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                             LADY WILLIAM

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                             LADY WILLIAM

                                  BY
                             MRS. OLIPHANT

                                London
                           MACMILLAN AND CO.
                             AND NEW YORK
                                 1894

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           _First Edition (3 Vols. Crown 8vo) January 1894_
                       _Reprinted February 1894_
             _Second Edition (1 Vol. Crown 8vo) May 1894_




I


The village of Watcham is not a village in the ordinary sense of the
word, and yet it is a very pretty place, with a charming picturesque
aspect, and of which people say, ‘What a pretty village!’ when they come
upon its little landing-place on the riverside, or drive through its
old-fashioned green, where some of the surrounding houses look as if
they had come out of the seventeenth century, and some as if they had
come out of the picture-books of Mr. Randolph Caldecott. It is a village
of genteel little houses where a great many people live who have
pretensions, but are poor: and some who have no pretensions and yet are
poor all the same, and find the little, fresh, airy villa houses, with
their small rooms and little gardens, a wonderful relief from London,
even from the suburbs which are almost as rural as Watcham. Watcham,
however, has various advantages over Hampstead or Wimbledon. It is close
by the river, where a little quiet boating may be had without any fear
of plunging into the mob of excursionists from London on one side, who
make some portions of that river hideous, or the more elegant mob of
society on the other, who do not add to its charm. But I need not linger
on the attractions of this little place, with which the reader will, no
doubt, if he (or she) has patience enough, become well acquainted in
time.

The church in Watcham is a pretty church of very old foundation, low in
stature and small in size, its porch covered with climbing roses, its
modest little spire rising out of a mantle of ivy. Inside I have always
felt that there was a faint breath of generations past, perhaps not so
desirable as the traces of them left on the walls--which mingled with
the breath of the congregation, and the whiff of incense, which was now
and then added to the composite atmosphere. For the Rector was ‘High,’
and, though he never laid himself open to troublesome proceedings, was
watched with great attention by a little band of parishioners very
anxious to be aggrieved, who kept an eye upon all he did, in the hope of
some day catching him at an unguarded moment, in the act of lighting a
candle or donning a vestment which exceeded the rubric. But Mr. Plowden
was quite aware of this watch, and delighted in keeping his critics up
to the highest mark of vigilance without ever giving them the occasion
they desired. The Rectory was an old red-brick house showing rather high
and narrow above its garden wall, and the Plowden family consisted,
besides the Rector, of his wife, a son, and two daughters, to whose
credit the floral decorations, for which the church was famous, were
laid, undeservedly, by the strangers and visitors who frequented the
place--though this was always indignantly contradicted by the
inhabitants, to whom it was well known that Miss Grey was the real
artist who made the church so beautiful, and seemed to invent flowers
when none were to be had by other persons, for the adornment of the
little sanctuary. There were a few houses dotted about in their gardens
in the neighbourhood of the church which contained the aristocracy of
the place. These were generally very small, but, on the other hand, they
were very refined, and contained old china and dainty pieces of old
furniture such as might have made a dozen connoisseurs happy. They,
however, were inhabited chiefly by ladies, though there was an old
soldier and an old clergyman among them who stood out very strongly on
the feminine background. The old clergyman, indeed, was no better than
an old lady himself, and so considered in the place, which sent him on
errands, and set but little store by his opinion; but the General! the
General was very different. He had seen a great deal of service; and on
occasions when he went at strictly-regulated intervals to a levée or
other great function, with all his medals upon his ancient bosom, he was
a sight to see. It was believed generally in the village that he had won
several victories with his own right hand, and the sword which hung in
his room was believed to have been bathed in blood on many terrible
occasions; but, as was to be expected, the old soldier bore no terrible
aspect, but was very amiable and gentle to his neighbours. The
Archdeacon, of whom nobody stood in any awe, was on occasion ten times
more severe.

It will be perceived that society in Watcham was not without
dignitaries. But the person who was of highest rank in the place, whom
all the ladies had to acknowledge as unmistakably their superior, who
had the undoubted right to walk out of a room and into a room before
them all, was a lady who lived in one of the smallest of those little
houses which were as Belgravia to the population of the village. Such a
little house! It had a pretty little garden all round it, with a privet
hedge and green gate, which in their insignificance, yet complete
enclosure and privacy, were a sort of symbol of their owner and her
position. For it could not be denied that she was Lady William,
sister-in-law to a marquis, connected (by marriage) with half the
aristocracy; and yet not only was she very poor, but she was of herself,
so to speak, nobody, which was the exasperating particular in the tale.
Nobody at all, the Rector’s sister, once a governess, whose elevation by
her marriage--and such a marriage!--over the heads of the best people in
Watcham was an affront which they never got over, though these ladies
were too well bred to make any quarrel, or to be anything but observant
of the necessities of the situation. I do not pretend for a moment that
it was ever suggested to Lady William in any way that her precedence
annoyed her neighbours, and that to have to walk humbly behind that
governess-woman, as Mrs. FitzStephen, the General’s wife, had hastily
called her on her return to Watcham, was an accident of fate which made
them furious. She was a woman full of perception, however, and she was
quite aware of the fact, and derived from it a certain amusement. Above
all was Lady William amused by it in respect to her sister-in-law, Mrs.
Plowden, who, as a married woman, and the Rector’s wife, not to speak of
her own connections, had been vastly superior to Emily Plowden in her
earlier days when that young woman was a governess and of no consequence
at all. The first time Lady William dined at the General’s, and was
taken out by him before all the rest, the sight of Mrs. Plowden’s face
was almost too much for her gravity. Her elevation had cost her dear,
and had brought her little, except that empty honour; but she was a
woman with a fine sense of the ludicrous, and that moment compensated
her for many troubles. She was the first lady in Watcham, where she had
received many snubs once upon a time, and this was at once a balm and an
amusement to her of the most agreeable kind.

But Lady William was very poor. They were none of them rich in that
little society, but Lady William had less than any, less even than Miss
Grey. The small annuity given her by her husband’s family, given very
grudgingly, and sometimes in arrears, was all she had to depend upon.
She had, as people said severely, as if it had been her fault, nothing
of her own. The Plowdens were not rich, and all that Emily Plowden had
had been bestowed upon a prodigal brother, who had disappeared in the
wilds of Australia, and never had been heard of more. What she had thus
lost would not have added fifty pounds a year to her income; but fifty
pounds a year when you have only two hundred is a great addition, and
she was very much reproached for having made this sacrifice ‘to that
good-for-nothing boy,’ the neighbours said. I am afraid she thought it
very foolish herself when she came to be what she was, middle-aged, with
Mab growing up, and so little, so very little, nothing at all, so to
speak, to keep her little household upon. Sometimes she would calculate
to herself how much better off she would have been if she had still
possessed the interest of her thousand pounds which poor Ned had carried
with him, and which probably only enabled him to ruin himself more
quickly. Sometimes she would amuse herself by speculating how much it
would have brought in. Thirty-five pounds perhaps, or possibly
forty-five if she had been very lucky: and how many comforts that might
have got during the year; or she might have taken a little off it--two
hundred pounds or so--for Mab’s education. And Mab had really got no
education, poor child. However, these were nothing but speculations, and
had no bitterness in them. She did not grudge her money to poor Ned.
Poor Ned! How often is there one in a family who is never spoken of but
with that prefix, and how often he is the one who is the best beloved!

Lady William was quite worthy in externals of her elevation, being of
what is called an aristocratic appearance, though it is an appearance
which is to be found impartially in all classes, and I have often seen a
young woman in a shop who was much more like a duchess than the owners
of that title sometimes are. Perhaps it would be better to say that Lady
William was conventionally correct in every way, with a rather tall and
slight figure, an oval face, a deportment which strangers thought
distinguished, and fine hands and feet, which are always considered to
betoken gentle blood. But Mab, alas! who ought to have possessed more of
these attractions, had none of them. She was rather short, and at
seventeen she was certainly too stout. Stumpy was what Mrs. Plowden at
the Rectory said, and there can be no doubt that there was truth in that
unlovely phrase. Her nose turned up, her face was round and her features
blunt, her hair no colour in particular. As for waist the poor girl had
none, and her feet were good useful beetle-crushers, which she encased
by preference in square-toed shoes without heels. In short, it was
impossible even for Mab herself to entertain any illusions as to her
personal appearance. She was a plain and homely girl. ‘Ah!’ said the
people who disliked the Plowdens, and those who did not know anything
about it, except that her mother had been a governess; ‘the common
blood bursting out.’ But, as a matter of fact, it was the noble family
to which her father belonged whom Mab resembled. She was as like the
present Marquis as it was possible for a girl to be like an elderly man.
None of his daughters (heaven be praised, they said) were half so like
him as the niece whom he barely acknowledged. Mab was the very
quintessence of that distinguished man. She had very light hair of a
faint greenish tinge, eyes equally light, but bluish. To see her beside
her graceful mother was wonderful. And she did not show her blood like
the Princess in the fairy tale by feeling the pea that was underneath
two mattresses. Mab might have lain upon peas, and she would never have
been any the wiser. Her perceptions were not delicate. She was not
sensitive. In short she was the most perfectly robust and contented
little soul there was in Watcham, and met all her little privations with
a broad smile.

You could not imagine a more minute drawing-room than that in which this
mother and daughter spent the greater part of their life. There was
nothing poetical or romantic about the house. The door was exactly in
the middle, with a window on each side, which indicated the two
sitting-rooms, and three windows which represented as many bedrooms
above. The reader will perceive that it was the rudimentary house
designed by infantile art in its first command of a slate or other
pencil with which to express its ideas. The narrow passage into which
the outer door opened, and from which you entered the sitting-rooms, was
scarcely capable of containing two persons at once. By dint of having
the smallest specimens possible of those pieces of furniture, Lady
William had contrived to have a sofa and a piano in the drawing-room.
There were also some low chairs and two or three of those little tables
which are so useful in this tea-drinking age, but which are chiefly
remarkable as handy things to throw down. You could scarcely throw down
Lady William’s tables, however, for there was not room enough for them
to fall. The ladies were sitting together in this little room with a
large basket on the floor between them, in which it was their habit to
put their work if it was not suitable to be beheld by visitors. They
were both engaged at this particular moment in the making of a dress, of
a kind which is generally described by novelists as ‘some kind of light
woollen material.’ Shopkeepers say simply ‘material,’ leaving the light
woollen to the imagination. I think, as I love to be particular, that it
was _biège_. There was a fashion-book, or perhaps a copy of the _Lady’s
Pictorial_--but I think the scene occurred before the commencement of
that excellent periodical--lying among the folds of the stuff, half
hidden by them. And this was Mab’s spring dress, which her mother was
making, aided by the less skilled yet patient efforts of Mab herself.
‘Do you think you like that sleeve?’ Lady William was saying, looking at
it in her hand, with her head a little on one side, as an artist looks
at his picture; ‘these puffs are apt to look a little fantastic,
especially when they are home-made----’

‘You mean when they are on a fat little girl like me, mother.’

‘Well, Mab, you are a little--stout,’ Lady William said. She did not
take it so lightly as Mab did, but half resented, half lamented, this
unfortunate development.

‘Don’t say stout, please,’ said Mab. ‘Stout sounds such a determined
thing. Call me fat, mother: it’s nicer--it might be accidental: or I
might, as Mrs. FitzStephen says, fine down.’

Lady William shook her head with a suppressed sigh. She knew Mab would
not fine down. ‘Never mind about words,’ she said, ‘but tell me----’

Here she was interrupted by a rattle of small shots, as of pebbles, on
the door. She knew very well what it was. It was the knuckles of Patty,
the little girl who was groom of the chambers, and head footman, and
kitchenmaid, and general aid to the woman-of-all-work at the cottage.
She opened the door when she had delivered this volley, and thrust in a
curly head at about the height of the keyhole. ‘Please, my lydy,’ she
said, breathless, ‘it’s Missis and the young lydies from the Rectory. I
thought as you’d like to know----’

‘Are they coming here, Patty?’

‘Leastways, I think so, my lydy,’ Patty said.

‘Thank you, Patty; as soon as you’ve let them in, bring tea.’

There was no thought of closing the door to these privileged visitors.
But the dress was carefully and swiftly disposed of in the big basket,
which was thrust under the sofa. ‘They’ve nothing to do with your new
frock,’ said Lady William, in an apologetic parenthesis. Mab, who
required no apology, who had seen this little feat of legerdemain
accomplished more often than she could count, required no explanation;
but she did not take up any other work. Lady William, on the other hand,
had a piece of knitting provided for such occasions, and was working at
it as if it were the chief occupation of her life when the Rectory
ladies were ushered in. Mrs. Plowden had reversed the order which ruled
in Lady William’s house, for it was she who was short and stout, while
her daughters were of the Plowden type, long and thin, like, and yet not
like, their aunt, who was slim and tall, words that mean the same thing
with a difference. The three figures came in like an army, filling the
small room.

‘Well, Emily, busy, as usual?’ Mrs. Plowden said, a little breathless
from her walk. ‘And Mab idle, as usual?’ she added, after she had taken
breath.

‘Just as we always are, aunt,’ said Mab with a laugh, conscious of the
half-finished dress.

‘You might come, now and then, to the Sewing Society, Mabel,’ said Emmy,
her cousin. ‘It’s quite amusing, and it would show you how nice a quiet
hour’s sewing can be.’

‘But Mab does not like parish things--and neither do I,’ said the other,
the heterodox daughter, under her breath.

‘I wonder,’ said Mrs. Plowden, ‘that you don’t set her in some way of
employing herself systematically, Emily. Doing things by fits and starts
loses half of the advantage. What should I ever have done with Emmy and
Florry if I had not gone on in the most systematic way?’

‘And look what examples we are,’ said Florry, as usual under her breath.

‘Haven’t we made up our minds to agree to differ on these points?’ said
Lady William. ‘I am sure you had something more amusing to tell me than
the way you brought up your girls and how I have spoiled Mab.’

‘I don’t know if you will think it amusing. There was something else I
had to tell you. Have you heard that Mrs. Swinford and her son have come
back to the Hall?’

‘The Swinfords!’ said Lady William, with a start of excitement. ‘Have
they come back? I thought they were never coming back any more.’

‘I don’t know what reason you had for such an idea. I never heard of it,
and as James is the clergyman, and knows most about his
parishioners--but, at all events, they have come back: and I want to
know what your ideas are about calling. People stood a little aloof, I
have always been told; but it’s a long time ago, and naturally the
people here will take great notice of what you and I do, Emily. It will
all depend upon what we do how Mrs. Swinford is received. Do you think
you shall call?’

‘Call!’ cried Lady William. A little colour had come upon her face, a
little agitation into her usual calm. The exclamation seemed like a kind
of reply, but whether it meant ‘Call! of course I shall call!’ or ‘Call!
how could you expect me to do such a thing?’ her sister-in-law could not
tell; neither did she follow up that monosyllable with any further
elucidation. She said, after a momentary pause, ‘How long it is ago,
and how many things have happened since then!’

‘That is very true--but it’s always like that when people have been away
for more than twenty years. Half the people that were living then are
dead, of course: and other things--why, none of the children were born.’

‘Nor dreamt of,’ said Lady William. It gave her a great deal to think
about; but after a while Mrs. Plowden grew tired of waiting for some
definite response to her question, and took up the theme on her own
account.

‘As I am a new person here since her time it would be silly of me to
keep up old prejudices. I know nothing about any old story. I am quite
justified in saying so, for, of course, I was not even here. We had only
a curacy, and your father was still alive: James did not get the living
till a year after: and then, of course, I was a very young woman,
thinking of none of these things. Your mother had a prejudice--but why
should I take up her prejudices? And they are rich, and the son is an
agreeable young man, people say; and probably they will entertain a good
deal. It would be sinning against a merciful Providence if one refused
to take advantage of what is brought to your very door. Everybody says
that they will entertain, and probably a great deal.’

‘And Leo will want a wife,’ said Lady William.

‘Good gracious, Emily! don’t talk in that way before my girls! I keep
all such ideas out of their minds. But what I meant to say was, if you
think of going don’t you think we might go together? It would have a
very good effect, and be an example for the parish. I suppose they have
got quite French being so long away, and I have been so long out of the
way of speaking it that---- But you are quite a linguist, Emily.’

‘You don’t suppose Mrs. Swinford will have forgotten her native tongue?’
Lady William said, with a laugh.

‘Well, if you think not--oh! I suppose not; but one gets so rusty in a
language one never uses. Look at me! I spoke both French and German like
a native when I left school; but, for want of practice, you could put me
out completely by a single question. So I think, as you have always kept
it up, I should feel more comfortable. And as they can’t all go, suppose
we take the eldest. You and I and Emmy--three are quite enough to make a
call. Don’t you see?’

‘I see,’ Lady William said; but it was not for a long time that Mrs.
Plowden could get her to say more.




II


‘The Swinfords come back,’ Lady William said to herself, as she sat on
the little sofa in the twilight by the light of the little fire. She had
been very silent after the Plowdens withdrew, saying little except on
the subject of the frock, which was resumed as soon as these ladies were
gone. And when Mab went out, as she had a way of doing when the light
began to fail, Lady William put the work away, and sat down in the
corner of the sofa, which was the cosiest spot in the little room,
almost out of reach of the draught. This is an extremely difficult thing
to attain in small rooms where the doors and windows are at right
angles, and you never can get far enough off from one of them to avoid
the stream of cold air which pours in under the door, or from the
window, or somewhere else in the sweet uncertainty of cottage
architecture. But that end of the sofa was nearly out of the way from
them all: and there she sat when she did not go out, at that wistful
hour when it is neither night nor day. Lady William was not old enough
to like that wistful hour. She was young enough to prefer taking a run
with Mab, being, though she was Mab’s mother, quite as elastic and
strong, and as fond of fresh air and exercise as she: and she was
philosopher enough to take care not to think more than was absolutely
necessary; for I do not disguise that there were episodes in her past
life which were not pleasant to go back upon, and that the future, when
she gazed into it closely, was too precarious and alarming to inspect.
But to-day Lady William’s mind had been stirred, and so many things had
come up which forced themselves to be remembered that she had no
resource but to allow herself to think. The Swinfords! They were the
great people of the place. Their house was close to Watcham, its gates
opening upon the road a little beyond the village--and they had in her
early days exercised a great influence upon Emily Plowden’s life. A
flood of recollections poured back upon her, a succession of scenes one
after another--scenes in the house, in the park, and in the
conservatory, all about the place. She remembered even the looks of
certain eyes, glances that had been cast at herself, or even at others,
swift changes of aspect, vicissitudes of sun and shade which were more
rapid than the shadows upon the hills. What a thing it is to recollect
over twenty years and more the way one look succeeded another on a face,
perhaps gone into dulness and decay, or perhaps only changed out of
knowledge, but equally separated from us and the scenes in which we
remembered it! Lady William sat and recollected, and saw again the very
light of the days that were past, how it came through a long window and
fell upon--sometimes her own face, which was as changed as any of the
others, sometimes other faces fixed in eager regard upon hers. How
strange to think that she was the girl that stood then on the threshold
of life, so full of many emotions, so easily touched one way or another,
smiles and tears chasing each other over her face. And to think it was
all over, and everything connected with that time was as a dream! She
had met her husband there; a great many things had befallen her there;
and now here was Jane Plowden coming to ask her to call--to call, of all
things in the world, on Mrs. Swinford, as if she were an ordinary
neighbour, as if there was nothing between them that could not be told
over the tea-table among the afternoon visitors! And she had consented
to do it, which was more strange still--half for the wonder of it, half
because now they had come back, she was curious to see how things looked
across the abyss which separated now from then. Oh, as she thought of it
there rose a hundred things she wanted to know! Her busy fancy figured
how the patroness of her youth would look; what she would say; the
questions she would ask. ‘So you have settled in Watcham again--in
Watcham, after all? And you have a little girl? And you never see or
hear of---- Oh, but that is impossible--you must hear of them
constantly, for it is in the papers.’ All these things she heard Mrs.
Swinford say with the little foreign accent which was one of that lady’s
peculiarities. Then Lady William paused with a foreboding and asked
herself whether she could not avoid the meeting--whether she could have
a bad headache, or go off on a visit, or simply sit still and refuse to
move. Alas! going off on a visit is not so easy--you want money for
that, and there was nowhere she could go except for a day or two.
Neither would a bad headache last beyond a day: and as for sitting
still, that would be equally ineffectual, for if she did not go to Mrs.
Swinford, Mrs. Swinford would probably come to her. She considered that
but one of two things could be done--either to go away altogether from
Watcham while the Swinfords remained there, which was, of course,
impossible--or to call with Jane as was proposed to her. She laughed at
this softly, with a little secret fright, yet sense of the ludicrous--to
call with Jane! walking in over the ashes of volcanoes (so to speak),
over the dragons’ teeth that had been sown in their time and produced
such harvests, with that incarnation of the commonplace by her side. No
doubt the ashes would be covered with Persian carpets, and Jane would
think of nothing but the future parties to be given there, and whether
perhaps young Mr. Swinford---- Lady William could not be supposed to be
particularly happy during this review of the things that had been and
the things that would have to be, but she laughed to herself again. That
eternal question could never be left out, she said to herself.

‘What are you laughing at, mother?’ said Mab, as she came in, bringing
with her a rush of cold, and that smell of the fresh air which changes
the whole atmosphere of a little room in a moment. Her whole person was
breathing it out. Her hat, which she took off when she came in, was full
of it, sending the mingled fragrance and chill into every corner of the
tiny little fire-lit room. Lady William shivered a little.

‘You have brought in the draught with you, Mab, like a gale at sea.’

‘I am sorry,’ said the girl, turning back to shut the door. And she came
to the fire and knelt down before it, and repeated, with the pertinacity
of youth, ‘What were you laughing at, mother?’

‘Nothing very much--chiefly at Aunt Jane and this new thing she has got
in her head!’

‘Oh, Aunt Jane,’ said Mab carelessly, as if that was a subject already
exhausted. Then, however, she added, still pertinacious, ‘but what is
the new thing she has got into her head?’

Lady William thought of a certain baby in a book who wanted to see ‘the
wheels go wound,’ and laughed a little once more.

‘How do you know that I can tell you?’ she said.

‘Don’t you tell me everything, mammy?’ said Mab, rubbing her head
against her mother’s arm like an affectionate puppy: and Lady William
stroked her child’s hair, which glistened with a drop or two of cold dew
upon it from the dripping branches outside.

‘You have pretty hair, Mab,’ she said softly, with praise, which was a
caress.

‘Have I? Oh, I don’t think there’s anything pretty about me,’ said the
girl. ‘What a little fool I was not to take after you, mother! It is
you who are the pretty one: and Emmy has the impudence to be a little
like you--Emmy, and not me! But never mind. What has Aunt Jane got in
her head?’

‘The pertinacious child! She has this in her head, that she wants to
drag me to-morrow to go with her and call at the Hall.’

‘Oh, is that all?’ said Mab. She felt that her lively curiosity, which
was a pleasant sensation, had been wasted. But then she added, ‘Is there
anything that makes it of importance that she should call at the Hall?’

How the child swept over the ashes of the volcanoes, raising a little
pungent dust, which got into her mother’s throat: but she laughed a
little, for Aunt Jane was always fair game.

‘Do you remember the Bennets in _Pride and Prejudice_,’ she said, ‘and
the commotion there was when Mr. Bingley first came?’

These ladies were great readers of novels, which held perhaps the first
place among the amusements of their lives: and they were happy enough to
possess an old edition of Miss Austen, which kept them, as much perhaps
from their good luck as from good taste, familiar with all she has added
to our knowledge of life, and fully prepared with an example for most
emergencies that could occur in their little world.

‘Yes,’ said Mab, a little wondering. And then she said, ‘Oh, I see. Aunt
Jane is like Mrs. Bennet, and Emmy--But Emmy is not half so nice as
Jane. And Mr. Bingley is--Oh, I see, I see----’

‘Don’t see too much,’ said Lady William, ‘for it is all in embryo; but I
should not wonder if your aunt were at present in her imagination
arranging Emmy’s trousseau, and thinking over what hymns should be sung
at the wedding. “The voice that breathed o’er Eden” is a little common.
It was sung for Susan Green only last week, who said, “No, my lady; we
ain’t got nothing to do with gardens nor apples, nor folks going about
without no clo’es.”’

It is very probable that this story was told by the artful mother with
the intention of throwing dust in the child’s eyes and leading her away
from a subject on which explanations were difficult; but, if so, she
reckoned without her Mab. The girl owned the fact of the anecdote with a
little laugh just proportioned to the occasion.

‘Is Mr. Swinford quite--young?’ said Mab doubtfully. ‘And then there is
his mother, who lives with him----’

‘Well, yes, I suppose that is the right way of putting the case,’ said
Lady William. ‘He lived with his mother when I knew them--and as for his
age, I remember him a little boy.’

‘Oh,’ said Mab, with partial satisfaction, ‘but you were young yourself
then. I think I saw somebody in the village just now who may have
been--this gentleman. He was in a big coat, all fur, and shiny
shoes--fancy shiny shoes for going through the mud at Watcham! And he
was as old, I should think, as--as old as--Uncle James’s last curate,
the one who was _locum tenens_, and who did not stay--Oh, over thirty at
the least. Now Mr. Bingley cannot have been more than twenty-five. I am
sure he was not more than twenty-five--and I don’t call that very
young.’

‘Leo Swinford must be over thirty, as you say. He was about nine or ten
when I was eighteen--a great difference then, but perhaps, as you say,
not so great a difference now. Who is that, Mab, at the gate?’ It showed
how Lady William had been roused and disturbed by this afternoon’s
intelligence that she should be thus moved by the idea of any one at the
gate.

‘If you please, my lady,’ said Patty, the little maid, putting in her
curly head once more; ‘it’s a gentleman as I never see before. Nayther
the Rector, nor the Curate, nor the General, nor nobody as I know; and
he has got fur round his neck like a female,’ said Patty, with a cough
which covered a laugh. ‘It’s just like the thing as they call a
victorine. I never see it on nobody but a female before.’

‘Let him come in, Patty,’ said Lady William. She gave a swift glance at
the candles on the mantelpiece, and then she decided not to light them.
‘Mab, get up and take a seat like a rational creature. You will soon
have your curiosity satisfied, it appears.’

She said to herself that she did not care for Leo Swinford, not a bit!
It was his mother, not he, who had affected her former life. He had been
a boy, and now he would be a man, just like the others. It showed that
they meant to be civil that she should send him so soon. This was the
only point of view in which Lady William regarded the visit; but that
was the point of view which affected her mind most. She cared no more
for Leo Swinford in himself than for any curate in the diocese--which
was almost the only other specimen of young man which she was likely to
see. She drew back into her corner, which was so near the fire that it
was deep in shade, the reflection going quickly through her mind that
_her_ first question would be, How does she look? is she much altered?
does she look old? That was what his mother would want to know. But she
should be baulked in that desire at least. The firelight flickered
about, making a pleasant ruddy half-light in the little room. It danced
about Mab, coming and going, giving a note of colour to her light hair,
and showing the round youthful curve of her cheeks without any
insistence upon the overfulness of her chubby, childish figure. It was
very favourable to the child, this ruddy, picturesque, uncertain light.
These thoughts flashed through Lady William’s mind in the moment that
elapsed before Patty threw open the door again, and with a loud voice
announcing, ‘The gentleman, my lydy,’ shut it again smartly upon herself
and the sudden chilly draught from outside. And then the scene changed,
and the principal figure became, not Lady William and her thoughts any
longer, but a solid shadow in the midst of the firelight, a man,
unaccustomed intruder here, bringing with him a faint odour of cigars,
and that sort of contradictory atmosphere which comes into a feminine
household with the very breath of an unknown being of this unhabitual
kind. It was an embarrassing position for a stranger; at least, it would
have been an embarrassing position for most men. But Leo Swinford was
not one of those who allow themselves to be affected by circumstances.
He made a bow vaguely directed towards the corner, drawing his heels
together after the manner of France, and then spoke in the easiest tone,
though his words expressed the embarrassment which he did not at all
feel.

‘I am under a double disadvantage,’ he said, ‘and how am I to come out
of it? I came prepared to say that I feared you would not remember me,
and now you cannot even see me. Never mind. I am Leo Swinford, and you
cannot have forgotten altogether that name.’

‘No,’ said Lady William. She held out to him from the shade a hand which
looked very white in the ruddy light. ‘I heard this afternoon that you
had come home,’ she said, ‘and your name was on our lips.’

‘What a good thing for me,’ he said, ‘save that it does not at all test
your recollection, which I had pleased myself with thoughts of trying.
But it is all the same. Do not send for lights, and as you cannot see
me, next time we meet I can put my question with equal force.’

‘I see you very well,’ said Lady William, ‘and I should not have known
you. How could I? You were a child, and now you are a man. And I was a
girl, and now I am an old woman. Your mother will see innumerable
changes. How is she? It was kind of her to send you to see me so soon.’

‘Ah!’ said the visitor, ‘I said I was at a double disadvantage, but it
seems there are more. She did not send me to see you, dear lady. I came
on my proper feet, and by my proper will. Mamma is not changed, but she
no longer sends little Leo on her errands. He has certain instincts of
his own.’

‘Well, then, it was a kind instinct that brought you here,’ said Lady
William.

‘I am not so sure of that--an instinct very kind to myself: I foresee
little pleasure in the society of home, you will not be offended if I
say so. But there was one quarter in which I knew I could indemnify
myself, so long as you permit it, madame.’

He spoke very much like a Frenchman throughout, Mab thought, who sat
breathlessly looking on, rather hostile but exceedingly curious,
thinking it was as good as a play; but the ‘madame’ was altogether
French, not that harsh ‘madam’ of the English, which comes at you like a
stone, and which may mean more animosity than respect.

‘We have not, indeed, much variety here,’ said Lady William; ‘you will
soon exhaust our little resources. But then we are not very far from
town, and I advise you to keep the house full. After Paris, Watcham! It
is perhaps rather too much of a difference, unless you have a very
strong head.’

‘My head is indifferent strong. I can stand a good deal in the way of
change, from ten degrees below zero to twenty over it. Ah! I forgot you
go by that other impossible standard of Fahrenheit here. You have not
presented me to the young lady whom I see by glimpses, as if we were all
in a fairy tale.’

‘My daughter, Mab; and, as you have already divined Mab, the gentleman
whom we were talking of, and who remains in my mind ten years old, in a
velvet suit, with lace, and, I believe, curls----’

He waved his hand. ‘Spare me the curls, they were the _supplice_ of my
early days. Picture to yourself, Miss Mab--Mab! how curious to put Miss
before that name! One might as well say Miss Titania.’

‘One does sometimes in this day of fantastic names. There are Miss Enids
and Miss Imogenes.’

‘I was saying, picture to yourself a very plain little boy, with very
common hair, exactly like every other little boy’s, only worse--in long
curls upon his wretched shoulders! they made my life a burden to me.
Mamma is a most interesting woman--not at all like other people--I am
exceptionally happy in having had such a companion for my life--but so
long as I was a child there were drawbacks. By degrees things right
themselves,’ he added after a brief dramatic pause. ‘I have no longer
curls, nor am I sent to call, and we have solved the problem of having
two independent rulers in one house.’

There was another pause, which Lady William did not herself wish to
break. Perhaps his voice, the atmosphere about him, produced
recollections that were too strong for her: or perhaps Leo Swinford by
himself did not interest Lady William. It was Mab who blurted forth
suddenly, with a juvenile instinct of relieving the tension of the
silence, a piece of information.

‘I saw you just now in the village, Mr. Swinford. I wondered if it was
you. We don’t see many strangers in the village--at least at this time
of the year. I said to myself: unless it is some one from the Hall, I
don’t know who it can be.’

‘Some one from the Hall is very vague, Miss Mab--Queen Mab, if I may say
so. I hope you had heard of me, myself, an individual, before that vague
conjecture arose.’

‘No, I can’t say I had,’ said Mab bluntly. ‘Mother said something to-day
to Aunt Jane about Leo wanting a wife; but then, you see, I didn’t know
who Leo was.’

‘If that is the only attitude in which I am to be presented to my new
world! but I don’t want a wife,’ he added plaintively, addressing
himself to the dark corner in which Lady William was seated. ‘However, I
am Leo,’ he added, turning to the girl again with such a bow as Mab had
never seen before.




III


Many messages passed between the Rectory and the Cottage the next
morning on the subject of the visit to the Hall. How shall we go? Would
it be best to get the fly, as there is a prospect of rain? Would it do
to go in the pony-carriage, as the clouds were making a lift? Finally,
when the sun came out, would it be best to walk? Emmy and Florry Plowden
were running to and fro all the morning with notes and messages. Emmy
(who was going) was anxious and serious on this great subject. It would
be such a pity to get wet. ‘It is true it is nearly the end of the
winter, and our dresses are not in their first freshness; but it is so
disagreeable to go into a new house feeling mouldy and damp. First
impressions are of so much consequence. Don’t you think so, aunt? and
Mrs. Swinford is Parisian, and accustomed to everything in the last
fashion.’

‘You might as well go draggled as not,’ said Florence, ‘if that is what
you are thinking of: for she will see there is not much of the last
fashion about you.’

‘Aunt always looks as if she were the leader of the fashion wherever she
goes,’ said Emily proudly. She it was who was conscious of being the
only one who was like her aunt.

‘Thank you for such a pretty compliment,’ said Lady William; ‘but Florry
is right, I am sorry to say. We shall all be so much below her standard
at our best, that a little more or less doesn’t matter. Still, without
reference to Mrs. Swinford or her impressions, it is unpleasant to get
wet.’

‘Then you vote for the fly,’ said Emmy with satisfaction, ‘that is what
I always thought you would do. One does not get blown about, one comes
out fresh, without having one’s hair all wild and marks of mud upon
one’s shoes. Thanks, Aunt Emily, you always decide for what is best.’

In an hour, however, they returned, Florry, who was not going, leading
the way. ‘Mamma thinks as it’s so much brighter our own pony-chaise will
do. It’s much nicer being in the air than boxed up in a fly. And she
thinks it would make so much fuss, setting all the village talking, if
the fly was ordered, and it was known everywhere that she was going to
the Hall.’

‘I thought she wished it to be known.’

‘Oh, of course,’ said Emmy, who was the aggrieved party, ‘mamma wishes
everything to be known. She says a clergyman’s family should always live
in a glass house and all that sort of thing. And to have the pony-chaise
out, and everybody seeing where we are going, will be just the same
thing.’

‘At all events it’s your own private carriage, and not a nasty hired
fly,’ said Florence. ‘“Mrs. Plowden’s carriage at the door,” and you
needn’t explain it’s a shandrydan.’

And the unfeeling girl laughed, as was her way: for it was not she who
was going to have her fringe disarranged, and the locks at the back
blown about by driving in the pony-carriage in the whistling March
breeze.

‘Tell your mother I think the pony-chaise will do quite well if she
likes it; everybody knows what sort of a carriage a country clergyman
can afford to keep.’

‘But you are not a country clergyman, Aunt Emily.’

‘Heaven forbid!’ that lady said.

Next time it was Emily alone who ran ‘across,’ as they called it. ‘Mamma
thinks on the whole we might walk. The roads have dried up beautifully,
and it’s not far. And walking is always correct in the country, isn’t
it, aunt?’

‘It is always correct anywhere, Emmy, when you have no other way to go.’

‘Ah, but we have two other ways to go! There is the fly, which I should
prefer, as it protects one most, and there’s our own pony-chaise. It
cannot be supposed to be for the want of means of driving, Aunt Emily,
if we pleased.’

‘Of course not,’ said Lady William with great gravity. ‘And there is a
gipsy van somewhere about. I have always thought I should like to drive
about the country in a gipsy van.’

Emmy gave her aunt a look of reproach: but by this time her sister had
arrived with Mrs. Plowden’s ultimatum. ‘If the sun comes out mamma will
call for you at the door, if you will please to be ready by three; but
if it is overcast she will come in the fly. So that is all settled, I
hope.’

Mab had maintained a great calm during all these searchings of heart.
She was not going, and had she been going it would have been a matter
of the greatest indifference to her, consciously a plain, and what is
still more dreadful to the imagination, a fat girl, whether her hair was
blown about or not, and what first impression Mrs. Swinford or even Leo
Swinford might form of her. As for Leo Swinford, indeed, in face of the
fact that he had called at the Cottage the night before, she felt for
him something of that familiarity which breeds contempt: and how it
could matter to anybody what he thought was to Mab’s youthful soul a
wonder not to be expressed.

‘What are you so anxious about, after all?’ she said. ‘If your hair is
untidy, what of that? Everybody in Watcham knows exactly how your hair
looks, Emmy, whether it is just newly done and tidy, or whether it is
hanging about your ears.’

‘I hope it never hangs about my ears,’ said Emmy primly, yet with
indignation. If there was one thing upon which she prided herself, it
was the tidiness in which she stood superior over all her peers.

‘Oh, I’ve seen it, after an afternoon at tennis, just as wild as other
people’s,’ said Mab, ‘and everybody in the village has seen it too.’

‘But then,’ said the other sister, ‘these are not people in the village;
they’re new people, and there’s a great deal in a first impression--at
least, so Emmy thinks.’

‘A first impression--upon whom?’ said Mab, with all the severity of her
age. Seventeen, being as yet scarcely in it, is a severe critic of the
ages over twenty which are in possession of the field.

There was a pause, which Florence broke by one of her disconcerting
laughs.

‘Mab, you are too much of a baby. Don’t you know the Swinfords are going
to entertain? Perhaps you don’t know what that means. They are going to
give all sorts of parties, and we’ll not be asked if--we don’t please.’

‘Whom?’ said Mab again.

And then there came another laugh from Florence, and an offended ‘What
can you mean, Mab? Mrs. Swinford, to be sure. It is only she who could
invite girls to make the house pleasant, and,’ said Emily, with a little
dignity, ‘it is as much for you as for me.’

‘Oh! I thought it might be Leo Swinford,’ said the audacious Mab, ‘who
wants a wife, mother says. But he says himself no, he doesn’t want
anything of the kind.’

‘Mab!’ said Lady William, in a warning tone from behind.

‘He didn’t say it in any secret,’ said Mab, ‘not the least. He didn’t
tell you “But this is between ourselves,” or “You won’t mention it,” or
anything of the kind, as people say when they confide in you. He said it
right out.’

‘Who said it right out?’ cried Emily. It was their turn to question now,
and they looked at each other after they had looked, in consternation,
at Mab--asking each other, with their eyes, awe-stricken, what could
this little minx mean, and how did she know?

‘As for Leo Swinford, I don’t think anything at all of him,’ said Mab.
‘He was got up in a fur coat yesterday, when it was not cold at all,
only blustering; and he had shiny shoes on and red socks showing, as if
he were got up for the evening--to walk about the Watcham roads.’

‘Do you mean to say,’ said Emily severely, crushing these pretensions in
the bud, ‘that _you_ have seen Mr. Swinford, Mab? And how did you know
it was Mr. Swinford--it might have been some excursionist or other down
here by a cheap train.’

‘A Marshall and Snelgrove young man,’ said Florence. ‘Absurd! red socks
and evening shoes and a fur coat.’

‘And we have always understood Mr. Swinford was a gentleman,’ Emily
said. ‘But it is not at all wonderful at Mab’s age to take up such a
foolish idea. For a new person in the village always looks as if there
was an adventure behind him, doesn’t he, aunt?--and Mab is such a child
still.’

‘However,’ said Lady William, ‘I don’t know how it came about, but it
was Leo Swinford, my dear. I knew him very well when he was a child, and
he sought me out because, I suppose, he didn’t know any one else here.’

There was another pause of consternation and disappointment: for to
think that Mab had seen this new personage before any of them, and that
he had seen Mab, was very disconcerting and disagreeable to these young
ladies. But then they reflected that Mab did not count--a little fat,
roundabout thing, looking even younger than her age, and that if it was
ordained that they should be forestalled by any one, better Mab than
another. The horrid little thing! But then it was a good sign for future
intimacy that he knew Aunt Emily, and had come in this way at once to
her house.

‘I am sure,’ said Emmy, ‘he might have come to the Rectory. Papa would
have been very glad to see him, and the clergyman is generally the first
person--unless when there is a squire. And of course he is the squire
himself. But then Aunt Emily is the highest in rank, everybody knows.’

‘My rank had not much to do with it. All that Leo knows of me was as
Emily Plowden, the Rector’s daughter, just as you are now, Emmy,’ said
Lady William, with a little laugh. She was going out of the room as she
spoke, and turned her head to give them one glance from the door. If it
occurred to Lady William that the second Emily Plowden was not precisely
like the first, she did not give vent to that opinion. But it was a
little ludicrous from her point of view to be told, as she was told so
often, that Emily was ‘her very image’--‘just what I remember you at her
age.’ It was with, perhaps, a little glance of satire in her eyes that
she flung this parting word at her niece. But the Emily Plowden of the
present generation understood no jest. She blushed a little with
conscious pleasure and pride, and threw up her head. Now, Lady William
had a throat like a swan, but Emily’s could be described no otherwise
than as a long neck, at the top of which her head jerked forward with a
motion not unlike the darting movement of a hen.

‘So you have really seen him, Mab? Think of having a man, a real man, a
young man in Watcham! Were you much excited? Had you presence of mind
enough to note any particulars as to eyes and hair and height, and so
forth--as well as the red socks and the shiny shoes?’

‘Oh, he’s fair, I think,’ said Mab indifferently, ‘a sort of no-
hair like mine, and the rest to correspond. He was very talky and jokey
with mother, just as if she had been a young lady. But he said little to
me.’

‘It was not to be expected,’ said Emily, ‘that a gentleman and a man of
the world like Mr. Swinford would find much to say to you; and I wonder
that he should have remembered Aunt Emily. I have never heard that men
like that cared much for old ladies: but no doubt it was because he knew
nobody else, and just to pass the time.’

‘Mother is not an old lady,’ said Mab; ‘if I were a man I should like
her better than all of you girls put together. You are, on the whole,
rather silly things. You don’t talk out of your own heads, but watch
other people’s eyes to see what will please them. I don’t call that
talking! You never would have found out what would please that man if
you had looked into his eyes for a year. Now mother never minds--she
says what comes into her head: and if any one contradicts her she just
goes on saying the other thing.’

This somewhat vague description seemed to make a certain impression upon
the young ladies, who probably were able to fill up the outlines for
themselves. Emily gave a little sigh.

‘Conversation’s quite a gift,’ she said, ‘and it’s always difficult with
a new person till you know their tastes. I suppose Mr. Swinford knows
about pictures and that sort of thing, and unless you’ve somebody to
tell you when you go to the exhibitions it’s so hard to know which are
really the good ones. Then books--Mudie never sends us any of the best.
He puts all the common novels into the country parcels. At the Hall they
will get everything that comes out.’

‘He said nothing about books or pictures either,’ said Mab--‘Yes, by the
bye, he’s going to lend mother some--but they’re French ones----’

‘French ones!’ said the cousins; and then there was a pause of
consternation. ‘Papa once said if he had his will no French novel should
ever come into the parish.’

‘Ah!’ said Mab, ‘but then I suppose Mr. Swinford didn’t write and ask
uncle what he should bring.’

Emily remained gazing out of the window with a troubled air.

‘We shall never know what to say if that is the sort of thing; and as
for going to their parties, if they are all made up of---- Mamma, too,
who never read a French book in her life. We had a little practice in
the schoolroom, when we had Fräulein, don’t you remember, Flo---- Who
was it we read? It was all long speeches, and one could never make out
what they were about.’

‘And they sounded exactly like German when Fräulein read them. I never
could tell which was which. But I know where the books are, and perhaps
if you learned one of the speeches and said it to Mr. Swinford, he might
like it, don’t you know.’

‘I was not, of course, thinking of Mr. Swinford, but of Mrs. Swinford,’
said Emily, frowning.

‘And you think you will get a chance of talking to her with mamma and
Aunt Emily there?’

‘Well,’ said Emily, ‘at least I can show her that I know my place, and
how an English girl behaves.’

‘I wish you would not wrangle,’ said Mab; ‘it was rather fun listening
to mother and him: they said no speeches out of books--I believe after
all what they said was chiefly chaff. Mother is a wonderful hand at
chaff. She looks so quiet all the time, and goes on till you are nearly
jumping. But he liked it, and laughed, and gave her as good. There was
one thing he said,’ added Mab demurely, ‘which wasn’t chaff, and which
you might like to hear. He said at once he didn’t want----’

‘What! I’m sure I don’t care what he wants or doesn’t want--a gardener
perhaps? and papa has just heard of one he wanted to recommend.’

‘A wife!’ cried Mab, her blue eyes quickening a little with mischief.
‘Mother asked if he did, and he said he didn’t. Perhaps she had some one
she wanted to recommend.’

‘Perhaps,’ said Florence, coming to her sister’s aid; ‘that is the way
in France, the parents arrange it all. I shouldn’t mind at all--that. I
give my consent. It would be nice to be the bride’s relations and always
about the house. If you’ll promise to ask nice people and always us to
meet them--and be kind about sending the carriage for us, and that sort
of thing, for papa hates a bill for flys--I shall give my consent.’

‘Me!’ cried Mab, indignant, ‘I would not marry Leo Swinford, not if----
I’d rather marry the silliest of the curates. I’d rather----’ She
stopped short breathless, unable to find a stronger alternative.

‘Then what a good thing for you,’ said Florry, ‘that he doesn’t want a
wife!’

‘If you think it is nice,’ said Emily, ‘for young girls to talk about
gentlemen, and whether they want wives or not, as if wives were sold at
the shop at so much a pound--I am not of that kind of mind: and Aunt
Emily would not like it any more than mamma. Good-bye, you two. I have
got to go home and get ready, whatever you may have to do.’

And thus Emily retired with the honours of war. If there was any one who
had formed plans on the subject of Leo Swinford it was she; not plans,
indeed, which are dreadful foreign things, but just a floating idea such
as an English girl might entertain, that if a young man and a young
woman are thrown much together, why, then certain consequences might
follow. One never could tell what might happen, as Mrs. Plowden herself,
who was the very essence of propriety, did not hesitate to say.




IV


The road was a little muddy, but not much; and it was quite possible by
taking a little trouble in walking to keep your boots quite clean. Under
the trees in the avenue this was not so easy, for it was more sheltered,
and the wind could not get in to sweep through and through every
opening. There is a pond, or lake, in the grounds, as everybody knows,
which had been the delight of the neighbourhood for the skating in
winter, all the long time the Swinfords had been absent.

‘I wonder if they will still let us skate now they are at home,’ said
Emily, as they walked round the bank over the crisped and extremely
living water, which did not look under the breeze as if it had ever been
bound by chains of frost.

‘Winter is a long way off,’ said Mrs. Plowden, who was a little blown by
her walk. She desired her companions to pause a little and look at the
view. ‘I don’t want,’ she said, panting, ‘to go in out of breath. These
sort of people have quite advantage enough over one in their fine houses
without going in panting like a washer-woman.’ She added, ‘Winter’s a
long way off, and, as we never knew whether they gave permission at all,
or if it was only Howell at the gate, I wouldn’t say anything about it,
Emmy, if I were you.’

Mrs. Plowden’s loss of breath partly proceeded from the fact that she
had been talking all the way. She had no want of subjects: the past
history of Mrs. Swinford, whom they were going to visit, which she did
not know; but that made little difference; and the character of her son,
which nobody in Watcham knew; and the precautions to be taken in
arranging their intercourse with the family so as to get all that might
be advantageous out of that intercourse without in any way compromising
themselves in respect to that which might be unsatisfactory. ‘If there
should be any matrimonial entanglement,’ said Mrs. Plowden, ‘or that
sort of thing, of course it would be for the girl’s family to make
every inquiry. But I daresay as he’s half a Frenchman, and not at all
one of our sort, nothing of that kind will happen: and it is time enough
to take it into consideration when it does.’

‘Quite time enough,’ said Lady William, very decidedly, ‘especially as
nothing can be more unlikely.’

‘That is just what I say. Of course when young people are thrown
together one never knows what may happen: and it is to be hoped that Mr.
Swinford may see how much better it would be to settle down with a nice
English wife than to bring over a French mademoiselle, who never would
understand English ways. But it will be time enough, don’t you think so,
Emily? for I always acknowledge you know better than me when it is
anything French that is in question--with your languages, you know, and
all that.’

‘My languages won’t help me much with Leo Swinford, who is just as
English as I am--nor with his mother, who is cosmopolitan, and of no
country at all.’

‘That’s just one of your sayings, Emily, for how could a woman be of no
country at all? What I’m most concerned for is whether they will come to
church: and I can see it’s much on James’s mind, though he never says
anything; for a great house like that, almost the only great house in
the parish, sets such a dreadful example if they don’t go to church. One
hears of it all through the place. If the people at the Hall don’t go,
why should we? I tell them it’s quite different--that the people at the
Hall have many opportunities, and are deeply interested all the same,
and all that; whereas if poor people don’t pay attention to their
religious duties, what is to become of them? But often they don’t seem
to see it.’

‘I shouldn’t see it if I was in their place. I thought that in
Christianity there was no respect of persons.’

‘Oh! my dear Emily, you ought to know better than to bring up that
common argument against us, and your brother the Rector of the parish.
Of course there’s no respect of persons! But if Mrs. Swinford comes to
church she will be shown into the Hall pew, and old Mrs. Lloyd will just
find a place for herself, if she is early enough, in the free seats. How
could anybody do otherwise? We must be practical. Old Mary Lloyd would
be very uncomfortable if she were to sit down with you or me. She is
much more at home in the free seats. And with the poor people it is only
their individual selves that are in question, whereas the great lady
sets such an example: and there are all the servants and the servants’
families, and one doesn’t know how many----’

‘I think you may set your mind at ease, Jane. Mrs. Swinford will come to
church.’

‘You take a load off my mind, Emily; but it is many, many years since
you have seen her, and people change a great deal. I sometimes feel even
myself, you know, an inclination to stay in bed on Sunday mornings. It
is a thing to be crushed in the bud. If you give in to a headache once,
there is no telling where it may land you in the end.’

‘But, mamma dear,’ said the sympathetic Emmy, ‘your headaches are so
bad!’

‘Hum!’ said Mrs. Plowden doubtfully. ‘Yes, my headaches are bad
sometimes: but it is a thing that one should set one’s face against. It
ought to be crushed in the bud--on Sundays, I mean; it does not matter
so much on other days. And Mr. Swinford, Emily. I hear that you have
seen him already. Now, I wonder what made him go to see you----’

‘Why shouldn’t he?’ said Lady William, with a laugh.

‘Oh, well, you know! I should have thought a gentleman would have looked
up the Rector, or the Archdeacon, or the General, instead of a lady just
living in a small way by herself, like you.’

‘Mamma, you forget Aunt Emily’s rank,’ Emmy said in dismay.

‘Oh, I never forget her rank!’ cried Mrs. Plowden, with a little
irritation. ‘I hear enough of it, I am sure.’

‘The Rector and the Archdeacon and the General are all very important
persons. The only thing is that Leo Swinford did not know them, and he
knew me.’

‘I have always observed that people in that sort of position know
everybody,’ said Mrs. Plowden, ‘and, my dear Emily, I don’t want to seem
censorious, but do you think it is quite _nice_ to talk of a young man
like that by his Christian name? _I_ don’t even know his Christian name.
It may be Leonard or it may be Lionel, or it may be----’

‘Oh! Leopold, mamma!’

‘I don’t see what you have got to do with it, Emmy. If your aunt knows
him so well as that, _you_ don’t know him--and perhaps never will if he
is that kind of man!’

‘Don’t you think,’ said Lady William, with that perfect composure of
which she was mistress, ‘that we might stop for a moment again and look
at the view----’

‘Oh, if you feel the hill, Emily--it is a little steep--I don’t mind
sitting down for a moment, if you feel you want it. It is very pretty
here,’ said Mrs. Plowden, panting; ‘the water--through the trees--and
the lodge--in the distance--with the wisteria just beginning to shoot.’

The pause made here was a few minutes in duration, for Mrs. Plowden had
heated herself much by her argument and by clambering up the
ascent--which was, indeed, only a very gentle ascent. At last, however,
the party reached the door. As they came up sounds were audible inside,
which disclosed themselves, when the door was hastily opened, as
produced by a game of billiards, played by Mr. Leo Swinford, and--oh!
terrible sight--his butler: though for the first moment Mrs. Plowden’s
eager intelligence had not taken in this fact. She said, politely, that
she was afraid they had driven the gentleman away----

‘Oh!’ said Leo with a laugh, ‘it’s only Morris--let me fulfil his
functions and take you to my mother.’ He offered the Rector’s wife his
arm, but she drew modestly back.

‘My sister-in-law, Mr. Swinford. Oh, I hope I know what is
_comme-il-faut_. I could not go before Lady William.’ Mrs. Plowden had a
flash of exultation in thinking of that word--_comme-il-faut_. It was
something like an inspiration that brought it to her lips in the very
nick of time.

The drawing-room at the Hall was a large room in three divisions,
divided with pillars of sham marble with gilded capitals. It was too
bright, notwithstanding the heaviness of the decorations. Large windows
almost from the roof to the floor poured in floods of afternoon light,
and shone pitiless upon the lady who rose languidly to meet her
visitors, keeping her back to the light. She was a tall woman,
exceedingly worn and thin, but with a great deal of grace in her
movements, though she was old. Her age was the first thing which the
eager rural visitors noted, for it was a sort of age which had never
come under their observation before. She was dressed picturesquely in
dark velvet with such folds and cunning lines as they had never dreamed
of, and which plunged them into anxious questioning whether that might
be the latest fashion. If so, it was unlike anything that Miss Singer
had in her books and papers, or even Madame Mantz, who was Miss Singer’s
great example in town; and her hair, which had not a white thread in it,
was uncovered. No cap on her head! and approaching seventy, Mrs. Plowden
thought, making a rapid calculation upon the facts she knew. Mrs.
Swinford stepped forward a little with a faint cry of ‘Emily’ when Lady
William appeared, and took her, with every appearance of cordiality,
into her arms, and they kissed, or at least Mrs. Swinford touched Lady
William’s cheeks one after the other, while the Plowdens made a
respectful circle round and looked on. ‘This is indeed kind,’ Mrs.
Swinford said. The ladies were so bent upon the aspect of the mistress
of the Hall that they did not observe how pale Lady William was, or how
little part she took in the embrace. ‘And though, of course, she could
not take us into her arms,’ Mrs. Plowden said after, ‘never having set
eyes on us before, she was quite as cordial, and hoped she would see a
great deal of us, and that it was so nice to feel that one was coming
among people who felt like old friends.’ ‘I have heard so much of you
through Emily,’ was what Mrs. Swinford really did say; to which Emily
was so disagreeable as to make no reply. And then they all sat down, and
Mrs. Plowden began to make conversation, as in duty bound.

‘We are so glad to see you in your own house, Mrs. Swinford. The Rector
has always said it was so cold like to feel that there was no one in the
Hall. A squire’s house makes such a difference. The poor people think so
much of it, and the middle people are always looking out for an example;
and of course the higher class, it is yourself--so you being here is, if
I may say so, of the greatest consequence to everybody, and I do hope it
will be agreeable to you.’

‘You are very good,’ said Mrs. Swinford, with a motion of her head. ‘It
never occurred to me that it could be of any importance except to
ourselves.’

