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=Books by Margaret Deland.=


  THE OLD GARDEN, AND OTHER VERSES.
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THE WISDOM OF FOOLS

BY

MARGARET DELAND

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BOSTON AND NEW YORK HOUGHTON, MIFFLIN AND COMPANY MDCCCXCVII




  COPYRIGHT, 1897,
  BY MARGARET DELAND
  ALL RIGHTS RESERVED




CONTENTS


                                                    PAGE

  WHERE IGNORANCE IS BLISS, ’TIS FOLLY TO BE WISE      3

  THE HOUSE OF RIMMON                                 66

  COUNTING THE COST                                  136

  THE LAW, OR THE GOSPEL?                            191




THE WISDOM OF FOOLS




WHERE IGNORANCE IS BLISS ’TIS FOLLY TO BE WISE


I

“THE most delightful thing about our engagement is
that everybody is so pleased with it.” Amy Townsend said this,
smiling down at her lover, who, full length on the grass beside
her, leaned on his elbow, watching her soft hair blowing across her
forehead, and the color of the sun flickering through the shadows,
hot on her cheek; for she had closed her fluffy white parasol and
taken off her hat here under an oak-tree on the grassy bank of the
river.

“I should have thought that the fact that we were pleased ourselves
was a trifle more important,” he suggested. But Miss Townsend paid
no attention to his interruption.

“You know, generally, when people get engaged, there are always
people who exclaim: either the man is too good for the girl (and
you are too good for me, Billy!), or the girl is too good for the
man”--

“She is; there is no question about that,” the man interrupted.

“Be quiet!” the other commanded. “But in our case, everybody
approves. You see, in the first place, you are a Parson, and I’m a
Worker. That’s what they call me,--the old ladies,--‘a Worker.’ And
of course that’s a most appropriate combination to start with.”

“Well, the old ladies will discover that my wife isn’t going to
run their committees for them,” the parson said emphatically.
“Besides, if I’m a Parson, you’re a Person! How do the old ladies
bear it, that I haven’t any ancestors, and used to run errands in a
tin-shop? _I_’m a Worker, literally enough.”

“You are a goose!” she told him calmly. “Don’t keep interrupting
me, Billy. What do ancestors amount to? I admit I’m glad that none
of mine were hanged (so far as I know), or that they didn’t run off
with other people’s money--or wives. (I’d mind the wives less than
the money, I must confess. I suppose you think that’s very mediæval
in me?) But what credit is their good behavior to me? You are a
credit to your people, whoever they were; and my own belief is that
they were Princes!”

She had such a charming way of flinging up her head and looking
down at him sidewise, that he was willing to have had any kind of
ancestors, only to catch that look of joyous pride; and in his own
joyousness he was impelled to try to take her hand in his: but her
fingers were laced about her knee, and she shook her head.

“Stop! I’m talking seriously; you mustn’t be silly. You must
listen to the other reasons why we are approved of: First, you
are a Parson, and I’m a Worker. Secondly, you are forty-two,
and ‘it’s high time’--high time, sir!--‘for you to be married’;
and I’m twenty-seven--and, really, you know, ‘my chances are
lessening’--(that’s what they say, my dear); and I ‘hardly deserve,
after all these years’”--

“And offers?” suggested her lover.

“After all these _years_, Billy,--not to get a crooked stick in the
end.”

“I am not crooked, I will admit,” he said.

“Thirdly,” she proceeded, “you are very good-looking, and all the
old Tabbies say that a handsome minister ought to be married.”

“The old Tabbies might find something better to talk about,” he
said, his face hardening. “Oh, Amy, that’s the kind of thing
that makes a man cringe!--I mean a minister. Here is this great,
serious, strenuous matter of living--the consciousness of God;
that’s what living is in its highest expression. And to further
that consciousness is the divinest human passion. A man tries to do
it, gives his life to it, and immediately he is food for chattering
old women! They gossip about his affairs, or his clothes, or his
looks, even!” William West sat up, his face stirred with anger and
pity. “But I suppose I must admit that the Parsons bring it on
themselves to some extent,” he ended, with a sigh; “we don’t mingle
enough with men; they distrust us, and think we talk twaddle about
overcoming temptations we know nothing about. So, being shut out
from masculine living, we do haunt tea-tables, and gabble about
vestments. I suppose there’s no doubt of it. Amy, I believe that
the old hunting, swearing parsons of three generations ago were of
more real value in the world than the harmless creatures that we
have now!”

He had a certain stern way of thrusting out his lower lip when he
was very much in earnest, and drawing his strong brows together; an
impatient fire sprang into his beautiful dark eyes. He turned and
looked at her, claiming her understanding.

“Yes,” she said; “yes, it is so. The belittling of the profession
of the ministry is a dreadful thing--a shameful thing. I once
heard a man say that ‘Elderly unmarried women always had to have
something to fuss over and coddle, something to lead around by
a blue ribbon. Sometimes it was a poodle; sometimes it was a
clergyman.’ And there’s truth in it, Billy.”

“There is,” he said grimly.

“Well, dear,” she reassured him, smiling, “your distinguished
rudeness to the ladies of your congregation has at least protected
you from the blue ribbon.”

He began to protest, but the talk slipped back into their own
affairs, and somehow he succeeded in getting her hand, and by and
by they were silent, just for happiness, and because it was sunset,
and the river was flickering with light, and there was a faint stir
of leaves overhead. They were to be married in a fortnight, and
they were going to have all their lives together to say how good
life was, so there was no need to talk now.

As the girl had said, it really was a very satisfactory match.
William West was a man whom every one honored, and many loved.
For fifteen years he had been settled in Mercer; first as an
assistant to old Mr. Brown, and then as rector of the church.
But he had taken his place in the community as a man of strong
judgment and high character; perhaps as a citizen, rather than as
a minister. Men felt that he was a man before he was a clergyman;
not knowing that his calling had given him his highest manhood. He
was singularly devoid of clerical affectation; consequently the
influence of his own reverence was not vitiated by a suspicion of
his common sense. In fact, his sanity in matters religious, joined
to his knowledge of human nature, made him a man of importance in
affairs municipal and social. That he had lived to be forty-two,
and had not married, was from no asceticism; he was a very human
person, and fully intended to have a wife; only, she must be just
what he wanted. And so far, that “not impossible She” who was to
possess his heart had never appeared. When she did, he recognized
her immediately, and would have proposed to her the next day, had
not a feeling of diffidence as to her sentiments deterred him for
nearly two weeks. At the end of that time, he told her--ah, well,
never mind what he told her! She, at least, will never forget the
passion of that claiming.

Amy Townsend had come to spend the winter in Mercer, with a cousin.
Of course, the first Sunday she went to St. James’s, as everybody
who was anybody did. When she came home, her eyes were keen with
interest.

“Do tell me about him, Cousin Kate,” she said. “I never heard that
sort of preaching; what does it mean? Is he a real person, or is he
just clever?” Mrs. Paul laughed.

“Wait till you meet him! you’ll see.”

But she also added to herself, “Wait till he meets you!” For Mrs.
Paul was one of those courageous women who rush in where angels
fear to tread; she was a match-maker.

“Is he married?” the girl asked, naturally enough; but blushed
furiously the next instant, which made her angry.

“No; but it is not for lack of opportunity,” said Mrs. Paul dryly.
“I declare, Amy, women are dreadful fools, sometimes! I should
think a clergyman wouldn’t marry, out of sheer disgust for their
silliness.”

“Oh, he’s run after, is he?” Miss Townsend said coldly.

“Well, I must admit he’s very attractive,” Mrs. Paul began,
remembering her scheme, and retreating a little,--for nothing will
put a girl against a man sooner than to know he is “run after.”

Then she told his story: the boy had been a waif. (“His mother was
respectable, I think,” said Mrs. Paul, “but nobody knows anything
about the father.”) He had had that dreariest sort of childhood
which knows no other home than an institution. Then, somehow,
“quite like a story-book,” Mrs. Paul said, a gentleman took an
interest in him, and began to help him in one way or another.

“It was that zoölogical man, Professor Wilson; you know who I
mean?” Mrs. Paul explained. “He looked after him. At first he put
him in a tinshop, if you please, as errand-boy,--fancy! this man
with the ‘grand manner.’”

“Oh, I supposed he was a gentleman,” Amy Townsend said.

“Amy, you are a snob,” her cousin answered hotly. “He is.”

Mrs. Paul was so annoyed that she ended the story of Mr. West’s
career very briefly. “Professor Wilson offered either to start him
in business or put him through college; he chose to go to college.”

“That was rather fine,” Miss Townsend agreed.

“Fine? It just showed what sort of a man he was!” cried Mrs. Paul.
“He worked his way to some extent; that is, he was Professor
Wilson’s secretary, and he did a lot of tutoring. Professor Wilson
left him a good deal of money, but he gave away nearly half of it
at once, John says. Quite remarkable for a young man. Well, that’s
all; you see what he is to-day--a gentleman and a scholar: John
says there is no man in Mercer who has the influence that he has.”

Miss Townsend, in spite of her careful indifference, was
interested. And later, when Rev. William West met her, he, too, was
“interested;” and all fell out as the most experienced romancer
could desire.

Amy had a little money, much charm, a certain distinction that
answered for beauty, and a very true nature; there was, perhaps, a
certain hard integrity about her, but her impulses were gracious.
Also, as the old ladies said, she was a “worker.” She found life
too interesting not to meddle with it.

So it had come to pass that these two, who, as Mrs. Paul said,
“were made for each other,” were going to be married.

       *       *       *       *       *

“Just think, in two weeks!” he said, as they sat there under the
oak, the blossoming grass knee-deep about them, and the air sweet
with clover. “Amy, it does not seem as if I had been alive until
now.”

“I wonder, does it go on getting--nicer?” she asked him, a little
shyly; “everything seems to be better, and more worth while.”

“I understand,” he said.

And they were silent for awhile, because understanding is enough,
when people are in love. Then the girl’s gayety began to sparkle
out.

“Billy, Cousin Kate says if I’m not careful I’ll get to be a
managing Parsoness; she says I must devote myself to you, not to
your poor people.”

“Mrs. Paul has given a great deal of good advice in her day,” the
Rev. Billy remarked meditatively, “and I really think very little
harm has come from it.”

“She advised your being called to Mercer,” Amy retorted. “Did you
know that?”

“Know it? My dear child! how often have I dined at the Pauls’? Just
so often have I heard it.”

“Now, Billy, that’s not very nice in you.”

“I but stated a fact; and I have a high regard for Mrs. Paul. Only,
when I think how many girls she has tried to make marry me!--but
they would none of them look at me.”

“And in two weeks the opportunity will be gone,” she jeered.

“Poor girls!” the minister commiserated; and was reproved for
vanity. Indeed, just because happiness is so serious a thing, they
became very frivolous, these two, sitting watching the sunset,
and the river. Amy told him a funny story about the parish; he
responded by another concerning Tom Reilly, a policeman; which
reminded Amy to tell him that poor Tom had had an accident, and
hurt his hand.

“But it was very stupid in him,” she added, with a little of that
resentful goodness that one sees sometimes in women. “I’m not at
all sorry for him, because he deserved it. He had been drinking,
and as he went stumbling out of a car, he crushed his hand in the
door.”

Her lover was not to be lured into professional comments; he
only muttered, “_Mauvais quart d’heure_”--which made her say
indignantly: “Now, Billy, really, that is _too_ much!” and insist
that they should go home immediately. “I cannot descend to such
levels,” she told him; and was very stern and forbidding when,
looking to the right and left, and seeing no man, he begged to be
allowed to kiss her.

But this was all froth. Beneath, in the man’s life, were the great
tides of love, moving, noiseless and unchangeable, from out the
depths of his soul. In the girl’s life it was all shine and perfume
and glitter, like flowers blossoming on a rock; beneath, in her
heart, was the solid ground of reverence and faith.


II

The two weeks that were to pass before the day that was to be the
Day of Days were very full.

To get parish work ahead so that things would run themselves for
the month’s absence which had been granted the clergyman was
no small undertaking. William West was very busy, and a little
preoccupied in his endeavor to put his best thought, not upon his
own happiness, but upon committees, or Sunday-school matters, or
his assistant’s spiritual anxieties concerning his superior’s
indifference to the color of the lectern bookmarks; so it chanced
that he saw less of Amy than in the earlier part of their
engagement. He had but little time to think of her, and absolutely
no time to think of himself.

They were to be married on Thursday. Late Monday afternoon Mr.
West, with great timidity, ventured into Mrs. Paul’s drawing-room,
with the bold purpose of abstracting his sweetheart for a walk. The
project was, of course, promptly crushed.

“As though Amy had any time for that sort of thing!” said Mrs.
Paul. “Do you see those presents? She has got to acknowledge every
one of them! Amy, your cousin John and I will entertain Mr. West.
You can write your notes here, and let him look at you; that’s
quite enough for him.”

Amy smiled at him across a barricade of silver bric-à-brac.

“Billy thinks silver picture-frames and brushes and things are a
dreadful waste of money,” she said. “Just think how thankful you
ought to be, Billy, that I am making our manners for you; you
couldn’t say ‘Thank you,’ with truth.”

“Oh, truth,” said John Paul, lounging about the room, with his
hands in his pockets--“truth, my dear little cousin, is governed by
the law of benefit; didn’t you know that? If it makes the donors
feel happy, tell them West has longed for nothing in the world so
much as a silver glove buttoner. Now, if you told them the truth,
fancy the shock! Ask the Parson.”

“The Parson has no such base and cynical theory,” Miss Townsend
responded promptly; “have you, Billy? You don’t think truth is
governed by the law of benefit?”

“I think truth-telling is,” he assured her.

John Paul assumed that look of artless and simpering satisfaction
which one sees on the countenance of the unprotected male, who, in
the bosom of his family, finds himself indorsed by a higher power.

“There, Amy, what did I tell you? I had an instance of it
yesterday. I”--

“Oh, here is a third asparagus fork,” murmured Amy; “what _shall_ I
say about it?”

“What’s your instance?” said the minister.

“Well, we’ve been looking for an assistant engineer, and there
have been the Lord only knows how many applicants. One fellow
impressed me very well; he seemed as straight as a string; honest
face, thoroughly decent-looking fellow. He was an Englishman, but
his references for three years were American. So much the better,
of course. I was going to engage him, when, bless my soul, if he
didn’t begin to stammer out something about having no references
from ‘Home’ (‘’ome,’ he called it), because he ‘’adn’t been over
steady,’ but he’d signed the pledge, and ‘he wasn’t afraid of drink
any more.’ I didn’t hire him. Now, I call that truth not governed
by the law of benefit.”

“You don’t discriminate between being truthful and telling the
truth,” said William West. “You hadn’t asked him if he had ever
drank. I don’t believe you lost much, in not engaging him, poor
fellow.”

“Oh, Billy, I think it was rather fine in him,” Amy protested,
looking up from her notes.

“I don’t see anything fine,” the minister said simply. “In the
first place, there was a lack of reserve, a lack of privacy, in
rushing into confession, which betrays the weak nature. There was
also self-consciousness, in dwelling on his sin. And in the third
place”--

“This sounds like a sermon: firstly--secondly”--Amy murmured,
signing her name to her thanks for the third asparagus fork.

--“in the third place, if the man has reformed, there was an
essential untruth in posing as a sinner.”

“Well, I don’t quite agree with that,” began Mrs. Paul.

“He’s right; he’s right,” John Paul declared. “I say, West, suppose
we went about confessing some of our college performances?” The
senior warden of St. James grinned, but his wife looked displeased.

“I don’t believe you ever did anything very bad, John; but if you
did, I think you should have confessed to me.”

“I stole some signs, Kate,” he told her; “can you forgive me?”

Amy, listening, smiling, said with that charming sidewise glance at
her lover: “Cousin Kate is quite right. I should never forgive a
man who didn’t tell me everything! Billy, come here and confess.
Have you ever done anything wicked?”

“We are all miserable sinners,” John Paul murmured. “I say so
publicly every Sunday”--

“But you don’t specify!” the minister reminded him, with a laugh.

“Yes; but, Billy,” Amy Townsend insisted, “doesn’t it say somewhere
that ‘confession is good for the soul’?”

“Perhaps it is,” he said dryly, “but, generally speaking, it’s
mighty bad for the mind.”

There was an outcry at this from the two women.

“Of course,” Mrs. Paul said, “simply gossiping about one’s self
isn’t confession; but don’t you think, Mr. West, in the really deep
relations of life, between friend and friend, or husband and wife,
there should be no reserves?”

“My dear Mrs. Paul,” he answered, with quick gravity, “there must
be reserves--except with God. The human soul is solitary. But for
confession, that is different; justice and reparation sometimes
demand it; but, again, justice and courage sometimes forbid it.
Unless it is necessary, it is flabby vanity. That’s why I said it
was bad for the mind.”

“Well,” said Amy, with some spirit, “I don’t believe in taking
respect, or--or love, on false pretenses. If I had ever done any
dreadful thing, I should want to confess; good gracious, for the
mere comfort of it I should have to! It would be like walking on a
volcano to keep a secret.”

William West went over to the table where she was writing, and,
finding a place among the clutter of presents to lean his elbow,
sat down and looked at her with good-humored amusement.

“Where are you going to draw the line? How far back are you going
in confessing your sins? Please don’t tell me that you slapped your
nurse when you were three. It would be a horrible shock, and make
me very unhappy to discover such a crime.”

“I shall go all the way back,” said Amy, with decision; “if I had
done anything wrong, I mean very wrong, I should tell you,--if I
had only been a year old!”

The minister laughed. “A desperate villain of one year!” he said;
but as he spoke a puzzled look came into his eyes.

“I think,” Amy Townsend proceeded, “that honor and fairness demand
speaking out. And as for making some one else unhappy,” her voice
dropped a little, and the color came up into her face, “where
people love each other, they have a right to unhappiness.”

“Listen to Amy clamoring for unhappiness!” John Paul commented.
“Don’t worry, my child; you’ll get your share. There’s enough to go
round, I’ve noticed.”

Mrs. Paul laughed, but a note of reality had come into the careless
talk that gave her a sense of being a third party.

“John, you are flippant,” she said; “come, let’s leave these two
poor things alone; they’re dying to get rid of us. And besides, if
Amy is going to confess her sins since she was one year old, it
will take time.”

“That I consider a most uncalled for reference to my twenty-seven
years,” Amy retorted; “and besides, I’ve two more notes to write.”

“And I must go home,” William West said, rising in a preoccupied
manner.

“Why--but I thought you were going to stay to dinner!” Mrs. Paul
protested, with dismay.

“Oh, you must stay to dinner,” Amy urged.

But her lover was resolute. Nor did he, as usual, try to lure
her out into the hall that he might make his adieus. He said
good-night, stopped a moment to discuss with his senior warden
something about the appropriation for repairs at St. James, and
then, with a sober abstraction deepening in his face, went home
through the delicate June dusk, which was full of the scent of the
roses that grow behind the garden walls of the old-fashioned part
of Mercer.


III

The Rev. William West went into his study and shut the door. He
was a man who was always accessible to his people, yet his lips
tightened with impatience when he found a parishioner awaiting him,
and saw a pile of notes on his writing-table. But it was only for
an instant; he listened to the anxieties of his caller with that
concentration of sympathy which can put self aside; and when the
man went away it was with the other man’s heartfelt grip of the
hand, his heartfelt “I thank you for coming to me; God bless you,
my friend, and give you wisdom.”

The letters were not so easy; but he went through them faithfully,
answering them or filing them away: appeals for help, or money, or
work; two invitations; two letters from ladies of his congregation
about their souls; the unmarried and interesting clergyman knows
this sort of letter too well! He was aware of a sense of haste
in getting through with these things; a sense of haste even in
disposing of another caller, a boy, who came to say he had doubts
about the existence of God, and who felt immensely important in
consequence. “I tell you, Mr. West,” this youth declared, nodding
his head, “of course I don’t mean to be hard on the church; of
course I see the value of such a belief in keeping the masses
straight, but, for thinking men!” To treat this sort of thing
seriously and patiently is one of the trials of a thinking man who
happens to be a minister. Then the Tenor came to give his side of
the quarrel with the Bass, and the organist to say that quartette
and chorus were all fools.

One does not prove the existence of God, or pacify wounded artistic
feelings easily; it was nearly midnight before the clergyman had
his library to himself.

With a sigh of relief he shut the door, and walked once or twice
about the room, as though trying to shake off other people’s
affairs; then he bit off the end of a cigar, struck a match, and
sat down. He put his hands deep into his pockets, and stretched
his feet straight out in front of him.

“It must be five years since I’ve thought of it,” he said to
himself.

He held his lighted cigar between his fingers, his chin sunk on his
breast, his mouth set in that hard line which refuses to extenuate
or evade; his eyes narrowed with thought. Five years: Yes, the
memory had so faded and lessened that by and by it had ceased, and
now it was as though, as he walked along the level path of daily
life, a serpent suddenly lifted its evil head from the dust, and
struck at him, hissing.

“I was eighteen,” he said to himself; “no, nineteen. And now I’m
forty-two! Twenty-nine, thirty-nine--it’s twenty-three years ago.”

There is a hideous consciousness which comes to most of us men and
women at one time or another in our lives, of our inability to get
away from the past. From out of the “roaring loom of Time” comes
the fabric of our lives; white, run, perhaps, with a warp of silver
in our latter years; set, even, by the mercy of God, with deep
jewels of experience; spangled with golden threads of opportunity;
but back, in its beginnings--what stains, what rents! dragged
through what foul and primeval experiences of youth! Some, by
environment and temperament, have nothing to blush for but follies;
the joyous baseness of the young animal never broke through the
conditions of their lives, or the dullness of their minds. But for
most there are black spots from which, with wonder and disgust, the
adult turns away his eyes: the cruelty and impurity of childhood;
the ingratitude and meanness of youth. With the man, as with the
race, that is not first which is spiritual, but that which is
natural.

Twenty-three years ago: is there any connection between a fault
committed then and the William West of to-day? None! What has he in
common with the boy of nineteen? Nothing!

Suppose he told Amy, would she understand that? Why, the very fact
that he had forgotten it meant that he did not belong to it, nor
it to him. And yet he wanted to tell her!

William West got up with an impatient gesture. How absurd this
sort of mental posturing and agonizing was! What folly, to think
of burdening Amy with the miserable facts. Told now, twenty-three
years afterwards, their relation to his present life could not be
seen in true proportion. It would be an amazement and a shame to
her to think that her lover, her husband, had done thus and so.
Yet, it would not be her husband who was the sinner; it was that
poor, foolish, wicked boy of so many years ago; that boy upon
whom he looked back with the amazement and disgust of an outside
observer. What a curious untruth, then, in confessing it. He gave a
sigh of relief as he reached this conclusion; it was as if he had
stumbled for a moment, but had got his balance again.

But, in spite of himself, his mind crept back to the brink of
that black abyss of memory: those were dreadful days, those days
of repentance twenty years ago. The remembrance of his sin would
surge over him at the most unexpected moments--in the midst of
work or study; when he was talking; when he was praying; when,
perhaps, he was helping some other human creature stagger along
under a burden of remorse. The deeper he went into the new life
he had begun to lead--the clearer the heavenly vision grew before
his eyes--the blacker the sin seemed. For years, the memory of
it used to come over him with a sudden sinking and sickening of
the soul. He remembered how inescapable the torment of his regret
had been. There would be periods of forgetfulness, when he was
plunged into work, and life, because it was service, seemed good
and sweet; then, at some word, or the look of the sky, or the
smell of a flower--the evil spirit of recollection would leap upon
him and tear him. Yet the periods of forgetfulness had lengthened
and lengthened. The pain and shame had faded and faded. The thing
that gave him this sick feeling, as he sat here in his study at
midnight, was not the fact that he had sinned; it was the memory
of how he had suffered for his sin. The sin itself, now, was too
remote, too separate from himself for any more repentance; it had
ceased to be real. But the suffering!--he could not bear to think
of that.

“How mad this is!” he said to himself, with a curious terror lest
the old anguish should come back: the horror a man might feel who
sees the surgeon’s knife under which he has once agonized.

For very fear of memory, William West drove his thoughts back to
the question of his duty to Amy; that was plain reasoning, and had
nothing to do with this nightmare.

He lighted another match, but held it absently, until it scorched
his fingers, then flung it down with an angry exclamation. It
seemed as though the pain burned through all this fog of the past,
and showed him the facts which he must judge, and the folly of his
uncertainty. For, after all, what was this matter he was trying to
decide? Was it not merely the question of what was best for Amy,
not what was most comfortable for himself? It was that abstraction
called Honor, as applied to Amy’s happiness.

What was for her happiness, or, as he had put it first, what was
his duty to her? To let her know his past, or to keep a secret from
her, and allow her to suppose that she knew his life as she did her
own?

Admit that it was his impulse to tell her; what did that impulse
really mean? Primarily, that it would be a great relief to him;
the idea of having any reserves was most repugnant to him. For the
moment the instinct was again strong to tell her. But, frowning,
he went on with his argument: A relief to him; but what to her? A
pain and a shame; a memory that might outlast another twenty-three
years, perhaps. But she might want to know it? Well, that was no
reason. If she wanted poison, should he give it to her? And this
was poison. Did he not know that? Good God!

But she had a right to know it? Here he was perfectly clear;
certainly not. It in no wise bore upon his relation to her.
Furthermore, the question of prudence was not involved; there was
no chance that some day, somehow, it might come to her ears. She
could never hear it, except from him. If this were not the case, of
course he would tell her.

But was he deceiving her? Was he, as she put it, “taking her love
on false pretenses”? William West got up and walked the length of
his library; then he stopped by the open window, and looked out on
the silent street; a policeman on his beat glanced up and saw him,
and touched his helmet with two fingers.

