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PASSAGES FROM THE AMERICAN NOTE-BOOKS, VOLUME II

By Nathaniel Hawthorne



[EXTRACTS FROM HIS PRIVATE LETTERS.]


Brook Farm, Oak Hill, April 13th, 1841.--. . . . Here I am in a polar
Paradise!  I know not how to interpret this aspect of nature,--whether it
be of good or evil omen to our enterprise.  But I reflect that the
Plymouth pilgrims arrived in the midst of storm, and stepped ashore upon
mountain snowdrifts; and, nevertheless, they prospered, and became a
great people,--and doubtless it will be the same with us.  I laud my
stars, however, that you will not have your first impressions of
(perhaps) our future home from such a day as this. . . . Through faith,
I persist in believing that Spring and Summer will come in their due
season; but the unregenerated man shivers within me, and suggests a doubt
whether I may not have wandered within the precincts of the Arctic
Circle, and chosen my heritage among everlasting snows. . . . Provide
yourself with a good stock of furs, and, if you can obtain the skin of a
polar bear, you will find it a very suitable summer dress for this
region. . . .

I have not yet taken my first lesson in agriculture, except that I went
to see our cows foddered, yesterday afternoon.  We have eight of our own;
and the number is now increased by a transcendental heifer belonging to
Miss Margaret Fuller.  She is very fractious, I believe, and apt to kick
over the milk-pail. . . . I intend to convert myself into a milkmaid
this evening, but I pray Heaven that Mr. Ripley may be moved to assign me
the kindliest cow in the herd, otherwise I shall perform my duty with
fear and trembling. . . .

I like my brethren in affliction very well; and, could you see us sitting
round our table at meal-times, before the great kitchen fire, you would
call it a cheerful sight.  Mrs. B------ is a most comfortable woman to
behold.  She looks as if her ample person were stuffed full of
tenderness,--indeed, as if she were all one great, kind heart.

          *     *     *     *     *     *

April 14th, 10 A. M.--. . . . I did not milk the cows last night, because
Mr. Ripley was afraid to trust them to my hands, or me to their horns, I
know not which.  But this morning I have done wonders.  Before breakfast,
I went out to the barn and began to chop hay for the cattle, and with
such "righteous vehemence," as Mr. Ripley says, did I labor, that in the
space of ten minutes I broke the machine.  Then I brought wood and
replenished the fires; and finally went down to breakfast, and ate up a
huge mound of buckwheat cakes.  After breakfast, Mr. Ripley put a
four-pronged instrument into my hands, which he gave me to understand was
called a pitchfork; and he and Mr. Farley being armed with similar
weapons, we all three commenced a gallant attack upon a heap of manure.
This office being concluded, and I having purified myself, I sit down to
finish this letter. . . .

Miss Fuller's cow hooks the other cows, and has made herself ruler of the
herd, and behaves in a very tyrannical manner. . . . I shall make an
excellent husbandman,--I feel the original Adam reviving within me.


April 16th.--. . . . Since I last wrote, there has been an addition to
our community of four gentlemen in sables, who promise to be among our
most useful and respectable members.  They arrived yesterday about noon.
Mr. Ripley had proposed to them to join us, no longer ago than that very
morning.  I had some conversation with them in the afternoon, and was
glad to hear them express much satisfaction with their new abode and all
the arrangements.  They do not appear to be very communicative, however,
--or perhaps it may be merely an external reserve, like my own, to shield
their delicacy.  Several of their prominent characteristics, as well as
their black attire, lead me to believe that they are members of the
clerical profession; but I have not yet ascertained from their own lips
what has been the nature of their past lives.  I trust to have much
pleasure in their society, and, sooner or later, that we shall all of us
derive great strength from our intercourse with them.  I cannot too
highly applaud the readiness with which these four gentlemen in black
have thrown aside all the fopperies and flummeries which have their
origin in a false state of society.  When I last saw them, they looked as
heroically regardless of the stains and soils incident to our profession
as I did when I emerged from the gold-mine. . . .

I have milked a cow!!! . . . . The herd has rebelled against the
usurpation of Miss Fuller's heifer; and, whenever they are turned out of
the barn, she is compelled to take refuge under our protection.  So much
did she impede my labors by keeping close to me, that I found it
necessary to give her two or three gentle pats with a shovel; but still
she preferred to trust herself to my tender mercies, rather than venture
among the horns of the herd.  She is not an amiable cow; but she has a
very intelligent face, and seems to be of a reflective cast of character.
I doubt not that she will soon perceive the expediency of being on good
terms with the rest of the sisterhood.

I have not yet been twenty yards from our house and barn; but I begin to
perceive that this is a beautiful place.  The scenery is of a mild and
placid character, with nothing bold in its aspect; but I think its
beauties will grow upon us, and make us love it the more, the longer we
live here.  There is a brook, so near the house that we shall be able to
hear its ripple in the summer evenings, . . . . but, for agricultural
purposes, it has been made to flow in a straight and rectangular fashion,
which does it infinite damage as a picturesque object. . . .

It was a moment or two before I could think whom you meant by Mr. Dismal
View.  Why, he is one of the best of the brotherhood, so far as
cheerfulness goes; for if he do not laugh himself, he makes the rest of
us laugh continually.  He is the quaintest and queerest personage you
ever saw,--full of dry jokes, the humor of which is so incorporated with
the strange twistifications of his physiognomy, that his sayings ought to
be written down, accompanied with illustrations by Cruikshank.  Then he
keeps quoting innumerable scraps of Latin, and makes classical allusions,
while we are turning over the goldmine; and the contrast between the
nature of his employment and the character of his thoughts is
irresistibly ludicrous.

I have written this epistle in the parlor, while Farmer Ripley, and
Farmer Farley, and Farmer Dismal View were talking about their
agricultural concerns.  So you will not wonder if it is not a classical
piece of composition, either in point of thought or expression.

          *     *     *     *     *     *

Mr. Ripley has bought four black pigs.


April 22d.--. . . . What an abominable hand do I scribble!  but I have
been chopping wood, and turning a grindstone all the forenoon; and such
occupations are apt to disturb the equilibrium of the muscles and sinews.
It is an endless surprise to me how much work there is to be done in the
world; but, thank God, I am able to do my share of it,--and my ability
increases daily.  What a great, broad-shouldered, elephantine personage I
shall become by and by!

I milked two cows this morning, and would send you some of the milk, only
that it is mingled with that which was drawn forth by Mr. Dismal View and
the rest of the brethren.


April 28th.--. . . . I was caught by a cold during my visit to Boston.
It has not affected my whole frame, but took entire possession of my
head, as being the weakest and most vulnerable part.  Never did anybody
sneeze with such vehemence and frequency; and my poor brain has been in a
thick fog; or, rather, it seemed as if my head were stuffed with coarse
wool. . . . Sometimes I wanted to wrench it off, and give it a great
kick, like a football.

This annoyance has made me endure the bad weather with even less than
ordinary patience; and my faith was so far exhausted that, when they told
me yesterday that the sun was setting clear, I would not even turn my
eyes towards the west.  But this morning I am made all over anew, and
have no greater remnant of my cold than will serve as an excuse for doing
no work to-day.

The family has been dismal and dolorous throughout the storm.  The night
before last, William Allen was stung by a wasp on the eyelid; whereupon
the whole side of his face swelled to an enormous magnitude, so that, at
the breakfast-table, one half of him looked like a blind giant (the eye
being closed), and the other half had such a sorrowful and ludicrous
aspect that I was constrained to laugh out of sheer pity.  The same day,
a colony of wasps was discovered in my chamber, where they had remained
throughout the winter, and were now just bestirring themselves, doubtless
with the intention of stinging me from head to foot  A similar discovery
was made in Mr. Farley's room.  In short, we seem to have taken up our
abode in a wasps' nest.  Thus you see a rural life is not one of unbroken
quiet and serenity.

If the middle of the day prove warm and pleasant, I promise myself to
take a walk. . . . I have taken one walk with Mr. Farley; and I could
not have believed that there was such seclusion at so short a distance
from a great city.  Many spots seem hardly to have been visited for
ages,--not since John Eliot preached to the Indians here.  If we were to
travel a thousand miles, we could not escape the world more completely
than we can here.

          *     *     *     *     *     *

I read no newspapers, and hardly remember who is President, and feel as
if I had no more concern with what other people trouble themselves about
than if I dwelt in another planet.


May 1st.--. . . . Every day of my life makes me feel more and more how
seldom a fact is accurately stated; how, almost invariably, when a story
has passed through the mind of a third person, it becomes, so far as
regards the impression that it makes in further repetitions, little
better than a falsehood, and this, too, though the narrator be the
most truth-seeking person in existence.  How marvellous the tendency
is! . . .  Is truth a fantasy which we are to pursue forever and never
grasp?

          *     *     *     *     *     *

My cold has almost entirely departed.  Were it a sunny day, I should
consider myself quite fit for labor out of doors; but as the ground is so
damp, and the atmosphere so chill, and the sky so sullen, I intend to
keep myself on the sick-list this one day longer, more especially as I
wish to read Carlyle on Heroes.

          *     *     *     *     *     *

There has been but one flower found in this vicinity,--and that was an
anemone, a poor, pale, shivering little flower, that had crept under a
stone-wall for shelter.  Mr. Farley found it, while taking a walk with
me.

. . . . This is May-day!  Alas, what a difference between the ideal and
the real!


May 4th.--. . . . My cold no longer troubles me, and all the morning I
have been at work under the clear blue sky, on a hillside.  Sometimes it
almost seemed as if I were at work in the sky itself, though the material
in which I wrought was the ore from our gold-mine.  Nevertheless, there
is nothing so unseemly and disagreeable in this sort of toil as you could
think.  It defiles the hands, indeed, but not the soul.  This gold ore is
a pure and wholesome substance, else our mother Nature would not devour
it so readily, and derive so much nourishment from it, and return such a
rich abundance of good grain and roots in requital of it.

The farm is growing very beautiful now,--not that we yet see anything of
the peas and potatoes which we have planted; but the grass blushes green
on the <DW72>s and hollows.  I wrote that word "blush" almost
unconsciously; so we will let it go as an inspired utterance.

When I go forth afield, . . . . I look beneath the stonewalls, where the
verdure is richest, in hopes that a little company of violets, or some
solitary bud, prophetic of the summer, may be there. . . . But not a
wildflower have I yet found.  One of the boys gathered some yellow
cowslips last Sunday; but I am well content not to have found them, for
they are not precisely what I should like to send to you, though they
deserve honor and praise, because they come to us when no others will.
We have our parlor here dressed in evergreen as at Christmas.  That
beautiful little flower-vase . . . . stands on Mr. Ripley's study-table,
at which I am now writing.  It contains some daffodils and some
willow-blossoms.  I brought it here rather than keep it in my chamber,
because I never sit there, and it gives me many pleasant emotions to look
round and be surprised--for it is often a surprise, though I well know
that it is there--by something connected with the idea [of a friend].

          *     *     *     *     *     *

I do not believe that I should be patient here if I were not engaged in a
righteous and heaven-blessed way of life.  When I was in the Custom-House
and then at Salem I was not half so patient. . . .

We had some tableaux last evening, the principal characters being
sustained by Mr. Farley and Miss Ellen Slade.  They went off very
well. . . .

I fear it is time for me--sod-compelling as I am--to take the field
again.


May 11th.--. . . . This morning I arose at milking-time in good trim for
work; and we have been employed partly in an Augean labor of clearing out
a wood-shed, and partly in carting loads of oak.  This afternoon I hope
to have something to do in the field, for these jobs about the house are
not at all to my taste.


June 1st.--. . . . I have been too busy to write a long letter by this
opportunity, for I think this present life of mine gives me an antipathy
to pen and ink, even more than my Custom-House experience did. . . .
In the midst of toil, or after a hard day's work in the goldmine, my
soul obstinately refuses to be poured out on paper.  That abominable
gold-mine!  Thank God, we anticipate getting rid of its treasures in the
course of two or three days!  Of all hateful places that is the worst,
and I shall never comfort myself for having spent so many days of blessed
sunshine there.  It is my opinion that a man's soul may be buried and
perish under a dung-heap, or in a furrow of the field, just as well as
under a pile of money.

Mr. George Bradford will probably be here to-day, so that there will be
no danger of my being under the necessity of laboring more than I like
hereafter.  Meantime my health is perfect, and my spirits buoyant, even
in the gold-mine.


August 12th.--. . . . I am very well, and not at all weary, for
yesterday's rain gave us a holiday; and, moreover, the labors of the farm
are not so pressing as they have been.  And, joyful thought! in a little
more than a fortnight; I shall be free from my bondage,--. . . . free to
enjoy Nature,--free to think and feel! . . . . Even my Custom-House
experience was not such a thraldom and weariness; my mind and heart were
free.  O, labor is the curse of the world, and nobody can meddle with it
without becoming proportionably brutified!  Is it a praiseworthy matter
that I have spent five golden months in providing food for cows and
horses?  It is not so.


August 18th.--I am very well, only somewhat tired with walking half a
dozen miles immediately after breakfast, and raking hay ever since.  We
shall quite finish haying this week, and then there will be no more very
hard or constant labor during the one other week that I shall remain a
slave.


August 22d.--. . . . I had an indispensable engagement in the bean-field,
whither, indeed, I was glad to betake myself, in order to escape a
parting scene with ------.  He was quite out of his wits the night
before, and I sat up with him till long past midnight.  The farm is
pleasanter now that he is gone; for his unappeasable wretchedness threw a
gloom over everything.  Since I last wrote, we have done haying, and the
remainder of my bondage will probably be light.  It will be a long time,
however, before I shall know how to make a good use of leisure, either as
regards enjoyment or literary occupation. . . .

It is extremely doubtful whether Mr. Ripley will succeed in locating his
community on this farm.  He can bring Mr. E------ to no terms, and the
more they talk about the matter, the further they appear to be from a
settlement.  We must form other plans for ourselves; for I can see few or
no signs that Providence purposes to give us a home here.  I am weary,
weary, thrice weary, of waiting so many ages.  Whatever may be my gifts,
I have not hitherto shown a single one that may avail to gather gold.  I
confess that I have strong hopes of good from this arrangement with
M------; but when I look at the scanty avails of my past literary
efforts, I do not feel authorized to expect much from the future.  Well,
we shall see.  Other persons have bought large estates and built splendid
mansions with such little books as I mean to write; so that perhaps it is
not unreasonable to hope that mine may enable me to build a little
cottage, or, at least, to buy or hire one.  But I am becoming more and
more convinced that we must not lean upon this community.  Whatever is to
be done must be done by my own undivided strength.  I shall not remain
here through the winter, unless with an absolute certainty that there
will be a house ready for us in the spring.  Otherwise, I shall return to
Boston;--still, however, considering myself an associate of the
community, so that we may take advantage of any more favorable aspect of
affairs.  How much depends on these little books!  Methinks if anything
could draw out my whole strength, it would be the motives that now press
upon me.  Yet, after all, I must keep these considerations out of my
mind, because an external pressure always disturbs instead of assisting
me.


Salem, September 3d.--. . . . But really I should judge it to be twenty
years since I left Brook Farm; and I take this to be one proof that my
life there was an unnatural and unsuitable, and therefore an unreal one.
It already looks like a dream behind me.  The real Me was never an
associate of the community; there has been a spectral Appearance there,
sounding the horn at daybreak, and milking the cows, and hoeing potatoes,
and raking hay, toiling in the sun, and doing me the honor to assume my
name.  But this spectre was not myself.  Nevertheless, it is somewhat
remarkable that my hands have, during the past summer, grown very brown
and rough, insomuch that many people persist in believing that I, after
all, was the aforesaid spectral horn-sounder, cow-milker, potato-hoer,
and hay-raker.  But such people do not know a reality from a shadow.
Enough of nonsense.  I know not exactly how soon I shall return to the
farm.  Perhaps not sooner than a fortnight, from to-morrow.


Salem, September 14th.--. . . . Master Cheever is a very good subject for
a sketch, especially if he be portrayed in the very act of executing
judgment on an evildoer.  The little urchin may be laid across his knee,
and his arms and legs, and whole person indeed, should be flying all
abroad, in an agony of nervous excitement and corporeal smart.  The
Master, on the other hand, must be calm, rigid, without anger or pity,
the very personification of that immitigable law whereby suffering
follows sin.  Meantime the lion's head should have a sort of sly twist on
one side of its mouth, and a wink of one eye, in order to give the
impression that, after all, the crime and the punishment are neither of
them the most serious things in the world.  I could draw the sketch
myself, if I had but the use of ------'s magic fingers.

Then the Acadians will do very well for the second sketch.  They might be
represented as just landing on the wharf; or as presenting themselves
before Governor Shirley, seated in the great chair.  Another subject
might be old Cotton Mather, venerable in a three-cornered hat and other
antique attire, walking the streets of Boston, and lifting up his hands
to bless the people, while they all revile him.  An old dame should be
seen, flinging water, or emptying some vials of medicine on his head from
the latticed window of an old-fashioned house; and all around must be
tokens of pestilence and mourning,--as a coffin borne along,--a woman or
children weeping on a doorstep.  Can the tolling of the Old South bell be
painted?

If not this, then the military council, holden at Boston by the Earl of
Loudon and other captains and governors, might be taken, his lordship in
the great chair, an old-fashioned, military figure, with a star on his
breast.  Some of Louis XV.'s commanders will give the costume.  On the
table, and scattered about the room, must be symbols of warfare,--swords,
pistols, plumed hats, a drum, trumpet, and rolled-up banner in one leap.
It were not amiss to introduce the armed figure of an Indian chief, as
taking part in the council,--or standing apart from the English, erect
and stern.

Now for Liberty Tree.  There is an engraving of that famous vegetable in
Snow's History of Boston.  If represented, I see not what scene can be
beneath it, save poor Mr. Oliver, taking the oath.  He must have on a
bag-wig, ruffled sleeves, embroidered coat, and all such ornaments,
because he is the representative of aristocracy and an artificial system.
The people may be as rough and wild as the fancy can make them;
nevertheless, there must be one or two grave, puritanical figures in the
midst.  Such an one might sit in the great chair, and be an emblem of
that stern, considerate spirit which brought about the Revolution.  But
this would be a hard subject.

But what a dolt am I to obtrude my counsel. . . .


September 16th.--. . . . I do not very well recollect Monsieur du Miroir,
but, as to Mrs. Bullfrog, I give her up to the severest reprehension.
The story was written as a mere experiment in that style; it did not come
from any depth within me,--neither my heart nor mind had anything to do
with it.  I recollect that the Man of Adamant seemed a fine idea to nee
when I looked at it prophetically; but I failed in giving shape and
substance to the vision which I saw.  I don't think it can be very
good. . . .

I cannot believe all these stories about ------, because such a rascal
never could be sustained and countenanced by respectable men.  I take him
to be neither better nor worse than the average of his tribe.  However, I
intend to have all my copyrights taken out in my own name; and, if he
cheat me once, I will have nothing more to do with him, but will
straightway be cheated by some other publisher,--that being, of course,
the only alternative.

Governor Shirley's young French wife might be the subject of one of the
cuts.  She should sit in the great chair,--perhaps with a dressing-glass
before her,--and arrayed in all manner of fantastic finery, and with an
outre French air, while the old Governor is leaning fondly over her, and
a puritanic councillor or two are manifesting their disgust in the
background.  A <DW64> footman and a French waiting-maid might be in
attendance.

In Liberty Tree might be a vignette, representing the chair in a very
shattered, battered, and forlorn condition, after it had been ejected
from Hutchinson's house.  This would serve to impress the reader with the
woful vicissitudes of sublunary things. . . .

Did you ever behold such a vile scribble as I write since I became a
farmer?  My chirography always was abominable, but now it is outrageous.


Brook Farm, September 22d, 1841.--. . . . Here I am again, slowly
adapting myself to the life of this queer community, whence I seem to
have been absent half a lifetime, so utterly have I grown apart from the
spirit, and manners of the place. . . . I was most kindly received; and
the fields and woods looked very pleasant in the bright sunshine of the
day before yesterday.  I have a friendlier disposition towards the farm,
now that I am no longer obliged to toil in its stubborn furrows.
Yesterday and to-day, however, the weather has been intolerable,--cold,
chill, sullen, so that it is impossible to be on kindly terms with Mother
Nature. . . .

I doubt whether I shall succeed in writing another volume of
Grandfather's Library while I remain here.  I have not the sense of
perfect seclusion which has always been essential to my power of
producing anything.  It is true, nobody intrudes into my room; but still
I cannot be quiet.  Nothing here is settled; everything is but beginning
to arrange itself, and though I would seem to have little to do with
aught beside my own thoughts, still I cannot but partake of the ferment
around me.  My mind will not be abstracted.  I must observe, and think,
and feel, and content myself with catching glimpses of things which may
be wrought out hereafter.  Perhaps it will be quite as well that I find
myself unable to set seriously about literary occupation for the present.
It will be good to have a longer interval between my labor of the body
and that of the mind.  I shall work to the better purpose after the
beginning of November.  Meantime I shall see these people and their
enterprise under a new point of view, and perhaps be able to determine
whether we have any call to cast in our lot among them.

          *     *     *     *     *     *

I do wish the weather would put off this sulky mood.  Had it not been for
the warmth and brightness of Monday, when I arrived here, I should have
supposed that all sunshine had left Brook Farm forever.  I have no
disposition to take long walks in such a state of the sky; nor have I any
buoyancy of spirit.  I am a very dull person just at this time.


September 25th.--. . . . One thing is certain.  I cannot and will not
spend the winter here.  The time would be absolutely thrown away so far
as regards any literary labor to be performed. . . .

The intrusion of an outward necessity into labors of the imagination and
intellect is, to me, very painful. . . .

I had rather a pleasant walk to a distant meadow a day or two ago, and we
found white and purple grapes in great abundance, ripe, and gushing with
rich, pure juice when the hand pressed the clusters.  Did you know what
treasures of wild grapes there are in this land?  If we dwell here, we
will make our own wine. . . .


September 27th.--. . . . Now, as to the affair with ------, I fully
confide in your opinion that he intends to make an unequal bargain with
poor, simple, innocent me,--never having doubted this myself.  But how is
he to accomplish it?  I am not, nor shall be, the least in his power,
whereas he is, to a certain extent, in mine.  He might announce his
projected Library, with me for the editor, in all the newspapers in the
universe; but still I could not be bound to become the editor, unless by
my own act; nor should I have the slightest scruple in refusing to be so,
at the last moment, if he persisted in treating me with injustice.  Then,
as for his printing Grandfather's Chair, I have the copyright in my own
hands, and could and would prevent the sale, or make him account to me
for the profits, in case of need.  Meantime he is making arrangements for
publishing the Library, contracting with other booksellers, and with
printers and engravers, and, with every step, making it more difficult
for himself to draw back.  I, on the other hand, do nothing which I
should not do if the affair with ------ were at an end; for, if I write a
book, it will be just as available for some other publisher as for him.
Instead of getting me into his power by this delay, he has trusted to my
ignorance and simplicity, and has put himself in my power.

He is not insensible of this.  At our last interview, he himself
introduced the subject of the bargain, and appeared desirous to close it.
But I was not prepared,--among other reasons, because I do not yet see
what materials I shall have for the republications in the Library; the
works that he has shown me being ill adapted for that purpose; and I wish
first to see some French and German books which he has sent for to New
York.  And, before concluding the bargain, I have promised George Hillard
to consult him, and let him do the business.  Is not this consummate
discretion? and am I not perfectly safe? . . . . I look at the matter
with perfect composure, and see all round my own position, and know that
it is impregnable.

          *     *     *     *     *     *

I was elected to two high offices last night,--viz. to be a trustee of
the Brook Farm estate, and Chairman of the Committee of Finance! . . . .
From the nature of my office, I shall have the chief direction of all the
money affairs of the community, the making of bargains, the supervision
of receipts and expenditures, etc., etc., etc. . . .

My accession to these august offices does not at all decide the question
of my remaining here permanently.  I told Mr. Ripley that I could not
spend the winter at the farm, and that it was quite uncertain whether I
returned in the spring. . . .

Take no part, I beseech you, in these magnetic miracles.  I am unwilling
that a power should be exercised on you of which we know neither the
origin nor consequence, and the phenomena of which seem rather calculated
to bewilder us than to teach us any truths about the present or future
state of being. . . . Supposing that the power arises from the
transfusion of one spirit into another, it seems to me that the
sacredness of an individual is violated by it; there would be an intruder
into the holy of holies. . . . I have no faith whatever, that people
are raised to the seventh heaven, or to any heaven at all, or that they
gain any insight into the mysteries of life beyond death by means of this
strange science.  Without distrusting that the phenomena have really
occurred, I think that they are to be accounted for as the result of a
material and physical, not of a spiritual, influence.  Opium has produced
many a brighter vision of heaven, I fancy, and just as susceptible of
proof as these.  They are dreams. . . . And what delusion can be more
lamentable and mischievous, than to mistake the physical and material for
the spiritual? what so miserable as to lose the soul's true, though
hidden knowledge and consciousness of heaven in the mist of an earth-born
vision?  If we would know what heaven is before we come thither, let us
retire into the depths of our own spirits, and we shall find it there
among holy thoughts and feelings; but let us not degrade high heaven
and its inhabitants into any such symbols and forms as Miss L------
describes; do not let an earthly effluence from Mrs. P------'s corporeal
system bewilder and perhaps contaminate something spiritual and sacred.
I should as soon think of seeking revelations of the future state in the
rottenness of the grave,--where so many do seek it. . . .

The view which I take of this matter is caused by no want of faith in
mysteries; but from a deep reverence of the soul, and of the mysteries
which it knows within itself, but never transmits to the earthly eye and
ear.  Keep the imagination sane,--that is one of the truest conditions of
communion with heaven.


Brook Farm, September 26th.--A walk this morning along the Needham road.
A clear, breezy morning, after nearly a week of cloudy and showery
weather.  The grass is much more fresh and vivid than it was last month,
and trees still retain much of their verdure, though here and there is a
shrub or a bough arrayed in scarlet and gold.  Along the road, in the
midst of a beaten track, I saw mushrooms or toadstools which had sprung
up probably during the night.

The houses in this vicinity are, many of them, quite antique, with long,
sloping roots, commencing at a few feet from the ground, and ending in a
lofty peak.  Some of them have huge old elms overshadowing the yard.  One
may see the family sleigh near the door, it having stood there all
through the summer sunshine, and perhaps with weeds sprouting through the
crevices of its bottom, the growth of the months since snow departed.
Old barns, patched and supported by timbers leaning against the sides,
and stained with the excrement of past ages.

In the forenoon I walked along the edge of the meadow towards Cow Island.
Large trees, almost a wood, principally of pine with the green
pasture-glades intermixed, and cattle feeding.  They cease grazing when
an intruder appears, and look at him with long and wary observation, then
bend their heads to the pasture again.  Where the firm ground of the
pasture ceases, the meadow begins, loose, spongy, yielding to the tread,
sometimes permitting the foot to sink into black mud, or perhaps over
ankles in water.  Cattle-paths, somewhat firmer than the general surface,
traverse the dense shrubbery which has overgrown the meadow.  This
shrubbery consists of small birch, elders, maples, and other trees, with
here and there white-pines of larger growth.  The whole is tangled and
wild and thick-set, so that it is necessary to part the nestling stems
and branches, and go crashing through.  There are creeping plants of
various sorts which clamber up the trees; and some of them have changed
color in the slight frosts which already have befallen these low grounds,
so that one sees a spiral wreath of scarlet leaves twining up to the top
of a green tree, intermingling its bright hues with their verdure, as if
all were of one piece.  Sometimes, instead of scarlet, the spiral wreath
is of a golden yellow.

Within the verge of the meadow, mostly near the firm shore of pasture
ground, I found several grapevines, hung with an abundance of large
purple grapes.  The vines had caught hold of maples and alders, and
climbed to the summit, curling round about and interwreathing their
twisted folds in so intimate a manner that it was not easy to tell the
parasite from the supporting tree or shrub.  Sometimes the same vine had
enveloped several shrubs, and caused a strange, tangled confusion,
converting all these poor plants to the purpose of its own support, and
hindering their growing to their own benefit and convenience.  The broad
vine-leaves, some of them yellow or yellowish-tinged, were seen
apparently growing on the same stems with the silver-mapled leaves, and
those of the other shrubs, thus married against their will by the
conjugal twine; and the purple clusters of grapes hung down from above
and in the midst so that one might "gather grapes," if not "of thorns,"
yet of as alien bushes.

One vine had ascended almost to the tip of a large white-pine, spreading
its leaves and hanging its purple clusters among all its boughs,--still
climbing and clambering, as if it would not be content till it had
crowned the very summit with a wreath of its own foliage and bunches of
grapes.  I mounted high into the tree, and ate the fruit there, while the
vine wreathed still higher into the depths above my head.  The grapes
were sour, being not yet fully ripe.  Some of them, however, were sweet
and pleasant.


September 27th.--A ride to Brighton yesterday morning, it being the day
of the weekly cattle-fair.  William Allen and myself went in a wagon,
carrying a calf to be sold at the fair.  The calf had not had his
breakfast, as his mother had preceded him to Brighton, and he kept
expressing his hunger and discomfort by loud, sonorous baas, especially
when we passed any cattle in the fields or in the road.  The cows,
grazing within hearing, expressed great interest, and some of them came
galloping to the roadside to behold the calf.  Little children, also, on
their way to school, stopped to laugh and point at poor little Bessie.
He was a prettily behaved urchin, and kept thrusting his hairy muzzle
between William and myself, apparently wishing to be stroked and patted.
It was an ugly thought that his confidence in human nature, and nature in
general, was to be so ill rewarded as by cutting his throat, and selling
him in quarters.  This, I suppose, has been his fate before now!

It was a beautiful morning, clear as crystal, with an invigorating, but
not disagreeable coolness.  The general aspect of the country was as
green as summer,--greener indeed than mid or latter summer,--and there
were occasional interminglings of the brilliant hues of autumn, which
made the scenery more beautiful, both visibly and in sentiment.  We saw
no absolutely mean nor poor-looking abodes along the road.  There were
warm and comfortable farm-houses, ancient, with the porch, the sloping
roof, the antique peak, the clustered chimney, of old times; and modern
cottages, smart and tasteful; and villas, with terraces before them, and
dense shade, and wooden urns on pillars, and other such tokens of
gentility.  Pleasant groves of oak and walnut, also, there were,
sometimes stretching along valleys, sometimes ascending a hill and
clothing it all round, so as to make it a great clump of verdure.
Frequently we passed people with cows, oxen, sheep, or pigs for Brighton
Fair.

On arriving at Brighton, we found the village thronged with people,
horses, and vehicles.  Probably there is no place in New England where
the character of an agricultural population may be so well studied.
Almost all the farmers within a reasonable distance make it a point, I
suppose, to attend Brighton Fair pretty frequently, if not on business,
yet as amateurs.  Then there are all the cattle-people and butchers who
supply the Boston market, and dealers from far and near; and every man
who has a cow or a yoke of oxen, whether to sell or buy, goes to Brighton
on Monday.  There were a thousand or two of cattle in the extensive pens
belonging to the tavern-keeper, besides many that were standing about.
One could hardly stir a step without running upon the horns of one
dilemma or another, in the shape of ox, cow, bull, or ram.  The yeomen
appeared to be more in their element than I have ever seen them anywhere
else, except, indeed, at labor,--more so than at musterings and such
gatherings of amusement.  And yet this was a sort of festal day, as well
as a day of business.  Most of the people were of a bulky make, with much
bone and muscle, and some good store of fat, as if they had lived on
flesh-diet; with mottled faces, too, hard and red, like those of persons
who adhered to the old fashion of spirit-drinking.  Great, round-paunched
country squires were there too, sitting under the porch of the tavern, or
waddling about, whip in hand, discussing the points of the cattle.  There
were also gentlemen-farmers, neatly, trimly, and fashionably dressed, in
handsome surtouts, and trousers strapped under their boots.  Yeomen, too,
in their black or blue Sunday suits, cut by country tailors, and
awkwardly worn.  Others (like myself) had on the blue stuff frocks which
they wear in the fields, the most comfortable garments that ever were
invented.  Country loafers were among the throng,--men who looked
wistfully at the liquors in the bar, and waited for some friend to invite
them to drink,--poor, shabby, out-at-elbowed devils.  Also, dandies from
the city, corseted and buckramed, who had come to see the humors of
Brighton Fair.  All these, and other varieties of mankind, either
thronged the spacious bar-room of the hotel, drinking, smoking, talking,
bargaining, or walked about among the cattle-pens, looking with knowing
eyes at the horned people.  The owners of the cattle stood near at hand,
waiting for offers.  There was something indescribable in their aspect,
that showed them to be the owners, though they mixed among the crowd.
The cattle, brought from a hundred separate farms, or rather from a
thousand, seemed to agree very well together, not quarrelling in the
least.  They almost all had a history, no doubt, if they could but have
told it.  The cows had each given her milk to support families,--had
roamed the pastures, and come home to the barn-yard, had been looked upon
as a sort of member of the domestic circle, and was known by a name, as
Brindle or Cherry.  The oxen, with their necks bent by the heavy yoke,
had toiled in the plough-field and in haying-time for many years, and
knew their master's stall as well as the master himself knew his own
table.  Even the young steers and the little calves had something of
domestic sacredness about them; for children had watched their growth,
and petted them, and played with them.  And here they all were, old and
young, gathered from their thousand homes to Brighton Fair; whence the
great chance was that they would go to the slaughter-house, and thence be
transmitted, in sirloins, joints, and such pieces, to the tables of the
Boston folk.

William Allen had come to buy four little pigs to take the places of four
who have now grown large at our farm, and are to be fatted and killed
within a few weeks.  There were several hundreds, in pens appropriated to
their use, grunting discordantly, and apparently in no very good humor
with their companions or the world at large.  Most or many of these pigs
had been imported from the State of New York.  The drovers set out with a
large number, and peddle them along the road till they arrive at Brighton
with the remainder.  William selected four, and bought them at five cents
per pound.  These poor little porkers were forthwith seized by the tails,
their legs tied, and they thrown into our wagon, where they kept up a
continual grunt and squeal till we got home.  Two of them were yellowish,
or light gold-color, the other two were black and white speckled; and all
four of very piggish aspect and deportment.  One of them snapped at
William's finger most spitefully, and bit it to the bone.

All the scene of the Fair was very characteristic and peculiar,--cheerful
and lively, too, in the bright, warm sun.  I must see it again; for it
ought to be studied.


September 28th.--A picnic party in the woods, yesterday, in honor of
little Frank Dana's birthday, he being six years old.  I strolled out,
after dinner, with Mr. Bradford, and in a lonesome glade we met the
apparition of an Indian chief, dressed in appropriate costume of blanket,
feathers, and paint, and armed with a musket.  Almost at the same time, a
young gypsy fortune-teller came from among the trees, and proposed to
tell my fortune.  While she was doing this, the goddess Diana let fly an
arrow, and hit me smartly in the hand.  The fortune-teller and goddess
were in fine contrast, Diana being a blonde, fair, quiet, with a moderate
composure; and the gypsy (O. G.) a bright, vivacious, dark-haired,
rich-complexioned damsel,--both of them very pretty, at least pretty
enough to make fifteen years enchanting.  Accompanied by these denizens
of the wild wood, we went onward, and came to a company of fantastic
figures, arranged in a ring for a dance or a game.  There was a Swiss
girl, an Indian squaw, a <DW64> of the Jim Crow order, one or two
foresters, and several people in Christian attire, besides children of
all ages.  Then followed childish games, in which the grown people took
part with mirth enough,--while I, whose nature it is to be a mere
spectator both of sport and serious business, lay under the trees and
looked on.  Meanwhile, Mr. Emerson and Miss Fuller, who arrived an hour
or two before, came forth into the little glade where we were assembled.
Here followed much talk.  The ceremonies of the day concluded with a cold
collation of cakes and fruit.  All was pleasant enough,--an excellent
piece of work,--"would 't were done!"  It has left a fantastic impression
on my memory, this intermingling of wild and fabulous characters with
real and homely ones, in the secluded nook of the woods.  I remember
them, with the sunlight breaking through overshadowing branches, and they
appearing and disappearing confusedly,--perhaps starting out of the
earth; as if the every-day laws of nature were suspended for this
particular occasion.  There were the children, too, laughing and sporting
about, as if they were at home among such strange shapes,--and anon
bursting into loud uproar of lamentation, when the rude gambols of the
merry archers chanced to overturn them.  And apart, with a shrewd, Yankee
observation of the scene, stands our friend Orange, a thick-set, sturdy
figure, enjoying the fun well enough, yet rather laughing with a
perception of its nonsensicalness than at all entering into the spirit of
the thing.

This morning I have been helping to gather apples.  The principal farm
labors at this time are ploughing for winter rye, and breaking up the
greensward for next year's crop of potatoes, gathering squashes, and not
much else, except such year-round employments as milking.  The crop of
rye, to be sure, is in process of being thrashed, at odd intervals.

I ought to have mentioned among the diverse and incongruous growths of
the picnic party our two Spanish boys from Manilla;--Lucas, with his
heavy features and almost mulatto complexion; and Jose, slighter, with
rather a feminine face,--not a gay, girlish one, but grave, reserved,
eying you sometimes with an earnest but secret expression, and causing
you to question what sort of person he is.


