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  A BED OF ROSES . . BY

  W. L. GEORGE


  AUTHOR OF 'ENGINES OF SOCIAL

  PROGRESS,' . . 'FRANCE IN THE

  TWENTIETH CENTURY,' &c.

  It's not work that any woman would do for pleasure,
  goodness knows; though to hear the pious people talk
  you would suppose it was a bed of roses. Mrs Warren's
  Profession . By G. Bernard Shaw.

  AUTHORISED EDITION


  BRENTANO'S . NEW YORK

  MCMXI

  THIRD EDITION




PART I




CHAPTER I


'WE go.' The lascar meditatively pressed his face, brown and begrimed
with coal dust, streaked here and there with sweat, against the rope
which formed the rough bulwark. His dark eyes were fixed on the shore
near by, between which and the ship's side the water quivered quicker
and quicker in little ripples, each ripple carrying an iridescent film
of grey ooze. Without joy or sadness he was bidding goodbye to Bombay,
his city. Those goodbyes are often farewells for lascars who must face
the Bay and the Channel. But the stoker did not care.

His companion lay by his side, lazily propped up on his elbow, not
deigning even to take a last look at the market place, seething still
with its crowded reds and blues and golds. 'Dekko!' cried the first
stoker pointing to the wharf where a white man in a dirty smock had just
cast off the last rope, which came away swishing through the air.

His companion did not raise his eyes. Slowly he tilted up his pannikin
and let the water flow in a thin stream into his mouth, keeping the
metal away from his lips. Then, careless of the land of Akbar, he let
himself sink on the deck and composed himself to sleep. India was no
concern of his.

A few yards away a woman watched them absently from the upper deck. She
was conscious of them, conscious too of the slow insistent buzzing of a
gadfly. Her eyes slowly shifted to the shore, passed over the market
place, stopped at the Fort. There, in the open space, a troop was
drilling, white and speckless, alertly wheeling at the word of command.
Her eyes were still fixed on the group as the ship imperceptibly receded
from the shore, throbbing steadily as the boilers got up steam. A
half-naked brown boy was racing along the wharf to gain a start and beat
the vessel before she reached the military crane.

The woman turned away. She was neither tall nor short: she did not
attract attention overmuch but she was one of those who retain such
attention as they draw. She was clad entirely in black; her face seemed
to start forward intensified. Her features were regular; her mouth
small. Her skin, darkened by the shadow of a broad brimmed hat, blushed
still darker at the cheeks. The attraction was all in the eyes, large
and grey, suggestive of energy without emotion. Her chin was square,
perhaps too thick in the jaw.

She turned once more and leant against the bulwark. A yard away another
woman was also standing, her eyes fixed on the shore, on a figure who
waited motionless on the fast receding wharf. As the steamer kept on her
course the woman craned forward, saw once more and then lost sight of
the lonely figure. She was small, fair, a little insignificant, and
dressed all in white drill.

The steamer had by now attained half speed. The shore was streaming by.
The second woman turned her back on the bulwark, looked about aimlessly,
then, perceiving her neighbour, impulsively went up to her and stood
close beside her.

The two women did not speak, but remained watching the shoals fly past.
Far away a train in Kolaba puffed up sharp bursts of smoke into the blue
air. There was nothing to draw the attention of the beholder in that
interminable shore, low-lying and muddy, splashed here and there with
ragged trees. It was a desert almost, save for a village built between
two swamps. Here and then smoke arose, brown and peaty from a bonfire.
In the evening light the sun's declining rays lit up with radiance the
red speck of a heavy shawl on the tiny figure of a brown girl.

Little by little, as the ship entered the fairway, the shore receded
almost into nothingness. The two women still watched, while India merged
into shadow. It was the second hour and, as the ship slowly turned
towards the west, the women watched the great cocoanut trees turn into
black specks upon Marla point. Then, slowly, the shore sank into the
dark sea until it was gone and nothing was left of India save the
vaguely paler night that tells of land and the even fainter white spears
of the distant light.

For a moment they stood still, side by side. Then the fair woman
suddenly put her hand on her companion's arm. 'I'm cold,' she said,
'let's go below.'

The dark girl looked at her sympathetically. 'Yes,' she said, 'let's,
who'd have thought we wanted to see more of the beastly country than we
could help. . . . I say, what's the matter, Molly?'

Molly was still looking towards the light; one of her feet tapped the
deck nervously; she fumbled for her handkerchief. 'Nothing, nothing,'
she said indistinctly, 'come and unpack.' She turned away from her
companion and quickly walked towards the gangway.

The dark girl looked once more into the distance where even the
searchlight had waned. 'Vic!' cried the fair girl querulously, half way
up the deck. 'All right, I'm coming,' replied the woman in black. She
looked again at the pale horizon into which India had faded, at the deck
before her where a little black cluster of people had formed to look
their last upon the light. Then she turned and followed her companion.

The cabin was on the lower deck, small, stuffy in the extreme. Its two
grave-like bunks, its drop table, even its exiguous armchair promised
no comfort. On the worn carpet the pattern had almost vanished; alone
the official numerals on the edge stared forth. For half an hour the two
women unpacked in silence; Molly knelt by the side of her trunk delving
into it, dragging out garments which she tried to find room for on the
scanty pegs. Her companion merely raised the lid of her trunk to ease
the pressure on her clothes, and placed a small dressing-case on the
drop table. Once she would have spoken but, at that moment, a faint sob
came from Molly's kneeling form. She went up to her, put her arm about
her neck and kissed her cheek. She undressed wearily, climbed into the
upper berth. Soon Molly did likewise, after turning down the light. For
a while she sighed and turned uneasily; then she became quieter, her
breathing more measured, and she slept.

Victoria Fulton lay in her berth, her eyes wide open, glued to the roof
a foot or so above her face. It was very like a coffin, she thought,
perhaps a suitable enough habitation for her, but at present, not in the
least tempting. A salutary capacity for optimism was enabling her to
review the past three years and to speculate about the future. Not that
either was very rosy, especially the future.

The steady throb of the screw pulsated through the stuffy cabin, and
blended with the silence broken only by Molly's regular breathing in the
lower berth. Victoria could not help remembering other nights passed
also in a stuffy little cabin, where the screw was throbbing as
steadily, and when the silence was broken by breathing as regular, but a
little heavier. Three years only, and she was going home. But now she
was leaving behind her the high hopes she had brought with her.

She was no exception to the common rule, and memories, whether bitter or
sweet, had always bridged for her the gulf between wakefulness and
sleep. And what could be more natural than to recall those nights, three
years ago, when every beat of that steady screw was bringing her nearer
to the country where her young husband was, according to his mood, going
to win the V.C., trace the treasure stolen from a Begum, or become
military member on the Viceroy's Council? Poor old Dicky, she thought,
perhaps it was as well he did not live to see himself a major, old and
embittered, with all those hopes behind him.

There were no tears in her eyes when she thought of Fulton. The good old
days, the officers' ball at Lympton when she danced with him half the
night, the rutty lane where they met to sit on a bank of damp moss
smelling of earth and crushed leaves, and the crumbling little church
where she became Fulton's wife, all that was far away. How dulled it all
was too by those three years during which, in the hot moist air of the
plains, she had seen him degenerate, his skin lose it's freshness, his
eyelids pucker and gather pouches, his tongue grow ever more bitter as
he attempted to still with whisky the drunkard's chronic thirst. She
could not even shudder at the thought of all it had meant for her, at
the horror of seeing him become every day more stupefied, at the savage
outbursts of the later days, at the last scenes, crude and physically
foul. Three years had taught her brain dullness to such scenes as those.

The tragedy of Fulton was a common enough thing. Heat, idleness,
temporary affluence, all those things that do not let a man see that
life is blessed only by the works that enable him to forget it, had
played havoc with him. He had followed up his initial error of coming
into the world at all by marrying a woman who neither cajoled or coerced
him. With the best of intentions she had bored him to extinction. His
interest in things became slender; he drank himself to death, and not
even the ghost of his self lived to grieve by his bedside.

In spite of everything it had not been a bad life in its way. Victoria
had been the belle, in spite of Mrs Major Dartle and her peroxidised
tresses. And there had been polo (Dicky always would have three ponies
and refused three hundred guineas for Tagrag), and regimental dances and
gymkhanas and what not. Under the sleepy sun these three years had
passed, not like a flash of lightning, but slowly, dreamily, in the
unending routine of marches, inspections, migrations to and from the
hills. The end had come quickly. One day they carried Dick Fulton all
the way from the mess and laid him under his own verandah. The fourth
day he died of cirrhosis of the liver. Even Mrs Major Dartle who
formally called and lit up the darkened room with the meretricious glow
of her curls hinted that it was a happy release. The station in general
had no doubt as to the person for whom release had come.

As Victoria lay in the coffin-like berth she vainly tried to analyse her
feeling for Fulton. The three years had drawn over her past something
like a veil behind which she could see the dim shapes of her impressions
dancing like ghostly marionettes. She knew that she had loved him with
the discreet passion of an Englishwoman. He had burst in upon her
ravished soul like the materialised dream of a schoolgirl; he had been
adorably careless, adorably rakish. For a whole year all his foibles had
been charms in so far as they made the god more human, nearer to her.
Then, one night, he had returned home so drunk as to fall prostrate on
the tiles of the verandah and sleep there until next morning. She had
not dared to call the ayah or the butler and, as she could not rouse or
lift him, she had left him lying there under some rugs and mosquito
netting.

During the rest of that revolutionary night she had not slept, nor had
she found the relief of tears that is given most women. Hot waves of
indignation flowed over her. She wanted to get up, to stamp with rage,
to kick the disgraceful thing on the tiles. She held herself down,
however, or perhaps the tradition of the English counties whispered to
her that anything was preferable to scandal, that crises must be
noiseless. When dawn came and she at last managed to arouse Fulton by
flooding his head with the contents of the water jug, the hot fit was
gone. She felt cold, too aloof, too far away from him to hate him, too
petrified to reproach him.

Fulton took no notice of the incident. He was still young and vigorous
enough to shake off within a few hours the effects of the drink. Besides
he seldom mentioned things that affected their relations; in the keep of
his heart he hid the resentment of a culprit against the one who has
caught him in the act. He confined his conversation to daily happenings;
in moments of expansion he talked of the future. They did not, however,
draw nearer one another; thus the evolution of their marriage tended
inevitably to draw them apart. Victoria was no longer angry, but she was
frightened because she had been frightened and she hated the source of
her fear. Fulton, thick skinned as he was, felt their estrangement
keenly. He grew to hate his wife; it almost made him wish to hurt her
again. So he absented himself more often, drank more, then died. His
wife was free. So this was freedom. Freedom, a word to conjure with,
thought Victoria, when one is enslaved and meaning very little when one
is free. She was able to do what she liked and wished to do nothing. Of
course things would smooth themselves out: they always did, even though
the smoothing process might be lengthy. They must do so, but how? There
were friends of course, and Ted, and thirty pounds of Consols unless
they'd gone down again, as safe investments are wont to do. She would
have to do some work. Rather funny, but how jolly to draw your first
month's or week's salary; everybody said it was a proud moment. Of
course it would have to be earned, but that did not matter: everybody
had to earn what they got, she supposed, and they ought to enjoy doing
it. Old Flynn, the D.C., used to say that work was a remunerative
occupation you didn't like, but then he had been twenty years in India.

Molly turned uneasily in her bunk and settled down again. Victoria's
train of thought was broken and she could not detach her attention from
the very gentle snore that came from the lower berth, a snore gentle but
so insidious that it seemed to dominate the steady beat of the screw.
Through the porthole, over which now there raced some flecks of spray,
she could see nothing but the blackness of the sky, a blackness which at
times turned to grey whenever the still inkier sea appeared. The cabin
seemed black and empty, lit up faintly by a white skirt flung on a
chair. Slowly Victoria sank into sleep, conscious of a half dream of
England where so many unknowable things must happen.




CHAPTER II


'No, Molly, I don't think it's very nice of you,' said Victoria, 'we've
been out four days and I've done nothing but mope and mope; it's all
very well my being a widow and all that: I'm not suggesting you and I
should play hop scotch on deck with the master gunner, but for four days
I've been reading a three months old _Harper's_ and the memoirs of
Mademoiselle de I don't know what, and . . .'

'But what have I done?' cried Molly.

'I'm bored,' replied Victoria, with admirable detachment, 'and what's
more, I don't intend to go on being bored for another fortnight; I'm
going on deck to find somebody to amuse me.'

'You can't do that,' said Molly, 'they're washing it.'

'Very well, then, I'll go and watch and sing songs to the men.' Victoria
glared at her unoffending companion, her lips tightening and her jaw
growing ominously squarer.

'But my dear girl,' said Molly, 'I'm awfully sorry. I didn't know you
cared; come and have a game of quoits with me and old Cairns. There's a
place behind the companion which I should say nobody ever does wash.'

Victoria was on the point of answering that she hated quoits as she
never scored and they were generally dirty, but the prospect of
returning to the ancient _Harper's_ was not alluring, so she followed
Molly to the hatchway and climbed up to the upper deck still shining
moist and white. Apparently they would not have to play behind the
companion. Four men were leaning against the bulwarks, looking out at
nothing as people do on board ship. Victoria just had time to notice a
very broad flannel-clad back surmounted by a thick neck, while Molly
went up to the last man and unceremoniously prodded him in the ribs.

'Wake up, Bobby,' she said, 'I'm waiting.'

The men all wheeled round suddenly. The broad man stepped forward
quickly and shook hands with Molly. Then he took a critical look at
Victoria. The three young men struggled for an absurd little bag which
Molly always dropped at the right moment.

'How do you do, Mrs Fulton,' said the broad man stretching out his hand.
Victoria took it hesitatingly.

'Don't you remember me?' he said. 'My name's Cairns. Major Cairns. You
know. Travancores. Met you at His Excellency's hop.'

Of course she remembered him. He was so typical. Anybody could have told
his profession and his rank at sight. He had a broad humorous face,
tanned over freckled pink. Since he left Wellington he had grown a
little in every direction and had become a large middle aged boy.
Victoria took him in at one look. A square face such as that of Cairns,
distinctly chubby, framing grey blue eyes, was as easily recalled as
forgotten. She took in his forehead, high and likely to become higher as
his hair receded; his straight aggressive nose; his little rough
moustache looking like nothing so much as a ragged strip off an Irish
terrier's back.

While Victoria was wondering what to say, Molly, determined to show her
that she was not going to leave her out, had thrust her three henchmen
forward.

'This is Bobby,' she remarked. Bobby was a tall young man with a round
head, bright brown eyes full of cheerfulness and hot temper. 'And
Captain Alastair . . . and Mr Parker.' Alastair smiled. Smiles were his
method of expression. Mr Parker bowed rather low and said nothing. He
had at once conceived for Victoria the mixture of admiration and dislike
that a man feels towards a woman who would not marry him if she knew
where he had been to school.

'I hope,' said Mr Parker slowly, 'that your. . . .' But he broke off
suddenly, realising the mourning and feeling the ground to be unsafe.

'Mr Parker, I've been looking for you all the morning,' interjected
Molly, with intuition. 'You've promised to teach me to judge my
distance,' and she cleverly pushed Bobby between Mr Parker and Victoria.
'Come along, and you Bobby, you can pick the rings up.'

'Right O,' said Bobby readily. She turned towards the stern followed by
the obedient Bobby and Mr Parker.

Captain Alastair smiled vacuously, made as if to follow the trio,
realising that it was a false start, swerved back and finally covering
his confusion by sliding a few yards onwards to tell Mrs Colonel Lanning
that it was blowing up for a squall.

Victoria had watched the little incident with amused detachment.

'Who is Mr Parker?' she enquired.

'Met him yesterday for the first time,' said Cairns, 'and really I can't
say I want to know. Might be awkward. Must be in the stores or
something. Looks to me like a cross between a mute and a parson. Bit of
a worm, anyhow.'

'Oh, he didn't hurt my feelings,' remarked Victoria; 'but some men never
know what women have got on.' Cairns looked her over approvingly.
Shoddy-looking mourning. Durzee made of course. But, Lord, what hands
and eyes.

'I daresay not,' he said drily. 'I wish he'd keep away though. Let's
walk up.'

He took a stride or two away from Alastair. Victoria followed him. She
was rather taken with his rough simplicity, the comfort of his apparent
obtuseness. So like an uncle, she thought.

'Well, Mrs Fulton,' said Cairns, 'I suppose you're glad to be here, as
usual.'

'As usual?'

'Yes, as usual; people are always glad to be on board. If they're going
home, they're going home and if they're going out they're thinking that
it's going to be full pay instead of half.'

'It hadn't struck me like that,' said Victoria with a smile, 'though I
suppose I am glad to go home.'

'Funny,' said the Major, 'I never found a country like India to make
people want to come to it and to make them want to get out of it when
they were there. We had a sub once. You should have heard him on the
dead cities. Somewhere south east of Hyderabad, he said. And native
jewellery, and fakirism, and all that. He's got a liver now and the last
I heard of him was that he put his shoulder out at polo.'

Victoria looked out over the immense oily greenness of the water. Far
away on the skyline a twirling wreath of smoke showed that some tramp
steamer was passing them unseen. The world was between them; they were
crawling on one side of the ball and the tramp on the other, like flies
on an orange. Was that tramp, Bombay bound, carrying more than a cargo
of rolling stock? Perhaps the mate had forgotten his B.S.A. fittings and
was brooding, he too, over the dead cities, somewhere south-east of
Hyderabad.

'No,' repeated Victoria slowly, 'it hadn't struck me like that.'

Cairns looked at her curiously. He had heard of Fulton and knew of the
manner of his death. He could not help thinking that she did not seem
to show many signs of a recent bereavement, but then she was well rid
of Fulton. Of course there were other things too. Going back as the
widow of an Indian officer was all very well if you could afford the
luxury, but if you couldn't, well it couldn't be much catch. So, being
thirty eight or so, he prudently directed the conversation towards the
customary subjects discussed on board a trooper: the abominable
accommodation and the appalling incompetency of the government with
regard to the catering.

Victoria listened to him placidly. His ancient tittle-tattle had been
made familiar to her by three years' association with his fellows, and
she had learned that she need not say much, as his one wish was
naturally to revile the authorities and all their work. But one item
interested her.

'After all,' he said, 'I don't see why I should talk. I've had enough of
it. I'm sending in my papers as soon as I've settled a small job at
Perim. I'll get back to Aden and shake all that beastly Asiatic dust off
my shoes.'

'Surely,' said Victoria, 'you're not going to leave the Service?' Her
intonation implied that she was urging him not to commit suicide. Some
women must pass twice under the yoke.

'Fed up. Simply fed up with it. Suppose I do waste another twenty years
in India or Singapore or Hong Kong, how much forrarder am I? They'll
retire me as a colonel or courtesy general and dump me into an England
which doesn't care a hang about me with the remains of malaria, no
digestion and no temper. I'll then while away my time watching the
busses pass by from one of the windows of the Rag and give my daily
opinion of the doings of Simla and the National Congress to men who will
only listen to me so long as I stand them a whisky and soda.'

'It isn't alluring,' said Victoria, 'but it may not be as bad as that.
You can do marvels in India. My husband used to say that a man could
hope for anything there.'

Cairns suppressed the obvious retort that Fulton's ideals did not seem
to have materialised.

'No,' he said, 'I'm not ambitious. India's steam rollered all that. When
I've done with my job at Perim, which won't be much more than a couple
of months, I'm going home. Don't know that I'll do anything in
particular. Farm a bit, perhaps, or have some chambers somewhere near St
James' and dabble in balloons or motors. Some shooting too. All that
sort of thing.'

'Perhaps you are right,' said Victoria after a pause. 'I suppose it's as
well to do what one likes. Shall we join the others?'




CHAPTER III


LIFE on a trooper is not eventful. Victoria was not so deeply absorbed
in her mourning or in the pallid literature borrowed from Molly as not
to notice it. Though she was not what is termed serious, the perpetual
quoits on the upper deck in company with Alastair and his conversation
limited by smiles, and with Mr Parker and his conversation limited by
uneasiness palled about the second game. Bobby too was a cypher. It was
his fate to be known as 'Bobby,' a quantity of no importance. He
belonged to the modern school of squires of dames, ever ready to fetch a
handkerchief, to fish when he inwardly wanted to sleep in a deck chair
or to talk when he had a headache. Such men have their value as tame
cats and Victoria did not avoid his cheery neighbourhood. But he was
summed up in the small fact which she recalled with gentle amusement a
long time after: she had never known his name. For her, as for the
ship's company, he was 'Bobby,' merely Bobby.

The female section too could detain none but cats and hens, as Victoria
put it. She had moved too long like a tiny satellite in the orbit of Mrs
Colonel So-and-So to return to the little group which slumbered all day
by the funnel dreaming aloud the petty happenings of Bombay. The heavy
rains at Chandraga, the simply awful things that had been said about an
A.D.C. and Mrs Bryan, and the scandalous way in which a Babu had been
made a judge, all this filled her with an extraordinary weariness. She
felt, in the presence of these remains of her daily life, as she would
when confronted for the third time with the cold leg of mutton.

True there was Cairns, a man right enough and jovial in spite of his
cynical assumption that nothing was worth anything. He could produce
passing fair aphorisms, throw doubts on the value of success and
happiness. There was nothing, however, to hold on to. Victoria had not
found in him a teacher or a helper. He was merely destructive of thought
and epicurean in taste. Convinced that wine, woman and song were quite
valueless things, he nevertheless knew the best Ruedesheimer and had an
eye for the droop of Victoria's shoulders.

Cairns obviously liked Victoria. He did not shun his fellow passengers,
for he considered that the dullest people are the most interesting, yet
she could not help noticing from time to time that his eyes followed her
round. He was a good big man and she knew that his thick hand, a little
swollen and sunburnt, would be a good thing to touch. But there was in
him none of that subtle magnetism that grasps and holds. He was coarse,
perhaps a little vulgar at heart.

Thus Victoria had roamed aimlessly over the ship, visiting even the bows
where, everlastingly, a lascar seemed to brood in fixed attitudes as a
Budh dreaming of Nirvana. She often wandered in the troop-deck filled
with the womankind and children of the non-coms. Without disliking
children she could find no attraction in these poor little faded things
born to be scorched by the Indian sun. The women too, mostly yellow and
faded, always recalled to her, so languid and tired were they,
commonplace flowers, marigolds, drooping on their stems. Besides, the
society of the upper deck found a replica on the troop deck, where it
was occasionally a little shriller. There too, she could catch snatches
which told of the heavy rains of Chandraga, the goings on of Lance
Corporal Maccaskie's wife and the disgrace of giving Babu clerks more
than fifty rupees a month.

Perpetually the Indian ocean shimmered by, calm as the opaque eye of a
shark, breaking at times into immense rollers that swelled hardly more
than a woman's breast. And the days passed on.

They were nearing Aden, though nothing on the mauve horizon told of the
outpost where the filth of the East begins to overwhelm the ugliness of
the West. Victoria and Cairns were leaning on the starboard bulwark. She
was looking vacuously into the greying sky, conscious that Cairns was
watching her. She felt with extraordinary clearness that he was gazing
as if spell-bound at the soft and regular rise and fall of her skin
towards the coarse black openwork of her bodice. Far away in the
twilight was something long and black, hardly more than a line vanishing
towards the north.

'Araby,' said Cairns.

Victoria looked more intently. Far away, half veiled by the mists of
night, unlit by the evening star, lay the coast. Araby, the land of
manna and milk--of black-eyed women--of horses that champ strange bits.
Here and there a blackened rock sprang up from the waste of sand and
scrub. Its utter desolation awakened a sympathetic chord. It was lonely,
as she was lonely. As the night swiftly rushed into the heavens, she let
her arm rest against that of Cairns. Then his hand closed over hers. It
was warm and hard; something like a pale light of companionship
struggled through the solitude of her soul.

They stood cold and silent while the night swallowed up the coast and
all save here and there the foam tip of a wave. The man had put his arm
round her and pressed her to him. She did not resist. The soft wind
playing in her hair carried a straying lock into his eyes, half blinding
him and making him catch his breath, so redolent was it, not with the
scent of flowers, but of life, vigorous and rich in its thousand saps.
He drew her closer to him and pressed his lips on her neck. Victoria did
not resist.

From the forepeak swathed in darkness, came the faint unearthly echoes
of the stokers' song. There were no fourths; the dominant and the
subdominant were absent. Strangely attuned to the western ear, the
sounds sometimes boomed, sometimes fell to a whisper. The chant rose
like incense into the heavens, celebrating Durga, protector of the
Motherland, Lakshmi, bowered in the flower that in the water grows.
Cairns had drawn Victoria close against him. He was stirred and shaken
as never before. All conspired against him, the night, the fancied
scents of Araby, the unresisting woman in his arms who yielded him her
lips with the passivity of weariness. They did not think as they kissed,
whether laying the foundation of regret or snatching from the fleeting
hour a moment of thoughtless joy. Again a brass drum boomed out beyond
them, softly as if touched by velvet hands. It carried the buzzing of
bees, the calls of corncrakes, in every tone the rich scents of the
jungle, where undergrowth rots in black water--of perfumes that burn
before the gods. Then the night wind arose and swept away the crooning
voices.




CHAPTER IV


VICTORIA stepped out on to the platform with a heart that bounded and
yet shrank. Not even the first faint coming of the coastline had given
her the almost physical shock that she experienced on this bare
platform. Waterloo station lay around her in a pall of faint yellow mist
that gripped and wrenched at her throat. Through the fog a thousand
ungainly shapes of stairs and signals thrust themselves, some crude in
their near blackness, others fainter in the distance. It might have been
a dream scene but for the uproar that rose around her from the rumble of
London, the voices of a great crowd. Yet all this violence of life, the
darkness, the surge of men and women, all this told her that she was
once more in the midst of things.

She found her belongings mechanically, fumblingly. She did not realise
until then the bitterness that drove its iron into her soul. Already,
when the troopship had entered the Channel she had felt a cruel pang
when she realised that she must expect nothing and that nobody would
greet her. She had fled from the circle near the funnel when the talk
began to turn round London and waiting sisters and fathers, round the
Lord Mayor's show, the play, the old fashioned Christmas. Now, as she
struggled through the crowd that cried out and laughed excitedly and
kissed, she knew her isolation was complete. There was nobody to meet
her. The fog made her eyes smart, so they filled readily with tears.

As she sat in the cab, however, and there flashed by her like beacons
the lights of the stalls in the Waterloo Road, the black and greasy
pavement sown with orange peel, she felt her heart beating furiously
with the excitement of home coming. She passed the Thames flowing
silently, swathed in its shroud of mist. Then the blackness of St
James's Park through which her cab crawled timidly as if it feared
things that might lurk unknown in the fogbound thickets.

It was still in a state of feverish dreaming that Victoria entered her
room at Curran's Private Hotel, otherwise known by a humble number in
Seymour Street. 'Curran's' is much in favour among Anglo-Indians, as it
is both central and cheap. It has everything that distinguishes the
English hotel which has grown from a boarding-house into a superior
establishment where you may stay at so much a day. The successful owner
had bought up one after the other three contiguous houses and had
connected them by means of a conservatory where there lived, among much
pampas grass, small ferns in pots shrouded in pea-green paper and sickly
plants to which no name could be attached as they mostly suggested
stewed lettuce. It was impossible to walk in a straight line from one
end of the coalition of buildings to the other without climbing and
descending steps every one of which proclaimed the fact that the leases
of the houses would soon fall in. From the three kitchens ascended three
smells of mutton. The three halls were strewn with bicycles, gun cases
in their last phase, sticks decrepit or dandified. The three hat racks,
all early Victorian in their lines, bore a motley cargo. Dusty bowlers
hustled it with heather  caps and top hats; one even bore a pith
helmet and a clerical atrocity.

Queer as Curran's is, it is comfortable enough. Victoria looked round
her room, tiny in length and breadth, high however with all the dignity
that befits an odd corner left over by the Victorian builder. It was
distinguished by its simplicity, for the walls bore nothing whatever
beyond a restrained papering of brownish roses. A small black and gold
bed, a wardrobe with a white handle, a washing stand with a marble top
took up all the space left by the large tin trunk which contained most
of Victoria's worldly goods. So this, thought Victoria, is the
beginning. She pulled aside the curtain. Before her lay Seymour Street,
where alone an eye of light shone faintly from the nearest lamp post.
Through the fog came the warning noise of a lorry picking its way. It
was cold, cold, all this, and lonely like an island.

Her meditations were disturbed by the maid who brought her hot water.

'My name is Carlotta,' said the girl complacently depositing the can
upon the marble topped washstand.

'Yes?' said Victoria. 'You are a foreigner?'

'Yes. I am Italian. It is foggy,' replied the girl.

Victoria sighed. It was kind of the girl to make her feel at home, to
smile at her with those flashing teeth so well set in her ugly little
brown face. She went to the washstand and cried out in horror at her
dirt and fog begrimed face, rimmed at the eyes, furrowed on the left by
the course of that tear shed at Waterloo.

'Tell them downstairs I shan't be ready for half an hour,' she said;
'it'll take me about a week to get quite clean, I should say.'

Carlotta bared her white teeth again and withdrew gently as a cat, while
Victoria courageously drenched her face and neck. The scents of England,
already conjured up by the fog and the mutton, rose at her still more
vividly from the warm water which inevitably exhales the traditional
perfume of hot painted can.

Her dinner was a small affair but delightful. It was good to eat and
drink once more things to which she had been accustomed for the first
twenty years of her life. Her depression had vanished; she was merely
hungry, and, like the healthy young animal she was, longing for a rare
cut of roast beef, accompanied by the good old English potatoes boiled
down to the consistency of flour and the flavour of nothing. Her
companions were so normal that she could not help wondering, when her
first hunger was sated and she was confronted with the apple tart of her
fathers, whether she was not in the unchanging old board residence in
Fulham where her mother had stayed with her whenever she came up to
town, excited and conscious of being on the spree.

Two spinsters of no age discussed the fog. Both were immaculate and sat
rigidly in correct attitudes facing their plates. Both talked quickly
and continuously in soft but high tones. They passed one another the
salt with the courtesy of abbes taking pinches of snuff. A young man
from the Midlands explained to the owner of the clerical hat that under
certain circumstances his food would cost him more. Near by a heavy man
solemnly and steadily ate, wiping at times from his beard drops of gravy
and of sauce, whilst his faded wife nibbled disconsolately tiny scraps
of crust. These she daintily buttered, while her four lanky girls nudged
and whispered.

Victoria did not stay in the conservatory after the important meal. As
she passed through it, a mist of weariness gathering before her eyes,
she had a vision of half a dozen men sleeping in cane chairs, or
studying pink or white evening papers. The young man from the Midlands
had captured another victim and was once more explaining that under
certain circumstances his food would cost him more.

Victoria seemed to have reached the limits of physical endurance. She
fumbled as she divested herself of her clothes; she could not even
collect enough energy to wash. All the room seemed filled with haze.
Her tongue clove to her palate. Little tingles in her eyelids crushed
them together over her pupils. She stumbled into her bed, mechanically
switching off the light by her bedside. In the very act her arm lost its
energy and she sank into a dreamless sleep.

Next morning she breakfasted with good appetite. The fog had almost
entirely lifted and sunshine soft as silver was filtering through the
windows into the little dining-room. Its mahoganous ugliness was almost
warmed into charm. The sideboard shone dully through its covering of
coarse net. Even the stacked cruets remembered the days when they
cunningly blazed in a shop window. A pleasurable feeling of excitement
ran through Victoria's body, for she was going to discover London, to
have adventures. As she closed the door behind her with a definite
little slam she felt like a buccaneer.

Buccaneering in the Edgware Road, even when it is bathed in the morning
sun, soon falls flat in November. It came upon Victoria rather as a
shock that her Indian clothing was rather thin. As her flying visits to
town had only left in her mind a very hazy picture of Regent Street it
was quite unconsciously that she entered the emporium opposite. A frigid
young lady sacrificed for her benefit an abominable vicuna coat which,
she said, fitted Victoria like a glove. Victoria paid the twenty seven
and six with an admirable feeling of recklessness and left the shop
reflecting that she looked the complete charwoman.

She turned into Hyde Park, where the gentle wind was sorrowfully driving
the brown and broken leaves along the rough gravel. The thin tracery of
the trees imaged itself on the road like a giant cobweb. Victoria looked
for a moment towards the south where the massive buildings rise, towards
the east where a cathedral thrusts into the sky a tower that
suspiciously recalls waterworks. She drank in the cold air with a gusto
that can be understood by none save those who have learned to live in
the floating moisture of the plains. She felt young and, in the
sunshine, with her cheeks gaining colour as the wind whipped them, she
looked in her long black coat and broad brimmed straw hat, like a
quakeress in love.

As she walked down towards the Achilles statue the early morning
panorama of London unfolded itself before her un-understanding eyes.
Girls hurried by with their satchels towards the typewriting rooms of
the west; they stole a look at Victoria's face but quickly turned away
from her clothes. Now and then spruce young clerks walking to the Tube
slackened their pace to look twice into her grey eyes; one or two looked
back, not so much in the hope of an adventure, for time could not be
snatched for Venus herself on the way to the office, as to see whether
they could carry away with them the flattery of having been noticed.

In a sense that first day in London was for Victoria a day of
revelations. Having despatched a telegram to her brother to announce her
arrival she felt that the day was hers. Ted had not troubled to meet her
either at Southampton or Waterloo: it was not likely that he had
followed the sightings of her ship. The next day being a Saturday,
however, he would probably come up from the Bedfordshire school where he
proffered Latin to an ungrateful generation.

Victoria's excursions to London had been so few that she had but the
faintest idea of where she was to go. Knowing, however, that one cannot
lose oneself in London, she walked aimlessly towards the east. It was a
voyage of discovery. Piccadilly, bathed in the pale sun, revealed itself
as a land where luxury flows like rivers of milk. Victoria, being a true
woman, could not pass a shop. Thus her progress was slow, so slow that
when she found herself between the lions of Trafalgar Square she began
to realise that she wanted her lunch.

The problem of food is cruel for all women who desire more than a bun.
They risk either inattention or over attention, and if they follow other
women, they almost invariably discover the cheap and bad. Victoria
hesitated for a moment on the steps of an oyster shop, as nervous in the
presence of her first plunge into freedom as a novice at the side door
of a pawnbroker. A man passed by her into the oyster shop, smoking a
pipe. She felt she would never dare to sit in a room where strange men
smoked pipes. Thus she stood for a moment forlorn on the pavement, until
a memory of the only decent grill in town, according to Bobby, passed
through her mind.

A policeman sent her by bus to the New Gaiety, patronised by Bobby and
his cronies. As Victoria went down the interminable underground
staircase, and especially as she entered the enormous room where paper,
carpets, and plate always seem new, her courage almost failed her.
Indeed she looked round anxiously, half hoping that the anonymous Bobby
might be revisiting his old haunts. But she was quite alone, and it was
only by reminding herself that she must always be alone at meals now
that she coerced herself into sitting down. She got through her meal
with expedition. She felt frightfully small; the waiters were painfully
courteous; a man laid aside his orange  newspaper, and
embarrassed her with frequent side glances. She braced herself up
however. 'I am training,' was her uppermost thought. She then wondered
whether she ought to have come to the New Gaiety at all. Fortunately it
was only at the very end of her lunch that Victoria realised she was the
only woman sitting alone. After this discovery her nerve failed her. She
got up hurriedly, and, in her confusion, omitted to tip the waiter. At
the desk the last stone was heaped on the cairn of her discomfiture when
the cashier politely returned to her a quarter rupee which she had given
her thinking it was a sixpence.

With a sigh of satisfaction Victoria resumed her walk through London.
She was a little tired already but she could think of nothing to do,
nowhere to go to. She did not want to return to Curran's to sit in her
box-like room, or to look at the two spinsters availing themselves of
their holiday in town to play patience in the conservatory.

All the afternoon, therefore, Victoria saw the sights. Covent Garden
repelled her by the massiveness of its food suggestion, and especially
by the choking dirt of its lanes. After Covent Garden, Savoy court yard
and its announcements of intellectual plays by unknown women. Then once
more, drawn by its spaciousness guessed at through Spring Gardens,
Victoria walked into Saint James's Park. She rested awhile upon a seat,
watching the waterfowl strut and plume themselves, the pelicans flounder
heavily in the mud. She was tired. The sun was setting early. The magic
slowly faded from London; Buckingham Palace lost the fictitious grace
that it has when set in a blue sky. Victoria shivered a little. She felt
tired. She did not know where to go. She was alone. On the seat nearest
to hers two lovers sat together, hand in hand. The man's face was almost
hidden by his cap and by the blue puffs of his pipe; the girl's was
averted towards the ground where, with the ferule of her umbrella, she
lazily drew signs. There was no bitterness in this sight for Victoria.
Her romance had come and gone so long ago that she looked quite casually
at these wanderers in Arcadia. She only knew that she was alone and
cold.

Victoria got up and walked out of the park. It was darkening, and little
by little the lights of London were springing into life. By dint of many
questionings she managed to regain Oxford Street, that spinal column of
London without which the stranger would be lost. Then her course was
easy, and it was with a peculiar feeling of luxuriousness that she
resigned herself to the motor bus that jolted and shook her tired body
until she reached the Arch. More slowly, and with diminished optimism,
she found her way up Edgware Road, where night was now falling. The
emporium was dazzling with lights. Alone the public house rivalled it
and thrust its glare through the settling mist. Victoria closed the door
of Curran's. At once she re-entered its atmosphere; into the warm air
rose the three smells of three legs of mutton.




CHAPTER V


'Mr Wren, ma'am.'

Victoria turned quickly to Carlotta. The girl's face was obtrusively
demure. Some years at Curran's had not dulled in her the interest that
any woman subtly feels in the meeting of the sexes.

'Ask him to come in here, Carlotta,' said Victoria. 'We shan't be
disturbed, shall we?'

'Oh no! ma'am,' said Carlotta, with increasing demureness. 'There is
nobody, nobody. I will show the young gentleman in.'

Victoria walked to the looking-glass which shyly peeped out from the
back of the monumental sideboard. She re-arranged her hair and hurriedly
flicked some dust from the corners of her eyes. All this for Edward, but
she had not seen him for three years. As she turned round she was
confronted by her brother who had gently stolen into the dining-room.
Edward's every movement was unobtrusive. He put one arm round her and
kissed her cheek.

'How are you, Victoria?' he said, looking her in the eyes.

'Oh, I'm alright, Ted. I'm so glad to see you.' She was genuinely glad;
it was so good to have belongings once again.

'Did you have a good passage?' asked Edward.

'Pretty good until we got to Ushant and then it did blow. I was glad to
get home.'

'I'm very glad to see you,' said Edward, 'very glad.' His eyes fixed on
the sideboard as if he were mesmerised by the cruets. Victoria looked
at him critically. Three years had not made on him the smallest
impression. He was at twenty-eight what he had been at twenty-five or
for the matter of that at eighteen. He was a tall slim figure with
narrow pointed shoulders and a slightly bowed back. His face was pale
without being unhealthy. There was nothing in his countenance to arouse
any particular interest, for he had those average features that commit
no man either to coarseness or to intellectuality. He showed no trace of
the massiveness of his sister's chin; his mouth too was looser and hung
a little open. Alone his eyes, richly grey, recalled his relationship.
Straggly fair hair fell across the left side of his forehead. He peered
through silver rimmed spectacles as he nervously worried his watch chain
with both hands. Every movement exposed the sharpness of his knees
through his worn trousers.

'Ted,' said Victoria, breaking in upon the silence, 'it was kind of you
to come up at once.'

'Of course I'd come up at once. I couldn't leave you here alone. It must
be a big change after the sunshine.'

'Yes,' said Victoria slowly, 'it is a big change. Not only the sunshine.
Other things, you know.'

Edward's hands played still more nervously with his watch chain. He had
not heard much of the manner of Fulton's death. Victoria's serious face
encouraged him to believe that she might harrow him with details, weep
even. He feared any expression of feeling, not because he was hard but
because it was so difficult to know what to say. He was neither hard nor
soft; he was a schoolmaster and could deal readily enough with the pangs
of Andromeda but what should he say to a live woman, his sister too?

'I understand--I--you see, it's quite awful about Dick--' he stopped,
lost, groping for the proper sentiment.

'Ted,' said Victoria, 'don't condole with me. I don't want to be
unkind--if you knew everything--But there, I'd rather not tell you; poor
Dicky 's dead and I suppose it's wrong, but I can't be sorry.'

Edward looked at her with some disapproval. The marriage had not been a
success, he knew that much, but she ought not to speak like that. He
felt he ought to reprove her, but the difficulty of finding words
stopped him.

'Have you made any plans?' he asked in his embarrassment, thus
blundering into the subject he had intended to lead up to with infinite
tact.

'Plans?' said Victoria. 'Well, not exactly. Of course I shall have to
work; I thought you might help me perhaps.'

Edward looked at her again uneasily. She had sat down in an armchair by
the side of the fire with her back to the light. In the penumbra her
eyes came out like dark pools. A curl rippled over one of her ears. She
looked so self-possessed that his embarrassment increased.

'Will you have to work?' he asked. The idea of his sister working filled
him with vague annoyance.

'I don't quite see how I can help it,' said Victoria smiling. 'You see,
I've got nothing, absolutely nothing. When I've spent the thirty pounds
or so I've got, I must either earn my own living or go into the
workhouse.' She spoke lightly, but she was conscious of a peculiar
sinking.

'I thought you might come back with me,' said Edward, '. . . and stay
with me a little . . . and look round.'

'Ted, it's awfully kind of you, but I'm not going to let you saddle
yourself with me. I can't be your housekeeper; oh! it would never do.
And don't you think I am more likely to get something to do here than
down in Bedfordshire?'

'I do want you to come back with me,' said Edward hesitatingly. 'I don't
think you ought to be alone here. And perhaps I could find you something
in a family at Cray or thereabouts. I could ask the vicar.'

Victoria shuddered. It had never struck her that employment might be
difficult to find or uncongenial when one found it. The words 'vicar'
and 'Cray' suggested something like domestic service without its rights,
gentility without its privileges.

'Ted,' she said gravely, 'you're awfully good to me, but I'd rather stay
here. I'm sure I could find something to do.' Edward's thoughts
naturally came back to his own profession.

'I'll ask the Head,' he said with the first flash of animation he had
shown since he entered the room. To ask the Head was to go to the source
of all knowledge. 'Perhaps he knows a school. Of course your French is
pretty good, isn't it?'

'Ted, Ted, you do forget things,' said Victoria, laughing. 'Don't you
remember the mater insisting on my taking German because so few girls
did? Why, it was the only original thing she ever did in her life, poor
dear!'

'But nobody wants German, for girls that is,' replied Edward miserably.

'Very well then,' said Victoria, 'I won't teach; that's all. I must do
something else.'

Edward walked up and down nervously, pushing back his thin fair hair
with one hand, and with the other nervously tugging at his watch chain.

'Don't worry yourself, Ted,' said Victoria. 'Something will turn up.
Besides there's no hurry. Why, I can live two or three months on my
money, can't I?'

'I suppose you can,' said Edward gloomily, 'but what will you do
afterwards?'

'Earn some more,' said Victoria. 'Now Ted, you haven't seen me for three
years. Don't let us worry. Think things over when you get back to Cray
and write to me. You won't go back until to-morrow, will you?'

'I'm sorry,' said Edward, 'but I didn't think you'd be back this week. I
shall be in charge to-morrow. Why don't you come down?'

'Ted, Ted, how can you suggest that I should spend my poor little
fortune in railway fares! Well, if you can't stay, you can't. But I'll
tell you what you can do. I can't go on paying two and a half guineas a
week here; I must get some rooms. You lived here when you taught at that
school in the city, didn't you? Well then, you must know all about it:
we'll go house-hunting.'

Edward looked at her dubiously. He disliked the idea of Victoria in
rooms almost as much as Victoria at Curran's. It offended some vague
notions of propriety. However her suggestion would give him time to
think. Perhaps she was right.

'Of course, I'll be glad to help,' he said, 'I don't know much about it;
I used to live in Gower Street.' A faint flush of reminiscent excitement
rose to his cheeks. Gower Street, by the side of Cray and Lympton, had
been almost adventurous.

'Very well then,' said Victoria, 'we shall go to Gower Street first.
Just wait till I put on my hat.'

She ran upstairs, not exactly light of heart, but pleased with the idea
of house-hunting. There's romance in all seeking, even if the treasure
is to be found in a Bloomsbury lodging-house.

The ride on the top of the motor bus was exhilarating. The pale sun of
November was lighting up the streets with the almost mystic whiteness of
the footlights. Edward said nothing, for his memories of London were
stale and he did not feel secure enough to point out the Church of the
Deaf and Dumb, nor had he ever known his London well enough to be able
to pronounce judgment on the shops. Besides, Victoria was too much
absorbed in gazing at London rolling and swirling beneath her, belching
out its crowds of workers and pleasure seekers from every tube and main
street. At every shop the omnibus seemed surrounded by a swarm of angry
bees. Victoria watched them struggle with spirit still unspoiled,
wondering at the determination on the faces of the men, at the
bitterness painted on the sharp features of the women as they savagely
thrust one another aside and, dishevelled and dusty, successively
conquered their seats. All this, the constant surge of horse and
mechanical conveyances, the shrill cries of the newsboys flashing pink
papers like _chulos_ at an angry bull, the roar of the town, made
Victoria understand the city. Something like fear of this strong
restless people crept into her as she began to have a dim perception
that she too would have to fight. She was young, however, and the
feeling was not unpleasant. Her nerves tingled a little as she thought
of the struggle to come and the inevitable victory at the end.

Victoria's spirits had not subsided even when she entered Gower Street.
Its immensity, its interminable length frightened her a little. The
contrast between it, so quiet, dignified and dull, and the inferno she
had just left behind her impressed her with a sense of security. Its
houses, however, seemed so high and dirty that she wondered, looking at
its thousand windows, whether human beings could be cooped up thus and
yet retain their humanity.

Here Edward was a little more in his element. With a degree of animation
he pointed to the staid beauty of Bedford Square. He demanded admiration
like a native guiding a stranger in his own town. Victoria watched him
curiously. He was a good fellow but it was odd to hear him raise his
voice and to see him point with his stick. He had always been quiet, so
she had not expected him to show as much interest as he did in his old
surroundings.

'I suppose you had a good time when you were here?' she said.

'Nothing special. I was too busy at the school,' he replied. 'But, of
course, you know, one does things in London. It's not very lively at
Cray.'

'Wouldn't you like to leave Cray,' she said, 'and come back?'

Edward paused nervously. London frightened him a little and the idea of
leaving Cray suddenly thrust upon him froze him to the bone. It was not
Cray he loved, but Cray meant a life passing gently away by the side of
a few beloved books. Though he had never realised that hedgerows flower
in the spring and that trees redden to gold and copper in the autumn,
the country had taken upon him so great a hold that even the thought of
leaving it was pain.

'Oh! no,' he said hurriedly. 'I couldn't leave Cray. I couldn't live
here, it's too noisy. There are my old rooms, there, the house with the
torch extinguishers.'

Victoria looked at him again. What curious tricks does nature play and
how strangely she pleases to distort her own work! Then she looked at
the house with the extinguishers. Clearly it would be impossible, but
for those aristocratic remains, to distinguish it from among half a
dozen of its fellows. It was a house, that was all. It was faced in
dirty brick, parted at every floor by stone work. A portico, rising over
six stone steps, protected a door painted brown and bearing a brass
knocker. It had windows, an area, bells. It was impossible to find in it
an individual detail to remember.

But Edward was talking almost excitedly for him. 'See there,' he said,
'those are my old rooms,' pointing indefinitely at the frontage. 'They
were quite decent, you know. Wonder whether they're let. You could have
them.' He looked almost sentimentally at the home of the Wrens.

'Why not ring and ask?' said Victoria, whose resourcefulness equalled
that of Mr Dick.

Edward took another loving look at the familiar window, strode up the
steps, followed by Victoria.

There were several bells. 'Curious,' he said, 'she must have let it out
in floors; Wakefield and Grindlay, don't know them. Seymour? It's Mrs
Brumfit's house: Oh! here it is.' He pressed a bell marked 'House.'
Victoria heard with a curious sensation of unexpectedness the sudden
shrill sound of the electric bell.

After an interminable interval, during which Edward's hands nervously
played, the door opened. A young girl stood on the threshold. She wore a
red cloth blouse, a black skirt, and an unspeakably dirty apron half
loose round her waist. Her hair was tightly done up in curlers in
expectation of Sunday.

'Mrs Brumfit,' said Edward, 'is she in?'

''oo?' said the girl.

'Mrs Brumfit, the landlady,' said Edward.

'Don't know 'er, try next 'ouse.' The girl tried to shut the door.

'You don't understand,' cried Edward, stopping the door with his hand.
'I used to live here.'

'Well, wot do yer want?' replied the girl. 'Can't 'elp that, can I?
There ain't no Mrs Brumfit 'ere. Only them there.' She pointed at the
bells. 'Nobody but them and mother. She's the 'ousekeeper. If yer mean
the old woman as was 'ere when they turned the 'ouse into flats, she's
dead.'

Edward stepped back. The girl shut the door with a slam. He stood as if
petrified. Victoria looked at him with amusement in her eyes, listening
to the echoes of the girl's voice singing more and more faintly some
catchy tune as she descended into the basement.

'Dead,' said Edward, 'can it be possible--?' He looked like a plant torn
up by the roots. He had jumped on the old ground and it had given way.

'My dear Ted,' said Victoria gently, 'things change, you see.' Slowly
they went down the steps of the house. Victoria did not speak, for a
strange mixture of pity and disdain was in her. She quite understood
that a tie had been severed and that the death of his old landlady meant
for Edward that the past which he had vaguely loved had died with her.
He was one of those amorphous creatures whose life is so interwoven with
that of their fellows that any death throws it into disarray. She let
him brood over his lost memories until they reached Bedford Square.

'But Ted,' she broke in, 'where am I to go?'

Edward looked at her as if dazed. Clearly he had not foreseen that Mrs
Brumfit was not an institution.

'Go?' he said, 'I don't know.'

'Don't you know any other lodgings?' asked Victoria. 'Gower Street seems
full of them.'

'Oh! no,' said Edward quickly, 'we don't know what sort of places they
are. You couldn't go there.'

'But where am I to go then?' Victoria persisted. Edward was silent. 'It
seems to me,' his sister went on, 'that I shall have to risk it. After
all, they won't murder me and they can't rob me of much.'

'Please don't talk like that,' said Edward stiffly. He did not like this
association of ideas.

'Well I must find some lodgings,' said Victoria, a little irritably. 'In
that case I may as well look round near Curran's. I don't like this
street much.'

In default of an alternative, Edward looked sulky. Victoria felt
remorseful; she knew that Gower Street must have become for her brother
the traveller's Mecca and that he was vaguely afraid of the West End.

'Never mind, dear,' she went on more gently, 'don't worry about lodgings
any more. Do you know what you're going to do? you're going to take me
to tea in some nice place and then I'll go with you to St Pancras;
that's the station you said you were going back by, isn't it? and you'll
put me in a bus and I'll go home. Now, come along, it's past five and
I'm dying for some tea.'

As Victoria stood, an hour later, just outside the station in which
expires the spirit of Constantine the Great, she could not help feeling
relieved. As she stood there, so self-possessed, seeing so clearly the
busy world, she wondered why she had been given a broken reed to lean
upon. Where had her brother left his virility? Had it been sapped by
years of self-restraint? Had the formidable code of pretence, the daily
affectation of dignity, the perpetual giving of good examples, reduced
him to this shred of humanity, so timid, so resourceless? As she sped
home in the tube into which she had been directed by a policeman, she
vainly turned over the problem.

Fortunately Victoria was young. As she laid her head on the pillow,
conscious of the coming of Sunday, when nothing could be done, visions
of things she could do obsessed her. There were lodgings to find, nice,
clean, cheap lodgings, with a dear old landlady and trees outside the
window, in a pretty old-fashioned house, very very quiet and quite near
all the tubes. She nursed the ideal for a time. Then she thought of
careers. She would read all the advertisements and pick out the nicest
work. Perhaps she could be a housekeeper. Or a secretary. On reflection,
a secretary would be better. It might be so interesting. Fancy being
secretary to a member of Parliament. Or to a famous author.

She too might write.

Her dreams were pleasant.




CHAPTER VI


A WEEK had elapsed and Victoria was beginning to feel the strain. She
looked out from the window into the little street where fine rain fell
gently as if it had decided to do so for ever. It was deserted, save by
a cat who shivered and crouched under the archway of the mews. Sometimes
a horse stirred. Through the open window the hot alcaline smell of the
animals filtered slowly.

Victoria had found her lodgings. They were not quite the ideal, but she
had not seen the ideal and this little den in Portsea Place was not
without its charms. Her room, for the 'rooms' had turned from the plural
into the singular, was comfortable enough. It occupied the front of the
second floor in a small house. It had two windows, from which, by
craning out a little, the trees of Connaught Square could be seen
standing out like black skeletons against a white house. Opposite was
the archway of the mews out of which came most of the traffic of the
street. Under it too was the mart where the landladies who have invaded
the little street exchange notes on their lodgers and boast of their
ailments.

Victoria inspected her domain. She had a very big bed, a little inclined
to creak; she had a table on a pedestal split so cunningly at the base
that she was always table-conscious when she sat by it; she had a
mahogany wash-stand, also on the triangular pedestal loved by the
pre-Morrisites, enriched by a white marble top and splasher. A large
armchair, smooth and rather treacherous, a small mahogany chest of
drawers, every drawer of which took a minute to pull out, some chairs of
no importance, completed her furniture. The carpet had been of all
colours and was now of none. The tablecloth was blue serge and would
have been serviceable if it had not contracted the habit of sliding off
the mahogany table whenever it was touched. Ugly as it was in every
detail, Victoria could not help thinking the room comfortable; its light
paper saved it and it was not over-loaded with pictures. It had escaped
with one text and the 'Sailor's Homecoming.' Besides it was restrained
in colour and solid: it was comfortable like roast beef and boiled
potatoes.

Victoria looked at all these things, at her few scattered books, the
picture of Dick and of a group of school friends, at some of her boots
piled in a corner. Then she listened and heard nothing. Once more she
was struck by the emptiness, the darkness around her. She was alone. She
had been alone a whole week, hardly knowing what to do. The excitement
of choosing lodgings over, she had found time hang heavy on her hands.
She had interminably walked in London, gazed at shop windows, read
hundreds of imbecile picture postcards on bookstalls, gone continually
to many places in omnibuses. She had stumbled upon South Kensington and
wandered in its catacombs of stone and brick. She had discovered
Hampstead, lost herself horribly near Albany Street; she had even
unexpectedly landed in the City where rushing mobs had hustled and
battered her.

Faithful to her resolve she had sedulously read the morning papers and
applied for several posts as housekeeper without receiving any answers.
She had realised that answering advertisements must be an art and had
become quite conscious that employment was not so easy to find as she
thought. Nobody seemed to want secretaries, except the limited
companies, about which she was not quite clear. As these mostly required
the investment of a hundred pounds or more she had not followed them up.

She paced up and down in her room. The afternoon was wearing. Soon the
man downstairs would come back and slam the door. A little later the
young lady in the City would gently enter the room behind hers and,
after washing in an unobtrusive manner, would discreetly leave for an
hour. Meanwhile nothing broke the silence, except the postman's knock
coming nearer and nearer along Portsea Place. It fell unheeded even on
her own front door, for Victoria's ears were already attuned to the
sound. It meant nothing.

She walked up and down nervously. She looked at herself in the glass.
She was pretty she thought, with her creamy skin and thick hair; her
eyes too were good; what a pity her chin was so thick. That's why Dicky
used to call her 'Towzer.' Poor old Dicky!

Shuffling footsteps rose up the stairs. Then a knock. At Victoria's
invitation, a woman entered. It was Mrs Bell, the landlady.

'Why, ma'am, you're sitting in the dark! Let me light the lamp,' cried
Mrs Bell, producing a large wooden box from a capacious front pocket.
She lit the lamp and a yellow glow filled the room, except the corners
which remained in darkness.

'Here's a letter for you, ma'am,' said Mrs Bell holding it out. As
Victoria took it, Mrs Bell beamed on her approvingly. She liked her new
lodger. She had already informed the gathering under the archway that
she was a real lady. She had a leaning for real ladies, having been a
parlourmaid previous to marrying a butler and eking out his income by
letting rooms.

'Thank you, Mrs Bell,' said Victoria, 'it was kind of you to come up.'

'Oh! ma'am, no trouble I can assure you,' said Mrs Bell, with a mixture
of respect and patronage. She wanted to be kind to her lodger, but she
found a difficulty in being kind to so real a lady.

Victoria saw the letter was from Edward and opened it hurriedly. Mrs
Bell hesitated, looking with her black dress, clean face and grey hair,
the picture of the respectable maid. Then she turned and struggled out
on her worn shoes, the one blot on her neatness. Victoria read the
letter, bending perilously over the lamp which smoked like a funnel. The
letter was quite short; it ran:

    'My dear Victoria,--I am sorry I could not write before now, but I
    wanted to have some news to give you. I am glad to say that I have
    been able to interest the vicar on your behalf. He informs me that
    if you will call at once on Lady Rockham, 7a Queen's Gate, South
    Kensington, S.W., she may be in a position to find you a post in a
    family of standing. He tells me she is most capable and kind. He is
    writing to her. I shall come to London and see you soon.--Yours
    affectionately,

    EDWARD.'

Victoria fingered the letter lovingly. Perhaps she was going to have a
chance after all. It was good to have something to do. Indeed it seemed
almost too good to be true; she had vaguely resigned herself to
unemployment. Of course something would ultimately turn up, but the what
and when and how thereof were dangerously dim. She hardly cared to face
these ideas; indeed she dismissed them when they occurred to her with a
mixture of depression and optimism. Now, however, she was buoyant again.
The family of standing would probably pay well and demand little. It
would mean the theatres, the shops, flowers, the latest novels, no end
of nice things. A little work too, of course, driving in the Park with a
dear dowager with the most lovely white hair.

She ate an excellent and comparatively expensive dinner in an Oxford
Street restaurant and went to bed early for the express purpose of
making plans until she fell asleep. She was still buoyant in the
morning. Connaught Square looked its best and even South Kensington's
stony face melted into smiles when it caught sight of her. Lady
Rockham's was a mighty house, the very house for a family of standing.

Victoria walked up the four steep steps of the house where something of
her fate was to be decided. She hesitated for an instant and then, being
healthily inclined to take plunges, pulled the bell with a little more
vigour than was in her heart. It echoed tremendously. The quietude of
Queen's Gate stretching apparently for miles towards the south,
increased the terrifying noise. Victoria's anticipations were half
pleasureable, half fearsome; she felt on the brink of an adventure and
recalled the tremor with which she had entered the New Gaiety for the
first time. Measured steps came nearer and nearer from the inside of the
house; a shape silhouetted itself vaguely on the stained glass of the
door.

She mustered sufficient coolness to tell the butler that she wished to
see Lady Rockham, who was probably expecting her. As the large and solid
man preceded her along an interminable hall, she felt rather than saw
the thick Persian rug stretching along the crude mosaic of the floor,
the red paper on the walls almost entirely hidden by exceedingly large
and new pictures. Over her head a ponderous iron chandelier carrying
many electric lamps blotted out most of the staircase.

For some minutes she waited in the dining-room into which she had been
shown; for the butler was not at all certain, from a look at the
visitor's mourning, that she was quite entitled to the boudoir.
Victoria's square chin and steady eyes saved her, however, from having
to accommodate her spine to the exceeding perpendicularity of the
high-backed chairs in the hall. The dining-room, ridiculous thought,
reminded her of Curran's. In every particular it seemed the same. There
was the large table with the thick cloth of indefinite design and
colour. The sideboard too was there, larger and richer perhaps, of
Spanish mahogany not an inch of which was left bare of garlands of
flowers or archangelic faces. It carried Curran's looking-glass;
Curran's cruets were replaced by a number of cups which proclaimed that
Charles Rockham had once won the Junior Sculls, and more recently, the
spring handicap of the Kidderwick Golf Club. The walls were red as in
the hall and profusely decorated with large pictures representing
various generations having tea in old English gardens, decorously garbed
Roman ladies basking by the side of marble basins, and such like
subjects. Twelve chairs, all high backed and heavily groined, were
ranged round the walls, with the exception of a large carving chair,
standing at the head of the table, awaiting one who was clearly the head
of a household. Victoria was looking pensively at the large black marble
clock representing the temple in which the Lares and Penates of South
Kensington usually dwell, when the door opened and a vigorous rustle
entered the room.

'I am very glad to see you, Mrs Fulton,' remarked the owner of the
rustle. 'I have just received a letter from Mr Meaker, the vicar of
Cray. A most excellent man. I am sure we can do something for you.
Something quite nice.'

Victoria looked at Lady Rockham with shyness and surprise. Never had she
seen anything so majestic. Lady Rockham had but lately attained her
ladyhood by marrying a knight bachelor whose name was a household word
in the wood-paving world. She felt at peace with the universe. Her large
silk clad person was redolent with content. She did not vulgarly beam.
She merely was. On her capacious bosom large brooches rose and fell
rhythmically. Her face was round and smooth as her voice. Her eyes were
almost severely healthy.

'I am sure it is very kind of you,' said Victoria. 'I don't know anybody
in London, you see.'

'That will not matter; that will not matter at all,' said Lady Rockham.
'Some people prefer those whose connections live in the country, yes,
absolutely prefer them. Why, friends come to me every day, and they are
clamouring for country girls, absolutely clamouring. I do hope you are
not too particular. For things are difficult in London. So very
difficult.'

'Yes, I know,' murmured Victoria, thinking of her unanswered
applications. 'But I'm not particular at all. If you can find me
anything to do, Lady Rockham, I should be so grateful.'

'Of course, of course. Now let me see. A young friend of mine has just
started a poultry farm in Dorset. She is doing very well. Oh! very well.
Of course you want a little capital. But such a very nice occupation for
a young woman. The capital is often the difficulty. Perhaps you would
not be prepared to invest much?'

'No, I'm afraid I couldn't,' faltered Victoria, wondering at what figure
capital began.

'No, no, quite right,' purred Lady Rockham, 'I can see you are quite
sensible. It is a little risky too. Yet my young friend is doing well,
very well, indeed. Her sister is in Johannesburg. She went out as a
governess and now she is married to a mine manager. There are so few
girls in the country. Oh! he is quite a nice man, a little rough, I
should say, but quite suitable.'

Victoria wondered for a moment whether her Ladyship was going to suggest
sending her out to Johannesburg to marry a mine manager, but the
Presence resumed.

'No doubt you would rather stay in London. Things are a little difficult
here, but very pleasant, very pleasant indeed.'

'I don't mind things being difficult,' Victoria broke in, mustering a
little courage. 'I must earn my own living and I don't mind what I do;
I'd be a nursery governess, or a housekeeper, or companion. I haven't
got any degrees, I couldn't quite be a governess, but I'd try anything.'

'Certainly, certainly, I'm sure we will find something very nice for
you. I can't think of anybody just now but leave me your address. I'll
let you know as soon as I hear of anything.' Lady Rockham gently crossed
her hands over her waistband and benevolently smiled at her protegee.

Victoria wrote down her address and listened patiently to Lady Rockham
who discoursed at length on the imperfections of the weather, the
noisiness of London streets and the prowess of Charles Rockham on the
Kidderwick links. She felt conscious of having to return thanks for what
she was about to receive.

Lady Rockham's kindness persisted up to the door to which she showed
Victoria. She dismissed her with the Parthian shot that 'they would find
something for her, something quite nice.'

Victoria walked away; cold gusts of wind struck her, chilling her to the
bone, catching and furling her skirts about her. She felt at the same
time cheered and depressed. The interview had been inconclusive.
However, as she walked over the Serpentine bridge, under which the wind
was angrily ruffling the black water, a great wave of optimism came over
her; for it was late, and she remembered that in the Edgware Road, there
was a small Italian restaurant where she was about to lunch.

It was well for Victoria that she was an optimist and a good sleeper,
for November had waned into December before anything happened to disturb
the tenor of her life. For a whole fortnight she had heard nothing from
Lady Rockham or from Edward. She had written to Molly but had received
no answer. All day long the knocker fell with brutal emphasis upon the
doors of Portsea Place and brought her nothing. She did not think much
or hope much. She did nothing and spent little. Her only companion was
Mrs Bell, who still hovered round her mysterious lodger, so ladylike and
so quiet.

She passed hours sometimes at the window watching the stream of life in
Portsea Place. The stream did not flow very swiftly; its principal
eddies vanished by midday with the milkman and the butcher. The postman
recurred more often but he did not count. Now and then the policeman
passed and spied suspiciously into the archway where the landladies no
longer met. Cabs trotted into it now and then to change horses.

Victoria watched alone. Beyond Mrs Bell, she seemed to know nobody. The
young man downstairs continued to be invisible, and contented himself
with slamming the door. The young lady in the back room continued to
wash discreetly and to snore gently at night. Sometimes Victoria
ventured abroad to be bitten by the blast. Sometimes she strayed over
the town in the intervals of food. She had to exercise caution in this,
for an aspect of the lodging house fire had only lately dawned upon her.
If she did not order it at all she was met on the threshold by darkness
and cold; if she ordered it for a given time she was so often late that
she returned to find it dead or kept up wastefully at the rate of
sixpence a scuttle. This trouble was chronic; on bitter days it seemed
to dog her footsteps.

She had almost grown accustomed to loneliness. Alone she watched at her
window or paced the streets. She had established a quasi-right to a
certain seat at the Italian restaurant where the waiters had ceased to
speculate as to who she was. The demoralisation of unemployment was upon
her. She did not cast up her accounts; she rose late, made no plans. She
slept and ate, careless of the morrow.

It was in the midst of this slow settling into despond that a short note
from Lady Rockham arrived like a bombshell. It asked her to call on a Mrs
Holt who lived in Finchley Road. It appeared that Mrs Holt was in need
of a companion as her husband was often away. Victoria was shaken out of
her torpor. In a trice her optimism crushed out of sight the flat
thoughts of aimless days. She feverishly dressed for the occasion. She
debated whether she would have time to insert a new white frill into the
neck of a black blouse. Heedless of expenditure she spent two and eleven
pence on new black gloves, and twopence on the services of a shoeblack
who whistled cheerful tunes, and smiled on the coppers. Victoria sallied
out to certain victory. The wind was blowing balmier. A fitful gleam of
sunshine lit up and reddened the pile of tangerines in a shop window.




CHAPTER VII


'I'M very sorry you can't come,' said Mrs Holt.

'Last Sunday, Mr Baker was so nice. I never heard anything so
interesting as his sermon on the personal devil. I was quite frightened.
At least I would have been if he had said all that at Bethlehem. You
know, when we were at Rawsley we had such nice lantern lectures. I do
miss them.'

Victoria looked up with a smile at the kindly red face. 'I'm so sorry,'
she said, 'I've got such a headache. Perhaps it'll pass over if I go for
a little walk while you are at Church.' She was not unconscious, as she
said this, of the subtle flattery that the use of the word 'church'
implies when used to people who dare not leave their chapel.

'Do, Victoria, I'm sure it will do you good,' said Mrs Holt, kindly. 'If
the sun keeps on, we'll go to the Zoo this afternoon. I do like to see
the children in the monkey house.'

'I'm sure I shall be glad to go,' said Victoria quietly. 'It's very kind
of you to take me.'

'Nonsense, my dear,' replied Mrs Holt, gently beaming. 'You are like the
sunshine, you know. Dear me! I don't know what I should have done if I
hadn't found you. You can't imagine the woman who was here before you.
She was the daughter of a clergyman, and I did get so tired of hearing
how they lost their money. But, there, I'm worrying you when you've got
a headache. I do wish you'd try Dr Eberman's pills. All the papers are
simply full of advertisements about them. And these German doctors are
so clever. Oh, I shall be so late.'

Victoria assured her that she was sure her head would be better by
dinner time. Mrs Holt fussed about the room for a moment, anxiously
tested the possible dustiness of a bracket, pulled the curtains and
picked up the Sunday papers from the floor. She then collected a small
canvas bag decorated with a rainbow parrot, a hymn and service book, her
spectacle case, several unnecessary articles which happened to be about
and left the room with the characteristic rustle which pervades the
black silk dresses of well-to-do Rawsley dames.

