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The Works of E.P. Roe

VOLUME THIRTEEN

HIS SOMBRE RIVALS

ILLUSTRATED

1883




PREFACE


The following story has been taking form in my mind for several years,
and at last I have been able to write it out. With a regret akin to
sadness, I take my leave, this August day, of people who have become
very real to me, whose joys and sorrows I have made my own. Although a
Northern man, I think my Southern readers will feel that I have sought
to do justice to their motives. At this distance from the late Civil
War, it is time that passion and prejudice sank below the horizon, and
among the surviving soldiers who were arrayed against each other I
think they have practically disappeared. Stern and prolonged conflict
taught mutual respect. The men of the Northern armies were convinced,
beyond the shadow of a doubt, that they had fought men and
Americans--men whose patriotism and devotion to a cause sacred to them
was as pure and lofty as their own. It is time that sane men and women
should be large-minded enough to recognize that, whatever may have been
the original motives of political leaders, the people on both sides
were sincere and honest; that around the camp-fires at their hearths
and in their places of worship they looked for God's blessing on their
efforts with equal freedom from hypocrisy.

I have endeavored to portray the battle of Bull Run as it could appear
to a civilian spectator: to give a suggestive picture and not a general
description. The following war-scenes are imaginary, and  by
personal reminiscence. I was in the service nearly four years, two of
which were spent with the cavalry. Nevertheless, justly distrustful of
my knowledge of military affairs, I have submitted my proofs to my
friend Colonel H. C. Hasbrouck, Commandant of Cadets at West Point, and
therefore have confidence that as mere sketches of battles and
skirmishes they are not technically defective.

The title of the story will naturally lead the reader to expect that
deep shadows rest upon many of its pages. I know it is scarcely the
fashion of the present time to portray men and women who feel very
deeply about anything, but there certainly was deep feeling at the time
of which I write, as, in truth, there is to-day. The heart of humanity
is like the ocean. There are depths to be stirred when the causes are
adequate. E. P. R.

CORNWALL-ON-THE-HUDSON, _August_ 21, 1883.




CONTENTS

CHAPTER I AN EMBODIMENT OF MAY

CHAPTER II MERE FANCIES

CHAPTER III THE VERDICT OF A SAGE

CHAPTER IV WARNING OR INCENTIVE

CHAPTER V IMPRESSIONS

CHAPTER VI PHILOSOPHY AT FAULT

CHAPTER VII WARREN HILLAND

CHAPTER VIII SUPREME MOMENTS

CHAPTER IX THE REVELATION

CHAPTER X THE KINSHIP OF SUFFERING

CHAPTER XI THE ORDEAL

CHAPTER XII FLIGHT TO NATURE

CHAPTER XIII THE FRIENDS

CHAPTER XIV NOBLE DECEPTION

CHAPTER XV "I WISH HE HAD KNOWN"

CHAPTER XVI THE CLOUD IN THE SOUTH

CHAPTER XVII PREPARATION

CHAPTER XVIII THE CALL TO ARMS

CHAPTER XIX THE BLOOD-RED SKY

CHAPTER XX TWO BATTLES

CHAPTER XXI THE LOGIC OF EVENTS

CHAPTER XXII SELF-SENTENCED

CHAPTER XXIII AN EARLY DREAM FULFILLED

CHAPTER XXIV UNCHRONICLED CONFLICTS

CHAPTER XXV A PRESENTIMENT

CHAPTER XXVI AN IMPROVISED PICTURE GALLERY

CHAPTER XXVII A DREAM

CHAPTER XXVIII ITS FULFILMENT

CHAPTER XXIX A SOUTHERN GIRL

CHAPTER XXX GUERILLAS

CHAPTER XXXI JUST IN TIME

CHAPTER XXXII A WOUNDED SPIRIT

CHAPTER XXXIII THE WHITE-HAIRED NURSE

CHAPTER XXXIV RITA'S BROTHER

CHAPTER XXXV HIS SOMBRE RIVALS

CHAPTER XXXVI ALL MATERIALISTS

CHAPTER XXXVII THE EFFORT TO LIVE

CHAPTER XXXVIII GRAHAM'S LAST SACRIFICE

CHAPTER XXXIX MARRIED UNCONSCIOUSLY

CHAPTER XL RITA ANDERSON

CHAPTER XLI A LITTLE CHILD SHALL LEAD THEM




CHAPTER I

AN EMBODIMENT OF MAY

"Beyond that revolving light lies my home. And yet why should I use
such a term when the best I can say is that a continent is my home?
Home suggests a loved familiar nook in the great world. There is no
such niche for me, nor can I recall any place around which my memory
lingers with especial pleasure."

In a gloomy and somewhat bitter mood, Alford Graham thus soliloquized
as he paced the deck of an in-coming steamer. In explanation it may be
briefly said that he had been orphaned early in life, and that the
residences of his guardians had never been made homelike to him. While
scarcely more than a child he had been placed at boarding-schools where
the system and routine made the youth's life little better than that of
a soldier in his barrack. Many boys would have grown hardy, aggressive,
callous, and very possibly vicious from being thrown out on the world
so early. Young Graham became reticent and to superficial observers
shy. Those who cared to observe him closely, however, discovered that
it was not diffidence, but indifference toward others that
characterized his manner. In the most impressible period of his life he
had received instruction, advice and discipline in abundance, but love
and sympathy had been denied. Unconsciously his heart had become
chilled, benumbed and overshadowed by his intellect. The actual world
gave him little and seemed to promise less, and, as a result not at all
unnatural, he became something of a recluse and bookworm even before he
had left behind him the years of boyhood.

Both comrades and teachers eventually learned that the retiring and
solitary youth was not to be trifled with. He looked his instructor
steadily in the eye when he recited, and while his manner was
respectful, it was never deferential, nor could he be induced to yield
a point, when believing himself in the right, to mere arbitrary
assertion; and sometimes he brought confusion to his teacher by quoting
in support of his own view some unimpeachable authority.

At the beginning of each school term there were usually rough fellows
who thought the quiet boy could be made the subject of practical jokes
and petty annoyances without much danger of retaliation. Graham would
usually remain patient up to a certain point, and then, in dismay and
astonishment, the offender would suddenly find himself receiving a
punishment which he seemed powerless to resist. Blows would fall like
hail, or if the combatants closed in the struggle, the aggressor
appeared to find in Graham's slight form sinew and fury only. It seemed
as if the lad's spirit broke forth in such a flame of indignation that
no one could withstand him. It was also remembered that while he was
not noted for prowess on the playground, few could surpass him in the
gymnasium, and that he took long solitary rambles. Such of his
classmates, therefore, as were inclined to quarrel with him because of
his unpopular ways soon learned that he kept up his muscle with the
best of them, and that, when at last roused, his anger struck like
lightning from a cloud.

During the latter part of his college course he gradually formed a
strong friendship for a young man of a different type, an ardent
sunny-natured youth, who proved an antidote to his morbid tendencies.
They went abroad together and studied for two years at a German
university, and then Warren Hilland, Graham's friend, having inherited
large wealth, returned to his home. Graham, left to himself, delved
more and more deeply in certain phases of sceptical philosophy. It
appeared to him that in the past men had believed almost everything,
and that the heavier the drafts made on credulity the more largely had
they been honored. The two friends had long since resolved that the
actual and the proved should be the base from which they would advance
into the unknown, and they discarded with equal indifference
unsubstantiated theories of science and what they were pleased to term
the illusions of faith. "From the verge of the known explore the
unknown," was their motto, and it had been their hope to spend their
lives in extending the outposts of accurate knowledge, in some one or
two directions, a little beyond the points already reached. Since the
scalpel and microscope revealed no soul in the human mechanism they
regarded all theories and beliefs concerning a separate spiritual
existence as mere assumption. They accepted the materialistic view. To
them each generation was a link in an endless chain, and man himself
wholly the product of an evolution which had no relations to a creative
mind, for they had no belief in the existence of such a mind. They held
that one had only to live wisely and well, and thus transmit the
principle of life, not only unvitiated, but strengthened and enlarged.
Sins against body and mind were sins against the race, and it was their
creed that the stronger, fuller and more nearly complete they made
their lives the richer and fuller would be the life that succeeded
them. They scouted as utterly unproved and irrational the idea that
they could live after death, excepting as the plant lives by adding to
the material life and well-being of other plants. But at that time the
spring and vigor of youth were in their heart and brain, and it seemed
to them a glorious thing to live and do their part in the advancement
of the race toward a stage of perfection not dreamed of by the
unthinking masses.

Alas for their visions of future achievement! An avalanche of wealth
had overwhelmed Hilland. His letters to his friend had grown more and
more infrequent, and they contained many traces of the business cares
and the distractions inseparable from his possessions and new
relations. And now for causes just the reverse Graham also was
forsaking his studies. His modest inheritance, invested chiefly in real
estate, had so far depreciated that apparently it could not much longer
provide for even his frugal life abroad.

"I must give up my chosen career for a life of bread-winning," he had
concluded sadly, and he was ready to avail himself of any good opening
that offered. Therefore he knew not where his lot would be cast on the
broad continent beyond the revolving light that loomed every moment
more distinctly in the west.

A few days later found him at the residence of Mrs. Mayburn, a pretty
cottage in a suburb of an eastern city. This lady was his aunt by
marriage, and had long been a widow. She had never manifested much
interest in her nephew, but since she was his nearest relative he felt
that he could not do less than call upon her. To his agreeable surprise
he found that time had mellowed her spirit and softened her
angularities. After the death of her husband she had developed unusual
ability to take care of herself, and had shown little disposition to
take care of any one else. Her thrift and economy had greatly enhanced
her resources, and her investments had been profitable, while the sense
of increasing abundance had had a happy effect on her character. Within
the past year she had purchased the dwelling in which she now resided,
and to which she welcomed Graham with unexpected warmth. So far from
permitting him to make simply a formal call, she insisted on an
extended visit, and he, divorced from his studies and therefore feeling
his isolation more keenly than ever before, assented.

"My home is accessible," she said, "and from this point you can make
inquiries and look around for business opportunities quite as well as
from a city hotel."

She was so cordial, so perfectly sincere, that for the first time in
his life he felt what it was to have kindred and a place in the world
that was not purchased.

He had found his financial affairs in a much better condition than he
had expected. Some improvements were on foot which promised to advance
the value of his real estate so largely as to make him independent, and
he was much inclined to return to Germany and resume his studies.

"I will rest and vegetate for a time," he concluded. "I will wait till
my friend Hilland returns from the West, and then, when the impulse of
work takes possession of me again, I will decide upon my course."

He had come over the ocean to meet his fate, and not the faintest
shadow of a presentiment of this truth crossed his mind as he looked
tranquilly from his aunt's parlor window at the beautiful May sunset.
The cherry blossoms were on the wane, and the light puffs of wind
brought the white petals down like flurries of snow; the plum-trees
looked as if the snow had clung to every branch and spray, and they
were as white as they could have been after some breathless,
large-flaked December storm; but the great apple-tree that stood well
down the path was the crowning product of May. A more exquisite bloom
of pink and white against an emerald foil of tender young leaves could
not have existed even in Eden, nor could the breath of Eve have been
more sweet than the fragrance exhaled. The air was soft with
summer-like mildness, and the breeze that fanned Graham's cheek brought
no sense of chilliness. The sunset hour, with its spring beauty, the
song of innumerable birds, and especially the strains of a wood-thrush,
that, like a _prima donna_, trilled her melody, clear, sweet and
distinct above the feathered chorus, penetrated his soul with subtle
and delicious influences. A vague longing for something he had never
known or felt, for something that books had never taught, or
experimental science revealed, throbbed in his heart. He felt that his
life was incomplete, and a deeper sense of isolation came over him than
he had ever experienced in foreign cities where every face was strange.
Unconsciously he was passing under the most subtle and powerful of all
spells, that of spring, when the impulse to mate comes not to the birds
alone.

It so happened that he was in just the condition to succumb to this
influence. His mental tension was relaxed. He had sat down by the
wayside of life to rest awhile. He had found that there was no need
that he should bestir himself in money-getting, and his mind refused to
return immediately to the deep abstractions of science. It pleaded
weariness of the world and of the pros and cons of conflicting theories
and questions. He admitted the plea and said:--

"My mind _shall_ rest, and for a few days, possibly weeks, it shall be
passively receptive of just such influences as nature and circumstances
chance to bring to it. Who knows but that I may gain a deeper insight
into the hidden mysteries than if I were delving among the dusty tomes
of a university library? For some reason I feel to-night as if I could
look at that radiant, fragrant apple-tree and listen to the lullaby of
the birds forever. And yet their songs suggest a thought that awakens
an odd pain and dissatisfaction. Each one is singing to his mate. Each
one is giving expression to an overflowing fulness and completeness of
life; and never before have I felt my life so incomplete and isolated.

"I wish Hilland was here. He is such a true friend that his silence is
companionship, and his words never jar discordantly. It seems to me
that I miss him more to-night than I did during the first days after
his departure. It's odd that I should. I wonder if the friendship, the
love of a woman could be more to me than that of Hilland. What was that
paragraph from Emerson that once struck me so forcibly? My aunt is a
woman of solid reading; she must have Emerson. Yes, here in her
bookcase, meagre only in the number of volumes it contains, is what I
want," and he turned the leaves rapidly until his eyes lighted on the
following passage:--

"No man ever forgot the visitations of that power to his heart and
brain which created all things new; which was the dawn in him of music,
poetry, and art; which made the face of nature radiant with purple
light, the morning and the night varied enchantments; when a single
tone of one voice could make the heart bound, and the most trivial
circumstance associated with one form was put in the amber of memory;
when he became all eye when one was present, and all memory when one
was gone."

"Emerson never learned that at a university, German or otherwise. He
writes as if it were a common human experience, and yet I know no more
about it than of the sensations of a man who has lost an arm. I suppose
losing one's heart is much the same. As long as a man's limbs are
intact he is scarcely conscious of them, but when one is gone it
troubles him all the time, although it isn't there. Now when Hilland
left me I felt guilty at the ease with which I could forget him in the
library and laboratory. I did not become all memory. I knew he was my
best, my only friend; he is still; but he is not essential to my life.
Clearly, according to Emerson, I am as ignorant as a child of one of
the deepest experiences of life, and very probably had better remain
so, and yet the hour is playing strange tricks with my fancy."

Thus it may be perceived that Alford Graham was peculiarly open on this
deceitful May evening, which promised peace and security, to the
impending stroke of fate. Its harbinger first appeared in the form of a
white Spitz dog, barking vivaciously under the apple-tree, where a path
from a neighboring residence intersected the walk leading from Mrs.
Mayburn's cottage to the street. Evidently some one was playing with
the little creature, and was pretending to be kept at bay by its
belligerent attitude. Suddenly there was a rush and a flutter of white
draperies, and the dog retreated toward Graham, barking with still
greater excitement. Then the young man saw coming up the path with
quick, lithe tread, sudden pauses, and little impetuous dashes at her
canine playmate, a being that might have been an emanation from the
radiant apple-tree, or, rather, the human embodiment of the blossoming
period of the year. Her low wide brow and her neck were snowy white,
and no pink petal on the trees above her could surpass the bloom on her
cheeks. Her large, dark, lustrous eyes were brimming over with fun, and
unconscious of observation, she moved with the natural, unstudied grace
of a child.

Graham thought, "No scene of nature is complete without the human
element, and now the very genius of the hour and season has appeared;"
and he hastily concealed himself behind the curtains, unwilling to lose
one glimpse of a picture that made every nerve tingle with pleasure.
His first glance had revealed that the fair vision was not a child, but
a tall, graceful girl, who happily had not yet passed beyond the
sportive impulses of childhood.

Every moment she came nearer, until at last she stood opposite the
window. He could see the blue veins branching across her temples, the
quick rise and fall of her bosom, caused by rather violent exertion,
the wavy outlines of light brown hair that was gathered in a Greek coil
at the back of the shapely head. She had the rare combination of dark
eyes and light hair which made the lustre of her eyes all the more
striking. He never forgot that moment as she stood panting before him
on the gravel walk, her girlhood's grace blending so harmoniously with
her budding womanhood. For a moment the thought crossed his mind that
under the spell of the spring evening his own fancy had created her,
and that if he looked away and turned again he would see nothing but
the pink and white blossoms, and hear only the jubilant song of the
birds.

The Spitz dog, however, could not possibly have any such unsubstantial
origin, and this small Cerberus had now entered the room, and was
barking furiously at him as an unrecognized stranger. A moment later
his vision under the window stood in the doorway. The sportive girl was
transformed at once into a well-bred young woman who remarked quietly,
"I beg your pardon. I expected to find Mrs. Mayburn here;" and she
departed to search for that lady through the house with a prompt
freedom which suggested relations of the most friendly intimacy.



CHAPTER II

MERE FANCIES

Graham's disposition to make his aunt a visit was not at all chilled by
the discovery that she had so fair a neighbor. He was conscious of
little more than an impulse to form the acquaintance of one who might
give a peculiar charm and piquancy to his May-day vacation, and enrich
him with an experience that had been wholly wanting in his secluded and
studious life. With a smile he permitted the fancy--for he was in a
mood for all sorts of fancies on this evening--that if this girl could
teach him to interpret Emerson's words, he would make no crabbed
resistance. And yet the remote possibility of such an event gave him a
sense of security, and prompted him all the more to yield himself for
the first time to whatever impressions a young and pretty woman might
be able to make upon him. His very disposition toward experiment and
analysis inclined him to experiment with himself. Thus it would seem
that even the perfect evening, and the vision that had emerged from
under the apple-boughs, could not wholly banish a tendency to give a
scientific cast to the mood and fancies of the hour.

His aunt now summoned him to the supper-room, where he was formally
introduced to Miss Grace St. John, with whom his first meal under his
relative's roof was destined to be taken.

As may naturally be supposed, Graham was not well furnished with small
talk, and while he had not the proverbial shyness and awkwardness of
the student, he was somewhat silent because he knew not what to say.
The young guest was entirely at her ease, and her familiarity with the
hostess enabled her to chat freely and naturally on topics of mutual
interest, thus giving Graham time for those observations to which all
are inclined when meeting one who has taken a sudden and strong hold
upon the attention.

He speedily concluded that she could not be less than nineteen or
twenty years of age, and that she was not what he would term a society
girl--a type that he had learned to recognize from not a few
representatives of his countrywomen whom he had seen abroad, rather
than from much personal acquaintance. It should not be understood that
he had shunned society altogether, and his position had ever entitled
him to enter the best; but the young women whom it had been his fortune
to meet had failed to interest him as completely as he had proved
himself a bore to them. Their worlds were too widely separated for
mutual sympathy; and after brief excursions among the drawing-rooms to
which Hilland had usually dragged him, he returned to his books with a
deeper satisfaction and content. Would his acquaintance with Miss St.
John lead to a like result? He was watching and waiting to see, and she
had the advantage--if it was an advantage--of making a good first
impression.

Every moment increased this predisposition in her favor. She must have
known that she was very attractive, for few girls reach her age without
attaining such knowledge; but her observer, and in a certain sense her
critic, could not detect the faintest trace of affectation or
self-consciousness. Her manner, her words, and even their accent seemed
unstudied, unpracticed, and unmodelled after any received type. Her
glance was peculiarly open and direct, and from the first she gave
Graham the feeling that she was one who might be trusted absolutely.
That she had tact and kindliness also was evidenced by the fact that
she did not misunderstand or resent his comparative silence. At first,
after learning that he had lived much abroad, her manner toward him had
been a little shy and wary, indicating that she may have surmised that
his reticence was the result of a certain kind of superiority which
travelled men--especially young men--often assume when meeting those
whose lives are supposed to have a narrow horizon; but she quickly
discovered that Graham had no foreign-bred pre-eminence to parade--that
he wanted to talk with her if he could only find some common subject of
interest. This she supplied by taking him to ground with which he was
perfectly familiar, for she asked him to tell her something about
university life in Germany. On such a theme he could converse well, and
before long a fire of eager questions proved that he had not only a
deeply interested listener but also a very intelligent one.

Mrs. Mayburn smiled complacently, for she had some natural desire that
her nephew should make a favorable impression. In regard to Miss St.
John she had long ceased to have any misgivings, and the approval that
she saw in Graham's eyes was expected as a matter of course. This
approval she soon developed into positive admiration by leading her
favorite to speak of her own past.

"Grace, you must know, Alford, is the daughter of an army officer, and
has seen some odd phases of life at the various military stations where
her father has been on duty."

These words piqued Graham's curiosity at once, and he became the
questioner. His own frank effort to entertain was now rewarded, and the
young girl, possessing easy and natural powers of description, gave
sketches of life at military posts which to Graham had more than the
charm of novelty. Unconsciously she was accounting for herself. In the
refined yet unconventional society of officers and their wives she had
acquired the frank manner so peculiarly her own. But the characteristic
which won Graham's interest most strongly was her abounding
mirthfulness. It ran through all her words like a golden thread. The
instinctive craving of every nature is for that which supplements
itself, and Graham found something so genial in Miss St. John's ready
smile and laughing eyes, which suggested an over-full fountain of
joyousness within, that his heart, chilled and repressed from
childhood, began to give signs of its existence, even during the first
hour of their acquaintance. It is true, as we have seen, that he was in
a very receptive condition, but then a smile, a glance that is like
warm sunshine, is never devoid of power.

The long May twilight had faded, and they were still lingering over the
supper-table, when a middle-aged <DW52> woman in a flaming red turban
appeared in the doorway and said, "Pardon, Mis' Mayburn; I'se a-hopin'
you'll 'scuse me. I jes step over to tell Miss Grace dat de major's
po'ful oneasy,--'spected you back afo'."

The girl arose with alacrity, saying, "Mr. Graham, you have brought me
into danger, and must now extricate me. Papa is an inveterate
whist-player, and you have put my errand here quite out of my mind. I
didn't come for the sake of your delicious muffins altogether"--with a
nod at her hostess; "our game has been broken up, you know, Mrs.
Mayburn, by the departure of Mrs. Weeks and her daughter. You have
often played a good hand with us, and papa thought you would come over
this evening, and that you, from your better acquaintance with our
neighbors, might know of some one who enjoyed the game sufficiently to
join us quite often. Mr. Graham, you must be the one I am seeking. A
gentleman versed in the lore of two continents certainly understands
whist, or, at least, can penetrate its mysteries at a single sitting."

"Suppose I punish the irony of your concluding words," Graham replied,
"by saying that I know just enough about the game to be aware how much
skill is required to play with such a veteran as your father?"

"If you did you would punish papa also, who is innocent."

"That cannot be thought of, although, in truth, I play but an
indifferent game. If you will make amends by teaching me I will try to
perpetrate as few blunders as possible."

"Indeed, sir, you forget. You are to make amends for keeping me talking
here, forgetful of filial duty, by giving me a chance to teach you. You
are to be led meekly in as a trophy by which I am to propitiate my
stern parent, who has military ideas of promptness and obedience."

"What if he should place me under arrest?"

"Then Mrs. Mayburn and I will become your jailers, and we shall keep
you here until you are one of the most accomplished whist-players in
the land."

"If you will promise to stand guard over me some of the time I will
submit to any conditions."

"You are already making one condition, and may think of a dozen more.
It will be better to parole you with the understanding that you are to
put in an appearance at the hour for whist;" and with similar light
talk they went down the walk under the apple-boughs, whence in Graham's
fancy the fair girl had had her origin. As they passed under the shadow
he saw the dusky outline of a rustic seat leaning against the bole of
the tree, and he wondered if he should ever induce his present guide
through the darkened paths to come there some moonlight evening, and
listen to the fancies which her unexpected appearance had occasioned.
The possibility of such an event in contrast with its far greater
improbability caused him to sigh, and then he smiled broadly at himself
in the darkness.

When they had passed a clump of evergreens, a lighted cottage presented
itself, and Miss St. John sprang lightly up the steps, pushed open the
hall door, and cried through the open entrance to a cosey apartment,
"No occasion for hostilities, papa. I have made a capture that gives
the promise of whist not only this evening but also for several more to
come."

As Graham and Mrs. Mayburn entered, a tall, white-haired man lifted his
foot from off a cushion, and rose with some little difficulty, but
having gained his feet, his bearing was erect and soldier-like, and his
courtesy perfect, although toward Mrs. Mayburn it was tinged with the
gallantry of a former generation. Some brief explanations followed, and
then Major St. John turned upon Graham the dark eyes which his daughter
had inherited, and which seemed all the more brilliant in contrast with
his frosty eyebrows, and said genially, "It is very kind of you to be
willing to aid in beguiling an old man's tedium." Turning to his
daughter he added a little querulously, "There must be a storm brewing,
Grace," and he drew in his breath as if in pain.

"Does your wound trouble you to-night, papa?" she asked gently.

"Yes, just as it always does before a storm."

"It is perfectly clear without," she resumed. "Perhaps the room has
become a little cold. The evenings are still damp and chilly;" and she
threw two or three billets of wood on the open fire, kindling a blaze
that sprang cheerily up the chimney.

The room seemed to be a combination of parlor and library, and it
satisfied Graham's ideal of a living apartment. Easy-chairs of various
patterns stood here and there and looked as if constructed by the very
genius of comfort. A secretary in the corner near a window was open,
suggesting absent friends and the pleasure of writing to them amid such
agreeable surroundings. Again Graham queried, prompted by the peculiar
influences that had gained the mastery on this tranquil but eventful
evening, "Will Miss St. John ever sit there penning words straight from
her heart to me?"

He was brought back to prose and reality by the major. Mrs. Mayburn had
been condoling with him, and he now turned and said, "I hope, my dear
sir, that you may never carry around such a barometer as I am afflicted
with. A man with an infirmity grows a little egotistical, if not worse."

"You have much consolation, sir, in remembering how you came by your
infirmity," Graham replied. "Men bearing such proofs of service to
their country are not plentiful in our money-getting land."

His daughter's laugh rang out musically as she cried, "That was meant
to be a fine stroke of diplomacy. Papa, you will now have to pardon a
score of blunders."

"I have as yet no proof that any will be made," the major remarked, and
in fact Graham had underrated his acquaintance with the game. He was
quite equal to his aunt in proficiency, and with Miss St. John for his
partner he was on his mettle. He found her skilful indeed, quick,
penetrating, and possessed of an excellent memory. They held their own
so well that the major's spirits rose hourly. He forgot his wound in
the complete absorption of his favorite recreation.

As opportunity occurred Graham could not keep his eyes from wandering
here and there about the apartment that had so taken his fancy,
especially toward the large, well-filled bookcase and the pictures,
which, if not very expensive, had evidently been the choice of a
cultivated taste.

They were brought to a consciousness of the flight of time by a clock
chiming out the hour of eleven, and the old soldier with a sigh of
regret saw Mrs. Mayburn rise. Miss St. John touched a silver bell, and
a moment later the same negress who had reminded her of her father's
impatience early in the evening entered with a tray bearing a decanter
of wine, glasses, and some wafer-like cakes.

"Have I earned the indulgence of a glance at your books?" Graham asked.

"Yes, indeed," Miss St. John replied; "your martyr-like submission
shall be further rewarded by permission to borrow any of them while in
town. I doubt, however, if you will find them profound enough for your
taste."

"I shall take all point from your irony by asking if you think one can
relish nothing but intellectual roast beef. I am enjoying one of your
delicate cakes. You must have an excellent cook."

"Papa says he has, in the line of cake and pastry; but then he is
partial."

"What! did you make them?"

"Why not?"

"Oh, I'm not objecting. Did my manners permit, I'd empty the plate.
Still, I was under the impression that young ladies were not adepts in
this sort of thing."

"You have been abroad so long that you may have to revise many of your
impressions. Of course retired army officers are naturally in a
condition to import _chefs de cuisine_, but then we like to keep up the
idea of republican simplicity."

"Could you be so very kind as to induce your father to ask me to make
one of your evening quartette as often as possible?"

"The relevancy of that request is striking. Was it suggested by the
flavor of the cakes? I sometimes forget to make them."

"Their absence would not prevent my taste from being gratified if you
will permit me to come. Here is a marked volume of Emerson's works. May
I take it for a day or two?"

She blushed slightly, hesitated perceptibly, and then said, "Yes."

"Alford," broke in his aunt, "you students have the name of being great
owls, but for an old woman of my regular habits it's getting late."

"My daughter informs me," the major remarked to Graham in parting,
"that we may be able to induce you to take a hand with us quite often.
If you should ever become as old and crippled as I am you will know how
to appreciate such kindness.'"

"Indeed, sir, Miss St. John must testify that I asked to share your
game as a privilege. I can scarcely remember to have passed so pleasant
an evening."

"Mrs. Mayburn, do try to keep him in this amiable frame of mind," cried
the girl.

"I think I shall need your aid," said that lady, with a smile. "Come,
Alford, it is next to impossible to get you away."

"Papa's unfortunate barometer will prove correct, I fear," said Miss
St. John, following them out on the piazza, for a thin scud was already
veiling the stars, and there was an ominous moan of the wind.

"To-morrow will be a stormy day," remarked Mrs. Mayburn, who prided
herself on her weather wisdom.

"I'm sorry," Miss St. John continued, "for it will spoil our fairy
world of blossoms, and I am still more sorry for papa's sake."

"Should the day prove a long, dismal, rainy one," Graham ventured, "may
I not come over and help entertain your father?"

"Yes," said the girl, earnestly. "It cannot seem strange to you that
time should often hang heavily on his hands, and I am grateful to any
one who helps me to enliven his hours."

Before Graham repassed under the apple-tree boughs he had fully decided
to win at least Miss St. John's gratitude.



CHAPTER III

THE VERDICT OF A SAGE

When Graham reached his room he was in no mood for sleep. At first he
lapsed into a long revery over the events of the evening, trivial in
themselves, and yet for some reason holding a controlling influence
over his thoughts. Miss St. John was a new revelation of womanhood to
him, and for the first time in his life his heart had been stirred by a
woman's tones and glances. A deep chord in his nature vibrated when she
spoke and smiled. What did it mean? He had followed his impulse to
permit this stranger to make any impression within her power, and he
found that she had decidedly interested him. As he tried to analyze her
power he concluded that it lay chiefly in the mirthfulness, the
joyousness of her spirit. She quickened his cool, deliberate pulse. Her
smile was not an affair of facial muscles, but had a vivifying warmth.
It made him suspect that his life was becoming cold and self-centred,
that he was missing the deepest and best experiences of an existence
that was brief indeed at best, and, as he believed, soon ceased
forever. The love of study and ambition had sufficed thus far, but
actuated by his own materialistic creed he was bound to make the most
of life while it lasted. According to Emerson he was as yet but in the
earlier stages of evolution, and his highest manhood wholly
undeveloped. Had not "music, poetry, and art" dawned in his mind? Was
nature but a mechanism after whose laws he had been groping like an
anatomist who finds in the godlike form bone and tissue merely? As he
had sat watching the sunset a few hours previous, the element of beauty
had been present to him as never before. Could this sense of beauty
become so enlarged that the world would be transfigured, "radiant with
purple light"? Morning had often brought to him weariness from
sleepless hours during which he had racked his brain over problems too
deep for him, and evening had found him still baffled, disappointed,
and disposed to ask in view of his toil, _Cui bono_? What ground had
Emerson for saying that these same mornings and evenings might be
filled with "varied enchantments"? The reason, the cause of these
unknown conditions of life, was given unmistakably. The Concord sage
had virtually asserted that he, Alford Graham, would never truly exist
until his one-sided masculine nature had been supplemented by the
feminine soul which alone could give to his being completeness and the
power to attain his full development.

"Well," he soliloquized, laughing, "I have not been aware that hitherto
I have been only a mollusk, a polyp of a man. I am inclined to think
that Emerson's 'Pegasus' took the bit--got the better of him on one
occasion; but if there is any truth in what he writes it might not be a
bad idea to try a little of the kind of evolution that he suggests and
see what comes of it. I am already confident that I could see
infinitely more than I do if I could look at the world through Miss St.
John's eyes as well as my own, but I run no slight risk in obtaining
that vision. Her eyes are stars that must have drawn worshippers, not
only from the east, but from every point of the compass. I should be in
a sorry plight if I should become 'all memory,' and from my fair
divinity receive as sole response, 'Please forget.' If the philosopher
could guarantee that she also would be 'all eye and all memory,' one
might indeed covet Miss St. John as the teacher of the higher
mysteries. Life is not very exhilarating at best, but for a man to set
his heart on such a woman as this girl promises to be, and then be
denied--why, he had better remain a polyp. Come, come, Alford Graham,
you have had your hour of sentiment--out of deference to Mr. Emerson I
won't call it weakness--and it's time you remembered that you are a
comparatively poor man, that Miss St. John has already been the choice
of a score at least, and probably has made her own choice. I shall
therefore permit no delusions and the growth of no false hopes."

Having reached this prudent conclusion, Graham yawned, smiled at the
unwonted mood in which he had indulged, and with the philosophic
purpose of finding an opiate in the pages that had contained one
paragraph rather too exciting, he took up the copy of Emerson that he
had borrowed. The book fell open, indicating that some one had often
turned to the pages before him. One passage was strongly marked on
either side and underscored. With a laugh he saw that it was the one he
had been dwelling upon--"No man ever forgot," etc.

"Now I know why she blushed slightly and hesitated to lend me this
volume," he thought. "I suppose I may read in this instance, 'No woman
ever forgot.' Of course, it would be strange if she had not learned to
understand these words. What else has she marked?"

Here and there were many delicate marginal lines indicating approval
and interest, but they were so delicate as to suggest that the strong
scoring of the significant passage was not the work of Miss St. John,
but rather of some heavy masculine hand. This seemed to restore the
original reading, "No _man_ ever forgot," and some man had apparently
tried to inform her by his emphatic lines that he did not intend to
forget.

"Well, suppose he does not and cannot," Graham mused. "That fact places
her under no obligations to be 'all eye and memory' for him. And yet
her blush and hesitancy and the way the book falls open at this passage
look favorable for him. I can win her gratitude by amusing the old
major, and with that, no doubt, I shall have to be content."

This limitation of his chances caused Graham so little solicitude that
he was soon sleeping soundly.



CHAPTER IV

WARNING OR INCENTIVE?

The next morning proved that the wound which Major St. John had
received in the Mexican War was a correct barometer. From a leaden,
lowering sky the rain fell steadily, and a chilly wind was fast
dismantling the trees of their blossoms. The birds had suspended their
nest-building, and but few had the heart to sing.

"You seem to take a very complacent view of the dreary prospect
without," Mrs. Mayburn remarked, as Graham came smilingly into the
breakfast-room and greeted her with a cheerful note in his tones. "Such
a day as this means rheumatism for me and an aching leg for Major St.
John."

"I am very sorry, aunt," he replied, "but I cannot help remembering
also that it is not altogether an ill wind, for it will blow me over
into a cosey parlor and very charming society--that is, if Miss St.
John will give me a little aid in entertaining her father."

"So we old people don't count for anything."

"That doesn't follow at all. I would do anything in my power to banish
your rheumatism and the major's twinges, but how was it with you both
at my age? I can answer for the major. If at that time he knew another
major with such a daughter as blesses his home, his devotion to the
preceding veteran was a little mixed."

"Are you so taken by Miss St. John?"

"I have not the slightest hope of being taken by her."

"You know what I mean?"

"Yes, but I wished to suggest my modest hopes and expectations so that
you may have no anxieties if I avail myself, during my visit, of the
chance of seeing what I can of an unusually fine girl. Acquaintance
with such society is the part of my education most sadly neglected.
Nevertheless, you will find me devotedly at your service whenever you
will express your wishes."

"Do not imagine that I am disposed to find fault. Grace is a great
favorite of mine. She is a good old-fashioned girl, not one of your
vain, heartless, selfish creatures with only a veneer of good breeding.
I see her almost every day, either here or in her own home, and I know
her well. You have seen that she is fitted to shine anywhere, but it is
for her home qualities that I love and admire her most. Her father is
crippled and querulous; indeed he is often exceedingly irritable.
Everything must please him or else he is inclined to storm as he did in
his regiment, and occasionally he emphasizes his words without much
regard to the third commandment. But his gusts of anger are over
quickly, and a kinder-hearted and more upright man never lived. Of
course American servants won't stand harsh words. They want to do all
the fault-finding, and the poor old gentleman would have a hard time of
it were it not for Grace. She knows how to manage both him and them,
and that <DW52> woman you saw wouldn't leave him if he beat and swore
at her every day. She was a slave in the family of Grace's mother, who
was a Southern lady, and the major gave the poor creature her liberty
when he brought his wife to the North. Grace is sunshine embodied. She
makes her old, irritable, and sometimes gouty father happy in spite of
himself. It was just like her to accept of your offer last evening, for
to banish all dullness from her father's life seems her constant
thought. So if you wish to grow in the young lady's favor don't be so
attentive to her as to neglect the old gentleman."

Graham listened to this good-natured gossip with decided interest,
feeling that it contained valuable suggestions. The response seemed
scarcely relevant. "When is she to be married?" he asked.

"Married!"

"Yes. It is a wonder that such a paragon has escaped thus long."

"You have lived abroad too much," said his aunt satirically. "American
girls are not married out of hand at a certain age. They marry when
they please or not at all if they please. Grace easily escapes
marriage."

"Not from want of suitors, I'm sure."

"You are right there."

"How then?"

"By saying, 'No, I thank you.' You can easily learn how very effectual
such a quiet negative is, if you choose."

"Indeed! Am I such a very undesirable party?" said Graham, laughing,
for he heartily enjoyed his aunt's brusque way of talking, having
learned already the kindliness it masked.

"Not in my eyes. I can't speak for Grace. She'd marry you if she loved
you, and were you the Czar of all the Russias you wouldn't have the
ghost of a chance unless she did. I know that she has refused more than
one fortune. She seems perfectly content to live with her father, until
the one prince having the power to awaken her appears. When he comes
rest assured she'll follow him, and also be assured that she'll take
her father with her, and to a selfish, exacting Turk of a husband he
might prove an old man of the sea. And yet I doubt it. Grace would
manage any one. Not that she has much management either. She simply
laughs, smiles, and talks every one into good humor. Her mirthfulness,
her own happiness, is so genuine that it is contagious. Suppose you
exchange duties and ask her to come over and enliven me while you
entertain her father," concluded the old lady mischievously.

"I would not dare to face such a fiery veteran as you have described
alone."

"I knew you would have some excuse. Well, be on your guard. Grace will
make no effort to capture you, and therefore you will be in all the
more danger of being captured. If you lose your heart in vain to her
you will need more than German philosophy to sustain you."

"I have already made to myself in substance your last remark."

"I know you are not a lady's man, and perhaps for that very reason you
are all the more liable to an acute attack."

Graham laughed as he rose from the table, and asked, "Should I ever
venture to lay siege to Miss St. John, would I not have your blessing?"

"Yes, and more than my blessing."

"What do you mean by more than your blessing?"

"I shall not commit myself until you commit yourself, and I do not wish
you to take even the first step without appreciating the risk of the
venture."

"Why, bless you, aunt," said Graham, now laughing heartily, "how
seriously you take it! I have spent but one evening with the girl."

The old lady nodded her head significantly as she replied, "I have not
lived to my time of life without learning a thing or two. My memory
also has not failed as yet. There were young men who looked at me once
just as you looked at Grace last evening, and I know what came of it in
more than one instance. You are safe now, and you may be invulnerable,
although it does not look like it; but if you can see much of Grace St.
John and remain untouched you are unlike most men."

"I have always had the name of being that, you know. But as the peril
is so great had I not better fly at once?"

"Yes, I think we both have had the name of being a little peculiar, and
my brusque, direct way of coming right to the point is one of my
peculiarities. I am very intimate with the St. Johns, and am almost as
fond of Grace as if she were my own child. So of course you can see a
great deal of her if you wish, and this arrangement about whist will
add to your opportunities. I know what young men are, and I know too
what often happens when their faces express as much admiration and
interest as yours did last night. What's more," continued the energetic
old lady with an emphatic tap on the floor with her foot, and a decided
nod of her head, "if I were a young man, Grace would have to marry some
one else to get rid of me. Now I've had my say, and my conscience is
clear, whatever happens. As to flight, why, you must settle that
question, but I am sincere and cordial in my request that you make your
home with me until you decide upon your future course."

Graham was touched, and he took his aunt's hand as he said, "I thank
you for your kindness, and more than all for your downright sincerity.
When I came here it was to make but a formal call. With the exception
of one friend, I believed that I stood utterly alone in the world--that
no one cared about what I did or what became of me. I was accustomed to
isolation and thought I was content with it, but I find it more
pleasant than I can make you understand to know there is one place in
the world to which I can come, not as a stranger to an inn, but as one
that is received for other than business considerations. Since you have
been so frank with me I will be equally outspoken;" and he told her
just how he was situated, and what were his plans and hopes. "Now that
I know there is no necessity of earning my livelihood," he concluded,
"I shall yield to my impulse to rest awhile, and then quite probably
resume my studies here or abroad until I can obtain a position suited
to my plans and taste. I thank you for your note of alarm in regard to
Miss St. John, although I must say that to my mind there is more of
incentive than of warning in your words. I think I can at least venture
on a few reconnoissances, as the major might say, before I beat a
retreat. Is it too early to make one now?"

Mrs. Mayburn smiled. "No," she said, laconically,

"I see that you think my reconnoissance will lead to a siege," Graham
added. "Well, I can at least promise that there shall be no rash
movements."



CHAPTER V

IMPRESSIONS

Graham, smiling at his aunt and still more amused at himself, started
to pay his morning visit. "Yesterday afternoon," he thought, "I
expected to make but a brief call on an aunt who was almost a stranger
to me, and now I am domiciled under her roof indefinitely. She has
introduced me to a charming girl, and in an ostensible warning shrewdly
inserted the strongest incentives to venture everything, hinting at the
same time that if I succeeded she would give me more than her blessing.
What a vista of possibilities has opened since I crossed her threshold!
A brief time since I was buried in German libraries, unaware of the
existence of Miss St. John, and forgetting that of my aunt. Apparently
I have crossed the ocean to meet them both, for had I remained abroad a
few days longer, letters on the way would have prevented my returning.
Of course it is all chance, but a curious chance. I don't wonder that
people are often superstitious; and yet a moment's reasoning proves the
absurdity of this sort of thing. Nothing truly strange often happens,
and only our egotism invests events of personal interest with a trace
of the marvellous. My business man neglected to advise me of my
improved finances as soon as he might have done. My aunt receives me,
not as I expected, but as one would naturally hope to be met by a
relative. She has a fair young neighbor with whom she is intimate, and
whom I meet as a matter of course, and as a matter of course I can
continue to meet her as long as I choose without becoming 'all eye and
all memory.' Surely a man can enjoy the society of any woman without
the danger my aunt suggests and--as I half believe--would like to bring
about. What signify my fancies of last evening? We often enjoy
imagining what might be without ever intending it shall be. At any
rate, I shall not sigh for Miss St. John or any other woman until
satisfied that I should not sigh in vain. The probabilities are
therefore that I shall never sigh at all."

As he approached Major St. John's dwelling he saw the object of his
thoughts standing by the window and reading a letter. A syringa shrub
partially concealed him and his umbrella, and he could not forbear
pausing a moment to note what a pretty picture she made. A sprig of
white flowers was in her light wavy hair, and another fastened by her
breastpin drooped over her bosom. Her morning wrapper was of the hue of
the sky that lay back of the leaden clouds. A heightened color mantled
her cheeks, her lips were parted with a smile, and her whole face was
full of delighted interest.

"By Jove!" muttered Graham. "Aunt Mayburn is half right, I believe. A
man must have the pulse of an anchorite to look often at such a vision
as that and remain untouched. One might easily create a divinity out of
such a creature, and then find it difficult not to worship. I could go
away now and make her my ideal, endowing her with all impossible
attributes of perfection. Very probably fuller acquaintance will prove
that she is made of clay not differing materially from that of other
womankind. I envy her correspondent, however, and would be glad if I
could write a letter that would bring such an expression to her face.
Well, I am reconnoitring true enough, and had better not be detected in
the act;" and he stepped rapidly forward.

She recognized him with a piquant little nod and smile. The letter was
folded instantly, and a moment later she opened the door for him
herself, saying, "Since I have seen you and you have come on so kind an
errand I have dispensed with the formality of sending a servant to
admit you."

"Won't you shake hands as a further reward?" he asked. "You will find
me very mercenary."

"Oh, certainly. Pardon the oversight. I should have done so without
prompting since it is so long since we have met."

"And having known each other so long also," he added in the same light
vein, conscious meantime that he held a hand that was as full of
vitality as it was shapely and white.

"Indeed," she replied; "did last evening seem an age to you?"

"I tried to prolong it, for you must remember that my aunt said that
she could not get me away; and this morning I was indiscreet enough to
welcome the rain, at which she reminded me of her rheumatism and your
father's wound."

"And at which I also hope you had a twinge or two of conscience. Papa,"
she added, leading the way into the parlor, "here is Mr. Graham. It was
his fascinating talk about life in Germany that so delayed me last
evening."

The old gentleman started out of a doze, and his manner proved that he
welcomed any break in the monotony of the day. "You will pardon my not
rising," he said; "this confounded weather is playing the deuce with my
leg."

Graham was observant as he joined in a general condemnation of the
weather; and the manner in which Miss St. John rearranged the cushion
on which her father's foot rested, coaxed the fire into a more cheerful
blaze, and bestowed other little attentions, proved beyond a doubt that
all effort in behalf of the suffering veteran would be appreciated. Nor
was he so devoid of a kindly good-nature himself as to anticipate an
irksome task, and he did his utmost to discover the best methods of
entertaining his host. The effort soon became remunerative, for the
major had seen much of life, and enjoyed reference to his experiences.
Graham found that he could be induced to fight his battles over again,
but always with very modest allusion to himself. In the course of their
talk it also became evident that he was a man of somewhat extensive
reading, and the daily paper must have been almost literally devoured
to account for his acquaintance with contemporary affairs. The daughter
was often not a little amused at Graham's blank looks as her father
broached topics of American interest which to the student from abroad
were as little known or understood as the questions which might have
been agitating the inhabitants of Jupiter. Most ladies would have been
politely oblivious of her guest's blunders and infelicitous remarks,
but Miss St. John had a frank, merry way of recognizing them, and yet
malice and ridicule were so entirely absent from her words and ways
that Graham soon positively enjoyed being laughed at, and much
preferred her delicate open raillery, which gave him a chance to defend
himself, to a smiling mask that would leave him in uncertainty as to
the fitness of his replies. There was a subtle flattery also in this
course, for she treated him as one capable of holding his own, and not
in need of social charity and protection. With pleasure he recognized
that she was adopting toward him something of the same sportive manner
which characterized her relations with his aunt, and which also
indicated that as Mrs. Mayburn's nephew he had met with a reception
which would not have been accorded to one less favorably introduced.

How vividly in after years Graham remembered that rainy May morning! He
could always call up before him, like a vivid picture, the old major
with his bushy white eyebrows and piercing black eyes, the smoke from
his meerschaum creating a sort of halo around his gray head, the fine,
venerable face often drawn by pain which led to half-muttered
imprecations that courtesy to his guest and daughter could not wholly
suppress. How often he saw again the fire curling softly from the
hearth with a contented crackle, as if pleased to be once more an
essential to the home from which the advancing summer would soon banish
it! He could recall every article of the furniture with which he
afterward became so familiar. But that which was engraven on his memory
forever was a fair young girl sitting by the window with a background
of early spring greenery swaying to and fro in the storm. Long
afterward, when watching on the perilous picket line or standing in his
place on the battlefield, he would close his eyes that he might recall
more vividly the little white hands deftly crocheting on some feminine
mystery, and the mirthful eyes that often glanced from it to him as the
quiet flow of their talk rippled on. A rill, had it conscious life,
would never forget the pebble that deflected its course from one ocean
to another; human life as it flows onward cannot fail to recognize
events, trivial in themselves, which nevertheless gave direction to all
the future.

Graham admitted to himself that he had found a charm at this fireside
which he had never enjoyed elsewhere in society--the pleasure of being
perfectly at ease. There was a genial frankness and simplicity in his
entertainers which banished restraint, and gave him a sense of
security. He felt instinctively that there were no adverse currents of
mental criticism and detraction, that they were loyal to him as their
invited guest, notwithstanding jest, banter, and good-natured satire.

The hours had vanished so swiftly that he was at a loss to account for
them. Miss St. John was a natural foe to dulness of all kinds, and this
too without any apparent effort. Indeed, we are rarely entertained by
evident and deliberate exertion. Pleasurable exhilaration in society is
obtained from those who impart, like warmth, their own spontaneous
vivacity. Miss St. John's smile was an antidote for a rainy day, and he
was loath to pass from its genial power out under the dripping clouds.
Following an impulse, he said to the girl, "You are more than a match
for the weather."

These words were spoken in the hall after he had bidden adieu to the
major.

"If you meant a compliment it is a very doubtful one," she replied,
laughing. "Do you mean that I am worse than the weather which gives
papa the horrors, and Mrs. Mayburn the rheumatism?"

"And me one of the most delightful mornings I ever enjoyed," he added,
interrupting her. "You were in league with your wood fire. The garish
sunshine of a warm day robs a house of all cosiness and snugness.
Instead of being depressed by the storm and permitting others to be
dull, you have the art of making the clouds your foil."

"Possibly I may appear to some advantage against such a dismal
background," she admitted.

"My meaning is interpreted by my unconscionably long visit. I now must
reluctantly retreat into the dismal background."

"A rather well-covered retreat, as papa might say, but you will need
your umbrella all the same;" for he, in looking back at the archly
smiling girl, had neglected to open it.

"I am glad it is not a final retreat," he called back. "I shall return
this evening reinforced by my aunt."

"Well," exclaimed that lady when he appeared before her, "lunch has
been waiting ten minutes or more."

"I feared as much," he replied, shaking his head ruefully.

"What kept you?"

"Miss St. John."

"Not the major? I thought you went to entertain him?"

"So I did, but man proposes--"

"Oh, not yet, I hope," cried the old lady with assumed dismay. "I
thought you promised to do nothing rash."

"You are more precipitate than I have been. All that I propose is to
enjoy my vacation and the society of your charming friend."

"The major?" she suggested.

"A natural error on your part, for I perceived he was very gallant to
you. After your remarks, however, you cannot think it strange that I
found the daughter more interesting--so interesting indeed that I have
kept you waiting for lunch. I'll not repeat the offence any oftener
than I can help. At the same time I find that I have not lost my
appetite, or anything else that I am aware of."

"How did Grace appear?" his aunt asked as they sat down to lunch.

"Like myself."

"Then not like any one else you know?"

"We agree here perfectly."

"You have no fear?"

"No, nor any hopes that I am conscious of. Can I not admire your
paragon to your heart's content without insisting that she bestow upon
me the treasures of her life? Miss St. John has a frank, cordial manner
all her own, and I think also that for your sake she has received me
rather graciously, but I should be blind indeed did I not recognize
that it would require a siege to win her; and that would be useless, as
you said, unless her own heart prompted the surrender. I have heard and
read that many women are capable of passing fancies of which adroit
suitors can take advantage, and they are engaged or married before
fully comprehending what it all means. Were Miss St. John of this class
I should still hesitate to venture, for nothing in my training has
fitted me to take an advantage of a lady's mood. I don't think your
favorite is given to fancies. She is too well poised. Her serene,
laughing confidence, her more than content, comes either from a heart
already happily given, or else from a nature so sound and healthful
that life in itself is an unalloyed joy. She impresses me as the
happiest being I ever met, and as such it is a delight to be in her
presence; but if I should approach her as a lover, something tells me
that I should find her like a snowy peak, warm and rose-tinted in the
sunlight, as seen in the distance, but growing cold as you draw near.
There may be subterranean fires, but they would manifest themselves
from some inward impulse. At least I do not feel conscious of any power
to awaken them."

Mrs. Mayburn shook her head ominously.

"You are growing very fanciful," she said, "which is a sign, if not a
bad one. Your metaphors, too, are so farfetched and extravagant as to
indicate the earliest stages of the divine madness. Do you mean to
suggest that Grace will break forth like a volcano on some fortuitous
man? If that be your theory you would stand as good a chance as any
one. She might break forth on you."

"I have indeed been unfortunate in my illustration, since you can so
twist my words even in jest. Here's plain enough prose for you. No
amount of wooing would make the slightest difference unless by some law
or impulse of her own nature Miss St. John was compelled to respond."

"Isn't that true of every woman?"

"I don't think it is."

"How is it that you are so versed in the mysteries of the feminine
soul?"

"I have not lived altogether the life of a monk, and the history of the
world is the history of women as well as of men. I am merely giving the
impression that has been made upon me."



CHAPTER VI

PHILOSOPHY AT FAULT

If Mrs. Mayburn had fears that her nephew's peace would be affected by
his exposure to the fascinations of Miss St. John, they were quite
allayed by his course for the next two or three weeks. If she had
indulged the hope that he would speedily be carried away by the charms
which seemed to her irresistible, and so give the chance of a closer
relationship with her favorite, she saw little to encourage such a hope
beyond Graham's evident enjoyment in the young girl's society, and his
readiness to seek it on all fitting occasions. He played whist
assiduously, and appeared to enjoy the game. He often spent two or
three hours with the major during the day, and occasionally beguiled
the time by reading aloud to him, but the element of gallantry toward
the daughter seemed wanting, and the aunt concluded, "No woman can
rival a book in Alford's heart--that is, if he has one--and he is
simply studying Grace as if she were a book. There is one symptom,
however, that needs explanation--he is not so ready to talk about her
as at first, and I don't believe that indifference is the cause."

She was right: indifference was not the cause. Graham's interest in
Miss St. John was growing deeper every day, but the stronger the hold
she gained upon his thoughts, the less inclined was he to speak of her.
He was the last man in the world to be carried away by a Romeo-like
gust of passion, and no amount of beauty could hold his attention an
hour, did not the mind ray through it with a sparkle and power
essentially its own.

Miss St. John had soon convinced him that she could do more than look
sweetly and chatter. She could not only talk to a university-bred man,
but also tell him much that was new. He found his peer, not in his
lines of thought, but in her own, and he was so little of an egotist
that he admired her all the more because she knew what he did not, and
could never become an echo of himself. In her world she had been an
intelligent observer and thinker, and she interpreted that world to him
as naturally and unassumingly as a flower blooms and exhales its
fragrance. For the first time in his life he gave himself up to the
charm of a cultivated woman's society, and to do this in his present
leisure seemed the most sensible thing possible.

"One can see a rare flower," he had reasoned, "without wishing to pluck
it, or hear a wood-thrush sing without straightway thinking of a cage.
Miss St. John's affections may be already engaged, or I may be the last
person in the world to secure them. Idle fancies of what she might
become to me are harmless enough. Any man is prone to indulge in these
when seeing a woman who pleases his taste and kindles his imagination.
When it comes to practical action one may expect and desire nothing
more than the brightening of one's wits and the securing of agreeable
pastime. I do not see why I should not be entirely content with these
motives, until my brief visit is over, notwithstanding my aunt's
ominous warnings;" and so without any misgivings he had at first
yielded himself to all the spells that Miss St. John might
unconsciously weave.

As time passed, however, he began to doubt whether he could maintain
his cool, philosophic attitude of enjoyment. He found himself growing
more and more eager for the hours to return when he could seek her
society, and the intervening time was becoming dull and heavy-paced.
The impulse to go back to Germany and to resume his studies was slow in
coming. Indeed, he was at last obliged to admit to himself that a game
of whist with the old major had more attractions than the latest
scientific treatise. Not that he doted on the irascible veteran, but
because he thus secured a fair partner whose dark eyes were beaming
with mirth and intelligence, whose ever-springing fountain of happiness
was so full that even in the solemnity of the game it found expression
in little piquant gestures, brief words, and smiles that were like
glints of sunshine. Her very presence lifted him to a higher plane, and
gave a greater capacity for enjoyment, and sometimes simply an arch
smile or an unexpected tone set his nerves vibrating in a manner as
delightful as it was unexplainable by any past experience that he could
recall. She was a good walker and horsewoman, and as their acquaintance
ripened he began to ask permission to join her in her rides and
rambles. She assented without the slightest hesitancy, but he soon
found that she gave him no exclusive monopoly of these excursions, and
that he must share them with other young men. Her absences from home
were always comparatively brief, however, and that which charmed him
most was her sunny devotion to her invalid and often very irritable
father. She was the antidote to his age and to his infirmities of body
and temper. While she was away the world in general, and his own little
sphere in particular, tended toward a hopeless snarl. Jinny, the
<DW52> servant, was subserviency itself, but her very obsequiousness
irritated him, although her drollery was at times diverting. It was
usually true, however, that but one touch and one voice could soothe
the jangling nerves. As Graham saw this womanly magic, which apparently
cost no more effort than the wood fire put forth in banishing
chilliness and discomfort, the thought would come, "Blessed will be the
man who can win her as the light and life of his home!"

When days passed, and no one seemed to have a greater place in her
thoughts and interest than himself, was it unnatural that the hope
should dawn that she might create a home for him? If she had a favored
suitor his aunt would be apt to know of it. She did not seem ambitious,
or disposed to invest her heart so that it might bring fortune and
social eminence. Never by word or sign had she appeared to chafe at her
father's modest competency, but with tact and skill, taught undoubtedly
by army experience, she made their slender income yield the essentials
of comfort and refinement, and seemed quite indifferent to
non-essentials. Graham could never hope to possess wealth, but he found
in Miss St. John a woman who could impart to his home the crowning
grace of wealth--simple, unostentatious elegance. His aunt had said
that the young girl had already refused more than one fortune, and the
accompanying assurance that she would marry the man she loved, whatever
might be his circumstances, seemed verified by his own observation.
Therefore why might he not hope? Few men are so modest as not to
indulge the hope to which their heart prompts them. Graham was slow to
recognize the existence of this hope, and then he watched its growth
warily. Not for the world would he lose control of himself, not for the
world would he reveal it to any one, least of all to his aunt or to her
who had inspired it, unless he had some reason to believe she would not
disappoint it. He was prompted to concealment, not only by his pride,
which was great, but more by a characteristic trait, an instinctive
desire to hide his deeper feelings, his inner personality from all
others. He would not admit that he had fallen in love. The very phrase
was excessively distasteful. To his friend Hilland he might have given
his confidence, and he would have accounted for himself in some such
way as this:--

"I have found a child and a woman; a child in frankness and joyousness,
a woman in beauty, strength, mental maturity, and unselfishness. She
interested me from the first, and every day I know better the reason
why--because she _is_ interesting. My reason has kept pace with my
fancy and my deeper feeling, and impels me to seek this girl quite as
much as does my heart. I do not think a man meets such a woman or such
a chance for happiness twice in a lifetime. I did not believe there was
such a woman in the world. You may laugh and say that is the way all
lovers talk. I answer emphatically, No. I have not yet lost my poise,
and I never was a predestined lover. I might easily have gone through
life and never given to these subjects an hour's thought. Even now I
could quietly decide to go away and take up my old life as I left it.
But why should I? Here is an opportunity to enrich existence
immeasurably, and to add to all my chances of success and power. So far
from being a drag upon one, a woman like Miss St. John would incite and
inspire a man to his best efforts. She would sympathize with him
because she could understand his aims and keep pace with his mental
advance. Granted that my prospects of winning her are doubtful indeed,
still as far as I can see there _is_ a chance. I would not care a straw
for a woman that I could have for the asking--who would take me as a
_dernier ressort_. Any woman that I would marry, many others would
gladly marry also, and I must take my chance of winning her from them.
Such would be my lot under any circumstances, and if I give way to a
faint heart now I may as well give up altogether and content myself
with a library as a bride."

Since he felt that he might have taken Hilland into his confidence, he
had, in terms substantially the same as those given, imagined his
explanation, and he smiled as he portrayed to himself his friend's
jocular response, which would have nevertheless its substratum of true
sympathy. "Hilland would say," he thought, "'That is just like you,
Graham. You can't smoke a cigar or make love to a girl without
analyzing and philosophizing and arranging all the wisdom of Solomon in
favor of your course. Now I would make love to a girl because I loved
her, and that would be the end on't.'"

Graham was mistaken in this case. Not in laughing sympathy, but in pale
dismay, would Hilland have received this revelation, for _he_ was
making love to Grace St. John because he loved her with all his heart
and soul. There had been a time when Graham might have obtained a hint
of this had circumstances been different, and it had occurred quite
early in his acquaintance with Miss St. John. After a day that had been
unusually delightful and satisfactory he was accompanying the young
girl home from his aunt's cottage in the twilight. Out of the
complacency of his heart he remarked, half to himself, "If Hilland were
only here, my vacation would be complete."

In the obscurity he could not see her sudden burning flush, and since
her hand was not on his arm he had no knowledge of her startled tremor.
All that he knew was that she was silent for a moment or two, and then
she asked quietly, "Is Mr. Warren Hilland an acquaintance of yours?"

"Indeed he is not," was the emphatic and hearty response. "He is the
best friend I have in the world, and the best fellow in the world."

Oh, fatal obscurity of the deepening twilight! Miss St. John's face was
crimson and radiant with pleasure, and could Graham have seen her at
that moment he could not have failed to surmise the truth.

The young girl was as jealous of her secret as Graham soon became of
his, and she only remarked demurely, "I have met Mr. Hilland in
society," and then she changed the subject, for they were approaching
the piazza steps, and she felt that if Hilland should continue the
theme of conversation under the light of the chandelier, a telltale
face and manner would betray her, in spite of all effort at control. A
fragrant blossom from the shrubbery bordering the walk brushed against
Graham's face, and he plucked it, saying, "Beyond that it is fragrant I
don't know what this flower is. Will you take it from me?"

"Yes," she said, hesitatingly, for at that moment her absent lover had
been brought so vividly to her consciousness that her heart recoiled
from even the slightest hint of gallantry from another. A moment later
the thought occurred, "Mr. Graham is _his_ dearest friend; therefore he
is my friend, although I cannot yet be as frank with him as I would
like to be."

She paused a few moments on the piazza, to cool her hot face and quiet
her fluttering nerves, and Graham saw with much pleasure that she
fastened the flower to her breastpin. When at last she entered she
puzzled him a little by leaving him rather abruptly at the parlor door
and hastening up the stairs.

She found that his words had stirred such deep, full fountains that she
could not yet trust herself under his observant eyes. It is a woman's
delight to hear her lover praised by other men, and Graham's words had
been so hearty that they had set her pulses bounding, for they assured
her that she had not been deceived by love's partial eyes.

"It's true, it's true," she murmured, softly, standing with dewy eyes
before her mirror. "He is the best fellow in the world, and I was blind
that I did not see it from the first. But all will yet be well;" and
she drew a letter from her bosom and kissed it.

Happy would Hilland have been had he seen the vision reflected by that
mirror--beauty, rich and rare in itself, but enhanced, illumined, and
made divine by the deepest, strongest, purest emotions of the soul.



CHAPTER VII

WARREN HILLAND

The closing scenes of the preceding chapter demand some explanation.
Major St. John had spent part of the preceding summer at a seaside
resort, and his daughter had inevitably attracted not a little
attention. Among those that sought her favor was Warren Hilland, and in
accordance with his nature he had been rather precipitate. He was
ardent, impulsive, and, indulged from earliest childhood, he had been
spoiled in only one respect--when he wanted anything he wanted it with
all his heart and immediately. Miss St. John had seemed to him from the
first a pearl among women. As with Graham, circumstances gave him the
opportunity of seeing her daily, and he speedily succumbed to the
"visitation of that power" to which the strongest must yield. Almost
before the young girl suspected the existence of his passion, he
declared it. She refused him, but he would take no refusal. Having won
from her the admission that he had no favored rival, he lifted his
handsome head with a resolution which she secretly admired, and
declared that only when convinced that he had become hateful to her
would he give up his suit.

He was not a man to become hateful to any woman. His frank nature was
so in accord with hers that she responded in somewhat the same spirit,
and said, half laughingly and half tearfully, "Well, if you will, you
will, but I can offer no encouragement."

And yet his downright earnestness had agitated her deeply, disturbing
her maiden serenity, and awaking for the first time the woman within
her heart. Hitherto her girlhood's fancies had been like summer
zephyrs, disturbing but briefly the still, clear waters of her soul;
but now she became an enigma to herself as she slowly grew conscious of
her own heart and the law of her woman's nature to love and give
herself to another. But she had too much of the doughty old major's
fire and spirit, and was too fond of her freedom, to surrender easily.
Both Graham and Mrs. Mayburn were right in their estimate--she would
never yield her heart unless compelled to by influences unexpected, at
first unwelcomed, but in the end overmastering.

The first and chief effect of Hilland's impetuous wooing was, as we
have seen, to destroy her sense of maidenly security, and to bring her
face to face with her destiny. Then his openly avowed siege speedily
compelled her to withdraw her thoughts from man in the abstract to
himself. She could not brush him aside by a quiet negative, as she had
already done in the case of several others. Clinging to her old life,
however, and fearing to embark on this unknown sea of new experiences,
she hesitated, and would not commit herself until the force that
impelled was greater than that which restrained. He at last had the
tact to understand her and to recognize that he had spoken to a girl,
indeed almost a child, and that he must wait for the woman to develop.
Hopeful, almost confident, for success and prosperity had seemingly
made a league with him in all things, he was content to wait. The major
had sanctioned his addresses from the first, and he sought to attain
his object by careful and skilful approaches. He had shown himself such
an impetuous wooer that she might well doubt his persistence; now he
would prove himself so patient and considerate that she could not doubt
him.

When they parted at the seaside Hilland was called to the far West by
important business interests. In response to his earnest pleas, in
which he movingly portrayed his loneliness in a rude mining village,
she said he might write to her occasionally, and he had written so
quietly and sensibly, so nearly as a friend might address a friend,
that she felt there could be no harm in a correspondence of this
character. During the winter season their letters had grown more
frequent, and he with consummate skill had gradually tinged his words
with a warmer hue. She smiled at his artifice. There was no longer any
need of it, for by the wood fire, when all the house was still and
wrapped in sleep, she had become fully revealed unto herself. She found
that she had a woman's heart, and that she had given it irrevocably to
Warren Hilland.

She did not tell him so--far from it. The secret seemed so strange, so
wonderful, so exquisite in its blending of pain and pleasure, that she
did not tell any one. Hers was not the nature that could babble of the
heart's deepest mysteries to half a score of confidants. To him first
she would make the supreme avowal that she had become his by a sweet
compulsion that had at last proved irresistible, and even he must again
seek that acknowledgment directly, earnestly. He was left to gather
what hope he could from the fact that she did not resent his warmer
expressions, and this leniency from a girl like Grace St. John meant so
much to him that he did gather hope daily. Her letters were not nearly
so frequent as his, but when they did come he fairly gloated over them.
They were so fresh, crisp and inspiring that they reminded him of the
seaside breezes that had quickened his pulses with health and pleasure
during the past summer. She wrote in an easy, gossiping style of the
books she was reading; of the good things in the art and literary
journals, and of such questions of the day as would naturally interest
her, and he so gratefully assured her that by this course she kept him
within the pale of civilization, that she was induced to write oftener.
In her effort to gather material that would interest him, life gained a
new and richer zest, and she learned how the kindling flame within her
heart could illumine even common things. Each day brought such a wealth
of joy that it was like a new and glad surprise. The page she read had
not only the interest imparted to it by the author, but also the far
greater charm of suggesting thoughts of him or for him; and so began an
interchange of books and periodicals, with pencillings, queries, marks
of approval and disapproval. "I will show him," she had resolved, "that
I am not a doll to be petted, but a woman who can be his friend and
companion."

And she proved this quite as truly by her questions, her intelligent
interest in his mining pursuits and the wild region of his sojourn, as
by her words concerning that with which she was familiar.

It was hard for Hilland to maintain his reticence or submit to the
necessity of his long absence. She had revealed the rich jewel of her
mind so fully that his love had increased with time and separation, and
he longed to obtain the complete assurance of his happiness. And yet
not for the world would he again endanger his hopes by rashness. He
ventured, however, to send the copy of Emerson with the quotation
already given strongly underscored. Since she made no allusion to this
in her subsequent letter, he again grew more wary, but as spring
advanced the tide of feeling became too strong to be wholly repressed,
and words indicating his passion would slip into his letters in spite
of himself. She saw what was coming as truly as she saw all around her
the increasing evidences of the approach of summer, and no bird sang
with a fuller or more joyous note than did her heart at the prospect.

Graham witnessed this culminating happiness, and it would have been
well for him had he known its source. Her joyousness had seemed to him
a characteristic trait, and so it was, but he could not know how
greatly it was enhanced by a cause that would have led to very
different action on his part.