Friday, October 1st.--I have been looking at our four swine,--not of the
last lot, but those in process of fattening.  They lie among the clean
rye straw in the sty, nestling close together; for they seem to be beasts
sensitive to the cold, and this is a clear, bright, crystal morning, with
a cool northwest-wind.  So there lie these four black swine, as deep
among the straw as they can burrow, the very symbols of slothful ease and
sensuous comfort.  They seem to be actually oppressed and overburdened
with comfort.  They are quick to notice any one's approach, and utter a
low grunt thereupon,--not drawing a breath for that particular purpose,
but grunting with their ordinary breath,--at the same time turning an
observant, though dull and sluggish eye upon the visitor.  They seem to
be involved and buried in their own corporeal substance, and to look
dimly forth at the outer world.  They breathe not easily, and yet not
with difficulty nor discomfort; for the very unreadiness and oppression
with which their breath cones appears to make them sensible of the deep
sensual satisfaction which they feel.  Swill, the remnant of their last
meal, remains in the trough, denoting that their food is more abundant
than even a hog can demand.  Anon they fall asleep, drawing short and
heavy breaths, which heave their huge sides up and down; but at the
slightest noise they sluggishly unclose their eyes, and give another
gentle grunt.  They also grunt among themselves, without any external
cause; but merely to express their swinish sympathy.  I suppose it is the
knowledge that these four grunters are doomed to die within two or three
weeks that gives them a sort of awfulness in my conception.  It makes me
contrast their present gross substance of fleshly life with the
nothingness speedily to come.  Meantime the four newly bought pigs are
running about the cow-yard, lean, active, shrewd, investigating
everything, as their nature is.  When I throw an apple among them, they
scramble with one another for the prize, and the successful one scampers
away to eat it at leisure.  They thrust their snouts into the mud, and
pick a grain of corn out of the rubbish.  Nothing within their sphere do
they leave unexamined, grunting all the time with infinite variety of
expression.  Their language is the most copious of that of any quadruped,
and, indeed, there is something deeply and indefinably interesting in the
swinish race.  They appear the more a mystery the longer one gazes at
them.  It seems as if there were an important meaning to them, if one
could but find it out.  One interesting trait in them is their perfect
independence of character.  They care not for man, and will not adapt
themselves to his notions, as other beasts do; but are true to
themselves, and act out their hoggish nature.


October 7th.--Since Saturday last (it being now Thursday), I have been in
Boston and Salem, and there has been a violent storm and rain during the
whole time.  This morning shone as bright as if it meant to make up for
all the dismalness of the past days.  Our brook, which in the summer was
no longer a running stream, but stood in pools along its pebbly course,
is now full from one grassy verge to the other, and hurries along with a
murmuring rush.  It will continue to swell, I suppose, and in the winter
and spring it will flood all the broad meadows through which it flows.

I have taken a long walk this forenoon along the Needham road, and across
the bridge, thence pursuing a cross-road through the woods, parallel with
the river, which I crossed again at Dedham.  Most of the road lay through
a growth of young oaks principally.  They still retain their verdure,
though, looking closely in among them, one perceives the broken sunshine
falling on a few sere or bright-hued tufts of shrubbery.  In low, marshy
spots, on the verge of the meadows or along the river-side, there is a
much more marked autumnal change.  Whole ranges of bushes are there
painted with many variegated lines, not of the brightest tint, but of a
sober cheerfulness.  I suppose this is owing more to the late rains than
to the frost; for a heavy rain changes the foliage somewhat at this
season.  The first marked frost was seen last Saturday morning.  Soon
after sunrise it lay, white as snow, over all the grass, and on the tops
of the fences, and in the yard, on the heap of firewood.  On Sunday, I
think, there was a fall of snow, which, however, did not lie on the
ground a moment.

There is no season when such pleasant and sunny spots may be lighted on,
and produce so pleasant an effect on the feelings, as now in October.
The sunshine is peculiarly genial; and in sheltered places, as on the
side of a bank, or of a barn or house, one becomes acquainted and
friendly with the sunshine.  It seems to be of a kindly and homely
nature.  And the green grass, strewn with a few withered leaves, looks
the more green and beautiful for them.  In summer or spring, Nature is
farther from one's sympathies.


October 8th.--Another gloomy day, lowering with portents of rain close at
hand.  I have walked up into the pastures this morning, and looked about
me a little.  The woods present a very diversified appearance just now,
with perhaps more varieties of tint than they are destined to wear at a
somewhat later period.  There are some strong yellow hues, and some deep
red; there are innumerable shades of green, some few having the depth of
summer; others, partially changed towards yellow, look freshly verdant
with the delicate tinge of early summer or of May.  Then there is the
solemn and dark green of the pines.  The effect is, that every tree in
the wood and every bush among the shrubbery has a separate existence,
since, confusedly intermingled, each wears its peculiar color, instead of
being lost in the universal emerald of summer.  And yet there is a
oneness of effect likewise, when we choose to look at a whole sweep of
woodland instead of analyzing its component trees.  Scattered over the
pasture, which the late rains have kept tolerably green, there are spots
or islands of dusky red,--a deep, substantial line, very well fit to be
close to the ground,--while the yellow, and light, fantastic shades of
green soar upward to the sky.  These red spots are the blueberry and
whortleberry bushes.  The sweetfern is changed mostly to russet, but
still retains its wild and delightful fragrance when pressed in the hand.
Wild China-asters are scattered about, but beginning to wither.  A little
while ago, mushrooms or toadstools were very numerous along the
wood-paths and by the roadsides, especially after rain.  Some were of
spotless white, some yellow, and some scarlet.  They are always mysteries
and objects of interest to me, springing as they do so suddenly from no
root or seed, and growing one wonders why.  I think, too, that some
varieties are pretty objects, little fairy tables, centre-tables,
standing on one leg.  But their growth appears to be checked now, and
they are of a brown tint and decayed.

The farm business to-day is to dig potatoes.  I worked a little at it.
The process is to grasp all the stems of a hill and pull them up.  A
great many of the potatoes are thus pulled, clinging to the stems and to
one another in curious shapes,--long red things, and little round ones,
imbedded in the earth which clings to the roots.  These being plucked
off, the rest of the potatoes are dug out of the hill with a hoe, the
tops being flung into a heap for the cow-yard.  On my way home, I paused
to inspect the squash-field.  Some of the squashes lay in heaps as they
were gathered, presenting much variety of shape and hue,--as golden
yellow, like great lumps of gold, dark green, striped and variegated; and
some were round, and some lay curling their long necks, nestling, as it
were, and seeming as if they had life.

In my walk yesterday forenoon I passed an old house which seemed
to be quite deserted.  It was a two-story, wooden house, dark and
weather-beaten.  The front windows, some of them, were shattered and
open, and others were boarded up.  Trees and shrubbery were growing
neglected, so as quite to block up the lower part.  There was an aged
barn near at hand, so ruinous that it had been necessary to prop it up.
There were two old carts, both of which had lost a wheel.  Everything was
in keeping.  At first I supposed that there would be no inhabitants in
such a dilapidated place; but, passing on, I looked back, and saw a
decrepit and infirm old man at the angle of the house, its fit occupant.
The grass, however, was very green and beautiful around this dwelling,
and, the sunshine falling brightly on it, the whole effect was cheerful
and pleasant.  It seemed as if the world was so glad that this desolate
old place, where there was never to be any more hope and happiness, could
not at all lessen the general effect of joy.

I found a small turtle by the roadside, where he had crept to warm
himself in the genial sunshine.  He had a sable back, and underneath his
shell was yellow, and at the edges bright scarlet.  His head, tail, and
claws were striped yellow, black, and red.  He withdrew himself as far as
he possibly could into his shell, and absolutely refused to peep out,
even when I put him into the water.  Finally, I threw him into a deep
pool and left him.  These mailed gentlemen, from the size of a foot or
more down to an inch, were very numerous in the spring; and now the
smaller kind appear again.


Saturday, October 9th.--Still dismal weather.  Our household, being
composed in great measure of children and young people, is generally a
cheerful one enough, even in gloomy weather.  For a week past we have
been especially gladdened with a little seamstress from Boston, about
seventeen years old; but of such a petite figure, that, at first view,
one would take her to be hardly in her teens.  She is very vivacious and
smart, laughing and singing and talking all the time,--talking sensibly;
but still taking the view of matters that a city girl naturally would.
If she were larger than she is, and of less pleasing aspect, I think she
might be intolerable; but being so small, and with a fair skin, and as
healthy as a wild-flower, she is really very agreeable; and to look at
her face is like being shone upon by a ray of the sun.  She never walks,
but bounds and dances along, and this motion, in her diminutive person,
does not give the idea of violence.  It is like a bird, hopping from twig
to twig, and chirping merrily all the time.  Sometimes she is rather
vulgar, but even that works well enough into her character, and accords
with it.  On continued observation, one discovers that she is not a
little girl, but really a little woman, with all the prerogatives and
liabilities of a woman.  This gives a new aspect to her, while the
girlish impression still remains, and is strangely combined with the
sense that this frolicsome maiden has the material for the sober bearing
of a wife.  She romps with the boys, runs races with them in the yard,
and up and down the stairs, and is heard scolding laughingly at their
rough play.  She asks William Allen to place her "on top of that horse,"
whereupon he puts his large brown hands about her waist, and, swinging
her to and fro, lifts her on horseback.  William threatens to rivet two
horseshoes round her neck, for having clambered, with the other girls and
boys, upon a load of hay, whereby the said load lost its balance and slid
off the cart.  She strings the seed-berries of roses together, making a
scarlet necklace of them, which she fastens about her throat.  She
gathers flowers of everlasting to wear in her bonnet, arranging them with
the skill of a dress-maker.  In the evening, she sits singing by the
hour, with the musical part of the establishment, often breaking into
laughter, whereto she is incited by the tricks of the boys.  The last
thing one hears of her, she is tripping up stairs to bed, talking
lightsomely or warbling; and one meets her in the morning, the very image
of bright morn itself, smiling briskly at you, so that one takes her for
a promise of cheerfulness through the day.  Be it said, with all the
rest, that there is a perfect maiden modesty in her deportment.  She has
just gone away, and the last I saw of her was her vivacious face peeping
through the curtain of the cariole, and nodding a gay farewell to the
family, who were shouting their adieus at the door.  With her other
merits, she is an excellent daughter, and supports her mother by the
labor of her hands.  It would be difficult to conceive beforehand how
much can be added to the enjoyment of a household by mere sunniness of
temper and liveliness of disposition; for her intellect is very ordinary,
and she never says anything worth hearing, or even laughing at, in
itself.  But she herself is an expression well worth studying.


Brook Farm, October 9th.--A walk this afternoon to Cow Island.  The
clouds had broken away towards noon, and let forth a few sunbeams, and
more and more blue sky ventured to appear, till at last it was really
warm and sunny,--indeed, rather too warm in the sheltered hollows, though
it is delightful to be too warm now, after so much stormy chillness.  O
the beauty of grassy <DW72>s, and the hollow ways of paths winding between
hills, and the intervals between the road and wood-lots, where Summer
lingers and sits down, strewing dandelions of gold, and blue asters, as
her parting gifts and memorials!  I went to a grapevine, which I have
already visited several times, and found some clusters of grapes still
remaining, and now perfectly ripe.  Coming within view of the river, I
saw several wild ducks under the shadow of the opposite shore, which was
high, and covered with a grove of pines.  I should not have discovered
the ducks had they not risen and skimmed the surface of the glassy
stream, breaking its dark water with a bright streak, and, sweeping
round, gradually rose high enough to fly away.  I likewise started a
partridge just within the verge of the woods, and in another place a
large squirrel ran across the wood-path from one shelter of trees to the
other.  Small birds, in flocks, were flitting about the fields, seeking
and finding I know not what sort of food.  There were little fish, also,
darting in shoals through the pools and depths of the brooks, which are
now replenished to their brims, and rush towards the river with a swift,
amber- current.

Cow Island is not an island,--at least, at this season,--though, I
believe, in the time of freshets, the marshy Charles floods the meadows
all round about it, and extends across its communication with the
mainland.  The path to it is a very secluded one, threading a wood of
pines, and just wide enough to admit the loads of meadow hay which are
drawn from the splashy shore of the river.  The island has a growth of
stately pines, with tall and ponderous stems, standing at distance enough
to admit the eve to travel far among them; and, as there is no
underbrush, the effect is somewhat like looking among the pillars of a
church.

I returned home by the high-road.  On my right, separated from the road
by a level field, perhaps fifty yards across, was a range of young
forest-trees, dressed in their garb of autumnal glory.  The sun shone
directly upon them; and sunlight is like the breath of life to the pomp
of autumn.  In its absence, one doubts whether there be any truth in what
poets have told about the splendor of an American autumn; but when this
charm is added, one feels that the effect is beyond description.  As I
beheld it to-day, there was nothing dazzling; it was gentle and mild,
though brilliant and diversified, and had a most quiet and pensive
influence.  And yet there were some trees that seemed really made of
sunshine, and others were of a sunny red, and the whole picture was
painted with but little relief of darksome lines, only a few evergreens.
But there was nothing inharmonious; and, on closer examination, it
appeared that all the tints had a relationship among themselves.  And
this, I suppose, is the reason that, while nature seems to scatter them
so carelessly, they still never shock the beholder by their contrasts,
nor disturb, but only soothe.  The brilliant scarlet and the brilliant
yellow are different lines of the maple-leaves, and the first changes
into the last.  I saw one maple-tree, its centre yellow as gold, set in a
framework of red.  The native poplars have different shades of green,
verging towards yellow, and are very cheerful in the sunshine.  Most of
the oak-leaves have still the deep verdure of summer; but where a change
has taken place, it is into a russet-red, warm, but sober.  These colors,
infinitely varied by the progress which different trees have made in
their decay, constitute almost the whole glory of autumnal woods; but it
is impossible to conceive how much is done with such scanty materials.
In my whole walk I saw only one man, and he was at a distance, in the
obscurity of the trees.  He had a horse and a wagon, and was getting a
load of dry brushwood.


Sunday, October 10th.--I visited my grapevine this afternoon, and ate the
last of its clusters.  This vine climbs around a young maple-tree, which
has now assumed the yellow leaf.  The leaves of the vine are more decayed
than those of the maple.  Thence to Cow Island, a solemn and thoughtful
walk.  Returned by another path of the width of a wagon, passing through
a grove of hard wood, the lightsome hues of which make the walk more
cheerful than among the pines.  The roots of oaks emerged from the soil,
and contorted themselves across the path.  The sunlight, also, broke
across in spots, and otherwheres the shadow was deep; but still there was
intermingling enough of bright hues to keep off the gloom from the whole
path.

Brooks and pools have a peculiar aspect at this season.  One knows that
the water must be cold, and one shivers a little at the sight of it; and
yet the grass about the pool may be of the deepest green, and the sun may
be shining into it.  The withered leaves which overhanging trees shed
upon its surface contribute much to the effect.

Insects have mostly vanished in the fields and woods.  I hear locusts
yet, singing in the sunny hours, and crickets have not yet finished their
song.  Once in a while I see a caterpillar,--this afternoon, for
instance, a red, hairy one, with black head and tail.  They do not appear
to be active, and it makes one rather melancholy to look at them.


Tuesday, October 12th.--The cawing of the crow resounds among the woods.
A sentinel is aware of your approach a great way off, and gives the alarm
to his comrades loudly and eagerly,--Caw, caw, caw!  Immediately the
whole conclave replies, and you behold them rising above the trees,
flapping darkly, and winging their way to deeper solitudes.  Sometimes,
however, they remain till you come near enough to discern their sable
gravity of aspect, each occupying a separate bough, or perhaps the
blasted tip-top of a pine.  As you approach, one after another, with loud
cawing, flaps his wings and throws himself upon the air.

There is hardly a more striking feature in the landscape nowadays than
the red patches of blueberry and whortleberry bushes, as seen on a
sloping hillside, like islands among the grass, with trees growing in
them; or crowning the summit of a bare, brown hill with their somewhat
russet liveliness; or circling round the base of an earth-imbedded rock.
At a distance, this hue, clothing spots and patches of the earth, looks
more like a picture than anything else,--yet such a picture as I never
saw painted.

The oaks are now beginning to look sere, and their leaves have withered
borders.  It is pleasant to notice the wide circle of greener grass
beneath the circumference of an overshadowing oak.  Passing an orchard,
one hears an uneasy rustling in the trees, and not as if they were
struggling with the wind.  Scattered about are barrels to contain the
gathered apples; and perhaps a great heap of golden or scarlet apples is
collected in one place.


Wednesday, October 13th.--A good view, from an upland swell of our
pasture, across the valley of the river Charles.  There is the meadow, as
level as a floor, and carpeted with green, perhaps two miles from the
rising ground on this side of the river to that on the opposite side.
The stream winds through the midst of the flat space, without any banks
at all; for it fills its bed almost to the brim, and bathes the meadow
grass on either side.  A tuft of shrubbery, at broken intervals, is
scattered along its border; and thus it meanders sluggishly along,
without other life than what it gains from gleaming in the sun.  Now,
into the broad, smooth meadow, as into a lake, capes and headlands put
themselves forth, and shores of firm woodland border it, covered with
variegated foliage, making the contrast so much the stronger of their
height and rough outline with the even spread of the plain.  And beyond,
and far away, rises a long, gradual swell of country, covered with an
apparently dense growth of foliage for miles, till the horizon terminates
it; and here and there is a house, or perhaps two, among the contiguity
of trees.  Everywhere the trees wear their autumnal dress, so that the
whole landscape is red, russet, orange, and yellow, blending in the
distance into a rich tint of brown-orange, or nearly that,--except the
green expanse so definitely hemmed in by the higher ground.

I took a long walk this morning, going first nearly to Newton, thence
nearly to Brighton, thence to Jamaica Plain, and thence home.  It was a
fine morning, with a northwest-wind; cool when facing the wind, but warm
and most genially pleasant in sheltered spots; and warm enough everywhere
while I was in motion.  I traversed most of the by-ways which offered
themselves to me; and, passing through one in which there was a double
line of grass between the wheel-tracks and that of the horses' feet, I
came to where had once stood a farm-house, which appeared to have been
recently torn down.  Most of the old timber and boards had been carted
away; a pile of it, however, remained.  The cellar of the house was
uncovered, and beside it stood the base and middle height of the chimney.
The oven, in which household bread had been baked for daily food, and
puddings and cake and jolly pumpkin-pies for festivals, opened its month,
being deprived of its iron door.  The fireplace was close at hand.  All
round the site of the house was a pleasant, sunny, green space, with old
fruit-trees in pretty fair condition, though aged.  There was a barn,
also aged, but in decent repair; and a ruinous shed, on the corner of
which was nailed a boy's windmill, where it had probably been turning and
clattering for years together, till now it was black with time and
weather-stain.  It was broken, but still it went round whenever the wind
stirred.  The spot was entirely secluded, there being no other house
within a mile or two.

No language can give an idea of the beauty and glory of the trees, just
at this moment.  It would be easy, by a process of word-daubing, to set
down a confused group of gorgeous colors, like a bunch of tangled skeins
of bright silk; but there is nothing of the reality in the glare which
would thus be produced.  And yet the splendor both of individual clusters
and of whole scenes is unsurpassable.  The oaks are now far advanced in
their change of hue; and, in certain positions relatively to the sun,
they light up and gleam with a most magnificent deep gold, varying
according as portions of the foliage are in shadow or sunlight.  On the
sides which receive the direct rays, the effect is altogether rich; and
in other points of view it is equally beautiful, if less brilliant.  This
color of the oak is more superb than the lighter yellow of the maples and
walnuts.  The whole landscape is now covered with this indescribable
pomp; it is discerned on the uplands afar off; and Blue Hill in Milton,
at the distance of several miles, actually glistens with rich, dark
light,--no, not glistens, nor gleams,--but perhaps to say glows subduedly
will be a truer expression for it.

Met few people this morning; a grown girl, in company with a little boy,
gathering barberries in a secluded lane; a portly, autumnal gentleman,
wrapped in a greatcoat, who asked the way to Mr. Joseph Goddard's; and a
fish-cart from the city, the driver of which sounded his horn along the
lonesome way.


Monday, October 18th.--There has been a succession of days which were
cold and bright in the forenoon, and gray, sullen, and chill towards
night.  The woods have now taken a soberer tint than they wore at my last
date.  Many of the shrubs which looked brightest a little while ago are
now wholly bare of leaves.  The oaks have generally a russet-brown shade,
although some of them are still green, as are likewise other scattered
trees in the forests.  The bright yellow and the rich scarlet are no more
to be seen.  Scarcely any of them will now bear a close examination; for
this shows them to be rugged, wilted, and of faded, frost-bitten hue; but
at a distance, and in the mass, and enlivened by the sun, they have still
somewhat of the varied splendor which distinguished them a week ago.  It
is wonderful what a difference the sunshine makes; it is like varnish,
bringing out the hidden veins in a piece of rich wood.  In the cold, gray
atmosphere, such as that of most of our afternoons now, the landscape
lies dark,--brown, and in a much deeper shadow than if it were clothed in
green.  But, perchance, a gleam of sun falls on a certain spot of distant
shrubbery or woodland, and we see it brighten with many lines, standing
forth prominently from the dimness around it.  The sunlight gradually
spreads, and the whole sombre scene is changed to a motley picture,--the
sun bringing out many shades of color, and converting its gloom to an
almost laughing cheerfulness.  At such times I almost doubt whether the
foliage has lost any of its brilliancy.  But the clouds intercept the sun
again, and lo! old Autumn appears, clad in his cloak of russet-brown.

Beautiful now, while the general landscape lies in shadow, looks the
summit of a distant hill (say a mile off), with the sunshine brightening
the trees that cover it.  It is noticeable that the outlines of hills,
and the whole bulk of them at the distance of several miles, become
stronger, denser, and more substantial in this autumn atmosphere and in
these autumnal tints than in summer.  Then they looked blue, misty, and
dim.  Now they show their great humpbacks more plainly, as if they had
drawn nearer to us.

A waste of shrubbery and small trees, such as overruns the borders of the
meadows for miles together, looks much more rugged, wild, and savage in
its present brown color than when clad in green.

I passed through a very pleasant wood-path yesterday, quite shut in and
sheltered by trees that had not thrown off their yellow robes.  The sun
shone strongly in among them, and quite kindled them; so that the path
was brighter for their shade than if it had been quite exposed to the
sun.

In the village graveyard, which lies contiguous to the street, I saw a
man digging a grave, and one inhabitant after another turned aside from
his way to look into the grave and talk with the digger.  I heard him
laugh, with the traditionary mirthfulness of men of that occupation.

In the hollow of the woods, yesterday afternoon, I lay a long while
watching a squirrel, who was capering about among the trees over my head
(oaks and white-pines, so close together that their branches
intermingled).  The squirrel seemed not to approve of my presence,
for he frequently uttered a sharp, quick, angry noise, like that of a
scissors-grinder's wheel.  Sometimes I could see him sitting on an
impending bough, with his tail over his hack, looking down pryingly upon
me.  It seems to be a natural posture with him, to sit on his hind legs,
holding up his fore paws.  Anon, with a peculiarly quick start, he would
scramble along the branch, and be lost to sight in another part of the
tree, whence his shrill chatter would again be heard.  Then I would see
him rapidly descending the trunk, and running along the ground; and a
moment afterwards, casting my eye upward, I beheld him flitting like a
bird among the high limbs at the summit, directly above me.  Afterwards,
he apparently became accustomed to my society, and set about some
business of his own.  He came down to the ground, took up a piece of a
decayed bough (a heavy burden for such a small personage), and, with this
in his mouth, again climbed up and passed from the branches of one tree
to those of another, and thus onward and onward till he went out of
sight.  Shortly afterwards he returned for another burden, and this he
repeated several times.  I suppose he was building a nest,--at least, I
know not what else could have been his object.  Never was there such an
active, cheerful, choleric, continually-in-motion fellow as this little
red squirrel, talking to himself, chattering at me, and as sociable in
his own person as if he had half a dozen companions, instead of being
alone in the lonesome wood.  Indeed, he flitted about so quickly, and
showed himself in different places so suddenly, that I was in some doubt
whether there were not two or three of them.

I must mention again the very beautiful effect produced by the masses of
berry-bushes, lying like scarlet islands in the midst of withered
pasture-ground, or crowning the tops of barren hills.  Their hue, at a
distance, is lustrous scarlet, although it does not look nearly as bright
and gorgeous when examined close at hand.  But at a proper distance it is
a beautiful fringe on Autumn's petticoat.


Friday, October 22d.--A continued succession of unpleasant, Novembery
days, and autumn has made rapid progress in the work of decay.  It is now
somewhat of a rare good fortune to find a verdant, grassy spot, on some
<DW72>, or in a dell; and even such seldom-seen oases are bestrewn with
dried brown leaves,--which, however, methinks, make the short, fresh
grass look greener around them.  Dry leaves are now plentiful everywhere,
save where there are none but pine-trees.  They rustle beneath the tread,
and there is nothing more autumnal than that sound.  Nevertheless, in a
walk this afternoon, I have seen two oaks which retained almost the
greenness of summer.  They grew close to the huge Pulpit Rock, so that
portions of their trunks appeared to grasp the rough surface; and they
were rooted beneath it, and, ascending high into the air, overshadowed
the gray crag with verdure.  Other oaks, here and there, have a few green
leaves or boughs among their rustling and rugged shade.

Yet, dreary as the woods are in a bleak, sullen day, there is a very
peculiar sense of warmth and a sort of richness of effect in the <DW72> of
a bank and in sheltered spots, where bright sunshine falls, and the brown
oaken foliage is gladdened by it.  There is then a feeling of comfort,
and consequently of heart-warmth, which cannot be experienced in summer.

I walked this afternoon along a pleasant wood-path, gently winding, so
that but little of it could be seen at a time, and going up and down
small mounds, now plunging into a denser shadow and now emerging
from it.  Part of the way it was strewn with the dusky, yellow leaves of
white-pines,--the cast-off garments of last year; part of the way with
green grass, close-cropped, and very fresh for the season.  Sometimes the
trees met across it; sometimes it was bordered on one side by an old
rail-fence of moss-grown cedar, with bushes sprouting beneath it, and
thrusting their branches through it; sometimes by a stone-wall of unknown
antiquity, older than the wood it closed in.  A stone-wall, when
shrubbery has grown around it, and thrust its roots beneath it, becomes a
very pleasant and meditative object.  It does not belong too evidently to
man, having been built so long ago.  It seems a part of nature.

Yesterday I found two mushrooms in the woods, probably of the preceding
night's growth.  Also I saw a mosquito, frost-pinched, and so wretched
that I felt avenged for all the injuries which his tribe inflicted upon
me last summer, and so did not molest this lone survivor.

Walnuts in their green rinds are falling from the trees, and so are
chestnut-burrs.

I found a maple-leaf to-day, yellow all over, except its extremest point,
which was bright scarlet.  It looked as if a drop of blood were hanging
from it.  The first change of the maple-leaf is to scarlet; the next, to
yellow.  Then it withers, wilts, and drops off, as most of them have
already done.


October 27th.--Fringed gentians,--I found the last, probably, that will
be seen this year, growing on the margin of the brook.


1842.--Some man of powerful character to command a person, morally
subjected to him, to perform some act.  The commanding person suddenly to
die; and, for all the rest of his life, the subjected one continues to
perform that act.

"Solomon dies during the building of the temple, but his body remains
leaning on a staff, and overlooking the workmen, as if it were alive."

A tri-weekly paper, to be called the Tertian Ague.

Subject for a picture,--Satan's reappearance in Pandemonium, shining out
from a mist, with "shape star-bright."

Five points of Theology,--Five Points at New York.

It seems a greater pity that an accomplished worker with the hand should
perish prematurely, than a person of great intellect; because
intellectual arts may be cultivated in the next world, but not physical
ones.

To trace out the influence of a frightful and disgraceful crime in
debasing and destroying a character naturally high and noble, the guilty
person being alone conscious of the crime.

A man, virtuous in his general conduct, but committing habitually some
monstrous crime,--as murder,--and doing this without the sense of guilt,
but with a peaceful conscience,--habit, probably, reconciling him to it;
but something (for instance, discovery) occurs to make him sensible of
his enormity.  His horror then.

The strangeness, if they could be foreseen and forethought, of events
which do not seem so strange after they have happened.  As, for instance,
to muse over a child's cradle, and foresee all the persons in different
parts of the world with whom he would have relations.

A man to swallow a small snake,--and it to be a symbol of a cherished
sin.

Questions as to unsettled points of history, and mysteries of nature, to
be asked of a mesmerized person.

Gordier, a young man of the Island of Jersey, was paying his addresses to
a young lady of Guernsey.  He visited the latter island, intending to be
married.  He disappeared on his way from the beach to his mistress's
residence, and was afterwards found dead in a cavity of the rocks.  After
a time, Galliard, a merchant of Guernsey, paid his addresses to the young
lady; but she always felt a strong, unaccountable antipathy to him.  He
presented her with a beautiful trinket.  The mother of Gordier, chancing
to see this trinket, recognized it as having been bought by her dead son
as a present for his mistress.  She expired on learning this; and
Galliard, being suspected of the murder, committed suicide.

The cure of Montreux in Switzerland, ninety-six years old, still vigorous
in mind and body, and able to preach.  He had a twin-brother, also a
preacher, and the exact likeness of himself.  Sometimes strangers have
beheld a white-haired, venerable, clerical personage, nearly a century
old; and, upon riding a few miles farther, have been astonished to meet
again this white-haired, venerable, century-old personage.

When the body of Lord Mohun (killed in a duel) was carried home,
bleeding, to his house, Lady Mohun was very angry because it was "flung
upon the best bed."

A prophecy, somewhat in the style of Swift's about Partridge, but
embracing various events and personages.

An incident that befell Dr. Harris, while a Junior at college.  Being in
great want of money to buy shirts or other necessaries, and not knowing
how to obtain it, he set out on a walk from Cambridge to Boston.  On the
way, he cut a stick, and, after walking a short distance, perceived that
something had become attached to the end of it.  It proved to be a gold
ring, with the motto, "God speed thee, friend."

Brobdingnag lay on the northwest coast of the American continent.

People with false hair and other artifices may be supposed to deceive
Death himself; so that he does not know when their hour is come.

Bees are sometimes drowned (or suffocated) in the honey which they
collect.  So some writers are lost in their collected learning.

Advice of Lady Pepperell's father on her marriage,--never to work one
moment after Saturday sunset,--never to lay down her knitting except in
the middle of the needle,--always to rise with the sun,--to pass an hour
daily with the housekeeper,--to visit every room daily from garret to
cellar,--to attend herself to the brewing of beer and the baking of
bread,--and to instruct every member of the family in their religious
duties.

Service of plate, presented by the city of London to Sir William
Pepperell, together with a table of solid silver.  The table very narrow,
but long; the articles of plate numerous, but of small dimensions,--the
tureen not holding more than three pints.  At the close of the
Revolution, when the Pepperell and Sparhawk property was confiscated,
this plate was sent to the grandson of Sir William, in London.  It was so
valuable, that Sheriff Moulton of old York, with six well-armed men,
accompanied it to Boston.  Pepperell's only daughter married Colonel
Sparhawk, a fine gentleman of the day.  Andrew Pepperell, the son, was
rejected by a young lady (afterwards the mother of Mrs. General Knox), to
whom he was on the point of marriage, as being addicted to low company
and low pleasures.  The lover, two days afterwards, in the streets of
Portsmouth, was sun-struck, and fell down dead.  Sir William had built an
elegant house for his son and his intended wife; but after the death of
the former he never entered it.  He lost his cheerfulness and social
qualities, and gave up intercourse with people, except on business.  Very
anxious to secure his property to his descendants by the provisions of
his will, which was drawn up by Judge Sewall, then a young lawyer.  Yet
the Judge lived to see two of Sir William's grandchildren so reduced that
they were to have been numbered among the town's poor, and were only
rescued from this fate by private charity.

The arms and crest of the Pepperell family were displayed over the door
of every room in Sir William's house.  In Colonel Sparhawk's house there
were forty portraits, most of them in full length.  The house built for
Sir William's son was occupied as barracks during the Revolution, and
much injured.  A few years after the peace, it was blown down by a
violent tempest, and finally no vestige of it was left, but there
remained only a summer-house and the family tomb.

At Sir William's death, his mansion was hung with black, while the body
lay in state for a week.  All the Sparhawk portraits were covered with
black crape, and the family pew was draped with black.  Two oxen were
roasted, and liquid hospitality dispensed in proportion.

Old lady's dress seventy or eighty years ago.  Brown brocade gown, with a
nice lawn handkerchief and apron,--short sleeves, with a little ruffle,
just below the elbow,--black mittens,--a lawn cap, with rich lace
border,--a black velvet hood on the back of the head, tied with black
ribbon under the chin.  She sat in an old-fashioned easy-chair, in a
small, low parlor,--the wainscot painted entirely black, and the walls
hung with a dark velvet paper.

A table, stationary ever since the house was built, extending the whole
length of a room.  One end was raised two steps higher than the rest.
The Lady Ursula, an early Colonial heroine, was wont to dine at the upper
end, while her servants sat below.  This was in the kitchen.  An old
garden and summer-house, and roses, currant-bushes, and tulips, which
Lady Ursula had brought from Grondale Abbey in Old England.  Although a
hundred and fifty years before, and though their roots were propagated
all over the country, they were still flourishing in the original garden.
This Lady Ursula was the daughter of Lord Thomas Cutts of Grondale Abbey
in England.  She had been in love with an officer named Fowler, who was
supposed to have been slain in battle.  After the death of her father and
mother, Lady Ursula came to Kittery, bringing twenty men-servants and
several women.  After a time, a letter arrived from her lover, who was
not killed, but merely a prisoner to the French.  He announced his
purpose to come to America, where he would arrive in October.  A few days
after the letter came, she went out in a low carriage to visit her
work-people, and was blessing the food for their luncheon, when she fell
dead, struck by an Indian tomahawk, as did all the rest save one.  They
were buried where the massacre took place, and a stone was erected, which
(possibly) still remains.  The lady's family had a grant from Sir
Ferdinando Gorges of the territory thereabout, and her brother had
likewise come over and settled in the vicinity.  I believe very little of
this story.  Long afterwards, at about the commencement of the
Revolution, a descendant of Fowler came from England, and applied to the
Judge of Probate to search the records for a will, supposed to have been
made by Lady Ursula in favor of her lover as soon as she heard of his
existence.  In the mean time the estate had been sold to Colonel Whipple.
No will could be found.  (Lady Ursula was old Mrs. Cutts, widow of
President Cutts.)

The mode of living of Lady Ursula's brother in Kittery.  A drawbridge to
the house, which was raised every evening, and lowered in the morning,
for the laborers and the family to pass out.  They kept thirty cows, a
hundred sheep, and several horses.  The house spacious,--one room large
enough to contain forty or fifty guests.  Two silver branches for
candles,--the walls ornamented with paintings and needlework.  The floors
were daily rubbed with wax, and shone like a mahogany table.  A domestic
chaplain, who said prayers every morning and evening in a small apartment
called the chapel.  Also a steward and butler.  The family attended the
Episcopal Church at Christmas, Easter, and Good Friday, and gave a grand
entertainment once a year.

Madam Cutts, at the last of these entertainments, wore a black damask
gown, and cuffs with double lace ruffles, velvet shoes, blue silk
stockings, white and silver stomacher.  The daughter and granddaughters
in rich brocades and yellow satin.  Old Major Cutts in brown velvet,
laced with gold, and a large wig.  The parson in his silk cassock, and
his helpmate in brown damask.  Old General Atkinson in scarlet velvet,
and his wife and daughters in white damask.  The Governor in black
velvet, and his lady in crimson tabby trimmed with silver.  The ladies
wore bell-hoops, high-heeled shoes, paste buckles, silk stockings, and
enormously high head-dresses, with lappets of Brussels lace hanging
thence to the waist.

Among the eatables, a silver tub of the capacity of four gallons, holding
a pyramid of pancakes powdered with white sugar.

The date assigned to all this about 1690.

What is the price of a day's labor in Lapland, where the sun never sets
for six months?

Miss Asphyxia Davis!

A life, generally of a grave hue, may be said to be embroidered with
occasional sports and fantasies.

A father confessor,--his reflections on character, and the contrast of
the inward man with the outward, as he looks around on his congregation,
all whose secret sins are known to him.

A person with an ice-cold hand,--his right hand, which people ever
afterwards remember when once they have grasped it.

A stove possessed by a Devil.


June 1st, 1842.--One of my chief amusements is to see the boys sail their
miniature vessels on the Frog Pond.  There is a great variety of shipping
owned among the young people, and they appear to have a considerable
knowledge of the art of managing vessels.  There is a full-rigged
man-of-war, with, I believe, every spar, rope, and sail, that sometimes
makes its appearance; and, when on a voyage across the pond, it so
identically resembles a great ship, except in size, that it has the
effect of a picture.  All its motions,--its tossing up and down on the
small waves, and its sinking and rising in a calm swell, its heeling to
the breeze,--the whole effect, in short, is that of a real ship at sea;
while, moreover, there is something that kindles the imagination more
than the reality would do.  If we see a real, great ship, the mind grasps
and possesses, within its real clutch, all that there is of it; while
here the mimic ship is the representation of an ideal one, and so gives
us a more imaginative pleasure.  There are many schooners that ply to and
fro on the pond, and pilot-boats, all perfectly rigged.  I saw a race,
the other day, between the ship above mentioned and a pilot-boat, in
which the latter came off conqueror.  The boys appear to be well
acquainted with all the ropes and sails, and can call them by their
nautical names.  One of the owners of the vessels remains on one side of
the pond, and the other on the opposite side, and so they send the little
bark to and fro, like merchants of different countries, consigning their
vessels to one another.

Generally, when any vessel is on the pond, there are full-grown
spectators, who look on with as much interest as the boys themselves.
Towards sunset, this is especially the case: for then are seen young
girls and their lovers; mothers, with their little boys in hand;
schoolgirls, beating hoops round about, and occasionally running to the
side of the pond; rough tars, or perhaps masters or young mates of
vessels, who make remarks about the miniature shipping, and occasionally
give professional advice to the navigators; visitors from the country;
gloved and caned young gentlemen;--in short, everybody stops to take a
look.  In the mean time; dogs are continually plunging into the pond, and
swimming about, with noses pointed upward, and snatching at floating
chips; then, emerging, they shake themselves, scattering a horizontal
shower on the clean gowns of ladies and trousers of gentlemen; then
scamper to and fro on the grass, with joyous barks.

Some boys cast off lines of twine with pin-hooks, and perhaps pull out a
horned-pout,--that being, I think, the only kind of fish that inhabits
the Frog Pond.

The ship-of-war above mentioned is about three feet from stem to stern,
or possibly a few inches more.  This, if I mistake not, was the size of a
ship-of-the-line in the navy of Liliput.

Fancy pictures of familiar places which one has never been in, as the
green-room of a theatre, etc.

The famous characters of history,--to imagine their spirits now extant on
earth, in the guise of various public or private personages.