Victoria sat back in the large leather armchair. Her head was not very
bad but she felt just enough in her temples a tiny passing twinge to
shirk chapel without qualms. She toyed with a broken backed copy of
_Charlton on Book-Keeping_ which lay in her lap. It was a curious fate
that had landed her into Charlton's epoch making work. Mrs Holt, that
prince of good fellows, had a genius for saving pennies and had been
trained in the school of a Midland household, but the fortunes of her
husband had left her feebly struggling in a backwash of pounds. So much
had this been the case that Mr Holt had discovered joyfully that he had
at last in his house a woman who could bring herself to passing an
account for twenty pounds for stabling. Little by little Victoria had
established her position. She was Mrs Holt's necessary companion and
factotum. She could apparently do anything and do it well; she could
even tackle such intricate tasks as checking washing or understanding
Bradshaw. She was always ready and always bright. She had an unerring
eye for a good quality of velvet; she could time the carriage to a
nicety for the Albert Hall concert. Mrs Holt felt that without this
pleasant and competent young woman she would be quite lost.

Mr Holt, too, after inspecting Victoria grimly every day for an entire
month, had decided that she would do and had lent her the work on
book-keeping, hoping that she would be able to keep the house accounts.
In three months he had not addressed her twenty times beyond wishing her
good morning and good night. He had but reluctantly left Rawsley and his
beloved cement works to superintend his ever growing London business. He
was a little suspicious of Victoria's easy manners; suspicious of her
intentions, too, as the northerner is wont to be. Yet he grudgingly
admitted that she was level headed, which was 'more than Maria or his
fool of a son would ever be.'

Victoria thought for a moment of Holt, the book-keeping, the falling due
of insurance premiums; then of Mrs Holt who had just stepped into her
carriage which was slowly proceeding down the drive, crunching into the
hard gravel. A gleam of sunshine fitfully lit up the polished panels of
the clumsy barouche as it vanished through the gate.

This then was her life. It might well have been worse. Mr Holt sometimes
let a rough kindness appear through an exterior as hard as his own
cement. Mrs Holt, stout, comfortable and good-tempered, quite
incompetent when it came to controlling a house in the Finchley Road,
was not of the termagant type that Victoria had expected when she became
a companion. Her nature, peaceful as that of a mollusc, was kind and had
but one outstanding feature; her passionate devotion to her son Jack.

Victoria thought that she might well be content to pass the remainder of
her days among these good folk. From the bottom of her heart mild
discontent rose every now and then. It was a little dull. Tuesday was
like Monday and probably like the Tuesday after next. The glories of the
town, which she had caught sight of during her wanderings, before she
floated into the still waters of the Finchley Road, haunted her at
times. The motor buses too, which perpetually carried couples to the
theatre, the crowds in Regent Street making for the tea-shops, while the
barouche trotted sedately up the hill, all this life and adventure were
closed off.

Victoria was not unhappy. She drifted in that singular psychological
region where the greatest possible pain is not suffering and where the
acme of possible pleasure is not joy. She did not realise that this
negative condition was almost happiness, and yet did not precisely
repine. The romance of her life, born at Lympton, now slept under the
tamarinds. The stupefaction of the search for work, the hopes and fears
of December, all that lay far away in those dark chambers of the brain
into which memory cannot force a way but swoons on the threshold.

Yes, she was happy enough. Her eyes, casting through the bay window over
the evergreens, trimly stationed and dusty, strayed over the low wall.
On the other side of the road stood another house, low and solid as this
one, beautiful though ugly in its strength and worth. It is not the
house you live in that matters, thought Victoria, unconsciously
committing plagiarism, but the house opposite. The house she lived in
was well enough. Its inhabitants were kind, the servants respectful,
even the mongrel Manchester terrier with the melancholy eyes of some
collie ancestor did not gnaw her boots.

She let her hands fall into her lap and, for a minute, sat staring into
space, seeing with extraordinary lucidity those things to come which a
movement dispels and swathes with the dense fog of forgetfulness. With
terrible clarity she saw the life of the last three months and the life
to come, as it was in the beginning ever to be.

The door opened softly. Before she had time to turn round two hands were
clapped over her eyes. She struggled to free herself, but the hands grew
more insistent and two thumbs softly touched her cheeks.

'Dimple, dimple,' said a voice, while one of the thumbs gently dwelled
near the corner of her mouth.

Victoria struggled to her feet, a little flushed, a strand of hair
flying over her left ear.

'Mr Jack,' she said rather curtly, 'I don't like that. You know you
mustn't do that. It's not fair. I really don't like it.' She was angry;
her nostrils opened and shut quickly; she glared at the good looking boy
before her.

'Naughty temper,' he remarked, quite unruffled. 'You'll take a fit one
of these days, Vicky, if you don't look out.'

'Very likely if you give me starts like that. Not that I mind that so
much, but really it's not nice of you. You know you wouldn't do that if
your mother was looking.'

'Course I wouldn't,' said Jack, 'the old mater's such a back number, you
know.'

'Then,' replied Victoria with much dignity, 'you ought not to do things
when we're alone which you wouldn't do before her.'

'Oh Lord! morals again,' groaned the youth. 'You are rough on me,
Vicky.'

'And you mustn't call me Vicky,' said Victoria. 'I don't say I mind, but
it isn't the thing. If anybody heard you I don't know what they'd
think.'

'Who cares!' said Jack in his most dare devil style, putting his hand on
the back of hers and stroking it softly. Victoria snatched her hand away
and went to the window, where she seemed absorbed in the contemplation
of the evergreens. Jack looked a little nonplussed. He was an attractive
youth and looked about twenty. He had the fresh complexion and blue
eyes of his father but differed from him by a measure of delicacy. His
tall body was a little bent; his face was all pinks and whites set off
by the blackness of his straight hair. He well deserved his school
nickname of Kathleen Mavourneen. His long thin hands, which would have
been aristocratic but for the slight thickness of the joints, branded
him a poet. He was not happy in the cement business.

Jack stepped up to the window. 'Sorry,' he said, as humbly as possible.
Victoria did not move.

'Won't never do it again,' he said, pouting like a scolded child.

'It's no good,' answered Victoria, 'I'm not going to make it up.'

'I shall go and drown myself in the Regent Canal,' said Jack dolefully.

'I'd rather you went for a walk along the banks,' said Victoria.

'I will if you'll come too,' answered Jack.

'No, I'm not going out. I've got a headache. Look here, I'll forgive you
on condition that you go out now and if you'll do that perhaps you can
come with your mother and me to the Zoo this afternoon.'

'All right then,' grumbled the culprit, 'you're rather hard on me.
Always knew you didn't like me. Sorry.'

Victoria looked out again. A minute later Jack came out of the house
and, pausing before the window, signed to her to lift up the sash.

'What do you want now?' asked Victoria, thrusting her head out.

'It's a bargain about the Zoo, isn't it?'

'Yes, of course it is, silly boy. I've got several children's tickets.'

Jack made a wry face, but walked away with a queer little feeling of
exultation. 'Silly boy.' She had called him 'silly boy.' Victoria
watched him go with some perplexity. The young man was rather a
problem. Not only did his pretty face and gentle ways appeal to her in
themselves, but he had told her something of his thoughts and they did
not run on cement. His father had thrust him into his business as men of
his type naturally force their sons into their own avocation whatever it
be. Victoria knew that he was not happy and was sorry for him; how could
she help feeling sorry for this lonely youth who had once printed a
rondeau in the _Westminster Gazette_.

Jack had taken to her at once. All that was delicate and feminine in him
called out to her square chin and steady eyes. Often she had seen him
look hungrily at her strong hands where bone and muscle plainly showed.
But, in his wistful way, Jack had begun to embarrass her. He was making
love to her in a sense, sometimes sportively, sometimes plaintively, and
he was difficult to resist.

Victoria saw quite well that trouble must ensue. She would not allow the
boy to fall in love with her when all she could offer was an almost
motherly affection. Besides, they could not marry; it would be absurd.
She was puzzled as to what to do. Everything tended to complicate the
situation for her. She had once been to the theatre with Jack and
remembered with anxiety how his arm had rested against hers in the cab
and how, when he leaned over towards her to speak, she had felt him
slowly inhaling the scents of her hair.

She had promised herself that Jack should be snubbed. And now he played
pranks on her. It must end in their being caught in an ambiguous
attitude and then she would be blamed. She might tell Mrs Holt, but then
what would be her position in the household? Jack would sulk and Mrs
Holt would watch them suspiciously until the situation became
intolerable and she had to leave. Leave! no, no, she couldn't do that.
With sudden vividness Victoria pictured the search for work, the silence
of Portsea Place, the Rialto-like archway, Mrs Bell, and the cold, the
loneliness. Events must take their course.

Like the rasp of a corncrake she heard the wheels of the barouche on the
gravel. Mrs Holt had returned from the discourse on the personal devil.




CHAPTER VIII


'THOMAS,' said Mrs Holt with some hesitation.

'Yes,' said Mr Holt. 'What is it?'

'Oh! nothing,' said Mrs Holt. 'Just a queer idea. Nothing worth talking
about.'

'Well, come again when it is worth talking about,' growled Mr Holt,
relapsing into his newspaper.

'Of course there's nothing in it,' remarked Mrs Holt pertinaciously.

'Nothing in what?' her husband burst forth. 'What do you mean, Maria?
Have you got anything to say or not? If you have, let's have it out.'

'I was only going to say that Jack . . . of course I don't think that
Victoria sees it, but you understand he's a very young man, but I don't
blame her, he's such a funny boy,' said Mrs Holt lucidly.

'Good heavens, Maria,' cried her husband, 'do you want me to smash
something?'

'How you do go on,' remarked Maria placidly. 'What I meant to say is
that don't you think Jack's rather too attentive to Victoria?'

Mr Holt dropped his paper suddenly. 'Attentive?' he growled, 'haven't
noticed it.'

'Oh! you men never notice things,' replied Mrs Holt with conscious
superiority. 'Don't say I didn't warn you, that's all.'

'Now look here, Maria,' said Mr Holt, his blue eyes darkening visibly,
'I don't want any more of this tittle tattle. You can keep it for the
next P.S.A. I can tell you that if the young cub is "attentive" to Mrs
Fulton, well, so much the better: it'll teach him something worth
knowing if he finds out that there's somebody else in the world who's
worth doing something for beyond _his_ precious self.'

'Very well, very well,' purred Mrs Holt. 'If you take it like that, I
don't mind, Thomas. Don't say I didn't warn you if anything happens.
That's all.'

Mr Holt got up from the leather chair and left the room. There were
moments when his wife roused in him the fury that filled him when once,
in his young days, he had dropped steel bolts into the cement grinders
to gratify a grudge against an employer. The temper that had made him
rejoice over the sharp cracks speaking of smashed axles was in him
still. He had got above the social stratum where husbands beat their
wives, but innuendoes and semi-secrets goaded him almost to paroxysm.

Mrs Holt heard the door slam and coolly took up her work. She was
engaged in the congenial task of disfiguring a piece of Morris chintz.
She had decided that the little bag given her by an aesthetic friend was
too flat and she was busily employed in embroidering the 'eyebright'
pattern, with  wool in the most approved early Victorian manner.
'At any rate,' she thought, 'Thomas has got the idea in his head.'

Mrs Holt had not arrived at her determination to awaken her husband's
suspicions without much thought. She had begun to realise that
'something was wrong' one Sunday afternoon at the Zoo. She had taken
Jack and Victoria in the barouche, putting down to a fit of filial
affection the readiness of Jack to join them. She had availed herself of
the opportunity to drive round the Circle; so as to show off her adored
son to the Bramleys, who were there in their electric, to the Wilsons,
who were worth quite fifty thousand a year, to the Wellensteins too, who
seemed to do so wonderfully well on the Stock Exchange. Jack had taken
it very nicely indeed.

All the afternoon Jack had remained with them; he had bought animal
food, found a fellow to take them into the pavilion, and even driven
home with them. It was when he helped his charges into the carriage that
Mrs Holt had noticed something. He first handed his mother in and then
Victoria. Mrs Holt had seen him put his hand under Victoria's forearm,
which was quite ordinary, but she had also seen him hold her in so doing
by the joint of her short sleeve and long glove where a strip of white
skin showed and slip two fingers under the glove. This was not so
ordinary and Mrs Holt began to think.

When a Rawsley dame begins to think of things such as these, her
conscience invariably demands of her that she should know more. Mrs Holt
therefore said nothing, but kept a watchful eye on the couple. She could
urge nothing against Victoria. Her companion remained the cheerful and
competent friend of the early days; she was no more amiable to Jack than
to his father: she talked no more to him than to the rest of the
household; she did not even look at him much. But Jack was always about
her; his eyes followed her round the room, playing with every one of her
movements. Whenever she smiled his lips fluttered in response.

Mrs Holt passed slowly through the tragic stages that a mother goes
through when her son loves. She was not very anxious as to the results
of the affair, for she knew Jack, though she loved him. She knew that
his purpose was never strong. Also she trusted Victoria. But, every day
and inevitably, the terrible jealousy that invades a mother's soul crept
further into hers. He was her son and he was wavering from an allegiance
the pangs of childbirth had entitled her to.

Mrs Holt loved her son, and, like most of those who love, would torture
the being that was all in all for her. She would have crushed his
thoughts if she had felt able to do so, so as to make him more
malleable; she rejoiced to see him safely anchored to the cement
business, where nothing could distract him; she even rejoiced over his
weakness, for she enjoyed the privilege of giving him strength. She
would have ground to powder his ambitions, so that he might be more
fully her son, hers, hers only.

The stepping in of the other woman, remote and subtle as it was, was a
terrible thing. She felt it from afar as the Arabian steed hears the
coming simoon moaning beyond the desert. With terrible lucidity she had
seen everything that passed for a month after that fatal day at the Zoo,
when Jack touched Victoria's arm. She saw his looks, stolen from his
mother's face, heard the softness of his voice which was often sharp for
her. Like gall, his little attentions, the quick turn of his face, a
flush sometimes, entered into and poisoned her soul. He was her son;
and, with all the ruthless, entirely animal cruelty of the mother, she
had begun to swear to herself that he should be hers and hers only, and
that she would hug him in her arms, aye, hug him to death if need be, if
only in her arms he died.

Savagely selfish as a good mother, however, Mrs Holt remembered that she
must go slowly, collect her evidence, allow the fruit to ripen before
she plucked it. Thus she retained her outward kindnesses for Victoria,
spoke her fair, threw her even into frequent contact with her son. And
every day she tortured herself with all the tiny signs that radiate from
a lover's face like aerolites from the blazing tail of a comet. Now her
case was complete. She had seen Jack lean over Victoria while she was on
her knees dusting some books, and let his hand dwell on hers. She had
seen his face all alight, his mouth a little open, breathing in the
fragrance of this woman, the intruder. And the iron had entered into the
mother's heart so sharply that she had to hurry away unseen for fear she
should cry out.

Mrs Holt dropped her little work bag. She wondered whether her husband
would see. Would she have to worry him placidly for months as she
usually had to when she wanted her own way? Or would he understand and
side with her? She did not know that women are intuitive, for she knew
nothing either of women or men, but she felt perfectly certain that she
was cleverer than Thomas Holt. If he would not see, then she would have
to show him, even if she had to plot for her son's sake.

The door opened suddenly. Thomas Holt entered. His face was perturbed,
his jaw setting grimly between the two deep folds in his cheeks. That
was the face of his bad days.

'Well, Thomas?' ventured his wife hesitatingly.

'You were right, Maria,' answered Holt after a pause. 'Jack's a bigger
fool than I thought him.'

'Ah!' said Mrs Holt with meaning, her heart beating a sharp tatoo.

'I was standing on the first landing,' Holt went on. 'I saw them at the
door of the smoke-room. He asked her for a flower from her dress; she
wouldn't give it him; he reached over and pulled one away.'

'Yes?' said Mrs Holt, everything in her quivering.

'Put his arm round her, though she pushed him off, and kissed her.'

Mrs Holt clasped her hands together. A sharp pang had shot through her.
'What are you going to do?' she asked.

'Do?' said Holt. 'Sack her of course. Send him up to Rawsley. Damn the
young fool.'




CHAPTER IX


Breakfast is so proverbially dismal, that dismalness becomes good form;
humanity feels silent and liverish, so it grudges Providence its due,
for it cannot return thanks for the precocious blessings of the day.
Such was breakfast at Finchley Road, and Victoria would not have noticed
it on that particular morning had the silence not somehow been eloquent.
She could feel, if not see storm clouds on the horizon.

Mr Holt sat over his eggs and bacon, eating quickly with both hands,
every now and then soiling the napkin tightly tucked into the front of
his low collar. There was nothing abnormal in this, except perhaps that
he kept his eyes more closely glued than usual to the table cloth;
moreover, he had not unfolded the paper. Therefore he had not looked up
the prices of Industrials. This was singular. Mrs Holt never said much
at breakfast, in deference to her husband, but this morning her silence
was somewhat ostentatious. She handed Victoria her tea. Victoria passed
her the toast and hardly heard her 'thank you.'

Jack sat more abstracted than ever. He was feeling very uncomfortable.
He wavered between the severe talking to he had received from Victoria
the previous afternoon and the sulkiness of his parents. Of course he
was feeling depressed, but he could not tell why. Victoria's mere nod of
acceptance when he offered her the salt, and his mother's curt refusal
of the pepper did not contribute to make him easier in his mind. Mrs
Holt cleared her throat: 'Blowing up for rain, Thomas,' she said. Mr
Holt did not move a muscle. He helped himself to marmalade. Stolid
silence once more reigned over the breakfast table. Jack stole a
sidelong glance at Victoria. Her eyes were fixed upon her hands crossed
before her. Jack's eyes dwelled for a moment on their shapely strength,
then upon the firm white nape of her bent neck. An insane desire
possessed him to jump up, seize her in his arms, crush his lips into
that spot where the dark tendrils of her hair began. He repressed it,
and considered the grandfather's clock which had once ticked in a
peasant Holt's kitchen. To-day it ticked with almost horrible
deliberation.

Jack found that he had no appetite. Forebodings were at work with him.
Perhaps Vic had told. Of course not, she couldn't be such a fool. What a
beastly room it was! Sideboard must weigh a ton. And those red curtains!
awful, simply awful. Good God, why couldn't he get out of the damned
place and take Vic with him. Couldn't do that yet of course, but
couldn't stick it much longer. He'd be off to the City now. Simply awful
here. Jack rose to his feet suddenly, so suddenly that his chair tilted
and fell over.

Mrs Holt looked up. 'I wish you wouldn't be so noisy, Jack,' she said.

'Sorry, mater,' said Jack, going round to her and bending down to kiss
her. 'I'm off.'

'You're in a fine hurry,' remarked Mr Holt grimly, looking up and
speaking for the first time.

'Left some work over,' said Jack, in a curt manner, making for the door.

'Hem! you've got work on the brain,' retorted his father in his most
sardonic tone.

Jack opened the door without a word.

'One minute, Jack,' said Mrs Holt placidly, 'you needn't go yet, your
father and I have something to say to you.'

Jack stood rooted to the ground. His knees almost gave way beneath him.
It, it, it was it. They knew. Victoria's face, the profile of which he
could see outlined like a plaster cast against the red wall paper did
not help him. Her face had set, rigid like a mask. Now she knew why the
previous evening had gone by in silence. She rose to her feet, a strange
numb feeling creeping all over her.

'Don't go, Mrs Fulton,' said Mr Holt sharply, 'this concerns you.'

For some seconds the party remained silent. Mr and Mrs Holt had not
moved from the table. Jack and Victoria stood right and left, like
prisoners at the bar.

'Victoria,' said Mrs Holt, 'I'm very sorry to have to say it, but I'm
afraid you know what I'm going to tell you. Of course I don't say I
blame you. It's quite natural at your age and all that.' She stopped,
for a flush was rising in Victoria's face, the cheekbones showing two
little red patches. Mr Holt had clasped his hands together and kept his
eyes fixed on Victoria's with unnatural intensity.

'You see, Victoria,' resumed Mrs Holt, 'it's always difficult when
there's a young man in the house; of course I make allowances, but,
really, you see it's so complicated and things get so annoying. You know
what people are . . .'

'That'll do, Maria,' snarled Mr Holt, jumping to his feet. 'If you don't
know what you have to say, I do. Look here, Mrs Fulton. Last night I saw
Jack kissing you. I know perfectly well you didn't encourage him. You'd
know better. However, there it is. I don't pretend I like what I've got
to do, but this must be stopped. I can't have philandering going on
here. You, Jack, you're going back to the works at Rawsley and don't let
me see anything of you this side of the next three months. As for you,
Mrs Fulton, I'm sorry, but Mrs Holt will have to find another companion.
I know it's hard on you to ask you to leave without notice, but I
propose to give you an indemnity of twenty pounds. I should like to keep
you here, but you see that after what has happened it's impossible. I
suppose you agree to that?'

Victoria stood silent for a moment, her hands tightly clenched. She knew
Holt's short ways, but the manner of the dismissal was brutal.
Everything seemed to revolve round her, she recovered herself with
difficulty.

'Yes,' she said at length, 'you're quite right.'

Jack had not moved. His hands were nervously playing with his watch
chain. Victoria, in the midst of her trouble, remembered Edward's
familiar gesture. They were alike in a way, these two tall weedy men,
both irresolute and undeveloped.

'Very well then,' continued Holt; 'perhaps you'll make your arrangements
at once. Here is the cheque.' He held out a slip of blue paper.

Victoria looked at him for a moment dully. Then revolt surged inside
her. 'I don't want your indemnity,' she said coldly, 'you merely owe me
a month's wages in lieu of notice.'

The shadow of a smile crept into Holt's face. The semi-legal,
semi-commercial phrase pleased him.

Mrs Holt rose from the table and went to Victoria. 'I'm so sorry,' she
said, speaking more gently than she had ever done. 'You must take it.
Things are so hard.'

'Oh, but I say, dad . . .' broke in Jack.

'That will do, do you hear me, sir?' thundered the father violently,
bringing down his fist on the table. 'I'm not asking you for your
opinion! You can stay and look at your work but you just keep a silent
tongue in your head. D'you hear?'

Jack stood cowed and dumb.

'There's nothing more to say, is there?' growled Mr Holt, placing the
cheque on the table before Victoria.

'Not much,' said Victoria. 'I've done no wrong. Oh! I'm not complaining.
But I begin to understand things. Your son has persecuted me. I didn't
want his attentions. You turn me out. Of course it's my fault, I know.'

'My dear Victoria,' interposed Mrs Holt, 'nobody says it's your fault.
We all think . . .'

'Indeed? it's not my fault, but you turn me out.'

Mrs Holt dropped her hands helplessly.

'I see it all now,' continued Victoria. 'You don't blame me, but you're
afraid to have me here. So long as I was a servant all was well. Now I'm
a woman and you're afraid of me.' She walked up and down nervously. 'Now
understand, I've never encouraged your son. If he had asked me to marry
him I wouldn't have done it.' A look of pain passed over Jack's face but
aroused no pity in Victoria. She felt frozen.

'Oh! but there was no question of that,' cried Mrs Holt, plaintively.

'No doubt,' said Victoria ruthlessly. 'You couldn't think of it. Nobody
could think of an officer's widow marrying into the Rawsley Works. From
more than one point of view it would be impossible. Very good. I'll
leave in the course of the morning. As for the cheque, I'll take it. As
you say, Mrs Holt, things are hard. I've learned that and I'm still
learning.'

Victoria took up the blue slip. The flush on her face subsided somewhat.
She picked up her handkerchief, a letter from Molly and a small
anthology lying on the dumb waiter. She made for the door, avoiding
Jack's eyes. She felt through her downcast lids the misery of his looks.
A softer feeling went through her, and she regretted her outburst. As
she placed her hand on the handle she turned round and faced Mrs Holt, a
gentler look in her eyes.

'I'm sorry I was hasty,' she stammered. 'I was taken by surprise. It was
. . . vulgar.'

The door closed softly behind her.




CHAPTER X


VICTORIA went up to her room and locked the door behind her. She sat
down on her small basket trunk and stared out of the dormer window. She
was still all of a tingle; her hands, grasping the rough edges of the
trunk, trembled a little. Yet she felt, amid all her perturbation, the
strange gladness that overcomes one who has had a shock; the contest was
still upon her.

'Yes,' she said aloud, 'I'm free. I'm out of it.' She hated the dullness
and ugliness which the Holts had brought with them from the Midlands.
The feeling came over her almost like a spasm. Through the dormer window
she could see the white frontage of the house opposite. It was repellent
like Mrs Holt's personal devil.

The feeling of exultation suddenly subsided in Victoria's breast. She
realised all of a sudden that she was once more adrift, that she must
find something to do. It might not be easy. She would have to find
lodgings. The archway in Portsea Place materialised crudely. She could
hear the landlady from 84 detailing the last phase of rheumatics to the
slatternly maid who did for the grocer. Awful, awful. Perhaps she'd
never find another berth. What should she do?

Victoria pulled herself together with a start. 'This will never do,' she
said, 'there's lots of time to worry in. Now I must pack.' She got up,
drew the trunk into the middle of the room, opened it and took out the
tray. Then, methodically, as she had been taught to do by her mother,
she piled her belongings on the bed. In a few minutes it was filled with
the nondescript possessions of the nomad. Skirts, books, boots,
underclothing, an inkpot even, jostled one another in dangerous
proximity. Victoria surveyed the heap with some dismay; all her troubles
had vanished in the horror that comes over every packer: she would never
get it all in. She struggled for half an hour, putting the heavy things
at the bottom, piling blouses on the tray, cunningly secreting scent
bottles in shoes, stuffing handkerchiefs into odd corners. Then she
dropped the tray in, closed the lid and sat down upon it. The box
creaked a little and gave way. Victoria locked it and got up with a
little sigh of satisfaction. But she suddenly saw that the cupboard door
was ajar and that in it hung her best dress and a feather boa; on the
floor stood the packer's plague, shoes. It was quite hopeless to try and
get them in.

Victoria surveyed the difficulty for a moment; then she regretfully
decided that she must ask Mrs Holt for a cardboard box, for her hat-box
was already mortgaged. A nuisance. But rather no, she would ask the
parlourmaid. She went to the door and was surprised to find it locked.
She turned the key slowly, looking round at the cheerful little room,
every article of which was stupid without being offensive. It was hard,
after all, to leave all this, without knowing where to go.

Victoria opened the door and jumped back with a little cry. Before her
stood Jack. He had stolen up silently and waited. His face had flushed
as he saw her; in his eyes was the misery of a sorrowful dog. His mouth,
always a little open, trembled with excitement.

'Jack,' cried Victoria, 'oh! what do you want?'

'I've come to say . . . oh! Victoria . . .' Jack broke down in the
middle of his carefully prepared sentence.

'Oh! go away,' said Victoria faintly, putting her hand on her breast.
'Do go away. Can't you see I've had trouble enough this morning?'

'I'm sorry,' muttered Jack miserably. 'I've been a fool. Vic, I've come
to ask you if you'll forgive me. It's all my fault. I can't bear it.'

'Don't talk about it,' said Victoria becoming rigid. 'That's all over.
Besides you'll have forgotten all about it to-morrow,' she added
cruelly.

Jack did not answer directly, though he was stung. 'Vic,' he said with
hesitation, 'I can't bear to see you go, all through me. Listen, there's
something you said this morning. Did you mean it?'

'Mean what?' asked Victoria uneasily.

'You said, if I'd asked you to marry me you . . . I know I didn't, but
you know, Vic, I wanted you the first time I saw you. Oh! Vic, won't you
marry me now?'

Victoria looked at him incredulously. His hands were still trembling
with excitement. His light eyes stared a little. His long thin frame was
swaying. 'I'd do anything for you. You don't know what I could do. I'd
work for you. I'd love you more than you've ever been loved.' Jack
stopped short; there was a hardness that frightened him in the set of
Victoria's jaw.

'You didn't say that yesterday,' she answered.

'No, I was mad. But I wanted to all along, Vic. You're the only woman I
ever loved. I don't ask more of you than to let me love you.'

Victoria looked at him more gently. His likeness to her brother grew
plainer than ever. Kind but hopelessly inefficient. Poor boy, he meant
no harm.

'I'm sorry, Jack,' she said after a pause, 'I can't do it. You know you
couldn't make a living . . .'

'Oh, I could, I could!' cried Jack clinging at the straw, 'if I had you
to work for. You can't tell what it means for me.'

'Perhaps you could work,' said Victoria with a wan little smile, 'but I
can't marry you, Jack, you see. I like you very much, but I'm not in
love with you. It wouldn't be fair.'

Jack looked at her dully. He had not dared to expect anything but
defeat, yet defeat crushed him.

'There, you must go away now,' said Victoria, 'I must go downstairs. Let
me pass please.' She squeezed between him and the wall and made for the
stairs.

'No, I can't let you go,' said Jack hoarsely. He seized her by the waist
and bent over her. Victoria looked the space of a second into his eyes
where the tiny veins were becoming bloodshot. She pushed him back
sharply and, wrenching herself away, ran down the stairs. He did not
follow her.

Victoria looked up from the landing. Jack was standing with bent head,
one hand on the banister. 'The only thing you can do for me is to go
away,' she said coldly. 'I shall come up again in five minutes with
Effie. I suppose you will not want us to find you outside my bedroom
door.'

She went downstairs. When she came up again with the maid, who carried a
large brown cardboard box, Jack was nowhere to be seen.

A quarter of an hour later she followed the butcher's boy who was
dragging her box down the stairs, dropping it with successive thuds from
step to step. As she reached the hall, while she was hesitating as to
whether she should go into the dining-room to say good-bye to Mrs Holt,
the door opened and Mrs Holt came out. The two women looked at one
another for the space of a second, like duellists about to cross swords.
Then Mrs Holt held out her hand.

'Good-bye, Victoria,' she said, 'I'm sorry you're going. I know you're
not to blame.'

'Thank you,' said Victoria icily. 'I'm sorry also, but it couldn't be
helped.'

Mrs Holt heaved a large sigh. 'I suppose not,' she said.

Victoria withdrew her hand and went towards the door. The butcher's boy
had already taken her box down, marking the whitened steps with two
black lines.

'Shall I call a cab, mum?' he asked.

'Yes please,' said Victoria dreamily.

The youth went down the drive, his heels crunching into the gravel.
Victoria stood at the top of the steps, looking out at the shrubs, one
or two of which showed pale buds, standing sharp like jewels on the
black stems. Mrs Holt came up behind her softly.

'I hope we don't part in anger, Victoria,' she said guiltily.

Victoria looked at her with faint amusement. True, anger is a cardinal
sin.

'Oh! no, not at all,' she answered. 'I quite understand.'

'Don't be afraid to give me as a reference,' said Mrs Holt.

'Thank you,' said Victoria. 'I shan't forget.'

'And if ever you're in trouble, come to me.'

'You're very kind,' said Victoria. Mrs Holt was kind, she felt. She
understood her better now. Much of her sternness oozed out of her. A
mother defending her son knows no pity, thought Victoria; perhaps it's
wrong to resent it. It's nature's way of keeping the young alive.

The cab came trotting up the drive and stopped. The butcher's boy was
loading the trunk upon the roof. Victoria turned to Mrs Holt and took
her hand.

'Good-bye,' she said, 'you've been very good to me. Don't think I'm so
bad as you thought me this morning. Your son has just asked me to marry
him.'

Mrs Holt dropped Victoria's hand; her face was distorted by a spasm.

'I refused him,' said Victoria.

She stepped into the cab and directed the cabman to Portsea Place. As
they turned into the road she looked back. At the head of the steps Mrs
Holt stood frozen and amazed. Victoria almost smiled but, her eyes
wandering upwards, she saw, at her dormer window, Jack's head and
shoulders. His blue eyes were fixed upon her with unutterable longing. A
few strands of hair had blown down upon his forehead. For the space of a
second they gazed into each other's eyes. Then the wall blotted him out
suddenly. Victoria sighed softly and sank back upon the seat of the cab.

At the moment she had no thought. She was at such a point as one may be
who has turned the last page of the first volume of a lengthy book: the
next page is blank. Nothing remained even of that last look in which
Jack's blue eyes had pitifully retold his sorry tale. She was like a
rope which has parted with many groans and wrenchings; broken and its
strands scattering, its ends float lazily at the mercy of the waves,
preparing to sink. She was going more certainly into the unknown than if
she had walked blindfold into the darkest night.

The horse trotted gently, the brakes gritting on the wheels as it picked
its way down the steep. The fresh air of April drove into the cab,
stinging a little and yet balmy with the freshness of latent spring.
Victoria sat up, clasped her hands on the doors and craned out to see.
There was a little fever in her blood again; the spirit of adventure was
raising its head. As fitful gleams of sunshine lit up and irradiated the
puddles a passionate interest in the life around seemed to overpower
her. She looked almost greedily at the spire, far down the Wellington
Road, shining white like molten metal with almost Italian brilliancy
against a sky pale as shallow water. The light, the young wind, the
scents of earth and buds, the men and women who walked with springy
step intent on no business, all this, and even the horse who seemed to
toss his head and swish his tail in sheer glee, told her that the world
was singing its alleluia, for, behold, spring was born unto it in
gladness, with all its trappings and its sumptuous promise.

Everything was beautiful; not even the dreary waste of wall which
conceals Lords from the vulgar, nor the thousand tombs of the churchyard
where the dead jostle and grab land from one another were without their
peculiar charm. It was not until the cab crossed the Edgware Road that
Victoria realised with a start that, though the world was born again,
she did not share its good fortune. Edgware Road had dragged her down to
the old level; a horrible familiarity, half pleasurable, half fearful,
overwhelmed her. This street, which she had so often paced carrying a
heart that grew heavier with every step, had never led her to anything
but loneliness, to the cold emptiness of her room. Her mood had changed.
She saw nothing now but tawdry stationer's shops, meretricious jewellery
and, worse still, the sickening plenty of its monster stores of clothing
and food. The road had seized her and was carrying her away towards its
summit, where the hill melts into the skies between the houses that grow
lower as far as the eye can see.

Victoria closed her eyes. She was in the grip once more; the wheels of
the machine were not moving yet but she could feel the vibration as it
got up steam. In a little the flywheel would slowly revolve and then she
would be caught and ground up. Yes, ground up, cried the Edgware Road,
like thousands of others as good as you, ground into little bits to make
roadmetal of, yes, ground, ground fine.

The cab stopped suddenly. Victoria opened her eyes. Yes, this was
Portsea Place. She got out. It had not changed. The curtains of the
house opposite were as dirty as ever. The landlady from the corner was
standing just under the archway, dressed as usual in an expansive pink
blouse in which her flowing contours rose and fell. She interrupted the
voluble comments on the weather which she was addressing to the little
faded colleague, dressed in equally faded black, to stare at the
newcomer.

'There ain't no more room at Bell's,' she remarked.

'She is very fortunate,' said the faded little woman. 'Dear me, dear me.
It's a cruel world.'

'Them lidies' maids allus ketches on,' said the large woman savagely.
'Tell yer wot, though, p'raps they wouldn't if they was to see Bell's
kitching. Oh, Lor'! There ain't no black-beetles. I don't think.'

The little faded woman looked longingly at Victoria standing on the
steps. A loafer sprung from thin air as is the way of his kind and leant
against the area railings, touching his cap whenever he caught
Victoria's eye, indicating at times the box on the roof of the cab. From
the silent house came a noise that grew louder and louder as the
footsteps drew nearer the door. Victoria recognised the familiar
shuffle. Mrs Bell opened the door.

'Lor, mum,' she cried, 'I'm glad to see you again.' She caught sight of
the trunk. 'Oh, are you moving, mum?'

'Yes, Mrs Bell,' said Victoria. 'I'm moving and I want some rooms. Of
course I thought of you.'

Mrs Bell's face fell. 'Oh, I'm so sorry, mum. The house is full. If
you'd come last week I had the first floor back.' She seemed genuinely
distressed. She liked her quiet lodger and to turn away business of any
kind was always depressing.

Victoria felt dashed. She remembered Edward's consternation on
discovering the change in Gower Street and, for the first time,
sympathised.

'Oh, I'm so sorry too, Mrs Bell. I should like to have come back to
you.'

'Couldn't you wait until next month, mum!' said Mrs Bell, reluctant to
turn her away. 'The gentleman in the second floor front, he's going
away to Rhodesia. It's your old room, mum.'

'I'm afraid not,' said Victoria with a smile. 'In fact I must find
lodgings at once. Never mind, if I don't like them I'll come back here.
But can't you recommend somebody?'

Mrs Bell looked right and left, then into the archway. The little faded
woman had disappeared. The landlady in the billowy blouse was still
surveying the scene. Mrs Bell froze her with a single look.

'No, mum, can't say I know of anybody, leastways not here,' she said
slowly. 'It's a nice neighbourhood of course, but the houses here, they
look all right, but oh, mum, you should see their kitchens! Dirty ain't
the word, mum. But wait a bit, mum, if you wouldn't mind that, I've got
a sister who's got a very nice room. She lives in Castle Street, mum,
near Oxford Circus. It's a nice neighbourhood, of course not so near the
Park,' added Mrs Bell with conscious superiority.

'I don't mind, Mrs Bell,' said Victoria. 'I'm not fashionable.'

'Oh, mum,' cried Mrs Bell, endeavouring to imply together the
superiority of Portsea Place and the respectability of any street
patronised by her family, 'I'm sure you'll like it. I'll give you the
address.'

In a few minutes Victoria was speeding eastwards. Now she was rooted up
for good. She was leaving behind her Curran's and Mrs Bell, slender
links between her and home life, links still, however. The pageant of
London rolled by her, heaving, bursting with rich life. The sunshine
around her bade her be of good cheer. Then the cab turned a corner and,
with the suddenness of a stage effect, it carried its burden into the
haunts of darkness and malodour.




CHAPTER XI


'_Telegraph_, mum,' said a voice.

Victoria started up from the big armchair with a suddenness that almost
shot her out of it. It was the brother of the one in Portsea Place and
shared its constitutional objection to being sat upon. It was part of
the 'sweet' which Miss Briggs had divided with Mrs Bell when their
grandmother died.

'Thanks, Miss Briggs,' said Victoria. 'By the way, I don't think that
egg is quite fresh. And why does Hetty put the armchair in front of the
cupboard every day so that I can't open it?'

'The slut, I don't see there's anything the matter with it,' remarked
Miss Briggs, simultaneously endorsing the complaint against Hetty and
defending her own marketing.

'Oh, yes there is, Miss Briggs,' snapped Victoria with a sharpness which
would have been foreign to her some months before. 'Don't let it happen
again or I'll do my own catering.'

Miss Briggs collapsed on the spot. The profits on the three and sixpence
a week for 'tea, bread and butter and anything that's going,' formed
quite a substantial portion of her budget.

'Oh, I'm sorry, mum,' she said, 'it's Hetty bought 'em this week. The
slut, I'll talk to her.'

Victoria took no notice of the penitent landlady and opened the
_Telegraph_. She absorbed the fact that Consols had gone up an eighth
and that contangoes were in process of arrangement, without interest or
understanding. She was thinking of something else. Miss Briggs coughed
apologetically. Victoria looked up. Miss Briggs reflectively tied knots
in her apron string. She was a tall, lantern-jawed woman of no
particular age; old looking for thirty-five perhaps or young looking for
fifty. Her brown hair, plentifully sprinkled with grey, broke out in
wisps over each ear and at the back of the neck. Her perfectly flat
chest allowed big bags of coarse black serge to hang over her dirty
white apron. Her hands played mechanically with the strings, while her
water- eye fixed upon the _Telegraph_.

'You shouldn't read that paper, mum,' she remarked.

'Why not?' asked Victoria, with a smile, 'isn't it a good one?'

'Oh, yes, mum, I don't say that,' said Miss Briggs with the respect that
she felt for the buyers of penny papers. 'There's none better. Mine's
the _Daily Mail_ of course and just a peep into _Reynolds_ before the
young gent on the first floor front. But you shouldn't have it.
_Tizer's_ your paper.'

'_Tizer_?' said Victoria interrogatively.

'_Morning Advertiser_, mum; that's the one for advertisements.'

'But how do you know I read the advertisements, Miss Briggs?' asked
Victoria still smiling.

'Oh, mum, excuse the liberty,' said Miss Briggs in great trepidation.
'It's the only sheet I don't find when I comes up to do the bed.
_Tizer's_ the one for you, mum; I had a young lady 'ere, once. Got a job
at the Inverness Lounge, she did. Married a clergyman, they say. He's
divorced her now.'

'That's an encouraging story, Miss Briggs,' said Victoria with a twinkle
in her eye. 'How do you know I want to be a barmaid, though?'

'Oh, one has to be what one can, mum,' said Miss Briggs sorrowfully.
'Sure enough, it ain't all honey and it ain't all jam keeping this
house. The bells, they rings all day and it's the breakfast that's bad
and their ain't blankets enough, and I never 'ad a scuttle big enough to
please 'em for sixpence. But you ain't doing that, mum,' she added after
a pause devoted to the consideration of her wrongs. 'A young lady like
you, she ought to be behind the bar.'

Victoria laughed aloud. 'Thanks for the hint, Miss Briggs,' she said,
'I'll think it over. To-day however, I'm going to try my luck on the
stage. What do you think of that?'

'Going on tour?' cried Miss Briggs in a tone of tense anxiety.

'Well, not yet,' said Victoria soothingly. 'I'm going to see an agent.'

'Oh, that's all right,' said Miss Briggs with ghoulish relief. 'Hope
yer'll get a job,' she added as confidently as a man offering a drink to
a teetotaller. At that moment a fearful clattering on the stairs
announced that Hetty and the pail had suddenly descended to the lower
landing. Liquid noises followed. Miss Briggs rushed out. Victoria jumped
up and slammed her door on the chaotic scene. She returned to the
_Telegraph_. The last six weeks in the Castle Street lodging house had
taught her that these were happenings quite devoid of importance.

Victoria spread out the _Telegraph_, ignored the foreign news, the
leaders and the shocking revelations as to the Government's Saharan
policy; she dallied for a moment over 'gowns for debutantes,' for she
was a true woman, and passed on to the advertisements. She was getting
quite experienced as a reader and could sift the wheat from the chaff
with some accuracy. She knew that she could safely ignore applications
for lady helps in 'small families,' at least unless she was willing to
clean boots and blacklead grates for five shillings a week and meals
when an opportunity occurred; her last revelation as to the nature of a
post of housekeeper to an elderly gentleman who had retired from
business into the quietude of Surbiton had not been edifying. The
'Financial and Businesses' column left her colder than she had been when
she left Mrs Holt with nearly thirty-seven pounds. Then she was a
capitalist and pondered longingly over the proposals of tobacconists,
fancy goods firms, and stationers, who were prepared to guarantee a
fortune to any person who could muster thirty pounds. Fortunately Miss
Briggs had undeceived her. In her variegated experience, she herself had
surrendered some sixty golden sovereigns to the persuasive owner of a
flourishing newsagent's business. After a few weeks of vain attempts to
induce the neighbourhood to indulge in the news of the day, she had been
glad to sell her stock of sweets for eighteen shillings, and to take
half a crown for a hundred penny novelettes.

Victoria turned to the 'Situations Vacant.' Their numbers were
deceptive. She had never realised before how many people live by fitting
other people for work they cannot get. Two thirds of the advertisements
offered wonderful opportunities for sons of gentlemen in the offices of
architects and engineers on payment of a premium; she also found she
could become a lady gardener if she would only follow the courses in
some dukery and meanwhile live on air; others would teach her shorthand,
typewriting or the art of the secretary. All these she now calmly
skipped. She was obviously unfitted to be the matron of an asylum for
the feeble-minded. Such experience had not been hers, nor had she the
redoubtable record which would open the gates of an emporium. An
illegible hand would exclude her from the City.

'No,' thought Victoria, 'I'm an unskilled labourer; that's what I am.'
She wearily skimmed the agencies; as a matter of habit noted the demand
for two companions and one nursery governess and put the paper aside.
There was not much hope in any of these, for one was for Tiverton, the
other for Cardiff, which would make a personal interview a costly
business; the third, discreetly cloaked by an initial, suggested by its
terseness a companionship probably undue in its intimacy. The last six
weeks had opened Victoria's eyes to the unpleasant aspects of life, so
much so that she wondered whether there were any other. She felt now
that London was waiting for her outside, waiting for her to have spent
her last copper, when she would come out to be eaten so that she might
eat.

Whatever her conceit might have been six months before, Victoria had
lost it all. She could do nothing that was wanted and desired everything
she could not get. She had tried all sources and found them dry.
Commercialism, philanthropy, and five per cent. philanthropy had failed
her. What can you do? was their cry. And, the answer being 'nothing,'
their retort had been 'No more can we.'

Victoria turned over in her mind her interview with the Honorary
Secretary of the British Women's Imperial Self Help Association. 'Of
course,' said the Secretary, 'we will be glad to register you. We need
some references and, as our principle is to foster the independence and
self-respect of those whom we endeavour to place in positions such as
may befit their social status, we are compelled to demand a fee of five
shillings.'

'Oh, self help, I see,' said Victoria sardonically, for she was
beginning to understand the world.

'Yes,' replied the Honorary Secretary, oblivious of the sneer, for his
mind was cast in the parliamentary mould, 'by adhering to our principle
and by this means only can we hope to stem the tide of pauperism to
which modern socialistic tendencies are--are--spurring the masses.'
Victoria had paid five shillings for this immortal metaphor and within a
week had received an invitation to attend a meeting presided over by
several countesses.

The B. W. I. S. H. A., (as it was called by its intimates) had induced
in Victoria suspicions of societies in general. She had, however,
applied also to the Ladies' Provider. Its name left one in doubt whether
it provided ladies with persons or whether it provided ladies to persons
who might not be ladies. The Secretary in this case, was not Honorary.
The inwardness of this did not appear to Victoria; for she did not then
know that plain secretaries are generally paid, and try to earn their
salary. Their interview had, however, not been such as to convert her to
the value of corporate effort.

The Secretary in this case was a woman of forty, with a pink face, trim
grey hair, spectacles, amorphous clothing, capable hands. She exhaled an
atmosphere of respectability, and the faint odour of almonds which
emanates from those women who eschew scent in favour of soap. She had
quietly listened to Victoria's history, making every now and then a
shorthand note. Then she had coughed gently once or twice. Victoria felt
as in the presence of an examiner. Was she going to get a pass?

'I do not say that we cannot do anything for you, Mrs Fulton,' she said,
'but we have so many cases similar to yours.'

Victoria had bridled a little at this. 'Cases' was a nasty word.

'I'm not particular,' she had answered, 'I'd be a companion any day.'

'I'm sure you'd make a pleasant one,' said the Secretary graciously,
'but before we go any further, tell me how it was you left your last
place. You were in the . . . in the Finchley Road, was it not?' The
Secretary's eyes travelled to a map of London where Marylebone, South
Paddington, Kensington, Belgravia, and Mayfair, were blocked out in
blue.

Victoria had hesitated, then fenced. 'Mrs Holt will give me a good
character,' she faltered.

'No doubt, no doubt,' replied the Secretary, her eyes growing just a
little darker behind the glasses. 'Yet, you see, we are compelled by the
nature of our business to make enquiries. A good reference is a very
good thing, yet people are a little careless sometimes; the hearts of
employers are often rather soft.'

This was a little too much for Victoria. 'If you want to know the
truth,' she said bluntly, 'the son of the house persecuted me with his
attentions, and I couldn't bear it.'

The Secretary made a shorthand note. Then she looked at Victoria's
flashing eyes, heightened colour, thick piled hair.

'I am very sorry,' she began lamely. . . .

What dreadful things women are, thought Victoria, folding up the
_Telegraph_. If Christ had said: Let _her_ who hath never sinned. . .
the woman would have been stoned. Victoria got up, went to the
looking-glass and inspected herself. Yes, she was very pretty. She was
prettier than she had ever been before. Her skin was paler, her eyes
larger; her thick eyebrows almost met in an exquisite gradation of short
dark hairs over the bridge of the nose. She watched her breast rise and
fall gently, flashing white through the black lacework of her blouse,
then falling away from it, tantalising the faint sunshine that would
kiss it. As she turned, another looking-glass set in the lower panels of
a small cupboard told her that her feet were small and high arched. Her
openwork stockings were drawn so tight that the skin there also gleamed
white.

Victoria took from the table a dirty visiting card. It bore the words
'Louis Carrel, Musical and Theatrical Agent, 5 Soho Place.' She had come
by it in singular manner. Two days before, as she left the offices of
the 'Compleat Governess Agency' after having realised that she could
not qualify in either French, German, Music, Poker work or Swedish
drill, she had paused for a moment on the doorstep, surveying the dingy
court where they were concealed, the dirty panes of an unlet shop
opposite, the strange literature flaunting in the showcase of some
publisher of esoterics. A woman had come up to her, rising like the
loafers from the flagstones. She had realised her as between ages and
between colours. Then the woman had disappeared as suddenly as she came
without having spoken, leaving in Victoria's hand the little square of
pasteboard.

Victoria looked at it meditatively. She would have shrunk from the idea
of the stage a year before, when the tradition of Lympton was still upon
her. But times had changed; a simple philosophy was growing in her; what
did anything matter? would it not be all the same in a hundred years?
The discovery of this philosophy did not strike her as commonplace.
There are but few who know that this is the philosophy of the world.

Victoria put down the card and began to dress. She removed the old black
skirt and ragged lace blouse and, as she stood before the glass in her
short petticoat, patting her hair and setting a comb, she reflected with
satisfaction that her arms were shapely and white. She looked almost
lovingly at the long thin dark hairs, fine as silk, that streaked her
forearms; she kissed them gently, moved to self-adoration by the sweet
scent of femininity that rose from her.

She tore herself away from her self-worship and quickly began to dress.
She put on a light skirt in serge, striped black and white, threading
her head through it with great care for fear she should damage her
fringe net. She drew on a white blouse, simple enough though cheap. As
it fastened along the side she did not have to call in Miss Briggs;
which was fortunate, as this was the time when Miss Briggs carried
coals. Victoria wriggled for a moment to settle the uncomfortable boning
of the neck and, having buckled and belted the skirt over the blouse,
completed her toilet with her little black and white jacket to match the
skirt. A tiny black silk cravat from her neck was discarded, as she
found that the fashionable ruffle, emerging from the closed coat,
produced an _effet mousquetaire_. Lastly she put on her hat; a lapse
from the fashions perhaps, but a lovable, flat, almost crownless, dead
black, save a vertical group of feathers.

Victoria drew her veil down, regretting the thickness of the spots,
pushed it up to repair with a dab of powder the ravage of a pod on the
tip of her nose. She took up her parasol and white gloves, a glow of
excitement already creeping over her as she realised how cleverly she
must have caught the spirit of the profession to look the actress to the
life and yet remain in the note of the demure widow.

Soho Place is neither one of the 'good' streets nor one of the 'bad.'
The police do not pace it in twos and threes in broad daylight, yet they
hardly like to venture into it singly by night. On one side it ends in a
square; on the other it turns off into an unobtrusive side street, the
reputation of which varies yard by yard according to the distance from
the main roads. It is dirty, dingy; yet not without dignity, for its
good Georgian and Victorian houses preserve some solidity and are not
yet of the tenement class. They are still in the grade of office and
shop which is immediately below their one-time status of dwellings for
well-to-do merchants.

Victoria entered Soho Place from the square, so that she was not too ill
impressed. She walked in the middle of the pavement, unconsciously
influenced the foreign flavour of Soho. There men and women stand all
day in the street, talking, bargaining, quarrelling and making love;
when a cab rattles by they move aside lazily, as a Neapolitan stevedore
rolls away on the wharf from the wheels of a passing cart.

Victoria paused for a second on the steps. No 5 Soho Place was a good
house enough. The ground floor was occupied by a firm of auctioneers; a
gentleman describing himself as A.R.I.B.A. exercised his profession on
the third floor; below his plate was nailed a visiting-card similar to
the one Victoria took from her reticule. She went up the staircase
feeling a little braced by the respectability of the house, though she
had caught sight through the area railings of an unspeakably dirty
kitchen where unwashed pots flaunted greasy remains on a liquor stained
deal table. The staircase itself, with its neutral and stained green
distemper, was not over encouraging. Victoria stopped at the first
landing. She had no need to enquire as to the whereabouts of the
impresario for, on a door which stood ajar, was nailed another dirty
card. Just as she was about to push it, it opened further to allow a
girl to come out. She was very fair; her cheeks were a little flushed; a
golden lock or two fell like keepsake ringlets on her low lace collar.
Victoria just had time to see that the blue eyes sparkled and to receive
a cheerful smile. The girl muttered an apology and, smiling still,
brushed past her and lightly ran down the stairs. 'A successful
candidate,' thought Victoria, her heart rising once more.

She entered the room and found it empty. It was almost entirely bare of
furniture, for little save an island of chairs in the middle and faded
red cloth curtains relieved the uniform dirtiness of the wall paper
which once was flowered. One wall was entirely covered by a large poster
where half a dozen impossibly charming girls of the biscuit box type
were executing a cancan so symmetrically as to recall an Egyptian
frieze. The mantlepiece was bare save for the signed photograph of some
magnificent foreign-looking athlete, nude to the waist. Victoria waited
for a moment, watching a door which led into an inner room, then went
towards it. At once the sound of a chair being pushed back and the fall
of some small article on the floor told her that the occupant had heard
her footsteps. The door opened suddenly.

Victoria looked at the apparition with some surprise. In a single glance
she took in the details of his face and clothes, all of which were
pleasing. The man was obviously a foreigner. His face was pale, clean
shaven save for a small black moustache closely cropped at the ends; his
eyes were brown; his eyebrows, as beautifully pencilled as those of a
girl, emphasized the whiteness of his high forehead from which the hair
receded in thick waves. His lips, red and full, were parted over his
white teeth in a pleasant smile. Victoria saw too that he was dressed in
perfect taste, in soft grey tweed, fitting well over the collar and
loose everywhere else; his linen was immaculate; in fact nothing about
him would have disgraced the Chandraga mess, except perhaps a gold ring
with a large diamond which he wore on the little finger of his right
hand.

'Mr Carrel?' said Victoria in some trepidation.

'Yes, Mademoiselle,' said the man pleasantly. 'Will you have the
kindness to enter?' He held the door open and Victoria, hesitating a
little, preceded him.

The inner room was almost a replica of the outer. It too was scantily
furnished. On a large table heaps of dusty papers were stacked. An
ash-tray overflowed over one end. In a corner stood a rickety-looking
piano. The walls were profusely decorated with posters and photographs,
presumably of actors and actresses, some highly renowned. Victoria felt
respect creeping into her soul.

Carrel placed a chair for her before the table and resumed his own. For
the space of a second or two he looked Victoria over. She was a little
too conscious of his scrutiny to be quite at ease, but she was not
afraid of the verdict.

'So, Mademoiselle,' said the man gently, 'you wish for an engagement on
the stage?'

Victoria had not expected such directness. 'Yes, I do,' she said. 'That
is, I was thinking of it since I got your card.'

'My card?' said Carrel, raising his eyebrows a little. 'How did you get
my card?'

Victoria told him briefly how the card had been thrust into her hand,
how curious it was and how surprised she had been as she did not know
the woman and had never seen her again. Then she frankly confessed that
she had no experience of the stage but wanted to earn her living and
that . . . She stopped aghast at the tactical error. But Carrel was
looking at her fixedly, a smile playing on his lips as he pulled his
tiny moustache with his jewelled hand.

'Yes, certainly, I understand,' he said. 'Experience is very useful,
naturally. But you must begin and you know: _il n'y a que le premier pas
qui coute_. Now perhaps you can sing? It would be very useful.'

'Yes, I can sing,' said Victoria doubtfully, suppressing 'a little,'
remembering her first mistake.

'Ah, that is good,' said Carrel smiling. 'Will you sit down to the
piano? I have no music; ladies always bring it but do you not know
something by heart?'

Victoria got up, her heart beating a little and went to the piano. 'I
don't know anything French,' she said.

'It does not matter,' said Carrel, 'you will learn easily.' He lowered
the piano stool for her. As she sat down the side of his head brushed
her shoulder lightly. A faint scent of heliotrope rose from his hair.

Victoria dragged off her gloves nervously, felt for the pedals and with
a voice that trembled a little sang two ballads which had always pleased
Lympton. The piano was frightfully out of tune. Everything conspired to
make her nervous. It was only when she struck the last note that she
looked at the impresario.

'Very good, very good,' cried Carrel. '_Magnifique._ Mademoiselle, you
have a beautiful voice. You will be a great success at Vichy.'

'Vichy?' echoed Victoria, a little overwhelmed by his approval of a
voice which she knew to be quite ordinary.

'Yes, I have a troupe to sing and dance at Vichy and in the towns,
Clermont Ferrand, Lyon, everywhere. I will engage you to sing and
dance,' said Carrel, his dark eyes sparkling.

'Oh, I can't dance,' cried Victoria despairingly.

'But I assure you, it is not difficult,' said Carrel. 'We will teach
you. There, I will show you the contract. As you have not had much
experience my syndicate can only pay you one hundred and fifty francs a
month. But we will pay the expenses and the costumes.'

Victoria looked doubtful for a moment. To sing, to dance, to go to
France where she had never been, all this was sudden and momentous.

'_Voyons_,' said Carrel, 'it will be quite easy. I am taking four
English ladies with you and two do not understand the theatre. You will
make more money if the audience like you. Here is the contract.' He drew
a printed sheet out of the drawer and handed it to her.

It was an impressive document with a heavy headline; _Troupe de Theatre
Anglaise_. It bore a French revenue stamp and contained half-a-dozen
clauses in French which she struggled through painfully; she could only
guess at their meaning. So far as she could see she was bound to sing
and dance according to the programme which was to be fixed by the
_Directeur_, twice every day including Sundays. The _syndicat_ undertook
to pay the railway fares and to provide costumes. She hesitated, then
crossed the Rubicon.

'Fill in the blanks, please,' she said unsteadily. 'I accept.'

Carrel took up a pen and wrote in the date and _cent cinquante francs_.
'What name will you adopt?' he asked, 'and what is your own name?'

Victoria hesitated. 'My name is Victoria Fulton,' she said. 'You may
call me . . . Aminta Ormond.'

Carrel smiled once more. 'Aminta Ormond? I do not think you will like
that. It is not English. It is like Amanda. No! I have it, Gladys
Oxford, it is excellent.'

Before she could protest he had begun writing. After all, what did it
matter? She signed the document without a word.

'_Voila_,' said Carrel smoothly, locking the drawer on the contract. 'We
leave from Charing Cross on Wednesday evening. So you have two days to
prepare yourself. _Monsieur le Directeur_ will meet you under the clock
at a quarter past eight. The train leaves at nine. We will take your
ticket when you arrive. Please come here at four on Wednesday and I will
introduce you to the _Directeur_.'

Victoria got up and mechanically shook hands. Carrel opened the door for
her and ceremoniously bowed her out. She walked into Soho place as in a
dream, every pulse in her body thrilling with unwonted adventure. She
stared at a dirty window pane and wondered at the brilliance it threw
back from her eyes.




CHAPTER XII


VICTORIA had forgotten her latchkey. Miss Briggs opened the door for
her. Her sallow face brightened up.

'There's a gentleman waiting, mum,' she said, 'and 'ere's a telegram.'
Came jest five minutes after you left. I've put him in the front room
what's empty, mum. Thought you'd rather see him there. Been 'ere 'arf an
'our, mum.'

Victoria did not attempt to disentangle the hours of arrival of the
gentleman and the telegram; she tore open the brown envelope excitedly.
It only heralded the coming of Edward who was doubtless the gentleman.

'Thanks, Miss Briggs,' she said, 'it's my brother.'

'Yes, mum, nice young gentleman. He's all right; been reading the _New
Age_, mum, this 'arf hour, what belongs to the lady on the third.'

Victoria smiled and went into the dining-room, where none dine in
lodging houses save ghosts. Edward was standing near the mantlepiece
immersed in the paper.

'Why, Ted, this is nice of you,' cried Victoria going up to him and
taking his hand.

'I had to come up to town suddenly,' said Edward, 'to get books for the
Head. I'm going back this afternoon but I thought I'd look you up. Did
you get the telegram.'

'Just got it now,' said Victoria, showing it, 'so you might have saved
the sixpence.'

'I'm sorry,' said Edward. 'I didn't know until this morning.'

'It doesn't matter. I'm so glad to see you.'

There was an awkward pause. Edward brushed away the hair from his
forehead. His hands flew back to his watch-chain. Victoria had briefly
written to him to tell him why she left the Holts. Fearful of all that
touches women, he was acutely conscious that he blamed her and yet knew
her to be blameless.

'It's a beautiful day,' he said suddenly.

'Isn't it?' agreed Victoria, looking at him with surprise. There was
another pause.

'What are you doing just now, Vic?' Edward breathed more freely, having
taken the plunge.

'I've just got some work,' said Victoria. 'I begin on Wednesday.'

'Oh, indeed?' said Edward with increasing interest. 'Have you got a post
as companion?'

'Well, not exactly,' said Victoria. She realised that her story was not
very easy to tell a man like Edward. He looked at her sharply. His face
flushed. His brow puckered. With both hands he grasped his watch-chain.

'I hope, Victoria,' he said severely, 'that you are not adopting an
occupation unworthy of a lady. I mean I know you couldn't,' he added,
his severity melting into nervousness.

'I suppose nothing's unworthy,' said Victoria; 'the fact is, Ted, I'm
afraid you won't like it much, but I'm going on the stage.'

Edward started and flushed like an angry boy. 'On the . . . the stage?'
he gasped.

'Yes,' said Victoria quietly. 'I've got an engagement for six months to
play at Vichy and other places in France. I only get six pounds a month
but they pay all the expenses. I'll have quite thirty pounds clear when
I come back. What do you think of that?'

'It's . . . it's awful,' cried Edward, losing all self-consciousness.
'How can you do such a thing, Vic? If it were in London, it would be
different. You simply can't do it.'

'Can't?' asked Victoria, raising her eyebrows. 'Why?'

'It's not done. No really Vic, you can't do it.' Edward was evidently
disturbed. Fancy a sister of his . . . It was preposterous.

'I'm sorry, Ted,' said Victoria, 'but I'm going on Wednesday. I've
signed the agreement.'

Edward looked at her almost horror-struck. His spectacles had slid down
to the sharp tip of his nose.

'You are doing very wrong, Victoria,' he said, resuming his pedagogic
gravity. 'You could have done nothing that I should have disapproved of
as much. You should have looked out for something else.'

'Looked out for something else?' said Victoria with the suspicion of a
sneer. 'Look here, Ted. I know you mean well, but I know what I'm doing;
I haven't been in London for six months without finding out that life is
hard on women like me. I'm no good because I'm too good for a poor job
and not suitable for a superior one. So I've just got to do what I can.'

'Why didn't you try for a post as companion?' asked Edward with a half
snarl.

'Try indeed! Anybody can see you haven't had to try, Ted. I've tried
everything I could think of, agencies, societies, papers, everything. I
can't get a post. I must do something. I've got to take what I can get.
I know it now; we women are just raw material. The world uses as much of
us as it needs and throws the rest on the scrap heap. Do you think I
don't keep my eyes open? Do you think I don't see that when you want
somebody to do double work at half rates you get a woman? And she thanks
God and struggles for the work that's too dirty or too hard for a man
to touch.'

Victoria paced up and down the small room, carried away by her
vehemence. Edward said nothing. He was much upset and did not know what
to say; he had never seen Victoria like this and he was constitutionally
afraid of vigour.

'I'm sorry, Ted,' said Victoria stopping suddenly. She laid her hand on
his sleeve. 'There, don't sulk with me. Let's go out to lunch and I'll
go and choose your books with you after. Is it a bargain?'

'I don't want to discuss the matter again,' replied Edward with as much
composure as he could muster. 'Yes, let's go out to lunch.'

The rest of the day passed without another word on the subject of
Victoria's downfall. She saw Edward off at St Pancras. After he had said
good-bye to her, he suddenly leaned out of the window of the railway
carriage as if to speak, then changed his mind and sank back on the
seat. Victoria smiled at her victory.

Next morning she broke the news to Miss Briggs. The landlady seemed
amazed as well as concerned.

'You seem rather taken aback,' said Victoria.

'Well, mum, you see it's a funny thing the stage; young ladies all seems
to think it's easy to get on. And then they don't get on. And there you
are.'

'Well I _am_ on,' said Victoria, 'so I shall have to leave on
Wednesday.'

'Sorry to lose you, mum,' said Miss Briggs, ''ope yer'll 'ave a success.
In course, as you 'aven't given me notice, mum, it'll 'ave to be a
week's money more.'

'Oh, come Miss Briggs, this is too bad,' cried Victoria, 'why, you've
got a whole floor vacant! What would it have mattered if I had given you
notice?'

'Might have let it, mum. Besides it's the law,' said Miss Briggs,
placing her arms akimbo, ready for the fray.

'Very well then,' said Victoria coldly, 'don't let's say anything more
about it.'

Miss Briggs looked at her critically. 'No offence meant, mum,' she said
timidly, 'it's a 'ard life, lodgers.'

'Indeed?' said Victoria without any show of interest.

'You wouldn't believe it, mum, all I've got to put up with. There's
Hetty now . . .'

'Yes, yes, Miss Briggs,' said Victoria impatiently, 'you've told me
about Hetty.'

'To be sure, mum,' replied Miss Briggs, humbly. 'It ain't easy to make
ends meet. What with the rent and them Borough Council rates. There
ain't no end to it, mum. I lives in the basement, mum, and that means
gas all the afternoon, mum.'

Victoria looked at her again. This was a curious outlook. The poor
troglodyte had translated the glory of the sun into cubic feet of gas.

'Yes, I suppose it is hard,' she said reflectively.

'To be sure, mum,' mused Miss Briggs. 'Sometimes you can't let at all.
I've watched through the area railings, mum, many a long day in August,
wondering if the legs I can see was coming 'ere. They don't mostly,
mum.'

'Then why do you go on?' asked Victoria hardening suddenly.

'What am I to do, mum? I just gets my board and lodging out of it, mum.
Keeps one respectable; always been respectable, mum. That ain't so easy
in London, mum. Ah, when I was a young girl, might have been different,
mum; you should have seen me 'air. Curls like anything, mum, when I puts
it in papers. 'Ad a bit of a figure too, mum.'

'Deary me!'

Victoria looked with sympathy at the hard thin face, the ragged hair.
Yes, she was respectable enough, poor Miss Briggs! Women have a hard
life. No wonder they too are hard. You cannot afford to be earthenware
among the brass pots.

'What will you do when you can't run the house any more?' she asked more
gently.

'Do, mum? I dunno.'

Yet another philosophy.

'Miss Briggs,' came a man's voice from the stairs.

'Coming, sir,' yelled Miss Briggs in the penetrating tone that calling
from cellar to attic teaches.

'Where are my boots?' said the voice on the stairs.

'I'll get 'em for you, sir,' cried Miss Briggs shuffling to the door on
her worn slippers.

Life is a hard thing, thought Victoria again. Another woman for the
scrap heap. Fourteen hours work a day, nightmares of unlet rooms, boots
to black and coals to carry, dirt, loneliness, harsh words and at the
end 'I dunno.' Is that to be my fate? she wondered.

However her blood soon raced again; she was an actress, she was going
abroad, she was going to see the world, to enslave it, to have
adventures, live. It was good. All that day Victoria trod on air. She no
longer felt her loneliness. The sun was out and aglow, bringing in its
premature exuberance joyful moisture to her temples. She, with the
world, was young. In a fit of extravagance she lunched at a half crown
table d'hote in Oxford Street, where pink shades softly diffuse the
light on shining glass and silver. The coffee was almost regal, so
strong, so full of sap. The light of triumph was in her eyes, making men
turn back, sometimes follow and look into her face, half appealing, half
insolent. But Victoria was unconscious of them, for the world was at her
feet. She was the axis of the earth. It was in such a frame of mind
that, the next day, she climbed the steps of Soho Place, careless of the
view into the underground kitchen, of the two dogs who under the archway
fought, growling, fouling the air with the scents of their hides, over
a piece of offal. She ran up the stairs lightly. The door was still
ajar.

Two men were sitting in the anteroom, both smoking briar pipes. The
taller of the two got up.

'Yes?' he said interrogatively.

'I . . . you . . . is Mr Carrel here?' asked Victoria nervously.

'No Miss,' said the man calmly, 'he's just gone to Marlborough Street.'

'Oh,' said Victoria, still nervous, 'will he be long?'

'I should say so, miss,' replied the man, 'perhaps twelve months,
perhaps more.'