“Good-evening, sir; don’t know but what I’d better say
good-morning!”

“What! Is it as late as all that, Reilly?” the minister said; and
added a friendly inquiry about the man’s hand, which seemed to be
hurt. Amy’s stern sense of the retributive justice of the accident
came into his mind, and he smiled involuntarily. The policeman
looked sheepish, as the clergyman meant he should, and turned the
conversation by remarking that he would “be lookin’ after the
rectory special when Mr. West was away on his weddin’ tower.”

“Thank you, Reilly!” the other answered heartily.

The policeman’s steps went echoing off into the night; a street
lamp flickered, and a puff of soft wind wandered into the window.

_Deceiving her: taking her love under false pretenses._

Was he anything but the man Amy supposed him to be? Very humbly,
very truly, he said to himself that, by the grace of God, he was
an honest, pure, God-fearing man. That sin of twenty-three years
ago was not his sin. He, William West, forty-two years old, whose
honorable record in the community was spread through all these
years of service, was not that base, mean, wicked boy. The sin was
not his. It was a sin of youth; a sin almost of childhood. It meant
nothing to him now.

“It is nothing now,” he insisted, passionately. Accustomed to
weigh other people’s actions and motives, he knew that he was
discriminating with almost judicial impartiality when he thus
looked himself in the face. “_A repentant man has no more to do
with his sin, for which he has repented and made reparation, than a
well man has to do with the disease of which he has been cured._”
He remembered that he had used this illustration once to some one
else; he must apply it now to himself. No; he was not deceiving
Amy. He was only sparing her--sparing her, to be sure, from a
pain she might wish to bear, but that had nothing to do with the
question. If she knew, she would suffer; not from a fact, but from
an illusion; for he would be confessing a sin which was not his
sin. Honor? The word seemed artificial as he thus put the situation
before him.

No; it would be cowardly to tell her, and it would be untrue. There
was nothing for him to do but face the fact that, to spare her,
he must bear, for the rest of his life, the wretched burden of
realizing that he had a secret from her.

Sanely, truly, this good man believed that his impulse to tell the
woman he loved was selfish and cowardly; it was an impulse to make
her share a burden which he deserved to bear alone. Furthermore,
it was the effect, not of reason, not of religion, not of
love; it was the effect, first, of the selfish desire to seek
relief by sharing a cruel knowledge; secondly, of a traditional
sentimentality, the weak and driveling outcome of that sense of
justice which is expressed in the willingness to bear consequences.

Well, the boy who had sinned had borne the consequences; he had
suffered.

For the man to suffer now, twenty-three years after, was
unreasonable, but inevitable.

For a woman, who had no part or lot in that young past, to suffer
now, twenty-three years afterwards, was foolish and useless.

If the man permitted it, he was a coward and a fool.

This, at least, was what William West told himself.


IV

The conclusion to which the Rev. Mr. West came was that, if his
love for Amy was deep enough and unselfish enough, he would hold
his tongue. He believed that confession, apart from reparation, was
the refuge of the weak mind.

Having thus decided to bear alone the burden of his secret, he
went, early in the morning, and told the woman he loved.

Of course, there is no explanation of this vacillation and
indifference to his own judgment, except the mere statement that he
was in love.

“Amy is trying on her dress,” Mrs. Paul said, when he was ushered
into the library, “so, if you want to see her, you can go home at
once. But perhaps you may condescend to talk to me a little while?”

“I must see Amy, please,” he said. He had a way of putting people
aside so gently and peremptorily that Mrs. Paul, who was not a
yielding person, never dreamed of protesting.

“I’ll tell her. But she really can’t come down for ten minutes. Do
you mind waiting?”

“Very much,” he said smiling. “Tell her to come down just as she
is, and let me see her frock.”

“Indeed, she shan’t do anything of the sort,” said Mrs. Paul, with
indignation; but relented to the extent of letting him have the
library to himself, and going upstairs to send the girl to him.

Amy came floating in with a snowy gleam and rustle, and stood
before him, bidding him not to dare to touch her; though, indeed,
being a mere man, he was far too uncomfortably awed to think of
taking this glorious white creature into his poor human arms.

“You are magnificent, but you are not Amy,” he said; “do get on
some common clothes. I’m afraid of you.”

“That is as it should be, sir!” she told him. “I shall dress
like this every day if it keeps you obedient. If I had had on my
wedding-dress last night, you would not have dared not to stay to
dinner when I--wanted you.”

Her look, through the mist of tulle, of soft reproach and
challenge, was too much for fear, and he boldly kissed her; which
made her protest, and fly from further risk of crushing the bravery
of her wedding-day. When she came back again, in a blue cotton
gown, trig and pretty, with a bunch of <DW29>s in her belt, there
was, fortunately, nothing to be hurt by being crushed.

There was a moment of tender and passionate silence. His errand
faded from William West’s mind; the reality of life was here! his
past was no more to him than the eggshell is to the eagle. So
when, later, leaning forward in his chair, holding her hand in
his, looking into her pure eyes, he began to speak, it was almost
casually. Before the great fact of human love, the question of
telling her or not telling her of that old dead and buried sin was
suddenly unimportant,--they loved each other!

“Dear,” he said, “I’ve come to tell you something. What you said
last night about having no reserves put it into my head. I had
forgotten it.”

It was characteristic of the man that there was no preamble;
his words were simple, and he was perfectly matter-of-fact and
unanxious; so much so that Amy laughed.

“Were you a year-old criminal? Well, tell me at once! I may
reconsider, you know.”

There was something in the assurance of her gayety that jarred a
little, and he said seriously:--

“It is a wrongdoing of my youth, Amy. I’m not sure that it is not
selfish to tell you about it; but I can’t bear the feeling of
holding anything back from you.”

An answering gravity came into the girl’s face, but she smiled.

“Tell me anything; I am not afraid to hear!”

Her innocent pride gave him a moment of sharp discomfort. Curiously
enough, what he had to tell her had not connected itself, in his
mind, with personal embarrassment; it had been too remote from
himself. He found himself hesitating for a word, and grasping
after that indifference to all but Love which he had felt but a
moment before.

“Perhaps I am a fool to tell you,” he began; “it may make you
unhappy, and”--

A startled look came into Amy’s eyes; then the color flooded up
into her face. She lifted her head with a beautiful, imperious
gesture, and stopped him with a word.

“I--understand. Don’t tell me. I--understand.” She bit her lip as
she spoke, and her eyelids quivered as though the tears had risen
suddenly.

“You understand?” he repeated, in a puzzled voice; “do you mean you
don’t want me to tell you?”

“William,” she said, in a low voice, “I do not think a woman has
any business with a good man’s life in the past; if--he was not
good. I am not a young girl. I am old enough to know that a man’s
life and a girl’s life are--different; but don’t tell me. I--love
you. Don’t tell me.” She trembled as she spoke, and then her eyes
sought his, filled with love and grief.

A wave of tenderness made his whole face melt and quiver. He
murmured something of his undesert of such love as this:--

“You are not like other women,” he told her, as every lover has
told his mistress since the sun first shone on lovers. “That
sin, the mean woman does not forgive. And yet it is so much more
pardonable than some other sins! More pardonable, dear, than what I
want to tell you.”

She drew a quick breath and smiled. “Ah,” she said, “I’m glad it
is not that!” Her relief was so apparent that he realized how
austerely sweet her face had been as she forgave him.

“Go on and tell me,” she said; “I am not afraid to hear anything
now.”

“That would have been the hardest thing to forgive?” he asked her.
She flashed a look of pride at him.

“The things I could not forgive, you could not do!”

This made him glow. After all, who would not confess anything, to
be met by such confident love as this?

“This happened long ago, Amy; when I was nineteen. I forged a check
for five hundred dollars.”

“Forged!” Her lips fell apart; she sat staring at him.

He was holding her hand, lifting it to his lips sometimes, and
looking at it as it lay in his. He went on, quietly:--

“It was when I was at college; I needed money; and--poor,
desperate, wicked, silly young man--I forged Professor Wilson’s
name. I don’t know what I supposed would become of me when it
was found out. And I don’t know what would have become of me,
but Henry Wilson died before the month was out, and so, by some
strange chance, it never was discovered. If it had been--well,
you and I would not have been here to-day. Human justice would
have interposed before Divine mercy”--He looked up with a solemn
elation which seemed to put self out of his mind. “I might have
gone lower and lower! Who can say? It was an easy thing to do,
for I was his secretary, and he trusted me. That, of course, was
the most horrible part of what I did, the part that now seems to
me incomprehensible--the broken trust! Well, of course, I made
reparation, as I called it, out of the money he left me. I gave
away many times the amount I stole; but it was only because I was
scared at the risk I had run, and the thought of it harassed me. It
was a sort of expedient morality, you know; a sort of bargain with
my conscience for peace of mind. Then, about a year afterwards, I
met X----. I heard him preach, and life changed. How extraordinary
it seems to look back upon it now! Then I repented. Before, I had
only reformed. That was when I entered the divinity school. But
just think, Amy, just think of the difference! How life might have
gone--yet here I am to-day, your lover, your husband. Oh, the mercy
of God!”

He was deeply moved. He got up and walked the length of the room.
Amy sat silently looking down at her hands in her lap. When he
came back, his eyes were full of peace.

“That is all, dearest; now we will forget it. You know my life as
you do your own.”

“Forget it?” she repeated, with a sudden, sobbing laugh, that tore
at the man’s heart.

“Amy! dearest! have I shocked you so? Remember, it was twenty-three
years ago; I was only a boy. Let me tell you how it was: I was
madly in love with a woman; at least, it was not love, but I
thought it was; she fascinated me, and”--

“Oh, go on--go on!” she interrupted, hoarsely; “as if I cared about
that!”

He tried to take her hand, but she made a pretense of arranging
the flowers in her belt; her head was turned a little from him. He
leaned forward, with a grave authority to command her attention,
took the <DW29>s from her, and held them in his hand.

“I was possessed to marry her. Of course, she would not look at
me--a penniless, charity student. But I strained every nerve to
win her. It was the old story. She took my flowers, or theatre
tickets, or anything I could give her. Curious, the mercenariness
of the woman did not revolt me! But I was mad about her. I thought,
at last, that if I had money I could give her some jewels she
wanted, and perhaps she would accept me. That was how it came
about. She took the diamonds, and eloped with a married man two
days afterwards.”

As he told the story, the grossness of it all came over him,--the
offense to the exquisite delicacy of the girl beside him.

“But I ought not to have told you this,” he stammered.

“What?” she said dully. “About the woman? Oh, as if that mattered!”
She turned from him sharply, putting the back of her hand against
her lips as though to hide their quiver.

Then she burst out: “Oh, why did you tell me? Why? why? Oh, I wish
you had not told me!” She shook from head to foot. “But it will
make no difference! I will not let it make any difference. I am
going to marry you. Only--_I never knew you_!”

Those most terrible words, those words with which Love destroys
itself, came like a blow between the eyes. He grew very pale. “‘Not
make any difference’?” he repeated, blankly, “why, what difference
could it make?”

She stopped crying, suddenly, and stood, panting, steadying herself
by her hands upon his breast, and staring at him. There was
something almost terrifying in this sudden pause and in her burning
look.

“It’s the one thing,” she said, “don’t you see? that lasts. It
isn’t like--other things.”

“But it was not I,” he said, mechanically. “Not I, the man you--you
thought you knew. It was a boy, twenty-three years ago. Amy, Amy!
Twenty-three years ago!”

She did not listen; she kept repeating to herself: “It shall make
no difference. I will not let it make any difference.” Alas, it was
not for her to say! The difference was made; the jewel crushed
under foot is no more a jewel; the rose thrown into the fire is no
more a rose. The stained human soul is no more the innocent human
soul.

“But you must listen to me, Amy,” he said. “No, I will not speak
until you are calm. Sit down. Look at me. Now, listen to what
I have to say.” He spoke slowly and gently, as one does to a
terrified, unreasonable child.

“Dear, I had forgotten it. So little is it a part of my life that
I had forgotten it. When I remembered it last night, it was with a
sense of astonishment, a sense of pity for the mad boy who did it.
I had no personal shame,--it seemed to belong to some one else,
whom I watched with sorrow and indignation. I do not believe that
to-day, more than twenty years afterwards, I have any business to
think of it.”

“Then why did you tell me?” she said wearily. “Oh, don’t talk about
it any more. I am going to forget it. Good-by. I am going upstairs.
I have a headache. Good-by.”

She let her hand slip listlessly out of his, and left him standing,
blankly, his lips parted for another protest, and the flowers from
her belt between his fingers.


V

As he went out past the drawing-room door, Mrs. Paul called to
him:--

“Do come here a moment, Mr. West. Isn’t Amy pretty in her
wedding-dress? You really must tell me what to do about something.
There is a family”--and she entered upon a puzzling question of
relief work, her forehead gathering into a frown, yet with her kind
eyes denying the severe common-sense of her statement, that if a
man will not work neither shall he eat.

“But you see we can’t let the children go hungry,” she ended.

The consideration of other people’s weaknesses and wickedness gave
William West time to get his breath; he threw himself into the
question with keen and intelligent sympathy. He pointed out this;
he suggested that; he cleared the puzzle out of Mrs. Paul’s face,
and all the time he was half deafened by a clamoring suspicion:
“Have I been a fool? She will never forget it! It will always be
between us. I’ve been a cowardly fool.”

“Well, that’s all settled,” said Mrs. Paul, with an air of relief;
“now tell me, what day shall I have Amy’s things sent to the
rectory? And shall I take the silver from the bank the day before
you arrive? Is it safe to leave it at your house? I hate the
responsibility of other people’s silver!”

“Oh, certainly, yes,” he answered, suddenly absent; and, with a
curt good-by, left her.

Somehow or other, he hardly knew how, he got through the day. There
was a service in the afternoon, and there were other people’s
affairs and sorrows to remember; fortunately, there always is duty
for us poor human creatures as a refuge from our thoughts! Duties
to be done saved William West from desperately going back to Amy to
explain. For he was guilty of the impulse of “explanation,” the
babble with which the weak mind is forever annotating its remarks
or its opinions.

Well, the day passed. In spite of a craving to see Amy that was
almost agonizing, he held on to his common-sense, and left her to
herself. In the evening, his lawyer came in, bringing some papers
in regard to certain property which it was the minister’s intention
to make over to his wife, and the looking these over, and the
business talk, was a relief to him. He began to feel that he had
taken Amy’s perturbation much too seriously; it would be all right;
she would see things clearly when the first dismay had passed. He
thought, tenderly, that he must not let her feel any regret for
having for a moment shown him her pain at what he had told her. Her
pain was only part of her exquisite goodness, that goodness which
held her, remote and lovely, like some pure and luminous star, so
far above the sordid meannesses and wickednesses of common life
that she could not understand them; perhaps even she could not pity
them. Only the sinlessness which was in all points tempted like as
we are can at once understand and pity; his thought, chastened and
passionate, fled back to his Master for comfort,--yet there was no
reproach of Amy in his mind.

It must have been after ten, as he and Mr. Woodhouse sat before the
broad writing-table, with the litter of papers and memoranda before
them, that John Paul suddenly burst into the room.

The senior warden’s strong, kind face was flushed; he was plainly
profoundly disturbed and upset.

“West”--he said explosively, and stopped, seeing that they were not
alone. “My dear fellow,” he began again, stammering with agitation,
“can I see you a moment? A matter of business, Woodhouse, if you
don’t mind. Can we go into another room, West?”

But the lawyer protested that he was just about to go home. “I have
married a wife; you’ll see how it is yourself, Billy, pretty soon!
Lois allows me twenty minutes leeway of the hour I name to get
home, and if I’m not back then, she threatens to send a policeman
after me. Good-night. Good-night, John.” And he went whistling off
into the night.

The minister had not spoken.

“Look here,” John Paul said, as the front door banged, “what
under the sun is this business? Good Lord, West, Amy’s sent you
a letter--Kate told me to break it to you, but I--confound it,
man--go and read it. The girl’s crazy. Go and read it. What are we
going to do?”

Without a word William West took the letter and read it, standing
facing Mr. Paul. (“It looked,” John Paul told his wife afterwards,
“as though he died, then and there.”)

    “_You were right to tell me--only please--please don’t make me
    marry you. I cannot. I could never forget. If it were anything
    else--anything else--it would be different; but theft--oh, how
    cruel I am to say that! but I cannot marry you. There’s no use
    talking about forgiveness. I don’t want you to forgive me. I
    want you to hate me; then you will suffer less. Hate me. I’m
    not worth anything else. I’m going home to-morrow. It can be
    said I am ill, and the wedding is put off. I am ill, it won’t
    be a lie. Please don’t ask to see me. I cannot see you. Forgive
    me._

  _A._”

William West sat down, folding the letter between his fingers.

“There’s nothing to be said.” He spoke very quietly. Then he opened
the letter again, and looked down at it.

“West, for God’s sake,” John Paul entreated him; “listen, man!
don’t take it like that. The girl is out of her mind. Here, pull
yourself together! It’s a passing whim; you will bring her to her
senses as soon as you see her.”

“She will not see me,” he said. As he spoke his eye caught the
headlines of the deed of gift, and he read them absently:--

    “=This Indenture= _made this ---- day of ----, Anno Domini
    18--, Witnesseth: that William West, the grantor, for divers
    good and valuable considerations to him moving, has, and by
    these presents does give, grant, and convey_”--

The fold in the deed hid the rest.

“She’s got to see you!” John Paul said angrily. “What’s the matter
with her? Is she out of her senses? All I know is what Kate told
me. She asked me to bring you the letter. She said Amy had broken
her engagement. You could have knocked me over with a straw. She
wouldn’t give any reasons. But I’m touched by this business. If a
woman in my household suddenly forgets honor and common decency,
I’m touched by it! Unless you’ve given her cause?”

He walked up and down, breathing hard, his hands thrust into his
pockets, jingling his latchkeys for the mere relief of doing
something. William West put the little note into his pocket.

“I’ve given her cause,” he said.

His senior warden stopped in front of him, and looked at him
critically. “You’re lying to me. I know you! It’s a girl’s whim,
and I’m touched by it, I tell you. She’s a member of my family.
I shall see her (she wouldn’t see me before I started here), and
straighten this business out. Kate is nearly dead with it. My wife
looked like a ghost when she came and told me--and the wedding day
after to-morrow! No; I’m going to straighten this thing out. What I
want you to do is to tell me, man to man, what started it?”

“Amy is perfectly justified,” William West said dully. “I told her
this morning that I had committed a forgery.”

“A--?” John Paul sat down, his mouth open, his plump hands on his
knees, his eyes starting from his head.

“You are out of your mind!”

William West laughed shortly.

“I think, perhaps, I was when I told her. Yes; I was a fool. It
was twenty-three years ago; I had just about forgotten it. When I
remembered, I told her. It was too much for her. She is right to
stop now. If she can throw me over, thank Heaven she has done so!”

The bitterness of it burst out in that last sentence. Then,
quietly, he told Amy’s cousin the story of that long-buried youth.
When it was done, John Paul said huskily:--

“West, I don’t know what to think of your telling her; but I know
what to think of you. And I know what to think of Amy.”

William West said nothing; he took the little note out of his
pocket and turned it over and over.

(“He seemed to go to pieces before my eyes,” John Paul told his
wife. “I tell you, Kate, I saw him lose his moral grip! Poor
West--poor fellow!”)

Mr. Paul sat helplessly looking at his clergyman, until he had a
sense of indecency in watching the suffering of this silent human
creature. Then he said vaguely:--

“I suppose you want me to clear out? But just tell me; what do you
want me to do?”

“Nothing.”

“But don’t you mean to make any effort to bring her to her senses?”
burst out the other.

“There’s nothing to be done,” the lover said. “It’s over--don’t
you see?”

“It’s not over,” insisted Amy’s cousin; “I shall see her; this
thing can’t go on. I’ll send for you; you are well rid of her; it
will be all right, I”--Storming and protesting and contradicting
himself, he went out of the rectory, scarcely noticing that his
host saw him to the door, and let him out, in absolute silence.

Then William West went back and locked himself into his library.


VI

The senior warden of St. James was wrong when he said that his
minister lost his moral grip. There was, no doubt, a time of
upheaval and shock, a staggering under a calamity which seemed to
have no moral excuse, to be only a senseless shattering of a human
life.

But he got his balance again. He made no effort to see Amy. This
was partly to spare her, and partly from a sense of the futility
of argument; the thing was done; if she married him ten times
over, it would not be the same. As she said, she had never known
him; and perhaps he had never known her. But, for that matter, who
of us knows the other? The question is, is it worth while to try
to attain, or to bestow, such knowledge? Gossip, of course, had
run riot when it was known that he had been jilted; but gossip,
after it reaches a certain point of insult and falsehood, becomes
a source of amusement to its victims. West, with his delicate
sense of humor, found other people’s opinions of his sufferings
not without interest. It being nobody’s business but his own,
only three people besides Miss Townsend and himself knew the
facts--the Pauls and his own lawyer; so no light was thrown upon
the subject to Mercer, which seethed and bubbled, and made itself
wildly ludicrous. The minister went away after that first fury of
parish excitement was over, and came back in four months, quite
brown, with a good appetite, and several very interesting pieces
of tapestry which he had picked up on the other side. He dined a
little less frequently at the Pauls’, and was never once reminded
that Mrs. Paul had been instrumental in bringing him to Mercer.

He became, perhaps, a little more of a man’s man; a little more
impatient with his feminine correspondents; a little less polite
to the old ladies, who thought him less good-looking “since his
disappointment.” But he took a deep and passionate hold upon
affairs; the conditions of labor, the hideous problems of vice; the
reformation of the sordid politics of the small city in which he
lived,--these things filled his life. Were they enough? Who knows!
We make husks into bread when the soul starves.

As for Amy, that is another story.

       *       *       *       *       *

It was nearly two years after this that John Paul walked home one
night with Mr. Woodhouse, who was a fellow vestryman of St. James.
They had been sitting smoking by William West’s fireside, talking
over a strike which was on in one of the mills, where it seemed
as though the rights lay with the strikers; a fact which these
gentlemen believed to be unusual. It was nearly midnight when they
left the rectory and went along the empty, echoing street together.

“It strikes me,” said Mr. Paul, “that you hadn’t much to say for
yourself to-night, Woodhouse. You’re the canniest fellow about
giving an opinion! Didn’t you want to commit yourself?”

“I haven’t any opinion yet,” said the other man slowly; “and,
somehow, I got to thinking--I say, John, after all, what do you
make of West’s telling Miss Townsend that matter?”

“I think she didn’t know which side her bread was buttered,” John
Paul said gruffly.

“Oh, that’s another question,” the lawyer said. “I think almost any
woman is too good for almost any man. I wonder they don’t all think
better of it at the last moment, and throw us over!”

“How long have you been married, Gifford?” the older man inquired
cynically. “I’ll tell you what Kate says: Kate says if Amy could
throw him over, she ought to have had the chance to. So she thinks
West ought to have told her.”

“That’s like saying, if there is a chance of breaking your neck by
taking some preposterous leap, take it,” the lawyer commented. “But
as I look back at it now, and see how it has aged Billy, and--well,
hardened him a little, I think--it seems such an unnecessary
calamity; such a blunder! And yet”--

“Kate has views about heredity, and all that sort of thing,” Mr.
Paul explained. “She says a woman has a right to say her children
shan’t have a--shady character for a father. That was too much for
me; I don’t generally contradict my Boss; it isn’t peaceful. But
that was too much for me! Billy West shady! I gave my wife a piece
of my mind. I tell you, Woodhouse, women are hard.”

“Well, but there’s something in that,” the lawyer protested. “A
woman has not only a right, but a duty, to think of her children,
and a possible moral taint”--

“Moral grandmother!” John Paul broke in; “West is one man in
a hundred. I think he’s well rid of Amy: I told him so at the
time. Why, look here; a man who has not repented of his sin has
no inclination to confess it. And, having repented and made
reparation, confession becomes a mere matter of expediency. Why,
good heavens, Gifford! is there to be no escape from sin? What’s
all this talk about forgiveness mean, if we’ve got to rake up
the past and agonize over it as long as we live? Isn’t there any
statute of limitation in things spiritual? I don’t believe any
large mind dwells on its sins, any more than on its virtues! And
yet,” he ended, suddenly cooling, “I swear it is a difficult
question, the telling or not telling the girl you are going to
marry.”

“If you bring it down to expediency, it’s simple enough,” Gifford
Woodhouse said; “it was obviously inexpedient. Even if she had
married him, and simply remembered, would either of them have been
any better off? Would any end have been subserved by putting such
painful knowledge on her conscience as well as his own? It was
not as though there was a lady ‘with nine small children and one
at the breast’ somewhere round the corner in the Past, who might
turn up some day. That sort of sin affects the relation of the
man and woman, and it may be simple prudence to confess. Though I
think there is a question, even there. But in this case expediency,
you might even call it unselfishness, would make him hold his
tongue. The only thing is, perhaps there is something higher than
expediency?”

They had reached Mr. Paul’s door; he pitched his cigar into the
street and pulled out his keys, shaking them on the end of their
chain.

“You mean, abstractly, is it right or wrong, under circumstances
like these, where no third person is to be cleared or benefited, to
tell? Does honor demand confession?”

“Yes,” said the vestryman; “was it a duty to speak, or a duty to be
silent?”

There was a moment’s silence.

“Was West a fool or a saint?” insisted the younger man.

“I’ll be hanged if I know,” said the senior warden.




THE HOUSE OF RIMMON


I

THE Rev. Silas Eaton was dead.

