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                               THE ANGEL
                             IN THE CLOUD

                                  BY

                            EDWIN W. FULLER

                           PRIVATELY PRINTED
                                MCMVII




                           _Copyright, 1907
                         Sumner Fuller Parham_




                                TO THE

                     HALLOWED MEMORY OF MY FATHER,

                                 WHO,

             EVEN WHILE I WAS GAZING UPON THE GOLDEN CITY

                       PASSED WITHIN ITS WALLS,

                   THIS LITTLE VOLUME IS INSCRIBED,

                              WITH TEARS.




PREFACE


To those who may favor these pages with perusal, I make this earnest
request: that, if they commence, they will read all. Knowing that the
best mode of dealing with doubts is to state and refute, successively, I
regret that the plan of the present work forces a separation of the
statement and refutation. To read one without the other were to defeat
the object in view; hence my request.

Many of the subjects of thought are worn smooth with the touch of ages,
so that hope for originality is as slender as the bridge of Al Sirat;
but in the bulrush ark of self-confidence, pitched with Faith, I commit
my first-born to the Nile of public opinion; whether to perish by
crocodile critics, or bask in the palace of favor, the Future, alone,
must determine. May Pharaoh’s daughter find it!

                                                      E. W. F.

LOUISBURG, Jan. 17th, 1871.




A NOTE


_First published more than thirty-five years ago, in the lifetime of the
poet, THE ANGEL IN THE CLOUD has long since passed not only out of print
but out of the memory of most living men. Of the copies of the original
edition, only few are known to exist. Upon his surviving family is
imposed the obligation, and to them comes the privilege, of rescuing
from the realm of forgotten things these evidences of a graceful and
genuine poetic gift in one whose memory they revere and whose genius
they are unwilling to have die. It is therefore with the sense of
performing a grateful duty that they have caused to be printed this new
edition of Edwin Fuller’s poems, in the hope and belief that others,
like themselves, will value it both as friends of the gentle poet and as
disinterested lovers of good literature._

August, 1907.




              THE ANGEL IN THE CLOUD


    ’Twas noon in August, and the sultry heat
    Had driven me from sunny balcony
    Into the shaded hall, where spacious doors
    Stood open wide, and lofty windows held
    Their sashes up, to woo the breeze, in vain.
    The filmy lace that curtained them was still,
    And every silken tassel hung a-plumb.
    The maps and unframed pictures o’er the wall
    Gave not a rustle; only now and then
    Was heard the jingling sound of melting ice,
    Deep in a massive urn, whose silver sides
    With trickling dewbeads ran. The little birds,
    Up in their cages, perched with open beaks,
    And throbbing throats, upon the swaying rings,
    Or plashed the tepid water in their cups
    With eager breast. My favorite pointer lay,
    With lolling tongue, and rapid panting sides,
    Beside my chair, upon the matted floor.
    All things spoke heat, oppressive heat intense,
    Save swallows twittering up the chimney-flue,
    Whose hollow flutterings sounded cool alone.
    To find relief I seized my hat and book,
    And fled into the park. Along a path
    Of smoothest gravel, oval, curving white,
    Between two rows of closely shaven hedge,
    I passed towards a latticed summer-house;
    A fairy bower, built in Eastern style,
    With spires, and balls, and fancy trellis-work,
    O’er which was spread the jasmine’s leafy net,
    To snare the straying winds. Within I fell
    Upon a seat of woven cane, and fanned
    My streaming face in vain. The very winds
    Seemed to have fled, and left alone the heat
    To rise from parchèd lawn and scorching fields,
    Like trembling incense to the blazing god.
    The leaves upon the wan and yellow trees
    Hung motionless, as if of rigid steel;
    And e’en the feath’ry pendula of spray,
    With faintest oscillation, dared not wave.
    The withered flowers shed a hot perfume,
    That sickened with its fragrance; and the bees
    Worked lazily, as if they longed to kick
    The yellow burdens from their patient thighs,
    And rest beneath the ivy parasols.
    The butterflies refrained from aimless flight,
    And poised on blooms with gaudy, gasping wings.
    The fountain scarcely raised its languid jet
    An inch above its tube; the basin deigned
    A feeble ripple for its tinkling fall,
    And rolled the little waves with noiseless beat
    Against the marble side. The bright-scaled fish
    All huddled ’neath the jutting ledge’s shade,
    Where, burnished like their magnet toy types,
    They rose and fell as if inanimate;
    Or, with a restless stroke of tinted fin,
    Turned in their places pettishly around;
    While, with each move, the tiny whirlpools spun
    Like crystal dimples on the water’s face.
    The sculptured lions crouched upon the edge,
    With gaping jaws, and stony, fixèd eyes,
    That ever on the pool glared thirstily.
    Deep in the park, beneath the trees, were grouped
    The deer, their noses lowered to the earth,
    To snuff a cooler air; their slender feet
    Impatient stamping at the teasing flies;
    While o’er their heads the branching antlers spread,
    A mocking skeleton of shade! A fawn,
    Proud of his dappled coat, played here and there,
    Regardless of repose; the silver bell,
    That tinkled from a band of broidered silk,
    Proclaiming him a petted favorite.
    Save him alone, all things in view sought rest,
    And wearied Nature seemed to yield the strife,
    And smold’ring wait her speedy sacrifice.

    The heat grew hotter as I watched its work,
    And with its fervor overcome, I rose,
    And through the grounds, towards an orchard bent
    My faltering steps in full despair of ease.
    Down through the lengthened rows of laden trees,
    Whose golden-freighted boughs o’erlapped the way,
    I hurried till I reached the last confines.
    Here stood a gnarléd veteran, now too old
    To bear much fruit, but weaving with its leaves
    So dense a shade, the smallest fleck of sun
    Could not creep through. Beneath it spread a couch
    Of velvet moss, fit for the slumbers of a king.
    Here prone I fell, at last amid a scene
    That promised refuge from the glaring heat.
    Beyond me stretched the orchard’s canopy
    Of thick, rank foliage, almost drooping down
    Upon the green plush carpet underneath.
    Close at my feet a crystal spring burst forth,
    And rolled its gurgling waters down the glade
    Now spreading in a rilling silver sheet
    O’er some broad rock, then gath’ring at its base
    Into a foamy pool that churned the sand,
    And mingling sparks of shining isinglass,
    It danced away o’er gleamy, pebbly bed,
    Where, midst the grassy nooks and fibrous roots,
    The darting minnows played at hide and seek,
    Oft fluttering upwards, to the top, to spit
    A tiny bubble out, or slyly snap
    Th’ unwary little insect hov’ring near;
    Till, by its tributes widened to a brook,
    It poured its limpid waters undefiled
    In to the river’s dun and dirty waves,--
    A type of childhood’s guileless purity,
    That mingling with the sordid world is lost.

    Far in the distance, lofty mountains loomed,
    Their blue sides trembling in the sultry haze.
    From me to them spread varicultured fields,
    That formed a patchwork landscape, which deserved
    The pencil of a Rembrandt and his skill;
    The hardy yellow stubble smoothly shaved,
    With boldness lying ’neath the scorching sun;
    The suffering corn, with tasselled heads all bowed,
    And twisted arms appealing, raised to Heaven;
    The meadows faded by the constant blaze;
    The cattle lying in the hedge’s shade;
    Across the landscape drawn a glitt’ring band,
    Where winds the river, like a giant snake,
    The ripples flashing like his polished scales.
    Above the scene a lonely vulture wheeled,
    Turning with every curve from side to side,
    As if the fierce rays broiled his dusky wings;
    And circling onwards, dwindled to a speck,
    And in the distance vanished out of sight!
    Complete repose was stamped on everything,
    Save where a tireless ant tugged at a crumb,
    To drag it o’er th’ impeding spires of moss;
    And one poor robin, with her breast all pale
    And feather-scarce, hopped wearily along
    The streamlet’s edge, with plaintive clock-like chirp,
    And searching, found and bore the curling worm,
    Up to the yellow-throated brood o’erhead.
    Behind the mountains reared the copper clouds
    Of summer skies, that whitened as they rose,
    Till bleached to snow, they drifted dreamily,
    Like gleaming icebergs, through the blue sublime.
    And as they, one by one, sailed far away,
    Methought they were as ships from Earth to Heaven,
    Thus slowly floating to the Eternal Port.
    The Thunder’s muttered growl my reverie broke,
    And looking toward the West, I saw a storm,
    With gloomy wrath, had thrown its dark-blue line
    Of breastworks, quiv’ring with each grand discharge
    Of its own ordnance, o’er th’ horizon’s verge.
    Some time it stood to gloat upon its prey,
    Then, girding up its strength, began its march.
    Extending far its black gigantic arms,
    It grimly clambered up the tranquil sky;
    Till, half-way up the arch, its shaggy brows
    Scowled down in rage upon the frightened earth;
    While through its wind-cleft portals sped the darts,
    That brightly hurtled through the sultry air.
    And down the mountain-sides the shadow crept,
    A dark veil spreading over field and wood,
    Thus adding gloom to Nature’s awful hush.
    The fleecy racks had fled far to the East,
    Where sporting safely in the gilding light,
    They mocked the angry monster’s cumbrous speed.

    Then, while I marked its progress, came a train,
    Of dark and doubting thoughts into my mind,
    And bitterly thus my reflections ran:
    Strange is the Providence that rules the world,
    That sets the Medean course of Nature’s laws;
    Sometimes adapting law to circumstance,
    But oftener making law fulfilled a curse.
    Yon brewing storm in verdant summer comes,
    When vegetation spreads its foliage sails,
    That, like a full-rigged ship’s, are easier torn;
    Why comes it not in winter, when the trees,
    With canvas reefed by Autumn’s furling frosts,
    Could toss in nude defiance to the blast?
    The murd’rous wind precedes the gentle shower
    And ere the suffering grain has quenched its thirst,
    It bows the heavy head, alone of worth,
    And from the ripening stalk wrings out the life,
    While gayly nod the heads of chaff unharmed.
    The rank miasma floats in summer-time,
    When man must brave its poisoned breath or starve;
    It hovers sickliest over richest fields
    While over sterile lands the air is pure;
    The tallest oak is by the lightning riven,
    The hateful bramble on the ground is spared;
    The crop man needs demands his constant work,
    The weeds alone spring forth without the plow;
    The sweetest flowers wear the sharpest thorns,
    The deadliest reptiles lurk in fairest paths!
      Wherever Nature shows her brightest smile,
    ’Tis but a mask to hide her darkest frown.
    The tropics seem an Eden of luscious fruits
    And flowers, and groves of loveliest birds, and lakes
    That mirror their gay plumage flitting o’er;
    Where man may live in luxury of thought,
    Without the crime of schemes, or curse of toil--
    The tropics seem a Hell, when all with life
    Are stifled with the foul sirocco’s breath;
    When from the green-robed mountain’s volcan top,
    A fire-fountain spouts its blazing jet
    Far up against the starry dome of Heaven;
    Returning in its vast umbrella shape,
    Leaps in red cataracts adown the <DW72>,
    Shaves clean the mountain of its emerald hair,
    And leaves it bald with ashes on its head.
    Below, the valley is a crimson sea,
    Whose glowing billows break to white-hot foam;
    And as they surge amid the towering trees,
    They, tottering, bow forever to the waves;
    The leaves and branches, crackling into flame,
    Leave only clotted cinders floating there;
    The darting birds, their gaudy plumage singed,
    Fall fluttering in, with little puffs of smoke.
    The fleeing beasts are lapped in, bellowing,
    And charred to coal, drift idly with the tide.
    The red flood, breaking through the vale, rolls on
    Its devious way towards the sea; the glare
    Illuminating far its winding track,
    As if a devil flew with flaming torch,
    Or when an earthquake gapes its black-lined jaws,
    And, growling, gulps a city’s busy throng
    Into its greedy bowels. Or the sea bursts forth
    Its bands of rock, and laughing at “Thus far!”
    Rolls wildly over peopled towns, and homes
    In fancied safety; playing fearful pranks,
    O’er which to chuckle in its briny bed;
    Jeering the stones because they cannot swim,
    And crushing like a shell all work of wood;
    Docking the laden ships upon the hills,
    And tossing lighter craft about like weeds;
    Till, wearied with the spoiling, sinks to rest.

    Thus Nature to herself is but half kind,
    But over man holds fullest tyranny;
    And man, a creature who cannot prevent
    His own existence! Why not happy made?
    For surely ’twere as easy to create
    Man in a state of happiness and good,
    And keep him there, as to create at all.
    If misery’s not deserved before his birth,
    Then misery must from purest malice flow;
    Yet malice none assign to Providence.
      But some may say: Were man thus happy made,
    He would not be a person, but a thing,
    And lose the very seed of happiness,
    The consciousness of merit. Grant ’tis true!
    Then why does merit rarely meet reward?
    And why does there appear a tendency,
    Throughout the polity divine, to mark
    With disapproval all the good in man,
    And bless the evil? Through the entire world
    Is felt this conflict: some strange power within
    Exciting us to good, while all events
    Proclaim its folly. Throughout Nature’s laws,
    Through man in every station, up to God,
    This fatal contradiction glares. The storm,
    With ruthless breath, annihilates the cot
    That, frail and humble, shields the widow’s head;
    And while she reads within the use-worn Book
    That none who trusts shall e’er be desolate,
    The falling timbers crush the promise out,
    And she is dead beneath her ruined home!
    The prostrate cottage passed, the very wind
    Now howls a rough but fawning lullaby
    Around the marble walls, and lofty dome,
    That shelter pride and heartless arrogance.

    And when the Boaz Winter throws his skirt
    Of purest white across the lap of Earth,
    And decks her bare arborial hair with gems,
    Whose feeblest flash would pale the Koh-i-noor,
    The rich, alone, find beauty in the scene,
    And, clad in thankless comfort, brave the cold.
    The gliding steels flash through the feathery drifts,
    The jingling bells proclaiming happiness;
    Yet ’neath the furry robe the oath is heard,
    And boisterous laughter at the ribald jest.
    The coldest hearts beat ’neath the warmest clothes;
    And often all the blessings wealth can give,
    Are heaped on one, whose daily life reviles
    The very name of Him who doth bestow.
    While in a freezing garret, o’er the coals
    That, bluely flickering with the feeble flame,
    Seem cold themselves, a trusting Christian bends;
    Her faith all mocked by cruel circumstance.
    The cold, bare walls, the chilling air-swept floor;
    Some broken stools, a mattress stuffed with straw,
    Upholstering the apartment. Through the sash,
    The wind, with jaggèd lips of broken glass,
    Shrieks in its freezing spite. A cold-blued babe,
    With face too thin to hold a dimple’s print,
    With famished gums tugs at the arid breast,
    Thrusting its bare, splotched arms, in eagerness,
    From out the poor white blanket’s ravelled edge.
    Beside the mother sits a little boy,
    With one red frost-cracked hand spread out, in vain,
    To warm above the faintly-burning coals;
    The other pressing hardly ’gainst his teeth
    A stale and tasteless loaf of smallest size,
    Which lifting often to the mother’s view,
    He offers part; she only shakes her head,
    And sadly smiles upon the gaunt young face.
    Yet in her basket, on a pile of work,
    An open Bible lies with outstretched leaves,
    Whose verses speak in keenest irony:
    “Do good,” and “verily thou shalt be fed.”
    And so through all the world, the righteous poor,
    The wicked rich. Deceit, and fraud, and craft
    Reap large rewards, while pure integrity
    Must gnaw the bone of faith with here and there
    A speck of flesh called consciousness of right,
    To reach the marrow in another world.
    But man within himself’s the greatest paradox;
    “A little animal,” as Voltaire says,
    And yet a greater wonder than the sun,
    Or spangled firmament. That little one
    Can weigh and measure all the wheeling worlds,
    But finds within his “five feet” home, a Sphinx
    Whose riddle he can never solve.
                                     “Thyself,”
    The oracles of old bade men to know,
    As if to mock their very impotence;
    And man, to know himself, for centuries
    Has toiled and studied deep, in vain.--
    Not man in flesh, for blest Hippocrates
    Bright trimmed his lamp, and passed it down the line,
    And each disciple adding of his oil,
    It blazes now above the ghastly corpse,
    Till every fibre, every thread-like vein,
    Is known familiar as a city’s streets;
    The little muscle twitching back the lip,
    Rejoicing in a name that spans the page.
    But man in mind, that is not seen nor felt,
    But only knows he is, through consciousness.
    He sees an outside world, with all its throng
    Of busy people who care not for him,
    And only few that know he does exist;
    And yet he feels the independent world
    Is but effect produced upon himself,
    The Universe is packed within his mind,
    His mind within its little house of clay.
    What is that mind? Has it a formal shape?
    And has it substance, color, weight, or force?
    What are the chains that bind it to the flesh?
    That never break except in death, though oft
    The faculties are sent far out through space?
    Where is it placed, in head, or hands, or feet?
    And can it have existence without place?
    And if a place, it must extension have,
    And if extended, it is matter proven.
    Poor man! he has but mind to view mind with,
    And might as well attempt to see the eye
    Without a mirror! True, faint consciousness
    Holds up a little glass, wherein he sees
    A few vague facts that cannot satisfy.
    For these, and their attendant laws, have fought
    The mental champions of the world till now
    That each may deck them in his livery,
    And claim them as his own discovery.

    Hedged in, man does not know that he is paled,
    And struggles fiercely ’gainst the boundaries,
    And strives to get a glimpse of those far realms
    Of thought sublime, where his short wings would sink
    With helpless fluttering, through the vast profound.
    Upon the coals of curiosity,
    A writhing worm, he’s laid; and twists and turns,
    To find, in vain, the healing salve of Truth.

    But grant that mind exists in fullest play:
    How does it work and what its modes of thought?
    Here consciousness may act, and hold to view
    A dim outline of powers, contraposed.
    In such a conflict, every one may seize
    The doctrine suits him best. Hence different creeds--
    Desire battling reason, reason will,
    And will the weathercock of motive’s wind;
    Motive the cringing slave of circumstance.
    And here Charybdis rises; no control
    Has man o’er circumstance, but circumstance
    Begets the motive governing the will;
    Then how can man be free? Yet some may say,
    Man can obey the motive, or can not.
    He can, but only when a stronger rules.
    That we without a motive never act,
    I do declare, though in the face of Reid.
    That that is strongest which impels, a child
    Might know, although Jouffroy exclaims,
    “You’re reasoning in a circle.” Let us place
    An iron fragment ’twixt two magnet-bars,
    What one attracts is thereby stronger proved.
    Or it may be the really weaker one,
    But yet, because of nearness to the steel,
    Possess a relatively greater force.
    And so of motives, howe’er trivial they,
    The one that moves is strongest to the mind.
    To illustrate: Suppose I pare a peach;
    A friend near by me banteringly asserts
    That I can not refrain from eating it.
    Two motives now arise--the appetite,
    And the desire to prove my self-control.
    I hesitate awhile, then laughing say,
    “I would not give the peach to prove you wrong.”
    But as my teeth press on it, pride springs up,
    And bids me show that I am not the slave
    Of appetite, and far away I hurl
    The tinted, fragrant sphere.
                                 Was not each thought
    Spontaneous? Could I control their rise?
    How perfectly absurd to talk of choice
    Between two motives offered to the mind!
    As if the motive was a horse we’d choose
    To pull our minds about. There is no choice
    Until the motive makes it; then we choose,
    Not ’tween the motives, but the acts.
                                          If, then,
    The spring of action is the motive’s power,
    The motive being far beyond our sway,
    Where is our freedom? But a fabled myth!
    And man but differs from a star in this,--
    The laws of stars are fixed and definite,
    And every movement there can be foretold;
    Of man, no deed can be foreseen till done.
    At most we can but form a general guess
    How he will act, at such a time and place.
    Even if we knew the motives that would rise,
    We could not prophesy unless we knew
    Our subject’s frame of mind; for differently,
    On different minds, same motives often act.
    Hence, we can tell the conduct of a friend
    More surely than a stranger’s, since we know,
    By long acquaintance, how his motives work.
    But should new motives rise, we cannot tell
    Until experience gives us data new.
    Thus we will ride beside a friend alone,
    And show to him our money without fear,
    Because we know the motives--love for us,
    Honor, and horror of disgraceful crime--
    Are stronger with him than cupidity.
    But with a stranger we would feel unsafe;
    Nor would we trust our friend, were we alone
    Upon an island, wrecked, and without food,
    And saw his eye with hunger glare, and heard
    The famished motive whispering to him, “Kill!”
    If he were free, would we feel slightest fear?
    For all his soul would shudder from the deed,
    And never motive could impel such crime.

