
particularly anxious to see him. And if you want the lady,
Tinman--well--your master Murray Olivant knows how to get her.
Good-night to you!"

I saw nothing of Moggs; I went back into the room, and shut the door. It
seemed at that time as though all I had striven to do and all I had
hoped for had been brought to naught; I stood helpless in this poor
shabby room, staring about me, and wondering what I should do. What
power did I possess--poor broken outcast, without even a name, and
assisted only by a little drab of the streets; what could we do against
such men as Olivant? I recognized, now that it was too late, that I
ought to have played a different game; that I should have matched
cunning with cunning, and devilry with devilry; I had been too blunt and
outspoken. And then my thoughts flew back to the boy, waiting doggedly
outside the rooms of the man who had set out to ruin him and the girl he
loved; and I saw the Fate that had dogged and destroyed me marching
grimly on over me, and striking down young Arnold Millard. I had no
power to stay his hand; nor was there any power behind such threats as I
might use to Olivant and the others.

I was like a man who stands in the dark, with three or four roads
stretching out from the point at which he is, and uncertain in his own
mind which to take. I had thoughts of going to my Barbara, and making
her understand more completely even than she understood yet the peril in
which her child stood; but, on the other hand, I knew that to do that
would be useless while the girl was still lost to us. Then I thought of
sending to Lucas Savell; but remembered what manner of man he was, and
how utterly useless he would be in a crisis. It seemed monstrous that I
should stand here, helpless, in the midst of a great city--unable to do
anything; but I had to remember, bitterly enough, that I was a man with
the brand of Cain upon me, and a long prison record behind me; more than
that, I was known in London and elsewhere as living under another name.
It was all a horrible tangle, from which it seemed impossible that we
should ever escape.

I heard a step upon the stairs--too heavy to be that of Moggs; it was a
jaded weary step, and it stopped outside the door. I went to the door,
and opened it; outside a man stood, and as he thrust me aside and came
in I saw that it was Jervis Fanshawe. He threw down a small untidy
bundle on to the bed, and tossed his hat after it, and sank into a
chair.

"Give me something to drink," he said hoarsely.

I found something, and gave it to him; he drank it greedily, looking at
me as he did so with a curious expression in his eyes. Once he made up
his mind to speak; but he stopped, even as he opened his lips, and half
rose in his chair, staring hard at the door. He did not look at me; his
voice was a mere shaking whisper.

"There's some one on the stairs!" Then, as I moved quickly to the door,
he sprang up and confronted me, and pressed me back; and his face was
like death itself. "No--no--don't open the door. I know what it is, and
I couldn't bear to see it again."

"Why, what do you mean?" I faltered, "what have you seen; what's
happened to you?"

He did not reply; with a trembling hand he poured out some more of the
liquor, and drank it; and even then, as he did so, he paused to listen
again with that curious intentness. Finally he got over to the further
end of the room, and then pointed to the door, and whispered--

"Open it now, Charlie--quick!"

I confess I was as much shaken as he seemed to be; I pulled open the
door, however, and looked out. There was no one there, and I told him so
as I closed it again.

"Last night in the garden--while you ran and called to something or some
one--I saw her," he said in a whisper. "I told you then it was the dead
come alive; I tell you so again now, Charlie. To-night in London, as I
tramped through the streets (and I swear I was not thinking of her in
any way), I saw her face pass me again--it was as though there was some
strange light upon it, that never was on this earth. Before God,
Charlie, she's come back; as I live, she means to haunt me and to follow
me!"

I saw in a moment what had happened. The face of that elder Barbara, as
he had seen it for a moment, had been to him the face of the woman he
believed to be dead; his further meeting her in London had been a mere
accident. I hesitated to tell him the truth: that this woman was alive.
I did not know how much further I might be complicating matters, or what
greater difficulties I might be creating. For the present, at least, I
determined to hold my tongue, and to let him think what he would. He
went on with his rambling talk.

"I've heard of men being driven mad like that," he said; "I've heard
that some one, deeply wronged, may come back from the grave, to work a
more bitter vengeance than they could have done in life. Is there any
truth in that, Charlie?"

I began to see that this better mood might be useful; that this
implacable creature, who had pursued his vengeance so relentlessly and
so long, might perhaps be turned a little from his purpose if he
supposed that the spirit of the dead woman was following him, to take
account of what he was doing. His next words confirmed that impression
in my mind.

"I helped Olivant and Dawkins last night and yesterday over that matter
of the girl; spied out the land for them, and told them where you were,
and what you were doing. I meant all along to drag the girl down, as I
meant years ago to drag down the mother: she had her mother's look, and
her mother's voice, and I hated her for them. But I'm afraid, Charlie; I
find myself starting at shadows. You saw her last night in the garden; I
heard you call to her."

"Yes, I saw her," I replied steadily.

He drew a long breath, and looked again at the door with that hunted
look his face had worn before. "I knew it; that proves it," he said.
"I'm getting an old man, Charlie, and still my vengeance has brought me
nothing but this: that I sit in this place, with no soul on God's earth
to speak a good word for me, and with the knowledge that I may have
wrecked the lives of two women. There's hell for me, Charlie, and that
dead woman will fling me down to it!"

It was in my mind then, in sheer pity for the hunted wretch, to tell him
the truth. But I saw in a moment that if I did that he would understand
that he had been robbed of his vengeance from the very start, and had
brought himself to his present pass for nothing; for the woman he had
pursued was living still. I understood that in that case I should make
him a more bitter enemy to the mother and the girl than ever, out of
sheer rage at having been duped so long. And in any case I had seen
enough of him to know that I could not trust him. And out of his fright
some good might come.

That fright was indeed so great that when, a moment later, a hand was
laid upon the door, and it opened cautiously, the man started up, with
something very like a shriek. But it was nothing more than Moggs, untidy
and slipshod as ever; she gave me a quick glance as she came in, and my
heart gave a leap, for I seemed to read in it that she had succeeded.
However, she merely muttered something about the fire, and went across
the room to attend to it. Kneeling there, she began to croon to herself
that strange weird song that had no tune nor time to it, and which I had
heard her sing before.

I was casting about in my mind for some means of speaking to her alone,
without arousing Fanshawe's suspicions, or at least of getting rid of
Fanshawe for a few moments, when the girl solved the difficulty for
herself, and that too in the quaintest fashion. She suddenly looked up
at me, with a queer smile on her face, and spoke.

"You know about that there princess you was talkin' of, guv'nor, don't
yer?" she asked; then, without waiting for a reply, went on demurely
enough: "I dunno' but wot I 'aven't worked out that story in me own way,
after all."

"How's that, Moggs?"

"Can't that girl cease her chatter, and go?" demanded Fanshawe angrily,
as he cast himself down on his bed, and lay there with his hands clasped
under his head.

"'Alf a tick, guv'nor, 'alf a tick," remonstrated Moggs, turning to him;
then she looked back at me. "Wot if you was to 'ear that the princess
was fetched away by a ugly sort o' fairy--smuggled out, in a manner o'
speakin'--an' brought to that ugly fairy's place," the thin cracked
voice was growing excited--"an' 'id away by 'er--eh? Wot then? Serpose
the princess crep' up the stairs without nobody seein' 'er----"

In my excitement I forgot everything; I suddenly seized the girl by the
shoulder, and shook her, and cried out in my great relief: "Here,
Moggs?--here in this house? How did you manage it? Where is she?"

Too late I saw that Fanshawe had raised himself on one elbow on the bed,
and was staring at me and at the girl. I checked myself at once, and
began haltingly to change the talk, so that it might seem I was speaking
of something with which he was not concerned; but he brushed such
pretence aside impatiently, and demanded to know what was happening.

"You've heard something--discovered something?" he said suddenly,
sitting upright, and turning his haggard face towards me. "Oh!--don't
shrink away; from to-night I tell you I am your friend, hand and glove
with you in this business. I tell you I'm afraid; I dare not go on. Give
me a chance," he pleaded, "and I'll undo all that I have done. You can't
stand alone in this, Charlie; give me the chance to help you."

"You can't; you are ranged on the other side," I said sternly.

"I am not--I am not!" he exclaimed. "Don't I tell you that I'm
afraid--that I dare not go on any further? Moggs"--he turned quickly to
the girl, and spoke appealingly--"tell me where she is; you may trust
me."

"I ain't so sure abaht that," said Moggs, looking from him to me, and
back again. "More'n that," she added with cunning, "I ain't quite sure
that I know what you're talkin' about." She walked to the door, giving
me a sharp glance as she went, as though to bespeak my attention. With
what carelessness I could muster I went after her; as I glanced back
into the room I saw that Fanshawe, still raised on his elbow, was
looking after me hungrily.

Outside on the dark landing it was a mere matter of excited whispers.
"You've got her here--safe?" I asked.

"Safe as twenty 'ouses!" she replied. "I waited abaht in the street
until I sees me gentleman come out; arter that I never lost sight of
'im. The place wasn't so far from 'ere, arter all, an' it wasn't likely
'e was goin' to take no notice of anybody like me. I watched him go in,
I seed 'im come out again. A minute later I was ringin' the bell, as
innercent as yer please; an' there was a young person employed same as
me in the 'ouse; I could talk to 'er in wot you might call me own
language--found she was actually at the same Board School as wot I was.
In less'n a minute we was talkin' friendly; five minutes arterwards I
was upstairs, wiv the key turned in the lock, an' the young lady
listenin' to wot I'd got to say."

"Dear, sweet Moggs!" I exclaimed in a whisper. "And she came with you at
once?"

"That instant minute," said Moggs. "I mentioned who you was, an' that
you was waitin' for 'er; it seemed that she'd on'y bin persuaded to stop
there, believin' that the young gent was comin' any minute. Now she's in
my room--right at the top, under the tiles--as safe as safe. Oh, I tell
yer, it wants a woman for this work!"

I shook the diminutive creature's hand; I was just about to break out
into some further expressions of gratitude, when her eyes warned me that
we had a listener. I turned swiftly, in time to see a line of light down
the edge of the door of the room--a line that was gradually narrowing,
until it disappeared altogether as the door was closed. I understood at
once that Jervis Fanshawe had been listening to all that had been said.

"It's all right," I assured her quickly. "I think he's our friend; in
any case I can keep him silent. Go up and see Miss Savell; tell her that
I'm near at hand, and that I will come up to her the moment I can slip
away."

Moggs disappeared instantly, and I opened the door and went into the
room. Fanshawe was seated on the side of the bed, with his hands pressed
together between his knees, rocking himself slowly backwards and
forwards. He seemed strangely excited, but I hardly noticed that at the
time, in my indignation that he should have played the spy upon me.

"Why did you listen?" I asked.

"Why won't you trust me, Charlie?" He looked up at me, and there was
again in his eyes that fear I had seen before. "I know that all I have
done gives the lie to what I want to do; but I am sincere now, because
I'm afraid. Won't you trust me?"

"There is no necessity for me to trust any one," I replied. "I don't
know how much you know, or how much you don't; but I want to tell you
this: it'll go hard with any one who tries again to defeat what I am
trying to do. I've got my chance now to upset all the plans that you and
those connected with you have made; for your own sake you'd better keep
out of it."

"What are you going to do with her? What do you think you can do--you
who are poor and weak and alone; what hope have you of fighting against
richer men? I tell you you'll come to grief, and I shall walk for ever
with the shadow of the dead Barbara by my side. I know it--I know it!"

"I tell you it is a matter that does not concern you," I said again.
"Why should you expect me to trust to you--you whose long life has been
a lie from beginning to end? Keep out of it, I tell you; it will go hard
with you if you play me any tricks again."

I left him sitting in that dejected attitude; I heard him muttering
again and again that I did not and I would not understand! I opened the
door, and went out on to the staircase, meaning to see the girl Barbara,
and to reassure her as to her safety. But while I stood there for a
moment I heard voices down below, voices that I knew.

"I tell you you can't deceive me--an' you won't deceive me." It was the
voice of Murray Olivant, loud and aggressive. And the voice of Dawkins
replied to him.

"I tell you the girl has been spirited away. I've come here now in the
hope of hearing something about her; perhaps that rascally servant of
yours knows something--the fellow Tinman. On my solemn word, Olivant--"

"Oh, be quiet!"

I slipped back into the room to wait for them. Murray Olivant strode in
first, and looked at me with a scowl; looked past me at Jervis Fanshawe,
who had risen from the bed. "Well--plotters and schemers--what's the
move now?" he demanded. "Is there any one here at all I can believe or
trust?" He looked round on the three of us fiercely enough. "Dawkins
here has her, and then he has not; you, Fanshawe, can do great things,
but you don't do them; Tinman threatens and boasts, and does nothing. I
suppose you think you can play with me just as you please, eh? Will no
one speak?"

"I tell you again, Olivant, that I have not got the girl," said Dawkins.
"I only came here in the hope to find her; I've been tricked, just as I
tried to trick you. If I knew where she was, shouldn't I try to bluff
the thing a bit, and get some money out of you?"

"I believe you would," retorted Olivant slowly. Then he swung round to
me. "Well, Tinman, and what do you know?"

"Nothing," I replied. "I have not seen the lady at all."

"Why should she come here?" asked Fanshawe, in a quiet voice. I confess
I had been expecting a totally different answer from him, and I began to
wonder if, after all, I had misjudged the man. His face was a mask,
behind which even the deadly fear that he had shown was hidden.

"Well, I trust _you_, at any rate, Fanshawe," said Olivant, "because I
believe you know who's your friend, and who's likely to help you most in
this world. This seems to rest with you, Dawkins," he went on, turning
to his friend, "and I shan't forget to pay you for it, though not quite
in the coin you expected. I'm going home; God help any one of you that
plots against me again. You, Tinman, can walk with me; I believe you
have some fears as to my safety," he added, with a grin.

The man Dawkins came down the stairs and into the street with us, still
protesting his innocence in the matter; Murray Olivant waved him aside
impatiently enough, and set off in the direction of his lodging. I think
he had meant to take me with him; but within a hundred yards of the
house he hailed a passing cab, and turned to dismiss me.

"You can go back," he said. "I shan't want you. You needn't be afraid; I
shall go in the back way." He climbed into the cab, and was rapidly
driven away.

I walked slowly back to the house, and rang the bell again. After I had
climbed the stairs to Fanshawe's room I suddenly made up my mind that I
would go on further, and see Barbara; altered my mind again, and
determined to see Fanshawe, and at least to thank him for the attitude
he had adopted to Murray Olivant. I opened the door and went in, but the
man was not there.

Inwardly perturbed, I came out on to the landing again, and began slowly
to climb the stairs; I did not like this sudden absence of Fanshawe in
the least. On the landing above I came face to face with Moggs, standing
outside a door, and looking at me with a scared white face.

"She's gorn!" she whispered.

"You must be mistaken," I exclaimed roughly, with all my old suspicions
sweeping in upon me like a flood. "Where can she have gone to?"

"I dunno," whimpered the girl. "But I tell you she's gorn."

I ran out of the house, scarcely knowing what I meant to do. My thoughts
turned naturally to the man who had made up his mind to get hold of
Barbara; I determined to go to Murray Olivant at once. With difficulty,
for it was now very late, I got to the place; and even then hesitated
whether to go in or not. For in the first place, if I came face to face
with him I must confess that I had lied, and that the girl had been in
that other house even while he visited it.

The matter was determined for me, after all. I had got outside the
rooms, and was standing there, hesitating what to do, when a man stopped
before me, and spoke my name in a surprised voice. It was young Arnold
Millard.