Victoria gasped. 'I don't understand,' she said, but her heart began to
beat.

'Don't s'pose you would, miss,' said the short man, getting up. 'Fact
is, miss, we're the police and we've had to take him; just about time we
did, too. Leaving for France to-night with a batch of girls. S'pose
you're one of them?'

'I was going to-night,' said Victoria faintly.

'May I have your name?' asked the tall man politely, taking out a pocket
book.

'Fulton,' she faltered. 'Victoria Fulton.'

'M'yes, that's it. 'Gladys Oxford,'' said the tall man turning back a
page. 'Well Miss, you can thank your stars you're out of it.'

'But what has he done?' asked Victoria with an effort.

'Lord, Miss, you're from the country, I can see,' said the short man
amiably. 'I thought everybody knew that little game. Take you over to
Vichy, you know. Make you dance and sing. Provide costumes.' He winked
at his companion.

'Costumes,' said Victoria, 'what do you mean?'

'Costumes don't mean much, Miss, over there,' said the tall man. 'Fact
is you'd have to wear what they like and sing what they like when you
pass the plate round among the customers.'

Something seemed to freeze in Victoria.

'He said it was a theatre of varieties,' she gasped.

'Quite true,' said the tall man with returning cynicism. 'A theatre
right enough, but you'd have supplied the variety to the customers.'

Victoria clenched her hands on the handle of her parasol. Then she
turned to fly.

The short man stopped her and demanded her address, informing her that
she was to attend at Marlborough Street next day at eleven thirty.

'Case mayn't be called before twelve,' he added. 'Sorry to trouble you,
Miss. You won't hear any more about it unless it's a case for the
Sessions.'

Victoria ran down the steps, through the alley and into Charing Cross
Road as if something was tracking her, tracking her down. So this was
the end of the dream. She had stretched her hand out to the roses, and
the gods, less merciful to her than to Tantalus, had filled her palm
with thorns. It was horrible, horrible. She had imagination, and a
memory of old prints after Rowlandson which her father had treasured
came back to her with almost nauseating force. She pictured the French
_cafe chantant_ like the Cave of Harmony; rough boards on trestles,
laden with tankards of foaming beer, muddy lights, a foulness of tobacco
smoke, a raised stage with an enormous woman singing on it, her eye
frightfully dilated by belladonna, her massive arms and legs gleaming
behind the dirty footlights and everywhere around men smoking, with
noses like snouts, bodies like swines, hairy hands--hands, ye gods!

She walked quickly away from the place of revelation. She hurried
through the five o'clock inferno of Trafalgar Square, careless of the
traffic, escaping death ten times. She hurried down the spaces of
Whitehall, and only slackened her pace at Westminster Bridge. There she
stopped for a moment; the sun was setting and gilded and empurpled the
foreshores. The horror of the past half hour seemed to fade away as she
watched the roses and mauves bloom and blend, the deep shadows of the
embankments rise and fall. Near by, a vagrant, every inch of him clothed
in rags, the dirt of his face mimicking their colour, smoked a short
clay pipe, puffing at long intervals small wreaths of smoke into the
blue air. And as Victoria watched them form, rise and vanish into
nothingness, the sun kiss gently but pitilessly the old vagrant hunched
up against the parapet, the horror seemed to melt away. The peace of the
evening was expelling it, but another dread visitor was heralded in.
Victoria felt like lead in her heart, the return of uncertainty. Once
more she was an outcast. No work. Once more she must ask herself what to
do and find no answer.

The river glittered and rose and fell, as if inviting her. Victoria
shuddered. It was not yet time for that. She turned back and, with
downcast eyes, made for St James's Park. There she sat for a moment
watching a pelican flop on his island, the waterfowl race and dive. The
problem of life was upon her now and where was the solution? Must I
tread the mill once more? thought Victoria. The vision of agencies
again, of secretaries courteous or rude, of waits and hopes and
despairs, all rushed at her and convinced her of the uselessness of it
all. She was alone, always alone, because she wanted to be free, to be
happy, to live. Perhaps she had been wrong after all to resist the call
of the river. She shuddered once more. A couple passed her with hands
interlocked, eyes gazing into eyes. No, life must hold forth to her
something to make it worth while. She was cold. She got up and, with
nervous determination, walked quickly towards the gate.

The first thing to be done was to get quit of all the horrors of the
day, to cut away the wreckage. She dared not stay at Castle Street. She
would be tracked. She would have to give evidence. She couldn't do it.
She couldn't. Victoria having regained her coolness was in no wise
uncertain as to her course of action. The first thing to do was for her
to lose herself in London, and that so deep that none could drag her out
and force her to tell her story. She must change her lodgings then.
Nothing could be easier, as she had already given Miss Briggs notice. In
fact the best thing to do would be to keep up the fiction of her
departure for France.




CHAPTER XIII


VICTORIA entered her room. It was in the condition that speaks of
departure. Her trunks were packed and corded, all save a small suitcase
which still gaped, showing spaces among the sundries that the skilled
packer collects in the same bundle. Every drawer was open; the bed was
unmade; the room was littered with newspapers and nondescript articles
discarded at the last moment. Victoria rang her bell and quickly
finished packing the suitcase with soap, washing gloves, powder-puffs
and such like. As she turned the key Miss Briggs opened the door.

'Oh, Miss Briggs,' said Victoria quietly, 'I find that I must go down by
an earlier train; I must be at Charing Cross in an hour; I'm going now.'

'Yes, mum,' said Miss Briggs without interest. 'Shall I tell the
greengrocer to come now, mum?'

'Yes please, Miss Briggs; here are the seven shillings.'

Miss Briggs accepted the money without a word. It had formed the basis
of a hot argument between her and her tenant; she considered herself
entitled to one week's rent in lieu of notice but Victoria's new born
sense of business had urged the fact that she had had two days notice;
this had saved her three shillings. Miss Briggs laboured under a sense
of injury, so she did not see Victoria to the door.

This was well, for Victoria was able to pay the greengrocer and to get
rid of him in an artistic manner by sending him to post an empty
envelope addressed to an imaginary person, while she directed the
cabman to Paddington; this saved her awkward questions and would leave
Miss Briggs under the impression that she had gone to Charing Cross.

At Paddington station she left her luggage in the cloak-room and went
out to find lodgings. Her quest was short, for she had ceased to be
particular, so that within an hour she was installed in an imposing
ground floor front in the most respectable house in Star Street. The
district was not so refined as Portsea Place, but the house seemed clean
and the quarters were certainly cheaper; eleven and six covered both
them and the usual breakfast.

Victoria surveyed the room in a friendly manner; there was nothing
attractive or repulsive in it; it was clean; the furniture was almost
exactly similar to that which graced her lodgings in Portsea Place and
in Castle Street. The landlady seemed a friendly body, and had already
saved Victoria a drain on her small store by sending her son, an
out-of-work furrier's hand, to fetch the luggage in a handcart.
Remembering that she was a fugitive from justice she gave her name as
Miss Ferris.

Victoria returned from a hurried tea, unpacked with content the trunk
that should have followed her to France. She was almost exhilarated by
the feeling of safety which enveloped her like comforting warmth. The
day was blithe in unison. She felt quite safe, every movement of her
flight having been so skilfully calculated; she was revelling therefore
in her escape from danger, the deepest and truest of all joys.

The next morning, however, found her in the familiar mood of wondering
what was to become of her. After an extremely inferior breakfast which
brought down upon the already awed Mrs Smith well deserved reproaches,
Victoria investigated the _Telegraph_ columns with the usual negative
results and, in the resultant acid frame of mind, went through her
accounts and discovered that her possessions amounted to twelve pounds,
eight shillings and four pence. This was a terrible blow; the outfit for
the interview with Carrel and the trip to France had dug an enormous
hole in Victoria's resources.

'I must hurry up and find something,' said Victoria to herself. 'Twelve
pounds eight and fourpence--say twelve weeks--and then?'

The next morning reconciled her a little to her fate. True, the paper
yielded no help, but a lengthy account of Carrel's preliminary
examination occupied three quarters of a column in the police court
report. It was apparently a complicated case, for Carrel had been
remanded and bail refused. The report did not yield her much
information. Apparently Carrel was indicted for other counts than the
exporting of the dancing girls to Vichy, for nine women had appeared.
Victoria had quite a thrill of horror when she read the line in which
the well schooled reporter dismissed the evidence of Miss 'S,' by saying
that Miss 'S----' here gave an account of her experience in the green
room of the Folichon-Palace in 1902.' The baldness of the statement was
appalling in its suggestiveness. She had been called, apparently, but no
comment was made on her non-appearance.

'That's all over,' said Victoria with decision, throwing the newspaper
down. She rose from the armchair, shook herself and opened the window to
let out the smell of breakfast. Then she put on her hat and gloves and
decided to have a walk to cheer herself up. Mindful that she was in a
sense a fugitive, she avoided the Marble Arch and made for the Park
through the desolate respectability of Lancaster Gate.

She made for the South East, unconsciously guided by the hieratic shot
tower of Westminster. It was early; the freshness of May still
bejewelled with dew drops the crisp new grass; the gravel, stained dark
by moisture, hardly crunched under her feet, but gave like springy turf.
Forgetting her depleted exchequer Victoria stepped briskly as if on
business bent, looking at nothing but absorbing as through her skin the
kisses of the western wind. At Hyde Park Corner she turned into St
James's Park, and, passing the barracks, received with an old familiar
thrill a covert smile from the handsome sentry. After all she was young,
and it was good somehow to be once more smiled at by a soldier.
Soldiers, soldiers--stupid perhaps, but could one help liking them?
Victoria let her thoughts run back to Dicky--poor old wasted Dicky--and
the Colonel and his liver, and Bobby, who would never be anything but
Bobby, and Major Cairns too. Victoria felt a tiny pang as she thought of
the Major. He was hardly young or handsome but strong, reassuring. She
suddenly felt his lips on her neck again as she gazed rapidly at the
dark lift on the horizon of the coast of Araby. He was a good fellow,
the Major. She would like to meet him again.

She had reached Westminster Bridge. Her thoughts fell away from the
comfortable presence of Major Cairns. Hunched up against the parapet sat
the old vagrant she had seen there before, motionless, his rags lifting
in the breeze, puffs of smoke coming at long intervals from his short
clay pipe. Victoria shuddered; it seemed as if her life were bound to a
wheel which brought her back inexorably to the same spot until the time
came for her to lose there energy and life itself. She turned quickly
towards the Embankment, and, as she rounded the curve, caught a glimpse
of the old vagrant. The symbol of time had not moved.

Another twenty minutes of quick walking had brought her to the City. She
was no longer fearful of it; indeed she almost enjoyed its surge and
roar. Log that she was, tossed on a stormy sea, she could not help
feeling the joy of life in its buffeting. Not even the dullness and
eternal length of Queen Victoria Street, which seems in the City, like
Gower Street, indefinite and interminable, robbed her of the curious
exultation which she felt whenever she entered the precincts. Here at
least was life and doing; ugly doing perhaps, but things worthy of the
name of action. At Mansion House she stopped for a moment to look at the
turmoil: drays, motorbuses, cabs, cycles, entangled and threatening
everywhere the little running black mites of humanity.

As Victoria passed the Bank and walked up Princes Street she felt
hungry, for it was nearly one o'clock. She turned up a lane and stopped
before a small shop which arrested her attention by its name above the
door. It was called 'The Rosebud Cafe,' every letter of its name being
made up of tiny roses; all the woodwork was painted white; the door was
glazed and faced with pink curtains; pink half blinds lined the two
small windows, nothing appearing through them except, right and left,
two tall palms. 'The Rosebud' had a freshness and newness that pleased
her; and, as it boldly announced luncheons and teas, she pushed the
white door open and entered. The room was larger than the outside gave
reason to think, for it was all in depth. It was pretty in a style
suggesting a combination of Watteau, Dresden China, and the top of a
biscuit tin. All the woodwork was white, relieved here and there by pink
drapery and cunningly selected water colours of more or less the same
tint. From the roof, at close intervals, hung little baskets of paper
roses. The back part of the room was glazed over, which showed that it
lay below the well of a tall building. Symmetrically ranged were little
tables, some large enough for four persons, mostly however meant for
two, but Victoria noticed that they were all untenanted; in fact the
room was empty, save for a woman who on her hands and knees was loudly
washing the upper steps of a staircase leading into a cellar, and for a
tall girl who stood on a ladder at the far end of the room critically
surveying a picture she had just put up.

Victoria hesitated for a moment. The girl on the ladder looked round and
jumped down. She was dressed in severe black out of which her long white
face, mantling pink at the cheeks, emerged like a flower; indeed
Victoria wondered whether she had been selected as an attendant because
she was in harmony with the colour scheme of the shop. The girl was
quite charming out of sheer insignificance; her fair hair untidily
crowned her with a halo marred by flying wisps. Her little pink mouth,
perpetually open and pouting querulous over three white upper teeth,
showed annoyance at being disturbed.

'We aren't open,' she said with much decision. It was clearly quite bad
enough to have to look forward to work on the morrow without
anticipating the evil.

'Oh,' said Victoria, 'I'm sorry, I didn't know.'

'We open on Monday,' said the fair girl. 'Sharp.'

'Yes?' answered Victoria vaguely interested as one is in things newly
born. 'This is a pretty place, isn't it?'

A flicker of animation. The fair girl's blue eyes opened wider.
'Rather,' she said. 'I did the water colours,' she explained with pride.

'How clever of you!' exclaimed Victoria. 'I couldn't draw to save my
life.'

' them up, I mean,' the girl apologised grudgingly. 'It was a
long job, I can tell you.'

Victoria smiled. 'Well,' she said, 'I must come back on Monday and see
it finished if I'm in the City.'

'Oh, aren't you in the City?' asked the girl. 'West End?'

'No, not exactly West End,' said Victoria. 'I'm not doing anything just
now.'

The fair girl gave her a glance of faint suspicion.

'Oh, aye, I see,' she said slowly, thoughtfully considering the rather
full lines of Victoria's figure.

Victoria had not the slightest idea of what she saw. 'I'm looking out
for a berth,' she remarked casually.

'Oh, are you?' said the girl with renewed animation. 'What's your line?'

'Anything,' said Victoria. She looked round the pink and white shop. A
feeling of weariness had suddenly come over her. The woman at the top of
the steps had backed away a little, and was rhythmically swishing a wet
rag on the linoleum. Under her untidy hair her neck gleamed red and
fleshy, touched here and there with beads of perspiration. Victoria took
her in as unconsciously as she would an ox patiently straining at the
yoke. To and fro the woman's body rocked, like a machine wound up to
work until its parts drop out worn and useless.

'Ever done any waiting?' The voice of the girl almost made Victoria
jump. She saw herself being critically inspected.

'No, never,' she faltered. 'That's to say, I would, if I got a billet.'

'Mm,' said the girl, eyeing her over. 'Mm.'

Victoria's heart beat unreasonably. 'Do you know where I can get a job?'
she asked.

'Well,' said the girl very deliberately, 'the fact of the matter is,
that we're short here. We had a letter this morning. One of our girls
left home yesterday. Says she can't come. They don't know where she is.'

'Yes,' said Victoria, too excited to speculate as to the implied
tragedy.

'If you like, you can see the manager,' said the girl. 'He's down
there.' She pointed to the cellar.

'Thank you so much,' said Victoria, 'it's awfully kind of you.' The fair
girl walked to the banisters. 'Mr Stein,' she cried shrilly into the
darkness.

There was a rumble, a sound like the upsetting of a chair, footsteps on
the stairs. A head appeared on a level with the floor.

'Vat is it?' growled a voice.

'New girl; wants to be taken on.'

'Vell, take her on,' growled the voice. 'You are ze 'ead vaitress, gn,
you are responsible.'

Victoria had just time to see the head, perfectly round, short-haired,
white faced, cloven by a turned up black moustache, when it vanished
once more. The Germanic 'gn' at the end of the first sentence puzzled
her.

'Sulky beast,' murmured the girl. 'Anyhow, that's settled. You know the
wages, don't you? Eight bob a week and your lunch and tea.'

'Eight . . .' gasped Victoria. 'But I can't live on that.'

'My, you are a green 'un,' smiled the girl. 'With a face like that
you'll make twenty-five bob in tips by the time we've been on for a
month.' She looked again at Victoria not unkindly.

'Tips,' said Victoria reflectively. Awful. But after all, what did it
matter.

'All right,' she said, 'put me down.'

The girl took her name and address. 'Half-past eight sharp on Monday,'
she said. ''cos it's opening day. Usual time half-past nine, off at four
two days a week. Other days seven. Nine o'clock mid and end.'

Victoria stared a little. This was a business woman.

'Sorry,' said the girl, 'must leave you. Got a lot more to do to-day. My
name's Laura. It'll have to be Lottie though. Nothing like Lottie to
make fellows remember you.'

'Remember you?' asked Victoria puzzled.

'Lord, yes, how you going to make your station if they don't remember
you?' said Lottie snappishly. 'You'll learn right enough. You let 'em
call you Vic. Tell 'em to. You'll be all right. And get yourself a black
business dress. We supply pink caps and aprons; charge you sixpence a
week for washing. You get a black openwork blouse, mind you, with short
sleeves. Nothing like it to make your station.'

'What's a station?' asked Victoria, more bewildered than ever.

'My, you _are_ a green 'un! A station's your tables. Five you get. We'll
cut 'em down when they begin to come in. What you've got to do is to pal
up with the fellows; then they'll stick to you, see? Regulars is what
you want. The sort that give no trouble 'cos you know their orders right
off and leave their twopence like clockwork, see? But never you mind:
you'll learn.' Thereupon Lottie tactfully pushed Victoria towards the
door.

Victoria stepped past the cleaner, who was now washing the entrance.
Nothing could be seen of her save her back heaving a little in a filthy
blue bodice and her hands, large, red, ribbed with flowing rivulets of
black dirt and water. As her left hand swung to and fro, Victoria saw
upon the middle finger the golden strangle of a wedding ring deep in the
red cavity of the swollen flesh.




CHAPTER XIV


'YOU come back with me, Vic, don't you?'

'You silly,' said Victoria, witheringly, 'I don't go off to-day, Gertie,
worse luck.'

'Worse luck! I don't think,' cried Gertie. 'I'll swap with you, if you
like. As if yer didn't know it's settling day. Why there's two and a
kick in it!'

'Shut it,' remarked a fat, dark girl, placidly helping herself to
potatoes, 'some people make a sight too much out of settling day.'

'Perhaps yer'll tell me wot yer mean, Miss Prodgitt,' snarled Gertie,
her brown eyes flashing, her cockney accent attaining a heroic pitch.

'What I say,' remarked Miss Prodgitt, with the patronising air that
usually accompanies this enlightening answer.

'Ho, indeed,' snapped Gertie, 'then p'raps yer'll keep wot yer've got
ter sye to yersel, _Miss_ Prodgitt.'

The fat girl opened her mouth, then, changing her mind, turned to
Victoria and informed her that the weather was very cold for the time of
the year.

'That'll do, Gertie,' remarked Lottie, 'you leave Bella alone and hook
it.'

Gertie glowered for a moment, wasted another look of scorn on her
opponent and flounced out of the room into a cupboard-like dark place,
whence issued sounds like the growl of an angry cat. Something had
obviously happened to her hat.

Victoria looked round aimlessly. She had no appetite; for half-past
three, the barbarous lunch hour of the Rosebud girls, seemed calculated
to limit the food bill. By her side Bella was conscientiously absorbing
the potatoes that her daintier companions had left over from the Irish
stew. Lottie was deeply engrossed in a copy of _London Opinion_, left
behind by a customer. Victoria surveyed the room, almost absolutely bare
save in the essentials of chairs and tables. It was not unsightly,
excepting the fact that it was probably swept now and then but never
cleaned out. Upon the wall opposite was stuck a penny souvenir which
proclaimed the fact that the Emperor of Patagonia had lunched at the
Guildhall. By its side hung a large looking glass co-operatively
purchased by the staff. Another wall was occupied by pegs on which hung
sundry dust coats and feather boas, mostly smart. Gertie, in the corner,
was still fumbling in the place known as 'Heath's' because it
represented the 'Hatterie.' It was a silent party enough, this; even the
two other girls on duty downstairs would not have increased the
animation much. Victoria sat back in her chair, and, glancing at the
little watch she carried on her wrist in a leather strap, saw she still
had ten minutes to think.

Victoria watched Gertie, who had come out of 'Heath's' and was poising
her hat before the glass. She was a neat little thing, round everywhere,
trim in the figure, standing well on her toes; her brown hair and eyes,
pursed up little mouth, small, sharp nose, all spoke of briskness and
self-confidence.

'Quarter to four, doin' a bunk,' she remarked generally over her
shoulder.

'Mind Butty doesn't catch you,' said Victoria.

'Oh, he's all right,' said Gertie, 'we're pals.'

Fat Bella, chewing the cud at the table, shot a malevolent glance at
her. Gertie took no notice of her, tied on her veil with a snap, and
collected her steel purse, parasol, and long white cotton gloves.

'Bye, everybody,' she said, 'be good. Bye, Miss Prodgitt; wish yer luck
with yer perliceman, but you take my tip; all what glitters isn't
coppers.'

Before Miss Prodgitt could find a retort to this ruthless exposure of
her idyll, Gertie had vanished down the stairs. Lottie dreamily turned
to the last page of _London Opinion_ and vainly attempted to sound the
middle of her back; she was clearly disturbed by the advertisement of a
patent medicine. Victoria watched her amusedly.

They were not bad sorts, any of them. Lottie, in her sharp way, had been
a kindly guide in the early days, explained the meaning of 'checks,'
shown her how to distinguish the inflexion on the word 'bill,' that
tells whether a customer wants the bill of fare or the bill of costs,
imparted too the wonderful mnemonics which enable a waitress to sort
four simultaneous orders. Gertie, the only frankly common member of the
staff, barked ever but bit never. As for Bella, poor soul, she
represented neutrality. The thread of her life was woven; she would
marry her policeman when he got his stripe, and bear him dull company to
the grave. Gertie would no doubt look after herself. Not being likely to
marry, she might keep straight and end as a manageress, probably save
nothing and end in the workhouse, or go wrong and live somehow, and then
die as quickly as a robin passing from the sunshine to the darkness.
Lottie was a greater problem; in her intelligence lay danger; she had
imagination, which in girls of her class is a perilous possession. Her
enthusiasm might take her anywhere, but very much more likely to misery
than to happiness. However, as she was visibly weak-chested, Victoria
took comfort in the thought that the air of the underground smoking-room
would some day settle her troubles.

Victoria did not follow up her own line of life because as for all young
things, there was no end for her--nothing but mist ahead, with a rosy
tinge in it. Sufficient was it that she was in receipt of a fairly
regular income, not exactly overworked, neither happy nor miserable.
Apart from the two hours rush in the middle of the day, there was
nothing to worry her. After two months she had worked up a fair
connection; she could not rival the experienced Lottie, nor even Gertie
whose forward little ways always 'caught on,' but she kept up an average
of some fourteen shillings a week in tips. Thus she scored over Gladys
and Cora, whose looks and manners were unimpressive, lymphatic Bella
being of course outclassed by everybody. Twenty-one and six a week was
none too much for Victoria, whose ideas of clothes were fatally upper
middle class; good, and not too cheap. Still, she was enough of her
class to live within her income, and even add a shilling now and then to
her little hoard.

A door opened downstairs. 'Four o'clock! Come down! Vic! Bella! Lottie!
Vat are you doing? gn?'

Bella jumped up in terror, her fat cheeks quivering like jelly. 'Coming,
Mr Stein, coming,' she cried, making for the stairs. Victoria followed
more slowly. Lottie, secure in her privileges as head waitress, did not
move until she heard the door below slam behind them.

Victoria lazily made for her tables. They were unoccupied save by a
youth of the junior clerk type.

'Small tea toasted scone, Miss,' said the monarch with an approving look
at Victoria's eyes. As she turned to execute his order he threw himself
back in the bamboo arm chair. He joined his ten finger tips, and,
crossing his legs, negligently displayed a purple sock. He retained this
attitude until the return of Victoria.

'Kyou,' she said, depositing his cup before him. She had unconsciously
acquired this incomprehensible habit of waitresses.

The young man availed himself of the wait for the scone to inform
Victoria that it was a cold day.

'We don't notice it here,' she said graciously enough.

'Hot place, eh,' said the customer with a wink.

Victoria smiled. In the early days she would have snubbed him, but she
had heard the remark before and had a stereotyped answer ready which,
with a new customer, invariably earned her a reputation for wit.

'Oh, the hotter the fewer.' She smiled negligently, moving away towards
the counter. When she returned with the scone, the youth held out his
hand for the plate, and, taking it, touched the side of hers with his
finger tips. She gave him a faint smile and sat down a couple of yards
away on a chair marked 'Attendant.'

The youth congratulated her upon the prettiness of the place. Victoria
helped him through his scone by agreeing with him generally. She
completed her conquest by lightly touching his shoulder as she gave him
his check.

'Penny?' asked Bella, as the youth gone, Victoria slipped her fingers
under the cup.

'Gent,' replied Victoria, displaying three coppers.

Bella sighed. 'You've got all the luck, don't often get a twopenny;
never had a gent in my life.'

'I don't wonder you don't,' said Cora from the other side of the room,
'looking as pleasant as if you were being photographed. You got to give
the boys some sport.'

Bella sighed. 'It's all very well, Cora, I'm an ugly one, that's what it
is.'

'Get out; I'm not a blooming daisy. Try washing your hair . . .'

'It's wrong,' interposed Bella ponderously.

'Oh, shut it, _Miss_ Prodgitt, I've no patience with you.'

Cora walked away to the counter where Gladys was brewing tea. There was
a singular similarity between these two; both were short and plump; both
used henna to bring their hair up to a certain hue of redness; both had
complexions obviously too dark for the copper of their locks, belied as
it was already by their brown eyes. Indeed their resemblance frequently
created trouble, for each maintained that the other ruined her trade by
making her face cheap.

'Can't help it if you've got a cheap face,' was the invariable answer
from either. 'You go home and come back when the rhubarb's out,' usually
served as a retort.

The July afternoon oozed away. It was cool; now and then an effluvium of
tea came to Victoria, mingled with the scent of toast. Now and then too
the rumble of a dray or the clatter of a hansom filtered into the
dullness. Victoria almost slept.

The inner door opened. A tall, stout, elderly man entered, throwing a
savage glance round the shop. There was a little stir among the girls.
Bella's rigidity increased tenfold. Cora and Gladys suddenly stopped
talking. Alone Victoria and Lottie seemed unconcerned at the entrance of
Butty, for 'Butty' it was.

'Butty,' otherwise Mr Burton, the chairman of 'Rosebud, Ltd.,' continued
to glare theatrically. He wore a blue suit of a crude tint, a check
black and white waistcoat, a soft fronted brown shirt and, set in a
shilling poplin tie, a large black pearl. Under a grey bowler set far
back on his head his forehead sloped away to his wispy greying hair. His
nose was large and veined, his cheeks pendulous and touched with
rosacia; his hanging underlip revealed yellow teeth. The heavy dullness
of his face was somewhat relieved by his little blue eyes, piercing and
sparkling like those of a snake. His face was that of a man who is
looking for faults to correct.

Mr Burton strode through the shop to the counter where Cora and Gladys
at once assumed an air of rectitude while he examined the cash register.
Then, without a word, he returned towards the doorway, sweeping Lottie's
tables with a discontented glance, and came to a stop before one of
Bella's tables.

'What's this? what the devil do you mean by this?' thundered Butty,
pointing to a soiled plate and cup.

'Oh, sir, I'm sorry, I . . .' gasped Bella, 'I . . .'

'Now look here, my girl,' hissed Butty, savagely, 'don't you give me any
of your lip. If I ever find anything on a table of yours thirty seconds
after a customer's gone, it's the sack. Take it from me.'

He walked to the steps and descended into the smoking-room. Cora and
Gladys went into fits of silent mirth, pointing at poor Bella. Lottie,
unconcerned as ever, vainly tried to extract interest from the shop copy
of 'What's On.'

'Victoria,' came Butty's voice from below. 'Where's Mr Stein? Come
down.'

'He's washing, sir,' said Victoria, bending over the banisters.

'Oh, washing is he? first time I've caught him at it,' came the answer
with vicious jocularity. 'Here's a nice state of things; come down.'

Victoria went down the steps.

'Now then, why aren't these salt cellars put away? It's your job before
you come up.'

'If you please, sir, it's settling day,' said Victoria quietly, 'we open
this room again at six.'

'Oh, yes, s'pose you're right. I don't blame you. Never have to,' said
Butty grudgingly, then ingratiatingly.

'No, sir,' said Victoria.

'No, you're not like the others,' said Butty negligently coming closer
to her.

Victoria smiled respectfully, but edged a little away. Butty eyed her
narrowly, his lips smiling and a little moist. Then his hand suddenly
shot out and seized her by the arm, high up, just under the short
sleeve.

'You're a nice girl,' he said, looking into her eyes.

Victoria said nothing, but tried to free herself. She tried harder as
she felt on her forearm the moist warmth of the ball of Butty's thumb
softly caressing it.

'Let me go, sir,' she whispered, 'they can see you through the
banisters.'

'Never you mind, Vic,' said Butty drawing her towards him.

Victoria slipped from his grasp, ran to the stairs, but remembered to
climb them in a natural and leisurely manner.

'Cool, very cool,' said Butty, approvingly, 'fine girl, fine girl.' He
passed his tongue over his lips, which had suddenly gone dry.

When Victoria returned to her seat Lottie had not moved; Bella sat deep
in her own despair, but, behind the counter, Cora and Gladys were fixing
two stern pairs of eyes upon the favourite.




CHAPTER XV


'YES, sir, yes sir; I've got your order,' cried Victoria to a middle
aged man, whose face reddened with every minute of waiting. 'Steak, sir?
Yes, sir, that'll be eight minutes. And sautees, yes sir. Gladys, send
Dicky up to four. What was yours, sir? Wing twopence extra. No bread?
Oh, sorry, sir, thought you said Worcester.'

Victoria dashed away to the counter. This was the busy hour. In her
brain a hurtle of food stuffs and condiments automatically sorted itself
out.

'Now then, hurry up with that chop,' she snapped, thrusting her head
almost through the kitchen window.

''Oo are you,' growled the cook over her shoulder. 'Empress of Germany?
I don't think.'

'Oh, shut it, Maria, hand it over; now then Cora, where you pushing to?'
Victoria edged Cora back from the window, seized the chop and rushed
back to her tables.

The bustle increased; it was close on one o'clock, an hour when the
slaves drop their oars, and for a while leave the thwarts of many
groans. The Rosebud had nearly filled up. Almost every table was
occupied by young men, most of them reading a paper propped up against a
cruet, some a Temple Classic, its pages kept open by the weight of the
plate edge. A steady hum of talk came from those who did not read, and,
mingled with the clatter of knives and forks, produced that atmosphere
of mongrel sound that floats into the ears like a restless wave.

Victoria stepped briskly between the tables, collecting orders, deftly
making out bill after bill, smoothing tempers ruffled here and there by
a wrongful attribution of food.

'Yes sir, cutlets. No veg? Cauli? Yes sir.'

She almost ran up and down as half-past one struck and the young men
asked for coffees, small coffees, small blacks, china teas. From time to
time she could breathe and linger for some seconds by a youth who
audaciously played with the pencil and foil suspended from her waist. Or
she exchanged a pleasantry.

'Now then, Nevy, none of your larks.' Victoria turned round sharply and
caught a hand engaged in forcing a piece of sugar into her belt.

Nevy, otherwise Neville Brown, laughed and held her hand the space of a
second. 'I love my love with a V . . .' he began, looking up at her, his
blue eyes shining.

'Chuck it or I'll tell your mother,' said Victoria, smiling too. She
withdrew her hand and turned away.

'Oh, I say, Vic, don't go, wait a bit,' cried Neville, 'I want, now what
did I want?'

'Sure I don't know,' said Victoria, 'you never said what you wanted.
Want me to make up your mind for you?'

'Do, Vic, let our minds be one,' said Neville.

Victoria looked at him approvingly. Neville Brown deserved the nickname
of 'Beauty,' which had clung to him since he left school. Brown wavy
hair, features so clean cut as to appear almost effeminate, a broad
pointed jaw, all combined to make him the schoolgirl's dream. Set off by
his fair and slightly sunburnt face, his blue eyes sparkled with
mischief.

'Well, then, special and cream. Sixpence and serve you right.'

She laughed and stepped briskly away to the counter.

'You're in luck, Beauty,' said his neighbour with a sardonic air.

'Oh, it's no go, James,' replied Brown, 'straight as they make them.'

'Don't say she's not. But if I weren't a married man, I'd go for her
baldheaded.'

'Guess you would, Jimmy,' said Beauty, laughing, 'but you'd be wasting
your time. You wouldn't get anything out of her.'

'Don't you be too sure,' said Jimmy meaningly. He passed his hand
reflectively over his shaven lips.

'Well, well,' said Brown, 'p'raps I'm not an Apollo like you, Jimmy.'

Jimmy smiled complacently. He was a tall slim youth, well groomed about
the head, doggy about the collar and tie, neatly dressed in Scotch
tweed. His steady grey eyes and firm mouth, a little set and rigid, the
impeccability of all about him, had stamped business upon his face as
upon his clothes.

'Oh, I can't queer your pitch, Beauty,' he said a little grimly. 'I know
you, you low dog.'

Beauty laughed at the epithet. 'You've got no poetry about you, you
North Country chaps, when a girl's as lovely as Victoria--'

'As lovely as Victoria,' he repeated a little louder as Victoria laid
the cup of coffee before him.

'I know all about that,' said Victoria coolly, 'you don't come it over
me like that, Nevy.'

'Cruel, cruel girl,' sighed Neville. 'Ah, if you only knew what I
feel----'

Victoria put her hand on the tablecloth and, for a moment, looked down
into Neville's blue eyes.

'You oughtn't to be allowed out,' she pronounced, 'you aren't safe.'

Jimmy got up as if he had been sitting on a suddenly released spring.

'Spoon away both of you,' he said smoothly, 'I'm going over to Parsons'
to buy a racquet. Coming, Beauty? No, thought as much. Ta-ta, Vic.
Excuse me. Steak and kidney pie is tenpence, not a shilling. Cheer oh!
Beauty.'

'He's a rum one,' said Victoria, reflectively, as Jimmy passed the cash
desk.

'Jimmy? oh, he's all right,' said Neville, 'but look here Vic, I want to
speak to you. Let's go on the bust to-night. Dinner at the New Gaiety
and the theatre. What d'you think?'

Victoria looked at him for a second.

'You are a cure, Nevy,' she said.

'Then that's a bargain?' said Brown, eagerly snapping up her
non-refusal. 'Meet me at Strand Tube Station half-past seven. You're off
to-night, I know.'

'Oh you know, do you,' said Victoria smiling. 'Been pumping Bella I
suppose, like the rest. She's a green one, that girl.'

Neville looked up at her appealingly. 'Never mind how I know,' he said,
'say you'll come, we'll have a ripping time.'

'Well, p'raps I will and p'raps I won't,' said Victoria. 'Your bill,
Sir? Yessir.'

Victoria went to the next table. While she wrote she exchanged chaff
with the customers. One had not raised his eyes from his book; one stood
waiting for his bill; the other two, creatures about to be men, raised
languid eyes from their coffee cups. One negligently puffed a jet of
tobacco smoke upwards towards Victoria.

'Rotten,' she said briefly, 'I see you didn't buy those up West.'

'That's what _you_ think, Vic,' said the youth, 'fact is I got them in
the Burlington. Have one?'

'No thanks. Don't want to be run in.'

'Have a match then.' The young man held up a two inch vesta. 'What
price that, eh? pinched 'em from the Troc' last night.'

'You are a toff, Bertie,' said Victoria with unction. 'I'll have it as a
keepsake.' She took it and stuck it in her belt.

Bertie leaned over to his neighbour. 'It's a mash,' he said confidently.

'Take her to Kew,' said his friend, 'next stop Brighton.'

'Can't run to it, old cock,' said the youth. 'However we shall see.'

'Vic, Vic,' whispered Neville. But Victoria had passed him quickly and
was answering Mr Stein.

'Vat you mean by it,' he growled, 'making de gentleman vait for his
ticket, gn?'

'Beg your pardon, Mr Stein, I did nothing of the kind. The gentleman was
making _me_ wait while he talked to his friend.'

Victoria could now lie coolly and well. Stein looked at her savagely and
slowly walked away along the gangway between the tables, glowering from
right to left, looking managerially for possible complaints.

Victoria turned back from the counter. There, behind the coffee urn
where Cora presided, stood Burton, in his blue suit, tiny beads of
perspiration appearing on his forehead. His little blue eyes fixed
themselves upon her like drills seeking in her being the line of least
resistance where he could deliver his attack. She almost fled, as if she
had seen a snake, every facet of her memory causing the touch of his hot
warm hand to materialise.

'Vic,' said Neville's voice softly as she passed, 'is it yes?'

She looked down at the handsome face.

'Yes, Beauty Boy,' she whispered, and walked away.




CHAPTER XVI


'SILLY ass,' remarked Victoria angrily. She threw Edward's letter on the
table. Unconsciously she spoke the 'Rosebud' language, for contact had
had its effect upon her; she no longer awoke with a start to the fact
that she was speaking an alien tongue, a tongue she would once have
despised.

Edward had expressed his interest in her welfare in a letter of four
pages covered with his thin writing, every letter of which was legible
and sloped at the proper angle. He 'considered it exceedingly
undesirable for her to adopt a profession such as that of waitress.' It
was comforting to know that 'he was relieved to see that she had the
common decency to change her name, and he trusted. . . .' Here Victoria
had stopped.

'I can't bear it,' she said. 'I can't, can't, can't. Twopenny little
schoolmaster lecturing me, me who've got to earn every penny I get by
fighting for it in the dirt, so to say.' Every one of Edward's features
came up before her eyes, his straggling fair hair, his bloodless face,
his fumbling ineffective hands. This pedagogue who had stepped from
scholardom to teacherdom dared to blame or eulogise the steps she took
to earn her living, to be free to live or die as she chose. It was
preposterous. What did he know of life?

Victoria seized a pen and feverishly scribbled on a crumpled sheet of
paper.

    'My dear Edward,--What I do's my business. I've got to live and I
    can't choose. And you can be sure that so long as I can keep myself
    I shan't come to you for help or advice. Perhaps you don't know what
    freedom is, never having had any. But I do and I'm going to keep it
    even if it costs me the approval of you people who sit at home
    comfortably and judge people like me who want to be strong and free.
    But what's the good of talking about freedom to you.--

    Your affectionate sister,

    VICTORIA'.

She addressed the envelope and ran out hatless to post it at the pillar
box in Edgware Road. As she crossed the road homewards a horse bus
rumbled by. It carried an enormous advertisement of the new musical
comedy _The Teapot Girl_. 'A fine comedy indeed,' she thought, suddenly
a little weary.

As she entered her room, where a small oil lamp diffused a sphere of
graduated light, she was seized as by the throat by the oppression of
the silent summer night. The wind had fallen; not even a whirl of dust
stirred in the air. Alone and far away a piano organ in a square droned
and clanked Italian melody. She thought of Edward and of her letter.
Perhaps she had been too sharp. Once upon a time she would not have
written like that: she was getting common.

Victoria sat down on a little chair, her hands clasped together in her
lap, her eyes looking out at the blank wall opposite. This, nine
o'clock, was the fatal hour when the ghosts of her dead past paced like
caged beasts up and down in her small room, and the wraith of the day's
work rattled its chains. There had been earlier times when, in the first
flush of independence, she had sat down to gloat over what was almost
success, her liberty, her living earned by her own efforts. The rosiness
of freedom then wrapped around the dinge with wreaths of fancy, wreaths
that curled incessantly into harmonious shapes. But Victoria had soon
plumbed the depths of speculation and found that the fire of imagination
needs shadowy fuel for its shadowy combustion. Day by day her brain had
become less lissome. Then, instead of thinking for the joy of thought,
she had read some fourpenny-halfpenny novel, a paper even, picked up in
the Tube. Her mind was waking up, visualising, realising, and in its
troublous surgings made for something to cling to to steady itself. But
months rolled on and on, inharmonious in their sameness, unrelieved by
anything from the monotony of work and sleep. Certain facts meant
certain things and recurred eternally with their unchanging meaning; the
knock that awoke her, a knock so individual and habitual that her sleepy
brain was conscious on Sundays that she need not respond; the smell of
food which began to assail her faintly as she entered the 'Rosebud,'
then grew to pungency and reek at midday, blended with tobacco, then
slowly ebbed almost into nothingness: the dying day that was grateful to
her eyes when she left to go home, when things looked kindly round her.

When Victoria realised all of a sudden her loneliness in her island in
Star Street, something like the fear of the hunted had driven her out
into the streets. She was afraid to be alone, for not even books could
save her from her thoughts, those hounds in full cry. In such moods she
had walked the streets quickly, looking at nothing, maintaining her pace
over hills. Now and then she had suddenly landed on a slum, caught sight
of, all beery and bloody, through the chink of a black lane. But she
shunned the flares, the wet pavement, the orange peel that squelched
beneath her boots, afraid of the sight of too vigorous life.
Unconsciously she had sought the drug of weariness, and the cunning bred
of her dipsomania told her that the living were poor companions for her
soul. And, when at times a man had followed her, his eye arrested by
the lines of her face lit up by a gas lamp, he had soon tired of her
quick walk and turned away towards weaker vessels.

But even weariness, when abused, loses its power as a sedative. The
body, at once hardened and satiated, demands more every day as it craves
for increasing doses of morphia, for more food, more drink, more kisses,
more, ever more. Thus Victoria had reached her last stage when, sitting
alone in her room, she once more faced the emptiness where the ghosts of
her dead past paced like caged beasts and the wraith of the day's work
rattled its chains.

From this, now a state of mental instead of physical exhaustion, she was
seldom roused; and it needed an Edward come to judgment to stir her
sleepy brain into quick passion. Again and again the events of the day
would chase round and round maddeningly with every one of their little
details sharp as crystals. Victoria could almost mechanically repeat
some conversations, all trifling, similar, confined to half a dozen
topics; she could feel, too, but casually as an odalisque, the hot wave
of desire which surrounded her all day, evidenced by eyes that
glittered, fastened on her hands as she served, on her face, the curve
of her neck, her breast, her hips; eyes that devoured and divested her
of her meretricious livery. And, worse perhaps than that big primitive
surge which left her cold but unangered, the futility of others who
bandied with her the daily threadbare joke, who wearied her mind with
questions as to food, compelled her to sympathise with the vagaries of
the weather or were arch, flirtatious and dragged out of her tired mind
the necessary response. Even Butty and the moist warmth of him, even
Stein with his flaccid surly face, were better in their grossness than
these vapid youths, thoughtless, incapable of thought, incapable of
imagining thought, who set her down as an inferior, as a toy for games
that were not even those of men.

'Beauty' had been a disappointment. She had met him two or three times
since their first evening out. That night Neville, who was a young man
of the world, had pressed his suit so delicately, preserving in so
cat-like a manner his lines of retreat, that she had not been able to
snub him when inclined to. He had a small private income and knew how to
make the best of his good looks by means of gentle manners and smart
clothes. In the insurance office where he was one of those clerks who
have lately evolved from the junior stage, he was nothing in particular
and earned ten pounds a month. He had furnished two rooms on the Chelsea
edge of Kensington, belonged to an inexpensive club in St James's, had
been twice to Brussels and once to Paris; he smoked Turkish cigarettes,
deeming Virginia common; he subscribed to a library in connection with
Mudie's, and knew enough of the middle classes to exaggerate his
impression of them into the smart set. Perhaps he tried a little too
much to be a gentleman.

Neville Brown was strongly attracted to Victoria. He had vainly tried to
draw her out, and scented the lie in her carefully concocted story. He
knew enough to feel that she was at heart one of those women he met 'in
society,' perhaps a little better. Thus she puzzled him extremely, for
she was not even facile; he could hold her hand; she had not refused him
kisses, but he was afraid to secure his grip on her as a man carrying a
butterfly stirs not a finger for fear it should escape.

Victoria turned all this over lazily. Her instinct told her what manner
of man was Neville, for he hardly concealed his desires. Indeed their
relations had something of the charm of a masqued ball. She saw well
enough that Neville was not likely to remain content with kisses, and
viewed the inevitable battle with mixed feelings. She liked him;
indeed, in certain moods and when his blue eyes were at their bluest, he
attracted her magnetically. The reminiscent scent of Turkish tobacco on
her lips always drew her back towards him; and yet she was of her class,
shy of love, of all that is illicit because unacknowledged. She knew
very well that Neville would hardly ask her to marry him and that she
would refuse if he did; she knew less well what she would do if he asked
her to love him. When she analysed their relation she always found that
all lay on the lap of the gods.

In the loneliness of night her thoughts would fasten on him more
intently. He was youth and warmth and friendliness, words for the
silent, a hand to touch; better still he was a figment of Love itself,
with all its tenderness and crudity, its heat, all the quivers of its
body; he was soft scented as the mysterious giver of passionate gifts.
So, when Victoria lay down to try and sleep she rocked in the trough of
the waves of doubt. She could not tell into what hands she would give,
if she gave, her freedom, her independence of thought and deed, all that
security which is dear to the sheltered class from which she came. So,
far into the night she would struggle for sight, tossing from right to
left and left to right, thrusting away and then recalling the brown
face, the blue eyes and their promise.




CHAPTER XVII


THE days rolled on, and on every one, as their scroll revealed itself,
Victoria inscribed doings which never varied. The routine grew heavier
as she found that the events of a Monday were so similar to those of
another Monday that after a month she could not locate happenings. She
no longer read newspapers. There was nothing in them for her; not even
the mock tragedy of the death of an heir presumptive or the truer
grimness of a shipwreck could rouse in her an emotion. She did not care
for adventure: not because she thought that adventure was beneath her
notice, but because it could not affect her. A revolution could have
happened, but she would have served boiled cod and coffees to the
groundlings, wings of chicken to the luxurious, without a thought for
the upheaval, provided it did not flutter the pink curtains beyond which
hummed the world.

At times, for the holiday season was not over and work was rather slack,
Victoria had time to sit on her 'attendant' chair and to think awhile.
Reading nothing and seeing no one save Beauty and Mrs Smith, she was
thinking once more and thinking dangerously much. Often she would watch
Lottie, negligently serving, returning the ball of futility with a
carelessness that was almost grace, or Cora talking smart slang in young
lady-like tones.

'To what end?' thought Victoria. 'What are we doing here, wasting our
lives, I suppose, to feed these boys. For what's the good of feeding
them so that they may scrawl figures in books and catch trains and
perhaps one day, unless they've got too old, marry some dull girl and
have more children than they can keep? We girls, we're wasted too.' So
strongly did she feel this that, one day, she prospected the unexplored
ground of Cora's mind.

'What are you worrying about?' remarked Cora, after Victoria had tried
to inflame her with noble discontent. 'I don't say it's all honey, this
job of ours, but you can have a good time pretty well every night, can't
you, let alone Sundays?'

'But I don't want a good time,' said Victoria, suddenly inspired. 'I
want to feel I'm alive, do something.'

'Do what?' said Cora.

'Live, see things, travel.'

'Oh, we don't get a chance, of course,' said Cora. 'I'll tell you how it
is, Vic, you want too much. If you want anything in life you've got to
want nothing, then whatever you get good seems jolly good.'

'You're a pessimist, Cora,' said Victoria smiling.

'Meaning I see the sad side? Don't you believe it. Every cloud has a
silver lining, you know.'

'And every silver lining has a cloud,' said Victoria, sadly.

'Now, Vic,' answered Cora crossly, 'don't you go on like that. You'll
only mope and mope. And what's the good of that, I'd like to know.'

'Oh, I don't know,' said Victoria, 'I like thinking of things. Sometimes
I wish I could make an end of it. Don't you?'

'Lord, no,' said Cora, 'I make the best of it. You take my tip and don't
think too much.'

Victoria bent down in her chair, her chin upon her open palm. Cora
slapped her on the back.

'Cheer up,' she said, 'we'll soon be dead.'

Victoria had also attempted Gladys, but had discovered without surprise
that her association with Cora had equalised their minds as well as the
copper of their hair. Lottie never said much when attacked on a general
subject, while Bella never said anything at all. Since the day when
Victoria had attempted to draw her out on the fateful question 'What's
the good of anything?' Bella Prodgitt had looked upon Victoria as a
dangerous revolutionary. At times she would follow the firebrand round
the shop with frightened and admiring eyes. For her Victoria was
something like the brilliant relation of whom the family is proud
without daring to acknowledge him.

It fell to Gertie's lot to enlighten Victoria further on the current
outlook of life. It came about in this way. One Saturday afternoon
Victoria and Bella were alone on duty upstairs, for the serving of lunch
is then at a low ebb; the City makes a desperate effort to reach the
edge of the world to lunch peacefully and cheaply in its homes and
lodgings. Lottie and Gertie were taking the smoking room below.

It was nearly three o'clock. At one of the larger tables sat two men,
both almost through with their lunch. The elder of the two, a stout,
cheery-looking man, pushed away his cup, slipped two pennies under the
saucer and, taking up his bill, which Victoria had made out when she
gave him his coffee, went up to the cash desk. The other man, a
pale-faced youth in a blue suit, sat before his half emptied cup. His
hand passed nervously round his chin as he surveyed the room; his was
rather the face of a ferret, with a long upper lip, watery blue eyes,
and a weak chin. His forehead sloped a little and was decorated with
many pimples.

Victoria passed him quickly, caught up the stout man, entered the cash
desk and took his bill. He turned in the doorway.

'Well, Vic,' he said, 'when are we going to be married?'

'29th of February, if it's not a leap year,' she laughed.

'Too bad, too bad,' said the stout man, looking back from the open door
out of which he had already passed, 'you're the third girl who's said
that to me in a fortnight.'

'Serve you right,' said Victoria, looking into the mirror opposite,
'you're as bad as Henry the . . . .'

The door closed. Victoria did not finish her sentence. Her eyes were
glued to the mirror. In it she could only see a young man with a thin
face, decorated with many pimples, hurriedly gulping down the remains of
his cup of coffee. But a second before then she had seen something which
made her fetch a quick breath. The young man had looked round, marked
that her head was turned away; he had thrown a quick glance to the right
and the left, to the counter which Bella had left for a moment to go
into the kitchen; then his hand had shot out and, with a quick movement,
he had seized the stout man's pennies and slipped them under his own
saucer.

The young man got up. Victoria came up to him and made out his bill. He
took it without a word and paid it at the desk, Victoria taking his
money.

'Well, he didn't steal it, did he?' said Gertie, when Victoria told her
of the incident.

'No, not exactly. Unless he stole it from the first man.'

''Ow could he steal it if he didn't take it?' snapped Gertie.

'Well, he made believe to tip me when he didn't, and he made believe
that the first man was mean when it was he who was,' said Victoria. 'So
he stole it from the first man to give it me.'

'Lord, I don't see what yer after,' said Gertie. 'You ain't lost
nothing. And the first fellow he ain't lost nothing either. He'd _left_
his money.'

Victoria struggled for a few sentences. The little Cockney brain could
not take in her view. Gertie could only see that Victoria had had
twopence from somebody instead of from somebody else, so what was her
trouble?

'Tell yer wot,' said Gertie summing up the case, 'seems ter me the
fellow knew wot he was after. Dodgy sort of thing to do. Oughter 'ave
thought of the looking-glass though.'

Victoria turned away from Gertie's crafty little smile. There was
something in the girl that she could not understand; nor could Gertie
understand her scruple. Gertie helped her a little though to solve the
problem of waste; this girl could hardly be wasted, thought Victoria,
for of what use could she be? She had neither the fine physique that
enables a woman to bear big stupid sons, nor the intelligence which
breeds a cleverer generation; she was sunk in the worship of easy
pleasure, and ever bade the fleeting joy to tarry yet awhile.

'She isn't alive at all,' said Victoria to Lottie. 'She merely grows
older.'

'Well, so do we,' replied Lottie in matter of fact tones.

Victoria was compelled to admit the truth of this, but she did not see
her point clearly enough to state it. Lottie, besides, did nothing to
draw her out. In some ways she was Victoria's oasis in the desert, for
she was simple and gentle, but her status lymphaticus was permanent. She
did not even dream.

Victoria's psychological enquiries did not tend to make her popular. The
verdict of the 'Rosebud' was that she was a 'rum one,' perhaps a 'deep
one.' The staff were confirmed in their suspicions that she was a 'deep
one' by the obvious attentions that Mr Burton paid her. They were not
prudish, except Bella, who objected to 'goings on'; to be distinguished
by Butty was rather disgusting, but it was flattering too.

'He could have anybody he liked, the dirty old tyke,' remarked Cora. 'Of
course I'm not taking any,' she added in response to a black look from
Bella Prodgitt.

Victoria was not 'taking any' either, but she every day found greater
difficulty in repelling him. Burton would stand behind the counter near
the kitchen door during the lunch hour, and whenever Victoria had to
come up to it, he would draw closer, so close that she could see over
the whites of his little eyes a fine web of blood vessels. Every time
she came and went her skirts brushed against his legs; on her neck
sometimes she felt the rush of his bitter scented breath.

One afternoon, in the change room, as she was dressing alone to leave at
four, the door opened. She had taken off her blouse and turned with a
little cry. Burton had come in suddenly. He walked straight up to her,
his eyes not fixed on hers but on her bare arms. A faintness came over
her. She hardly had the strength to repel him, as without a word he
threw one arm round her waist, seizing her above the elbow with his
other hand. As he tried to draw her towards him she saw a few inches
from her face, just the man's mouth, red and wet, like the sucker of a
leech, the lips parted over the yellow teeth.

'Let me go!' she hissed, throwing her head back.

Burton ground her against him, craning his neck to touch her lips with
his.

'Don't be silly,' he whispered, 'I love you. You be my little girl.'

'Let me go.' Victoria shook him savagely.

'None of that.' Burton's eyes were glittering. The corners had pulled
upwards with rage.

'Let me go, I say.'

Burton did not answer. For a minute they wrestled. Victoria thrust him
back against the wall. She almost turned sick as his hand, slipping
round her, flattened itself on her bare shoulder. In that moment of
weakness Burton won, and, bending her over, kissed her on the mouth. She
struggled, but Burton had gripped her behind the neck. Three times he
kissed her on the lips. A convulsion of disgust and she lay motionless
in his embrace. There was a step on the stairs. A few seconds later
Burton had slipped out by the side door.

'What's up?' said Gladys suspiciously.

Victoria had sunk upon a chair, breathless, dishevelled, her face in her
hands.

'Nothing . . . I . . . I feel sick,' she faltered. Then she savagely
wiped her mouth with her feather boa.

Victoria was getting a grip of things. The brute, the currish brute. The
words rang in her head like a chorus. For days, the memory of the affray
did not leave her. She guarded, too, against any recurrence of the
scene.

Her hatred for Burton seemed to increase the fascination of Neville. She
did not think of them together, but it always seemed to happen that,
immediately after thrusting away the toad-like picture of the chairman,
she thought of the blue-eyed boy. Yet her relations with Neville were
ill-fated. Some days after the foul incident in the change room, Neville
took her for one of his little 'busts.' As it was one of her late nights
he called for her at a quarter past nine. They walked towards the west
and, on the stroke of ten, Neville escorted her into one of the enormous
restaurants that the Refreshment Rendezvous, known to London as the
Ah-Ah, runs as anonymously as it may.

Victoria was amused. The R. R. was the owner of a palace, built, if not
for the classes, certainly not for the masses. Its facing was of
tortured Portland stone, where Greek columns, Italian, Louis XIV and
Tudor mouldings blended with rich Byzantine gildings and pre-Raphaelite
frescoes. Inside too, it was all plush, mainly red; gold again; palms,
fountains, with goldfish and tin ducks. The restaurant was quite a fair
imitation of the Carlton, but a table d'hote supper was provided for
eighteen pence, including finger bowls in which floated a rose petal.

Neville and Victoria sat at a small table made for two. She surrendered
her feet to the clasp of his. Around her were about two hundred couples
and a hundred family parties. Most of the young men were elaborately
casual; they wore blue or tweed suits, a few, frock coats marred by
double collars; they had a tendency to loll and to puff the insolent
tobacco smoke of virginias towards the distant roof. Their young ladies
talked a great deal and looked about. There was much wriggling of
chairs, much giggling, much pulling up of long gloves over bare arms. In
a corner, all alone, a young man in well-fitting evening clothes was
consuming in melancholy some chocolate and a sandwich.

Neville plied Victoria with the major part of a half bottle of claret.

'Burgundy's the thing,' he said. 'More body in it.'

'Yes, it is good, isn't it? I mustn't have any more, though.'

'Oh, you're all right,' said Neville indulgently. 'Let's have some
coffee and a liqueur.'

'No, no liqueur for me.'

'Well, coffee then. Here, waiter.'

Neville struggled for some minutes. He utterly failed to gain the ear of
the waiters.

'Let's go, Beauty,' said Victoria. 'I don't want any coffee. No, really,
I'd rather not. I can't sleep if I take it.'

The couple walked up Regent Street, then along Piccadilly. Neville held
Victoria's arm. He had slipped his fingers under the long glove. She did
not withdraw her arm. His touch tickled her senses to quiescence if not
to satisfaction. They turned into the Park. Just behind the statue of
Achilles they stepped upon the grass and at once Neville threw his arm
round Victoria. It was a little chilly; mist was rising from the grass.
The trees stood blackly out of it, as if sawn off a few feet from the
ground. Neville stopped. A little smile was on his lips.

'Beauty boy,' said Victoria.

He drew her towards him and kissed her. He kissed her on the forehead,
then on the cheek, for he was a sybarite, in matters of love something
of an artist, just behind the ear, then passionately on the lips.
Victoria closed her eyes and threw one arm round his neck. She felt
exhilarated, as if gently warmed. They walked further westwards, and
with every step the fog thickened.

'Let's stop, Beauty,' said Victoria, after they had rather suddenly
walked up to a thicket. 'We'll get lost in the wilderness.'

'And wilderness were paradise enow,' murmured Neville in her ear.

Victoria did not know the hackneyed line. It sounded beautiful to her.
She laughed nervously and let Neville draw her down by his side on the
grass.

'Oh, let me go, Beauty,' she whispered. 'Suppose someone should come.'

Neville did not answer. He had clasped her to him. His lips were more
insistent on hers. She felt his hand on her breast.

'Oh, no, no, Beauty, don't, please don't,' she said weakly.

For some minutes she lay passive in his grasp. He had undone the back of
her blouse. His hand, cold and dry, had slipped along her shoulder,
seeking warmth.

Slowly his clasp grew harder; he used his weight. Victoria bent under
it. Something like faintness came over her.

'Victoria, Victoria, my darling.' The voice seemed far away. She was
giving way more and more. Not a blade of grass shuddered under its
shroud of mist. From the road came the roar of a motorbus, like a
muffled drum. Then she felt the damp of the grass on her back through
the opening of her blouse.

A second later she was sitting up. She had thrust Neville away with a
savage push under the chin. He seized her once more. She fought him,
seeing nothing to struggle with but a silent dark shadow.

'No, Beauty, no, you mustn't,' she panted.

They were standing then, both of them.

'Vic, darling, why not?' pleaded Neville gently, still holding her hand.

'I don't know. Oh, no, really I can't, Beauty.'

She did not know it, but generations of clean living were fighting
behind her, driving back and crushing out the forces of nature. She did
not know that, like most women, she was not a free being but the
great-granddaughter of a woman whose forbears had taught her that
illegal surrender is evil.

'I'm sorry, Beauty, . . . it's my fault,' she said.

'Oh, don't mention it,' said Neville icily, dropping her hand. 'You're
playing with me, that's all.'

'I'm not,' said Victoria, tears of excitement in her eyes. 'Oh, Beauty,
don't you understand. We women, we can't do what we like. It's so hard.
We're poor, and life is so dull and we wish we were dead. And then a man
comes like you and the only thing he can offer, we mustn't take it.'

'But why, why?' asked Beauty.

'I don't know,' said Victoria. 'We mustn't. At any rate I mustn't. My
freedom is all I've got and I can't give it up to you like that. I like
you, you know that, don't you, Beauty?'

Neville did not answer.

'I do, Beauty. But I can't, don't you see. If I were a rich woman it
would be different. I'd owe nobody anything. But I'm poor; it'd pull me
down and . . . when a woman's down, men either kick or kiss her.'

Neville shrugged his shoulders.

'Let's go,' he said.

Silently, side by side, they walked out of the park.




CHAPTER XVIII


OCTOBER was dying, its russet tints slowly merging into grey. Thin
mists, laden with fine specks of soot, had penetrated into the
'Rosebud.' Victoria, in her black business dress, under which she now
had to wear a vest which rather killed the tip-drawing power of her
openwork blouse, was setting her tables, quickly crossing red cloths
over white, polishing the glasses, arranging knives and forks in
artistic if inconvenient positions. It was ten o'clock, but business had
not begun, neither Mr Stein nor Butty having arrived.

'Cold, ain't it?' remarked Gertie.

'Might be colder,' said Bella Prodgitt.

Victoria came towards them, carrying a trayful of cruets.

''Ow's Beauty?' asked Gertie.

Victoria passed by without a word. This romance had not added to the
popularity of the chairman's favourite. Cora and Gladys were busy
dusting the counter and polishing the urns. Lottie, in front of a wall
glass, was putting the finishing touches to the set of her cap. The door
opened to let in Mr Stein, strapped tight in his frock coat, his top hat
set far back on his bullet head. He glared for a moment at the staff in
general, then without a word took a letter addressed to him from a rack
bearing several addressed to customers, and passed into the cash desk.
The girls resumed their polishing more busily. Quickly the night
wrappings fell from the chandeliers; the rosebud baskets were teased
into shape; the tables, loaded swiftly with their sets, grew more
becoming. Victoria, passing from table to table set on each a small vase
full of chrysanthemums.

'I say, Gladys, look at Stein,' whispered Cora to her neighbour. Gladys
straightened herself from under the counter and followed the direction
of Cora's finger.

'Lord,' she said, 'what's up?'

Bella's attention was attracted. She too was interested in her bovine
way. Mr Stein's attitude was certainly unusual. He held a sheet of paper
in one hand, his other hand clutching at his cheek so hard as to make
one of his eyes protrude. Both his eyes were fixed on the sheet of
paper, incredulous and horror-stricken.

'I say, Vic, what's the matter with the little swine?' suddenly said
Lottie, who had at length noticed him.

Victoria looked. Stein had not moved. For some seconds all the girls
gazed spellbound at the frozen figure in the cashbox. The silence of
tragedy was on them, a silence which arrests gesture and causes hearts
to beat.

'Lord, I can't stick this,' whispered Cora, 'there's something wrong.'
Quickly diving under the counter flap she ran towards the pay box where
Stein still sat unmoving, as if petrified. The little group of girls
watched her. Bella's stertorous breathing was plainly heard.

Cora opened the glass door and seized Stein by the arm.

'What's the matter, Mr Stein?' she said excitedly, 'are you feeling
queer?'

Stein started like a somnambulist suddenly awakened and looked at her
stupidly, then at the motionless girls in the shop.

'Nein, nein, lassen sie doch,' he muttered.

'Mr Stein, Mr Stein,' half-screamed Cora.

'Oh, get out, I'm all right, but the game's up. He's gone. The game's up
I tell up. The game's up.'

Cora looked at him round-eyed. Mr Stein's idioms frightened her almost
more than his German.

Stein was babbling, speaking louder and louder.

'Gone away, Burton. Bankrupt and got all the cash. . . . See? You get
the sack. Starve. So do I and my vife. . . . Ach, ach, ach, ach. Mein
Gott, Mein Gott, was solls. . . .'

Gertie watched from the counter with a heightened colour. Lottie and
Victoria, side by side, had not moved. A curious chill had seized
Victoria, stiffening her wrists and knees. Stein was talking quicker and
quicker, with a voice that was not his.

'Ach, the damned scoundrel . . . the schweinehund . . . he knew the
business was going to the dogs, ach, schweinehund, schweinehund. . . .'
He paused. Less savage his thoughts turned to his losses. 'Two hundred
shares he sold me. . . . I paid a premium . . . they vas to go to four
. . . ach, ach, ach. . . . I'm in the cart.'

Gertie sniggered gently. The idiom had swamped the tragedy. Stein looked
round at the sound. His face had gone leaden; his greasy plastered hair
was all awry.

'Vat you laughing at, gn?' he asked savagely, suddenly resuming his
managerial tone.

'Take it we're bust, ain't we?' said Gertie, stepping forward jauntily.

Stein lifted, then dropped one hand.

'Yes,' he said, 'bust.'

'Thank you for a week's wages, Mr Stein,' said Gertie, 'and I'll push
off, if yer don't mind.'

Stein laughed harshly. With a theatrical movement he seized the cash
drawer by the handle, drew it out and flung it on the floor. It was
empty.

'Oh, that's 'ow it is,' said Gertie. 'You're a fine gentleman, I don't
think. Bloomin' lot of skunks. What price that, mate?' she screamed
addressing Bella, who still sat in her chair, her cheeks rising and
falling like the sides of a cuttlefish. ''Ere's a fine go. Fellers comes
along and tikes in poor girls like me and you and steals the bread outer
their mouths. I'll 'ave yer run in, yer bloody foreigner.' She waved her
fist in the man's face. 'For two pins,' she screamed, 'I'd smash yer
fice, I'd. . . .'

'Chuck it, Gertie,' said Lottie, suddenly taking her by the arm, 'don't
you see he's got nothing to do with it?'

'Oh, indeed, Miss Mealymouth,' sneered Gertie, 'what I want is my money
. . . .'

'Leave him alone, Gertie,' said Victoria, 'you can't kick a man when
he's down.'

Gertie looked as if she were about to explode. Then the problem became
too big for her. In her little Cockney brain the question was insolubly
revolving: 'Can you kick a man when he's down. . .? Can you kick. . .?'

Mr Stein passed his hand over his forehead. He was pulling himself
together.

'Close de door, Cora,' he commanded. 'Now then, the company's bankrupt,
there's nothing in the cashbox. You get the push. . . . I get the push.'
His voice broke slightly. His face twitched. 'You can go. Get another
job.' He looked at Gertie.

'Put down your address. I give it to the police. You get something for
wages.' He slowly turned away and sat down on a chair, his eyes fixed on
the wall.

There was a repressed hubbub of talking. Then Gertie made the first move
and went up to the change room. She came back a minute or two later in
her long coat and large hat, carrying a parcel which none noticed as
being rather large for a comb. It contained the company's cap and apron
which, thought she, she might as well save from the wreck.

Gertie shook hands with Cora. 'See yer ter-night,' she said airily,
'same old place; 'bye Miss Prodgitt, 'ope "Force" 'll lift you out of
this.' She shook hands with Victoria, a trifle coldly, kissed Lottie,
threw one last malevolent look at Stein's back. The door closed behind
her. She had passed out of the backwater into the main stream.

Lottie, a little self consciously, pulled down the pink blinds, in token
of mourning. The 'Rosebud' hung broken on its stalk. Then, silently, she
went up into the change room, followed by Cora; a pace behind came
Victoria, all heavy with gloom. They dressed silently. Cora, without a
word, kissed them both, collected her small possessions into a reticule,
then shook hands with both and kissed them again. The door closed behind
her. When Lottie and Victoria went down into the shop, Cora also had
passed into the main stream. Gladys had gone with her.

The two girls hesitated for a moment as to whether they should speak to
Stein. It was almost dark, for the October light was too weak to filter
through the thick pink blinds. Lottie went up to the dark figure.

'Cheer up,' she said kindly, 'it's a long lane that has no turning.'

Stein looked up uncomprehendingly, then sank his head into his hands.

As Lottie and Victoria turned once more, the front door open behind
them, all they saw was Bella Prodgitt, lymphatic as ever, motionless on
her chair, like a watcher over the figure of the man silently mourning
his last hopes.

As they passed into the street the fresh air quickened by the coming
cold of winter, stung their blood to action. The autumn sunlight, pale
like the faded gold of hair that age has silvered, threw faint shadows
on the dry white pavements where little whirlwinds of dust chased and
figured like swallows on the wing.