Hilland had decided that he would not write to his friend concerning
his suit until his fate was decided in one way or the other. In fact,
his letters had grown rather infrequent, not from waning friendship,
but rather because their mutual interests had drifted apart. Their
relations were too firmly established to need the aid of
correspondence, and each knew that when they met again they would
resume their old ways. In the sympathetic magnetism of personal
presence confidences would be given that they would naturally hesitate
to write out in cool blood.

Thus Graham was left to drift and philosophize at first. But his aunt
was right: he could not daily see one who so fully satisfied the
cravings of his nature and coolly consider the pros and cons. He was
one who would kindle slowly, but it would be an anthracite flame that
would burn on while life lasted.

He felt that he had no reason for discouragement, for she seemed to
grow more kind and friendly every day. This was true of her manner,
for, looking upon him as Hilland's best friend, she gave him a genuine
regard, but it was an esteem which, like reflected light, was devoid of
the warmth of affection that comes direct from the heart.

She did not suspect the feeling that at last began to deepen rapidly,
nor had he any adequate idea of its strength. When a grain of corn is
planted it is the hidden root that first develops, and the controlling
influence of his life was taking root in Graham's heart. If he did not
fully comprehend this at an early day it is not strange that she did
not. She had no disposition to fall in love with every interesting man
she met, and it seemed equally absurd to credit the gentlemen of her
acquaintance with any such tendency. Her manner, therefore, toward the
other sex was characterized by a frank, pleasant friendliness which
could be mistaken for coquetry by only the most obtuse or the most
conceited of men. With all his faults Graham was neither stupid nor
vain. He understood her regard, and doubted whether he could ever
change its character. He only hoped that he might, and until he saw a
better chance for this he determined not to reveal himself, fearing
that if he did so it might terminate their acquaintance.

"My best course," he reasoned, "is to see her as often as possible, and
thus give her the opportunity to know me well. If I shall ever have any
power to win her love, she, by something in her manner or tone, will
unconsciously reveal the truth to me. Then I will not be slow to act.
Why should I lose the pleasure of these golden hours by seeking openly
that which as yet she has not the slightest disposition to give?"

This appeared to him a safe and judicious policy, and yet it may well
be doubted whether it would ever have been successful with Grace St.
John, even had she been as fancy free as when Hilland first met her.
She was a soldier's daughter, and could best be won by Hilland's
soldier-like wooing. Not that she could have been won any more readily
by direct and impetuous advances had not her heart been touched, but
the probabilities are that her heart never would have been touched by
Graham's army-of-observation tactics. It would scarcely have occurred
to her to think seriously of a man who did not follow her with an eager
quest.

On the other hand, as his aunt had suggested from the first, poor
Graham was greatly endangering his peace by this close study of a woman
lovely in herself, and, as he fully believed, peculiarly adapted to
satisfy every requirement of his nature. A man who knows nothing of a
hidden treasure goes unconcernedly on his way; if he discovers it and
then loses it he feels impoverished.



CHAPTER VIII

SUPREME MOMENTS

Graham's visit was at last lengthened to a month, and yet the impulse
of work or of departure had not seized him. Indeed, there seemed less
prospect of anything of the kind than ever. A strong mutual attachment
was growing between himself and his aunt. The brusque, quick-witted old
lady interested him, while her genuine kindness and hearty welcome gave
to him, for the first time in his life, the sense of being at home. She
was a woman of strong likes and dislikes. She had taken a fancy to
Graham from the first, and this interest fast deepened into affection.
She did not know how lonely she was in her isolated life, and she found
it so pleasant to have some one to look after and think about that she
would have been glad to have kept him with her always.

Moreover, she had a lurking hope, daily gaining confirmation, that her
nephew was not so indifferent to her favorite as he seemed. In her old
age she was beginning to long for kindred and closer ties, and she felt
that she could in effect adopt Grace, and could even endure the invalid
major for the sake of one who was so congenial. She thought it politic
however to let matters take their own course, for her strong good sense
led her to believe that meddling rarely accomplishes anything except
mischief. She was not averse to a little indirect diplomacy, however,
and did all in her power to make it easy and natural for Graham to see
the young girl as often as possible, and one lovely day, early in June,
she planned a little excursion, which, according to the experience of
her early days, promised well for her aims.

One breathless June morning that was warm, but not sultry, she went
over to the St. Johns', and suggested a drive to the brow of a hill
from which there was a superb view of the surrounding country. The plan
struck the major pleasantly, and Grace was delighted. She had the
craving for out-of-door life common to all healthful natures, but there
was another reason why she longed for a day under the open sky with her
thoughts partially and pleasantly distracted from one great truth to
which she felt she must grow accustomed by degrees. It was arranged
that they should take their lunch and spend the larger part of the
afternoon, thus giving the affair something of the aspect of a quiet
little picnic.

Although Graham tried to take the proposition quietly, he could not
repress a flush of pleasure and a certain alacrity of movement
eminently satisfactory to his aunt. Indeed, his spirits rose to a
degree that made him a marvel to himself, and he wonderingly queried,
"Can I be the same man who but a few weeks since watched the dark line
of my native country loom up in the night, and with prospects as vague
and dark as that outline?"

Miss St. John seemed perfectly radiant that morning, her eyes vying
with the June sunlight, and her cheeks emulating the roses everywhere
in bloom. What was the cause of her unaffected delight? Was it merely
the prospect of a day of pleasure in the woods? Could he hope that his
presence added to her zest for the occasion? Such were the questions
with which Graham's mind was busy as he aided the ladies in their
preparations. She certainly was more kind and friendly than usual--yes,
more familiar. He was compelled to admit, however, that her manner was
such as would be natural toward an old and trusted friend, but he
hoped--never before had he realized how dear this hope was
becoming--that some day she would awaken to the consciousness that he
might be more than a friend. In the meantime he would be patient, and,
with the best skill he could master, endeavor to win her favor, instead
of putting her on the defensive by seeking her love.

"Two elements cannot pass into combination until there is mutual
readiness," reasoned the scientist. "Contact is not combination. My
province is to watch until in some unguarded moment she gives the hope
that she would listen with her heart. To speak before that, either by
word or action, would be pain to her and humiliation to me."

The gulf between them was wide indeed, although she smiled so genially
upon him. In tying up a bundle their hands touched. He felt an electric
thrill in all his nerves; she only noticed the circumstance by saying,
"Who is it that is so awkward, you or I?"

"You are Grace," he replied. "It was I."

"I should be graceless indeed were I to find fault with anything
to-day," she said impulsively, and raising her head she looked away
into the west as if her thoughts had followed her eyes.

"It certainly is a very fine day," Graham remarked sententiously.

She turned suddenly, and saw that he was watching her keenly. Conscious
of her secret she blushed under his detected scrutiny, but laughed
lightly, saying, "You are a happy man, Mr. Graham, for you suggest that
perfect weather leaves nothing else to be desired."

"Many have to be content with little else," he replied, "and days like
this are few and far between."

"Not few and far between for me," she murmured to herself as she moved
away.

She was kinder and more friendly to Graham than ever before, but the
cause was a letter received that morning, against which her heart now
throbbed. She had written to Hilland of Graham, and of her enjoyment of
his society, dwelling slightly on his disposition to make himself
agreeable without tendencies toward sentiment and gallantry.

Love is quick to take alarm, and although Graham was his nearest
friend, Hilland could not endure the thought of leaving the field open
to him or to any one a day longer. He knew that Graham was deliberate
and by no means susceptible. And yet, to him, the fact conveyed by the
letter, that his recluse friend had found the society of Grace so
satisfactory that he had lingered on week after week, spoke volumes. It
was not like his studious and solitary companion of old. Moreover, he
understood Graham sufficiently well to know that Grace would have
peculiar attractions for him, and that upon a girl of her mind he would
make an impression very different from that which had led society
butterflies to shun him as a bore. Her letter already indicated this
truth. The natural uneasiness that he had felt all along lest some
master spirit should appear was intensified. Although Graham was so
quiet and undemonstrative, Hilland knew him to be possessed of an
indomitable energy of will when once it was aroused and directed toward
an object. Thus far from Grace's letter he believed that his friend was
only interested in the girl of his heart, and he determined to
forestall trouble, if possible, and secure the fruits of his patient
waiting and wooing, if any were to be gathered. At the same time he
resolved to be loyal to his friend, as far as he could admit his
claims, and he wrote a glowing eulogy of Graham, unmarred by a phrase
or word of detraction. Then, as frankly, he admitted his fears, in
regard not only to Graham, but to others, and followed these words with
a strong and impassioned plea in his own behalf, assuring her that time
and absence, so far from diminishing her mastery over him, had rendered
it complete. He entreated for permission to come to her, saying that
his business interests, vast as they were, counted as less than nothing
compared with the possession of her love--that he would have pressed
his suit by personal presence long before had not obligations to others
detained him. These obligations he now could and would delegate, for
all the wealth of the mines on the continent would only be a burden
unless she could share it with him. He also informed her that a ring
made of gold, which he himself had mined deep in the mountain's heart,
was on the way to her--that his own hands had helped to fashion the
rude circlet-and that it was significant of the truth that he sought
her not from the vantage ground of wealth, but because of a manly
devotion that would lead him to delve in a mine or work in a shop for
her, rather than live a life of luxury with any one else in the world.

For the loving girl what a treasure was such a letter! The joy it
brought was so overwhelming that she was glad of the distractions which
Mrs. Mayburn's little excursion promised. She wished to quiet the
tumult at her heart, so that she could write as an earnest woman to an
earnest man, which she could not do on this bright June morning, with
her heart keeping tune with every bird that sang. Such a response as
she then might have made would have been the one he would have welcomed
most, but she did not think so. "I would not for the world have him
know how my head is turned," she had laughingly assured herself, not
dreaming that such an admission would disturb his equilibrium to a far
greater degree.

"After a day," she thought, "out of doors with Mrs. Mayburn's genial
common-sense and Mr. Graham's cool, half-cynical philosophy to steady
me, I shall be sane enough to answer."

They were soon bowling away in a strong, three-seated rockaway, well
suited to country roads, Graham driving, with the object of his
thoughts and hopes beside him. Mrs. Mayburn and the major occupied the
back seat, while Jinny, with a capacious hamper, was in the middle
seat, and in the estimation of the diplomatic aunt made a good screen
and division.

All seemed to promise well for her schemes, for the young people
appeared to be getting on wonderfully together. There was a constant
succession of jest and repartee. Grace was cordiality itself; and in
Graham's eyes that morning there was coming an expression of which he
may not have been fully aware, or which at last he would permit to be
seen. Indeed, he was yielding rapidly to the spell of her beauty and
the charm of her mind and manner. He was conscious of a strange,
exquisite exhilaration. Every nerve in his body seemed alive to her
presence, while the refined and delicate curves of her cheek and throat
gave a pleasure which no statue in the galleries of Europe had ever
imparted.

He wondered at all this, for to him it was indeed a new experience. His
past with its hopes and ambitions seemed to have floated away to an
indefinite distance, and he to have awakened to a new life--a new phase
of existence. In the exaltation of the hour he felt that, whatever
might be the result, he had received a revelation of capabilities in
his nature of which he had not dreamed, and which at the time promised
to compensate for any consequent reaction. He exulted in his human
organism as a master in music might rejoice over the discovery of an
instrument fitted to respond perfectly to his genius. Indeed, the
thought crossed his mind more than once that day that the marvel of
marvels was that mere clay could be so highly organized. It was not his
thrilling nerves alone which suggested this thought, or the pure mobile
face of the young girl, so far removed from any suggestion of
earthliness, but a new feeling, developing in his heart, that seemed so
deep and strong as to be deathless.

They reached their destination in safety. The June sunlight would have
made any place attractive, but the brow of the swelling hill with its
wide outlook, its background of grove and intervening vistas, left
nothing to be desired. The horses were soon contentedly munching their
oats, and yet their stamping feet and switching tails indicated that
even for the brute creation there is ever some alloy. Graham, however,
thought that fortune had at last given him one perfect day. There was
no perceptible cloud. The present was so eminently satisfactory that it
banished the past, or, if remembered, it served as a foil. The future
promised a chance for happiness that seemed immeasurable, although the
horizon of his brief existence was so near; for he felt that with her
as his own, human life with all its limitations was a richer gift than
he had ever imagined possible. And yet, like a slight and scarcely
heard discord, the thought would come occasionally, "Since so much is
possible, more ought to be possible. With such immense capability for
life as I am conscious of to-day, how is it that this life is but a
passing and perishing manifestation?"

Such impressions took no definite form, however, but merely passed
through the dim background of his consciousness, while he gave his
whole soul to the effort to make the day one that from its unalloyed
pleasure could not fail to recall him to the memory of Miss St. John.
He believed himself to be successful, for he felt as if inspired. He
was ready with a quick reply to all her mirthful sallies, and he had
the tact to veil his delicate flattery under a manner and mode of
speech that suggested rather than revealed his admiration. She was
honestly delighted with him and his regard, as she understood it, and
she congratulated herself again and again that Hilland's friend was a
man that she also would find unusually agreeable. His kindness to her
father had warmed her heart toward him, and now his kindness and
interest were genuine, although at first somewhat hollow and assumed.

Graham had become a decided favorite with the old gentleman, for he had
proved the most efficient ally that Grace had ever gained in quickening
the pace of heavy-footed Time. Even the veteran's chilled blood seemed
to feel the influences of the day, and his gallantry toward Mrs.
Mayburn was more pronounced than usual. "We, too, will be young people
once more," he remarked, "for the opportunity may not come to us again."

They discussed their lunch with zest, they smiled into one another's
face, and indulged in little pleasantries that were as light and
passing as the zephyrs that occasionally fluttered the leaves above
their heads; but deep in each heart were memories, tides of thought,
hopes, fears, joys, that form the tragic background of all human life.
The old major gave some reminiscences of his youthful campaigning. In
his cheerful mood his presentation of them was in harmony with the
sunny afternoon. The bright sides of his experiences were toward his
auditors, but what dark shadows of wounds, agony, and death were on the
further side! And of these he could never be quite unconscious, even
while awakening laughter at the comic episodes of war.

Mrs. Mayburn seemed her plain-spoken, cheery self, intent only on
making the most of this genial hour in the autumn of her life, and yet
she was watching over a hope that she felt might make her last days her
best days. She was almost praying that the fair girl whom she had so
learned to love might become the solace of her age, and fill, in her
childless heart, a place that had ever been an aching void. Miss St.
John was too preoccupied to see any lover but one, and he was ever
present, though thousands of miles away. But she saw in Graham his
friend, and had already accepted him also as her most agreeable friend,
liking him all the better for his apparent disposition to appeal only
to her fancy and reason, instead of her heart. She saw well enough that
he liked her exceedingly, but Hilland's impetuous wooing and
impassioned words had made her feel that there was an infinite
difference between liking and loving; and she pictured to herself the
pleasure they would both enjoy when finding that their seemingly chance
acquaintance was but preparation for the closer ties which their
several relations to Hilland could not fail to occasion.

The object of this kindly but most temperate regard smiled into her
eyes, chatted easily on any topic suggested, and appeared entirely
satisfied; but was all the while conscious of a growing need which,
denied, would impoverish his life, making it, brief even as he deemed
it to be, an intolerable burden. But on this summer afternoon hope was
in the ascendant, and he saw no reason why the craving of all that was
best and noblest in his nature should not be met. When a supreme
affection first masters the heart it often carries with it a certain
assurance that there must be a response, that when so much is given by
a subtle, irresistible, unexpected impulse, the one receiving should,
sooner or later, by some law of correspondence, be inclined to return a
similar regard. All living things in nature, when not interfered with,
at the right time and in the right way, sought and found what was
essential to the completion of their life, and he was a part of nature.
According to the law of his own individuality he had yielded to Miss
St. John's power. His reason had kept pace with his heart. He had
advanced to his present attitude toward her like a man, and had not
been driven to it by the passion of an animal. Therefore he was
hopeful, self-complacent, and resolute. He not only proposed to win the
girl he loved, cost what it might in time and effort, but in the
exalted mood of the hour felt that he could and must win her.

She, all unconscious, smiled genially, and indeed seemed the very
embodiment of mirth. Her talk was brilliant, yet interspersed with
strange lapses that began to puzzle him. Meanwhile she scarcely saw
him, gave him but the passing attention with which one looks up from an
absorbing story, and all the time the letter against which her heart
pressed seemed alive and endowed with the power to make each throb more
glad and full of deep content.

How isolated and inscrutable is the mystery of each human life! Here
were four people strongly interested in each other and most friendly,
between whom was a constant interchange of word and glance, and yet
their thought and feeling were flowing in strong diverse currents,
unseen and unsuspected.

As the day declined they all grew more silent and abstracted. Deeper
shadows crept into the vistas of memory with the old, and those who had
become but memories were with them again as they had been on like June
days half a century before. With the young the future, outlined by
hope, took forms so absorbing that the present was forgotten.
Ostensibly they were looking off at the wide and diversified landscape;
in reality they were contemplating the more varied experiences, actual
and possible, of life.

At last the major complained querulously that he was growing chilly.
The shadow in which he shivered was not caused by the sinking sun.

The hint was taken at once, and in a few moments they were on their way
homeward. The old sportive humor of the morning did not return. The
major was the aged invalid again. Mrs. Mayburn and Graham were
perplexed, for Grace had seemingly become remote from them all. She was
as kind as ever; indeed her manner was characterized by an unusual
gentleness; but they could not but see that her thoughts were not with
them. The first tumultuous torrent of her joy had passed, and with it
her girlhood. Now, as an earnest woman, she was approaching the hour of
her betrothal, when she would write words that would bind her to
another and give direction to all her destiny. Her form was at Graham's
side; the woman was not there. Whither and to whom had she gone? The
question caused him to turn pale with fear.

"Miss Grace," he said at last, and there was a tinge of reproach in his
voice, "where are you? You left us some time since," and he turned and
tried to look searchingly into her eyes.

She met his without confusion or rise in color. Her feelings had become
so deep and earnest, so truly those of a woman standing on the assured
ground of fealty to another, that she was beyond her former girlish
sensitiveness and its quick, involuntary manifestations. She said
gently, "Pardon me, Mr. Graham, for my unsocial abstraction. You
deserve better treatment for all your efforts for our enjoyment to-day."

"Please do not come back on compulsion," he said. "I do not think I am
a natural Paul Pry, but I would like to know where you have been."

"I will tell you some day," she said, with a smile that was so friendly
that his heart sprang up in renewed hope. Then, as if remembering what
was due to him and the others, she buried her thoughts deep in her
heart until she could be alone with them and their object. And yet her
secret joy, like a hidden fire, tinged all her words with a kindly
warmth. Graham and his aunt were not only pleased but also perplexed,
for both were conscious of something in Grace's manner which they could
not understand. Mrs. Mayburn was sanguine that her June-day strategy
was bringing forth the much-desired results; her nephew only hoped.
They all parted with cordial words, which gave slight hint of that
which was supreme in each mind.



CHAPTER IX

THE REVELATION

Graham found letters which required his absence for a day or two, and
it seemed to him eminently fitting that he should go over in the
evening and say good-by to Miss St. John. Indeed he was disposed to say
more, if the opportunity offered. His hopes sank as he saw that the
first floor was darkened, and in answer to his summons Jinny informed
him that the major and Miss Grace were "po'ful tired" and had withdrawn
to their rooms. He trembled to find how deep was his disappointment,
and understood as never before that his old self had ceased to exist. A
month since no one was essential to him; now his being had become
complex. Then he could have crossed the ocean with a few easily spoken
farewells; now he could not go away for a few hours without feeling
that he must see one who was then a stranger. The meaning of this was
all too plain, and as he walked away in the June starlight he admitted
it fully. Another life had become essential to his own. And still he
clung to his old philosophy, muttering, "If this be true, why will not
my life become as needful to her?" His theory, like many another, was a
product of wishes rather than an induction from facts.

When he returned after a long ramble, the light still burning in Miss
St. John's window did not harmonize with the story of the young girl's
fatigue. The faint rays, however, could reveal nothing, although they
had illumined page after page traced full of words of such vital import
to him.

Mrs. Mayburn shared his early breakfast, and before he took his leave
he tried to say in an easy, natural manner:

"Please make my adieus to Miss St. John, and say I called to present
them in person, but it seemed she had retired with the birds. The
 divinity informed me that she was 'po'ful tired,' and I hope
you will express my regret that the day proved so exceedingly
wearisome." Mrs. Mayburn lifted her keen gray eyes to her nephew's
face, and a slow rising flush appeared under her scrutiny. Then she
said gently, "That's a long speech, Alford, but I don't think it
expresses your meaning. If I give your cordial good-by to Grace and
tell her that you hope soon to see her again, shall I not better carry
out your wishes?"

"Yes," was the grave and candid reply.

"I believe you are in earnest now."

"I am, indeed," he replied, almost solemnly, and with these vague yet
significant words they came to an understanding.

Three days elapsed, and still Graham's business was not completed. In
his impatience he left it unfinished and returned. How his heart
bounded as he saw the familiar cottage! With hasty steps he passed up
the path from the street. It was just such another evening as that
which had smiled upon his first coming to his aunt's residence, only
now there was summer warmth in the air, and the richer, fuller promise
of the year. The fragrance that filled the air, if less delicate, was
more penetrating, and came from flowers that had absorbed the sun's
strengthening rays. If there was less of spring's ecstasy in the song
of the birds, there was now in their notes that which was in truer
accord with Graham's mood.

At a turn of the path he stopped short, for on the rustic seat beneath
the apple-tree he saw Miss St. John reading a letter; then he went
forward to greet her, almost impetuously, with a glow in his face and a
light in his eyes which no one had ever seen before. She rose to meet
him, and there was an answering gladness in her face which made her
seem divine to him.

"You are welcome," she said cordially. "We have all missed you more
than we dare tell you;" and she gave his hand a warm, strong pressure.

The cool, even-pulsed man, who as a boy had learned to hide his
feelings, was for a moment unable to speak. His own intense emotion,
his all-absorbing hope, blinded him to the character of her greeting,
and led him to give it a meaning it did not possess. She, equally
preoccupied with her one thought, looked at him for a moment in
surprise, and then cried, "He has told you--has written?"

"He! who?" Graham exclaimed with a blanching face.

"Why, Warren Hilland, your friend. I told you I would tell you, but I
could not before I told him," she faltered.

He took an uncertain step or two to the tree, and leaned against it for
support.

The young girl dropped the letter and clasped her hands in her
distress. "It was on the drive--our return, you remember," she began
incoherently. "You asked where my thoughts were, and I said I would
tell you soon. Oh! we have both been blind. I am so--so sorry."

Graham's face and manner had indeed been an unmistakable revelation,
and the frank, generous girl waited for no conventional acknowledgment
before uttering what was uppermost in her heart.

By an effort which evidently taxed every atom of his manhood, Graham
gained self-control, and said quietly, "Miss St. John, I think better
of myself for having loved you. If I had known! But you are not to
blame. It is I who have been blind, for you have never shown other than
the kindly regard which was most natural, knowing that I was Hilland's
friend. I have not been frank either, or I should have learned the
truth long ago. I disguised the growing interest I felt in you from the
first, fearing I should lose my chance if you understood me too early.
I am Hilland's friend. No one living now knows him better than I do,
and from the depths of my heart I congratulate you. He is the best and
truest man that ever lived."

"Will you not be my friend, also?" she faltered.

He looked at her earnestly as he replied, "Yes, for life."

"You will feel differently soon," said the young girl, trying to smile
reassuringly. "You will see that it has all been a mistake, a
misunderstanding; and when your friend returns we will have the
merriest, happiest times together."

"Could you soon feel differently?" he asked.

"Oh! why did you say that?" she moaned, burying her face in her hands.
"If you will suffer even in a small degree as I should!"

Her distress was so evident and deep that he stood erect and stepped
toward her. "Why are you so moved, Miss St. John?" he asked. "I have
merely paid you the highest compliment within my power."

Her hands dropped from her face, and she turned away, but not so
quickly as to hide the tears that dimmed her lustrous eyes. His lip
quivered for a moment at the sight of them, but she did not see this.

"You have merely paid me a compliment," she repeated in a low tone.

The lines of his mouth were firm now, his face grave and composed, and
in his gray eyes only a close observer might have seen that an
indomitable will was resuming sway. "Certainly," he continued, "and
such compliments you have received before and would often again were
you free to receive them. I cannot help remembering that there is
nothing unique in this episode."

She turned and looked at him doubtingly, as she said with hesitation,
"You then regard your--your--"

"My vacation experience," he supplied.

Her eyes widened in what resembled indignant surprise, and her tones
grew a little cold and constrained as she again repeated his words.

"You then regard your experience as a vacation episode."

"Do not for a moment think I have been insincere," he said, with strong
emphasis, "or that I should not have esteemed it the chief honor of my
life had I been successful--"

"As to that," she interrupted, "there are so many other honors that a
man can win."

"Assuredly. Pardon me, Miss St. John, but I am sure you have had to
inflict similar disappointments before. Did not the men survive?"

The girl broke out into a laugh in which there was a trace of
bitterness. "Survive!" she cried. "Indeed they did. One is already
married, and another I happen to know is engaged. I'm sure I'm glad,
however. Your logic is plain and forcible, Mr. Graham, and you relieve
my mind greatly. Men must be different from women."

"Undoubtedly."

"What did you mean by asking me, 'Could you soon feel differently?'"

He hesitated a moment and flushed slightly, then queried with a smile,
"What did you mean by saying that I should soon learn to feel
differently, and that when Hilland returned we should have the merriest
times together?"

It was her turn now to be confused now; and she saw that her words were
hollow, though spoken from a kindly impulse.

He relieved her by continuing: "You probably spoke from an instinctive
estimate of me. You remembered what a cool and wary suitor I had been.
Your father would say that I had adopted an-army-of-observation
tactics, and I might have remembered that such armies rarely accomplish
much. I waited for you to show some sign of weakness, and now you see
that I am deservedly punished. It is ever best to face the facts as
they are."

"You appear frank, Mr. Graham, and you certainly have not studied
philosophy in vain."

"Why should I not take a philosophical view of the affair? In my
policy, which I thought so safe and astute, I blundered. If from the
first I had manifested the feeling"--the young girl smiled slightly at
the word--"which you inspired, you would soon have taught me the wisdom
of repressing its growth. Thus you see that you have not the slightest
reason for self-censure; and I can go on my way, at least a wiser man."

She bowed gracefully, as she said with a laugh, "I am now beginning to
understand that Mr. Graham can scarcely regret anything which adds to
his stores of wisdom, and certainly not so slight an 'affair' as a
'vacation episode.' Now that we have talked over this little
misunderstanding so frankly and rationally, will you not join us at
whist to-night?"

"Certainly. My aunt and I will come over as usual."

Her brow contracted in perplexity as she looked searchingly at him for
a moment; but his face was simply calm, grave, and kindly in its
expression, and yet there was something about the man which impressed
her and even awed her--something unseen, but felt by her woman's
intuition. It must be admitted that it was felt but vaguely at the
time; for Grace after all was a woman, and Graham's apparent philosophy
was not altogether satisfactory. It had seemed to her as the interview
progressed that she had been surprised into showing a distress and
sympathy for which there was no occasion--that she had interpreted a
cool, self-poised man by her own passionate heart and boundless love.
In brief, she feared she had been sentimental over an occasion which
Graham, as he had suggested, was able to view philosophically. She had
put a higher estimate on his disappointment than he, apparently; and
she had too much of her father's spirit, and too much womanly pride not
to resent this, even though she was partially disarmed by this very
disappointment, and still more so by his self-accusation and his
tribute to Hilland. But that which impressed her most was something of
which she saw no trace in the calm, self-controlled man before her. As
a rule, the soul's life is hidden, except as it chooses to reveal
itself; but there are times when the excess of joy or suffering cannot
be wholly concealed, even though every muscle is rigid and the face
marble. Therefore, although there were no outward signals of distress,
Graham's agony was not without its influence on the woman before him,
and it led her to say, gently and hesitatingly, "But you promised to be
my friend, Mr. Graham."

His iron will almost failed him, for he saw how far removed she was
from those women who see and know nothing save that which strikes their
senses. He had meant to pique her pride as far as he could without
offence, even though he sank low in her estimation; but such was the
delicacy of her perceptions that she half divined the trouble he
sedulously strove to hide. He felt as if he could sit down and cry like
a child over his immeasurable loss, and for a second feared he would
give way. There was in his eyes a flash of anger at his weakness, but
it passed so quickly that she could scarcely note, much less interpret
it.

Then he stepped forward in a friendly, hearty way, and took her hand as
he said: "Yes, Miss St. John, and I will keep my promise. I will be
your friend for life. If you knew my relations to Hilland, you could
not think otherwise. I shall tell him when we meet of my first and
characteristic siege of a woman's heart, of the extreme and prudent
caution with which I opened my distant parallels, and how, at last,
when I came within telescopic sight of the prize, I found that he had
already captured it. My course has been so perfectly absurd that I must
laugh in spite of myself;" and he did laugh so naturally and genially
that Grace was constrained to join him, although the trouble and
perplexity did not wholly vanish from her eyes.

"And now," he concluded, "that I have experienced my first natural
surprise, I will do more than sensibly accept the situation. I
congratulate you upon it as no one else can. Had I a sister I would
rather that she married Hilland than any other man in the world. We
thus start on the right basis for friendship, and there need be no
awkward restraint on either side. I must now pay my respects to my
aunt, or I shall lose not only her good graces but my supper also;" and
with a smiling bow he turned and walked rapidly up the path, and
disappeared within Mrs. Mayburn's open door.

Grace looked after him, and the perplexed contraction of her brow
deepened. She picked up Hilland's letter, and slowly and musingly
folded it. Suddenly she pressed a fervent kiss upon it, and murmured:
"Thank God, the writer of this has blood in his veins; and yet--and
yet--he looked at first as if he had received a mortal wound,
and--and--all the time I felt that he suffered. But very possibly I am
crediting him with that which would be inevitable were my case his."

With bowed head she returned slowly and thoughtfully through the
twilight to her home.



CHAPTER X

THE KINSHIP OF SUFFERING

When Graham felt that he had reached the refuge of his aunt's cottage,
his self-control failed him, and he almost staggered into the dusky
parlor and sank into a chair. Burying his face in his hands, he
muttered: "Fool, fool, fool!" and a long, shuddering sigh swept through
his frame.

How long he remained in this attitude he did not know, so overwhelmed
was he by his sense of loss. At last he felt a hand laid upon his
shoulder; he looked up and saw that the lamp was lighted and that his
aunt was standing beside him. His face was so altered and haggard that
she uttered an exclamation of distress.

Graham hastily arose and turned down the light. "I cannot bear that you
should look upon my weakness," he said, hoarsely.

"I should not be ashamed of having loved Grace St. John," said the old
lady, quietly.

"Nor am I. As I told her, I think far better of myself for having done
so. A man who has seen her as I have would be less than a man had he
not loved her. But oh, the future, the future! How am I to support the
truth that my love is useless, hopeless?"

"Alford, I scarcely need tell you that my disappointment is bitter
also. I had set my heart on this thing."

"You know all, then?"

"Yes, I know she is engaged to your friend, Warren Hilland. She came
over in the dusk of last evening, and, sitting just where you are, told
me all. I kept up. It was not for me to reveal your secret. I let the
happy girl talk on, kissed her, and wished her all the happiness she
deserves. Grace is unlike other girls, or I should have known about it
long ago. I don't think she even told her father until she had first
written to him her full acknowledgment. Your friend, however, had
gained her father's consent to his addresses long since. She told me
that."

"Oh, my awful future!" he groaned. "Alford," Mrs. Mayburn said, gently
but firmly, "think of _her_ future. Grace is so good and kind that she
would be very unhappy if she saw and heard you now. I hope you did not
give way thus in her presence."

He sprang to his feet and paced the room rapidly at first, then more
and more slowly. Soon he turned up the light, and Mrs. Mayburn was
surprised at the change in his appearance.

"You are a strong, sensible woman," he began.

"Well, I will admit the premise for the sake of learning what is to
follow."

"Miss St. John must never know of my sense of loss--my present
despair," he said, in low, rapid speech. "Some zest in life may come
back to me in time; but, be that as it may, I shall meet my trouble
like a man. To make her suffer now--to cloud her well-merited happiness
and that of my friend--would be to add a bitterness beyond that of
death. Aunt, you first thought me cold and incapable of strong
attachments, and a few weeks since I could not have said that your
estimate was far astray, although I'm sure my friendship for Hilland
was as strong as the love of most men. Until I met you and Grace it was
the only evidence I possessed that I had a heart. Can you wonder? He
was the first one that ever showed me any real kindness. I was orphaned
in bitter truth, and from childhood my nature was chilled and benumbed
by neglect and isolation. Growth and change are not so much questions
of time as of conditions. From the first moment that I saw Grace St.
John, she interested me deeply; and, self-complacent, self-confident
fool that I was, I thought I could deal with the supreme question of
life as I had dealt with those which half the world never think about
at all. I remember your warning, aunt; and yet, as I said to myself at
the time, there was more of incentive than warning in your words, flow
self-confidently I smiled over them! How perfectly sure I was that I
could enjoy this rare girl's society as I would look at a painting or
listen to a symphony! Almost before I was aware, I found a craving in
my heart which I now know all the world cannot satisfy. That June day
which you arranged so kindly in my behalf made all as clear as the
cloudless sun that shone upon us. That day I was revealed fully unto
myself, but my hope was strong, for I felt that by the very law and
correspondence of nature I could not have such an immeasurable need
without having that need supplied. In my impatience I left my business
unfinished and returned this evening, for I could not endure another
hour of delay. She seemed to answer my glad looks when we met; she gave
her hand in cordial welcome. I, blinded by feeling, and thinking that
its very intensity must awaken a like return, stood speechless, almost
overwhelmed by my transcendent hope. She interpreted my manner
naturally by what was uppermost in her mind, and exclaimed: 'He has
told you--he has written.' In a moment I knew the truth, and I scarcely
think that a knife piercing my heart could inflict a deeper pang. I
could not rally for a moment or two. When shall I forget the
sympathy--the tears that dimmed her dear eyes! I have a religion at
last, and I worship the divine nature of that complete woman. The
thought that I made her suffer aroused my manhood; and from that moment
I strove to make light of the affair--to give the impression that she
was taking it more seriously than I did. I even tried to pique her
pride--I could not wound her vanity, for she has none--and I partially
succeeded. My task, however, was and will be a difficult one, for her
organization is so delicate and fine that she feels what she cannot
see. But I made her laugh in spite of herself at my prudent, wary
wooing. I removed, I think, all constraint, and we can meet as if
nothing had happened. Not that we can meet often--that would tax me
beyond my strength--but often enough to banish solicitude from her mind
and from Hilland's. Now you know the facts sufficiently to become a
shrewd and efficient ally. By all your regard for me--what is far more,
by all your love for her--I entreat you let me bring no cloud across
her bright sky. We are going over to whist as usual to-night. Let all
be as usual."

"Heaven bless you, Alford!" faltered his aunt, with tearful eyes.

"Heaven! what a mockery! Even the lichen, the insect, lives a complete
life, while we, with all our reason, so often blunder, fail, and miss
that which is essential to existence."

Mrs. Mayburn shook her head slowly and thoughtfully, and then said:
"This very fact should teach us that our philosophy of life is false.
We are both materialists--I from the habit of living for this world
only; you, I suppose, from mistaken reasoning; but in hours like these
the mist is swept aside, and I feel, I know, that this life cannot,
must not, be all in all."

"Oh, hush!" cried Graham, desperately. "To cease to exist and therefore
to suffer, may become the best one can hope for. Were it not cowardly,
I would soon end it all."

"You may well use the word 'cowardly,'" said his aunt in strong
emphasis; "and brave Grace St. John would revolt at and despise such
cowardice by every law of her nature."

"Do not fear. I hope never to do anything to forfeit her respect,
except it is for the sake of her own happiness, as when to-day I tried
to make her think my veins were filled with ice-water instead of blood.
Come, I have kept you far too long. Let us go through the formality of
supper; and then I will prove to you that if I have been weak here I
can be strong for her sake. I do not remember my mother; but nature is
strong, and I suppose there comes a time in every one's life when he
must speak to some one as he would to a mother. You have been very
kind, dear aunt, and I shall never forget that you have wished and
schemed for my happiness."

The old lady came and put her arm around the young man's neck and
looked into his face with a strange wistfulness as she said, slowly:
"There is no blood relationship between us, Alford, but we are nearer
akin than such ties could make us. You do not remember your mother; I
never had a child. But, as you say, nature is strong; and although I
have tried to satisfy myself with a hundred things, the mother in my
heart has never been content. I hoped, I prayed, that you and Grace
might become my children. Alford, I have been learning of late that I
am a lonely, unhappy old woman. Will you not be my boy? I would rather
share your sorrow than be alone in the world again."

Graham was deeply touched. He bowed his head upon her shoulder as if he
were her son, and a few hot tears fell from his eyes. "Yes, aunt," he
said, in a low tone, "you have won the right to ask anything that I can
give. Fate, in denying us both what our hearts most craved, has indeed
made us near akin; and there can be an unspoken sympathy between us
that may have a sustaining power that we cannot now know. You have
already taken the bitterness, the despair out of my sorrow; and should
I go to the ends of the earth I shall be the better for having you to
think of and care for."

"And you feel that you cannot remain here, Alford?"

"No, aunt, that is now impossible; that is, for the present."

"Yes, I suppose it is," she admitted, sadly.

"Come, aunty dear, I promised Miss St. John that we would go over as
usual to-night, and I would not for the world break my word."

"Then we shall go at once. We shall have a nice little supper on our
return. Neither of us is in the mood for it now."

After a hasty toilet Graham joined his aunt. She looked at him, and had
no fears.



CHAPTER XI

THE ORDEAL

Grace met them at the door. "It is very kind of you," she said, "to
come over this evening after a fatiguing journey."

"Very," he replied, laughingly; "a ride of fifty miles in the cars
should entitle one to a week's rest."

"I hope you are going to take it."

"Oh, no; my business man in New York has at last aroused me to heroic
action. With only the respite of a few hours' sleep I shall venture
upon the cars again and plunge into all the perils and excitements of a
real estate speculation. My property is going up, and 'there's a tide,'
you know, 'which, taken at its flood--'"

"Leads away from your friends. I see that it is useless for us to
protest, for when did a man ever give up a chance for speculation?"

"Then it is not the fault of man: we merely obey a general law."

"That is the way with you scientists," she said with a piquant nod and
smile. "You do just as you please, but you are always obeying some
profound law that we poor mortals know nothing about. We don't fall
back upon the arrangements of the universe for our motives, do we, Mrs.
Mayburn?"

"Indeed we don't," was the brusque response. "'When she will, she will,
and when she won't, she won't,' answers for us."

"Grace! Mrs. Mayburn!" called the major from the parlor; "if you don't
come soon I'll order out the guard and have you brought in. Mr.
Graham," he continued, as the young man hastened to greet him, "you are
as welcome as a leave of absence. We have had no whist since you left
us, and we are nearly an hour behind time to-night. Mrs. Mayburn, your
humble servant. Excuse me for not rising. Why the deuce my gout should
trouble me again just now I can't see. I've not seen you since that
juvenile picnic which seemed to break up all our regular habits. I
never thought that you would desert me. I suppose Mr. Graham carries a
roving commission and can't be disciplined. I propose, however, that we
set to at once and put the hour we've lost at the other end of the
evening."

It was evident that the major was in high spirits, in spite of his
catalogue of ills; and in fact his daughter's engagement had been
extremely satisfactory to him. Conscious of increasing age and
infirmity, he was delighted that Grace had chosen one so abundantly
able to take care of her and of him also. For the last few days he had
been in an amiable mood, for he felt that fortune had dealt kindly by
him. His love for his only child was the supreme affection of his
heart, and she by her choice had fulfilled his best hopes. Her future
was provided for and safe. Then from the force of long habit he thought
next of himself. If his tastes were not luxurious, he had at least a
strong liking for certain luxuries, and to these he would gladly add a
few more did his means permit. He was a connoisseur in wines and the
pleasures of the table--not that he had any tendencies toward excess,
but he delighted to sip the great wines of the world, to expatiate on
their age, character, and origin. Sometimes he would laughingly say,
"Never dilate on the treasures bequeathed to us by the old poets,
sages, and artists, but for inspiration and consolation give me a
bottle of old, old wine--wine made from grapes that ripened before I
was born."

He was too upright a man, however, to gratify these tastes beyond his
means; but Grace was an indulgent and skilful housekeeper, and made
their slender income minister to her father's pleasure in a way that
surprised even her practical friend, Mrs. Mayburn. In explanation she
would laughingly say, "I regard housekeeping as a fine art. The more
limited your materials the greater the genius required for producing
certain results. Now, I'm a genius, Mrs. Mayburn. You wouldn't dream
it, would you? Papa sometimes has a faint consciousness of the fact
when he finds on his table wines and dishes of which he knows the usual
cost. 'My dear,' he will say severely, 'is this paid for?' 'Yes,' I
reply, meekly. 'How did you manage it?' Then I stand upon my dignity,
and reply with offended majesty, 'Papa, I am housekeeper. You are too
good a soldier to question the acts of your superior officer.' Then he
makes me a most profound bow and apology, and rewards me amply by his
almost childlike enjoyment of what after all has only cost me a little
undetected economy and skill in cookery."

But the major was not so blind as he appeared to be. He knew more of
her "undetected" economies, which usually came out of her allowance,
than she supposed, and his conscience often reproached him for
permitting them; but since they appeared to give her as much pleasure
as they afforded him, he had let them pass. It is hard for a petted and
weary invalid to grow in self-denial. While the old gentleman would
have starved rather than angle for Hilland or plead his cause by a
word--he had given his consent to the young man's addresses with the
mien of a major-general--he nevertheless foresaw that wealth as the
ally of his daughter's affection would make him one of the most
discriminating and fastidious gourmands in the land.

In spite of his age and infirmity the old soldier was exceedingly fond
of travel and of hotel life. He missed the varied associations of the
army. Pain he had to endure much of the time, and from it there was no
escape. Change of place, scene, and companionship diverted his mind,
and he partially forgot his sufferings. As we have shown, he was a
devourer of newspapers, but he enjoyed the world's gossip far more when
he could talk it over with others, and maintain on the questions of the
day half a dozen good-natured controversies. When at the seashore the
previous summer he had fought scores of battles for his favorite
measures with other ancient devotees of the newspaper. Grace had made
Graham laugh many a time by her inimitable descriptions of the quaint
tilts and chaffings of these graybeards, as each urged the views of his
favorite journals; and then she would say, "You ought to see them sit
down to whist. Such prolonged and solemn sittings upset my gravity more
than all their _bric-a-brac_ jokes." And then she had sighed and said,
"I wish we could have remained longer, for papa improved so much and
was so happy."

The time was coming when he could stay longer--as long as he
pleased--for whatever pleased her father would please Grace, and would
have to please her husband. Her mother when dying had committed the old
man to her care, and a sacred obligation had been impressed upon her
childish mind which every year had strengthened.

As we have seen, Grace had given her heart to Hilland by a compulsion
which she scarcely understood herself. No thrifty calculations had had
the slightest influence in bringing the mysterious change of feeling
that had been a daily surprise to the young girl. She had turned to
Hilland as the flower turns to the sun, with scarcely more than the
difference that she was conscious that she was turning. When at last
she ceased to wonder at the truth that her life had become blended with
that of another--for, as her love developed, this union seemed the most
natural and inevitable thing in the world--she began to think of
Hilland more than of herself, and of the changes which her new
relations would involve. It became one of the purest sources of her
happiness that she would eventually have the means of gratifying every
taste and whim of her father, and could surround him with all the
comforts which his age and infirmities permitted him to enjoy.

Thus the engagement ring on Miss St. John's finger had its heights and
depths of meaning to both father and daughter; and its bright golden
hue pervaded all the prospects and possibilities--the least as well as
the greatest--of the future. It was but a plain, heavy circlet of gold,
and looked like a wedding-ring. Such to Graham it seemed to be, as its
sheen flashed upon his eyes during their play, which continued for two
hours or more, with scarcely a remark or an interruption beyond the
requirements of the game. The old major loved this complete and
scientific absorption, and Grace loved to humor him. Moreover, she
smiled more than once at Graham's intentness. Never had he played so
well, and her father had to put forth all his veteran skill and
experience to hold his own. "To think that I shed tears over his
disappointment, when a game of whist can console him!" she thought.
"How different he is from his friend! I suppose that is the reason that
they are such friends--they are so unlike. The idea of Warren playing
with that quiet, steady hand and composed face under like
circumstances! And yet, why is he so pale?"

Mrs. Mayburn understood this pallor too well, and she felt that the
ordeal had lasted long enough. She, too, had acted her part admirably,
but now she pleaded fatigue, saying that she had not been very well for
the last day or two. She was inscrutable to Grace, and caused no
misgivings. It is easier for a woman than for a man to hide emotions
from a woman, and Mrs. Mayburn's gray eyes and strong features rarely
revealed anything that she meant to conceal. The major acquiesced
good-naturedly, saying, "You are quite right to stop, Mrs. Mayburn, and
I surely have no cause to complain. We have had more play in two hours
than most people have in two weeks. I congratulate you, Mr. Graham; you
are becoming a foeman worthy of any man's steel."

Graham rose with the relief which a man would feel on leaving the rack,
and said, smilingly, "Your enthusiasm is contagious. Any man would soon
be on his mettle who played often with you."

"Is enthusiasm one of your traits?" Grace asked, with an arch smile
over her shoulder, as she went to ring the bell.

"What! Have you not remarked it?"

"Grace has been too preoccupied to remark anything--sly puss!" said the
major, laughing heartily. "My dear Mrs. Mayburn, I shall ask for your
congratulations tonight. I know we shall have yours, Mr. Graham, for
Grace has informed me that Hilland is your best and nearest friend.
This little girl of mine has been playing blind-man's-buff with her old
father. She thought she had the handkerchief tight over my eyes, but I
always keep One corner raised a little. Well, Mr. Graham, this dashing
friend of yours, who thinks he can carry all the world by storm, asked
me last summer if he could lay siege to Grace. I felt like wringing his
neck for his audacity and selfishness. The idea of any one taking Grace
from me!"

"And no one shall, papa," said Grace, hiding her blushing face behind
his white shock of hair. "But I scarcely think these details will
interest--"

"What!" cried the bluff, frank old soldier--"not interest Mrs. Mayburn,
the best and kindest of neighbors? not interest Hilland's alter ego?"

"I assure you," said Graham, laughing, "that I am deeply interested;
and I promise you, Miss Grace, that I shall give Hilland a severer
curtain lecture than he will ever receive from you, because he has left
me in the dark so long."

"Stop pinching my arm," cried the major, who was in one of his jovial
moods, and often immensely enjoyed teasing his daughter. "You may well
hide behind me. Mrs. Mayburn, I'm going to expose a rank case of filial
deception that was not in the least successful. This 'I came, I saw, I
conquered' friend of yours, Mr. Graham, soon discovered that he was
dealing with a race that was not in the habit of surrendering. But your
friend, like Wellington, never knew when he was beaten. He wouldn't
retreat an inch, but drawing his lines as close as he dared, sat down
to a regular siege."

Graham again laughed outright, and with a comical glance at the young
girl, asked, "Are you sure, sir, that Miss St. John was aware of these
siege operations?"

"Indeed she was. Your friend raised his flag at once, and nailed it to
the staff. And this little minx thought that she could deceive an old
soldier like myself by playing the role of disinterested friend to a
lonely young man condemned to the miseries of a mining town. I was
often tempted to ask her why she did not extend her sympathy to scores
of young fellows in the service who are in danger of being scalped
every day. But the joke of it was that I knew she was undermined and
must surrender long before Hilland did."

"Now, papa, it's too bad of you to expose me in this style. I appeal to
Mrs. Mayburn if I did not keep my flag flying so defiantly to the last
that even she did not suspect me."

"Yes," said the old lady, dryly; "I can testify to that."

"Which is only another proof of my penetration," chuckled the major.
"Well, well, it is so seldom I can get ahead of Grace in anything that
I like to make the most of my rare good fortune; and it seems, Mr.
Graham, as if you and your aunt had already become a part of our
present and prospective home circle. I have seen a letter in which
Warren speaks of you in a way that reminds me of a friend who was shot
almost at my side in a fight with the Indians. That was nearly half a
century ago, and yet no one has taken his place. With men, friendships
mean something, and last."

"Come, come," cried Mrs. Mayburn, bristling up, "neither Grace nor I
will permit such an implied slur upon our sex."

"My friendship for Hilland will last," said Graham, with quiet
emphasis. "Most young men are drawn together by a mutual liking--by
something congenial in their natures. I owe him a debt of gratitude
that can never be repaid, He found me a lonely, neglected boy, who had
scarcely ever known kindness, much less affection, and his ardent,
generous nature became an antidote to my gloomy tendencies. From the
first he has been a constant and faithful friend. He has not one
unworthy trait. But there is nothing negative about him, for he abounds
in the best and most manly qualities; and I think," he concluded,
speaking slowly and deliberately, as if he were making an inward vow,
"that I shall prove worthy of his trust and regard."

Grace looked at him earnestly and gratefully, and the thought again
asserted itself that she had not yet gauged his character or his
feeling toward herself. To her surprise she also noted that Mrs.
Mayburn's eyes were filled with tears, but the old lady was equal to
the occasion, and misled her by saying, "I feel condemned, Alford, that
you should have been so lonely and neglected in early life, but I know
it was so."

"Oh, well, aunt, you know I was not an interesting boy, and had I been
imposed upon you in my hobbledehoy period, our present relations might
never have existed. I must ask your congratulations also," he
continued, turning toward the major and his daughter. "My aunt and I
have in a sense adopted each other. I came hither to pay her a formal
call, and have made another very dear friend."

"Have you made only one friend since you became our neighbor?" asked
Grace, with an accent of reproach in her voice.

"I would very gladly claim you and your father as such," he replied,
smilingly.

The old major arose with an alacrity quite surprising in view of his
lameness, and pouring out two glasses of the wine that Jinny had
brought in answer to Grace's touch of the bell, he gave one of the
glasses to Graham, and with the other in his left hand, he said, "And
here I pledge you the word of a soldier that I acknowledge the claim in
full, not only for Hilland's sake, but your own. You have generously
sought to beguile the tedium of a crotchety and irritable old man; but
such as he is he gives you his hand as a true, stanch friend; and Grace
knows this means a great deal with me."

"Yes, indeed," she cried. "I declare, papa, you almost make me jealous.
You treated Warren as if you were the Great Mogul, and he but a
presuming subject. Mr. Graham, if so many new friends are not an
embarrassment of riches, will you give me a little niche among them?"
"I cannot give you that which is yours already," he replied; "nor have
I a little niche for you. You have become identified with Hilland, you
know, and therefore require a large space."

"Now, see here, my good friends, you are making too free with my own
peculiar property. You are already rich in each other, not counting Mr.
Hilland, who, according to Alford, seems to embody all human
excellence. I have only this philosophical nephew, and even with him
shall find a rival in every book he can lay hands upon. I shall
therefore carry him off at once, especially as he is to be absent
several days."

The major protested against his absence, and was cordiality itself in
his parting words.

Grace followed them out on the moonlit piazza. "Mr. Graham," she said,
hesitatingly, "you will not be absent very long, I trust."

"Oh, no," he replied, lightly; "only two or three weeks. In addition to
my affairs in the city, I have some business in Vermont, and while
there shall follow down some well-remembered trout-streams."

She turned slightly away, and buried her face in a spray of roses from
the bush that festooned the porch. He saw that a tinge of color was in
her cheeks, as she said in a low tone, "You should not be absent long;
I think your friend will soon visit us, and you should be here to
welcome him," and she glanced hastily toward him. Was it the moonlight
that made him look so very pale? His eyes held hers. Mrs. Mayburn had
walked slowly on, and seemingly he had forgotten her. The young girl's
eyes soon fell before his fixed gaze, and her face grew troubled. He
started, and said lightly, "I beg your pardon, Miss Grace, but you have
no idea what a picture you make with the aid of those roses. The human
face in clear moonlight reveals character, it is said, and I again
congratulate my friend without a shadow of doubt. Unversed as I am in
such matters, I am quite satisfied that Hilland will need no other
welcome than yours, and that he will be wholly content with it for some
time to come. Moreover, when I find myself among the trout, there's no
telling when I shall get out of the woods."

"Is fishing, then, one of your ruling passions?" the young girl asked,
with an attempt to resume her old piquant style of talk with him.

"Yes," he replied, laughing, so that his aunt might hear him; "but when
one's passions are of so mild a type one may be excused for having a
half-dozen. Good-by!"

She stepped forward and held out her hand. "You have promised to be my
friend," she said, gently.

His hand trembled in her grasp as he said quietly and firmly, "I will
keep my promise."

She looked after him wistfully, as she thought, "I'm not sure about
him. I hope it's only a passing disappointment, for we should not like
to think that our happiness had brought him wretchedness."



CHAPTER XII

FLIGHT TO NATURE

Graham found his aunt waiting for him on the rustic seat beneath the
apple-tree. Here, a few hours before, his heart elate with hope, he had
hastened forward to meet Grace St. John. Ages seemed to have passed
since that moment of bitter disappointment, teaching him how relative a
thing is time.

The old lady joined him without a word, and they passed on silently to
the house. As they entered, she said, trying to infuse into the
commonplace words something of her sympathy and affection, "Now we will
have a cosey little supper."

Graham placed his hand upon her arm, and detained her, as he replied,
"No, aunt; please get nothing for me. I must hide myself for a few
hours from even your kind eyes. Do not think me weak or unmanly. I
shall soon get the reins well in hand, and shall then be quiet enough."

"I think your self-control has been admirable this evening."

"It was the self-control of sheer, desperate force, and only partial at
that. I know I must have been almost ghostly in my pallor. I have felt
pale--as if I were bleeding to death. I did not mean to take her hand
in parting, for I could not trust myself; but she held it out so kindly
that I had to give mine, which, in spite of my whole will power,
trembled. I troubled and perplexed her. I have infused an element of
sorrow and bitterness into her happy love; for in the degree in which
it gives her joy she will fear that it brings the heartache to me, and
she is too good and kind not to care. I must go away and not return
until my face is bronzed and my nerves are steel. Oh, aunt! you cannot
understand me; I scarcely understand myself. It seems as if all the
love that I might have given to many in the past, had my life been like
that of others, had been accumulating for this hopeless, useless
waste--this worse than waste, since it only wounds and pains its
object."

"And do I count for so little, Alford?"

"You count for more now than all others save one; and if you knew how
contrary this utter unreserve is to my nature and habit, you would
understand how perfect is my confidence in you and how deep is my
affection. But I am learning with a sort of dull, dreary astonishment
that there are heights and depths of experience of which I once had not
the faintest conception. This is a kind of battle that one must fight
out alone. I must go away and accustom myself to a new condition of
life. But do not worry about me. I shall come back a vertebrate;" and
he tried to summon a reassuring smile, as he kissed her in parting.

That night Graham faced his trouble, and decided upon his future course.

After an early breakfast the next morning, the young man bade his aunt
good-by. With moist eyes, she said, "Alford, I am losing you, just as I
find how much you are and can be to me."

"No, aunty dear; my course will prove best for us both," he replied,
gently. "You would not be happy if you saw me growing more sad and
despairing every day through inaction, and--and--well, I could never
become strong and calm with that cottage there just beyond the trees.
You have not lost me, for I shall try to prove a good correspondent."

Graham kept his word. His "real estate speculation" did not detain him
long in the city, for his business agent was better able to manage such
interests than the inexperienced student; and soon a letter dated among
the mountains and the trout streams of Vermont assured Mrs. Mayburn
that he had carried out his intentions. Not long after, a box with a
score of superb fish followed the letter, and Major St. John's name was
pinned on some of the largest and finest. During the next fortnight
these trophies of his sport continued to arrive at brief intervals, and
they were accompanied by letters, giving in almost journal form graphic
descriptions of the streams he had fished, their surrounding scenery,
and the amusing peculiarities of the natives. There was not a word that
suggested the cause that had driven him so suddenly into the
wilderness, but on every page were evidences of tireless activity.

The major was delighted with the trout, and enjoyed a high feast almost
every day. Mrs. Mayburn, imagining that she had divined Graham's wish,
read from his letters glowing extracts which apparently revealed an
enthusiastic sportsman.

After his departure Grace had resumed her frequent visits to her
congenial old friend, and confidence having now been given in respect
to her absent lover, the young girl spoke of him out of the abundance
of her heart. Mrs. Mayburn tried to be all interest and sympathy, but
Grace was puzzled by something in her manner--something not absent when
she was reading Graham's letters. One afternoon she said: "Tell your
father that he may soon expect something extraordinarily fine, for
Alford has written me of a twenty-mile tramp through the mountains to a
stream almost unknown and inaccessible."

"Won't you read the description to us this evening? You have no idea
how much pleasure papa takes in Mr. Graham's letters. He says they
increase the gamy flavor of the fish he enjoys so much; and I half
believe that Mr. Graham in this indirect and delicate way is still
seeking to amuse my father, and so compensate him for his absence.
Warren will soon be here, however, and then we can resume our whist
parties. Do you know that I am almost jealous? Papa talks more of
Vermont woods than of Western mines. You ought to hear him expatiate
upon the trout. He seems to follow Mr. Graham up and down every stream;
and he explains to me with the utmost minuteness just how the flies are
cast and just where they were probably thrown to snare the speckled
beauties. By the way, Mr. Graham puzzles me. He seems to be the most
indefatigable sportsman I ever heard of. But I should never have
suspected it from the tranquil weeks he spent with us. He seemed above
all things a student of the most quiet and intellectual tastes, one who
could find more pleasure in a library and laboratory than in all the
rest of the world together. Suddenly he develops into the most ardent
disciple of Izaak Walton. Indeed, he is too ardent, too full of
restless activity, to be a true follower of the gentle, placid Izaak.
At his present rate he will soon overrun all Vermont;" and she looked
searchingly at her friend.

A faint color stole into the old lady's cheeks, but she replied,
quietly: "I have learned to know Alford well enough to love him dearly;
and yet you must remember that but a few weeks ago he was a comparative
stranger to me. He certainly is giving us ample proof of his
sportsmanship, and now that I recall it, I remember hearing of his
fondness for solitary rambles in the woods when a boy."

"His descriptions certainly prove that he is familiar with them," was
the young girl's answer to Mrs. Mayburn's words. Her inward comment on
the slight flush that accompanied them was: "She knows. He has told
her; or she, less blind than I, has seen." But she felt that the
admission of his love into which Graham had been surprised was not a
topic for her to introduce, although she longed to be assured that she
had not seriously disturbed the peace of her lover's friend. A day or
two later Hilland arrived, and her happiness was too deep, too
complete, to permit many thoughts of the sportsman in the Vermont
forests. Nor did Hilland's brief but hearty expressions of regret at
Graham's temporary absence impose upon her. She saw that the former was
indeed more than content with her welcome; that while his friendship
was a fixed star of the first magnitude, it paled and almost
disappeared before the brightness and fulness of her presence.
"Nature," indeed, became "radiant" to both "with purple light, the
morning and the night varied enchantments."

Grace waited for Graham to give his own confidence to his friend if he
chose to do so, for she feared that if she spoke of it estrangement
might ensue. The unsuspecting major was enthusiastic in his praises of
the successful fisherman, and Hilland indorsed with emphasis all he
said. Graham's absence and Grace's reception had banished even the
thought that he might possibly find a rival in his friend, and his
happiness was unalloyed.

One sultry summer evening in early July Graham returned to his aunt's
residence, and was informed that she was, as usual, at her neighbor's.
He went immediately to his room to remove the dust and stains of
travel. On his table still lay the marked copy of Emerson that Grace
had lent him, and he smiled bitterly as he recalled his complacent,
careless surmises over the underscored passage, now so well understood
and explained. Having finished his toilet, he gazed steadily at his
reflection in the mirror, as a soldier might have done to see if his
equipment was complete. It was evident he had not gone in vain to
nature for help. His face was bronzed, and no telltale flush or pallor
could now be easily recognized. His expression was calm and resolute,
indicating nerves braced and firm. Then he turned away with the look of
a man going into battle, and without a moment's hesitancy he sought the
ordeal. The windows and doors of Major St. John's cottage were open,
and as he mounted the piazza the group around the whist-table was in
full view--the major contracting his bushy eyebrows over his hand as if
not altogether satisfied, Mrs. Mayburn looking at hers with an interest
so faint as to suggest that her thoughts were wandering, and Hilland
with his laughing blue eyes glancing often from his cards to the fair
face of his partner, as if he saw there a story that would deepen in
its inthralling interest through life. There was no shadow, no doubt on
his wide, white brow. It was the genial, frank, merry face of the boy
who had thawed the reserve and banished the gathering gloom of a
solitary youth at college, only now it was marked by the stronger lines
of early manhood. His fine, short upper lip was clean shaven, and its
tremulous curves indicated a nature quick, sensitive, and ready to
respond to every passing influence, while a full, tawny beard and broad
shoulders banished all suggestion of effeminacy. He appeared to be,
what in truth he was, an unspoiled favorite of fortune, now supremely
happy in her best and latest gift. "If I could but have known the truth
at first," sighed Graham, "I would not have lingered here until my very
soul was enslaved; for he is the man above all others to win and hold a
woman's heart."

That he held the heart of the fair girl opposite him was revealed by
every glance, and Graham's heart ached with a pain hard to endure, as
he watched for a moment the exquisite outlines of her face, her wide,
low brow with its halo of light- hair that was in such marked
contrast with the dark and lustrous eyes, now veiled by silken lashes
as she looked downward intent on the game, now beaming with the very
spirit of mirth and mischief as she looked at her opponents, and again
softening in obedience to the controlling law of her life as she
glanced half shyly from time to time at the great bearded man on the
other side of the table.

"Was not the world wide enough for me to escape seeing that face?" he
groaned. "A few months since I was content with my life and lot. Why
did I come thousands of miles to meet such a fate? I feared I should
have to face poverty and privation for a time. Now they are my lot for
life, an impoverishment that wealth would only enhance. I cannot stay
here, I will not remain a day longer than is essential to make the
impression I wish to leave;" and with a firm step he crossed the
piazza, rapped lightly in announcement of his presence, and entered
without ceremony.

Hilland sprang forward joyously to meet him, and gave him just such a
greeting as accorded with his ardent spirit. "Why, Graham!" he cried,
with a crushing grasp, and resting a hand on his shoulder at the same
time, "you come unexpectedly, like all the best things in the world. We
looked for a letter that would give us a chance to celebrate your
arrival as that of the greatest fisherman of the age."

"Having taken so many unwary trout, it was quite in keeping to take us
unawares," said Grace, pressing forward with outstretched hand, for she
had determined to show in the most emphatic way that Hilland's friend
was also hers.

Graham took the proffered hand and held it, while, with a humorous
glance at his friend, he said: "See here, Hilland, I hold an
indisputable proof that it's time you appeared on the confines of
civilization and gave an account of yourself."

"I own up, old fellow. You have me on the hip. I have kept one secret
from you. If we had been together the thing would have come out, but
somehow I couldn't write, even to you, until I knew my fate."

"Mr. Graham," broke in the major, "if we were in the service, I should
place you in charge of the commissary department, and give you a roving
commission. I have lived like a lord for the past two weeks;" and he
shook Graham's hand so cordially as to prove his heart had sympathized
with an adjacent organ that had been highly gratified.

"I have missed you, Alford," was his aunt's quiet greeting, and she
kissed him as if he were her son, causing a sudden pang as he
remembered how soon he would bid her farewell again.

"Why, Graham, how you have improved! You have gained a splendid color
in the woods. The only trouble is that you are as attenuated as some of
the theories we used to discuss."

"And you, giddy boy, begin to look quite like a man. Miss Grace, you
will never know how greatly you are indebted to me for my restraining
influence. There never was a fellow who needed to be sat down upon so
often as Hilland. I have curbed and pruned him; indeed, I have almost
brought him up."

"He does you credit," was her reply, spoken with mirthful
impressiveness, and with a very contented glance at the laughing
subject of discussion.

"Yes, Graham," he remarked, "you were a trifle heavy at times, and were
better at bringing a fellow down than up. It took all the leverage of
my jolly good nature to bring you up occasionally. But I am glad to see
and hear that you have changed so happily. Grace and the major say you
have become the best of company, taking a human interest in other
questions than those which keep the scientists by the ears."

"That is because I have broken my shell and come out into the world.
One soon discovers that there are other questions, and some of them
conundrums that the scientists may as well give up at the start. I say,
Hilland, how young we were over there in Germany when we thought
ourselves growing hourly into _savants!_"

"Indeed we were, and as sublimely complacent as we were young. Would
you believe it, Mrs. Mayburn, your nephew and I at one time thought we
were on the trail of some of the most elusive secrets of the universe,
and that we should soon drag them from cover. I have learned since that
this little girl could teach me more than all the universities."

Graham shot a swift glance at his aunt, which Grace thought she
detected; but he turned to the latter, and said genially: "I
congratulate you on excelling all the German doctors. I know he's
right, and he'll remember the lore obtained from you long after he has
forgotten the deep, guttural abstractions that droned on his ears
abroad. It will do him more good, too."

"I fear I am becoming a subject of irony to you both," said Grace.

"They are both becoming too deep for us, are they not, Mrs. Mayburn?"
put in the major. "You obtained your best knowledge, Mr. Graham, when
you trampled the woods as a boy, and though you gathered so much of it
by hook it's like the fish you killed, rare to find. If we were in the
service and I had the power, I'd have you brevetted at once, and get
some fellow knocked on the head to make a vacancy. You have been
contributing royally to our mess, and now you must take a soldier's
luck with us to-night. Grace, couldn't you improvise a nice little
supper?"

"Please do not let me cause any such trouble this hot evening," Graham
began; "I dined late in town, and--"

"No insubordination," interrupted Grace, rising with alacrity.
"Certainly I can, papa," and as she paused near Graham, she murmured:
"Don't object; it will please papa."

She showed what a provident housekeeper she was, for they all soon sat
down to an inviting repast, of which fruit was the staple article, with
cake so light and delicate that it would never disturb a man's
conscience after he retired. Then with genial words and smiles that
masked all heartache, Graham and his aunt said good-night and departed,
Hilland accompanying his friend, that he might pour out the
long-delayed confidence. Graham shivered as he thought of the ordeal,
as a man might tremble who was on his way to the torture-chamber, but
outwardly he was quietly cordial.



CHAPTER XIII

THE FRIENDS

After accompanying Mrs. Mayburn to her cottage door, the friends
strolled away together, the sultry evening rendering them reluctant to
enter the house. When they reached the rustic seat under the
apple-tree, Hilland remarked: "Here's a good place for our--"

"Not here," interrupted Graham, in a tone that was almost sharp in its
tension.

"Why not?" asked his friend, in the accent of surprise.

"Oh, well," was the confused answer, "some one may be passing--servants
may be out in the grounds. Suppose we walk slowly."

"Graham, you seem possessed by the very demon of restlessness. The idea
of walking this hot night!"

"Oh, well, it doesn't matter," Graham replied, carelessly, although his
face was rigid with the effort; and he threw himself down on the rustic
seat. "We are not conspirators that we need steal away in the darkness.
Why should I not be restless after sitting in the hot cars all day, and
with the habit of tramping fresh upon me?"

"What evil spirit drove you into the wilderness and made you the
champion tramp of the country? It seems to me you must have some
remarkable confidences also."

"No evil spirit, I assure you; far from it. My tramp has done me good;
indeed, I never derived more benefit from an outing in the woods in my
life. You will remember that when we were boys at college no fellow
took longer walks than I. I am simply returning to the impulses of my
youth. The fact is, I've been living too idly, and of course there
would be a reaction in one of my temperament and habits. The vital
force which had been accumulating under my aunt's high feeding and the
inspiration resulting from the society of two such charming people as
Major and Miss St. John had to be expended in some way. Somehow I've
lost much of my old faith in books and laboratories. I've been thinking
a great deal about it, and seeing you again has given a strong impulse
to a forming purpose. I felt a sincere commiseration when you gave up
your life of a student. I was a fool to do so. I have studied your face
and manner this evening, and can see that you have developed more
manhood out in those Western mines, in your contact with men and things
and the large material interests of the world, than you could have
acquired by delving a thousand years among dusty tomes."

"That little girl over there has done more for me than Western mines
and material interests."

"That goes without saying; and yet she could have done little for you,
had you been a dawdler. Indeed, in that case she would have had nothing
to do with you. She recognized that you were like the gold you are
mining--worth taking and fashioning; and I tell you she is not a girl
to be imposed upon."

"Flatterer!"

"No; friend."

"You admire Grace very much."