"Tinman!" Then suddenly and eagerly--"Where's your master?"

"Not there, sir," I replied quickly. "I--I don't know where he is."

We were standing on the opposite side of the street; he suddenly grasped
my arm, and pointed. A window had been opened up above, and leaning out
from a lighted room I saw for a moment the head and shoulders of Murray
Olivant. The head was withdrawn in a moment, and the window closed and
darkened, but we had both seen it distinctly.

"Not there?" exclaimed the boy derisively. "So they've told me every
time I've inquired. Hiding from me, is he?"

He ran across the street, and I ran after him, calling to him to stop.
We both reached the stairs together, and together rushed up them; and by
that time I had him by the arms, and was clinging to him, imploring him
to calm himself. The noise we made when we got to the door of the flat
alarmed that respectable manservant inside; he opened the door a little
way, and we stumbled in together, brushed him aside, and rushed
pell-mell into the room where Murray Olivant stood. And there was not
only Olivant there, but the man Dawkins and Jervis Fanshawe.

"I've found you at last," cried the boy excitedly. "I want to know where
Miss Barbara Savell is?"

Murray Olivant looked quickly round from one to the other of us; saw me
clinging to the boy, and whispering to him--saw Dawkins and Fanshawe and
the manservant. Perhaps he felt that there was safety in numbers; at all
events, he retreated to the door of an inner room, and spread his arms
across it, as though to guard it.

"You fool!" he cried roughly--"she's here!"




                               CHAPTER IX

                        I KNOW THE WAY AT LAST


For a moment, after that astounding statement by Murray Olivant, we
stood transfixed, staring at him as he spread his arms across the door
and faced us defiantly. I do not think that he had imagined his words
would have such an effect; our amazed silence showed him in a moment
that the game was with him. In a limp fashion I was clinging to young
Millard, whose fury, as it seemed, had suddenly relaxed, leaving him
helpless.

"Here?" gasped the boy, in a sort of horrified whisper.

"Yes!" cried Olivant loudly. "Here--by her own choice, and of her own
free will. I suppose the girl can choose for herself--and in this case,
she has chosen wisely. Like every one else in this world, she knows on
which side her bread is buttered. Now, get out of my place," he added,
advancing towards us: "open the door there, you; show these people out."

Young Arnold Millard seemed suddenly to recover himself and his strength
at the same time; I felt his muscles hardening under my grip. Then, with
an inarticulate shout, he hurled himself straight at Olivant; and in a
moment was fighting madly with Dawkins and myself to get at him. I
remember noticing even then that Fanshawe stood aside, wringing his
hands helplessly, and moistening his dry lips with his tongue.

"Let me go! It's a lie--I know it's a lie! Let me go!" shouted the boy,
battling like a madman with us.

The frightened manservant had run out of the room, crying something as
he went; it seemed an incredibly short space of time before he came
hurrying in again, followed by a policeman. In a dexterous fashion this
latter contrived to get between the boy and his enemy; interposed his
solid official bulk between them.

"Now then--now then, gentlemen!" he said quietly. "What's the trouble
here?"

Murray Olivant was the first to speak. "This man has forced his way into
my rooms, and has threatened me," he said quickly. "I want him removed."

The constable glanced from one to the other; his face was impassive. "Do
you know the man, sir?"

"He is a relative of mine--a ne'er-do-well, who has given considerable
trouble to his friends," said Olivant. "He has been waiting outside in
the street for some hours, on the chance of getting hold of me. The
present dispute is about a lady."

"Constable, I demand to have these rooms searched; I mean to prove that
this man is lying!" cried the boy excitedly. "He says--says the lady's
here--and it is a lie!"

"You'll understand, sir, that I've no power to search this gentleman's
rooms," said the constable; "and I've no right to inquire into any
dispute about a lady or anything else. For your own sake, sir"--he was
talking in an easy argumentative fashion to young Millard--"for your own
sake, you'll go away. If you stop here there'll only be a breach of the
peace committed, and you'll get yourself into my hands. If this don't
blow over by the morning, I'm much mistaken; in any case, you can't
create a disturbance here. Much better go away."

"I tell you I----" He made a sudden leap to pass the constable, and to
reach the door of that inner room; but the man was too quick for him: he
caught him by the arm, and deftly turned him towards the door; hustled
him out of the room into the little hall. I was close at hand, and I
heard what the man said.

"Now, sir, you're behaving very foolish. Go away, and go home and think
about it; then see if you don't thank me in the morning. Come on now."

I put in my plea also, and presently the boy went away in a moody
silence. The constable walked quietly after him, and as I ran down too I
saw the man standing at the outer door leading into the street, looking
after the boy as he strode away.

"A bit hot-headed, your friend," he said. "Lor' bless you, I've seen 'em
like that a few times, and then ready to laugh about it next morning."

I went back to the rooms; there I found the startled manservant peering
out at the door of the flat. He drew me inside, and carefully closed the
door: seemed disposed, indeed, to question me.

"I give you my word I don't understand it," said the man. "Because, you
see, there's never been any lady 'ere at all; an' nobody couldn't have
got in without passing me. Now, what I argue is----"

I thrust him aside, and walked into the room. There I found Murray
Olivant lying back in a chair, shaking with laughter, while Dawkins and
Jervis Fanshawe stared at him wonderingly. Seeing me, he sat up, and
shook his head at me whimsically, and went off into another shout of
laughter.

"It's beautiful!" he cried--"it's wonderful! It only came to me on the
spur of the moment to say that she was here; I wanted to see if that
young fool would rise to the bait. And now he's gone off--and he's a
marked man; that constable's not likely to let him come near me again in
a hurry. Gone out like a whipped cur, with his tail between his legs. It
was beautiful!"

"And he's left you with the girl," said Dawkins, with his smile.

Murray Olivant sat up, and stared at him. "What--haven't you tumbled to
it yet?" he demanded. "There's no girl here--and there never has been.
She'll come here sooner or later, no doubt; but she's not here now."

"Oh, come, my dear Olivant, you can't bluff me, you know," exclaimed
Dawkins, beginning to show a little temper over the business. "The
girl's here right enough."

"Open the door and look for yourself," said Olivant composedly.
"Personally, I wish I could say that she had been here; but she hasn't."

Dawkins, after a glance at him, strode across the room, and flung open
the door; turned up the light, and went poking and prying about.
Fanshawe stood at the door of that inner room, and peered in also.
Dawkins came out, and closed the door again.

"There are no other rooms," said Olivant, still laughing--"except my
servant's room across the hall. You can go and look in there, if you
like."

"No, thank you," replied Dawkins. "But hang me if I thought it was a
bluff to begin with--and neither did the boy. More than that, I don't
quite see the object of it."

"Then I'll tell you," said Olivant, with a note of bitterness in his
voice. "He's gone away now, eating his heart out--mad with jealousy. If
he meets her to-morrow, and she holds out her arms to him, he'll most
likely turn away, and refuse to speak to her. Love's a frail thing, and
wants carefully nourishing. Now get out, and leave me in peace," he
added--"I'm tired."

Dawkins went at once; I think he saw the futility of attempting to speak
to his patron about the matter further at that time. Fanshawe and I were
just going also, when Murray Olivant, on a sudden impulse, as it seemed,
called us back.

"Just one moment; I want to speak to you," he said. I noticed that a
sudden seriousness had come over him; even the cigar he had picked up,
and from which he had savagely wrenched the end with his teeth, remained
unlighted. "Which of you knows anything about this young lady?"

"I don't," I replied at once, and looked at Fanshawe. For in my mind I
was certain then that Fanshawe had in some way or other, after
overhearing the conversation between Moggs and myself, contrived to get
Barbara away. Nothing would persuade me to trust the man.

"And you, Fanshawe?"

"What should I know about her?" was the nervous reply. "What is she to
do with me? You've got to manage this business for yourself, Mr.
Olivant; it seems to me that your policy is to make other people work
for you, and give them nothing but kicks in return. For my part, I wash
my hands of it."

I felt sure that he was lying; I was certain in my own mind that he knew
more than he would say. But, of course, I could say nothing then.

"You're very silent, Tinman," said Murray Olivant after a pause, during
which we had stood helplessly watching him. "What's your opinion of this
night's work?"

"My opinion is that Mr. Millard means to carry out his first threat," I
replied slowly. I saw him look up at me, and the match he had lighted
burned down to his fingers, so that he dropped it hurriedly. He made no
attempt to light another.

"To kill me?"

I nodded. "I've seen him, as you haven't seen him; and I know that his
life is wrapped up in this girl," I said earnestly. "He fears neither
God nor man in such a business as this--and he's gone away to-night,
believing that you have harmed her as you threatened--believing that she
is lost to him. He's gone out to-night with murder in his heart. Don't I
know that look--haven't I seen it?"

He threw away that second match, and laid down the cigar. After an
uneasy pause he said slowly: "Well--I know that--and I know you're
right. He's desperate, and perhaps with him I've gone a bit too far."

"Ah!" My relief at hearing him say that must have sounded in my voice,
for he turned upon me quickly, with a sudden new fierceness.

"Don't misunderstand me. I've taken a wrong move to-night, but I mean to
take another and a safer one. I'll not go back on what I mean to do;
I'll not knuckle under to a young cub like that. It shall be as if the
girl had really been here--only I'll work in a more secret fashion. I
have a love for plotting and mystery; I'll leave that young fool staring
up at these windows for a few days, and eating his heart out, and
thirsting for my blood; and I'll be comfortably slipping away elsewhere.
You shall help me, Tinman--and you too, Fanshawe--and I'll promise you
some sport."

"What are you going to do?" I asked.

"In the first place, I don't quite like the idea of being kept prisoner
here, under the fear of what may happen if I venture outside. The boy's
mad--but it's a sort of madness from which he may only wake when he has
stuck a knife into me, or has done something else that may bring him to
the gallows. That's too much of a risk for me; at the same time, I mean
to get the whip hand of him. You and Fanshawe shall help me."

"Willingly--very willingly," said Fanshawe, speaking mechanically, and
not raising his eyes. "You may trust us, Mr. Olivant; Tinman and I have
no life that is not concerned with you and your affairs. But for you we
must starve."

I looked at the despicable creature; I remembered what he had said to
me, and what he had promised that very night; I was glad to think that I
had not trusted him. I thought he looked at me strangely, when for a
moment he raised his eyes to me; there was a look in them I did not
understand.

"Well, I'm glad you recognize that fact," said Murray Olivant, with a
laugh. "That's been my way always: to pay people to do things for me I
don't care to do myself. You can listen, then, to my plans."

He was so exuberant about it, and chuckled so much to himself at the
thought of it, that it was some time before he began to set it forth;
and even then he prefaced the business with a sudden generous bringing
out of bottles and glasses for our entertainment. Fanshawe drank
greedily, with many slavish expressions of gratitude; I refused to take
anything. At last Murray Olivant, standing with his back to the fire,
and with a cigar stuck in the corner of his mouth, began to say what was
in his mind.

"Suppose that a certain man is threatened by another--goes, in fact, in
fear of his life from a madman; and suppose that it is not convenient
for him to have that other arrested, or cautioned, or withheld from what
he means to do by the law. In other words, he does not wish a certain
fair lady's name to be dragged into the light of day, and things said
about her. I have always been mighty sensitive on such matters," he
added complacently.

"You have indeed!" broke in Fanshawe, with a grin.

"Suppose I suddenly say that I am tired of the whole business, and that
I have made up my mind to go abroad, and to leave these people in peace
and security," went on Olivant. "Suppose I decide to take the faithful
Tinman with me; suppose I even go so far as to take tickets on a certain
steamer for the faithful Tinman and myself, and to publish the fact
abroad that I'm going. And then suppose, after that, that I never go at
all."

"But why not?" I asked helplessly; for I did not see his drift.

"Dolt! Everybody is expecting that I have gone; everybody knows that I
have gone; and our young friend Millard, who hasn't money enough to
follow me, and who has no reason for following me as I've left the coast
clear, is thrown off the scent. I slip away quietly from this place,
after sending a mountain of luggage--or no luggage at all, if it pleases
me; and I go to an obscure lodging where no one thinks of looking for
me. And in due course, after the vessel has sailed on which I am
supposed to be, our dear Fanshawe here--or our faithful Tinman--making
careful inquiries, discovers the lady, and brings her to me. I'm abroad,
and all suspicions are lulled; I am at home, and am playing out to a
finish the game I started upon."

I saw the fiendish ingenuity of the thing at once. This man would
publicly start off upon a voyage; his name would be entered upon the
list of passengers; and he would quietly lie in hiding in London. The
boy would feel that his vengeance had been snatched away from him; he
would give up the battle in despair--only to learn too late the trick
that had been played upon him. For my own part, I could do nothing;
because to warn Arnold Millard of that trick would be but to put him
more strongly and eagerly on the track of his enemy. I was powerless;
Olivant and Fanshawe would play the game out to the end, and I should
have to look on, a helpless spectator. There might be a faint chance
that the girl would not be found by either of them; on the other hand, I
had a shrewd suspicion that Fanshawe already knew where she was. I was
certain in my own mind that he had smuggled her away from the house in
which he lodged that very night; that explained his presence in Murray
Olivant's rooms at the time I reached them with the boy.

"You'll come here to-morrow, Tinman," said Olivant, with a yawn, "and
I'll give you money to get the tickets, and full instructions. Then I'll
tell you where to engage a lodging for me, and under what name. I mean
to play the game thoroughly, I assure you; not a living soul shall
suspect who I am; no one shall know till long afterwards that I have not
sailed for another country. It's a beautiful scheme; we'll work it out
to-morrow."

It was getting well into the small hours when I came down the stairs at
last, with Jervis Fanshawe at my heels. I could not trust myself then to
speak to him; I held him in such loathing that I was afraid of what I
might do. He spoke to me once as I walked away, but I paid no attention
to him. I walked on and on doggedly, wondering bitterly what I should
do, and realizing more every moment how helpless I was; seeing only that
I was beating feeble hands against a wall that I could not break down.

Suddenly he plucked me by the sleeve in a quiet street through which we
were passing; I turned suddenly, and faced him. As he shrank away from
me, my rage overmastered me, and I caught him by the throat and forced
him to his knees.

"Where are you driving me?" I demanded hoarsely. "Is not once enough, in
a lifetime such as yours, to strive to ruin a woman; is there no mercy
in your black heart at all?"

"You don't understand," he faltered.

"I understand only too well," I retorted savagely. "Was it for this you
met me when I came from prison; was it for this that you have drawn me
on and on, until I am as desperately involved in this business as
yourself? What of your lying promises--your pleadings that I would trust
you?"

"Indeed--indeed I only mean well--indeed I want to help her!" he
exclaimed, staggering to his feet, and trying to pull my hands away from
his collar. "I can't tell you; I can't explain."

"The dead woman you have seen--whose eyes have looked into yours--did
she teach you nothing?" I demanded.

He suddenly covered his face with his hands, and shuddered. "She taught
me something I shall not forget," he whispered. "Only I must go on and
on; I dare not look back. I have set my hand to something, and I will
not stop now!" He raised his haggard face to the sky, and if I had not
had that desperate hatred of him in my heart, I must have been moved by
the strange look upon it.

"No, you will not turn back, until you have brought this child to ruin
and disgrace," I said. "But it may be given to me to spoil your game
yet; this new move on the part of Olivant may lead to something he has
not reckoned upon--or you either."