Lottie and Victoria walked quickly down the city streets. It was
half-past eleven, a time when, the rush of the morning over, comparative
emptiness awaits the coming of the midday crowds; every minute they were
stopped by the blocks of drays and carriages which come in greater
numbers in the road as men grow fewer on the pavements. The unaccustomed
liberty of the hour did not strike them; for depression, a sense of
impotence before fatality, was upon them. Indeed, they did not pause
until they reached on the Embankment the spot where the two beautiful
youths prepare to fasten on one another their grip of bronze. They sat
down upon a seat and for a while remained silent.

'What are you going to do? Lottie?' asked Victoria.

'Look out for another job, of course,' said Lottie.

'In the same line?' said Victoria.

'I'll try that first,' replied Lottie, 'but you know I'm not particular.
There's all sorts of shops. Nice soft little jobs at photographers, and
manicuring showrooms, I don't mind.'

Victoria, with the leaden weight of former days pressing on her, envied
Lottie's calm optimism. She seemed so capable. But so far as she herself
was concerned, she did not feel sure that the 'other job' would so
easily be found. Indeed the memory of her desperate hunt for work
wrapped itself round her, cold as a shroud.

'But what if you can't get one,' she faltered.

'Oh, that'll be all right,' said Lottie, airily. 'I can live with my
married sister for a bit, but I'll find a job somehow. That doesn't
worry me. What are you thinking of?'

'I don't know,' said Victoria slowly, 'I must look out I suppose.'

'Hard up?' asked Lottie.

'No, not exactly,' said Victoria. 'I'm not rolling in wealth, you know,
but I can manage.'

'Well, don't you go and get stranded or anything,' said Lottie. 'It
doesn't do to be proud. It's not much I can do, but anyhow you let me
know if--' She paused. Victoria put her hand on hers.

'You're a bit of all right, Lottie,' she said softly, her feelings
forming naturally into the language of her adopted class. For a few
minutes the girls sat hand in hand.

'Well, I'd better be going,' said Lottie. 'I'm going to my married
sister at Highgate first. Time enough to look about this afternoon.'

The two girls exchanged addresses. Victoria watched her friend's slim
figure grow smaller and slimmer under her crown of pale hair, then
almost fade away, merge into men and women and suddenly vanish at a
turn, swallowed up. With a little shiver she got up and walked away
quickly towards the west. She was lonely suddenly, horribly so. One by
one, all the links of her worldly chain had snapped. Burton, the sensual
brute, was gone; Stein was perhaps sitting still numb and silent in the
darkened shop; Gertie, flippant and sharp, had sailed forth on life's
ocean, there to be tossed like a cork and like a cork to swim; now
Lottie was gone, cool and confident, to dangers underrated and unknown.
She stood alone.

As she reached Westminster Bridge a strange sense of familiarity
overwhelmed her. A well-known figure was there and it was horribly
symbolical. It was the old vagrant of bygone days, sitting propped up
against the parapet, clad in his filthy rags. From his short clay pipe,
at long intervals, he puffed wreaths of smoke into the blue air.




CHAPTER XIX


THE russet of October had turned into the bleak darkness of December.
The threat of winter was in the air; it hissed and sizzled in the bare
branches as they bent in the cold wind, shaking quivering drops of water
broadcast as if sowing the seeds of pain. Victoria stopped for a moment
on the threshold of the house in Star Street, looked up and down the
road. It was black and sodden with wet; the pavement was greasy and
glistening, flecked with cabbage stalks and orange peel. Then she looked
across at the small shop where, though it was Sunday, a tailor sat
cross-legged almost on a level with the street, painfully collecting
with weary eyes the avaricious light. His back was bowed with habit;
that and his bandy legs told of his life and revealed his being. In the
street, when he had time to walk there, boys mocked his shuffling gate,
thus paying popular tribute to the marks of honest toil.

Victoria stepped down to the pavement. A dragging sensation made her
look at her right boot. The sole was parting from the upper, stitch by
stitch. With something that was hardly a sigh Victoria put her foot down
again and slowly walked away. She turned into Edgware Road, followed it
northwards for a while, then doubled sharply back into Praed Street
where she lingered awhile before an old curiosity shop. She looked
between two prints into the shop where, in the darkness, she could see
nothing. Yet she looked at nothingness for quite a long while. Then,
listlessly, she followed the street, turned back through a square and
stopped before a tiny chapel almost at the end of Star Street. The deity
that follows with passionless eyes the wanderer in mean streets knew
from her course that this woman had no errand; without emotion the Being
snipped a few minutes from her earthly span.

By the side of the chapel sat an aged woman smothered in rags so many
and so thick that she was passing well clad. She was hunched up on a
camp stool, all string and bits of firewood. A small stove carrying an
iron tray told that her trade was selling roasted chestnuts; nothing
moved in the group; the old woman's face was brown and cracked as her
own chestnuts and there was less life in her than in the warm scent of
the roasting fruits which gratefully filled Victoria's nostrils.

The eight weeks which now separated Victoria from the old days at the
'Rosebud' had driven deeper yet into her soul her unimportance. She was
powerless before the world; indeed, when she thought of it at all, she
no longer likened herself to a cork tossed in the storm, but to a pebble
sunken and motionless in the bed of a flowing river.

Upon the day which followed her sudden uprooting Victoria had bent her
back to the task of finding work. She had known once more the despairing
search through the advertisement columns of the _Daily Telegraph_, the
skilful winnowing of chaff from wheat, sudden and then baffled hopes.
Her new professional sense had taken her to the shops where young women
are wanted to enhance the attraction of coffee and cigarettes. But the
bankruptcy of the 'Rosebud' was not an isolated case. The dishonesty of
Burton was not its cause but its consequence; the ship was sinking under
his feet when he deserted it after loading himself with such booty as he
could carry. Victoria had discovered grimly that the first result of a
commercial crisis is the submerging of those whose labours create a
commercial boom. Within a week of the 'Rosebud' disaster the eleven City
cafes of the 'Lethe, Ltd.' had closed their doors. Two small failures in
the West End were followed by a greater crash. The 'People's
Restaurants, Ltd.', eaten out by the thousand depots of the 'Refreshment
Rendezvous, Ltd.,' had filed a voluntary petition for liquidation; the
official liquidator had at once inaugurated a policy of 'retrenchment
and sound business management,' and, as a beginning, closed two hundred
shops in the City and West End. He proposed to exploit the suburbs, and,
after a triumphant amalgamation with the victorious 'Refreshment
Rendezvous,' to retire from law into peaceful directorships and there
collect innumerable guineas.

Victoria had followed the convulsion with passionate interest. For a
week the restaurant slump had been the fashion. The manager of every
surviving cafe in London had given it as his deliberate opinion that
trade would be all the better for it. The financial papers published
grave warnings as to the dangers of the restaurant business, to which
the Stock Exchange promptly responded by marking up the prices of the
survivors' shares. The Socialist papers had eloquently pleaded for
government assistance for the two thousand odd displaced girls; a
Cabinet Minister had marred his parliamentary reputation by endeavouring
to satisfy one wing of his party that the tearoom at South Kensington
Museum was not a Socialistic venture and the other wing that it was an
institution leading up to State ownership of the trade. A girl
discharged from the 'Lethe' had earned five guineas by writing a
thousand words in a hated but largely read daily paper. The interest had
been kept up by the rescue of a P.R. girl who had jumped off Waterloo
Bridge. Another P.R. girl, fired by example, had been more successful
in the Lea. This valuable advertisement enabled the Relief Fund to
distribute five shillings a head to many young persons who had been
waitresses at some time or another; there were rumours of a knighthood
for its energetic promoter.

It was in the midst of this welter that Victoria had found herself cast,
with her newly acquired experience a drug in the market, and all the
world inclined to look upon her as a kind of adventuress. Her employer's
failure was in a sense her failure, and she was handy to blame. For
three weeks she had doggedly continued her search for work, applying
first of all in the smart tea-rooms of the West, and every day she
became more accustomed to being turned away. Her soul hardened to
rebuffs as that of a beggar who learns to bear stoically the denial of
alms. After vainly trying the best Victoria had tried the worst, but
everywhere the story was the same. Every small restaurant keeper was
drawing his horns in, feverishly casting up trial balances; some of them
in their panic had damaged their credit by trying to arrange with their
banks for overdrafts they would never need. The slump was such that they
did not believe that the public would continue to eat and drink; they
retrenched employees instead of trying to carve success out of other
men's disasters.

Victoria, her teeth set, had faced the storm. She now explored districts
and streets systematically, almost house by house. And when her spirit
broke at the end of the week, as her perpetual walks, the buffeting of
rain and wind soiled her clothing, broke breaches into her boots,
chapped her hands as glove seams gave way, the only thing that could
brace her up was the shrinkage of her hoard by a sovereign. She placed
the coin on the mantlepiece after counting the remainder. Monday morning
saw it reduced to eleven shillings and sixpence. When the crisis came
she had taken in sail by exchanging into the second floor back, then
fortunately vacant, thus saving three shillings in rent.

The sight of her melting capital was a horror which she faced only once
a week, for at other times she thrust the thought away, but it intruded
every time with greater insistence. Untrained still in economy she found
it impossible to reduce her expenditure below a pound. After paying off
the mortgage of eight and sixpence for her room and breakfast, she had
to set aside three shillings for fares, for she dared not wade overmuch
in the December mud. The manageress of a cafe lost in Marylebone had
heard her kindly, but had looked at her boots plastered with mud, then
at the dirty fringes of her petticoats and said, regretfully almost,
that she would not do. That day had cost Victoria a pound almost
wrenched out of the money drawer. But this wardrobe though an asset, was
an incubus, and Victoria at times often hated it, for it cost so much in
omnibus fares that she paid for it every day in food stolen from her
body.

By the end of the seventh week Victoria had reduced her hoard to four
pounds. She now applied for work like an automaton, often going twice to
the same shop without realising it, at other times sitting for hours on
a park seat until the drizzle oozed from her hair into her neck. At the
end of the seventh week she had so lost consciousness of the world that
she walked all through the Sunday gloom without food. Then, at eight
o'clock, awakening suddenly to her need, she gorged herself with suet
pudding at an eating house in the Edgware Road, came back to Star Street
and fell into a heavy sleep.

About four she was aroused by horrible sickness which left her weak,
every muscle relaxed and every nerve strained to breaking point. Shapes
blacker than the night floated before her eyes; every passing milk
cart rattled savagely through her beating temples; twitchings at her
ankles and wrists, and the hurried beat of her heart shook the whole of
her body. She almost writhed on her bed, up and down, as if forcibly
thrown or goaded.

As the December dawn struggled through her window, diffusing over the
white wall the light of the condemned cell, she could bear it no more.
She got up, washed horrible bitterness from her mouth, clots from her
eyes. Then, swaying with weariness and all her pulses beating, she
strayed into the street, unseeing, her boots unbuttoned, into the daily
struggle.

As the blind man unguided, or the poor on the march, she went into the
East, now palely glowing over the chimney pots. She did not feel her
weariness. Her feet did not belong to her; she felt as if her whole body
were one gigantic wound vaguely aching under the chloroform. She walked
without intention, and as towards no goal. At Oxford Circus she stopped.
Her eye had unconsciously been arrested by the posters which the
newsvendor was deftly glueing down on the pavement. The crude colours of
the posters, red, green, yellow, shocked her sluggish mind into action.
One spoke of a great reverse in Nubia; another repeated the information
and added a football cup draw. A third poster, blazing red, struck such
a blow at Victoria that, for a wild moment, her heart seemed to stop. It
merely bore the words:

    P. R.
    REOPENS

Victoria read the two lines five or six times, first dully, then in a
whirl of emotion. Her blood seemed to go hot and tingle; the twitchings
of her wrists and ankles grew insistent. With her heart pounding with
excitement she asked for the paper in a choked voice, refusing the
halfpenny change. Backing a step or two she opened the paper. A sheet
dropped into the mud.

The newsvendor, grizzled and sunburnt right into the wrinkles, picked up
the sheet and looked at her wonderingly. From the other side a corpulent
policeman watched her with faint interest, reading her like a book. He
did not need to be told that Victoria was out of work; her face showed
that hope had come into her life.

Victoria read every detail greedily. The enterprising liquidator had
carried through the amalgamation of the People's Restaurants and the
Refreshment Rendezvous, and created the People's Refreshment Rendezvous.
He had done this so quietly and suddenly that the effect was a
thunderbolt. He had forestalled the decision of the Court, so that
agreements had been ready and signed on the Saturday evening, while
leave had obscurely been granted on the Friday. Being master of the
situation the liquidator was re-opening fifty-five of the two hundred
closed shops. The paper announced his boast that 'by ten o'clock on
Monday morning fifty-five P. R. R.'s would be flying the flag of the
scone and cross buns.' The paper also hailed this pronouncement as
Napoleonic.

Victoria feverishly read the list of the rescued depots. They were
mainly in Oxford Street and Bloomsbury. Indeed, one of them was in
Princes Street. A flood of clarity seemed to come over Victoria's brain.
It was impossible for the P. R. or P. R. R. or whatever it had become,
to have secured a staff on the Sunday. No doubt they proposed to engage
it on the spot and to rush the organisation into working order so as to
capture at the outset the _succes de curiosite_ which every London daily
was beating up in the breast of a million idle men and women. Clutching
the paper in her hand she ran across Oxford Street almost under the
wheels of a motor lorry. She turned into Princes Street, and hurled
herself against the familiar door, clutching at the handle.

There was another girl leaning against the door. She was tall and slim.
Her fair hair went to sandiness. Her black coat was dusty and stained.
Her large blue eyes started from her colourless face, pale lipped,
hollow under the cheekbones. Victoria recovered her breath and put her
hair straight feverishly. A short dark girl joined the group, pressing
her body close against them. Then two more. Then, one by one, half a
dozen. Victoria discovered that her boots were undone, and bent down to
do them up with a hairpin. As she struggled with numb fingers her rivals
pressed upon her with silent hostility. As she straightened herself, the
throng suddenly thrust her away from the door. Victoria recovered
herself and drove against them gritting her teeth. The fair girl was
ground against her; but Victoria, full of her pain and bread lust,
thrust her elbow twice into the girl's breast. She felt something like
the rage of battle upon her and its joy as the bone entered the soft
flesh like a weapon.

'Now then, steady girls,' said the voice of the policeman, faint like a
dream voice.

'Blime, ain't they a 'ot lot!' said another dream voice, a loafer's.

The crowd once more became orderly. Though quite a hundred girls had now
collected hardly any spoke. In every face there was tenseness, though
the front ranks showed most ferocity in their eyes and the late-comers
most weariness.

'Where you shovin'?' asked a sulky voice.

There was a mutter that might have been a curse. Then silence once more;
and the girls fiercely watched for their bread, looking right and left
like suspicious dogs. A spruce young warehouseman slowly reviewed the
girls and allowed his eyes to linger approvingly on one or two. He
winked approvingly at the fair girl but she did not respond. She stood
flat against the door, every inch of her body spread so as to occupy as
much space as she could.

Then, half-past seven, a young man and a middle-aged woman shouldering
through the wedged mass, the fierce rush into the shop and there the
gasp behind closed doors among the other winners, hatless, their clothes
torn, their bodices ripped open to the stays, one with her hair down and
her neck marked here and there by bleeding scratches. Then, after the
turmoil of the day among the strangeness, without rest or food, to make
holiday for the Londoners, a night heavy as lead and a week every day
more mechanical, Victoria had returned to the treadmill and, within a
week, knew it.

. . . . The clock struck five. Victoria awoke from her dream epic. She
had won her battle and sailed into harbour. Its waters were already as
horribly still as those of a stagnant pool. The old chestnut vendor sat
motionless on her seat of firewood and string. Not a thought chased over
her gnarled brown face. From the stove came the faint pungent smell of
the charring peel.




CHAPTER XX


A FORTNIGHT later Victoria had returned to the City. Most of the old
P.R's had reopened, after passing under the yoke. A coat of paint had
transformed them into P.R.R's. In fact their extinction was complete;
nothing was left of them but the P. and the chairmanship of the
amalgamated company, for their chairman was an earl and part of the
goodwill. The P.R. had apparently been bought up at a fair rate. Its
shares having fallen to sixpence, most of the shareholders had lost
large sums; whereas the directors and their friends, displaying the
acumen that is sometimes found among directors, had quietly bought the
shares up by the thousand and by putting them into the new company had
realised large profits. As the failure had happened during the old year
and most of the shops had been reopened in the new, it was quite clear
that the catering trade was expanding. It was a startling instance of
commercial progress.

Within a week the P.R.R. decided to start once more in the City.
Victoria, by her own request, was transferred to Moorgate Street. She
did not like the neighbourhood of Oxford Circus; it was unfamiliar
without being stimulating. She objected too to serving women. If she
must serve at all she preferred serving men. She did not worship men;
indeed the impression they had left on her was rather unpleasant. The
subalterns at the mess were dull, Mr Parker a stick, Bobby was Bobby,
Burton a cur, Stein a lout, Beauty, well perhaps Beauty was a little
better and Cairns worthy of a kind thought; but all the others, boys and
half men with their futile talk, their slang cribbed from the music
halls, their affectations, their loud ties, were nothing but the ballast
on which the world has founded its permanent way. Yet a mysterious sex
instinct made Victoria prefer even them to the young ladies who
frequented Princes Street. It is better to be made love to insolently
than to be ordered about.

The Moorgate P.R.R. was one of the curious crosses between the ice cream
shop and the chop house where thirty bob a week snatches a sixpenny
lunch. It was full of magnificent indifference. You could bang your
twopence for a small coffee, or luxuriate in steak and kidney pie,
boiled (_i.e._ potatoes), stewed prunes and cream, and be served with
the difference of interest that the recording angel may make between No.
1,000,000 and 1,000,001. You were seldom looked at, and, if looked at,
forgotten. It was as blatant as the 'Rosebud' had been discreet. Painted
pale blue, it flaunted a plate glass window full of cakes, packets of
tea, pounds of chocolate, jars of sweets; some imitation chops garnished
with imitation parsley, and a chafing dish full of stage eggs and bacon
held out the promise of strong meats. Enormous urns, polished like
silver, could be seen from the outside emitting clouds of steam; under
the chafing dish too came up vaporous jets.

Inside, the P.R.R. recalled the wilderness and the animation of a bank.
To the blue and red tesselated floor were fastened many marble-topped
tables squeezed so close together that when a customer rose to leave he
created an eddy among his disturbed fellows. The floor was swamped with
chairs which, during the lunch hour, dismally grated on the tiled floor.
It was clean; for, after every burst of feeding, the appointed scavenger
swept the fallen crusts, fragments of pudding, cigarette ends and
banana skins into a large bin. This bin was periodically emptied and
the contents sent to the East End, whether to be destroyed or to be used
for philanthropic purposes is not known.

The girls were trained to quick service here. Victoria found no
difficulty in acquiring the P.R.R. swing, for she had not to memorise
the variety of dishes which the more fastidious Rosebudders demanded.
Her mental load seldom went beyond small teas, a coffee or two, half a
veal and ham pie, sandwiches and porridge. There was no considering the
bill of fare. It stood on every table, immutable as a constitution and
as dull. At the P.R.R., a man absorbed a maximum of stodgy food, paid
his minimum of cash and vanished into an office to pour out the
resultant energy for thirty bob a week. As there were no tips Victoria
soon learned that courtesy was wasted, so wasted none.

The P.R.R. did not treat its girls badly--in this sense, that it treated
them no worse than its rivals did theirs; it practised commercial
morality. Victoria received eight shillings a week, to which good
Samaritans added an average of fourteen pence, dropped anonymously into
the unobtrusive box near the cash desk. At the 'Rosebud' tips averaged
fourteen shillings a week, but then they were given publicly.

Besides her wages she was given all her meals, on a scale suited to
girls who waited on Mr Thirty Bob a Week. Her breakfast was tea, bread
and margarine; her dinner, cold pudding or pie, according to the
unpopularity of the dishes among the customers, washed down once more
with tea and sometimes followed by stewed fruit if the quantity that
remained made it clear that some would be left over. The day ended with
supper, tea, bread and cheese--a variety of Cheddar which the company
bought by the ton on account of its peculiar capacity for swelling and
producing a very tolerable substitute for repletion.

As Victoria was now paid less than half her former wages she was
expected to work longer hours. The P. R. R. demanded faithful service
from half-past eight in the morning to nine in the evening, except on
one day when freedom was earned at six. Victoria was driven to
generalise a little about this; it struck her as peculiar that an
increase of work should synchronise with a decrease of pay, but the
early steps in any education always fill the pupil with wonderment.

Yet she did not repine, for she remembered too well the black days of
the old year when the wolf slunk round the house, coming every day
nearer to her door. She had beaten him off and there still was joy in
the thought of that victory. Her frame of mind was quiescent, tempered
still with a feeling of relief. This she shared with her companions, for
every one of them had known such straits as hers and worse. They had
come back to the P. R. R. filled with exceeding joy; craving bread they
had been given buns.

The Moorgate P. R. R. was a big depot. It boasted, in addition to the
ground floor, two smoking rooms, one on the first floor and one
underground, as well as a ladies' dining-room on the second floor. It
had a staff of twenty waitresses, six of whom were stationed in the
underground smoking-room; Victoria was one of these. A virile manageress
dominated them and drove with splendid efficiency a concealed kitchen
team of four who sweated in the midst of steam in an underground
stokehole.

Victoria's companions were all old P. R's except Betty. They all had
anything between two and five years' service behind them. Nelly, a big
raw boned country girl, was still assertive and loud; she had good looks
of the kind that last up to thirty, made up of fine coarse healthy
flesh lines, tending to redden at the nostrils and at the ears; her
hands were shapely still, though reddened and thickened by swabbing
floors and tables. Maud was a poor little thing, small boned with a
flaccid covering of white flesh, inclined to quiver a little when she
felt unhappy; her eyes were undecidedly green, her hair carroty in the
extreme. She had a trick of drawing down the corners of her mouth which
made her look pathetic. Amy and Jenny were both short and darkish,
inclined to be thin, always a little tired, always willing, always in a
state neither happy nor unhappy. Both had nearly five years' experience
and could look forward to another fifteen or so. They had no
assertiveness, so could not aspire to a managerial position, such as
might eventually fall to the share of Nelly.

Betty was an exception. She had not acquired the P. R. R. manner and
probably never would. The daughter of a small draper at Horley, she had
lived through a happy childhood, played in the fields, been to a little
private school. Her father had strained every nerve to face on the one
hand the competition of the London stores extending octopus-like into
the far suburbs, on the other that of the pedlars. Caught between the
aristocracy and the democracy of commerce he had slowly been ground
down. When Betty was seventeen he collapsed through worry and overwork.
His wife attempted to carry on the business after his death, bravely
facing the enemy, discharging assistants, keeping the books, impressing
Betty to dress the window, then to clean the shop. But the pressure had
become too great, and on the day when the mortgagees foreclosed she
died. Nothing was left for Betty except the clothes she stood in. Some
poor relatives in London induced her to join the 'Lethe.' That was three
years ago and now she was twenty.

Betty was the tall slim girl into whose breast Victoria had thrust her
elbow when they were fighting for bread among the crowd which surged
round the door of the Princes Street depot. She was pretty, perhaps a
little too delicately so. Her sandy hair and wide open china blue eyes
made one think of a doll; but the impression disappeared when one looked
at her long limbs, her slightly sunken cheeks. She had a sweet
disposition, so gentle that, though she was a favourite, her fellows
despised her a little and were inclined to call her 'poor Betty.' She
was nearly always tired; when she was well she was full of simple and
honest merriment. She would laugh then if a motor bus skidded or if she
saw a Highlander in a kilt. She had just been shifted to the Moorgate
Street P.R.R. From the first the two girls had made friends and Victoria
was deeply glad to meet her again. The depth of that gladness is only
known to those who have lived alone in a hostile world.

'Betty,' said Victoria the first morning, 'there's something I want to
say. I've had it on my mind. Do you remember the first time we met
outside the old P.R. in Princes Street?'

'Don't I?' said Betty. 'We had a rough time, didn't we?'

'We had. And, Betty, perhaps you remember . . . I hit you in the chest.
I've thought of it so often . . . and you don't know how sorry I am when
I think of it.'

'Oh, I didn't mind,' said Betty, a blush rising to her forehead, 'I
understand. I was about starving, you know, I thought you were the
same.'

'No, not starving exactly,' said Victoria, 'mad rather, terrified, like
a sheep which the dog's driving. But I beg your pardon, Betty, I
oughtn't to have done it.'

Betty put her hand gently on her companion's.

'I understand, Vic,' she said, 'it's all over now; we're friends, aren't
we?'

Victoria returned the pressure. That day established a tender link
between these two. Sometimes, in the slack of three o'clock, they would
sit side by side for a moment, their shoulders touching. When they met
between the tables, running, their foreheads beaded with sweat, they
exchanged a smile.

The customers at the P.R.R. were so many that Victoria could hardly
retain an impression of them. A few were curious though, in the sense
that they were typical. One corner of the room was occupied during the
lunch hour by a small group of chess players; five of the six boards
were regularly captured by them. They sat there in couples, their eyes
glued to the board, allowing the grease to cake slowly on their food;
from time to time one would swallow a mouthful, sometimes dropping
morsels on the table. These he would brush away dreamily, his thoughts
far away, two or three moves ahead. Round each table sat a little group
of spectators who now and then shifted their plates and cups from table
to table and watched the games. At times, when a game ended, a table was
involved in a fierce discussion: gambits, Morphy's classical games, were
thrown about. On the other side of the room the young domino-players
noisily played matador, fives and threes, or plain matching, would look
round and mutter a gibe at the enthusiasts.

Others were more personal. One, a repulsive individual, Greek or
Levantine, patronised one of Betty's tables every day. He was fat,
yellow and loud; over his invariably dirty hands drooped invariably
dirty cuffs; on one finger he wore a large diamond ring.

'It makes me sick sometimes,' said Betty to Victoria, 'you know he eats
with both hands and drops his food; he snuffles too, as he eats, like a
pig.'

Another was an old man with a beautiful thin brown face and white hair.
He sat at a very small table, so small that he was usually alone. Every
day he ordered dry toast, a glass of milk and some stewed fruit. He
never read or smoked, nor did he raise his eyes from the table. An
ancient bookkeeper perhaps, he lived on some principle.

Most of the P. R. R. types were scheduled however. They were mainly
young men or boys between fifteen and twenty. All were clad in blue or
dark suits, wore flannel shirts, dickeys and no cuffs. They would
congregate in noisy groups, talk with furious energy, and smoke Virginia
cigarettes with an air of daredevilry. Now and then one of these would
be sitting alone, reading unexpected papers such as the _Times_,
borrowed from the office. Spasmodically, too, one would be seen
improving his mind. Victoria, within six months, noticed three starts on
the part of one of the boys; French, book-keeping and electrical
engineering.

Many were older than these. There were little groups of young men rather
rakishly but shabbily dressed; often they wore a flower in their
buttonhole. The old men were more pathetic; their faces were
expressionless; they came to eat, not to feast.

Victoria and Betty had many conversations about the customers. Every day
Victoria felt her faculty of wonder increase; she was vaguely conscious
already that men had a tendency to revert to types, but she did not
realise the influence the conditions of their lives had upon them.

'It's curious,' she once said to Betty, as they left the depot together,
'they're so much alike.'

'I suppose they are,' said Betty. 'I wonder why?'

'I'm not sure,' said Victoria, 'but it seems to me somehow that they
must be born different but that they become alike because they do the
same kind of work.'

'It's rather awful, isn't it,' said Betty.

'Awful? Well, I suppose it is. Think of it, Betty. There's old Dry
Toast, for instance. I'm sure he's been doing whatever he does do for
thirty or forty years.'

'And'll go on doing it till he dies,' murmured Betty.

'Or goes into the workhouse,' added Victoria. A sudden and horrible
lucidity had come over her. 'Yes, Betty, that's what it means. The boys
are going to be like the old man; we see them every day becoming like
him. First they're in the twenties and are smart and read the sporting
news; then they seem to get fat and don't shave every day, because they
feel it's getting late and it doesn't matter what they look like; their
hair grows grey, they take up chess or German, or something equally
ridiculous. They don't get a chance. They're born and as soon as they
can kick they're thrust in an office to do the same thing every day.
Nobody cares; all their employers want them to do is to be punctual and
do what they're paid thirty bob a week for. Soon they don't try; they
die, and the employers fill the billet.'

'How do you know all this, Vic?' said Betty, eyeing her fearfully. 'It
seems so true.'

'Oh, I just felt it suddenly, besides . . .' Victoria hesitated.

'But is it right that they should get thirty bob a week all their lives
while their employers are getting thousands?' asked Betty, full of
excitement.

'I don't know,' said Victoria slowly. Betty's voice had broken the
charm. She could no longer see the vision.




CHAPTER XXI


THE days passed away horribly long. Victoria was now an automaton; she
no longer felt much of sorrow or of joy. Her home life had been reduced
to a minimum, for she could no longer afford the luxury of 'chambers in
the West End' as Betty put it. She had moved to Finsbury; where she had
found a large attic for three shillings a week, in a house which had
fallen from the state of mansion for a City merchant to that of tenement
dwelling. For the first time since she returned to London she had
furnished her own room. She had bought out the former tenant for one
pound. For this sum she had entered into possession of an iron bedstead
with a straw mattress, a thick horse cloth, an iron washstand supplied
with a blue basin and a white mug, an old armchair and red curtains. She
had no sheets, which meant discomfort but saved washing. A chair had
cost her two shillings; she needed no cupboard as there was one in the
wall; in lieu of a chest of drawers she had her trunk; her few books
were stacked on a shelf made out of the side of a packing case and
erected by herself. She got water from the landing every morning except
when the taps were frozen. There was no fireplace in the attic, but in
the present state of Victoria's income this did not matter much.

Every morning she rose at seven, washed, dressed. As time went on she
ceased to dust and sweep every morning. First she postponed the work to
the evening, then to the week end. On Sundays she breakfasted off a
stale loaf bought among the roar of Farrington Street the previous
evening. A little later she introduced a spirit lamp for tea; it was a
revolution, even though she could never muster enough energy to bring in
milk.

After the first flush of possession, the horrible gloom of winter had
engulfed her. Sometimes she sat and froze in the attic, and, in despair,
went to bed after vainly trying to read Shakespeare by the light of a
candle: he did not interest her much. At other times the roaring
streets, the flares in the brown fog, the trams hurtling through the
air, their headlights blazing, had frightened her back to her home. On
Sundays, after luxuriating in bed until ten, she usually went to meet
Betty who lived in a club in Soho. Together they would walk in the
parks, or the squares, wherever grass grew. At one o'clock Betty would
introduce her as a guest at her club and feast her for eightpence on
roast beef and pudding, tea, and bread and butter. Then they would start
out once more towards the fields, sometimes towards Hampstead Heath, or
if it rained seek refuge in a museum or a picture gallery. When they
parted in the evening, Victoria kissed her affectionately. Betty would
then hold the elder woman in her arms, hungrily almost, and softly kiss
her again.

The only thing that parted these two at all was the mystery which Betty
guessed at. She knew that Victoria was not like the other girls; she
felt that there was behind her friend's present condition a past of
another kind, but when she tried to question Victoria, she found that
her friend froze up. And as she loved her this was a daily grief; she
looked at Victoria with a question in her eyes. But Victoria would not
yield to the temptation of confiding in her; she had adopted a new class
and was not going back on it.

Besides Betty there was no one in her life. None of the other girls
were able to meet her on congenial ground; Beauty had not got her
address; and, though she had his, she was too afraid of complicating her
life to write to him. She had sent her address to Edward as a matter of
form, but he had not written; apparently her desire for freedom had
convinced him that his sister was mad. None of the men at the P.R.R. had
made any decided advances to her. She could still catch every day a
glitter in the eye of some youth, but her maturity discouraged the boys,
and the older men were mostly too deeply sunk in their feeding and
smoking to attempt gallantry. Besides: Victoria was no longer the
cream- flower of olden days; she was thinner; her hands too were
becoming coarse owing to her having to swab tables and floors; much
standing and the fetid air of the smoking-room were making her sallow.

Soon after Victoria entered into possession of her 'station' she knew
most of her customers, knew them, that is, as much as continual rushes
from table to counter, from floor to floor, permits. The casuals, mostly
young, left no impression; lacking money but craving variety these
youths would patronise every day a different P.R.R., for they hoped to
find in a novel arrangement of the counter, a new waitress, larger or
smaller quarters, the element of variety which the bill of fare
relentlessly denied them. The older men were more faithful if no more
grateful. One of them was a short thin man, looking about forty, who for
some hidden reason had aroused Victoria's faded interest. His appearance
was somewhat peculiar. His shortness, combined with his thinness and
breadth, was enough to attract attention. Standing hardly any more than
five foot five, he had disproportionately broad shoulders, and yet they
were so thin that the bones showed bowed at the back. Better fed, he
would have been a bulky man. His hair was dark, streaked with grey; and,
as it was getting very thin and beginning to recede, he gave the
impression of having a very high forehead. His eyes were grey, set
rather deep under thick eyebrows drawn close together into a permanent
frown. Under his rather coarse and irregular nose his mouth showed
closely compressed, almost lipless; a curious muscular distortion had
tortured into it a faint sneer. His hands were broad, a little coarse
and very hairy.

Victoria could not say why she was interested in this man. He had no
outward graces, dressed poorly and obviously brushed his coat but
seldom; his linen, too, was not often quite clean. Immediately on
sitting down at his usual table he would open a book, prop it up against
the sugar bowl, and begin to read. His books did not tell Victoria much;
in two months she noted a few books she did not know, _News from
Nowhere_, _Fabian Essays_, _The Odyssey_, and a book with a long title
the biggest printed word of which was _Niestze_ or _Niesche._ Victoria
could never remember this word, even though her customer read the book
every day for over a month. _The Odyssey_ she had heard of, but that did
not tell her anything.

She had found out his name accidentally. One day he had brought down
three books and had put two under his seat while he read the third. Soon
after he had left, reading still while he went up the stairs. Victoria
found the books under the chair. One was a _Life of William Morris_, the
other the _Vindication of the Rights of Women_. On the flyleaf of each
was written in bold letter. 'Thomas Farwell.'

Victoria could not resist glancing at the books during her half hour for
lunch. The _Life of William Morris_ she did not attempt, remembering her
experiences at school with 'Lives' of any kind: they were all dull.
Marie Wollstonecraft's book seemed more interesting, but she seemed to
have to wade through so much that she had never heard of and to have to
face a style so crabbed and congested that she hardly understood it.
Yet, something in the book interested her, and it was regretfully that
she handed the volumes back to Farwell when he called for them at
half-past six. He thanked her in half a dozen words and left.

Farwell continued regular in his attendance. He came in on the stroke of
one, left at half-past one exactly, lighting his pipe as he got up. He
never spoke to anyone; when Victoria stood before his table he looked at
her for a moment, gave his order and cast his eyes down to his book.

It was about three weeks after the incident of the books that he spoke
to Victoria. As he took up the bill of fare he said suddenly:

'Did you read the _Vindication_?'

'I did glance through it,' said Victoria, feeling, she did not know why,
acutely uncomfortable.

'Ah? interesting, isn't it? Pity it's so badly written. What do you
think of it?'

'Well, I hardly know,' said Victoria reflectively; 'I didn't have time
to read much; what I read seemed true.'

'You think that a recommendation, eh?' said Farwell, his lips parting
slightly. 'I'd have thought you saw enough truth about life here to like
lies.'

'No,' said Victoria, 'I don't care for lies. The nastier a thing is, the
better everybody should know it; then one day people will be ashamed.'

'Oh, an optimist!' sniggered Farwell. 'Bless you, my child. Give me
fillets of plaice, small white and cut.'

For several days after this Farwell took no notice of Victoria. He gave
his order and opened his book as before. Victoria made no advances. She
had talked him over with Betty, who had advised her to await events.

'You never know,' she had remarked, as a clinching argument.

A day or two later Victoria was startled by Farwell's arrival at
half-past six. This had never happened before. The smoking-room was
almost empty, as it was too late for teas and a little too early for
suppers. Farwell sat down at his usual table and ordered a small tea. As
Victoria returned with the cup he took out a book from under two others
and held it out.

'Look here,' he said a little nervously. 'I don't know whether you're
busy after hours, but perhaps you might like to read this.' The wrinkles
in his forehead expanded and dilated a little.

'Oh, thank you so much. I would like to read it,' said Victoria with the
ring of earnestness in her voice. She took the book; it was a battered
copy of _No. 5 John Street_.

'No. 5? What a queer title,' she said.

'Queer? not at all,' said Farwell. 'It only seems queer to you because
it is natural and you're not used to that. You're a number in the P.R.R.
aren't you? Just like the house you live in. And you're just number so
and so; so am I. When we die fate shoves up the next number and it all
begins over again.'

'That doesn't sound very cheerful, does it?' said Victoria.

'It isn't cheerful. It's merely a fact.'

'I suppose it is,' said Victoria. 'Nobody is ever missed.'

Farwell looked at her critically. The platitude worried him a little; it
was unexpected.

'Yes, exactly,' he stammered. 'Anyhow, you read it and let me know what
you think of it.' Thereupon he took up another book and began to read.

When he had gone Victoria showed her prize to Betty.

'You're getting on,' said Betty with a smile. 'You'll be Mrs Farwell one
of these days, I suppose.'

'Don't be ridiculous, Betty,' snapped Victoria, 'why, I'd have to wash
him.'

'You might as well wash a husband as a dish,' said Betty smoothly.
'Anyhow, the other girls are talking.'

'Let them talk,' said Victoria rather savagely, 'so long as they don't
talk to me.'

Betty took her hand gently.

'Sorry, Vic dear,' she said. 'You're not angry with me, are you?'

'No, of course not, you silly,' said Victoria laughing. 'There run away,
or that old gent at the end'll take a fit.'

Farwell did not engage her in conversation for a few days, nor did she
make any advances to him. She read through _No. 5 John Street_ within
three evenings; it held her with a horrible fascination. Her first
plunge into realistic literature left her shocked as by a cold bath. In
the early days, at Lympton, she had subsisted mainly on Charlotte Young
and Rhoda Broughton. In India, the mess having a subscription at
Mudie's, she had had good opportunities of reading; but, for no
particular reason, except perhaps that she was newly married and busy
with regimental nothings, she had ceased to read anything beyond the
_Sketch_ and the _Sporting and Dramatic_. Thus she had never heard of
the 'common people' except as persons born to minister to the needs of
the rich. She had never felt any interest in them, for they spoke a
language that was not hers. _No. 5 John Street_, coming to her a long
time after the old happy days, when she herself was struggling in the
mire, was a horrible revelation; it showed her herself, and herself not
as 'Tilda towering over fate but as Nancy withering in the indiarubber
works for the benefit of the Ridler system.

She read feverishly by the light of a candle. At times she was repelled
by the vulgarity of Low Covey, by the grossness which seemed to revel
in poverty and dirt. But when she cast her eyes round her own bare
walls, looked at her sheetless bed, a shiver ran over her.

'These are my people,' she said aloud. The candle, clamouring for the
snuffers, guttered, sank low, nearly went out.

Shivering again before the omen, she trimmed the wick. She returned the
book to Farwell by slipping it on the table next day. He took it without
a word but returned at half past six as before.

'Well?' he asked with a faint smile.

'Thank you so much,' said Victoria. 'It's wonderful.'

'Wonderful indeed? Most commonplace, don't you think?'

'Oh, no,' said Victoria. 'It's extraordinary, it's like . . . like
light.'

Farwell's eyes suddenly glittered.

'Ah,' he said dreamily, 'light! light in this, the outer darkness.'

Victoria looked at him, a question in her eyes.

'If only we could all see,' he went on. 'Then, as by a touch of a
magician's wand, flowers would crowd out the thistles, the thistles that
the asses eat and thank their God for. It is in our hands to make this
the Happy Valley and we make it the Valley of the Shadow of Death.'

He paused for a moment. Victoria felt her pulse quicken.

'Yes,' she said, 'I think I understand. It's because we don't understand
that we suffer. We're not cruel, are we? we're stupid.'

'Stupid?' A ferocious intonation had come into Farwell's voice. 'I
should say so! Forty million men, women and children sweat their lives
out day by day so that four million may live idly and become too heavy
even to think. I could forgive them if they thought, but the world
contains only two types: Lazarus with poor man's gout and Dives with
fatty degeneration of the brain.'

Victoria felt nervous. Passion shook the man's hands as he clutched the
marble top of the table.

'Mr Farwell,' she faltered, 'I don't want to be stupid. I want to
understand things. I want to know why we slave twelve hours a day when
others do nothing and, oh, can it be altered?'

Farwell had started at the mention of his name. His passion had suddenly
fallen.

'Altered? oh, yes,' he stammered, 'that's if the race lasts long enough.
'Sometimes I think, as I see men struggling to get on top of one
another, like crabs in a bucket . . . Like crabs in a bucket,' he
repeated dreamily, visualising the simile. 'But I cannot draw men from
stones,' he said smiling; 'it is not yet time for Deucalion. I'll bring
you another book to-morrow.'

Farwell rose abruptly and left Victoria singularly stirred. He was a
personality, she felt; something quite unusual. He was less a man than a
figment, for he seemed top heavy almost. He concentrated the hearer's
attention so much on his spoken thought that his body passed
unperceived, receded into the distance.

While Victoria was changing to go, the staff room somehow seemed darker
and dirtier than ever. It was seldom swept and never cleaned out. The
management had thoughtfully provided nothing but pegs and wooden
benches, so as to discourage lounging. Victoria was rather late, so that
she found herself alone with Lizzie, the cashier. Lizzie was red-haired,
very curly, plump, pink and white. A regular little spark. She was very
popular; her green eyes and full curved figure often caused a small
block at the desk.

'You look tired,' she said good-naturedly.

'I suppose I am,' said Victoria. 'Aren't you?'

'So so. Don't mind my job.'

'Mm, I suppose it isn't so bad sitting at the desk.'

'No,' said Lizzie, 'pays too.'

'Pays?'

Lizzie flushed and hesitated. Then the desire to boast burst its bonds.
She must tell, she must. It didn't matter after all. A craving for
admiration was on her.

'Tell you what,' she whispered. 'I get quite two and a kick a week out
of that job.'

Victoria's eyebrows went up.

'You know,' went on Lizzie, 'the boys look at me a bit.' She simpered
slightly. 'Well, once one of them gave me half a bar with a bob check.
He was looking at me in the eye, well! that mashed, I can tell you he
looked like a boiled fish. Sort of inspiration came over me.' She
stopped.

'Well?' asked Victoria, feeling a little nervous.

'Well . . . I . . . I gave him one half crown and three two bob pieces.
Smiled at him. He boned the money quick enough, wanted to touch my hand
you see. Never saw it.'

Victoria thought for a moment. 'Then you gave him eight and six instead
of nine shillings?'

'You've hit it. Bless you, _he_ never knew. Mashed, I can tell _you_.'

'Then you did him out of sixpence?'

'Right. Comes off once in three. Say "sorry" when I'm caught and smile
and it's all right. Never try it twice on the same man.'

'I call that stealing,' said Victoria coldly.

'You can call it what you like,' snarled Lizzie. 'Everything's stealing.
What's business? getting a quid for what costs you a tanner. I'm putting
a bit extra on my wages.'

Victoria shrugged her shoulders. She might have argued with Lizzie as
she had once argued with Gertie, but the vague truth that lurked in
Lizzie's economics had deprived her of argument. Could theft sometimes
be something else than theft? Were all things theft? And above all, did
the acceptance of a woman's hand as bait justify the hooking of a
sixpence?

As Victoria left for home that night she felt restless. She could not go
to bed so soon. She walked through the silent city lanes; meeting
nothing, save now and then a cat on the prowl, or a policeman trying
doors and flashing his bull's eye through the gratings of banks. The
crossing at Mansion House was still busy with the procession of
omnibuses converging at the feet of the Duke of Wellington. Drays, too
heavily loaded, rumbled slowly past towards Liverpool Street. She turned
northwards, walked quickly through the desert. At Liverpool Street
station she stopped in the blaze of light. A few doors away stood a
shouting butcher praying the passers-by to buy his pretty meat. Further:
a fishmonger's stall, an array of glistening black shapes on white
marble, a tobacconist, a jeweller--all aglow with coruscating light. And
over all, the blazing light of arc lamps, under which an unending stream
of motor cabs, lorries, omnibuses passed in kaleidoscopic colours. In
the full glare of a lamp post stood a woman, her feet in the gutter. She
was short, stunted, dirty and thin of face and body. Round her wretched
frame a filthy black coat was tightly buttoned; her muddy skirt seemed
almost falling from her shrunken hips. Crushed on her sallow face,
hiding all but a few wisps of hair, was a battered black straw hat. With
one arm she carried a child, thin of face too, and golden-haired. On its
upper lip a crusted sore gleamed red and brown. In her other hand she
held out a tin lid, in which were five boxes of matches.

Victoria looked at the silent watcher and passed on. A few minutes later
she remembered her and a fearful flood of insight rushed upon her. The
child? Then this, this creature had known love? A man had kissed those
shrivelled lips. Something like a thrill of disgust ran through her.
That such things as these could love and mate and bear children was
unspeakable; the very touch of them was loathsome, their love akin to
unnatural vice.

As she walked further into Shoreditch the impression of horror grew on
her. It was not that the lanes and little streets abutting into the High
Street were full of terrors when pitch dark, or more sinister still in
the pale yellow light of a single gas lamp; the High Street itself,
filled with men and women, most of them shabby, some loudly dressed in
crude colours, shouting, laughing, jostling one another off the footpath
was more terrible, for its joy of life was brutal as the joy of the
pugilist who feels his opponent's teeth crunch under his fist.

At a corner, near a public house blazing with lights, a small crowd
watched two women who were about to fight. They had not come to blows
yet; their duel was purely Homeric. Victoria listened with greedy horror
to the terrible recurrence of half a dozen words.

A child squirmed through the crowd, crying, and caught one of the
fighters by her skirt.

'Leave go . . . I'll rive the guts out 'o yer.'

With a swing of the body the woman sent the child flying into the
gutter. Victoria hurried from the spot. She made towards the West now,
between the gin shops, the barrows under their blazing naphtha lamps.
She was afraid, horribly afraid.

Sitting alone in her attic, her hands crossed before her, questions
intruded upon her. Why all this pain, this violence, by the side of
life's graces? Could it be that one went with the other, indissolubly?
And could it be altered before it was too late, before the earth was
flooded, overwhelmed with pain?

She slipped into bed and drew the horsecloth over her ears. The world
was best shut out.




CHAPTER XXII


THOMAS FARWELL collected three volumes from his desk, two pamphlets and
a banana. It was six o'clock and, the partners having left, he was his
own master half an hour earlier than usual.

'You off?' said the junior from the other end of the desk.

'Yes. Half an hour to the good.'

'What's the good of half an hour,' said the youth superciliously.

'No good unless you think it is, like everything else,' said Farwell.
'Besides, I may be run over by half past six.'

'Cheerful as ever,' remarked the junior, bending his head down to the
petty cash balance.

Farwell took no notice of him. Ten times a day he cursed himself for
wasting words upon this troglodyte. He was a youth long as a day's
starvation, with a bulbous forehead, stooping narrow shoulders and
narrow lips; his shape resembled that of an old potato. He peered
through his glasses with watery eyes hardly darker than his grey face.

'Good night,' said Farwell curtly.

'Cheer, oh!' said the junior.

Farwell slammed the door behind him. He felt inclined to skip down the
stairs, not that anything particularly pleasant had happened but because
the bells of St Botolph's were pealing out a chime of freedom. It was
six. He had nothing to do. The best thing was to go to Moorgate Street
and take the books to Victoria. On second thoughts, no, he would wait.
Six o'clock might still be a busy time.

Farwell walked down the narrow lane from Bishopsgate into St. Botolph's
churchyard. It was a dank and dreary evening, dark already. The wind
swept over the paths in little whirlwinds. Dejected sparrows sought
scraps of food among the ancient graves where office boys munch buns and
read of woodcarving and desperate adventure. He sat down on a seat by
the side of a shape that slept, and opened one of the books, though it
was too dark to read. The shape lifted an eyelid and looked at him.

Farwell turned over the pages listlessly. It was a history of
revolutionists. For some reason he hated them to-day, all of them. Jack
Cade was a boor, Cromwell a tartuffe, Bolivar a politician, Mazzini a
theorist. It would bore Victoria.

Farwell brought himself up with a jerk. He was thinking of Victoria too
often. As he was a man who faced facts he told himself quite plainly
that he did not intend to fall in love with her. He did not feel capable
of love; he hated most people, but did not believe that a good hater was
a good lover.

'Clever, of course,' he muttered, 'but no woman is everlastingly clever.
I won't risk finding her out.'

The shape at his side moved. It was an old man, filthy, clad in
blackened rags, with a matted beard. Farwell glanced at him and turned
away.

'I'd have you poisoned if I could,' he thought. Then he returned to
Victoria. Was she worth educating? And supposing she was educated, what
then? She would become discontented, instead of brutalised. The latter
was the happier state. Or she would fall in love with him, when he would
give her short shrift. What a pity. A tiny wave of sentiment flowed into
Farwell's soul.

'Clever, clever,' he thought, 'a little house, babies, roses, a fox
terrier.'

'Gov'nor,' croaked a hoarse voice beside him.

Farwell turned quickly. The shape was alive, then, curse it.

'Well, what d'you want?'

'Give us a copper, gov'nor, I'm an old man, can't work. S'elp me, Gawd,
gov'nor, 'aven't 'ad a bite. . . .'

'That'll do, you fool,' snarled Farwell, 'why the hell don't you go and
get it in gaol?'

'Yer don't mean that, gov'nor, do yer?' whined the old man, 'I always
kep my self respectable; 'ere, look at these 'ere testimonials, gov'nor,
. . .' He drew from his coat a disgusting object, a bundle of papers
tied together with string.

'I don't want to see them,' said Farwell. 'I wouldn't employ you if I
could. Why don't you go to the workhouse?'

The old man almost bridled.

'Why? Because you're a stuck up. D'you hear? You're proud of being poor.
That's about as vulgar as bragging because you're rich. If you and all
the likes of you went into the House, you'd reform the system in a week.
Understand?'

The old man's eyes were fixed on the speaker, uncomprehending.

'Better still, go and throw any bit of dirt you pick up at a policeman,'
continued Farwell. 'See he gets it in the mouth. You get locked up.
Suppose a million of the likes of you do the same, what d'you think
happens?'

'I dunno,' said the old man.

'Well, your penal system is bust. If you offend the law you're a
criminal. But what's the law? the opinion of the majority. If the
majority goes against the law, then the minority becomes criminal. The
world's upside down.' Farwell smiled. 'The world's upside down,' he said
softly, licking his lips.

'Give us a copper for a bed, guv'nor,' said the old man dully.

'What's the good of a bed to you?' exploded Farwell. 'Why don't you have
a drink?'

'I'm a teetotaller, guv'nor; always kep' myself respectable.'

'Respectable! You're earning the wages of respectability, that is
death,' said Farwell with a wolfish laugh. 'Why, man, can't you see
you've been on the wrong tack? We don't want any more of you
respectables. We want pirates, vampires. We want all this society of
yours rotted by internal canker, so that we can build a new one. But we
must rot it first. We aren't going to work on a sow's ear.'

'Give us a copper, guv'nor,' moaned the old man.

Farwell took out sixpence and laid it on the seat. 'Now then,' he said,
'you can have this if you'll swear to blow it in drink.'

'I will, s'elp me Gawd,' said the old man eagerly.

Farwell pushed the coin towards him.

'Take it, teetotaller,' he sneered, 'your respectable system of bribery
has bought you for sixpence. Now let me see you go into that pub.'

The old man clutched the sixpence and staggered to his feet. Farwell
watched the swing doors of the public bar at the end of the passage
close behind him. Then he got up and walked away; it was about time to
go to Moorgate Street.

As he entered the smoking-room, Victoria blushed. The man moved her,
stimulated her. When she saw him she felt like a body meeting a soul. He
sat down at his usual place. Victoria brought him his tea, and laid it
before him without a word. Nelly, lolling in another corner, kicked the
ground, looking away insolently from the elaborate wink of one of the
scullions.

'Here, read these,' said Farwell, pushing two of the books across the
table. Victoria picked them up.

'_Looking Backwards?_' she said. 'Oh, I don't want to do that. It's
forward I want to go.'

'A laudable sentiment,' sneered Farwell, 'the theory of every Sunday
School in the country, and the practice of none. However, you'll find it
fairly soul-filling as an unintelligent anticipation. Personally I
prefer the other. _Demos_ is good stuff, for Gissing went through the
fire.'

Victoria quickly walked away. Farwell looked surprised for a second,
then saw the manageress on the stairs.

'Faugh,' he muttered, 'if the world's a stage I'm playing the part of a
low intriguer.'

He sipped his tea meditatively. In a few minutes Victoria returned.

'Thank you,' she whispered. 'It's good of you. You're teaching me to
live.'

Farwell looked at her critically.

'I don't see much good in that,' he said, 'unless you've got something
to live for. One of our philosophers says you live either for experience
or the race. I recommend the former to myself, and to you nothing.'

'Why shouldn't I live for anything?' she asked.

'Because life's too dear. And its pleasures are not white but piebald.'

'I understand,' said Victoria, 'but I must live.'

'_Je n'en vois pas la necessite_,' quoted Farwell smiling. 'Never mind
what that means,' he added, 'I'm only a pessimist.'

The next few weeks seemed to create in Victoria a new personality. Her
reading was so carefully selected that every line told. Farwell knew the
hundred best books for a working girl; he had a large library composed
mostly of battered copies squeezed out of his daily bread. Victoria's
was the appetite of a gorgon. In another month she had absorbed _Odd
Women_, _An Enemy of the People_, _The_ _Doll's House_, _Alton Locke_,
and a translation of _Germinal_. Every night she read with an intensity
which made her forget that March chilled her to the bone; poring over
the book, her eyes a few inches from the candle, she soaked in
rebellion. When the cold nipped too close into her she would get up and
wrap herself in the horsecloth and read with savage application, rushing
to the core of the thought. She was no student, so she would skip a hard
word. Besides, in those moods, when the spirit bounds in the body like a
caged bird, words are felt, not understood.

Betty was still hovering round her, a gentle presence. She knew what was
going on and was frightened. A new Victoria was rising before her, a
woman very charming still, but extraordinary, incomprehensible. Often
Victoria would snub her savagely, then take her hand as they stood
together at the counter bawling for food and drink. And as Victoria grew
hard and strong, Betty worshipped her more as she would have worshipped
a strong man.

Yet Betty was not happy. Victoria lived now in a state of excitement and
hunger for solitude. She took no interest in things that Betty could
understand. Their Sunday walks had been ruthlessly cut now and then, for
the fury was upon Victoria when eating the fruits of the tree. When they
were together now Victoria was preoccupied; she no longer listened to
the club gossip, nor did she ask to be told once more the story of
Betty's early days.

'Do you know you're sweated?' she said suddenly one day.

Betty's eyes opened round and blue.

'Sweated,' she said. 'I thought only people in the East End were
sweated.'

'The world's one big East End,' snapped Victoria.

Betty shivered. Farwell might have said that.

'You're sweated if you get two pounds a week,' continued Victoria.
'You're sweated when you buy a loaf, sweated when you ride in a bus,
sweated when they cremate you.'

'I don't understand,' said Betty.

'All profits are sweated,' quoted Victoria from a pamphlet.

'But people must make profits,' protested Betty.

'What for?' asked Victoria.

'How are people to live unless they make profits?' said Betty. 'Aren't
our wages profits?'

Victoria was nonplussed for a moment and became involved. 'No, our wages
are only wages; profit is the excess over our wages.'

'I don't understand,' said Betty.

'Never mind,' said Victoria, 'I'll ask Mr Farwell; he'll make it clear.'

Betty shot a dark blue glance at her.

'Vic,' she said softly, 'I think Mr Farwell. . . .' Then she changed her
mind. 'I can't, I can't,' she thought. She crushed the jealous words
down and plunged.

'Vic, darling,' she faltered, 'I'm afraid you're not well. No, and not
happy. I've been thinking of something; why shouldn't I leave the Club
and come and live with you.'

Victoria looked at her critically for a moment. She thought of her
independence, of this affection hovering round her, sweet, dangerously
clinging. But Betty's blue eyes were wet.

'You're too good a pal for me, Betty,' she said in a low voice. 'I'd
make you miserable.'

'No, no,' cried Betty impulsively. 'I'd love it, Vic dear, and you would
go on reading and do what you like. Only let me be with you.'

Victoria's hand tightened on her friend's arm.

'Let me think, Betty dear,' she said.

Ten days later, Betty having won her point, the great move was to take
place at seven o'clock. It certainly lacked solemnity. For three days
preceding the great change Betty had hurried away from the P.R.R. on the
stroke of nine, quickly kissing Victoria and saying she couldn't wait as
she must pack. Clearly her wardrobe could not be disposed of in a
twinkling. Yet, on moving day, at seven o'clock sharp (the carrier
having been thoughtfully commanded to deliver at five) a tin trunk kept
together by a rope, a tiny bath muzzled with a curtain, and a hat box
loudly advertising somebody's tea, were dumped on the doorstep. The cart
drove off leaving the two girls to make terms with a loafer. The latter
compromised for fourpence, slammed their door behind him and lurched
down the creaking stairs. Betty threw herself into Victoria's arms.

Those first days were sweet. Betty rejoiced like a lover in possession
of a long-desired mistress; stripping off her blouse and looking very
pretty, showing her white neck and slim arms, she strutted about the
attic with a hammer in her hand and her mouth full of nails. It took an
evening to hang the curtain which had muzzled the bath; Betty's art
treasures, an oleograph of 'Bubbles' and another of 'I'se Biggest,' were
cunningly hung by Victoria so that she could not see them on waking up.

Betty was active now as a will o' the wisp. She invented little feasts,
expensive Sunday suppers of fried fish and chips, produced a basket of
oranges at three a penny; thanks to her there was now milk with the tea.
In a moment of enthusiasm Victoria heard her murmur something about
keeping a cat. In fact the only thing that marred her life at all was
Victoria's absorption in her reading. Often Betty would go to bed and
stay awake, watching Victoria at the table, her fingers ravelling her
hair, reading with an intentness that frightened her. She would watch
Victoria and see her face grow paler, except at the cheeks where a flush
would rise. A wild look would come into her eyes. Sometimes she would
get up suddenly and, thrusting her hair out of her eyes, walk up and
down muttering things Betty could not understand.

One night Betty woke up suddenly, and saw Victoria standing in the
moonlight clad only in her nightgown. Words were surging from her lips.

'It's no good. . . . I can't go on. . . . I can't go on until I die or
somebody marries me. . . . I won't marry: I won't do it. . . . Why
should I sell myself? . . . at any rate why should I sell myself
cheaply?'

There was a pause. Betty sat up and looked at her friend's wild face.

'What's it all mean after all? I'm only being used. Sucked dry like an
orange. By and by they'll throw the peel away. Talk of brotherhood! . .
. It's war, war . . . It's climbing and fighting to get on top . . .
like crabs in a bucket, like crabs. . .'

'Vic,' screamed Betty.

Victoria started like a somnambulist aroused and looked at her vaguely.

'Come back to bed at once,' cried Betty with inspired firmness. Victoria
obeyed. Betty drew her down beside her under the horsecloth and threw
her arms round her; Victoria's body was cold as ice. Suddenly she burst
into tears; and Betty, torn as if she saw a strong man weep, wept too.
Closely locked in one another's arms they sobbed themselves to sleep.




CHAPTER XXIII


EVERY day now Victoria's brain grew clearer and her body weaker. A
sullen spirit of revolt blended with horrible depression was upon her,
but she was getting thinner, paler; dark rings were forming round her
eyes. She knew pain now; perpetual weariness, twitchings in the ankles,
stabs just above the knee. In horrible listlessness she dragged her
weary feet over the tiled floor, responding to commands like the old cab
horse which can hardly feel the whip. In this mood, growing churlish,
she repulsed Betty, avoided Farwell and tried to seclude herself. She no
longer walked Holborn or the Strand where life went by, but sought the
mean and silent streets, where none could see her shamble or where none
would care.

One night, when she had left at six, she painfully crawled home and up
into the attic. At half-past nine the door opened and Betty came in; the
room was in darkness, but something oppressed her; she went to the
mantlepiece to look for the matches, her fingers trembling. For an
eternity she seemed to fumble, the oppression growing; she felt that
Victoria was in the room, and could only hope that she was asleep. With
a great effort of her will she lit the candle before turning round. Then
she gave a short sharp scream.

Victoria was lying across the bed dressed in her bodice and petticoat.
She had tucked this up to her knees and taken off her stockings; her
legs hung dead white over the edge. At her feet was the tin bath full
of water. Betty ran to the bed, choking almost, and clasped her friend
round the neck. It was some seconds before she thought of wetting her
face. After some minutes Victoria returned to consciousness and opened
her eyes; she groaned slightly as Betty lifted up her legs and
straightened her on the bed.

It was then that Betty noticed the singular appearance of Victoria's
legs. They were covered with a network of veins, some narrow and pale
blue in colour, others darker, protruding and swollen; on the left calf
one of the veins stood out like a rope. The unaccustomed sight filled
her with the horror bred of a mysterious disease. She was delicate, but
had never been seriously ill; this sight filled her with physical
repulsion. For her the ugliness of it meant foulness. For a moment she
almost hated Victoria, but the sight of the tin bath full of water cut
her to the heart; it told her that Victoria, maddened by mysterious
pain, had tried to assuage it by bathing her legs in the cold water.

Little by little Victoria came round; she smiled at Betty.

'Did I faint, Betty dear?' she asked.

'Yes, dear. Are you better now?'

'Yes, I'm better; it doesn't hurt now.'

Betty could not repress a question.

'Vic,' she said, 'what is it?'

'I don't know,' said Victoria fearfully, then more cheerfully,

'I'm tired I suppose. I shall be all right to-morrow.'

Then Betty refused to let her talk any more, and soon Victoria slept by
her side the sleep of exhaustion.

The next morning Victoria insisted upon going to the P. R. R. in spite
of Betty suggesting a doctor.

'Can't risk losing my job,' she said laughing. 'Besides it doesn't hurt
at all now. Look.'

Victoria lifted up her nightshirt. Her calves were again perfectly white
and smooth; the thin network of veins had sunk in again and showed blue
under the skin. Alone one vein on the left leg seemed dark and angry.
Victoria felt so well, however, that she agreed to meet Farwell at a
quarter-past nine. This was their second expedition, and the idea of it
was a stimulant. He went with her up to Finsbury Pavement and stopped at
a small Italian restaurant.

'Come in here and have some coffee,' he said, 'they have waiters here;
that'll be a change.'

Victoria followed him in. They sat at a marble topped table, flooded
with light by incandescent gas. In the glare the waiters seemed blacker,
smaller and more stunted than by the light of day. Their faces were
pallid, with a touch of green: their hair and moustaches were almost
blue black. Their energy was that of automata. Victoria looked at them,
melting with pity.

'There's a life for you,' said Farwell interpreting her look. 'Sixteen
hours' work a day in an atmosphere of stale food. For meals, plate
scourings. For sleep and time to get to it, eight hours. For living, the
rest of the day.'

'It's awful, awful,' said Victoria. 'They might as well be dead.'

'They will be soon,' said Farwell, 'but what does that matter? There are
plenty of waiters. In the shadow of the olive groves to-night in far off
Calabria, at the base of the vine-clad hills, couples are walking hand
in hand, with passion flashing in their eyes. Brown peasant boys are
clasping to their breast young girls with dark hair, white teeth, red
lips, hearts that beat and quiver with ecstasy. They tell a tale of love
and hope. So we shall not be short of waiters.'

'Why do you sneer at everything, Mr Farwell?' said Victoria. 'Can't you
see anything in life to make it worth while?'

'No, I cannot say I do. The pursuit of a living debars me from the
enjoyments that make living worth while. But never mind me: I am over
without having bloomed. I brought you here to talk of you, not of me.'

'Of me, Mr Farwell?' asked Victoria. 'What do you want to know?'

Farwell leant over the table, toyed with the sugar and helped himself to
a piece. Then without looking at her:

'What's the matter with you, Victoria?' he asked.

'Matter with me? What do you mean?' said Victoria, too disturbed to
notice the use of her Christian name.

The man scrutinised her carefully. 'You're ill,' he said. 'Don't
protest. You're thin; there are purple pockets under your eyes; your
underlip is twisted with pain, and you limp.'

Victoria felt a spasm of anger. There was still in her the ghost of
vanity. But she looked at Farwell before answering; there was gentleness
in his eyes.

'Well,' she said slowly, 'if you must know, perhaps there is something
wrong. Pains.'

'Where?' he asked.

'In the legs,' she said after a pause.

'Ah, swellings?'

Victoria bridled a little. This man was laying bare something, tearing
at a secret.

'Are you a doctor, Mr Farwell?' she asked coldly.

'That's all right,' he said roughly, 'it doesn't need much learning to
know what's the matter with a girl who stands for eleven hours a day.
Are the veins of your legs swollen?'

'Yes,' said Victoria with an effort. She was frightened; she forgot to
resent this wrenching at the privacy of her body.

'Ah; when do they hurt?'

'At night. They're all right in the morning.'

'You've got varicose veins, Victoria. You must give up your job.'

'I can't,' whispered the girl hoarsely. 'I've got nothing else.'

'Exactly. Either you go on and are a <DW36> for life or you stop and
starve. Yours is a disease of occupation, purely a natural consequence
of your work. Perfectly normal, perfectly. It is undesirable to
encourage laziness; there are girls starving to-day for lack of work,
but it would never do to reduce your hours to eight. It would interfere
with the P. R. R. dividends.'

Victoria looked at him without feeling.

'What am I to do?' she asked at length.

'Go to a hospital,' said Farwell. 'These institutions are run by the
wealthy who pay two guineas a year ransom for a thousand pounds of
profits and get in the bargain a fine sense of civic duty done. No doubt
the directors of the P.R.R. contribute most generously.'

'I can't give up my job,' said Victoria dully.

'Perhaps they'll give you a stocking,' said Farwell, 'or sell it you,
letting you pay in instalments so that you be not pauperised. This is
called training in responsibility, also self-help.'

Victoria got up. She could bear it no longer. Farwell saw her home and
made her promise to apply for leave to see the doctor. As the door
closed behind her he stood still for some minutes on the doorstep,
filling his pipe.

'Well, well,' he said at length, 'the Government might think of that
lethal chamber--but no, that would never do, it would deplete the labour
market and hamper the commercial development of the Empire.'

He walked away, a crackling little laugh floating behind him. The faint
light of a lamp fell on his bowed head and shoulders, making him look
like a Titan born a dwarf.

Two days later Victoria went to the Carew. She had never before set
foot in a hospital. Such intercourse as she had had with doctors was
figured by discreet interviews in dark studies filled with unspeakably
ugly and reassuringly solid furniture. Those doctors had patted her
hand, said she needed a little change or may be a tonic. At the Carew,
fed as it is by the misery of two square miles of North East London, the
revelation of pain was dazzling, apocalyptic. The sight of the benches
crowded with women and children--some pale as corpses, others flushed
with fever, some with faces bandaged or disfigured by sores--almost made
her sick. They were packed in serried rows; the children almost all
cried persistently, except here and there a baby, who looked with
frightful fixity at the glazed roof. From all this chattering crowd of
the condemned rose a stench of iodoform, perspiration, unwashed bodies,
the acrid smell of poverty.

The little red-haired Scotch doctor dismissed Victoria's case in less
than one minute.

'Varicose veins. Always wear a stocking. Here's your form. Settle terms
at the truss office. Don't stand on your feet. Oh, what's your
occupation?'

'Waitress at the P.R.R., Sir.'

'Ah, hum. You must give it up.'

'I can't, Sir.'

'It's your risk. Come again in a month.'

Victoria pulled up her stockings. Walking in a dream she went to the
truss office where a man measured her calves. She felt numb and
indifferent as to the exposure of her body. The man looked enquiringly
at the left calf.

'V.H. for the left,' he called over his shoulder to the clerk.

At twelve o'clock she was in the P.R.R., revived by the familiar
atmosphere. She even rallied one of the old chess players on a stroke of
ill-luck. Towards four o'clock her ankles began to twitch.




CHAPTER XXIV


THROUGH all these anxious times, Betty watched over Victoria with the
devotion that is born of love. There was in the girl a reserve of
maternal sweetness equalled only by the courage she showed every day.
Slim and delicate as she seemed, there was in Betty's thin body a
strength all nervous but enduring. She did not complain, though driven
eleven or twelve hours a day by the eyes of the manageress; those eyes
were sharp as a goad, but she went cheerfully.