"I do indeed, and I respect her still more. You know I never was a
lady's man; indeed, the society of most young women was a weariness to
me. Don't imagine I am asserting any superiority. You enjoyed their
conversation, and you are as clever as I am."

"I understand," said Hilland, laughing; "you had nothing in common. You
talked to a girl as if she were a mile off, and often broached topics
that were cycles away. Now, a girl likes a fellow to come reasonably
close--metaphorically, if not actually--when he chats with her.
Moreover, many that you met, if they had brains, had never cultivated
them. They were as shallow as a duck-pond, and with their small
deceits, subterfuges, and affectations were about as transparent. Some
might imagine them deep. They puzzled and nonplussed you, and you slunk
away. Now I, while rating them at their worth, was able from previous
associations to talk a little congenial nonsense, and pass on. They
amused me, too. You know I have a sort of laughing philosophy, and
everything and everybody amuses me. The fellows would call these
creatures angels, and they would flap their little butterfly wings as
if they thought they were. How happened it that you so soon were _en
rapport_ with Grace?"

"Ah, wily wretch!" Graham laughed gayly, while the night hid his
lowering brows; "praise of your mistress is sweeter than flattery to
yourself. Why, simply because she is Grace St. John. I imagine that it
is her army life that has so blended unconventionality with perfect
good breeding. She is her bluff, honest, high-spirited old father over
again, only idealized, refined, and womanly. Then she must have
inherited some rare qualities from her Southern mother: you see my aunt
has told me all about them. I once met a Southern lady abroad, and
although she was middle-aged, she fascinated me more than any girl I
had ever met. In the first place, there was an indescribable accent
that I never heard in Europe--slight, indeed, but very pleasing to the
ear. I sometimes detect traces of it in Miss St. John's speech. Then
this lady had a frankness and sincerity of manner which put you at your
ease at once; and yet with it all there was a fine reserve. You no more
feared that she would blurt out something unsanctioned by good taste
than that she would dance a hornpipe. She was singularly gentle and
retiring in her manner; and yet one instinctively felt he would rather
insult a Southern fire-eater than offend her. She gave the impression
that she had been accustomed to a chivalric deference from men, rather
than mere society attentions; and one unconsciously infused a subtle
homage in his very accent when speaking to her. Now, I imagine that
Miss St. John's mother must have been closely akin to this woman in
character. You know my weakness for analyzing everything. You used to
say I couldn't smoke a cigar without going into the philosophy of it. I
had not spent one evening in the society of Miss St. John before I saw
that she was a _rara avis_. Then her devotion to her invalid father is
superb. She enlisted me in his service the first day of my arrival.
Although old, crippled, often racked with pain, and afflicted with a
temper which arbitrary command has not improved, she beguiles him out
of himself, smiles away his gloom--in brief, creates so genial an
atmosphere about him that every breath is balm, and does it all, too,
without apparent effort You see no machinery at work. Now, this was all
a new and very interesting study of life to me, and I studied it.
There, too, is my aunt, who is quite as interesting in her way. Such
women make general or wholesale cynicism impossible, or else
hypocritical;" and he was about to launch out into as extended an
analysis of the old lady's peculiarities, when Hilland interrupted him
with a slap on the shoulder and a ringing laugh.

"Graham, you haven't changed a mite. You discourse just as of old, when
in our den at the university we befogged ourselves in the tobacco-smoke
and the denser obscurities of German metaphysics, only your theme is
infinitely more interesting. Now, when I met my paragon, Grace, whom
you have limned with the feeling of an artist rather than of an
analyst, although with a blending of both, I fell in love with her."

"Yes, Hilland, it's just like you to fall in love. My fear has ever
been that you would fall in love with a face some day, and not with a
woman. But I now congratulate you from the depths of my soul."

"How comes it that _you_ did not fall in love with one whom you admire
so much? You were not aware of my suit."

"I suppose it is not according to my nature to 'fall in love,' as you
term it. The very phrase is repugnant to me. When a man is falling in
any sense of the word, his reason is rather apt to be muddled and
confused, and he cannot be very sure where he will land. If you had not
appeared on the scene my reason would have approved of my marriage with
Miss St. John--that is, if I had seen the slightest chance of
acceptance, which, of course, I never have. I should be an egregious
fool were it otherwise."

"How about your heart?"

"The heart often leads to the sheerest folly," was the sharp rejoinder.

Hilland laughed in his good-humored way. His friend's reply seemed the
result of irritation at the thought that the heart should have much to
say when reason demurred. "Well, Graham," he said, kindly and
earnestly, "if I did not know you so well, I should say you were the
most cold-blooded, frog-like fellow in existence. You certainly are an
enigma to me on the woman question. I must admit that my heart went
headlong from the first; but when at last reason caught up, and had
time to get her breath and look the case over, she said it was 'all
right'--far better than she had expected. To one of my temperament,
however, it seems very droll that reason should lead the way to love,
and the heart come limping after."

"Many a one has taken the amatory tumble who would be glad to reason
his way up and back. But we need not discuss this matter in the
abstract, for we have too much that is personal to say to each other.
You are safe; your wonted good fortune has served you better than ever.
All the wisdom of Solomon could not have enabled you to fall in love
more judiciously. Indeed, when I come to think of it, the wisdom of
Solomon, according to history, was rather at fault in these matters.
Tell me how it all came about" (for he knew the story must come); "only
outline the tale to-night. I've been speculating and analyzing so long
that it is late; and the major, hearing voices in the grounds, may
bring some of his old army ordnance to bear on us."

But Hilland, out of the abundance of his heart, found much to say; and
his friend sat cold, shivering in the sultry night, his heart growing
more despairing as he saw the heaven of successful wooing that he could
never enter. At last Hilland closed with the words, "I say, Graham, are
you asleep?"

"Oh, no," in a husky voice.

"You are taking cold."

"I believe I am."

"I'm a brute to keep you up in this style. As I live, I believe there
is the tinge of dawn in the east."

"May every dawn bring a happy day to you, Warren," was said so gently
and earnestly that Hilland rested his arm on his friend's shoulder as
he replied, "You've a queer heart, Alford, but such as it is I would
not exchange it for that of any man living." Then abruptly, "Do you
hold to our old views that this life ends all?"

A thrill of something like exultation shot through Graham's frame as he
replied, "Certainly."

Hilland sprang up and paced the walk a moment, then said, "Well, I
don't know. A woman like Grace St. John shakes my faith in our old
belief. It seems profanation to assert that she is mere clay."

The lurid gleam of light which the thought of ceasing to exist and to
suffer had brought to Graham faded. It did seem like profanation. At
any rate, at that moment it was a hideous truth that such a creature
might by the chance of any accident resolve into mere dust. And yet it
seemed a truth which must apply to her as well as to the grossest of
her sisterhood. He could only falter, "She is very highly organized."

They both felt that it was a lame and impotent conclusion.

But the spring of happiness was in Hilland's heart. The present was too
rich for him to permit such dreary speculations, and he remarked
cordially and laughingly, "Well, Graham, we have made amends for our
long separation and silence. We have talked all the summer night. I am
rich, indeed, in such a friend and such a sweetheart; and the latter
must truly approach perfection when my dear old philosopher of the
stoic school could think it safe and wise to marry her, were all the
conditions favorable. You don't wish that I was at the bottom of one of
my mines, do you, Alford?"

Graham felt that the interview must end at once, so he rose and said,
"No, I do not. My reason approves of your choice. If you wish more, my
'queer heart, such as it is,' approves of it also. If I had the power
to change everything this moment I would not do so. You have fairly won
your love, and may all the forces of nature conspire to prosper you
both. But come," he added in a lighter vein, "Miss St. John may be
watching and waiting for your return, and even imagining that I, with
my purely intellectual bent, may regard you as a disturbing element in
the problem, and so be led to eliminate you in a quiet, scientific
manner."

"Well, then, good night, or morning, rather. Forgive a lover's
garrulousness."

"I was more garrulous than you, without half your excuse. No, I'll see
you safely home. I wish to walk a little to get up a circulation. With
your divine flame burning so brightly, I suppose you could sit through
a zero night; but you must remember that such a modicum of philosophy
as I possess will not keep me warm. There, good-by, old fellow. Sleep
the sleep of the just, and, what is better in this chance-medley world,
of the happy. Don't be imagining that you have any occasion to worry
about me."

Hilland went to his room in a complacent mood, and more in love than
ever. Had not his keen-eyed, analytical friend, after weeks of careful
observation, testified to the exceeding worth of the girl of his heart?
He had been in love, and he had ever heard that love is blind. It
seemed to him that his friend could never love as he understood the
word; and yet the peerless maiden had so satisfied the exactions of
Graham's taste and reason, and had proved herself so generally
admirable, that he felt it would be wise and advantageous to marry her.

"It's a queer way of looking at these things," he concluded, with a
shrug, "but then it is Graham's way."

Soon he was smiling in his repose, for the great joy of his waking
hours threw its light far down into the obscurity of sleep.

Graham turned slowly away, and walked with downcast face to the rustic
seat. He stood by it a moment, and then sank into it like a man who has
reached the final limit of human endurance. He uttered no sound, but at
brief intervals a shiver ran through his frame. His head sank into his
hands, and he looked and felt like one utterly crushed by a fate from
which there was no escape. His ever-recurring thought was, "I have but
one life, and it's lost, worse than lost. Why should I stagger on
beneath the burden of an intolerable existence, which will only grow
heavier as the forces of life fail?"

At last in his agony he uttered the words aloud. A hand was laid upon
his shoulder, and a husky, broken voice said, "Here is one reason."

He started up, and saw that his aunt stood beside him.

The dawn was gray, but the face of the aged woman was grayer and more
pallid. She did not entreat--her feeling seemed too deep for words--but
with clasped hands she lifted her tear-dimmed eyes to his. Her withered
bosom rose and fell in short, convulsive sobs, and it was evident that
she could scarcely stand.

His eyes sank, and a sudden sense of guilt and shame at his
forgetfulness of her overcame him. Then yielding to an impulse, all the
stronger because mastering one who had few impulses, he took her in his
arms, kissed her repeatedly, and supported her tenderly to the cottage.
When at last they reached the quaint little parlor he placed her
tenderly in her chair, and, taking her hand, he kissed it, and said
solemnly, "No, aunty, I will not die. I will live out my days for your
sake, and do my best."

"Thank God!" she murmured--"thank God!" and for a moment she leaned her
head upon his breast as he knelt beside her. Suddenly she lifted
herself, with a return of her old energy; and he rose and stood beside
her. She looked at him intently as if she would read his thoughts, and
then shook her finger impressively as she said, "Mark my words, Alford,
mark my words: good will come of that promise."

"It has come already," he gently replied, "in that you, my best friend,
are comforted. Now go and rest and sleep. Have no fear, for your touch
of love has broken all evil spells."

Graham went to his room, calmed by an inflexible resolution. It was no
longer a question of happiness or unhappiness, or even of despair; it
was simply a question of honor, of keeping his word. He sat down and
read once more the paragraph in the marked copy of Emerson, "No man
ever forgot--" He gave the words a long, wistful look, and then closed
the volume as if he were closing a chapter of his life.

"Well," he sighed, "I did my best last night not to dispel their
enchantment, for of course Hilland will tell her the substance of our
talk. Now, it must be my task for a brief time to maintain and deepen
the impression that I have made."

Having no desire for sleep, he softly paced his room, but it was not in
nervous excitement. His pulse was quiet and regular, and his mind
reverted easily to a plan of extended travel upon which he had been
dwelling while in the woods. At last he threw himself upon his couch,
and slept for an hour or two. On awaking he found that it was past the
usual breakfast hour, and after a hasty toilet he went in search of his
aunt, but was informed that she was still sleeping.

"Do not disturb her," he said to the servant. "Let her sleep as long as
she will."

He then wrote a note, saying that he had decided to go to town to
attend to some business which had been neglected in his absence, and
was soon on his way to the train.



CHAPTER XIV

NOBLE DECEPTION

In the course of the forenoon Hilland called on his friend, and was
informed that Graham had gone to the city on business, but would return
in the evening. He also learned that Mrs. Mayburn was indisposed, and
had not yet risen. At these tidings Grace ran over to see her old
friend, hoping to do something for her comfort, and the young girl was
almost shocked when she saw Mrs. Mayburn's pinched and pallid face upon
her pillow. She seemed to have aged in a night.

"You are seriously ill!" she exclaimed, "and you did not let me know.
Mr. Graham should not have left you."

"He did not know," said the old lady, sharply, for the slightest
imputation against Graham touched her keenly. "He is kindness itself to
me. He only heard this morning that I was sleeping, and he left word
that I should not be disturbed. He also wrote a note explaining the
business which had been neglected in his absence. Oh, I assure you, no
one could be more considerate."

"Dear, loyal Mrs. Mayburn, you won't hear a word against those you
love. I think Mr. Graham wonderfully considerate for a man. You know we
should not expect much of men. I have to manage two, and it keeps me
busy, but never so busy that I cannot do all in my power for my dear
old friend. I'll get your breakfast myself, and bring it to you with my
own hands, and force it upon you with the inexorable firmness of Sairy
Gamp;" and she vanished to the kitchen.

The old lady turned her face to the wall and moaned, "Oh, if it could
only have been! Why is it that we so often set our hearts on that which
is denied? After a long, dull sleep of years it seemed as if my heart
had wakened in my old age only to find how poor and lonely I am. Alford
cannot stay with me--I could not expect it--neither can Grace; and so I
must go on alone to the end. I'm punished, punished that years ago I
did not make some one love me; but I was self-sufficient then."

Her regret was deepened when Grace returned with a dainty breakfast,
and waited on her with a daughter's gentleness and tenderness, making
her smile in spite of herself at her funny speeches, and beguiling her
into enjoyment of the present moment with a witchery that none could
resist.

Presently Mrs. May burn sighed, "It's a fearfully hot day for Alford to
be in town."

"For a student," cried Grace, "he is the most indefatigable man I ever
heard of. Warren told me that they sat out there under the apple-tree
and poured out their hearts till dawn. Talk about schoolgirls babbling
all night. My comment on Warren's folly was a dose of quinine. It's
astonishing how these _savants_, these intellectual giants, need taking
care of like babies. Woman's mission will never cease as long as there
are learned men in the world. They will sit in a draught and discuss
some obscure law concerning the moons of Jupiter; but when the law
resulting in influenza manifests itself, then they learn our worth."

"Oh, dear!" groaned Mrs. Mayburn, "I didn't give Alford any quinine.
You were more provident than I."

"How could you, when you were asleep?"

"Ah, true!" was the confused reply. "But then I should have been awake.
I should have remembered that he did not come in when I did last night."

The faint color that stole into the face that had been so pale gave
some surprise to the young girl. When once her mind was directed to a
subject her intuitions were exceedingly keen.

From the time the secret of his regard for her had been, surprised from
him, Graham had been a puzzle to her. Was he the cool, philosophical
lover that he would have her think? Hilland was so frank in nature and
so wholly under her influence that it was next to impossible for him
not to share with her his every thought. She had, therefore, learned
substantially the particulars of last night's interview, and she could
not fully accept his belief that Graham's intellect alone had been
captivated. She remembered how he had leaned against the tree for
support; how pale he had been during the evening that followed; and how
his hand had trembled in parting. She remembered his sudden flight to
the mountains, his tireless energy there, as if driven on by an aching
wound that permitted no rest. True, he had borne himself strongly and
well in her presence the evening before; and he had given the friend
who knew him so well the impression that it was merely an instance of
the quiet weighing of the pros and cons, in which, after much
deliberation, the pros had won. There had been much in his course, too,
to give color to this view of the case; but her woman's instinct
suggested that there was something more--something she did not know
about; and she would have been less or more than woman had she not
wished to learn the whole truth in a matter of this nature. She hoped
that her lover was right, and that Graham's heart, in accordance with
his development theory, was so inchoate as to be incapable of much
suffering. She was not sure, however. There was something she surmised
rather than detected. She felt it now in Mrs. Mayburn's presence, and
caught a glimpse of it in the flush that was fading from her cheeks.
Had the nephew given his aunt his confidence? or had she with her ripe
experience and keen insight discovered the ultimate truth?

It was evident that while Mrs. Mayburn still loved her dearly, and
probably was much disappointed that things had turned out as they had,
she had given her loyalty to Graham, and would voluntarily neither do
nor say anything that would compromise him. The slight flush suggested
to Grace that the aunt had awaited the nephew's return in the early
dawn, and that they had spoken freely together before separating; but
she was the last one in the world to attempt to surprise a secret from
another.

Still she wished to know the truth, for she felt a little guilty over
her reticence in regard to her relations with Hilland. She, perhaps,
had made too much of the luxury of keeping her secret until it could
shine forth as the sun of her life; and Graham had been left in an
ignorance that had not been fair to him. With a growing perception of
his character, now that she had given thought to the subject, she saw
that if he had learned to love her at all, it must have been in
accordance with his nature, quietly, deliberately, even analytically.
He was the last man to fall tumultuously in love. But when he had given
it in his own way, could she be sure it was a cool, easily managed
preference that he might at his leisure transfer to another who
satisfied his reason and taste even more fully than herself? If this
were true, her mind would be at rest; and she could like Hilland's
friend heartily, as one of the most agreeable human oddities it had
been her fortune to meet. She had serious misgivings, however, which
Mrs. Mayburn's sudden indisposition, and the marks of suffering upon
her face, did not tend to banish.

Whatever the truth might be, she felt that he had shown much
thoughtfulness for her in his frankness with Hilland. He had rendered
it unnecessary for her to conceal her knowledge of his regard. She need
have no secrets, so far as he was concerned. The only question was as
to the nature of this regard. If the impression he sought to give her
lover was correct, neither of them had cause for much solicitude. If to
save them pain he was seeking to hide a deeper wound, it was a noble
deception, and dictated by a noble, unselfish nature. If the latter
supposition should prove true, she felt that she would discover it
without any direct effort. But she also felt that her lover should be
left, if possible, under the impression his friend had sought to make,
and that Graham should have the solace of thinking he had concealed his
feelings from them both.

As the long evening shadows stretched eastward across the sloping lawn
in front of the St. John cottage, the family gathered on the piazza to
enjoy the welcome respite from the scorching heat of the day.

The old major looked weary and overcome. A July sun was the only fire
before which he had ever flinched. Hilland still appeared a little
heavy from his long hot afternoon nap, his amends for the vigils of the
previous night. Grace was enchanting in her light clinging draperies,
which made her lovely form tenfold more beautiful, because clothed in
perfect taste. The heat had deepened the flush upon her cheeks, and
brought a soft languor into her eyes, and as she stood under an arch of
the American woodbine, that mantled the supports of the piazza roof,
she might easily have fulfilled an artist's dream of summer. Hilland's
eyes kindled as he looked upon her, as she stood with averted face,
conscious meanwhile of his admiration, and exulting in it. What sweeter
incense is ever offered to a woman?

"Grace," he whispered, "you would create a pulse in a marble statue
to-night. You never looked more lovely."

"There is a glamour on your eyes, Warren," she replied; and yet the
quick flash of joy that came into her face proved the power of his
words, which still had all the exquisite charm of novelty.

"It's the glamour that will last while I do," he responded, earnestly.
"Are not this scene and hour perfect? and you are the gem of it all. I
don't see how a man could ask or wish for more than I have to-night,
except that it might last forever." A shadow passed over his face, and
he added, presently, "To think that after a few weeks I must return to
those blasted mines! One thing is settled, however. I shall close out
my interests there as speedily as possible; and were it not for my
obligations to others, I'd never go near them again. I have money
enough twice over, and am a fool to miss one hour with you."

"You will be all the happier, Warren, if you close up your interests in
the West in a manly, business-like way. I always wish to be as proud of
you as I am now. What's more, I don't believe in idle men, no matter
how rich they are. I should be worried at once if you had nothing to do
but sit around and make fine speeches. You'd soon weary of the
sugar-plum business, and so should I. I have read somewhere that the
true way to keep a man a lover is to give him plenty of work."

"Will you choose my work for me?"

"No; anything you like, so it is not speculation."

"I think I'll come and be your father's gardener."

"If you do," she replied, with a decisive little nod, "you will have to
rake and hoe so many hours a day before you can have any dinner."

"But you, fair Eve, would bring your fancy-work, and sit with me in the
shade."

"The idea of a gardener sitting in the shade, with weeds growing on
every side."

"But you would, my Eve."

"Possibly, after I had seen that you had earned your bread by the
'perspiration of your brow,' as a very nice maiden lady, a neighbor of
ours, always phrases it."

"That shall be my calling as soon as I can get East again. Major, I
apply for the situation of gardener as soon as I can sell out my
interests in the mines."

"I have nothing to do with it," was the reply. "Grace commands this
post, and while here you are under her orders."

"And you'll find out, too, what a martinet I am," she added. "There's
no telling how often I'll put you under arrest and mount guard over you
myself. So!"

"What numberless breaches of discipline there will be!"

Lovers' converse consists largely in tone and glance, and these cannot
be written; and were this possible, it could have but the slenderest
interest to the reader.

After a transient pause Hilland remarked: "Think of poor Graham in the
fiery furnace of New York to-day. I can imagine what a wilted and
dilapidated-looking specimen he will be if he escapes alive--By Jove,
there he is!" and the subject of his speech came as briskly up the walk
as if the thermometer had been in the seventies instead of the
nineties. His dress was quiet and elegant, and his form erect and step
elastic.

As he approached the piazza and doffed his hat, Hilland cried: "Graham,
you are the coolest fellow I ever saw. I was just commiserating you,
and expecting you to look like a cabbage--no, rose-leaf that had been
out in the sun; and you appear just as if you had stepped from a
refrigerator."

"All a matter of temperament and will, my dear fellow. I decided I
would not be hot to-day; and I've been very comfortable."

"Why did you not decide not to be cold last night?"

"I was so occupied with your interminable yarns that I forgot to think
about it. Miss Grace, for your sake and on this evening, I might wish
that there was a coolness between us, but from your kind greeting I see
there is not. Good-evening, major; I have brought with me a slight
proof that I do not forget my friends;" and he handed him a large
package of newspapers, several of them being finely illustrated foreign
prints.

"I promote you on the spot," cried the delighted veteran. "I felt that
fate owed me some amends for this long, horrid day. My paper did not
come this morning, and I had too much regard for the lives of my
household to send any one up the hot streets after one."

"Oh, papa!" cried Grace, "forgive me that I did not discover the fact.
I'm sure I saw you reading a paper."

"It was an old one. I read it through again, advertisements and all.
Oh, I know you. You'd have turned out the whole garrison at twelve M.,
had you found it out."

Graham dropped carelessly into an easy-chair, and they all noted the
pleasure with which the old gentleman adjusted his glasses, and scanned
the pictures of the world's current history. Like many whose sight is
failing, and to whom the tastes and memories of childhood are
returning, the poor old man found increasing delight in a picture which
suggested a great deal, and aided him to imagine more; and he would
often beguile his tedium by the hour with the illustrated journals.

"Mr. Graham," said Grace, after a pause in their talk, "have you seen
your aunt since your return?"

"No," he replied, turning hastily toward her.

"She is not very well; I've been to see her twice."

He gave her a momentary but searching glance, rose instantly, and said:
"Please excuse me, then. I feel guilty that I have delayed a moment,
but this piazza was so inviting!" and he hastened away.

"Does he look and act like a man who 'hid a secret sorrow'?" whispered
Hilland, confidently. "I never saw him appear so well before."

Grace smiled, but kept her thoughts to herself. To her also Graham had
never appeared so well. There was decision in his step and slightest
movement. The old easy saunter of leisure was gone; the old half-dreamy
and slightly cynical eyes of the student showed a purpose which was
neither slight nor indefinite; and that brief, searching glance--what
else could it be than a query as to the confidences his aunt may have
bestowed during the day? Moreover, why did he avoid looking at her
unless there was distinct occasion for his glance?

She would have known too well had she heard poor Graham mutter: "My
will must be made of Bessemer steel if I can see her often as she
looked to-night and live."

In the evening Hilland walked over to call on his friend and make
inquiries. Through the parlor windows he saw Graham reading to his
aunt, who reclined on a lounge; and he stole away again without
disturbing them.

The next few days passed uneventfully away, and Graham's armor was
almost proof against even the penetration of Grace. He did not assume
any mask of gayety. He seemed to be merely his old self, with a subtle
difference, and a very unobtrusive air of decision in all his
movements. He was with his friend a great deal; and she heard them
talking over their old life with much apparent zest. He was as good
company for the major as ever, and when a whist played so good a game
as to show that he was giving it careful attention. There was a
gentleness toward his aunt that rather belied his character of stoic
philosopher. Indeed, he seemed to have dropped this phase also, and was
simply a well-bred man of the world, avoiding reference to himself, and
his past or present views, as far as possible.

To a question of Hilland's one day he replied: "No; I shall not go back
to my studies at present. As I told you the other night, my excursion
into the world has shown me the advantage of studying it more fully.
While I shall never be a Croesus like yourself, I am modestly
independent; and I mean to see the world we live in, and then shall
know better what I am studying about."

When Hilland told Grace of this purpose, she felt it was in keeping
with all the rest. It might mean what was on the surface; it might mean
more. It might be a part of the possible impulse that had driven him
into the Vermont woods, or the natural and rational step he would have
taken had he never seen her. At any rate, she felt that he was daily
growing more remote, and that by a nice gradation of effort he was
consciously withdrawing himself. And yet she could scarcely dwell on a
single word or act, and say: "This proves it." His manner toward her
was most cordial. When they conversed he looked at her steadily and
directly, and would respond in kind to her mirthful words and Hilland's
broad raillery; but she never detected one of the furtive, lingering
glances that she now remembered with compunction were once frequent. It
was quite proper that this should be so, but it was unnatural. If
hitherto she had only pleased his taste and satisfied his reason, it
would be a safe and harmless pastime for him to linger near her still
in thought and reality. If he was struggling with a passion that had
struck its root deep, then there was good reason for that steady
withdrawal from her society which he managed so naturally that no one
observed it but herself. Hilland had no misgivings, and she suggested
none; but whenever she was in the presence of Graham or Mrs. Mayburn,
although their courtesy and kind manner were unexceptionable, she felt
there was "something in the air."



CHAPTER XV

"I WISH HE HAD KNOWN"

The heat continued so oppressive that the major gave signs of
prostration, and Grace decided to take him to his old haunt by the
seashore. The seclusion of their cottage was, of course, more agreeable
to Hilland and herself under the circumstances; but Grace never
hesitated when her father was concerned. Shortly after the decision was
reached, Hilland met his friend, and promptly urged that he and Mrs.
Mayburn should accompany them.

"Certainly," was the quiet reply, "if my aunt wishes to go."

But for some cause, if not for the reasons given, the old lady was
inexorable that evening, even though the major with much gallantry
urged her compliance. She did not like the seashore. It did not agree
with her; and, what was worse, she detested hotels. She was better in
her own quiet nook, etc. Alford might go, if he chose.

But Graham when appealed to said it was both his duty and his pleasure
to remain with his aunt, especially as he was going abroad as soon as
he could arrange his affairs. "Don't put on that injured air," he
added, laughingly, to Hilland. "As if you needed me at present! You two
are sufficient for yourselves; and why should I tramp after you like
the multitude I should be?

"What do you know about our being sufficient for our-selves, I'd like
to ask?" was the bantering response.

"I have the best authority for saying what I do--written authority, and
that of a sage, too. Here it is, heavily under-scored by a hand that I
imagine is as heavy as your own. Ah! Miss Grace's conscious looks prove
that I am right," he added, as he laid the open volume of Emerson,
which he had returned, before her. "I remember reading that paragraph
the first evening I came to my aunt's house; and I thought it a very
curious statement. It made me feel as if I were a sort of polyp or
mollusk, instead of a man."

"Let me see the book," cried Hilland. "Oh, yes," he continued,
laughing; "I remember it all well--the hopes, the misgivings with which
I sent the volume eastward on its mission--the hopes and fears that
rose when the book was acknowledged with no chidings or coldness, and
also with no allusions to the marked passage--the endless surmises as
to what this gentle reader would think of the sentiments within these
black lines. Ha! ha! Graham. No doubt but this is Sanscrit; and all the
professors of all the universities could not interpret it to you."

"That's what I said in substance on the evening referred to--that
Emerson never learned this at a university. I confess that it's an
experience that is and ever will be beyond me. But it's surely good
authority for remaining here with my aunt, who needs me more than you
do."

"How is it, then, Mr. Graham, that you can leave your aunt for months
of travel?" Grace asked.

"Why, Grace," spoke up Mrs. Mayburn, quickly, "you cannot expect Alford
to transform himself into an old lady's life-long attendant. He will
enjoy his travel and come back to me."

The young girl made no answer, but thought: "Their defensive alliance
is a strong one."

"Besides," continued the old lady, after a moment, "I think it's very
kind of him to remain with me, instead of going to the beach for his
own pleasure and the marring of yours."

"Now, that's putting it much too strong," cried Hilland. "Graham never
marred our pleasure."

"And I hope he never will," was the low, earnest response. To Grace's
ear it sounded more like a vow or the expression of a controlling
purpose than like a mere friendly remark.

The next day the St. John cottage was alive with the bustle of
preparation for departure. Graham made no officious offers of
assistance, which, of course, would be futile, but quietly devoted
himself to the major. Whenever Grace appeared from the upper regions,
she found her father amused or interested, and she smiled her
gratitude. In the evening she found a chance to say in a low aside:
"Mr. Graham, you are keeping your word to be my friend. If the
sea-breezes prove as beneficial to papa as your society to-day, I shall
be glad indeed. You don't know how much you have aided me by
entertaining him so kindly."

Both her tone and glance were very gentle as she spoke these words, and
for a moment his silence and manner perplexed her. Then he replied
lightly: "You are mistaken, Miss Grace. Your father has been
entertaining me."

They were interrupted at this point, and Graham seemed to grow more
remote than ever.

Hilland was parting from his friend with evident and sincere regret. He
had made himself very useful in packing, strapping trunks, and in a
general eagerness to save his betrothed from all fatigue; but whenever
occasion offered he would sally forth upon Graham, who, with the major,
followed the shade on the piazza. Some jocular speech usually
accompanied his appearance, and he always received the same in kind
with such liberal interest that he remarked to Grace more than once,
"You are the only being in the world for whom I'd leave Graham during
his brief stay in this land."

"Oh, return to him by all means," she had said archly upon one
occasion. "We did very well alone last year before we were aware of
your existence."

"YOU may not care," was his merry response, "but it is written in one
of the oldest books of the world, 'It is not good for MAN to be alone.'
Oh, Grace, what an infinite difference there is between love for a
woman like you and the strongest friendship between man and man! Graham
just suits me as a friend. After a separation of years I find him just
the same even-pulsed, half-cynical, yet genial good fellow he always
was. It's hard to get within his shell; but when you do, you find the
kernel sweet and sound to the core, even if it is rather dry. From the
time we struck hands as boys there has never been an unpleasant jar in
our relations. We supplement each other marvellously; but how
infinitely more and beyond all this is your love! How it absorbs and
swallows up every other consideration, so that one hour with you is
more to me than an age with all the men of wit and wisdom that ever
lived! No; I'm not a false friend when I say that I am more than
content to go and remain with you; and if Graham had a hundredth part
as much heart as brains he would understand me. Indeed, his very
intellect serves in the place of a heart after a fashion; for he took
Emerson on trust so intelligently as to comprehend that I should not be
inconsolable."

"Mr. Graham puzzles me," Grace had remarked, as she absently inspected
the buttons on one of her father's vests. "I never met just such a man
before."

"And probably never will again. He has been isolated and peculiar from
childhood. I know him well, and he has changed but little in essentials
since I left him over two years ago."

"I wish I had your complacent belief about him," was her mental
conclusion. "I sometimes think you are right, and again I feel as if
some one in almost mortal pain is near me, and that I am to blame in
part."

Whist was dispensed with the last night they were together, for the
evening was close, and all were weary. Grace thought Graham looked
positively haggard; but, whether by design or chance, he kept in the
shadows of the piazza most of the time. Still she had to admit that he
was the life of the party. Mrs. Mayburn was apparently so overcome by
the heat as to be comparatively silent; and Hilland openly admitted
that the July day and his exertions had used him up. Therefore the last
gathering at the St. Johns' cottage came to a speedy end; and Graham
not only said good-night, but also good-by; for, as he explained,
business called him to town early the following morning. He parted
fraternally with Hilland, giving a promise to spend a day with him
before he sailed for Europe. Then he broke away, giving Grace as a
farewell only a strong, warm pressure of the hand, and hastened after
his aunt, who had walked on slowly before. The major, after many
friendly expressions, had retired quite early in the evening.

Grace saw the dark outline of Graham's form disappear like a shadow,
and every day thereafter he grew more shadowy to her. To a degree she
did not imagine possible he had baffled her scrutiny and left her in
doubt. Either he had quietly and philosophically accepted the
situation, or he wished her to think so. In either case there was
nothing to be done. Once away with father and lover she had HER world
with her; and life grew richer and more full of content every day.

Lassitude and almost desperate weariness were in Graham's step as he
came up the path the following evening, for there was no further reason
to keep up the part he was acting. When he greeted his aunt he tried to
appear cheerful, but she said gently, "Put on no mask before me,
Alford. Make no further effort. You have baffled even Grace, and
thoroughly satisfied your friend that all is well. Let the strain cease
now; and let my home be a refuge while you remain. Your wound is one
that time only can heal. You have made an heroic struggle not to mar
their happiness, and I am proud of you for it. But don't try to deceive
me or put the spur any longer to your jaded spirit. Reaction into new
hopes and a new life will come all the sooner if you give way for the
present to your mood."

The wise old woman would have been right in dealing with most natures.
But Graham would not give way to his bitter disappointment, and for him
there would come no reaction. He quietly read to her the evening
papers, and after she had retired stole out and gazed for hours on the
St. John cottage, the casket that had contained for him the jewel of
the world. Then, compressing his lips, he returned to his room with the
final decision, "I will be her friend for life; but it must be an
absent friend. I think my will is strong; but half the width of the
world must be between us."

For the next two weeks he sought to prepare his aunt for a long
separation. He did not hide his feeling; indeed, he spoke of it with a
calmness which, while it surprised, also convinced her that it would
dominate his life. She was made to see clearly the necessity of his
departure, if he would keep his promise to live and do his best. He
promised to be a faithful and voluminous correspondent, and she knew
she would live upon his letters. After the lapse of three weeks he had
arranged his affairs so as to permit a long absence, and then parted
with his aunt as if he had been her son.

"Alford," she said, "all that I have is yours, as you will find in my
will."

"Dear aunty," was his reply, "in giving me your love you have given me
all that I crave. I have more than enough for my wants. Forgive me that
I cannot stay; but I cannot. I have learned the limit of my power of
endurance. I know that I cannot escape myself or my memories, but new
scenes divert my thoughts. Here, I believe, I should go mad, or else do
something wild and desperate. Forgive me, and do not judge me harshly
because I leave you. Perhaps some day this fever of unrest will pass
away, When it does, rest assured you shall see me again."

He then went to the seaside resort where Hilland with the major and his
daughter was sojourning, and never had they seen a man who appeared so
far removed from the lackadaisical, disconsolate lover. His dress was
elegant, although very quiet, his step firm and prompt, and his manner
that of a man who is thoroughly master of the situation. The major was
ill from an indiscretion at the table during the preceding day, and
Grace could not leave him very long. He sent to his favorite companion
and antagonist at whist many feeling messages and sincere good wishes,
and they lost nothing in hearty warmth as they came from Grace's lips;
and for some reason, which she could scarcely explain to herself, tears
came into her eyes as she gave him her hand in parting.

He had been laughing and jesting vivaciously a moment before; but as he
looked into her face, so full of kindly feeling which she could not
wholly repress, his own seemed to grow rigid, and the hand she held was
so cold and tense as to remind her of a steel gauntlet. In the supreme
effort of his spiritual nature he belied his creed. His physical being
was powerless in the grasp of the dominant soul. No martyr at the stake
ever suffered more than he at that moment, but he merely said with
quiet emphasis, "Good-by, Grace St. John. I shall not forget my
promise, nor can there come a day on which I shall not wish you all the
happiness you deserve."

He then bowed gravely and turned away. She hastily sought her room, and
then burst into an irrepressible passion of tears. "It's all in vain,"
she sobbed. "I felt it. I know it. He suffers as I should suffer, and
his iron will cannot disguise the truth."

The friends strolled away up the beach for their final talk, and at
length Hilland came back in a somewhat pensive but very complacent
mood. Grace looked at him anxiously, but his first sentences reassured
her.

"Well," he exclaimed, "if Graham is odd, he's certainly the best and
most sensible fellow that ever lived, and the most steadfast of
friends. Here we've been separated for years, and yet, for any change
in his attitude toward me, we might have parted overnight at the
university. He was as badly smitten by the girl I love as a man of his
temperament could be; but on learning the facts he recognizes the
situation with a quiet good taste which leaves nothing to be desired.
He made it perfectly clear to me that travel for the present was only a
broader and more effective way of continuing his career as a student,
and that when tired of wandering he can go back to books with a larger
knowledge of how to use them. One thing he has made clearer still--if
we do not see each other for ten years, he will come back the same
stanch friend."

"I think you are right, Warren. He certainly has won my entire respect."

"I'm glad he didn't win anything more, sweetheart."

"That ceased to be possible long before he came, but I--I wish he had
known it," was her hesitating response, as she pushed Hilland's hair
back from his heated brow.

"Nonsense, you romantic little woman! You imagine he has gone away with
a great gaping wound in his heart. Graham is the last man in the world
for that kind of thing, and no one would smile more broadly than he,
did he know of your gentle solicitude."

Grace was silent a moment, and then stole away to her father's side.

The next tidings they had of Graham was a letter dated among the fiords
and mountains of Norway.

At times no snowy peak in that wintry land seemed more shadowy or
remote to Grace than he. Again, while passing to and fro between their
own and Mrs. Mayburn's cottage in the autumn, she would see him, with
almost the vividness of life, deathly pale as when he leaned against
the apple-tree at their well-remembered interview.



CHAPTER XVI

THE CLOUD IN THE SOUTH

The summer heat passed speedily, and the major returned to his cottage
invigorated and very complacent over his daughter's prospects. Hilland
had proved himself as manly and devoted a lover as he had been an
ardent and eventually patient suitor. The bubbling, overflowing stream
of happiness in Grace's heart deepened into a wide current, bearing her
on from day to day toward a future that promised to satisfy every
longing of her woman's heart. There was, of course, natural regret that
Hilland was constrained to spend several months in the West in order to
settle up his large interests with a due regard to the rights of
others, and yet she would not have it otherwise. She was happy in his
almost unbounded devotion; she would have been less happy had this
devotion kept him at her side when his man's part in the world required
his presence elsewhere. Therefore she bade him farewell with a heart
that was not so very heavy, even though tears gemmed her eyes.

The autumn and early winter months lapsed quietly and uneventfully, and
the inmates of the two cottages ever remembered that period of their
lives as the era of letters--Graham's from over the sea abounding in
vivid descriptions of scenes that to Mrs. Mayburn's interested eyes
were like glimpses of another world, and Hilland's, even more
voluminous and infinitely more interesting to one fair reader, to whom
they were sacred except as she doled out occasional paragraphs which
related sufficiently to the general order of things to be read aloud.

Graham's letters, however, had a deep interest to Grace, who sought to
trace in them the working of his mind in regard to herself. She found
it difficult, for his letters were exceedingly impersonal, while the
men and things he saw often stood out upon his page with vivid realism.
It seemed to her that he grew more shadowy, and that he was wandering
rather than travelling, drifting whithersoever his fancy or
circumstances pointed the way. It was certain he avoided the beaten
paths, and freely indulged his taste for regions remote and
comparatively unknown. His excuse was that life was far more
picturesque and unhackneyed, with a chance for an occasional adventure,
in lands where one was not jostled by people with guide-books--that he
saw men and women as the influences of the ages had been fashioning
them, and not conventionalized by the mode of the hour. "Chief of all,"
he concluded, jestingly, "I can send to my dear aunt descriptions of
people and scenery that she will not find better set forth in half a
dozen books within her reach."

After a month in Norway, he crossed the mountains into Sweden, and as
winter approached drifted rapidly to the south and east. One of his
letters was dated at the entrance of the Himalayas in India, and
expressed his purpose to explore one of the grandest mountain systems
in the world.

Mrs. Mayburn gloated over the letters, and Grace laughingly told her
she had learned more about geography since her nephew had gone abroad
than in all her life before. The major, also, was deeply interested in
them, especially as Graham took pains in his behalf to give some
account of the military organizations with which he came in contact.
They had little of the nature of a scientific report. The soldier, his
life and weapons, were sketched with a free hand merely, and so became
even to the ladies a picturesque figure rather than a military
abstraction. From time to time a letter appeared in Mrs. Mayburn's
favorite journal signed by the initials of the traveller; and these
epistles she cut out and pasted most carefully in a book which Grace
jestingly called her "family Bible."

But as time passed, Graham occupied less and less space in the thoughts
of all except his aunt. The major's newspaper became more absorbing
than ever, for the clouds gathering in the political skies threatened
evils that seemed to him without remedy. Strongly Southern and
conservative in feeling, he was deeply incensed at what he termed
"Northern fanaticism." Only less hateful to him was a class in the
South known in the parlance of the times as "fire-eaters."

All through the winter and spring of 1860 he had his "daily growl," as
Grace termed it; and she assured him it was growing steadily deeper and
louder. Yet it was evidently a source of so much comfort to him that
she always smiled in secret over his invective--noting, also, that
while he deplored much that was said and done by the leaders of the
day, the prelude of the great drama interested him so deeply that he
half forgot his infirmities. In fact, she had more trouble with
Hilland, who had returned, and was urging an early date for their
marriage. Her lover was an ardent Republican, and hated slavery with
New England enthusiasm. The arrogance and blindness of the South had
their counterpart at the North, and Hilland had not escaped the
infection. He was much inclined to belittle the resources of the former
section, to scoff at its threats, and to demand that the North should
peremptorily and imperiously check all further aggressions of slavery.
At first it required not a little tact on the part of Grace to preserve
political harmony between father and lover; but the latter speedily
recognized that the major's age and infirmities, together with his
early associations, gave him almost unlimited privilege to think and
say what he pleased. Hilland soon came to hear with good-natured
nonchalance his Northern allies berated, and considered himself well
repaid by one mirthful, grateful glance from Grace.

After all, what was any political squabble compared with the fact that
Grace had promised to marry him in June? The settlement of the
difference between the North and South was only a question of time, and
that, too, in his belief, not far remote.

"Why should I worry about it?" he said to Grace. "When the North gets
angry enough to put its foot down, all this bluster about State-rights,
and these efforts to foist slavery on a people who are disgusted with
it, will cease."

"Take care," she replied, archly. "I'm a Southern girl. Think what
might happen if I put my foot down."

"Oh, when it comes to you," was his quick response, "I'm the Democratic
party. I will get down on my knees at any time; I'll yield anything and
stand everything."

"I hope you will be in just such a frame of mind ten years hence."

It was well that the future was hidden from her.

Hilland wrote to his friend, asking, indeed almost insisting, that he
should return in time for the wedding. Graham did not come, and
intimated that he was gathering materials which might result in a book.
He sent a letter, however, addressed to them both, and full of a spirit
of such loyal good-will that Hilland said it was like a brother's grip.
"Well, well," he concluded, "if Graham has the book-making fever upon
him, we shall have to give him up indefinitely."

Grace was at first inclined to take the same view, feeling that, even
if he had been sorely wounded, his present life and the prospects it
gave of authorship had gained so great a fascination that he would come
back eventually with only a memory of what he had suffered. Her
misgivings, however, returned when, on seeing the letter, Mrs.
Mayburn's eyes became suddenly dimmed with tears. She turned away
abruptly and seemed vexed with herself for having shown the emotion,
but only said quietly, "I once thought Alford had no heart; but that
letter was not written 'out of his head,' as we used to say when
children."

She gave Grace no reason to complain of any lack of affectionate
interest in her preparations; and when the wedding day came she assured
the blushing girl that "no one had ever looked upon a lovelier bride."

Ever mindful of her father, Grace would take no wedding journey,
although her old friend offered to come and care for him. She knew well
how essential her voice and hand were to his comfort; and she would not
permit him to entertain, even for a moment, the thought that in any
sense he had lost her. So they merely returned to his favorite haunt by
the sea, and Hilland was loyal to the only condition in their
engagement--that she should be permitted to keep her promise to her
dying mother, and never leave her father to the care of others, unless
under circumstances entirely beyond her control.

Later in the season Mrs. Mayburn joined them at the beach, for she
found her life at the cottage too lonely to be endured.

It was a summer of unalloyed happiness to Hilland and his wife, and the
major promised to renew his youth in the warm sunlight of his
prosperity. The exciting presidential canvass afforded abundant theme
for the daily discussions in his favorite corner of the piazza, where,
surrounded by some veteran cronies whom he had known in former years,
he joined them in predictions and ominous head-shakings over the
monstrous evils that would follow the election of Mr. Lincoln. Hilland,
sitting in the background with Grace, would listen and stroke his tawny
beard as he glanced humorously at his wife, who knew that he was
working, quietly out of deference to his father-in-law, but most
effectively, in the Republican campaign. Although Southern born she had
the sense to grant to men full liberty of personal opinion--a quality
that it would be well for many of her sisterhood to imitate. Indeed,
she would have despised a man who had not sufficient force to think for
himself; and she loved her husband all the more because in some of his
views he differed radically with her father and herself.

Meantime the cloud gathering in the South grew darker and more
portentous; and after the election of President Lincoln the lightning
of hate and passion began to strike from it directly at the nation's
life. The old major was both wrong and right in regard to the most
prominent leaders of the day. Many whom he deemed the worst fanatics in
the land were merely exponents of a public opinion that was rising like
an irresistible tide from causes beyond human control--from the
God-created conscience illumined by His own truth. In regard to the
instigators of the Rebellion, he was right. Instead of representing
their people, they deceived and misled them; and, with an astute
understanding of the chivalrous, hasty Southern temper, they so wrought
upon their pride of section by the false presentation of fancied and
prospective wrongs, that loyalty to the old flag, which at heart they
loved, was swept away by the madness which precedes destruction. Above
all and directing all was the God of nations; and He had decreed that
slavery, the gangrene in the body politic, must be cut out, even though
it should be with the sword. The surgery was heroic, indeed; but as its
result the slave, and especially the master and his posterity, will
grow into a large, healthful, and prosperous life; and the evidences of
such life are increasing daily.

At the time of which I am writing, however, the future was not dreamed
of by the sagacious Lincoln even, or his cabinet, much less was it
foreseen by the humbler characters of my story. Hilland after reading
his daily journal would sit silent for a long time with contracted
brow. The white heat of anger was slowly kindling in his heart and in
that of the loyal North; and the cloud in the South began to throw its
shadow over the hearth of the happy wife.

Although Hilland hated slavery it incensed him beyond measure that the
South could be made to believe that the North would break through or
infringe upon the constitutional safeguards thrown around the
institution. At the same time he knew, and it seemed to him every
intelligent man should understand, that if a sufficient majority should
decide to forbid the extension of the slave system to new territory,
that should end the question, or else the Constitution was not worth
the paper on which it was written. "Law and order," was his motto; and
"All changes and reforms under the sanction of law, and at the command
of the majority," his political creed.

The major held the Southern view. "Slaves are property," he said; "and
the government is bound to permit a man to take his property where he
pleases, and protect him in all his rights." The point where the
veteran drew the line was in disloyalty to the flag which he had sworn
to defend, and for which he had become a <DW36> for life. As the
Secession spirit became more rampant and open in South Carolina, the
weight of his invective fell more heavily upon the leaders there than
upon the hitherto more detested abolitionists.

When he read the address of Alexander H. Stephens, delivered to the
same people on the following evening, wherein that remarkable man said,
"My object is not to stir up strife, but to allay it; not to appeal to
your passions, but to your reason. Shall the people of the South secede
from the Union in consequence of the election of Mr. Lincoln? My
countrymen, I tell you frankly, candidly, and earnestly, that I do not
think they ought. In my judgment the election of no man,
constitutionally chosen, is sufficient cause for any State to separate
from the Union. It ought to stand by and aid still in maintaining the
Constitution of the country. We are pledged to maintain the
Constitution. Many of us are sworn to support it"--when the veteran
came to these words, he sprang to his feet without a thought of his
crutch, and cried in a tone with which he would order a charge, "There
is the man who ought to be President. Read that speech."

Hilland did read it aloud, and then said thoughtfully, "Yes; if the
leaders on both sides were of the stamp of Mr. Stephens and would stand
firm all questions at issue could be settled amicably under the
Constitution. But I fear the passion of the South, fired by the
unscrupulous misrepresentations of a few ambitious men, will carry the
Cotton States into such violent disloyalty that the North in its
indignation will give them a lesson never to be forgotten."

"Well!" shouted the major, "if they ever fire on the old flag, I'll
shoulder my crutch and march against them myself--I would, by heaven!
though my own brother fired the gun." Grace's merry laugh rang out--for
she never lost a chance to throw oil on the troubled waters--and she
cried, "Warren, if this thing goes on, you and papa will stand shoulder
to shoulder."

But the time for that had not yet come. Indeed, there would ever remain
wide differences of opinion between the two men. The major believed
that if Congress conceded promptly all that the slave power demanded,
"the demagogues of the South would soon be without occupation;" while
Hilland asserted that the whole thing originated in bluster to frighten
the North into submission, and that the danger was that the unceasing
inflammatory talk might so kindle the masses that they would believe
the lies, daily iterated, and pass beyond the control of their leaders.

When at last South Carolina seceded, and it became evident that other
States would follow, the major often said with bitter emphasis that the
North would have to pay dearly for its sentiment in regard to the
<DW64>. In Hilland's case strong exultation became a growing element in
his anger, for he believed that slavery was destined to receive heavier
blows from the mad zeal of its friends than Northern abolitionists
could have inflicted in a century.

"If the South casts aside constitutional protection," he reasoned, "she
must take the consequences. After a certain point is passed, the North
will make sharp, quick work with anything that interferes with her
peace and prosperity."

"The work will be sharp enough, young man," replied the major testily;
"but don't be sure about its being quick. If the South once gets to
fighting, I know her people well enough to assure you that the
Republican party can reach its ends only through seas of blood, if they
are ever attained."

Hilland made no reply--he never contradicted the old gentleman--but he
wrote Graham a rather strong letter intimating that it was time for
Americans to come home.

Graham would not have come, however, had not Grace, who had just
returned from Mrs. Mayburn's cottage, caused a postscript to be added,
giving the information that his aunt was seriously ill, and that her
physician thought it might be a long time before she recovered, even if
life was spared.

This decided him at once; and as he thought he might never see his kind
old friend again, he bitterly regretted that he had remained away so
long. And yet he felt he could scarcely have done otherwise; for in
bitter disappointment he found that his passion, so far from being
conquered, had, by some uncontrollable law of his nature, simply grown
with time and become interwoven with every fibre of his nature.
Hitherto he had acted on the principle that he must and would conquer
it; but now that duty called him to the presence of the one whose love
and kindness formed an indisputable claim upon him, he began to reason
that further absence was futile, that he might as well go back, and--as
he promised his aunt--"do the best he could."

It must be admitted that Hilland's broad hint, that in the coming
emergency Americans should be at home, had little weight with him. From
natural bent he had ever been averse to politics. In accordance with
his theory of evolution, he believed the <DW64> was better off in his
present condition than he could be in any other. He was the last man to
cherish an enthusiasm for an inferior race. Indeed, he would have much
preferred it should die out altogether and make room for better
material. The truth was that his prolonged residence abroad had made
the questions of American politics exceedingly vague and
inconsequential. He believed them to be ephemeral to the last
degree--in the main, mere struggles of parties and partisans for power
and spoils; and for their hopes, schemes, and stratagems to gain
temporary success, he cared nothing.

He had not been an idler in his prolonged absence. In the first place,
he had striven with the whole force of a powerful will to subdue a
useless passion, and had striven in vain. He had not, however, yielded
for a day to a dreamy melancholy, but, in accordance with his promise
"to do his best," had been tireless in mental and physical activity.
The tendency to wander somewhat aimlessly had ceased, and he had
adopted the plan of studying modern life at the old centres of
civilization and power.

Hilland's letter found him in Egypt, and only a few weeks had elapsed
after its reception when, with deep anxiety, he rang the bell at his
aunt's cottage door. He had not stopped to ask for letters in London,
for he had learned that by pushing right on he could catch a fast
outgoing steamer and save some days.

The servant who admitted him uttered a cry of joy; and a moment later
his aunt rose feebly from the lounge in her sitting-room, and greeted
him as her son.



CHAPTER XVII

PREPARATION

Graham learned with deep satisfaction that the dangerous symptoms of
his aunt's illness had passed away, and that she was now well advanced
in convalescence. They gave to each other an hour or two of unreserved
confidence; and the old lady's eyes filled with tears more than once as
she saw how vain had been her nephew's struggle. It was equally clear,
however, that he had gained strength and a nobler manhood in the
effort; and so she told him.

"If supper is ready," he replied, "I'll prove to you that I am in very
fair condition."

An hour later he left her, cheerful and comparatively happy, for the
St. Johns' cottage. From the piazza he saw through the lighted windows
a home-scene that he had once dreamed might bless his life. Hilland,
evidently, was reading the evening paper aloud, and his back was toward
his friend. The major was nervously drumming on the table with his
fingers, and contracting his frosty eyebrows, as if perturbed by the
news. But it was on the young wife that Graham's eyes dwelt longest.
She sat with some sewing on the further side of the open fire, and her
face was toward him. Had she changed? Yes; but for the better. The
slight matronly air and fuller form that had come with wifehood became
her better than even her girlish grace. As she glanced up to her
husband from time to time, Graham saw serene loving trust and content.

"It is all well with them," he thought; "and so may it ever be."

A servant who was passing out opened the door, and thus he was admitted
without being announced, for he cautioned the maid to say nothing. Then
pushing open the parlor door, which was ajar, he entered, and said
quietly: "I've come over for a game of whist."

But the quietness of his greeting was not reciprocated. All rose
hastily, even to the major, and stared at him. Then Hilland half
crushed the proffered hand, and the major grasped the other, and there
came a fire of exclamations and questions that for a moment or two left
no space for answer.

Grace cried: "Come, Warren, give Mr. Graham a chance to get his breath
and shake hands with me. I propose to count for something in this
welcome."

"Give him a kiss, sweetheart," said her delighted husband.

Grace hesitated, and a slight flush suffused her face. Graham quickly
bent over her hand, which he now held, and kissed it, saying: "I've
been among the Orientals so long that I've learned some of their
customs of paying homage. I know that you are queen here as of old, and
that Hilland is by this time the meekest of men."

"Indeed, was I so imperious in old times?" she asked, as he threw
himself, quite at home, into one of the easy-chairs.

"You are of those who are born to rule. You have a way of your own,
however, which some other rulers might imitate to advantage."

"Well, my first command is that you give an account of yourself. So
extensive a traveller never sat down at our quiet fireside before. Open
your budget of wonders. Only remember we have some slight acquaintance
with Baron Munchausen."

"The real wonders of the world are more wonderful than his inventions.
Beyond that I hastened home by the shortest possible route after
receiving Hilland's letter, I have little to say."

"I thought my letter would stir you up."

"In sincerity, I must say it did not. The postscript did, however."

"Then, in a certain sense, it was I who brought you home, Mr. Graham,"
said Grace. "I had just returned from a call on Mrs. Mayburn, and I
made Warren open the letter and add the postscript. I assure you we
were exceedingly anxious about her for weeks."

"And from what she has told me I am almost convinced that she owes her
life more to you than to her physician. Drugs go but a little way,
especially at her time of life; but the delicacies and nourishing food
you saw she was provided with so regularly rallied her strength. Yes;
it was your postscript that led to my immediate return, and not
Hilland's political blast."

"Why, Graham! Don't you realize what's going on here?"

"Not very seriously."

"You may have to fight, old fellow."

"I've no objections after I have decided which side to take."

"Good heavens, Graham! you will be mobbed if you talk that way here in
New England. This comes of a man's living abroad so much that he loses
all love for his native land."

"Squabbling politicians are not one's native land. I am not a hater of
slavery as you are; and if it produces types of men and women like that
Southern lady of whom I told you, it must be an excellent institution."

"Oh, yes," cried Hilland laughing. "By the way, Grace, my cool, cynical
friend was once madly in love--at first sight, too--and with a lady old
enough to be his mother. I never heard a woman's character sketched
more tenderly; and his climax was that your mother must have closely
resembled her."

"Mr. Graham is right," said the major impressively. "The South produces
the finest women in the world; and when the North comes to meet its
men, as I fear it must, it will find they are their mothers' sons."

"Poor Warren!" cried Grace; "here are all three of us against you--all
pro-slavery and Southern in our sympathies."

 "I admit at once that the South has produced THE finest woman in the
world," said Hilland, taking his wife's hand. "But I must add that many
of her present productions are not at all to my taste; nor will they be
to yours, Graham, after you have been here long enough to understand
what is going on--that is, if anything at home can enlist your
interest."

"I assure you I am deeply interested. It's exhilarating to breathe
American air now, especially so after just coming from regions where
everything has been dead for centuries; for the people living there now
are scarcely alive. Of course I obtained from the papers in Egypt very
vague ideas of what was going on; and after receiving your letter my
mind was too preoccupied with my aunt's illness to dwell on much
besides. If the flag which gave me protection abroad, and under which I
was born, is assailed, I shall certainly fight for it, even though I
may not be in sympathy with the causes which led to the quarrel. What I
said about being undecided as to which side I would take was a
half-jocular way of admitting that I need a great deal of information;
and between you and the major I am in a fair way to hear both sides. I
cannot believe, however, that a civil war will break out in this land
of all others. The very idea seems preposterous, and I am not beyond
the belief that the whole thing is political excitement. I have learned
this much, that the old teachings of Calhoun have borne their
legitimate fruit, and that the Cotton States by some hocus-pocus
legislation declare themselves out of the Union. But then the rational,
and to my mind inevitable, course will be, that the representative men
of both sides will realize at last to what straits their partisanship
is bringing them, and so come together and adjust their real or fancied
grievances. Meanwhile, the excitement will die out; and a good many
will have a dim consciousness that they have made fools of themselves,
and go quietly about their own business the rest of their days."

"Graham, you don't know anything about the true state of affairs," said
Hilland; and before the evening was over he proved his words true to
his friend, who listened attentively to the history of his native land
for the past few months. In conclusion, Hilland said, "At one time--not
very long ago, either--I held your opinion that it was the old game of
bluster and threatening on the part of Southern politicians. But they
are going too far; they have already gone too far. In seizing the
United States forts and other property, they have practically waged war
against the government. My opinions have changed from week to week
under the stern logic of events, and I now believe that the leading
spirits in the South mean actual and final separation. I've no doubt
that they hope to effect their purpose peaceably, and that the whole
thing will soon be a matter of diplomacy between two distinct
governments. But they are preparing for war, and they will have it,
too, to their hearts' content. President Buchanan is a muff. He sits
and wrings his hands like an old woman, and declares he can do nothing.
But the new administration will soon be in power, and it will voice the
demand of the North that this nonsense be stopped; and if no heed is
given, it will stop it briefly, decisively."

"My son Warren," said the major, "you told your friend some time since
that he knew nothing about this affair. You must permit me to say the
same to you. I feat that both sides have gone too far, much too far;
and what the end will be, and when it will come, God only knows."

Before many weeks passed Graham shared the same view.

Events crowded upon each other; pages of history were made daily, and
often hourly. In every home, as well as in the cottages wherein dwelt
the people of my story, the daily journals were snatched and read at
the earliest possible moment. Many were stern and exultant like
Hilland; more were dazed and perplexed, feeling that something ought to
be done to stem the torrent, and at the same time were astonished and
troubled to find that perhaps a next-door neighbor sympathized with the
rebellion and predicted its entire success. The social atmosphere was
thick with doubt, heavy with despondency, and often lurid with anger.

Graham became a curious study to both Grace and his aunt; and sometimes
his friend and the major were inclined to get out of patience with him.
He grew reticent on the subject concerning which all were talking, but
he read with avidity, not only the history of the day, but of the past
as it related to the questions at issue.

One of his earliest acts had been the purchase of a horse noted in town
as being so powerful, spirited, and even vicious, that few dared to
drive or ride him. He had finally brought his ill-repute to a climax by
running away, wrecking the carriage, and breaking his owner's ribs. He
had since stood fuming in idleness; and when Graham wished him brought
to the unused stable behind his aunt's cottage, no one would risk the
danger. Then the young man went after the horse himself.

"I've only one man in my employ who dares clean and take care of him,"
remarked the proprietor of the livery stable where he was kept; "and he
declares that he won't risk his life much longer unless the brute is
used and tamed down somewhat. There's your property and I'd like to
have it removed as soon as possible."

"I'll remove it at once," said Graham, quietly; and paying no heed to
the crowd that began to gather when it was bruited that
"Firebrand"--for such was the horse's name--was to be brought out, he
took a bridle and went into the stall, first speaking gently, then
stroking the animal with an assured touch. The horse permitted himself
to be bridled and led out; but there was an evil fire in his eye, and
he gave more than one ominous snort of defiance. The proprietor,
smitten by a sudden compunction, rushed forward and cried, "Look here,
sir; you are taking your life in your hand."

"I say, Graham," cried Hilland's voice, "what scrape are you in, that
you have drawn such a crowd?"

"No scrape at all," said Graham, looking around and recognizing his
friend and Grace mounted and passing homeward from their ride. "I've
had the presumption to think that you would permit me to join you
occasionally, and so have bought a good horse. Isn't he a beauty?"

"What, Firebrand?"

"That's his present name. I shall re-christen him."

"Oh, come, Graham! if you don't value your neck, others do. You've been
imposed upon."

"I've warned him--" began the keeper of the livery stable; but here the
horse reared and tried to break from Graham's grasp.

"Clear the way," the young man cried; and as the brute came down he
seized his mane and vaulted upon his bare back. The action was so
sudden and evidently so unexpected that the horse stood still and
quivered for a moment, then gave a few prodigious bounds; but the rider
kept his seat so perfectly that he seemed a part of the horse. The
beast next began to rear, and at one time it seemed as if he would fall
over backward, and his master sprang lightly to the ground. But the
horse was scarcely on all fours before Graham was on his back again.
The brute had the bit in his teeth, and paid no attention to it. Graham
now drew a flexible rawhide from his pocket, and gave his steed a
severe cut across the flanks. The result was another bound into the
air, such as experts present declared was never seen before; and then
the enraged animal sped away at a tremendous pace There was a shout of
applause; and Hilland and Grace galloped after, but soon lost sight of
Graham. Two hours later he trotted quietly up to their door, his
coal-black horse white with foam, quivering in every muscle, but
perfectly subdued.

"I merely wished to assure you that my neck was safe, and that I have a
horse fit to go to the war that you predict so confidently," he said to
Hilland, who with Grace rushed out on the piazza.

"I say, Graham, where did you learn to ride?" asked his friend.

"Oh, the horses were nobler animals than the men in some of the lands
where I have been, and I studied them. This creature will be a faithful
friend in a short time. You have no idea how much intelligence such a
horse as this has if he is treated intelligently. I don't believe he
has ever known genuine kindness. I'll guarantee that I can fire a
pistol between his ears within two weeks, and that he won't flinch.
Good-by. I shall be my own hostler for a short time, and must work an
hour over him after the run he's had."

"Well," exclaimed Hilland, as he passed into the house with his wife,
"I admit that Graham has changed. He was always great on tramps, but I
never knew him to care for a horse before."

Grace felt that he had changed ever since he had leaned for support
against the apple-tree by which he was now passing down the frozen
walk, but she only said, "I never saw such superb horsemanship."

She had not thought Graham exactly fine-looking in former days; but in
his absence his slight figure had filled out, and his every movement
was instinct with reserved force. The experiences through which he had
passed removed him, as she was conscious, beyond the sphere of ordinary
men. Even his marked reticence about himself and his views was
stimulating to the imagination. Whether he had conquered his old regard
for her she could not tell. He certainly no longer avoided her, and he
treated her with the frank courtesy he would naturally extend to his
friend's wife. But he spent far more time with his aunt than with them;
and it became daily more and more evident that he accepted the major's
view, and was preparing for what he believed would be a long and
doubtful conflict. Since it must come, he welcomed the inevitable, for
in his condition of mind it was essential that he should be intensely
occupied. Although his aunt had to admit that he was a little peculiar,
his manner was simple and quiet; and when he joined his friends on
their drives or at their fireside, he was usually as genial as they
could desire, and his tenderness for his aunt daily increased the
respect which he had already won from Grace.



CHAPTER XVIII

THE CALL TO ARMS

On the 4th of March, 1861, was inaugurated as President the best friend
the South ever had. He would never have deceived or misled her. In all
the bloody struggle that followed, although hated, scoffed at, and
maligned as the vilest monster of earth, he never by word or act
manifested a vindictive spirit toward her. Firm and sagacious, Lincoln
would have protected the South in her constitutional rights, though
every man at the North had become an abolitionist. Slavery, however,
had long been doomed, like other relics of barbarism, by the spirit of
the age; and his wisdom and that of men like him, with the logic of
events and the irresistible force of the world's opinion, would have
found some peaceful, gradual remedy for an evil which wrought even more
injury to the master than to the bondman. In his inaugural address he
repeated that he had "no purpose, directly or indirectly, to interfere
with slavery in the States where it existed."

An unanswerable argument against disunion, and an earnest appeal to
reason and lawful remedy, he followed by a most impressive declaration
of peace and good-will: "In your hands, my dissatisfied
fellow-countrymen, and not mine, is the momentous issue of civil war.
The government will not assail you. You can have no conflict without
being yourselves the aggressors. You have no oath registered in heaven
to destroy the government; while I shall have the most solemn one to
preserve, protect, and defend it."

These were noble words, and to all minds not confused by the turmoil,
passion, and prejudices of the hour, they presented the issue squarely.
If the leaders of the South desired peaceful negotiation, the way was
opened, the opportunity offered; if they were resolved on the
destruction of the Union, Lincoln's oath meant countless men and
countless treasure to defend it.

Men almost held their breath in suspense. The air became thick with
rumors of compromise and peace. Even late in March, Mr. Seward, the
President's chief adviser, "believed and argued that the revolution
throughout the South had spent its force and was on the wane; and that
the evacuation of Sumter and the manifestation of kindness and
confidence to the Rebel and Border States would undermine the
conspiracy, strengthen the Union sentiment and Union majorities, and
restore allegiance and healthy political action without resort to civil
war."

To Graham, who, in common with millions in their homes, was studying
the problem, this course seemed so rational and so advantageous to all
concerned, that he accepted it as the outline of the future. The old
major shook his head and growled, "You don't know the South; it's too
late; their blood is up."

Hilland added exultantly, "Neither do you know the North, Graham. There
will come a tidal wave soon that will carry Mr. Seward and the
hesitating President to the boundaries of Mexico."

The President was not hesitating, in the weak sense of the word.
Equally removed from Mr. Buchanan's timidity and Mr. Seward's
optimistic confidence, he was feeling his way, gathering the reins into
his hands, and seeking to comprehend an issue then too obscure and vast
for mortal mind to grasp. What is plain to-day was not plain then.

It speedily became evident, however, that all talk of compromise on the
part of the Southern leaders was deceptive--that they were relentlessly
pursuing the course marked out from the first, hoping, undoubtedly,
that the government would be paralyzed by their allies at the North,
and that their purposes would be effected by negotiation and foreign
intervention.

And so the skies grew darker and the political and social atmosphere so
thick with doubt and discordant counsels that the horizon narrowed
about even those on the mountain-top of power. All breathed heavily and
felt the oppression that precedes some convulsion of nature.

At length, on the morning of the 12th of April, as the darkness which
foreruns the dawn was lifting from Charleston Harbor, and Sumter lay
like a shadow on the waves, a gun was fired whose echoes repeated
themselves around the world. They were heard in every home North and
South, and their meaning was unmistakable. The flash of that mortar gun
and of the others that followed was as the lightning burning its way
across the vault of heaven, revealing everything with intense
vividness, and rending and consuming all noxious vapors. The clouds
rolled speedily away, and from the North came the sound of "a rushing,
mighty wind."

The crisis and the leader came together. The news reached Washington on
Saturday. On Sunday Mr. Lincoln drafted his memorable call to arms, and
on Monday it was telegraphed throughout the land. The response to that
call forms one of the sublimest chapters of history.

In the St. John cottage, as in nearly all other homes, differences of
opinion on minor questions melted into nothingness.