"Yes, it may," he said; and he seemed to shudder again.

A clock near at hand in a church tower struck three over the sleeping
city. I told Fanshawe I would not go back with him then; I would walk
the streets until daylight. He tried to dissuade me from that, but
seeing that I had made up my mind he presently turned away, and set off
towards his lodging. I tramped the streets until dawn--staring now and
then into the faces of poor wanderers that flitted past me, in the vain
hope of seeing the girl; but there was no face like hers.

I got some breakfast at a coffee stall, and felt refreshed and less
hopeless. As I turned to go away, I heard a voice beside me giving an
order for some coffee; I turned quickly, and saw that it was young
Arnold Millard. He looked forlorn and tired and haggard; I was doubtful
at first whether to speak to him. I decided, however, that I might do
some good, if I persuaded him that Murray Olivant was about to leave the
country; it might at least drive out of his mind the murderous thought
that obsessed it then. I ventured to touch his sleeve; he looked round
quickly, and recognized me.

"Well, what do you want?" he asked.

"I wanted to say something about last night, sir," I replied in a
whisper. "Surely it was better I should prevent you from doing what was
in your mind."

He took the cup of coffee from the man, and began to drink it, without
replying to me. I went on speaking after a moment or two in an eager
whisper.

"He lied to you, the young lady was not there at all," I said. "More
than that, he's failed to get hold of her, and he's giving up the game.
He goes abroad to-morrow. And I don't know where the young lady is."

He looked at me over the cup he held, and spoke sternly. "It's a
lie--and you know it," he said slowly. "Look me in my eyes now--fair and
square--and tell me that he's going away."

I suppose I was never a good hand at that business of deceit; I tried
now to raise my eyes to his; tried to get some words out that should
bravely defend the statement I had made. But the words would not come,
and my eyes fell. I turned away hurriedly, and I heard his derisive
laughter echoing after me as I went. I knew that I had only made matters
worse.

I had gone but a few yards when he overtook me; seized me roughly by the
shoulder, and swung me round, so that I faced him. "You are his servant
and his slave," he said contemptuously, "and so I suppose you must lie
for the sake of your bread and butter. But tell him that his lies won't
serve him; tell him that my mind is as firmly made up about him as it
ever will be about anything. I know he's hiding from me--but that shan't
serve him. Tell him from me that I mean to kill him, just as I said I
would. It's his body for her soul: a fair exchange!"

I would have protested further, but he waved me aside impatiently, and
strode off into the darkness. I wondered then if there was any man in
London that morning quite so miserable as I was: any man who had failed
in everything he had undertaken as I had failed. I had started out so
well, with such high hopes and such high ideals--and, lo! they had all
come to nothing, and it was written that I was to fail again.

I carried that thought with me through all the long day. It was with me
when presently I went to Murray Olivant's flat, and stood with apparent
humility before him, while he looked through his letters and toyed with
his breakfast; it was with me when he put the money into my hands that
was to pay, in part, for his trick--that money with which I was to
purchase the steamer tickets. He had decided to go by a comparatively
small vessel to the Mediterranean; or, at all events, to let it be
thought that he was going by that vessel. I remember that it was called
the _Eaglet_; and he kept up that mad trick so that he was even careful
as to the choosing of his cabin. I was supposed to accompany him, and a
berth was engaged for me.

I went back to him later in the day, carrying the tickets with me. I
found the place in disorder, and the manservant covering everything up,
and locking drawers and cupboards; Olivant himself was destroying a
great mass of letters. So thorough was the business that I observed with
some surprise some new clothing, of a cheaper and commoner pattern than
that usually worn by him; it was only after the manservant had left the
room that he told me what this clothing was intended for.

"I do everything thoroughly, Tinman," he said, with a chuckle.
"Everything here is packed up and left; Murray Olivant walks out of the
place, and disappears from that moment. The world believes he goes on
board the _Eaglet_, to start for a pleasure cruise. As a matter of fact
he goes in those clothes"--he pointed to the new garments I had before
noticed--"and he turns up in another place, and under another name. You
will know that other place, because you will be there with me; and
Jervis Fanshawe will know it also; but that's all. I shall not have a
scrap of paper about me, nor a mark on my clothes by which any one can
point to me and say, 'That's Murray Olivant!' I'm going to begin a new
life with that sweet child Barbara (she's bound to be found; she'll be
glad enough to come back to me)--and I shall keep that life up for just
as long as I wish. I'm taking money enough to last me, in a modest way,
until I resurrect Murray Olivant, and bring him back again."

I was busied all that day on various errands for him; it was late in the
evening when he suddenly put a newspaper before me, and pointed to an
advertisement. "That's the place for me," he said; "top rooms, and quiet
and secluded. Do you know Lincoln's Inn Fields?"

I stared at the paper; it shook and rustled in my fingers. "I wouldn't
go there," I said, while a great trembling seized upon me. "I wouldn't
go there if I were you."

"Why, what's the matter with the man?" He snatched the paper from me,
and laughed. "Do you think the place will be too dreary, or too quiet?
Or do you think I might see ghosts there?"

"I think you might see ghosts there," I replied.

"Well, I'm not afraid of that," he retorted. "Go at once and see the
people; if the rooms are all right, take them. Here's money; pay a
quarter in advance. You need not give any names, or anything of that
sort; it's a small place, and the money ought to be sufficient."

It was at that moment that there came a knock at the outer door;
immediately afterwards Jervis Fanshawe was announced. Murray Olivant,
who seemed elated at the prospect of his new adventure, pointed to the
advertisement, and showed it to Fanshawe.

"Tinman here doesn't seem to like the idea of Lincoln's Inn Fields,"
said Olivant with a laugh. "What's your opinion, Fanshawe?"

Jervis Fanshawe stared at the newspaper for a moment or two; then he
raised his eyes to mine. It seemed in that moment, as he looked at me,
that there was a frightened look in his face; I wondered if he read my
own thoughts. "Yes," he said, turning to Olivant, and handing back the
newspaper, "I should think Lincoln's Inn Fields is the very spot."

I secured the rooms within an hour. It was strange to me to walk again
in that place, over whose pavements my uneasy feet had trod twenty years
before, that time I waited for Gavin Hockley. I was glad to find that
the rooms were not in that building; but they were too close at hand to
be pleasant. I walked away, with the old thoughts beginning to surge up
again in my brain; and once again I was desperately afraid. I knew that
some grim Fate was driving me on; I could only set my weak shoulders
against the storm that pressed me forward; but I was powerless to stay
the force of it.

I came away from the flat, leaving Jervis Fanshawe and the manservant
still there. I understood that the manservant was to be sent away that
night, and the flat locked up. I walked to the lodging that the elder
Barbara had taken; I felt that I owed it to her to tell her at least
that her child was gone, but was safe from Murray Olivant. The decent
woman who opened the door to me told me that "Mrs. Avaline" was at home;
it had only occurred to me at the last moment to ask for her in that
name she had given herself.

Barbara met me at the door of the room; she held out her hands to me,
and seemed, I thought, strangely excited. Nor would she for a moment let
me into the room; she stood there looking at me, and I felt her hands
tremble in mine.

"Guess--guess what has happened!" she whispered; and at the look in her
eyes I suddenly felt myself trembling too. I thrust her aside, and went
quickly into the little shabby room. A lamp was burning on the table,
and some needlework lay beside it. And on a couch under the window lay
that younger Barbara--peacefully sleeping.

I stood there, looking down at her like a man in a dream; I could not
understand what had happened. It was only when the mother began to speak
to me in her quiet voice that I understood how she had found the child.

"I wanted to see you--to be near you; I went to that address you had
told me, where you were living with Fanshawe," she said softly. "I
waited about, afraid to go in; and while I waited there I saw you come
out with the man I suppose must have been Murray Olivant--the man I had
seen down at Hammerstone Market. I could not speak to you then; I waited
in the hope that you would return. And while I waited I saw this dear
girl come stealing out of the place like a frightened ghost; I knew, of
course, who she was, because I had seen her down at the old house, and
because she is so like what I was so long ago. She did not know me, of
course; she never will know me; but when I spoke to her she seemed to
turn in her distress and fear to me instinctively. She came here with me
willingly; she will be safe here for the present."

"Thank God!" I whispered, as I looked down at the sleeping girl. "This
is all as it should be; now we can decide what is best to be done."

"I mean to take her back to her father," she said quietly. Then, as I
started and looked at her, she shook her head quietly, and smiled.
"Don't be afraid, Charlie; I'm not going back to him myself. I could not
do that now. But the girl is different; the girl must go back to the
home that is hers--and to her father."

"There to be found by Murray Olivant whenever he likes," I reminded her.
"You have forgotten that. You--an unknown woman; I--a felon and an
outcast; what can we do to protect her against him?" I stood there
looking down at the sleeping girl; my heart was beating fast. "But I
think I know the way," I said slowly.

"You know the way?" She was looking at me keenly.

"Yes, the way I took before," I whispered, without looking at her. "God
is good; he has given my enemy into my hands at last!"




                              CHAPTER X

                              TOO LATE!


For now it all seemed straight and plain before me; now I saw clearly
the pointing finger of Fate, and trembled no more at the task I had to
face. Who was I, that I should ever have hung back at all, or should
ever have dreaded the road on which my feet had been firmly set from the
first. I looked down at the sleeping girl, and my heart was filled with
a great gratitude that God had snatched me from death and from prison,
and had reserved me for this. I thanked Him humbly that there was no
other man in all the wide world so trained and fitted for the task as I
was.

I saw it all clearly enough at last. The time was coming when this poor
tangled love story would be set right; when the boy would come naturally
and by instinct to the girl, and would take her in his arms, with a very
perfect understanding of her purity and her innocence; so much had been
ordained from the first. If they gave a thought to me, it would only be
as the poor unknown grey-headed man that had been called Tinman, and had
flitted into their lives for a brief hour, and flitted out again, and so
been done with. Even the woman who stood beside me--that elder
Barbara--was only mercifully permitted to look on at the completion of
the love story she and I might have lived ourselves. After all, God had
been very good to me.

"I don't understand," Barbara was saying to me, as we stood beside the
sleeping girl. "What way will you take?--what will you do?"

"You will know presently," I whispered, lest I should wake the sleeper.
"In any case, I want you to promise one thing: I want you to take the
girl back to her father, and to leave her safely in his hands. Promise
me--swear to me that nothing shall turn you from that purpose; nothing
that you hear--nothing that you suspect. All that I hope to do, and all
that I shall strive to do, will be brought to naught if you fail me in
that."

"I promise, my dear," she said solemnly. "But Olivant?"

"Will trouble her no more," I replied. "I wonder if you remember what I
said to you once--twenty long years ago?"

"I hope I remember," she whispered. "Say the words again."

"I lay under sentence of death; I was to die the next morning. You came
to me; you had travelled hard and fast to reach me before they killed
me. Do you remember?"

She bowed her head, and whispered that she did. I went on--repeating the
words I had used so long before; they had been in my mind many many
times since, and I had not forgotten them.

"This is what I said to you. 'In the years that are coming it may
happen, in God's own good time, that some child you love may stand in
need of a friend who will strike as I struck--fight as I fought--for her
honour. It may happen, long after I am dead and forgotten by all but
you, that some such an one may spring up, to do again more perfectly
what I did--springing from the dead ashes of my past to work out the
pitiful story I began.' Do you remember?"

"Perfectly," she whispered; and now she looked at me with startled eyes.

"I never thought then," I went on, "that it would fall to me to do again
what I did then; I was as one dead when I spoke those words. But all
things have fitted in so wonderfully and so strangely; there is no
drawing back for me, and there is no one else who can strike the
blow--no one with a greater right."

She drew me away out of the room, and closed the door; we stood together
on the landing outside, looking into each other's eyes--I very calm and
resolute, and she trembling and afraid.

"You must not think of it," she whispered; "you must never think of it.
There must be some other way--some better way. Not again, Charlie--for
the love of God!--not again!"

"There is no other way," I replied. "It is her soul against his body;
when you think of that, there is no question. Besides, what does it
matter? In the sight of men my hands are stained with blood----"

(She seized my hands suddenly, and put her lips to them!)

"--And at the worst it may happen that I pay the penalty I earned
before. Besides," I added solemnly, "I do not do this of myself. Step by
step--day by day--I have seen what was coming; I dare not draw back now,
whatever happens. If it is a crime, then the man himself has drawn it
down upon his own head. Think of what he has done: to get hold of this
girl he has banished himself out of the world; has played a trick, to
persuade people that he is going on a long voyage, while in reality he
is in hiding--waiting like a spider in his web--crouching ready to
spring. Think of that, Barbara; if I kill him to-night, I kill a man who
has no name, who is unknown; Murray Olivant will be in another place
altogether. For his own purposes he has covered up my footsteps--the
footsteps of the man setting out to kill him. There is a fate in this; I
dare not draw back."

She clung to me, and begged that I would think of her and of the girl;
implored me to remember that whereas the crime for which I had been shut
away before was one of personal vengeance, with the hot blood of youth
for excuse, this was a deliberate thing, done for others with whom I was
not personally concerned. Upon that point, however, I threw a new light.

"The girl sleeping there is but the image of the Barbara I loved; the
boy who would strike this blow, if I did not, represents what I
was--must represent in the future what I might have been under happier
circumstances. I strike now for the love I bore you, Barbara, and bear
you still; and because I know that if I do not this boy must step in,
and commit the crime for which I suffered through twenty long years.
There is no hope that he will turn back, any more than there is any hope
that Murray Olivant will give up his purpose."

She wept and implored me; to comfort her a little I presently promised
that if I saw any other way I would take it; but in my own heart I knew
there was no other way.

"Remember--my dear--my dear," she pleaded, "that we have both had to
suffer so much--to lose so much--to give up so much. Remember, too, what
my position is now; that it is my fate to stand as a mere kindly
stranger beside my child, and never to let her know who I really am. I
must live out my life alone, as I have lived it these many years; I
cannot go back now; the old Barbara Savell lies in the depths of the
sea. That is my punishment, Charlie; don't make it harder to bear than
it is."

I went out into the streets, and made my way to the rooms occupied by
Fanshawe. Not that I wanted to see the man: I hated him too cordially
for that; but that I felt I must be strong for the work that was before
me, and must get some proper rest. I was worn out already with that long
night spent in tramping about the streets; I knew I must sleep, if sleep
was possible; I set all my mind upon that, because so much depended on
whether my nerves served me well when the time came for what I had to
do.

Fanshawe was out when I arrived, but he came back within a few
minutes--coming into the room in some excitement, I thought, as though
he had been hurried. He tossed his hat on to the bed, and came across to
where I was seated, and clapped me on the shoulder jocosely.

"Well, my Charlie!" he exclaimed, "what's the news with you--eh?"

I looked up at him sourly enough. "No news," I replied.

"No sign of the girl yet? No whisper of where she is?"

I faced round upon him angrily. "Leave her name alone," I said. "If I
knew anything I shouldn't tell you, and I warn you that if you try to
meddle in any way in the matter, you'll have to reckon with me in a
fashion you little suspect. Mind--I mean it!"

I had half expected that he would fly into a passion, as I had seen him
do on other occasions; instead, he looked at me almost wistfully out of
his deep eyes for a moment before he turned away.

"You won't understand, Charlie," he said. "I only want to help the
girl--I only want her to think well of me."

I laughed at him openly; I thought he played the game poorly enough; I
felt that he had perhaps got a notion that if he was soft with me, I
might be led to tell him anything I knew. I hardened my heart; for I had
had too much of this man not to be able to judge him for what he really
was.