In a sense Betty was happy. The work did not weigh too heavily upon her;
there was so much humility in her that she did not resent the roughness
of her companions. Nelly could snub her, trample at times on her like
the cart horse she was; the manageress too could freeze her with a look,
the kitchen staff disregard her humble requests for teas and procure for
her the savage bullying of the customers, yet she remained placid
enough.

'It's a hard life,' she once said to Victoria, 'but I suppose it's got
to be.' This was her philosophy.

'But don't you want to get out of it?' cried Victoria the militant.

'I don't know,' said Betty. 'I might marry.'

'Marry,' sniffed Victoria. 'You seem to think marriage is the only way
out for women.'

'Well, isn't it?' asked Betty. 'What else is there?'

And for the life of her Victoria could not find another occupation for
an unskilled girl. Milliners, dressmakers, clerks, typists, were all
frightfully underpaid and overworked; true there were women doctors, but
who cared to employ them? And teachers, but they earned the wages of
virtue: neglect. Besides it was too late; both Victoria and Betty were
unskilled, condemned by their sex to low pay and hard work.

'It's frightful, frightful,' cried Victoria. 'The only use we are is to
do the dirty work. Men don't char. Of course we may marry, if we can, to
any of those gods if they'll share with us their thirty bob a week. Talk
of slaves! They're better off than we.'

Betty looked upon all this as rather wild, as a consequence of
Victoria's illness. Her view was that it didn't do to complain, and that
the only thing to do was to make the best of it. But she loved Victoria,
and it was almost a voluptous joy for her to help her friend to undress
every night, to tempt her with little offerings of fruit and flowers.
When they woke up, Betty would draw her friend into her arms and cover
her face with gentle kisses.

But as Victoria grew worse, stiffer, and slower, responding ever more
reluctantly to the demands made upon her all day at the P. R. R., Betty
was conscious of horrible anxiety. Sometimes her imagination would
conjure up a Victoria helpless, wasted, bedridden, and her heart seemed
to stop. But her devotion was proof against egoism. Whatever happened,
Victoria should not starve if she had to pay the rent and feed herself
on nine shillings or so a week until she was well again and beautiful as
she had been. Her anxiety increasing, she mustered up courage to
interview Farwell, whom she hated jealously. He had ruined Victoria, she
thought--made her wild, discontented, rebellious against the incurable.
Yet he knew her, and at any rate she must talk about it to somebody. So
she mustered up courage to ask him to meet at nine.

'Well?' said Farwell. He did not like Betty much. He included her among
the poor creatures, the rubble.

'Oh, Mr Farwell, what's going to happen to Victoria,' cried Betty, with
tears in her voice. Then she put her hand against the railings of
Finsbury Circus. She had prepared a dignified little speech, and her
suffering had burst from her. The indignity of it.

'Happen? The usual thing in these cases. She'll get worse; the veins
will burst and she'll be crippled for life.'

Betty looked at him, her eyes blazing with rage.

'How dare you, how dare you?' she growled.

Farwell laughed.

'My dear young lady,' he said smoothly, 'it needs no doctor to tell you
what is wanted. Victoria must stop work, lie up, be well fed, live in
the country perhaps and her spirits must be raised. To this effect I
would suggest a pretty house, flowers, books, some music, say a
hundred-guinea grand piano, some pretty pictures. So that she may
improve in health it is desirable that she should have servants. These
may gain varicose veins by waiting on her, but that is by the way.'

Betty was weeping now. Tear after tear rolled down her cheeks.

'But all this costs money,' continued Farwell, 'and, as you are aware,
bread is very dear and flesh and blood very cheap. Humanity finds the
extraction of gold a toilsome process, whilst the production of children
is a normal recreation which eclipses even the charms of alcohol. There,
my child, you have the problem; and there is only one radical solution
to it.'

Betty looked at him, intuitively guessing the horrible suggestion.

'The solution,' said Farwell, 'is to complain to the doctor of insomnia,
get him to prescribe laudanum and sink your capital in the purchase of
half a pint. One's last investment is generally one's best.'

'Oh, I can't bear it, I can't bear it,' wailed Betty. 'She's so
beautiful, so clever.'

'Ah, yes,' said Farwell in his dreamy manner, 'but then you see when a
woman doesn't marry. . . .' He broke off, his eyes fixed on the grey
pavement. 'The time will come, Betty, when the earth will be not only
our eternal bed, but the fairy land where joyful flowers will grow. Ah!
it will be joyful, joyful, this crop of flowers born from seas of
blood.'

'But, now, now, what can we do with her?' cried Betty.

'I have no other suggestion if she will not fight,' growled Farwell in
his old manner. 'She must sink or swim. If she sinks she's to blame, I
suppose. In a world of pirates and cut-throats she will have elected to
be a saint, and the martyr's crown will be hers. If suicide is not to
her taste, I would recommend her to resort to what is called criminal
practices. Being ill, she has magnificent advantages if she wishes to
start business as a begging-letter writer; burglary is not suitable for
women, but there are splendid openings for confidence tricksters and
shoplifting would be a fine profession if it were not overcrowded by the
upper middle classes.'

Betty dabbed her eyes vigorously. Her mouth tightened. She looked
despairingly at the desolate half circle of London Wall Buildings and
Salisbury House. Then she gave Farwell her hand for a moment and
hurriedly walked away. As she entered the attic the candle was still
burning. Victoria was in bed and had forgotten it; she had already
fallen into stertorous sleep.

Next morning Victoria got up and dressed silently. She did not seem any
worse; and with this Betty was content, though she only got short
answers to her questions. All that day Victoria seemed well enough. She
walked springily; at times she exchanged a quick joke with a customer.
She laughed even when a young man, carried away for a moment beyond the
spirit of food which reigned supreme in the P.R.R., touched her hand and
looked into her eyes.

As the afternoon wore Victoria felt creeping over her the desperate
weariness of the hour.

At a quarter to six she made up her checks. There was a shortfall of one
and a penny.

'How do you account for it?' asked the manageress.

'Sure I don't know, Miss,' said Victoria helplessly. 'I always give
checks. Somebody must have slipped out without paying.'

'Possibly.' The manageress grew more tense faced than ever. Her bust
expanded. 'I don't care. Of course you know the rule. You pay half and
the desk pays half.'

'I couldn't help it, Miss,' said Victoria miserably. Sixpence halfpenny
was a serious loss.

'No more could I. I think I can tell you how it happened, though,' said
the manageress with a vague smile. 'I'm an old hand. A customer of yours
had a tuck out for one and a penny. You gave him a check. Look at the
foil and you'll see.'

'Yes, Miss, here it is,' said Victoria anxiously.

'Very well. Then he went upstairs on the Q.T. and had a cup of coffee.
Follow!'

'Yes, Miss.'

'One of the girls gave him a twopenny check. Then he went out and handed
in the twopenny check. He kept the other one in his pocket.'

'Oh, Miss. . . . it's stealing,' Victoria gasped.

'It is. But there it is, you see.'

'But it's not my fault, Miss; if you had a pay box at the top of the
stairs, I don't say. . . .'

'Oh, we can't do that,' said the manageress icily, 'they would cost a
lot to build and extra staff and we must keep down expenses, you know.
Competition is very keen in this trade.'

Victoria felt stunned. The incident was as full of revelations as
Lizzie's practices at the desk. The girls cheated the customers, the
customers the girls. And the P.R.R. sitting olympian on its pillar of
cloud, exacted from all its dividends. The P.R.R. suddenly loomed up
before Victoria's eyes as a big swollen monster in whose veins ran China
tea. And from its nostrils poured forth torrents of coffee-scented
steam. It grew and grew, and fed men and women, every now and then
extending a talon and seizing a few young girls with sore legs, a rival
cafe or two. Then it vanished. Victoria was looking at one of the large
plated urns.

'All right,' she said sullenly, 'I'll pay.'

As it was her day off, at six o'clock Victoria went up to the change
room, saying good-night to Betty, telling her she was going out to get
some fresh air. She thought it would do her good, so rode on a bus to
the Green Park. Round her, in Piccadilly, a tide of rich life seemed to
rise redolent with scent, soft tobacco, moist furs, all those odours
that herald and follow wealth. A savagery was upon her as she passed
along the club windows, now full of young men telling tales that made
their teeth shine in the night, of old men, red, pink, brown, healthy in
colour and in security, reading, sleeping, eking out life.

The picture was familiar; for it was the picture she had so often seen
when, as a girl, she came up to town from Lympton for a week to shop in
Oxford Street and see, from the upper boxes, the three or four plays
recommended by _Hearth and Home_. Piccadilly had been her Mecca. It had
represented mysterious delights, restaurants, little teashops,
jewellers, makers of cunning cases for everything. She had never been
well-off enough to shop there, but had gazed into its windows and bought
the nearest imitations in Oxford Street. Then the clubs had been, if
not familiar, at any rate friendly. She had once with her mother called
at the In and Out to ask for a general. He was dead now, and so was
Piccadilly.

Victoria remembered without joy: a sign of total flatness, for the mind
that does not glow at the thought of the glamorous past is dulled
indeed. Piccadilly struck her now rather as a show and a poor one, a
show of the inefficients basking, of the wretched shuffling by. And the
savagery that was upon her waxed fat. Without ideals of ultimate
brotherhood or love she could not help thinking, half amused, of the
dismay that would come over London if a bomb were suddenly to raze to
the ground one of these shrines of men.

The bus stopped in a block just opposite one of the clubs; and Victoria,
from the off-side seat, could see across the road into one of the rooms.
There were in it a dozen men of all ages, most of them standing in small
groups, some already in evening-dress; some lolled on enormous padded
chairs reading, and, against the mantlepiece where a fire burned
brightly, a youth was telling an obviously successful story to a group
of oldsters. Their ease, their conviviality and facile friendship stung
Victoria; she felt an outcast. What had she now to do with these men?
They would not know her. Their sphere was their father's sphere, by
right of birth and wealth, not hers who had not the right of wealth.
Besides, perhaps some were shareholders in the P.R.R. Painfully
shambling down the steps, Victoria got off the bus and entered the Green
Park. She sat down on a seat under a tree just bursting into bud.

For many minutes she looked at the young grass, at the windows where
lights were appearing, at a man seated near by and puffing rich blue
smoke from his cigar. A loafer lay face down on the grass, like a
bundle. Her moods altered between rage, as she looked at the two men,
and misery as she realised that her lot was cast with the wretch
grovelling on the cold earth.

She noticed that the man with the cigar was watching her, but hardly
looked at him. He was fat, that was all she knew. Her eyes once more
fastened on the loafer. He had not fought the world; would she? and how?
Now and then he turned a little in his sleep, dreaming perhaps of feasts
in Cockayne, perhaps of the skilly he had tasted in gaol, of love
perhaps, bright-eyed, master of the gates. It was cold, for the snap of
winter was in the spring air; in the pale western sky the roofs loomed
black. Already the dull glow of London light rose like a halo over the
town. Victoria did not seem to feel the wind; she was a little numb, her
legs felt heavy as lead. A gust of wind carried into her face a few
drops of rain.

The man with the cigar got up, slowly passed her; there was something
familiar in his walk. He turned so as to see her face in the light of a
gas-lamp. Then he took three quick steps towards her. Her heart was
already throbbing; she felt and yet did not know.

'Victoria,' said the man in a faint, far away voice.

Victoria gasped, put her hand on her heart, swaying on the seat. The man
sat down by her side and took her hand.

'Victoria,' he said again. There was in his voice a rich quality.

'Oh, Major Cairns, Major Cairns,' she burst out. And clasping his hand
between hers, she laid her face upon it. He felt all her body throb;
there were tears on his hands. A man of the world, he very gently lifted
up her chin and raised her to a sitting posture.

'There,' he said softly, still retaining her hands, 'don't cry, dear,
all is well. Don't speak. I have found you.'

With all the gentleness of a heavy man he softly stroked her hands.




CHAPTER XXV


TWO days later Victoria was floating in the curious ether of the
unusual. It was Sunday night. She was before a little table at one of
those concealed restaurants in Soho where blows fragrant the wind of
France. She was sitting in a softly cushioned arm chair, grateful to
arms and back, her feet propped up on a footstool. Before her lay the
little table, with its rough cloth, imperfectly clean and shining dully
with brittania ware. There were flowers in a small mug of Bruges
pottery; there was little light save from candles discreetly veiled by
pink shades. The bill of fare, rigid on its metal stem, bore the two
shilling table d'hote and the more pretentious a la carte. An immense
feeling of restfulness, so complete as to be positive was upon her. She
felt luxurious and at large, at one with the other couples who sat near
by, smiling, with possessive hands.

On the other side of the table sat Major Cairns. He had not altered very
much except that he was stouter. His grey eyes still shone kindly from
his rather gross face. Victoria could not make up her mind whether she
liked him or not. When she met him in the park he had seemed beautiful
as an archangel; he had been gentle too as big men mostly are to women,
but now she could feel him examining her critically, noting her points,
speculating on the change in her, wondering whether her ravaged beauty
was greater and her neck softer than when he last held her in his arms
off the coast of Araby.

Victoria had compacted for a quiet place. She could not, she felt, face
the Pall Mall or Jermyn Street restaurants, their lights, wealth of
silver and glass, their soft carpets, their silent waiters. The Major
had agreed, for he knew women well and was not over-anxious to expose to
the eyes of the town Victoria's paltry clothes. Now he had her before
him he began to regret that he had not risked it. For Victoria had
gained as much as she had lost in looks. Her figure had shrunk, but her
neck was still beautifully moulded, broad as a pillar; her colour had
gone down almost to dead white; the superfluous flesh had wasted away
and had left bare the splendid line of the strong chin and jaw. Her
eyes, however, were the magnet that held Cairns fast. They were as grey
as ever, but dilated and thrown into contrast with the pale skin by the
purple zone which surrounded them. They stared before them with a novel
boldness, a strange lucidity.

'Victoria,' whispered Cairns leaning forward, 'you are very beautiful.'

Victoria laughed and a faint flush rose into her cheeks. There was still
something grateful in the admiration of this man, gross and limited as
he might be, centred round his pleasures, sceptical of good and evil
alike. Without a word she took up a spoon and began to eat her ice.
Cairns watched every movement of her hand and wrist.

'Don't,' said Victoria after a pause. She dropped her spoon and put her
hands under the table.

'Don't what?' said Cairns.

'Look at my hands. They're . . . Oh, they're not what they were. It
makes me feel ashamed.'

'Nonsense,' said Cairns with a laugh. 'Your hands are still as fine as
ever and, when we've had them manicured. . . .'

He stopped abruptly as if he had said too much.

'Manicured?' said Victoria warily, though the 'we' had given her a
little shock. 'Oh, they're not worth manicuring now for the sort of work
I've got to do.'

'Look here, Victoria,' said Cairns rather roughly. 'This can't go on.
You're not made to be one of the drabs. You say your work is telling on
you: well, you must give it up.'

'Oh, I can't do that,' said Victoria, 'I've got to earn my living and
I'm no good for anything else.'

Cairns looked at her for a moment and meditatively sipped his port.

'Drink the port,' he commanded, 'it'll do you good.'

Victoria obeyed willingly enough. There was already in her blood the
glow of Burgundy; but the port, mellow, exquisite, and curling round the
tongue,  like burnt almonds, fragrant too, concealed a deeper
joy. The smoke from Cairns' cigar, half hiding his face, floating in
wreaths between them, entered her nostrils, aromatic, narcotic.

'What are you thinking of doing now?' she asked.

'I don't know quite,' said Cairns. 'You see I broke my good resolution.
After my job at Perim, they offered me some surveying work near Ormuz;
they call it surveying, but it's spying really or it would be if there
were anything to spy. I took it and rather enjoyed it.'

'Did you have any adventures?' asked Victoria.

'Nothing to speak of except expeditions into the hinterland trying to
get fresh meat. The East is overrated, I assure you. A butr landed off
our station once, probably intending to turn us into able-bodied slaves.
There were only seven of us to their thirty but we killed ten with two
volleys and they made off, parting with their anchor in their hurry.'

Cairns looked at Victoria. The flush had not died from her cheeks. She
was good to look upon.

'No,' he went on more slowly, 'I don't quite know what I shall do. I
meant to retire anyhow, you know, and the sudden death of my uncle, old
Marmaduke Cairns, settled it. I never expected to get a look in, but
there was hardly anybody else to leave anything to, except his sisters
whom he hated like poison, so I'm the heir. I don't yet know what I'm
worth quite, but the old man always seemed to do himself pretty well.'

'I'm glad,' said Victoria. She was not. The monstrous stupidity of a
system which suddenly places a man in a position enabling him to live on
the labour of a thousand was obvious to her.

'I'm rather at a loose end,' said Cairns musing, 'you see I've had
enough knocking about. But it's rather dull here, you know. I'm not a
marrying man either.'

Victoria was disturbed. She looked at Cairns and met his eyes. There was
forming in them a question. As she looked at him the expression faded
and he signed to the waiter to bring the coffee.

As they sipped it they spoke little but inspected one another narrowly.
Victoria told herself that if Cairns offered her marriage she would
accept him. She was not sure that ideal happiness would be hers if she
did; his limitations were more apparent to her than they had been when
she first knew him. Yet the alternative was the P.R.R. and all that must
follow.

Cairns was turning over in his mind the question Victoria had surprised.
Though he was by no means cautious or shy, being a bold and good liver,
he felt that Victoria's present position made it difficult to be
sentimental. So they talked of indifferent things. But when they left
the restaurant and drove towards Finsbury Victoria came closer to him;
and, unconsciously almost, Cairns took her hand, which she did not
withdraw. He leant towards her. His hand grew more insistent on her arm.
She was passive, though her heart beat and fear was upon her.

'Victoria,' said Cairns, his voice strained and metallic.

She turned her face towards him. There was in it complete acquiescence.
He passed one arm round her waist and drew her towards him. She could
feel his chest crush her as he bent her back. His lips fastened on her
neck greedily.

'Victoria,' said Cairns again, 'I want you. Come away from all this
labour and pain; let me make you happy.'

She looked at him, a question in her eyes.

'As free man and woman,' he stammered. Then more firmly:

'I'll make you happy. You'll want nothing. Perhaps you'll even learn to
like me.'

Victoria said nothing for a minute. The proposal did not offend her; she
was too broken, too stupefied for her inherent prejudices to assert
themselves. Morals, belief, reputation, what figments all these things.
What was this freedom of hers that she should set so high a price on it?
And here was comfort, wealth, peace--oh, peace. Yet she hesitated to
plunge into the cold stream; she stood shivering on the edge.

'Let me think,' she said.

Cairns pressed her closer to him. A little of the flame that warmed his
body passed into hers.

'Don't hurry me. Please. I don't know what to say. . . .'

He bent over with hungry lips.

'Yes, you may kiss me.'

Submissive, if frightened and repelled, yet with a heart where hope
fluttered, she surrendered him her lips.




CHAPTER XXVI


'I DON'T approve and I don't disapprove,' snarled Farwell. 'I'm not my
sister's keeper. I don't pretend to think it noble of you to live with a
man you don't care for, but I don't say you're wrong to do it.'

'But really,' said Victoria, 'if you don't think it right to do a thing,
you must think it wrong.'

'Not at all. I am neutral, or rather my reason supports what my
principles reject. Thus my principles may seem unreasonable and my
reasoning devoid of principle, but I cannot help that.'

Victoria thought for a moment. She was about to take a great step and
she longed for approval.

'Mr Farwell,' she said deliberately, 'I've come to the conclusion that
you are right. We are crabs in a bucket and those at the bottom are no
nobler than those on the top, for they would gladly be on the top. I'm
going on the top.'

'Sophist,' said Farwell smiling.

'I don't know what that means,' Victoria went on; 'I suppose you think
that I'm trying to cheat myself as to what is right. Possibly, but I
don't profess to know what is right.'

'Oh, no more do I,' interrupted Farwell, 'please don't set me up as a
judge. I haven't got any ethical standards for you. I don't believe
there are any; the ethics of the Renaissance are not those of the
twentieth century, nor are those of London the same as those of
Constantinople. Time and space work moral revolutions; and, even on
stereotyped lines, nobody can say present ethics are the best. From a
conventional point of view the hundred and fifty years that separate us
from Fielding mark an improvement, but I have still to learn that the
morals of to-day compare favourably with those of Sparta. You must
decide that for yourself.'

'I am doing so,' said Victoria quietly, 'but I don't think you quite
understand a woman's position and I want you to. I find a world where
the harder a woman works, the worse she is paid, where her mind is
despised and her body courted. Oh, I know, you haven't done that, but
you don't employ women. Nobody but you has ever cared a scrap about such
brains as I may have; the subs courted me in my husband's regiment. . . .'
She stopped abruptly, having spoken too freely.

'Go on,' said Farwell tactfully.

'And in London what have I found? Nothing but men bent on one pursuit.
They have followed me in the streets and tubes, tried to sit by me in
the parks. They have tried to touch me--yes me! the dependent who could
not resent it, when I served them with their food. Their talk is the
inane, under which they cloak desire. Their words are covert appeals. I
hear round me the everlasting cry: yield, yield, for that is all we want
from young women.'

'True,' said Farwell, 'I have never denied this.'

'And yet,' answered Victoria angrily, 'you almost blame me. I tell you
that I have never seen the world as I do now. Men have no use for us
save as mistresses, whether legal or not. Perhaps they will have us as
breeders or housekeepers, but the mistress is the root of it all. And if
they can gain us without pledges, without risks, by promises, by force
or by deceit, they will.'

Farwell said nothing. His eyes were full of sorrow.

'My husband drank himself to death,' pursued Victoria in low tones.
'The proprietor of the Rosebud tried to force me to become his toy . . .
perhaps he would have thrown me on the streets if he had had time to
pursue me longer and if I refused myself still . . . because he was my
employer and all is fair in what they call love . . . The customers
bought every day for twopence the right to stare through my openwork
blouse, to touch my hand, to brush my knees with theirs. One, who seemed
above them, tried to break my body into obedience by force . . . Here,
at the P.R.R. I am a toy still, though more of a servant . . . Soon I
shall be a <DW36> and good neither for servant nor mistress, what will
you do with me?'

Farwell made a despairing gesture with his hand.

'I tell you,' said Victoria with ferocious intensity. 'You're right,
life's a fight and I'm going to win, for my eyes are clear. I have done
with sentiment and sympathy. A man may command respect as a wage earner;
a woman commands nothing but what she can cheat out of men's senses. She
must be rich, she must be economically independent. Then men will crawl
where they hectored, worship that which they burned. And if I must be
dependent to become independent, that is a stage I am ready for.'

'What are you going to do?' asked Farwell.

'I'm going to live with this man,' said Victoria in a frozen voice. 'I
neither love nor hate him. I am going to exploit him, to extort from him
as much of the joy of life as I can, but above all I am going to draw
from him, from others too if I can, as much wealth as I can. I will
store it, hive it bee-like, and when my treasure is great enough I will
consume it. And the world will stand by and shout: hallelujah, a rich
woman cometh into her kingdom.'

Farwell remained silent for a minute.

'You are right,' he said, 'if you must choose, then be strong and carve
your way into freedom. I have not done this, and the world has sucked me
dry. You can still be free, so do not shrink from the means. You are a
woman, your body is your fortune, your only fortune, so transmute it
into gold. You will succeed, you will be rich; and the swine, instead of
trampling on you, will herd round the trough where you scatter pearls.'

He stopped for a moment, slowly puffing at his pipe.

'Women's profession,' he muttered. 'The time will come . . .
but to-day. . . .'

Victoria looked at him, a faint figure in the night. He was the spectral
prophet, a David in fear of Goliath.

'Yes,' she said, 'woman's profession.'

Together they walked away. Farwell was almost soliloquising. 'If she is
brave, life is easier for a woman than a man. She can play on him; but
her head must be cool, her heart silent. Hear this, Victoria. Remember
yours is a trade and needs your application. To win this fight you must
be well equipped. Let your touch be soft as velvet, your grip as hard as
steel. Shrink from nothing, rise to treachery, let the worldly nadir be
your zenith.'

He stopped before a public house and opened the door of the bar a
little.

'Look in here,' he said.

Victoria looked. There were five men, half hidden in smoke; among them
sat one woman clad in vivid colours, her face painted, her hands dirty
and covered with rings. Her yellow hair made a vivid patch against the
brown wall. A yard away, alone at a small table, sat another woman,
covered too with cheap finery, with weary eyes and a smiling mouth, her
figure abandoned on a sofa, lost to the scene, her look fixed on the
side door through which men slink in.

'Remember,' said Farwell, 'give no quarter in the struggle, for you will
get none.'

Victoria shuddered. But the fury was upon her.

'Don't be afraid,' she hissed, 'I'll spare nobody. They've already given
me a taste of the whip. I know, I understand; those girls don't. I see
the goal before me and therefore I will reach it.'

Farwell looked at her again, his eyes full of melancholy.

'Go then, Victoria,' he said, 'and work out your fate.'




PART II




CHAPTER I


VICTORIA turned uneasily on the sofa and stretched her arms. She yawned,
then sat up abruptly. Sudermann's _Katzensteg_ fell to the ground off
her lap. She was in a tiny back room, so overcrowded by the sofa and
easy-chair that she could almost touch a small rosewood bureau opposite.
She looked round the room lazily, then relapsed on the sofa, hugging a
cushion. She snuggled her face into it, voluptuously breathing in its
compactness laden with scent and tobacco smoke. Then, looking up, she
reflected that she was very comfortable.

Victoria's boudoir was the back extension of the dining-room. Shut off
by the folding doors, it contained within its tiny space the comfort
which is only found in small rooms. It was papered red with a flowered
pattern, which she thought ugly, but which had just been imported from
France and was quite the thing. The sofa and easy-chair were covered
with obtrusively new red and white chintz; a little pile of cushions had
fallen on the indeterminate Persian pattern of the carpet. Long
coffee- curtains, banded with chintz, shut out part of the high
window, through which a little of the garden and the bare branches of a
tree could be seen. Victoria took all this in for the hundredth time.
She had been sleeping for an hour; she felt smooth, stroked; she could
have hugged all these pretty things, the little brass fender, the books,
the Delft inkpot on the little bureau. Everything in the room was
already intimate. Her eyes dwelt on the clean chintzes, on the half
blinds surmounted by insertion, the brass ashtrays, the massive silver
cigarette box.

Victoria stood up, the movement changing the direction of her
contemplative mood. The Gothic rosewood clock told her it was a little
after three. She went to the cigarette box and lit a cigarette. While
slowly inhaling the smoke, she rang the bell. On her right forefinger
there was a faint yellow tinge of nicotine which had reached the nail.

'I shall have to be manicured again,' she soliloquised. 'What a
nuisance. Better have it done to-day while I get my hair done too.'

'Yes, mum.' A neat dark maid stood at the door. Victoria did not answer
for a second. The girl's black dress was perfectly brushed, her cap,
collar, cuffs, apron, immaculate white.

'I'm going out now, Mary,' said Victoria. 'You'd better get my brown
velvet out.'

'Yes, mum,' said the maid. 'Will you be back for dinner, mum?'

'No, I'm dining with the Major. Oh, don't get the velvet out. It's muddy
out, isn't it?'

'Yes, mum. It's been raining in the morning, mum.'

'Ah, well, perhaps I'd better wear the grey coat and skirt. And my furs
and toque.'

'The beaver, mum?'

'No, of course not, the white fox. And, oh, Mary, I've lost my little
bag somewhere. And tell Charlotte to send me up a cup of tea at
half-past three.'

Mary left the room silently. She seldom asked questions, and never
expressed pleasure, displeasure or surprise.

Victoria walked up to her bedroom; the staircase was papered with a
pretty blue and white pattern over a dado of white lincrusta. A few
French engravings stood out in their old gold frames. Victoria stopped
at the first landing to look at her favourite, after Lancret; it
represented lovers surprised in a barn by an irate husband.

The bedroom occupied the entire first floor. On taking possession of the
little house she had realised that, as she would have no callers, a
drawing-room would be absurd, so had suppressed the folding doors and
made the two rooms into one large one. In the front, between the two
windows, stood her dressing-table, now covered with small bottles, some
in cut glass and full of scent, others more workmanlike, marked
vaseline, glycerine, skin food, bay rum. Scattered about them on the
lace toilet cover, were boxes of powder, white, sepia, bluish, puffs,
little sticks of cosmetics, some silver-backed brushes, some squat and
short-bristled, others with long handles, with long soft bristles, one
studded with short wires, another with whalebone, some clothes brushes
too, buttonhooks, silver trays, a handglass with a massive silver
handle. Right and left, two little electric lamps and above the swinging
mirror, a shaded bulb shedding a candid glow.

One wall was blotted out by two inlaid mahogany wardrobes; through the
open doors of one could be seen a pile of frilled linen, lace
petticoats, chemises threaded with  ribbons. On the large
arm-chair, covered with blue and white chintz, was a crumpled heap of
white linen, a pair of _cafe au lait_ silk stockings. A light mahogany
chair or two stood about the room. Each had a blue and white cushion. A
large wash-stand stood near the mantlepiece, laden with blue and white
ware. The walls were covered with blue silky paper, dotted here and
there with some colour prints. These were mostly English; their nude
beauties sprawled and languished slyly among bushes, listening to the
pipes of Pan.

Victoria went into the back of the room, and, unhooking her cream silk
dressing jacket, threw it on the bed. This was a vast low edifice of
glittering brown wood, covered now by a blue and white silk bedspread
with edges smothered in lace; from the head of the bed peeped out the
tips of two lace pillows. By the side of the bed, on the little night
table, stood two or three books, a reading lamp and a small silver
basket full of sweets. An ivory bell-pull hung by the side of a swinging
switch just between the pillows.

Victoria walked past the bed and looked at herself in the high
looking-glass set into the wall which rose from the floor to well above
her head. The mirror threw back a pleasing reflection. It showed her a
woman of twenty-six, neither short nor tall, dressed in a white
petticoat and mauve silk corsets. The corsets fitted well into the
figure which was round and inclined to be full. Her arms and neck,
framed with white frillings, were uniformly cream , shadowed a
little darker at the elbows, near the rounded shoulders and under the
jaw; all her skin had a glow, half vigorous, half delicate. But the
woman's face interested Victoria more. Her hair was piled high and black
over a broad low white forehead; the cream of the skin turned faintly
into colour at the cheeks, into crimson at the lips; her eyes were
large, steel grey, long lashed and thrown into relief by a faintly mauve
aura. There was strength in the jaw, square, hard, fine cut; there was
strength too in the steadiness of the eyes, in the slightly compressed
red lips.

'Yes,' said Victoria to the picture, 'you mean business.' She reflected
that she was fatter than she had ever been. Two months of rest had
worked a revolution in her. The sudden change from toil to idleness had
caused a reaction. There was something almost matronly about the soft
curves of her breast. But the change was to the good. She was less
interesting than the day when the Major sat face to face with her in
Soho, his pulse beating quicker and quicker as her ravished beauty
stimulated him by its novelty; but she was a finer animal. Indeed she
realised to the full that she had never been so beautiful, that she had
never been beautiful before, as men understand beauty.

The past two months had been busy as well as idle, busy that is as an
idle woman's time. She had felt weary now and then, like those
unfortunates who are bound to the wheel of pleasure and are compelled to
'do too much.' Major Cairns had launched out into his first experiment
in pseudo-married life with an almost boyish zest. It was he who had
practically compelled her to take the little house in Elm Tree Place.

'Think of it, Vic,' he had said, 'your own little den. With no prying
neighbours. And your own little garden. And dogs.'

He had waxed quite sentimental over it and Victoria, full of the
gratitude that makes a woman cling to the fireman when he has rescued
her, had helped him to build a home for the idyll. Within a feverish
month he had produced the house as it stood. He had hardly allowed
Victoria any choice in the matter, for he would not let her do anything.
He practically compelled her to keep to her suite at the hotel, so that
she might get well. He struggled alone with the decoration, plumbing,
furniture and linoleum, linen and garden. Now and then he would ring up
to know whether she preferred salmon pink to _fraise ecrasee_ cushions,
or he would come up to the hotel rent in twain by conflicting rugs. At
last he had pronounced the house ready, and, after supplying it with
Mary and Charlotte, had triumphantly installed his new queen in her
palace.

Victoria's first revelation was one of immense joy; unquestioning, and
for one moment quite disinterested. It was not until a few hours had
elapsed that she regained mastery over herself. She went from room to
room punching cushions, pressing her hands over the polished wood, at
times feeling voluptuously on hands and knees the pile of the carpets.
She almost loved Cairns at the moment. It was quite honestly that she
drew him down by her side on the red and white sofa and softly kissed
his cheek and drove his ragged moustache into rebellion. It was quite
willingly too that she felt his grasp tighten on her and that she
yielded to him. Her lips did not abhor his kisses.

Some hours later she became herself again. Cairns was good to her, but
good as the grazier is to the heifer from whom he hopes to breed; she
was his creature, and must be well housed, well fed, well clothed, so
that his eyes might feast on her, scented so that his desire for her
might be whipped into action. In her moments of cold horror in the past
she had realised herself as a commodity, as a beast of burden; now she
realised herself as a beast of pleasure. The only thing to remember then
was to coin into gold her condescension.

Victoria looked at herself again in the glass. Yes, it was
condescension. As a free woman, that is, a woman of means, she would
never have surrendered to Cairns the tips of her fingers. Off the coast
of Araby she had yielded to him a little, so badly did she need human
sympathy, a little warmth in the cold of the lonely night. When he
appeared again as the rescuer she had flung herself into his arms with
an appalling fetterless joy. She had plunged her life into his as into
Nirvana.

Now her head was cooler. Indeed it had been cool for a month. She saw
Cairns as an average man, neither good nor evil, a son of his father and
the seed thereof, bound by a strict code of honour and a lax code of
morals. She saw him as a dull man with the superficial polish that even
the roughest pebble acquires in the stream of life. He had found her at
low water mark, stranded and gasping on the sands; he had picked her up
and imprisoned her in this vivarium to which he alone had access, where
he could enjoy his capture to the full.

'And the capture's business is to get as much out of the captor as
possible, so as to buy its freedom back.' This was Victoria's new
philosophy. She had dexterously induced Cairns to give her a thousand a
year. She knew perfectly well that she could live on seven hundred,
perhaps on six. Besides, she played on his pride. Cairns was after all
only a big middle-aged boy; it made him swell to accompany Victoria to
Sloane Street to buy a hat, to the Leicester Gallery to see the latest
one-man show. She was a credit to a fellow. Thus she found no difficulty
in making him buy her sables, gold purses, Whistler etchings. They would
come in handy, she reflected, 'when the big bust-up came.' For Victoria
was not rocking herself in the transitory, but from the very first
making ready for the storm which follows on the longest stretch of fair
weather.

'Yes,' said Victoria again to the mirror, 'you mean business.' The door
opened and almost noiselessly closed. Mary brought in a tray covered
with a clean set of silver-backed brushes, and piled up the other ready
to take away. She put a water can on the washstand and parsimoniously
measured into it some attar of roses. Victoria stepped out into the
middle of the room and stood there braced and stiff as the maid unlaced
and then tightened her stays.

'What will you wear this evening, mum?' asked Mary, as Victoria sat down
in the low dressing chair opposite the swinging glass.

'This evening,' mused Victoria. 'Let me see, there's the _gris perle_.'

'No, mum, I've sent it to the cleaner's,' said Mary. Her fingers were
deftly removing the sham curls from Victoria's back hair.

'You've worn it four times, mum,' she added reproachfully.

'Oh, have I? I don't think. . . . oh, that's all right, Mary.'

Victoria reflected that she would never have a well-trained maid if she
finished sentences such as this. Four times! Well, she must give the
Major his money's worth.

'You might wear your red Directoire, mum,' suggested Mary in the
unemotional tones of one who is paid not to hear slips.

'I might. Yes. Perhaps it's a little loud for the Carlton.'

'Yes, mum,' said Mary without committing herself.

'After all, I don't think it is so loud.'

'No, mum,' said Mary in even tones. She deftly rolled her mistress'
plaits round the crown.

Victoria felt vaguely annoyed. The woman's words were anonymous.

'But what _do_ you think, Mary,' she asked.

'Oh, I think you're quite right, mum,' said Mary.

Victoria watched her face in the glass. Not a wave of opinion rippled
over it.

Victoria got up. She stretched out her arms for Mary to slip the skirt
over her head. The maid closed the lace blouse, quickly clipped the
fasteners together, then closed the placket hole completely. Without a
word she fetched the light grey coat, slipped it on Victoria's
shoulders. She found the grey skin bag, while Victoria put on her white
fox toque. She then encased Victoria's head in a grey silk veil and
sprayed her with scent. Victoria looked at herself in the glass. She was
very lovely, she thought.

'Anything else, mum,' said Mary's quiet voice.

'No, Mary, nothing else.'

'Thank you, mum.'

As Victoria turned, she found the maid had disappeared, but her
watchful presence was by the front door to open it for her. Victoria saw
her from the stairs, a short erect figure, with a pale face framed in
dark hair. She stood with one hand on the latch, the other holding a cab
whistle; her eyes were fixed upon the ground. As Victoria passed out she
looked at Mary. The girl's eyes were averted still, her face without a
question. Upon her left hand she wore a thin gold ring with a single red
stone. The ring fastened on Victoria's imagination as she stepped into a
hansom which was loafing near the door. It was not the custom, she knew,
for a maid to wear a ring; and this alone was enough to amaze her. Was
it possible that Mary's armour was not perfect in every point of
servility? No doubt she had just put it on as it was her evening out and
she would be leaving the house in another half hour. And then? Would
another and a stronger hand take hers, hold it, twine its fingers among
her fingers. Victoria wondered, for the vision of love and Mary were
incongruous ideas. It was almost inconceivable that with her cap and
apron she doffed the mantle of her reserve; she surely could not
vibrate; her heart could not beat in unison with another. Yet, there was
the ring, the promise of passion. Victoria nursed for a moment the
vision of the two spectral figures, walking in a dusky park, arms round
waists, then of shapes blended on a seat, faces hidden, lip to lip.

Victoria threw herself back in the cab. What did it all matter after
all? Mary was the beast of burden which she had captured by piracy. She
had been her equal once when abiding by the law; she had shared her toil
and her slender meed of thanks. Now she was a buccaneer, outside the
social code, and as such earned the right to command. So much did
Victoria dominate that she thought she would refrain from the exercise
of a bourgeois prerogative: the girl should wear her ring, even though
custom forbade it, load herself with trinkets if she chose, for as a
worker and a respecter of social laws surely she might well be treated
as the sacrificial ox.

The horse trotted down Baker Street, then through Wigmore Street.
Daylight was already waning; here and there houses were breaking into
light between the shops, some of which had remembered it was Christmas
eve and decked themselves out in holly. At the corner near the Bechstein
Hall the cab came to a stop behind the long line of carriages waiting
for the end of a concert. Victoria had time to see the old crossing
sweeper, with a smile on his face and mistletoe in his battered
billy-cock. The festivities would no doubt yield him his annual kind
word from the world. She passed the carriages, all empty still. The
cushions were rich, she could see. Here and there she could see a fur
coat or a book on the seat; in one of them sat an elderly maid, watching
the carriage clock under the electric light, meanwhile nursing a
chocolate pom who growled as Victoria passed.

'Slaves all of them,' thought Victoria. 'A slave the good elderly maid,
thankful for the crumbs that fall from the pom's table. Slaves too, the
fat coachman, the slim footman despite their handsome English faces, lit
up by a gas lamp. The raw material of fashion.'

The cab turned into the greater blaze of Oxford Circus, past the Princes
Street P.R.R. There was a great show of Christmas cakes there. From the
cab Victoria, craning out, could see a young and pretty girl behind the
counter busily packing frosted biscuits. Victoria felt warmed by the
sight; she was not malicious, but the contrast told her of her
emancipation from the thrall of eight bob a week. Through Regent Street,
all congested with traffic, little figures laden with parcels darting
like frightened ants under the horse's nose, then into the immensity of
Whitehall, the cab stopped at the Stores in Victoria Street.

Victoria had but recently joined. A store ticket and a telephone are the
next best thing to respectability and the same thing as regards comfort.
They go far to establish one's social position. Victoria struggled
through the wedged crowd. Here and there boys and girls with flushed
faces, who enjoyed being squashed. She could see crowds of jolly women
picking from the counters things useful and things pretty; upon signal
discoveries loudly proclaimed followed continual exclamations that they
would not do. Family parties, excited and talkative, left her unmoved.
That world, that of the rich and the free, would ultimately be hers; her
past, that of the worn men and women ministering behind the counter to
the whims of her future world, was dead.

She only had to buy a few Christmas presents. There was one for Betty,
one for Cairns, and two for the servants. In the clothing department she
selected a pretty blue merino dressing-gown and a long purple sweater
for Betty. The measurements were much the same as hers, if a little
slighter; besides such garments need not fit. She went downstairs and
disposed of the Major by means of a small gold cigarette case with a
leather cover. No doubt he had a dozen, but what could she give a man?

The Stores buzzed round her like a parliament of bees. Now and then
people shouldered past her, a woman trod on her foot and neglected to
apologise; parcels too, inconveniently carried, struck her as she
passed. She felt the joy of the lost; for none looked at her, save now
and then a man drowned in the sea of women. The atmosphere was stuffy,
however, and time was precious as she had put off buying presents until
so late. Followed by a porter with her parcels she left the Stores,
experiencing the pleasure of credit on an overdrawn deposit order
account. The man piled the goods in a cab, and in a few minutes she had
transferred Betty's presents to a carrier's office, with instructions
to send them off at eight o'clock by a messenger who was to wait at the
door until the addressee returned. This was not unnecessary foresight,
for Betty would not be back until nine. With the Major's cigarette case
in her white muff, Victoria then drove to Bond Street, there to snatch a
cup of tea. On the way she stopped the cab to buy a lace blouse for Mary
and an umbrella for Charlotte, having forgotten them in her hurry. She
decided to have tea at Miss Fortesque's, for Miss Fortesque's is one of
those tearooms where ladies serve ladies, and the newest fashions come.
It is the right place to be seen in at five o'clock. At the door a small
boy in an Eton jacket and collar solemnly salutes with a shiny topper.
Inside, the English character of the room is emphasized. There are no
bamboo tables, no skimpy French chairs or Japanese umbrellas; everything
is severely plain and impeccably clean. The wood shines, the table linen
is hard and glossy, the glass is hand cut and heavy, the plate quite
plain and obviously dear. On the white distempered walls are colour
prints after Reynolds, Romney, Gainsborough. All conspires with the
thick carpet to promote silence, even the china and glass, which seem no
more to dare to rattle than if they were used in a men's club.

Victoria settled down in a large chintz-covered arm chair and ordered
tea from a good-looking girl in a dark grey blouse and dress. Visibly a
hockey skirt had not long ago been more natural to her. As she returned
Victoria observed the slim straight lines of her undeveloped figure. She
was half graceful, half gawky, like most young English girls.

'It's been very cold to-day, hasn't it?' said the girl as she set down
bread and butter, then cake and jam sandwiches.

'Very,' Victoria looked at her narrowly. 'I suppose it doesn't matter
much in here, though.'

'Oh, no, we don't notice it.' The girl looked weary for a second. Then
she smiled at Victoria and walked away to a corner where she stood
listlessly.

'Slave, slave.' The words rang through Victoria's head. 'You talk to me
when you're sick of the sight of me. You talk of things you don't care
about. You smile if you feel your face shows you are tired, in the hope
I'll tip you silver instead of copper.'

Victoria looked round the room. It was fairly full, and as Fortesquean
as it was British. The Fortesque tradition is less fluid than the
constitution of the Empire. Its tables shout 'we are old wood'; its cups
say 'we are real porcelain'; and its customers look at one another and
say 'who the devil are you?' Nobody thinks of having tea there unless
they have between one and three thousand a year. It is too quiet for ten
thousand a year or for three pounds a week; it caters for ladies and
gentlemen and freezes out everybody else, regardless of turnover. Thus
its congregation (for its afternoon rite is almost hieratical)
invariably includes a retired colonel, a dowager with a daughter about
to come out, several squiresses who came to Miss Fortesque's as little
girls and are handing on the torch to their own. There is a sprinkling
of women who have been shopping in Bond Street, buying things good but
not showy. As the customers, or rather clients, lapse with a sigh into
the comfortable armchairs they look round with the covert elegance that
says, 'And who the devil are you?'

Victoria was in her element. She had had tea at Miss Fortesque's some
dozen years before when up for the week from Lympton; thus she felt she
had the freedom of the house. She sipped her tea and dropped crumbs with
unconcern. She looked at the dowager without curiosity. The dowager
speculated as to the maker of her coat and skirt. Victoria's eyes fixed
again on the girl who was passing her with a laden tray. The effort was
bringing out the beautiful lines of the slender arms, drooping
shoulders, round bust. Her fair hair clustered low over the creamy nape.

'Slave, slave,' thought Victoria again. 'What are you doing, you fool?
Roughening your hands, losing flesh, growing old. And there's nothing
for a girl to do but serve on, serve, always serve. Until you get too
old. And then, scrapped. Or you marry . . . anything that comes along.
Good luck to you, paragon, on your eight bob a week.'

Victoria went downstairs and got into the cab which had been waiting for
her with the servants' presents. It was no longer cold, but foggy and
warm. She undid her white fox stole, dropping on the seat her crocodile
skin bag, whence escaped a swollen purse of gold mesh.

Upstairs the girl cleared away. Under the butter-smeared plate which
slipped through her fingers she found half-a-crown. Her heart bounded
with joy.




CHAPTER II


'TOM, you know how I hate _tournedos_,' said Victoria petulantly.

'Sorry, old girl.' Cairns turned and motioned to the waiter. While he
was exchanging murmurs with the man Victoria observed him. Cairns was
not bad looking, redder and stouter than ever. He was turning into the
'jolly old Major' type, short, broad, strangled in cross barred cravats
and tight frock-coats. In evening dress, his face and hands emerging
from his shirt and collar, he looked like an enormous dish of
strawberries and cream.

'I've ordered quails for you? Will that do, Miss Dainty?'

'Yes, that's better.'

She smiled at him and he smiled back.

'By jove, Vic,' he whispered, 'you look fine. Nothing like pink shades
for the complexion.'

'I think you're very rude,' said Victoria smiling.

'Honest,' said Cairns. 'And why not? No harm in looking your best is
there? Now my light's yellow. Brings me down from tomato to carrot.'

'Fishing again. No good, Tommy old chap.'

'Never mind me,' said Cairns with a laugh. He paused and looked intently
at Victoria, then cautiously round him. They were almost in the middle
of the restaurant, but it was still only half full. Cairns had fixed
dinner for seven, though they were only due for a music hall; he hated
to hurry over his coffee. Thus they were in a little island of pink
light surrounded by penumbra. Softly attuned, Mimi's song before the
gates of Paris floated in from the balcony.

'Vic,' said Cairns gravely, 'you're lovely. I've never seen you like
this before.'

'Do you like my gown?' she asked coquettishly.

'Your gown!' Cairns said 'Your gown's like a stalk, Vic, and you're a
big white flower bursting from it . . . a big white flower, pink
flecked, scented. . . .'

'Sh . . . Tom, don't talk like that in here.' Victoria slid her foot
forward, slipped off her shoe and gently put her foot on the Major's
instep. His eyes blinked quickly twice. He reached out for his glass and
gulped down the champagne.

The waiter returned, velvet footed. Every one of his gestures
consecrated the quails resting on the flowered white plates, surrounded
by a succulent lake of aromatic sauce.

They ate silently. There was already between them the good understanding
which makes speech unnecessary. Victoria looked about her from time to
time. The couples interested her, for they were nearly all couples. Most
of them comprised a man between thirty and forty, and a woman some years
his junior. Their behaviour was severely decorous, in fact a little
languid. From a table near by a woman's voice floated lazily,

'I rather like this pub, Robbie.'

Indeed the acceptance of the pubbishness of the place was characteristic
of its frequenters. Most of the men looked vaguely weary; some keenly
interested bent over the silver laden tables, their eyes fixed on their
women's arms. Here and there a foreigner with coal black hair, a soft
shirt front and a fancy white waistcoat, spiced with originality the
sedateness of English gaiety. An American woman was giving herself away
by a semitone, but her gown was exquisite and its _decolletage_
challenged gravitation.

Cairns' attitude was exasperatingly that of Gallio, save as concerned
Victoria. His eyes did not leave her. She knew perfectly well that he
was inspecting her, watching the rise and fall on her white breast of
his Christmas gift, a diamond cross. They both refused the mousse and
Victoria mischievously leant forward, her hands crossed under her chin,
her arms so near Cairns' face that he could see on them the fine black
shading of the down.

'Well, Tom?' she asked. 'Quite happy?'

'No,' growled Cairns, 'you know what I want.'

'Patience and shuffle the cards,' said Victoria, 'and be thankful I'm
here at all. But I musn't rot you Tommy dear, after a present like
that.'

She slipped her fingers under the diamond cross. Cairns watched the
picture made by the rosy manicured finger nails, the sparkling stones,
the white skin.

'A pity it doesn't match my rings,' she remarked.

Cairns looked at her hand.

'Oh, no more it does. I thought you had a half hoop. Never mind, dear.
Give me that sapphire ring.'

'What do you want it for?' asked Victoria with a conscious smile.

'That's my business.'

She slipped it off. He took it, pressing her fingers.

'I think you ought to have a half hoop,' he said conclusively.

Victoria leant back in her chair. Her smile was triumphant. Truly, men
are hard masters but docile slaves.

'You'll spoil me, Tom,' she said weakly. 'I don't want you to think that
I'm fishing for things. I'm quite happy, you know. I'd rather you didn't
give me another ring.'

'Nonsense,' said Cairns, 'I wouldn't give it you if I didn't like to see
it on your hand.'

'I don't believe you,' she said smoothly, but the phrase rang true.

Some minutes later, as they passed down the stairs into the palm room,
she was conscious of the eyes that followed her. Those of the men were
mostly a little dilated; the women seemed more cynically interested, as
suits those who appraise not bodies but garments. Major Cairns, walking
a step behind her, was still looking well, with his close cut hair and
moustache, stiff white linen and erect bearing. Victoria realised
herself as a queen in a worthy kingdom. But the kingdom was not the one
she wished to hold with all the force of her beauty. That beauty was
transitory, or at least its subtler quality was. As Victoria lay in the
brougham with Cairns's arm holding her close to him, she still
remembered that the fading of her beauty might synchronise with the
growth of her wealth. A memory from some book on political economy
flashed through her mind: beauty was a wasting asset.

Cairns kissed her on the lips. An atmosphere of champagne, coffee,
tobacco, enveloped her as her breath mixed with his. She coiled one arm
round his neck and returned his kisses.

'Vic, Vic,' he murmured, 'can't you love me a little?'

She put her hand behind his neck and once more kissed his lips. He must
be lulled, but not into security.

Victoria had never realised her strength and her freedom so well as that
night, as she leant back in her box. Her face and breast, the Major's
shirt front, were the only spots of light which emerged from the
darkness of the box as if pictured by a German impressionist; down
below, under the mist, the damned souls revelled in the cheap seats;
they swayed, a black mass speckled with hundreds of white collars,
dotted with points of fire in the bowls of pipes. By the side of the
men, girls in white blouses or crude colours, shrouded in the mist of
tobacco smoke. Now and then a ring coiled up from a cigar in the stalls,
swirled in the air for a moment and then broke.

Just behind the footlights blazing over the blackness, a little fat man,
with preposterous breeches, a coat of many colours, a yellow wisp of
hair clashing with his vinous nose, sang of the Bank and his manifold
accounts. A faint salvo of applause ushered him out, then swelled into a
tempest as the next number went up.

'Tommy Bung, you're in luck,' said the Major, taking off Victoria's
wrap.

She craned forward to see. A woman with masses of fair hair, bowered in
blue velvet, took a long look at her from the stage box through an opera
glass.

The curtain went up. There was a roar of applause. Tommy Bung was ready
for the audience and had already fallen into a tub of whitewash. The
sorry object extricated itself. His red nose shone, star like. He rolled
ferocious eyes at a girl. The crowd rocked with joy. Without a word the
great Tommy Bang began to dance. At once the hall followed the splendid
metre. Up and down, up and down, twisting, curvetting, Tommy Bung held
his audience spellbound with rhythm. They swayed sharply with the
alternations.

Victoria watched the Major. His hands were beating time. Tommy Bung
brought his effort to a conclusion by beating the floor, the soles of
his feet, the scenery, and punctuated the final thwack with a well timed
leap on the prompter's box.

Victoria was losing touch with things. Waves of heat seemed to overwhelm
her; little figures of jugglers, gymnasts, performing dogs, passed
before her eyes like arabesques. Then again raucous voices. The crowd
was applauding hysterically. It was Number Fourteen, whose great name
she was fated never to know. Unsteadily poised on legs wide apart,
Number Fourteen sang. Uncontrollable glee radiated from him--

    Now kids is orl right
    When yer ain't got none;
    Yer can sit at 'ome
    An' eat 'cher dam bun.
    I've just 'ad some twins;
    Nurse says don't be coy,
    For they're just the picture
    Of the lodger's boy.
      Tinka, Tinka, Tinka; Tinka, Tinka, Tink
      'It 'im in the eye and made the lodger blink.
      Tinga, Tinga, Tinga; Tinga, Tinga, Teg
      Never larfed so much since farver broke 'is leg.

A roar of applause encouraged him. Victoria saw Cairns carried away,
clapping, laughing. In the bar below she could hear continuously the
thud of the levers belching beer. Number Fourteen was still singing, his
smile wide-slit through his face--

    Now me paw-in-law
    'E's a rum ole bloke;
    Got a 'and as light
    As a ton o' coke.
    Came 'ome late one night
    An' what oh did 'e see?
    Saw me ma-in-law
    On the lodger's knee.
      Tinka, Tinka, Tinka; Tinka, Tinka, Tink
      'It 'im in the eye an' made the lodger blink.
      Tinga, Tinga, Tinga; Tinga, Tinga, Teg,
      Never larfed so much since farver broke 'is leg.

Enthusiasm was rising high. Number Fourteen braced himself for his great
effort on the effects of beer. Then, gracious and master of the crowd,
he beat time with his hands while the chorus sounded from a thousand
throats. Victoria happened to look at Cairns. His head was beating time
and, from his lips issued gleefully:

    Tinka, Tinka, Tinka; Tinka, Tinka, Tink
    'It 'im in the eye--

Victoria scrutinised him narrowly. Cairns was a phenomenon.

'Never larfed so much since farver broke 'is leg,' roared Cairns. 'I
say, Vic, he really _is_ good.' He noticed her puzzled expression. 'I
say, Vic, what's up? Don't you like him?'

Victoria did not answer for a second.

'Oh, yes, I--he's very funny--you see I've never been in a music hall
before.'

'Oh, is that it?' Cairns's brow cleared. 'It's a little coarse, but so
natural.'

'Is that the same thing?' asked Victoria.

'S'pose it is. With some of us anyhow. But what's the next?'

Cairns had already relapsed into the programme. He hated the abstract; a
public school, Sandhurst and the army had armoured him magnificently
against intrusive thought. They watched the next turn silently. A couple
of cross-talk comedians, one a shocking creature in pegtop trousers, a
shock yellow head and a battered opera hat, the other young, handsome
and smart as a superior barber's assistant, gibbered incomprehensibly of
songs they couldn't sing and lies they could tell.

The splendid irresponsibility of the music hall was wasted on Victoria.
She had the mind of a schoolmistress grafted on a social sense. She saw
nothing before her but the gross riot of the drunken. She saw no humour
in that cockney cruelty, capable though it be of absurd generosity. She
resented too Cairns's boyish pleasure in it all; he revelled, she felt,
as a buffalo wallows in a mud bath. He was gross, stupid, dull. It was
degrading to be his instrument of pleasure. But, after all, what did it
matter? He was the narrow way which would lead her to the august.

Though Cairns was not thin-skinned he perceived a little of this.
Without a word he watched the cross-talk comedians, then the 'Dandy Girl
of Cornucopia,' a rainbow of stiff frills with a voice like a fretsaw.
As the lights went down for the bioscope, the idea of reconciliation
that springs from fat cheery hearts overwhelmed him. He put his hand out
and closed it over hers. With a tremendous effort she repressed her
repulsion, and in so doing won her victory. In the darkness Cairns threw
his arms round her. He drew her towards him, moved, the least bit
hysterical. As if fearful of losing her he crushed her against his shirt
front.

Victoria did not resist him. Her eyes fixed on the blackness of the roof
she submitted to the growing brutality of his kisses on her neck, her
shoulders, her cheeks. Pressed close against him she did not withdraw
her knees from the grasp of his.

'Kiss me,' whispered Cairns imperiously.

She cast down her eyes; she could hardly see his face in the darkness,
nothing but the glitter of his eyeballs. Then, unhurried and purposeful,
she pressed her lips to his. The lights went up again. Many of the crowd
were stirring; Victoria stretched out her arms in a gesture of
weariness.

'Let's go home, Vic,' said Cairns, 'you're tired.'

'Oh, no, I'm not tired,' she said. 'I don't mind staying.'

'Well, you're bored.'

'No, not at all, it's quite interesting,' said Victoria judicially.

'Come along, Vic,' said Cairns sharply. He got up.

She looked up at him. His face was redder, more swollen than it had been
half-an-hour before. His eyes followed every movement of her arms and
shoulders. With a faint smile of understanding and the patience of those
who play lone hands, she got up and let him put on her wrap. As she put
it on she made him feel against his fingers the sweep of her arm; she
rested for a moment her shoulder against his.

In the cab they did not exchange a word. Victoria's eyes were fixed on
the leaden sky; she was this man's prey. But, after all, one man's prey
or another? The prey of those who demand bitter toil from the charwoman,
the female miner, the P.R.R. girl; or of those who want kisses, soft
flesh, pungent scents, what did it all amount to? And, in Oxford Street,
a sky sign in the shape of a horse-shoe advertising whisky suddenly
reminded her of the half hoop, a step towards that capital which meant
freedom. No, she was not the prey--at least not in the sense of the bait
which finally captures the salmon.

Cairns had not spoken a word. Victoria looked at him furtively. His
hands were clenched before him; in his eyes shone an indomitable
purpose. He was going to the feast and he would foot the bill. On
arriving at Elm Tree Place he walked at once into his dressing room,
while Victoria went into her bedroom. She knew his mood well and knew
too that he would not be long. She did not fancy overmuch the scene she
could conjure up. In another minute or two he would come in with the
culture of a thousand years ground down, smothered beneath the lava-like
flow of animalism. He would come with his hands shaking, ready to be
cruel in the exaction of his rights. She hovered between repulsion and
an anxiety which was almost anticipation; Cairns was the known and the
unknown at once. But whatever his demands they should be met and
satisfied, for business is business and its justification is profits. So
Victoria braced herself and, with feverish activity, twisted up her
hair, sprayed herself with scent, jumped into bed and turned out the
light.

As she did so the door opened. She was conscious for a fraction of a
second of the bright quadrilateral of the open door where Cairns stood
framed, a broad black silhouette.




CHAPTER III


'YES, I'm a lucky beggar,' soliloquised Cairns. He gave a tug to the
leads at which two Pekingese spaniels were straining. 'Come along, you
little brutes,' he growled. The spaniels, intent upon a piece of soiled
brown paper in the gutter, refused to move.

'Obstinate, sir,' said a policeman respectfully.

'Devilish. Simply devilish. Fine day, isn't it?'

'Blowing up for rain, sir.'

'Maybe. Come along, Snoo; that'll do.'

Cairns dragged the dogs up the road. Snoo and Poo, husband and wife, had
suddenly fascinated him in Villiers Street that morning. He was on his
way to offer them at Victoria's shrine. Instinctively he liked the smart
dog, as he liked the smart woman and the American novel. Snoo and Poo,
tiny, fat, curly, khaki-, with their flat Kalmuck faces,
unwillingly trundled behind him. They would, thought Cairns, be in
keeping with the establishment. A pleasant establishment. A nice little
house, in its quiet street where nothing ever seemed to pass, except
every hour or so a cab. It was better than a home, for it offered all
that a home offers, soft carpets, discreet servants, nice little lunches
among flowers and well-cleaned plate, and beyond, something that no home
contains. It was adventurous. Cairns had knocked about the world a good
deal and had collected sensations as finer natures collect thoughts. The
women of the past met and caressed on steam-boats, in hotels at Cairo,
Singapore and Cape Town, the tea gardens of Kobe and the stranger
mysteries of Zanzibar, all this had left him weary and sighing for
something like the English home. Indeed he grew more sentimental as he
thought of Dover cliffs every time his tailor called the measurement of
his girth. An extra quarter of an inch invariably coincided with a
sentimental pang. Cairns, however, would not yet have been capable of
settling down in a hunting county with a well-connected wife, a costly
farming experiment and the shilling weeklies. A transition was required;
he had no gift of introspection, but his relations with Victoria were
expressions of this mood. Thus he was happy.

He never entered the little house in Elm Tree Place without a thrill of
pleasure. Under the placid mask of its respectability and all that went
with it, clean white steps, half curtains, bulbs in the window boxes,
there flowed for him a swift hot stream. And in that stream flourished a
beautiful white lily whose petals opened and smiled at will.

'I wonder whether I'm in love with her?' This was a frequent subject for
Cairns's meditations. Victoria was so much more for him than any other
woman had been that he always hesitated to answer. She charmed him
sensually, but other women had done likewise; she was beautiful, but he
could conceive of greater beauty. Her intellect he did not consider, for
he was almost unaware of it. For him she was clever, in the sense that
women are clever in men's eyes when they can give a smart answer,
understand Bradshaw and order a possible combination at a restaurant.
What impressed him was Victoria's coolness, the balance of her unhurried
mind. Now and then he caught her reading curious books, such as
_Smiles's Self-Help_, _Letters of a Self-Made Merchant to his Son_ and
_Thus Spake Zara . . . Something_, by a man with a funny name; but this
was all part of her character and of its novelty. He did not worry to
scratch the surface of this brain; virgin soils did not interest him in
the mental sense. Sometimes, when he enounced a political opinion or
generalised on the problems of the day as stated in the morning paper,
he would find, a little uneasily, her eyes fixed on him with a strangely
interested look. But her eyelids would at once be lowered and her lips
would part, showing a little redder and moister, causing his heart to
beat quicker, and he would forget his perplexity as he took her hand and
stroked her arm with gentle insistence.

Cairns dragged Snoo and Poo up the steps of the little house still
grumbling, panting and protesting that, as drawing-room dogs, they
objected to exercise in any form. He had a latchkey, but always
refrained from using it. He liked to ring the bell, to feel like a
guest. It would have been commonplace to enter _his_ hall and hang up
_his_ hat on _his_ peg. That would have been home and home only. To ask
whether Mrs Ferris was in was more adventurous, for she might be out.
And if she expected him, then it was an assignation; adventure again.

The unimposing Mary let him in. For a fraction of a second she looked at
the Major, then at the floor.

'Mrs Ferris in?'

'Yes, sir, Mrs Ferris is in the boudoir.' Mary's voice fell on the last
necessary word like a dropgate. She had been asked a question and
answered it. That was the end of it. Cairns was the master of her
mistress. What respect she owed was paid.

Cairns deposited his hat and coat in Mary's hands. Then, lifting Snoo
under one arm and Poo under the other, both grumbling vigorously and
kicking with their hind legs, he walked to the boudoir and pushed it
open with his shoulder. Victoria was sitting at the little bureau
writing a letter. Cairns watched her for two seconds, rejoicing in the
firm white moulding of her neck, in the dark tendrils of hair clustering
low, dwindling into the central line of down which tells of breeding and
health. Then Victoria turned round sharply.

'Oh,' she said, with a little gasp. 'Oh, Tom, the ducks!'

Cairns laughed and, walking up to her, dropped Snoo on her lap and Poo,
snuffling ferociously, on the floor. Victoria buried her hands in Snoo's
thick coat; the dog gurgled joyfully and rolled over on its side.
Victoria laughed, muzzling Snoo with her hand.

Cairns watched the picture for, a moment. He was absurdly reminded of a
girl in Java who nursed a black marmoset against her yellow breast. And
as Victoria looked up at him, her chin now resting on Snoo's brown head,
a soft wave of scent rose towards him. He knelt down, throwing his arms
round her and the dog, gathering them both into his embrace. As his lips
met hers and clung to them, her perfume and the ranker scent of the dog
filled his nostrils, burning aphrodisiac into his brain.

Victoria freed herself gently and rose to her feet, still nursing Snoo,
and laughingly pushed him into Cairns's face.

'Kiss him,' she said, 'no favours here.'

Cairns obeyed, then picked up Poo and sat down on the couch.

'This is sweet of you, Tom,' said Victoria. 'They _are_ lovebirds.'

'I'm glad you like them; this is Poo I'm holding, yours is Snoo.'

'Odd names,' said Victoria.

'Chinese according to the dealer,' said Cairns, 'but I don't pretend to
know what they mean.'

'Never mind,' said Victoria, 'they're lovebirds, and so are you, Tom.'

Cairns looked at her silently, at her full erect figure and smiling
eyes. He was a lucky beggar, a damned lucky beggar.

'And what is this bribe for?' she asked.

'Oh, nothing. Knew you'd like them, beastly tempers and as game as mice.
Women's dogs, you know.'

'Generalising again, Tom. Besides I hate mice.'

Cairns drew her down by his side on the couch. Everything in this woman
interested and stimulated him. She was always fresh, always young. The
touch of her hand, the smell of her hair, the feel of her skirts winding
round his ankles, all that was magic; every little act of hers was a
taking of possession. Every time he mirrored his face in her eyes and
saw the eyelids slowly veil and unveil them, something like love crept
into his soul. But every passionate embrace left him weak and almost
repelled. She was his property; he had paid for her; and, insistent
thought, what would she have done if he had not been rich?

Half an hour passed away. Victoria lay passive in his arms. Snoo and
Poo, piled in a heap, were snuffling drowsily. There was a ring at the
front door, then a slam. They could hear voices. They started up.

'Who the deuce . . . .?' said Cairns.

Then they heard someone in the dining-room beyond the door. There was a
knock at the door of the boudoir.

'Come in,' said Victoria.

Mary entered. Her placid eyes passed over the Major's tie which had
burst out of his waistcoat, Victoria's tumbled hair.

'Mr Wren, mum,' she said.

Victoria staggered. Her hands knotted themselves together convulsively.

'Good God,' she whispered.

'Who is it? What does he want? What name did you say?' asked Cairns.
Victoria's excitement was infecting him.

Victoria did not answer. Mary stood before them, her eyes downcast
before the drama. She was waiting for orders.

'Can't you speak?' growled Cairns. 'Who is it?'

Victoria found her voice at last.

'My brother,' she said hoarsely.

Cairns did not say a word. He walked once up and once down the room,
stopped before the mirror to settle his tie. Then turned to Mary.

'Tell the gentleman Mrs Ferris can't see him!'

Mary turned to go. There was a sound of footsteps in the dining-room.
The button of the door turned twice as if somebody was trying to open
it. The door was locked but Cairns almost leaped towards it. Victoria
stopped him.

'No,' she said, 'let me have it out. Tell Mr Wren I'm coming, Mary.'

Mary turned away. The incident was fading from her mind as a stone fades
away as it falls into an abyss. Victoria clung to Cairns and whispered
in his ear.

'Tom, go away, go away. Come back in an hour. I beg you.'

'No, old girl, I'm going to see you through,' said Cairns doggedly.

'No, no, don't.' There was fear in her voice. 'I must have it out. Go
away, for my sake, Tom.'

She pushed him gently into the hall, forced him to pick up his hat and
stick and closed the door behind him. She braced herself for the effort;
for a second the staircase shivered before her eyes like a road in the
heat.

'Now for it,' she said, 'I'm in for a row.'

A pleasant little tingle was in her veins. She opened the dining-room
door. It was not very light. There was a slight singing in her ears.
She saw nothing before her except a man's legs clad in worn grey
trousers where the knees jutted forward sharply. With an effort she
raised her eyes and looked Edward in the face.

He was pale and thin as ever. A ragged wisp of yellow hair hung over the
left side of his forehead. He peered at her through his silver-mounted
glasses. His hands were twisting at his watch chain, quickly, nervously,
like a mouse in a wheel. As she looked at his weak mouth his
insignificance was revealed to her. Was this, this creature with the
vague idealistic face, the high shoulders, something to be afraid of?
Pooh!