‘Oh, I assure you it is of the greatest consequence. What we want in
England is the higher classes to set a good example, to keep back those
horrid democratic ways, and show us how we ought to behave. We are very
loyal to a good example in England, Mrs. Swinford. You have been so long
away, perhaps you may not remember how in a well-ordered parish the
people are taught to look up to those who are above them----’

‘But suppose we do not set a good example?’ said the lady, with a
languid smile. She was looking at Lady William, who sat by, saying
little, and who was in the full flood of the light, which she was quite
able to bear. The elder woman, who was not, bestowed an interested
attention upon the friend whom she had greeted so warmly--not even a
look or movement, nor even a fold of the very plain black dress, which
showed how little means of adornment the other possessed, yet how little
it mattered to her whether she was adorned or not, escaped her. Mrs.
Swinford was very deeply learned in all these arts, in all that tended
to preserve beauty and enhance it. She had been a beauty herself in her
day, and was very reluctant to part with it. She looked at her old
friend with an eager, yet veiled attention, observing all that was in
her favour, and the few things against her. Poorly dressed, but looking
none the worse, the black being in its way a kind of veil even of its
own imperfections: the charm of the face enhanced by sorrow and trouble
and many experiences, the outlines uninjured, the cheek almost as purely
oval as in youth, the eyes as sweet, the hair--it had a touch of gray,
perhaps, but that is no harm to such a woman, a woman not standing upon
her appearance, perhaps not thinking much of it--at least, giving
herself the air of not thinking of it at all. Mrs. Swinford did not
believe that any woman was ever indifferent to her appearance, or not
thinking of it. It did not matter much to herself at the present moment,
when there was no one she cared to affect or charm, no one worth the
lifting of a finger; and yet she was not indifferent to her own aspect,
and why should Lady William be? Lady William? A strange smile crossed
the elder lady’s face as she remembered what was now Emily Plowden’s
name. She said to her in the middle of Mrs. Plowden’s speech, to which
she paid no attention, with a way that women of the world have, ‘How
strange it is to think of you, Emily, by that name!’

The entire company pricked up its ears. Mrs. Plowden stopped short, much
discomfited, in her explanation of what was the Rector’s opinion, in
which Mrs. Swinford had interrupted her with such absolute indifference
as to what she was saying. And Emmy raised her long neck, remembering
always keenly that it was she who was now Emily Plowden; and even young
Mr. Swinford, who had been talking to Lady William, raised his head with
sudden attention, glancing from her to his mother. Lady William herself
 suddenly, and with an unusual air asked, ‘What name?’

‘What but your married name, my dear?’ Mrs. Swinford said, and laughed
low, but very distinctly, with her eyes fixed upon her guest.

‘Ah, yes,’ said Lady William, returning the look, ‘you are more used to
my husband’s name than mine.’

Nobody had the least idea what this passage of arms meant--not even Mr.
Swinford, who kept looking from his mother to Lady William with a
questioning look. As for the other ladies, they stared severely, and did
not attempt to understand. Mrs. Swinford was a little rude, and so was
Lady William. They did not show the fine manners which ought to belong
to fine ladies. On the whole, Mrs. Plowden thought it might have been
better for her to make her first call alone. Mrs. Swinford had talked to
her quite sweetly, she said afterwards, but Emily and she did not seem
to be on such good terms. It is always a mistake, Mrs. Plowden thought,
to depend upon any one else in the way of introduction. The Rector’s
wife in her own parish is the equal of any one. And as for French, in
which Emily was believed to be so superior, French was no more wanted,
she reported to the Rector, ‘than between you and me.’

‘I daresay,’ she said, when this little sensation was over, ‘that you
find our poor Emily much changed. Such a difference for her to come from
the society in which she was, and everybody so superior, to our little
village again: but, of course, all these things are little to the loss
of a dear husband, which is the greatest a woman can have to bear----’

‘You speak most eloquently, Mrs. Plowden,’ said Mrs. Swinford, ‘the very
greatest a woman can be called upon to bear.’

‘It is very kind of you,’ said Lady William, ‘to feel so much for me.’

‘Yes, yes, the very greatest: and she has taken it so well. But
naturally it makes a great difference. My daughter Emmy is considered by
everybody to be extremely like her aunt,’ said Mrs. Plowden, directing
with a look the attention of the party to Emmy, who bridled and drew up
her long neck with that little forward movement which was like a peck,
but did not at all mean anything of the kind.

Mrs. Swinford gave poor Emmy a look--one of those full, undisguised
looks which again women of the world alone permit themselves; but she
made no remark--which was very eloquent, more so than many remarks. She
said, after a time, with the air of a person who has been puzzling her
brains to keep up a conversation:

‘You have other daughters?’ adding to her question a smile of great
sweetness, as if there was nothing in the world she was more interested
in.

‘One,’ said Mrs. Plowden, much gratified, ‘Florence, named after another
aunt, and more like my side of the house. And I have a son, who we hoped
would have gone into the Church; but he is like so many young men of the
present day, he has religious difficulties. And the Rector thinks it is
not right to force his inclinations, especially into a sacred
profession. I have great confidence in my husband’s judgment, but I
don’t quite agree with him on this point; for I think if you only use a
little pressure upon them when they are young, they are often most truly
grateful to you afterwards, when they begin to understand the claims of
life. I wonder,’ said Mrs. Plowden, with a glance at Leo, who was once
more leaning over Lady William’s chair, ‘whether you agree with me? I
should like to have the support of your opinion, for you must have
experience in dealing with the young.’

Mrs. Swinford had delicately intimated her entire indifference to the
homily of the clergyman’s wife for some time past, but she was recalled
by this appeal, which amused her.

‘Yes,’ she said, ‘I have a son; but I do not think I have attempted to
force his inclinations,’ she added, after a pause.

‘Ah, then you would agree with James! I am sorry, for it would have been
a great support to me; but we must all judge for ourselves in these
matters--and in such a question as entering a sacred profession----’

‘Leo,’ said Mrs. Swinford, ‘we are forgetting: our habits are not yet
quite English. Offer Lady William some tea.’

‘Oh,’ said Mrs. Plowden, with a start, ‘let me pour it out! Or Emily
will do so, I am sure, with pleasure, if you will permit. It is so
awkward for a gentleman----’

‘Pray do not trouble yourself. Leo can manage it very well, or he can
ring for some one if he wants help. And you, Emily, have a daughter,
too?’

‘Yes, I have a daughter.’

‘Quite young? She can scarcely be grown up. I do not remember many
dates, but there are two or three---- Eighteen perhaps, or a little
less, or more?’

‘She will not be eighteen for some months.’

‘And pretty? Like you? Do you see anything of the family? Do they take
any notice of the child?’

‘To tell the truth,’ said Lady William, ‘my child and I have been very
happy in our cottage, and we have not thought much of any family--save
our own very small family of two.’

She had flushed with suppressed anger, but with an evident desire to
keep her feelings concealed, answered the questions very deliberately
and in a tone of studied calm.

‘Ah, I recognise you in that! always proud: but not prudent. One must
not despise a family, especially when it has a fine title. You ought to
consider, my dear Emily, how important it may be for the child; your
excellent sister-in-law,’ said Mrs. Swinford, turning with her wonted
smile to Mrs. Plowden, ‘thoroughly recognises that.’

Mrs. Plowden, thus unexpectedly referred to, was taken in an undignified
moment, when she had just begun to sip her first mouthful of very hot
tea. She had felt that a second interruption in the very midst of what
she had been saying was too much to be forgiven; but on being appealed
to in this marked manner she changed her mind, and perceived that it was
only Mrs. Swinford’s way. She swallowed the hot tea hastily, to her
great discomfort, in her haste to respond.

‘Indeed I do,’ she said fervently, coughing a little. ‘Indeed I do---- I
tell Emily often I would put my pride in my pocket, and insist on having
Mab invited to make acquaintance with her father’s family. And she’s
such a Pakenham, more like the Marquis than any daughter he has.’

‘Oh, she’s such a Pakenham!’ said Mrs. Swinford, with a faint laugh.

‘I think, Jane,’ said Lady William, ‘that you are forgetting we walked
here, and that it is time we were going back.’

‘Oh, please, let these dear ladies finish their tea. Leo, Miss Plowden
will take some cake. I am more interested than I can tell to hear that
your child does not take after you, but is like the Pakenhams.’ The
laugh was very soft, quite low, most ladylike, and, indeed, what is
called poetically, silver in tone. ‘What an ill-advised little mortal!’
she said.




V


‘Well,’ said Florence to Mab, ‘we two are left alone. We’re the young
ones, we have to keep out of the way. But I am sure the Swinfords would
rather have seen you and me than Emmy. We are the youngest and we are
the most amusing.’

‘Oh, please speak for yourself,’ said Mab, ‘I am not amusing at all.’

Florence looked at her with an air of consideration. ‘Well, perhaps that
is true,’ she said; ‘you have a turn-up nose, and you ought to be
lively, but appearances are very deceiving. I wonder what that army of
observation will do to-day? I call them our army of observation because
they have gone to spy out the land, and decide upon what are the proper
lines of strategy. It’s quite new to us in Watcham to have a squire’s
family: and then it is not even a common squire’s family. They are such
superior people, and their ways are so unlike ours. Shouldn’t you say it
would be a nice thing in Watcham to have people whose ways are not as
our ways?’

‘Oh, I don’t know,’ said Mab, with the indifference of extreme youth,
‘we are well enough as we are.’

‘It is easy for you to speak, with only Aunt Emily to think of, and your
own way--and seventeen,’ said Florry, with a sigh. ‘I would give
something to be seventeen again.’

‘Why?’ said Mab. ‘It is the most ridiculous age--too old to be a child,
too young to be anything else. One cares no more for dolls and that sort
of thing, and one doesn’t care either for what the old people talk
about. How they go on and on and talk! as if anybody minded.’

‘You shouldn’t listen,’ said Florry.

‘Sometimes one can’t help it. Sometimes there’s a bit of story in it,
and then it’s nice--only in that case they say, ‘You remember so-and-so:
what a tragedy that was!’ and then the other wags his or her head, and
they shut up, not reflecting that you’re dying to know.’

‘There’s something of that sort about Mrs. Swinford,’ said Florence;
‘there was quite a talk about calling before mamma made up her mind.
Mrs. FitzStephen came in about a week or two ago, and she said, “I have
come to know what you’re going to do?” And mamma said, without even
asking what she meant, “I am very much perplexed, and I don’t know in
the least.” And then papa, standing in front of the fire, with his
coat-tails on his arms, you know, grumbles out--“You had better let it
alone.” “Let what alone?” mamma called out quickly, and he just stared
and said nothing. At this mamma said, “They are sure to entertain a
great deal; they are people that can’t live without company.” And Mrs.
FitzStephen, she said, “Oh, I don’t care for such company.” And then
mamma replied, with her grand Roman matron air, “You have no young
people to think of, Mrs. FitzStephen.”’

Florence was a tolerable mimic, and she ‘did’ those characters, with
whom Mab was intimately acquainted, in an exceedingly broad style, and
with considerable effect.

‘Florry, you oughtn’t to take off your own father and mother.’

‘Who then?’ cried Florry. ‘I must take such as I have; I don’t know such
lots of people. Wait till the Swinfords come on the scene and I’ll do
them.’

‘Ah, he’s not so easy to do. The others you’ve known all your life, and
they are all the same kind of people: but you never saw any one
like--_that_ gentleman. The General would give you no clue to him, nor
anybody you know here. He is like nobody you ever saw; he is--I don’t
know what to say.’

‘You are always thinking of that fur coat of his and patent leather
shoes. I wonder if they will see him to-day? They had much better have
taken you and me, Mab. Emmy may be the eldest, but she will never make
any impression. A man like that will never look twice at her.’

‘Why should he?’ said Mab, raising her eyebrows, ‘or what does it matter
whether he does or not?’

‘Oh, Mab, you silly little thing,’ said Florence, ‘you must know,
however silly you may be, that it matters a great deal. Think only what
it would matter! To have a girl settled like that--rich, able to do what
she pleased, one’s sister; only think; or still more if it was one’s
self. We’ve got twenty pounds a year each for our clothes, fancy! And
Mrs. Swinford will have hundreds--she will have just as much as she
likes, and whatever she likes, and a grand house where she could ask
the Queen herself: and power--power to get Jim settled somehow, to make
him sure of his living: perhaps to get something better for papa, and
save mamma some of the anxiety she has. And if anything happened to
_them_, why, there would be a home for--for--the other one, don’t you
see? Oh!’ said Florence, with a deep-drawn breath that seemed to come
from the very depth of her being, ‘it would matter so much that it is
wicked, it is dreadful, to think that a man could make such a change in
another creature’s life only by looking at her and throwing his
handkerchief. It’s immoral to dangle a chance like that under a poor
girl’s very nose.’

Mab was not unimpressed with this terrible truth. She felt also that to
contemplate the differences that might ensue if one of the daughters of
the Rectory became Mrs. Swinford of the Hall was more than words could
say. The very possibility caught at her breath. She made a momentary
pause of awe, and then she said, ‘But he never will, he never will!’

‘Emmy, no,’ said Florence; ‘no--she’s too--she’s not enough--oh! she’s
impossible, and I can see that very well for myself. Emmy is--she’s
one’s sister, and she is as nice as ever was. You know she is a nice
girl! But she was never made for that; whereas if they had taken you and
me----’

‘Don’t say me, please,’ said Mab, reddening all over that blunt-featured
and irregular little face, which was unfortunately so like the
Pakenhams. The flush was quite hot, and discomposed her. ‘I’m
impossible, too--much more impossible,’ she said.

‘Oh! you stand upon your family,’ said Florence, ‘and upon your mother’s
position, and all that; but you may take my word for it, that if you
were the Marquis’s own daughter instead of a disrep---- I mean instead
of his brother’s, you would have to do the very same thing. If it is
because you’re not pretty, that’s true enough; but there’s never any
telling what may take a man like that, and you’ve got plenty of “go” in
you, Mab, though I don’t want to flatter you: and even in looks a year
or two may make a great difference----’

‘Will you stop! will you stop, please!’ said Mab; ‘Florry, stop! You
make me ashamed. You make me feel as if----’

‘You were going in for it, too?’ said Florence calmly. ‘It makes me
crazy, too, sometimes to think that---- But so long as girls are poor,
and a man, just because they please him, can change everything for
them--how can we help it? Even if you were to work, as people say, what
difference would it make? I could perhaps make my living--and Emmy----
But dear, dear, to think of the Hall beside any little breadwinning of
ours----’

‘Don’t talk so, _please_,’ cried Mab, with a shiver. She was not a
visionary at all, nor had she any sentiment to speak of. But she was
very young, still something between a girl and a boy, and ashamed to
hear those revelations which she only half understood; or, rather, did
not understand at all.

‘Well, one needn’t talk,’ said Florry, with a slight emphasis on the
word. ‘But though you mayn’t talk of it, you can’t stop a thing from
being true.’

‘Let’s go out for a walk,’ said Mab, ‘a long walk, down by the Baron’s
Wood and up by Durham Hill; or let’s go out on the river for a pull. Let
us do something--one can’t stay quiet all this bright afternoon.’

‘I want so much to see them when they come back,’ said Florry. ‘I want
to know what they think of him--if they saw him: and whether Emmy made
any impression, and what happened.’

‘What could happen? Do you expect her to come home engaged to him?’ said
Mab. ‘However well things may go, they could not go so quickly as that.’

‘I am not a fool,’ said Florry, with indignation. She stood at the
little gate looking out wistfully along the road by which the ladies had
gone. The great trees hung over the wall which bounded there the nearest
corner of the demesne of the Swinfords; the lodge and gate were just
round the corner out of sight. It was too soon to expect them to come
back. ‘Unless Mrs. Swinford had been out,’ said Florry. ‘She might be
out, you know, and then they’d be back directly.’

‘She never goes out,’ said Mab; ‘it’s too cold for her here.’

‘Or she might not receive them very well, and then they would only stay
a few minutes. You are so indifferent, you don’t care a bit what has
happened: and I am on pins and needles till I know.’

‘Then I shall go for a walk by myself.’

‘Don’t do that,’ said Florry, putting out her hand to stay her cousin.
She stood thus for a moment with her head turned towards the Hall, but
her hand clutching Mab, gazing in one direction while her person
inclined towards the other. She drew a long breath, and turned at last
from her fixed gaze. ‘They must,’ she said, sighing again, ‘have stayed
to tea. Yes, I’ll go on the river if you like; but let us go round home
on the way and fetch Jim.’

‘Jim!’ said Mab. ‘He’ll want to scull, and I prefer to scull myself.’

‘Oh, he doesn’t mind. He is as lazy as---- He’ll steer and let us pull
as long as ever you please. I don’t know anybody so lazy as Jim.’

‘We should be better by ourselves,’ said Mab; ‘not that heavy weight in
the stern of the boat. When we go by ourselves it’s no weight at all.’

‘He’ll steer,’ said Florry; ‘it’s better to have some one to steer. And
don’t you see it will keep him out of mischief for one afternoon.’

‘You have always another reason behind,’ said Mab. ‘It never is just the
thing you think of, but something at the back of it.’

‘Well,’ said Florry soothingly, ‘it’s always so, don’t you know, where
there’s a family. You are so lonely, you have no brothers and sisters.
If you do well, then everything is all right. But our being right
depends upon so many things: First, if papa is in good humour, and if
Jim is going straight. Emmy and I have little questions between
ourselves, of course, but these are the chief ones. Now, you have only
Aunt Emily to think of, and she neither gets into rages nor goes wrong.’

‘I should hope not,’ said Mab, indignantly.

‘It is all very well for you to throw up your head like that; but we
cannot do it. We must manage the best we can. Mab, I do often wish there
could be a change.’

This was said when she had at last torn herself away from the road to
the Hall, and the two girls were walking towards the Rectory and the
river.

‘What sort of change?’

‘Oh! anything. That Jim should go away, or that he should do something
dreadful that couldn’t be forgiven--or that Emmy should marry. I would
even marry myself--any one! to make a change in the family and get
away.’

‘I should think, however bad things may be, that they would be worse if
you were all separated and not knowing what happened to each other. And
what is there so very bad? You are all happy enough for anything one can
see.’

‘That is the worst of it,’ said Florry, ‘we are all pretending about
everything. It’s just one big lie all round--and it isn’t right to tell
lies, or at least the Bible says so. There is papa breaks every one of
the commandments, you know.’

‘Florry, don’t tell stories of Uncle James; I am very fond of him, and I
won’t have it.’

‘It’s true all the same. I don’t say it’s his fault, it’s Jim’s fault.
Papa swears--he does, he can’t help it, at Jim, and then pretends it’s
something else--the gardener, or the overseer, or the poor people, or
even poor Dash--that makes him so angry. Isn’t that lying? Then mamma
pretends Jim has doubts and won’t go in for the Church because of them,
when she knows very well what it is really he has been sent down for.
And Jim pretends that he is going back to Cambridge next term, and that
he is quite friendly with all the dons, and came down to read--I’ve
heard him say that.’

‘It may not be true,’ said Mab, doubtfully, ‘but I shouldn’t call that
lying--why should we all go and tell that poor Jim has not been good?
What have the other people to do with it? Mother says we’re not called
upon to give them any information--and she just says the same as you do:
but that is not to lie.’

‘We are all pretending, every one,’ said Florry. ‘Emmy and I are by way
of knowing nothing at all. I believe Jim thinks we don’t know anything.
So we have to pretend not only to other people, but to him in our very
own house, and papa too. I have heard papa say, “Thank Heaven, the girls
at least know nothing,” and mamma, the dreadful, dreadful liar that she
is, thanks Heaven too, though she knows very well that we knew as soon
as she did, and that she couldn’t keep anything from us two. If you
think of that, Mab, and just imagine how we go on pretending to each
other, and to everybody.

‘Now, if Jim were to go off to a ranche, as people advise, we should all
be very wretched, and probably it would be his ruin, but it would be a
little relief all the same. Or if Emmy were to get hold of this man--oh,
it may be odious, and you may cry out, but it would be a great relief.
There would be her wedding to think about, and her things, and
altogether it would be a change for everybody; and then she could do
something for Jim.’

‘Her husband could, you mean?’

‘It is the same thing: he would, for his own sake, not to have an idle
brother always about. It is killing all of us. One could bear it,
perhaps; but four all bearing it--all pretending something different, as
I tell you; Emmy and I not to know; mamma and papa that it’s another
thing altogether that vexes them. Oh! we get exasperated sometimes to
that degree, we could tear each other to pieces just to make a change.’

‘You are so exaggerated, Florry; mother always says so. You make a
mountain out of a molehill.’

‘I just wish Aunt Emily had our molehill for a little while--just for a
little while--to see how she liked it. What a lucky woman she is to have
only a girl! Nothing very bad can ever happen to you, Mab, or come to
her through you. You may be dull, perhaps, just two women, one opposite
to the other----’

‘Dull! mother and I? Never. We don’t know what it is to be dull!’

‘Ah, that’s very well just now,’ said Florence, ‘you’re only seventeen;
but wait a bit till you are older, especially if you don’t marry, and
year goes on after year, and nothing ever happens. See whether you are
not dull then. I don’t know which is worst,’ she added thoughtfully, ‘to
have men in the family that make you miserable, or to have no men at all
about to make any variety, but just women together, who never do any
harm, but kill you with dulness. I really don’t know which is the
worst.’

Mab was a little overwhelmed by this point of view. She was at the same
time still indignant and resentful of the unexpected accusation. ‘When
we begin to be dull,’ she said, ‘I’ll let you know--but I don’t see any
reason for being so miserable. Poor Jim has never done anything so very
bad. Sometimes he is silly----’

‘There you are quite wrong,’ said Florence, with great decision--‘he is
not silly: I wish he were, then one might think he didn’t know any
better; but even papa allows he is very clever. It is not from want of
brains or sense either, if he would only be as good as he knows how----
’

‘Oh, if that is your opinion! Mother thinks he is only weak, and does
what people ask him.’

‘Aunt Emily is just as far out of it as you are. Does he ever do
anything that _we_ ask him? There is papa at him for ever--is he any the
better for it? Weak! that is what people say, thinking it’s a kind of an
excuse. I call it strong--to resist everything you ought to attend to,
and take up everything you ought not. How can that be weak?’

‘I am sure I don’t know,’ said Mab; ‘I don’t understand about boys. Jim
is the only one I ever knew intimately. But mother thinks if some one
were to get hold of him in the right sort of way----’

‘What is the right sort of way? I suppose Aunt Emily thinks papa doesn’t
know--nor any of us who have it to do; that is just the way with people.
You are always thinking of a thing, thinking, and puzzling, and
troubling: and then somebody comes in who has never spent ten minutes on
it altogether, and says you are not taking the right way! Perhaps we
are not; but who are they to pretend to know better? and since they are
so wise, why don’t they tell us which is the right way?’

‘I am sure,’ cried Mab, ‘I never meant to make you angry, and mother is
not one to interfere. She only said it to me. But since you’re so full
of this, Florry, I think I had better go, and not trouble you any more,
for I only wanted some fun, and you are thinking of nothing but trouble.
I’ll run down to the water, and jump into a boat and have a little spin
by myself.’

‘Oh, Mab, don’t,’ cried Florence, clutching her once more. ‘Here we are
at our gate, just come in and ask him. He will come far more readily for
you than for me.’

But it was with an ill grace that Mab followed her cousin through the
Rectory kitchen garden, between the borders which veiled the lines of
potatoes and cabbages. It might be flattering to suppose her capable of
it, but she had not any desire to fill the place of missionary and
guiding influence to her cousin Jim.




VI


The Rectory was a red house standing in a garden, which its inhabitants,
one and all, energetically declared not to be damp; from which the
stranger might gather that they were not so certain on the subject as it
would be well to be. Its doors were quite level with the ground, so that
you walked in, without the interval even of a step to raise you above
the drippings of the rain: and as the drawing-room windows also opened
down to the ground, it was rather a trying business in wet weather, and
kept both the housemaid and the family much on the alert. The two girls
went in through the open window, for the afternoon was quite bright and
fair, and no fear of rain: but they found nobody in the drawing-room,
which was low and rather dark, notwithstanding those two good-sized
French windows, which somehow seemed to keep the light within
themselves, and did not distribute it to the further side of the
drab- wall; this, unornamented with pictures or any variety,
afforded a dingy background for the somewhat dingy couches and
easy-chairs, which were covered with brownish chintz, intended to keep
clean, or in franker language, ‘not to show the dirt’ for as long a
period as possible. Chintzes and wall papers, and even dresses, which
were calculated not to show the dirt, were very popular at the time Mrs.
Plowden married, as means of economy, and her daughters had been brought
up in that tenet of faith. Accordingly everything in the room was more
or less of this dingy drab complexion, which was not exhilarating to the
spirits. There were signs that the room had been recently occupied by
the untidiness of the loose cover of one of the sofas, which bore
evident signs that some one had been lying there, and had jumped up
hastily, and apparently fled, since the old novel he or she had been
reading lay open on its face on the floor, and the antimacassars with
which the sofa had been adorned were huddled up in limp bundles, and lay
here and there where restless shoulders or limbs had left them.
Florence gave her cousin a look as she picked up the book and spread out
the forlorn adornments on the arm and back of the sofa. ‘They were put
on quite fresh two days ago, and look at them!’ said poor Florry; they
were chiefly in crochet, and the work of her own hands.

‘He has been here,’ she said, ‘and papa has called him to see if he was
at work. Papa might just as well let it alone, for he is never at work;
but that is what they will not learn,’ said Florence, impatient of the
blindness of her parents. ‘We,’ she added, ‘have to put the room tidy
after him a dozen times a day; but I prefer him to be in the
drawing-room, for at least he can’t smoke here----’

‘If he is out,’ said Mab, ‘let us go, Florry: we have lost half the
afternoon already.’

‘I don’t believe he is out--he is being “jawed,” as he calls it, in
papa’s study: don’t you hear them? Papa is at it hot! and what good will
it do? He will only say the same thing over and over--I could say it all
myself off by heart, everything papa says--and, of course, so could Jim,
and what good can that do? Come and stop it, Mab. Jim will be so
thankful to you: and poor papa won’t be sorry either,’ Florence said,
with a more sympathetic perception, ‘for he knows it’s useless; but when
he once begins he can’t stop himself.’

‘Oh,’ said Mab, ‘I can’t go and disturb Uncle James.’

‘When he’ll be so thankful to be disturbed!’ said Florry, ‘and you much
better than me, for you will have the air of not knowing what it all
means. No; don’t go to the study door. Go round by the garden, to the
window where he can see you coming. Walk slowly, and make a little noise
to attract their attention, so that you may not take them unawares. You
might ring, or whistle, or something--or call to Dash--and then papa
would see you, and have time to make up a face.’

These domestic diplomacies were unknown to Mab, but she took to them
with the natural instinct of femininity. There was a certain element of
fun, too, in stopping what she still called ‘a scolding,’ and in getting
the culprit off--even though the culprit did not commend himself very
warmly to her partiality. She carried out the programme accordingly,
while Florence waited just out of sight of the study window. It was not
a French window like those in the drawing-room, and it looked out upon
the dullest portion of the surroundings--a bit of grass where the water
lay treacherous during the long winter months in the slight concave of
the ground, with shrubs cruelly green and unchanging around it, and a
dead wall which they only partially veiled behind. Mab began to call
Dash loudly as she walked round the corner to this sanctuary, scattering
the gravel with her feet.

The scene that might have been seen inside the Rector’s window at that
moment was this: a tall youth seated on a chair presenting nothing more
responsive than the crown of his head, supported on his hands, to his
father’s remarks, and saying never a word; while the Rector, who had
risen from his own seat at his writing-table in his impatience, stood
pouring out the vials of his wrath. He was putting before Jim all the
enormities of which he had been guilty--his debts, the expense he had
been to his parents, the disappointment, the disgrace. When, however,
Mr. Plowden held up his hands to heaven and earth in grief and
disappointment that it should be ‘_my_ son’ who had been sent down by
his college, it is to be feared that Jim was making angry comments in
his mind to the effect that all his father cared for was that--‘not me,
or anything about me.’ He knew the circumstances very well--far better
than his father could tell him; and was it likely his conscience would
be more tender for being dragged over the same ground again and again?
When the Rector cried, ‘What is the use of talking to an impenitent cub
like you?’ his son felt deeply inclined to reply, ‘There is none.’ He
had, indeed, been wound up to the pitch of saying, ‘Why do you go on
like that when you’re so sure it will make no difference?’--a profoundly
sensible utterance, but one, perhaps, which it does still less good to
say.

When ‘Dash, Dash! come here, old fellow--get ready to come out for a
walk,’ sounded into the study, that home of anything but retired
leisure, the Rector came to a sudden stop. ‘There’s some confounded
visitor or other,’ he said in vexation, but not without relief.

‘It isn’t a visitor, it’s Mab.’

‘Don’t contradict me, sir! Who is she but a visitor, a silly girl
breaking in where your mother herself---- Don’t think I’ve done with you
because I’m interrupted. Don’t let me see you stir from your book till
dinner. Try whether you can’t do something like your simple duty, for
once in a way, just for the variety of the thing! Eh!--yes, my dear, you
can come in if you really want to, if you have anything to say to me,
but you know I’m always busy.’

‘Open the window, please, uncle,’ said Mab. ‘Is Jim there? We want him
to come out with us, out on the river. The weeds are coming up already
in the backwater, and we don’t want to risk going over the weir. It
would be a wetting, and it might be a drowning, don’t you know: and we
want Jim.’

The weeds and the weir were the invention of the moment, and Mab felt
rather proud of her skill; for of course the most obstinate of
backwaters is not choked with weeds in March, and the girls, who were
used to the river, were not so foolish at that season as to approach the
weir. The Rector looked out upon his niece, of whom he was proud, with a
look of helplessness; for even from his sister he had kept the secret
(knowing nothing of Florry’s indiscretions) of the sad state of affairs
with Jim.

‘My dear,’ he said, ‘it is quite true that Jim is here: but he’s busy,
almost as busy as I am, reading up, don’t you know, for his examination.
You really must not tempt him to-day. I am sure you know the river so
well, you will take care not to go near the weir.’

‘But, Uncle James, it is getting near four o’clock, we shan’t be more
than an hour. Don’t you think he will get on much better with his work
when he comes back?’

Jim had gradually expanded himself while this conversation was going on;
his father’s back being turned he actually, not metaphorically, kicked
up his heels a little in secret demonstration of his joy. Then he rose,
and appeared exceedingly composed and respectful behind his father, who
was leaning out of the open window. ‘Since it is a question of the
girls’ comfort, sir,’ said Jim, ‘an hour won’t make very much
difference. I can get up that Sophocles just as well after dinner as
now.’

‘I don’t put much faith in you after dinner,’ said the Rector, without
turning his head.

‘Oh, but why shouldn’t you, uncle?’ said Mab, ‘I’ll answer for him! Of
course he’ll work! Why there’s nothing to do after dinner. Uncle says
you may come, Jim.’

‘I don’t say anything of the kind,’ said Mr. Plowden. But his eyes went
from Mab outside to Jim within. They were both of them so young, and
surely if there could be anything innocent in this world it would be an
hour on the river with your sister and your cousin, both interested in
keeping a boy straight. What was Sophocles after all (in which Jim took
so little interest) in comparison with a more healthy rule of habit and
purified nature? If only he would but be good, what would it matter
about Sophocles? The Rector sighed with perplexity and impatience. It
was all very well to attempt to keep Jim back, to say he was busy. Would
all that keep him at his book a moment longer than his father’s eye was
on him? And if Jim escaped and stole out by himself, how could it be
known whether his companions would be as innocent as Mab and Florry? Was
it not even a good point in the boy, showing at bottom some traces of
early innocence, that it was with Florry and Mab that he wished to go?
Mr. Plowden turned in from the window and looked at his boy. He was the
only boy of the house, and no doubt he had been petted and spoiled, and
taught to think that everything was to give way to him. The Rector
looked at him with that longing of disappointed love, the father’s
dreadful sense of impotence, the intolerable feeling that a touch given
somewhere somehow, at the right moment, might bring all right if he only
could tell when and how to give it. What did it matter that all his
plans and arrangements should be put out the moment he had made them, if
the right effect could be produced anyhow? Perhaps this little girl,
with her childish innocent mind--who could tell? And at least how
innocent it all was, the boy and the two girls! They would bring no harm
to him, and perhaps--who could tell?

‘You will come home straight, Jim, and get to work again as soon as you
return?’

‘Of course, sir,’ said Jim, opening large eyes, as if he had never
departed from his word in his life. ‘Of course, when I say it I will do
it. If you would but learn that it is the best thing to trust a fellow,’
he said, looking at the Rector with a grieved disappointment which quite
outdid Mr. Plowden’s sentiments of the same kind. The poor Rector could
not restrain a laugh as the young man hurried out of the room, leaving
Sophocles just ready to topple over, on the very edge of the table; but
it was not a cheerful laugh: though, perhaps, there was the chance that
little Mab, if she had only been a little prettier---- Prettiness,
however, as he knew, is not the only thing that matters in things of
this kind.

‘You little brick!’ cried Jim, as they hurried along. ‘I owe you one for
that. What put it into your little head to come and get me off to-day?
for I was at the end of my patience, and could not think of any excuse
to get away.’

‘What should you have done, Jim, if I had not come? read your Greek?’

‘Not if I know it,’ said Jim. ‘I should just have cut and run, excuse or
no excuse. A fellow can’t be shut up all the afternoon, and the sun
shining. It’s cruelty to animals. The old Pater has forgotten that he
was ever young.’

‘But you will keep your promise, Jim, and go back and learn up your
Greek?’

‘Oh, we’ll see about that. Let’s get our pull first. Oh, there’s Flo! I
thought you and I were going alone.’

‘It was Florry who wanted you to come,’ said Mab, with the frankness of
extreme youth, ‘not me. I like to do the pulling myself.’

‘You shall if you like,’ he said. ‘I’m not fond of trouble. And it’s not
much fun you know, after all, to go out with your sister and your
cousin. It’s too much bread and butter. If I’d known that Flo was in it
I shouldn’t have come.’

‘You can go back if you please--to your Greek.’

‘Oh, catch me,’ said the young man.

‘But you will when we come back, Jim?’

‘Perhaps I shall; not if you bully me. So I warn you. I should do my
work all right and make up lost time if I wasn’t bullied for ever and
ever. Every one is at me. You heard what papa said. He ought to know how
a man feels and shut up. But it’s being so much among women, I suppose,
makes a clergyman like that. If he wasn’t a clergyman he wouldn’t nag,
he’d leave that to the women, and then I should feel that there was some
one who understood. But how do you suppose a fellow is to do anything
when from morning to night he hears nothing but “Are you going to your
work, Jim? When do you begin your work? How are you getting on with your
work?” and so forth. If I don’t pass it will be the family’s fault, it
will not be mine. Mab, do you row stroke or bow?’

Mab jumped into the boat and took her place, without otherwise answering
his question; but when they had floated out amid the reflections of the
still river, she found that little tongue, which was not always under
proper control.

‘I like pulling,’ she said, ‘very much. I’d rather a great deal have an
oar myself than sit still and let other people row me; and I like to
bring mother out or--Aunt Jane.’ She was about to say _even_ Aunt Jane,
but happily remembered that Aunt Jane was the mother of both her
companions. ‘But,’ said Mab, with a long, slow stroke, to which
Florence, very anxious to hear what was passing, kept time very badly,
‘one thing I do hate is to pull an idle man.’

‘By Jove!’ burst from the lips of Jim. He had been listening very calmly
up to the last two or three words, amused to hear little Mab’s statement
of what she liked and didn’t like, but quite sure that she could say
nothing that was derogatory to himself. ‘I say, you little cat, why did
you ask me to come out if you meant next moment to give me a scratch
like this?’

‘I told you it was Florry who wanted you and not me.’

‘You might be civil at least,’ said Jim, who had actually reddened under
this assault. ‘What did you come and butter up my father for, to let me
go?’

‘That was different,’ said Mab. ‘When it is against the old people, of
course you are my own side; and then it was fun carrying you off as if
you were something one had captured; and you looked so silly with uncle
holding forth.’ She broke into a laugh, while Jim grew redder and
redder. ‘But one thing I will never hold with,’ said Mab, ‘is that
girls, who are not nearly so strong, should take and row a big heavy
man.’

‘Not so heavy,’ cried Florence, pushing her head forward, neglecting her
stroke entirely, and putting the boat out of trim. ‘Oh, Mab, why should
you reproach him too? He’s no heavier than I am.’

‘Shut up, Flo,’ cried Jim indignantly, ‘I’m close upon eleven stone, and
that’s the least a man should be of my size.’

‘Well,’ said Mab (‘I’ll pull you round, Florry, if you don’t mind)--that
is what I say; girls may do for themselves as much as they please, but
to drag about a great heavy man, whether it is pulling in a boat or
driving in a dog-cart, or whatever it is, is what I don’t like. It is
not what ought to be.’

‘You are so old-fashioned, Mab,’ said Florence anxiously from behind.
‘You and Aunt Emily, you have the old antiquated ways of thinking about
women, that men should take care of them, and work for them, and all
that, when perhaps it is the women that are most able to work, and take
care of others too.’

‘I have no antiquated ways,’ said Mab. ‘I have no ways at all. I don’t
think about women any more than about--other people. Mother and I have
not got many men to take care of us, have we? But I say, it isn’t our
place to pull a heavy man. He should do that for us. I prefer to pull
myself. Do, do, Florry, keep time! And I don’t want your help, Jim. I am
not talking of to-day; I am talking of things in general. It isn’t nice;
it doesn’t look well; it’s not the right thing. I don’t want to have any
man working for me; I’d much rather do it for myself. But he is the
biggest and the strongest, and we oughtn’t to be doing things for him.
That’s my opinion, without any reference to to-day.’

‘You are not very civil,’ said Jim. ‘Why didn’t you leave me at my
Greek, Miss Mab? I might have done a lot, and been free after dinner.
Now, instead of father’s jawing, which I’m used to, I have yours, which
I’m not used to, and a slave in the evening as well. Hold hard a moment,
till I shake off my coat and my boots, and I’ll swim ashore.’

‘Oh, Jim! it will be your death,’ said the frightened Florence, starting
from her seat, and once more putting the boat dreadfully out of trim.

‘Be quiet, sit down!’ cried Mab, ‘or we shall have an accident. Do you
hear? Jim is not going to do anything so silly. I was not speaking of
him; I was only making a general remark. You can sit there and welcome
so long as you steer against me, Jim: for I am pulling the boat round,
can’t you see, and Florry is not the least good.’

‘Girls never are,’ said Jim; ‘the least little thing puts them out.’

‘You see, Florry:’ said Mab, ‘it was on his account you were exciting
yourself and behaving like one of the cockneys on Bank Holiday, and he
doesn’t mind. Let him alone. How far can we go to get back in daylight,
Jim?’

Florence once more put in her word. ‘We can go as far as the island,’
she said.

‘Coming back to-morrow morning?’ said Jim. ‘How should she know? Going
up you can go as far as the lock, and going down you can go as far as
the lock, but not a step more.’

‘That’s like an oracle,’ said Mab.

‘Well, so I am. If I don’t know anything else, I know the river. I know
it every step up to Oxford and down to London. I’m as good as the Thames
Conservancy man. They’d better put me on if they want to look after all
the backwaters and keep the riparians in order. That’s what I could do.
I may not be a dab at Sophocles, but there isn’t a man knows the river
better. You ask any man that knows me, either at Oxford or here.’

‘Then why does not Uncle James try to get you an appointment on the
river? It would be better than going out to the colonies.’

‘Oh, they don’t think so here. In the colonies nobody knows you. You may
go about in a flannel shirt and knickerbockers, and a revolver in your
belt; but if you stay at home they want some work for you that you can
do in a black coat and top hat.’

‘Couldn’t you take care of the riparians and the backwaters in a top
hat, if you liked?’

‘Oh, they like a naval man,’ said Jim; ‘their uniform gives them a
little dignity, don’t you know, whereas I’m nobody.’

‘But it is the same in everything. You can’t be somebody all at once.
You must begin low down,’ said Mab, bending her little person over her
oar with that slow, steady stroke which confused Florence. Florry was
choppy and irregular--one time slow, the next fast; never able to hit
the time which Mab gave her with such steady composure. ‘The way to do,’
said Mab, ‘is to put everything else out of your head, as long as you
are able to, and think of nothing but that. You should never mind what
you like, or what you want, but just set your thoughts on what you are
doing. Look at Florry; she wants to hear what we’re saying, and she
wants to defend you, Jim, that I mayn’t say anything unpleasant; and the
consequence is that if you were not steering against me with all your
might, I should pull the boat round and round.’

‘Florry is only a girl, and a bad specimen,’ said Jim. ‘You should have
let me pull, and then you’d have seen something like pulling.’

‘I am only a girl myself,’ said Mab.

‘But, then, you’re a good specimen,’ said the young man, with a laugh.
‘You keep your eyes in the boat.’

‘Which is what you don’t do, Jim!’

‘How do you know, you little thing, lecturing people older than
yourself? I may not with Sophocles--but I do with other things.’

‘Which other things?’ said Mab.

But Jim made no reply; and here Florry interposed again with strokes
shorter and more irregular than ever, to talk over her cousin’s
shoulder, and ask, though they were not half-way to the island, or even
to the lock for that matter, whether it would be better to turn back and
go home. They lay for a moment in midstream. Mab pausing on her steady
oar to remonstrate, making a picture in the water, the boat floating as
a bird floats in mid air, between the sky and the river, which reflected
every line of cloud and stretch of blue. Some cows at the water’s edge
stood double, feeding, on the very brink, and the trees still bare, but
all downy with life, pushing out a greenness here and there, seemed to
stretch out of the water in reflection to meet the others on the bank.
Watcham lay glorified, one white house above the rest lighting up all
the river with its white shadow in the stream. The boat lay like a thing
enchanted with the three figures shining in afternoon light, above and
below.




VII


Jim strolled down into the village when the boat came to shore. It was
before the hour at which he had concluded he would go home, which, as
was natural, was considerably later than the hour proposed by Mab. What
was the good, he said to himself, of going in before dinner, or at least
before the time which was necessary to get ready for dinner? In that
hour, as everybody knows, very little can be done. Mrs. Plowden and the
girls would be in the drawing-room talking about what had happened in
the afternoon, and the Rector would not have come in. So it was quite a
certainty in Jim’s mind that no Sophocles would come of it if he had
returned home when Florence did, as she begged him to do. He would not
have worked; and, indeed, it would be a kind of breaking of his word if
he had done so then, for had he not promised his father to work after
dinner, which was quite a different thing? And it was more amusing to
prowl along through the village on the outlook for anything that might
happen, than to go in and listen to the girls chattering, probably about
the Swinfords. And Jim was sick of the very name of the Swinfords. He
had that distaste which a young man who has fallen into objectionable
ways so often acquires of party-givings and society in what his mother
called ‘his own rank of life.’ He flattered himself that what he did
dislike was the conventionalities and stiffness of society, and that his
own desire to see ‘life’ was a more original and natural sort of thing.
He liked to hear what the people said when they were at their ease in
inn parlours and tap-rooms. He liked, it is to be feared, what
accompanied these sayings. And the more familiar he became in such
localities, the more ‘out of it’ he felt in the drawing-rooms, and among
the staid and quiet folk who represented society in Watcham. So that the
Swinfords represented nothing but a succession of fresh annoyances to
Jim. If they gave parties, as his mother and the girls hoped, he would
be obliged to get himself up in gorgeous attire and take a part in these
entertainments. There was a time when he, too, would have been excited
by such a prospect; but that had departed after his first experiences of
the life of the somewhat disreputable undergraduate, into which he had
been so unfortunate as to fall. Now that he could not lounge into any
resort where he could meet his peers in that class, Jim found his
distaste for the home society grow upon him. He was tired to death of
the girls. The old ladies bored him, which was not so wonderful. The
correct old General and the clergymen about were old fogeys, which
indeed was true enough. Where was the poor boy to find any one whom he
could talk to with the freedom of those delightful but too brief terms
at the University where he had been taught what life meant? It had been
a shock to his own remaining scruples, and all the force of tradition,
when he first strayed into the public-house. Oh no; not the
public-house, but the little inn at Watcham, which was quite a pretty
little house, all brilliant with flowers, and where people from town
came down to stay in the summer; it was so nice, so quaint, so
respectable, and so near the river. But it is a very different thing
coming to stay at an inn for the sake of being near the river, and
stealing in in the evening to the same place for society and amusement.
There was nothing disreputable going on in the parlour of the ‘Swinford
Arms,’ or the ‘Blue Boar,’ as it was vulgarly called, in reference to
the Swinford crest, which presented that aspect to the common eye. The
people who went there were respectable enough--the tradesmen in the
village, good decent men who liked to see the papers and talk them over
with the accompaniment of a glass of something, and a pipe: and the
veterinary surgeon, who was a great deal about the country, and talked
familiarly of Sir Thomas Barnes, and the Mortlocks of Wellwood, the
great hunting people. It made a young man who felt acutely that he did
not belong to the class of the tradesmen, more satisfied with himself to
talk with a man who spoke of such people familiarly in a sort of
hail-fellow well met way, even though he was only the vet. But by
degrees as Jim acquired the habit of dropping in in the evenings to the
‘Blue Boar,’ he got to think that the village shopkeepers were very good
fellows, and their opinions well worth hearing. So they were, indeed, as
a matter of fact: solid, decent men, whose measured glass of something
probably did them no harm, and whose wives were rather glad than
otherwise that they had this little enlivenment in the evening of a
little respectable society in the parlour of the ‘Blue Boar,’ which was
itself as respectable as could be desired. But yet it was not
respectable, alas! for Jim.

When the Rector first discovered that this was where his son went when
he went out in the evenings to take a walk, as he said, Mr. Plowden’s
feelings would be difficult to describe. The misery, the shame, the
acute and intolerable sense of downfall were perhaps exaggerated. But
who can say what the descent is from the drawing-room of the Rectory to
the parlour of the village public-house? which is what it really was, no
doubt, though it was a most respectable little inn, and frequented in
summer by the best of company. The first interview between the father
and the son was very painful, but not without hope, for Jim himself was
very well aware of all that it meant, and did not stand against his
father’s reproaches. ‘I know it is not a place for the Rector’s son,’ he
said, humbly enough. ‘It’s not a place for anybody’s son,’ the Rector
said. ‘Do you think even White and Slaughter would like their sons to go
there?’ This was an argument Jim was not prepared for, and he
acknowledged with humility that he did not think they would. The Rector
was very gentle with the boy that first time. He pointed out that for
Slaughter and White, and even the vet., it was a sort of club where they
went to meet their friends--and whether or not there might be any
objections morally to their glass of something, yet at all events it was
a very moderate indulgence, and went no further. ‘I don’t say it is
quite right even for them; but that’s a very different question,’ Mr.
Plowden said, and Jim acknowledged the self-evident truth. The Rector
said nothing to his wife for that first time, nor for several times
afterwards; but he could not conceal his anxiety when Jim disappeared in
the evening, as, after a few very quiet and dull nights at home, he
again began to do. When Mrs. Plowden heard she cried, almost with
indignation, ‘But why didn’t you speak to him, James?’ Speak to him!
After two or three interviews poor Mr. Plowden soon began to recognise
how little use there was in that.

Jim, accordingly, when he left the girls to stroll down the village
street, did so against the remonstrances of Florry, who tried hard to
persuade him to come back and hear what mamma and Emmy had been doing at
the Hall, then offered herself to share his walk, with equal
seriousness. ‘I like a stroll by myself,’ Jim said.

‘It will very soon be dark, Jim; it is no fun walking in the dark.’

‘Not for you. But let me alone; if I like it, that’s enough, Flo.’

‘Oh, Jim, mamma is so pleased when you come in early,’ cried Florence,
pleading; ‘it does us all so much good. If you only saw the difference
in poor papa’s face when he knows you’re in the drawing-room.’

‘I shouldn’t be in the drawing-room in any case. I’ve got my Greek to
do.’

‘Still better if you are at your Greek. Oh, Jim, do for once come home
with me!’

‘I’ll come in in half an hour--will that satisfy you? I only want to
shake myself up a bit after sitting there with nothing to do.’

‘Well, mind you don’t forget: in half an hour,’ said Florence.

He went off waving his hand to her. Then thrusting his hands into his
pockets, with that idle lounging step of the man who is ready for any
mischief, but has none immediately in sight, he strolled away. Florence
stood looking after him, with anxiety in every line of her face, until
she remembered Mab looking on, whom it was necessary to keep from
knowing if possible: and then the poor girl laughed. ‘Isn’t he lazy?’
she said; ‘and it does vex papa so. Papa thinks Jim should like
Sophocles as much as he does, which is nonsense, isn’t it? But Jim says
that old people never can understand young ones, and perhaps it’s true.’

‘Mother always understands me,’ said Mab, with a child’s unhesitating
confidence.

‘Oh,’ said Florence. Her secret thought was, ‘What is there in you, you
little thing, to understand?’ She said after a moment, ‘Boys are so
different!’ with a sigh.

‘You should not nag at him so much,’ said Mab, with a reflection of her
mother’s sentiments, who as yet knew little of Jim’s case, and gave her
opinion privately in the bosom of her own home that the boy was being
driven out of his senses by never being left alone.

‘I don’t think we nag at him,’ said Florence meekly: and then the two
girls parted, Mab taking the way to the cottage, and Florry that which
led to the Rectory. ‘You don’t want to hear what they have got to say?’
Florry said, with a faint smile, before the other left her.

‘I shall hear it from mother,’ said Mab, ‘and I don’t know that I care.’

So the cousins separated--with thoughts so different. And Jim strolled
away in the other direction with a thirst which was both physical and
mental, in his whole being. It was physical, alas! and that was perhaps
in its immediate development the worst: but it was also mental, a
craving for something he knew not what; something that would supply the
atmosphere, the novelty, he wanted, the something he had not got. He
knew very well at other moments that the inn parlour, and the village
society, and the pipes and the glass--in his own case so often
repeated--would not give that. Ordinarily, he thought Oxford would give
it and the society of the young men with whom he sometimes talked
metaphysics, though usually it was only horses and racing, and boats and
bumps, and the qualities of the different dogs of the circle, that they
discussed; but still, it was not to be denied that there was something
in Jim’s being which thirsted, as well as that fatal thirst in his body,
which, alas! it was so much more easy to satisfy. The drab-
house at home, with its habits fixed like iron; the evening round the
lamp; the mother’s prolonged talk about her neighbours, and about people
she once knew, and about getting on; his father’s scanty, careless
replies; the girls’ talk, which was very often about their dresses, and
how things were worn now--all these had become wearisome to the young
man: and he did not care at all for his Sophocles. He had found in
Oxford that opening out of the restricted household circle for which his
young being craved; but it had not been the best of openings, and now
poor Jim prowled down the village street, wanting that something which
he could not tell how to attain to, neither what it was. He did not want
to go to the ‘Blue Boar.’ He had never yet gone in daylight openly, but
under cover of night, when the parlour window looked so bright in the
dull village street. It wanted some courage to go now, in cold blood as
it were, when there was no reason for it, and he felt all that it meant,
the son of the Rectory going in, in the light of day, to the village
public-house. He did not want to do it, if he could only find somewhere
else to go.

It happened in this way that Jim was very ready to be led in any quarter
where a little novelty or amusement was to be found. Not in any quarter;
for supposing he had at that moment met the good old General, whose
company could do him nothing but good, who had told him, perhaps, that
he had a young nephew, perhaps a pretty niece, to whom he wished to
introduce the Rector’s son, Jim would at once have found that he had to
go back to his Greek: he would not have gone to the General’s, nor to
any house, as his mother said, ‘in his own rank of life.’ And why this
should be I am quite unable to tell. Houses which were in his own rank
of life did not seem to him to have what he wanted; he would have felt
sure in advance that the General’s nephew would be a prig, or perhaps an
insolent young soldier, thinking nobody was anybody who was out of the
service; and the General’s niece, ugly and stupid. This he would have
felt sure of, though he could not have told why. Neither can I tell
why, nor any of those to whom it would be of the greatest advantage to
make this all-important discovery. It would be even more important than
finding out how to resist a deadly disease; and in the one case as in
the other, there are many surprises and many experiments. But nobody as
yet has been able to find out the way.

It was while he was thus moving along on the other side of the street,
not desiring to go to the ‘Blue Boar,’ yet not knowing where else to go,
and having within him an imperious wish to go somewhere, that Jim
suddenly heard in the soft stillness of the evening air--for the wind
had quite fallen as night came on--a pleasant voice saying, ‘Good
evening, Mr. Plowden’; a voice which was quite new to him, and which he
could not associate with anybody in Watcham. He knew everybody in
Watcham, great and small, so that it was not easy to take him by
surprise. He turned round, startled, and saw a woman, a lady, standing
in the half-light in the door of the house next to the schools, which
was appropriated to the village schoolmistress. He knew there was a new
schoolmistress, for he had heard it talked of, but he had not seen her,
so that this was about the only person in Watcham whose voice he did not
know. Jim stopped suddenly and made a clutch at his cap. I hope he would
on any occasion have taken off his hat to the schoolmistress, but at all
events this voice made it imperative, for it was a refined voice, the
voice of a lady, or else an exceedingly good make-believe.

‘Good evening,’ he replied vaguely. He could not very well make out her
face, but yet there was something in it which it appeared to him he had
seen before.

‘You do not remember me?’ she said.

‘You have newly come to the school, I suppose,’ he said. ‘I beg your
pardon. I don’t think I have seen you before.’

‘You have seen me before, but not here, and if I were quite sure you did
not remember me I should be very glad.’

‘That is rather a queer thing to say,’ said Jim.

‘Perhaps; but it is a true thing. I wanted to ask you, if you did
remember me, not to do so--at least, to say nothing about it.’

‘This is more mysterious still.’

‘Yes, I daresay it does sound mysterious; but it is important to me. I
don’t know whether to trust to you in this way, that if you remember me
after you will say nothing about it; or to be frank and recall myself to
your mind.’

‘You had better let me judge,’ said Jim.

Here was the something he wanted, perhaps--an adventure, a mystery; of
all things in the world the least likely thing to find in Watcham
village street.

The woman--lady he called her--gave a glance round to see if any one was
looking, then suddenly stepping back, bade him come in. There was
nothing in the house of the schoolmistress that looked like mystery. He
knew it well enough. He had been there with his mother when he was a
child. He had come with errands from her to the late mistress. The
narrow passage and the tiny little sitting-room that opened off from it
were as familiar to him as the Rectory. He walked into the parlour,
which, however, startled him, as if it had been a new place which he had
never seen before. How well he remembered the black haircloth sofa, the
square table with its heavy woollen table-cover, which left so little
room for coming or going. It was newly furnished, draped with curtains
much more fresh than anything in the Rectory, a small sofa with pretty
chintz, an easy-chair or two, the small tables which were not so common
in those days. Jim did not notice those things in detail, but the
general effect was such as to turn his head.

‘Hullo!’ he said, in his surprise.

‘You see the difference in the room? No; I wouldn’t have my
predecessor’s old things. I have done it almost all with my own hands.
Isn’t it nice?’

‘It is very different,’ said Jim. His home was dingy, but it was
natural, and he had an undefined sense that this was not natural. There
was something fictitious in the air of the little room with its poor,
coarsely-papered walls--a sort of copy of a boudoir out of a novel, or
on the stage. He was not very learned in such things, and yet it seemed
to him to be part of a _décor_ rather than a room to live in. In Mrs.
Peters’ time it was very ugly, but as honest as the day.

‘Sit down,’ she said, ‘and let me give you a cup of tea; or perhaps--for
I think I know gentlemen’s tastes--there may be something else that you
will like better. Sit down, at least, and I will try if I can find
something to your taste; for I want to make a little bargain with you,
Mr. Plowden, that may be for my advantage and yours, too. Sit down for a
moment, and wait for me here.’

She vanished as she spoke, and left him much bewildered in the little
bedizened room. It occurred to him during the moment he was left there
that perhaps, on the whole, it would have been better had he gone after
all to the parlour in the ‘Blue Boar.’ But his entertainer reappeared in
a minute or two, bearing in her hands a tray, upon which stood a tall
glass, foaming as nothing ever foamed in the ‘Blue Boar.’ I don’t
pretend to say what its contents were. They were foaming, and highly
scented, and they pleased Jim Plowden, I am sorry to say, better than
tea.