Graham read the electric words aloud, and his friend's only excited
comment was:

"Graham, you will go."

"Not yet," was the quiet response "and I sincerely hope you will not."

"How can a man do otherwise?"

"Because he is a man, and not an infuriated animal. I've been very
chary in giving my opinion on this subject, as you know. You also know
that I have read and thought about it almost constantly since my
return. I share fully in Major St. John's views that this affair is not
to be settled by a mad rush southward of undisciplined Northern men. I
have traced the history of Southern regiments and officers in the
Revolution and in our later wars, and I assure you that we are on the
eve of a gigantic conflict. In that degree that we believe the
government right, we, as rational men, should seek to render it
effective service. The government does not need a mob: it needs
soldiers, and such are neither you nor I. I have informed myself
somewhat on the militia system of the country, and there are plenty of
organized regiments of somewhat disciplined men who can go at an hour's
notice. If you went now, you--a millionaire--would not count for as
much as an Irishman who had spent a few months in a drill-room. The
time may come when you can equip a regiment if you choose. Moreover,
you have a controlling voice in large business interests; and this
struggle is doomed from the start if not sustained financially."

"Mr. Graham is right," said Grace, emphatically. "Even my woman's
reason makes so much clear to me."

"Your woman's reason would serve most men better than their own," was
his smiling reply. Then, as he looked into her lovely face, pale at the
bare thought that her husband was going into danger, he placed his hand
on Hilland's shoulder and continued, "Warren, there are other sacred
claims besides those of patriotism. The cause should grow desperate
indeed before you leave that wife."

"Mr. Graham," Grace began, with an indignant flush mantling the face
that had been so pale, "I am a soldier's daughter; and if Warren
believed it to be his duty--" Then she faltered, and burst into a
passion of tears, as she moaned, "O God! it's--it's true. The bullet
that struck him would inflict a deadlier wound on me;" and she hid her
face on Hilland's breast and sobbed piteously.

"It is also true," said Graham, in tones that were as grave and solemn
as they were gentle, "that your father's spirit--nay, your own--would
control you. Under its influence you might not only permit but urge
your husband's departure, though your heart broke a thousand times,
Therefore, Hilland, I appeal to your manhood. You would be unworthy of
yourself and of this true woman were you guided by passion or
excitement. As a loyal man you are bound to render your country your
best service. To rush to the fray now would be the poorest aid you
could give."

"Graham talks sense," said the major, speaking with the authority of a
veteran. "If I had to meet the enemy at once, I'd rather have a
regiment of _canaille_, and cowards at that, who could obey orders like
a machine, than one of hot-headed millionaires who might not understand
the command 'Halt!' Mr. Graham is right again when he says that Grace
will not prevent a man from doing his duty any more than her mother
did."

"What do _you_ propose to do?" asked Hilland, breathing heavily. It was
evident that a tremendous struggle was going on in his breast, for it
had been his daily and nightly dream to join the grand onset that
should sweep slavery and rebellion out of existence.

"Simply what I advise--watch, wait, and act when I can be of the most
service."

"I yield," said Hilland, slowly, "for I suppose you are right. You all
know well, and you best of all, sweetheart"--taking his wife's face in
his hands and looking down into her tearful eyes--"that here is the
treasure of my life. But you also know that in all the past there have
come times when a man must give up everything at the need of his
country."

"And when that time comes," sobbed his wife, "I--I--will not--" But she
could not finish the sentence.

Graham stole away, awed, and yet with a peace in his heart that he had
not known for years. He had saved his friend from the first wild melee
of the war--the war that promised rest and nothingness to him, even
while he kept his promise to "live and do his best."



CHAPTER XIX

THE BLOOD-RED SKY

Days and weeks of intense excitement followed the terrific Union
reverses which at one time threatened the loss of the national capital;
and the North began to put forth the power of which it was only half
conscious, like a giant taken unawares; for to all, except men of
Hilland's hopeful confidence, it soon became evident that the opponent
was a giant also. It is not my purpose to dwell upon this, however,
except as it influenced the actors of my story.

Hilland, having given up his plans, was contentedly carrying out the
line of action suggested by his friend. By all the means within his
power he was furthering the Union cause, and learned from experience
how much more he could accomplish as a business man than by shouldering
a musket, or misleading a regiment in his ignorance. He made frequent
trips to New York, and occasionally went to Washington. Graham often
accompanied him, and also came and went on affairs of his own.
Ostensibly he was acting as correspondent for the journal to which he
had written when abroad. In reality, he was studying the great drama
with an interest that was not wholly patriotic or scientific. He had
found an antidote. The war, dreaded so unspeakably by many, was a boon
to him; and the fierce excitement of the hour a counter-irritant to the
pain at heart which he believed had become his life-long heritage.

He had feared the sorrowful reproaches of his aunt, as he gave himself
almost wholly up to its influences, and became an actor in the great
struggle. In this he was agreeably mistaken, for the spirited old lady,
while averse to politics as such, had become scarcely less belligerent
than the major since the fall of Sumter. She cheerfully let him come
and go at his will; and in his loving gratitude it must be admitted
that his letters to her were more frequent and interesting than those
to the journal whose badge was his passport to all parts of our lines.
He spent every hour he could with her, also; and she saw with pleasure
that his activity did him good. Grace thought he found few
opportunities to pass an evening with them. She was exceedingly
grateful--first, that he had interpreted her so nobly, but chiefly
because it was his influence and reasoning that had led her husband
into his present large, useful, happy action; and she could not help
showing it.

Graham's position of correspondent gave him far better opportunities
for observation than he could have had in any arm of the service. Of
late he was following the command of General Patterson, believing from
his sanguinary vaporing that in his army would be seen the first real
work of the war.[Footnote: Patterson wrote to the Secretary of War:
"You have the means; place them at my disposal, and shoot me if I do
not use them to advantage."] He soon became convinced, however, that
the veteran of the Mexican War, like the renowned King of France, would
march his "twenty thousand men" up the hill only to march them down
again. Hearing that McDowell proposed to move against the enemy at
Manassas, he hastily repaired to Washington, hoping to find a general
that dared to come within cannon-range of the foe.

A sultry day late in the month of July was drawing to a close. Hilland
and his wife, with Mrs. Mayburn, were seated under the apple-tree, at
which point the walk intersected with the main one leading to the
street. The young man, with a heavy frown, was reading from an "extra"
a lurid outline of General McDowell's overwhelming defeat and the mad
panic that ensued. Grace was listening with deep solicitude, her work
lying idle in her lap. It had been a long, hard day for her. Of late
her father had been deeply excited, and now was sleeping from sheer
reaction. Mrs. Mayburn, looking as grim as fate, sat bolt upright and
knitted furiously. One felt instinctively that in no emergency of life
could she give way to a panic.

"Well," cried Hilland, springing to his feet and dashing the paper to
the ground with something like an oath, "one battle has been fought in
America at which I thank the immortal gods I was not present. Why did
not McDowell drive a flock of sheep against the enemy, and furnish his
division commanders with shepherds' crooks? Oh, the burning, indelible
disgrace of it all! And yet--and the possibility of it makes me feel
that I would destroy myself had it happened--I might have run like the
blackest sheep of them all. I once read up a little on the subject of
panics; and there's a mysterious, awful contagion about them impossible
to comprehend. These men were Americans; they had been fighting
bravely; what the devil got into them that they had to destroy
themselves and everything in an insane rush for life?"

"Oh, Warren, see the sky!" cried his wife, the deep solicitude of her
expression giving place to a look of awe.

They all turned to the west, and saw a sunset that from the excitable
condition of their minds seemed to reflect the scenes recently enacted,
and to portend those in prospect now for years to come. Lines of light
and broken columns of cloud had ranged themselves across the western
arch of the sky, and almost from the horizon to the zenith they were
blood-red. So deep, uniform, and ensanguined was the crimson, that the
sense of beauty was subordinated to the thought of the national tragedy
reflected in the heavens. Hilland's face grew stern as he looked, and
Grace hid hers on his breast.

After a moment, he said, lightly, "What superstitious fools we are!
It's all an accidental effect of light and cloud."

A cry from Mrs. Mayburn caused them to turn hastily, and they saw her
rushing down the path to the street entrance. Two men were helping some
one from a carriage. As their obscuring forms stood aside, Graham was
seen balancing himself on crutches.

Hilland placed his wife hastily but tenderly on the seat, and was at
the gateway in almost a single bound.

"You had better let us carry you," Grace heard one of the men say in
gruff kindness.

"Nonsense!" was the hearty reply. "I have not retreated thus far so
masterfully only to give my aunt the hysterics at last."

"Alford," said his aunt, sternly, "if it's wise for you to be carried,
be carried. Any man here is as liable to hysterics as I am."

"Graham, what does this mean?" cried his friend, in deep excitement.
"You look as if half cut to pieces."

"It's chiefly my clothes; I am a fitter subject for a tailor than for a
surgeon. Come, good people, there is no occasion for melodrama. With
aunty's care I shall soon be as sound as ever. Very well, carry me,
then. Perhaps I ought not to use my arm yet;" for Hilland, taking in
his friend's disabled condition more fully, was about to lift him in
his arms without permission or apology. It ended in his making what is
termed a "chair" with one of the men, and Graham was borne speedily up
the path.

Grace stood at the intersection with hands clasped in the deepest
anxiety; but Graham smiled reassuringly, as he said, "Isn't this an
heroic style of returning from the wars? Not quite like Walter Scott's
knights; but we've fallen on prosaic times. Don't look so worried. I
assure you I'm not seriously hurt."

"Mrs. Mayburn," said Hilland, excitedly, "let us take him to our
cottage. We can all take better care of him there."

"Oh, do! please do!" echoed Grace. "You are alone; and Warren and I
could do so much--"

"No," said the old lady quietly and decisively; for the moment the
proposition was broached Graham's eyes had sought hers in imperative
warning. "You both can help me as far as it is needful."

Grace detected the glance and noted the result, but Hilland began
impetuously: "Oh, come, dear Mrs. Mayburn, I insist upon it. Graham is
making light of it; but I'm sure he'll need more care than you
realize--"

"Hilland, I know the friendship that prompts your wish," interrupted
Graham, "but my aunt is right. I shall do better in my own room. I need
rest more than anything else. You and your wife can do all you wish for
me. Indeed, I shall visit you to-morrow and fight the battle over again
with the major. Please take me to my room at once," he added in a low
tone. "I'm awfully tired."

"Come, Mr. Hilland," said Mrs. Mayburn, in a tone almost authoritative;
and she led the way decisively.

Hilland yielded, and in a few moments Graham was in his own room, and
after taking a little stimulant, explained.

"My horse was shot and fell on me. I am more bruised, scratched and
used up, than hurt;" and so it proved, though his escape had evidently
been almost miraculous. One leg and foot had been badly crushed. There
were two flesh wounds in his arm; and several bullets had cut his
clothing, in some places drawing blood. All over his clothes, from head
to foot, were traces of Virginia soil; and he had the general
appearance of a man who had passed through a desperate melee.

"I tried to repair damages in Washington," he said, "but the confusion
was so dire I had to choose between a hospital and home; and as I had
some symptoms of fever last night, I determined to push on till under
the wing of my good old aunty and your fraternal care. Indeed, I think
I was half delirious when I took the train last evening; but it was
only from fatigue, lack of sleep, and perhaps loss of blood. Now,
please leave me to aunty's care to-night, and I will tell you all about
it to-morrow."

Hilland was accordingly constrained to yield to his friend's wishes. He
brought the best surgeon in town, however, and gave directions that,
after he had dressed Graham's wounds, he should spend the night in Mrs.
Mayburn's parlor, and report to him if there was any change for the
worse. Fortunately, there was no occasion for his solicitude. Graham
slept with scarcely a break till late the next morning; and his pulse
became so quiet that when he waked with a good appetite the physician
pronounced all danger passed.

In the evening he was bent on visiting the major. He knew they were all
eager for his story, and, calculating upon the veteran's influence in
restraining Hilland from hasty action, he resolved that his old and
invalid friend should hear it with the first. From the character of
Hilland he knew the danger to be apprehended was that he would throw
himself into the struggle in some way that would paralyze, or at the
least curtail, his efficiency. Both his aunt and the physician, who
underrated the recuperative power of Graham's fine physical condition,
urged quiet until the following day; but he assured them he would
suffer more from restlessness than from a moderate degree of effort. He
also explained to his aunt that he wished to talk with Hilland, and, if
possible, in the presence of his wife and the major.

"Then they must come here," said the old lady, resolutely.

With this compromise he had to be content; and Hilland, who had been
coming and going, readily agreed to fetch the major.



CHAPTER XX

TWO BATTLES

In less than an hour Graham was in the parlor, looking, it is true,
somewhat battered, but cheerful and resolute. His friends found him
installed in a great armchair, with his bruised foot on a cushion, his
arm in a sling, and a few pieces of court-plaster distributed rather
promiscuously over his face and head. He greeted Hilland and his wife
so heartily, and assured the major so genially that he should now
divide with him his honors as a veteran, that they were reassured, and
the rather tragic mood in which they had started on the visit was
dispelled.

"I must admit, though," he added to his old friend, who was also made
comfortable in his chair, which Hilland had brought over, "that in my
fall on the field of glory I made a sorry figure. I was held down by my
horse and trampled on as if I had been a part of the 'sacred soil.'"

"'Field of glory,' indeed!" exclaimed Hilland, contemptuously.

 "I did not know that you had become a soldier," said Grace, with
surprise.

"I was about as much of a soldier as the majority, from the generals
down," was the laughing reply.

"I don't see how you could have been a worse one, if you had tried,"
was his friend's rejoinder. "I may do no better; but I should be less
than a man if I did not make an effort to wipe out the disgrace as soon
as possible. No reflection on you, Graham. Your wounds exonerate you;
and I know you did not get them in running away."

"Yes, I did--two of them, at least--these in my arm. As to 'wiping out
this disgrace as soon as possible,' I think that is a very secondary
matter."

"Well! I don't understand it at all," was Hilland's almost savage
answer. "But I can tell you from the start you need not enter on your
old prudent counsels that I should serve the government as a
stay-at-home quartermaster and general supply agent. In my opinion,
what the government needs is men--men who at least won't run away. I
now have Grace's permission to go--dear, brave girl!--and go I shall.
To stay at home because I am rich seems to me the very snobbishness of
wealth; and the kind of work I have been doing graybeards can do just
as well, and better."

Graham turned a grave look of inquiry upon the wife. She answered it by
saying with a pallid face: "I had better perish a thousand times than
destroy Warren's self-respect."

"What right have you to preach caution," continued Hilland, "when you
went far enough to be struck by half a dozen bullets?"

"The right of a retreat which scarcely slackened until I was under my
aunt's roof."

"Come, Graham, you are tantalizing us," said Hilland, impatiently.
"There, forgive me, old fellow. I fear you are still a little out of
your head," he added, with a slight return of his old good-humor. "Do
give us, then, if you can, some account of your impetuous advance on
Washington, instead of Richmond."

"Yes, Mr. Graham," added the major, "if you are able to give me some
reason for not blushing that I am a Northern man, I shall be glad to
hear it."

"Mrs. Hilland," said Graham, with a smiling glance at the young wife's
troubled face, "you have the advantage of us all. You can proudly say,
'I'm a Southerner.' Hilland and I are nothing but 'low-down Yankees.'
Come, good friends, I have seen enough tragedy of late; and if, I have
to describe a little to-night, let us look at matters philosophically.
If I received some hard knocks from your kin, Mrs. Hilland--"

"Don't say 'Mrs. Hilland,'" interrupted his friend. "As I've told you
before, my wife is 'Grace' to you."

"So be it then. The hard knocks from your kin have materially added to
my small stock of sense; and I think the entire North will be wiser as
well as sadder before many days pass. We have been taught that taking
Richmond and marching through the South will be no holiday picnic.
Major St. John has been right from the start. We must encounter brave,
determined men; and, whatever may be true of the leaders, the people
are as sincere in their patriotism as we are. They don't even dream
that they are fighting in a bad cause. The majority will stand up for
it as stoutly and conscientiously as your husband for ours. Have I not
done justice to your kin, Grace?"

"Yes," she replied, with a faint smile.

"Then forgive me if I say that until four o'clock last Sunday
afternoon, and in a fair, stand-up fight between a Northern mob and a
Southern mob, we whipped them."

"But I thought the men of the North prided themselves on their 'staying
power.'"

"They had no 'staying power' when they found fresh regiments and
batteries pouring in on their flank and rear. I believe that retreat
was then the proper thing. The wild panic that ensued resulted
naturally from the condition of the men and officers, and especially
from the presence of a lot of nondescript people that came to see the
thing as a spectacle, a sort of gladiatorial combat, upon which they
could look at a safe distance. Two most excellent results have been
attained: I don't believe we shall ever send out another mob of
soldiers; and I am sure that a mob of men and women from Washington
will never follow it to see the fun."

"I wish Beauregard had corralled them all--the mob of sight-seers, I
mean," growled the major. "I must say, Mr. Graham, that the hard knocks
you and others have received may result in infinite good. I think I
take your meaning, and that we shall agree very nearly before you are
through. You know that I was ever bitterly opposed to the mad 'On to
Richmond' cry; and now the cursed insanity of the thing is clearly
proved."

"I agree with you that it was all wrong--that it involved risks that
never should have been taken at this stage of the war; and I am told
that General Scott and other veteran officers disapproved of the
measure. Nevertheless, it came wonderfully near being successful. We
should have gained the battle if the attack had been made earlier, or
if that old muff, Patterson, had done his duty."

"If you are not too tired, give us the whole movement, just as you saw
it," said Hilland, his eyes glowing with excitement.

"Oh, I feel well enough for another retreat tonight. My trouble was
chiefly fatigue and lack of sleep."

"Because you make light of wounds, we do not," said Grace.

"Hilland knows that the loss of a little blood as pale and watery as
mine would be of small account," was Graham's laughing response.

"Well, to begin at the beginning, I followed Patterson till convinced
that his chief impulse was to get away from the enemy. I then hastened
to Washington only to learn that McDowell had already had a heavy
skirmish which was not particularly to our advantage. This was Saturday
morning, and the impression was that a general engagement would be
fought almost immediately. The fact that our army had met little
opposition thus far created a false confidence. I did not care to risk
my pet horse, Mayburn. You must know, aunty, I've rechristened
Firebrand in your honor," said Graham. "I tried to get another mount,
but could not obtain one for love or money. Every beast and conveyance
in the city seemed already engaged for the coming spectacle. The
majority of these civilians did not leave till early on Sunday morning,
but I had plenty of company on Saturday, when with my good horse I went
in a rather leisurely way to Centerville; for as a correspondent I had
fairly accurate information of what was taking place, and had heard
that there would be no battle that day.

"I reached Centerville in the evening, and soon learned that the
forward movement would take place in the night. Having put my horse in
thorough condition for the morrow, and made an enormous supper through
the hospitality of some staff-officers, I sought a quiet knoll on which
to sleep in soldier fashion under the sky, but found the scene too
novel and beautiful for such prosaic oblivion. I was on the highest
ground I could find, and beneath and on either side of me were the
camp-fires of an army. Around the nearest of these could be seen the
forms of the soldiers in every picturesque attitude; some still cooking
and making their rude suppers, others executing double-shuffles like
war-dances, more discussing earnestly and excitedly the prospects of
the coming day, and not a few looking pensively into the flames as if
they saw pictures of the homes and friends they might never see again.
In the main, however, animation and jollity prevailed; and from far and
near came the sound of song, and laughter, and chaffing. Far down the
long <DW72> toward the dark, wooded valley of Bull Run, the light of the
fires shaded off into such obscurity as the full moon permitted, while
beyond the stream in the far distance a long, irregular line of
luminous haze marked the encampments of the enemy.

"As the night advanced the army grew quiet; near and distant sounds
died away; the canvas tents were like mounds of snow; and by the
flickering, dying flames were multitudes of quiet forms. At midnight
few scenes could be more calm and beautiful, so tenderly did the light
of the moon soften and etherealize everything. Even the parked
artillery lost much of its grim aspect, and all nature seemed to
breathe peace and rest.

"It was rumored that McDowell wished to make part of the march in the
evening, and it would have been well if he had done so. A little past
midnight a general stir and bustle ran through the sleeping army.
Figures were seen moving hurriedly, men forming into lines, and there
was a general commotion. But there was no promptness of action. The
soldiers stood around, sat down, and at last lay on their arms and
slept again. Mounting my horse, with saddle-bags well stuffed with such
rations as I could obtain, I sought the centres of information. It
appeared that the division under General Tyler was slow in starting,
and blocked the march of the Second and the Third Division. As I picked
my way around, only a horse's sagacity kept me from crushing some
sleeping fellow's leg or arm, for a horse won't step on a man unless
excited.

"Well, Tyler's men got out of the way at last in a haphazard fashion,
and the Second and Third Divisions were also steadily moving, but hours
behind time. Such marching! It reminded one of countrymen streaming
along a road to a Fourth of July celebration.

"My main policy was to keep near the commander-in-chief, for thus I
hoped to obtain from the staff some idea of the plan of battle and
where its brunt would fall. I confess that I was disgusted at first,
for the general was said to be ill, and he followed his columns in a
carriage. It seemed an odd way of leading an army. But he came out all
right; and he did his duty as a soldier and a general, although every
one is cursing him to-day. He was the first man on the real
battlefield, and by no means the first to leave it.

"Of course I came and went along the line of march, or of straggling
rather, as I pleased; but I kept my eye on the general and his staff. I
soon observed that he decided to make his headquarters at the point
where a road leading from the great Warrenton Turnpike passed to the
north through what is known as the 'Big Woods.' Tyler's command
continued westward down the turnpike to what is known as the Stone
Bridge, a single substantial arch at which the enemy were said to be in
force. It now became clear that the first fighting would be there, and
that it was McDowell's plan to send his main force under Hunter and
Heintzelman further north through the woods to cross at some point
above. I therefore followed Tyler's column, as that must soon become
engaged.

"The movements had all been so mortally slow that any chance for
surprise was lost. As we approached the bridge it was as lovely a
summer morning as you would wish to see. I had ridden ahead with the
scouts. Thrushes, robins, and other birds were singing in the trees.
Startled rabbits, and a mother-bird with a brood of quails, scurried
across the road, and all seemed as still and peaceful as any Sunday
that had ever dawned on the scene. It was hard to persuade one's self
that in front and rear were the forces of deadly war.

"We soon reached an eminence from which we saw what dispelled at once
the illusion of sylvan solitude. The sun had been shining an hour or
two, and the bridge before us and the road beyond were defended by
_abatis_ and other obstructions. On the further bank a line of infantry
was in full view with batteries in position prepared to receive us. I
confess it sent a thrill through every nerve when I first saw the ranks
of the foe we must encounter in no mere pageant of war.

"In a few moments our forces came up, and at first one brigade deployed
on the left and another on the right of the pike. At last I witnessed a
scene that had the aspect of war. A great thirty-pound Parrot gun
unlimbered in the centre of the pike, and looked like a surly mastiff.
In a moment an officer, who understood his business, sighted it. There
was a flash, bright even in the July sunlight, a grand report awakening
the first echoes of a battle whose thunder was heard even in
Washington; and a second later we saw the shell explode directly over
the line of Confederate infantry. Their ranks broke and melted away as
if by magic."

"Good shot, well aimed. Oh heavens! what would I not give to be thirty
years younger! Go on, Graham, go on;" for the young man had stopped to
take a sip of wine.

"Yes, Graham," cried Hilland, springing to his feet; "what next?"

"I fear we are doing Mr. Graham much wrong," Grace interrupted. "He
must be going far beyond his strength."

The young man had addressed his words almost solely to the major, not
only out of courtesy, but also for a reason that Grace partially
surmised. He now turned and smiled into her flushed, troubled face, and
said, "I fear you find these details of war dull and wearisome."

"On the contrary, you are so vivid a _raconteur_ that I fear Warren
will start for the front before you are through."

"When I am through you will think differently."

"But you _are_ going beyond your strength."

"I assure you I am not; though I thank you for your thoughtfulness. I
never felt better in my life; and it gives me a kind of pleasure to
make you all realize things as I saw them."

"And it gives us great pleasure to listen," cried Hilland. "Even Mrs.
Mayburn there is knitting as if her needles were bayonets; and Grace
has the flush of a soldier's daughter on her cheeks."

"Oh, stop your chatter, and let Graham go on," said the major--"that
is, if it's prudent for him," he added from a severe sense of duty.
"What followed that blessed shell?"

"A lame and impotent conclusion in the form of many other shells that
evoked no reply; and beyond his feeble demonstration Tyler did nothing.
It seemed to me that a determined dash at the bridge would have carried
it. I was fretting and fuming about when a staff-officer gave me a hint
that nothing was to be done at present--that it was all only a feint,
and that the columns that had gone northward through the woods would
begin the real work. His words were scarcely spoken before I was making
my way to the rear. I soon reached McDowell's carriage at the
intersection of the roads, and found it empty. Learning that the
general, in his impatience, had taken horse and galloped off to see
what had become of his tardy commanders, I followed at full speed.

"It was a wild, rough road, scarcely more than a lane through the
woods; but Mayburn was equal to it, and like a bird carried me through
its gloomy shades, where I observed not a few skulkers cowering in the
brush as I sped by. I overtook Heintzelman's command as it was crossing
the run at Sudley's Ford; and such a scene of confusion I hope never to
witness again. The men were emptying their canteens and refilling them,
laving their hands and faces, and refreshing themselves generally. It
was really quite a picnic. Officers were storming and ordering 'the
boys'--and boys they seemed, indeed--to move on; and by dint of much
profanity, and the pressure of those following, regiment after regiment
at last straggled up the further bank, went into brigade formation, and
shambled forward."

"The cursed mob!" muttered the major.

"Well, poor fellows! they soon won my respect; and yet, as I saw them
then, stopping to pick blackberries along the road, I did feel like
riding them down. I suppose my horse and I lowered the stream somewhat
as we drank, for the day had grown sultry and the sun's rays intensely
hot. Then I hastened on to find the general. It seemed as if we should
never get out of the woods, as if the army had lost itself in an
interminable forest. Wild birds and game fled before us; and I heard
one soldier call out to another that it was 'a regular Virginia
<DW53>-hunt.' As I reached the head of the column the timber grew
thinner, and I was told that McDowell was reconnoitring in advance.
Galloping out into the open fields, I saw him far beyond me, already
the target of Rebel bullets. His staff and a company of cavalry were
with him; and as I approached he seemed rapidly taking in the
topographical features of the field. Having apparently satisfied
himself, he galloped to the rear; and at the same time Hunter's troops
came pouring out of the woods.

"There was now a prospect of warm work and plenty of it. For the life
of me I can't tell you how the battle began. Our men came forward in an
irregular manner, rushing onward impetuously, halting unnecessarily,
with no master mind directing. It seemed at first as if the mere
momentum of the march carried us under the enemy's fire; and then there
was foolish delay. By the aid of my powerful glass I was convinced that
we might have walked right over the first thin Rebel line on the ridge
nearest us.

"The artillery exchanged shots awhile. Regiments under the command of
General Burnside deployed in the fields to the left of the road down
which we had come; skirmishers were thrown out rapidly and began their
irregular firing at an absurd distance from the enemy. There was
hesitancy, delay; and the awkwardness of troops unaccustomed to act
together in large bodies was enhanced by the excitement inseparable
from their first experience of real war.

"In spite of all this the battlefield began to present grand and
inspiring effects. The troops were debouching rapidly from the woods,
their bayonets gleaming here and there through the dust raised by their
hurrying feet, and burning in serried lines when they were ranged under
the cloudless sun. In every movement made by every soldier the metal
points in his accoutrements flashed and scintillated. Again there was
something very spirited in the appearance of a battery rushed into
position at a gallop--the almost instantaneous unlimbering, the
caissons moving to the rear, and the guns at the same moment thundering
their defiance, while the smoke, lifting slowly on the heavy air, rises
and blends with that of the other side, and hangs like a pall to
leeward of the field. The grandest thing of all, however, was the
change in the men. The uncouth, coarsely jesting, blackberry-picking
fellows that lagged and straggled to the battle became soldiers in
their instincts and rising excitement and courage, if not in
machine-like discipline and coolness. As I rode here and there I could
see that they were erect, eager, and that their eyes began to glow like
coals from their dusty, sunburned visages. If there were occasional
evidences of fear, there were more of resolution and desire for the
fray.

"The aspect of affairs on the ridge, where the enemy awaited us, did
not grow encouraging. With my glass I could see re-inforcements coming
up rapidly during our delay. New guns were seeking position, which was
scarcely taken before there was a puff of smoke and their iron message.
Heavens! what a vicious sound those shells had! something between a
whiz and a shriek. Even the horses would cringe and shudder when one
passed over them, and the men would duck their heads, though the
missile was thirty feet in the air. I suppose there was some awfully
wild firing on both sides; but I saw several of our men carried to the
rear. But all this detail is an old, old story to you, Major."

 "Yes, an old story, but one that can never lose its fierce charm. I
see it all as you describe it. Go on, and omit nothing you can remember
of the scene. Mrs. Mayburn looks as grim as one of your cannon; and
Grace, my child, you won't flinch, will you?"

"No, papa."

"That's my brave wife's child. She often said, 'Tell me all. I wish to
know just what you have passed through.'"

A brief glance assured Graham that her father's spirit was then
supreme, and that she looked with woman's admiration on a scene replete
with the manhood woman most admires.

"I cannot describe to you the battle, as such," continued Graham. "I
can only outline faintly the picture I saw dimly through dust and smoke
from my own standpoint. Being under no one's orders, I could go where I
pleased, and I tried to find the vital points. Of course, there was
much heavy fighting that I saw nothing of, movements unknown to me or
caught but imperfectly. During the preliminary conflict I remained on
the right of Burnside's command near the Sudley Road by which our army
had reached the field.

"When at last his troops began to press forward, their advance was
decided and courageous; but the enemy held their own stubbornly. The
fighting was severe and deadly, for we were now within easy musket
range. At one time I trembled for Burnside's lines, and I saw one of
his aides gallop furiously to the rear for help. It came almost
immediately in the form of a fine body of regulars under Major Sykes;
and our wavering lines were rendered firm and more aggressive than
ever. At the same time it was evident that our forces were going into
action off to the right of the Sudley Road, and that another battery
had opened on the enemy. I afterward learned that they were Rickett's
guns. Under this increasing and relentless pressure the enemy's lines
were seen to waver. Wild cheers went up from our ranks; and such is the
power of the human voice--the echo direct from the heart--that these
shouts rose above the roar of the cannon, the crash of musketry, and
thrilled every nerve and fibre. Onward pressed our men; the Rebel lines
yielded, broke, and our foes retreated down the hill, but at a dogged,
stubborn pace, fighting as they went. Seeing the direction they were
taking, I dashed into the Sudley Road near which I had kept as the
centre of operations. At the intersection of this road with the
Warrenton Turnpike was a stone house, and behind this the enemy rallied
as if determined to retreat no further. I had scarcely observed this
fact when I saw a body of men forming in the road just above me. In a
few moments they were in motion. On they came, a resistless human
torrent with a roar of hoarse shouts and cries. I was carried along
with them; but before we reached the stone house the enemy broke and
fled, and the whole Rebel line was swept back half a mile or more.

"Thus you see that in the first severe conflict of the day, and when
pitted against numbers comparatively equal, we won a decided victory."

Both the major and Hilland drew a long breath of relief; and the former
said: "I have been hasty and unjust in my censure. If that raw militia
could be made to fight at all, it can in time be made to fight well.
Mr. Graham, you have deeply gratified an old soldier to-night by
describing scenes that carry me back to the grand era of my life. I
believe I was born to be a soldier; and my old campaigns stand out in
memory like sun-lighted mountain-tops. Forgive such high-flown talk--I
know it's not like me--but I've had to-night some of my old battle
excitement. I never thought to feel it again. We'll hear the rest of
your story to-morrow. I outrank you all, by age at least; and I now
order 'taps.'"

Graham was not sorry, for in strong reaction a sudden sense of almost
mortal weakness overcame him. Even the presence of Grace, for whose
sake, after all, he had unconsciously told his story, could not sustain
him any longer, and he sank back looking very white.

"You _have_ overexerted yourself," she said gently, coming, to his
side. "You should have stopped when I cautioned you; or rather, we
should have been more thoughtful."

"Perhaps I have overrated my strength--it's a fault of mine," was his
smiling reply, "I shall be perfectly well after a night's rest."

He had looked up at her as he spoke; and in that moment of weakness
there was a wistful, hungry look in his eyes that smote her heart.

A shallow, silly woman, or an intensely selfish one, would have
exulted. Here was a man, cool, strong, and masterful among other men--a
man who had gone to the other side of the globe to escape her
power--one who within the last few days had witnessed a battle with thes
quiet poise that enabled him to study it as an artist or a tactician;
and yet he could not keep his eyes from betraying the truth that there
was something within his heart stronger than himself.

Did Grace Hilland lay this flattering unction to her soul? No. She went
away inexpressibly sad. She felt that two battle scenes had been
presented to her mind; and the conflict that had been waged silently,
patiently, and unceasingly in a strong man's soul had to her the higher
elements of heroism. It was another of those wretched problems offered
by this imperfect world for which there seems no remedy.

When Hilland hastened over to see his friend and add a few hearty words
to those he had already spoken, he was told that he was sleeping.

 CHAPTER XXI

THE LOGIC OF EVENTS

Graham was right in his prediction that another night's rest would
carry him far on the road to recovery; and he insisted, when Hilland
called in the morning, that the major should remain in his accustomed
chair at home, and listen to the remainder of the story. "My habit of
life is so active," he said, "that a little change will do me good;"
and so it was arranged. By leaning on Hilland's shoulder he was able to
limp the short distance between the cottages; and he found that Grace
had made every arrangement for his comfort on the piazza, where the
major welcomed him with almost the eagerness of a child for whom an
absorbing story is to be continued.

"You can't know how you interested us all last night," Grace began. "I
never knew papa to be more gratified; and as for Warren, he could not
sleep for excitement. Where did you learn to tell stories?"

"I was said to be very good at fiction when a boy, especially when I
got into scrapes. But you can't expect in this garish light any such
effects as I may have created last evening. It requires the mysterious
power of night and other conditions to secure a glamour; and so you
must look for the baldest prose to-day."

"Indeed, Graham, we scarcely know what to expect from you any more,"
Hilland remarked. "From being a quiet cynic philosopher, content to
delve in old libraries like the typical bookworm, you become an
indefatigable sportsman, horse-tamer, explorer of the remote parts of
the earth, and last, and strangest, a newspaper correspondent who
doesn't know that the place to see and write about battles is several
miles in the rear. What will you do next?"

"My future will be redeemed from the faintest trace of eccentricity. I
shall do what about a million other Americans will do eventually--go
into the army."

"Ah! now you talk sense, and I am with you. I shall be ready to go as
soon as you are well enough."

"I doubt it."

"I don't."

"Grace, what do you say to all this?" turning a troubled look upon the
wife.

"I foresee that, like my mother, I am to be the wife of a soldier," she
replied with a smile, while tears stood in her eyes. "I did not marry
Warren to destroy his sense of manhood."

"You see, Graham, how it is. You also perceive what a knight I must be
to be worthy of the lady I leave in bower."

"Yes; I see it all too well. But I must misquote Shakespeare to you,
and 'charge you to stand on the _order_ of your going;' and I think the
rest of my story will prove that I have good reason for the charge."

"I should have been sorry," said the major, "to have had Grace marry a
man who would consult only ease and safety in times like these. It will
be awfully hard to have him go. But the time may soon come when it
would be harder for Grace to have him stay; that is, if she is like her
mother. But what's the use of looking at the gloomy side? I've been
through a dozen battles; and here I am to plague the world yet. But now
for the story. You left off, Mr. Graham, at the rout of the first Rebel
line of battle."

"And this had not been attained," resumed Graham, "without serious loss
to our side. Colonel Hunter, who commanded the Second Division, you
remember, was so severely wounded by a shell that he had to leave the
field early in the action. Colonel Slocum of one of the Rhode Island
regiments was mortally wounded; and his major had his leg crushed by a
cannon ball which at the same time killed his horse. Many others were
wounded and must have had a hard time of it, poor fellows, that hot
day. As for the dead that strewed the ground--their troubles were over."

"But not the troubles of those that loved them," said Grace, bitterly.

Graham turned hastily away. When a moment later he resumed his
narrative, she noticed that his eyes were moist and his tones husky.

"Our heaviest loss was in the demoralization of some of the regiments
engaged. They appeared to have so little cohesion that one feared all
the time that they might crumble away into mere human atoms.

"The affair continually took on a larger aspect, as more troops became
engaged. We had driven the Confederates down a gentle <DW72>, across a
small stream called Young's Branch, and up a hill beyond and to the
south. This position was higher and stronger than any they had yet
occupied. On the crest of the hill were two houses; and the enemy could
be seen forming a line extending from one to the other. They were
evidently receiving re-enforcements rapidly. I could see gray columns
hastening forward and deploying; and I've no doubt that many of the
fugitives were rallied beyond this line. Meanwhile, I was informed that
Tyler's Division, left in the morning at Stone Bridge, had crossed the
Run, in obedience to McDowell's orders, and were on the field at the
left of our line. Such, as far as I could judge, was the position of
affairs between twelve and one, although I can give you only my
impressions. It appeared to me that our men were fighting well,
gradually and steadily advancing, and closing in upon the enemy. Still,
I cannot help feeling that if we had followed up our success by the
determined charge of one brigade that would hold together, the hill
might have been swept, and victory made certain.

"I had taken my position near Rickett's and Griffin's batteries on the
right of our line, and decided to follow them up, not only because they
were doing splendid work, but also for the reason that they would
naturally be given commanding positions at vital points. By about two
o'clock we had occupied the Warrenton Turnpike; and we justly felt that
much had been gained. The Confederate lines between the two houses on
the hill had given way; and from the sounds we heard, they must have
been driven back also by a charge on our extreme left. Indeed, there
was scarcely anything to be seen of the foe that thus far had been not
only seen but felt.

"From a height near the batteries where I stood, the problem appeared
somewhat clear to me. We had driven the enemy up and over a hill of
considerable altitude, and across an uneven plateau, and they were
undoubtedly in the woods beyond, a splendid position which commanded
the entire open space over which we must advance to reach them. They
were in cover; we should be in full view in all efforts to dislodge
them. Their very reverses had secured for them a position worth half a
dozen regiments; and I trembled as I thought of our raw militia
advancing under conditions that would try the courage of veterans. You
remember that if Washington, in the Revolution, could get his new
recruits behind a rail-fence, they thought they were safe.

"Well, there was no help for it. The hill and plateau must be crossed
under a pointblank fire, in order to reach the enemy, and that, too, by
men who had been under arms since midnight, and the majority wearied by
a long march under a blazing sun.

"About half-past two, when the assault began, a strange and ominous
quiet rested on the field. As I have said, the enemy had disappeared.
The men scarcely knew what to think of it; and in some a false
confidence, speedily dispelled, was begotten. Rickett's battery was
moved down across the valley to the top of a hill just beyond the
residence owned and occupied by a Mrs. Henry. I followed and entered
the house, already shattered by shot and shell, curious to know whether
it was occupied, and by whom. Pitiful to relate, I found that Mrs.
Henry was a widow and a helpless invalid. The poor woman was in mortal
terror; and it was my hope to return and carry her to some place of
safety, but the swift and deadly tide of war gave me no chance.
[Footnote: Mrs. Henry, although confined to her bed, was wounded two or
three times, and died soon afterward.]

"Ricketts' battery had scarcely unlimbered before death was busy among
his cannoneers and even his horses. The enemy had the cover not only of
the woods, but of a second growth of pines, which fringed them and
completely concealed the Rebel sharpshooters. When a man fell, nothing
could be seen but a puff of smoke. These little jets and wreaths of
smoke half encircled us, and made but a phantom-like target for our
people; and I think it speaks well for officers and men that they not
only did their duty, but that Griffin's battery also came up, and that
both batteries held their own against a terrific pointblank fire from
the Rebel cannon, which certainly exceeded ours in number. The range
was exceedingly short, and a more terrific artillery duel it would be
hard to imagine. At the same time the more deadly little puffs of smoke
continued; and men in every attitude of duty would suddenly throw up
their hands and fall. The batteries had no business to be so exposed,
and their supports were of no real service.

"I can give you an idea of what occurred at this point only; but, from
the sounds I heard, there was very heavy fighting elsewhere, which I
fear, however, was too spasmodic and ill-directed to accomplish the
required ends. A heavy, persistent, concentrated attack, a swift push
with the bayonet through the low pines and woods, would have saved the
day. Perhaps our troops were not equal to it; and yet, poor fellows,
they did braver things that were utterly useless.

"I still believe, however, all might have gone well, had it not been
for a horrible mistake. I was not very far from Captain Griffin, and
was watching his cool, effective superintendence of his guns, when
suddenly I noticed a regiment in full view on our right advancing
toward us. Griffin caught sight of it at the same moment, and seemed
amazed. Were they Confederates or National? was the question to be
decided instantly. They might be his own support. Doubtful and yet
exceedingly apprehensive, he ordered his guns to be loaded with
canister and trained upon this dubious force that had come into view
like an apparition; but he still hesitated, restrained, doubtless, by
the fearful thought of annihilating a Union regiment.

"'Captain,' said Major Barry, chief of artillery, 'they are your
battery support.'

"'They are Confederates.' Griffin replied, intensely excited. 'As
certain as the world, they are Confederates.'

"'No,' was the answer, 'I know they are your battery support.'

"I had ridden up within ear-shot, and levelled my glass upon them.
'Don't fire,' cried Griffin, and he spurred forward to satisfy himself.

"At the same moment the regiment, now within short range, by a sudden
instantaneous act levelled their muskets at us. I saw we were doomed,
and yet by some instinct tightened my rein while I dug my spurs into my
horse. He reared instantly. I saw a line of fire, and then poor Mayburn
fell upon me, quivered, and was dead. The body of a man broke my fall
in such a way that I was not hurt. Indeed, at the moment I was chiefly
conscious of intense anger and disgust. If Griffin had followed his
instinct and destroyed that regiment, as he could have done by one
discharge, the result of the whole battle might have been different. As
it was, both his and Rickett's batteries were practically annihilated."

[Footnote: Since the above was written Colonel Hasbrouck has given me
an account of this crisis in the battle. He was sufficiently near to
hear the conversation found in the text, and to enable me to supplement
it by fuller details. Captain Griffin emphatically declared that no
Union regiment could possibly come from that quarter, adding, "They are
dressed in gray."

Major Barry with equal emphasis asserted that they were National
troops, and unfortunately we had regiments in gray uniforms. Seeing
that Captain Griffin was not convinced, he said peremptorily, "I
command you not to fire on that regiment."

Of course this direct order ended the controversy, and Captain Griffin
directed that his guns be shifted again toward the main body of the
enemy, while he rode forward a little space to reconnoitre.

During all this fatal delay the Confederate regiment was approaching,
marching by the flank, and so passed at one time within pointblank
range of the guns that would scarcely have left a man upon his feet.
The nature of their advance was foolhardy in the extreme, and at the
time that Captain Griffin wished to fire they were practically
helpless. A Virginia worm-fence was in their path, and so frightened,
nervous, and excited were they that, instead of tearing it down, they
began clambering over it until by weight and numbers it was trampled
under foot.

They approached so near that the order to "fire low" was distinctly
heard by our men as the Confederates went into battle-line formation.

The scene following their volley almost defies description. The horses
attached to caissons not only tore down and through the ascending
National battle-line, but Colonel--then Lieutenant--Hasbrouck saw
several teams dash over the knoll toward the Confederate regiment, that
opened ranks to let them pass. So novel were the scenes of war at that
time that the Confederates were as much astonished as the members of
the batteries left alive, and at first did not advance, although it was
evident that there were, at the moment, none to oppose them. The storm
of Rebel bullets had ranged so low that Lieutenant Hasbrouck and
Captain Griffin owed their safety to the fact that they were mounted.
The horses of both officers were wounded. On the way down the northern
<DW72> of the hill, with the few Union survivors, Captain Griffin met
Major Barry, and in his intense anger and grief reproached him
bitterly. The latter gloomily admitted that he had been mistaken.

Captain Ricketts was wounded, and the battle subsequently surged back
and forth over his prostrate form, but eventually he was sent as a
captive to Richmond.]

The major uttered an imprecation.

"I was pinned to the ground by the weight of my horse, but not so
closely but that I could look around. The carnage had been frightful.
But few were on their feet, and they in rapid motion to the rear. The
horses left alive rushed down the hill with the caissons, spreading
dismay, confusion, and disorder through the ascending line of battle.
Our supporting regiment in the rear, that had been lying on their arms,
sprang to their feet and stood like men paralyzed with horror;
meanwhile, the Rebel regiment, re-enforced, was advancing rapidly on
the disabled guns--their defenders lay beneath and around them--firing
as they came. Our support gave them one ineffectual volley, then turned
and fled."

Again the major relieved his mind in his characteristic way.

"But you, Alford?" cried Grace, leaning forward with clasped hands,
while his aunt came and buried her face upon his shoulder. "Are you
keeping your promise to live?" she whispered.

"Am I not here safe and sound?" he replied, cheerily. "Nothing much
happened to me, Grace. When I saw the enemy was near, I merely doubled
myself up under my horse, and was nothing to them but a dead Yankee. I
was only somewhat trodden upon, as I told you, when the Confederates
tried to turn the guns against our forces.

"I fear I am doing a wrong to the ladies by going into these sanguinary
details."

"No," said the major, emphatically; "Mrs. Mayburn would have been a
general had she been a man; and Grace has heard about battles all her
life. It's a great deal better to understand from the start what this
war means."

"I especially wished Hilland to hear the details of this battle as far
as I saw them, for I think they contain lessons that may be of great
service to him. That he would engage in the war was a foregone
conclusion from the first; and with his means and ability he may take a
very important part in it. But of this later.

"As I told you, I made the rather close acquaintance of your kin,
Grace, and can testify that the 'fa' of their feet' was not
'fairy-like.' Before they could accomplish their purpose of turning the
guns on our lines, I heard the rushing tramp of a multitude, with
defiant shouts and yells. Rebels fell around me. The living left the
guns, sought to form a line, but suddenly gave way in dire confusion,
and fled to the cover from which they came. A moment later a body of
our men surged like an advancing wave over the spot they had occupied.

"Now was my chance; and I reached up and seized the hand of a tall,
burly Irishman. "What the divil du ye want?" he cried, and in his mad
excitement was about to thrust me through for a Confederate.

"'Halt!' I thundered. The familiar word of command restrained him long
enough for me to secure his attention. 'Would you kill a Union man?'"

"'Is it Union ye are? What yez doin' here, thin, widut a uniform?'

"I showed him my badge of correspondent, and explained briefly.

"Strange as it may seem to you, he uttered a loud, jolly laugh. 'Faix,
an' it's a writer ye are. Ye'll be apt to git some memmyrandums the day
that ye'll carry about wid ye till ye die, and that may be in about a
minnit. I'll shtop long enough to give yez a lift, or yez hoss,
rather;' and he seized poor Mayburn by the head. His excitement seemed
to give him the strength of a giant, for in a moment I was released and
stood erect.

"'Give me a musket,' I cried, 'and I'll stand by you.'

"'Bedad, hilp yersilf,' he replied, pushing forward. 'There's plenty o'
fellers lyin' aroun' that has no use for them;' and he was lost in the
confused advance.

"All this took place in less time than it takes to describe it, for
events at that juncture were almost as swift as bullets. Lame as I was,
I hobbled around briskly, and soon secured a good musket with a supply
of cartridges. As with the rest, my blood was up--don't smile, Hilland:
I had been pretty cool until the murderous discharge that killed my
horse--and I was soon in the front line, firing with the rest.

"Excited as I was, I saw that our position was desperate, for a heavy
force of Confederates was swarming toward us. I looked around and saw
that part of our men were trying to drag off the guns. This seemed the
more important work; and discretion also whispered that with my bruised
foot I should be captured in five minutes unless I was further to the
rear. So I took a pull at a gun; but we had made little progress before
there was another great surging wave from the other direction, and our
forces were swept down the hill again, I along with the rest. The
confusion was fearful; the regiments with which I had been acting went
all to pieces, and had no more organization than if they had been mixed
up by a whirlwind.

"I was becoming too lame to walk, and found myself in a serious
dilemma." "Ha! ha! ha!" laughed Hilland. "It was just becoming serious,
eh?"

"Well, I didn't realize my lameness before; and as retreat was soon to
be order of the day, there was little prospect of my doing my share. As
I was trying to extricate myself from the shattered regiments, I saw a
riderless horse plunging toward me. To seize his bridle and climb into
the saddle was the work of a moment; and I felt that, unlike McDowell,
I was still master of the situation. Working my out of the press and to
our right, I saw that another charge for the guns by fresh troops was
in progress. It seemed successful at first. The guns were retaken, but
soon the same old story was repeated, and a corresponding rush from the
other side swept our men back.

"Would you believe it, this capture and recapture occurred several
times. A single regiment even would dash forward, and actually drive
the Rebels back, only to lose a few moments later what they had gained.
Never was there braver fighting, never worse tactics. The repeated
successes of small bodies of troops proved that a compact battle line
could have swept the ridge, and not only retaken the guns, but made
them effective in the conflict. As it was, the two sides worried and
tore each other like great dogs, governed merely by the impulse and
instinct of fight. The batteries were the bone between them.

"This senseless, wasteful struggle could not go on forever. That it
lasted as long as it did speaks volumes in favor of the material of
which our future soldiers are to be made. As I rode slowly from the
line and scene of actual battle, of which I had had enough, I became
disheartened. We had men in plenty--there were thousands on every
side--but in what condition! There was no appearance of fear among the
men I saw at about four P.M. (I can only guess the time, for my watch
had stopped), but abundant evidence of false confidence and still more
of the indifference of men who feel they have done all that should be
required of them and are utterly fagged out. Multitudes, both officers
and privates, were lying and lounging around waiting for their comrades
to finish the ball.

"For instance, I would ask a man to what regiment he belonged, and he
would tell me.

"'Where is it?'

"'Hanged if I know. Saw a lot of the boys awhile ago.'

"Said an officer in answer to my inquiries, 'No; I don't know where the
colonel is, and I don't care. After one of our charges we all adjourned
like a town meeting. I'm played out; have been on my feet since one
o'clock last night.'

"These instances were characteristic of the state of affairs in certain
parts of the field that I visited. Plucky or conscientious fellows
would join their comrades in the fight without caring what regiment
they acted with; but the majority of the great disorganized mass did
what they pleased, after the manner of a country fair, crowding in all
instances around places where water could be obtained. Great numbers
had thrown away their canteens and provisions, as too heavy to carry in
the heat, or as impediments in action. Officers and men were mixed up
promiscuously, hobnobbing and chaffing in a languid way, and talking
over their experiences, as if they were neighbors at home. The most
wonderful part of it all was that they had no sense of their danger and
of the destruction they were inviting by their unsoldierly course.

"I tried to impress these dangers on one or two, but the reply was,
'Oh, hang it! The Rebs are as badly used up as we are. Don't you see
things are growing more quiet? Give us a rest!'

"By this time I had worked my way well to my right, and was on a little
eminence watching our line advance, wondering at the spirit with which
the fight was still maintained. Indeed, I grew hopeful once more as I
saw the good work that the regiments still intact were doing. There was
much truth in the remark that the Rebels were used up also, unless they
had reserves of which we knew nothing. At that time we had no idea that
we had been fighting, not only Beauregard, but also Johnson from the
Shenandoah.

"My hope was exceedingly intensified by the appearance of a long line
of troops emerging from the woods on our flank and rear, for I never
dreamed that they could be other than our own re-enforcements. Suddenly
I caught sight of a flag which I had learned to know too well. The line
halted a moment, muskets were levelled, and I found myself in a perfect
storm of bullets. I assure you I made a rapid change of base, for when
our line turned I should be between two fires. As it was, I was cut
twice in this arm while galloping away. In a few moments a battery also
opened upon our flank; and it became as certain as day that a large
Confederate force from some quarter had been hurled upon the flank and
rear of our exhausted forces. The belief that Johnson's army had
arrived spread like wildfire. How absurd and crude it all seems now! We
had been fighting Johnson from the first.

"All aggressive action on our part now ceased; and as if governed by
one common impulse, the army began its retreat.

"Try to realize it. Our retirement was not ordered. There were
thousands to whom no order could be given unless with a voice like a
thunder peal. Indeed, one may say, the order was given by the thunder
of that battery on our flank. It was heard throughout the field; and
the army, acting as individuals or in detachments, decided to leave. To
show how utterly bereft of guidance, control, and judgment were our
forces, I have merely to say that each man started back by exactly the
same route he had come, just as a horse would do, while right before
them was the Warrenton Pike, a good, straight road direct to
Centerville, which was distant but little over four miles.

"This disorganized, exhausted mob was as truly in just the fatal
condition for the awful contagion we call 'panic' as it would have been
from improper food and other causes, for some other epidemic. The
Greeks, who always had a reason for everything, ascribed the nameless
dread, the sudden and unaccountable fear, which bereaves men of manhood
and reason, to the presence of a god. It is simply a latent human
weakness, which certain conditions rarely fail to develop. They were
all present at the close of that fatal day. I tell you frankly that I
felt something of it myself, and at a time, too, when I knew I was not
in the least immediate danger. To counteract it I turned and rode
deliberately toward the enemy, and the emotion passed. I half believe,
however, that if I had yielded, it would have carried me away like an
attack of the plague. The moral of it all is, that the conditions of
the disease should be guarded against.

"When it became evident that the army was uncontrollable and was
leaving the field, I pressed my way to the vicinity of McDowell to see
what he would do. What could he do? I never saw a man so overwhelmed
with astonishment and anger. Almost to the last I believe he expected
to win the day. He and his officers commanded, stormed, entreated. He
might as well have tried to stop Niagara above the falls as that human
tide. He sent orders in all directions for a general concentration at
Centerville, and then with certain of his staff galloped away. I tried
to follow, but was prevented by the interposing crowd.

"I then joined a detachment of regulars and marines, who marched
quietly in prompt obedience of orders; and we made our way through the
disorder like a steamer through the surging waves. All the treatises on
discipline that were ever written would not have been so convincing as
that little oasis of organization. They marched very slowly, and often
halted to cover the retreat.

"I had now seen enough on the further bank of Bull Run, and resolved to
push ahead as fast as my horse would walk to the eastern side.
Moreover, my leg and wounds were becoming painful, and I was
exceedingly weary. I naturally followed the route taken by Tyler's
command in coming upon and returning from the field, and crossed Bull
Run some distance above the Stone Bridge. The way was so impeded by
fugitives that my progress was slow, but when I at last reached the
Warrenton Turnpike and proceeded toward a wretched little stream called
Cub Run, I witnessed a scene that beggars description.

"Throughout the entire day, and especially in the afternoon, vehicles
of every description--supply wagons, ambulances, and the carriages of
civilians--had been congregating in the Pike vicinity of Stone Bridge.
When the news of the defeat reached this point, and the roar of cannon
and musketry began to approach instead of recede, a general movement
toward Centerville began. This soon degenerated into the wildest panic,
and the road was speedily choked by storming, cursing, terror-stricken
men, who in their furious haste, defeated their own efforts to escape.
It was pitiful, it was shameful, to see ambulances full of the wounded
shoved to one side and left by the cowardly thieves who had galloped
away on the horses. It was one long scene of wreck and ruin, through
which pressed a struggling, sweating, cursing throng. Horses with their
traces cut, and carrying two and even three men, were urged on and over
everybody that could not get out of the way. Everything was abandoned
that would impede progress, and arms and property of all kinds were
left as a rich harvest for the pursuing Confederates. Their cavalry,
hovering near, like hawks eager for the prey, made dashes here and
there, as opportunity offered.

"I picked my way through the woods rather than take my chances in the
road, and so my progress was slow. To make matters tenfold worse, I
found when I reached the road leading to the north through the 'Big
Woods' that the head of the column that had come all the way around by
Sudley's Ford, the route of the morning march, was mingling with the
masses already thronging the Pike. The confusion, the selfish,
remorseless scramble to get ahead, seemed as horrible as it could be;
but imagine the condition of affairs when on reaching the vicinity of
Cub Run we found that a Rebel battery had opened upon the bridge, our
only visible means of crossing. A few moments later, from a little
eminence, I saw a shot take effect on a team of horses; and a heavy
caisson was overturned directly in the centre of the bridge, barring
all advance, while the mass of soldiers, civilians, and nondescript
army followers, thus detained under fire, became perfectly wild with
terror. The caisson was soon removed, and the throng rushed on.

"I had become so heart-sick, disgusted, and weary of the whole thing,
that my one impulse was to reach Centerville, where I supposed we
should make a stand. As I was on the north side of the Pike, I skirted
up the stream with a number of others until we found a place where we
could scramble across, and soon after we passed within a brigade of our
troops that were thrown across the road to check the probable pursuit
of the enemy.

"On reaching Centerville, we found everything in the direst confusion.
Colonel Miles, who commanded the reserves at that point, was unfit for
the position, and had given orders that had imperilled the entire army.
It was said that the troops which had come around by Sudley's ford had
lost all their guns at Cub Run; and the fugitives arriving were
demoralized to the last degree. Indeed, a large part of the army,
without waiting for orders or paying heed to any one, continued their
flight toward Washington. Holding the bridle of my horse, I lay down
near headquarters to rest and to learn what would be done. A council of
war was held, and as the result we were soon on the retreat again. The
retreat, or panic-stricken flight rather, had, in fact, never ceased on
the part of most of those who had been in the main battle. That they
could keep up this desperate tramp was a remarkable example of human
endurance when sustained by excitement, fear, or any strong emotion.
The men who marched or fled on Sunday night had already been on their
feet twenty-four hours, and the greater part of them had experienced
the terrific strain of actual battle.

"My story has already been much too long. From the daily journals you
have learned pretty accurately what occurred after we reached
Centerville. Richardson's and Blenker's brigades made a quiet and
orderly retreat when all danger to the main body was over. The sick and
wounded were left behind with spoils enough to equip a good-sized
Confederate army. I followed the headquarters escort, and eventually
made my way into Washington in the drenching rain of Monday, and found
the city crowded with fugitives to whom the loyal people were extending
unbounded hospitality. I felt ill and feverish, and yielded to the
impulse to reach home; and I never acted more wisely.

"Now you have the history of my first battle; and may I never see one
like it again. And yet I believe the battle of Bull Run will become one
of the most interesting studies of American history and character. On
our side it was not directed by generals, according to the rules of
war. It was fought by Northern men after their own fashion and
according to their native genius; and I shall ever maintain that it was
fought far better than could have been expected of militia who knew
less of the practical science of war than of the philosophy of Plato.

"The moral of my story, Hilland, scarcely needs pointing; and it
applies to us both. When we go, let us go as soldiers; and if we have
only a corporal's command, let us lead soldiers. The grand Northern
onset of which you have dreamed so long has been made. You have seen
the result. You have the means and ability to equip and command a
regiment. Infuse into it your own spirit; and at the same time make it
a machine that will hold together as long as you have a man left."

"Graham," said Hilland, slowly and deliberately, "there is no resisting
the logic of events. You have convinced me of my error, and I shall
follow your advice."

"And, Grace," concluded Graham, "believe me, by so doing he adds
tenfold to his chances of living to a good old age."

"Yes," she said, looking at him gratefully through tear-dimmed eyes.
"You have convinced me of that also."

"Instead of rushing off to some out-of-the-way place or camp, he must
spend months in recruiting and drilling his men; and you can be with
him."

"Oh, Alford!" she exclaimed, "is that the heavenly logic of your long,
terrible story?"

"It's the rational logic; you could not expect any other kind from me."

"Well, Graham," ejaculated the major, with a long sigh of relief, "I
wouldn't have missed your account of the battle for a year's pay. And
mark my words, young men, you may not live to see it, or I either, but
the North will win in this fight. That's the fact that I'm convinced of
in spite of the panic."

"The fact that I'm convinced of," said Mrs. Mayburn brusquely, mopping
her eyes meanwhile, "is that Alford needs rest. I'm going to take him
home at once." And the young man seconded her in spite of all
protestations.

"Dear, vigilant old aunty," said Graham, when they were alone, "you
know when I have reached the limit of endurance."

"Ah! Alford, Alford," moaned the poor woman, "I fear you are seeking
death in this war."

He looked at her tenderly for a moment, and then said, "Hereafter I
will try to take no greater risks than a soldier's duties require."



CHAPTER XXII

SELF-SENTENCED

Days, weeks, and months with their changes came and went. Hilland, with
characteristic promptness, carried out his friend's suggestion; and
through his own means and personal efforts, in great measure, recruited
and equipped a regiment of cavalry. He was eager that his friend should
take a command in it; but Graham firmly refused.

"Our relations are too intimate for discipline," he said. "We might be
placed in situations wherein our friendship would embarrass us."

Grace surmised that he had another reason; for, as time passed, she saw
less and less of him. He had promptly obtained a lieutenancy in a
regiment that was being recruited at Washington; and by the time her
husband's regiment reached that city, the more disciplined organization
to which Graham was attached was ordered out on the Virginia picket
line beyond Arlington Heights.

Hilland, with characteristic modesty, would not take the colonelcy of
the regiment that he chiefly had raised; but secured for the place a
fine officer of the regular army, and contented himself with a
captaincy. "Efficiency of the service is what I am aiming at," he said.
"I would much rather rise by merit from the ranks than command a
brigade by favor."

Unlike many men of wealth, he had a noble repugnance to taking any
public advantage of it; and the numerous officers of the time that had
obtained their positions by influence were his detestation.

Graham's predictions in regard to Grace were fulfilled. For long months
she saw her husband almost daily, and, had it not been for the cloud
that hung over the future, it would have been one of the happiest
periods of her life. She saw Hilland engaged in tasks that brought him
a deep and growing satisfaction. She saw her father in his very
element. There were no more days of dulness and weariness for him. The
daily journals teemed with subjects of interest, and with their aid he
planned innumerable campaigns. Military men were coming and going, and
with these young officers the veteran was an oracle. He gave Hilland
much shrewd advice; and even when it was not good, it was listened to
with deference, and so the result was just as agreeable to the major.

What sweeter joy is there for the aged than to sit in the seat of
judgment and counsel, and feel that the world would go awry were it not
for the guidance and aid of their experience! Alas for the poor old
major, and those like him! The world does not grow old as they do. It
only changes and becomes more vast and complicated. What was wisest and
best in their day becomes often as antiquated as the culverin that once
defended castellated ramparts.

Happily the major had as yet no suspicion of this; and when he and
Grace accompanied Hilland and his regiment to Washington, the measure
of his content was full. There he could daily meet other veterans of
the regular service; and in listening to their talk, one might imagine
that McClellan had only to attend their sittings to learn how to subdue
the rebellion within a few months. These veterans were not bitter
partisans. General Robert E. Lee was "Bob Lee" to them; and the other
chiefs of the Confederacy were spoken of by some familiar _sobriquet_,
acquired in many instances when boys at West Point. They would have
fought these old friends and acquaintances to the bitter end, according
to the tactics of the old school; but after the battle, those that
survived would have hobnobbed together over a bottle of wine as
sociably as if they had been companions in arms.

Mrs. Mayburn accompanied the major's party to Washington, for, as she
said, she was "hungry for a sight of her boy." As often as his duties
permitted, Graham rode in from the front to see her. But it began to be
noticed that after these visits he ever sought some perilous duty on
the picket line, or engaged in some dash at the enemy or guerillas in
the vicinity. He could not visit his aunt without seeing Grace, whose
tones were now so gentle when she spoke to him, and so full of her
heart's deep gratitude, that a renewal of his old fierce fever of
unrest was the result. He was already gaining a reputation for extreme
daring, combined with unusual coolness and vigilance; and before the
campaign of '62 opened he had been promoted to a first lieutenancy.

Time passed; the angry torrent of the war broadened and deepened. Men
and measures that had stood out like landmarks were engulfed and
forgotten.

It goes without saying that the friends did their duty in camp and
field. There were no more panics. The great organizer, McClellan, had
made soldiers of the vast army; and had he been retained in the service
as the creator of armies for other men to lead, his labors would have
been invaluable.

At last, to the deep satisfaction of Graham and Hilland, their
regiments were brigaded together, and they frequently met. It was then
near the close of the active operations of '62, and the friends now
ranked as Captain Graham and Major Hilland. Notwithstanding the
reverses suffered by the Union arms, the young men's confidence was
unabated as to the final issue. Hilland had passed through several
severe conflicts, and his name had been mentioned by reason of his
gallantry. Grace began to feel that fate could never be so cruel as to
destroy her very life in his life. She saw that her father exulted more
over her husband's soldierly qualities than in all his wealth; and
although they spent the summer season as usual at the seaside with Mrs.
Mayburn, the hearts of all three were following two regiments through
the forests and fields of Virginia. Half a score of journals were daily
searched for items concerning them, and the arrival of the mails was
the event of the day.

There came a letter in the autumn which filled the heart of Grace with
immeasurable joy and very, very deep sadness. Mrs. Mayburn was stricken
to the heart, and would not be comforted, while the old major swore and
blessed God by turns.

The cause was this. The brigade with which the friends were connected
was sent on a _reconnaissance_, and they felt the enemy strongly before
retiring, which at last they were compelled to do precipitately. It so
happened that Hilland commanded the rear-guard. In an advance he ever
led; on a retreat he was apt to keep well to the rear. In the present
instance the pursuit had been prompt and determined, and he had been
compelled to make more than one repelling charge to prevent the
retiring column from being pressed too hard. His command had thus lost
heavily, and at last overwhelming numbers drove them back at a gallop.

Graham, in the rear of the main column, which had just crossed a small
wooden bridge over a wide ditch or little run through the fields, saw
the headlong retreat of Hilland's men, and he instantly deployed his
company that he might check the close pursuit by a volley. As the Union
troopers neared the bridge it was evidently a race for life and
liberty, for they were outnumbered ten to one. In a few moments they
began to pour over, but Hilland did not lead. They were nearly all
across, but their commander was not among them; and Graham was wild
with anxiety as he sat on his horse at the right of his line waiting to
give the order to fire. Suddenly, in the failing light of the evening,
he saw Hilland with his right arm hanging helpless, spurring a horse
badly blown; while gaining fast upon him were four savage-looking
Confederates, their sabres emitting a steely, deadly sheen, and
uplifted to strike the moment they could reach him.

With the rapidity of light, Graham's eye measured the distance between
his friend and the bridge, and his instantaneous conviction was that
Hilland was doomed, for he could not order a volley without killing him
almost to a certainty. At that supreme crisis, the suggestion passed
through his mind like a lurid flash, "In a few moments Hilland will be
dead, and Grace may yet be mine."

Then, like an avenging demon, the thought confronted him. He saw it in
its true aspect, and in an outburst of self-accusing fury he passed the
death sentence on himself. Snatching out the long, straight sword he
carried, he struck with the spur the noble horse he bestrode, gave him
the rein, and made straight for the deep, wide ditch. There was no time
to go around by the bridge, which was still impeded by the last of the
fugitives.

His men held their breath as they saw his purpose. The feat seemed
impossible; but as his steed cleared the chasm by a magnificent bound,
a loud cheer rang down the line. The next moment Hilland, who had
mentally said farewell to his wife, saw Graham passing him like a
thunderbolt. There was an immediate clash of steel, and then the
foremost pursuer was down, cleft to the jaw. The next shared the same
fate; for Graham, in what he deemed his death struggle, had almost
ceased to be human. His spirit, stung to a fury that it had never known
and would never know again, blazed in his eyes and flashed in the
lightning play of his sword. The two others pursuers reined up their
steeds and sought to attack him on either side. He threw his own horse
back almost upon his haunches, and was on his guard, meaning to strike
home the moment the fence of his opponents permitted. At this instant,
however, there were a dozen shots from the swarming Rebels, that were
almost upon him, and he and his horse were seen to fall to the ground.
Meantime Hilland had instinctively tried to rein in his horse, that he
might return to the help of his friend, although from his wound he
could render no aid. Some of his own men who had crossed the bridge,
and in a sense of safety had regained their wits, saw his purpose, and
dashing back, they formed a body-guard around him, and dragged his
horse swiftly beyond the line of battle.

A yell of anger accompanied by a volley came from Graham's men that he
had left in line, and a dozen Confederate saddles were emptied; but
their return fire was so deadly, and their numbers were so
overwhelming, that the officer next in command ordered retreat at a
gallop. Hilland, in his anguish, would not have left his friend had not
his men grasped his rein and carried him off almost by force. Meanwhile
the darkness set in so rapidly that the pursuit soon slackened and
ceased.