    Upon this principal all law is made;
    For were man free he could not be controlled,
    And all compliance would be his caprice.
    But since he is the tyrant-motive’s slave,
    The law to govern motive only seeks
    And builds its sanction on the base of pain,
    As motive strongest in the human heart.
    It only falls below perfection’s height,
    Because there are exceptions to the rule;
    When hate and passion, lust and greed of gold,
    Prove stronger than the fear of distant pain.
    And could the law know fully every heart,
    And vary sanction, there would be no crime.

    But law itself, and the obeying world,
    Are proofs against the grosser form of Fate:
    That all is preordained, nor can be changed.
    All human life is vacillating life;
    We make our plans each day, then alter them.
    We form resolves one hour that break the next,
    And no one dares assert that he will act,
    Upon the morrow, in a certain way;
    But cries, it all depends on circumstance.
    And this is strange, that while we cannot change
    Our lives one tittle by our own free will,
    We help, each day, to change our neighbor’s course;
    And he assists the motives changing ours.
    For all relations to our fellow-men,
    Are powers that form our lives, in spite of us.
    But we may change our motives, often do,
    By changing place, or circumstance of life,
    By hearing, reading, or reflective thought;
    Yet are these very things from motives done,
    And motives mocking all our vain commands.
    One motive made the object of an act,
    Another rises subject of the act;
    And to the final motive we can never reach.

    The world’s a self-adjusting, vast machine,
    Whose human comparts cannot guide themselves;
    And each is but a puppet to the whole,
    Yet adds its mite towards its government;
    Here, in this motive circle, lies all Fate.
    Our fellow-men with motives furnish us,
    While we contribute to their motive fund.
    The real power, hidden deep within,
    Escapes the eye of careless consciousness;
    Who proudly tells us we are action’s cause.
    Upon this error men, mistaken, raise
    The edifice of law in all its forms;
    That yet performs its varied functions well,
    Because it offers motives that restrain,
    Till stronger overcome, and crime ensues.
    The motive gibbet lifts its warning arms;
    The pillory gapes its scolloped lips for necks;
    The lash grows stiff with blood and shreds of flesh;
    The treadmill yields beneath the wearied feet;
    And Sabbath after Sabbath preachers tell
    Of judgment, and of awful Hell, and Heaven;
    All these, to stronger make, than lust of sin.
    And yet, to lead my reasoning to its end,
    I find a chaos of absurdity.
    If I am by an unruled motive driven,
    Why act at all? Why passive not recline
    Upon the lap of destiny, and wait her arms?
    Why struggle to acquire means of life,
    When Fate must fill our mouths or let us die?
    Why go not naked forth into the world,
    And trust to Fate for clothes? Why spring aside
    From falling weight, or flee a burning house,
    Or fight with instinct strength the clasp of waves?
    Because we cannot help it; every act
    Behind it has a motive, whose command
    We, willing or unwilling, must obey.

    Law governs motives, motives create law;
    Between the reflex action man is placed,
    The helpless shuttlecock of unjust Fate!
    Now passive driven to commit a crime,
    Then by the driver laid upon the rack;
    A Zeno’s slave, compelled by Fate to steal,
    And then compelled by Fate to bear the lash!

    What gross injustice is the rule of life!
    A sentient being made without a will,
    And placed a cat’s-paw in the hands of Fate,
    Who rakes the moral embers for a sin,
    That, found, must burn the helpless one alone.
    All right and wrong, and whate’er makes man man,
    Are gone, and language is half obsolete;
    No need of words to tell of moral worth
    Existing not, nor e’en conceivable;
    No words of blame or commendation, given
    According to the intention of a deed;
    No words of cheer or comfort, to incite,
    For man must act without our useless tongues;
    No words of prayer, if Fate supplies our wants;
    No words of prayer, if Fate locks up her store;
    No words of love, for fondest love were loathed
    If fanned by Fate to flame. No words of hate,
    For all forgive a wrong when helpless done;
    The buds that bloom upon the desert heart
    Lose all their sweetness when they’re forced to grow;
    All pleasure’s marred because it is not earned,
    And pain more painful since ’tis undeserved.

    Man falling from his high estate, becomes
    A brute with keener sensibilities;
    Endowed with mind, upon whose plastic face
    Fate writes its batch of lies; poor man believes,
    And prates of moral agency, and cants
    Of good _he_ does, and evil that _he_ shuns.
    With blind content, he rests in false belief,
    And happy thus escapes the mental rack--
    The consciousness of what he really is.

    And yet why false belief? The world believes,
    And acting, moves in general harmony;
    Could harmony from such an error flow?
    Would all believe, would not some one
    Have doubted by his works as well as faith?
    The veriest skeptic walks the earth to-day,
    As if he held the seal of freest will,
    And shapes its course, and judges all mankind
    By freedom’s rule.
                       Then may not that be true
    Which most believe, and those who doubt profess
    In every act; as that which few believe
    And to which none conform?
                               Two paths I see,
    One marked Free-Will, the other Fate. The first,
    Extending far as human thought can reach,
    Through lovely meads with sweetest flowers, and fruits
    Of actions clearly shown as right and wrong,
    Because of choice ’twixt the two; of laws
    With sanction suiting agents who are free;
    Of courts acquitting the insane of crime,
    Of crime made crime, alone, when done as crime,
    Of judgment passed by public sentiment
    On action in the ratio of liberty.
    Delightful view; but seek an entrance there--
    The towering bars of unruled motive stand
    Before the path, and none can overleap.

    The field of Fate lies open; nothing bars
    Our progress there. A thousand different ways
    The path diverges. Every by-path leads
    To some foul pit or bottomless abyss.
    Along each side are strewed the whitening bones
    Of venturous pilgrims, lost amid its snares,
    Some broken on the rocks of gross decree,
    Who hold an unchanged destiny from birth;
    Who will not take a medicine if sick,
    Who cant of “To be, will be,” and the time
    Unalterably set to each man’s life.
    Some stranded on the finer form of Fate,
    Who say it works by means. Hence they believe
    In using all preventives to disease,
    In going boating in a rubber belt,
    In placing Franklin rods upon a house,
    In preaching, and in praying men repent.
    These, when one dies, cry out, “It was his time.”
    Or if he should recover, “It was not.”
    Their fate is always ex post facto fate,
    And knowing not the future, they abide
    The issue of events, and then confirm
    Their dogged dogmas.
                         Still another class,
    Though fewer far in numbers, perish here.
    These are the sophists; men who deeply dive
    Beneath the surface of effect, and trace
    Our actions to their source. They find that man,
    Made in the glorious image of his God,
    Is not an independent cause, but works
    From motive causes out of his control.
    They find that every mental act must flow
    From outside source, then fearlessly ascend
    The chain of being to a height divine,
    And dare to fetter the Eternal mind,
    And throw their bonds around Omnipotence.
    As well a spider in an eagle’s nest
    Might, from his hidden web among the twigs,
    Attempt to throw his little gluey thread
    Around the mottled wing, whose muscled strength
    Beats hurried vacuums in the ocean’s spray,
    Or circling upward, parts the thunder-cloud,
    And bursts above; and shaking off the mists,
    With rigid feathers bright as burnished steel,
    Floats proudly through the tranquil air.
                                             Which realm
    Shall now be mine, Free-Will or Fate? The one
    Stands open wide, but all in ruin ends;
    The other, fair if once within the pale;
    But how to scale the barriers none can tell.
    Bah! all is doubt. I’ll leave the mystic paths
    Where, on each side, are ranged the phantom shapes
    Of disputants, alive and dead, who fight,
    With foolish zeal, o’er myths intangible;
    When each one cries “Eureka!” for his creed.
    That scarcely lives a day, then yields its place.
    A Roman ’gainst a Roman, Greek to Greek,
    A zealous Omar with an Ali paired;
    A saintly Pharisee in hot dispute
    With Sadducees. Along th’ illustrious rows
    Of lesser lights, who advocate the creeds
    Of their respective masters, we descend
    To later days and see Titanic minds
    Exert their giant strength to reach the truth,
    And, baffled, fall. Locke, ever elsewhere clear,
    Here mystified Spinoza’s dizzy wing
    O’erweighted by his strange “imperium;”
    Hobbes, with his new intrinsic liberty;
    And Belsham’s quaint reduction too absurd;
    “Sufficient reason,” reared in Leibnitz’s strength;
    Reid, Collins, Edwards, Tappan, Priestley, Clarke,
    All push each other from the door of Truth.

    None ever have, nor ever will, on earth,
    Reach truth of theory concerning Fate.
    It stands as whole from every touch of man
    As ocean’s broad blue scroll, whose rubber waves
    Erase the furrows of the plowing keels.

    Then, careless whether man be king or slave,
    I’ll take his actions, whether free or not,
    And trace them to their sources. Deep the dive,
    But, throwing off the buoys of Charity
    And Faith, and all the prejudice of life,
    I grasp the lead of Doubt, and downward sink
    Into the cesspool of the human heart,
    To find the fount, that to the surface casts
    A thousand bubbles of such varied hues:
    The pale white bubble of hypocrisy,
    The murky bubble of revenge and hate,
    The frail gilt bubble of ambition’s hope,
    The rainbow bubble of sweet love in youth,
    The dull slime bubble of a sensual lust,
    The crystal bubble of true charity!
    Instead of analyzing every fact
    Of moral nature, searching for its source,
    I’ll name a source most probable, and try
    The facts upon it; if they fit, confirm,
    If not, reject. With Hobbes and Paley then
    I join; and here avow that all mankind
    Have but one source of action--Love of self--
    Yet not self-love as understands the world,
    For that’s a name for error shown by few;
    But natural instinct that impels all men
    To give self pleasure, and to save it pain;
    For pain and pleasure are Life’s only modes--
    No neutral state--we suffer, or enjoy;
    And every action’s linked with one of these.
    We cannot act without a consciousness,
    A consciousness of pleasure or of pain,
    The very automatic workings of our frames
    Are pleasures, unmarked from their constancy;
    But if impeded, they produce a pain.
    This instinct, teaching us to pleasure seek,
    And pain avoid, none ever disobey;
    For be their conduct what it may, a crime
    Or virtue, greed or pure benevolence,
    To find the greatest pleasure is their aim.
    Nay, start not, critic, but attend the proofs.
    A man exists within himself alone,
    Himself, or he would lose identity.
    To him the world exists but by effects
    Upon himself. His actions toward it then
    Bear reference to himself. He cannot act
    Without affecting self. His nature’s law
    Demands that self be dealt with pleasantly.

    There is no pain or pleasure in the world,
    But as he feels th’ reality in self,
    Or fancies it by signs in other men.
    This fancied pain is never _real_ pain,
    But yields a _real_ reflex. Others’ pain
    Is never pain to us, unless we know
    It does exist. Within a hundred yards
    A neighbor dies, in agony intense,
    And yet we feel no slightest trace of pain,
    Unless informed thereof. ’Tis only when we know,
    And therefore are affected, that we feel.

    The modes of pain and pleasure are then two,
    A real and a fancied one. The first acute,
    In ratio of our sensibilities;
    The last in ratio of our image-power.
    These gifts in different men unequal are,
    And hence life’s varied phases. One may deem
    A real pain far greater than a pain
    In fancy formed, from others’ sufferings;
    He eats alone, and drives the starving off.
    Another’s fancy paints more vividly,
    And he endures keen hunger to supply
    The poor with food. And so of pleasure too,--
    And this moves all to shun the greatest pain,
    And find the greatest pleasure.
                                    Different minds,
    And each at different times of life, possess
    A different standard of this highest good.
    The swaddled infant wails for its own food,
    Because its highest pleasure is alone in sense;
    The child will from its playmate hide a cake
    Until it learns that praise for sharing it
    Gives greater pleasure than the sweetened taste;
    One boy at school proves insubordinate,
    His schoolmates’ praise he deems his highest good;
    Another studies well, because he values more
    A parent’s smile. The murderer with his knife,
    The maiden praying in her purity,
    The miser dying over hoards of gold,
    The widow casting thither her two mites,
    A white-veil bending o’er the dying couch,
    A stained beauty floating through the waltz,
    The preacher’s zeal, the gambler’s eager zest;
    All have one motive, greatest good to self!

    The tender stop their ears, and cry aloud:
    “What! do you dare assert the gambler seeks
    With hellish zeal the faintest shade of good?
    That he is holy as the Man of God?”
    By no means, yet he seeks his good the same.
    Not good as you’ve been taught to apprehend,
    But good, the greatest to his frame of mind.
    Do not exclaim that good is always good,
    And never differs from itself. Anon
    We’ll speak of abstract truths, if such there be
    That good and pleasure are synonymous
    At times of action, is most surely plain;
    For pleasure’s but the consciousness of good,
    Or satisfaction of our tendencies.
    If all the gambler’s soul is bent on gain,
    Then at the moment gain is greatest good;
    But should you reason with him, and explain
    Another life, and make it really seem
    To him the best, he straight would change his course.

    “But,” cries my friend, “the preacher, if he’s true,
    Must labor, not for self, but others’ good;
    And in proportion as the self’s forgot,
    And others cared for, does his conduct rise.”

    But he can not, if conscious, forget self,
    For everything he does is felt within;
    But deeds for others’ good a pleasure give;
    If done in pain to self, the pleasure’s more.
    To gain the pleasure, self is put to pain,
    Just as a vesication brings relief.
    If he refused to undergo the pain
    Remorse would double it.
                             Among his flock
    Some one is sick; to visit him is right,
    And done, affords a pleasure. Sweeter far
    That pleasure, if he walks through snow and ice,
    At duty’s call!

                    Sublime self-sacrifice,
    Of which men prate, is nothing more nor less
    Than base self-worship. Little pain endured
    T’ avoid a great; a smaller pleasure lost
    To gain a larger!

                      All the preacher’s words,
    That burn or die upon the stolid ear,
    Are spoken from this motive, good to self.
    You stare; but it is true. Why does he preach?
    To save men’s souls?--Why does he try to save?
    Because he loves his fellow-men? Not so.
    His love for them but to the pleasure adds,
    Which duty done confers; but all his work
    Must be with reference to himself alone,
    Though cunning self the real motive hides,
    And leaves his broad philanthropy and love
    To claim the merit. Let a score of men,
    The blackest sinners, die. He knows it not,
    And feels no pang; but if he is informed,
    He suffers reflex pain. And if his charge,
    Remorseful tortures for unfaithfulness.
    And only is the state of souls to him
    Of interest, as they are known. When known,
    It is a source of pleasure or of pain
    Which all his labor is to gain or shun.

    “This difference then,” says one, “between men’s lives;
    Some live for present, some for future good.
    The sensual care for self on earth alone,
    The mystic cares for self beyond the grave.”

    Both love a present self, in present time.
    They differ in their notions of its good.
    The stern ascetic, with his shirt of hair,
    His bleeding penitential knees, his fasts
    To almost death, his soul-exhausting prayers,
    Is seeking, cries the world, good after death.
    And yet his course of life is that alone
    Which could yield pleasure in his state of mind.
    He suffers, it is true, but hope of Heaven
    Thus rendered sure, as much a present good
    Is, as the food that feasts the epicure.
    The contemplation of his future home,
    Which he is thus securing, is a balm
    That heals his stripes, and sweetens all their pain.
    The penance blows upon his blood-wealed breast
    Are bliss compared to lashes of remorse.
    So for the greater good, the hope of Heaven,
    He undergoes “the trivial pain of flesh.”
    The epicure cares not a fig for Heaven,
    But finds his greatest good in pleasing sense.
    And so the man who gives his wealth away
    Is just as selfish as the money-slave
    Who grinds out life amid his dusty bags.
    They both seek happiness with equal zest:
    The one finds pleasure in the many thanks
    Of those receiving, or the public’s praise,
    Or if concealed, in consciousness of right;
    The other in the consciousness of wealth.

    If all men act from motives just the same,
    Where is the right and wrong? In the effect?
    The quality of actions must be judged
    From their intent, and not their consequence.
    If two men matches light for their cigars,
    And from one careless dropped, a house is burned,
    Is he that dropped it guiltier of crime
    Than he whose match went out? Most surely no!
    Then is the miser blameless, though he turn
    The helpless orphan freezing from his door;
    And Dives should not be commended more,
    Though all his goods to feed the poor he gives.

    How then shall we determine quality
    Of actions, when their sources are the same,
    And their effects possess no quality?
    Two dead men lie in blood beside the way,
    The one shot by a friend, an accident;
    The other murdered for his gold. ’Tis plain
    No wrong lies in th’ effects, for both are ’like;
    And of the agents, he of accident
    Had no intent, and therefore did no wrong.
    The other killed to satisfy the self,
    A motive founding all the Christian work,
    And right if that is right. The wrong
    Then lies between the motive and effect,
    And must exist in the effecting means.
    Yet how within the means is wrong proved wrong?
    Jouffroy would say, because a disregard
    Of others’ rights; for here he places good,
    When classifying Nature’s moral facts.
    He makes the child first serve flesh self,
    Then moral self, and last to others’ good
    Ascend, and general order. What a myth!
    As if man thought of others, save effect
    From them upon himself. But order gives
    A greater good to self; therefore he joins
    His strength to others, creates laws that bind
    Himself and them, and produce harmony.
    He thus surrenders minor good of self,
    To gain a greater. This is all the need
    He has of order, though Jouffroy asserts
    That order universal is the Good.
    Yet still he says that private good of each
    Is but a fragment of the absolute,
    And that regard for every being’s rights
    Is binding as the universal law!

    Regard for others’ rights indeed, when men
    Unharmed agree to hang a man for crime!
    Not for the crime--that’s past; but to prevent
    A second crime, which crime alone exists
    In apprehensive fancy. Thus for wrong
    That’s but forethought, they do a real wrong.
    To save their rights from harm they fear may come.
    They strip a fellow-man of actual right,
    And highest, right of life; then dare to call
    Their action pure, divinely just, and good,
    And all the farce of empty names.
                                      They make
    Of gross injustice individual,
    A flimsy justice, for mankind at large,
    And cry, Let it be done, though Heaven fall!
    As if a whole could differ from its parts,
    Or right be made from wrong. Yet some may say
    That one is sacrificed for many’s good,
    Or hung that many may avoid his fate;
    And that his crime deserved what he received.