‘That is something like what we had at Nuneham that lovely day. Don’t
you recollect me now?’

‘Mrs. Brown!’ cried Jim. It was not a name which said very much to the
ordinary ear. It would, indeed, be difficult to say less. But the new
schoolmistress made him a curtsey such as had never been seen in Watcham
before.

‘I am glad,’ she said, ‘that you remember me; though I ought to have
been pleased and satisfied that you did not--for a woman, however she
may came down in the world, never likes to think that she has been
forgotten. I have recalled myself to your recollection, Mr. Plowden, in
order to say that I hope you won’t say anything to your father or any
one of where we met last. I was then, if you remember, chaperon, to some
young ladies.’

‘Oh yes, indeed, I remember perfectly,’ cried Jim, ‘your nieces.’

‘Well, yes, my nieces if you like; and I was not at all like a village
schoolmistress, was I? Things happen so in this life; but it would do me
no good, Mr. Plowden, with the Rector or the other good people, to know
that I had been--well, helping you to squander your money at Oxford only
last year.’

‘You did not help me to squander my money, Mrs. Brown. I was only one of
the guests. I had no money to squander; but I fear what you mean is that
you have come down in the world. I am very sorry, I am as sorry as I can
be. It is very different, this, from anything you have been accustomed
to; but instead of saying nothing about it, which I can understand as a
matter of pride, don’t you think it would be better for me to tell my
mother, who though she has her own ways which you might perhaps not care
for, is very kind, and would, I am sure, try to make things as pleasant
as she could and as little hard, and ask you up to the Rectory and all
that?’

Mrs. Brown turned her back upon Jim, and he feared that she wept. But I
don’t think she wept, though when she turned round again she had her
handkerchief to her eyes. She said, ‘I am sure your mother is goodness
itself, Mr. Plowden; but I am a proud woman, as you perceive. No, you
must not breathe a word to your mother. I have one friend who knows all
about me; and that is Mrs. Swinford, at the Hall; but except her and
yourself I want nobody to know. Will you promise me that nobody shall
know from you, Mr. Jim?’

How did she know his name, Jim? How did she remember him at all, a
little, young, ignorant freshman much honoured to make one of the
brilliant water party of which she and her nieces had been the soul? He
was ready to have promised anything, everything she asked.




VIII


‘She was nice enough to us,’ said Mrs. Plowden, ‘but very
hoighty-toighty with your aunt. Did you observe that, Emmy? Poor Aunt
Emily was very kind. She said in such a pretty way, “That is Emily
Plowden now,” and really Emmy looked so very like her at that
moment--with the charm of youth, of course, added on--that nobody could
help remarking it. Mr. Swinford looked from one to the other, making a
little comparison I could see--and you may imagine in whose favour it
was.’

‘It was in my sister’s favour, of course,’ said the Rector. There was
something in the way in which he emphasised the _my_, as if to mark the
difference between his daughter, who was her mother’s as well as his,
and his sister who was all his own, that might have been amusing to a
bystander, but to Mrs. Plowden was not amusing at all.

‘It is most curious,’ she said, ‘the way you always stand up for your
own family----’

‘Whom do you mean by my own family? Emmy is my own family, I suppose?’

‘You know very well what I mean. I mean your side of the house in
opposition to mine. One would think that nobody born was ever equal to
your people--not even your own children.’

‘My own children are as God has made them,’ said the Rector. He added,
as if she had been somehow of a superior manufacture, ‘But my sister
Emily was the sweetest creature I ever saw when she was Emmy’s age. Emmy
is a good girl, and she is very nice-looking or she could not be
supposed to be like my sister. But as for comparing the one to the
other, my dear, it only shows how little you know.’

‘Upon my word!’ cried Mrs. Plowden, not without reason, ‘I hope my Emmy
may be compared to any one. Your sister had always a great deal too much
intellectual pride about her to please me. She was not content to be
nice-looking, which nobody ever denied, but she went in for being
clever, too. I know you don’t approve of women taking that sort of
position, James. Indeed, you have said as much a hundred times--and now
to go on raving about your sister, as if we haven’t all had sisters that
were out of the common in our day!’

‘My dear, I didn’t know there was anybody out of the common connected
with you. My impression is I never heard you brag of that before--no
more than poor Emily ever did about being more clever than the rest of
us. Poor girl, it hasn’t come to much in her case.’

‘I am not one to be always blowing a trumpet about my family,’ said Mrs.
Plowden angrily; ‘but if you think my brother Thurston is nobody----’

‘Not in the least; he is a very nice fellow, and a Q.C.’

‘Or my sister Florence!’ said the Rector’s wife, ‘poor Florry’s
godmother--and the girl takes after her, I’m glad to say--and it’s to
her credit, whatever you may think.’

‘Oh, your sister Florence!’ said the Rector. This was a point that had
been argued between them often before, for, as a matter of fact, though
Emily Plowden was understood to have done very little good for herself
by her distinguished marriage, yet it was a distinguished marriage, and
one of which the Rector’s wife herself was more proud than any one. She
quoted Lady William in her own family in a way which made her brother
who was a Q.C. and her sister who was Florence’s godmother very angry.
‘I wish you would not be always dinning that eternal Lady William into
our ears,’ was what these good people said. But at home, in face of her
husband, Mrs. Plowden liked to show her independence, and that she and
her brothers and sisters were as remarkable as he and his brothers and
sisters any day.

‘Well,’ said Mrs. Plowden, ‘they were really more nice to Emmy, though
she is only my daughter, than they were to your sister Emily, James. I
did not think that Emily was received as her rank demands. They were
more civil to me, a simple clergyman’s wife, than they were to her. Now,
though one is always pleased, of course to be put in the first place, I
don’t think it was right. Oh! not Mr. Swinford, he was very attentive;
but in such cases the man does not count, and the old lady----’

‘Is she really an old lady, mamma?’ said Florry, who had not yet found
the opening for her anxious questions which she desired.

‘Well--her son is not quite young. He is not like Jim; he is a
full-grown young man of the world. As for Mrs. Swinford, she is so
curled and frizzed and powdered and everything done to her, that you
can’t tell how old she is. But it is always safe to say the old lady
when there is a son quite old enough to marry. Of course she will be the
old lady as soon as he gets a wife.’

‘I am sure, mamma, it would not make you an old lady if Jim were to
marry,’ said Emmy, always exemplary in her sentiments.

‘Jim!’ Mrs. Plowden said, with a sort of shriek. And then she added:
‘Poor Jim’s not a landed proprietor like Mr. Swinford. He can never make
me a Dowager, poor boy! And what chance has he of ever marrying? none
that I know of, without any money, and not even a profession. Alas!
there is a great difference between Leo Swinford and Jim.’

‘Is Leo his name? What an odd name!’

‘But pretty, don’t you think--and so uncommon?’ said Emmy.

Emmy had a slightly dazzled look about the eyes, as one that has seen
visions. She had been into that fairy palace, and come into absolute
contact with Prince Charming. Florry knew that the details of the
interview were not likely to come out until they two came face to face
in their room, with no father or mother in the way.

‘By the way,’ said the Rector, as if it had not been the prominent thing
in his mind all the time, ‘did Jim come back with you from the river,
Flo?’

‘He thought he would like a little stroll before he came back--for half
an hour. He promised me faithfully he would come back in half an hour.’

‘It is more than half an hour now,’ said the Rector, with his watch in
his hand; and then he sighed and went away.

‘Oh, children,’ said Mrs. Plowden, when his steps had died out in the
distance of the rambling house, ‘how often must I tell you not to be so
pointed with your half-hours? How can a young man tell, if he strolls
out in the evening, exactly to a moment when he’s to get back? He may
meet a friend, or some little accident may happen, and he is kept,
without any doing of his. And there is your father with his watch in his
hand as if he had never been a young man himself. I don’t want you, I am
sure, to be anything but truthful--but if you could throw a little veil
over such things! Now, however soon he may come, and however right he
may be, your father will never forget having looked at his watch. He
will say you can never trust in his word because of that half-hour.’

‘I only said what he told me, mamma,’ said Florence, half offended.

‘As if there was any use in saying what he told you!’ cried Mrs.
Plowden, ‘when you know that’s Jim’s weakness never to be sure when he
is coming in; and to say in half an hour is just as easy as in---- Jim!
why, here he is, as exact as clockwork. Run and tell your father,
Florry: he can put his watch in his pocket. Oh, I am so glad! It is
always a little triumph for us womenfolk who believe whatever you say,
you troublesome Jim!’

‘Do you believe whatever I say, mother?’

‘Oh, more than I ought--more than I ought. And oh, Jim, if you only knew
the pleasure of it, the pride of it! To see you walking in at your time
as a gentleman should--and like a gentleman in every way!’

The words were, perhaps, capable of various interpretations; but the
little party in the Rectory drawing-room knew precisely what they meant;
and Jim knew very well that his mother, in the darkness of the room,
where no lights as yet were lighted, was crying quietly to herself over
his virtue and punctuality. It struck him with a sort of mingled shame
and ridicule to think that, perhaps, had she known where he had been,
she would not have been so much content. I may say that it was much more
like an hour and a half than half an hour since he had left the two
girls at the landing-place; so that he was not precisely a model of
exactness after all.

When Jim came in all the other subjects in the world went out; and as he
had no interest in the Hall and its inhabitants there was no further
gossip about the Swinfords in the Rectory family that night, until,
indeed, the evening was over, and the girls found themselves face to
face in the room which they shared, which was a long and low one, under
the eaves, with a number of small windows, and space enough to make up
for a slanting roof on one side. It was indeed quite a large room, with
two little beds, two little white-draped toilet tables, two sets of
drawers, everything double, as the two were who had lived in it all
their lives. All their little confidences had been made to each other
there, all that had happened had been discussed; their whole life, which
was not eventful, had passed in this dim chamber, where the light came
in through greenish lattices, and under the shadow of the waving trees.
They came upstairs, following each other very demurely, each with her
candle, but when they were safe in their shelter, and had shut their
door, each put down her candle on her own table, and they rushed
together, seizing each other’s hands. ‘Oh, Emmy, tell me!’ cried the
one who had been left at home.

‘There is nothing to tell, indeed,’ said Emmy, ‘except what you have
heard already.’

‘I have heard nothing about _him_,’ said her sister.

‘Oh, Flo, dear! all that nonsense was amusing enough as long as he was
only a dream. He has been a dream for so long; but now he’s a man, just
like another.’

‘Not like any other in the world, Em.’

‘That is, to you and me; but, thank heaven, nobody knows except us two,
and it is all over. He is like any other man, rather more nicely
dressed, rather more careful of his clothes.’

‘Oh, Emmy!’

‘That doesn’t sound like our hero, does it? I suppose it is because he
is half French: red stockings and patent-leather shoes, as Mab said.’

‘Well,’ said Florry, ‘if true hearts are more than coronets, they are
certainly more than patent-leather shoes.’

‘That is very true, but somehow it goes dreadfully against one’s ideal.
And, Flo, he is not--tall.’

Florence burst into a somewhat agitated laugh. ‘What does that matter?’
she said.

‘Oh, nothing at all. I know that little men are just as nice, sometimes
nicer, than big ones; but you know what we always thought: and he is not
the least like it--not one little bit.’

Emmy looked as if she were going to cry; for the fact was that Mr.
Swinford had been, by a piece of girlish romance not very uncommon among
such unsophisticated girls as those of the Rectory, the hero of an
entirely visionary castle in the air on the part of this young lady.
Florence was more wise; she had the ideas of her century, and was very
strongly convinced that for her sister to marry well was a thing most
essential at the present crisis of the family fortunes; but she had been
very indulgent to Emmy’s romance, possibly from the conviction that this
was the only way in which her sister could be moved to take such a
step--and partly because she had herself a sentimental side, and was
deeply convinced that no true marriage could be made without love.

‘Well,’ she said soothingly, ‘never mind; he may be everything that is
delightful in himself, even though he is short and not handsome.’

‘I never said he was not handsome,’ said Emmy, with some indignation,
‘nor yet short. How exaggerated you are! I said he was not tall. He is
very nice-looking. Not the way we used to think; not dark-haired and
with deep dark eyes as we used to imagine--and not fair either, which is
perhaps better: but yet very nice--in his own way.’

‘Brown!’ cried Florence, ‘sober, sensible, common brown--like most
people. After all, that must be the best and safest since Providence
makes the most of us of that hue.’

‘If you think he is common,’ said Emmy indignantly, ‘you are making the
greatest mistake. He is not heroic--in appearance: but unusual--to a
degree.’ Emmy’s powers of language were not great, but her feeling was
unmistakable. ‘I never saw any one at all like him,’ she said. ‘If he is
not like a man in a poem or on the stage, he is just as little like the
ordinary man you meet. Fancy, it was he who made the tea! His mother
said he always did it. The way she calls Leo at every moment is the most
curious thing. She has a sweet voice, but it is so imperious, as if she
never thought it possible that any one could resist her; and, though it
is quite low, he hears her before she has half called him, whatever he
may be doing.’

‘All that is very interesting,’ said Florence, ‘but’--she seized her
sister’s hands and looked anxiously into her face--‘of course you can’t
see how things are to go the first time--but, Emmy, oh, tell me----!’

Emmy shook her head; she withdrew her hands; her eyes drooped before her
sister’s gaze. ‘How can you ask?’ she said, ‘how could anybody tell? He
was very nice, of course--as he would have been to the housemaid if we
had sent her, or to Mrs. Brown at the school.’

‘Mamma said he was exceedingly nice to you, and not so nice to Aunt
Emily.’

‘Ah, that was Mrs. Swinford she was thinking of. Mamma naturally thinks
of her. No, no, Flo, we must not deceive ourselves; it was all the other
way. If there is any one here whom Mr. Swinford thinks it worth his
while to talk to and make friends with, it will neither be you nor me.’

‘Me, no! I never thought of such a thing. But why not you, Emmy? and, if
not you, who else?’

Emmy clasped her hands together and shook her head. She had been shaking
it for at least a minute before she let the words ‘Aunt Emily’ drop from
her lips, with an accent of something like despair.

‘Aunt Emily!’ said Florence in the profoundest surprise: her tone
changed in a moment into one of disdain. ‘Aunt Emily! why, she is old
enough to be--she is almost as old as mamma. She has nothing to do with
it at all.’

‘Do you remember,’ said Emmy, with some solemnity, ‘_that_ French novel
which we found in Uncle Thurston’s room?’

Florence nodded her head. It had been a fearful joy to find in their
uncle’s room anything so wildly wicked, so universally condemned, as a
yellow French novel. It had not been so delightful in the attempt to
read it--for the girls were far too innocent to understand the
stimulating fare there placed before them. But it was a terrible and
alarming memory in their lives.

‘Well, the heroine in that was a widow,’ cried Emmy. ‘She was the one
everybody thought of. And Mr. Swinford is quite French, and Aunt Emily
doesn’t look old, and she is really handsome. Don’t you know when people
want to be very complimentary to me they say I am like Aunt Emily?--only
when they want to be very complimentary.’

‘So you are; and the more he thinks of her the more he ought to turn to
you, who are so like her.’

‘Oh! do you think so? I, for my part, feel sure that he will like her
best. She will be able to talk to him. She has been in Paris, where he
comes from. She will be like the people he has been used to.’

‘Oh! not like the people in Uncle Thurston’s novel!’

‘I did not mean that; but she can talk, and she is what people call
elegant, and you’ll see he’ll think more of her than either of you or
me.’

‘It is impossible,’ cried Florence, with the confidence of youth. ‘A
woman with a grown-up daughter!’

‘Wait,’ said Emmy oracularly, ‘and you will see.’




IX


It was a day or two after these events before any new incident happened;
and, indeed, the appearance of Mr. Swinford in the village of Watcham
was not a very remarkable incident. For Watcham was not in the depths of
the country, where the sight of a new face was in itself extraordinary.
People from London were continually appearing in this little place. To
be sure, it was too early in March for the shoals of men in flannels who
were to be seen lounging about in summer; but still there were people
who would come down ‘to have a look at the river’ even in the winter
season, when the boats were laid up. And boating men, and indeed others,
had a way of appearing at the ‘Blue Boar’ on visits from Saturday till
Monday, and were very correct in their town costumes when they arrived,
though afterwards falling into many eccentricities of apparel. Mr.
Swinford might have been one of them, as he walked down on Saturday
afternoon. He was not very fond of walking, having had a French rather
than an English education. It had already been discovered that his usual
way of going about was in an exceedingly smart dog-cart, which he drove
in a way rather unusual to the aborigines, with a rein in each hand. I
need not pause to point out that Leo Swinford, an Englishman educated in
France, was not at all an Anglomane, but probably more French than most
young Frenchmen whose desire would have been to look English--at least
in everything that had to do with riding or driving. But on this
occasion he walked, and might have been taken simply for one of the
Saturday to Monday men. But no; Watcham was too clever for that. None of
them were so point devise as the young master of the Hall. Though it is
always a little muddy on this riverside road, he still had the
_chaussure_, so much admired yet scorned by the young ladies who had
discussed it--the red silk stockings and glistening patent-leather shoes
which had filled Mab with wonder and disdain. He had a warm greatcoat
buttoned over a white silk _cache-nez_ which was round his throat. The
cut of the coat, though excellent, was not like Bond Street--or is it
Savile Row? I am of opinion that it had been made there, but it had
acquired from the wearer a something, a little more shape than is common
to a young Englishman, a _je ne sais quoi_ of foreign and stranger. His
hat, I suppose, was also an English hat, but somehow curled at the brim,
as an Englishman’s hat rarely does. The village got note of his arrival
in some extraordinary way before he was within its bounds. People peeped
over the little muslin blinds in the cottages; a woman or two bolder
than the rest came out to the door to have a good look at him. Even the
men in the bakers’ and butchers’ carts stopped and winked at each other;
‘awful Frenchy,’ they thought he was.

After a while it became apparent that this exquisite figure was bound
for the Rectory; and some thrill running through the very path brought
the news before he did to the Plowdens, who came together as by some
electric current driving the different atoms towards each other. I have
no doubt this is an impossible metaphor, and that electric currents have
nothing to do with atoms; but the reader who knows better will, I hope,
derive a little gratification from his smile at my ignorance. Anyhow,
the ladies of the house flew as by an instinctive movement into the
drawing-room. Mrs. Plowden was the first to get there; and the girls
found her shaking up the sofa cushions, and drawing the chairs
about--not to range them against the wall and make everything tidy as
her grandmother would have done, but to give them that air of
comfortable disorder which is the right thing nowadays. Emmy followed
her mother’s example with a little, flutter and agitation, shaking up
anew the sofa cushions which Mrs. Plowden had just arranged to the best
advantage, while Florence gathered up a leaf or two which had fallen
from the flower vases, and picked off a faded flower or two from the
pots of narcissus and jonquils which were in the room. It might have
been the Queen who was coming, though it was only a natty young man.
Then the Rector appeared, a little anxious, rubbing his hands. ‘What had
I better do?’ he said; ‘shall I be here with you to receive him, or wait
in my study? He may be coming only to call on me.’

This view of the subject filled the ladies with consternation, though
they allowed there was a certain truth in it.

‘You had better be in the study, anyhow, James,’ Mrs. Plowden said; ‘and
if he asks for me, of course I will send for you; if he is shown in to
you instead, of course you will say, after you have had your
conversation, “You must come into the drawing-room, Mr. Swinford; my
wife and daughters will be rejoiced to see you;” or words to that
effect.’

‘Oh, I don’t suppose I shall be at a loss for words,’ said the Rector,
who had no respect for his wife’s style. He gave a glance round the
room; not with any satisfaction, for he felt that it was rather dingy,
and that a stranger would not be likely to see what he felt, being so
accustomed to it, to be the real comfort of the room. It was looking its
best, however. The sunshine was bright in the windows, the jonquils and
narcissus filling it with the fragrance of spring--a little too much,
perhaps; but then one window was open, so that it was not overpowering.
The green of the lawn showed through that open window, just on a level
with the carpet; but it was so bright outside that there was no chilling
suggestion in this. And the girls looked animated, with more colour than
usual, in their fervour of anticipation. The Rector gave a little note
of semi-satisfaction, semi-dissatisfaction peculiar to men and fathers,
and which is not in the least expressed by the conventional Humph! but I
don’t know what better synonym to give than this time-honoured one; and
then he turned away and shut himself into his study to await there the
advent of the great man. There was no reason why he should be deeply
moved by the coming of Leo Swinford. It would be well that the Rectory
and the Hall should maintain amicable relations, but that was all. Mr.
Plowden was not likely to be any the better whatever happened, except
perhaps through the parish charities. There was no better living or
dignity of any kind to which this young man’s influence was likely to
help him. Jim? Was there perhaps a possibility that Leo, if he pleased,
might do something for Jim? or at least bring him into better society,
make him turn to better things, even if he did nothing more? There was
surely that possibility. One young man can do more for another, if he
likes to try, than any one else could do--if Jim would but allow himself
to be influenced. And surely he would in this case. He would be
flattered if Mr. Swinford sought him, if he was invited and made welcome
at the Hall. These thoughts were not very clearly formed, as I set them
down, in Mr. Plowden’s head; but they flitted through his mind, as many
an anxious parent will know how. And this was what made his middle-aged
bosom stir as he sat and waited for Leo Swinford. Then a smile just
crept about his month as he remembered what his wife had been saying
about, perhaps, one of the girls. But the Rector shook his head. No,
no, that was not to be thought of. They were good girls--invaluable
girls. But she might as well think of a prince for them as of Leo
Swinford, who was a sort of prince in his way. No, not that; but perhaps
Jim----

The question between the drawing-room and the study was now put to rest,
for Mr. Swinford, when he had walked up briskly to the door, admired by
the ladies from between the bars of the venetian blinds in the end
window, asked for Mrs. Plowden, and was triumphantly ushered into the
room by the parlourmaid, who secretly shared the excitement, wondering
within herself _which_ of the young ladies? And he was received and
shaken hands with, and set in a comfortable chair; and a polite
conversation began, before Mrs. Plowden, looking as if the matter had
just occurred to her, in the midst of her inquiries for Mrs. Swinford,
broke off, and said, ‘Florry, my dear, your papa will be in the study;
go and tell him that Mr. Swinford is here.’

‘Can I go?’ said the young man; ‘it is a shame to disturb Miss Florry on
my account; tell me which door, and I will beard the Rector in his den.’

‘No, no! run, Flo; my husband will be so glad to see you here. I daresay
you remember him in old times, though we were not here when you were a
child. It was his father then who was Rector, and Lady William--I mean
my sister-in-law Emily--was the young lady at home, as it might be one
of my girls now.’

‘I recollect it all very well,’ said Leo, with a look and a smile which
did not betray his sense that the girls now were not by any means what
the Emily Plowden he remembered had been. He even paused, and said with
a tone which naturally came into his voice when he spoke to a young
woman--‘I see now how like your daughter is to the Miss Plowden who used
to play with me, and put up with me when I was a disagreeable little
boy.’

‘I am sure you never were a disagreeable little boy,’ said Mrs. Plowden.
‘I have often heard Emily speak of you. She was very fond of you as a
child.’

‘I hope she will not give up that good habit now I am a man. I hope,
indeed, I am a little more bearable than I was then. I was a spoiled
brat, I am afraid. Now, I am more aware of my deficiencies. Ah, Rector,
how do you do? I am so glad to meet another old friend.’

‘How do you do, Leo?’ said the Rector. The girls admired and wondered,
to hear that their father did not hesitate to call this fine gentleman
by his Christian name. ‘It is a very long time since we met, and I
don’t know that I should have recognised you: a boy of twelve, and a man
of----’

‘Thirty,’ said Leo, with a laugh, ‘don’t spare me--though it is a little
hard in presence of these young ladies. But it has not made any such
change in you, sir, and I should have known you anywhere.’

‘Twenty years is a long time. What do you say, Jane? Eighteen years:
well, there’s no great difference. And so you have come home at last,
and I hope now you are at home you mean to stay, and take up the duties
of an English country gentleman, my dear fellow--which is your real
vocation, you know, as your father’s son.’

‘And what are those duties, my dear Rector,’ said Leo, with a laugh;
‘perhaps my ideas are rather muddled by my French habits--to keep up a
pack of fox-hounds, and ride wildly across country: and provide a beef
roasted whole for Christmas?’

‘Well, you can never go wrong about the beef at Christmas--but I think
we’ll let you off the fox-hounds. If you’ll subscribe to the hunt, that
will be enough.’

‘That is a comfort,’ said the unaccustomed squire, ‘for I am not, I
fear, a Nimrod at all.’

To hear the familiar way in which their father talked, laying down the
law, but not in the least in his imperative way, filled the girls, and
even Mrs. Plowden, with an admiration for the Rector which was not
invariable in his own house. He was at once so bold and so genial, so
entirely at his ease with this gentleman, who was so much out of their
way, and beyond their usual range, that they were at once astonished and
proud--proud of their father, who spoke to Leo as if he were no better
than any other young man in the place, and astonished that he should be
able to do so. But Mrs. Plowden could not longer allow these two to have
it all their own way.

‘It is so nice of Mrs. Swinford to give up her favourite place, and to
consent to come home, in order that you may live among your own
people--for it must be a sacrifice. We can’t say anything in favour of
our English climate, I fear. We all get on very well, but then we are
used to it--but Mrs. Swinford----’

‘Oh, your mother is with you, of course,’ the Rector said in no such
conciliatory tone.

‘Yes, my mother is with me. But, so far as that goes, Mrs. Plowden,
Paris, where we have chiefly lived, is no great improvement, that I
know, upon England. It’s very cold, and now and then it’s foggy too: but
she likes the society: you know it’s generally supposed to be more easy
than in England. Not knowing England, except as a child, I can’t tell;
but if you can manage to be more conventional here than people are in
France, I shall be surprised. Of course, I should not have come, unless
my mother had seen the necessity: for I am all she has, you know,
now----’

‘_Now_,’ said the Rector, with pointed emphasis.

At which Leo Swinford showed a little uneasy feeling. ‘For a great many
years,’ he said. ‘You know my father died--shortly after we left here.’

‘I know,’ said the Rector, very gravely. Then he added, in a softened
tone, ‘It is a very long time ago.’

‘Yes,’ said the young man, more cheerfully, ‘so long, that almost my
only experience of life is, that of being always with my mother, her
companion in everything. We have been a sort of lovers,’ he said, with a
laugh; ‘everything in the world to each other.’

Oh, how the girls admired this man, who said that his mother was
everything in the world to him! It brought the tears to their eyes. An
Englishman, they thought, would not have said it, however much it might
have been the case: and Leo said it so pleasantly, as if it were the
most natural thing in the world; but papa, who had been so
cheerful--papa kept a very serious face.

‘I hope it will be found that Watcham is not injurious to Mrs.
Swinford’s health,’ he said, and then there was an uncomfortable pause.

‘I suppose,’ cried Mrs. Plowden, rushing in to break it, ‘that you do
not know any of your neighbours in the county, Mr. Swinford? They will
be eager, of course, to make your acquaintance. There is quite a nice
society in the county. We only see them now and then, of course, in this
little village.’

‘Lady Wade was here on Tuesday, mamma, and the Lenthall people the
Saturday before, and Miss Twyford----’

‘Yes, that is true,’ said Mrs. Plowden, delighted that Emmy had been
sensible enough to remember so opportunely, and bring in all these
appropriate names. ‘They do not neglect us, though it is rather a long
drive, from Lenthall especially; but Mr. Swinford will have better
opportunities of seeing a great deal of them. When you have plenty of
carriages and horses, everything is so much easier.’

‘Bobby Wade came to see us in Paris,’ said Mr. Swinford, ‘a funny little
man: and I have met some of the Lenthalls. One drifts across most
people one time or another. The world is such a small world.’

‘Oh, then you won’t feel such a stranger among them,’ Mrs. Plowden said;
but she was a little disappointed. It had seemed to her that there would
be a fine rôle to play in presenting this young potentate, so to speak,
to the people about; but as she reflected, with a sort of disgust,
people in that position have a way of knowing each other, and are always
drifting across each other in that wonderful thing called society, which
is such a mystery to those that are out of it. She made a little pause
of partial discomfiture, and then she said, ‘Emmy, do you know where Jim
is? Is Jim in the house, my dear? I should so like to introduce to Mr.
Swinford our boy Jim.’

‘Most happy, I am sure. Is that the one who has religious doubts?’ said
Leo, smiling. ‘Perhaps, as I am not very orthodox, the Rector may think
he will not get any good from me.’

‘Has Jim doubts?’ said the Rector, with his severe, precise air,
transfixing the anxious mother with that regard: and then he added,
‘Quite the reverse, Leo, the society of a man like you could not but be
good for my boy; I should like you to know him. I’ll go and fetch him
myself.’

But, alas! Jim was not to be found. He had gone out, the maid said,
immediately after Mr. Swinford came in. He had indeed seized the
opportunity to escape, fearing that he would be called in, and made to
form an acquaintance with this new man, for whom he had a kind of
aimless dislike, as quite different from himself. The Rector came back
with a serious face, which he tried to conceal with a laugh.

‘We might have known,’ he said, ‘this was not a time to find Jim. He is
reading with me to make up a little special work for his college, and as
soon as his hours of work are over, he--bolts: as I suppose most young
men in these circumstances would.’

‘Every one of them,’ said Leo. ‘And do you find it answer, sir, this
work at home? Mr. Jim must be a wonderful man if he keeps hours, and all
that--at home with you.’

There was not any reply made for a moment, but the father and mother
exchanged a glance. Oh! God bless the man who speaks such words; it
seemed as if there was nothing wrong, nothing but what was natural and
universal in the shortcomings of their boy.




X


Mr. Swinford was afterwards watched by the village in his progress from
one house to another of the great people of Watcham--the General’s,
where the family were at home, and he went in and stayed for a quarter
of an hour: the Archdeacon’s, where they were out, and where some close
observers felt that he showed great satisfaction in leaving cards: and
then he walked with his alert quick step round the village, as if to
take a general view of it, and then returned towards the cottage, which
all the spectators thought he was neglecting, the house of Lady William,
generally the first on the list of all callers. He was not very tall, as
Emmy Plowden had so regretfully allowed, but yet not short either, as
she had indignantly asserted after. And it was true that he was neither
dark nor fair, but brown, common brown, according to Florence’s
conclusion, the most well-wearing and steadygoing of all colours. His
eyes, I think, were blue, which is a pleasant combination; but I don’t
mean by that the heroical sentimental combination of black hair and dark
blue eyes which is so dear to romance, and so distinct a type of beauty.
Mr. Swinford’s eyes were of rather an ordinary blue, as his hair was of
an ordinary brown, a little curly on his temples. And he had a pleasant
colour, and, what was really the only very striking thing about him, a
waxed and pointed moustache, after the fashion of his former
dwelling-place. He walked briskly, but like a man not used to rough and
muddy roads; stumbling sometimes, not remembering that it was necessary
to look where he set his foot, and looking down now and then, with a
sort of smiling dismay, upon the spots of mud upon his varnished shoes;
yet he pushed on briskly all the same; and walked down to the
landing-place to take a look at the river, which was looking its best,
reflecting the sunshine which began to get low, and to dazzle in the
eyes of the gazer. He gave a little pleased nod, as of approval to the
river, and then he came back again to the village green, meeting the
bands of children just dismissed, who had poured out of the school doors
the minute before. He smiled upon them too, and their noise and their
games, with little involuntary shrugs of his shoulders and uplifting of
his eyebrows as he had to step out of their way: for they did not make
room for him as they ought to have done, being rough and healthy village
children, invaded by the spirit of the nineteenth century, and having
passed beyond the age of curtseys and bows to the gentry. Some of the
girls, indeed, stood aside with a little curiosity and pointed him out
to each other, with whispers and giggles, which were less agreeable than
the uproarious indifference of the rest. When he had got through the
crowd, and passed the doors of the empty school, Leo suddenly stopped
short at the sight of a face he knew. ‘What!’ he said, ‘you here?’ with
very little pleasure in his tone.

‘Yes,’ said Mrs. Brown, with a slight sweep of a curtsey, ‘I am here.
You do not say you are glad to see me, Leo.’

‘You know I am not glad to see you, and I do not pretend it. What are
you doing here?’

Mrs. Brown smiled. She was a handsome woman, and looked, as all the
village allowed, ‘superior’ to a village schoolmistress. She was tall
and dark, not like Leo, but there was a resemblance in her face to that
of his mother which filled him with an angry impatience whenever this
woman crossed his path. She smiled, and again made a scarcely
perceptible obeisance as of satirical humility. ‘That is my own
concern,’ she said.

‘It is not mine, certainly: and I have no desire to know: but there is
one thing I have to say,’ he said sternly. ‘Don’t come to the Hall--I
won’t have you there. If I do you injustice I am sorry, but I don’t want
you, please, in my house.’

‘And what then about your mother’s house?’ she said. ‘Has she no house;
or where are her friends to see her? It is hard if at her age she has no
place of her own to receive her friends.’

‘How do you venture to call yourself one of her friends?’

‘Ask her,’ said Mrs. Brown, with a smile. ‘I am sorry you let your
prejudice carry you so far. Ask your mother, Leo, and then forbid me the
house if you think well. I am going to see Mrs. Swinford to-night.’

He turned away from her angrily with a wave of his hand, while she stood
for a moment looking after him. There was a faint smile of triumph on
her face, but it was not malicious or unkind.

‘Bless us all, Mrs. Brown,’ said her colleague, the master, coming up
with no very amiable look, ‘so it appears you know Mr. Swinford, and all
the rest of the grandees?’

‘I don’t know anything about grandees: but I taught Leo Swinford his
letters,’ said Mrs. Brown.

‘Oh, that’s it,’ said the schoolmaster, with a sort of satisfaction. It
was an intelligible relationship, and seemed rather to temper than
enhance the painful superiority in appearance and manners of Mrs. Brown.
He added, ‘It’s a fine evening,’ and went upon his way. He had no house
attached to the school, while the mistress had: and he had wanted to get
the appointment for his wife, who was not qualified, on the idea that he
could help her to ‘rub through somehow,’ and that the house would be
very convenient; but this point of view had not been taken by the
authorities, and there was thus ‘a little coolness’ between him and his
colleague, though she, of course, could not be supposed to be in fault.
Now to hear that she had taught Mr. Swinford his letters partly consoled
Mr. Atkinson. It showed she was no lady who had seen better days, no
fallen star, but only a member of the profession all through, probably a
nursery governess. He liked to be assured of this, and thought the
better of her from that time.

Leo’s light-hearted and amiable countenance was covered by a passing
cloud. He went on quickly, as if trying to throw off the impression. He
had many recollections in his life connected with this woman, who had
been a member of his family in his earliest remembrance, who had taught
him his letters, as she said, and who had always played a part, he did
not know what, in his mother’s life. She was not a servant, nor was she
an equal. She had disappeared when they left the Hall in his childhood,
but only to reappear again at intervals, and, he had always felt, for
harm, though he could not tell what harm. The faint resemblance between
her and his mother was a horror and annoyance to him more than words
could say. It was, perhaps, her greatest offence, one he could not get
over. And now to find her here, at their very door, as soon as they had
settled in their own house, gave him a feeling of angry impatience which
was intolerable. He hurried on to the only place in Watcham which was
not strange to him, the little house which the village speculators
thought he was neglecting, the cottage of Lady William. All the rest
were curiosities to this young man of the world--the village Rectory,
the retired old soldier, the decorous little establishments where
everything was on so moderate a scale, yet where the inhabitants were
so calmly secure in their position, their social elevation above the
masses. The stranger from a larger sphere is apt to smile in all
circumstances at such a little hierarchy. But to Leo Swinford it was, in
addition to all, so quaintly characteristically English, so unlike
anything to be seen elsewhere, especially so unlike France, to which he
was most accustomed, that he had felt himself walking rather through a
mild English novel--one of those he had read, amid more exciting fare,
with amusement yet tenderness for the peculiarities of his own
country--than through a real village and actual life. He had felt that
he was playing his part in this simple society, doing his social duty,
much amused and often tickled by the oddity of all its novel ways. He
had meant all along, when those duties had been done, and when he had
shown himself the amiable young squire, friendly and accessible, to go
to Lady William and laugh with her over the humours of Watcham. She
would understand all that. She knew the other point of view, and how odd
it must all seem in the eyes of the cosmopolitan, who knew French curés
better than English churchmen, and to whom the rural parish was the
quaintest thing. But in the meantime this last encounter was not in the
harmony of the rural parish; there was another element, a tone of the
more meretricious drama, a sort of Porte St. Martin, he said to himself,
thrown in. Somehow that which was so much more exciting seemed vulgar to
him in this quiet place. It was all so tranquil here and seemed so pure,
that the other tone of the fictitious and conventional came in with a
shock. Porte St. Martin, that was what this woman was. Whereas there was
nothing here that savoured of the theatre in any way, but all pure
nature and simplicity, and real, though to him almost inconceivable
life.

He went on all the same, even after this shock, to Lady William, with a
wonderful comfort in finding that here was somebody who would understand
him when he spoke. The cottage looked more ridiculously small than ever
when he reached it. The Rectory, and the red brick mansions on the other
side, were large in comparison with this little place standing lowly in
its garden, with the trees hanging over it, and all the crop of climbing
plants with the spring sap pushing up through their long shoots, and
their new leaves forming. He almost stumbled over the gate, and felt
that to step over it would be more natural than to open it and go in.
Mab was in the garden busy about some new flower beds, at which she was
working with a child’s spade and trowel. She lifted her honest simple
face flushed with work, and laughed that she could not offer him such a
dirty hand. ‘I have been grubbing,’ she said, ‘but mother is in the
drawing-room.’ Her face was not only flushed, which sounds well enough,
but red, and her fair hair a little in disorder from stooping over her
‘grubbing.’ Her plump arm was half bare, and looked very capable of
work. She was a girl totally unconscious as yet of anything that was not
homely and actual, not a budding woman with nerves and feelings, ready
to thrill at a new presence. Whether it were Leo Swinford or any old
woman that came in, it was quite the same to Mab. She laughed and
pointed behind her to the tiny house, and the little open window. Even
Emmy Plowden at the Rectory in all her English shyness and correctness
might have made a timid effort to detain him a moment, to exchange a
single word or two; but not Mab, who wanted to be rid of him simply, or
even did not want that so much as to care whether he went or came.
‘Mother is in the drawing-room.’ She waited a moment with her trowel in
her dirty hand till he should pass, then explained that she was in a
hurry to get done before night, and stooped down again over her work.

‘Can I help you?’ he said, with the instinct of politeness, looking
helplessly at her.

‘Oh dear, no!’ said Mab, with energy. ‘I don’t suppose you know anything
about gardening; and then I like best to do it myself. Go in and talk to
mother, Mr. Swinford. You’ll find her there.’

What a change it was to go into that little drawing-room! I am not of
opinion that there was more ‘taste’ shown in this little room than in
the other houses about. There were no art stuffs, no decorative articles
to speak of; one or two sketches which were not very good, and one or
two prints which were better, hung on the walls; even the cheap ‘pots’
which country ladies prize were not to be seen here: there were no
Japanese fans. But Leo felt there was something in the room which he had
not found anywhere else, and which made him feel himself at home, not
playing the simple drama of a country life. But I really think that he
deceived himself, and that the only thing different was Lady William,
who was sitting by the table at her needlework, which she laid down when
he came in. She was very constant at her needle, always busy, but she
knew better than to keep on sewing when a man came to see her,
especially such a man as Leo Swinford, who probably would have thought
it an affectation, if not in her, yet in any one else who had treated
him so. A conventional man would naturally think that the woman thought
herself pretty in that attitude with her eyes cast down.

‘Well,’ said Lady William, ‘you have been parading the village, paying
your visits. I have heard of your progress this hour past; and now I
presume they are over, and you have come here to rest.’

‘How pleasant it is,’ said Leo, throwing himself into a chair, ‘to be
understood before one says anything! That is precisely what I have been
doing, and what I have come to do.’

‘There was no great insight required in either case,’ said Lady William.
‘And how do you like us now you have seen us, Leo? The Rectory is
homely, but they’re all as good as gold. Yes, they are, though they are
my people. You know one doesn’t often admire one’s sister-in-law, and I
don’t pretend to admire her; but she’s a good woman, and the girls are
excellent.’

Leo allowed to breathe into his voice a slight, though very slight,
suspicion of fatigue.

‘You will not be surprised, dear lady,’ he said, ‘if I say that the
member of the family who interested me most was your brother; and who is
the son who could not be found, who is reading with his father?’

‘Ah, Jim, poor boy!’

‘Yes? I think I understand; there are then troubles even in this idyllic
life?’

‘It is so little a stranger knows. I think there is no idyllic life. We
are very prosaic and poor, and our troubles are so very real--vulgar,
you might call them. We look up, on the other hand, to what we call your
brilliant and gay life, and think, surely there are no troubles there.
Thus it is true, you see, the one half of the world never understands
the other.’

‘But you,’ said Leo, ‘know both.’

‘Do I? I had a little share of the other, very short, and not, perhaps,
very satisfactory. I never found it very brilliant or gay. The village
life I know by heart, and its troubles, which are bad enough; small
little vices and weakness, dreadfully poor and commonplace: you can’t
understand how pitiful they are.’

‘Can’t I? Well, so far as it is of any use, you must teach me. For you
know from henceforth I am English, and will do my duty. My duty,
perhaps, does not demand an endless seclusion here.’

‘Seclusion do you call it? You will have half the people in London
pouring down soon, when your mother feels she has got established, and
is ready to receive them.’

‘Very likely,’ he said. ‘That will not change matters much. Society is
the same everywhere. At all events, I shall always have you to come to.’

‘It is very good of you to think that I can help you. There’s metal more
attractive. The village is not everything; in the county there are some
pleasant people.’

‘If you knew how sick I am of pleasant people! In sober fact, don’t you
know, I want to feel that I have something to do in the world, and if
this is my sphere, to make it really so, and fill the place which you
would say God had appointed for me.’

‘Don’t you say so, Leo?’

‘I don’t refuse to say so. I know so little. Religion has not held much
place in my life. Between the abbé of the stage and the “clergyman” of
the English, what have I ever known? I have not been instructed by any
one, except’--he laughed a little. ‘Do you know I remember scraps among
all sorts of stuff, of the hymns you used to teach me--how long, long
ago!’

‘Yes, it is very long ago.’ The room was rather dark; the day was
waning. Mab outside was putting her tools together to leave off work. It
was not possible for the two indoors to see each other’s faces, but
there was something tremulous in Lady William’s tone. Leo Swinford put
out his hand and laid it upon hers.

‘You must begin again--not with the hymns, perhaps--but to teach me what
is the best way.’

Evidently there was a great deal of discrimination in what Emmy Plowden
said.




XI


‘Miss Grey knows, of course, everything about them. Miss Grey knows the
whole story. She has been the longest here.’

‘Yes,’ said Miss Grey, ‘I know, I suppose, all the outs and ins of it;
or, if not all, a great part; all is a big word to say. I don’t suppose
anybody knows all--about the simplest of us--except the Almighty who
made us, and understands all our curious ways.’

‘That is a true speech,’ said the old General, ‘for curious are our
ways, and strange are the devices we have to hide ourselves from
ourselves.’

‘Come, Stephen,’ said Mrs. FitzStephen, ‘let us have none of your
philosophising. You like a story, or gossip, if you like to call it so,
just as well as any of us; draw your chair nearer the fire, and listen
to what Miss Grey has got to tell us, for I can read a whole story in
her eye.’

It was General FitzStephen’s drawing-room in which this conversation was
taking place, in the March afternoon, when evening was falling. It had
been cold and boisterous all day, with the March wind, which the farmer
loves, drying and parching everything outside; the roads all gray and
dusty; the fields looking as if every drop of sap in every green blade
or leaf had retired to the heart of the plant. The wind had blown itself
out, and fallen a little before the darkening, and Miss Grey, out, like
all the rest of the world, for a little walk, had been met and
apprehended by the General and his wife, and brought in for tea. How
much this was on Miss Grey’s account and how much for their own, I would
not undertake to say. They were fond of Miss Grey, and so was everybody
at Watcham: and people had a way of thinking that she was lonely and
wanted cheering up--which, in most cases, only meant that they wanted
cheering up themselves, and that there was nobody in the village who
knew so well how to do this as the little lonely spinster. The
FitzStephens’ house was exceedingly cosy, and though it was not large,
it was much larger than Lady William’s, and more pleasantly built; with
cheerful irregularities in the shape of bow-windows, which gave more
light, and agreeable little recesses and corners to talk in. It was not
so plain in any way. It was almost richly furnished with warm Persian
carpets and thick curtains, and a great deal of wadding and cushioning.
The General and his wife had, indeed, reached a proficiency in the art
of making each other comfortable, which only an elderly pair, without
children, can attain, and which, in their hands becomes a fine art.
There were no rough corners in their house; nothing that was not padded
and made soft. The draughts, which Lady William could only faintly
struggle against, they shut out by curtains, artistically-planned, to
the arrangement of which they had given their whole mind, two together,
which everybody knows is better than one, and each for the other, which
is better still: for not a suspicion, nor even a sensation, of
selfishness can be in the man who is afraid of a chill for his wife, or
the woman whose whole soul is bent on keeping her husband comfortable.
The candles had not been lighted, but the firelight was shining brightly
through the room, giving a brightness which no other artificial light
possesses: and, through the windows, the yellow glow of a spring sunset,
with a little pink in it, but none of winter’s violent and frosty red,
came in. Thus, between the day and the night, with the sweetness of the
western light outside like a picture, and the warm domestic glow within,
Mrs. FitzStephen’s pretty tea-table was the most pleasant thing one
could see on an evening while it was still cold. They had generally some
one to share that darkening hour with them, and make it more cheerful;
and on this particular evening there were two, Miss Grey, as has been
said, and the wife of the Archdeacon, Mrs. Kendal, as quiet a meek woman
as ever was, not capable of doing much in the way of addition to the
mirth, but quietly receptive of it, which is the next best thing.

It is a curious fact, which I don’t seem to have seen commented on, how
well and easily a kind old man who has fallen into quiet society along
with his wife in the evening of his days, takes to the feminine element
which is apt to preponderate in it. An old lady rarely makes herself at
home with men in the same way, or if she does it is perhaps with the
young friends of her sons who look up to her as a mother. But old
soldiers as well as old parsons, to whom that might seem more natural,
fall into ladies’ society with a relish and satisfaction that is
amazing. Pride of sex, which is rarely wanting, takes refuge, we may
suppose, in the little superiority so willingly accorded, the deferences
and flatteries with which he is surrounded, and which he repays with
little gallantries and pretty speeches with which the ladies on their
side are amused and pleased. General FitzStephen was a great hero among
all the ladies at Watcham, and he took his place among them with little
sense of incongruity, with a pleasant ease and simplicity, not sighing
for anything better, not wasting, or so it seemed, a thought upon his
club or his men. He liked Miss Grey to come in to tea as well as his
wife did, and was as pleased with Mrs. Kendal as with her husband--more
so, indeed, for he thought and said that the Archdeacon was an old
woman, an expression which he never employed to any lady. For Lady
William he had a sort of devotion, but that was not remarkable, for Lady
William was of a different species, and not unlikely to secure the
homage of any age or kind of man.

It was therefore a very cheerful old party that was assembled round the
FitzStephen fire, none among them under fifty-five, the General within
easy sight of three-score and ten, but all very well, with the exception
of Mrs. Kendal, who had been more or less of an invalid all her life,
but enjoyed her ill-health on the whole, and was as likely to live now
as at thirty. She sat lost in the deepest of easy-chairs on the side of
the fire opposite the window and where there was least light. Miss Grey
was on the sofa in the full light of the fire, which sparkled in a pair
of beautiful brown eyes she had, which looked none the worse for the
number of years which had passed over their possessor. Miss Grey was
very small, a little bit of a woman, with scarcely body enough to lodge
a soul which was not little at all: at least the part of it which was
heart, if there are any divisions in our spiritual being, was so big as
to rim over continually. She was very dark, with hair that had been
black before it became iron-gray, and a gipsy complexion of olive and
cherry. Her feet and hands were not so small as would have become her
tiny person, but as they were feet that were always in motion for the
good of her poor fellow-creatures, and hands that were noted in their
service, these things are the less necessary to look into.

Mrs. FitzStephen was remarkable for little more than the neatness of her
cap, and the trimness of her dress and person generally. She had been
what people call a pretty little woman, and on that character she lived.
She was a pretty little woman still according to the limitations of her
age, and her husband was still proud of her simple and somewhat faded
beauty. He had always been pleased to hear it said what a pretty little
woman Mrs. FitzStephen was, and he was still pleased with the thought.
She had not changed for him. She was seated in front of the low
tea-table, on a low chair, making the tea. The General, who was tall,
looked taller than ever moving about in the little glowing room between
the firelight and the dark, handing to the ladies their cake and tea.

‘We are all quite new people in the place in comparison with Miss Grey,’
said Mrs. Kendal, in her little invalid voice, ‘though we used to come
here, the Archdeacon and I, long ago, before he was the Archdeacon or I
was delicate: dear me, we used to go on the water! he was a great
boating man once----’

‘I remember,’ said Miss Grey, ‘he once took the duty for old Mr.
Plowden, before the present Rector left College. I remember you very
well--you were the bride--and there were ever so many little parties
made----’

‘To be sure,’ said the Archdeacon’s wife, sitting up in her chair--‘dear
me--it is so strange to think of the time when one was young----’

‘Emily was a little thing who was about everywhere--the child of the
parish I used to call her. A girl who has lost her mother is so often
like that, everybody’s child. I don’t say it’s not very nice as long as
they’re children. One gets more used to them. She was always dancing
about through everybody’s house--thank you, General, I couldn’t take any
more cake--there wasn’t a house in the parish, rich or poor, but Emily
was dancing out and in----’

‘Very bad for the child,’ said Mrs. FitzStephen.

‘Do you think so?’ said Miss Grey; ‘well, I don’t know, as long as she
was a child.’

‘If it was bad for the child, my dear, the woman has come handsomely out
of it,’ said the General, carrying the cake into the dark corner to Mrs.
Kendal. ‘My dear lady, one morsel more--to keep me company.’

‘Oh! General, on that inducement--but only a very, very small piece----
’

‘It’s bad when the child grows into a woman,’ said little Miss Grey,
shaking her little head; ‘she was as dear a girl as ever lived--not one
of them now is fit to hold the candle to what she was. Mab?--Mab’s a
darling, the honestest little straightforward thing: and she would have
been safer than Emily--she would never have been taken in--as her mother
was.’

‘Dear Miss Grey,’ said Mrs. FitzStephen, ‘another cup of tea: and you
were going to tell us about the Swinfords--for we all know there was
something: she was a Seymour, wasn’t she, of a very good family?’

‘But foreign blood in her,’ said Miss Grey; ‘I think her mother was a
Russian; she always was fond of foreign things and foreign ways; he was
a dear, good, quiet man. It never came into his head that anything could
go wrong----’

‘No: why should it, in a quiet neighbourhood like this----?’

‘Oh! I like to hear you speak of a quiet neighbourhood. When the Hall
was in full swing it was about as quiet as--as Windsor Castle in the old
days, before Her Majesty knew what trouble was; always something going
on, the town full of visitors; entertainments that were in _The Morning
Post_, and every kind of pleasure. They used to come down in the middle
of the summer, from their town house, for a few days at a time, and
bring half the town with them; and in autumn in the time of the
partridges----’

‘There could never be much shooting,’ said the General with
satisfaction, as on a subject he knew.

‘At the other end of the estate, the forest end--I have heard there was
not very much, but it was very good; that is to say, it didn’t last very
long, but as long as it lasted--at all events the shooting might be only
a pretence: but the house was always full, that is the only thing I
know----’

‘I daresay,’ said Mrs. FitzStephen, ‘it will be so again; a young man
fond of company, like young Mr. Swinford.’

‘Oh! you may be sure it will be so again. I don’t know about him; but I
do know about Mrs. Swinford----’

‘Now, don’t be spiteful, Miss Grey; when one lady does not approve of
another it is the right thing to say that she is spiteful----’ the
General said in an explanatory way, to take away the sting of the word
which had come out unawares.

‘And it is very pleasant in a country place to see a little company,’
said Mrs. Kendal, ‘not that I care for great parties--nor the
Archdeacon; but it makes a little stir----’

‘It keeps a movement in the air,’ said Mrs. FitzStephen, retiring from
the fire.

‘Well, there will be plenty of it,’ said Miss Grey.

‘But, my dear lady, we must not have you cross--cross is what you never
were; and society don’t you know, in this paradise of Watcham is the
only thing we want.’

‘It would be very nice,’ said Mrs. FitzStephen, with a little sigh;
‘though we have all done without it nicely, with our little tea
parties, and a friend from town from Saturday to Monday, and so forth.’

‘I never wish for more,’ said Mrs. Kendal, ‘nor the Archdeacon; it is
just what we like: but dear me, when I was young--I’ve danced sometimes
all night.’

‘We’ve heard the chimes at midnight,’ said the General, rubbing his
hands; ‘so I don’t see any great occasion, my dear ladies, to be
afraid.’

Miss Grey said nothing, but there was a little twitter and thrill in
her, half visible in the firelight, as of a bird stirring on a bough;
perhaps this proceeded from a little nodding of her head, very slight,
but continued like a little protest under her breath.

‘And then think of the young ladies,’ said General FitzStephen jauntily;
‘I have always heard that Lady William met her husband there----’

‘There is not much chance for any of them to meet their husbands here: I
often try to induce the General to ask a nice young man--from Saturday
to Monday, you know--the only way we could ever induce a man from town
to come here: but he says it isn’t good enough--and asks his old fogies
instead----’

‘The old fogies are more agreeable to us, my dear,’ said the General,
‘and the young ladies must find their husbands for themselves: but when
the Hall is full of fine company as our dear friend predicts----’

Upon which Miss Grey, nodding, introduced what seemed an entirely new
and uncalled-for assertion.

‘James Plowden,’ she said, ‘though he is the Rector, is not a wise man
any more than his father was before him----’

‘My dear lady!’ cried the General.

‘Miss Grey!’ said Mrs. Kendal mildly, out of the dark.

‘Nelly, Nelly!’ cried Mrs. FitzStephen, who was the one most intimate
with the culprit.

‘James Plowden,’ repeated Miss Grey, ‘is no Solomon, as you all very
well know. I am saying nothing against him--he’s a very good man: but
though he hasn’t very much wisdom, if he thought one of his girls was to
get a prince for her husband in the same way as his sister got hers, he
is not the man I think him, if he ever let one of them put a foot inside
that door.’

They all said ‘Lady William!’ with a joint cry, which, though it was
very quietly uttered by each individual, rose into quite an outcry when
uttered by the whole.

‘Poor little Emily!’ said Miss Grey, putting up her handkerchief to her
eyes, ‘that’s how I think of her--though if she gets any pleasure out
of her title, poor child, if you can call that a title----’

‘Of course it is a title--she takes precedence of all of us,’ said Mrs.
FitzStephen.

‘A courtesy title,’ said the General.

‘Dear, I never knew there was anything against it,’ said Mrs. Kendal.

‘I hope she gets some pleasure out of it, poor dear,’ said Miss Grey;
‘little else has she ever got. A horrible man, who never, I believe,
made himself pleasant to her, never for one day: and a horrible life for
I don’t know how many years. If there had been a mother, or if he hadn’t
been---- well, I won’t call him names now he’s in his grave--such a
sacrifice would never have been made.’

‘But I suppose she liked him at the time,’ said one of the ladies.

‘And no doubt he was in love with her,’ said another; ‘Lord Portcullis’
son, and she a country clergyman’s daughter.’

