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       "I ... create evil. I am
     the Lord."
         _Isa. xlv. 6, 7._


         "Where will God be
           absent? In His face
     Is light, but in His shadow
       there is healing too:
     Let Guido touch the shadow
       and be healed!"
         _The Ring and the Book._


       "If Nature is the garment
     of God, it is woven without
     seam throughout."
         _The Ascent of Man._




OXFORD, _January 1895_.


_When travelling in Canada, in the region north of Lake Ontario, I came
upon traces of the somewhat remarkable life which is the subject of the
following sketch.

Having applied to the school-master in the town where Bartholomew Toyner
lived, I received an account the graphic detail and imaginative insight
of which attest the writer's personal affection. This account, with only
such condensation as is necessary, I now give to the world. I do not
believe that it belongs to the novel to teach theology; but I do believe
that religious sentiments and opinions are a legitimate subject of its
art, and that perhaps its highest function is to promote understanding
by bringing into contact minds that habitually misinterpret one
another._




THE ZEIT-GEIST.




CHAPTER I.

PROLOGUE.


To-day I am at home in the little town of the fens, where the Ahwewee
River falls some thirty feet from one level of land to another. Both
broad levels were covered with forest of ash and maple, spruce and
tamarack; but long ago, some time in the thirties, impious hands built
dams on the impetuous Ahwewee, and wide marshes and drowned wood-lands
are the result. Yet just immediately at Fentown there is neither marsh
nor dead tree; the river dashes over its ledge of rock in a foaming
flood, runs shallow and rapid between green woods, and all about the
town there are breezy pastures where the stumps are still standing, and
arable lands well cleared. The little town itself has a thriving look.
Its public buildings and its villas have risen, as by the sweep of an
enchanter's wand, in these backwoods to the south of the Ottawa valley.

There was a day when I came a stranger to Fentown. The occasion of my
coming was a meeting concerning the opening of new schools for the
town--schools on a large and ambitious plan for so small a place. When
the meeting was over, I came out into the street on a mild September
afternoon. The other members of the School Council were with me. There
were two clergymen of the party. One of them, a young man with thin,
eager face, happened to be at my side.

"This Mr. Toyner, whose opinion has been so much consulted, was not
here to-day?" I said this interrogatively.

"No, ah--but you'll see him now. He has invited you all to a garden
party, or something of that sort. He's in delicate health. Ah--of
course, you know, it is natural for me to wish his influence with the
Council were much less than it is."

"Indeed! He was spoken of as a philanthropist."

"It's a very poor love to one's fellow-man that gives him all that his
vanity desires in the way of knowledge without leading him into the
Church, where he would be taught to set the value of everything in its
right proportion."

I was rather struck with this view of the function of the Church.
"Certainly," I replied, "to see all things in right proportion is
wisdom; but I heard this Toyner mentioned as a religious man."

"He has some imaginations of his own, I believe, which he mistakes for
religion. I do not know him intimately; I do not wish to. I believe he
has some sort of desire to do what is right; but that, you know, is a
house built upon the sand, unless it is founded upon the desire for
instruction as to what _is_ right. Every one cries up his generosity;
for instance, one of my church-wardens tells him that we need a new
organ in the church and the people won't give a penny-piece towards it,
so Toyner says, with his benevolent smile, 'They must be taught to give.
Tell them I will give half if they will give the other half.' But if the
Roman Catholic priest or a Methodist goes to him the next day for a
subscription, he gives just as willingly if, as is likely, he thinks the
object good. What can you do with a man like that, who has no principle?
It's impossible to have much respect for him."

Now I myself am a school-master, versed in the lore of certain books
ancient and modern, but knowing very little about such a practical
matter as applied theology; nor did I know very much then concerning the
classification of Christians among themselves: but I think that I am not
wrong in saying that this young man belonged to that movement in the
Anglican Church which fights strongly for a visible unity and for Church
tradition. I am so made that I always tend to agree with the man who is
speaking, so my companion was encouraged by my sympathy.

He went on: "I can do with a man that is out-and-out anything. I can
work with a <DW7>; I can work with a Methodist, as far as I can
conscientiously meet him on common ground, and I can respect him if he
conscientiously holds that he is right and I am wrong: but these
fellows that are neither one thing nor the other--they are as dangerous
as rocks and shoals that are just hidden under the water. You never know
when you have them."

We were upon the broad wooden side-walk of an avenue leading from the
central street of the town to a region of outstanding gardens and
pleasure-grounds, in which the wooden villas of the citizens stood among
luxuriant trees. It is a characteristic of Fentown that the old trees
about the place have been left standing.

A new companion came to my side, and he, as fate would have it, was
another clergyman. He was an older man, with a genial, bearded face. I
think he belonged to that party which takes its name from the Evangel of
whose purity it professes itself the guardian.

"You are going to this entertainment which Mr. and Mrs. Toyner are
giving?" The cordiality of his common-place remark had a certain
restraint in it.

"You are going also?"

"No; it is not a house at which I visit. I have lived here for
twenty-five years, and of course I have known Mr. Toyner more or less
all that time. I do not know how I shall be able to work on the same
Council with him; but we shall see. We, who believe in the truth of
religion, must hold our own if we can."

I was to be the master of the new schools. I pleased him with my assent.

"I am rather sorry," he continued, "to tell the truth, that you should
begin your social life in Fentown by visiting Mr. Toyner; but of course
this afternoon it is merely a public reception, and after a time you
will be able to judge for yourself. I do not hesitate to say that I
consider his influence, especially with the young people, of a most
dangerous kind. For a long time, you know, he and his wife were quite
ostracised--not so much because of their low origin as because of their
religious opinions. But of late years even good Christians appear
disposed to be friendly with them. Money, you know--money carries all
things before it."

"Yes, that is too often the case."

"Well, I don't say that Toyner doesn't hold up a certain standard of
morality among the young men of the place, but it's a pretty low one;
and he has them all under his influence. There isn't a young fellow that
walks these streets, whether the son of clergyman or beggar, who is not
free to go to that man's house every evening and have the run of his
rooms and his books. And Toyner and his wife will sit down and play
cards with them; or they'll get in a lot of girls, and have a dance, or
theatricals,--the thin end of the wedge, you know, the thin end of the
wedge! And all the young men go to his house, except a few that we've
got in our Christian Association."

The speaker was stricter in his views than I saw cause to be; but then,
I knew something of his life; he was giving it day by day to save the
men of whom he was talking. He had a better right than I to know what
was best for them.

"When you have a thorough-going man of the world," he said, "every one
knows what that means, and there's not so much harm done. But this Mr.
Toyner is always talking about God, and using his influence to make
people pray to God. Such men are not ready to pray until they are
prepared to give up the world! The God that he tells them of is a
fiction of his imagination; indeed, I might say a mere creature of his
fancy, who is going to save all men in the end, whatever they do!"

"A Universalist!"

"Oh, worse than that--at least, I have read the books of Universalists
who, though their error was great, did not appear to me so far astray. I
cannot understand it! I cannot understand it!" he went on; "I cannot
understand the influence that he has obtained over our more educated
class; for twenty years ago he was himself a low, besotted drunkard, and
his wife is the daughter of a murderer! Still less do I understand how
such people can claim to be religious at all, and yet not see to what
awful evil the small beginnings of vice must lead. I tell you, if a man
is allowed by Providence to lead an easy life, and remains unfaithful,
he may still have some good metal in him which adversity might refine;
but when people have gone through all that Toyner and his wife have been
through--not a child that has been born to them but has died at the
breast--I say, when they have been through all that, and still lead a
worldly, unsatisfactory life, you may be sure that there is nothing in
them that has the true ring of manhood or womanhood."

I was left alone to enter Mr. Toyner's gates. I found myself in a large
pleasure-ground, where Nature had been guided, not curtailed, in her
work. I was walking upon a winding drive, walled on either side by a
wild irregular line of shrubs, where the delicate forms of acacias and
crab-apples lifted themselves high in comparison to the lower lilac and
elderberry-bushes. I watched the sunlit acacias as they fluttered,
spreading their delicate leaves and golden pods against the blue above
me. I made my way leisurely in the direction of music which I heard at
some distance. I had not advanced far before another person came into my
path.

He was a slight, delicate man of middle size. His hair and moustache
were almost quite white. Something in the air of neatness and perfection
about his dress, in the extreme gravity and clearness of his grey eyes,
even in the fine texture of that long, thin, drooping moustache, made it
evident to me that this new companion was not what we call an ordinary
person.

"Your friend did not come in with you." The voice spoke disappointment;
the speaker looked wistfully at the form of the retreating clergyman
which he could just see through a gap in the shrubs.

"You wished him to come?"

"I saw you coming. I came toward the gate in the hope that he might
come in." Then he added a word of cordial greeting. I perceived that I
was walking with my host.

There are some men to whom one instinctively pays the compliment of
direct speech. "I have been walking with two clergymen. I understand
that you differ from both with regard to religious opinion."

It appeared to me that after this speech of mine he took my measure
quietly. He did not say in so many words he did not see that this
difference of opinion was a sufficient reason for their absence, but by
some word or sign he gave me to understand that, adding:

"I feel myself deprived of a great benefit in being without their
society. They are the two best and noblest men I know."

"It is rare for men to take pleasure in the society of their
opponents."

"Yet you will admit that to be willing to learn from those from whom we
differ is the only path to wisdom."

"It is difficult to tread that path without letting go what we already
have, and that produces chaos."

With intensity both of thought and feeling he took up the words that I
had dropped half idly, and showed me what he thought to be the truth and
untruth of them. There was a grave earnestness in his speech which made
his opinion on this subject suddenly become of moment to me, and his
intensity did not produce any of that sensation of irritation or
opposition which the intensity of most men produces as soon as it is
felt.

"You think that the chief obstacle which is hindering the progress of
true religion in the world at present is that while we will not learn
from those who disagree with us we can obtain no new light, and that
when we are willing to reach after their light we become also willing to
let go what we have had, so that the world does not gain but loses by
the transaction. This is, I admit, an obstacle to thought; but it is not
the essential difficulty of our age."

"Let us consider," I said, in my pedantic way, "how my difficulty may be
overcome, and then let us discuss that one you consider to be
essential."

Toyner's choice of words, like his appearance, betrayed a strong, yet
finely chiselled personality.

"We are truly accustomed now to the idea that whatever has life cannot
possibly remain unchanged, but must always develop by leaving some part
behind and producing some part that is new. It is God's will that the
religious thought of the world, which is made up of the thought of
individuals, shall proceed in this way, whether we will or not, but it
must always help progress when we can make our wills at one with God's
in this matter; we go faster and safer so. Now to say that to submit
willingly to God's law of growth is to produce chaos must certainly be a
fallacy. It must then be a fallacy to argue that to keep a mind open to
all influences is antagonistic to the truest religious life; we
cannot--whether we wish or not, we _cannot_--let go any truth that has
been assimilated into our lives; and what truth we have not assimilated
it is no advantage to hold without agitation. We know better where we
are when we are forced to sift it. It is the very great apparent
advantage of recognised order that deceives us! When we lose that
_apparent_ advantage, when we lose, too, the familiar names and
symbols, and think, like children, that we have lost the reality they
have expressed to us, a very low state of things _appears_ to result.
The strain and stress of life become much greater. Ah! but, my friend,
it is that strain and stress that shape us into the image of God."

"You hinted, I think, that to your mind there was a more real obstacle,
one peculiar to our age."

Ever since I first met him I have been puzzled to know how it was that I
often knew so nearly what Toyner meant when he only partially expressed
his thought; he had this power over my understanding. He was my master
from the first.

He laid his hand now slightly upon my arm, as though to emphasise what
he said.

"It is a little hard to explain it reverently," he said, "and still
harder to understand why the difficulty should have come about, but in
our day it would seem that the nights of prayer and the fresh intuition
into the laws of God's working, which we see united in the life of our
great Example, have become divorced. It is their union again that we
must have--that we shall have; but at present there is the difficulty
for every man of us--the men who lead us in either path are different
men and lead different ways. Our law-givers are not the men who meet God
upon the mount. Our scientists are not the teachers who are pre-eminent
for fasting and prayer. We who to be true to ourselves must follow in
both paths find our souls perplexed."

In front of us, as we turned a curve in the drive, a bed of scarlet
lilies stood stately in the sun, and a pair of bickering sparrows rose
from the fountain near which they grew. Toyner made a slight gesture of
his hand. With the eagerness of a child he asked:

"Is it not hard to believe that we may ask and expect forgiveness and
gifts from the God who by slow inevitable laws of growth clothes the
lilies, who ordains the fall of every one of these sparrows, foresees
the fall and ordains it--the God whose character is expressed in
physical law? The texts of Jesus have become so trite that we forget
that they contain the same vision of 'God's mind in all things' that
makes it so hard to believe in a personality in God, that makes prayer
seem to us so futile."

We came out of the shrubbery upon a bank that dropped before us to a
level lawn. I found myself in the midst of a company of people among
whom were the other members of the new School Council. Below, upon the
lawn, there was a little spectacle going on for our entertainment--a
morris-dance, simply and gracefully performed by young people dressed
in quaintly fashioned frocks of calico; there was good music too--one or
two instruments, to which they danced. Round the other side of the grass
an avenue of stately Canadian maples shut in the view, except where the
river or the pale blue of the eastern horizon was seen in glimpses
through their branches. Behind us the sun's declining rays fell upon an
old-fashioned garden of holly-hocks and asters, so that the effect, as
one caught it turning sideways, was like light upon a stained-glass
window, so rich were the dyes. I saw all this only as one sees the
surroundings of some object that interests supremely.

The man who had been walking with me said simply, "This is my wife."

Before me stood a woman who had the power that some few women have of
making all those whom they gather round them speak out clearly and
freshly the best that is in them.

Ah! we live in a new country. Its streets are not paved with gold, nor
is prosperity to be attained without toil; but it gives this one
advantage--room for growth; whatever virtue a soul contains may reach
its full height and fragrance and colour, if it will.

I did not know then that the beginning of this provincial _salon_, which
Toyner's wife had kept about her for so many years, and to which she
gave a genuine brilliance, however raw the material, had been a wooden
shanty, in which a small income was made by the sale of home-brewed
beer.

I always remember Ann Toyner as I saw her that first time. Her eyes were
black and still bright; but when I looked at them I remembered the
little children that had died in her arms, and I knew that her hopes
had not died with them, but by that suffering had been transformed. As I
heard her talk, my own hopes lifted themselves above their ordinary
level.

Husband and wife stood together, and I noticed that the white shawl that
was crossed Quakerwise over her thin shoulders seemed like a counterpart
of his careful dress, that the white tresses that were beginning to show
among her black ones were almost like a reflection of his white hair. I
felt that in some curious way, although each had so distinct and strong
a personality, they were only perfect as a part of the character which
in their union formed a perfect whole. They stood erect and looked at us
with frank, kindly eyes; we all found to our surprise that we were
saying what we thought and felt, and not what we supposed we ought to
say.

As I talked and looked at them, the words that I had heard came back to
my mind. "His wife is the daughter of a murderer, and he has come up
from the lowest, vilest life." Some indistinct thought worked through my
mind whose only expression was a disconnected phrase: "I saw a new
heaven and a new earth."

In the years since then I have learned to know the story of Toyner and
his wife. Now that they are gone away from us, I will tell what I know.
His was a life which shows that a man cut off from all contact with his
brother-thinkers may still be worked upon by the great over-soul of
thought: his is the story of a weak man who lived a strong life in a
strength greater than his own.




CHAPTER II.


In the days when there were not many people in Fentown Falls, and when
much money was made by the lumber trade, Bartholomew Toyner's father
grew rich. He was a Scotchman, not without some education, and was
ambitious for his son; but he was a hard, ill-tempered man, and
consequently neither his example nor his precepts carried any weight
whatever with the son when he was grown. The mother, who had begun life
cheerfully and sensibly, showed the weakness of her character in that
she became habitually peevish. She had enough to make her so. All her
pleasure in life was centred in her son Bart. Bart came out of school to
lounge upon the streets, to smoke immoderately, and to drink such large
quantities of what went into the country by the name of "Jamaica," that
in a few years it came to pass that he was nearly always drunk.

Poor Bart! the rum habit worked its heavy chains upon him before he was
well aware that his life had begun in earnest; and when he realised that
he was in possession of his full manhood, and that the prime of life was
not far off, he found himself chained hand and foot, toiling heavily in
the most degrading servitude. A few more years and he realised also
that, do what he would, he could not set himself free. No one in the
world had any knowledge of the struggle he made. Some--his mother among
them--gave him credit for trying now and then, and that was a charitable
view of his case. How could any man know? He was not born with the
nature that reveals itself in many words, or that gets rid of its
intolerable burdens of grief and shame by passing them off upon others.
All that any one could see was the inevitable failure.

The failure was the chief of what Bart himself saw. That unquenchable
instinct in a man's heart that if he had only tried a little harder he
would certainly have attained to righteousness gave the lie to his sense
of agonising struggle, with its desperate, rallies of courage and
sinkings of discouragement, gleams of self-confidence, and foul
suspicion of self, suspicion even as to the reality of his own effort.
All this was in the region of unseen spirit, almost as much unseen to
those about him as are the spirits of the dead men and angels, often a
mere matter of faith to himself, so apart did it seem from the outward
realities of life.

Outwardly the years went easily enough. The father railed and stormed,
then relapsed into a manner of silent contempt; but he did not drive his
son from the plain, comfortable home which he kept. Bart would not work,
but he took some interest in reading. Paper-covered infidel books, and
popular books on modern science, were his choice rather than fiction.
The choice might have been worse, for the fiction to which he had access
was more enervating. Outside his father's house he neglected the better
class of his neighbours, and fraternised with the men and women that
lived by the lowest bank of the river; but his life there was still one
into which the fresh air and the sunshine of the Canadian climate
entered largely. If he lounged all day, it was on the benches in the
open air; if he played cards all night, he was not given much money to
waste; and there were few women to lend their companionship to the many
drunkards of whom he was only one. Then, also, Bart did not do even all
the evil that he might. What was the result of that long struggle of his
which always ended in failure? The failure was only apparent; the
success was this mighty one--that he did not go lower, he did not leave
Fentown Falls for the next town upon the river, a place called The
Mills, where his life could have been much worse. He fell in love with
Ann Markham; and although she was the daughter of the wickedest man in
Fentown, she was--according to the phraseology of the place--"a lady."
She kept a small beer-shop that was neat and clean; she lived so that no
man dared to say an uncivil word to her or to the sister whom she
protected. She did for her father very much what Bart's father did for
him: she kept a decent house over his head and decent clothes upon his
back, and threw a mantle of thrifty respectability over him.

Ann was no prude, and she certainly was no saint. Twice a week there was
the sound of fiddling and dancing feet in a certain wooden hall that
stood near the river; and there, with the men and women of the worldly
sort, Ann and her sister danced. It was their amusement; they had no
other except the idle talking and laughing that went on over the table
at which Ann sold her home-brewed beer. Ann's end in life was just the
ordinary one--respectability, or a moderate righteousness, first, and
after that, pleasure. She was a strong, vigorous, sunbrowned maiden; she
worked hard to brew her beer and to sell it. She ruled her sister with
an inflexible will. She had much to say to men whom she liked and
admired. She neither liked nor admired Bart Toyner, never threw him a
word unless in scorn; yet he loved her. She was the star by which he
steered his ship in those intervals in which his eyes were clear enough
to steer at all; and the ship did not go so far out of the track as it
would otherwise have gone. When a man is in the right course, with a
good hope of the port, rowing and steering, however toilsome, is a
cheerful thing; but when the track is so far lost that the sailor
scarcely hopes to regain it--then perhaps (God only knows) it requires
more virtue to row and steer at all, even though it be done fitfully.

This belief that he could never come to any desired haven was the one
force above all others that went to the ruining of Toyner's life.




CHAPTER III.


Bart Toyner was more than thirty years old when the period of his
reformation came. His father had grown old and foolish. It was the
breaking down of his father's clear mind that first started and shocked
Bart into some strong emotion of filial respect and love; then came
another agonising struggle on his part to free himself from his evil
habits. In this fit of sobriety he went a journey to the nearest city
upon his father's business, and there, after a few days, he took to
drinking harder than ever, ceased to write home, lost all the
possessions that he had taken with him, and sank deep down into the mire
of the place.