During the remainder of the ride back to their camp, which was reached
late at night, the ardent-natured Hilland was almost demented. He wept,
raved, and swore. He called himself an accursed coward, that he had
left the friend who had saved his life. His broken arm was as nothing
to him, and eventually the regimental surgeon had to administer strong
opiates to quiet him.

When late the next day he awoke, it all came back to him with a dully
heavy ache at heart. Nothing could be done. His mind, now restored to
its balance, recognized the fact. The brigade was under orders to move
to another point, and he was disabled and compelled to take a leave of
absence until fit for duty. The inexorable mechanism of military life
moves on, without the slightest regard for the individual; and Graham's
act was only one of the many heroic deeds of the war, some seen and
more unnoted.



CHAPTER XXIII

AN EARLY DREAM FULFILLED

A few days later Grace welcomed her husband with a long, close embrace,
but with streaming eyes; while he bowed his head upon her shoulder and
groaned in the bitterness of his spirit.

"Next to losing you, Grace," he said, "this is the heaviest blow I
could receive; and to think that he gave his life for me! How can I
ever face Mrs. Mayburn?"

But his wife comforted him as only she knew how to soothe and bless;
and Mrs. Mayburn saw that he was as sincere a mourner as herself.
Moreover they would not despair of Graham, for although he had been
seen to fall, he might only have been wounded and made a prisoner. Thus
the bitterness of their grief was mitigated by hope.

This hope was fulfilled in a most unexpected way, by a cheerful letter
from Graham himself; and the explanation of this fact requires that the
story should return to him.

He thought that the sentence of death which he had passed upon himself
had been carried into effect. He had felt himself falling, and then
there had been sudden darkness. Like a dim taper flickering in the
night, the spark of life began to kindle again. At first he was
conscious of but one truth-that he was not dead. Where he now was, in
this world or some other, what he now was, he did not know; but the
essential _ego_, Alford Graham, had not ceased to exist. The fact
filled him with a dull, wondering awe. Memory slowly revived, and its
last impression was that he was to die and had died, and yet he was not
dead.

As a man's characteristic traits will first assert themselves, he lay
still and feebly tried to comprehend it all. Suddenly a strange, horrid
sound smote upon his senses and froze his blood with dread. It must be
life after death, for only his mind appeared to have any existence. He
could not move. Again the unearthly sound, which could not be a human
shriek, was repeated; and by half-involuntary and desperate effort he
started up and looked around. The scene at first was obscure, confused,
and awful. His eye could not explain it, and he instinctively stretched
out his hands; and through the sense of touch all that had happened
came back to his confused brain. He first felt of himself, passed his
hand over his forehead, his body, his limbs: he certainly was in the
flesh, and that to his awakening intelligence meant much, since it
accorded with his belief that life and the body were inseparable. Then
he felt around him in the darkness, and his hands touched the grassy
field. This fact righted him speedily. As in the old fable, when he
touched the earth he was strong. He next noted that his head rested on
a smooth rock that rose but little above the plain, and that he must
have fallen upon it. He sat up and looked around; and as the brain
gradually resumed its action after its terrible shock, the situation
became intelligible. The awful sounds that he had heard came from a
wounded horse that was struggling feebly in the light of the rising
moon, now in her last quarter. He was upon the scene of last evening's
conflict, and the obscure objects that lay about him were the bodies of
the dead. Yes, there before him were the two men he had killed; and
their presence brought such a strong sense of repugnance and horror
that he sprang to his feet and recoiled away.

He looked around. There was not a living object in sight except the
dying horse. The night wind moaned about him, and soughed and sighed as
if it were a living creature mourning over the scene.

It became clear to him that he had been left as dead. Yes, and he had
been robbed, too; for he shivered, and found that his coat and vest
were gone, also his hat, his money, his watch, and his boots. He walked
unsteadily to the little bridge, and where he had left his line of
faithful men, all was dark and silent. With a great throb of joy he
remembered that Hilland must have sped across that bridge to safety,
while he had expiated his evil thought.

He then returned and circled around the place. He was evidently alone;
but the surmise occurred to him that the Confederates would return in
the morning to bury their dead, and if he would escape he must act
promptly. And yet he could not travel in his present condition. He must
at least have hat, coat, and boots. His only resource was to take them
from the dead; but the thought of doing so was horrible to him. Reason
about it as he might, he drew near their silent forms with an
uncontrollable repugnance. He almost gave up his purpose, and took a
few hasty steps away, but a thorn pierced his foot and taught him his
folly. Then his imperious will asserted itself, and with an imprecation
on his weakness he returned to the nearest silent form, and took from
it a limp felt hat, a coat, and a pair of boots, all much the worse for
wear; and having arrayed himself in these, started on the trail of the
Union force.

He had not gone over a mile when, on surmounting an eminence, he saw by
dying fires in a grove beneath him that he was near the bivouac of a
body of soldiers. He hardly hoped they could be a detachment of Union
men; and yet the thought that it was possible led him to approach
stealthily within earshot. At last he heard one patrol speak to another
in unmistakable Southern accent, and he found that the enemy was in his
path.

Silently as a ghost he stole away, and sought to make a wide detour to
the left, but soon lost himself hopelessly in a thick wood. At last,
wearied beyond mortal endurance, he crawled into what seemed the
obscurest place he could find, and lay down and slept.

The sun was above the horizon when he awoke, stiff, sore, and hungry,
but refreshed, rested. A red squirrel was barking at him derisively
from a bough near, but no other evidences of life were to be seen.
Sitting up, he tried to collect his thoughts and decide upon his
course. It at once occurred to him that he would be missed, and that
pursuit might be made with hounds. At once he sprang to his feet and
made his way toward a valley, which he hoped would be drained by a
running stream. The welcome sound of water soon guided him, and pushing
through the underbrush he drank long and deeply, bathed the ugly bruise
on his head, and then waded up the current.

He had not gone much over half a mile before he saw through an opening
a <DW64> gazing wonderingly at him. "Come here, my good fellow," he
cried.

The man approached slowly, cautiously.

"I won't hurt you," Graham resumed; "indeed you can see that I'm in
your power. Won't you help me?"

"Dunno, mas'r," was the non-committal reply.

"Are you in favor of Lincoln's men or the Confederates?" "Dunno, mas'r.
It 'pends."

"It depends upon what?"

"On whedder you'se a Linkum man or 'Federate."

"Well, then, here's the truth. The Lincoln men are your best friends,
if you've sense enough to know it; and I'm one of them. I was in the
fight off there yesterday, and am trying to escape."

"Oh golly! I'se sense enough;" and the genial gleam of the man's ivory
was an omen of good to Graham. "But," queried the <DW64>, "how you wear
'Federate coat and hat?"

"Because I was left for dead, and mine were stolen. I had to wear
something. The Confederates don't wear blue trousers like these."

"Dat's so; an' I knows yer by yer talk and look. I knows a 'Federate
well as I does a <DW53>. But dese yere's mighty ticklish times; an' a
<DW65> hab no show ef he's foun' meddlin'. What's yer gwine ter do?"

"Perhaps you can advise me. I'm afraid they'll put hounds on my trail"

"Dat dey will, if dey misses yer."

"Well, that's the reason I'm here in the stream. But I can't keep this
up long. I'm tired and hungry. I've heard that you people befriended
Lincoln's men. We are going to win, and now's the time for you to make
friends with those who will soon own this country."

"Ob corse, you'se a-gwine ter win. Linkum is de Moses we're all
a-lookin' ter. At all our meetin's we'se a-prayin' for him and to him.
He's de Lord's right han' to lead we alls out ob bondage."

"Well, I swear to you I'm one of his men."

"I knows you is, and I'se a-gwine to help you, houn's or no houn's.
Keep up de run a right smart ways, and you'se'll come ter a big flat
stun'. Stan' dar in de water, an I'll be dar wid help." And the man
disappeared in a long swinging run.

Graham did as he was directed, and finally reached a flat rock, from
which through the thick bordering growth something like a path led
away. He waited until his patience was wellnigh exhausted, and then
heard far back upon his trail the faint bay of a hound. He was about to
push his way on up the stream, when there was a sound of hasty steps,
and his late acquaintance with another stalwart fellow appeared.

"Dere's no time ter lose, mas'r. Stan' whar you is," and in a moment he
splashed in beside him. "Now get on my back. Jake dar will spell me
when I wants him; fer yer feet mustn't touch de groun';" and away they
went up the obscure path.

This was a familiar mode of locomotion to Graham, for he had been
carried thus by the hour over the mountain passes of Asia. They had not
gone far before they met two or three <DW52> women with a basket of
clothes.

"Dat's right," said Graham's conveyance; "wash away right smart, and
dunno nothin'. Yer see," he continued, "dis yer is Sunday, and we'se
not in de fields, an de women folks can help us;" and Graham though
that the old superstition of a Sabbath has served him well for once.

They soon left the path and entered some very heavy timber, through an
opening of which he saw the <DW64> quarters and plantation dwellings in
the distance.

At last they stopped before an immense tree. Some brush was pushed
aside, revealing an aperture through which Graham was directed to
crawl, and he found himself within a heart of oak.

"Dar's room enough in dar ter sit down," said his sable friend. "An'
you'se 'll find a jug ob milk an' a pone ob corn meal. Luck ter yer.
Don't git lonesome like and come out. We'se a-gwine ter look ater yer;"
and the opening was hidden by brush again, and Graham was left alone.

From a small aperture above his head a pencil of sunlight traversed the
gloom, to which his eyes soon grew accustomed, and he saw a rude seat
and the food mentioned. By extending his feet slightly through the
opening by which he had entered, he found the seat really comfortable;
and the coarse fare was ambrosial to his ravenous appetite. Indeed, he
began to enjoy the adventure. His place of concealment was so
unexpected and ingenious that it gave him a sense of security. He had
ever had a great love for trees, and now it seemed as if one had opened
its very heart to hide him.

Then his hosts and defenders interested him exceedingly. By reason of
residence in New England and his life abroad, he was not familiar with
the <DW64>, especially his Southern type. Their innocent guile and
preposterous religious belief amused him. He both smiled and wondered
at their faith in "Linkum," whom at that time he regarded as a long
headed, uncouth Western politician, who had done not a little mischief
of interfering with the army.

"It is ever so with all kinds of superstition and sentimental belief,"
he soliloquized. "Some conception of the mind is embodied, or some
object is idealized and magnified until the original is lost sight of,
and men come to worship a mere fancy of their own. Then some mind,
stronger and more imaginative than the average, gives shape and form to
this confused image; and so there grows in time a belief, a theology,
or rather a mythology. To think that this Lincoln, whom I've seen in
attitudes anything but divine, and telling broad, coarse stories--to
think that he should be a demigod, antitype of the venerated Hebrew! In
truth it leads one to suspect, according to analogy, that Moses was a
money-making Jew, and his effort to lead his people to Palestine an
extensive land speculation."

Graham lived to see the day when he acknowledged that the poor <DW64>s
of the most remote plantations had a truer conception of the grand
proportions of Lincoln's character at that time than the majority of
his most cultivated countrymen.

His abstract speculations were speedily brought to a close by the
nearer baying of hounds as they surmounted an eminence over which lay
his trail. On came the hunt, with its echoes rising and falling with
the wind or the inequalities of the ground, until it burst deep-mouthed
and hoarse over the brow of the hill that sloped to the stream. Then
there were confused sounds, both of the dogs and of men's voices, which
gradually approached until there was a pause, caused undoubtedly by a
colloquy with Aunt Sheba and her associate washerwomen. It did not last
very long; and then, to Graham's dismay, the threatening sounds were
renewed, and seemed coming directly toward him. He soon gave up all
hope, and felt that he had merely to congratulate himself that, from
the nature of his hiding-place, he could not be torn by the dogs, when
he perceived that the hunt was coming no nearer--in brief, that it was
passing. He then understood that his refuge must be near the bed of the
stream, from which his pursuers were seeking on either side his
diverging trail. This fact relieved him at once, and quietly he
listened to the sounds, dying away as they had come.

As the sun rose higher the ray of light sloped downward until it
disappeared; and in the profound gloom and quiet he fell asleep. He was
awaked by hearing a voice call, "Mas'r."

Looking down, he saw that the brush had been removed, and that the
opening was partially obstructed by a goblin-like head with little
horns rising all over it.

"Mas'r," said the apparition, "Aunt Sheba sends you dis, and sez de
Lord be wid you."

"Thanks for Aunt Sheba, and you, too, whatever you are," cried Graham;
and to gratify his curiosity he sprang down on his knees and peered out
in time to see a little <DW64> girl replacing the brush, while what he
had mistaken for horns was evidently the child's manner of wearing her
hair. He then gave his attention to the material portion of Aunt
Sheba's offering, and found a rude sort of platter, or low basket, made
of corn husks, and in this another jug of milk, corn bread, and a
delicious broiled chicken done to that turn of perfection of which only
the  aunties of the South are capable.

"Well!" ejaculated Graham. "From this day I'm an abolitionist, a
Republican of the blackest dye." A little later he added, "Any race
that can produce a woman capable of such cookery as this has a future
before it."

Indeed, the whole affair was taking such an agreeable turn that he was
inclined to be jocular.

After another long sleep in the afternoon, he was much refreshed, and
eager to rejoin his command. But Issachar, or Iss, as his associates
called him, the <DW64> who had befriended him in the first instance,
came and explained that the whole country was full of Confederates; and
that it might be several days before it would be safe to seek the Union
lines.

"We'se all lookin' out fer yer, mas'r," he continued; "you won't want
for nothin'. An' we won't kep yer in dis woodchuck hole arter nine ob
de ev'nin'. Don't try ter come out. I'm lookin' t'oder way while I'se
a-talkin. Mean <DW65>s an' 'Federates may be spyin' aroun'. But I
reckon not; I'se laid in de woods all day, a-watchin'.

"Now I tell yer what 'tis, mas'r, I'se made up my mine to put out ob
heah. I'se gwine ter jine de Linkum men fust chance I gits. An' if
yer'll wait an' trus' me, I'll take yer slick and clean; fer I know dis
yer country and ebery hole whar ter hide well as a fox. If I gits safe
ter de Linkum folks, yer'll say a good word fer Iss, I reckon."

"Indeed, I will. If you wish, I'll take you into my own service, and
pay you good wages."

"Done, by golly; and when dey cotch us, dey'll cotch a weasel asleep."

"But haven't you a wife and children?"

"Oh, yah. I'se got a wife, an' I'se got a lot ob chillen somewhar in de
'Fed'racy; but I'll come wid you uns bime by, an' gedder up all I can
fine. I'se 'll come 'long in de shank ob de ev'nin', mas'r, and guv yer
a shakedown in my cabin, an' I'll watch while yer sleeps. Den I'll
bring yer back heah befo' light in de mawnin'."

The presence of Confederate forces required these precautions for
several days, and Iss won Graham's whole heart by his unwearied
patience and vigilance. But the young man soon prevailed on the
faithful fellow to sleep nights while he watched; for after the long
inaction of the day he was almost wild for exercise. Cautious Iss would
have been nearly crazed with anxiety had he known of the
_reconnaissances_ in which his charge indulged while he slept. Graham
succeeded in making himself fully master of the disposition of the
Rebel forces in the vicinity, and eventually learned that the greater
part of them had been withdrawn. When he had communicated this
intelligence to Iss, they prepared to start for the Union lines on the
following night, which proved dark and stormy.

Iss, prudent man, kept the secret of his flight from even his wife, and
satisfied his marital compunctions by chucking her under the chin and
calling her "honey" once or twice while she got supper for him. At
eight in the evening he summoned Graham from his hiding-place, and led
him, with almost the unerring instinct of some wild creature of the
night, due northeast, the direction in which the Union forces were said
to be at that time. It was a long, desolate tramp, and the dawn found
them drenched and weary. But the glorious sun rose warm and bright, and
in a hidden glade of the forest they dried their clothes, rested, and
refreshed themselves. After a long sleep in a dense thicket they were
ready to resume their journey at nightfall. Iss proved an invaluable
guide, for, concealing Graham, he would steal away, communicate with
the <DW64>s, and bring fresh provisions.

On the second night he learned that there was a Union force not very
far distant to the north of their line of march. Graham had good cause
to wonder at the sort of freemasonry that existed among the <DW64>s,
and the facility with which they obtained and transmitted secret
intelligence. Still more had he reason to bless their almost universal
fidelity to the Union cause.

Another <DW64> joined them as guide, and in the gray of the morning they
approached the Union pickets. Graham deemed it wise to wait till they
could advance openly and boldly; and by nine o'clock he was received
with acclamations by his own regiment as one risen from the dead.

After congratulations and brief explanations were over, his first task
was to despatch the two brief letters mentioned, to his aunt and
Hilland, in time to catch the daily mail that left their advanced
position. Then he saw his brigade commander, and made it clear to him
that with a force of about two regiments he could strike a heavy blow
against the Confederates whom he had been reconnoitring; and he offered
to act as guide. His proposition was accepted, and the attacking force
started that very night. By forced marches they succeeded in surprising
the Confederate encampment and in capturing a large number of
prisoners. Iss also surprised his wife and Aunt Sheba even more
profoundly, and before their exclamations ceased he had bundled them
and their meagre belongings into a mule cart, with such of the
"chillen" as had been left to him, and was following triumphantly in
the wake of the victorious Union column; and not a few of their sable
companions kept them company.

The whole affair was regarded as one of the most brilliant episodes of
the campaign and Graham received much credit, not only in the official
reports, but in the press. Indeed, the latter, although with no aid
from the chief actor, obtained an outline of the whole story, from the
rescue of his friend to his guidance of the successful expedition, and
it was repeated with many variations and exaggerations. He cared little
for these brief echoes of fame; but the letters of his aunt, Hilland,
and even the old major, were valued indeed, while a note from the
grateful wife became his treasure of treasures.

They had returned some time before to the St. John cottage, and she had
at last written him a letter "straight from her heart," on the quaint
secretary in the library, as he had dreamed possible on the first
evening of their acquaintance.



CHAPTER XXIV

UNCHRONICLED CONFLICTS

Graham's friends were eager that he should obtain leave of absence, but
he said, "No, not until some time in the winter."

His aunt understood him sufficiently well not to urge the matter, and
it may be added that Grace did also.

Hilland's arm healed rapidly, and happy as he was in his home life at
the cottage he soon began to chafe under inaction. Before very long it
became evident that the major had not wholly outlived his influence at
Washington, for there came an order assigning Major Hilland to duty in
that city; and thither, accompanied by Grace and her father, he soon
repaired. The arrangement proved very agreeable to Hilland during the
period when his regiment could engage in little service beyond that of
dreary picket duty. He could make his labors far more useful to the
government in the city, and could also enjoy domestic life with his
idolized wife. Mrs. Mayburn promised to join them after the holidays,
and the reason for her delay was soon made evident.

One chilly, stormy evening, when nature was in a most uncomfortable
mood, a card was brought to the door of Hilland's rooms at their inn
just as he, with his wife and the major, was sitting down to one of
those exquisite little dinners which only Grace knew how to order.
Hilland glanced at the card, and gave such a shout that the waiter
nearly fell over backward.

"Where is the gentleman? Take me to him on the double-quick. It's
Graham. Hurrah! I'll order another dinner!" and he vanished, chasing
the man downstairs and into the waiting-room, as if he were a
detachment of Confederate cavalry. The decorous people in the hotel
parlor were astounded as Hilland nearly ran over the breathless waiter
at the door, dashed in like a whirlwind, and carried off his friend,
laughing, chaffing, and embracing him all the way up the stairs. It was
the old, wild exuberancy of his college days, only intensified by the
deepest and most grateful emotion.

Grace stood within her door blushing, smiling, and with tears of
feeling in her lovely eyes.

"Here he is," cried Hilland--"the very god of war. Give him his reward,
Grace--a kiss that he will feel to the soles of his boots."

But she needed no prompting, for instead of taking Graham's proffered
hand, she put her hands on his shoulders and kissed him again and
again, exclaiming, "You saved Warren's life; you virtually gave yours
for his; and in saving him you saved me. May God bless you every hour
you live!"

"Grace," he said, gravely and gently, looking down into her swimming
eyes and retaining her hands in a strong, warm clasp, "I am repaid a
thousand-fold. I think this is the happiest moment of my life;" and
then he turned to the major, who was scarcely less demonstrative in his
way than Hilland had been.

"By Jove!" cried the veteran, "the war is going to be the making of you
young fellows. Why, Graham, you no more look like the young man that
played whist with me years since than I do. You have grown
broad-shouldered and _distingue_, and you have the true military air in
spite of that quiet civilian's dress."

"Oh, I shall always be comparatively insignificant," replied Graham,
laughing. "Wait till Hilland wears the stars, as he surely will, and
then you'll see a soldier."

"We see far more than a soldier in you, Alford," said Grace, earnestly.
"Your men told Warren of your almost miraculous leap across the ditch;
and Warren has again and again described your appearance as you rushed
by him on his pursuers. Oh, I've seen the whole thing in my dreams so
often!"

"Yes, Graham; you looked like one possessed. You reminded me of the few
occasions when, in old college days, you got into a fury."

A frown as black as night lowered on Graham's brow, for they were
recalling the most hateful memory of his life--a thought for which he
felt he ought to die; but it passed almost instantly, and in the most
prosaic tones he said, "Good friends, I'm hungry. I've splashed through
Virginia mud twelve mortal hours to-day. Grace, be prepared for such
havoc as only a cavalryman can make. We don't get such fare as this at
the front."

She, with the pretty housewifely bustle which he had admired years ago,
rang the bell and made preparations for a feast.

"Every fatted calf in Washington should be killed for you," she
cried--"prodigal that you are, but only in brave deeds. Where's Iss? I
want to see and feast him also."

"I left him well provided for in the lower regions, and astounding the
'cullud bredren' with stories which only the African can swallow. He
shall come up by and by, for I have my final orders to give. He leads
my horse back to the regiment in the morning, and takes care of him in
my absence. I hope to spend a month with aunt."

"And how much time with us?" asked Hilland, eagerly.

"This evening."

"Now, Graham, I protest--"

"Now, Hilland, I'm ravenous, and here's a dinner fit for the Great
Mogul."

"Oh, I know you of old. When you employ a certain tone you intend to
have your own way; but it isn't fair."

"Don't take it to heart. I'll make another raid on you when I return,
and then we shall soon be at the front together again. Aunty's lonely,
you know."

"Grace and I don't count, I suppose," said the major.

"I had a thousand questions to ask you;" and he looked so aggrieved
that Graham compromised and promised to spend the next day with him.

Then he gave an almost hilarious turn to the rest of the evening, and
one would have thought that he was in the high spirits natural to any
young officer with a month's leave of absence. He described the
"woodchuck hole" which had been his hiding-place, sketched humorously
the portraits of Iss, Aunt Sheba, who was now his aunt's cook, and gave
funny episodes of his midnight prowlings while waiting for a chance to
reach the Union lines. Grace noted how skilfully he kept his own
personality in the background unless he appeared in some absurd or
comical light; and she also noted that his eyes rested upon her less
and less often, until at last, after Iss had had his most flattering
reception, he said good-night rather abruptly.

The next day he entertained the major in a way that was exceedingly
gratifying and flattering to the veteran. He brought some excellent
maps, pointed out the various lines of march, the positions of the
opposing armies, and showed clearly what had been done and what might
have been. He next became the most patient and absorbed listener, as
the old gentleman, by the aid of the same maps, planned a campaign
which during the coming year would have annihilated the Confederacy.
Grace, sitting near the window, might have imagined herself almost
ignored. But she interpreted him differently. She now had the key which
explained his conduct, and more than once tears came into her eyes.

Hilland returned early, having hastened through his duties, and was in
superb spirits. They spent an afternoon together which stood out in
memory like a broad gleam of sunshine in after years; and then Graham
took his leave with messages from all to Mrs. Mayburn, who was to
return with him.

As they were parting, Grace hesitated a moment, and then stepping
forward impulsively she took Graham's hand in both of hers, and said
impetuously: "You have seen how very, very happy we all are. Do you
think that I forget for a moment that I owe it to you?"

Graham's iron nerves gave way. His hand trembled. "Don't speak to me in
that way," he murmured. "Come, Hilland, or I shall miss the train;" and
in a moment he was gone.

Mrs. Mayburn never forgot the weeks he spent with her. Sometimes she
would look at him wonderingly, and once she said: "Alford, it is hard
for me to believe that you have passed through all that you have. Day
after day passes, and you seem perfectly content with my quiet,
monotonous life. You read to me my old favorite authors. You chaff me
and Aunt Sheba about our little domestic economies. Beyond a hasty run
through the morning paper you scarcely look at the daily journals. You
are content with one vigorous walk each day. Indeed you seem to have
settled down and adapted yourself to my old woman's life for the rest
of time. I thought you would be restless, urging my earlier return to
Washington, or seeking to abridge your leave, so that you might return
to the excitement of the camp."

"No, aunty dear, I am not restless. I have outlived and outgrown that
phase of my life. You will find that my pulse is as even as yours.
Indeed I have a deep enjoyment of this profound quiet of our house. I
have fully accepted my lot, and now expect only those changes that come
from without and not from within. To be perfectly sincere with you, the
feeling is growing that this profound quietude that has fallen upon me
may be the prelude to final rest. It's right that I should accustom
your mind to the possibilities of every day in our coming campaign,
which I well foresee will be terribly severe. At first our generals did
not know how to use cavalry, and beyond escort and picket duty little
was asked of it. Now all this is changed. Cavalry has its part in every
pitched battle, and in the intervals it has many severe conflicts of
its own. Daring, ambitious leaders are coming to the front, and the
year will be one of great and hazardous activity. My chief regret is
that Hilland's wound did not disable him wholly from further service in
the field. Still he will come out all right. He always has and ever
will. There are hidden laws that control and shape our lives. It seems
to me that you were predestined to be just what you are. Your life is
rounded out and symmetrical according to its own law. The same is true
of Hilland and of myself thus far. The rudiments of what we are to-day
were clearly apparent when we were boys. He is the same ardent, jolly,
whole-souled fellow that clapped me on the back after leaving the
class-room. Everybody liked him then, everything favored him. Often
when he had not looked at a lesson he would make a superb recitation. I
was moody and introspective; so I am to-day. Even the unforeseen events
of life league together to develop one's characteristics. The
conditions of his life today are in harmony with all that has been; the
same is true of mine, with the strange exception that I have found a
home and a dear staunch friend in one who I supposed would ever be a
stranger. See how true my theory is of Grace and her father. Her
blithesome girlhood has developed into the happiest wifehood. Her brow
is as smooth as ever, and her eyes as bright. They have only gained in
depth and tenderness as the woman has taken the place of the girl. Her
form has only developed into lovelier proportions, and her character
into a more exquisite symmetry. She has been one continuous growth
according to the laws of her being; and so it will be to the end. She
will be just as beautiful and lovable in old age as now; for nature, in
a genial mood, infused into her no discordant, disfiguring elements.
The major also is completing his life in consonance with all that has
gone before."

"Alford, you are more of a fatalist than a materialist. In my heart I
feel, I know, you are wrong. What you say seems so plausible as to be
true; but my very soul revolts at it all. There is a deep undertone of
sadness in your words, and they point to a possibility that would
imbitter every moment of the remnant of my life. Suppose you should
fall, what remedy would there be for me? Oh, in anguish I have learned
what life would become then. I am a materialist like yourself, although
all the clergymen in town would say I was orthodox. From earliest
recollection mere things and certain people have been everything to me;
and now you are everything, and yet at this hour the bullet may be
molded which will strike you down. Grace, with her rich, beautiful
life, is in equal danger. Hilland will go into the field and will
expose himself as recklessly as yourself. I have no faith in your
obscure laws. Thousands were killed in the last campaign, thousands are
dying in hospitals this moment, and all this means thousands of broken
hearts, unless they are sustained by something I have not. This world
is all very well when all is well, but it can so easily become an
accursed world!" The old lady spoke with a strange bitterness,
revealing the profound disquietude that existed under the serene
amenities of her age and her methodical life.

Graham sought to give a lighter tone to their talk and said: "Oh, well,
aunty, perhaps we are darkening the sun with our own shadows. We must
take life as we find it. There is no help for that. You have done so
practically. With your strong good sense you could not do otherwise.
The trouble is that you are haunted by old-time New England beliefs
that, from your ancestry, have become infused into your very blood. You
can't help them any more than other inherited infirmities which may
have afflicted your grandfather. Let us speak of something else. Ah,
here is a welcome diversion--the daily paper--and I'll read it through
to you, and we'll gain another hint as to the drift of this great tide
of events."

The old lady shook her head sadly; and the fact that she watched the
young man with hungry, wistful eyes, often blinded with tears, proved
that neither state nor military policy was uppermost in her mind.



CHAPTER XXV

A PRESENTIMENT

On Christmas morning Graham found his breakfast-plate pushed back, and
in its place lay a superb sword and belt, fashioned much like the one
he had lost in the rescue of his friend. With it was a genial letter
from Hilland, and a little note from Grace, which only said:

"You will find my name engraved upon the sword with Warren's. We have
added nothing else, for the good reason that our names mean
everything--more than could be expressed, were the whole blade covered
with symbols, each meaning a volume. You have taught us how you will
use the weapon, my truest and best of friends. GRACE HILLAND."

His eyes lingered on the name so long that his aunt asked: "Why don't
you look at your gift?"

He slowly drew the long, keen, shining blade, and saw again the name
"Grace Hilland," and for a time he saw nothing else. Suddenly he turned
the sword and on the opposite side was "Warren Hilland," and he shook
his head sadly.

"Alford, what _is_ the matter?" his aunt asked impatiently.

"Why didn't they have their names engraved together?" he muttered
slowly, "It's a bad omen. See, a sword is between their names. I wish
they had been together. Oh, I wish Hilland could be kept out of the
field!"

"There it is, Alford," began his aunt, irritably; "you men who don't
believe anything are always the victims of superstition. Bad omen,
indeed!"

"Well, I suppose I am a fool; but a strange chill at heart struck me
for which I can't account;" and he sprang up and paced the floor
uneasily. "Well," he continued, "I would bury it in my own heart rather
than cause her one hour's sorrow, but I wish their names had been
together." Then he took it up again and said: "Beautiful as it is, it
may have to do some stern work, Grace--work far remote from your
nature. All I ask is that it may come between Hilland and danger again.
I wish I had not had that strange, cursed presentiment."

"Oh, Alford! I never saw you in such a mood, and on Christmas morning,
too!"

"That is just what I don't like about it--it's not my habit to indulge
such fancies, to say the least. Come what may, however, I dedicate the
sword to her service without counting any cost;" and he kissed her
name, and laid the weapon reverently aside.

"You are morbid this morning. Go to the door and see my present to you.
You will find no bad omens on his shining coat."

Graham felt that it was weak to entertain such impressions as had
mastered him, and hastened out. There, pawing the frozen ground, was a
horse that satisfied even his fastidious eye. There was not a white
hair in the coal-black coat. In his enthusiasm he forgot his hat, and
led the beautiful creature up and down, observing with exultation his
perfect action, clean-cut limbs, and deep, broad chest.

"Bring me a bridle," he said to the man in attendance, "and my hat."

A moment later he had mounted.

"Breakfast is getting cold," cried his aunt from the window, delighted,
nevertheless, at the appreciation of her gift.

"This horse is breakfast and dinner both," he shouted, as he galloped
down the path.

Then, to the old lady's horror, he dashed through the trees and
shrubbery, took a picket-fence in a flying leap, and circled round the
house till Mrs. Mayburn's head was dizzy. Then she saw him coming
toward the door as if he would ride through the house; but the horse
stopped almost instantly, and Graham was on his feet, handing the
bridle to the gaping groom.

"Take good care of him," he said to the man, "for he is a jewel."

"Alford," exclaimed his aunt, "could you make no better return for my
gift than to frighten me out of my wits?"

"Dear aunty, you are too well supplied ever to lose them for so slight
a cause. I wanted to show the perfection of your gift, and how well it
may serve me. You don't imagine that our cavalry evolutions are all
performed on straight turnpike roads, do you? Now you know that you
have given me an animal that can carry me wherever a horse can go, and
so have added much to my chances of safety. I can skim out of a melee
like a bird with Mayburn--for that shall be his name--where a
blundering, stupid horse would break my neck, if I wasn't shot. I saw
at once from his action what he could do. Where on earth did you get
such a creature?"

"Well," said the old lady, beaming with triumphant happiness, "I have
had agents on the lookout a long time. The man of whom you had your
first horse, then called Firebrand, found him; and he knew well that he
could not impose any inferior animal upon you. Are you really sincere
in saying that such a horse as this adds to your chances of safety?"

"Certainly. That's what I was trying to show you. Did you not see how
he would wind in and out among the trees and shrubbery--how he would
take a fence lightly without any floundering? There is just as much
difference among horses as among men. Some are simply awkward, heavy,
and stupid; others are vicious; more are good at times and under
ordinary circumstances, but fail you at a pinch. This horse is
thoroughbred and well broken. You must have paid a small fortune for
him."

"I never invested money that satisfied me better."

"It's like you to say so. Well, take the full comfort of thinking how
much you have added to my comfort and prospective well-being. That
gallop has already done me a world of good, and given me an appetite.
I'll have another turn across the country after breakfast, and throw
all evil presentiments to the winds."

"Why, now you talk sense. When you are in any more such moods as this
morning I shall prescribe horse."

Before New Year's day Graham had installed his aunt comfortably in
rooms adjoining the Hillands', and had thanked his friends for their
gift in a way that proved it to be appreciated. Mrs. Mayburn had been
cautioned never to speak of what he now regarded as a foolish and
unaccountable presentiment, arising, perhaps, from a certain degree of
morbidness of mind in all that related to Grace. Iss was on hand to act
as groom, and Graham rode out with Hilland and Grace several times
before his leave expired. Even at that day, when the city was full of
gallant men and fair women, many turned to look as the three passed
down the avenue.

Never had Grace looked so radiantly beautiful as when in the brilliant
sunshine of a Washington winter and in the frosty air she galloped over
the smooth, hard roads. Hilland was proud of the almost wondering looks
of admiration that everywhere greeted her, and too much in love to note
that the ladies they met looked at him in much the same way. The best
that was said of Graham was that he looked a soldier, every inch of
him, and that he rode the finest horse in the city as if he had been
brought up in a saddle. He was regarded by society as reserved,
unsocial, and proud; and at two or three receptions, to which he went
because of the solicitation of his friends, he piqued the vanity of
more than one handsome woman by his courteous indifference.

"What is the matter with your husband's friend?" a reigning belle asked
Grace. "One might as well try to make an impression on a paving-stone."

"I think your illustration unhappy," was her quiet reply. "I cannot
imagine Mr. Graham at any one's feet."

"Not even your own?" was the malicious retort.

"Not even my own," and a flash of anger from her dark eyes accompanied
her answer.

Still, wherever he went he awakened interest in all natures not dull or
sodden. He was felt to be a presence. There was a consciousness of
power in his very attitudes; and one felt instinctively that he was far
removed from the commonplace--that he had had a history which made him
different from other men.

But before this slight curiosity was kindled to any extent, much less
satisfied, his leave of absence expired; and with a sense of deep
relief he prepared to say farewell. His friends expected to see him
often in the city; he knew they would see him but seldom, if at all. He
bad made his visit with his aunt, and she understood him. His quiet
poise was departing, and he longed for the stern, fierce excitement of
active service.

Before he joined his regiment he spent the day with his friends, and
took occasion once, when alone with Hilland, to make an appeal that was
solemn and almost passionate in its earnestness, adjuring him to remain
employed in duties like those which now occupied him. But he saw that
his efforts were vain.

"No, Graham," was Hilland's emphatic reply; "just as soon as there is
danger at the front I shall be with my regiment Now I can do more here."

With Grace he took a short ride in the morning while Hilland was
engaged in his duties, and he looked at the fair woman by his side with
the thought that he might never see her again. It almost seemed as if
Grace understood him, for although the rich color mantled in her cheeks
and she abounded in smile and repartee, a look of deep sadness rarely
left her eyes.

Once she said abruptly, "Alford, you will come and see us often before
the campaign opens? Oh, I dread this coming campaign. You will come
often?"

"I fear not, Grace," he said, gravely and gently, "I will try to come,
but not often." Then he added, with a short, abrupt laugh, "I wish I
could break Hilland's leg." In answer to a look of surprise he
continued, "Could not your father procure an order that would keep him
in the city? He would have to obey orders."

"Ah, I understand you," and there was a quick rush of tears to her
eyes. "It's of no use. I have thought of everything, but Warren's heart
is set on joining his regiment in the spring."

"I know it. I have said all that I could say to a brother on the
subject."

"From the first, Alford, you have tried to make the ordeal of this war
less painful to me, and how well you have succeeded! You have been our
good genius. Warren, in his impetuous, chivalrous feeling, would have
gone into it unadvisedly, hastily; and before this might--Oh, I can't
even think of it," she said with a shudder. "But years have passed
since your influence guided him into a wiser and more useful course,
and think how much of the time I have been able to be with him! And it
has all been due to you, Alford. But the war seems no nearer its end.
It rather assumes a larger and more threatening aspect Why do not men
think of us poor women before they go to war?"

"You think, then, that even your influence cannot keep him from the
field?"

"No, it could not. Indeed, beyond a certain point I dare not exert it.
I should be dumb before questions already asked, 'Why should I shrink
when other husbands do not? What would be said of me here? what by my
comrades in the regiment? What would your brave father think, though he
might acquiesce? Nay, more, what would my wife think in her secret
heart?' Alas! I find I am not made of such stern stuff as are some
women. Pride and military fame could not sustain me if--if--"

"Do not look on the gloomy side, Grace. Hilland will come out of it all
a major-general."

"Oh, I don't know, I don't know. I do know that he will often be in
desperate danger; what a dread certainty that is for me! Oh, I wish you
could be always near him; and yet 'tis a selfish wish, for you would
not count the cost to yourself."

"No, Grace; I've sworn that on the sword you gave me."

"I might have known as much." Then she added earnestly, "Believe me, if
you should fall it would also imbitter my life."

"Yes, you would grieve sincerely; but there would be an infinite
difference, an infinite difference. One question, however, is settled
beyond recall. If my life can serve you or Hilland, no power shall
prevent my giving it. There is nothing more to be said: let us speak of
something else."

"Yes, Alford, one thing more. Once I misjudged you. Forgive me;" and
she caused her horse to spring into a gallop, resolving that no
commonplace words should follow closely upon a conversation that had
touched the most sacred feelings and impulses of each heart.

For some reason there was a shadow over their parting early in the
evening, for Graham was to ride toward the front with the dawn. Even
Hilland's genial spirits could not wholly dissipate it. Graham made
heroic efforts, but he was oppressed with a despondency which was
wellnigh overwhelming. He felt that he was becoming unmanned, and in
bitter self-censure resolved to remain with his regiment until the end
came, as he believed would be the case with him before the year closed.

"Alford, remember your promise. We all may need you yet," were his
aunt's last words in the gray of the morning.



CHAPTER XXVI

AN IMPROVISED PICTURE GALLERY

Much to Graham's satisfaction, his regiment, soon after he joined it,
was ordered into the Shenandoah Valley, and given some rough, dangerous
picket duty that fully accorded with his mood. Even Hilland could not
expect a visit from him now; and he explained to his friend that the
other officers were taking their leaves of absence, and he, in turn,
must perform their duties. And so the winter passed uneventfully away
in a cheerful interchange of letters. Graham found that the front
agreed with him better than Washington, and that his pulse resumed its
former even beat A dash at a Confederate picket post on a stormy night
was far more tranquilizing than an evening in Hilland's luxurious rooms.

With the opening of the spring campaign Hilland joined his regiment,
and was eager to remove by his courage and activity the slightest
impression, if any existed, that he was disposed to shun dangerous
service. There was no such impression, however; and he was most
cordially welcomed, for he was a great favorite with both officers and
men.

During the weeks that followed, the cavalry was called upon to do heavy
work and severe fighting; and the two friends became more conspicuous
than ever for their gallantry. They seemed, however, to bear charmed
lives, for, while many fell or were wounded, they escaped unharmed.

At last the terrific and decisive campaign of Gettysburg opened; and
from the war-wasted and guerilla-infested regions of Virginia the
Northern troops found themselves marching through the friendly and
populous North. As the cavalry brigade entered a thriving village in
Pennsylvania the people turned out almost _en masse_ and gave them more
than an ovation. The troopers were tired, hungry, and thirsty; and,
since from every doorway was offered a boundless hospitality, the
column came to a halt. The scene soon developed into a picturesque
military picnic. Young maids and venerable matrons, gray-bearded
fathers, shy, blushing girls, and eager-eyed children, all vied with
each other in pressing upon their defenders every delicacy and
substantial viand that their town could furnish at the moment. A pretty
miss of sixteen, with a peach-like bloom in her cheeks, might be seen
flitting here and there among the bearded troopers with a tray bearing
goblets of milk. When they were emptied she would fly back and lift up
white arms to her mother for more, and the almost equally blooming
matron, smiling from the window, would fill the glasses again to the
brim. The magnates of the village with their wives were foremost in the
work, and were passing to and fro with great baskets of sandwiches,
while stalwart men and boys were bringing from neighboring wells and
pumps cool, delicious water for the horses. How immensely the troopers
enjoyed it all! No scowling faces and cold looks here. All up and down
the street, holding bridle-reins over their arms or leaning against the
flanks of their horses, they feasted as they had not done since their
last Thanksgiving Day at home. Such generous cups of coffee, enriched
with cream almost too thick to flow from the capacious pitchers, and
sweetened not only with snow-white sugar, but also with the smiles of
some gracious woman, perhaps motherly in appearance, perhaps so fair
and young that hearts beat faster under the weather-stained cavalry
jackets.

"How pretty it all is!" said a familiar voice to Graham, as he was
dividing a huge piece of cake with his pet Mayburn; and Hilland laid
his hand on his friend's shoulder.

"Ah, Hilland, seeing you is the best part of this banquet _a la
militaire_. Yes, it is a heavenly change after the dreary land we've
been marching and fighting in. It makes me feel that I have a country,
and that it's worth all it may cost."

"Look, Graham--look at that little fairy creature in white muslin,
talking to that great bearded pard of a sergeant. Isn't that a picture?
Oh, I wish Grace, with her eye for picturesque effects, could look upon
this scene."

"Nonsense, Hilland! as if she would look at anybody or anything but
you! See that white-haired old woman leading that exquisite little girl
to yonder group of soldiers. See how they doff their hats to her.
There's another picture for you."

Hilland's magnificent appearance soon attracted half a dozen village
belles about him, each offering some dainty; and one--a black-eyed
witch a little bolder than the others--offered to fasten a rose from
her hair in his button-hole.

He entered into the spirit of the occasion with all the zest of his old
student days, professed to be delighted with the favor as she stood on
tiptoe to reach the lappet of his coat; and then he stooped down and
pressed his lips to the fragrant petals, assuring the blushing little
coquette, meanwhile, that it was the next best thing to her own red
lips.

How vividly in after years Graham would recall him, as he stood there,
his handsome head thrown back, looking the ideal of an old Norse
viking, laughing and chatting with the merry, innocent girls around
him, his deep-blue eyes emitting mirthful gleams on every side!
According to his nature, Graham drew off to one side and watched the
scene with a smile, as he had viewed similar ones far back in the
years, and far away in Germany. He saw the ripples of laughter that his
friend's words provoked, and recognized the old, easy grace, the light,
French-like wit, that was wholly free from the French _double
entendre_, and he thought: "Would that Grace could see him now, and she
would fall in love with him anew, for her nature is too large for petty
jealousy at a scene like that Oh, Hilland! you and the group around you
make the finest picture of this long improvised gallery of pictures."

Suddenly there was a loud report of a cannon from a hill above the
village, and a shell shrieked over their heads. Hilland's laughing
aspect changed instantly. He seemed almost to gather the young girls in
his arms as he hurried them into the nearest doorway, and then with a
bound reached Graham, who held his horse, vaulted into the saddle, and
dashed up the street to his men who were standing in line.

Graham sprang lightly on his horse, for in the scenes resulting from
the kaleidoscopic change that had taken place he would be more at home.

"Mount!" he shouted; and the order, repeated up and down the street,
changed the jolly, feasting troopers of a moment since into veterans
who would sit like equestrian statues, if so commanded, though a
hundred guns thundered against them.

From the further end of the village came the wild yell characteristic
of the cavalry charges of the Confederates, while shell after shell
shrieked and exploded where had just been unaffected gayety and
hospitality.

The first shot had cleared the street of all except the Union soldiers;
and those who dared to peep from window or door saw, with dismay, that
the defenders whom they had so honored and welcomed were retreating at
a gallop from the Rebel charge.

They were soon undeceived, however, for at a gallop the national
cavalry dashed into an open field near by, formed with the precision of
machinery, and by the time that the Rebel charge had wellnigh spent
itself in the sabring or capture of a few tardy troopers, Hilland with
platoon after platoon was emerging upon the street again at a sharp
trot, which soon developed into a furious gallop as he dashed against
their assailants; and the pretty little coquette, bold not only in love
but in war, saw from a window her ideal knight with her red rose upon
his breast leading a charge whose thunder caused the very earth to
tremble; and she clapped her hands and cheered so loudly as he
approached that he looked up, saw her, and for an instant a sunny smile
passed over the visage that had become so stern. Then came the shock of
battle.

Graham's company was held in reserve, but for some reason his horse
seemed to grow unmanageable; and sabres had scarcely clashed before he,
with the blade on which was engraved "Grace Hilland," was at her
husband's side, striking blows which none could resist. The enemy could
not stand the furious onset, and gave way slowly, sullenly, and at last
precipitately. The tide of battle swept beyond and away from the
village; and its street became quiet again, except for the groans of
the wounded.

Mangled horses, mangled men, some dead, some dying, and others almost
rejoicing in wounds that would secure for them such gentle nurses,
strewed the streets that had been the scene of merry festivity.

The pretty little belle never saw her tawny, bearded knight again. She
undoubtedly married and tormented some well-to-do dry-goods clerk; but
a vision of a man of heroic mold, with a red rose upon his breast,
smiling up to her just as he was about to face what might be death,
will thrill her feminine soul until she is old and gray.

That night Graham and Hilland talked and laughed over the whole affair
as they sat by a camp-fire.

"It has all turned out as usual," said Graham, ruefully. "You won a
victory and no end of glory; I a reprimand from my colonel."

"If you have received nothing worse than a reprimand you are
fortunate," was Hilland's response. "The idea of any horse becoming
unmanageable in your hands! The colonel understands the case as well as
I do, and knows that it was your own ravenous appetite for a fight that
became unmanageable. But I told him of the good service you rendered,
and gave him the wink to wink also. You were fearfully rash to-day,
Graham. You were not content to fight at my side, but more than once
were between me and the enemy. What the devil makes you so headlong in
a fight--you that are usually so cool and self-controlled?"

Graham's hand rested on a fair woman's name engraved upon his sword,
but he replied lightly: "When you teach me caution in a fight I'll
learn."

"Well, excuse me, old fellow, I'm going to write to Grace. May not have
a chance very soon again. I say, Graham, we'll have _the_ battle of the
war in a day or two."

"I know it," was the quiet response.

"And we must win, too," Hilland continued, "or the Johnnies will help
themselves to Washington, Baltimore, Philadelphia, and perhaps New
York. Every man should nerve himself to do the work of two. As I was
saying, I shall write to Grace that your horse ran away with you and
became uncontrollable until you were directly in front of me, when you
seemed to manage him admirably, and struck blows worthy of the old
French duellist who killed a man every morning before breakfast. I
think she'll understand your sudden and amazingly poor horsemanship as
well as I do."

She did, and far better.

Hilland's prediction proved true. The decisive battle of Gettysburg was
fought, and its bloody field marked the highest point reached by the
crimson tide of the Rebellion. From Cemetery Ridge it ebbed slowly and
sullenly away to the south.

The brigade in which were the friends passed through another fearful
baptism of fire in the main conflict and the pursuit which followed,
and were in Virginia again, but with ranks almost decimated. Graham and
Hilland still seemed to bear charmed lives, and in the brief pause in
operations that followed, wrote cheerful letters to those so dear, now
again at their seaside resort. Grace, who for days had been so pale,
and in whose dark eyes lurked an ever-present dread of which she could
not speak, smiled again. Her husband wrote in exuberant spirits over
the victory, and signed himself "Lieutenant-Colonel." Graham in his
letter said jestingly to his aunt that he had at last attained his
"majority," and that she might therefore look for a little more
discretion on his part.

"How the boys are coming on!" exulted the old major. "They will both
wear the stars yet. But confound it all, why did Meade let Lee escape?
He might have finished the whole thing up."

Alas! the immeasurable price of liberty was not yet paid.

One morning Hilland's and Graham's regiments were ordered out on what
was deemed but a minor _reconnoissance_; and the friends, rested and
strong, started in high spirits with their sadly shrunken forces. But
they knew that the remaining handfuls were worth more than full ranks
of untrained, unseasoned men. All grow callous, if not indifferent, to
the vicissitudes of war; and while they missed regretfully many
familiar faces, the thought that they had rendered the enemy's lines
more meagre was consoling.

Graham and Hilland rode much of the long day together. They went over
all the past, and dwelt upon the fact that their lives had been so
different from what they had planned.

"By the way, Graham," said Hilland, abruptly, "it seems strange to me
that you are so indifferent to women. Don't you expect ever to marry?"

Graham burst into a laugh as he replied: "I thought we had that subject
out years ago, under the apple-tree--that night, you remember, when you
talked like a schoolgirl till morning--"

"And you analyzed and philosophized till long after midnight--"

"Well, you knew then that Grace had spoiled me for every one else; and
she's been improving ever since. When I find her equal I'll marry her,
if I can."

"Poor, forlorn old bachelor that you are, and ever will be!" cried
Hilland. "You'll never find the equal of Grace Hilland."

"I think I shall survive, Hilland. My appetite is good. As I live,
there are some Confederates in yonder clump of trees;" and he put spurs
to his horse on a little private _reconnoissance_. The few horsemen
vanished, in the thick woods beyond, the moment they saw that they were
perceived; and they were regarded as prowling guerillas only.

That night they bivouacked in a grove where two roads intersected,
threw out pickets and patrols, and kindled their fires, for they did
not expect to strike the enemy in force till some time on the following
day.



CHAPTER XXVII

A DREAM

Graham and his friend had bidden each other an early and cordial
good-night, for the entire force under the command of Hilland's colonel
was to resume its march with the dawn. Although no immediate danger was
apprehended, caution had been learned by long experience. The
detachment was comparatively small, and it was far removed from any
support; and while no hints of the presence of the enemy in formidable
numbers had been obtained during the day, what was beyond them could
not be known with any certainty. Therefore the horses had been
carefully rubbed down, and the saddles replaced. In many instances the
bridles also had been put on again, with the bit merely slipped from
the mouth. In all cases they lay or hung within reach of the tired
troopers, who, one after another, were dropping off into the catlike
slumber of a cavalry outpost.

As the fires died down, the shadows in the grove grew deeper and more
obscure, and all was quiet, except when the hours came round for the
relief of pickets and the men who were patrolling the roads. Graham
remembered the evanescent group of Confederates toward whom he had
spurred during the day. He knew that they were in a hostile region, and
that their movements must be already well known to the enemy if strong
in their vicinity. Therefore all his instincts as a soldier were on the
alert. It so happened that he was second in command of his regiment on
this occasion, and he felt the responsibility. He had been his own
groom on their arrival at the grove, and his faithful charger, Mayburn,
now stood saddled and bridled by his side, as he reclined, half dozing,
again thinking deeply, by the low, flickering blaze of his fire. He had
almost wholly lost the gloomy presentiments that had oppressed him at
the beginning of the year. Both he and Hilland had passed through so
many dangers that a sense of security was begotten. Still more potent
had been the influence of his active out-of-door life. His nerves were
braced, while his soldier's routine and the strong excitement of the
campaign had become a preoccupying habit.

Only those who brood in idleness over the misfortunes and
disappointments of life are destroyed by them.

He had not seen Grace for over half a year; and while she was and ever
would be his fair ideal, he could now think of her with the quietude
akin to that of the devout Catholic who worships a saint removed from
him at a heavenly distance. The wisdom of this remoteness became more
and more clear to him; for despite every power that he could put forth
as a man, there was a deeper, stronger manhood within him which
acknowledged this woman as sovereign. He foresaw that his lot would be
one of comparative exile, and he accepted it with a calm and inflexible
resolution.

Hearing a step he started up hastily, and saw Hilland approaching from
the opposite side of his fire.

"Ah, Graham, glad you are not asleep," said his friend, throwing
himself down on the leaves, with his head resting on his hands. "Put a
little wood on the fire, please; I'm chilly in the night air, and the
dews are so confoundedly heavy."

"Why, Hilland, what's the matter?" Graham asked, as he complied. "You
are an ideal cavalryman at a nap, and can sleep soundly with one eye
open. It has seemed to me that you never lost a wink when there was a
chance for it, even under fire."

"Why are you not sleeping?"

"Oh, I have been, after my fashion, dozing and thinking by turns. I
always was an owl, you know. Moreover, I think it behooves us to be on
the alert. We are a good way from support if hard pressed; and the
enemy must be in force somewhere to the west of us."

"I've thought as much myself. My horse is ready, as yours is, and I
left an orderly holding him. I suppose you will laugh at me, but I've
had a cursed dream; and it has shaken me in spite of my reason. After
all, how often our reason fails us at a pinch! I wish it was morning
and we were on the road. I've half a mind to go out with the patrols
and get my blood in circulation. I would were it not that I feel I
should be with my men."

"Where's your colonel?"

"The old war-dog is sleeping like a top. Nothing ever disturbs him,
much less a dream. I say, Graham, I made a good selection in him,
didn't I?"

"Yes, but he'll be promoted soon, and you will be in command. What's
more, I expect to see a star on _your_ shoulder in less than six
months."

"As I feel to-night, I don't care a picayune for stars or anything else
relating to the cursed war. I'd give my fortune to be able to kiss
Grace and tell her I'm well."

"You are morbid, Hilland. You will feel differently to-morrow,
especially if there's a chance for a charge."

"No doubt, no doubt. The shadow of this confounded grove seems as black
as death, and it oppresses me. Why should I, without apparent cause,
have had such a dream?"

"Your supper and fatigue may have been the cause. If you don't mind,
tell me this grisly vision."

"While you laugh at me as an old woman--you, in whom reason ever sits
serene and dispassionate on her throne, except when you get into a
fight."

"My reason's throne is often as rickety as a two-legged stool. No, I
won't laugh at you. There's not a braver man in the service than you.
If you feel as you say, there's some cause for it; and yet so complex
is our organism that both cause and effect may not be worthy of very
grave consideration, as I have hinted."

"Think what you please, this was my dream. I had made my dispositions
for the night, and went to sleep as a matter of course. I had not slept
an hour by my watch--I looked at it afterward--when I seemed to hear
some one moaning and crying, and I thought I started up wide awake, and
I saw the old library at home--the room you know so well. Every article
of furniture was before me more distinctly than I can see any object
now, and on the rug before the open fire Grace was crouching, while she
moaned and wrung her hands and cried as if her heart was breaking. She
was dressed in black--Oh, how white her hands and neck and face
appeared against that mournful black--and, strangest of all, her hair
fell around her snowy white, like a silver veil. I started forward to
clasp her in my arms, and then truly awoke, for there was nothing
before me but my drooping horse, a few red coals of my expiring fire,
and over all the black, black shadow of this accursed grove. Oh, for
sunlight! Oh, for a gale of wind, that I might breathe freely again!"
and the powerful man sprang to his feet and threw open his coat at his
breast.

As he ceased speaking, the silence and darkness of the grove did seem
ominous and oppressive, and Graham's old wretched presentiment of
Christmas morning returned, but he strove with all the ingenuity in his
power to reason his friend out of his morbid mood, as he termed it. He
kindled his fire into a cheerful blaze, and Hilland cowered and
shivered over it; then looking up abruptly, he said, "Graham, you and I
accepted the belief long ago that man was only highly organized matter.
I must admit to you that my mind has often revolted at this belief; and
the thought that Grace was merely of the earth has always seemed to me
sacrilegious. She never was what you would call a religious girl; but
she once had a quiet, simple faith in a God and a hereafter, and she
expected to see her mother again. I fear that our views have troubled
her exceedingly; although with that rare reserve in a woman, she never
interfered with one's strong personal convictions. The shallow woman
tries to set everybody right with the weighty reason, 'Oh, because it
IS so; all good people say it is so.' I fear our views have unsettled
hers also. I wish they had not; indeed I wish I could believe somewhat
as she did.

"Once, only once, she spoke to me with a strange bitterness, but it
revealed the workings of her mind. I, perhaps, was showing a little too
much eagerness in my spirit and preparation for active service, and she
broke out abruptly, 'Oh, yes, you and Alford can rush into scenes of
carnage very complacently. You believe that if the bullet is only sure
enough, your troubles are over forever, as Alford once said. I suppose
you are right, for you learned men have studied into things as we poor
women never can. If it's true, those who love as we do should die
together.' It has often seemed that her very love--nay, that mine--was
an argument against our belief. That a feeling so pure, vivid, and
unselfish, so devoid of mere earthiness--a feeling that apparently
contains within itself the very essence of immortality--can be
instantly blotted out as a flame is extinguished, has become a terrible
thought. Grace Hilland is worthy of an immortal life, and she has all
the capacity for it. It's not her lovely form and face that I love so
much as the lovely something--call it soul, spirit, or what you
choose--that will maintain her charm through all the changes from youth
to feeble and withered age. How can I be sure that the same gentle,
womanly spirit may not exist after the final change we call death, and
that to those worthy of immortal life the boon is not given? Reason is
a grand thing, and I know we once thought we settled this question; but
reason fails me to-night, or else love and the intense longings of the
heart teach a truer and deeper philosophy--

"You are silent, Graham. You think me morbid--that wishes are fathers
of my thoughts. Well, I'm not. I honestly don't know what the truth is.
I only wish to-night that I had the simple belief in a reunion with
Grace which she had with regard to her mother. I fear we have unsettled
her faith; not that we ever urged our views--indeed we have scarcely
ever spoken of them--but there has been before her the ever-present and
silent force of example. It was natural for her to believe that those
were right in whom she most believed; and I'm not sure we are
right--I'm not _sure_. I've not been sure for a long time."

"My dear Warren, you are not well. Exposure to all sorts of weather in
this malarial country is telling on you; and I fear your feelings
to-night are the prelude of a fever. You shall stay and sleep by my
fire, and if I hear the slightest suspicious sound I will waken you.
You need not hesitate, for I intend to watch till morning, whether you
stay or not."

"Well, Graham, I will. I wish to get through this horrible night in the
quickest way possible. But I'll first go and bring my horse here, so
the poor orderly can have a nap."

He soon returned and lay down close to the genial fire, and Graham
threw over him his own blankets.

"What a good, honest friend you are, Graham!--too honest even to say
some hollow words favoring my doubts of my doubt and unbelief. If it
hadn't been for you, I should have been dead long ago. In my blind
confidence, I should have rushed into the war, and probably should have
been knocked on the head at Bull Run. How many happy months I've passed
with Grace since then!--how many since you virtually gave your life for
me last autumn! You made sure that I took a man's, not a fool's, part
in the war. Oh, Grace and I know it all and appreciate it;
and--and--Alford, if I should fall, I commend Grace to your care."

"Hilland, stop, or you will unman me. This accursed grove _is_ haunted,
I half believe; and were I in command I would order 'Boots and Saddles'
to be sounded at once. There, sleep, Warren, and in the morning you
will be your own grand self. Why speak of anything I could do for you
and Grace? How could I serve myself in any surer way? As schoolgirls
say, 'I won't speak to you again.' I'm going to prowl around a little,
and see that all is right;" and he disappeared among the shadowy boles
of the trees.

When he returned from his rounds his friend was sleeping, but uneasily,
with sudden fits and starts.

"He is surely going to have a fever," Graham muttered. "I'd give a
year's pay if we were safe back in camp." He stood before the fire with
folded arms, watching his boyhood's friend, his gigantic shadow
stretching away into the obscurity as unwaveringly as those of the
tree-trunks around him. His lips were compressed. He sought to make his
will as inflexible as his form. He would not think of Grace, of danger
to her and Hilland; and yet, by some horrible necromancy of the hour
and place, the scene in Hilland's dream would rise before him with a
vividness that was overawing. In the sighing of the wind through the
foliage, he seemed to hear the poor wife's moans.

"Oh," he muttered, "would that I could die a thousand deaths to prevent
a scene like that!"

When would the interminable night pass? At last he looked at his watch
and saw that the dawn could not be far distant. How still everything
had become! The men were in their deepest slumber. Even the wind had
died out, and the silence was to his overwrought mind like the hush of
expectancy.

This silence was at last broken by a shot on the road leading to the
west. Other shots followed in quick succession.

Hilland was on his feet instantly. "We're attacked," he shouted, and
was about to spring upon his horse when Graham grasped his hand in both
of his as he said, "In the name of Grace, Hilland, be prudent."

Then both the men were in the saddle, Hilland dashing toward his own
command, and each shouting, "Awake! Mount!"

At the same instant the bugle from headquarters rang through the grove,
giving the well-known order of "Boots and Saddles."

In place of the profound stillness of a moment before, there were a
thousand discordant sounds--the trampling of feet, the jingling of
sabres, the champing of bits by aroused, restless horses that
understood the bugle call as well as the men, hoarse, rapid orders of
officers, above all which in the distance could be heard Hilland's
clarion voice.

Again and again from headquarters the brief, musical strains of the
bugle echoed through the gloom, each one giving to the veterans a
definite command. Within four minutes there was a line of battle on the
western edge of the grove, and a charging column was in the road
leading to the west, down which the patrols were galloping at a
headlong pace. Pickets were rushing in, firing as they came. To the
uninitiated it might have seemed a scene of dire confusion. In fact, it
was one of perfect order and discipline. Even in the darkness each man
knew just what to do and where to go, as he heard the bugle calls and
the stern, brief, supplementary orders of the officers.

Graham found himself on the line of battle at the right of the road,
and the sound that followed close upon the sharp gallop of the patrol
was ominous indeed. It was the rushing, thunderous sound of a heavy
body of cavalry--too heavy, his ear soon foretold him, to promise equal
battle.

The experienced colonel recognized the fact at the same moment, and
would not leave his men in the road to meet the furious onset. Again,
sharp, quick, and decisive as the vocal order had been, the bugle rang
out the command for a change of position. Its strains had not ceased
when the officers were repeating the order all down the column that had
been formed in the road for a charge, and scarcely a moment elapsed
before the western pike was clear, and faced by a line of battle a
little back among the trees. The Union force would now ask nothing
better than that the enemy should charge down that road within
pointblank range.

If the Nationals were veterans they were also dealing with veterans who
were masters of the situation in their overwhelming force and their
knowledge of the comparative insignificance of their opponents, whose
numbers had been quite accurately estimated the day before.

The patrols were already within the Union lines and at their proper
places when the Confederate column emerged into the narrow open space
before the grove. Its advance had subsided into a sharp trot; but,
instead of charging by column or platoon, the enemy deployed to right
and left with incredible swiftness. Men dismounted and formed into line
almost instantly, their gray forms looking phantom-like in the gray
dawn that tinged the east.

The vigilant colonel was as prompt as they, and at the first evidence
of their tactics the bugle resounded, and the line of battle facing the
road which led westward wheeled at a gallop through the open trees and
formed at right angles with the road behind the first line of battle.
Again there was a bugle call. The men in both lines dismounted
instantly, and as their horses were being led to the rear by those
designated for the duty, a Union volley was poured into the Confederate
line that had scarcely formed, causing many a gap. Then the first Union
line retired behind the second, loading as they went, and, with the
ready instinct of old fighters, putting trees between themselves and
the swiftly advancing foe while forming a third line of battle. From
the second Union line a deadly volley blazed in the dim obscurity of
the woods. It had no perceptible effect in checking the impetuous onset
of the enemy, who merely returned the fire as they advanced.

The veteran colonel, with cool alertness, saw that he was far
outnumbered, and that his assailants' tactics were to drive him through
the grove into the open fields, where his command would be speedily
dispersed and captured. His only chance was to run for it and get the
start. Indeed the object of his reconnoissance seemed already
accomplished, for the enemy was found to be in force in that direction.
Therefore, as he galloped to the rear his bugler sounded "Retreat" long
and shrilly.

The dim Union lines under the trees melted away as by magic, and a
moment later there was a rush of horses through the underbrush that
fringed the eastern side of the grove. But some men were shot, some
sabred, and others captured before they could mount and extricate
themselves. The majority, however, of the Union forces were galloping
swiftly away, scattering at first rather than keeping together, in
order to distract the pursuit which for a time was sharp and deadly.
Not a few succumbed; others would turn on their nearest pursuer in
mortal combat, which was soon decided in one way or the other. Graham
more than once wheeled and confronted an isolated foe, and the sword
bearing the name of the gentle Grace Hilland was bloody indeed.

All the while his eye was ranging the field for Hilland, and with his
fleet steed, that could soon have carried him beyond all danger, he
diverged to right and left, as far as their headlong retreat permitted,
in his vain search for his friend.

Suddenly the bugle from the Confederate side sounded a recall. The
enemy halted, fired parting shots, and retired briskly over the field,
gathering up the wounded and the prisoners. The Union forces drew
together on a distant eminence, from which the bugler of the colonel in
command was blowing a lively call to rendezvous.

"Where, Hilland?" cried Graham, dashing up.

The colonel removed a cigar from his mouth and said, "Haven't seen him
since I ordered the retreat. Don't worry. He'll be here soon. Hilland
is sure to come out all right. It's a way he has. 'Twas a rather rapid
change of base, Major Graham. That the enemy should have ceased their
pursuit so abruptly puzzles me. Ah, here comes your colonel, and when
Hilland puts in an appearance we must hold a brief council, although I
suppose there is nothing left for us but to make our way back to camp
and report as speedily as possible. I'd like to come back with a
division, and turn the tables on those fellows. I believe we fought a
divis--"

"Hilland!" shouted Graham, in a voice that drowned the colonel's words,
and echoed far and wide.

There was no answer, and the fugitives were nearly all in.

Graham galloped out beyond the last lagging trooper, and with a cry
that smote the hearts of those that heard it he shouted, "Hilland!" and
strained his eyes in every direction. There was no response--no form in
view that resembled his friend.

At wild speed he returned and rode among Hilland's command. His manner
was so desperate that he drew all eyes upon him, and none seemed able
or willing to answer. At last a man said, "I heard his voice just as we
were breaking from that cursed grove, and I've seen or heard nothing of
him since. I supposed he was on ahead with the colonel;" and that was
all the information that could be obtained.

The men looked very downcast, for Hilland was almost idolized by them.
Graham saw that there was an eager quest of information among
themselves, and he waited with feverish impatience for further light;
but nothing could be elicited from officers or privates beyond the fact
that Hilland had been bravely doing his duty up to the moment when, as
one of the captains said, "It was a scramble, 'each man for himself,
and the devil take the hindmost.'"

As long as there had been a gleam of hope that Hilland had escaped with
the rest, Graham had been almost beside himself in his feverish
impatience.

He now rode to where the two colonels were standing, and the senior
began rapidly, "Major Graham, we sympathize with you deeply. We all,
and indeed the army, have sustained a severe loss in even the temporary
absence of Lieutenant-Colonel Hilland; for I will not believe that
worse has happened than a wound and brief captivity. The enemy has
acted peculiarly. I have fears that they may be flanking us and trying
to intercept us on some parallel road. Therefore I shall order that we
return to camp in the quickest possible time. Good God, Graham! don't
take it so to heart. You've no proof that Hilland is dead. You look
desperate, man. Come, remember that you are a soldier and that Hilland
was one too. We've had to discount such experiences from the start."

"Gentlemen," said Graham, in a low, concentrated voice, and touching
his hat to the two colonels, "I am under the command of you both--one
as my superior officer, the other as leader of the expedition. I ask
permission to return in search of my friend."

"I forbid it," they both cried simultaneously, while the senior officer
continued, "Graham, you are beside yourself. It would be almost suicide
to go back. It would certainly result in your capture, while there is
not one chance in a thousand that you could do Hilland any good."

Graham made no immediate reply, but was studying the ill-omened grove
with his glass. After a moment he said, "I do not think there will be
any further pursuit. The enemy are retiring from the grove. My
explanation of their conduct is this: There is some large decisive
movement in progress, and we were merely brushed out of the way that we
might learn nothing of it. My advice is that we retain this commanding
position, throw out scouts on every side, and I doubt whether we find
anything beyond a small rearguard in ten miles of us within a few
hours."