It was May, and the little orchard behind the parsonage was like a
white and perfumed cloak flung on the shoulder of a bare hillside
which was, all the rest of it, rocky pasture. Under the trees, and
in the shelter of the stone walls, the grass was growing green. The
apple blossoms were just beginning to fall; in any breath of wind
single petals, white, stained outside with crimson, came down in
flurries, like gusts of warm and aromatic snow. There was a stir
of life everywhere. In the parsonage garden crown imperials had
pushed their strong stalks through the damp earth, and peonies were
reaching up long slender arms, each with its red curled fist of
leaves, reluctant to expand until certain of the sun. The ground
was spongy beneath the foot, and there were small springs bubbling
up under every winter-bleached tuft of last year’s grass. The air,
full of the scent of earth and growing things, was warm and sweet,
yet with an edge of cold--the sword of frost in a velvet scabbard.

Life--life: and in the upper chamber of the parsonage the master
lay dead.

One of the children had put a bunch of apple blossoms on the table
at the head of the bed. They were not appropriate--the soft, rosy
flowers beside the hard face there on the pillow; the face with its
thatch of gray hair over the narrow, domelike brow, seamed and cut
with wrinkles; the anxious, melancholy lips set in such icy and
eternal indifference--the face of the religious egotist, stamped
with inexorable sincerity, stern and cold and mean. Not a father’s
face. But his daughter had put her handful of snowy flowers on the
pine table, their little gnarled black stems thrust tightly down
into a tumbler of water. And then she went tiptoeing out of the
silent room. She heard her mother’s little, light voice downstairs
in the parlor, and Elder Barnes’s low, respectful murmur in
response. They were “making the arrangements.” Esther’s heart stood
still, not with grief, but with misery at the strangeness of it
all--her silent, meek, obedient mother saying what should or what
should not happen to--father!

“And, Mr. Barnes, if it will not be a trouble, will you find out
for me how much it would cost to send a telegram to my brother in
Mercer?”

Esther, leaning over the banisters in the upper hall, opened her
lips with astonishment. A telegram! It gave the child a sense of
the dreadful importance of this May day as nothing else had done.
The thought of the expense of it came next, sobering that curious
sense of elation which is part of bereavement.

“Mother oughtn’t to do that. It will cost--oh, it will cost at
least a dollar!”

This fifteen-year old Esther had a certain grim practicality, born
of a childhood in a minister’s family on five hundred dollars
a year. A dollar! And that uncle in Mercer, whom she had never
seen, who had quarreled with her mother because she married her
father, and who was so rich and powerful (according to a newspaper
paragraph she had once read)--this uncle, who had had no connection
with them in all these years--what was the use of wasting a dollar
in telegraphing him? She meant to say so; and yet, when she went
downstairs, after Elder Barnes had gone, and found her little
mother standing at the window, looking blankly out at the garden,
there was something in the mild, faded face that kept the girl
silent. She came up and put her strong young arm about her, and
kissed her softly.

“Mother, won’t you lie down?”

“No, dear; I am not tired. Mr. Barnes has been very kind in telling
me what must be done. I do hope everything will be as--_he_ would
wish.”

They did not speak for a little while, and then Esther said, in a
low voice, “Mother, I don’t want to worry you, and--and perhaps
it’s very soon to speak of it, but have you thought at all of what
is going to become of us?”

Her mother put up her hand with a sort of shiver. “No, no; not
yet. We mustn’t talk of that yet. Oh, Esther, he is dead! Poor
Silas--poor Silas!” She caught her breath like a child, and looked
up at her tall daughter in a frightened way.

Esther nodded and cried a little; then she wiped her eyes, and
said, hesitating: “You’re going to get a crêpe veil, aren’t you,
mother, and a black dress? And I think I ought to have a black
dress.”

“We haven’t any money for new clothes, Essie,” Mrs. Eaton answered
tremulously.

“But I think we ought to wear black,” Esther protested. “It isn’t
proper not to.”

The other sighed with anxiety. “I don’t see how we can. He would
not wish us to waste the money.”

They were very intimate, these two; for each had found the other a
shelter from the fierce integrity which had ruled the family life.
And now instinctively they nestled together, panting and chirping
like two frightened birds, and saying to each other, “_He_ would
wish this, or that.”

But he was dead, and the face of life was suddenly changed to them
both. The withdrawal of the dominant righteous will of husband
and father made an abrupt silence in their lives--a silence which
was as overwhelming in its way as grief. To the mother it was as
though having been borne helplessly along on some powerful arm,
she had been suddenly set down on her own feet, and bidden to lead
and carry others. Esther’s frightened question, “What is going
to become of us?” echoed in her ears like a crash of bewildering
sound. She had no answer; all she knew was that she must take care
of the children; work for them; fight for them--poor little weak
creature!--if necessary. She was thirty-five, this mother, but she
looked much older. Once she must have been pretty; one knew that
by the startled softness of her hazel eyes and the delicately cut
pale lips; but her forehead, rounded like a child’s, was worn
and full of lines, and her whole expression so timid and anxious
and deprecating that one only thought of what her life must have
been to cut so deep a stamp on such gentle and vague material.
It had been, since her marriage, a very uneventful life, its
keenest excitement the making both ends meet on her husband’s
salary. Before that there had, indeed, been the keen and exciting
experience of marrying in opposition to her father’s command, and
being practically disowned by her people. She was Lydia Blair, a
girl of good family, gentle and dutiful, as girls were expected
to be thirty years ago--one of those pleasant girls who let
their elders and betters think for them, and are loved as one
loves comfortable and inanimate things. And then, suddenly, had
appeared this harsh, fiery, narrow New England minister, of another
denomination, of another temperament--for that matter, of another
class; and she had developed a will of her own and married him.
Why? Everybody who knew her asked, “Why?” Perhaps afterwards she
herself asked why--afterwards, when he became so intent upon saving
his own soul that he had no time to win his children’s love or to
make love to his wife. By the time he came to die, very likely he
had forgotten he ever had made love to her. He called her “Mrs.
Eaton,” and he was as used to her as he was to his battered old
desk or his worn Bible. But when he came to die, he lay in his bed
and watched her as he had not done these fifteen years; and once
he said, when she brought him his medicine, “You’ve been a good
wife, Mrs. Eaton;” and once, “You’re very kind, Lily.” But this was
at the end, and the doctor said his mind was wandering. And then
the end had come, in the spring night, towards dawn; and now he
was lying still, as indifferent to the soft weather, the shower of
apple blossoms, the two children whispering about the house, the
wife staring, dry-eyed, out into the sunshine--as indifferent as he
always had been.

Well, well; he was a good man, they said; and now he had gone to
find the God whom he had defamed and vilified under the name of
religion, imputing to Him meanness and cruelty and revenge--the
passions of his own poor human nature.

And may that God have mercy on his soul!


II

Robert Blair came into the dining-room, holding the “dollar
telegram” in his hand. His wife looked up at him, smiling.

“It is really shameful the way business pursues you! I am going to
tell Samuel to burn all dispatches that come here. Your office is
the place for those horrid yellow papers.”

“It isn’t business this time, Nellie; it’s death.”

“Oh, Robert!”

“Oh,” he hastened to explain, “it’s nothing that touches us. My
sister Lydia’s husband is dead. You have heard me speak of my
sister Lydia, haven’t you? It was long before your day, you baby,
that she married him. Ah, well, what a pretty girl she was!” He
sat down, shook his head when the man offered him some soup, and
opened his napkin thoughtfully. “Well, he’s dead. He was a most
objectionable person”--

Mrs. Blair looked at the butler’s back as he stood at the
sideboard, and raised her eyebrows; but her husband went on, a
wrinkle like a cut deepening on his forehead:--

“My father forbade it--did I never tell you about it?--but Lydia,
who had always been a nonentity, suddenly acquired a will, and
married him. My father never forgave her. She evidently didn’t care
for any affection that didn’t include him, and cut herself off from
all of us. Of course I’m sorry for her now; but I don’t feel that
I have anything to reproach myself with.” He tapped the table with
impatient fingers, and told the butler that he didn’t want his
claret _boiled_. “Haven’t you any sense, Samuel? You’re a perfect
fool about wine; here, throw that out of the window, and get me a
fresh bottle!”

Mrs. Blair was a beautiful young woman, who, two years before, had
married this irascible, successful, dogmatic man, and (so Mercer
said) could wind him round any one of her pretty jeweled fingers
whenever she wanted to. He certainly was very much in love--and so
was she, though her particular world never believed it, alleging
that she was not indifferent to the loaves and fishes.

But the fact was Mrs. Blair took the loaves and fishes with a
childlike delight which meant appreciation, certainly, but not
avarice. She enjoyed her wealth, and her life, and herself,
immensely and openly; and that was her charm to her husband, a
man immersed in large affairs, sagacious, powerful, and without
imagination. He was a cultivated man, because his forbears had been
educated people, of sober, comfortable wealth; hence he had gone
to college, like other young men of his class, and had traveled,
and had acquired an intellectual, or rather a commercial knowledge
of Art. But, until he married, every instinct was for power, and
the making of money. After that, though the guiding principle
remained the same, a sense of beauty did awaken in him. He never
flagged in his fierce and joyous and cruel passion for getting;
but he delighted in his wife--perhaps as one of his own enormous
machines might have delighted in a ray of sunlight dancing across
its steel shafts, and flickering through the thunderous whir of its
driving-wheel. He loaded the girl he married with every luxury;
almost immediately she found she had nothing left to desire--from
dogs to diamonds, houses, yachts, or pictures. She, poor child,
realized no deprivation in seeing every wish fulfilled, and
thought herself the luckiest and the happiest woman in the world.
Her money, combined with a good deal of common-sense, gave her
the power to interfere helpfully in the lives of less fortunate
people. She called it Philanthropy, and found playing Providence
to the halt, the maimed, and the blind a really keen interest. Her
impulse was always to “manage”; and so, when her husband, frowning,
and perhaps a little less satisfied with himself than usual,
began to talk about his sister’s affairs, Mrs. Blair was instantly
interested.

“Of course her husband’s death will make a difference in her
income?” she said, as they went upstairs to the library. “A country
minister’s salary doesn’t amount to much anyhow; but”--

“Well, she made her bed,” he interrupted sharply; “she ought to be
willing to lie in it!”

“Oh, yes, of course; but now the man is dead, it’s different. I
know you want to do something for her, you are so generous.”

He pulled her pretty ear at that, and told her she was a flattering
little humbug. “What do you want, diplomat? You’ll bankrupt me
yet. Am I to build a palace for Lily? Look here, I wrote that West
Virginia college president to-day and told him I’d give him the
money he wanted. It’s all your doing, but I get the name of a great
educator.”

“Oh, Robert, how good you are! I think that ought to silence the
people that say you ‘grind the face of the poor.’ I saw that in the
paper to-day. Beasts! and you are so generous! I tell you what
I want: I want you to have them come here, your sister and the
children”--

“You angel!” he said. “No; that’s dangerous. We mightn’t like the
brats. The boy’s name is Silas. I don’t think I could stand a cub
named Silas. But the girl wouldn’t be so bad. As for Lily (we
used to call her Lily when she was a girl), she is one of those
gentle, colorless women, all virtue and no opinions, whom anybody
could live with. Rather a fool, you know. But we’ll have them come
and make us a visit, if it won’t bore you. If we like it, we can
prolong it. Anyhow, I’ll see that poor Lil has a decent income. You
know, my father didn’t leave her a cent. The old gentleman said he
wouldn’t have ‘that hell-fire Presbyterian use any of his money for
his damned heathen!’ But I’ll look after her now.”

       *       *       *       *       *

Thus it was that a home was prepared for Silas Eaton’s widow;
the offer of it came the day after the funeral, when she sat
down to face the future. She had gone over her assets, in her
halting, feminine way, counting up the dollars on her fingers, and
subtracting the debts with a stubby lead-pencil on the back of an
old envelope; and she had discovered that when all the expenses of
the funeral were paid she would have in the bank one hundred and
seventy-five dollars. If she could manage to sell her husband’s
very limited library, she might add a few dollars to that sum; but
very few.

One hundred and seventy-five dollars! She must go to some city, and
go to work, so that Silas and Esther might be educated. She had
got as far as that when her brother’s letter came. He would have
come himself, he said, but was detained by an annoying strike in
one of his rolling-mills, and so wrote to ask her to come, with the
children, and visit him for a little while; “then we’ll see what
can be done; but don’t worry about ways and means. I will see to
all that.”

She read the straightforward, kindly words, her heart beating so
she could scarcely breathe. Then she covered her face with her
hands, and trembled with excitement and relief. “Oh,” she said,
“the children won’t be poor! Robert will take care of us.”


III

When Mrs. Eaton went to Mercer, the change in her life was absolute
and bewildering. Robert Blair’s enormous wealth was, at first,
simply not to be realized. The subdued and refined magnificence
of the house conveyed nothing to his sister’s mind, because she
had no standard of value. The pictures and tapestries implied not
money, but only beauty and joy, for she had never dreamed of buying
anything but food and clothes; so how could she guess that all the
money of all her sixteen years on a minister’s salary would not
have purchased, say, the small misty square of canvas that held in
one corner a wonderful and noble and peasant name?

The first night in the great wainscoted dining-room, with a man
bringing unknown dishes to her elbow, with candles shining on
elaborate and useless pieces of silver, with the glow of firelight
flickering out from under a superb chimney-piece of Mexican marble,
and dancing about the stately and dignified room--the beauty
and the graciousness and the wonder of it was an overwhelming
experience, though she had not the dimmest idea of the fortune it
represented--a fortune notorious and envied the land over. That she
had had no share in it until now did not wound her in the least;
she was grateful for the warmth and the comfort and the kindness,
now they had come; she never harked back to the painful years of
silence and forgetfulness.

Her brother and his wife watched her, amused and interested; her
dazzled admiration of everything was half touching, half droll. But
what a confession it was! Eleanor Blair realized this, and she said
to herself, warmly, that she would make up to Robert’s sister for
the past. She was in her element in arranging her sister-in-law’s
future; she made a dozen plans for her in the first week; but her
husband laughed and shook his head.

“Wait,” he said; “time enough when we see how we get along.”

But they got along very well. The children, after the first shy
awkwardness had worn off, were really attractive. Silas, an
eager brown-eyed boy of eleven, lovable in spite of his name,
made artless and pretty love to his pretty aunt, who found him a
delightful plaything. “The serious Esther,” as her uncle called
her, was a friendly little creature, when one came to know her; her
common-sense commended her to Mr. Blair, and her dressmaking and
her education were an immediate interest to her aunt.

So it came about that the visit was prolonged, and the project of a
little establishment of her own for Mrs. Eaton gradually given up;
at all events, for the present. It was very satisfactory as it was.
The house was so big, they were not in the way; and Mrs. Eaton’s
mourning kept her in the background in regard to society--which
“was just as well,” Mrs. Blair admitted, smiling to herself--but
it made no difference in her usefulness. She was really quite
useful in one way or another; she could write an intelligent note
to a tradesman, or reply (by formula) to a begging letter; so, by
and by, she was practically her sister-in-law’s secretary, and
certainly the Blairs had never had either a maid or a butler who
could begin to arrange flowers for a dinner party as Mrs. Eaton
did. She was silent, and rather vague, but always gentle, and ready
and eager to fetch and carry for anybody. She so rarely expressed
any opinion of her own, that when she did the two strong and
good-natured people who made her life so easy for her could hardly
take it seriously. She did, to be sure, decline to change her son’s
objectionable name, on the ground that it was his name, and so
could not be changed; “and,” Mrs. Blair complained once, “she won’t
let me send Esther to dancing-school. I asked her if she thought
dancing was wrong, and she said, ‘Oh, no; but Mr. Eaton did.’ Isn’t
it funny?”

Robert Blair laughed, and said he would straighten that out. But,
somehow, it was not straightened out. Esther teased, and Mrs.
Blair was just a little impatient and sarcastic. But Esther did not
go to dancing-school.

“I’m sorry to displease you, Eleanor,” Mrs. Eaton said, shrinking
as she spoke, like a frightened animal which expects a blow,
“but--I can’t allow it. Mr. Eaton would not have wished it.”

Yet, negative as she seemed, the little quiet woman was keenly
alive to the advantages of this full, rich life for the children,
and, indeed, for herself. Mere rest was such a luxury to her, for
she had lived and worked as only a country minister’s wife must.
So, to feel no anxiety, to have delicate food, to know the touch
of fine linen,--in fact, to be comfortable, meant more to her
than even her brother, enjoying his generosity towards her, could
possibly imagine.

So life began for his sister and her children in Robert Blair’s
beautiful great house in the new part of Mercer,--the new part
which is not offended by the sight of those great black chimneys
roaring with sapphire and saffron flames, or belching monstrous
coils of black smoke, threaded with showers of sparks,--those
chimneys and roofs which are not beautiful to look upon, but which
have made the “new” part of Mercer possible. When Mrs. Eaton came
to her brother’s house, these unlovely foundations of his fortune
were still for a month. There was a strike on, and Mercer was
cleaner and quieter than it had been for many months,--in fact,
than it had been since the last strike. The clang and clamor of the
machine-shops, the scream of the steel saws biting into the living,
glowing rails, the thunderous crash of plates being tested in the
hot gloom of the foundries, had all stopped.

“And, oh dear me,” said Mrs. Blair, “what a relief it is! Of course
it’s very annoying to have them strike, and all that, but when one
drives into town to get to the other side of the river, the noise
is perfectly intolerable. And when the wind is in that direction,
we can really hear the roar even out here.”

She said this to her clergyman, who looked at her with a veiled
sparkle of humor in his handsome eyes.

“So the puddlers shall starve to make a Mercer holiday,” he said
good-naturedly.

“If they choose to strike, they must take the consequences,” she
replied, with some spirit. “Besides, they are the most ungrateful
creatures! Well, I’m sure I don’t know what we’re coming to!”

“Something may be coming to us,” her visitor said, with a whimsical
look, but he sighed, and got up to take his leave. His charming
parishioner sighed too, prettily, and said with much feeling,--

“Of course, Mr. West, if there are any cases that need help, you’ll
let me know.”

“But, Nellie,” said Mrs. Eaton, who had been sitting silent, as
usual, and quite overlooked by the other two, “is there any use in
helping the people who are in trouble because they are out of work,
and yet not letting them go to work?”

Mrs. Blair laughed, in spite of herself, the protest was so
unexpected, and so absurd, coming from this meek source. “My dear,”
she said, “you don’t understand; they can go to work if they want
to.”

“Well,” Mrs. Eaton said anxiously, “I should think, either they are
wrong, and so you shouldn’t help them, or they are right, and they
ought to get what they want.”

Her sister stared at her, and then laughed again, greatly amused;
but William West put on his glasses and gave her a keen look.

“Mrs. Eaton, don’t you want to help us on the Organized Relief
Association?”

“Yes, sir,” said Lydia Eaton, “if there’s anything I can do.”

“I don’t want to steal your services away from any other parson,”
he said pleasantly. “I suppose you belong to Mr. Hudson’s flock?
You are a Presbyterian, of course?”

“No, sir, I am not,” she said, the color rising in her face.

“Oh, then you do belong to me?” he said smiling.

“I’m not an Episcopalian,” she answered, with a frightened look.

“Then what on earth are you?” Mrs. Blair asked her, laughing.

“I’m not--anything,” she said, her voice trembling; “but, Eleanor,
please don’t speak of it. The children must not know it. Mr. Eaton
would want them to be members of his church. So we must always go
there.”

There was an instant’s awkward pause. Mrs. Blair looked very
disapproving.

“Why, Lydia,” she said, “do you mean you don’t believe things? Why,
I never had a doubt in my life!” she exclaimed, turning to the
minister, who was silent.

Mrs. Eaton caught her breath, and looked at him too, her mild eyes
full of pain. “Nobody ever asked me before. I am sorry, but I can’t
help it. The Bible says people go to hell; but God is good, so
I don’t believe the Bible. But Mr. Eaton would wish me to go to
church.”

The perfectly simple logic, so primitive as to stop at “the Bible
says,” was irresistibly funny; yet, to William West, infinitely
touching. But he put the discussion aside quietly.

“So you will come on our committee?” he said. “We shall be glad to
have you.”

But when he went away he laughed a little to himself. “The iron
heel of Edwards, I suppose. But how direct! Two and two make four.
She is incapable of understanding that they sometimes make five.”

But Mrs. Blair did not dismiss it so lightly. She was annoyed at
the protest about the strikers, and that impelled her to straighten
out Mrs. Eaton’s religious beliefs. There was some irritation in
her voice as she began, but she was in earnest, and stopped in the
middle of “proofs” to tell Samuel to say she was “not at home.”

“But, Eleanor, you are,” Mrs. Eaton protested in a frightened way.

“My dear, that is a form of speech.”

“But it makes Samuel tell a lie,” she said nervously.

“Oh, Lily, don’t be silly,” Mrs. Blair said impatiently, and then
jumped from hell to the strikers,--though, as it happened, the
distance between them was not so great after all. “Really, now,
Lydia, I don’t think you ought to speak as you did before Mr. West
about the men. In the first place, business isn’t philanthropy, and
Robert can’t give in to them. And in the second place, they are
behaving outrageously! I should think you would have more loyalty
to Robert than to seem to uphold them.”

“I only meant”--Mrs. Eaton began breathlessly.

“Oh, my dear, you don’t know what you mean,” Mrs. Blair
interrupted, laughing and good-natured again. “But just remember,
will you, how kind Robert is? It seems to me he is always doing
things for this ungrateful place. Look at the fountain in the
square; that’s the last thing.”

“But wouldn’t the men rather have had running water in the
tenements?” Mrs. Eaton said; “there are only hydrants down in the
back yards.”

However, as that first year in Mercer slipped by, there were very
few such jars. The strike ended early in the fall, and there was
nothing to call out any objectionable opinion from Mrs. Eaton on
that line.

“As for Lydia,” Robert Blair said once, “you say ‘go,’ and she
goeth. She has absolutely no will of her own.”

This was, apparently, quite true. At all events, she had a genius
for obedience, and a terror of responsibility. In the organized
relief-work which Mrs. Blair’s clergyman had proposed, obedience
necessitated responsibility sometimes, and no one knew how the
silent little creature suffered when she had to decide anything.
But she did decide, usually with remarkable but very simple
common-sense.

“And always on the supposition that two and two make four,” Mr.
West said to himself. He found her literalness a little aggravating
just at first, but it was very diverting. He used to put on his
glasses and watch her anxious face when she talked to him or
received his orders (for such his requests or suggestions seemed
to her); and he would ask her questions to draw out her astounding
simplicity and directness of thought, and find her as refreshing as
a child. She used to sit up before him, saying, “Yes, sir,” and
“No, sir,” and looking, with her startled eyes, like a little gray
rabbit--for at the end of a year she took off her black dress, and
wore instead soft grays that were very pretty and becoming. Her
absolute literalness gave him much entertainment; but she never
knew it. If she had guessed it, she would have been humbly glad to
have been ridiculous, if it had amused him.

And so the first year and a half went by.


IV

It was the next winter that she asked her first question.

“Mr. West,” she said, after making notes of this or that case that
needed looking after (for she was practically visitor for St. James
now),--“Mr. West, I would like to ask you something.”

“Do, my dear Mrs. Eaton,” he answered heartily.

“I would like to ask you,” she said, her eyes fixed on his, to lose
no shade of meaning in his reply, “do you think it would be right
for one person to live on money that another person had stolen?”

“If they knew it was stolen, of course not!” he said, smiling. “Has
a pickpocket offered to go halves with you?”

“No, sir,” she answered, so gravely that her listener’s eyes
twinkled. She made no explanation, but went away with a troubled
look. The next time she saw him she had another question:--

“But suppose the person who lived on the money the other person
stole needed it very much. Suppose they hadn’t anything else in the
world. Suppose their children hadn’t anything else. Would it be
their business to ask where it came from, Mr. West?”

“If it was their business to spend it, it would be,” he told her.
“Oh, my dear lady, the question of complicity is a pretty big one!”
He sighed, thinking how little she realized that she was guessing
at the riddle of the painful earth.

Again she went away, her face falling into lines of care. But
William West never thought of the matter again. Indeed, he had no
time to think of his quiet almoner; those were alarming days in
Mercer. The echoes of that storm which shook not only the town, but
the very State and nation, are still rolling and muttering in the
dark places of the land.

Another strike had begun in October. As for the deep and
far-reaching causes, the economic and industrial necessities, the
vast plans of organizations and trusts, they have no place in
this statement of the way in which one ignorant woman regarded
their effects--a woman living quietly in her brother’s house,
doing her work, expending her little charities, trying to relieve
the dreadful misery of those wintry days, with about as much
success as a child who plays beside some terrific torrent and
tries to dam it with his tiny bank of twigs and pebbles. Robert
Blair’s sister had no economic or ethical theories; she had only
an anguished heart at the suffering in that dreary mill town, a
dreadful bewilderment at its contrast with the untouched luxury
of her brother’s house. That she should find a child in one of
the tenements dying at its mother’s barren breast, while her own
children fared sumptuously every day; that a miserable man should
curse her because her brother was robbing him of work, and warmth,
and decency, even, while she must bless that same brother for
what he was giving her, was a dreadful puzzle. As she understood
the situation, this misery existed because her brother would no
longer give even fourteen cents an hour to human beings who had to
stand half naked in the scorch of intense furnaces, reeking with
sweat, taking a breathless moment to plunge waist deep into tanks
of cold water; to men who worked where the crash of exploding slag
or the accidental tipping of a ladle might mean death; to gaunt
and stunted creatures, hollow-eyed, with bleared and sodden faces,
whose incessant toil to keep alive had crushed out the look of
manhood, and left them silent, hopeless, brutish, with only one
certainty in their stupefied souls: “_men don’t grow old in the
mills_.” ... That these things should be, while she was clothed
in soft raiment bought by wealth which these desperate beings
had helped to create--meant to this ignorant woman that there
was something wrong somewhere. It was not for her to say what or
where. She had no ambition to reform the world. She did not protest
against the “unearned increment,” nor did she have views as to
“buying labor in the cheapest market.” She did not know anything
about such phrases. The only thing that concerned her was whether
she, living on her brother’s money, had any part or lot in the
suffering about her? She grew nervous and haggard and more distrait
and literal than ever. She wished she dared lay her troubles before
the wise, gentle, strong man who, to her, was all that was good and
great. But it did not seem to her right to criticise her brother
to his clergyman. She never realized how amusing her simplicity
might be, laid up against the enormous complexity of the industrial
question; to her it was only: “If Robert is rich, and doesn’t give
his workmen enough to live on, are not the children and I stealing
from the men in living on Robert’s money?”