‘Oh, as for that, God knows: she was perhaps dazzled with the miserable
title, and her father of course, who was only a silly old man--and then
she was besought and persuaded, God knows how, by those who did it for
their own sake, not hers----’

‘But what reason could any one have?’ said Mrs. FitzStephen; ‘my dear
Nelly Grey, you must be making up a story in your head; what cause could
any one have, unless to satisfy the man who was in love with a girl, or
to help forward the girl to a match above her? These are the only two
reasons possible, and there’s no harm in them; we would, any of us, do
it,’ she said.

‘Not if the man was of bad character,’ said the General.

‘And if the girl was not in love with him? Oh, I don’t call that
romantic at all,’ Mrs. Kendal said.

Miss Grey shook her head again, shook it till her little bonnet, and all
that could twitter and tremble about her, shook too.

‘You’re all good people,’ she said; ‘you don’t know the mystery of a
wicked woman’s heart--or for that matter of a man’s either.’

‘Nelly,’ said Mrs. FitzStephen, almost sharply, ‘what can you know, a
little single woman, about mysteries and wicked persons? A soldier’s
wife like me, that has been knocked about the world----’

‘Or, oh, dear me, a clergyman’s!’ said Mrs. Kendal, ‘and they are told
everything----’

‘Whatever you may know, you don’t know Mrs. Swinford,’ said Miss Grey,
hastily tying her bonnet-strings--‘No, I must go home, thank you; I want
to be in before it’s quite dark. And really there’s not much to tell;
nothing that I’ve seen with my eyes, as you may have, my dear, knocking
about as a soldier’s wife; or as a clergyman’s wife may have heard
dreadful things trickling out through her husband. No, I’ve no husband.
I haven’t knocked about the world. I may have fancied things, being
always so quiet here. But good-night, for I must go; it’s nearly dark,
and my little maid is always frightened if I’m not in before dark----’

‘The General will step round with you, Nelly dear--General, you’ll put
on your greatcoat----’

‘Of course I am going,’ said the General. It was a duty he never was
negligent of, to see a lady who came by herself to tea safely home.




XII


‘I have been on a tour of inspection,’ said Leo Swinford. He had met on
another beautiful afternoon all the villagers, that is, the gentry of
the village, party by party, and he had repeated to them all the same
phrase: ‘A tour of inspection!’ Perhaps he liked the words, for he had
the love of his adopted country for significant and appropriate phrases;
and it seemed to that simplicity, which lies at the bottom of so much
that is conventional on the other side of the Channel, that it was
highly appropriate, and very English and business-like, to describe his
prowl about the village in such words. But it was not until, after many
little pauses and talks, he had come upon Lady William and her daughter,
that he went further into the matter. When he saw the two figures coming
along, one of which at least was like no one else in Watcham, Leo felt
that he had reached the society in which he could speak freely: so,
though he repeated his phrase, he did not stop there. ‘I know now,’ he
said, nodding his head in half disgust, half satisfaction, ‘what is
meant in England when you speak of the slums.’

‘The slums!’ said Mab, who leant across her mother a little, with an ear
attentive to hear what he should say; ‘but there are no slums in
Watcham; it is in London and in the East End that there are slums. We
have no slums here.’

Leo was too polite to say that what he said was not intended for little
girls; but he gave that scarcely perceptible shrug of his shoulders
which means the same thing, and answered with a smile:

‘I did not suppose, Miss Mab, that you were ever permitted to go there.’

‘Not permitted,’ said Mab; ‘mother! why shouldn’t I be permitted? I hope
I know every cottage in Watcham, and about all the people, though of
course they change a little. Mother, I suppose he has been down by
Riverside.’

‘Very likely,’ said Lady William, ‘where the houses do not look
attractive, we must allow. But Mab is right, Leo, though perhaps she
should not be so ready with her opinion. The houses do not look nice,
nor, in some cases, the people that are in them; but we have nothing
very bad here.’

‘I don’t know, then, what you call very bad; it must be something beyond
my conception. I should like to clear all those houses off the face of
the earth. It is ugly; it is loathsome. How can the children grow up
with any sense of what is good in dens like those? I have come home with
the meaning to do my best for the people who belong to me, you know. I
have not very clear ideas of what my duty is, perhaps; I only know it
has been neglected for many, many years.’

‘That is true, perhaps,’ said Lady William; ‘but after all, you know,
the squire of the parish is not everything, and we have all helped to
keep things going. You don’t know our aspect of poverty, Leo; perhaps it
looks worse than it is. You will find plenty to do, no doubt. If you
announce your intentions, I know several people who will be delighted to
tell you just what you must do; my brother, of course, first of all.’

‘Shall I put myself, then, in the Rector’s hands?’

‘Oh, don’t let him, mother,’ said Mab (that little girl again: how these
little creatures are allowed to put themselves in the front in
England!), ‘Uncle James has so many fads. He wants a new organ (we do
want it very much) and a new infant school, and he is always, always
after the drains! But I know a great many things that it would be
delightful to do.’

‘Of course your advice will be the best,’ said her mother. ‘My dear Leo,
it is so new to us to find a man delivering himself over to be fleeced,
for the good of the people.’

‘Do not use such a word; I am so much in earnest; I am so anxious to do
everything I can do. All these years I have been receiving revenues from
this place and giving nothing back; and I am lodged like a prince, while
these poor people, who do their duty to their country better than I have
ever done, are in--what do you call them, sties, stables, worse, a great
deal worse, than my horses----’

‘You must not run away with that idea,’ said Lady William. ‘Mab, where
can he have been?’

‘I tell you, on Riverside, mother; there are some houses there, old,
damp, horrid places; it is quite true.’

‘Dear lady,’ said Mr. Swinford, laying his hand lightly on Lady
William’s arm, ‘you consult this child: but what can she know of the
miseries which at her age one does not understand?’

Mab kept down by an effort the reply which was breaking from her lips.
Child! to a woman of seventeen! and to be told she did not understand:
she that knew every soul on Riverside, and what they worked at, and how
many children there were, and every domestic incident! She kept leaning
across her mother to catch every word, and cast terrible looks at the
accuser, though she commanded herself, and allowed Lady William to
reply.

‘You forget,’ said Lady William gently, ‘that to us there is no horror
about our poor neighbours, Leo. We know most of them as well as we know
our own relations, perhaps better; for on that level nothing is hid;
whereas on our own, if there is trouble in a house, there is often an
attempt to conceal, or perhaps even to deceive outsiders, and pretend
that everything is well.’

‘But, the very absence of concealment--the brutal frankness--the
vice--the horror----’

‘Mother, I suppose Mr. Swinford means when the men drink, and everything
goes wrong?’

‘Yes, Mab, that is what he means; it is not so common in France as in
England. It is the root of everything here. They are not unkind
generally when they can be kept from drink. Mr. Osborne, the curate, is
a fanatic on that subject, and one can’t wonder. He would like you to
oppose the giving of licenses, Leo, and to shut up every place in
Watcham where drink is to be got. I am very much with him in my heart.
But I would not advise you to give yourself altogether up to his
guidance either.’

‘Not to the Rector’s, nor to the curate’s (whom I have not seen), nor to
Miss Mab’s? To yours, then, dear lady, which is what I shall like best
of all.’

‘No, not to mine. I share all of these extravagances, one now, and the
other to-morrow. Sometimes I am all for Mr. Osborne’s way, sometimes I
sympathise with my brother. You must put yourself in nobody’s hands, but
examine everything, and judge for yourself what it is best to do.’

‘Ah!’ said Leo, throwing up his hands, ‘you give me the most difficult
part of all. I will pull down their evil-smelling places, and build them
better; or they shall have money, money to get clothes instead of rags,
to be clean. These are things I understand; but to examine and form
conclusions as if I were a statesman or a philanthropist--can’t it be
done with money? I hear it said that anything can be done with money.’

‘Oh, mother, a great deal,’ said Mab eagerly; ‘don’t discourage him: a
little money is such a help. I know people who could be made so happy
with just a little. There are the old Lloyds, who will have to go to the
workhouse if their son does not send them something, and he is out of
work. And there is George, who can’t go fishing any longer for his
rheumatism, and poor dear Lizzie Minns, who is so afflicted, and won’t
live to be a burden on her people. Oh, don’t tell him no, mother! Mr.
Swinford, people say it is wrong to give money,’ said Mab, turning to
him, always across the figure of Lady William, who was between, with her
eyes, which were not pretty eyes, swimming in tears, ‘but I don’t think
so; not in these kind of cases, where a few shillings a week would make
all the difference: and we haven’t got it to give them, mother and I.’

‘They shall not go to the workhouse, nor die of their rheumatisms,’
cried Leo. He was so moved that the water stood in his eyes too. ‘Tell
me how much it needs, or take my purse, or give me your orders. I was a
fool! I was a fool! thinking the angels shouldn’t know.’

Mab stared a little across her mother, not in the least comprehending
this address, or that she was the angel on behalf of whom Leo upbraided
himself. She understood herself to be stigmatised as a little girl, but
she was not aware that the higher being had anything to do with her. At
the same time she perceived that his heart was touched, and that to the
old Lloyd’s, etc., the best results possible might accrue. As for Lady
William, she was half touched, half amused by the incident; pleased that
her little girl had come out so well, and pleased with Leo’s enthusiasm,
yet ready to laugh at them both. She put up a subduing hand between.

‘Don’t beg in this outrageous way, Mab; and don’t give in to her in that
perfectly defenceless manner, Leo. I shall be compelled to interfere and
stop both of you. But here is somebody coming who knows all about it,
better than Mab, better than I do, far better even than the parson of
the parish. Here is not only the head of all the charities, but Charity
herself embodied. Look at her coming along, that you may know her again
when you see her, one of the great Christian virtues in flesh and
blood.’

Leo winked the tear out of his eye, though he was not ashamed of it, as
a man all English might have been, and laughed in response to this new
appeal, in which he did not know that there might not be a little
satire. He said, ‘I see no white wings nor shining robes. I see a very
small woman in the dress of a--no, I will not say that--but it’s a
little droll, isn’t it? scanty, to say the least, and perhaps shabby.’

‘Oh, if you want an appropriate dress! It ought to be white, with
blazons of gold: but it is only an old black merino, worn rusty in the
service of the poor. Miss Grey, Mr. Leo Swinford wants you to remember
him. He was only a little boy when you saw him last, and he wants to
speak to you about the poor.’

‘Of course I should not have known you again,’ said Miss Grey, ‘for I
don’t know that I ever saw you nearer than in the carriage with your
mamma. But I am very glad to know you, Mr. Swinford, though not much
worth the trouble--and especially to tell you anything I can about the
poor.’

‘He has views,’ said Lady William, ‘of abolishing them off the face of
the earth.’

‘Oh, you’ll never do that,’ said little Miss Grey, with a flash of her
beautiful brown eyes. ‘The poor ye have always with you; never, till you
can make the race perfect, will you get rid of the poor.’

‘He thinks money will be able to do it: and Mab rather agrees with him.’

‘Money!’ said Miss Grey, with a disdain which no words could express.
She turned not to Lady William, who spoke, but to Leo, when she replied,
‘Money is of use, no doubt: but to sow it about and give it to everybody
is downright ruin.’

‘Not to good honest old people, Miss Grey, like the Lloyds and old
Riverside George.’

‘Pensions?’ said the little lady, with her head on one side like a bird.
‘Well, there may be something in that. Come into my house and sit down,
and we can argue it out.’

Miss Grey’s cottage was a smaller cottage even than Lady William’s. It
was lopsided--a house with only one window beside the door; one little
sitting-room with a little kitchen behind.

The little parlour looked as if it could not by any means contain the
party which its little mistress ushered in. ‘Step in, step in,’ she
said, ‘don’t be afraid. There is far more room than you would think. I
have had ten of the mothers here at once, and not so much as a saucer
broken. The ladies know where they can find places, but Mr. Swinford, as
you are a stranger, you shall sit here.’

Here was a large easy-chair, the largest piece of furniture in the room,
which stood almost in the centre, with a small table beside it. And
there was a big old-fashioned sofa against the wall, occupying the
whole side from door to window. It was the wonder of all the Watcham
people how that sofa had been got into the room which it blocked up. But
Miss Grey’s response always was that she could not part with her
furniture; and that the old Chesterfield, which was what she called the
sofa, was a cherished relic of her dear home. But the most remarkable
thing about this little room was the manner in which it was lined and
garlanded with china. Miss Grey was poor, but the china was not poor. It
was of every kind that could be described, and it was everywhere, on
little shelves and brackets against the wall, on the mantelpiece, on
every table. There was scarcely anything in the room except the
Chesterfield which did not support a row of dishes, or vases, or plates.
Lady William and Mab, being closely acquainted with the place, managed
to seat themselves without damaging any of these treasures: but to an
unaccustomed visitor the entrance was one full of perils. It went to
Miss Grey’s heart that Mr. Swinford made his entrance as gingerly as if
all these riches had been his own.

‘Never mind,’ she said, as something rattled down from a corner, ‘it’s
only a very common delft dish; or is it the majolica? Only the yellow
majolica, it doesn’t matter at all; and besides, it isn’t broken, or
chipped, or anything. Oh, that’s an accident that happens every day: but
my ten mothers didn’t even knock down that plate, and some of them were
big bouncing women.’

‘You are a collector, Miss Grey?’

‘Oh, I am not good enough for that; they are all old things, and I am
fond of them; most of them, Mr. Swinford, came from my dear home; the
things that were in one’s home are never like anything else; and a few I
have picked up, but very few, not enough to make any difference. The
majolica, I daresay you think nothing of it, you that know what is
really good. And neither do I, but not from that reason, because I only
bought it myself at a sale. It is not from my dear home.’

‘And may I ask,’ said Leo, with polite attention, ‘what it means, your
ten mothers? You must understand that I am very ignorant of many
things.’

‘Oh, that is easily explained,’ said little Miss Grey; ‘ten members of
my mothers’ meeting, that’s what they are; they meet in the schoolroom
once a week, and now and then I have them here to tea.’

‘Mothers,’ said Leo, ‘of children? I understand.’ He was perfectly
serious in his polite attention. ‘And they meet every week, and consult,
perhaps upon education?’

‘Oh no,’ said Miss Grey, ‘poor things, they are not much up to that.
They cut out things for their children, little petticoats, and so forth,
and work at them; and one of us reads aloud; and they pay only a little
for the material, just enough to feel that they have bought it; and the
schoolroom is nice and warm and bright, and it’s a little society for
them.’

Leo’s face was very grave; there was not even a ghost of a smile upon
it. ‘I should never have thought of that,’ he said, ‘but it is good,
very good. But why not give them the material to make things for their
children? I understand the women love it, and it does them good to work
at it. But I will buy the stuff for you, all you want, with pleasure.
Would not that be the simplest way?’

‘I think so too, often,’ said Mab, whose whole soul was in the question,
and who understood nothing at all of the amusement with which her mother
was looking on.

‘Not at all,’ said Miss Grey, ‘for then it would look like charity; now
they buy everything, it is very cheap, but it is no charity, it is their
very own.’

‘But charity is no bad thing; charity is to give what one has to those
who have not.’

‘I think so, too, often,’ said Mab again. She added, nodding her head,
‘It is in the Bible just like that.’

‘But we must not pauperise them,’ said Miss Grey; ‘we must help them to
keep their self-respect.’

‘There is nothing about self-respect in the Bible,’ said Mab quickly.

‘Oh, Mab, you are only a child. I am not against giving; sometimes it is
the only way; and it’s a great pleasure. But it isn’t good for the
people; we must think first what is good for them. We must not
demoralise them; we mustn’t----’ The little woman hurried her argument
till her cheeks grew like two little dark roses, with excitement and
perplexity.

‘It is this,’ said Leo; ‘everything has been neglected by me for many
years. First I was a child and did not understand, and then I was a
young man, taken up by follies. I have come back. I wish now to do my
duty to my people. I will put into your hands money, as much as you
want, a hundred or a thousand pounds, as much as is wanted, to make
happy whom you can, if they can be brought to be happy; and to make
clean, and plentiful, and good. Hush! dear lady, don’t laugh at me. I
would like to pull down those frightful houses, and put all the poor
people in pleasant, bright rooms, where they could breathe.’

‘What frightful houses?’

‘He means Riverside, Miss Grey.’

‘He means Riverside! But they are not bad houses; the people are not
unhappy there. Oh, I could show you some! But at Riverside they are only
ugly. The people are not badly off; they get on well enough. One helps
them a little sometimes, but they rarely come on the rates, or even
apply to the Rector. Why, Mr. Swinford, you mustn’t only look at the
outside of things.’

‘I know,’ said Leo, repeating himself (but this was part of his excited
state), ‘that I am housed like a prince, and they--not so well as the
horses in the stables.’

Little Miss Grey kept her eyes on him as he spoke, as if he were a
madman, with a mixture of extreme curiosity and anxiety, to know if
there was method in his madness. ‘Well!’ she cried, ‘that is not your
fault. You are not--what do you call it, Emily? for I am not
clever--anything feudal to them. You are not their chief, like a Scotch
clan. What makes them poor (and they’re not so very poor) is their own
fault. They’re as independent as you are. If they drink and waste their
wages they’re badly off; if they don’t they’re comfortable enough; if
they’re dirty, it’s because they don’t mind. Bless me, Mr. Swinford, it
isn’t your fault. If you pulled down the houses, they would make an
outcry that would be heard from here to London. Besides, I don’t think
they belong to you!’ said Miss Grey triumphantly. ‘They were all built
by White, the baker. I know they don’t belong to you!’

Leo Swinford sat and gazed at her with a rising perception that there
was something ludicrous in the attitude he had assumed, which, at the
same time, was so entirely sincere and true.

‘And as for the stables being better--some stables are
ridiculous--sinful luxury, as if the poor dumb brutes were not just as
happy in the old way. Why, my little house,’ said Miss Grey, looking
round, ‘is not all marble and varnish, like your stables. And you think,
perhaps, it is a poor little place for me to live in, while you live in
your palace like a prince, as you say?’

He did not make any reply. This little woman took away his breath. But
he did cast a look round him at the minuteness of the place; a kind of
wistful look, as if he could not deny the feeling she imputed to him,
and would have liked nothing so much as to build her a palace, too.

‘Well!’ said Miss Grey, ‘and I would not give it for Windsor Castle. I
like it ten thousand times better than your palace; and the poor folk in
Riverside are just like me.’

‘Dear lady,’ said Leo, in his perplexity, ‘it is not the same thing; but
you take away my breath.’

Here Lady William came to his aid, yet did not fail to point a moral.
‘You see,’ she said, ‘you must not follow a hasty impulse even to do
good. There are two reasons against making a desert of Riverside; first,
because the people there don’t find it dreadful, as you do; and next, my
dear Leo, because you’re not their feudal lord, as Miss Grey says, and
the houses don’t belong to you.’

He shrugged his shoulders, as a man discomfited has a right to do. But
Miss Grey burst in before he had time to say a word: ‘If that is what
you want, Mr. Swinford, I can show you a place!’




XIII


While Leo Swinford was making his first attempt to revolutionise, or
perhaps pauperise, the parish under the irregular and unofficial
guidance of Miss Grey and Mab, who had, of course, no public standing at
all, though he would have been a bold Rector indeed who had disowned the
abounding services and constant help of Miss Grey--other incidents were
going on of still more importance to the conduct of this history.
Notwithstanding the indignation with which she had received the
suggestion that money was strong enough to unlock all doors and solve
all problems, it was astonishing how soon that unauthorised and
unofficial Providence of the parish found ways and means to disembarrass
Leo of a considerable sum of money, and to produce a list of
requirements for which that vulgar dross would be very useful. She
adopted all Mab’s suggestions as to the Lloyd couple and old George,
permitting that little weekly allowances should be given them to keep
them in life and comfort; and she pronounced and sealed the doom of a
group of cottages which, though they were not ugly, like Riverside,
rather the contrary, a picturesque group, making quite a feature in the
level country, were not fit to live in, as Mr. Swinford was reluctantly
brought to allow. He did not like pulling to pieces the venerable walls
and high-pitched roofs, with their growths of lichen, which were a
picture in themselves, and struggled long in the name of art against
that dire necessity. Indeed, the case was a parable, since we are all
but too willing to pull down the ugly but not uncomfortable tenements of
White the baker, though it costs us a pang to do away with the
unwholesome prettiness of our own. But while Leo’s education in the
duties of a proprietor was thus progressing, there was another young man
whose training was going on in a very different way. Jim’s Sophocles
became more and more hard upon him as the spring days grew longer, and
the east winds blew themselves out, and the sun grew warm. What was the
good of all that Greek? he asked himself, and there was reason in the
question. If he were to be sent out to a ranch it would not help him
much to know about Electra and Antigone. Less tragic heroines, and lore
less elevated, would serve the purpose of the common day; or if he went
into a merchant’s office, there is no commercial correspondence in
Greek, even if modern Greek was the least like the classic. What, then,
was the use of it? And yet the Rector would hear no reason, but kept
grinding on and on. Jim had some cause for his dissatisfaction: and he
could not have understood the reluctance of his father, once a scholar
in his time, to resign for his son all hope of the honours which Jim
neither wished for nor prized. But the Rector could not wind himself up
to the point of deciding that what he fondly hoped were his boy’s
talents should be hidden either in a ranch or in an office. He kept
hoping, as we all hope, that fate would take some turn, that some
opening would come which would still permit of a happier conclusion. And
nothing was settled from day to day, and nothing done except that
Sophocles, that sop to anxiety, that poor expedient to occupy the lad
who hated it. It is a commonplace to add that if the vexed and unhappy
Rector had contrived a means to make his son’s prospects worse and his
life more untenable, he could scarcely have hit upon a better. To send
him away had a hope in it, though it might have been destruction, but to
keep him unwilling and embittered at home, held in this treadmill of
forced and unprofitable labour, was the destruction made sure and
without hope.

Jim was too sore and vexed with this fate from which there seemed no
escape, yet too well assured that it was his own fault, and that nothing
he could do was likely to restore him to the old standing-ground in
which everything that was good was hoped and believed of him--to make
any manly protest against it. There was no such power in him, poor boy.
It was his nature to drift, and to resent the drifting, but to take no
initiative of his own. When he was upbraided, as he was so often for his
idleness and uselessness, he would make angry retorts now and then, that
he would work fast enough if he had anything to do except that beastly
Greek: but these retorts were growled out under his breath, or flung
over his shoulder as he escaped, and the angry father paid no attention
to them, and did not perceive the reason that lay underneath this angry
folly. Even when the Rector adjured him, as he did sometimes, to say
what he would do, to strike out some path of his own, poor Jim had
nothing to say. He had no path of his own; he had only an angry
perception that the one upon which he was now drifting was the worst:
but if they would only let him alone, Jim did not care otherwise much
about it. What he proposed was to do nothing at all except a little
boating and lawn tennis, or skating in winter. He did not think of the
future, nor ask anything of it. If they would but let him alone.

When a young man in the country is what he calls bullied at home, work
demanded of him which he hates, aims and purposes insisted upon which he
does not possess, it is an infinite relief to him to escape to the
society of those who will flatter and soothe, and make him feel himself
a fine fellow and a gentleman in spite of all. Such was the company in
the ‘Blue Boar’ where the Rector’s son was thought much of, and his
opinions greatly looked up to, notwithstanding a conviction on the part
of the honest tradespeople who frequented the parlour that it was a
thousand pities he ever came there. They asked themselves why didn’t his
father look to it, and see that Mr. Jim had summut to do, and friends of
his own kind--in the same breath with which they flattered him as the
nicest young gentleman, and considered it a pleasure to hear what he
thought of things; but it was a long time before any one among them
could make up his mind to utter the words which were on all their lips,
and to tell Mr. Jim that the parlour of the ‘Blue Boar,’ though it was
so respectable, was not the place for a young gentleman; and in the
meantime the incense of their admiration and pride in his companionship
was balm to the youth, notwithstanding his own knowledge that he ought
not to be there.

And there was another place which was becoming still more agreeable to
poor Jim. Since that first visit when she called him in, in the
darkening, he had paid many visits at the schoolroom to Mrs. Brown. He
could not go anywhere without passing the door, and in the evening, when
it was not very easy to see who went or came, she was almost always
there, looking out, breathing the air as she said, after the day’s work,
and keeping a watch for Jim. He was flattered by this watch for him even
more than by the admiration of the shopkeepers, and yet at the same time
half ashamed. For there was no depravity about the boy, and these
attentions on the part of a woman who was no longer young embarrassed
him greatly, and gave him a sense of danger which, however, in her
presence was entirely soothed and smoothed away. There was a sense of
danger but still more a sense of ridicule, which seized him whenever he
left her, and made him resolve with a blush never to go near her again.
And, yet again, there was safety too. Had Mrs. Brown had a daughter, a
girl whom he might have fallen in love with, whom people might have
talked about, Jim felt that the circumstances would have been quite
different; then, indeed, it would have been a duty to have stayed away:
but a woman who might be his mother! If she liked to talk to him it was
ridiculous, but it couldn’t be any harm. Nobody thought it anything
wrong that Osborne the curate should pay long visits to Miss Grey, and
take tea with her, and all that; and why not Jim to Mrs. Brown who was
much more amusing, and who had no society? She was a capital one to
talk; she had been a great deal about the world; she knew hundreds of
people: and there was always a comfortable chair ready for him, and she
had an art in manufacturing drinks which nobody Jim knew was equal to.
It never occurred to him to inquire why she looked out for him in the
evenings, and made those exquisite drinks for him. It was ridiculous,
but it was not disagreeable, and in the evening as he prowled along,
unwilling to go into the dull familiar house, where there was reproach
more or less veiled in every eye, where even Florry, who stood by him
the most, would rush out unexpectedly with an ‘Oh, Jim! why can’t you do
something and please papa?’--there was a wonderful seduction in the
sight or half-sight, for it was generally dark, of Mrs. Brown’s handsome
head looking out from the door. ‘Good evening, Mr. Plowden; I hope you
are coming in a little to cheer me up.’ It was said so low that,
supposing somebody else to be passing, which was very rare, it could
reach no other ear but Jim’s. Sometimes he resisted the call; sometimes
when she was not at the door he went in of himself. It was all quite
easy and irregular, and out of the way. The entrance to Mrs. Brown’s
house was close to a lane which led to the Rectory, and thus it was easy
for him to dart in without being observed. Once, he felt sure, Osborne
passing had turned half-back to stare, and saw where he was going.
Confound that fellow! but, what did it matter what Osborne saw? He had
never been friendly with Jim, never showed any relish for his society,
which had rankled in the young man’s breast, though he was too proud
ever to have breathed a consciousness of the fact. But, whatever he was,
the curate was not a sneak who would go off to the Rectory and betray
what he had seen. Jim dived into the doorway, however, with an
accelerated pace of which he was ashamed; and the ridicule of it came
over him with a keener heat and flush. A woman old enough to be his
mother! But what was the difference? That fellow Osborne would go off
all the same to little Nelly Grey.

‘Oh, Mr. Jim, what a pleasure to see you!’ cried Mrs. Brown. ‘I had
almost given up hope: for it is near the Rectory dinner, isn’t it, and
you will be wanted at home----’

‘Oh, I am not such a good little boy as all that,’ said Jim, with an
uneasy laugh; ‘I am not so afraid of being late.’

‘That’s very bad, very bad,’ said Mrs. Brown. ‘I am sure the young
ladies are always in time and punctual; they come to see me sometimes,
you know, and they always recommend punctuality. It’s a great virtue. I
have all the ladies to come to see me, but I sometimes think, Mr. Jim,
if they were to know----’

‘I don’t know what, I am sure,’ said Jim, growing very red, yet looking
at her steadily; ‘there is nothing I could tell that would make them
less respectful to you, Mrs. Brown--only that you were once in a better
position, and better off than you are now; my mother and the rest may be
a little narrow, but they would never think the less of you for that.’

Mrs. Brown was not a woman who was easily disconcerted; she could have
borne the assault of all the ladies of the parish and given them as
good, nay, much more than they could have given her: for though Mrs.
Plowden had a good steady command of words when she was scolding the
servants at the Rectory, she never could have stood for a moment before
the much more nimble and fiery tongue of the schoolmistress. But before
Jim’s assertion of her irreproachableness and conviction that her only
disadvantage was that she had seen better days, Mrs. Brown was utterly
silenced; she could not answer the boy a word; she was a woman quite
ready to laugh at the idea of innocence in a young man, but when she was
thus brought face to face with it, instead of laughing she was struck
dumb; she could not make him any reply; she pretended to be busy with
the lamp, raising and then lowering the light, and then she left the
room altogether without a word. Poor Jim felt that he must have offended
her by this untoward allusion to better days. Did she think by any
chance that he was taunting her with her poverty, or that anybody in the
world, at least anybody at Watcham, could think the less of her? Perhaps
he ought not even to have said that; he ought to have made sure that it
went without saying, a certainty that it was half an offence to put into
words. As, however, he sat pondering this in doubt and fear, Mrs. Brown
came back all smiles, bringing that familiar tall glass foaming high
with the drink which nobody in Watcham could compound--nobody he had
ever known before.

‘Oh,’ he said, ‘I thought you were angry; and here you come like--like
Hebe, you know--with nectar in your hand.’

‘I am rather an elderly Hebe,’ she said, ‘but it’s a pretty comparison
all the same. If I were young and blooming instead of being old and
dried up, I should have made you a curtsey for your compliment; but
there’s this compensation, Mr. Jim, that a Hebe of seventeen, which is,
I believe, the right age, would probably not know how to make up a drink
like this. Taste it, and tell me if it isn’t the very nicest I have made
for you yet?’

‘It is nectar,’ said Jim fervently; ‘but,’ he added, ‘do you know, I
wish you wouldn’t make me such delicious things to drink. Why should I
give you all this trouble, and’--he paused, and added,
embarrassed--‘expense too?’

Mrs. Brown laughed and clapped her hands. ‘Expense, too!’ she cried;
‘how good! Oh, you don’t know how I get the materials, and how little
they cost me; people I used to employ in--in what you call my better
days, are so faithful to me. As you say, Mr. Jim, the world isn’t at all
such a hard place as one thinks; and even the ladies of the parish--but
you do amuse me so with your stories of the parish--it’s such an odd
little world, isn’t it? Tell me, what are they saying about Leo
Swinford? Has any one made up her mind to marry him? That’s what I
expect to hear every day.’

‘I don’t know anybody that wants to marry him,’ said Jim. ‘I suppose he
must take the first step in anything of that kind.’

‘Do you think so, really?’ said Mrs. Brown. ‘Now, do you know, I am not
at all so sure of that; the ladies will think of it first, I’ll promise
you. He is a nice young man, with a good estate; and he hadn’t been a
week in the parish, I’ll answer for it, before two or three ladies had
settled who was to have him--and as for the young ones themselves----
Oh, my dear Mr. Jim, you are too good-hearted; you don’t think, then, of
the plans and schemes that may be laid for you?’

‘Me!’ said Jim, with a blush; and then he shook his head. ‘Nobody
approves of me enough to make any plans about me.’

‘Don’t you be too sure of that,’ she said airily; ‘but Leo Swinford is a
new man, and he’s got a quantity of money. Now, answer me my question,
for I’ve known him all his life, and I take an interest in him: who is
going to marry him? Does your----’ She paused, and the mischief in her
eyes yielded to alarm for a moment. However much a youth may be in your
bonds, and capable of guidance, yet it is possible that he may rebel if
you question him about his mother; so she changed what she was about to
say. ‘Does your--aunt,’ she proceeded, ‘Lady William, don’t you know, as
everybody calls her--think of him for her little fat girl? Oh, I beg
your pardon; I think she is a very nice little girl, but she is fat;
when she grows older she will fine down.’

Jim’s delicacy was not offended by this statement. He laughed. ‘Yes,’ he
said, ‘Mab is fat; but she is a nice little girl for all that.’

‘A dear little girl,’ said Mrs. Brown; ‘she comes and gives me advice
about the children. You would think she was seventy instead of
seventeen. Well, is she to be the bride. Have the parish ladies given
their votes for her?’

‘For Mab!’ Jim repeated with wonder. ‘Mab’s not that kind of girl at
all. She does not go in for--for marrying or so forth. She’s too young.
She thinks of her garden, and of boating, and that sort of thing. She is
a very jolly girl. She has got a will of her own, just. The ladies might
give their votes as much as they please, it would not matter for that.’

‘Of course I may be mistaken,’ said Mrs. Brown, ‘I am the poor
schoolmistress. I don’t judge the gentry from their own point of view as
you do. I have to look up from such a very, very long way down.’ She
laughed, and Jim laughed too, though he did not quite know why. ‘But I
know that he is always at Lady William’s. What a little cottage she
lives in to be a lady of title, Mr. Jim; not very much bigger than
mine!’

‘Aunt Emily is not rich,’ said Jim, with a little uneasiness, feeling
that he ought not to be discussing his relation.

‘Poor lady; but if she marries her daughter to Leo Swinford? I know he
is there almost every day.’

‘Yes, so I hear,’ said Jim, ‘but I don’t believe he thinks of marrying
any one. He goes to see Aunt Emily. He goes for a good talk. There are
not many people to talk to here.’

‘To talk to a middle-aged lady, when there are plenty of young ones? Oh
no, Mr. Jim, you must not try to persuade me of that.’

‘But,’ said Jim, stammering a little, ‘it’s quite true. What difference
is there? just as I come to see you, and Osborne--but perhaps that’s not
quite the same thing.’

‘Osborne----’ said Mrs. Brown. ‘Oh, the curate, the good young curate.
As you come to see me--thank you, Mr. Jim, how nice you are!--Leo goes
and sits with your dear aunt. And Mr. Osborne--to whom does Mr. Osborne
go? Oh, I owe him something; he is so nice to me about the school. Tell
me where he goes to have his talk.’

‘Well, perhaps it’s not quite the same thing,’ said Jim, confused;
‘Miss Grey, you know she is almost like another curate, she knows as
much about the parish; but if he goes and has tea with her, I don’t
quite see, don’t you know, what anybody could say--how anybody could
object--or what is out of the way, don’t you know, in me----’

‘Going to sit a little in the evening with Mrs. Brown,’ said the
schoolmistress with a burst of laughter, clapping her hands. ‘And quite
right too; the analogy is perfect. So there are three of us,’ she said,
‘whom the young men prefer. You can’t think how nice, and cheering, and
pleasant for an old person; to think of three old ladies, Lady William,
Miss Grey, and me! How much I am obliged to you, my dear Mr. Jim!’

How was she obliged to him? What had he said? Jim felt very
uncomfortable, though he could not have told why.




XIV


When Leo Swinford said that he was lodged like a prince there was little
extravagance in the phrase. He was lodged like a prince indeed in the
age of reason, not that of subdued æstheticism like this. The rooms in
the Hall were spacious and lofty, and decorated with mirrors and gilding
and marble, generally false marble, to an extent very rarely seen in
England. And they were hung with pictures which would have been worth a
king’s ransom had the names upon them been genuine, which of course they
were not. A Swinford of a hundred years ago, Leo’s great-grandfather,
had been one of those dilettanti of the eighteenth century to whom the
languid Italy of those days was at once an idol and a place of plunder.
He had filled his house with copies, with supposed antiques picked up
here and there, with much old furniture and false statuary and bronzes.
All the splendid names of art flourished on the walls; I am not sure
that there was not a fragment, so called, of Phidias, from some classic
excavation, and I am certain that there were several Raphaels, and even
a Michael Angelo (the day of Botticelli was not yet). The cabinets and
carvings which were genuine gave an air of reality to much that was
false. If it was not true art, it was at least a good representation of
the age when connoisseurs were few, when the craft of the copyist was in
great request, and when it was fondly hoped, with that stupidity which
belongs to the cultured person in all ages, that the model of the
Italian palace, designed for skies and customs so different from ours,
might be made to improve the natural beauty of an English house; the
attempt was a mistake, but here and there, when carried out regardless
of expense, it was not without effect, and the Hall was a good specimen
of its period. A hundred years is a respectable period of time, and an
example of the aims and meaning of a past century is worth preserving.
But the large suites of rooms opening from each other, with large
windows and doors, and no system of warming, were chilly and severe in a
season still scarcely genial--England in this respect, with the cheerful
open fires upon which we pride ourselves, being so much inferior to
France with its calorifères, or Germany with its endless stuffy but
effective stoves, in the art of keeping a house warm. Our houses, alas,
are far from being warm, as many a shivering invalid knows.

It was on a Saturday, late in the afternoon in the beginning of April,
but before the blasts were altogether over, that another visitor who was
not at all so well received as Lady William and the Plowdens, walked
briskly up the avenue and along by the side of the lake towards the
Hall. She went quietly, looking neither to the right nor the left, with
the air of a person who knew very well where she was going; and she was,
I think, better dressed than Lady William, with something like fashion
in the fit of her garments and the fall of her draperies, not
over-dressed either, in black with a little veil over her face, a woman
with a presence which all the poor in Watcham recognised as that of a
lady, and a person who had seen better days. How it was that her air and
aspect which impressed all the others, even Mrs. Plowden and most of the
other ladies of the parish, failed to impress Morris the butler I cannot
tell. There are mysteries in all crafts, and though he was for a moment
slightly flustered by her bearing, Morris put himself straight in the
middle of the doorway and opposed Mrs. Brown’s entrance with a decision
which he would not have ventured to exhibit in face of little Miss Grey,
who had the air of being dressed out of a rag-bag, or the humblest
curate’s wife. ‘Not at home,’ Morris said with the utmost audacity,
looking the visitor full in the face.

‘I know,’ said Mrs. Brown, ‘but I will come in till you have sent up my
name, for I know that she will see me.’

‘It is quite contrary to my lady’s habits to see any one at this hour,’
said Morris, who was a person of education--‘if you will state your
business I will report it to Madame Julie, who will convey it to her
mistress at a fitting time, and then, if Mrs. Swinford will receive
you----’

Mrs. Brown laughed.

‘Do you ask all the ladies that call to state their business?’ she said,
with an air of amusement which confused Mr. Morris.

‘Ladies,’ he said, with a slight falter in his assurance, ‘who call at
the usual hours is a different thing.’

‘Why, it isn’t six o’clock,’ said Mrs Brown, ‘and if I had not known
Mrs. Swinford I should not have thought it too late. But it is precisely
because it is too late that I am here; for I’ve no business except to
see your lady, Morris, so you may as well go at once and not keep me
standing here.’

Morris began to grow more and more uncertain in spite of himself.
Everything was against her; her look, though how he knew that, it would
be difficult to tell; her composure, not angry as a real lady should
have been (in his opinion) and indisposed to bandy words. A curate’s
wife would have retired in high dudgeon before he had enunciated his
first phrase. Little Miss Grey would have transfixed him with a look,
and turned away; but this visitor was not disinclined even to chaff the
butler, therefore she was no lady. Yet there was something in her
patronage, in her composure, and last of all in that sudden use of his
own name, which gave the man a vague sensation of alarm.

‘You seem to know my name,’ he said, ‘but you haven’t even taken the
trouble, ma’am, to give me yours.’

Upon which the visitor broke into a laugh.

‘Mine is not very distinguished, Morris,’ she said, ‘I am Mrs. Brown,
but not the dressmaker from the village to ask for orders from Julie, as
you seem to suppose. Come, come, there’s been enough of this.’ As she
spoke, she passed Mr. Morris adroitly, and entered the great lofty hall
which formed the vestibule of the Swinford mansion. ‘There has been no
change made, I see,’ she said, with a rapid glance round; ‘do you mean
to tell me, Morris, that your lady is going to support all this and make
no change?’

The hall was almost dark, the lamps as yet unlighted, and only a dim
evening light in the row of long windows. Some one stirred, however, in
a corner, and came forward, only half distinguishable in the twilight.

‘Morris,’ said this half-seen person, ‘you know my mother never receives
at this hour----’

‘Ah, Leo,’ said the visitor, with a slight quaver in the assurance of
her voice, ‘is it you?’

When Morris heard his master called Leo, he retired discreetly with a
momentary sense that the sky, or rather the gilded roof of the hall, was
falling upon him. Had it occurred to him, so assured in his duties, to
make a tremendous mistake? The feeling at first gave him a sensation not
to be put into words, and his impulse was to take immediate flight; but
on reflection, he felt it so very unlikely that he could have made a
mistake, that he subsided into the shelter of one of the pillars and
waited to see what would happen. Mr. Leo Swinford was known among the
servants as a most affable gentleman; but Morris was well aware that his
master was not one to submit to any impertinence. It was a moment of
great excitement, almost too thrilling--for a butler has the pride of
his profession, like another, and it would have been dreadful to him to
have to acknowledge that he had made a mistake.

‘I fear I must say that you have the advantage of me,’ Leo said, with a
coldness that was balm to Morris’s soul.

The visitor came forward with a short laugh, to one of the windows.

‘You have a short memory,’ she said; ‘but yet if you remember we met
only the other day.’

Then there was a little pause, and then Mr. Swinford said in a tone
which was half rage and half contempt:

‘I thought I made my sentiments clear enough that day: but I might have
known----’

‘Yes,’ said the lady, ‘I think you might have known; but I don’t blame
you, Leo, your views and mine don’t agree, and never will; all the same
you can take off your bulldog and make him understand that the house is
free to your relations. I needn’t trouble you otherwise; of course I
have come to see your mother, and I hope I know my way.’

Morris behind his pillar beheld aghast an alert shadow glide through the
gloom across the hall and up the stairs. There was now so little light
that she looked like a ghost, a darkness moving through the gloom, but
in no other way ghostlike, quite vigorous, full of life. The man could
not move; he was humiliated in his tenderest point--a relation! and to
think he should have made such a mistake; but on the whole, Morris was
consoled by the fact that it was a relation; relations are not always
equals, they are not always friends; sometimes the people of the house
would prefer to have them shut out. If it had been a lady of a county
family, perhaps, or some intimate friend, it would have been different.
He gradually began to raise again his drooping spirits; he was about to
start away from his post of observation when his master called him
briskly, having probably heard the noise of his retiring feet. Morris
did not like to be caught eavesdropping; he was a functionary of a very
high ideal; he allowed a moment to elapse, during which he judiciously
and stealthily edged further off, and answered, as from a distance, ‘Did
you call, sir?’ with the air of a man who has heard imperfectly, being
so far off.

‘Come here, quick,’ said Leo impatiently. ‘Morris, I want to speak to
you about that lady; you refused to let her in.’

‘I am very sorry, sir, very sorry if I made a mistake; but my lady’s
orders are, after half-past five, no one, unless there’s an exception.’

‘Just so, you are quite right; but probably there will be an exception;
I don’t suppose my mother knew Mrs. Brown was here; she is a very old
friend. Of course you must take my mother’s orders on the matter; but I
suppose an exception will be made.’

‘Of course, sir,’ said Morris politely, with a sense of giving way from
his absolute right as guardian of the Swinford House; ‘if it’s your--or
my lady’s wish----’

This sacrifice made the master of the house laugh, and cleared his brow
for the moment; and presently he retired into the great gilded pillared
room which was the library. He was not without a little pride in the
grandiose decorations which had been his ancestors’ doing; but as he
cast his eye round the great room, with the gilded gallery that ran
round it, he thought, with a sigh, of the luxurious apartment in Paris
in which he had been brought up. The one was so warm and gay, the other
so glittering and cold; he believed there were a great many dummies on
those huge shelves; unquestionably there were a great many worthless
books; it was too big, too grand, too full of pretension to be made a
home of, and everything was new and laborious and dull around him, even
his own unaccustomed works of beneficence, which had been amusing at
first. Had he been allowed to give up a portion of his income in order
to make happy all the poor people without any trouble to himself!--but
he had begun to be bored by Miss Grey and her intimate knowledge of
everybody’s wants, and to cease to be amused by the curate, who was all
for shutting up the public-houses, those public-houses which Leo, in the
toleration of his foreign training, looked upon as the only means of
necessary relaxation which the poor people possessed. There was only one
thing among his new surroundings that did not cease to amuse him, and
that was the little, the very little drawing-room in which of an evening
he found Lady William sitting in the firelight, and where he could talk
of all that was in his heart. It was, perhaps, a little later than
usual, for he had been detained by various matters of business, but
still it was not too late, and in a few minutes more he had put on the
coat with the fur lining which had made such a sensation in Watcham, and
was walking very briskly down the avenue, with the gloom deepened and
the vexation lightened, wondering how much he might tell her, and
whether she would remember Mrs. Brown.

Now I wonder much whether the reader would rather hear what passed that
evening in Lady William’s drawing-room in the firelight, at the hour
when people can talk more confidentially and cosily, only half seeing
each other’s faces, than at any other time; or whether he (or she) would
prefer to be present at the interview in Mrs. Swinford’s boudoir, which
was going on at the same moment. I know which I prefer myself. The
simple people in the world who have no mysteries about them, who have
their little humours and follies, but mean no harm, and do no harm as
far as human judgment can guide them, are familiar and well known. I
know what they are thinking about, and what they say, and how much or
how little they mean. But with the others there is a strain. I know, of
course, very well what Mrs. Swinford and Mrs. Brown had to talk about
and what they said, but it is a kind of artificial knowledge, and I
don’t like having much to do with these women of the world. There are
different kinds of women of the world; but the lady who was Leo
Swinford’s mother was not of the good kind, neither was her old friend,
or her relation, or whoever Mrs. Brown was. They were of the kind who
are enemies of the good, perhaps not absolutely meaning to be so, but
because they were intent each of them on her own way, and on pleasing
herself; and looked upon every obstacle to that, only as something to be
cleared away. Therefore, if the gentle reader pleases, we will put off
their talk for a while, and go cheerfully down with Leo through the dark
avenue, and by the side of the little wistful lake, in which the
clearness of the evening sky is reflected, and along the quiet country
road; till we come to the village green where the lights are beginning
to shine in the windows, past the church with its low spire rising
against the sky, and the Rectory behind its damp and level lawn; and at
last arrive at the quarter where the best houses stand out against the
west, with their trees budding and the crocuses ablow in all the
borders, and a pleasant scent of wallflowers in the air. Lady William’s
garden was more full of wallflowers than any of the others, and the
narcissus were coming out, and the primroses taking the place of the
crocuses; jealous people said because, if anything, it had the finest
south exposure; but chiefly because Mab was the head gardener, and had a
genius for that art. General FitzStephen was in his garden when Leo
passed, and called ‘good evening’ to him over the privet hedge, for the
General knew very well where the young man was going, and thought it
very natural. The old gentleman was fond of little Mab, and hoped that
it was she, though she was so ridiculously young, that was to make this
great match; but he did not feel so sure as he would have liked to do,
whether this was what Leo meant.

In Lady William’s cottage things were a little different from the usual
conditions--for Leo was late, later than he had ever been before--and he
did not like them quite so well as usual. For one thing the lamp was
lighted and the fire very low, the evening being, or so these ladies
thought, warmer than usual; and for another thing they were very busy,
Mab and her mother, over their necessary sewing. As everybody knows, the
coming of summer is a much more troublesome thing, in respect to dress,
than winter, when two warm nice dresses, one for common use and one for
best, is as much as anybody wants. But in summer, besides the best frock
on which Lady William was employed, with her daughter, when we first
made her acquaintance, there are cotton dresses to be thought of, and
things for the warm weather, of which a girl who is always in movement
wants a great many. And indeed, at this present moment the work in hand
was a white frock, which was intended for a party, to be given by the
FitzStephens, which very possibly might end in a dance; and this was
naturally a very interesting piece of work.

‘Shall I put it away, mother?’ said Mab.

‘No,’ said Lady William, ‘a man knows nothing about it, he will think we
are hemming tablecloths; and he would not be any the wiser if he did
know.’

It is curious that Mab, an inexperienced little girl, should have known
better in this respect than her mother, who was so much more acquainted
with the world. She went on with her work, indeed, all the same, but she
shook her head and felt convinced that when Leo Swinford saw what they
were doing, he would perfectly well know; and, indeed, he had scarcely
been ushered in by Patty, and found a chair for himself, than he said at
once:

‘Why, you are making a dress!’

‘Why not?’ said Lady William; ‘we always do.’

‘It is for Miss Mab, and she is going to a party,’ said Leo. ‘Is it a
ball, and will they probably ask me?’

‘Certainly, if you will go; but you are the great man, you know, here,
and they may be afraid to ask you with all the little village people.’

‘I love the village people,’ said Leo; and then he laughed a little,
remembering that there had been of late other thoughts in his mind.

‘You are getting a little tired of them,’ said Lady William; ‘I told you
so; between the time that they amuse you with their little ways, and the
time that you know the real goodness of them, there comes a moment when
you are bored. You must soon go to town for the season, and let Watcham
rest, or yourself.’

‘I have no desire to go to town for the season, or let Watcham rest. I
may be a little tired of the philanthropy: I am not tired of this room,’
he said, looking round upon it affectionately; ‘do you know I don’t
think I ever saw it lighted before.’

‘So brilliantly lighted, _al giorno_,’ said Lady William; ‘the firelight
is kind and hides its little defects. But you are late to-night.’

‘Yes, my mother has had a visit, which sent me out untimely; it annoys
me, and of course I must come and tell you my annoyance. Do you remember
a certain Mansfield woman long ago?’

‘Do I remember her!’

‘Of course you must; there is always mischief where she is. She has
appeared again.’

‘But is that a strange event? She is a relation, and your mother was
much attached to her, too.’

‘I suppose so; though why----? Can anybody explain these things? And
there is always mischief when she comes. I don’t know what may be
brewing at present, nor why she comes now. Does she live here?’

‘Oh no,’ said Lady William; ‘certainly not, she must have come from
London: everybody that is uncomfortable comes from London. But you must
not be superstitious. Mischief can’t be created if the elements of it
don’t exist, and I see none that she can work upon now.’

‘She might make dissension; she will make dissension, dear lady, between
my mother and me.’

‘Forewarned is forearmed; don’t let her,’ said Lady William, ‘that is
the only thing to say.’

‘But she will be too many for me,’ said Leo, shaking his head yet
smiling; ‘I have no confidence in myself.’

‘You are too superstitious; she must not be too many for you; your
mother’s son is more to her than her cousin.’

‘Is she her cousin? and am I----’

‘Her son!’ said Lady William, with a laugh; ‘the wonderful question! I
don’t think any doubt can be entertained on that subject.’

‘No, no; I meant am I more strong as son than the other as---- How can
I tell what to say?’

‘My dear Leo! A son is stronger than anything in the world.’

‘Except a daughter,’ he said, looking at Mab.

‘It is the same; one’s own child is more to one than all the world
beside.’

‘Do you know,’ he said, ‘there is one thing that I think is almost
better, that clears away the clouds and brings out the sun, and makes
one see him:--and that is you.’ He put his hand upon hers softly, with a
momentary touch.

‘That is a friend,’ said Lady William hastily. A little uneasy flush
came over her face. She was very conscious, more conscious than was
pleasant, of little Mab sewing on sedately, never lifting her eyes.




XV


Mrs. Brown walked quickly through the darkening house. She met a footman
with a lamp, who stood bewildered at the strange figure, and a housemaid
in the upper corridor, who stopped her to ask what she wanted, but was
soon intimidated by her look and voice. The stranger wanted no guidance,
no indication, to which side to turn, as the maid perceived, who stood
watching her, and saw her swift, familiar approach to Mrs. Swinford’s
door. ‘Missis will go out of her senses,’ said Mary Jane to herself, and
she hurried away, to be out of it, whatever might happen. ‘Nobody can
say as I let her in,’ the young woman said.

Madame Julie, the maid, came to the door in answer to Mrs. Brown’s light
knock, but not before that lady, waiting for no one, had opened it and
stepped into the ante-room in which Julie sat. Mrs. Swinford’s apartment
was as complete as English comfort and French refinement could make it.
The ante-room, in which Julie sat, was finer than any of the village
drawing-rooms, kept comfortable by many carpets and thick curtains, and
lighted by a large window turned to the west, by the remaining light in
which she regarded with alarm and fury the bold intruder.

‘What you want here?’ she said in her doubtful English, unintimidated by
the aspect of the lady who had overawed Mary Jane. ‘Madame reçoit
personne,’ she added, in a less assured tone.

‘Moi exceptée toujours, Julie,’ said Mrs. Brown.

Upon which Julie started and clasped her hands. ‘Mon Dieu!’ she said,
‘Madame Artémise!’

‘You need not announce me, I’ll find my way by myself. Has she lights,
Julie? Is she alone?’

‘You will startle Madame out of her life, Madame Artémise.’

‘Not a bit. What is pleasant harms no one, and you know she is always
happy to see me.’

Julie knew, yet did not look quite sure. ‘I will say but a word, a
_petit mot_. Madame will not look up, but it will prepare her. Ah, she
hears us talk!’ for a bell at this moment tinkled into the stillness.
Julie put aside the curtain and opened a door, from which came a gleam
of light, and a voice saying querulously, ‘You are talking with some
one; how often must I say no one must come here?’

‘It is not Julie’s fault: it is I, Cecile, come to welcome you home.’

Mrs. Swinford rose up from the couch upon which she had been reclining,
with a cry. She made a step forward, and allowed herself to drop into
the arms which the visitor held forth. It was a strange embrace,
apparently altogether on one side; the other passive, receiving only the
marks of affection. Yet there was something in the _abandon_ with which
the great lady let herself go into the stranger’s arms, which showed
almost a greater warmth in the receiver than giver of the embrace. She
put down her head on Mrs. Brown’s shoulder with a murmur of welcome and
satisfaction; then raised it to wave an angry hand towards Julie,
bidding her go. The maid retired without a word. She was a middle-aged
Frenchwoman, very neat, and rather grim, black-haired, and
dark-complexioned, with a black gown, and hair elaborately dressed. She
obeyed her mistress in utter silence, closing the door noiselessly
behind her, but threw her head and body, like a pendulum, to and fro as
she went back to the work which she had been doing under the west window
by the waning light. Evidently this stranger was no welcome apparition
to Julie, any more than to more important persons in the house.

‘What wind has blown you here? and where do you come from, just when I
felt such enormous need of you?’ Mrs. Swinford said.

‘Some people would say it was an ill wind; and you know I feel always
when you want me,’ said Mrs. Brown.

‘You must have known that when I came here, where there are so many
horrible associations, I must have wanted you. It is an instinct.
Listen, Artémise. Leo has forced me here against my will. He has all his
father’s foolish notions, with more added of his own. And he has the
upper hand, which his father never had----’

‘Sometimes, my dear.’

‘Once, you mean,’ said Mrs. Swinford. She was old, though she kept that
fact at bay, and did not admit it by any outward sign: but she flushed
over all her face like a girl at these words. ‘Once, no more: and you
know how that is brought back to me here, and every incident of the
time. That woman at my very door, bearing the name---- which she never
would have had but for me.’

‘I never liked the expedient, Cecile.’

‘Why, it was you who---- and it was the only way. But now that the whole
dreadful tale is swept away into the past, and everybody, except you and
me, has forgotten it, there she sits at my door, calm, with that name.
And I have to receive her; to call her friend; to kiss her---- imagine!
I have kissed Emily Plowden, and called her by that name!’

‘I don’t see what else you could do. It was your own doing, the whole
affair. I will always stand by you, through thick and thin. But I never
approved of _that_, Cecile. It was too heavy a responsibility. If you
like to do certain things you know you will have to pay for them. You
get nothing for nothing in this world. But I don’t like meddling with
another creature’s life.’

‘I detest you when you preach, Artémise; you have so fine a position for
that; hands so clean! From whence do you come now? from wandering to and
fro upon the earth----’

‘Seeking whom I may devour? No, I am devouring no one; I have settled
myself--at your very door, too--to do good, my dear.’

‘To do---- good!’

‘You are surprised. Don’t you know there comes a time when we would all
like to be sisters of charity? But I have not gone so far as that. I
have a very nice little post in the village, gained chiefly by a
recommendation you once gave me, and your poor husband---- naturally
that had great weight here--and other things. I am schoolmistress of the
girls’ school, Watcham parish. At your service, Madame Cecile.’

Mrs. Swinford uttered that exclamation, which means so little in French
and so much in English. She did not join in the laugh with which her
visitor broke off. She was a more tragical person altogether than Mrs.
Brown.