"Your anxiety for your friend warps your judgment, and it is contrary
to my instructions, which were simply to learn if there was any
considerable force of the enemy in this region. Your explanation of the
enemy's conduct is plausible, and has already occurred to me as a
possibility. If it be the true explanation, all the more reason that we
should return promptly and report what we know and what we surmise. I
shall therefore order 'Retreat' to be sounded at once."

"And I, Major Graham," said his own colonel, "must add, that while you
have my sympathy, I nevertheless order you to your place in the march.
Rather than permit you to carry out your mad project, I would place you
under arrest."

"Gentlemen, I cannot complain of your course, or criticise your
military action. You are in a better condition of mind to judge what is
wise than I; and under ordinary circumstances I would submit without a
word. But the circumstances are extraordinary. Hilland has been my
friend since boyhood. I will not remain in suspense as to his fate;
much less will I leave his wife and friends in suspense. I know that
disobedience of orders in the face of the enemy is one of the gravest
offences, but I must disobey them, be the consequences what they may."

As he wheeled his horse, his colonel cried, "Stop him. He's under
arrest!" But Mayburn, feeling the touch of the spur, sprang into his
fleet gallop, and they might as well have pursued a bird.

They saw this at once, and the colonel in command only growled,
"---this reconnoissance. Here we've lost two of the finest officers in
the brigade, as well as some of our best men. Sound 'Retreat.'"

There was a hesitancy, and a wild impulse among Hilland's men to follow
Graham to the rescue, but it was sternly repressed by their officers,
and the whole command was within a few moments on a sharp trot toward
camp.



CHAPTER XXVIII

ITS FULFILMENT

Graham soon slackened his pace when he found that he was not pursued,
and as his friends disappeared he returned warily to the brow of the
eminence and watched their rapid march away from the ill-fated
locality. He rode over the brow of the hill as if he was following, for
he had little doubt that the movements of the Union force were watched.
Having tied his horse where he could not be seen from the grove, he
crept back behind a sheltering bush, and with his glass scanned the
scene of conflict. In the road leading through the grove there were
ambulances removing the wounded. At last these disappeared, and there
was not a living object in sight. He watched a little longer, and
buzzards began to wheel over and settle upon the battleground--sure
evidence that for the time it was deserted.

He hesitated no longer. Mounting his horse he continued down the hill
so as to be screened from any possible observers, then struck off to
his left to a belt of woods that extended well up to the vicinity of
the grove. Making his way through this bit of forest, he soon came to
an old wood-road partially grown up with bushes, and pushed his way
rapidly back toward the point he wished to attain. Having approached
the limits of the belt of woods, he tied his horse in a thicket,
listened, then stole to the edge nearest the grove. It appeared
deserted. Crouching along a rail fence with revolver in hand, he at
last reached its fatal shade, and pushing through its fringe of lower
growth, peered cautiously around. Here and there he saw a lifeless body
or a struggling, wounded horse, over which the buzzards hovered, or on
which they had already settled. Disgusting as was their presence, they
reassured him, and he boldly and yet with an awful dread at heart began
his search, scanning with rapid eye each prostrate form along the
entire back edge of the grove through which the Union forces had burst
in their swift retreat.

He soon passed beyond all traces of conflict, and then retraced his
steps, uttering half-unconsciously and in a tone of anguish his
friend's name. As he approached what had been the extreme right of the
Union line in their retreat, and their left in the advance, he beheld a
dead horse that looked familiar. He sprang forward and saw that it was
Hilland's.

"Hilland! Warren!" he shouted, wild with awful foreboding.

From a dense thicket near he heard a feeble groan. Rushing into it, he
stumbled against the immense mossy trunk of a prostrate, decaying tree.
Concealed beyond it lay his friend, apparently dying.

"Oh, Warren!" he cried, "my friend, my brother, don't you know me? Oh,
live, live! I can rescue you."

There was no response from the slowly gasping man.

Graham snatched a flask from his pocket and wet the pallid lips with
brandy, and then caused Hilland to swallow a little. The stimulant
kindled for a few moments the flame of life, and the dying man slowly
became conscious.

"Graham," he murmured feebly--"Graham, is that you?"

"Yes, yes, and I'll save you yet. Oh, in the name of Grace, I adjure
you to live."

"Alas for Grace! My dream--will come true."

"Oh, Hilland, no, no! Oh, that I could die in your place! What is my
life to yours! Rally, Warren, rally. My fleet horse is tied near, or if
you are too badly wounded I will stay and nurse you. I'll fire a pistol
shot through my arm, and then we can be sent to the hospital together.
Here, take more brandy. That's right. With your physique you should not
think of death. Let me lift you up and stanch your wound."

"Don't move me, Graham, or I'll bleed to death instantly, and--and--I
want to look in your face--once more, and send my--true love to Grace.
More brandy, please. It's getting light again. Before it was dark--oh,
so dark! How is it you are here?"

"I came back for you. Could I ride away and you not with me? Oh,
Warren! I must save your life. I must, I must!"

"Leave me, Graham; leave me at once. You will be captured, if not
killed," and Hilland spoke with energy.

"I will never leave you. There, your voice proves that your strength is
coming back. Warren, Warren, can't you live for Grace's sake?"

"Graham," said Hilland, solemnly, "even my moments are numbered. One
more gush of blood from my side and I'm gone. Oh, shall I become
nothing? Shall I be no more than the decaying tree behind which I
crawled when struck down? Shall I never see my peerless bride again?
She would always have been a bride to me. I can't believe it. There
must be amends somewhere for the agony of mind, not body, that I've
endured as I lay here, and for the anguish that Grace will suffer. Oh,
Graham, my philosophy fails me in this strait, my whole nature revolts
at it. Mere corruption, chemical change, ought not to be the end of a
_man_."

"Do not waste your strength in words. Live, and in a few short weeks
Grace may be your nurse. Take more brandy, and then I'll go for
assistance."

"No, Graham, no. Don't leave me. Life is ebbing again. Ah, ah!
farewell--true friend. Un--bounded love--Grace. Commit--her--your care!"

There was a convulsive shudder and the noble form was still.

Graham knelt over him for a few moments in silent horror. Then he tore
open Hilland's vest and placed his hand over his heart. It was
motionless. His hand, as he withdrew it, was bathed in blood. He poured
brandy into the open lips, but the powerful stimulant was without
effect. The awful truth overwhelmed him.

Hilland was dead.

He sat down, lifted his friend up against his breast, and hung over him
with short, dry sobs--with a grief far beyond tears, careless, reckless
of his own safety.

The bushes near him were parted, and a sweet girlish face, full of
fear, wonder, and pity, looked upon him. The interpretation of the
scene was but too evident, and tears gushed from the young girl's eyes.

"Oh, sir," she began in a low, faltering voice.

The mourner paid no heed.

"Please, sir," she cried, "do not grieve so. I never saw a man grieve
like that. Oh, papa, papa, come, come here."

The quick pride of manhood was touched, and Graham laid his friend
reverently down, and stood erect, quiet, but with heaving breast. Hasty
steps approached, and a gray-haired man stood beside the young girl.

"I am your prisoner, sir," said Graham, "but in the name of humanity I
ask you to let me bury my dead."

"My dear young sir, in the name of humanity and a more sacred Name, I
will do all for you in my power. I am a clergyman, and am here with a
party from a neighboring village, charged with the office of burying
the dead with appropriate rites. I have no desire to take you prisoner,
but will be glad to entertain you as my guest if the authorities will
permit. Will you not give me some brief explanation of this scene while
they are gathering up the dead?"

Graham did so in a few sad words. The daughter sat crying on the mossy
log meanwhile, and the old man wiped his eyes again and again.

"Was there ever a nobler-looking man?" sobbed the girl; "and to think
of his poor wife! Papa, he must not be buried here. He must be taken to
our little cemetery by the church, and I will often put flowers on his
grave."

"If you will carry out this plan, sweet child" said Graham, "one
broken-hearted woman will bless you while she lives."

"Think, papa," resumed the girl--"think if it was our Henry what we
would wish."

"I'm glad you feel as you do, my child. It proves that this horrible
war is not hardening your heart or making you less gentle or
compassionate. I will carry out your wishes and yours, sir, and will
use my whole influence to prevent your noble fidelity to your friend
from becoming the cause of your captivity. I will now summon assistance
to carry your friend to the road, where a wagon can take him to the
village."

In a few moments two <DW64> slaves, part of the force sent to bury the
dead, with their tattered hats doffed out of respect, slowly bore the
body of Hilland to the roadside. Graham, with his bare head bowed under
a weight of grief that seemed wellnigh crushing, followed closely, and
then the old clergyman and his daughter. They laid the princely form
down on the grass beside a dark-haired young Confederate officer, who
was also to be taken to the cemetery.

The sad rites of burial which the good old man now performed over both
friend and foe of subordinate rank need not be dwelt upon. While they
were taking place Graham stood beside his friend as motionless as if he
had become a statue, heedless of the crowd of villagers and country
people that had gathered to the scene.

At last a sweet voice said: "Please, sir, it's time to go. You ride
with papa. I am young and strong and can walk."

His only response was to take her hand and kiss it fervently. Then he
turned to her father and told him of his horse that was hidden in the
nearest edge of the belt of woods, and asked that it might be sent for
by some one who was trustworthy.

"Here is Sampson, one of my own people; I'd trust him with all I have;"
and one of the <DW64>s who had borne the body of Hilland hastened away
as directed, and soon returned with the beautiful horse that awakened
the admiration of all and the cupidity of a few of the nondescript
characters that had been drawn to the place.

A rude wagon was drawn to the roadside, its rough boards covered with
leafy boughs, and the Union and the Confederate officer were placed in
it side by side. Then the minister climbed into his old-fashioned gig,
his daughter sprang lightly in by his side, took the reins and slowly
led the way, followed by the extemporized hearse, while Graham on his
horse rode at the feet of his friend, chief mourner in bitter truth.
The <DW64>s who had buried the dead walked on either side of the wagon
bareheaded and oblivious of the summer sun, and the country people and
villagers streamed along the road after the simple procession.

The bodies were first taken to the parsonage, and the stains of battle
removed by an old  aunty, a slave of the clergyman. Graham gave
into the care of the clergyman's daughter Hilland's sword and some
other articles that he did not wish to carry on his return to the Union
lines. Among these was an exquisite likeness of Grace smiling in her
happy loveliness.

Tears again rushed into the young girl's eyes as she asked in accents
of deepest commiseration: "And will you have to break the news to her?"

"No," said Graham hoarsely; "I could not do that. I'd rather face a
thousand guns than that poor wife."

"Why do you not keep the likeness?"

"I could not look upon it and think of the change which this fatal day
will bring to those features. I shall leave it with you until she comes
for his sword and to visit his grave. No one has a better right to it
than you, and in this lovely face you see the promise of your own
womanhood reflected. You have not told me your name. I wish to know it,
for I shall love and cherish it as one of my most sacred memories."

"Margarita Anderson," was the blushing reply. "Papa and my friends call
me Rita."

"Let me call you what your name signifies, and what you have proved
yourself to be--Pearl. Who is Henry?"

"My only brother. He is a captain in our army."

"You are a true Southern girl?"

"Yes, in body and soul I'm a Southern girl;" and her dark eyes flashed
through her tears.

"So was the original of this likeness. She is kin to you in blood and
feeling as well as in her noble qualities; but she loved her Northern
husband more than the whole world, and all in it was nothing compared
with him. She will come and see you some day, and words will fail her
in thanks."

"And will you come with her?"

"I don't know. I may be dead long before that time."

The young girl turned away, and for some reason her tears flowed faster
than ever before.

"Pearl, my tender-hearted child, don't grieve over what would be so
small a grief to me. This evil day has clouded your young life with the
sadness of others. But at your age it will soon pass;" and he returned
to his friend and took from him the little mementoes that he knew would
be so dear to Grace.

Soon after, the two bodies were borne to the quaint old church and
placed before the altar. Both were dressed in their full uniforms, and
there was a noble calmness on the face of each as they slumbered side
by side in the place sacred to the God of peace, and at peace with each
other for evermore.

For an hour the bell tolled slowly, and the people passed in at one
door, looked upon the manly forms, and with awed faces crept out at the
other.

It was indeed a memorable day for the villagers. They had been awakened
in the dawn by sounds of distant conflict. They had exulted over a
brilliant victory as the Confederate forces came marching rapidly
through their streets.

They had been put on the _qui vive_ to know what the rapid movement of
their troops meant. Some of the most severely wounded had been left in
their care. The battlefield with its horrors had been visited, and
there was to be a funeral service over two actors in the bloody drama,
whose untimely fate excited not only sympathy, but the deep interest
and curiosity which ever attend upon those around whom rumor has woven
a romantic history. The story of Graham's return in search of his
friend, of the circumstances of their discovery by Rita, of the
likeness of the lovely wife who would soon be heart-broken from the
knowledge of what was known to them, had got abroad among the people,
and their warm Southern hearts were more touched by the fate of their
Northern foe than by that of the officer wearing the livery of their
own service, but of whom little was known.

Graham's profound grief also impressed them deeply; and the presence of
a Union officer, sitting among them, forgetful of his danger, of all
except that his friend was dead, formed a theme which would be dwelt
upon for months to come.

Near the close of the day, after some appropriate words in the church,
the venerable clergyman, with his white locks uncovered, led the way
through the cemetery to its further side, where, under the shade of an
immense juniper-tree, were two open graves. As before, Graham followed
his friend, and after him came Rita with a number of her young
companions, dressed in white and carrying baskets of flowers. After an
impressive burial service had been read, the young girls passed to and
fro between the graves, throwing flowers in each and singing as they
went a hymn breathing the certainty of the immortality that had been
the object of poor Hilland's longing aspiration. Graham's heart
thrilled as he heard the words, for they seemed the answer to his
friend's questions. But, though his feelings might be touched deeply,
he was the last man to be moved by sentiment or emotion from a position
to which his inexorable reason had conducted him.

The sun threw its level rays over a scene that he never forgot--the
white-haired clergyman standing between the open graves; the young
maidens, led by the dark-eyed Rita, weaving in and out, their white
hands and arms glowing like ivory as they strewed the flowers,
meanwhile singing with an unconscious grace and pathos that touched the
rudest hearts; the concourse of people, chiefly women, old men, and
children, for the young and strong were either mouldering on
battlefields or marching to others; the awed sable faces of the <DW64>s
in the further background; the exquisite evening sky; the songs of
unheeding birds, so near to man in their choice of habitation, so
remote from his sorrows and anxieties--all combined to form a picture
and a memory which would be vivid and real to his latest day.

The graves were at last filled and piled up with flowers. Then Graham,
standing uncovered before them all, spoke slowly and earnestly:

"People of the South, you see before you a Northern man, an officer in
the Union army; but as I live I cherish no thought of enmity toward one
of you. On the contrary, my heart is overwhelmed with gratitude. You
have placed here side by side two brave men. You have rendered to their
dust equal reverence and honor. I am in accord with you. I believe that
the patriotism of one was as sincere as that of the other, the courage
of one as high as that of the other, that the impulses which led them
to offer up their lives were equally noble. In your generous sympathy
for a fallen foe you have proved yourselves Americans in the best sense
of the word. May the day come when that name shall suffice for us all.
Believe me, I would defend your homes and my own with equal zeal;" and
with a bow of profound respect he turned to the grave of his friend.

With a delicate appreciation of his wish, the people, casting backward
lingering, sympathetic glances, ebbed away and he was soon left alone.



CHAPTER XXIX

A SOUTHERN GIRL

When Graham was left alone he knelt and bowed his head in the flowers
that Rita had placed on Hilland's grave, and the whole horrible truth
seemed to grow, to broaden and deepen, like a gulf that had opened at
his feet. Hilland, who had become a part of his own life and seemed
inseparable from all its interests, had disappeared forever. But
yesterday he was the centre of vast interests and boundless love; now
he had ceased to be. The love would remain, but oh, the torture of a
boundless love when its object has passed beyond its reach!

The thought of Grace brought to the mourner an indescribable anguish.
Once his profound love for her had asserted itself in a way that had
stung him to madness, and the evil thought had never returned. Now she
seemed to belong to the dead husband even more than when he was living.
The thought that tortured him most was that Grace would not long
survive Hilland. The union between the two had been so close and vital
that the separation might mean death. The possibility overwhelmed him,
and he grew faint and sick. Indeed it would seem that he partially lost
consciousness, for at last he became aware that some one was standing
near and pleading with him. Then he saw it was Rita.

"Oh, sir," she entreated, "do not grieve so. It breaks my heart to see
a man so overcome. It seems terrible. It makes me feel that there are
depths of sorrow that frighten me. Oh, come with me--do, please. I fear
you've eaten nothing to-day, and we have supper all ready for you."

Graham tottered to his feet and passed his hand across his brow, as if
to brush away an evil dream.

"Indeed, sir, you look sick and faint. Take my arm and lean on me. I
assure you I am very strong."

"Yes, Pearl, you are strong. Many live to old age and never become as
true a woman as you are to-day. This awful event has wellnigh crushed
me, and, now I think of it, I have scarcely tasted food since last
evening. Thank you, my child, I will take your arm. In an hour or two I
shall gain self-control."

"My heart aches for you, sir," she said, as they passed slowly through
the twilight.

"May it be long before it aches from any sorrow of your own, Pearl."

The parsonage adjoined the church. The old clergyman abounded in almost
paternal kindness, and pressed upon Graham a glass of home-made wine.
After he had taken this and eaten a little, his strength and poise
returned, and he gave his entertainers a fuller account of Hilland and
his relations, and in that Southern home there was as genuine sympathy
for the inmates of the Northern home as if they all had been devoted to
the same cause.

"There are many subjects on which we differ," said his host. "You
perceive that I have slaves, but they are so attached to me that I do
not think they would leave me if I offered them their freedom. I have
been brought up to think slavery right. My father and grandfather
before me held slaves and always treated them well. I truly think they
did better by them than the bondmen could have done for themselves. To
give them liberty and send them adrift would be almost like throwing
little children out into the world. I know that there are evils and
abuses connected with our system, but I feel sure that liberty given to
a people unfitted for it would be followed by far greater evils."

"It's a subject to which I have given very little attention," Graham
replied. "I have spent much of my life abroad, and certainly your
servants are better off than the peasantry and very poor in many lands
that I have visited."

With a kind of wonder, he thought of the truth that Hilland, who so
hated slavery, had been lifted from the battlefield by slaves, and that
his remains had been treated with reverent honor by a slave-holder.

The old clergyman's words also proved that, while he deprecated the war
unspeakably, his whole sympathy was with the South. His only son, of
whom neither he nor Rita could speak without looks of pride and
affection kindling in their faces, was in the Confederate service, and
the old man prayed as fervently for success to the cause to which he
had devoted the treasure of his life as any Northern father could
petition the God of nations for his boy and the restoration of the
Union. At the same time his nature was too large, too highly ennobled
by Christianity, for a narrow vindictive bitterness. He could love the
enemy that he was willing his son should oppose in deadly battle.

"We hope to secure our independence," he added, "and to work out our
national development according to the genius of our own people. I pray
and hope for the time when the North and South may exist side by side
as two friendly nations. Your noble words this afternoon found their
echo in my heart. Even though my son should be slain by a Northern
hand, as your friend has been by a Southern, I wish to cherish no
vindictive bitterness and enmity. The question must now be settled by
the stern arbitrament of battle; but when the war is over let it not be
followed by an era of hate."

He then told Graham how he had lost his beloved wife years before, and
how lonely and desolate he had been until Rita had learned to care for
him and provide for his comfort with almost hourly vigilance.

"Yes," said Graham, "I have seen it; she is to you what my friend's
wife is to her invalid father, the immeasurable blessing of his life.
How it will be now I hardly know, for I fear that her grief will
destroy her, and the old major, her father, could not long survive."

A note was now handed to the old gentleman, who, having read it,
appeared greatly distressed. After a moment's hesitancy he gave it to
Graham, who read as follows:

"I heard the North'ner speak this arternoon, an' I can't be one to take
and rob him of his horse and send him to prison. But it'll be done
to-night if you can't manage his escape. Every rode is watched, an'
your house will be searched to-night. ONE OF THE BAND.

"You'll burn this an' keep mum or my neck will be stretched."

"Who brought the note?" Mr. Anderson asked, going to the door and
questioning a <DW52> woman.

"Dunno, mas'r. De do' open a little, and de ting flew in on de flo'."

"Well," said Graham, "I must mount and go at once;" and he was about to
resume his arms.

"Wait, wait; I must think!" cried his host. "For you to go alone would
be to rush into the very evils we are warned against. I am pained and
humiliated beyond measure by this communication. Mr. Graham, do not
judge us harshly. There is, I suppose, a vile sediment in every
community, and there is here a class that won't enlist in open,
honorable warfare, but prowl around, chiefly at night, intent on deeds
like this."

"Papa," said Rita, who had read the warning, "I know what to do;" and
her brave spirit flashed in her eyes.

"You, my child?"

"Yes. I'll prove to Mr. Graham what a Southern girl will do for a
guest--for one who has trusted her. The deep, deep disgrace of his
capture and robbery shall not come on our heads. I will guide him at
once through the woods to old Uncle Jehu's cabin. No one will think of
looking for him there; for there is little more than a bridle-path
leading to it; but I know the way, every inch of it."

"But, Rita, I could send one of the servants with Mr. Graham."

"No, papa; he would be missed and afterward questioned, and some awful
revenge taken on him. You must say that I have retired when the
villains come. You must keep all our servants in. Mr. Graham and I will
slip out. He can saddle his horse, and I, you know well, can saddle
mine. Now we must apparently go to our rooms and within half an hour
slip out unperceived and start. No one will ever dare touch me, even if
it is found out."

"Pearl, priceless Pearl, I'll fight my way through all the guerillas in
the land, rather than subject you to peril."

"You could not fight your way through them, the cowardly skulkers. What
chance would you have in darkness? My plan brings me no peril, for if
they met us they would not dare to touch me. But if it costs me my life
I _will_ go," she concluded passionately. "This disgrace must not fall
on our people."

"Rita is right," said the old clergyman, solemnly. "I could scarcely
survive the disgrace of having a guest taken from my home, and they
would have to walk over my prostrate form before it could be done; and
to send you out alone would be even more shameful. The plan does not
involve much peril to Rita. Although, in a sense, you are my enemy, I
will trust this pearl beyond price to your protection, and old Jehu
will return with her until within a short distance of the house. As she
says, I think no one in this region would harm her. I will co-operate
with you, Rita, and entreat the Heavenly Father until I clasp you in my
arms again. Act, act at once."

Graham was about to protest again, but she silenced him by a gesture
that was almost imperious. "Don't you see that for papa's sake, for my
own, as well as yours, I must go? Now let us say good-night as if we
were parting unsuspicious of trouble. When I tap at your door, Mr.
Graham, you will follow me; and you, papa, try to keep our people in
ignorance."

Graham wrung the clergyman's hand in parting, and said, "You will
always be to me a type of the noblest development of humanity."

"God bless you, sir," was the reply, "and sustain you through the
dangers and trying scenes before you. I am but a simple old man, trying
to do right with God's help. And, believe me, sir, the South is full of
men as sincere as I am."

Within half an hour Graham followed his fair guide down a back stairway
and out into the darkness. Rita's pony was at pasture in a field
adjoining the stable, but he came instantly at her soft call.

"I shall not put on my saddle," she whispered. "If I leave it hanging
in the stable it will be good evidence that I am in my room. There will
be no need of our riding fast, and, indeed, I have often ridden without
a saddle for fun. I will guide you to your horse and saddle in the dark
stable, for we must take him out of a back door, so that there will be
no sound of his feet on the boards."

Within a few moments they were passing like shadows down a shaded lane
that led from the house to the forest, and then entered what was a mere
bridle-path, the starlight barely enabling the keen-eyed Rita to make
it out at times. The thick woods on either side prevented all danger of
flank attacks. After riding some little time they stopped and listened.
The absolute silence, broken only by the cries of the wild creatures of
the night, convinced them that they were not followed. Then Rita said,
"Old Jehu has a bright boy of sixteen or thereabout, and he'll guide
you north through the woods as far as he can, and then God will protect
and guide you until you are safe. I know He will help you to escape,
that you may say words of comfort to the poor, broken-hearted wife."

"Yes, Pearl, I think I shall escape. I take your guidance as a good
omen. If I could only be sure that no harm came to you and your noble
father!"

"The worst of harm would have come to us had we permitted the evil that
was threatened."

"You seem very young, Pearl, and yet you are in many ways very mature
and womanly."

"I am young--only sixteen-but mamma's death and the responsibility it
brought me made my childhood brief. Then Henry is five years older than
I, and I always played with him, and, of course, you know I tried to
reach up to those things that he thought about and did. I've never been
to school. Papa is educating me, and oh, he knows so much, and he makes
knowledge so interesting, that I can't help learning a little. And then
Henry's going into the war, and all that is happening, makes me feel so
very, very old and sad at times;" and so she continued in low tones to
tell about herself and Henry and her father, of their hopes of final
victory, and all that made up her life. This she did with a guileless
frankness, and yet with a refined reserve that was indescribable in its
simple pathos and beauty. In spite of himself Graham was charmed and
soothed, while he wondered at the exquisite blending of girlhood and
womanhood in his guide. She also questioned him about the North and the
lands he had visited, about his aunt and Grace and her father; and
Graham's tremulous tones as he spoke of Grace led her to say
sorrowfully, "Ah, she is very, very dear to you also."

"Yes," he said, imitating her frankness, "she is dearer to me than my
life. I would gladly have died in Hilland's place to have saved her
this sorrow. Were it not for the hope of serving her in some way, death
would have few terrors to me. There, my child, I have spoken to you as
I have to only one other, my dear old aunty, who is like a mother. Your
noble trust begets trust."

Then he became aware that she was crying bitterly.

"Pearl, Pearl," he said, "don't cry. I have become accustomed to a sad
heart, and it's an old, old story."

"Oh, Mr. Graham, I remember hearing mamma say once that women learn
more through their hearts than their heads. I have often thought of her
words, and I think they must be true. Almost from the first my heart
told me that there was something about you which made you different
from other people. Why is the world so full of trouble of every kind?
Ah, well, papa has taught me that heaven will make amends for
everything."

They had now reached a little clearing, and Rita said that they were
near Jehu's cabin, and that their final words had better be said before
awakening the old man. "I must bathe my face, too," she added, "for he
would not understand my tears," and went to a clear little spring but a
few paces away.

Graham also dismounted. When she returned he took her hand and raised
it reverently to his lips as he said, "Pearl, this is not a case for
ordinary thanks. I no doubt owe my life, certainly my liberty, to you.
On that I will not dwell. I owe to you and your father far more, and so
does poor Grace Hilland. You insured a burial for my friend that will
bring a world of comfort to those who loved him. The thought of your
going to his grave and placing upon it fresh flowers from time to time
will contain more balm than a thousand words of well-meant condolence.
Pearl, my sweet, pure, noble child, is there nothing I can do for you?"

"Yes," she faltered; "it may be that you can return all that we have
done a hundred-fold. It may be that you will meet Henry in battle. In
the memory of his little sister you will spare him, will you not? If he
should be captured I will tell him to write to you, and I feel sure
that you will remember our lonely ride and the gray old father who is
praying for you now, and will not leave him to suffer."

Graham drew a seal ring from his finger and said: "Dear Pearl, take
this as a pledge that I will serve him in any way in my power and at
any cost to myself. I hope the day will come when he will honor me with
his friendship, and I would as soon strike the friend I have lost as
your brother."

 "Now I am content," she said. "I believe every word you say."

"And Grace Hilland will come some day and claim you as a sister dearly
beloved. And I, sweet Pearl, will honor your memory in my heart of
hearts. The man who wins you as his bride may well be prouder than an
emperor."

"Oh, no, Mr. Graham, I'm just a simple Southern girl."

"There are few like you, I fear, South or North. You are a girl to
kindle every manly instinct and power, and I shall be better for having
known you. The hope of serving you and yours in some way and at some
time will give a new zest and value to my life."

"Do not speak so kindly or I shall cry again. I've been afraid you
would think me silly, I cry so easily. I do not think we Southern girls
are like those at the North. They are colder, I imagine, or at least
more able to control their feelings. Papa says I am a child of the
South. I can't decide just how much or how little I ought to feel on
all occasions, and ever since I saw you mourning over your friend with
just such passionate grief as I should feel, my whole heart has ached
for you. You will come and see us again if you have a chance?"

"I will make chances, Pearl, even though they involve no little risk."

"No, no; don't do that. You ought to care too much for us to do that.
Nothing would give me pleasure that brought danger to you. If I could
only know that you reached your friends in safety!"

"I'll find a way of letting you know if I can."

"Well, then, good-by. It's strange, but you seem like an old, old
friend. Oh, I know Henry will like you, and that you will like him.
Next to mamma's, your ring shall be my dearest treasure. I shall look
at it every night and think I have added one more chance of Henry's
safety. Oh, I could worship the man who saved his life."

"And any man might worship you. Good-by, Pearl;" and he kissed her hand
again and again, then lifted her on her pony with a tenderness that was
almost an embrace, and she rode slowly to the door of a little log
cabin, while Graham remained concealed in the shadow of the woods until
it was made certain that no one was in the vicinity except Jehu and his
family.

The old man was soon aroused, and his ejaculations and exclamations
were innumerable.

"No, missy, dars no un been roun' heah for right smart days. It's all
safe, an' Jehu an' his ole ooman knows how ter keep mum when Mas'r
Anderson says mum; an' so does my peart boy Huey"--who, named for his
father, was thus distinguished from him. "An' de hossifer is a Linkum
man? Sho, sho! who'd a tink it, and his own son a 'Federate! Well,
well, Mas'r Anderson isn't low-down white trash. If he thought a ting
was right I reckon de hull worl' couldn't make him cut up any
white-trash didoes."

When Rita explained further the old <DW64> replied with alacrity: "Ob
cose Jehu will took you home safe, an' proud he'll be ter go wid you,
honey. You'se a mighty peart little gal, an' does youse blood an'
broughten up jestice. Mighty few would dar' ride five mile troo de
lonesome woods wid a strange hossifer, if he be a Linkum man. He mus'
be sumpen like Linkum hisself. Yes, if you bain't afeared ter show him
de way, Huey needn't be;" and the boy, who was now wide awake, said
he'd "like notten better dan showin' a Linkum man troo de woods."

Graham was summoned, and in a few moments all was arranged.

He then drew the old man aside and said, "You good, faithful old soul,
take care of that girl as the apple of your eye, for she has only one
equal in the world. Here is one hundred dollars. That will pay for a
good many chickens and vegetables, won't it?"

"Lor' bless you, mas'r, dey ain't chickens nuff in Ole Virginny to
brought hundred dollars."

"Well, I'll tell you what I'm afraid of. This region may be wasted by
war, like so many others. You may not be troubled in this
out-of-the-way place. If Mr. Anderson's family is ever in need, you are
now paid to supply them with all that you can furnish."

"'Deed I is, mas'r, double paid."

"Be faithful to them and you shall have more 'Linkum money,' as you
call it. Keep it, for your money down here won't be worth much soon."

"Dat's shoah. De cullud people bain't all prayin' for Linkum for
notten."

"Good-by. Do as I say and you shall be taken care of some day. Say
nothing about this."

"Mum's de word all roun' ter-night, mas'r."

"Huey, are you ready?"

"I is, mas'r."

"Lead the way, then;" and again approaching Rita, Graham took off his
hat and bowed low as he said, "Give my grateful greeting to your
honored father, and may every hope of his heart be fulfilled in return
for his good deeds today. As for you, Miss Anderson, no words can
express my profound respect and unbounded gratitude. We shall meet
again in happier times;" and backing his horse, while he still remained
uncovered, he soon turned and followed Huey.

"Well, now," ejaculated Jehu. "'Clar ter you ef dat ar Linkum hossifer
bain't nigh onter bein' as fine a gemman as Mas'r Henry hisself. Won't
you take some 'freshment, missy? No? Den I'se go right 'long wid you."

Rita enjoined silence, ostensibly for the reason that it was prudent,
but chiefly that she might have a respite from the old man's
garrulousness. Her thoughts were very busy. The first romance of her
young life had come, and she still felt on her hands the kisses that
had been so warm and sincere, although she knew they were given by one
who cherished a hopeless love. After all, it was but her vivid Southern
imagination that had been kindled by the swift, strange events of the
past twenty-four hours. With the fine sense of the best type of dawning
womanhood, she had been deeply moved by Graham's strong nature. She had
seen in him a love for another man that was as tender and passionate as
that of a woman, and yet it was bestowed upon the husband of the woman
whom he had loved for years. That he had not hesitated to risk
captivity and death in returning for his friend proved his bravery to
be unlimited, and a Southern girl adores courage. For a time Graham
would be the ideal of her girlish heart. His words of admiration and
respect were dwelt upon, and her cheeks flushed up seen in the deep
shadow of the forest. Again her tears would fall fast as she thought of
his peril and of all the sad scenes of the day and the sadder ones
still to come. Grace Hilland, a Southern girl like herself, became a
glorified image to her fancy, and it would now be her chief ambition to
be like her. She would keep her lovely portrait on her bureau beside
her Bible, and it should be almost equally sacred.

In the edge of the forest she parted from Jehu with many and warm
thanks, for she thought it wise that there should not be the slightest
chance of his being seen. She also handed him a Confederate bill out of
her slender allowance, patted him on the shoulder as she would some
faithful animal, and rode away. He crept along after her till he saw
her let down some bars and turn her pony into the fields. He then crept
on till he saw her enter a door, and then stole back to the forest and
shambled homeward as dusky as the shadows in which he walked,
chuckling, "Missy Rita, sweet honey, guv me one of dern 'Federate rags.
Oh, golly! I'se got more money--live Linkum money--dan Mas'r Anderson
hisself, and I'se got notten ter do but raise chickens an' garden sass
all my born days. Missy Rita's red cheeks never grow pale long as Jehu
or Huey can tote chickens and sass."



 CHAPTER XXX

GUERILLAS

Graham, beyond a few low, encouraging words, held his peace and also
enjoined silence on his youthful guide. His plan was to make a wide
circuit around the battlefield of the previous day, and then strike the
trail of the Union forces, which he believed he could follow at night.
Huey thought that this could be done and that they could keep in the
shelter of the woods most of the distance, and this they accomplished,
reconnoitring the roads most carefully before crossing them. Huey was
an inveterate trapper; and as his pursuit was quite as profitable as
raising "sass," old Jehu gave the boy his own way. Therefore he knew
every path through the woods for miles around.

The dawn was in the east before Graham reached the Union trail, and he
decided to spend the day in a dense piece of woods not very far
distant. Huey soon settled the question of Mayburn's provender by
purloining a few sheaves of late oats from a field that they passed;
but when they reached their hiding-place Graham was conscious that he
was in need of food himself, and he also remembered that a boy is
always ravenous.

"Well, Huey," he said, "in providing for the horse you have attended to
the main business, but what are we going to do?"

"We'se gwine ter do better'n de hoss. If mas'r'll 'zamine his
saddle-bags, reckon he'll fine dat Missy Rita hain't de leddy to sen'
us off on a hunt widout a bite of suthin' good. She sez, sez she to me,
in kind o' whisper like, 'Mas'r Graham'll fine suthin' you'll like,
Huey;'" and the boy eyed the saddle-bags like a young wolf.

"Was there ever such a blessed girl!" cried Graham, as he pulled out a
flask of wine, a fowl cut into nice portions, bread, butter, and
relishes--indeed, the best that her simple housekeeping afforded in the
emergency. In the other bag there was also a piece of cake of such
portentous size that Huey clasped his hands and rolled up his eyes as
he had seen his parents do when the glories of heaven were expatiated
upon in the <DW64> prayer-meetings.

"That's all for you, Huey, and here's some bread and cold ham to go
with it. When could she have provided these things so thoughtfully? It
must have been before she called me last night. Now, Huey, if you ever
catch anything extra nice in the woods you take it to Miss Rita. There
is ten dollars to pay you; and when the Lincoln men get possession here
I'll look after you and give you a fine chance, if you have been
faithful. You must not tell Miss Rita what I say, but seem to do all of
your own accord. I wish I had more money with me, but you will see me
again, and I will make it all right with you."

"It's all right now, mas'r. What wouldn't I do for Missy Rita? When my
ole mammy was sick she bro't med'cin, and a right smart lot ob tings,
and brung her troo de weariness. Golly! Wonder Missy Rita don't go
straight up ter heben like dem rackets dey shoots when de 'Federates
say dey hab a vict'ry;" and then the boy's mouth became so full that he
was speechless for a long time.

The sense of danger, and the necessity for the utmost vigilance, had
diverted Graham's thoughts during his long night ride; and with a
soldier's habit he had concentrated his faculties on the immediate
problem of finding the trail, verifying Huey's local knowledge by
observation of the stars. Now, in the cool summer morning, with Rita's
delicious repast before him, life did not seem so desperate a thing as
on the day before. Although exceedingly wearied, the strength of mind
which would enable him to face his sad tasks was returning. He thought
little about the consequences of his disobedience to orders, and cared
less. If he lost his rank he would enlist as a private soldier after he
had done all in his power for Grace, who had been committed to his care
by Hilland's last words. He felt that she had the most sacred claims
upon him, and yet he queried, "What can I do for her beyond
communicating every detail of her husband's last hours and his burial?
What remedy is there for a sorrow like hers?"

At the same time he felt that a lifelong and devoted friendship might
bring solace and help at times, and this hope gave a new value to his
life. He also thought it very possible that the strange vicissitudes of
war might put it in his power to serve the Andersons, in whom he felt a
grateful interest that only such scenes as had just occurred could have
awakened. It would ever be to him a source of unalloyed joy to add
anything to Rita Anderson's happiness.

His kind old aunt, too, had her full share of his thoughts as he
reclined on the dun- leaves of the previous year and reviewed
the past and planned for the future. He recalled her words, "that good
would come of it," when he had promised to "live and do his best."
Although in his own life he had missed happiness, there was still a
prospect of his adding much to the well-being of others.

But how could he meet Grace again? He trembled at the very thought. Her
grief would unman him. It was agony even to imagine it; and she might,
in her ignorance of an officer's duties in battle, think that if he had
kept near Hilland the awful event might have been averted.

After all, he could reach but one conclusion--to keep his old promise
"to do his best," as circumstances indicated.

Asking Huey, who had the trained ear of a hunter, to watch and listen,
he took some sleep in preparation for the coming night, and then gave
the boy a chance to rest.

The day passed quietly, and in the evening he dismissed Huey, with
assurances to Rita and her father that a night's ride would bring him
within the Union lines, and that he now knew the way well. The boy
departed in high spirits, feeling that he would like "showin' Linkum
men troo de woods" even better than trapping.

Then looking well to his arms, and seeing that they were ready for
instant use, Graham started on his perilous ride, walking his horse and
stopping to listen from time to time. Once in the earlier part of the
night he heard the sound of horses' feet, and drawing back into the
deep shadow of the woods he saw three or four men gallop by. They were
undoubtedly guerillas looking for him, or on some prowl with other
objects in view. At last he knew he must be near his friends, and he
determined to push on, even though the dawn was growing bright; but he
had hardly reached this conclusion when but a short distance in advance
a dozen horsemen dashed out of a grove and started toward him.

They were part of "The Band," who, with the instincts of their class,
conjectured too truly that, since he had eluded them thus far, their
best chance to intercept him would be at his natural approach to the
Union lines; and now, with the kind of joy peculiar to themselves, they
felt that their prey was in their power, beyond all hope of escape, for
Graham was in plain sight upon a road inclosed on either side by a high
rail fence. There were so many guerillas that there was not a ghost of
a chance in fighting or riding through them, and for a moment his
position seemed desperate.

"It's Mayburn to the rescue now," he muttered, and he turned and sped
away, and every leap of his noble horse increased the distance between
him and his pursuers. His confidence soon returned, for he felt that
unless something unforeseen occurred he could ride all around them. His
pursuers fired two shots, which were harmless enough, but to his dismay
Graham soon learned that they were signals, for from a farmhouse near
other horsemen entered the road, and he was between two parties.

There was not a moment to lose. Glancing ahead, he saw a place where
the fence had lost a rail or two. He spurred toward it, and the gallant
horse flew over like a bird into a wide field fringed on the further
side by a thick growth of timber. Bullets from the intercepting party
whizzed around him; but he sped on unharmed, while his pursuers only
stopped long enough to throw off a few rails, and then both of the
guerilla squads rode straight for the woods, with the plan of keeping
the fugitive between them, knowing that in its tangle he must be caught.

Graham resolved to risk another volley in order to ride around the
pursuers nearest the Union lines, thus throwing them in the rear, with
no better chance than a stern chase would give them. In order to
accomplish this, however, he had to circle very near the woods, and in
doing so saw a promising wood-road leading into them. The yelling
guerillas were so close as to make his first plan of escape extremely
hazardous; therefore, following some happy instinct he plunged into the
shade of the forest. The road proved narrow, but it was open and
unimpeded by overhanging boughs. Indeed, the trees were the straight,
slender pines in which the region abounded, and he gained on all of his
pursuers except two, who, like himself, were superbly mounted. The thud
of their horses' hoofs kept near, and he feared that he might soon come
to some obstruction which would bring them to close quarters. Mayburn
was giving signs of weariness, for his mettle had been sorely tried of
late, and Graham resolved to ambush his pursuers if possible. An
opportunity occurred speedily, for the road made a sharp turn, and
there was a small clearing where the timber had been cut. The dawn had
as yet created but a twilight in the woods, and the obscurity aided his
purpose. He drew up by the roadside at the beginning of the clearing,
and in a position where he could not readily be seen until the
guerillas were nearly abreast, and waited, with his heavy revolver in
hand and his drawn sword lying across the pommel of his saddle.

On they came at a headlong pace, and passed into the clearing but a few
feet away. There were two sharp reports, with the slightest possible
interval. The first man dropped instantly; the other rode wildly for a
few moments and then fell headlong, while the riderless horses galloped
on for a time.

Graham, however, soon overtook them, and with far more compunction than
he had felt in shooting their riders, he struck them such a blow with
his sword on their necks, a little back of their ears, that they reeled
and fell by the roadside. He feared those horses more than all "The
Band"; for if mounted again they might tire Mayburn out in a prolonged
chase.

To his great joy the wood lane soon emerged into another large open
field, and he now felt comparatively safe.

The guerillas, on hearing the shots, spurred on exultantly, feeling
sure of their prey, but only to stumble over their fallen comrades. One
was still able to explain the mode of their discomfiture; and the dusky
road beyond at once acquired wholesome terrors for the survivors, who
rode on more slowly and warily, hoping now for little more than the
recapture of the horses, which were the envy of all their lawless
hearts. Your genuine guerilla will always incur a heavy risk for a fine
horse. They soon discovered the poor brutes, and saw at a glance that
they would be of no more service in irregular prowlings. Infuriated
more at the loss of the beasts than at that of the men, they again
rushed forward only to see Graham galloping easily away in the distance.

Even in their fury they recognized that further pursuit was useless,
and with bitter curses on their luck, they took the saddles from the
fallen horses, and carried their associates, one dead and the other
dying, to the farmhouse in which dwelt a sympathizer, who had given
them refreshment during the night.

A few hours later--for he travelled the rest of the way very
warily--Graham reported to his colonel, and found the brigade under
orders to move on the following morning, provided with ten days'
rations.

The officer was both delighted and perplexed. "It's a hard case," he
said. "You acted from the noblest impulses; but it was flat
disobedience to orders."

"I know it. I shall probably be dismissed from the service. If so,
colonel, I will enlist as a private in your regiment. Then you can
shoot me if I disobey again."

"Well, you are the coolest fellow that ever wore the blue. Come with me
to headquarters."

The fact of his arrival, and an imperfect story of what had occurred,
soon got abroad among the men; and they were wild in their approval,
cheering him with the utmost enthusiasm as he passed to the brigadier's
tent. The general was a genuine cavalryman; and was too wise in his day
and generation to alienate his whole brigade by any martinetism. He
knew Graham's reputation well, and he was about starting on a dangerous
service. The cheers of the men crowding to his tent spoke volumes.
Hilland's regiment seemed half beside themselves when they learned that
Graham had found their lieutenant-colonel dying on the field, and that
he had been given an honorable burial. The general, therefore, gave
Graham a most cordial welcome; and said that the question was not
within his jurisdiction, and that he would forward full particulars at
once through the proper channels to the Secretary of War, adding,
"We'll be on the march before orders can reach you. Meanwhile take your
old command."

Then the story had to be repeated in detail to the chief officers of
the brigade. Graham told it in as few words as possible, and they all
saw that his grief was so profound that the question of his future
position in the army was scarcely thought of. "I am not a sentimental
recruit," he said in conclusion. "I know the nature of my offence, and
will make no plea beyond that I believed that all danger to our command
had passed, and that it would ride quietly into camp, as it did. I also
thought that my superiors in giving the order were more concerned for
my safety than, for anything else. What the consequences are to myself
personally, I don't care a straw. There are some misfortunes which
dwarf all others." The conference broke up with the most hearty
expressions of sympathy, and the regret for Hilland's death was both
deep and genuine.

"I have a favor to ask my colonel, with your approval, General," said
Graham. "I would like to take a small detachment and capture the owner
of the farmhouse at which was harbored part of the guerilla band from
which I escaped. I would like to make him confess the names of his
associates, and send word to them that if harm comes to any who showed
kindness or respect to officers of our brigade, severe punishment will
be meted out on every one whenever the region is occupied by Union
forces."

"I order the thing to be done at once," cried the general. "Colonel,
give Major Graham as many men as he needs; and, Graham, send word we'll
hang every mother's son of 'em and burn their ranches if they indulge
in any more of their devilish outrages. Bring the farmer into camp, and
I will send him to Washington as a hostage."

On this occasion Graham obeyed orders literally. The farmer and two of
the guerillas were captured; and when threatened with a noosed rope
confessed the names of the others. A nearly grown son of the farmer was
intrusted with the general's message to their associates; and Graham
added emphatically that he intended to come himself some day and see
that it was obeyed. "Tell them to go into the army and become
straightforward soldiers if they wish, but if I ever hear of another
outrage I'll never rest till the general's threat is carried out."

Graham's deadly pistol shots and the reputation he had gained in the
vicinity gave weight to his words; and "The Band" subsided into the
most humdrum farmers of the region. Rita had ample information of his
safety, for it soon became known that he had killed two of the most
active and daring of the guerillas and captured three others; and she
worshipped the hero of her girlish fancy all the more devoutly.



CHAPTER XXXI

JUST IN TIME

Graham returned to camp early in the afternoon, and was again greeted
with acclamations, for the events that had occurred had become better
known. The men soon saw, however, from his sad, stern visage that he
was in no mood for ovations, and that noisy approval of his course was
very distasteful. After reporting, he went directly to his tent; its
flaps were closed, and Iss was instructed to permit no one to approach
unless bearing orders. The faithful <DW64>, overjoyed at his master's
safe return, marched to and fro like a belligerent watch-dog.

Graham wrote the whole story to his aunt, and besought her to make
known to Grace with all the gentleness and tact that she possessed the
awful certainty of her husband's death. A telegram announcing him among
the missing had already been sent. "Say to her," he said, in
conclusion, "that during every waking moment I am grieving for her and
with her. Oh, I tremble at the effect of her grief: I dread its
consequences beyond all words. You know that every power I possess is
wholly at her service. Write me daily and direct me what to do--if,
alas! it is within my power to do anything in regard to a grief that is
without remedy."

He then explained that the command was under orders to move the
following day, and that he would write again when he could.

During the next two weeks he saw some active service, taking part in
several skirmishes and one severe engagement. In the last it was his
fortune to receive on the shoulder a sabre-cut which promised to be a
painful though not a dangerous wound, his epaulet having broken the
force of the blow.

On the evening of the battle a telegram was forwarded to him containing
the words:

 "Have written fully. Come home if you can for a short time. All need
you. CHARLOTTE MAYBURN."

 In the rapid movements of his brigade his aunt's letters had failed
to reach him, and now he esteemed his wound most fortunate since it
secured him a leave of absence.

His journey home was painful in every sense of the word. He was
oppressed by the saddest of memories. He both longed and dreaded
unspeakably to see Grace, and the lack of definite tidings from her
left his mind a prey to the dreariest forebodings, which were enhanced
by his aunt's telegram. The physical pain from which he was never free
was almost welcomed as a diversion from his distress of mind. He
stopped in Washington only long enough to have his wound re-dressed,
and pushed northward. A fatality of delays irritated him beyond
measure; and it was late at night when he left the cars and was driven
to his aunt's residence.

A yearning and uncontrollable interest impelled him to approach first
the cottage which contained the woman, dearer to him than all the
world, who had been so strangely committed to his care. To his surprise
there was a faint light in the library; and Hilland's ill-omened dream
flashed across his mind. With a prophetic dread at heart, he stepped
lightly up the piazza to a window. As he turned the blinds he witnessed
a scene that so smote his heart that he had to lean against the house
for support. Before him was the reality of poor Hilland's vision.

On the rug before the flickering fire the stricken wife crouched,
wringing her hands, which looked ghostly in their whiteness. A candle
burning dimly on a table increased the light of the fire; and by their
united rays he saw, with a thrill of horror, that her loosened hair,
which covered her bowed face and shoulders, was, in truth, silver
white; and its contrast with her black wrapper made the whole scene,
linked as it was with a dead man's dream, so ghostly that he shuddered,
and was inclined to believe it to be the creation of his overwrought
senses. In self-distrust he looked around. Other objects were clear in
the faint moonlight. He was perfectly conscious of the dull ache of his
wound. Had the phantom crouched before the fire vanished? No; but now
the silver hair was thrown back, and Grace Hilland's white, agonized
face was lifted heavenward. Oh, how white it was!

She slowly took a dark- vial from her bosom.

Thrilled with unspeakable horror, "Grace!" he shouted, and by a
desperate effort threw the blind upward and off from its hinges, and it
fell with a crash on the veranda. Springing into the apartment, he had
not reached her side before the door opened, and his aunt's frightened
face appeared.

"Great God! what does this mean, Alford?"

"What _does_ it mean, indeed!" he echoed in agonized tones, as he knelt
beside Grace, who had fallen on the floor utterly unconscious. "Bring
the candle here," he added hoarsely.

She mechanically obeyed and seemed almost paralyzed. After a moment's
search he snatched up something and cried: "She's safe, she's safe! The
cork is not removed." Then he thrust the vial into his pocket, and
lifted Grace gently on the lounge, saying meanwhile: "She has only
fainted; surely 'tis no more. Oh, as you value my life and hers, act.
You should know what to do. I will send the coachman for a physician
instantly, and will come when you need me."

Rushing to the man's room, he dragged him from his bed, shook him
awake, and gave him instructions and offers of reward that stirred the
fellow's blood as it had never been stirred before; and yet when he
reached the stable he found that Graham had broken the lock and had a
horse saddled and ready.

"Now ride," he was commanded, "as if the devil you believe in was after
you."

Then Graham rushed back into the house, for he was almost beside
himself. But when he heard the poor old major calling piteously, and
asking what was the matter, he was taught his need of self-control.
Going up to the veteran's room, he soothed him by saying that he had
returned late in the night in response to his aunt's telegram, and that
he had found Grace fainting on the floor, that Mrs. Mayburn and the
servants were with her, and that a physician had been sent for.

"Oh, Graham, Graham," moaned the old man, "I fear my peerless girl is
losing her mind, she has acted so strangely of late. It's time you
came. It's time something was done, or the worst may happen."

With an almost overwhelming sense of horror, Graham remembered how
nearly the worst had happened, but he only said: "Let us hope the worst
has passed. I will bring you word from Mrs. Mayburn from time to time."

His terrible anxiety was only partially relieved, for his aunt said
that Grace's swoon was obstinate, and would not yield to the remedies
she was using. "Come in," she cried. "This is no time for ceremony.
Take brandy and chafe her wrists."

What a mortal chill her cold hands gave him! It was worse than when
Hilland's hands were cold in his.

"Oh, aunt, she will live?"

"Certainly," was the brusque reply. "A fainting turn is nothing. Come,
you are cool in a battle: be cool now. It won't do for us all to lose
our wits, although Heaven knows there's cause enough."

"How white her face and neck are!"--for Mrs. Mayburn had opened her
wrapper at the throat, that she might breathe more easily--"just as
Hilland saw her in his dream."

"Have done with your dreams, and omens, and all your weird nonsense.
It's time for a little more _common_-sense. Rub her wrists gently but
strongly; and if she shows signs of consciousness, disappear."

At last she said hastily, "Go"

Listening at the door, he heard Grace ask, a few moments later, in a
faint voice, "What has happened?'"

"You only fainted, deary."

"Why--why--I'm in the library."

"Yes, you got up in your sleep, and I followed you; and the doctor will
soon be here, although little need we have of him."

"Oh, I've had a fearful dream. I thought I saw Warren or Alford. I
surely heard Alford's voice."

"Yes, dear, I've no doubt you had a bad dream; and it may be that
Alford's voice caused it, for he arrived late last night and has been
talking with your father."

"That must be it," she sighed; "but my head is so confused. Oh, I am so
glad he's come! When can I see him?"

"Not till after the doctor comes and you are much stronger."

"I wish to thank him; I can't wait to thank him."

"He doesn't want thanks, deary; he wants you to get well. You owe it to
him and your father to get well--as well as your great and lifelong
sorrow permits. Now, deary, take a little more stimulant, and then
don't talk. I've explained everything, and shown you your duty; and I
know that my brave Grace will do it."

"I'll try," she said, with a pathetic weariness in her voice that
brought a rush of tears to Graham's eyes.

Returning to Major St. John, he assured him that Grace had revived, and
that he believed she would be herself hereafter.

"Oh, this cursed war!" groaned the old man; "and how I have exulted in
it and Warren's career! I had a blind confidence that he would come out
of it a veteran general while yet little more than a boy. My ambition
has been punished, punished; and I may lose both the children of whom I
was so proud. Oh, Graham, the whole world is turning as black as
Grace's mourning robes."

"I have felt that way myself. But, Major, as soldiers we must face this
thing like men. The doctor has come; and I will bring him here before
he goes, to give his report."

"Well, Graham, a father's blessing on you for going back for Warren. If
Grace had been left in suspense as to his fate she would have gone mad
in very truth. God only knows how it will be now; but she has a better
chance in meeting and overcoming the sharp agony of certainty."

Under the physician's remedies Grace rallied more rapidly; and he said
that if carried to her room she would soon sleep quietly.

"I wish to see Mr. Graham first," she said, decisively.

To Mrs. Mayburn's questioning glance, he added, "Gratify her. I have
quieting remedies at hand."

"He will prove more quieting than all remedies. He saved my husband's
life once, and tried to do so again; and I wish to tell him I never
forget it night or day. He is brave, and strong, and tranquil; and I
feel that to take his hand will allay the fever in my brain."

"Grace, I am here," he said, pushing open the door and bending his knee
at her side while taking her hand. "Waste no strength in thanks. School
your broken heart into patience; and remember how dear, beyond all
words, your life is to others. Your father's life depends on yours."

"I'll try," she again said; "I think I feel better, differently. An
oppression that seemed stifling, crushing me, is passing away. Alford,
was there no chance--no chance at all of saving him?"

"Alas! no; and yet it is all so much better than it might have been!
His grave is in a quiet, beautiful spot, which you can visit; and fresh
flowers are placed upon it every day. Dear Grace, compare your lot with
that of so many others whose loved ones are left on the field."

"As he would have been were it not for you, my true, true friend," and
she carried his hand to her lips in passionate gratitude. Then tears
gushed from her eyes, and she sobbed like a child.

"Thank the good God!" ejaculated Mrs. Mayburn. "These are the first
tears she has shed. She will be better now. Come, deary, you have seen
Alford. He is to stop with us a long time, and will tell you everything
over and over. You must sleep now."

Graham kissed her hand and left the room, and the servants carried her
to her apartment. Mrs. Mayburn and the physician soon joined him in the
library, which was haunted by a memory that would shake his soul to his
dying day.

The physician in a cheerful mood said, "I now predict a decided change
for the better. It would almost seem that she had had some shock which
has broken the evil spell; and this natural flow of tears is better
than all the medicine in the world;" and then he and Mrs. Mayburn
explained how Grace's manner had been growing so strange and unnatural
that they feared her mind was giving way.

"I fear you were right," Graham replied sadly; and he told them of the
scene he had witnessed, and produced the vial of laudanum.

The physician was much shocked, but Mrs. Mayburn had already guessed
the truth from her nephew's words and manner when she first discovered
him.

"Neither Grace nor her father must ever know of this," she said, with a
shudder.

"Certainly not; but Dr. Markham should know. As her physician, he
should know the whole truth."

"I think that phase of her trouble has passed," said the doctor,
thoughtfully; "but, as you say, I must be on my guard. Pardon me, you
do not look well yourself. Indeed, you look faint;" for Graham had sunk
into a chair.

"I fear I have been losing considerable blood," said Graham,
carelessly; "and now that this strong excitement is passing, it begins
to tell. I owe my leave of absence to a wound."

"A wound!" cried his aunt, coming to his side. "Why did you not speak
of it?"

"Indeed, there has been enough to speak of beyond this trifle. Take a
look at my shoulder, doctor, and do what you think best."

"And here is enough to do," was his reply as soon as Graham's shoulder
was bared: "an ugly cut, and all broken loose by your exertions this
evening. You must keep very quiet and have good care, or this reopened
wound will make you serious trouble."

"Well, doctor, we have so much serious trouble on hand that a little
more won't matter much."

His aunt inspected the wound with grim satisfaction, and then said,
sententiously: "I'm glad you have got it, Alford, for it will keep you
home and divert Grace's thoughts. In these times a wound that leaves
the heart untouched may be useful; and nothing cures a woman's trouble
better than having to take up the troubles of others. I predict a deal
of healing for Grace in your wound."

"All which goes to prove," added the busy physician, "that woman's
nature is different from man's."

When he was gone, having first assured the major over and over again
that all danger was past, Graham said, "Aunt, Grace's hair is as white
as yours."

"Yes; it turned white within a week after she learned the certainty of
her husband's death."

"Would that I could have died in Hilland's place!"

"Yes," said the old lady, bitterly; "you were always too ready to die."

He drew her down to him as he lay on the lounge, and kissed her
tenderly, as he said, "But I have kept my promise 'to live and do my
best.'"

"You have kept your promise _to live_ after a fashion. My words have
also proved true, 'Good has come of it, and more good will come of it.'"



CHAPTER XXXII

A WOUNDED SPIRIT

Grace's chief symptom when she awoke on the following morning was an
extreme lassitude. She was almost as weak as a violent fever would have
left her, but her former unnatural and fitful manner was gone. Mrs.
Mayburn told Graham that she had had long moods of deep abstraction,
during which her eyes would be fixed on vacancy, with a stare terrible
to witness, and then would follow uncontrollable paroxysms of grief.

"This morning," said her anxious nurse, "she is more like a broken lily
that has not strength to raise its head. But the weakness will pass;
she'll rally. Not many die of grief, especially when young."

"Save her life, aunty, and I can still do a man's part in the world."

"Well, Alford, you must help me. She has been committed to your care;
and it's a sacred trust."

Graham was now installed in his old quarters, and placed under Aunt
Sheba's care. His energetic aunt, however, promised to look in upon him
often, and kept her word. The doctor predicted a tedious time with his
wound, and insisted on absolute quiet for a few days. He was mistaken,
however. Time would not be tedious, with frequent tidings of Grace's
convalescence and her many proofs of deep solicitude about his wound.

Grace did rally faster than had been expected. Her system had received
a terrible shock, but it had not been enfeebled by disease. With
returning strength came an insatiate craving for action--an almost
desperate effort to occupy her hands and mind. Before it was prudent
for Graham to go out or exert himself--for his wound had developed some
bad symptoms--she came to see him, bringing delicacies made with her
own hands.

Never had her appearance so appealed to his heart. Her face had grown
thin, but its lovely outlines remained; and her dark eyes seemed
tenfold more lustrous in contrast with her white hair. She had now a
presence that the most stolid would turn and look after with a
wondering pity and admiration, while those gifted with a fine
perception could scarcely see her without tears. Graham often thought
that if she could be turned into marble she would make the ideal statue
representing the women of both the contending sections whose hearts the
war had broken.

As she came and went, and as he eventually spent long hours with her
and her father, she became to him a study of absorbing interest, in
which his old analytical bent was not wholly wanting. "What," he asked
himself every hour in the day, "will be the effect of an experience
like this on such a woman? what the final outcome?" There was in this
interest no curiosity, in the vulgar sense of the word. It was rather
the almost sleepless suspense of a man who has everything at stake, and
who, in watching the struggle of another mind to cope with misfortune,
must learn at the same time his own fate. It was far more than this--it
was the vigilance of one who would offer help at all times and at any
cost, Still, so strong are natural or acquired characteristics that he
could not do this without manifesting some of the traits of the Alford
Graham who years before had studied the mirthful Grace St. John with
the hope of analyzing her power and influence. And had he been wholly
indifferent to her, and as philosophical and cynical as once it was his
pride to think he was, she would still have remained an absorbing
study. Her sudden and awful bereavement had struck her strong and
exceptional spiritual nature with the shattering force of the ball that
crashes through muscle, bone, and nerves. In the latter case the wound
may be mortal, or it may cause weakness and deformity. The wounded
spirit must survive, although the effects of the wound may be even more
serious and far-reaching--changing, developing, or warping character to
a degree that even the most experienced cannot predict. Next to God,
time is the great healer; and human love, guided by tact, can often
achieve signal success.

But for Graham there was no God; and it must be said that this was
becoming true of Grace also. As Hilland had feared, the influence of
those she loved and trusted most had gradually sapped her faith, which
in her case had been more a cherished tradition, received from her
mother, than a vital experience.

Hilland's longings for a life hereafter, and his words of regret that
she had lost the faith of her girlhood, were neutralized by the bitter
revolt of her spirit against her immeasurable misfortune. Her own
experience was to her a type of all the desolating evil and sorrow of
the world; and in her agony she could not turn to a God who permitted
such evil and suffering. It seemed to her that there could be no
merciful, overruling Providence--that her husband's view, when his mind
was in its most vigorous and normal state, was more rational than a
religion which taught that a God who loved good left evil to make such
general havoc.

"It's the same blind contention of forces in men as in nature," she
said to herself; "and only the strong or the fortunate survive."

One day she asked Graham abruptly, "Do you believe that the human
spirit lives on after death?"

He was sorely troubled to know how to answer her, but after a little
hesitation said, "I feel, as your husband did, that I should be glad if
you had the faith of your girlhood. I think it would be a comfort to
you."

"That's truly the continental view, that superstition is useful to
women. Will you not honestly treat me as your equal, and tell me what
you, as an educated man, believe?"

"No," he replied, gravely and sadly, "I will only recall with emphasis
your husband's last words."

"You are loyal to him, at least; and I respect you for it. But I know
what you believe, and what Warren believed when his faculties were
normal and unbiased by the intense longing of his heart. I am only a
woman, Alford, but I must use such little reason as I have; and no
being except one created by man's ruthless imagination could permit the
suffering which this war daily entails. It's all of the earth, earthy.
Alford," she added, in low, passionate utterance, "I could believe in a
devil more easily than in a God; and yet my unbelief sinks me into the
very depths of a hopeless desolation. What am I? A mere little atom
among these mighty forces and passions which rock the world with their
violence. Oh, I was so happy! and now I am crushed by some haphazard
bullet shot in the darkness."

He looked at her wonderingly, and was silent.

"Alford," she continued, her eyes glowing in the excitement of her
strong, passionate spirit, "I will not succumb to all this monstrous
evil. If I am but a transient emanation of the earth, and must soon
return to my kindred dust, still I can do a little to diminish the
awful aggregate of suffering. My nature, earth-born as it is, revolts
at a selfish indifference to it all. Oh, if there is a God, why does He
not rend the heavens in His haste to stay the black torrents of evil?
Why does He not send the angels of whom my mother told me when a child,
and bid them stand between the armies that are desolating thousands of
hearts like mine? Or if He chooses to work by silent, gentle influences
like those of spring, why does He not bring human hearts together that
are akin, and enhance the content and happiness which our brief life
permits? But no. Unhappy mistakes are made. Alas, my friend, we both
know it to our sorrow! Why should I feign ignorance of that which your
unbounded and unselfish devotion has proved so often? Why should you
not know that before this deadly stroke fell my one grief was that you
suffered; and that as long as I could pray I prayed for your happiness?
Now I can see only merciless force or blind chance, that in nature
smites with the tornado the lonely forest or the thriving village, the
desolate waves or some ship upon them. Men, with all their boasted
reason, are even worse. What could be more mad and useless than this
war? Alford, I alone have suffered enough to make the thing accursed;
and I must suffer to the end: and I am only one of countless women.
What is there for me, what for them, but to grow lonelier and sadder
every day? But I won't submit to the evil. I won't be a mere bit of
helpless drift. While I live there shall be a little less suffering in
the world. Ah, Alford! you see how far removed I am from the sportive
girl you saw on that May evening years ago. I am an old, white-haired,
broken-hearted woman; and yet," with a grand look in her eyes, she
concluded, "I have spirit enough left to take up arms against all the
evil and suffering within my reach. I know how puny my efforts will be;
but I would rather try to push back an avalanche than cower before it."

Thus she revealed to him the workings of her mind; and he worshipped
her anew as one of the gentlest and most loving of women, and yet
possessed of a nature so strong that under the guidance of reason it
could throw off the shackles of superstition and defy even fate. Under
the spell of her words the evil of the world did seem an avalanche, not
of snow, but of black molten lava; while she, too brave and noble to
cower and cringe, stood before it, her little hand outstretched to stay
its deadly onset.



CHAPTER XXXIII

THE WHITE-HAIRED NURSE

Life at the two cottages was extremely secluded. All who felt entitled
to do so made calls, partly of condolence and partly from curiosity.
The occupants of the two unpretending dwellings had the respect of the
community; but from their rather unsocial ways could not be popular.
The old major had ever detested society in one of its phases--that is,
the claims of mere vicinage, the duty to call and be called upon by
people who live near, when there is scarcely a thought or taste in
common. With his Southern and army associations he had drifted to a New
England city; but he ignored the city except as it furnished friends
and things that pleased him. His attitude was not contemptuous or
unneighborly, but simply indifferent.

"I don't thrust my life on any one," he once said to Mrs. Mayburn,
"except you and Grace. Why should other people thrust their lives on
me?"

His limited income had required economy, and his infirmities a life
free from annoyance. As has been shown, Grace had practiced the one
with heart as light as her purse; and had interposed her own sweet self
between the irritable veteran and everything that could vex him. The
calling world had had its revenge. The major was profane, they had
said; Grace was proud, or led a slavish life. The most heinous sin of
all was, they were poor. There were several families, however, whom
Grace and the major had found congenial, with various shades of
difference; and the young girl had never lacked all the society she
cared for. Books had been her chief pleasure; the acquaintance of good
whist-players had been cultivated; army and Southern friends had
appeared occasionally; and when Mrs. Mayburn had become a neighbor, she
had been speedily adopted into the closest intimacy. When Hilland had
risen above their horizon he soon glorified the world to Grace. To the
astonishment of society, she had married a millionaire, and they had
all continued to live as quietly and unostentatiously as before. There
had been another slight effort to "know the people at the St. John
cottage," but it had speedily died out. The war had brought chiefly
military associations and absence. Now again there was an influx of
callers largely from the church that Grace had once attended. Mrs.
Mayburn received the majority with a grim politeness, but discriminated
very favorably in case of those who came solely from honest sympathy.
All were made to feel, however, that, like a mourning veil, sorrow
should shield its victims from uninvited observation.

Hilland's mother had long been dead, and his father died at the time
when he was summoned from his studies in Germany. While on good terms
with his surviving relatives, there had been no very close relationship
or intimacy remaining. Grace had declared that she wished no other
funeral service than the one conducted by the good old Confederate
pastor; and the relatives, learning that they had no interest in the
will, speedily discovered that they had no further interest whatever.
Thus the inmates of the two cottages were left to pursue their own
shadowed paths, with little interference from the outside world. The
major treasured a few cordial eulogies of Hilland cut from the journals
at the time; and except in the hearts wherein he was enshrined a living
image, the brave, genial, high-souled man passed from men's thoughts
and memories, like thousands of others in that long harvest of death.

Graham's wound at last was wellnigh healed, and the time was drawing
near for his return to the army. His general had given such a very
favorable account of the circumstances attending his offence, and of
his career as a soldier both before and after the affair, that the
matter was quietly ignored. Moreover, Hilland, as a soldier and by
reason of the loyal use of his wealth, stood very high in the
estimation of the war authorities; and the veteran major was not
without his surviving circle of influential friends. Graham, therefore,
not only retained his rank, but was marked for promotion.