The case quoted in Combe's Physiology of a young man of great talents and
profound knowledge of chemistry, who had in view some new discovery of
importance.  In order to put his mind into the highest possible activity,
he shut himself up for several successive days, and used various methods
of excitement.  He had a singing-girl, he drank spirits, smelled,
penetrating odors, sprinkled Cologne-water round the room, etc., etc.
Eight days thus passed, when he was seized with a fit of frenzy which
terminated in mania.

Flesh and Blood,--a firm of butchers.

Miss Polly Syllable, a schoolmistress.

Mankind are earthen jugs with spirits in them.

A spendthrift,--in one sense he has his money's worth by the purchase of
large lots of repentance and other dolorous commodities.

To symbolize moral or spiritual disease by disease of the body; as thus,
--when a person committed any sin, it might appear in some form on the
body,--this to be wrought out.

"Shrieking fish," a strange idea of Leigh Hunt.

In my museum, all the ducal rings that have been thrown into the
Adriatic.

An association of literary men in the other world,--or dialogues of the
dead, or something of that kind.

Imaginary diseases to be cured by impossible remedies,--as a dose of the
Grand Elixir, in the yolk of a Phoenix's egg.  The disease may be either
moral or physical.

A physician for the cure of moral diseases.

To point out the moral slavery of one who deems himself a free man.

A stray leaf from the book of fate, picked up in the street.


Concord, August 5th.--A rainy day,--a rainy day.  I am commanded to take
pen in hand, and I am therefore banished to the little ten-foot-square
apartment misnamed my study; but perhaps the dismalness of the day and
the dulness of my solitude will be the prominent characteristics of what
I write.  And what is there to write about?  Happiness has no succession
of events, because it is a part of eternity; and we have been living in
eternity ever since we came to this old manse.  Like Enoch, we seem to
have been translated to the other state of being, without having passed
through death.  Our spirits must have flitted away unconsciously, and we
can only perceive that we have cast off our mortal part by the more real
and earnest life of our souls.  Externally, our Paradise has very much
the aspect of a pleasant old domicile on earth.  This antique house--for
it looks antique, though it was created by Providence expressly for our
use, and at the precise time when we wanted it--stands behind a noble
avenue of balm-of-Gilead trees; and when we chance to observe a passing
traveller through the sunshine and the shadow of this long avenue, his
figure appears too dim and remote to disturb the sense of blissful
seclusion.  Few, indeed, are the mortals who venture within our sacred
precincts.  George Prescott, who has not yet grown earthly enough, I
suppose, to be debarred from occasional visits to Paradise, comes daily
to bring three pints of milk from some ambrosial cow; occasionally, also,
he makes an offering of mortal flowers.  Mr. Emerson comes sometimes, and
has been feasted on our nectar and ambrosia.  Mr. Thoreau has twice
listened to the music of the spheres, which, for our private convenience,
we have packed into a musical-box.  E. H------, who is much more at home
among spirits than among fleshly bodies, came hither a few times merely
to welcome us to the ethereal world; but latterly she has vanished into
some other region of infinite space.  One rash mortal, on the second
Sunday after our arrival, obtruded himself upon us in a gig.  There have
since been three or four callers, who preposterously think that the
courtesies of the lower world are to be responded to by people whose home
is in Paradise.  I must not forget to mention that the butcher comes
twice or thrice a week; and we have so far improved upon the custom of
Adam and Eve, that we generally furnish forth our feasts with portions of
some delicate calf or lamb, whose unspotted innocence entitles them to
the happiness of becoming our sustenance.  Would that I were permitted to
record the celestial dainties that kind Heaven provided for us on the
first day of our arrival!  Never, surely, was such food heard of on
earth,--at least, not by me.  Well, the above-mentioned persons are
nearly all that have entered into the hallowed shade of our avenue;
except, indeed, a certain sinner who came to bargain for the grass in our
orchard, and another who came with a new cistern.  For it is one of the
drawbacks upon our Eden that it contains no water fit either to drink or
to bathe in; so that the showers have become, in good truth, a godsend.
I wonder why Providence does not cause a clear, cold fountain to bubble
up at our doorstep; methinks it would not be unreasonable to pray for
such a favor.  At present we are under the ridiculous necessity of
sending to the outer world for water.  Only imagine Adam trudging out of
Paradise with a bucket in each hand, to get water to drink, or for Eve to
bathe in!  Intolerable! (though our stout handmaiden really fetches our
water.)  In other respects Providence has treated us pretty tolerably
well; but here I shall expect something further to be done.  Also, in the
way of future favors, a kitten would be very acceptable.  Animals
(except, perhaps, a pig) seem never out of place, even in the most
paradisiacal spheres.  And, by the way, a young colt comes up our avenue,
now and then, to crop the seldom-trodden herbage; and so does a company
of cows, whose sweet breath well repays us for the food which they
obtain.  There are likewise a few hens, whose quiet cluck is heard
pleasantly about the house.  A black dog sometimes stands at the farther
extremity of the avenue, and looks wistfully hitherward; but when I
whistle to him, he puts his tail between his legs, and trots away.
Foolish dog! if he had more faith, he should have bones enough.


Saturday, August 6th.--Still a dull day, threatening rain, yet without
energy of character enough to rain outright.  However, yesterday there
were showers enough to supply us well with their beneficent outpouring.
As to the new cistern, it seems to be bewitched; for, while the spout
pours into it like a cataract, it still remains almost empty.  I wonder
where Mr. Hosmer got it; perhaps from Tantalus, under the eaves of whose
palace it must formerly have stood; for, like his drinking-cup in Hades,
it has the property of filling itself forever, and never being full.

After breakfast I took my fishing-rod, and went down through our orchard
to the river-side; but as three or four boys were already in possession
of the best spots along the shore, I did not fish.  This river of ours is
the most sluggish stream that I ever was acquainted with.  I had spent
three weeks by its side, and swam across it every day, before I could
determine which way its current ran; and then I was compelled to decide
the question by the testimony of others, and not by my own observation.
Owing to this torpor of the stream, it has nowhere a bright, pebbly
shore, nor is there so much as a narrow strip of glistening sand in any
part of its course; but it slumbers along between broad meadows, or
kisses the tangled grass of mowing-fields and pastures, or bathes the
overhanging boughs of elder-bushes and other waterloving plants.  Flags
and rushes grow along its shallow margin.  The yellow water-lily spreads
its broad flat leaves upon its surface; and the fragrant white pond-lily
occurs in many favored spots,--generally selecting a situation just so
far from the river's brink that it cannot be grasped except at the hazard
of plunging in.  But thanks be to the beautiful flower for growing at any
rate.  It is a marvel whence it derives its loveliness and perfume,
sprouting as it does from the black mud over which the river sleeps, and
from which the yellow lily likewise draws its unclean life and noisome
odor.  So it is with many people in this world; the same soil and
circumstances may produce the good and beautiful, and the wicked and
ugly.  Some have the faculty of assimilating to themselves only what is
evil, and so they become as noisome as the yellow water-lily.  Some
assimilate none but good influences, and their emblem is the fragrant and
spotless pond-lily, whose very breath is a blessing to all the region
round about. . . . Among the productions of the river's margin, I must
not forget the pickerel-weed, which grows just on the edge of the water,
and shoots up a long stalk crowned with a blue spire, from among large
green leaves.  Both the flower and the leaves look well in a vase with
pond-lilies, and relieve the unvaried whiteness of the latter; and, being
all alike children of the waters, they are perfectly in keeping with one
another. . . .

I bathe once, and often twice, a day in our river; but one dip into the
salt sea would be worth more than a whole week's soaking in such a
lifeless tide.  I have read of a river somewhere (whether it be in
classic regions or among our Western Indians I know not) which seemed to
dissolve and steal away the vigor of those who bathed in it.  Perhaps our
stream will be found to have this property.  Its water, however, is
pleasant in its immediate effect, being as soft as milk, and always
warmer than the air.  Its hue has a slight tinge of gold, and my limbs,
when I behold them through its medium, look tawny.  I am not aware that
the inhabitants of Concord resemble their native river in any of their
moral characteristics.  Their forefathers, certainly, seem to have had
the energy and impetus of a mountain torrent, rather than the torpor of
this listless stream,--as it was proved by the blood with which they
stained their river of Peace.  It is said there are plenty of fish in it;
but my most important captures hitherto have been a mud-turtle and an
enormous eel.  The former made his escape to his native element,--the
latter we ate; and truly he had the taste of the whole river in his
flesh, with a very prominent flavor of mud.  On the whole, Concord River
is no great favorite of mine; but I am glad to have any river at all so
near at hand, it being just at the bottom of our orchard.  Neither is it
without a degree and kind of picturesqueness, both in its nearness and in
the distance, when a blue gleam from its surface, among the green meadows
and woods, seems like an open eye in Earth's countenance.  Pleasant it
is, too, to behold a little flat-bottomed skiff gliding over its bosom,
which yields lazily to the stroke of the paddle, and allows the boat to
go against its current almost as freely as with it.  Pleasant, too, to
watch an angler, as he strays along the brink, sometimes sheltering
himself behind a tuft of bushes, and trailing his line along the water,
in hopes to catch a pickerel.  But, taking the river for all in all, I
can find nothing more fit to compare it with than one of the half-torpid
earthworms which I dig up for bait.  The worm is sluggish, and so is the
river,--the river is muddy, and so is the worm.  You hardly know whether
either of them be alive or dead; but still, in the course of time, they
both manage to creep away.  The best aspect of the Concord is when there
is a northwestern breeze curling its surface, in a bright, sunshiny day.
It then assumes a vivacity not its own.  Moonlight, also, gives it
beauty, as it does to all scenery of earth or water.


Sunday, August 7th.--At sunset last evening I ascended the hill-top
opposite our house; and, looking downward at the long extent of the
river, it struck me that I had done it some injustice in my remarks.
Perhaps, like other gentle and quiet characters, it will be better
appreciated the longer I am acquainted with it.  Certainly, as I beheld
it then, it was one of the loveliest features in a scene of great rural
beauty.  It was visible through a course of two or three miles, sweeping
in a semicircle round the hill on which I stood, and being the central
line of a broad vale on either side.  At a distance, it looked like a
strip of sky set into the earth, which it so etherealized and idealized
that it seemed akin to the upper regions.  Nearer the base of the hill, I
could discern the shadows of every tree and rock, imaged with a
distinctness that made them even more charming than the reality; because,
knowing them to be unsubstantial, they assumed the ideality which the
soul always craves in the contemplation of earthly beauty.  All the sky,
too, and the rich clouds of sunset, were reflected in the peaceful bosom
of the river; and surely, if its bosom can give back such an adequate
reflection of heaven, it cannot be so gross and impure as I described it
yesterday.  Or, if so, it shall be a symbol to me that even a human
breast, which may appear least spiritual in some aspects, may still have
the capability of reflecting an infinite heaven in its depths, and
therefore of enjoying it.  It is a comfortable thought, that the smallest
and most turbid mud-puddle can contain its own picture of heaven.  Let us
remember this, when we feel inclined to deny all spiritual life to some
people, in whom, nevertheless, our Father may perhaps see the image of
His face.  This dull river has a deep religion of its own: so, let us
trust, has the dullest human soul, though, perhaps, unconsciously.

The scenery of Concord, as I beheld it from the summit of the hill, has
no very marked characteristics, but has a great deal of quiet beauty, in
keeping with the river.  There are broad and peaceful meadows, which, I
think, are among the most satisfying objects in natural scenery.  The
heart reposes on them with a feeling that few things else can give,
because almost all other objects are abrupt and clearly defined; but a
meadow stretches out like a small infinity, yet with a secure homeliness
which we do not find either in an expanse of water or of air.  The hills
which border these meadows are wide swells of land, or long and gradual
ridges, some of them densely covered with wood.  The white village, at a
distance on the left, appears to be embosomed among wooded hills.  The
verdure of the country is much more perfect than is usual at this season
of the year, when the autumnal hue has generally made considerable
progress over trees and grass.  Last evening, after the copious showers
of the preceding two days, it was worthy of early June, or, indeed, of a
world just created.  Had I not then been alone, I should have had a far
deeper sense of beauty, for I should have looked through the medium of
another spirit.  Along the horizon there were masses of those deep clouds
in which the fancy may see images of all things that ever existed or were
dreamed of.  Over our old manse, of which I could catch but a glimpse
among its embowering trees, appeared the immensely gigantic figure of a
hound, crouching down with head erect, as if keeping watchful guard while
the master of the mansion was away. . . . How sweet it was to draw near
my own home, after having lived homeless in the world so long! . . . .
With thoughts like these, I descended the hill, and clambered over the
stone-wall, and crossed the road, and passed up our avenue, while the
quaint old house put on an aspect of welcome.


Monday, August 8th.--I wish I could give a description of our house, for
it really has a character of its own, which is more than can be said of
most edifices in these days.  It is two stories high, with a third story
of attic chambers in the gable-roof.  When I first visited it, early in
June, it looked pretty much as it did during the old clergyman's
lifetime, showing all the dust and disarray that might be supposed to
have gathered about him in the course of sixty years of occupancy.  The
rooms seemed never to have been painted; at all events, the walls and
panels, as well as the huge cross-beams, had a venerable and most dismal
tinge of brown.  The furniture consisted of high-backed, short-legged,
rheumatic chairs, small, old tables, bedsteads with lofty posts, stately
chests of drawers, looking-glasses in antique black frames, all of which
were probably fashionable in the days of Dr. Ripley's predecessor.  It
required some energy of imagination to conceive the idea of transforming
this ancient edifice into a comfortable modern residence.  However, it
has been successfully accomplished.  The old Doctor's sleeping-apartment,
which was the front room on the ground-floor, we have converted into a
parlor; and by the aid of cheerful paint and paper, a gladsome carpet,
pictures and engravings, new furniture, bijouterie, and a daily supply of
flowers, it has become one of the prettiest and pleasantest rooms in the
whole world.  The shade of our departed host will never haunt it; for its
aspect has been changed as completely as the scenery of a theatre.
Probably the ghost gave one peep into it, uttered a groan, and vanished
forever.  The opposite room has been metamorphosed into a store-room.
Through the house, both in the first and second story, runs a spacious
hall or entry, occupying more space than is usually devoted to such a
purpose in modern times.  This feature contributes to give the whole
house an airy, roomy, and convenient appearance; we can breathe the freer
by the aid of the broad passageway.  The front door of the hall looks up
the stately avenue, which I have already mentioned; and the opposite door
opens into the orchard, through which a path descends to the river.  In
the second story we have at present fitted up three rooms,--one being our
own chamber, and the opposite one a guest-chamber, which contains the
most presentable of the old Doctor's ante-Revolutionary furniture.  After
all, the moderns have invented nothing better, as chamber furniture, than
these chests of drawers, which stand on four slender legs, and rear an
absolute tower of mahogany to the ceiling, the whole terminating in a
fantastically carved summit.  Such a venerable structure adorns our
guest-chamber.  In the rear of the house is the little room which I call
my study, and which, in its day, has witnessed the intellectual labors of
better students than myself.  It contains, with some additions and
alterations, the furniture of my bachelor-room in Boston; but there is a
happier disposal of things now.  There is a little vase of flowers on one
of the bookcases, and a larger bronze vase of graceful ferns that
surmounts the bureau.  In size the room is just what it ought to be; for
I never could compress my thoughts sufficiently to write in a very
spacious room.  It has three windows, two of which are shaded by a large
and beautiful willow-tree, which sweeps against the overhanging eaves.
On this side we have a view into the orchard, and, beyond, a glimpse of
the river.  The other window is the one from which Mr. Emerson, the
predecessor of Dr. Ripley, beheld the first fight of the Revolution,--
which he might well do, as the British troops were drawn up within a
hundred yards of the house; and on looking forth just now, I could still
perceive the western abutments of the old bridge, the passage of which
was contested.  The new monument is visible from base to summit.

Notwithstanding all we have done to modernize the old place, we seem
scarcely to have disturbed its air of antiquity.  It is evident that
other wedded pairs have spent their honeymoons here, that children have
been born here, and people have grown old and died in these rooms,
although for our behoof the same apartments have consented to look
cheerful once again.  Then there are dark closets, and strange nooks and
corners, where the ghosts of former occupants might hide themselves in
the daytime, and stalk forth when night conceals all our sacrilegious
improvements.  We have seen no apparitions as yet; but we hear strange
noises, especially in the kitchen, and last night, while sitting in the
parlor, we heard a thumping and pounding as of somebody at work in my
study.  Nay, if I mistake not (for I was half asleep), there was a sound
as of some person crumpling paper in his hand in our very bedchamber.
This must have been old Dr. Ripley with one of his sermons.  There is a
whole chest of them in the garret; but he need have no apprehensions of
our disturbing them.  I never saw the old patriarch myself, which I
regret, as I should have been glad to associate his venerable figure at
ninety years of age with the house in which he dwelt.

Externally the house presents the same appearance as in the Doctor's day.
It had once a coat of white paint; but the storms and sunshine of many
years have almost obliterated it, and produced a sober, grayish hue,
which entirely suits the antique form of the structure.  To repaint its
reverend face would be a real sacrilege.  It would look like old Dr.
Ripley in a brown wig.  I hardly know why it is that our cheerful and
lightsome repairs and improvements in the interior of the house seem to
be in perfectly good taste, though the heavy old beams and high
wainscoting of the walls speak of ages gone by.  But so it is.  The
cheerful paper-hangings have the air of belonging to the old walls; and
such modernisms as astral lamps, card-tables, gilded Cologne-bottles,
silver taper-stands, and bronze and alabaster flower-vases do not seem at
all impertinent.  It is thus that an aged man may keep his heart warm for
new things and new friends, and often furnish himself anew with ideas;
though it would not be graceful for him to attempt to suit his exterior
to the passing fashions of the day.


August 9th.--Our orchard in its day has been a very productive and
profitable one; and we were told that in one year it returned Dr. Ripley
a hundred dollars, besides defraying the expense of repairing the house.
It is now long past its prime: many of the trees are moss-grown, and have
dead and rotten branches intermixed among the green and fruitful ones.
And it may well be so; for I suppose some of the trees may have been set
out by Mr. Emerson, who died in the first year of the Revolutionary War.
Neither will the fruit, probably, bear comparison with the delicate
productions of modern pomology.  Most of the trees seem to have abundant
burdens upon them; but they are homely russet apples, fit only for baking
and cooking.  (But we are yet to have practical experience of our fruit.)
Justice Shallow's orchard, with its choice pippins and leather-coats, was
doubtless much superior.  Nevertheless, it pleases me to think of the
good minister, walking in the shadows of these old, fantastically shaped
apples-trees, here plucking some of the fruit to taste, there pruning
away a too luxuriant branch, and all the while computing how many barrels
may be filled, and how large a sum will be added to his stipend by their
sale.  And the same trees offer their fruit to me as freely as they did
to him,--their old branches, like withered hands and arms, holding out
apples of the same flavor as they held out to Dr. Ripley in his lifetime.
Thus the trees, as living existences, form a peculiar link between the
dead and us.  My fancy has always found something very interesting in an
orchard.  Apple-trees, and all fruit-trees, have a domestic character
which brings them into relationship with man.  They have lost, in a great
measure, the wild nature of the forest-tree, and have grown humanized by
receiving the care of man, and by contributing to his wants.  They have
become a part of the family; and their individual characters are as well
understood and appreciated as those of the human members.  One tree is
harsh and crabbed, another mild; one is churlish and illiberal, another
exhausts itself with its free-hearted bounties.  Even the shapes of
apple-trees have great individuality, into such strange postures do they
put themselves, and thrust their contorted branches so grotesquely in all
directions.  And when they have stood around a house for many years, and
held converse with successive dynasties of occupants, and gladdened their
hearts so often in the fruitful autumn, then it would seem almost
sacrilege to cut them down.

Besides the apple-trees, there are various other kinds of fruit in close
vicinity to the house.  When we first arrived, there were several trees
of ripe cherries, but so sour that we allowed them to wither upon the
branches.  Two long rows of currant-bushes supplied us abundantly for
nearly four weeks.  There are a good many peach-trees, but all of an old
date,--their branches rotten, gummy, and mossy,--and their fruit, I fear,
will be of very inferior quality.  They produce most abundantly,
however,--the peaches being almost as numerous as the leaves; and even
the sprouts and suckers from the roots of the old trees have fruit upon
them.  Then three are pear-trees of various kinds, and one or two
quince-trees.  On the whole, these fruit-trees, and the other items and
adjuncts of the place, convey a very agreeable idea of the outward
comfort in which the good old Doctor must have spent his life.
Everything seems to have fallen to his lot that could possibly be
supposed to render the life of a country clergyman easy and prosperous.
There is a barn, which probably used to be filled annually with his hay
and other agricultural products.  There are sheds, and a hen-house, and a
pigeon-house, and an old stone pigsty, the open portion of which is
overgrown with tall weeds, indicating that no grunter has recently
occupied it. . . . I have serious thoughts of inducting a new incumbent
in this part of the parsonage.  It is our duty to support a pig, even if
we have no design of feasting upon him; and, for my own part, I have a
great sympathy and interest for the whole race of porkers, and should
have much amusement in studying the character of a pig.  Perhaps I might
try to bring out his moral and intellectual nature, and cultivate his
affections.  A cat, too, and perhaps a dog, would be desirable additions
to our household.


August 10th.--The natural taste of man for the original Adam's occupation
is fast developing itself in me.  I find that I am a good deal interested
in our garden, although, as it was planted before we came here, I do not
feel the same affection for the plants that I should if the seed had been
sown by my own hands.  It is something like nursing and educating another
person's children.  Still, it was a very pleasant moment when I gathered
the first string-beans, which were the earliest esculent that the garden
contributed to our table.  And I love to watch the successive development
of each new vegetable, and mark its daily growth, which always affects me
with surprise.  It is as if something were being created under my own
inspection, and partly by my own aid.  One day, perchance, I look at my
bean-vines, and see only the green leaves clambering up the poles; again,
to-morrow, I give a second glance, and there are the delicate blossoms;
and a third day, on a somewhat closer observation, I discover the tender
young beans, hiding among the foliage.  Then, each morning, I watch the
swelling of the pods and calculate how soon they will be ready to yield
their treasures.  All this gives a pleasure and an ideality, hitherto
unthought of, to the business of providing sustenance for my family.  I
suppose Adam felt it in Paradise; and, of merely and exclusively earthly
enjoyments, there are few purer and more harmless to be experienced.
Speaking of beans, by the way, they are a classical food, and their
culture must have been the occupation of many ancient sages and heroes.
Summer-squashes are a very pleasant vegetable to be acquainted with.
They grow in the forms of urns and vases,--some shallow, others deeper,
and all with a beautifully scalloped edge.  Almost any squash in our
garden might be copied by a sculptor, and would look lovely in marble, or
in china; and, if I could afford it, I would have exact imitations of the
real vegetable as portions of my dining-service.  They would be very
appropriate dishes for holding garden-vegetables.  Besides the
summer-squashes, we have the crook-necked winter-squash, which I always
delight to look at, when it turns up its big rotundity to ripen in the
autumn sun.  Except a pumpkin, there is no vegetable production that
imparts such an idea of warmth and comfort to the beholder.  Our own
crop, however, does not promise to be very abundant; for the leaves
formed such a superfluous shade over the young blossoms, that most of
them dropped off without producing the germ of fruit.  Yesterday and
to-day I have cut off an immense number of leaves, and have thus given
the remaining blossoms a chance to profit by the air and sunshine; but
the season is too far advanced, I am afraid, for the squashes to attain
any great bulk, and grow yellow in the sun.  We have muskmelons and
watermelons, which promise to supply us with as many as we can eat.
After all, the greatest interest of these vegetables does not seem to
consist in their being articles of food.  It is rather that we love to
see something born into the world; and when a great squash or melon is
produced, it is a large and tangible existence, which the imagination can
seize hold of and rejoice in.  I love, also, to see my own works
contributing to the life and well-being of animate nature.  It is
pleasant to have the bees come and suck honey out of my squash-blossoms,
though, when they have laden themselves, they fly away to some unknown
hive, which will give me back nothing in return for what my garden has
given them.  But there is much more honey in the world, and so I am
content.  Indian corn, in the prime and glory of its verdure, is a very
beautiful vegetable, both considered in the separate plant, and in a mass
in a broad field, rustling and waving, and surging up and down in the
breeze and sunshine of a summer afternoon.  We have as many as fifty
hills, I should think, which will give us an abundant supply.  Pray
Heaven that we may be able to eat it all! for it is not pleasant to think
that anything which Nature has been at the pains to produce should be
thrown away.  But the hens will be glad of our superfluity, and so will
the pigs, though we have neither hens nor pigs of our own.  But hens we
must certainly keep.  There is something very sociable and quiet, and
soothing, too, in their soliloquies and converse among themselves; and,
in an idle and half-meditative mood, it is very pleasant to watch a party
of hens picking up their daily subsistence, with a gallant chanticleer in
the midst of them.  Milton had evidently contemplated such a picture with
delight.

I find that I have not given a very complete idea of our garden, although
it certainly deserves an ample record in this chronicle, since my labors
in it are the only present labors of my life.  Besides what I have
mentioned, we have cucumber-vines, which to-day yielded us the first
cucumber of the season, a bed of beets, and another of carrots, and
another of parsnips and turnips, none of which promise us a very abundant
harvest.  In truth, the soil is worn out, and, moreover, received very
little manure this season.  Also, we have cabbages in superfluous
abundance, inasmuch as we neither of us have the least affection for
them; and it would be unreasonable to expect Sarah, the cook, to eat
fifty head of cabbages.  Tomatoes, too, we shall have by and by.  At our
first arrival, we found green peas ready for gathering, and these,
instead of the string-beans, were the first offering of the garden to our
board.


Saturday, August 13th.--My life, at this time, is more like that of a
boy, externally, than it has been since I was really a boy.  It is
usually supposed that the cares of life come with matrimony; but I seem
to have cast off all care, and live on with as much easy trust in
Providence as Adam could possibly have felt before he had learned that
there was a world beyond Paradise.  My chief anxiety consists in watching
the prosperity of my vegetables, in observing how they are affected by
the rain or sunshine, in lamenting the blight of one squash and rejoicing
at the luxurious growth of another.  It is as if the original relation
between man and Nature were restored in my case, and as if I were to look
exclusively to her for the support of my Eve and myself,--to trust to her
for food and clothing, and all things needful, with the full assurance
that she would not fail me.  The fight with the world,--the struggle of a
man among men,--the agony of the universal effort to wrench the means of
living from a host of greedy competitors,--all this seems like a dream to
me.  My business is merely to live and to enjoy; and whatever is
essential to life and enjoyment will come as naturally as the dew from
heaven.  This is, practically at least, my faith.  And so I awake in the
morning with a boyish thoughtlessness as to how the outgoings of the day
are to be provided for, and its incomings rendered certain.  After
breakfast, I go forth into my garden, and gather whatever the bountiful
Mother has made fit for our present sustenance; and of late days she
generally gives me two squashes and a cucumber, and promises me green
corn and shell-beans very soon.  Then I pass down through our orchard to
the river-side, and ramble along its margin in search of flowers.
Usually I discern a fragrant white lily, here and there along the shore,
growing, with sweet prudishness, beyond the grasp of mortal arm.  But it
does not escape me so.  I know what is its fitting destiny better than
the silly flower knows for itself; so I wade in, heedless of wet
trousers, and seize the shy lily by its slender stem.  Thus I make prize
of five or six, which are as many as usually blossom within my reach in a
single morning;--some of them partially worm-eaten or blighted, like
virgins with an eating sorrow at the heart; others as fair and perfect as
Nature's own idea was, when she first imagined this lovely flower.  A
perfect pond-lily is the most satisfactory of flowers.  Besides these, I
gather whatever else of beautiful chances to be growing in the moist soil
by the river-side,--an amphibious tribe, yet with more richness and grace
than the wild-flowers of the deep and dry woodlands and hedge-rows,--
sometimes the white arrow-head, always the blue spires and broad green
leaves of the pickerel-flower, which contrast and harmonize so well with
the white lilies.  For the last two or three days, I have found scattered
stalks of the cardinal-flower, the gorgeous scarlet of which it is a joy
even to remember.  The world is made brighter and sunnier by flowers of
such a hue.  Even perfume, which otherwise is the soul and spirit of a
flower, may be spared when it arrays itself in this scarlet glory.  It is
a flower of thought and feeling, too; it seems to have its roots deep
down in the hearts of those who gaze at it.  Other bright flowers
sometimes impress me as wanting sentiment; but it is not so with this.

Well, having made up my bunch of flowers, I return home with them.
. . . . Then I ascend to my study, and generally read, or perchance
scribble in this journal, and otherwise suffer Time to loiter onward at
his own pleasure, till the dinner-hour.  In pleasant days, the chief
event of the afternoon, and the happiest one of the day, is our walk.
. . . . So comes the night; and I look back upon a day spent in what the
world would call idleness, and for which I myself can suggest no more
appropriate epithet, but which, nevertheless, I cannot feel to have been
spent amiss.  True, it might be a sin and shame, in such a world as ours,
to spend a lifetime in this manner; but for a few summer weeks it is good
to live as if this world were heaven.  And so it is, and so it shall be,
although, in a little while, a flitting shadow of earthly care and toil
will mingle itself with our realities.


Monday, August 15th.--George Hillard and his wife arrived from Boston in
the dusk of Saturday evening, to spend Sunday with us.  It was a pleasant
sensation, when the coach rumbled up our avenue, and wheeled round at the
door; for I felt that I was regarded as a man with a household, a man
having a tangible existence and locality in the world,--when friends came
to avail themselves of our hospitality.  It was a sort of acknowledgment
and reception of us into the corps of married people,--a sanction by no
means essential to our peace and well-being, but yet agreeable enough to
receive.  So we welcomed them cordially at the door, and ushered them
into our parlor, and soon into the supper-room. . . . The night flitted
over us all, and passed away, and up rose a gray and sullen morning,
. . . . and we had a splendid breakfast of flapjacks, or slapjacks, and
whortleberries, which I gathered on a neighboring hill, and perch, bream,
and pout, which I hooked out of the river the evening before.  About nine
o'clock, Hillard and I set out for a walk to Walden Pond, calling by the
way at Mr. Emerson's, to obtain his guidance or directions, and he
accompanied us in his own illustrious person.  We turned aside a little
from our way, to visit Mr. ------, a yeoman, of whose homely and
self-acquired wisdom Mr. Emerson has a very high opinion.  We found him
walking in his fields, a short and stalwart and sturdy personage of
middle age, with a face of shrewd and kind expression, and manners of
natural courtesy.  He had a very free flow of talk; for, with a little
induction from Mr. Emerson, he began to discourse about the state of the
nation, agriculture, and business in general, uttering thoughts that had
come to him at the plough, and which had a sort of flavor of the fresh
earth about them.  His views were sensible and characteristic, and had
grown in the soil where we found them; . . . . and he is certainly a man
of intellectual and moral substance, a sturdy fact, a reality, something
to be felt and touched, whose ideas seem to be dug out of his mind as he
digs potatoes, beets, carrots, and turnips out of the ground.

After leaving Mr. ------, we proceeded through wood-paths to Walden Pond,
picking blackberries of enormous size along the way.  The pond itself was
beautiful and refreshing to my soul, after such long and exclusive
familiarity with our tawny and sluggish river.  It lies embosomed among
wooded hills, it is not very extensive, but large enough for waves to
dance upon its surface, and to look like a piece of blue firmament,
earthen-circled.  The shore has a narrow, pebbly strand, which it was
worth a day's journey to look at, for the sake of the contrast between it
and the weedy, oozy margin of the river.  Farther within its depths, you
perceive a bottom of pure white sand, sparkling through the transparent
water, which, methought, was the very purest liquid in the world.  After
Mr. Emerson left us, Hillard and I bathed in the pond, and it does really
seem as if my spirit, as well as corporeal person, were refreshed by that
bath.  A good deal of mud and river slime had accumulated on my soul; but
these bright waters washed them all away.

We returned home in due season for dinner. . . . To my misfortune,
however, a box of Mediterranean wine proved to have undergone the acetous
fermentation; so that the splendor of the festival suffered some
diminution.  Nevertheless, we ate our dinner with a good appetite, and
afterwards went universally to take our several siestas.  Meantime there
came a shower, which so besprinkled the grass and shrubbery as to make it
rather wet for our after-tea ramble.  The chief result of the walk was
the bringing home of an immense burden of the trailing clematis-vine, now
just in blossom, and with which all our flower-stands and vases are this
morning decorated.  On our return we found Mr. and Mrs. S------, and E.
H------, who shortly took their leave, and we sat up late, telling
ghost-stories.  This morning, at seven, our friends left us.  We were
both pleased with the visit, and so, I think, were our guests.

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Monday, August 22d.--I took a walk through the woods yesterday afternoon,
to Mr. Emerson's, with a book which Margaret Fuller had left, after a
call on Saturday eve.  I missed the nearest way, and wandered into a very
secluded portion of the forest; for forest it might justly be called, so
dense and sombre was the shade of oaks and pines.  Once I wandered into a
tract so overgrown with bushes and underbrush that I could scarcely force
a passage through.  Nothing is more annoying than a walk of this kind,
where one is tormented by an innumerable host of petty impediments.  It
incenses and depresses me at the same time.  Always when I flounder into
the midst of bushes, which cross and intertwine themselves about my legs,
and brush my face, and seize hold of my clothes, with their multitudinous
grip,--always, in such a difficulty, I feel as if it were almost as well
to lie down and die in rage and despair as to go one step farther.  It is
laughable, after I have got out of the moil, to think how miserably it
affected me for the moment; but I had better learn patience betimes, for
there are many such bushy tracts in this vicinity, on the margins of
meadows, and my walks will often lead me into them.  Escaping from the
bushes, I soon came to an open space among the woods,--a very lovely
spot, with the tall old trees standing around as quietly as if no one had
intruded there throughout the whole summer.  A company of crows were
holding their Sabbath on their summits.  Apparently they felt themselves
injured or insulted by my presence; for, with one consent, they began to
Caw! caw! caw! and, launching themselves sullenly on the air, took flight
to some securer solitude.  Mine, probably, was the first human shape that
they had seen all day long,--at least, if they had been stationary in
that spot; but perhaps they had winged their way over miles and miles of
country, had breakfasted on the summit of Graylock, and dined at the base
of Wachusett, and were merely come to sup and sleep among the quiet woods
of Concord.  But it was my impression at the time, that they had sat
still and silent on the tops of the trees all through the Sabbath day,
and I felt like one who should unawares disturb an assembly of
worshippers.  A crow, however, has no real pretensions to religion, in
spite of his gravity of mien and black attire.  Crows are certainly
thieves, and probably infidels.  Nevertheless, their voices yesterday
were in admirable accordance with the influences of the quiet, sunny,
warm, yet autumnal afternoon.  They were so far above my head that their
loud clamor added to the quiet of the scene, instead of disturbing it.
There was no other sound, except the song of the cricket, which is but an
audible stillness; for, though it be very loud and heard afar, yet the
mind does not take note of it as a sound, so entirely does it mingle and
lose its individuality among the other characteristics of coming autumn.
Alas for the summer!  The grass is still verdant on the hills and in the
valleys; the foliage of the trees is as dense as ever, and as green;
the flowers are abundant along the margin of the river, and in the
hedge-rows, and deep among the woods; the days, too, are as fervid as
they were a month ago; and yet in every breath of wind and in every beam
of sunshine there is an autumnal influence.  I know not how to describe
it.  Methinks there is a sort of coolness amid all the heat, and a
mildness in the brightest of the sunshine.  A breeze cannot stir without
thrilling me with the breath of autumn, and I behold its pensive glory in
the far, golden gleams among the long shadows of the trees.  The flowers,
even the brightest of them,--the golden-rod and the gorgeous cardinals,--
the most glorious flowers of the year,--have this gentle sadness amid
their pomp.  Pensive autumn is expressed in the glow of every one of
them.  I have felt this influence earlier in some years than in others.
Sometimes autumn may be perceived even in the early days of July.  There
is no other feeling like that caused by this faint, doubtful, yet real
perception, or rather prophecy, of the year's decay, so deliciously sweet
and sad at the same time.

After leaving the book at Mr. Emerson's I returned through the woods,
and, entering Sleepy Hollow, I perceived a lady reclining near the path
which bends along its verge.  It was Margaret herself.  She had been
there the whole afternoon, meditating or reading; for she had a book in
her hand, with some strange title, which I did not understand, and have
forgotten.  She said that nobody had broken her solitude, and was just
giving utterance to a theory that no inhabitant of Concord ever visited
Sleepy Hollow, when we saw a group of people entering the sacred
precincts.  Most of them followed a path which led them away from us; but
an old man passed near us, and smiled to see Margaret reclining on the
ground, and me sitting by her side.  He made some remark about the beauty
of the afternoon, and withdrew himself into the shadow of the wood.  Then
we talked about autumn, and about the pleasures of being lost in the
woods, and about the crows, whose voices Margaret had heard; and about
the experiences of early childhood, whose influence remains upon the
character after the recollection of them has passed away; and about the
sight of mountains from a distance, and the view from their summits; and
about other matters of high and low philosophy.  In the midst of our
talk, we heard footsteps above us, on the high bank; and while the person
was still hidden among the trees, he called to Margaret, of whom he had
gotten a glimpse.  Then he emerged from the green shade, and, behold! it
was Mr. Emerson.  He appeared to have had a pleasant time; for he said
that there were Muses in the woods to-day, and whispers to be heard in
the breezes.  It being now nearly six o'clock, we separated,--Margaret
and Mr. Emerson towards his home, and I towards mine. . . .

Last evening there was the most beautiful moonlight that ever hallowed
this earthly world; and when I went to bathe in the river, which was as
calm as death, it seemed like plunging down into the sky.  But I had
rather be on earth than even in the seventh heaven, just now.