‘Mistress of the school, living in the village! You are welcome, as you
know, to live with me. Why should you demean yourself in such a way? Why
do you always try to compromise----’

‘Not you, Mrs. Swinford. I have never compromised you. I don’t choose to
be your dependent; to eat that bitter bread. But you have never had any
trouble brought into your life by me.’

‘Not that of being ignorant for years together where you are? of not
knowing what you are doing? whether you may be in want? whether you may
be ill? if you may have died----’

‘On some roadside, or in some hospital, nobody knowing anything about
me,’ said Mrs. Brown, with a harsh little laugh, ‘and not a bad thing
either, and probably the way it will happen at the last. But I should
always, unless it was sudden, take care that you knew. It is a curious
thing,’ she said, laughing again, and winking her eyes rapidly, as if to
shake off some moisture, ‘that you and I, two such women as we are, not
of the soft kind, should in a sort of a way, not caring much for anybody
else, love each other, Cecile!’

We need not be sentimental and talk of it at least,’ said the other; ‘I
see nothing wonderful in it. With others always contradiction and
contrariety, but between you and me understanding--even when you take
upon you, so much younger as you are, not to approve.’

‘Oh, I must always reserve that power--if I were only four, instead of
forty,’ said Mrs. Brown.

‘Forty and a little more.’

‘If you think I am in any danger of forgetting the little
more--forty-six--a sensible age. You would not imagine at that discreet
period of existence that my chief friend in Watcham should be a young
man.’

Mrs. Swinford shrugged her shoulders as if nothing could be more
perfectly indifferent to her.

‘Who keeps me informed of all that is going on,’ she added, after a
moment’s pause.

‘Ah!’ Even this, however, did not awake the great lady’s interest; for
what were the village news to her?

‘I hear of Leo’s proceedings. He seems to mean to turn everything upside
down.’

‘The foolish boy! he has got it into his head that he has neglected his
duties. What are his duties? I know not. One, that he does not regard,
is to make life as pleasant as time and circumstances will admit to his
mother. It is not much I ask. To reside where I can breathe. To see a
few people whom I like, who understand me. To be kept from sordid
calculations and cares. What he thinks more important is to come back
here to look after his people, as he calls them. His people! How are
they his people? They pay him rent, that is all. And he thinks more of
them than of what is comfort and life to me!’

‘I feel very much for you, Cecile, in many ways,’ said Mrs. Brown, not
without a hidden tone of satire, ‘but do you know, I cannot see that
you are much deficient in point of comfort here.’

Mrs. Swinford looked round the pretty room with an air of disgust. It
would have been difficult to imagine anything more luxurious. The old
grandfather’s decorations had been removed or softened with a taste more
French than English, yet exquisite in its way. The curtains were of the
softest rich stuffs. The walls were hung with a few bright pictures,
little English water-colours, French genre subjects, as cheerful and
smiling as could be desired. It was lighted with soft lamps carefully
shaded, giving a subdued silvery light. There were books of all kinds,
from those in rows of beautiful binding, which filled the low bookcases,
to the French novels in yellow paper, which occupied the table at Mrs.
Swinford’s hand. If there was anything wanting to the beauty or comfort
of this wonderful little room it was difficult to find it out. Mrs.
Brown instantly compared it with the sitting-room in the schoolhouse,
and burst into a laugh.

‘You should see the rooms in which I live,’ she said, ‘and yet I don’t
think they are bad rooms. I have known worse. I consider myself very
well off. Oh, you are different, a great lady as you have always been,
and I only a waif and stray.’

‘That was at your own will, Artémise.’

‘I know; I blame nobody. I have been the wilful one that have always
taken my own way; you have generally succeeded in making other people
take yours.’

Mrs. Swinford smiled faintly, and then she said, her face resuming its
discontented expression:

‘That is over; now, it is my son I have to deal with; my son, who owes
me everything.’

‘Be reasonable; he owes you his birth, of course, and a great deal of
petting when he was a boy----’

‘And the sacrifice of my life,’ said Mrs. Swinford. ‘Do you think I ever
would have done what I did and given up all I cared for, if it had not
been for Leo? Do you think I would have cared for scandal or anything
but for the boy? or for what his father might say or do? The whole thing
was for him. Emily may thank him for her title, as they call
it--ridiculous title! When I hear that name and her rank, talked of--her
rank, forsooth--and that she takes precedence of everybody--even, I
suppose, she will, with a fierce laugh, ‘of me----’

‘Ah!’ said Mrs. Brown, ‘that’s something, I did not think of that; but
take care, Cecile, that she does not take precedence of you in other
ways.’

‘In what way? You mean, I suppose, that she is younger and has a sort of
beauty! I cannot deny that she has a sort of beauty. She is not the
common pretty girl that Emily Plowden was. It is not for nothing that I
helped to plunge her into the world. She knows something of life, and
though she will never make anything of the advantages she possesses,
still she has them. You may imagine I looked at her with sharp eyes
enough, remembering what she used to be and what she was. But her world
is not my world, and what do I care for her village precedence, or for
any comparison that may be made here?’

‘There will be no comparison made, Cecile.’

Mrs. Brown looked with a curious pitying glance at the woman, who was
old, yet had never given up the pretensions of youth. She was nearly
twenty years younger, and saw the futility of these pretensions with
perfect lucidity of vision; but there was kindness as well as pity in
her eyes. Did not her glass say anything to this old woman, that she
should talk of comparison between her and Lady William’s mature but
unfaded years? Did not common sense say anything? As Mrs. Brown was much
more near to Lady William’s age than Mrs. Swinford’s, the case was
perfectly clear to her eyes.

‘No, I do not suppose so,’ Mrs. Swinford said; ‘and my hope is that he
will tire of it presently. What attraction can he find in a country
village in England? There is nothing. His philanthropy, bah! his people,
ridiculous! It is ignorance that makes him talk of his people as if he
were a great potentate, when he is only a country gentleman.’

‘It is his breeding,’ said Mrs. Brown. ‘How was he to find out the
difference in Paris? and you always treated him, you who are, as I tell
you, a great lady by nature, as if he were a _grand seigneur_.’

‘I must be patient,’ said Mrs. Swinford; ‘it is difficult, but I must be
patient: I gave him three months to be sick of the life, and the half of
the time is not gone; I don’t think he will hold out a month more----’

‘Unless there should in the meantime arise some other attraction.’

‘What other attraction?’ Mrs. Swinford caught her visitor by the arm.
‘An attraction--in this village? Artémise, you have heard of something!
A woman? who is she? I must know, I must know!’

‘Do not be frightened. But I think you are imprudent, Cecile; you should
have filled the house with company, you should have come back in a
storm of gaiety; he should have known nothing of the village at all.’

‘Who is she?’ said Mrs. Swinford, tightening her grasp on the other’s
arm; ‘some wretched girl with a baby face.’

‘It is no girl, it is nothing of that sort; it is a woman as old, nearly
as old as I am. I told you I had a young admirer too, who comes to me
for the superiority of my conversation, and my knowledge of the world.
So does Leo; to discuss the world, and things in general, and the topics
of the day.’

‘You are either laughing at everything, as has been your custom all your
life, or you are announcing to me a great danger; the loss of all my
power.’

‘Do not always be so high heroical. Let me tell you my own story first.
My young friend is Jim, the Rector’s son. He saw me with a gay party in
Oxford, and I thought that he would betray me. But he is as innocent as
a child, and respects and admires me as one who has seen better days. I
keep him from vulgar dangers; from the “Blue Boar”--but you don’t know
the perils of the “Blue Boar”----’

‘What are all these puerilities to me?’ said Mrs. Swinford. ‘You weary
me. Do you think it is interesting to me, this story of the Rector’s
son?’

‘I am aware it wearies you; one sees that on your still fine
countenance, Cecile: but I am coming to what will interest you. In the
same way Leo frequents a cottage, a very genteel cottage, far superior
to the schoolmistress’s house. There is a mother and a daughter in it.
He may be falling in love with the daughter, but I think not, for the
little thing is plain. But the mother is not plain; she is a woman who
has known the world. She has been buried here, among the bucolics, for
years. But when she sees a man of manners, who also knows the world, is
there anything wonderful in it if she likes his conversation too?’

‘Artémise, who is she? Tell me her name.’

Mrs. Brown did not say a word, but looked at her companion with
wondering eyes.




XVI


Next day the village was roused into great excitement by the appearance
of a carriage from the Hall, in unusual state, with the coachman and
footman in their gala liveries--or so at least it appeared to the
unsophisticated ideas of the villagers, who came out to gape at the
sight. A carriage passing is nothing wonderful in Watcham, however
gorgeous--but a carriage which drives about from door to door, paying
visits--this was a thing that happened seldom; the great people in the
neighbourhood, the Lenthalls and Lady Wade, and the rest, would come
occasionally to leave a card at the FitzStephens’, or to show civility
to the people in the Rectory: but the sight of the prancing horses, and
the footman attending his mistress from door to door, was a delight to
the eyes such as seldom happened. The children were coming from school,
and they ran in a little crowd to see and make their remarks with the
usual frankness of a population in which the sharpness of town had crept
in, modifying the bashfulness, but not the dull candour inaccessible to
notions of civility, of the country. The Watcham children were,
fortunately, more interested in the appearance of the servants than they
were in that of the mistress, though some of the girls whispered
together and indulged in pointed laughter at the lady who had to be
assisted from the carriage, and who picked her steps, with such an
expression in every turn of her person of impatient disgust, along the
garden paths. Mrs. Swinford felt it a personal injury that the houses
had all gardens and no entrance for the carriage, so that it was
absolutely necessary for her, however reluctant, to walk so far before
she could reach the door. But she was civil to the FitzStephens’, who
both met her at their drawing-room door with effusion, and handed her to
the most comfortable chair--which, however, Mrs. Swinford turned from
the light before she would sit down.

‘My eyes will not support so much light. You seem to make really no use
of curtains and blinds in this country,’ she said.

‘My husband likes all the light he can get,’ said Mrs. FitzStephen:
though she had been, as the reader knows, a pretty woman, and was a
fool, according to her visitor’s ideas, to face the day and show her
wrinkles as she did. But the General’s wife had no idea that her old
beauty required to be taken care of in this way.

‘It is all very well for men,’ said Mrs. Swinford--but she explained no
further. She added: ‘I do not make calls generally, and country visits
are an abomination, even when one can drive up to the door.’

‘We take your call as all the greater compliment,’ said the General,
with his finest bow; but Mrs. FitzStephen remembering that she herself
was a Challoner, and certainly as good as any Swinford of them all, not
to speak of the claims of the FitzStephens--was not quite so complacent.

‘It is a pity,’ she said, ‘that we have no drive, and that our garden
must be crossed on foot. We feel it very much when we have company. It
is impossible to put up an awning all the way.’

‘Oh, you sometimes have company!’ said the fine lady.

‘We are even looking forward to a dance, in ten days,’ said the General,
‘a little ridiculous, you may think, for a quiet couple without children
like my wife and me: but a dance is more pleasant to the young people
than anything else.’

‘And consider,’ said his wife, ‘there is no need to do anything to amuse
them, except to provide good music and as nice a floor as possible. They
do the rest themselves.’

Mrs. Swinford looked round upon the small drawing-room with an air of
inquiry which she did not attempt to disguise. ‘I am not much interested
in amusing young people,’ she said; ‘where do they dance?’ in a tone
that showed she was quite satisfied no dancing could take place there.

Mrs. FitzStephen grew red, and the General confused. They were very fond
of this pretty drawing-room. Compliments upon its furniture and
arrangements were familiar to them, and they were in the habit of
deprecating too much praise by a fond apology as to its diminutive size.
‘Oh, it is too small for anything,’ Mrs. FitzStephen was in the habit of
saying, with a mild inference that she was herself accustomed to
something much larger. But the great lady’s seeming simple question
dashed all their little pretences. Fortunately she left them no time to
reply. ‘You have your little society in the village?’ she said.

‘Oh, we are not confined to the village,’ said Mrs. FitzStephen sharply,
‘we have a tolerably large list--I expect the Lenthalls, and some
others.’

Mrs. Swinford again permitted her eyes to stray--with a slight elevation
of the eyebrows--round the tiny room.

‘We did not venture to send an invitation to the Hall,’ said the
General, with an uneasy laugh. ‘We scarcely ventured to hope--though I
am happy to say that Mr. Swinford is coming, my dear.’

‘If you mean me,’ said Mrs. Swinford, ‘I never go out--at least to
balls--since I have ceased to dance.’

‘Ah well, those days soon pass over,’ said the good old soldier, ‘we
find other amusements at our age.’

Mrs. Swinford gave him a look--which did not reduce the gallant General
to ashes, for he was not at all aware what she meant.

‘My husband is very fond of seeing the young people enjoy themselves,’
said Mrs. FitzStephen; ‘that amuses him more than anything for himself.’

‘Oh come, my dear, you must not give me too good a character,’ said the
General. ‘I like a snug little dinner-party too, and a good talk.’

‘Do you talk here, too, as well as dance?’ said Mrs. Swinford, with an
ineffable smile.

‘Oh, my dear lady, I assure you we have sometimes quite remarkable
conversations. The Rector is an exceedingly well-informed man, and young
Osborne has a great deal to say for himself, though he is taken up with
fads--too much. And then, above all, there is Lady William----’

‘Oh, Emily! I had forgotten Lady William, as you call her.’

‘One can’t live in Watcham and leave out Lady William, I assure you, my
dear madam,’ the General said; ‘besides her rank, which of course places
her in the front of all.’

‘Ah, to be sure!’ said Mrs. Swinford, with a little gurgling laugh,
which stopped and then ran on again, as if with a ridicule impossible to
restrain--‘Her rank! I had forgotten her rank--such rank as it is.’

‘We think a good deal of it here,’ said Mrs. FitzStephen. ‘Lady Wade,
you know, is only a baronet’s wife, and of course has to give place. It
gives quite a little distinction to our village; everybody even in the
county, at this end of it at least, must give way to Lady William. It is
a great feather in our cap.’

Mrs. Swinford went on laughing, breaking into fresh little runs of
merriment from time to time. ‘This is really amusing,’ she said. ‘Poor
Emily: and does she talk too?’

‘She is an exceedingly cultivated woman, and one who has seen the world.
I know few greater treats than to discuss either books or people with
Lady William,’ said the General, with great gravity, holding up his head
as if he were in uniform--which indeed this fine attitude almost
persuaded his admiring wife that he was. What a champion for any one to
have! But Mrs. Swinford went on with her little exasperating laugh like
the vibration of an electric bell. It was very disconcerting to the
pair, who were a little proud of their friendship with Lady William, and
liked to wave her flag in any stranger’s eyes.

‘You see,’ said the great lady, ‘Emily Plowden, poor girl, was in the
bread and butter stage when I knew her best: and to hear now of her
rank, and then of her accomplishments, is a new experience. I cannot
convey to your minds the amusement it causes me.’

‘Ah!’ said General FitzStephen gravely, ‘as I feel when I hear of a
little ensign who came out to India at sixteen, and is now in command of
my old regiment.’

Mrs. Swinford’s laugh ran on like the endless irritating tinkle of that
electric bell. ‘More,’ she said, ‘for the boy would gain his promotion;
but Emily!--it is more amusing than you can have any idea of to see that
she takes it _au grand sérieux_, the rank and all.’

‘Perhaps, General,’ said Mrs. FitzStephen quickly, ‘you will ring for
tea, instead of standing there,’ which was the most uncalled-for,
unjustifiable attack: for why should not he stand there, and where else
could he have stood but respectfully in front of her chair, listening to
their guest? He roused himself with a little start, and did what he was
told, but not without a look of surprised appeal at his wife’s face.

‘No tea,’ said Mrs. Swinford, rising; ‘I have not acquired the habit:
but I am sure the General will kindly give me his arm to my carriage. I
walk so little, I stumble; I have not the use of gravel walks.’

Mrs. FitzStephen watched the lady sweep away. She had very high-heeled
shoes and a long dress, too long for walking. The General’s wife watched
her along the gravel path, which she thought it very insolent of any
one to object to. Mrs. Swinford did not sweep (except indoors) or glide,
or march, majestically, as would have been consonant with her
pretensions, but accoutred as she was, hobbled, not more gracefully than
if she had been any old woman in the village. Her step showed she was an
old woman, however she might ignore that fact, and it gave the General’s
wife, whom she had rubbed so persistently the wrong way, a certain
characteristic feminine satisfaction to feel that it was so. Also Mrs.
FitzStephen strongly disapproved of the respectful and devoted air with
which her husband conducted the great lady. It was Stephen’s way; he
could not help it. He was an old----, taken in by any woman that would
take the trouble. But what could she mean about Lady William, and all
those scoffs at her rank? Could there be any doubt about her rank? It
might be a courtesy title, but what did that matter? The daughter-in-law
of a marquis held precedence over quite a number of people who were Lady
So-and-So. Lady Wade never disputed it, and the Wades had an old
baronetcy. They were not upstart people. What did the--the--Mrs.
FitzStephen paused for a word--the old hag mean?

‘Oh, she meant nothing but spite,’ said the General when he came back,
‘feminine spite such as you all entertain towards your neighbours when
they are prettier or wiser than you.’

‘Perhaps you will tell me what woman I regard with feminine spite,’ Mrs.
FitzStephen very reasonably said.

‘Oh, you, my dear, you’ve no occasion; you are a pretty woman still, and
can hold your own: but that poor old soul,’ said the General, ‘as you
may have perceived, I had almost to carry her down the walk; that poor
old creature must be seventy if she is a day--and to see her old
subaltern taking the _pas_ from her: I am not subject to the same kind
of feelings--but I confess I don’t like it myself, if it comes to that,’
the General said.

Mrs. Swinford went on to the Rectory with a curious smile upon her face.
She drove past the school-room door and saw her friend standing at it,
sheltered in the depth of the doorway, by no means unlike a spider
standing at watch, having laid all its nets, till some silly fly buzzes
in. A salutation of the eyes only passed between the two women, the
schoolmistress and the great lady of the Hall. In the daylight they
resembled each other, though Mrs. Brown’s plain black gown was not
becoming to her dark good looks, and every particular of Mrs. Swinford’s
attire was calculated to enhance her antiquated beauty. There was a
softening in both pairs of eyes as they met. They were not good women;
their aims were not fine nor the means they were disposed to use; but
yet, curiously enough, they loved each other. It was a strange sight to
see. The walk from the little gate of the Rectory to the door was still
more trying to Mrs. Swinford than the other had been. It made her quite
sure that she had no vocation to call at houses where there was no
drive. Her dress was long, and she resented the fact that it must trail
on the gravel and get dirty and damp. As for holding it up, it did not
occur to her: that any one should think she hobbled, or was not a glass
of fashion and mould of form wherever she went would have been
incredible to her; but she resented much the length of that walk, and
that she should be exposed to such trouble and annoyance in the act of
doing what she thought her duty. Had it been only her duty, however,
Mrs. Swinford would have cared very little for fulfilling it; but she
had a different motive now.

There was a dreadful hurry-scurry in the Rectory drawing-room when she
was seen approaching. The antimacassars, I am sorry to say, were much
tumbled and untidy, and the loose covers of the chairs anything but what
might be desired. Both mother and daughters flew with one impulse to the
arranging of the room. Jim had been seated by the fireside all the
afternoon with a bad cold, which they had been nursing; but he fled at
once into his own cold room, which might, his mother thought, be very
bad for him, but could not be helped in the circumstances. Florence ran,
with more sense than any one would have given her credit for, to tell
the parlourmaid to bring in a more elegant, less substantial tea than
usual, and to give her father a hint in his study--‘Mrs. Swinford,
papa!’ while Mrs. Plowden and Emily stood nervously awaiting the visit,
anxious to go out and meet her and bring her in by the drawing-room
window, which would have saved the old lady a few steps; but kept back
by the fear that it might be thought indecorous, too familiar, not
dignified enough. Mrs. Swinford looked round upon the Rectory
drawing-room as she had done on Mrs. FitzStephen’s, but with a different
air. ‘You have made wonderfully few changes,’ she said; ‘it is just the
same damp little place it used to be.’ She was like so many of those
great ladies, not careful of people’s feelings; but that was, no doubt,
mainly from want of thought.

‘Oh,’ Mrs. Plowden said: and made a pause, that no explosion might
follow, ‘I assure you,’ she said, ‘it is not damp at all. We have proved
again and again that no water ever comes in. The elevation is small,
but quite sufficient; and as for the furniture and doing it up----’

‘Yes, I recognise all the old things,’ Mrs. Swinford said, with a
careless wave of the hand (when there was not one thing, not one, except
the Indian cabinet, that had not been renewed!); ‘and another Emily
Plowden just the same. It is only you,’ she said, with a sweet but
careless smile upon the Rector’s wife, ‘that are new----’

‘New! But we have been here for fifteen years,’ Mrs. Plowden said: and
her visitor smiled again as if in complacent consciousness of having
said the most agreeable thing in the world.

‘I am glad,’ she said, ‘there is no other daughter, no one to disturb
the harmony of what used to be. Oh, but here is the other daughter.’

‘Florence, my second, Mrs. Swinford: not considered like the Plowdens,
but taking more after my side of the house.’

‘I see she is not like the Plowdens,’ said Mrs. Swinford, with the look
of indifference which was natural to her: it was of so little
consequence! ‘The other is a little like Emily.’

‘Like her aunt, our dear Lady William.’

‘You are all much delighted,’ said the great lady, ‘with that name.’

‘My sister-in-law’s name? Well, we like it, for she has no other, poor
thing. We couldn’t call her anything else--as long as she doesn’t change
it or marry again.’

‘Oh, mamma!’ said Emmy and Florry together.

‘No,’ said Mrs. Plowden, ‘I don’t think she will marry again--now. I did
once hope she would; for, though rank is nice, a good husband who would
have looked after her and her little girl would have been nicer: while
the late Lord William, as I have heard----’

Mrs. Swinford made a little movement of impatience. ‘Have the family,’
she said, ‘taken any notice of Emily--or the little girl?’

‘It is very funny,’ said Florence, ‘to hear Mab, who has such a
character of her own, spoken of as the little girl.’

‘Oh, Florry, hold your tongue, you are always making remarks. The
family, Mrs. Swinford?’

‘Poor little thing, poor little thing,’ said Mrs. Swinford, ‘I think you
were very wise, my dear Mrs. Plowden, in advising your sister-in-law to
marry again. What a thing it would be if after all it was found that
nothing could be done for the little girl!’

‘They have their little annuity,’ said Mrs. Plowden, startled; ‘there
has never been anything said of taking it away. And I could not make
such a statement as that I advised her to marry, for there has really
been no one that she could have married except----, and he was quite an
old gentleman. Not to say that Emily ever thought of such a thing. She
was not so happy the first time as to have any wish----’

Mrs. Swinford’s attention had once more flagged, and here she interposed
with her usual calm bearing, addressing Emmy. ‘I thought you had a
brother,’ she said.

Emmy  high, being thus suddenly spoken to. ‘Oh yes.’

‘Yes, indeed,’ cried Mrs. Plowden, recovering herself the more easily
that this new subject was one on which she could be eloquent. ‘He has a
bad cold, poor boy, or he would have been here at once to pay his
respects. Is that you, James? Mrs. Swinford is making such kind
inquiries.’

The great lady held out her hand. ‘You have not taken the trouble to
come and see me,’ she said.

The Rector had come in much against his will. He made a bow which had
not his usual ease. ‘I must beg your pardon,’ he said very gravely. ‘I
am aware that I have been negligent.’

‘Ah,’ she said, ‘you did not want to come? but I supposed when your
excellent wife did me so much honour, that bygones were to be bygones;
and Emily----’

‘My sister acts for herself; I do not try to influence her; and my wife
thinks she knows what is best for her----’

‘Her family, of course; good woman. She thought it would be a wrong
thing to neglect opportunities, and so did your father, as you may
recollect.’

‘I prefer not to recollect, any more than I can help,’ said the Rector.

‘Which? that Emily has come to great promotion, very high promotion, as
all those ladies think--while she was in my house? There would have been
no title in the case--a title such as it is!--but for my house.’

‘The less that is said on that subject, I think, the better,’ said the
Rector, standing bolt upright before the fire.

‘Oh, James,’ said his wife, ‘when Mrs. Swinford is so kind----’

‘I gave it,’ said Mrs. Swinford, bending forward, ‘and, my good Rector,
you will take care not to be insolent; I may also, perhaps, take it
away.’




XVII


Lady William, on this eventful afternoon, had gone out with Mab on one
of her rambles. The air was full of spring, the buds bursting on every
tree, the cottage gardens all blooming with those common flowers which
can be got anywhere, which are the inheritance of the poorest, and are
more beautiful, spontaneous, and abundant than any other: the early
primroses, daffodils and Lent lilies, the rich dark wallflowers that
fill the air with sweetness. Mab had a little basket with her, in which
to bring home any wild thing that pleased her in the woods and <DW72>s of
Denham Hill, on the other side of the water. It was a long walk, but
neither mother nor daughter was afraid of a long walk. They came back,
breathing of every sweet-wildness of the spring, just as Mrs. Swinford,
disappointed and angry, was leaving a card, with a message, at the
cottage door; but the carriage had disappeared along the road long
before they reached their own end of Watcham. It had been a lovely
afternoon, warm, yet fresh with the dewy moisture of the April breezes,
that germinating weather, and sparkle of showers and waters which is not
damp. Several showers had fallen upon them in their ramble, but done no
harm; they had taken shelter, after a laughing run against the wind and
the bright falling veil of rain, under the trees, or in a cottage when
one was near, and shaken the rain-drops off their dresses, and carried
the freshness of the outside atmosphere, as if they had been nymphs of
the air, into the little wayside houses. It would have been hard to say
whether mother or daughter was youngest in these runs and shelterings.
Lady William was almost more swift of foot than Mab, who more easily got
out of breath, and was built on heavier lines; and though the girl’s
colour was higher, the delicate flush on the other’s cheek spoke of
almost finer health and brightness in its fluctuations and changes. They
were both equally interested about the plants and roots which Mab
grubbed up from under the trees, but hers was the delight of superior
knowledge, as she discovered a rare something here and there, a flower
peculiar to one place or another. Mab was altogether absorbed in her
botany and her researches, flushed with her digging, eager about her new
treasures. But her mother was more free for the delights of the sweet
air and sensations of the spring, the freedom of the woods, and
sometimes would burst out singing, and sometimes fling bits of moss at
her child, as she held the basket.

‘Isn’t that beautiful, Mab?’

‘Yes, mother,’ Mab would say, digging, her head bent over the mossy
soil, nothing free of her but the ear which took in the sound of the
poetry in a kind of subdued pleasure which mingled with her humbler
sensations.

‘You are a little grub,’ said Lady William; ‘you are never so happy as
when you are probing among the roots and the dead leaves.’

‘And you are of the kind of the birds, mother, and I like to hear you up
among the branches,’ said Mab. I do not mean to say that Lady William
was a musician, or that you could hear the bits of songs she sang, which
had been Mab’s lullaby as a baby, and amusement through all her
childhood--a few yards from where she stood. They were nothing but the
spontaneous utterances of her fresh spirit, like breathing, or the
trilling of the birds, to which Mab compared them. Mab did not herself
require utterances, givings forth, of that kind. She worked away and was
silent, wholly given to what she was about. But she admired the trill
and movement of the lighter spirit, and thought her mother the most
delightful human creature that had ever been upon this earth.

The basket was tolerably heavy when they came back, and Mab was still a
little flushed with her hard work. The sky was very sweet and subdued in
colour, a great band of softened gold binding the growing grayness of
the afternoon, approaching night--and opening, as it were, a glimpse
into the heavens, a broad shining pathway, reflected fully in the river,
between the awakening greens and browns of the spring country and the
soft clouds above. It was still light, but evening was in the air, and
among the folds of the clouds a few mild stars were already visible. The
cows were coming lowing home; the children were leaving off their games;
and people coming up from the river, who found a little chill in the air
after the sun had gone down. The mother and daughter met everybody on
their progress home. The doctor, another botanist, who sniffed at Mab’s
basket, and affected contempt at her brag of the peculiar coltsfoot she
had found, which grew nowhere but on Denham Hill. ‘Common, common,’ he
said, ‘you’ll find it everywhere,’ as one connoisseur says to another,
upon most new acquisitions; but that was because he had never had such
luck himself, Mab felt convinced. And they met the tall curate, Mr.
Osborne, stalking off to a meeting, who stopped to ask whether Lady
William would not help in a temperance tea party of his, where the
ladies and gentlemen were to amuse the villagers, and make them forget
that there was such a thing on earth, or rather, in Watcham, as the ‘Why
Not?’ or the ‘Blue Boar.’ Mr. Osborne wore his Inverness cape, as usual,
and a quantity of books and pamphlets under it; but there was something
a little different from his ordinary aspect in his looks. After he had
passed he made a step back again, and called Lady William, with a
hesitating voice.

‘Do you see--young Plowden often?’ he said, in the most awkward way.

‘Jim!’ she said, surprised, ‘my nephew?’

‘Don’t be vexed; I think he goes to---- places which he had better
avoid,’ said the curate. Lady William looked at him, but there was
nothing further to be learned from his cloudy face.

‘That is very possible,’ she said. ‘Do you mean---- there?’ for she had
heard something of the ‘Blue Boar,’ which was now beginning to light up,
and looked cheerful enough across the village green. The curate gave a
little stamp of impatience as he saw some one else approaching, and said
quickly:

‘I can’t say any more,’ and stalked away, leaving, as such monitors so
often do, a prick of pain behind him, but nothing that could do any
good. It was the General who was coming, and he walked a few steps with
the ladies, congratulating them on their walk.

‘For I should not wonder if it rained to-morrow,’ he said. And then he
told them of Mrs. Swinford’s visit, and how she had gone from door to
door. ‘You see you have missed something; you have not had that honour.’

‘I am glad that we went for our long walk,’ Lady William said. And then,
finally, they met Mr. Swinford, who came up joyfully, with his hat in
his hand, and his head uncovered from the moment he saw them.

‘Ah, I have found you at last,’ said Leo; ‘I have waited for you in the
cottage, sitting inside by the invitation of Miss Patty, who is very
kind to me, and observing the proceedings of my mother.’

‘I hear she has been paying visits.’

‘To everybody, which is not, perhaps, the way to make the visit prized;
but she does not like the English climate, and she is used, you know, to
do as she likes,’ he said, with a smile.

‘Surely, in such matters as that she has a very good right.’

‘Yes, to be sure,’ he said doubtfully, and then laughed. ‘She came to
see you, too--and I lay there, like a spider in a web, wondering if she
would also come in to wait for you; but Miss Patty was not so kind to my
mother as to me. I heard her answer unhesitatingly, “Not at home!” with
a voice like that of a groom of the chambers. She has great
capabilities, Patty.’

‘And did you not go out, to say----’

‘What should I have said? I was waiting, feeling that you would probably
snub me for my pains, and why should I interfere with my mother? She
left a card with a message pencilled on it, which I had the honourable
feeling not to read. It got upon my nerves to be in the same room with
it, and if I had not come out to meet you I should have yielded to the
temptation.’

‘That would have been as bad as opening a letter,’ said Mab, who had as
yet taken no part.

‘Would it, do you think? It was open; there would have been no seal
broken; but, at all events, I resisted temptation, so you must praise me
and not censure, Miss Mab.’

‘And how did you know,’ said Mab, while her mother pondered, ‘that we
were coming this way!’

‘Give me the basket and I will tell you. What is in it? Worms? But also
clay and earth. Have you not mud enough already in Watcham, that you
must bring in more from the woods?’

‘Give me my basket again,’ said Mab indignantly; ‘there’s a clump of
wood anemones, beauties, and the famous coltsfoot that only grows at
Denham. I have hunted for it for years, and I only found it to-day. Give
it me back.’

‘I am not worthy to carry such treasures,’ said Leo, ‘but the contact
will do me good.’

‘All the same you haven’t answered,’ said Mab. ‘Who told you we were
coming this way?’

‘If you must know, it was the accomplished Patty again. She offered me
tea, which I declined, and she offered me also my mother’s card, which
in my high sense of honour I declined too, and then she said, “My lydy
was a-going to Denham Hill, and you’ll meet ’em sure, if you go that
way.” Patty is my friend, Miss Mab; she has a higher opinion of me than
you have.’

‘We must hurry home now, Mab; we have been too long away,’ said Lady
William, with a serious face. ‘It does not do for a woman of my age to
go out on your long grubbings. Come, Leo, give me the basket, and let us
run home.’

‘I can run too,’ he said. ‘Are you really sorry, is that what you mean,
that you missed my mother?’

‘I cannot quite say that honestly. No, I am not sorry I missed your
mother. Perhaps she and I have been too long apart to bridge over the
difference now. How I used to admire your mother, Leo! How beautiful she
was!’

‘Was she, indeed?’ he said, with a sort of polite attention, but
surprised. Perhaps it is curious at any time for a man to realise that
his mother may have been beautiful and admired. ‘I should not have
thought,’ he said, ‘with submission, that her features, for instance----
’

‘Women don’t think of features,’ said Lady William, with a little
impatience. ‘It was she, not her features, that was beautiful. She had
so much charm--when she pleased. It must always be added, that when she
did not please--but we are not going to discuss your mother. She is a
wonderful creature to be imprisoned here.’

‘You are not imprisoned here,’ he said, almost angrily, who are still
more wonderful: ‘and you forget that my mother is old, and has had her
day.’

‘The day will not be over as long as she lives; and as for me, I am not
imprisoned; I dwell among my own people.’

‘How curious,’ he said, ‘pardon me, that the people here should be your
own people! I say nothing against them, don’t fear it; they are very
good people, but not----’

‘Thanks,’ she said, with a half laugh, ‘it was I who used to be the
black sheep. Mrs. Plowden is not sure that she approves of me now; and
if----’

‘If what?’

‘Nothing,’ said Lady William, with the slightest tinge of angry colour
in her face.

‘That is just like mother,’ said Mab; ‘she gives you a word as if she
were going to say something of importance, and then she tells you it is
nothing. I have known her to do it a hundred times.’

‘There is nothing like the criticism of one’s children,’ said Lady
William, with a laugh. ‘You, with your mother, Leo, and Mab with hers,
you are two iconoclasts. Now, the humble people, like my good Emmy, are
very different; they do not criticise. And then you despise them as
common, you two---- Ah! here we are at our own door.’ She turned and
held out her hand to Leo, who looked at her surprised.

‘Are you not going to ask me in?’ he said, holding part of the basket,
for which Mab, too, had held out her hands.

They all stood looking at each other in front of the cottage door.

‘It is late,’ said Lady William, with some hesitation--‘yes, if you wish
it: but don’t you think it would be better to get back to the Hall
before it is dark?’

‘No,’ said Leo, ‘why should I hurry back to the Hall? Of course I wish
it; and you never told me before that I was not to come.’

‘I do not say so now, but----’

‘But what?’

‘Nothing,’ said Lady William, with a faint smile.

‘I told you that was her way,’ cried Mab, triumphant. ‘“Nothing,” and
one is sure that she means heaps of things more than she ever says.’

He followed her into the little drawing-room, where there was still a
little bright fire, though it was no longer cold. Mrs. Swinford’s card
was lying upon a small table conspicuously, though there was not light
enough to read its pencilled message. Lady William hesitated a little,
not sitting down, giving her visitor no excuse for doing so. He followed
her movements with a disturbed aspect, standing within the door,
watching her figure against the light. Mab, who had seized the basket
when he put it down, had gone off to put her treasures in safety. ‘I
perceive,’ he said at last, ‘that I have done something wrong. What have
I done wrong? Am I troubling you coming in when you did not want me?
Then tell me so, dear lady, and send me away.’

‘Leo,’ said Lady William, ‘you should not have remained here while your
mother was at the door; I do not like it; it puts me in a very
uncomfortable position. Why didn’t you go and tell her we were out, Mab
and I?’

‘I am your devoted servant, dear lady,’ said Leo, ‘but I am not your
groom of the chambers, and Patty is. How could I have taken her duties
out of her hands?’

‘That is all very well for a laugh,’ she said, ‘but it vexes me very
much; it is very uncomfortable; why should you have been in my
drawing-room while your mother was sent away from the door?’

‘You mean I ought not to have come in to wait.’

‘That for one thing, certainly; but being in, you should certainly not
have allowed----’

‘What?’ said the young man.

Lady William did not say ‘Nothing’ again, but she stood at the window
looking out with her back turned to him, and as strong an expression of
discomfort and vexation in her attitude and eloquent silence as if she
had used many words.

‘I see,’ he said, ‘I have been very indiscreet; I have vexed you though
I did not mean it. I don’t make any excuse for myself, except that I
thought at first you were coming back immediately. Forgive me: and I
will go away, and never at any time will I do it any more.’

She gave a little laugh, turning round. ‘No, I don’t think you will do
it again; but, unfortunately, that does not alter the fact that you have
done it, and made me very uncomfortable. Are you going away? Then good
night; you will have a pleasant walk up to the Hall.’

‘Not nearly so pleasant as if it had been an hour later,’ he said.

‘Oh, that is merely an idea. You will really like it better. Mab ought
to be here to thank you for carrying her basket. Good night, Leo,’ Lady
William said. She stepped out into the narrow passage after him to see
him away; and, at the moment, in the open doorway Mab appeared with a
cry of surprise.

‘Oh, are you going so soon? Are you not going to stop for tea?’

‘I am sent away,’ he said.

‘By mother?’

‘Yes. To make sure of amendment another time,’ he said ruefully, and
went away with so much the air of a schoolboy under punishment, that Mab
came in open-mouthed to her mother.

‘Oh! what have you been doing to Mr. Leo? Oh! why have you sent him
away?’

Lady William made no answer, but rang the bell, as it very seldom was
rung in this small house; an unusual occurrence, which brought Patty in
with a rush, still rubbing a candlestick she held in her hand.

‘Patty, did you ask Mr. Swinford to come in and wait till Miss Mab and I
came back?’

‘Yes, my lydy,’ said Patty, with sharp eyes that gleamed in the light.

‘And you did not ask Mrs. Swinford, when she called, to come in and
wait?’

‘Oh, no, my lydy,’ cried Patty, aggrieved.

‘Why?’ said her mistress solemnly.

‘Oh, my lydy!’ said Patty, thunderstruck.

‘Yes, why?’ I want to know, why should Mr. Swinford wait for me and not
Mrs. Swinford? I do not wish anybody to be asked to wait for me when I
am out. If you were ever to do it again, I don’t know what I might be
obliged to say.’

‘Oh, my lydy,’ said Patty, ‘I thought as Mr. Swinford was a young
gentleman as perhaps made it a little cheerful for Miss Mab---- and I
thought as the old lady wasn’t a pleasure for nobody; and I thought----
’

‘If that is true of old ladies, why should you stay with me, Patty, who
am an old lady, too, and not a pleasure to anybody----’

‘Oh, my lydy!’ said Patty, bursting into a torrent of tears.

‘Go, you little goose, and think no more of it; but ask nobody to wait
for me. Now remember! you are here to do what you are told, but never to
think. Thinking is the destruction of little maids. Ask Anne if she ever
ventured to think when she was a girl like you.’

‘Yes, my lydy,’ said Patty, drying her eyes.




XVIII


It is not necessary to make a room snug with curtains drawn and the
draught shut out, in the month of April as it is in early March, so that
it was some time even after the lamp was brought in before the wistful
clearness in the east, and that gleam of yellow, ‘the daffodil sky’ of
the other quarter, which turns to ethereal tints of green, and has so
many gradations of colour all its own, was shut out. Lady William liked
to see the sky when she was in a cheerful or excited, not a sad mood.
Such moods came to her as to every one by times; but she was angry and
active to-night. Mab was not much used to such moments of commotion, to
her mother’s slightly disturbed condition, and the scolding which had
made Patty cry. Scolding was very infrequent in the cottage. Now and
then Lady William would launch a fiery arrow; she would throw a distinct
terrible light of displeasure upon dusty corners and silver badly
cleaned. Sometimes even Mab would be brought to a sudden perception that
her faults were quite visible and apparent, notwithstanding all her
mother’s love and indulgence. But a moment like this, when all was
disturbed and broken without any apparent motive, was astonishing to the
girl. It was not for some time that Mab felt even the courage to
inquire: only after tea when Lady William’s hasty ejaculations and
movements of anger had almost died away.

‘But, mother, now that we are cool,’ said Mab----

‘Cool? I have never been anything but cool.’

‘Now,’ continued the girl, ‘that it is over, what was there so very bad
in letting Mr. Leo come in to wait?’

‘And not his mother?’ said Lady William. ‘There would have been nothing
particular, though very absurd if everybody who called had been asked in
to wait. Fancy coming back to find the room crowded like a dentist’s
waiting-room! But to bring in one and leave out another! Though I
confess,’ said Lady William, with an angry flush, ‘that if the little
goose had done so, and brought in Mrs. Swinford to find her son waiting,
I should have been still more uncomfortable.’

‘Then you scolded her, mother, for what it was best to do?’

‘Nothing of the sort; her sin was inviting a gentleman to come in and
wait for us who---- Oh, it is too horrid altogether, and if Mrs.
Swinford had found him----’

‘Mother, what then?’ cried Mab, a little alarmed.

Her limpid gaze, so full of innocent surprise, seemed to bring back all
Lady William’s annoyance. ‘You must take it for granted, Mab, that there
are some things I know better than you do,’ she said. ‘By-the-bye, give
me her card; let us see what message she left.’

The card did not seem to afford Lady William any more satisfaction. It
was a very highly-polished card, and the pencil had cut into it, and the
writing was difficult to read. She put it down with a heightened colour,
throwing it from her hand. ‘I wonder if she thinks I put any faith in
her _câlineries_,’ she said.

‘What are _câlineries_, mother?’ said Mab, taking up the card, which was
inscribed as follows: ‘_Chère Petite_,--Much regret not to find you.
Come to see me to-morrow; I have something important for your welfare to
say.’ ‘_Chère Petite_,’ repeated Mab, ‘that is a _câlinerie_, I suppose.
It seems queer to call you _Petite_--but I suppose she knew you when you
were quite little.’

‘She knew me, certainly, when the title was more appropriate than it is
now.’

‘That must be the reason; and perhaps she thought you might like it.
Some ladies,’ said Mab, with her serious, almost childish, face, ‘like
to be thought young.’

‘I don’t think she can have thought I would like it, Mab,’ said Lady
William, with a little shiver. ‘Close the window and draw the curtain,
please. I have a sort of uncomfortable feeling of somebody looking in.’

‘You are uncomfortable altogether to-night, mother.’

‘Yes, I suppose it’s my nerves; it’s--that woman. I never thought I had
any nerves before.’

‘Oh, but you have,’ cried Mab; ‘I know better than that. Not nerves,
perhaps, like Aunt Jane, but---- There is somebody in the garden. Shall
I go and see who it is?’

Lady William started up and looked over Mab’s shoulder. Whether she
thought it might be Leo come again, or what other intruder at this
untimely hour, I cannot tell. But she said, in a tone that was half
relief and half annoyance: ‘Your Aunt Jane in person, Mab, and the
girls. What can they want now?’ Her tone was a little fretful. They were
in the way of wanting a great many things from her at the Rectory, and
frequently her advice on one subject or another, which they did not
generally take.

‘It will be about their dresses for the FitzStephens’ party,’ said Mab,
to whom the ladies outside were beckoning that she should open the door
to them. But Lady William shook her head.

‘Run and let them in, at all events. They have not rung the bell,’ she
said, drawing the curtains with an impatient movement. The little room
looked so full that it could contain no more when the three ladies came
in; but they knew all its accommodations, and settled themselves in
their places at as great a distance as possible from the little bright
fire. ‘It is such a mild night there is no occasion for it,’ said Mrs.
Plowden, ‘but you always keep up fires, Emily, later than any one.’

‘Do I? It’s cheerful at least.’

‘And the window open! That’s rather wasteful, don’t you think? I like to
do either one thing or another; to shut up the house and keep all the
heat in, as one does on winter nights, or else to throw up all the
windows, and get the full advantage of the air. But I don’t see the good
of dispersing all the heat outside, as if it could warm the garden. That
would be a very good idea; but I’m afraid it would not be a success if
you were to try it ever so much.’

‘I suppose,’ said Lady William, ‘you have come to tell me something; not
to talk about the fire.’

‘I don’t know. We came over just to see you. It’s such a lovely night I
thought I should like a walk. I said to Emmy, after James had gone back
to his study, I think I’d like to have a little run; it’s so sweet
to-night, not cold at all. Let’s run out and see your Aunt Emily, I
said. I knew you were sure to be in.’

‘Oh, yes, we are always sure to be in.’

‘And, except ourselves, you are the only person of whom that can be
said; for the FitzStephens are always dining with the Kendals or the
Kendals with the FitzStephens; and Miss Grey, she goes in later to tea,
not to put the table out, or she is at one of Mr. Osborne’s meetings, or
has some parish tea party of her own. We are never sure to find anybody
but you; and it is such a thing in a little place like this to know
somebody you can depend upon to be in, if you find it dull or want a
little run.’

‘I am afraid that Mab and I can’t do much to help your dulness.’

‘Oh, yes, you can. You can always talk nicely, Emily, on almost any
subject; and I always say it is such a good thing for the girls only to
hear you talk. And Mab is the most sensible little thing that ever was.
I always tell the girls it’s quite a treat to hear her; no nonsense, but
so sensible, and taking up things so quick!’

‘It is very kind of you, Jane, to have so good an opinion of my little
girl.’

‘Oh, it is merely the truth, Emily. I have always heard the Marquis was
a very sensible man, and we all know there was once a Prime Minister in
the family. Of course that’s a great thing to begin with. I can’t boast
anything like that on my side, and I can’t say I think the Plowdens are
remarkable for common sense, do you? Our children have other qualities.
My poor Jim complains that his father is always at him because he does
not stick to his Greek, and how can you expect a young man to stick to
his Greek when it is only in that interrupted broken way? James thinks
he gives him his full attention. But you know what a parish is, Emily.
Sometimes it’s a christening, or some sick person to see, or a funeral.
And then James has to tell him, “I can’t hear you, Jim, to-day.” Now, I
ask you, Emily, honestly, do you think a boy can be expected to stick to
his Greek like that?’

‘I quite agree with you, Jane; it is very hard upon him.’

‘Of course it is hard; everything’s hard. And he doesn’t know what’s the
good of it, or what it’s for. He cannot go into the Church, and it
requires so much, all the technicalities, you know, to be a
schoolmaster; and if James makes up his mind at the end to put him into
an office, or to send him--which is terrible to think of,’ cried poor
Mrs. Plowden, putting her handkerchief to her eyes--‘abroad--what use
would all that Greek be?’

‘It is quite true,’ said Lady William, ‘and I wish we could persuade
James to make up his mind. Do you know what friends Jim has in the
parish; where he goes; who are his companions? Some one said something
to me----’

‘Oh, what did they say to you? Who spoke to you? Tell me what any one
has to say about my boy.’

‘It was nothing, after all; it was Mr. Osborne. He said Jim went to some
house where it would be better he should not go.’

‘Mr. Osborne!’ cried the Rector’s wife. ‘Oh, Emily, that one who belongs
to Jim should listen to that man! There is a man,’ cried the troubled
mother, ‘who, if he liked, might have done almost anything with Jim. Not
preaching to him; that’s not what I mean. But he is a young man, only
five years older; a University man, a man wishing to have good
influence. Where does he go to exercise this good influence, Emily? To
Riverside; to the men who don’t care, who laugh at him behind his
back--and to get the old women to give up their glass of beer, and the
little children, that know nothing, to take his blue ribbon. Oh, and
there was Jim in his way,’ said the poor mother, ‘Jim at his door, a
University man, too; his Rector’s son, his own kind. Did he ever try to
get a good influence over Jim? to ask him of an evening, to take him for
walks, to give him an interest? Never, never, never! He goes about the
parish and makes the poor women promise to give up their drop of beer.
What does he know about what they need, about their innocent drop of
beer, him a strong young man, well fed, wanting nothing? But my Jim,
that was what he wanted, a strong man of his own kind; a young man that
he had no suspicion of; that didn’t need to preach. That’s what the boy
wants, Emily; not his father, that is angry, or me that only cries, but
one like himself. Is it better to gain a good influence over poor old
Mrs. Lloyd than over Jim, or to hold temperance meetings when he might
do a brother’s part to get hold of that boy?’

‘Oh, mamma, what are you saying?’ said Emmy, still anxious to save
appearances. ‘Aunt Emily will think that dear Jim----’

Florence said nothing, but sat staring into the vacant air with wide
open eyes full of trouble, while Mrs. Plowden, altogether broken down,
put her head upon Lady William’s shoulder and cried.

‘It’s mamma’s nerves,’ said Emmy again; ‘she has been upset to-day. You
are not to think, Aunt Emily, that anything dreadful has happened.
Nothing is wrong with Jim; it is only that papa is angry with him, and
mamma has got it on her nerves, and--mamma, this was not what you came
to talk of, you know.’

Mrs. Plowden raised her head after a minute with a piteous smile. ‘Thank
you, Emily, you’re always kind,’ she said; ‘and it’s only my nerves, as
Emmy says. I get agitated, and then everything looks black, as if it
never would come right again. It isn’t that there’s anything to be
frightened about, and you know what a true good heart my Jim has, and
that’s everything, isn’t it? That’s everything,’ the poor lady said.

‘What mamma really wanted to ask you, Aunt Emily,’ said Emmy, ‘was
whether you had seen Mrs. Swinford. She has been to call at the
Rectory.’

‘Yes, yes,’ said Mrs. Plowden; ‘that was what we wanted, to be sure.
Emily, you won’t think anything more of the little fuss I’ve made about
Mr. Osborne, will you? You would think I meant that he intended to
slight my son. You know I couldn’t mean that. And he is a very good
curate, and James puts great confidence in him. It’s my nerves that get
the better of me. But Emmy always brings me up to the mark. Yes, about
Mrs. Swinford, that was it; did she come here, too?’

‘I believe so; but before we came in. She left a card with a message----
’

‘My dear Emily, I don’t think Mrs. Swinford is a very nice woman,’ said
Mrs. Plowden solemnly.

‘Don’t you?’ said Lady William, with a faint smile.

‘You see, girls,’ said the Rector’s wife, ‘your aunt will never say
anything. Perhaps it is prudent, but it’s a little confusing. One
doesn’t know what to say.’

‘If you think you will hurt my feelings, Jane, by speaking plainly,
don’t let that weigh upon your mind. I know very well what Mrs. Swinford
is, and I don’t care to make myself her champion.’

‘I don’t think she’s a nice woman,’ repeated the Rector’s wife; ‘I don’t
think she’s a good woman. She looks to me--notwithstanding that she
professes to be so fond of you, and Emily this and Emily that--as if she
would like to do you a bad turn.’

Lady William took this alarming statement quite calmly. ‘Indeed I should
not be surprised,’ she said, ‘but I don’t think it is in her power.’

‘We must try and make sure that it is not in her power. Don’t you think
she could perhaps do you harm with the family? It occurred to me, and
you will wonder to hear that it occurred to James. He said to me, “If
that woman can injure Emily she will.” Dear Emily, you have never been
such very good friends with the family, and they have never seen Mab.
You know I’ve always wanted you to do something. If you were to put
yourself forward a little----’

‘You are very kind, Jane, and James too. I don’t think the family can do
us much harm; we have what they chose to give us, and they will not give
us anything more, nor do I wish it. I have my pride, too.’

‘But their countenance, Emily!’

‘Their countenance!’ cried Lady William, rising to her feet with a quick
start of indignation. ‘To me! I want none of their countenance; I can’t
help bearing their name, and they cannot take it from me.’

‘Oh, my dear, my dear, there can be no question of that! They can’t take
away your rank, nor Mrs. Swinford either, whatever she may do. My
conviction,’ said Mrs. Plowden, nodding her head, ‘is that she can’t
bear the thought of your rank. If you should meet anywhere _out_, and
you were to pass before her, Emily--that’s the thought that she can’t
bear.’

A gleam of light passed over Lady William’s face. ‘That would be a
little compensation,’ she said, half to herself. ‘But don’t put such
hopes in my head,’ she added laughing; ‘she and I will never meet _out_,
alas!’

‘If it was only for that I should like to give a dinner party at the
Rectory and ask her, Emily--just to show her. Oh, I should like that! It
might look strange, James giving his arm to his own sister, but I should
never mind how it looked. And it would be a kind of duty, by way of
welcoming them back. But you know, Emily, though Mary Jane is an
excellent parlourmaid, she is not equal to a formal party. We should
require to have a butler, or some one who would look like a butler. And
the dinner-service is very shabby and a great many pieces broken. I am
sure I would do it with the greatest pleasure, and, indeed, would think
it a duty; but only----’

‘No, my kindest Jane, you will do nothing of the sort for me. As for
Mrs. Swinford, she will go out to no parties in the village. Don’t
imagine for a moment that I want to be avenged upon her in that very
small way.’

‘Avenged! I did not think of it in that light. And do you know James was
very cool to her to-day, scarcely civil. I thought she had been very
nice to you in the old times.’

‘Don’t let us talk of the Swinfords for ever,’ said Lady William, ‘we
have had enough of them for one day. Let me know what the girls are
going to wear at the FitzStephens’, and who is to be there----’

This new subject, notwithstanding that Mrs. Plowden had her head full of
graver matters, was too interesting to be dropped quickly, and there
ensued a long conversation, which Lady William, having set it going,
left to be carried on by the others. Mrs. Plowden had naturally a great
deal to say, and Emmy, whose heart was full of the consciousness that
any social occasion where she could see and be seen was more important
now in her life than it had ever been before, lent her attention with
great earnestness to her mother’s view, to Mab’s remarks, and to the
occasional word with which Lady William kept up the talk. Only Florence
took no part in it. She had taken up a book, and so appeared to have her
attention fixed; I don’t know if she held it upside down, but I am very
sure that she did not read a page. Her mind was occupied with affairs of
her own.




XIX


The dining-room at the Hall was gloomy but grand. The walls dark, save
where they were relieved by scrolls of gilding and ornamental panels, in
which were set some full-length portraits of doubtful merit, and more
than doubtful antiquity. It was divided, like the drawing-room, by
pillars, not of marble, though they assumed that virtue, leaving a
darker strait at each end, intended, no doubt, to throw up the
brilliancy of the larger central room, in which stood the dinner-table
with all its lights. And this might have been the case had there been a
large and brilliant party round the table, and abundance of light, with
reflections of silver and crystal, as probably the builder of the house
intended should be the case. But now the Swinfords, mother and son,
alone at a round table of no great size, with a shaded lamp suspended
over it, furnished little more than an oasis in the great desert of
darkness. There was, indeed, a large fire blazing, against which Mrs.
Swinford sat, shivering from time to time, notwithstanding the mild
softness of the April night. And the table was adorned with a great
bouquet of flowers, dazzling white azaleas, and the other brilliant
children of the spring who come in such a triumph over the footsteps of
winter. Mrs. Swinford was dressed, as she always was, elaborately, and
like a picture, in dark velvet, just showing a little colour here and
there where the light caught it--and a great deal of lace. She had a
lace scarf fastened over her head, fantastically indeed, and scarcely
enough to have been allowed by Mrs. Plowden to pass muster as a cap, but
still softening the age of the face, and the tower of the abundant dark
hair piled unnaturally upon her head. She might have been a dethroned
and indignant queen. She, and the flowers, and Leo’s more youthful face,
gave a centre to the dark solemnity around, through which the servants
moved noiseless.

‘You have been in the village,’ he said; ‘I hear, making calls.’ But
this was not till the lengthened and elaborate dinner--of which both ate
fastidiously, with many criticisms and remarks little complimentary to a
very ambitious and highly-paid cook--was done.

‘I am glad you take so much interest in my movements, Leo, as to know.’