Of all this, however, he thought and cared little. If he had loved
Grace before, he idolized her now. And yet with all her deep affection
for him and her absolute trust, she seemed more remote than ever. In
the new phase of her grief she was ever seeking to do little things
which she thought would please him. But this was also true of her
course toward Mrs. Mayburn, especially so toward her father, and also,
to a certain extent, toward the poor and sick in the vicinity. Her one
effort seemed to be to escape from her thoughts, herself, in a
ceaseless ministry to others. And the effort sometimes degenerated into
restlessness. There was such a lack of repose in her manner that even
those who loved her most were pained and troubled. There was not enough
to keep her busy all the time, and yet she was ever impelled to do
something.

One day she said to Graham, "I wish I could go back with you to the
war; not that I wish to shed another drop of blood, but I would like to
march, march forever."

Shrewd Mrs. Mayburn, who had been watching Grace closely for the last
week or two, said quietly: "Take her back with you, Alford. Let her
become a nurse in some hospital. It will do both her and a lot of poor
fellows a world of good."

"Mrs. Mayburn, you have thought of just the thing," cried Grace. "In a
hospital full of sick and wounded men I could make my life amount to
something; I should never need to be idle then."

"Yes, you would. You would be under orders like Alford, and would have
to rest when off duty. But, as you say, you could be of great service,
instead of wasting your energy in coddling two old people. You might
save many a poor fellow's life."

"Oh," she exclaimed, clasping her hands, "the bare thought of saving
one poor woman from such suffering as mine is almost overwhelming. But
how can I leave papa?"

"I'll take care of the major and insure his consent. If men are so
possessed to make wounds, it's time women did more to cure them. It's
all settled: you are to go. I'll see the major about it now, if he
_has_ just begun his newspaper;" and the old lady took her knitting and
departed with her wonted prompt energy.

At first Graham was almost speechless from surprise, mingled doubt and
pleasure; but the more he thought of it, the more he was convinced that
the plan was an inspiration.

"Alford, you will take me?" she said, appealingly.

"Yes," he replied, smilingly, "if you will promise to obey my orders in
part, as well as those of your superiors."

"I'll promise anything if you will only take me. Am I not under your
care?"

"Oh, Grace, Grace, I can do so little for you!"

"No one living can do more. In providing this chance of relieving a
little pain, of preventing a little suffering, you help me, you serve
me, you comfort me, as no one else could. And, Alford, if you are
wounded, come to the hospital where I am; I will never leave you till
you are well. Take me to some exposed place in the field, where there
is danger, where men are brought in desperately wounded, where you
would be apt to be."

"I don't know where I shall be, but I would covet any wound that would
bring you to my side as nurse."

She thought a few moments, and then said, resolutely: "I will keep as
near to you as I can. I ask no pay for my services. On the contrary, I
will employ my useless wealth in providing for exposed hospitals. When
I attempt to take care of the sick or wounded, I will act scrupulously
under the orders of the surgeon in charge; but I do not see why, if I
pay my own way, I cannot come and go as I think I can be the most
useful."

"Perhaps you could, to a certain extent, if you had a permit," said
Graham, thoughtfully; "but I think you would accomplish more by
remaining in one hospital and acquiring skill by regular work. It would
be a source of indescribable anxiety to me to think of your going about
alone. If I know just where you are, I can find you and write to you."

"I will do just what you wish," she said, gently.

"I wish for only what is best for you."

"I know that. It would be strange if I did not."

Mrs. Mayburn was not long in convincing the major that her plan might
be the means of incalculable benefit to Grace as well as to others. He,
as well as herself and Graham, had seen with deep anxiety that Grace
was giving way to a fever of unrest; and he acquiesced in the view that
it might better run its course in wholesome and useful activity, amid
scenes of suffering that might tend to reconcile her to her own sorrow.

Graham, however, took the precaution of calling on Dr. Markham, who, to
his relief, heartily approved of the measure. On one point Graham was
firm. He would not permit her to go to a hospital in the field, liable
to vicissitudes from sudden movements of the contending armies. He
found one for her, however, in which she would have ample scope for all
her efforts; and before he left he interested those in charge so deeply
in the white-haired nurse that he felt she would always be under
watchful, friendly eyes.

"Grace," he said, as he was taking leave, "I have tried to be a true
friend to you."

"Oh, Alford!" she exclaimed, and she seized his hand and held it in
both of hers.

His face grew stern rather than tender as he added: "You will not be a
true friend to me--you will wrong me deeply--if you are reckless of
your health and strength. Remember that, like myself, you have entered
the service, and that you are pledged to do your duty, and not to work
with feverish zeal until your strength fails. You are just as much
under obligation to take essential rest as to care for the most sorely
wounded in your ward. I shall take the advice I give. Believing that I
am somewhat essential to your welfare and the happiness of those whom
we have left at home, I shall incur no risks beyond those which
properly fall to my lot. I ask you to be equally conscientious and
considerate of those whose lives are bound up in you."

"I'll try," she said, with that same pathetic look and utterance which
had so moved him on the fearful night of his return from the army.
"But, Alford, do not speak to me so gravely, I had almost said sternly,
just as we are saying good-by."

He raised her hand to his lips, and smiled into her pleading face as he
replied, "I only meant to impress you with the truth that you have a
patient who is not in your ward--one who will often be sleeping under
the open sky, I know not where. Care a little for him, as well as for
the unknown men in your charge. This you can do only by taking care of
yourself. You, of all others, should know that there are wounds besides
those which will bring men to this hospital."

Tears rushed into her eyes as she faltered, "You could not have made a
stronger appeal."

"You will write to me often?"

"Yes, and you cannot write too often. Oh, Alford, I cannot wish you had
never seen me; but it would have been far, far better for you if you
had not."

"No, no," he said, in low, strong emphasis. "Grace Hilland, I would
rather be your friend than have the love of any woman that ever lived."

"You do yourself great wrong (pardon me for saying it, but your
happiness is so dear to me), you do yourself great wrong. A girl like
Pearl Anderson could make you truly happy; and you could make her
happy."

"Sweet little Pearl will be happy some day; and I may be one of the
causes, but not in the way you suggest. It is hard to say good-by and
leave you here alone, and every moment I stay only makes it harder."

He raised her hand once more to his lips, then almost rushed away.

Days lapsed into weeks, and weeks into months. The tireless nurse
alleviated suffering of every kind; and her silvery hair was like a
halo around a saintly head to many a poor fellow. She had the deep
solace of knowing that not a few wives and mothers would have mourned
had it not been for her faithfulness.

But her own wound would not heal. She sometimes felt that she was
slowly bleeding to death. The deep, dark tide of suffering, in spite of
all she could do, grew deeper and darker; and she was growing weary and
discouraged.

Graham saw her at rare intervals; and although she brightened greatly
at his presence, and made heroic efforts to satisfy him that she was
doing well, he grew anxious and depressed. But there was nothing
tangible, nothing definite. She was only a little paler, a little
thinner; and when he spoke of it she smilingly told him that he was
growing gaunt himself with his hard campaigning.

"But you, Grace," he complained, "are beginning to look like a wraith
that may vanish some moonlight night."

Her letters were frequent, sometimes even cheerful, but brief. He wrote
at great length, filling his pages with descriptions of nature, with
scenes that were often humorous but not trivial, with genuine life, but
none of its froth. Life for both had become too deep a tragedy for any
nonsense. He passed through many dangers, but these, as far as
possible, he kept in the background; and fate, pitying his one deep
wound, spared him any others.

At last there came the terrible battle of the Wilderness, and the wards
were filled with desperately wounded men. The poor nurse gathered up
her failing powers for one more effort; and Confederate and Union men
looked after her wonderingly and reverently, even in their mortal
weakness. To many she seemed like a ministering spirit rather than a
woman of flesh and blood; and lips of dying men blessed her again and
again. But they brought no blessing. She only shuddered and grew more
faint of heart as the scenes of agony and death increased. Each wound
was a type of Hilland's wound, and in every expiring man she saw her
husband die. Her poor little hands trembled now as she sought to stem
the black, black tide that deepened and broadened and foamed around her.

Late one night, after a new influx of the wounded, she was greatly
startled while passing down her ward by hearing a voice exclaim,
"Grace--Grace Brentford!"

It was her mother's name.

The call was repeated; and she tremblingly approached a cot on which
was lying a gray-haired man.

"Great God!" he exclaimed, "am I dreaming? am I delirious? How is it
that I see before me the woman I loved forty-odd years ago? You cannot
be Grace Brentford, for she died long years since."

"No, but I am her daughter."

"Her daughter!" said the man, struggling to rise upon his elbow--"her
daughter! She should not look older than you."

"Alas, sir, my age is not the work of time, but of grief. I grew old in
a day. But if you knew and loved my mother, you have sacred claims upon
me. I am a nurse in this ward, and will devote myself to you."

The man sank back exhausted. "This is strange, strange indeed," he
said. "It is God's own providence. Yes, my child, I loved your mother,
and I love her still. Harry St. John won her fairly; but he could not
have loved her better than I. I am now a lonely old man, dying, I
believe, in my enemy's hands, but I thank God that I've seen Grace
Brentford's child, and that she can soothe my last hours."

"Do not feel so discouraged about yourself," said Grace, her tears
falling fast. "Think rather that yon have been brought here that I
might nurse you back to life. Believe me, I will do so with tender,
loving care."

"How strange it all is!" the man said again. "You have her very voice,
her manner. But it was by your eyes that I recognized you. Your eyes
are young and beautiful like hers, and full of tears, as hers were when
she sent me away with an ache to my heart that has never ceased. It
will soon be cured now. Your father will remember a wild young planter
down in Georgia by the name of Phil Harkness."

"Indeed, sir, I've heard both of my parents speak of you, and it was
ever with respect and esteem."

"Give my greeting to your father, and say I never bore him any
ill-will. In the saddest life there is always some compensation. I have
had wealth and honors; I am a colonel in our army, and have been able
to serve the cause I loved; but, chief of all, the child of Grace
Brentford is by my side at the end. Is your name Grace also?"

"Yes. Oh, why is the world so full of hopeless trouble?"

"Not hopeless trouble, my child. I am not hopeless. For long years I
have had peace, if not happiness--a deep inward calm which the
confusion and roar of the bloodiest battles could not disturb. I can
close my eyes now in my final sleep as quietly as a child. In a few
hours, my dear, I may see your mother; and I shall tell her that I left
her child assuaging her own sorrow by ministering to others."

"Oh, oh!" sobbed Grace, "pray cease, or I shall not be fit for my
duties; your words pierce my very soul. Let me nurse you back to
health. Let me take you to my home until you are exchanged, for I must
return. I must, must. My strength is going fast; and you bring before
me my dear old father whom I have left too long."

"My poor child! God comfort and sustain you. Do not let me keep you
longer from your duties, and from those who need you more than I. Come
and say a word to me when you can. That's all I ask. My wound was
dressed before your watch began, and I am doing as well as I could
expect. When you feel like it, you can tell me more about yourself."

Their conversation had been in a low tone as she sat beside him, the
patients near either sleeping or too preoccupied by their own
sufferings to give much heed.

Weary and oppressed by bitter despondency, she went from cot to cot,
attending to the wants of those in her charge. To her the old colonel's
sad history seemed a mockery of his faith, and but another proof of a
godless or God-forgotten world. She envied his belief, with its hope
and peace; but he had only increased her unbelief. But all through the
long night she watched over him, coming often to his side with
delicacies and wine, and with gentle words that were far more grateful.

Once, as she was smoothing back his gray locks from his damp forehead,
he smiled, and murmured, "God bless you, my child. This is a foretaste
of heaven."

In the gray dawn she came to him and said, "My watch is over, and I
must leave you for a little while; but as soon as I have rested I will
come again."

"Grace," he faltered, hesitatingly, "would you mind kissing an old, old
man? I never had a child of my own to kiss me."

She stooped down and kissed him again and again, and he felt her hot
tears upon his face.

"You have a tender heart, my dear," he said, gently. "Good-by,
Grace--Grace Brentford's child. Dear Grace, when we meet again perhaps
all tears will be wiped from your eyes forever."

She stole away exhausted and almost despairing. On reaching her little
room she sank on her couch, moaning; "Oh, Warren, Warren, would that I
were sleeping your dreamless sleep beside you!"

Long before it was time for her to go on duty again she returned to the
ward to visit her aged friend. His cot was empty. In reply to her eager
question she was told that he had died suddenly from internal
hemorrhage soon after she had left him.

She looked dazed for a moment, as if she had received a blow, then fell
fainting on the cot from which her mother's friend had been taken. The
limit of her endurance was passed.

Before the day closed, the surgeon in charge of the hospital told her
gently and firmly that she must take an indefinite leave of absence.
She departed at once in the care of an attendant; but stories of the
white-haired nurse lingered so long in the ward and hospital that at
last they began to grow vague and marvellous, like the legends of a
saint.



CHAPTER XXXIV

RITA'S BROTHER

All through the campaign of '64 the crimson tide of war deepened and
broadened. Even Graham's cool and veteran spirit was appalled at the
awful slaughter on either side. The Army of the Potomac--the grandest
army ever organized, and always made more sublime and heroic by
defeat--was led by a man as remorseless as fate. He was fate to
thousands of loyal men, whom he placed at will as coolly as if they had
been the pieces on a chessboard. He was fate to the Confederacy, upon
whose throat he placed his iron grasp, never relaxed until life was
extinct. In May, 1864, he quietly crossed the Rapidan for the
death-grapple. He took the most direct route for Richmond, ignoring all
obstacles and the fate of his predecessors. To think that General Grant
wished to fight the battle of the Wilderness is pure idiocy. One would
almost as soon choose the Dismal Swamp for a battleground. It was
undoubtedly his hope to pass beyond that gloomy tangle, over which the
shadow of death had brooded ever since fatal Chancellorsville. But Lee,
his brilliant and vigilant opponent, rarely lost an advantage; and
Graham's experienced eye, as with the cavalry he was in the extreme
advance, clearly saw that their position would give their foes enormous
advantages. Lee's movements would be completely masked by the almost
impervious growth, He and his lieutenants could approach within
striking distance, whenever they chose, without being seen, and had
little to fear from the Union artillery, which the past had given them
much cause to dread. It was a region also to disgust the very soul of a
cavalryman; for the low, scrubby growth lined the narrow roads almost
as effectually as the most scientifically prepared _abatis_.

Graham's surmise was correct. Lee would not wait till his antagonist
had reached open and favorable ground, but he made an attack at once,
where, owing to peculiarities of position, one of his thin regiments
had often the strength of a brigade.

On the morning of the 5th of May began one of the most awful and bloody
battles in the annals of warfare. Indeed it was the beginning of one
long and almost continuous struggle which ended only at Appomattox.

With a hundred thousand more, Graham was swept into the bloody vortex,
and through summer heat, autumn rains, and winter cold, he marched and
fought with little rest. He was eventually given the colonelcy of his
regiment, and at times commanded a brigade. He passed through
unnumbered dangers unscathed; and his invulnerability became a proverb
among his associates. Indeed he was a mystery to them, for his face
grew sadder and sterner every day, and his reticence about himself and
all his affairs was often remarked upon. His men and officers had
unbounded respect for him, that was not wholly unmixed with fear; for
while he was considerate, and asked for no exposure to danger in which
he did not share, his steady discipline was never relaxed, and he kept
himself almost wholly aloof, except as their military relations
required contact. He could not, therefore, be popular among the
hard-swearing, rollicking, and convivial cavalrymen. In a long period
of inaction he might have become very unpopular, but the admirable
manner in which he led them in action, and his sagacious care of them
and their horses on the march and in camp, led them to trust him
implicitly. Chief of all, he had acquired that which with the stern
veterans of that day went further than anything else--a reputation for
dauntless courage. What they objected to were his "glum looks and
unsocial ways," as they termed them.

They little knew that his cold, stern face hid suffering that was
growing almost desperate in its intensity. They little knew that he was
chained to his military duty as to a rock, while a vulture of anxiety
was eating out his very heart. What was a pale, thin, white-haired
woman to them? But what to him? How true it is that often the heaviest
burdens of life are those at which the world would laugh, and of which
the overweighted heart cannot and will not speak!

For a long time after his plunge into the dreary depths of the
Wilderness he had received no letters. Then he had learned of Grace's
return home; and at first he was glad indeed. His aunt had written
nothing more alarming than that Grace had overtaxed her strength in
caring for the throngs of wounded men sent from the Wilderness, that
she needed rest and good tonic treatment. Then came word that she was
"better"; then they "hoped she was gaining"; then they were about to go
to "the seashore, and Grace had always improved in salt air." It was
then intimated that she had found "the summer heat very enervating, and
now that fall winds were blowing she would grow stronger." At last, at
the beginning of winter, it was admitted that she had not improved as
they had hoped; but they thought she was holding her own very
well--that the continued and terrific character of the war oppressed
her--and that every day she dreaded to hear that he had been stricken
among other thousands.

Thus, little by little, ever softened by some excuse or some hope, the
bitter truth grew plain: Grace was failing, fading, threatening to
vanish. He wrote as often as he could, and sought with all his skill to
cheer, sustain, and reconcile her to life. At first she wrote to him
not infrequently, but her letters grew further and further apart, and
at last she wrote, in the early spring of '65.

"I wish I could see you, Alford; but I know it is impossible. You are
strong, you are doing much to end this awful war, and it's your duty to
remain at your post. You must not sully your perfect image in my mind,
or add to my unhappiness by leaving the service now for my sake. I have
learned the one bitter lesson of the times. No matter how much
_personal_ agony, physical or mental, is involved, the war must go on;
and each one must keep his place in the ranks till he falls or is
disabled. I have fallen. I am disabled. My wound will not close, and
drop by drop life and strength are ebbing. I know I disappoint you, my
true, true friend; but I cannot help it. Do not reproach me. Do not
blame me too harshly. Think me weak, as I truly am. Indeed, when I am
gone your chances will be far better. It costs me a great effort to
write this. There is a weight on my hand and brain as well as on my
heart. Hereafter I will send my messages through dear, kind Mrs.
Mayburn, who has been a mother to me in all my sorrow. Do not fear: I
will wait till you can come with honor; for I must see you once more."

For a long time after receiving this letter a despair fell on Graham.
He was so mechanical in the performance of his duties that his
associates wondered at him, and he grew more gaunt and haggard than
ever. Then in sharp reaction came a feverish eagerness to see the war
ended.

Indeed all saw that the end was near, and none, probably, more clearly
than the gallant and indomitable Lee himself. At last the Confederate
army was outflanked, the lines around Petersburg were broken through,
and the final pursuit began. It was noted that Graham fought and
charged with an almost tiger-like fierceness; and for once his men said
with reason that he had no mercy on them. He was almost counting the
hours until the time when he could sheathe his sword and say with
honor, "I resign."

One morning they struck a large force of the enemy, and he led a
headlong charge. For a time the fortunes of the battle wavered, for the
Confederates fought with the courage of desperation. Graham on his
powerful horse soon became a conspicuous object, and all gave way
before him as if he were a messenger of death, at the same time
wondering at his invulnerability.

The battle surged on and forward until the enemy were driven into a
thick piece of woods. Graham on the right of his line directed his
bugler to give the order to dismount, and a moment later his line of
battle plunged into the forest. In the desperate _melee_ that followed
in the underbrush, he was lost to sight except to a few of his men. It
was here that he found himself confronted by a Confederate officer,
from whose eyes flashed the determination either to slay or to be
slain. Graham had crossed swords with him but a moment when he
recognized that he had no ordinary antagonist; and with his instinct of
fight aroused to its highest pitch he gave himself up wholly to a
personal and mortal combat, shouting meantime to those near, "Leave
this man to me."

Looking his opponent steadily in the eye, like a true swordsman, he
remained first on the defensive; and such was his skill that his long,
straight blade was a shield as well as a weapon. Suddenly the dark eyes
and features of his opponent raised before him the image of Rita
Anderson; and he was so overcome for a second that the Confederate
touched his breast with his sabre and drew blood. That sharp prick and
the thought that Rita's brother might be before him aroused every
faculty and power of his mind and body. His sword was a shield again,
and he shouted, "Is not your name Henry Anderson?"

"My name is our cause," was the defiant answer; "with it I will live or
die."

Then came upon Graham one of those rare moments in his life when no
mortal man could stand before him. Ceasing his wary, rapid fence, his
sword played like lightning; and in less than a moment the
Confederate's sabre flew from his hand, and he stood helpless.

"Strike," he said, sullenly; "I won't surrender."

"I'd sooner cut off my right hand," replied Graham, smiling upon him,
"than strike the brother of Rita Anderson."

"Is your name Graham?" asked his opponent, his aspect changing
instantly.

"Yes; and you are Henry. I saw your sister's eyes in yours. Take up
your sword, and go quietly to the rear as my friend, not prisoner. I
adjure you, by the name of your old and honored father and your
noble-hearted sister, to let me keep my promise to them to save your
life, were it ever in my power."

"I yield," said the young man, in deep despondency. "Our cause _is_
lost, and you are the only man in the North to whom I should be willing
to surrender. Colonel, I will obey your orders."

Summoning his orderly and another soldier, he said to them, "Escort
this gentleman to the rear. Let him keep his arms. I have too much
confidence in you, Colonel Anderson, even to ask that you promise not
to escape. Treat him with respect. He will share my quarters to-night."
And then he turned and rushed onward to overtake the extreme advance of
his line, wondering at the strange scene which had passed with almost
the rapidity of thought.

That night by Graham's camp-fire began a friendship between himself and
Henry Anderson which would be lifelong. The latter asked, "Have you
heard from my father and sister since you parted with them?"

"No. My duties have carried me far away from that region. But it is a
source of unspeakable gratification that we have met, and that you can
tell me of their welfare."

"It does seem as if destiny, or, as father would say, Providence, had
linked my fortunes and those of my family with you. He and Rita would
actually have suffered with hunger but for you. Since you were there
the region has been tramped and fought over by the forces of both
sides, and swept bare. My father mentioned your name and that of
Colonel Hilland; and a guard was placed over his house, and he and Rita
were saved from any personal annoyance. But all of his slaves, except
the old woman you remember, were either run off or enticed away, and
his means of livelihood practically destroyed. Old Uncle Jehu and his
son Huey have almost supported them. They, simple souls, could not keep
your secret, though they tried to after their clumsy fashion. My pay,
you know, was almost worthless; and indeed there was little left for
them to buy. Colonel Graham, I am indebted to you for far more than
life, which has become wellnigh a burden to me."

"Life has brought far heavier burdens to others than to you, Colonel
Anderson. Those you love are living; and to provide for and protect
such a father and sister as you possess might well give zest to any
life. Your cause is lost; and the time may come sooner than you expect
when you will be right glad of it. I know you cannot think so now, and
we will not dwell on this topic. I can testify from four years'
experience that no cause was ever defended with higher courage or more
heroic self-sacrifice. But your South is not lost; and it will be the
fault of its own people if it does not work out a grander destiny
within the Union than it could ever achieve alone. But don't let us
discuss politics. You have the same right to your views that I have to
mine. I will tell you how much I owe to your father and sister, and
then you will see that the burden of obligation rests upon me;" and he
gave his own version of that memorable day whose consequences
threatened to culminate in Grace Hilland's death.

Under the dominion of this thought he could not hide the anguish of his
mind; and Rita had hinted enough in her letters to enable Anderson to
comprehend his new-found friend. He took Graham's hand, and as he wrung
it he said, "Yes, life has brought to others heavier burdens than to
me."

"You may have thought," resumed Graham, "that I fought savagely to-day;
but I felt that it is best for all to end this useless, bloody struggle
as soon as possible. As for myself, I'm just crazed with anxiety to get
away and return home. Of course we cannot be together after tonight,
for with the dawn I must be in the saddle. Tonight you shall share my
blankets. You must let me treat you as your father and Rita treated me.
I will divide my money with you: don't grieve me by objecting. Call it
a loan if you will. Your currency is now worthless. You must go with
the other prisoners; but I can soon obtain your release on parole, and
then, in the name of all that is sacred, return home to those who
idolize you. Do this, Colonel Anderson, and you will lift a heavy
burden from one already overweighted."

"As you put the case I cannot do otherwise," was the sad reply. "Indeed
I have no heart for any more useless fighting. My duty now is clearly
to my father and sister."

That night the two men slumbered side by side, and in the dawn parted
more like brothers than like foes.

As Graham had predicted, but a brief time elapsed before Lee
surrendered, and Colonel Anderson's liberty on parole was soon secured.
They parted with the assurance that they would meet again as soon as
circumstances would permit.

At the earliest hour in which he could depart with honor, Graham's
urgent entreaty secured him a leave of absence; and he lost not a
moment in his return, sending to his aunt in advance a telegram to
announce his coming.



CHAPTER XXXV

HIS SOMBRE RIVALS

Never had his noble horse Mayburn seemed to fail him until the hour
that severed the military chain which had so long bound him to
inexorable duty, and yet the faithful beast was carrying him like the
wind. Iss, his servant, soon fell so far behind that Graham paused and
told him to come on more leisurely, that Mayburn would be at the
terminus of the military railroad. And there Iss found him, with
drooping head and white with foam. The steam-engine was driven to City
Point with the reckless speed characteristic of military railroads; but
to Graham the train seemed to crawl. He caught a steamer bound for
Washington, and paced the deck, while in the moonlight the dark shores
of the James looked stationary. From Washington the lightning express
was in his view more dilatory than the most lumbering stage of the old
regime.

When at last he reached the gate to his aunt's cottage and walked
swiftly up the path, the hour and the scene were almost the same as
when he had first come, an indifferent stranger, long years before. The
fruit-trees were as snowy white with blossoms, the air as fragrant, the
birds singing as jubilantly, as when he had stood at the window and
gazed with critical admiration on a sportive girl, a child-woman,
playing with her little Spitz dog. As he passed the spot where she had
stood, beneath his ambush behind the curtains, his excited mind brought
back her image with lifelike realism--the breeze in her light hair, her
dark eyes brimming with mirth, her bosom panting from her swift
advance, and the color of the red rose in her cheeks.

He groaned as he thought of her now.

His aunt saw him from the window, and a moment later was sobbing on his
breast.

"Aunt," he gasped, "I'm not too late?"

"Oh, no," she said, wearily; "Grace is alive; but one can scarcely say
much more. Alford, you must be prepared for a sad change."

He placed her in her chair, and stood before her with heaving breast.
"Now tell me all," he said, hoarsely.

"Oh, Alford, you frighten me. You must be more composed. You cannot see
Grace, looking and feeling as you do. She is weakness itself;" and she
told him how the idol of his heart was slowly, gradually, but
inevitably sinking into the grave.

"Alford, Alford," she cried, entreatingly, "why do you look so stern?
You could not look more terrible in the most desperate battle."

In low, deep utterance, he said, "This is my most desperate battle; and
in it are the issues of life and death."

"You terrify _me_, and can you think that a weak, dying woman can look
upon you as you now appear?"

"She shall not die," he continued, in the same low, stern utterance,
"and she must look upon me, and listen, too. Aunt, you have been
faithful to me all these years. You have been my mother. I must entreat
one more service. You must second me, sustain me, co-work with me. You
must ally all your experienced womanhood with my manhood, and with my
will, which may be broken, but which shall not yield to my cruel fate."

"What do you propose to do?"

"That will soon be manifest. Go and prepare Grace for my visit. I wish
to see her alone. You will please be near, however;" and he abruptly
turned and went to his room to remove his military suit and the dust of
travel.

He had given his directions as if in the field, and she wonderingly and
tremblingly obeyed, feeling that some crisis was near.

Grace was greatly agitated when she heard of Graham's arrival; and two
or three hours elapsed before she was able to be carried down and
placed on the sofa in the library. He, out in the darkness on the
piazza, watched with eyes that glowed like coals--watched as he had
done in the most desperate emergency of all the bloody years of battle.
He saw her again, and in her wasted, helpless form, her hollow cheeks,
her bloodless face, with its weary, hopeless look, her mortal weakness,
he clearly recognized his _sombre rivals_, _Grief and Death_; and with
a look of indomitable resolution he raised his hand and vowed that he
would enter the lists against them. If it were within the scope of
human will he would drive them from their prey.

His aunt met him in the hall and whispered, "Be gentle."

"Remain here," was his low reply. "I have also sent for Dr. Markham;"
and he entered.

Grace reached out to him both her hands as she said, "Oh, Alford, you
are barely in time. It is a comfort beyond all words to see you
before--before--" She could not finish the sinister sentence.

He gravely and silently took her hands, and sat down beside her.

"I know I disappoint you," she continued. "I've been your evil genius,
I've saddened your whole life; and you have been so true and faithful!
Promise me, Alford, that after I'm gone you will not let my blighted
life cast its shadow over your future years. How strangely stern you
look!"

"So you intend to die, Grace?" were his first, low words.

"Intend to die?"

"Yes. Do you think you are doing right by your father in dying?"

"Dear, dear papa! I have long ceased to be a comfort to him. He, too,
will be better when I am gone. I am now a hopeless grief to him.
Alford, dear Alford, do not look at me in that way."

"How else can I look? Do you not comprehend what your death means to
_me_, if not to others?"

"Alford, can I help it?"

"Certainly you can. It will be sheer, downright selfishness for you to
die. It will be your one unworthy act. You have no disease: you have
only to comply with the conditions of life in order to live."

"You are mistaken," she said, the faintest possible color coming into
her face. "The bullet that caused Warren's death has been equally fatal
to me. Have I not tried to live?"

"I do not ask you to _try_ to live, but to _live_. Nay, more, I demand
it; and I have the right. I ask for nothing more. Although I have loved
you, idolized you, all these years, I ask only that you comply with the
conditions of life and live." The color deepened perceptibly under his
emphatic words, and she said, "Can a woman live whose heart, and hope,
and soul, if she has one, are dead and buried?"

"Yes, as surely as a man whose heart and hope were buried long years
before. There was a time when I weakly purposed to throw off the burden
of life; but I promised to live and do my best, and I am here to-day.
You must make me the same promise. In the name of all the past, I
demand it. Do you imagine that I am going to sit down tamely and shed a
few helpless tears if you do me this immeasurable wrong?"

"Oh, Alford!" she gasped, "what do you mean?"

"I am not here, Grace, to make threats," he said gravely; "but I fear
you have made a merely superficial estimate of my nature. Hilland is
not. You know that I would have died a hundred times in his place. He
committed you to my care with his last breath, and that trust gave
value to my life. What right have you to die and bring to me the
blackness of despair? I am willing to bear my burden patiently to the
end. You should be willing to bear yours."

"I admit your claim," she cried, wringing her hands. "You have made
death, that I welcome, a terror. How can I live? What is there left of
me but a shadow? What am I but a mere semblance of a woman? The snow is
not whiter than my hair, or colder than my heart. Oh, Alford, you have
grown morbid in all these years. You cannot know what is best. Your
true chance is to let me go. I am virtually dead now, and when my
flickering breath ceases, the change will be slight indeed."

"It will be a fatal change for me," he replied, with such calm emphasis
that she shuddered. "You ask how you can live. Again I repeat, by
complying with the conditions of life. You have been complying with the
conditions of death; and I will not yield you to him. Grief has been a
far closer and more cherished friend than I; and you have permitted it,
like a shadow, to stand between us. The time has now come when you must
choose between this fatal shadow, this useless, selfish grief, and a
loyal friend, who only asks that he may see you at times, that he may
know where to find the one life that is essential to his life. Can you
not understand from your own experience that a word from you is sweeter
to me than all the music of the world?--that smiles from you will give
me courage to fight the battle of life to the last? Had Hilland come
back wounded, would you have listened if he had reasoned, 'I am weak
and maimed--not like my old self: you will be better off without me'?"

"Say no more," she faltered. "If a shadow can live, I will. If a poor,
heartless, hopeless creature can continue to breathe, I will. If I die,
as I believe I must, I will die doing just what you ask. If it is
possible for me to live, I shall disappoint you more bitterly than
ever. Alford, believe me, the woman is dead within me. If I live I
shall become I know not what--a sort of unnatural creature, having
little more than physical life."

"Grace, our mutual belief forbids such a thought. If a plant is deeply
shadowed, and moisture is withdrawn, it begins to die. Bring to it
again light and moisture, the conditions of its life, and it gradually
revives and resumes its normal state. This principle applies equally to
you in your higher order of existence. Will you promise me that, at the
utmost exertion of your will and intelligence, you will try to live?"

"Yes, Alford; but again I warn you. You will be disappointed."

He kissed both her hands with a manner that evinced profound gratitude
and respect, but nothing more; and then summoned his aunt and Dr.
Markham.

Grace lay back on the sofa, white and faint, with closed eyes.

"Oh, Alford, what have you done?" exclaimed Mrs. Mayburn.

"What is right and rational. Dr. Markham, Mrs. Hilland has promised to
use the utmost exertion of her will and intelligence to live. I ask
that you and my aunt employ your utmost skill and intelligence in
co-operation with her effort. We here--all four of us--enter upon a
battle; and, like all battles, it should be fought with skill and
indomitable courage, not sentimental impulse. I know that Mrs. Hilland
will honestly make the effort, for she is one to keep her word. Am I
not right, Grace?"

"Yes," was the faint reply.

"Why, now I can go to work with hope," said the physician briskly, as
he gave his patient a little stimulant.

"And I also," cried the old lady, tears streaming down her face. "Oh,
darling Grace, you will live and keep all our hearts from breaking."

"I'll try," she said, in almost mortal weariness.

When she had been revived somewhat by his restoratives, Dr. Markham
said, "I now advise that she be carried back to her room, and I promise
to be unwearied in my care."

"No," said Graham to his aunt. "Do not call the servants; I shall carry
her to her room myself;" and he lifted her as gently as he would take
up a child, and bore her strongly and easily to her room.

"Poor, poor Alford!" she whispered--"wasting your rich, full heart on a
shadow."



CHAPTER XXXVI

ALL MATERIALISTS

When Graham returned to the library he found that the major had
tottered in, and was awaiting him with a look of intense anxiety.

"Graham, Graham!" he cried, "do you think there is any hope?"

"I do, sir. I think there is almost a certainty that your daughter will
live."

"Now God be praised! although I have little right to say it, for I've
put His name to a bad use all my life."

"I don't think any harm has been done," said Graham, smiling.

"Oh, I know, I know how wise you German students are. You can't find
God with a microscope or a telescope, and therefore there is none. But
I'm the last man to criticise. Grace has been my divinity since her
mother died; and if you can give a reasonable hope that she'll live to
close my eyes, I'll thank the God that my wife worshipped, in spite of
all your new-fangled philosophies."

"And I hope I shall never be so wanting in courtesy, to say the least,
as to show anything but respect for your convictions. You shall know
the whole truth about Grace; and I shall look to you also for aid in a
combined effort to rally and strengthen her forces of life. You know,
Major, that I have seen some service."

"Yes, yes; boy that you are, you are a hundred-fold more of a veteran
than I am. At the beginning of the war I felt very superior and
experienced. But the war that I saw was mere child's-play."

"Well, sir, the war that I've been through was child's play to me
compared with the battle begun to-night. I never feared death, except
as it might bring trouble to others, and for long years I coveted it;
but I fear the death of Grace Hilland beyond anything in this world or
any other. As her father, you now shall learn the whole truth;" and he
told his story from the evening of their first game of whist together.

"Strange, strange!" muttered the old man. "It's the story of Philip
Harkness over again. But, by the God who made me, she shall reward you
if she lives."

"No, Major St. John, no. She shall devote herself to you, and live the
life that her own feelings dictate. She understands this, and I _will_
it. I assure you that whatever else I lack it's not a will."

"You've proved that, Graham, if ever a man did. Well, well, well, your
coming has brought a strange and most welcome state of affairs. Somehow
you've given me a new lease of life and courage. Of late we've all felt
like hauling down the flag, and letting grim death do his worst. I
couldn't have survived Grace, and didn't want to. Only plucky Mrs.
Mayburn held on to your coming as a forlorn hope. You now make me feel
like nailing the flag to the staff, and opening again with every gun.
Grace is like her mother, if I do say it. Grace Brentford never lacked
for suitors, and she had the faculty of waking up _men_. Forgive an old
man's vanity. Phil Harkness was a little wild as a young fellow, but he
had grand mettle in him. He made more of a figure in the world than
I--was sent to Congress, owned a big plantation, and all that--but
sweet Grace Brentford always looked at me reproachfully when I rallied
her on the mistake she had made, and was contentment itself in my rough
soldier's quarters," and the old man took off his spectacles to wipe
his tear-dimmed eyes. "Grace is just like her. She, too, has waked up
men. Hilland was a grand fellow; and, Graham, you are a soldier every
inch of you, and that's the highest praise I can bestow. You are in
command in this battle, and God be with you. Your unbelief doesn't
affect _Him_ any more than a mole's."

Graham laughed--he could laugh in his present hopefulness--as he
replied, "I agree with you fully. If there is a personal Creator of the
universe, I certainly am a small object in it." "That's not what I've
been taught to believe either; nor is it according to my reason. An
infinite God could give as much attention to you as to the solar
system."

"From the present aspect of the world, a great deal would appear
neglected," Graham replied, with a shrug.

"Come, Colonel Graham," said the major, a little sharply, "you and I
have both heard the rank and file grumble over the tactics of their
general. It often turned out that the general knew more than the men.
But it's nice business for me to be talking religion to you or any one
else;" and the idea struck him as so comical that he laughed outright.

Mrs. Mayburn, who entered at that moment, said: "That's a welcome
sound. I can't remember, Major, when I've heard you laugh. Alford, you
are a magician. Grace is sleeping quietly."

"Little wonder! What have I had to laugh about?" said the major. "But
melancholy itself would laugh at my joke to-night. Would you believe
it, I've been talking religion to the colonel,--if I haven't!"

"I think it's time religion was talked to all of us."

"Oh, now, Mrs. Mayburn, don't you begin. You haven't any God any more
than Graham has. You have a jumble of old-fashioned theological
attributes, that are of no more practical use to you than the doctrines
of Aristotle. Please ring for Jinny, and tell her to bring us a bottle
of wine and some cake. I want to drink to Grace's health. If I could
see her smile again I'd fire a _feu de joie_ if I could find any
ordnance larger than a popgun. Don't laugh at me, friends," he added,
wiping the tears from his dim old eyes; "but the bare thought that
Grace will live to bless my last few days almost turns my head. Where
is Dr. Markham?"

"He had other patients to see, and said he would return by and by,"
Mrs. Mayburn replied.

"It's time we had a little relief," she continued, "whatever the future
may be. The slow, steady pressure of anxiety and fear was becoming
unendurable. I could scarcely have suffered more if Grace had been my
own child; and I feared for you, Alford, quite as much."

"And with good reason," he said, quietly.

She gave him a keen look, and then did as the major had requested.

"Come, friends," cried he, "let us give up this evening to hope and
cheer. Let what will come on the morrow, we'll have at least one more
gleam of wintry sunshine to-day."

Filling the glasses of all with his trembling hand, he added, when they
were alone: "Here's to my darling's health. May the good God spare her,
and spare us all, to see brighter days. Because I'm not good, is no
reason why He isn't."

"Amen!" cried the old lady, with Methodistic fervor.

"What are you saying amen to?--that I'm not good?"

"Oh, I imagine we all average about alike," was her grim reply--"the
more shame to us all!"

"Dear, conscience-stricken old aunty!" said Graham, smiling at her.
"Will nothing ever lay your theological ghosts?"

"No, Alford," she said, gravely. "Let us change the subject."

"I've told Major St. John everything from the day I first came here,"
Graham explained; "and now before we separate let it be understood that
he joins us as a powerful ally. His influence over Grace, after all, is
more potent than that of all the rest of us united. My words to-night
have acted more like a shock than anything else. I have placed before
her clearly and sharply the consequences of yielding passively, and of
drifting further toward darkness. We must possess ourselves with an
almost infinite patience and vigilance. She, after all, must bear the
brunt of this fight with death; but we must be ever on hand to give her
support, and it must be given also unobtrusively, with all the tact we
possess. We can let her see that we are more cheerful in our renewed
hope, but we must be profoundly sympathetic and considerate."

"Well, Graham, as I said before, you are captain. I learned to obey
orders long ago as well as to give them;" and the major summoned his
valet and bade them goodnight.

Graham, weary in the reaction from his intense feeling and excitement,
threw himself on the sofa, and his aunt came and sat beside him.

"Alford," she said, "what an immense change your coming has made!"

"The beginning of a change, I hope."

"It was time--it was time. A drearier household could scarcely be
imagined. Oh, how dreary life can become! Grace was dying. Every day I
expected tidings of your death. It's a miracle that you are alive after
all these bloody years. All zest in living had departed from the major.
We are all materialists, after our own fashion, wholly dependent on
earthly things, and earthly things were failing us. In losing Grace,
you and the major would have lost everything; so would I in losing you.
Alford, you have become a son to me. Would you break a mother's heart?
Can you not still promise to live and do your best?"

"Dear aunt, we shall all live and do our best."

"Is that the best you can say, Alford?"

"Aunty, there are limitations to the strength of every man. I have
reached the boundary of mine. From the time I began the struggle in the
Vermont woods, and all through my exile, I fought this passion. I
hesitated at no danger, and the wilder and more desolate the region,
the greater were its attractions to me. I sought to occupy my mind with
all that was new and strange; but such was my nature that this love
became an inseparable part of my being. I might just as well have said
I would forget my sad childhood, the studies that have interested me,
your kindness. I might as well have decreed that I should not look the
same and be the same--that all my habits of thought and traits of
character should not be my own. Imagine that a tree in your garden had
will and intelligence. Could it ignore the law of its being, all the
long years which had made it what it is, and decide to be some other
kind of tree, totally different? A man who from childhood has had many
interests, many affections, loses, no doubt, a sort of concentration
when the one supreme love of his life takes possession of him. If Grace
lives, and I can see that she has at last tranquilly and patiently
accepted her lot, you will find that I can be tranquil and patient. If
she dies, I feel that I shall break utterly. I can't look into the
abyss that her grave would open. Do not think that I would consciously
and deliberately become a vulgar suicide--I hope I long since passed
that point, and love and respect for you forbid the thought--but the
long strain that I have been under, and the dominating influence of my
life, would culminate. I should give way like a man before a cold,
deadly avalanche. I have been frank with you, for in my profound
gratitude for your love and kindness I would not have you misunderstand
me, or think for a moment that I proposed deliberately to forget you in
my own trouble. The truth is just this, aunt: I have not strength
enough to endure Grace Hilland's death. It would be such a lame,
dreary, impotent conclusion that I should sink under it, as truly as a
man who found himself in the sea weighted by a ton of lead. But don't
let us dwell on this thought. I truly believe that Grace will live, if
we give her all the aid she requires. If she honestly makes the effort
to live--as she will, I feel sure--she can scarcely help living when
the conditions of life are supplied."

"I think I understand you, Alford," said the old lady, musingly; "and
yet your attitude seems a strange one."

"It's not an unnatural one. I am what I have been growing to be all
these years. I can trace the sequence of cause and effect until this
moment."

"Well, then," said the old lady, grimly, "Grace must live, if it be in
the power of human will and effort to save her. Would that I had the
faith in God that I ought to have! But He is afar off, and He acts in
accordance with an infinite wisdom that I can't understand. The
happiness of His creatures seems a very secondary affair."

"Now, aunty, we are on ground where we differ theoretically, to say the
least; but I accord to you full right to think what you please, because
I know you will employ all the natural and rational expedients of a
skilful nurse."

"Yes, Alford; you and Grace only make me unhappy when you talk in that
way. I know you are wrong, just as certainly as the people who believed
the sun moved round the earth. The trouble is that I know it only with
the same cold mental conviction, and therefore can be of no help to
either of you. Pardon me for my bluntness: do you expect to marry
Grace, should she become strong and well?"

"No, I can scarcely say I have any such hope. It is a thought I do not
even entertain at present, nor does she. I am content to be her friend
through life, and am convinced that she could not think of marriage
again for years, if ever. That is a matter of secondary importance. All
that I ask is that she shall live."

"Well, compared with most men, a very little contents you," said his
aunt dryly. "We shall see, we shall see. But you have given me such an
incentive that, were it possible, I'd open my withered veins and give
her half of my poor blood."

"Dear aunty, how true and stanch your love is! I cannot believe it will
be disappointed."

"I must go back to my post now, nor shall I leave it very often."

"Here is Dr. Markham. He will see that you have it often enough to
maintain your own health, and I will too. I've been a soldier too long
to permit my chief of staff to be disabled. Pardon me, doctor, but it
seems to me that this is more of a case for nursing and nourishment
than for drugs."

"You are right, and yet a drug can also become a useful ally. In my
opinion, it is more a case for change than anything else. When Mrs.
Hilland is strong enough, you must take her from this atmosphere and
these associations. In a certain sense she must begin life over again,
and take root elsewhere."

"There may be truth in what you say;" and Graham was merged in deep
thought when he was left alone. The doctor, in passing out a few
moments later, assured him that all promised well.



CHAPTER XXXVII

THE EFFORT TO LIVE

As Graham had said, it did seem that infinite patience and courage
would be required to defeat the dark adversaries now threatening the
life upon which he felt that his own depended. He had full assurance
that Grace made her promised effort, but it was little more than an
effort of will, dictated by a sense of duty. She had lost her hold on
life, which to her enfeebled mind and body promised little beyond
renewed weariness and disappointment. How she could live again in any
proper sense of the word was beyond her comprehension; and what was
bare existence? It would be burdensome to herself and become wearisome
to others. The mind acts through its own natural medium, and all the
light that came to her was  by almost despairing memories.

Too little allowance is often made for those in her condition. The
strong man smiles half contemptuously at the efforts of one who is
feeble to lift a trifling weight. Still, he is charitable. He knows
that if the man has not the muscle, all is explained. So material are
the conceptions of many that they have no patience with those who have
been enfeebled in mind, will, and courage. Such persons would say, "Of
course Mrs. Hilland cannot attend to her household as before; but she
ought to have faith, resignation; she ought to make up her mind
cheerfully to submit, and she would soon be well. Great heavens!
haven't other women lost their husbands? Yes, indeed, and they worried
along quite comfortably."

Graham took no such superficial view. "Other women" were not Grace. He
was philosophical, and tried to estimate the effect of her own peculiar
experience on her own nature, and was not guilty of the absurdity of
generalizing. It was his problem to save Grace as she was, and not as
some good people said she ought to be. Still, his firm belief remained,
that she could live if she would comply with what he believed to be the
conditions of life; indeed, that she could scarcely help living. If the
time could come when her brain would be nourished by an abundance of
healthful blood, he might hope for almost anything. She would then be
able to view the past dispassionately, to recognize that what _was
past_ was gone forever, and to see the folly of a grief which wasted
the present and the future. If she never became strong enough for
that--and the prospect was only a faint, half-acknowledged hope--then
he would reverently worship a patient, gentle, white-haired woman, who
should choose her own secluded path, he being content to make it as
smooth and thornless as possible.

Beyond a brief absence at the time his regiment was mustered out of the
service, he was always at home, and the allies against death--with
their several hopes, wishes, and interests--worked faithfully. At last
there was a more decided response in the patient. Her sleep became
prolonged, as if she were making amends for the weariness of years.
Skilful tonic treatment told on the wasted form. New blood was made,
and that, in Graham's creed, was new life.

His materialistic theory, however, was far removed from any gross
conception of the problem. He did not propose to feed a woman into a
new and healthful existence, except as he fed what he deemed to be her
whole nature. In his idea, flowers, beauty in as many forms as he could
command and she enjoy at the time, were essential. He ransacked nature
in his walks for things to interest her. He brought her out into the
sunshine, and taught her to distinguish the different birds by their
notes. He had Mrs. Mayburn talk to her and consult with her over the
homely and wholesome details of housekeeping. Much of the news of the
day was brought to her attention as that which should naturally
interest her, especially the reconstruction of the South, as
represented and made definite by the experience of Henry Anderson and
his sister. He told her that he had bought at a nominal sum a large
plantation in the vicinity of the parsonage, and that Colonel Anderson
should be his agent, with the privilege of buying at no more of an
advance than would satisfy the proud young Southerner's self respect.

Thus from every side he sought to bring natural and healthful
influences to bear upon her mind, to interest her in life at every
point where it touched her, and to reconnect the broken threads which
had bound her to the world.

He was aided earnestly and skilfully on all sides. Their success,
however, was discouragingly slow. In her weakness Grace made pathetic
attempts to respond, but not from much genuine interest. As she grew
stronger her manner toward her father was more like that of her former
self than was the rest of her conduct. Almost as if from the force of
habit, she resumed her thoughtful care for his comfort; but beyond that
there seemed to be an apathy, an indifference, a dreary preoccupation
hard to combat.

In Graham's presence she would make visible effort to do all he wished,
but it was painfully visible, and sometimes she would recognize his
unobtrusive attentions with a smile that was sadder than any words
could be. One day she seemed almost wholly free from the deep apathy
that was becoming characteristic, and she said to him, "Alas, my
friend! as I said to you at first, the woman _is_ dead within me. My
body grows stronger, as the result of the skill and help you all are
bringing to bear on my sad problem, but my heart is dead, and my hope
takes no hold on life. I cannot overcome the feeling that I am a mere
shadow, and have no right to be here among the living. You are so
brave, patient, and faithful that I am ever conscious of a sort of dull
remorse; but there is a weight on my brain and a despairing numbness at
my heart, making everything seem vain and unreal. Please do not blame
me. Asking me to feel is like requiring sight of the blind. I've lost
the faculty. I have suffered so much that I have become numb, if not
dead. The shadows of the past mingle with the shadows of to-day. Only
you seem real in your strong, vain effort, and as far as I can suffer
any more it pains me to see you thus waste yourself on a hopeless
shadow of a woman. I told you I should disappoint you."

"I am not wasting myself, Grace. Remain a shadow till you can be more.
I will bear my part of the burden, if you will be patient with yours.
Won't you believe that I am infinitely happier in caring for you as you
are than I should be if I could not thus take your hand and express to
you my thought, my sympathy? Dear Grace, the causes which led to your
depression were strong and terrible. Should we expect them to be
counteracted in a few short weeks?"

"Alas, Alford! is there any adequate remedy? Forgive me for saying this
to you, and yet you, of all people, can understand me best. You cling
to me who should be nothing to a man of your power and force. You say
you cannot go on in life without me, even as a weak, dependent
friend--that you would lose all zest, incentive, and interest; for I
cannot think you mean more. If you feel in this way toward me, who in
the eyes of other men would be a dismal burden, think how Warren dwells
in my memory, what he was to me, how his strong sunny nature was the
sun of my life. Do you not see you are asking of me what you say you
could not do yourself, although you would, after your own brave, manly
fashion? But your own belief should teach you the nature of my task
when you ask me to go on and take up life again, from which I was torn
more completely than the vine which falls with the tree to which it
clung."

"Dear Grace, do not think for a moment that I am not always gratefully
conscious of the immense self-sacrifice you are making for me and
others. You long for rest and forgetfulness, and yet you know well that
your absence would leave an abyss of despair. You now add so much to
the comfort of your father! Mrs. Mayburn clings to you with all the
love of a mother. And I, Grace--what else can I do? Even your frail,
sad presence is more to me than the sun in the sky. Is it pure
selfishness on my part to wish to keep you? Time, the healer, will
gradually bring to you rest from pain, and serenity to us all. When you
are stronger I will take you to Hilland's grave--"

"No, no, no!" she cried, almost passionately. "Why should I go there?
Oh, this is the awful part of it! What I so loved has become nothing,
worse than nothing--that from which I shrink as something horrible. Oh,
Alford! why are we endowed with such natures if corruption is to be the
end? It is this thought that paralyzes me. It seems as if pure,
unselfish love is singled out for the most diabolical punishment. To
think that a form which has become sacred to you may be put away at any
moment as a horrible and unsightly thing! and that such should be the
end of the noblest devotion of which man is capable! My whole being
revolts at it; and yet how can I escape from its truth? I am beset by
despairing thoughts on every side when able to think at all, and my
best remedy seems a sort of dreary apathy, in which I do little more
than breathe. I have read that there comes a time when the tortured
cease to feel much pain. There was a time, especially at the hospital,
when I suffered constantly--when almost everything but you suggested
torturing thoughts. I suffered with you and for you, but there was
always something sustaining in your presence. There is still. I should
not live a month in your absence, but it seems as if it were your
strong will that holds me, not my own. You have given me the power, the
incentive, to make such poor effort as I am putting forth. Moreover, in
intent, you gave your life for Warren again and again, and as long as I
have any volition left I will try and do all you wish, since you so
wish it. But my hope is dead. I do not see how any more good can come
to me or through me."

"You are still willing, however, to permit me to think for you, to
guide you? You will still use your utmost effort to live?"

"Yes. I can refuse to the man who went back to my dying husband nothing
within my power to grant. It is indeed little. Besides, I am in your
care, but I fear I shall prove a sad, if not a fatal legacy."

"Of that, dear Grace, you must permit me to be the judge. All that you
have said only adds strength to my purpose. Does not the thought that
you are doing so very much for me and for all who love you bring some
solace?"

"It should. But what have I brought you but pain and deep anxiety? Oh,
Alford, Alford! you will waken some bitter day to the truth that you
love but the wraith of the girl who unconsciously won your heart. You
have idealized her, and the being you now love does not exist. How can
I let you go on thus wronging yourself?"

"Grace," replied he, gravely and almost sternly, "I learned in the
northern woods, among the fiords of Norway, under the shadow of the
Himalayas, and in my long, lonely hours in the war, whom I loved, and
why I loved her. I made every effort at forgetfulness that I, at least,
was capable of exerting, and never forgot for an hour. Am I a
sentimental boy, that you should talk to me in this way? Let us leave
that question as settled for all time. Moreover, never entertain the
thought that I am planning and hoping for the future. I see in your
affection for me only a pale reflection of your love for Hilland."

"No, Alford, I love you for your own sake. How tenderly you have ever
spoken of little Rita Anderson, and yet--"

"And yet, as I have told you more than once, the thought of loving her
never entered my mind. I could plan for her happiness as I would for a
sister, had I one."

"Therefore you can interpret me."

"Therefore I have interpreted you, and, from the first, have asked for
nothing more than that you still make one of our little circle, each
member of which would be sadly missed, you most of all."

"I ought to be able to do so little as that for you. Indeed, I am
trying."

"I know you are, and, as you succeed, you will see that I am content.
Do not feel that when I am present you must struggle and make unwonted
effort. The tide is setting toward life; float gently on with it. Do
not try to force nature. Let time and rest daily bring their
imperceptible healing. The war is over. I now have but one object in
life, and if you improve I shall come and go and do some man's work in
the world. My plantation in Virginia will soon give me plenty of
wholesome out-of-door thoughts."

She gave him one of her sad smiles as she replied wearily, "You set me
a good example."

This frank interchange of thought appeared at first to have a good
effect on Grace, and brought something of the rest which comes from
submission to the inevitable. She found that Graham's purpose was as
immovable as the hills, and at the same time was more absolutely
convinced that he was not looking forward to what seemed an impossible
future. Nor did he ask that her effort should be one of feeble
struggles to manifest an interest before him which she did not feel.
She yielded to her listlessness and apathy to a degree that alarmed her
father and Mrs. Mayburn, but Graham said: "It's the course of nature.
After such prolonged suffering, both body and mind need this lethargy.
Reaction from one extreme to another might be expected."

Dr. Markham agreed in the main with this view, and yet there was a
slight contraction of perplexity on his brows as he added: "I should
not like to see this tendency increase beyond a certain point, or
continue too long. From the first shock of her bereavement Mrs.
Hilland's mind has not been exactly in a normal condition. There are
phases of her trouble difficult to account for and difficult to treat.
The very fineness of her organization made the terrible shock more
serious in its injury. I do not say this to discourage you--far from
it--but in sincerity I must call your attention to the fact that every
new phase of her grief has tended to some extreme manifestation,
showing a disposition toward, not exactly mental weakness, but
certainly an abnormal mental condition. I speak of this that you may
intelligently guard against it. If due precaution is used, the happy
mean between these reactions may be reached, and both mind and body
recover a healthful tone. I advise that you all seek some resort by the
sea, a new one, without any associations with the past."

Within a few days they were at a seaside inn, a large one whose very
size offered seclusion. From their wide and lofty balconies they could
watch the world come and go on the sea and on the land; and the world
was too large and too distant for close scrutiny or petty gossip. They
could have their meals in their rooms, or in the immense dining-hall,
as they chose; and in the latter place the quiet party would scarcely
attract a second glance from the young, gay, and sensation-loving.
Their transient gaze would see two old ladies, one an invalid, an old
and crippled man, and one much younger, who evidently would never take
part in a german.

It was thought and hoped that this nearness to the complex world, with
the consciousness that it could not approach her to annoy and pry,
might tend to awaken in Grace a passing interest in its many phases.
She could see without feeling that she was scanned and surmised about,
as is too often the case in smaller houses wherein the guests are not
content until they have investigated all newcomers.

But Grace disappointed her friends. She was as indifferent to the world
about her as the world was to her. At first she was regarded as a quiet
invalid, and scarcely noticed. The sea seemed to interest her more than
all things else, and, if uninterrupted, she would sit and gaze at its
varying aspects for hours.

According to Graham's plan, she was permitted, with little
interference, to follow her mood. Mrs. Mayburn was like a watchful
mother, the major much his former self, for his habits were too fixed
for radical changes. Grace would quietly do anything he asked, but she
grew more forgetful and inattentive, coming out of her deep
abstraction--if such it could be termed--with increasing effort. With
Graham she seemed more content than with any one else. With him she
took lengthening walks on the beach. He sat quietly beside her while
she watched the billows chasing one another to the shore. Their swift
onset, their defeat, over which they appeared to foam in wrath, their
backward and disheartened retreat, ever seemed to tell her in some dim
way a story of which she never wearied. Often she would turn and look
at him with a vague trouble in her face, as if faintly remembering
something that was a sorrow to them both; but his reassuring smile
quieted her, and she would take his hand as a little child might have
done, and sit for an hour without removing her eyes from the waves. He
waited patiently day after day, week after week, reiterating to
himself, "She will waken, she will remember all, and then will have
strength and calmness to meet it. This is nature's long repose."

It was growing strangely long and deep.

Meanwhile Grace, in her outward appearance, was undergoing a subtle
change. Graham was the first to observe it, and at last it was apparent
to all. As her mind became inert, sleeping on a downy couch of
forgetfulness, closely curtained, the silent forces of physical life,
in her deep tranquillity, were doing an artist's work. The hollow
cheeks were gradually rounded and given the faintest possible bloom.
Her form was gaining a contour that might satisfy a sculptor's dream.

The major had met old friends, and it was whispered about who they
were--the widow of a millionaire; Colonel Graham, one of the most
dashing cavalry officers in the war which was still in all minds; Major
St. John, a veteran soldier of the regular service, who had been
wounded in the Mexican War and who was well and honorably known to the
chief dignitaries of the former generation. Knowing all this, the
quidnuncs complacently felt at first that they knew all. The next thing
was to know the people. This proved to be difficult indeed. The major
soon found a few veteran cronies at whist, but to others was more
unapproachable than a major-general of the old school. Graham was far
worse, and belles tossed their heads at the idea that he had ever been
a "dashing cavalry officer" or dashing anything else. Before the summer
was over the men began to discover that Mrs. Hilland was the most
beautiful woman in the house--strangely, marvellously, supernaturally
beautiful.

An artist, who had found opportunity to watch the poor unconscious
woman furtively--not so furtively either but that any belle in the
hostelry would know all about it in half a minute--raved about the
combination of charms he had discovered.

"Just imagine," he said, "what a picture she made as she sat alone on
the beach! She was so remarkable in her appearance that one might think
she had arisen from the sea, and was not a creature of the earth. Her
black, close-fitting dress suggested the form of Aphrodite as she rose
from the waves. Her profile was almost faultless in its exquisite
lines. Her complexion, with just a slight warm tinge imparted by the
breeze, had not the cold, dead white of snow, but the clear
transparency which good aristocratic blood imparts. But her eyes and
hair were her crowning features. How shall I describe the deep, dreamy
languor of her large, dark eyes, made a hundred-fold more effective by
the silvery whiteness of her hair, which had partly escaped from her
comb, and fell upon her neck! And then her sublime, tranquil
indifference! That I was near, spellbound with admiration, did not
interest her so much as a sail, no larger than a gull's wing, far out
at sea."

"Strange, strange!" said one of his friends, laughing; "her
unconsciousness of your presence was the strangest part of it all. Why
did you not make a sketch?"

"I did, but that infernal Colonel Graham, who is said to be her
shadow--after her million, you know--suddenly appeared and asked
sternly: 'Have you the lady's permission for this sketch?' I stammered
about being 'so impressed, that in the interests of art,' etc. He then
snatched my sketch and threw it into the waves. Of course I was angry,
and I suppose my words and manner became threatening. He took a step
toward me, looking as I never saw a man look. 'Hush,' he said, in a low
voice. 'Say or do a thing to annoy that lady, and I'll wring your neck
and toss you after your sketch. Do you think I've been through a
hundred battles to fear your insignificance?' By Jove! he looked as if
he could do it as easily as say it. Of course I was not going to brawl
before a lady."

"No; it wouldn't have been prudent--I mean gentlemanly," remarked his
bantering friend.

"Well, laugh at me," replied the young fellow, who was as honest as
light-hearted and vain. 'I'd risk the chance of having my neck wrung
for another glimpse at such marvellous beauty. Would you believe it?
the superb creature never so much as once turned to glance at us. She
left me to her attendant as completely as if he were removing an
annoying insect. Heavens! but it was the perfection of high breeding.
But I shall have my revenge: "I'll paint her yet."

"Right, my friend, right you are; and your revenge will be terrible.
Her supernatural and high-bred nonchalance will be lost forever should
she see her portrait;" and with mutual chaffing, spiced with
good-natured satire, as good-naturedly received, the little party in a
smoking-room separated.

But furtive eyes soon relieved the artist from the charge of
exaggeration. Thus far Grace's manner had been ascribed to high-bred
reserve and the natural desire for seclusion in her widowhood. Now,
however, that attention was concentrated upon her, Graham feared that
more than her beauty would be discovered.

He himself also longed inexpressibly to hide his new phase of trouble
from the chattering throng of people who were curious to know about
them. To know? As if they could know! They might better sit down to
gossip over the secrets of the differential and the integral calculus.

But he saw increasing evidences that they were becoming objects of
"interest," and the beautiful millionaire widow "very interesting," as
it was phrased; and he knew that there is no curiosity so penetrating
as that of the fashionable world when once it is aroused, and the game
deemed worthy of pursuit.

People appeared from Washington who had known Lieutenant-Colonel
Hilland and heard something of Graham, and the past was being ferreted
out. "Her hair had turned white from grief in a night," it was
confidently affirmed.

Poor Jones shrugged his shoulders as he thought: "I shall never be the
cause of my wife's hair turning white, unless I may, in the future,
prevent her from dyeing it."

After all, sympathy was not very deep. It was generally concluded that
Colonel Graham would console her, and one lady of elegant leisure,
proud of her superior research, declared that she had seen the colonel
"holding Mrs. Hilland's hand," as they sat in a secluded angle of the
rocks.

Up to a certain time it was comparatively easy to shield Grace; but
now, except as she would turn her large, dreamy eyes and unresponsive
lips upon those who sought her acquaintance, she was as helpless as a
child. The major and Mrs. Mayburn at once acquiesced in Graham's wish
to depart. Within a day or two the gossips found that their prey had
escaped, and Grace was once more in her cottage home.

At first she recognized familiar surroundings with a sigh of content.
Then a deeply troubled look flitted across her face and she looked at
Graham inquiringly.

"What is it, Grace?" he asked, gently.

She pressed her hand to her brow, glanced around once more, shook her
head sadly, and went to her room to throw off her wraps.

They all looked at one another with consternation. Hitherto they had
tried to be dumb and blind, each hiding the growing and awful
conviction that Grace was drifting away from them almost as surely as
if she had died.

"Something must be done at once," said practical Mrs. Mayburn.

"I have telegraphed for Dr. Markham," replied Graham, gloomily.
"Nothing can be done till he returns. He is away on a distant trip."

"Oh!" groaned the old major, "there will be an end of me before there
is to all this trouble."



CHAPTER XXXVIII

GRAHAM'S LAST SACRIFICE

A terrible foreboding oppressed Graham. Would Grace fulfil her
prediction and disappoint him, after all? Would she elude him, escape,
_die_, and yet remain at his side, beautiful as a dream? Oh, the agony
of possessing this perfect casket, remembering the jewel that had
vanished! He had vowed to defeat his gloomy rivals, Grief and Death,
and they were mocking him, giving the semblance of what he craved
beyond even imagined perfection, but carrying away into their own
inscrutable darkness the woman herself.

What was Grace?--what becoming? As he looked he thought of her as a
sculptor's ideal embodied, a dream of beauty only, not a woman--as the
legend of Eve, who might, before becoming a living soul, have
harmonized with the loveliness of her garden without seeing or feeling
it.

He could not think of her mind as blotted out or perverted; he could
not conceive of it otherwise than as corresponding with her outward
symmetry. To his thought it slumbered, as her form might repose upon
her couch, in a death-like trance. She went and came among them like a
somnambulist, guided by unconscious instincts, memories, and habits.

She knew their voices, did, within limitations, as they requested; but
when she waited on her father there was a sad, mechanical repetition of
what she had done since childhood. Mrs. Mayburn found her docile and
easily controlled, and the heart-stricken old lady was vigilance itself.

Toward Graham, however, her manner had a marked characteristic. He was
her master, and she a dumb, lovely, unreasoning creature, that looked
into his eyes for guidance, and gathered more from his tones than from
his words. Some faint consciousness of the past had grown into an
instinct that to him she must look for care and direction; and she
never thought of resisting his will. If he read to her, she turned to
him her lovely face, across which not a gleam of interest or
intelligence would pass. If he brought her flowers, she would hold them
until they were taken from her. She would pace the garden walks by his
side, with her hand upon his arm, by the hour if he wished it,
sometimes smiling faintly at his gentle tones, but giving no proof that
she understood the import of his words. At Hilland's name only she
would start and tremble as if some deep chord were struck, which could
merely vibrate until its sounds were faint and meaningless.

It was deeply touching also to observe in her sad eclipse how her
ingrained refinement asserted itself. In all her half-conscious action
there was never a coarse look or word. She was a rose without its
perfume. She was a woman without a woman's mind and heart. These had
been subtracted, with all the differences they made; otherwise she was
Grace Hilland.

Graham was profoundly perplexed and distressed. The problem had become
too deep for him. The brain, nourished by good blood, had not brought
life. All his skill and that of those allied with him had failed. The
materialist had matter in the perfection of breathing outline, but
where was the woman he loved? How could he reach her, how make himself
understood by her, except as some timid, docile creature responds to a
caress or a tone? His very power over her was terrifying. It was built
upon the instinct, the allegiance that cannot reason but is
unquestioning. Nothing could so have daunted his hope, courage, and
will as the exquisite being Grace had become, as she looked up to him
with her large, mild, trusting eyes, from which thought, intelligence,
and volition had departed.

At last Dr. Markham came, and for several days watched his patient
closely, she giving little heed to his presence. They all hung on his
perturbed looks with a painful anxiety. For a time he was very
reticent, but one day he followed Graham to his quarters in Mrs.
Mayburn's cottage, where he was now much alone. Grace seemed to miss
him but slightly, although she always gave some sign of welcome on his
return. The mocking semblance of all that he could desire often so
tantalized him that her presence became unendurable. The doctor found
him pacing his room in a manner betokening his half-despairing
perplexity.

"Colonel Graham," he said, "shall I surprise you when I say physicians
are very fallible? I know that it is not the habit of the profession to
admit this, but I have not come here to talk nonsense to you. You have
trusted me in this matter, and admitted me largely into your
confidence, and I shall speak to you in honest, plain English. Mrs.
Hilland's symptoms are very serious. What I feared has taken place.
From her acute and prolonged mental distress and depression, of which
she would have died had you not come, she reacted first into mental
lethargy, and now into almost complete mental inactivity. I cannot
discover that any disturbed physical functions have been an element in
her mental aberration, for more perfect physical life and loveliness I
have never seen. Her white hair, which might have made her look old, is
a foil to a beauty which seems to defy age.