'Well, Edward?' she said, involuntarily aggressive.

Wren did not answer. His hands suddenly stopped revolving.

'Well, Edward?' she repeated. 'So you've found me?'

'Yes,' he said at length. 'I . . . . Yes, I've found you.' The movement
of his hands began again.

'Well?'

'I know. I've found out. . . . I went to Finsbury.'

'Oh? I suppose you mean you tracked me from my old rooms. I suppose
Betty told you I . . . my new occupation.'

Wren jumped.

'Damn,' he growled. 'Damn you.'

Victoria smiled. Edward swearing. It was too funny. What an awful thing
it was to have a sense of humour.

'You seem to know all about it,' she said smoothly. 'But what do you
want?'

'How dare you,' growled Edward. 'A woman like you. . . . .'

A hard look came into Victoria's eyes.

'That will do Edward, I know my own business.'

'Yes, a dirty business.' A hot flush spread over the man's thin cheeks.

'You little cur.' Victoria smiled; she could feel her lips baring her
eye teeth. 'Fool.'

Edward stared at her. Passion was stifling his words.

'It's a lot you know about life, schoolmaster,' she sneered. 'Who are
you to preach at me? Is it your business if I choose to sell my body
instead of selling my labour?'

'You're disgraced.' His voice went down to a hoarse whisper.
'Disgraced.'

Victoria felt a wave of heat pass over her body.

'Disgraced, you fool? Will anybody ever teach you what disgrace is?
There's no such thing as disgrace for a woman. All women are disgraced
when they're born. We're parasites, toys. That's all we are. You've got
two kinds of uses for us, lords and masters! One kind is honourable
labour, as you say, namely the work undertaken by what you call the
lower classes; the other's a share in the nuptial couch, whether illegal
or legal. Yes, your holy matrimony is only another name for my
profession.'

'You've no right to say that,' cried Edward. 'You're trying to drag down
marriage to your level. When a woman marries she gives herself because
she loves; then her sacrifice is sublime.' He stopped for a second.
Idealism, sentimentalism, other names for ignorance of life, clashed in
his self-conscious brain without producing light. 'Oh, Victoria,' he
said, 'you don't know how awful it is for me to find you like this, my
little sister . . . of course you can't love him . . . if you'd married
him it would have been different.'

'Ah, Edward, so that's your philosophy. You say that though I don't love
him, if I'd married him it would have been different. So you won't let
me surrender to a man unless I can trick him or goad him into binding
himself to me for life. If I don't love him I may marry him and make
his life a hell and I shall be a good woman; but I mustn't live with him
illegally so that he may stick to me only so long as he cares for me.'

'I didn't say that,' stammered Edward. 'Of course, it's wrong to marry a
man you don't care for . . . but marriage is different, it sanctifies.'

'Sanctifies! Nothing sanctifies anything. Our deeds are holy or unholy
in themselves. Oh, understand me well, I claim no ethical revelation; I
don't care whether my deeds are holy or not. I judge nothing, not even
myself. All I say is that your holy bond is a farce; if women were
free--that is, trained, able and allowed to earn fair wages for fair
labour--then marriage might be holy. But marriage for a woman is a
monetary contract. It means that she is kept, clothed, amused; she is
petted like a favourite dog, indulged like a spoiled child. In exchange
she gives her body.'

'No, no.'

'Yes, yes. And the difference between a married woman and me is her
superior craft, her ability to secure a grip upon a man. You respect her
because she is permanent, as you respect a vested interest.'

The flush rose again in Edward's cheeks. As he lost ground he fortified
his obstinacy.

'You've sold yourself,' he said quickly, 'gone down into the gutter
. . . . Oh!'

'The gutter.' Victoria was so full of contempt that it almost hurt her.
'Of course I'm in the gutter. I always was in the gutter. I was in the
gutter when I married and my husband boarded and lodged me to be his
favourite. I was in the gutter when I had to kow-tow to underbred
people; to be a companion is to prostitute friendship. You don't mind
that, do you? I was in the gutter in the tea shops, when I decoyed men
into coming to the place because they could touch me, breathe me. I'm in
the gutter now, but I'm in the right one. I've found the one that's
going to make me free.'

Edward was shaken by her passion.

'You'll never be free,' he faltered, 'you're an outcast.'

'An outcast from what?' sneered Victoria. 'From society? What has
society done for me? It's kicked me, it's bled me. It's made me work ten
hours a day for eight bob a week. It'd have sucked me dry and offered me
the workhouse, or the Thames at the end. It made me almost a <DW36>.'

Edward stared.

'Yes,' said Victoria savagely. 'That makes you squirm, sentimentalist.
Look at that!'

She put her foot on a chair, tucked up her skirt, tore down the
stocking. Purplish still, the veins stood out on the firm white flesh.

Edward clenched both his hands and looked away. A look of pain was in
his eyes.

'Yes, look at that,' raged Victoria. 'That's what your society's done
for me. It's chucked me into the water to teach me to swim, and it's
gloated over every choke. It's fine talking about chivalry, isn't it,
when you see what honest labour's done for me, isn't it? It's fine
talking about purity when you see the price your society pays me for
being what I am, isn't it? Look at me. Look at my lace, look at my
diamonds, look at my house . . . and think of the other side: eight bob
a week, ten hours work a day, a room with no fire, and a bed with no
sheets. But I know your society now, and as I can't kill it I'll cheat
it. I've served it and it's got two years of my life; but I'm going to
get enough out of it to make it crawl.'

She strode towards Edward.

'So don't you come preaching to me,' she hissed.

Edward's head bent down. Slowly he walked towards the door.

'Yes,' she said, 'go. I've no use for you. I'm out for stronger meat.'

He opened the door, then, without looking up,

'Good-bye,' he said.

The door closed behind him. Victoria looked about her for some seconds,
then sat down in the carving chair, her arms outstretched on the table.
Her teeth were clenched now, her jaw set; with indomitable purpose she
looked out into the darkening room where she saw the battle and victory
of life.




CHAPTER IV


VICTORIA had never loved adventure for its own sake. The change from
drudgery to leisure was grateful as was all it brought in the shape of
pretty clothes, jewels and savoury dishes; but she realised every day
better that, taking it as a profession, her career was no great success.
It afforded her a fair livelihood, but the wasting asset of her beauty
could not be replaced; thus it behoved her to amortize its value at a
rapid rate. She felt much better in health; her varicose veins had gone
down a good deal, but she still preserved a dark mystery about them;
after six months of intimate association, Cairns did not yet know why he
had never seen Victoria without her stockings. Being man of the world
enough to know that discretion is happiness, he had never pressed the
point; a younger or more sensitive man would have torn away the veil, so
as to achieve total intimacy at the risk of wrecking it. He was not of
these, and vaguely Victoria did not thank him for a sentiment half
discreet, half indifferent; such an attitude for a lover suggested
disregard for essentials. As she grew stronger and healthier her brain
worked more clearly, and she began to realise that even ten years of
association with this man would yield no more than a pittance. And it
would be difficult to hold him for ten years.

Victoria certainly went ably to work to preserve for Cairns the feeling
of novelty and adventure. It was practically in deference to her
suggestions that he retained his chambers; he soon realised her wisdom
and entered into the spirit of their life. He still understood very well
the pleasure of being her guest. Victoria found no decline in his
desire; perhaps it was less fiery, but it was as coarse and as constant.
Certainly she was woman for him rather than merely a woman; moreover she
was a habit. Victoria saw this clearly enough and resolved to make the
most of it.

In accordance with her principles she kept her expenses down. She would
not even allow herself the luxury of a maid; she found it cheaper to pay
Mary higher wages. When Cairns was not expected her lunch was of the
simplest, and Charlotte discovered with amazement that her rakish
mistress could check a grocer's book. Victoria was not even above
cheating the Water Board by omitting to register her garden tap. All
these, however, were petty economies; they would result in a saving of
perhaps three hundred a year, a beggarly sum when pitted against the
uncertainties of her profession.

She realised all this within three or four months of her new departure,
and promptly decided that Cairns must be made to yield a higher revenue.
She felt that she could not very well tell him that a thousand a year
was not enough; on the face of it it was ample. It was necessary
therefore to launch out a little. The first step was to increase her
visible supply of clothes, and this was easily done by buying the cheap
and effective instead of the expensive and good. Cairns knew enough
about women's clothes to detect this now and then, but the changes
bewildered him a little and he had some difficulty in seeing the
difference between the latest thing and the cheapest. Whenever she was
with him she affected the manners of a spendthrift; she would call cabs
to carry her a hundred yards, give a beggar a shilling, or throw a pair
of gloves out of the window because they had been worn once.

Cairns smiled tolerantly. She might as well have her fling, he thought,
and a lack of discipline was as charming in a mistress as it was
deplorable in a wife. He was therefore not surprised when, one morning,
he found Victoria apparently nervous and worried. She owned that she was
short of cash. In fact the manager of her bank had written to point out
that her account was overdrawn.

'Dear me,' said Cairns with mock gravity, 'you've been going it, old
girl! What's all this? "Self," "Self," why all these cheques are to
"Self." You'll go broke.'

'I suppose I shall,' said Victoria wearily. 'I don't know how I do it,
Tom. I'm no good at accounts. And I hate asking you for more money . . .
but what am I to do?'

She crossed her hands over her knees and looked up at him with a pretty
expression of appeal. Cairns laughed.

'Don't worry,' he said, curling a lock of her hair round a fat
forefinger. 'I'll see you through.'

Victoria received that afternoon a cheque for two hundred and fifty
pounds which she paid into her account. She did not, however, inform
Cairns that the proceeds of the "Self" cheques had been paid into a
separate account which she had opened with another bank. By this means,
she was always able to exhibit a gloomy pass book whenever it was
required.

Having discovered that Cairns was squeezable Victoria felt more hopeful
as to the future. She was his only luxury and made the most of his
liking for jewellery and furs. She even hit upon the more ingenious
experiment of interesting Barbezan Soeurs in her little speculations.
The device was not novel: for a consideration of ten per cent these
bustling dressmakers were ready to provide fictitious bills and even
solicitor's letters couched in frigidly menacing terms. Cairns laughed
and paid solidly. He had apparently far more money than he needed.
Victoria was almost an economy; without her he would have lost a fortune
at bridge, kept a yacht perhaps and certainly a motor. As it was he was
quite content with his poky chambers in St James', a couple of clubs
which he never thought of entering, the house in Elm Tree Place and a
stock of good cigars.

Cairns was happy, and Victoria labouring lightly for large profits, was
contented too. Theirs were lazy lives, for Cairns was a man who could
loaf. He loafed so successfully that he did not even think of
interfering with Victoria's reading. She now read steadily and
voraciously; she eschewed novels, fearing the influence of sentiment.
'It will be time for sentiment by and by,' she sometimes told herself.
Meanwhile she armoured her heart and sharpened her wits. The earlier
political opinions which had formed in her mind under the pressure of
toil remained unchanged but did not develop. She recognised herself as a
parasite and almost gloried in it. She evolved as a system of philosophy
that one's conduct in life is a matter of alternatives. Nothing was good
and nothing was evil; things were better than others or worse and there
was an end of her morality. Victoria had no patience with theories. One
day, much to Cairns surprise, she violently flung Ingersoll's essays
into the fender.

'Steady on,' said Cairns, 'steady on, old girl.'

'Such rot,' she snarled.

'Hear, hear,' said Cairns, picking up the book and looking at its title.
'Serve you right for reading that sort of stuff. I can't make you out,
Vic.'

Victoria looked at him with a faint smile, but refused to assign a cause
for her anger. In fact she had suddenly been irritated by Ingersoll's
definition of morality. 'Perceived obligation,' she thought. 'And I
don't perceive any obligation!' She consoled herself suddenly with the
thought that her amorality was a characteristic of the superman.

The superman preoccupied her now and then. He was a good subject for
speculation because imponderable and inexistent. The nearest approach
she could think of was a cross between an efficient colonial governor
and a latter-day prophet. She believed quite sincerely that the day must
come when children of the light must be born, capable of ruling and of
keeping the law. She saw very well too that their production did not lie
with an effete aristocracy any more than with a dirty and drunken
democracy; probably they would be neo-plutocrats, men full of ambition,
lusting for power and yet imbued with a spirit of icy justice. Her
earliest tendency had been towards an idealistic socialism. Burning with
her own wrongs and touched by the angelic wing of sympathy, she had seen
in the communisation of wealth the only means of curbing the evils it
had hitherto wrought. Further observation showed her however that an
idealism of this kind would not lead the world speedily into a peaceful
haven. She saw too well that covetousness was still lurking snakelike in
the bosom of man, ready to rear its ugly head and strike at any hand.
Thus she was not surprised to see the chaos which reigned among
socialists, their intriguing, their jealousies, their unending
dissensions, their apostacies. This did not throw her back into the
stereotyped philosophy of individualism; for she could not help seeing
that the system of modern life was absurd, stupidly wasteful above all
of time, labour and wealth. To apply Nietzscheism to socialism was,
however, beyond her; to reconcile the two doctrines which apparently
conflict and really only overlap was a task too difficult for a brain
which had lain fallow for twenty-five years. But she dimly felt that
Nietzscheism did not mean a glorified imperialism, but a worship of
intellectual efficiency and the stringent morality of _noblesse oblige_.

Where Victoria began to part issue with her own thoughts was when she
considered the position of women. Their outlook was one of unrelieved
gloom; and it one day came upon her as a revelation that Nietzsche and
Schopenhauer, following in a degree on Rousseau, had forgotten women in
the scheme of life. There might be supermen but there would be no
superwomen: if the supermen were true to their type they would have to
crush and to dominate the women. As the latter fared so hard at the
hands of the pigmies of to-day, what would they do if they could not
develop in time to resist the sons of Anak? Victoria saw that the world
was entering upon a sex war. Hitherto a shameful state of peace had left
women in the hands of men, turning over the other cheek to the smiter.
The sex war, however, held forth no hopes to her; in the dim future, sex
equality might perhaps prevail; but she saw nothing to indicate that
women had sown the seeds of their victory. She had no wish to enrol
herself in the ranks of those who were waging an almost hopeless battle,
armed with untrained intellects and unathletic bodies. She could not get
away from the fact that the best woman athletes cannot compete with
ordinary men, that even women with high intellectual qualifications had
not ousted from commanding positions men of inferior ability.

All this, she thought, was unjust; but why hope for a change? There was
nothing to show that men grew much better as a sex; then why pin faith
to the coming of better times? Women were parasites, working only under
constraint, badly and at uncongenial tasks; their right to live was
based on their capacity to please. This brought her to her own
situation. The future lay before her in the shape of two roads. One was
the road which led to the struggle for life; ending, she felt it too
well, in a crawl to death on crippled limbs. The other was the road
along which grew roses, roses which she could pluck and sell to men; at
the end of that was the heaven of independence. It had golden gates; it
was guarded by an angel in white garments with a palm leaf in his hands
and beyond lay the pleasant places where she had a right of way. And as
she looked again the heaven with the golden gates turned into a bank
with a commissionaire at the door.

Her choice being made, she did not regret it. For the time being her
life was pleasant enough, and if it could be made a little more
profitable it would soon be well worth living, and her freedom would be
earned. Meanwhile she took pleasure in small things. The little house
was almost a show place, so delicate and refined were its inner and
outer details. Victoria saw to it that frequently changed flowers
decorated the beds in the front garden; Japanese trees, dwarfed and
gnarled, stood right and left of the steps, scowling like tiny Titans;
all the blinds in the house were a mass of insertion. These blinds were
a feature for her; they implied secrecy. Behind the half blinds were
thick curtains of decorated muslin; behind these again, heavy curtains
which could be drawn at will. They were the impenetrable veil which
closed off from the world and its brutalities this oasis of forbidden
joys.

In the house also she was ever elaborating, sybaritising her life. She
had a branch telephone fixed at the head of her bed; the first time that
Cairns used it to tell his man to bring up his morning coat she had the
peculiar sensation that her bed was in touch with the world. She could
call up anybody, the Archbishop of Canterbury, the Governor of the Bank
of England or the headquarters of the Salvation Army. Her bed was the
centre of the world. She fitted the doors of her bedroom and her boudoir
with curious little locks which acted on the pressure of a finger for
her mind was turned on delicacies and the sharp click of a bolt, the
grating of a key savoured of the definite, therefore of the coarse. A
twist of the knob between two fingers and the world was silently shut
out.

Now too that she was beautiful once more she revelled in mirrors. The
existing ones in her bedroom and in the boudoir were not enough; they
were public, unintimate. She had a high mirror fixed in the bathroom, so
that she could see herself in her freshness, covered with pearly beads
like a naiad. She rejoiced in her beauty, in her renewed strength; she
often stood for many minutes in the dim steamy light of the room,
analysing her body, its grace and youth, with a growing consciousness of
latent power. Then, suddenly, the faint violet streaks of the varicose
veins would intrude upon the rite and she would wrap herself up
jealously in her bath robe so that not even the mirror should be a
confidant of the past.




CHAPTER V


WEEK after week passed on, and now monotony drew her stifling cloak over
Victoria. Cairns was still in a state of beatitude which made him an
unexciting companion; satisfied in his egoism, it never came into his
mind that Victoria could tire of her life. He spent many afternoons in
the back garden under a rose-covered pergola. By his side was a little
table with a syphon, a decanter of whisky, and a box of cigars; he read
desultorily, sometimes the latest motor novel, at other times the
improving memoirs of eighteenth century noblewomen. Now and then he
would look approvingly at Victoria in plain white drill, delightfully
mischievous under a sun-bonnet, and relapse into his book. Once he
quoted 'A flask of wine, a book of verse. . . .' and Victoria went into
sudden fits of laughter when she remembered Neville Brown. The single
hackneyed line seemed to link malekind together.

Cairns was already talking of going away. June was oppressively hot and
he was hankering after some quiet place where he might do some
sea-fishing and get some golf. He was becoming dangerously fat; and
Victoria, foreseeing a long and very cheap holiday, favoured the idea in
every way. They could go up to Scotland later too; but Cairns rather
hesitated about this, for he neither cared to show off Victoria before
the people he knew on the moors, nor to leave her for a fortnight. He
was paying the penalty of Capua. His plans were set back, however, by
serious trouble which had taken place on his Irish estate, his though
still in the hands of Marmaduke Cairns's executors. There had been
nightriding, cattle driving, some boycotting. The situation grew so
tense that the executors advised Cairns to sell the estate to the
tenants but the latter declined the terms; matters came to a deadlock
and it was quite on the cards that an application might be made under
the Irish Land Act. It was clear that in this case the terms would be
bad, and Cairns was called to Limerick by telegram as a last chance. He
left Victoria, grumbling and cursing Ireland and all things Irish.

Left to herself, Victoria felt rather at a loose end. The cheerful if
uninteresting personality of Major Cairns had a way of filling the
house. He had an expansive mind; it was almost chubby. For two days she
rather enjoyed her freedom. The summer was gorgeous; St John's Wood was
bursting everywhere into flower; the trees were growing opaque in the
parks. At every street corner little whirlwinds of dry grit swayed in
the hot air. One afternoon Victoria indulged in the luxury of a hired
private carriage, and flaunted it with the best in the long line on the
south side of the Park. Wedged for a quarter of an hour in the mass she
felt a glow come over her. The horses all round her shone like polished
wood, the carriage panels were lustrous, the harness was glittering, the
brass burnished; all the world seemed to radiate warmth and light. Gaily
enough, because not jaded by repetition, she caused the carriage to do
the Ring, twice. She felt for a moment that she was free, that she could
vie with those women whose lazy detachment she stirred for a moment into
curiosity by her deep eyes, dark piled hair and the audacity of her
diaphanous _crepe de chine_.

Cairns was still in Ireland, struggling conscientiously to pile up
unearned increment; and Victoria, thoroughly aimless, suddenly bethought
herself of Farwell. She had been remiss in what was almost a duty.
Surely she ought to report progress to the man who had helped to open
her eyes to the realities of life. She had misapplied his teaching
perhaps, or rather remoulded it, but still it was his teaching. Or
rather it was what a woman should know, as opposed to what Thomas
Farwell preached; if men were to practise that, then she should revise
her philosophy.

At ten minutes to one she entered the Moorgate Street P.R.R. with a
little thrill. Everything breathed familiarity; it was like coming home,
but better, for it is sweeter to revisit the place where one has
suffered, when one has emerged, than to brood with gentle sorrow on the
spot, where there once was joy. She knew every landmark, the
tobacconist, the picture shop, still full of 'Mother's Helps' and of
'artistic' studies in the nude; there was the red-coated bootblack too,
as dirty and as keenly solicitous as ever. The P.R.R. itself did not
chill her. In the crude June sunlight its nickel shone gaily enough.
Everything was as before; the cakes had been moulded in the old moulds,
and here was the old bill of fare, unchanged no doubt; even the
marble-topped tables and the half cleaned cruets looked kindly upon her;
but the tesselated red and blue floor aroused the hateful memory of
another Victoria on her hands and knees, an old sack round her waist,
painfully swaying from right to left, swabbing the tiles. Little
rivulets of water and dirt flowed slowly across the spectre's hand.

As she went down the steps into the smoking-room she crossed with the
manageress, still buxom and erect; but she passed unnoticed, for this
was the busy hour when the chief tried to be simultaneously on three
floors. The room was not so full as it had once been. She sat down at a
little table and watched the familiar scene for some minutes. She told
the girl she would wait a minute, for she did not want to miss Farwell.
The world had gone round, but apparently the P.R.R. was the axis. There
in the corner were the chess players; to-day they only ran four boards,
but at one of them a fierce discussion was going on as to a variation of
the queen's pawn opening. On the other side of the room were the young
domino players, laughing and smoking cigarettes. The fat and yellow
Levantine was missing. Victoria regretted him, for the apocalyptic
figure was an essential part of the ugly past. But there was 'old dry
toast' all alone at his little table. He had not changed; his white hair
still framed thickly his beautiful old brown face. There he sat, still
silent and desolate, waiting for the end. Victoria felt a pang of
sorrow. She was not quite hardened yet and she realised it angrily.
There must be no sympathy and no quarter in her game of life. It was too
late or too soon for that. Victoria let her eyes stray round the room.
There were the young men and boys or some of the same breed, in their
dark suits, brilliant ties, talking noisily, chaffing one another,
gulping down their small teas and toasted scones. A conversation between
two older men was wafted in to her ears.

'Awful. Have you tried annelicide?'

At that moment a short broad figure walked smartly down the steps. It
was Thomas Farwell, a thin red book under his arm. He went straight
through to the old table, propped his book against the cruet and began
to read. Victoria surveyed him critically. He was thinner than ever; his
hair was more plentifully sprinkled with grey but had receded no
further. He was quite near her, so she could see his unbrushed collar
and his frayed cuffs. After a moment the girl came and stood before him;
it was Nelly, big and raw-boned as ever, handsome still like the fine
beast of burden she was. She wore no apron now in proud token of her
new position as head waitress. Now the voices by her side were talking
holidays.

'No, Ramsgit's good enough for me. Broadstairs and all these little
places, they're so tony--'

Maud passed quickly before Victoria. The poor little girl was as white
as ever; her flaccid cheeks danced up and down as she ran. The other
voice was relating at length how its owner had taken his good lady to
Deal. Nelly had left Farwell, walking more slowly than the other girls,
as befitted her station. Victoria felt herself pluck up a little
courage, crossed the room followed by many admiring glances, and quickly
sat down at Farwell's table. He looked up quickly. The book dropped
suddenly from the cruet.

'Victoria,' he gasped.

'Yes,' she said smiling.

'Well . . .' His eyes ran over her close fitting tussore dress, her
white kid gloves.

'Is that all you've got to say to me?' she asked. 'Won't you shake
hands?'

Farwell put out his hand and held hers for a second. He was smiling now,
with just a touch of wistfulness in his eyes.

'I'm very glad to see you,' he said at length.

'So am I,' said Victoria. 'I hope you don't mind my coming here, but I
only thought of it this morning.'

'Mind,' snapped Farwell. 'People who understand everything never mind
anything.'

Victoria smiled again. The bumptious aphorism was a sign that Farwell
was still himself. For a minute or so they looked at one another.
Victoria wondered at this man; so powerful intellectually and
physically; and yet content to live in his ideals on a pittance, to do
dull work, to be a subordinate. Truly a caged lion. Farwell, on the
other hand, was looking in vain for some physical ravishes to justify
Victoria's profession, for some gross development at least. He looked in
vain. Instead of the pale dark girl with large grey eyes whom he had
known, he now saw a healthy and beautiful woman with a clear white skin,
thick hair, red lips.

'Well,' he said with a laugh, 'can I invite you to lunch with me?'

'You may,' she said. 'I'll have a small coffee and . . . a sunny side
up.'

Farwell laughed and signed to Nelly. After a minute he attracted her
attention and gave the order without Nelly taking any interest in
Farwell's guest. It might be rather extraordinary, but her supervisory
duties were all-absorbent. When she returned, however, she stole a
curious look at Victoria while placing before her the poached egg on
toast. She looked at her again, and her eyes dilated.

'Law,' she said. 'Vic!'

'Yes, Nelly, how are you?' Victoria put out her gloved hand. Nelly took
it wonderingly.

'I'm all right,' she answered slowly. 'Just been made head waitress,'
she added with some unction. Her eyes were roving over Victoria's
clothes, valuing them like an expert.

'Congratulations,' said Victoria. 'Glad you're getting on.'

'I see _you're_ getting on,' said Nelly, with a touch of sarcasm.

'So, so, things aren't too bad.' Victoria looked up. The women's eyes
crossed like rapiers; Nelly's were full of suspicion. The conversation
stopped then, for Nelly was already in request in half a dozen quarters.

'She knows,' said Victoria smoothly.

'Of course,' said Farwell. 'Trust a woman to know the worst about
another and to show it up. Every little helps in a contest such as
life.'

Farwell then questioned her as to her situation, but she refused him all
details.

'No,' she said, 'not here. There's Nelly watching us, and Maud has just
been told. Betty's been shifted, I know, and I suppose Mary and Jennie
are gone, but there's the manageress and some of the girls upstairs.
I've nearly done. Let me return the invitation. Dine with me
to-night. . .' She was going to say 'at home,' but changed her mind to
the prudent course. . . . 'at, well, anywhere you like. Whereabouts do
you live, Mr Farwell?'

'I live in the Waterloo Road,' said Farwell, 'an artery named after the
playing fields of Eton.'

'I don't know it well,' said Victoria, 'but I seem to remember an
Italian place near Waterloo Station. Suppose you meet me at the south
end of Waterloo Bridge at seven?'

'It will do admirably,' said the man. 'I suppose you want to go now?
Well, you've put out my habits, but I'll come too.'

They went out; the last Victoria saw of the P.R.R. was the face of the
cook through the hole in the partition, red, sweating, wrinkled by the
heat and hurry of the day. They parted in the churchyard. Victoria
watched him walk away with his firm swing, his head erect.

'A man,' she thought, 'too clever to succeed.'

Being now again at a loose end and still feeling fairly hungry, she
drove down to Frascati's to lunch. She was a healthy young animal, and
scanty fare was now a novelty. At three o'clock she decided to look up
Betty at her depot in Holborn; and by great good luck found that Betty
was free at half past five, as the Holborn depot for unknown reasons
kept shorter hours than Moorgate Street. She whiled away the intervening
time easily enough by shop-gazing and writing a long letter to Cairns on
the hospitable paper of the Grand Hotel. At half-past five she picked
up Betty at the door of the P. R. R.

'Thank you again so very, very much for the sweater and the dressing
gown,' said Betty as she slipped her arm through that of her friend.

'Don't be silly, Betty, I like giving you things.' Victoria smiled and
pressed the girl's arm. 'You're not looking well, Betty.'

'Oh, I'm all right,' said Betty wearily.

Victoria looked at her again. Under the pretty waved sandy hair Betty's
forehead looked waxen; her cheeks were too red. Her arm felt thinner
than ever. What was one to do? Betty was a weakling and must go to the
wall. But there was a sweetness in her which no one could resist.

'Look here, Betty,' said Victoria, 'I've got very little time; I've got
to meet Mr Farwell at Waterloo Bridge at seven. It's beautifully fine,
let's drive down to Embankment Gardens and talk.'

Betty's face clouded for a moment at the mention of Farwell's name. She
hated him with the ferocity of the weak; he had ruined her friend. But
it was good to have her back. The cab drove down Chancery Lane at a
spanking rate, then across the Strand and through a lane. The
unaccustomed pleasure and the rush of air brought all her face into pink
unison with her cheeks.

The two women sat side by side for a moment. This was the second time
they had met since Victoria had entered her new life. There had been a
few letters, the last to thank Victoria for her Christmas present, but
Betty did not say much in them. Her tradition of virtue had erected a
barrier between them.

'Well, Betty,' said Victoria suddenly, 'do you still think me very bad?'

'Oh, Vic, how can you? I never, never said that.'

'No, you thought it,' answered Victoria a little cruelly. 'But never
mind, perhaps you're right.'

'I never said so, never thought so,' persisted Betty. 'You can't go
wrong, Vic, you're . . . you're different.'

'Perhaps I am,' said Victoria. 'Perhaps there are different laws for
different people. At any rate I've made my choice and must abide by it.'

'And are you happy, Vic?' Anxiety was in the girl's face.

'Happy? Oh, happy enough. He's a good sort.'

'I'm so glad. And . . . Vic . . . do you think he'll marry you?'

'Marry me?' said Victoria laughing. 'You little goose, of course not.
Why should he marry me now he's got me?'

This was a new idea for Betty.

'But doesn't he love you very, very much?' she asked, her blue eyes
growing rounder and rounder.

'I suppose he does in a way,' said Victoria. 'But it doesn't matter.
He's very kind to me but he won't marry me; and, honestly, I wouldn't
marry him.'

Betty looked at her amazed and a little shocked.

'But, dear,' she faltered, 'think of what it would mean; you . . . he
and you, you see . . . you're living like that . . . if he married
you. . . .'

'Yes, I see,' said Victoria with a slight sneer, 'you mean that I should
be an honest woman and all that? My dear child, you don't understand.
Whether he marries me or not it's all the same. So long as a woman is
economically dependent on a man she's a slave, a plaything. Legally or
illegally joined it's exactly the same thing; the legal bond has its
advantages and its disadvantages and there's an end of the matter.'

Betty looked away over the Thames; she did not understand. The
tradition was too strong. Time went quickly. Betty had no tale to
unfold; the months had passed leaving her doing the same work for the
same wage, living in the same room. Before her was the horizon on which
were outlined two ships; 'ten hours a day' and 'eight bob a week.' And
the skyline?

As they parted, Victoria made Betty promise to come and see her. Then
they kissed twice, gently and silently, and Victoria watched her
friend's slim figure fade out of sight as she walked away. She had the
same impression as when she parted with Lottie, who had gone so bravely
into the dark. A wave of melancholy was upon her. Poor girls, they were
without hope; she at least was viewing life with her eyes open. She
would wrench something out of it yet. She shook herself; it was a
quarter to seven.

An hour later she was sitting opposite Farwell. They were getting to the
end of dinner. Conversation had flagged while they disposed of the
earlier courses. Now they were at the ice and coffee stage. The waiters
grew less attentive; indeed there was nobody to observe them save the
olive-skinned boy with the mournful eyes who looked at the harbour of
Palermo through the Waterloo Road door. Farwell lit the cigar which
Victoria forced upon him, and leant back, puffing contentedly.

'Well,' he said at length, 'how do you like the life?'

'It is better than the old one,' she said.

'Oh, so you've come to that. You have given up the absolutes.'

'Yes, I've given them up. A woman like me has to.'

'Yes, I suppose you've got to,' pondered Farwell. 'But apart from that,
is it a success? Are you attaining your end? That's the only thing that
matters, you know.'

'I am, in a sense; I'm saving money. You see, he's generous.'

'Excellent, excellent,' sneered Farwell. 'I like to see you making out
of what the bourgeois call vice that which will enable you to command
bourgeois respect. By-and-by I suppose you'll have made a fortune.'

'Well, no; a competency perhaps, with luck.'

'With luck, as you say. Do you know, Victoria, this luck business is
grand! My firm goes in for mines: they went prospecting in America
twenty years ago and they happened to strike copper. That was good.
Other men struck granite only. That was bad. But my boss is a City
Sheriff now. Frightfully rich. There used to be four of them, but one
died of copper poisoning, and another was found shot in a gulch. Nobody
knows how it happened, but the other two got the mines.'

Victoria smiled. She liked this piratical tit bit.

'Yes,' she said, 'luck's the thing. And merit . . . well I suppose the
surviving partners had merit.'

'Anyhow, I wish you luck,' said Farwell. 'But tell me more. Do you find
you've paid too high a price for what you've got?'

'Too high a price?'

'Yes. Do you have any of that remorse we read about; would you like to
be what you were? Unattached, you know . . . eligible for Young Women's
Christian Associations?'

'Oh, no,' Victoria laughed. 'I can't pay too high a price for what I
think I'll get. I don't mean these jewels or these clothes, that's only
my professional uniform. When I've served my time I shall get that for
which no woman can pay too much: I shall be economically independent,
free.'

'Free.' Farwell looked towards the ceiling through a cloudlet of smoke.
'Yes, you're right. With the world as it is it's the only way. To be
independent you must acquire the right to be dependent on the world's
labour, to be a drone . . . and the biggest drone is queen of the hive.
Yet I wish it had been otherwise with you.' He looked at her
regretfully.

Victoria toyed with a dessert knife.

'Why?' she asked.

'Oh, you had possibilities . . . but after all, we all have. And most of
them turn out to be impossibilities. At any rate, you're not disgusted
with your life, with any detail?'

'No, I don't think so. I don't say I'll go on any longer than I need,
but it's bearable. But even if it were repulsive in every way I'd go on
if I saw freedom ahead. If I fight at all I fight to a finish.'

'You're strong,' said Farwell looking at her. 'I wish I had your
strength. You've got that force which makes explorers, founders of new
faiths, prophets, company promoters.' He sighed.

'Let's go,' he added, 'we can talk in the warm night.'

For an hour they talked, agreeing always in the end. Farwell was cruelly
conscious of two wasted lives: his, because his principles and his
capacity for thought had no counterweight in a capacity for action;
Victoria's, because of her splendid gifts ignobly wasted and misused by
a world which had asked her for the least of them.

Victoria felt a peculiar pleasure in this man's society. He was elderly,
ugly, ill-clad; sometimes he was boorish, but a halo of thought
surrounded him, and the least of his words seemed precious. All this
devirilised him, deprived him of physical attractiveness. She could not
imagine herself receiving and returning his caresses. They parted on
Waterloo Bridge.

'Good-bye,' said Farwell, 'you're on the right track. The time hasn't
come for us to keep the law, for we don't know what the law is. All we
have is the edict of the powerful, the prejudice of the fool; the last
especially, for these goaled souls have their traditions, and their
convictions are prisons all.'

Victoria pressed his hand and turned away. She did not look back. If she
had she would have seen Farwell looking into the Thames, his face lit up
by a gas lamp, curiously speculative in expression. His emotions were
not warring, but the chaos in his brain was such that he was fighting
the logical case for and against an attempt to find enlightenment on the
other <DW72> of the valley.




CHAPTER VI


VICTORIA stretched herself lazily in bed. Her eyes took in a picture of
Cairns on the mantelpiece framed between a bottle of eau-de-cologne and
the carriage clock; then, little by little, she analysed details, small
objects, powderpuffs, a Chelsea candlestick, an open letter, the wall
paper. She closed her eyes again and buried her face in the pillow. The
lace edge tickled her ear pleasantly. She snuggled like a stroked cat.
Then she awoke again, for Mary had just placed her early cup of tea on
the night table. The tray seemed to come down with a crash, a spoon fell
on the carpet. Victoria felt daylight rolling back sleep from her brain
while Mary pulled up the blinds. As light flooded the room and her
senses became keener she heard the blinds clash.

'You're very noisy, Mary,' she said, lifting herself on one elbow.

The girl came back to the bed her hands folded together.

'I'm sorry, mum . . . I . . . I've . . .'

'Yes? what's the matter?'

Mary did not answer, but Victoria could see she was disturbed. Her cap
was disarranged; it inclined perhaps five degrees from the vertical.
There was a faint flush on her cheeks.

'What's the matter,' said Victoria sharply. 'Is there anything wrong?'

'No, mum. . . . Yes mum. . . . They say in the paper . . . . There's
been trouble in Ireland, mum. . . .'

'In Ireland?' Victoria sat bolt upright. Her heart gave a great bang and
then began to go with a whirr.

'At Rossbantry, mum . . . last night . . . he's shot. . . .'

'Shot? Who? can't you speak?'

'The Major, mum.'

Mary unfolded her hands suddenly and drew them up and down her apron as
if trying to dry them. Victoria sat as if frozen, looking at her
wide-eyed. Then she relapsed on the pillow. Everything swam for a
second, then she felt Mary raising her head.

'Go away,' whispered Victoria. 'Leave me for a minute. I'm all right.'

Mary hesitated for a moment, then obeyed, softly closing the door.
Victoria lay staring at the ceiling. Cairns was dead, shot. Awful. A
week ago his heavy frame was outlined under these very blankets. She
shuddered. But why, how? It wasn't true, it couldn't be true. She sat up
as if impelled by a spring, and rang the bell violently. The broken rope
fell on her face in a coil. With both hands she seized her chin as if to
stop a scream.

'The paper! get me the paper!' she gasped as Mary came in. The girl
hesitated. Victoria's face frightened her. Victoria looked at her
straight, and she ran out of the room. In another minute she had laid
the open paper before her mistress.

Victoria clutched at it with both hands. It was true. True. It was true.
The headlines were all she could see. She tried to read the text, but
the letters danced. She returned to the headlines.

    SHOCKING OUTRAGE IN IRELAND

    *       *       *       *

           LANDLORD SHOT

In the next column:--

    M. C. C.'s HARD TASK

Her heart's action was less violent now. She understood; every second
increased her lucidity. Shot. Cairns was shot. Oh, she knew, he had
carried strife with him and some tenant had had his revenge. She took up
the paper and could read it now. Cairns had refused to make terms, and
on the morning of his death had served notices of eviction on eighteen
cottagers. The same night he was sitting at a window of his bailiff's
house. Then two shots from the other side of the road, another from
lower down. Cairns was wounded twice, in the lung and throat, and died
within twenty minutes. A man was under arrest.

Victoria put down the paper. Her mind was quite clear again. Poor old
Tom! She felt sorry but above all disturbed; every nerve in her body
seemed raw. Poor old Tom, a good fellow! He had been kind to her; and
now, there he was. Dead when he was thinking of coming back to her. He
would never see her again, the little house and things he loved. Yes, he
had been kind; he had saved her from that awful life . . . . Victoria's
thoughts turned into another channel. What was going to become of her.

'Old girl,' she said aloud, 'you're in the cart.'

She realised that she was again adrift, alone, face to face with the
terrible world. Cairns was gone; there was nobody to protect her against
the buffeting waves. A milkman's cart rattled by; she could hear the
distant rumble of the Underground, a snatch carried by the wind from a
German band. Well, the time had come; it had to come. She could not have
held Cairns for ever; and now she had to prove her mettle, to show
whether she had learned enough of the world, whether she had grit. The
thought struck cold at her, but an intimate counsellor in her brain was
already awake and crying out:

'Yes, yes, go on! you can do it yet.'

Victoria threw down the paper and jumped out of bed. She dressed
feverishly in the clothes and linen she had thrown in a heap on a chair
the night before, twisting her hair up into a rough coil. Just before
leaving the room she remembered she had not even washed her hands. She
did so hurriedly; then, seeing the cold cup of tea, drank it off at a
gulp; her throat felt parched.

She pushed back the untasted dish on the breakfast table. Her head
between her hands, she tried to think. At intervals she poured out cups
of tea and drank them off quickly.

Snoo and Poo, after vainly trying to induce her to play with them, lay
in a heap in an armchair snuffling as they slept.

The better she realised her position the greater grew her fears. Once
more she was the cork tossed in the storm; and yet, rudderless, she must
navigate into the harbour of liberty. If Cairns had lived and she had
seen her power over him wane, she would have taken steps; she did not
know what steps, but felt she surely would have done something. But
Cairns was dead; in twenty minutes she had passed from comparative
security into the region where thorns are many and roses few.

Poor old Tom! She felt a tiny pang; surely this concern with herself
when his body still lay unburied was selfish, ugly. But, pooh! why make
any bones about it? As Cairns had said himself, he liked to see her
beautiful, happy, well clad. His gifts to her were gifts to himself: she
was merely his vicar.

Victoria drank some more cold tea. Good or bad, Cairns belonged to the
past and the past has no virtues. None, at any rate, for those whose
present is a wind-swept table-land. Men must come and go, drink to the
full of the cup and pay richly for every sip, so that she might be free,
hold it no longer to their lips. There was no time to waste, for already
she was some hours older; some of those hours which might have been
transmuted into gold, that saving gold. She must take steps.

The 'steps to be taken,' a comforting sentence, were not easy to evolve.
But another comforting catch ward, 'reviewing the situation,' saved her
from perplexity. She went into the little boudoir and took out her two
pass books. The balance seemed agreeably fat, but she did not allow
herself to be deluded; she checked off the debit side with the foils of
her cheque book and found that two of the cheques had not been
presented. These she deducted, but the result was not unsatisfactory;
she had exactly three hundred pounds in one bank and a few shillings
over fifty pounds in the other. Three hundred and fifty pounds. Not so
bad. She had done pretty well in these nine months. Of course that
banker's order of Cairns would be stopped. She could hardly expect the
executors to allow it to stand. Thus her capital was three hundred and
fifty pounds. And there was jewellery too, worth a couple of hundred
pounds, perhaps, and lace, and furs. The jewellery might come in handy;
it could be 'gopherised.' The furniture wasn't bad either.

Of course she must go on with the house. It was no great responsibility,
being held on a yearly agreement. Victoria then looked through her
accounts; they did not amount to much, for Barbezan Soeurs, though
willing to assist in extracting money by means of bogus invoices, made
it a rule to demand cash for genuine purchases. Twenty pounds would
cover all the small accounts. The rent was all right, as it would not be
due until the end of September. The rates were all right too, being
payable every half year; they could be ignored until the blue notice
came, just before Christmas.

Victoria felt considerably strengthened by this investigation. At a
pinch she could live a year on the present footing, during which
something must turn up. She tried to consider for a moment the various
things that might turn up. None occurred to her. She settled the
difficulty by going upstairs again to dress. When she rang for Mary to
do her hair, the girl was surprised to find her mistress perfectly cool.
Without a word, however, Mary restored her hair to order. It was a
beautiful and elegant woman, perhaps a trifle pale and open mouthed,
who, some minutes later, set out to walk to Regent's Park.

Victoria sat back in her chair. Peace was upon her soul. Perhaps she had
just passed through a crisis, perhaps she was entering upon one, but
what did it matter? The warmth of July was in the clear air, the canal
slowly carried past her its film of dust. No sound broke through the
morning save the cries of little boys fishing for invisible fishes, and,
occasionally, a raucous roar from some prisoner in the Zoo. Now that she
had received the blow and was recovering she was conscious of a curious
feeling of lightness; she felt freer than the day before. Then she was a
man's property, tied to him by the bond of interest; now she was able to
do what she chose, know whom she chose, so long as that money lasted.
Ah, it would be good one day when she had enough money to be able to
look the future in the face and flaunt in its forbidding countenance the
fact that she was free, for ever free.

Victoria was no longer a dreamer; she was a woman of action. The natural
sequence of her thoughts brought her up at once against the means to the
triumphant end. Three hundred and fifty pounds, say six hundred if she
realised everything, would not yield enough to feed a superannuated
governess. She would need quite eight or ten thousand pounds before she
could call herself free and live her dreams.

'I'll earn it,' she said aloud, 'yes, sure enough.'

A little Aberdeen terrier came bounding up to her, licked her hand and
ran away after his master. A friendly omen. Six hundred pounds was a
large sum in a way. She could aspire to a partnership in some business
now. A vision arose before her; Victoria Ferris, milliner. The vision
grew; Victoria Ferris and Co., Limited, wholesalers; then Ferris'
Stores, for clothes and boots and cheese and phonographs, with a branch
of Cook's agency, a Keith Prowse ticket office; Ferris' Stores as an
octopus, with its body in Knightsbridge and a tentacle hovering over
every draper from Richmond to Highgate.

Yes, that was all very well, but what if Victoria Ferris failed? 'No
good,' she thought, 'I can't afford to take risks.' Of course the idea
of seeking employment was absurd. No more ten hours a day for eight bob
a week for her. Besides, no continuous references and a game leg . . .
The situations crowded into and out of Victoria's brain like dissolving
views. She could see herself in the little house, with another man, with
other men, young men, old men; and every one of them was rocked in the
lap of Delilah, who laughingly shore off their golden locks.

'By Jove,' she said aloud, bringing her gloved fist down on her knee,
'I'll do it.'

Of course the old life could not begin again just now. She did not know
a man in London who was worth capturing. She must go down into the
market, stand against the wall as a courtesan of Alexandria and nail a
wreath of roses against the highest bid. The vision she saw was now no
longer the octopus. She saw a street with its pavements wet and
slithering, flares, barrows laden with greens; she could smell frying
fish, rotting vegetables, burning naptha; a hand opened the door of a
bar and, in the glare, she could see two women with vivid hair, tired
eyes, smiling mouths, each one patiently waiting before a little table
and an empty glass. Then she saw once more the courtesan of Alexandria,
dim in the night, not lit up by the sun of sweet Egypt, but clad in
mercerised cotton and rabbit's fur, standing, watching like a shadow
against a shop door in Regent Street.

No, she had not come to that. She belonged to the upper stratum of the
profession, and, knowing it, could not sink. Consciousness was the
thing. She was not going into this fight soft-handed or softhearted. She
knew. There was high adventure in store for her yet. If she must fish it
should be for trout not chub. Like a wise woman, she would not love
lightly, but where money is. There should be no waiting, no hesitating.
That very night she would sup at the Hotel Vesuvius . . . all in black
. . . like an ivory Madonna set in ebony . . . with a tea rose in her hair
as a foil to her shoulders . . . and sweeping jade earrings which would
swim like butterflies in the heavy hair. Ah, it would be high adventure
when Demetrious knelt at the feet of Aphrodite with jewels in his
sunburnt palm, when Croesus bargained away for a smile a half of his
Lydian wealth.

She got up, a glow in her veins as if the lust of battle was upon her.
Quickly she walked out of the park to conquer the town. A few yards
beyond the gates newspaper placards shouted the sensation of the day;
placards pink, brown, green, all telling the tale of murder, advertising
for a penny the transitory joy of the fact. Victoria smiled and walked
on. She let herself into the house. It was on the stroke of one. She sat
down at the table, pressing the bell down with her foot.

'Hurry up, Mary,' she said, 'I'm as hungry as a hunter.'

A voice floated through the window like an echo: 'Irish murder; latest
details.'

'Shut the window, Mary,' she said sharply.




CHAPTER VII


THE Hotel Vesuvius is a singular place. It stands on the north side of
Piccadilly, and for the general its stuccoed front and severe sash
windows breathe an air of early Victorian respectability. Probably it
was once a ducal mansion, for it has all the necessary ugliness,
solidity and size; now it is the most remarkable instance of what can be
done by a proprietor who remembers that an address in Piccadilly exempts
him from the rules which govern Bloomsbury. One enters it through a
small hall all alight with white and gold paint. Right and left are the
saloon bar and the buffet; this enables the customer to select either
without altering the character of his accommodation, while assuming
superiority for a judicious choice. A broad straight staircase leads up
to the big supper room on the first floor. Above are a score of private
dining-rooms.

Victoria jumped out of the cab and walked up the steps, handing the
liveried commissionaire two shillings to pay the cabman. This was an
inspiration calculated to set her down at once with the staff as one who
knew the ropes. In the white and gold hall she halted for a moment,
puzzled and rather nervous. She had never set foot in the Vesuvius; she
had never heard it mentioned without a smile or a wink. Now, a little
flushed and her heart beating, she realised that she did not know her
way about.

Victoria need have had no fears. Before she had time to take in the
scene, a tall man with a perfectly groomed head and a well fitting
evening dress bowed low before her.

'Madame wishes no doubt to deposit her wrap,' he said in gentle tones.
His teeth flashed white for a moment.

'Yes,' said Victoria, . . . 'Yes, where is the cloak room?'

'This way, madame. If madame will permit me. . . .' He pointed towards
the end of the hall and preceded her steps. An elderly woman behind the
counter received Victoria's wrap and handed her a brass token without
looking at her. While she pulled up her gloves she looked round
curiously. The cloak room was small; behind the counter the walls were
covered by a mahogany rack with some hundred pigeon-holes. The fiercer
light of an unshaded chandelier beat down upon the centre of the room.
Victoria was conscious of an extraordinary atmosphere, a blend of many
scents, tobacco smoke, leather; most of the pigeon-holes were bursting
with  wraps, many of them vivid blue or red; here and there long
veils, soiled white gloves hung out of them; a purple ostrich feather
hung from an immense black hat over a white and silver Cingalese shawl.
Victoria turned sharply. The man was inspecting her coolly with an air
of intentness that showed approval.

'Where does madame wish to go?' he asked as they entered the hall. 'In
the buffet perhaps?'

He opened the door. Victoria saw for a second a long counter laden with
bottles, at which stood a group of men, some in evening dress, some in
tweed suits; she saw a few women among them, all with smiles upon their
faces. Behind the counter she had time to see the barmaid, a beautiful
girl with dark eyes and vivid yellow hair.

'No, not there,' she said quickly. It reminded her of the terrible
little bar of which Farwell had given her a glimpse. 'You are the
manager, I believe . . . I want to go up into the supper room.'

'Certainly, madame; will madame come this way?'

The manager preceded her up to the first floor. On the landing, two men
in tweeds suddenly stopped talking as she passed. A porter flung the
glazed door open. A short man in evening dress looked at her, then at
the manager. After a second's hesitation the two men in tweeds followed
her in.

The manager put his hands in his pockets, walked up to the other man and
nodded towards the door.

'_Pas mal, hein?_'

'_Epatante,_' said the short man. '_Du chic. Et une peau!_'

The manager smiled and turned to go downstairs. '_Surveillez moi ca
Anatole,_' he said.

Victoria, meanwhile, had stopped for a moment on the threshold, a little
dazed by the scene. Though it was only half-past ten, the eighty tables
of the Vesuvius were almost every one occupied; the crowd looked at
first like a patchwork quilt. The room was all white and gold like the
hall; a soft radiance fell from the lights hidden in the cornice; two
heavy chandeliers with faintly pink electric bulbs and a few pink shaded
lights on the table diffused a roseate glow over the scene. Victoria
felt like an intruder, and her discomfiture was heightened by the
gripping hot perfume. But already a waiter was by her side; she let him
be her pilot. In a few seconds she found herself sitting at a small
table alone, near the middle of the room. The waiter reappeared almost
at once carrying on a tray a liqueur glass containing some colourless
fluid. She had ordered nothing, but his adroitness relieved her. Clearly
the expert had divined her inexperience and had resolved to smooth her
way.

She lifted the glass to her lips and sipped at it. It was good stuff,
rather strong. The burn on her palate seemed to brace her; she looked
round the room. It was a peculiar scene; for the Vesuvius is a luxurious
place, and a provincial might well be excused for thinking it was the
Carlton or the Savoy; indeed there was something more outwardly opulent
about it. It suggested a place where men not only spent what they had
but spent more. But for a few men in frock-coats and tweeds it would
have been almost undistinguishable from the recognised resorts of
fashion. Victoria took stock of her surroundings; of the shining plate
and glass, the heavy red carpet, the red and gold curtains, drawn but
fluttering at the open windows. The guests, however, interested her
more. At half the tables sat a woman and a man, at others a woman alone
before a little glass. What struck her above all was the beauty of the
women, the wealth they carried on their bodies. Hardly one of them
seemed over thirty; most of them had golden or vivid red hair, though a
few tables off Victoria could see a tall woman of colour with black hair
stiffened by wax and pierced with massive ivory combs. They mostly wore
low-necked dresses, many of them white or faintly tinted with blue or
pink. She could see a dark Italian-looking girl in scarlet from whose
ears long coral earrings drooped to her slim cream- shoulders.
There was an enormously stout woman with puffy pink cheeks, strapped
slightly into a white silk costume, looking like a rose at the height of
its bloom. There were others too! short dark women with tight hair;
minxish French faces and little shrewd dark eyes; florid Dutch and
Belgian women with massive busts and splendid shoulders, dazzlingly
white; English girls too, most of them slim with long arms and rosy
elbows and faintly outlined collar bones. Many of these had the
aristocratic nonchalance of 'art' photographs. Opposite Victoria, under
the other chandelier, a splendid creature, white as a lily, with
flashing green eyes, copper  hair, had thrown herself back in
her armchair and was laughing at a man's joke. Her head was bent back,
and as she laughed her splendid bust rose and fell and her throat filled
out. An elderly man with a close clipped grey moustache, immaculate in
his well-cut dress clothes, leaned towards her with a smile on his brown
face.

Victoria turned her eyes away from the man, (a soldier, of course), and
looked at the others. They, too, were a mixed collection. There were a
good many youths, all clean shaven and mostly well-groomed; these talked
loudly to their partners and seemed to fill the latter with merriment;
now and then they stared at other women with the boldness of the shy.
There were elderly men too; a few in frock coats in spite of the heat,
some very stout and red, some bald and others half concealing their
scalps under cunning hair arrangements. The elderly men sat mostly with
two women, some with three, and lay back smiling like courted pachas. By
far the greater number of the guests, however, were anything between
thirty and forty; and seemed to cover every type from the smart young
captain with the tanned face, bold blue eyes and a bristly moustache, to
ponderous men in tweeds or blue reefer jackets who looked about them
with a mixture of nervousness and bovine stolidity.

From every corner came a steady stream of loud talk; continually little
shrieks of laughter pierced the din and then were smothered by the
rattling of the plates. The waiters flitted ghostly through the room
with incredible speed, balancing high their silver trays. Then Victoria
became conscious that most of the women round her were looking at her;
for a moment she felt her personality shrivel up under their gaze. They
were analysing her, speculating as to the potentialities of a new rival,
stripping off her clothes too and her jewels. It was horrible, because
their look was more incisive than the merely brutal glance by which a
man takes stock of a woman's charms.

She pulled herself together however, and forced herself to return the
stares. 'After all,' she thought, 'this is the baptism of fire.' She
felt strengthened, too, as she observed her rivals more closely.
Beautiful as most of them seemed at first sight, many of them showed
signs of wear. With joyful cruelty Victoria noted here and there faint
wrinkles near their eyes, relaxed mouths, cheekbones on which rosacia
had already set its mark. She could not see more than half a dozen whose
beauty equalled hers; she threw her head up and drew back her shoulders.
In the full light of the chandelier she looked down at the firm white
shapeliness of her arms.

'Well, how goes it?'

Victoria started and looked up from her contemplation. A man had sat
down at her table. He seemed about thirty, fairish, with a rather ragged
moustache. He wore a black morning coat and a grey tie. His hands and
wrists were well kept and emerged from pale blue cuffs. There was a not
unkindly smile upon his face. His tip tilted nose gave him a cheerful,
rather impertinent expression.

'Oh, I'm all right,' said Victoria vaguely. Then with an affectation of
ease. 'Hot, isn't it?'

'Ra-_ther_,' said the man. 'Had your supper?'

'No,' said Victoria, 'I don't want any.'

'Now, come, really that's too bad of you. Thought we were going to have
a nice little family party and you're off your feed.'

'I'm sorry,' said Victoria smiling. 'I had dinner only two hours ago.'
This man was not very attractive; there was something forced in his
ease.

'Well, have a drink with me,' he said.

'What's yours?' asked Victoria. That was an inspiration. The plunge
braced her like a cold bath. The man laughed.

'Pop, of course. Unless you prefer a Pernot. You know "absinthe makes
the . . ."' He stopped and laughed again. Victoria did likewise without
understanding him. She saw that the other women laughed when men did.

They filled their glasses. Victoria liked champagne. She watched the
little bubbles rise, and drank the glass down. It was soft and warm. How
strong she felt suddenly. The conversation did not flag. The man was
leaning towards her across the table, talking quickly. He punctuated
every joke with a high laugh.

'Oh, I say, give us a chance,' floated from the next table. Victoria
looked. It was one of the English girls. She was propped up on one elbow
on the table; her legs were crossed showing a long slim limb and slender
ankle in a white open work stocking. A man in evening dress with a
foreign looking dark face was caressing her bare arm.

'Penny for your thoughts,' said Victoria's man.

'Wasn't thinking,' she said. 'I was looking.'

'Looking? are you new here?'

'Yes, it's the first time I've come.'

'By Jove! It _must_ be an eye-opener.' He laughed.

'It is rather. It doesn't seem half bad.'

'You're right there. I'm an old stager.' A slightly complacent
expression came over his face. He filled up the glasses. 'You don't
spoil the collection, you know,' he added. 'You're a bit of all right.'
He looked at her approvingly.

'Am I?' She looked at him demurely. Then, plunging once more, 'I hope
you'll still think so by and by.' The man's eyes dwelled for a moment on
her face and neck, his breath became audible suddenly. She felt his
foot softly stroke hers. He drew his napkin across his lips.

'Well,' he said with an assumption of ease, 'shall we go?'

'I don't mind,' said Victoria getting up.

It was with a beating heart that Victoria climbed into the cab. As soon
as he got in the man put his arm round her waist and drew her to him.
She resisted gently but gave way as his arm grew more insistent.

'Coy little puss.' His face was very near her upturned eyes. She felt it
come nearer. Then, suddenly, he kissed her on the lips. She wanted to
struggle; she was a little frightened. The lights of Piccadilly filled
her with shame. They spoke very little. The man held her close to him.
As the cab rattled through Portland Place, he seized her once more. She
fought down the repulsion with which his breath inspired: it was scented
with strong cigars and champagne. Victoriously she coiled one arm round
his neck and kissed him on the mouth. In her disgust there was a blend
of triumph; not even her own feelings could resist her will.

As she waited on the doorstep while he paid the cabman a great fear came
upon her. She did not know this man. Who was he? Perhaps a thief. She
suddenly remembered that women of her kind were sometimes murdered for
the sake of their jewellery. As the man turned to come up the steps she
pulled herself together. 'After all,' she thought, 'it's only
professional risk.'

They stood for a moment in the hall of the silent house. She felt
awkward. The man looked at her and mistook her hesitation.

'It's all right,' he faltered. He looked about him, then, quickly
whipping out a sovereign purse, he drew out two sovereigns with a click
and laid them on the hall table.

'You see,' he said '. . . a girl like you. . . . three more to-morrow
morning. . . . I'm square you know.'

Victoria smiled and, after a second's hesitation, picked up the money.

'So'm I,' she said. Then she switched on the light and pointed
upstairs.




CHAPTER VIII


VICTORIA'S new career did not develop on unkindly lines. Every night she
went to the Vesuvius, where she soon had her appointed place full under
one of the big chandeliers. She secured this spot without difficulty,
for most of her rivals were too wise to affront the glare; as soon as
she realised this she rather revelled in her sense of power, for she now
lived in a world where the only form of power was beauty. She felt sure
of her beauty now she had compared it minutely with the charms of the
preferred women. She was finer, she had more breed. Almost every one of
those women showed a trace of coarseness: a square jaw, not moulded in
big bone like hers but swathed in heavy flesh; a thick ankle or wrist;
spatulate fingertips; red ears. Her pride was in the courage with which
she welcomed the flow of the light on her neck and shoulders; round her
chandelier the tables formed practically into circles, the nearest being
occupied by the very young and venturesome, a few by the oldest who
desperately clung to their illusion of immortal youth; then came the
undecided, those who are between ages, who wear thick veils and sit with
their backs to the light; the outer fringe was made up of those who
remembered. Their smiles were hard and fixed.

She was fortunate enough too. She never had to sit long in front of the
little glass which she discovered to be kummel; the waiter always
brought it unasked. Sometimes they would chat for a moment, for
Victoria was assimilating the lazy familiarity of her surroundings. He
talked about the weather, the latest tips for Goodwood, the misfortune
of Camille de Valenciennes who had gone off to Carlsbad with a barber
who said he was a Russian prince and had left her there stranded.

Her experiences piled up, and, after a few weeks she found she had
exhausted most of the types who frequented the Vesuvius. Most of them
were of the gawky kind, being very young men out for the night and
desperately anxious to get off on the quiet by three o'clock in the
morning; of the gawky kind too were the Manchester merchants paying a
brief visit to town on business and who wanted a peep into the inferno;
these were easily dealt with and, if properly primed with champagne,
exceedingly generous. Now and then Victoria was confronted with a racier
type which tended to become rather brutal. It was recruited largely from
obviously married men whose desires, dammed and sterilised by monotonous
relations, seemed suddenly to burst their bonds.

In a few weeks her resources developed exceedingly. She learned the
scientific look that awakes a man's interest: a droop of the eyelid
followed by a slow raising of it, a dilation of the pupil, then again a
demure droop and the suspicion of a smile. She learned to prime herself
from the papers with the proper conversation; racing, the latest divorce
news, ragging scandals, marriages of the peerage into the chorus. She
learned to laugh at chestnuts and to memorise such stories as sounded
fresh; a few judicious matinees put her up to date as to the latest
musical comedies. On the whole it was an easy life enough. Six hours in
the twenty-four seemed sufficient to afford her a good livelihood, and
she did not doubt that by degrees she would make herself a connection
which might be turned to greater advantage; as it was she had two
faithful admirers whom she could count on once a week.

The life itself often struck her as horrible, foul; still she was
getting inured to the inane and could listen to it with a tolerant
smile; sometimes she looked dispassionately into men's fevered eyes with
a little wonder and an immense satisfaction in her power and the value
of her beauty. Sometimes a thrill of hatred went through her and she
loathed those whose toy she was; then she felt tempted to drink, to
drugs, to anything that would deaden the nausea; but she would rally:
the first night, when she had drunk deep of champagne after the kummel,
had given her a racking headache and suggested that beauty does not
thrive on mixed drinks.

Another painful moment had been the third day after her new departure.
It seemed to force realisation upon her. Tacitly the early cup of tea
had been stopped. Mary now never came to the door, but breakfast was
laid for two in the dining-room at half past nine; the hot course stood
on a chafing dish over a tiny flame; the teapot was stocked and a kettle
boiled on its own stand. Neither of the servants ever appeared. On the
third day, however, as Victoria lay in her boudoir, reading, preparatory
to ringing the cook to give her orders for the day, there was a knock at
the door.

'Come in,' said Victoria a little nervously. She was still in the mood
of feeling awkward before her servants.

Mary came in. For a moment she tugged at her belt. There was a slight
flush on her sallow face.

'Well Mary?' asked Victoria, still nervous.

'If you please, mum, may I speak to you? I've been talking to cook, mum,
and--'

'And?'

'Oh, mum, I hope you won't think it's because we're giving ourselves
airs but it isn't the same as it was here before, mum--'

'Well?'

'Well, mum, we think we'd rather go mum. There's my young man, mum,
and--and--'

'And he doesn't like your being associated with a woman of my kind? Very
right and proper.'

'Oh, mum, I don't mean that. You've always been kind to me. Cook too,
she says she feels it very much, mum. When the major was alive, mum, it
was different. It didn't seem to matter then, mum, but now--'

Mary stopped. For a moment the eyes behind the glasses looked as if they
were going to cry.

'Don't trouble to explain, Mary,' said her mistress with some asperity.
'I understand. You and cook can't afford to jeopardise your characters.
From the dizzy heights of trained domesticity, experts in your own line,
you are justified in looking down upon an unskilled labourer. I have no
doubt that you have considered the social problem in all its aspects,
that you fully realise the possibilities of a woman wage-earner and her
future. By all means go where your moral sense calls you: I shall give
you an excellent character and demand none in exchange. There! I don't
want to hurt your feelings, Mary, I spoke hastily,' she added as the
maid's features contracted, 'you only do this to please your young man;
that is woman's profession, and I of all people must approve of what you
do. If you don't mind, both of you, you will leave on Saturday. You
shall have your full month and a month's board allowance. Now send up
cook, I want to order lunch.'

She could almost have wept as she lay with her face in the cushion. Her
servants had delivered an ultimatum from womankind, and lack of supplies
compelled her to pick up the guage of battle. Mary and cook were links
between her and all those women who shelter behind one man only, and
from that vantage ground hurl stones at their sisters beyond the gates.
The significance of it was not that their services were lost to her, but
that she must now be content to associate with another class. Soon,
however, her will was again supreme. 'After all,' she thought, 'I have
done with Society. I'm a pirate; Society 'll be keen enough when I've
won.'

Within three days she had readjusted her household. She had decided to
make matters easy by engaging two German girls. Laura, the cook, said at
once that it was all one to her who came to the house and who didn't, so
long as they left her alone in the kitchen, and provided she might bring
her large tabby cat. Augusta the maid, a long lanky girl with strong
peasant hands and carroty hair, declared herself willing to oblige the
_herrschaft_ in any way; she thereupon demanded an increase on the wages
scheduled for her at the registry office. She also confided to her new
mistress that she had a _kerl_ in Germany, and that she would do
anything to earn her dowry.

Thus the establishment settled down again. Laura cooked excellently.
Augusta never flinched when bringing in the tea tray. Her big blue Saxon
eyes seemed to allow everything to pass through them leaving her mind
unsoiled, so armoured was her heart by the thought of that dowry. As for
Snoo and Poo: they chased the tabby cat all over the house most of the
day, which very soon improved their figures.

Thus the even tenour of Victoria's life continued. She was quite a
popular favourite. As soon as she sat down under the chandelier
half-a-dozen men were looking at her. Sometimes men followed her into
the Vesuvius; but these she seldom encouraged, for her instinct told her
that so beautiful a woman as she was should set a high price on herself,
and high prices were not to be found in Piccadilly. Among her faithful
was a bachelor of forty, whom she only knew as Charlie. This, by the
way, was a characteristic of her acquaintances. She never discovered
their names; some in fact were so guarded that they had apparently
discarded their watches before coming out, so as to conceal even their
initials. None ever showed a pocketbook. Charlie was dark and burned by
the sun of the tropics; there was something bluff and good-natured about
him, great strength too. He had sharp grey eyes and a dark moustache. He
spoke extraordinarily fast, talked loosely of places he had been to:
China, Mozambique, South America. Victoria rather liked him; he was
totally dull, inclined to be coarse; but as he invariably drank far too
much before and when he came to the Vesuvius, he made no demands on her
patience, slept like a log and went early, leaving handsome recognition
behind him.

There was Jim too, a precise top-hatted city clerk who had forced
himself on her one Saturday afternoon as she crossed Piccadilly Circus.
He seemed such a pattern of rectitude, was so perfectly trim and brushed
that she allowed herself to be inveigled into a cab and driven to a
small flat in Bayswater. He was too prudent to visit anybody else's
rooms, he said; he had his flat on a weekly tenancy. Jim kept rather a
hold on her. He was neither rich nor generous; in fact Victoria's social
sense often stabbed her for what she considered undercutting, but Jim
used to hover about the Vesuvius five minutes before closing time, and
once or twice when Victoria had had no luck he succeeded like the
vulture on the stricken field.

Most of the others were dream figures; she lost count of them. After a
month she could not remember a face. She even forgot a big fellow whom
she had called Black Beauty, who came down from somewhere in Devonshire
for a monthly bust; he was so much offended that she had the
mortification of seeing him captured by one of the outer circle who sit
beyond the lights.

In the middle of August the streets she called London were deserted.
Steamy air, dust laden, floated over the pavements. The Vesuvius was
half empty, and she had to cut down her standards. Just as she was
contemplating moving to Folkestone for a month, however, she received a
letter from solicitors in the Strand, Bastable, Bastable & Sons,
informing her that 're Major Cairns deceased,' they were realising the
estate on behalf of the administrators, and that they would be obliged
if she would say when it would be convenient for her to convey the
furniture of Elm Tree Place into their hands. This perturbed Victoria
seriously. The furniture had a value, and besides it was the plant of a
flourishing business.

'Pity he died suddenly,' she thought, 'he'd have done something for me.
He was a good sort, poor old Tom.'