Wednesday, August 24th.--I left home at five o'clock this morning to
catch some fish for breakfast.  I shook our summer apple-tree, and ate
the golden apple which fell from it.  Methinks these early apples, which
come as a golden promise before the treasures of autumnal fruit, are
almost more delicious than anything that comes afterwards.  We have but
one such tree in our orchard; but it supplies us with a daily abundance,
and probably will do so for at least a week to come.  Meantime other
trees begin to cast their ripening windfalls upon the grass; and when I
taste them, and perceive their mellowed flavor and blackening seeds, I
feel somewhat overwhelmed with the impending bounties of Providence.  I
suppose Adam, in Paradise, did not like to see his fruits decaying on the
ground, after he had watched them through the sunny days of the world's
first summer.  However, insects, at the worst, will hold a festival upon
them, so that they will not be thrown away, in the great scheme of
Nature.  Moreover, I have one advantage over the primeval Adam, inasmuch
as there is a chance of disposing of my superfluous fruits among people
who inhabit no Paradise of their own.

Passing a little way down along the river-side, I threw in my line, and
soon drew out one of the smallest possible of fishes.  It seemed to be a
pretty good morning for the angler,--an autumnal coolness in the air, a
clear sky, but with a fog across the lowlands and on the surface of the
river, which a gentle breeze sometimes condensed into wreaths.  At first
I could barely discern the opposite shore of the river; but, as the sun
arose, the vapors gradually dispersed, till only a warm, smoky tint was
left along the water's surface.  The farm-houses across the river made
their appearance out of the dusky cloud; the voices of boys were heard,
shouting to the cattle as they drove them to the pastures; a man whetted
his scythe, and set to work in a neighboring meadow.  Meantime, I
continued to stand on the oozy margin of the stream, beguiling the little
fish; and though the scaly inhabitants of our river partake somewhat of
the character of their native element, and are but sluggish biters, still
I contrived to pull out not far from two dozen.  They were all bream, a
broad, flat, almost circular fish, shaped a good deal like a flounder,
but swimming on their edges, instead of on their sides.  As far as mere
pleasure is concerned, it is hardly worth while to fish in our river, it
is so much like angling in a mud-puddle; and one does not attach the idea
of freshness and purity to the fishes, as we do to those which inhabit
swift, transparent streams, or haunt the shores of the great briny deep.
Standing on the weedy margin, and throwing the line over the elder-bushes
that dip into the water, it seems as if we could catch nothing but frogs
and mud-turtles, or reptiles akin to them.  And even when a fish of
reputable aspect is drawn out, one feels a shyness about touching him.
As to our river, its character was admirably expressed last night by some
one who said "it was too lazy to keep itself clean."  I might write pages
and pages, and only obscure the impression which this brief sentence
conveys.  Nevertheless, we made bold to eat some of my fish for
breakfast, and found them very savory; and the rest shall meet with due
entertainment at dinner, together with some shell-beans, green corn, and
cucumbers from our garden; so this day's food comes directly and entirely
from beneficent Nature, without the intervention of any third person
between her and us.


Saturday, August 27th.--A peach-tree, which grows beside our house and
brushes against the window, is so burdened with fruit that I have had to
prop it up.  I never saw more splendid peaches in appearance,--great,
round, crimson-cheeked beauties, clustering all over the tree.  A
pear-tree, likewise, is maturing a generous burden of small, sweet fruit,
which will require to be eaten at about the same time as the peaches.
There is something pleasantly annoying in this superfluous abundance; it
is like standing under a tree of ripe apples, and giving it a shake, with
the intention of bringing down a single one, when, behold, a dozen come
thumping about our ears.  But the idea of the infinite generosity and
exhaustless bounty of our Mother Nature is well worth attaining; and I
never had it so vividly as now, when I find myself, with the few mouths
which I am to feed, the sole inheritor of the old clergyman's wealth of
fruits.  His children, his friends in the village, and the clerical
guests who came to preach in his pulpit, were all wont to eat and be
filled from these trees.  Now, all these hearty old people have passed
away, and in their stead is a solitary pair, whose appetites are more
than satisfied with the windfalls which the trees throw down at their
feet.  Howbeit, we shall have now and then a guest to keep our peaches
and pears from decaying.

G. B------, my old fellow-laborer at the community at Brook Farm, called
on me last evening, and dined here to-day.  He has been cultivating
vegetables at Plymouth this summer, and selling them in the market.  What
a singular mode of life for a man of education and refinement,--to spend
his days in hard and earnest bodily toil, and then to convey the products
of his labor, in a wheelbarrow, to the public market, and there retail
them out,--a peck of peas or beans, a bunch of turnips, a squash, a dozen
ears of green corn!  Few men, without some eccentricity of character,
would have the moral strength to do this; and it is very striking to find
such strength combined with the utmost gentleness, and an uncommon
regularity of nature.  Occasionally he returns for a day or two to resume
his place among scholars and idle people, as, for instance, the present
week, when he has thrown aside his spade and hoe to attend the
Commencement at Cambridge.  He is a rare man,--a perfect original, yet
without any one salient point; a character to be felt and understood, but
almost impossible to describe: for, should you seize upon any
characteristic, it would inevitably be altered and distorted in the
process of writing it down.

Our few remaining days of summer have been latterly grievously darkened
with clouds.  To-day there has been an hour or two of hot sunshine; but
the sun rose amid cloud and mist, and before he could dry up the moisture
of last night's shower upon the trees and grass, the clouds have gathered
between him and us again.  This afternoon the thunder rumbles in the
distance, and I believe a few drops of rain have fallen; but the weight
of the shower has burst elsewhere, leaving us nothing but its sullen
gloom.  There is a muggy warmth in the atmosphere, which takes all the
spring and vivacity out of the mind and body.


Sunday, August 28th.--Still another rainy day,--the heaviest rain, I
believe, that has fallen since we came to Concord (not two months ago).
There never was a more sombre aspect of all external nature.  I gaze from
the open window of my study somewhat disconsolately, and observe the
great willow-tree which shades the house, and which has caught and
retained a whole cataract of rain among its leaves and boughs; and all
the fruit-trees, too, are dripping continually, even in the brief
intervals when the clouds give us a respite.  If shaken to bring down the
fruit, they will discharge a shower upon the head of him who stands
beneath.  The rain is warm, coming from some southern region; but the
willow attests that it is an autumnal spell of weather, by scattering
down no infrequent multitude of yellow leaves, which rest upon the
sloping roof of the house, and strew the gravel-path and the grass.  The
other trees do not yet shed their leaves, though in some of them a
lighter tint of verdure, tending towards yellow, is perceptible.  All day
long we hear the water drip, drip, dripping, splash, splash, splashing,
from the eaves, and babbling and foaming into the tubs which have been
set out to receive it.  The old unpainted shingles and boards of the
mansion and out-houses are black with the moisture which they have
imbibed.  Looking at the river, we perceive that its usually smooth and
mirrored surface is blurred by the infinity of rain-drops; the whole
landscape--grass, trees, and houses--has a completely water-soaked
aspect, as if the earth were wet through.  The wooded hill, about a mile
distant, whither we went to gather whortleberries, has a mist upon its
summit, as if the demon of the rain were enthroned there; and if we look
to the sky, it seems as if all the water that had been poured down upon
us were as nothing to what is to come.  Once in a while, indeed, there is
a gleam of sky along the horizon, or a half-cheerful, half-sullen
lighting up of the atmosphere; the rain-drops cease to patter down,
except when the trees shake off a gentle shower; but soon we hear the
broad, quiet, slow, and sure recommencement of the rain.  The river, if I
mistake not, has risen considerably during the day, and its current will
acquire some degree of energy.

In this sombre weather, when some mortals almost forget that there ever
was any golden sunshine, or ever will be any hereafter, others seem
absolutely to radiate it from their own hearts and minds.  The gloom
cannot pervade them; they conquer it, and drive it quite out of their
sphere, and create a moral rainbow of hope upon the blackest cloud.  As
for myself, I am little other than a cloud at such seasons, but such
persons contrive to make me a sunny one, shining all through me.  And
thus, even without the support of a stated occupation, I survive these
sullen days and am happy.

This morning we read the Sermon on the Mount.  In the course of the
forenoon, the rain abated for a season, and I went out and gathered some
corn and summer-squashes, and picked up the windfalls of apples and pears
and peaches.  Wet, wet, wet,--everything was wet; the blades of the
corn-stalks moistened me; the wet grass soaked my boots quite through;
the trees threw their reserved showers upon my head; and soon the
remorseless rain began anew, and drove me into the house.  When shall we
be able to walk again to the far hills, and plunge into the deep woods,
and gather more cardinals along the river's margin?  The track along
which we trod is probably under water now.  How inhospitable Nature is
during a rain!  In the fervid heat of sunny days, she still retains some
degree of mercy for us; she has shady spots, whither the sun cannot come;
but she provides no shelter against her storms.  It makes one shiver to
think how dripping with wet are those deep, umbrageous nooks, those
overshadowed banks, where we find such enjoyment during sultry
afternoons.  And what becomes of the birds in such a soaking rain as
this?  Is hope and an instinctive faith so mixed up with their nature
that they can be cheered by the thought that the sunshine will return?
or do they think, as I almost do, that there is to be no sunshine any
more?  Very disconsolate must they be among the dripping leaves; and when
a single summer makes so important a portion of their lives, it seems
hard that so much of it should be dissolved in rain.  I, likewise, am
greedy of the summer days for my own sake; the life of man does not
contain so many of them that one can be spared without regret.


Tuesday, August 30th.--I was promised, in the midst of Sunday's rain,
that Monday should be fair, and, behold! the sun came back to us, and
brought one of the most perfect days ever made since Adam was driven out
of Paradise.  By the by, was there ever any rain in Paradise?  If so, how
comfortless must Eve's bower have been! and what a wretched and rheumatic
time must they have had on their bed of wet roses!  It makes me shiver to
think of it.  Well, it seemed as if the world was newly created yesterday
morning, and I beheld its birth; for I had risen before the sun was over
the hill, and had gone forth to fish.  How instantaneously did all
dreariness and heaviness of the earth's spirit flit away before one smile
of the beneficent sun!  This proves that all gloom is but a dream and a
shadow, and that cheerfulness is the real truth.  It requires many
clouds, long brooding over us, to make us sad, but one gleam of sunshine
always suffices to cheer up the landscape.  The banks of the river
actually laughed when the sunshine fell upon them; and the river itself
was alive and cheerful, and, by way of fun and amusement, it had swept
away many wreaths of meadow-hay, and old, rotten branches of trees, and
all such trumpery.  These matters came floating downwards, whirling round
and round in the eddies, or hastening onward in the main current; and
many of them, before this time, have probably been carried into the
Merrimack, and will be borne onward to the sea.  The spots where I stood
to fish, on my preceding excursion, were now under water; and the tops of
many of the bushes, along the river's margin, barely emerged from the
stream.  Large spaces of meadow are overflowed.

There was a northwest-wind throughout the day; and as many clouds, the
remnants of departed gloom, were scattered about the sky, the breeze was
continually blowing them across the sun.  For the most part, they were
gone again in a moment; but sometimes the shadow remained long enough to
make me dread a return of sulky weather.  Then would come the burst of
sunshine, making me feel as if a rainy day were henceforth an
impossibility. . . .

In the afternoon Mr. Emerson called, bringing Mr. ------.  He is a good
sort of humdrum parson enough, and well fitted to increase the stock of
manuscript sermons, of which there must be a fearful quantity already in
the world.  Mr. ------, however, is probably one of the best and most
useful of his class, because no suspicion of the necessity of his
profession, constituted as it now is, to mankind, and of his own
usefulness and success in it, has hitherto disturbed him; and therefore
he labors with faith and confidence, as ministers did a hundred years
ago.

After the visitors were gone, I sat at the gallery window, looking down
the avenue; and soon there appeared an elderly woman,--a homely, decent
old matron, dressed in a dark gown, and with what seemed a manuscript
book under her arm.  The wind sported with her gown, and blew her veil
across her face, and seemed to make game of her, though on a nearer view
she looked like a sad old creature, with a pale, thin countenance, and
somewhat of a wild and wandering expression.  She had a singular gait,
reeling, as it were, and yet not quite reeling, from one side of the path
to the other; going onward as if it were not much matter whether she went
straight or crooked.  Such were my observations as she approached through
the scattered sunshine and shade of our long avenue, until, reaching the
door, she gave a knock, and inquired for the lady of the house.  Her
manuscript contained a certificate, stating that the old woman was a
widow from a foreign land, who had recently lost her son, and was now
utterly destitute of friends and kindred, and without means of support.
Appended to the certificate there was a list of names of people who had
bestowed charity on her, with the amounts of their several donations,--
none, as I recollect, higher than twenty-five cents.  Here is a strange
life, and a character fit for romance and poetry.  All the early part of
her life, I suppose, and much of her widowhood, were spent in the quiet
of a home, with kinsfolk around her, and children, and the lifelong
gossiping acquaintances that some women always create about them.  But in
her decline she has wandered away from all these, and from her native
country itself, and is a vagrant, yet with something of the homeliness
and decency of aspect belonging to one who has been a wife and mother,
and has had a roof of her own above her head,--and, with all this, a
wildness proper to her present life.  I have a liking for vagrants of all
sorts, and never, that I know of, refused my mite to a wandering beggar,
when I had anything in my own pocket.  There is so much wretchedness in
the world, that we may safely take the word of any mortal professing to
need our assistance; and, even should we be deceived, still the good to
ourselves resulting from a kind act is worth more than the trifle by
which we purchase it.  It is desirable, I think, that such persons should
be permitted to roam through our land of plenty, scattering the seeds of
tenderness and charity, as birds of passage bear the seeds of precious
plants from land to land, without even dreaming of the office which they
perform.


Thursday, September 1st.--Mr. Thoreau dined with us yesterday. . . . He
is a keen and delicate observer of nature,--a genuine observer,--which, I
suspect, is almost as rare a character as even an original poet; and
Nature, in return for his love, seems to adopt him as her especial child,
and shows him secrets which few others are allowed to witness.  He is
familiar with beast, fish, fowl, and reptile, and has strange stories to
tell of adventures and friendly passages with these lower brethren of
mortality.  Herb and flower, likewise, wherever they grow, whether in
garden or wildwood, are his familiar friends.  He is also on intimate
terms with the clouds, and can tell the portents of storms.  It is a
characteristic trait, that he has a great regard for the memory of the
Indian tribes, whose wild life would have suited him so well; and,
strange to say, he seldom walks over a ploughed field without picking up
an arrow-point, spearhead, or other relic of the red man, as if their
spirits willed him to be the inheritor of their simple wealth.

With all this he has more than a tincture of literature,--a deep and true
taste for poetry, especially for the elder poets, and he is a good
writer,--at least he has written a good article, a rambling disquisition
on Natural History, in the last Dial, which, he says, was chiefly made up
from journals of his own observations.  Methinks this article gives a
very fair image of his mind and character,--so true, innate, and literal
in observation, yet giving the spirit as well as letter of what he sees,
even as a lake reflects its wooded banks, showing every leaf, yet giving
the wild beauty of the whole scene.  Then there are in the article
passages of cloudy and dreamy metaphysics, and also passages where his
thoughts seem to measure and attune themselves into spontaneous verse, as
they rightfully may, since there is real poetry in them.  There is a
basis of good sense and of moral truth, too, throughout the article,
which also is a reflection of his character; for he is not unwise to
think and feel, and I find him a healthy and wholesome man to know.

After dinner (at which we cut the first watermelon and muskmelon that our
garden has grown), Mr. Thoreau and I walked up the bank of the river, and
at a certain point he shouted for his boat.  Forthwith a young man
paddled it across, and Mr. Thoreau and I voyaged farther up the stream,
which soon became more beautiful than any picture, with its dark and
quiet sheet of water, half shaded, half sunny, between high and wooded
banks.  The late rains have swollen the stream so much that many trees
are standing up to their knees, as it were, in the water, and boughs,
which lately swung high in air, now dip and drink deep of the passing
wave.  As to the poor cardinals which glowed upon the bank a few days
since, I could see only a few of their scarlet hats, peeping above the
tide.  Mr. Thoreau managed the boat so perfectly, either with two paddles
or with one, that it seemed instinct with his own will, and to require no
physical effort to guide it.  He said that, when some Indians visited
Concord a few years ago, he found that he had acquired, without a
teacher, their precise method of propelling and steering a canoe.
Nevertheless he was desirous of selling the boat of which he was so fit a
pilot, and which was built by his own hands; so I agreed to take it, and
accordingly became possessor of the Musketaquid.  I wish I could acquire
the aquatic skill of the original owner.


September 2d.--Yesterday afternoon Mr. Thoreau arrived with the boat.
The adjacent meadow being overflowed by the rise of the stream, he had
rowed directly to the foot of the orchard, and landed at the bars, after
floating over forty or fifty yards of water where people were lately
making hay.  I entered the boat with him, in order to have the benefit of
a lesson in rowing and paddling. . . . I managed, indeed, to propel the
boat by rowing with two oars, but the use of the single paddle is quite
beyond my present skill.  Mr. Thoreau had assured me that it was only
necessary to will the boat to go in any particular direction, and she
would immediately take that course, as if imbued with the spirit of the
steersman.  It may be so with him, but it is certainly not so with me.
The boat seemed to be bewitched, and turned its head to every point of
the compass except the right one.  He then took the paddle himself, and,
though I could observe nothing peculiar in his management of it, the
Musketaquid immediately became as docile as a trained steed.  I suspect
that she has not yet transferred her affections from her old master to
her new one.  By and by, when we are better acquainted, she will grow
more tractable. . . . We propose to change her name from Musketaquid
(the Indian name of the Concord River, meaning the river of meadows) to
the Pond-Lily, which will be very beautiful and appropriate, as, during
the summer season, she will bring home many a cargo of pond-lilies from
along the river's weedy shore.  It is not very likely that I shall make
such long voyages in her as Mr. Thoreau has made.  He once followed our
river down to the Merrimack, and thence, I believe, to Newburyport in
this little craft.

In the evening, ---- ------ called to see us, wishing to talk with me
about a Boston periodical, of which he had heard that I was to be editor,
and to which he desired to contribute.  He is an odd and clever young
man, with nothing very peculiar about him,--some originality and
self-inspiration in his character, but none, or, very little, in his
intellect.  Nevertheless, the lad himself seems to feel as if he were a
genius.  I like him well enough, however; but, after all, these originals
in a small way, after one has seen a few of them, become more dull and
commonplace than even those who keep the ordinary pathway of life.  They
have a rule and a routine, which they follow with as little variety as
other people do their rule and routine; and when once we have fathomed
their mystery, nothing can be more wearisome.  An innate perception and
reflection of truth give the only sort of originality that does not
finally grow intolerable.


September 4th.--I made a voyage in the Pond-Lily all by myself yesterday
morning, and was much encouraged by my success in causing the boat to go
whither I would.  I have always liked to be afloat, but I think I have
never adequately conceived of the enjoyment till now, when I begin to
feel a power over that which supports me.  I suppose I must have felt
something like this sense of triumph when I first learned to swim; but I
have forgotten it.  O that I could run wild!--that is, that I could put
myself into a true relation with Nature, and be on friendly terms with
all congenial elements.

We had a thunder-storm last evening; and to-day has been a cool, breezy
autumnal day, such as my soul and body love.


September 18th.--How the summer-time flits away, even while it seems to
be loitering onward, arm in arm with autumn!  Of late I have walked but
little over the hills and through the woods, my leisure being chiefly
occupied with my boat, which I have now learned to manage with tolerable
skill.  Yesterday afternoon I made a voyage alone up the North Branch of
Concord River.  There was a strong west-wind blowing dead against me,
which, together with the current, increased by the height of the water,
made the first part of the passage pretty toilsome.  The black river was
all dimpled over with little eddies and whirlpools; and the breeze,
moreover, caused the billows to beat against the bow of the boat, with a
sound like the flapping of a bird's wing.  The water-weeds, where they
were discernible through the tawny water, were straight outstretched by
the force of the current, looking as if they were forced to hold on to
their roots with all their might.  If for a moment I desisted from
paddling, the head of the boat was swept round by the combined might of
wind and tide.  However, I toiled onward stoutly, and, entering the North
Branch, soon found myself floating quietly along a tranquil stream,
sheltered from the breeze by the woods and a lofty hill.  The current,
likewise, lingered along so gently that it was merely a pleasure to
propel the boat against it.  I never could have conceived that there was
so beautiful a river-scene in Concord as this of the North Branch.  The
stream flows through the midmost privacy and deepest heart of a wood,
which, as if but half satisfied with its presence, calm, gentle, and
unobtrusive as it is, seems to crowd upon it, and barely to allow it
passage; for the trees are rooted on the very verge of the water, and dip
their pendent branches into it.  On one side there is a high bank,
forming the side of a hill, the Indian name of which I have forgotten,
though Mr. Thoreau told it to me; and here, in some instances, the trees
stand leaning over the river, stretching out their arms as if about to
plunge in headlong.  On the other side, the bank is almost on a level
with the water; and there the quiet congregation of trees stood with feet
in the flood, and fringed with foliage down to its very surface.  Vines
here and there twine themselves about bushes or aspens or alder-trees,
and hang their clusters (though scanty and infrequent this season) so
that I can reach them from my boat.  I scarcely remember a scene of more
complete and lovely seclusion than the passage of the river through this
wood.  Even an Indian canoe, in olden times, could not have floated
onward in deeper solitude than my boat.  I have never elsewhere had such
an opportunity to observe how much more beautiful reflection is than what
we call reality.  The sky, and the clustering foliage on either hand, and
the effect of sunlight as it found its way through the shade, giving
lightsome hues in contrast with the quiet depth of the prevailing tints,
--all these seemed unsurpassably beautiful when beheld in upper air.  But
on gazing downward, there they were, the same even to the minutest
particular, yet arrayed in ideal beauty, which satisfied the spirit
incomparably more than the actual scene.  I am half convinced that the
reflection is indeed the reality, the real thing which Nature imperfectly
images to our grosser sense.  At any rate, the disembodied shadow is
nearest to the soul.

There were many tokens of autumn in this beautiful picture.  Two or three
of the trees were actually dressed in their coats of many colors,--the
real scarlet and gold which they wear before they put on mourning.  These
stood on low, marshy spots, where a frost has probably touched them
already.  Others were of a light, fresh green, resembling the hues of
spring, though this, likewise, is a token of decay.  The great mass of
the foliage, however, appears unchanged; but ever and anon down came a
yellow leaf, half flitting upon the air, half falling through it, and
finally settling upon the water.  A multitude of these were floating here
and there along the river, many of them curling upward, so as to form
little boats, fit for fairies to voyage in.  They looked strangely
pretty, with yet a melancholy prettiness, as they floated along.  The
general aspect of the river, however, differed but little from that of
summer,--at least the difference defies expression.  It is more in the
character of the rich yellow sunlight than in aught else.  The water of
the stream has now a thrill of autumnal coolness; yet whenever a broad
gleam fell across it, through an interstice of the foliage, multitudes of
insects were darting to and fro upon its surface.  The sunshine, thus
falling across the dark river, has a most beautiful effect.  It burnishes
it, as it were, and yet leaves it as dark as ever.

On my return, I suffered the boat to float almost of its own will down
the stream, and caught fish enough for this morning's breakfast.  But,
partly from a qualm of conscience, I finally put them all into the water
again, and saw them swim away as if nothing had happened.


Monday, October 10th.--A long while, indeed, since my last date.  But the
weather has been generally sunny and pleasant, though often very cold;
and I cannot endure to waste anything so precious as autumnal sunshine by
staying in the house.  So I have spent almost all the daylight hours in
the open air.  My chief amusement has been boating up and down the river.
A week or two ago (September 27 and 28) I went on a pedestrian excursion
with Mr. Emerson, and was gone two days and one night, it being the first
and only night that I have spent away from home.  We were that night at
the village of Harvard, and the next morning walked three miles farther,
to the Shaker village, where we breakfasted.  Mr. Emerson had a
theological discussion with two of the Shaker brethren; but the
particulars of it have faded from my memory; and all the other adventures
of the tour have now so lost their freshness that I cannot adequately
recall them.  Wherefore let them rest untold.  I recollect nothing so
well as the aspect of some fringed gentians, which we saw growing by the
roadside, and which were so beautiful that I longed to turn back and
pluck them.  After an arduous journey, we arrived safe home in the
afternoon of the second day,--the first time that I ever came home in my
life; for I never had a home before.  On Saturday of the same week, my
friend D. R------ came to see us, and stayed till Tuesday morning.  On
Wednesday there was a cattleshow in the village, of which I would give a
description, if it had possessed any picturesque points.  The foregoing
are the chief outward events of our life.

In the mean time autumn has been advancing, and is said to be a month
earlier than usual.  We had frosts, sufficient to kill the bean and
squash vines, more than a fortnight ago; but there has since been some of
the most delicious Indian-summer weather that I ever experienced,--mild,
sweet, perfect days, in which the warm sunshine seemed to embrace the
earth and all earth's children with love and tenderness.  Generally,
however, the bright days have been vexed with winds from the northwest,
somewhat too keen and high for comfort.  These winds have strewn our
avenue with withered leaves, although the trees still retain some density
of foliage, which is now imbrowned or otherwise variegated by autumn.
Our apples, too, have been falling, falling, falling; and we have picked
the fairest of them from the dewy grass, and put them in our store-room
and elsewhere.  On Thursday, John Flint began to gather those which
remained on the trees; and I suppose they will amount to nearly twenty
barrels, or perhaps more.  As usual when I have anything to sell, apples
are very low indeed in price, and will not fetch me more than a dollar a
barrel.  I have sold my share of the potato-field for twenty dollars and
ten bushels of potatoes for my own use.  This may suffice for the
economical history of our recent life.


12 o'clock, M.--Just now I heard a sharp tapping at the window of my
study, and, looking up from my book (a volume of Rabelais), behold! the
head of a little bird, who seemed to demand admittance!  He was probably
attempting to get a fly, which was on the pane of glass against which he
rapped; and on my first motion the feathered visitor took wing.  This
incident had a curious effect on me.  It impressed me as if the bird had
been a spiritual visitant, so strange was it that this little wild thing
should seem to ask our hospitality.


November 8th.--I am sorry that our journal has fallen so into neglect;
but I see no chance of amendment.  All my scribbling propensities will be
far more than gratified in writing nonsense for the press; so that any
gratuitous labor of the pen becomes peculiarly distasteful.  Since the
last date, we have paid a visit of nine days to Boston and Salem, whence
we returned a week ago yesterday.  Thus we lost above a week of delicious
autumnal weather, which should have been spent in the woods or upon the
river.  Ever since our return, however, until to-day, there has been a
succession of genuine Indian-summer days, with gentle winds or none at
all, and a misty atmosphere, which idealizes all nature, and a mild,
beneficent sunshine, inviting one to lie down in a nook and forget all
earthly care.  To-day the sky is dark and lowering, and occasionally lets
fall a few sullen tears.  I suppose we must bid farewell to Indian summer
now, and expect no more love and tenderness from Mother Nature till next
spring be well advanced.  She has already made herself as unlovely in
outward aspect as can well be.  We took a walk to Sleepy Hollow
yesterday, and beheld scarcely a green thing, except the everlasting
verdure of the family of pines, which, indeed, are trees to thank God for
at this season.  A range of young birches had retained a pretty liberal
coloring of yellow or tawny leaves, which became very cheerful in the
sunshine.  There were one or two oak-trees whose foliage still retained a
deep, dusky red, which looked rich and warm; but most of the oaks had
reached the last stage of autumnal decay,--the dusky brown hue.  Millions
of their leaves strew the woods and rustle underneath the foot; but
enough remain upon the boughs to make a melancholy harping when the wind
sweeps over them.  We found some fringed gentians in the meadow, most of
them blighted and withered; but a few were quite perfect.  The other day,
since our return from Salem, I found a violet; yet it was so cold that
day, that a large pool of water, under the shadow of some trees, had
remained frozen from morning till afternoon.  The ice was so thick as not
to be broken by some sticks and small stones which I threw upon it.  But
ice and snow too will soon be no extraordinary matters with us.

During the last week we have had three stoves put up, and henceforth no
light of a cheerful fire will gladden us at eventide.  Stoves are
detestable in every respect, except that they keep us perfectly
comfortable.


Thursday, November 24th.--This is Thanksgiving Day, a good old festival,
and we have kept it with our hearts, and, besides, have made good cheer
upon our turkey and pudding, and pies and custards, although none sat at
our board but our two selves.  There was a new and livelier sense, I
think, that we have at last found a home, and that a new family has been
gathered since the last Thanksgiving Day.  There have been many bright
cold days latterly,--so cold that it has required a pretty rapid pace to
keep one's self warm a-walking.  Day before yesterday I saw a party of
boys skating on a pond of water that has overflowed a neighboring meadow.
Running water has not yet frozen.  Vegetation has quite come to a stand,
except in a few sheltered spots.  In a deep ditch we found a tall plant
of the freshest and healthiest green, which looked as if it must have
grown within the last few weeks.  We wander among the wood-paths, which
are very pleasant in the sunshine of the afternoons, the trees looking
rich and warm,--such of them, I mean, as have retained their russet
leaves; and where the leaves are strewn along the paths, or heaped
plentifully in some hollow of the hills, the effect is not without a
charm.  To-day the morning rose with rain, which has since changed to
snow and sleet; and now the landscape is as dreary as can well be
imagined,--white, with the brownness of the soil and withered grass
everywhere peeping out.  The swollen river, of a leaden hue, drags itself
sullenly along; and this may be termed the first winter's day.


Friday, March 31st, 1843.--The first month of spring is already gone; and
still the snow lies deep on hill and valley, and the river is still
frozen from bank to bank, although a late rain has caused pools of water
to stand on the surface of the ice, and the meadows are overflowed into
broad lakes.  Such a protracted winter has not been known for twenty
years, at least.  I have almost forgotten the wood-paths and shady places
which I used to know so well last summer; and my views are so much
confined to the interior of our mansion, that sometimes, looking out of
the window, I am surprised to catch a glimpse of houses, at no great
distance, which had quite passed out of my recollection.  From present
appearances, another month may scarcely suffice to wash away all the snow
from the open country; and in the woods and hollows it may linger yet
longer.  The winter will not have been a day less than five months long;
and it would not be unfair to call it seven.  A great space, indeed, to
miss the smile of Nature, in a single year of human life.  Even out of
the midst of happiness I have sometimes sighed and groaned; for I love
the sunshine and the green woods, and the sparkling blue water; and it
seems as if the picture of our inward bliss should be set in a beautiful
frame of outward nature. . . . As to the daily course of our life, I
have written with pretty commendable diligence, averaging from two to
four hours a day; and the result is seen in various magazines.  I might
have written more, if it had seemed worth while; but I was content to
earn only so much gold as might suffice for our immediate wants, having
prospect of official station and emolument which would do away with the
necessity of writing for bread.  Those prospects have not yet had their
fulfilment; and we are well content to wait, because an office would
inevitably remove us from our present happy home,--at least from an
outward home; for there is an inner one that will accompany us wherever
we go.  Meantime, the magazine people do not pay their debts; so that we
taste some of the inconveniences of poverty.  It is an annoyance, not a
trouble.

Every day, I trudge through snow and slosh to the village, look into the
post-office, and spend an hour at the reading-room; and then return home,
generally without having spoken a word to a human being. . . . In the
way of exercise I saw and split wood, and, physically, I never was in a
better condition than now.  This is chiefly owing, doubtless, to a
satisfied heart, in aid of which comes the exercise above mentioned, and
about a fair proportion of intellectual labor.

On the 9th of this mouth, we left home again on a visit to Boston and
Salem.  I alone went to Salem, where I resumed all my bachelor habits for
nearly a fortnight, leading the same life in which ten years of my youth
flitted away like a dream.  But how much changed was I!  At last I had
caught hold of a reality which never could be taken from me.  It was good
thus to get apart from my happiness, for the sake of contemplating it.
On the 21st, I returned to Boston, and went out to Cambridge to dine with
Longfellow, whom I had not seen since his return from Europe.  The next
day we came back to our old house, which had been deserted all this time;
for our servant had gone with us to Boston.


Friday, April 7th.--My wife has gone to Boston to see her sister M------,
who is to be married in two or three weeks, and then immediately to visit
Europe for six months. . . . I betook myself to sawing and splitting
wood; there being an inward unquietness which demanded active exercise,
and I sawed, I think, more briskly than ever before.  When I re-entered
the house, it was with somewhat of a desolate feeling; yet not without an
intermingled pleasure, as being the more conscious that all separation
was temporary, and scarcely real, even for the little time that it may
last.  After my solitary dinner, I lay down, with the Dial in my hand,
and attempted to sleep; but sleep would not come. . . . So I arose, and
began this record in the journal, almost at the commencement of which I
was interrupted by a visit from Mr. Thoreau, who came to return a book,
and to announce his purpose of going to reside at Staten Island, as
private tutor in the family of Mr. Emerson's brother.  We had some
conversation upon this subject, and upon the spiritual advantages of
change of place, and upon the Dial, and upon Mr. Alcott, and other
kindred or concatenated subjects.  I am glad, on Mr. Thoreau's own
account, that he is going away, as he is out of health, and may be
benefited by his removal; but, on my account, I should like to have him
remain here, he being one of the few persons, I think, with whom to hold
intercourse is like hearing the wind among the boughs of a forest-tree;
and, with all this wild freedom, there is high and classic cultivation in
him too. . . .

I had a purpose, if circumstances would permit, of passing the whole term
of my wife's absence without speaking a word to any human being; but now
my Pythagorean vow has been broken, within three or four hours after her
departure.


Saturday, April 8th.--After journalizing yesterday afternoon, I went out
and sawed and split wood till teatime, then studied German (translating
Lenore), with an occasional glance at a beautiful sunset, which I could
not enjoy sufficiently by myself to induce me to lay aside the book.
After lamplight, finished Lenore, and drowsed over Voltaire's Candide,
occasionally refreshing myself with a tune from Mr. Thoreau's
musical-box, which he had left in my keeping.  The evening was but a dull
one.

I retired soon after nine, and felt some apprehension that the old
Doctor's ghost would take this opportunity to visit me; but I rather
think his former visitations have not been intended for me, and that I am
not sufficiently spiritual for ghostly communication.  At all events, I
met with no disturbance of the kind, and slept soundly enough till six
o'clock or thereabouts.  The forenoon was spent with the pen in my hand,
and sometimes I had the glimmering of an idea, and endeavored to
materialize it in words; but on the whole my mind was idly vagrant, and
refused to work to any systematic purpose.  Between eleven and twelve I
went to the post-office, but found no letter; then spent above an hour
reading at the Athenaeum.  On my way home, I encountered Mr. Flint, for
the first time these many weeks, although he is our next neighbor in one
direction.  I inquired if he could sell us some potatoes, and he promised
to send half a bushel for trial.  Also, he encouraged me to hope that he
might buy a barrel of our apples.  After my encounter with Mr. Flint, I
returned to our lonely old abbey, opened the door without the usual
heart-spring, ascended to my study, and began to read a tale of Tieck.
Slow work, and dull work too!  Anon, Molly, the cook, rang the bell for
dinner,--a sumptuous banquet of stewed veal and macaroni, to which I sat
down in solitary state.  My appetite served me sufficiently to eat with,
but not for enjoyment.  Nothing has a zest in my present widowed state.
[Thus far I had written, when Mr. Emerson called.]  After dinner, I lay
down on the couch, with the Dial in my hand as a soporific, and had a
short nap; then began to journalize.

Mr. Emerson came, with a sunbeam in his face; and we had as good a talk
as I ever remember to have had with him.  He spoke of Margaret Fuller,
who, he says, has risen perceptibly into a higher state since their last
meeting.  [There rings the tea-bell.]  Then we discoursed of Ellery
Channing, a volume of whose poems is to be immediately published, with
revisions by Mr. Emerson himself and Mr. Sam G. Ward. . . . He calls
them "poetry for poets."  Next Mr. Thoreau was discussed, and his
approaching departure; in respect to which we agreed pretty well. . . .
We talked of Brook Farm, and the singular moral aspects which it
presents, and the great desirability that its progress and developments
should be observed and its history written; also of C. N------, who, it
appears, is passing through a new moral phasis.  He is silent,
inexpressive, talks little or none, and listens without response, except
a sardonic laugh; and some of his friends think that he is passing into
permanent eclipse.  Various other matters were considered or glanced at,
and finally, between five and six o'clock, Mr. Emerson took his leave.  I
then went out to chop wood, my allotted space for which had been very
much abridged by his visit; but I was not sorry.  I went on with the
journal for a few minutes before tea, and have finished the present
record in the setting sunshine and gathering dusk. . . .


Salem.--. . . . Here I am, in my old chamber, where I produced those
stupendous works of fiction which have since impressed the universe with
wonderment and awe!  To this chamber, doubtless, in all succeeding ages,
pilgrims will come to pay their tribute of reverence;--they will put off
their shoes at the threshold for fear of desecrating the tattered old
carpets!  "There," they will exclaim, "is the very bed in which he
slumbered, and where he was visited by those ethereal visions which he
afterwards fixed forever in glowing words!  There is the wash-stand at
which this exalted personage cleansed himself from the stains of earth,
and rendered his outward man a fitting exponent of the pure soul within.
There, in its mahogany frame, is the dressing-glass, which often
reflected that noble brow, those hyacinthine locks, that mouth bright
with smiles or tremulous with feeling, that flashing or melting eye,
that--in short, every item of the magnanimous face of this unexampled
man.  There is the pine table,--there the old flag-bottomed chair on
which he sat, and at which he scribbled, during his agonies of
inspiration!  There is the old chest of drawers in which he kept what
shirts a poor author may be supposed to have possessed!  There is the
closet in which was reposited his threadbare suit of black!  There is the
worn-out shoe-brush with which this polished writer polished his boots.
There is--" but I believe, this will be pretty much all, so here I close
the catalogue. . . .

A cloudy veil stretches over the abyss of my nature.  I have, however, no
love of secrecy and darkness.  I am glad to think that God sees through
my heart, and, if any angel has power to penetrate into it, he is welcome
to know everything that is there.  Yes, and so may any mortal who is
capable of full sympathy, and therefore worthy to come into my depths.
But he must find his own way there.  I can neither guide nor enlighten
him.  It is this involuntary reserve, I suppose, that has given the
objectivity to my writings; and when people think that I am pouring
myself out in a tale or an essay, I am merely telling what is common to
human nature, not what is peculiar to myself.  I sympathize with them,
not they with me. . . .