He brought out some liquor presently, and I, being faint and weary,
readily drank with him. Not a word was said for a long time; until
presently, leaning across the table, and tapping upon it with his long
bony fingers, he whispered a word or two that startled me.

"Charlie--Charlie!" Then, as I glanced up at him, and saw his hungry
eyes fixed upon me, he went on in tones little above a whisper, and with
a curious mocking grin on his face: "Charlie!--how does it feel to kill
a man?"

I turned round slowly; I saw in a moment that he had read my secret. My
fear was not that he might do anything to me; my only dread was that he
might warn Murray Olivant, if indeed he had not already done so.

"What do you mean?" I asked hoarsely.

"You're a man of evil passions, Charlie--of hot and sudden passions," he
said. "Twenty years ago you killed Gavin Hockley--struck him down, as
you might have struck any noxious beast in your way. Your blood was up,
Charlie"--he had risen excitedly to his feet, and was leaning across the
table towards me, with his hands gripping the edges, and his eyeballs
almost starting from their sockets--"you were like a man rushing into
battle, caring nothing for what you did. That was fine--that was noble;
but afterwards, Charlie--afterwards?"

"I don't understand you," I said feebly.

"When the thing was done; when you crept out into the streets, knowing
what you'd left behind you. Tell me, Charlie--tell me; did it creep down
the stairs in your wake--bloody and horrible; did you hear its feet
pattering on the stones in quiet streets; did you look over your
shoulder, and see its glazing eyes staring at you--its mouth with the
drooping jaw striving to scream 'Murder!' after you? Tell me, Charlie."

"I forget," I replied. "After all--what does it matter now?"

"But suppose, Charlie--only suppose," he went on, in that same hoarse
whisper--"imagine for a moment that you set out to do it again?"

I sprang to my feet, and confronted him. "What madman's talk is this?" I
demanded, with a glance at the door. "What are you talking about?"

"Suppose, Charlie," he went on, paying no heed to my
excitement--"suppose that this time you set out--not in the heat of
passion--not because the man had injured you--but to do it in cold
blood! Suppose you crept up his stair--and listened at his door--and
stole in upon him----"

I clapped my hand suddenly over his lips. "Silence!" I cried--"you don't
know what you're talking about. I've forgotten all I did; it's twenty
long years ago. Don't remind me of it." For I thought in that way I
might divert his thoughts into another channel; I was firmly persuaded
that in some amazing fashion he had guessed what I was about to do, and
was endeavouring to screw the truth of it out of me.

He had dropped back into his chair, and was looking at me cunningly
between half-closed lids. I had determined by that time that he should
not stop me; I was certain of that, even while I realized that the time
must surely come when he would denounce me, and cry out that I had done
this thing. The thought of that did not stay me in the least; I meant to
go on. But the natural desire to shield myself, if possible--the sheer
human instinct of self-preservation--told me that I must if possible
throw him off the scent. I began to talk to him with what ease I might.

"Come, Fanshawe--it's not for you and me to talk of murder," I said.
"Why should I do again what I have done once already? What reason would
there be in it?"

"No reason--no reason at all, Charlie," he said, plucking at his lips
with his long fingers, and watching me. "I don't know what put the idea
into my mind to-night--I don't know what made me think of it. Only I
would give something to know just what a man feels, when he creeps away,
and leaves behind him that dead thing that was but a moment before alive
and strong. It would be something to know what one feels like then. And
the weapon, Charlie--what of the weapon?"

I remembered then that I had seen that day in a marine-store dealer's,
not a hundred yards from the place where now we talked, the weapon I
meant to serve my purpose. It was a strong sailor's knife in a leather
sheath--a powerful thing, with a hilt well worn by hands that had
grasped it many times; I had stood outside the shop, and had looked at
my own hand, and had felt how perfectly it would fit round the handle. I
stared at him now as he spoke, and wondered if by any chance he had seen
me looking in at that window, and had read my thoughts.

"You know the weapon I used," I said, in a low voice. "It was an old
sword."

"I know, Charlie--I know," he said, nodding. "But if you did it
again--if you wanted to do it more quickly and more cleanly--what then?
A knife's a good weapon; what about a knife, Charlie?"

I felt sick and faint; I got up, and went to the window, and threw it
open. It was a fine night--a night of stars and of peace, even with
London throbbing in the streets down below me. I thought of the child
who had lain asleep--of the mother who watched over her; I thought of
the man who was plotting against that little Barbara, and my heart
hardened. Though a hundred Fanshawes stood in the way, I meant that this
thing should be done, and that the man should die. I had bungled it
somehow, so that Fanshawe knew; I must pay the penalty of that
afterwards. One thought was in my mind, and one only: he should not stop
me.

"Have you seen the boy--young Arnold Millard?" I asked, more for the
sake of saying something than in the hope of gaining information.

"I saw him to-day," replied Fanshawe slowly: "still hanging about that
place. I wonder what would happen if by chance he found out where
Olivant is going?"

"I'm afraid we know what would happen," I replied. "What's the use of
talking about it?"

It seemed impossible for him to get away from that subject; he came back
to it again and again. I remember that he crossed the room, and came and
stood near to me, looking down into the street, and speaking in a
whisper.

"If a man struck down another like that--for a fine noble reason,
Charlie--would that be wrong? I mean, would it be so vile as it might be
if a man did it for any worse motive? If he did it--and escaped; for how
long would it haunt him afterwards? You remember, Charlie; for how long
did you think about it--and remember it? Did the blood-stained thing
come to you in dreams--mock at you, and haunt you. One would like to
know that."

"Look here," I said roughly. "You've got some strange idea in your
head."

"No--no; not in my head, Charlie; I was only supposing--putting a case,"
he broke in hurriedly.

"Well, don't suppose--and don't put cases," I cried savagely. "All that
has been done is done with; why should you rake it up? Am I likely to do
again what I did before?--to put my neck once again in the noose?"

"No, Charlie," he faltered--"of course not."

"Very well, then--leave it alone," I urged. "I'm worn out, and I need
sleep; I mustn't be late to-morrow; there are many things to be seen
to."

He said he would sit up for a time; at his suggestion I threw myself
down on the bed, dressed as I was, and fell asleep. The last vision I
had of him was as he sat at the table, with a flaring candle throwing
ghostly shadows of him on the wall and ceiling, and with his plucking
hands for ever at his lips. He watched me, even as I watched him, out of
half-closed eyes; I wondered how much he knew, or how much he guessed.

I woke long after daylight, to find him gone. There was for a moment in
my heart that little swift pang of excitement that comes to any one of
us, when, on waking, we remember some urgent and difficult thing that
has to be done before we sleep again--a journey, or an interview, or
anything else shut in between sunrise and sunset of one particular date;
but no more than that. I had no worldly affairs to set right--no one I
need consult; no peace to make with any one. I had long ago told myself
that this was right, and that to this end I must surely come. In doing
it I was to save two people: the girl in the first place, and the boy in
the second. For I knew inevitably that young Arnold Millard would carry
out his threat, and that, too, with less hesitation if he found his
enemy hidden away, as Murray Olivant was to be hidden away that day.

I went again to the marine-store dealer's; saw with satisfaction that
the knife was still there. I had money in my pocket--part of the amount
that had been handed to me on the previous day by Olivant; I went into
the shop, and asked that I might look at the knife. A dingy old man
behind the counter adjusted his spectacles to look at me; perhaps he
wondered that a tall grey-haired man, with bowed shoulders and with a
respectable black suit on, should want such a weapon as that. But he
pulled it out of the window, and spread it out before me; I muttered
something about wanting it for a present. I pulled it out from its
sheath, and felt the edge of it; there was a deadly sharpness about it
that made me shudder involuntarily, as I remembered where that sharpness
was to be planted.

It was old and well-worn, but in good condition; the sheath was
suspended from a narrow black belt, meant to buckle round the waist. I
did not care to put it on there; I got the man to wrap it up for me,
paid him for it, and came away. Presently, in a quiet street, I tore
away the paper wrapping, and buckled the thing round my waist, setting
the sheath in such a way at my back that I could easily reach the hilt
of the knife. Then I buttoned my coat, and went on towards Lincoln's Inn
Fields.

When I got there I found that Olivant had not yet arrived; it flashed
across me in a moment that he did not even know yet that I had secured
the rooms, and that he would be waiting until I could reach him, and
give him the keys of the place. Cursing myself for my carelessness, and
fearing that he might decide after all, on some whim, not to take the
rooms, I hurried off to his flat. I climbed the stairs to reach it, and
knocked at the door.

After some little delay he opened the door himself, and peered out at
me; flung the door wide, on seeing who it was, and let me in. He was in
his dressing gown, and as he strode across the hall and into his
sitting-room I remembered suddenly that the manservant had been sent
away the night before, and that Olivant was alone there. A sudden
feeling that I might do it then swept over me, and my hand instinctively
went to the knife at my back.

I was sane enough to remember in a moment that I had been seen coming
and going from that place over and over again; to remember also that
young Millard had waited outside there, and had forced his way into
those rooms, and had been ejected from them. That momentary impulse on
my part, if carried out, might ruin everything; I must wait until Murray
Olivant had voluntarily hidden himself.

He was in a vile temper; in sending away his manservant he had forgotten
that he could get no breakfast without the man's assistance. I hurriedly
set to work to prepare coffee; he fumed about the rooms, roundly cursing
me, and declaring over and over again that he'd give up this fool's
business, and remain comfortably where he was.

"I've been in too much of a hurry," he declared. "I might have known I
should have to suffer every sort of discomfort; I ought not to have been
afraid of what Millard would do. It's absurd."

"The rooms are taken, and they're very snug and comfortable," I reminded
him. "You'll have the laugh of every one if you slip off there. The
thing has been so well planned."

"So it has," he replied, with a smile breaking over his face. "By
Jove!--you're right there, Tinman; it's been devilishly well planned. As
soon as I've had my breakfast I'll slip out--(by the back way, Tinman,
for fear of accidents)--and later in the day I'll make my way to
Lincoln's Inn Fields. I'll wander about for a bit--enjoying a new sort
of freedom; dine somewhere quietly, and go there this evening. Have you
got in a stock of what I shall need--wines and spirits, and so forth?"

I assured him that he would find everything he required; I left the keys
with him, explaining carefully which of them fitted the various doors.
One thing only I did not tell him: that I had a duplicate key of the
outer door, given to me by the agents from whom I had taken the place.
They had explained to me that the rooms had been previously occupied by
two friends, so that the second key had been necessary. I remember that
when that second key came into my hands I felt again that Fate had
played her cards well, and had given me all I asked, and more.

"I don't quite know what time I shall be there, Tinman," said Olivant,
just before I left. "You can hang about a bit if I'm not there, and wait
till I come. I'm expecting Jervis Fanshawe to come here this morning; he
may have some news for me. By the way, don't blunder over this, Tinman."

"Blunder?" I stared at him stupidly.

"Yes; don't be telling people that I'm still in London; remember that
I've sailed on the Eaglet, and that I'm not coming back for months. Tell
everybody that. And if you see Fanshawe at his lodgings, send him to me
at once."

I decided, of course, that I would not do that in any case. Already I
began to fear that what I had said I should do would not be done after
all; Fanshawe had guessed my secret, and was going that morning to see
Olivant; obviously the first thing he would do would be to put Olivant
upon his guard. I wondered how Fanshawe had come to guess what I had
believed to be so securely locked in my own heart; I blamed myself that
I had not been more careful in guarding the very expression of my face.
However, I knew that I must risk all now upon the one throw.

The events of that day are stamped clearly enough upon my recollection;
almost I seem to see myself walking again through the streets, waiting
for the hour when I could make for Lincoln's Inn Fields. Just as on that
other occasion, when I had set about a similar business, so now I found
myself going back to scenes I knew, and looking again at various places,
as it were for the last time. For I had counted my chances; and I knew
that even while every door seemed closed that could by any possibility
let suspicion in, one might be standing open, and I unable to see it. If
once Murray Olivant were recognized, that confidential servant who had
been seen about with him must be looked for; must be discovered to be a
certain Charles Avaline--who had killed a man before, and barely escaped
the gallows for his crime. I counted the chances, and the scale weighed
heavily against me.

I drifted back in the course of that long day to the rooms from which
Murray Olivant must long since have gone, and there caught a glimpse of
a lurking figure that I knew must be Arnold Millard. He did not see me;
he was doggedly pacing up and down, watching that empty cage, and
waiting for his man, who would not come out of that place again.

Then I went to the lodging where Barbara and the girl had been the night
before; I wondered if Barbara had yet kept her promise to take the girl
away, back to her father. Surely in time, I thought, young Millard must
drift back there, and meet the girl; and so round off the love story in
which I was so strongly interested.

I found I could not eat; twice I had gone into various places, and
ordered a meal, and left the food untouched. And yet I did not seem to
need food; all sensation seemed dead within me, or at all events only
sharpened to the point of what I had to do. And so at last I came in the
dusk into Lincoln's Inn Fields; found the house, and climbed the stairs.

I listened at the door for a moment or two; then softly pushed the key
into the lock, and passed into the rooms. They were in darkness, and for
a moment or two I stood listening, wondering if the man had yet arrived.
Then I called his name, and heard it echoing through the ghostly silent
place, and coming back at me as though in mockery--

"Mr. Olivant! Mr. Olivant!"

I came out again, and lingered about near the house. There were few
people about at that time; only once a pair of lovers passed me, as
another pair of lovers, twenty years before, had walked in front of me
on such a night in that place. I found myself wondering idly what had
become of that first pair; whether they had been parted, or whether they
had married, or what had become of them. Even while I thought that, I
saw Murray Olivant striding along the pavement in the distance, with his
cigar stuck in one corner of his mouth, and a thin trail of smoke
floating behind him.

I got out of the way hurriedly, and let him go into the house without
seeing me. I stood there, trying to think how he would climb the
stairs--how long it would take him to reach this landing, and now that;
so many more moments for his fumbling with a lock he did not understand;
and now he was in the place, waiting for me!

And then all at once I felt that I could not do it. I turned away, sick
at heart; I began to invent excuses why I should not do it. I had soiled
my hands once with blood in my own cause; I would not do it again for
another. I was afraid; I weakly told myself that another way would be
found, and that Murray Olivant's triumph would be cut short. But not by
me.

I went away into the busier streets, and I walked about for more than an
hour. It was quite dark when I got back at last to the place, and even
then I think I had made up my mind that I could not do it. I found
myself praying, as I went up the stairs, that he might insult me--might
even attack or strike me--so that I might be forced to do the thing, and
to do it not in cold blood. If only it might be a matter of
fighting--some desperate business that should nerve my arm for the one
necessary moment--then I would not mind.

I climbed the stairs, and reached the door of the rooms. As I fumbled
for my key, I suddenly discovered that the door was open a couple of
inches; I put my hands against it, and went quietly in. The place was in
darkness; but I remember that I had that curious feeling that one has,
even in the darkness, that there was some one there near me. I called
out the man's name again, as I had done before--

"Mr. Olivant! Mr. Olivant!"

Only the echoes floated back to me; I could not understand what the
silence meant. At last with trembling fingers I got out a match-box, and
struck a light, and looked about me.

I saw that the table had been set out with a decanter and a glass; there
was a half-smoked cigar lying there, and it had burnt a hole in the
faded table-cloth. A candlestick had been overturned, and the candle had
rolled away a few inches from it. I set them upright, and put the match
to the candle. In doing that I came to the edge of the table, and
mechanically looked over; I started back with a cry.