She dressed herself as becomingly and quietly as she could, and, after
looking up the law of intestacy in Whitaker, concluded that Marmaduke
Cairns's old sisters must be the heirs. Then she sallied forth to beard
the solicitor in his den. The den was a magnificent suite of offices
just off the Strand. She was ushered into a waiting-room partitioned off
from the general office by glass. It was all very frowsy and hot. There
was nothing to read except the _Times_ and she was uncomfortably
conscious of three clerks and an office boy who frequently turned round
and looked through the partition. At last she was ushered in. The
solicitor was a dry-looking man of forty or so; his parchment face,
deeply wrinkled right and left, his keen blue eyes and high forehead
impressed her as dangerous. He motioned her to an armchair on the other
side of his desk.

'Well, Mrs Ferris,' he said, 'to what do I owe the honour of this
visit?' He sat back in his armchair and bit his penholder. A smile
elongated his thin lips. This was his undoing, for he looked less
formidable and Victoria decided on a line of action. She had come
disturbed, now she was on her mettle.

'Mr Bastable,' she said, plunging at once into the subject, 'you ask me
to surrender my furniture. I'm not going to.'

'Oh?' The solicitor raised his eyebrows. 'But, my dear madame, surely
you must see . . .'

'I do. But I'm not going to.'

'Well,' he said, 'I hardly see . . . My duty will compel me to take
steps . . .'

'Of course,' said Victoria smiling, 'but if you refuse to let me alone I
shall go out of this office, have the furniture moved to-day and put up
at auction to-morrow.'

A smile came over the solicitor's face. By Jove, she was a fine woman,
and she had some spirit.

'Besides,' she added, 'all this would cause me a great deal of
annoyance. Major Cairns's affairs are still very interesting to the
public. I shall be compelled, if you make me sell, to write a serial,
say _My Life with an Irish Martyr_ for a Sunday paper.'

Mr Bastable laughed frankly.

'You want to be nasty, I see. But you know, we can stop your sale by an
application to a judge in chambers this afternoon. And as for your
serial, well, Major Cairns is dead, he won't mind.'

'No, but his aunts will. Their name is Cairns. As regards the sale,
perhaps you and the other lawyers can stop it. Very well, either you
promise or I go home and . . . perhaps there'll be a fire to-night and
perhaps there won't. I'm fully insured.'

'By Jove!' Bastable looked at her critically. Cairns had been a lucky
man. 'Well, Mrs Ferris,' he added, 'we're not used to troublesome
customers like you. I don't suppose the furniture is valuable, is it?'

'Oh, a couple of hundred,' said Victoria dishonestly.

'M'm. Do you absolutely want me to pledge myself?'

'Absolutely.'

'Well, Mrs Ferris, I can honestly promise you that you won't hear
anything more about it. I . . . I don't think it would pay us.'

Victoria laughed. A great joy of triumph was upon her. She liked
Bastable rather, now she had brought him to heel.

'All right,' she said, 'it's a bargain.' Then she saw that his mouth was
smiling still and his eyes fixed on her face.

'There's no quarrel between us, is there?'

'No, of course not. All in the way of business, you know.'

He bent across the table; she heard him breathe in her perfume.

'Then,' she said slowly, getting up and pulling on her gloves, 'I'm not
doing anything to-night. You know my address. Seven o'clock. You may
take me out to dinner.'




CHAPTER IX


WITHIN a few days of her victory over Mr Bastable, Victoria found
herself in an introspective mood. The solicitor was the origin of it,
though unimportant in himself as the grain of sand which falls into a
machine, and for a fraction of a second causes a wheel to rasp before
the grain is crunched up. She reflected, as she looked out over her
garden, that she was getting very hard. She had brought this man to his
knees by threats; she had vulgarly bullied him by holding exposure over
his head; she had behaved like a tragedy queen. Finally, with sardonic
intention, she had turned the contest to good account by entangling him
while he was still under the influence of her personality.

All this was not what disturbed her; for after all she had only lied to
Bastable, bullied him, threatened him, bluffed as to her intentions: she
had been perfectly businesslike. Thoughtfully she opened the little door
at the end of the hall and stepped out on the outer landing where the
garden steps ended. Snoo and Poo, asleep in a heap in the August blaze,
raised heavy eyelids, and, yawning and stretching, followed her down the
steps.

This was a joyful little garden. The greater part of it was a lawn,
close cut, but disfigured in many places by Snoo and Poo's digging.
Flower beds ran along both sides and the top of the lawn, while the
bottom was occupied by the pergola, now covered with massive red blooms;
an acacia tree, and an elder tree, both leafy but refusing to flower,
shaded the bottom of the garden, which was effectively cut off by a
hedge of golden privet. It was a tidy garden, but it showed no traces of
originality. Victoria had ordered it to be potted with geraniums,
carnations, pinks, marguerites; and was quite content to observe that
somebody had put in sweet peas, clematis and larkspur. Hers was not the
temperament which expresses itself in a garden; there was no sense of
peace in her idea of the beautiful. If she liked the garden to look
pretty at all, it was doubtless owing to her heredity.

Victoria picked up a couple of stones and threw them towards the end of
the garden. Snoo and Poo rushed into the privet, snuffling excitedly,
while their mistress drew down a heavy rose-laden branch from the
pergola and breathed the blossoms. Yes, she was hard, and it was
beginning to make her nervous. In the early days she had sedulously
cultivated the spirit which was making a new woman out of the quiet,
refined, rather shy girl she had been. There had been a time when she
would have shuddered at the idea of a quarrel with a cabman about an
overcharge; now, if it were possible, she felt coldly certain that she
would cheat him of his rightful fare. This process she likened to the
tempering of steel, and called a development of the mental muscles. She
rather revelled in this development in the earlier days, because it gave
her a sense of power; she benefited by it too, for she found that by
cultivating this hardness she could extort more money by stooping to
wheedle, by accepting snubs, by flattery and lies too. The consciousness
of this power redeemed the exercise of it; she often felt herself lifted
above this atmosphere of deceit by looking coldly at the deed she was
about to do, recognising its nature and doing it with her eyes open.

A realization of another kind, however, was upon Victoria that rich
August day. In a sense she was doing well. Her capital had not been
touched; in fact it had probably increased, and this in spite of town
being empty. She had not yet found the man who would make her fortune;
but she had no doubt that he would appear if she continued on her even
road, selecting without passion, judging values and possibilities. For
the moment she brushed aside the question of success; it was assured.
But, after success, what then? Say she had four or five hundred a year
at thirty and retired into the country or went to America. What use
would she be to herself or to anybody if she had learned exclusively to
bide her time and to strike for her own advantage? Life was a contest
for the poor and for the rich alike; but the first had to fight to win
and to use any means, fair or foul, while the latter could accept
knightly rules, be magnanimous when victorious, graceful when defeated.

'Yes,' said Victoria, 'I must keep myself in trim. It's all very well to
win and I've got to be as hard as nails to men, but . . .'

She stopped abruptly. The problem had solved itself. 'Hard as nails to
men,' did not include women, for 'men' seldom means mankind when the
talk is of rights. She did not know what her mission might be. Perhaps,
after she had succeeded, she would travel all over Europe, perhaps
settle on the English downs where the west winds blow, perhaps even be
the pioneer of a great sex revolt; but whatever she did, if her triumph
was not to be sterile, she would need sympathy, the capacity to love.
Thus she amended her articles of war: 'Woman shall be spared, and I
shall remember that, as a member of a sex fighting another sex, I must
understand and love my sister warrior.'

It was in pursuance of her new policy that, on her way to the Vesuvius,
Victoria dawdled for a moment at the entrance of Swallow Street, under
its portico. A few yards beyond her stood a woman whom she knew by sight
as having established practically a proprietary right to her beat. She
was a dark girl, good-looking enough, well set up in her close fitting
white linen blouse, drawn tight to set off her swelling bust. In the dim
light Victoria could see that her face was rather worn, and that the
ravages of time had been clumsily repaired. The girl looked at her
curiously at first; then angrily, evidently disliking the appearance of
what might be a dangerous rival in her own preserves. Victoria walked up
and down on the pavement. The girl watched her every footstep. Once she
made as if to speak to her. It was ghostly, for passers-by in Regent
Street came to and fro beyond the portico like arabesques. A passing
policeman gave the girl a meaning look. She tossed her head and walked
away down Regent Street, while Victoria nervously continued down Swallow
Street to Piccadilly.

These two women were to meet, however. About a week later, Victoria,
happening to pass by at the same hour, saw the girl and stopped under
the arch. In another second the girl was by her side.

'What are you following me about for?' she snarled. 'If you're a grote
it's no go. You won't teach the copper anything he doesn't know.'

'Oh, I'm not following you,' said Victoria. 'Only I saw you about and
thought I'd like to talk to you.'

The girl shot a dark glance at her.

'What's your game?' she asked. 'You're not one of those blasted sisters.
Too toffish. Seen you come out of the Vez', besides.'

'I'm in the profession,' said Victoria coolly. 'But that doesn't mean
I've got to be against the others.'

'Doesn't it!' The girl's eyes glowed. 'You don't know your job. Of
course you've got to be against the others. We were born like that. Or
got like that. What's it matter?'

'Matter? oh, a lot,' said Victoria. 'We want friends, all of us.'

'Friends. Oh, Lord! The likes of you and me don't have friends. Women,
they won't know us . . . too good. Except our sort. We can't talk; we
got nothing to talk of, except money and the boys. And the boys, what's
the good of them? There's the sort you pick up and all you've got to
do's to get what you can out of them. Haven't fallen in love with one,
have you?' The girl's voice broke a little, then she went on. 'Then,
there's the other sort, like my Hugo, p'raps you've heard of him?'

'No,' she said, 'I haven't. What is he like?'

'Bless you, he's a beauty.' The girl smiled; her face was full of pride.

'Does he treat you well?'

'So so. Sometimes.' The shadow had returned. 'Not like my first. Oh,
it's hard you know, beginning. He left me with a baby after three
months. I was in service in Pembridge Gardens--such a swell house! I had
to keep baby. It died then, jolly good thing too! Couldn't go back to
service. Everybody knew.'

The girl burst into tears and Victoria putting an arm round her drew her
against her breast.

'Everybody knew, everybody knew!' wailed the girl.

Victoria had the vision of a thousand spectral eyes, all full of
knowledge, gazing at the housemaid caught by them sinning. The girl
rested her head against Victoria's shoulder for a moment, holding one of
her hands. Suddenly she raised her head again and cleared her throat.

'There,' she said, 'let me go. Hugo's waiting for me at the Carcassonne.
Never mind me. We've all got to live, he-he!'

She turned into Regent Street and another 'he-he' floated back. Victoria
felt a heavy weight at her heart; poor girl, weak, the sport of one man,
deceived, then a pirate made to disgorge her gains by another man;
handsome, subtle, playing upon her affections and her fears. What did it
matter? Was she not in the same position, but freer because conscious;
poor slave soul. But the time had come for Victoria to make for the
Vesuvius. 'It must be getting late,' she thought, putting up her hand to
her little gold watch-brooch.

It was gone. She had it on when she left, but it could not have dropped
out, for the lace showed two long rips; it had just been torn out.
Victoria stood frozen for a moment. So this was the result of a first
attempt at love. She recovered, however. She was not going to generalise
from one woman. 'Besides,' she thought bitterly, 'the girl's theories
are the same as mine. She merely has no reservations or hesitations. The
bolder pirate, she is perhaps the better brain.'

Then she walked down Swallow Street into Piccadilly, and at once a young
man in loud checks was at her side. She looked up into his face, her
smile full of covert promise as they went into the Vesuvius together.
Victoria was now at home in the market place, and could exchange a quip
with the frequenters. Languidly she dropped her cloak into the hands of
the porter and preceded the young man into the supper-room. As they sat
at the little table before the liqueur, her eyes saw the garish room
through a film. How deadening it all was, and how lethal the draughts
sold here. An immense weariness was upon her, an immense disgust, as she
smiled full-toothed on the young man in checks. He was a cheerful
rattle, suggested the man who has got beyond the retail trade without
reaching the professions, a house agent's clerk perhaps.

'Oh, yes, I'm a merry devil, ha! ha!' He winked a pleasant grey eye.
Victoria noticed that his clothes were too new, his boots too new, his
manners too a recent acquisition.

'Don't worry. That's how you keep young, ha! ha! Besides, don't have
much time to mope in my trade!'

'What's that?' asked Victoria vacuously. Men generally lied as to their
occupation, but she had noticed that when their imagination was
stimulated their temper improved.

'Inspector of bun-punchers, ha! ha!'

'Bun-punchers?'

'Yes, bun-punchers. South Eastern Railway, you know. Got to have them
dated now. New Act of Parliament, ha! ha!'

Victoria laughed, for his cockney joviality was infectious. Then again
the room faded and rematerialised as his voice rose and fell.

'The wife don't know I'm out on the tiles, ha! ha! She's in Streatham,
looking after the smalls. . . . Oh, no, none of your common or garden
brass fenders. . . .'

Victoria pulled herself together. This was what she could not bear.
Brutality, the obscene even, were preferable to this dreary trickling of
the inane masquerading as wit. Yet she smiled at him.

'You're saucy,' she said. 'You're my fancy to-night.'

A shadow passed over the man's face. Then again he was rattling along.

'Talk of inventions? What'd you think of mine: indiarubber books to read
in your bath? ha! ha! . . .'

But these are only the moths that flutter round the lamp, too far off to
burn their wings. They love to breathe perfume, to touch soft hands,
gaze at bright eyes and golden hair; then they flutter away, and the
hand that would stay their flight cannot rob them even of a few specks
of golden dust. In a few minutes Victoria sat philosophically before
her empty glass while Fascination Fledgeby was by the side of a rival,
being 'an awful dog,' for the benefit of his fellow clerks on the
morrow. She was in the mood when it did not matter whether she was
unlucky or not. There were quite two women present for every man this
hot August night. At the next table sat a woman known as 'Duckie,' fair,
very fat and rosy; she was the vision bursting from a white dress which
Victoria had seen the first night. On the first night she had embodied
for Victoria--so large, so fat, so coarsely animal was she--the very
essence of her trade; now she knew her better she found that Duckie was
a good sort, careless, generous, perfectly incapable of doing anybody an
ill turn. She was _bonne fille_ even, so unmercenary as sometimes to
accede good humouredly to the pleadings of an impecunious youth. Her one
failing was a fondness for 'a wet.' She was drinking her third whisky
and soda; if she was invited to supper she would add to that at least
half a bottle of champagne, follow that up by a couple of liqueurs and a
peg just before going to bed. She carried her liquor well; she merely
grew a little vague.

'Hot,' remarked Duckie.

'Rather,' said Victoria. 'I'm going soon, can't stick it.'

'Good for you. I've got to stay. Always harder for grandmas like me when
the fifth form boy's at the seaside.' Duckie laughed, without cynicism
though; she had the reasoning powers of a cow.

Victoria laughed too. A foreign-looking girl in scarlet bent over from
the next table, her long coral earrings sliding down over her
collar-bones.

'Tight again,' said the girl.

'As a drum, Lissa, old girl!' said Duckie good temperedly.

'Nothing to what you'll be by and by,' added Lissa with the air of a
comforter.

'Nothing like, old dear! Have one with me, Lissa? No? No offence. You,
Zoe, have a _tord boyaux_?'

'No thanks.' Zoe was a good-looking short girl; her French nationality
written in every line of her round face, plump figure, and hands. Her
hair was pulled away from the fat nape of her neck. She looked competent
and wide awake. A housewife gone astray. Lissa, dark and Italian looking
in her red dress and coral earrings, was more languid than the others.
She was really a Greek, and all the grace of the East was in every
movement of her slim figure. In a moment the four women had clustered
together, forgetting strife.

Lissa had had a 'Bank of Engraving' note palmed off on her by a
pseudo-South American planter, and was rightly indignant. They were
still talking of Camille de Valenciennes and of her misfortunes with the
barber. Boys, the latest tip for Gatwick, 'what I said to him,' the
furriers' sales, boys again . . . Victoria listened to the conversation.
It still seemed like another world and yet her world. Here they were,
she and the other atoms, hostile every one, and a blind centripetal
force was kneading them together into a class. Yet any class was better
than the isolation in which she lived. Why not go further, hear more?

'I say, you girls,' she said suddenly, 'you've never been to my place.
Come and . . . no, not dine, it won't work . . . come and lunch with me
next week.'

Duckie smiled heavily.

'I don' min',' she said thickly.

Zoe looked suspicious for a moment.

'Can I bring Fritz?' asked Lissa.

'No, we can't have Fritz,' said Victoria smiling. 'Ladies only.'

'I'm on,' said Zoe suddenly. 'I was afraid you were going to have a lot
of swells in. Hate those shows. Never do you any good and you get so
crumpled.'

'You might let me bring Fritz,' said Lissa querulously.

'No men,' said Victoria firmly. 'Wednesday at one o'clock. All square?'

'Thatawright,' remarked Duckie. 'Shut it Lissa. Fritzawright. Tellm its
biz . . . bizness.'

With some difficulty they hoisted Duckie into a cab and sent her off to
Bloomsbury. As it drove off she popped her head out.

'Carriage paid,' she spluttered, 'or C. O. D.?'

Zoe and Lissa walked away to the circus. On her little hall table, as
Victoria went into her house, she found a note scrawled in pencil on
some of her own notepaper. It was from Betty. It said that Farwell had
been stricken down by a sudden illness and was sinking fast. His address
followed.




CHAPTER X


IN a bed sitting-room at the top of an old house off the Waterloo Road
three women were watching by the bedside of a man. One was dressed in
rusty black; she was pale faced, crowned with light hair; the other,
shifting uneasily from one foot to the other, was middle-aged and very
stout; her breast rolled like a billow in her half buttoned bodice. The
third was beautiful, all in black, her sumptuous neck and shoulders
bare. None of them moved for a moment. Then the beautiful woman threw
back her cloak and her long jade earrings tinkled. The face on the
pillow turned and opened its eyes.

'Victoria,' said a faint voice.

'Yes . . . are you better?' Victoria bent over the bed. The face was
copper ; every bone seemed to start out. She could hardly
recognise Farwell's rough hewn features.

'Not yet . . . soon,' said Farwell. He closed his eyes once more.

'What is it, Betty?' whispered Victoria.

'I don't know . . . hemorrhage they say.'

'It's all up mum,' whispered the landlady in Victoria's ear. 'Been ill
two days only. Doctor said he wouldn't come again.'

Victoria bent over the bed once more. She could feel the eyes of the
landlady probing her personality.

'Can't you do something?' she asked savagely.

'Nothing.' Farwell opened his eyes again and faintly smiled. 'And what's
the good, Victoria?'

Victoria threw herself on her knees by the side of the bed. 'Oh, you
musn't!' she whispered. 'You . . . the world can't spare you!'

'Oh, yes . . . it can . . . you know . . . the world is like men . . .
it spends everything on luxuries . . . it can't afford necessaries.'

Victoria smiled and felt as if she were going to choke. The last
paradox.

'Are you in pain?' she asked.

'No, not just now. . . . I shall be, soon. Let me speak while I can.'
His voice grew firmer suddenly.

'I have asked you to come so that you may be the last thing I see; you,
the fairest. I love you.'

Not one of the three women moved.

'I have not spoken before, because when I could speak we were slaves.
Now you are free and I a slave. It is too late, so it is time for me to
speak. For I cannot influence you.'

Farwell shut his eyes. But soon his voice rose again.

'You must never influence anybody. That is my legacy to you. You cannot
teach men to stand by giving them a staff. Let the halt and the lame
alone. The strong will win. You must be free. There is nothing worth
while. . . .' A shiver passed over him, his voice became muffled.

'No, nothing at all . . . freedom only. . . .'

He spoke quicker. The words could not be distinguished. Now and then he
groaned.

'Wait,' whispered Betty, 'it will be over in a minute.' For two minutes
they waited.

Victoria's eyes fastened on a basin by the bedside, full of reddish
water. Then Farwell's face grew lighter in tone. His voice came faint as
the sound of a spinet.

'There will be better times. But before then fighting . . . the coming
to the top of the leaders . . . gold will be taken from the rich . . .
given to the vile . . . pictures burnt . . . chaos . . . woman rise as
a tyrant . . . there will be fighting . . . the coming to the top. . ..'
His voice thinned down to nothing as his wandering mind repeated his
prediction. Then he spoke again.

'You are a rebel . . . you will lead . . . you have understood . . .
only by understanding are you saved. I asked you to come here to tell
you to go on . . . earn your freedom . . . at the expense of others.'

'Why at the expense of others?' asked Betty, leaning over the bed.
Farwell was hypnotising her. His eyes wandered to her face.

'Too late . . .' he said, 'you do not see . . . you are a slave . . . a
woman has only one weapon . . . otherwise, a slave . . . ask . . . ask
Victoria.' He closed his eyes but went on speaking.

'There is not freedom for everybody . . . capitalism means freedom for a
few . . . you must have freedom, like food . . . food for the soul . . .
you must capture the right to respect . . . a woman may not toil . . .
make money . . .'

Then again. 'I am going into the blackness . . . before Death . . . the
Judge . . . Death will judge me. . . .'

''E's thinking of his Maker, poor genelman,' said the landlady hoarsely.

Victoria and Betty looked at one another. Agnostic or indifferent in
their cooler moments, the superstition of their ancestors worked in
their blood, powerfully assisted by the spectacle of this being passing
step by step into an unknown. There must be life there, feeling, loving.
There must be Something.

The voice stopped. Betty had seized Victoria's arm and now clutched it
violently. Victoria could feel through her own body the shudders that
shook the girl's frame. Then Farwell's voice rose again, louder and
louder, like the upward flicker of a dying candle.

'Yes, freedom's my message, the right to live. This world into which we
are evolved by a selfish act of joy, into which we are dragged unwilling
with pain for our usher, it is a world which has no justification save
the freedom to enjoy it as we may. I have lived a stoic, but it is a
hedonist I die. Unshepherded I go into a perhaps. But I regret nothing
. . . all the certainties of the past are not worth the possible of the
future. Behind me others tread the road that leads up the hill.'

He paused for breath. Then again his voice arose as a cry, proclaiming
his creed.

'On the top of the hill. There I see the unknown land, running with milk
and honey. I see a new people; beautiful young, beautiful old. Its
fathers have ground the faces of the helots; they have fought and
lusted, they have suffered contumely and stripes. Now they know the Law,
the Law that all may keep because they are beyond the Law. They do not
desire, for they have, they do not weigh, for they know. They have not
feared, they have dared; they have spared no man, nor themselves. Ah!
now they have opened the Golden Gates. . . .'

The man's voice broke, he coughed, a thin stream of blood trickled from
the side of his mouth. Victoria felt a film come over her eyes. She
leant over him to staunch the flow. They saw one another then. Farwell's
voice went down to a whisper.

'Victoria . . . victorious . . . my love . . . never more. . . .'

She looked into his glazing eyes.

'Beyond . . .' he whispered; then his head fell to one side and his jaw
dropped.

Betty turned away. She was crying. The landlady wiped her hands on her
apron. Victoria hesitatingly took hold of Farwell's wrist. He was dead.
She looked at him stupidly for a moment, then drew her cloak round her
shivering shoulders. The landlady too was crying now.

'Oh, mum, sich a nice genelman,' she moaned. 'But 'e did go on so!'

Victoria smiled pitifully. What an epitaph for a sunset! She drove away
with Betty and, as the horse trotted through the deserted streets,
hugged the girl in her arms. Betty was shuddering violently, and nestled
close up to her. They did not speak. Everything seemed to have become
loose in Victoria's mind and to be floating on a black sea. The pillar
of her individualism was down. Her codes were in the melting pot; a man,
the finest she had known, had confessed his love in his extremity, and
before she could respond passed into the shadow. But Farwell had left
her as a legacy the love of freedom for which he died, for which she was
going to live.

When they arrived at Elm Tree Place, Victoria forced Betty to drink some
brandy, to tell her how Farwell had sent her a message, asking her to
send him Victoria, how she had waited for her.

'Oh, it was awful,' whispered Betty, 'the maid said you'd be late . . .
she said I mustn't wait because you might not . . .'

'Not come home alone?' said Victoria in a frozen voice.

'Oh, I can't bear it, I can't bear it.' Betty flung herself into her
friend's arms, wildly weeping.

Victoria soothed her, made her undress. As Betty grew more collected she
let drop a few words.

'Oh, so then you too are happy?' said Victoria smiling faintly.

'You love?' A burning blush rose over Betty's face.

That night, as in the old Finsbury days, they lay in one another's arms
and Victoria grappled with her sorrow. Gentle, almost motherly, she
watched over this young life; blushing, full of promise, preparing
already to replace the dead.




CHAPTER XI


THE death of Farwell seemed to leave Victoria struggling and gasping for
breath, like a shipwrecked mariner who tries to secure his footing on
shifting sand while waves knock him down every time he rises to his
knees. Though she hardly ever saw him and though she had no precise idea
that he cared for her more than does the scientist for the bacteria he
observes, he had been her tower of strength. He was there, like the
institutions which make up civilisation, the British Constitution, the
Bank and the Established Church. Now he was gone and she saw that the
temple of life was empty. He was the last link. Cairns's death had
turned her out among the howling wolves; now Farwell seemed to have
carried away with him her theory of life. Above all, she now knew
nobody; save Betty, who counted as a charming child. It was then she
began to taste more cruelly the isolation of her class.

In the early days, when she paced up and down fiercely in the room at
Portsea Place, she had already realised that she was alone, but then she
was not an outcast; the doors of society were, if not open, at any rate
not locked against her. Then the busy hum of the Rosebud and the P.R.R.,
the back-breaking work, the hustle, the facile friendships with City
beaus--all this had drawn a veil over her solitude. Now she was really
alone because none knew and none would know her. Her beauty, her fine
clothes, contributed to clear round her a circle as if she were a
leper. At times she would talk to a woman in a park, but before a few
sentences had passed her lips the woman would take in every detail of
her, her clean gloves, her neat shoes, her lace handkerchief, her costly
veil; then the woman's face would grow rigid, and with a curt 'good
morning' she would rise from her seat and go.

Victoria found herself thrust back, like the trapper in the hands of Red
Indians; like him she ran in a circle, clubbed back towards the centre
every time she tried to escape. She was of her class, and none but her
class would associate with her. Women such as herself gladly talked to
her, but their ideas sickened her, for life had taught them nothing but
the ethics of the sex-trade. Their followers too--barbers, billiard
markers, shady bookmakers, unemployed potmen; who sometimes dared to
foist themselves on her--filled her with yet greater fear and disgust,
for they were the only class of man alternative to those on whose bounty
she lived. Thus she withdrew herself away from all; sometimes a craving
for society would throw her into equivocal converse with Augusta, whose
one idea was the dowry she must take back to Germany. Then, tiring of
her, she would snatch up Snoo and Poo and pace round and round her tiny
lawn like a squirrel in its wheel.

A chance meeting with Molly emphasised her isolation, like the flash of
lightning which leaves the night darker. She was standing on the steps
of the Sandringham Tea House in Bond Street, looking into the side
window of the photographer who runs a print shop on the ground floor.
Some sprawling Boucher beauties in delicate gold frames fascinated her.
She delighted in the semi-crude, semi-sophisticated atmosphere, the
rotundity of the well-fed bodies, their ribald rosy flesh. As she was
wondering whether they would not do for the stairs the door opened
suddenly and a plump little woman almost rushed into her arms. The
little woman apologised, giving her a quick look. Then the two looked at
one another again.

'Victoria!' cried Molly, for it was she, with her wide open blue eyes,
small nose, fair frizzy hair.

A thrill of joy and fear ran through Victoria. She felt her personality
criddle up like a scorched moth, then expand like a flower under gentle
dew. She was found out; the terrible female instinct was going to detect
her, then to proclaim her guilt. However, bravely enough, she braced
herself up and held out her hand.

'Oh, Vic, why haven't you written to me for, let me see, three years,
isn't it?'

'I've been away, abroad,' said Victoria slowly. She seemed to float in
another world. Molly was talking vigorously; Victoria's brain,
feverishly active, was making up the story which would have to be told
when Molly's cheerful egotism had had its way.

'Don't let's stay here on the doorstep,' she interrupted, 'let's go
upstairs and have tea. You haven't had tea yet?'

'I should love to,' said Molly, squeezing her arm. 'Then you can tell me
about yourself.'

Seated at a little table Molly finished her simple story. She had
married an army chaplain, but he had given up his work in India and was
now rector of Pontyberis in Wales. They had two children. Molly was up
in town merely to break the journey, as she was going down to stay with
her aunt in Kent. Oh, yes, she was very happy, her husband was very
well.

'They're talking of making him Dean of Ffwr,' she added with unction.
'But that's enough about me. How have you been getting on, Vic? I
needn't ask how you are; one only has to look at you.' Molly's eyes
roved over her friend's beautiful young face, her clothes which she
appraised with the skill of those poor who are learned in the fashions.

'I? Oh, I'm very well,' said Victoria hysterically.

'Yes, but how have you been getting on? Weren't you talking about having
to work when you came over?'

'Yes, but I've been lucky . . . a week after I got here an aunt of my
mother's died of whom I never even heard before. They told me at Dick's
lawyers a month later, and you wouldn't believe it, there was no will
and I came in for . . . well something quite comfortable.'

Molly put out her hand and stroked Victoria's.

'I'm so glad,' she said. . . . 'Oh, you don't know how hard it is to
have to work for your living. I see something of it in Wales. Oh, if you
only knew. . . .'

Victoria pressed her lips together, as if about to cry or laugh.

'But what did you do then? You only wrote once. You didn't tell me?'

'No, I only heard a month after, you know. Oh, I had a lot to do. I
travelled a lot. I've been in America a good deal. In fact my home is in
. . . Alabama.' She plunged for Alabama, feeling sure that New York was
unsafe.

'Oh, how nice,' said Molly ingenuously. 'You might have sent me picture
postcards, you know.'

Skilfully enough Victoria explained that she had lost Molly's address.
Her friend blissfully accepted all she said, but a few other women less
ingenuous than the clergyman's wife were casting sharp glances at her.
When they parted, Victoria audaciously giving her address as 'care of
Mrs Ferris, Elm Tree Place,' she threw herself back on the cushions of
the cab and told herself that she could not again go through with the
ordeal of facing her own class. She almost hungered for the morrow, when
she was to entertain the class she had adopted.




CHAPTER XII


THE Fulton household had always been short of money, for Dick spent too
much himself to leave anything for entertaining; thus Victoria had very
little experience of lunch parties. Since she had left the Holts she
hardly remembered a bourgeois meal. The little affair on the Wednesday
was therefore provocative of much thought. Mutton was dismissed as
common, beef in any form as coarse; Laura's suggestion (for Laura and
Augusta had been called in) of a savoury sauerkraut ('mit Blutwurst,
Frankfurter, Leberwurst, etc.'), was also dismissed. Both servants took
a keen interest in the occasion.

'But why no gentleman come?' asked Laura, who was clearly ill-disposed
to do her best for her own sex.

'In the house I was . . .' began Augusta . . . then she froze up under
Victoria's eye. Her mistress still had a strain of the prig in her.

Then Augusta suggested hors d'oeuvres, smoked salmon, anchovies,
olives, radishes; Laura forced forward fowl _a la Milanaise_ to be
preceded by baked John Dory cayenne. Then Augusta in a moment of
inspiration thought of French beans and vegetable marrow . . . stuffed
with chestnuts. The three women laughed, Laura clapped her hands with
the sheer joy of the creative artist.

When Victoria came into the dining-room at half-past twelve she was
almost dazzled by her own magnificence. Neither the Carlton nor the
Savoy could equal the blaze of her plate, the brilliant polish of her
tablecloths. The dahlias blazed dark red in cut glass by the side of
pale belated roses from the garden. On the sideboard fat peaches were
heaped in a modern Lowestoft bowl, and amber- plums lay like
portly dowagers in velvet.

A few minutes before the hour Zoe and Lissa arrived together. They were
nervous; not on account of Victoria's spread, for they were of the upper
stratum, but because they were in a house. Accustomed to their small
flats off Shaftesbury Avenue, where tiny kitchens jostled with bedroom
and boudoir, they were frightened by the suggestion of a vast basement
out of which floated the savoury aroma of the John Dory baking. Victoria
tried to put them at their ease, took their parasols away and showed
them into the boudoir. There they sat in a triangle, the hot sun blazing
in upon them, stiff and starched with the formality of those who are
seldom formal.

'Have a Manhattan cocktail?' asked the hostess.

'No thanks; very hot, isn't it?' said Lissa in her most refined manner.
She was looking very pretty, dark, slim and snaky in her close-fitting
lemon  frock.

'Very hot,' chimed in Zoe. She was sitting unnecessarily erect. Her flat
French back seemed to abhor the easy chair. Her tight hair, her trim
hands, her well boned collar, everything breathed neatness, well laced
stays, a full complement of hooks and eyes. She might have been the
sedate wife of a prosperous French tradesman.

'Yes, it is hot,' said Victoria.

Then the conversation flagged. The hostess tried to draw out her guests.
They were obviously anxious to behave. Lissa posed for 'The Sketch,' Zoe
remained _tres correcte_.

'Do you like my pictures?' asked Victoria pointing to the French
engravings.

'They are very pretty,' said Lissa.

'I am very interested in engravings,' said Zoe, looking at the rosewood
clock. There was a longish pause.

'I must show you my little dogs,' cried Victoria. She must do something.
She went out to the landing and opened the garden door. There she met
Augusta carrying a trayful of finger bowls. She felt inspired to
overturn it if only to break the ice. Snoo and Poo rushed in, but in the
boudoir they also instinctively became very well-bred.

'I am very fond of dogs,' said Lissa. Snoo lay down on her back.

'She is very pretty,' remarked Zoe.

Victoria punched the dogs in the ribs, rolled them over. It was no good.
They would do nothing but gently wag their tails. She felt she would
like to swear, when suddenly the front door was slammed, a cheerful
voice rang in the hall.

'Hulloa, here's Duckie,' said Lissa.

The door opened loudly and Duckie seemed to rush in as if seated on a
high wind.

'Here we are again!' cried the buxom presence in white. Every one of her
frills rattled like metal. 'Late as usual. Oh, Vic, what angel pups!'

Duckie was on her knees. In a moment she had stirred up the Pekingese.
They forgot their manners. They barked vociferously; and Zoe's starch
was taken out of her by Poo, who rushed under her skirts. Lissa laughed
and jumped up.

'Here Vic,' said Duckie ponderously, 'give us a hand, old girl. Never
can jump about after gin and bitters,' she added confidentially as they
helped her up.

The ice was effectually broken. They filed into the dining-room in
pairs, Victoria and Lissa being slim playing the part of men. How they
gobbled up the hors d'oeuvres and how golden the John Dory was; the
flanks of the fish shone like an old violin. Augusta flitted about
quick but noisy. There was a smile on her face.

'Steady on, old love,' said Duckie to her as the maid inadvertently
poured her claret into a tumbler.

'Never you mind, Gussie,' cried Zoe, bursting with familiarity, 'she'll
be having it in a bucket by and by.'

Augusta laughed. What easy going _herrschaft_!

The talk was getting racier now. By the time they got to the dessert the
merriment was rather supper than lunch-like.

'Victoria plums,' said Lissa, 'let us name them _Bonne Hotesse_.'

The idea was triumphant. Duckie insisted on drinking a toast in hock,
for she never hesitated to mix her wines. Victoria smiled at them
indulgently. The youth of all this and the jollity, the ease of it; all
that was not of her old class.

'Confusion to the puritans,' she cried, and drained her glass. Snoo and
Poo were fighting for scraps, for Duckie was already getting uncertain
in her aim. Lissa and Zoe, like nymphs teasing Bacchus, were pelting her
with plum stones, but she seemed quite unconscious of their pranks. They
had some difficulty in getting her into the boudoir for coffee and
liqueurs; once on the sofa she tried to go to sleep. Her companions
roused her, however; the scent of coffee, acrid and stimulating, stung
their nostrils; the liqueurs shone wickedly, green and golden in their
glass bottles; talk became more individual, more reminiscent. Here and
there a joke shot up like a rocket or stuck quivering in Duckie's placid
flanks.

'Well Vic,' said Zoe, 'you are very well _installee_.' She slowly
emptied of cigarette smoke her expanded cheeks and surveyed the
comfortable little room.

'Did you do it yourself?' asked Lissa. 'It must have cost you a lot of
money.'

'Oh, I didn't pay.' Victoria was either getting less reticent or the
liqueur was playing her tricks. 'I began with a man who set me up
here,' she added; 'he was . . . he died suddenly' she went on more
cautiously.

'Oh!' Zoe's eyebrows shot up. 'That's what I call luck. But why do you
not have a flat? It is cheaper.'

'Yes, but more inconvenient,' said Lissa. 'Ah, Vic. I do envy you. You
don't know. We're always in trouble. We are moving every month.'

'But why?' asked Victoria. 'Why must you move?'

'Turn you out. Neighbours talk and then the landlord's conscience begins
to prick him,' grumbled Duckie from the sofa.

'Oh, I see,' said Victoria. 'But when they turn you out what do you do?'

'Go somewhere else, softy,' said Duckie.

'But then what good does it do?'

All the women laughed.

'Law, who cares?' said Duckie. 'I dunno.'

'It is perfectly simple,' began Zoe in her precise foreign English. 'You
see the landlord he will not let flats to ladies. When the police began
to watch it would cause him _des ennuis_. So he lets to a gentleman who
sublets the flats, you see? When the trouble begins, he doesn't know.'

'But what about the man who sublets?' asked the novice.

'Him? Oh, he's gone when it begins,' said Lissa. 'But they arrest the
hall porter.'

'Justice must have its way, I see,' said Victoria.

'What you call justice,' grumbled Duckie, 'I call it damned hard lines.'

For some minutes Victoria discussed the housing problem with the fat
jolly woman. Duckie was in a cheerful mood. One could hardly believe,
when one looked at her puffy pink face, that she had seen fifteen years
of trouble.

'Landladies,' she soliloquised, 'it's worse. You take my tip Vic, you
steer clear of them. You pay as much for a pigsty as a man pays for a
palace. If you do badly they chuck you out and stick to your traps and
what can you do? You don't call a policeman. If you do well, they raise
the rent, steal your clothes, charge you key money, and don't give 'em
any lip if you don't want a man set at you. Oh, Lor!'

Duckie went on, and as she spoke her bluntness caused Victoria to
visualise scene after scene, one more horrible than another: a tall
dingy house in Bloomsbury with unlit staircases leading up to black
landings suggestive of robbery and murder; bedrooms with blinded
windows, reeking with patchouli, with carpets soiled by a myriad ignoble
stains. The house Duckie pictured was like a warren in every corner of
which soft-handed, rosy-lipped harpies sucked men's life-blood; there
was drinking in it, and a piano played light airs; below in the ground
floor, through the half open door, she could see two or three
foreigners, unshaven, dirty-cuffed, playing cards in silence like
hunters in ambush. She shuddered.

'Yes, but Fritz isn't so bad,' broke in Lissa. She had all this time
been wrangling with Zoe.

'No good,' snapped Zoe, 'he's a . . . a _bouche inutile_.' Her pursed-up
lips tightened. Fritz was swept away to limbo by her practical French
philosophy.

'I like him because he is not useful' said Lissa dreamily. Zoe shrugged
her shoulders. Poor fool, this Lissa.

'Who is this Fritz you're always talking about?' asked Victoria.

'He's a . . . you know what they call them,' said Duckie brutally.

'You're a liar,' screamed Lissa jumping up. 'He's . . . oh, Vic, you do
not understand. He's the man I care for; he is so handsome, so clever,
so gentle . . .'

'Very gentle,' sneered Zoe, 'why did you not take off your long gloves
last week, _hein_? Perhaps you had blue marks?'

Lissa looked about to cry. Victoria put her hand on her arm.

'Never mind them,' she said, 'tell me.'

'Oh, Vic, you are so good.' Lissa's face twitched, then she smiled like
a child bribed with a sweet. 'They do not know; they are hard. It is
true, Fritz does not work, but if we were married he would work and I
would do nothing. What does it matter?' They all smiled at the theory,
but Lissa went on with heightened colour.

'Oh, it is so good to forget all the others; they are so ugly, so
stupid. It is infernal. And then, Fritz, the man that I love for himself
. . .'

'And who loves you for . . .' began Zoe.

'Shut up, Zoe,' said Duckie, her kindly heart expanding before this
idealism, 'leave the kid alone. Not in my line of course. You take my
tip, all of you, you go on your own. Don't you get let in with a
landlady and don't you get let in with a man. It's _them_ you've got to
let in.'

'That's what I say,' remarked Zoe. 'We are successful because we take
care. One must be economical. For instance, every month I can. . . .'
She stopped and looked round suspiciously; with economy goes distrust,
and Zoe was very French. 'Well, I can manage,' she concluded vaguely.

'And you need not talk, Duckie,' said Lissa savagely. 'You drink two
quid's worth every week.'

'Well, s'pose I do,' grumbled the cherub. 'Think I do it for pleasure?
Tell you what, if I hadn't got squiffy at the beginning I'd have gone
off me bloomin' chump. I was in Buenos Ayres, went off with a waiter to
get married. He was in a restaurant, Highgate way, where I was in
service. I found out all about it when I got there. O Lor! Why, we
jolly well _had_ to drink, what with those Argentines who're half
monkeys and the good of the house! Oh, Lor!' She smiled. 'Those were
high old times,' she said inconsequently, overwhelmed by the glamour of
the past. There was silence.

'I see,' said Victoria suddenly. 'I've never seen it before. If you want
to get on, you've got to run on business lines. No ties, no men to bleed
you. Save your money. Don't drink; save your looks. Why, those are good
rules for a bank cashier! If you trip, down you go in the mud and
nobody'll pick you up. So you've got to walk warily, not look at
anybody, play fair and play hard. Then you can get some cash together
and then you're free.'

There was silence. Victoria had faced the problem too squarely for two
of her guests. Lissa looked dreamily towards the garden, wondering where
Fritz was, whether she was wise in loving; Duckie, conscious of her
heavy legs and incipient dropsy, blushed, then paled. Alone, Zoe, stiff
and energetic like the determined business woman she was, wore on her
lips the enigmatic smile born of a nice little sum in French three per
cents.

'I must be going,' said Duckie hoarsely. She levered herself off the
sofa. Then, almost silently, the party broke up.




CHAPTER XIII


LIFE pursued its even tenour; and Victoria, watching it go by, was
reminded of the endless belt of a machine. The world machine went on
grinding, and every breath she took was grist thrown for ever into the
intolerable mill. It was October again, and already the trees in the
garden were shedding fitful rains of glowing leaves. Alone the elder
tree stood almost unchanged, a symbol of the everlasting. Now and then
Victoria walked round the little lawn with Snoo and Poo, who were too
shivery to chase the fat spiders. Often she stayed there for an hour,
one hand against a tree trunk, looking at nothing, bathed in the mauve
light of the dying year. Already the scents of decay, of wetness, filled
the little garden and struck cold when the sun went down.

Every day now Victoria felt her isolation more cruelly. Solitude was no
longer negative; it had materialised and had become a solid inimical
presence. When the sun shone and she could walk the milky way of the
streets, alone but feeling with every sense the joy of living time,
there was not much to fear from solitude; there were things to look at,
to touch, to smell. Now solitude no longer lurked round corners; at
times a gust of wind carried its icy breath into her bones.

She was suffering, too, a little. She felt heavy in the legs, and a vein
in her left calf hurt a little in the evening if she had walked or stood
much. Soon, though it did not increase, the pain became her daily
companion, for even when absent it haunted her. She would await a twinge
for a whole day, ready and fearful, bracing herself up against a shock
which often found her unprepared. At all times too the obsession seemed
to follow her now. Perhaps she was walking through Regent's Park,
buoyant and feeling capable of lifting a mountain, but the thought would
rush upon her, perhaps it was going to hurt. She would lie awake too,
oblivious of the heavy breathing by her side, rested, all her senses
asleep, and then though she felt no pain the fear of it would come upon
her and she would wrestle with the thought that the blow was about to
fall.

Sometimes she would go out into the streets, seeking variety even in a
wrangle between her Pekingese and some other dog. This meant that she
must separate them, apologise to the owner, exchange perhaps a few
words. Once she achieved a conversation with an old lady, a kindly soul,
the mistress of a poodle. They walked together along the Canal, and the
futile conversation fell like balm on Victoria's ears. The freshness of
a voice ignorant of double meanings was soft as dew. They were to meet
again, but the old lady was a near neighbour and she must have heard
something of Victoria's reputation, for when they met again opposite
Lord's, the old lady crossed over and the poodle followed her haughtily,
leaving Snoo and Poo disconsolate and wondering on the edge of the
pavement.

One morning Augusta came into the boudoir about twelve, carrying a
visiting card on a little tray.

'Miss Emma Welkin,' read Victoria. 'League of the Rights of Women. What
does she want, Augusta?'

'She says she wants to see Mrs Ferris, Mum.'

'League of the Rights of Women? Why, she must be a suffragist.'

'Yes, Mum. She wear a straw hat, Mum,' explained Augusta with a slight
sniff.

'And a tweed coat and skirt, I suppose,' said Victoria smiling.

'Oh, yes, Mum. Shall I say go away?'

'M'm. No, tell her to come in.'

While Augusta was away Victoria settled herself in the cushions. Perhaps
it might be interesting. The visitor was shown in.

'How do you do?' said Victoria holding out her hand. 'Please sit down.
Excuse my getting up, I'm not very well.'

Miss Welkin looked about her, mildly surprised. It was a pretty room,
but somehow she felt uncomfortable. Victoria was looking at her. A
capable type of femininity this; curious, though, in its thick man-like
clothes, its strong boots. She was not bad looking, thirty perhaps, very
erect and rather flat. Her face was fresh, clean, innocent of powder;
her eyes were steady behind glasses; her hair was mostly invisible,
being tightly pulled back. There were firm lines about her mouth. A
fighting animal.

'I hope you'll excuse this intrusion,' said the suffragist, 'but I got
your name from the directory and I have come to . . . to ascertain your
views about the all-important question of the vote.' There was a queer
stiltedness about the little speech. Miss Welkin was addressing the
meeting.

'Oh? I'm very much interested,' said Victoria. 'Of course I don't know
anything about it except what I read in the papers.'

The grey eyes glittered. Evangelic fervour radiated from them. 'That's
what we want,' said the suffragist. 'It's just the people who are ready
to be our friends who haven't heard our side and who get biassed. Mrs
Ferris, I'm sure you'll come in with us and join the Marylebone branch?'

'But how can I?' asked Victoria. 'You see I know nothing about it all.'

'Let me give you these pamphlets,' said the suffragist. Victoria
obediently took a leaflet on the marriage law, a pamphlet on 'The Rights
of Women,' a few more papers too, some of which slipped to the floor.

'Thank you,' she said, 'but first of all tell me, why do you want the
vote?'

The suffragist looked at her for a second. This might be a keen recruit
when she was converted. Then a flood of words burst from her.

'Oh, how can any woman ask, when she sees the misery, the subjection in
which we live. We say that we want the vote because it is the only means
we have to attain economic freedom . . . we say to man: "Put your weapon
in our hands and we will show you what we can do." We want to have a
voice in the affairs of the country. We want to say how the taxes we pay
shall be spent, how our children shall be educated, whether our sons
shall go to war. We say it's wrong that we should be disfranchised
because we are women . . . it is illogical . . . we must have it.'

The suffragist stopped for a second to regain breath.

'I see,' said Victoria, 'but how is the vote going to help?'

'Help,' echoed Miss Welkin. 'It will help because it will enable women
to have a voice in national affairs.'

'You must think me awfully stupid,' said Victoria sweetly, 'but what use
will it be to us if we do get a voice in national affairs?'

Miss Welkin ignored the interruption.

'It is wrong that we should not have a vote if we are reasonable beings;
we can be teachers, doctors, chemists, factory inspectors, business
managers, writers; we can sit on local authorities, and we can't cast a
vote for a member of Parliament. It's preposterous, it's . . .'

'Yes, I understand, but what will the vote do for us? Will it raise
wages?'

'It must raise wages. Men's wages have risen a lot since they got the
vote.'

'Do you think that's because they got the vote?'

'Yes. Well, partly. At any rate there are things above wages,' said the
suffragist excitedly. 'And you know, we know that the vote is wanted
especially because it is an education; by inducing women to take an
interest in politics we will broaden their minds, teach them to combine
and then automatically their wages will rise.'

'Oh, yes.' Victoria was rather struck by the argument. 'Then,' she said,
'you admit men are superior to women?'

'Well, yes, at any rate at present,' said the suffragist rather sulkily.
'But you must remember that men have had nearly eighty years training in
political affairs. That's why we want the vote; to wake women up. Oh,
you have no idea what it will mean when we get it. We shall have fresh
minds bearing on political problems, we shall have more adequate
protection for women and children, compulsory feeding, endowment of
mothers, more education, shorter hours, more sanitary inspection. We
shall not be enslaved by parties; a nobler influence, the influence of
pure women will breathe an atmosphere of virtue into this terrible
world.'

The woman's eyes were rapt now, her hands tightly clenched, her lips
parted, her cheeks a little flushed. But Victoria's face had hardened
suddenly.

'Miss Welkin,' she said quietly, 'has anything struck you about this
house, about me?'

The suffragist looked at her uneasily.

'You ought to know whom you are talking to,' Victoria went on, 'I am a
. . . I am a what you would probably call . . . well, not respectable.'

A dull red flush spread over Miss Welkin's face, from the line of her
tightly pulled hair to her stiff white collar; even her ears went red.
She looked away into a corner.

'You see,' said Victoria, 'it's a shock, isn't it? I ought not to have
let you in. It wasn't quite fair, was it?'

'Oh, it isn't that, Mrs Ferris,' burst out the suffragist, 'I'm not
thinking of myself. . . .'

'Excuse me, you must. You can't help it. If you could construct a scale
with the maximum of egotism at one end, and the maximum of altruism at
the other and divide it, say into one hundred degrees, you would not, I
think, place your noblest thinkers more than a degree or two beyond the
egotistic zero. Now you, a pure girl, have been entrapped into the house
of a woman of no reputation, whom you would not have in your
drawing-room. Now, would you?'

Miss Welkin was silent for a moment; the flush was dying away as she
gazed round eyed at this beautiful woman lying in her piled cushions,
talking like a mathematician.

'I haven't come here to ask you into my drawing-room,' she answered. 'I
have come to ask you to throw in your labour, your time, your money,
with ours in the service of our cause.' She held her head higher as the
thought rose in her like wine. 'Our cause,' she continued, 'is not the
cause of rich women or poor women, of good women or bad; it's the cause
of woman. Thus, it doesn't matter who she is, so long as there is a
woman who stands aloof from us there is still work to do.'

Victoria looked at her interestedly. Her eyes were shining, her lips
parted in ecstasy.

'Oh, I know what you think,' the suffragist went on; 'as you say, you
think I despise you because you . . . you. . . .' The flush returned
slightly. . . . 'But I know that yours is not a happy life and we are
bringing the light.'

'The light!' echoed Victoria bitterly. 'You have no idea, I see, of how
many people there are who are bringing the light to women like me. There
are various religious organisations who wish to rescue us and to house
us comfortably under the patronage of the police, to keep us nicely and
feed us on what is suitable for the fallen; they expect us to sew ten
hours a day for these privileges, but that is by the way. There are also
many kindly souls who offer little jobs as charwomen to those of us who
are too worn out to pursue our calling; we are offered emigration as
servants in exchange for the power of commanding a household; we are
offered poverty for luxury, service for domination, slavery to women
instead of slavery to men. How tempting it is! And now here is the light
in another form: the right to drop a bit of paper into a box every four
years or so and settle thereby whether the Home Secretary who
administers the law of my trade shall live in fear of buff prejudice or
blue.'

The suffragist said nothing for a second. She felt shaken by Victoria's
bitterness.

'Women will have no party,' she said lamely, 'they will vote as women.'

'Oh? I have heard somewhere that the danger of giving women the vote is
that they will vote solid "as women," as you say and swamp the men. Is
that so?'

'No, I'm afraid not,' said the suffragist unguardedly, 'of course women
will split up into political parties.'

'Indeed? Then where is this woman vote which is going to remould the
world? It is swamped in the ordinary parties.'

The suffragist was in a dilemma.

'You forget,' she answered, wriggling on the horns, 'that women can
always be aroused for a noble cause. . . .'

'Am I a noble cause?' asked Victoria, smiling. 'So far as I can see
women, even the highest of them, despise us because we do illegally
what they do legally, hate us because we attract, envy us because we
shine. I have often thought that if Christ had said, "Let her who hath
never sinned . . ." the woman would have been stoned. What do you
think?'

The suffragist hesitated, cleared her throat.

'That will all go when we have the vote, women will be a force, a nobler
force; they will realise . . . they will sympathise more . . . then they
will cast their vote for women.'

Victoria shook her head.

'Miss Welkin,' she said, 'you are an idealist. Now, will you ask me to
your next meeting if you are satisfied as to my views, announce me for
what I am and introduce me to your committee?'

'I don't see . . . I don't think,' stammered the suffragist, 'you see
some of our committee. . . .'

Victoria laughed.

'You see. Never mind. I assure you I wouldn't go. But, tell me,
supposing women get the vote, most of my class will be disfranchised on
the present registration law. What will you women do for us?'

The suffragist thought for a minute.

'We shall raise the condition of women,' she said. 'We shall give them a
new status, increase the respect of men for them, increase their respect
for themselves; besides, it will raise wages and that will help. We
shall . . . we shall have better means of reform too.'

'What means?'

'When women have more sympathy.'

'Votes don't mean sympathy.'

'Well, intelligence then. Oh, Mrs Ferris, it's not that that matters;
we're going to the root of it. We're going to make women equal to men,
give them the same opportunities, the same rights. . . .'

'Yes, but will the vote increase their muscles? will it make them more
logical, fitter to earn their living?'

'Of course it will,' said Miss Welkin acidly.

'Then how do you explain that several millions of men earn less than
thirty shillings a week, and that at times hundreds of thousands are
unemployed?'

'The vote does not mean everything,' said the suffragist reluctantly.
'It will merely ensure that we rise like the men when we are fit.'

'Well, Miss Welkin, I won't press that, but now, tell me, if women got
the vote to-morrow, what would it do for my class?'

'It would raise. . . .'

'No, no, we can't wait to be raised. We've got to live, and if you
"raise" us we lose our means of livelihood. How are you going to get to
the root cause and lift us, not the next generation, at once out of the
lower depths?'

The suffragist's face contracted.

'Everything takes time,' she faltered. 'Just as I couldn't promise a
charwoman that her hours would go down and her wages go up next day, I
can't say that . . . of course your case is more difficult than any
other, because . . . because. . . .'

'Because,' said Victoria coldly, 'I represent a social necessity. So
long as your economic system is such that there is not work for the
asking for every human being--work, mark you, fitted to strength and
ability--so long on the other hand as there is such uncertainty as
prevents men from marrying, so long as there is a leisured class who
draw luxury from the labour of other men; so long will my class endure
as it endured in Athens, in Rome, in Alexandria, as it does now from St
John's Wood to Pekin.'

There was a pause. Then Miss Welkin got up awkwardly. Victoria followed
suit.

'There,' she said, 'you don't mind my being frank, do you? May I
subscribe this sovereign to the funds of the branch? I do believe you
are right, you know, even though I'm not sure the millennium is
coming.'

Miss Welkin looked doubtfully at the coin in her palm.

'Don't refuse it,' said Victoria, smiling, 'after all, you know, in
politics there is no tainted money.'




CHAPTER XIV


VICTORIA lay back in bed, gazing at the blue silk wall. It was ten
o'clock, but still dark; not a sound disturbed dominical peace, except
the rain dripping from the trees, falling finally like the strokes of
time. Her eyes dwelt for a moment on the colour prints where the nude
beauties languished. She felt desperately tired, though she had not left
the house for thirty-six hours; her weariness was as much a consequence
as a cause of her consciousness of defeat. October was wearing; and soon
the cruel winter would come and fix its fangs into the sole remaining
joy of her life, the spectacle of life itself. She was desperately
tired, full of hatred and disgust. If the face of a man rose before her
she thrust it back savagely into limbo; her legs hurt. The time had come
when she must realise her failure. She was not, as once in the P. R. R.,
in the last stage of exhaustion, hunted, tortured; she was rather the
wounded bird crawling away to die in a thicket than the brute at bay.

As she lay, she realised that her failure had two aspects. It was
together a monetary and a physical failure. The last three months had in
themselves been easy. Her working hours did not begin before seven
o'clock in the evening; and it was open to her, being young and
beautiful, to put them off for two or three hours more; she was always
free by twelve o'clock in the morning at the very latest, and then the
day was hers to rest, to read and think. But she was still too much of
a novice to escape the excitement inherent in the chase, the strain of
making conversation, of facing the inane; nor was she able without a
mental effort to bring herself to the response of the simulator. As she
sat in the Vesuvius or stared into the showcase of a Regent Street
jeweller, a faint smile upon her face, her brain was awake, her
faculties at high pressure. Her eyes roved right and left and every
nerve seemed to dance with expectation or disappointment. When she got
up now, she found her body heavy, her legs sore and all her being dull
like a worn stone. A little more, she felt, and the degradation of her
body would spread to her sweet lucidity of mind; she would no longer see
ultimate ends but would be engulfed in the present, become a bird of
prey seeking hungrily pleasure or excitement.

Besides, and this seemed more serious still, she was not doing well. It
seemed more serious because this could not be fought as could be
intellectual brutalisation. An examination of her pass books showed that
she was a little better off than at the time of Cairns's death. She was
worth, all debts paid, about three hundred and ninety pounds. Her net
savings were therefore at the rate of about a hundred and fifty a year;
but she had been wonderfully lucky, and nothing said that age, illness
or such misadventures as she classed under professional risk, might not
nullify her efforts in a week. There was wear and tear of clothes too:
the trousseau presented her by Cairns had been good throughout but some
of the linen was beginning to show signs of wear; boots and shoes wanted
renewing; there were winter garments to buy and new furs.

'I shall have stone martin,' she reflected. Then her mind ran
complacently for a while on a picture of herself in stone martin; a pity
she couldn't run to sables. She brought herself back with a jerk to her
consideration of ways and means. The situation was really not brilliant.
Of course she was extravagant in a way. Eighty-five pounds rent; thirty
pounds in rates and taxes, without counting income tax which might be
anything, for she dared not protest; two servants--all that was too
much. It was quite impossible to run the house under five hundred a
year, and clothes must run into an extra hundred.

'I could give it up,' she thought. But the idea disappeared at once. A
flat would be cheaper, but it meant unending difficulties; it was not
for nothing that Zoe, Lissa and Duckie envied her. And the rose-covered
pergola! Besides it would mean saving a hundred a year or so; and, from
her point of view, even two hundred and fifty a year was not worth
saving. She was nearly twenty-eight, and could count on no more than
between eight and twelve years of great attractiveness. This meant that,
with the best of luck, she could not hope to amass much more than three
thousand pounds. And then? Weston-super-Mare and thirty years in a
boarding-house?

She was still full of hesitation and doubt as she greeted Betty at
lunch. This was a great Sunday treat for the gentle P. R. R. girl. When
she had taken off her coat and hat, she used to settle in an arm-chair
with an intimate feeling of peace and protection. This particular day
Betty did not settle down as usual, though the cushions looked soft and
tempting and a clear fire burned in the grate. Victoria watched her for
a moment. How exquisite and delicate this girl looked; tall, very slim
and rounded. Betty had placed one hand on the mantelpiece, a small long
hand rather coarsened at the finger tips, one foot on the fender. It was
a little foot, arched and neat in the cheap boot. She had bought new
boots for the occasion; the middle of the raised sole was still white.
Her face was a little flushed, her eyes darkened by the glow.

'Well, Betty,' said her hostess suddenly, 'when's the wedding?'

'Oh, Vic, I didn't say . . . how can you . . .' Her face had blushed a
tell-tale red.

'You didn't say,' laughed Victoria, 'of course you didn't say, shy bird!
But surely you don't think I don't know. You've met somebody in the City
and you're frightfully in love with him. Now, honest, is there anybody?'

'Yes . . . there is, but . . .'

'Of course there is. Now, Betty, tell me all about it.'

'Oh, I couldn't,' said Betty, gazing into the fire. 'You see it isn't
quite settled yet.'

'Then tell me what you're going to settle. First of all, who is it?'

'Nobody you know. I met him at . . . well he followed me in Finsbury
Circus one evening. . . .'

'Oh, naughty, naughty! You're getting on, Betty.'

'You mustn't think I encouraged him,' said Betty with a tinge of
asperity. 'I'm not that sort.' She stopped, remembering Victoria's
profession, then, inconsequently: 'You see, he wouldn't go away and
. . . now. . . .'

'And he was rather nice, wasn't he?'

'Well, rather.' A faint and very sweet smile came over Betty's face.
Victoria felt a little strangle in her throat. She too had thought her
bold partner at the regimental dance at Lympton rather nice. Poor old
Dick.

'Then he got out of me about the P. R. R.,' Betty went on more
confidently. 'And then, would you believe it, he came to lunch every
day! Not that he was accustomed to lunch at places like that,' she added
complacently.

'Oh, a swell?' said Victoria.

'No, I don't say that. He used to go to the Lethes, before they shut up.
He lives in the West End too, in Notting Hill, you know.'

'Dear, dear, you're flying high, Betty. But tell me, what is he like?
and what does he do? and is he very handsome?'

'Oh, he's awfully handsome, Vic. Tall you know and very, very dark; he's
so gentlemanly too, looks like the young man in _First Words of Love_.
It's a lovely picture, isn't it?'

'Yes, lovely,' said Victoria summarily. 'But tell me more about him.'

'He's twenty-eight. He works in the City. He's a ledger clerk at
Anderson and Dromo's. If he gets a rise this Christmas, he . . . well,
he says . . .'

'He says he'll marry you.'

'Yes.' Betty hung her head, then raised it quickly. 'Oh, Vic, I can't
believe it. It's too good to be true. I love him so dreadfully . . . I
just can't wait for one o'clock. He didn't come on Wednesday. I thought
he'd forgotten me and I was going off my head. But it was all right,
they'd kept him in over something.'

'Poor little girl,' said Victoria gently. 'It's hard isn't it, but good
too.'

'Good! Vic, when he kisses me I feel as if I were going to faint. He's
strong, you see. And when he puts his arms round me I feel like a mouse
in a trap . . . but I don't want to get away: I want it to go on for
ever, just like that.'

She paused for a moment as if listening to the first words of love. Then
her mind took a practical turn.

'Of course we shan't be able to live in Notting Hill,' she added. 'We'll
have to go further out, Shepherd's Bush way, so as to be on the Tube.
And he says I shan't go to the P. R. R. any more.'

'Happy girl,' said Victoria. 'I'm so glad, Betty; I hope . . .'

She restrained a doubt. 'And as you say you can't stay to tea I think I
know where you're going.'

'Well, yes, I am going to meet him,' said Betty laughing.

'Yes . . . and you're going to look at little houses at Shepherd's
Bush.'

Betty looked up dreamily. She could see a two-storeyed house in a row,
with a bay window, and a front garden where, winter or summer, marigolds
grew.

After lunch, as the two women sat once more in the boudoir, they said
very little. Victoria, from time to time, flicked the ash from her
cigarette. Betty did not smoke, but, her hands clasped together in her
lap, watched a handsome dark face in the coals.

'And how are you getting on, Vic?' she asked suddenly. Swamped by the
impetuous tide of her own romance she had not as yet shown any interest
in her friend's affairs.

'I? Oh, nothing special. Pretty fair.'

'But, I mean . . . you said you wanted to make a lot of money and . . .'

'Yes, I'm not badly off, but I can't go on, Betty. I shall never do any
good like this.'

Betty was silent for some minutes. Her ingrained modesty made any
discussion of her friend's profession intolerable. Vanquished in
argument, grudgingly accepting the logic of Victoria's actions, she
could not free her mind from the thought that these actions were
repulsive, that there must have been some other way.

'Oh? You want to get out of it all . . . you know . . . I have never
said you weren't quite right, but . . .'

'But I'm quite wrong?'

'No . . . I don't mean that . . . I don't like to say that . . . I'm not
clever like you, Vic, but . . .'

'We've done with all that,' said Victoria coldly. 'I do want to get out
of it because it's getting me no nearer to what I want. I don't quite
know how to do it. I'm not very well, you know.'

Betty looked up quickly with concern in her face.

'Have those veins been troubling you again?'

'Yes, a little. I can't risk much more.'

'Then what are you going to do?'

Victoria was silent for a moment.

'I don't know,' she said. 'I never thought of all this when the Major
was alive.'

'Ah, there never was anybody like him,' said Betty after a pause.

Victoria sat up suddenly.

'Betty,' she cried, 'you're giving me an idea.'

'I? an idea?'

'There must be somebody like him. Why shouldn't I find him?'

Betty said nothing. She looked her stiffest, relishing but little the
fathering upon her of this expedient.

'But who?' soliloquised Victoria. 'I don't know anybody. You see Betty,
I want lots and lots of money. Otherwise it's no good. If I don't make a
lot soon it will be too late.'

Betty still said nothing. Really she couldn't be expected. . . . Then
her conscience smote her; she ought to show a little interest in dear,
kind Vic.

'Yes,' she said. 'But you must know lots of people. You never told me,
but you're a swell and all that. You must have known lots of rich men
when you came to London.'

She stopped abruptly, shocked by her own audacity. But Victoria was no
longer noticing her; she was following with lightning speed a new train
of thought.

'Betty,' she cried, 'you've done it. I've found the man.'

'Have you? Who is it,' exclaimed Betty. She was excited, unable in her
disapproval of the irregular to feel uninterested in the coming together
of women and men.

'Never mind. You don't know him. I'll tell you later.'

An extraordinary buoyancy seemed to pervade Victoria. The way out! she
had found the way out! And the two little words echoed in her brain as
if some mighty wave of sound was rebounding from side to side in her
skull. She was excited, so excited that, as she said goodbye to Betty,
she forgot to fix their next meeting. She had work to do and would do it
that very night.

As soon as Betty was gone she dressed quickly. Then she changed her hat
to make sure she was looking her best. She went out and, with hurried
steps, made for the Finchley Road. There was the house with the
evergreens, as well clipped as ever, and the drive with its clean
gravel. She ran up the steps of the porch, then hesitated for a moment.
Her heart was beating now. Then she rang. There was a very long pause
during which she heard nothing but the pumping of her heart. Then
distant shuffling footsteps coming nearer. The door opened. She saw a
slatternly woman . . . behind her the void of an empty house. She could
not speak for emotion.

'Did you want to see the house, mum,' asked the woman. She looked sour.
Sunday afternoon was hardly a time to view.

'The house?'

'Oh . . . I thought you come from Belfrey's, mum. It's to let.'

The caretaker nodded towards the right and Victoria, following the
direction, saw the house agents' board. Her excitement fell as under a
cold douche.

'Oh! I came to see . . . Do you know where Mr Holt is?'

'Mr Holt's dead, mum. Died in August, mum.'

'Dead.' Things seemed to go round. Jack was the only son . . . then?'

'Yes, mum. That's why they're letting. A fine big 'ouse, mum. Died in
August, mum. Ah, you should have seen the funeral. They say he left half
a million, mum, and there wasn't no will.'

'Where is Mrs Holt and . . . and Mr Holt's son.'

The caretaker eyed the visitor suspiciously. There was something rakish
about this young lady which frightened her respectability.

'I can't say, mum,' she answered slowly. 'I could forward a letter,
mum,' she added.

'Let me come in. I want to write a note.'

The caretaker hesitated for a moment, then stood aside to let her pass.

'You'll 'ave to come downstairs mum,' she said, 'sorry I'm all mixed up.
I was doing a bit of washing. Git away Maria,' to a small child who
stood at the top of the stairs.

In the gaslit kitchen, surrounded by steaming linen, Victoria wrote a
little feverish note in pencil. The caretaker watched her every
movement. She liked her better somehow.

'I'll forward it all right, mum,' she said. 'Thank you mum. . . . Oh,
mum, I don't want you to think--' She was looking amazedly at the half
sovereign in her palm.

'That's all right,' said Victoria, laughing loudly. She felt she must
laugh, dance, let herself go. 'Just post it before twelve.'

The woman saw her to the door. Then she looked at the letter doubtfully.
It was freshly sealed and could easily be opened. Then she had a burst
of loyalty, put on a battered bonnet, completed the address, stamped the
envelope and, walking to the pillar box round the corner, played
Victoria's trump card.




CHAPTER XV


'AND so, Jack, you haven't forgotten me?'