I have recently been both lectured about and preached about here in my
native city; the preacher was Rev. Mr. Fox of Newburyport; but how he
contrived to put me into a sermon I know not.  I trust he took for his
text, "Behold an Israelite indeed, in whom there is no guile."


Salem, March 12th.--. . . . That poor home! how desolate it is now!  Last
night, being awake, . . . . my thoughts travelled back to the lonely old
Manse; and it seemed as if I were wandering up stairs and down stairs all
by myself.  My fancy was almost afraid to be there alone.  I could see
every object in a dim, gray light,--our chamber, the study, all in
confusion; the parlor, with the fragments of that abortive breakfast on
the table, and the precious silver forks, and the old bronze image,
keeping its solitary stand upon the mantelpiece.  Then, methought, the
wretched Vigwiggie came, and jumped upon the window-sill, and clung there
with her fore paws, mewing dismally for admittance, which I could not
grant her, being there myself only in the spirit.  And then came the
ghost of the old Doctor, stalking through the gallery, and down the
staircase, and peeping into the parlor; and though I was wide awake, and
conscious of being so many miles from the spot, still it was quite awful
to think of the ghost having sole possession of our home; for I could not
quite separate myself from it, after all.  Somehow the Doctor and I
seemed to be there tete-a-tete. . . . I believe I did not have any
fantasies about the ghostly kitchen-maid; but I trust Mary left the
flat-irons within her reach, so that she may do all her ironing while we
are away, and never disturb us more at midnight.  I suppose she comes
thither to iron her shroud, and perhaps, likewise, to smooth the Doctor's
band.  Probably, during her lifetime, she allowed him to go to some
ordination or other grand clerical celebration with rumpled linen, and
ever since, and throughout all earthly futurity (at least, as long as the
house shall stand), she is doomed to exercise a nightly toil with a
spiritual flat-iron.  Poor sinner!--and doubtless Satan heats the irons
for her.  What nonsense is all this! but, really, it does make me shiver
to think of that poor home of ours.


March 16th.--. . . . As for this Mr. ------, I wish he would not be so
troublesome.  His scheme is well enough, and might possibly become
popular; but it has no peculiar advantages with reference to myself, nor
do the subjects of his proposed books particularly suit my fancy as
themes to write upon.  Somebody else will answer his purpose just as
well; and I would rather write books of my own imagining than be hired to
develop the ideas of an engraver; especially as the pecuniary prospect is
not better, nor so good, as it might be elsewhere.  I intend to adhere to
my former plan of writing one or two mythological story-books, to be
published under O'Sullivan's auspices in New York,---which is the only
place where books can be published with a chance of profit.  As a matter
of courtesy, I may call on Mr. ------, if I have time; but I do not
intend to be connected with this affair.


Sunday, April 9th.--. . . . After finishing my record in the journal, I
sat a long time in grandmother's chair, thinking of many things. . . .
My spirits were at a lower ebb than they ever descend to when I am not
alone; nevertheless, neither was I absolutely sad.  Many times I wound
and rewound Mr. Thoreau's little musical-box; but certainly its peculiar
sweetness had evaporated, and I am pretty sure that I should throw it out
of the window were I doomed to hear it long and often.  It has not an
infinite soul.  When it was almost as dark as the moonlight would let it
be, I lighted the lamp, and went on with Tieck's tale, slowly and
painfully, often wishing for help in my difficulties.  At last I
determined to learn a little about pronouns and verbs before proceeding
further, and so took up the phrase-book, with which I was commendably
busy, when, at about a quarter to nine, came a knock at my study door,
and, behold, there was Molly with a letter!  How she came by it I did not
ask, being content to suppose it was brought by a heavenly messenger.  I
had not expected a letter; and what a comfort it was to me in my
loneliness and sombreness!  I called Molly to take her note (enclosed),
which she received with a face of delight as broad and bright as the
kitchen fire.  Then I read, and re-read, and re-re-read, and quadruply,
quintuply, and sextuply re-read my epistle, until I had it all by heart,
and then continued to re-read it for the sake of the penmanship.  Then I
took up the phrase-book again; but could not study, and so bathed and
retired, it being now not far from ten o'clock.  I lay awake a good deal
in the night, but saw no ghost.

I arose about seven, and found that the upper part of my nose, and the
region round about, was grievously discolored; and at the angle of the
left eye there is a great spot of almost black purple, and a broad streak
of the same hue semicircling beneath either eye, while green, yellow, and
orange overspread the circumjacent country.  It looks not unlike a
gorgeous sunset, throwing its splendor over the heaven of my countenance.
It will behoove me to show myself as little as possible, else people will
think I have fought a pitched battle. . . . The Devil take the stick of
wood!  What had I done, that it should bemaul me so?  However, there is
no pain, though, I think, a very slight affection of the eyes.

This forenoon I began to write, and caught an idea by the skirts, which I
intend to hold fast, though it struggles to get free.  As it was not
ready to be put upon paper, however, I took up the Dial, and finished
reading the article on Mr. Alcott.  It is not very satisfactory, and it
has not taught me much.  Then I read Margaret's article on Canova, which
is good.  About this time the dinner-bell rang, and I went down without
much alacrity, though with a good appetite enough. . . . It was in the
angle of my right eye, not my left, that the blackest purple was
collected.  But they both look like the very Devil.

Half past five o'clock.--After writing the above, . . . . I again set to
work on Tieck's tale, and worried through several pages; and then, at
half past four, threw open one of the western windows of my study, and
sallied forth to take the sunshine.  I went down through the orchard to
the river-side.  The orchard-path is still deeply covered with snow; and
so is the whole visible universe, except streaks upon the hillsides, and
spots in the sunny hollows, where the brown earth peeps through.  The
river, which a few days ago was entirely imprisoned, has now broken its
fetters; but a tract of ice extended across from near the foot of the
monument to the abutment of the old bridge, and looked so solid that I
supposed it would yet remain for a day or two.  Large cakes and masses of
ice came floating down the current, which, though not very violent,
hurried along at a much swifter pace than the ordinary one of our
sluggish river-god.  These ice-masses, when they struck the barrier of
ice above mentioned, acted upon it like a battering-ram, and were
themselves forced high out of the water, or sometimes carried beneath the
main sheet of ice.  At last, down the stream came an immense mass of ice,
and, striking the barrier about at its centre, it gave way, and the whole
was swept onward together, leaving the river entirely free, with only
here and there a cake of ice floating quietly along.  The great
accumulation, in its downward course, hit against a tree that stood in
mid-current, and caused it to quiver like a reed; and it swept quite over
the shrubbery that bordered what, in summer-time, is the river's bank,
but which is now nearly the centre of the stream.  Our river in its
present state has quite a noble breadth.  The little hillock which formed
the abutment of the old bridge is now an island with its tuft of trees.
Along the hither shore a row of trees stand up to their knees, and the
smaller ones to their middles, in the water; and afar off, on the surface
of the stream, we see tufts of bushes emerging, thrusting up their heads,
as it were, to breathe.  The water comes over the stone-wall, and
encroaches several yards on the boundaries of our orchard.  [Here the
supper-bell rang.]  If our boat were in good order, I should now set
forth on voyages of discovery, and visit nooks on the borders of the
meadows, which by and by will be a mile or two from the water's edge.
But she is in very bad condition, full of water, and, doubtless, as leaky
as a sieve.

On coming from supper, I found that little Puss had established herself
in the study, probably with intent to pass the night here.  She now lies
on the footstool between my feet, purring most obstreperously.  The day
of my wife's departure, she came to me, talking with the greatest
earnestness; but whether it was to condole with me on my loss, or to
demand my redoubled care for herself, I could not well make out.  As Puss
now constitutes a third part of the family, this mention of her will not
appear amiss.  How Molly employs herself, I know not.  Once in a while, I
hear a door slam like a thunder-clap; but she never shows her face, nor
speaks a word, unless to announce a visitor or deliver a letter.  This
day, on my part, will have been spent without exchanging a syllable with
any human being, unless something unforeseen should yet call for the
exercise of speech before bedtime.


Monday, April 10th.--I sat till eight o'clock, meditating upon this world
and the next, . . . . and sometimes dimly shaping out scenes of a tale.
Then betook myself to the German phrase-book.  Ah! these are but dreary
evenings.  The lamp would not brighten my spirits, though it was duly
filled. . . . This forenoon was spent in scribbling, by no means to my
satisfaction, until past eleven, when I went to the village.  Nothing in
our box at the post-office.  I read during the customary hour, or more,
at the Athenaeum, and returned without saying a word to mortal.  I
gathered, from some conversation that I heard, that a son of Adam is to
be buried this afternoon from the meeting-house; but the name of the
deceased escaped me.  It is no great matter, so it be but written in the
Book of Life.

My variegated face looks somewhat more human to-day; though I was
unaffectedly ashamed to meet anybody's gaze, and therefore turned my back
or my shoulder as much as possible upon the world.  At dinner, behold an
immense joint of roast veal!  I would willingly have had some assistance
in the discussion of this great piece of calf.  I am ashamed to eat
alone; it becomes the mere gratification of animal appetite,--the tribute
which we are compelled to pay to our grosser nature; whereas in the
company of another it is refined and moralized and spiritualized; and
over our earthly victuals (or rather vittles, for the former is a very
foolish mode of spelling),--over our earthly vittles is diffused a sauce
of lofty and gentle thoughts, and tough meat is mollified with tender
feelings.  But oh! these solitary meals are the dismallest part of my
present experience.  When the company rose from table, they all, in my
single person, ascended to the study, and employed themselves in reading
the article on Oregon in the Democratic Review.  Then they plodded onward
in the rugged and bewildering depths of Tieck's tale until five o'clock,
when, with one accord, they went out to split wood.  This has been a
gray day, with now and then a sprinkling of snow-flakes through the
air. . . . To-day no more than yesterday have I spoken a word to
mortal. . . . It is now sunset, and I must meditate till dark.


April 11th.--I meditated accordingly, but without any very wonderful
result.  Then at eight o'clock bothered myself till after nine with this
eternal tale of Tieck.  The forenoon was spent in scribbling; but at
eleven o'clock my thoughts ceased to flow,--indeed, their current has
been wofully interrupted all along,--so I threw down my pen, and set out
on the daily journey to the village.  Horrible walking!  I wasted the
customary hour at the Athenaeum, and returned home, if home it may now be
called.  Till dinner-time I labored on Tieck's tale, and resumed that
agreeable employment after the banquet.

Just when I was on the point of choking with a huge German word, Molly
announced Mr. Thoreau.  He wished to take a row in the boat, for the last
time, perhaps, before he leaves Concord.  So we emptied the water out of
her, and set forth on our voyage.  She leaks, but not more than she did
in the autumn.  We rowed to the foot of the hill which borders the North
Branch, and there landed, and climbed the moist and snowy hillside for
the sake of the prospect.  Looking down the river, it might well have
been mistaken for an arm of the sea, so broad is now its swollen tide;
and I could have fancied that, beyond one other headland, the mighty
ocean would outspread itself before the eye.  On our return we boarded a
large cake of ice, which was floating down the river, and were borne by
it directly to our own landing-place, with the boat towing behind.

Parting with Mr. Thoreau, I spent half an hour in chopping wood, when
Molly informed me that Mr. Emerson wished to see me.  He had brought a
letter of Ellery Channing, written in a style of very pleasant humor.
This being read and discussed, together with a few other matters, he took
his leave, since which I have been attending to my journalizing duty; and
thus this record is brought down to the present moment.


April 25th.--Spring is advancing, sometimes with sunny days, and
sometimes, as is the case now, with chill, moist, sullen ones.  There is
an influence in the season that makes it almost impossible for me to
bring my mind down to literary employment; perhaps because several
months' pretty constant work has exhausted that species of energy,--
perhaps because in spring it is more natural to labor actively than to
think.  But my impulse now is to be idle altogether,--to lie in the sun,
or wander about and look at the revival of Nature from her death-like
slumber, or to be borne down the current of the river in my boat.  If I
had wings, I would gladly fly; yet would prefer to be wafted along by a
breeze, sometimes alighting on a patch of green grass, then gently
whirled away to a still sunnier spot. . . . O, how blest should I be
were there nothing to do!  Then I would watch every inch and
hair's-breadth of the progress of the season; and not a leaf should put
itself forth, in the vicinity of our old mansion, without my noting it.
But now, with the burden of a continual task upon me, I have not freedom
of mind to make such observations.  I merely see what is going on in a
very general way.  The snow, which, two or three weeks ago, covered hill
and valley, is now diminished to one or two solitary specks in the
visible landscape; though doubtless there are still heaps of it in the
shady places in the woods.  There have been no violent rains to carry it
off: it has diminished gradually, inch by inch, and day after day; and I
observed, along the roadside, that the green blades of grass had
sometimes sprouted on the very edge of the snowdrift the moment that the
earth was uncovered.

The pastures and grass-fields have not yet a general effect of green; nor
have they that cheerless brown tint which they wear in later autumn, when
vegetation has entirely ceased.  There is now a suspicion of verdure,--
the faint shadow of it,--but not the warm reality.  Sometimes, in a happy
exposure,--there is one such tract across the river, the carefully
cultivated mowing-field, in front of an old red homestead,--such patches
of land wear a beautiful and tender green, which no other season will
equal; because, let the grass be green as it may hereafter, it will not
be so set off by surrounding barrenness.  The trees in our orchard, and
elsewhere, have as yet no leaves; yet to the most careless eye they
appear full of life and vegetable blood.  It seems as if, by one magic
touch, they might instantaneously put forth all their foliage, and the
wind, which now sighs through their naked branches, might all at once
find itself impeded by innumerable leaves.  This sudden development would
be scarcely more wonderful than the gleam of verdure which often
brightens, in a moment, as it were, along the <DW72> of a bank or
roadside.  It is like a gleam of sunlight.  Just now it was brown, like
the rest of the scenery: look again, and there is an apparition of green
grass.  The Spring, no doubt, comes onward with fleeter footsteps,
because Winter has lingered so long that, at best, she can hardly
retrieve half the allotted term of her reign.

The river, this season, has encroached farther on the land than it has
been known to do for twenty years past.  It has formed along its course a
succession of lakes, with a current through the midst.  My boat has lain
at the bottom of the orchard, in very convenient proximity to the house.
It has borne me over stone fences; and, a few days ago, Ellery Channing
and I passed through two rails into the great northern road, along which
we paddled for some distance.  The trees have a singular appearance in
the midst of waters.  The curtailment of their trunks quite destroys the
proportions of the whole tree; and we become conscious of a regularity
and propriety in the forms of Nature, by the effect of this abbreviation.
The waters are now subsiding, but gradually.  Islands become annexed to
the mainland, and other islands emerge from the flood, and will soon,
likewise, be connected with the continent.  We have seen on a small scale
the process of the deluge, and can now witness that of the reappearance
of the earth.

Crows visited us long before the snow was off.  They seem mostly to have
departed now, or else to have betaken themselves to remote depths of the
woods, which they haunt all summer long.  Ducks came in great numbers,
and many sportsmen went in pursuit of them, along the river; but they
also have disappeared.  Gulls come up from seaward, and soar high
overhead, flapping their broad wings in the upper sunshine.  They are
among the most picturesque birds that I am acquainted with; indeed, quite
the most so, because the manner of their flight makes them almost
stationary parts of the landscape.  The imagination has time to rest upon
them; they have not flitted away in a moment.  You go up among the
clouds, and lay hold of these soaring gulls, and repose with them upon
the sustaining atmosphere.  The smaller birds,--the birds that build
their nests in our trees, and sing for us at morning-red,--I will not
describe. . . . But I must mention the great companies of blackbirds--
more than the famous "four-and-twenty" who were baked in a pie--that
congregate on the tops of contiguous trees, and vociferate with all the
clamor of a turbulent political meeting.  Politics must certainly be the
subject of such a tumultuous debate; but still there is a melody in each
individual utterance, and a harmony in the general effect.  Mr. Thoreau
tells me that these noisy assemblages consist of three different species
of blackbirds; but I forget the other two.  Robins have been long among
us, and swallows have more recently arrived.


April 26th.--Here is another misty day, muffling the sun.  The
lilac-shrubs under my study window are almost in leaf.  In two or three
days more, I may put forth my hand and pluck a green bough.  These lilacs
appear to be very aged, and have lost the luxuriant foliage of their
prime.  Old age has a singular aspect in lilacs, rose-bushes, and other
ornamental shrubs.  It seems as if such things, as they grow only for
beauty, ought to flourish in immortal youth, or at least to die before
their decrepitude.  They are trees of Paradise, and therefore not
naturally subject to decay; but have lost their birthright by being
transplanted hither.  There is a kind of ludicrous unfitness in the idea
of a venerable rose-bush; and there is something analogous to this in
human life.  Persons who can only be graceful and ornamental--who can
give the world nothing but flowers--should die young, and never be seen
with gray hairs and wrinkles, any more than the flower-shrubs with mossy
bark and scanty foliage, like the lilacs under my window.  Not that
beauty is not worthy of immortality.  Nothing else, indeed, is worthy of
it; and thence, perhaps, the sense of impropriety when we see it
triumphed over by time.  Apple-trees, on the other hand, grow old without
reproach.  Let them live as long as they may, and contort themselves in
whatever fashion they please, they are still respectable, even if they
afford us only an apple or two in a season, or none at all.  Human
flower-shrubs, if they will grow old on earth, should, beside their
lovely blossoms, bear some kind of fruit that will satisfy earthly
appetites; else men will not be satisfied that the moss should gather on
them.

Winter and Spring are now struggling for the mastery in my study; and I
yield somewhat to each, and wholly to neither.  The window is open, and
there is a fire in the stove.  The day when the window is first thrown
open should be an epoch in the year; but I have forgotten to record it.
Seventy or eighty springs have visited this old house; and sixty of them
found old Dr. Ripley here,--not always old, it is true, but gradually
getting wrinkles and gray hairs, and looking more and more the picture of
winter.  But he was no flower-shrub, but one of those fruit-trees or
timber-trees that acquire a grace with their old age.  Last Spring found
this house solitary for the first time since it was built; and now again
she peeps into our open windows and finds new faces here. . . .

It is remarkable how much uncleanness winter brings with it, or leaves
behind it. . . . The yard, garden, and avenue, which should be my
department, require a great amount of labor.  The avenue is strewed with
withered leaves,--the whole crop, apparently, of last year,--some of
which are now raked into heaps; and we intend to make a bonfire of
them. . . . There are quantities of decayed branches, which one tempest
after another has flung down, black and rotten.  In the garden are the
old cabbages which we did not think worth gathering last autumn, and the
dry bean-vines, and the withered stalks of the asparagus-bed; in short,
all the wrecks of the departed year,--its mouldering relics, its dry
bones.  It is a pity that the world cannot be made over anew every
spring.  Then, in the yard, there are the piles of firewood, which I
ought to have sawed and thrown into the shed long since, but which will
cumber the earth, I fear, till June, at least.  Quantities of chips are
strewn about, and on removing them we find the yellow stalks of grass
sprouting underneath.  Nature does her best to beautify this disarray.
The grass springs up most industriously, especially in sheltered and
sunny angles of the buildings, or round the doorsteps,--a locality which
seems particularly favorable to its growth; for it is already high enough
to bend over and wave in the wind.  I was surprised to observe that some
weeds (especially a plant that stains the fingers with its yellow juice)
had lived, and retained their freshness and sap as perfectly as in
summer, through all the frosts and snows of last winter.  I saw them, the
last green thing, in the autumn; and here they are again, the first in
the spring.


Thursday, April 27th.--I took a walk into the fields, and round our
opposite hill, yesterday noon, but made no very remarkable observation.
The frogs have begun their concerts, though not as yet with a full choir.
I found no violets nor anemones, nor anything in the likeness of a
flower, though I looked carefully along the shelter of the stone-walls,
and in all spots apparently propitious.  I ascended the hill, and had a
wide prospect of a swollen river, extending around me in a semicircle of
three or four miles, and rendering the view much finer than in summer,
had there only been foliage.  It seemed like the formation of a new
world; for islands were everywhere emerging, and capes extending forth
into the flood; and these tracts, which were thus won from the watery
empire, were among the greenest in the landscape.  The moment the deluge
leaves them, Nature asserts them to be her property by covering them with
verdure; or perhaps the grass had been growing under the water.  On the
hill-top where I stood, the grass had scarcely begun to sprout; and I
observed that even those places which looked greenest in the distance
were but scantily grass-covered when I actually reached them.  It was
hope that painted them so bright.

Last evening we saw a bright light on the river, betokening that a boat's
party were engaged in spearing fish.  It looked like a descended star,--
like red Mars,--and, as the water was perfectly smooth, its gleam was
reflected downward into the depths.  It is a very picturesque sight.  In
the deep quiet of the night I suddenly heard the light and lively note of
a bird from a neighboring tree,--a real song, such as those which greet
the purple dawn, or mingle with the yellow sunshine.  What could the
little bird mean by pouring it forth at midnight?  Probably the note
gushed out from the midst of a dream, in which he fancied himself in
Paradise with his mate; and, suddenly awaking, he found he was on a cold,
leafless bough, with a New England mist penetrating through his feathers.
That was a sad exchange of imagination for reality; but if he found his
mate beside him, all was well.

This is another misty morning, ungenial in aspect, but kinder than it
looks; for it paints the hills and valleys with a richer brush than the
sunshine could.  There is more verdure now than when I looked out of the
window an hour ago.  The willow-tree opposite my study window is ready to
put forth its leaves.  There are some objections to willows.  It is not a
dry and cleanly tree; it impresses me with an association of sliminess;
and no trees, I think, are perfectly satisfactory, which have not a firm
and hard texture of trunk and branches.  But the willow is almost the
earliest to put forth its leaves, and the last to scatter them on the
ground; and during the whole winter its yellow twigs give it a sunny
aspect, which is not without a cheering influence in a proper point of
view.  Our old house would lose much were this willow to be cut down,
with its golden crown over the roof in winter, and its heap of summer
verdure.  The present Mr. Ripley planted it, fifty years ago, or
thereabouts.


Friday, June 2d.--Last night there came a frost, which has done great
damage to my garden.  The beans have suffered very much, although,
luckily, not more than half that I planted have come up.  The squashes,
both summer and winter, appear to be almost killed.  As to the other
vegetables, there is little mischief done,--the potatoes not being yet
above ground, except two or three; and the peas and corn are of a hardier
nature.  It is sad that Nature will so sport with us poor mortals,
inviting us with sunny smiles to confide in her; and then, when we are
entirely in her power, striking us to the heart.  Our summer commences at
the latter end of June, and terminates somewhere about the first of
August.  There are certainly not more than six weeks of the whole year
when a frost may be deemed anything remarkable.


Friday, June 23d.--Summer has come at last,--the longest days, with
blazing sunshine, and fervid heat.  Yesterday glowed like molten brass.
Last night was the most uncomfortably and unsleepably sultry that we have
experienced since our residence in Concord; and to-day it scorches again.
I have a sort of enjoyment in these seven-times-heated furnaces of
midsummer, even though they make me droop like a thirsty plant.  The
sunshine can scarcely be too burning for my taste; but I am no enemy to
summer showers.  Could I only have the freedom to be perfectly idle now,
--no duty to fulfil, no mental or physical labor to perform,--I should be
as happy as a squash, and much in the same mode; but the necessity of
keeping my brain at work eats into my comfort, as the squash-bugs do into
the heart of the vines.  I keep myself uneasy and produce little, and
almost nothing that is worth producing.

The garden looks well now: the potatoes flourish; the early corn waves in
the wind; the squashes, both for summer and winter use, are more forward,
I suspect, than those of any of my neighbors.  I am forced, however, to
carry on a continual warfare with the squash-bugs, who, were I to let
them alone for a day, would perhaps quite destroy the prospects of the
whole summer.  It is impossible not to feel angry with these
unconscionable insects, who scruple not to do such excessive mischief to
me, with only the profit of a meal or two to themselves.  For their own
sakes they ought at least to wait till the squashes are better grown.
Why is it, I wonder, that Nature has provided such a host of enemies for
every useful esculent, while the weeds are suffered to grow unmolested,
and are provided with such tenacity of life, and such methods of
propagation, that the gardener must maintain a continual struggle or they
will hopelessly overwhelm him?  What hidden virtue is in these things,
that it is granted them to sow themselves with the wind, and to grapple
the earth with this immitigable stubbornness, and to flourish in spite of
obstacles, and never to suffer blight beneath any sun or shade, but
always to mock their enemies with the same wicked luxuriance?  It is
truly a mystery, and also a symbol.  There is a sort of sacredness about
them.  Perhaps, if we could penetrate Nature's secrets, we should find
that what we call weeds are more essential to the well-being of the world
than the most precious fruit or grain.  This may be doubted, however, for
there is an unmistakable analogy between these wicked weeds and the bad
habits and sinful propensities which have overrun the moral world; and we
may as well imagine that there is good in one as in the other.

Our peas are in such forwardness that I should not wonder if we had some
of them on the table within a week.  The beans have come up ill, and I
planted a fresh supply only the day before yesterday.  We have
watermelons in good advancement, and muskmelons also within three or four
days.  I set out some tomatoes last night, also some capers.  It is my
purpose to plant some more corn at the end of the month, or sooner.
There ought to be a record of the flower-garden, and of the procession of
the wild-flowers, as minute, at least, as of the kitchen vegetables and
pot-herbs.  Above all, the noting of the appearance of the first roses
should not be omitted; nor of the Arethusa, one of the delicatest,
gracefullest, and in every manner sweetest of the whole race of flowers.
For a fortnight past I have found it in the swampy meadows, growing up to
its chin in heaps of wet moss.  Its hue is a delicate pink, of various
depths of shade, and somewhat in the form of a Grecian helmet.  To
describe it is a feat beyond my power.  Also the visit of two friends,
who may fitly enough be mentioned among flowers, ought to have been
described.  Mrs. F. S------ and Miss A. S------.  Also I have neglected
to mention the birth of a little white dove.

I never observed, until the present season, how long and late the
twilight lingers in these longest days.  The orange line of the western
horizon remains till ten o'clock, at least, and how much later I am
unable to say.  The night before last, I could distinguish letters by
this lingering gleam between nine and ten o'clock.  The dawn, I suppose,
shows itself as early as two o'clock, so that the absolute dominion of
night has dwindled to almost nothing.  There seems to be also a
diminished necessity, or, at all events, a much less possibility, of
sleep than at other periods of the year.  I get scarcely any sound repose
just now.  It is summer, and not winter, that steals away mortal life.
Well, we get the value of what is taken from us.


Saturday, July 1st.--We had our first dish of green peas (a very small
one) yesterday.  Every day for the last week has been tremendously hot;
and our garden flourishes like Eden itself, only Adam could hardly have
been doomed to contend with such a ferocious banditti of weeds.


Sunday, July 9th.--I know not what to say, and yet cannot be satisfied
without marking with a word or two this anniversary. . . . But life now
swells and heaves beneath me like a brim-full ocean; and the endeavor to
comprise any portion of it in words is like trying to dip up the ocean in
a goblet. . . . God bless and keep us! for there is something more
awful in happiness than in sorrow,--the latter being earthly and finite,
the former composed of the substance and texture of eternity, so that
spirits still embodied may well tremble at it.


July 18th.--This morning I gathered our first summer-squashes.  We should
have had them some days earlier, but for the loss of two of the vines,
either by a disease of the roots or by those infernal bugs.  We have had
turnips and carrots several times.  Currants are now ripe, and we are in
the full enjoyment of cherries, which turn out much more delectable than
I anticipated.  George Hillard and Mrs. Hillard paid us a visit on
Saturday last.  On Monday afternoon he left us, and Mrs. Hillard still
remains here.


Friday, July 28th.--We had green corn for dinner yesterday, and shall
have some more to-day, not quite full grown, but sufficiently so to be
palatable.  There has been no rain, except one moderate shower, for many
weeks; and the earth appears to be wasting away in a slow fever.  This
weather, I think, affects the spirits very unfavorably.  There is an
irksomeness, a restlessness, a pervading dissatisfaction, together with
an absolute incapacity to bend the mind to any serious effort.  With me,
as regards literary production, the summer has been unprofitable; and I
only hope that my forces are recruiting themselves for the autumn and
winter.  For the future, I shall endeavor to be so diligent nine months
of the year that I may allow myself a full and free vacation of the other
three.


Monday, July 31st.--We had our first cucumber yesterday.  There were
symptoms of rain on Saturday, and the weather has since been as moist as
the thirstiest soul could desire.


Wednesday, September 13th.--There was a frost the night before last,
according to George Prescott; but no effects of it were visible in our
garden.  Last night, however, there was another, which has nipped the
leaves of the winter-squashes and cucumbers, but seems to have done no
other damage.  This is a beautiful morning, and promises to be one of
those heavenly days that render autumn, after all, the most delightful
season of the year.  We mean to make a voyage on the river this
afternoon.


Sunday, September 23d.--I have gathered the two last of our
summer-squashes to-day.  They have lasted ever since the 18th of July,
and have numbered fifty-eight edible ones, of excellent quality.  Last
Wednesday, I think, I harvested our winter-squashes, sixty-three in
number, and mostly of fine size.  Our last series of green corn, planted
about the 1st of July, was good for eating two or three days ago.  We
still have beans; and our tomatoes, though backward, supply us with a
dish every day or two.  My potato-crop promises well; and, on the whole,
my first independent experiment of agriculture is quite a successful one.

This is a glorious day,--bright, very warm, yet with an unspeakable
gentleness both in its warmth and brightness.  On such days it is
impossible not to love Nature, for she evidently loves us.  At other
seasons she does not give me this impression, or only at very rare
intervals; but in these happy, autumnal days, when she has perfected the
harvests, and accomplished every necessary thing that she had to do, she
overflows with a blessed superfluity of love.  It is good to be alive
now.  Thank God for breath,--yes, for mere breath! when it is made up of
such a heavenly breeze as this.  It comes to the cheek with a real kiss;
it would linger fondly around us, if it might; but, since it must be
gone, it caresses us with its whole kindly heart, and passes onward, to
caress likewise the next thing that it meets.  There is a pervading
blessing diffused over all the world.  I look out of the window and
think, "O perfect day!  O beautiful world!  O good God!"  And such a day
is the promise of a blissful eternity.  Our Creator would never have made
such weather; and given us the deep heart to enjoy it, above and beyond
all thought, if he had not meant us to be immortal.  It opens the gates
of heaven, and gives us glimpses far inward.

Bless me! this flight has carried me a great way; so now let me come back
to our old abbey.  Our orchard is fast ripening; and the apples and great
thumping pears strew the grass in such abundance that it becomes almost a
trouble--though a pleasant one--to gather them.  This happy breeze, too,
shakes them down, as if it flung fruit to us out of the sky; and often,
when the air is perfectly still, I hear the quiet fall of a great apple.
Well, we are rich in blessings, though poor in money. . . .


Friday, October 6th.--Yesterday afternoon I took a solitary walk to
Walden Pond.  It was a cool, windy day, with heavy clouds rolling and
tumbling about the sky, but still a prevalence of genial autumn sunshine.
The fields are still green, and the great masses of the woods have not
yet assumed their many- garments; but here and there are solitary
oaks of deep, substantial red, or maples of a more brilliant hue, or
chestnuts either yellow or of a tenderer green than in summer.  Some
trees seem to return to their hue of May or early June before they put on
the brighter autumnal tints.  In some places, along the borders of low
and moist land, a whole range of trees were clothed in the perfect
gorgeousness of autumn, of all shades of brilliant color, looking like
the palette on which Nature was arranging the tints wherewith to paint a
picture.  These hues appeared to be thrown together without design; and
yet there was perfect harmony among them, and a softness and a delicacy
made up of a thousand different brightnesses.  There is not, I think, so
much contrast among these colors as might at first appear.  The more you
consider them, the more they seem to have one element among them all,
which is the reason that the most brilliant display of them soothes the
observer, instead of exciting him.  And I know not whether it be more a
moral effect or a physical one, operating merely on the eye; but it is a
pensive gayety, which causes a sigh often, and never a smile.  We never
fancy, for instance, that these gayly clad trees might be changed into
young damsels in holiday attire, and betake themselves to dancing on the
plain.  If they were to undergo such a transformation, they would surely
arrange themselves in funeral procession, and go sadly along, with their
purple and scarlet and golden garments trailing over the withering grass.
When the sunshine falls upon them, they seem to smile; but it is as if
they were heart-broken.  But it is in vain for me to attempt to describe
these autumnal brilliancies, or to convey the impression which they make
on me.  I have tried a thousand times, and always without the slightest
self-satisfaction.  Fortunately there is no need of such a record, for
Nature renews the picture year after year; and even when we shall have
passed away from the world, we can spiritually create these scenes, so
that we may dispense with all efforts to put them into words.

Walden Pond was clear and beautiful as usual.  It tempted me to bathe;
and, though the water was thrillingly cold, it was like the thrill of a
happy death.  Never was there such transparent water as this.  I threw
sticks into it, and saw them float suspended on an almost invisible
medium.  It seemed as if the pure air were beneath them, as well as
above.  It is fit for baptisms; but one would not wish it to be polluted
by having sins washed into it.  None but angels should bathe in it; but
blessed babies might be dipped into its bosom.

In a small and secluded dell that opens upon the most beautiful cove of
the whole lake, there is a little hamlet of huts or shanties, inhabited
by the Irish people who are at work upon the railroad.  There are three
or four of these habitations, the very rudest, I should imagine, that
civilized men ever made for themselves,--constructed of rough boards,
with the protruding ends.  Against some of them the earth is heaped up to
the roof, or nearly so; and when the grass has had time to sprout upon
them, they will look like small natural hillocks, or a species of
ant-hills,--something in which Nature has a larger share than man.  These
huts are placed beneath the trees, oaks, walnuts, and white-pines,
wherever the trunks give them space to stand; and by thus adapting
themselves to natural interstices, instead of making new ones, they do
not break or disturb the solitude and seclusion of the place.  Voices are
heard, and the shouts and laughter of children, who play about like the
sunbeams that come down through the branches.  Women are washing in open
spaces, and long lines of whitened clothes are extended from tree to
tree, fluttering and gambolling in the breeze.  A pig, in a sty even more
extemporary than the shanties, is grunting and poking his snout through
the clefts of his habitation.  The household pots and kettles are seen at
the doors; and a glance within shows the rough benches that serve for
chairs, and the bed upon the floor.  The visitor's nose takes note of the
fragrance of a pipe.  And yet, with all these homely items, the repose
and sanctity of the old wood do not seem to be destroyed or profaned.  It
overshadows these poor people, and assimilates them somehow or other to
the character of its natural inhabitants.  Their presence did not shock
me any more than if I had merely discovered a squirrel's nest in a tree.
To be sure, it is a torment to see the great, high, ugly embankment of
the railroad, which is here thrusting itself into the lake, or along its
margin, in close vicinity to this picturesque little hamlet.  I have
seldom seen anything more beautiful than the cove on the border of which
the huts are situated; and the more I looked, the lovelier it grew.  The
trees overshadowed it deeply; but on one side there was some brilliant
shrubbery which seemed to light up the whole picture with the effect of a
sweet and melancholy smile.  I felt as if spirits were there,--or as if
these shrubs had a spiritual life.  In short, the impression was
indefinable; and, after gazing and musing a good while, I retraced my
steps through the Irish hamlet, and plodded on along a wood-path.

According to my invariable custom, I mistook my way, and, emerging upon
the road, I turned my back instead of my face towards Concord, and walked
on very diligently till a guide-board informed me of my mistake.  I then
turned about, and was shortly overtaken by an old yeoman in a chaise, who
kindly offered me a drive, and soon set me down in the village.



[EXTRACTS FROM LETTERS.]


Salem, April 14th, 1844.--. . . . I went to George Hillard's office, and
he spoke with immitigable resolution of the necessity of my going to dine
with Longfellow before returning to Concord; but I have an almost
miraculous power of escaping from necessities of this kind.  Destiny
itself has often been worsted in the attempt to get me out to dinner.
Possibly, however, I may go.  Afterwards I called on Colonel Hall, who
held me long in talk about politics and other sweetmeats.  Then I
stepped into a book auction, not to buy, but merely to observe, and,
after a few moments, who should come in, with a smile as sweet as sugar
(though savoring rather of molasses), but, to my horror and petrifaction,
---- ------!  I anticipated a great deal of bore and botheration; but,
through Heaven's mercy, he merely spoke a few words, and left me.  This
is so unlike his deportment in times past, that I suspect "The Celestial
Railroad" must have given him a pique; and, if so, I shall feel as if
Providence had sufficiently rewarded me for that pious labor.

In the course of the forenoon I encountered Mr. Howes in the street.  He
looked most exceedingly depressed, and, pressing my hand with peculiar
emphasis, said that he was in great affliction, having just heard of his
son George's death in Cuba.  He seemed encompassed and overwhelmed by
this misfortune, and walks the street as in a heavy cloud of his own
grief, forth from which he extended his hand to meet my grasp.  I
expressed my sympathy, which I told him I was now the more capable of
feeling in a father's suffering, as being myself the father of a little
girl,--and, indeed, the being a parent does give one the freedom of a
wider range of sorrow as well as of happiness.  He again pressed my hand,
and left me. . . .

When I got to Salem, there was great joy, as you may suppose. . . .
Mother hinted an apprehension that poor baby would be spoilt, whereupon I
irreverently observed that, having spoiled her own three children, it was
natural for her to suppose that all other parents would do the same; when
she averred that it was impossible to spoil such children as E---- and I,
because she had never been able to do anything with us. . . . I could
hardly convince them that Una had begun to smile so soon.  It surprised
my mother, though her own children appear to have been bright specimens
of babyhood.

E---- could walk and talk at nine months old.  I do not understand that I
was quite such a miracle of precocity, but should think it not
impossible, inasmuch as precocious boys are said to make stupid men.


May 27th, 1844.--. . . . My cook fills his office admirably.  He prepared
what I must acknowledge to be the best dish of fried fish and potatoes
for dinner to-day that I ever tasted in this house.  I scarcely
recognized the fish of our own river.  I make him get all the dinners,
while I confine myself to the much lighter task of breakfast and tea.  He
also takes his turn in washing the dishes.