    But law must value every man alike,
    And cannot save one man, or thousand men,
    From future evil, only possible,
    By greatest evil to another man,
    In its own view of justice. Nor can crime
    Meet punishment, at mortal hands, by right,
    For murder’s murder, done by one or twelve,
    And legal murder’s done in colder blood,
    Whose stains are chalked by vain authority.
    Authority! the child of numbers and self-love!
    Regard for rights of things, indeed, when beasts
    And birds must yield their right of life that man
    May please his right of taste. When, during Lent,
    The holy-days of fasting and of prayer,
    The scaly victims crowd the Bishop’s board,
    Their flesh unfleshed by Conscience’ pliant rule,
    Our palates must be for a moment pleased,
    Though costing something agonies of death;
    And worse than robbers, what we cannot give,
    We dare to take.
                     They have no souls, say you?
    Nor after death exist?
                           That nothing’s lost,
    Philosophy maintains as axiom truth.
    An object disappears, but somewhere lives
    In other form. The water-pool to mist
    Is changed, the powder into flame and smoke.
    My pointer dies, his body, decomposed,
    The air, the soil, and vegetation feeds;
    Yet still exists, although disintegrate.
    For there was something, while the pointer lived,
    That was not body, but that governed it,
    A spirit, essence, call it what you will,
    A something seen but through phenomena,
    And by them proved most clearly to exist.
    A something, not the feet that made them run,
    A something, not the eyes, but knew they saw,
    A something, without which the eyes could see
    As much as glasses can without the eye,
    The something, “Carlo” named, that knew the name.
    The pointer dies, and we dissect the flesh.
    All there, none missing, to the tiniest nerve;
    Yet something’s gone, the more important part,
    And can you say that it has ceased to be,
    When th’ flesh, inferior to it, still exists?
    The spirit, if existent, must be whole,
    Nor can be parted till material proven.
    That Carlo lives, seems plain as I shall live;
    He lived for self, and so did I; we fare
    Alike in after-life, we differ here
    In consciousness of immortality.
    But I digress.
                   Where is the right and wrong?
    This is the Gordian knot no sword can cut,
    All sages of the world, with wisdom-teeth,
    Have gnawed this file without the least effect.
    The thousand savants of old Greece and Rome
    Proclaimed a thousand theories of good,
    That each, successive, proud devoid of truth.
    A myriad moderns have advanced their views,
    Each gained a few disciples, who avowed their truth,
    And each, by some one else, been proven wrong.
    A Bentham marches out utility,
    A moral test from benefit or harm.
    As if the good depended on effect,
    And good would not be good, though universe
    In all its phases found no use! And Price
    Parades his “reason,” with its simple good;
    Who’d rather give the question up, than err,
    And so declares it cannot be defined.
    Then Wollaston declares that good is truth,
    Which no one doubts, far as it goes; it goes
    Toward good, as far as truth, its attribute;
    Beyond, it cannot reach. And Montesquieu
    And Clarke, relation’s order preach; a rule
    That makes the growing grain, or falling shower,
    A moral agent, capable of good.
    Then Wolf and Malebranche perfection see,
    And therefore good, in God; but their sight fails,
    And God may mirror good, but man’s weak eyes
    Ne’er see it. Adam Smith, with “sentiment”
    Proceeds to dress a thought, and call it, good;
    And makes the abstract of a Universe
    Arise from puling human sympathy.
    The largest concourse follow Hutcheson,
    Although the greater part ne’er heard of him.
    The world at large believes in moral sense;
    They call it conscience! Oh the precious word!
    Though stretched and warped, they almost deify,
    And term it man’s tribunal in his breast,
    Where he may judge his actions, right or wrong.
    What nonsense! Conscience is but consciousness
    Of soul, and idea of its good. We form
    This idea from regard of fellow-men,
    Association, and from thought. We find
    Sometimes the good of soul conflicts with flesh,
    And when we know the soul above the flesh,
    We yield to that the preference. Hence arise
    The foolish notions of self disregard.
    The savage does not know he has a soul,
    And therefore has no conscience. He can steal
    Without remorse. But when he learns of soul,
    He finds it has a good, and by this test
    Tries moral actions, are they good for soul?
    And this is conscience.
                            Yet is conscience changed
    By circumstance. The Hindoo mother tears
    The helpless infant from her trickling breast,
    To feed the crocodile, and save her soul;
    She’s happier in its conscience-murdered wail
    Than in its gleeful prattle on her knee.
    And daily we see one commit a deed
    Without a pang, another dare not do.
    If conscience may be warped but one degree
    By plain Sorites, it may be reversed,
    And only prove an interested thought.

    To abstract good no man has found the key,
    Though in the various forms of concrete good
    We see the similars, and from these frame
    A good that serves the purposes of life.
    We pass it as we do the concept, “Man,”
    But never ope to count the attributes.
    Our purest right is but approximate
    To this vague abstract idea, how obtained,
    We know not. Plato says ’tis memory
    Of previous life. Perhaps! ’Tis very dim
    In this; and yet it rocks the cradle world
    As strongly as the baby man can bear
    And so of truth, or aught abstract, we know
    Of such existence somewhere, that is all.
    “But we,” cries one, “do hold some abstract truth,
    In perfect form. The truth of science’ laws,
    The truths of numbers, each are perfect truths.”
    The truths of science are hypotheses,
    And only true as far as they explain.
    But perfect truth must save all facts,
    That ever rose or possibly can rise.
    “The priest of Nature” thought he held the truth
    When throughout space he tracked the motes of light,
    And ground the sunbeams into dazzling dust.
    Our quivering waves through subtle ether flash,
    And drown Sir Isaac’s atoms in a flood
    Of glorious truth; till some new fact shall rise
    To give our truth the lie, and cause a change
    Of theory.
               Our numbers no truth have,
    Or but a shadow, cast on Earth by truth
    Existent in some unknown world. We make
    Our little numbers fit the shadow’s line
    As best they can, and boast eternal truth!
    Yet take a simple form of numbers, “two,”
    We cannot have a perfect thought of this,
    Because the mind directly asks, two what?
    ’Tis not enough chameleon to feed
    On empty air. Two units, we reply
    Then what is meant by unity? An “One,”--
    The mind can only cognize o-n-e,
    Which makes three units and not one.
                                         The mind
    Must have a concrete object to adjust
    The abstract on, before it comprehends.
    But two concretes are never two, because
    They never can be proved exactly ’like.
    To illustrate: suppose two ivory balls,
    Of finest mold, and equal weight, precise
    As hair-hung scales, arranged most delicate,
    Can prove; yet they can not be shown
    To differ, not the trillionth of a grain;
    Or if they could, they may in density
    Be unlike; then to equal weight, one must
    Be larger by the trillionth of an inch.
    Even if alike in density and weight,
    No one will dare assert that they possess
    A perfect similarity in all.
    The abstract two is twice as much as one,
    But our two balls unlike, perforce must be
    Greater or less than two of either one;
    But two of one, the same can never be
    On poor, imperfect Earth. Thus all our twos
    Fall, in some measure, short of concept two.
    And if we paint the concept to the eye,
    The figure 2 of finest stereotype,
    Beneath the microscope imperfect shows.
    And so our perfect numbers, wisdom’s boast,
    Are faint, uncertain shadows in the mind,
    That we can never picture to the eye,
    Nor truthfully apply to anything.
    We use a ragged, ill-drawn substitute,
    That answers all the purposes of life.
    The truths of mathematics, so sublime,
    Are never true to us, concretely known;
    And in the abstract so concealed are they,
    No man can swear he has their perfect form.
    We can’t conceive a line without some breadth--
    The perfect line possesses length alone;
    Earth never saw a pure right-angle drawn,
    Pythag’ras cannot prove his theorem,
    The finest quadrant is but nearest truth,
    The closest measures but approximate,
    And all from Sanconiathon to Pierce,
    With grandest soaring into Number’s realms,
    Have only fluttered feebly o’er the ground,
    Their heaven-strong wings by feebling matter tied.

    Man is a pris’ner, but the prison walls
    Are very vast; so vast the universe
    Lies, like a mote, within their mighty scope.
    Most are content to grovel on the earth,
    Some rise a little way, and sink again;
    And some, on noble wing, soar to the bounds,
    And eager beat the bars. Beyond these walls
    The abstract lies, and oft the straggling rays,
    Through crevices and chinks, stray to our jail;
    And these we fondly hug as truth.
                                      Poor man!
    The glimpses of the great Beyond have roused,
    For centuries, his curious soul to flight.
    With eagle eye fixed on the distant goal,
    He cleaves his way, till dashed against the walls;
    Some fall with bruiséd wing again to Earth,
    And some cling bravely there, so eager they
    To reach the untouched prize, and so intent
    Their gaze upon its light, they notice not
    The bounds, till Hamilton, with wary eye,
    Discovers the Eternal bounding line,
    And sadly shows its hopeless fixity.

    But man on Earth I love to ridicule,
    A little clod of sordid selfishness!
    I’ll take his mental acts of every kind
    And see how self originates them all;
    I’ll follow Stewart, since he classifies
    With shrewd discretion, though his reasoning err,
    He places first the appetites; and these
    Perforce are selfish, as our self alone
    Must feel and suffer with our wants. Our food
    Tastes good alone to us. The richest feast,
    In others’ mouths, could never satisfy
    Our appetite for food; self must be fed.
    Desires are next; and that of knowledge, first,
    Is proven selfish, by his quoted line
    From Cicero--that “knowledge is the food
    Of mind”--and food is ever sought for self.
    Desire of social intercourse with men,
    From thought that it will better self, proceeds.
    Man’s state is friendly, not a state of war,
    For instinct teaches him society
    Will offer many benefits to self;
    And only when he has a cause to fear
    That self will suffer, does he learn to war.
    Desire to gain esteem, is self in search
    Of approbation; like the appetite,
    The end pursued affects alone the self.
    And lastly Stewart boasts posthumous fame,
    When self, as sacrificed, can seek no good.
    To prove the motive is a selfish good,
    I’ll not assert enjoyment after life,
    But say, the pleasure of the millions’ praise,
    Anticipated in the present thought,
    And intense consciousness of heroism,
    Far more than compensates the pangs of death.
    A Curtius leaping down the dread abyss,
    Enjoys his fame enough, before he strikes,
    To pay for every pain of mangling death.
    Affections next adorn the moral page.
    At that of kindred, mothers cry aloud:
    “For shame! for shame! do you pretend to say
    I love my child with any thought of self?
    When I would lay my arm upon the block,
    And have it severed for his slightest good!”
    I’ll square your love by Reason’s rigid rule,
    And test its source. Why do you love him so?
    For benefit he has conferred, or may?
    No, as the helpless babe, demanding care,
    You love him most. Your love is instinct then,
    And like the cow her calf, you love your child;
    That you may care for him, before self moves.
    Then do you love him always just the same,
    When rude and bad as when obedient?
    But I’ll dissect your love, and take away
    Each part affecting self; and see what’s left.
    He now has grown beyond your instinct love;
    You love him, first, because he is your son,
    And you would suffer blame, if you did not;
    You love him, too, because he does reflect
    A credit on yourself. You feel assured
    That others thinking well of him, think well
    Of you. Because it flatters all your pride
    To think so fine a life is part of yours;
    Because his high opinion of your worth
    Evokes a meet return; because you look
    Into the future, and see honors bright
    Awaiting you through him; because you feel
    The world is praising you for loving him,
    And would condemn you, did you not. And last,
    You feel the pleasure deep of self-esteem,
    Because you fill the public’s and your own
    Romantic ideas of a mother’s love.

    Let each component part be now destroyed,
    And see if still you love him. As a man,
    He plunges into vice of vilest kinds;
    His bright reflections on yourself are gone,
    And people think the worse of you, for him;
    You never smile, but frown, upon him now,
    But still you love him dearly! To his vice
    He adds a crime, a foul and blasting crime;
    Your pride is gone, you feel a bitter shame,
    A score of opposites to love creep in;
    A righteous anger at his foolish sins,
    A just contempt for nature, weak as his;
    But yet you love him fondly, for the world
    Is lauding you for “mother’s holy love”;
    And you delight its clinging strength to show,
    You gain in public credit by your woes,
    And get the soothing martyr’s sympathy.
    But let him still grow worse, and sink so low,
    That people say you are disgraced through him,
    Your warmest friends will not acquaintance own,
    Your love for such an object’s ridiculed,
    And gains respect from none. Your only chance
    Is to disown him. How you loud proclaim,
    “He’s not my child but by the accident
    Of birth!”
               Do yet you love him in your heart?
    This then because you think yourself so good,
    So heaven-like, for loving him disgraced,
    You go to see him in the shameful jail;
    He spits upon, and beats you from his cell,
    And tells you that he hates your very name.
    Now all your love is gone, except the glow
    Of pity for him chained to dungeon floor;
    But he’s released, and deeper goes in crime;
    Then, lastly, Pity yields. Your heart is stone!

    But love was only touched in selfish part,
    Yet should you still deny your love is self’s;
    Of several children, do you not love most
    The one whose conduct pleases most yourself?
    But love, unselfish, never could be moved
    By anything affecting self alone.

    The throbbing hearts of lovers beat for self,
    And this I’ll prove, though Pyramus may vow
    He has no thought but Thisbe.
                                  Take away
    Love’s sensual part, which is an appetite,
    And therefore selfish, by its Nature’s law;
    And what remains is, first, a slight conceit
    At our discernment in the choice we’ve made,
    And then a pride that we have won the prize;
    A pride, that some one thinks we are the best;
    A pleasure in her presence, too, we feel,
    Because in every look she manifests
    Her preference for us. This is flattering
    Beyond all else that we have ever known.
    A friend may raise our self-esteem, indeed,
    By showing constantly his own esteem,
    But never can man’s vanity receive
    A higher tribute than a woman’s love!
    This tribute, we, of course, reciprocate,
    And when together, we increase self-love
    By mutual words expressing our regard.
    Yet when our love is deepest, if we find
    Our Self is not so worshipped as we thought,
    Our love grows cold; and when we are not loved
    We cease to love. To illustrate permit:

    You’re on the topmost wave of fervid love--
    A wilder flame than poets ever sung;
    You’ve passed the timid declaration’s bounds,
    And revel in a full assured return.
    There is no need for check upon your heart,
    It has full leave to pour its gushing tide
    Of feeling forth, and meet responsive floods.
    You meet her in the parlor’s solitude,
    No meddling eye to watch the sacred scene.
    The purple curtains hang their corded folds
    Before the tell-tale windows; closed the door,
    And sealed with softest list. The rich divan
    Is drawn before the ruddy grate that glows
    With red between the bars, and blue above.
    You sit beside The Angel of your dreams,
    And gaze in adoration. What a form!
    Revealed in faultless symmetry by robes
    Of rare, exquisite elegance, and taste,
    That fit the tap’ring waist and arching neck.
    And how superbly flow the torrents of her hair!
    Which she has shaken loose, because “it’s you”;
    Her great brown eyes that gaze so dreamily
    Upon the flowers of the vellum-screen
    That wards the fire from her tinted cheek!
    One hollow foot, in dainty, bronze bootee,
    Tapping the tufted lion on the rug;
    A snowy hand with blazing solitaire--
    The pledge of your betrothal--nestling soft
    Within your own.
                     And thus you sit, and breathe
    With tones so soft, because the ear’s so near,
    The mutual confidence of little cares;
    And how you longed for months to tell your love,
    But feared a cold rebuke; and how you dared
    To hope through all the gloom; and how you grieved
    At every favor shown to other men;
    How now the clouds have flown away,
    And all is brightness, joy, and tender love.
    Then drawing nearer, round the slender waist
    You pass an arm; and nestling cheek to cheek,
    Palm throbbing palm, you hush all useless words,
    And thought meets thought, in silent love.
    And now and then, you leave the cheek, to kiss
    The coral lips; yet not with transient touch,
    But with a fervid, lingering pressure there,
    As if you longed to force the lips apart,
    And drink the soul; while both her melting orbs
    Are drooped beneath your burning inch-near eyes.
    The parting hour must come. The good-night said,
    You rise to leave; and turning, at the door,
    You see her head drooped on the sofa’s arm,
    You fancy she is sighing that you’re gone;
    And stealing back on tiptoe, gently raise
    The beauteous face, and take it ’twixt your palms;
    And gazing on the features radiant,
    Distorted queerly by your pressing hands,
    You feel that life, the parting cannot bear,
    That you must stay forever there, or die!
    Another effort, one more nectar sip,
    You rush from out the room, and slam the door,
    Just on the steps, you meet your rival’s face.
    He has an easy confidence, and walks
    Into the house, as if it were his own.
    Poor fellow! how you really pity him!
    You can afford to be magnanimous,
    And deprecate his certain, cruel fate.
    You murmur: “Well, he brings it on himself,”
    And turn to go. The window’s near the ground,
    And slightly raised. Although you know it’s mean,
    You cannot now resist, but creep up near,
    And with a finger part the curtain’s fringe.
    You see your darling run across the room
    With both extended hands, and hear her say:
    “Oh Fred! I am so very glad you’ve come,
    I feared that stupid thing would never leave,
    I had to let him take my hand awhile,
    And mumble over it, to get him off.”

    You grasp the iron railing for support,
    And, faint and dizzy with the agony
    Of love’s departure, cling till all has fled;
    Then stagger home without a trace of love.
    Yet only Self is touched; her beauty’s there,
    Her sparkling wit, and her intelligence,
    Her manner even, towards you, has not changed,
    And, were you with her, she would be the same.
    Love’s every motive disappeared with Self,
    No pride of conquest, no romance of thought;
    You meet no sympathy, but ridicule!

    A mother’s love may last through injury,
    Because it reaps the self’s reward of praise
    For constancy, through wrong. The lover’s flame.
    Unless supplied with fuel-self, dies out,
    For, burning, ’twould deserve supreme contempt.

    The less affairs of life are traced to Self.
    The code of Etiquette, that Chesterfield
    Defines “Benevolence in little things,”
    Is but a scheme to give Self consciousness
    Of excellence in breeding, and to keep
    “Our Circle” sep’rate by its shibboleth.
    The stately bow, the graceful sip of wine,
    The useless little finger’s dainty crook
    In lifting up the fragile Sevres cup,
    The holding of the hat in morning calls,
    The touch of it when passing through the streets,
    The drawing of a glove, the use of cane--
    Our every act is coupled with the thought
    How well Self does all this.

                                 Our very words
    Are used to gratify the self. Men talk
    By preference, for they judge their words
    Will gain them more applause than listening.
    But if attention yields more fruit to Self,
    How patiently they hear the longest tale,
    And laugh in glee at its insipid close!
    If with superiors, we attend, because
    Attention pleases more with them than words;
    But if inferiors, we must talk the most,
    Since their attention flatters us so much.
    The cause of converse, Self, is oftenest food.
    How few the talks that are not spiced with “I,”
    What “I” can do, or did or will!

                                     Sometimes,
    The Self is held, on purpose, up for jest;
    As when men tell a joke upon themselves.
    But here the shame of conduct or mishap
    Is more than balanced by the hearty laugh,
    Which gives its pleasant witness to our wit.
    We never tell what will present ourselves
    In such an aspect laughter cannot heal;
    Although it compliments our telling powers.

    Attentions to the fair, but seek for Self
    Their smiles of favor. Little deeds of love
    To those around us, look for their reward.
    The youth polite, who gives his chair to Age,
    “Without a thought of Self,” is yet provoked,
    If Age do not evince, by nod or smile,
    His obligation to that unthought Self.

    The very qualities we call innate,
    Arise and rule through Self. Our reverence,
    Or tendency to worship, is to gain
    A good. Religion grows this tendency
    Into the various Churches, all whose ends
    Are to secure eternal good for Self.
    And those who preach that man does sacrifice
    Himself for fellow-men, I ask, why none
    Will give his soul for others’? Many give
    The paltry life on Earth for others’ good;
    The very stones would cry “O! fool!” to him
    Who’d yield his soul; for that is highest Self,
    And nothing e’er can compensate its loss.