Murray Olivant was there in his own rooms, after all. But he lay stiff
and stark, with his face upturned to the ceiling, and his dead eyes
staring up at me. He was stone dead; his hand still gripped the knife
that had been plunged straight into his breast, as though in his death
agony he would have torn it out.

I was too late; some one had been there before me.




                              CHAPTER XI

                           I TELL THE TRUTH


My first thought, after that ghastly discovery, was to run to the outer
door and close it. After that, the mere coming back into the room was an
effort; I was afraid of that grim thing lying there, stark and still,
with the knife sticking in its breast--afraid most of all of what it
suggested.

For I saw now that a hatred greater and deeper than mine had pursued
this man, and had struck him down before my slower vengeance could reach
him. As I stood in the room, in that silence greater than any silence I
had known before, I realized that all that I had feared, and all that I
had fought against had happened, after all: the boy had been here before
me, and had struck down his enemy. There was no doubt about that at all:
all the precautions Murray Olivant had taken had availed him nothing.
Surely and resolutely young Arnold Millard had tracked him down, and had
killed him, as he had sworn to do.

I stood there by the table for what seemed a long time, wondering what I
should do. For now the instinct to cover up this crime was stronger in
me than it would have been had the man been struck down by my own hands.
In a pitiful fashion I knew the business, and had paid the penalty of it
before; I should have gone into it, and indeed had meant to go into it,
with my eyes open, knowing well the desperate risk I ran. But with the
boy it was different; he was only poor Charlie Avaline again, of twenty
years before, who had flung himself upon this man in sheer bitter rage,
and without thought of what he must pay for the blow.

I looked about the room. A chair had been overturned, and I guessed that
Murray Olivant had made something of a struggle with his murderer, but
had had no chance really to defend himself. The candle I had seen
knocked over seemed to suggest that the man who had struck the blow had
knocked over the light, in sheer horror of that dying face staring up at
him: that seemed natural enough. There was nothing else disturbed; a
glass upon the table held a little whisky and soda still, and on the rim
of it were to be seen the impression of the lips of the drinker. The
cigar that had burnt its way into the table-cloth had long since gone
out. The whole place was unnaturally still.

I stood there looking down at the dead man; for if the truth be told I
dared not put the table between us; there was an uncanny feeling in me
that he might stir, and get up, and come towards me--dead, and yet
moving--with that knife sticking out of him. I kept near him, that I
might be sure where he was, and above all that he was still. And I began
to calculate the chances again--not for myself this time, but for the
boy.

For in this, of course, I had the advantage of a dreadful experience. I
seemed to know that Arnold Millard would strike down his man without
fear of any consequences--without thought of any penalty he might have
to pay. That done, he would walk out of the place, and would take his
way through the streets, not caring greatly what happened to him. I had
done that, ever so many years before; and therein I had been mistaken. I
had walked straight into the arms of those who waited for me; I had not
cared. But this boy _must_ care; in a sense, he must be saved from
himself. There was no one now that could guide him out of the labyrinth
into which he had gone but myself; I only knew where the hammers were
going, and where the scaffold was being built, with its black arm
pointing to the grave; I only could meet him on that road, and from
bitter experience turn him aside, and show him another secret road to
travel--a road by which he might escape. I blessed God for my knowledge
then.

In the dread silence of the room I found myself addressing the dead man;
leaning over the table to look down at him fearfully, as though he could
hear me.

"It may be that _you_ will save him, after all," I whispered. "You have
hidden yourself here--you are an unknown man; they cannot find out
anything about you. If he is silent, it may happen that no one will ever
suspect. But will he be silent?--that is the point. Or will he feel, in
a cooler moment, that this deed cuts him off for ever from those for
whose sake it was done. What will he do?"

Once again I found myself counting and calculating the chances--not for
myself, but for another this time. In some strange fashion the boy must
have tracked Murray Olivant to this place; must have struck him down;
and must now be wandering, with that brand of Cain upon him, fighting
the desperate battle with himself that a man must fight who has in one
moment put himself outside the sphere of ordinary things; and so is
hiding and dodging in a crowded world to escape.

I remembered that certain steamer tickets had been bought, in order to
carry out that deception which had after all been useless; I knew that
those tickets must be in the possession of the dead man. With the
cowardice of one who puts off what he knows to be inevitable until the
last moment, I searched everywhere for them about the room--looking on
the mantelshelf, and in a small new portmanteau in the inner
room--everywhere but where I knew instinctively they must be. Then at
last, when there was nothing else to be done, I turned to the man
himself, and knelt beside him.

Even as I did so I raised my head, and listened. The night was very
still and windless; there was not a sound anywhere about the house. But
I had distinctly heard the scrape of a footstep on the landing
outside--that, and the movement of some one against the door. I got up
very slowly and stealthily from my knees, and suddenly blew out the
candle; then I felt my way to the door of the room, and stood listening
again.

There was a small lobby outside this room, and at the further side of it
the door leading to the staircase. While I stood there, I distinctly
heard some one pressing against the door: heard the heavy breathing of
some one who was evidently striving to peer through the keyhole. I stood
perfectly still in the darkness, and listened; heard cautious footsteps
moving away from the door, and then with greater confidence going more
loudly down the stairs. And I knew instinctively that the murderer had
been there, and had gone away again.

There had been a sudden thought in my mind for a moment that I would
follow him; would overtake him, and so, coming face to face with him,
make him understand that I knew the truth. With that understanding there
might have come the knowledge that I was his friend, who had suffered
just as he must be suffering now, and who was ready and willing to help
him. But that thought was gone as quickly as it had come; I felt that I
should only be met with furious denials; I knew that I must keep my
knowledge to myself for the present.

It was difficult work going back into that room, and standing there
fumbling to get a light. But I accomplished it at last, and once more
went upon my knees beside the dead man, and began to fumble dreadfully
in his pockets for the tickets. They were easily found, because the man
seemed to have nothing else of any value in his pockets at all; he had
carried out what he had promised, in that he had destroyed all marks of
identification. So with the tickets in my hand I sat down on a chair
(still keeping him well in view, lest he should dreadfully come to life
again), and thought about what I had to do.

I fitted the thing together like a puzzle. Murray Olivant on the sea, on
board the Eaglet; Murray Olivant so far accounted for, for some
considerable time at least. On the other hand, Murray Olivant here as an
unknown man--dead by an unknown hand. The first thing to be done
obviously was to get rid of the tickets. For the present I thrust them
into my own pocket, meaning to destroy them at the first opportunity.

Then I went carefully through the rooms, to be certain that there was
nothing by which Olivant could be identified. I found, as I had
expected, that there was no scrap of clothing anywhere that was marked;
everything was of that newer cheaper kind that he had purchased for the
better carrying out of his trick. I had left the most dreadful task to
the last; and that was to examine the knife.

I had not the courage to pull it out; I took the candle from the table,
and bent down to examine it. It was a knife not unlike that which I
carried; it had been well worn, but was a powerful weapon, of the sort
carried by sailors. I looked at it carefully, and was relieved to find
that there were no distinguishing marks upon the handle: it was a common
thing, such as the boy might have bought for a few shillings, just as I
had bought the one that was slung about my waist.

I had done all that it was possible for me to do, and I now prepared for
departure. I extinguished the candle, and got to the door; stood
listening for a moment, in the fear that that visitor of a little time
before might have returned, and might be waiting. But there was no
sound, and after a moment or two I opened the door, and peered out. No
one there, and the house wrapped in silence.

Emboldened by that, I pulled the door wide, and stepped out, and closed
it behind me. I turned to put my hand against it, to be certain that it
was fastened, and recoiled with a cry. For there was a man standing
there, flat against the wall at one side of the door, looking at me. It
was Jervis Fanshawe.

"What--what's the matter?" I asked hoarsely.

He grinned at me; his voice when he spoke was the mere thread of a
whisper. "Nothing--nothing at all," he said. "How's our friend?" He
jerked his head towards the closed door as he spoke.

"He--he's all right," I faltered, stooping to fumble with the lock for a
moment, the better to hide my face. "Tired--gone to sleep."

Jervis Fanshawe moved away from me to the head of the stairs; peered
over there down into the darkness below for a moment or two in silence.
Then he turned swiftly, and laid his hand on my arm, and without looking
at me began to pull me towards the stairs. "Come away," he
whispered--"come away!"

I was halfway down the stairs before I realized what he meant, or what
he thought. And then in a moment it flashed upon me that he knew in his
own mind that Murray Olivant was dead, and believed that I had killed
him. I had seen that thought growing in his mind when he had spoken to
me about what my feelings must have been when I had killed Gavin
Hockley; I knew now that the man was absolutely certain as to what had
happened, and that he had fastened the crime upon me. For a moment I
stopped on the stairs, and looked at him with a momentary feeling of
dismay in my heart--momentary only, because the next instant I realized
that this was, after all, the best thing that could happen. He might say
or do anything, so far as I was concerned; it would be like flogging a
dead man; my only dread had been that he might fasten the crime upon the
right pair of shoulders.

"Why do you stare at me like that?" I asked.

"Was I staring?" he asked, with that grin again stealing over his
features. "I was only thinking," he added; and then, dropping his voice
to a whisper, he asked, as he glanced up the stairs towards the door we
had left: "Tell me--does he sleep soundly?"

"I suppose so," I said hoarsely; and turned and went down the stairs,
with Fanshawe following. He spoke no further words; as I strode on
through the streets he came after me at a sort of trot--ever keeping a
little behind me and at my elbow.

Knowing what I knew, and guessing that he had put that fearful
interpretation upon my words, I found him presently to be a very ghost
of a man, coming along always with that soft footfall just behind me.
Once or twice I stopped on some pretext; but he always stopped too, and
would not be shaken off. And so at last we came to that lodging down by
the river, and were admitted by the girl Moggs. While we stood for a
moment in the little dingy passage of the house, the girl jerked her
head towards the stairs, and said, without looking at us--

"'E's up there."

Then she disappeared into her own quarters. I could not understand what
she meant; I was puzzling my brains to know who could possibly have
called upon us, or what fresh disaster this might mean, when I became
aware of a sudden change that had come over my companion. He was leaning
against the wall, mouthing and shivering, and plucking at his lips, and
staring towards the staircase. I looked back at him, and called--

"What's wrong with you? What are you afraid of?"

He came towards me, edging along the wall of the passage until he could
lay his hand upon mine and grip me. "Didn't you hear what she said?" he
whispered. "He's up there--waiting for us! Don't you understand, you
fool, that he'd come quicker than we could; didn't you think of that?"

The sheer terror in the man's face unnerved me; I found myself gripping
him, as if I, too, had suddenly grown afraid.

"What the devil do you mean?" I whispered. "It's some chance caller.
Don't be a fool!"

I was shaken to my very soul; but I went on up the stairs, looking back,
to find him following more slowly. I saw that he was ready, at a chance
word or gesture, to go tumbling down the stairs again, and screaming out
into the night. I hesitated for a moment at the door of the room, and
opened it, and went in. Standing before the cheerless hearth was the man
Dawkins.

I glanced over my shoulder, to see a ghastly face coming round the
door--a face that changed in a moment from terror to relief--from relief
to a sort of childish rage. Jervis Fanshawe came into the room a little
blusteringly, and scowled at the visitor.

"What do you want here at this time of night?" he demanded. "Startling
people--and making them think---- What do you want?"

Dawkins stared at this hitherto humble man in some amazement. "Don't be
insolent," he said at last. "I want to find Murray Olivant."

"What do you want with him?" snapped Jervis Fanshawe, before I could say
a word. "And why do you seek him here?"

"Because I can't find him at his rooms," retorted Dawkins. "The place is
shut up, and apparently deserted; even his servant has gone. What's the
mystery?"

"There is no mystery," I said slowly. "Mr. Murray Olivant has gone on a
voyage----"

"Yes, yes; on a voyage," corroborated Fanshawe eagerly. "That's true
enough."

"He sails to-morrow on the _Eaglet_, bound for the Mediterranean," I
went on. "I am to join him--to sail with him."

"Strange that I've heard nothing about it," muttered Dawkins, looking
from one to the other of us. "I think I can guess what has happened,
however; our friend has got hold of the girl, and is slipping away
quietly with her--eh?"

"I couldn't say," said Fanshawe. "In any case, I wouldn't trouble about
it, if I were you; it's not worth while."

"I'm not so sure of that," said Dawkins, with a grin. "Murray Olivant
mustn't imagine for a moment that he is going to use me as he likes, and
then fling me aside, without so much as a 'Thank you.' I don't believe
in this sailing business; I don't believe he's going at all. There's
some trick in this."

"There's no trick," exclaimed Fanshawe eagerly. "He sails to-morrow, and
Tinman here goes with him."

I confess I was a little surprised at this eager advocacy of my cause on
the part of Fanshawe; I could not understand it. I firmly believed that
he thought I had killed the man Olivant; but I should have imagined he
was the last person to endeavour to shield me. Yet here he was carrying
on that trick that had been practised on every one, and assisting me to
hide Murray Olivant away. I could not understand it.

"Tell me one thing," persisted Dawkins. "Does he take the girl with
him?"

I answered immediately: "No; he does not take her. He does not even know
where she is, and he has decided to give up the whole business."

"I can't understand it, and I don't believe it," said Dawkins, moving
towards the door. "You're hiding something from me."

I slipped my hand into my pocket, and drew out the envelope containing
the steamer tickets. Without a word I pulled out the tickets, and showed
them to him. "I am to meet my master early to-morrow morning with these,
and to take him on board. Does that convince you?"

He looked at the tickets and at me; something in my manner evidently
impressed him. "Well," he said, "it's no affair of mine--and he was
always an erratic sort of fellow. But why couldn't he have let me know
that he was going?"

"You forget," I reminded him, "that you have been endeavouring to get a
large sum of money out of him."

"There's something in that," he replied, with a laugh. "I don't like
being made a fool of; I hope the infernal vessel will blow up, or sink,
or something, with the pair of you on board."

"Thank you, sir," I responded quietly, as he went out, slamming the door
after him.

Jervis Fanshawe was seated on the bed, rubbing his hands, and laughing
softly to himself. "That was well done, Charlie; that was excellently
done," he said, in a hoarse whisper. "You're a clever fellow, Charlie;
you've covered up the traces beautifully."

"I don't understand you," I replied coldly. "There are no traces to
cover up, beyond those we know already. Murray Olivant is in hiding----"

"That's it--in hiding," he whispered, nodding his head many times, and
sucking in his lips, and rubbing his long bony hands together. "In
hiding's the word. And he'll sleep soundly to-night--won't he, Charlie?"

"I imagine so," I replied, looking at him steadily. "Why do you insist
upon that point?"

"Do I insist upon it, Charlie?" he asked innocently. "Not at all--not at
all. Only I like to think of him in those snug rooms of his in Lincoln's
Inn Fields--sleeping well--sleeping as long as he likes, Charlie--eh?"

There was that between us which seemed to make it necessary that my eyes
should seek his, and that his should be fastened on mine. Even when I
moved round the room, I saw that his eyes followed me. And I knew what
was in his mind. I would not trust him; I would never trust him again;
for the sake of the boy who had done this thing in a moment of madness,
I must let Fanshawe think what he would.

"We'd better sleep," I said, as I turned the key in the door. "And, as
for Murray Olivant--let him sleep."