This little question, applied to the relations of capital and
labor, is of course absurd; but she asked it all the same, this
soft, negative, biddable creature. She had gone to take some food
to a hungry household, and she went away burning with shame because
she was not hungry! It had been a cold, bright November day; she
went past one of the silent furnaces along the black cinder path to
the river-bank, where the flat cones of slag were dumped; some of
them were still slightly warm.

It was quiet enough here to think: After all, Robert’s money did
so much good; there was the great fountain in the square, and the
hospital, and the free night school. And think of what he was doing
for Essie and Silas! Oh, it surely wasn’t her business to ask why
he cut the men’s wages down!

There was a flare of sunset flushing the calm blue of the upper
heavens, and in the river, running black and silent before her, a
red glow smouldered and brightened. Behind her, and all along the
opposite bank, the furnaces were still. Oh, the misery of that
black stillness! If only she could see again the monstrous sheets
of flame, orange, and azure, bursting with a roar of sparks from
under the dampers of the great chimneys. It would mean work and
warmth and food to so many! By some unsuggested flash of memory the
parsonage garden came swiftly to her mind. It must be lying chill
in the wintry sunset; she could see the little house behind it,
with its bare, clean poverty; she wished she were back in it again
with the two children! The beauty and the luxury of her brother’s
house seemed suffocating and intolerable; and yet would it feed the
strikers if she should starve?--the vision of her own destitution
without her brother’s money was appalling. She sat down on a piece
of slag, a little faint at the thought. Just then, from down below
her, on the great heap of refuse, she heard voices.

“Come farther up; they’re hotter higher up,” a woman said shrilly.

Then a miserable little group came clambering over the great cones
of cooling slag, and a child cried out joyously, “This here one’s
hot, mammy!”

The woman, catching sight of Robert Blair’s sister, though not
recognizing her, said harshly:--

“You bet hangman Blair has a fire in his house to-day. Well, thank
God, he ain’t made no cut in slag, yet; we can get a bit of warmth
here. I wish he may freeze in his bed!”

Lydia Eaton answered, stammering and incoherent, something about
the cold weather; and then, she was so overstrained and nervous,
she burst out crying. “Oh, won’t you please let me give you this?”
she said, and put some money into the woman’s hand.

She went away, stumbling, because her eyes were blurred with tears,
and saying to herself,--

“What _shall_ I do?”

She almost ran into Mr. West on Baker Street, and stopped abruptly,
putting her hands on his arm, and, in her agitation, shaking it
violently, her whole face convulsed and terrified.

“Tell me--you know; you are good: whose fault is it? Robert’s--for
all--this?”

He understood instantly, and was very gentle with her.

“My dear Mrs. Eaton, that is a very big question. It isn’t any one
man’s fault. It seems strange, but the weather in India may be
the reason we are all so wretched in Mercer. Your brother may be
forced to make this cut by great laws, which, perhaps, you cannot
understand.”

“But _we_ go on being warm,” she said, “and it is cold. Oh, those
little children had to get warm on the slag! Oh, sir, I don’t
believe the Saviour would have been warm while the children were
cold!”

She looked at him passionately, abruptly applying the precepts of
the Founder of his religion.

“Ah, well, you know,” William West said kindly, “this whole matter
is so enormously complicated”--And then he stammered a little, for,
after all, how could he explain to this poor little frightened,
ignorant soul that we have learned how injurious to the race would
be the literal application of the logic of the Sermon on the Mount?
Nowadays the disciple is wiser than his master, and the servant
more prudent than his Lord; we know that to feed the five thousand
with loaves and fishes, without receiving some equivalent, would be
to pauperize them. But of course Mrs. Eaton could not be made to
understand that. The clergyman quieted her, somehow; perhaps just
by his gentle pitifulness; or else her reverence for him silenced
her. She did not ask him any more questions; and there was no one
else to ask, except her brother, and just now it would have been
hard to find the chance to ask Robert Blair anything.

The strike had slowly involved all the mills owned by a syndicate
of which he was chairman. He had to go to South Bend, where the
great smelting furnaces are; he was mobbed there, though with no
worse results than the unpleasantness of eggs and cabbage stalks;
still, the wickedness of those dreadful creatures was something
too awful, Mrs. Blair said, crying with anger and fright over the
newspaper account. At still another mill town a ghastly box reached
him, labeled: “Starved by the Blair syndicate.” Robert Blair paled
and sickened at its contents, but he swore under his breath: “Let
them starve their brats, if they want to; it isn’t my business.
There’s work for them if they want it; but the curs would rather
loaf. This country can go to the devil before I’ll give in to them!”

He did not get back to Mercer until December. “I wouldn’t let the
fools keep me from you on Christmas,” he told his wife savagely,
and caught her in his arms with a sort of rage. “Were you very
lonely? You’ve been nervous--I can see it in your face. You are
paler!” He ground his teeth; that those brutes should have made her
paler!

“Of course I was lonely,” she said, smiling, though her eyes were
bright with tears, “and I’ve been frightened almost to death about
you, too. Oh, that mob!”

“You little goose; didn’t I tell you there was no danger? I
always had two detectives. But I used to get anxious about you. I
telegraphed the mayor to detail an officer to be always about the
house. Heaven knows what’s going to be the end of this business,
Nell! Well, sweetheart, may I have some dinner, or must I go and
dress first?”

“No. You’re dreadfully dusty, but I can’t lose sight of you for a
moment,” she said gayly. “Robert, I should have died if you hadn’t
been at home for Christmas!”

His sister and the children met him at the dining-room door--Silas,
capering about with delight; Esther, prettier than ever, coming to
hang on his arm, and rub her cheek against his shoulder, and say
how glad she was to see him.

“Robert, it’s perfectly disgusting,” Mrs. Blair complained, “but a
delegation insists upon seeing you to-night; they are coming about
eight.”

“Oh, confound it!” he said frowning; “the strike, of course? A lot
of parsons meddling with what they know nothing about.”

“There are parsons, I suppose,” she said, “but the mayor is coming.
Do get rid of them as soon as you can, so that I may have a little
of you.”

She looked so pretty as she sat at the head of her table,
beseeching him, that he declared he would kick the delegation out
if they stayed over ten minutes; then he tossed a small white
velvet box across the roses in the big silver bowl in the middle of
the table, and watched her flash of joy as she opened it.

“It seems to me I have some more boxes, somewhere,” he said
good-humoredly. “There, Essie! if your aunt Eleanor had packed me
off to get into my dress-suit, I wouldn’t have found this one in my
pocket. Lydia, you sober old lady, can you wear that? As for you,
Silas, you don’t want any gewgaws, do you? We fellows think more of
a bit of paper with three figures on it, hey?”

“There! there’s the bell. It’s your horrid delegation,” Mrs. Blair
cried. “Just let them wait till you finish dinner. And do get rid
of them quickly. Mr. Hudson, Lydia’s minister, will be there; tell
him to wait a minute when the others have gone. I want to speak to
him.”

“I thought little Hudson had more sense,” Robert Blair grumbled,
rising and going into the library to meet a dozen of his
fellow-citizens, some of them men with grave and startled faces,
who from pity for the three thousand fools who were turning Mercer
upside down, and from good-humored interest in the affairs of their
powerful townsman, were beginning to feel the sting of personal
alarm about their own concerns.

These men were saying to each other what the newspapers had been
saying for two months, that Robert Blair, for vanity or obstinacy
or greed, was bringing alarming disaster not merely upon a few
thousand desperate and hungry and unreasonable puddlers, but upon
the respectable well-to-do business population of his city.

“And he’s got to stop it!” the mayor said angrily.

“It would be a good job if somebody would blow him up with
dynamite,” said the Baptist deacon, who was the wealthiest
merchant in town. “He’ll swamp us all, if we don’t look out.”

As for the clergyman, he looked very miserable, for he had the
expenses of his church and his own salary in mind, and between
offending Mr. Blair and not protesting against the continuance of
the strike, the poor little man was between the devil and the deep
sea.

“Gentlemen,” said Robert Blair, calm and hard (“as nails,” the
Baptist deacon said), “I appreciate the honor of your call, and I
hope I have listened with proper courtesy and patience to what you
had to say; but allow me to call your attention to certain facts
which seem to contradict your assertions that you suspect that I
am not acting for the public good in this matter of the strike.
Mr. Mayor, if my wealth had been gained by the subversion of law
and order, as you suggest, I am sure you could not have accepted
any of it for your campaign--ah--_expenses_. For you, Mr. Davis, a
church member, a deacon, if I mistake not, I need only remind you
of your willingness to borrow, I will not say how many thousands,
as the basis of your most successful business (though I would not
be thought to underrate your own prudence and economy in paying
your women clerks a little less than they can live on). And as
for my worthy friend here, the Rev. Mr. Hudson, if my money were,
as he has so delicately implied, ‘blood-money,’ I cannot think he
would have accepted the contribution I had the privilege of making
towards the alterations of his church. Gentlemen, you have felt
it your duty to remonstrate with me upon my way of making money;
so long as you are content to spend that money, I cannot believe
that your remonstrances are based upon anything else than the
inconvenience to yourselves of certain exigencies which I deeply
regret, but which result from methods which commend themselves to
me, and which, I observe, you apply in your own concerns: you all
pay as little as you can for what you want; I pay as little as I
can for labor. For your particular request that I submit to the
demands of the strikers, I can only say that when Mr. Davis will
give away in charity the fortune built upon the outcome of those
methods; when his honor the Mayor will refund the--ah--_expenses_
of his recent successful campaign and call it conscience-money;
when the Rev. Mr. Hudson will give up improving his church--in
fact, when you will all consent to buy your shirts or your potatoes
in the dearest market--I will consent to alter the methods whereby
I have had the honor of serving you. We will all reduce together.
When we can do that, I will recognize a moral issue, as Mr. Hudson
so admirably expresses it. Until then I will try to mind my own
business. If it were not perhaps discourteous, I would recommend
a like course of action to this committee. Gentlemen, I bid you
good-evening.”

He was pale with rage. He forgot his wife’s message to the
minister; he bowed, and stood with folded arms watching the
withdrawal of the humiliated and angry delegation, “with their
tails between their legs,” the little clergyman said to himself,
stung by the impudent injustice of it all.

Mr. Blair went into the drawing-room, breathing hard with the
restraint he had put upon himself, for his coldly insolent words
had been no outlet to his anger. “Don’t talk about it,” he said
violently. “I won’t hear another word on the subject. Nell, I
thought that little Hudson was not entirely a jackass, though he is
a parson; he had the impertinence to say that ‘Brother West’ agreed
with him. I don’t believe it! But if it’s true, why, then, West is
a meddling idiot, like all the rest of these damned self-seeking
philanthropists.”

“Robert, _dear_! the children,” murmured Mrs. Blair nervously.

His face was dully red, and his blue, fierce eyes cut like knives;
one felt an unspoken epithet applied to the children, who watched
him furtively, with frightened glances, and moved about awkwardly,
speaking to each other in undertones. A moment before, everything
had been full of charm and graciousness; their pretty aunt sat,
indolent and graceful, on a yellow sofa, leaning back against some
ivory-satin cushions, with a great yellow-shaded lamp shining down
on her delicate dark beauty; the flicker of the fire behind the
sparkling brass dogs went leaping softly about the room, glowing
on the walls, which were covered above the white wainscoting with
yellow damask, on which the candle-light from the high sconces fell
with a yellow shine; everything was golden and bright and rich, and
the warm still air was delicate with the scent of violets. Then
into it burst this violent and angry presence.

There is no embarrassment quite like the embarrassment of listening
to a person for whom one has a regard making a fool of himself.
Nobody spoke. Robert Blair tramped up and down, kicked a little
gilded stool half across the room, caught his foot in a rug,
stumbled, and then swore. Mrs. Blair’s fox-terrier, Pat, shrunk
under a table and looked at him, trembling.

“Silas,” said Mrs. Eaton, “you and Esther must go upstairs.”

“The trouble is,” said her brother to his wife, “these men don’t
know what they are talking about; they don’t know anything about
the market; they don’t know anything about the necessities of
trade; all they know is their dividends; if _they_ were cut,
there’d be a howl! But they presume to dictate to us; to tell us
the money is blood-money; all the same, they are ready enough to
spend it on their own carcasses!”

Mrs. Eaton had closed the door on her children, and came and stood
by a little silver-cluttered table, under the big yellow lamp. “I
think Robert is quite right,” she said.

The approval of this mild creature was like an edge laid against
the tense thread of Robert Blair’s anger. He burst into a laugh.

“Bless your heart, Lydia, I didn’t know you were in the room. Well,
my dear, I’m glad you approve of me.”

“I don’t, brother.”

“Oh, you don’t? Where are the chicks? Sent them out of the room
because I used bad words? Well, I oughtn’t to swear in the
drawing-room, that’s a fact. _Place aux Dames!_ But after all, I
only dropped the ‘_place_.’”

“Oh!” his wife said; and then, “you are very naughty;” and pouted,
and pulled him down on his knees beside her.

“I thought it was very natural to be angry at the rug,” Mrs. Eaton
said breathlessly; “I’ve often felt like speaking that way myself”--

“Do, Lydia, do!” Mr. Blair interrupted, with a laugh.

“--but Mr. Eaton would never have allowed the children to hear,
and”--

“Come, now! Haven’t I apologized? Don’t rub it in. I’ll give you
something extra to put in the plate on Sunday, because I did pitch
into your man Hudson like the devil! I told him so long as he spent
‘blood-money’ for his darned improvements, he couldn’t reproach me
for earning it.”

“Oh,” Lydia Eaton said, her hands squeezed together,--“oh, no!
He is quite different from--me. It is _you_ who are spending
the--blood-money on the improvements. If he were spending it on
himself, like--like me, it would be different.”

Her brother looked up at her from his footstool at his wife’s feet,
first amused, and then bored.

“My dear Lily, I’m sure I don’t know what you are talking about.
I’m sorry if I stepped on your toes about your parson. He means
well. Only he is a parson, so I suppose he can’t help being rather
ladylike in business matters. Do drop the subject; I am sick of the
whole thing. How is your conservatory, Nell? Are those violets the
result of your agricultural efforts?”

“I think, Robert,” his sister said in her low voice, that shivered
and broke, “I must just say one thing more: I must give you back
this beautiful thing you gave me at dinner. And I must go away with
the children.”

“What under the sun!” he began, frowning; then he got up and stood
on the hearth-rug, his back to the fire. “Lydia, I hope you are
not going to be a fool? What are you talking about? Sit down,--sit
down! You’re as white as a ghost. Lily, I’m afraid you’re a great
goose. What’s the matter?” He could not help softening as he looked
at her. She stood there by the little tottering table, loaded with
its dozens of foolish bits of silver, so tense and quivering that
even his impatient eyes could not fail to see her agitation.

“Robert, you have been so kind to us; you are so good to us,--oh, I
don’t know how I can do it!” she broke into an anguished sob,--“but
I must. Mr. Eaton would never have let the children be supported on
money that was not--that was not good.”

There was silence; the clock in the hall chimed ten. Then Eleanor
Blair, sitting up, pale and angry, said,--

“Well, upon my word!”

Her husband looked at his sister with sudden kindness in his
eyes. “Lily, you don’t understand. When I said what I did to Mr.
Hudson,--of course, that has put it into your head,--I didn’t
really mean it. In the first place, I’m an honest man (I’ll just
mention that in passing), and it is not your business nor his
to judge my business methods. It isn’t a pretty thing to look a
gift-horse in the mouth, Lil.”

“It isn’t what you said to Mr. Hudson,” she answered. “I’ve been
thinking about it for nearly a year. Robert, you pay them so
little, and I--I have all this.”

She looked about the beautiful room with a sort of fright: it
seemed to her that the warm and stately walls hid human misery
lying close outside,--hunger and hatred, cold and sickness, and the
terror of to-morrow. The impudent luxury of this enormous wealth
struck her like a blow on the mouth.

“They,” she said, with a sob, “_are hungry_.”

Her brother, divided between irritation and amusement, was touched
in spite of himself.

“My dear Lily,” he said, “you can’t understand this thing. To put
it vulgarly, you’ve bitten off more than you can chew. Look here,
the men can go to work to-morrow if they want to; but they don’t
want to. I offer them work, and they can take it or leave it.
Well, they leave it. It’s their affair, not mine.”

But she shook her head miserably. “I don’t understand it. If you
were poor, too, it would be different.”

“Well, really!” said Mrs. Blair.

But Robert Blair was wonderfully patient.

“There’s another thing you must remember, Lily; these people are
far better off on what I am willing to pay them than they were in
Europe, where most of them came from.”

“But, Robert,” she said passionately, “because they could be worse
off doesn’t seem to be any reason why they shouldn’t be better off.
And--_it isn’t kind_.”

“Kind?” Her brother looked at her blankly, and then, with a shout
of laughter, “Lydia, you are as good as a play! No, my dear; I
don’t run my mills for kindness.”

“But,” she said, almost in a whisper, “whatsoever ye would that men
should do unto you”--

Mrs. Blair made a gesture of disgust.

“--oh, brother, I didn’t mean to find fault with you. Only with
myself. I--I haven’t any right to spend money that I--don’t know
about.”

“Well, anything more?” Robert Blair said, a little tired of her
foolishness. “My dear, like the parson, you mean well; but you are
a great goose!”

As for his wife, she did not even answer Mrs. Eaton’s tremulous
“good-night.”


V

The husband and wife looked at each other; then Robert Blair flung
his head back with a laugh.

“She is perfectly delicious!”

“She is perfectly ungrateful, and I believe she means it.”

“Oh, nonsense! Lil hasn’t mind enough to mean anything; and I’ll
tell you another thing: in spite of her quiet ways, she really has
a good deal of worldly wisdom. She knows what it is to those two
children to have me interested in them. Don’t worry your little
head”--

“Oh, I don’t worry,” she answered. “If she is going to presume to
criticise you, I don’t want her under my roof; the sooner she
leaves the better!”

“Spitfire!” he told her, kissing her pretty hand, and forgetting
all about his sister’s absurdity, and the strike, and the men and
women shivering in the tenements down in the miserable mill town.

But he remembered it all the next morning at the breakfast-table,
for Lydia Eaton’s white face was too striking to escape comment.
Mrs. Blair was not present, preferring to be, at what she called
the “brutal hour of eight,” in her own room, with a tray and her
maid and a novel.

“What’s the matter?” Mr. Blair said kindly. “Are you ill, Lily?”

“It’s what I told you last night, Robert,” she said nervously.

The solemn Samuel, all ears, but looking perfectly deaf, brought
a dish to his master’s elbow. Robert Blair closed his lips with a
snap. Then he said,--

“Please make no reference to that folly before Eleanor.”

But of course it was only a respite. The folly had to be repeated
to Eleanor--discussed, argued, denounced, until the whole
atmosphere of the house was charged with excitement.

Through it all Lydia Eaton came and went, and did her packing.

“Well,” her sister-in-law said contemptuously, “perhaps you’ll tell
me how you mean to _feed_ Esther and Silas? You have a right to
starve yourself, but I have some feeling for the children!”

“I am going to work,” the other answered, trembling.

“Lydia,” Mrs. Blair said passionately, “next to your ingratitude
to your brother, I must say your selfishness in ruining your own
children is the most dreadful thing I ever heard of!”

But Mrs. Eaton’s preparations went on. Not that there was so much
to do; but she had to find rooms, and then she had to find work. It
was the latter exigency which fanned Robert Blair’s contemptuous
annoyance, which refused to take the matter seriously, into sudden
flames of rage, for his sister saw fit to apply at a shop for the
position of saleswoman. Of course it came to his ears, and that
night the storm burst on Mrs. Eaton’s head. As for Robert Blair,
when the interview was over, during which he spared Mrs. Eaton no
detail of his furious mortification, he said savagely to his wife:
“I wish you’d go and see if West cannot bring her to her senses.
Get him to influence her to some decency. Tell him, if she’s set in
this outrageous ingratitude, I wish he would persuade her to let me
send her East, to some other place, and let her work (and starve!)
where she won’t disgrace me. Think of it, Eleanor--that man Davis
coming whining and grinning, and saying he ‘would do what he could
to give my sister a position as saleslady, but I knew the times
were bad’! Damn him!”

“Good heavens, Robert! You don’t mean to say she’s been to Davis’s?
My dear, she is insane! Yes, I’ll go and see Mr. West to-morrow.”

She went. It was a raw, bleak morning; the thin, chill winter
rain blurred the windows of her brougham, and the mud splashed up
against the glass; the wheels sunk into deep ruts of the badly
paved streets, and the uncomfortable jolt and sway of the softly
padded carriage added to her indignation at her sister-in-law.

William West did not live in the new part of Mercer, with its
somewhat gorgeous houses; nor yet in the old part, which was
charming and dignified, and inclined to despise everything not
itself; but in the middle section, near the rows of rotten and
tumbling tenements, and within a stone’s throw of bleak and hideous
brick blocks, known as “Company boarding-houses.” He had come here
to live shortly after a certain crash in his own life; a personal
blow, which left him harder, and more silent, and more earnest. He
had been jilted, people said, and wondered why, for a while, and
then forgot it, as he, absorbed in his work, seemed also to forget
it.

Mrs. Blair, her fox-terrier under one arm, stepped out of the
carriage, frowning to find herself in this squalid street; but
once inside the big, plain, comfortable house where William West
lived all by himself, her face relaxed and took a certain arch and
charming discontent; there was a big fire blazing in the minister’s
library, and the dignity and refinement of the room, the smell
of leather-covered books, the gleam of pictures and bronzes, and
a charming bit of tapestry hanging on the chimney-piece restored
her sense of mental as well as physical comfort. When he entered,
and dragged a big chair in front of the fire for her, and looked
at her with that grave attention which seems like homage, and was
part of the man, being called forth by his washerwoman as well as
by Mrs. Robert Blair, she felt almost happy again, and assured that
everything would come out right.

“Mr. West,” she began, “you’ve got to help us; we’re in such absurd
difficulties! Will you?”

“Command me,” he said, smiling.

“You haven’t heard, then? It’s Lydia--Mr. Blair’s sister, you know.
She has taken it into her head that”--the color came into Mrs.
Blair’s face--“that she won’t let Robert support her, because she
thinks he isn’t treating the strikers properly. I’m sure I don’t
know what idea she has! But she won’t accept his money. Did you
ever hear of such a thing?”

William West’s face sobered instantly. “I have not seen Mrs. Eaton
for a fortnight,” he said; “I had no idea”--He got up, frowning,
the lines about his lips perplexed and anxious.

“I’m sure,” the pretty woman went on, growing angrier as she
spoke, “I don’t care what _she_ does,--I’ve lost all patience
with her,--but to throw the children’s future away! And it’s
so embarrassing for Robert.” Then she told him fully the whole
situation. “She keeps saying,” Mrs. Blair ended, “that ‘Mr. Eaton’
wouldn’t have allowed the children to be supported on money that
‘_wasn’t good_.’ Did you ever hear such impertinence?”

“Ah, well,” he protested good-naturedly, “I’m sure Mrs. Eaton does
not mean to be impertinent; and I’m sure she does appreciate her
brother’s kindness. Only, she is trying to work out a great problem
on an individual basis, which is of course very foolish. But the
dear little lady must not be allowed--And yet”--He paused, frowning
and perplexed.

“Ah, but, Mr. West, when she has the assurance to quote the Bible
to her own brother--it seems to me that’s rather impertinent?
Fancy! something about ‘doing unto others’--and ‘being partaker’ if
she spent the money that had been ‘wrung from the strikers.’ Upon
my word! ‘Wrung!’ As I said to my husband, ‘Upon my word, I never
heard of such a thing.’”

“Neither did I,” William West said dryly. “We are all of us in the
habit of taking our dividends, and not looking at the way they are
earned. Mrs. Eaton is certainly unusual.”

“Well, do you think you can influence her?” Mrs. Blair insisted. “I
don’t mean to stay with us; I don’t think that would be possible or
desirable now. But to let Mr. Blair give her an allowance, so that
she can take care of the children. It is positively wicked to think
how she is ruining the children!”

“Won’t she take any money from your husband?”

“Not a cent, if you please! Not a penny. She keeps saying that if
she can’t feel that the source of the money is all right, she can’t
spend it.” Mrs. Blair cuffed her dog prettily with her muff, and
kissed his little sleek head. “Isn’t she a goose, Pat, you darling?”

“Her principle would turn the world upside down,” the clergyman
said.

“That’s just what I say!” cried Mrs. Blair.

“If we all said we would have nothing to do with the ‘blood of
the just person,’ what would become of the railroads and the
coal-mines and the oil trusts? What would become of our dividends
from industrial stocks if we insisted on knowing that the workmen
were honestly paid? How could we eat meat, if we looked into the
slaughter-house?”

Mrs. Blair looked puzzled.