    In all these things, Self stands behind the scenes,
    And men see not the force that moves them on.
    But in the boudoir, ’tis enthroned supreme,
    And does not care to hide the cloven foot.
    In every home, the marble and the log,
    In mammoth trunks, and chests of simple pine,
    In rosewood cases, and the pasteboard box,
    Are crammed the slaves of Self, to poor and rich,
    The clothes that, fine or common, feed its pride.
    The velvets, satins, silken _robes de flamme_,
    The worsted, calico, and homespun stripe;
    The Guipure, Valenciennes, and Appliqué,
    The gimp, galloon, and shallow bias frill;
    The Talmas, Arabs, basques and paletots,
    The coarse plaid shawl, the hood, and woollen scarf;
    The chignons, chatelaines, and plaited braids,
    The beaded net, and tight-screwed knot of hair;
    The dazzling jewels, ranged in season sets,
    The pinchbeck, gilt, and waxen trinketry;
    The tinted boots, half-way the silken hose,
    The shoes that tie o’er cotton blue-and-white;
    The corset laced to hasten ready Death,
    The leather belt, that cuts the broad, thick waist;
    The bosom heaving only waves of wire,
    The bosom, cotton stuffed, beyond all shape;
    The belladonna sparkling in the eye,
    The finger tip, and water without soap;
    The rouge and carmine for the city cheeks,
    The berries’ ruddy juice for rural ones;
    The pearly powder, with its poisoned dust,
    The cup of flour to ghastlify the face;--
    All these, and thousand fixtures none can count,
    Man’s vanity, and woman’s love of show,
    Appropriate for Self.
                          And such is Man!
    The puzzle of the Universe! Within,
    A giant to himself; without, a babe.
    A giant that we cannot but despise,
    A babe we must admire for his power.
    His mind, Promethean spark divine, can pierce
    The shadowy Past, and gaze in rapturous awe
    Upon the birth of worlds, that from the Mind
    Eternal spring to blazing entities,
    And whirl their radiant orbs through cooling space;
    Or place the earth beneath its curious ken,
    And with an “Open Sesame!” descend
    Into its rocky chambers, there unfold
    The stone archives, and read their graven truths--
    Earth’s history written by itself therein--
    How age by age, a globe of liquid fire,
    It dimmer grew, and dark and stiff,
    And drying, took a rough, uneven face;
    Above the wave, the mountain’s smoking top
    Appeared, beneath it gaped the valley’s gorge;
    But smoking still, it stood a gloomy globe,
    Naked and without life. And how the trees
    And herbs their robes of foliage brought; their form
    And life adapted to their heated bed.
    And how a stream of animation poured
    Upon its face, when ready to sustain;
    Great beasts who trod the cindered soil unscathed,
    And tramped the fervid plains with unscorched soles.
    Great fish whose hardened fins hot waters churned
    That steamed at every stroke. How periods passed
    And fields and forests teemed with gentler life,
    The waters wound in rivers to the sea,
    Then spread their vap’ry wings and fled to land.
    The oceans tossed in bondage patiently;
    Volcanic mountains closed their festering mouths,
    And Earth made ready for her master, Man.

    It traces Man, expelled from Paradise,
    Along the winding track of centuries.
    It marks his slow development, from two,
    To families, and tribes, and nations vast.
    It gazes on the wondrous scenes of war,
    And peace, and battle plain, and civic game;
    And lives through each, with all of real life,
    Except the body’s presence there. It turns
    From man to beasts and birds, and careless strokes
    The lion’s mane, the humbird’s scarlet throat.
    It tracks the mammoth to his jungle home,
    Or creeps within the infusoria’s cell.
    It measures Earth from pole to pole, or weighs
    The bit of brass, that lights the battery spark.
    Is Earth too small, it plumes its flight through space;
    From world to world, as bird from twig to twig,
    It flies, and furls its wing upon their discs,
    To tell their weight, and giant size, or breathe
    Their very air to find its gaseous parts.
    Now bathing in pale Saturn’s misty rings,
    Or chasing all the moons of Jupiter
    Behind his darkened cone. The glorious sun,
    With dazzling vapor robe, and seas of fire,
    Whose cyclones dart the forkèd flames far out,
    To lap so hungrily amid the stars,
    Is but its playhouse, where it rides the storms,
    That sweep vast trenches through the surging fire,
    In which the little Earth could roll unseen;
    Or bolder still, beyond our system’s bounds,
    It soars amid the wilderness of worlds;
    Finds one condemned to meet a doom of fire,
    And makes its very flames inscribe their names,
    In dusky lines, upon the spectroscope.
    With shuddering thought to see a world consumed,
    The fate prepared for ours, it lingers there
    Until the lurid conflagration dies.
    And then seeks Earth, and leaves the laggard,
    Light,
    To plod its journey vast.
                              The smallest mote
    Of dust that settles on an insect’s wing,
    It can dissect to atoms ultimate.
    With these, too small for sight, may Fancy deal,
    And revel in her Lilliputian realm.
    These atoms forming all, by Boscovitch
    Are proved, in everything, to be alike;
    And ultimate, since indivisible.
    Each in its place maintained by innate force
    And relatively far from each, as Earth
    From Sun.
              Suppose, then, each to be a world,
    Peopled with busy life, a human flood,
    As earnest in their little plans as we,
    As grand in their opinion of themselves!
    Oh! what a depth of contrast for the mind!
    The finest grain of sand, upon the beach,
    Has in its form a million perfect worlds!
    Or take the other scale, suppose the Earth,
    Our great and glorious Earth, to only form
    The millionth atom of some grain of sand,
    That shines unnoticed on an ocean’s shore,
    Whose waves wash o’er our whirling stars and sun
    Too insignificant to feel their surge.
    Another step on either side, and mind,
    In flesh, shrinks from the giant grasp.
    Yet noble are its pinions, strong their flight;
    Thrice, only, do they droop their baffled strength,
    Before the Future, Infinite, Abstract!
    The first is locked, the second out of reach,
    The third a maze that none can penetrate.
    The first, alone to inspiration opes;
    The second dashed to Earth her boldest wing,
    Spinoza’s, who essayed the idea God,
    And grappling bravely with the grand concept,
    So far above the utmost strength of Man,
    Placed God’s existence in extent and thought;
    And filled all space with God. The Universe,
    A bud or bloom of the Eternal Mind,
    That opens like a flower into this form,
    And may retract Creation in Itself!
    Alas! that effort so sublime should end
    In mystery and doubt.
                          A Universe,
    How vast so ever, has its bounds somewhere,
    But Space possesses none, and God in Space,
    Would be so far beyond Creation’s speck,
    He scarce would know it did exist. That part
    Of Mind, expressed in matter, would be lost
    Amid the Infinite domains of thought.

    Yet Man in flesh, the casket of the mind,
    Whose wondrous power I’ve told, is ever chained,
    A grovelling worm, to Earth, and never leaves
    The sod where he must lie. No time is his
    But present; not a mem’ry of the past.
    His very food, while in his mouth, alone,
    Tastes good. He stands a dummy in the world,
    That only acts when acted on. How great
    The mystery of union ’tween the two!
    A feather touches not the body, but the mind
    Perceives it; yet the mind may live through scenes
    The body never knew, nor can. Yet not
    With vivid life--the sense is lacking there.
    The memory of a banquet may be plain,
    So that the daintest dish could be described,
    As well as if the eye and tongue were there;
    The eye and tongue, alone the present know,
    And find no good in anything that’s past.
    All thought is folly, every path is dark;
    Truth gleaming fairly in the distant haze,
    On near approach becomes the blackest lie.
    Man and his soul may go, nor will I fret
    To learn their mystic bonds. A worm I am,
    And worm I must remain, till Death shall burst
    The chrysalis, and free the web-wound wings.
    Yet, oh! ’twere grand to spurn the clogging Earth
    And cleave the air towards yonder looming cloud;
    To stand upon its red-bound crest and dare
    The storm-king’s wildest wrath.

                                    My thoughts
    Grew dull, my eyelids slowly closed, the scene
    Became confused and melted into sleep.
    And far up in the blue, as yet untouched
    By clouds, I saw a white descending speck.
    Methought ’twas but a feather from the breast
    Of some migrating swan, that Earthward fell,
    And watched to see it caught upon the wind,
    And sail a tiny kite to fairy land.
    But circling down, the speck became a dove,
    A heron, then a swan, and larger still,
    Till I could mark a pair of great white wings,
    Between which hung its wondrous form. Still down
    It swept, till scarce above the trees it stood,
    Resting on quivering wings, as if it sought
    A place to ’light. I saw then what it was,
    A steed of matchless beauty, agile grace,
    Combined with muscled strength; but ere I drew
    The first long breath, that follows such surprise
    It gently downward swooped, and at my feet,
    With dainty hoof, the turf impatient pawed.
    Enrapt, I gazed upon its beauteous form,
    Its sculptured head, and countenance benign,
    The soft sad eyes, the arrow-pointed ears,
    The scarlet nostrils opening like two flowers,
    The sinewed neck, curved like a swimming swan’s,
    The splendid mane, a cataract of milk,
    That poured its foaming torrents half to Earth,
    The tap’ring limbs, tipped with pink-hued hoofs,
    That touched our soil with a proud disdain;
    The dazzling satin coat, and netting veins,
    And last the glorious wings, whose feathers lapped
    Like scales of creamy gold. What seemed a cloth
    Of woven snow, with richest silver fringe,
    Draped with its gorgeous folds the shining flanks.

    It was perfection’s type, the absolute,
    Not one defect; the tiniest hair was smooth,
    The smallest feather’s edge unfrayed. The eyes
    Without the slightest bloodshot fleck, or mote.
    No fault the microscope could have revealed,
    Though magnifying many million times.
    So great my wonder, that I could not move,
    But lay entranced, while he stood waiting there;
    Till wearied with my long delay, he raised
    His wings half-way, and eager trembled them,
    As bluebirds do when near their mate; a neigh
    Of trumpet tone aroused me. Then I sprang
    Upon his back, and wildly shouted “On!”
    A spring with gathered feet, a clash of wings,
    That made me cling in terror, and we swept
    From Earth into the air. Woods, plains, and streams
    Flashed by beneath, as, up and on, we charged
    Straight to the frowning cloud.
                                    My very brain
    Reeled with our lightning speed, and dizzy height,
    And oh! how silent was the air. No sound,
    Except the steady beat of fanning wings,
    That hurled us on a rod at every stroke.
    The bellowing winds were loosed and fiercely met
    Our flight. They tossed the broad white mane across
    My shrinking shoulders, like a scarf of silk;
    They blew the strong-quilled feathers all awry,
    And like a banner beat the silvered cloth;
    But swerving not to right or left, we pressed
    Straight onward to the goal.
                                 At last I reined
    My steed upon the shaggy ridge of clouds,
    And caracoled along the beetling cliffs,
    Up to the very summit. Then I paused.
    Behind me lay the world with all its hum
    Of life, the distant city’s veil of smoke,
    The village gleaming white amid the trees;
    The very orchard I had left, now seemed
    A downy nest of green, and far away
    I caught the shimmer of the sea, where sails,
    With glidings, glittered like the snowy gulls.
    Behind all was serene, before me seethed
    The caldron of the tempest’s wrath.
                                        Thick clouds,
    Thrice tenfold blacker than the black outside
    We see, deep in the crackling fire-crypts writhed,
    And boiling rose and fell. A deafening blast
    Roaring its thunder voice above the scene,
    As if the fiends of Hell concocted there
    The scalding beverage of the damned.
                                         My horse
    Had snuffed the fumes, and rearing on the brink,
    That fearful brink, an instant pawed the air,
    And then sprang off. A suffocating plunge,
    Through heat and blinding smoke, while to his neck
    Convulsively I clung! Down through the cloud,
    Until I gasped for breath, and felt my brain
    Was bursting with the fervid weight.
                                         He stopped
    Before a large pavilion, round whose walls,
    As faithful guard, a whirlwind fierce revolved,
    And at whose folded door, with dazzling blade,
    The lightning stood a sentinel. My steed
    Was passport, and I passed within, but stopped
    Upon the threshold, dumb with awe. The walls
    Seemed blazing mirrors, whose bright polished sides
    “Threw back in flaming lineaments” the form
    Of every object there,--a trembling wretch,
    With pallid countenance, shown ghastly red,
    Upon a horse of War’s own direful hue,
    I saw reflected there. The floor seemed made
    Of tesselated froth, whose bubbles burst,
    With constant hissing, into rainbow sparks;
    While like the sulph’rous canopy, that drapes,
    At evening’s close, a gory battle-field,
    The roof of crimson vapor drooped and rose,
    With every breath and every slightest sound.
    And in the center of the glowing room,
    Upon a sapphire throne an Angel sat,
    Upon whose brow Rebuke and Wisdom met.
    He gazed upon me with such pitying look,
    And yet withal so stern, that all my pride
    Was gone, and humble as a conquered child,
    I ran with trembling haste and near the throne
    Kneeled down.
                  “Vain man,” he said, “and hast thou dared
    To doubt the providence of God; Behold!”
    And, lo! one side of the pavilion rose,
    And out before me lay Immensity.
    The frothy floor, now crumbling from the edge,
    Dissolved away close to my very feet,
    The walls contracted their three sides in one,
    And I, beside a throne I dared not grasp,
    Stood on a narrow ledge of fragile foam,
    That clicked its thousand little globes of air,
    With every motion of my feet.
                                  Far down
    Below, the black abyss of chaos yawned,
    So vast, I gasped while gazing, and so deep,
    The Sun’s swift arrowy rays flash down for years,
    And scarcely reach the dark confines, or fade
    Amid the impenetrable gloom. Methought
    ’Twas Hell’s wide jaws, that opened underneath
    The Universe, to catch as crumbs the worlds
    Condemned, and shaken from their orbit’s track.
    And long I looked into the vast black throat,
    To trace the murky glow of hidden fire,
    Or catch the distant roar. But all was still;
    No murmur broke the silence of its gloom,
    No faintest glimmer told of lurking light,
    No smoky volumes curdled in its depths;
    As dark as Egypt’s plague, serenely calm,
    Defying light, the empty hall of Space,
    Where twinkled not a star nor blazed a sun.--
    A grand eternal night!
                           I shuddering turned,
    With freezing blood to think of falling there,
    And stretched a palsied hand to touch the throne.
    The Angel’s eye was sterner, as he waved
    Towards my steed, who seemed of marble carved.
    The wings unfolded, and he leaped in air,
    Beating from off the ledge the flakes of foam
    That sank, with airy spirals, out of sight.
    With slanting flight across the gulf he sheared;
    The moveless wings were not extended straight,
    But stood, at graceful angle, o’er his back,
    As, swifter than a swooping kite, he flashed
    Adown the gloom. His flowing mane broad borne
    Out level, like another wing; his feet
    With slow ellipses moving alternate,
    As if he trod an unseen path. ’Twas grand
    To see his graceful form, more snowy white
    Against the black relief, sublimely float
    Across the dark profound, and down its depths,
    Pass from my view. As when an Eagle soars
    Beyond our vision in the azure sky,
    We wonder what he sees, or whither flies,
    So I stood wondering if he would return,
    And what his destination down th’ abyss.

    Above, around, all was infinitude
    Of light and harmony. The worlds moved on,
    In mazy multitude, without a jar,
    Star circling planet, planet sun, and suns
    In systems, farther yet and farther still,
    Till multiplying millions mingled formed
    A sheet of milky hue. And far beyond
    The last pale star, appeared a dazzling spot,
    That flamed with brightness so ineffable
    The eye shrank ’neath its gleam. And from its light,
    Athwart the endless realms of space, there streamed
    A radiance that illumed the Universe,
    And down across the chasm of Chaos flung
    A wavering band of purple and of gold.
    And in that distant spot my ’wildered eyes
    Traced out the figure of a Great White Throne,
    Round which, in grand and solemn majesty,
    Slow swept Creation’s boundless macrocosm.--
    I felt too insignificant to pray,
    But mutely waited for the Angel’s words.
    He spoke not, but the curtains closer drew,
    And left a narrow opening in front.
    Then with a speed the lightning ne’er attained,
    Our cloud pavilion swiftly whirled through space.
    A seed that would have slain me with its haste,
    Had not the Angel been so near.
                                    As on the cars,
    We dash through towns, and mark the hurrying lights,
    Or shudder at an engine rattling by;
    So through our door, I marked the countless worlds,
    In clustering systems, chained by gravity,
    Flash by an endless course. A second’s time
    Sufficed to pass our little group of stars,
    That waltz about our Sun, as if it lit
    The very Universe. Then systems came,
    Round which our system moves, and these
    Round others, till the series grew so vast
    I shrank from looking. Great Alcyone,
    Our telescopic giantess, a babe
    Amid the monsters of the starry tribe,
    The last familiar face in Heaven’s throng,
    Blazed by the door; an instant, out of sight!
    And after all that we have known or named
    On Earth were far behind, the millions came
    In endless multitude; and on we swept,
    Till worlds became a dull monotony,
    And all the wonders of the Heavens were shown.
    A planet wheels its huge proportions past,
    Its pimpled face with red volcanoes thick,
    That, with our speed, seem girdling bands of light;
    A Sun, whose flame would fade our yellow spark,
    Roars out a moment at our narrow door
    As through its blaze we fly, then dies away,
    Casting a weird and momentary gleam
    Over the Angel’s unrelenting face;
    A meteor tears its whizzing way along,
    All showering off the scintillating sparks
    That mark its trail. Far off, a comet runs
    Its bended course, the mighty fan-like tail
    Lit with a myriad globes of dancing fire,
    That seemed like Argus’ eyes on Juno’s bird.
    And on we sped, till one last Sun appeared,
    A monstrous hemisphere of concave shape,
    And brilliancy intense; it seemed to stand
    On great Creation’s bounds, a lense of light.
    Close by its vast red rim we shaved, and passed
    Beyond, to empty space unoccupied.
    No world, no sun, no object passed the door;
    The steady blue, tinged with a brightening gold,
    Alone was seen. Still on and on we flew,
    Until a score of ages seemed elapsed,
    And I had near forgotten Earth and home.

    And yet the air grew brighter, till I feared
    That we approached a sun, so infinite
    In light, that I should sink in dazzled death.

    We came to rest, the curtains fell away,
    And lo! I stood within the light of Heaven.
    And oh! its glorious light! No angry red,
    Nor blinding white, nor sickly yellow glare,
    But one vast golden flood, sublime, serene,
    No object near, on which it could reflect,
    It formed the very atmosphere itself,
    An air in which the soul could bathe and breathe,
    And ever live without its fleshly food.

    No object near, for on the farthest bounds
    Of space immense as mortal can conceive,
    Creation hung, a group of clustering motes,
    Where only suns were seen as tiny specks,
    And Earth and smaller stars were out of sight.
    No object near, for farther than the motes,
    The walls of Heaven, in glorious grandeur loomed,
    Yet near as flesh and blood could bear.
                                            How grand!
    From infinite to infinite extent
    The glittering battlements were spread, the height
    Above conception, built of purest gold,
    Yet gold transparent, for I could discern
    Though indistinctly, domes and spires beyond,
    And all the wondrous workmanship divine,
    That blazed with jewels, flashing varied hues
    In perfect union; and bright happy fields,
    That bloomed with flowers immortal, in whose midst
    The crystal river ran. And through the scenes
    Thronged million forms, that each sought happiness,
    From million varied, purified desires.
    Each face serenely bright as Evening’s star,
    And some I thought I knew, were dear to me;
    But as I gazed, they ever disappeared.

    Along the walls, twelve gates of pearl were seen,
    So great their breadth, and high their jewelled arch,
    That Earth could almost trundle in untouched,
    And in each arch was fixed a giant bell
    Of silver, with a golden tongue that hung,
    A pendant sun. So wide the silver lips,
    That Chimularee plucked up by the roots,
    And as a clapper swung within its circ,
    Would tinkle, like a pebble, noiselessly
    Against the rigid side. And as the saved
    Were brought in teeming host, by Angel bands,
    Before the gates, the bells began their swing;
    And to and fro the ponderous tongue was hurled,
    Till through the portals marched the shouting throng,
    And then it fell against the bounding side.
    And loud and long their booming thunder
    Rends the golden air asunder,
    While the ransomed, passing under,
      Fall in praise beneath the bells,
      Whose mighty throbbing welcome tells;
    And the Angels hush their harps in wonder--
      Bells of Heaven, glory booming bells!

    Gentler now, the silver’s shiver
    Purls the rippling waves that quiver
    Through the ether’s tide forever,
      Mellow as they left the bells,
      Whose softening vibrate welcome tells;
    And the quavers play adown the river--
      Bells of Heaven, softly sobbing bells!

    Then the dreamy cadence dying,
    Sings as soft as zephyrs sighing;
    Faintest echoes cease replying
      To the murmur of the bells,
      Whose stilling tremor welcome tells,
    Faintly as the snow-flakes falling, lying--
      Bells of Heaven, dreamy murmuring bells!

    And in and out those Gates of Pearl, there streamed
    A ceaseless throng of Angels, errand bound.
    From one came forth a band of choristers,
    With shining harps, and sweeping out through space,
    Their long white lines bent gracefully, they sang.
    Although so far away, that purest air
    Brought every note exquisite to my ear.
    ’Twas richly worth life’s toil, to catch one bar
    Of Heavenly melody. Oh! I would give
    My pitiful existence, once again
    To hear the strains that floated to me then,
    So full, so deep, so ravishingly sweet;
    Now gentle as a mother’s lullaby,
    They almost died away, then louder rose,
    And rolled their volumes through the boundless realms,
    That trembled with the diapason grand;
    Until eternal echoes caught the strain,
    And glory in the highest swelled sublime.

