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                            LEILA AT HOME.




_By the Same Author._

     LEILA; OR, THE ISLAND. By ANN FRASER TYTLER.

     LEILA IN ENGLAND. A continuation of _Leila; or, The Island_.

     LEILA AT HOME. A continuation of _Leila in England_.

_Also, lately Published._

     ARBELL. A tale for young people. By JANE WINNARD HOOPER.

     THE CANADIAN CRUSOES. By CATHARINE PARR TRAILL. Edited by AGNES
     STRICKLAND.

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                                 LEILA
                               AT HOME.

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                    New York:--C. S. Francis & Co.




                            LEILA AT HOME.

                           A CONTINUATION OF

                           Leila in England.

                                  BY

                          ANN FRASER TYTLER,

        AUTHOR OF “MARY AND FLORENCE; OR, GRAVE AND GAY,” ETC.

      _WITH ENGRAVINGS BY J. W. ORR, FROM ORIGINAL DESIGNS._

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                               New York:
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                    BOSTON:--CROSBY, NICHOLS & CO.

                             M.DCCC.LIII.

        Entered according to Act of Congress, in the year 1853,
                   BY C. S. FRANCIS & CO.,
In the Clerk’s Office of the District Court of the United States
                    for the Southern District
                             of New York.




PREFACE.


It was the intention of the writer of the following pages to have bid a
last farewell to Leila, but some of her young readers have said “No;”
and she feels too grateful for the kindness they have shown her, not to
make the attempt to meet their wishes. Circumstances have so long
prevented her fulfilling this intention, that it may be necessary to
remind them that they took leave of Leila when she had just set off for
Woodlands, (near Richmond,) a property Mr. Howard had purchased near the
residence of her uncle, Mr. Stanley; that Leila was in all the joy of
her cousin, Selina Stanley, having recovered her speech; that Selina’s
sister, Matilda, was continuing to make many good resolutions, and too
often to break them again; and that their brother, little Alfred, was
little Alfred still, and not over wise.




                            LEILA AT HOME.




CHAPTER I.


The wooded banks of Richmond were in all the soft green of early spring,
when they were first seen by Leila. A few months had passed; the trees
were now half stripped of their leaves, and the autumn tints were fast
fading into sombre gray as she a second time caught sight of its wooded
heights; but how different were now her feelings, how much more
beautiful did the whole scene appear to her with Selina by her side!
Selina was spring, summer, sunshine, and all to Leila, and she had not a
sigh to give to the falling leaves or the moaning wind.

As the carriage drew up before the same low, picturesque-looking house,
which she had before visited, Matilda and Alfred (who with their papa
and mamma had preceded them but a few minutes) stood holding the
house-door open, ready to give them welcome. Little Alfred bustled out
to assist in letting down the steps, and Matilda, in her eagerness to
help them to alight, had well nigh brought them to the ground.

“Softly, softly,” Mr. Howard exclaimed, as he endeavoured to catch hold
of Leila’s frock; but Matilda had succeeded in extricating both the
little girls from the carriage.

“Oh, what a day of joy!” she cried; “Cousin Leila still to be with us
for a whole month, and Selina as able to talk to her now as I am;
Selina, do you remember when you went away?”

Selina did remember: she , her eyes filled with tears, and
throwing her arms first round her sister’s neck, and then round Leila’s,
she darted from their side.

“Why does she do that? where has she gone?” Leila anxiously inquired.

“I think I know,” Matilda answered; and pointing to a door on the
opposite side of the passage, she flew back to the carriage to assist in
getting out the parcels.

Leila crossed the passage, and softly opened the door; Selina was on her
knees by the side of her little bed; she timidly advanced, and lifting
the white muslin curtain which partly concealed Selina’s slight figure,
she knelt by her side. As the two little girls rose from their knees,
their eyes met eyes so full of gratitude to heaven, as almost made
Selina’s half-whispered explanation, “Leila, I could not wait till
night, unnecessary;” “and now,” she continued, “I must go to dear
mamma.”

When Selina returned soon after, she found Leila and Matilda, assisted
by Amy, arranging the smaller parcels, and carrying them to the
different rooms. Matilda looked eagerly in Selina’s eyes.

“I see what you have been doing,” she said, reproachfully: “but I think
it is I that should cry: when we were here before, I had to speak both
for you and myself. Oh, it was so nice; no, no, Selina, I don’t mean
that, I don’t indeed; I am so glad you can speak, oh, so very glad; I
said it only to make you laugh, and now I am near crying myself, but I
won’t; this is not a day to weep, the very happiest day of all our
lives. Come, let us go and visit the school-room; not to say lessons,
you know, but just to enjoy ourselves.”

“Yes, that will be an excellent plan,” Leila answered; “and perhaps in
the bread-basket we shall still find the head of the doll, which would
have been so pretty a doll for my Sally, if it had not been so hardly
dealt with.”

Matilda laughed; “How funny you are,” she said, turning to Leila, and
passing her arm round her waist; “you have put away my sorrow in a
minute.”

The three little girls proceeded to the school-room.

“How very nice it looks!” Leila exclaimed; “how bright, how
cheerful-looking; so different from what it was before.”

“And were you very melancholy when you were here before, and did not
find us?” Matilda inquired.

“Oh, so melancholy when I saw the flowerpots,” Leila answered; “and I
cried so when I saw the paper with ‘Custom commonly makes things easy.’
Yes, ‘Custom commonly’ was the worst of all.”

“But that is all over now,” Matilda observed; “so we need not speak
about it, for now we are all three as happy as can be; don’t you think
so, Selina?”

“Indeed I do, Matilda; but it is such a deep joy I cannot find words to
utter it; it does not make me merry, but do not think it is because I am
sad. If you are happy and think it a joyful day, what must it be to me?
I had given up all hope of ever being able to speak again; I was telling
Leila so that very day, and making her promise not to pray for it any
more. Then so many changes have come upon me. When I saw Leila on the
ground, when I thought her dead,--oh, I must not think of it; and when
she opened her eyes again, and said, ‘Who spoke? what has happened?’ and
when she knew God had opened my lips, what a moment that was! Leila’s
joy, and my joy too, and to be able to tell her how much I loved her.
You do not know how I used to struggle before, and what it was for me
not to be able to speak.”

“Indeed I do know very well,” Matilda answered; “for when mamma often
says to me, ‘Matilda, I must beg you to be silent, you distract my
head,’ I am more anxious to speak than ever; and so vexed, I would
rather she had given me a good slap.”

“A good _slap_!” Leila exclaimed. “Oh, Matilda, if my papa were ever to
slap me, I would--” she covered her face with her hands and shuddered.

“What would you do?” Matilda anxiously inquired, as she pulled down
Leila’s hands, and tried to get a sight of her face.

“I would die,” Leila answered, in a voice so low that the words were
scarcely audible.

But Matilda caught them. “Oh dear,” she cried, “how I have shocked you;
what a shocked face you have; well, I am always saying something wrong,
and I dare say I shall never be better; for these kind of things come
out before I know what I am saying. Selina, do you think it was so very
wrong, and was Leila right to say she would----? You know what I mean.
You always tell me we should take trials patiently.”

Selina . “I think you were both a little wrong,” she said,
timidly. “You were wrong to talk in that way of dear mamma, who is
always so patient and gentle with you; and very wrong to say you would
never be better, when you know God will give you strength if you pray
for it with all your heart; but not if you say wandering prayers, and do
not really wish it;” and she looked anxiously at Matilda.

“And cousin Leila?” Matilda inquired.

Selina proceeded. “Yes; Leila I thought was a little wrong to express
herself so strongly; you know Uncle Howard always says she must try to
command her feelings more,--you are not angry with me, Leila, for saying
this?”

“Angry? Oh! no, no. I love you even more when you tell me I have not
done right; for I feel that you are so true, and you say it so gently,
just as my papa does.”

“Well to be sure!” Matilda said; “to _like_ to be told that one is not
good, I can never get up to that; I don’t like at all to be told I am
not good; I would rather say it of myself than that others should say
it; indeed, it comforts me sometimes to say it all out. Selina, do you
know that at this very moment I am not good?”

“Yes, I do know,--you were glad when I said Leila had been wrong too.”

“And is that all?” Matilda inquired.

“No, not quite all; you were disappointed when you found it was so small
a fault.”

“Oh, Selina! it is too bad in you to say that; you are glad when you
find people are good, and like yourself, and I cannot help being rather
glad also, when I find people a little like myself, though I am not
good; but you are getting into a way of seeing me through and through;
you must not do that, or you will see a great many things to frighten
you; at least, please don’t begin to-day, when we were to have been so
merry; but do you know what I think is going to happen; something that
won’t make us merry at all,--and yet I shall be so curious to see her.”

“See _whom_?” both the others exclaimed; “what do you mean, Matilda?”

“I mean that we are going to get a governess; that is, that I think,
perhaps, we are to get one.”

“And why do you think so?” Selina asked.

“Because when I went into the drawing-room with one of the parcels,
(mamma’s blotting-book, you know,) I heard Uncle Howard say, ‘Yes, I
certainly do see the advantage of having a governess; _but_----’ and
then I put down the parcel very slowly, that I might hear more; but
mamma said, ‘Matilda, don’t linger in the room, for we are engaged at
present, and wish to be alone.’ So, you know, I was obliged to be off
very quick; do you think you will like it Selina?--to be sure, it won’t
be so bad for you, but it will be bad enough for poor me, with all my
scrapes; and yet I should like to see what sort of a face she has got,
though I am quite sure I shall not like it.”

“But perhaps the governess is for _me_,” Leila said, in a sorrowful
tone; then added, “and I shall never be alone with my papa any more.”

“No, no,” Matilda eagerly exclaimed; “don’t vex yourself, Leila. Don’t
put on that sorrowful face; I am sure the governess is for us; for once
before I heard mamma say something about it to papa,--it was one day
when she said I was unmanageable, and you know you are never
unmanageable.”

“If you mean that I never am very bad, you are mistaken; you don’t know
all the things I do sometimes, and wish to do.”

“Well, well,” Matilda answered, “don’t tell me about them, for I don’t
want to hear; it is too bad that to-day, when we have no lessons, and
are so happy to be home again, we do nothing but speak about faults,
and make each other melancholy. See, the sun is out--it is quite fair
now--let us go into the garden and have a nice race.”

Leila’s face brightened. “It will be delightful,” she said, as they all
three ran off together.




CHAPTER II.


Matilda’s faults and Leila’s fears seemed alike forgotten. They talked,
and laughed, and ran races, till fatigue at last made a quieter mode of
amusement desirable, even to Matilda. The arbour, which was in a
sheltered spot at one end of the garden, was still almost in summer
beauty,--the china-roses and many of the autumn flowers were yet in rich
luxuriance, and the bright beams of the sun brought back the feeling of
summer with all its gladness. As they seated themselves in the arbour, a
robin flew down from a neighbouring tree, and timidly advanced within
the entrance, then paused and seemed to fix its clear bright eye on
Leila; she softly raised her hand, and pointed to her lips to enjoin
silence; but Matilda made a sudden movement, and the next moment the
robin was gone. Leila sighed.

“Are you sorry I frightened it away?” Matilda inquired.

“No,” Leila answered, cheerfully; “it was not that; you know the robin
did not know us, it would have flown away the moment any of us had
moved, and we could not have sat all day quite still; so never mind,
Matilda, only it made me think----” she stopped and .

“What did it make you think of? Do tell me.”

“It made me think that in the island the birds never were afraid of me;
they never flew away, at least a great many of them did not; they knew
me quite well there.”

“And you are wishing to be back to the island,” Matilda exclaimed,
reproachfully, “because the birds know you there; and you would leave
Selina and me, who know you, I am sure, far better than the birds, and
love you better too; I am sure I wish that--_that_ island----”

Selina placed her hands before Matilda’s mouth. “Hush, hush, Matilda,
don’t say it. You are working yourself up to be angry; you will be sorry
afterwards; indeed, you will be sorry now;” and she pointed to Leila,
who stood covering her face with her hands, while the tears trickled
down between her fingers.

Matilda flew to her; she tried to remove her hands, and kissed her
repeatedly. “There, you see, I am off again, and worse than ever. Oh,
this badness! will it never leave me? and, Cousin Leila, perhaps you
will begin to hate me now!”

Leila removed her hands from her face, and hastily brushed away her
tears; then, throwing her arms round Matilda’s neck, she said,--“Oh,
Matilda! never, never say that again, for I love you very much.”

“You are so kind and good,” Matilda was beginning to say.

Leila stopped her. “No, Matilda, no; I am not good. I was not crying now
because I was sorry about the island, but because I was angry at you for
speaking of it in that way,--and now let me tell you all that is in my
heart. I am happy here, quite, quite happy; I like living in the world
exceedingly, I think the world is delightful, and the trials that papa
spoke about I think are not coming to me, at least, not the great ones;
for you know it is a little trial when you are angry with me, and I
should bear it better, I know; but it is about the island I wished to
speak,--I do not wish to go back to it to live. No, I could not leave--”
she fixed her eyes fondly on Selina,--“nor you either, Matilda,” she
added; “I could not leave you, I do love you very much, though sometimes
you make me angry; but I love the island very much also. God placed me
there when he snatched me from the dashing waves. It was my home, my
happy home; I had my papa all to myself then; he used to call me his
little friend, and he was such a friend to me, always keeping me right.
You know I was alone there with my papa, and with God; and it was so
much easier to be good there. I thought more of God in the island, for
every thing seemed so full of his love, and all so beautiful. The island
was God’s garden, the flowers always springing, so bright and beautiful,
the trees so green, and nobody to take care of them but God; the birds
always singing to Him, the fountain making that sweet sound, and the
everlasting hills.--Oh! Matilda, it was comforting to live amongst God’s
works, every thing to make me love Him, and nothing to make me forget;
here I am happy, too happy sometimes, for it is a kind of happiness
which makes me forget, and then afterwards comes the sorrow.”

“And what do you do then?” Matilda anxiously inquired.

“I often try to put it off, and I dash about, and try to be merry; but I
am not merry; I get more sorrowful; then I remember that it is
conscience that is speaking to me, and that papa says _conscience_ is
the voice of God, and if I do not listen, _He_ will turn away from me;
then I get frightened as well as sorrowful, and I go away by myself,
sometimes into my room, sometimes into the garden, and there I
think”---- She hesitated, then continued,--“I think of Jesus Christ, and
of all he did for us, and how he loved little children, and took them in
his arms, and blessed them: and I pray to Him in my heart to love me and
to bless me also. Do you remember how he raised the little daughter of
twelve years old from the dead? I always think how good she must have
been after that, and how she must have loved Jesus Christ, and yet it
should be the same with us; He keeps us alive every moment, and
preserves us from every danger, and I forget Him often, though twice he
has saved my life, in the stormy sea, you know, and from the
frightful----” She stopped and shuddered.

“Don’t, don’t think of it,” Matilda exclaimed; “don’t work yourself up
in that way, Leila.”

“But it does me good, Matilda, to think of it, and beside it was such a
day of happiness also,”--and she looked fondly at Selina.

“Yes, yes, I know what you mean,” Matilda said, hastily; “and I am sure
it was a day of happiness to me too; but we won’t think any more about
it now, for I do tire a little if you speak too much about goodness; but
what with you being so good, and Selina being so good, I surely shall
get better in time; indeed, I am a little better already, I assure you
I am--I am almost always sorry now when I do wrong.”

Selina looked up and smiled. “Yes, indeed, you are better, Matilda. I
think there has been a great improvement in you since Leila came to stay
with us, and now I hope that you will not take to Lydia Mildmay again so
much, or allow her to have such influence over you as she used to
have,--she did you no good.”

“Why do you always say that?” Matilda exclaimed, colouring violently; “I
do wish, Selina, you would just tell me at once why you don’t like
Lydia. I am sure it is very ungrateful in you, and I think that you need
not be so sorry that she should praise me sometimes, she praises you
also a great deal.”

“Yes,” Selina answered, “she does; but I don’t like her praise, and I
would rather she did not.”

“And why do you not like her praise?”

“Because I cannot help thinking it is not sincere.”

“Now, Selina, that is too bad in you. Mamma often says, ‘Give me a proof
of it, Matilda;’ so I say to you, give me a proof of it, Selina.”

“No, I cannot give you a proof of it now; some other time we will talk
of it again. I wish to go to mamma now--I dare say I can help her to
arrange something--you know there must be a great deal to arrange on
our first coming home.”

“And let me go with you also,” Leila eagerly said; “for I dare say I
could do some good. When we arrived in the cave, I remember I assisted
papa to arrange a good deal. I unpacked the canteen, and put out all the
cups and saucers, and helped nurse to arrange the pans, and when papa
put up the shelves, I put the clothes upon them, and his boots and shoes
all in a row; but in this country there is not so much to be done; I
sometimes think it is stupid to have so many people making places for
every thing, I used to like so much making plans and contrivances.”

“Well,” Matilda said, “if you are both going to be such busy bees, I
will go to Alfred for a little; I see him down the middle walk, and we
can romp together; for you know this is to be a holiday, mamma said so;
so I need not work, unless I like it myself.” She was off in a moment.

“Why,” inquired Leila, as they entered the house together, “would you
not give Matilda a proof of why you did not like Lydia?”

“Better not,” Selina answered; “it does not do with Matilda to talk to
her too much on subjects she does not like; if I had gone on, in a few
minutes more she would have been angry. Did you not observe how her
colour was rising?”

“Yes, I did; and I am never very sure when I am talking to Matilda how
she is to take it; she gets red very often,--but I need not wonder at
that, for it is just the same with me--I am sure to get red very often
too.”

“Yes,” Selina answered, “you do; you colour very often, but then it is
not with anger.”

“You don’t know, Selina; you think that because you love me; but very
often it is with anger,--not so much when papa tells me I am wrong, for
he speaks so gently to me, and always seems so sorry himself, that it
makes me very grieved, and I always wish to be better, and say to
myself, that I will try never to displease him again; but it is quite
another thing with Nurse. I often feel my cheeks get as hot as fire when
she scolds me; but it is with anger then; for she sometimes teases the
very life out of me. Not often though, for I know she loves me; but then
she is always saying, ‘Oh! Miss Leila, you are a heartbreak to me; if
you would but sit to your work like a rational being,--you are not to
trust to Amy mending your things,--you know your papa says you are not.
You are far too much taken up with your music and your histories; and
what sort of a pocket-hole is that for a young lady to have?’ I am
laughing now, Selina, while I am telling it to you; but though
sometimes I can bear it pretty well, and try to please her by beginning
to mend my pocket-hole as quick as possible, at other times I get quite
into a passion, and can’t bear to put in a single stitch; but we must
make haste now, or every thing will be put in order, and we shall have
no work to do. I like that kind of work very much, don’t you, Selina?”




CHAPTER III.


Matilda’s idea, that their having a governess was a point determined on,
proved more correct than her hasty conclusions generally did. Mr. Howard
had been for some time aware that the mode of life which he must pursue
in England would prevent him giving that undivided attention to Leila
which his island home had afforded him, and which every day was becoming
more necessary in the formation of her inquiring mind and impetuous
character. He felt that Nurse, with all her fond affection, in her
attempts to rule, was only fostering in his child a spirit of opposition
and self-will; and that Leila was beginning to think in many things she
knew better than Nurse, and that she did right to reject counsel, which,
though always well intended, was often not judiciously given. Though
resolved not to yield to the feeling, he had been too long accustomed to
the exclusive society of his child, not to be aware that there would be
many occasions in which the presence of a third person would prove
irksome to him, and it was therefore with real gratitude that he
listened to Mrs. Stanley’s proposal, that the intended governess should
reside under their roof, yet still have the joint charge of the cousins.
“The distance was so short,” she observed, “not two miles, it would only
be healthful exercise for Leila to walk when the day was fine, and in
bad weather she could easily be sent to them in the carriage. She should
take care that Leila was always at home to dine with her papa when he
was alone, and to read and sing to him in the evenings, as she had been
accustomed to do.”

When Mr. Howard sent for Leila next day to communicate this
intelligence, she entered his room with an unusually grave expression;
the dreaded idea of a governess had been haunting her imagination the
whole morning, and gaining strength every minute. She advanced slowly,
and taking her papa’s hand in hers, she looked up anxiously into his
eyes:--“Is it a governess, papa?” she said, “is it? Oh, tell me quick.”

“My dear child,” Mr. Howard answered, as he stooped down and kissed her
forehead, “my dear, dear child, what is all this? Why do you look at me
in this piteous manner? Indeed you must not agitate yourself in this
way; you must not let your imagination get the better of you; it
certainly was on this subject I wished to talk to you; but is the idea
of a governess so very frightful to you?”

“No, papa; perhaps she is not frightful, but you know I never saw one;
perhaps she is like other ladies, but then you know she will be always
there, always sticking to me; Matilda said something which made me know
that; always _sticking_, papa; and then I shall never be alone with you.
No more nice chats with your little friend.” Her voice failed, she could
not continue.

Mr. Howard looked at her anxiously; “Leila, my dear child, you distress
me; if you allow yourself to get into this way of anticipating imaginary
evils, you will enervate your mind, and unfit yourself to bear as you
ought to do the real trials of life; remember who says, ‘Sufficient unto
the day is the evil thereof.’ Now listen to me; I can see that Matilda
has made you aware that you are to have a governess, and all the morning
you have probably been working yourself up with the idea of suffering
from what I trust may prove the greatest blessing to you. I cannot now
devote my mornings to you as I did in the island; I must frequently be
absent, and you are now of an age to require superior instruction to
that of your faithful and affectionate nurse; but you will still be my
little friend; in the evenings you will sing and read to me as you used
to do, and we shall always dine together.”

Leila’s face brightened. “O, what a comfort!” she exclaimed: then added,
“but I don’t know that I shall be quite comfortable. My governess won’t
like dining by herself; she will be melancholy.”

“Now, dear child, you are again running on before the point, though I am
glad that now it is that you are anxious for your governess’ comfort:
but she is not to be exclusively your governess, Leila, and she is not
to reside at Woodlands. Your aunt has most kindly proposed that you
should spend the mornings with your cousins, and be educated with them.
We are to breakfast together early as we used to do; when fine, you are
to walk there immediately after breakfast, or be sent in the carriage
when the weather is bad; and by five o’clock you are to be home to dine
with your papa. I give you a general invitation to dinner, Miss Leila
Howard, and pray give me a favourable answer.”

“Papa, papa, how delightful you are to me,” Leila exclaimed; “all my
fears, all my sorrows; where are they? You are like the sun to me, papa;
the sun chasing away the clouds, and now there is nothing but the blue
sky and my beautiful governess.”

Mr. Howard smiled; “And who told you she was to be beautiful?” he
inquired.

“Nobody, papa; but I think she will be, and I am sure I shall like her
so much.”

“I hope indeed that you will like her, my love; for if your aunt
succeeds in the application she is about to make, your governess is
likely to prove a very estimable person; but I don’t suppose she ever
was beautiful, and she can’t be very young now.”

Leila’s countenance fell. “As old as the hills, I reckon,” she
ejaculated, in a very low voice.

But her papa caught the words: “‘As old as the hills, I _reckon_,’” he
repeated; “Leila, from whom have you caught up that phrase?”

“From Peggy Dobie,” she replied.

“From Peggy Dobie; but, my love, have I not told you that I do not wish
you to acquire Peggy Dobie’s mode of expressing yourself? I shall regret
my promise of allowing Peggy to remove to Woodlands, if you are to adopt
her phrases, and try to imitate her mode of speaking.”

“But, papa, I promise you I will not, and I dare say our governess would
not like me to speak in that way either. I hope she will come to us very
soon; how soon do you think, papa? in a few days?--our governess, I
mean. I know Peggy Dobie cannot be here so soon, or my pets either: how
delightful it will be when they all arrive, what a world of happiness it
will be then!”

“My dear Leila, I have already told you that I hope this lady, if we
succeed in engaging her, may prove a real blessing and advantage to you;
but you must not allow your imagination to run away with you in this
way, or suppose that you are immediately to find her in every way
delightful; she is a person who has experienced severe trials; her
husband lost a large fortune by the failure of a bank with which he was
connected; he died soon after, leaving her and one little girl totally
unprovided for. Her sister has taken this little girl to be educated
with her own children, and Mrs. Roberts has for some time past been
looking out for a situation as governess. Your aunt has a high idea of
her principles, and was much struck by the truly Christian way in which
she has borne up under her misfortunes; and having resided several years
abroad, she speaks both French and Italian with facility, and is besides
an excellent musician. All this makes her a most desirable person, but
the sorrows she has gone through may probably make her graver than you
may at first think agreeable; and you must remember, besides, that a
governess has an arduous task to perform, and many difficulties to
combat.”

“What difficulties, papa?”

“The difficulties, my love, of having three little girls to correct, to
control, and to instruct.”

Leila repeated the word _correct_.

“Yes, my love,” Mr. Howard continued, “Mrs. Roberts would be unworthy of
our confidence, and neglectful of her duty, if she did not correct your
faults.”

“But, papa, she would only have two to correct: Selina is quite perfect;
don’t you think so, papa?”

“No, my love; I know no one in this world who is perfect, and Selina,
though several years older than you are, is still very young, and
requires much care and instruction to form her character; but she has
fewer faults than any other little girl I know--she is indeed singularly
admirable; Mrs. Roberts, I have no doubt, will think herself very
fortunate to have such a pupil.”

“And what will she think about me, papa?” she anxiously inquired.

“Why, she will probably think that she has got rather an impetuous
little woman to manage, one who often allows her imagination to get the
better of her.” But seeing Leila’s downcast face, he added,--“yet I feel
sure also that she will not be long of loving my little girl, though she
is not _perfect_; and now Leila,” he continued, “have you any idea of
what is to be done to-day?”

“No, papa, I have no idea. Are we to begin our lessons again? Oh, no! I
see you have a plan--I see it in your face. Do tell me: I am sure you
have something pleasant to tell.”

“Yes,” Mr. Howard answered, “I think you will like the arrangement for
this forenoon. I have just been proposing to your aunt that we should
visit Woodlands, that you should see your future home, my child; and we
have settled that you young folks are to walk there with Nurse and Amy,
and I have ordered the open carriage to drive your uncle and aunt; we
shall probably be there first to receive you.”

“Papa, how delightful! May I run and tell Selina and Matilda the good
news? and Alfred, may he go too?”

“Certainly, my love.”

“Well then, I am off--how delightful to have so much to tell; and I may
speak about our governess also, papa, may I not?”

“Yes, my love, you may; but your aunt has probably by this time
mentioned the subject to your cousins; I know she intended doing so this
morning.”




CHAPTER IV.


When Leila entered the school-room Selina was reading, but Matilda stood
gazing out at the window with rather a disturbed expression of
countenance. “Well, Cousin Leila,” she said, “we have news for you, and
not very good news either. Now all the day long it will be,--‘Hold up
your head, Miss Leila,’ ‘Why do you walk in that awkward way, Miss
Matilda?’ ‘How troublesome you are; I wish you would take example by
your elder sister--one awkward trick after another--I really must
complain of you to Mrs. Stanley.’ Yes, Selina, you need not shake your
head at me and look so grave; Leila will look grave also when she knows
the truth. Yes, Leila, I was quite right, it is all settled, we are to
have a governess; so no more pleasant days for us. Botheration,
botheration.”

Leila had not been able to resist laughing at first; but she checked
herself, and remained silent.

Selina spoke. “Oh, Matilda! how can you speak in this way, and after all
mamma has been just saying? and you seemed to feel it so.”

“Yes, I know I am wrong; and when mamma was speaking to me I felt very
sorry, and I resolved I would try to please this Mrs. Roberts, or rather
mamma, for I would rather please mamma than any one in the whole world;
but, Leila, you looked when you came in as if you had something joyful
to say; if you have, please to say it, for we need good news very much
to-day.”

But no sooner had Leila communicated the pleasant intelligence of the
proposed visit to Woodlands, than all traces of sorrow were banished
from Matilda’s face; she was in ecstasies, and, flying across the room,
she dashed the book from Selina’s hands, and throwing her arms round her
neck, she exclaimed,--“Now no more reading to-day, if you please, _Mrs.
Demure_; this is what I call the right kind of a holiday--how merry we
shall be! Well, I do think Uncle Howard makes most delightful plans; how
do you manage, Leila, to get him to do so many nice things?”

“I don’t manage,” Leila answered; “he is always thinking of doing kind
things to me and every body, and he has told me all about our governess,
and made me like having one more than I did at first; I will tell you
about it as we go along, for we are to walk, you know, and we must make
haste and get ready, that papa and uncle and aunt may not be there long
before us.”

The walk proved every way delightful. The sky so brightly blue, the
sunshine splendid, and the woods, now tinted with the glowing hues of
autumn, gave additional beauty to the scene. Here and there a solitary
unprotected tree, standing out from the others, might have given warning
to more contemplative minds that winter and its storms were approaching;
but there was no winter in their young hearts--all was fresh, gay, and
green, and withered leaves brought to them no memory of blighted hopes,
and of a world of many sorrows.

The distance could not be two miles, they all agreed, though Matilda and
Alfred did their best to lengthen it, by continuing, during every few
yards of their progress, to run up a little bank by the side of the road
and down again, assuring the others that it was by far the quickest way
of getting on, but Leila greatly preferred walking quietly straight
forward with Selina; it was always a particular pleasure to her to have
Selina entirely to herself. She now related to her all her papa had told
her of Mrs. Roberts, and many were the good resolutions made by both,
that they would do all they could to make her situation pleasant to her.
As they came in sight of a pretty-looking house, standing in a small
garden, Leila stopped.

“Look, Selina,” she said, “I think that must be Woodlands, had we not
better ask some one if it is?”

A countryman came up to them at that moment, walking very quickly, and
was about to pass on before. Leila ran forward.

“Pray do stop,” she said, “if you are not very busy, and tell us if that
is Woodlands?”

The man turned back and looked at her with astonishment.

“Dear heart, young lady, but you must be a stranger in these parts--that
Woodlands, _that_? It would be but a humble post indeed to open the park
gates to them good people, a very decent family too, I mean to say
nothing disrespectful, but Woodlands, bless your heart, Woodlands is one
of the _principalest_ houses in the whole countryside. Do you see that
beautiful great house standing on the height there, with the broad
terrace and the pleasure-grounds sloping down to the river, and them
grand woods on each side, shutting out the summer’s sun and the winter’s
blasts?--_that’s_ Woodlands, and it’s not every day you will see its
like; but you are pleasant-looking young ladies to my mind, and if you
have a fancy to see Woodlands, though it’s not to every one I would say
as much, I have no objections to unlock the gates for you, for once and
away.”

“And are the gates always locked?” Leila timidly inquired; then added,
“papa told us to go there.”

“No, no, my young lady; it’s not papas or mammas either that can give
that permission. As long as my head’s above ground, there shall no
promiscuous company enter there; but never vex your sweet heart,” he
continued, more mildly, (observing Leila’s expression of blank dismay,)
“never vex your heart; you shall see the place for all that;” then added
with a sigh, “but Woodlands has gotten a new master, one Squire Howard,
they tell me--a fine man from the Indies. Heaven send he may be a kind
one; but they tell queer stories about him too. It was I that showed the
two gentlemen that came to settle about it all over the place, and they
said something of his having lived in a desert island, a Robinson Crusoe
sort of an affair that I could not make out at all; but if we are to
have a master from a desert island, I hope he will keep more company
about him than his man Friday, or Woodlands will be a changed place.”

“My papa had no man Friday with him in the island,” Leila meekly
answered; “but we do not live there now. We came into the world last
May, and our man-servant’s name is John; in the island we had only
Nurse--look, she is coming up to us now, and she is to be my papa’s
housekeeper at Woodlands.”

The ruddy face of the countryman became actually pale, as he pulled off
his hat, and stood immovable before Leila.

“My master’s daughter; it’s not possible. Surely----”

Matilda, who from the moment she had joined them, had continued walking
with the others, and had hitherto remained wonderfully silent, could now
no longer restrain herself.

“You may indeed look surprised,” she said, “for you have made a fine
mistake. Yes, it is quite true: you have all this time been speaking to
Miss Howard. She is the young mistress of Woodlands. And now will you
open the gates?”

“Don’t, Matilda, pray don’t,” Leila exclaimed in a voice of entreaty;
“do you not see how sorry he looks?” then turning with a smile to the
poor man, who still remained uncovered before them, “Do put on your
hat,” she said; “the sun is hurting your eyes, and you need not be the
least sorry for what you have said. I dare say you were told to take
care of it; that was just the way Nurse used to watch over every thing
in the island, only there we had no gates to lock.”

In a few minutes longer they had reached the lodge, a pretty small
thatched house in the cottage style, with a profusion of China roses and
honeysuckles on its white walls. Leila instantly thought how
delightfully it would have suited Peggy Dobie, but she did not say so.
The gates were no longer shut, they stood most invitingly open; a tidy,
pleasant-looking young woman seemed to have been watching for them at
the door of the cottage.

“Oh, Bill, Bill,” she exclaimed, “you have been long, and to have been
away to-day of all days in the year, and a fine lady and gentleman away
up the approach in the carriage, and the squire himself, and a kind,
civil-spoken gentleman he seems to be.”

But the young people were too impatient to listen to further details;
the moment they entered the gates they bounded forward. The windings of
the approach, though calculated to show the finest trees on the
property, they thought much too long, and by the time they reached the
house they were breathless with impatience. Mr. Howard, who had been
watching them from the window, was at the door to meet them. “Welcome to
all of you,” he said, and he stooped down and kissed Leila repeatedly;
“welcome to your future home, my Leila; may it be a happy home to you,
my dearest child.”

Leila seemed at first quite bewildered; the entrance hall seemed to be
so large, the drawing-room larger _still_. The windows of the
drawing-room opened on a trellised balcony, festooned with creeping
plants, and filled with rare and beautiful flowers; a broad flight of
steps, with stone balustrades on each side, and large vases, scarlet
pomegranate and pink oleander in full bloom, led from this balcony to
the terrace below; and beyond this terrace the velvet turf, interspersed
with beds of gay and fragrant flowers, sloped down to the edge of the
broad river, on which many little boats were gliding up and down;
happily no steamboat being in sight on this first-favoured moment.

All were loud in their expressions of admiration; they had never seen
any thing more beautiful; but though Leila admired, she seemed still
bewildered, and almost more oppressed than pleased.

“It is very beautiful; but how shall I ever be able to manage such a
house as this?”

Selina whispered, “Don’t distress yourself, Leila, it is not till you
are grown up that you will have to manage; your papa will do it now, and
my mamma will help him.”

Leila brightened a little, but still looked anxiously around the room:
“Surely it is very large,” she said.

It was Matilda’s observation, “Young mistress of Woodlands,” that had
done all this; poor Leila was weighed down to the ground with a sudden
sense of her responsibilities; to common observers she was a simple
child, young, even for her years; but there was often a deep
under-current of thought about her, to be discovered only in the changes
of her expressive countenance, and in the hesitating, varied tones of
her voice.

Mr. Howard understood her: “We will manage all for you very nicely,” he
said; “so, my dear Leila, do not be afraid; and this room will not look
so large when it is furnished, and we have sofas, and chairs, and large
tables, and little tables, and all sorts of pretty things in it; and it
certainly will not be too large if we succeed in having all the kind
friends around us at Christmas whom I hope we shall have. Your aunt,
uncle, and cousins, Mr. and Mrs. Herbert, and Maria, and perhaps the
Selbys, with Louisa, who knows?”