‘Of course I know. I saw the carriage for one thing; and besides----’

‘You, I suppose, were paying visits, too?’

‘Not much,’ he said, with an embarrassed smile. ‘I saw little Miss Grey
about some of our schemes; but you don’t give Miss Grey the light of
your countenance.’

‘I have never noticed any but the principal people--who, in case of an
election or any public matter, might be useful.’

‘I don’t see what an election would be to us.’

‘Nor I, Leo. But it is part of our hereditary policy to keep the matter
open, should you or any one of the family be of a different opinion.’

‘My dear mother,’ he said, with a laugh, ‘don’t you think this
hereditary policy is overdone a little? I am afraid I thought myself a
person of much greater importance than I prove to be.’

‘I don’t admit it,’ she said; ‘but is that why you are taking so much
trouble for the _canaille_?’

‘No,’ said the young man, growing red. ‘I take trouble for the
_canaille_, as you call them--our poor neighbours, Miss Grey
says--because I thought I was somehow responsible for them.’

‘Responsible!’

‘I should have been,’ he said firmly, ‘had I been their _seigneur_;
which I suppose in my folly was something like what I thought: now that
I know they are only our poor neighbours----’

‘Well: you think you may at least get the benefit in popularity,’ she
said, with a laugh.

‘My dear mother, as we shall never think alike on these points, don’t
you think we had better choose another subject?’

‘The subject of my calls?’ said Mrs. Swinford. ‘But how, Leo, about your
own? You find a wonderful attraction in the village, I understand.’

‘You know, I think, pretty well what attraction I find in the village,’
he said coldly; ‘I have made no secret of my doings there.’

‘Perhaps not; but you have dwelt little upon a certain cottage. One
knows how a man can be exceedingly frank in order to conceal.’

‘There is no certain cottage,’ he said, with indignation. ‘If you mean
Lady William’s, I certainly go there with pleasure, and often, and will
continue to do so. In such a matter I may surely be allowed to judge for
myself.’

‘Why do you call her by that ridiculous name? It makes me laugh--if it
didn’t make me furious!’

‘What has she done to you?’ said Leo. ‘I thought you were fond of her.
It has always been represented so to me. What has she done, a woman not
very powerful or prosperous certainly, not coming in your way, to make
you hate her so?’

‘Not coming in my way!--But what do you know of my history or my
feelings? She is already again coming in my way--with you.’

‘That is nonsense, mother. No, I know little of your history, perhaps,
except what you have told me; and as you say, excessive frankness----’

‘You forget, I think, Leo, that you are speaking to your mother?’

‘I never wish to do so,’ he said. ‘Believe me, mother, there is nothing
I desire so much as to make you feel my anxiety, my strong desire, to do
what will please you----’

‘By bringing me to this miserable country, for example, in the middle of
winter,’ she cried.

Leo sprang to his feet, and began to pace about the room. ‘It is my
country,’ he said. ‘If I have duties anywhere, they must be here. But I
have never wished to bind you. Why, if you hate England so, should you
stay here? We have always been together; but sooner than you should
suffer, leave me, mother. I will bear my loneliness as best I can.’

‘Your loneliness! You would not be long lonely. You would find plenty to
cheer you; whereas I am in a different position. Nay: come back with me.
You have seen exactly how things are. If you want to be charitable,
nothing is more easy. James Plowden, or if you prefer it, his sister,’
she paused, with a harsh laugh, ‘will do everything you want in that
way. Come back to the life we know; come back to the surroundings you
are accustomed to. You--you can’t, any more than I, be happy here. Where
are your _courses_, your clubs, your theatres? There is nothing,
nothing to amuse you. Leo, you know you would be more amused, you would
be more happy, as well as I.’

‘But this,’ he said, ‘is my proper sphere.’

‘_Grand seigneur_ again,’ she cried, with a laugh; ‘who takes up that
view now? Your great-grandfather bought this estate; it is then four
generations in the family. And you think that feudal! Ah! be kind to the
_canaille_ if you will; they will cheat you and hate you, but never
mind. Leo, if you keep me here, and I am tempted beyond my powers, and
do harm--harm, do you hear?--murder even--the guilt will not be on me,
but you!’

‘Mother, do you think there is any use in scaring yourself by such big
words? Murder! Whom will you kill, for example? You who faint if you
prick yourself and the blood runs! I am not afraid of you.’

‘There are more ways of murder than one. I will take no life.’

‘No, I don’t suppose so,’ he said, with a laugh; ‘but if you think you
will die of _ennui_, which, I allow, is a danger, my dear mother, your
_appartement_ is still open. I will make every arrangement. Pardon me if
I feel it is my duty to live in my own house; but why should that affect
you?’

‘If I said, Leo, that I could not live without you, that you are my only
child----’

‘Mother,’ he said, ‘we both understand perfectly what that means. When I
was a child you were very fond of me. I was part of your _ensemble_. You
gave me everything I wanted. Now, it is not your fault nor mine that I
am a man of thirty-five, not even in my first youth. If I am ever to be
good for anything, I have no time to lose; but you have arrived at an
age----’

‘Ah!’ she said, ‘I have arrived at an age when I am no longer good for
anything, neither the pleasures nor the duties. It is fit that it should
be you who say that to me.’

‘I say that you have arrived at an age when everything should be made
easy to you, and pleasant, mother; and that you should live, without
consideration of others, as suits you best.’

‘And you?’ she said with a smile; ‘as suits you best? Is not that what
you mean?’

‘It was not what I meant; but perhaps it is true,’ he said.

Then there was a silence, during which Leo stood by the high
mantelpiece, leaning upon it, looking down upon the bright blaze of the
fire, yet furtively watching his mother’s face.

‘I know who has done all this,’ she said rapidly and very low, as if
speaking to herself. ‘I know who has done it. It was a caprice--a fancy
that would have lasted a moment; a trick of his father’s blood. But I
know who has done it--who has stamped it in. I know--I know! for her own
advantage as before: to put me under her foot as before. But let her
take care, let her take care!’ she cried, suddenly raising her voice,
‘_J’ai des griffes, moi!_’

‘Mother, for heaven’s sake what do you mean? Who is to take care?’

‘A tigress, that’s what men call a woman in respect to her children,
Leo. I said that a tigress has claws, that was all.’

‘There is no question, surely,’ he said, looking at her; at her soft
lace, her warm velvet, her carefully-dressed hair, her air of luxury and
delicacy, ‘of claws or anything of the kind here.’

She burst out into a laugh, and rose, turning her face to the fire.

‘No; at the worst of little pins to prick, little pins that don’t draw
blood, as you say, but still make a wound. Now, Leo, though we quarrel,
you will not refuse to give me your arm upstairs?’

The drawing-room was also illuminated by a blazing fire, and groups of
candles placed about which made it very bright, unlike the gloom of the
room below; bright, yet with all manner of soft shades and contrivances
to temper the light. It was full of flowers and sweetness, full of
luxury. Mrs. Swinford paused and looked round with a satirical smile.
‘Charming!’ she said; ‘and a little more or less feudal, _grand
seigneur_, as we have been saying, with all that is novel and delightful
added; but vacant, Leo. Were we in Paris, one would come, and then
another and another, to talk, or chat round the fire; to bring the news,
to discuss everything, spiritual, gay. These words have no meaning
here.’

‘I fully feel it for you, mother. It is very dull; no one worth your
trouble to talk to. I understand perfectly. But why not, then, fill the
house?’

‘For what end? There is not even shooting to tempt them at this time of
the year. Nothing to amuse. It is not the time. In the autumn, perhaps,
if I survive it so long----’

‘Then there is London,’ said Leo; ‘it is not exactly a village, though
I believe it is a happy slang to call it so. Let us go there.’

‘London!’ Mrs. Swinford contracted her brows. ‘I have forgotten all my
friends, or they have forgotten me. I don’t go to Court----’

‘Why not, mother?’

She looked at him with a gleam of fury in her eyes, and a sort of wild
laugh, which was the most unlike mirth of anything Leo had ever heard.
‘Perhaps,’ she said, ‘Emily Plowden would present me once
again--whitewashed, after all these years.’

‘What do you mean by whitewashed, mother?’ There was something then in
the look with which he faced her, insisting with a flush on his face,
and a look of determination for which she was not prepared.

‘What do I mean by whitewashed? I mean’---- she paused a little, looking
at him with a malicious devil in her eye, as if undecided what she
should say. But his look subdued her, though it was a strange thing for
any look of Leo to do. It was a look of alarm yet dismay, excited and
almost fierce, yet struck with sudden fear. Her eyes sank before his.

‘I don’t know why you should look at me so. I mean that I am
forgotten--as well may be, in all these years.’

She had placed herself in the deep chair covered with brocade, which had
been carefully placed for her at the exact angle from the fire and the
lights which she liked. The table beside it was covered with the evening
papers; the French papers, arrived by the evening post; one or two
yellow novels, an English book, and all the little paraphernalia which
ladies of her period affect. She sat there, lying back in her luxurious
chair, looking at her son with defiance in her eyes; defiance, and yet a
certain uneasiness underneath. And he looked at her, uneasily too, with
a doubt, yet no wish to question her further. She broke this silence by
a sudden shrill burst of laughter, clapping her delicate hands together.

‘Could one give a greater pleasure to one’s _protégée_ of old?--to the
little girl of whom one has made a lady? A lady of rank, if you please,
according to all the clowns. Emily shall take me; she shall patronise
me; she shall be my condescending superior. Mrs. Swinford, on her return
to England, by Lady William--bah! the jest is too good.’

Her laugh rang out shrill into the silent space about them. Leo, for his
part, stood before her as grave as a judge. ‘I don’t see anything so
wonderful about it,’ he said.

‘What, not that Emily! Emily, the country girl, not so good as your
governess, not much better than my maid! Your governess? Why, for the
moment, that was Artémise.’

‘Mother, I must warn you that you are speaking of a lady for whom not
only I, but every one here has the most exalted esteem.’

‘Ah!’ she cried, still laughing, ‘so Artémise tells me. The most
exalted! She has thrown dust in everybody’s eyes.’

‘And your Artémise--I give you warning I doubt that woman.’

‘Ah! perhaps you will forbid her the house.’

‘You know very well that the house is free to all you please to see
here. For myself I shall certainly let her know that her presence is not
agreeable to me.’

‘Well, Leo,’ said his mother, ‘that will do for a token between us. When
you turn my friend, my near relation, the only creature whom I care for
here, to the door--I shall understand that I have notice to quit, and
that you want no more with me.’

‘What folly!’ he cried, ‘when you know I would as soon try to interfere
with the constitution of the earth as to lift a finger against any of
your friends.’

‘Or consort with any of my enemies, Leo.’

‘Certainly, no, if I knew who they were; but I know of none here at
least.’

She laughed again; then, turning to her table, took up the _Figaro_
which lay there. ‘Enough, enough,’ she said. ‘Enough, Leo; a quarrel is
a fearful joy; but one wearies even of that at the last.’

Leo stood for a time in the same attitude, while she opened her paper
and began to read. Then he made a turn or two round the room, stopping
here and there to look at a picture, though he neither saw nor cared
what it was. Finally, when this wandering had lasted for, perhaps, five
minutes without any sign on the part of his mother, he went quietly out
of the room and downstairs.

She did not move a finger until the sound of his steps had died away;
then she put down the paper, and listened for the closing of his door.
It came at last with a dull echo going through the silent house. That
sound brought many memories to the mind of the lady left alone in the
great room, which would have held a crowd. She remembered the times
without number when his father had retired so, and gave vent to a low
laugh of scorn. And then she remembered other things, and her face grew
grave. The paper fell rustling at her feet. She cast a look round her
upon the room with its flowers, its lights, its cosy atmosphere, which
was a triumph of skill and care, just so warm, and no more. The comfort
and the luxury were perfect; there was nothing that could be done to
increase the beauty, the ease, the grace, and completeness of all about
her; and there she sat like a queen--alone.




XX


Lady William was still a little disturbed next morning, her usual
composure gone, her countenance clouded. She had not forgiven little
Patty, who in consequence went about her work watering with tears,
instead of damp tea-leaves as usual, the carpet in the drawing-room
which it was her business to sweep. Patty entertained the idea which,
alas! is so little general among servant-girls, that her mistress was an
angel, or something even more than that; for angels to Patty’s
consciousness were generally little boys with wings and without any
clothes, to whom it would have been profane to compare a lady. It may be
imagined how hollow the world was, and how little satisfactory the
routine of work when Lady William frowned; everything went badly with
Patty. She broke a china bowl and received from Miss Mab--Miss Mab
always so _bon camarade_, if Patty had known the qualification--a very
sharp and decided scolding, not to say that Anne--old Anne, whom Patty
considered almost too old to live, and whose work she was conscious of
doing in great part--fell upon her and nagged till the poor girl nearly
ran away. Lady William was not busy this lovely spring morning which
ought to have put new heart into everything. She said very little even
to Mab. She was evidently thinking of something with which even Mab had
but little to do. But when the girl talked of her own afternoon’s
occupation, her mother interposed quickly. ‘I think you had better come
up with me to the Hall, Mab.’

‘Then you are going, mother? in obedience to a call like that----’

‘In obedience to nothing; because I hate it, and want to get it over.’

‘Do you hate Mrs. Swinford, mother?’

‘Oh, I hope not,’ said Lady William, the tears starting to her eyes;
‘don’t ask me such questions. I hope not: I don’t want to hate any one.
I would rather not think of her. But I hate going into a house that has
so many memories--into a house where I have known so much----’

‘It was there you met my father,’ said Mab.

‘Yes;’ the monosyllable dropped from Lady William’s closed lips as if
dropped out against her will.

‘But that ought not to be altogether a painful recollection, mother.’
Mab had never heard anything of her father who was so long dead; there
was no portrait of him that she had ever seen. Her idea of him was not
precisely a happy one. Other people talked of the husbands they had
lost, especially the poor women who liked to enlarge upon the good or
bad qualities of the departed--but Mab knew nothing of her father,
whether he had been bad or good. And she had a great curiosity, if no
more, to know something of him. It was seldom, very seldom, that an
opportunity occurred even for a question.

‘I cannot enter into the past,’ said Lady William; ‘there is a great
deal that is very painful in it. I would rather not tell you the story,
Mab. It would do you no good, nor any one. I had forgotten a great deal
till this lady appeared again. So far as I can see now, she is
determined that I shall no longer forget.’

‘Is she your enemy, mother?’

‘I don’t believe in enemies, it is too melodramatic; and probably she
means no harm; only she likes to stir up things which I prefer to
forget. Do you understand the difference? Perhaps it keeps up her
interest, but to me it spoils everything. Death is very dreadful to you,
Mab; but it’s very merciful, too. It makes you forget many things, when
they are not forcibly brought back to your mind.’

Mab eyed her mother very curiously with a hundred questions on her lips:
but Lady William’s face was not encouraging, and with a sigh the girl
gave up her intended inquiry. She added, after some time: ‘The only
thing, mother, is that Mrs. Swinford may want to speak to you of things
that you don’t wish me to know.’

‘That is very possible, Mab: and it is for that I want you to go with
me, to protect me. She would never bring up old stories which would be
painful, before you.’

‘Mother,’ said Mab, and then paused.

‘What is it?’

‘I want to know--if I am perhaps at the mercy of a stranger like Mrs.
Swinford to tell me things that would be painful--about my
father--whether it would not be better for you, mother, who would do it
in love and quietly, to tell me yourself and put me beyond her power?’

‘Mab, you are very sensible, very reasonable.’

‘I don’t know if I’m that: but it seems to me the better way.’

Lady William began to speak: then hesitated, became husky, and paused a
moment to steady her voice. ‘There is nothing to tell about your father,
Mab, that could affect you; nothing that would hurt his name in the
world; only private matters between him and me, in which unfortunately
Mrs. Swinford was mixed up. There is no such thing,’ she went on after a
pause, with a sort of painful smile, ‘as trouble--without faults on both
sides. I was to blame as much as any one else. You would not think the
better of either of your parents if you were to be told all that there
is to tell. Will you take my word for that? and that there is nothing
which it is at all necessary for you to hear?’

‘Certainly, I will take your word, mother. But I don’t believe you were
so much wrong. You are hasty sometimes, but you never keep on or nag.
And sometimes you are so patient; if there were quarrels I know it was
not your fault.’

The girl came to her mother’s side and gave her a kiss, putting down her
soft young cheek upon Lady William’s, which was as soft, though no
longer young. The mother took the kiss with a smile. It was not wholly a
smile of pleasure at Mab’s approval and vindication of her--innocent Mab
that knew of nothing but a quarrel, a difference of opinion, a nagging.
Mab thought it was a great pity, that perhaps her father had troubles of
temper which she was conscious herself of possessing, and that no doubt
Mrs. Swinford had interfered and made things worse. It brought her
father even a little nearer to her to learn that he had been cross. Poor
father! he had been long forgiven and his tempers forgotten, when they
were not thrust back upon the memory: and poor mother, who perhaps
blamed herself more than was just, and thought now how often she might
have answered with a soft word! Lady William smiled, reading in the
child’s mind as in a book, so easy was that young interpretation, so
desirable, so strange to the woman who knew all.

The afternoon was radiant: sky and air had been washed clean, as Mab
said, by frequent showers, and there did not seem an atom of impurity,
not even a cloudlet that was not white and shining, in the whole expanse
of atmosphere. Lady William was grave, but had recovered her composure,
and Mab was gay with an unusual freshness, ready to gambol about the
path like the large loose-limbed puppy from the lodge who was fond of
taking walks with visitors, and who came up and offered himself as
guide and companion as soon as the two ladies had entered the gate. Mab
was acquainted with the puppy’s family for several generations, and knew
his mother upon intimate terms, so that there was no need of ceremony.
He and she had gone up the avenue to the point at which the house
becomes visible, rising high above the little lake and among the trees,
when Lady William called her daughter back. ‘You have had enough of the
puppy,’ she said; ‘now you must turn into a young lady, Mab.’

‘It is not half so amusing, mother; but, oh, look at the violets, how
thick they are under the trees!’

‘About the ashen roots the violets blow,’ said Lady William.

‘I never knew any one have so many bits of poetry ready for all
occasions,’ said Mab admiringly. ‘It’s a pity they’re only dog-violets,
and not sweet at all; but they are pretty like that all the same.’

‘Why, I wonder, should one speak of dog-violets, and dog-roses, and
dog-daisies?’ said Lady William. ‘I suppose it is in contempt of things
that grow wild.’

‘A dog is the wisest thing that lives,’ said Mab; ‘there’s no contempt
in such a name. Puppy! puppy! where are you going? I must run after him,
mother, and keep him from frightening those ducks.’

‘There’s contempt, if you please! The famous Swinford wild fowl!’

‘Oh, I can’t bear them, the stupid things. Puppy! puppy! oh, don’t be a
fool, they are not worth your while.’

‘Nor yours either, puppy mine. You will be as red as a peony next, and
what will Mrs. Swinford say?’

‘I hate Mrs. Swinford,’ said Mab; but she walked soberly the rest of the
way. Mrs. Swinford was in the same room and chair as she had occupied on
the previous night: with flowers piled in the jardinières, on the
tables, everywhere; a wood fire blazing very bright, but more bright
than warm, and the mistress of the house arrayed, as always, in dark
velvet, with a crimson tone in the lights, but without the lace which
had softened at once her features and her age. Her hair, in which there
was not a thread of white, was dressed high on her head; her back was,
as usual, to the light.

‘Oh, you have brought your little girl,’ she said, in a tone almost of
displeasure. ‘You are very perverse and contradictory, my dear, as you
always were. I had something to say to you, alone.’

‘Oh, as for that,’ said Mab, angry, ‘I can go away.’

Her mother gave her a restraining look. ‘There is so little,’ she said,
‘in my life that requires to be talked about _en tête-à-tête_, and Mab
goes wherever I go.’

‘That is to say, you bring her with you as young women sometimes bring
their babies, in defence.’ Mrs. Swinford laughed, and, holding out her
hand, added, ‘Come here and let me see you, little girl.’

‘I am not a little girl,’ said Mab, still angry; but another glance from
her mother to the lady of the house restored that reasonableness in
which the girl was so strong. ‘And I am not much to look at,’ she added
steadily, ‘but, as it does not much matter, here I am.’

Mrs. Swinford took her by the hand, and, drawing her forward, looked at
her closely. Then she dropped the girl’s hand and laughed. ‘She proves
her parentage, at least,’ she said; ‘no doubt upon that subject; she is
a Pakenham all over. And she is like them, Emily, in temper and
intellect, too.’

Mab, unfortunately, did not understand the whole weight of the
insinuation in this remark, and she did not see her mother’s face behind
her. She answered quickly for herself. ‘I have not a very good temper,
Mrs. Swinford. When people say nasty things to me, I can be nasty too.’

‘So I presume,’ said the lady of the house.

‘Or to my mother,’ said Mab; ‘she is too patient and too much a lady;
but I’m not.’

‘Mab!’ said her mother’s warning voice behind.

‘It is that I think this lady wants to provoke me,’ said Mab, ‘and I
don’t see----’

‘My dear, you will show your superiority best by not suffering yourself
to be provoked.’

Mab went off to one of the jardinières with a little toss of her head,
and it was at this moment that Leo came in, a little hurried and not
without agitation. He came in saying quickly, ‘I have just heard that
you had visitors, mother.’

‘Leo,’ said Mrs. Swinford, ‘I have something to say to Emily here. I did
not expect her to bring her daughter, and I did not desire my son’s
company. You can go and show the young lady the pictures; it is a young
man’s business; and you ought to thank me for giving you the
opportunity. Now, Emily, _à nous deux_.’

‘I was not aware,’ said Lady William, pale but steadfast, ‘that what you
wanted to say to me was of particular importance.’

‘You thought I only sent for you to say I love you,’ said Mrs. Swinford.
‘Well, you knew that already; but I had something much more serious to
say. And I am glad, after all, you brought your little girl, Emily; for
she is the strongest argument I can bring forward to make you do what I
want you to do.’

‘And what is that?’ said Lady William. ‘I must warn you that I am not
very open to advice.’

‘As if I did not know you were not open to advice! except, my dear, you
will recollect, when you wished to take a certain course which was
advised.’

‘Did I wish to take it?’ said Lady William; ‘that is what has never been
clear.’

‘Oh, did you wish it?’ cried Mrs. Swinford, with a laugh. ‘However, that
is old ground; but if I have any responsibility for that first step,
Emily, I have the more right to speak now. For that child’s sake you
must make overtures to the family. Whatever they may do or say, it is
for you to put your pride in your pocket, and make friends with them, if
they like it or not. Your claims must be fully established.’

‘My claims?’ said Lady William; ‘there has never been any question made
of my claims.’

‘Probably not, so long as you live; but look at that child. You must
make everything certain for her; I must press it upon you with all my
might, Emily. Life is uncertain, and you have nothing of your own.’

‘Not much, that is true.’

‘And what would she have to depend upon if you died? You don’t even know
what questions might arise. They might ask her what her proofs were,
what evidence she had.’

‘Of what?’ said Lady William, wondering. ‘What evidence does Mab require
to prove that she is my daughter? But all the parish could prove that,
with the Rector at their head.’

‘Oh, so far as that goes; but it does not suffice to be proved to be her
mother’s daughter when the money is on the father’s side.’

‘What do you mean, Mrs. Swinford?’ Lady William had grown red and a
little angry. She fixed her eyes upon her adviser, ‘There is something
in what you say that I do not understand.’

‘Nevertheless it is very true,’ said Mrs. Swinford; ‘the money is, you
know, on the father’s side, and the father’s family have a right to know
everything about it. It should be put quite out of their power to say
afterwards that they never had any proof.’

‘Of what? You mean something that has not been suggested to me before. I
have been told I ought to make overtures; but what is this? Please to
tell me,’ she said, almost sharply, ‘what you mean.’

‘You must surely have thought of it yourself. Here you are, a widow, not
very young, with an only child. They call you Lady William, and you
enjoy the rank. Oh, you need not wave your hand as if to say no; I know
you better than you know yourself; you enjoy your rank.’

‘For the sake of argument it may be allowed that I enjoy my rank, such
as it is.’

‘Well, you do, I know, whether you choose to allow it or refuse. Emily
Plowden, it is your first business to prove your claim to it, and your
child’s to her name.’

‘I am not Emily Plowden,’ said Lady William; ‘you mistake that, to begin
with; and I can only repeat that my claim, which I have never required
to prove, has been doubted by no one, nor my child’s right. Is it for
pure insult you say this? My movements have always been open as the
day.’

‘What! when you left this house in the dark, in the middle of the night!
I have never questioned your claims till now. My motive is not to insult
you, but to help you. Where were you married, Emily Plowden? Who married
you? Have you your certificates all in order? You disappeared, and then
you came back, and I never asked, but took it all for granted. It is
only when I see your little girl that I begin to ask myself, Emily, have
you got your papers, whatever they may be? Emily Plowden, are you sure
that you have any right to another name?’




XXI


In Miss Grey’s drawing-room, which was as small as Miss Grey herself,
there were three persons assembled. Miss Grey, seated at the
writing-table--much too large for the place, like the rest of the
furniture; Florence Plowden on the big ‘Chesterfield’ sofa; and a large
and tall individual standing in the middle of the floor. He was large in
comparison with the ladies, and with the limited space in which he
stood. But otherwise, though tall, he was a spare man; his length of
limb and scantness of flesh made particularly apparent by his long
clerical coat. Needless to say that he was the curate, and that it was
parish business that formed the staple of the conversation. Florence had
come in with her district visitor’s book; and other books of a similar
description were on the table. They were talking in that curious jargon
of business and gossip which makes up the talk of the workers in a
parish or ecclesiastical organisation of any kind.

‘In whose district is Mead Lane?’ said Mr. Osborne. ‘A man came to me
last night from No. 3, to ask me to go and see his wife. She had been in
bed for about six weeks--very ill now. There is a baby, of course, and I
don’t know how many children; man occasionally out of work--though not
now. Everything in disorder, as you may imagine. Nobody had called to
see them for weeks. A lady had come once or twice before the woman fell
ill; never since.’

He made this report very drily, in staccato sentences, as if he were
abridging from a book.

Miss Grey turned round, twisting on her chair to give Florence a look.
‘I knew it would be so,’ she said; ‘they are a couple of old maids
wrapped up in themselves. She says: “Do you think you should go out, my
dear, such a cold day?” and he says: “The parish can surely wait; but
you mustn’t go out, with your delicate throat, in the rain.”’

‘This is very interesting as a social sketch,’ said the curate, ‘but it
does not answer my question.’

Florence was far from being in high spirits, but her native genius was
too much for her. She turned upon him with a little mincing air, and
deprecatory friction of her hands. ‘Oh, don’t you really think so, Mr.
Osborne?’ she said.

He laughed, though with a certain look of disapproval, as if amused
against his will. ‘I see,’ he said. ‘Mrs. Kendal; what is to be done
with her? If she will not do what she undertakes, some one else must be
got to do it.’

At which both Miss Grey and Florence shook their heads. ‘It would be
such a slap in the face,’ said the little lady of the house. ‘They are
good people in their way, and liberal enough. We must just manage it a
little. Florence and I will go and see this poor woman, and if Mrs.
Kendal hears of it we can say---- Oh, some excuse will be found easily
enough.’

‘Excuse! When she has let the woman die nearly----’

‘A miss is as good as a mile. I’ll go over at once, and send in the
nurse if she wants it. What did you say was the name? Brownjohn! Oh,’
said Miss Grey, with a sudden diminution of energy, ‘I’m afraid, Florry,
we know the illnesses of Mrs. Brownjohn. She has a great many, and
whatever district she is in, the visitor always neglects her. We know
her case very well.’

‘The woman is very ill now, and the house in a dreadful state; and the
man, of course, as if things were not bad enough, taking refuge in the
public-house.’

‘Ah, that I can understand----’

‘The filthy place, Miss Grey, or the public-house?’ the curate said,
with a little severity.

‘Oh, both, both! You must be a little human. The public-house is the
natural consequence of a crowded little room, and no comfort--even
without the dirt.’

‘But surely you don’t think that ought to be so? Surely you don’t
suppose that it isn’t the man’s duty to rectify things instead of making
them worse? If the wife’s unable to do her part, instead of abandoning
her brutally, and letting everything go to destruction, oughtn’t he to
stand in, to do what he can, to make life possible? That’s how I read a
man’s duty, at least.’

‘Oh, my dear Mr. Osborne,’ said little Miss Grey, ‘it’s a man’s duty to
be a good Christian and a perfect man. And so it is everybody’s duty; we
all acknowledge that.’

Mr. Osborne snorted slightly, with the impatience of a fiery horse
suddenly pulled up. ‘I hope I demand less than perfection, though I know
that I ought not to be content with less,’ he said. ‘But in the
meantime,’ he added, pausing a minute to expel that hot breath of
impatience, ‘I don’t suppose you will think it right because of Mrs.
Kendal’s feelings, or even her own imperfections, that this poor
creature should be left to die?’

Miss Grey and Florry exchanged glances behind the curate’s back, with a
slight shaking of heads. Oh, these arbitrary young men, wanting
everything their own way, and thinking you have no feeling if you don’t
go so far as they do! This was the sentiment in the older lady’s mind;
but Florence was naturally more fierce.

‘We are not in the habit of leaving poor people to die--when there is
any truth in it,’ she said.

He gave her a look half fierce, half tender, full of the natural
animosity of a man checked in his certainties of opinion, yet with a
longing that she at least should understand and know what he meant.

‘Oh yes,’ said Miss Grey, ‘I’ll go; and have a little order put in the
place, at least. That little girl--- the eldest, Florry, don’t you
remember?--who was sent to the seaside after her fever, she ought to be
good for something now.’

‘There is a little girl,’ said the curate.

Miss Grey turned round upon him with a laugh that made him furious. ‘As
if we didn’t know!’ she said. Then, turning to Florence again, ‘You
might go in, as you pass, my dear, to Mrs. Gould, and see if the nurse
is engaged. Tell her, if she can, to run round to Mead Lane about two
o’clock. She’ll probably find me there, and if it is anything really
serious we’ll get the doctor to see her. Come now, let’s see if there is
anything else we want to consult Mr. Osborne about.’

‘I want to ask you, at least,’ he said, ‘if you will help me with my
meeting, to give them an evening’s entertainment. I recognise,’ with a
little severity, ‘as well as you do, that they must be amused as well as
looked after.’

‘Well,’ said Miss Grey, ‘if it’s children I am quite ready to play any
number of games with them. But I’m not a great one for providing
amusement, Mr. Osborne. In the first place I can’t sing to them, or
dance to them, or play the fiddle; in the next, I think they like their
own amusements best.’

‘The public-house, Miss Grey?’

The little lady had tears in her eyes. ‘I am not in favour of the
public-house, God knows--but I am not so sure that your meetings will
do away with that. It’s just as likely to make them thirsty coming out
at nine, after you’ve sung to them and fiddled to them, and seeing the
red light in the window that looks so cheerful to them. But never mind
me--Florry and Emmy will sing, and the London young ladies in the new
villa will play the piano, and you can get a quartette of fiddles, you
know, quite easily from Winwich. And Jim--Jim might recite; he used to
be very good at it.’

‘Oh--Mr. Plowden!’ said the curate, with a slight hesitation.

‘Jim I mean: he used to read very well when he was a boy.’

‘I asked Lady William,’ Mr. Osborne said hurriedly, as if to change the
subject, ‘but she said like you, Miss Grey, that she neither sang nor--I
am not aware I suggested that any one should dance.’

‘They would like that! but the thing is not so much what they would like
to see, but what all the ladies and gentlemen would like to do. And
by-the-bye there is that dark-eyed woman at the school--whom I have a
strong feeling I have seen before--and who looks no more like a
schoolmistress than--any one does. I feel quite sure she could act or
recite or something--or perhaps sing. I would ask her if I were you.’

‘I am unfortunate in not being of your opinion, Miss Grey; I should not
think of asking that person to help in any case.’

‘Oh, you’re too particular,’ Miss Grey said.

And then Florence got up to go.

‘The old Lloyds,’ she said, ‘want to have a week of their pension in
advance--may I say you will give it to them, Miss Grey?’

‘Oh dear, don’t say anything of the kind; if they get a week in advance
how are they to live the next week when they have none?’

‘I said so--but then she cried, poor old body, and said they were worse
off now than before--for if they wanted something very bad out of the
usual way, some kind person used to give it to them--whereas now when
they have a regular pension they have to stick to it, and nobody minds.’

‘There’s a sermon,’ cried Miss Grey, ‘on the uses of beneficence in a
small parish. You have only to tell Mr. Swinford, Florry, and he’ll give
them the advance and the week’s money too, and next time they’ll want a
fortnight’s advance--it’s what I’ve always said. He’s a nice young
fellow and a warm heart, but to sow money about is no good.’

‘You said yourself, Miss Grey, that so much a week----’

‘Oh yes, I said it myself--I’d like to give them the advance and the
week’s money too, just as well as Mr. Swinford does--though Mr. Osborne
thinks on the other hand that I am ready, because I’ve little faith in
her, to leave a poor creature to die. Oh, don’t say anything--I know of
course you didn’t exactly mean that. Are you going too? Good-bye; I’ll
get my bonnet and I’ll be in Mead Lane before you’ve got to the Rectory
gate.’

It did not appear, however, that there was any intention in the mind of
these two young people to take the road which led to the Rectory gate.
There was a momentary pause when they got outside, and Florence
hurriedly, in view of the fact that the curate’s way to his lodging did
lie in that direction, held out her hand to him. ‘Good morning, I am
going up to Mrs. Gould’s to see about the nurse,’ she said, somewhat
breathless and eager to escape.

‘I am going that way, too,’ said the young man, but not without a blush.
Curates are, after all, like other men, and do not hesitate to change
their route and to assert that they always meant to go that way; but
there is so much consistency in the young Anglican that he blushes when
he announces that innocent fallacy. He was going that way: where, then,
was he going to? The part of the parish in which Mrs. Gould lived was
not in the curate’s district, and he could not surely have any
impertinent intention of interfering with what was in the Rector’s
hands? These ideas flashed through the mind of Florence, but naturally
she did not put them into words. She was very angry with Mr. Osborne,
full of indignation, and yet she did not wish him to turn back and leave
her at Miss Grey’s door. The blush which had surprised him as he told
that fib reflected itself on her countenance, but in both their hearts
there was a thrill of pleasure as they turned thus into the wrong
way--the way that Florry had chosen to elude him, without in the least
wanting to go to Mrs. Gould’s (for she knew all the time where the
parish nurse was); the way that he falsely asserted to be his, though he
knew it was nothing of the kind. It was a guilty pleasure, which neither
of them would have owned to, but yet there was not much guilt in it
after all.

‘Miss Grey is a very good woman,’ said the curate, ‘and excellent for
the parish--but she has very old-fashioned ways of looking at things.’

‘I don’t see that,’ said Florence lightly, ‘at all.’

‘You would, I am sure,’ said Mr. Osborne, ‘if you would allow yourself
to take a larger view. You won’t, I am afraid, adopt my standing-point,
for you think that I am opposed to her and that I don’t appreciate
her.’

‘You can’t of course know her as we do,’ said Florence, ‘for all our
lives she has been an example before our eyes.’

‘That is again entirely the individual view of the question,’ said the
curate gently, ‘and in that I grant you--but don’t you think we might
take a more extended range when the question is a public one? I don’t in
the least object to that, far from it. I know there is nothing so good
as the way of working by individualities, of getting hold of Tom, and
Will, and Peter, one by one, the door-to-door system, as I may call it;
but when you have a great public evil like that of intemperance, don’t
you think, Miss Florence, it is well, while not leaving the other
undone, to try what some large public method will do----’

‘Like Father Matthew’s?’ said Florence.

‘Father Matthew was too sensational,’ said Mr. Osborne; ‘and it is
impossible to tell how much fiction there was in such a movement.
Indeed, I rather think the one by one system is the best; but to
interest them _en masse_, to make them see what a thing it would be for
all their families, and themselves, of course, and how much purer and
more rational pleasure they would get out of their lives----’

‘Do you think they learn in that way?’

‘If they don’t, I do not know how they are to learn.’

‘But they all know beforehand how dreadful a thing it is--they know it’s
destruction. Oh, don’t you think they know far better than we do, since
they see it before them every day, and all day long?’

‘What would you do, then,’ said the curate, ‘to bring this home to them?
I’ve got all the statistics. Of course they know, for misfortune brings
it home; but if we could fully convince them what a prodigious evil it
is over all the country, how many better things they could do with the
money. I remember proving to a man once, that if he only put by every
penny he had been accustomed to spend in drink, he could buy his
cottage, he could have a little garden of his own, and a pig, and I
don’t know how many things which every man prizes----’

‘And did he do it?’ said Florence.

‘Do it!’ said the curate. ‘Of course that meant a course of years. One
could not tell whether he did it or not, till a long time was passed.
Well, no,’ he added, with a sigh, ‘I am trying to deceive you, not to
admit my failure; he did not do it. He went on just in his old way, and
almost killed his wife, and starved his children, till he died.’

‘Is it true, Mr. Osborne,’ said Florence, ‘that you said to old Mrs.
Lloyd, if she would give up her beer, and take the pledge, you would do
so too?’

A flush came over the curate’s face, of ingenuous pleasure and
satisfaction. He liked her to know that he was capable of any sacrifice
to save his flock. ‘It is quite true,’ he said. ‘I was quite ready, and
had made up my mind to do it; for how can I ask my people to give up
what I don’t give up myself?’

‘But why did you choose poor old Mrs. Lloyd? It did her no harm, her
little drop of beer.’

‘Every drop of beer does harm, in a community like this, scourged by
that vice----’

‘Mr. Osborne,’ said Florence timidly.

‘Yes,’ he said, bending towards her, ‘you were going to say something.’

‘I want to say something; but, oh, I don’t know whether I ought, I don’t
know whether I may.’

The curate trembled, too, as much as she did. They were in a quiet road,
with nobody in sight. He put his hand suddenly upon hers with a hurried,
tremulous pressure. ‘There is nothing you ought not to say to me,’ he
said. ‘Nothing, nothing that I will not gladly hear. If you should
reprove me, even, it would be as a precious balm--whatever, whatever you
will say!’

There was a little pause, and it was very still all about, a bird or two
trilling in the half-clothed trees, not a harsher sound to disturb the
two young creatures, there standing at the crisis of their lives. ‘But
first,’ he said, ‘first let me say something to you----’

‘No,’ said Florence, ‘no, that was not what I meant, not now--I had
something to say. Mr. Osborne, listen. If, instead of an old woman, and
her a good old woman that did no harm, it were a man, a boy, a
gentleman, that you could have held out your hand to--oh, not to make
him take pledges and things! and perhaps, you, hearing of him, thought
him no company for you. But if you could have turned him away from harm
to go with you; if you had suffered his society, not approving of it,
because your society might have saved him; if you had thought to
yourself that to be your companion might have been everything for him,
and that to make him do things with you, and almost live with you,
though you might not like it, would have made life another thing to him.
Oh, Mr. Osborne, would not that have been a better way?’ Her eyes were
so full of tears that she could not see him, but when he spoke she heard
a sound in his voice which made her start and turn hastily to where the
man who was almost her accepted lover, who had the words on his lips
that were to bind them for ever, stood. The music and the softness had
altogether gone out of these staccato tones.

‘Miss Plowden,’ he said, as if a sudden gulf had come between them over
which his voice sounded far away, ‘I will not even ask what you mean. I
should feel myself a most presumptuous intruder, and impertinent----
Good morning. I find I have not so much time as I thought for this
roundabout way.’




XXII


Florence went faithfully to Mrs. Gould’s to ask for the nurse, though
she knew the nurse was not there. A man, perhaps, would have departed
from that position when it was no longer necessary, but she considered
it needful, as a proof of good faith, to carry out her announced
intention. It was a long way round, and then she had to make another
tour to get to the place where the nurse really was, so that her walk
altogether occupied some three-quarters of an hour more than it need
have done, and the time was long, although, on the other hand, she was
glad to have it to herself, and to get over the pang of that abrupt
separation. She knew very well what it was that the curate had to say to
her. It had been on his lips for many days, and she had dreaded it, not
because she did not want to hear it, but because of a girl’s natural
evasion of the moment she wishes for most, the shy, half mischievous,
half visionary putting off of the sweet cup from the lips. The
expectation of it was sweet; all the pleasures of imagination lay in
that moment which would bring an entire change in her life, a
remodelling of all its circumstances. Florence had taken a pleasure in
stealing away, in postponing till to-morrow. But it cannot be said that
she experienced that pleasure to-day. She felt that she had received a
blow when the curate turned with that hasty leave-taking and left her.
To run away is one thing, and hold off a joy which is on the way; but to
be thus abandoned is another. It gave her a dull shock like that of an
unexpected, uncomprehended blow. She had wondered how he would take her
remonstrance, her statement of what she thought his duty, which had been
on her lips so long; but she had never expected him to take it with
instant offence, with a resentment which drove all other thoughts out of
his mind. What did he resent? To have this duty which he did not wish to
recognise pointed out to him, or that she should venture to point it
out--she only a girl, and the girl who, by loving him, he perhaps
thought was bound to see no flaw in him? Florence was not one of those
who can see nothing but excellence in those they love, but she felt,
with a momentary gleam of insight sharpened by pain, that perhaps Mr.
Osborne was of the kind which requires that in a woman. She had not
thought of the possibility before, that this might not be merely a
momentary offence, but a wound from which he would not recover, which he
would not forgive. A love-quarrel ever seems thus even when of the most
trivial origin. It appears at once tragic, a thing never to be got over:
an end of all the romance. Florence’s heart went down, down to the very
depths. She said to herself that it was all over: that the last step
would never now be taken, that there would be no more all her life but
only an aching void, not even the recollection of words said that never
could be forgotten. Had she let him speak she would at least have had
that to cheer her; but as it was she would have nothing, not even the
gloomy importance of an engagement to break off, a farewell that would
have a whole tragedy in it: not even that: only a mere drifting asunder,
a vacancy where there had been so much hope: a life blighted before it
had come to bloom.

This thought occupied her mind sadly as she made that unnecessary round.
He had gone off like a racehorse, scarcely touching the ground in the
heat of his vexation and offence, but she went along very slowly, with
the depression of the one who is in fault; whose interference and
perhaps unreasonable censure had made the breach. Who, after all, was
she that she should tell him of his duty, or that something else than
the course he had adopted was a better way? she, only a girl with no
education in particular, dictating not only to a man trained to
discriminate what was the best, but a priest with the highest of vows
upon him, and a special consecration to God’s service? Her presumption
overwhelmed her when she thought of it in this light. But perhaps to be
a member of a clerical family, used to see gentlemen of that profession
too closely, and amid all the little trials of life, takes away to a
certain extent the visionary reverence which it would be perhaps better
to keep like an aureole about them. Florence could not surrender her
natural judgment to this extent, nor convince herself that she had done
wrong. She had taken perhaps an inopportune moment, but she had not said
anything that was not true. She had managed badly for herself, and she
would have to bear the result: but it was not wrong what she had said,
nor was it wrong to say it; for perhaps, who could tell, he had never
thought of that side of the question before? Very likely he had never
thought of it. Some people are so happy that they never have in all
their lives to encounter misery in their family, and how can they know,
unless somebody who does know it, somebody who has been forced to
understand it, tells them? And perhaps--she thought with a forlorn
consolation--what she had said would bear fruit, though he might never
have anything to do with her again. He was too much offended, wounded,
hurt, to think of her any more; that was a thing to be received as
certain once for all; but perhaps what she had said would come back to
him, and he might feel that it was true.

Then if she had let it alone for the present, if she had allowed him to
say what was on his lips, and had answered what was on hers, and had
become his, and had pledged herself to him--why, then one time or other
she must have spoken, not as now in the general, but plainly of Jim? And
what if the righteous young man’s high disapproval and disgust with the
unrighteous had gone even further, to the length of putting poor Jim,
whom his sister loved, out of the charities of life altogether and
casting him off as some good people do? Florence felt that no tie, not
even marriage itself, would have made her bear that, and so concluded at
last, mournfully, that what she had done was, perhaps, after all the
best, so as to warn him off in time, and show him that her views were
very different from his. Oh, what mistakes men can make even when they
are the most highly instructed, the most high-minded and nobly purposed
of their kind! Edward Osborne was all that; yet he thought that it was a
more pious thing to make poor old Mrs. Lloyd and such harmless old
bodies give up their little harmless indulgences than to risk a little
trouble or company that, perhaps, might be distasteful to him, in order
to save Jim.

Florence got home at last just in time for the family luncheon, which
was a good thing for her, as it kept her from exposure to the close
personal observation of her mother and sister, who were too well
acquainted with every change of her countenance not to perceive at once
when anything was wrong with Florry. But the family meal occupied Mrs.
Plowden, and Emmy was fortunately so full of her own morning’s
occupations that her sister escaped notice.

‘You are not eating anything, child, and you have no colour,’ her mother
said, ‘after your long walk.’

‘It is the long walk that has done it, she has over-tired herself; you
shouldn’t permit those long walks,’ said the Rector. This was his
favourite way of treating any annoyance--with that consolatory
conviction that it must be his wife’s fault, which supports many men
through the smaller miseries of life. Mrs. Plowden took an equal
pleasure in the pleas of self-defence. ‘How am I to prevent long walks
when there is always so much to do in the parish?’ she said. ‘I am
constantly telling you you should have more district visitors, or a
mission woman, or something. Those girls have never a moment to
themselves.’

‘Oh, it is nothing, mamma,’ said Florence. ‘I had to make a long round
to get the parish nurse: for I went to Mrs. Gould’s to find her, and, of
course, she wasn’t there.’

‘You ought to have known that, Florry, so it is your own fault. Why, you
sent her off yourself to the little Heaths.’

‘I know, mamma: I can’t think how I could be so stupid,’ Florence said.

‘And who wants her now?’ said the Rector curtly.

‘It is that woman in Mead Lane, who is always in trouble. Mr. Osborne,’
said Florence, so anxious to keep her voice firm that she gave the name
an emphasis and importance she had no intention of giving, ‘had been
sent for to see her last night.’

‘Osborne! he’s always finding a mare’s nest somewhere--do you mean that
woman that always is in trouble, as you say?--trouble, indeed! drink you
mean, and all that follows. If he could get her to take the pledge it
might do some good: that’s if she would keep it--which I don’t believe
for a moment.’

‘Then why should he take the trouble, papa, if it is to do no good?’

‘That’s what I tell him for ever: but he believes in himself, the young
prig: I wish he would keep to his own business, and not mix himself up
with things he cannot possibly understand.’

‘My dear James,’ said Mrs. Plowden, ‘Mr. Osborne is an excellent young
man. There has not been a curate in the parish I have liked so much
since Mr. Sinclair’s time. And he is very well connected and well-off, I
believe, and altogether a creditable person to have about--an Oxford man
and all that.’

‘That’s why he gives himself so many airs,’ the Rector said--which was
not to say that the Rector did not really approve of Mr. Osborne, but
only that it was his rôle to take the critical side. Mrs. Plowden, for
her part, knew very well what was going on, and though she had burst
forth in the fulness of her heart to her sister-in-law upon his
shortcomings, she was on ordinary occasions very careful to keep up Mr.
Osborne’s reputation, and to impress Florence with a due sense of all
his qualities.

Now there arose a testimony in Mr. Osborne’s favour which was totally
unexpected. ‘He wasn’t at all a bad lot at Oxford, said Jim. ‘Fellows
that knew him liked him there: he played racquets for the University,
and won. I wonder if he ever gets a game now.’

‘You astonish me, Jim,’ said Mrs. Plowden. ‘I never should have thought
he was a man for games. What is racquets? is it a kind of tennis? for of
course tennis is played with racquets. Perhaps we could get up a game
for him here.’

At this Jim laughed loudly, and his father, who did not often join in
his jokes, such as they were, backed him up faintly with a smile.

‘No, I don’t think we could get up a game for him here. It’s a
tremendous game; not like anything so simple as lawn tennis. It is the
old _jeu de paume_, isn’t it?’ said the Rector, ‘the beginning of them
all.’

A conversation between the Rector and his son, on a general subject, on
a question, something they were both interested in, without reproof on
one side, or defence on the other: what a thing that was! Mrs. Plowden’s
eyes grew lambent with the light of unusual happiness; after a moment
she said: ‘I suppose you play it, Jim?’

‘I!’ said the young man. ‘Oh, I’m not half enough of a swell for that,
mother.’

‘I don’t see,’ said the mother, half happy, half indignant, ‘why you
shouldn’t be swell enough, Jim, to do anything Mr. Osborne does.’

‘You don’t remember,’ said the Rector sharply, ‘that it takes
application to play a game well, as well as to study well, and that Jim
never thought it good enough, either for one thing or another.’

Alas! how short the moment of happiness is!

‘Oh, girls,’ said Mrs. Plowden, when lunch was over, and the three
ladies were in the drawing-room again, ‘if Mr. Osborne would only take
up Jim! He is the only man in the parish who could do it; and now that I
hear he plays games and things I feel a little hopeful. For whatever
your father may say, I know that Jim is good at all games. We might get
up this racquets, whatever it is, and get them to play together. We
might ask the General, Florry, what it is. Army men always know
everything of that kind. Or, Emmy, you might remember to ask your aunt;
and there’s Mr. Swinford; perhaps he plays it too.’

‘I suppose it is a gentleman’s game,’ said Emmy, with perhaps not so
strong an enthusiasm.

‘Do you think I might speak to Mr. Osborne about it?’ said the mother,
pondering. When she asked advice of her girls it was in fact a sort of
thinking aloud, a putting of the question to her own mind. A thing often
seems quite different put out in audible words from what it does when
only turned over and over in the recesses of your own heart. ‘I might
tell him that Jim was very fond of it, and that hearing he was good I
thought I would consult him how we should get it up.’

‘But Jim never said he was fond of it, mamma.’

‘Oh, how matter-of-fact you are, Emmy! Jim would be fond of anything
that was a game. He would be glad of any break; and to get him
surrounded with nice companions like himself, and taking his pleasure
with them, wouldn’t that be better for him than Sophocles, or any old
Pagan of them all? Your father doesn’t think so, perhaps, but I do; and,
if you look at it reasonably, so will you too.’

‘I would not trust to Mr. Osborne if I were you,’ said Florence. She was
standing in the corner beyond the window at the big old-fashioned round
table, which had been dismissed from its old-fashioned place in the
centre of the room, but was retained in the corner because it was so
useful. Florence had her back to her mother and sister, and was very
busy cutting out clothes for her girls’ class, which, like Miss Grey’s
mothers’ meeting, met weekly for needlework. ‘I would not speak to him
about it. He sometimes takes offence when you suggest a thing, and then
goes away and does it. I would not say a word if I were you.’

‘But it never has been suggested to him, Florry! Why, you know I never
heard of this even, till to-day. Here is your aunt Emily coming. We can
ask her what she thinks. She has been more in the world than any of us,
and probably she can tell us what racquets is.’

A considerable time elapsed, but no visitors appeared; and then Mrs.
Plowden, from wondering what Emily would say, at last came to wonder
where Emily could be, or if her eyes had deceived her, and Lady William
had not crossed the lawn at all. ‘I declare,’ she said, ‘I shall feel
quite unhappy if your aunt does not appear: for I saw her as plainly as
I see you. I saw her black gown, and the feather in her hat, which
really ought to be renewed if she will go on wearing black for ever--and
that umbrella of hers with the long handle.’

‘But, mamma dear,’ said Emmy, ‘you must have known at once whether it
was Aunt Emily or not, without thinking what she had on.’

‘Well, so I should have supposed,’ said Mrs. Plowden, bewildered, ‘but
then where is she, and what has become of her? She should have been here
ten minutes ago. Oh, who is that? Mab! Why, child, where have you come
from? And where is your mother? I am sure I saw her cross the lawn ten
minutes ago or more.’

‘And we think it must have been her wraith, Mab.’

‘Mother has gone to talk to Uncle James,’ said Mab. ‘She says it’s about
business, but I think it is some worry, she looks so serious. So I came
on after to wait for her. Oh, are you cutting out, Florry? Shall I help
you, or do you want any help?’

‘Some worry?’ said Mrs. Plowden, with a sorrowful brow. ‘I hope it is
not anything new about your uncle Reginald, girls.’

Reginald was the brother to whom Lady William had given her money, and
who had never come back.

‘Hadn’t we better wait till we hear what it is, mamma? I thought Uncle
Reginald had not been heard of for years.’

‘That is quite true, and it was my opinion we should never hear from him
any more; but what worry can your aunt Emily have if it is not about
him? For I am sure otherwise she is a happy woman, and never has the
shadow of a trouble. Was it after getting a foreign letter that she grew
so serious, Mab?’

‘She has had no letter at all,’ said Mab, ‘and she did not say it was
anything but business. The worry was only my own fancy; and I daresay I
was wrong.’

‘What else could it be?’ said Mrs. Plowden. ‘She may have heard he is
coming home. And I am sure, if he is coming home, I don’t know what I
shall do. He shall not come here. I could not have him in this house.
Our own burdens we must bear; but Reginald Plowden--oh, Reginald Plowden
is too much! If he comes here I shall run away.’

‘Dear mamma, don’t you think we had better wait a little? Aunt Emily is
sure to come here when she leaves papa, and then you will know.’

‘Oh, it is all very well to tell me to wait--when Reginald Plowden would
just put the crown upon everything,’ the poor lady said.




XXIII


Lady William had gone across the lawn, not to the usual door which
admitted into what may be called the private part of the Rectory, but to
the little parish door where people came who wanted the Rector on parish
business. This was always open, always accessible, though I don’t know
that the parishioners used it very much. It was at least an excellent
thing for them to have their clergyman always within reach, and suited
the Rector’s theory of his duty, which was a great matter, even if it
were not of very much practical use. Miss Grey trotted in by it with her
parish books, and the curate came, when something occurred about which
it was necessary to consult his chief. He did not, Mr. Plowden thought,
consult his chief nearly as much as would have been appropriate and
desirable--being a young man who liked his own way, and considered that
the elder generation did not always understand.

The Rector, however, was much surprised when the door sounded with the
familiar little click which he knew so well, and his sister presently
appeared in his study. He had expected one or other of the two
functionaries above named, or perhaps the churchwarden, or the treasurer
of the schools, who was a troublesome person with nothing to do, and
consequently an endless number of things to suggest. When he saw Lady
William his heart--which you may say ought to have been sufficiently
experienced to take things quietly--gave a jump. Experience does not
make us indifferent in certain cases, and the Rector was as easily
disturbed on one subject as if he had no experience at all. It flashed
into his mind that his sister, who was not much in the habit of
consulting him, must have something to say about Jim.

‘Emily!’ he said, with great surprise: and then, with a little attempt
at a lighter tone, which was not very successful, ‘What, have you fallen
into parish business, too?’

‘No,’ she replied, with a quickly drawn breath, which the Rector, as a
man accustomed to have to do with people in trouble, knew must mean
excitement, or anxiety, or distress. ‘No,’ she said, ‘I want to consult
you, James: but it is entirely about my own private business.’

The Rector drew a long breath. He was not glad--oh no!--to think that
his sister was in trouble: but nothing that affected her could be so
serious, he felt, as if it had been something about Jim. He drew forward
a chair near himself for her. He had always been both fond and proud of
Emily. Perhaps the fact that she was Lady William (though he knew the
marriage had not been a success) added a little to the feeling that she
was a being by herself, not to be compared with any one else. But still,
a great deal of it was very genuine, and meant a conviction that he knew
nobody comparable to Emily. He was pleased that she should consult him
on her own affairs, of which, generally, she said very little. She had
thrown away almost all her own money upon Reginald--provided only that
she did not mean to tell him that scapegrace was coming back to trouble
his respectable connections again! Thus the same idea that had disturbed
his wife occurred to the Rector, both terrors, no doubt, arising from
the fact that neither could imagine what Lady William could wish to
consult the Rector about.