    Entranced, I lay with ’wildered half-closed eyes,
    Till from another gate, another host
    Marched forth, the armies of the living God.
    Beneath their thunder-tread all Heaven shook,
    And at their head the tall Archangel strode.
    How grandly terrible his mien! His face
    Lit with a soul that only kneels to Three;
    The lofty brows drawn slightly to a frown
    The eyes that beam with vast intelligence,
    The depths of distance piercing with their glance;
    The chiselled lips, compressed with stern resolve,
    Yet marked with lines and curves of tender love,
    That ever with a sigh Wrath’s vial broke
    Upon the doomed. His splendid form so tall,
    That as he paused a moment in the gate
    His dazzling crest just grazed the silver bell.
    He wore no arms nor armor, save a sword
    Without a sheath, that blazed as broad and bright
    As sunset bars that shear the zenith’s blue--
    A sword, that falling flatly on the host
    Of Xerxes, would have crushed them as we crush
    A swarm of ants. An edge-stroke on the Earth
    Would gash the rocky shell to caverned fire.
    Unfolding wings would shake a continent,
    He floated down the depths. Behind him came
    A million foll’wers, counterparts in all,
    Save presence of command.
                              I wondered not
    That one should breathe upon the Syrian might,
    And still the sleeping hearts, four thousand score.

    And from Creation’s little corner came
    The Guardian Angels, bearing in their arms
    Their charges during life. As laden bees,
    They flew to Heaven’s hive; and some passed by
    So closely I their burdens could discern;
    And though they came from far-off, unseen Earth,
    The stiffened forms were borne all tenderly.
    Some bore the dimpled babe, with soft-closed eyes,
    As if upon its mother’s breast; its hands,
    Unhardened yet by toil of life, its face
    Unfurrowed yet by care’s sharp plough; and some
    The age-bent form, with ghostly silvered hair,
    And features gaunt in death, that would have seemed
    A hideous sight, in any light but Heaven’s;
    Some bore the rich, who made of Mammon friends,
    Who wore the purple with a stainless soul;
    Some bore the poor, who mastered poverty,
    And broke the ashen crust beneath God’s smile;
    Their work-worn hands now folded peacefully,
    And passing towards the harp, the weary feet,
    So often blistered in life’s bitter dust,
    To tread with kings the golden streets of Heaven;
    And some the maiden form bore lovingly,
    So fair, they seemed twin sisters.
                                       And I saw,
    That, passing through the amber air, they caught
    Its glowing dust upon them, and were changed,
    The livid to the radiant. Then as they
    Approached the City, all the walls were thronged,
    And all the harps were throbbing to be swept.
    And mid the throng there moved a dazzling Form,
    The jewels of whose crown were shaped like thorns.
    He stood to welcome, and the gates unclosed,
    And passing through them, all the death sealed eyes
    Were opened, and they lived!
                                 And then I knew
    What happiness could mean. To leave the Earth,
    With all its torturing pains and ills of flesh;
    The lingering, long disease, the wasted frame,
    And, e’en in health, the constant dread of death,
    That like the sword of Damocles impends,
    And none may tell its fall.
                                And worse than flesh,
    The tortures of the mind in fetters bound;
    Its chafings at its puling impotence,
    Its longing after things beyond its reach,
    Its craving after knowledge never given,
    Its constant discontent with present time,
    Its looking towards a future, that but breaks
    To light alone in distance, never near;
    Its maddening retrospect o’er wasted life,
    And loss of golden opportunities;
    Its consciousness of merit none admit,
    Its sense of gross injustice from the world;
    The forced reflections on the sway of self,
    And consequent contempt for all mankind,
    Or shameful servitude to their regard;
    The poisoned thorns, that skirt the “Narrow Way”;
    The sneering laugh, the tongue of calumny,
    The envious spites and hates ’tween man and man,
    The doubts that swarm with thought about our soul,
    That whispers all our labor here is vain,
    That death is but extinction, Heaven a myth!

    To leave all these, and find a perfect life,
    To know that Heaven is sure eternally,
    That sickness ne’er again will waste our frame,
    That death shall never come again. The mind
    In perfect peace and happiness; the hidden
    Spread out before its ken; a sweet content
    Pervading every thought, because “just now”
    Yields happiness as great as future years;
    Because Life’s highest end is now attained.
    The consciousness of merit, with reward
    Surpassing far all we deserved. A Home
    Of perfect peace, no envious spite or hate
    Within its sacred walls, but all pure love
    Towards our fellows, gratitude to God,
    A gratitude that all Eternal life
    Will not suffice to prove. ’Twere joy enough
    To lie before the Throne, and ever cry
    Our thanks for mercy so supreme! And oh!
    The vast tranquillity of those who feel
    That life on Earth is ended, Heaven gained!
    The Angel marked my gaze of rapt delight,
    And said, “Wouldst thou go nearer?” Swift as light
    We moved towards the City. On the steps,
    In dreamy ecstasy, I lay, afraid to move,
    Lest all the panorama should dissolve.
    I cared not that I was unfit to go,
    I cared not that I must return to Earth;
    I felt one moment in the Golden walls
    Was worth a dungeon’s chains “threescore and ten.”
    The glory of its music, and its light,
    Grew too intense, and sense forsook my brain.

    Again my eyes unclosed, and ’mid the stars,
    Familiar faces of the telescope,
    We sped, while on the last confines of space,
    The City lay with golden halo girt.
    The systems passed, we neared old homelike Earth;
    And far enough to take a hemisphere
    At single glance, we paused. The little globe
    Was puffing on, like Kepler’s idea-beast,
    With breath like tides, and echo sounds of life;
    Thus trundling on its journey round the sun
    While o’er its back swarmed men the parasites.
    As rustic lad, who visits some great town,
    Returns ashamed of humble country home,
    So I now blushed to own the world I’d thought
    Was once so great.
                       The Angel pointed down,
    And said, “Behold the vast domains of Earth!
    Behold the wondrous works of man, that calls
    Himself the measure of the Universe!
    Those gleaming threads are rivers, and the pools
    His boundless oceans. Those slow-gliding dots
    The gallant ships, in which he braves the storms
    The largest white one, see, is laboring now
    Beneath a cloud, your hand from here might span;
    What tiny tossings, like a jasmine’s bloom
    That drifts along the ripples of a brook!
    Now on the wave, now ’neath it, now ’tis gone;
    The pool hath gulfed it like a flake of snow.
    See, there are railroad lines, what works of art!
    Thou canst not see the blackened threadlike tracks,
    But thou mayst see the thundering train, that creeps
    Across the landscape like a score of ants
    Well laden, tandem, crawl across the floor.
    ’Twill take a day to reach yon smoky patch
    Of pebbles! ’Tis a great metropolis!
    Where Man is proud in power and lasting strength;
    Where Art hath budded into perfect bloom,
    Where towering domes defy the touch of Time,
    And rock-ribbed structures reck not of his scythe
    On every side, proclaimed Creation’s lord,
    Poor flattered Man the title proudly takes--
    One little gap of Earth, and not a spire
    Would lift its gilded vane; the very dust
    Would never rise above the chasm’s mouth.
    And mark yon crowd outside the city’s bounds,
    They hail Man’s triumph over Nature’s laws;
    He conquers gravity, and dares to fly!
    The speck-like globe slow rises in the air,
    While all the throng below shout, “God-like Man!”
    How pitiful! The flag-decked car but drags
    Its way, a finger’s breadth above their heads,
    And falls, a few leagues off, into the sea;
    When ships must rescue Man, the king of air!
    “He soon will touch the stars,” enthusiasts cry;
    His highest flights ne’er reach the mountain-top,
    That lifts its mole-hill head above the plain.

    What different views above and underneath!
    From one, the silken pear cleaves through the cloud,
    And floats, beyond your vision, in the blue,
    And franchised Man no longer wears Earth’s chain;
    The other sees him drifting o’er the ground,
    Beneath the level of the hills around,
    The captive still of watchful gravity.

    Upon yon strip of land, two insect swarms
    Are drawn up, front to front, in serried lines;
    These are the armies, ’neath whose trampling tread
    The very Earth doth tremble, now they join
    In dreadful conflict. From the battling ranks
    Leap tiny bits of flame, and puffs of smoke,
    Where thundering cannon belch their carnage forth;
    The heated missile cleaves its sparkling way,
    The screaming shell its smoke-traced curve; the sword
    Gleams redly with the varnish of its blood,
    The bayonets like ripples on a lake.
    How palsied every arm, how still each heart!
    If one discharge of Heaven’s artillery roared
    Above their heads--not that faint mutter thou
    Perchance hast heard from some electric cloud,
    But when a meteor curves immensity,
    And bursts in glittering fragments that would dash
    Thy world an atom from their path. But God
    Hath thrown the blanket of His atmosphere
    Around the Earth, and shield, it from the jar
    Of pealing salvos, that reverberate
    Through Heaven’s illimitable dome.
                                       Yet thou,
    The meanest of thy race of worms, hast dared
    To question God’s designs. Know then that He
    Ordains that all, His glory shall work out.
    The coral architect beneath the wave
    Doth magnify Him, as the burning sun
    That lights a thousand worlds. His power directs
    The mechanism of a Universe,
    Whose vastness thou hast been allowed to see,
    And yet the mottled sparrow in the hedge
    Falls not without His notice. Magnitude
    Is not the seal of power, though man thinks so;
    The least brown feather of the sparrow’s wing,
    In adaptation to its end displays
    God’s wisdom, as the ocean. Harmony
    Is Heaven’s watchword, key to all designs.
    A tendency towards perfection’s end
    Pervades Creation; to this perfect end,
    The polity Divine is leading Earth.
    Endowed with reason, Man, perforce, is free;
    And God, forseeing how he’ll freely act,
    Adjusts all circumstance accordingly.
    The order of this sequence, Man doth learn
    In part; adapts himself to these fixed laws;
    And thus is formed a general harmony.
    Although the individual may oppose,
    His forseen freedom, acting in a net
    Of circumstance, secures the wished-for end.
    The bloodiest wars are sources of great good,
    Invasive floods rouse national energies,
    Or, mingling, form a greater people still;
    Hume’s skepticism foils its own design,
    And rouses lusty champions of the Truth,
    Who build its walls far stronger than before.
    Poor sordid Man! like all your gold-slave race,
    You deem wealth happiness. Hence, all your doubts
    About God’s providence are based on gold.
    The wicked have it, and the righteous not.
    What you assert is oftenest reversed,
    And in a census of the world, you’d find
    The good, in every land, the wealthiest.
    But Earth is not the bar where Man is judged;
    But only where free-will and circumstance
    May join in general progress. Gold is good!
    Then good depends on use of circumstance,
    And not on moral merit. Well ’tis so!
    For were the righteous only blessed, all men
    Would righteousness pursue, from sordid aims,--
    The most devout, who love their money best;
    And thus good actions’ essence would be lost,
    That they be done for good, within itself,
    And not for benefit to be conferred.

    Then for your doubts about the righteous poor;
    A certain law is fixed for general good,--
    Some actions yield a gain and some a loss.
    A wicked man may use the first, and gain,
    A righteous man may use the last, and lose;
    The wicked does not gain by wickedness,
    But by compliance with this natural law.
    The righteous, still as righteous, might have gained
    By different course of conduct, had he known;
    But his condition now, can but be changed
    By special miracle; but miracles,
    In favor of the righteous, would destroy
    All strife for good as good.
    Their compensation in another world;
                                         The poor may find
    And even here, in consciousness of right,
    In surety of Heav’n, and peace of mind.
    And in the case you’ve stated, like all those
    Who talk as you have done, you overdraw,
    And color more with Fancy than with Truth.
    You’ll find no widow, perfect in her trust,
    As you’ve described, who is so destitute.
    Go search the lanes and alleys; where you find
    The greatest squalor, there is greatest crime;
    For poverty is oftenest but a name
    For reckless vice, and vile depravity.
    Your case is but exception to the rule,
    And not the rule, of Providence. To give
    The righteous, only, wealth and worldly store
    Would take away Man’s freedom, and all good.

    But I will answer in your folly’s mode.
    The justice, then, of Nature’s laws you doubt,
    Forgetting they are fixed for general good,
    And not for individual. These laws,
    In their effects, you praise as very good;
    Yet, in their causes, call the most unjust.
    The fertile fields, with grain for man’s support,
    Are nourished by a miasmatic air,
    That, sickening but a few, feeds all the world.
    While, were the air all pure, a few were well,
    And millions starving. In the tropics, too,
    The scenes you deprecate, themselves but cause
    The very beauties you admire. Unjust,
    You would enjoy effects without a cause.
    The goods of Nature often take their rise
    From what to man proves evil. For the goods,
    He makes his mind to meet the evils; then
    Can he complain, or think it hard to bear?
    But Nature’s dealings towards Man are just.
    He knows that he is free, and Nature not;
    If he opposes Nature’s laws and falls,
    Is Nature to be blamed? The widow’s cot
    Is frail; the laws of general good require
    A storm; it comes, and shattered falls the cot.
    Should God have saved it by a miracle,
    Then all His people could demand the same,
    And Earth would soon become the bar of God,
    God may exert a special providence,
    But Man may not detect it, as the rule
    Invariable of life, and still be free;
    For he were thus compelled to seek the good.
    Then Nature, over Man, holds not a tyranny,
    But keeps the perfect pandect of her laws,
    And Man is free to obey them, or oppose.

    Like shallow-thoughted reasoners of Earth,
    You make assertions without slightest proof,
    Or faintest shade of truth. Your thesis, this:
    God marks with disapproval all the good,
    And blesses all the evil with His smile.
    Entirely false in every case! The good
    Are ever happiest, in peace of mind,
    In ease of conscience, and the hope of Heaven.
    The wicked may be even rich, but wealth
    And happiness are far from synonyms.
    Is happiness the child of circumstance,
    Or is it not the offspring of the mind?
    And if the mind be tranquil and serene,
    Does happiness not follow everywhere?
    The cause of doubt in you, and many more,
    Is that the thousands who profess the good,
    Are ever mourning their unhappy lot,
    And sighing o’er the gloomy, narrow way;
    The tribulation of the promise read,
    Without its good cheer context. These are they
    Who stamp with misery’s blackest seal, a life
    Of righteousness. By these you cannot judge,
    For they are not what they profess, and would
    Be miserable in Heaven, unless changed.
    But take the truly good, one who’s content
    To take whate’er befalls, submissively;
    Who feels assured that all works for the best;
    Take him, in all conditions, rich or poor,
    In sickness or in health, in pain or ease;
    Compare your happy wicked, with his gold,
    ’Twill not require a moment to decide
    Which one is happier!
                          Again, you ask
    Why Man was not created happy, and kept so?
    His very freedom and intelligence
    Prevents a forcèd happiness. The ends
    Of all Creation would be marred, and Man
    Lose personality. A happiness
    Made universal, asks morality
    That’s universally compelled; and lost
    Is all the scheme of virtue and reward.
    Man, forced to action would degenerate
    Into a listless, lifeless thing; the world
    Lose all its fine machinery of thought
    Combined with action. Beautiful variety
    Could not exist, dull sameness would be life.
    But Man is placed, with free intelligence,
    Amid surroundings from which he may cull
    A happiness intense, whate’er their nature be.
    If bright, the consciousness they are deserved;
    If gloomy, sweet reflections that they drape
    A future all the brighter for their gloom.

    But Man, within himself, your puzzle proves;
    And not to you alone, for Angel wings
    Have hovered o’er your globe, and Angel minds
    Peered curiously into his soul, to learn
    Its mysteries, in vain. The Mind Supreme
    That formed the soul, alone can understand
    Its wondrous depths. ’Tis not surprising then
    That Man has tried in vain to know himself.
    His mind, compared with his body, seems so great,
    He deems its power unlimited. He finds
    It weak, before the barriers of thought,
    That gird it, mountain high, on every side.
    No path can he pursue that’s infinite.
    And few exist, that do not thither lead.
    Hence all the vagaries that have obtained
    Among your race. The doubt of everything,
    Is only too far tracing of a thought
    Into absurdity intense. If you
    Deem all the world effect upon yourself,
    A principle of fairness would demand
    That you accord the right to other men.
    The question then arises, who is he
    That really does exist, and all the rest
    His ideas? Sure your neighbor has the right
    To claim the honor, just as well as you!
    Hume’s foolish thought, extended to its length,
    Will answer not a single end of life,
    And terminates in nonsense none believe.

    The conflict of the mental powers defeats
    Your inquiries. You cannot reconcile
    The unruled circumstance, with Man’s free-will
    You deem the motive free, and Man its slave;
    As if the motive, unintelligent,
    Could have a freedom, or a slavery!
    You make the motive to exist within the mind,
    When it, perforce, must be without. You get
    The unruled motive from the circumstance,
    When this itself must act upon the mind,
    And if _free_ motives rise within the mind,
    They are a _part_, and therefore _mind_ is free.
    And what you deemed a motive to the mind,
    Was mental action, and its modes of thought.
    The motive is confined to circumstance,
    And mind the circumstance can oft control,
    And even when it cannot, acts at will.

    The mind may to a kingdom be compared,
    Where Reason occupies the throne. Beneath
    Its scepter bow, in perfect vassalage,
    The faculties, desires, and appetites.
    These then are acted on by motive powers,
    And straight report the action to their king,
    Who does impartially decide for each.
    The unruled motive is without the mind,
    And forms no part of it, although the parts,
    Receiving motive action, so are called.
    Thus when you hunger, the desire of food,
    Confined to mind, is not a motive power;
    But urged by motive bodily demand,
    It tells the need to Reason, who decides.
    Thus when you pare your peach, the tempting fruit
    And fleshly need, move on the appetite,
    Who begs the Reason for consent to eat;
    Your friend’s opinion of your self-control,
    Is motive to Desire of esteem,
    Who begs the Reason to refuse consent.
    The Reason, then, like righteous judge, decrees
    In favor of that one, more strongly shown;
    And feels a perfect freedom in its choice.

    ’Tis most unfair to wait the action’s end,
    Then cry, the mind was forced to choose this act;
    But choice is Reason’s free decree. Sometimes
    The Reason errs, and evil then ensues;
    But Reason, now more conscious that ’tis free,
    Regrets it had not acted otherwise.
    By knowing what your reason deems the best,
    You judge how other men will act. You learn,
    By intercourse, what they permit to change
    The Reason’s sentence. So, while with a friend,
    You show your wealth, because you know he’s free,
    And can, and will, resist impulse to crime.
    Were he not free, you’d dare not go alone
    With him, for, any moment, might arise
    A motive irresistible, and he
    Would kill and rob, because that motive’s slave.
    Were he not free, you were no more secure,
    In pleasant parlance, than on desert isle.

    The laws are made for man, alone, as free.
    For, otherwise, the motives they present
    Were blind attempts so coincide with Fate.
    They would complete the gross absurdity,
    Of Man collective governing himself,
    And therefore free, while individuals
    Are helpless slaves of motives they but aid
    To furnish.
                Fate, as held in fullest form,
    Yourself has proved the theory of fools;
    For were it true, a blind passivity
    Were Man’s perfection on the Earth. Compare
    The two; Free-will as held, whate’er their faith,
    By every one, in daily practices;
    A world of harmony, for very wars
    Yield good; a mechanism complicate,
    That even Angels, wondering at, admire;
    A world, whose wondrous progress is maintained
    By practical belief in liberty.
    And on the other hand, behold a world
    Of universal inactivity!
    Its millions starving for delinquent Fate;--
    I doubt your faith would last till dinner-time,
    A morning’s lapse would change a hungry globe
    To firm belief in free-will work for food.