"Quite right, Charlie--we can leave him--to sleep soundly," he said,
nodding his head at me. "He's safe enough."

He stretched himself on the bed, and seemed to fall asleep at once. I
had curled myself up in a corner, and was slowly nodding to slumber,
when I thought he moved; I asked sleepily if he wanted anything. There
was no reply, and the only sound in the room was his steady breathing. I
decided sleepily that everything might well wait until the morrow; my
head dropped forward on my breast, and I slept heavily.

I had no recollection of anything during the night, save that it seemed
to me once that some one touched me, and that I fretfully begged to be
left alone. But I awoke in the morning to find the bed unoccupied, and
only myself in the room. Fanshawe was gone. I wondered about it a
little, and yet was relieved to be rid of him.

I had got clearly in my mind what I was to do. I wanted to know that
Barbara and the girl were safe at Hammerstone Market; I wanted to be
certain that the girl was back again in her father's house. Always when
I got to that point I stopped, and my thoughts refused to travel
further. For while Murray Olivant was safely out of the way, never to
trouble the child's peace again, there always came on top of that the
shuddering remembrance that the boy had killed him, and that only
afterwards, if he was the boy I knew him to be, would there come upon
him the knowledge that with that knife thrust he had killed not only
Murray Olivant, but all hope of any love story with Barbara. That was
one of the problems I had to solve; to know what the boy would do.

I was certain in my own mind that Barbara, at least, would keep her
promise to me, and would take the girl to Hammerstone Market. It seemed
at once to become vitally necessary that I should see Barbara--should
let her understand, in however vague a fashion, what had happened, and
should get the clear light of her reason upon it. Up to a certain point
I had taken my way strongly, without fear and without question; but now
I had come to a point when I was afraid to move--afraid to take any step
that might involve young Arnold Millard. One man I feared, and feared
greatly; and that man was Jervis Fanshawe.

I knew he would not hesitate for a moment to denounce me, if it served
his purpose to do so. I knew that he believed that I had killed Murray
Olivant, and I did not know how far that old vengeance with which he had
pursued me before would stir him to pursue me again. I did not like,
above all things, that secret creeping away in the night on some unknown
errand.

Not that I feared for myself; but that I thought I knew enough of the
boy to know that, if another were threatened with the penalty of his
crime, he would not hesitate to step forward and tell the truth. And in
that case all that I had striven so hard to do would be lost, and the
boy's fate would be that of a certain poor Charlie Avaline, long since
forgotten.

I hurried to Barbara's lodging, only to find, as I had anticipated, that
she and the girl had gone. From there I went straight to the railway
station, and took train for Hammerstone Market--still with that feeling
in my mind that I must know, before everything else, what the boy was
going to do.

In the train I remembered that the vessel on which Murray Olivant was
supposed to sail with me started that morning; I wondered what was going
to happen in that direction, or whether it was already known that we had
not sailed at all. The thought of that sent my hand to my pocket in
search of the tickets; I found that they were gone.

I searched every pocket wildly, striving as I did so to remember exactly
when I had had them last, and under what circumstances. I remembered
distinctly taking them from the pocket of the dead man and putting them
into my own; knew--or thought I knew--that I had had them at the time
when Dawkins doubted my statement about Olivant. But had I produced them
then for his inspection, or had I merely told him that I had them? I
could not be sure of that; I went over and over the conversation of the
previous night, only to find myself more and more muddled and vague
about it. One dreadful thought came to me: had I by any chance dropped
them in that room in Lincoln's Inn Fields where Murray Olivant lay
murdered?

I was making my way out of the station, when I felt a quick touch on my
arm; I looked round sharply, and saw young Arnold Millard beside me. I
suppose my face must have shown in a moment the fear that was in my
heart for him, and for his safety; but there was a fine assumption of
astonishment in his tones when he spoke to me.

"Why, Tinman, what's the matter with you?" he demanded. "You look as if
you'd seen a ghost. What's wrong?"

"What should be wrong, sir?" I asked, as we walked together out of the
station. "Have you any news of your brother--of Mr. Olivant?" I looked
at him fully, and wondered that his eyes did not shrink from mine.

"The best of news," he exclaimed. "He's shown the white feather, Tinman;
he's made up his mind to leave the country. I'm not sorry that he's
slipped through my fingers; he wasn't worth killing, was he?"

"No; God knows he wasn't worth killing," I said passionately.

"His flat is shut up, and I'm told he sails this morning; the people in
the house even knew the name of the vessel--the _Eaglet_. I wouldn't
believe it at first, but the housekeeper opened the doors for me, and
let me go all over the rooms. Everything was packed up or covered up;
he's going to be away a long time, I should think."

I wondered how he could lie in such a cheerful fashion; my heart ached
at the thought that I had sacrificed myself for such a man as this. Of
course, I understood that he had a right to protect himself, and to
suspect everyone who might by any possibility guess his secret; but I
would have given anything then to have heard one word from him that even
hinted at the truth--to have seen in his eyes the faintest suggestion of
fear. I began to understand that in the event of Murray Olivant being
identified, that faithful servant Tinman might well hang, after all, for
what he had not done.

"And so I've come down here, to see if I can get any news of poor
Barbara," he went on. "I've a shrewd suspicion that I may hear something
of her; I don't think Murray would have bolted like that, unless he had
found that the game was up, do you?

"Miss Barbara is down here--with her father," I said.

He turned to me quickly. "How do you know that?" he asked in surprise.

"I know it--that is all," I said.

Presently he found my slow steps too slow for his impatience; he excused
himself, and hurried away at a great rate in the direction of the house,
leaving me walking more slowly in his wake, and looking sadly after him.
For this was different from anything I had anticipated; this was but a
mean slipping-out of the business, with nothing heroic about it. I felt
sorry for the child who was to trust her life to him.

It was with a great sense of relief that, as I came nearer to the house,
I met the elder Barbara. She stopped for a moment on seeing me, and then
came towards me rapidly, with her hands clasped at her breast, looking
at me. Only then did I remember, miserably enough, on what errand I had
set out when last I had seen her, and with what threat on my lips. I
realized that my troubles were not over.

"My dear, you have news for me?" she whispered, looking straight into my
eyes. "Tell me everything."

"First tell me if you have seen the boy--young Millard?"

"Yes, I've seen him; he's happy enough now. I saw him go to Barbara;
there seemed a perfect understanding between them in a moment. They
trust each other so completely."

"They trust each other so completely," I replied mechanically.
"Well--perhaps that is well. Now for my news, Barbara. What would you
wish me to tell you?"

"The truth," she whispered, still looking at me intently.

I thought of the boy, with the brand of Cain upon him, who was at that
moment doubtless holding the child of this Barbara in his arms, and
whispering that he loved her; and she trusted him so completely! "You
want the truth?" I responded with a smile. "Then I have no news for
you."

She took me in her arms--there, in that quiet country lane; she spoke to
me, as I knew, out of the depth of her great love for me. "The truth,
Charlie--the truth to me, at least," she pleaded.

I saw that it had come once again to the parting of the ways for us,
just as it had done twenty years before; I knew that for the boy's sake,
and for the sake of the girl who loved him, I must again thrust myself
out of life. For I must lie to this woman, who held me in her arms and
pleaded for the truth. And in giving her that which she must for ever
believe to be the truth, I must wound her again, as I had wounded her
long ago. "You shall know the truth," I said slowly--"if you will
promise to do what I ask. Promise."

"I will promise anything--and everything."

"I went away from you, meaning to kill Murray Olivant," I said, like one
repeating a lesson. "You should know that I do not fail in such a
matter. I have killed him." She clapped her hand upon my lips, and
looked round her quickly; I took the hand, and drew it away, and kissed
it, and went on with what I had to say. "All the world believes that he
sails this morning for the Mediterranean; it is possible that the murder
will not be discovered. That's the truth."

She clung to me, shuddering; she asked me in a whisper what it was that
I wanted her to do.

"Go back to your husband," I said. "It is not he that needs you, so much
as the girl. She needs you more than she ever needed you in her life
before. Will you keep your promise to me?"

"Yes," she said in a whisper, as her arms fell to her sides--"I will go
back to him."

She turned away, and left me standing there, looking after her as she
went.




                             CHAPTER XII

                           THE HAUNTED MAN


While I stood there in that country lane, looking after the woman who
was going from me for the last time, I had time for many thoughts. For
now I stood in the world more absolutely alone than I had ever been;
there was no hand I could touch again in friendship, for even this dear
hand that I loved most of all was withheld from me. I had killed a man
once, long ago; it was my strange fate to take the place of another man
who had killed his fellow--to bear the blame for that, even in the eyes
of the woman I loved--to suffer death for it, if necessary.

So much I owed to my memories--so much I owed to the new Barbara, and to
the boy who loved her, and whom I must save from the fate that had
befallen a certain Charlie Avaline.

But a strange thing was to happen--something showing the very irony of
Fate--before I left that old life behind me for ever. Some mad desire to
see again these people for whom, in a sense, I was laying down my
life--or so much of it as mattered--came upon me; I went on, unsteadily
and hesitatingly, towards the house. It was a bleak winter day, with a
rough and surly wind playing havoc with the dead leaves in the grounds,
and whirling them up in clouds, and tossing them upon the terrace, and
against the windows. As I pushed open the gate--to look into that place
of my dreams for the last time--I saw a little picture before me that
seemed, as it were, to round off all that had happened there, or all
that might happen in the future.

I saw young Arnold Millard and the girl standing, arm in arm; the girl's
disengaged hand was stretched out to the woman who was her mother. That
elder Barbara seemed to be saying something to them both, and pointing
to the house. The girl was smiling; and suddenly she turned, and drew
the elder woman towards the terrace, with the boy following. Scarcely
knowing what I did, I crept through the neglected garden, and went
towards the terrace after them; they did not turn their heads, and they
did not see me.

I knew, of course, that the woman who was supposed to have died so many
years before was but keeping her promise to me, and was on her way to
confront her husband. I felt that I must know what happened--must
understand under what circumstances, whether of possible happiness or of
misery, I left her. I crept nearer until, as the girl and Arnold Millard
opened the narrow door at the end of the terrace, and passed into that
room I knew so well, I was close at hand. The elder Barbara waited
outside, looking into the room, and evidently hesitating what to do. I
was within a dozen yards of her.

Inside the room I saw Lucas Savell seated; the girl was on her knees
beside him, talking to him. In the silence I heard her voice quite
clearly.

"Dear father--only a good, kind friend, who has been almost like a
mother to me--who has helped and protected me. I want you to see her."

Even as Lucas Savell feebly got to his feet, and stared in bewilderment
at his daughter, I understood that Barbara had not told her child of the
relationship between them; that was to be left for the moment when she
should greet her husband. The elder Barbara had passed through the
doorway, and was now inside the room; Lucas Savell was still staring in
a dazed fashion at his daughter.

"I--I don't understand," I heard him say.

The elder woman stepped forward into the room. "Lucas!--Lucas Savell!"
she said falteringly; and stood still.

I was totally unprepared for what happened; it was all over in a mere
matter of seconds. Savell swung round quickly, with a cry, and then took
a step towards the woman who stood just within the doorway of the room;
cried out her name in a terrible voice, and dropped to his knees--

"Barbara! Oh!--my God!--Barbara!"

She made a swift movement towards him; I saw him put up his hands, as
though he would beat her off; then he plunged forward on his face at her
feet. The girl was the first to reach him, and she raised him, and
called to him wildly. But he hung limply in her arms.

"Father!--you called me, father!"

He slowly raised his head; I saw his mouth open, the while he made a
frantic effort to speak; he even smiled, and seemed to try to raise
himself in the girl's arms. As the elder woman moved towards him, he
shrank away from her, with horror written in every line of his face, and
seemed to dread that she might touch him; when she did, in order to
assist the girl to raise him, it was curious to see the way in which he
looked at her, like a dumb stricken thing that did not understand. By
that time I was in the room, and my presence seemed to stir young
Millard at once to action.

"I'll go and get a doctor," he said. "He's had a stroke."

The elder woman and I contrived to get him upstairs to his room,
assisted by the woman who acted as servant in the house. And while we
moved him he strove always to keep his eyes fixed on the wife who had so
mysteriously come back to him from the grave; he watched her
incessantly. More than once he contrived to move a hand, to touch hers;
and again that puzzled expression would come over his face. Now and
then, too, his mouth would slowly open, in that effort to speak, and
then would close again.

The doctor came at last, and very gravely shook his head; muttered
something to the boy about old habits and Time's revenges; predicted
that the man might live for a long time, or might die at any moment.
"One thing is very certain," said the doctor, as he pulled on his
gloves--"he'll never speak again."

There was nothing that I could do there, and there was work waiting for
me in London. I felt that I must not then leave ragged ends; I must
settle firmly upon my shoulders the burden I had taken up. I whispered
to the elder Barbara that I was going; she came with me out of the
house, and only left me at the gate.

"This is the end for us, Charlie," she said; and yet she spoke quite
bravely. "My place is here, and I shall not leave him again. I come here
as the unknown woman--the friend of my own child; for he will never be
able to say who I am, and I shall never tell any one on my own account.
And you, my dear"--she wound her fingers about mine for a moment, and
looked at me with the old steadfast look--"what will you do--alone?"

"I don't know, Barbara," I said. "I shall go back, to meet whatever fate
is in store for me--and it does not really matter, after all. I have
been greatly blessed; I have seen the dear woman I love again, and I
hold her hands now; and I once looked upon a dreary world that held her
not, because she was supposed to be dead. And the child you love is near
you, and happiness beckons her with a sure hand. It might have been ever
so much worse, Barbara."

"If it should never happen that we meet again, Charlie, let it at least
be understood that I have forgotten and forgiven and understood all that
you have done," she said. "And now good-bye--good-bye--for the last
time!"

I did not dare to look back, although I knew that she stood there,
watching me as I went. It might have unnerved me had I seen her again;
and I had need of all my nerve for what was before me. I got to the
station, and once more took train for London. For I felt that, in the
first place, I must solve the mystery of the steamer tickets.

I blamed myself bitterly that I had not destroyed them, as I had first
intended. The thought that they had got into other hands, or had even
been dropped by me in that closed room in Lincoln's Inn Fields, haunted
me; I seemed to see them found, and inquiries made about them; and so a
gradual tracing back, to find a certain Mr. Murray Olivant who should
have sailed on the _Eaglet_. I had two causes for dread: the one, so far
as Jervis Fanshawe was concerned, because I knew that he believed I had
killed Olivant; the second, as regarded the boy, because I feared that
he would not hesitate to fling the blame upon me, if it happened that he
was driven into a tight corner. And, above all things, I wanted to know
what had happened behind the door of that room in Lincoln's Inn Fields,
or if any discovery had yet been made.

When I got to London I found myself in the position again of that poor
Charlie Avaline who had wandered about with the shadow of murder hanging
over him, watching for newspaper placards. I scanned each one I came
across, expecting every moment to see a flaring headline that should
seem to point directly to me; but I saw nothing.

I bought a morning paper, thinking that it might be possible for
something to be in that; but again I saw nothing. And then it struck me
that, even if the body had not been found yet, I might be running my
neck into the noose if I went back to those rooms, and was discovered
there. I remembered horribly enough that I had a key of the outer door,
and that the only other keys were doubtless in the pocket of the dead
man. And yet I must go back there--I must know what had happened, or if
anything had yet been discovered.