The first thing that he remembered in the awakening that followed was
the face of another man. It stood out in the nebulous gathering of his
returning self-consciousness like the face of an angel; there was the
flame of enthusiasm in the eyes, a force of will had chiselled handsome
features into tense lines; but in spite of that, or rather perhaps
because of it, it was a gentle, happy face.

It is happiness that is the culmination of sainthood. You may look
through the pictures of the saints of all ages and find enthusiasm and
righteousness in many and the degree of faith that these imply; but
where you find joy too, there has been the greatest faith, the greatest
saintliness.

Bart found himself clothed and fed; he felt the warm clasp of a human
hand in his, and some self-respect came back to him by the contact. The
face and the hand belonged to a mission preacher, and Bart arose and
followed his friend to a place where there was the sound of many feet
hurrying and a great concourse of people was gathered in a wood without
the town.

It was only with curiosity that Bart looked about him at the high trees
that stretched their green canopy above, at the people who ranged
themselves in a hollow of the wood--one of nature's theatres. Curiosity
passed into strong emotion of maudlin sentiment when the great
congregation sang a hymn. He sat upon a bench at the back and wept tears
that even to himself had neither sense nor truth. Yet there was in them
the stirring of something inarticulate, incomprehensible, like the
stirring that comes at spring-time in the heart of the seed that lies
below the ground. After that the voice of the preacher began to make its
way slowly through the dull, dark mind of the drunkard.

The preacher spoke of the wonderful love of God manifested in a certain
definite offer of salvation, a certain bargain, which, if closed with,
would bring heaven to the soul of every man.

The preacher belonged to that period of this century when the religious
world first threw off its contempt for the present earthly life and
began to preach, not a salvation from sin's punishment so much as a
salvation from sin.

It was the old cry: "Repent, believe; for the kingdom of heaven is at
hand." The doctrine that was set forth had not only the vital growth of
ages in it, but it had accreted the misunderstanding of the ages also;
yet this doctrine did not hide, it only limited, the saving power of
God. "Believe," cried the preacher, "in a just God and a Saviour." So he
preached Christ unto them, just as he supposed St. Paul to have done,
wotting nothing of the fact that every word and every symbol stand for
a different thought in the minds of men with every revolution of that
glass by which Time marks centuries.

It mattered nothing to Bart just now all this about the centuries and
the doctrines; the heart of the preaching was the eternal truth that has
been growing brighter and brighter since the world began--God, a living
Power, the Power of Salvation. The salvation was conditioned, truly; but
what did conditions matter to Bart! He would have cast himself into sea
or fire to obtain the strength that he coveted. He eagerly cast aside
the unbelief he had imbibed from books. He accepted all that he was told
to accept, with the eager swallowing of a man who is dying for the
strength of a drug that is given to him in dilution.

At the end of the sermon there was a great call made upon all who
desired to give up their sins and to walk in God's strength and
righteousness, to go forward and kneel in token of their penitence and
pray for the grace which they would assuredly receive.

This public penance was a very little thing, like the dipping in Jordan.
It did not seem little to Toyner. He was thoroughly awake now, roused
for the hour to the power of seeking God with all his mind, all his
thought, all his soul. The high tide of life in him made the ordeal
terrible; he tottered forward and knelt where, in front of the rostrum,
sweet hay had been strewn upon the ground. A hundred penitents were
kneeling upon this carpet.

There was now no more loud talking or singing. Silence was allowed to
spread her wings within the woodland temple. Toyner, kneeling, felt the
influence of other human spirits deeply vivified in the intensity of
prayer. He heard whispered cries and the sound of tears, the prayer of
the publican, the tears of the Magdalene, and now and then there came a
glad thanksgiving of overflowing joy. Toyner tried to repeat what he
heard, hoping thereby to give some expression to the need within him;
but all that he could think of was the craving for strong drink that he
knew would return and that he knew he could not resist.

He heard light footsteps, and felt a strong arm embracing his own
trembling frame. The preacher had come to kneel where he knelt, and to
pray, not for him, but with him.

"I cannot," said Bart Toyner, "I can't, I can't."

"Why not?" whispered the preacher.

"Because I know I shall take to drink again."

"Which do you love best, God or the drink?" asked the preacher. "If you
love the drink best, you ought not to be here; if you love God best,
you need have no fear."

"God." The word embodied the great new idea which had entered Toyner's
soul, the idea of the love that had power to help him.

"I want to get hold of God," he said; "but it isn't any use, for I shall
just go and get drunk again."

"Dear, dear fellow," said the young preacher, his arm drawing closer
round Bart, "He is able and willing to keep you; all you have to do is
to take Him for your Master, and He will come to you and make a new man
of you. He will take the drink crave away. He knows as well as you do
that you can't fight it."

"I don't believe it," said Toyner.

Then the young preacher turned his beautiful face toward the blue above
the trees and whispered a prayer: "Open the eyes of our souls that we
may see Thee, and then we shall know that Thou canst not lie. Thy honour
is pledged to give Thy servants all they need, and this man needs to
have the craving for drink taken out of his body. He has come at Thy
call, willing to be Thy slave; Thou canst not go back on Thy promises.
We know Thou hast accepted him, because he has come to Thee. We know
that Thou wilt give him what he needs,"--so the short sentences of the
whispered prayer went on in quick transition from entreaty to
thanksgiving for a gift received. Suddenly, before the conclusion had
come, Bart stood up upon his feet.

"What is it, my brother?" asked the preacher. He too had risen and stood
with his hand on Toyner's shoulder.

They were alone together, these two. The great crowd of the congregation
had already gone away; those that remained were each one so intensely
occupied with prayer or adoration that they paid no heed to others.

"I feel--light," said Toyner.

"Dear fellow," said the preacher, "the devil has gone out of you. You
are free now because you are the slave of Christ. Begin your service to
him by praising God!"

Toyner stayed a week longer in the place, lodging with the young
preacher. Day and night they were close together. A change had come to
Toyner. It was a miracle. The young preacher believed in such miracles,
and because he believed he saw them often.

Toyner trembled and hoped, and at length he too believed. He believed
that as long as he willingly obeyed God his old habits would not triumph
over him. The physical health which so often comes like a flood and
replaces disease at the shrines of idol temples, of Romish saints, or,
at the many Protestant homes for faith-healing, had undoubtedly come to
Bart Toyner. The stomach that had been inflamed and almost useless, now
produced in him a regular appetite for simple nourishing food. The
craving for strong drink had passed away, and with his whole mind and
heart he threw himself into such service as he believed to be acceptable
to God and the condition upon which he held his health and his freedom.
At the end of the week Toyner went home to face the old life again with
no safe-guard but the new inward strength. No one there believed in his
reformation. He had lost money for his father in his last debauch; the
man who was virtually a partner would not trust him again. He had a
nominal business of his own, an agency which he had heretofore
neglected, and now he worked hard, living frugally, and for the first
time in his life earned his own living. The rules of conduct which the
preacher had laid down for him were simple and broad. He was to see God
in everything, accepting all events joyfully from His hand; he was so to
preach Him in life and word that others would love Him; he was to do all
his work as unto a God who beheld and cared for the minutest things of
earth; he was to abstain, not only from all sin, but from all things
that might lead to evil. At first he saw no contradiction in this rule
of life; it seemed a plain path, and he walked, nay ran, upon it for a
long distance.

Between Toyner and his old friends the change of his life and thoughts
had made the widest breach. That outward show of companionship remained
was due only to patient persistence on his part and the endurance of the
pain and shame of being in society where he was not wanted and where he
felt nothing congenial. There was a Scotch minister who, with the people
of his congregation, had received and befriended the reformed man; but
because of Toyner's desire to follow the most divine example, and also
because of his love to Ann Markham, he chose the other companionship. It
was a high ideal; something warred against it which he could not
understand, and his patience brought forth no mutual love.

When six months had passed away, Toyner had gained with his neighbours a
character for austerity in his personal habits and constant
companionship with the rough and the poor. The post of constable fell
vacant; Toyner's father had been constable in his youth; Toyner was
offered the post now, and he took it.

The constable in such villages as Fentown was merely a respectable man
who could be called upon on rare occasions to arrest a criminal. Crime
was seldom perpetrated in Fentown, except when it was of a nature that
could be winked at. Toyner had no uniform; he was put in possession of a
pair of hand-cuffs, which no one expected him to use; he was given a
nominal income; and the name of "constable" was a public recognition
that he was reformed.

Toyner had had many scruples of mind before he took this office. The
considerations which induced him to accept it were various. The austere
demand of law and the service of God were very near together in his
mind; nor are they in any strong mind ever separated except in parable.

Bart Toyner, who had for years appeared so weak and witless, possessed
in reality that fine quality of brain and heart which is so often a
prey to the temptation of intoxicants. He was now working out all the
theory of the new life in a mind that would not flinch before, or shirk
the gleams of truth struck from, sharp contact of fact with fact as the
days and hours knocked them together. For this reason it could not be
that his path would remain that plain path in which a man could run
seeing far before him. Soon he only saw his way step by step, around
there was darkness; but through that darkness, except in one black hour,
he always saw the mount of transfiguration and the light of heaven.




CHAPTER IV.


Another six months passed, and an event occurred which gave a great
shock to the little community and gave Toyner a pain of heart such as
almost nothing else could have given. Ann's father, John Markham, had a
deadly dispute with a man by the name of Walker. Walker was a
comparatively new comer to the town, or he would have known better than
to gamble with Markham as he did and arouse his enmity. The feud lasted
for a week, and then Markham shot his enemy with a borrowed fire-arm.
Walker was discovered wounded, and cared for, but with little hope of
his recovery. From all around the men assembled to seize Markham, but
half a night had elapsed, and it was found that he had made good his
escape. When the others had gone, Toyner stood alone before Ann Markham.

I have often heard what Toyner looked like in those days. Slight as his
theological knowledge might be, he was quite convinced that if religion
was anything it must be everything, personal appearance included. As he
stood before Ann, he appeared to be a dapper, rather dandified man, for
he had dressed himself just as well as he could. Everything that he did
was done just as well as he could in those days; that was the reason he
did not shirk the inexpressibly painful duty which now devolved on him.

You may picture him. His clothes were black, his linen good. He wore a
large white tie, which was the fashionable thing in that time and place.
His long moustache, which was fine rather than heavy, hung down to his
chin on either side of his mouth. He did not look like a man who would
chance upon any strong situation in life, for the strength of
circumstances is the strength of the soul that opposes them, and we are
childishly given to estimating the strength of souls by certain outward
tests, although they fail us daily.

"I have always been your friend, Ann," said Toyner sadly.

Ann tossed her head. "Not with my leave."

"No," he assented; "but I want to tell you now that if we can't get on
Markham's track I shall have to spy on you. You'll help him if you can,
of course."

"I don't know where he is," said Ann sullenly.

"I do not believe you are telling the truth" (sadly); "but you may
believe _me_, I have warned you."

People in Fentown went to sleep early. At about eleven that night all
was still and lonely about the weather-stained, unpainted wooden house
in which Ann lived.

Ann closed her house for the night. The work was a simple one: she set
her knee against the door to shut it more firmly, and worked an old nail
into the latch. Then she shook down the scant cotton curtains that were
twisted aside from the windows. There were three windows, two in the
living-room (which was also kitchen and beer-saloon) and one in the
bedroom; that was the whole of the house. There was not an article of
furniture in the place that was not absolutely necessary; what there was
was clean. The girl herself was clean, middle-sized, and dressed in
garments that were old and worn; there was about her appearance a
certain brightness and quickness, which is the best part of beauty and
grace. The very hair itself, turning black and curly, from the temples,
seemed to lie glossy and smooth by reason of character that willed that
it should lie so.

One small coal-oil lamp was the light of the house. When Ann had closed
doors and windows she took it up and went into the bedroom. Neither room
was small; there was a shadowy part round their edges which the lamp did
not brighten. In the dimmer part of this inner room was a bed, on which
a fair young girl was sleeping.

A curious thing now occurred. Ann, placing herself between the lamp and
the window, deliberately went through a pantomime of putting herself to
bed. She took care that the shadow of the brushing of her hair should be
seen upon the window-curtain. She measured the distance, and threw her
silhouette clearly upon it while she took off one or two of her outer
garments. Her face had resolution and nervous eagerness written in it,
but there was nothing of inward disquiet there; she was wholly satisfied
in her own mind as to what she was doing. It was not a very profound
mind, perhaps, but it was like a weapon burnished by constant and proper
use.

She removed her shadow from the window-curtain when she removed her lamp
to the bedside. She employed herself there for a minute or two in
putting on the clothes she had taken off, and in tightly fastening up
the hair that she had loosened; then she put out the lamp and got into
bed. The wooden bedstead creaked, and rubbed against the side of the
house as she turned herself upon it. The creaking and rubbing could be
heard on the other side of the wall.

There was a man walking like a sentry outside who did hear. It was Bart
Toyner, the constable.

After he heard the bed creak he still waited awhile, walking slowly
round the house in silence and darkness. Then, as he passed the side
where the bedroom was, there came the sound of a slight sleeping snore,
repeated as regularly as the breath might come and go in a woman's
breast.

After a while Toyner retreated with noiseless steps, standing still when
he had moved away about fifty paces, looking at the house again with
careful, suspicious eyes; then, as if satisfied, he slid back the iron
shade that covered his lantern and, lighting his own steps, he walked
away.

He had moved so quietly that the girl who lay upon the bed did not hear
him. She did not, in fact, know for certain whether he had been there or
not, much less that he had gone, so that she toilsomely kept up the
pretence of that gentle snore for half an hour or more. It was very
tiresome. Her bright black eyes were wide open as she lay performing
this exercise. Her face never lost its look of strong resolution. At
length, true to her acting, she moved her head sleepily, sighed heavily,
and relapsed into silent breathing as a sleeper might. It was the acting
of a true artist.

Half an hour more of silence upon her bed, and she crept off
noiselessly; she lifted the corner of the window-curtain and looked out.
There was not a light to be seen in any of the houses within sight,
there was not a sound to be heard except the foam at the foot of the
falls, the lapping of the nearer river, and the voice of a myriad
crickets in the grass. She opened the window silently.

"Bart," she whispered. Then a little louder, "Bart--Bart Toyner."

The one thing that she wanted just then was to be alone, and of all
people in the world Toyner was the man whom she least wanted to meet.
Yet she called him. She got out of the window and took a few paces on
one side and on the other in the darkness, still calling his name in a
voice of soft entreaty. In his old drunken days she had scorned him. She
scorned him now more than ever, but she still believed that her call
would never reach his ear in vain. In this hour of her extremity she
must make sure of his absence by running the risk of having to endure
his nearer presence. When she knew that he was not there, she took a
bundle from inside the room, shut down the window through which she had
escaped, and wrapping her head and hands in a thin black shawl such as
Indian women drape themselves with, she sped off over the dark grass to
the river.

Overhead, the stars sparkled in a sky that seemed almost black. The
houses and trees, the thick scrubby bushes and long grass, were just
visible in all the shades of monochrome that night produces.

In a few minutes she was beyond all the houses, gliding through a wood
by the river. The trees were high and black, and there was a faint
musical sound of wind in them. She heard it as she heard everything.
More than once she stopped, not fearful, but watching. She must have
looked like the spirit of primeval silence as she stood at such moments,
lifting her shawl from her head to listen; then she went on. She knew
where a boat had by chance been left that day; it was a small rough
boat, lying close under the roots of a pine tree, and tied to its trunk.
In this she bestowed her bundle, and untying the string, pushed from the
shore. She could hardly see the opposite side of the little Ahwewee in
the darkness; she rowed at once into the midst of its rapid current;
once there, she dipped her oars to steer rather than to propel. She
travelled swiftly with the black stream.

For half an hour or more she was only intent upon steering her boat.
Then, when she had come about three miles from the falls, she was in
still water, and began rowing with all her strength to make the boat
shoot forward as rapidly as before.

The water was as still now as if the river had widened and deepened into
an inland sea; yet in the darkness to all appearance the river was as
narrow, the outline of the trees on either side appearing black and high
just within sight. When the moon rose this mystery of nature was
revealed, for the river was a lake, spreading far and wide on either
side. The lake was caused by dams built farther down the stream, and
the forest that had covered the ground before still reared itself above
the water, the bare dead trees standing thick, except in the narrow,
winding passage of the original stream.

The moon rose large, very large indeed, and very yellow. There was smoke
of distant forest fires in the dry hot air, which turned the moon as
golden as a pane of amber glass. There was no fear of fire in the forest
through which the boat was passing other than that cold pretence of
yellow flames, the broken reflections of the moon on the wet mirror in
which the trees were growing. These trees would not burn; they had been
drowned long ago! They stood up now like corpses or ghosts, rising from
the deathly flood, lifeless and smooth; ghastly, in that they retained
the naked shape that they had had when alive. To the east the reflection
of the moon was seen for a mile or more under their grey outstretched
branches, and on all sides its light penetrated, showing through what a
strange dead wilderness the one small fragile boat was travelling.

Very little of the feeling of the place entered the mind of the girl who
was working at her oars with such strong, swift strokes. Every day
through the ten or fifteen miles of the dead forest a little snorting
steamboat passed, bearing market produce and passengers. The smoke of
its funnel had blasted all sense of the weird picturesqueness of the
place in the minds of the inhabitants, that is, they were accustomed to
it, and sentiment in most hearts is slowly killed by use and wont, as
this forest had been killed by the encroaching water. Ann Markham's was
not a mind which harboured very much sentiment at that period of her
life; it was a keen, quick-witted, practical mind. She was not afraid
of the solitude of the night, or of the strange shapes and lights and
shadows about her. Now that she knew for certain that she was alone and
unpursued, she was for the time quite satisfied.

A mile more down the windings of the lake, and Ann began counting the
trees between certain landmarks. Then into an opening between the trees
which could not have been observed by a casual glance she steered her
boat, and worked it on into a little open passage-way among their
trunks. The way widened as she followed it, and then closed again. Where
the passage ended, one great tree had fallen, and its trunk with
upturned branches was lying, wedged between two standing trunks, in an
almost horizontal position. On it a man was sitting, a wild, miserable
figure of a man, who looked as if he might have been some savage being
who was at home there, but who spoke in a language too vicious and
profane for any savage.

He leaned out from his branch as far as he dared, and welcomed the girl
with curses because she had not come sooner, because it was now the
small hours of the night and he had expected her in the evening.

"Be quiet, father," said the girl; "what's the use of talking like
that!" Then she held the boat under the tree and helped him to slip down
into it, where, in spite of his rage, he stretched his legs with an
evident animal satisfaction. He wallowed in the straitened liberty that
the boat gave, lying down in the bottom and gently kicking out his
cramped limbs, while the girl held tight to the trees, steadying the
boat with her feet.

It was this power of taking an evident sensual satisfaction in such
small luxuries as he was able to obtain that had alone attached Markham
to his daughter. His character belonged to a type found both among men
and women; it was a nature entirely selfish and endowed with an
instinctive art in working upon the unselfish sentiments of others--an
art which even creates unselfishness in other selfish beings.

"I came as soon as I could," she said. "I suppose you did not want me to
put Toyner on your track."

"Yee owe," said the wretched man, stretching himself luxuriously. "I've
been a-standin' up and a-sittin' down and a-standin' up since last
night, an'----" Here he suddenly remembered something. He sat up and
looked round fearfully.

"When it got dark before the moon came I saw the devil! One! I think
there was half a dozen of them! I saw them comin' at me in the air. I'd
have gone mad if they hadn't gone off when the moon rose."

"Lie still, father, until I give you something to eat," she said.

While she was unfastening her bundle, she looked about her, and saw how
the spaces of shadow between the grey branches might easily seem to take
solid form and weird shape to a brain that was fevered with excitement
of crime and of flight and enforced vigil. She had a painful thing to
tell this man--that she could not, as she had hoped, release him from
his desperate prison that night; but she did not tell him until she had
fed him first and given him drink too. She insisted upon his taking the
food first. It was highly seasoned, beef with mustard upon it, and
pickles. All the while he watched her hand with thirsty eye. When he had
gulped his food to please her, she produced a small bottle. He cursed
her when he saw its size, but all the same he held out his hand for it
eagerly and drank its contents, shutting his eyes with satisfaction and
licking his lips.