“And she is going to work for her living?” He was profoundly
moved. “Good heavens, out of the mouths of babes! What a primitive
expression of social responsibility! But surely, Mrs. Blair, we
must respect her honesty? As for her judgment, that’s another
matter.”

Eleanor Blair’s blank astonishment left her speechless for a
moment; then she flung up her head haughtily.

“Mr. West, do you mean to say”--she began.

“My dear Mrs. Blair,” he said quietly, “I mean to say that little
Mrs. Eaton, in her simple way, puts her finger right on the centre
of this whole miserable question, in which, directly or indirectly,
we are all involved: she has recognized our complicity. Of course
she is going to work the wrong way--at least, I suppose she is. God
knows! But what courage,--what directness!”

“Do I understand,” Eleanor Blair said, rising, “that you approve of
my sister-in-law’s extraordinary conduct?”

“I approve of _her_,” he said, smiling. “If you ask me whether I
think she is doing right, I should say ‘Yes,’ because she is acting
upon her conscience. Is she doing wisely? No; because civilization
is compromise. We have either got to bow in the House of Rimmon,
or go and live in the woods like Thoreau and eat dried peas. I’ll
tell her so, if you want me to. But as for attempting to influence
her, I cannot do that. The place whereon we stand is holy ground.”

Mrs. Blair picked up her dog and set her teeth; then she looked
slightly beyond the clergyman, with half-shut eyes, and said,--

“Will you be good enough to have my carriage called?”


VI

“I never would have been brave enough,” Mrs. Eaton said meekly
to Mr. West, when the dreadful step was actually taken, “I never
could have done it, but I knew Mr. Eaton would have wished it; and,
besides, I felt I was taking the food of those poor people.”

“Well, no,” he began, “that is really not reasonable”--But he
stopped; this timid creature could not reason--she could only feel.
“Fools,” he said to himself, as he left her, “rush in where the
political economist fears to tread. She is a fool, poor little
soul, but”--

The winter had passed heavily away. Mrs. Eaton had succeeded in
getting a place in Mr. Davis’s shop--“where,” the proprietor used
to say, “having Robert Blair’s sister for a saleslady is money in
my pocket! She’s better than a ‘fire-and-water bargain sale.’”
So she stood behind a counter and sold ribbon, and was stared at
and whispered about. But she had very keen anxieties about food
and clothes, and the children’s discontent lay like a weight upon
the mother’s heart--which ached, too, with the pain of the second
wrench from the affection and kindness of her family. Fortunately
her peculiar logic did not lead her to reject the Baptist deacon’s
money, which was certainly much more doubtful than her brother’s.
By some mental process of her own, the fact that she worked for it
seemed to make its acceptance moral. She had no leisure now to work
for Mr. West; but the remembrance of his patience and gentleness
always made a little pause of peace in her heavy thoughts. It was
a hard, bleak life for this silent little creature; and the rector
of St. James, himself a silent soul, watched her live it, and
pondered many things.

The strike had broken in February. The men went back to their
work--defeat, like some bitter wind, blowing the flames of
resentment into fiercer heat, which “next time” would mean
destroying victory.

“Will it be like Samson pulling down the temple upon himself?”
William West wondered, depressed and hopeless.

It was night--a summer night; sweet and still over in the
old-fashioned part of Mercer, where the fragrance of roses
overflowed the high brick walls of the gardens. Here in the mill
district it was not sweet, and all night long the mills roared and
crashed, and the flames bursting out of vast chimneys flared and
faded, and flared again.

William West was alone in his library. His sermon for the next
morning had been finished early in the week; he had looked it over
the last thing, and now the manuscript was slipped into its black
velvet cover. He sat, his head on his hand, tapping with strong,
restless fingers the arm of his chair. The old question, always
more or less present in the mind of this man, was clamoring for an
answer: How far are we responsible? Through how many hands must
dishonest money, cruel money, mean money, pass to be cleansed?
Is it clean when it comes to me--this dividend or that? Shall a
man, or a railroad, or a trust deal iniquitously with one of these
little ones, and I profit by it? Shall I trace my dollar to its
source, and find it wet with tears and blood, and reject it? Or
shall I decline to trace it, and buy my bread in innocence? Even
the chief priests refused the thirty pieces of silver! Am I an
accomplice? For that matter, is the Christian Church an accomplice?
What does it say to the philanthropy of thieves? Priests used to
take toll from the plunder of robbers, and say mass for their souls
in return. Nowadays--“I cover my eyes, but I hold out my hand,” he
said to himself.

Well--well! The Reverend William West, in his way, was doubtless
as great a fool in asking unprofitable questions as was Lydia
Eaton. That the existing order would be turned upside down by the
introduction of the sense of personal responsibility there can be
no doubt. Such an introduction would be the application to the
complex egotism of the nineteenth century of the doctrines of a
Galilean peasant, who was a communist and the Saviour of the world.
It would be the setting forth in individual lives of the spirit of
Jesus Christ, the most revolutionary element that could possibly be
introduced into society. We are none of us ready for that.

At least William West was not ready; he had no intention of making
himself ridiculous, no matter if he did ask himself unanswerable
questions; he was not ready to throw away present opportunities and
destroy his influence. Yet, as for Mrs. Eaton--

“Talk about martyrs!” he said to himself, as he sat there at
midnight thinking of her, of her hard life, of her splendid
foolishness.

“Well, there is one thing I could do for her. Why not? Good God,
how selfish I am! I suppose she would think my money was clean?
Yes, I could at least do _that_.”

This was no new thought. It had been in his mind more or less for
months. He only faced it that night more strenuously.

So it came about that by and by he rose, his face set, his mouth
hard. He took a key from his watch chain, and opened a little
closet in the side of the chimney, and took out a box. He laid it
on the table, and again sat down in his revolving chair, and stared
blankly ahead of him. Then he opened it. There were some letters
in it, and a picture, and a crumbling bunch of flowers that looked
as though they had once been <DW29>s; he held them in his hand, a
bitter sort of amusement in his eyes. The letters he put aside,
as though their touch stung him. At the photograph he looked long
and intently. Then he bent the card over in his hand, and it broke
across the middle. Hastily he gathered these things together and
went over to his fireplace. A fire had been laid during the cold
spring rains, and the logs were dry and dusty. At the touch of
a match, they sputtered and broke into a little roaring flame.
William West put his handful of letters and the flowers and the
picture gently down in the midst of it, and then stood and watched
them burn. When there was only a white film left, on which the
sparks ran back, widening and dying, he went over to his desk,
and with a certain strong and satisfied cheerfulness he began to
write:--

    MY DEAR MRS. EATON,--You and I have spoken more than once of
    your action in leaving your brother’s house, and you know, I am
    sure, how profoundly I honor and respect your courage in acting
    upon your convictions. It is this respect which I am venturing
    to offer you in asking you to honor me by becoming my wife.
    My sincere regard and appreciation have been yours ever since
    I first knew you, and if you will consent to make a home for
    yourself and the children in my house, it will be a home for
    me, and you know what that will be for a lonely man. If you
    will consent, I shall be always,

  Faithfully yours,
  WILLIAM WEST.

As he folded the sheet of paper and thrust it into the envelope
there was a whimsical look in his eyes.

“A _love_-letter!” he said to himself; but his face was very gentle
and tender.

       *       *       *       *       *

However, the answer to the letter was all that the most ardent
lover could desire.




COUNTING THE COST


I

ANNIE GRAHAM, the young woman with whom this story
concerns itself, lived in a Western manufacturing town. Her home
was, both inside and outside, like hundreds and thousands of other
American homes, a cheap frame house, in a cheap, respectable
suburb; a house without any other beauty or refinement than
cleanliness and a certain amount of rather coarse comfort. Her
father was a workingman, as his father had been before him. He
was a gasfitter, and went to his work every morning with a greasy
leather bundle under his arm, and a cheerful heart in his breast.
First, because he had plenty of work and, having no imagination,
never worried about the future. But mostly because of a comfortable
fact to which, when not occupied with the practical details of his
trade, he devoted his thoughts; the fact being that there was a
certain tidy bit of money in the bank for his Annie,--money which
he had hoarded up, little by little, saved out of car-fares, and
tobacco, and clothes; money which meant privation and courage, and
slow, persistent, heavy toil. It amounted to a little over fifteen
hundred dollars, and he hoped it would be twenty-five hundred
before he died. What Annie would do with it when he was gone was
the only direction in which Johnny Graham’s fancy worked. Would she
rent a better house, maybe, than this little one they had lived
in since she was twelve; or would she get herself fine clothes or
a piano or books? He thought that she would probably get books.
Annie was so fond of reading! He was very proud of this fondness
for reading, and used to tell his fellow-workmen about it, and say
he had seen her turn over so many pages, in fifteen minutes by his
watch. He timed her, he said, and my! but she was the fast reader!
He had no idea of placing any restrictions upon the way in which
she should spend her inheritance when she got it; he had no feeling
about the money as anything but a means of future pleasure to Annie.

“When I’m dead and gone, the afternoon, maybe, of the funeral,
they’ll tell her. ‘Annie Graham,’ the lawyer’ll say, ‘your father’s
left you a tidy bit of money. It’s twenty-five hundred dollars,’
he’ll say; well, maybe it’ll be twenty-six hundred,--well, say
three thousand. ‘Miss Graham,’ he’ll say, ‘here’s three thousand
dollars.’ Well, Annie’ll jump. An’ it’ll comfort her,” Annie’s
father would think many times a day, smiling, and screwing in his
gas-fixtures with his blackened fingers, or scratching a match on
his trousers, and hunting for leaks.

He had been father and mother to his little girl ever since his
wife died, when Annie was five. He had baked and scrubbed and
cleaned for them both when she was a child, and in his clumsy way
he had sewed on buttons and darned rents and washed her little
face and hands as tenderly as a woman could have done. And when
she grew into a big girl and went to the grammar school, he still
knew all about her hats and clothes; and he still tried to save
her pretty hands, and sifted the ashes, and waited on her, and was
proud of her just as he always had been. There was more than one
hard-working woman neighbor who would have been willing to “make
a good stepmother” to Annie, and who felt, in all honesty, that
the gasfitter was spoiling his girl, and that she just only hoped
nothing bad would come of it.

“Them girls that’s taken such care of,--well, the dear only knows
what happens to them!” the neighbors said, with mysterious pursings
of the lips. But so far nothing out of the way had happened to
Annie. Nothing “bad” had come of the simple, faithful loving that
the child had had.

Annie was eighteen. She was a fresh-looking girl, with an
intelligent face, though a little serious for her years. Her placid
gray eyes had a rather absent look sometimes, and there was a line
on her white forehead that told of thought. Johnny Graham knew
what that line meant. He knew with what intensity Annie had applied
herself to her studies when she was in school, and how, after she
had graduated, and had gotten a place as a “saleslady,” as Johnny
expressed it, she still worked and toiled over her books whenever
she could find time.

“But she’s mostly figurin’,” he told his friends proudly.

That Annie, at eighteen, had taught herself geometry, and had
yearnings for the higher calculus, was a matter of burning pride to
the gasfitter, though he had no idea what it was all about.

“I suppose now, Annie, you know all there is in the arithmetics
on them subjects?” he said to her one night as he sat in his
shirt-sleeves smoking his pipe by the kitchen stove, and looking at
his daughter, who, with her pencil pressed against her lips, was
frowning over a sheet of calculations. Annie gave a little start
and looked up smiling.

“Why, father, dear, I don’t know anything--comparatively.”

“But, Annie, now what’s the good of them lines? Do you cut
patterns on ’em? I seen a advertisement saying they’d show you how
to cut out dresses on a chart. And there was a lot of them lines
drawed on it.”

Annie came over and sat on his knee; she laughed, but she sighed,
too.

“No; it’s just working them out that I like,” she said. “I guess I
like studying; that’s it.”

“Well, you’re a real student, I guess,” he told her, and passed his
rough, grimy hand over her soft hair. “Did I pull your hair?” he
said, for it seemed as though she winced; but she only answered by
taking his hand and kissing it, which made her father protest, and
then cuddle her up in his arms and say, “Well, now, Annie, I think
you’re a real scholar.”

They sat in the kitchen, but not because they had not a parlor,
like everybody else. There was a best room behind the kitchen,
and upstairs two bedrooms, and above them an attic, rented to
Dave Duggan, a steady young workman who had lodged with them for
nearly a year. Of course, obviously--propinquity being the root
of love--he had a tenderness for Annie; and he was referred to
by the women who were not Annie’s stepmothers as her “feller.”
The parlor, in which the gasfitter rarely sat, was as frankly
ugly as the outside of the small, narrow frame house. It had
been furnished according to Mrs. Graham’s taste, and it had been
religiously unchanged since her death. The tapestry carpet, with
its monstrous roses and broad green leaves, had worn and faded
into inoffensiveness, and the red rep furniture had suffered the
same kindly change; but the knitted tidies were new, and the
plush picture frames; and Annie had added the knots of china silk
on the chair-backs; and on the wall there was a snow-shovel,
painted and gilded and tied with pink satin ribbons, and also some
decorated brass placques; on the mantelpiece were two little wooden
shoes,--Dave Duggan’s gift,--gilded and adorned with blue satin
bows, and used as match-boxes.

To Johnny Graham this terrible parlor stood for art and luxury.
As for Annie, she did not know enough to find the snow-shovel
painful, nor even the rolling-pin, another gift from Dave, which,
covered with plush, hung from one corner of the mantelpiece. She
merely thought of these things as “mother’s” and as “presents,”
and valued them accordingly. But she would never have dreamed of
occupying this fine room unless there was company; and, indeed, the
kitchen was far more homelike.

She sat now nestling down against her father’s shoulder, listening
to his story of the day’s work: the fine house on the hill where he
had gone to mend a fixture; the nice young lady he had seen; and
the toilet-table all covered with silver things.

“Why, Annie, now I tell you, there was brushes and combs made
out of silver; and there was five little sorts of silver boxes,
different sizes and shapes, hearts and rounds mostly. Didn’t seem
to have nothing in ’em. I had to move ’em to get at the bracket.
What do you suppose folks has such things for? Now a brush made
out o’ silver is no sense; it’s heavy. Annie, now, would you like
things like that?”

“Indeed, I wouldn’t,” she said. “Think of the trouble they’d be to
keep clean.”

“Well, the help does that in them houses, I suppose,” he ruminated.
“Annie, now, suppose you had a lot of money, would you buy them
things?”

“Indeed, I wouldn’t!” Annie said again, laughing. “No, I know what
I’d do. I heard a girl talking about it. There’s a college for
girls somewhere in the East, just like there is for young men. I
would go to that college and study. My! wouldn’t I study!”

       *       *       *       *       *

That was the beginning of what some people called the tragedy of
Annie Graham’s life, and some the success--it all depends on how
you look at it.

Her chance remark about a girl’s college lingered in her father’s
thoughts; Johnny Graham had not known that there were such things
as women’s colleges. There were primary schools and high schools
and “pay” schools, where he supposed the swells sent their
children, but his knowledge never went farther than this.

“A college for girls!” Well, why not? He believed girls was smarter
than boys any day in the year; anyway his Annie was. He thought
about it constantly, when, to save something for that inheritance
in the bank, he walked to and from his work; and he thought of
it while he worked. He spoke of it, when he had the chance, in
a tentative way to two or three persons for whom he was doing
jobs of gasfitting. Did they ever hear anything of them girls’
colleges? What was they like? Did they cost money? Once, in the
big morning-room of an old-fashioned house, he spoke to an old
lady who sat by the fire while he screwed a lava tip on the burner
over the mantelpiece. She was an old woman and rich, and so she
ought to know about such things, Johnny Graham reasoned; so, with
the respectful guilelessness of the American workman, he cleared
his throat and said, he wondered, now, if she was knowing anything
about girls’ colleges?

The old woman started, and seemed to see him for the first time,
and put on her glasses to inspect him.

“What did you say, my good man?” she inquired.

Johnny, unoffended by this offensive term, which means, “you are
not so good as I am,” repeated his question mumblingly, with the
old lava tip between his lips.

“I have a girl I’m thinking of sending to one of them
institutions,” he explained.

The old lady frowned and took off her glasses and tapped them on
the arm of her chair.

“You will make a great mistake, my good man. It is a great mistake
to educate your daughter above her position.”

Johnny took the lava tip out of his mouth and stared at her.

“Well, now, ma’am,” he said in his slow way, “I don’t see how you
make that out. An American girl is an American girl; no matter how
you look at it. You can’t educate her above that.”

Upon which the old lady nodded her head and said: “Yes, yes; of
course; this is what I’ve always said; this is what we are coming
to!”

And Johnny Graham rolled up his tools in his greasy leather apron,
and went home, pondering deeply. He was not in the least angry at
the old lady; he was simply incapable of understanding her. But
that night he thought it over, and pointed out to himself that,
after all, if Annie’s mind was set that way, there was no use in
her waiting to spend her money till he was dead and gone.

“I’ll probably be livin’ twenty years yet,” he thought, after some
calculation, “and Annie maybe would be too old for a girls’ college
then. She’d better go now; and anyway it might be a good investment
of the money; she might set up as a teacher, maybe, after she got
learned. They do say Councilman Welch’s daughter got four hundred
dollars for teachin’ in the Primary School; and that’s twenty per
cent. interest on two thousand dollars; I believe it’s a good
thing!”

It was then that Annie came in, looking, it chanced, a little
pale, and, perhaps, a little wistful. Annie was not discontented;
she had no aspirations; only the child was vaguely aware of an
emptiness in her life. And she had stopped at the Public Library as
she came home from her work, and had read an article in a magazine
concerning a College for Women in another State.

“That’s what I’d do if I were rich,” she thought, as she walked
home. “I’d go there and study.”

So she was a little absent, even when she kissed her father, and
heard him tell all about the big house where the rich old woman
lived all by herself, because she had quarreled with her only
daughter.

“Seems strange, now, to quarrel with your children,” said Johnny,
buttering his bread on the tablecloth, and then, tilting his chair
back, eating it with great contentment.

After supper he told Annie what he had planned for her. Her
amazement at her father’s wealth was almost as keen a delight
to Johnny as was her impetuous refusal to use it, and her tears
because he was “so good” to her; almost as keen a joy as her final
yielding to the logic of his urging, that, after all, the family
would be better off if she could teach, and earn a big salary. “Six
hundred dollars, maybe,” he said, stretching his imagination for
the purpose of convincing her.

So it was arranged. Annie Graham was to go away to study; she was
to fit herself to be a teacher; she was to be educated into her
father’s intellectual superior; she was to be raised “above her
station.” Would it be a failure or a success? Would she be happy or
most miserable? Would the little dull, loving, ignorant gasfitter
hold or lose his girl?

Well, it all depends upon how you look at it.

       *       *       *       *       *

The result of the talk that night was that in September Annie took
the long and expensive journey East, and entered on her four years’
course of study.

Of course, there was no coming home for the holidays; the fifteen
hundred dollars in the bank could not stand that; nor did she
have to come back in the long vacation, which would have been a
serious expense, for the president of the college, who was greatly
impressed by the girl’s ability and character, permitted her to
live in one of the college houses during the summer, and found for
her an opportunity to teach some little children. She earned enough
money to pay her board during those twelve weeks, and did not have
to draw on the cherished bank account.

The beginning of that college life was a strange experience to
Annie,--the quiet, refined atmosphere, the beauty of culture, the
conception of spaciousness and dignity, and the awaking of that
sense of fitness which is called conventionality. To Annie these
things were like the opening of the eyes of one born blind. By
degrees the small niceties of life revealed themselves to her,--the
delicacies of serving, the delicacies of living, the delicacies of
manner and voice and thought. She felt them all with a passionate
sort of joy.

It is curious to observe that by the pure and virgin mind these
things, which may be so worthless in their lifeless formality,
are seen in their real and fundamental nobility, and are accepted
with the instinct of religion. At first Annie was so normally
unconscious of her antecedents that it did not occur to her to
proclaim that all these things were new. And then, by and by,
having eaten of this tree of the knowledge of good and evil, there
came to her a certain deep spiritual experience; she recognized
that the root of conventionality, the beginning of the sense of
fitness, lay in character; therefore she knew no shame that her
father ate with his knife, or sat in his shirt-sleeves, or did many
unlovely things. She did not like them; but she knew no shame, only
love. But it was then that, very simply, she took occasion to say
that her father, who was a mechanic, had sent her here to college,
so that she might be fitted to support herself by teaching. She
said this because she recognized another point of view, and,
recognizing it, felt a certain lack of straightforwardness in
keeping silent; and also because she was proud of Johnny Graham.
Then she forgot it. It was too unimportant to think of.

She assimilated all these new ideas, and felt them and lived them,
as though she had been to the manner born. Her very face reflected
them. She was almost a beautiful young woman. Her deep eyes looked
out from under her straight, pure brows with a certain high
directness of glance and tranquil self-poise which gave a sense of
breeding which was inescapable. The fact that she had said that she
was poor was only in its way another proof of her superiority--so
some of the college-girls said, who went into schoolgirl ecstasies
about her.

“You know it’s vulgar to be rich,” a young man told her one
evening, as they talked together in the June dusk. It was Annie’s
fifth year, and for the first time she was going home in the long
vacation. A scholarship, and four summers of teaching some little
children in a country house on the outskirts of the village, had
meant that for the last two years Johnny Graham’s bank account had
been recuperating, a very, very little; at all events, there had
been no drain upon it.

And now Annie was going home. She had won the highest honors of her
class, and had even been offered a position on the college staff,
and her happiness was as frank as a child’s.

“In so many weeks I’ll see father. In so many days!”--she kept
saying to herself. And now it had come to Saturday evening, and she
was to start home on Monday. She was walking back from her little
pupils’ house, where she had said good-by until September. She was
not alone.

A certain Dick Temple, a cousin of her pupils’ mother, had a way of
running down from town to spend Sundays with the Pauls, to play,
he said, with the children, and get in some rowing on the river,
and to exercise his cousin John’s polo ponies, and--to see Annie
Graham.

But this last was not so stated in the bond.

He had a way of appearing in time to walk across the campus with
her, after little Kate’s music lesson Saturday afternoon, and once
or twice he had beguiled her into his boat, and they had gone
floating down the river in the twilight, talking of everything in
heaven and earth. Being young, religion had been their first theme;
and then, by and by, love;--in the abstract, of course. A month
ago, they both had feared themselves incapable of experiencing this
beautiful emotion--Annie, because she was going to devote herself
to study and her father; Dick, because he had outlived such things,
and was very bitter and cynical and mysterious in his allusions to
life, which, he said, “he knew.” Sometimes they talked of their
future; and it was then that Annie had told him, smiling, that
she had no such luxurious prospects as those which he had been
outlining for himself,--travel, and study, and the philanthropic
opportunities of great wealth.

They were walking slowly along under the great elms toward her
door; it had rained earlier in the day, and the worn bricks of the
narrow pavement held here and there shallow pools of water; the sun
struck across the wet grass in a low flood of gold; and there was
the scent of young leaves and roses in the air.

“We are poor people,” Annie had said, with an amused look; “I’m
going to teach school and wear spectacles, and be very stern and
learned.”

“Ah, well,” returned the young man, “it’s the thing to be poor
nowadays; it’s awfully vulgar to be rich! It’s queer, now, when you
think of it, Miss Graham, how many people in our class have lost
their money, isn’t it?”

“We’ve never had it to lose,” Annie said; “the family fortunes are
to rise on school-teaching.”

Dick glanced at her with quick admiration in his handsome young
eyes. He was twenty-four, but he blundered over his words like a
schoolboy.

“Miss Graham,” he said, “you won’t mind if I say I think it’s
awfully fine in you, don’t you know, to teach, and all that sort
of thing? Of course, girls do things now. I mean nice girls, don’t
you know. Why, cousin Kate gave music lessons before she married;
and she was a Townsend. Still, it’s people like that, don’t you
know, that can afford to do things like that!”

“I don’t suppose any one can afford to be dependent,” Annie said
simply, “and my father is really poor, Mr. Temple.”

Her beautiful direct look as she said this made the young fellow’s
heart suddenly leap. He wanted to burst out and tell her how much
he admired her; admired? no, loved her! That was the word. Yes, he,
who had thought he had outlived all that sort of thing. All in a
moment he felt that he wanted to tell her this; but she seemed so
remote that he dared not speak.

“I suppose I ought to get my governor to go and call on hers,”
he reflected; “these decayed gentlefolks are death on propriety.
But maybe she wouldn’t look at me, anyway,” he added to himself,
in a miserable afterthought; for she began to speak in such an
interested way of some mathematical work she had to do that night,
that he felt there was no room for him in her thoughts. He left
her at the college door and went back, ardent and despairing, to
confide in his cousin Kate, who, it must be admitted, had rather
a startled expression when he told her he was “all bowled over by
Miss Graham.”

“But, Dick, what would your father say if it got serious? Cousin
Henry has such ideas, you know. She’s a charming girl, but we don’t
know anything about her people.”

“We know they are poor,” Dick said boldly; “but that doesn’t matter
in the least. Surely you are not so narrow, Cousin Kate, as to
think it matters?”

“No, that doesn’t matter, of course,” cousin Kate said doubtfully.

       *       *       *       *       *

As for Annie, she went, smiling a little, and blushing a little,
upstairs to her room. But she did no work in higher mathematics
that night.