We had a very pleasant dinner at Longfellow's, and I liked Mrs.
Longfellow very much.  The dinner was late and we sat long; so that
C---- and I did not get to Concord till half past nine o'clock, and truly
the old Manse seemed somewhat dark and desolate.  The next morning George
Prescott came with Una's Lion, who greeted me very affectionately, but
whined and moaned as if he missed somebody who should have been here.  I
am not quite so strict as I should be in keeping him out of the house;
but I commiserate him and myself, for are we not both of us bereaved?
C----, whom I can no more keep from smoking than I could the kitchen
chimney, has just come into the study with a cigar, which might perfume
this letter and make you think it came from my own enormity, so I may as
well stop here.


May 29th.--C---- is leaving me, to my unspeakable relief; for he has had
a bad cold, which caused him to be much more troublesome and less amusing
than might otherwise have been the case.


May 31st.--. . . . I get along admirably, and am at this moment
superintending the corned beef, which has been on the fire, as it appears
to me, ever since the beginning of time, and shows no symptom of being
done before the crack of doom.  Mrs. Hale says it must boil till it
becomes tender; and so it shall, if I can find wood to keep the fire
a-going.

Meantime, I keep my station in the dining-room, and read or write as
composedly as in my own study.  Just now, there came a very important rap
at the front door, and I threw down a smoked herring which I had begun to
eat, as there is no hope of the corned beef to-day, and went to admit the
visitor.  Who should it be but Ben B------, with a very peculiar and
mysterious grin upon his face!  He put into my hand a missive directed to
"Mr. and Mrs. Hawthorne."  It contained a little bit of card, signifying
that Dr. L. F------ and Miss C. B------ receive their friends Thursday
eve, June 6.  I am afraid I shall be too busy washing my dishes to pay
many visits.  The washing of dishes does seem to me the most absurd and
unsatisfactory business that I ever undertook.  If, when once washed,
they would remain clean for ever and ever (which they ought in all reason
to do, considering how much trouble it is), there would be less occasion
to grumble; but no sooner is it done, than it requires to be done again.
On the whole, I have come to the resolution not to use more than one dish
at each meal.  However, I moralize deeply on this and other matters, and
have discovered that all the trouble and affliction in the world come
from the necessity of cleansing away our earthly stains.

I ate the last morsel of bread yesterday, and congratulate myself on
being now reduced to the fag-end of necessity.  Nothing worse can happen,
according to ordinary modes of thinking, than to want bread; but, like
most afflictions, it is more in prospect than reality.  I found one
cracker in the tureen, and exulted over it as if it had been so much
gold.  However, I have sent a petition to Mrs. P------ stating my
destitute condition, and imploring her succor; and, till it arrive, I
shall keep myself alive on herrings and apples, together with part of a
pint of milk, which I share with Leo.  He is my great trouble now, though
an excellent companion too.  But it is not easy to find food for him,
unless I give him what is fit for Christians,--though, for that matter,
he appears to be as good a Christian as most laymen, or even as some of
the clergy.  I fried some pouts and eels, yesterday, on purpose for him,
for he does not like raw fish.  They were very good, but I should hardly
have taken the trouble on my own account.

George P------ has just come to say that Mrs. P------ has no bread at
present, and is gone away this afternoon, but that she will send me some
to-morrow.  I mean to have a regular supply from the same source. . . .
You cannot imagine how much the presence of Leo relieves the feeling of
perfect loneliness.  He insists upon being in the room with me all the
time, except at night, when he sleeps in the shed, and I do not find
myself severe enough to drive him out.  He accompanies me likewise in all
my walks to the village and elsewhere; and, in short, keeps at my heels
all the time, except when I go down cellar.  Then he stands at the head
of the stairs and howls, as if he never expected to see me again.  He is
evidently impressed with the present solitude of our old abbey, both on
his own account and mine, and feels that he may assume a greater degree
of intimacy than would be otherwise allowable.  He will be easily brought
within the old regulations after your return.

P. S.  3 o'clock.--The beef is done!!!


Concord.  The old Manse.  June 2d.--. . . . Everything goes on well with
me.  At the time of writing my last letter, I was without bread.  Well,
just at supper-time came Mrs. B------ with a large covered dish, which
proved to contain a quantity of specially good flapjacks, piping hot,
prepared, I suppose, by the fair hands of Miss Martha or Miss Abby, for
Mrs. P------ was not at home.  They served me both for supper and
breakfast; and I thanked Providence and the young ladies, and compared
myself to the prophet fed by ravens,--though the simile does rather more
than justice to myself, and not enough to the generous donors of the
flapjacks.  The next morning, Mrs. P------ herself brought two big loaves
of bread, which will last me a week, unless I have some guests to provide
for.  I have likewise found a hoard of crackers in one of the covered
dishes; so that the old castle is sufficiently provisioned to stand a
long siege.  The corned beef is exquisitely done, and as tender as a
young lady's heart, all owing to my skilful cookery; for I consulted Mrs.
Hale at every step, and precisely followed her directions.  To say the
truth, I look upon it as such a masterpiece in its way, that it seems
irreverential to eat it.  Things on which so much thought and labor are
bestowed should surely be immortal. . . . Leo and I attended divine
services this morning in a temple not made with hands.  We went to the
farthest extremity of Peter's path, and there lay together under an oak,
on the verge of the broad meadow.


Concord, June 6th.--. . . . Mr. F------ arrived yesterday, and appeared
to be in most excellent health, and as happy as the sunshine.  About the
first thing he did was to wash the dishes; and he is really indefatigable
in the kitchen, so that I am quite a gentleman of leisure.  Previous to
his arrival, I had kindled no fire for four entire days, and had lived
all that time on the corned beef, except one day, when Ellery and I went
down the river on a fishing excursion.  Yesterday, we boiled some lamb,
which we shall have cold for dinner to-day.  This morning, Mr. F------
fried a sumptuous dish of eels for breakfast.  Mrs. P------ continues to
be the instrument of Providence, and yesterday sent us a very nice plum.
pudding,

I have told Mr. F------ that I shall be engaged in the forenoons, and he
is to manage his own occupations and amusements during that time. . . .

Leo, I regret to say, has fallen under suspicion of a very great crime,--
nothing less than murder,--a fowl crime it may well be called, for it is
the slaughter of one of Mr. Hayward's hens.  He has been seen to chase
the hens, several times, and the other day one of them was found dead.
Possibly he may be innocent, and, as there is nothing but circumstantial
evidence, it must be left with his own conscience.

Meantime, Mr. Hayward, or somebody else, seems to have given him such a
whipping that he is absolutely stiff, and walks about like a rheumatic
old gentleman.  I am afraid, too, that he is an incorrigible thief.
Ellery says he has seen him coming up the avenue with a calf's whole head
in his mouth.  How he came by it is best known to Leo himself.  If he
were a dog of fair character, it would be no more than charity to
conclude that he had either bought it, or had it given to him; but with
the other charges against him, it inclines me to great distrust of his
moral principles.  Be that as it may, he managed his stock of provisions
very thriftily,--burying it in the earth, and eating a portion of it
whenever he felt an appetite.  If he insists upon living by highway
robbery, it would be well to make him share his booty with us. . . .


June 10th.--. . . . Mr. F------ is in perfect health, and absolutely in
the seventh heaven, and he talks and talks and talks and talks; and I
listen and listen and listen with a patience for which, in spite of all
my sins, I firmly expect to be admitted to the mansions of the blessed.
And there is really a contentment in being able to make this poor,
world-worn, hopeless, half-crazy man so entirely comfortable as he seems
to be here.  He is an admirable cook.  We had some roast veal and a baked
rice-pudding on Sunday, really a fine dinner, and cooked in better style
than Mary can equal; and George Curtis came to dine with us.  Like all
male cooks, he is rather expensive, and has a tendency to the consumption
of eggs in his various concoctions. . . . I have had my dreams of
splendor; but never expected to arrive at the dignity of keeping a
man-cook.  At first we had three meals a day, but now only two. . . .

          *     *     *     *     *     *

We dined at Mr. Emerson's the other day, in company with Mr. Hedge.  Mr.
Bradford has been to see us two or three times. . . . He looks thinner
than ever.



[PASSAGES FROM NOTE-BOOKS.]


May 5th, 1850.--I left Portsmouth last Wednesday, at the quarter past
twelve, by the Concord Railroad, which at New Market unites with the
Boston and Maine Railroad about ten miles from Portsmouth.  The station
at New Market is a small wooden building, with one railroad passing on
one side, and another on another, and the two crossing each other at
right angles.  At a little distance stands a black, large, old, wooden
church, with a square tower, and broken windows, and a great rift through
the middle of the roof, all in a stage of dismal ruin and decay.  A
farm-house of the old style, with a long sloping roof, and as black as
the church, stands on the opposite side of the road, with its barns; and
these are all the buildings in sight of the railroad station.  On the
Concord rail, in the train of cars, with the locomotive puffing, and
blowing off its steam, and making a great bluster in that lonely place,
while along the other railroad stretches the desolate track, with the
withered weeds growing up betwixt the two lines of iron, all so desolate.
And anon you hear a low thunder running along these iron rails; it grows
louder; an object is seen afar off; it approaches rapidly, and comes down
upon you like fate, swift and inevitable.  In a moment, it dashes along
in front of the station-house, and comes to a pause, the locomotive
hissing and fuming in its eagerness to go on.  How much life has come at
once into this lonely place!  Four or five long cars, each, perhaps, with
fifty people in it, reading newspapers, reading pamphlet novels,
chattering, sleeping; all this vision of passing life!  A moment passes,
while the luggage-men are putting on the trunks and packages; then the
bell strikes a few times, and away goes the train again, quickly out of
sight of those who remain behind, while a solitude of hours again broods
over the station-house, which, for an instant, has thus been put in
communication with far-off cities, and then remains by itself, with the
old, black, ruinous church, and the black old farm-house, both built
years and years ago, before railroads were ever dreamed of.  Meantime,
the passenger, stepping from the solitary station into the train, finds
himself in the midst of a new world all in a moment.  He rushes out of
the solitude into a village; thence, through woods and hills, into a
large inland town; beside the Merrimack, which has overflowed its banks,
and eddies along, turbid as a vast mud-puddle, sometimes almost laving
the doorstep of a house, and with trees standing in the flood half-way up
their trunks.  Boys, with newspapers to sell, or apples and lozenges;
many passengers departing and entering, at each new station; the more
permanent passenger, with his check or ticket stuck in his hat-band,
where the conductor may see it.  A party of girls, playing at ball with a
young man.  Altogether it is a scene of stirring life, with which a
person who had been waiting long for the train to come might find it
difficult at once to amalgamate himself.

It is a sombre, brooding day, and begins to rain as the cars pass onward.
In a little more than two hours we find ourselves in Boston surrounded by
eager hackmen.

Yesterday I went to the Athenaeum, and, being received with great
courtesy by Mr. Folsom, was shown all over the edifice from the very
bottom to the very top, whence I looked out over Boston.  It is an
admirable point of view; but, it being an overcast and misty day, I did
not get the full advantage of it.  The library is in a noble hall, and
looks splendidly with its vista of alcoves.  The most remarkable sight,
however, was Mr. Hildreth, writing his history of the United States.  He
sits at a table, at the entrance of one of the alcoves, with his books
and papers before him, as quiet and absorbed as he would be in the
loneliest study; now consulting an authority; now penning a sentence or a
paragraph, without seeming conscious of anything but his subject.  It is
very curious thus to have a glimpse of a book in process of creation
under one's eye.  I know not how many hours he sits there; but while I
saw him he was a pattern of diligence and unwandering thought.  He had
taken himself out of the age, and put himself, I suppose, into that about
which he was writing.  Being deaf, he finds it much the easier to
abstract himself.  Nevertheless, it is a miracle.  He is a thin,
middle-aged man, in black, with an intelligent face, rather sensible than
scholarlike.

Mr. Folsom accompanied me to call upon Mr. Ticknor, the historian of
Spanish literature.  He has a fine house, at the corner of Park and
Beacon Streets, perhaps the very best position in Boston.  A marble hall,
a wide and easy staircase, a respectable old man-servant evidently long
at home in the mansion, to admit us.  We entered the library, Mr. Folsom
considerably in advance, as being familiar with the house; and I heard
Mr. Ticknor greet him in friendly tones, their scholar-like and
bibliographical pursuits, I suppose, bringing them into frequent
conjunction.  Then I was introduced, and received with great distinction,
but yet without any ostentatious flourish of courtesy.  Mr. Ticknor has a
great head, and his hair is gray or grayish.  You recognize in him at
once the man who knows the world, the scholar, too, which probably is his
more distinctive character, though a little more under the surface.  He
was in his slippers; a volume of his book was open on a table, and
apparently he had been engaged in revising or annotating it.  His library
is a stately and beautiful room for a private dwelling, and itself looks
large and rich.  The fireplace has a white marble frame about it,
sculptured with figures and reliefs.  Over it hung a portrait of Sir
Walter Scott, a copy, I think, of the one that represents him in Melrose
Abbey.

Mr. Ticknor was most kind in his alacrity to solve the point on which Mr.
Folsom, in my behalf, had consulted him (as to whether there had been any
English translation of the Tales of Cervantes); and most liberal in his
offers of books from his library.  Certainly, he is a fine example of a
generous-principled scholar, anxious to assist the human intellect in its
efforts and researches.  Methinks he must have spent a happy life (as
happiness goes among mortals), writing his great three-volumed book for
twenty years; writing it, not for bread, nor with any uneasy desire of
fame, but only with a purpose to achieve something true and enduring.  He
is, I apprehend, a man of great cultivation and refinement, and with
quite substance enough to be polished and refined, without being worn too
thin in the process,--a man of society.  He related a singular story of
an attempt of his to become acquainted with me years ago, when he mistook
my kinsman Eben for me.

At half past four, I went to Mr. Thompson's, the artist who has requested
to paint my picture.  This was the second sitting.  The portrait looked
dimly out from the canvas, as from a cloud, with something that I could
recognize as my outline, but no strong resemblance as yet.  I have had
three portraits taken before this,--an oil picture, a miniature, and a
crayon sketch,--neither of them satisfactory to those most familiar with
my physiognomy.  In fact, there is no such thing as a true portrait; they
are all delusions, and I never saw any two alike, nor hardly any two that
I would recognize, merely by the portraits themselves, as being of the
same man.  A bust has more reality.  This artist is a man of thought, and
with no mean idea of his art; a Swedenborgian, or, as he prefers to call
it, a member of the New Church; and I have generally found something
marked in men who adopt that faith.  He had painted a good picture of
Bryant.  He seems to me to possess truth in himself, and to aim at it in
his artistic endeavors.


May 6th.--This morning it is an easterly rain (south-easterly, I should
say just now at twelve o'clock), and I went at nine, by appointment, to
sit for my picture.  The artist painted awhile; but soon found that he
had not so much light as was desirable, and complained that his tints
were as muddy as the weather.  Further sitting was therefore postponed
till to-morrow at eleven.  It will be a good picture; but I see no
assurance, as yet, of the likeness.  An artist's apartment is always very
interesting to me, with its pictures, finished and unfinished; its little
fancies in the pictorial way,--as here two sketches of children among
flowers and foliage, representing Spring and Summer, Winter and Autumn
being yet to come out of the artist's mild; the portraits of his wife and
children; here a clergyman, there a poet; here a woman with the stamp of
reality upon her, there a feminine conception which we feel not to have
existed.  There was an infant Christ, or rather a child Christ, not
unbeautiful, but scarcely divine.  I love the odor of paint in an
artist's room; his palette and all his other tools have a mysterious
charm for me.  The pursuit has always interested my imagination more than
any other, and I remember before having my first portrait taken, there
was a great bewitchery in the idea, as if it were a magic process.  Even
now, it is not without interest to me.

I left Mr. Thompson before ten, and took my way through the sloppy
streets to the Athenaeum, where I looked over the newspapers and
periodicals, and found two of my old stories (Peter Goldthwaite and the
Shaker Bridal) published as original in the last London Metropolitan!
The English are much more unscrupulous and dishonest pirates than
ourselves.  However, if they are poor enough to perk themselves in such
false feathers as these, Heaven help them!  I glanced over the stories,
and they seemed painfully cold and dull.  It is the more singular that
these should be so published, inasmuch as the whole book was republished
in London, only a few months ago.  Mr. Fields tells me that two
publishers in London had advertised the Scarlet Letter as in press, each
book at a shilling.

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Certainly life is made much more tolerable, and man respects himself far
more, when he takes his meals with a certain degree of order and state.
There should be a sacred law in these matters; and, as consecrating the
whole business, the preliminary prayer is a good and real ordinance.  The
advance of man from a savage and animal state may be as well measured by
his mode and morality of dining, as by any other circumstance.  At Mr.
Fields's, soon after entering the house, I heard the brisk and cheerful
notes of a canary-bird, singing with great vivacity, and making its voice
echo through the large rooms.  It was very pleasant, at the close of the
rainy, east-windy day, and seemed to fling sunshine through the dwelling.


May 7th.--I did not go out yesterday afternoon, but after tea I went to
Parker's.  The drinking and smoking shop is no bad place to see one kind
of life.  The front apartment is for drinking.  The door opens into Court
Square, and is denoted, usually, by some choice specimens of dainties
exhibited in the windows, or hanging beside the door-post; as, for
instance, a pair of canvas-back ducks, distinguishable by their
delicately mottled feathers; an admirable cut of raw beefsteak; a ham,
ready boiled, and with curious figures traced in spices on its outward
fat; a half, or perchance the whole, of a large salmon, when in season; a
bunch of partridges, etc., etc.  A screen stands directly before the
door, so as to conceal the interior from an outside barbarian.  At the
counter stand, at almost all hours,--certainly at all hours when I have
chanced to observe,--tipplers, either taking a solitary glass, or
treating all round, veteran topers, flashy young men, visitors from the
country, the various petty officers connected with the law, whom the
vicinity of the Court-House brings hither.  Chiefly, they drink plain
liquors, gin, brandy, or whiskey, sometimes a Tom and Jerry, a gin
cocktail (which the bar-tender makes artistically, tossing it in a large
parabola from one tumbler to another, until fit for drinking), a
brandy-smash, and numerous other concoctions.  All this toping goes
forward with little or no apparent exhilaration of spirits; nor does this
seem to be the object sought,--it being rather, I imagine, to create a
titillation of the coats of the stomach and a general sense of
invigoration, without affecting the brain.  Very seldom does a man grow
wild and unruly.

The inner room is hung round with pictures and engravings of various
kinds,--a painting of a premium ox, a lithograph of a Turk and of a
Turkish lady, . . . . and various showily engraved tailors'
advertisements, and other shop-bills; among them all, a small painting of
a drunken toper, sleeping on a bench beside the grog-shop,--a ragged,
half-hatless, bloated, red-nosed, jolly, miserable-looking devil, very
well done, and strangely suitable to the room in which it hangs.  Round
the walls are placed some half a dozen marble-topped tables, and a
centre-table in the midst; most of them strewn with theatrical and other
show-bills; and the large theatre-bills, with their type of gigantic
solidity and blackness, hung against the walls.

Last evening, when I entered, there was one guest somewhat overcome with
liquor, and slumbering with his chair tipped against one of the marble
tables.  In the course of a quarter of an hour, he roused himself (a
plain, middle-aged man), and went out with rather an unsteady step, and a
hot, red face.  One or two others were smoking, and looking over the
papers, or glancing at a play-bill.  From the centre of the ceiling
descended a branch with two gas-burners, which sufficiently illuminated
every corner of the room.  Nothing is so remarkable in these bar-rooms
and drinking-places, as the perfect order that prevails: if a man gets
drunk, it is no otherwise perceptible than by his going to sleep, or his
inability to walk.

Pacing the sidewalk in front of this grog-shop of Parker's (or sometimes,
on cold and rainy days, taking his station inside), there is generally to
be observed an elderly ragamuffin, in a dingy and battered hat, an old
surtout, and a more than shabby general aspect; a thin face and red nose,
a patch over one eye, and the other half drowned in moisture.  He leans
in a slightly stooping posture on a stick, forlorn and silent, addressing
nobody, but fixing his one moist eye on you with a certain intentness.
he is a man who has been in decent circumstances at some former period of
his life, but, falling into decay (perhaps by dint of too frequent visits
at Parker's bar), he now haunts about the place, as a ghost haunts the
spot where he was murdered, "to collect his rents," as Parker says,--that
is, to catch an occasional ninepence from some charitable acquaintances,
or a glass of liquor at the bar.  The word "ragamuffin," which I have
used above, does not accurately express the man, because there is a sort
of shadow or delusion of respectability about him, and a sobriety too,
and a kind of decency in his groggy and red-nosed destitution.

Underground, beneath the drinking and smoking rooms, is Parker's
eating-hall, extending all the way to Court Street.  All sorts of good
eating may be had there, and a gourmand may feast at what expense he
will.

I take an interest in all the nooks and crannies and every development of
cities; so here I try to make a description of the view from the back
windows of a house in the centre of Boston, at which I now glance in the
intervals of writing.  The view is bounded, at perhaps thirty yards'
distance, by a row of opposite brick dwellings, standing, I think, on
Temple Place; houses of the better order, with tokens of genteel families
visible in all the rooms betwixt the basements and the attic windows in
the roof; plate-glass in the rear drawing-rooms, flower-pots in some of
the windows of the upper stories.  Occasionally, a lady's figure, either
seated or appearing with a flitting grace, or dimly manifest farther
within the obscurity of the room.  A balcony, with a wrought-iron fence
running along under the row of drawing-room windows, above the basement.
In the space betwixt the opposite row of dwellings and that in which I am
situated are the low out-houses of the above-described houses, with flat
roofs; or solid brick walls, with walks on them, and high railings, for
the convenience of the washerwomen in hanging out their clothes.  In the
intervals are grass-plots, already green, because so sheltered; and
fruit-trees, now beginning to put forth their leaves, and one of them, a
cherry-tree, almost in full blossom.  Birds flutter and sing among these
trees.  I should judge it a good site for the growth of delicate fruit;
for, quite enclosed on all sides by houses, the blighting winds cannot
molest the trees.  They have sunshine on them a good part of the day,
though the shadow must come early, and I suppose there is a rich soil
about the roots.  I see grapevines clambering against one wall, and also
peeping over another, where the main body of the vine is invisible to me.
In another place, a frame is erected for a grapevine, and probably it
will produce as rich clusters as the vines of Madeira, here in the heart
of the city, in this little spot of fructifying earth, while the thunder
of wheels rolls about it on every side.  The trees are not all
fruit-trees.  One pretty well-grown buttonwood-tree aspires upward above
the roofs of the houses.  In the full verdure of summer, there will be
quite a mass or curtain of foliage between the hither and the thither row
of houses.


Afternoon.--At eleven, I went to give Mr. Thompson a sitting for my
picture.  I like the painter.  He seems to reverence his art and to aim
at truth in it, as I said before; a man of gentle disposition too, and
simplicity of life and character.  I seated myself in the pictorial
chair, with the only light in the room descending upon me from a high
opening, almost at the ceiling, the rest of the sole window being
shuttered.  He began to work, and we talked in an idle and desultory
way,--neither of us feeling very conversable,--which he attributed to the
atmosphere, it being a bright, west-windy, bracing day.  We talked about
the pictures of Christ, and how inadequate and untrue they are.  He said
he thought artists should attempt only to paint child-Christs, human
powers being inadequate to the task of painting such purity and holiness
in a manly development.  Then he said that an idea of a picture had
occurred to him that morning, while reading a chapter in the New
Testament,--how "they parted his garments among them, and for his vesture
did cast lots."  His picture was to represent the soldier to whom the
garment without a seam had fallen, after taking it home and examining it,
and becoming impressed with a sense of the former wearer's holiness.  I
do not quite see how he would make such a picture tell its own story;--
but I find the idea suggestive to my own mind, and I think I could make
something of it.  We talked of physiognomy and impressions of character,
--first impressions,--and how apt they are to come aright in the face of
the closest subsequent observation.

There were several visitors in the course of the sitting, one a
gentleman, a connection from the country, with whom the artist talked
about family matters and personal affairs,--observing on the poorness of
his own business, and that he had thoughts of returning to New York.  I
wish he would meet with better success.  Two or three ladies also looked
in.  Meanwhile Mr. Thompson had been painting with more and more
eagerness, casting quick, keen glances at me, and then making hasty
touches on the picture, as if to secure with his brush what he had caught
with his eye.  He observed that he was just getting interested in the
work, and I could recognize the feeling that was in him as akin to what I
have experienced myself in the glow of composition.  Nevertheless, he
seemed able to talk about foreign matters, through it all.  He continued
to paint in this rapid way, up to the moment of closing the sitting; when
he took the canvas from the easel, without giving me time to mark what
progress he had made, as he did the last time.

The artist is middle-sized, thin, a little stooping, with a quick,
nervous movement.  He has black hair, not thick, a beard under his chin,
a small head, but well-developed forehead, black eyebrows, eyes keen, but
kindly, and a dark face, not indicating robust health, but agreeable in
its expression.  His voice is gentle and sweet, and such as comes out
from amidst refined feelings.  He dresses very simply and unpictorially
in a gray frock or sack, and does not seem to think of making a picture
of himself in his own person.

At dinner to-day there was a young Frenchman, whom ------ befriended a
year or so ago, when he had not another friend in America, and obtained
employment for him in a large dry-goods establishment.  He is a young man
of eighteen or thereabouts, with smooth black hair, neatly dressed; his
face showing a good disposition, but with nothing of intellect or
character.  It is funny to think of this poor little Frenchman, a
Parisian too, eating our most un-French victuals,--our beefsteaks, and
roasts, and various homely puddings and hams, and all things most
incongruent to his hereditary stomach; but nevertheless he eats most
cheerfully and uncomplainingly.  He has not a large measure of French
vivacity, never rattles, never dances, nor breaks into ebullitions of
mirth and song; on the contrary, I have never known a youth of his age
more orderly and decorous.  He is kind-hearted and grateful, and evinces
his gratitude to the mother of the family and to his benefactress by
occasional presents, not trifling when measured by his small emolument of
five dollars per week.  Just at this time he is confined to his room by
indisposition, caused, it is suspected, by a spree on Sunday last.  Our
gross Saxon orgies would soon be the ruin of his French constitution.

A thought to-day.  Great men need to be lifted upon the shoulders of the
whole world, in order to conceive their great ideas or perform their
great deeds.  That is, there must be an atmosphere of greatness round
about them.  A hero cannot be a hero unless in an heroic world.


May 8th.--I went last evening to the National Theatre to see a pantomime.
It was Jack the Giant-Killer, and somewhat heavy and tedious.  The
audience was more noteworthy than the play.  The theatre itself is for
the middling and lower classes, and I had not taken my seat in the most
aristocratic part of the house; so that I found myself surrounded chiefly
by young sailors, Hanover Street shopmen, mechanics, and other people of
that class.  It is wonderful! the difference that exists in the personal
aspect and dress, and no less in the manners, of people in this quarter
of the city, as compared with other parts of it.

One would think that Oak Hall should give a common garb and air to the
great mass of the Boston population; but it seems not to be so; and
perhaps what is most singular is, that the natural make of the men has a
conformity and suitableness to the dress.  Glazed caps and Palo Alto hats
were much worn.  It is a pity that this picturesque and comparatively
graceful hat should not have been generally adopted, instead of falling
to the exclusive use of a rowdy class.

In the next box to me were two young women, with an infant, but to which
of them appertaining I could not at first discover.  One was a large,
plump girl, with a heavy face, a snub nose, coarse-looking, but
good-natured, and with no traits of evil,--save, indeed, that she had on
the vilest gown of dirty white cotton, so pervadingly dingy that it was
white no longer, as it seemed to me.  The sleeves were short, and ragged
at the borders, and her shawl, which she took off on account of the heat,
was old and faded,--the shabbiest and dirtiest dress that I ever saw a
woman wear.  Yet she was plump, and looked comfortable in body and mind.
I imagine that she must have had a better dress at home, but had come to
the theatre extemporaneously, and, not going to the dress circle,
considered her ordinary gown good enough for the occasion.  The other
girl seemed as young or younger than herself.  She was small, with a
particularly intelligent and pleasant face, not handsome, perhaps, but as
good or better than if it were.  It was mobile with whatever sentiment
chanced to be in her mind, as quick and vivacious a face in its movements
as I have ever seen; cheerful, too, and indicative of a sunny, though I
should think it might be a hasty, temper.  She was dressed in a dark gown
(chintz, I suppose the women call it), a good, homely dress, proper
enough for the fireside, but a strange one to appear in at a theatre.
Both these girls appeared to enjoy themselves very much,--the large and
heavy one in her own duller mode; the smaller manifesting her interest by
gestures, pointing at the stage, and with so vivid a talk of countenance
that it was precisely as if she had spoken.  She was not a brunette, and
this made the vivacity of her expression the more agreeable.  Her
companion, on the other hand, was so dark, that I rather suspected her to
have a tinge of African blood.

There were two men who seemed to have some connection with these girls,--
one an elderly, gray-headed personage, well-stricken in liquor, talking
loudly and foolishly, but good-humoredly; the other a young man, sober,
and doing his best to keep his elder friend quiet.  The girls seemed to
give themselves no uneasiness about the matter.--Both the men wore Palo
Alto hats.  I could not make out whether either of the men were the
father of the child, though I was inclined to set it down as a family
party.

As the play went on, the house became crowded and oppressively warm, and
the poor little baby grew dark red, or purple almost, with the
uncomfortable heat in its small body.  It must have been accustomed to
discomfort, and have concluded it to be the condition of mortal life,
else it never would have remained so quiet.  Perhaps it had been quieted
with a sleeping-potion.  The two young women were not negligent of it;
but passed it to and fro between them, each willingly putting herself to
inconvenience for the sake of tending it.  But I really feared it might
die in some kind of a fit, so hot was the theatre, so purple with heat,
yet strangely quiet, was the child.  I was glad to hear it cry at last;
but it did not cry with any great rage and vigor, as it should, but in a
stupid kind of way.  Hereupon the smaller of the two girls, after a
little inefficacious dandling, at once settled the question of maternity
by nursing her baby.  Children must be hard to kill, however injudicious
the treatment.  The two girls and their cavaliers remained till nearly
the close of the play.  I should like well to know who they are,--of what
condition in life, and whether reputable as members of the class to which
they belong.  My own judgment is that they are so.  Throughout the
evening, drunken young sailors kept stumbling into and out of the boxes,
calling to one another from different parts of the house, shouting to the
performers, and singing the burden of songs.  It was a scene of life in
the rough.


May 14th.--A stable opposite the house,--an old wooden construction, low,
in three distinct parts; the centre being the stable proper, where the
horses are kept, and with a chamber over it for the hay.  On one side is
the department for chaises and carriages; on the other, the little office
where the books are kept.  In the interior region of the stable
everything is dim and undefined,--half-traceable outlines of stalls,
sometimes the shadowy aspect of a horse.  Generally a groom is dressing a
horse at the stable door, with a care and accuracy that leave no part of
the animal unvisited by the currycomb and brush; the horse, meanwhile,
evidently enjoying it, but sometimes, when the more sensitive parts are
touched, giving a half-playful kick with his hind legs, and a little
neigh.  If the men bestowed half as much care on their own personal
cleanliness, they would be all the better and healthier men therefor.
They appear to be busy men, these stablers, yet have a lounging way with
them, as if indolence were somehow diffused through their natures.  The
apparent head of the establishment is a sensible, thoughtful-looking,
large-featured, and homely man, past the middle age, clad rather shabbily
in gray, stooping somewhat, and without any smartness about him.  There
is a groom, who seems to be a very comfortable kind of personage,--a man
of forty-five or thereabouts (R. W. Emerson says he was one of his
schoolmates), but not looking so old; corpulent, not to say fat, with a
white frock, which his goodly bulk almost fills, enveloping him from neck
nearly to ankles.  On his head he wears a cloth cap of a jockey shape;
his pantaloons are turned up an inch or two at bottom, and he wears
brogans on his feet.  His hair, as may be seen when he takes off his cap
to wipe his brow, is black and in perfect preservation, with not exactly
a curl, yet a vivacious and elastic kind of twist in it.  His face is
fresh-, comfortable, sufficiently vivid in expression, not at all
dimmed by his fleshly exuberance, because the man possesses vigor enough
to carry it off.  His bodily health seems perfect; so, indeed, does his
moral and intellectual.  He is very active and assiduous in his duties,
currycombing and rubbing down the horses with alacrity and skill; and,
when not otherwise occupied, you may see him talking jovially with chance
acquaintances, or observing what is going forward in the street.  If a
female acquaintance happens to pass, he touches his jockey cap, and bows,
accomplishing this courtesy with a certain smartness that proves him a
man of the world.  Whether it be his greater readiness to talk, or the
wisdom of what he says, he seems usually to be the centre talker of the
group.  It is very pleasant to see such an image of earthly comfort as
this.  A fat man who feels his flesh as a disease and encumbrance, and on
whom it presses so as to make him melancholy with dread of apoplexy, and
who moves heavily under the burden of himself,--such a man is a doleful
and disagreeable object.  But if he have vivacity enough to pervade all
his earthiness, and bodily force enough to move lightly under it, and if
it be not too unmeasured to have a trimness and briskness in it, then it
is good and wholesome to look at him.

In the background of the house, a cat, occasionally stealing along on the
roofs of the low out-houses; descending a flight of wooden steps into the
brick area; investigating the shed, and entering all dark and secret
places; cautious, circumspect, as if in search of something; noiseless,
attentive to every noise.  Moss grows on spots of the roof; there are
little boxes of earth here and there, with plants in them.  The
grass-plots appertaining to each of the houses whose rears are opposite
ours (standing in Temple Place) are perhaps ten or twelve feet broad, and
three times as long.  Here and there is a large, painted garden-pot, half
buried in earth.  Besides the large trees in blossom, there are little
ones, probably of last year's setting out.  Early in the day chambermaids
are seen hanging the bedclothes out of the upper windows; at the window
of the basement of the same house, I see a woman ironing.  Were I a
solitary prisoner, I should not doubt to find occupation of deep interest
for my whole day in watching only one of the houses.  One house seems to
be quite shut up; all the blinds in the three windows of each of the four
stories being closed, although in the roof-windows of the attic story the
curtains are hung carelessly upward, instead of being drawn.  I thick the
house is empty, perhaps for the summer.  The visible side of the whole
row of houses is now in the shade,--they looking towards, I should say,
the southwest.  Later in the day, they are wholly covered with sunshine,
and continue so through the afternoon; and at evening the sunshine slowly
withdraws upward, gleams aslant upon the windows, perches on the
chimneys, and so disappears.  The upper part of the spire and the
weathercock of the Park Street Church appear over one of the houses,
looking as if it were close behind.  It shows the wind to be cast now.
At one of the windows of the third story sits a woman in a  dress,
diligently sewing on something white.  She sews, not like a lady, but
with an occupational air.  Her dress, I observe, on closer observation,
is a kind of loose morning sack, with, I think, a silky gloss on it; and
she seems to have a silver comb in her hair,--no, this latter item is a
mistake.  Sheltered as the space is between the two rows of houses, a
puff of the east-wind finds its way in, and shakes off some of the
withering blossoms from the cherry-trees.

Quiet as the prospect is, there is a continual and near thunder of wheels
proceeding from Washington Street.  In a building not far off, there is a
hall for exhibitions; and sometimes, in the evenings, loud music is heard
from it; or, if a diorama be shown (that of Bunker Hill, for instance, or
the burning of Moscow), an immense racket of imitative cannon and
musketry.


May, 16th.--It has been an easterly rain yesterday and to-day, with
occasional lightings up, and then a heavy downfall of the gloom again.

Scenes out of the rear windows,--the glistening roof of the opposite
houses; the chimneys, now and then choked with their own smoke, which a
blast drives down their throats.  The church-spire has a mist about it.
Once this morning a solitary dove came and alighted on the peak of an
attic window, and looked down into the areas, remaining in this position
a considerable time.  Now it has taken a flight, and alighted on the roof
of this house, directly over the window at which I sit, so that I can
look up and see its head and beak, and the tips of its claws.  The roofs
of the low out-houses are black with moisture; the gutters are full of
water, and there is a little puddle where there is a place for it in the
hollow of a board.  On the grass-plot are strewn the fallen blossoms of
the cherry-tree, and over the scene broods a parallelogram of sombre sky.
Thus it will be all day as it was yesterday; and, in the evening, one
window after another will be lighted up in the drawing-rooms.  Through
the white curtains may be seen the gleam of an astral-lamp, like a fixed
star.  In the basement rooms, the work of the kitchen going forward; in
the upper chambers, here and there a light.

In a bar-room, a large, oval basin let into the counter, with a brass
tube rising from the centre, out of which gushes continually a miniature
fountain, and descends in a soft, gentle, never-ceasing rain into the
basin, where swim a company of gold-fishes.  Some of them gleam brightly
in their golden armor; others have a dull white aspect, going through
some process of transformation.  One would think that the atmosphere,
continually filled with tobacco-smoke, might impregnate the water
unpleasantly for the scaly people; but then it is continually flowing
away and being renewed.  And what if some toper should be seized with the
freak of emptying his glass of gin or brandy into the basin,--would the
fishes die or merely get jolly?

I saw, for a wonder, a man pretty drunk at Parker's the other evening,--a
well-dressed man, of not ungentlemanly aspect.  He talked loudly and
foolishly, but in good phrases, with a great flow of language, and he was
no otherwise impertinent than in addressing his talk to strangers.
Finally, after sitting a long time staring steadfastly across the room in
silence, he arose, and staggered away as best he might, only showing his
very drunken state when he attempted to walk.

Old acquaintances,--a gentleman whom I knew ten years ago, brisk, active,
vigorous, with a kind of fire of physical well-being and cheerful spirits
glowing through him.  Now, after a course, I presume, of rather free
living, pale, thin, oldish, with a grave and care or pain worn brow,--yet
still lively and cheerful in his accost, though with something invincibly
saddened in his tones.  Another, formerly commander of a revenue vessel,
--a man of splendid epaulets and very aristocratic equipment and
demeanor; now out of service and without position, and changed into a
brandy-burnt and rowdyish sort of personage.  He seemed as if he might
still be a gentleman if he would; but his manners show a desperate state
of mind by their familiarity, recklessness, the lack of any hedge of
reserve about himself, while still he is evidently a man of the world,
accustomed to good society.  He has latterly, I think, been in the
Russian service, and would very probably turn pirate on fair occasion.