Leila, from the moment of entering the house, had been working herself
up, and struggling against comfort; but comfort, in the shape of such a
Christmas party as this, who could resist? She quickly gave herself up
to all its happy influences, and when her papa led her into the
adjoining breakfast-room, which was small, and leading into a spacious
conservatory, she was in ecstasies.

“My birds, my birds,” she exclaimed, “my turtle-doves, my parrots, how
they will enjoy it. They will think this more beautiful than their green
parlour.”

All was sunshine to her again; it was a moment of exquisite happiness,
such happiness as is only to be felt in very early life, before the sad
memories of the past, “and the shadows of coming evils, have dimmed its
brightness.”

The young people returned home in high spirits; Leila forgetting every
care in the remembrance of the beautiful conservatory, and in the
anticipation of the enjoyment of her birds in taking possession of it;
and Matilda far too much excited to allow any of them to rest, even for
a moment.

“Come,” she said, “we will act a play now;” and flying into the passage,
she seized her papa’s hat, placed it on one side on her head, tied over
her dress a green linen pinafore of Alfred’s to imitate a blouse, and
returning into the room, “Now,” she said, “I will be Bill; you, Cousin
Leila, are to be talking very gravely with Selina, consulting her how
you are to order the dinner at Woodlands when I come up to you; and
you, Alfred, are to be the pit, and stamp with your feet, and call out
very loud.”

“But why,” Leila exclaimed, “should poor Alfred be in the pit? I don’t
like that, it puts me in mind of such melancholy things,--Joseph and his
wicked brothers, you know,--and he called out and they would not listen;
and the cruel thing we did ourselves; we put the poor goats into the
pit; but papa said that was a necessary evil.”

Matilda laughed: “You are so odd,” she said; “it is not that sort of a
pit at all. I never saw it myself, but Lydia told me about it,--it is a
place where all the gentlemen sit in rows to see the play, and they
stamp very loud with their feet, and call out encore; encore means--say
it again; don’t forget that, Alfred.”

Leila was quite relieved and satisfied, and the play proceeded; and so
admirably did Matilda imitate Bill’s voice and manner, and so complete
was the picture when she drew off the hat, and stood with a face of mute
dismay before them, that Selina and Leila were convulsed with laughter;
as to little Alfred, he stamped so loud, and called _encore_ so often,
that even Matilda, with all her love of amusement, was fairly exhausted.

“Now,” she said, “we have had enough of this; let us play at Nurse’s
play now, let us play at being rational beings, and sit down quietly to
our work; now there’s a proposal for you, Selina, what do you say to
that? I am going to turn over an entirely new leaf, and I will begin
with putting back this hat into its right place, and folding up this
crumpled pinafore so very nicely that Nurse will say it is fresh out of
the fold. Now it is all done, and I declare you have got out your work
already; well, here is mine, and we can sit down comfortably and
converse about our future lives.”

“Yes,” Leila said, “that will be a delightful subject.”

“I don’t know that,” Matilda replied; “you are forgetting about the
governess; she is to be here very soon, if she can come. Mamma wrote to
her this morning; she bid me hold the taper when she was sealing the
letter, and I could not help thinking how nice it would be if I could
give a little push and set the letter on fire.”

“Oh, Matilda,” Selina exclaimed, “how sorry you make me; why do you talk
in this way and why should your future life not be happy because we are
to have a governess to save mamma trouble; you know she is not very
strong, and she is not able to manage us herself.”

“To manage _me_, you should say, Selina; but how can my future life be
happy, when she will be for ever finding fault with me?”

“But why do you think so? It is quite in your own power to go on happily
with her; she will not find fault with you unless you deserve it, and
surely you would not wish to grow up in your faults; you could not have
a happy future life if you are not good, for you have a conscience,
Matilda, and after a little you are always sorry when you do wrong.”

“I am, Selina; you know me very well; but then I am so often bad, and so
often sorry, that there is no great happiness about my life after all,
even though I have not a governess. Well, we shall see if she makes this
great change.”

“She cannot make the _change_, Matilda, she can only tell you what is
right; and you cannot do it either, of yourself. You must pray for the
Spirit of God to come into your heart, and to make you really sorry for
your faults, and really anxious to do what is right.”

“But I am really anxious,” Matilda answered; “and I am always wishing I
could be as good as you are.”

“I wish you would not say that so often; I am not good.”

“Oh, if _you_ are not good, and you expect me to be better than you are,
it is a bad business! I need not try.”

“Why do you talk in that way? You do not know all the foolish things I
think of and wish to do; but remember, Matilda, the lesson I have had,
and the great blessing God has given me. Before I had made up my mind to
be always dumb, I used often to pray to Him, and promise that if He
would open my lips, I would try to be more and more His child, and
praise Him with my life as well as with my heart; and when I read of
Jesus Christ opening the eyes of the blind, and making the dumb to
speak, I used to have such deep sorrow, that sometimes I could scarcely
bear it; I used to shut myself up alone and say to myself, Why did I not
live then? Surely if I had asked Him myself, and He had seen my sorrow,
He would have listened. Oh, it was a sinful thought.”

“But why was it sinful?” Matilda asked.

“It was sinful, because it was doubting His wisdom, for He knew what was
best for me; it was also doubting his power, for in heaven He equally
hears our prayers and sees our sorrows; and the miracles He worked on
earth are not greater than those which are every where around us. The
spring and summer coming again, and bringing up the flowers, and making
the dead earth so green and beautiful, are miracles of His power; and
the very miracle I asked for was granted--granted in a moment--my lips
were opened; from that time I made my resolution----” She stopped and
.

“What resolution?” Matilda eagerly asked.

“The resolution that I would try to think of Him more than I had ever
done before; that I would be part of every day alone, not to ask for
more worldly blessings, but to thank Him for giving me more than I ever
can deserve.”

“And so this is the reason,” Matilda said, “why you go away in the
forenoon and lock your door. I never could find out what you were doing;
once I thought I would look through the keyhole, and I went on tip-toe,
but then I remembered mamma saying that was a mean, low habit, and I did
not. But you do another thing, Selina, which you never used to do
before; in the morning, after you have read the Bible, you turn over and
over the pages, as if you were looking for something. What are you doing
then, for you cannot be reading?”

“I am finding out texts. Every day I search for a text, and an answer to
it, and I get them by heart; it helps to keep good thoughts in my mind
during the day.”

“And you never told me a word of all this,” Matilda said, reproachfully;
“and if you had, it might have made me better, and I could have learned
texts also. Why did you not tell me?”

Selina looked distressed, and . “I believe I was wrong, but I
always feel ashamed to talk on those subjects before any one; I fear it
is a false shame.”

“No, Selina, no,” Leila said quickly: “my papa explained to me about
that; to be sure, to Matilda or to me you might have said it, for he
told me that with a very dear friend it was a delightful subject, but
that in the world I must not talk about God as I used to do in the
island; I must try to think of Him constantly just the same, and always
ask myself how He would wish me to act, but I must not say so before
indifferent people (that means worldly people). He says before worldly
people it may do harm, for their minds may not be in a good frame at the
moment, and it might make them worse, and might make them turn away; and
even before good people I should not talk in this way, for good people
may be shocked, and think it too sacred a subject to be talked of before
many; but, Selina, I would like to do all that you have been telling me
you do; I would like to find out texts also, and try to keep them in my
mind, for it is not so easy to be good here as in the island, so many
new things come into my mind here. What was the text you found out for
to-day?”

“It was from the Psalms: ‘Blessed be God which hath not turned away my
prayer, nor his mercy from me.’”

“And what answer did you find?” Leila inquired.

“My answer was also from the Psalms: ‘I sought the Lord and he heard me,
and delivered me from all my fears.’”

“And it was an excellent answer,” Leila observed, “and very comforting.
I am so glad, Selina, you have told me of this plan. I know a great many
texts, for you know in the island I had no other book to read but the
Bible, but I never thought of this plan; I wish I had.”

Tears stood in Matilda’s eyes: “I do not know the Bible by heart as
Leila does,” she said; “but you, Selina, will find out a text to suit
me, and I will learn it,” and she rose and left the room.

“I must go to her,” Selina said; “she is a dear, kind sister to me, and
always so sorry when she does wrong.”

Leila was left alone. “Such a happy home preparing for me, and so many
to love,” she whispered to herself; and clasping her hands together, she
looked up for a moment, then left the room to seek her father.




CHAPTER V.


Nearly a month had passed rapidly away: Mr. Howard had been much in
London during the mornings, selecting furniture for Woodlands, and
giving many necessary orders for their future comfort; and Mrs. Stanley
had been well pleased to find that the joint example of Selina and Leila
appeared to have a beneficial effect on Matilda; the daily lessons went
on smoothly and well. Matilda now learned her texts regularly, and after
the first few days, had always selected them for herself; and these
texts generally evinced, not only a knowledge of her own faults, but a
sincere desire to get the better of them: the text for that morning had
been, “Remember not the sins of my youth, nor my transgressions:
according to thy mercy remember thou me, for thy goodness’ sake, O
Lord.”

And the answer she had selected was, “I have blotted out as a thick
cloud thy transgressions, and as a cloud thy sins: return unto me, for I
have redeemed thee.”

During this period Woodlands had been frequently visited. Leila had
become more and more pleased with the grounds, and the beautiful walks
with which it abounded.

Mr. Howard had selected a pretty little cottage, near the poultry-yard,
for Peggy Dobie, and Leila had had much delight in seeing the China
roses, and several pretty creepers, trained on its white walls, and the
little garden put in nice order, and well stocked with useful winter
vegetables. She had asked the gardener to put up a green turf seat in a
warm corner of the garden; he had humbly proposed that it should be in
the shade, but Leila said no--that Peggy Dobie always sat in the sun
when she watched her bees, and that she said, “The sun was gude baith
for bees and bodies, and gladdened her auld heart.”

Peggy had been allowed time to visit her friends before leaving her
country, but the period was now approaching for her arrival, and Leila’s
gay spirits were in full flow. Selina, the cat, and one solitary parrot,
had been poor substitutes for the loss of all the other favourites;
above all, the absence of Dash had been particularly felt and mourned
over. “Now,” she said, “I have but a few days to wait, and I can scarce
count up all the pleasures that are coming upon me;--Woodlands, and all
the Christmas party, with all the friends that I love; and Dash, and
Peggy Dobie, and all my birds and turtle-doves again,--joy, nothing but
joy.”

The morning in which Peggy Dobie was to embark with her precious cargo
rose calm and bright. The wind, which had been threatening to rise the
day before, was completely lulled, and Leila had been rejoicing in the
brightness of the day, and had watched the sun go down in golden
splendour. Later in the evening, however, the wind began to rise again,
but not so as at all to alarm her, and Leila’s tranquil sleep was
unbroken by the coming storm, the loud howling of the blast amidst the
trees, and the sound of distant thunder--it was a fearful night. Mr.
Howard had more than once left his bed to look out upon the scene of
desolation, for the ground was strewed with branches from the trees, and
the clouds were driving before the wind with unceasing velocity. It
recalled to his mind that dreadful night when he seemed about to part
with all most dear to him, and though deeply grateful for the present
safety of one so loved, he yet felt painfully anxious for those that
might now be in similar circumstances. The good old woman too, whom he
had been the means of removing from her quiet home, he thought what
Leila’s grief would be, and his own regrets, if aught of ill befell
her. Of all this threatened danger Leila was in ignorance till awakened
next morning by Nurse: her face of dismay Leila was too sleepy to
observe, but her words were startling.

“Oh, Miss Leila!” she exclaimed, “poor, _poor_ Peggy Dobie, and our
valuable Dash, and all the poor dumb animals.”

“What is it, Nurse?” Leila cried, starting up and rubbing her eyes; “are
they arrived?--but no; that is not possible; they cannot arrive for two
days yet. What has happened? why do you look so? Oh, tell me!”

“Calm yourself, my dear Miss Leila. It was not like my usual prudence to
frighten you in this way; but did you not hear the awful wind in the
night? listen to it now, how it roars.”

Leila was out of bed in a moment, and gazing from the window. The lawn
was strewed with leaves and branches from the trees; one branch lay
across the doorway, so very large, it seemed an entire tree. She
shuddered. Mr. Howard entered the room at this moment, and lifting her
in his arms, he replaced her in bed, and sat down beside her.

Leila’s long dark eyelashes were wet with tears; her cheeks were very
pale, and she trembled violently. Mr. Howard stooped down and kissed her
forehead.

“You were wrong to leave your bed, my child, you are very cold--and
cold also, I fear, from excessive agitation. Now, dear Leila, give me a
proof this day that you are endeavouring to gain more command over your
feelings, and let me see that you do not give way to what are, I trust,
unnecessary fears.”

“Unnecessary?” she replied, in a low voice. “Papa, do you remember
Clara?”

“Yes, my dear child, I do remember; but I remember also that there is
_One_ whose arm is mighty to save. He can say to the angry waves, ‘Be
still;’ and without his knowledge ‘not a sparrow falls to the ground.’
He took Clara to Himself, and He saved us from further trial. He willed
it so--let us trust to Him entirely. He alone, who knows the end from
the beginning, can make all work together for good.”

Leila hastily brushed the tears from her eyes, and laid her little hand
on her papa’s. Mr. Howard started, it was so very cold; but she
struggled for composure, and said in a calm voice,----“Yes, papa, I will
try to think of all this, and my text for to-day shall be, ‘The waves of
the sea are mighty and rage horribly, but yet the Lord who dwelleth on
high is mightier: for He maketh the storm to cease, so that the waves
thereof are still.’ Now kiss me, papa, and please send Amy to help me to
dress, and when I have been to your room to say my prayers and to read
to you, I am sure I shall feel quite comforted again, and you shall see
that I am getting command, papa.”

Leila kept her promise. Not a moment did she give way to outward
emotion, but during that day many an anxious expression passed over her
sweet face, for the storm continued to rage fearfully, and the party
were constantly startled from their seats by the crashing sound of some
large branch from the surrounding trees. These creaking and crashing
sounds constantly brought a frightful moment to Leila’s imagination, and
no one was without anxiety, for it was impossible to believe but that
such a storm must bring disastrous consequences to many an anxious
heart. Selina seldom left Leila’s side for a moment, and made constant
efforts to draw her into conversation; and Matilda, as every fresh gust
of wind arose, exerted herself in every way she could think of to
distract her attention from the scene without. Later in the day it began
to rain heavily, and the wind fell, and towards evening the sky cleared,
and the moon shone out so bright, so calm, its mild rays shed instant
peace and hope into Leila’s young heart, and she lay down to sleep with
many bright anticipations of the morrow.

The morrow came, the lawn looked fresh and green, all traces of the
storm had been removed, and every surrounding object seemed rejoicing
in the sunshine. Leila proposed that after the lessons they should walk
with Nurse and Amy to Woodlands to see if all was in order in Peggy
Dobie’s cottage for her reception in the evening.

“I am sorry,” she said, “that she is not to arrive here at first with my
pets, for we cannot know the very moment, and it will take some time for
Bill to send us the message. How nice it would be if we had a
carrier-pigeon, papa, then it could fly to us in a moment; when we are
staying at Woodlands, perhaps you will allow me to teach a
carrier-pigeon, then I can send letters to Selina and Matilda whenever I
wish to tell them any thing. Eh, papa? is not this a nice little plan?
But you have not answered me yet if we may go to Woodlands.”

“Why, my dear child, so many nice little plans from you come popping
out, one after another, that it is not easy to answer them all; but I
have no objections to your going to Woodlands, only remember, Leila,
that it is not at all certain that Peggy will arrive this evening; the
steamboat will probably have been detained by the storm.”

“Well, papa, I will try to be very patient; but I don’t think it will be
detained; I think that perhaps the wind will have blown it on much
quicker; so we must be quick also. You know, papa, you say we must not
anticipate evils, or give way to imaginary fears, eh, papa?”

“Get along, little woman,” was all Mr. Howard’s answer, as he patted her
head, and the next moment she was gone.

As soon as the lessons were over, the young party proceeded merrily on
their way to Woodlands. They soon reached the lodge, and found Bill at
his post, who opened the gates, and gave them entrance with the greatest
alacrity; and when informed of their intention to visit Peggy Dobie’s
cottage, took down a large key that hung behind his own door, and
prepared to lead the way. He would not hear of Nurse’s proposal to save
him that trouble. “What!” he said, “was he not proud to do that small
service for his master’s daughter, or any of her friends--he hoped to do
many a greater service than that for the family ere long.”

They were all much pleased with the perfect order in which they found
every thing around the cottage, and still more delighted with all
within. Mr. Howard had indeed done his part; the little bed-room looked
so comfortable, with its nice tidy bed in one corner, its chest of
drawers, its white deal table, with basin, ewer, &c., all, in short, was
complete. And then the kitchen--the kitchen was a picture indeed; there
stood the pretty chairs, and the small round table of walnut-tree,
looking so bright, which Leila had entreated her papa to procure for
Peggy. In a corner next the latticed window, was a small cupboard with a
glass door, showing such pretty cups, saucers, and glasses within, as
could not fail soon to become the pride of Peggy’s heart. Above the
small dresser there were shelves with plates, and dishes, and bowls, and
mugs innumerable, and close by the door a cuckoo clock was ticking
cheerily. They all looked round in perfect ecstasies.

“It is most delightful,” Leila exclaimed; “there is just one thing that
could be better, this arm-chair for Peggy should be turned round to the
hearth, a cat should be lying before it, and a nice fire burning. Were
you able to find peats in this country?” she said, turning to Bill; “you
know I begged you to try.”

“Yes, yes,” Matilda said, “he did find them--I saw them in a box behind
the door.” She was off in a moment, and returned with a couple in her
hand.

“Now, Nurse, dear Nurse,” Leila said, coaxingly, “do let me light
Peggy’s first fire myself--you know how very kind she was to me; now
there’s a good Nurse, I see you are going to let me--you have your
good-natured face on, though you are shaking your head; but I know what
you mean by shaking it--you think I shall dirty my hands, and that is
not a young lady’s work; but peats don’t dirty the hands--I am only
going to put on peats and wood, you know.”

“Oh, Miss Leila, Miss Leila, you have such a way with me.”

“But, Nurse, you know you say yourself that I should not have useless
hands and be a fine lady. There, now I see it is yes by your eyes.
Matilda, give me that match-box from the chimney-piece.” She was on her
knees on the hearth, and had struck a light in a moment.

“Now, Selina, take the bellows, and blow very gently while I am
crumbling down a little of the peat; that’s it. Oh, how nice! See what a
blaze already--now for the wood; we must put the wood behind, and more
peats in the front--how it burns! is not this charming?”

Bill stood looking on in mute astonishment. “Well,” he said at last,
“desert island, or _no desert island_, you are a handy little miss; see
when a London young lady would have kindled a fire in such a
fashion,--but you seem all of one stamp. Heaven be praised for such a
family.”

“There is still one thing wanting,” Leila said, “still the cat. Peggy
will not think herself at home without a cat upon the hearth. You are so
good-natured,” she continued, looking up in Bill’s face, “perhaps you
would be so very kind as to give us your cat, just for one day, till
Peggy has time to unpack her own.”

Bill smiled. “There is nothing in my house that I would not give,” he
replied, “to pleasure my young mistress; but, bless your heart, the cats
in our country would never abide on a strange hearth. Our cat would be
through the window in no time, I am afeared.”

“It was very foolish in me to propose this,” Leila answered, “for I dare
say all cats are the same, and our Selina almost mewed her heart out
when she was first put into the ship--she can’t bear strange places
either.”

Once more she looked around the room to see if all was perfect; the
small latticed window with the China-roses clustering in about it, she
was sure would delight Peggy, for Peggy was so fond of flowers; might
they not gather a few and make a nosegay for the middle of the table.
The next moment they were all in the little garden--the flowers were
quickly gathered and arranged, and after giving Bill many injunctions to
be so very kind as to step up frequently and put more wood on the fire,
and also to be quite sure to send off a quick messenger the very moment
Peggy and the pets entered the gates, they left the cottage.

They had not time to enter the house at Woodlands, where all with regard
to furnishing had been going on prosperously, but they had seen what had
been done there more than once. Leila had thought it all beautiful, but
she had a simple taste; she really did not like fine things, and her
only request with regard to the furnishing had been, “Nothing fine in my
room, papa--please, nothing fine; just a nice little bed with white
dimity curtains, and a large sea-grass mat under my little
washhand-stand, for I don’t like to wash and dash and splash on a
Brussels carpet.”

The rest of the day passed in pleasant expectation, but towards evening
the young people got very restless indeed, and little Alfred was
perpetually popping out at the door and running a little way down the
gravel walk, in the hope of meeting some one from Woodlands, and
bringing the first intelligence; but no carrier-pigeon or swift
messenger of any kind arrived; and at a later hour than usual the young
people retired to rest, disappointed, but not alarmed. To-morrow was a
new day, and to-morrow would bring all they wished. But to-morrow came;
it was a long trying day of expectation, and still no tidings were
received. It was with great difficulty that they could attend at all to
their lessons; but Mrs. Stanley was very indulgent, and repeated most of
them herself; and the moment they were over, she despatched them all to
count over their clothes, and to put their drawers in order; to be busy
and active was what she particularly required of them on that long, long
day. It came to an end at last, and they went early to bed; but Mr.
Howard had now become seriously uneasy, and next morning, as soon as
breakfast was over, went to London to inquire at the steamboat office if
they had received any intelligence with regard to the “Victoria.”

Leila’s face quite brightened as she saw him depart; the very idea that
he would bring back intelligence quite raised her spirits; she never for
a moment dreaded that this intelligence might not be favourable.

Mr. Howard returned sooner than was expected, but he had learned
nothing. Neither the Victoria, nor the other steamboat which had sailed
on the same day, had come in, and the owners were in much anxiety, as
there were reports of several wrecks on the coast. This last part of the
intelligence received, Mr. Howard did not communicate to Leila, but he
looked anxious, and she knew his face too well not to feel considerable
alarm. Next day he again went to London. Mrs. Stanley saw it would be
too much to ask any of them to attend to their lessons; Leila was
beginning to have a pale, exhausted look, she therefore gave Selina a
book of natural history to read to them aloud, while the other two
worked by the window. Poor Leila, she did not listen much. She worked
very little, and looked out a great deal; after some hours horses’ hoofs
were heard on the gravel walk; she saw her papa alight at the door; her
heart beat violently; she felt unable to move; he looked up and smiled;
she could not read that smile; it was sweet as usual, for when was his
smile ever otherwise when it rested on her? But it was a melancholy
smile. He entered the room, they all clustered round him.

“The Victoria has come in,” he said.

Leila clapped her hands. “My pets, my pets,” she cried; “and Dash, and
Peggy Dobie--all--ALL safe!”

“Dear child,” Mr. Howard continued, looking anxiously at her, “dear
child, your pets are safe, but Dash and Peggy--” he stopped.

“What of them, papa? Oh tell me, tell me quick--why do you look so
grieved?”

Mr. Howard drew her towards him. “Try to calm yourself, my beloved
child, for you have much to bear. Peggy and Dash are not in the
Victoria; they have not been seen since the night of the storm.”

“But how is that possible, papa? It cannot be, they were in the
ship--oh, yes they were. I cannot understand what you mean. I am not
very frightened; say it all out quick.”

Mr. Howard then went on to say that he had not been able to see the
captain, and had got but a confused account from two of the sailors, but
that both agreed in the same story. The storm had been most fearful;
they had anchored that dreadful night off Scarborough, but with little
hope of being able to keep their anchor. They expected every moment to
be driven on the shore. The passengers in the fore cabin were too much
frightened to keep below as they were advised and entreated to do. A
heavy sea had swept the deck, and several of them were swept overboard.
Peggy, with Dash by her side, had been seen on deck the moment before by
both these sailors. The night was frightfully dark, the sea running
mountain high; to save any of them was impossible. Next morning both
Peggy and Dash were amongst those missing.

Leila for a moment did not utter a word, she grew deadly pale, then
throwing her arms round her papa’s neck, she cried, “Lost to me, lost to
me for ever! Oh, poor Peggy, and my dear, dear Dash--my dearest
friend--” but seeing her papa’s look of distress, she stopped, then
continued, “I am wrong, very, very wrong; I am vexing you. Peggy herself
said, if the dearest was left, if she had him to love and him to listen
to--and have I not you, papa, and are you not my dearest one, and so
many besides to love?” and she drew Selina towards her, and with her
pocket-handkerchief she wiped Selina’s eyes, then went on, “and it is
bad in me to be so sorry for Dash--for poor Peggy is a human being--but
Dash, my own Dash, and twice he saved my life.” She covered her face
with her hands and sobbed violently.

Mr. Howard did not attempt to console her or to stop her tears; he
lifted her gently in his arms, and laying her on the sofa, sat down
beside her, clasping her hand in his.

After some time she became more calm; she lifted his hand to her lips
and kissed it, then shutting her eyes she in a few minutes dropped
asleep; it was but a troubled sleep, but all were thankful that it had
brought forgetfulness for the present. After some time she awoke with a
sudden start, slowly she remembered all. Sad memories they were which
clouded her sweet face, and tears again filled her eyes, but brushing
them hastily away, she said, in a low voice, “The great trial has come
to me at last, and I must bear it, but God will help me.” Then rising
from the sofa she slowly left the room.

Matilda sprang up to follow her, but Selina held her back, and whispered
in her ear, “You had better not, Matilda: I am sure Leila has gone to
her own room to pray.”

Anxious to see the captain of the Victoria, and if possible to obtain
more intelligence, Mr. Howard, on the following morning, again went to
London, but to his disappointment found that the vessel had sailed on
her downward passage a few hours before. A gentleman came into the
office while he was there to inquire for one of his trunks which was
missing, and Mr. Howard found he had been a passenger in the Victoria.
He said he had been much at sea, but had only once before been out in a
similar storm; that their escape had been most providential, as several
vessels near them had been driven on shore. The frightful accident which
had taken place had thrown a heavy gloom on all; their being unable to
render any assistance had been heart-rending; it was a moment, he said,
he never could forget, but the darkness of the night and the violence of
the storm had rendered all attempts impossible. Not half an hour after
the wind had fallen in some degree for a short time, and a boat had put
off from the shore; some of the passengers had taken advantage of this,
and had left the vessel; but it seemed to him as if no boat could live
in such a sea, and he had, after some hesitation, resolved to abide by
the ship.

Leila listened in breathless agitation. “And Peggy, papa, and Dash? did
he say nothing of them?”

“He spoke of Dash, my love, with much regret; he said he was a most
noble animal. He seemed not to be aware to whom it belonged.”

Leila sighed heavily. “A most noble animal; yes, he was noble, every
body loved Dash.” Then taking her papa’s hand, she looked anxiously up
in his face, and said, “Dash could swim so well; do you think, papa,
there is any----” She stopped.

“Any hope, you would say, my love; I fear, Leila, we must not trust to
it, but the same idea struck me, and before I left town I wrote an
advertisement, fully describing Dash, and giving our address; and this I
sent to the ‘Times’ newspaper office.”

“Oh, thank you, thank you, dear papa,” and she hastily walked to the
window and looked out. She was determined not again to give way.

Leila’s naturally buoyant spirits did not long remain much depressed;
still the sudden shock, after all her bright anticipations, had been so
great, that it left evident traces in her appearance, and when any
accidental circumstance recalled the late events, a pang of such acute
sorrow shot through her frame as it greatly pained Mr. Howard to
witness, and he was not sorry that neither Mr. and Mrs. Herbert nor the
Selbys had accepted his invitation for Christmas; the Selbys had a
family party that day, and the Herberts were on a tour of visits; both
parties, however, promised to be at Woodlands soon after Christmas, and
Mr. Herbert added, that if Mr. Howard would allow him, he would be glad
to introduce to him his son, who would be at home for the holidays.
Christmas-day, therefore, would be spent in a manner more congenial to
the tone of their present feelings; and Mr. Howard arranged that they
should not remove to Woodlands till a few days before, when Leila could
have the comfort of having her uncle and aunt and her cousins with her.

The meeting with her pets again had been very trying to Leila, and still
more so was her first visit to Peggy Dobie’s cottage; Susan, Bill’s
wife, had been employed to take charge of her pets for the present, till
some one could be found to fill the situation, and the cottage had
continued locked up. Matilda had in vain tried to dissuade Leila from
making this visit, but she said she felt sure she would feel better when
it was over, and she thought of it so much; and Selina seemed to be of
the same opinion. It appeared as yesterday when she had been there
before, but with what different feelings! there stood the glass with the
withered flowers, on the little table, and the wood-ashes lay cold upon
the hearth. Leila gazed earnestly on every object which before had given
her such delight; the tears ran silently down her cheeks, there was no
violent emotion. She turned Peggy’s own chair from the hearth, and
placed it against the wall, then left the cottage followed by Selina and
Matilda. She was certainly better after all this was over, yet there
were feelings which did not soon leave her; she could not help
remembering, with self-accusation, that her papa had only yielded to
Peggy’s removal to England in consequence of her entreaties; he had at
first represented to her that at Peggy’s time of life it were wiser to
leave her in her own country, and probably more for her happiness to do
so; but Leila had been carried away too much by her own wishes in this
instance to practise the lesson of self-sacrifice which her papa so
often inculcated; she now felt this deeply, and it was a lesson not lost
upon her.




CHAPTER VI.


The day had now arrived when Mrs. Roberts was expected; the young people
were all assembled in the school-room busy with their different tasks;
Selina and Leila were seated silently at their writing-desks,
translating English into French; Alfred quietly in a corner, drawing
birds and animals on a slate, his favourite employment. Matilda alone
was restless and unquiet; she kept constantly running from the table to
the window, holding a book of French dialogues in her hand, and looking
out on the approach, while she rhymed the same phrase over and over
again: “Il faudra faire comme nous pourrons, il faudra faire comme nous
pourrons, il faudra faire comme nous pourrons; now surely this is
knocked into my brains.”

Selina shook her head.

“Well, Selina,” she continued, “you need not shake your head; il faudra
faire comme nous pourrons, and I am sure I am doing the best I can.”

“Are you?” Selina quickly said, and went on with her writing.

“How provoking you are, Selina; there do you two sit as quietly as if
nothing were going to happen, and as if Mrs. Roberts might not arrive
every moment.”

“But will running to the window and shaking the whole room make her come
any sooner?” Selina inquired.

“To be sure it will, that is, I shall see her sooner. Alfred, do run
down and listen if you hear a carriage,” and she snatched the slate from
his hand; “there’s a good boy, run down and do like Fine-ear, you know;
stoop down and put your ear to the ground, there’s a man,” and she
pushed him out at the door.

Alfred returned again almost immediately. “I could not play at fine-ear,
Matilda,” he said, “for I saw the carriage at a little distance the
moment I went out; listen, it is stopping at the door now.”

All the three young girls jumped up and ran instantly to the window. The
steps of the carriage were let down, a ladylike person, rather slender,
and rather above the middle height, stepped out, her bonnet entirely
concealing her face. Mr. Stanley came forward, he seemed to welcome her
kindly; they entered the house together. The next moment they heard the
drawing-room door close. Matilda glided from the room.

Selina looked anxiously after her; in a few minutes she returned.

“I have seen her trunks,” she said; “I don’t like them.”

Selina looked distressed.

“Well, Selina, why do you put on that sorrowful face? I did not say I
did not like her. Come, cheer up, I will do the best I can.”

The drawing-room bell rang; in a few minutes Amy tapped at the
school-room door to say the young ladies were wanted in the
drawing-room. They all went down.

Mrs. Roberts seemed talking earnestly to their mamma when they entered;
but she stopped, and as Mrs. Stanley introduced them, said a few kind
words to each. Her face was not pretty till she smiled; her smile was
very pleasing, and her voice was low and sweet. Leila felt she should
like her; both she and Selina, when addressed, said something in return,
and probably just what they ought to say, though no one heard it;
Matilda said nothing. Almost immediately after Mrs. Stanley told them
they might return to the school-room, that Mrs. Roberts was probably a
little tired with her journey, but if she felt inclined by and by for a
walk, they might join them in the garden.

It was all over in a moment. “Well,” Matilda exclaimed, as they entered
the school-room again, “how do you like her?”

Both answered, “Very much, we like her very much.”

“Very much,” Matilda repeated; “well, I don’t. I don’t like her at all.”

“And why, Matilda? why do you not like her?” Selina anxiously inquired.

“I don’t like her nose.”

“Don’t like her nose!”

“No, I don’t; she has a pinched nose, and don’t you see it droops?”

Selina saw that at this moment it was a hopeless case; she did not even
attempt the vindication of the nose.

Mrs. Stanley was not disappointed in her expectations with regard to
Mrs. Roberts; she proved to be a highly principled, amiable,
accomplished woman, and with a gentle steadiness about her which
peculiarly fitted her for the task she had undertaken. With Selina and
Leila she had comparatively little trouble, and they soon became fond of
her, and anxious to give her satisfaction, but with Matilda she had a
far more difficult task; besides having strong prejudices to combat, she
had to struggle not only with careless inattentive habits, but often
with an obstinate determination not to overcome them, for Matilda’s
goodness as yet only came by fits and starts; there was no very steady
improvement, and the arrival of Mrs. Roberts seemed rather to have
thrown her back. She had fancied that she would not like her, and she
seemed too often to have a wish to act up to the opinion she had formed.
Mrs. Roberts’ patience with her was wonderful; indifferent observers
might have fancied that Matilda was her favourite; she spoke more to her
than to the others, often conversing cheerfully with her on interesting
subjects, and trying to draw out her feelings and sentiments; and
Matilda, though she gave her much trouble, was not quite insensible to
this. There were times when she acknowledged that Mrs. Roberts was
rather a kind person, though her nose did droop.

The removal to Woodlands now took place, and the following morning Mrs.
Roberts granted a holiday to the young people, that every room in the
house might be visited and properly admired, and also that Leila might
have time to settle with Susan as to a convenient arrangement for
several of her pets, while, with the assistance of her cousins, she hung
the cages with the parrots and the smaller birds up in the conservatory.
She had for some time been bringing up a pair of turtle-doves as a gift
to Mina, and teaching a young parrot to speak, which she intended for
Louisa. The turtle-doves were now at a very interesting age, just
beginning to be independent, and to coo to each other in a most
melodious manner, and the parrot gave proof of fine abilities, and could
already say, “I am Louisa’s pretty bird.”

The house was most comfortably though simply furnished; but the
conservatory delighted Leila more than any part of it: the flowers so
fragrant, so bright and beautiful, and the birds so happy, they were
already singing in the branches. Once more she walked about amongst the
birds and flowers, and felt that but for one sad thought she would not
have had a wish ungratified. She quite longed to give her papa an
account of all her arrangements, and went in search of him. She found
Mr. Howard reading in his library, but he answered her little tap at his
door with his usual kind voice.

“Come in, I think I know who is there; what have you got to tell me,
love?” and the book was thrown aside, and she, seated on a low stool at
his knee, kept looking up in his face, and pouring out her little
history, he entering into all her arrangements with all the attention
and satisfaction her heart could desire. “And now, papa,” she continued,
“you know I am of a great age now, I am eleven, and I want to talk to
you a little about my responsibilities.”