All this time she was steadying the boat by holding on to a tree with a
strong arm.

"Now it's hard on you, father, but you'll have to stay here another
night. Down at The Mills they're watching for you, and it would be sure
death for you to try and get through the swamp, even if I could take you
in the boat to the edge anywhere."

The man, who had been entirely absorbed with eating and drinking and
stretching himself, now gave a low howl of anguish; then he struggled to
his knees and shook his fist in her face. "By ---- I'll throw you out of
this 'ere boat, I will; what do yer come tellin' me such a thing as that
for? Don't yer know I'd liefer die--don't yer know that?" He brought
his fist nearer and nearer to her eyes. "Don't yer know that?"

It appeared that he would have struck her, but by a dexterous twist of
her body and a pull upon the tree she jerked the boat so that he lost
his balance, not entirely, but enough to make him right himself with
care and sit down again, realising for the time being that it was she
who was mistress of this question--who should be thrown out of the boat
and drowned.

"Of course I'll row you to The Mills, if it's to jail you want to go;
but Walker is pretty bad, they say. I think it'll be murder they'll
bring you up for; and it ain't no sort of use trying to prove that you
didn't do it!"

The miserable man put his dirty knotted hands before his face and howled
again. But even that involuntary sound was furtive lest any one should
hear. He might have shrieked and roared with all the strength that was
in him--there was no human ear within reach--but the instinct of
cowardice kept him from making any more noise than was necessary to rend
and break the heart of the woman beside him,--that, although he was only
half conscious of it, was his purpose in crying. He had a fiendish
desire to make her suffer for bringing him such news.

Ann was not given to feeling for others, yet now it was intense
suffering to her to see him shaking, writhing, moving like a beast in
pain. She did not think of it as her suffering; she transferred it all
to him, and supposed that it was the realisation of his misery that she
experienced.

At last she said: "There's one fellow up to the falls that knows a track
through the north of the marsh to sound ground; I heard him tell it one
day how he'd found it out. It's that David Brown that's been coming
round to see Christa. Christa can get the chart he made from him by
to-morrow night--I know she can. I'll try to be here earlier than I was
to-night. And I brought you strips of stuff, father, so that you could
tie yourself on to the tree and have a sort of a sleep; and I brought a
few drops of morphia, just enough to make you feel sleepy and stupid,
and make the time pass a bit quicker."

For a long while he writhed and cried, telling her that it took all the
wits that he had to keep awake enough to keep the devils off him without
taking stuff to make him sleep, and that he was sure she'd never come
back, and that he would very likely be left on the tree to rot or to
fall into the water.

All that he said came so near to being true that it caused her the
utmost pain to hear it. He was clever enough by instinct, not by
thought, to know that mere idle cries could not torture her as did the
true picture of the fears and dangers that encompassed him in his wild
hiding-place. The endurance of this torture exhausted her as nothing had
ever exhausted her before; yet all the time she never doubted but that
the pain was his, and that she was merely a spectator.

She soothed him at last, not by gentleness and caresses--no such
communication ever passed between them--but by plain, practical, hopeful
suggestions spoken out clearly in the intervals of his whining. At
length she esteemed it time to use the spur instead of stroking him any
longer. "Get up on the tree, father, and I will give you the rest of the
things when you are fixed on the branch. If Toyner's stirring again
before I get home, he'll find means to keep me from coming to-morrow
night. Climb up now. I'll give you the things. There--there isn't enough
of the morphia drops to get you to sleep, only to make you feel easy;
and here's the strips of blanket I've sewed together to tie yourself on
with. It's nice and soft--climb up now and fix yourself. It's Toyner
that will catch me, and you too, if I don't get back. Look at the
moon--near the middle of the sky."

She established him upon the branch again with the comforts that she had
promised, and then she gave him one thing more, of which she had not
spoken before. It was a bag of food that would last, if need be, for
several days.

He took it as evidence that she had lied to him in her assurance that
she could return the next night. As she moved her boat out of the secret
openings among the dead trees, she heard him whining with fear and
calling a volley of curses after her.

That her father's words were all profane did not trouble Ann in the
least. It was a meaningless trick of speech. Markham meant no more at
this time by his most shocking oaths than does any man by his habitual
expletive. Ann knew this perfectly. God knew it too.

Yet if his profanity was mechanical, the man himself was without trace
of good. There was much reason that Ann's heart should be wrung with
pity. It is the divine quality of kinship that it produces pity even for
what is purely evil. Ann rowed her boat homeward with a hard
determination in her heart to save her father at any cost.




CHAPTER V.


An hour later the small solitary boat crept up the current of the
moonlit river. The weary girl plied her oars, looking carefully for the
nook under the roots of the old pine whence she had taken the boat.

She saw the place. She even glanced anxiously about the ground
immediately around it, thinking that in the glamour of light she could
see everything; and yet in that rapid glance, deluded, no doubt, into
supposing the light greater than it was, she failed to see a man who was
standing ready to help her to moor the boat.

Bart Toyner watched her with a look of haggard anxiety as she came
nearer.

A uniform is a useful thing. It is almost natural to an actor to play
his part when he has assumed its dress. A man in any official capacity
is often just an actor, and the best thing that he can do at times is to
act without a thought as to how his inner self accords with the action,
at least till we have attained to a higher level of civilisation. Toyner
had no uniform, nor had he mastered the philosophy that underlies this
instinct for playing a part; he had an idea that the whole mind and soul
of him should be in conscientious accord with all that he did. It was
this ideal that made his fall certain.

He had no notion that the girl had not seen him. Before she got out,
when she put her hand to tether the boat, she felt his hand gently
taking the rope from her and fell back with a cry of fear.

In her wearied state she could have sobbed with disappointment. How much
had he discovered? If he knew nothing more than merely that she had
returned with the boat, how could it be possible to elude him and come
again the next night? She thought of her father, and her heart was full
of pity; she thought that her own plans were baffled, and she was
enraged. Both sentiments fused into keener hatred of Toyner; but she
remembered--yes, even then she remembered quite clearly and
distinctly--that if the worst came to the worst and she could save her
father in no other way, she had one weapon in reserve, one in which she
had perfect faith.

It was for this reason that she sat still for a minute in the boat,
looking up at Toyner, trying to pry into his attitude toward her. At the
end of the minute he put out his hand to lift her up, and she leaned
upon it.

Without hesitation she began to thread her way through the wood toward
home, and he walked by her side. He might have been escorting her from a
dance, so quietly they walked together, except that the question of a
man's life or death which lay between them seemed to surround them with
a strange atmosphere.

At length Bart spoke. "I don't know where you have been," he said. "I
have been patrolling the shore all night." He paused awhile. "I thought
you were safe at home."

She stopped short and turned upon him. "Look here! what are you going to
do now? It's a pretty mean sort of business this you've taken to,
sneaking round your old friends to do them all the harm you can."

"It's the first time I knew that you'd ever been a friend of mine, Ann."
He said this in a sort of sad aside, and then: "You've sense enough to
know that when a man shoots another man he's got to be found and shut up
for the good of the country and for his own good too. It's the kindest
thing that can be done to a man sometimes, shutting him up in jail." He
said this last quite as much by way of explanation to himself as to her.

"Or hanging him," she suggested sarcastically.

He paused a moment. "I hope he won't come to that."

"But you'll do all you can to catch him, knowing that it's like to come
to that. What's the good of hoping?"

He had only said it to soothe her. He had another self-justification.

"I can only do what I have to do: it is not me that will decide whether
Walker dies or not. At any rate, it ain't no use to justify it to you.
It's natural that you should look upon me as an enemy just now; but all
the police in the country are more your enemies than I am. You've got
him off now, I suppose; however you've done it I don't pretend to know.
It'll be some one else that catches him if he's caught."

She wondered if he was only saying this to try her, or if he really
believed that Markham had gone far; yet there was small chance even then
that he would cease to watch her the next night and the next. He had
shown both resolution and diligence in this business--qualities, as far
as she knew, so foreign to his character that she smiled bitterly.

"A nice sort of thing religion is, to get out of the mire yourself and
spend your time kicking your old friends further in!"

Now the fugitive had been never a friend to Toyner, except in the sense
that he had done more than any one else to lead him into low habits and
keep him there. He had, in fact, been his greatest enemy; but that,
according to Toyner's new notions, was the more reason for counting him
a friend, not the less.

"Well, I grant 'tain't a very grand sort of business being constable,"
he said; "to be a preacher 'ud be finer perhaps; but this came to hand
and seemed the thing for me to do. It ain't kicking men in the mire to
do all you can to stop them making beasts of themselves."

He stood idling in the moonlight as he justified himself to this woman.
Surely it was only standing by his new colours to try to make his
position seem right to her. He had no hope in it--no hope of persuading
her, least of all of bringing her nearer to him; if he had had that, his
dallying would have seemed sinful, because it would have chimed so
perfectly with all his natural desires.

Ann took up her theme again fiercely. "Look here, Bart Toyner; I want to
know one thing, honour bright--that is," scornfully, "if you care about
honour now that you've got religion."

He gave a silent sarcastic smile, such as one would bestow upon a
naughty, ignorant child. "Well, at least as much as I did before," he
said.

"Well, then, I want to know if you're a-going to stop spying on me now
that father has got well off? There ain't no cause nor reason for you to
hang about me any longer. You know what my life has been, and you know
that through it all I've kept myself like a lady. It ain't nice, knowing
as people do that you came courting once, 'tain't nice to have you
hanging round in this way."

He knew quite well that the reason she gave for objecting to his spying
was not the true one. He had enough insight into her character, enough
knowledge of her manner and the modulations in her voice, to have a
pretty true instinct as to when she was lying and when she was not; but
he did not know that the allusion to the time when he used to court her
was thrown out to produce just what it did in him, a tender recollection
of his old hopes.

"Until Markham is arrested, you know, and every one else at Fentown
knows, that it is my duty to see that you don't communicate with him.
You've fooled me to-night, and I'll have to keep closer watch; but if
you don't want me to do the watching, I can pay another man."

She had hoped faintly that he would have shown himself less resolute;
now there was only one thing to be done. After all, she had known for
days that she might be obliged to do it.

"I wouldn't take it so hard, Bart, if it was any one but you," she said
softly. She went on to say other things of this sort which would make it
appear that there was in her heart an inward softness toward him which
she had never yet revealed. With womanly instinct she played her little
part well and did not exaggerate; but she was not speaking now to the
man of drug-weakened mind and over-stimulated sense whom she had known
in former years.

He spoke with pain and shame in his voice and attitude. "There isn't
anything that I could do for you, Ann, that I wouldn't do as it is,
without you pretending that way."

She did not quite take it in at first that she could not deceive him.

"I thought you used to care about me," she said; "I thought perhaps you
did yet; I thought perhaps"--she put well-feigned shyness into her
tone--"that you weren't the sort that would turn away from us just
because of what father has done. All the other folks will, of course.
I'm pretty much alone."

"I won't help you to break the laws, Ann. Law and righteousness is the
same for the most part. Your feeling as a daughter leads you the other
way, of course; but it ain't no good--it won't do any good to him in the
long run, and it would be wrong for me to do anything but just what I
ought to do as constable. When that's done we can talk of being friends
if you like, but don't go acting a lie with the hope of getting the
better of me. It hurts me to see you do it, Ann."

For the first time there dawned in her mind a new respect for him, but
that did not alter her desperate resolve. She had been standing before
him in the moonlight with downcast face; now she suddenly threw up her
head with a gesture that reminded him of the way a drowning man throws
up his hands.

"You've been wanting to convert me," she said. "You want me to sign the
pledge, and to stop going to dances and playing cards, and to bring up
Christa that way."

All the thoughts that he had had since his reform of what he could do
for this girl and her sister if she would only let him came before his
heart now, lit through and through with the light of his love that at
that moment renewed its strength with a power which appalled him.

She took a few steps nearer to him.

"Father didn't mean to do any harm," she whispered hastily; "he's got no
more sin on his soul than a child that gets angry and fights for what it
wants. He's just like a child, father is; but it's been a lesson to
him, and he'll never do it again. Think of the shame to Christa and me
if he was hanged. And I've striven so to keep us respectable--Bart, you
know I have. There's no shame in the world like your father being----"
(there was a nervous gasp in her throat before she could go on)--"and
he'd be awfully frightened. Oh, you don't know how frightened he'd be!
If I thought they were going to do that to him, it would just kill me.
I'll do anything; I wouldn't mind so much if they'd take me and hang me
instead--it wouldn't scare me so much: but father would be just like a
child, crying and crying and crying, if they kept him in jail and were
going to do that in the end. And then no one would expect Christa and me
to have any more fun, and we never would have any. There's a way that
you can get father off, Bart, and give him at least one more chance to
run for his life. If you'll do it, I'll do whatever you want,--I'll sign
the pledge; I'll go to church; I'll teach Christa that way. She and I
won't dance any more. You can count on me. You can trust me. You know
that when I say a thing I'll do it."

He realised now what had happened to him--a thing that of all things he
had learned to dread most,--a desperate temptation. He answered, and his
tone and manner gave her no glimpse of the shock of opposing forces that
had taken place within a heart that for many months had been dwelling in
the calm of victory.

"I cannot do it, Ann."

"Bart Toyner," she said, "I'm all alone in this world; there's not a
soul to help me. Every one's against me and against him. Don't turn
against me; I need your help--oh, I need it! I never professed to care
about you; but if your father was in danger of dying an awful death and
you came to me for help, I wouldn't refuse you, you know I wouldn't."

He only spoke now with the wish to conceal from her the panic within;
for with the overwhelming desire to yield to her had come a ghastly fear
that he was going to yield, and faith and hope fled from him. He saw
himself standing there face to face with his idea of God, and this
temptation between him and God. The temptation grew in magnitude, and
God withdrew His face.

"I know, Ann, it sounds hard about your father" (mechanically); "but you
must try and think how it would be if he was lying wounded like Walker
and some other man had done it. Wouldn't you think the law was in the
right then?"

"No!" (quickly). "If father'd got a simple wound, and could be nursed
and taken care of comfortably until he died, I wouldn't want any man to
be hanged for it. It's an awful, awful thing to be hanged."

She waited a moment, and he did not speak. The lesser light of night is
fraught with illusions. She thought that she saw him there quite plainly
standing quiet and indifferent. She was so accustomed to his
appearance--the carefulness of his dress, the grave eyes, and the thin,
drooping moustache--that her mind by habit filled in these details which
she did not in reality see; nor did she see the look of agonised prayer
that came and went across the habitual reserve of his face.

"Can't you believe what I say, Bart? I say that I will give up dancing
and selling beer, and sign the pledge, and dress plain, and go to
church. I say I will do it and Christa will do it; and you can teach us
all you've a mind to, day in and day out, and we'll learn if we can.
Isn't it far better to save Christa and me--two souls, than to hunt one
poor man to death? Don't you believe that I'll do what I promise? I'll
go right home now and give it to you in writing, if you like."

"I do believe you, Ann." He stopped to regain the steadiness of his
voice. He had had training in forcing his voice in the last few months,
for he hated to bear verbal testimony to his religious beliefs, and yet
he had taught himself to do it. He succeeded in speaking steadily now,
in the same strong voice in which he had learnt to pray at meetings. It
was not exactly his natural voice. It sounded sanctimonious and
ostentatious, but that was because he was forced to conceal that his
heart within him was quaking. "I do believe that you would do what you
say, Ann; but it isn't right to do evil that good may come."

He did not appeal to her pity; he did not try to tell her what it cost
him to refuse. If he could have made her understand that, she might have
been turned from her purpose. He realised only the awful weakness and
wickedness of his heart. He seemed to see those appetites which, up to a
few months before, had possessed him like demons, hovering near him in
the air, and he seemed to see God holding them back from him, but only
for so long as he resisted this temptation.

To her he said aloud: "I cannot do it, Ann. In God's strength I cannot
and will not do it."

Within his heart he seemed to be shouting aloud to Heaven: "My God, I
will not do it, I will not do it. Oh, my God!" He turned his back upon
her and went quickly to the village, only looking to see that at some
distance she followed him, trudging humbly as a squaw walks behind her
Indian, as far as her own door.




CHAPTER VI.


When one drops one's plummet into life anywhere it falls the whole
length of the line we give it. The man who can give his plummet the
longest line is he who realises most surely that it has not touched the
bottom.

Bart Toyner betook himself to prayer. He had learned from his friend the
preacher that when a man is tempted he must pray until he is given the
victory, and then, calm and steadfast, go out to face the world again.
If Toyner's had been a smaller soul, the need of his life would have
imperatively demanded then that just what he expected to happen to him
should happen, and in some mysterious way no doubt it would have
happened.

When we quietly observe religious life exactly as it is, without the
bias of any theory, there are two constantly recurring facts which,
taken together, excite deep astonishment: the fact that small minds
easily attain to a certainty of faith to which larger minds attain more
slowly and with much greater distress; and also the fact that the
happenings of life do actually come in exact accordance to a man's
faith--faith being not the mere expectation that a thing is going to
take place, but the inner eye that sees into the heart of things, and
knows that its desire must inevitably take place, and why. This sort of
faith, be it in a tiny or great nature, comes triumphantly in actual
fact to what it predicts; but the little heart comes to it easily and
produces trivial prayers, while the big heart, thinking to arrive with
the same ease at the same measure of triumph, is beaten back time and
time and again.

Probably the explanation is that the smaller mind has not the same
germinating power; there is not enough in it to cause the long, slow
growth of root and stem, and therefore it soon puts forth its little
blossom. These things all happen, of course, according to eternal law of
inward development; they are not altered by any force from without,
because nothing is without: the sun that makes the daisy to blossom is
just that amount of sun that it absorbs into itself, and so with the
acorn or the pine-cone. These latter, however, do not produce any bright
immediate blossom, though they ultimately change the face of all that
spot of earth by the spread of their roots and branches.

After praying a long time Bart Toyner relapsed into meditation,
endeavouring to contemplate those attributes of his God which might
bring him the strength which he had not yet attained, and just here came
to him the subtlest and strongest reinforcement to all those arguments
which were chiming together upon what appeared to him the side of evil.
The God in whom he had learned to trust was a God who, moved by pity,
had come out of His natural path to give a chance of salvation to wicked
men by the sacrifice of Himself. To what did he owe his own rescue but
to this special adjustment of law made by God? and how then was it right
for him to adhere to the course the regular law imposed on him and to
hunt down Markham? If he saved Markham, he would answer to the law for
his own breach of duty--this would be at least some sacrifice. Was not
this course a more God-like one?

There was one part of Toyner that spoke out clearly and said that his
duty was exactly what he had esteemed it to be before Ann Markham
appealed to him. He believed this part of him to be his conscience.

All the rest of him slowly veered round to thoughts of mercy rather than
legal duty; he thought of Ann and Christa with hard, godless hearts,
surrounded by every form of folly and sin, and he believed that Ann
would keep her promise to him, and that different surroundings would
give them different souls. Yet he felt convinced that God and conscience
forbade this act of mercy.

One thing he was as certain of now as he had been at the beginning--that
if he disobeyed God, God would leave him to the power of all his evil
appetites; he felt already that his heart gave out thoughts of affection
to his old evil life.

As the hours passed he began to realise that he would need to disobey
God. He found himself less and less able to face the thought of giving
up this rare opportunity of winning Ann's favour and an influence over
her--_moral_ influence at least; his mind was clear enough to see that
what was gained by disobeying God's law was from a religious point of
view nil. In his mind was the beginning of a contempt for God's way of
saving him. If he was to win his own soul by consigning Ann and her
father to probable perdition, he did not want to win it.

The August morning came radiant and fresh; the air, sharp with a touch
of frost from neighbouring hills, bore strength and lightness for every
creature. The sunlight was gay on the little wooden town, on its breezy
gardens and wastes of flowering weeds, on the descent of the foaming
fall, on the clear brown river. Even the sober wood of ash and maple
glistened in the morning light, and the birds sang songs that in
countries where a longer summer reigns are only heard in spring-time.

Bart Toyner went out of the house exhausted and almost hopeless. The
source of his strength had failed within him. He looked forward to
defeat.