Exactly how many times I walked up and down the stones of Lincoln's Inn
Fields, and round about the neighbourhood, I should not like to say. For
I knew that behind the windows of one particular set of rooms that I
could see from the pavement on the opposite side there lay a dead man;
and already some one might have been hammering at the door of those
rooms--might even have beaten it in, and cried out what was there for
all men to see. Twice I actually walked to the door of the house, and
twice turned back, for no better reason than that a clerk or a whistling
office boy marched in at the door, and began to climb the stairs to some
office above. Once, as I stood there irresolutely, a policeman sauntered
along towards me; stopped for a moment to look in at the doorway of the
house, and then turned his back and stood there, staring at the cab rank
opposite, as though waiting. Sick and faint, I hurried away, and went
again on that round I had taken so many times already.

It was dark, and the lamps had long been lighted, and the last clerks
and office boys had dashed out of the various doorways, with letters for
post, or intent upon trains to be caught, when at last I summoned up
courage to creep in at that doorway, and to begin to climb the stairs.
Even then I looked back, again and again; paused as I got to each
landing, with the absolute certainty in my own mind that some one was
following me stealthily. Once, as I stopped like that, a door was flung
open within a yard of me, and a man, after staring at me for a moment,
slammed the door, and raced off down the stairs. Almost I think I
shrieked after him to stop, and to listen to what I had to say. But that
shriek was only, fortunately for me, in my own imagination.

I reached the door at last; it seemed that I had been travelling for
hours to get to it. I listened intently for a minute or two; then I
slipped my key into the lock, and opened the door. The little lobby in
which I stood after I had closed that outer door was in complete
darkness; for a second or two I know that I stood there afraid to open
the door of the inner room, and yet afraid to remain where I was.

I opened the door at last, and stepped in boldly. You may perhaps have
some faint idea of what my feelings were when I saw that the candle
standing on the table was alight, and the whole room flooded with the
glow from it!

I know that I stood for quite half a minute, staring at the thing
stupidly, and wondering what had happened, or if I were going mad. I had
found the outer door locked, and now, when I was in the room, a
death-like silence reigned; yet here was the candle alight. When at last
I mustered courage to take a step or two into the place, and to look
round the corner of the table, I think I fully expected to see the man
with the knife in him gone, and to know, in some horrible fashion, that
he was in that inner room, waiting for me. It took me a long time, even
after I had seen him lying there, with that stiff hand still gripping
the hilt of the knife, to realize that he was dead, and that he could
not possibly have lighted the candle. Even in the horror of that moment,
when it dawned upon me slowly and dreadfully that some one else was
hidden in those rooms, I know that I laughed softly at the absurdity of
the notion that the dead man could have lighted the candle.

There was no sound in the place--no movement of any kind. The chambers
were very small--just the lobby outside, and the little sitting-room,
and a bedroom beyond. The lobby was empty; the sitting-room contained
only the dead man and myself; whoever was there must be in the bedroom
beyond. I began to form conjectures as to who might be hidden
there--going over in my mind this one and that, who might by any
possibility be interested in this matter, or in me. Once, as I watched
the door of that inner room, there was a mad feeling in my mind that I
would blow out the candle, and make a bolt for it; for the door of the
bedroom was closed, and whoever was there could not have seen me.
Finally I did nothing at all, but just to stand very still, wondering
what I should do. In those few minutes I seemed to live a lifetime--to
touch the depths of hope and fear, and life and death, and even madness.

My horror was not decreased by seeing the door of the bedroom begin
slowly to open. It took a long time; because whoever was opening that
door half repented of their purpose more than once. For the door would
jerk an inch or two open, and then an inch or two back, and then would
close again entirely--and all this quite noiselessly. The thing was
getting on my nerves to that extent that I know I was on the verge of
screaming out, when I saw a hand grasp the lintel of the doorway--a thin
bony hand, that gripped the wood tenaciously. Then the door flew open
with startling suddenness, and a face--ghastly white, and with a
dropping jaw--was thrust out into the room--the face of Jervis Fanshawe.

Even while he stared at me, I found it suddenly necessary that I should
rearrange all my ideas. Jervis Fanshawe had not entered into my
considerations at all in regard to the murder. I had fixed inevitably
upon Arnold Millard--had followed in imagination his every action in the
matter; had reasoned out why he should do this or that to the point of
actual certainty. And here, in these rooms that I had left locked, was
Jervis Fanshawe, whom by no possibility could I believe had had anything
to do with the matter. I leaned upon the table, and stared at him; and
after a moment or two he came slowly out into the room.

He was so afraid of me, and so appalled at the fact of my coming there
at all, that he came slowly towards me, never taking his eyes from my
face, and looking at nothing else. It was only when, horribly enough, he
stumbled over the feet of the dead man, that he jumped back with a cry,
and seemed to recover himself. Then he looked at me again, and over his
face stole a smile.

"Why, Charlie--what's wrong?" he whispered; and the whisper seemed to
shatter the silences of the place, and to bring us both back in a moment
to the hard and stern realities of things.

"How did you get in here?" I demanded.

He did not answer in words; he stared down at the dead man for a moment
or two, and while he did so he fumbled in his pockets. Very slowly he
drew out something that jingled; still looking at the dead man, he
dropped on the table the three keys, tied together with a piece of black
tape. I recognized them in a moment as the keys that had been given me
when I first paid for the rooms.

He looked at me as though he did not understand the question; looked
again at the keys. Then he pointed to the dead man--and I understood. It
seemed then as though some extraordinary process went on in my mind, so
that old carefully constructed ideas were hurled out of it, and new ones
hastily formed. I gasped, and looked at Fanshawe, and looked at the
keys; then I cried out at him.--"My God!--you?"

He nodded slowly; it seemed as though he stood there, thinking about
something else, and only coming back slowly and with difficulty to the
situation he had to face. When at last he began to speak, it was at
first in a slow dull whisper, like a man talking to himself, and not
realizing that another is listening. It was only later, after the first
moment or two, that he began, as it were, to take me into his
confidence.

"She seemed to call to me to do it. You remember when she went past me
like a spirit in the dark garden--the night we knew the girl was in
peril; I first thought of it then. I put it aside for a time; I never
had any real courage for such a matter as this. Then I saw the spirit of
her again in London here--that Barbara we both had loved, and who died
years and years ago. And then I knew clearly enough what I had to do."

He stopped, and looked down at the dead man; it seemed almost as though
he went on talking to that ghastly thing that lay at his feet.

"I don't think I killed you out of any real hatred of you; it was only
because I was afraid for myself. I saw that you, if only with your lips
and your lying tongue, would harm this child, just as another man long
ago had harmed the Barbara who was dead; and I felt that you would have
to die for it, just as that other man had died. I did not kill you
because I was afraid of what you might do; I killed you to save my own
soul. Yes--that was it; to save my own soul."

He had been speaking very slowly, and quite without emotion; but now his
manner suddenly changed, and he turned to me, and gripped my arm, and
went on speaking eagerly, in a pathetic, wistful desire to make me
understand.

"Yes, Charlie--I saw in that the only way to atone. Look at me, Charlie:
an old man that has suffered, and behind whom lie so many years that are
broken and unhallowed, and worse than useless. I felt that
someday--quite soon--I might be called to meet my God; and that
there--radiant, as we knew her years ago, Charlie, in her young and
innocent beauty--there might rise up against me the woman we both loved.
She's dead, but she had nothing to fear from death. I knew that when _I_
died it would be different; there were accusing eyes that would spring
alive with old fires to stare at me--accusing hands that would point at
me out of the darkness into which I was going. And I prayed, or tried to
pray, that God would show me some way--some sacrifice to be offered up
in the old Bible fashion--that should atone. I pushed that thought away
from me more than once--the thought of killing him; but I could not get
rid of it. It was always with me--and that was why I tried to learn from
you, who had done the thing once, what it was like, and how best to set
about it. For I felt that if I could kill this man--if I could cry to
the uneasy spirit of the dead woman--'This have I done to make
atonement; this man have I killed, who would have harmed the child so
like yourself in the old years that are gone'--why, then I felt that all
would be well for me, and that I should not see always her accusing eyes
in the darkness, or in my dreams when I slept."

I stared at him for what seemed a long time; it was difficult at first
for my mind to grasp this thing, to realize what he had done. At last I
asked: "Why have you come back here?"

"I could not stay away," he whispered. "I wanted to know what had
happened--whether they had found him; I was even afraid that the blow
might not have been strong enough, and that he might have crept
out--bloody and horrible--to cry out what had been done, and to tell men
who had done it. It has taken me a long time to get back here; I've been
afraid."

"What are you going to do now?"

"I'm going away--far away," he said, looking at me cunningly. "I haven't
your courage, Charlie; I couldn't face what they might do to me if they
found out anything about it. When I was coming here first to kill him I
did not think of that; but now I can't bear even to try to understand in
my own mind what the rope would be like about my neck--and the cap
pulled over me--and the grey morning shut out--and then----No--no--I
can't bear to think of that. I shall escape."

"I think you possibly may escape unsuspected," I assured him gravely. "I
do not think there is any one likely to point a finger at you, and
suggest that you did it."

"You think not, Charlie?" His voice was eager, and something very like a
smile was on his face. "Do you think I might get away? I think so too;
I'm going to try. And when you come to think of it, Charlie," he went
on, with rising spirits--"it was bravely done--finely done. For I'm a
weak old man--see these thin hands and arms of mine--and he full of life
and vigour. Yet look at him now."

"Tell me how you did it," I said.

"It was after I had talked to you, Charlie--when I spoke about a knife,
you know--that I made up my mind how best it could be done. I bought the
knife--a long way from here, where no one would be likely to know
me--and I chose the very night of his coming here. It was a simple
matter, after all. I came up the stairs, and knocked at the door; after
a moment or two he opened it, cursed me for disturbing him, and went in,
with his back to me. The knife was in my breast pocket, and I had my
hand upon it; I could have done it then--easily. But I was afraid; I did
not know where to strike. Then, when he came into the room, and I was
there with him, he suddenly turned round, and asked me what I wanted.
And courage came back to me. I stepped up close to him, and I said
suddenly that this was what I wanted; and I drove it in with all my
force. He stood staring at me for quite a moment, with that thing
sticking in him--staring stupidly, as if he didn't understand what had
happened. And then he laughed (or so it seemed to me), and dropped, and
died. It was horrible."

"And then?"

"It suddenly occurred to me that I might need to come back here again; I
must have that power, at least. I did not dare go near him; but I found
that he had dropped the keys on the table, just where they are now. So I
took them--and I went away."

I picked up the keys, and looked at them; I was thinking deeply. For now
it seemed to me that I had to face a new problem: the problem of what
this man Jervis Fanshawe would do. That he would not give himself up for
the crime I was certain; but I wanted to understand whether he had
determined, in the event of discovery, to shift the blame on the boy
Arnold Millard, or on myself. I had suffered once for this man, twenty
years before--had been drawn on to murder, practically at his bidding; I
did not mean to play the scapegoat again. In the case of the boy it had
been different; while I had believed him guilty I had been willing
enough, out of that old romantic feeling, to take the burden on my own
shoulders. But not for Jervis Fanshawe.

"What are you going to do now?" I asked for the second time. "What plans
have you in your mind?"

He looked at me again, with that cunning expression on his face I had
seen before. "There is a vessel to sail, on which Murray Olivant took
passages for himself and for you," he said in a whisper. "What if I took
his place, Charlie--and you came with me?"

"Too late," I said--"even if you had the tickets."

Still keeping his eyes fixed upon my face, he dived into one of his
pockets, and brought out an envelope; opened it, and pulled out the
tickets. I started, and stared at him, and made a movement to take them
from him; but he closed the envelope quickly, and thrust it back into
his pocket.

"Ah!--you didn't know that, did you?" he said. "I stole them from you
while you slept; I saw my chance there. It only occurred to me, after I
had seen you show them to Dawkins, that I might slip away like that, and
never be heard of again; I might drop off at some foreign port, and be
lost."

"You're too late," I reminded him, with a laugh. "The _Eaglet_ sailed
this morning."

"You're wrong," he exclaimed, dragging the envelope out again. "Either
you made a mistake in the date, or the clerk did; the _Eaglet_ sails
to-morrow morning."

"Are you sure?" I asked in amazement.

For answer he carefully pulled the tickets out, and, keeping a grip on
them, let me read the date. Sure enough some one had blundered, for the
date was that of the following day.

"Now, Charlie," he whispered, laying an impressive hand on my arm--"the
way is clear. Come with me, Charlie--Tinman, the servant, travelling with
Murray Olivant. Murray Olivant is expected on board, and his passage is
taken; Tinman, his servant, goes with him. As for this thing that lies
here"--he jerked his head to indicate the dead man--"who is ever to say
that this is Murray Olivant. A chance, Charlie; but all the world is
made up of chances, isn't it? Come, Charlie--the road lies clear before
us."

"No," I said--"I have other work to do. If you can escape, do so by all
means; I will not leave England."

He got his hat from that inner room, and prepared to depart. I had put
the keys back on the table, and I saw him eyeing them; I took the key I
had from my pocket, and dropped it with the others. "It's a great game
of chance," I whispered to him, "and you may never be discovered, after
all. Come away--and leave him there; you are safe so far as I am
concerned."

He went to the door and opened it; at a sign from me he waited at that
outer door, to be certain that no one was about. Then I blew out the
candle, and crept out to join him; and for a moment we stood close
together, listening. Then he opened the door, and slipped out, and I
came after him. I pulled the door, and heard the lock click; and knew
that the ghastly thing inside was safely shut in, until some one should
break down the door, and find it.

We stood for a moment or two listening, and then crept down into the
quiet of Lincoln's Inn Fields. As our feet touched the pavement Jervis
Fanshawe stopped, and looked over his shoulder back into the dark house.

"Don't you hear anything, Charlie?" he whispered.

"Nothing," I replied. "What should we hear?"

"No door opening quietly?--no soft pad, pad of feet down the stairs?
Quick!--don't you hear it?"

"Come away," I said abruptly; for the horror of the thing was creeping
over me again.

Yet before we were out of the place he had turned--not once but many
times--to look over his shoulder, whispering to me more than once that
something was creeping along the other side--there--in the shadow of the
railings!--and didn't I see that hand against the breast, gripping
something?--and was I sure that the door had been closed?--and would it
not be better if we went back, and listened again outside it?

We were well on our way back to his lodging when he stopped, and gripped
me, and cried out suddenly that the candle had been left alight; he was
sure of it--sure that some one would see it shining through the chinks
of the door. But that I gripped him firmly he would have set off then
and there, perhaps to burst into the place in some mad fashion, to see
what had happened. But I got him back to his lodging, and saw him
presently stretched upon the bed, muttering and moaning to himself, and
starting up every now and then to ask me if there wasn't a footstep on
the stairs, or a hand knocking at the door.

But in the morning he was calmer, and I made him as respectable as
possible, and took him down presently to the docks. There we found the
_Eaglet_, in the midst of much bustle and excitement, getting ready to
start; and I sent him on board, and left him there. The last I saw of
him was when the vessel was moving away into the river, and I was
standing at the dock side, watching. And Jervis Fanshawe was leaning
over the side, with that nervous hand of his plucking at his lips, and
with his haunted eyes staring straight through me and behind me, as
though at the last he saw Murray Olivant, with the knife in his breast,
rushing to stop him.