“Your responsibilities, my love!--that is a very fine word for you;
where did you pick up that word, Leila?”

“I think it is a very nice word, papa, and I understand it; and you must
know I have responsibilities in my new home, for I heard Aunt Stanley
say to Mrs. Roberts the other day, that Miss Palmer had gone now to keep
her father’s house, and would have many responsibilities; that besides
the regulating the house, and attending in every way to his comfort, she
would also have the school to attend to, and the poor people to visit,
and it was a large parish. I could not find out what a large parish
meant, but I understood all the rest; and don’t you think, papa, I
should have a school, also, and visit the poor people?”

“No, dear Leila; I think you are too young to have a school at present;
but don’t look so disappointed, my love; let us talk this matter over
quietly. Miss Palmer is a great many years older than you are, she is a
grown-up young lady, and it is quite right that she should in every way
imitate her excellent mother’s example, and endeavour to make up as much
as lies in her power for the loss they have sustained in Mrs. Palmer’s
death: but you, my love, are still a child, and requiring too much
instruction yourself to be able to instruct others; yet you, dear
Leila, also have your responsibilities.”

“I am so glad of that papa,”--and her countenance brightened again.

“Yes,” Mr. Howard continued, “you are responsible for the talents God
has entrusted to you, for the employment of your time, for the
cultivation of the abilities He has given you; for the use you make of
the religious instruction you receive in correcting your faults; you are
by nature ardent and impetuous, you must struggle for the mastery over
yourself; for more self-denial, in rejecting the sudden impulses by
which you are governed; you must try to check that excessive sensibility
which, if indulged in, must unfit you for the necessary exertion for the
welfare of others which is so high a duty, and without which you would
soon become a useless, selfish being--turning away from the misery of
others, from the fear of what you yourself must feel in witnessing it.”

“But, papa, if I am not to teach a school or visit the poor, and only to
cultivate abilities, is not that turning away from others, is not that
being selfish?”

“But, my dear Leila, it is by no means my wish that you should turn away
from others; though you are as yet too young to teach a school yourself,
you are not too young to accompany your Aunt Stanley when she goes to
visit the school, in which she takes so much interest. Selina often
accompanies her; I shall ask her to allow you to do so also; and in this
way you will become acquainted with the duties you will, I trust, one
day fulfil yourself. You will, also, accompany me in visiting the poor;
you have now a weekly allowance, which, though not much, will still
enable you, by practising self-denial in some of your own desires, to
save a little each week for the benefit of others: with this you can
sometimes buy materials which may be useful to poor children; and by
employing some part of your time in making them up, you can bestow a
double benefit; for remember, Leila, it is not real charity to give of
your superfluity only.”

“I know it, papa; I know that you are thinking now of the rich man
throwing into the treasury, and the widow’s mite, and I will try to be
the widow’s mite. Am I staying too long, papa?” she continued; “must I
go now? perhaps you wish to have your book again?”

“No, my dear child, I am in no hurry to resume my book; I am quite
pleased to have a little talk with you; besides, if I had not heard your
little tap at the door just then, I meant to have sent for you--I have
got something to show you.”

“To show me, papa?”

“Yes, my love; something which will interest you, but will also bring to
your mind sorrowful recollections.”

Leila looked up anxiously in her papa’s face. “Is it about Dash?” she
said; “has any one answered the advertisement? or Peggy?--but no, about
Peggy, that is impossible; poor Peggy!”

Mr. Howard smiled mournfully as he answered. “No, my child, I have heard
nothing of them.”

Leila continued: “I have tried to bear it, papa, and not to give way;
and I have prayed to God, and He has strengthened me, and often I feel
quite comforted, sometimes I feel quite happy, just as if it had never
been; but often when I am talking and laughing I am not really happy--I
am only pretending, for Selina and Matilda always look so distressed
when I am sorrowful; but night is the worst--I always think of Peggy at
night;--and how kind she was to me; and there is nobody to be made
sorrowful then, and so I often cry very much; but I won’t talk of it any
more, and I am forgetting you had something to show me;” and she hastily
brushed the tears from her eyes.

Her papa carefully unfolded a small paper which he took from his
pocket-book, and showed Leila a very few small seeds.

“Flower-seeds?” she asked, inquiringly; “are they not, papa?”

“Yes, my love, they are the seeds of Clara’s flower.”

She started. “Of Clara’s flowers! Who has been to visit her lonely
grave? Who, papa?”

“No, one, my love; I gathered those seeds the day we left the island;
but I did not mention it to you, because I thought I had lost them, and
that they had dropped from my pocket-book. This morning I found that
this paper had fallen within another, and that the seeds were still
there; there are only seven of them, but I don’t think there ever were
more, for I remember I had difficulty in finding even these.”

Leila gazed at them earnestly. “I also tried to find seeds that day, and
could get none--how interesting they will be to me. I will plant them
instantly, and when they spring up, I will have some of Clara’s flower
to give to her mamma.”

“But, my dear Leila,” Mr. Howard said, “had you not better wait till
spring? I fear this is not a good time to sow flower-seeds;” but seeing
her look of distress, he added,--“at least, it would be more prudent to
sow only part now, and the others in spring, this will give you the best
chance of securing some of the plants.”

“Well, papa, I will do that, and three I think will be prudent;” and
selecting three of the seeds, she folded them into another paper. “You
had better keep these, papa, that I may not be tempted; and I will go
now to the gardener--he is very good-natured--he will give me a
flower-pot and the proper earth, and I will plant them this moment and
put them into the conservatory. In the conservatory it will be the same
for them as in the island, for it is always so warm there; so you see,
papa, I am very prudent about them, for I did not mean to put them out
in the cold. Every day I shall watch for their coming up. You could not
have given me any thing, papa, so very interesting to me--I will come
back and tell you when they are planted;” and she darted off.




CHAPTER VII.


Old David, who had been many years at Woodlands, was indeed very
good-natured, and from the day when Leila had evinced so much anxiety to
have poor Peggy’s garden put in nice order, had taken quite a fancy to
his young mistress. He stood over her while she sprinkled the earth
gently upon the seeds, having given her a flower-pot of the proper size
to put them in, and he seemed much interested as to their coming up, but
could give no positive opinion when that event might take place. “Some
very small seeds,” he remarked, “came up very quickly, while others of
equal size required to lie in the ground a long time; he would not
despair,” he said, “though they did not make their appearance for a
month; besides, who could tell what might be the nature of flower-seeds
from that outlandish country,” for Leila had told him they came from the
island, though he had no idea of the other circumstances which made them
so precious in her

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eyes. The residence of the squire on a desert island had for some time
past been a favourite subject of discussion both in David’s cottage and
at the lodge, and the wonderful histories related by Nurse had been
listened to with the most profound attention and astonishment, and had
served to throw a sort of romantic interest around both Mr. Howard and
his child. Old David had remarked, “that it was easy to see their young
mistress was something by common, something sae gleesome, and springing
about her as if her foot had been used to the hill-side and the heather
brae. She remembered him muckle of the highland lassies of his own dear
country; for though he had been long enough in England to have forgotten
his Scotch tongue, (and the more the pity,) yet he had not been long
enough to forget their ways, and he was still a highlander in his heart,
every inch of him.”

But to return to Leila. She had just completed sowing the precious seeds
when Alfred ran into the conservatory.

“I cannot find Selina,” he said; “but, Cousin Leila, you are always so
good-natured, perhaps you will go with me to Mrs. Roberts,--I have done
a cruel thing, though I did not mean to be cruel, and I would like to
have some one with me when I tell it.”

Leila, having placed the flower-pot in what David pronounced to be the
most favoured spot in the conservatory, proceeded immediately with
Alfred to seek Mrs. Roberts. They found Selina and Matilda with her.

“Mrs. Roberts,” Alfred began, in a hesitating manner, as they entered
the room, “you told me not to be cruel, and I promised, and indeed I was
not cruel; but I have brought the body to you to see if you can bring it
alive again;” and he placed a little bit of paper, crumpled up, before
Mrs. Roberts.

Matilda jumped up. “What is the boy saying? the _body_! what body?” and
she was about to seize the paper, but Alfred spread his hands over it.

“Matilda, you are not to touch that paper,” Mrs. Roberts said gently;
and, turning to Alfred, she continued,--“and now, my little man, compose
yourself, and tell me distinctly what has happened.”

Alfred then proceeded to say that he had been playing in the garden, and
on lifting up a stone, a number of spiders had run out from below it,
that one was very large and beautifully spotted, that he did not mean to
kill it or even to catch it, only to touch it very gently with his
finger; but on his doing so, immediately all its legs fell off, and it
dropped down dead; that he instantly looked for its legs, but could not
see them, they had quite melted away. And Alfred was so overcome by the
recital of this sad catastrophe, that he dissolved into tears.

“Crying for such a thing as that?” Matilda exclaimed; “foolish Alfred.”

“But, Matilda, it had eight legs.”

“And so,” Matilda continued, “because its eight legs melted away you
must melt away also. Take care, Alfred, we shall be looking for _you_
next on the carpet, and not be able to find you.”

Alfred now did not know whether to laugh or cry, but unfolding the
paper, he carefully laid before Mrs. Roberts what appeared to be a very
small, shapeless particle of brown earth--it certainly had no
resemblance to a spider.

“That is the body,” he said, in a mysterious whisper, intended only for
the ears of Mrs. Roberts; “and now,” he continued aloud, “do you think I
can do any thing to revive it? If I were to put it into a cup of warm
water, perhaps----”

Matilda laughed. “Perhaps its legs would grow on again, you mean. Well,
Alfred, this certainly would be a wonderful water-cure; you should set
up an establishment and call it the warm water-cure for making legs and
arms grow on again. You would make a fortune; for I heard mamma say the
other day, that this seemed to be the age for believing in every sort of
wonderful cure that could be invented, the more improbable the better.”

“How you run on, Matilda,” Mrs. Roberts said; “you should be aware
Alfred cannot enter into all this sort of thing--you forget the
difference of age between you;” then turning to Alfred, she
continued,--“No, Alfred, it would not do to put this spider into water.
This is what is called a wolf-spider, and were you to put it into warm
water, you would certainly kill it; at present I do not think it is
dead.”

Alfred’s countenance brightened.

Mrs. Roberts continued,--“Give me that sheet of white paper.” She placed
the paper on a small work-table in a sunny corner of the room, and laid
the spider upon it.

“Now keep quiet, all of you,” she said, “and we shall see what it does.”
In a few minutes the spider unfolded its legs, and running across the
paper to the edge of the table, it shot out a slender thread from its
body, by which it swiftly descended to the ground.

Alfred clapped his hands, exclaiming,--“Alive, and I did not kill it,
and it has got all its legs again; how very wonderful! But where did the
thread come from by which it got down so very quick? Mrs. Roberts, do
tell me!”

“It spun the thread from a sort of gluey substance which is contained in
the flasks in its body. Each spider has four of those flasks or bags of
gum, and from each tube communicates with what is called its spinneret,
and with the gluey substance which passes through these tubes, it spins
its thread with these spinnerets; it is very wonderful, but too
difficult for you to understand at present. That thread which appeared
to you so fine is composed of many finer threads, which make it
stronger; just as in cords of equal thickness, those which are composed
of many smaller ones united are greatly stronger than those which are
spun at once; but where has the spider gone to now, Alfred? Yes, I see
it; don’t touch it;” and Mrs. Roberts took a cup in which she carefully
caught the spider without touching it, and having placed this cup in a
saucer full of water, she desired them to watch its further proceedings.
The spider ran repeatedly to the brim of the cup descending on the other
side, but was always stopped by the water which surrounded it. Sadly
perplexed by this unexpected obstacle, after having ran round and round
by the edge of the water several times, it stood still, and raised its
two fore-legs in the air.

“It is trying,” Mrs. Roberts said, “to ascertain from which side there
is a current of air to carry its thread to some object to support it,
the opposite rim of the saucer, for instance.”

“Oh, how very curious!” they all exclaimed. But this world of waters
seemed quite overwhelming to the poor spider, who could feel no current
of air, and it was returning hopelessly into the cup when Mrs. Roberts
said,--“Now you shall see it throw its little silken bridge across, and
get free from this sad imprisonment;” and she blew very gently in the
desired direction.

The spider instantly descended again to the edge of the water, and shot
out a thread, which it fixed to the cup at one end, while the other end
floating in the air, also became fixed to the brim of the saucer. It
first pulled this thread with its fore-feet, as if to ascertain its
strength, then passed swiftly along it, spinning another floating thread
as it went, lest the first should not be sufficiently secure to ensure
its safety, and arriving safely on the brim of the saucer, descended the
other side, and once more scampered off.

“Well done, you clever creature,” Matilda exclaimed; “how I wish I could
sometimes escape from the school-room as cleverly.”

Leila glanced towards Mrs. Roberts half afraid.

But Mrs. Roberts only smiled. “You are a sad girl, Matilda,” she said;
“there is much folly bound up in your little heart, but I don’t despair
of you; the time will come, and I trust ere long, when you will not find
the school-room such an imprisonment.”

Matilda looked gratefully at Mrs. Roberts, and sudden in all her
impulses, she jumped up, and kissed her hand; then turning round, she
said,--“But, Leila, you have expressed no surprise at all those
wonderful things! I do believe you knew about them before, though you
did not say a word.”

“Yes,” Leila answered, quietly; “papa told me a good deal about spiders
in the island.”

“Out with it, then,” Matilda said, impatiently; “do, Leila, tell us
every thing you know; how odd you are; when I know any thing I am dying
to tell it. What more did your papa say about them?”

“He showed me a water-spider, sailing in its curious little raft, and
watching for its prey; and a mason-spider, living in a beautiful nest,
lined with a sort of orange- silk, which it had spun itself, and
with a little door to its nest with a spring hinge, which shuts of
itself when the spider goes in. And he did a curious thing about the
eggs of the wolf-spider; he took away the bag of eggs, and then the
little spider carried off the bag belonging to the large spider; and
they had such a fight about it.”

“Oh! do tell us more about that,” Matilda said, eagerly. “I should like
so to hear about the fight; and so the little spider carried off the bag
of eggs belonging to the big spider--that was most excellent!”

“And most just,” Selina observed.

“Now, Selina, that is so like you; how can you expect a spider to have a
sense of justice, and it is natural for spiders to fight, I dare say;
indeed it is natural for other people also sometimes, and just because
they have a sense of justice. But, Leila, do tell us all about it.”

Leila ; “Mrs. Roberts could explain it much better,” she said.

“No, my dear, I don’t think I could; you will do it more simply, because
you will tell only what you understand yourself; but stay, did you not
say, Alfred, that you saw a great many spiders under the stones in the
garden? perhaps, Leila, you might find some with a bag of eggs--take
this tumbler to catch them in--bring two, if you can find them, a larger
and a smaller, and put this paper over the glass, that they may not
escape. Matilda, I see you are eager to go also--you may accompany
Leila; but allow her to catch the spiders--great care must be taken not
to injure the bags.”

They were off in a moment, and soon returned with two spiders in the
tumbler.

“Now we shall see it all,” Matilda said, “you can’t think how cleverly
Leila caught them; she is an excellent spider hunter. Now, Leila, begin;
do try to make them fight.”

Leila lifted the smaller of the two spiders very gently, and took up a
needle.

“Stop, stop,” Matilda exclaimed; “are you going to stick a needle in its
body? I don’t want to see that.”

“No, no,” Leila answered; “don’t be afraid; I am only going to take off
the bag, and the bag is not a part of its body, though it looks like
it--it will easily come off; the spider glues it on, and it can easily
do so again, after we have seen them fight.”

She then very dexterously disengaged the bag of eggs without breaking
it, and put it on the table. The spider, instead of running away, as it
otherwise would have done, showed the greatest anxiety to regain it. She
slowly wandered over every corner of the table, crawling over books,
work-boxes, &c., &c., as if in search of something; then, having at last
discovered the lost bag behind Selina’s work-box, she suddenly made a
rush towards it, and having seized it with her upper pair of jaws, she
ran off with it, carrying it as a cat often does its kitten.

“O look!” Matilda exclaimed, “she is stopping behind your writing-desk,
Leila; she thinks she has got into a cunning hole, where no one will see
her--what is she about now?--she is pushing the bag between her legs,
and I do believe she is glueing it in--yes, indeed, for there she is
scampering off again, and with her bag just as it was before; she will
be off the table in a moment.”

But Leila caught the spider, and taking the bag from her again, she put
her under the tumbler where the larger spider was:--“Now,” she said, “if
they are the same as the spiders in the island, she will fancy the bag
of eggs of the other spider to be her own, and she will fight for it;”
and hardly had she spoken, when both spiders were struggling and
fighting violently for the possession of the bag--they reared themselves
up, extending their front legs in a threatening attitude, and showing
their angry feelings in the most evident manner. In the struggle the
other bag of eggs became detached from the larger spider, and the little
one, after making the most violent efforts to seize it, finally
succeeded; the larger spider having rolled over, the other one scampered
off with the bag, and Leila having raised the tumbler to permit its
escape, it was presently again on the table--it passed its own bag of
eggs on its way to the window, but took no notice, seemingly quite
satisfied with its stolen treasure. The other spider was now also set at
liberty, and having, after running about some time, discovered the other
bag of eggs, it was making a dart towards it, when Mrs. Roberts took the
bag up, and having pricked it with a needle, instantly a multitude of
young ones ran out, and climbing up on the old spider, almost covered
her--she remained quite still, apparently overwhelmed (as well she might
be) with the burden of such a family.

“Poor thing!” Selina observed; “she will never be able to manage so many
little ones.”

“Oh, she will get a governess,” Matilda said; “and I only hope she may
get as good a one as Mrs. Roberts.”

Mrs. Roberts shook her head but could not help being amused:--“You are
an odd girl, Matilda,” she replied; “but you had better take the spider
down into the garden again, it will be more likely to find a governess
there, who will understand the nature of the charge.” She gently lifted
the spider, placed it in the glass, and gave it to Matilda--then added,
“You will be the better, all of you, for a little fresh air in the
garden: I have a letter to write, which has been too long delayed, but I
shall join you there as soon as I have finished.”




CHAPTER VIII.


Christmas had now passed: on the morning of that day they had all
attended church, then walked to a pretty, small village on the property,
to visit several of the cottagers; Mr. Howard having, the day before,
sent money and a supply of blankets and of coats to those that required
such assistance. In the evening a mutual exchange of gifts took place at
Woodlands, which greatly interested the young people; but the day was on
the whole a trying one to Leila; she had not regained her former
spirits, and it seemed as if those particular days to which she had
looked forward with the most pleasure, seemed still more to recall the
memory of her late trial. A short time after Christmas, the expected
party assembled at Woodlands. The Selbys were the first to arrive.
Captain Selby was delighted to see again his little fairy queen, as he
called Leila. Louisa seemed improved, taller, and with more animation of
manner; and the meeting between Leila and her was most affectionate on
both sides. Louisa was soon taken to the conservatory, followed by
Selina and Matilda; Louisa stealing many a look at Selina, who had long
been a subject of much interest to her, though not unmixed with dread,
lest she should too entirely usurp her former place with Leila; but the
kind reception she met with greatly reassured her. She struggled with
her natural timidity, and Matilda did much to establish something like
ease between the parties: she eagerly introduced Louisa to all her
former favourites amongst the pets; and seemed most anxious to draw her
attention to one of the parrots in particular.

“How this one must have grown,” Louisa observed; “I scarcely remember
it: what a pretty bird!”

The parrot instantly flew to the side of its cage, exclaiming, “I am
Louisa’s pretty bird, take me home--pray take me home!”

Matilda clapped her hands. “That is just what I wanted it to do--yes, it
is for you; Leila has taught it to say that--it is to be your parrot.”

Louisa was still holding Leila’s hand, and trying to thank her, when
Leila was called away. The Herberts had arrived. She found Mina eagerly
watching for her at the drawing-room door, all her usual shyness having
given way before the interest of the moment. The meeting between them
was of the most affectionate nature; but no one till that moment had
suspected the depth of feeling with which Leila had looked forward to
seeing Mrs. Herbert again. “Mamma, mamma!” she exclaimed, as clasped in
Mrs. Herbert’s arms, she hid her face on her shoulder, and struggled to
retain her tears. Mrs. Herbert was much affected, and no real mother
could have more fondly returned her caresses; but seeing the struggle
Leila was making to restrain her emotion, she called her son Charles to
her side, and putting Leila’s hand in his, she said with a cheerful
voice,--

“I must not forget my dear child has also a brother to receive, who
longs to know her.”

But Leila was disappointed; Charles was not such as she had expected to
have seen, and looking up in his face she said hastily, “You are too
tall to be my brother.”

The bright, sparkling look of pleasure with which he had approached to
meet her, faded before this reception; he too was disappointed, but he
only said with much gentleness, “That is a fault I cannot change; I can
only try to make you forget it.”

And he did manage to do so in a wonderfully short space of time, for he
had a good deal to overcome. Leila had expected to have seen a little
boy such as Alfred, and had been thinking a great deal of her little
brother, and how she would watch over him, and keep him out of scrapes;
she was quite bewildered when she saw before her a youth apparently
about sixteen, and it was not in the first moments of disappointment,
that his slight graceful figure, his beaming countenance, and deep blue
eyes, so full of sweetness and animation, had any charm for her; but
before the day was over she had told Mina in strict confidence, that she
did not think Charles nearly so tall as she had done at first, and that
she did not know why it was, but she was not half so frightened for him
as she expected she would have been; and the pleasant surprise of next
morning still further promoted intimacy between them. Leila was called
to the window by Selina to admire a beautiful small Arabian pony, which
Charles was leading up the approach towards the house; the side-saddle
and embroidered saddle-cloth seemed to say it was intended for a lady’s
use; and what was Leila’s astonishment and delight, when she found it
was a present from Mr. and Mrs. Herbert to herself; the beautiful
saddle-cloth the work of Mrs. Herbert and Mina. Leila had no words to
express what she felt; for to learn to ride, to have a pony of her own,
to accompany her papa in his rides, had long been the earnest wish of
her heart. Charles was immediately constituted riding-master to the
whole of the young party; a busy time he had, and with strict
impartiality did he fulfil his appointed duty; one point of difference
only did he insist on, he particularly requested that Leila alone was to
speak to the pony and caress it, and it was only to be from her hand it
was to receive a piece of bread on the commencement of its daily
labours, and also at their close. Selina had communicated to Charles the
sad story of Peggy Dobie and the faithful Dash; of all Leila had
suffered, and was still suffering, from their loss; and he felt that
could she become attached to a new object, it might in some degree
interest her mind: but though Leila soon became fond of her pretty
Selim, no new favourite could fill Dash’s place to her; _he_ could never
be forgotten.

Many days passed pleasantly away, varied by rides, and walks, and
reading aloud. In the evening there generally was music. Mrs. Herbert
had a fine voice, which had been much cultivated, and Charles and Mina
did great credit to her instructions; the young people thought there
could be nothing more beautiful than the trios Charles and Mina sang
with their mamma Mrs. Herbert had proposed to have a singing class, and
to instruct the whole group; but Leila alone had become her pupil.
Louisa had very little genius for music; so little, that her mamma did
not wish her to give much time to its cultivation. Selina had been
forbidden to attempt singing for some years, her voice, even in
speaking, being still weak; and Matilda, Mrs. Stanley said, was, from
her habits of inattention, too far back in more necessary studies to be
allowed this indulgence.

Leila made considerable progress; from her having practised the guitar
so much during her residence on the island, she had acquired rather
unusual proficiency on that instrument, and her voice and taste being
naturally good, Mrs. Herbert found her both a willing and a successful
pupil. Matilda had often entreated her mamma to allow her also to learn
the guitar, for Matilda was ever eager for something new, always sure
that what she had no knowledge of would be much more easily acquired
than that which she was then studying; but Mrs. Stanley had always
steadily refused this request, though, at the same time, assuring
Matilda that, as soon as by steady and continued application, she had
made that progress in her other studies which her years and natural good
abilities admitted of, she should have every indulgence in the
cultivation of her musical taste. It had been quite a trial to Matilda
when first told that she was not to be allowed to take advantage of Mrs.
Herbert’s kind offer of instruction; and her temper had been on the
point of giving way, but a look of entreaty from Selina had arrested the
angry words upon her lips; she had hastily quitted the room, and in a
very few minutes had returned with all her usual liveliness and
good-humour.

Mrs. Herbert had considerably regained her health and spirits, and with
the tranquil gentleness of past sorrow there was a warmth of affection
and winning sweetness of manner which each day endeared her more and
more to Leila, who never was happier than when, with her own transparent
openness of character, she was pouring all her thoughts, feelings, and
wishes into Mrs. Herbert’s willing ear.

“I have never told you,” she said one morning, as they sat alone
together, (she on a low stool looking up into Mrs. Herbert’s face,) “I
have never told you how very sorry I was afterwards for having made that
rude speech to Charles when I first saw him; but I was so very much
disappointed, I could not help saying it; I had been thinking so much of
having a little brother, and of how kind I should be to him, and how he
would grow up to love me. And when I saw that tall Charles, I could
scarcely keep from crying, for since my great trial of poor Peggy Dobie,
and my dear, dear Dash, I don’t know why it is, but so often I am ready
to cry when any thing like another trial comes to me--but this has not
turned out a trial after all.”

“So you are getting reconciled then, my love, to Charles being tall, and
don’t wish so much now that you had a little brother rather?”

“No, indeed I don’t--I like it much better; for Charles is so kind, and
takes such care of me, and he is so fond of Mina; he is an excellent
brother; and don’t you think he is an excellent son too? He often looks
at you just as I do at my papa. I am sure he is thinking then that you
never can know how much he loves you. I dare say Charles never does any
thing very wrong; only a little wrong, I suppose, for papa always says
no one is quite perfect.”

Mrs. Herbert smiled. “No, my dear Leila, I do not say Charles is by any
means perfect; he has faults, still I may say that he is one who has
never yet given us cause for serious uneasiness.

“I was sure of that,” Leila answered, “for he always looks as if he
could not bear to vex any one; I often wish to ask him to forgive me for
what I said: but I don’t know why, I often feel a little shy with
Charles, though I like so much to talk to him. I hope it will go off in
time, for I should like to be able to tell him every thing I think, just
as I do to you; if he had been a little boy I would not have cared to do
this, I would only have said little things to make him laugh and to
amuse him; so, as Nurse always says, every thing in this world turns out
for the best, if we would only remember this, and not fret. But,” she
continued, “when I said just now that I told you every thing, I forgot
that there is one thing I cannot tell you.”

“And what is that?” Mrs. Herbert inquired. “Why should you be afraid to
tell me every thing?”

“I am not afraid,” Leila answered; “but it is not the right time yet to
tell. Perhaps I shall be disappointed myself, and then I need not tell
you, for it would only make you sorry; but if it comes up it is for you.
Now I must go to the conservatory; I go there every morning alone, but
don’t ask me why I go.”

Leila stood in the conservatory, earnestly contemplating a flower-pot
she held in her hand, till startled by a voice behind her.

“How now, lady bright, gazing on brown earth, and so many beautiful
blooming flowers around you?”

She looked up; it was Charles who had entered the conservatory
unobserved, and was bending over her shoulder.

“Oh, Charles,” she said, “I am so happy, so very happy; so thankful.”

“Thankful,” he replied; “thankful for small things indeed, for I can see
nothing.”

“Nothing! look again, Charles; only look here--don’t you see?”

“No, I see nothing, and unluckily I have not got my spectacles at hand.”
But observing Leila’s heightened colour, and the expression of her face,
he added in quite a different tone, “Yes, I do see two tiny little green
leaves just peeping above the brown earth; but they will require all
your tender care to rear them. Why are they so precious to you, Leila?
But do not tell me if you would rather not.”

She lifted her eyes to his face. “Yes, I should like to tell you--” she
hesitated, then continued in an agitated voice, “it is seeds from the
flower I planted on Clara’s grave, and perhaps more will spring.”

Charles’s colour mounted to his forehead; he took her hand. “Oh, Leila,”
he said, “dear Leila, how I have longed for this moment, how I have
wished you to talk to me of Clara. Clara, my own sweet sister, my lost
Clara; I seem to see her still, how lovely she was!”

“You knew her then,” Leila said eagerly; “you remember her; but
how--were you not in England?”

“No; from our being up the country and in a good climate, I was nearly
ten years old before it was thought necessary to send me to England;
never can I forget the first time I saw Clara. I was taken into the room
where mamma was lying on her bed, so pale, so beautiful, only the
slightest tinge of colour in her cheek. Clara and Mina lay on each side
of her; she took my hand, a bright flush came into her face for a
moment, ‘My little son,’ she said, ‘may God watch over you and preserve
you to be a protector to your sisters; if these dear ones live to be
sent home to England, you will be already there. Promise me that when
you are together, you will watch over them, and always endeavour by your
own example to teach them to love and serve their heavenly Father. May
you never, dear Charles, forget this moment; may my earnest request be
always remembered, when you yourself are tempted to do what is wrong.”

“And were you sent away from them immediately?” Leila inquired. “How
melancholy this must have been for you!”

“Oh no, not immediately; Clara and Mina were three years old before I
left India. They could talk and run about. In the cool season I used to
make them run races in the garden with each other. They often laughed so
at my constantly mistaking one for the other, for I never could
distinguish them, till mamma put a small gold chain round Clara’s neck.”

“Was it this?” Leila said, as she took a chain from the folds of her
dress, and gave it into his hand.

“Yes, the very same; but there was no locket suspended from it.”

Leila touched the spring, it opened.

“My own mamma,” he said, “and how beautiful! and those laughing
eyes--yes, I remember how she used to look in that way, when she was
playing with us all. And this was Clara’s locket--my own dear sister,
and now, alas! only one remains to me.”

Leila . “Then you will not have me for a sister,” she said, in a
low-toned voice.

Charles’s countenance brightened, as in his usual lively manner he said,
“I thought I was too tall to be your brother.”

“Oh, don’t, don’t say that,” Leila exclaimed; “you don’t know how sorry
I was afterwards, and how often I have wished to ask you to forgive me.
Will you?” and she put her hand into his. “Yes, I see you will, I see it
in your eyes. I always know when people are loving me again by their
eyes.” Selina’s voice was heard calling her; she ran off, but returned
for a moment to say, “Do not tell mamma about the seeds; it is to be a
surprise to her. I have planted four, and if more spring, I should like
so much to give you one also.”




CHAPTER IX.


To pay frequent visits to the village had of late been a great interest
to the young people; they had become acquainted with many of the
cottagers, and Leila had already begun to have a lively interest in
their children. As the party were now to leave Woodlands in a few days,
she proposed one morning that, as the weather was uncommonly fine, they
should cross the fields, under Charles’s escort, and pay a sort of
farewell visit to some of the cottagers. The cold had been so severe in
the night, that the grass still felt crisp under their feet, though the
sunbeams glanced brightly on the scarlet berries of the holly, and on
the slender branches of the forest trees, feathered white by the
hoar-frost. At the village they were welcomed by old and young, for the
kind, frank manners of the young people had made them general
favourites; many of the children ran forward to meet them, but they
missed one little girl whom they had in former visits particularly
distinguished. Her mother’s cottage stood at the end of the village,
and they found Dame Burton standing at her door, looking anxiously in
the direction of the road. She invited them as usual to enter, but
added, “I am rather out of sorts, young ladies, at this moment, for I am
fearing my little Lizzy is getting into idle ways. Not a sight can I see
of her, all the other children in the village home from the school, and
she still loitering on the road. If I had not had the dinner to get
ready, I would have been off to seek her myself, and would have sent her
home in a hurry; but her father will be in to his dinner, and she will
get it from him I am thinking.”

Leila instantly proposed that they should return by the road; “As
Charles is with us, I don’t think papa will be displeased,” she said,
“and we can tell him why.” Then turning to Dame Burton, she added, “We
shall be sure of meeting your little Lizzy if we go by the road, and we
shall send her home to you very quick; but I hope you won’t be angry
with her this time, for you know when it is an interesting play
sometimes one forgets. I forget very often myself, though I am so much
older than Lizzy.”

The young people proceeded on their way, talking and laughing merrily;
Charles protesting “that if they met the little truant, the unworthy
little Lizzy, he would send her home in a hurry; he would give it her,
her father’s anger would be a joke to his.”

Leila looked up in his face in astonishment.

“Never mind him,” Mina exclaimed, observing Leila’s face of perplexity;
“never mind him--don’t believe a word of it, he’s only saying it in fun;
Charles is not the least bit ill-natured. If we meet Lizzy I know the
sort of thing he will do, he will tap her kindly on the back, and say,
‘Now there’s a good girl, run home as quick as you can.’ That’s the sort
of way he will scold.”

“Is it, my little wise sister?” Charles replied, laughing. “Well, well,
you will soon see the contrary; you don’t know what an angry man I can
be; Leila has never yet seen me in one of my right towering passions, it
will frighten her out of her wits.”

“How merry we all are,” Mina said, “and how happy we have all been, and
now in three more days it will all be over!”

“Oh, Mina!” Louisa exclaimed, “do not speak of it; I have been thinking
of it all the time, though I have been trying to laugh. I have never
been so happy before, and now I may never see you all again. You will
all be meeting often, but I shall be far away. You know in two months
we are going abroad. I used to like the thoughts of it so much; now I
cannot bear it. And you, Leila, you will be growing up, and so many to
love you, you will forget me.”

“Never, Louisa, never; you were my first friend, you will always----”
She was interrupted at this moment by the loud screams of a child; they
seemed to proceed from a lane, which, a few yards further on, branched
off from the road. The screams were continued with increased violence.
They caught sight of a little girl struggling to get free from a large
dog, which seemed dragging her along by her clothes.

Leila sprang forward. “Don’t be frightened, Lizzy, don’t; we shall
protect you.”

At the sound of her voice the dog let go its hold with a joyful bark of
recognition, and the next moment was leaping upon Leila with frantic
joy.

“Dash, my own Dash!” she cried, as throwing her arms round his neck, she
almost stifled the faithful animal with her caresses. “But how is this?
Is it my Dash? is it really true? how did it happen? Lizzy, what is the
meaning of this? how did he come here? where did you find him? Oh! tell
me; but how thin you are, my Dash; how changed--oh, he has been
starved! how dreadful! But, Lizzy, run home to your mother; don’t delay
a moment longer--she is sorry you have been so long away; and let us get
home also as quick as we can, that we may get food for my dear Dash.
What joyful news for papa, and for Nurse, and Amy. Poor Peggy! Oh, if
Dash could speak!” She turned to regain the road, but Dash would not
allow this; he began to pull Leila up the lane by her clothes, in the
same way he had been doing to the little girl.

“Don’t oppose him,” Charles said; “there is something under all this, we
had better follow as he leads.” They quickened their pace, but saw
nothing. Dash now frequently ran on a little way before them, returned
again and took hold of Leila’s dress as before, looking up in her face,
as if encouraging her to go on. A sudden thought seized her; she darted
forwards--she ran on a considerable way--suddenly she saw a figure lying
stretched on a bank by the side of the lane; in the next moment she was
kneeling by Peggy Dobie’s side!

The others came up. They found Leila clasping Peggy’s hands and sobbing
violently.