Lenox, July 14th.--The tops of the chestnut-trees have a whitish
appearance, they being, I suppose, in bloom.  Red raspberries are just
through the season.

Language,--human language,--after all, is but little better than the
croak and cackle of fowls and other utterances of brute nature,--
sometimes not so adequate.


July 16th.--The tops of the chestnut-trees are peculiarly rich, as if a
more luscious sunshine were falling on them than anywhere else.
"Whitish," as above, don't express it.

The queer gestures and sounds of a hen looking about for a place to
deposit her egg; her self-important gait; the sideway turn of her head
and cock of her eye, as she pries into one and another nook, croaking all
the while,--evidently with the idea that the egg in question is the most
important thing that has been brought to pass since the world began.  A
speckled black and white and tufted hen of ours does it to most ludicrous
perfection; and there is something laughably womanish in it too.


July 25th.--As I sit in my study, with the windows open, the occasional
incident of the visit of some winged creature,--wasp, hornet, or bee,--
entering out of the warm sunny atmosphere, soaring round the room in
large sweeps, then buzzing against the glass, as not satisfied with the
place, and desirous of getting out.  Finally, the joyous, uprising curve
with which, coming to the open part of the window, it emerges into the
cheerful glow of the outside.


August 4th.--Dined at hotel with J. T. Fields and wife.  Afternoon, drove
with them to Pittsfield and called on Dr. Holmes.


August 5th.--Drove with Fields and his wife to Stockbridge, being thereto
invited by Mr. Field of Stockbridge, in order to ascend Monument
Mountain.  Found at Mr. Field's Dr. Holmes and Mr. Duyckinck of New York;
also Mr. Cornelius Matthews and Herman Melville.  Ascended the mountain;
that is to say, Mrs. Fields and Miss Jenny Field, Mr. Field and Mr.
Fields, Dr. Holmes, Messrs. Duyckinck, Matthews, Melville, Mr. Henry
Sedgewick, and I, and were caught in a shower.  Dined at Mr. Field's.
Afternoon, under guidance of J. T. Headley, the party scrambled through
the ice-glen.


August 7th.--Messrs. Duyckink, Matthews, Melville, and Melville, junior,
called in the forenoon.  Gave them a couple of bottles of Mr. Mansfield's
champagne, and walked down to the lake with them.  At twilight Mr. Edwin
P. Whipple and wife called.


August 8th.--Mr. and Mrs. Whipple took tea with us.


August 12th.--Seven chickens hatched.  J. T. Readley and brother called.
Eight chickens.


August 19th.--Monument Mountain, in the early sunshine; its base
enveloped in mist, parts of which are floating in the sky, so that the
great hill looks really as if it were founded on a cloud.  Just emerging
from the mist is seen a yellow field of rye, and, above that, forest.


August 21st.--Eight more chickens hatched.  Ascended a mountain with my
wife; a beautiful, mellow, autumnal sunshine.


August 24th.--In the afternoons, nowadays, this valley in which I dwell
seems like a vast basin filled with golden sunshine as with wine.


August 31st.--J. R. Lowell called in the evening.


September 1st.--Mr. and Mrs. Lowell called in the forenoon, on their way
to Stockbridge or Lebanon to meet Miss Bremer.


September 2d.--"When I grow up," quoth J-----, in illustration of the
might to which he means to attain,--"when I grow up, I shall be two men."


September 3d.--Foliage of maples begins to change.  Julian, after picking
up a handful of autumnal maple-leaves the other day,--"Look, papa, here's
a bunch of fire!"


September 7th.--In a wood, a heap or pile of logs and sticks, that had
been cut for firewood, and piled up square, in order to be carted away to
the house when convenience served,--or, rather, to be sledded in
sleighing time.  But the moss had accumulated on them, and leaves falling
over them from year to year and decaying, a kind of soil had quite
covered them, although the softened outline of the woodpile was
perceptible in the green mound.  It was perhaps fifty years--perhaps
more--since the woodman had cut and piled those logs and sticks,
intending them for his winter fires.  But he probably needs no fire now.
There was something strangely interesting in this simple circumstance.
Imagine the long-dead woodman, and his long-dead wife and family, and the
old man who was a little child when the wood was cut, coming back from
their graves, and trying to make a fire with this mossy fuel.


September 19th.--Lying by the lake yesterday afternoon, with my eyes
shut, while the waves and sunshine were playing together on the water,
the quick glimmer of the wavelets was perceptible through my closed
eyelids.


October 13th.--A windy day, with wind northwest, cool, with a prevalence
of dull gray clouds over the sky, but with brief, quick glimpses of
sunshine.

The foliage having its autumn hues, Monument Mountain looks like a
headless sphinx, wrapped in a rich Persian shawl.  Yesterday, through a
diffused mist, with the sun shining on it, it had the aspect of burnished
copper.  The sun-gleams on the hills are peculiarly magnificent just in
these days.

One of the children, drawing a cow on the blackboard, says, "I'll kick
this leg out a little more,"--a very happy energy of expression,
completely identifying herself with the cow; or perhaps, as the cow's
creator, conscious of full power over its movements.


October 14th.--The brilliancy of the foliage has passed its acme; and
indeed it has not been so magnificent this season as in some others,
owing to the gradual approaches of cooler weather, and there having been
slight frosts instead of severe ones.  There is still a shaggy richness
on the hillsides.


October 16th.--A morning mist, filling up the whole length and breadth of
the valley betwixt my house and Monument Mountain, the summit of the
mountain emerging.  The mist reaches almost to my window, so dense as to
conceal everything, except that near its hither boundary a few ruddy or
yellow tree-tops appear, glorified by the early sunshine, as is likewise
the whole mist-cloud.

There is a glen between this house and the lake, through which winds a
little brook with pools and tiny waterfalls over the great roots of
trees.  The glen is deep and narrow, and filled with trees; so that, in
the summer, it is all a dense shadow of obscurity.  Now, the foliage of
the trees being almost entirely a golden yellow, instead of being full of
shadow, the glen is absolutely full of sunshine, and its depths are more
brilliant than the open plain or the mountain-tops.  The trees are
sunshine, and, many of the golden leaves being freshly fallen, the glen
is strewn with sunshine, amid which winds and gurgles the bright, dark
little brook.


December 1st.--I saw a dandelion in bloom near the lake.


December 19th.--If the world were crumbled to the finest dust, and
scattered through the universe, there would not be an atom of the dust
for each star.

"Generosity is the flower of justice."

The print in blood of a naked foot to be traced through the street of a
town.

Sketch of a personage with the malignity of a witch, and doing the
mischief attributed to one,--but by natural means; breaking off
love-affairs, teaching children vices, ruining men of wealth, etc.

Ladislaus, King of Naples, besieging the city of Florence, agreed to show
mercy, provided the inhabitants would deliver to him a certain virgin of
famous beauty, the daughter of a physician of the city.  When she was
sent to the king, every one contributing something to adorn her in the
richest manner, her father gave her a perfumed handkerchief, at that time
a universal decoration, richly wrought.  This handkerchief was poisoned
with his utmost art, . . . . and they presently died in one another's
arms.

Of a bitter satirist,--of Swift, for instance,--it might be said, that
the person or thing on which his satire fell shrivelled up as if the
Devil had spit on it.

The Fount of Tears,--a traveller to discover it,--and other similar
localites.

Benvenuto Cellini saw a Salamander in the household fire.  It was shown
him by his father, in childhood.

For the virtuoso's collection,--the pen with which Faust signed away his
salvation, with a drop of blood dried in it.

An article on newspaper advertisements,--a country newspaper, methinks,
rather than a city one.

An eating-house, where all the dishes served out, even to the bread and
salt, shall be poisoned with the adulterations that are said to be
practised.  Perhaps Death himself might be the cook.

Personify the century,--talk of its present middle age,--of its youth,--
and its adventures and prospects.

An uneducated countryman, supposing he had a live frog in his stomach,
applied himself to the study of medicine in order to find a cure for this
disease; and he became a profound physician.  Thus misfortune, physical
or moral, may be the means of educating and elevating us.

"Mather's Manuductio ad Ministerium,"--or "Directions for a candidate"
for the ministry,--with the autographs of four successive clergymen in
it, all of them, at one time or another, residents of the old Manse,--
Daniel Bliss, 1734; William Emerson, 1770; Ezra Ripley, 1781; and Samuel
Ripley, son of the preceding.  The book, according to a Latin memorandum,
was sold to Daniel Bliss by Daniel Bremner, who, I suppose, was another
student of divinity.  Printed at Boston "for Thomas Hancock, and sold at
his shop in Ann St. near the Draw Bridge, 1726."  William Emerson was
son-in-law of Daniel Bliss.  Ezra Ripley married the widow of said
William Emerson, and Samuel Ripley was their son.

Mrs. Prescott has an ox whose visage bears a strong resemblance to Daniel
Webster,--a majestic brute.

The spells of witches have the power of producing meats and viands that
have the appearance of a sumptuous feast, which the Devil furnishes.  But
a Divine Providence seldom permits the meat to be good, but it has
generally some bad taste or smell,--mostly wants salt,--and the feast is
often without bread.

An article on cemeteries, with fantastic ideas of monuments; for
instance, a sun-dial;--a large, wide carved stone chair, with some such
motto as "Rest and Think," and others, facetious or serious.

"Mamma, I see a part of your smile,"--a child to her mother, whose mouth
was partly covered by her hand.

"The syrup of my bosom,"--an improvisation of a little girl, addressed to
an imaginary child.

"The wind-turn," "the lightning-catch," a child's phrases for weathercock
and lightning-rod.

"Where's the man-mountain of these Liliputs?" cried a little boy, as he
looked at a small engraving of the Greeks getting into the wooden horse.

When the sun shines brightly on the new snow, we discover ranges of
hills, miles away towards the south, which we have never seen before.

To have the North Pole for a fishing-pole, and the Equinoctial Line for a
fishing-line.

If we consider the lives of the lower animals, we shall see in them a
close parallelism to those of mortals;--toil, struggle, danger,
privation, mingled with glimpses of peace and ease; enmity, affection, a
continual hope of bettering themselves, although their objects lie at
less distance before them than ours can do.  Thus, no argument for the
imperfect character of our existence and its delusory promises, and its
apparent injustice, can be drawn in reference to our immortality,
without, in a degree, being applicable to our brute brethren.


Lenox, February 12th, 1851.--A walk across the lake with Una.  A heavy
rain, some days ago, has melted a good deal of the snow on the
intervening descent between our house and the lake; but many drifts,
depths, and levels yet remain; and there is a frozen crust, sufficient to
bear a man's weight, and very slippery.  Adown the <DW72>s there are tiny
rivulets, which exist only for the winter.  Bare, brown spaces of grass
here and there, but still so infrequent as only to diversify the scene a
little.  In the woods, rocks emerging, and, where there is a <DW72>
immediately towards the lake, the snow is pretty much gone, and
we see partridge-berries frozen, and outer shells of walnuts, and
chestnut-burrs, heaped or scattered among the roots of the trees.  The
walnut-husks mark the place where the boys, after nutting, sat down to
clear the walnuts of their outer shell.  The various species of pine look
exceedingly brown just now,--less beautiful than those trees which shed
their leaves.  An oak-tree, with almost all its brown foliage still
rustling on it.  We clamber down the bank, and step upon the frozen lake,
It was snow-covered for a considerable time; but the rain overspread it
with a surface of water, or imperfectly melted snow, which is now hard
frozen again; and the thermometer having been frequently below zero, I
suppose the ice may be four or five feet thick.  Frequently there are
great cracks across it, caused, I suppose, by the air beneath, and giving
an idea of greater firmness than if there were no cracks; round holes,
which have been hewn in the marble pavement by fishermen, and are now
frozen over again, looking darker than the rest of the surface; spaces
where the snow was more imperfectly dissolved than elsewhere little
crackling spots, where a thin surface of ice, over the real mass,
crumples beneath one's foot; the track of a line of footsteps, most of
them vaguely formed, but some quite perfectly, where a person passed
across the lake while its surface was in a state of slush, but which are
now as hard as adamant, and remind one of the traces discovered by
geologists in rocks that hardened thousands of ages ago.  It seems as if
the person passed when the lake was in an intermediate state between ice
and water.  In one spot some pine boughs, which somebody had cut and
heaped there for an unknown purpose.  In the centre of the lake, we see
the surrounding hills in a new attitude, this being a basin in the midst
of them.  Where they are covered with wood, the aspect is gray or black;
then there are bare <DW72>s of unbroken snow, the outlines and
indentations being much more hardly and firmly defined than in summer.
We went southward across the lake, directly towards Monument Mountain,
which reposes, as I said, like a headless sphinx.  Its prominences,
projections, and roughnesses are very evident; and it does not present a
smooth and placid front, as when the grass is green and the trees in
leaf.  At one end, too, we are sensible of precipitous descents, black
and shaggy with the forest that is likely always to grow there; and, in
one streak, a headlong sweep downward of snow.  We just set our feet
on the farther shore, and then immediately returned, facing the
northwest-wind, which blew very sharply against us.

After landing, we came homeward, tracing up the little brook so far as it
lay in our course.  It was considerably swollen, and rushed fleetly on
its course between overhanging banks of snow and ice, from which depended
adamantine icicles.  The little waterfalls with which we had impeded it
in the summer and autumn could do no more than form a large ripple, so
much greater was the volume of water.  In some places the crust of frozen
snow made a bridge quite over the brook; so that you only knew it was
there by its brawling sound beneath.

The sunsets of winter are incomparably splendid, and when the ground is
covered with snow, no brilliancy of tint expressible by words can come
within an infinite distance of the effect.  Our southern view at that
time, with the clouds and atmospherical hues, is quite indescribable and
unimaginable; and the various distances of the hills which lie between us
and the remote dome of Taconic are brought out with an accuracy
unattainable in summer.  The transparency of the air at this season has
the effect of a telescope in bringing objects apparently near, while it
leaves the scene all its breadth.  The sunset sky, amidst its splendor,
has a softness and delicacy that impart themselves to a white marble
world.

February 18th.--A walk, yesterday afternoon, with the children; a bright,
and rather cold day, breezy from the north and westward.  There has been
a good deal of soaking rain lately, and it has, in great measure, cleared
hills and plains of snow, only it may be seen lying in spots, and on each
side of stone-walls, in a pretty broad streak.  The grass is brown and
withered, and yet, scattered all amongst it, on close inspection, one
finds a greenness,--little shrubs that have kept green under all the
severity of winter, and seem to need no change to fit them for midsummer.
In the woods we see stones covered with moss that retains likewise a most
lively green.  Where the trees are dense, the snow still lies under them.
On the sides of the mountains, some miles off, the black pines and the
white snow among them together produce a gray effect.  The little streams
are the most interesting objects at this time; some that have an
existence only at this season,--Mississippis of the moment;--yet glide
and tumble along as if they were perennial.  The familiar ones seem
strange by their breadth and volume; their little waterfalls set off by
glaciers on a small scale.  The sun has by this time force enough to make
sheltered nooks in the angles of woods, or on banks, warm and
comfortable.  The lake is still of adamantine substance, but all round
the borders there is a watery margin, altogether strewed or covered with
thin and broken ice, so that I could not venture on it with the children.
A chickadee was calling in the woods yesterday,--the only small bird I
have taken note of yet; but, crows have been cawing in the woods for a
week past, though not in very great numbers.


February 22d.--For the last two or three days there has been a warm,
soaking, southeasterly rain, with a spongy moisture diffused through the
atmosphere.  The snow has disappeared, except in spots which are the
ruins of high drifts, and patches far up on the hillsides.  The mists
rest all day long on the brows of the hills that shut in our valley.  The
road over which I walk every day to and from the village is in the worst
state of mud and mire, soft, slippery, nasty to tread upon; while the
grass beside it is scarcely better, being so oozy and so overflowed with
little streams, and sometimes an absolute bog.  The rivulets race along
the road, adown the hills; and wherever there is a permanent brooklet,
however generally insignificant, it is now swollen into importance, and
the rumble and tumble of its waterfalls may be heard a long way off.  The
general effect of the day and scenery is black, black, black.  The
streams are all as turbid as mud-puddles.

Imitators of original authors might be compared to plaster casts of
marble statues, or the imitative book to a cast of the original marble.


March 11th.--After the ground had been completely freed of snow, there
has been a snow-storm for the two days preceding yesterday, which made
the earth all white again.  This morning, at sunrise, the thermometer
stood at about 18 degrees above zero.  Monument Mountain stands out in
great prominence, with its dark forest-covered sides, and here and there
a large, white patch, indicating tillage or pasture land; but making a
generally dark contrast with the white expanse of the frozen and
snow-covered lake at its base, and the more undulating white of the
surrounding country.  Yesterday, under the sunshine of midday, and with
many voluminous clouds hanging over it, and a mist of wintry warmth in
the air, it had a kind of visionary aspect, although still it was brought
out in striking relief.  But though one could see all its bulgings, round
swells, and precipitous abruptnesses, it looked as much akin to the
clouds as to solid earth and rock substance.  In the early sunshine of
the morning, the atmosphere being very clear, I saw the dome of Taconic
with more distinctness than ever before, the snow-patches and brown,
uncovered soil on its round head being fully visible.  Generally it is
but a dark blue unvaried mountain-top.  All the ruggedness of the
intervening hill-country was likewise effectively brought out.  There
seems to be a sort of illuminating quality in new snow, which it loses
after being exposed for a day or two to the suit and atmosphere.

For a child's story,--the voyage of a little boat, made of a chip, with a
birch-bark sail, down a river.


March 31st.--A walk with the children yesterday forenoon.  We went
through the wood, where we found partridge-berries, half hidden among the
dry, fallen leaves; thence down to the brook.  This little brook has not
cleansed itself from the disarray of the past autumn and winter, and is
much embarrassed and choked up with brown leaves, twigs, and bits of
branches.  It rushes along merrily and rapidly, gurgling cheerfully, and
tumbling over the impediments of stones with which the children and I
made little waterfalls last year.  At many spots, there are small basins
or pools of calmer and smoother depth,--three feet, perhaps, in diameter,
and a foot or two deep,--in which little fish are already sporting about;
all elsewhere is tumble and gurgle and mimic turbulence.  I sat on the
withered leaves at the foot of a tree, while the children played, a
little brook being the most fascinating plaything that a child can have.
Una jumped to and fro across it; Julian stood beside a pool, fishing with
a stick, without hook or line, and wondering that he caught nothing.
Then he made new waterfalls with mighty labor, pulling big stones out of
the earth, and flinging them into the current.  Then they sent branches
of trees, or the outer shells of walnuts, sailing down the stream, and
watched their passages through the intricacies of the way,--how they were
hurried over in a cascade, hurried dizzily round in a whirlpool, or
brought quite to a stand-still amongst the collected rubbish.  At last
Julian tumbled into the brook, and was wetted through and through so that
we were obliged to come home; he squelching along all the way, with his
india-rubber shoes full of water.

There are still patches of snow on the hills; also in the woods,
especially on the northern margins.  The lake is not yet what we may call
thawed out, although there is a large space of blue water, and the ice is
separated from the shore everywhere, and is soft, water-soaked, and
crumbly.  On favorable <DW72>s and exposures, the earth begins to look
green; and almost anywhere, if one looks closely, one sees the greenness
of the grass, or of little herbage, amidst the brown.  Under the
nut-trees are scattered some of the nuts of last year; the walnuts have
lost their virtue, the chestnuts do not seem to have much taste, but the
butternuts are in no manner deteriorated.  The warmth of these days has a
mistiness, and in many respects resembles the Indian summer, and is not
at all provocative of physical exertion.  Nevertheless, the general
impression is of life, not death.  One feels that a new season has begun.


Wednesday, April 9th.--There was a great rain yesterday,--wind from the
southeast, and the last visible vestige of snow disappeared.  It was a
small patch near the summit of Bald Mountain, just on the upper verge of
a grove of trees.  I saw a slight remnant of it yesterday afternoon, but
to-day it is quite gone.  The grass comes up along the roadside and on
favorable exposures, with a sort of green blush.  Frogs have been
melodious for a fortnight, and the birds sing pleasantly.


April 20th.--The children found Houstonias more than a week ago.  There
have been easterly wind, continual cloudiness, and occasional rain for a
week.  This morning opened with a great snow-storm from the northeast,
one of the most earnest snow-storms of the year, though rather more moist
than in midwinter.  The earth is entirely covered.  Now, as the day
advances towards noon, it shows some symptoms of turning to rain.


April 28th.--For a week we have found the trailing arbutus pretty
abundant in the woods.  A day or two since, Una found a few purple
violets, and yesterday a dandelion in bloom.  The fragrance of the
arbutus is spicy and exquisite.


May 16th.--In our walks now, the children and I find blue, white, and
golden violets, the former, especially, of great size and richness.
Houstonias are very abundant, blue-whitening some of the pastures.  They
are a very sociable little flower, and dwell close together in
communities,--sometimes covering a space no larger than the palm of the
hand, but keeping one another in cheerful heart and life,--sometimes they
occupy a much larger space.  Lobelia, a pink flower, growing in the
woods.  Columbines, of a pale red, because they have lacked sun, growing
in rough and rocky places on banks in the copses, precipitating towards
the lake.  The leaves of the trees are not yet out, but are so apparent
that the woods are getting a very decided shadow.  Water-weeds on the
edge of the lake, of a deep green, with roots that seem to have nothing
to do with earth, but with water only.


May 23d.--I think the face of nature can never look more beautiful than
now, with this so fresh and youthful green,--the trees not being fully in
leaf, yet enough so to give airy shade to the woods.  The sunshine fills
them with green light.  Monument Mountain and its brethren are green, and
the lightness of the tint takes away something from their massiveness and
ponderosity, and they respond with livelier effect to the shine and shade
of the sky.  Each tree now within sight stands out in its own
individuality of line.  This is a very windy day, and the light shifts
with magical alternation.  In a walk to the lake just now with the
children, we found abundance of flowers,--wild geranium, violets of all
families, red columbines, and many others known and unknown, besides
innumerable blossoms of the wild strawberry, which has been in bloom for
the past fortnight.  The Houstonias seem quite to overspread some
pastures, when viewed from a distance.  Not merely the flowers, but the
various shrubs which one sees,--seated, for instance, on the decayed
trunk of a tree,--are well worth looking at, such a variety and such
enjoyment they have of their new growth.  Amid these fresh creations, we
see others that have already run their course, and have done with warmth
and sunshine,--the hoary periwigs, I mean, of dandelions gone to seed.


August 7th.--Fourier states that, in the progress of the world, the ocean
is to lose its saltness, and acquire the taste of a peculiarly flavored
lemonade.


October 13th.--How pleasant it is to see a human countenance which cannot
be insincere,--in reference to baby's smile.

The best of us being unfit to die, what an inexpressible absurdity to put
the worst to death!

"Is that a burden of sunshine on Apollo's back?" asked one of the
children,--of the chlamys on our Apollo Belvedere.


October 21st.--Going to the village yesterday afternoon, I saw the face
of a beautiful woman, gazing at me from a cloud.  It was the full face,
not the bust.  It had a sort of mantle on the head, and a pleasant
expression of countenance.  The vision lasted while I took a few
steps, and then vanished.  I never before saw nearly so distinct a
cloud-picture, or rather sculpture; for it came out in alto-rilievo on
the body of the cloud.


October 27th.--The ground this morning is white with a thin covering of
snow.  The foliage has still some variety of hue.  The dome of Taconic
looks dark, and seems to have no snow on it, though I don't understand
how that can be.  I saw, a moment ago, on the lake, a very singular
spectacle.  There is a high northwest-wind ruffling the lake's surface,
and making it blue, lead-, or bright, in stripes or at intervals;
but what I saw was a boiling up of foam, which began at the right bank of
the lake, and passed quite across it; and the mist flew before it, like
the cloud out of a steam-engine.  A fierce and narrow blast of wind must
have ploughed the water in a straight line, from side to side of the
lake.  As fast as it went on, the foam subsided behind it, so that it
looked somewhat like a sea-serpent, or other monster, swimming very
rapidly.


October 29th.--On a walk to Scott's pond, with Ellery Channing, we found
a wild strawberry in the woods, not quite ripe, but beginning to redden.
For a week or two, the cider-mills have been grinding apples.  Immense
heaps of apples lie piled near them, and the creaking of the press is
heard as the horse treads on.  Farmers are repairing cider-barrels; and
the wayside brook is made to pour itself into the bunghole of a barrel,
in order to cleanse it for the new cider.


November 3d.--The face of the country is dreary now in a cloudy day like
the present.  The woods on the hillsides look almost black, and the
cleared spaces a kind of gray brown.

Taconic, this morning (4th), was a black purple, as dense and distinct as
Monument Mountain itself.  I hear the creaking of the cider-press; the
patient horse going round and round, perhaps thirsty, to make the liquor
which he never can enjoy.

We left Lenox Friday morning, November 21, 1851, in a storm of snow and
sleet, and took the cars at Pittsfield, and arrived at West Newton that
evening.

Happiness in this world, when it comes, comes incidentally.  Make it the
object of pursuit, and it leads us a wild-goose chase, and is never
attained.  Follow some other object, and very possibly we may find that
we have caught happiness, without dreaming of it; but likely enough it is
gone the moment we say to ourselves, "Here it is!" like the chest of gold
that treasure-seekers find.


West Newton, April 13th, 1852.--One of the severest snow-storms of the
winter.


April 30th.--Wrote the last page (199th MS.) of the Blithedale Romance.


May 1st.--Wrote Preface.  Afterwards modified the conclusion, and
lengthened it to 201 pages.  First proof-sheets, May 14.


Concord, Mass., August 20th.--A piece of land contiguous to and connected
with a handsome estate, to the adornment and good appearance of which it
was essential.--But the owner of the strip of land was at variance with
the owner of the estate, so he always refused to sell it at any price,
but let it lie there, wild and ragged, in front of and near the
mansion-house.  When he dies, the owner of the estate, who has rejoiced
at the approach of the event all through his enemy's illness, hopes at
last to buy it; but, to his infinite discomfiture, the enemy enjoined in
his will that his body should be buried in the centre of this strip of
land.  All sorts of ugly weeds grow most luxuriantly out of the grave in
poisonous rankness.


The Isles of Shoals, Monday, August 30th.--Left Concord at a quarter of
nine A. M.  Friday, September 3, set sail at about half past ten to the
Isles of Shoals.  The passengers were an old master of a vessel; a young,
rather genteel man from Greenland, N. H.; two Yankees from Hamilton and
Danvers; and a country trader (I should judge) from some inland town of
New Hampshire.  The old sea-captain, preparatory to sailing, bought a
bunch of cigars (they cost ten cents), and occasionally puffed one.  The
two Yankees had brought guns on board, and asked questions about the
fishing of the Shoals.  They were young men, brothers, the youngest a
shopkeeper in Danvers, the other a farmer, I imagine, at Hamilton, and
both specimens of the least polished kind of Yankee, and therefore proper
to those localities.  They were at first full of questions, and greatly
interested in whatever was going forward; but anon the shopkeeper began
to grow, first a little, then very sick, till he lay along the boat,
longing, as he afterwards said, for a little fresh water to be drowned
in.  His brother attended him in a very kindly way, but became sick
himself before he reached the end of the voyage.

The young Greenlander talked politics, or rather discussed the personal
character of Pierce.  The New Hampshire trader said not a word, or hardly
one, all the way.  A Portsmouth youth (whom I forgot to mention) sat in
the stern of the boat, looking very white.  The skipper of the boat is a
Norwegian, a good-natured fellow, not particularly intelligent, and
speaking in a dialect somewhat like Irish.  He had a man with him, a
silent and rather sulky fellow, who, at the captain's bidding, grimly
made himself useful.

The wind not being favorable, we had to make several tacks before
reaching the islands, where we arrived at about two o'clock.  We landed
at Appledore, on which is Laighton's Hotel,--a large building with a
piazza or promenade before it, about an hundred and twenty feet in
length, or more,--yes, it must be more.  It is an edifice with a centre
and two wings, the central part upwards of seventy feet.  At one end of
the promenade is a covered veranda, thirty or forty feet square, so
situated that the breeze draws across it from the sea on one side of the
island to the sea on the other, and it is the breeziest and comfortablest
place in the world on a hot day.  There are two swings beneath it, and
here one may sit or walk, and enjoy life, while all other mortals are
suffering.

As I entered the door of the hotel, there met me a short, corpulent,
round, and full-faced man, rather elderly, if not old.  He was a little
lame.  He addressed me in a hearty, hospitable tone, and, judging that it
must be my landlord, I delivered a letter of introduction from Pierce.
Of course it was fully efficient in obtaining the best accommodations
that were to be had.  I found that we were expected, a man having brought
the news of our intention the day before.  Here ensued great inquiries
after the General, and wherefore he had not come.  I was looked at with
considerable curiosity on my own account, especially by the ladies, of
whom there were several, agreeable and pretty enough.  There were four or
five gentlemen, most of whom had not much that was noteworthy.

After dinner, which was good and abundant, though somewhat rude in its
style, I was introduced by Mr. Laighton to Mr. Thaxter, his son-in-law,
and Mr. Weiss, a clergyman of New Bedford, who is staying here for his
health.  They showed me some of the remarkable features of the island,
such as a deep chasm in the cliffs of the shore, towards the southwest;
also a monument of rude stones, on the highest point of the island, said
to have been erected by Captain John Smith before the settlement at
Plymouth.  The tradition is just as good as truth.  Also, some ancient
cellars, with thistles and other weeds growing in them, and old
fragmentary bricks scattered about.  The date of these habitations is not
known; but they may well be the remains of the settlement that Cotton
Mather speaks about; or perhaps one of them was the house where Sir
William Pepperell was born, and where he went when he and somebody else
set up a stick, and travelled to seek their fortunes in the direction in
which it fell.

In the evening, the company at the hotel made up two whist parties, at
one of which I sat down,--my partner being an agreeable young lady from
Portsmouth.  We played till I, at least, was quite weary.  It had been
the beautifullest of weather all day, very hot on the mainland, but a
delicious climate under our veranda.


Saturday, September 4th.--Another beautiful day, rather cooler than the
preceding, but not too cool.  I can bear this coolness better than that
of the interior.  In the forenoon, I took passage for Star Island, in a
boat that crosses daily whenever there are passengers.  My companions
were the two Yankees, who had quite recovered from yesterday's sickness,
and were in the best of spirits and the utmost activity of mind of which
they were capable.  Never was there such a string of questions as they
directed to the boatman,--questions that seemed to have no gist, so far
as related to any use that could be made of the answers.  They appear to
be very good young men, however, well-meaning, and with manners not
disagreeable, because their hearts are not amiss.  Star Island is less
than a mile from Appledore.  It is the most populous island of the
group,--has been, for three or four years, an incorporated township, and
sends a representative to the New Hampshire legislature.  The number of
voters is variously represented as from eighteen to twenty-eight.  The
inhabitants are all, I presume, fishermen.  Their houses stand in pretty
close neighborhood to one another, scattered about without the slightest
regularity or pretence of a street, there being no wheel-carriages on the
island.  Some of the houses are very comfortable two-story dwellings.  I
saw two or three, I think, with flowers.  There are also one or two trees
on the island.  There is a strong odor of fishiness, and the little cove
is full of mackerel-boats, and other small craft for fishing, in some of
which little boys of no growth at all were paddling about.  Nearly in the
centre of this insular metropolis is a two-story house, with a flag-staff
in the yard.  This is the hotel.

On the highest point of Star Island stands the church,--a small, wooden
structure; and, sitting in its shadow, I found a red-baize-skirted
fisherman, who seemed quite willing to converse.  He said that there was
a minister here, who was also the schoolmaster; but that he did not keep
school just now, because his wife was very much out of health.  The
school-house stood but a little way from the meeting-house, and near it
was the minister's dwelling; and by and by I had a glimpse of the good
man himself, in his suit of black, which looked in very decent condition
at the distance from which I viewed it.  His clerical air was quite
distinguishable, and it was rather curious to see it, when everybody else
wore red-baize shirts and fishing-boots, and looked of the scaly genus.
He did not approach me, and I saw him no nearer.  I soon grew weary of
Gosport, and was glad to re-embark, although I intend to revisit the
island with Mr. Thaxter, and see more of its peculiarities and
inhabitants.  I saw one old witch-looking woman creeping about with a
cane, and stooping down, seemingly to gather herbs.  On mentioning her to
Mr. Thaxter, after my return, he said that it was probably "the bearded
woman."  I did not observe her beard; but very likely she may have had
one.

The larger part of the company at the hotel returned to the mainland
to-day.  There remained behind, however, a Mr. T------ from Newburyport,
--a man of natural refinement, and a taste for reading that seems to
point towards the writings of Emerson, Thoreau, and men of that class.  I
have had a good deal of talk with him, and at first doubted whether he
might not be a clergyman; but Mr. Thaxter tells me that he has made his
own way in the world,--was once a sailor before the mast, and is now
engaged in mercantile pursuits.  He looks like nothing of this kind,
being tall and slender, with very quiet manners, not beautiful, though
pleasing from the refinement that they indicate.  He has rather a precise
and careful pronunciation, but yet a natural way of talking.

In the afternoon I walked round a portion of the island that I had not
previously visited, and in the evening went with Mr. Titcomb to Mr.
Thaxter's to drink apple-toddy.  We found Mrs. Thaxter sitting in a neat
little parlor, very simply furnished, but in good taste.  She is not now,
I believe, more than eighteen years old, very pretty, and with the
manners of a lady,--not prim and precise, but with enough of freedom and
ease.  The books on the table were "Pre-Raphaelitism," a tract on
spiritual mediums, etc.  There were several shelves of books on one side
of the room, and engravings on the walls.  Mr. Weiss was there, and I do
not know but he is an inmate of Mr. Thaxter's.  By and by came in Mr.
Thaxter's brother, with a young lady whose position I do not know,--
either a sister or the brother's wife.  Anon, too, came in the
apple-toddy, a very rich and spicy compound; after which we had some
glees and <DW64> melodies, in which Mr. Thaxter sang a noble bass, and
Mrs. Thaxter sang like a bird, and Mr. Weiss sang, I suppose, tenor, and
the brother took some other part, and all were very mirthful and jolly.
At about ten o'clock Mr. Titcomb and myself took leave, and emerging into
the open air, out of that room of song, and pretty youthfulness of woman,
and gay young men, there was the sky, and the three-quarters waning moon,
and the old sea moaning all round about the island.


Sunday, September 5th.--To-day I have done little or nothing except to
roam along the shore of the island, and to sit under the piazza, talking
with Mr. Laighton or some of his half-dozen guests; and about an hour
before dinner I came up to my room, and took a brief nap.  Since dinner I
have been writing the foregoing journal.  I observe that the Fanny
Ellsler, our passenger and mail boat, has arrived from Portsmouth, and
now lies in a little cove, moored to the rocky shore, with a flag flying
at her main-mast.  We have been watching her for some hours, but she
stopped to fish, and then went to some other island, before putting in
here.  I must go and see what news she has brought.

"What did you fire at?" asked one of the Yankees just now of a boy who
had been firing a gun.  "Nothing," said the boy.  "Did you hit it?"
rejoined the Yankee.

The farmer is of a much ruder and rougher mould than his brother,--
heavier in frame and mind, and far less cultivated.  It was on this
account, probably, that he labored as a farmer, instead of setting up a
shop.  When it is warm, as yesterday, he takes off his coat, and, not
minding whether or no his shirt-sleeves be soiled, goes in this guise to
meals or wherever else,---not resuming his coat as long as he is more
comfortable without it.  His shoulders have a stoop, and altogether his
air is that of a farmer in repose.  His brother is handsome, and might
have quite the aspect of a smart, comely young man, if well dressed.

This island is said to be haunted by a spectre called "Old Bab."  He was
one of Captain Kidd's men, and was slain for the protection of the
treasure.  Mr. Laighton said that, before he built his house, nothing
would have induced the inhabitant of another island to come to this after
nightfall.  The ghost especially haunts the space between the hotel and
the cove in front.  There has, in times past, been great search for the
treasure.

Mr. Thaxter tells me that the women on the island are very timid as to
venturing on the sea,--more so than the women of the mainland,--and that
they are easily frightened about their husbands.  Very few accidents
happen to the boats or men,--none, I think, since Mr. Thaxter has been
here.  They are not an enterprising set of people, never liking to make
long voyages.  Sometimes one of them will ship on a voyage to the West
Indies, but generally only on coastwise trips, or fishing or mackerel
voyages.  They have a very strong local attachment, and return to die.
They are now generally temperate, formerly very much the contrary.


September 5th.--A large part of the guests took their departure after an
early breakfast this morning, including Mr. Titcomb, Mr. Weiss, the two
Yankees, and Mr. Thaxter,--who, however, went as skipper or supercargo,
and will return with the boat.  I have been fishing for cunners off the
rocks, but with intolerably poor success.  There is nothing so
dispiriting as poor fishing, and I spend most of the time with my head on
my hands, looking at the sea breaking against the rocks, shagged around
the bases with sea-weed.  It is a sunny forenoon, with a cool breeze from
the southwest.  The mackerel craft are in the offing.  Mr. Laighton says
that the Spy (the boat which went to the mainland this morning) is now on
her return with all her colors set; and he thinks that Pierce is on
board, he having sent Mr. Thaxter to invite him to come in this boat.

Pierce arrived before dinner in the Spy, accompanied by Judge Upham and
his brother and their wives, his own wife, Mr. Furness, and three young
ladies.  After dinner some of the gentlemen crossed over to Gosport,
where we visited the old graveyard, in which were monuments to Rev. Mr.
Tucke (died 1773, after forty years' settlement) and to another and later
minister of the island.  They were of red freestone, lying horizontally
on piles of the granite fragments, such as are scattered all about.
There were other graves, marked by the rudest shapes of stones at head
and foot.  And so many stones protruded from the ground, that it was
wonderful how space and depth enough was found between them to cover the
dead.  We went to the house of the town clerk of Gosport (a drunken
fisherman, Joe Caswell by name) and there found the town records,
commencing in 1732 in a beautiful style of penmanship.  They are
imperfect, the township having been broken up, probably at the time of
the Revolution.  Caswell, being very drunk, immediately put in a petition
to Pierce to build a sea-mole for the protection of the navigation of the
island when he should be President.  He was dressed in the ordinary
fisherman's style,--red-baize shirt, trousers tucked into large boots,
which, as he had just come ashore, were wet with salt water.