Instead, she finished her packing, and wrote her last semi-weekly
letter of the term to her father. To be sure, he would get it just
a day or two before she came herself; but she would not have had
Johnny Graham miss that Saturday letter for a good deal. She knew
he would carry it about in his pocket, and read it over and over,
and put it on the wooden chair beside his bed at night. Perhaps it
was a little more affectionate, this last letter, than usual; she
told him about the weather, and that she would start on Monday,
and would telegraph him when to expect her. And something of the
progress of her two pupils; and how she had made an experiment in
the laboratory, and had burned her fingers; and--and that she had
met an interesting man, a cousin of Mrs. Paul’s. He had taken her
out rowing once or twice, she said. And, oh! she was so happy that
she was coming home! She could hardly believe that it was true, she
was so glad. And then she said she was always his little girl who
loved him--“Annie.”

Then when it was written, she put her head down on her arms, folded
upon her writing-table; there were tears in her eyes when she
lifted it again.

“When he said ‘our class,’ ought I to have spoken?” she asked
herself. “No, he must know; I told Mrs. Paul. No, no, I couldn’t!”
And all her love and all her pride for her father rebelled against
the slight to him which such a confession would have been; it would
have seemed to imply that he was less gentle in soul than Richard
Temple himself, or any one else.

Mr. Temple saw her at church the next day and walked home with
her; although she kept all the while on Mrs. Paul’s right, while
Dick had to walk on the outside and could only look across at her,
which did not please him in the least. She did not talk to him very
much, but she seemed to have a good deal to say to his cousin,
which perplexed her adorer, for though he had a proper regard for
the stout and estimable Mrs. Paul, he could not see why Miss Graham
should talk to her with such apparent interest, when an intelligent
young man was really eager for a look or a word. He heard her
laughing a little about going home “like a stranger and foreigner,”
she said.

“I haven’t seen South Bend for nearly five years; you know it is
such an expensive journey.”

Mrs. Paul said yes, she supposed it was. “It takes four days
and five nights to get there, doesn’t it? It seems to me I
passed through it once. I suppose those Western places are very
progressive, aren’t they? They are not shocked at the idea of a
university education for women. One runs up against that here very
often.”

Annie shook her head, smiling. “Isn’t it funny to think that people
do really feel that it is unfeminine; ‘threatening to the womanly
woman,’ as they say.”

“I’ve come to think that the ‘womanly woman’ means the brainless
woman,” Mrs. Paul said.

“What fools people are who feel that way about the higher education
of women,” Dick broke in. “It’s incredible! Miss Graham, I shall be
passing through South Bend in a fortnight or so; may I call?”

“Of course; I shall be delighted to see you,” Annie said, “and my
father will be so glad to see any friend of Mrs. Paul’s; he knows
how kind you have been to me,” she ended, with an affectionate look
at Dick’s cousin.

Then Mr. Temple, with an eager timidity so foreign to him that Mrs.
Paul suppressed a smile with difficulty, wondered if Miss Graham
would have time to go out on the river that evening? He knew she
would be awfully busy; but it would be a heavenly evening on the
river! He was so promptly assured that she should not have time
that the poor fellow looked very blank; in fact, he was distinctly
cross in the family circle for the rest of the day. At night he
softened and tried to be amiable, for he was constrained to be
confidential, and he knew that “Cousin Kate” would not hesitate to
snub him unless he made himself agreeable.

“Now, really, don’t you think she’s very unusual?” he insisted,
after having told Mrs. Paul all the pleasant things which he could
remember that Miss Graham had said to him about her two little
pupils.

“If you mean Miss Graham, why, yes, I do think she’s unusual, Dick.”

“Did you ever notice,” said the fatuous Dick, “how softly her hair
grows around her forehead? And her eyes--what color are her eyes?”

“I’m sure I can’t say,” Mrs. Paul answered dryly. “Dick, would you
mind going in and getting me a shawl? It’s rather cool out here on
the terrace.” When he came back she had made up her mind how to
proceed. “Now, Dick, listen, I’m not a snob, but”--

“If you are going to say anything about that beautiful creature’s
working for her living,” Dick threatened, “you might as well stop
on the spot.”

“Of course I’m not going to say anything about her working for her
living; why should I? I worked for my living before I married John.
You know I’m not a snob, but I do believe in class. I don’t mean
to be unkind, and certainly she is a charming girl, and--ladylike.
But--there is something, I can’t tell what it is--that seems as if
she had not always been used to things”--

Dick Temple said something between his teeth, and his cousin flung
her head up.

“Dick!”

“Well, it makes a man want to be emphatic, Cousin Kate,--such
nonsense! Class? We’re Americans, thank the Lord! And talk about
ancestors, I never saw descent so plainly. Look at the way she
carries her head! And her voice, her manner! Darn it, because a
girl’s poor”--

“Good-night, Richard,” said Mrs. Paul, rising with great dignity.

“Oh, hold on! Don’t get mad. Hold your base. I apologize; only, it
seems pretty hard to be down on a girl”--

“You know I’m not down on her; I like her very much; I respect her
very much.”

“Well, then, what’s the matter?” demanded Dick boldly.

“I don’t know. Only I have a vague recollection that when she
came to teach the children she mentioned, in a casual sort of
way, something about--about her home, or her father and mother,
or something. I can’t really remember, but I know I gained the
impression that she was”--

“Poor?” Dick burst in. “Of course she’s poor. She has never made
any secret of that. Why should she? Only a cad would do that.”

“I don’t mean poor,” Mrs. Paul said, frowning. “I wish you would
have some manners, Dick, and not interrupt. I merely mean that a
young man has no right to pay attention to a girl in another class
unless he means to follow it up. I despise a trifler, Dick.”

“You don’t despise him any more than I do,” Dick returned loftily.
“But there isn’t any question of class here. We don’t have any
higher class than hers; and as for ‘following it up,’ as you
say--if a fellow thought there was any chance for him with that
woman he’d follow it up quick enough, and ask her to marry him!
Yes, and he ought to do it as formally as though she were a
princess. She _is_ a princess! He ought to go and ask her father
if he might ask her. Her poverty, which seems to trouble you so
much, Cousin Kate, has no bearing on the situation.”

Poor Dick was smarting with Annie’s apparent coldness and his
cousin’s snobbishness--so he called it; but there was really no
excuse for bursting out at Mrs. Paul in this way; and it was no
wonder that she said good-night with some asperity, and went
upstairs and told her husband that Dick was a perfect goose,
besides being rather a cub.

“He’s twenty-four and old enough to know better,” she said. “Oh,
dear, I do wish his father was here!”

“You’d better wish her father was here; then you’d know the pit
whence she was digged,” John Paul said. “Of course, if he ever sold
cotton by the yard, Dick’s future happiness would be imperiled.”

“Now, John, don’t be horrid,” said his wife impatiently; “you know
perfectly well what I mean. I’m not a snob, as I told Dick, but
there is such a thing as class.”

“If Dick’s worth anything,” pronounced John Paul, standing before
his glass and ripping his collar off the stud with a vicious tug,
“he’ll marry that girl if her father is a hod-carrier.”


II

Five years! It was a long time. Johnny, standing in the railroad
station, his heart beating high with pride and joy, couldn’t help
crying out when he saw her:--

“Why, how you’ve growed, Annie! Bless my heart, if you ain’t
growed!” But his eyes were misty, so perhaps it was that made
his little Annie look so tall. He had not recognized her for a
moment,--this lady who, with the tears trembling in her eyes, came
up to him and took his hands and cried out, “Father!” Afterward he
said he didn’t know why he had taken her for a lady, for, sakes
alive, her clothes were plain enough. He was quite distressed about
her clothes.

“You’ve stinted yourself, Annie,” he reproached her as they went
home in the street cars. “You ought to be havin’ a silk dress,
lookin’ the way you do. Why, I took you for a lady, Annie. You
ought to have fine clothes, my pretty; we’ll take some money out of
the bank and get you a regular silk dress,” he told her, scolding
her and loving her, and bursting with pride, and taking up their
intercourse just where it had paused, five years ago. She was a
pretty girl and a great learner, Johnny thought; but she was just
his Annie.

It was late when they got home. He had left the kitchen fire clear
and ready for the steak Annie would broil, and the gas was flaring
wide from new burners, and Johnny had bought a long plush scarf for
the top of the mantelpiece over the kitchen range. When Annie was
fairly in the house, and the door was shut, it seemed as though
the happiness of heaven had come into the little kitchen. Johnny
laughed, and drew the back of his hand across his nose, and sniffed
and blinked, and the tears ran freely down his little cheeks. He
walked round and round Annie in critical inspection; and ran her
from room to room, even up to Dave Duggan’s attic, to show her how
unchanged everything was. He made her come into the parlor and
showed her the faded ribbons and tottering plush frames.

“I dusted ’em every Sunday, Annie,” he said. And then he told her
how he had turned out the person to whom he had rented her old
room. “Well, now, he was set on stayin’,” Johnny said; “he was
always sayin’ he wanted to see you, but I guess Dave Duggan was
just as well pleased not to have him round. Dave ain’t married yet,
Annie.” Then Johnny laughed very much, and added, winking at his
own joke, that he guessed Dave had forgotten her, she’d been away
so long.

The wonderful thing about it all, and the beautiful thing about it
all, was that this little man did not in the least care that his
Annie was an educated woman; he did not even know it.

It seemed as if Annie could not enough show the tenderness that
made her heart ache with its swelling. She sat beside him, holding
his work-roughened hands in hers, and told him over and over about
these five years which he had given her; she knew, and she was
feeling as she spoke, how every joy of study, and every pang of
the happiness of appreciation had come from these patient, loving,
grimy old hands. “You’ve given me everything,” her heart was
saying, “and I love you! I can never say how much.” But it seemed
as though it were saying, also, “Why, why did you put me where I
was to learn that you were you, and I was I?”

One looks on at such a situation and says, “If it could stop here,
it might be possible.” But it cannot stop there. It is not the
adjustment of the relations between parents and child which is
the difficult thing. The acceptance of a different point of view
by these three may even come without much pain. No; it is the
outsiders who make the situation impossible--the father’s cronies,
the mother’s friends, the acquaintances of the untaught girlhood.
The impossibility revealed itself that very night when Dave Duggan
came in to welcome her home. Annie gave him her hand, flushing and
paling at his familiarity, his boisterous, facetious “Hollo, Annie!
How you was?” In him, after that easy greeting, the first note of
the difference made for all time was struck; for he grew conscious
and uneasy, and scuffled his feet, and cleared his throat, and
laughed in a silly way. Yet all the old admiration spoke in his
eyes. Johnny was full of significant jokes, and kept elbowing Annie
and winking; and Dave’s loud rebukes of his host’s “fun” were even
more meaning.

At nearly midnight Annie went upstairs, tired, white, smiling; and
lay open-eyed until dawn.

       *       *       *       *       *

Dick Temple’s intention of “passing through South Bend in a
fortnight” was a little delayed. Cousin Kate’s vague misgivings
took the form of a postscript in a casual note to his mother; there
was no more than a word or two about Dick’s _tendresse_ for a
pretty college-girl who had been the children’s governess during
the last three summers while they were out of town; that was all.
But it was enough. And Mrs. Paul felt she had done her duty.

“And perhaps prevented Dick from doing his,” her husband commented
grimly.

“If he can be prevented, he’d better be; for he wouldn’t be good
enough for Annie Graham!” cousin Kate declared with much spirit,
and immediately became, in her own mind, the champion of the
incipient love affair.

Her letter was passed on by Dick’s mother to Dick’s father, who
said good-naturedly that the boy was a jackass.

“The young lady is probably too good, for him,” said Mr. Henry
Temple, “but I’m not going to have that boy marrying John Paul’s
governess without a few remarks from me.”

Mr. Temple telegraphed his son not to leave town on the day he had
arranged, as he wished to see him; and then he came all the way
from Old Chester for the purpose of making the remarks, which, of
course, were to be general; it would give the matter too much
importance to treat it as particular or probable. So, in a casual
way, he referred to cousin Kate’s letter, and enjoined his son
not to be a fool. Dick’s instantly aggressive attitude and skill
in “answering back” were most surprising to Mr. Temple. A man is
always surprised at his son’s ability in this direction; it is
as though his own hand or foot suddenly acquired individuality.
Furthermore, Richard was very sentimental, and had much to say of
his father’s un-American point of view and of his own readiness
to marry a “woman he loved” (if she’d have him) if she were a
washerwoman.

“As for Miss Graham,” said Dick, “I’ve no right even to speak of
her; but she’s a lady, and an angel”--

“Oh, Lord!” groaned Mr. Temple. “I wonder if I ever was as young as
you, Dickon?”

But he was really disturbed, and wrote to a friend who owned the
great South Bend Rolling and Smelting Furnaces, and might be
expected to know who and what the Grahams were.

Meantime, Dick Temple, twice as much in earnest for his father’s
not unreasonable expostulation, packed his things and started for
the West. It was a hot July afternoon when he arrived in South
Bend; he was fretted by the heat and his own impatience and the
stupidity of the landlord of the hotel in being unable to tell him
where Mr. Graham lived.

“There’s no family by that name on the hill, sir,” he said.
“Graham--Graham--there’s some Grahams here in the directory; what’s
the gentleman’s business, sir?”

“I don’t know,” Dick said, fuming. “What sort of a place is this,
anyhow, that you don’t know where people live? It’s small enough
for you to know everybody”--

“We’ve twenty thousand inhabitants, young man,” said the landlord
with much offense. “The only Graham I know is Johnny; he’s a
gasfitter, and does odd jobs here once in a while”--

“Have your clerk copy all those Graham addresses,” said
Dick coldly. “I’ll go round till I find the person I wish.
Unfortunately I don’t know the gentleman’s first name. Have you got
any kind of conveyance in this place? Just have a hack called, will
you?”

He spoke with the insolence of tone peculiar to well-bred young
men, and he walked to the open door and stood waiting for the
carriage and frowning out at the passers-by. There was a red glare
from the furnaces on the other side of the river, shifting and
fading on the coils of black smoke which lay motionless in the
still, hot air. The street was the narrow unlovely street of the
small manufacturing town of the West.

“It’s a beastly place,” Dick said to himself with an irritation
which had its root in some formless apprehension; and he got into
the lumbering, rattling hack and slammed the door with vicious
emphasis. “What on earth does her father live here for, anyhow?” he
said to himself.

The carriage drew up first at a small market, where piles of faded
vegetables, flanked by glass cases of meats, jutted out upon the
pavement; a man in a dirty white butcher’s frock leaned against
the door-post, and two jets of gas flared and flickered from long
iron stand-pipes.

The driver leaned down from his box and called out in friendly
tones to know if this was the place.

“Idiot!” said Dick under his breath. “Of course not. Try the next
address.”

This was a forlorn, untidy-looking house on a side street. Lodgers’
heads were thrust out of the windows as Dick climbed the steps and
inquired whether Miss Annie Graham lived there? He was conscious
of a distinct relief when he went back again to the carriage. They
went to two other houses, but there was no Miss Annie Graham.

“I guess,” said the hackman, “we’ll have to cross over to the other
side of the river. There’s a Graham over there, at Jack’s Corners.
Jack’s Corners is a fine suburb, sir.”

Dick’s heart rose.

“All right; go on,” he said. “Can’t you hurry those beasts of yours
up?”

And so it was that, about seven o’clock, the cabman drew up before
a small, detached frame house on the Mill Road. It was so hot
that the kitchen windows were wide open, and one could see the
table drawn up between them, and a little man in his shirt-sleeves
eating his supper. Opposite him, by the other window, was a girl
with a fan in her hand, and between them were two other persons,
for Johnny was entertaining that night. Dave Duggan, uncomfortable,
he knew not why (although it certainly was not the weather, for
he had, with great good sense, removed his coat), sat on Annie’s
left; and next to him, beside Johnny, was an enormously fat woman,
in a sort of loose white sack. This was Mrs. Pugsley, who was one
of those neighboring ladies of thwarted stepmother potentialities.
“But you never know what’ll happen,” Mrs. Pugsley often remarked,
and dropped in this hot July night in a friendly way to see if
Annie was making her father comfortable. It was Mrs. Pugsley’s
opinion that all this learning wasn’t no good. “Better know how
to dish a meal’s victuals,” said Mrs. Pugsley, “than be readin’
story papers all the time. That’s what them high-school girls does
mostly.”

The room was faintly lighted by a kerosene lamp on the mantelpiece;
but the real radiance was in Johnny’s face, as he looked across a
bunch of roses in the middle of the narrow table at his Annie.

“Annie walked out two miles to get them flowers,” he said.

“Must ’a’ wanted something to do,” said Mrs. Pugsley.

“I’d ’a’ got ’em for you, Annie,” Dave said bashfully, “if I’d
a-known you wanted ’em.” And it was just then that the carriage
drew up at the door.

Dick, hot and disappointed and disgusted at the coachman’s
stupidity in bringing him into this obviously mechanic’s suburb,
leaned out to say, “Drive on!” And then he saw her.

There was a flutter in the tenement at seeing a hack draw up.
Johnny Graham rose, seeing in a burst of fancy an important and
hasty job, and a carriage sent to convey him to a wilderness of
leaks or broken tips. Mrs. Pugsley conceived the hack to be a
summons from a lady friend who had expected to need her services
on a felicitous occasion, and was instantly agitated, and got up
panting, and saying:--

“Goodness! they’ve sent!”

But Annie knew.

One wonders if she flinched, there in the twilight. She rose at
once and went to the front door, her hand outstretched in pleased
welcome.

“Why, Mr. Temple! This is very pleasant,” she said. “Father, dear,
this is Mr. Temple.”

Dick’s face was white. He took Johnny Graham’s hand and bowed, with
some murmured reference to pleasure.

“This is my friend, Mr. Duggan, Mr. Temple,” Annie went on
placidly, “and Mrs. Pugsley.”

Dick bowed twice. He saw dimly, in the dusky kitchen interior, two
other figures, one of which, assisted by the other, was struggling
into a coat.

“Why, now set down, sir,” Johnny said joyously; “take a seat and
set down. Annie, now, can’t you make room there by Dave? We
was just setting out to eat our tea, sir; it’s so hot, we was
late,--but it’s the style to be late, I hear! I guess we ain’t eat
up everything, have we, Annie? I guess there’s something left for
your gentleman friend.”

“You’re very kind,” Dick protested feebly; but he sat down, too
bewildered to find any excuse.

Annie put a plate before him, and told him he must have some iced
tea.

“It’s the only thing that makes life possible in this weather,” she
said; “but I can’t make father believe it; he takes his boiling.”

“Well, sir,” said Johnny, “you had quite a jaunt to get out here,
hadn’t you? But I don’t mind the walk myself, back and forth from
my work, for it’s fresher out here.”

“I didn’t know your address,” Dick said, not looking at Annie;
“I’ve been driving round”--

“When I saw that carriage drive up,” Mrs. Pugsley said, still
panting, “I thought a lady friend of mine had sent for me; it give
me such a start!”

“Tell me how you left Mrs. Paul,” Annie asked.

“Oh, thanks, very well,” Dick assured her; and there was a moment’s
pause. Mrs. Pugsley and Dave were blankly silent. Annie talked
against time.

“It was so nice to get home. Just think, I had been away five
years,” she said; “that’s a pretty long time not to see one’s
father; father didn’t know me when he met me at the station;--now,
I would have known you anywhere!” she reproached Johnny, with a
loving look.

“Well, but now, you’d growed, Annie; that’s what I said when I saw
her. I says, ‘Why, Annie, you’ve growed!’ Dave, here, don’t see no
change in her. But I do,” Johnny ended proudly.

“You must have missed your daughter very much,” Mr. Temple murmured.

“Well, indeed, an’ he did,” Mrs. Pugsley said resentfully; “but she
would be studyin’. She’s that set on it.”

“Miss Graham is devoted to mathematics,” Dick began miserably,
“and--and that sort of thing”--

He stopped so abruptly that Mrs. Pugsley’s hoarse whisper to Dave
Duggan was audible to all,--

“Say, is he Annie’s feller?”

“Hush!” said Dave Duggan.

Dick drank his tumbler of iced tea with violent haste, and even
Johnny looked disconcerted. Annie said something about the roses.

“The thing I miss most in South Bend are the gardens,” she said.
“You know we are all working people on this side of the river, and
there are no old houses, so there are no beautiful big gardens. I
had to walk far out into the country for those.”

“Won’t you have anything more?” Johnny inquired hospitably. “Take
another helping of something? You won’t? Oh, now, take a taste of
this! No? Well, let’s go into the parlor, Annie.”

If Annie held back, no one saw it. They went into the best room,
where Johnny set all the gas burners flaring, that the full glories
of the decorations might strike the visitor, who, indeed, saw
nothing but Annie’s set face.

“Miss Graham,” he said, “you are coming East again in September,
aren’t you?”

“I think not; I think I must never leave father again. He is not
very strong, and I want to be with him.”

“Oh, yes, quite so,” Dick answered, “but”--

“But what, Mr. Temple?”

“Oh, nothing; I only thought--I thought you were to teach in the
college, and”--

He did not know how to end his sentence; he caught Dave Duggan’s
eyes glowering at him, and Johnny’s rather obsequious smile. Johnny
had the true American veneration for wealth, and he felt that this
gentleman who kept a hack waiting for an hour was a rich man.

“I shall never leave my father,” Annie said, in a low voice.

Now Richard Temple was not a mean or unworthy man; he was a
well-born, well-bred, well-educated young American gentleman; but
he had been placed suddenly at a cruel disadvantage; his presence
of mind deserted him--he was bewildered and confounded. His plans
and hopes were all adrift. He could not meet Annie Graham’s eyes
again; he said good-night, at first effusively, and then haughtily;
and sneaked out to his carriage, anxious only to escape from an
intolerable situation.

“Hope you’ll come again and talk over old times with Annie, sir,”
Johnny said, shaking Dick’s hand all the time that he was speaking;
“you’ll call again, sir?”

“Oh, certainly, yes, of course,” Dick answered wretchedly.

But Annie knew better.

       *       *       *       *       *

Dave Duggan had watched Annie’s visitor with burning eyes. He
followed the conversation with painful intentness, and a sense of
speed which made him breathless. He wished to join in it,--and kept
moistening his lips and clearing his throat, but he never found the
courage to speak. His shyness probably prevented him from being
rude; for his feeling about Dick was rage, pure and simple.

“He’s a blamed dude,” he thought to himself again and again; but he
could think of nothing to say which would convey this opinion, and
yet fit into the conversation. But when Dick had slunk back to his
carriage Dave’s feelings burst forth. For a few moments, indeed,
the little group (except Annie) talked, in their excitement, all
together.

“Ain’t he handsome!” Johnny said proudly; he was proud of anything
connected with Annie.

“He’s real rich, Annie, ain’t he? Ridin’ in hacks?” Mrs. Pugsley
demanded.

“He’s a blamed dude; that’s what he is,” Dave said fiercely.

“I thought he was your feller, Annie,” Mrs. Pugsley declared,
panting and fanning herself.

“Well, now, he’s none too good to be,” Johnny announced, chuckling.

“Father, dear, wouldn’t it be nicer to sit out on the steps, where
it’s cooler? I’ll put the tea things away, and then I’ll come,
too. Please--_go!_” she ended. Johnny looked at her in surprise,
sensitive to every change in her voice.

“Why, now--Annie?” he faltered.

“I’ll be through with the dishes in a few minutes, father, dear,”
she said; and so Johnny led the way to the front door and placed a
chair on the hard, black earth at the foot of the steps for Mrs.
Pugsley, and told Dave to take off his coat again.

“It’s that hot,” Johnny said, “there’s no good wearin’ coats.”

“Now that dude’s gone, I suppose there’s no harm being
comfortable,” Dave agreed angrily.

They sat there in the dusk, Johnny and Mrs. Pugsley talking the
visit over. They could hear Annie moving about in the kitchen,
washing the dishes. After a while Dave Duggan got up and with
painstaking and elaborate efforts not to attract attention went,
with creaking, clumsy steps, into the kitchen. Annie stood by the
sink, with her back to him. He heard her draw in her breath in a
broken sob; and then he saw--he saw that tears were running down
her face.

“Annie!” he said; “oh, now, Annie, don’t, don’t mind, Annie, dear!”
He put out his hands beseechingly, his face red and wincing with
feeling. Annie turned her shoulder toward him, and set her teeth.
She drew her wrist across her eyes.

“It’s that dude’s hurt your feelin’s, Annie--darn him! but never
you mind, he ain’t worth”--

“Oh, please go away, Dave,” Annie said; “you don’t know what you
are talking about! Please go back to father.”

“Annie,” he burst out, “look here: he ain’t worth it. I say, Annie,
will you take up with me?”

“I really don’t know what you are talking about. Mr. Temple--if you
are referring to him--has not hurt my feelings in the least. I--I
had something on my mind, and”--

“Oh, Annie,” poor Dave said, “what I’m wanting to know”--He stood
there in his shirt-sleeves beside the sink, his voice trembling,
one big red hand opening and shutting the hot-water spigot. “I’m
just wanting to know if you’ll marry me, Annie. Say, now, will you?”

She shrank from him, a sort of horror in her face.

“_You?_”

“You ain’t mad?” he entreated.

“It is quite impossible,” she answered hoarsely; “quite, quite!
Never speak to me of such a thing”--Her face was stinging, her
voice was broken, as a woman’s might be to whom some insulting
thing had been said. “You will go, if you please,” she ended, her
head high, and with a certain gesture that confounded him.

“But look a-here,” he insisted, following her as she moved away
from him; “Annie, look a-here; that fellow ain’t a-goin’ to marry
anybody but a rich lady; his kind ain’t goin’ to marry you.”

“Well, I shan’t marry my kind, then! You can just understand that,”
she cried, with a sudden almost coarse fury. “There’s no use for
you to think of such a thing. Don’t ever dare to spake to me that
way again!”

       *       *       *       *       *

This is as far as Annie Graham has lived her story. She and Dave
practically summed the matter up between them: “His kind will not
marry you;” and “I will not marry my kind.”

The story is unfinished; one waits to see what will happen.