"Pardon me for saying it, but I fear our treatment has been
superficial. We men of the world may believe what we please, but to
many natures, especially to an organization like Mrs. Hilland's, hope
and faith are essential. She has practically been without these from
the first, and, as you know, she was sinking under the struggle
maintained by her own brave, womanly spirit. She was contending with
more than actual bereavement. It was the hopelessness of the struggle
that crushed her, for she is not one of that large class of women who
can find consolation in crape and becoming mourning.

"In response to your appeal, she did make the effort you required, but
it was the effort of a mind still without hope or faith--one that saw
no remedy for the evils that had already overwhelmed her--and I must
bear witness that her efforts were as sincere as they were pathetic. We
all watched to give every assistance in our power. I've lain awake
nights, Colonel Graham, to think of remedies that would meet her needs;
and good Mrs. Mayburn and your old black cook, Aunt Sheba, prepared
food fit for the gods. You were more untiring and effective than any of
us, and the major's very infirmities were among her strongest allies.
Well, we have the result--a woman who might be a model for a goddess,
even to her tranquil face, in which there is no trace of varying human
feeling. Explanation of the evil that crushed her, hope, and faith were
not given--who can give them?--but they were essential to her from the
first. Unbelief, which is a refuge to some, was an abyss to her. In it
she struggled and groped until her mind, appalled and discouraged and
overwhelmed, refused to act at all. In one sense it is a merciful
oblivion, in another a fatal one, from which she must be aroused if
possible. But it's a hard, hard case."

"You make it hard indeed," said Graham, desperately. "What faith can I
instil except the one I have? I can't lie, even for Grace Hilland. She
knew well once that I could easily die for her."

"Well, then," said the physician, "permit a plain, direct question.
Will you marry her?"

"Marry her--as she now is?" cried Graham, in unfeigned astonishment.

"You said you could die for her. This may be going much further. Indeed
I should call it the triumph of human affection, for in honesty I must
tell you that she may never be better, she may become worse. But I
regard it as her only chance. At any rate, she needs a vigilant
caretaker. Old Mrs. Mayburn will not be equal to the task much longer,
and her place will have to be filled by hired service. I know it is
like suggesting an almost impossible sacrifice to broach even the
thought, remembering her condition, but--"

"Dr. Markham," said Graham, pacing the floor in great agitation, "you
wholly misunderstand me. I was thinking of her, not of myself. What
right have I to marry Grace Hilland without her consent? She could give
no intelligent assent at present."

"The right of your love; the right her husband gave when he committed
her to your care; the right of your desire to prevent her from drifting
into hopeless, lifelong imbecility, wherein she would be almost at the
mercy of hired attendants, helpless to shield herself from any and
every wrong; the right of a man to sacrifice himself absolutely for
another if he chooses."

"But she might waken from this mental trance and feel that I had taken
a most dishonorable advantage of her helplessness."

"Yes, you run that risk; but here is one man who will assure her to the
contrary, and you would be sustained by the consciousness of the purest
motives. It is that she may waken that I suggest the step; mark, I do
not advise it. As I said at first, I am simply treating you with
absolute confidence and sincerity. If matters go on as they are, I have
little or no hope. Mrs. Mayburn is giving way under the strain, and
symptoms of her old disorder are returning. She cannot watch Mrs.
Hilland much longer as she has been doing. Whom will you put in her
place? Will you send Mrs. Hilland to an asylum, with its rules and
systems and its unknown attendants? Moreover, her present tranquil
condition may not last. She may become as violent as she now is gentle.
She may gradually regain her intelligence, or it may be restored to her
by some sudden shock. If the mysteries of the physical nature so baffle
us, who can predict the future of a disordered intellect? I have
presented the darkest side of the picture; I still think it has its
bright side. She has no hereditary mental weakness to contend with. As
it developed somewhat gradually, it may pass in the same manner. If you
should marry her and take her at once to Europe, change of scene, of
life, with your vigilant presence ever near, might become important
factors in the problem. The memory that she was committed to your care
has degenerated into a controlling instinct; but that is far better
than nothing. The only real question in my mind is, Are you willing to
make the sacrifice and take the risks? You know the world will say you
married her for her money, and that will be hard on a man like you."

Graham made a gesture of contempt: "That for the world," he said. "Have
you broached this subject to her father and my aunt?"

"Certainly not before speaking to you."

"You then give me your assurance, as a man, that you believe this
right, and that it is Grace Hilland's best chance--indeed, almost her
only chance--for recovery?"

"I do most unhesitatingly, and I shall do more. I shall bring from New
York an eminent physician who has made mental disease a study all his
life, and he shall either confirm my opinion or advise you better."

"Do so, Dr. Markham," said Graham, very gravely. "I have incurred risks
before in my life, but none like this. If from any cause Mrs. Hilland
should recover memory and full intelligence, and reproach me for having
taken advantage of a condition which, even among savage tribes, renders
the afflicted one sacred, all the fiendish tortures of the Inquisition
would be nothing to what I should suffer. Still, prove to me, prove to
her father, that it is her best chance, and for Grace Hilland I will
take even this risk. Please remember there must be no professional
generalities. I must have your solemn written statement that it is for
Mrs. Hilland's sake I adopt the measure."

"So be it," was the reply. "I shall telegraph to Dr. Armand immediately
to expect me, and shall say that I wish him to be prepared to come at
once."

"Do so, and consider no question of expense. I am no longer poor, and
if I were, I would mortgage my blood at this juncture."

On the following evening Dr. Armand was almost startled by the vision
on the veranda of the St. John cottage. A silvery-haired woman sat
looking placidly at the glowing sunset, with its light and its
rose-hues reflected in her face.

"If ever there was a picture of a glorified saint, there is one," he
muttered, as he advanced and bowed.

She gave him no attention, but with dark eyes, made brilliant by the
level rays, she gazed steadily on the closing day. The physician stole
a step or two nearer, and looked as steadily at her, while his
experienced eye detected in all her illuminated beauty the absence of
the higher, more subtle light of reason. Dr. Markham had told him next
to nothing about the case, and had asked him to go and see for himself,
impressing him only with the fact that it was a question of vital
importance that he was to aid in deciding; that he must give it his
whole professional skill, and all the necessary time, regardless of
expense. The moment he saw Grace, however, the business aspect of the
affair passed from his mind. His ruling passion was aroused, and he was
more than physician--a student--as the great in any calling ever are.

Graham came to the door and recognized instinctively the intent,
eagle-eyed man, who merely nodded and motioned him to approach his
patient. Graham did so, and Grace turned her eyes to him with a timid,
questioning glance. He offered her his arm; she rose instantly and took
it, and began walking with him.

"Were you looking at the sunset, Grace?"

She turned upon him the same inquiring eyes, but did not answer.

"Do you not think it very beautiful? Does it not remind you of the
sunset you saw on the evening when I returned from my first battle?"

She shook her head, and only looked perplexed,

"Why, Grace," he continued, as if provoked, "you _must_ remember. I was
carried, you know, and you and Mrs. Mayburn acted as if my scratches
were mortal wounds."

She looked frightened at his angry tones, clasped her hands, and with
tears in her eyes looked pleadingly up to him.

"Dear Grace, don't be worried." He now spoke in the gentlest tones, and
lifted her hand to his lips. A quick, evanescent smile illumined her
face. She fawned against his shoulder a moment, placed his hand against
her cheek, and then leaned upon his arm as they resumed their walk, Dr.
Armand keeping near them without in the least attracting her attention.

"Grace," resumed Graham, "you must remember. Hilland, Warren, you know."

She dropped his arm, looked wildly around, covered her face with her
hands, and shuddered convulsively.

After a moment he said, kindly but firmly, "Grace, dear Grace."

She sprang to him, seized his hand, and casting a look of suspicion at
Dr. Armand, drew him away.

A few moments later she was again looking tranquilly at the west, but
the light had departed from the sky and from her face. It had the look
of one who saw not, thought and felt not. It was breathing, living
death.

Graham looked at her mournfully for a few moments, and then, with a
gesture that was almost despairing, turned to the physician, who had
not lost a single expression.

"Thank you," was that gentleman's first laconic remark; and he dropped
into a chair, still with his eyes on the motionless figure of Grace.

At last he asked, "How long would she maintain that position?"

"I scarcely know," was the sad response; "many hours certainly."

"Please let her retain it till I request you to interfere. The moon is
rising almost full, the evening is warm, and she can take no harm."

The major tottered out on his crutches, and was given his chair, the
physician meanwhile being introduced. Brief and courteous was Dr.
Armand's acknowledgment, but he never took his eyes from his patient.
The same was true of his greeting to Mrs. Mayburn; but that good lady's
hospitable instincts soon asserted themselves, and she announced that
dinner was ready.

"Take Mrs. Hilland to dinner," said the physician to Graham; "but first
introduce me."

The young man approached and said, "Grace." She rose instantly and took
his arm. "This is Dr. Armand, Grace. He has called to see you." She
made him a courteous inclination, and then turned to Graham to see what
next was expected of her, but he only led her to the dining-room.

"Gracie, darling, bring me my cushion," said her father, speaking as he
had been used to do when she was a little girl.

She brought it mechanically and arranged it, then stood in expectancy.
"That will do, dear;" and she returned to her seat in silence.
Throughout the meal she maintained this silence, although Dr. Armand
broached many topics, avoiding only the name of her husband. Her manner
was that of a little, quiet, well-bred child, who did not understand
what was said, and had no interest in it. The physician's scrutiny did
not embarrass her; she had never remembered, much less forgotten him.

When the meal was over they all returned to the piazza. At the
physician's request she was placed in her old seat, and they all sat
down to watch. The moon rose higher and higher, made her hair more
silvery, touched her still face with a strange, ethereal beauty, and
threw the swaying shadow of a spray of woodbine across her motionless
figure--so motionless that she seemed a sculptured rather than a
breathing woman.

After a while the old major rose and groaned as he tottered away. Mrs.
Mayburn, in uncontrollable nervous restlessness, soon followed, that
she might find relief in household cares. The two men watched on till
hours had passed, and still the lovely image had not stirred. At last
Dr. Armand approached her and said, "Mrs. Hilland."

She rose, and stood coldly aloof. The name, with her prefix, did not
trouble her. She had long been accustomed to that "Hilland," as Graham
uttered the word, alone affected her, touching some last deep chord of
memory.

"Mrs. Hilland," the doctor continued, "it is getting late. Do you not
think you had better retire?"

She looked at him blankly, and glanced around as if in search of some
one.

"I am here, Grace," said Graham, emerging from the doorway.

She came to him at once, and he led her to Mrs. Mayburn, kissing her
hand, and receiving, in return, her strange, brief, fawning caress.

"I would like to know the history of Mrs. Hilland's malady from the
beginning," said Dr. Armand, when Graham returned.

"I cannot go over it again," replied Graham, hoarsely. "Dr. Markham can
tell you about all, and I will answer any questions. Your room is ready
for you here, where Dr. Markham will join you presently. I must bid you
good-night;" and he strode away.

But as he passed under the apple-tree and recalled all that had
occurred there, he was so overcome that once more he leaned against it
for support.



CHAPTER XXXIX

MARRIED UNCONSCIOUSLY

There was no sleep for Graham that night, for he knew that two skilful
men were consulting on a question beyond any that had agitated his
heart before. As he paced the little parlor with restless steps, Aunt
Sheba's ample form filled the doorway, and in her hands was a tray
bearing such coffee as only she knew how to brew.

"Thanks, Aunt Sheba," he said, motioning to a table, without pausing in
his distracted walk.

She put down the tray, retreated hesitatingly, and then began: "Dear
Mas'r Graham, my ole heart jes aches for yer. But don't yer be so cast
down, mas'r; de good Lord knows it all, and I'se a-prayin' for yer and
de lubly Miss Grace night and day."

He was so utterly miserable that he was grateful for even this homely
sympathy, and he took the old woman's hand in his as he said kindly,
"Pray on, then, good old aunty, if it's any comfort to you. It
certainly can do no harm."

"Oh, Mas'r Graham, you dunno, you dunno. Wid all yer wise knowin' yer
dunno. You'se all--good Mis' Mayburn, de ole major, an' all--are in de
dark land ob unbelievin', like poor Missy Grace. She doesn't know how
you'se all tink about her an' lub her; needer does you know how de good
Lord tinks about you and lubs you. You guv me my liberty; you guv what
I tinks a sight more on; you'se been kind to de poor old slave dat los'
all her chillen in de weary days dat's gone. I'se a 'memberin' yer all
de time. You hab no faith, Mas'r Graham, and poor ole Aunt Sheba mus'
hab faith for yer. An' so I will. I'se a wrastlin' wid de Lord for yer
all de time, an' I'se a-gwine to wrastle on till I sees yer an' Missy
Grace an' all comin' inter de light;" and she threw her apron over her
head, and went sobbing away.

He paused for a moment when she left him, touched deeply by the strong,
homely, human sympathy and gratitude of the kind old soul who fed
him--as he never forgot--when he was a fugitive in a hostile land. That
she had manifested her feeling after what he deemed her own ignorant,
superstitious fashion was nothing. It was the genuine manifestation of
the best human traits that touched him--pure gems illumining a nature
otherwise so clouded and crude.

Late at night footsteps approached, and the two physicians entered. "I
first permitted Dr. Armand to form his own impressions, and since have
told him everything," said Dr. Markham, "and he strongly inclines to my
view. Realizing the gravity of the case, however, he has consented to
remain a day or two longer. We will give you no hasty opinion, and you
shall have time on your part to exercise the most deliberate judgment."

Dr. Armand confirmed his associate's words, and added, "We will leave
you now to the rest you must need sorely. Let me assure you, however,
that I do not by any means consider Mrs. Hilland's case hopeless, and
that I am strongly impressed with the belief that her recovery must
come through you. A long train of circumstances has given you almost
unbounded influence over her, as you enabled me to see this evening. It
would be sad to place such a glorious creature in the care of
strangers, for it might involve serious risk should she regain her
memory and intelligence with no strong, sympathetic friend, acquainted
with her past, near her. I am inclined to think that what is now little
more than an instinct will again develop into a memory, and that the
fact that she was committed to your care will fully reconcile her to
the marriage--indeed, render her most grateful for it, if capable of
understanding the reasons which led to it. If further observation
confirms my present impressions, I and Dr. Markham will plainly state
our opinions to her father and Mrs. Mayburn. As my colleague has said,
you must comprehend the step in all its bearings. It is one that I
would not ask any man to take. I now think that the probabilities are
that it would restore Mrs. Hilland to health eventually. A year of
foreign travel might bring about a gradual and happy change."

"Take time to satisfy yourselves, gentlemen, and give me your decision
as requested. Then you have my permission to give your opinions to
Major St. John."

Within a week this was done, and the poor old man bowed his head on
Graham's shoulder and wept aloud in his gratitude. Mrs. Mayburn also,
wiping away her tears, faltered, "You know, Alford, how I schemed for
this marriage years ago; you remember my poor blind strategy on that
June day, do you not? How little I thought it would take place under
circumstances like these! And yet, I've thought of it of late often,
very often. I could not go on much longer, for I am old and feeble, and
it just broke my heart to think of Grace, our Grace, passing into the
hands of some hired and indifferent stranger or strangers. I believe
she will recover and reward your sacrifice."

"It is no sacrifice on my part, aunt, except she wakens only to
reproach me."

"Well, devotion, then; and little sense she'd ever have," concluded the
old lady, after her own brusque fashion, "if she does not fall on her
knees and bless you. You could now take better care of her than I, for
she trusts and obeys you implicitly. She is docile and gentle with me,
but often strangely inattentive. She would be still more so with a
stranger; and the idea of some strong, unfeeling hands forcing her into
the routine of her life!" Thus almost completely was removed from his
mind the unspeakable dread lest he was taking an unfair advantage of
helplessness. He fully recognized also that the ordeal for himself
would be a terrible one--that it would be the fable of Tantalus
repeated for weeks, months, perhaps for years, or for life. The
unfulfilled promise of happiness would ever be before him. His
dark-visaged rivals, Grief and Death, would jeer and mock at him from a
face of perfect beauty. In a blind, vindictive way he felt that his
experience was the very irony of fate. He could clasp the perfect
material form of a woman to his heart, and at the same time his heart
be breaking for what could not be seen or touched.

The question, however, was decided irrevocably. He knew that he could
not leave helpless Grace Hilland to the care of strangers, and that
there was no place for him in the world but at her side; and yet it was
with something of the timidity and hesitation of a lover that he asked
her, as they paced a shady garden-walk, "Grace, dear Grace, will you
marry me?"

His voice was very low and gentle, and yet she turned upon him a
startled, inquiring look. "Marry you?" she repeated slowly.

"Yes, let me take care of you always," he replied, smilingly, and yet
as pale almost as herself.

The word "care" reassured her, and she gave him her wonted smile of
content, as she replied, very slowly, "Yes. I want you to take care of
me always. Who else can?"

"That's what I mean by marrying you--taking care of you always," he
said, raising her hand to his lips.

"You are always to take care of me," she replied, leaning her head on
his shoulder for a moment.

"Mrs. Mayburn is not strong enough to take care of you any longer. She
will take care of your father. Will you let me take care of you as she
does?"

She smiled contentedly, for the word "care" appeared to make all
natural and right.

It was arranged that they should be married in the presence of Dr.
Markham, Aunt Sheba, and Jinny, in addition to those so deeply
interested. The physician prepared the clergyman for the ceremony,
which was exceedingly brief and simple, Grace smiling into Graham's
face when he promised to take care of her always, and she signifying
her consent and pleasure in the manner that was so mute and sad. Then
he told her that he was going to take her away, that she might get
perfectly strong and well; and she went at his request without
hesitancy, although seeming to wonder slightly at the strong emotion of
her father and Mrs. Mayburn when parting from her. Jinny, who had been
her nurse in childhood, accompanied her. Dr. Markham also went with
them as far as the steamer, and they sailed away into a future as vague
and unknown to them as the ocean they were crossing.

The waves seen from the deck of the steamer produced in Grace the same
content with which she had gazed at them from the shore during the
previous summer; only now there were faint signs of wonder in her
expression, and sometimes of perplexity. Her eyes also wandered around
the great vessel with something of the interest of a child, but she
asked no questions. That Graham was with her and smiled reassuringly
seemed sufficient, while the presence of her old  nurse, who in
some dim way was connected with her past, gave also an additional sense
of security.

As time elapsed and they began their wanderings abroad, it seemed to
Graham that his wife was beginning life over again, as a very little
quiet child would observe the strange and unaccountable phenomena about
it. Instead of her fixed vacancy of gaze, her eyes began to turn from
object to object with a dawning yet uncomprehending interest. He in
simplest words sought to explain and she to listen, though it was
evident that their impression was slight indeed. Still there was
perceptible progress, and when in his tireless experimenting he began
to bring before her those things which would naturally interest a
child, he was encouraged to note that they won a larger and more
pleased attention. A garden full of flowers, a farmyard with its sleek,
quiet cattle, a band of music, a broad, funny pantomime, were far more
to her than Westminster Abbey or St. Paul's. Later, the variety, color,
and movement of a Paris boulevard quite absorbed her attention, and she
followed one object after another with much the same expression that
might be seen on the face of a little girl scarcely three years old.
This infantile expression, in contrast with her silver hair and upon
her mature and perfect features, was pathetic to the last degree, and
yet Graham rejoiced with exceeding joy. With every conscious glance and
inquiring look the dawn of hope brightened. He was no longer left alone
in the awful solitude of living death. The beautiful form was no longer
like a deserted home. It now had a tenant, even though it seemed but
the mind of a little child. The rays of intelligence sent out were
feeble indeed, but how much better than the blank darkness that had
preceded! Something like happiness began to soften and brighten the
husband's face as he took his child-wife here and there. He made the
long galleries of the Louvre and of Italy her picture-books, and while
recognizing that she was pleased with little more than color, form, and
action--that the sublime, equally with the vicious and superstitious
meanings of the great masters, were hidden--he was nevertheless cheered
and made more hopeful by the fact that she _was_ pleased and
observant--that she began to single out favorites; and before these he
would let her stand as long as she chose, and return to them when so
inclined.

She had lost the power of reading a line. She did not know even her
letters; and these he began to teach her with unflagging zeal and
patience. How the mysterious problem would end he could not tell. It
might be that by kindling a little light the whole past would become
illumined; it might be that he would have to educate her over again;
but be the future what it would, the steadfast principle of devotion to
her became more fixed, and to care for her the supreme law of his being.

From the time of his first message to them he had rarely lost an
opportunity to send a letter to the anxious ones at home, and their
replies abounded in solicitous, grateful words. Dr. Markham often
called, and rubbed his hands with increasing self-gratulation over the
success of his bold measure, especially as encomiums on his sagacity
had been passed by the great Dr. Armand.

Nearly a year had passed, and Graham and his wife, after their
saunterings over the Continent, were spending the summer in the
Scottish Highlands. They sailed on the lochs, fished from their banks,
and climbed the mountain passes on little shaggy ponies that were
Scotch in their stubbornness and unflinching endurance. Grace had
become even companionable in her growing intelligence, and in the place
of her silent, inquiring glances there were sometimes eager, childlike
questionings.

Of late, however, Graham noted the beginnings of another change. With
growing frequency she passed her hand over her brow, that was
contracted in perplexity. Sometimes she would look at him curiously, at
Jinny, and at the unfamiliar scenes of her environment, then shake her
head as if she could not comprehend it all. Speedily, however, she
would return with the zest of a quiet little girl to the pleasures and
tasks that he unweariedly provided. But Graham grew haggard and
sleepless in his vigilance, for he believed that the time of her
awakening was near.

One day, while sailing on a loch, they were overtaken by a heavy storm
and compelled to run before it, and thus to land at no little distance
from their inn. Grace showed much alarm at the dashing waves and
howling tempest. Nor was her fright at the storm wholly that of an
unreasoning child. Its fury seemed to arouse and shock her, and while
she clung to Graham's hand, she persisted in sitting upright and
looking about, as if trying to comprehend it all. After landing they
had a long, fatiguing ride in the darkness, and she was unusually
silent. On reaching her room she glanced around as if all was
unfamiliar and incomprehensible. Graham had a presentiment that the
hour was near, and he left her wholly to the care of her old 
nurse, but almost immediately, from excessive weariness, she sank into
a deep slumber.

Her lethargy lasted so late in the following day that he was alarmed,
fearing lest her old symptoms were returning. With anxious, hollow
eyes, he watched and waited, and at last she awoke and looked at him
with an expression that he had longed for through many weary months,
and yet now it terrified him.

"Alford--Mr. Graham," she began, in deep surprise.

"Hush, dear Grace. You have been very ill."

"Yes, but where am I? What has happened?"

"Very much; but you are better now. Here is Jinny, your old nurse, who
took care of you as a child."

The old <DW52> woman came in, and, as instructed, said: "Yes, honey,
I'se tooken care ob you since you was a baby, and I'se nebber lef' you."

"Everything looks very strange. Why, Alford, I had a long, sad talk
with you but a short time since in the library, and you were so kind
and unselfish!"

"Yes, Grace; we spoke frankly to each other, but you have been very ill
since then, worse than ever before. At your father's request and Dr.
Markham's urgent counsel, I brought you to Europe. It was said to be
your only chance."

"But where is Mrs. Mayburn?"

"She is at home taking care of your father. Her old sickness threatened
to return. She could take care of you no longer, and you needed
constant care."

A slow, deep flush overspread her face and even her neck as she
faltered: "And--and--has no one else been with me but Jinny?"

"No one else except myself. Grace, dear Grace, I am your husband. I was
married to you in the presence of your father, Mrs. Mayburn, and your
family physician."

"Now long since?" she asked, in a constrained voice.

"About a year ago."

"Have we been abroad ever since?"

"Yes, and you have been steadily improving. You were intrusted to my
care, and there came a time when I must either be faithful to that
trust, or place you in the hands of strangers. You were helpless, dear
Grace."

"Evidently," in the same low, constrained tone. "Could--could you not
have fulfilled your trust in some other way?"

"Your father, your second mother, and your physician thought not."

"Still--" she began, hesitated, and again came that deep, deep flush.

"For your sake, Grace, I incurred the risk of this awful moment."

She turned, and saw an expression which brought tears to her eyes. "I
cannot misjudge you," she said slowly; "the past forbids that. But I
cannot understand it, I cannot understand it at all."

"Perhaps you never will, dear Grace; I took that risk also to save your
life and mind."

"My mind?"

"Yes, your mind. If, in recalling the past, the memory of which has
returned, you can preserve sufficient confidence in me to wait till all
is clear and explained, I shall be profoundly grateful. I foresaw the
possibility of this hour; I foresaw it as the chief danger and trial of
my life; and I took the risk of its consequences for your sake because
assured by the highest authority that it was your one chance for
escape, not from death, but from a fate worse than death, which also
would have removed you from my care--indeed the care of all who loved
you. I have prepared myself for this emergency as well as I could. Here
are letters from your father, Mrs. Mayburn, Dr. Markham, and Dr.
Armand, one of the most eminent authorities in the world on brain
diseases. But after all I must be judged by your woman's heart, and so
stand or fall. I now have but one request, or entreaty rather, to
make--that you do not let all the efforts we have made in your behalf
be in vain. Can you not calmly and gradually receive the whole truth?
There must be no more relapses, or they will end in black ruin to us
all. Now that you can think for yourself, your slightest wish shall be
my law. Jinny, remain with your mistress."

He lifted her passive hand to his lips, passed into their little
parlor, and closed the door. Grace turned to her nurse, and in low,
almost passionate utterance, said: "Now tell me all."

"Lor' bress you, Missy Grace, it 'ud take a right smart time to tell
yer all. When de big doctors an' all de folks say you'se got to hab
strangers take care ob you or go ter a'sylum, and arter all you'd git
wuss, Mas'r Graham he guv in, and said he'd take care ob you, and dey
all bress 'im and tank 'im, and couldn't say 'nuff. Den he took you
'cross de big ocean--golly I how big it be--jes' as de doctor said; an'
nebber hab I seed sich lub, sich 'votion in a moder as Mas'r Graham hab
had fer you. He had to take care ob you like a little chile, an' he was
teachin' you how to read like a little chile when, all on a suddint,
you wakes up an' knows ebryting you'se forgotten. But de part you
doesn't know is de part mos' wuth knowin'. No woman eber had sich a
husban' as Mas'r Graham, an' no chile sich a moder. 'Clar' ter grashus
ef I b'lieve he's ebber slep' a wink wid his watchin' an' a-tinkin'
what he could do fer you."

"But, Jinny, I'm not ill; I never felt stronger in my life."

"Laws, Missy Grace, dar's been a mirackle. You'se strong 'nuff 'cept
your mine's been off wisitin' somewhar. Golly! you jes' git up an' let
me dress you, an' I'll show yer de han'somest woman in de worl'. All
yer's got ter do now is jes' be sensible like, an' yer won't have yer
match."

Grace cast an apprehensive look toward the door of the parlor in which
was her husband, and then said hurriedly: "Yes, dress me quick. Oh,
heavens! how much I have to think about, to realize!"

"Now, honey dear, you jes' keep cool. Don't go an' fly right off de
handle agin, or Mas'r Graham'll blow his brains out. Good Lor', how dat
man do look sometimes! An' yet often, when he was pintin' out yer
letters ter yer, or showin' yer pearty tings, like as you was a chile,
he look so happy and gentle like, dat I say he jes' like a moder."

Grace was touched, and yet deep, deep in her soul she felt that a wrong
had been done her, no matter what had been the motives. Jinny had no
such fine perceptions, but with a feminine tact which runs down through
the lowliest natures, she chose one of Grace's quietest, yet most
becoming costumes, and would not let her go to the glass till arrayed
to the dusky woman's intense satisfaction. Then she led her mistress to
the mirror and said: "Look dar, honey! All de picters you'se eber seen
can't beat dat!" and Grace gazed long and fixedly at the lovely
creature that gazed back with troubled and bewildered eyes.

"Was--was I like that when--when he married me?"

"Yes, an' no, honey. You only look like a picter of a woman den--a
berry pearty picter, but nothin' but a picter arter all. Mas'r Graham
hab brought yer ter life."

With another lingering, wondering glance at herself, she turned away
and said: "Leave me, now, Jinny; I wish to be alone."

The woman hesitated, and was about to speak, but Grace waved her away
imperiously, and sat down to the letters Graham had given her. She read
and re-read them. They confirmed his words. She was a wife: her husband
awaited her but a few feet away--her _husband_, and she had never
dreamed of marrying again. The past now stood out luminous to her, and
Warren Hilland was its centre. But another husband awaited her--one
whom she had never consciously promised "to love, honor, and obey." As
a friend she could worship him, obey him, die for him; but as her
_husband_--how could she sustain that mysterious bond which merges one
life in another? She was drawn toward him by every impulse of
gratitude. She saw that, whether misled or not, he had been governed by
the best of motives--nay, more, by the spirit of self-sacrifice in its
extreme manifestation--that he had been made to believe that it was her
only chance for health and life. Still, in her deepest consciousness he
was but Alford Graham, the friend most loved and trusted, whom she had
known in her far distant home, yet not her husband. How could she go to
him, what could she say to him, in their new relations that seemed so
unreal?

She trembled to leave him longer in the agony of suspense; but her
limbs refused to support her, and her woman's heart shrank with a
strange and hitherto unknown fear.

There was a timid knock at the door.

"Come in, Alford," she said, tremblingly.

He stood before her haggard, pale, and expectant.

"Alford," she said, sadly, "why did you not let me die?"

"I could not," he replied, desperately. "As I told you, there is a
limit to every man's strength. I see it all in your face and
manner--what I feared, what I warned Dr. Markham against. Listen to me.
I shall take you home at once. You are well. You will not require my
further care, and you need never see my face again."

"And you, Alford?" she faltered.

"Do not ask about me. Beyond the hour when I place you in your father's
arms I know nothing. I have reached my limit. I have made the last
sacrifice of which I am capable. If you go back as you are now, you are
saved from a fate which it seemed to me you would most shrink from
could you know it--the coarse, unfeeling touch and care of strangers
who could have treated you in your helplessness as they chose. You
might have regained your reason years hence, only to find that those
who loved you were broken-hearted, lost, gone. They are now well and
waiting for you. Here are their letters, written from week to week and
breathing hope and cheer. Here is the last one from your father,
written in immediate response to mine. In it he says, 'My hand
trembles, but it is more from joy than age.' You were gaining steadily,
although only as a child's intelligence develops. He writes, 'I shall
have my little Grace once more, and see her mind grow up into her
beautiful form.'"

She bent her head low to hide the tears that were falling fast as she
faltered: "Was it wholly self-sacrifice when you married me?"

"Yes--in the fear of this hour, the bitterest of my life--yes. It has
followed me like a spectre through every waking and sleeping hour.
Please make the wide distinction. My care for you, the giving up of my
life for you, is nothing. That I should have done in any case, as far
as I could. But with my knowledge of your nature and your past, I could
not seem to take advantage of your helplessness without an unspeakable
dread. When shown by the best human skill that I could thus save you,
or at least ensure that you would ever have gentle, sympathetic care, I
resolved to risk the last extremity of evil to myself for your sake.
Now you have the whole truth."

She rose and came swiftly to him--for he had scarcely entered the room
in his wish to show her respect--and putting her arm around his neck,
while she laid her head upon his breast, said gently and firmly: "The
sacrifice shall not be all on your side. I have never consciously
promised to be your wife, but now, as far as my poor broken spirit will
permit, I do promise it. But be patient with me, Alford. Do not expect
what I have not the power to give. I can only promise that all there is
left of poor Grace Hilland's heart--if aught--shall be yours."

Then for the first time in his life the strong man gave way. He
disengaged her so hastily as to seem almost rough, and fell forward on
the couch unconscious. The long strain of years had culminated in the
hour he so dreaded, and in the sudden revulsion caused by her words
nature gave way.

Almost frantic with terror, Grace summoned her servant, and help from
the people of the inn. Fortunately an excellent English physician was
stopping at the same house, and he was speedily at work. Graham
recovered, only to pass into muttering delirium, and the burden of his
one sad refrain was: "If she should never forgive me!"

"Great heavens, madam! what _has_ he done?" asked the matter-of-fact
Englishman.

What a keen probe that question was to the wife as she sat watching
through the long, weary night! In an agony of self-reproach she
recalled all that he had done for her and hers in all the years, and
now in her turn she entreated _him_ to live; but he was as unconscious
as she had been in the blank past. No wooing, no pleading, could have
been so potent as his unconscious form, his strength broken at last in
her service.

"O God!" she cried--forgetting in her anguish that she had no
God--"have I been more cruel than all the war? Have I given him the
wound that shall prove fatal--him who saved Warren's life, my own, my
reason, and everything that a woman holds dear?"

Graham's powerful and unvitiated nature soon rallied, however, and
under the skilful treatment the fever within a few days gave place to
the first deep happiness he had ever known. Grace was tender,
considerate, her own former self, and with something sweeter to him
than self-sacrifice in her eyes; and he gave himself up to an
unspeakable content.

It was she who wrote the home letters that week, and a wondrous tale
they told to the two old people, who subsisted on foreign news even
more than on Aunt Sheba's delicate cookery.

Graham was soon out again, but he looked older and more broken than his
wife, who seemingly had passed by age into a bloom that could not fade.
She decided that for his sake they would pass the winter in Italy, and
that he should show her again as a woman what he had tried to interest
her in as a child. Her happiness, although often deeply shadowed, grew
in its quiet depths. Graham had too much tact to be an ardent lover. He
was rather her stanch friend, her genial but most considerate
companion. His powerful human love at last kindled a quiet flame on the
hearth of her own heart that had so long been cold, and her life was
warmed and revived by it. He also proved in picture galleries and
cathedrals that he had seen much when he was abroad beyond wild
mountain regions and wilder people, and her mind, seemingly
strengthened by its long sleep, followed his vigorous criticism with
daily increasing zest.

The soft, sun-lighted air of Italy appeared to have a healing balm for
both, and even to poor Grace there came a serenity which she had not
known since the "cloud in the South" first cast its shadow over her
distant hearth.

To Graham at last there had come a respite from pain and fear, a deep
content. His inner life had been too impoverished, and his nature too
chastened by stern and bitter experience, for him to crave gayety and
exuberant sentiment in his wife. Her quiet face, in which now was the
serenity of rest, and not the tranquillity of death in life, grew daily
more lovely to him; and he was not without his human pride as he saw
the beauty-loving Italians look wonderingly at her. She in turn was
pleased to observe how he impressed cultivated people with his quiet
power, with a presence that such varied experiences had combined to
create. Among fine minds, men and women are more truly felt than seen.
We meet people of the plainest appearance and most unostentatious
manner, and yet without effort they compel us to recognize their
superiority, while those who seek to impress others with their
importance are known at once to be weak and insignificant.

It was also a source of deep gratification to Grace that now, since her
husband had obtained rest of mind, he turned naturally to healthful
business interests. Her own affairs, of which he had charge in
connection with Hilland's lawyer, were looked after and explained fully
to her; and his solicitude for Henry Anderson's success led to an
exchange of letters with increasing frequency. Much business relating
to the Virginia plantation was transacted on the shores of the
Mediterranean.

Grace sought to quiet her compunctions at leaving her father and Mrs.
Mayburn so long by frequent letters written in her dear old style, by
cases of Italian wines, delicate and rare; exquisite fabrics of the
loom, and articles of _vertu_; and between the letters and the gifts
the old people held high carnival after their quaint fashion all that
winter.

The soft Italian days lapsed one after another, like bright smiles on
the face of nature; but at last there came one on which Grace leaned
her head upon her husband's shoulder and whispered, "Alford, take me
home, please."

Had he cared for her before, when she was as helpless as a little
child? Jinny, in recalling that journey and in dilating on the wonders
of her experience abroad, by which she invariably struck awe into the
souls of Aunt Sheba and Iss, would roll up her eyes, and turn outward
the palms of her hands, as she exclaimed, "Good Lor', you <DW65>s, how
I make you 'prehen' Mas'r Graham's goin's on from de night he sez, sez
he ter me, 'Pack up, Jinny; we'se a-gwine straight home.' Iss 'clares
dat Mas'r Graham's a ter'ble soger wid his long, straight sword and
pistol, an' dat he's laid out more 'Federates dan he can shake a stick
at. Well, you'd nebber b'lieve he'd a done wuss dan say, 'How d'ye' to
a 'Federate ef yer'd seen how he 'volved roun' Missy Grace. He wouldn't
let de sun shine on her, nor de win' blow near her, and eberybody had
ter git right up an' git ef she eben wanted ter sneeze. On de ship he
had eberybody, from de cap'n to de cabin-boys, a waitin' on her. Dey
all said we hab a mighty quiet v'yage, but Lor' bress yer! it was all
'long ob Mas'r Graham. He wouldn't let no wabes run ter pitch his
darlin' roun'. Missy Grace, she used ter sit an' larf an' larf at
'im--bress her dear heart, how much good it do me to hear de honey larf
like her ole dear self! Her moder used ter be mighty keerful on her,
but 'twan't nothin' 'pared ter Mas'r Graham's goin's on."

Jinny had never heard of Baron Munchausen, but her accounts of foreign
experiences and scenes were much after the type of that famous
_raconteur_; and by each repetition her stories seemed to make a
portentous growth. There was, however, a residuum of truth in all her
marvels. The event which she so vaguely foreshadowed by ever-increasing
clouds of words took place. In June, when the nests around the cottage
were full of little birds, there was also, in a downy, nest-like
cradle, a miniature of sweet Grace Graham; and Jinny thenceforth was
the oracle of the kitchen.



CHAPTER XL

RITA ANDERSON

The belief of children that babies are brought from heaven seems often
verified by the experiences that follow their advent. And truly the
baby at the St. John cottage was a heavenly gift, even to the crotchety
old major, whom it kept awake at night by its unseasonable complaints
of the evils which it encountered in spite of Grandma Mayburn, faithful
old Aunt Sheba, who pleaded to be its nurse, and the gentle mother, who
bent over it with a tenderness new and strange even to her heart.

She could laugh now, and laugh she would, when Graham, with a
trepidation never felt in battle, took the tiny morsel of humanity, and
paraded up and down the library. Lying back on the sofa in one of her
dainty wrappers, she would cry, "Look at him, papa; look at that grim
cavalryman, and think of his leading a charge!"

"Well, Gracie, dear," the old major would reply, chuckling at his
well-worn joke, "the colonel was _only_ a cavalryman, you know. He's
not up in infantry tactics."

One morning Grandma Mayburn opened a high conclave in regard to the
baby's name, and sought to settle the question in advance by saying,
"Of course it should be Grace."

"Indeed, madam," differed the major, gallantly, "I think it should be
named after its grandmother."

Grace lifted her eyes inquiringly to her husband, who stood regarding
what to him was the Madonna and child.

"I have already named her," he said, quietly.

"You, you!" cried his aunt, brusquely. "I'd have you know that this is
an affair for grave and general deliberation."

"Alford shall have his way," said the mother, with quiet emphasis,
looking down at the child, while pride and tenderness blended sweetly
in her face.

"Her name is Hilda, in memory of the noblest man and dearest friend I
have ever known."

Instantly she raised her eyes, brimming with tears, to his, and
faltered, "Thank you, Alford"; and she clasped the child almost
convulsively to her breast, proving that there was one love which no
other could obliterate.

"That's right, dear Grace. Link her name with the memory of Warren. She
will thus make you happier, and it's my wish."

The conclave ended at once. The old major took off his spectacles to
wipe his eyes, and Mrs. Mayburn stole away.

From that hour little Hilda pushed sorrow from Grace's heart with her
baby hands, as nothing had ever done before, and the memory of the lost
husband ceased to be a shadow in the background. The innocent young
life was associated with his, and loved the more intensely.

Graham had spoken from the impulse of a generous nature, too large to
feel the miserable jealousies that infest some minds; but he had spoken
more wisely than he knew. Thereafter there was a tenderness in Grace's
manner toward him which he had never recognized before. He tasted a
happiness of which he had never dreamed, alloyed only by the thought
that his treasures were mortal and frail. But as the little one
thrived, and his wife bloomed into the most exquisite beauty seen in
this world, that of young and happy motherhood, he gave himself up to
his deep content, believing that fate at last was appeased. The major
grew even hilarious, and had his morning and evening parades, as he
called them, when the baby, in its laces and soft draperies, was
brought for his inspection. Mrs. Mayburn, with all the accumulated
maternal yearnings of her heart satisfied, would preside at the
ceremony. Grace, happy and proud, would nod and smile over her shoulder
at her husband, who made a poor pretence of reading his paper, while
the old veteran deliberately adjusted his spectacles and made comments
that in their solemn drollery and military jargon were irresistible to
the household that could now laugh so easily. The young life that had
come had brought a new life to them all, and the dark shadows of the
past shrank further and further into the background.

But they were there--all the sad mysteries of evil that had crushed the
mother's heart. Once they seemed to rush forward and close around her.
Little Hilda was ill and Grace in terror. But Dr. Markham speedily
satisfied her that it was a trivial matter, and proved it to be so by
his remedies. The impression of danger remained, however, and she clung
to her little idol more closely than ever; and this was true of all.

Time sped tranquilly on. Hilda grew in endearing ways, and began to
have knowing looks and smiles for each. Her preference for her
grandfather with his great frosty eyebrows pleased the old gentleman
immensely. It was both droll and touching to observe how one often so
irascible would patiently let her take off his spectacles, toy with and
often pull his gray locks, and rumple his old-fashioned ruffles, which
he persisted in wearing on state occasions. It was also silently noted
that the veteran never even verged toward profanity in the presence of
the child.

Each new token of intelligence was hailed with a delight of which
natures coarse or blunted never know. The Wise Men of old worshipped
the Babe in the manger, and sadly defective or perverted in their
organizations are those who do not see something divine in a little
innocent child.

Henry and Rita Anderson, at the urgent solicitation of Graham and his
wife, came on in the autumn to make a visit, and, by a very strange
coincidence, Graham's favorite captain, a manly, prosperous fellow,
happened to be visiting him at the time. By a still more remarkable
conjunction of events, he at once shared in his former colonel's
admiration of the dark-eyed Southern girl. She was very shy, distant,
and observant at first, for this fortuitous captain was a Northerner.
But the atmosphere of the two cottages was not in the least conducive
to coolness and reserve. The wood fires that crackled on the hearth, or
something else, thawed perceptibly the spirited girl. Moreover, there
were walks, drives, horseback excursions, daily; and Iss shone forth in
a glory of which he had never dreamed as a plantation hand. There were
light steps passing to and fro, light laughter, cheery, hearty
voices--in which the baby's crowing and cooing were heard as a low,
sweet chord--music and whist to the major's infinite consent. The
shadows shrank further into the background than ever before. No one
thought of or heeded them now; but they were there, cowering and
waiting.

Only Aunt Sheba was ill at ease. Crooning her quaint lullabies to the
baby, she would often lift her eyes to heaven and sigh, "De good Lord
hab marcy on dem! Dey's all a drinkin' at de little shaller pools dat
may dry up any minit. It's all ob de earth; it's all ob tings, nothin'
but tings which de eyes can see and de han's can touch. De good Lord
lift dar eyes from de earth widout takin' dat mos' dear!"

But no one thought of old Aunt Sheba except as a faithful creature born
to serve them in her humble way.

The Northern captain soon proved that he had not a little Southern dash
and ardor, and he had already discovered that his accidental visit to
Graham was quite providential, as he had been taught to regard events
that promised favorably. He very significantly asked Colonel Anderson
to take a gallop with him one morning, but they had not galloped far
before he halted and plumply asked the brother's permission, as the
present representative of her father, to pay his addresses to Rita. Now
Captain Windom had made a good impression on the colonel, which Graham,
in a very casual way, had been at pains to strengthen; and he came back
radiant over one point gained. But he was more afraid of that little
Virginian girl than he had ever been of all her Southern compatriots.
He felt that he must forego his cavalry tactics and open a regular
siege; but she, with one flash of her mirthful eyes, saw through it
all, laughed over it with Grace, whom from worshipping as a saint she
now loved as a sister. Amid the pauses in their mutual worship of the
baby, they talked the captain over in a way that would have made his
ears tingle could he have heard them; but Grace, underneath all her
good-natured criticism, seconded her husband's efforts with a mature
woman's tact. Rita should be made happy in spite of all her little
perversities and Southern prejudices, and yet the hands that guided and
helped her should not be seen.

The captain soon abandoned his siege tactics, in which he was ill at
ease, and resumed his old habit of impetuous advances in which Graham
had trained him. Time was growing short. His visit and hers would soon
be over. He became so downright and desperately in earnest that the
little girl began to be frightened. It was no laughing matter now, and
Grace looked grave over the affair. Then Rita began to be very sorry
for him, and at last, through Graham's unwonted awkwardness and
inattention to his guests, the captain and Rita were permitted to take
a different road from the others on an equestrian party. When they
appeared the captain looked as if he were returning from a successful
charge, and Rita was as shy and blushing as one of the wild roses of
her native hills. She fled to Grace's room, as if it were the only
refuge left in the world, and her first breathless words were: "I
haven't promised anything--that is, nothing definite. I said he might
come and see me in Virginia and talk to papa about it, and I'd think it
over, and--and--Well, he was so impetuous and earnest! Good heavens! I
thought the Northern people were cold, but that captain fairly took
away my breath. You never heard a man talk so."

Grace had put down the baby, and now stood with her arm around her
friend, smiling the sweetest encouragement.

"I'll explain it all to you, Miss Rita," began Graham's deep voice, as
he advanced from a recess.

"Oh, the powers! are you here?" and she started back and looked at him
with dismay.

"Yes," said he, "and I merely wished to explain that my friend Windom
was in the cavalry, and from much fighting with your brave, impetuous
hard-riders we gradually fell into their habits."

"I half believe that you are laughing at me--that you are in league
with him, and have been all along."

"Yes, Rita, noble little woman, truest friend at the time of my bitter
need, I am in league with any man worthy of you--that is, as far as a
man can be who seeks to make you happy;" and he took her hand and held
it warmly.

"Here come my silly tears again," and she dashed them to right and
left. Then, looking up at him shyly, she faltered, "I must admit that
I'm a little bit happy."

"I vowed you should be, all through that dark ride on which you led me
away from cruel enemies; and every flower you have placed on the grave
of that noble man that Grace and I both loved has added strength to my
vow."

"Oh, Rita, Rita, darling!" cried Grace, clasping her in close embrace;
"do you think we ever forget it?"

"Can you think, Rita, that in memory of that never-to-be-forgotten day
I would give Captain Windom the opportunities he has enjoyed if I did
not think he would make you happy? One cannot live and fight side by
side with a man for years and not know his mettle. He was lion-like in
battle, but he will ever be gentleness itself toward you. Best of all,
he will appreciate you, and I should feel like choking any fellow who
didn't."

"But indeed, indeed, I haven't promised anything; I only said--"

"No matter what you said, my dear, so long as the captain knows. We are
well assured that your every word and thought and act were true and
maidenly. Let Windom visit you and become acquainted with your father.
The more you all see of him the more you will respect him."

"You are wonderfully reassuring," said the young girl, "and I learned
to trust you long ago. Indeed, after your course toward Henry, I
believe I'd marry any one you told me to. But to tell the truth, I have
felt, for the last few hours, as if caught up by a whirlwind and landed
I don't know where. No one ever need talk to me any more about
cold-blooded Northerners. Well, I must land at the dinner-table before
long, and so must go and dress. It's proper to eat under the
circumstances, isn't it?"

"I expect to," said Graham, laughing, "and I'm more in love than you
are."

"Little wonder!" with a glance of ardent admiration toward Grace, and
she whisked out. In a moment she returned and said, "Now, Colonel, I
must be honest, especially as I think of your vow in the dark woods. I
am very, _very_ happy;" and then in a meteoric brilliancy of smiles,
tears, and excitement, she vanished.

On the day following Captain Windom marched triumphantly away, and his
absence proved to Rita that the question was settled, no matter what
she had said when having little breath left to say anything.

She and her brother followed speedily, and Graham accompanied them, to
superintend in person the setting up of a beautiful marble column which
he and Grace had designed for Hilland's grave.

It was a time of sad, yet chastened, memories to both. In their
consciousness Hilland had ceased to exist. He was but a memory,
cherished indeed with an indescribable honor and love--still only a
memory. There was an immense difference, however, in the thoughts of
each as they reverted to his distant grave. Graham felt that he had
there _closed_ a chapter of his life--a chapter that he would ever
recall with the deep melancholy that often broods in the hearts of the
happiest of men whose natures are large enough to be truly impressed by
life's vicissitudes. Grace knew that her girlhood, her former self, was
buried in that grave, and with her early lover had vanished forever.
Graham had, in a sense, raised her from the dead. His boundless love
and self-sacrifice, his indomitable will, had created for her new life,
different from the old, yet full of tranquil joys, new hopes and
interests. He had not rent the new from the old, but had bridged with
generous acts the existing chasm. He was doing all within his power,
not jealously to withdraw her thoughts from that terrible past, but to
veil its more cruel and repulsive features with flowers, laurel
wreaths, and sculptured marble; and in her heart, which had been dead,
but into which his love had breathed a new life, she daily blessed him
with a deeper affection.

He soon returned to her from Virginia, and by his vivid descriptions
made real to her the scenes he had visited. He told her how Rita and
her brother had changed the plot in which slept the National and the
Confederate officer into a little garden of blossoming greenery; how he
had arranged with Colonel Anderson to place a fitting monument over the
young Confederate officer, whose friends had been impoverished by the
war; and he kissed away the tears, no longer bitter and despairing,
evoked by the memories his words recalled. Then, in lighter vein, he
described the sudden advent of the impetuous captain; the consternation
of the little housekeeper, who was not expecting him so soon; her
efforts to improvise a feast for the man who would blissfully swallow
half-baked "pones" if served by her; her shy presentation of her lover
to the venerable clergyman, which he and Henry had witnessed on the
veranda through the half-closed blinds, and the fond old man's immense
surprise that his little Rita should have a lover at all.

"My dear sir," he said, "this is all very premature. You must wait for
the child to grow up before imbuing her mind with thoughts beyond her
years."

"'My dear Dr. Anderson,' had pleaded the adroit Windom, 'I will wait
indefinitely, and submit to any conditions that you and Miss Rita
impose. If already she has impressed me so deeply, time can only
increase my respect, admiration, and affection, if that were possible.
Before making a single effort to win your daughter's regard, I asked
permission of her brother, since you were so far away. I have not
sought to bind her, but have only revealed the deep feeling which she
has inspired, and I now come to ask your sanction also to my addresses.'

"'Your conduct,' replied the old gentleman, unbending urbanely toward
the young man, 'is both honorable and considerate. Of course you know
that my child's happiness is my chief solicitude. If, after several
years, when Rita's mind has grown more mature, her judgment confirms--'

"Here Rita made a little _moue_ which only her red lips could form, and
Henry and I took refuge in a silent and precipitate retreat, lest our
irreverent mirth should offend the blind old father, to whom Rita is
his little Rita still. You know well how many years, months rather,
Windom will wait.

"Well, I left the little girl happier than the day was long, for I
believe her eyes sparkle all through the night under their long lashes.
As for Windom, he is in the seventh heaven. 'My latest campaign in
Virginia,' he whispered to me as I was about to ride away; 'good
prospects of the best capture yet won from the Confederacy.'"

And so he made the place familiar to her, with its high lights and deep
shadows, and its characters real, even down to old Jehu and his son
Huey.



CHAPTER XLI

A LITTLE CHILD SHALL LEAD THEM

Autumn merged imperceptibly into winter, and the days sped tranquilly
on. With the exception of brief absences on business, Graham was mostly
at home, for there was no place like his own hearth. His heart, so long
denied happiness, was content only at the side of his wife and child.
The shadows of the past crouched further away than ever, but even their
own health and prosperity, their happiness, and the reflected happiness
of others could not banish them wholly. The lights which burned so
brightly around them, like the fire on their hearth, had been kindled
and were fed by human hands only, and were ever liable to die out. The
fuel that kept them burning was the best that earth afforded, but the
supply had its inherent limitations. Each new tranquil day increased
the habitual sense of security. Graham was busy with plans of a large
agricultural enterprise in Virginia. The more he saw of Henry Anderson
the more he appreciated his sterling integrity and fine business
capabilities, and from being an agent he had become a partner. Grace's
writing-desk, at which Graham had cast a wistful glance the first time
he had seen it, was often covered with maps of the Virginia plantation,
which he proposed to develop into its best capabilities. Grace had a
cradle by the library fire as well as in her room. Beside this the
adopted grandmother knitted placidly, and the major rustled his paper
softly lest he should waken the little sleeper. Grace, who persisted in
making all of her little one's dainty plumage herself, would lift her
eyes from time to time, full of genuine interest in his projects and in
his plans for a dwelling on the plantation, which should be built
according to her taste and constructed for her convenience.

The shadows had never been further away. Even old Aunt Sheba was lulled
into security. Into her bereaved heart, as into the hearts of all the
others, the baby crept; and she grew so bewitching with her winsome
ways, so absorbing in her many little wants and her need of watching,
as with the dawning spirit of curiosity she sought to explore for
herself what was beyond the cradle and the door, that Aunt Sheba, with
the doting mother, thought of Hilda during all waking hours and dreamed
of her in sleep.

At last the inconstant New England spring passed away, and June came
with its ever-new heritage of beauty. The baby's birthday was to be the
grand fete of the year, and the little creature seemed to enter into
the spirit of the occasion. She could now call her parents and
grandparents by name, and talk to them in her pretty though senseless
jargon, which was to them more precious than the wisdom of Solomon.

It was a day of roses and rose-colors. Roses banked the mantelpieces,
wreathed the cradle, crowned the table at which Hilda sat in state in
her high chair, a fairy form in gossamer laces, with dark eyes--Grace's
eyes--that danced with the unrestrained delight of a child.

"She looks just like my little Grace of long, long years ago," said the
major, with wistful eyes; "and yet, Colonel, it seems but yesterday
that your wife was the image of that laughing little witch yonder."

"Well, I can believe," admitted Grandma Mayburn, "that Grace was as
pretty--a tremendous compliment to you, Grace--but there never was and
never will be another baby as pretty and cunning as our Hilda."

The good old lady never spoke of the child as Grace's baby. It was
always "ours." In Graham, Grace, and especially Hilda, she had her
children about her, and the mother-need in her heart was satisfied.

"Yes, Hilda darling," said the colonel, with fond eyes, "you have begun
well. You could not please me more than by looking like your mother;
the next thing is to grow like her."

"Poor blind papa, with the perpetual glamour on his eyes! He will never
see his old white-haired wife as she is."

He looked at her almost perfect features with the bloom of health upon
them, into her dark eyes with their depths of motherly pride and joy,
at her snowy neck and ivory arms bare to the summer heat, and longest
at the wavy silver of her hair, that crowned her beauty with an almost
supernatural charm.

"Don't I see you as you are, Grace?" he said. "Well, I am often
spellbound by what I do see. If Hilda becomes like you, excepting your
sorrows, my dearest wish in her behalf will be fulfilled."

Old Aunt Sheba, standing behind the baby's chair, felt a chill at heart
as she thought: "Dey'se all a-worshippin' de chile and each oder. I
sees it so plain dat I'se all ob a-tremble."

Surely the dark shadows of the past have no place near that birthday
feast, but they are coming nearer, closing in, remorseless, relentless
as ever, and among them are the gloomy rivals against whom Graham
struggled so long. He thought he had vanquished them, but they are
stealing upon him again like vindictive, unforgiving savages.

There was a jar of thunder upon the still air, but it was not heeded.
The room began to darken, but they thought only of a shower that would
banish the sultriness of the day. Darker shadows than those of
thunder-clouds were falling upon them, had they known it.

The wine was brought, and the health of the baby drank. Then Graham,
ordering all glasses to be filled, said reverently: "To the memory of
Warren Hilland! May the child who is named for him ever remind us of
his noble life and heroic death."

They drank in silence, then put down the glasses and sat for moments
with bowed heads, Grace's tears falling softly. Without, nature seemed
equally hushed. Not a breath stirred the sultry air, until at last a
heavier and nearer jar of thunder vibrated in the distance.

The unseen shadows are closing around the little Hilda, whose eyelids
are heavy with satiety. Aunt Sheba is about to take her from her chair,
when a swift gust, cold and spray-laden, rushes through the house,
crushing to the doors and whirling all light articles into a carnival
of disorder.

The little gossamer-clad girl shivered, and, while others hastily
closed windows, Grace ran for a shawl in which to wrap her darling.

The shower passed, bringing welcome coolness. Hilda slept quietly
through its turmoil and swishing torrents--slept on into the twilight,
until Aunt Sheba seemed a shadow herself. But there were darker shadows
brooding over her.

Suddenly, in her sleep, the child gave an ominous barking cough.

"Oh, de good Lor'!" cried Aunt Sheba, springing to her feet. Then with
a swiftness in which there was no sign of age, she went to the landing
and called, "Mas'r Graham."

Grace was in the room before him. "What is it?" she asked breathlessly.

"Well, Missy Grace, don't be 'larmed, but I tinks Mas'r Graham 'ud
better sen' for de doctor, jes' for caution like."

Again came that peculiar cough, terror-inspiring to all mothers.

"Alford, Alford, lose not a moment!" she cried. "It's the croup."

The soldier acted as if his camp were attacked at midnight. There were
swift feet, the trampling of a horse; and soon the skill of science,
the experience of age, and motherly tenderness confronted the black
shadows, but they remained immovable.

The child gasped and struggled for life. Grace, half frantic, followed
the doctor's directions with trembling hands, seeking to do everything
for her idol herself as far as possible. Mrs. Mayburn, gray, grim, with
face of ashen hue, hovered near and assisted. Aunt Sheba, praying often
audibly, proved by her deft hands that the experience of her long-past
motherhood was of service now. The servants gathered at the door, eager
and impatient to do something for "de bressed chile." The poor old
major thumped restlessly back and forth on his crutches in the hall
below, half swearing, half praying. Dr. Markham, pale with anxiety, but
cool and collected as a veteran general in battle, put forth his whole
skill to baffle the destroyer. Graham, standing in the background with
clenched hands, more excited, more desperate than he had ever been when
sitting on his horse waiting for the bugle to sound the charge, watched
his wife and child with eyes that burned in the intensity of his
feeling.

Time, of which no notice was taken, passed, although moments seemed
like hours. The child still struggled and gasped, but more and more
feebly. At last, in the dawn, the little Hilda lay still, looked up and
smiled. Was it at her mother's face, or something beyond?

"She is better," cried Grace, turning her imploring eyes to the
physician, who held the little hand.

Alas! it was growing cold in his. He turned quickly to Graham and
whispered: "Support your wife. The end is near."

He came mechanically and put his arm around her.

"Grace, dear Grace," he faltered, hoarsely, "can you not bear this
sorrow also for my sake?"

"Alford!" she panted with horror in her tones--"Alford! why, why, her
hand is growing cold!"

There was a long low sigh from the little one, and then she was still.

"Take your wife away," said Dr. Markham, in a low, authoritative tone.

Graham sought to obey in the same mechanical manner. She sprang from
him and stood aloof. There was a terrible light in her eyes, before
which he quailed.

"Take me away!" she cried, in a voice that was hoarse, strained, and
unnatural. "Never! Tell me the belief of your heart. Have I lost my
child forever? Is that sweet image of my Hilda nothing but clay? Is
there nothing further for this idol of my heart but horrible
corruption? If this is true, no more learned jargon to me about law and
force! If this is true, I am the creation of a fiend who, with all the
cruel ingenuity of a fiend, has so made me that he can inflict the
utmost degree of torture. If this is true, my motherhood is a lie, and
good is punished, not evil. If this is true, there is neither God nor
law, but only a devil. But let me have the truth: have I lost that
child forever?"

He was dumb, and an awful silence fell upon the chamber of death.

Graham's philosophy failed him at last. His own father-heart could not
accept of corruption as the final end of his child. Indeed, it revolted
at it with a resistless rebound as something horrible, monstrous, and,
as his wife had said, devilish. His old laborious reasoning was
scorched away as by lightning in that moment of intense consciousness
when _his_ soul told him that, if this were true, his nature also was a
lie and a cheat. He knew not what he believed, or what was true. He was
stunned and speechless.

Despair was turning his wife's face into stone, when old Aunt Sheba,
who had been crouching, sobbing and praying at the foot of the little
couch, rose with streaming eyes and stretched out her hands toward the
desperate mother.

"No, Missy Grace," she cried, in tones that rang through the house;
"no, no, no. Your chile am not lost to you; your chile am not dead. She
on'y sleeps. Did not de good Lord say: 'Suffer de little chillen ter
come unter Me'? An' Hilda, de dear little lamb, hab gone ter Him, an'
is in de Good Shepherd's arms. Your little chile am not lost to you,
she's safe at home, de dear bressed home ob heben, whar your moder is
Missy Grace. De Hebenly Father say, 'Little Hilda, you needn't walk de
long flinty, thorny path and suffer like you'se dear moder. You kin
come home now, and I'se 'll take keer ob ye till moder comes.' Bress de
little lamb, she smile when de angels come fer her, an' she's safe,
safe for ebermore. No tears fer little Hilda, no heartbreak in all her
'ternal life. Dear Missy Grace, my little baby die, too, but I hain't
los' it. No, no. De Good Shepherd is a keepin' it safe fer me, an' I
shall hab my baby again."

It is impossible to describe the effect of this passionate utterance of
faith as it came warm and direct from the heart of another bereaved
mother, whose lowliness only emphasized the universal human need of
something more than negations and theories of law and force. The major
heard it in the hall below, and was awed. Mrs. Mayburn and the servants
sobbed audibly. The stony look went out of Grace's face; tears welled
up into her hot, dry eyes, and she drew near and bent over her child
with an indescribable yearning in her face. Aunt Sheba ceased, sank
down on the floor, and throwing her apron over her face she rocked back
and forth and prayed as before.

Suddenly Grace threw herself on the unconscious little form, and cried
with a voice that pierced every heart: "O God, I turn to Thee, then. Is
my child lost to me forever, or is she in Thy keeping? Was my mother's
faith true? Shall I have my baby once more? Jesus, art Thou a Shepherd
of the little ones? Hast Thou suffered my Hilda to come unto Thee? Oh,
if Thou art, Thou canst reveal Thyself unto me and save a
broken-hearted mother from despair. This child _was_ mine. Is it mine
still?" and she clasped her baby convulsively to her bosom.

"Suffer de little chillen ter come unter me, and forbid dem not,'"
repeated Aunt Sheba in low tones.

Again a deep, awed silence fell upon them all. Grace knelt so long with
her own face pressed against her child's that they thought she had
fainted. The physician motioned Graham to lift her up, but he shook his
head. He was crushed and despairing, feeling that in one little hour he
had lost the belief of his manhood, the child that had brought into his
home a heaven that he at least could understand, and as he heard his
wife's bitter cry he felt that her life and reason might soon go also.
He recognized again the presence of his bitter rivals, Grief and Death,
and felt that at last they had vanquished him. He had not the courage
or the will to make another effort.

"Mrs. Graham, for your husband's sake--" began Dr. Markham.

"Ah! forgive me, Alford," she said, rising weakly; "I should not have
forgotten you for a moment."

She took an uncertain step toward him, and he caught her in his arms.

Laying her head upon his breast, she said gently, "Alford, our baby is
not dead."

"Oh, Grace, darling!" he cried in agony, "don't give way, or we are
both lost. I have no strength left. I cannot save you again. Oh! if the
awful past should come back!"

"It now can never come back. Alford, we have not lost our child. Aunt
Sheba has had a better wisdom than you or I, and from this hour forth
my mother's faith is mine. Do not think me wild or wandering. In my
very soul has come the answer to my cry. Horrible corruption is not the
end of that lovely life. You can't believe it, any more than I. Dear
little sleeper, you are still _my_ baby. I shall go to you, and you
will never suffer as I have suffered. God bless you, Aunt Sheba! your
heaven-inspired words have saved me from despair. Alford, dear Alford,
do not give way so; I'll live and be your true and faithful wife. I'll
teach you the faith that God has taught me."

He drew long, deep breaths. He was like a great ship trying to right
itself in a storm. At last he said, in broken tones:

"Grace, you are right. It's not law or force. It's either God, who in
some way that I can't understand, will bring good out of all this evil,
or else it's all devilish, fiendish. If after this night you can be
resigned, patient, hopeful, your faith shall be mine."

The shadows, affrighted, shrank further away than ever before. "I take
you at your word," she replied, as she drew him gently away. "Come, let
us go and comfort papa."

One after another stole out after them until Mrs. Mayburn was alone
with the dead. Long and motionless she stood, with her eyes fixed on
the quiet, lovely face.

"Hilda," at last she moaned, "little Hilda, shall poor old grandma ever
see our baby again?"

At that moment the sun rose high enough to send a ray through the
lattice, and it lighted the baby's face with what seemed a smile of
unearthly sweetness.

A few moments later Aunt Sheba found the aged woman with her head upon
little Hilda's bosom, and there she received a faith that brought peace.

A few evenings later there was a grassy mound, covered with roses,
under the apple-tree by the rustic seat; and at the head of the little
grave there was placed a block of marble bearing the simple inscription:

"Here sleeps our Baby Hilda."

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Years have passed. The little monument is now near another and a
stately one in a Virginia cemetery. Fresh flowers are on it, showing
that "Our Baby Hilda" is never forgotten. Fresh flowers are beneath the
stately column, proving that the gallant soldier sleeping under it is
never forgotten. Fresh flowers are on the young Confederate's grave,
commemorating a manly and heroic devotion to a cause that was sacred to
him. The cause was lost; and had he lived to green old age he would
have thanked God for it. Not least among the reasons for thankfulness
is the truth that to men and peoples that which their hearts craved is
often denied.

Not far away is a home as unostentatious as the Northern cottage, but
larger, and endowed with every homelike attribute. Sweet Grace Graham
is its mistress. Her lovely features are somewhat marked by time and
her deep experiences, but they have gained a beauty and serenity that
will defy time. Sounds of joyous young life again fill the house, and
in a cradle by her side "little Grace" is sleeping. Grandma Mayburn
still knits slowly by the hearth, but when the days are dry and warm it
is her custom to steal away to the cemetery and remain for hours with
"Our Baby." The major has grown very feeble, but his irritable protest
against age and infirmity has given place to a serene, quiet waiting
till he can rest beside the brave soldiers who have forgotten their
laurels.

Colonel Anderson, now a prosperous planter, has his own happy home
life, and his aged father shares the best there is in it. He still
preaches in the quaint old church, repaired but not modernized, and his
appearance and life give eloquence to his faltering words. The event of
the quiet year is the annual visit of Rita and Captain Windom with
their little brood. Then truly the homes abound in breezy life; but
sturdy, blue-eyed Warren Graham is the natural leader of all the little
people's sport. The gallant black horse Mayburn is still Iss's pride,
but he lets no one mount him except his master. Aunt Sheba presides at
the preparation of state dinners, and sits by the cradle of baby Grace.
She is left, however, most of the time, to her own devices, and often
finds her way also to the cemetery to "wisit dat dear little lamb,
Hilda," murmuring as she creeps slowly with her cane, "We'se all
a-followin' her now, bress de Lord."

Jinny's stories of what she saw and of her experiences abroad have
become so marvellous that they might be true of some other planet, but
not of ours. Dusky faces gather round her by the kitchen fire, and
absolute faith is expressed by their awed looks. Old Jehu has all the
chickens and "sass" he wants without working for them, and his son Huey
has settled down into a steady "hand," who satisfies his former ruling
passion with an occasional <DW53>-hunt. Both of the colonels have the
tastes of sportsmen, and do all in their power to preserve the game in
their vicinity. They have become closer friends with the lapsing years,
and from crossing swords they look forward to the time when they can
cross their family escutcheons by the marriage of the sturdy Warren
with another little Rita, who now romps with him in a child's happy
unconsciousness.

There are flecks of gray in Graham's hair and beard, and deep lines on
his resolute face, but he maintains his erect, soldierly bearing even
when superintending the homely details of the plantation. Every one
respects him; the majority are a little afraid of him, for where his
will has sway there is law and order, but to the poor and sorrowful he
gives increasing reason to bless his name. His wife's faith has become
his. She has proved it true by the sweet logic of her life. In their
belief, the baby Hilda is only at home before them, and the soldier
without fear and without reproach has found the immortality that he
longed for in his dying moments. He is no longer a cherished, honored
memory only; he is the man they loved, grown more manly, more noble in
the perfect conditions of a higher plane of life. The dark mysteries of
evil are still dark to them--problems that cannot be solved by human
reason. But in the Divine Man, toward whose compassionate face the
sorrowful and sinful of all the centuries have turned, they have found
One who has mastered the evil that threatened their lives. They are
content to leave the mystery of evil to Him who has become in their
deepest consciousness Friend and Guide. He stands between them and the
shadows of the past and the future.

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