                             CHAPTER XIII

                        I FACE THE WORLD AGAIN


Of all that I must write of my life, as it faced me after those tragic
happenings, certain pictures rise up in my mind, not easily to be
effaced. I who write this am poor and old, yet not broken nor downcast
any more. For, by the great grace of God, I am not alone; there is one
with me, whose tender loving eyes look always at me, with no remembrance
of any defects or frailties--with no recollection of anything I may have
done that would have been so much better left undone.

Of the pictures that rise before me as I look back, the first is that of
being absolutely alone in London, with the fear of death upon me. The
fear of death--because the man Jervis Fanshawe had killed lay hidden
behind a frail wooden door, that might at any moment be broken down;
thereafter I was to expect search to be made for a certain servant named
Tinman, sometime Charles Avaline, condemned to death twenty years before
for murder.

Yet, strangely enough, that never happened. I have the memory before me
now of a day when I walked the streets, and was faced suddenly by a
newspaper placard, flaring with the announcement--"Murder of an unknown
man in Lincoln's Inn Fields." Thereafter I saw other placards--this one
startlingly vivid with a clue, this one hopeless. And I even had the
temerity to stand in a little stuffy Coroner's court, what time twelve
good men and true brought in a verdict of murder against some person or
persons unknown. More than that, I stood one bitter winter evening
beside a pauper grave in a cemetery, and knew that the newly turned
earth covered all that was mortal of Murray Olivant.

Another picture rises in my mind--so near to the other that it seems to
be part of it. I remember that on this occasion I was in a poor
eating-house in a poor neighbourhood of London; I was looking through
the columns of a newspaper that was a day or two old. A man as poor as I
was is necessarily a little behind the times; news filters through to
him slowly enough. And looking down the columns of this paper I came
across an item of news that was startling:--

    "LOSS OF A BRITISH STEAMER. _Only one survivor._--The S.S.
    _Eaglet_, concerning the fate of which so many rumours have been
    rife of late, is now known to have gone on the rocks off Ushant,
    and to have become a total wreck. The fate of the vessel would
    probably never have been known, but for the fact that a sailor
    was washed ashore, and after being tended by the good people
    there, was able to give some particulars as to the wreck. It
    appears that the vessel went on the rocks in one of those dense
    fogs peculiar to that coast, and broke up within a very few
    minutes. There is not the slightest doubt that this sailor,
    whose name is given as Henry Howard, is the sole survivor of the
    ill-fated vessel. It may be mentioned that among the passengers
    was a young gentleman of fortune--a Mr. Murray Olivant--who was
    travelling to the Mediterranean on a pleasure cruise."

I sat with the soiled paper in my hands; I read so much more into the
paragraph than any one else could have done. The real Murray Olivant lay
in that pauper's grave beside which I had stood, and yet was buried as a
man unknown; and here he was proclaimed as having been lost in the wreck
of the vessel on which he was supposed to have sailed. More than that;
for the hungry sea had claimed as a victim that man Jervis Fanshawe of
the haunted eyes, who had killed him, and had gone on that voyage in his
place. Justice has a long arm.

My memories after that are confused; I think I must have suffered
greatly during that winter, when I was alone and friendless in London.
In my recollections of that time there is always a great roar and rush
of traffic in my ears, and I seem always to be standing in the rain, or
with the bitter wind ruffling my garments; at other times I am crouching
over fires in small lodging houses, in the company of other forlorn
wretches--outcasts like myself. I am always hungry, and I do not seem to
understand what reason I have for living at all. And I find myself, like
some uneasy ghost that has been forgotten, wandering about old familiar
places, and going over again scenes that only I remember, and that
belong only to the past.

I find myself again in Lincoln's Inn Fields--unable now to remember
clearly where a certain Gavin Hockley is--or whether I killed him, or
someone else; wondering vaguely what he had to do with a certain Murray
Olivant who died long ago--or was he drowned at sea? I find myself--an
old man, with the rain beating upon me, and the wind driving at
me--sitting on the steps of a house in Lincoln's Inn Fields, and
wondering if I dare climb the stairs, to find what is hidden behind a
locked door.

Another picture rises in my mind: I am in a great clean place of many
beds, and I am ill. They talk of want and exposure, and then try to find
out who I am, and whether I have any friends. I remember one thing, and
one only: that my name is "Tinman"; I am glad to think that I have no
friends, and that it may happen that this is the end of my poor life,
and that I may finish here in peace.

But the spring comes, and with the spring some stirring of life in my
veins. I am so much better that I surprise them all; although they
cannot understand why I refer to myself, over and over again, as "No.
145." I beg that they will call me that, because it is what I have been
for twenty years. And I ask again and again that the governor will not
send me out into a world that I have forgotten, and where I know no one.

But the spring in my blood fights for me, after all; and I am presently
free, and a little grateful, perhaps, to be able to sit in the sun, and
watch the great glad life of a great glad city all about me. And this is
the last of the pictures--for all the rest is dear reality.

I remember that, as I grew stronger, a sudden passion of longing came
upon me, and drew me inevitably to the woods and the fields I had known
so long before, in a certain summer time, and had known later with the
snow upon them, and the chill winds of winter blowing over them. The sun
warmed me to life almost as if I had renewed my youth, so that I found
myself one day--poor shabby old creature that I was--with my feet set
steadily upon the road that led to Hammerstone Market, and with my eager
eyes searching the landscape before me to catch the first glimpse of it.

I was weaker than I had imagined, and it took me nearly two days to
get to it. But I came to it at last, on a bright spring morning--came
into the familiar bustle of the little country town, with the
market-place just as it had always been, and the _George Hotel_ as
comfortable-looking as ever, with its doors thrown hospitably wide
open. I was tired and faint after my long tramp, and I found in a
corner of a pocket in my shabby clothes a sixpence. I went into the
place, and ordered some bread and cheese and ale.

There seemed some excitement about the _George_ that morning. There was
an air of every one being in their best clothes; there was a young
coachman there, in particular, who was obviously smoking an unusual
cigar, and who had a white favour fastened to the lapel of his coat.
There was another coachman also, more elderly and staid; and the two men
were talking with the landlord. I passed unnoticed--a mere shabby
stranger, taking his modest refreshment in the corner.

"Well, an' it won't be half a bad thing to see the old place livened up
a bit," the landlord was saying. "They do say that the young chap 'as
come into a tidy bit o' money since 'is 'alf-brother was drowned in that
wreck--a very tidy bit o' money indeed. Well--well--that's the way o'
the world: 'ere to day an' gorn to-morrow."

"I mind 'er mother--Lord knows 'ow many year ago, when I was a young
chap," said the elder coachman, rolling his cigar between his lips--"an'
you take my word for it, if this young lady ain't the very stuck image
of 'er. I've only got to shut my eyes, an' I can see the child now--just
so like the mother as ever was. And both of 'em with the same names,
mind you. Miss Barbara then, an' Miss Barbara now."

I listened wonderingly; I began dimly to understand. Coming a little
nearer to them, I ventured to put a question, and they answered me
respectfully enough.

"There is to be a wedding to-day?"

"There is that," exclaimed the landlord heartily. "A quiet weddin', mind
you--because you can't exactly 'ave much fuss an' flummery with the
grass not quite grown on a grave yet, can you?"

"A grave?" I faltered.

"Ah, a grave," said the landlord, glad of a chance to talk to a
stranger. "Old Mr. Savell died some three months back--father of the
bride, you understand. Had a stroke early in the winter, an' never
recovered."

"Never spoke, did 'e?" asked the younger coachman.

"Never a word from the moment that the Lord struck 'im down," said the
landlord, with a shake of his head. "Merciful release, in a manner o'
speaking; the young folks must 'ave their chance, after the old 'uns is
put away. Now, boys, it's time you was goin'; I'm going to give a look
in at the church myself, in time to see a bit of the bride an' the young
gentleman. Why--would you believe it--in a sense 'e belongs here; used
to stop in this very place when first 'e came down a-courtin' the young
lady. So, you see, it's only right as the _George_ should be
represented, ain't it?"

I found my way out of the place, and towards the church. There was a
holiday feeling in the air, and a ringing of bells; I felt that I was
strangely out of place. A sudden impulse to hide myself came upon me,
and I went out beyond the town, and into that green wood--beautiful now
in its spring dress--that had meant so much to me so often before. And
there for a long time I sat, with the peace of God stealing into my
heart, listening to the ringing of the bells, and thinking gratefully
that all was well--that all was better, perhaps, because I stood outside
it, and could touch it no more.

Yet the bells drew me; they rang a tune in my ears that brought me at
last to my feet, and set me upon the road to the church. There was a
crowd about it now, and much jostling and laughter; I saw the round
jolly face of the landlord of the _George_, and he was evidently still
telling any one who would listen to him of his proprietary rights in the
bridegroom. I managed to slip into the church, and found my way into a
little curtained pew at the back of it, from which I could watch all
that was going on, and yet remain unseen.

I had no eyes for any one but the girl; she came in on the arm of an
elderly man I judged to be a family lawyer, or in some such position.
She looked very beautiful as she went slowly up the old church to join
her lover; I thought with a pang of how I had seen her mother--looking
just like this--step over these worn stones in her bridal dress, twenty
years before. I remembered, too, how I had stood there, with a bursting
heart, and had seen her going out of my life. I could not bear the
thought of that, even then; I knelt in my curtained pew, and hid my face
in my hands, while all the rustling and whispering went on about me.
Then the solemn service began, and still I knelt there, as in a dream.
But I was happier then than I had ever been; for in my dream this was
poor Charlie Avaline, far back in the years, wedding the woman he
loved--thereafter to live happily, without any shadow on his life.

I felt that I must see her as she came out of the church; so much at
least was due to me. So, with a new boldness, I stepped out of the pew,
and stood there in the shadows, waiting, while she came on the arm of
her young husband down the church. And the twenty odd years had taught
me so much that I could stand like that, and look at it all with no
feeling of envy, or bitterness for all I had suffered: only a great
gladness that this Barbara at least was to tread a path of roses. I
stood quietly there, watching her as she came down the church; if the
tears were in my eyes, they were only there because I remembered poor
Charlie Avaline, who had stood in the same place, and had watched that
other Barbara whom he loved.

She was within a couple of yards of me when she raised her eyes, and
looked straight at me. I would have drawn back, but she was too quick
for me; she came forward at once, drawing Arnold Millard with her, and
caught at my hand. And it seemed that I was no longer shabby and poor;
all in a moment I was greater than any one there.

"It's Tinman! It's dear Tinman!" she said.

In the strangest fashion she had disengaged herself from her husband's
arm, and was shaking my hands. We were saying the absurdest things to
each other: I congratulating her, and wishing her well, and half
laughing and half crying in my weakness and my joy; she murmuring over
and over again that this was the best thing of all, to see me like this
at such a time. And all about us the strange wondering faces pressing
nearer.

And then before them all she raised herself on tiptoe, and kissed me on
the cheek--yes, before them all! As she went out of the church, running
a little eagerly for a step or two, to join her husband, who was
smilingly waiting, she looked back at me, and waved her hand; and so was
gone out into the sunlight, amidst a roar of cheering. I felt strangely
alone; but that was, of course, inevitable. The Barbara I had loved had
gone for ever out of my life; she had told me so, on that day when it
had come to the parting of the ways for us. Each of us had done our
part. I had been privileged to see the end that day, and now I must go
out into the world, and live in loneliness just so many years as might
be given to me. But I was no longer tired or hopeless; I had drunk deep
of life, and although there were so many things I would have been glad
to have had altered, there was yet so much that was better than I could
have hoped. I would linger here for a little time, on this spring
morning, and then would go on, to take up the quiet burden of my days.

I found my way back to the old house, and peered in at the gate. All was
changed here now: the garden no longer neglected, and the house looking
bright and fresh. There was no one about, and I crept in, and stood
again on that terrace, looking into the room. There were bright flowers
there, and the place was very different from what it had ever been
before. I came away, and found my way into that wood that seemed to hold
all my memories. I sat down there for the last time--reviewing, as it
were, my life, and looking back to see the boy who had painted here
among the trees, and had seen coming towards him, with a smile in her
eyes, the Barbara of long ago.

And so it happened that I looked up presently, and saw coming through
the wood the Barbara I loved: and it almost seemed, despite the passage
of the years, that this was the Barbara I had always known, and who was
unchanged. The heavy soiled garment of the years dropped away from me; I
was again a man with hopes and longings; I suddenly realized how much
this dear woman was to me, and how much we both might be, each to the
other. I stood there, bareheaded in the sunlight, holding her hands, and
looking into her eyes; and I was no longer old or tired; I faced life
again, with the spring in my veins and in my heart.

"We are all alone, dear Tinman," she said, using that familiar name
naturally. "I am the unknown woman, who has stood beside my husband's
grave, and yet have not mourned for him; I am the woman who has stood in
God's house to day, and seen my child married--just as I might have
married poor Charlie Avaline, years and years ago. Such a strange life
ours has been, my dear," she added softly; "it seems almost as though
you and I are left alone together forgotten and unknown in the great
world--with all our work done."

"But we came to the parting of the ways before, Barbara," I said; "there
can be no going back now. God has been very good to me: I might never
have seen you again; I might have died that shameful death twenty years
ago. But I am a felon; I am branded with the brand of Cain; there is
blood on my hands."

"Spilled for my sake!" she cried quickly, taking my hands, as she had
done once before, and putting her lips to them. "And you lied to me,
Charlie; you did not kill Olivant."

"I did not kill Olivant," I said; "but I am guilty, in that I set out to
do it. Some one forestalled me: some one who has died a violent death,
and paid that penalty. But that, too, was some one who loved you, in
however poor a fashion. It was Jervis Fanshawe."

We talked there for a long time in the woods, and at last it seemed to
me that the moment had come when I must part from her. For I would not
link my life with hers; on that point I was resolute. Yet she clung to
me, and told me what was in her heart.

"Years ago, Charlie, when I knew that they would not kill you, but that
you must live out your life in bitter servitude for what you had done
for me, I made up my mind that there was a duty before me, and that I
was called to it inevitably. It seemed to me then that I must consecrate
what was left of my life to you, and to the memory of you; your love for
me had been so great a thing that in a sense I belonged to you, if only
in spirit. Dear, you came back to me wonderfully from out of your
prison; you fought for me again; you were ready to lay down your life
for that other Barbara, who was like the Barbara you had loved. I am
lonely now--lonely and unknown; do not send me away from you!"

"I am so poor a thing for any woman to cling to," I said pitifully. "I
have been down to the depths; I am a thing of poverty, and shame, and
degradation."

"You are the man I love," she said, putting her arms about me. "There is
a great world waiting for us--a world of sunshine, and life, and
laughter; you shall learn to forget all the horror through which you
have passed. Charlie, I took your name once--glad and proud to bear it;
let me take it now, and keep it to the end."

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I have set down here the record of my poor life, so far as I have lived
it; yet it is as a slate, crowded with the awkward writing of a child,
and much of it obliterated and rubbed out--blotted a little here and
there with tears. Much, too, is being obliterated day by day of the
sorrow and the misery of it; for a woman's hand steals over mine
sometimes, and will not let me write of the sorrowful part that has been
mine, and is mine no longer. I have been greatly blessed; I pray my God
that when the time comes that He calls me to answer for my great sin, it
may happen that at the last her strong warm hand holds mine, and points
me to the road--that her strong brave lips whisper to me what I shall
say.

                                THE END


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                           Transcriber's Notes:


Apparent typesetting errors and inconsistencies in spelling, punctuation
and hyphenation have been corrected.





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