For a minute Holt did not answer. He seemed spellbound by the woman on
the sofa. There she lay at full length, lazy grace in every curve of her
figure, in the lines of her limbs revealed by the thin sea-green stuff
which moulded them. This new woman was a very wonderful thing.

'No,' he said at length, 'but you have changed.'

'Yes?'

'You're different. You used to be simple, almost shy. I used to think
you very like a big white lily. Now you're like--like a big white
orchid--an orchid in a vase of jade.'

'Poet! artist!' laughed Victoria. 'Ah, Jack, you'll always be the same.
Always thinking me good and the world beautiful.'

'I'll always think you good and beautiful too.'

Victoria looked at him. He had hardly changed at all. His tall thin
frame had not expanded, his hands were still beautifully white and
seemed as aristocratic as ever. Perhaps his mouth appeared weaker, his
eyes bluer, his face fairer owing to his black clothes.

'I'm glad to see you again, Kathleen Mavourneen,' she said at length.

'Why did you wait so long?' asked Holt. 'It was cruel, cruel. You know
what I said--I would--'

'No, no,' interrupted Victoria fearing an avowal. 'I couldn't. I've been
through the mill. Oh, Jack, it was awful. I've been cold, hungry, ill;
I've worked ten hours a day--I've swabbed floors.'

A hot flush rose in Holt's fair cheeks.

'Horrible,' he whispered, 'but why didn't you tell me? I'd have helped,
you know I would.'

'Yes, I know, but it wouldn't have done. No, Jack, it's no good helping
women. You can help men a bit; but women, no. You only make them more
dependent, weaker. If women are the poor, frivolous, ignorant things
they are, it's because they've been protected or told they ought to want
to be protected. Besides, I'm proud. I wasn't coming back to you until I
was--well I'm not exactly rich, but--'

She indicated the room with a nod and Holt, following it, sank deeper
into wonder at the room where everything spoke of culture and comfort.

'But how--?' he stammered at last, 'how did you--? what happened then?'

Victoria hesitated for a moment.

'Don't ask me just now, Jack,' she said, 'I'll tell you later. Tell me
about yourself. What are you doing? and where is your mother?'

Holt looked at her doubtfully. He would have liked to cross-question
her, but he was the second generation of a rising family and had learned
that questions must not be pressed.

'Mother?' he said vaguely. 'Oh, she's gone back to Rawsley. She never
was happy here. She went back as soon as pater died; she missed the tea
fights, you know, and Bethlehem and all that.'

'It must have been a shock to you when your father died.'

'Yes, I suppose it was. The old man and I didn't exactly hit it off but,
somehow--those things make you realise--'

'Yes, yes,' said Victoria sympathetically. The similarity of deaths
among the middle classes! Every woman in the regiment had told her that
'these things make you realise' when Dicky died. 'But what about you?
Are you still in--in cement?'

'In cement!' Jack's lip curled. 'The day my father died I was out of
cement. It's rather awful, you know, to think that my freedom depended
on his death.'

'Oh, no, life depends on death,' said Victoria smoothly. 'Besides, we
are members of one another; and when, like you, Jack, we are a minority,
we suffer.'

Holt looked at her doubtfully. He did not quite understand her; she had
hardened, he thought.

'No,' he went on, 'I've done with the business. They turned it into a
limited liability company a month ago. I'm a director because the others
say they must have a Holt in it; but directors never do anything, you
know.'

'And you are going to do like the charwoman, going to do nothing,
nothing for ever?'

'No, I don't say that. I've been writing--verses you know, and some
sketches.'

'Writing? You must be happy now, Jack. Of course you'll let me see them?
Are they published?'

'Yes. At least Amershams will bring out some sonnets of mine next
month.'

'And are you going to pass the rest of your life writing sonnets?'

'No, of course not. I want to travel. I'll go South this winter and get
some local colour. I might write a novel.'

His head was thrown back on the cushion, looking out upon the blue
southern sky, the bluer waters speckled as with foam by remote white
sails.

'You might give me a cigarette, Jack,' said Victoria. 'They're in that
silver box, there.'

He handed her the box and struck a match. As he held it for her his eyes
fastened upon the shapely whiteness of her hands, her pink polished
finger nails, the roundness of her forearm. Soft feminine scents rose
from her hair; he saw the dark tendrils over the nape of her neck. Oh,
to bury his lips in that warm white neck! His hand trembled as he lit
his own cigarette and Victoria marked his heightened colour.

'You'll come and see me often, Jack, won't you?'

'May I? It's so good of you. I'm not going South for a couple of
months.'

'Yes, you can always telephone. You'll find me there under Mrs Ferris.'

Holt looked at her once more.

'I don't want you to think I'm prying. But, you wrote me saying I was to
ask for Mrs Ferris. I did, of course, but, you . . . you're not. . . .?'

'Married? No, Jack. Don't ask me anything else. You shall know
everything soon.'

She got up and stood for a moment beside his chair. His eyes were fixed
on her hands.

'There,' she said, 'come along and let me shew you the house, and my
pictures, and my pack of hounds.'

He followed her obediently, giving its meed of praise to all her
possessions. He did not care for animals; he lacked the generation of
culture which leads from cement-making to a taste for dogs. The French
engravings on the stairs surprised him a little. He had a strain of
puritanism in him running straight from Bethlehem, which even the
reading of Swinburne and Baudelaire had not quite eradicated. A vague
sense of the fitness of things made him think that somehow these were
not the pictures a lady should hang; she might keep them in a portfolio.
Otherwise, there were the servants. . . .

'And what do you think of my bedroom?' asked Victoria opening the door
suddenly.

Holt stood nervously on the threshold. He took in its details one by
one, the blue paper, the polished mahogany, the flowered chintzes, the
long glass, the lace curtains; it all looked so comfortable, so
luxurious as to eclipse easily the rigidly good but ugly things he had
been used to from birth onwards. He looked at the dressing table too,
covered with its many bottles and brushes; then he started slightly and
again a hot flush rose over his cheeks. With an effort he detached his
eyes from the horrid thing he saw.

'Very pretty, very pretty,' he gasped. Without waiting for Victoria he
turned and went downstairs.

Within the next week they met again. Jack took no notice of her for four
days, and then suddenly telephoned asking her to dine and to come to the
theatre. She was still in bed and she felt low-spirited, full of fear
that her trump would not make. She accepted with an alacrity that she
regretted a minute later, but she was drowning and could not dally with
the lifebelt. Her preparation for the dinner was as elaborate as that
which had heralded her capture of Cairns, far more elaborate than any
she made for the Vesuvius where insolent beauty is a greater asset than
beauty as such. This time she put on her mauve frock with the heavily
embroidered silver shoulder straps; she wore little jewellery, merely a
necklet of chased old silver and amethysts, and a ring figuring a silver
chimera with tiny diamond eyes. As she surveyed herself in the long
glass, the holy calm which comes over the perfectly-dressed flowed into
her soul like a river of honey. She was immaculate, and from her unlined
white forehead to her jewel-buckled shoes she was beautiful in every
detail. Subtle scent followed her like a trainbearer.

The entire evening was a tribute. From the moment when Holt set eyes
upon her and reluctantly withdrew them to direct the cabman, until they
drove back through the night, she was conscious of the wave of adulation
that broke at her feet. Men's eyes followed her every movement, drank
in every rise and fall of her breast, strove to catch sight of her
teeth, flashing white, ruby cased. Her progress through the dining hall
and the stalls was imperial in its command. As she saw men turn to look
at her again, women even grudgingly analyse her, as homage rose round
her like incense, she felt frightened; for this seemed to be her
triumphant night, the zenith of her beauty and power, and perhaps its
very intensity showed that it was her swan song. She felt a pain in her
left leg.

Jack Holt passed that evening at her feet. A fearful exultation was upon
him. The neighbourhood of Victoria was magnetic; his heart, his senses,
his aesthetic sense were equally enslaved. She realised everything he had
dreamed, beauty, culture, grace, gentle wit. It hurt him physically not
to tell that he loved her still, that he wanted her, that she was
everything. He revelled in the thought that he had found her again, that
she liked him, that he would see her whenever he wanted to, perhaps join
his life with hers; then fear gripped his uneven soul, fear that he was
only her toy, that now she was rich she would tire of him and cast him
into a world swept by the icy blasts of regret. And all through ran the
horribly suggestive memory of that which he had seen on the dressing
table.

Victoria was conscious of all this storm, though unable to interpret its
squalls and its lulls. Without effort she played upon him; alternately
encouraging the pretty youth, bending towards him to read his programme
so that he could feel her breath on his cheek, and drawing up and
becoming absorbed in the play. In the darkness she felt his hand close
over hers; gently but firmly she freed herself. As they drove back to St
John's Wood they hardly exchanged a word. Victoria felt tired; for in
the dark, away from the crowds, the music, the admiration of her
fellows, reaction had full play. Holt found he could say nothing, for
every nerve in his body was tense with excitement. A hundred words were
on his lips but he dared not breathe them for fear of breaking the
spell.

'Come in and have a whisky and soda before you go,' said Victoria in a
matter of fact tone as he opened the garden gate.

He could not resist. A wonderful feeling of intimacy overwhelmed him as
he watched her switch on the lights and bring out a decanter, a syphon
and glasses. She put them on the table and motioned him towards it,
placing one foot on the fender to warm herself before the glowing
embers. His eyes did not leave hers. There was a surge of blood in his
head. One of his hands fixed on her bare arm; with the other he drew her
towards him, crushed her against his breast; she lay unresisting in his
arms while he covered her lips, her neck, her shoulders, with hot
kisses, some quick and passionate, others lingering, full of tenderness.
Then she gently repulsed him and freed herself.

Jack,' she said softly, 'you shouldn't have done that. You don't know
. . . you don't know . . .'

He drew his hand over his forehead. His brain seemed to clear a little.
The maddening mystery of it all formed into a question.

'Victoria, why are those two razors on your dressing table?'

She looked at him a brief space. Then, very quietly, with the
deliberation of a surgeon,

'Need you ask? Do you not understand what I am?'

His eyes went up towards the ceiling; his hands clenched; a queer choked
sound escaped from his throat. Victoria saw him suffer, wounded as an
aesthete, wounded in his traditional conception of purity, prejudiced,
un-understanding. For a second she hated him as one hates a howling dog
on whose paw one has trodden.

'Oh,' he gasped, 'oh.'

Victoria watched him through her downcast eyelashes. Poor boy, it had to
come. Pandora had opened the chest. Then he looked at her again with
returning sanity.

'Why didn't you tell me before? I can't bear it. You, whom I thought. .
. . I can't bear it.'

'Poor boy.' She took his hand. It was hot and dry.

'I can't bear it,' he repeated dully.

'I had to. It was the only way.'

'There is always a way. It's awful.' His voice broke.

'Jack,' she said softly, 'the world's a hard place for women. It takes
from them either hard labour or gratification. I've done my best. For a
whole year I worked. I worked ten hours a day, I've starved almost, I've
swabbed floors. . . .'

He withdrew his hand with a jerk. He could bear that even less than her
confession.

'Then a man came,' she went on relentlessly, 'a good man who offered me
ease, peace, happiness. I was poor, I was ill. What could I do? Then he
died and I was alone. What could I do? Ah, don't believe mine is a bed
of roses, Jack!'

He had turned away, and was looking into the dying fire. His ideals, his
prejudices, all were in the melting pot. Here was the woman who had been
his earliest dream, degraded, irretrievably soiled. Whatever happened he
could not forget; not even love could break down the terrific barrier
which generations of hard and honest men of Rawsley had erected in his
soul between straight women and the others. But she was the dream still:
beautiful, all that his heart desired; such that (and he felt it like an
awful taunt) he could not give her up.

He looked at her, at her sorrowful face. No, he could not let her pass
out of his life. He thought of disjointed things. He could see his
mother's face, the black streets of Rawsley; he thought of the pastor at
Bethlehem denouncing sin. All his standards were jarred. He had nothing
to hold on to while everything seemed to slip: ideals, resolutions,
dreams; nothing remained save the horrible sweetness of the mermaid's
face.

'Let me think,' he said hoarsely, 'let me think.'

Victoria said nothing. He was in hands stronger than hers. He was
fighting his tradition, the blood of the Covenanters, for her sake.
Nothing that she could say would help him; it might impede him. He had
turned away; she could see nothing of his face. Then he looked into her
eyes.

'What was can never be again,' he said, 'what I dreamed can never be.
You were my beacon and my hope. I have only found you to lose you. If I
were to marry you there would always be that between us, the past.'

'Then do not marry me. I do not ask you to.' Her voice went down to a
whisper and she put her hands on his shoulders. 'Let me be another, a
new dream, less golden, but sweet.'

She put her face almost against his, gazing into his eyes. 'Do not leave
this house and I will be everything for you.'

She felt a shudder run through him as if he would repel her, but she did
not relax her hold or her gaze. She drew nearer to him, and inch by inch
his arms went round her. For a second they swayed close locked together.
As they fell into the deep arm chair her loose black hair uncoiled, and,
falling, buried their faces in its shadow.




CHAPTER XVI


THE months which followed emerged but slowly from blankness for these
two who had joined their lives together. Both had a difficulty in
realising, the woman that she had laid the coping stone of her career,
the man that he was happy as may be an opium eater. The first days were
electric, hectic. Victoria felt limp, for her nerves had been worn down
by the excitement and the anxiety of making sure of her conquest. The
reaction left her rather depressed than glowing with success. Jack was
beyond scruples; he felt that he had passed the Rubicon. He was false to
his theories and his ideals, in revolt against his upbringing. At the
outset he revelled in the thought that he was cutting himself adrift
from the ugly past. It was joyful to think that the pastor in his
whitewashed barn would covertly select him as a text. For the first time
in his fettered life he saw that the outlaw alone is free; both he and
Victoria were outlaws, but she had tasted the bitterness of ostracism
while he was still at the stage of welcoming it.

As the weeks wore, however, Victoria realised her position better and
splendid peace flowed in upon her. She did not love Holt; she began even
to doubt whether she could love any man if she could not love him, this
handsome youth with the delicate soul, grace, generosity. It was not his
mental weakness that repelled her, for he was virile enough; nor was it
the touch of provincialism against which his intelligence struggled. It
was rather that he did not attract her. He was clever enough, well read,
kind, but he lacked magnetism; he had nothing of the slumberous fire
which distinguished Farwell. His passion was personal, his outlook
theoretical and limited; there was nothing purposeful in his ideas. He
had no message for her. In no wise did he repel her, though. Sometimes
she would take his face between her hands, look awhile into the blue
eyes where there always lurked some wistfulness, and then kiss him just
once and quickly, without knowing why.

'Why do you do that, Vicky,' he asked once.

She had not answered but had merely kissed his cheek again. She hardly
knew how to tell him that she sighed because she could only consent to
love him instead of offering to do so. While he was sunk in his daily
growing ease she was again thinking of ultimate ends and despised
herself a little for it. She had to be alone for a while before she
could regain self-control, remember the terrible tyranny of man and her
resolve to be free. Gentle Jack was a man, one of the oppressors, and as
such he must be used as an instrument against his sex. The very ease
with which she swayed him, with which she could foresee her victory,
unnerved her a little. When she answered his hesitating question as to
how much she needed to live, she had to force herself to lie, to trade
on his enslavement by asking him for two thousand a year. She dared to
name the figure, for Whitaker told her that the only son of an intestate
takes two-thirds of the estate; the book had also put her on the track
of the registration of joint-stock companies. A visit to Somerset House
enabled her to discover that some three hundred thousand shares of
Holt's Cement Works, Ltd., stood in the name of John Holt; as they were
quoted in the paper something above par he could hardly be worth less
than fifteen thousand a year.

She had expected to have to explain her needs, to have to exaggerate her
rent, the cost of her clothes, but Holt did not say a word beyond 'all
right.' She had told him it hurt her to take money from him; and that,
so as to avoid the subject, she would like him to tell his bankers to
pay the monthly instalments into her account. He had agreed and then
talked of their trip to the South. Clearly the whole matter was
repugnant to him. As neither wanted to talk about it the subject was
soon almost forgotten.

They left England early in December after shutting up the house.
Victoria did not care to leave it in charge of Laura, so decided to give
her a three months' holiday on full pay; Augusta accompanied them. The
sandy-haired German was delighted with the change in the fortunes of her
mistress. She felt that Holt must be very rich, and doubted not that her
dowry would derive some benefit from him. Snoo and Poo were left in
Laura's charge. Victoria paid a quarter's rent in advance, also the
rates; insured against burglary, and left England as it settled into the
winter night.

The next three months were probably the most steadily happy she had ever
known. They had taken a small house known as the Villa Mehari just
outside Algiers. A French cook and a taciturn Kabyl completed their
establishment. The villa was a curious compromise between East and West.
Its architect had turned out similar ones in scores at Argenteuil and
Saint Cloud, saving the minaret and the deep verandah which faced the
balmy west. From the precipitous little garden where orange and lime
trees bent beneath their fruit among the underbrush of aloes and cactus,
they could see, far away, the estranging sea.

The Kabyl had slung a hammock for Victoria between a gate-post and a
gigantic clump of palm trees. There she passed most of her days, lazily
swinging in the breeze which tumbled her black hair; while Jack, lying
at her feet in the crisp rough grass, looked long at her sun-warmed
beauty. The days seemed to fly, for they were hardly conscious of the
recurrence of life. It was sunrise, when it was good to go into the
garden and see the blue green night blush softly into salmon pink, then
burst suddenly into tropical radiance: then, vague occupations, a short
walk over stony paths to a cafe where the East and West met; unexpected
food; sleep in the heat of the day under the nets beyond which the
crowding flies buzzed; then the waning of the day, the heat settling
more leaden; sunset, the cold snapping suddenly, the night wind carrying
little puffs of dust, and the muezzin, hands aloft, droning, his face
towards the East, praises of his God.

Holt was totally happy. He felt he had reached Capua, and not even a
thought of his past life could disturb him. He asked for nothing now but
to live without a thought, eating juicy fruit, smoking for an hour the
subtle narghile; he loved to bask in the radiance of the African sun of
Victoria's beauty, which seemed to expand, to enwrap him in perfume like
a heavy narcotic rose. In the early days he tried to work, to attune
himself to the pageant of sunlit life. His will refused to act, and he
found he could not write a line; even rhymes refused to come to him.
Without an effort almost he resigned himself into the soft hands of the
East. He even exaggerated his acceptance by clothing himself in a
burnous and turban, by trying to introduce Algerian food, couscous,
roast kid, date jam, pomegranate jelly. At times they would go into
Algiers, shop in the Rue Bab-Azoum, or search for the true East in what
the French called the high town. But Algiers is not the East; and they
quickly returned to the Villa Mehari, stupefied by the roar of the
trams, the cries of the water and chestnut vendors, all their senses
offended by the cafes on the wharf where sailors from every land drank
vodka, arrack, pale ale, among zouaves and chasseurs d'Afrique.

Sometimes Holt would go into Algiers by himself and remain away all day.
Victoria stayed at the villa careless of flying time, desultorily
reading Heine or sitting in the garden where she could play with the
golden and green beetles. Her solitude was complete, for Holt had
avoided the British consul and of course knew none of the Frenchmen. She
watched the current of her life flow away, content to know that all the
while her little fortune was increasing. England was so far as to seem
in another world. Christmas was gone; and the link of a ten pound note
to Betty, to help to furnish the house at Shepherd's Bush, had faded
away. When she was alone, those days, she could not throw her mind back
to the ugly, brutish past, so potently was the influence of the East
growing upon her being. Then in the cool of the evening Jack would
return, gay, and anxious to see her, to throw his arms round her and
hold her to him again. Those were the days when he brought her some
precious offering, aqua-marines set in hand-wrought gold, or chaplets of
strung pearls.

'Jack,' she said to him one day as he lay in the grass at her feet, 'do
you then love me very much?'

'Very much.' He took her hand and, raising himself upon his elbow,
gravely kissed it.

'Why?'

'Because you're all the poetry of the world. Because you make me dream
dreams, my Aspasia.'

She gently stroked his dark hair.

'And to think that you are one of the enemy, Jack!'

'One of the enemy? what do you mean?'

'Man is woman's enemy, Jack. Our relation is a war of sex.'

'It's not true.' Jack flushed; the idea was repulsive.

'It is true. Man dominates woman by force, by man-made law; he
restricts her occupations; he limits her chances; he judges of her
attire; he denies her the right to be ugly, to be old, to be coarse, to
be vicious.'

'But you wouldn't--'

'I'd have everything the same, Jack.'

Holt thought for a moment.

'Yes, I suppose we do keep them down. But they're different. You see,
men are men and--'

'I know the rest. But never mind, Jack dear, you're not like the others.
You'll never be a conqueror.'

Then she muzzled him with her hand, and, kissing its scented palm, he
thought no more of the stern game in which they were the shuttlecocks.

The spring was touching Europe with its wings; and here already the
summer was bursting the seed pods, the sap breaking impatiently through
the branches. All the wet warmth of the brief African blooming ran riot
in thickening leaf. The objective of Jack's life, influenced as he was
by the air, was Victoria and the ever more consuming love he bore her;
the minutes only counted when he was by her side, watching her every
movement, inhaling, touching her. All his energies seem to have been
driven into this narrow channel. He was ready to move or to remain as
Victoria might direct; he spoke little, he basked. Thus he agreed to
extending their stay for a month; he agreed to shorten it by a fortnight
when Victoria, suddenly realising that her life force was wasting away
in this enervating atmosphere, decided to go home.

Victoria's progress to London was like the march of a conqueror. She
stopped in Paris to renew her clothes. There Jack knew hours of waiting
in the hired victoria while his queen was trying on frocks. He showed
such a childish joy in it all that she indulged her fancy, her every
whim; dresses, wraps, lace veils, furs, hats massive with ostrich
feathers, aigrettes, delicate kid boots, gilt shoes, amassed in their
suite. Jack egged her on; he rioted too. Often he would stop the
victoria and rush into a shop if he saw something he liked in the
window, and in a few minutes return with it, excitedly demanding praise.
He did not seem to understand or care for money, to have any wants
except cigarettes. He followed, and in his beautiful dog-like eyes
devotion daily grew.

They entered London on a bustling April day. A biting east wind carried
rain drops and sunshine. As it stung her face and whipped her blood,
Victoria found the old fierce soul reincarnating itself in her. She
opened her mouth to take in the cold English air, to bend herself for
the finishing of her task.




CHAPTER XVII


IT was in London that the real battle began. In Algiers the scented
winds made hideous and unnatural all thoughts of gain. On arriving in
London Victoria ascertained with a thrill of pleasure that her bank had
received a thousand pounds since October. After disposing of a few small
debts and renewing some trifles in the house, she found herself a
capitalist: she had about fifteen hundred pounds of her own. The money
was lying at the bank and it only struck her then that the time had come
to invest it. Her interview with the manager of her branch was a
delightful experience; she was almost bursting with importance, and his
courteous appreciation of his increasingly wealthy client was something
more than balm. It was a foretaste of the power of money. She had known
poor men respected, but not poor women; now the bank manager was giving
her respectful attention because she had fifteen hundred pounds.

'You might buy some industrials,' he said.

'Industrials? What are they?'

'Oh, all sorts of things. Cotton mills, iron works, trading companies,
anything.'

'Cement works?' she asked with a spark of devilry.

'Yes, cement works too,' said the manager without moving a muscle.

'But do you call them safe?' she asked, returning to business.

'Oh, fairly. Of course there are bad years and good. But the debentures
are mostly all right and some of the prefs.'

Victoria thought for a moment. Reminiscences of political economy told
her that there were booms and slumps.

'Has trade been good lately?' she asked suddenly.

'No, not for the last two years or so. It's picking up though. . . .'

'Ah, then we're in for a cycle of good trade. I think I'll have some
industrials. You might pick me out the best.'

The manager seemed a little surprised at this knowledge of commercial
crises but said nothing more, and made out a list of securities
averaging six per cent net.

'And please buy me a hundred P. R. R. shares,' added Victoria.

She could have laughed at the manager's stony face because he did not
see the humour of this. He merely said that he would forward the orders
to a stockbroker.

Victoria felt that she had put her hand to the plough. She was scoring
so heavily that she never now wished to turn back. Holt was every day
growing more dreamy, more absorbed in his thoughts. He never seemed to
quicken into action except when his companion touched him. He grew more
silent too; the hobbledehoy was gone. He was at his worst when he had
received a letter bearing the Rawsley postmark. Victoria knew of these,
for Holt's need of her grew greater every day; he was now living at Elm
Tree Place. He hardly left the house. He got up late and passed the
morning in the boudoir, smoking cigarettes, desultorily reading and
nursing the Pekingese which he now liked better. But on the days when he
got letters from Rawsley, letters so bulky that they were sometimes
insufficiently stamped, he would go out early and only return at night.
Then, however, he returned as if he had been running, full of some
nameless fear; he would strain Victoria to him and hold her very close,
burying his face below the bedclothes as if he were afraid. On one of
those days Victoria accidentally saw him come out of a small dissenting
chapel near by. He did not see her, for he was walking away like a man
possessed; she said nothing of this but understood him better, having an
inkling that the fight against the Rawsley tradition was still going on.

She did not, however, allow herself to be moved by his struggle. It
behoved her to hold him, for he was her last chance and the world looked
rosy round her. As the spring turned into summer he became more utterly
hers.

'You distil poison for me,' he said one day as they sat by the rose hung
pergola.

'No, Jack, don't say that, it's the elixir of life.'

'The elixir of life. Perhaps, but poison too. To make me live is to make
me die, Victoria; we are both sickening for death and to hasten the
current of life is to hasten our doom.'

'Live quickly,' she whispered, bending towards him, 'did you live at all
a year ago?'

'No, no.' His arms were round her and his lips insistent on hers. He
frightened her a little, though. She would have to take him away. She
had already confided this new trouble to Betty when the latter came to
see her in April, but Betty, beyond suggesting cricket, had been too
full of her own affairs. Apparently these were not going very well.
Anderson & Dromo's had not granted the rise, and the marriage had been
postponed. Meanwhile she was still at the P. R. R., and very, very
happy. Betty too, her baby, her other baby, frightened Victoria a
little. She was so rosy, so pretty now, and there was something defiant
and excited about her that might presage disease. But Betty had not
come near her for the last two months.

About the middle of June she took Jack away to Broadstairs. He was
willing to go or stay, just as she liked. He seemed so neutral that
Victoria experimented upon him by presenting him with a sheaf of unpaid
bills. He looked at them languidly and said he supposed they must be
paid, asked her to add them up and wrote a cheque for the full amount.
Apparently he had forgotten all about the allowance, or did not care.

Broadstairs seemed to do him good. Except at the week end the Hotel
Sylvester was almost empty. The sea breeze blew stiffly from the north
or the east. His colour increased and once more he began to talk.
Victoria encouraged him to take long walks alone along the front. She
had some occupation, for two little girls who were there in charge of a
Swiss governess had adopted the lovely lady as their aunt. A new
sweetness had come into her life, shrill voices, the clinging of little
hands. Sometimes these four would walk together, and Holt would run with
the children, tumbling in the sand in sheer merriment.

'You seem all right again, Jack,' said Victoria on the tenth morning.

'Right! Rather, by jove, it's good to live, Vicky.'

'You were a bit off colour, you know.'

'I suppose I was. But now, I feel nothing can hold me. I wrote a rondeau
this morning on the pier. Want to see it?'

'Of course, silly boy. Aren't you going to be the next great poet?'

She read the rondeau, scrawled in pencil on the back of a bill. It was
delicate, a little colourless.

'Lovely,' she said, 'of course you'll send it to the _Westminster_.'

'Perhaps . . . hulloa, there are the kiddies.' He ran off down the
steps from the front. A minute after Victoria saw him helping the elder
girl to bury her little sister in the sand.

Victoria felt much reassured. He was normal again, the half wistful,
half irresponsible boy she had once known. He slept well, laughed, and
his crying need for her seemed to have abated. At the end of the
fortnight Victoria was debating whether she should take him home. She
was in the hotel garden talking to the smaller girl, telling her a
wonderful story about the fairy who lived in the telephone and said
ping-pong when the line was engaged. The little girl sat upon her knee;
when she laughed Victoria's heart bounded. The elder girl came through
the gate leading a good-looking young woman in white by the hand.

'Oh, mummie, here's auntie,' cried the child, dragging her mother up to
Victoria. The two women looked at one another.

'They tell me you have been very kind . . .' said the woman. Then she
stopped abruptly.

'Of course, mummie, she's not _really_ our auntie,' said the child
confidentially.

Victoria put the small girl down. The mother looked at her again. She
seemed so nice and refined . . . yet her husband said that the initials
on the trunks were different . . . one had to be careful.

'Come here, Celia,' she said sharply. 'Thank you,' she added to
Victoria. Then taking her little girls by the hand she took them away.

Jack willingly left Broadstairs that afternoon when Victoria explained
that she was tired and that something had made her low-spirited.

'Right oh,' he said. 'Let's go back to town. I want to see Amershams and
find out how those sonnets have sold.'

He then left her to wire to Augusta.

Their life in town resumed its former course, interrupted only by a
month in North Devon. Jack's cure was complete; he was sunburnt, fatter;
the joy of life shone in his blue eyes. Sometimes Victoria found herself
growing younger by contagion, sloughing the horrible miry coat of the
past. If her heart had not been atrophied she would have loved the boy
whom she always treated with motherly gentleness. His need of her was so
crying, so total, that he lost all his self-consciousness. He would sit
unblushing by her side in the bow of a fishing smack, holding her hand
and looking raptly into her grey eyes; he was indifferent to the red
brown fisherman with the Spanish eyes and curly black hair who smiled as
the turtle doves clustered. His need of her was as mental as it was
physical; his body was whipped by the salt air to seek in her arms
oblivion, but his mind had become equally dependent. She was his need.

Thus when they came back to town the riot continued; and Victoria,
breasting the London tide, dragged him unresisting in her rear. She
hated excitement in every form, excitement that is of the puerile kind.
Restaurant dining, horse shows, flower shows, the Academy, tea in Bond
Street, even the theatre and its most inane successes, were for her a
weariness to the flesh.

'I've had enough,' she said to Jack one day. 'I'm sick of it all. I've
got congestion of the appreciative sense. One day I shall chuck it all
up, go and live in the country, have big dogs and a saddle horse, dress
in tweeds and read the local agricultural rag.'

'Give up smoking, go to church, and play tennis with the curate, the
doctor and the squire's flapper,' added Holt. 'But Vicky, why not go
now?'

'No, oh, no, I can't do that.' She was frightened by her own suggestion.
'I must drain the cup of pleasure so as to be sure that it's all pain;
then I'll retire and drain the cup of resignation . . . unless, as I
sometimes think, it's empty.'

Jack had said nothing to this. Her wildness surprised and shocked him.
She was so savage and yet so sweet.

Victoria realised that she must hold fast to the town, for there alone
could she succeed. In the peace of the country she would not have the
opportunities she had now. Jack was in her hands. She never hesitated to
ask for money, and Jack responded without a word. Her account grew by
leaps and bounds. The cashier began to ask whether she wanted to see the
manager when she called at the bank. She could see, some way off but
clearly, the beacons on the coast of hope.

All through Jack's moods she had suffered from the defection of Betty.
On her return from Broadstairs she had written to her to come to Elm
Tree Place, but had received no answer. This happened again in
September; and fear took hold of her, for Betty had, ivy-like, twined
herself very closely round Victoria's heart of oak. She went to
Finsbury; but Betty had gone, leaving no address. She went to the P.R.R.
also. The place had become ghostly, for the familiar faces had gone. The
manageress was nowhere to be seen; nor was Nelly, probably by now a
manageress herself. Betty was not there, and the girl who wonderingly
served the beautiful lady with a tea-cake said that no girl of that name
was employed at the depot. Then Victoria saw herself sitting in the
churchyard of her past, between the two dear ghosts of Farwell and
Betty. The customers had changed, or their faces had receded so that she
knew them no more: they still played matador and fives and threes, chess
too. Alone the chains remained which the ghosts had rattled. Silently
she went away, turning over that leaf of her life for ever. Farwell was
dead, and Betty gone--married probably--and in Shepherd's Bush, not
daring to allow Victoria's foot to sully the threshold of 'First Words
of Love.'

Her conviction that Betty was false had a kind of tonic effect upon her.
She was alone and herself again; she realised that the lonely being is
the strong being. Now, at last, she could include the last woman she had
known in the category of those who threw stories. And her determination
to be free grew apace.

She invented a reason every day to extract money from Holt. He, blindly
desirous, careless of money, acceded to every fresh demand. Now it was a
faked bill from Barbezan Soeurs for two hundred pounds, now the rent in
arrear, a blue rates notice, an offhand request for a fiver to pay the
servants, the vet's bill or the price of a cab. Holt drew and overdrew.
If a suspicion ever entered his mind that he was being exploited, he
dismissed it at once, telling himself that Victoria was rather
extravagant. For a time letters from Rawsley synchronised with her fresh
demands, but repetition had dulled their effects: now Holt postponed
reading them; after a time she saw him throw one into the fire unread.
Little by little they grew rarer. Then they ceased. Holt was eaten up by
his passion, and Victoria's star rose high.

All conspired to favour her fortune. Perhaps her acumen had helped her
too, for she had seen correctly the coming boom. Trade rose by leaps and
bounds; every day new shops seemed to open; the stalks of the Central
London Railway could be seen belching clouds of smoke as they ground out
electric power; the letter-box at Elm Tree Place was clogged with
circulars denoting by the fury of their competition that trade was
flying as on a great wind. Other signs too were not wanting: the main
streets of London were blocked by lorries groaning under machinery,
vegetables, stone; immense queues formed at the railway stations waiting
for the excursion trains; above all, rose the sound of gold as it hissed
and sizzled as if molten on the pavements, flowing into the pockets of
merchants, bankers and shareholders. All the women at the Vesuvius
indulged in new clothes.

Victoria's investments were seized by the current. She had not entirely
followed the bank manager's advice. Seeing, feeling the movement, she
had realised most of her debentures and turned them into shares. One of
her ventures collapsed, but the remainder appreciated to an
extraordinary extent. At last, in the waning days of the year her
middle-class prudence reasserted itself. She knew enough of political
economy to be ready for the crash, she realised. One cold morning in
November she counted up her spoils. She had nearly five thousand pounds.

Meanwhile, while her blood was aglow, Holt sank further into the
dullness of his senses. A mania was upon him. Waking, his thought was
Victoria; and the cry for her rose everlasting from his racked body. She
was all, she was everywhere; and the desire for her, for her beauty, her
red lips, soaked into him like a philtre, narcotic and then fiery but
ever present, intimate and exacting. He was her thing, her toy, the
paltry instrument which responded to her every touch. He rejoiced in his
subjection; he swam in his passion like a pilgrim in the Ganges to find
brief oblivion; but again the thirst was on him, ravaging, ever
demanding more. More, more, ever more, in the watches of the night, when
ice seizes the world to throttle it--among all, in turmoil and in
peace--he tossed upon the passionate sea; with one thought, one hope.




CHAPTER XVIII


'I'M glad we're going away, Jack,' said Victoria leaning back in the cab
and looking at him critically. 'You look as if you wanted a change.'

'Perhaps I do,' said Jack.

Victoria looked at him again. He had not smiled as he spoke to her,
which was unusual. He seemed thinner and more delicate than ever, with
his pale face and pink cheekbones. His black hair shone as if moist; and
his eyes were bigger than they had ever been, blue like silent pools and
surrounded by a mauve zone. His mouth hung a little open. Yet, in spite
of his weariness, he held her wrist in both his hands, and she could
feel his fingers searching for the opening in her glove.

'You are becoming a responsibility,' she said smiling. 'I shall have to
be a mother to you.'

A faint smile came over his lips.

'A mother? After all, why not? Phedra. . . .' His eyes fixed on the grey
morning sky as he followed his thought.

The horse was trotting sharply. The winter air seemed to rush into their
bodies. Jack, well wrapped up as he was in a fur coat, shrank back
against the warm roundness of her shoulder. In an excess of gentleness
she put her free hand in his.

'Dear boy,' she said softly bending over him.

But there was no tenderness in Jack's blue eyes, rather lambent fire. At
once his grasp on her hand tightened and his lips mutely formed into a
request. Casting a glance right and left she kissed him quickly on the
mouth.

Up on the roof their bags jolted and bumped one another; milk carts were
rattling their empty cans as they returned from their round; far away a
drum and fife band played an acid air. They were going to Ventnor in
pursuit of the blanketed sun; and Victoria rejoiced, as they passed
through Piccadilly Circus where moisture settled black on the fountain,
to think that for three days she would see the sun radiate, not loom as
a red guinea. They passed over Waterloo Bridge at a foot pace; the
enormous morning traffic was struggling in the neck of the bottle. The
pressure was increased because the road was up between it and Waterloo
Station. On her left, over the parapet, Victoria could see the immense
desert of the Thames swathed in thin mist, whence emerged in places
masts and where massive barges loomed passive like derelicts. She
wondered for a moment whether her familiar symbol, the old vagrant,
still sat crouching against the parapet at Westminster, watching rare
puffs of smoke curling from his pipe into the cold air. The cab emerged
from the crush, and to avoid it the cabman turned into the little black
streets which line the wharf on the east side of the bridge, then
doubled back towards Waterloo through Cornwall Road. There they met
again the stream of drays and carts; the horse went at a foot pace, and
Victoria gazed at the black rows of houses with the fear of a lost one.
So uniformly ugly these apartment houses, with their dirty curtains,
their unspeakable flowerpots in the parlour windows. Here and there
cards announcing that they did pinking within; further, the board of a
sweep; then a good corner house, the doctor's probably, with four steps
and a brass knocker and a tall slim girl on her hands and knees washing
the steps.

The cab came to an abrupt stop. Some distance ahead a horse was down on
the slippery road; shouts came from the crowd around it. Victoria idly
watched the girl, swinging the wet rag from right to left. Poor thing.
Everything in her seemed to cry out against the torture of womanhood.
She was a picture of dumb resignation as she knelt with her back to the
road. Victoria could see her long thin arms, her hands red and rigid
with cold, her broken-down shoes with the punctured soles emerging from
the ragged black petticoat.

There was a little surge in the crowd. The girl got up, and with an air
of infinite weariness stretched her arms. Then she picked up the pail
and bucket and turned towards the street. For the space of a second the
two women looked into one another's faces. Then Victoria gave a muffled
cry and jumped out of the cab. She seized with both hands the girl's
bare arms.

'Betty! Betty!' she faltered.

A burning blush covered the girl's face and her features twitched. She
made as if to turn away from the detaining hands.

'Vicky, what are you doing . . . what does this mean?' came Jack's voice
from the cab.

'Wait a minute, Jack. Betty, my poor little Betty. Why are you here? Why
haven't you written to me?'

'Leave me alone,' said Betty hoarsely.

'I won't leave you alone. Betty, tell me, what's this? Are you married?'

A look of pain came over the girl's face, but she said nothing.

'Look here, Betty, we can't talk here. Leave the bucket, come with me.
I'll see it's all right.'

'Oh, I can't do that. Oh, let me alone; it's too late.'

'I don't understand you. It's never too late. Now just get into the cab
and come with me.'

'I can't. I must give notice . . .' She looked about to weep.

'Come along.' Victoria increased the pressure on the girl's arms. Jack
stood up in the cab. He seemed as frightened as he was surprised.

'I say, Vicky . . .' he began.

'Sit down, Jack, she's coming with us. You don't mind if we don't go to
Ventnor?'

Jack's eyes opened in astonishment but he made no reply. Victoria pulled
Betty sharply down the steps.

'Oh, let me get my things,' she said weakly.

'No. They'd stop you. There, get in. Drive back to Elm Tree Place,
cabman.'

Half an hour later, lying at full length on the boudoir sofa, Betty was
slowly sipping some hot cocoa. There was a smile on her tear-stained
face. Victoria was analysing with horror the ravages that sorrow had
wrought on her. She was pretty still, with her china blue eyes and her
hair like pale filigree gold; but the bones seemed to start from her red
wrists, so thin had she become. Even the smile of exhausted content on
her lips did not redeem her emaciated cheeks.

'Betty, my poor Betty,' said Victoria, taking her hand. 'What have they
done to you?'

The girl looked up at the ceiling as if in a dream.

'Tell me all about it,' her friend went on, 'what has happened to you
since April?'

'Oh, lots of things, lots of things. I've had a hard time.'

'Yes, I see. But what happened actually? Why did you leave the P.R.R.?'

'I had to. You see, Edward . . .' The flush returned.

'Yes?'

'Oh, Vic, I've been a bad girl and I'm so, so unhappy.' Betty seized her
friend's hand to raise herself and buried her face on her breast. There
Victoria let her sob, gently stroking the golden hair. She understood
already, but Betty must not be questioned yet. Little by little, Betty's
weeping grew less violent and confidence burst from her pent up soul.

'He didn't get a rise at Christmas, so he said we'd have to wait . . . I
couldn't bear it . . . it wasn't his fault. I couldn't let him come down
in the world, a gentleman . . . he had only thirty shillings a week.'

'Yes, yes, poor little girl.'

'We never meant to do wrong . . . when baby was coming he said he'd
marry me . . . I couldn't drag him down . . . I ran away.'

'Betty, Betty, why didn't you write to me?'

The girl looked at her. She was beautiful in her reminiscence of
sacrifice.

'I was ashamed . . . I didn't dare . . . I only wanted to go where they
didn't know what I was. . . . I was mad. The baby came too early and it
died almost at once.'

'My poor little girl.' Victoria softly stroked the rough back of her
hand.

'Oh, I wasn't sorry . . . it was a little girl . . . they don't want any
more in the world. Besides I didn't care for anything; I'd lost him
. . . and my job. I couldn't go back. My landlady wrote me a character
to go to Cornwall Road.'

'And there I found you.'

'I wonder what we are going to do for you,' she went on. 'Where is
Edward now?'

'Oh, I couldn't go back; I'm ashamed. . . .'

'Nonsense, you haven't done anything wrong. He shall marry you.'

'He would have,' said Betty a little coldly, 'he's square.'

'Yes, I know. He didn't beg you very hard, did he? However, never mind.
I'm not going to let you go until I've made you happy. Now I'll tuck you
up with a rug, and you're going to sleep before the fire.'

Betty lay limp and unresisting in the ministering hands. The unwonted
sensations of comfort, warmth and peace soothed her to sleepiness.
Besides, she felt as if she had wept every tear in her racked body. Soon
her features relaxed, and she sank into profound, almost deathlike
slumber.

Victoria meanwhile told her story to Jack, who sat in the dining room
reading a novel and smoking cigarettes. He came out of his coma as
Victoria unfolded the tale of Betty's upbringing, her struggle to live,
then love the meteor flashing through her horizon. His cheeks flushed
and his mouth quivered as Victoria painted for him the picture of the
girl half distraught, bearing the burden of her shame, unable to reason
or to forsee, to think of anything except the saving of a gentleman from
life on thirty bob a week.

'Something ought to be done,' he said at length, closing his book with
novel vivacity.

'Yes, but what?'

'I don't know.' His eyes questioned the wall; they grew vaguer and
vaguer as his excitement decreased, as a ship in docks sinks further and
further on her side while the water ebbs away.

'You think of something,' he said at length, picking up his book again.
'I don't care what it costs.'

Victoria left him and went for a walk through the misty streets seeking
a solution. There were not many. She could not keep Betty with her, for
she was pure though betrayed; contact with the irregular would degrade
her because habit would induce her to condone that which she morally
condemned. It would spoil her and would ultimately throw her into a life
for which she was not fitted because gentle and unspoiled.

'No,' mused Victoria as she walked, 'like most women, she cannot rule: a
man must rule her. She is a reed, not an oak. All must come from man,
both good and evil. What man has done man must undo.'

By the time she returned to Elm Tree Place she had made up her mind.
There was no hope for Betty except in marriage. She must have her own
fireside; and, from what she had said, her lover was no villain. He was
weak, probably; and, while he strove to determine his line of conduct,
events had slipped beyond his control. Perhaps, though, it was not fair
to deliver Betty into his hands bound and defenceless, bearing the
burden of their common imprudence. She was not fit to be free, but she
should not be a slave. It might be well to be the slave of the strong,
but not of the weak.

Therefore Victoria arrived at a definite solution. She would see the
young man; and, if it was not altogether out of the question, he should
marry Betty. They should have the little house at Shepherd's Bush, and
Betty should be made a free woman with a fortune of five hundred pounds
in her own right, enough to place her for ever beyond sheer want. It
only struck Victoria later that she need not, out of quixotic
generosity, deplete her own store, for Holt would gladly give whatever
sum she named.

'Now, Betty,' she said as the girl drained the glass of claret which
accompanied the piece of fowl, that composed her lunch, 'tell me your
young man's name and Anderson & Dromo's address. I'm going to see him.'

'Oh, no, no, don't do that.' The look of fear returned to the blue eyes.

'No use, Betty, I've decided you're going to be happy. I shall see him
to-day at six, bring him here to-morrow at half past two, as it happens
to be Saturday. You will be married about the thirtieth of this month.'

'Oh, Vic, don't make me think of it. I can't do it . . . it's no good
now. Perhaps he's forgotten me, and it's better for him.'

'I don't think he's forgotten you,' said Victoria. 'He'll marry you this
month, and you'll eat your Christmas dinner at Shepherd's Bush. Don't be
shy, dear--you're not going empty handed; you're going to have a dowry
of five hundred pounds.'

'Vic! I can't take it; it isn't right . . . you need all you've got
. . . you're so good, but I don't want him to marry me if . . . if. . . .'

'Oh, don't worry, I shan't tell him about the money until he says yes.
Now, no thanks; you're my baby, besides it's going to be a present from
Mr Holt. Silence,' she repeated as Betty opened her mouth, 'or rather
give me his name and address and not another word.'

'Edward Smith, Salisbury House, but. . . .'

'Enough. Now, dear, don't get up.'

The events of that Friday and Saturday formed in later days one of the
sunbathed memories in Victoria's dreary life. It was all so gentle, so
full of sweetness and irresolute generosity. She remembered everything,
the wait in the little dark room into which she was ushered by an amazed
commissionaire who professed himself willing to break regulations for
her sake and hand Mr Smith a note, the banging of her heart as she
realised her responsibility and resolved to break her word if necessary
and to buy a husband for Betty rather than lose him, then the quick
interview, the light upon the young man's face.

'Where is she,' he asked excitedly. 'Oh, why did she run away? You can't
think what I've been going through.'

'You should have married her,' said Victoria coldly, though she was
moved by his sincerity. He was handsome, this young man, with his
bronzed face, dark eyes, regular features and long dark hair.

'Oh, I would have at once if I'd known. But I couldn't make up my mind;
only thirty bob a week. . . .'

'Yes, I know,' said Victoria softly, 'I used to be at the P. R. R.'

'You?' The young man looked at her incredulously.

'Yes, but never mind me. It's Betty I've come for. The baby is dead. I
found her cleaning the steps of a house near Waterloo.'

'My God,' said the young man in low tones. He clenched his hands
together; one of his paper cuff protectors fell to the floor.

'Will you marry her now?'

'Yes . . . at once.'

'Good. She's had a hard time, Mr Smith, and I don't say it's entirely
your fault. Now it's all going to be put square. I'm going to see she
has some money of her own, five hundred pounds. That will help won't
it?'

'Oh, it's too good to be true. Why are you doing all this for us?
You're. . . .'

'Please, please, no thanks. I'm Betty's friend. Let that be enough. Will
you come and see her to-morrow at my house? Here's my card.'

On the last day of November these two were married at a registry office
in the presence of Victoria and the registrar's clerk. A new joy had
settled upon Betty, whose shy prettiness was turning into beauty.
Victoria's heart was heavy as she looked at the couple, both so young
and rapt, setting out upon the sea with a cargo of glowing dreams. It
was heavy still as the cab drove off carrying them away for a brief
week-end, which was all Anderson and Dromo would allow. She tasted a new
delight in this making of happiness.

Holt had not attended the ceremony, for he felt too weak. His interest
in the affair had been dim, for he looked upon it as one of Victoria's
whims. He was ceasing to judge as he ceased to appreciate, so much was
his physical weakness gaining upon him; all his faculty of action was
concentrated in the desire which gnawed at his very being. Victoria
reminded him of his promise, and, finding his cheque book for him, laid
it on the table.

'Five hundred pounds,' she said. 'Better make it out to me. It's very
good of you, Jack.'

'Yes, yes,' he said dully, writing the date and the words 'Mrs Ferris.'
Then he stopped. Concentrating with an effort he wrote the word 'five.'

'Five . . . five . . .' he murmured. Then he looked up at Victoria with
something like vacuousness.

A wild idea flashed through her brain. She must act. Oh, no, dreadful.
Yet freedom, freedom. . . . He could not understand . . . she must do
it.

'Thousand,' she prompted in a low voice.

'Thousand pounds,' went Jack's voice as he wrote obediently. Then,
mechanically, reciting the formula his father had taught him. 'Five,
comma, 0, 0, 0, dash, 0, dash, 0. John Holt.'

Victoria put her hands down on the table to take the cheque he had just
torn out. All her fingers were trembling with the terrible excitement of
a slave watching his fetters being struck off. As she took it up and
looked at it, while the figures danced, Holt's eyes grew more insistent
on her other hand. Slowly his fingers closed over it, raised it to his
lips. With his eyes closed, breathing a little deeper, he covered her
palm with lingering kisses.




CHAPTER XIX


THE endowment of Betty was soon completed. Advised by the bank manager
to whom she confided something of the young couple's improvident
tendencies, Victoria vested the money in a trust administered by an
insurance company. The deed was so drafted that it could not be charged;
the capital could not be touched, excepting the case of male offspring
who, after their mother's death, would divide it on their respective
twenty-fifth birthdays; as she distrusted her own sex and perhaps still
more the stock from which the girls might spring, she bound their
proportion in perpetuity; failing offspring she provided that, following
on his wife's decease, Mr Edward Smith should receive one fifth of the
capital, four fifths reverting to herself.

Victoria revelled somewhat in the technicalities of the deed; every
clause she framed was a pleasure in itself; she turned the
'hereinbefores' and the 'predecease as aforesaids' round in her mouth as
if they were luscious sweets. The pleasure of it was not that of Lady
Bountiful showering blessings and feeling the holy glow of charity
penetrate her being. Victoria's satisfaction was more vixenish; she, the
outlaw, the outcast, had wrested from Society enough money to indulge in
the luxury of promoting a marriage, converting the illegal into the
legal, creating respectability. The gains that Society term infamous
were being turned towards the support of that Society; still more,
failing her infamous help, Betty and Edward Smith would not have
achieved their coming together with the approval of the Law, their
spiritual regeneration and a house at Shepherd's Bush.

She was now the mistress of a fortune of over ten thousand pounds, a
good half of which was due to her final stratagem. The time had now come
for her to retire to the house in the country when she could resume her
own name, piece together for the sake of the county her career since she
left India for Alabama, and read the local agricultural rag. Her plans
were postponed, however, owing to Holt's state of health, which
compelled her, out of sheer humanity, to take him to a sunnier clime.
She dismissed Algiers as being too far; she asked Holt where he would
like to go to, but he merely replied 'East Coast,' which in December
struck her as being absurd. Finally she decided to take him to
Folkestone, as it was very near and he would doubtless like to sit with
the dogs on the Leas.

Folkestone was bright and sunny. The sting in the glowing air brought
fresh colour to Victoria's cheeks, a deeper brilliancy to her grey eyes;
she felt well; her back was straighter; when a lock of dark hair strayed
into her mouth driven by the high wind it tasted salt on her lips.
Sometimes she could have leaped, shouted, for life was rushing in upon
her like a tide. Most days, however, she was quiet, for Holt was not
affected by the sea. His listlessness was now such that he hardly spoke.
He would walk by her side vacuously, looking at his surroundings as if
he did not see them. At times he stopped, concentrated with an effort
and bought a bun from a hawker to break up for the dogs.

Victoria noticed that he was slipping, with ununderstanding fear. The
phenomenon was beyond her. Though the guests at the hotel surrounded her
with an atmosphere of admiration, Holt's condition began to occupy all
her thoughts. He was thin now to the point of showing bone under his
coat, pale and hectic, generally listless, sometimes wild-eyed. He never
read, played no games, talked to nobody. Indeed nothing remained of him
save the half physical, half emotional power of his passion. Victoria
called in a doctor, but found him vague and shy; beyond cutting down
Holt's cigarettes he prescribed nothing.

Victoria resigned herself to the role of a nurse. At the beginning of
January she noticed that Holt was using a stick to walk. The sight
filled her with dread. She watched him on the Leas, walking slowly,
resting the weight of his body on the staff, stopping now and then to
look at the sea, or worse, at a blank wall. A terrible impression of
weakness emanated from him. He was going down the hill. One morning in
the middle of January, Holt did not get up. When questioned he hardly
answered. She dressed feverishly without his moving, and went out to
find the doctor herself, for she was unconsciously afraid of the
servants' eyes. When she returned with the doctor Holt had not moved;
his head was thrown back, his mouth a little open, his face more waxen
than usual.

'Oh, oh. . . .' Victoria nearly screamed, when Holt opened his eyes. The
doctor threw back the bedclothes and examined his patient. As Victoria
watched him inspecting Holt's mouth, the inside of his eyelids, then his
finger nails, a terror came upon her at these strange rites. She went to
the window and looked out over the sea; it was choppy, grey and foamy
like a river in spate. She strove to concentrate on her freedom, but she
could feel the figure on the bed.

'Got any sal volatile?' said the doctor's voice.

'No, shall I. . . .?'

'No, no time for that, he's fainting; get me some salts, ammonia,
anything.'

Victoria watched him forcing Holt to breathe the ammonia she used to
clean ribbons. Holt opened his eyes, coughed, struggled; tears ran down
his face as he inhaled the acrid fumes. Still he did not speak. The
doctor pulled him out of bed, crossed his legs, and then struck him
sharply across the shin, just under the knee, with the side of his hand.
Holt's leg hardly moved. The doctor hesitated for a moment, then pushed
him back into the bed.

'I . . . Mrs. . . .?'

'Holt.'

'Well, Mrs Holt, I'm afraid your husband is in a serious condition. Of
course I don't say that with careful feeding, tonics, we can't get him
round, but it'll be a long business, and . . . and . . . you see . . .
How long have you been married?'

'Over a year,' said Victoria with an effort.

'Ah. Well Mrs Holt, it will be part of the cure that you leave him for
six months.'

Victoria gasped. Why? Why? Could it be . . .? The thought appalled her.
Dimly she could hear the doctor talking.

'His mother . . . if he has one . . . to-day . . . phosphate of . . .'

Then the doctor was gone. A telegram had somehow been sent to Rawsley
Cement Works. Then the long day, food produced on the initiative of the
hotel servants, the room growing darker, night.

It was ten o'clock, and two women stood face to face by the bed. One was
Victoria, beautiful like a marble statue, with raven black hair, pale
lips. The other a short stout figure with tight hair, a black bonnet, a
red face stained with tears.

'You've killed him,' said the harsh voice.

Victoria looked up at Mrs Holt.

'No, no.'

'My boy, my poor boy!' Mrs Holt was on her knees by the side of the
motionless figure.

Victoria began to weep, silently at first, then noisily. Mrs Holt
started at the sound, then jumped to her feet with a cry of rage.

'Stop that crying,' she commanded. 'How dare you? How dare you?'

Victoria went on crying, the sobs choking her.

'A murderess,' Mrs Holt went on. 'You took my boy away; you corrupted
him, ruined him, killed him. You're a vile thing; nobody should touch
you, you. . . .'

Victoria pulled herself together.

'It's not my fault,' she stumbled. 'I didn't know.'

'Didn't know,' sneered Mrs Holt, 'as if a woman of your class didn't
know.'

'That's enough,' snarled Victoria. 'I've had enough. Understand? I
didn't want your son. He wanted me. That's all over. He bought me, and
now you think the price too heavy. I've been heaven to him who only knew
misery. He's not to be pitied, unless it be because his mistress hands
him over to his mother.'

'How dare you?' cried Mrs Holt again, a break in her voice as she pitied
her outraged motherhood.

'It's you who've killed him; you, the family, Rawsley, Bethlehem, your
moral laws, your religion. It's you who starved him, ground him down
until he lost all sense of measure, desired nothing but love and life.'

'You killed him, though,' said the mother.

'Perhaps. I didn't want to. I was . . . fond of him. But how can I help
it? And supposing I did? What of it? Yes, what of it? Who was your son
but a man?'

'My son?'

'Your son. A distinction, not a title. Your son bears part of the
responsibility of making me what I am. He came last but he might have
come first, and I tell you that the worker of the eleventh hour is
guilty equally with the worker of the first. Your son was nothing and I
nothing but pawns in the game, little figures which the Society you're
so proud of shifts and breaks. He bought my womanhood; he contributed to
my degradation. What else but degradation did you offer me?'

Mrs Holt was weeping now.

'I am a woman, and the world has no use for me. Your Society taught me
nothing. Or rather it taught me to dance, to speak a foreign language
badly, to make myself an ornament, a pleasure to man. Then it threw me
down from my pedestal, knowing nothing, without a profession, a trade, a
friend, or a penny. And then your Society waved before my eyes the
lily-white banner of purity, while it fed me and treated me like a dog.
When I gave it what it wanted, for there's only one thing it wants from
a woman whom nothing has been taught but that which every woman knows,
then it covered me with gifts. A curse on your Society. A Society of
men, crushing, grinding down women, sweating their labour, starving
their brains, urging them on to the surrender of what makes a woman
worth while. Ah . . . ah. . . .'

Breath failed her. Mrs Holt was weeping silently in her hands in utter
abandonment.

'I'm going,' said Victoria hoarsely. She picked up a handkerchief and
dabbed her eyes.

As she opened the door the figure moved on the bed, opened its eyes.
Their last lingering look was for the woman at the door.




CHAPTER XX


THE squire of Cumberleigh was not sorry that 'The Retreat' had found a
tenant at last. The house belonged to him, and he might have let it many
times over; but so conservative and aristocratic was his disposition
that he preferred to sacrifice his rent rather than have anyone who was
undesirable in the neighbourhood. Yet, in the case of the lady who had
now occupied the house for some three weeks, though the strictest
enquiries had been made concerning her, both in Cumberleigh and the
surrounding district, nothing could be ascertained beyond the scanty
facts that she was a widow, well-to-do and had been abroad a good deal.
The squire had seen her on two separate occasions himself and could not
but admit that she was far from unprepossessing; she was obviously a
lady, well-bred and educated, and, if her frock and hat had been a
trifle smarter than those usually seen in a country village, she had
owned up to having recently been to Paris to replenish her wardrobe. It
was curious, when he came to reflect upon it, how little she had told
him about herself, and yet, what was more curious, she had no sooner
left him after the second visit than he had betaken himself to his
solicitor to get him to make out the lease. She had received and signed
it the following day, showing herself remarkably business-like, but not
ungenerous when it came to the buying of the fixtures and to the vexed
question of outdoor and indoor repairs.

As the squire climbed the hill that gave upon the village from the
marshes, one cold March evening, he did not regret his decision; for,
standing in front of 'The Retreat,' he felt bound to admit that there
was something cheering and enlivening in the fact that the four front
windows now flaunted red curtains and holland blinds, where they had
been so dark and forbidding. In the lower one on the left, where the
lamps had not yet been lighted or the blinds drawn down, in the light of
the dancing fire, he could see distinctly a woman's workbox on a small
inlaid table, a volume of songs on the cottage piano, and, at the back
of the room, a hint of china tea cups, glistening silver and white
napery. Presently a trim maid came out to bolt the front door, followed
by two snuffling yellow dogs who took the air for a few moments in
tempestuous spirits, biting each other about the neck and ears and
rushing round in giddy circles on the tiny grass plot until, in response
to a call from the maid, they returned with her to the house. They were
foreigners evidently, these dogs! The squire could not remember the name
of the breed, but he thought he had seen one of the kind before in
London. He was not quite sure he approved of foreign dogs; they were not
so sporting or reliable as those of the English breeds; still, these
were handsome fellows, well kept and (from the green ribbons that
adorned their fluffy necks) evidently made much of. He was still looking
after the dogs when he was joined by the curate coming out of the
blacksmith's cottage opposite and stopping to light a match in the
shelter of the high wall of 'The Retreat.'

'First pipe I have had to-day,' said the newcomer as he puffed at it
luxuriously. 'It's more than you can say, squire, I'll be bound.'

'Twenty-first, that's more like it,' said the squire with a laugh. 'How
is Mrs Johnson?' This in allusion to the curate's call at the smithy.

'Dying. Won't last the night out, I think. She is quite unconscious.
Still I am glad I went. Johnson and his daughters seemed to like to have
me there, though of course there was nothing for me to do.'

'Quite so, quite so,' said the squire approvingly, for the village was
so small that he took a paternal interest in all its inhabitants. 'Any
more news?'

'Mrs Golightly has had twins, and young Shaw has enlisted. That's about
all, I think. Oh, by the by, I paid a call here to-day.' And he
indicate. 'The Retreat.' 'It seemed about time you know, and one mustn't
neglect the new-comers.'

'Of course not,' the squire assented with conviction. 'Was she . . . did
she in any way indicate that she was pleased to see you?'

'She was very gracious, but she seemed to take my call quite as a matter
of course. A nice woman I should think, though a little reserved.
However she is going to rent one seat in church if not more, and she
said I might put her name down for one or two little things I am
interested in at present.'

'In fact you made hay while the sun shone. Well, after all, why not? She
didn't tell you anything about herself I suppose, or her connections?'

'No, she never mentioned them. I understood or she implied she had been
abroad a good deal and that her husband had died some years ago. Still I
really don't think we need worry about her; the whole thing, if I may
say so, was so obviously all right, the house I mean and all its
appointments. She is a quiet woman, a little shy and retiring perhaps,
belongs to the old-fashioned school.'

'Well she is none the worse for that,' said the squire with a grunt. 'We
don't meet many of that kind nowadays. Even the farmers' daughters are
quite ready to set you right whenever they get a chance. This modern
education is a curse, I have said so from the very beginning. Still they
haven't robbed us of our Church schools yet, if that is any
consolation. Coming back to dine with me to-night, Seaton?'

The young man shook his head. 'Very sorry, squire, it's quite impossible
to-night. It is Friday night, choir practice you know, and there is a
lantern lecture in the mission hall. I ought to be there already,
helping Griffin with the slides.'

'All right, Sunday evening then, at the usual time,' said the squire
cordially as the curate left him, and, as he looked after him, he
criticised him as a busy fellow, not likely to set the Thames on fire
perhaps, but essentially the right man in the right place.

His own progress was a good deal slower; not that he found the hill too
steep, for, in spite of his fifty years, he was still perfectly sound of
wind and limb, as was shown by his athletic movements, the fresh healthy
colour on his cheeks, and the clear blue of his eyes, but rather because
he seemed loth to tear himself away from 'The Retreat' and his new
tenant. Even when he had reached the little post office that crowned the
summit, he did not turn off towards his own place till he had spent
another five minutes contemplating the stack of chimney-pots sending out
thick puffs of white smoke into the quiet evening sky, and listening
attentively to the cheerful sound of a tinkling piano blended with the
gentle lowing of the cattle on the marsh below. After all, he told
himself, he was very glad Seaton had called, for apart from his duty as
a clergyman it was only a kind and neighbourly thing to do.

It was a pity that there were not more of his kind in the neighbourhood,
for in spite of his own preference for the country, he could imagine
that a woman coming to it fresh from London at such a season might find
it dull and a little depressing. He wondered if Mrs Menzies, of Hither
Hall, would call if he asked her to do so. Of course she would in a
moment if he put it on personal grounds, but that was not the point. All
he wished was to be kind and hospitable to a stranger; and Mrs Menzies,
much as he respected and admired her, had never been known to err on the
side of tolerance, nor did one meet in her drawing-room anyone whose
pedigree would not bear a thorough investigation. Yes, there was no
doubt about it, though the laws that governed social intercourse were on
the whole excellent and had to be kept, there were here, as everywhere
else in life, exceptions to the rule, occasions when anyone of a kindly
disposition must feel tempted to break them. And Mrs Menzies was
certainly a little stiff: witness her behaviour in the case of Captain
Clinton's widow and the fuss she had made because the unfortunate lady
had forgotten to tell her of her relationship to the Eglinton Clintons
and had only vouchsafed the fact that her father's people had been in
trade. Why, it had taken weeks if not months to clear the matter up; and
it had been very awkward for everybody, the Eglinton Clintons included
when the truth had transpired. No, on second thoughts he would not ask
Mrs Menzies to call; he would far rather make the first venture himself
than risk a snub for this lonely defenceless stranger.

He turned into the gates of Redland Hall with a half-formed intention of
doing so immediately. He dined alone as usual; it was very rare that the
dining-room of Redland Hall extended its hospitality to anybody
nowadays; for the squire, like most men over forty, had lost the habit
of entertaining and did not know how to recover it. A bachelor friend
spent a night with him from time to time; the curate supped with him
every Sunday; and his sister came for a week or two during the summer,
when she invariably told him that the house was too uncomfortable to
live in, and he ought to have it thoroughly done up and modernised. He
invariably promised to set about it immediately, with the full
intention of doing so; but his resolution began to weaken the day on
which he saw her off at the station, and degenerated steadily for the
remainder of the year. That night, however, for the first time for many
months he made a voyage of discovery into his own drawing-room. Yes,
there was no doubt about it, Selina was quite right in calling it
draughty and uncomfortable; the gilt French furniture was shabby and
tarnished, the Aubusson carpet worn, the wall paper faded, the whole
room desolate in its suggestion of past glory. He crossed over to the
enormous grand piano, opened it and struck a yellow key gently with one
finger. Was he wrong, he wondered, in thinking its tone was lamentably
thin and poor? A rat scampered and squeaked in the wainscoting, the
windows rattled in their loose sashes; he shut the piano abruptly and
left the room. It would cost a good deal to have it thoroughly done up,
of course; but that was not the point. Who would superintend the
decorations? He did not trust his own taste and had no faith in that of
any upholsterer. Selina would come and help him if he asked her, though
she would think it strange, for she had paid her annual visit in August,
and it was now only March; besides, if she brought her delicate little
girls with her at such a time the whole house would be upset in
arranging for their comfort. Still, Selina or no, he had quite made up
his mind to have the room done up and to buy a new piano immediately; it
was ridiculous to harbour an instrument which was merely a nesting place
for mice. He returned to the dining-room, poured himself out a stiff
whiskey and soda, and dozed over his _Spectator_ for the rest of the
evening. Yet, next morning, even in the unromantic light of day, he was
surprised to find that his plan of doing up the drawing-room still held
good.

He had intended to ride into Wetherton that day to try his new mare
across country, for the gates were high in that direction and good
enough to test her powers as a jumper. A glance at the glistening frost
on the grass soon sufficed, however, to tell him that his scheme could
not be carried out; nor was he sorry until, having spent the morning on
his farms and inspected everything and everybody at his leisure, it
occurred to him with a desperate sense of conviction that there was
still the afternoon to be filled in somehow. About three he set off in
the direction of the village, looked in at the church and had a brief
colloquy with Seaton regarding the new pews which were being put up,
interviewed the postmaster, condoled with the blacksmith upon the death
of his wife, and even ventured down as far as the marsh to see if the
new carrier who had taken the place of old Dick Tomlinson was likely to
fulfil his duties properly. About four o'clock he found himself once
more opposite 'The Retreat.' It was on the main road certainly, but it
was only recently that he had become aware of its importance in the
landscape. One could not get to the marsh or come back from it without
passing it. The windows looked as trim as ever--trimmer perhaps, for
short muslin curtains interspaced with embroidery seemed to have sprung
up in the night. They were very decorative in their way; at the same
time they quite shut out all prospect of the interior, and there was no
workbox, piano, or suggestion of tea things to be seen to-day. The
foreign dogs were snuffling in the garden as he passed the second time,
and one of them nosed its way through the iron gate and ventured a few
yards down the road, but just as the squire had made up his mind it was
his duty to take it back, it returned of its own accord. He watched the
trim maid come out and call them as she had done the day before, and saw
them rush after her frolicking round her skirt.

Suddenly he crossed the road, looked up and down to make sure there was
no acquaintance within sight, opened the iron gate of 'The Retreat,' and
passed up the gravel pathway into the porch.

'Mrs Fulton is at home,' said the trim maid demurely, in answer to his
question.

MERCAT PRESS, EDINBURGH






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