As it happened Toyner's official responsibility for Markham's arrest was
to be lightened. The Crown Attorney for the county had already
communicated with the local government, and a detective had been sent,
who arrived that morning by the little steamboat. Before Toyner realised
the situation he found himself in consultation with the new-comer as to
the best means of seeking Markham. Did the perfect righteousness require
that he should betray Ann's confidence and state that Markham was in
hiding somewhere within reach? Bart looked the question for a moment in
the face, and trembled before it. Then he set it aside unanswered,
resolved on reticence, whether it was right or wrong.

The detective, finding that Toyner had no clue to report, soon went to
drink Ann's beer, on business intent. Bart kept sedulously apart from
this interview. When it was over the stranger took Toyner by the arm and
told him privately that he was convinced that the young woman knew
nothing whatever about the prisoner, and as Markham had been gone now
forty-eight hours it was his opinion that it was not near Fentown that
he would be found.

This communication was made to Toyner in the public-house, where they
had both gone the better to discuss their affairs. Toyner had gone in
labouring under horrible emotion. He believed that he was going to get
drunk, and the result of his fear was that he broke his pledge, giving
as an excuse to the by-standers that he felt ill. Yet he did not get
drunk.

Toyner saw the detective depart by the afternoon boat, and as he walked
back upon the bit of hot dusty road in the sun he reeled, not with the
spirits he had taken, but with the sickening sense that his battle was
lost.

Nothing seemed fair to him, nothing attractive, but to drink one more
glass of spirits, and to go and make promises to Ann that would be sweet
to her ear. He knew that for him it was the gate of death.

At this point the minister met him, and jumped at once to the conclusion
that he was drunk. The minister was one of those good men who found
their faith in God upon absolute want of faith in man. His heart was
better than his head, as is the case with all small-minded souls that
have come into conscious contact with God, but his opinions ruled his
official conduct. "I am afraid you have been drinking, Toyner," he said
reproachfully.

The first three words, "I am afraid," were enough for Bart; he was
filled himself with an all-pervading fear--a fear of himself, a fear of
God, a fear of the devil who would possess him again. He was not drunk;
the fact that drunkenness in him appeared so likely to this man, who was
the best friend he had, completed in his heart the work of revolt
against the minister and the minister's God. What right had God to take
him up and clothe him and keep him in his right mind for a little while,
just to let him fall at the first opportunity? It was quite true that he
had deserved it, no doubt; he had done wrong, and he was going to do
wrong; but God, who had gone out of His way to mercifully convert him
and keep him straight for a while, could certainly have gone on keeping
him if He had chosen. His mind was a logical one. He had been taught to
praise God for some extraordinary favour towards him; he had been taught
that the grace which had changed his life for good was in no degree his
own; and why then was he to bear all the disgrace of his return to evil?

In the next hours he walked the streets of the town, and talked to other
men when need was, and did a little business on his own account in the
agency in which he was engaged, and went home and took supper, watching
the vagaries of his father's senile mania with more than common pity for
the old man. His own wretchedness gave him an aching heart of sympathy
for all the sorrow of others which came across his mind that day.

The whole day was a new revelation to him of what tenderness for others
could be and ought to be.

He did not hope to attain to any working out of this higher sympathy and
pity himself. The wonderful confidence which his new faith had so long
given him, that he was able in God's strength to perform the higher
rather than the lower law of his nature, had ebbed away. God's strength
was no longer with him; he was going to the devil; he could do nothing
for himself, little for others; but he sympathised as never before with
all poor lost souls. He was a little surprised, as the day wore to a
close, that he had been able to control his craving, that he had not
taken more rum. Still, he knew that he would soon be helpless. It was
his doom, for he could awake in himself no further feeling of repentance
or desire to return to God.

In the long day's struggle, half conscious and half unconscious, his
love for Ann--and it was not a bad sort of love either--had triumphed
over what principle he had; it had survived the sudden shock that had
wrecked his faith. The hell which he was experiencing was intolerable
now, because of the heaven which he had seen, and he could not forgive
the God who had ordained it. The unreal notion that an omnipotent God
can permit what He does not ordain could have no weight with him, for he
was grappling with reality. As he brooded bitterly upon his own fate,
his heart became enlarged with tenderness for all other poor helpless
creatures like himself who were under the same misrule.

His resolution was taken--he would use his sobriety to help Ann. It
would not profit himself, but still he would win from her the promise
concerning her future life and Christa's which she had offered him, and
he would go that night and do all that a man could do to help the poor
wretch to whom his heart went out with ever-increasing pity. It would
not be much, but he would do what he could, and after that he would tell
the authorities what he had done and give up his office. He had a very
vague notion of the penalties he would incur; if they put him in prison,
so much the better--it might save him a little longer from drinking
himself to death.

Like an honest man he had given up attempting to pull God round to his
own position. He did not now think for a moment that the act of love and
mercy which possessed his soul was a pious one; his motive he believed
to be solely his pity for Markham and his love for Ann, which, being
natural, he supposed to be selfish, and, being selfish, he knew to be
unholy.

It had all come to this, then--his piety, his reformation, his prayers,
his thanksgiving, his faith. His heart within him gave a sneering laugh.
He was terribly to blame, of course--he was a reprobate; but surely God
was to blame too!




CHAPTER VII.


Ann Markham's thoughts of Bart that day were chiefly wondering thoughts.
She tried to think scornfully of his refusal to help her; theoretically
she derided the religion that produced the refusal, but in the bottom of
her heart she looked at it with a wonder that was akin to admiration.
Then there was a question whether he would remain fixed in his
resolution. If this man did not love her then Ann's confidence failed
her in respect to her judgment of what was or was not; for though she
had regarded him always as a person of not much strength or importance,
not independent enough to be anything more than the creature of the
woman whom he desired to marry, yet, curiously enough, she had believed
that his love for her had a strength that would die hard. She did not
stop to ask herself how it could be that a weak man could love her
strongly. Love, in any constant and permanent sense of the word, was an
almost unknown quality among her companions, and yet she had attributed
it to Bart. Well! his refusal of last night proved that she had been
mistaken--that was all. But possibly the leaven of her proposal would
work, and he would repent and come back to her. The fact that he had
evidently not betrayed her to the detective gave her hope of this. Her
thoughts about Toyner were only subordinate to the question, how she was
to rescue her father. With the light and strength of the morning, hope
in other possibilities of eluding Bart, even if he remained firm, came
back to her. She would at least work on; if she was baffled in the end,
it would be time enough to despair. Her sister was not her confidante,
she was her tool.

Ann waited until the shadow of the pear tree, which with ripening fruit
overhung the gable of their house, stretched itself far down the bit of
weedy grass that sloped to the river. The grass plot was wholly
untended, but nature had embroidered it with flowers and ferns.

Ann sat sewing by the table on which she kept her supply of beer. She
could not afford to lose her sales to-day, although she knew bitterly
that most of those who turned in for a drink did so out of prying
curiosity. Even Christa, not very quick of feeling, had felt this, and
had retired to lounge on the bed in the inner room with a paper novel.
Christa usually spent her afternoon in preparing some cheap finery to
wear in the cool of the evening, but she felt the family disgrace and
Ann's severity, and was disheartened. As Ann bided her time and
considered her own occupation and Christa's, she marvelled at the
audacity of the promise which she had offered to give Bart, yet so awful
was the question at stake that her only wish was that he had accepted
it.

At four o'clock in the afternoon she roused Christa and apportioned a
certain bit of work to her. There was a young man in Fentown called
David Brown, a comely young fellow, belonging to one of the richer
families of the place. He was good-natured, and an athlete; he had of
late fallen into the habit of dropping in frequently to drink Ann's
beer. She felt no doubt that Christa was his attraction. Some weeks
before he had boasted that he had found the bed of a creek which made
its way through the drowned forest, and that by it he had paddled his
canoe through the marsh that lay to the north of the lake. He had also
boasted that he had a secret way of finding the creek again. Upon
considering his character Ann believed that although the statement was
given boastfully it was true. Brown had a trace of Indian blood in him,
and possessed the faculties of keen observation and good memory. It was
by the help of this secret that she had hoped to extricate her father
herself. There was still a chance that she might be able to use it.

"Some men think the world and all of a woman if they can only get into
the notion that she is ill-used. David may be more sweet on you than
ever," said Ann to Christa. "Put on your white frock: it's a little
mussed, so it won't look as if you were trying to be fine; don't put on
any sash, but do your hair neatly."

She will look taking enough, thought Ann to herself; she did not
despise herself for the stratagem. It was part of the hard, practical
game that she had played all her life, for that matter; she was not
conscious of loving Christa any more than she was conscious of loving
her father. It was merely her will that they should have the utmost
advantage in life that she could obtain for them. Nothing short of a
moral revolution could have changed this determination in her.

When Christa had performed her toilet, obeying Ann from mere habit, Ann
drilled her in the thing she was to do. Brown would of course suspect
what this information was to be used for. Christa was to coax him to
promise secrecy. Ann went over the details of the plan again and again,
until she was quite sure that the shallow forgetful child understood the
importance of her mission.

Christa sat with her elbows on the table and cried a little. Her fair
hair was curled low over her eyes, the coarse white dress hung limp but
soft, leaving her neck bare. With all her motions her head nodded on her
slender graceful neck, like a flower which bows on its stalk.

Before this disaster Christa had spent her life laughing; that had been
more becoming to her than sullenness and tears. For all that, Ann was
not sorry that Christa's eyelids should be red when David Brown was seen
slowly lounging toward the window.

He had not been to see them the day before; it was apparent from his air
that he thought it was not quite the respectable thing to do to-day. He
tried to approach the house with a _nonchalant_, happen-by-chance air,
so that if any one saw him they would suppose his stopping merely
accidental.

Ann poured out his beer. Christa looked at him with eyes full of
reproach. Then she got up and went away to the doorstep, and stood
looking out. To the surprise of both of them, David did not follow her
there. He stood still near Ann.

"It's hard on Christa," said Ann with a sigh; "she has been crying all
day. Every one will desert us now, and we shall have to live alone
without friends."

"Oh no" (abruptly); "nobody blames you."

"I don't mind for myself so much; I don't care so much about what people
think, or how they treat me." She lifted her head proudly as she spoke.
"But" (with pathos) "it's hard on Christa."

"No; you never think of yourself, do you?" David giggled a little as he
said it, betraying that he felt his words to be unusually personal. Ann
wondered for a minute what could be the cause of this giggle, and then
she returned to the subject of Christa's suffering.

"Look here," he interrupted, "if there's any little thing I can do to
help you, like lending you money if you're left hard up, or anything of
that sort, you know" (he was blushing furiously now), "it's for you I'd
do it," he blurted out. "I don't care about Christa."

"The silly fellow!" thought Ann. She was six years older than he, and
she felt herself to be twenty years older. She entirely scorned his
admiration in its young folly; but she did not hesitate a moment to make
use of it. All her life had been a long training in that thrift which
utilised everything for family gain. She was a thorough woman of
society, this girl who sat in her backwoods cottage selling beer.

She looked at the boy, and a sudden glow of sensibility appeared in her
face. "Oh, David!" she said; "I thought it was Christa."

"But it isn't Christa," he stammered, grinning. He was hugely pleased
with the idea that she had accepted his declaration of courtship.

Half an hour later and Ann had the secret of the new track through the
north of the drowned forest, and Brown had the wit not to ask her what
she wanted to do with it. He had done more--he had offered to row her
boat for her, but this Ann had refused.

It was a curious thing, this refusal. It arose purely from principle on
her part; she had come to the limit which the average mind sets to the
evil it will commit. She deceived and cajoled the boy without scruple,
but she did not allow him to break the law. She remembered that he had
parents who valued his good name more than he had as yet learned to
value it. He was young; he was in her power; and she declined his
further help.

Christa had wandered down the grass to the river-side and stood there
pouting meanwhile.




CHAPTER VIII.


This incident with David Brown and the getting possession of his chart
was the one stimulant that helped Ann to endure this long day of
inactivity. It was like a small thimbleful of wine to one who longed for
a generous draught; there was nothing else to do but to wait, alert for
all chances that might help her. Evening closed in; the sisters were
left alone. Christa returned indolently to lounging upon the bed and
reading her novel. If Ann had had less strength, she would have paced
the floor of the outer room in impatience; as it was she sat still by
the table which held the beer and stitched her seam diligently. About
eight o'clock she heard Toyner's step.

Was he going to haunt the house again in order to keep her from going
out of it?

He came up to the door and came in.

She was preparing herself to act just as if she did not know who had
come, and did not take much notice of him; but when he came up and she
looked at his face in the lamp-light, she saw written in it the struggle
that he had gone through. Its exact nature and detail she was incapable
of conceiving, but one glance proved to her its reality. She was struck
by the consciousness of meeting an element in life which was wholly new
to her. When such a thing forces itself upon our attention, however
indefinite and unexpressed may be our thought, it is an experience never
to be forgotten. Ann fought against her conviction. She began at once,
as intelligent humanity always does, to explain away what she did not
understand, supposing by that means that she could do away with its
existence.

"I think you are ill, Bart," she said quickly. "It looks to me as if you
were in for a bout of chills; and enough to give it to you too, hanging
about in the woods all night."

He drew a chair close to the table and sat down beside her.

"There isn't any chills in the swamps about here," he said; "they are as
wholesome as dry land is." She saw by this that he had no intention of
upbraiding her with his fall, or of proclaiming the object of his visit.
She wanted to rouse him into telling her something.

"I heard them saying something about you to-day that I didn't believe a
bit. I heard you were in the saloon drinking."

He took hold of the end of her seam, passed his finger along it as if
examining the fabric and the stitches. "I took one glass," he said,
with the curious quiet gravity which lay to-night like a spell upon all
his words and actions.

"Well," she said cheerily, "I don't believe in a man making a slave of
himself, not to take a glass when he wants it just because he sometimes
makes a beast of himself by taking more than he ought."

"If you choose to think black is white, Ann, it will not make it that
way."

"That's true," she replied compliantly; "and you've got more call to
know than I have, for I've never 'been there.'"

"God forbid!" he said with sudden intensity. All the habits of thought
of the last year put strength into his words. "If I thought you ever
could be 'there,' Ann, it's nothing to say that I'd die to save you from
it."

She let her thought dwell for a moment upon the picture of herself as a
drunkard which had caused such intense feeling in him. "I am not worth
his caring what becomes of me in that way," she thought to herself. It
was the first time it ever occurred to her to think that she was
unworthy of the love he had for her; but at the same moment she felt a
shadow extinguish the rays of hope she had begun to feel, for she
believed, as Bart did, that his piety was in direct opposition to the
help he might otherwise give her. She had begun to hope that piety had
loosened its grasp upon him for the time.

"I don't know what's to become of us, Christa and me," she said
despairingly; "if we don't take to drink it will be a wonder, everybody
turning the cold shoulder on us."

This was not her true thought at all. She knew herself to be quite
incapable of the future she suggested, but the theme was excellently
adapted to work upon his feelings.

"I'm going away to-night, Ann," he said; "perhaps I won't see you again
for a long time; but you know all that you said you would promise last
night----"

Her heart began to beat so sharply against her side with sudden hope,
and perhaps another feeling to which she gave no name, that her answer
was breathless. "Yes," she said eagerly, "if----"

He went on gravely: "I am going to start to-night in a row-boat for The
Mills. You can tell me where your father is, and on my way I'll do all I
can to help him to get away. It won't be much use perhaps. It is most
likely that he will only get away from this locality to be arrested in
another, but all that one man can do to help him I will do; but you'll
have to give me the promise first, and I'll trust you to keep it."

Ann said nothing. The immediate weight of agonised care for her father's
life was lifted off her; but she had a strange feeling that the man who
had taken her responsibility had taken upon him its suffering too in a
deeper sense than she could understand. It flashed across her, not
clearly but indistinctly, that the chief element in her suffering had
been the shame of defying law and propriety rather than let her father
undergo a just penalty. In some way or other this had been all
transferred to Bart, and in the glimmering understanding of his
character which was growing within her, she perceived that he had it in
him to suffer under it far more intensely than she had suffered. It was
very strange that just when she obtained the promise she wanted from him
she would have been glad to set him free from it!

Within certain self-pleasing limits Ann had always been a good-natured
and generous person, and she experienced a strong impulse of this good
nature and generosity just now, but it was only for a moment, and she
stifled it as a thing that was quite absurd. Her father must be
relieved, of course, from his horrid situation; and, after all, Bart
could help him quite easily, more easily than any other man in the world
could, and then come back and go on with his life as before. Questions
of conscience had never, so far, clouded Ann's mental horizon. A
moment's effort to regain her habitual standpoint made it quite clear to
her that in this case it was she, she and Christa, who were making the
sacrifice; a minute more, and she could almost have found it in her
heart to grumble at the condition of the vow which she had so liberally
sketched the night before, and only the fact that there was something
about Bart which she did not at all understand, and a fear that that
something might be a propensity to withdraw from his engagement, made
her submissively adhere to it.

"Christa and I will sign the pledge. We will give up dancing and wearing
finery. We will stop being friends with worldly people, and we will go
to church and meetings, and try to like them." Ann repeated her vow.

Bart took the pen and ink with which she chronicled her sales of beer
and wrote the vow twice on two pages of his note-book; at the bottom he
added, "God helping me." Ann signed them both, he keeping one and giving
her the other.

This contract on Ann's part had many of the elements of faith in it--a
wonderful audacity of faith in her own power to revolutionise her life
and control her sister's, and all the unreasoning child-likeness of
faith which could launch itself boldly into an unknown future without
any knowledge of what life would be like there.

On the part of Toyner the contract showed the power that certain habits
of thought, although exercised only for a few months, had over him. Good
people are fond of talk about the weakness of good habits compared with
the strength of bad ones. But, given the same time to the formation of
each, the habits which a man counts good must be stronger than those
which he counts evil, because the inner belief of his mind is in unity
with them. Toyner believed to-night that he was in open revolt against a
rule of life which he had found himself unable to adhere to, and against
the God who had ordained it; but, all the same, it was this rule, and
faith in the God which he had approached by means of it, that actuated
him during this conference with Ann. As a man who had given up hope for
himself might desire salvation for his child, so he gravely and gently
set her feet in what he was accustomed to regard as the path of life
before he himself left it.




CHAPTER IX.


Ann's plan of the way in which Toyner more than any other man could aid
her father was simple enough. He who was known to be in pursuit of
Markham was to take him as a friend through the town at The Mills and
start him on the road at the other side. Markham was little known at The
Mills, and no one would be likely to take the companion of the constable
to be the criminal for whose arrest he had been making so much
agitation; they were to travel at the early hour of dawn when few were
stirring. This plan, with such modifications as his own good sense
suggested, Toyner was willing to adopt.

He started earlier in the evening than she had done, having no
particular desire for secrecy. He told his friends that he was going to
row to The Mills by night, and those who heard him supposed that he had
gained some information concerning Markham that he thought it best to
report. It was a calm night; the smoke of distant burning was still in
the air.

He dropped down the river in the dark hours before the moonrise, and
began to row with strength, as Ann had done, when he reached the placid
water. His boat was light and well built. He could see few yards of dark
water in advance; he could see the dark outline of the trees. The water
was deep; there were no rocks, no hidden banks; he did not make all the
haste he could, but rowed on meditatively--he was always more or less
attracted by solitude. To-night the mechanical exercise, the darkness,
the absolute loneliness, were greater rest to him than sleep would have
been. In a despairing dull sort of way he was praying all the time; his
mind had contracted a habit of prayer, at least if expressing his
thoughts to the divine Being in the belief that they were heard may be
called prayer.

Probably no one so old or so wise but that he will behave childishly if
he can but feel himself exactly in the same relation to a superior being
that a child feels to a grown man. Toyner expressed his grievance over
and over again with childlike simplicity; he explained to God that he
could not feel it to be right or fair that, when he had prayed so very
much, and prayers of the sort to which a blessing was promised, he
should be given over to the damning power of circumstance, launched in a
career of back-sliding, and made thereby, not only an object of greater
scorn to all men than if he had never reformed, but actually, as it
appeared to him, more worthy of scorn.

He did not expect his complaints to be approved by the Deity, and gained
therefore no satisfying sense that the prayer had ascended to heaven.

The moon arose, the night was very warm; into the aromatic haze a mist
was arising from the water on all sides. It was not so thick but that he
could see his path through it in the darkness; but when the light came
he found a thin film of vapour between him and everything at which he
looked. The light upon it was so great that it seemed to be luminous in
itself, and it had a slightly magnifying power, so that distances looked
greater, objects looked larger, and the wild desolate scene with which
he was familiar had an aspect that was awful because so unfamiliar.