“Her eyes are shut,” she said; “she does not hear me; oh, Charles, tell
me, is she dead? Can we do nothing?”

Dash began at this moment to lick Peggy’s face, she opened her eyes.
“Am I dreaming,” she said, in a low faint voice, “and am I still in the
land of the living? surely it is the faces of my own dear bairns that I
see; but it canna be. Na, na, it is a vision o’ the night, and it will
leave me with the light o’ morning as it has ever done afore; but it’s
morning now. Where am I? how has all this come about? oh! for a drop o’
water and a morsel o’----” Her eyes closed again--the momentary exertion
was too much.

Charles, who had been rubbing her cold hands, sprang to his feet. “It is
food she requires,” he said; “she is starving. I see a house near, I
will be back in a moment.”

He flew off. He returned, followed by the farmer to whom the house
belonged. Charles held a bowl of milk to Peggy’s lips--she seemed unable
to swallow.

“No, no, mister, that won’t do; this is a bad job; there has been both
cold and hunger here; it’s brandy she must have, and that instantly.
Heaven grant it may not be too late; I have my doubts.”

“No,” Leila cried, “don’t say it; we have found her again--she must not
die!”

But the farmer was gone. He returned again in a few minutes with the
brandy and a thick blanket. With Charles’s assistance he poured a little
brandy and water down Peggy’s throat, and wrapped her in the warm
blanket. “These poor thin rags,” he said, “are not for such cold as
this, the poor creature is half frozen; but she is coming about again,
her lips are not just so white; she will do yet; and, by good luck, I
see one of my carts coming from the field; we shall have her into it and
home in a jiffy. Hollo, there! Joe, my man, here’s a bye-job for you.”

Peggy was lifted into the cart, Selina and Leila also getting in and
supporting her in their arms. It was in vain Charles insisted on taking
this office on himself, they would not hear of it; it seemed as if it
were quite necessary for them to hold Peggy fast, as well as see her, to
convince them that the scene before them was not a joyful dream. But
Dash also appeared resolved to make one of the party in the cart--he
leaped in, stretched himself on Peggy’s feet, and to move him was
impossible.

“Let him lie there, he will do much good,” the farmer said; “he is a
wise animal, and I am thinking it is to his good offices that there is
the breath of life in this poor creature. Where is she bound for, young
ladies?”

“To Woodlands,” Leila answered.

The cart proceeded, followed by the others; when they arrived at the
lodge, Bill’s astonishment was great, and his joy also, when he heard
the wonderful news, for he had taken the greatest interest in Leila’s
distress; he called instantly to Susan to accompany them, and taking the
key, which was still in his charge, they took their way to Peggy’s
cottage, Charles having been sent on to the house to request the
attendance of Nurse. “Her papa,” Leila said, “had gone to London with
her Aunt Stanley; but Nurse, she was sure, would be of great use, and
might bring with her whatever she thought necessary for Peggy,” who
still remained in a state of stupor.

The fire was kindled, and Peggy laid upon her bed when Nurse arrived,
who, after giving her a small portion of nourishment, stood by the
bed-side holding her hand and gazing anxiously upon her.

“How wonderful are the ways of Providence,” she said. “To think of Peggy
being restored to us again, she that we mourned as sleeping under the
salt wave!”

Peggy opened her eyes. “And wherefore did ye pit me there?” she said,
with a faint smile. “Na, na, it was nae just sae bad as that, though
it’s been out o’ perils by sea and perils by land that the Lord has
delivered me, praise be to His holy name; but, oh! it’s a deliverance
past my weak comprehension, I canna make it out; but it’s all His
blessed work, and it’s a reality--it’s no’ a dream.”

“No, Peggy, it’s not a dream,” Matilda said, eagerly. “See, we are all
around you, and now Cousin Leila will be happy again, and merry as she
was before.”

“And did the dear bairn grieve sae for me? Oh! what it is to hear the
voices of ye all again, and to see your faces glinting down on me like
the blessed sunbeams on my withered heart; it was for this I prayed and
for this I toiled, as my puir blistered feet can testify; but it is a
strength that I have nought to do with that has brought me to see this
day; and now that the life seems in me again, in a measure, I would fain
ken where I am. Is it your house, Mistress Nurse, that they have brought
me to, and I making sae free, lying in your ain bed, wi’ thae bonnie
genty white curtains, and all sae clean and comfortable about me, and
never sae much as a word o’ thanks? you will think I hae left my manners
in the sea--but we will no speak o’ that awfu’ element.”

“But, Peggy,” Selina whispered, “it’s not Nurse’s house--it is your own;
and Cousin Leila told her papa every thing she thought you would like.”

“Yes,” Matilda added, “and there are peats in a box behind the door;
and you have not seen the kitchen yet, with the walnut-tree table, and
cupboard, and the cuckoo clock--all is for you--it is your own house.”

“My own house,” Peggy repeated, as clasping her hands together in deep
emotion, she added, “O what am I, that such blessings should be showered
upon me, when He whom I serve ‘had not where to lay His head!’ O my
bairns! help me to praise Him, who has brought me out o’ much
tribulation, for my mind’s weak and head sair confused. Could you no’
tak’ the book--it’s the Psalms o’ David that could speak weel for me at
sic a moment.”

“No, Peggy,” Nurse said; “that must not be: God looks to the heart. He
knows all your gratitude to Him--but you are more exhausted than I ever
saw mortal being, and it’s peace and quietness you want; you must try to
sleep, and the young ladies will be gude bairns, (as you call them,) and
go quietly home--they will come to see you again to-morrow, when you
will be more able to speak to them of your mercies, for, surely, it has
been a great deliverance.”

“And may I not stay with Peggy?” Leila said.

“No, Miss Leila, no; Peggy will be better alone with me; and as she will
require a little nourishment now and then, and it will need my
experience to know how much, I will watch by her till the evening; I am
sure my master will spare me on such an occasion; and you may say, that
if it is his pleasure to allow Amy to step down when I leave, and stay
this first night with Peggy, I think it is all she will require.”

On the young people getting up to take leave, a painful struggle took
place in Dash’s upright mind, and for some moments he stood irresolute.
Between the dear young companion of his palmy days and the friend of
late misfortunes the line of duty was difficult to discern;--but this
friend was no longer perishing with hunger and cold, she was now in the
land of plenty and almost smothered with blankets; so Dash wagged his
tail to Peggy and darted after Leila. It was not easy to say which was
most light of foot, as they bounded along--Dash capering and frisking in
renewed health and spirits, and Leila as if she trod on air, so
impatient was she to tell all to her papa; but Mr. Howard was already in
possession of the joyful intelligence, as immediately on his return from
London, he had been informed by Charles of all that had taken place, and
of Nurse having been sent for, and they now met both on their way to
Peggy’s cottage; but on hearing Leila’s account, Mr. Howard thought it
better to delay his visit till the next morning, and retraced his steps
with the rest of the party.

As they entered the house, Leila lingered behind for a moment.
“Charles,” she whispered, in an agitated voice, “if you had not told us
to follow Dash, Peggy would have died. Charles, if you had been a little
boy, you would not have said that.” The bright colour which before had
animated her face had faded, she was pale and trembling; Charles was
alarmed.

“You are ill, Leila!” he exclaimed; “the agitation of all this has been
too much for you.”

“No, I am not ill,” she said quickly; “but I must go to papa.” She
passed him hastily, and entered the library. Mr. Howard looked up--her
appearance alarmed him.

“Has any thing happened?” he inquired; “Leila, my child, why are you so
pale?”

Leila threw herself into her papa’s arms. “Nothing more has happened,
papa; but I don’t know what is the matter with me; it is joy--but it is
too much happiness--how can I ever thank God enough for all that He has
done for me!--He has given me so many blessings. He sent me the trial,
but He has taken it away from me again, and gives me more than ever
joy--tenfold joy, papa--what can I say to Him--what can I do?--surely, I
am most ungrateful--my heart is very full, but I feel as if I could do
nothing.”

“You can give your heart more entirely, my love, to Him, who has given
so much for you; you can think of Him, love Him, walk with Him, and make
Him more and more to you an all-sufficient Saviour.”

“But, papa, what frightens me is this; I have more blessings here than I
had in the island--friends, and beautiful rooms, and fortune, and every
thing I could wish for--but it does not make me give my heart more to
God. I used to think of God more in the island, when I saw His beautiful
world all around me; here it is beautiful also, but so many pleasures,
and so many people to love, take up my heart; perhaps it would be better
for me if I had trials.”

“My dear Leila, you must beware of the error of believing, that were
your situation different, you would be better than you are now; the
fault is in yourself, not in the circumstances which surround you. You
think it would be better for you if you had trials; you have a trial at
this very moment--the trial of prosperity, and it has often been found
more difficult to bear than the heaviest misfortunes. Remember the words
of your blessed Saviour, that ‘it is easier for a camel to go through
the eye of a needle, than for a rich man to enter the kingdom of God.’
The possession of riches often tends to increase pride and
self-indulgence; they expose you to flattery and to many temptations to
pleasure, which make the self-denying principles of Christ more
difficult to follow; it is not money alone, that is here meant, but all
the sinful vanities of a worldly life.”

“Well, papa, and is not this just what frightens me? Would it not be
better for me to have no money, and to live in some quiet place like the
island, where we should have nothing to tempt us off?”

“No, my dear child, had it been so, we should have been continued there;
but the Bible does not tell us to renounce the world, but to overcome
the world. We are to live in it, but not to be led by it. If we have the
advantages of fortune and station in life, we have also greater
responsibilities--we are responsible for the example we set to those who
look up to us, and for the use we make of those riches which are
intrusted to us, and for which, as faithful servants, we must one day
give an account.”

“Then, papa, this is what you mean when you say, this world is a state
of trial; for it is not only a trial when we are poor and miserable, but
when we are rich and happy--I never thought of that before, but then we
can never be at peace, papa, nor enjoy being happy.”

“Yes, my child, we can be so, by endeavouring to bring eternity more
constantly before us, and by giving to things present only their proper
value: this will not prevent our enjoying them where consistent with
duty, but will prevent our feeling as if all were lost when they are
taken away; for God has promised to ‘keep him in perfect peace, whose
mind is stayed on Him.’ If we could only keep constantly in mind, that
every event, whether happy or mournful, if properly received, will work
together for our everlasting good, we should indeed enjoy ‘that peace
which passeth all understanding.’ Go then, my dear child, and enjoy the
many blessings which surround you, with a grateful heart.”

“Yes, papa, I will go to Charles, and tell him you have made me well
again: he thinks I am ill, which will make him sorry, for you don’t know
what a kind brother he is to me, and I like him so very much; he is one
of my blessings, and I think he will work for good, for he always tells
me what is right--good-bye, papa.”




CHAPTER X.


The young people were all impatience next morning to visit Peggy Dobie’s
cottage. They met Mr. Howard returning from it, who told them they would
find Peggy much recovered. He had found her up, sitting by the fire
reading her Bible, and full of gratitude and thanksgiving for the
blessings which surrounded her.

“My bairns,” she said as they entered, and she closed her Bible and laid
aside her spectacles, “you have come at the right moment--I hae been
giving praise to Him that has lifted me out o’ my sair tribulations, and
it is here I hae found the words, and noo may He put into my heart what
I should say to you; how can I ever thank you enough for all I see about
me, for all you have done for me?”

“You need not thank us, Peggy,” Leila answered; “for we are as happy as
you are; and it is so joyful that you should be alive, and so wonderful,
that we can scarce believe it;--and so you like your house?”

“Like it, Miss Leila! ’deed that’s no’ the word to testify my wonderment
at all I see around me. I hae been looking at that cupboard, wi’ all the
tumblers and glasses sparkling and shining like a leddy dressed out in
her diamonds, and praying that my auld head may not be turned all the
gether wi’ the vanities o’ life; but to feel that I hae come to sic a
haven o’ rest, to lie down on that bed last night, and to think it was
my ain; to think that I am no longer a wanderer on the face o’ the
earth, without a covering to my auld head, or a friend to speak the word
o’ comfort to my crushed spirit--no, it’s no’ just at ance that I can
get into a measure o’ composedness for sic a change as this. I am in a
bewilderment o’ joy and gratitude--and there’s Dash, bonnie man, wagging
his tail, and aye looking in my face; he is telling me we are in the
land o’ Canaan noo. O let me ever thank God for all his mercies; and let
me thank you also, my dear bairns, for all your kindness to me; for
never did I think to have seen your bit canty faces again in the land o’
the living, for it’s out o’ the swellings o’ Jordan that puir auld Peggy
has been delivered by an arm o’ strength.”

“It is so nice to hear you speaking Scotch again,” Matilda said; “I like
it so much. That word canty is such a nice word, and it is so nice to
have you back again when we thought you dead; but how did it all happen?
Were you not washed overboard in the storm? You must tell us all about
it. How were you saved?”

“Yes,” Leila said, “it will be such an interesting story, and so long;
for you must tell us every thing from the very beginning. But you are
not to tell it all in one day, for that would tire you. You are very,
very thin, Peggy,” and Leila took Peggy’s withered hand in hers; “can we
do nothing to make you better? If it will tire you to speak, we will
wait for the story till another day.”

“No, my dear bairn, it will no tire me; and it’s weel my part to do all
I can to pleasure you or yours, though I will not just say but what I
may feel a wee thought ashamed to tell sic a lang tale afore all the
young ladies, and this fine young gentleman.”

“But Peggy,” Leila said eagerly, “he is not a fine young gentleman; he
is so kind and good-natured, he will like to hear the history of all
that has happened to you very much; and if he does not understand all
the Scotch words, I will explain them to him afterwards; he is my
brother Charles now, you need not be afraid of him.”

“Your brother, is he? Weel, weel, sae let it be for the present, my
bonnie lamb. And noo where am I to begin in this lang tale?”

“At the very beginning,” Leila and Matilda both exclaimed at once; “at
the very beginning, Peggy, when you first embarked with all the pets.”

“Ay, ay, and to think I hae no had the grace to ask after the puir dumb
things; but I am sair bewildered, and I kent they needs be safe, for
there’s my cat that was amang them, just lying afore the fire quite
contented, and no ways strange, puir thing. That civil gentleman, Master
Bill, (I think they call him,) brought it up to me this morning, and my
trunk too with my big Bible, and all the bits o’ things that are sae
valuable to me.”

“But the story, the story, Peggy,” Matilda exclaimed, rather
emphatically.

“Yes, my bairn, that’s true, I was forgetting, and it’s aye the story,
the story, wi’ you young things. Weel then, to begin at the very
beginning, as you say. We got into the ship, (that is, the pets, as Miss
Leila calls them, and me,) and it was a bonnie day, and the sea
sparkling like diamonds, and wi’ a most deceitfu’ and canny look; but it
was all put on; no a word o’ truth in it, for it’s a most unchancy and
awfu’ element, and in no ways to be trusted by a Christian woman. Weel,
my first discomfiture was when I was telt that I was by no means to go
near the pets, or to take any charge, for they would have better care
than mine; deed, and I was in no ways weel pleased, forbye that I had
been thinking the parrots would have been gude company, and that I could
hae given them some gude instruction maybe, puir things, and got them
into a manner o’ more sensible discourse than aye crying, ‘pretty poll,’
and the like o’ thae vain and silly things. But it was no to be, so I
turned my mind to some wee helpless bairns that were aye wailing and
wearying for something; for ye ken Peggy must aye be doing. They had
lost their mother, puir things, and the father o’ them was sadly put
about when night came, and all their bits o’ clothes to take off, and
the strings o’ them aye getting into knots, and he wi’ no manner o’
skill or judgment to gang to work in the right manner; so I took them
all in my ain hands, and got them into their bits o’ cribs wi’ a kind o’
comfort, and the wee thing who was but a babby clinging round my neck in
the dark, and saying, ‘Mamma was come back again, and she was no to gang
away ony more.’ Deed it was just a moving scene, and minded me sae o’ my
ain bonnie flowers; and John, for that was his name, was sae gratified,
and could no’ say enough for the little I could do. And so we got on
wi’ a measure o’ comfort all the next day, till the wind began to roar
like a demented creature, wi’ no manner o’ discretion, ranting and
tearing wi’ the steadfast resolution no to leave a hale rag in the ship;
and there were the bairns, puir things, wailing and tumbling about on
the floor, and nae marvel either, seeing that them that had come to the
years o’ discretion could na keep their feet; and the captain, there was
he crying to put in the dead lights, which was no just civil to say the
least, and we wi’ the breath o’ life still in our bodies. Waes me, but
it was an unco’ dispensation for him to be making preparations for a
dead wake afore the living folk. He might hae thought, the ungodly man,
that there was an arm o’ strength that could lift us out o’ the deepest
pit of our tribulation.--But where was I? for ’deed I am sair bewildered
wi’ all that happened.”

“You were telling about the storm, Peggy,” Matilda said, eagerly. “Oh,
do go on, it is so very interesting.”

“Ay, that’s true, I was telling about the storm; but waes me, words are
weak to tell o’ that awfu’ scene. Weel, naething would serve me but I
maun be upon deck to see the warst o’ it; and there I stood, clinging
aye to John, and Dash at my side, wi’ the sense o’ a man o’ fifty,
holding me fast by the gown; but it was na waves I saw, but mountains
rising to the black heavens, and the white foam o’ them looking ghastly
white in the darkness o’ the night, and every now and then a flash o’
fire like a curtain o’ flame in the sky, and a sound like guns mingling
wi’ the roar o’ the awfu’ blast; and there was the captain again, wi’ a
lang thing like a trumpet in his mouth, and he thinking, wi’ his puir
feckless breath, to lift his voice above the anger o’ Heaven. I could na
stand that, so I turned down to the cabin again; but oh, my bairns,
never while the breath o’ life is in my body will I forget the sound
that ere I was at the foot o’ the stairs met my ear. I canna speak o’
it, I dare na think o’ it. Them that had stood at my side the minute
afore in life and strength, sent to their last account, and without the
power o’ a hand being stretched out to save them. I am no clear in my
mind o’ what happened for a while after that; but then there was a cry
that the wind was no just sae strong, and that a boat had come off from
the shore for the passengers for Scarborough; it was for Scarborough
John was bound, to take up his abode wi’ a sister, a widow-woman weel to
do in the world, and he was loath to part wi’ me, and leave me in sic
tribulation; and the bairns they aye cried that mammy maun gang too,
and I was down the side o’ the ship, and in the boat wi’ the wee babby
in my arms afore I kent where I was, and Dash holding on again by my
gown as he did afore; and how we e’er reached the shore was the gracious
providence of God, for man had nought to do wi’ it; and we were up in
the air the one minute, and in the watery pit o’ destruction the next,
and no a dry stitch upon us when we were lifted out wi’ scarce the
breath o’ life in our bodies; but all but gratitude to Heaven was
forgotten when we sat that night in quietness and in comfort by that
widow-woman’s cheerful fire-side. And to see the bairns round the table
at their tea, wi’ their bit blythe faces, and ilk are wi’ a jolly piece
in its hand, for, as I said afore, she was well to do in the world that
widow-woman, and had all things in a superior way. ’Deed it was a scene
to lift the heart wi’ gratitude and joy, and at night when I found
myself in a quiet comfortable bed, and nae mair heizing up and down wi’
all thae outlandish sounds in my ear, ’deed I could na sleep wi’ very
pleasure, so I took to musing on the uses o’ the sea, and I could na
make it weel out at all; it seemed to me as if it was a fearfu’ scourge,
aye ready to be let loose on our sinfu’ heads, and made for naething but
our destruction; but then I minded me o’ the fine caller haddys, and
thae herrings at ten a penny, sic a blessing for the puir, and then I
thought that there might be a measure o’ comfort in it after all, so wi’
that I fell asleep. The next morning I thought to hae gone on my way,
but they would nae hear o’ it, and the bairns they aye clung to me, and
said I was to stay and be their mamma. ’Deed, auld as I was, I could nae
but think o’ sic a proposal afore John’s very face; and he, honest man,
no ways willing. The day after that John set out wi’ me to put me on my
road, and he wrote me out a paper o’ all the towns I was to gang
through, and sae we parted, and I gaed on my way, thinking it wad be but
a pleasant walk; but waes me, I had little thought or comprehension o’
what was afore me. But I am thinking I have said enough for this present
time; you will be weary wi’ sic a lang tale.”

“Oh no, Peggy,” Leila exclaimed, “I am quite sure none of us are weary.
Do go on, for we wish so much to hear how you got here at last.”

“And ’deed, my bairn, that’s no easy to tell, for I have but a confused
thought o’ all that happened. Every day I walked on and on, and when I
came to the towns, I sleeped at big houses that they call houses o’
entertainment: but ’deed it was no diversion to me, the money they aye
asked frae me in the mornings; so I took to sleeping at farm-houses,
and that answered better. To be sure sometimes I had but the barn or the
hay-loft, and but a short word o’ welcome; but others that were mair
civil let me sleep in the big chair by the kitchen fire-side; and clean
and comfortable mony o’ the kitchens were, dishes and platters on the
walls shining like silver, and big hams hanging from the roof, wi’ the
greatest plenty to eat and drink, and blythe bairns running about,
looking sae like their meat, that it did my heart good to see them. I
was aye happy when I got to a farm-house at night; but sometimes I was
not just sae lucky; and what wi’ paying for a night’s lodgings, and for
a ride in a wagon or a cart now and then, and for a loaf o’ bread and a
draught o’ beer, my money was fast melting away, and my heart no that
light; for aye when I asked if I was near London yet, they said it was a
weary way, and ower far for sic an auld woman as me to compass. But it
was only when the days were fast shortening, and the long nights setting
in, that the like o’ thae reflections crushed my spirit; yet the
morning’s sun made all right again and warmed my auld heart, and I felt
there was a Providence abune that could make the roughest way plain and
the langest way short to me. I was aye fond o’ the song o’ the robin,
and whiles I would sit down by the side o’ a hedge and hearken to them
in the trees abune my head, and then I would throw them some crumbs frae
my loaf o’ bread to pleasure them puir things; and the bonnie creatures
would come down to the ground and look up in my face, as if I had been a
kent friend. And Dash, the wise animal, he would keep his distance, and
lie as if the breath o’ life was out of his body, till they had ta’en
their breakfast wi’ comfort and discretion. From all that I hae
experienced in my lang travel, I think the robins are o’ the same nature
as in my ain land, just as frank and as kindly. But oh, my bairns! sic a
difference in the rivers; instead of the clear bonnie Esk that I had
been used to, wi’ the sand lying at the bottom sparkling like diamonds
in some parts, and in others springing over the big stones like bairns
let loose frae the school, there I came to rivers as quiet and lazy as
mill-ponds, and looking as black and drumlie as if they had washed all
the dishes in thae big towns in them; but ’deed it’s no wise discreet in
me to be making thae reflections; for if their waters are no just sae
clear, surely I am come to a land flowing with milk and honey, and need
na mind. But I am wandering from my road again.”

“Yes, Peggy,” Matilda said, “you are forgetting to tell us how your
money lasted, and what you did when it was done. Oh! it must have been
so dreadful when you began to be starved to death.”

“‘Deed, and it was no ways pleasant; but it was no just sae bad as that;
and I aye keepit a thought on Him who feedeth the fowls o’ the air, and
was no that down-hearted; still it was a serious thought, and I was at
my last shilling when the pedlar was graciously sent to me.”

“The pedlar, Peggy, how was that?”

“You see, Miss Matilda, I was sitting by the road-side one morning,
taking counsel wi’ my ain thoughts and looking at the shilling, and
turning it round and round in my hand wi’ a serious countenance, nae
doubt, when an honest man wi’ a pack upon his back came up to me.
‘Mistress,’ he said, ‘you are looking at that shilling as if there
werena mony ahint it, and you were loath to part company.’ ‘’Deed,’ I
said, ‘you hae made a gude guess and are no far wrong; for it’s the very
last shilling I hae in the world, and a long journey, I reckon, is still
afore me.’ Wi’ that we fell into discourse, and I telt him all my story;
for he was frae my ain country, and my heart warmed to him. He said that
for that day and the next our road lay in the same direction, and that
he would be blythe o’ my company. Was I to refuse sic a civil
invitation?--by no means. So we gaed on our way thegither, and had
muckle pleasant discourse; for he was far travelled, and had great
learning and experience o’ the world, and was, forbye, a God-fearing and
civil man, and had but one fault that I could discern, he was ower fond
o’ beer; preserve me, but I would hae sleepit sound, and ower sound, as
he, puir man, found that night, if I had ta’en all he offered me, for he
was no ways niggardly; and when I spoke o’ asking up-pitting for the
night at a farm-house, he would na hear it; he would treat me, he said,
baith to a supper and a bed, and be blythe to do so. Weel, when night
came on, we turned into a comfortable-looking house by the road-side,
where they selt the beer he was ower fond o’; and it was a canty scene
that big kitchen, that lifted the very heart o’ me. There was the
mistress frying bacon on the warm red fire, and mair than one hungry man
sitting on low stools, listening wi’ delight to the hissing sound o’ it;
and a wee baby in a cradle, no thinking o’ sleep, but lying so pleased,
wi’ the great een o’ it wide open, and staring at its brothers and
sisters, dancing in a corner o’ the room to the music o’ a blind
fiddler; they were near to a table where some men were drinking, and
there was a man sat there wi’ a face I could no get out o’ my mind at
all. He had a down look and an ill look to my thought; and I noticed
that though he had his tankard o’ beer afore him like the rest, when he
thought nae body was looking that way, he lifted the tankard that had
been put down afore the puir blind fiddler, and took a lang pull out o’
it. I would na hae been that sorry if it had choked him, and I felt in
my mind that the man would surely come to shame and want. Aweel, when
the mistress showed me the room I was to sleep in, I could na get this
man’s ill face out o’ my mind, and I asked her if the men that were
drinking at the table were to bide all night. ‘Some of them might,’ she
said, ‘and some might not; but I need not be frightened, for my friend
the pedlar was to sleep in the next room to me, and there was a door
through frae my room to his. You see,’ she said, ‘there is only a latch
to it, for the key has been lost; but as he is an honest man nae doubt,
and your friend, you will no mind that; but this is a decent house, and
you need fear no disturbance;’ and wi’ that she left me. I had not been
long in bed afore I heard the pedlar, honest man, snoring soundly. I was
weary, weary, and yet for a lang time I could no get to sleep, for the
fiddle seemed aye sounding in my ears, and the bit bairnies dancing
afore me, and that man’s ill face aye taking anither look at me, but
after a time I heard steps passing up the stairs, and the front door was
barred in, and quietness fell upon the house; and then, though it was
no just sleep that came over me, it was a kind o’ a dover, and how lang
it lasted I canna tell, but suddenly it seemed to me as if I heard a
step in the passage and some one stopping at my door,--I started up in
my bed and listened; a lock turned, but it was na in my room, but in the
next; and then I saw a light under the door that had the latch. I sprang
up and looked through the key-hole; the ill face o’ that awfu’ man
seemed glaring on me, I could scarcely breathe, for I felt sure he saw
me, but he turned away and went straight up to the bed; he seemed to
listen for a moment, bending over it, then softly lifting up a worsted
plaid that was lying over a chair by the bed-side, he seized the pack
which the plaid was covering, and turned to the door again. He had his
back to me then; I lifted the latch and sprang in, and the next moment I
had him by the throat, the ill rascal, wi’ a scream that wakened the
whole house. He let fall the pack, shook me off as if I had been a
feather, and darted along the passage. He took me for a ghaist, nae
doubt; for, for decency’s sake, I had put the white sheet about me.
Aweel, we looked for him all over the house, but saw naething but a
window wide open, and doubtless out o’ that window the ill-conditioned
creature had gone on his evil way. It was na muckle sleep that either
the pedlar or me got that night, I reckon, for I heard nae mair
snoring.”

“Oh, Peggy!” more than one voice exclaimed, “how frightful and how
interesting; but go on, go on, tell us more.”

“Aweel, in the morning he could na be grateful enough, honest man, for
what I had done for him. ‘For himself,’ he said, ‘he did na’ fancy
riding much, but it would be a rest to me; so all that day we rode
thegither in a wagon like ladies and gentlemen, he treating me to the
best o’ every thing, and himsel’ no taking just sae muckle o’ the beer.
The next morning after that, when we parted, he would force upon me twa
bonnie white half-crowns, and telt me aye to ride when I could, for that
he did not think I was that strong for sic an undertaking as I had still
before me. I would fain hae refused the money, for it seemed to me like
taking payment for doing only what was natural to do; but I thought also
that pride might have something to do wi’ refusing, and pride was na’
for a Christian woman, so I took the siller. I took his advice too, for
I felt that I was not that strong; so I aye rode when I could get a cart
or a wagon, but it took mair money than I could weel spare. Many o’ the
wagoners and carters spoke a language I could na’ weel make out, but
they aye contrived to make it plain to me that they wanted siller.
Every day my pocket got lighter and lighter, and my heart heavier; for I
came to my last penny, and still a lang way lay afore me. I need na’ vex
your hearts wi’ all I suffered wi’ want and lang travel. Some of the
folk were kind to me, and some were not; I dinna weel mind all that
happened, I ken only that aye when I was at my last extremity, He that I
serve had pity upon me; and I aye remembered that ‘He had not where to
lay His head,’ and took courage. One night I came to a farm-house, the
door was shut, but I looked through the kitchen window, and, oh! but it
was a cheerfu’ canty scene. There was a cat as big and as sleek as a fat
lamb lying afore the warm fire, and the mistress and the gudeman, and
the bairns, and the farm servants, all round a big table at their
supper, and the greatest plenty o’ every thing, and sic a smoke from the
big dishes o’ meat and o’ potatoes, and sic a speaking and laughing,
that I had to tap many a time afore they heard me; but at last the
mistress hersel’ came to the door, and wi’ her a bonnie wee lassie at
her side. I was all in a tremble, and I telt her my story, and asked for
a night’s lodging; but the pleasant face o’ her entirely changed. ‘And
how am I to know,’ she said, ‘that there is a word of truth in all this?
always the story that they have lost their way, or lost their money, or
some such thing. It was but last night that I gave lodging to an old
woman, who looked as respectable as you do, and she was off this morning
by daybreak with two of my best night-caps that were drying before the
fire. No, no, you must take the road again, and be thankful you have a
clear moon above your head.’ ‘Oh, mother, mother!’ I heard the wee thing
say, but she shut the door in my face. I was weary, and I was faint wi’
hunger too, for I had tasted little that day; to gang on my way was no
possible, for the very life seemed sinking out o’ me; so I crept round
by the back o’ the house to seek some sheltered nook to lie down in, no
wishing ever to rise again. All my desire was to lay myself down in a
quiet corner and there to be found dead in the morning. I was leaning
against a wall sair spent, and Dash keeping close at my side, as he aye
did, striving, puir thing, to keep me warm, when a mist came afore my
eyes--it cleared away, and I seemed to see my ain bonnie bairns wi’ the
faces o’ angels beckoning to me, and I heard my husband’s voice speaking
words o’ comfort, and then a door at the back of the house softly
opened, and the bonnie lamb I had seen afore stepped out into the
moonlight; she looked about her for a moment on every side, and when the
light fell on the face o’ her, it seemed to me as if she too was a kind
spirit frae anither world. She was passing to the front o’ the house
when she saw me, and, oh!--but it was a sweet voice that sounded in my
ear when she took my hand, and said,--‘There is a sixpence and a penny
for you, it is all the money I have, but maybe it will get you a bed at
a house you will soon come to on the road-side; and here is some bread
and cheese for your supper, for I am sure you are hungry.’ I was trying
to say something, when a voice cried out, ‘Alice, Alice, where are you?’
and the mistress hersel’ came up to where we were standing. ‘Oh,
mother!’ the dear bairn said, ‘do not put her away for she looks so
sorrowful and she can scarcely walk; do let her sit at the kitchen fire
all night--I am sure she is an honest woman.’ The mistress looked in my
face. ‘Well,’ she said, I may have judged you wrongfully, so I will take
Alice’s word for it; for it’s not my usual custom to turn my face from
the poor of the land, so come in, old woman, and you shall have some
supper.’ She took me into the warm kitchen, and seated me at the fire,
and the best o’ every thing was set afore me, and bonnie wee Alice took
a low stool and set herself down at my feet, and she aye looked up in my
face wi’ her kindly smile, and seemed to enjoy every morsel I put in my
mouth; and she could na make enough o’ Dash, and was sae pleased when
the mistress hersel’ set a plate o’ bones afore him that might have
served a king. Aweel, we took our supper wi’ thanksgiving, and in a
closet off the kitchen I had a clean comfortable bed to lie down on,
which was a great refreshment. The mistress took to me in an uncommon
way. I telt her where I was going, and all about it; and in the morning
she gave me my breakfast and a white shilling out o’ her ain pocket. I
was fain to gie little Alice back her sixpence and the penny, but she
was affronted and would na hear tell o’ it; so I laid them down on the
wee pillow o’ her bed when she was looking anither way.”

The tears were in Leila’s eyes: “Oh, Peggy,” she said, “what a dear
little girl Alice must have been! how I wish I could thank her for being
so very kind to you; but you are not to stop yet, you have more to tell
us.”