‘My affairs,’ she said, with a faint smile, as she got her breath,
‘haven’t for a long time been very troublesome to my family, James. I
hope they are not entering now into a new stage.’

‘A new stage?’ he said, and the Rector’s middle-aged heart actually took
a jump again. What could it all mean? Good heavens!--Emily’s affairs in
a new stage! What could she be going to do? It could not be about any
change in her life that she was going to consult him. Change in her
life! That was what people said when somebody was going to marry. He
looked at his sister with sudden alarm. Emily marry! Vague things he had
heard said of Leo Swinford and jests about Lady William’s attractions,
started up in his mind. It rarely happens, I think, that a man likes his
sister (if she is not dependent upon him) to compromise her dignity by a
second marriage. He did not like to think that Emily might intend to
come down from her pedestal and show herself a mere common person, like
the rest.

‘What do you mean by a new stage?’ he said, with a pucker in his brow.
‘You are very well as you are, and occupy a very good position, and all
that. I don’t see what need there is for a new stage.’

‘Nor I,’ she said; ‘and I hope you will continue of the same opinion
when I tell you. I knew,’ she continued, with a little hot colour
flushing across her face, ‘that the coming of the Swinfords would upset
all our tranquillity. I was sure of it. She is a woman of evil omen
wherever she appears.’

‘Yet you were once very fond of her, if I remember right.’

‘When I was a girl, and she petted me, and made much of me--I was going
to say for her own ends; but I hope it was not for her own ends from the
beginning--that would be too diabolical.’

‘What ends could she have had that were to be promoted by you?’ said the
Rector, with a smile. He was sufficiently used to these preposterous
notions women so often have of their own importance, prompting them to
think the attention of other people, who probably never thought of them,
is fixed upon them, and that intentions of various kinds are formed
respecting them, without the least foundation in fact. Thus his own wife
was in the habit of thinking that her girls were watched and followed;
that their movements and their dresses were the subject of constant
remark, when in all probability nobody even knew that they were there.
He was surprised, however, that his sister Emily should share this view.

‘We need not discuss that,’ she said. ‘James, I want to ask you--do you
think it is my duty by Mab to seek further acquaintance with her
father’s family? We are exceedingly well as we are. The allowance they
make is not large, but it is enough, and there is something settled on
Mab when I die. They have done their duty, if not very liberally, yet
they have done it. And I don’t want any more from them. Mab is quite
contented, she likes her home better than anything; and though she is a
very dear girl, and my hope and comfort, I don’t know if she is fitted
to shine in--what people call the great world. I might get them, of
course, to bring her out in a way more fitting, perhaps--to take her to
Court, and all that----’

‘I don’t see,’ said the Rector, ‘that that would do her much good.’ Men
ought not, to be sure, to be touched by any of those motives, which are
entirely feminine; but it did certainly flash across the Rector’s mind
that his own girls had none of these advantages, had never gone to Court
or anything of the kind, and yet could not be said to be any the worse.

‘No, that is just what I think. She is quite satisfied as she is: to go
out with her Pakenham cousins, probably to their annoyance and against
their will, and to be taken to places where she knew nobody, would be
no pleasure to my little girl. She is such a thoroughly reasonable,
sensible, understanding child. I am so glad that you agree with me on
that point, James.’

While she was speaking the Rector began to think that perhaps all was
not said in that hasty opinion of his, and that a man consulted by his
nearest relation should not be moved by any little trifling
feeling--like that which might be legitimate enough in a mother, about
his own girls. And he said, ‘Stop a little, Emily. You’re still quite a
young woman, but life is uncertain. Perhaps, you know, if anything were
to happen to you:--as long as you are there, that is all right, of
course--but she would be very forlorn, poor little thing, if she were
left----’

‘There would be you and Jane, James. You would both be very kind to
her.’ But Lady William was a little startled by what he said. It is
startling to all, however little objection we may have to that
catastrophe, even however desirable it may be, to be spoken to abruptly
of our own death.

‘Both my wife and I are older than you are, and we could introduce her
to nobody in--well, in her father’s rank of life. If she married it
would probably be a curate--the Marquis of Portcullis’s niece!’

‘Oh, if it were no worse than a curate!’ said Lady William, with a
laugh. The laugh was a little strained, and under her eyes there was a
hot, red colour which did not consort with laughter. She grew suddenly
very grave, and added hurriedly, ‘That was not exactly all. James, in
case of the--risk of which you were speaking, do you think as Mrs.
Swinford does----’

‘What, Emily?’ He was frightened when he saw the excitement that seemed
to come over her.

‘Well! That the family would have a right to--examine into--and have all
the papers about--my marriage, and her birth, and all that.’

It was of Lady William’s marriage alone that Mrs. Swinford had spoken,
but it made it a little easier to state it so.

‘Oh!’ said the Rector, startled. ‘Well,’ he added, ‘I suppose it’s a
very good thing to have your papers all in order, and saves trouble
afterwards. It is so seldom that people take the trouble to do it. I am
sure I don’t know anything about my own marriage certificate, though I
furnish them to other people. Have you got them all?’

Lady William’s face blanched out of its momentarily high colour. ‘I have
got none of them,’ she said, in a faint voice.

‘Well, there is no particular harm in that. I don’t know who has--not
me, I am sure. What does your friend want you to do--send these things
to the Marquis? What does the Marquis want with Mab’s baptismal
certificate? My dear Emily, I suppose that woman, being partly French,
thinks that you should always have your _papiers_ in order? There could
not be greater nonsense.’

‘Do you really think so? I did myself. Why should there ever be any
question? Nobody asks you, as you say, for your marriage certificate,
James.’

‘No,’ said the Rector; but he added, looking at the question from a
purely professional point of view, ‘of course, you can get that sort of
thing, when it’s wanted, at a moment’s, at least, at a day’s notice.
Where were you married, Emily?’

She was evidently not prepared for this question, and came to herself
with a little start. The colour forsook her cheeks. She clasped her
hands together nervously. ‘Oh James, that is what gives it its sting. I
don’t know.’

‘You don’t know?’

‘Is that dreadful? Is it dangerous? Might it throw a doubt? My father
went with me, that is the only thing--to London somewhere.’

‘I knew you were not married at home,’ said Mr. Plowden, rising up and
placing himself in front of the fireplace. ‘I knew there was something
queer about it. In the name of wonder, Emily, why, if my father went
with you, didn’t he have you married at home? He can’t, in that case,
have disapproved.’

‘I don’t think he disapproved.’

‘Then why, _why_ weren’t you married at home? My father went with you,
and you don’t know? What a very queer business! And who went with you
beside my father?’

‘Old Meredith, do you remember, who used to be my nurse--and a lady. But
Meredith is dead, and papa is dead--and the other----’

‘This grows rather funny,’ said the Rector. ‘I mean it isn’t funny at
all. So there is nobody living who was there, and you don’t know where
it was? Does your friend, Mrs. Swinford, know these circumstances,
Emily, and does she want to frighten you? It would be like her amiable
temper.’

‘James, tell me, is there any real reason to fear?’

‘Oh, dear, no. Of course not; the only thing is to find the place. Of
course, it must be on the register. What a queer thing not to know the
church you were married in! I thought a woman always remembered that,
whatever she forgot.’

‘I was a frightened girl,’ said Lady William. ‘I didn’t know what they
were going to do with me. I was sent down from the Hall at midnight, as
I thought in disgrace--though I could not tell for what. There was a
great tumult in the house. Mr. Swinford, who was so quiet, in the midst
of it all; and then my husband came down here with me, and my father was
called up to speak to him and then it was all like a flash of lightning.
I was taken up to London two days after, and there I was married. It was
a little old church, in a district which I didn’t know.’

‘How is it I never heard anything of this before?’

‘How can I tell?’ she said. ‘I was taken away, frightened, not knowing
what had happened. Oh, I suppose that I was not unwilling: I did not
understand it: but my father was there--and he liked it, James. He said
it was a great match for me, and, though it was so hurried, I was not to
mind. After, I understood better--but at the time not at all.’

‘It must have been by special license,’ said the Rector; ‘but why in the
name of wonder didn’t my father have it here?--Why---- But I suppose
it’s no use saying why and why. There must have been reasons----’ He
looked at his sister fixedly, yet avoiding her eye.

But Lady William neither met nor avoided his look. She sat before him,
pale, with an air of deep and melancholy recollection. ‘Oh, there were
reasons,’ she said, shaking her head sadly. ‘It was years before I found
them out. I would rather not enter into them even now--reasons which for
a time made life odious to me. It had not been very happy before. Don’t
let us speak of that.’

‘They were reasons--which Mrs. Swinford knew!’

‘Don’t speak of her to me,’ said Lady William. ‘I was a fool to go near
her, to see her again. Knew! ah, indeed she knew--indeed she knew! She
was my patroness, my kind friend. My father thought it such a fine thing
for me to be at the Hall. Oh, James, why should a girl be allowed to
live when she has no mother? She ought to be put away in her mother’s
coffin, and not enter helpless into the world.’

‘In my opinion fathers are some good,’ said the Rector, with severity.

And then a few hot tears fell from his sister’s eyes. ‘Poor papa!’ she
said. Mr. Plowden added nothing to this phrase. They remained silent,
both thinking of the parent who had not indeed been very wise, but
always kind. After a while Lady William resumed: ‘He approved: if he had
not approved--I should never---- But what could I do against my father?
And Miss Mansfield told me I should be ungrateful to the friend who had
made such a match for me.’

‘Who was Miss Mansfield, Emily?’

‘The lady I told you of--a cousin of Mrs. Swinford’s, who was with me
that day.’

‘And is she dead, too?’

‘I think not. No; Leo Swinford said something of her the other day--that
she had been here.’

‘Then she must be found, Emily.’

Lady William gave him a startled look. ‘Do you think, then, James, after
all, it is necessary to go into all that again--to rake up everything?
Oh! when I think of it--the hurry, the strangers, the unknown place,
which looked as if there was shame in it----’

‘My dear Emily, it is only the hurry and the unknown place that make it
important. As soon as you know where to write to find the marriage in
the register it does not matter, you can let it rest. But now that I
know--even if Mrs. Swinford had never said a word--I shall not rest till
I find it out.’

‘Then I wish,’ she said, with returning spirit, ‘that I had said nothing
to you on the subject, James.’

‘Don’t say that. To whom should you go but to your brother? And be sure
I’ll find it out, Emily. I don’t like to say a word that will hurt you.
I am afraid you have been the victim of some plot or other, my poor
girl.’

She did not answer for a moment, then she said: ‘I cannot have been
without blame myself. I was pleased with the promotion, I suppose, and
with the romance, and all that. Romance! it seemed so strange to be
carried away, to be married almost in spite of myself; and I suppose the
name---- It is all very vague and dreadful, though at the time I was
dazzled, and it sounded like something in a story. I wonder, rather,
that you do not despise your sister, James.’

‘Poor Emily!’ he said, patting her shoulder with his hand.




XXIV


Mrs. Plowden awaited with some anxiety the appearance of her
sister-in-law in the drawing-room, which was an ordeal which Lady
William would have liked much to escape. But as this was not possible,
she submitted to it with as good a grace as might be. The Rector kindly
led the way, saying on the threshold: ‘Here is Emily, Jane,’ as if that
had been at all necessary; as if they had not all been on the outlook
for her appearance for the last half-hour. Mrs. Plowden took her by the
hand, and led her to a comfortable sofa in the corner, which was where
she took her friends when they had something to say to her, or she
something to say to them. ‘My dear Emily,’ she said, ‘I hear you have
been sadly worried about something, and, of course, you know I have been
trying to guess. You have heard from Reginald again?’

‘From Reginald?’ said Lady William. ‘Poor fellow! Ah, no. I wish I had.
And who said I had been sadly worried? I had only some business I wanted
to talk over with James.’

‘Not Reginald--really?’ said Mrs. Plowden. She was much relieved; but
there sprang up in her a fresh curiosity, very lively and warm, to
think, if it was not Reginald, what it could be? Of course she said to
herself she would hear all about it from James; but she did not like to
wait till the uncertain moment, never to be calculated on during the
day, when she should find her husband alone.

And then it occurred to Lady William that to tell a half truth frankly
as if it were the whole is sometimes a wise thing to do.

‘To tell the truth,’ she said, ‘I was asking James’s serious advice on
that matter which you have so often spoken to me about, Jane--whether I
should attempt to improve my acquaintance with the Pakenhams, and get
Mab, now that she is almost old enough, introduced to the world in their
way.’

‘Oh!’ cried Mrs. Plowden, making a very large mouthful of that word;
astonishment, and satisfaction, and pride, and yet a little drawback of
another feeling was in her tone. ‘So you are thinking at last, Emily,
that there may be something in what I said.’

‘I always knew,’ said Lady William, ‘that there was a great deal of
sense in what you said. But, I was very unwilling to do it, it must be
allowed. And now Mrs. Swinford says the same thing; and though I am very
doubtful whether it would be to Mab’s advantage, still--I am thinking it
over once more.’

‘And what advice did you get from James? James is too like yourself in
many ways, Emily, to be your best adviser.’

‘Do you think he is like myself?’ The Rector had gone back to his study
after, as it were, introducing his sister into the feminine part of the
house. ‘Well, perhaps,’ said Lady William, with a smile, ‘there may be a
family resemblance. There is so far as this--that he is by no means
certain, I think, of the advantage to Mab.’

‘Oh, what nonsense,’ said the Rector’s wife, ‘and what does he know
about such things? Advantage! of course it would be an advantage. Dear
me, to go to Court with the Ladies Pakenham, to be taken out into
society by the Marchioness, to see the best of company at her uncle’s
house! My dear Emily, you might just as well say, to confuse small
things with great, that it would not be an advantage in the parish of
Watcham to belong to the Rectory--and that is what nobody would say.’

The comparison was one which made Lady William smile, though she was not
much inclined to smiling. ‘There are differences,’ she said, ‘however;
for you could not but be kind to a girl thrown on your care. Whereas, I
doubt very much if the Marchioness would be at all kind to a poor
relation; and I don’t care to have my Mab thought of as a poor relation
in any case.’

‘You are so proud,’ said the Rector’s wife; and then she said, with a
laugh, ‘Fancy little Mab to be the one of us all that will see the great
world, and make her curtsey to the Queen!’

If the Rector himself had thought of this, it would have been wonderful
indeed that his wife should not think of it. She laughed continuously
for a minute with an odd little trill in her laugh, looking at her own
girls, who she could not help thinking were more worthy than Mab of such
a distinction. It was a thing she had urged upon Mab’s mother since her
child was ten. But now that it seemed an actual possibility, nay more
than that--for Mrs. Plowden’s mind leaped forward to the ceremony, and
already wondered what Mab would wear, and if feathers would really be
wanted upon her little head--the ridicule of the thought that Mab,
little Mab, would be the one to go to Court, an honour which was quite
beyond the hopes of Emmy and Florry, gave their mother a shock of
half-irritated feeling. That their cousin should have this glory would
not hurt them--but still--if honours went by merit in this world how
different things would be!

‘I wonder,’ said Lady William, as they walked home, ‘what your opinion,
Mab, may be in the matter which everybody has been discussing. It was
your little fortunes that Mrs. Swinford wanted to talk to me about
yesterday, and that I have been advising about with Uncle James to-day.’

‘My little fortunes?’ said Mab. ‘I never knew I had any.’

‘Your future, perhaps, it would be better to say.’

‘My future! is that to be detached and put separate from other people’s
like an odd piece in a puzzle? I don’t know still what you mean,
mother!’

‘And yet it is plain enough,’ said Lady William, with a sigh. ‘The other
girls here are all in their natural sphere. But you, Mab, are a bird of
another species in a sparrow’s nest.’

‘I hope you don’t compare me to a cuckoo, mother.’

‘Something very different, my dear; the others are plain brown homely
birds. Emmy and Florry will twitter under the eaves in some parsonage or
other, probably all their lives; but you are a Pakenham.’

‘What’s a Pakenham?’ said Mab; ‘you speak as if it were a Plantagenet.’

‘Well, not so grand, perhaps--but still it is different. And I have
brought you up only like what I was myself: a little country girl.’

‘Only like what you were yourself! You know very well, mother, and it’s
unkind to remind me of it, that if I were to live a hundred years I
should never get to be like you. It’s Emmy that’s like you. I’m not
envious; but to think that your daughter should be a little--just
a--Pakenham, as you say; and Emmy like you!’

‘She is not very like me--if I’m any judge myself,’ Lady William said.

‘She is not half nor a quarter so pretty as you are, mammy dear.’

‘You little flatterer! Emmy is a much better girl than I ever was, Mab,
and perhaps that’s pretty much the same thing. She is a much better girl
to tell the truth than my own little girl is.’

‘I know; my own opinion is that Emmy is too good. She is never out of
temper, always puts up with everything, is bored by nobody. That, I
understand, is one reason why--as you say, mother. For I think, to tell
the truth, that to look really nice, and be like a human woman, you must
not be quite so good.’

‘That is a dangerous doctrine, Mab. And it is not the question; which
is, what do you think? The Pakenhams are more or less fashionable, and
of course they have a fine position. With them you would see a little of
the world. You would meet people very different from any you ever see
here in the village. I am told that I ought to make advances to them; to
tell them of my child who is growing up, and ought to be introduced
properly into the world.’

‘Oh, is that what it means?’ said Mab. ‘Tell me more about them, that I
may be able to judge. I don’t know anything at all about them, and how
can I say?’

Lady William’s heart sank a little at this calm and judicial tone on the
part of her child. She, too, jumped, as Mrs. Plowden had done, to the
spectacle of Mab’s presentation under the wing of the Marchioness, and
at all that might follow.

‘I have never seen Lady Pakenham or the girls. Your uncle I have seen,
and he was--not unkind. No, I am sure he was not in the least unkind; he
did what he could for me. He took a little notice of you as a baby, and
so did the other brother--your uncle John. They were not clever, nor
distinguished in any way; but they were by no means without feeling.’

‘That was when my father died.’

Lady William, who had rarely to Mab said anything about her father,
nodded her head. Her eyes had a dreamy look, fixed far away. Mab never
was sure whether it was for grief that her mother was so reticent, or
from some other cause.

‘And do you mean to say, mother,’ said Mab, ‘that my aunt--if she is my
aunt--never came near you when you were in such trouble?’

‘She is just exactly as much your aunt as your uncle James’s wife
is--neither less nor more. No, she never came near me. But I was not
surprised. It happened in Paris, and then I came away as soon as I could
to this little place. I neither expected her to come to Paris, which
would have been absurd: nor to come after me here, where she knew I
would be among my own people.’

‘Why,’ said Mab, ‘you would have gone! You would not have minded if it
had been in Paris, or at the end of the world.’

‘I do a great many foolish things,’ said Lady William, with a smile,
‘that wise people don’t do; besides they hadn’t approved much, as was
natural. Substantially kind is what you may call them, practically kind
your uncles were that, and have been----’

‘And yet I am seventeen and I have never seen them.’

‘If you had been a boy,’ said Lady William, ‘they would have felt their
duty more; a girl is supposed to be best with her mother. You must not
be surprised at that, my dear child. Your uncle Pakenham has always
supplied all your wants.’

‘You never showed me any of his letters----’

‘His letters! oh, he is not a man who writes letters. His lawyer does
all that; but substantially, he has been very kind.’

‘Mother,’ said Mab, ‘instead of wishing to know these people, to visit
them, and all that, I’ll tell you what I should like to do. I should
like to be able to work for you, and throw their money in their
face--which is what you mean, I suppose, when you say they are
substantially kind.’

‘That would be very foolish, Mab; the money is your right, and for that
matter mine too.’

‘It may be right, but I should like to fling it in their faces all the
same. Had my father nothing to leave us, to give us to live on, that you
should have to accept it from them?’

Lady William made no answer for some time. Then she said in a low tone:
‘Your father had many things to do. I cannot enter into such questions,
Mab; you are not old enough. No; we were destitute but for them.’

‘You had money of your own, mother?’

‘Fortunately,’ said Lady William, ‘that did not come to me till after.’
And then she stopped short and bit her lip with annoyance. ‘I didn’t do
much with it when it did come,’ she said. ‘I gave it to your poor uncle
Reginald. He was to make his fortune, poor fellow, and ours.’

‘Perhaps he may yet, mother.’

‘Thank you for the suggestion, Mab; perhaps he may. Alas! I am afraid it
is not very likely----’

‘If he were to do so, mother, you would take this dirty money and fling
it back in their faces?’

‘I don’t know that I should, Mab. I doubt if it would be kind or
just--and still more, whether it would be wise.’

‘Oh, you may be sure they wouldn’t mind, people like that! They would
only be glad to have it back, whether you flung it at them or not,
provided they had it.’

‘My dear, you are very hot-headed. In that respect you are, I fear, of
my side of the house.’

‘And Emmy, who is like you, isn’t. She would eat any amount of dirt; she
thinks it her duty not to resent anything. That’s not my way of
thinking,’ cried Mab. ‘I resent it, and I should like to fling it in
their face.’

The two ladies went on after this in silence for a little while, Mab
pondering many things in her heart. Some she knew about, and some she
did not know. Of her father she had very little idea, scarcely any at
all. She had never seen any one belonging to him. He was dead; that was
all she knew; and she had never missed him, or any one, having her
mother. Vague ideas that he had not been good to her mother had floated
through her mind, and yet she never was sure that it was not out of
great love that Lady William spoke of him so little. She had known in
the parish people who grieved like that, who could not mention the names
of those who were gone. It might be for that reason. She walked on
pondering, saying nothing till they had nearly reached the cottage door.
Then she suddenly turned on her mother, having forgotten till this
moment what was the question that had been given her to answer.

‘And you want me,’ she said, ‘to say that I would like to go to those
people--to leave you?’

‘Not to leave me, Mab, except for a little time.’

‘Then I won’t, mother, short time or long time! What! to a woman that
knew you were in trouble, and never went to you--whom you don’t even
know! If I am allowed to have any say in it, I would not for anything in
the world. And what is it for? To go to parties with them, to be taken
out, to enjoy myself? Mother, mother, do you think I am like that--to
enjoy myself with people who don’t know you, who leave you, who are
insolent to you?’

‘No; they are not insolent--they ignore me; but, then, I have always
wished to be ignored. To tell the truth, Mab, I doubt very much whether
you would enjoy yourself. It is possible that you might, but I fear it
is more likely that you would not. That is why I am against it.’

‘Then you are against it, mother?’

‘For that reason--that I could not bear my Mab to be treated like a
nobody, to be taken out, perhaps, because they could not help it, or
left alone and snubbed----’

‘Snubbed! They should not snub me twice, mother!’

‘No, you little hothead! But everybody here thinks it would be so much
to your advantage to go to Court--that is something--to be introduced as
you ought to be.’

‘Introduced to whom?--to the Queen? Yes, that would be nice. But then I
don’t suppose the Queen would take the least notice of me, would she? I
would just be another little girl among so many. No, mother, people
here--Aunt Jane, or whoever it is--may say what they like. I will have
nothing to say to those people who took no notice of you.’

‘Your uncle James is of the same opinion--and Mrs. Swinford.’

‘Odious old woman!’ said Mab.

‘My dear child, how do you know that she is an odious old woman? She was
a very fascinating woman once. When I was like you I would have laid
down my life for her.’ Lady William breathed forth a long, soft sigh
involuntarily, unable to restrain herself. ‘I think I did,’ she said
under her breath.

Mab did not hear these words, but she said somewhat loudly, ‘Odious old
woman!’ again.

‘Who is that you are describing so succinctly?’ cried a voice behind
them. ‘Miss Mab has an energy and conciseness of expression which I
admire.’

‘She has a pitch of voice occasionally which is not at all admirable,’
said Lady William, turning round. Mab, as may be supposed, turned a
bright scarlet up to her hat, her very hair warming in the quick
suffusion of colour. But her mother was skilled in such emergencies and
betrayed nothing.

‘It is always admirable to know what you think, and to express it
clearly,’ said Swinford. ‘I was on my way,’ he added, putting his hands
together with a supplicating movement, ‘to inquire whether I might
consider myself forgiven. You know you turned me out the other day. May
I come back with you now? You take so much from me when you shut your
door. Miss Mab will intercede for me. She was as much shocked as I was
when you sent me away.’

‘There was no sending away,’ said Lady William. ‘We have been having an
argument--my daughter and I. You shall be the impartial umpire and set
us right.’

‘With all the pleasure in the world,’ he said.




XXV


‘It is a very good thing to have somebody impartial to refer to,’ said
Lady William; ‘all our advisers take a side strongly. Now, Leo, you are
of no faction; you can give us fair advice.’

‘I am of your faction always,’ he said.

‘Ah, but I am of no faction. I am the seeker of advice. We want to be
well advised, Mab and I. By the way, she does take a side strongly, but
I will not tell you which it is.’

‘Expound the case, Miss Mab; I must know before I can say.’

‘So you shall know; but Mab must not tell you, for she has a bias. The
case is this: Mab you see is grown up----’

He gave a glance at her in her (still) short frock, with her (still)
large waist, and round, artless, almost childish look.

‘I see,’ he said, with a smile.

‘And must presently be introduced into society. The question is, must it
be the society of Watcham, and is the dance at the FitzStephens’ to be
her _début_? or is she to enter the world in a different way, and be
taken to town for a season with all that follows? What is your opinion?’

‘Can there be two opinions?’ he said, opening his eyes wide. ‘This is
not treating me well. I hoped it was to be a difficult and delicate
question, but it is no question at all.’

‘You see,’ said Lady William to her daughter.

‘If you put it to him in that way, mother: but that is not the way.
Imagine, Mr. Leo, what they all want!--that mother, who is, I know,
better than the whole of them, every one, whoever they may be--should go
and--and--petition my uncle and his wife, who have never taken any
notice of us--to take me by the hand and introduce me, as people say,
into society: to introduce me--me, Mab, do you understand, to the Queen
and all the rest; to get me asked to parties with them--me, Mab, do you
understand?’ said the girl, beating upon her breast, ‘only me; and that
is what everybody wants, and mother hesitates and wonders whether she
ought to do it: and I,’ cried the girl, her dull eyes growing bright, ‘I
will obey mother. I have never gone against her yet except in the way of
reason, and if she were to tell me to jump into the river I would do it
(hoping to scramble out somewhere lower down); and I’ll do this of
course if I must, and perhaps escape alive--but never, never of my own
free will. Now say what you think, Mr. Leo. Isn’t it I that am in the
right?’

‘The question has a very different aspect, certainly,’ said Leo, ‘from
Miss Mab’s side.’

‘Hasn’t it?’ said the girl triumphantly. ‘Now I should be proud, mother,
if he who is of your faction should pronounce for me.’

‘But there is a great deal more to be said on both sides,’ said Leo; ‘we
have not come to a decision yet. And just tell me why you should not go
to town yourself as everybody does, and introduce your daughter in your
own person, and show yourself in the world? That would seem so much the
most natural way.’

‘Ah!’ cried Mab, with something like a shout of triumph. ‘That is
something like advice! I did not think much, I tell you true, of
consulting Mr. Leo--but now I see he is a Daniel come to judgment. And
to think that none of us ever thought of that before!’

Lady William grew red and she grew pale. It had not occurred to her,
strangely enough, that any one would suggest this simple alternative.
The other advisers, indeed, knew her position too well to think of it.
She said with a laugh: ‘You speak very much at your ease, you young
people. Where am I to get the money for a campaign in town? I might
squeeze out a few dresses for Mab--that is all I could do. You forget
that I am not a wealthy person like you, Leo. And then I know nobody. We
might as well stay here for anything I could do for her. Yes, the
Lenthalls might invite us, or Lady Wade, who belongs to this
neighbourhood; but nobody else. And we should be ruined! No, no; that is
more impossible than anything else. It must, I fear, be Lady Portcullis,
or nobody. Her aunt is her only hope.’

‘If I am to be sent off to Lady Portcullis like a brown-paper parcel,’
said Mab, ‘I will do what I’m told, mother; but I won’t discuss it any
more. Mr. Leo, I would ask you to stand up for me, if I thought you
could ever stand up against mother.’

‘It’s hard, isn’t it?’ said Leo; ‘but I will try as much as I can.’ He
got up to open the door for her (for by this time they had reached the
cottage), which was a thing Mab hated, feeling the attention very right
for her mother, but a sort of mockery in the case of a little girl like
herself. She submitted with her head bent; and then bolted like a young
colt, which she still was. It must be allowed that the young man, who,
according to all laws, ought to have preferred her company, was relieved
when she was gone. He came quickly back to where Lady William sat, her
head bowed upon her hand in much thought, and drew a low chair, Mab’s
little baby-chair, to her feet.

‘I have a counter proposition to make,’ he said, lightly touching her
hand to draw her attention.

She smiled, and said, ‘What is that?’ with a friendly indifference which
made him frown. It was very clear that his proposition, whatever it
might be, awakened no excitement, scarcely even curiosity, in Lady
William’s breast. He made a very long pause indeed, but she took no
notice until there had been time for various tumults and revolutions of
thought in his mind. Then she looked up, with a little start, to see him
in an attitude which was strangely like supplication, though he was in
reality only seated in the low chair. ‘Well,’ she said, in her easy
tone, ‘what is it? You keep me a long time in suspense.’

‘It was--nothing,’ he said.

‘Ah,’ said Lady William, with a laugh, ‘you pay me back in my own coin.’

‘Rather,’ he said in a changed tone, ‘let us say that it was this. We
must, I suppose, go to London next month--though my mother does not seem
to care for it now as I thought she would. However, we shall go; and why
should not you come too? Come with us; take Miss Mab where you please,
and come back when you please. It would obviate all the difficulties you
were speaking of, and secure all the---- What! You will not listen to
such a simple suggestion as that?’

There had been a great many exclamations on Lady William’s lips as he
went on, but she had smothered them one by one till it was impossible to
keep silence longer. ‘With your mother?’ she said, almost under her
breath.

‘Well: I should like it, oh, a great deal better, if it were with me;
but you think of me as if I were a cabbage, and my mother was your
friend--was she not your friend?--and I am your servant--to mount behind
your carriage, if you like.’

‘Do not speak nonsense, Leo; you are my very kind friend, and the
greatest acquisition, and if you had been going to town with your wife
instead of your mother---- It is not indispensable, don’t you know, that
old friends should continue friends for ever. Your mother was very good
to me once--that is, I believe, for a time: but it would do no good to
go into those old questions. She would not suffer me with her, nor would
I---- No, no; forgive me. That does not mean necessarily any harm, does
it? that we do not now--see things--exactly in the same light----’

‘Then that is settled,’ he said gloomily, ‘so far as my mother is
concerned; as for me, though, you call me a friend and all that----’

‘My dear boy,’ said Lady William, ‘you don’t imagine for a moment, I
hope, that I would let you pay my expenses--for the benefit of Mab?’

He paused again, gazing at her, saying nothing; then threw up his hands
with an impatient sigh.

‘And yet friendship is supposed to be something more than words,’ he
said.

‘There is one thing that friendship is not,’ said Lady William; ‘at
least, in England, Leo. It is not money. When that comes in it is
supposed to spoil all.’

‘What an absurd, false, conventional, inhuman, ridiculous view!’

‘Perhaps. Oh! I don’t know that it need tell between two young men.
There is an allowance to be made in that way for _bons camarades_. But I
think it is a just rule on the whole. My poor little experience is that
it is best not to be very much obliged to one’s neighbours. No, no! I
don’t say so for you, Leo. I believe you might give everything you have
to a friend, and never remind him of it--never recollect it even
yourself, as long as you lived.’

‘Is that much to say?’

‘In the way of the world, it is something extraordinary to say; but this
is a totally different question from my little problem, which is urged
upon me by your mother, Leo, as well as by my innocent people--my
brother and sister here.’

‘You think my mother is not innocent--that she had some other motive?’

‘I did not say so; why should she have another motive? Whatever there
may have been between her and me, I, at least, have done her no harm.’

‘Then it must be she who has harmed you?’

‘No; what can any one do to you, outside of yourself? All our troubles
come from our own faults or mistakes. We say faults when we speak of
others, mistakes when it is ourselves. You told me once that Miss
Mansfield--Artémise--had appeared again?’

‘Ah! I should like to know what she had to do with it,’ he cried.

‘Nothing,’ said Lady William; ‘but it would be important to me to know
where to find her. Will you find out for me? There is something which
she only knows which I am anxious to make sure of.’

‘Something important to you?’

‘They tell me so. I was not aware of it, and yet--if you could bring me
to speech of her, Leo, for five minutes. She was never unkind to me.’

‘She is a bird of evil omen!’ cried Leo; ‘wherever she appears some harm
follows.’

‘Ah!’ said Lady William, ‘and you said she was here the other day!’

‘There is something which has happened between you and my
mother--something she has done to you which you will not tell me?’

‘What could she have done to me?’ Lady William made a movement as though
shaking off some annoyance. ‘No; all she has done is to persuade me to
this--about Lady Portcullis and the introduction of Mab into society.
What could be more innocent?’ she said, with a laugh.

‘There is one thing,’ he said, ‘that one ought to do before giving an
opinion. Has Lady Portcullis ever shown any interest? I have met her;
she is very commonplace--one of the rigid English. Oh! very English. You
do not know her? she has not sought your acquaintance? Would she?--has
she ever?--do you think it is likely----?’

Lady William laughed again, but uneasily, painfully. ‘You are a
sorcerer, Leo--this is the doubt I have never mentioned to any one--not
to Mab herself, not to my brother. Do I think it is likely----? Since
you ask me, I must answer no; my pride prevented me from saying it--not
even to your mother did I say it--but she--ah!’ Lady William broke off
again, still laughing--and the evening was beginning to fade, but Leo
thought he could see the hot flush on her cheek.

‘I am not my mother’s champion,’ he said; ‘she has her peculiarities.
She may have thought it would embroil you with the family.’

‘That,’ said Lady William, ‘was the least of what she thought!’

‘Dear lady,’ he said, ‘here is some mystery. You know that I am of your
faction whatever happens. But you must tell me before I can do any
good.’

Lady William did not make any immediate reply. She said at last:
‘Artémise: if you can bring me to speech of Artémise, I shall want
nothing more.’ Then with a change of tone--‘Here is Mab coming back; no
more of it--no more of it! there has been too much already. Mab, Leo is
waiting till you give him some tea.’

‘Give it me strong and sweet,’ said Leo, who had jumped up from his low
chair with perhaps a touch of embarrassment--but Lady William felt
none--‘sweet and strong; for my head is a little confused, and I want it
clear.’

‘Is it all about me and my father’s people? That is very good of you,
Mr. Leo,’ said Mab, ‘to take so much interest--and have you converted
mother to my way of thinking?--which is the thing I want most.’

‘I have been doing my best,’ he said, standing up beside her against the
waning light in the window. And then it was for the first time that it
occurred to Lady William---- Well, she was no more a matchmaking mother
than you or I; but to see two young people together--one of them your
own child, and the other a very good match--very well off, and kind, and
true, and good, _par-dessus le marché_--this is a thing which will make
the most unworldly woman think. To be sure, Leo was twice or nearly
twice the age of Mab--but at their respective ages that was of no
consequence. It was true also that Leo gave unmistakable signs at this
present moment of much preferring Emily, the mother, to any
seventeen-year-old; but that Lady William in her wisdom thought less
important still. That would blow over quickly enough; it was scarcely
even worth a thought; but they were smiling at each other in a very
happy, pleasant way, she appealing, he answering the appeal. It was
nothing, but yet it was a suggestion--and how many pleasant things it
would involve! It was far too distant, too misty and vague to suggest to
the mother how she should feel in her cottage if her Mab was spirited
away. But it was a suggestion--and gave a new and agreeable direction to
her thoughts.

Leo remained until the lamp was brought in by little Patty, whose eyes
shone at the sight of him, partly because it pleased her to see ‘a
gentleman’ again in the house (for Patty was a matchmaker, if you
please, and never looked upon a ‘gentleman’ without an immediate
calculation whether or not he would ‘do’ for Miss Mab), and partly
because she felt that she must now be wholly forgiven for any wrong
thing she had done in respect to him, seeing he was allowed to come
back. Patty had never been sure what it was that she had done which was
wrong; but none the less was it evident to her that she herself must
have shared the pardon of the worst offender. And in the meantime there
had been a pleasant little hour over the tea-table; as if to encourage
her mother’s imagination, Mab had for once been seized with an impulse
to talk, which was a thing that happened to her now and then. And it was
beyond doubt that Leo was amused by her chatter, and responded gaily.
They discussed Lord and Lady Portcullis with great mutual satisfaction,
and the Ladies Pakenham, whom Leo had met in Paris; and he gave Mab a
great deal of information as to her family, which the girl received with
a mixture of amusement and offence, proving to her mother that there had
been more things even in little Mab’s thoughts than were dreamt of in
her philosophy. And then the young man went away, and they were left
alone to resume the controversy or not, as fate might decide. Lady
William, who had been brought into very close observation of her
daughter, left the subject in Mab’s hands--but Mab did not enter into it
again. She changed the subject to the FitzStephens’ dance, which was now
so near, and led her mother to a discussion of the dresses they were to
wear, which had the air of absorbing all Mab’s thoughts. ‘Do you think I
will look very fat in white, mother? and my arms so red and healthy,’
she said. And this sort of conversation was carried on until Mab fairly
put her mother, with all her anxieties and questions, to bed. The little
girl was not without questions in her own mind, questions about her
father, about the life she could not remember, or scarcely could
remember, in Paris; about the family and relations she had never seen.
By dint of much reflection it appeared to her that she could recollect a
stiff gentleman with a fat face, who must have been Lord Portcullis
himself. Why was it she knew nothing of her uncle? Why did he take no
notice? Was there any reason for it? or was it her mother’s fault? If
so, Mab was as strongly determined that she was of her mother’s faction
as ever Leo Swinford could be; but more still than Leo Swinford she
wanted to know from the beginning, and find out how and why it all was.




XXVI


The night of the FitzStephens’ dance was a great one in Watcham. It was
not precisely a dance, to tell the truth, as, to temper the pretensions
belonging to the name of a ball, there was to be a little musical
performance to begin with--a duet from Emily and Florry Plowden, a few
pieces for violin and piano, and so on--which was sufficient to give
something of the air of an impromptu and accidental performance to the
dance, which, of course, was the real meaning of the whole. Some of the
people were so unkind as not to arrive till the music was over, which
was thought exceedingly bad taste by the performers and their families,
and gave the General and his wife a moment of dread lest the party they
had got up so carefully might not be a success after all. But by ten
o’clock the music was over, the piano rolled into its appointed corner,
and the music stands, which had been prepared for the violinists, put
away. The musicians who were engaged for the dance did not want any
music stands, and the assembled party required every scrap of room that
was available. The excellent FitzStephens had done wonders to enlarge
the space. They had taken away everything--almost the fixtures of the
house: doors were unhung, carpets lifted: I cannot really calculate the
trouble that had been taken. Even after the party assembled, the removal
of the chairs on which they had been seated to hear the music was a
matter of labour, for they were not all light chairs like those which
people in Watcham borrow by the dozen from Simpkinson of the ‘Blue
Boar,’ but included a number of comfortable easy-chairs for the ladies
who did not dance, of whom there were a considerable number. The
FitzStephens did not see the necessity of leaving the elder people out.
They were old themselves, and though they delighted in seeing the young
ones enjoy themselves, as they said, yet they liked also to have their
own playfellows, with whom to have a comfortable talk, while they looked
on. What Mrs. FitzStephen would have liked best would have been to keep
the elder ladies apart in the room which was called the General’s study,
which had a door (removed) into the dancing room, by the opening of
which (had it not been crowded by the elder gentlemen) the matrons could
have seen enough of their children’s performances, as well as have been
out of the way. This, however, was the one point which was not
successful in the arrangements, for the mothers preferred to cling to
the walls in the dancing room itself, at the risk of being swept away by
flying skirts, or trodden upon by nimble feet; and the fathers occupied
the doorway in a solemn block, so that nobody could see anything through
them. Even Lady William, who generally was so great a help in getting
people to stay where they were wanted, herself got into a corner in the
dancing room, taking up, it must be admitted, very little room, as she
stood up against the wall to watch how Mab got on among the dancers; and
Miss Grey, in a costume in which she had gone to all the parties in the
neighbourhood for the last twenty years, flitted about like an aged
butterfly, getting the puffs of superannuated tulle about her into
everybody’s way, in order to see not only how Mab got on, but how
everybody got on in whom she was interested, and that meant every girl
in the room. Thus Mrs. FitzStephen had one little point of vexation amid
the perfect success of everything else. But it was so natural. The
General declared that he himself liked to see the dancing, and was not
at all satisfied to be sent away into another room.

The reader, perhaps, would like to know at once how Mab, who was the
_débutante_ of the evening, got on. Her white frock was very simple,
being, as has been said, the manufacture of her mother and herself; but
Lady William was universally allowed to have great taste, and it is
saying a great deal to say that she herself was satisfied with the
effort. As a matter of fact, the finest dressmaker in the world could
not have disguised the fact that Mab’s figure was too solid, and her
well-formed, round arms a little too rosy with health, for perfect
grace. But that solid form and rosy tint agreed very well with the
childish roundness of the face, under the dimpled and infantile softness
of which Mab hid so much good sense and independent judgment of her own.
She looked as she was, like a little girl just escaped from the trammels
of childhood, enjoying the dance with all her might, without thinking
for a moment whether anybody admired her, or what people thought of her
dancing or demeanour, and without the slightest thrill of consciousness
in mind or person. Mab was so popular that she was a little bored at
first by her own success, for many of the most dignified persons
present, men quite old enough to be her father, considered it a right
thing to show their interest in her by ‘coming forward’ and performing a
solemn dance with her--General FitzStephen himself (who might have been
her grandfather) taking her out for a quadrille as he might have taken
Mrs. Swinford had she been there. There passed through Mab’s mind a
devout thanksgiving that Uncle James was a clergyman, or perhaps he
might have asked her too. The Archdeacon, indeed, who was also prevented
by his cloth from any such escapades, insisted on taking her to have an
ice, which she did not want, and which almost lost her one waltz. It
will be seen from this that the dance was all that a first dance ought
to be to Mab. Her card was filled before she had been two minutes in the
room, the gentlemen crowding round her, so that before the end of the
evening she, who accepted everybody at first with smiles and pleasure,
became critical, and actually threw over young Mr. Wade, one of the
county people, whom most girls delighted to dance with, in order to
career over the floor with Jim for the third time in succession, to the
astonishment of everybody. Jim, with whom she was on terms of easy
family intimacy, finding fault with him all the time, was, on the whole,
the dancer she preferred--though there was much to be said for Leo, who
was making himself extremely agreeable, and whose ‘style’ most of the
ladies admired greatly as something quite out of the common, and not in
the least like the careless romping of Bobby Wade, who had been supposed
to be the representative of the fashionable world, and to bring the last
graces of the _beau monde_ to astonish the villagers. That Mr. Swinford,
on the contrary, should be so quiet, so far from any ideas of romping,
filled the ladies with surprise, who had been watching Bobby as the
glass of fashion and the mould of form. But Mab thought, and did not
hesitate to say so, that Leo was a little stiff. She said whatever came
into her head, that daring little girl--she was not afraid of offending
anybody, especially not Mr. Leo, as she called him, to the admiration
and wonder of all the other girls.

Mab, in short, enjoyed herself so much, and was so frankly delighted
with the progress of events, that the questions that were poured upon
her by all the old ladies became superfluous.

‘Well, Mab, are you getting partners?’ Mrs. Plowden said, whose
attention had been riveted upon her own children, and who, in sincerity,
had scarcely noticed Mab until she danced with Jim.

‘Partners! she has never once sat down the whole evening,’ cried Miss
Grey.

Mrs. Plowden was aware that Emmy had not danced the two last dances, and
she felt the humiliation; but she smiled. ‘Everybody is anxious that a
girl should enjoy her first ball,’ she said. ‘Jim wanted you so much to
enjoy yourself to-night.’

‘Well, she paid him back for it,’ said Miss Grey; ‘she threw over Bobby
Wade for him.’

‘Bobby Wade!’ cried Mrs. Plowden.

Bobby Wade had not asked either of the Rectory girls. This little
heartburning ran on along all the line of mothers who sat or stood by
the wall. Mr. Wade and Mr. Swinford were the two men whose approach made
every heart beat. Those who had not been asked by them--or, rather,
whose daughters had not been asked by them--felt the vanity of the whole
affair, and that the apples which were so bright outside were but ashes
within. Leo, for his part, worked very hard that nobody might be left
out; but young Wade did not care in the least, dancing up with his arm
extended to the young lady he fancied, when he pleased, and carrying her
off sometimes under the very nose of her partner.

‘He had better not try that on with me,’ said Jim.

‘What would you do? You couldn’t knock him down in Mrs. FitzStephen’s
room?’

‘No, I don’t suppose I could do that,’ said Jim, ‘for their sakes; but I
should certainly give him to understand----’

‘How could you give him to understand?’ said Mab, pursuing her cousin
with pitiless practicality. But, as it happened, the proof of what Jim
could do occurred at once, for Mr. Wade made a long step up to her--her
very self--and held out that insolent arm.

‘Our da-ance, I think,’ he said.

‘Indeed, it is nothing of the kind!’ said Mab; ‘I am not engaged to you
at all----’

Wade opened his eyes very wide, and looked as if he could not believe
his ears. ‘I assure you this is ours--booked first thing in the evening.
Come!’ he said.

‘We are losing half the waltz,’ said Mab to her partner, and they dashed
off, brushing against Mr. Wade’s extended arm. It was very rude, and
Lady William took her daughter very much to task for her want of
politeness.

‘But it wasn’t the least his dance--he had nothing to do with it,
mother.’

‘That may be,’ said Lady William, ‘but it is one thing to refuse a
partner and another nearly to knock him down.’

‘Oh, did we knock him down?’ said Mab, delighted, and softly clapping
her hands. She was disappointed to hear that he had not been knocked
down at all, but was standing in a corner of the room very sulky, and
vowing vengeance upon the little fat thing who had rejected his
condescending offer. When, however, the Rectory girls and some others
surrounded her open-mouthed, to hear what it all meant, Mab took higher
ground. ‘If I hadn’t snubbed him,’ she said, ‘Jim would have punched his
head, or something. He told me he would not stand it, so I thought it
better a girl should do it than a boy. He may sulk, but he cannot do
anything to me. And what do I care for his sulking? He cannot dance a
bit,’ said this high-handed young lady, who had not a dance, not even an
extra, to give to any one; others who were not so deeply engaged did
not, perhaps, feel themselves so free. They surrounded her, however,
with a certain wondering admiration, and those girls who were not
acquainted with Bobby Wade, and who had hitherto been a little ashamed
of the fact, now proclaimed it as a superiority.

‘He is such bad form,’ they all said.

It need scarcely be said that there were other things in Lady William’s
mind than even her child’s success, as she stood up in her corner
watching the dancers. It would be to do great injustice to Mrs.
FitzStephen, a woman of very good connections, and who had taken so much
trouble to make her party everything that a party in a village, out of
London, out of the great world, could be, to say that it was in any
sense of the word common or inferior. They were all very nice people,
some even, as has been seen, from the county, for Bobby Wade had brought
his sisters with him, who really gave themselves no airs at all among
the village folk, though they did what they could to appropriate Leo,
and gave him to understand that he was the only man in the least degree
of their own set. But Lady William, as she looked round the room, was
haunted by an altogether unreasonable regret and discomfort, which she
was indignant with herself for feeling, but which came into her mind in
spite of her. This was not the scene, she said to herself, in which Mab
should be making her first acquaintance with the world. Then, why not?
her self said to her, hotly. It would have been far better for Mab’s
mother if she had never known any other; if she had looked forward to an
innocent dance in the village as her greatest pleasure, and never
stepped out of that simple circle. Ah, but she had done so, the other
visionary party in the argument said. She had stepped out of that
circle, and her daughter was Lord William Pakenham’s daughter as well
as hers: and was it not a wrong to Mab that she should be here where
everybody looked up to the Wades, people who were of no particular
importance, whose origin could not be compared to hers? These things
Lady William was pondering with a grave face, when General FitzStephen
came up to her, dodging between the dancers, to take her to supper.

‘I know you never take supper,’ the General said, ‘but none of the
ladies can move till you do, and I should think you would at least be
glad to sit down a little.’

None of the ladies could move till she did. That was true enough; she
had the benefit, such as it was, of her rank. Lady Wade it was well
known would not come to the village festivities because she was unseated
from her usual priority by the superior claims of Lady William. She had
the advantage, such as it was; but the child----

‘Mab is having a thoroughly “good time,”’ said the General. ‘You need
not concern yourself with her any more. She is as happy as the night is
long, and I hope the young ones will make it long and keep it up. They
all seem to be enjoying themselves tremendously now.’

‘Yes; they all seem very happy. It is so kind of you----’

‘To give ourselves the pleasure of seeing them so?’ said the old
General. ‘I don’t call that kindness but selfishness on our parts. My
wife was always fond of young people--which made it more a regret to us
in former times that we had no children of our own.’

‘Yes, indeed; how strange it is--you who would have done them so much
justice--who would have been such perfect parents! and they seem to be
sown broadcast about the streets at everybody’s door.’

‘We must not say that, for, of course, Providence arranges for the
best,’ said the General, ‘and I don’t regret it now--I don’t regret it
now. The worst troubles that people have come through their
children--either they have not enough for them; or they spend everything
their parents have got; or they are ill-behaved; or they are unhappy.
And there is scarcely a moment of their lives that fathers and mothers
are not at their children’s mercy, to be struck to the ground by one
thing or another--perhaps misfortune perhaps death. Oh no, my dear lady,
I do not regret it. I am very glad to be ending my life with my dear
wife without anxiety--now.’

‘And yet I can’t contemplate life at all without my Mab,’ Lady William
said.

‘Ah, my dear lady, that is exactly what I say. You are entirely in her
power. You can’t call your soul your own. If she were to take a perverse
line, or if she were to fall ill----’

‘For Heaven’s sake, General, don’t be such an evil prophet,’ she said,
with a shiver, and then laughing, ‘I had meant to distinguish myself at
supper, and you have taken all my appetite away.’

‘I don’t believe in your appetite,’ said the fatherly old gentleman; ‘I
have never seen it yet. But seriously, even you must be pleased with
Mab’s little success; and I hear she snubbed Bobby Wade. Do him all the
good in the world to be well snubbed by a little girl. The little fool
thinks he has all the girls at his feet. But Mab will never be of that
mind.’

‘She is independent enough. I wonder what you will think of my puzzle,
General. They say that I ought not to keep her here in the village--that
she ought to come out under her aunt, Lady Portcullis’, auspices,
instead of living so quietly here with me.’

‘They talk nonsense, my dear lady,’ said the General; ‘a girl is always
best, and I think she always looks her nicest, by her mother’s side.’

‘Thank you for that kind opinion, General.’

‘But I can’t see any reason,’ said the old gentleman, ‘why her mother, a
lady whom we all admire and honour, should not herself abandon the quiet
corner a little (though we should miss her dreadfully), and bring out
her daughter, which would be better than any Lady Portcullis in the
world.’

‘Ah, but that is impossible,’ Lady William said quickly. She was moved a
little out of her place by the rush of the procession from the
drawing-room, all the elder ladies going in; but presently she went back
and addressed herself to doing her duty by Mrs. FitzStephen in guiding
these elder ladies as they returned into the smaller room. ‘We may as
well make ourselves comfortable here,’ she said, ‘since all the children
are happy and in full swing.’ It was always Lady William who settled
these things--and so quietly. The ladies were very glad of comfortable
seats after standing half the evening against the wall, and the General
managed to get up the quiet rubber he loved, while still one waltz
followed another, and the whirling figures went round and round.

‘Tell me,’ said Leo Swinford, coming in behind her a little out of
breath, ‘why Miss Wade tells me I am the only one of her set. I am not
of her set, or any set; is it intended to be civil, or what does she
mean?’

‘She means that the rest of us are of the village, and she and you are
of the county, which is a very different thing.’

‘It is a distinction I do not understand. Nobility and gentry!--yes, I
know what that means: but we are not noblesse at all, neither she nor I.
We are more or less rich--no two of us the same--but is that the only
distinction here?’

‘Oh no; there are a great many grades of distinction. The county means
the aristocracy----’

‘Permit me; you and Miss Mab are the only persons noble here--is that
not so? Ah, you will have to give me many lessons to bring me to a
proper understanding.

‘And yet I condemn Mab to be nobody,’ said Lady William. ‘Yes, that is
what I am doing. Her old friends are very good to her. She has her
little triumph to-night. But it will not always be her first ball. And
it is I who keep her in obscurity. I think I am learning my lesson more
quickly than you do yours.’




XXVII


There is nothing that happens more frequently in human experience than
that, after long doubting what to do, and hesitation over a new step,
the whole matter is suddenly taken out of our hands, and the question
solved for us in a moment, and in the most summary way. Lady William had
found many reasons for resisting the advice, whether given in love or
enmity, of her friends. Her husband’s family had not been hostile to
her, but it had been bitterly indifferent, taking no notice, making no
inquiry into her condition or that of her child, and she had but small
inducement to endeavour to draw closer that very loose and artificial
tie which united her to the great people. It seemed to herself a sort of
accidental tie, meaning so little to any body except to herself--and to
herself whose whole life it had shaped, it was no pleasure to recur to
the few years of marriage in which she had been taken so entirely out of
her sphere without attaining anything else that was of pleasure or
advantage to her. Sometimes she had been tempted to ask herself whether
that was more than a terrible dream, a sort of fever through which she
had passed, and at the end of which she had found herself back again in
her native place, among the quiet scenes of her childhood, but with a
different name, a changed personality, and Mab--the greatest sign of all
that things were not as they had been. The Rector and his wife, however,
did not take into consideration the great indifference of the family to
Lady William and her child. They knew but little about the details. Mrs.
Plowden for one could scarcely have got into her head that to be Lady
William, to have lived in France, as well as in the great world, and to
have grown familiar with many things that appeared very grand and
delightful to a country lady who had never moved out of her parish, was
perhaps to be rather humiliated than elevated both in one’s own opinion
and in that of the world. Such an idea could have found no place in her
intelligence. And she had not the slightest doubt that Lord and Lady
Portcullis, if it were properly represented to them, would do their duty
by their niece if not by their sister-in-law. She thought it was Emily’s
pride which alone stood in the way. And though her husband knew the
world better, yet he, too, was of opinion that it was chiefly Emily’s
pride. Mrs. Swinford’s thoughts on the subject were of a very different
complexion, even before she had thrown that horrible uncertainty into
Lady William’s mind, that feeling that even her position, so modest as
it was, might be assailed and turned into shame. If she had held back
hitherto it was not from pride nor from fear of inquiry, but from a
doubt whether it would be of the least advantage to her child to make
any overtures or petition. Petition, that was the right word--and a
petition which was more or less likely to be rejected, as she felt sure.