    With many, God’s foreknowledge binds free-will;
    He knows the future, how each man will act,
    And man can never change from what God knows.
    They reason thus, that prescience is decree,
    And what God knows will happen, must take place.
    That God may know the future of _free_-will
    I prove by this. Suppose two worlds alike,
    And governed by two Gods. Each one can see,
    And foresee all transpires in both the worlds,
    Yet each o’er th’ other’s world exerts no power.
    A man in one does wrong; the other God
    May have foreseen the action for an age,
    Yet had not slightest power to cause or stop.
    Does his foreknowledge qualify the act?
    If thus you can suppose, why not believe,
    When errors flow from opposite belief?
    God in the future stands, and waits for man,
    Who works the present, only gift of Time.
    There is no future save in God’s own mind.
    Man’s future means continued present time;
    God’s future is but present time to Him,
    In which He lives, not will live when it comes.
    Man’s acts He sees as done, not to be done.
    And God compels not more than Man does Man,
    Who sees his fellow’s deeds, not causes them.
    Man only knows Man’s present acts; but God
    The future sees, as present to His mind.

    To end with perfect proof, you know you’re free.
    This all the world attests, and each believes.
    How subtle soe’er may his reasoning be,
    He contradicts it throughout all his life;
    And all his plans, and all the right and wrong
    Of self and friends he bases on free-will.
    If disbelief no inconvenience prove,
    Few men believe what is not understood;
    And yet the most familiar things of life
    Are far beyond their comprehensions’ power.
    Who understands the turning of the food
    To sinew, muscle, blood, and bone? yet who
    Will starve because he knows not how ’tis done?
    Who understands the mystery of birth,
    And when and where the soul originates?
    And yet a million mothers bend, to-day,
    O’er tender babes, and know that they exist;
    A billion people know they once were born.
    Who understands the mystery of death,
    And how the soul is severed from its clay?
    Yet who has not wept o’er departed ones,
    Received the dying clasp, the dying look,
    And known, full well, Death’s bitter, bitter truth?
    None comprehends the movement of a limb,
    Yet many boast the powers of their’s might.
    Then why doubt freedom of the will, when life,
    In every phase, but proves its certain truth?
    The edifice of shallow theorists
    Before the sweeping blade of practice falls.

    Your dive into the heart yields folly’s fruit;
    The selfish theory, carried to its end,
    Makes wrong of right, and overturns the world.
    And strong it is in seeming; for the self,
    In human conduct, plays important part.
    But ’tis not action’s only source, nor dims
    The quality of every action’s worth.
    ’Tis true that Man exists in self alone,
    And in himself feels pain or pleasure. True,
    An instinct teaches to avoid the one,
    And seek the other; true, that every act,
    How small soe’er, gives pleasure or gives pain.
    Yet thousand deeds are done without regard
    To one or other, or effect on Self.
    Howe’er an action may affect the Self,
    If he that acts has not a thought of it,
    The action is not selfish. You appeal
    To Man, and so will I appeal to you.
    You find a helpless brute, with broken limb,
    Upon the roadside, moaning out its pain.
    Now, though to aid will surely pleasure give,
    And to neglect will cause remorseful pain,
    Is there a single thought of this, when you,
    With kindest hand, bind up the swollen bruise,
    And hold the grateful water to its mouth?
    Is not each thought to ease the sufferer’s pain?
    Is not the Self first found, when on your way
    You go, with lighter heart, for kindness done?
    And while you think with pleasure on the deed,
    Would you not feel despised in your own eyes,
    If consciousness revealed ’twas done for Self?
    But should you say that Self was thus concealed,
    And still evoked the deed, the argument
    The same; if Self was out of thought, the deed
    Had other source.
                      In all, you thus mistake
    The deed’s effect, unthought of, for its source.
    God, in His wisdom, hath affixed to good
    Performed, a pleasure, and to evil, pain.
    But selfish actions are not good, you’ve said,
    And therefore cannot slightest pleasure yield.
    Here, then, your system contradicts itself;
    All actions emanate from love of Self,
    To find the highest pleasure for that Self;
    And yet the pleasure’s lost by very search;
    What good soe’er apparently is sought,
    The consciousness of selfish aims destroys.
    And here is wisdom manifest. When Self
    Would seek the good, for pleasure to the Self,
    The pleasure is not found; but when it seeks
    The good alone, true pleasure is conferred.
    I mean the Self of soul, not Self of flesh;
    For pleasure to the sense, to be attained
    Is sought; these two are mingled intricate
    (And hard to separate), in thousand ways.
    But when Man’s higher Self would seek its good,
    It must forget the Self. In every case
    You instanced, Self of soul must be unthought,
    For pleasure will not come at call of Self.
    Your gambler none will doubt has selfish ends;
    Not so the preacher, for his pleasure sought,
    Would ne’er be found; it must be out of thought.
    His burning eloquence, his pastoral care,
    Can not proceed from any love of Self,
    For Self would suffer, when it knew their source;
    But as he acts from love of good as good,
    The Self is happy. When he ascertains
    That some have died in sin through his neglect,
    The Self is grieved, not that it was uncared,
    For care of Self would not allay the pain,
    But that a duty had not been performed;
    That good had been neglected, as a good.
    The gambler’s object may be highest good
    For Self, according to his estimate;
    The preacher seeks a good, but not for Self;
    When Self appears, the good to evil turns.
    Nor is the mystic selfish in his cave,
    Save that he buries talents in himself,
    That might avail for good to other men;
    But all his mind is bent on pleasing God,
    His only thought of Self is for its pain;
    And this he deems acceptable to Heaven.
    You can not judge by your analysis,
    But by what passes in the actor’s mind.
    One surely then could not be selfish termed,
    Who only lived to mortify the Self,
    Howe’er mistaken may his conduct be.
    Nor is the man, who gives his wealth away,
    If from right principles he gives. ’Tis true,
    He finds a pleasure in the deed when done,
    But if to gain that pleasure he has given,
    It turns to gall and wormwood in his grasp.
    If two men matches light, and know full well,
    If one is dropped, a house will be consumed,
    He is the most guilty that allows its fall.
    The miser, then, who knows he does a wrong,
    Is by that knowledge rendered criminal.
    “The quality of actions must be judged”
    From their intents, that often differ wide;
    The man who shoots his friend by accident
    Has no intent, and therefore does no wrong;
    But he who murders does a score of wrongs,--
    A score of basest motives prompt the deed,
    All centred in the Self. The Christian’s work
    Must, from its very nature, have no Self,
    Or it becomes unchristian. Man can judge,
    Not from effect, but motives ascertained
    By inference, and experience. The law
    Is formed hereon, and modified by years.
    Time teaches men that punishment will stop,
    And only punishment, the spread of crime.
    Instinct and Nature’s order teaches you
    That pain must follow wrong. A man commits
    A crime; if left unpunished, he repeats;
    And others, seeing his security,
    Will do as he has done. So all mankind
    Would hasten on to lawlessness and ruin.
    But law, for real wrong inflicts a wrong,
    Which would be just did it no farther go;
    But it is proved expedient, inasmuch
    As it prevents continued crime. Then death
    By law can not be murder termed, since good
    In aim and end, without malicious thought.
    Thus good to many flows from wrong to one
    (If that may wrong be termed that takes the rights
    By conduct forfeited), who should receive,
    Though none reaped benefit. For many’s good,
    The law is made, yet never does a wrong
    To individuals, unless deserved.

    Throughout your reas’ning, like all Earthly minds,
    When dataless, essaying hidden truths,
    You wander blindly in conjecture’s field,
    And if you find the truth, it is a chance.
    You fain would raise a stone of skepticism,
    By granting souls immortal unto beasts;
    You prove your pointer must possess a soul,
    And by your argument, the trees have souls;
    For when an oak has fallen, every twig
    May still be there, and something, life, be gone.
    A chair, a table, anything you see,
    Possesses something, not of any parts,
    But that to which the parts are said, belong,
    Then, one by one, take all the parts away,
    The something called the table must exist,
    For ’twas not in a part, nor is removed.

    The mind of beasts exists but through their flesh,
    And is developed subject to its laws,
    And flesh is the condition of their life.
    When flesh dissolves, the mind disintegrates,
    And ceases to exist. Man feels within,
    The consciousness of soul, that would survive
    Though flesh were torn to shreds upon the wheel.
    The parts of soul that live alone through flesh,
    Must perish with it in the hour of death.

    But having postulated Self, as source
    Of human conduct, you compel the acts
    To fit your theory. You change effect
    For cause. Where’er a moral pleasure’s found,
    You judge that for its gain the deed was done;
    As if the pleasure could be gained by search!
    That Self does enter largely into inner life
    Is very plain, for everything affects,
    In some way, Self; but does the mind regard
    Effect, or is its object something else?
    The appetites, affections, and desires,
    You make of selfish origin, yet know
    That is not selfish, which alone affects;
    But acting with a reference to effect.
    The appetites are instincts; as you breathe,
    You hunger, thirst, in helplessness. Not Self,
    But food or drink, the object of your thought.
    And even while the taste is in your mouth,
    The mind dwells on the taste, not on the Self.
    Desires are partly selfish in their mode;
    Desire of knowledge, seeking honor’s meed,
    Is selfish; led by curiosity,
    ’Tis not more selfish than an appetite.
    Desire of power, esteem, and wide-spread fame,
    Is selfish, when the thought of their effect
    On Self shapes out the conduct; when desired
    For their own sake, unselfish.
                                   On the list
    Affections terminate, you falsely rail
    The mother, and the lover; both sincere,
    And both without a thought of selfish aim.
    ’Tis no reproach to say the mother’s love,
    In fervid instinct, and development,
    Is like the cow’s, that God in wisdom gives.
    No love so pure as that which moves the cow
    To hover round her young, to bear the blows
    Impatient hunger deals the udder drained,
    To smooth with loving tongue the tender coat,
    Or meet the playful forehead with her own;
    With threatening horn, to guard approach of harm;
    And watch, with ceaseless care, the charge in sleep.
    Her careful love continues, till the calf
    Has grown beyond her need, and ceases then.
    A mother loves because it is her child:
    This is the surest reason you could give.
    Th’ affection is spontaneous in her breast,
    But fed and strengthened by his life, if good.
    The opposites to love you named, affect
    Her love, by not an injury done to Self,
    But by their evil, which her soul abhors.
    Her son’s antagonism’s not to her,
    But to the good she loves. Her heart withdraws
    Its twining tendrils from unworthiness.
    As usual, you select supposed effects,
    And then assume their causes. Could you see
    The mother’s heart, you’d find the loss of love
    Caused not by wrong to her, but wrong abstract
    Developed in the concrete deeds of crime.
    Her love is governed by a moral sense,
    Or idea of the good; the people’s thought
    About herself comes in as after-part.
    Bad treatment to herself, although it pain,
    Deals not a fatal blow to love, except
    As showing lack of principle in him.
    And so your lover is not hurt in Self,
    But moral sense. The loved one’s perfidy,
    And not her ridicule, beheads your love;
    Her stunning words were playful pleasantry,
    Did they not show the baseness of the heart.
    Indeed, to turn your reasoning on yourself,
    Her manner even towards you has not changed,
    And were you present, she would still seem yours;
    Her eaves-dropped words do not affect the Self,
    Save as they show her falsity of heart.
    And tossing on your pillow, through the night,
    The crushing thought of wrecked integrity
    Gives deeper pain than all her ridicule.
    And Self, though pained at thought of being duped,
    Enjoys relief in thought of its escape.
    To show that Love is built on higher grounds
    Than paltry good for Self; that it must have,
    As corner-stone, a percept of the good,
    Existing in the object loved, suppose
    You’re on the topmost height of wildest love,
    Your arm around her, and your lingering kiss
    Upon her lips; and Self is king of love.
    She, nestling on your shoulder, finds ’tis wrong,
    That love, however true, may grow too warm;
    That every kiss, however pure, abstracts
    Some little part from maiden modesty,
    And steals a pebble from her honor’s wall
    And rising with the firm resolve, says, “Cease,
    Unwind your arm, restrain your fervid lips;
    It may be wrong, and right is surely safe!”
    Now though the Self is bitterly denied,
    The rapturous clasp and tender kiss forbid,
    Is not your love increased a thousand-fold?
    Do not you feel intensely gratified
    At this assurance of her moral worth?
    And would you, for the world, breath aught to cause
    Her pain, or least regret for her resolve?
    How firm your trust, how sweet your confidence!
    You know ’twas not capricious prudery,
    For your caresses had been oft received;
    Nor was it sly hypocrisy to win
    Your heart, for that was long since hers. No thought,
    But spotless purity, inspired the act;
    And you are happy, though the Self’s denied.

    The little things of life, that men account
    Without a moral value, may be done
    With reference to Self; but oftenest,
    The mind regards the act, not its effect
    Upon the Self. The code of Etiquette,
    The small amenities of social life,
    The converse, and the articles of dress,
    May all belong to Self; but moral acts,
    Those known as right or wrong, have higher source
    Than Self in any mode.
                           Within Man’s breast
    There’s something, apprehending good and bad,
    Called conscience, or the moral sense; it views,
    Impartially, each act of his, decides
    Its quality by rule of right and wrong;
    All trust its judgments most implicitly.--
    The good is found, yields greatest happiness;
    Yet seek it for the sake of happiness,
    And good is evil, with its misery!
    The good must be pursued, because a good,
    The evil shunned, because an evil. Thus,
    The moral sense discerns these qualities
    In others, and directs our love.
                                     A blow
    The deadliest to our love, would be a blow
    Aimed at the principle of good. A love,
    Existing through the injuries done to Self,
    May meet the public’s praise, and feel its own;
    But love would merit self-contempt, that loved
    Whate’er opposed the good. The son may treat
    The mother with unkindness, yet her love
    Be undiminished; if he lie, or steal,
    Her love is less; she cannot love his deed,
    And cannot love the heart from which they flow
    So with the youth who gives his chair to Age,
    He does not so resent that Self’s denied
    Its meed of thanks, as that ingratitude
    Should thus be manifest, in little things.
    A comrade, served the same, would anger cause.

    But him who would give up the highest Self,
    The soul, for others’ good, you deem a fool;
    And ask why sacrifice ne’er claimed a soul?
    Because the soul cannot be sacrificed;
    No harm to that can others benefit.
    But if it could, how truly grand the man
    Who’d take eternal woe for fellow-men!
    But God, who makes the soul the care of life,
    Makes every soul stand for itself alone,
    And in His wisdom hath ordained this law:
    The greater good man gets for his own soul,
    The greater good on others’ he confers,
    While evil to himself, an evil gives.

    Then comes the question of this abstract good,
    That moral sense declares the end of life.
    What is its nature? whence does it arise?
    And whence does man derive the half-formed thought?
    You have compared the systems that define,
    Each in its way, the hidden theory.
    None satisfy, though each some element
    Sets forth in clear distinctness. Take them all,
    Select the true of each, as Cousin does,
    And will eclecticism satisfy?
    And does the soul not cry for something more?
    For something that it feels ’twill never reach,
    The good, as known to minds unclogged with flesh?
    Man takes the dim outlines of abstract thought,
    And seeking to evolve their perfect form,
    The very outlines grow more indistinct;
    As gazing at a star will make it fade.
    Man’s only forms of good are blent with flesh,
    And when he seeks to take the flesh away,
    And leave the abstract, he is thus confused,
    As if he should withdraw the wick and oil,
    And seek to find the flame still in the lamp.

    To learn the source of ideas of the Good,
    Trace Man collective, to his babyhood;
    For ’mid the prejudice of full-grown thought,
    The truth would be effectually concealed.
    Through every people scattered o’er the globe,
    There does prevail some idea of a God;
    Though rude and barbarous this idea be,
    It still, in some form, does exist. The good,
    With all, bears reference to this thought;
    And what this Deity approves is good,
    And what He disapproves is bad. Men learn
    What He approves, and what He disapproves,
    By revelation, inference, and instinct.
    God’s sanction then is origin of Good,
    Though afterwards men learn the sweet effects,
    And practise it for its own sake; and call
    Their little effort, grandest abstract truth.
    Developing in intellectual strength,
    They plaster up this good in various forms,
    Until, refined beyond all subtilty,
    It seems to them a self-existent good.

    The good is then a certain quality,
    In actions, or existence, that assures
    Divine approval. This vast idea, God,
    Creation sows in every human heart;
    All Nature’s grand designs demand a God,
    A God intelligent. The same instinct
    That tells His being, teaches what He loves;
    And what He loves with every people’s good.
    But different nations entertain ideas
    Diverse in reference to a Deity,
    And different notions of what pleases Him.
    One deems the care of God’s child-gift her good;
    Another tears the heart-strings from her babe,
    And feeds, for good, the sacred crocodile.

    The good lies in the thought of pleasing God:
    The consciousness that God is pleased with us,
    A pleasure yields, and good might there be sought
    For pleasure’s sake, and prove a selfish aim;
    But moral selfishness a pain imparts,
    And good, for pleasure sought, defeats the search.

    The good is sought, because it pleases God,
    Not with the doer, but with what is done.
    Good has its origin in th’ idea God,
    And what He loves; but to continue good
    It must retain approval in the act,
    And not transfer it to the agent’s self.
    The consciousness that God approves a deed,
    Makes Man approve, and thus his mind is brought
    In correlation with the Mind Divine.
    The man who does an alms, if done to gain
    God’s favor for himself, feels selfish pain;
    But if because the act, not he, will please,
    He finds the pleasure. Man, as time rolls on,
    Finds general laws that please or displease God,
    And ranging, under these, subordinates
    Amenable to them and not to God,
    The moral quality of lesser deeds
    He reckons by these laws, nor does ascend
    To God, that gives their moral quality.
    Jouffroy, in Order, placed the Abstract Good,
    And paused a step below the real truth,
    The idea God, whence Order emanates.

    Thus Man, progressing, good withdraws from God
    And seems an independent entity,
    And man denominates it, Abstract Good.
    He can attain the Abstract but in part;
    When mind is freed from flesh, he may attain
    To its full grandeur. Here, at most, he grasps
    A faint outline, and fits it on concrete.
    No concept occupies one act of mind,
    But opening the lettered label, he
    May count the attributes, and by an act
    Complex, of memory and cognition, gain
    Some idea of his Abstract. Thus of “Man,”
    One act can only cognize M-A-N,
    But opening, he finds the attributes,
    As “mammal,” “biped,” “vertebrate.” This act
    Is complex, and he cannot unitize,
    Save by the bundle of a word. You’ve said
    It answers all the purposes of life,
    Then why seek more? lest speculation vain
    Point out dim realms, where Man can never tread,
    These baffling thoughts are given, as peacocks’ feet,
    To Man’s fond pride. The simplest avenue
    Of thought, pursued, will reach absurdity,
    To comprehension finite.
                             Even the truth
    Of numbers you presume to doubt. Two balls,
    You claim, can ne’er be two unless alike.
    You mingle quantity and number, foolishly,
    As if a ball the size of Earth, and one,
    A tiny mustard-seed, would not be two!
    You deem all Mathematics wide at fault,
    Because Man’s powers to illustrate are weak.
    Earth has oft seen a pure right angle drawn,
    Because Man’s sight could not detect a flaw;
    And if to his discernment perfect made,
    He must admit its perfect form. If life,
    In every intricate demand, finds truth,
    Why seek to overturn by sophistry?
    You see and know Achilles far beyond
    The tortoise, yet the super-wise must prove
    That he can never pass the creeping thing,
    Although his speed a hundred times as swift!
    When Man commences, he may find a doubt
    In everything; his life, his neighbor’s life,
    The outside world, may all be but a myth;
    Then let him so believe, but let him act
    Consistently; but does the skeptic so?
    He crams all Nature in his little mind,
    Yet how he cringes to her slightest law!
    He flees the rain, and wards the cold, or fears
    The lightning’s glittering blow. He doubts his frame
    Can work by mechanism so absurd,
    Yet will not for a day refrain from food!

    When Man compares his body and his mind,
    And tries the power of each, he magnifies
    The mind to Deity, and yet how small
    Compared with what it has to learn! The more
    Man knows, the more he finds he does not know;
    And as a traveller toiling up the hill,
    Each upward step reveals a wider view
    Of fields of thought sublime he dares not hope
    To ever reach in life; and wearily he sits
    Him down upon the mountain-side, so far
    Beneath its untrod top, and recklessly
    Doubts everything, because beyond his grasp.