“Not much more, Miss Leila, for mony o’ the days after that seem to have
passed out o’ my mind. I think it was but twice after that that I had
onything like a decent bed to lie down on; it was getting darkish one
day when I was passing through a village, a heap o’ bairns came running
past just out o’ school, and a wild laddie had something tied up in a
napkin, and he aye cried he was going to drown it, and they maun come
and see. My mind misgave me that it was a kitten, puir thing, so I
followed on to a pond that I saw afore me, and just as I got near I
heard sic a wild screech, and there was a wee lassie struggling in the
water; I cried loud to Dash, and he was into the pond in no time, and
afore anither minute was over, the puir half-drowned thing was laid at
my feet. Aweel, I took it up in my arms and turned back to the village.
The mother o’ it was like to go out o’ her judgment wi’ fright and wi’
joy; I stayed to help to put the bairn into a warm bed, the puir lamb
would nae be comforted. Aye when we thought that she was dropping over
to sleep she started up again in an unco tremble, and crying out, ‘No,
no, mother, don’t be angry, I will never, never go near the pond again;’
and when Dash came up to the bed wagging his tail, and trying to make
acquaintance wi’ her, she was like to go out o’ her judgment, wi’ no
manner o’ knowledge or gratitude for what he had done for her. Aweel,
she fell into a sleep at last; ‘Oh, my darling,’ the mother said,
‘many’s the time I have told her to keep away from those wicked boys,
and by no means to go near that ugly pond, for my mind misgave me that
something might happen; but she has been punished enough, poor thing,
she will not again forget my warning;’ and she leaned over the dear
bairn wi’ sic joy and thankfulness, and kissed her over and over again.
Though it was getting late, I thought now to have gone on my way again,
but though she was but a widow woman, and seemed to have naught to
spare, she would na hear of it, so I stayed wi’ her that night, and she
did all she could to make me comfortable. The next circumstance that I
remember was when I found myself in a town, and sae spent wi’ hunger I
could scarcely walk; I had parted wi’ my warm cloak afore, and I think
shame to tell you how many salt tears that had cost me, (but it was a
present from my gudeman,) and I was thinking if there was onything else
I could sell, and holding by the rails, for I could scarcely stand, when
a decent-looking young woman, wi’ a most pleasant face, came up to me.
‘What is the matter, poor woman,’ she said, in a kindly voice, ‘you are
surely ill?’ I telt her I was starving. ‘Waes me,’ she said, ‘and I have
no money to give you, for I have just been disappointed myself: but come
with me, you shall have something to eat at least.’ She took me by the
arm and helped me on, and we entered a big house, where a great mony
people seemed to be living, for I heard voices o’ men and women, and
bairns, some crying and some laughing. ‘My sister and I have a room
here,’ she said, as we gaed up the stairs; then taking me by the hand
along a dark passage, she opened a door, and I saw a young woman
sitting close to the window working busily, though it was getting dark.
‘Jessie,’ she said, ‘you will have thought me long away, and after all I
have come back without the money for the shirts, for Mrs. Churchill was
not at home.’ ‘Without the money,’ Jessie repeated, ‘and not a morsel in
the house beyond our night’s supper, and not a farthing to buy more! Oh,
Ellen, this is sorrowful news. But who is this you have got with you?’
Ellen told her how she had fallen in wi’ me, and it was beautiful to see
the kindness o’ baith the sisters. There was but a small fire, but they
gathered up the cinders, and made me sit close to it, and they rubbed my
hands and spoke words o’ comfort to me; and Ellen brought some bread and
cheese out of a cupboard, and set it afore me, and baith o’ them pressed
me to eat. Just then there was a tap at the door. ‘That will be the
nurse,’ Ellen said, jumping up; ‘I forgot to tell you that she said she
might perhaps be able to bring the money if her mistress came home in
time.’ It was the nurse sure enough, and oh, sic joy as it was to the
kind-hearted creatures when the nurse counted down ten bonnie shillings
on the table. ‘Put on the tea-kettle,’ Ellen said, ‘and I will be back
in a moment with some tea and sugar; and, Mistress Nurse, perhaps you
will stay and take a cup of tea, you have always been such a kind
friend to us.’ But Mistress Nurse said she could by no means stay, for
her lady might want her; and she was just going away when she noticed
Dash. ‘Bless me,’ she said, ‘what a fine animal, but how thin he is; he
looks half-starved; my heart is sore for the creature, tea is not just
the thing for him, but if I can get hold of the stable-boy when I go
home, I will send him up with a plate of scraps; he will like that
better.’ And she was as good as her word; Dash had such a supper as he
had not seen for many a day. And how the sisters were pleased and
diverted when the creature picked out the largest bone he could find in
all the platter, and laid it at my feet. Aweel, we had our tea in
comfort, and the best o’ butter, which Ellen said was a treat by
ordinar, and muckle pleasant discourse; and I telt them about you, Miss
Selina, getting your speech again, and about Miss Leila in the island.
They said it was like a fairy tale, and that they had naething to tell
me about themselves sae romantic. They had lost baith father and mother,
and they worked for their bread, and had come through great straits;
sometimes they had plenty to do, and were comfortable enough, and
sometimes they were sair put about, and at their last penny; but their
mother had been a God-fearing woman, and had given them the best o’
counsel, and they aye kept up their hearts, for there was a Providence
abune, they said, that kent what was best for them. The room was clean
and neat, though the furniture was scant. There was but one bed, but
they borrowed a mattress from a kind neighbour, and I lay baith warm and
comfortable on it. In the morning I had a sair struggle, for they would
hae me to take one o’ their hard-earned shillings; but I would by no
means hear o’ it, and I was the more positive as they had telt me that I
was but a day’s journey or so frae Richmond, and need na gang through
that awfu’ London, which was a great ease to my mind. So I took only
some small change Ellen had gotten in from the tea, and gaed on my way.
It was a clear bright day, but it was hard frost when night came on, and
I was stiff wi’ cold, and weary, weary; and I could get naething better
than a barn to lie down in, for I had but a penny to offer, and they
jeered at me, and said a barn was ower good for sic payment. The next
morning seems all like a confused kind o’ dream, I remember naething but
that I crawled on and on, often stopping and feeling unco’ sleepy, but
aye feared to lie down lest I should ne’er waken again; but though I
kent Richmond could na be far off now, I was but the mair sorrowful, for
I could bear it no longer; I could na move anither step, but sunk down
by the road-side. A mist came afore my eyes, I ken naething mair, but
that I seemed to waken in Heaven, for when I opened my eyes again, your
dear faces were all around me.” Peggy ceased speaking, and clasped her
hands together as if in prayer. There were tears in most eyes; even
Charles, who seemed to think it unmanly to give way, had to struggle
hard with his emotion.

“Leila,” he said, as they returned home, “I can well understand what
your grief must have been in thinking Peggy lost to you. I am going to
write all her story down, it is so interesting, and it will be my first
lesson in the Scotch language; I would not have missed hearing her tell
it for the world.”




CHAPTER XI.


A few days more, and solitude and silence seemed to have fallen on
Woodlands. The whole party had dispersed. Mrs. Roberts had come back
from paying a visit to her sister, and even the Stanleys had returned
home. Leila had felt the parting with so many kind friends a good deal,
and the holidays seemed to her now as but one bright day too quickly
past. But there were alleviations; Sherborne Park, the residence of Mr.
Herbert, was but an hour’s ride from Woodlands; Leila could now manage
Selim with ease; Charles was still to be one week more at home, and on
the first Saturday after the breaking up of the party, he promised to be
early at Woodlands on his pony, to escort Mr. Howard and Leila to
Sherborne Park: besides this, her joy and thankfulness at having
recovered Peggy and her dear Dash, bid defiance to all approaches to any
depression of spirits. She was buoyant as ever, and each morning, on her
way to her Aunt Stanley’s, she stopped for a few moments at Peggy’s
cottage to say a few kind words to her, and bring joy and sunshine to
the old woman’s heart.

Most of the neighbouring families had called at Woodlands; amongst
others, Mr. and Mrs. Mildmay, with their daughter Lydia. Leila liked
Lydia’s appearance; she was a pretty looking girl, remarkably well
dressed, with a beautiful complexion, fine hair, and a very animated
expression of face; she praised every thing she saw, was delighted with
the pets, said they were happy creatures to have such a dear, pretty
little mistress, and kissed Leila twice at parting, and hoped they would
always be great friends. Leila was much gratified, and was tempted for
the first time to think Selina might be wrong, and too hasty in her
judgments. She was made very happy a few days after, by her Aunt Stanley
telling her she had obtained her papa’s consent to her remaining to
dinner, as Mr. Mildmay, having county business with Mr. Stanley was,
with his wife and daughter, to dine with them that day.

It was a very agreeable day to Leila; she liked Lydia more and more. She
had now quite made up her mind to think Selina’s character of her a
mistaken one. Lydia seemed full of heart and affection for all of them,
but apparently to prefer Selina to the others; always listening when
she spoke, and always declaring that she must know best, and in all
their little discussions coming over to her way of thinking. But Leila
would have been the first to retract the too favourable opinion she had
formed, had she been present at a conversation which took place in the
school-room before tea. Lydia and Matilda were alone together, they had
been talking of Leila. “Yes,” Lydia said, “I don’t wonder you like her,
she took my fancy very much; there is some life and spirit in her. I am
sure I hope Selina will not make her as prim as she is herself, for she
seems to have taken quite a passion for that dear sister of yours.”

Matilda’s colour mounted to her forehead. “I thought you were very fond
of Selina,” she said, in an offended tone of voice; “I am sure you
always talk to her as if you were.”

“And who tells you I am not?”

“You yourself do; you would not talk in that way of one you really
liked. Ah, Lydia, that is not being sincere.” Selina’s warning came
forcibly into her mind at that moment; but she was sorry she had said so
much, for Lydia seemed extremely angry; looking very red, she said,

“Matilda, that idea would never have entered your head; I know who
has----” She stopped, and with a changed expression of look and tone
she continued, “But this is quite foolish, we are getting angry with
each other for no reason whatever, for we are quite of the same opinion
on this subject; I am sure you cannot have a higher opinion of Selina
than I have. I only wish I could be more like her,” and she sighed
heavily; “but still you must not be angry if I love my own little
Matilda even more,” and she drew Matilda towards her, and kissed her
cheek.

Matilda felt at this moment she would rather that she had not done so,
but still she was gratified and flattered that one generally allowed to
be so clever and accomplished as Lydia, and who was several years older
than herself, should make quite a friend of her, and even often
condescend to ask her advice. Had Matilda reflected further, she would
have been aware that though she did so, she seldom or ever followed it.
Lydia, in fact, always ended by taking her own way in every thing,
though apparently yielding to the judgment of others. She now, as if to
change the subject, observed, “What nice-looking books you have got on
those shelves; your school-room always looks so cheerful and so
comfortable. What a pretty book that seems to be at the top there; I
should like to see it.”

“Oh, that is a beautiful book,” Matilda answered; “but it belongs to
Mrs. Roberts. There are sketches in it which were drawn by her husband;
she has the greatest value for it, and she shows it to us sometimes; but
she has forbidden us ever to touch it when she is not by.”

“Oh, she is afraid, I suppose, of Alfred’s dirty little hands, for you
know he is for ever grubbing in the earth, hunting after snails or
spiders, or some such creatures; but a young lady’s hands are very
different,” and she drew off her nice kid glove, and displayed her
pretty little white hand, on which a beautiful ring sparkled which had
often been Matilda’s admiration. “You cannot suppose,” she continued,
“that she would have any objections to my looking at the book; and as
she is so very obliging and good-natured, she will be quite gratified, I
am sure, that I should admire her book.” She drew a chair towards her
and was mounting upon it.

Matilda held her back. “Oh pray don’t,” she said; “I don’t wish to
disobey Mrs. Roberts, and I promised not to touch or look at it when she
was not by.”

“Well, don’t touch it, my little pattern miss,” Lydia said; “don’t touch
it; put your hands behind your back, and then you can swear you did not;
you need not even look at it; shut your eyes and turn your back, my
pretty dear, and I will describe, to you the beautiful scenes as I turn
over the pages; for I have no pleasure when it is not shared.” Then
changing her tone of raillery, she continued: “But what has come over my
little Matilda? I scarcely know her again--she that used to be so
obliging and so affectionate towards me--have I indeed lost my little
friend?”

“Oh, no, no!” Matilda exclaimed, and tears were in her eyes. “I am still
your little friend; don’t be angry with me. You will love me again,
won’t you?”

Lydia’s smile was that of triumph; but Matilda did not see it--she was
now covering her eyes with her hands.

Lydia jumped up on the chair and took down the book; then gently
removing Matilda’s hands, she said,--“Come, darling, don’t be foolish;
let me see my sweet Matilda again; let us be friends as we have ever
been.”

Poor Matilda! all her sense of what was right, all her good resolutions,
vanished before Lydia’s bland smile. Selina’s repeated warnings, and yet
more, the texts of the morning, had been entirely forgotten.--“Show me
thy ways, O Lord; teach me thy paths.” And the answer: “Trust in the
Lord with all thy heart, and lean not unto thine own understanding; in
all thy ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct thy paths.” Alas! had
she asked in sincerity to be shown His ways, to be guided in His paths?
had she not leant to her own understanding, and listened to the voice of
the tempter? how then could she expect that God would direct her ways
when God was not in all her thoughts? She turned over the pages of the
book for Lydia, she explained the sketches, and praised them
extravagantly, with a confused idea that she was atoning to Mrs. Roberts
in some degree by doing so, and she gave herself completely up to the
enjoyment of the moment.

“Well,” Lydia said, as she turned the last page, “now we have finished;
we have had our pleasure, and what the worse, I should like to know, is
the pretty book of our admiration? Come, let us put it up again in the
book-case.”

Matilda jumped up to assist her, and in her haste overturned an
ink-glass on the table, which she herself had neglected to put into the
inkstand again; a small portion of the ink fell on the beautiful binding
of the book; Matilda was horror-struck.

“Oh! what shall I do? what shall I do?” she exclaimed, as she stood in
helpless distress gazing upon it.

But Lydia did not lose her presence of mind for a moment; tearing out a
sheet of blotting-paper from a book which lay before them, she quickly
soaked up the ink, then seizing a sponge which Selina had been using for
her drawing, she dipped it in a tumbler of water, and dexterously
effaced almost every trace of the stain. The book was bound in white
vellum, highly glazed, so that the ink had not sunk in, scarcely a trace
of it was discernible.

“Now is not this well and cleverly done?” Lydia said. “Come, cheer up,
Matilda, don’t think of it another moment; it was awkward enough in you,
to be sure; but _mum’s the word_, and it never will be perceived; I must
put it in the book-case again, and as far back as I can.” She was
jumping up on the chair, but Matilda took the book from her hand and
looked at it earnestly for a moment.

“Oh! you need not be afraid, and look so dismal; I really don’t think it
possible it can be found out.”

Matilda still retained the book in her hand, and rose as if about to
leave the room.

“Where are you going?” Lydia impatiently asked.

“To show this to Mrs. Roberts,” Matilda answered, timidly.

“To show it to Mrs. Roberts! Are you mad, Matilda? Surely you would not
be such a fool--oh! I beg your pardon for calling you so; how mamma
would be shocked if she heard me talking in this vulgar manner--there
is nothing she dislikes so much as vulgarity. I beg your pardon, but you
did put me in such a passion.” Then changing her tone from that of
anger, she continued, mournfully,--“And so you would bring me into this
scrape and get me punished, I who have ever loved you, ever been your
friend--I who would have stood by you till the last moment! Oh, Matilda!
but go--go and leave me.”

Matilda stood irresolute. She covered her face with her hands, the tears
trickled down between her fingers, but she softly repeated to herself,
“Trust in the Lord with all thy heart, and He shall direct thy path.”
She removed her hands, she looked up, and in a firm voice she
said,--“Lydia, it was I who overturned the ink, and it is I who shall
bear the punishment;” and she left the room.

She found Selina and Leila with Mrs. Roberts; the expression of her face
instantly arrested their attention. “What has happened, Matilda?” they
both exclaimed; “what is the matter?”

She put them back with her hand, and steadily advancing to the table
where Mrs. Roberts sat, she laid the book before her, and pointing to
where the stain had been, she said,--“Mrs. Roberts, I spilt the ink upon
your book; I am very sorry----” She tried to say more, she could not,
she was weeping.

Mrs. Roberts looked much distressed. “Matilda,” she said, “it is not on
account of any injury my book has sustained that I am so distressed--and
indeed I do not think I should have observed it--but you have disobeyed
my express command, and you have also broken your promise to me; for it
was yourself who voluntarily gave that promise--I did not ask it of
you.”

“Oh! yes; I remember that quite well; I have been very, very wrong; I
deserve to be punished, and I will try to bear it well.”

Selina looked earnestly at her; then throwing her arms round her neck,
she whispered,--“Tell me, dear Matilda, did Lydia ask you to show her
that book?”

Matilda made no answer; she kissed Selina fondly, then turning round,
she said,--“Mrs. Roberts, I know I must be punished, what do I deserve?”

“Not a very severe punishment, Matilda; for you have already lessened
your fault by confessing it to me; and you will still further, I am
sure, atone for it by confessing it to God and imploring His
forgiveness. I see that you feel it deeply and are really penitent; I
shall, therefore, leave your punishment with yourself. Say, then, what
it shall be.”

Matilda stood for some moments looking on the ground, her colour varying
at every moment. “I had rather that you should have punished me,” she
said. “But if I do not come into the room to-morrow, or next day, or the
next, when you read aloud to us, will that be enough, do you think? I
assure you it will be a great punishment to me.”

Mrs. Roberts was in the habit of reading out some interesting story to
them for an hour every day while they were employed in working for the
poor. Matilda used to call it her happy hour, and the tears again filled
her eyes at the thoughts of such a banishment. Mrs. Roberts saw it would
indeed be punishment enough. She assented, and taking Matilda in her
arms and kissing her, she said,--“You have my forgiveness, my child; now
go to your room and ask forgiveness of your heavenly Father for your
Saviour’s sake, and strength from the Holy Spirit to walk more and more
in His blessed ways.”

When Matilda returned to the school-room a short time afterwards, to
invite Lydia to go to tea, her countenance was quite cheerful again.
Lydia looked at her attentively. “Well,” she said, “I see you have got
it over, and well over; I only hope you have not committed me; what did
you say, Matilda? how much did you tell?”

“I told only that I had spilt the ink on the book.”

“And you did not mention my name?”

“No, I did not.”

But Lydia seemed to understand the tone and manner in which those few
words were said, and hastened to efface the bad impression she had made.
“You are a generous, noble girl, Matilda,” she said, “and though
younger, far better than I am; you must teach me to be like you;” she
twined her arms fondly round her waist, and they left the room together.

As Matilda finished reading the Bible that evening, she closed the book,
and sat for some minutes in deep thought. “Am I a noble, generous girl?”
she asked herself; “and does Lydia really think so? perhaps she only
said it to flatter me; I wish I really knew; I wish I could ask
Selina,--that would be betraying Lydia. No, I am not a noble girl--I
often do wrong things; I wish I had not liked the praise so much, or
believed Lydia. I wish I did not like her so; perhaps she does me no
good; but it is not kind to Lydia to think so.” She knelt down and said
her prayers, and fervently she asked to be forgiven for her disobedience
and for having broken her promise. She asked also to have the love of
praise more taken out of her heart; to be meek and lowly like Him she
was taught to serve; and she got into bed more peaceful, almost happy,
and soon fell asleep.

Saturday came, and Charles was faithful to his appointment. It was a
bright morning, every thing looked gay in the sunshine, the ground
sparkled with a light frost; but Selim was the most sure-footed of
ponies. Leila rode between her papa and Charles--how could she be
afraid? She was in high spirits, it was her first ride of any
considerable length; she was quite elated by the dignity of her
situation, and every now and then she touched Selim lightly with her
whip, and sprang on a few yards before the others, and then looked back
and laughed at their grave looks. By degrees she became more bold, more
anxious to show off before Charles, and to prove to him that she had
become quite an excellent horsewoman. She touched Selim less gently--he
sprang forward, and from a brisk canter was soon at full gallop, Leila’s
light figure seeming as if raised every moment into mid air.

The others held back; they knew the danger of following too closely.
“Oh, my child! my child!” Mr. Howard repeatedly exclaimed. It was to
both a moment of extreme agitation, for a turn in the road now hid Leila
from their sight. But Leila, though much frightened at first, did not
lose her presence of mind. She allowed Selim to proceed for some time
without opposition, then gently checked him as Charles had instructed
her to do, the obedient animal first slackened his pace, and then stood
entirely still. Her papa and Charles came up, both looking much alarmed.
Charles did not speak, he was extremely pale. Leila looked at them both
and burst into tears. “Oh! how I have frightened and distressed you,”
she said; “I have been so wrong, so silly; do forgive me papa--do not be
angry--I am so sorry.”

“You have indeed been wrong, and very imprudent,” Mr. Howard answered;
“and you have much reason to be grateful for the escape you have made.
You are far too ignorant a horsewoman to be aware of the danger you
exposed yourself to; but don’t let us talk of it any more at present;
you have now got a lesson which I am sure you will not forget; keep
close to us, my dear child, for you are still far too inexperienced to
be trusted for a moment alone.”

They now proceeded without further interruption. Mina was watching for
them at the park gate, and ran by their side all up the approach, they
walking their horses that they might keep pace with her, and Leila
chatting to her as gaily as ever. Mrs. Herbert’s reception of them was
all that was kind and affectionate, as she welcomed Leila to her second
home; and in rambling with Charles and Mina all over the grounds, the
day was passed in much enjoyment. The place was extensive and kept in
the most beautiful order. Leila, however, did not admire it quite so
much as Woodlands; but what interested her greatly was a small
picturesque-looking church which stood in the grounds and its adjoining
parsonage. With this scene she was delighted; and when Charles told her
the parsonage would probably one day be his future home, as he wished to
take holy orders, and the living was in his father’s gift, she thought
she had never seen any thing so charming.

“And it looks so comfortable,” she said, “so much nicer than a large
house. How I wish Woodlands were no bigger than this parsonage!--how
happy will you be, Charles, when you have such a house, and when I come
to visit here--you will often ask Mina and me to come to tea, and you
will let us make tea for you, time about, won’t you?--But, Charles,” she
continued, “you are not so merry as you used to be, and you don’t say
you would be happy to see us to tea--ah! I know what it is; you are
angry with me.”

“Angry with you, Leila?--oh, no! how can you think so?”

“Yes, because I know I deserve it; it was so foolish of me to wish you
to admire me, and to think you would.”

“And do you think that would be so difficult, Leila?” he asked.

“I don’t know; I don’t understand about that; but I know you should
not--you should not admire any thing vain, and I should not wish it; and
if you are to be a clergyman, you know, you should teach me to be meek
and lowly in heart. I am sure my papa will be so glad when I tell him
you are to be a clergyman; for he will think, as you grow taller and
older, you will help him to make me better. But if you are not angry
with me, Charles, why are you so grave?--you have not told me that; what
can you be thinking about?--do tell us!”

“I am thinking,” he answered, “how delightful all this is!” he
continued; “and on Monday how the scene will be changed!”

“And why changed?” she inquired.

“Because on Monday I return to school, and there, instead of having you
and Mina to talk to, I shall be surrounded by a parcel of such noisy
fellows.”

“And you don’t like them, then?”

“O yes, I do; that is to say, some of them--some of them are excellent
fellows and I like them very much; but don’t let us talk of them now,
let us enjoy the present; Easter will come in time, and then I shall be
home again. You won’t forget me, Leila? will you promise me that?”

“To be sure I will not, but it is needless to promise; do you think I
could forget the only brother I have in the world? You know I have
already told you, that now I do not think you too tall to be my brother;
so you may grow as tall as ever you choose, and you will still always be
my brother.”

When Leila was alone with her papa that evening, she immediately
recurred to what had taken place during the ride.

“Papa,” she said, “I must have frightened you very much.”

“You did, indeed, my love; I was extremely alarmed. You were not aware
of what the fatal consequences might have been, and very rash indeed to
urge on Selim as you did.”

“Yes, and you will be more sorry, papa, when I tell you why--it was what
you call the foot of pride--it entered into me, papa, and I did it all
on purpose--yes, I whipped Selim on, that I might show off before
Charles, and that he might admire my riding, and say how well I kept my
seat: once I heard him say, that Selina kept her seat so well, and I
wished him so much to say the same of me; you did not know this, papa?”

“Yes, my love, I was aware of your motive, and you may therefore suppose
what my feelings must have been, when I thought my child’s life might
fall a sacrifice to her vanity and love of admiration.”

“My life, papa?”

“Yes, my dear Leila, you might not be aware of all the risk you ran, but
it was God’s goodness alone that saved you; for you braved the danger,
and it was great.”

“O papa, how wrong I have been, and God might have punished me--He might
even have taken my life, and He did not; yet He saw into my heart, and
knew how vain and foolish I was--how can He love me, how can He forgive
me?”

“My Leila, God cannot love the sin, yet has He compassion on the sinner.
Do you remember what St. John says--‘So God loved the world, that He
gave His only-begotten Son, to the end that all that believe in Him
should not perish, but have everlasting life!’ and in the fourth
chapter, he says, ‘Herein is love, not that we loved God, but that He
loved us, and sent His Son to be the propitiation for our sins.’ Yes,
my child, it is the righteousness of One who has never sinned, that is
this propitiation, which has been procured for us. In our own strength
we cannot walk; it is clad in the righteousness of our Saviour Jesus
Christ alone, that we can stand in the presence of a pure and holy God;
and we are also told, that ‘We have not an High Priest, which cannot be
touched with a feeling of our infirmities; but was, in all points,
tempted like as we are, yet without sin.’ You may meet with those who
will tell you that vanity and pride are but trifling faults, mere human
weaknesses; but do not listen to them--think often to what in your own
case they might have led; and, above all, try to keep ever in your mind
the example of Him whom you love and serve; think of His deep humility,
His meekness, His lowliness of heart; for our blessed Saviour not only
died for us, but He lived for us--He left the glory of His Father’s
kingdom, to take our nature upon Him; that we might learn of Him; He has
compassion on our weaknesses, for He knew them all, and it is His
example that should ever dwell in our minds, as His sacrifice should
ever dwell in our inmost hearts.”

“But, papa, I know this--I know that our Saviour Jesus Christ was humble
and meek, and I know He can see into my heart, and yet I have been
foolish and vain--it is so difficult--and then I am but a little child,
how can I follow so great an example?”

“You can only do so by praying constantly for the grace of God to give
you strength; He can make the hardest duty easy to you; and for your
encouragement you should think also of how your blessed Saviour loved
little children. Do you remember that when the disciples were disputing
together who should be the greatest, our Lord set a child before them as
an example of the simplicity and humility of which He approved, and
which He wished them to imitate? Strive then, my dearest Leila, to
become a meek and humble child, such as your Saviour loves; kneel before
Him in all your weakness, and from Him you will receive strength to help
in time of need.”

Leila threw her arms round her father’s neck, and softly whispered, “I
will try, papa, and you will also pray for me.”




CHAPTER XII.


“Now there is only one day more,” Matilda exclaimed, as she darted into
the school-room, (which Mrs. Roberts had just left,) and clasped Selina
round the neck so tightly as almost to choke her; “only one day more, my
sweet sister _Demure_, and my punishment will be ended, and you will be,
I do believe, as happy as I am; for I know you have not half enjoyed the
stories without me, nor you either, Leila--now tell me, have you not
missed me very much?”

Both assured her that they had.

“I knew it,” she continued, “for you are so tender-hearted; but I hope
Mrs. Roberts has been tender-hearted also, and that she has not begun to
read to you the account of Lavalette’s escape yet: you know she said she
would abridge it for us, and last night, when I saw her writing, I was
so afraid she would read it to you to-day--it would be very cruel of her
if she has done so.”

“But she was not cruel,” Leila answered quickly; “I think she stopped on
purpose that you might be with us--to-day she only read to us some
anecdotes of cats.”

“Of cats! O I don’t care so much about cats; what could put that into
Mrs. Roberts’s head?”

“I had been telling her of the sad fright Selina gave me last night,
that made her think of cats.”

“And you did not tell me about Selina,” Matilda said, reproachfully;
“though I don’t care much for other people’s cats, you know I always do
for yours--I like every thing that you like, Leila.”

“Yes, I know you do; and you are not to look vexed now, for I don’t like
that; the reason I did not like to tell you was, that we began lessons
the moment I arrived, for I was later than usual to-day, because I staid
to talk to Peggy Dobie about a bee-hive; I am going to get her a
bee-hive; I have money for it now, and it will be ready for spring. She
is so fond of bees; she says they are the best of company, an example to
old and young, and the very hum of them is pleasant to her heart, and
brings back her thoughts to her own land, and to days long gone by.”

“But what about Selina?” Matilda inquired.

“O yes, I was almost forgetting to tell you. She gave me such a fright.
You know I am taming a linnet, for I read a story once about a little
boy having tamed a linnet, and taught it to call persons by their names,
and to imitate sounds, and whistle like nightingales and larks; and this
linnet lived for forty years, and was only killed by an accident; so I
thought if my linnet lived for forty years, it would be a comfort to me
in my old age; and now I daresay it will be, for you can’t think how
tame it is getting since you saw it, and it seems to love me more and
more every day. Whenever I go into my room it flies to the side of the
cage, and puts up its bill to kiss me, and then it hops down to the
door, and stands watching till I open it and let it out. Yesterday,
after I had let it out, I put a saucer of water on the table, that it
might wash itself, for it likes so much to splash about in the water;
and then I went into the drawing-room for a book. I staid a little, for
I had opened the book at an interesting place, and I began to read, and
forgot my dear little Mimi. Suddenly I heard something rush past me--it
was Selina with my bird in her mouth. She darted under the sofa quite
out of sight; I did not dare to lift up the cover of the sofa, for I
thought I should see Mimi torn to pieces. I covered my face with my
hands, and was trembling to hear it scream. Oh, I was so frightened!
and so dreadfully angry, if I had had a stick, I believe I could have
killed Selina. Think only if I had done it! My own Selina! I looked up
and saw a strange cat with large eyes glaring at me: I flew at it, and
dashed it out of the room in a great rage, and then Selina came softly
out from below the sofa, and gently laid down Mimi quite safe at my
feet. It was to save it from this strange cat that Selina had run away
with it.”[A]

 [A] A fact.

“Oh, what a dear creature!” Matilda exclaimed; “I do think no cat in the
whole world can be so delightful as Selina. What a comfort that you did
not hurt her. I was wishing so for a stick when you were telling it, I
would have dashed her to pieces in a moment; and even if I had not had
one, I think I would have trailed her out from below the sofa in some
way or other. What a dreadful thing it would have been if I had killed
her. But you see, Cousin Leila, we are a little like in some things, we
both wished for sticks.”

“Yes, indeed, that is quite true; and I am sure you need never call me
good. Only the day before yesterday I almost lost my life, because I was
foolish and vain, and yesterday I might have killed a cat.”

“But you did not.”

“No, I did not; but I made papa very grieved, and he spoke to me a great
deal about it, and said that when these fits of anger were not
restrained in youth, they often led to the most dreadful crimes. He put
me in mind of how I snatched my work out of Nurse’s hands, and danced
upon it; and he said it grieved him to see that the same spirit of anger
often possessed me, that though I was so much older now----”

“Well, don’t let us talk about that,” Matilda said. “Did Mrs. Roberts
read to you any thing interesting about cats, any thing worth telling?
Selina, you have such a good memory, I daresay you can remember
something worth telling me.”

“Yes, she read us several anecdotes that I think you would have liked.
She read to us about a favourite cat that belonged to a Madame
Helvetius. It never touched the birds which she kept, almost constantly
lay at her feet, and seemed to be always watching over her, and would
never take any food but what she gave it. When Madame Helvetius died,
the poor cat was removed from her chamber, but it made its way there
next morning, got upon her bed, then upon her chair, slowly and
mournfully passed over her toilet, and cried most piteously, as if
lamenting her poor mistress; it refused all food, and after the funeral
it was found stretched out on the grave quite dead.”

“Oh, dear, what a melancholy story; I don’t think I would have cared
much to hear that. Did Mrs. Roberts read you nothing better than that?
nothing merry about cats?”

“She read us also an anecdote which we thought interesting. A lady went
to visit a friend in the country, and this friend had a favourite cat
and dog; they were very fond of each other, ate together from the same
plate, and slept on the same rug. Puss had kittens while the lady was
staying with her friend, and Pincher went regularly every day to visit
the kittens, whose nursery was at the top of the house. One morning
there was a tremendous storm of thunder and lightning; Pincher was in
the drawing-room, and the cat was watching her little family in the
garret. Pincher seemed quite frightened by the bright flashes of
lightning, and trembled all over; and just as he had crept close to the
visitor, and laid himself down at her feet, (as if for protection,) some
one came into the drawing-room, followed by puss, who walked in with a
most disturbed air, and mewing with all her might, came up to Pincher,
rubbed her face against his cheek, touched him gently with her paw, and
then walked to the door, stopped, looked back, mewed again, and seemed
to say, as plainly as words could have done, ‘Do come with me, Pincher;’
but Pincher was too much frightened himself to give any comfort to poor
puss, and took not the least notice of her invitation. She came back and
renewed her request with increased mewing. But the hard-hearted Pincher
was immovable, though he seemed perfectly to understand her meaning, for
he turned away his head with a conscious guilty look, and crept still
closer to the lady; and pussy, finding all her entreaties useless, left
the room. But soon after her mewing became so very piteous, that the
lady could no longer resist going to see what was the matter. She met
the cat at the top of the stairs, close to her bed-room; she ran to her,
rubbed herself against her, and then went into the room, and crept under
the wardrobe. A mewing was then heard as if from two voices, and the
lady discovered that she had brought down one of her kittens and hidden
it there for safety; but her mind being in an unhappy state of anxiety
for the kittens above, and this little one below, she had wished Pincher
to have the kindness to watch by this one while she went for the others.
She seemed to trust, however, to having now found a better friend, for
she came out from below the wardrobe and hastily left the room. The
lady followed, carrying with her the kitten, placed it with the others,
and moved their little bed further from the window, through which the
lightning had flashed so brightly as to alarm poor pussy, who then lay
down beside them quite happy, and the lady remained in the room till the
sun shone out again, and all was quite calm. Next morning, to the lady’s
surprise, she found pussy waiting for her at the door of her bed-room;
she went down with her, sat by her, and caressed her in every possible
way. Before that she had always been in the habit of going down to
breakfast with the lady of the house, but on this morning she had
resisted all her coaxing, and would not move a step with her. As soon as
breakfast was over, she returned to her family in the garret; and she
never did this again. She seemed to think she had shown her gratitude
and done her duty. But for a long time after she took very little notice
of Pincher, and always looked distant and huffy when he came near her.”

“Well,” Matilda said, “this anecdote is interesting; I should have liked
very much to hear Mrs. Roberts read it. But I am glad it is only about
animals that she is reading to you now, for it interests me much more to
hear about men and women, and, above all, about children, especially
when they get into scrapes.”




CHAPTER XIII.


It was a beautiful morning; Selina and Matilda had been allowed to
breakfast at Woodlands, and were to return to Elmgrove with Leila after
a visit to Peggy Dobie’s cottage, for the old gardener had promised to
be there by ten o’clock with the bee-hive, and he was faithful to his
word, for, as they reached the cottage, they found Peggy opening the
little wicket-gate leading to the garden, to admit him and his precious
burden; the hive was safely placed in a sunny, sheltered corner, close
to the green turf seat which Leila had erected for Peggy, and to witness
her joy with the whole arrangement was delightful. She placed herself on
the turf seat, and with her hands clasped firmly together on her knees,
she kept gazing on the hive in a perfect ecstasy of delight.

“Weel, my bairns,” she exclaimed, “you hae surely entered into a compact
to spoil the auld woman all thegither. If there was a wish in my heart,
amang all the grand things, and the wonderfu’ blessings that surround
me, it was for a bee’s skep; it is no’ to be told the love I hae for
thae creatures, they will be friends to me, and company to me, and
example too, for they are a weel principled, upright set, never leaving
their ain house, but for the useful work o’ the day; and sae blythe and
contented, for a constant singing that bonnie sang amang the flowers,
that’s just music to my ears. Can ony mortal man, or woman either, hae a
pleasanter employment than just to sit down afore a bee’s skep, and tak
observation o’ their wonderfu’ ways? and is there nae honourable mention
made o’ the work o’ their hands in the very Bible itsel’, Deuteronomy
thirty-second chapter, thirteenth verse: ‘He made him ride on the high
places of the earth, that he might eat the incense of the fields, and he
made him to suck honey out of the rock.’ And in the eighty-second Psalm,
sixteenth verse: ‘He should have fed them also with the finest of wheat,
and with honey out of the rock should I have satisfied thee.’ Na, na,
it’s no thae jams and jellies, and sic articles o’ man’s contrivance,
that ye hear tell o’ them, but it’s the handiwork o’ thae wonderfu’
creatures that’s had in honour; and I maun just end, as I began, and say
to you, my dear bairns, that you could na hae given me a greater
compliment than this bonnie bee’s skep.”

“But, Peggy,” Matilda observed, “we did not give it you, it was Cousin
Leila; she saved up her money to buy it for you; we only came to see
your joy.”