He led us down to the shore of the island, towards the east, and showed
us Betty Moody's Hole.  This Betty Moody was a woman of the island in old
times.  The Indians came off on a depredating excursion, and she fled
from them with a child, and hid herself in this hole, which is formed by
several great rocks being lodged so as to cover one of the fissures which
are common along these shores.  I crept into the hole, which is somewhat
difficult of access, long, low, and narrow, and might well enough be a
hiding-place.  The child, or children, began to cry; and Betty, fearful
of discovery, murdered them to save herself.  Joe Caswell did not tell
the latter part of the story, but Mr. Thaxter did.

Not far from the spot there is a point of rocks extending out farther
into the ocean than the rest of the island.  Some four or five years ago
there was a young woman residing at Gosport in the capacity of
schoolteacher.  She was of a romantic turn, and used to go and sit on
this point of rock to view the waves.  One day, when the wind was high,
and the surf raging against the rocks, a great wave struck her, as she
sat on the edge, and seemed to deprive her of sense; another wave, or the
reflex of the same one, carried her off into the sea, and she was seen no
more.  This happened, I think, in 1846.

Passing a rock near the centre of the island, which rose from the soil
about breast-high, and appeared to have been split asunder, with an
incalculably aged and moss-grown fissure, the surfaces of which, however,
precisely suited each other; Mr. Hatch mentioned that there was an idea
among the people, with regard to rocks thus split, that they were rent
asunder at the time of the Crucifixion.  Judge Upham observed that this
superstition was common in all parts of the country.

Mr. Hatch said that he was professionally consulted, the other day, by a
man who had been digging for buried treasure at Dover Point; up the
Piscataqua River; and, while he and his companions were thus engaged, the
owner of the land came upon them, and compelled Hatch's client to give
him a note for a sum of money.  The object was to inquire whether this
note was obligatory.  Hatch says that there are a hundred people now
resident in Portsmouth, who, at one time or another, have dug for
treasure.  The process is, in the first place, to find out the site of
the treasure by the divining-rod.  A circle is then described with the
steel rod about the spot, and a man walks around within its verge,
reading the Bible to keep off the evil spirit while his companions dig.
If a word is spoken, the whole business is a failure.  Once the person
who told him the story reached the lid of the chest, so that the spades
plainly scraped upon it, when one of the men spoke, and the chest
immediately moved sideways into the earth.  Another time, when he was
reading the Bible within the circle, a creature like a white horse, but
immoderately large, came from a distance towards the circle, looked at
him, and then began to graze about the spot.  He saw the motion of the
jaws, but heard no sound of champing.  His companions saw the gigantic
horse precisely as he did, only to them it appeared bay instead of white.

The islanders stared with great curiosity at Pierce.  One pretty young
woman appeared inclined to engross him entirely to herself.

There is a bowling-alley on the island, at which some of the young
fishermen were rolling.


September 7th.--. . . . I have made no exploration to-day, except a walk
with the guests in the morning, but have lounged about the piazza and
veranda.  It has been a calm, warm, sunny day, the sea slumbering against
the shores, and now and then breaking into white foam.

The surface of the island is plentifully overgrown with whortleberry and
bayberry bushes.  The sheep cut down the former, so that few berries are
produced; the latter gives a pleasant fragrance when pressed in the hand.
The island is one great ledge of rock, four hundred acres in extent, with
a little soil thrown scantily over it; but the bare rock everywhere
emerging, not only in points, but still more in flat surfaces.  The only
trees, I think, are two that Mr. Laighton has been trying to raise in
front of the hotel, the taller of which looks scarcely so much as ten
feet high.  It is now about sunset, and the Fanny, with the mail, is just
arrived at the moorings.  So still is it, that the sounds on board (as of
throwing oars into a small boat) are distinctly heard, though a quarter
of a mile off.  She has the Stars and Stripes flying at the main-mast.
There appear to be no passengers.

The only reptile on the island is a very vivid and beautiful green snake,
which is exceedingly abundant.  Yesterday, while catching grasshoppers
for fish-bait, I nearly griped one in my hand; indeed, I rather think I
did gripe it.  The snake was as much startled as myself, and, in its
fright, stood an instant on its tail, before it recovered presence of
mind to glide away.  These snakes are quite harmless.


September 8th.--Last evening we could hear the roaring of the beaches at
Hampton and Rye, nine miles off.  The surf likewise swelled against the
rocky shores of the island, though there was little or no wind, and,
except for the swell, the surface was smooth.  The sheep bleated loudly;
and all these tokens, according to Mr. Laighton, foreboded a storm to
windward.  This morning, nevertheless, there were no further signs of it;
it is sunny and calm, or only the slightest breeze from the westward; a
haze sleeping along the shore, betokening a warm day; the surface of the
sea streaked with smoothness, and gentle ruffles of wind.  It has been
the hottest day that I have known here, and probably one of the hottest
of the season ashore; and the land is now imperceptible in the haze.

Smith's monument is about seven feet high, and probably ten or twelve in
diameter at its base.  It is a cairn or mere heap of stones, thrown
together as they came to hand, though with some selection of large and
flat ones, towards the base, and with smaller ones thrown in.  At the
foundation, there are large rocks, naturally imbedded in the earth.  I
see no reason to disbelieve that a part of this monument may have been
erected by Captain Smith, although subsequent visitors may have added to
it.  Laighton says it is known to have stood upwards of a hundred years.
It is a work of considerable labor, and would more likely have been
erected by one who supposed himself the first discoverer of the island
than by anybody afterwards for mere amusement.  I observed in some
places, towards the base, that the lichens had grown from one stone to
another; and there is nothing in the appearance of the monument that
controverts the supposition of its antiquity.  It is an irregular circle,
somewhat decreasing towards the top.  Few of the stones, except at the
base, are bigger than a man could easily lift,--many of them are not more
than a foot across.  It stands towards the southern part of the island;
and all the other islands are visible from it,--Smutty Nose, Star Island,
and White Island,--on which is the lighthouse,--much of Laighton's island
(the proper name of which is Hog, though latterly called Appledore), and
Duck Island, which looks like a mere reef of rocks, and about a mile
farther into the ocean, easterly of Hog Island.

Laighton's Hotel, together with the house in which his son-in-law
resides, which was likewise built by Laighton, and stands about fifty
yards from the hotel, occupies the middle of a shallow valley, which
passes through the island from east to west.  Looking from the veranda,
you have the ocean opening towards the east, and the bay towards Rye
Beach and Portsmouth on the west.  In the same storm that overthrew
Minot's Light, a year or two ago, a great wave passed entirely through
this valley; and Laighton describes it, when it came in from the sea, as
toppling over to the height of the cupola of his hotel.  It roared and
whitened through, from sea to sea, twenty feet abreast, rolling along
huge rocks in its passage.  It passed beneath his veranda, which stands
on posts, and probably filled the valley completely.  Would I had been
here to see!

The day has been exceedingly hot.  Since dinner, the Spy has arrived from
Portsmouth, with a party of half a dozen or more men and women and
children, apparently from the interior of New Hampshire.  I am rather
sorry to receive these strangers into the quiet life that we are leading
here; for we had grown quite to feel ourselves at home, and the two young
ladies, Mr. Thaxter, his wife and sister, and myself, met at meal-times
like one family.  The young ladies gathered shells, arranged them,
laughed gently, sang, and did other pretty things in a young-ladylike
way.  These new-comers are people of uncouth voices and loud laughter,
and behave themselves as if they were trying to turn their expedition to
as much account as possible in the way of enjoyment.

John's boat, the regular passenger-boat, is now coming in, and probably
brings the mail.

In the afternoon, while some of the new-comers were fishing off the
rocks, west of the hotel, a shark came close in shore.  Hearing their
outcries, I looked out of my chamber window, and saw the dorsal fin and
the fluke of his tail stuck up out of the water, as he moved to and fro.
He must have been eight or ten feet long.  He had probably followed the
small fish into the bay, and got bewildered, and, at one time, he was
almost aground.

Oscar, Mr. Laighton's son, ran down with a gun, and fired at the shark,
which was then not more than ten yards from the shore.  He aimed,
according to his father's directions, just below the junction of the
dorsal fin with the body; but the gun was loaded only with shot, and
seemed to produce no effect.  Oscar had another shot at him afterwards;
the shark floundered a little in the water, but finally got off and
disappeared, probably without very serious damage.  He came so near the
shore that he might have been touched with a boat-hook.


September 9th.--Mr. Thaxter rowed me this morning, in his dory, to White
Island, on which is the lighthouse.  There was scarcely a breath of air,
and a perfectly calm sea; an intensely hot sunshine, with a little haze,
so that the horizon was indistinct.  Here and there sail-boats sleeping
on the water, or moving almost imperceptibly over it.  The lighthouse
island would be difficult of access in a rough sea, the shore being so
rocky.  On landing, we found the keeper peeling his harvest of onions,
which he had gathered prematurely, because the insects were eating them.
His little patch of garden seemed to be a strange kind of soil, as like
marine mud as anything; but he had a fair crop of marrow squashes, though
injured, as he said, by the last storm; and there were cabbages and a few
turnips.  I recollect no other garden vegetables.  The grass grows pretty
luxuriantly, and looked very green where there was any soil; but he kept
no cow, nor even a pig nor a hen.  His house stands close by the garden,
--a small stone building, with peaked roof, and whitewashed.  The
lighthouse stands on a ledge of rock, with a galley between, and there is
a long covered way, triangular in shape, connecting his residence with
it.  We ascended into the lantern, which is eighty-seven feet high.  It
is a revolving light, with several great illuminators of copper silvered,
and  lamp-glasses.  Looking downward, we had the island displayed
as on a chart, with its little bays, its isthmus of shingly beach
connecting two parts of the island, and overflowed at high tide; its
sunken rocks about it, indicated by the swell, or slightly breaking surf.
The keeper of the lighthouse was formerly a writing-master.  He has a
sneaking kind of look, and does not bear a very high character among his
neighbors.  Since he kept the light, he has lost two wives,--the first a
young creature whom he used to leave alone upon this desolate rock, and
the gloom and terror of the situation were probably the cause of her
death.  The second wife, experiencing the same kind of treatment, ran
away from him, and returned to her friends.  He pretends to be religious,
but drinks.  About a year ago he attempted to row out alone from
Portsmouth.  There was a head wind and head tide, and he would have
inevitably drifted out to sea, if Mr. Thaxter had not saved him.

While we were standing in his garden-patch, I heard a woman's voice
inside the dwelling, but know not whose it was.  A lighthouse nine miles
from shore would be a delightful place for a new-married couple to spend
their honeymoon, or their whole first year.

On our way back we landed at another island called Londoner's Rock, or
some such name.  It has but little soil.  As we approached it, a large
bird flew away.  Mr. Thaxter took it to be a gannet; and, while walking
over the island, an owl started up from among the rocks near us, and flew
away, apparently uncertain of its course.  It was a brown owl, but Mr.
Thaxter says that there are beautiful white owls, which spend the winter
here, and feed upon rats.  These are very abundant, and live amidst the
rocks,--probably having been brought hither by vessels.

The water to-day was not so transparent as sometimes, but had a slight
haze diffused through it, somewhat like that of the atmosphere.

The passengers brought by the Spy, yesterday, still remain with us.  They
consist of country traders, a country doctor, and such sorts of people,
rude, shrewd, and simple, and well-behaved enough; wondering at sharks,
and equally at lobsters; sitting down to table with their coats off;
helping themselves out of the dish with their own forks; taking pudding
on the plates off which they have eaten meat.  People at just this stage
of manners are more disagreeable than at any other stage.  They are aware
of some decencies, but not so deeply aware as to make them a matter of
conscience.  They may be heard talking of the financial affairs of the
expedition, reckoning what money each has paid.  One offers to pay
another three or four cents, which the latter has overpaid.  "It's of no
consequence, sir," says his friend, with a tone of conscious liberality,
"that's near enough."  This is a most tremendously hot day.

There is a young lady staying at the hotel, afflicted with what her
friends call erysipelas, but which is probably scrofula.  She seems
unable to walk, or sit up; but every pleasant day, about the middle of
the forenoon, she is dragged out beneath the veranda, on a sofa.  To-day
she has been there until late in the decline of the afternoon.  It is a
delightful place, where the breezes stir, if any are in motion.  The
young girls, her sisters or cousins, and Mr. Thaxter's sister, sat round
her, babbling cheerfully, and singing; and they were so merry that it did
not seem as if there could be an incurably sick one in the midst of them.

The Spy came to-day, with more passengers of no particular character.
She still remains off the landing, moored, with her sails in the wind.

The mail arrived to-day, but nothing for me.

Close by the veranda, at the end of the hotel, is drawn up a large boat,
of ten or twelve tons, which got injured in some gale, and probably will
remain there for years to decay, and be a picturesque and characteristic
object.

The Spy has been lying in the broad track of golden light, thrown by the
sun, far down towards the horizon, over the rippling water, her sails
throwing distinct, dark shadows over the brightness.  She has now got
under way, and set sail on a northwest course for Portsmouth; carrying
off, I believe, all the passengers she brought to-day.


September 10th.--Here is another beautiful morning, with the sun dimpling
in the early sunshine.  Four sailboats are in sight, motionless on the
sea, with the whiteness of their sails reflected in it.  The heat-haze
sleeps along the shore, though not so as quite to hide it, and there is
the promise of another very warm day.  As yet, however, the air is cool
and refreshing.  Around the island, there is the little ruffle of a
breeze; but where the sail-boats are, a mile or more off, the sea is
perfectly calm.  The crickets sing, and I hear the chirping of birds
besides.

At the base of the lighthouse yesterday, we saw the wings and feathers of
a decayed little bird, and Mr. Thaxter said they often flew against the
lantern with such force as to kill themselves, and that large quantities
of them might be picked up.  How came these little birds out of their
nests at night?  Why should they meet destruction from the radiance that
proves the salvation of other beings?

Mr. Thaxter had once a man living with him who had seen "Old Bab," the
ghost.  He met him between the hotel and the sea, and describes him as
dressed in a sort of frock, and with a very dreadful countenance.

Two or three years ago, the crew of a wrecked vessel, a brigantine,
wrecked near Boon Island, landed on Hog Island of a winter night, and
found shelter in the hotel.  It was from the eastward.  There were six or
seven men, with the mate and captain.  It was midnight when they got
ashore.  The common sailors, as soon as they were physically comfortable,
seemed to be perfectly at ease.  The captain walked the floor, bemoaning
himself for a silver watch which he had lost; the mate, being the only
married man, talked about his Eunice.  They all told their dreams of the
preceding night, and saw in them prognostics of the misfortune.

There is now a breeze, the blue ruffle of which seems to reach almost
across to the mainland, yet with streaks of calm; and, in one place, the
glassy surface of a lake of calmness, amidst the surrounding commotion.

The wind, in the early morning, was from the west, and the aspect of the
sky seemed to promise a warm and sunny day.  But all at once, soon after
breakfast, the wind shifted round to the eastward; and great volumes of
fog, almost as dense as cannon-smoke, came sweeping from the eastern
ocean, through the valley, and past the house.  It soon covered the whole
sea, and the whole island, beyond a verge of a few hundred yards.  The
chilliness was not so great as accompanies a change of wind on the
mainland.  We had been watching a large ship that was slowly making her
way between us and the land towards Portsmouth.  This was now hidden.
The breeze is still very moderate; but the boat, moored near the shore,
rides with a considerable motion, as if the sea were getting up.

Mr. Laighton says that the artist who adorned Trinity Church in New York
with sculpture wanted some real wings from which to imitate the wings of
cherubim.  Mr. Thaxter carried him the wings of the white owl that
winters here at the Shoals, together with those of some other bird; and
the artist gave his cherubim the wings of an owl.

This morning there have been two boat-loads of visitors from Rye.  They
merely made a flying call, and took to their boats again,--a disagreeable
and impertinent kind of people.

The Spy arrived before dinner, with several passengers.  After dinner
came the Fanny, bringing, among other freight, a large basket of
delicious pears to me, together with a note from Mr. B. B. Titcomb.  He
is certainly a man of excellent, taste and admirable behavior.  I sent a
plateful of pears to the room of each guest now in the hotel, kept a
dozen for myself, and gave the balance to Mr. Laighton.

The two Portsmouth young ladies returned in the Spy.  I had grown
accustomed to their presence, and rather liked them; one of them being
gay and rather noisy, and the other quiet and gentle.  As to new-comers,
I feel rather a distaste to them; and so, I find, does Mr. Laighton,--a
rather singular sentiment for a hotel-keeper to entertain towards his
guests.  However, he treats them very hospitably, when once within his
doors.

The sky is overcast, and, about the time of the Spy and the Fanny sailed,
there were a few drops of rain.  The wind, at that time, was strong
enough to raise white-caps to the eastward of the island, and there was
good hope of a storm.  Now, however, the wind has subsided, and the
weather-seers know not what to forebode.


September 11th.--The wind shifted and veered about, towards the close of
yesterday, and later it was almost calm, after blowing gently from the
northwest,--notwithstanding which it rained.  There being a mistiness in
the air, we could see the gleam of the lighthouse itself by the highest
point of this island, or by our being in a valley.  As we sat in the
piazza in the evening, we saw the light from on board some vessel move
slowly through the distant obscurity,--so slowly that we were only
sensible of its progress by forgetting it and looking again.  The plash
and murmur of the waves around the island were soothingly audible.  It
was not unpleasantly cold, and Mr. Laighton, Mr. Thaxter and myself sat
under the piazza till long after dark; the former at a little distance,
occasionally smoking his pipe, and Mr. Thaxter and I talking about poets
and the stage.  The latter is an odd subject to be discussed in this
stern and wild scene, which has precisely the same characteristics now as
two hundred years ago.  The mosquitoes were very abundant last night, and
they are certainly a hardier race than their inland brethren.

This morning there is a sullen sky, with scarcely any breeze.  The clouds
throw shadows of varied darkness upon the sea.  I know not which way the
wind is; but the aspect of things seems to portend a calm drizzle as much
as anything else.

About eleven o'clock, Mr. Thaxter took me over to Smutty Nose in his
dory.  A sloop from the eastward, laden with laths, bark, and other
lumber, and a few barrels of mackerel, filled yesterday, and was left by
her skipper and crew.  All the morning we have seen boats picking up her
deck-load, which was scattered over the sea, and along the shores of the
islands.  The skipper and his three men got into Smutty Nose in the boat;
and the sloop was afterwards boarded by the Smutty Noses and brought into
that island.  We saw her lying at the pier,--a black, ugly, rotten old
thing, with the water half-way over her decks.  The wonder was, how she
swam so long.  The skipper, a man of about thirty-five or forty, in a
blue pilot-cloth overcoat, and a rusty, high-crowned hat jammed down over
his brow, looked very forlorn; while the islanders were grouped about,
indolently enjoying the matter.

I walked with Mr. Thaxter over the island, and saw first the graves of
the Spaniards.  They were wrecked on this island a hundred years ago, and
lie buried in a range about thirty feet in length, to the number of
sixteen, with rough, moss-grown pieces of granite on each side of this
common grave.  Near this spot, yet somewhat removed, so as not to be
confounded with it, are other individual graves, chiefly of the Haley
family, who were once possessors of the island.  These have slate
gravestones.  There is also, within a small enclosure of rough pine
boards, a white marble gravestone, in memory of a young man named Bekker,
son of the person who now keeps the hotel on Smutty Nose.  He was buried,
Mr. Thaxter says, notwithstanding his marble monument, in a rude pine
box, which he himself helped to make.

We walked to the farthest point of the island, and I have never seen a
more dismal place than it was on this sunless and east-windy day, being
the farthest point out into the melancholy sea, which was in no very
agreeable mood, and roared sullenly against the wilderness of rocks.  One
mass of rock, more than twelve feet square, was thrown up out of the sea
in a storm, not many years since, and now lies athwartwise, never to be
moved unless another omnipotent wave shall give it another toss.  On
shore, such a rock would be a landmark for centuries.  It is
inconceivable how a sufficient mass of water could be brought to bear on
this ponderous mass; but, not improbably, all the fragments piled upon
one another round these islands have thus been flung to and fro at one
time or another.

There is considerable land that would serve tolerably for pasture on
Smutty Nose, and here and there a little enclosure of richer grass, built
round with a strong stonewall.  The same kind of enclosure is prevalent
on Star Island,--each small proprietor fencing off his little bit of
tillage or grass.  Wild-flowers are abundant and various on these
islands; the bayberry-bush is plentiful on Smutty Nose, and makes the
hand that crushes it fragrant.

The hotel is kept by a Prussian, an old soldier, who fought at the Battle
of Waterloo.  We saw him in the barn,--a gray, heavy, round-skulled old
fellow, troubled with deafness.  The skipper of the wrecked sloop had,
apparently, just been taking a drop of comfort, but still seemed
downcast.  He took passage in a fishing-vessel, the Wave, of Kittery, for
Portsmouth; and I know not why, but there was something that made me
smile in his grim and gloomy look, his rusty, jammed hat, his rough and
grisly beard, and in his mode of chewing tobacco, with much action of the
jaws, getting out the juice as largely as possible, as men always do when
disturbed in mind.  I looked at him earnestly, and was conscious of
something that marked him out from among the careless islanders around
him.  Being as much discomposed as it was possible for him to be, his
feelings individualized the man and magnetized the observer.  When he got
aboard the fishing-vessel, he seemed not entirely at his ease, being
accustomed to command and work amongst his own little crew, and now
having nothing to do.  Nevertheless, unconsciously perhaps, he lent a
hand to whatever was going on, and yet had a kind of strangeness about
him.  As the Wave set sail, we were just starting in our dory, and a
young fellow, an acquaintance of Mr. Thaxter, proposed to take us in tow;
so we were dragged along at her stern very rapidly, and with a whitening
wake, until we came off Hog Island.  Then the dory was cast loose, and
Mr. Thaxter rowed ashore against a head sea.

The day is still overcast, and the wind is from the eastward; but it does
not increase, and the sun appears occasionally on the point of shining
out.  A boat--the Fanny, I suppose, from Portsmouth--has just come to her
moorings in front of the hotel.  A sail-boat has put off from her, with a
passenger in the stern.  Pray God she bring me a letter with good news
from home; for I begin to feel as if I had been long enough away.

There is a bowling-alley on Smutty Nose, at which some of the
Star-Islanders were playing, when we were there.  I saw only two
dwelling-houses besides the hotel.  Connected with Smutty Nose by a
stone-wall there is another little bit of island, called Malaga.  Both
are the property of Mr. Laighton.

Mr. Laighton says that the Spanish wreck occurred forty-seven years ago,
instead of a hundred.  Some of the dead bodies were found on Malaga,
others on various parts of the next island.  One or two had crept to a
stone-wall that traverses Smutty Nose, but were unable to get over it.
One was found among the bushes the next summer.  Mr. Haley had them
buried at his own expense.

The skipper of the wrecked sloop, yesterday, was unwilling to go to
Portsmouth until he was shaved,--his beard being of several days' growth.
It seems to be the impulse of people under misfortune to put on their
best clothes, and attend to the decencies of life.

The Fanny brought a passenger,--a thin, stiff, black-haired young man,
who enters his name as Mr. Tufts, from Charlestown.  He, and a country
trader, his wife, sister, and two children (all of whom have been here
several days) are now the only guests besides myself.


September 12th.--The night set in sullen and gloomy, and morning has
dawned in pretty much the same way.  The wind, however, seems rising
somewhat, and grumbles past the angle of the house.  Perhaps we shall see
a storm yet from the eastward; and, having the whole sweep of the broad
Atlantic between here and Ireland, I do not see why it should not be
fully equal to a storm at sea.

It has been raining more or less all the forenoon, and now, at twelve
o'clock, blows, as Mr. Laighton says, "half a gale" from the southeast.
Through the opening of our shallow valley, towards the east, there is the
prospect of a tumbling sea, with hundreds of white-caps chasing one
another over it.  In front of the hotel, being to leeward, the water near
the shore is but slightly ruffled; but farther the sea is agitated, and
the surf breaks over Square Rock.  All round the horizon, landward as
well as seaward, the view is shut in by a mist.  Sometimes I have a dim
sense of the continent beyond, but no more distinct than the thought of
the other world to the unenlightened soul.  The sheep bleat in their
desolate pasture.  The wind shakes the house.  A loon, seeking, I
suppose, some quieter resting-place than on the troubled waves, was seen
swimming just now in the cove not more than a hundred yards from the
hotel.  Judging by the pother which this "half a gale" makes with the
sea, it must have been a terrific time, indeed, when that great wave
rushed and roared across the islands.

Since dinner, I have been to the eastern shore to look at the sea.  It is
a wild spectacle, but still, I suppose, lacks an infinite deal of being a
storm.  Outside of this island there is a long and low one (or two in a
line), looking more like a reef of rocks than an island, and at the
distance of a mile or more.  There the surf and spray break gallantly,--
white-sheeted forms rising up all at once, and hovering a moment in the
air.  Spots which, in calm times, are not discernible from the rest of
the ocean, now are converted into white, foamy breakers.  The swell of
the waves against our shore makes a snowy depth, tinged with green, for
many feet back from the shore.  The longer waves swell, overtop, and rush
upon the rocks; and, when they return, the waters pour back in a cascade.
Against the outer points of Smutty Nose and Star Island, there is a
higher surf than here; because, the wind being from the southeast, these
islands receive it first, and form a partial barrier in respect to this.
While I looked, there was moisture in the air, and occasional spats of
rain.  The uneven places in the rocks were full of the fallen rain.

It is quite impossible to give an idea of these rocky shores,--how
confusedly they are tossed together, lying in all directions; what solid
ledges, what great fragments thrown out from the rest.  Often the rocks
are broken, square and angular, so as to form a kind of staircase;
though, for the most part, such as would require a giant stride to ascend
them.

Sometimes a black trap-rock runs through the bed of granite; sometimes
the sea has eaten this away, leaving a long, irregular fissure.  In some
places, owing to the same cause perhaps, there is a great hollow place
excavated into the ledge, and forming a harbor, into which the sea flows;
and, while there is foam and fury at the entrance, it is comparatively
calm within.  Some parts of the crag are as much as fifty feet of
perpendicular height, down which you look over a bare and smooth descent,
at the base of which is a shaggy margin of sea-weed.  But it is vain to
try to express this confusion.  As much as anything else, it seems as if
some of the massive materials of the world remained superfluous, after
the Creator had finished, and were carelessly thrown down here, where the
millionth part of them emerge from the sea, and in the course of
thousands of years have become partially bestrewn with a little soil.

The wind has changed to southwest, and blows pretty freshly.  The sun
shone before it set; and the mist, which all day has overhung the land,
now takes the aspect of a cloud,--drawing a thin veil between us and the
shore, and rising above it.  In our own atmosphere there is no fog nor
mist.


September 13th.--I spent last evening, as well as part of the evening
before, at Mr. Thaxter's.  It is certainly a romantic incident to find
such a young man on this lonely island; his marriage with the pretty
Miranda is true romance.  In our talk we have glanced over many matters,
and, among the rest, that of the stage, to prepare himself for which was
his first motive in coming hither.  He appears quite to have given up any
dreams of that kind now.  What he will do on returning to the world, as
his purpose is, I cannot imagine; but, no doubt, through all their
remaining life, both he and she will look back to this rocky ledge, with
its handful of soil, as to a Paradise.

Last evening we (Mr., Mrs., and Miss Thaxter) sat and talked of ghosts
and kindred subjects; and they told me of the appearance of a little old
woman in a striped gown, that had come into that house a few months ago.
She was seen by nobody but an Irish nurse, who spoke to her, but received
no answer.  The little woman drew her chair up towards the fire, and
stretched out her feet to warm them.  By and by the nurse, who suspected
nothing of her ghostly character, went to get a pail of water; and, when
she came back, the little woman was not there.  It being known precisely
how many and what people were on the island, and that no such little
woman was among them, the fact of her being a ghost is incontestable.  I
taught them how to discover the hidden sentiments of letters by
suspending a gold ring over them.  Ordinarily, since I have been here, we
have spent the evening under the piazza, where Mr. Laighton sits to take
the air.  He seems to avoid the within-doors whenever he can.  So there
he sits in the sea-breezes, when inland people are probably drawing their
chairs to the fireside; and there I sit with him,--not keeping up a
continual flow of talk, but each speaking as any wisdom happens to come
into his mind.

The wind, this morning, is from the northwestward, rather brisk, but not
very strong.  There is a scattering of clouds about the sky; but the
atmosphere is singularly clear, and we can see several hills of the
interior, the cloud-like White Mountains, and, along the shore, the long
white beaches and the dotted dwellings, with great distinctness.  Many
small vessels spread their wings, and go seaward.

I have been rambling over the southern part of the island, and looking at
the traces of habitations there.  There are several enclosures,--the
largest perhaps thirty yards square,--surrounded with a rough stonewall
of very mossy antiquity, built originally broad and strong, two or three
large stones in width, and piled up breast-high or more, and taking
advantage of the extending ledge to make it higher.  Within this
enclosure there is almost a clear space of soil, which was formerly, no
doubt, cultivated as a garden, but is now close cropt by the sheep and
cattle, except where it produces thistles, or the poisonous weed called
mercury, which seems to love these old walls, and to root itself in or
near them.  These walls are truly venerable, gray, and mossy; and you see
at once that the hands that piled the stones must have been long ago
turned to dust.  Close by the enclosure is the hollow of an old cellar,
with rocks tumbled into it, but the layers of stone at the side still to
be traced, and bricks, broken or with rounded edges, scattered about, and
perhaps pieces of lime; and weeds and grass growing about the whole.
Several such sites of former human homes may be seen there, none of which
can possibly be later than the Revolution, and probably they are as old
as the settlement of the island.  The site has Smutty Nose and Star
opposite, with a road (that is, a water-road) between, varying from half
a mile to a mile.  Duck Island is also seen on the left; and, on the
right, the shore of the mainland.  Behind, the rising ground intercepts
the view.  Smith's monument is visible.  I do not see where the
inhabitants could have kept their boats, unless in the chasms worn by the
sea into the rocks.

One of these chasms has a spring of fresh water in the gravelly base,
down to which the sea has worn out.  The chasm has perpendicular, though
irregular, sides, which the waves have chiselled out very square.  Its
width varies from ten to twenty feet, widest towards the sea; and on the
shelves, up and down the sides, some soil has been here and there
accumulated, on which grow grass and wild-flowers,--such as golden-rod,
now in bloom, and raspberry-bushes, the fruit of which I found ripe,--the
whole making large parts of the sides of the chasm green, its verdure
overhanging the strip of sea that dashes and foams into the hollow.
Sea-weed, besides what grows upon and shags the submerged rocks, is
tossed into the harbor, together with stray pieces of wood, chips,
barrel-staves, or (as to-day) an entire barrel, or whatever else the sea
happens to have on hand.  The water rakes to and fro over the pebbles at
the bottom of the chasm, drawing back, and leaving much of it bare, then
rushing up, with more or less of foam and fury, according to the force
and direction of the wind; though, owing to the protection of the
adjacent islands, it can never have a gale blowing right into its mouth.
The spring is situated so far down the chasm, that, at half or two-thirds
tide, it is covered by the sea.  Twenty minutes after the retiring of the
tide suffices to restore to it its wonted freshness.

In another chasm, very much like the one here described, I saw a niche in
the rock, about tall enough for a person of moderate stature to stand
upright.  It had a triangular floor and a top, and was just the place to
hold the rudest statue that ever a savage made.

Many of the ledges on the island have yellow moss or lichens spread on
them in large patches.  The moss of those stone walls does really look
very old.

"Old Bab," the ghost, has a ring round his neck, and is supposed either
to have been hung or to have had his throat cut, but he steadfastly
declines telling the mode of his death.  There is a luminous appearance
about him as he walks, and his face is pale and very dreadful.

The Fanny arrived this forenoon, and sailed again before dinner.  She
brought, as passenger, a Mr. Balch, brother to the country trader who has
been spending a few days here.  On her return, she has swept the islands
of all the non-residents except myself.  The wind being ahead, and pretty
strong, she will have to beat up, and the voyage will be anything but
agreeable.  The spray flew before her bows, and doubtless gave the
passengers all a thorough wetting within the first half-hour.

The view of Star Island or Gosport from the north is picturesque,--the
village, or group of houses, being gathered pretty closely together in
the centre of the island, with some green about them; and above all the
other edifices, wholly displayed, stands the little stone church, with
its tower and belfry.  On the right is White Island, with the lighthouse;
to the right of that, and a little to the northward, Londoner's Rock,
where, perhaps, of old, some London ship was wrecked.  To the left of
Star Island, and nearer Hog, or Appledore, is Smutty Nose.  Pour the blue
sea about these islets, and let the surf whiten and steal up from their
points, and from the reefs about them (which latter whiten for an
instant, and then are lost in the whelming and eddying depths), the
northwest-wind the while raising thousands of white-caps, and the evening
sun shining solemnly over the expanse,--and it is a stern and lovely
scene.

The valleys that intersect, or partially intersect, the island are a
remarkable feature.  They appear to be of the same formation as the
fissures in the rocks, but, as they extend farther from the sea, they
accumulate a little soil along the irregular sides, and so become green
and shagged with bushes, though with the rock everywhere thrusting itself
through.  The old people of the isles say that their fathers could
remember when the sea, at high tide, flowed quite through the valley in
which the hotel stands, and that boats used to pass.  Afterwards it was a
standing pond; then a morass, with cat-tail flags growing in it.  It has
filled up, so far as it is filled, by the soil being washed down from the
higher ground on each side.  The storms, meanwhile, have tossed up the
shingle and paving-stones at each end of the valley, so as to form a
barrier against the passage of any but such mighty waves as that which
thundered through a year or two ago.

The old inhabitants lived in the centre or towards the south of the
island, and avoided the north and east because the latter were so much
bleaker in winter.  They could moor their boats in the road, between
Smutty Nose and Hog, but could not draw them up.  Mr. Laighton found
traces of old dwellings in the vicinity of the hotel, and it is supposed
that the principal part of the population was on this island.  I spent
the evening at Mr. Thaxter's, and we drank a glass of his 1820 Scheidam.
The northwest-wind was high at ten o'clock, when I came home, the tide
full, and the murmur of the waves broad and deep.


September 14th.--Another of the brightest of sunny mornings.  The wind is
not nearly so high as last night, but it is apparently still from the
northwest, and serves to make the sea look very blue and cold.  The
atmosphere is so transparent that objects seem perfectly distinct along
the mainland.  To-day I must be in Portsmouth; to-morrow, at home.  A
brisk west, or northwest wind, making the sea so blue, gives a very
distinct outline in its junction with the sky.


September 16th.--On Tuesday, the 14th, there was no opportunity to get to
the mainland.  Yesterday morning opened with a southeast rain, which
continued all day.  The Fanny arrived in the forenoon, with some coal for
Mr. Laighton, and sailed again before dinner, taking two of the maids of
the house; but as it rained pouring, and as I could not, at any rate,
have got home to-night, there would have been no sense in my going.  It
began to clear up in the decline of the day; the sun shot forth some
golden arrows a little before his setting; and the sky was perfectly
clear when I went to bed, after spending the evening at Mr. Thaxter's.
This morning is clear and bright; but the wind is northwest, making the
sea look blue and cold, with little breaks of white foam.  It is
unfavorable for a trip to the mainland; but doubtless I shall find an
opportunity of getting ashore before night.

The highest part of Appledore is about eighty feet above the sea.  Mr.
Laighton has seen whales off the island,--both on the eastern side and
between it and the mainland; once a great crowd of them, as many as
fifty.  They were drawn in by pursuing their food,--a small fish called
herring-bait, which came ashore in such abundance that Mr. Laighton
dipped up basketfuls of them.  No attempt was made to take the whales.

There are vague traditions of trees on these islands.  One of them, Cedar
Island, is said to have been named from the trees that grew on it.  The
matter appears improbable, though, Mr. Thaxter says, large quantities of
soil are annually washed into the sea; so that the islands may have been
better clad with earth and its productions than now.

Mrs. Thaxter tells me that there are several burial-places on this
island; but nobody has been buried here since the Revolution.  Her own
marriage was the first one since that epoch, and her little Karl, now
three months old, the first-born child in all those eighty years.

[Then follow extracts from the Church Records of Gosport.]

This book of the church records of Gosport is a small folio, well bound
in dark calf, and about an inch thick; the paper very stout, with a
water-mark of an armed man in a sitting posture, holding a spear . . . .
over a lion, who brandishes a sword; on alternate pages the Crown, and
beneath it the letters G. R.  The motto of the former device Pro Patria.
The book is written in a very legible hand, probably by the Rev. Mr.
Tucke.  The ink is not much faded.


Concord, March 9th, 1853.--Finished, this day, the last story of
Tanglewood Tales.  They were written in the following order.

The Pomegranate Seeds.
The Minotaur.
The Golden Fleece.
The Dragons' Teeth.
Circe's Palace.
The Pygmies.

The introduction is yet to be written.  Wrote it 13th March.  I went to
Washington (my first visit) on 14th April.

Caresses, expressions of one sort or another, are necessary to the life
of the affections, as leaves are to the life of a tree.  If they are
wholly restrained, love will die at the roots.


June 9th.--Cleaning the attic to-day, here at the Wayside, the woman
found an immense snake, flat and outrageously fierce, thrusting out its
tongue.  Ellen, the cook, killed it.  She called it an adder, but it
appears to have been a striped snake.  It seems a fiend, haunting the
house.  On further inquiry, the snake is described as plaided with brown
and black.

Cupid in these latter times has probably laid aside his bow and arrows,
and uses fire-arms,--a pistol,--perhaps a revolver.

I burned great heaps of old letters and other papers, a little while ago,
preparatory to going to England.  Among them were hundreds of ------'s
letters.  The world has no more such, and now they are all dust and
ashes.  What a trustful guardian of secret matters is fire!  What should
we do without fire and death?


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