When Toyner realised what the full effect of the moonlight was going to
be, he dropped his oars and sat still for a few minutes, wondering if
he would be able to find the landmarks that were necessary, so strange
did the landscape look, so wonderful and gigantic were the shapes which
the dead trees assumed. Then he continued his path, looking for a tree
that was black and blasted by lightning. He was obliged to grope his way
close to the trees; thus his boat bumped once or twice on hidden stumps.
It occurred to him to think what a very lonely place it would be to die
in, and a premonition that he was going to die came across him.

Having found the blasted tree, he counted four fallen trees; they came
at intervals in the outer row of standing ones; then there was a break
in the forest, and he turned his boat into it and paused to listen.

The sound that met his ear--almost the strangest sound that could have
been heard in that place--was that of human speech; it was still some
distance away, but he heard a voice raised in angry excitement,
supplicating, threatening, defying, and complaining.

Toyner began to row down the untried water-way which was opened to his
boat. The idea that any one had found Markham in such a place and at
such an hour was too extraordinary to be credited. Toyner looked eagerly
into the mist. He could see nothing but queer-shaped gulfs of light
between trunks and branches. Again his boat rubbed unexpectedly against
a stump, and again the strange premonition of approaching death came
over him. For a moment he thought that his wisest course would be to
return. Then he decided to go forward; but before obeying this command,
his mind gave one of those sudden self-attentive flashes the capacity
for which marks off the mind of the reflective type from others. He saw
himself as he sat there, his whole appearance and dress; he took in his
history, and the place to which that hour had brought him, he, Bart
Toyner, a thin, somewhat drooping, middle-aged man, unsuccessful,
because of his self-indulgence, in all that he had attempted, yet having
carried about with him always high desires, which had never had the
slightest realisation except in the one clear shining space of vision
and victory which had been his for a few months and now was gone. The
light had mocked him; now perhaps he was going to die!

He pushed his boat on, his sensations melting into an excited blank of
thought in which curiosity was alone apparent. He was growing strangely
excited after his long calm despondency; no doubt the excitement of the
other, who was shouting and jabbering not far away in the moonlit
night, affected him.

He found his way through the trees of the opening; evidently the splash
of his oar was caught by the owner of the noisy voice, for before he
could see any one a silence succeeded to the noise, a sudden absolute
silence, in itself shocking.

"Are you there, Markham?" cried Toyner.

No answer.

Toyner peered into the silver mist on all sides of him; the sensation of
the diffused moonlight was almost dazzling, the trees looked far away,
large and unreal. At length among them he saw the great log that had
fallen almost horizontal with the water; upon it a solitary human figure
stood erect in an attitude of frenzied defiance.

"I have come from your daughter, Markham." Then in a moment, by way of
self-explanation, he said, "Toyner."

The man addressed only flung a clenched fist into the air. The silence
of his pantomime now that there was some one to speak to was made
ghastly by the harangue which he had been pouring out upon the solitude.

"Have you lost your head?" asked Toyner. "I have come from your
daughter--I'm not going to arrest you, but set you down at The
Mills--you can go where you will then."

He knew now the answer to his first question. The man before him was in
some stage of delirium. Toyner wondered if any one could secretly have
brought him drink.

There was nothing to be done but to soothe as best he could the other's
fear and enmity, and to bring the boat close to the tree for him to get
in it. Whether he was sane or mad, it was clearly necessary to take him
from that place. Markham retained a sullen silence, but seemed to
understand so far that he ceased all threatening gestures. His only
movements were certain turnings and sudden crouchings as if he saw or
felt enemies about him in the air.

"Now, get in," said Toyner. He had secured the boat. He pulled the other
by the legs, and guided him as he slipped from his low bench. "Sit down;
you can't stand, you know."

But Markham showed himself able to keep his balance, and alert to help
in pushing off the boat. There was a heavy boat-pole ready for use in
shallow water, and Markham for a minute handled it adroitly, pushing off
from his tree.

Toyner turned his head perforce to see that the boat was not proceeding
towards some other dangerous obstacle. Then Markham, with the sudden
swift cunning of madness, lifted the butt end of his pole and struck him
on the head.

Toyner sank beneath the blow as an ox shivers and sinks under the
well-aimed blow of the butcher.

Markham looked about him for a moment with an air of childish triumph,
looked not alone at the form of the fallen man before him, but all
around in the air, as if he had triumphed not over one, but over many.

No eye was there to see the look of fiendish revenge that flitted next
over the nervous working of his face. Then he fell quickly to work
changing garments with the limp helpless body lying in the bottom of the
boat. With unnatural strength he lifted Toyner, dressed in his own coat
and hat, to the horizontal log on which he had lived for so long. He
took the long mesh of woollen sheeting that his daughter had brought to
be a rest and support to his own body, and with it he tied Toyner to the
upright tree against which the log was lying; then, with an additional
touch of fiendish satire, he took a bit of dry bread out of the ample
bag of food which Ann had hung there for his own needs, and laid it on
Toyner's knees. Having done all this he pushed his boat away with
reckless rapidity, and rowed it back into the open water, steering with
that unerring speed by which a somnambulist is often seen to perform a
dangerous feat.

The moonlit mist and the silence of night closed around this lonely nook
in the dead forest and Toyner's form sitting upon the fallen log. In the
open river, where no line determined the meeting of the placid moonlit
water and the still, moonlit mist, the boat dashed like a dark streak
up the white winding Ahwewee toward the green forest around Fentown
Falls. The small dark figure of the man within it was working at his
oars with a strength and regularity of some powerful automaton. At every
stroke the prow shot forward, and the sound of the splashing oars made
soft echoes far and wide.




CHAPTER X.


When men have visions the impression left upon their minds is that light
from the unseen world of light has in some way broken through into the
sphere of their cognizance. The race in its ages of reflection has upon
the whole come to the conclusion that that which actually takes place is
the gradual growth and the sudden breaking forth of light within the
mysterious depths of the man himself. A new explanation of a fact does
not do away with the fact.

Toyner was not dead, he was stunned; his head was badly injured. When
his consciousness returned, and through what process of inflammation and
fever his wounded head went in the struggle of nature toward recovery,
was never clearly known. His body, bound with the soft torn cloths to
the upright tree, sagged more and more until it found a rest upon the
inclined log. The fresh sweet air from pine woods, the cool vapours from
the water beneath him, were nurses of wise and delicate touch. The sun
arose and shone warmly, yet not hotly, through the air in which dry haze
was thickening. The dead trees stood in the calm water, keeping silence
as it were, a hundred stalwart guards with fingers at their lips, lest
any sound should disturb the life that, with beneficent patience, was
little by little restoring the wounded body from within. Even the little
vulgar puffing market-boat that twice a day passed the windings of the
old river channel--the only disturber of solitude--was kept at so great
a distance by this guard of silent trees that no perception of her
passing, and all the life and perplexity of which she must remind him,
entered into Toyner's half-closed avenues of sense.

For two days the sun rose on Bart through the mellow, smoke-dimmed
atmosphere. Each night it lay in a red cloud for an hour in the west,
tingeing and dyeing all the mirror below the trees with red. No one was
there in the desolate lake to see the twice-told glory of that rosy
flood and firmament, unless it was this wondrous light that first
penetrated the eyes of the prisoner with soothing brightness.

It was at some hour of light--sunset or sunrise, or it might have been
in the blending of the mornings and the evenings in that confusion of
mind which takes no heed of time--that Toyner first began to know
himself. Then it was not of himself that he took knowledge; his heart in
its waking felt after something else around and beneath and above him,
everywhere, something that meant light and comfort and rest and love,
something that was very strong, that was strength; he himself, Bart
Toyner, was part of this strength, and rested in it with a rest and
refreshing which is impossible to weakness, however much it may crave.

It came to him as he lay there, not knowing the where or when of his
knowledge--it came to him that he had made a great mistake, as a little
child makes a mistake in laughable ignorance. Indeed, he laughed within
himself as he thought what a strange, childish, grotesque notion he had
had,--he had thought, he had actually thought, that God was only a part
of things; that he, Bart Toyner, could turn away from God; that God's
power was only with him when he supposed himself to be obedient to Him!
Yes, he had thought this; but now he knew that God was all and in all.

There came to him, trooping with this new joy of knowledge, the sensuous
sight and sound and smell of many things that he had known, but had not
understood, before. All the spring-times through which he had walked
unconscious of their meaning, came to him. There was a sound in his ears
of delicate flowers springing to light through dewy moss, of buds
bursting, and he saw the glancing of myriad tiny leaves upon the grey
old trees. With precisely the same sense of sweetness came the vision of
days when autumn rain was falling, and the red and sear leaf, the nut,
the pine-cone and the flower-seed were dropping into the cold wet earth.
Was life in the spring, and death in the autumn? Was the power and love
of God not resting in the damp fallen things that lay rotting in the
ground?

There came before him a troop of the little children of Fentown, all the
rosy-cheeked faces and laughing eyes and lithe little dancing forms that
he had ever taken the trouble to notice; and Ann and Christa came and
stood with them--Christa with her dancing finery, with her beautiful,
thoughtless, unemotional face, her yellow hair, and soft white hands;
and Ann, a thousand times more beautiful to him, with her sun-brown
tints and hazel eyes, so full of energy and forethought, her dark neat
hair and working-dress and hardened hands--this was beauty! Over against
it he saw Markham, blear-eyed, unkempt and dirty; and his own father, a
gaunt, idiotic wreck of respectable manhood; and his mother, faded,
worn, and peevish; with them stood the hunch-backed baker of Fentown
and all the coarse and ugly sons of toil that frequented its wharfs.
There was not a child or a maiden among those he saw first who did not
owe their life to one of these. With the children and the maidens there
were pleasure and hope; with the older men and women there were effort
and failure, sin and despair. The life that was in all of them, was it
partly of God and partly of themselves? He laughed again at the
question. The life that was in them all was all of God, every impulse,
every act. The energy that thrilled them through, by which they acted,
if only as brutes act, by which they spoke, if only to lie, by which
they thought and felt, even when thought and feeling were false and bad,
the energy which upheld them was all of God. That devil, too, that he
saw standing close by and whispering to them--his form was dim and
fading; he was not sure whether he was a reality or a thought, but--if
he had life, was it his own? Somewhere, he could not remember where or
when, he had heard the voice of truth saying, "Thou couldst have no
power against me except it were given thee from above."

The strange complexity of dreams, which seems so foolish, brings them
nearer to reality than we suppose, for there is nothing real which has
not manifold meanings. Before this vision of his townspeople faded, Bart
saw Ann slowly walk over from the group in which she had risen to be a
queen, to that group whose members were worn with disappointment and
age; as she went he saw her perfectly as he had never seen her before,
the hard shallow thoughts that were woven in with her unremitting effort
to do always the thing that she had set herself to do; and he saw, too,
a nature that was beneath this outer range of activity, a small
trembling fountain of feeling suppressed and shut from the light. In
some strange way as she stood, having grown older by transition from one
group to the other, he saw that this inner fountain of strength was
increasing and overflowing all that other part which had before made up
almost the entire personality of the woman. This change did not take
place visibly in the other people among whom she stood. It was in Ann he
saw the change. He felt very glad he had seen this; he seemed to think
of nothing else for a long time.

He forgot then all the detail of that which he had seen and thought, and
it seemed to him that he spent a long time just rejoicing in the divine
life by which all things were, and by which they changed, growing by
transformation into a glory which was still indistinct to him, too far
off to be seen in any way except that its light came as the light comes
from stars which we say we see and have never really seen at all.

Through this joy and light the details of life began to show again. The
two forces which he had always supposed had moulded his life acted his
early scenes over again. His young mother, before the shadow of despair
had come over her, was seen waiting upon all his boyish footsteps with
cheerful love and patience, trying to guide and to help, but trying much
more to comfort and to please; and his father, with a strong body and
the strength of fixed opinion and formed habits, having no desire for
his son except to train and form him as he himself was trained and
formed, was seen darkening all the boy's happiness with unreasonable
severity, which hardened and sharpened with the opposition of years into
selfish cruelty. Toyner had often seen these scenes before; all that
was new to him now was that they stood in the vivid light of a new
interpretation. Ah! the father's cruelty, the irritable self-love, the
incapacity to recognise any form of life but his own, it was of
God,--not a high manifestation: the bat is lower than the bird, and yet
it is of God. Bart saw now the one great opportunity of life! He saw
that the whole of the universe goes to develop character, and the one
chief heavenly food set within reach of the growing character for its
nourishment is the opportunity to embrace malice with love, to gather it
in the arms of patience, convert its shame into glory by willing
endurance.

Had he, Bart Toyner, then really been given the power in that beginning
of life to put out his hand and take this fruit which would have given
him such great strength and stature, or had he only had strength just
for what he had done and nothing more?

The answer seemed to come to him from all that he had read of the growth
of things. He looked into the forests, into the life of the creatures
that now lived in them; he saw the fish in the rivers and the birds in
the air, everywhere now roots were feeling under the dark ground for
just the food that was needed, and the birds flew open-mouthed, and the
fishes darted here and there, and the squirrels hoarded their nuts.
Everywhere in the past the growth of ages had been bringing together
these creatures and their food by slowly developing in them new powers
to assimilate new foods. What then of those that pined and dwindled when
the organism was not quite strong enough and the old food was taken
away? Ah, well! they fell--fell as the sparrows fall, not one of them
without God. And what of man rising through ages from beast to
sainthood, rising from the mere dominion of physical law which works out
its own obedience into the moral region, where a perpetual choice is
ordained of God, and the consequences of each choice ordained? Was not
the lower choice often inevitable? Who could tell when or where except
God Himself? And the higher choice the only food by which character can
grow! So men must often fall. Fall to what end? To pass into that
boundless gulf of distant light into which everything is passing,
passing straight by the assimilation of its proper food, circuitously by
weakness and failure, but still coming, growing, reaching out into
infinite light, for all is of God, and God is Love.

All Toyner's thought and sense seemed to lose hold again of everything
but that first realisation of the surrounding glory and joy and
strength, and the feeling that he himself had to rest for a little
while before any new thing was given him to do.

His body lay back upon the grey lifeless branch, wrapped in the ragged,
soiled garment that Markham had put upon him; the silence of night came
again over the water and the grey dead trees, and nature went on
steadily and quietly with her work of healing.




CHAPTER XI.


When Toyner had left Fentown to go and rescue Markham, Ann had stood a
good way off upon the dark shore just to satisfy herself that he had got
into the boat and rowed down the river. This was not an indication that
she doubted him. She followed him unseen because she felt that night
that there were elements in his conduct which she did not in the least
understand. When he was gone, she went back to fulfil her part of the
contract, and she had a strength of purpose in fulfilling it which did
not belong mainly to the obligation of her promise. Something in his
look when he had come in this evening, in his glance as he bade her
farewell, made her eager to fulfil it.

All night, asleep or awake, she was more or less haunted with this new
feeling for Toyner--a feeling which did not in her mind resemble love or
liking, which would have been perhaps best translated by the word
"reverence," but that was not a word in Ann's vocabulary, not even an
idea in her mental horizon.

Our greatest gains begin to be a fact in the soul before we have any
mental conception of them!

The next day Ann was up early. She took her beer (it was home-brewed and
not of great value) and deliberately poured it out, bottle after bottle,
into a large puddle in the front road. The men who were passing early
saw her action, and she told them that she had "turned temp'rance." She
washed the bottles, and set them upside down before the house to dry
where all the world might see them. The sign by which she had
advertised her beer and its price had been nothing but a sheet of brown
paper with letters painted in irregular brush strokes. Ann had plenty of
paper. This morning she laid a sheet upon her table, and rapidly painted
thereon with her brush such advertisements as these:


 _Tea and Coffee, 3 Cents a Cup.
    Ginger Bread, Baked Beans,
           Lemonade.

Cooking done to order at any hour
        and in any style._


By the time this placard was up, Christa had sauntered out to smell the
morning air, and she looked at it with what was for Christa quite an
exertion of surprise.

She went in to where Ann was scrubbing the tables. Christa never
scrubbed except when it was necessary from Ann's point of view that she
should, but she never interfered either. Now she only said:

"Ann!"

"I'm here; I suppose you can see me."

"Yes; but, Ann----"

It was so unusual for Christa to feel even a strong emotion of surprise
that she did not know in the least how to express it.

Ann stopped scrubbing. She had never supposed that Christa would yield
easily to all the terms of the condition; she had not sufficient
confidence in her to explain the truth concerning the secret compact.

"Look here, Christa, do you know that Walker died last night? Now I'll
tell you what it is; you needn't think that the people who are
respectable but not religious will have anything more to do with us,
even in the off-hand way that they've had to do with us before now.
Father's settled all that for us. Now the only thing we've got to do is
to turn religious. We're going to be temp'rance, and never touch a game
of cards. You're going to wear plain black clothes and not dance any
more. It wouldn't be respectable any way, seeing they may catch father
any day, and the least we can do is sort of to go into mourning."

Christa stood bright and beautiful as a child of the morning, and heard
the sentence of this long night passed upon her; but instead of looking
plaintive, a curiously hard look of necessary acquiescence came about
the lines of her cherry lips. Ann was startled by it; she had expected
Christa to bemoan herself, and in this look she recognised that the
younger sister had an element of character like her own, was perhaps
growing to be what she had become. The quality that she honestly
admired in herself appeared disgusting to her in pretty Christa, yet she
went on to persuade and explain; it was necessary.

"We can't dance, Christa, for no one would dance with us; we can't wear
flowers in our hats, for no one would admire them. I suppose you have
the sense to see that? The men that come here are a pretty easy-going
rough lot, but they draw a line somewhere. Now I've kept you like a lady
so far, and I'll go on doing that to the end" (This was Ann's paraphrase
for respectability); "so if you don't want to sit at home and mope,
we've got to go in for being religious and go to church and meetings.
The minister will come to see us, and all that sort will take to
speaking to us, and I'll get you into Sunday school. There are several
very good-looking fellows that go there, and there's a class of real
big girls taught by a Young-Men's-Christian-Association chap. He'd come
to see you, you know, if you were in his class."

Christa was perfectly consoled, perfectly satisfied; she even showed her
sister some of the animation which had hitherto come to her only when
she was flirting with men.

"Ann," she said earnestly, "you are very splendid. I got up thinking
there weren't no good in living at all."

Ann eyed her sharply. Was one set of actions the same to Christa as
another? and was she content to forget all their own shame and all her
father's wretched plight if she could only have a few pleasures for
herself? It was exactly the passive state that she had desired to evoke
in Christa; but there are many spectres that come to our call and then
appal us with their presence!

Ann went on with her work. She was not in the habit of indulging
herself in moods or reveries; still, within her grew a silent
disapproval of Christa. She felt herself superior to her. After a while
another thought came upon her with unexpected force. Christa's motive
for taking to the religious life was only self-interest; her own motive
was the same; and was not that the motive which she really supposed
hitherto to actuate all religious people? Had she not, for instance,
been fully convinced that self-interest was the sum and substance of
Bart Toyner's religion? Now between Bart Toyner and Christa and herself
she felt that a great gulf was fixed.

Well, she did not know; she did not understand; she was not at all sure
that she wanted to understand anything more about Bart Toyner and all
the complex considerations about life which the thought of him seemed to
arouse in her. She felt that the best way of ridding herself of
uncomfortable thoughts about him was to be busy in performing all that
he could reasonably require at her hands. It is just in the same way
that many people rid themselves of thoughts about God.

All that long day, while the sunlight fell pink through the haze, Ann
worked at renovating her own life and Christa's. She took Christa and
went to some girls of their acquaintance, and presented them with all
the feathers, furbelows, and artificials which she and Christa
possessed. She cooked some of the viands which she had advertised for
sale, and prepared all her small stock of kitchen utensils for the new
avocation. It was a long hard day's work, and before it was over the
village was ringing with the news of all this change. The minister had
already called on Ann and Christa, saying suitable things concerning
their father's terrible crime and their own sad position. When he was
gone Christa laughed.




CHAPTER XII.