“Oh, but it is a dear bairn,” Peggy said, looking fondly at Leila, “and
sae generous, and sae thoughtfu’ for her years. Weel, I am no just the
woman I was, for my head’s often unco confused now, and my memory’s no
o’ the best since that fearfu’ journey; but surely I’ll forget my
ainsel, afore I forget all she has done for me.”

“Don’t say that,” Leila said anxiously, “don’t say you are not just the
same; you are looking as well as you ever did now, and you must be quite
happy and cheery,--I don’t like to see you look grave. We have never
been grave since you came back, every day as merry and cheery as can be;
and you have never told us yet if you saw all your friends in comfort
before you came away from Scotland, and if you enjoyed yourself with
them very much.”

“And did I no’, Miss Leila? ’Deed, ’tis no possible to say the pleasant
tea drinkings I had afore I came away; but the very pleasantest of all
was the last night but ane afore I got into the awfu’ ship. It was at my
cousin, Mrs Brown’s, and nae strangers but my ain kith and kind. There
was, forby hersel, just four o’ us. There was mysel, that’s ane; and
there was the twa Dobies, that’s twa; and there was Johnny, man, that’s
three; tuts, but there was four o’ us. There was Johnny, man, that’s
ane; and there was the twa Dobies, that’s twa; and there was mysel,
that’s three,--but there _was_ four o’ us; weel, I’ll begin wi’ mysel
this time. There was mysel, that’s ane; and the twa Dobies, that’s twa;
and Johnny, man, that’s three; preserve me, for I am clean stupid all
thegither! There was Johnny, man, that’s ane; and there was the twa
Dobies, that’s twa; and there was mysel, that’s three,--and if I am no
at mysel again. Weel, and I maun gie it up all thegither; but I am
morally certain there was just four of us.”

The young people were in such fits of laughter that they could give
Peggy no assistance whatever in this mysterious calculation; and Peggy
herself joined heartily in the laugh, only remarking that they might see
now that sometimes she was no just sae clear as she used to be, but that
ony way it was a most pleasant party, and that there _was just four o’
them_.

They could have remained for ever talking with her, and, as Matilda
observed, had received most useful instruction in arithmetic, a far
better way of adding up than she had been taught; but there were other
lessons to be attended to, and most unwillingly they bid good-bye to
Peggy, and proceeded on their way home. Leila, however, observed that it
would be almost as near to return by the village; she wished, so much,
she said, to ask Dame Burton how Lizzy was going on, and it was so
pleasant to see the little things running to meet them; besides, she
added, as they had a half holiday, they would still be home in time--so
to the village they went. By the time they reached Dame Burton’s cottage
they had quite a little troop of rosy, laughing children following them,
quite eager to be talked to and noticed; but Lizzy was not among them,
nor did they see her with her mother on entering the house. Leila
inquired for her, and hoped she had been going on well. Dame Burton
shook her head. “Oh, Miss Howard,” she said, “Lizzy gives me much
vexation of spirit, and I don’t know what course to take with that
child. I have a kind neighbour, who did much for me in a long illness,
and it’s well my part to be kind to her now; she has an old mother, who
is not able to get up very early, and at times, when this friend of mine
has any work to do which takes her out of her house, I send in Lizzy to
help the old woman on with her clothes, and to be company to her; I will
not say that she is a very kindly old woman, she may give a sharp
enough answer now and then to the children, but is that an excuse for
what Lizzy did, and for the sight I saw?”

“But what did you see?” Matilda eagerly inquired. “You have not told
us.”

“What did I see, miss? I saw the poor old woman sitting shaking on her
chair with indignation and rage, her flannel petticoat tied round her
neck, she neither able to stir hand or foot, and Lizzy off to her play!”

They all felt this act to be of a most atrocious nature, but the picture
of the old woman tied up, as it were, in a flannel bag was too much, and
the difficulty of restraining their laughter was very great; Leila
struggled hard for composure: “It was very dreadful,” she said; “but
where is Lizzy now?”

“She is not far off,” Dame Burton answered, in a loud tone, as if she
wished to be overheard by some one; “not far off, young ladies, and she
is experiencing (as you shall see) a little of what she made other
people suffer; but she is young, I tell her, and better able to bear
it.” She threw open the door of the adjoining room, and there sat little
Lizzy, propped up on a high stool in the middle of the floor, her little
flannel petticoat tied round her neck, and her little face no longer
dimpled with its accustomed smiles, but swelled with weeping; her look
of shame and helpless distress, when she saw them enter, was too much;
Leila could not stand it, she covered her face with her hands.

Selina spoke aside for a few minutes to Dame Burton; “You will not
forget to send her to Elmgrove,” they heard her say.

“No, Miss Stanley; and I hope you may be able to make more impression on
her than I can,” was her answer. Selina, then turning round to where the
little culprit sat, undid the string of the little flannel petticoat,
took it off, wiped Lizzy’s eyes gently with her pocket-handkerchief, and
lifting her down from the high stool, led her to her mother. The poor
child was weeping bitterly. She appeared most penitent, and as it seemed
better that she should at that moment be left alone with her mother, the
young people quitted the cottage.

In giving her old nurse an account of her day, which was Leila’s general
custom, she mentioned what had taken place with regard to Lizzy, and
Amy, who was present, almost started off her chair with astonishment and
indignation. “And is it possible,” she said, “that she could treat an
old woman in that way? Oh, how very dreadful!”

“Yes,” Nurse answered, “you may well be surprised and shocked, Amy, for
it would be long before you would act in such a manner. You have always
had a becoming respect for your elders, and shown a quietness and
discretion above your years. And now, Miss Leila, this should be an
awful warning to you; you see to what the love of play may lead, and
must understand now why I always tried to root the evil out of your
heart, and to settle you down to your work with serious reflection; and
you are far from what I could wish yet, you still give me many an
anxious thought. There it was but the other day, when I gave you that
collar to trim; any well brought up young lady would have taken an
interest in having such a beautiful edging to sew on, and would have
arranged it properly in quarters, and pinned it before her hand, but
there were you rumpling it on as if it were a rag, putting all the
fulness in the middle, not a thought of how you were to turn the
corners. Did it ever strike you that _that_ collar never could have been
ironed? Oh, Miss Leila, try to think more deeply of those things, before
it is too late.”

“But, Nurse,” Leila said, in a deprecating tone of voice, “though I am
not very fond of work, I am sure I never would have tied you up in a
flannel _bag_!”

Nurse drew up her little fat round figure in a dignified manner. “Look
at me, Miss Leila, am I the sort of person to be tied up in a flannel
bag?”

Leila thought it would be difficult.

Nurse continued,--“No, Miss Leila, I have always brought you up in
proper habits of respect; but it was not of flannel bags we were
talking, but of that want of serious reflection when you take a piece of
work into your hands; there, about that _very_ collar, you had been
quiet for a time, and I thought had settled down to it, when you
suddenly broke out with--‘Oh, Nurse! look at those clouds; did you ever
see any thing so beautiful? they are like magnificent mountains, bathed
in golden light.’ What sort of nonsense was that, Miss Leila, to be
seeing mountains in the clouds, instead of the work that was before you;
and do you remember when I made you turn your back to the window, and
sit with your face opposite to me, how you kept tapping your foot on the
ground with anger and indignation? but I am not wishing to vex you at
this moment, for I am sure the awful lesson of this day will make a
proper impression; so sit down and let me see how quickly and how nicely
you will stitch round this pocket that I have cut out for you, for you
know I have no opinion of the new fangled way of bringing up young
ladies not to wear pockets, and with every thing belonging to them to be
hunted for all over the house.”

“Yes, Nurse,” Leila answered, “give it me, and you shall see how nicely
I will do it; but when I told Lydia Mildmay that to wear a pocket was
highly respectable, she laughed at me very much.”

“And did she really, Miss Leila? then I am sure she is a most improper
and dangerous companion for you; and, indeed, I thought as much that day
I saw her sailing about, sweeping all the carpets with those long
flounces of hers. Now here is your work; sit down, and let me see how
busy you can be.”

Leila seated herself. After a few minutes’ silence, she said, rather
doubtingly,--“But, Nurse, would not bags be better?”

“Bags!” Nurse repeated in a displeased tone; “bags, Miss Leila, seem to
run strangely in your head to-day. And why should bags be better?”

“Because,” Leila answered, “long ago they made use of bags.”

“_They?_ of whom are you speaking. _Who_ made use of bags?”

“The people of Nineveh. I saw them--they were little square bags; it was
more than three thousand years ago.”

Nurse looked up with a startled expression. “Saw the people of Nineveh!
three thousand years ago! Oh, Miss Leila! speak to me again; what are
you talking of? Do you feel any thing particular? what is the matter
with you?”

Leila burst into a fit of laughter. “Why should I feel any thing
particular because I saw the people of Nineveh and they had bags? I saw
them on the bas reliefs.”

“Bas leaf!” Nurse repeated, still more frightened. “Oh, Amy! she is not
speaking English! What has come over the dear child?”

Leila struggled hard to regain her composure, for she saw her good old
nurse was really getting seriously alarmed. “Nurse,” she said, “don’t be
frightened; I know quite well what I am saying. I saw the figures of the
people of Nineveh, carved on stones, at the British Museum. You know
papa took me there, and he told me these stones had lain in the earth
more than three thousand years. You know Nineveh was overthrown. Do you
remember the prophecy in the Bible? it says, ‘Nineveh is laid waste, who
will bemoan her?’ And it was laid waste--it was overthrown--they are
digging it up again now.”

“Well, Miss Leila, I may not be a good judge of such matters, but I
think they had better let that alone, and not be bringing their evil
deeds to light again. You know the Bible also says,--‘Woe to the bloody
city, it is full of lies and robbery;’ and we are told to flee from it.”

“Then I am afraid you will not like to go there and see those wonderful
things, and I asked papa if you might take Amy there.”

“No, Miss Leila, I would rather not; and I can’t help thinking that the
less she knows of the people of Nineveh the better; she can learn no
good lesson from them.”

“But, Nurse, there are a great many other things to be seen at the
Museum besides--I am sure you would like to see the wild beasts and the
birds. Oh! the birds are so beautiful; how Amy would admire the little
humming-birds--they are scarcely bigger than the wild bees we had in the
island; they have such lovely feathers, purple, and green, and scarlet,
and all beautiful bright colours. Papa says that when they are flitting
about amongst the flowers, they are quite splendid and dazzling to the
eye; and they shoot those dear little birds with little guns loaded with
water; the water does not injure their feathers by wounding them, it
only frightens them, and then they fall down and die. There were no
humming-birds in the island. I wish there had been--I would not have
shot them, even with water, but I would have tried to catch them in some
way without hurting them, and would have tamed them as I did my other
birds; I do hope you will go to the Museum, Nurse, and take Amy, she
will be so surprised, for I don’t think there is a bird in the whole
world that is not there; and I am sure you would like to see the owls,
for you like wise birds, and they look so wise; there were large owls,
and little owls, and every kind, and one little owl near the corner of
the glass case had such a pretty face. Then there were beautiful
pheasants--and the argus-pheasant with its thousand eyes; oh! you must
go; Amy, would not you like it so much?”

“Yes, Miss Leila, I would like it; but a bird with a thousand eyes, I
think it would frighten me.”

“No, it would not,” Leila answered, smiling; “for it has not really a
thousand eyes, it has only spots on its feathers; but it is a poetical
way of speaking that----”

Nurse looked very grave. “How often have I told you, Miss Leila, that I
do not like a poetical way of speaking, and now you see the bad effects
of it; from my experience, I knew that no bird had a thousand eyes, but
Amy did not; you should speak to her in a way she can understand; but
you do run on so. Is there no possibility of making you think of what
you are about? I see clearly that pocket never will be finished.”

Leila was silent for a moment, then jumping up from her seat, she held
the pocket up in the air in a triumphant manner, exclaiming,--“Now,
Nurse, look if I cannot both talk and stitch; see, it is quite finished,
and beautifully done; and now I must go and sing to papa.”

“She is a dear child,” Nurse observed, as she looked up for a moment
from her work and followed Leila’s light steps with affectionate
interest; “and she is far from being a bad needle-woman either, though I
should like well to see her more steady, and taking a greater interest
in it; but, Amy, though Miss Leila in most things sets you a most
superior example, you must never talk as she does sometimes--you must
never be what she calls poetical. I would rather that she were not so
either; but that is a matter for her papa to decide, not me.”




CHAPTER XIV.


Weeks and months glided on. Spring, with its soft, tender, green, and
many blossoms, was spreading life and gladness over the earth, and Leila
thought Woodlands a second Eden. The conservatory bloomed with plants of
the richest fragrance, and the balcony was gay with flowers of the
brightest hue; various beautiful creepers, with the sweet-scented
honeysuckle, forming arches over head; and Leila herself looked as fresh
and blooming as the flowers, and as joyful as the skylark, as it soared
with its glad song into the blue vault of Heaven. She was never weary of
admiring the beautiful scenery by which she was surrounded, for early
habit had made the beauties of nature to her as a continual feast.
Several of her birds were now in full song, and she spent many of her
spare minutes in the conservatory. The precious seeds had come up all
but one, and she had now three thriving plants of Clara’s flower.
Charles had not returned at Easter to mark their progress--he had gone
into a distant country to visit an uncle, a brother of Mr. Herbert’s,
but by Midsummer he would surely visit home, and she hoped they would be
in full flower by that time, which would be for him a still greater
pleasure. Leila had, besides all this, other interests to occupy her.
She frequently visited the school with her Aunt Stanley and her cousins,
and assisted the younger girls in the preparation of their tasks, and
she paid frequent visits to Peggy Dobie’s cottage, and to the village,
where she made herself acquainted with all the wishes and wants of its
various inmates. The Saturdays were generally spent by Selina and
Matilda at Woodlands, when, during part of the morning, they assisted
Leila in giving instruction to many of the village children in church
music, for though Selina’s voice was not yet strong, her knowledge in
music made her a most useful assistant. They also now took daily walks
with Mrs. Roberts in the fields, and generally returned loaded with wild
flowers. Leila had become most successful in drying flowers so as to
preserve their bright colours. The field flowers, assisted by her papa,
she arranged in books in botanical order; but with the flowers from the
conservatory and the garden she often ornamented screens, producing a
wonderfully fine effect, superior to any painting, fixing them on with
gum, and grouping them together in a most beautiful manner. Matilda
often tried to imitate Leila in this, but she did not succeed, her
flowers always lost their bright tints, they grew white, or they grew
black, but they never grew beautiful; the stalks never would bend
gracefully, they would always stick straight up; the gum would always go
on in patches, never smoothly, and she complained that though she put on
a great deal of gum, some of the leaves would not stick at all, so she
generally ended by getting into a rage, and dashing her hair pencil all
over the paper.

“Do tell me, Leila, how you manage so well,” she said one morning, as
she stood admiring a couple of fine screens which Leila had just
finished for Mrs. Herbert. “Those different  geraniums seem to
me to look brighter even than when they were in the conservatory; and
how gracefully the stalks are bent, and the flowers hanging down so
nicely, just as if they were still growing; and those leaves and ferns
are of such a beautiful green, and look so well mixed with the bright
colour of the flowers. My green leaves always turn a dull yellow, or
brown, or something abominable; and as to the blue convolvulus, that
provokes me more than any thing. Look at yours, they are as bright as
when they grew in the garden, and when I try to dry them, the colour
goes away altogether, and they get to be a dirty white. I cannot get any
thing to do well but yellow buttercups, and that is such a common
flower. All this provokes me so, I have no patience for it. No one will
ever give me a sovereign for the poor,[B] for a couple of screens, as
they did to you, and I wish so much that they would.”

 [B] A fact.

“But you know,” Leila answered, “that was only because it was a sale of
ladies’ work for the poor. My screens were not worth that.”

“I don’t know; they were most beautiful, and I heard every one saying
so, for I stood near the counter where they were that I might hear them
praised; and when that gentleman with the nice face took them up and the
lady told them they were done by a little girl, he said that little girl
deserved to be encouraged, and he paid down the sovereign in a minute.
Oh! I was so glad; but though I cannot earn a sovereign, I might earn
something if you would only tell me what I must do to dry them as you
do.”

“Yes, I will tell you every thing I can; but I think the great matter is
being very patient.”

“But, Cousin Leila, I am sure you are not very patient.”

“Yes, I know that; papa often says I am too impetuous.”

“Well,” Matilda observed, “and does not that just mean that you have no
patience?”

Leila . “I suppose it does,” she said; “but in some things I
have patience, I am always very patient about flowers; to be sure, that
is not wonderful, for in the island they were like friends to me. I used
to visit them two or three times in the day to see how they were getting
on, and to talk to them, as if they were alive, and I often knew the
hour of the day by their opening and shutting.”

“And do any of the flowers here open and shut at certain hours?” Matilda
inquired.

“Yes, some of them do; but I don’t know the flowers here so well; one
kind of evening primrose opens its flowers every day a quarter of an
hour before sunset; and the chickweed, which you see me so often
gathering for my birds, seems to me to open both leaves and flowers
every morning at nine o’clock, and closes its flowers again for some
time at twelve, and will not open them at all if it rains; then in the
evening it always seems to be making itself comfortable for the night,
for the leaves all down the stalk shut up to cover the young shoots,
just as if it were putting a great many night-caps on them to keep them
warm.”

“How very curious,” Matilda said; “but, Leila, we are forgetting that
you were to tell me more about drying flowers. I know I need never try
to gain a sovereign like you; but if I could even gain half-a-crown or
even a shilling sometimes, it would be such a comfort, for I am always
getting into such scrapes about my money for the poor; somehow it always
melts away; both you and Selina contrive to save a little every week.”

“But I have more pocket-money than you have.”

“Yes, you have; but still I know I ought to save something, and often I
cannot; it is all the fault of those trumpery shops. When I go to
Richmond there are so many pretty things which I wish for; and then I am
so often hungry and must have some bunns, you know,--how do you manage
so well?”

“I don’t manage very well--I often buy bunns also; but when I wish for
pretty things which cost much, I remember that Nurse says ‘I should turn
away mine eyes from beholding vanity,’ and then I try not to look at
them, but very often I do. You know the other day when I saw that
beautiful basket I did not turn away. I looked at it so long, and then I
took it in my hand and turned it round and round, and thought it so
beautiful, that I could not resist buying it. And now I don’t like it at
all; for it cost so much that I shall not be able to save any of my
pocket-money this week.”

“Well, that was wrong, to be sure, and just what I should have done
myself; but don’t be melancholy about it now, for you have always money
beforehand, so it does not much signify for one week; so do tell me how
I am to earn half-a-crown, and how I am to dry flowers in a most
beautiful manner; you say patience is the chief thing. Will patience
make them keep their colour? now do tell me that.”

“Yes,” Leila answered, “it will; and I will tell you how. Very often
when it clears up after rain, and the flowers look very bright, you wish
to gather them for drying--I always tell you that it is a bad time, but
still you often try to do it--and they get quite dim and discoloured,
and you are obliged to throw them away. Now when I wish to dry them, I
wait till it has been quite fair for several days, and when it is bright
and sunny, and there is no damp in the air, I gather the flowers. I
always choose those that are very bright and fully blown, but before
they have begun to fade in the slightest degree. If they have a decayed
speck no bigger than the head of a pin, do not gather them, for they
will not be bright when dried.”

“And what more do you do?”

“I put them between folds of close smooth writing-paper, never into
blotting-paper.”

“But Lydia told me it should be blotting-paper.”

“No, I have tried that; but the blotting-paper seems to suck the colour
out of them. Well, I place those papers between the leaves of a book,
and tie it tight up with a ribbon, and put it under a weight; if it is a
very tender flower, such as the blue convolvulus, for instance, then you
must not put a very heavy weight, the weight must be in proportion to
the tenderness of the flower. Next day I change the papers that there
may be no damp about them, for nothing spoils their colour so much as
damp. Now all this, you see, takes patience; for sometimes I have to
change the papers more than once.”

“Yes,” Matilda observed, “and such patience, that I am sure I shall
never be able to do it. And this is all then?”

“No; in putting the flowers into dry bits of paper you must do it very
gently, that they may lie quite smooth; for much of their beauty depends
on their looking smooth, and not shrivelled up in any way; and I forgot
to tell you that sometimes before putting them in at all, I bend the
stalks a little to make them lie gracefully. The stalks of the geraniums
are so stiff and straight, that I am obliged to take off the
flower-heads, and put them in papers by themselves, and then I flatten
the stalks and bend them a little before I begin to dry them. The ferns,
which you like so much, grow so gracefully, that I seldom have to bend
them at all, but just to lay them on paper as they grow. The young ferns
of a bright tender green do best: indeed, all green leaves should be
dried when they first come out, before they have got to be a deep
colour, for green is a very difficult colour to dry well; most yellow
flowers do very well, the yellow crocus keeps very bright; indeed, some
scarlet and rose- geraniums dry beautifully, and other scarlets
won’t dry at all,--you must just get acquainted with those that do well,
and with those that don’t.”

Matilda groaned. “My hopes are quite dying away; half-a-crown!--I don’t
think I shall be able to earn sixpence even;--but it is sunny and bright
now, we might go into the garden, and you could gather some of the
flowers which do best, and show me how you lay them on the paper--I
think I have seen you working away with a long pin; but if I were to
take a pin in my hand, I should be sure to run it through the flowers
if they would not lie the right way, for I should be so provoked.

“Well, that is why I say that the chief thing is patience; you would
quite spoil the flower if you even scratched it with the pin. I take the
pin to help me to guide the leaves to lie right; for sometimes when I
lay down the branch on the paper, all the leaves get crowded together,
and I have to separate them, and sometimes to pluck off one or two.”

“It is most horribly difficult, I can see that; however, let us go into
the garden; perhaps, if I see you do it, I might still try.”

“But, Matilda, it won’t do to gather flowers to dry to-day; you forget
that it rained in the night, and that this morning even there was a
slight shower.”

Matilda shrugged her shoulders. “What a business! better give it up
altogether, and especially if I am to bear in mind every time it rains.
When the rain is over, I am too glad to forget it,--who ever thinks of
rain when the sun is shining? not _I_--I always feel sure it is never to
rain again; and so all my little plans for goodness must be given up,
and I must just go on buying bunns till I am older, and then perhaps I
shall not be so hungry, and shall not care for them so much.”

Leila smiled but shook her head. “Now don’t talk in that way, Matilda,
for you know very well it is not right, and you do not mean to go on
spending all your money on bunns; you could not be happy if you did; you
only say so to make me laugh; but come, let us go into the garden, and I
can show you what flowers do best for drying, and then when it is fine
we can gather them, and I will help you to put them in paper. I am sure
_you_ also could make money by it.”

“Oh, you are a darling!” Matilda exclaimed; “and again my hopes are
rising, _rising_--sixpence--a shilling--half-a-crown. Oh! there will be
no counting the money I shall make. I shall have quite too much for the
poor, and be able to treat you all with bunns into the bargain; now that
is what I call generous.”

They found Mrs. Roberts and Alfred in the garden, Alfred flying at full
speed as if in pursuit of something. “Don’t stop me, Matilda, don’t. Now
it is going to settle on that rosebush--no, it is not--yes, it is
hovering--now don’t move, don’t make a noise; now I have him;”--and he
held up a large dragon-fly between his fingers.

Matilda screamed. “Oh! let him go, Alfred--do let him go--he will sting
you; only see how he is putting out that long frightful sting. I see his
sting quite plain.”

“No, Matilda, you need not be afraid, he cannot hurt me, for he has no
sting. Mrs. Roberts told me that was a vulgar error.”

“Did you tell Alfred that?” Matilda inquired, turning to Mrs. Roberts;
“but how can that be when I see it? and he is pushing it out every
moment in a most frightful manner; only look, Mrs. Roberts.”

“Yes, I see what you mean, Matilda; but that movement in its body is
only the effort the poor dragon-fly is making to escape; it is a
perfectly harmless insect, for it has no instrument with which it can
sting.”

“Then if you are quite sure of that,” Matilda said, eagerly, “I should
like to look at him nearer. Stop, Alfred, and let me see. Oh! what a
beautiful creature he is, and with four such lovely wings; when the sun
shines upon them they seem to change colour like mother-of-pearl. Now
that I know he has no sting I think him a perfect beauty, and before I
used to run away from a dragon-fly as if it had been a wild beast; and
they do look rather fierce though they are beautiful, for they have such
a way of darting down so suddenly. Sometimes I have watched them flying
across the pond at the bottom of the garden, and they dart down so low,
they seem as if they were dropping into the water.”

“Yes,” Mrs. Roberts observed, “that is because they chiefly live upon
water insects; with those large eyes they can discern their prey at a
great distance, and then dart down upon it; but it is a bold insect and
a voracious one also, and I have seen it sometimes attack a butterfly
fully as large as itself and tear it to pieces. It lives, however,
chiefly on small water insects, and seizes upon them as they skim along
the surface of the water; but another reason why one so often sees
dragon-flies in the neighbourhood of ponds and ditches is, that the
dragon-fly itself passes its young state in the water, and those small
ones which you have often seen near ponds are those which have just left
their former state and become winged insects.”

“Yes, I know all about that,” Alfred said; “Mrs. Roberts told me about
the larva and about the pupa skin, like a little box, that they crawl
out of, and then fly off; it was very interesting. Now I will let this
one fly away, and show you what she has made for me, I hid it behind
that big flower-pot till I required it again; see, it is a little net of
coarse muslin, sewed round this circle of wire, and I fixed the pole to
it myself; it is for fishing in the pond for larva. Mrs. Roberts, might
we go now and try for some, and then you could tell Cousin Leila and
Matilda more about it?”

[Illustration: LEILA AT HOME, Page 202.]

Mrs. Roberts gave a willing assent, and to the pond they all proceeded.

“Now, Alfred,” Matilda said, “do give me the net; I daresay you have had
it for a long time to-day, and I should like so much to fish for larva,
for I want so much to know what larva is.”

Alfred looked a little disappointed, but yielded up the net, saying
only, “Now, Matilda, do take care of it, please, for it will be easily
broken.”

“Never fear, little man, you are so easily frightened; do you think I
don’t know how to take care of a fishing-net? Now stand aside a little
and you shall see.” She plunged it vigorously into the pond, the net
filled with mud, she could scarcely draw it out again; little Alfred
became very red, and was near getting into a passion, but a look from
Mrs. Roberts, as she pronounced his name, restrained him; he took the
net from Matilda, and having washed it out carefully, put it into
Leila’s hands, saying, “Now it is your turn, Cousin Leila, to try for
larva.”

Leila did try, but she was not much more successful than Matilda, the
net still came up half filled with mud, for she plunged it down too
hastily; besides, the water had been much disturbed.

Matilda clapped her hands. “How glad I am!” she exclaimed.

Mrs. Roberts looked towards her; but a look, however impressive, was
seldom sufficient for Matilda.

“Yes,” she continued, “I am glad; for it is a comfort to me that though
Cousin Leila is so patient about flowers, she is not in the least
patient about larva.”

Leila , but said nothing.

Matilda looked at her for a moment, then throwing her arms round her
neck, she said,--“Oh! I am a wretch to vex you, and just at the very
moment too when you have been so kind to me about the flowers; but kiss
me, Leila, and don’t let us think any more about it; there, Alfred, do
you wash out the net again, and dip it in the right way, and let us see
the larva and talk about it.”

Alfred obeyed, and having gone to the other side of the pond where the
water had not been disturbed, he dipped the net very gently in, and soon
brought up a large muddy-looking insect.

Mrs. Roberts looked at it attentively. “You have been in good luck,
Alfred,” she said, “for you have got the larva of the great dragon-fly,
the very same species you caught in the garden. This species is fond of
concealing itself in the mud, and lies in wait there till it pounces on
any insect that comes in its way.”

“But it seems to move so slowly,” Matilda observed, “that I should think
that if the other insects were the least bit clever, they could easily
get out of its way. They must stand still, silly things, to be
devoured.”

“No, Matilda, you are deciding too hastily. The poor insects are in much
greater danger than you are aware of. This slow-looking gentleman has a
most curious apparatus at his command that you are not yet acquainted
with. He has very large jaws which are covered with a kind of mask. Look
at this horny substance which covers its face.”

“So much the better that it does cover its face,” Matilda said; “for I
am sure it must be a frightfully ugly one. But what more does it do?”

“When it pleases it can let down this mask, which has claws at the end,
similar, though on so small a scale, to the claws of a lobster. When it
sees its prey within reach, it darts out these claws, and in a moment
conveys the poor insect to its mouth. Then it has a way of bringing the
insects nearer to itself. Do you see those five sharp little points at
the tail? it has the power of drawing in and pushing out the water by
opening and shutting them; this produces a slight current in the water,
which floats the small insects within its reach.”

“It is a cunning, cruel wretch,” Matilda said, “and I don’t understand
how such a horrid creature as that can ever become that beautiful
harmless dragon-fly; but did you ever see it in its pupa state? does it
begin to grow good then?”

“Why, as to that, Matilda, it moves and eats in its pupa state just as
it does now. I am afraid you would not think there was much improvement;
but it is from instinct, not cruelty, that it makes use of those means
to procure food. You forget that we too take the life of many animals to
procure our food, and often, I am afraid, in an unjustifiably cruel
manner. But you ask me if I have ever seen the dragon-fly in its pupa
state. I did once, and it was very curious indeed.”

“Do tell us about it; how I wish I could see it too. I hope it was not
so ugly as this larva creature.”

“It certainly was more curious than beautiful; it was attached to the
branch of a shrub, and at first it seemed to me as an insect with two
bodies, with the head and eyes of a dragon-fly.”

“What a monster,” Matilda exclaimed, “worse even than the larva.”

“No; on looking at it more attentively, I saw it was on the point of
escaping from its pupa case, so I sat down and watched it for some time.
Its wings were folded up on its back in a wonderfully small space. At
first they looked quite short, but as it cleared itself from its pupa
skin, the wings gradually expanded; it seemed, however, too weak to fly.
It slowly crawled to another branch of the shrub, and there remained, as
if resting from its labours.”

“And did you not see it fly?”

“No; I was obliged soon after to leave the garden, and when I returned
it was gone, probably enjoying in the air its new state of existence.
The pupa case alone remained, and was not the least broken or injured by
the dragon-fly having made its escape. It looked quite transparent; on
trying to remove it, I found it was attached to the branch by two little
claws which projected from that part of the case which covered each
leg.”

“Oh, how beautiful, and how wonderful!” Leila exclaimed, her whole
countenance beaming with intelligence.

Matilda, while Mrs. Roberts was giving them this account, had looked at
Leila once or twice with some anxiety; their eyes now met; Leila’s sunny
smile quite reassured Matilda, and she whispered in her ear, “You dear
one, you are more beautiful to me than a hundred dragon-flies; and I am
so glad that you have not wings, and that you cannot fly away from me.”

“Now, Alfred,” Mrs. Roberts said, “put by your net carefully.”

“May I not fish just once more, and try for the larva of the gnats and
caddis worms which you promised to tell me about?”

“No, not to-day; at another time you shall do so.”

Mrs. Roberts took Alfred by the hand and turned towards the house, while
Leila and Matilda took their way to the flower beds; Matilda with most
sanguine anticipations of the money she was about to make.




CHAPTER XV.


On the following Saturday, Nurse, having some commissions to execute in
Richmond, and the weather being uncommonly fine, Leila and her cousins
were allowed to accompany her. Matilda had for some days before been
pursuing most actively her new method of drying flowers, and had already
tied up and placed in all sorts of odd corners half the books in her
possession filled with them; and as they had all received that morning
their weekly allowance of pocket-money, she felt quite elated, not only
by the riches of which she was in actual possession, but by the
countless sums she now felt sure of acquiring.

In this dangerous state of mind poor Matilda was ill prepared for the
trial which awaited her, for some of Nurse’s commissions were to be
executed in the very shop which had so often proved a scene of
temptation to her. She entered it with many good resolutions. Reels of
cotton were wanted by the whole party, and reels of cotton _only_
Matilda was determined to buy. Leila and Selina each selected a pretty
little box filled with them; but Matilda’s eyes wandered all over the
counter. Alas! that so many bright little eyes should so often wander
over forbidden ground. A most tempting, and a much more beautiful box
than those selected stood open before Matilda; in addition to reels of
cotton it had also scissors and a thimble. It was not at all too large,
and it was not at all dear; indeed, she thought it most wonderfully
cheap, and she opened and shut it again several times in great
admiration.

Selina whispered, “You had better put it away, Matilda; you know it is
only reels of cotton you require.”

“No, Selina,” she said, “you are quite mistaken; you forget that I could
not find my thimble this morning; I looked every where for it, and lost
so much of my time; and see only how I have hurt my finger with sewing
without one, it is quite red; you would not wish me to do that again, I
am sure; so I must buy a thimble, and it is only the scissors in
addition, you know.”

“But, Matilda, your thimble is only mislaid; it will be found I am sure.
I saw it on your finger yesterday.”

“But you did not see it to-day, Selina, and I tell you it is quite
lost; I looked a long time for it.”

“But do consider, Matilda,” Selina said, very gently; “to buy this
work-box will require almost all the money you have. Only twopence will
remain.”

Matilda . Only twopence. She seemed to hesitate, and pushed the
box a little way from her; but suddenly brightening up, and drawing it
towards her again, she said, “Selina, you quite forget the money I am
now quite sure of making, for I dare say I have now near a hundred
flowers, which I know quite well will be beautiful.”

“But you cannot be sure, Matilda, that you will be able to make money in
that way.”

“And why should I not be sure? You are so prudent, Selina, that it just
provokes me. Why should I not be able to make money as well as Leila, if
my flowers are beautiful? I am sure I have taken trouble enough with
them, and patience too; you might praise me, I think, a little for that,
instead of wishing to take all my pleasures from me in this way; and it
is such a useful thing to buy, and when I tell you too that I have lost
my thimble; but don’t say any more about it, for I am determined to buy
it. It is not as if I were buying a foolish thing; this box will be most
useful to me.” She took it up as she spoke, and moved to another corner
of the shop.

The work-box was soon carefully wrapped up in paper and paid for, and
they all proceeded on their way. Having executed several other
commissions, Nurse proposed that they should rest for a little in a
baker’s shop, where each might have a bunn, as the hour of luncheon
would have passed before they could return home. This they all thought
an excellent plan.

They were soon seated and enjoying their bunns, and Matilda had just
declared that she meant to be prudent now, and though she was very
hungry indeed, she would only allow herself one bunn, and would keep the
other penny in case of accidents, when a little girl, carrying a basket
tied over with a napkin, entered the shop. She looked very pale and
thin, and her clothes, though neither dirty nor ragged, were scanty and
much patched. As the baker was at the moment serving a customer, she
rested the basket on the ground as if much fatigued, and stood silently
waiting by the counter. A broken piece of roll lay upon it. She gathered
up a few stray crumbs, which she put in her mouth, and they saw her then
stretch out her thin little hand as if to take the roll also, but she
did _not_; on the contrary, she pushed it further from her and turned
away. The baker seemed to have perceived the action, for he said,
pushing it towards her, “You may have that piece of roll if you are
hungry.”

The child’s eyes glistened, she seized the roll and began eagerly to eat
it; suddenly she stopped, and looked anxiously at what remained, and put
it in her pocket. By this time Leila’s attention was much excited. The
child, pointing to the basket, spoke aside to the baker, who was now
disengaged, but in so low a tone she could not make out what she said.
The man shook his head as he replied, though also in a low tone, as if
unwilling to be overheard by them, “No, no, we never buy cats; take it
away; it is out of the question.”