There are three things open to Annie: She may live out her life
in South Bend; teaching, perhaps, in the public school, gradually
refining the terrible little house, rejoicing Johnny’s heart, and
never interfering, merely for her own æsthetic necessities, with
the unlovely habits of Johnny’s fifty years of unlovely living; she
may learn to accept his intimates as her acquaintances, his Mrs.
Pugsleys and Dave Duggans as household friends, starving all the
while for the companionship of her equals. Or--

She may shake off these intolerable surroundings which make her
shrink as instinctively as an open eye shrinks from dust; she
may turn her back on South Bend, and the tenement house, and the
painted snow-shovel, and her father’s shirt-sleeves, and her
father’s tender heart, and go out into the world to live her own
strong, refined, intellectual life, perhaps as a teacher in her
old college; marrying, after a while, some one who has never seen
her father, and coming into the soul-destroying possession of that
skeleton in the American closet--the vulgarity of the preceding
generation. Or--

She may, because of sheer misery in the struggle between the new
and the old, and for the dreadful suffocating comfort of it, fall
back into the pit whence she was digged and try to forget the upper
air.

What is the child’s duty? To live her own life, or to live some one
else’s life? Is she to accept success or failure, fulfillment or
renunciation?

People differ as to what constitutes success; some go so far as
to say that the highest fulfillment lies in renunciation; and
certainly there was once a life that might have been called a
failure because it ended upon a cross on Calvary.

I suppose it all depends on how you look at it.




THE LAW, OR THE GOSPEL


I

EVERYBODY in Mercer knew Sara Wharton; in the first
place, she was Edward Wharton’s daughter; the Edward Wharton of
the Wharton & Blair Company, whose great Rolling and Smelting
Mills darken Mercer’s sky with vast folds of black smoke, and give
employment to two thirds of Mercer’s population. In the second
place, she was a very charming young lady, who was too pretty to
pass unnoticed when her victoria went rolling along the river road
on fine afternoons. And in the third place, she was the president
of two girls’ clubs, and the organizer of the Boys’ Alliance, and
the Young Men’s Literary Association, and the founder of the Y. W.
C. T. U., and the kindly autocrat of all Mercer’s rough, grimy,
under-fed young people. She was a sweet-hearted, wholesome-minded,
impulsive, dear child; the kind of girl who loved a party just as
much, and planned her pretty dresses just as anxiously, and adored
her father and mother just as unreasonably, as though she had never
heard of a committee, and was indifferent to the Cause of Humanity.
All Mercer knew her, and believed in her; and so when, one gray
November afternoon, she was seen to go quietly up the steps of a
certain house on Baker Street--a house which decent folk affected
to ignore when they passed it by at midday, but at which they
glanced curiously after nightfall--when Sara Wharton went into this
house, those who chanced to see her said only, “Well! what won’t
that girl do next?”

The woman who answered her ring opened the door scarcely more than
a crack, and peered out at her sourly.

“I want to see Nellie Sherman,” said Miss Wharton.

“There’s no person by that name here,” the woman answered.

“Let me in, please,” Sara Wharton said. She put her hand against
the door, which yielded a little and then stopped; the woman inside
had braced her foot against it.

“She ain’t in.”

“I will wait until she comes, then,” returned the young lady
pleasantly.

“I don’t know why you’re comin’ here lookin’ for a girl,” the woman
cried out, in sudden, shrewish rage; “this is a respectable house;
there’s no Sherman girl here!”

“Let me in at once,” said Sara Wharton, “or I shall get a
policeman, and have a warrant served. I know Nellie Sherman lives
here, and I want to see her. You had better let me in without
further talk. I am Miss Wharton.”

“I don’t care if you are Queen Victoria,” the keeper of the house
declared angrily; “well, you can come in, though there ain’t no
Nellie Sherman here; there’s a Nettie Sherman,--if she’s the girl
you’re looking for.”

“Tell her I want to see her, please.”

“She’s up in her room. You can go up.” Miss Wharton’s instant’s
hesitation made her add, “There ain’t nobody there.”

The halls and stairs were nearly dark; one or two frowzy heads
peered over the banisters, and drew back quickly; there was a loud
guffaw of laughter from behind a closed door, and all the air was
heavy with the reek of stale tobacco.

“Her room’s the third floor back,” the woman called up after the
visitor, who went swiftly over the stairs, intent upon her errand,
yet with a faint shudder, a sort of physical shrinking, that made
her gather her cloak close about her, lest it might touch the wall
or banisters.

“I’m glad I told Thomas to wait,” she said to herself, thinking
of the brougham at the door, with the respectable, long-suffering
Thomas on the box. At the third floor back she knocked, and waited
for a reply; then she knocked again.

“What is it?” a muffled voice asked; “is that you, Mamie? Go ’way!
I’m busy.”

“It is I; Miss Wharton; a friend of your aunt’s. Let me in,
Nellie.” There was a breathless pause, and then a quick step, and
a bolt was snapped back. A slight, startled-looking girl stood in
the doorway. Sara entered with a certain fine, regal step that she
had, that gave at once a sense of the uselessness of opposing her.

“Shut the door,” she commanded cheerfully, “and let me see you.
Come, we will sit down and have a little talk. Oh, open that window
first; there is some dreadful perfumery in the room. Ah, that’s
nice; fresh air is the nicest sort of perfumery; don’t you think
so?”

The girl stared at her without an answer. She was a
delicate-looking creature, rather pretty, except that just now her
face was stained with tears, and there was a sullen look about her
little pale lips. But she had fair hair in a sort of aureole around
her low forehead, and shading her really beautiful eyes; and she
wore a crimson silk waist,--spotted, to be sure, and ripped on the
shoulder, but bringing out the fairness of her skin, and the blue
veins on her delicate temples.

“I’m sure I haven’t the pleasure of your acquaintance,” she said
airily; but she was trembling.

“I know your aunt, Mrs. Sherman,” her visitor said; then there
was a moment’s silence. Sara Wharton looked about the untidy
room,--with its banjo hung with ribbons, its looking-glass rimmed
with cards and tintypes stuck edgewise within the frame; its litter
of cigarette ends, and its half-empty, uncorked bottle of beer on
the marble-topped centre-table.

“Your aunt told me about you, my child,” she said, with a deep,
kind look full into the girl’s face.

The color rushed into Nellie’s pale cheeks; but she only said, with
vast indifference, “Is that so? Well, she’s very kind, I’m sure.”

“I don’t know that she has always been very kind,” Sara Wharton
answered thoughtfully. “Now shut that window behind you; I don’t
want you to sit in a draft; and the fresh air has driven out the
perfumery. Why do you use perfumery, Nellie? Nice girls don’t.”

The girl looked at her blankly.

“Yes; your aunt told me about you. She told me how she had taken
care of you ever since your mother died; and how she had sent
you to school, and bought pretty dresses for you, and done the
housework herself so that you shouldn’t spoil your hands; and how
she took in washing so that you might go to dancing-school. She
loved you very much, Nellie; but I am not sure that she was kind.
Perhaps if you had had to work you wouldn’t have come to this
dreadful house, and brought shame and disgrace to Mrs. Sherman.
You’ve broken her heart, Nellie.”

The girl’s face paled and flushed; and then quivered suddenly into
a storm of tears.

“_I_ don’t like it here. But I can’t help it. I lost my place in
the shop. I was late, and they discharged me. And I was afraid to
go home and tell my aunt, she jaws at me so. That was four weeks
ago. It was the third place I’d lost. So I--came here. I don’t
like it. I was just crying when you came in!” She squeezed her
handkerchief into a damp ball and pressed it against her eyes,
sobbing. “The woman is so cross. And--and I owe her for board.”

Sara was silent.

“But there ain’t anything I can do; I’d die rather than go back to
my aunt’s. She’d never forgive me. I don’t blame her. But _I_ don’t
like it here.”

“Perhaps your aunt will forgive you?” Sara said gently. Nellie
rocked back and forth, sobbing.

“I’m too wicked,” she recited; her eyes roved over Sara’s dark
dress, and inspected her pretty little bonnet, and dwelt on the
glitter of an amethyst pin at her throat. “Oh, dear, I wish I
hadn’t; I wish I was dead,” she said helplessly.

Sara Wharton’s face lit with a quick tenderness. She put her arm
over the child’s bent shoulders, and drew the wet cheek down
against her breast. “My dear, if you are sorry, if you know that
it is wicked and dreadful, then the worst is over. Don’t wish to
die--wish to live, so that you may be good. I know you _can_ be
good!” she ended, with a burst of courage in her voice, that
struck some answering chord in the poor, half-developed little soul
at her side. Nellie looked up.

“Oh, I will be good--if I can; just get out of here! I’m just about
sick, anyway; I’ve got such a pain under my left shoulder; and I’m
just tired of it--and Mrs. Smith is so cross. But I can’t go home.
My aunt’ll jaw at me. Oh, I can’t ever go home!” She whimpered a
little, and looked at her pretty finger nails critically.

“I’m _sure_ your aunt will forgive you!” Sara said, impetuous and
tender. “Let’s go and ask her to, now.”

“Mrs. Smith won’t let me go, I guess,” Nellie sighed; “I owe her
two weeks board.”

“I will pay her.”

“I’ll come to-morrow,” the child demurred.

“Nellie, dear, I want you to come now! Oh, Nellie, won’t you begin
this minute to be good?”

“I’m not so very bad,” Nellie protested, “and I can’t come now,
truly. I haven’t any sack. I--sold it.” The tears welled up in her
soft eyes at the remembrance of her poverty.

“You don’t need a sack. You’ll come in my carriage, and I’ll wrap a
rug around you.”

“My!” said Nellie, “is your carriage here? One of the club girls
told me it had satin cushions. Is that so, Miss Wharton?”

Sara bit her lip. “Never mind about the cushions. Oh, Nellie, dear,
don’t think of things like that! Only just try with all your might
to be good. Will you, Nellie?”

“Why, certainly,” said Nellie.

       *       *       *       *       *

Sara Wharton drove home with a very serious look on her face. She
had induced Nellie to leave that dreadful house; indeed, the girl
had yielded with that fatally facile willingness to do what she was
told which should have forbade any of the joy that may be felt over
the one sinner that repenteth. But in the glow of “saving” the poor
child, it was not easy for Sara Wharton to realize that Nellie’s
first experience of sin had only reached the stage of the young
smoker’s disgust with his first cigar. The young lady, with her
carriage and her satin cushions, had come at the right moment--the
moment when the expediency of morality had forced itself upon the
girl’s little, flimsy common-sense, and she was willing to go
shuddering back to comfortable decency; but as for any spiritual
perception of sin, and righteousness, and judgment, it did not
exist.

Nellie had received her aunt’s forgiveness as though she were
conferring a favor. Indeed, she sighed with some impatience when
Mrs. Sherman wept over her; and she said again, fretfully, in
response to Miss Wharton’s assertions that _now_ Nellie was going
to be good,--“Why certainly, yes;” and looked about wearily, as if
she wished the scene might come to an end.

“Nobody shan’t never know, my darling,” Mrs. Sherman told her,
her voice breaking with tenderness; “I’ll say you’ve been away,
visiting friends.”

“A’ right,” said Nellie. And neither the aunt nor the niece
understood Miss Wharton’s quick protest against trying to hide one
sin by another.

Sara, driving home, tired and saddened by the emotions of the
afternoon, acknowledged to herself that the easy repentance was
made of still less value by the easy forgiveness.

“But some day she will repent, really and truly,” she told herself;
but she sighed, and dropped the window of the brougham, leaning
forward to get the dash of wet, cold wind in her face. It seemed
to her as though she still felt the lifeless air of those horrible
halls and stairways, and the scent of musk, and tobacco smoke, and
stale liquor.

“The only thing to do, the only way to save her is to love her,”
Sara Wharton said to herself, “and I’m going to love her!”

When she reached home, and came in out of the cold dusk into the
firelit hall, this divine intention of loving shone on her face
with a beautiful solemnity. Her seriousness was so marked that her
mother, who was just saying good evening to a departing caller,
noticed it and said, with some anxiety:--

“My dear, there is nothing the matter, I hope?”

“No, mother darling,” the girl reassured her, with a glance at the
tall fellow who stood with his hat and stick in his hand, waiting
for Mrs. Wharton’s bow.

“Sara, my dear, this is Dr. Morse. My daughter, Dr. Morse.”

“I ventured to come and tell a sad story to your mother, Miss
Wharton,” said the young man, “a dispensary story. I’ve just come
on duty at the dispensary; but Mrs. Wharton’s kindness was so
proverbial, that when I stumbled on a hard case, I came at once to
tell her about it.”

“I’ve no doubt she was delighted to hear of it,” Sara said; “mother
would really be dreadfully unhappy if everybody was prosperous; her
occupation would be gone.”

“Why, Sara! Sara! you mustn’t say such things,” Mrs. Wharton
reproved her, looking at her daughter over her gold spectacles,
with the horrified protest of a simple and literal mind.

The other two laughed, feeling suddenly very well acquainted.

“So long as she lives in Mercer, Mrs. Wharton’s happiness is
assured,” the doctor said; and went away, saying to himself, “What
a girl! I don’t wonder people rave about her; she’s stunning! But
I’m afraid she’s a professional philanthropist.”

“So that’s the new doctor?” Sara said, pulling off her gloves; “he
has a nice face, rather. Did you like him, darling?”

“Yes,” her mother answered doubtfully, “only, Sara, my dear, he
seems rather a stern young man. I wanted to give him a check for
this poor woman he came to tell me about; but he said that I must
let her clean windows, or something, to earn it. And you know, my
dear child, that would interfere with James’s work. I’d much rather
give the check than arrange for work.”

Sara kissed her, and cuddled her, for Mrs. Wharton was a little,
roly-poly, comfortable sort of woman, and told her she was behind
the times.

“Nowadays,” announced the young lady, “the ‘gave to him that
asketh’ method is hopelessly unscientific; bless your dear
old-fashioned heart!”


II

The saving of Nellie Sherman became an intense and passionate
purpose in Sara Wharton’s life. Day by day, hour by hour, she
watched and fought and prayed. She invented (according to the
most approved charity methods) work for the vain and shiftless
child; she had her taught to sew; she was careful to provide
plenty of bright and wholesome amusement for her; by and by
Nellie felt yearnings to be a bookkeeper, and Sara Wharton sent
her to a commercial school. “You can pay me back when you get
work,” she said, as cheerfully as though she believed that Nellie
was capable of feeling a money obligation. She entered Nellie’s
name at her Girls’ Club; she took her to concerts, and sent her
books, and planned and thought and hoped; and always, always
prayed. Furthermore, she loved the girl. That is to say, she
called it love; and perhaps it was, in its way; at least it was
that greater love that is content to give and not receive. Sara
gave her very self--her power, her charm, her sweet and generous
enthusiasms--fully and freely into the little, mean hands that
were held out to take all they could get. “Because,” she said to
herself, again, “the only way to reach her is to love her. Love is
the greatest thing in the world! I’ve no doubt I would have been
just as bad as Nellie if I hadn’t had so much love.” This thought
made the girl rise, and go and push her mother’s sewing aside, and
kiss her, with a little half laughing break in her voice, and her
eyes suddenly wet with tears.

“What is it? What is it?” Mrs. Wharton said breathlessly, adjusting
her spectacles, which the impetuous embrace had disturbed; “is
anything the matter, Sara?”

“No,” her daughter answered, with a laugh, winking away the tears,
“I was just thinking how lucky I was to have you for a mother, you
darling! If I’d had some cross old mother I should have been--I
should have been a fiend! I haven’t a doubt of it. I’d have been
just as wicked as poor Nellie Sherman.”

“Nothing of the sort!” retorted Mrs. Wharton, much ruffled; “please
remember what kind of people your grand-parents on both sides were,
and don’t say such unladylike things, Sara. Dear, dear, I don’t
know what girls are coming to in these days. When I was young,
young ladies didn’t know that such improper persons existed as your
Nellie Sherman. I wish you would have nothing to do with her.”

Sara, on her knees beside the little, rosy, kindly lady, pulled her
cap straight, and scolded her for making her forefinger rough with
so much sewing.

“You are always making petticoats for poor people,” she said
severely, “instead of talking to me about my winter clothes. I
want a new dinner dress, ma’am, and you’ve got to buy it. I’ve
used up all my allowance, and borrowed from father on the next
quarter; so please help the deserving poor of your own household.
Charity begins at home, let me tell you! Who is to have this
petticoat?--while your own poor child is in want of a satin gown!”

“Well,” Mrs. Wharton said, with some confusion, “the fact is,
Nellie looks so sickly I am afraid she is not warmly enough clad”--

Sara shrieked with laughter. “Consistency, thy name is Mother,”
she cried; and began to pour out her plans for Nellie, which Mrs.
Wharton amended several times, objecting to Sara’s assertion that
Nellie should repay the money expended for her tuition at the
commercial college.

“The poor thing will have so little money, anyhow,” she entreated.
But Sara held to her theory.

“We’ll make it up in other ways,--petticoats, and things, but she
must feel it a loan,” she said.

However, Miss Wharton’s theories were far too fine for the material
with which she worked. When the three terms at the commercial
college were over, Nellie was languidly grateful, but she doubted
whether she should like bookkeeping; she was, however, willing to
“give it a trial;” so Sara found a place in a shop for her, and,
as the proprietor (another friend and dependent) could not pay
the full wages, made up the sum herself. But it never occurred to
Nellie to begin to pay her debt; and Sara, fearful of antagonizing
the child, cast her theory to the winds, and did not suggest it.

So the first year passed. The anxious, courageous, artificial fight
never flagged; and Nellie, for twelve months, was “straight.” There
had been great expenditure of time and strength and money to save
the little creature; and in a purely negative way the effort had
been successful. Nellie was “straight.”

Yet Sara Wharton was sometimes dreadfully discouraged; she could
not see a single large or noble trait in the girl, although it was
her sweet and loving theory to believe in what she did not see.

“Goodness is there, somewhere!” she used to say to herself, with
a beautiful and courageous belief which was part of her own
character; and then she fell back on what she had called “the
greatest thing in the world:” “Goodness is there, and I’ve got to
_love it out_!” She took Nellie’s latent goodness for granted,
especially in her effort to overcome the child’s enveloping
selfishness. She was constantly trying to make her realize the
happiness of sacrifice.

“Nellie,” she said once, “now that you’ve got your place as
bookkeeper, and are earning some money, of course you want to pay
me; but I think, even before that, you must want to pay for your
board at your aunt’s. She has been so good to you, you know; and
I’m sure you’ll be glad to help her along a little?”

“Oh, certainly!” Nellie replied, with a blank look.

“How much do you think you can pay?” Sara suggested cheerfully.

“Well, just now,” Nellie demurred, “I really have to have a new
dress; perhaps, later, I can give her a little something.”

Sara looked at her wistfully. “Don’t you _want_ to, Nellie? I
should think your very first thought would be to do something for
her. Just think what she has done for you!”

“Of course, I mean to,” Nellie said, tossing her head, “but I’ve
got to have a dress--and things.”

“If only,” Sara reflected, “she could once understand how awfully
nice it is to give!” and then she planned that every Saturday
Nellie might come to the greenhouse and get some roses from the
gardener,--“and take them to the hospital. It is delightful to
do that!” she said. And Nellie smiled faintly, and said, “Oh,
certainly;” but only came once for the flowers.

Nevertheless, Nellie Sherman had been “rescued.” Almost the same
sort of rescue would have been achieved if Sara had fastened her
into a strait-jacket and locked her into a room. But with Miss
Wharton on one side, and her aunt on the other, day and night, the
strange, boneless, unmoral little nature “kept straight;” and in a
glimmering way the girl even began to see that there were certain
views which were thought admirable, and once in a while she tried
them on, as it were, and regarded herself in the mirror of Miss
Wharton’s warm and joyous approbation.

“I was so sorry not to see you at the club last night, Nellie,”
Sara said to her one day, dropping in to buy a pair of gloves at
the shop where Nellie kept the books.

“My aunt wasn’t well,” said Nellie, “and I stayed at home to take
care of her.” Such a light came into Sara Wharton’s sweet face,
such tenderness and triumph and quick hope, that Nellie looked at
her curiously.

“That was right, Nellie, dear,” she said; “I’m so glad you did it.
I’m _so_ glad,” she repeated, and went away, her eyes misty and her
heart lifted up. She could not help going in to see Mrs. Sherman,
making the excuse of bringing her some fruit because she was ill,
but really to share her exultation.

“Sick?” said Mrs. Sherman, “why, no, ma’am, I’m not sick, no
more than I always am with worry about that there Nellie. She
didn’t come home from the club last night until after eleven, and
I was scared to death for fear she’d gone off with them Caligan
girls--they’re fast girls, that’s what they are; and she’s struck
up a great friendship with ’em. My, she’ll worry me into my grave,
Nellie will. But she said you’d kept her late to help you putting
away the club books,--and of course that was all right.”


III

“You owe something to your family, my child,” Mrs. Wharton said one
day; “you make us all very anxious and worried by overworking so;
it’s your duty to take a little rest.”

“Mother, darling,” Sara began to protest, “I really can’t go away
now; the Girls’ Club and”--

“You needn’t begin the list, my dear,” her mother interrupted--“I
know them all. Dear, dear! Sara, when I was a girl, young women
owed some duties to their parents, as well as to all the
shiftless, worthless, improper people in the world.”

“I trust I’m not a Borrioboola-Gha person,” murmured Sara.

“Don’t be foolish, my child,” Mrs. Wharton said, “and use long
words when your poor old mother don’t know what they mean”--

“You darling!” said Sara, and hugged her so tightly that Mrs.
Wharton remonstrated.

“It would be a great deal more to the point if, instead of kissing
me, you would be an obedient child. You worry me almost to death,
working so hard. I want you to come to Florida. I asked Dr. Morse
if he didn’t think you were doing too much, and he said you took a
great deal of unnecessary trouble; so you see he agrees with me.”

“Mother, dear, how you adore doctors! Dr. Morse doesn’t know what
he’s talking about. But you might tell me what else he said?”

“Oh, some nonsense about--about your being of so much value to
Mercer,” Mrs. Wharton admitted, with evident fear that one
statement might lessen the effect of the other.

But whether it was Dr. Morse’s understanding of the value of her
work, or whether it was her mother’s entreaties, Sara at last
agreed to go away for a little while, though it was hard work
to get things in running order for a three months’ absence of
their head. Nellie was her greatest anxiety; three months without
oversight and guidance--who could tell what might happen! So Sara
made many plans; the girl was to be guarded on this side and on
that: she was to have steady work, and she was to have frequent
amusement; pleasure and profit were all arranged. And before she
went, Sara had a little talk with her. She had sent for the girl,
who came up into her bedroom, where, just before dinner, Miss
Wharton was sitting in the firelight. The pretty room was full of
dusky shadows; its faint scent of roses, its deep, soft chairs, the
shimmer of silver on the toilet-table, all its delicate luxury,
was evident enough to Nellie. The sullen upper lip swelled out as
she looked enviously about her. She liked the touch of the silk
cushions, the feeling of the soft white rug under her feet; the
color of Miss Wharton’s crimson tea-gown fed her eyes with delight.
She hardly heard what the young lady was saying.

“Nellie, dear, I want you to try your very best to be good while
I’m away.”

“Oh, certainly,” said Nellie, with a sigh.

Sara clasped her hands together over her knees, and held her lip
between her teeth, drawing in her breath; Nellie watched her rings
wink and flash in the firelight.

“Nellie” (Sara was saying to herself, “Oh, I _hope_ I will say what
is wise. I _hope_ I can touch her!”), “Nellie, you know how I have
always believed in you, and hoped for you, and loved you; and just
because I have, and because I am truly, truly your friend, I want
to ask you to do two things for me while I’m away: first, promise
me not to tell another lie; oh, Nellie, you don’t know how unhappy
you made me when you told me that lie about the club.”

Nellie dropped her head upon her breast, and made no answer.

“And then,” Sara went on, “I want you to try not to be so selfish.
I am so grieved to have you indifferent to Mrs. Sherman’s kindness
to you. She told me that you had only given her one dollar and
seventy-five cents since you went to work. And don’t you see, you
have been receiving everything she could give you, of love and
care, and yet you have given her nothing! You haven’t even been
kind to her, Nellie.”

“_Oh!_” said Nellie, “well, I wish I was dead. Everybody’s always
finding fault. I’m sure there’s lots of girls worse than me. But
I’m always being picked at. I wish I was dead.”

Sara was nervous and overstrained; besides, she was conscious of a
sort of physical disgust at this poor, repulsive little being; her
self-reproach brought the tears to her eyes. “I didn’t mean to be
hard on you, Nellie,” she said, “only I want you to try.”

“I _always_ try,” said Nellie.

“And,” Sara’s brave young voice went on, “I do want you to feel
that--that Christ cares; that God cares, Nellie, that you shall be
a good, true, dear girl. Will you just think of that, Nellie?”

“Why, of course,” Nellie answered resentfully, wiping her eyes. “I
do always. My aunt makes me go to church every Sunday. Miss Sara,
do you think you have any pieces of velvet in your rag-bag?”

Sara started. “Rag-bag?” she repeated vaguely, “velvet?”

“I thought I could trim my hat over,” Nellie explained. “You’ve got
so many things,” she ended sullenly.

Sara was silent for a few minutes, reasoning with herself. After
all, Nellie was young; it was natural for her to like pretty things.

“Yes, I can give you some velvet, I think,” she said cheerfully;
“and, Nellie, I have a plan for you; what are you going to give
your aunt for a Christmas gift?”

Nellie looked up blankly.

“I know you’ll want to give her something,” Sara went on, “and I
was thinking of a nice chair. What do you think of that?”