    All skeptic reasoning ends, as did your own,
    No fruit but blind bewilderment of thought!
    And none but fools will e’er believe sincere
    The faith that doubts alone by theory,
    And yet approves by practice. Such is yours;
    The stern necessities of life demand
    A practical belief, and such is given;
    And still, forsooth, because your narrow mind
    Cannot contain the Truth in perfect form,
    You dare deny it does exist. But few
    Of skeptic minds are let to live on Earth,
    And even these made instruments of good,
    In calling forth defenders of the Truth,
    Who add their strength to its Eternal Walls.
    Then here behold God’s wisdom manifest!
    Amid the care of countless greater orbs,
    He watches Earth, and knows its smallest thing.
    While Man, as individual, is free,
    Collective Man is being surely led
    Towards an end, but when it will be reached,
    God knows alone. Then Man will be removed
    Into a higher or a lower sphere,
    As he has worthy proved. With Man ’twill be
    A great event; his awful Judgment-day!
    When from those far-off realms, the Son shall come
    With Angel retinue, and through the worlds,
    Shall lead their solemn flight, to where we stand;
    And as the trump shall peal its clarion tones,
    And beat away Earth’s gauze of atmosphere,
    The millions living, and the billions dead,
    Will leave the sod, and “caught up in the air,”
    Shall stand before the Throne, to hear their doom.
    Then, faces pale with fear, and trembling limbs,
    Will be on every side, as on the air
    They rest, with nothing solid ’neath their feet;
    And see dismantled Earth burst into flames,
    And reel along its track, a globe of fire,
    The volumed smoke, a dusky envelope;
    Its revolutions wrapping pliant flames,
    In scarlet girdles, round its bulging waist,
    And hurling streams of centrifugal sparks,
    In broad red tangents, from the burning orb.
    Upon the conflagration Man will gaze,
    With shuddering horror; ’tis his only home,
    The scene of all his fame, the source of wealth,
    For which he toiled so wearily. All gone!
    He would not touch a mountain of pure gold,
    For ’twould be useless now! Poor, pauper Man,
    Without his money, chiefest aim of life,
    Stands homeless ’mid a Universe, to learn
    If God will be his Father, or his Foe!
    And from the blackness underneath, the swarms
    Of Evil ones are thronged, their hideous forms
    Half shown in lurid light, as here and there
    They flit, like sharks, expectant of their prey.
    Then comes the closing scene. The sentence passed,
    The righteous breaking forth to joyous praise,
    Shall thread Creation’s wondrous maze of life,
    And with their Leader, sweep towards yon Heaven;
    While down the black abyss, with cries of woe
    That make the darkness tremble, the condemned
    Are dragged, into its gloom,--and all is o’er--
    Earth’s ashes float in scattered clouds through space--
    To Man the grandest era of all Time,
    To God, completion of Salvation’s scheme!

    But Man deems Judgment too far off for thought,
    Nor will prepare for such a distant fate;
    Yet there is something, far more sure than aught
    Uncertain life can offer; its decision, too,
    Is just as final as the Judgment doom;
    And still ’tis oftenest farthest from the thought.
    ’Tis Death, the welcome or unwelcome guest
    Of every man, and yet how few prepare
    For its approach! They give all else a care;
    Wealth, honor, fame, get all their time,
    While certain Death’s forgotten, till disease
    Gives warning; then with hasty penitence,
    The knees are worn, the heart’s thick rubbish cleared;
    But oft too late; the heart will not be cleared,
    The stubborn knees will not consent to bend,
    The house is set in order, while the guest,
    In sable robes, stands at the throbbing door.

    And now to close thy lesson, look through this!
    He gave to me a strangely fashioned glass,
    Through which, when I had looked to Earth, I saw
    A long black wall, that towered immensely high,
    So none might see beyond. Before its length,
    Mankind were ranged, all weaving busily;
    The young and old, the maiden and the man;
    The infant hands unconscious plied the thread,
    The aged with a feeble, listless move.
    They wove the warp of Life, and drew its thread
    From o’er the wall; none knew how far its end
    Was off, nor when ’twould reach the busy hand,
    Nor did they care, in aught by action shown,
    But bending o’er their work, without a glance
    Towards the thread, that still so smoothly ran,
    They threw the shuttle back and forth again,
    Till suddenly the ravelled end appeared,
    Fell from the wall, and to the shuttle crept;
    And then the weaver laid his work aside,
    With folded hands, was wrapped within his warp,
    To wait the Master’s sentence on his task.
    I saw the thread, in passing through their hands,
    Received the various colors, from their touch,
    And tinged the different patterns that they wove.
    And oh! how different in design! Some wove
    A spotless fabric, whose pure simple plan
    Was always ready for the ending thread;
    Come when it would, no part was incomplete;
    But what was done, could bear th’ Inspector’s eye.
    And others wove a dark and dingy rag,
    That bore no pattern, save its filthiness;
    Fit garment for the fool who weaves for flames!
    Some wove the great red woof of war,
    With clashing swords, and crossing bayonets,
    With ghastly bones, and famished widows’ homes,
    With all the grim machinery of Death,
    To gain a paltry crown, or curule chair;
    Perchance, before the crown or chair is reached,
    The thread gives out, the work is incomplete,
    And in the gory cloak his hands have wrought,
    With all its stains unwashed, the hero sleeps.
    Some shuttles shape the gilded temple, Fame,
    And count on thread to weave its topmost dome;
    But ere the lowest pinnacle is touched,
    The brittle filament is snapped. Some weave
    The bema, with its loud applause; and some
    The gaudy chaplet of the bacchanal,
    And others sweated bays of honest toil.
    But all the fabrics bear the yellow stain
    Of gold, o’er which the sinner and the saint
    Unseemly strive, and he seems happiest
    Whose work is yellowest.
                             Along the wall,
    “A fountain filled with blood,” plays constantly,
    Where man may cleanse the fabric as he weaves;
    Yet few avail themselves; the waters flow,
    While Man works on, without regard to stains,
    Till thread worn thin arouses him to fear,
    Or breaks before the damning dyes are cleansed.

    And down the line I ran my anxious eyes,
    To find a weaver I might recognize,
    And saw, at last, a form by mirrors known.
    Oh! ’twas a shameful texture that I wove,
    So dark its hue, so little saving white,
    Such seldom bathing in the fountain stream,
    I could not look, but bowed my blushing face,
    And like the publican of old, cried out,
    “Be merciful to me a sinner!”
                                  “Rise!”
    The Angel said, “And worship God alone,
    Return to Earth, enjoy an humble faith,
    Whose simple trust shall make thee happier
    Than all the grandeur of philosophy.
    Should doubts arise, remember, God’s designs
    Above a finite comprehension stand,
    And finite doubts, about the Infinite,
    Assume absurdity’s intensest form.
    Man, from the stand-point of the Present, looks,
    And disappointed, bitterly complains
    Of what would move his deepest gratitude,
    Could he the issue of the morrow know.
    God sees the future, and in kindness deals
    To every man his complement of good.
      Remember then the weakness of thy mind,
    Nor doubt because thou canst not understand.
      To gather scattered jewels thou must kneel;
    So on thy knees seek truth, and thou shalt find;
    The nearer Earth thy face, the nearer Heaven
    Thy heart. And now farewell!”
                                  I sprang to clasp
    His hand in gratitude, but with a wave
    Of parting benediction, he was gone!
    Then in an instant, like an aerolite,
    With naught to bear me up, I fell to Earth,
    Swifter and swifter, with increasing speed!
    Now bursting through a sunlit bank of cloud,
    And clutching, vainly, at the yielding mist,
    Or through a cradling storm, with thunder charged,
    Down through the open air, whose parted breath
    Hissed death into my ears, while all below
    Seemed rushing up to meet and mangle me.
    I shrieked aloud, “Oh save me!”--
                                      And awoke.
    The day was o’er, and night had drawn her shades;
    The twinkling eyes of Heaven shone through the leaves,
    And lit the tiny rain-globes on the grass;
    The cloud had passed, and on th’ horizon’s verge,
    A monster firefly, with shimmering flash,
    It slowly crawled behind the curve of death.
    And evening’s silence deeper seemed than noon’s,
    For not a sound disturbed the hush of night,
    Save katydids, with quavering monotones,
    Returning contradictions from the trees.
    All drenched and chilled, with trembling limbs I rose,
    And homeward bent my steps; and pondering
    Upon my dream, this moral from it drew:
    Man cannot judge the Eternal Mind by his,
    But must accept the mysteries of Life,
    As purposes Divine, with perfect ends.
    And in our darkest clouds, God’s Angels stand,
    To work Man’s present and eternal good.




              THE VILLAGE ON THE TAR

DEDICATED TO PETTIGREW COUNCIL NO 1. F. OF T.


    A drunkard in a distant town lay dying on his bed,
    There was lack of woman’s gentle touch about his fevered head,
    But a comrade stood beside him, and wiped the foam away,
    That bubbled through his frothy lips, to hear what he might say.
    The poor inebriate faltered, as he caught that comrade’s eye,
    And he said, “’Tis hard, far, far from home ’mid strangers thus to die.
    Take a message and a token to my friends away so far,
    For Louisburg’s my native place, the village on the Tar.

    “Tell my brothers and companions, should they ever wish to know
    The story of the fallen, ah! the fallen one so low,
    That we drank the whole night deeply, and when at last ’twas o’er,
    Full many a form lay beastly drunk along the barroom floor.
    And there were ’mid those wretches some who had long served sin,
    Their bloated features telling well what faithful slaves they’d been;
    And some were young and had not on the Hell-path entered far--
    And one was from the village, the village on the Tar.

    “Tell my mother that her other sons may still some comfort prove,
    But I, in even childhood, would scorn that mother’s love;
    And when she called the children to lift up the evening prayer,
    One form was always missing, there was e’er one vacant chair,
    For my father was a drunkard, and even as a child
    He taught my little feet to tread the road to ruin wild;
    And when he died and left us to dispute about his will,
    I let them take whate’er they would, but kept my father’s ‘still,’
    And with sottish love I used it till its venomed ‘worm’ did gnaw
    My soul, my mind, my very life, in the village on the Taw.[A]

    “Tell my sister oft to weep for me with sad and drooping head,
    When she sees the wine flow freely, that poison ruby red,
    And to turn her back upon it, with deep and burning shame,
    For her brother fell before it and disgraced the fam’ly name.
    And if a drunkard seeks her love, oh! tell her, for my sake,
    To shun the loathsome creature, as she would a deadly snake,
    And have the old ‘still’ torn away, its fragments scattered far,
    For the honor of the village, the village on the Tar.

    “There’s another, not a sister; in the merry days of old,
    You’d have known her by the dark blue eye, and hair of wavy gold;
    Too gentle e’er to chide me, too devoted e’er to hate,
    She loved me, though oft warned by all to shun the dreaded fate.
    Tell her the last night of my life--for ere the morning dawn,
    My body will be tenantless, my clay-chained spirit gone--
    I dreamed I stood beside her, and in those lovely blue depths saw
    The merry light that cheered me, in the village on the Taw.[A]

    “I saw the old Tar hurrying on its bubbles to the sea,
    As men on life’s waves e’er are swept towards eternity;
    And the rippling waters mingled with the warbling of the birds,
    Returned soft silvery echoes to my deep impassioned words;
    And in those listening ears I poured the sweet tho’ time-worn story,
    While swimming were those love-lit eyes, in all their tear-pearled glory;
    And her little hand was closely pressed in mine so brown and braw,
    Ah! I no more shall meet her, in the village on the Taw.”[A]

    He ceased to speak, and through his frame there ran a shiver slight,
    His blood-shot eyes rolled inward and revealed their ghastly white,
    His swollen tongue protruded, o’er his face a pallor spread,
    His comrade touched his pulse--’twas still--and he was with the dead.
    The moon from her pavilion, in the blue-draped fleecy cloud,
    Through the window o’er the corpse had thrown her pale but ghostly shroud,
    The same moon that gazing upon that couch of straw.
    Was bathing in a silver flood the village on the Taw.[A]

[A] The Indian name of this river was _Taw_.--PUBLISHER.




              REQUIESCAM


    Oh! give me a grave in a lone, gloomy dell,
      By the side of a deep, swift creek,
    Where the ripples run like a tinkling bell,
    Through the grassy nooks, where love so well
      The minnows to play hide and seek!

    Where in summer the thick twining foliage weaves
      A green, arching roof upon high,
    And the rain-drops fall from the dripping eaves,
    Like tears of grief from the weeping leaves
      On the face upturned to the sky!

    Where the silence frightens the birds away,
      And all is still, dreary and weird,
    Except, perchance at the close of day,
    The bittern’s boom or the crane’s hoarse bray,
      Floating over the swamp, is heard.

    Where the dusky wolf and the antlered deer
      Ever shun the dark, haunted ground;
    Where the crouching panther ventures near,
    His tawny coat all bristling with fear,
      At the sight of the low, red mound.

    Where at twilight gray, the lone whippoorwill
      May perch on the stake at my head,
    And with its unearthly, tremulous trill
    The dreary gloom of the whole place fill
      With a requiem over the dead.

    Where the greater the ruin in earth’s damp mold,
      The greater the contrast will prove,
    When the weary wings of my spirit I fold,
    In heaven, and swell with a bright harp of gold,
      The grand pealing anthem of love.

    _February 9th, 1867_




              LINES TO AN ANALYTICAL GEOMETRY

            KNOWN TO THE STUDENTS AS “MISS ANNIE”

        WRITTEN AT THE UNIVERSITY OF NORTH CAROLINA, 1866


    At “Elysium” chum and I were sitting,
    Across our vision memories flitting,
    Talking, smoking, often spitting
      On the hearth, not on the floor;
    When suddenly we heard a spluttering,
    As of book leaves madly flutt’ring,
    Some one there seemed slowly mutt’ring,
      At the bookcase, not the door.

    Wildly springing to my feet
    (Chum with fright seemed tied t’ his seat),
    Dreading, fearing I should meet
      What so like a ghost had spoken--
    Fellow members, if you’re able
    To believe what seemed a fable,
    I saw “Miss Annie” on the table,
      With rage and anger almost choking.

    Then without a bow or bend,
    Sitting up upon one end,
    Without preface thus began--
      While we both in wonder stared:
    “O ye worthless lazy scamps!
    Talk about your midnight lamps,
    While I’m in the bookcase crampt,
      To what can such Sophs be compared?

    “Here you’ll sit and smoke and talk,
    To-morrow morn to black-board walk,
    Seize your ‘ruler’ and your chalk,
      Then I hope get badly ‘rushed.’
    Oh! the present generation,
    Such neglect to education,
    Blood and scissors! thunderation!”
      She was so mad the tears forth gushed.

    Chum and I had heard enough
    To put us both in quite a huff,
    So just to stop her noisome stuff
      I sprang and seized her by the collar.
    George jumped up and grabbed the poker,
    Shouted, “Edwin, try to choke her!
    We’ll stop her mouth, a darned old croaker,
      Squeeze her tight and make her ‘holloa.’”

    To the fire we held her near,
    Still she showed no signs of fear.
    “Shall the red coals be your bier?”
      She shook her leaves and fluttered, “No.”
    Now my face with anger flushes,
    Covered first with scarlet blushes,
    I cried, “Will you again e’er ‘rush’ us?”
      Quoth Miss Annie, “Evermore.”

    “Book or fiend,” I cried, up starting,
    “Be that word our sign of parting.”
    Then I, in my vengeance darting,
      Hurled her in the embers red.
    She slightly quivered, slowly burned;
    From the sickening sight I turned,
    Yet from her this lesson learned,
      Prepare before you go to bed.




              LINES TO COUSINS C. AND E.

       ON THE BIRTH OF THEIR LITTLE DAUGHTER


    The marriage over, from the train
    Of watching seraphs, one long strain
        Of gratulation broke.
    And then were still the rustling wings,
    And fingers hushed the throbbing strings,
        While thus an angel spoke:

    “Who’ll go to earth to bless this pair
    With angel child, beneath their care
        Be trained for bliss or woe?”
    He ceased, and from the throng sprang three,
    Faith, Love, and spotless Purity.
        These knelt, and said “We’ll go.”

    Dear cousins, to you these are sent,
    Three spirits in one being blent.
        It is a jewel rare.
    Oh! keep her pure as when first given,
    Guide her faith from Earth to Heaven,
        Guard her love with care.

    _May, 1867._




              THE DEVIL OUTDONE;

                   OR,

         THE GUARD OF THE SULPHUR LAKE


To her who sent me the Valentine with the cutting irony, “Don’t I look
pretty in church?” these lines are respectfully inscribed. Not knowing
her name, I will call her “Taters,” as she drew her elegant and tasty
simile from that vegetable.

    The Devil was sitting one morning below,
    And he seemed much perplexed as to what he must do,
    For his dark brows would knit, and he’d stamp on the ground,
    And flap his great wings till floating around
    Were the ashes and feathers.
                                 At last with an air
    Of resolve he threw himself back in his chair,
    Lit a brimstone cigar, and touched a small bell.
    An imp appeared, bowed, and on his face fell.
    “Cloven-foot,” said the D----, “what’s the news from the fire?”
    “My liege, the great ape has ceased to inspire
    The victims with terror; they fear him no more,
    And continually crawl from the flames to the shore.”
    “Well, Cloven-foot, I had most certainly thought
    When from Africa’s wilds that baboon you brought,
    He’d prove such a guard for the great Sulphur Lake
    The wretches would ne’er cease before him to quake.
    Now go up to earth, and search till you find
    Something uglier far, then quick seize and bind
    And bring it to me; and if it beats the baboon
    I’ll reward you. Be sure to return just as soon
    As ’tis possible, and above all things to choose
    An object whose countenance never will lose
    Its hideous novelty.” The imp bowed and withdrew,
    And swiftly to earth on his errand he flew;
    But in vain did he search where the gorillas roam,
    Or the jungles of Bengal, the fierce tiger’s home.
    In vain throughout Europe he searched every place;
    Nowhere could he find the requisite face.
    Frustrated and weary, with deep despair frantic,
    He was skimming the waves of the tossing Atlantic.
    A few pinion strokes, and he stood on the shore
    Of the New World, and through it began to explore.
    But all was in vain, till he chanced to alight
    In a sweet little village, one smiling morn bright.
    Disguising himself, he attended the church,
    Not hoping to find the object of search,
    But just for the fun.
                          As he stood with the throng
    That were watching the College girls marching along,
    He caught a slight glimpse of Miss “Tater’s” sweet face;
    He sprang to her side, clasped her in embrace,
    And as he plunged downward he said to himself,
    “Here’s one will compete with the African elf.”
    He soon furled his wing on the Plutonian shore,
    And to his dark ruler his fair burden bore.
    As the Valentine sender came into sight
    The Devil himself started back with affright.
    “Whew! whew!” whistled he, “she’ll do, I declare!
    Go bring the baboon, and let them compare.”
    The imp disappeared, then returned with the ape,
    A creature most frightful in feature and shape.
    His head was oblong and perfectly bald,
    Running back from his eyes--no forehead at all;
    His eyeballs were white, their sockets deep red;
    His long, glistening teeth strung with human-flesh shred,
    The gore of his victims from his fingers’ ends flowed;
    And round his lank limbs candescent chains glowed,
    In front of Miss “Taters” this creature was led;
    He gave a look, yelled, and fainted stone dead.
    “By my tongs,” quoth the Devil, “she’s rather too hard
    For the old fellow; she’ll make a capital guard.
    Take her down to the fire.” The imp led the way
    And far down they went from the clear light of day,
    Down, down, till the air was all smoky and red,
    Till the tumult of hell seemed bursting her head;
    Down, down, till the piteous wails and the moans
    Of the tortured but echoed the jeers and the groans
    Of the fiends. Down, down, till they came to the lake
    That scorches and scalds, but never will slake
    The thirst of its victims. Far out on its breast
    It would heave them anon on the red foaming crest
    Of a billow, then plunge them far deeper beneath
    Its boiling bosom, in torture to seethe.
    Along the hot shore the poor creatures would crawl,
    To pant and to rest from their terrible thrall.
    From their bodies all smoking the lava would stream,
    While the shriveled flesh peeled from each quiv’ring limb,
    And their heart-piercing shrieks rose higher and higher,
    As the tongue of each wave licked them back in the fire.
    But as soon as Miss “Taters” had come where they were
    Every noise was hushed, not a sound could you hear.
    ’Twas a wonder indeed, and the wonder increased,
    When the billows of crimson their torture surge ceased.
    When the imp had examined more closely, he found
    The victims had fainted, the fire gone down.
    He hurried her back to his master and said,
    “The fires are out, and the wretches are dead.”
    “What, the fires extinguished! those fires of old!
    Take her back! I begin e’en myself to feel cold!
    She’ll ruin us all with her terrible face;
    She’s rather hard-favored for even this place.”