The sweet-scented smoke of the distant forest fires had diffused itself
all day in the atmosphere more and more palpably. It was not a gloomy
effect, and familiar to eyes accustomed to the Canadian August. All the
sunbeams were very pink, and they fell flickering among the shadows of
the pear tree upon Markham's grey wooden house, upon the path and the
ragged green in front. Ann had pleasant associations with these pink
beams because they told of fine weather. Smoke will not lie thus in an
atmosphere that is molested with any currents of wind that might bring
cloud or storm. On the whole Ann had spent the day happily, for fair
weather has much to do with happiness; but when that unusual flood of
blood-red light came at sunset, giving an unearthly look to a land which
was well enough accustomed to bright sunsets of a more ordinary sort,
Ann's courage and good humour failed her; she yielded to the common
influence of marvels and felt afraid.

What had she done, and what was she going to do? She was playing with
religion; and religion, if it was nothing more, was something which had
made Bart Toyner look at her with such a strange smile of selfless hope
and desire--hope that she would be something different from what she had
been, desire that the best should come to her whatever was going to
happen to him. That was the explanation of what had seemed inexplicable
in his look (she felt glad to have worked it out at last); and if
anything so strange as that were possible in Bart, what was the force
with which she was playing? Would some judgment befall her?

The evening closed in. Christa went to bed to finish a yellow-backed
novel. As it was the last she was to read for a long time, she thought
she might as well enjoy it. Ann sat alone in the outer room. The night
was very still. Christa went to sleep, but Ann continued to sit,
stitching at the very plain garb that Christa was to don on the morrow,
not so much because she needed to work as because she felt no need of
sleep. The night being close and warm, her window, a small French
casement, stood open. At a late hour, when passers upon the road were
few, arrested by some sound, she knew not what, she lifted her head and
looked through the open window intently, in the same way as we lift our
eyes and look sometimes just because another, a stranger perhaps, has
riveted his gaze upon us.

A moment more, and Ann saw some one come within the beams of her own
lamp outside of the window; the figure crossed like a dark, silent
shadow, but Ann thought she recognised Toyner. The outline of the
clothes that he had worn when she had seen him last just about this hour
on the previous night was unconsciously impressed upon her mind. A
shudder of fear came over her, and then she was astonished at the fear;
he might easily have done all that she had given him to do and returned
by this time. Yet why did he pass the window in that ghostly fashion and
show no sign of coming to the door? A moment or two that she sat seemed
beaten out into the length and width of minutes by the throbbing of her
nerves, usually so steady. She determined to steel herself against
discomfort. If Toyner had done his work and come home and did not think
it wise to visit her openly, what was there to alarm in that? Yet she
remembered that Toyner had spoken of being away for some indefinite
length of time. She had not understood why last night, and now it seemed
even more hard to understand.

As she sewed she found herself looking up moment by moment at the
window. It was not long before she saw the same figure there again,
close now, and in the full light. Her hands dropped nerveless upon her
knee; she sat gazing with strained whitened face. The outline of the
clothes she associated with the thought of Toyner, but from under the
dark hat her father's face looked at her. Not the face of a man she
thought, but the face of a spirit, as white as if it were lifeless, as
haggard as if it were dead, but with blazing life in the eyeballs and a
line like red fire round their rims. In a moment it was gone again.

Ann started up possessed with the desire to prove the ghostly visitant
material; passing through the door, she fled outside with her lamp.
Whatever had been there had withdrawn itself more quickly than she had
come to seek it.

She felt convinced now that her father was dead; she fell to imagining
all the ways in which the tragic end might have come. No thought that
came to her was satisfactory. What had Bart done? Why had his form
seemed to her so inextricably confused with the form of her father at
the moment of the apparition? The recognition of a man or his garments,
although the result of observation, does not usually carry with it any
consciousness of the details that we have observed; and she did not know
now what it was that had made her think of Toyner so strongly.

The next morning, as the day was beginning to wear on, one of the
Fentown men put his head into Ann's door.

"Do you happen to know where Toyner is?" he asked.

She gave a negative, only to be obliged to repeat it to several
questions in quick succession.

"Seen him this morning?"

"Seen him last night?"

"Happen to know where he would likely be?"

The growing feeling of distress in Ann's mind made the shake of her head
more and more emphatic. She was of course an object of more or less pity
to every one at that time, and the intruder made an explanation that had
some tone of apology.

"Oh, well, I didn't know but as you might have happened to have seen him
since he came back. His boat's there at the landing all right, but his
mother's not seen him up to the house."

During the day Ann heard the same tale in several different forms.
Toyner was one of those quiet men not often in request by his
neighbours; and as he was known at present to have reason possibly for
hidden movements in search of his quarry, there was not that hue and cry
raised concerning the presence of the boat and the absence of the owner
that would have been aroused in the case of some other; still, the
interest in his whereabouts gradually grew, and Ann heard the talk about
it. Within her own heart an unexpressed terror grew stronger and
stronger. It was founded upon the sense of personal responsibility. She
alone knew the secret mission upon which Toyner had left; she alone knew
of the glimpse of her father which she had caught the night before, and
she doubted now whether she had seen a spirit or visible man. What had
happened in the dark hour in which Toyner and Markham had met, and which
of them had brought back the boat? The misery of these questions grew to
be greater than she could endure; but to confide her distress to any one
was impossible. To do so might not only be to put her father's enemies
upon his track, but it would be to confess Bart's unfaithfulness to his
public duty; and in that curious revolution of feeling which so
frequently comes about in hearts where it is least expected, Ann felt
the latter would be the more intolerable woe of the two.

Then came another of those strange unearthly sunsets. Ann's mind was
made up. Inactivity she could endure no longer. There was one
explanation that appeared to her more reasonable than any other; that
was, that Bart had wavered in his resolution to relieve Markham, that
the latter had died upon the tree where he was hiding, and that Bart
would not show himself for the present where Ann could see him. Ann did
not believe in this explanation; but because of the apparition which she
thought she had seen, because of the horrible nature of the fear it
entailed, she determined that, come what would, she would go to that
secret place which she alone knew and find out if her father had been
taken from it or if any trace remained there to show what had really
happened. It was when the sisters were again alone for the night that
she first broke the silence of her fears.

"Christa, father came to the window last night, but went away again
before I could catch him."

"Sure he would never show his face in this place, Ann. You must have
been dreaming!"

"Well, I must try to find him. I tell you what I'm going to do. I've
been along all the boats, and there's not one of them I could take
without being heard except David Brown's canoe that is tied at the foot
of his father's field. I could get that, and I expect to be back here
long before it's light. If any one should come to the door asking for
me, you say, like the other night, that I'm ill and can't see them."

"Yes," said Christa, without exhibiting much interest. Ann had been the
_deus ex machina_ of the house since Christa's babyhood. It never
occurred to her that any power needed to interfere on behalf of Ann.

"But if I shouldn't get back by daylight, you'll have to manage to say a
word to David Brown. Tell him that I borrowed his canoe for a very
special purpose. If you just say that, he'll have sense not to make a
fuss."

"Yes," said Christa sleepily.




CHAPTER XIII.


The canoe did not answer to Ann's one slim Indian paddle so lightly as
the boat she had taken before had answered to the oars. Kneeling upright
in the stern, she was obliged to keep her body in perfect balance.

The moon did not rise now until late, but the smoke that had for two
days hung so still and dim had been lifted on a light breeze that came
with the darkness. The stars were clear above, and Ann's eyes were well
accustomed to the wood and stream.

Ah! how long it seemed before she came round the bend of the river and
down to the blasted tree. She felt a repulsion for the whole death-like
place to-night that she had not felt before. She had been sure the
other night of meeting some one at the end of her secret journey, and
now the best she could hope was that the place would be empty; and even
if it were empty, perhaps, for all she knew, one of the men for whom she
was seeking might be lying dead in the water beneath. Certainly the
inexplicable appearance of her father the night before had shaken her
nerves. Ann was doing a braver thing than she had ever done in her life,
because she was a prey to terror. Lonely as the desolate Ahwewee was, to
turn from it into the windings of the secret opening seemed like leaving
the world behind and going alone into a region of death. There was no
sound but the splash of paddle, the ripple of the still water under the
canoe, the occasional voice of a frog from the swampy edges of the lake,
and the shrill murmur of crickets from the dry fields beyond.

When Ann came near she saw the bound figure reclining in the arms of the
fallen tree. Then she believed that her worst fear had been true--that
Bart had been unfaithful, and that her father had died in this wretched
place. He must be dead because she had seen his spirit!

She came nearer. He had not died of starvation; the bag of food which
she had hung upon the branch hung there yet. She set the canoe close
against the tree, and, holding by the tree, raised herself in it. She
had to be very careful lest the canoe should tip under her even while
she held by the tree. Then she put forth a brave hand, and laid it upon
the breast of the unconscious man.

He was not dead. The heart was beating, though not strongly; the body
was warm.

"Father, father." She shook him gently.

The answer was a groan, very feeble. It told her at once that the man
before her was stricken with some physical ill that made him incapable
of responding to her.

And now what was she to do? It was necessary by some means to get her
father into the canoe. To that she did not give a second thought, but
while he still lived it seemed to her monstrous to take him either back
to Fentown Falls or down to The Mills. Her horror of prison and of
judgment for him had grown to be wholly morbid and unreasonable, just
because his terror of it had been so extreme. Only one course remained.
She had the chart that David Brown had given her. He had told her that
at that northern edge of the swamp, which could be reached by the way he
had marked out, a small farmhouse stood. Possibly the people in this
house might not yet have heard of Markham the murderer; or possibly, if
they had heard, they might be won for pity's sake to let him regain
strength there and go in peace. It was her only chance. The moon was
rising now, and she would find the way. She felt strength to do anything
when she had realised that the heart beneath her hand was still beating.

Ann moved the canoe under the fallen log, and moving down it upon her
knees, she took the rope from the prow, secured it round the log from
which the sick man must descend, and fastened it again to the other end
of the boat. This at least was a guarantee that they could not all sink
together. Even yet the danger of upsetting the canoe sideways was very
great. It was only necessity that enabled her to accomplish her task.

"Father, rouse yourself a little." She took Markham's old felt hat, upon
which the insensible head was lying, and set it warmly over his brow.
She unfastened the bands that tied his body to the log. She had not come
without a small phial of the rum that was always necessary for her
father, in the hope that she might find him alive. She soaked some
morsels of bread in this, and put it in the mouth of the man over whom
she was working. It was very dark; the only marvel was, not that she did
not recognise Toyner, but that she and he were not both engulfed in the
black flood beneath them in the struggle which she made to take him in
the canoe.

Twice that day Toyner had stirred and become conscious; but
consciousness, except that of confused dreams, had again deserted him.
The lack of food, if it had preserved him from fever, had caused the
utmost weakness of all his bodily powers; yet when the small amount of
bread and rum which he could swallow gave him a little strength, he was
roused, not to the extent of knowing who he was or where, but enough to
move his muscles, although feebly, under direction. After a long time
she had him safely in the bottom of the canoe, his head lying upon her
jacket which she had folded for a pillow. At first, as she began to
paddle the canoe forward, he groaned again and again, but by degrees the
reaction of weakness after exertion made him lapse into his former state
that seemed like sleep.

Ann had lost now all her fears of unknown and unseen dangers. All that
she feared was the loss of her way, or the upsetting of her boat. The
strength that she put into the strokes of her paddle was marvellous. She
had just a mile to go before she came to another place where a stretch
of still water opened through the trees. There were several of these
blind channels opening off the bed of the Ahwewee. They were the terror
of those who were travelling in boats, for they were easily mistaken for
the river itself, and they led to nothing but impenetrable marsh. From
this particular inlet David Brown had discovered a passage to the land,
and Ann pursued the new untried way boldly. Somewhere farther on David
had told her a little creek flowed in where the eye could not discern
any wider opening than was constantly the case between the drowned
trees. Its effect upon the current of the water was said to be so slight
that the only way to discover where it ran was by throwing some light
particles upon the water and watching to see whether they drifted
outwards from the wood steadily. She turned the boat gently against a
broken stump from which she could take a decaying fragment. An hour
passed. She wearily crossed the water to and fro, casting out her chips
of punk, straining her eyes to see their motion in the moonlight. The
breeze that had moved the smoke had gone again. Above the moon rode
through white fleecy clouds. The water and air lay still and warm,
inter-penetrated with the white light. The trees, without leaf or twigs,
cast no shadow with the moon in the zenith.

The patient experimenting with the chips was a terrible ordeal to Ann.
The man whom she supposed to be her father lay almost the whole length
of the canoe so close to her, and yet she could not pass his
outstretched feet to give him food or stimulant. At last, at last, to
her great joy, she found the place where the chips floated outward with
steady motion. She then pushed her canoe in among the trees, thankful to
know that it, at least, had been there before, that there would be no
pass too narrow for it. The canoe itself was almost like a living
creature to her by this time. Like an intelligent companion in the
search, it responded with gentle motion to her slightest touch.

It seemed to Ann that the light of the moon was now growing very strong
and clear. Surely no moon had ever before become so bright! Ann looked
about her, almost for a moment dreading some supernatural thing, and
then she realised that the night was gone, that pale dawn was actually
smiling upon her. It gave her a strange sense of lightheartedness. Her
heart warmed with love to the sight of the purple tint in the eastern
sky, that bluish purple which precedes the yellow sunrise. On either
side of her boat now the water was so shallow that sedge and rushes rose
above it.

The herons flapped across her path to their morning fishing.

The creek still made a narrow channel for the canoe. Pretty soon its
current flowed between wild undulating tracts of bright green moss in
which the trees still stood dead, but bark and lichen now adhered to
their trunks, and a few more strokes brought her to the fringes of young
spruce and balsam that grew upon the drier knolls. She smelt living
trees, dry woods and pastures in front. Then a turn of the narrow creek,
and she saw a log-house standing not twenty paces from the stream. Above
and around it maples and elms held out green branches, and there was
some sort of a clearing farther on.

Ann felt exultant in her triumph. She had brought her boat to a place of
safety. She seemed to gather life and strength from the sun; although it
still lay below the blue horizon of lake and forest which she had left
behind her, the sky above was a gulf of sunshine.

She stepped out of the boat and pushed away the hat to look in her
father's face. She saw now who it was that she had rescued. Toyner
stirred a little when she touched him, and opened his eyes, the same
grave grey eyes with which he had looked at her when he bade her
good-bye. There was no fever in them, and, as it seemed to her, no lack
of sense and thought. Yet he only looked at her gravely, and then seemed
to sleep again.

The girl sprang upright upon the bank and wrung her hands together. It
came to her with sudden clearness what had been done. Had Toyner told
his tale, she could hardly have known it more clearly. Her father, had
tried to murder Bart; her father had tied him in his own place; it was
her father who had escaped alone with the boat. It was he himself, and
no apparition, who had peered in upon her through the window. She was
wrought up into a strong glow of indignation against the baseness that
would turn upon a deliverer, against the cruelty of the revenge taken.
No wonder that miserable father had not dared to enter her house again
or to seek further succour from her! All her pity, all the strength of
her generosity, went out to the man who had ventured so much on his
behalf and been betrayed. That unspoken reverence for Toyner, a sense of
the contrast between him and her father and the other men whom she knew,
which had been growing upon her, now culminated in an impulse of
devotion. A new faculty opened within her nature, a new mine of wealth.

The thin white-faced man that lay half dead in the bottom of the canoe
perhaps experienced some reviving influence from this new energy of love
that had transformed the woman who stood near him, for he opened his
eyes again and saw her, this time quite distinctly, standing looking
down upon him. There was tenderness in her eyes, and her sunbrowned face
was all aglow with a flush that was brighter than the flush of physical
exercise. About her bending figure grew what seemed to Bart's
half-dazzled sense the flowers of paradise, for wild sunflowers and
sheafs of purple eupatorium brushed her arms, standing in high phalanx
by the edge of the creek. Bart smiled as he looked, but he had no
thoughts, and all that he felt was summed up in a word that he uttered
gently:

"Ann!"

She knelt down at once. "What is it, Bart?" and again: "What were you
trying to say?"

It is probable that her words did not reach him at all. He was only
half-way back from the region of his vision; but he opened his eyes and
looked at her again.

The sun rose, and a level golden beam struck through between the trunks
of the trees, touching the flowers and branches here and there with
moving lights, and giving all the air a brighter, mellower tint. There
was something that Bart did feel a desire to say--a great thought that
at another time he might have tried in a multitude of words to have
expressed and failed. He saw Ann, whom he loved, and the paradise about
her; he wanted to bring the new knowledge that had come to him in the
light of his vision to bear upon her who belonged now to the region of
outward not of inward sight and yet was part of what must always be to
him everlasting reality.

"What were you going to say, Bart?" she asked again tenderly.

And again he summed up all that he thought and felt in one word:

"God."

"Yes, Bart," she said, with some sudden intuitive sense of agreement.

Then, seeming to be satisfied, he closed his eyes and went back into the
state of drowsiness.




CHAPTER XIV.


Ann went up to the house. It was a great relief to her to remember that
the man for whom she was going to ask help was no criminal. She could
hold up her head and speak boldly.

Another minute and she began to look curiously to see how long the grass
and weeds had grown before the door. It was some months since David
Brown had been here. The doubt which had entered Ann's mind grew
swiftly. She knocked loudly upon the door and upon the wooden shutters
of the windows. The knocks echoed through empty rooms.

She had no hesitation in house-breaking. In a shed at the back she found
a broken spade which formed a sufficiently strong and sharp lever for
her purpose. She pried open a shutter and climbed in. She found only
such furniture as was necessary for a temporary abode. A small iron
stove, a few utensils of tin, a huge sack which had been used for a
straw bed, and a few articles of wooden furniture, were all that was to
be seen.

Upon the canvas sack she seized eagerly. Bart might be dying, or he
might be recovering from some injury; in either case she had only one
desire, and that was to procure for him the necessary comforts. Having
no access to hay or straw, she began rapidly to gather the bracken which
was standing two and three feet high in great quantities wherever the
ground was dry under the trees. She worked with a nervous strength that
was extraordinary, even to herself, after the toilsome night. When she
had filled the sack, she put it upon the floor of the lower room and
went back to the canoe. She saw that Bart had roused himself and was
sitting up. He was even holding on to the rushes with his hand--an act
which she thought showed the dreamy state of his mind, for she did not
notice that the rope had come undone. She helped Bart out of the canoe,
putting her arm strongly round him so that he was able to walk. She saw
that he had not his mind yet; he said no word about the help she gave
him; he walked as a sleeping man might walk. When she laid him down upon
the bed of bracken and arranged his head upon the thicker part which she
had heaped for a pillow, he seemed to her to fall asleep almost at once;
and yet, for fear that his strange condition was not sleep, she hastily
opened the bag of food and the flask of rum.

She stripped the twigs from a tiny spruce tree, piling them inside the
old stove. When they had cracked and blazed with a fierce, sudden heat,
Ann could only break bread-crumbs into a cupful of boiling water and put
a few drops of rum in it. She woke Bart and fed him as she might have
fed a baby. When he lay down again exhausted, with that strange moan
which he always gave when he first put back his head, she had the
comfort of believing that a better colour came to his cheek than before.
She resolved that if he rested quietly for a few hours and appeared
better after the next food she gave him, she would think it safe to
cushion the canoe with bracken and take him home. This thought suggested
to her to moor the canoe.

She went down to the creek again, but it was too late. The water running
gently and steadily had done its work, taken the canoe out from among
the rushes, and floated it down between the mosses of the swamp. Making
her feet bare, she sprang from one clump of fern root to another,
sometimes missing her footing and striking to her knees through the
green moss that let her feet easily break into the black wet earth. In a
few minutes she could see the canoe. It had drifted just beyond the
swamp, where all the ground was lying under some feet of water; but
there a tree had turned its course out of the current of the creek, so
that it was now sidling against two ash trees, steady as if at anchor.
So few feet as it was from her, Ann saw at a glance that to reach it was
quite impossible. Realising the helplessness of her position without
this canoe, she might have been ready to brave the dangers of a struggle
in deep water to obtain it, but the danger was that of sinking in
bottomless mud. The canoe was wholly beyond her reach. Retracing her
steps, she washed her feet in the running creek, and, as she put on her
shoes, sitting upon the grassy bank in the morning sunlight, she felt
drowsily as if she must rest there for a few minutes. She let her head
fall upon the arm she had outstretched on the warm sod.