“A chair!” repeated Nellie in astonishment. “Why, I wouldn’t buy a
chair for myself!”

Sara sighed. “But you would like the fun of buying one for somebody
else, wouldn’t you?”

“Well, I ain’t got any money,” the girl said uneasily; and then
Miss Wharton unfolded her plan, which was that she should give
Nellie five dollars, and Nellie would add what she could, and a
present should be purchased.

“Add something, if it’s only a dollar,” Sara said pleadingly; “a
good, comfortable chair can be bought for six dollars.”

“A’ right; I don’t mind,” Nellie agreed, in a wearied way. She did
not understand all this talk; she saw no reason in Miss Sara’s
giving Mrs. Sherman a chair, and saying it was Nellie’s gift;
still, she didn’t mind.

“You’ll like to do that, won’t you, Nellie?” Sara said anxiously.

“Oh, certainly,” said Nellie, and then she rose, for Miss Wharton
was silent, and that seemed a sign of dismissal.

Sara rose, too, and stood looking at her visitor for a moment;
then, suddenly she put her arm around the little thin shoulders,
and drew the girl to her, and kissed her. “Oh, Nellie,” she said,
her voice passionate and trembling,--“Oh, Nellie, _dear_! I--I
wish I knew what to say, to show you--to make you feel”--her voice
broke; Nellie was greatly embarrassed;--“but just believe _I love
you_, won’t you? and be good!”

“Why,” said Nellie, with a sigh of fatigue and reproach,
“certainly!” Then she added, “Well, good-by; hope you’ll have a
delightful time, I’m sure,” and closed Miss Sara’s door, with a
sense of relief that was like the lifting of some harassing weight.
She came slowly downstairs, pulling on her soiled gloves, and
walking with a mincing step. Escaped from Miss Wharton’s room,
she felt as if all the luxury of this great house--the color,
the lights, the soft carpet under her feet, the sparkle of the
firelight in the hall below--was hers, and so she assumed the
gait and the manner which she conceived to belong to an owner. The
inside-man was just lighting a lamp under a big rose- shade,
and Nellie threw up her head with a haughty look, and drew down the
corners of her mouth, sweeping past him toward the door. James,
however, smiled with great politeness.

“Oh, g’d evening, Miss Sherman,” he said. “My! it does seem to get
dark early these days, doesn’t it?”

Nellie’s lofty coldness melted instantly. She simpered and said,
“Is that so?”

“It’s quite late for a young lady to be out alone,” James remarked
with grave solicitude.

“Oh, that’s a’ right,” Nellie protested.

She was smiling, and holding her head coquettishly, and looking up
at him with great archness. She dropped her handkerchief as she
reached the front door and James picked it up, and handed it to her
with an elaborate bow. He caught her fingers in his own as he did
so, and they both giggled, and Nellie said, “Now, you stop that!”

They lowered their voices with an apprehensive look towards the
staircase; James opened the door and stepped out on the porch with
her. “Well, you oughtn’t to be severe, Miss Sherman; it’s such a
little hand, a gentleman can’t help it; Miss Sara’s is twice as
big.”

“Is that so?” said Nellie; and then they both looked up at the
sky, and James observed that the weather was threatening, and it
certainly _was_ too dark for a young lady, a beautiful young lady,
to be out alone.

“Oh, that’s a’ right,” Nellie reassured him politely.

James in an absent-minded way put his arm round her, and said he
thought ladies ought always to have gentlemen escorts.

“Is that so?” Nellie answered, simpering; and, with the same
apparent absence of mind, sidling closer to him, which induced
his easy caresses; “well, I must be going along,” she announced,
giggling.

“Well, good-by, Miss Sherman,” said the chivalrous James, and gave
her a hearty kiss, which made Nellie slap at him with one hand,
and say, “Now you stop that!” and go off, still giggling, into the
darkness.

       *       *       *       *       *

Sara Wharton, upstairs by her fire, had dropped her face in her
hands, and was saying to herself, “I must trust her more, and
believe in her more! Oh, I am sure she tries--poor little Nellie.”

And certainly poor Nellie was not conscious of any lack of trying,
so far as the episode with James was concerned. To her, as well as
to him, it was very harmless, that kiss in the porch. And really to
call such a thing “sin” is to lift it to a level where it does not
belong.

But probably Sara Wharton was constitutionally unable to understand
that.

The people who try to make silk purses out of inadequate materials
rarely can understand it.


IV

The Whartons did not get back until April, and the improvement in
Sara’s color, and the clear, glad look in her eyes, showed how
much she had needed the change. She was all ready for her brave,
happy work for other people. Her very first visit was to Nellie’s
aunt. When she climbed up to the top tenement, stopping to open a
window on a landing half way up, so that the sweet spring air might
turn out the odors of the hall-sink, and of the dirt in the corners
and on the stairs, she came into Mrs. Sherman’s room a little
breathless, but with a soft rose-color on her cheek.

“Well!” she called out cheerfully, “here I am again, Mrs. Sherman;
how are you; and how is Nellie?” and then she discovered Nellie
sitting close to the stove, on which was a tin boiler full of
steaming soapy linen, which Mrs. Sherman, bare armed and draggled,
pushed down once in a while with a broom-handle.

“There!” said Mrs. Sherman, “well! my sakes, Miss Wharton, it do do
me good to see you. Look at that there girl!”

Nellie sunk her head on her breast and began to cry. Sara was
instantly serious. “Is anything wrong?” she said gravely.

“Wrong!” cried Mrs. Sherman shrilly. “Well, I guess! I told her I’d
keep her till you come home, though she’s a shame to any decent
woman. My! what I’ve put up with for that there child!” She put her
apron over her head, sobbing and vociferating: “I told her I’d tell
you. I ain’t let her out of that door since. I’ll keep her straight
now, as long as _I_ live”--

Nellie, her face drawn and pale, sat plucking at the fringe of the
shawl about her shoulders, her sullen lips compressed, her eyes
cast resolutely down.

“Nellie?” Sara said. There was no answer.

“What has happened, Nellie?”

Silence.

“Tell me; I won’t be hard on you, Nellie. Have you--gone wrong
again?”

Nellie crossed her feet and made no reply.

In despair Sara turned again to Mrs. Sherman, who, with tears,
declaring first that Nellie should leave her house that night,
and then that she would never let her out of her sight, told the
shameful fact of another fall;--another reformation.

“She’s sick, that’s what’s the matter; that’s all her reformin’
amounts to,” the aunt said; “she was bleedin’ from her lungs, so
she come home. She was gone a week. It was two weeks last Thursday
she come back. Well, I thought she was dyin’. I was up with her
three nights. I sent for that there doctor at the dispensary. He
give her some stuff. That’s it in the bottle on the mantel. Well,
I didn’t let on to him how she’d been carryin’ on! Shame on her!
I’m done with her. She can go out to the gutter. That’s where she
belongs”--

“Oh, Mrs. Sherman,” Sara protested, her color coming and going.
“Nellie, how could you! oh, Nellie!” She looked over at the girl
with a sort of passionate disappointment and pity, yet with that
physical shrinking which the good woman feels in the presence of
the bad woman. With illness Nellie’s vanity had ebbed; she was
untidy, her hands were dirty; she had not frizzed her hair for
days, and it hung about her dull face in lifeless strands.

“Well,” Mrs. Sherman burst out, “there! She’s broke my heart.
Nellie, it’s time for your medicine. She ain’t got no appetite,
Miss Wharton. I don’t know what I _shall_ do!” The woman’s worn
face quivered with tears. Nellie got up and took her medicine; she
glanced at the hem of Miss Wharton’s skirt, but would not lift her
eyes any higher. The clothes on the stove boiled, and the suds
splashed over and sizzled on the hot iron. Mrs. Sherman, talking
and crying, rammed them down with the clothes-stick.

“I couldn’t believe it at first. She’d kep’ straight for more ’an
a year an’ a half. But she got to goin’ with a lot o’ them fast
girls, and she spent every cent she had on her back”--

Sara looked around suddenly. “Did she give you a present of a chair
at Christmas?”

“A chair? No; she never gave me nothing. Not a thing. You told
her she’d got to pay me board. I’d ’a’ been satisfied with that,
and not ’a’ wanted no presents of chairs. Well, I took her out of
her dyin’ mother’s arms, and I’ve lived to see the day I wished
she’d a-died then, with my poor, blessed sister. _She_ made a
misstep, I will say; and the man made off and left her. But she was
expectin’ to marry him. It was different from this one. _I’ve_ been
a respectable woman all my life, and I can’t stand the shame of
this,--the neighbors’ll know,” she rambled on, crying and jabbing
at the steaming clothes, and looking with furtive, dumb love at the
little, sick, mean face on the other side of the stove.

As for Sara Wharton, she went home heart-sick, but gathering up her
courage and her faith for further effort; this time to save the
body as well as the soul.

The first thing to be done was, plainly, to see the doctor at the
dispensary, who had already examined Nellie.

“I’ll have to tell him the truth about her,” Sara thought,
frowning. But it never occurred to her to shirk this.

“Yes, I remember the case, I think,” said Dr. Morse; “incipient
phthisis, I believe. Just let me look it up; yes, that was it;
anæmia, also; I gave her a tonic.”

“Phthisis?” Sara repeated, her color paling. “Oh, Dr. Morse,
doesn’t that mean--consumption?”

“Not yet,” he answered, with all the cheerfulness of scientific
indifference. “It will doubtless develop into consumption.”

“But that means she will _die_?” Sara said, her dark eyes full of
fear. “Oh, is it as bad as that?” Her lip trembled. The young man
looked at her with attention.

“I am sorry I told you so abruptly; I did not realize that the
young woman was anything to you, personally; and I assure you the
case is not hopeless.”

“Is there any hope? Oh, Dr. Morse, it is so awful to think of her
dying _now_! What must be done? How uneven things are! There was I,
a strong, well woman, down in Florida, and this poor girl”--

“There is perhaps some difference in the value of the two lives,”
the doctor objected, smiling. Sara brushed this aside as unworthy
of an answer.

“What can we do?”

“Well, I suppose if she could go away into the country, and live
a quiet, regular life, with plenty of milk to drink, and plenty
of fresh air and proper exercise, she would at least be greatly
benefited. Possibly cured. There are no marked lesions, I think, in
the lung.”

Sara listened with frowning intentness; then she drew a long breath
of relief. “I am so thankful that it is not hopeless. But I think
that--that in prescribing for her, I mean planning for her, you
ought to know--all there is to know, about her.”

“Yes, that is advisable,” the doctor agreed easily. The charming
color of her cheek, the bunch of violets on her shoulder, her
beautiful, troubled brown eyes, were not lost upon this young man.
“I thought her a vain little thing,” he went on, “and rather brutal
to the good woman who was taking care of her. But illness makes us
all selfish.”

“I am afraid she is vain, poor child,” Sara said, “and selfish,
too, rather. But the worst of it is, she has--she has not been
good, Dr. Morse.”

“Ah!” said the young man.

“I did hope she had reformed, but while I was away--it happened
again.”

“I see. I see.”

“Of course, in sending her away that has to be considered. She must
be among people who will do her good.”

“And to whom she will not do harm.”

Sara looked a little startled. “Of course; but I had not thought of
that.”

“It seems to me that is very important,” he said, smiling.
“Speaking of sending people away, I wish I might tell you of
another case which needs the country; or are your hands too full to
consider any one else?”

“Alas, it is my purse which is not full,” she said ruefully; “but
is it very bad?”

“It is a poor soul, a hard-working, honest little creature, who has
an old mother and an imbecile brother to support; and she’s nearly
at an end of her strength. She needs to be braced up.”

“I wish I could send her away too,” Sara said pitifully; “but I’ve
begged and begged for my cases until, positively, I haven’t the
face to ask for any more money. My friends fly when they see me
approaching, for fear I’m going to say ‘give, give!’” She laughed a
little, and the doctor looked at her with critical amusement.

“But of the two, you’d give the--you’d give Nellie Sherman the
chance for health?”

“Why, it’s only ‘bracing up’ that your poor woman needs,” Sara
said, with a surprised look, “and you say Nellie will die if she
doesn’t go away?”

“Perhaps that would be the best thing that could happen.”

“Dr. Morse! Would you have me let Nellie Sherman _die_, that three
people should be made comfortable?”

“I would, indeed,” he said, with a whimsical smile.

She looked at him in silent dismay, and he thought she shrank a
little.

“My dear Miss Wharton,” he said quickly, “just look at the
situation: your poor Nellie is a moral leper; she is a contagion;
she’s had her opportunity to get well (I speak spiritually);
she has had a year and a half of the most patient and earnest
effort expended upon her; but she hasn’t profited by it, and the
probability is she is incurable. On the other hand, here is a woman
who is a centre and source of moral health. Each needs physical
restoration: one for her life, the other for her usefulness,--and,
later, no doubt, her life, too. To which shall the chance be given?”

“To the one who might die!” Sara said impetuously.

She got up to go, a sparkle of indignation in her eyes; the young
man rose, too, and stood leaning back against his office table, his
hands in his pockets, and a good-natured smile on his lean, strong
face. “I don’t see,” his visitor went on, “how you dare to say any
soul is incurably bad”--

“I only said the _probability_ was that your Nellie was incurable;
and, after all, if you have only a certain amount of medicine, will
you give it to the moribund or the person who is just coming down
with an illness?”

“I don’t think the illustration is good,” Sara answered loftily;
“we are speaking of souls. And we have no right to say we know the
limit”--her voice fell a little--“of God’s power.”

Dr. Morse looked as though he were about to speak, but apparently
thought better of it.

“I’m very sorry for your poor woman,” Sara said, “and I’ll try to
see if I can’t arrange a little rest for her; but first of all,
life must be saved.”

Then she went away, her lip between her white teeth, and her breath
quick. “Horrible man!” she said to herself, “the idea of reasoning
about a thing like that--a human life! Dreadful person! I hope I
shall never see him again.”

Dr. Morse, in his office, thrust his hands down into his pockets,
and stretched his feet out, and reflected. “I suppose she
thinks I’m a brute. I might have known better than to talk to a
sentimental girl as though she were a rational being. She’ll keep
that creature alive long enough to bring two or three fellows
down to the gutter, and, possibly, even continue her physical and
moral characteristics in a child (though that’s not likely, thank
heaven), and then feel that she’s done _her_ duty! Good Lord, the
harm these philanthropists do!”

Nevertheless he softened a little when a short and formal note came
from Miss Wharton, with a small sum of money for “the case of which
he had spoken.”

“She’s got a good heart, that girl,” he told himself. “Her ten
dollars won’t do much, though; and to think of that little squalid
Nellie Sherman having a hundred spent to keep her worthless body
alive!”


V

So Nellie’s summer outing was arranged: she was to have four months
in a quiet place in the country; plenty of fresh air, and good
milk, and wholesome food.

No wonder the little pale cheeks grew round and faintly pink; that
her eyes seemed darker and brighter; her pinched, white lips
fuller and redder. In a month it was evident that the quiet life
which Sara had taken such pains to find was good for her; her whole
miserable, sickly body began to thrive. It was a “quiet” life.
From the girl’s point of view it was perfectly intolerable. She
endured, in her way, the misery of the intellectual man or woman
cut off absolutely from books or study of any kind, or of a clean
person obliged to live in filth. The contrast was as great. The
fact that it was in favor of righteousness did not make it any
the less painful. Nellie’s sudden removal from the cheap and base
excitements of her life caused absolute suffering. Such suffering,
untempted reformers argue, is good for the soul.

But to Nellie the sweet drift of silent summer days was maddeningly
dull; she brooded over what she felt was the hardship of her lot,
and looked back upon her Mercer life as a time of freedom, and
of a strange sort of importance,--which was as near self-respect
as she could come. At least, in Mercer she was not “trod on,” as
she now felt herself to be; she could go and walk the street on
fine afternoons with the Caligan girls, three abreast, arm in
arm, strutting and jostling each other, and looking into the shop
windows; laughing loudly, or glancing haughtily at the passers-by,
or giggling at “gentlemen friends.” It was all so harmless and
so pleasant! Of course, Mrs. Smith’s on Baker Street, that was
different; but just to meet lady and gentlemen friends, and talk
and “carry on”--what was wrong in that? She did, to be sure, feel
nervous about her health; but if it were necessary to go into the
country, why couldn’t she have gone to a hotel, where she could
have had some fun? It seemed a cruel life to Nellie! She came to
feel toward Sara Wharton, instead of the uncomfortable resentment
which in such natures takes the place of gratitude, a venomous
hatred. Sara seemed to this poor, mean soul, a powerful enemy,
one who interfered with every joy, and, not content with that,
who “talked;” and Nellie hated talk. Like most of her class,
except when in a rage, she had little to say beyond exclamations,
and Miss Wharton’s impetuous flow of words, her entreaties, and
rebukes, and suggestions, had only bewildered and irritated the
girl; for Sara, like most of her class, had never taken Nellie’s
mental deficiencies into account; she treated her always like a
rational being. Like a “Soul,” Sara herself would have said.

So, up on the farm, as her fright about her health subsided, poor
Nellie raged against her benefactor and her cruel fate. She fell
into fits of weeping, or, what was worse to the quiet husband and
wife in whose charge she was, into long silences, broken only by
fitful flashes of black temper. Yet in spite of this, her bodily
health increased. Very likely there would have been open rebellion,
and a break for liberty by midsummer, if an unexpected interest
had not come into her life. Two students, with their tutor, came
to camp out near the farm; and after passing them once or twice
in the road, and giggling with them over the posting of a letter
in the office, poor Nellie grew better tempered. She frizzed her
hair with keener enjoyment, and practiced airs and graces before
her glass all the long hot forenoons; and in the afternoons walked
in to the village on the remote chance of meeting the two boys.
She did not see them often, but to know they were near gave her
something to think about in the deadly monotony of farm life, and
she was much happier. On the rare occasions of their meeting she
would roll her eyes, and talk in her simpering, nasal voice of the
weather, or the novel she had been reading, or how her “guardian”
had sent her into the country for her health. The boys said to each
other that she was pretty, and ripping good fun; and used to laugh
over her silliness with their tutor. They were too busy and too
wholesomely happy to give very much thought to her.

Thus the summer passed. The health which Sara Wharton so earnestly
desired had returned, temporarily at least. When at last the
first of September came, and Miss Wharton’s letter arrived to
say she might come home,--such a gentle, friendly, sympathetic
letter,--Nellie was wild with delight. She could hardly remember
to say good-by to the kind people who had looked after her for the
last few months; she almost forgot the boys; she was tremulous with
joy.

“Oh, I’m so _glad_ to go back--oh, I hate, hate, _hate_ the
country!” she kept saying; while the husband and wife looked at
each other wonderingly.

So, strengthened and invigorated, panting for excitement, unchecked
by any moral perceptions, by gratitude, by love, even by fear (now
that she was well again),--she came back to Mercer.


VI

One night in December, Sara Wharton, coming home from a dinner, was
told that Dr. Morse was waiting for her in the library. She went
in at once, pulling off her long gloves, and with her white cloak
falling back from her pretty shoulders. She had not seen the doctor
since that talk about Nellie, and she had forgotten her indignation
with him. She had heard too much of his goodness among the poor
people to harbor resentment.

“Oh, I am so sorry to be so late,” she said. “Have you been waiting
very long? Oh, this room is cold! Why haven’t they kept the fire
up?” She turned, with a pretty, hospitable impulse to summon a
servant, but Dr. Morse stopped her with a gesture.

“I am quite warm. I will only detain you for a few moments. I want
you to help me.”

“Indeed, I will; has anything gone wrong?”

“Yes,” he said, with a hard look.

“One of your poor people?” she asked. She sat down by the fire, one
silken foot on the fender; her cloak had slipped down behind her,
and she was pulling out her gloves, and smoothing them on her knee.
She looked up at him with a charming smile.

“Yes,” he said, “one of my poor people--and yours. Miss Wharton,
can you tell me anything about Nellie Sherman?”

“Nellie?” Sara Wharton’s face began to change. “Oh, Dr. Morse, I
wish I could tell you anything encouraging about her. She quarreled
with her aunt, and went to work at a factory in North Mercer. She
hardly ever comes home, I’m sorry to say; she is boarding with a
respectable family, I believe, and I think she does not depend on
Mrs. Sherman for any money. But I’ve lost my hold on her--if I
ever had any! She has only been to see me once since she came home
in September. You know I sent her away in the summer? And she got
well, Dr. Morse!” she ended triumphantly.

“Yes; she did,” he said with stern significance.

“What is the matter? Is she sick again? is she--_dead_?”

“Dead? I wish she were.”

“Dr. Morse!”

“Miss Wharton, that miserable creature has lived long enough to
corrupt and seduce an innocent boy. Young Jack Hayes has--I beg
your pardon, this is plain talk--but I am a physician and you
are--a philanthropist, so we need not mince words,--Jack has gone
off with her. I have come to-night from his mother’s bedside. Mrs.
Hayes has just heard what he has done--her innocent boy.”

Sara rose, shrinking and wincing as though he had struck her.

“I thought it possible,” he went on, “that you might know where she
was living, and perhaps I could get on her track. She met Jack up
in the country; he was there with a tutor; of course, she had no
difficulty in finding him when he came back to town. He went off
with her on Sunday, we think--at least, one of the Clay boys saw
him with her Sunday night, and he hasn’t been at home since.”

“I don’t know where she is,” Sara said brokenly.

“I went to see Mrs. Sherman before I came here, and do you know
what she said to me? She sat, poor woman, with the tears streaming
down her cheeks: ‘Oh,’ she said, ‘if I could only know she was
dead! If she was just safe in her grave!’”

Sara shivered.

“I thought to myself, ‘She would be, you poor soul, if some of us
wise people had not interfered.’ I reproach myself,” he went on
savagely, “that I did not try to dissuade you when you told me you
meant to keep the girl alive. We ought to stamp such vermin out--or
let it die out, at least. Instead, you philanthropists and we
doctors do all we can to keep them alive,--that they may propagate
their kind! Fortunately, nature generally prevents that,--but
Nellie’s mother was a fallen woman, you may remember? Poor
Jack--poor Mrs. Hayes! Miss Wharton, our hands are not innocent of
that boy’s blood.”

Sara was very white; she still trembled, but she lifted her head
and looked full at him. “Dr. Morse, are you God, to kill?”

“Or you, to make alive?” he interrupted. “I did not ask you to
kill--I asked you not to interfere--to allow God to work in his own
way. I asked you to use that judgment which, in ordinary affairs,
is so excellent--to consider _probabilities_; you do as much as
that in refusing to leave a lighted candle in a powder magazine.
What would you think of me, if I turned a smallpox patient loose
in a crowd? Nellie is far more dangerous than smallpox. Don’t you
see--surely you must see! that it would have been better for the
community if she had died last summer?”

“Better for the community,” Sara said passionately; “but what about
Nellie? Would it have been better for Nellie?”

“It could hardly be worse, could it?” he answered dryly; “but if it
were worse, better one lost soul than two or three.”

“God doesn’t lose souls so easily,” she cried; but he pressed the
logic of her hope home.

“Then why not have trusted Him, and let her die? Death isn’t
the worst thing in the world! And may I remind you”--they had
both risen; and from a cruel sort of justice on his part, and a
horrified dismay on hers, anger was arising in their eyes--“may I
remind you of a poor woman of whom I spoke that day you came to see
me about Nellie? She is in the hospital, broken down absolutely;
her brother is in the almshouse, and her mother living on charity.
But Nellie Sherman, a thief, a liar, a prostitute, a moral
imbecile, is in good health!”

“You have no right to say such things,” Sara said, in a low voice.
“I had to give that poor creature a chance to save her soul; and to
do that I had to save her body”--

“And ruin Jack--body and soul”--

“That was not my business,” she flung back at him.

“It was your business!” he said. “It was your business to weigh
probabilities. Oh!” he ended, impetuously, “the trouble with us
is, nowadays, that we make too much of _life_, and too little of
_living_. It is living that is important, not existing! I tell you,
Miss Wharton, there is only a limited amount of power in the world;
only a limited amount of opportunity, or of money, for that matter;
and we are bound to put power and opportunity and money where they
will do the most good! Did you put them where they would do the
most good?”

Sara flinched, then rallied all her faith. “Dr. Morse, I did the
duty which came to my hands; I had no choice.”

“No choice?” he repeated. “There is always choice! that’s where
responsibility comes in. The good woman and the bad woman may not
come and stand hand in hand before you, each asking aid. But the
good woman, abstractly, is always dying (or--being tempted to turn
into a bad woman, for that matter!), so there is always choice.
We’ve got to consider moral economics; we’ve no business to gratify
our selfish sentimentalism at the expense of society!” He was so
much in earnest that he did not see how tensely she was holding
herself, or what a look of terror had come into her young face.

“The Gospel of Love is all I can plead,” she said, in the voice of
one insisting to herself; “but it is the salvation of the world!”

All the stern anxiety of his face melted into an exaltation as
intense as her own. “Law is the salvation of the world! And
law means that the good of the whole, not the comfort of the
individual, shall be considered; it means a love so sane as to
permit the mercy of death.”

Sara put her hands over her face to hide a burst of tears. Her
accuser ground his teeth in helpless discomfort.

“I’m right,” he said doggedly, “but I’m a brute; I wish you would
forgive me.”

She turned from him, unable to speak. He wanted to follow her, to
comfort her; to say, as one does to a child or a woman, “Never
mind,”--but he dared not.

“I’m sorry I’ve wounded you,” he said again miserably; “I hope you
will forgive me?”

“Forgive you?” she turned and faced him, the tears on her face; “I
haven’t anything to forgive. Do you suppose I care how you talk to
_me_?--if I am right? oh, _if_ I am right!”




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