The child spoke again, and with a look of much entreaty; Leila thought
she could distinguish the words, _loaf_--starving.

“Well,” the man said, “I don’t know as to a loaf; let me see, its skin
might be worth that;” and he put out his hand as if to take the basket.

The child shuddered violently, and snatching it hastily up, she
proceeded towards the door. She stopped, hesitated, and turning back,
she pushed the basket towards him, saying in an excited voice, “Take it
out, don’t let me see it; its legs are tied, give me the loaf.” She
turned from him, covered her face with her hands, and burst into tears.

The young people all rose, and in a moment were around her. Matilda
pushed aside the napkin which covered the basket, and there lay a
beautiful large cat, with its legs tied together in a most pitiable
manner.

“Oh, how cruel,” Leila exclaimed, “to tie its legs!--and why, little
girl, did you wish to sell your cat?--who did you say was starving?”

The child made no answer; she was sobbing violently.

“Poor little girl,” Leila said, in her soothing, gentle voice, “compose
yourself! Don’t cry; we are not angry with you; we are sure you have
done nothing wrong--do speak to us;--who did you say was starving?”

“My mother and all of us,” she gasped out; “we have not a morsel of food
in the house; we have had no breakfast; oh, give me the loaf, and let me
go home!”

Leila looked at her with a distressed and agitated countenance; “I have
frightened her,” she said; “I spoke harshly to her. What can we do for
her, Selina?--do tell me!”

They spoke together aside for a few minutes. “Yes,” Leila continued,
turning towards the little girl again, “I am sure that is the best thing
to be done; Nurse always says tea is so refreshing. Don’t cry, little
girl, pray don’t!--your cat is not to be sold, and your mother and all
of you are to have a nice breakfast; we are going to buy tea, and sugar,
and butter, and everything that is good; and the baker will give us two
large loaves; we have plenty of money to pay for every thing.”

While this conversation was going on, Matilda had stood beside the
little girl, feeding her with what remained of her own bunn; stuffing
piece after piece into her mouth, and almost choking her.

“And this is all I can do,” she said; “and I cannot help you, Leila and
Selina, in buying butter, and tea, and sugar; I have nothing left but
this abominable penny;”--and she threw it on the ground in uncontrolled
distress--“oh, what a hard-hearted, extravagant, sinful, wretched,
horrid girl I have been!”

Leila lifted the poor rejected penny from the ground, and whispered in
her ear, “Don’t be in such a state, Matilda; try to bear it; you know I
did just the same about the basket. We have both been very wrong, but we
can both repent. You know that is the right thing to do. And this penny
can still do a little good; take it, Matilda; you might buy a bunn with
it for the mother; I am sure she would like a bunn better than the
bread.”

But Matilda was not to be comforted; she bought the bunn, and wrapped it
carefully up in paper; but as she got into the street, she entreated
Nurse to go back with her to the shop where she had purchased the
work-box. She wished, she said, to ask the man to take it again, and
give her back the money. Nurse thought it very doubtful that this would
be agreed to; but she yielded to Matilda’s entreaties, and they went
back to the shop. The master was very civil; he said they never took
back goods that had been paid for, they were obliged to make a rule not
to do so; he seemed, however, in this instance, to be inclined to yield,
and Matilda’s eyes sparkled with joy, when he took the work-box from her
hand, and undid the paper; but on seeing it he shook his head--“I was
anxious to oblige you, young lady,” he said, “but in this case it is
impossible--this work-box has been injured, it has got a fall.”

“Yes, sir,” Nurse answered, (for poor Matilda was now unable to speak,)
“it did get a fall; I told Miss Matilda she had better not undo the
paper in the street, but we cannot expect young people to be wise all at
once; but I am quite sure of one thing, she did not know it had been
injured, for we both examined it, and were not aware it had been
scratched at all.”

“No, of course not; no need of an apology, madam;” and as he spoke, he
carefully wrapped the unfortunate box up in a fresh piece of paper,
and, with a low bow, put it into Matilda’s hands.

Poor Matilda, she could scarcely articulate, as turning from the shop
she said,--“And it was my own fault, I would take it out of the paper;
oh, what a day of misfortunes, surely no one was ever so unfortunate as
I am!”

Leila whispered, “You forget, Matilda, about Rosamond and the purple
jar.”

“Oh, but that was not half so bad, don’t say it was, Cousin Leila; she
had only holes in her shoes to vex her; she had not a whole houseful of
starving people--no, no,--no one was ever so unfortunate as I am; don’t
try to comfort me, it makes me much worse.”

The scene which presented itself on entering the house to which the
little girl conducted them, was certainly not calculated to lessen her
sorrow. All within the house bore the marks of extreme poverty. A pale,
emaciated woman was seated on a low stool, endeavouring to lull to sleep
a sickly-looking infant; a girl, apparently some years older than the
child who accompanied them, sat on the side of a miserable-looking bed,
(the only one the room contained,) knitting busily: her features were
pretty, but she kept her eyes cast down; and though she seemed to listen
eagerly to what was said, she took no further notice of their entrance.
The woman had risen, and was endeavouring to silence three clamorous
little urchins, who all ran towards the door when it opened, loudly
exclaiming, “Why did you take away Tiny--what have you done with
her?--have you brought no bread as you promised? we have had no
breakfast yet!” They shrank back on seeing the strangers.

Nurse gave a glance around the room; its contents were not numerous. A
small tea-kettle stood by the almost empty grate, in which a few sparks
of fire still lingered. She went out, taking the eldest of the little
boys with her, and soon returned with a supply of wood. A fire was
kindled, and in a wonderfully short space of time, (for Leila and her
cousins assisted,) a few cups and bowls were collected together, and the
children were all assembled round a small table, devouring bread and
butter as fast as it could be prepared for them, and anticipating the
delight of having warm tea. The eldest girl was also seated at the
table, but still kept her eyes cast down. The mother, observing the
inquiring glances which were cast towards her, explained that she was
blind; but she added, “My poor Susan is of the greatest assistance to
me; ever since her father’s death, she has worked late and early; her
knitting has been our chief support, and when I can get a day’s work at
a time, she keeps the poor baby: but she is sorely changed, her health
is suffering; she is not like the same girl she was when times were
better with us, for we were well to do in the world, till the fever came
amongst us, and he that was always help and comfort to us all, was taken
away.”

“And was poor Susan always blind?” Leila inquired.

“No, my young lady; your own eyes were not brighter than hers were for
the first seven years of her life; but she took the small-pox--for,
alas! I had neglected to have her vaccinated--indeed I had a prejudice
against it, and many and many a bitter thought that prejudice has cost
me.”

The tears were running down poor Susan’s face, as her mother gave this
recital. They all looked at her with much interest; suddenly their
attention was arrested by one of the little boys sliding down from his
stool, and exclaiming, as he ran round the table and took the hand of
each of them in succession, “Thank you, good ladies, for our nice
breakfast;”--but as he approached Matilda, she pushed him from her--“O
no, no,” she said, “do not thank me; I can bear it no longer!”--and she
ran out of the room. Selina followed her.

In a few minutes they both returned, Matilda looking quite composed,
though sorrowful: she went up to the blind girl, and, in a low voice,
tried to enter into conversation with her; but it was the greatest
possible relief to Matilda, when, soon after, Nurse said it was time to
return home; assuring the poor woman, at the same time, she would speak
to her master about her, and she was sure he would give her some
assistance.

On entering the house, on their return, Matilda followed Leila to her
room. “Leila,” she said, “you must keep this work-box for me, and put it
out of my sight, for I cannot bear to look at it. This has been a sad
day for me; I don’t think I ever was so unhappy before, as when I saw
that blind girl knitting so fast with her poor thin fingers, and looking
so starved: and when I thought I had given all my money for this
work-box, and bought it though Selina so often told me not to do it, and
that I would repent--O I am a monster!--don’t you think so, Leila?”

“No, Matilda; don’t say so; a monster is a wild beast--you are not the
least like one--and you are repenting; you cannot do more now than that,
and you should be thankful you are not a wild beast, for then you could
not repent.”

“And then to eat that bunn in such good spirits, what do you say to
that?”

“But you did not eat in very good spirits; you were sorrowful before the
end, and gave half away.”

“Yes, half; but what is that, and a whole houseful of people
starving--six children and a mother, you know. O don’t try to comfort
me, it makes me much worse: I would rather you had said I had been as
bad as possible.”

“No, Matilda, I cannot say that, though you have been very wrong; but
how can I blame you even for that, when I was as bad? You are forgetting
about my buying this basket,” and she pointed to a small table on which
the basket was placed; “a little girl might have come with a cat to
sell, and then it would have been just the same thing.”

“No, not the same thing; for you had more money which you had saved, so
you could spare it;--but I must say one thing, Cousin Leila, I do wonder
how you can put this basket on the table before your very eyes; I can’t
bear even to look at this box, I am so sorry; and you said we had both
done wrong, and should both repent. I don’t think this looks very like
repenting.”

Leila , and the tears came into her eyes as she said in a very
low voice, “I did it to make me repent.”

“To make you repent, I don’t understand what you mean; you liked the
basket, I suppose?”

“No, I did not; I could not bear it; I felt just the same as you did;
and at first I hid it in the corner behind that high chair; but then I
thought it would be my punishment if I saw it always before me, and that
it would keep me in mind not to buy useless things again.”

“And I have been thinking you wrong,” Matilda exclaimed, “when all the
time you were most excellent; oh, Leila, I never can be like you--no,
not a hope of it; I do believe I am turning out quite worthless;--first,
I would spend all my money for my own pleasure; then I would open the
parcel, and let it fall; and after all this, I tried to think you as bad
as I am; but I know what you are thinking now, and I can at least do
that--you are thinking that I should take home this work-box, and put it
on a table before my eyes; and I _will_ do it.” She tore the paper from
the work-box as she spoke, and looked at it steadily. “O yes, abominable
box,” she said, “I just hate you!--but no, it is not the work-box that
is wrong,”--and she shook her head;--“but we won’t talk any more about
it now; let us go into the conservatory, and see the dear little birds,
they are singing so cheerily, and they don’t know any thing about
repentance, or what I have been doing.”




CHAPTER XVI.


Many weeks now passed on tranquilly and without any marked event. The
poor widow Barlow and her family had been frequently visited. Mr. Howard
had been liberal in rendering her assistance, and Leila and her cousins
had employed many of their leisure hours in working for the children,
who were now comfortably clothed, and the elder ones put to school.
Matilda had most cheerfully contributed her share, both in money and in
work, and Mrs. Roberts gave a favourable report of her general
improvement; her constant association with Selina and Leila was
certainly producing a favourable effect on her character, but she was
still easily misled by bad example, and often unprepared to meet the
hour of trial; present gratification was generally yielded to, and
though in most cases deep repentance followed, her feelings were as yet
stronger than her principles, and the many good resolutions made in the
hour of sorrow too often gave way before fresh temptation.

It was now nearly Midsummer; the precious seeds had not only sprung up
into three healthy plants, but each plant presented flower-buds of
promising appearance. The old gardener, however, would not hear of their
being transplanted into separate pots till the autumn, assuring Leila
that were he to do so sooner it would prevent the flower-buds from
opening, and in every way <DW44> the growth of the plant. This was a
disappointment; but she consoled herself by having the flower-pot
removed into her own room and placed on a flower-stand before the
window, that she might watch the opening of the blossoms, having
resolved to gather the first-blown flower for Mrs. Herbert.

Mr. and Mrs. Stanley, with Selina and Matilda, were now passing a few
days at Woodlands, and Leila had obtained permission from her papa to
invite Lydia Mildmay to spend the following day with them, as it was
Matilda’s birthday, and she knew it would give her pleasure.

A brilliant sun awoke the sisters at an early hour, yet they found that
Leila must have already visited them, for their pretty white bed was
strewed with fresh flowers. The dew of the morning was still upon them,
and Matilda thought no flowers before had ever smelt so sweet; she
sprang up to rush into Leila’s room to thank her, when her steps were
arrested by seeing a little table placed by her bed-side, over which a
covering of embroidered muslin was thrown.

“This is Cousin Leila again,” she exclaimed, as she hastily lifted the
white drapery, which proved to be an embroidered apron, worked by Leila
for this happy occasion. On the table was placed a pretty little
writing-desk, a present from her papa and mamma, a case in
mother-of-pearl, with pens, pencil, sealing-wax, &c., from her Uncle
Herbert, and a beautiful purse worked by Selina. Matilda was in
ecstasies; how she got dressed she never very well knew; she had no
distinct remembrance but of being half smothered with heat from being
closely wrapped up in a shawl and carried back to her room by Nurse, who
looked unutterable things. How she longed for twelve o’clock, the hour
at which her friend was to arrive; for to show all those beauties to
Lydia Mildmay would be such a renewal of her pleasure!

Twelve o’clock came at last; but Matilda was disappointed when Lydia saw
her pretty bed, (for Matilda had carefully preserved the flowers upon
it,) she only shrugged her shoulders, exclaiming, “How vastly poetical
we are.” And though she said all that was civil when she saw the
presents, her admiration fell far short of what had been expected; and
all, that but the moment before had appeared so beautiful in Matilda’s
eyes, fell considerably in her estimation, when Lydia, with an affected
air of indifference, observed, “This seems a day for showing presents,
so perhaps you would like to see a little trifle which my godmother
presented to me some little time ago; at first I thought it rather
pretty, though now I don’t think much of it;” and she took from her
reticule a beautiful little _etui_ of the most finished workmanship. It
was a walnut-shell, bound and lined with gold, containing scissors,
bodkin, and thimble, with small tablets of mother-of-pearl, and a gold
pencil-case with an amethyst top. Matilda gazed in speechless
admiration. If Lydia’s intention was to mortify her, she might have been
satisfied with the look with which Matilda now contemplated all that had
before given her so much pleasure; but after a little time she rallied
again, and whispering to Leila that if her presents were not quite so
beautiful, they were at least far more useful, she quite brightened up,
and proposed that they should go into the conservatory to visit the
parrots, and then into the garden.

The day seemed to pass very pleasantly to all; for though Lydia and
Matilda were always going off by themselves, the hours never seemed long
when Selina and Leila were together. Immediately after dinner the
carriage was sent for. Lydia, to convey her home, as there was a large
dinner party, and her mamma wished her to be present in the
drawing-room. Matilda seemed quite unhappy in parting with her; indeed,
having this intelligence communicated to her just as they were sitting
down to dinner seemed quite to overset her. She held her hand at
parting, and looked anxiously up in her face, then followed her a few
steps as she was leaving the room, and for some minutes they whispered
together. When Matilda returned, Leila observed that her eyes were full
of tears. She went up to her, and took her kindly by the hand, but
Matilda hastily pushed her away, and ran out of the room.

“What can be the matter with Matilda?” Leila inquired; “did you observe,
Selina, she appeared quite angry with me? Do you think it is only that
she is sorry Lydia has gone away, or have I done any thing to offend
her? Should I go and ask her, do you think?”

“No, Leila, I think you had better not. You have done nothing to make
her angry. I am sure it is not that. Matilda is never the better of
being alone with Lydia Mildmay; I am quite sorry now we left them so
much together; but I so dislike appearing to watch them; I fear
something has happened, for I know the expression of Matilda’s face so
well--it was not only at the moment of parting she was so much overset.
Did you not observe her at dinner?”

“No, I did not look at her much, but I think she was in good spirits
then; I remember now she laughed two or three times.”

“Yes, she tried to laugh; but she looked very unhappy; and it was only
when she saw me looking at her that she laughed. At one time she kept
crumbling all her bread down on the carpet, as if she did not know what
she was about, and once or twice she could scarcely swallow. Then mamma
said something to her, and she grew very red, and seemed to wish to hide
her hands under the table.”

“O I can tell you what made her grow red then. I heard Aunt Stanley tell
her that she must have forgotten to wash her hands before dinner; and,
to be sure, her nails were quite as black as if she had been grubbing in
the earth like little Alfred.”

Selina shook her head. “I don’t understand it,” she said; “but I fear
Matilda has done something wrong.”

“Then I am sure it must be Lydia’s fault if she has,” Leila said
eagerly: “for Mrs. Roberts says she improved so much of late. I am so
sorry I invited Lydia, and papa advised me not; he said he thought we
three would be quite happy together. I wish he had said steadily, ‘No,
Leila, I don’t wish it;’ but he very seldom now tells me I am not to do
a thing, as he used to do in the island; he says now that I am older I
should learn to govern myself, and that in most cases he wishes only to
advise. So it is my fault also if Matilda has done wrong, for I invited
Lydia.”

“But, Leila, we must not blame Lydia without knowing. How can we
but----” She was interrupted by Matilda looking into the room, she drew
hastily back, but on Selina calling to her, she advanced a few steps,
hesitated, and looking anxiously in Leila’s face for a moment, again
left the room. They both observed that her eyes were swoln with weeping,
and Selina, now seriously alarmed, said she must go into the
drawing-room, and find out if her mamma was aware if any thing was
wrong. She thought now she should speak to her mamma, and she would come
up into Leila’s room and tell her what she had heard.

Selina had not been in the drawing-room many minutes when the door
opened, and Leila darted in, exclaiming, “Oh! Selina, my flowers, my
precious flowers! Clara’s flowers are dying.”

They all followed her into her room--every thing seemed in perfect
order, and the flower-pot stood exactly where Leila had placed it; but
two of the plants seemed withered, and when Mrs. Stanley touched them
they fell from her hand on the carpet, they evidently had been broken
off and carefully stuck into the earth again.

“Who can have done this?” Mrs. Stanley exclaimed, and her eyes fell upon
Selina, who had become very pale. “Selina,” she said, “do you know any
thing of this?”

“No, mamma, I do not.”

“But I see you suspect,” Mrs. Stanley said. “Where is Matilda?”

At that moment Amy entered the room, but seeing it occupied was
retreating again, when Mrs. Stanley called to her. “Amy,” she said,
“come here. Do you know any thing of this? did you overturn that
flower-pot?”

“Miss Leila’s favourite flowers! O no, no, I did not. I was not aware it
had been overturned.”

Her look of perfect truthfulness it was impossible to doubt.

When the flowers fell to the ground, Leila had hidden her face on her
papa’s shoulder, and was struggling with her emotion; she now looked up,
and turning to Mrs. Stanley, she said, “Aunt, there is still one plant
left, and it must have been an accident. O don’t say any thing more
about it.”

But Mrs. Stanley would not yield to this. “No, my love,” she said, “it
is quite necessary that I should endeavour to discover the truth. The
overturning of the flower-pot might have been an accident, but the
attempt to deceive, the replanting the flowers in the earth, could not
have been accidental. Now, Amy, recollect yourself, and tell me if you
have seen any one leaving this room lately?”

Amy was silent.

“I insist upon knowing,” Mrs. Stanley said.

“I saw Miss Matilda come out of the room, ma’am,” Amy answered in a
trembling voice.

“Was it before Miss Mildmay went home, or after?” Mrs. Stanley inquired.

“It was after, ma’am.”

“And did you observe any thing particular in Miss Matilda’s appearance?
Did she look distressed?”

Amy was again silent.

“Speak out, Amy, I desire you,” Mrs. Stanley said.

“Miss Matilda was crying, ma’am.”

“You may go, Amy, and send Miss Matilda to me.”

Amy left the room. Mr. Howard also rose and quitted the room just as
Matilda was entering it; she came in trembling excessively, and looking
very pale, but the moment Mrs. Stanley placed the flower-pot before her
and said, “Matilda, do you know any thing of this?” the deepest colour
suffused her face, and mounted to her temples. She remained silent.

“You were in your cousin’s room after dinner, were you not?” Mrs.
Stanley inquired.

“Yes, mamma.” The words were scarcely audible.

Mrs. Stanley fixed her eyes upon her face. “Matilda,” she said, “I
happened to be in your cousin’s room immediately before dinner; I went
to look for a book. The flowers then looked perfectly fresh; you must
have overturned the flower-pot when Amy saw you coming out of the room
this evening.”

Matilda’s agitation increased; she tried to speak, but Mrs. Stanley with
difficulty could make out the words, “No, mamma.”

Mrs. Stanley herself now became much agitated. “Oh, Matilda,” she said,
“I conjure you to speak out, and tell me clearly what did happen; do not
let me have the pain of feeling that my child has not only shown
duplicity in the attempt to conceal what at first was probably only an
accident, but is now adding falsehood to her fault; tell me distinctly,
did you or did you not overthrow that flower-pot and break those
flowers?”

There was no answer.

Leila went up to her and whispered, “Matilda, dear Matilda, speak the
truth, don’t be afraid; I am not angry, I don’t care now for the
flowers, that is, I don’t care very much, I am not so sorry for them
now, indeed I am not. But say you did it, O do say it; don’t make God
angry with you. O pray that this temptation may be taken from you; He
will give you strength.”

Matilda was still silent, but the piteous look she cast on Leila was
heart-rending.

Mrs. Stanley again spoke. “Matilda,” she said, “I see it is vain to
prolong this scene. Go to your room, and on your knees pray earnestly to
your heavenly Father to touch your sinful heart; when you have asked
forgiveness of Him, and have resolved to make a full and free confession
of your fault, send for me, I will be ready to come to you at any
moment.”

Matilda left the room; Mrs. Stanley soon after followed. Selina and
Leila were left alone; Selina was silently weeping. Neither of them
spoke for several minutes. Leila then said, “Selina, we cannot be quite
certain that Matilda is deceiving us; Lydia may have done this.”

Selina shook her head. “O that I could think so, but I cannot. I know
the expression of Matilda’s face too well. I always know when she has
done wrong; and you forget, Leila, that mamma saw the flowers just
before dinner, and they looked quite fresh then; and Lydia was not in
your room after dinner, you know we were all with her till the moment
she went away. When did you last observe them yourself? You must have
been in the room when you were changing your dress for dinner.”

Leila looked much distressed as she answered, “Yes, I saw them, and they
did look fresh; I remember it, because I observed drops of water on the
leaves, and the earth looked wet, and I knew that Amy must have watered
them--she often does so when the day has been warm; Amy was very fond of
my poor flowers.” She had no sooner uttered the words than she .
“It was very wrong in me to say this, and to make you more sorry, for
indeed it is not the flowers I am thinking most of now: and you know,
Selina, I have still three more seeds to sow. How wise it was of papa to
advise me to keep them in case of accidents, and not to risk all at
once. O if I would always take papa’s advice, every thing would be well;
if I had taken his advice about Lydia, and had not invited her, Matilda
would have been with us as usual during the whole time, and this would
not have happened. And yet papa says I must learn to judge for myself, I
must not lean too much on others; how difficult all this is. Do you
think we should go to Matilda now?”

“No, I think mamma wished her to be alone.”

“Then let us go into the garden, I feel so unhappy; I don’t like sitting
still.”

The door of Matilda’s room they saw was not entirely shut as they
passed.

“Perhaps she might speak to me,” Selina said. She advanced a few steps
into the room; Matilda had thrown herself upon the bed. The flowers with
which it had been so lately decked now lay scattered on the floor.
Matilda evidently saw her, for she looked up for a moment, but she did
not speak, and they passed on to the garden.

The whole evening wore slowly away, and no message came from Matilda;
every time the drawing-room door opened, Selina and Leila were in
anxious expectation--but still no message came. The young people went
early to bed: how brightly had the morning dawned upon them, and now all
was turned to sorrow. The first thing which struck Leila on entering her
room was the muslin apron which she had embroidered for Matilda folded
up and laid upon her bed; had she looked into her aunt’s room, she would
have seen the writing-desk also returned, and placed upon the table.
Had Matilda done this? had she felt that she was unworthy of retaining
those gifts which had been given her as marks of love and affection?
Leila prayed earnestly for Matilda, but it was long before she could
compose herself to sleep; the piteous look which Matilda had cast upon
her haunted her imagination.

Meanwhile poor Selina was not less unhappy. On entering the bed-room,
she found Matilda seated at the table writing a letter. She looked much
fluttered when Selina entered, and hastily threw her pocket-handkerchief
over something on the table. Selina felt almost certain it was the
_etui_ which Matilda had admired so much. Matilda seemed unwilling to
begin to undress; after a short time she said, making a visible effort
to speak calmly, “Selina, do go to bed, and go quickly. I can’t come
just yet; don’t ask me why.”

Selina began to undress. She then took her Bible to read as usual before
saying her prayers. “Matilda,” she said, after a few minutes, “may I
read you this text which I have turned up?”

There seemed a silent assent.

Selina read, “There hath no temptation taken you, but such as is common
to man; but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above
that you are able, but will with the temptation make a way to escape,
that you may be able to bear it.” “Yes,” Selina said, “and it is by
praying to God that we shall obtain His assistance,” and she knelt down
by the side of her bed.

For some time after she had lain down, all was still in the room. Selina
had turned her face from her sister, that she might not seem to watch
her. After some time Matilda rose; she stood for a moment by the bed,
then put something very gently below the pillow; she started when Selina
said, “Matilda, I am not asleep;” but she knelt down, said her prayers,
and then got into bed.

“How very cold you are, dear Matilda,” Selina said; “and how you
tremble. O why will you not tell me all?”

Matilda pressed her hand. “Good night, dearest; try to sleep.”

Matilda seemed more composed; Selina felt comfort, she knew not why.
After a considerable time Selina did sleep. She was awakened early by
the bright morning sun, but when she opened her eyes she saw Matilda was
not there. She called to her, there was no answer. Much alarmed, she
sprang out of bed and flew to the window. She saw Matilda fully dressed,
standing below a tree speaking to the gardener’s boy; she put a small
packet into his hand, and pointed across the lawn in the direction of
Mr. Mildmay’s. The packet was larger than a letter, Selina felt sure it
was the _etui_. She retreated from the window, and when Matilda
returned, took no notice of what she had seen. At the breakfast-table
there was no Matilda with her smiling face. All the morning she
continued in her room, seated by the window; she had her work in her
hand, but was generally looking out along the approach as if she
expected some one. About the middle of the day a servant in livery was
seen approaching; he held a letter in his hand; as he stopped below her
window, she strained her eyes to catch the address, but could not. Poor
Matilda! how her heart beat, and how her colour went and came; but no
one entered her room--the letter then could not have been for her. She
called to Amy, who said she believed the servant had brought a letter
for Mrs. Stanley. At that moment Selina came running in. “Matilda,” she
said, “Mrs. Mildmay has written to say that Lydia has lost her ruby
ring, and she begs it may be carefully looked for; she returned home,
she says, with only one glove, and Mrs. Mildmay thinks she may have
pulled it off in the glove, and trusts we may be able to find it.”

Selina looked earnestly at Matilda, but her expression she could not
make out; she had brightened up considerably at first, but now there
was only agitation visible, and she made no effort to assist in looking
for the lost glove. It was not to be found in Matilda’s room; the
drawing-room and dining-room had already been searched. They now
proceeded to Leila’s apartment. Here they were equally unsuccessful:
under the bed, under every chair, they searched in vain. Suddenly it
struck Selina that it was at dinner, while Lydia was still there, that
her mamma had observed that Matilda’s nails were black. There was a
small window in one corner of Leila’s room which looked out upon the
court; she threw open this window and gazed eagerly out; she saw
something lying which might be a glove. Amy ran down into the court, and
returned with the glove in her hand. The ring was sticking in one of the
fingers, but the pale kid glove was much stained with earth, and could
not have been used again. A new light seemed to dawn on Mrs. Stanley;
“Amy,” she said, “go to the coachman, and tell him I shall require the
carriage as quickly as possible, I must drive over to Mrs. Mildmay’s.”
Then turning to Selina, she whispered, “I wish Matilda to return to her
room, and let no one question her.”

The hour of Mrs. Stanley’s absence was an anxious hour to all. Selina
and Leila were both with Matilda when the carriage was seen returning;
when it stopped before the door Matilda seemed scarcely able to breathe.
Mrs. Stanley entered and took her in her arms. “My poor child,” she
said, “you have been very, very wrong; but, thank God, you have not told
an untruth. O Matilda, how you have been injured by bad example, and how
far the evil might have spread, had I not discovered Lydia’s artful
character! Mrs. Mildmay told me she suspected something was wrong when
she found you had written to Lydia, and sent back her _etui_; and even
before I went she had extracted from her a sort of half confession.
Unhappy girl! but she now seems completely penitent.” Then turning to
Leila and Selina, she continued, “She seemed anxious to tell me all; she
said that she had insisted on going into Leila’s room, as she wished to
see her books and some pretty ornaments she had observed on the
mantel-piece; that when she overturned the flower-stand, Matilda had
wished her immediately to confess it, but she would not; that she had
stuck the flowers into the earth and watered them, in the hope of
keeping them fresh as long as she remained, and that she had bribed
Matilda to perfect silence by offering her the _etui_; that Matilda at
first refused, but afterwards yielded, and that Lydia had made her
promise that she was to answer no questions, that she was not on any
account to say she had not done it. Alas! my child, how you grieved the
Holy Spirit when you took that wicked bribe; but deeply have you
suffered, and I will inflict no further punishment upon you, than that
you should remain in your room during the day. Think deeply of all that
has passed, and of the misery you have endured, and pray earnestly to
God for his forgiveness, and for strength to resist future temptation.
Also you must give me your promise to give up all intimacy with Lydia
Mildmay, and never to trust yourself alone with her again, unless in
after years I give you leave to do so.”

Matilda threw herself again into her mamma’s arms, but she could not
speak. She then slowly left the room.

“Selina,” she said, when soon after she was alone with her sister, “you
can never know how unhappy I have been. I cannot tell it you. O it was
so dreadful when mamma questioned me, and I dared not tell! And when I
thought you all believed I was telling untruths, and that you could
never love me again, I thought my heart would break. I did not know what
was right and what was wrong, and for a long time I could not pray. But
then I did, and God seemed to put it into my heart to send back the
_etui_, and ask leave to tell; and I was a little happier after that.
But when you took my hand in bed, and asked me again to tell, I grew
worse again. I could not sleep; (only now and then a little;) my best
time was when I stood under the tree, and saw the gardener’s boy running
across the lawn with my letter, the air was so fresh, and the birds were
singing, and the sun made every thing so beautiful. I felt quite happy
then.”

The tears were running down Selina’s cheeks.

“I am making you sorry,” she continued; “I will not tell you any more.
You know I am happy now, O so happy! and I will not forget this time, I
am sure--no, I never, never will forget. Now go, dearest, to Leila, for
I think mamma wishes me to be alone; but come in sometimes, with cousin
Leila, and just kiss me and go away again.”




CHAPTER XVII.


From this time the improvement in Matilda’s character was much more
steady; her warm affection for her sister and Leila daily increased, and
she seemed now to have no wish beyond the enjoyment of their society.
They were a most happy little trio; but days of trial were at hand, and
sorrow about to visit their young hearts in an unexpected form. Charles
was now at home for the Midsummer holidays, and had come over to pass
the Saturday at Woodlands; he certainly was somewhat taller than before,
but Leila seemed rather to think it an improvement, and she met him with
all the frank gladness of her happy age. There was so little of the
rough school-boy in Charles, and so much of the gentle kind friend, that
Leila had learnt to look up to him with a feeling of happy security; he
never flattered her in asking advice; she was always sure of hearing the
truth from him unbiassed by any previous opinion expressed on her side.
She told him that an accident had happened to the precious plant
intended for him; but she entered into no details, and he promised to be
patient, and to await the coming up of the other seeds. They had not
been long together when he inquired for his friend Peggy Dobie, and
Leila proposed that they should cross the lawn together and visit her at
her cottage; they were sure of finding her in her garden, she said, for
Peggy had told her that her bees were about to swarm, and that she must
watch them closely.

Never had Leila looked more joyous than when she tied on her bonnet to
accompany Charles; her cheeks were glowing with health, her eyes bright
with intelligence, and the feelings of hopeful, trusting, happy youth
were visible in every expression of her sweet countenance.

It had been the loveliest of summer mornings, and at first so elastic
was Leila’s step, that she seemed to tread on air; she proposed to
lengthen their walk by first mounting one of the high fields from which
the view was particularly fine; but by the time they had gained the
height, they felt the heat of the sun overcoming, and in descending were
glad to avail themselves of the shelter of the wood. The bright
sunshine, however, which they had wished to avoid, now suddenly gave way
to dark lurid clouds; the air became very close and oppressive; there
was a dull moaning sound amongst the trees, as if the wind were about to
rise, and as they entered the wood the sweet singing of the birds was
hushed; they were darting rapidly to and fro amongst the branches in
constant uneasy motion, as if danger were at hand. Charles looked
anxiously at the great masses of fiery-looking clouds which were now
driven along by a strong current of upper air. Leila caught the anxious
expression of his face.

“Why do you look so frightened, Charles?” she said. “I like these sudden
changes, they are very good; don’t walk so quick,--let us stop for a
moment and watch those magnificent clouds.”

“No, Leila, no; let us hasten home; I fear we shall have a storm.”

“A storm!” she repeated; “O do then let us make haste. I am not
frightened--that is, I am not much frightened, though a storm always
makes me think of melancholy things; but papa, I know, will be anxious
about us; let us walk very quick.”

They hastened on, but Leila suddenly paused for a moment to listen to
the sound of distant thunder. “The storm has begun,” she said, in a tone
of alarm; “that is thunder;” then quickening her steps, she proceeded
more rapidly than before. A second and louder peal succeeded to the
first; again and again it lightened, and the thunder seemed every moment
to be approaching nearer. Leila trembled all over, and clung to Charles
in speechless terror.

“Let us get out of the wood,” Charles hastily exclaimed, “we shall be
safer in the open field,” and seizing her arm he hurried her forward.

At that moment the whole wood seemed lighted up as if on fire; the
lightning ran along the ground, a great branch from a tree fell with a
loud crash at their feet, and Leila screamed, “Charles, where are you,
Charles? I cannot see you--I am blind!”

O that moment of inexpressible agony, as he stooped and gazed into her
dear face! It was unscathed, but the eyes were shut. “Open your eyes,
dear, dear Leila; O do not say you cannot open them. Merciful God, it
cannot be!”

Alas! it was too true. She tried in vain to raise her eyelids.

“I shall never see my papa again,” she almost shrieked out, as she sank
upon the ground at Charles’s feet. He lifted her gently in his arms, her
head fell upon his shoulder; she became still, he thought she had
fainted, but soon he heard her whisper, “It is God who has done it. He
loves me, I am His child, and He can comfort my dear, dear papa.”

Charles continued to carry her in his arms, but his knees trembled so
much he could scarcely get along, and Leila felt a tear drop upon her
cheek.

“Charles,” she said, “you are weeping. O do not weep for me; God can
comfort me, and he _does_. I cannot tell you what I feel now, it seems
as if angels were whispering to me.” Then after a little she said again,
“But it is for my papa, my own papa. Charles, do not carry me to him at
first; carry me to my own room.”

She was obeyed. He stole up stairs unperceived by any one, and Leila
knelt down by the side of her bed and prayed earnestly.

“Now take me to my papa,” she said, as she arose from her knees. “Where
are you, Charles?” she exclaimed, as she tried to grasp the empty air.