When she stirred again she had that curious feeling of inexplicable
lapse of time that comes to us after unexpected and profound slumber.
The sun had already passed the zenith; the tone in the voices of the
crickets, the whole colouring of earth and sky, told her, before she had
made any exact observation of the shadows, that it was afternoon.

She prepared more food for the sick man. When she had fed him and put
him to rest again, she went out to discover what means of egress by
land was to be found from this lonely dwelling. She followed the faint
trace of wheel-ruts over the grass, which for a short distance ran
through undergrowth of fir and weeds. She came out upon a cleared space
of some acres, from which a fine crop of hay had clearly been taken,
apparently about a month before. Whoever had mowed the hay had evidently
been engaged also in a further clearing of the land beyond, and there
was a small patch where tomatoes and pea vines lay neglected in the sun;
the peas had been gathered weeks before, but the tomatoes, later in
ripening, hung there turning rich and red. Ann went on across the
cleared space. Following the track, she came to a thick bit of bush
beyond, where a long cutting had been made, just wide enough for a cart
to pass through.

There was no other way out; Ann must walk through this long green
passage. No knight in a fairy tale ever entered path that looked more
remote from the world's thoroughfares. When she had walked a mile she
came to an opening where the ground dipped all round to a bottom which
had evidently at some time held water, for the flame-weed that grew
thick upon it stood even, the tops of its magenta flowers as level as a
lake--it was, in fact, a lake of faded crimson lying between shores of
luxuriant green. The cart-ruts went right down into the flame-flowers,
and she thought she could descry where they rose from them on the other
side. Evidently the blossoming had taken place since the last cart had
passed over, and no doubt many miles intervened between this and the
next dwelling-house. Nothing but the thought of necessities that might
arise for help on Bart's account made her make the toilsome passage,
knee-deep among the flowers, to see whether, beyond that, the road was
passable; but she only found that it was not fit for walkers except at a
time of greater drought than the present. The swamp crept round in a
ring, so that she discovered herself to be upon what was actually an
island. Ann turned back, realising that she was a prisoner.

On her way home again she gathered blood-red tomatoes; and finding a
wild apple tree, she added its green fruit to what she already held
gathered in the skirt of her gown; starvation at least was not a near
enemy.

She had made her investigation calmly, and with a light heart; she felt
sure that Bart had grown better and stronger during the day, and that
was all that she cared about. She never paused to ask herself why his
recovery was not merely a humane interest but such a satisfying joy.
The knowledge of her present remoteness from all distresses of her life
as a daughter and sister came to her with a wonderful sense of rest, and
opened her mind to the sweet influences of the summer night and its
stars as that mind had never been opened before.

She cooked the apples and tomatoes, making quite a good meal for
herself. Then she roused Bart, and gave him part of the cooked fruit.




CHAPTER XV.


The darkness closed in about eight o'clock. Ann sat on the doorstep
watching the lights in the sky shine out one by one. Last night had been
the only night which had ever possessed terrors for her, and now that
she believed her father to be still alive she thought no longer with any
horror of his apparition. She wondered where he was wandering, but her
heart hardened towards him. She rested and dozed by turns upon the
doorstep until about midnight. Then in the darkness she heard a voice
from the bracken couch that assured her that Bart's mind had come back
to him again.

"Who is there?" he asked.

"I am going to give you something to eat," she said, letting her voice
speak her name.

"Is it very dark?" he asked, "or am I blind?"

"You can see right enough, Bart," she said gently; "you can watch me
kindle the fire."

She left the door of the stove open while the spruce twigs were
crackling, and in the red, uncertain, dancing light he caught glimpses
of the room in which he was, and of her figure, but the fire died down
very quickly again.

"I was thinking, Ann," he said slowly, "that it was a pity for Christa
to be kept from dancing. She is young and light on her feet. God must
have made her to dance."

"Christa's well enough without it," said Ann, a little shortly.

She thought more coldly of Christa since she had come up to a higher
level herself.

"Well, I only meant about Christa that I think I made a mistake," said
Bart slowly.

"How a mistake?" she asked.

It was a very hard question to answer. A moment before and he thought he
had seen what the mistake was and how to speak, but when he tried, all
that manifold difficulty of applying that which is eternal to that which
is temporal came between his thought and its expression.

He could not know clearly wherein his difficulty lay; no one had taught
him about the Pantheism which obliterates moral distinctions, or told
him of the subjective ideal which sweeps aside material delight. He only
felt after the realities expressed by these phrases, and dimly perceived
that truth lies midway between them, and that truth is the mind of God,
and can only be lived, not spoken. For a while he lay there in the
darkness, trying to think how he could tell Ann that to his eyes all
things had become new; after a little while he did try to tell her, and
although the words were lame, and apparently contradictory to much that
they both knew was also true, still some small measure of his meaning
passed into her mind.

"God is different from what I ever thought," he said; "He isn't in some
things and not in others; it's wicked to live so as to make people think
that, for they think they can get outside of Him, and then they don't
mind Him at all."

"How do you know it?" she asked curiously.

"I saw it. Perhaps God showed me because I was so hard up. It's God's
truth, Ann, that I am saying."

The room was quite dark again now; the chirping of the crickets outside
thrilled through and through it, as if there were no walls there but
only the darkness and the chirping. Ann sat upon a wooden chair by the
stove.

She considered for a minute, and then she said, with the first touch of
repentance in her heart: "Well, I reckon God ain't in me, any way. There
isn't much of God in me that I can see."

"I'll tell you how it is if I can." Toyner's voice had a strange rest
and calm in it. He spoke as a man who looked at some inward source of
peace, trying to describe it. "Supposing you had a child, you wouldn't
care anything about him at all if you could just work him by wires so
that he couldn't do anything but just what you liked; and yet the more
you cared about him, the more it would hurt you dreadfully if he didn't
do the things that you knew were good for him, and love you and talk to
you too. Well now, suppose one day, when he was a little fellow, say,
he wanted to touch something hot, and you told him not to. Well, if he
gave it up, you'd make it easier for him to be good next time; but
suppose he went on determined to have his own way, can't you think of
yourself taking hold of his hand and just helping him to reach up and
touch the hot thing? I tell you, if you did that it would mean that you
cared a great sight more about him than if you just slapped him and put
it out of his reach; and yet, you see, you'd be helping him to do the
wrong thing just because you wanted to take the naughtiness out of his
heart, not because you were a devil that wanted him to be naughty. Well,
you see, between us and our children" (Toyner was talking as men do who
get hold of truth, not as an individual, but as mankind) "it's not the
same as between God and us. They have our life in them, but they're
outside us and we're outside them, and so we get into the way, when we
want them to be good, of giving them a punishment that's outside the
harm they've done, and trying to put the harm they are going to do
outside of their reach; and when they do the right thing, half the time
we don't help them to do it again. But that isn't God's way. Nothing is
ever outside of Him; and what happens after we have done a thing is just
what must happen, nothing more and nothing less, so that we can never
hope to escape the good or the evil of what we have done; for the way
things must happen is just God's character that never changes. You see
the reason we can choose between right and wrong when a tree can't, or a
beast, is just because God's power of choice is in us and not in them.
So we use His power, and when we use it right and think about pleasing
Him--for, you see, we know He can be pleased, for our minds are just
bits of His mind (as far as we know anything about Him; but of course we
only know a very little)--He puts a tremendous lot of strength into us,
so that we can go on doing right next time. Of course it's a low sort of
right when we don't think about Him, for that's the most of what He
wants us to do; but I tell you" (a little personal fire and energy here
broke the calm of the recital), "I tell you, when I do look up to God
and say, '_Now I am going to do this for Your sake and because You are
in me and will do it_,' I tell you, there's _tremendous power_ given us.
_That's the law that makes the value of religion_; I know it by the way
I gave up drinking. But now, look here; most of the time we don't use
God's will, that He lends us, to do what's right; well, then He doesn't
slap us and put the harm out of our reach. He does just what the mother
does when she takes the child's hand and puts it against the hot thing,
and the burn hurts her as much as it hurts the child; but He is not weak
like we are to do it only once in a way. I tell you, Ann, every time you
do a wrong thing God is with you; that is what I saw when I was hard up
and God showed me how things really were. Now, look here, there isn't
any end to it that we can see here; it's an awful lot of help we get to
do the wrong thing if that's the thing we choose to do. It gets easier
and easier, and at first there's a lot of pleasure to it, but by-and-by
it gets more and more dreadful, and then comes death, and that's the end
here. But God does not change because we die, and wherever we go He is
with us and gives us energy to do just what we choose to do. It's hell
before we die when we live that way, and it's hell after, for ages and
ages and worlds and worlds perhaps, just until the hell-fire of sin has
burned the wrong way of choosing out of us. But remember, God never
leaves us whatever we do; there's nothing we feel that He doesn't feel
with us; we must all come in the end to being like Himself, and there's
always open the short simple way of choosing His help to do right,
instead of the long, long way through hell. But I tell you, Ann, whether
you're good or whether you're wicked, God is in you and you are in Him.
If He left you, you would neither be good nor wicked, you would stop
being; but He loves you in a bigger, closer way than you can think of
loving anybody; and if you choose to go round the longest way you can,
through the hell-fire of sin on earth and all the other worlds, He will
suffer it all with you, and bring you in the end to be like Himself."

The calm voice was sustained in physical strength by the strength of the
new faith.

Ann's reply followed on the track of thoughts that had occurred to her.
"Well now, there's that awful low girl, Nelly Bowes. She's drunk all the
time, and she's got an awful disease. She's as bad as bad can be, and so
is the man she lives with; and that little child of hers was born a
hard-minded, sickly little beast." Her words had a touch of triumphant
opposition as she brought them out slowly. "It's a mean, horrid shame
for the child to be born like that. It wasn't its fault. Do you mean to
say God is with them?"

"It's a long sight easier to believe that than that He just let them go
to the devil! I tell you it's an awful wicked thing to teach people
that God can save them and doesn't. God is saving those two and the
child just by the hell they've brought on themselves and it; and He's in
hell with them, and He'll bring them out to something grander than we
can think about. They could come to it without giving Him all that agony
and themselves too; but if they won't, He'll go through it with them
rather than turn them into puppets that He could pull by wires. And as
to the child, I can't see it quite clear; but I see this much that I
know is true: it's God's character to have things so that a good man has
a child with a nice clean soul, and it's just by the same way of things
that the other happens too. It's the working out of the bad man's
salvation to see his child worse than himself, and it's the working out
of the child's salvation to have his bad soul in a bad body. Look you,
can't you think that in the ages after death the saving of the soul of
that child may be the one thing to make that man and woman divine?
They'll never, never get rid of their child, and the child will come
quicker to the light through the blackness he is born to than if, having
the bad soul that he has, God was to set him in heaven. But, look you,
Ann, there isn't a day or an hour that God is not asking them to choose
the better and the quicker way, and there isn't a day or an hour that He
isn't asking you and me and every one else in the world to do as He does
so as to help them to choose it, and live out the sufferings of their
life with them till they do."

Ann sat quite still; she had a feeling that if she moved to make any
other sound, however slight, than that of speech some spell would be
broken. In the darkness Bart had awakened out of the stupor of his
injury; and although Ann could not have expressed it, she felt that his
voice came like the speech of a soul that is not a part of the things we
see and touch. It was so strange to her that he did not ask her where he
was. For a few minutes more at least she did not want to bring the least
rustle of material surroundings into their talk. She was still
incredulous; it is only a very weak mind that does not take time to grow
into a new point of view.

"Bart, was God with father when he tried to kill you and tied you to the
tree?"

"Yes."

"How do you know?"

"You can't think of God being less than something else. If God was not
in your father, then space is outside God's mind. You can't think that
God wanted to save your father from doing it and didn't, unless you
think that the devil was stronger than God. You can't think that you are
more loving than God; and if He is so loving, He couldn't let any one do
what wasn't just the best thing. I tell you, it's a love that's awful to
think of that will go on giving men strength to do wrong until through
the ages of hell they get sick of it, rather than make them into
machines that would just go when they're wound up and that no one could
love."

"Do they know all this in church, Bart?" Ann asked. It had never
occurred to her before to test her beliefs by this standard, but now it
seemed necessary; she felt after tradition instinctively. The nakedness
of Bart's statements seemed to want tradition for a garment.

Bart's words were very simple. "When I was fastened on that log and saw
all this, I saw that Jesus knew it all, and that that was what all His
life and dying meant, and that the people that follow Him are learning
to know that that was what it meant; it takes them a long, long time,
and we can't understand it yet, but as the world goes on it will come
clearer. Everybody that knows anything about Him says all this in
church, only they don't quite understand it. There's many churches, Ann,
where the people all get up and say out loud, 'He descended into hell.'
I don't know much, for I've only read the Bible for one year; but if you
think of all that Jesus did and all that happened to Him, you will see
what I mean. People have made little of it by saying it was a miracle
and happened just once, but He knew better. He said that God had been
doing it always, and that He did nothing but what He saw God doing, and
that when men saw Him they would know that God was like that always.
Haven't I just been telling you that God bears our sins and carries our
sorrows with us until we become blessed because we are holy? We can
always choose to be that, but He will never _make_ us choose. Jesus
never _made_ anybody do anything; and, Ann, if there are things in the
Bible that we don't understand to mean that, it is because they are a
parable, and a parable, Ann, is putting something people can't
understand in pictures that they can look at and look at, and always
learn something every time they look, till at last they understand what
is meant. People have always learned just as much from the Bible as they
can take in, and made mistakes about the rest; but it is God's character
to make us learn even by mistakes."

Ann's interest began to waver. They were silent awhile, and then,
"Bart, do you know where you are?" she asked.

"I don't seem to care much where I am, as long as you are here." There
was a touch of shyness in the tone of the last words that made all that
he had said before human to her.

"If it hadn't been that I thought it was father, I'd have taken you
home." She told him how she had brought him. "If it had been a boat,"
she said, "I'd have found out who it was before we got here, but the
canoe was too narrow."




CHAPTER XVI.


Ann dosed where she sat. Toyner slept again. At length they were both
aware that the level light of the sun was in the room.

Ann sat up, looking at the door intently. Then her eyes moved as if
following some one across the room.

"What is it?" asked Toyner.

Ann started up with one swift look of agonised entreaty, and then it
seemed that what she had seen vanished, for she turned to Bart
trembling, unable to speak at first, sobs struggling with her breath.

"It was father--I saw him come to the door and come in. He's dead now."

"What did he look like?" Toyner's voice was very quiet.

"He looked as if he was dead, but as if he was mad too--his body as if
it was dead, and himself wild and mad and burning inside of it." She was
crouching on the floor, shaken with the sobs of a new and overwhelming
pity. "O Bart! I never cared--cared anything for him before--except to
have him comfortable and decent; but if I thought he was going to
be--like that--now I think I would die to save him if I could."

"Would you die to save him? So would God; and you can't believe in God
at all unless you know that He does what He wants to do. And God does
it; dies in him, and is in him now; and He will save him."

Bart's eyes were full of peace.

"Can't you trust God, Ann? When He is suffering so much for love of each
of us? He could make us into good machines, but He won't. Can't you
begin to do what He is doing for yourself and other people? Ann, if He
suffers in your father and in you, He is glad when you are glad. Try to
be glad always in His love and in the glory of it."

Ann's mind had reverted again to the traditions of which she knew so
little. "I don't want to go to heaven," she said, "if father is in some
place looking like he did just now."

"Heaven" (Bart repeated the word curiously), "heaven is inside you when
you grow to be like God; and through all ages and worlds heaven will be
to do as He does, to suffer with those that are suffering, and to die
with those that are dying. But remember, Ann, too, it means to rejoice
with those who are rejoicing; and joy is greater than pain and
heaviness. And heaven means always to be in peace and strength and
delight, because it is along the line of God's will where His joy
flows."

Ann rose and ran out of the house. To be in the sunshine and among the
wild sunflowers was more to her just then than any wisdom. The wave of
pity that had gone over her soul had ebbed in a feeling of exhaustion.
Her body wanted warmth and heat. She felt that she wanted _only_ that.
After she had sat for an hour near the bank of the rippling stream, and
all her veins were warmed through and through with the sunlight, the
apparition of her father seemed like a dream. She had seen him thus once
in life, and supposed him a spirit. She was ready to suppose what she
had now seen to be a repetition of that last meeting, coming before she
was well roused from her sleep. She took comfort because her pulses ran
full and quiet once more. She thought of her love to Bart, and was
content. As to all that Bart had said--ah well! something she had
gathered from it, which was a seed in her mind, lay quiet now.

At length Toyner found strength to walk feebly, and sat down on the
doorstep, where he could see Ann. It was his first conscious look upon
this remote autumn bower, and he never forgot its joy. The eyes of men
who have just arisen from the dim region that lies near death are often
curiously full of unreasoning pleasure. Within himself Toyner called the
place the Garden of Eden.

"If only I had not brought you here!" said Ann. "If only I had not left
the canoe untied!"

For answer Bart looked around upon the trees and flowers and upon her
with happy eyes that had no hint of past or future in them. Something of
the secret of all peace--the _Eternal Now_--remained with him as long
as the weakness of this injury remained.

"Don't fret, Ann" (with a smile).

"I'm afraid for you; you look awful ill, and ought to have a doctor."

He had it in his mind to tell her that he was all right and desired only
what he had; but, in the dreamy reflective mood that still held him,
what he said was:

"If all the trouble in earth and heaven and hell were put together, Ann,
it would be just like clouds passing before the sun of joy. The clouds
are never at an end, but each one passes and melts away. Ann! sorrow and
joy are like the clouds and the sun."

It is never destined that man should remain long in Eden. About noon
that day Ann heard a shout from the direction of the lake outside among
the dead trees; the shout was repeated yet nearer, and in a minute or
two she recognised the voice and heard the sound of oars splashing up
the narrow channel made by the running creek. The thought of this
deliverance had not occurred to her; yet when she recognised the voice
it seemed to her natural enough that David Brown should have divined
where his canoe might have been brought. She stood waiting while his
boat came up the creek. The young athlete sprang from it, question and
reproach in his handsome young face. She found no difficulty then in
telling him just what she had done, and why. She felt herself suddenly
freed from all that life of frequent deception which she had so long
practised. She had no desire to dupe any man now into doing any service.
Something in the stress of the last days, in her new reverence for Bart,
had wrought a change in the relative value she set on truth and the
gain of untruth. She held up her head with a gesture of new dignity as
she told David that she had sought her father and found Bart.

"Father has half killed him, and now it hurts me to see him ill. Bart is
a good man. O David, I tell you there is no one in the world I mind
about so much as Bart. Could you take him in your boat now to the
hospital at The Mills? He would have done as much for you, and more, if
you had got hurt in that way."

So David took the man Ann loved to the hospital at The Mills. He did it
willingly if he did it ruefully. Ann went home, as she had come, in the
canoe, except that she had gone out in the dead of night and she went
home in broad daylight.

No one blamed Ann when they knew she had gone out to help her father; no
one smiled or sneered when they found that she had succeeded in saving
Toyner's life.

A few days passed, and poor Markham was found drowned in a forest pool.
They brought him home and buried him decently at Fentown for his
daughter's sake.

Toyner lay ill for weeks in the little wooden hospital at The Mills.




CHAPTER XVII.


When Toyner was well he came home again. His mind was still animated
with the conception of God as suffering in the human struggle, but as
absolute Lord of that struggle, and the consequent belief that nothing
but obedience to the lower motive can be called evil. The new view of
truth his vision had given him had become too really a part of his mind
to be overthrown. It was no doubt a growth from the long years of
desultory browsing upon popular science and the one year that had been
so entirely devoted to the story of the gospel and to prayer. He could
not doubt his new creed; but no sooner had he left the hospital walls
than that burden came upon him of which the greatest stress is this,
that in trying to fit new light to common use we are apt to lose the
clearer vision of the light itself.