    _April, 1867._




              THE SUNFLOWER

     LINES SUGGESTED BY OBSERVING GEN. PETTIGREW’S NAME OMITTED IN MRS.
     DOWNING’S “MEMORIAL FLOWERS” AND IN THE “SOUTHERN BOUQUET”


    When poets cull memorial flowers,
      With which our martyrs’ graves to strew,
    They choose no one in Nature’s bowers
            For Pettigrew.

    Yet there is one, and only one,
      Which truly represents his name;
    A flower that revels in the sun,
            And drinks his flame.

    A flower that opens when, all red,
      The sun hath kissed the eastern skies;
    But westward turned, it droops its head
            And proudly dies.

    Thus when the sun of victory sheared
      Its gory way o’er clouds of war,
    This flower’s tow’ring crest appeared
            A beacon star.

    And in its gorgeous, glorious rays,
      This flower basked, and only bowed
    When coming conquest’s bloody haze
            That sun did shroud.

    Crushed flower, with thy broken stem,
      I’ll keep thee near to typify
    The fallen form; the hero’s fame
            Can never die.

    _June 19th, 1867._




              AN ELEGY

WRITTEN ON THE ROTUNDA STEPS, UNIVERSITY OF VIRGINIA, 1868


    The bell the knell of evening lecture tolls,
      The thronging students pour from every door;
    The tutor gathers up his notes and rolls,
      And homeward wends his weary way once more.

    The noisy crowd is gone, there is a pause,
      And hushed is all the busy hum and whirl,
    Save where from yonder room breaks loud applause
      That welcomes some professor’s parting “curl.”

    Save that from yonder plain, the lower lawn,
      Some base-ball novice makes harsh rhyms to _psalm_,
    Because a veteran, with his hands of horn,
      Has “pitched” too “hot” a ball for his soft palm.

    Beneath those balconies, along those rows,
      Where sinks the wall in many a jail-like cell,
    Each wrapped in silence now and in repose,
      The minstrels of the “Calathump” do dwell.

    The whispered call of evil-masking night,
      The signal whistle of the well-known crew,
    The bumping bang of “blowers” beat with might,
      Will often rouse the “Nippers of Peru.”

    For them in vain for hours their hearts will burn,
      While busy housewives tremble at their noise,
    And frightened children to their fathers turn,
      Too badly scared to think of play or toys.

    Oft has th’ rotunda echoed to their songs,
      In dulcet strains that on the still air broke;
    Oft has the lawn resounded with their gongs,
      That roared and rattled ’neath their sturdy stroke.

    Let not their victims mock th’ infernal din,
      Coal-scuttle drums, and clarion paper trump;
    But let them hear with a sardonic “grin,”
      The hideous clamor of a “Calathump.”

    The boast of Mozart, or Beethoven’s pride,
      The sweetest notes Von Weber ever gave,
    Alike would prove harsh dissonance beside
      The gushing concord of one college stave.

    To-night upon their pillows will be laid
      Heads that are pregnant with some secret plan;
    Hands that a “poker” often may have swayed,
      Or waked to ecstasy an old tin pan.

    In vain grave study holds before their gaze
      Her ample page and honor’s glittering roll;
    The fire of “frolic” in their bosom plays,
      And warms the devilish current of their soul.

    Full many a mind that might have nations hurled
      About as toys, has hid its talents rare;
    And many a voice that might have moved a world,
      Has cracked in shoutings on the midnight air.

    Some village Hampden here by night may bawl,
      Some unknown Milton, but by no means mute;
    Some David that may soothe a savage Saul,
      As yet entirely guiltless of a lute.

    The applause of gaping urchins to command,
      The <DW54>s’ laughter at their quaint disguise,
    A few short words from some one to the band,
      This is their sole reward, their hard-earned prize.

    But who to dumb forgetfulness a prey,
      Would start to nip with dry and husky throttle?
    Whene’er they march along the Devil’s way,
      They take his own peculiar seal, the bottle.

    Amid the madding crowd that gathers thick,
      A moving pandemonium they stray,
    And down those much frequented walks of brick
      They hold the noisy tenor of their way.


              THE EPIGRAM

    Here go at last, all yelling to the town,
      A band of youths to Judson’s too well known;
    Fair science ever met their darkest frown,
      And foul intemperance marked them for her own.

    Small is their bounty, but “a drink” they chime,
      As round the crowded counter many jam;
    Each gives to Judson (all he has) a dime,
      Each gets from him (’tis all he wants) a dram.

    _January, 1868._




              FIRE EYES


    Hast thou on summer’s eve ere marked
      The storm on cloud wings soaring high,
    And spreading far his pinions black,
      Across the blue good-natured sky?
    And hast thou seen from ’neath his brow
      The lightning’s eye gleam fiercely bright,
    As if to pierce a thousand foes
      With daggers of his living light?
    As flash the lightnings in the skies,
    So gleam, when angry, “Fire Eyes.”

    Hast thou on autumn eve e’er seen
      The sun just nestling on his pillow,
    While sapphire clouds were silver-fringed,
      As seafoam crests the surging billow?
    And hast thou seen the golden gaze
      The sun bestows on Nature fair,
    That dyes the gorgeous landscape o’er
      And almost melts the amber air?
    As beams the sun on autumn skies
    So smile, when pleased, bright “Fire Eyes.”




              MY DARLING’S JESSAMINE


    ’Twas only a sprig of white jessamine,
      That came in a letter she wrote;
    But I value it more than the costliest vine
    Whose tendrils o’er marble-carved trellis-work twine:
      _’Twas worn at my darling one’s throat_.

    A throat that encages the nightingale’s trill,
      And sweetens each silvery note,
    And I think as I hear, in a rapturous thrill,
    Her voice, whose volume can heaven’s dome fill,
      That the _angels have lent her a throat_.

    More sweet than exotics that Fashion dupes wear
      As through the gay ballroom they float!
    In the leaves of my Bible I laid it with care,
    More _sacredly dear_ than a _buried friend’s hair_
      Since worn at my darling one’s throat!

    _July, 1870._




              THE PARTING SHIP


    In pensive mood I stood upon the quay,
    Where busy Commerce plied her energy;
    Where loading vessels hung their sails at rest,
    And rose and fell, upon the water’s breast.
    Where busy little tugs with hissing steam
    Buried their noses in the foaming stream.
    Near by, a steamer in a paneled wharf
    Chafed at her chains and panted to be off.
    A strange, mysterious ship, no pennon bold
    Her nation or her destination told;
    No crew was seen, no farewell song was sung,
    No parting loved ones to each other clung;
    No wife was weeping on her husband’s neck,
    No mother blessed her wayward boy on deck.
    A ceaseless throng pressed through the cabin door,
    As if they longed to leave their native shore;
    No backward glance, no tearful farewell view,
    And no one seemed to think home worth adieu.
    At last the bell was rung, the plank was drawn,
    And with a shivering sigh, the ship was gone.
    Then as I marked her curving track of foam,
    I wondered in what waters she would roam;
    I thought of those on board, the reckless air
    Of their departure, and I breathed a prayer.
    A red-haired man stood turning up a wheel,
    That wound a clanking chain upon a reel;
    I laid a coin upon his brawny hand,
    And asked him, “Who thus leave their native land?”
    He leaned upon his wheel and closed one eye,
    As if the lid were burdened with a sty;
    Then with a laugh he answered, “By the devil’s spleen and liver,
    It’s on’y a Fulton ferry-boat a’gwine a’gross East River.”




              TO M----, FROM E----

        WRITTEN ON THE FLY-LEAF OF A BIBLE


    One year of sweetest love intense!
    One year of mutual confidence!
    One year of gazing into eyes,
    In which the love-light never dies!
    One year of clasping hands, that thrill
    With throbbing love from life’s red rill
    One year of clouds, whose transient shade
    The after glory brighter made!
    One year of doubts, whose fleeting rust
    Could not corrode our links of trust!
    One year of prayer, whose pleading tone
    Has for _each other_ sued the Throne!
    One year _together_--may it prove
    Prophetic of our earthly love!
    One year _each other’s_--may it be
    A type of our _eternity_!

    _Sunday, May, 1871._




              UNDER THE PINES

“TELL THEM TO BURY ME UNDER THE PINES AT HOME.” FROM “SEA GIFT.”


    I would not rest in the moldering tomb
      Of the grim church-yard, where the ivy twines,
    But make me a grave in the forest’s gloom,
    Where the breezes wave, like a soldier’s plume,
      Each dark-green bough of the dear old pines;

    Where the lights and shadows softly merge,
      And the sun-flakes sift through the netted vines;
    Where the sea winds, sad with the sob of the surge,
    From the harp-leaves sweep a solemn dirge
      For the dead beneath the sighing pines.

    When the winter’s icy fingers sow
      The mound with jewels till it shines,
    And cowled in hoods of glistening snow,
    Like white-veiled sisters bending low,
      Bow, sorrowing, the silent pines.

    While others fought for cities proud,
      For fertile plains and wealth of mines,
    I breathed the sulph’rous battle cloud,
    I bared my breast, and took my shroud
      For the land where wave the grand old pines.

    Though comrades sigh and loved ones weep
      For the form shot down in the battle lines,
    In my grave of blood I gladly sleep,
    If the life I gave will help to keep
      The Vandal’s foot from the Land of Pines.

           *       *       *       *       *

    The Vandal’s foot hath pressed our sod,
      His heel hath crushed our sacred shrines;
    And, bowing ’neath the chastening rod,
    We lift our hearts and hands to God,
      And cry: “Oh! save our Land of Pines!”




              THE LAST LOOK

                TO MARY


    Do not fasten the lid of the coffin down yet;
    Let me have a long look at the face of my pet.
    Please all quit the chamber and pull to the door,
    And leave me alone with my darling once more.

    Is this little Ethel, so cold, and so still!
    Beat, beat, breaking heart, ’gainst God’s mystic will,
    Remember, O Christ, thou didst dread thine own cup,
    And while I drink mine, let thine arm bear me up.

    But the moments are fleeting: I must stamp on my brain,
    Each dear little feature, for never again
    Can I touch her; and only God measures how much
    Affection a mother conveys by her touch.

    Oh! dear little head, oh! dear little hair,
    So silken, so golden, so soft, and so fair,
    Will I never more smooth it? Oh! help me, my God,
    To bear this worst stroke of the chastening rod.

    Those bright little eyes that used to feign sleep,
    Or sparkle so merrily, playing at peep,
    Closed forever! And yet they seemed closed with a sigh,
    As if for our sake she regretted to die.

    And that dear little _mouth_, once so warm and so soft,
    Always willing to kiss you, no matter how oft,
    Cold and rigid, without the least tremor of breath,
    How could you claim _Ethel_, O pitiless death!

    Her hands! No, ’twill kill me to think how they wove
    Through my daily existence a tissue of love.
    Each finger’s a print upon memory’s page,
    That will brighten, thank God! and not dim with my age.

    Sick or well, they were ready at every request
    To amuse us: sweet hands! they deserve a sweet rest.
    Their last little trick was to wipe “Bopeep’s” eye,
    Their last little gesture, to wave us good-bye.

    Little feet! little feet, how dark the heart’s gloom,
    Where your patter is hushed in that desolate room!
    For oh! ’twas a sight sweet beyond all compare,
    To see little “Frisky” rock back in her chair.

           *       *       *       *       *

    O Father! have mercy, and grant me thy grace
    To see, through this frown, the smile on thy face;
    To feel that this sorrow is sent for the best,
    And to learn from my darling a lesson of rest.

    _February 16th, 1875._




LINES WRITTEN AT THE REQUEST OF AN UNKNOWN FRIEND


    We’ve never met; I’ve never pressed your hand,
      Nor caught the light of Friendship in your eyes;
    Yet bound by grief, between two graves we stand,
      And mingle tears, and hear each other’s sighs.

    The same dark wings have taken from each hearth
      The brightest jewel of the circle there,
    And poor Faith stumbles at the mound of earth,
      And feebly yields her place to wan Despair.

    The same dear Christ that took our little one,
      And laid her precious head upon His breast,
    In tender love called home your darling son
      To enter early his eternal rest.

    But who could stand beside the open tomb,
      And hear the clods fall on the coffin lid,
    And see deep underneath the earthen gloom,
      The dearest love of life forever hid?

    Could we not hear the grave’s red lips proclaim,
      “I am the Resurrection and the Life,”
    And realize that Death in Jesus’ name
      Is only rest from labor, pain, and strife?

    ’Tis hard to feel assured our sainted dead
      Are happy _there_, as we could make them here;
    We love them so we give them up with dread,
      And lay them in Christ’s arms with doubt and fear.

    Oh! for a faith that sees in all God sends
      The kindness of a father to his son;
    That prays, in every trial--if it ends
      In joy or grief, “Thy will, O Lord, be done.”

    Beneath the same dark shadow let us kneel,
      And lift our broken hearts in prayer to God
    That while He chastens, He will help us feel
      The wisdom of His purpose in the rod.

    We are not strangers now; from heart to heart
      The electric chords of mutual sorrow thrill.
    And clasping hands across the miles apart,
      We stand resolved, to “suffer and be still.”




              OUT IN THE RAIN


    The night is dark and cold, a beating rain
    Falls ceaselessly upon the dripping roof;
    The dismal wind, with now a fierce, wild shriek,
    And now a hollow moan, as if in pain,
    Circles the eaves, and bends the tortured trees that wring
    Their long, bear hands in the bleak blast.
                                               Within
    Our chamber all is bright and warm. The fire
    Burns with a ruddy blaze. The shaded lamp
    Softens the pictures on the wall, and glows
    Upon the flowers in the carpet, till they seem
    All fresh and fragrant. Stretched upon the rug,
    His collar gleaming in the fire-light, little Pip
    Is sleeping on, defiant of the storm without.
    The very furniture enjoys the warmth,
    And from its sides reflects the cheerful light.
    Up in its painted cage, the little bird,
    His yellow head beneath his soft, warm wing,
    Is hiding. Oh! my God, out in the storm
    _Our little yellow head_ is beaten by the rain.
    So lonely looks that precious little face
    Up at the cold, dark coffin’s lid above,
    In the bleak graveyard’s solitude!
    Oh! Ethel darling, do you feel afraid?
    Or is Christ with you in your little grave?
    When last we gazed upon those lovely eyes
    They looked so tranquil, in their last repose,
    We knew that Christ’s own tender hand had sealed
    Their lids with His eternal peace.
    Oh! darling, are you happy up in heaven?
    And do the angels part that golden hair
    As tenderly as we? O Saviour dear,
    Thou knowest childhood’s tenderness. Amid
    The care of countless worlds, sometimes descend
    From thine almighty throne of power, and find
    That little yellow head, and lay it on thy breast,
    And smooth her brow with thine own pierced hand;
    She’ll kiss the wound and try to make it well.
    And tell her how we love her memory here;
    And let her sometimes see us, that she may
    Remember us. O Jesus, we can trust
    Her to thy care; and when we lay us down
    To rest, beside that lonely, little grave,
    Oh! let her meet us with her harp.
    God help us both to make that meeting sure!




              THE LILY AND THE DEW-DROP


    Deep in a cell of darkest green,
    Rayless and murky with unbroken gloom,
    With downcast head and shrinking, modest mien,
    A lily of the valley shed her rare perfume,
    Breathed softly, as a sea shell’s murmur, from her bloom
    An odor so exquisite, none can tell,
    If ’tis an odor or a whispered sigh
    That like the dying echoes of a bell
    Falls on the raptured sense so dreamily,
    The soul swoons in the tearful clasp of memory.

    So when an old man hears a harvest song
    He used to sing, or smells the new-mown hay,
    A host of saddened recollections throng
    The dusty chambers of his heart, and play
    Upon the cobwebs there a soft Æolian lay.

    (_Unfinished._)




              LINES,

   WRITTEN AFTER HAVING A HEMORRHAGE FROM THE LUNGS

Written a short time before his death and handed to his wife with the
request, “Do not open this until I am well, or until my death.”


    Life bloomed for me as if my path thro’ Eden
    Led its flowery way. Success had crowned
    In many ways my efforts. No dark strife
    With adverse Fate its portent shadows cast
    Across the calm blue scope of heaven.
                                          And though
    Pride often chafed at plain commercial life,
    It was but transient, for ambitious Hope
    Kept ever in my view Fame’s gilded dome,
    Upon whose highest pinnacle I chose my niche,
    For vain conceit had whispered in my ear
    That I had Genius to encharm the world,
    And I looked forward to the loud applause
    Of nations as a simple thing of time.
    Of death I thought but as a fright for those
    Who have no destiny but dying. Mine
    Would come in age, but as a pallid seal
    To Honor gained, and Life’s long labors done.
    Yet I had felt the breath of Asrael’s wing
    When from my youthful head he took my father’s hand,
    And from my manhood’s arms my only child,
    And down the past a little mound of earth,
    Tombed with the darkest sorrow of our hearts,
    Still stands, though veiling in the folds of time.
    Of heaven I thought but as a distant home,
    A place of sweetest rest that I would gain,
    When weary of the burden of the world.
    Thus gay of thought and bright of hope, I moved
    Amid the flowers of my way.
                                At once,
    With scarce a rustle in the rose leaves, came
    A shadowy form, and standing silently
    Before my pathway, breathed a whispered sigh,
    As if it loathed its office to perform;
    Then laid Consumption’s ghastly banner on my breast,
    Its pale folds crossed with fatal red.
                                           The sky
    Grew dark, the rose leaves withered, as the form
    Withdrew, still silently; while I, alone
    Upon the roadside, kneeled to pray for light.
    The stunned surprise of sudden shattered hopes,
    The faith of self-appointed destiny,
    Still turned my eyes toward the Temple Fame.
    Across its gilded dome a spotless cloud
    Had drifted, hiding it from view, but lo!
    The cloud, unfolding snowy depths, disclosed
    The glories of that “House not made with hands,”
    And bending from it, so full of tenderness,
    I could discern the loved ones “gone before.”
    And over all I recognized the Form
    Whose brow endured Gabbatha’s shameful crown,
    Whose woe distilled itself in trickling blood,
    By Cedron’s murmuring wave.
                                As tenderly
    As ever mother touched her babe, He bore
    Within His arms a little angel form,
    With golden hair and blue expressive eyes,
    One dimpled hand lay on His willing cheek,
    While He bent down to meet the sweet caress,
    The other, with that well-remembered look
    She kissed, and threw the kiss to me.
                                          Then down
    I bowed my face, and longed to know mine end.
    ’Twere very sweet to leave all toil and care
    And join the blessed ones beyond the tide;
    And still ’twere sweet beyond compare to wait
    Till eventide with loved ones here, and share
    Their weal or woe.
                       Then came a flute-like voice
    That thrilled the solemn air:
                                  “Pursue thy way,
    Yet humbly walk and watch, and if I come
    At midnight, or at noon, be ready.”
                                        Thus
    I wish to live, life’s aims subserved to God;
    And each continued day and hour regard
    As special gifts to be improved for Him;
    To wear the girdle of the world about my loins
    So loosely that a moment will suffice
    To break the clasp, and lay it down.


                THE END





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