Charles had been watching at the door; he too had offered up a silent
earnest prayer; he was now by her side in a moment, and led her to her
papa’s room. She tapped at his door.

“Come in, my little woman,” Mr. Howard said, in a glad voice, but
without raising his eyes from his book. “I am so relieved to hear your
little tap; I have been seeking you, Leila. Where have you been during
this frightful storm? Why don’t you come in, love?”

[Illustration: LEILA AT HOME. Page 248.]

“Come to the door, dear papa, but do not open it, till I speak to you.”

Mr. Howard rose. “What pleasant little surprise are you preparing for
me, my child?” he said, as he stood with his hand upon the lock.

“Papa, dear papa, it is not a pleasant surprise; but you will try to
bear it.”

The sound of her voice startled him, and Mr. Howard opened the door in
the greatest alarm. Leila fell into his arms.

“Papa,” she said, as she clung to him and repeatedly kissed his cheek,
“papa, you will bear it; God has done it. He knows best. He has struck
me blind!”

Mr. Howard groaned aloud; he clasped Leila more closely in his arms--he
looked upon her face--he could not speak.

Charles, in a trembling voice, related all that had taken place.

Mr. Howard rallied, and seemed to regain his usual firmness; he turned
to Charles,--“Send immediately to Richmond,” he said, “for Dr. B----,
and let the coachman get ready to ride to London, I will give him a
note. Leila, my own heroic child, I must leave you a moment with Nurse.”

The poor woman and Amy were already in the room, both sobbing bitterly;
but upon Mr. Howard speaking aside to Nurse, and telling her of the
necessity there was for self-command for Leila’s sake, she made a
wonderful effort for composure, and seating herself on the couch, she
took Leila in her arms, and laid her head gently upon her shoulder, as
she used to do when she was a little child. Amy stood by her side, her
hands clasped together, and with an expression of the deepest woe, while
tears still ran silently down her cheeks.

Leila was now quite composed. They heard her whisper, “The worst is over
now, my papa knows it all;” and she pressed Nurse’s hand repeatedly, and
said she felt better, then drawing Amy towards her, she whispered very
low in her ear,--“You will be a good girl, Amy, and not cry, and you
will be a great comfort to me--you will lead me every where.”

Charles had himself gone off to Richmond on Leila’s pony, but returned
unsuccessful; both Dr. B.---- and another to whom he applied were from
home. The agony of suspense to all was very great; and though Charles
strove hard to restrain his emotion, the tones of his voice betrayed his
feelings to Leila every time he tried to address her.

Mr. Howard spoke to him aside--he thought it better he should return
home. It was a great trial to him, but he instantly obeyed, and stole
out of the room without even a word of adieu, he felt that all
additional agitation must be carefully avoided.

As he went out Leila raised her head and listened. “Some one has left
the room,” she said, “it must be Charles. Where has he gone to?”

Mr. Howard explained that he had returned home, he thought it better he
should do so.

“Ah, papa, I know why: it is because I agitate myself so much. I know it
is very wrong, and I will try to be quite calm, and to comfort you more,
papa; but I cannot always do it, though sometimes for a moment it seems
quite easy, and I only feel that God has done it for my good, and has
sent me this great trial because he loves me and wishes to make me
better, and that perhaps he has shut my eyes on the world that I may
think more of my beautiful home in heaven; for, papa, do you not know
how much I had begun to love the world; the love of it was creeping into
me, and you did not know it; ever since we came into it I have loved it
every day more and more--the people, the flowers, this house, every
thing. Yes, I have loved the world better than the island, where I
thought so much more of God. And I used to like so much to hear Bill and
Susan call me their little mistress,--all this was very wrong, and I
dare say this is why God has shut it all out, the trees, the green
fields, the beautiful flowing river, and even your face, my own
papa--and for _ever_!--oh, that is the part I cannot bear.”

“Hush, my child, my own Leila;--do not say there is any thing you cannot
bear. He who has sent the trial will give you strength. Remember, we are
told, that ‘If we endure chastening, God dealeth with us as with sons,
for what son is he whom the Father chasteneth not?’--and though for the
present it is very grievous to you, He will, when His own righteous
purposes have been fulfilled, bring to your heart that sweet peace
‘which the world cannot know;’--but, my child, you are exciting yourself
in talking too much, and I am most anxious that you should keep very
quiet now, and try to get a little sleep.”

“Well, papa, I will. Do you remember that day, papa, when you said to
me, ‘Leila, remember, duties are ours, but events are in the hands of
God?’ I am glad I have thought of this now, for it comforts me--it tells
me it is my duty to be patient and to trust it all to God--now I will
try to sleep.”

She did try, but soon she started up again, and clasped her papa’s hand
more tightly. “Papa,” she said, “there is something I wish to say to
you; and then I think I could sleep;--will you write to Aunt Stanley,
and tell her every thing, and beg her to come here to-day as soon as
possible, and bring them all with her. I shall be better when I have
seen them all”--(she stopped and shuddered)--“I shall be better when
they are here, I mean; and bid aunt tell Selina not to be very sorry,
and to remember how God comforted her when she was dumb, and gave her
strength to bear it; and He is giving me strength also, dear papa.”

Mr. Howard seated himself at the table and began to write, and before he
had finished his note Leila was asleep--it seemed a troubled sleep, she
started often, and called out repeatedly, as if in extreme terror, for
the shock on her nervous system had been severe; but before she awoke to
perfect consciousness again, her uncle, aunt, and all of them, stood
gazing upon her. They all struggled hard to control their sorrow, but it
was Matilda’s and Alfred’s sobs that awakened Leila. I will not further
distress my young readers by dwelling on this scene. Leila herself was
the first to obtain composure, and after some time she was able to
converse calmly with Selina.

She showed so much unwillingness to part with them again, that Mr.
Howard arranged that they should all come over for some weeks to
Woodlands, Leila having promised that she would be satisfied with
exactly as much of the society of her cousins as was thought good for
her; but the knowledge that they were in the house, she said, would be
the greatest comfort to her; and it was further arranged that Selina was
not to go home that evening, but remain till the others joined her.

This mournful day wore heavily on, and still Dr. B---- had not arrived.
It were difficult to say what they all expected would be the result of
his anxiously expected visit; but when at last the sound of horses’
hoofs was heard upon the gravel, the agitation of the whole party was
extreme. Mr. Howard became very pale, and withdrew his hand from Leila’s
that she might not be aware how he trembled; but she had heard the
sound, and seemed aware of his motive, for she said, “Do not be afraid
of me, papa; I know what Dr. B---- will say, and I can bear it; hold my
hand again, it makes me feel strong.”

Dr. B---- entered; the look he cast on all around was full of deep
sympathy, for Charles’s note had made him aware of what had happened.
His eyes rested mournfully on Leila, who lay on the sofa looking pale
and agitated; but as he approached, she hastily brushed a tear from her
long, dark eyelashes, and the brightest colour dyed her cheeks. He
paused in evident emotion; then seating himself by her, he looked at
her attentively, took the hand Mr. Howard had been holding, and felt her
pulse; her hand was deadly cold; again all colour had now left her
cheek, and she lay like a bruised lily, shrinking from his touch.

“Try to compose yourself, my dear young lady,” he said gently; “I am not
going to hurt you; but it is necessary that I should examine your eyes
more closely.” As he spoke, he turned her face more fully to the light.
Mr. Howard was bending over her. Dr. B---- gently raised one of her
eyelids, and Leila, in a voice of rapture, exclaimed, “My papa, I see
him?”

Who can express Mr. Howard’s feelings at that moment. “Thank God!” the
kind-hearted physician exclaimed, “the sight of the eye in this dear
child is not destroyed;” and on examining the other, the result was
equally satisfactory. “This is not so bad as we dreaded,” he said; but
he whispered something to Mr. Howard, and seemed about to quit the room.
He had asked to speak to him alone.

Leila had not caught the words, but she suspected something; and
springing up she said, “Do let him tell me every thing, papa, I am quite
able to bear it. Does Dr. B---- think I shall still be blind?--do let
him speak out the truth.”

Mr. Howard assented. The good doctor was much affected. “My dear young
lady,” he said, “I hope and trust that you will not always be blind; but
I am not prepared to say that you certainly will recover the power of
raising your eyelids--there have been frequent instances of the nerves
never recovering their powers; but you are young, and in good health;
your well-turned mind, and your power of commanding your feelings, (and
I am sure from the highest motives,) is much in your favour, and with
God nothing is impossible. And now I will take my leave for to-day. I
have only one caution to give, and I address it to all,--agitation of
every kind must as much as possible be avoided.”

It was no unnecessary caution, for the lively joy expressed by Matilda
and Alfred when Dr. B---- pronounced his opinion, Leila felt more
difficult to bear than their former sorrow; and Mr. Howard now expressed
a wish, which was immediately complied with, that Leila should be left
alone with him for the rest of the evening.

Before night the oculist from London also arrived. He confirmed all that
the physician had said; he could pronounce nothing positive as to
Leila’s recovering her sight, but he had hope; and he enforced still
more strictly, if possible, that every thing should be done to
strengthen her general health, and agitation and excitement of every
kind carefully avoided. “Don’t let any one be with her,” he said, “who
is likely to agitate her; there is an old woman in the passage in such a
state of distress; she is clamorous for admittance, but it must not be
yielded to.” This was spoken aside to Mr. Howard, but Leila caught the
words, “old woman.” “It is Peggy Dobie,” she said, “my dear Peggy; oh,
papa, let her come in for a moment, only one moment, papa, and then I
shall keep myself quite still, and not be agitated again.”

Mr. Howard thought she ought to be gratified; he knew better than the
oculist the command which Leila could maintain over herself: he spoke to
Peggy himself--she came in, knelt down by Leila’s bed, took her hand,
and with a voice which trembled with emotion, she said, “My dear, dear
bairn, your poor old Peggy will pray for you, and there is a merciful
God above.” Her voice sank to a whisper; she seemed unable to add
another word; but Leila seemed calmed and comforted. Poor Peggy left the
room, but she lingered till a late hour in the house, and was back again
in the first dawn of the morning.

The sad news had spread rapidly through the village: Leila was so
beloved by old and young, that the inquiries during the whole day had
been numerous. The children of the village, as well as her little
scholars, came in troops, and Amy had many a sorrowful scene to go
through with them. Nurse sat by Leila’s side during the whole night, and
Mr. Howard visited her every hour. Her sleep was very broken, and next
day she was so feverish that no one but her papa and Nurse were allowed
to see her--not even Selina; but by another day, the feverish symptoms
entirely left her; she felt weak and easily fluttered, but was generally
quite calm, and at times even cheerful. For some days Matilda, though in
the house, was only allowed to come into the room at short intervals.
Matilda had not sufficient control over her feelings, and the warm
expression of an affection, which was now greater than ever, was too
much for poor Leila. She was desired to be as much as possible in the
open air, and she was carried out every day into the garden, and sat for
hours in the shade, taking a little turn now and then, leaning upon her
papa. The first time she went out was a great trial to her, and for some
time she wept silently; then taking her papa’s hand as they sat together
under a tree in the garden, she said:--

“Papa, I have made you more sorry, but it is over now; it was just at
first--indeed I could not help it, for the air brought to me the sweet
smell of the flowers which I can no longer see, and from the feeling on
my eyelids I know the sun must be shining gloriously. O, how I used to
like to gaze on the rising sun, and to watch the soft grey of the
morning fading before his golden light! and it brought grand feelings to
my mind, and good feelings too, papa, for it made me think of Him who is
more glorious than the sun.”

“Yes, my child, but that feeling can still be yours, and even in a
higher degree, for this trial may lead you to raise your mind more
constantly to Him in whose presence there is everlasting light.”

“Yes, papa, I know it, and I will pray for this. Do you remember the
text in Isaiah which says, ‘I will bring the blind by a way that they
know not, I will lead them in paths that they have not known; I will
make darkness light before them, and crooked things straight; these
things will I do unto them, and not forsake them.’ And God may do this
to me, papa; He may open the eyes of my mind, and make it all more light
to me. And I have many pleasures yet, you know: I have you, papa; and
that is more than a pleasure, it is my happiness. O you don’t know what
I feel when you are near me; I am not melancholy then; indeed I am never
so melancholy as I thought I should be; I know when it is light and
when it is dark quite well; and once you know I saw your face for a
moment; I think I should be quite happy if I got leave to see you for a
moment every day, but Dr. B---- says I must not--why, papa?”

“Because, my love, nothing must be done to increase the injury on the
nerves; therefore you must not try to force your eyelids up.”

“Well, papa, I will try to be patient; but I may hope not to be always
blind. You know Jesus Christ opened the eyes of many that were blind: He
was full of pity, and I may pray to Him to open my eyes,--that is, if He
thinks it good for me.”

“Yes, my child, such prayers, leaving all to Him, cannot fail to be
acceptable in His sight. He has loved you, Leila, from your birth, with
more than an earthly love; and never more, I feel sure, than at this
moment, when you are bowing meekly to His will. His deathless love is
around, and above you, even now; He can wipe all tears from your eyes
with a hand that never comforted in vain; He can give you happy dreams
of green pastures and still waters, and brighter and brighter hopes of
that dear home, where no darkness, no grief, no fear can enter; only the
eternal shining of a light divine, and joy unspeakable! Now, sweet one,
we must walk a little, I must not talk to you too much.”

“But, papa, such talk as this!”

“No, not even such talk as this; I must not strain your mind in any way,
my Leila.”

“Then, papa, take me to the bee-hives, I think I should like to hear the
bees humming.”




CHAPTER XVIII.


More than a fortnight had passed away, and Leila’s general health was
greatly strengthened, though she had had many agitating scenes to go
through. The meeting with Mr. and Mrs. Herbert and Mina had at first
affected her much, but she had now great pleasure in their society, and
they came frequently, and spent the whole day, for Leila clung more to
Mrs. Herbert than ever. It was a great pleasure to her to lie on the
sofa with her knitting, and to listen to general conversation; and Mr.
Howard was most desirous in every way to promote her cheerfulness.
Charles’s visits had been almost daily; though he had been permitted to
see Leila only for a few minutes at a time. He was now, however,
frequently allowed to lead her on Selim for a short ride, and Leila
assured her papa that each time she felt her courage increase so much,
that she was sure before long she should be able to ride out with him as
usual.

“Yes, papa,” she said, “you must not be melancholy about me, for I am
not unhappy. Nurse sometimes thinks I am, but indeed I am not; she
fancies it, I believe, because I do not speak so much now; I like to
think and be still; you know, papa, my world is more within me now--I do
not see its beautiful sunsets, its woods, its flowers; its broad river
with its green banks, which I used to love so much; and so I picture
them in my own mind, and seem to dream of them, though I am awake. It is
that which makes me often still, papa; and I like those dreams, they
make me happy now.”

“Yes, my own Leila, I can understand all this; but those day-dreams must
not be too much indulged in; there might be danger then of your finding
your pleasures in life more in reverie, than in useful exertion and in
active duty; for you must not fancy, my dear child, that you have not
the same duties to perform now as you formerly had; as your health
strengthens, I should wish you to return as much as possible to your
former habits.”

“But, papa, I can do so little now.”

“Not so, my love; in a very short time you will be surprised to find how
much you can do, and how independent you have become. Do you remember,
at first you were afraid to move across the room, and now you seem to
walk fearlessly over almost every part of the house.”

“Yes, papa, I am not the least afraid now, and since I have been blind,
God seems to have opened my ears more and more; before, I always knew
your footstep, and it made me glad; but now, I know the step of every
one in the house, and yours though ever so far off; and when you are
quite still, I know your breathing, and I like to listen to it so much.
O, I have many pleasures--why do you sigh, papa?--you must not do that,
it makes me sorry; Selina often sighs when I talk to her, and even
Matilda; and sometimes when Matilda begins to laugh, she stops herself
quite suddenly--I wish she would not, I like to hear her laugh. Papa, I
have never heard you laugh since _that day_; my own papa, you must
try--you must be merry with me again;”--and she held out her hand.

Mr. Howard pressed it fondly. “My Leila, my precious one!” was all he
could say.

“Yes, your precious one; how I like you to call me that! Come, let me
sing to you; now don’t say, ‘Another day, Leila, not now,’--for it is
not to be another day, I am quite able for it now--so let your precious
one have her guitar again.”

She rose to search for it in its accustomed corner: Mr. Howard had had
it removed, but he placed it in her hands again, and she seated herself
by his side, and began to sing one of his most favourite airs. At first
her voice was weak and tremulous; but gradually it acquired more
firmness, though there was so much of unusual melancholy in its rich and
liquid tones, that filled Mr. Howard’s eyes with tears. She evidently
found it a great effort to continue, and her next choice was a more
lively air.

“Now, papa,” she said, as the second song was ended, “I hope I have
cheered you again; I should not have tried to sing that melancholy
song.”

Alas! dear child, she could not see that her second attempt had only
increased Mr. Howard’s agitation; but hastily brushing his hand across
his eyes, he said, in a steady and even cheerful voice, “No more at
present, my sweet child; but now every day you shall sing to your papa
as usual, and cheer him as you have ever done; but what does Amy
want?--this is the second time she has looked into the room.”

“Oh, I know,” Leila answered. “Yes, Amy, I am coming presently--I know,
papa, what she wants; at this hour she always takes me to visit my pets,
and they are getting quite fond of me again, which makes me so happy. At
first they did not like me so much, because I was blind; they fluttered
about, and seemed afraid of me--not Dash nor Selina, they were always
kind; Selina seems getting quite young again, for she frisks about me
always, jumps up when I am passing by, and purs so loud, that I am
afraid she will make herself quite hoarse; and as to Dash, you don’t
know what a dog he is--wherever I am now, he lies outside the door, and
the moment I go out he follows; he does not think it is enough that I
should be alone with Amy, and looks at her she says quite
suspiciously;--when you are there he does not follow me quite so close,
but when I am alone with her he is touching me the whole time. Yesterday
he pulled me aside by my dress; Amy said it was because there was a
stone in my path, and he was afraid I might strike my foot against it;
and another day he seized a large branch of a tree in his mouth, (which
had fallen down,) and threw it aside with such indignation, and looked
at her quite angrily, as if she were leading me into danger. Poor Dash,
he does not know how very kind Amy is to me, papa; I cannot persuade her
yet to return to her own room at night; she still lies on that little
hard mattress at the foot of my bed, and when I tell her not to do it,
it makes her sorry.”

“Yes, my child, I know she does; and I am sure she prefers doing so.”

“I think so too, papa, and for many days I am sure she never slept, for
always when I awoke I found her standing by my bed, ready to give me my
lemonade, or to rub my feet, or do whatever I wished, to make me sleep
again. Papa, if this trial had not come to me, I never should have known
the love that is in many hearts for me; I cannot speak about Selina, I
cannot tell you what she is to me; and Matilda, so gentle to me and so
kind; and Mrs. Roberts also; then Mrs. Herbert, Charles, and Mina; but
it would take me all the day to tell you of all the kindnesses to
me,--and I am forgetting that Amy is waiting, for I could chat away with
you, papa, for ever; but now I must go and chat a little to my parrots,
or they will be quite jealous. And then Amy has to give me my lesson of
flowers; she is teaching me to know them all by the touch, for you know
it is better to be prepared for what _may be_. I hope you are not
looking melancholy because I am saying this. Good-bye, dear papa.” She
was gone, or a long and deep-drawn sigh would have reached her ear.

Weeks and months passed on, and though Leila had no fixed complaint, her
health was not what it had been before, and the prospect of her
recovering her sight seemed gradually to be becoming more uncertain. It
was well for her, dear child, that she could not see the mournful looks
with which her papa often now regarded her, as she, with increased
anxiety to acquire habits of independence, performed her daily duties.

It was evident that Leila was preparing her mind to meet, not only with
resignation, but with cheerfulness, what but a few short months before
would have weighed her to the ground. How deeply had she felt poor
Susan’s state; how often had she looked at the sightless eyes of the
blind girl, and said to herself, “How can she bear it? O any trial but
this!” And this trial was now hers; it came upon her in a moment.
Suddenly was the whole face of nature shut out from her sight; yet,
after the first natural anguish was over, there came also to her young
heart that faith, that reliance, which shed peace and light on her
darkest moments.

Her little scholars now came to her as usual; they daily read the Bible
to her, and also other books suited to their age, and in this occupation
she took much interest. Susan also came frequently, and either Selina or
Matilda read to her while Leila listened.

“I wish Susan were nearer us,” she said one morning to Selina, as Susan
left the room; “how kind in you both to take such pains with her; she
says it is her happiest time when she is with us; and do you know what I
have been wishing for a long time, and making a little plan in my own
mind about? I have been wishing that we could find a house in our
village for Susan’s mother, and then poor Susan would come oftener, for
she would not have so far to walk; and yesterday I spoke to papa about
it; he said he did not quite see how it could be managed, but that he
would turn it in his mind. When papa says he will turn it in his mind,
he is sure to turn and twist it into the right thing.”

“But how,” Matilda inquired, “can Uncle Howard twist Susan’s mother and
all her five brothers and sisters into a house in the village, when
there is not one empty, and all the people quite healthy, not the least
likely to die? He must twist them out first, and that would not be
civil.”

“I don’t know, Matilda, but I am sure my papa will not do any thing
unkind, and yet I think he will manage it; I knew by the sound of his
voice that he thought it possible, and I have been thinking a great deal
of all I could do for Susan to make her happier; for she has not all my
comforts and pleasures, and she has not a Selina and a Matilda to be
eyes to her, and to make every thing cheerful to her, and even light;
for when I am with you, I scarcely feel that I am blind at all.”

Selina sighed deeply, but did not answer.

“Now, why do you sigh, Selina? that must not be. Do not pity me; you
must get reconciled as I am doing--you must, both of you, help me to be
cheerful; and you, Matilda, must try to laugh a great deal more than you
do now, for I like so much to hear you merry. And look, Selina, what a
pretty nosegay I am tying up for you; is it not very well arranged for a
little blind girl? Amy says I am improving every day now; you see I
arrange the green leaves and the different colours of the flowers, so as
to have a grand effect. At first they used to be all higgledy piggledy,
as Peggie Dobie would say. What excellent words Peggie Dobie has; don’t
you think _higgledy piggledy_ delightful? I am sure any one must know it
means confusion. And I shall teach Susan to make nosegays, for I hope
there will be a garden to the cottage.”

“And what would Susan do with so many nosegays?” Matilda inquired.

“Perhaps she might sell the nosegays at Richmond, and make a little more
money for her mother, which would make her so happy. She might sit under
the trees on the terrace early in the mornings before she came to us,
and she could knit all the time, and be as busy as if she were at home.
I daresay every one would like to buy nosegays from a blind girl, I am
sure I should; and I think Nurse would perhaps allow me to give her my
second best bonnet, to keep the hot sun off her eyelids; I am sure it
must be looking very old now, though I am afraid Nurse does not think
so, for she makes me stretch out the strings every day, and says it is
wonderful how long things will look respectable with proper management.”

“Yes,” Matilda said, “and you are so terribly conscientious, Leila, and
stretch away so every morning, that I am afraid your strings never will
look disrespectable; if I were you I would begin to crumple them a
little now. Do begin to-morrow.”

Selina looked up. “How you talk, Matilda; you know very well you would
not do so now.”

“Then you do think me a little improved, Selina?”

“Not a little, but a great deal improved.”

“O, I am so glad; and you, Cousin Leila, should be glad also, for it is
all owing to you. When I saw you so good and patient, and trying always
to bear your trial so well, I prayed a great deal to be made good and
patient too, for you know I have my little trials; always the holding up
my head, and the never putting my elbows on the table, or being the
least comfortable, all those hundred little botherations that used to
put me wild; I do think I bear them a little better now. But you will be
rewarded for bearing your great trials as you do, for I am sure God
must love you so much; that very soon now He will open your eyes, and
you will see as well as we do. O what joy then--what joy!”

“Hush! Matilda, hush! do not say it,” Leila hastily answered. “God does
love me, I feel He does, for He gives me sweet, peaceful feelings now,
and makes me happy; but His ways are different. He does what is best for
me, and I am making up my mind, for I feel as if I were to be always
blind. Selina knows it, for I have told her; and now that I have told
you, I shall be happier. I wish I could speak about it to papa too, but
I can’t just yet. Don’t cry, Matilda, don’t, my own dear Matilda.” She
threw her arms round her and kissed her fondly. “Now there is a dear
one; you will be good, you will be patient, and say it is all quite,
quite right. You know, Matilda it must be so.” Her soft soothing voice
was silent; she gently disengaged herself from Matilda, and left the
room.

And it was really so; Leila had struggled hard with herself, and had all
but conquered. She now strongly felt that entire dependence on her
heavenly Father’s love which she had so fervently prayed for; the idea
that she was to be for ever blind had taken strong possession of her,
and she was resigned. Yet one earthly wish was still unsubdued: it was
to gaze once more upon her father’s face. “Yes,” she said to herself,
“once, only once again, and then I feel I shall be able to say from my
very heart, ‘Thy will be done.’”

But how was this to be accomplished? She felt she could never tell her
father that she wished to see him for the last time; she could never
give him that bitter pang. And there were other difficulties. She could
see him only when looking down upon him; how was this to be managed? She
thought of it constantly; no way presented itself. Yet time pressed, for
she felt as if every day her eyelids were getting more stiff and
depressed; in fact, the struggle in her mind was affecting her general
health. Circumstances, however, favoured her unexpectedly. Mr. Howard
had spent a whole forenoon in London; Leila had for hours expected him,
and he returned fatigued and dispirited. He had been to arrange a
consultation for the following day with regard to Leila’s health, which
was now daily giving him much uneasiness. Leila immediately became aware
that he was out of spirits.

“Dear papa,” she said, “I am sure you are feeling unwell, you have
over-fatigued yourself. Do let me take care of you and make you better.
You shall lie down on the sofa, and I will sing you to sleep. Sleep is
the very thing you want. Now, there is a dear papa, stretch yourself
out; now then let me arrange the pillows comfortably.” She passed her
little hand below her papa’s head, and raised it gently, “There
now,--so; is not that comfortable? Now I shall take my guitar, and sing
you a sweet lullaby; but you must shut your dear eyes first. Are you
shutting them, papa?” She passed her hand across Mr. Howard’s eyes. “O
you naughty papa, they are wide open.”

They were indeed open, they were earnestly fixed upon the pale
countenance of his child. Softly drawing down his eyelids, she drew a
chair close to the sofa, and striking a few chords, she began to sing in
a sweet low voice, and after a little while Mr. Howard dropped asleep.
Leila was immediately aware of this; she continued singing for a few
minutes, as she watched his regular breathing; by degrees her voice sunk
to the lowest whisper, then altogether ceased. For a moment she bent
over him and listened. “Now is the time,” she said; and mounting upon
the chair on which she had been seated, she gently raised her eyelids,
and stood gazing down upon him.

Was she looking upon that much loved face for the last time? She felt as
if it were so. “O my Father in Heaven,” she said, “give me of thy
strength! I thought I had been resigned; O pardon a poor weak child, and
make me strong!”

A deep sigh awoke Mr. Howard; he opened his eyes. Was it a deep spirit
from a world unseen, who stood gazing upon him with a look of more than
earthly love, or was it indeed his child? He started up, and Leila threw
herself into his arms.

“Forgive me, dearest papa,” she said, “I could not help it; once more to
see your face, papa, only once more;” then gradually becoming more calm,
she entered fully on the subject, and poured out all that had been so
long struggling in her heart. “And now, papa, I feel that God will
strengthen me to be resigned. You know He says,--‘When thou passest
through the waters I will be with thee; and through the rivers, they
shall not overflow thee: when thou walkest through the fire thou shalt
not be burned, neither shall the fire kindle upon thee.’ And has it not
come true with me, papa? He saved me in the waters, and in the fire; and
shall I not trust in Him? I feel now as if He did not mean to open my
eyes, but it must be right.”

Mr. Howard did not attempt to conceal from Leila that of late he too had
felt less sanguine as to her recovering her eyesight, but still he said
that he felt it a duty to employ every human means; and he informed her
of the meeting he had appointed for next day. She struggled to conceal
her emotion from him; but it was evident that this intelligence made the
effort still more difficult.

The consultation took place as had been appointed, and the result was
more favourable than either Mr. Howard or Leila had dared to hope. The
physicians by no means despaired of Leila recovering the power of
raising her eyelids. They thought that the weakened state of her general
health, and the excitement of her too sensitive mind in the continual
effort she had made to conceal her feelings, had probably hitherto
retarded her recovery. They recommended her instantly being removed to
Brighton, with only her papa and Selina, and that sea-baths and
galvanism should be tried. Poor Matilda! what a trial was this
separation to her. How often did she resolve to bear it heroically, and
how often did her good resolutions give way to tears and lamentations!
In vain Selina reminded her that she had resolved to bear her trials
well. “My little trials,” she answered, “but a great trial like this!
No, no, Selina; how can you be so unreasonable? I said nothing about a
great one, and I am not like Leila, or you, I must cry, and I should.”

Yet even in her most sorrowful moments Matilda kept constantly saying
she felt sure Leila would get quite well. She had always thought so, and
now she saw those excellent wise physicians thought so too, and Leila
would return to them seeing as well as she ever had done.




CHAPTER XIX.


Matilda’s bright anticipations were realized. We pass over many weary
weeks and months, for Leila’s recovery was tedious, and there were many
fluctuations, but she did recover; and towards the end of April she
returned to Woodlands in all the joy of restored sight, and once more
did she lift her eyes to the rising sun stealing over the glad earth
with steps of light, awakening all nature with the spirit of gladness
and of life! How more than ever beautiful was the soft fresh green of
spring to her delighted eyes! One universal garden seemed to bloom
beneath her feet; one universal hymn of praise was in the song of the
bird, in the murmur of the stream, and, above all, in her own grateful,
devoted heart. And what was Matilda’s joy, what was the joy of Charles
and Mina, and of all those many friends of high and low degree who loved
her dearly? for all were there to welcome her return. Peggy Dobie
pressing forward amongst the first to bless her dear, dear bairn, with
a glow upon her cheeks which made her look young again.

Matilda, capering around her at one moment, in the next holding her in
her arms, looking into her eyes with tearful joy, and exclaiming,--“Your
dear one, you more than darling! and with your eyes so bright, so
open--only at times the slightest little beautiful droop, just to remind
us of what has been. Did I not tell you how it would be? did I not say
you would again see better than any of us?”

And Charles, what did he say? _Nothing._ He stood gazing into Leila’s
eyes as if he could have looked into them for ever, then raising her
hand, he pressed it to his lips.

“Charles,” she said, “how strange you are. Amy does that sometimes to
me; she says it is from love and respect; it is from love and respect,
eh, Charles?”

The happiness of this happy day seemed every hour to increase. In the
evening they all walked to the village, and what did Leila see just
before entering it? A pretty cottage in a lovely little garden, blooming
with flowers, roses and honeysuckles trained on its white walls, a green
turf seat by the side of its little porch, and a bee-hive in a sheltered
corner. And this was Mr. Howard’s glad surprise for Leila; this was a
cottage he had directed should be built during their absence for
Susan’s mother, and in two days, on the first of May, she was to take
possession of it.

There were others who looked forward to May-day with eager expectation;
for an old custom was to be revived, a youthful queen was to be chosen.
Leila herself, though at a distance, had for some time been all anxiety
on this subject, revolving in her mind the different merits of her
little scholars, and scarcely knowing which most to wish should obtain
the promised honour. And she had returned to witness this; returned able
to _see_ and to enjoy it all. What happiness, what deep gratitude was
hers!

Next day all was joyful bustle and activity. The village children were
up with the sun, and while the dew still lay upon the grass, the crystal
drops sparkled on every tree and shrub, their merry voices mingled with
the song of the skylark, and, like the bee, they were darting from
flower to flower, wandering far and wide amidst banks of primroses,
lilies of the valley, and dark blue harebells. Long did they pursue
their pleasant toil, and in the evening they returned to it again, and
not till twilight shades had fallen on the lovely valley, and the silver
moon had risen to guide them on their way, were they to be seen trooping
homewards, laden with green boughs and heaps of blooming flowers. It
was but a short repose that lulled any of them to forgetfulness that
night; they were up by the first streak of day to weave the garlands for
their youthful queen, and the morning rose fair and bright upon their
pleasant labours. Matilda for some time past had been giving them
instructions in the art of weaving garlands, and many of them did great
credit to their little mistress. She had a few days before constructed
for them a crown which they were to imitate, and so well did they now
succeed, that it seemed an equal grief to old and young that any thing
so beautiful should ever fade.

Selina had returned to her own home; but it had been arranged that
Matilda and she were to be early at Woodlands on May morning, to
accompany Leila to the village, that they might all be there when the
queen was chosen. Leila’s own repose was also somewhat broken on the eve
of this eventful day, and having risen early, dressed herself and
offered up her prayer and grateful praise, she seated herself at the
open window to watch for the expected summons. The morning breeze blew
softly on her blooming cheek, her whole heart was full of sweet
emotions; again there was joy to her in every rural sight and sound.
Often she listened eagerly, and fancied she could hear the joyful hum
of many voices from the distant village. Again she listened; was it the
sound of distant music she heard? It went, and came again, and she could
now hear distinctly a chorus of youthful voices rising on the passing
breeze, and could distinguish at intervals, wending their way through
the wood, a group of the village children, dressed in white, carrying
garlands and green boughs. As they emerged into the open lawn, the group
divided, and she saw, surrounded by this youthful band, her beautiful
Selim, led by Charles, and followed by Mina, Selina, and Matilda. Selim
was decked with flowers, and on the pretty saddle-cloth was placed the
crown. They all advanced, still singing; and, in breathless surprise,
Leila listened to the following words:--

    “The sun has risen on high
      With bright and cheerful ray,
    To greet with loving eye
      Our Leila, queen of May!

    “The little birds of air
      Join in our simple lay,
    To greet thee, lady fair,
      Our gentle queen of May!

    “The sweetest flowers of spring
      Bloom round thy path to-day,
    A woodland wreath we bring,
      To crown thee queen of May!

    “Bright sun, gay birds, fair flowers,
      Speak not alone to-day,
    From these full hearts of ours,
      We hail thee, queen of May!”

Yes, with the universal assent of all their loving hearts, Leila was
chosen queen of the May! Wreathed with garlands, she was soon seated on
her beautiful favourite, and the procession wound its way, the children
singing and scattering flowers, to the village green; there, all unknown
to her, her papa, and all the elders of the party were assembled, and
under the Maypole was placed the throne, where, amidst all she loved,
and cheers from old and young, was Leila crowned and proclaimed Queen of
the May!

“Did I no’ aye tell ye that peerless jewel o’ a bairn was fit to grace a
crown?” was Peggy Dobie’s observation.

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Typographical errors corrected by the etext transcriber:

place had throw a heavy gloom=> place had thrown a heavy gloom {pg 66}

you need not shake you head=> you need not shake your head {pg 70}

the sudden impulses by which your are governed=> the sudden impulses by
which you are governed {pg 77}

his beaming couutenance=> his beaming countenance {pg 97}

it will be my first lesson in the Scotch languabe=> it will be my first
lesson in the Scotch language {pg 147}

you know I have already told you=> You know I have already told you {pg
164}

be said, “but in this case it is impossible=> he said, “but in this case
it is impossible {pg 216}








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