In Toyner's former religious experience he had been much upheld by the
knowledge that he was walking in step with a vast army of Christians.
Now he no longer believed himself in the ways of exclusive thought and
practices in which the best men he knew were walking. The only religious
thinkers with whom he had come in contact gave up a large class of human
activities and the majority of human souls to the almost exclusive
dominion of the devil. As far as Toyner knew he was alone in the world
with his new idea. He had none of that vanity and self-confidence which
would have made it easy for him to hold to it. It did not appear to him
reasonable that he could be right and these others wrong. He did not
know that no man can think alone, that by some strange necessity of
thought he could only think what other men were then thinking. He felt
homesick, sick for the support of those faithful ones which he had been
wont to see in imagination with him: their conscious communion with God
was the only good life, the life which he must seek to attain and from
which he feared above all things to fall short; and that being so, it
would have been easier, far easier, to call his new belief folly,
heresy, nay, blasphemy if that were needful, and to repent of it, if he
could have done so. He could not, do what he would; he saw his vision to
be true.

The thing had grown with his growth; he believed that a voice from
heaven had spoken it. Is not this the history of all revelation?

When I say that Toyner could not doubt his new conception of God and of
the human struggle, I mean that he could not in sincerest thought hold
the contrary to be true. I do not mean to say that daily and hourly,
when about his common avocations, his new inspiration did not seem a
mere will-o'-the-wisp of the mind. It took months and years to bring it
into any accustomed relation to every-day matters of thought and act;
and it is this habitual adjustment of our inward belief to our outward
environment that makes any creed _appear_ to be incontrovertible.

Oh the loneliness of it, to have a creed that no companion has! The
sheer sorrow of being compelled by the law of his mind to believe
concerning God what he did not know that any other man believed time and
time again obscured Bart Toyner's vision of the divine.

The power of the miracle wrought at his conversion was gone; he had
been taught that the miraculous power was only to be with him as long as
he yielded implicit obedience, but that implied a clear-cut knowledge of
right from wrong which Toyner did not now possess; many of the old rules
clashed with that one large new rule which had come to him--that any way
of life was wicked which made it appear that God was in some provinces
of life and not in others. "Whatever is not of faith is sin"; but while
an old and a new faith are warring in a man's soul the definition fails:
many a righteous act is born of doubt, not faith. This was one reason
why Toyner no longer possessed all-conquering strength. Another reason
there was which acted as powerfully to rob him--the soul-bewildering
difficulty of believing that the God of physical law can also be the God
of promise, that He that is within us and beneath us can also be above
us with power to lift us up.

Without a firm grip on this supernatural upholding power Toyner was a
man with a diseased craving for intoxicants. He fled from them as a man
flies from deadly infection; but with all the help that total abstinence
and the absence of temptation can give he failed in the battle. A few
weeks after he had returned to Fentown he was brought into his mother's
house one morning dead drunk. The mother, whose heart had revived within
her a little during the last year, now sank again into her previous
dejection. Her friends said to her that they had always known how it
would be in the case of so sudden a reformation. When Toyner woke up his
humiliation was terrible; he bore it as he had borne all the rest of his
pain and shame, silently enough. No one but Ann Markham even guessed the
agony that he endured, and she had not the chance to give a kindly
look, for at this time Toyner, unable to trust himself with himself, was
afraid to look upon Ann lest he should smirch her life.

Again Toyner set his feet sternly in the way of sobriety. Ah! how he
prayed, beseeching that God, who had revealed Himself to be greater and
nobler than had before been known, would not because of that show
Himself to be less powerful towards those that fear Him. It is the
prayer of faith, not the prayer of agonised entreaty, that takes hold of
strength. Toyner failed again and again. There was a vast difference now
between this and his former life of failure, for now he never despaired,
but took up the struggle each time just where he had laid it down, and
moreover the intervals of sobriety were long, and the fits of
drunkenness short and few; but there were not many besides Ann who
noticed this difference. And as for Toyner, the shame and misery of
failure so filled his horizon that he could not see the favourable
contrast--shame and misery, but never despair; that one word had gone
out of his life.

One day a visitor came hurrying down the street to Toyner's home. The
stranger had the face of a saint, and the hasty feet of those who are
conscious that they bear tidings of great joy. It was Toyner's friend,
the preacher. Bart had often written to him, and he to his convert. Of
late the letters had been fraught with pain to both, but this was the
first time that the preacher had found himself able to come a long
journey since he had heard of Toyner's fall. He came, his heart big with
the prayer of faith that what he had done once he might be permitted to
do again--lead this man once more into the humble path of a
time-honoured creed and certain self-conquest. To the preacher the two
were one and indivisible.

When this life is passed away, shall we see that our prayers for others
have been answered most lavishly by the very contradiction of what we
have desired?

The visit was well timed. Bart Toyner's father lay dying; and in spite
of that, or rather in consequence of nights of watching and the
necessary handling of stimulants, Bart sat in his own room, only just
returned to soberness after a drunken night. With face buried in his
hands, and a heart that was breaking with sorrow, Bart was sitting
alone; and then the preacher came in.

The preacher sat beside him, and put his arm around him. The preacher
was a man whose embrace no man could shrink from, for the physical part
of him was as nothing compared with the love and strength of its
animating soul.

"Our Lord sends a message to you: 'All things are possible to him that
believeth.'" The preacher spoke with quiet strength. "_You_ know, dear
brother, that this word of His is certainly true."

"Yes, yes, I know it. By the hour in which I first saw you I know it;
but I cannot take hold of it again in the same way. My faith wavers."

"Your faith wavers?" The preacher spoke questioningly. "My brother,
faith in itself is nothing; it is only the hand that takes; it is the
Saviour in whom we believe who has the power. You have turned away from
Him. It is not that your faith wavers, but that you are walking straight
forward on the road of infidelity, and on that path you will never find
a God to help, but only a devil to devour."

Toyner shivered even within the clasp of the encircling arm. "I had
tried to tell you in writing that the Saviour you follow is more to
me--far more, not less."

"In what way?" The preacher's voice was full of sympathy; but here, and
for the first time, Bart felt it was an unconscious trick. Sympathy was
assumed to help him to speak. The preacher could conceive of no divine
object of love that was not limited to the pattern he had learned to
dwell upon.

"I am not good at words," Toyner spoke humbly. "I took a long time to
write to you; I said it better than I could now, that God is far more
because He is a faithful Creator, responsible for us always, whatever we
do, to bring us to good. Now I do not need to keep dividing things and
people and thoughts into His and not-His. That was what it came to
before. You may say it didn't, but it did. And all we know about
Jesus--don't you see." (Bart raised his face with piteous, hunted
look)--"don't you see that what His life and death meant was--just what
I have told you? God doesn't hold back His robe, telling people what
they ought to do, and then judge them. He does not shrink from taking
sin on Himself to bring them through death to life. Doesn't your book
say so again and again and again?"

"God cannot sin!" cried the preacher, with the warmth of holy
indignation.

Toyner became calm with a momentary contempt of the other's lack of
understanding. "That goes without saying, or He would not be God."

"But that is what you have said in your letters."

There was silence in the room. The misery of his loneliness took hold of
Toyner till it almost felt like despair. Who was he, unlearned, very
sinful, even now shaken with the palsy of recent excess--who was he to
bandy words with a holy man? All words that came from his own lips that
hour seemed to him horribly profane. The new idea that possessed him was
what he lived by, and yet alone with it he did not gather strength from
it to walk upright.

"The father tempted the prodigal," he said, "when he gave him the
substance to waste with sinners. Did the father sin? The time had come
when nothing but temptation--yes, and sin too--could save. Most things,
sir, that you hold about God I can hold too. There are bad men, powerful
and seducing men, in the world; there may easily be unseen devils. There
is hell on earth, and I don't doubt but that there's the awfulest,
longest depth of the same kind of hell beyond. There's heaven on earth,
and all the love and pain of love we have tell us there's heaven beyond,
unspeakable and eternal; but, sir, when you come to limit God--to say,
here the responsibility of the faithful God stops, here man's
self-destruction begins--I can't believe that. He must be responsible,
not only for starting us with freedom, but responsible for the use we
make of it and for all the consequence. When you say of the infinite God
that hell and the devils are something outside of Him--I can't think
that. The devils must live and move and have their being in Him. When
you say the holy God ever said to spirit He had created, 'Depart from
Me' (except in a parable meaning that as long as a spirit chose evil it
would not be conscious of God's nearness), I tell you, sir, by all He
has taught me out of the Bible you gave me, I don't believe it. We've
studied the Bible so much now that we know that holiness is just
love--the sort of love that holds holy hatred and every other good
feeling within itself. We know that love can't fail and cast out the
thing it loves. When we know a law, we know the way it must work. If the
Bible seems to say the big law it teaches doesn't work out true, it must
be like what is said of the six days of creation, something that came as
near as it could to what people would understand, but that needs a new
explanation."

The young preacher had withdrawn his encircling arm. He sat looking very
stern and sad.

"When you begin to doubt God's word, you will soon doubt that He is, and
that He is the rewarder of them that seek Him."

"Sir, it seems to me that it's doubting the incarnate Word to believe
what you do, because the main plain drift of all He was and did is
contradicted by some few things men supposed Him to mean because they
thought them. But it's not that I would set myself up to know about
doctrines, if it wasn't that this doctrine had driven me to stop
believing and stop caring to do right. I can't just explain it clearly,
but when I came to Him the way you told me, and thought the way you told
me, I just went on and did it and was blessed and happy in the love of
God as I never could have dreamed of; but all the time there was a
something--I didn't know exactly what--that I couldn't bring my mind to;
so I just left it. But when I got tempted, and prayed and prayed, then
it came on me all of a sudden that I didn't want a God who had to do
with such a little part of life as that. You see it had been simmering
in my mind all the days that I stopped doing the things you told me were
wrong and yet went on keeping among the publicans and sinners because
He did. If I'd just stayed with the church-goers, maybe I wouldn't have
felt it; but to think that I couldn't take a hand in an innocent game o'
cards, or dance with the girls that hadn't had another bit of
amusement--all that wasn't very important, but that sort of thing began
it. And then to think that God was in me and not in them! I began, as I
went down the street, wondering who had God in his heart and who hadn't,
that I might know who to trust and who to try to do good to. And then,
most of all, there was all my books that I liked so much. I didn't read
them any more, for when I thought that God had set every word in the
Bible quite true and left all the other books to be true or not just as
it happened, I couldn't think to look at any book but the Bible; for
one's greedy of knowing how things really are--that's what one reads
for. So you see it was all in my mind God did things differently one
time and another, like making one book and not the others, and only such
a small part of things was His; and then when the temptation came, you
see, if I'd thought God was in Markham and the girls I could have done
my duty and let Him take care of them; but it was because I'd no cause
to think that, and believed that He'd let them go, that I couldn't let
them go. I felt that I'd rather give up the sort of a God I thought on
and look after them a bit. It wasn't that I thought it out clear at the
time; but that was how it came about, and I was ready to kick religion
over. And, sir, if God hadn't taught me that when I went down to hell He
was there, I don't think I'd want to be religious again; but now I do
want it with all my might and main, and I'll never let go of it, just as
I know He won't let go of me--no, not if some of these days they have
to shovel me into a drunkard's grave; but I believe that God's got the
same strength for me just as He had when you converted me." Toyner
looked round him despairingly as a man might look for something that is
inexplicably lost. "I can't think how it is, but I can't get hold of His
strength."

The preacher meditated. It had already been given to him to pray with
great persistency and faith for this back-slider, and he had come sure
of bringing with him adequate help; but now his hope was less. In a
moment he threw himself upon his knees and prayed aloud: "Heavenly
Father, open the heart of Thine erring child to see that it was the
craft and subtlety of the devil that devised for him a temptation he
could not resist,--none other but the devil could have been so subtle;
and show him that this same devil, clothed as an angel of light, has
feigned Thy voice and whispered in his ear, and that until he returns to
the simple faith as it is in the gospel Thou _canst_ not help him as of
old."

"Stop!" (huskily). "I have not let go of His faith. His faith was in the
Father of sinners."

Then the preacher strove in words to show him the greatness of his
error, and why he could not hold to it and live in the victory which
faith gives. It was no narrow or weak view that the preacher took of the
universe and God's scheme for its salvation; for he too lived at a time
when men were learning more of the love of God, and he too had spoken
with God. The hard outline of his creed had grown luminous, fringed with
the divine light from beyond, as the bars of prison windows grow
dazzling and fade when the prisoner looks at the sun. All that the
preacher said was wise and strong, and the only reason he failed to
convince was that Toyner felt that the thought in which his own
storm-tossed soul had anchored was a little wiser and stronger--only a
little, for there was not a great difference between them, after all.

"I take in all that you say, sir; but you see I can't help feeling sure
that it's true that God is living with us as much and as true when we're
in the worst sort of sin, and the greater sin that it brings--for the
punishment of sin is more and more sin--and being sure, I know that
everything else that is true will come to fit in with it, though I may
not be able rightly to put it in now, and what won't come to fit in with
it can't be true."

The preacher perceived that the evil which he had set himself to slay
was giantlike in strength. He chose him smooth stones for his sling.
His heart was growing heavy with fear of failure, his spirit within him
still raised its face heavenward in unceasing prayer. He began to tell
the history of God's ways with man from the first. He spoke of Abraham.
He urged that the great strength had always come to men who had trusted
God's word against reason and against sight. And he saw then that for
the first time Toyner raised up his head and seemed stirred with a
reviving strength.

The preacher paused, hoping to hear some encouraging word in
correspondence to the gesture, but none came.

Then he spoke of Moses and of Joshua, for he was following the tale of
God's rejection of sinful nations.

Toyner answered now. His eye was clearer, his hand steadier. "I have
read there's many that say that God could not have told His people to
slay whole nations, men, women, and children. I think it's the
shallowest thing that was ever said. I don't know about His _telling
people_ to do it--that may be a poem; but that He gave it to them to do,
that He gives it to winds and floods and fires and plagues to do, time
and time and again, is as certain as that if there's a God He must have
things His way or He isn't God. But I don't believe that in this world,
or in the next, He ever left man, woman, or child, but lived with each
one all through the sin and the destruction. And, sir, I take it that
men couldn't see that until at last there came One who looked into God's
heart and saw the truth, and He wanted to tell it, but there were no
words, so though He had power in Him to be King over the whole earth, He
chose instead to be the companion of sinners, and to go down into all
the depths of pain and shame and death and hell. And He said His Father
had been doing it always, and He did it to show forth the Father. That
is what it means. I am sure that is what it means."

The preacher was surprised to see the transformation that was going on
in the man before him. That wonderful law which gives to some centre of
energy in the brain the control of bodily strength, if but the right
relationship between mind and body can be established, was again
working, although in a lesser degree than formerly, to restore this man
before his eyes. Bart, who had appeared shrunken, trembling, and
watery-eyed, was pulling himself together with some strength that he had
got from somewhere, and was standing up again ready to play a man's
part. The preacher did not understand why. There seemed to him to have
been nothing but failure in the interview. He made one more effort; he
put the last stone in his sling. Toyner had just spoken of the
sacrifice of Calvary, and to the preacher it seemed that he set it at
naught, because he was claiming salvation for those who mocked as well
as for those who believe.

"Think of it," he said; "you make wrong but an inferior kind of right.
You take away the reason for the one great Sacrifice, and in this you
are slighting Him who suffered for you."

Then he made, with all the force and eloquence he could, the personal
appeal of the Christ whom he felt to be slighted.

"You have spoken of the sufferings of lost and wretched men," he went
on; "think of His sufferings! You have spoken of your loneliness; think
of His loneliness!"

Then suddenly Bart Toyner made a gesture as a slave might who casts off
the chains of bondage. The appeal to which he was listening was not for
him, but for some man whom the preacher's imagination had drawn in his
place, who did not appropriate the great Sacrifice and seek to live in
its power. He did not now seek to explain again that the death of Christ
was to him as an altar, the point in human thought where always the fire
of the divine life descends upon the soul self-offered in like
sacrifice. He had tried to explain this; now he tried no more, but he
held out his hands with a sign of joy and recovered strength.

"You came to help me; you have prayed for me; you have helped me; you
have been given something to say. Listen: you have told me of Abraham;
he was called to go out alone, quite alone. Now you have spoken to me of
Another who was alone." Toyner was incoherent. "That was why _He_ bore
it, that we might know that it was possible to have faith all alone
because He had it. It is easy to believe in God holding us up when
others do, but awfully hard all alone. He knew that, He warned them to
keep together; but all the same He lived out His prayers alone."

Toyner looked at the preacher, love and reverence in his eyes. "You
saved me once," he said; "you have saved me again."

But the preacher went home very sorrowful, for he did not believe that
Bart Toyner was saved.




CHAPTER XVIII.


The spiritual strength that proceeds from every holy man had again
flowed in life-giving stream from the preacher to Bart Toyner. The help
was adequate. Toyner never became intoxicated again.

His father died; and for two years or more the mother, who had lived
frugally all her life, still lived frugally, although land and money had
been left to her. The mother would not trust her son, and yet gradually
she began to realise that it was he who was quietly heaping into her lap
all those joys of which she had been so long deprived. At length she
died, the happy mother of a son who had won the respect of other men.

It was after that that Toyner wedded Ann Markham. Then, when he had the
power to live a more individual life of enjoyment and effort, it began
to be known little by little that these two had committed that sin
against society so hard to forgive, the sin of having their own creed
and their own thoughts and their own ways.

Toyner was not a preacher. It was not in him to try to change the ideas
of those who were doing well with what ideas they had. All that he
desired was to live so that it might be known that his God was the God
of the whole wide round of human activity, a God who blessed the just
and the unjust. Toyner desired to be constantly blessing both the bad
and the good with the blessing of love and home which had been given to
him. It was inevitable that to carry out such an idea a man must live
through many mistakes and much failure. The ideal itself was an offence
to society. We have all heard of such offences and how they have been
punished.

One great factor in the refining of Ann's life was her lover's long
neglect; for he, in the simple belief that she must know his heart and
purpose and that she would not be much benefited by his companionship,
left her for those years that passed before he married her wholly
ignorant of his constancy. Ann was constant. Had he explained himself
she would have been content and taken him more or less at his own
valuation, as we all take those who talk about themselves. Having no
such explanation to listen to, she watched and pondered all that he did.
Before the day came in which he made his shy and hesitating offer of
marriage, she had grown to be one with him in hope and desire. Together
they made their mistakes and lived down their failure. They had other
troubles too, for the babies lived and died one by one.

There is seen to be a marvellous alchemy in true piety. Mind and sense
subject to its process become refined. Where refinement is not the
result, we may believe that there is a false note in the devotion, that
there is self-seeking in the effort toward God. Toyner's wealth grew
with the spread of the town over the land he owned. He had the good
taste to spend well the money he devoted to pleasure; yet it was not
books or pictures or music, acquired late in life, that gave to him and
to his wife the power to grow in harmony with their surroundings. It was
the high life of prayer and effort that they lived that made it possible
for God--the God of art as truly as the God of prayer--to teach them.

It is not at the best a cultured place, this backwoods town. There was
many a slip in grammar, many a broad uncouth accent, heard daily in
Ann's drawing-room; but what mental life the town had came to centre in
that room. Gradually reflecting neighbours began to learn that there was
a beneficent force other than intellectual at work there.

Young men who needed interest and pleasure, the poor who needed warmth
and food, came together to that room, and met there the drunkard in his
sober intervals, the gamester when he cared to play for mere pastime;
yes, and others, the more evil, were made welcome there. It was not
forgotten that Toyner had been a wicked man and that Ann's father had
been a murderer.

It was a strange effort this, to increase virtue in the virtuous, not by
separation from, but by friendship with, the unrepentant. To Toyner sin
was an abhorred thing. It consisted always, yet only, in failure to
tread in the foot-prints of God, as far as it was given to each man to
see God's way--in obedience to the lower motive in any moment of the
perpetual choice of life. For himself, his life was impassioned with the
belief that it was wicked to live as if God was not the God of the whole
of what we may know.

I, who have seen it, tell you that the atmosphere of that house was
always sweet. There were many young girls who came to it often, and
laughed and danced with men who were not righteous, and the girls lived
more holy lives than before. I would say this:--do not let any one
imitate the method of life which Toyner and his wife practised unless by
prayer he can obtain the power of the unseen holiness to work upon the
flux of circumstance; yet do not let those fear to imitate it who have
learned the secret of prayer. It was a strenuous life of prayer and
self-denial that these two lived until their race in this phase of
things was run.

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_It is with this abrupt note of personal observation and reflection that
the schoolmaster's manuscript ends. He had evidently become one of
Toyner's disciples. It is well that we should know what our brothers
think, feel with their hearts for an hour, if it may not be for longer._

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