She was seated in her little drawing-room full of these doubts and
questions one morning very soon after the FitzStephens’ ball. It seemed
impossible now that things could go on as they were. The mere fact of
all that had been said on the subject shook the foundations of life. And
Mab’s age made a change in everything. So long as she was a child, the
obscurity of her position was of no consequence. All that was needed for
her was her mother’s care, and to be with her mother wherever she might
happen to be; but with every day the position changed. Lord William
Pakenham’s child was one thing, and Emily Plowden’s another. Was it her
duty to let Mab grow up in the humbler region, perhaps fix her own fate
in that, and settle for ever as a poor man’s wife in the village, while
another world might be open to her? Had she any right to bind her child
to her own limited fortunes, to keep her all her life a mere pensioner
on the bounty of those who ought to recognise and care for her in a very
different way? But if she made any attempt to alter the position, might
she not make it worse instead of better? Might she not subject herself
only, and Mab, who was of more consequence, to a repulse which would be
much worse than neglect, to perhaps a question even of the humble rights
which had been already recognised, the right of the widow and child to a
subsistence, however doled out? The thought of having to fight for those
rights, to open up the secrets of her life, and prove that she had a
right to her name, was an idea intolerable to Lady William. She said to
herself with a sick heart that she would rather die--she would rather
die! Oh, that would be an easy way out of it; but that she should die
and leave Mab behind her to fight it out, to prove her own lawful
birth, her mother’s honour, that was impossible. If she were to die she
must climb out of her grave, she felt, to prevent that, to take the
brunt upon herself, to save from such a horrible struggle the child, the
little girl who did not know what dishonour was--Mab, of all creatures
in the world, to have any stain upon her of any kind! Then Lady William
tried to brace herself up to think that she must no longer hesitate,
that for Mab’s happiness she must venture everything, and prove at last,
beyond any question, that whatever her fate might be there could never
be in it any doubt or possibility of shame.

She was seated thinking of all this, her needlework going mechanically
through her hands, her head bent, and every faculty occupied with this
debate within herself, when she heard the little click of the gate which
announced a visitor, and then the rap of Patty’s knuckles upon the door.
‘If you please, my lydy, it is Mr. Swinford and a strange gentleman. Am
I to say as your lydyship’s at home?’

‘Did I ever tell you to say I was not at home, Patty?’

‘I don’t know, my lydy. You wouldn’t speak to me not for two days,
‘cause I let Mr. Leo come in.’

‘You are a little nuisance,’ said Lady William, which was enough to make
Patty’s heart dance as she rushed along the narrow passage to
answer--what was not yet, however, a knock at the door.

For the two gentlemen had met Mab in the garden. Mab was very busy in
the garden in the end of April. She had a hundred things to do. She had
a large apron with pockets heavy with all kinds of necessities covering
her dress, and a very homely hat upon her head--one of those broad
articles plaited of brown rushes, which are called reed hats, and may be
bought for sixpence anywhere. It was not unbecoming, though it was
entirely without decoration. Mab’s hair was slightly untidy from much
stooping over the flowerbeds, and her cheeks were flushed by the same
cause. She had fortunately large gardening gloves on, which kept her
hands from the soil and pricks which were too familiar to them. Mab met
the two young men as they came in. She was hurrying past with a box full
of roots in one arm. But she was not in the least embarrassed by the
encounter. She put the trowel which she carried in the other hand, among
the roots, and stopped to speak. ‘I am very busy,’ she said. ‘It is
beautiful this morning, isn’t it? but we shall have rain before night.
So it is just the very opportunity to put in my carnations. They are a
little late, but I was waiting for some good kinds.’

Of course, while she spoke to Leo her eyes had wandered to the other man
with him, who was of quite a different kind--younger than Leo, still in
the twenties, Mab thought, and not handsome; but surely she had seen him
somewhere before. He was fair, like herself, with blunt features, and
eyes that were blue, but not bright. In every way his appearance was
quite different to that of Leo Swinford--no foreign air about
him--clothes that looked much less thought of and cared for, more
carelessly worn, but somehow giving, Mab could not tell how, a more
perfect effect. She gave him a friendly glance, though she did not know
him. But, indeed, she did not feel at all as if she did not know him.
She was confident that the face was quite familiar to her, and that she
must have seen him before.

‘I have brought a friend to introduce to you, Miss Mab: and I expect you
to be friends at once, although you have never seen each other before.’

‘Have I never seen him before?’ said Mab. ‘Perhaps you are mistaken, Mr.
Leo. I am sure I know his face, though I don’t know his name.’

And then the young men both laughed. ‘I will tell you where you have
seen his face--in your own glass when you dress in the morning--I am
sure you never look at it afterwards. This is Lord Will Pakenham, Miss
Mab, and to be sure you ought to have known each other all your lives.’

‘Lord Will----’ Mab grew very red from the tip of her chin to the
untidy locks on her forehead. ‘Does that mean Lord William--my father’s
name?’

‘And I am your cousin Will,’ said the young man.

Mab paused a few moments longer before she held out to him her big
gardening glove. ‘I do not remember my father,’ she said, ‘so you cannot
remind me of him. Did we ever--perhaps when we were little children--see
each other before?’

‘Every time,’ said Leo, ‘did I not tell you, that you have looked in the
glass.’

I do not know what was the effect at that moment upon Lord Will, but the
impression on Mab’s mind was one full of pleasure. These other people,
with their clean-cut features, Leo himself, her cousin Emmy, who had the
impertinence to be like Mab’s own mother, who belonged to her--were a
sort of reproach to the girl. But here was somebody who had a blunt
nose, and eyes which were rather dull in colour, like her own, and who
looked friendly, homely, as if he did not mind--who also smiled upon her
in a very natural way, as if he too felt that he had known her all his
life. ‘Stop,’ said Mab, suddenly drawing off her glove with her white,
strong, small teeth. ‘This time my hand is cleaner than my glove.’ She
caught the glove in her other hand as it fell. If she had been a year
older, of course she would not have done it: and her frock was short and
her manner entirely at ease. Though she had been at a dance, and might
be supposed to have come out, she was still Lady William’s little girl.

‘Come in to mother; she will be glad to see you,’ she added immediately.
‘I can’t go into the drawing-room, can I, with all this? and I must get
these put in before I do anything. Mr. Leo, please go in to mother; you
know the way.’

Next minute Leo was presenting Lord Will to Lady William. It was a very
curious scene. She rose up in the midst of her thoughts, wondering,
questioning with herself what she was to do, and heard in a moment her
husband’s name pronounced in her ears. The effect was so great that as
she rose hastily from her chair the blood forsook her face altogether.
She held by the table before her, letting her work fall out of her hand.

‘Dear lady,’ said Leo, ‘we have startled you. I ought to have known.’

‘Whom did you say?’

‘I am William Pakenham,’ said the young man. ‘I beg you ten thousand
pardons. Swinford has brought me to make acquaintance with--my
relations.’

She sank back into her chair, and for a moment covered her eyes with her
hand. ‘You must forgive me,’ she said, ‘I am very foolish; but the sound
of your name so suddenly in the midst of all I was thinking----’ She
paused a little, and then looked up at him. A smile came upon her face.
She felt like one who has looked up and, expecting to see some painful
apparition, sees instead a smiling face. ‘You are like my Mab,’ she
said, tears coming with a rush to her eyes.

‘So Swinford tells me; but I am not like my uncle.’

Lady William did not say anything, but something in her eyes, something
in the momentary tremor of her lips, seemed to say, ‘Thank God.’

It was an exceedingly awkward, stupid, uncalled-for remark upon the part
of Will Pakenham, who knew that his uncle had been a scamp, but did not
know whether or not his wife might have cherished his memory all the
same. There are some wives who deify a blackguard after he is gone. But
the visitor was young, and this possibility did not occur to him.

‘You have been living here,’ he said, ‘a long time.’

It may be supposed that Lady William was very much shaken out of her
usual self-command before she would allow the stranger to take the
conversation thus into his own hands, and to begin an interrogatory
examination. It was not so much the suddenness of his introduction that
had this effect upon her, as the bewilderment of thoughts in which she
was involved when these intricacies were thus cut as by a knife, by the
appearance of such an astonishing and unexpected figure upon the scene.
She began now, however, to recover herself, and to realise that these
questions were not at all of the manner in which she chose to permit
herself to be addressed. Accordingly, though she smiled in reply, she
gave no other answer, but turned to Leo, who stood by watching her, and
by no means at his ease.

‘You were telling us the other day of the ladies of the family,’ she
said, with a half-reproachful smile; ‘but you did not tell us of Lord
Will----’

How quick she was, seizing the diminutive which made the name less
dreadful to her--though she had never heard it before!

‘We are old friends,’ said Leo; but I did not think--in short, it is
years since we saw each other. He has come on purpose to make your
acquaintance, and his cousin’s.’

‘He is very good,’ Lady William said, with a little bow towards him. ‘I
have been here for many years open to a visit. And you, are you adopting
any profession or service? or are you merely a gentleman at large?’

She smiled upon the young man with her usual gracious reserve; and he
began clearly to perceive that questions to her were practicable no
more. He answered, ‘Oh, Coldstreams,’ a little awkwardly, feeling
somehow that this lady in the little cottage, whose daughter did her own
gardening, and who had a little charity girl for a servant, had put him
back in his own place.

‘That is a great deal better than doing nothing,’ said Lady William;
‘but it is not very hard work. I thought you were all adopting
professions, to work hard, you young men about town. Has your father
come to town yet?’

‘My father?’ said Lord Will vaguely. ‘Oh, he’s---- somewhere fishing. My
mother comes up after Easter. The governor’s not very fond of town.’

‘And your uncle John?----’

‘Oh----’ said the young man, colouring a little, ‘we thought you would
be sure to see it in the papers--everybody is supposed to see everything
in the papers: he died about a fortnight ago.’

‘Died!’

‘Well, he was rather an old fellow, don’t you know,’ said Will in an
apologetic tone, ‘and lived hard. I don’t think it was ever expected
he’d have dragged on so long.’

‘In France,’ said Lady William, ‘there is such a thing as a _faire
part_. They don’t exist in England, I suppose?’

‘They are hideous things in France,’ said Leo, with a shiver, ‘when you
get a letter black to your elbow with a long string of names which you
don’t know, till you come to one little one at the end----’

‘They are better, however, than no information at all.’

‘Oh, I hope you will not think there was any incivility meant. I myself
heard my mother say that you must be informed. There was a search
through all the address books, but we could not find at first where you
lived. And then I volunteered----’

‘To come here, of all places in the world--next door to my cottage! How
extraordinarily acute your _flair_ must be, my dear Lord Will!’

‘It’s not that,’ said the young man, very red. ‘I knew that Swinford
knew you. He wrote to one of the girls, saying what a stun--I mean that
you were in his neighbourhood, and about your daughter, and all that----
’

‘Perhaps it was the first intimation you had of our existence,’ she
said.

‘Oh, no--no; don’t think so. Besides, you are in the peerage; there can
be no mistake about that.’

‘That is an honour I didn’t think of. And so your uncle John is dead? He
was a very strange man--not like any of the family----’

‘Not at all like the rest of us. None of the others had ever two
sixpences to rub against each other. He has died leaving a great
fortune.’

‘A great fortune!’ said Lady William, startled.

The young man looked as if he had said more than he intended. ‘A--a good
deal of money,’ he said. ‘I don’t mean a great fortune as people think
of fortunes nowadays. A good bit of money.’ He paused a little as if
unwilling to go further, then quickly throwing the words from him like a
stone, ‘And no will,’ he said.




XXVIII


‘So,’ said Mrs. Swinford, ‘you have seen your dear aunt.’

Lord Will had arrived in the afternoon, and she had scarcely seen him
until dinner. After that meal--in the moment always anxiously awaited
when there is any subject to talk of, when the servants had left the
room--she entered into conversation. It was not by her invitation that
he had come to the Hall--neither, of course, were any of the
circumstances of her arranging. Sometimes, strangely enough, when there
is an evil deed to be done, Providence will seem to arrange all the
circumstances for it with special care--to give the intending sinner a
clearer light for the resistance of temptation, or to commit him to his
evil choice and inevitable doom. Thus Mrs. Swinford’s whole soul was set
upon the ruin of Lady William--if she could fathom it--and the chain of
possibilities seemed woven for that end.

‘Yes,’ said Lord Will, though a little embarrassed by this description,
‘I have seen Lady William: and being a dear aunt whom I never saw
before, and whom I did not expect to be proud of, she is the greatest
piece of luck I ever came upon. You know her, I suppose?’

‘Know her!’ said Mrs. Swinford, with that little continuous laugh which
was like the tingling of an electric bell. ‘Indeed, I know her--to my
cost.’

‘Ah! there’s mischief in her, then?’

‘There are always old sores in a friendship of twenty years. Isn’t that
true, mother? But whatever they are, they must be of very old date, and
there can be no reason for bringing them forward now.’

Thus Leo, who was evidently very uneasy, and had showed symptoms of
rising from the table though his mother had as yet given no sign.

‘Leo,’ said Mrs. Swinford, ‘has fallen under the fascination which a
woman of that age often exercises--too old to be dangerous, but old
enough to know how to make herself very agreeable.’

‘Oh, she’s very agreeable,’ said Lord Will; ‘as for fascination, one
doesn’t associate it somehow with the name of an aunt, don’t you know.’

‘That is true, but you see she is not everybody’s aunt. To some people
she is----’

‘I should say to everybody a charming woman. Do you take your coffee
downstairs to-night, mother?’

‘I know what you mean, Leo: but coffee or no coffee, you must understand
that I have a great deal to say to Lord Will. It may be now, or it may
be later--but I have a great deal to say----’

‘I need not tell you I am entirely at your disposition, Mrs. Swinford.’

‘You know,’ said Leo, almost angrily, ‘it is bad for your health to stay
up late: and Will wants a glass of wine, or perhaps to knock about the
balls a little----’

‘I hope I don’t look like a fellow to knock about balls--when I have so
much better within reach----’

‘It’s always well,’ said Mrs. Swinford, ‘to know how to turn a
compliment. Will you now give me your arm upstairs like a Frenchman, or
wait like a Britisher till you have had your glass of wine?’

‘Perish the glass of wine!’ said Lord Will with a laugh, ‘though I hear
ladies say nowadays that they like the British fashion best.’

‘These are strong-minded ladies, who are, I believe, the fashion,
too--whom the men don’t care for, and who, consequently, pretend not to
care for the men.’

‘Well, that’s very flattering to us, at least,’ said Lord Will. He was
perhaps a little too much in the movement of his time to accept it as
the gospel it has always been supposed to be, and was even a little
disposed to laugh in his sleeve at the antiquated charmer who held by
that old doctrine. Mrs. Swinford’s air of the ancient seductrice and
devourer of men was not a new thing to this experienced youth.

‘It comes to much the same thing,’ said Leo, ‘for the Frenchmen adjourn
for their cigarette after they have reconducted the ladies. Come,
mother, let him be English for to-night. I have something to say to him,
too.’

‘My son,’ said Mrs. Swinford, with the blandest smile, ‘Lord Will shall
choose between us. I am not going to exercise any pressure, or pull
against you.’

The natural result, of course, was that in a minute or two more Mrs.
Swinford was established in the great drawing-room in her favourite
chair, just within reach of the influence of the blazing, cheerful fire,
amid the banks of flowers and pleasant twinkling of the lights, with
Lord Will before her, at her feet.

‘We need not detain you, Leo,’ she said, with a nod and a smile; ‘I know
your liking for this hour by yourself.’

‘I have no choice of one hour more than another by myself,’ said Leo,
‘and I, too, prefer the company of my guest to my own.’

‘Go, dear boy,’ she said, kissing the tips of her fingers. ‘I prefer
that you should not remain: I have a great deal to say, and it is grave.
You can say your say afterwards. At present, I don’t want to be
contradicted. It puts me out.’

Leo looked at her with an earnest remonstrance in his eyes, but she
continued to nod and smile at him, waving him away with that action of
her arm which had once been so graceful and playful. Leo had been
brought up to think all his mother’s movements graceful, and herself the
most distinguished of women. But there was a painful sense of unwilling
ridicule in his mind as he looked back at her waving him away, placed in
the most careful pose in the great chair, and with the young man, much
perplexed between curiosity and embarrassment, and a sense of ridicule,
too, in the low chair at her feet. He withdrew into the shade beyond the
pillars, but he did not go away. His mother could still see him moving
in the partial dark, standing staring at a half-seen picture, or taking
up and throwing down again book after book.

‘We are not to be left quite alone,’ she said, shrugging her shoulders;
‘Leo acts sheep-dog. It is a new rôle for him. But whether it is in my
interest or yours, Lord Will, I cannot tell.’

‘There can be only one of us who is in any danger,’ said the young man.

‘I might say that was enigmatical still: but I will receive it as I am
sure it is meant, and I congratulate you upon a very pretty turn of
speech. Few young Englishmen deserve that. My Leo I used to think--but
he is getting heavy in England, as most young men do.’

To this Lord Will, who was much intent upon the revelations to be made
to him, was prepared with no reply; and serious as this old woman’s
meaning was, and fatal in intent, she was nevertheless half disappointed
that he did not continue a little the badinage with which she would
have been pleased to preface what she had to say. She had an eye to
serious interest even in desiring to prolong this moment. For no man
likes to see his old mother imitating the coquette, and it might have
resulted in sending Leo away.

‘I think I heard you say--and you must pardon me for interfering with
your family affairs--that there was a question of money involved in your
coming here to see after these unknown relations?’

‘Yes,’ said Lord Will, straightening himself up with relief; ‘there is
money. My uncle John died the other day, rich, and without a will. There
were only two other brothers, my father and my Uncle William. In that
case, Uncle William’s heirs would come in for half the estate.’ He
stopped with a little embarrassment. ‘And my father was of opinion--my
mother thought---- It seemed a little hard perhaps that people we know
nothing of--and then, for his rank, and with all he has to keep up, my
father is a poor man.’

‘So you came to see----?’

Whatever her own motives might be, Mrs. Swinford had no thought of
letting off a culprit of another kind. The young man grew red under her
searching eye. ‘You thought it a pity,’ she went on, ‘that the money you
could spend so much better should be wasted upon a couple of
insignificant women--who perhaps had never heard, never knew that they
had any claim to it, so would have been none the worse?’

‘You take me up too sharply,’ answered Lord Will. ‘I don’t think I meant
anything like that. I meant that it was best to see something of
them--to know something. My father has given Lady William an allowance
all along. I don’t know that he was compelled to do it. He has not
abandoned his brother’s widow. We thought that perhaps----’

‘I will not ask what you find so much difficulty in putting into words.
What would your father say to any one who gave him a chance of
proving--that Emily Plowden was not William Pakenham’s widow at all?’

She had lowered her voice, but yet spoke with such a keenness of meaning
that she was heard further than she intended. Leo came striding out of
the dark where he was, calling out in a voice of indignation, ‘Mother!’
She turned to him and waved her hand quickly, threateningly, without any
of the former consciousness of a gracious pose.

‘Go away!’ she cried, ‘go away, go away! What I am saying is not for
you. Go away, Leo Swinford, or you may hear something you will like
still less--go away, go away!’

‘Swinford,’ said Lord Will, standing up, ‘this you see is too serious to
be suppressed. Whether it’s fact or not, don’t you see I must hear out
what your mother has got to say?’

Leo did not make any reply. He retired again to the darker part of the
room, but instead of lounging about drew forward a chair almost
ostentatiously, and placed himself therein.

‘I see,’ said Mrs. Swinford, with a laugh, ‘the Devil’s Advocate--on the
part of his client. That will not make any difference. Would you like me
to tell you how these two came together? I can do so in every detail.’

‘The question for me is,’ said Lord Will, after a pause: for to tell the
truth, being a young man with a clear view of his own interests, but no
wickedness in him, nor desire to harm his neighbours--at least no more
than was essential to benefit himself--he was a little frightened by the
gleam of devilry in Mrs. Swinford’s eyes; and he was well enough
aware--as people in society are aware of everything of the kind--that
there was something about Mrs. Swinford herself which had kept her out
of England for so long. ‘The question for me is simply about the
marriage. If there is scandal there is no use in raking up old scandals;
besides, whatever happened before, if she is his wife and the girl his
child, nothing else matters to us. I am sure it would be all very
interesting--but you see----’

‘I am not going to rake up old scandals,’ Mrs. Swinford said, ‘but as it
all happened within my knowledge---- She was here--a pretty little
country girl, nothing more. She has immensely improved--quite, quite a
different creature. A girl I had taken a fancy to. I am not sure that
she did not teach Leo a little. That was her standing, the daughter of
the parish clergyman.’

‘That I am sure she did not,’ said Leo from behind; ‘you forget that I
had a governess, mother.’

‘Oh, you are there still, old Truepenny! You seem practising for the
ghost in _Hamlet_, Leo. No, decidedly I cannot go on while he is there.
It shall be for another time. To-morrow you will come to me in my
boudoir before you go away.’

Lord Will looked round to his friend with an appealing air. Then going
up to him, ‘Swinford,’ he said, ‘like a good fellow, let me hear it all
now. I must know it.’

‘In order, if you can, to keep what is theirs from two helpless women?’

‘I want to keep nothing that is theirs from any one,’ said the young
man, with an angry flush.

‘And yet it appears this is what you came here for. But forewarned is
forearmed. Yes, you shall hear it all now; I will not interfere.’

‘Is he gone?’ said Mrs. Swinford, ‘really gone? Leo is the most
scrupulous and delicate of men. He hates your talk of the clubs, gossip
and scandal, as he calls it. If I had brought him up in England would it
have been so? Shut the door, and draw the curtain, Lord Will. I have the
temperature kept up as well as I can, but there are always cold winds
about.’ She shivered a little and drew round her a film of a white shawl
that had been hanging over her chair. ‘Now come back and put yourself
there. Now I may speak my mind.’

‘You must know,’ she went on after all had been done as she ordered,
‘that your uncle William was a great deal here in this house--a very
great deal--it was a kind of home to him. I cannot say that I myself
remarked that he had been attracted by Emily Plowden, but I have told
you that she had a certain bread-and-butter-prettiness. I do not say
_beauté de diable_, for it was neither _beauté_, nor had she enough in
her for the devil to have anything to do with it. Youth alone sometimes
attracts a man. _Enfin_, I never saw anything of it: but one evening,
nay, it was pretty late--he came to me’--she paused a little and drew a
long breath--‘to tell me--it was a confused story--something about
having committed himself. Mr. Swinford, Leo’s father, was a little like
Leo, but more English, more rigid. He burst in while this was being
explained to me, took up a false idea, got what you call the wrong end
of the stick----’ She spoke not with her usual ease, but with strange
breaks of breathlessness. ‘Enough, he got it all wrong, completely wrong
from beginning to end, and stormed and made a scene. And when he
understood that it was Emily who was concerned--Emily had always been a
great favourite,’ with the electrical tinkle running through her words,
‘he insisted that a marriage should take place at once. She left our
house late that night, escorted by your uncle: and what happened I
cannot tell. I never met her again except in Paris, where she was called
Lady William, but saw no society, except the sort of men among whom your
poor uncle, by that time heartbroken and misunderstood----’

‘But why heartbroken--if he had been in love with her?’

‘You are an innocent young man,’ said Mrs. Swinford, tapping him on the
shoulder with her fan. ‘Oh, a very innocent dear boy! You don’t think
what a man like that would feel with a creature like her--a country girl
tied to him, and no doubt leading him a life! She kept him--from saying
a word to me, watching over him like a cat over a mouse. He was burning
to tell me--something; I know not what. My husband also was much
prejudiced, and would not let us meet. So that I never heard his secret,
if there was a secret, as I suppose there must have been. I have never
seen her again till I saw her last month, shining as Lady William, and
believed in by all the country folk--taking precedence,’ Mrs. Swinford
cried with her little laugh, throwing up her fine hands, with all her
rings flashing, ‘upon next to nothing a year.’

‘But she was acknowledged by my uncle as his wife.’

‘She was called Lady William among the sort of _demi-monde_ they lived
in. But what happened between the time she left my house and the time I
saw her there----’

‘Do you mean to say that my uncle eloped with this young lady, Mrs.
Swinford?’

My dear Lord Will, you are young, but you know the world. They left the
house together, late at night. I tell you, quite late, after midnight.
He, a man who was known to be--well, not the safest for women: and she a
country girl of nineteen--oh, very well able to take care of herself,
but as silly and ignorant as they usually are: and--I know no more.’

Mrs. Swinford threw up her hands again, with the dazzling rings. There
was a thrill and tremble in her whole frame with the excitement of the
story, which was so elaborately false yet so nearly true. The young man
had not seated himself a second time. He stood leaning upon the
mantelpiece, his head bent, looking down upon the blazing fire.

‘And you?’ he said, ‘you allowed a girl to go out of your house like
that--a girl, unprotected?’

‘What could I do?’ said Mrs. Swinford. ‘I was not her keeper, neither
was I in command of affairs. I tell you that my husband insisted----’

‘For the marriage, you said, for a marriage--that was very different.’

‘Ah, you are _difficile_! And she, a hot-headed girl full of her own
attractions, do you think she would be restrained----’

‘From leaving home with her lover in the dead of night?’

‘Her lover!’ cried Mrs. Swinford, with the tingling laugh; ‘her lover!’

‘Was he not her lover? For heaven’s sake say what you mean.’

There was a little pause again, through which her laugh ran on, as if
she could not stop it when once it had begun. Lord Will was the first to
speak. He said: ‘All this is very curious and dramatic and strange; but
the one question of my uncle’s marriage is, after all, the chief thing.
I don’t think my father ever entertained any doubt. It is in the
peerage----’

‘That is no proof,’ said Mrs. Swinford sharply.

‘I know; but still--my father was sent for at his death. There was no
suspicion. I have heard that it was a _mésalliance_, but that is all I
have ever heard.’

‘Your father arrived when he was dying, had no communication with him,
nor had any of his true friends. She kept them away. Lord Will, perhaps
we have talked on this question long enough; it is no matter to me, it
is only you who are affected. If there is money involved it is of the
more consequence. You will require proof of the marriage before you do
anything further. That is all you have to do. Ask her to send in her
certificates, child’s birth, and all that. Women of that class are very
wary; they generally see after their papers. I have thought it over; I
thought it all over before I made up my mind to speak to you. I felt
that I could not allow what might be a great wrong to be done to the
family of one who was once a dear friend----’

Mrs. Swinford put her handkerchief lightly to her eyes; it was scarcely
substantial enough to have imbibed one tear. And there were perhaps
other reasons why tears would have been out of place; but, had they
existed at all, they would have been not dew, but fire.




XXIX


Lord Will was greatly impressed, as may be supposed, by that interview
with Mrs. Swinford. When he joined Leo downstairs he had very little to
say. He had not the heart to play a game at billiards, but knocked the
balls a little vaguely, and took the refreshment which was given to him
while he puffed at his cigar. ‘I say, Swinford, your mother and this
aunt of mine don’t seem to hit it off,’ he said.

‘Don’t they?’ said Leo. ‘I don’t know, indeed; they were great friends
once.’

‘Which makes women hate each other all the more when they fall out.’

‘Does it?’ said Leo. ‘You seem to know so much. I am older, but my
knowledge is much less.’

‘By Jove!’ said Lord Will. ‘You ought to have learnt a thing or two,’
and then he became suddenly silent, thinking it would be very difficult
if he were called upon to explain himself. Leo did not ask any
questions, but he was not indifferent to what his friend said.

‘I think you should not take anybody’s opinion,’ he said. ‘If you want
to know about your aunt, go and see her for yourself.’

‘I’ve done that, thanks to you, Swinford; and I thought her
stunning--that’s the truth. But you see there’s money in it, and we’re
not to call rich at Pakenham. It would be a deal pleasanter for my
father to keep all Uncle John’s money than to divide with a lady who
perhaps has no real right. Don’t jump up in that way--I think her
stunning. But still you know that’s a very queer story of Mrs.
Swinford’s. Uncle Will was no end of a bad old man, I’ve always heard.
Why mightn’t he do that as well as the rest?’

‘I do not know,’ said Leo, who had grown pale, ‘what your respected
uncle is supposed to have done. He may have been the greatest reprobate
that ever lived; but I do not see how that furthers your case. I presume
there must have been two of them before it would do you any good; and
the man who will endeavour to cast a blemish upon that lady--well, I may
say he will have to do with me first.’

‘Swinford! for goodness’ sake don’t take up that tone. Why, what have
you to do with it? Do you mean to challenge me? These are your French
ways--you know as well as I do they’re no go here.’

‘The more’s the pity, when it is a question of injuring a woman!’ said
Leo, whose moustache had taken a warlike twist, and every nerve in his
person seemed strung.

‘I don’t want to injure her; but if you think fifty thousand pounds or
so--that’s a nice bit of money to hand over for no motive but sheer love
of justice--if it should turn out perhaps--’

‘If what should turn out?’

‘Well--that perhaps they had no real right. I don’t mean that it would
be their fault. She might have been taken in, and never known. I’ve
always heard he was a horrible old scamp, up to everything--and would
have cheated you as soon as look at you. It would be nothing wonderful
if he had cheated a girl who, I suppose, was fond of him. A woman will
be fond of anything that notices her, I believe. And fifty thousand
pounds is a big bit of money to throw away.’

‘Well, my friend,’ said Leo, ‘I am quite well aware that fighting is, as
you say in England, no go; but I am bound also to allow that it is a
farce in France, and that if it were ever so serious and real it is not
a way to decide a question like this. However, let us try, if not to
decide it at least to throw some light upon it.’

‘Oh, that’s easy enough done, old man,’ said Lord Will. ‘You needn’t
trouble yourself. She has a solicitor, I suppose, and he will have to
send in all the papers to our man, and they’ll manage it between them.
Of course, if our fellow has a hint that there is anything irregular he
will be more particular. That’s more or less what I came for, don’t you
know: to see what she had heard about old John, and so forth, and what
she expected and----’

‘What you say,’ said Leo, ‘sounds as if you meant--that you were to try
whether she could be made to be content with less than her rights--with
anything that it was thought well to give. I don’t suppose that is what
you mean.’

‘It’s kind of you to add that much,’ said Lord Will, who had stopped in
his amusement of knocking about the balls, which he had been doing
savagely, to stare in a threatening way at his friend. Then he threw
down the cue and began to walk up and down the hall. ‘Swinford,’ he said
after a while, coming back to the table, ‘do you know that is, I
believe, exactly what I was intended to do? I knew it in a kind of a
way, but I never put it into words. I believe they thought she might
have been put off with a thousand pounds or two, as if it had been a
legacy.’

‘But your lawyers--I suppose they have a character to lose--would not
have consented.’

‘Oh! there’s no saying what lawyers will consent to when they’re on your
side. I note what you say, about having characters to lose. I suppose
you think that we--haven’t much, perhaps.’

‘I did not mean that,’ said Leo briefly.

‘Well, perhaps you will now--but that would be a mistake. We’re none of
us lawyers. Don’t you know that people sometimes take up an idea that
looks quite allowable until you put it into words? Here’s a woman living
quite by herself in a corner, wanting very little money. And the
governor, you know, has been making her an allowance all this time. What
can she want with a lot of money like that? It would only worry her,
make her think, perhaps, she could set up in a different way of living,
and bring her to grief in the end. And she as good as owes the family
her allowance all these years, which my father wasn’t any way compelled
to give. D’ye see? Well, it doesn’t sound very high-minded, I allow, but
it’s very plausible. It would be no end of use to us--fifty thousand
pounds, or say forty-five with five thousand or so off to her----’

‘Oh! you mean to be so liberal as that!’

‘By Jove! don’t drive me to it, or I may---- Look here, don’t let’s
quarrel, Swinford. It’s so caddish. I never thought of the business, I
tell you, from your point of view. It sounds very plausible. It’s quite
possible the lawyers wouldn’t have stood it; I don’t know. They never
thought of the law, nor that she had any natural right, don’t you see,
to old John’s money. They knew very well he would never have left it to
her, when he knew how heavily the governor was dipped and all that. I
fail to see even now what harm there was in it. The allowance, of
course, would be continued, and five thousand pounds is as much to a
woman living like that, as fifty is at home. It would have been an
enormous windfall; that is what my mo--I mean what my people thought.’

Leo Swinford had a mind which was very tolerant, and he wanted of
course, now he had calmed down a little, to make the best of it. He
nodded his head, and said: ‘I allow that perhaps it was plausible; but I
presume it would be felony all the same.’

‘Felony,’ said the other with a stare of astonishment--the word seemed
to puzzle him. ‘The governor is the head of the family,’ he said
vaguely, which somehow seemed a reason.

‘It would be defrauding one of the heirs of an intestate person of her
just share. The heir would be Mab, I suppose, not her mother.’

‘Oh,’ said Lord Will, quite confused; what between the transference of
the heirship, the inattention of his friend to his plea that his father
was the head of the family, which to himself seemed to be a condition of
importance, and the extremely big word that Leo had used, this young
man, who was not clever, but who was not at all a bad fellow
notwithstanding the mission in which his dull intelligence had not seen
any harm, was quite bewildered, and did not know what to think.

‘Yes,’ said Leo, ‘I don’t know much about English law, but Mab no doubt
would be the heir; and any reasoning brought to bear upon her to make
her accept a portion of her natural right in place of the whole, would
be the same, I presume, as if you had stolen so much from her.’

‘Oh, stolen! rubbish!’ cried Lord Will; then he explained ingenuously,
‘there was to be no reasoning brought to bear; I was to inform them
simply that Uncle John had left--a legacy.’

‘That would have been what I believe is called in English--lying.’

‘Swinford! you mean, I think, to make me forget that I am your guest, in
your house.’

‘In French,’ said Leo, taking no notice, ‘it is called _mensonge_, and
has sometimes interpretations more or less favourable. When you save
your mother’s reputation or your father’s honour, as it is called,
_mensonge_ is the word, and you are not judged too severely; but I have
always heard that in England to lie was the worst offence.’

Lord Will was a little stupid, and therefore very placable. But this
stung him to the quick. He knew what a lie meant, and though he felt a
resistance and profound objection in himself to accept that dreadful
word as representing his action, still, he felt there was a horrible
resemblance between his intentions and that theory. Certainly the
legacy would have been a lie. He did not see that though he had come to
say this, he had already in the frankness which was far deeper down in
his nature than any intention of guilt, committed himself to the actual
truth. No consciousness of that fact softened his sensations. What Leo
said was true. He had come not only to say but to act a lie.

‘You’re tremendously severe,’ he said. ‘I should knock you down by
rights for hinting at such a thing.’

‘Yes, you might,’ said Leo, ‘and you could if you liked. You are bigger
than I am; but I don’t see what difference that would make.’

‘I don’t either,’ said Lord Will. And then there was a pause; he was not
clear enough in his mind to stop there. ‘But if this,’ he said, ‘that
Mrs. Swinford tells me is true----’

‘What did my mother tell you?’

‘Well! you ought to care more about what she says than about any other
woman’s pretences. She says that it’s very uncertain whether they were
ever married at all. Look here, don’t you know, it isn’t me, it’s your
mother. She says they went off from her house together, eloping, as far
as I could make out, in the middle of the night: and that the next time
she saw them, she--this lady--was with my uncle in Paris and called Lady
William. That’s all. Of course, if it was a marriage she’ll be able to
prove everything about it; but if not, it does seem a little hard,
doesn’t it, that those fifty thousand pounds of old John’s money should
be lost? And you must remember, Swinford, it is your mother who says so;
it is not I.’

Leo was silenced by this speech. He had not been prepared for so bold a
statement, nor that Mrs. Swinford would interfere in such a way as this.
Whence had she derived this hate against her old friend? His mind went
back easily to the period when Emily Plowden was the pet of the house.
He had only been a child, indeed, but a child remembers every detail
which older people forget. And he remembered more vaguely, yet well
enough, to have heard his father speak of Lady William after their
establishment in Paris. Leo had not known very much of his father, who
was a reserved man, and not demonstrative to the boy, who was his
mother’s toy and darling, a little drawing-room puppet, everything that
an English father would most dislike in his son. Leo was aware of all
this now, and exaggerated it, as was natural, his own later conduct in
life having been revolutionised more or less by compunctions and
repentances in respect to his father. He could not tell how it was that
in a moment the image of that father leaped into his mind. It seemed to
him that he could almost see the little scene--the ornate suite of rooms
in Paris, his mother lying back scornful and splendid in a great chair,
his father walking up and down in high indignation and something about
Lady William on his lips. What it was he did not remember, but that his
father had spoken in respect, he was sure. The recollection came to his
mind like an assurance and pledge that all was well.

‘You must take care,’ he said, taking the cue which Lord Will had thrown
down, and beginning in his turn to torture the balls, ‘that the wish is
not father to the thought. When it is for one’s interest that a thing
should be, it is so easy to persuade oneself that it is.’

‘That is not my case, Swinford. I did hope I might have made something
of the business; but to have it settled for good and all in this way was
never in my thoughts. The governor himself never knew, nor any one. I
don’t believe he ever suspected----’

‘And yet you are certain, all at once?’

‘Well, not certain,’ said Lord Will; ‘but when a lady, a friend of the
woman, with nothing in her mind but justice, I suppose----’

‘My mother,’ said Leo, ‘has told you nothing from her own knowledge. She
informs you of a possibility of wrong. Your own father was on the spot;
he went over when his brother died, but he suspected nothing; and my
father, a man of the highest honour, though I did not know him as I
ought, suspected nothing. Take care how you let a mere insinuation--a
doubt----’

‘It was your mother who made it, Swinford.’

Leo was very pale, and an angry cloud came over his countenance. He
turned round with an impulse of indignation towards the young man who
forced this upon him. ‘My mother,’ he said, ‘may be mistaken; she is
human, like the rest of us. In the meantime, I think you are showing
little knowledge of human nature, Pakenham. Do you think that lady whom
you saw to-day could have lived as she has done for all these years
under a burden of shame? and could look as she does if she knew that she
might be found out any day?’

‘Women are dreadful hypocrites,’ said Lord Will. ‘They can face things
out in a way no man could do. Why, I’ve seen at home how things can be
faced out--and no doubt so have you, too.’

‘She is not of the kind to face things out.’

‘Oh, I quite acknowledge she’s a stunner, and all that. Reason the more
why she should hold her own, and refuse to understand if a fellow dared
to put a question--oh, not that I should ever dare to do that. I’m no
more a coward than most other people, but say to a woman like that that
I believed she wasn’t rightly married, I’d sooner jump into the river
any day with a bullet at my heel.’

‘Which means simply that your inner man--the better part of you--is
aware of the fact, which, for your interest, you would like to deny:
that is all about it. I advise you to drop the idea, like a hot potato,
as they say here. It is not true.’

‘Prove that it isn’t true, and I’ll not say another word.’

‘I prove it by simply pointing to the lady in question,’ said Leo hotly.

‘Oh, that! but even if I were to take that view, she mightn’t know,
herself. She might be deceived as well as the rest.’

A look of sudden alarm came upon Leo’s face. Lady William was a person
of high intelligence, but she was not a woman of the world. In the quick
look he gave upward, in his way of returning to his aimless play, and
the impatience with which he struck again the innocent balls, sending
them coursing to every corner, the trouble of his mind might be guessed.
This gave his visitor fresh courage.

‘You needn’t fear, Swinford,’ he said, ‘that I’ll bully a--person like
that. Whatever her position may be, there’s nothing common about her,
that’s clear. I’ll give our man a hint. Get it all clear about marriage
and all that, and the proof of the child’s birth and so forth--all in
the way of business. You may trust me for that: not a word to her, but
just what’s necessary between the two solicitors, don’t you know. I
think now I’m going to bed.’

‘I advise you,’ said Leo, taking care not to see his companion’s hand
stretched out to him, ‘to be careful how you discount your hopes. Do not
count your eggs, as they say here, till they are hatched.’

‘You mean the chickens: and I should not dream of putting the fifty
thousand pounds in my own pocket. Why, man alive, it’s not for me! I
shan’t get twenty thousand farthings of it, nor anything like that.’

‘Ah, then you are hopeless, for you will feel yourself disinterested,’
said Leo, so busy with the balls that once more he missed seeing Lord
Will’s hand stretched out.

‘I say, Swinford, there’s no ill-feeling, I hope.’

‘Why should there be any ill-feeling?’ said Leo, raising his eyes for a
moment with a benign but too radiant smile. He turned to the balls again
the next moment as he said lightly with a wave of his cue, ‘Good night.’

It is confusing, it must be allowed, to a plain intelligence, to have
one member of a family force information of the most serious kind upon
you, while another avoids shaking hands with you because you believe it.
Such things happen, no doubt, in the world, but they are rare, and Lord
Will went upstairs to his room in a very uncomfortable state of mind,
not knowing which he should depend on of those two conflicting powers.
Leo remained for some time after, still knocking about the balls.
Morris, with whom his master in the dearth of other companions had
sometimes played an occasional game, hung about in prospect of a call.
But Morris was disappointed, though it was perhaps an hour later before
Mr. Swinford left that uninviting occupation. He went on with the
gravest face in the world, but very devious strokes, evidently as
indifferent to what he was doing as he was overwhelmingly serious in
doing it. The click of the balls and of his steps round the table gave a
curious sound in the midst of the silence of the great house. Such
sounds say more of solitude than the most complete stillness, and Leo’s
countenance was as grave as if he had been playing, like a man in an old
legend, with some unseen being for his own soul.




XXX


It is not to be supposed that during this period the visits of Mrs.
Brown, the schoolmistress, to her friend at the Hall, who was so like
yet so unlike her--so unlike in personal importance--so superior in
position, and yet so strangely resembling--should have ceased. There
were no other two persons in all the precincts of Watcham so evidently
belonging to the same world and species, and yet there were no two more
separate in all those externals that distinguish life. Mrs. Brown’s
visits were almost all paid in the evening, sometimes very late,
sometimes at that hour before dinner when Mrs. Swinford was known to
receive no one. But there was no bar at any time against the entrance of
this privileged visitor. On the evening which Lord Will spent at the
Hall Mrs. Brown came late, while dinner was going on. She had an
entrance of her own by which she preferred to come in, a door which gave
admittance to the servants’ quarters, but which was always open, and
spared the schoolmistress the intervention of Morris, whom she did not
dislike to see now and then, and metaphorically put her foot upon with
the pride of a superior knowledge which he could not understand. But
this malicious gratification, though she enjoyed it occasionally, was
not enough to make up for the disadvantage of having her movements known
and chronicled, and it suited her character and habits better to have a
mode of access absolutely free and beyond control. She was so swift and
subtle in her movements, and so fortunate, as the clandestine often are,
in finding her passage free, that on many occasions she had glided
through the great house, mounted the great stairs, and appeared
noiseless in the ante-room occupied by Julie, the maid, without an
individual in the house being aware that she was there. It had so
happened on this particular night when even Julie was out of the way.
Mrs. Brown came in noiseless, slightly breathless, having hurried
upstairs, and just escaped meeting a strange young man, whose wide
shirt-front indicated him in the partial darkness of the corridor as if
he had carried a light, but whom to her surprise she did not know. A
woman with her wits so much about her, knew by sight by this time
everybody in the neighbourhood who was likely to dine with Leo. She
avoided him by a rapid step aside, and consequently she was a little out
of breath when she arrived in Julie’s room, where there was no one, a
dereliction of duty that might have cost Julie her place had it been
known. Mrs. Brown looked round her with a nod of satisfaction as she put
off the heavy veil in which she was accustomed to wrap herself on these
visits. She went into the inner room, and looked round with an even more
vivid look of satisfaction. Mrs. Swinford’s luxurious room was as she
had left it in the perfection of silent repose and comfort--soft light,
soft warmth, everything that the most refined suggestion of luxury and
ease could command. Mrs. Brown gave a sigh, and then a laugh. She said
to herself, ‘How little a difference would have made me like this!’ and
then she said, ‘What a bore it would have been!’ The laugh suited her
better than the sigh. It called forth a twinkle of mischief and lurking
vagabondism in her eyes. She then lay down on Mrs. Swinford’s sofa, put
back her head upon the cushions, took up first one book, then another,
and read a page or two. Then she threw them down one after another, and
looked round the room again. How pretty it was! Her eyes lingered for a
moment here and there on the pictures, the little graceful bronzes, the
prevailing ornament, the lights, carefully planned to the advantage of
the decorations. And then a strange shadow came over her face. Good
heavens, to lie here, and remember! she said. Perhaps in her energy of
feeling, these words were said aloud. At least, they brought in Julie,
who had in the meantime returned to her room, not suspecting the
presence of this visitor, and who peeped in suspicious, half-terrified,
with her hand on her breast. ‘C’est vous, Madame?’ she said, with a look
of mingled terror and relief.

‘Who else should it be, unless a thief?’ said Mrs Brown. ‘But as it
might have been a thief and not me, you know, you ought not to be
absent, _ma chère_.’

Julie clasped her hands and entreated that Madame would not say
anything. ‘This is not the house for thiefs,’ she said.

‘On the contrary, it is just the house. Don’t you know all the robberies
of jewels are done when the family are at dinner?’ Mrs. Brown rose from
the sofa and took a low chair beside the fire, where she continued to
sit when she had dismissed Julie much alarmed by the admonition. Many
thoughts went through her mind while she waited, and she had a long time
to wait. She compared her own vagabond lot, now up, now down, which she
had led after her own wild fancy--the life rather of a man than of a
woman--with this beauty and luxury, with a shudder of pity going over
her. The pity was not for herself, but for the other woman shut in, in
this gilded cage to---- remember! The pictures on the walls, the
carefully arranged lights, the unchangeable surroundings, all luxury and
brightness, affected her like a spell. Good heavens! to sit there day
after day, evening after evening, and remember! Mrs. Brown thought of
her own little rooms which it had given her pleasure to arrange and
decorate in a manner which she felt to be fictitious and out of
character, but which amused her all the same, and which she laughed at,
having done it, with a full consciousness that it was trumpery, and that
the trumpery was out of place, as a woman who knew better could not fail
to see. ‘Ah, well!’ she said to herself, ‘I’d rather have my trumpery
that I can throw away any day, and probably shall some day, and that I
can run away from when I like, when it gets too absurd.’ And then there
were the books: French novels, going over and over with fantastic
variations the one story--the story of (so-called) love--that is, the
complicated ways by which two people, generally old enough to know
better, are brought into the relations of intrigue or passion with each
other--which ends badly, either in the death of one or the disgust of
both: and so _da capo_, always beginning over again. ‘Good heavens!’
said Mrs. Brown to herself again, ‘how can she go on day after day, day
after day, reading _that_--and remembering!’ The schoolmistress had no
objection to a French novel of this class herself now and then; and
reading only now and then--being within reach of such indulgences only
now and then--naturally she got only the best, the ones that had wit and
genius in them. But the unhappy woman who lived upon that food for ever!
What garbage, what insipidity of nastiness must go through her hands!
The poor Bohemian whose life was a continual scuffle (chiefly of her own
choosing) looked upon this unvarying luxury, ease, and wealth, with a
horror and wonder which it would be difficult to describe. ‘Good
heavens!’ she repeated to herself; ‘why doesn’t she take a little
chloral and be done?’

Mrs. Swinford gave a start of pleasure when, sweeping into her room in
those long and splendid robes which were more fit for a Court than for a
country house of so little distinction as the Hall at Watcham, she
perceived Mrs. Brown sitting by the fire. It was, perhaps, the only
event which could have lighted up her face with pleasure. She was cross,
excited, full of the impatience and exasperation of effort which she
felt to be at least only half successful; and Julie had perceived by her
first glance at the lines on her lady’s brow that her evening’s task to
undress, and soothe, and persuade into calm and sleep this agitated and
disturbed old woman would be no easy one. ‘You come at the best time.
You always know when I have need of you,’ Mrs. Swinford said, letting
herself drop, as was her wont, into Mrs. Brown’s arms. The very
passiveness of the embrace was a habit--a habit of reliance and expected
help which had never failed. If such a thing as affection had ever been
in Mrs. Swinford’s heart it was this other woman, so like her, and so
unlike, who was its object.

‘I see you are got up for conquest,’ Mrs. Brown said.

‘Conquest! I am dressed as usual. There was one guest at dinner--an
insignificant boy. You can leave us, Julie, till I ring. A boy, but with
such a name! What do you think? A nephew--Lord Will they call him
fortunately, or it would have been too much.’

‘A nephew----! of----’

‘Do you need to inquire? Then you are growing dull, dull as your
surroundings. You who used to understand everything _à demi-mot_!’

‘I understand. I almost met him on the stairs. I thought there was
something familiar in his face. And what does he want here?’

‘Is it necessary to ask? Might he not come to see me, or Leo, whom he
knows? But no, no, Artémise, I will not deceive you. He has come to find
out about that woman--her rights to his name--which she has none, having
stolen it, as you know; and to some money that has fallen in, do I care
how! He could not have come to a better quarter. I gave him some
information.’

‘What information?’ said Mrs. Brown, sitting up in her chair.

‘I told him all that I knew. You will please to remember it is all I
know: that she left the Hall hastily at midnight, that I met her after
in Paris bearing his name.’ Mrs. Swinford, too, sat upright, with a
colour in her cheeks and a fire in her eyes that recalled something of
the beauty of old to her worn face. ‘What do I know more? Nothing,’ she
said, with a movement of her hands, which made the rings upon them flash
and send out rays like sparks of light.

‘Ah! you told him that?’

‘There is money in the question,’ said Mrs. Swinford, leaning forward
and speaking low, ‘and their object is to find out that she has no
rights. He took my hints like milk; they were balm to him. Fancy so many
thousand pounds--I know no details--and if not to her they will go to
him. Is not that worth the trouble?’

‘To the man, perhaps, Cecile--but why to you?’

‘To me much more than to him,’ she said, with flashing eyes.

‘Why?’

‘You are stupid to-night,’ said Mrs. Swinford coldly; ‘not for a long
time, for many years, have I found you so before.’

‘Because,’ said Mrs. Brown, ‘this that you have said is, as you are
aware, not----’

‘Your scruples are engaging, they are beautiful, they are something to
put in a story-book,’ said the lady. ‘You to stand for that! You,
who----’

‘It is better not to go too far. I have done a great many reckless
things. I am a reckless woman altogether, and have not cared what became
of me for many a long day: but I have never done anything like that. Ah
yes, I have scruples; every one has, you even, if one knew where to look
for them.’

‘It was you,’ said Mrs. Swinford, ‘who made the suggestion at the
first.’

‘To save you, Cecile, to save you.’

‘I should have found some other way to get out of it. There was never a
difficulty yet but I found a way of getting out of it. I should have
done so then, had you not come forward to say it was Emily--Emily, a
child, a nobody--whom he loved, and that I was his confidante. I can see
it all now. He had no escape. Artémise, I have loved you better than any
woman all your life, and you repaid me by taking away from me--handing
over to that girl----’

Her eyes were ablaze in her flushed yet withered face. Her whole frame
was trembling with angry emotion. Mrs. Brown rose quickly and went to
her, taking her hands, holding her fast. ‘It is twenty years ago,’ she
said, ‘and it was to save your honour, your position, everything,
Cecile--your child, your wealth, everything you had in the world.’

‘I can see the scene now as if it was yesterday--my husband there,
blazing like white light. He never looked like that in his life but
once. And _he_--confused, afraid--on the other side of me, trembling for
me.’

‘And a little for himself, Cecile.’

‘Silence! If you say so, I will strike you. And you, with your smooth
tongue--always with your smooth tongue. How many lies it must have told
first to be capable of that!’

‘For your sake; you know it was for your sake. If you remember all that,
remember, too, how the storm died down in a moment, and all was well.’

‘Well!’ said the other. She leant back her head upon the breast of the
woman whom she was accusing. ‘If it had raged itself out, and done its
worst, would not that have been better than all that has followed--the
bitterness and the hate, and the horror, and that girl living at my very
door, to make me mad?’

‘Why did you see her, Cecile? You might have ignored her altogether,
forgotten her existence.’

‘You forget,’ cried Mrs. Swinford. ‘She is the great lady of the
village--takes precedence’--she laughed out with a hysterical violence
which shook her from head to foot--‘precedence of me, if we were in the
world together! Don’t you know that? But it will soon come to an end,’
she added, laughing again with that electric tinkle which wore out the
nerves of all who heard her. ‘What a good thing they are so sordid a
family, those Pakenhams, loving money as other people love their
children, whatever is dearest to them! She will be called on to prove
every step, and she will not be able to prove one. And then!--we shall
see what the village will think of her title and her precedence then.’

‘You have been agitating yourself in the most imprudent, in the most
foolish way. Where are your drops? Her precedence, poor thing, will not
hurt you, but a long faint will hurt you. Cecile, must I call your maid
to see you in this state, or will you be quiet and listen to me?’

‘Give me my drops. I must not, I must not, have another attack. The
doctor says so. Artémise, don’t leave me, don’t leave me!’

‘I will, if you do not turn from this subject at once. Throw it away
from you. What on earth is Emily Plowden, or Pakenham, or whatever her
name is, to you? Cecile, I begin to think a woman like you never learns,
and that you are no better than a fool.’

While she said these words, however, Mrs. Brown was busy with the most
affectionate cares, soothing the excited woman, bathing her forehead,
rubbing her hands, administering the specific, loosening the elaborate
dress, which made the heaving of the shrunken figure, and the strain of
the emaciated throat, so much the more dreadful. The passion calmed down
by degrees, and then Julie was summoned, and the robes of state replaced
by a quilted dressing-gown, scarcely less fine, but more appropriate.
After this the conversation was resumed in a less exciting vein. Mrs.
Swinford was perhaps a little ashamed to have betrayed the fury of her
feelings even to so trustworthy a confidante.

‘It is fine to see a family like that,’ she said, ‘not carried away by
passion, Artémise, like you and me. Love or revenge are not in their
way, nor hatred; but money, money. To secure a few thousands, they will
be my instruments, or any one’s, to punish a traitor. And what you are
horrified to think I should want to do, for such good reason as you
know, they will do for nothing at all--for money, as I say.’

‘Many people think money a much more sufficient reason than what you
call passion,’ said Mrs. Brown. ‘And it will be well to keep your
Lord ---- whatever you call him, from knowledge of me, for I can spoil
his little transaction.’

‘Ah, you--you were there!’

The two women looked at each other, and Mrs. Swinford, notwithstanding
her age and her knowledge of the world, was sensible of a sudden heat
rising to the edge of her hair; not the blush that comes to more
innocent faces, but that burning colour of shame at a self-betrayal
which she ought to have been too strong to fall into. Mrs. Brown nodded
her head gravely. ‘You said you had no means of knowing, but you
perceive that you have: and for me, I can make an end of any such
pretension. He had better not come across my path.’

‘You would not balk me, Artémise?’

‘I would balk him, as soon as look at him, and the family, bless them;
and I would not bring the innocent to shame, not even for you.’

‘Artémise! after all we know of each other, such a pretension----’

‘My dear Cecile, what I know of you is one thing, what you know of me is
another. I have broken every law, especially of society; but to harm the
innocent is what I have never done--at least,’ she added after a moment,
‘not in that way. And though I’d give my head for you, which is, of
course, a figure of speech, I will not ruin Emily Plowden for you, and
that’s flat, whatever you may say.’

‘Don’t interfere, Artémise,’ said Mrs. Swinford, with a sound of tears
in her voice, ‘don’t, don’t interfere. Go away, and let things take
their chance. No doubt she must have other evidence; I was a fool not to
think of that. But don’t you, who are my nearest and dearest, go against
me; don’t interfere. It is not, it has never been, a fit position for
you, wherever you are; go to London, where I will find a home for you,
Artémise.’

‘Do you think after standing out so long, I will consent to be dependent
on you now--for a reason?’ Then she laughed, changing her tone. ‘If you
can imagine a better place to hide myself in than the Girls’ National
School at Watcham,’ she resumed, ‘you have very much the advantage of
me.’




XXXI


It was not very often the Rector found time to visit his sister. They
saw each other constantly at the Rectory, at church, in the village
street, in all sorts of places, almost every day; but his visits were
few, especially such a visit as the present. He paused at the further
end of the garden and called over the hedge to Mab, to know if her
mother was alone. ‘I have got some business to talk over,’ Mr. Plowden
said. ‘Take the trouble, will you, Mab, to see that no one comes in to
disturb us.’

Mab thought it curious that, thus for two days within a week, her mother
should have private business with Uncle James; but she said nothing
except a ready assent to what he asked of her. ‘I’ll come towards the
gate,’ she said; ‘I’ve got some things to put in on that border, and if
any one comes that I can’t send away, you will hear me talking with
them, Uncle James.’ She walked through the garden with him, so to speak,
she on one side of the hedge, he on the other. ‘Fancy who turned up
yesterday,’ she said; ‘a cousin whom, of course, I never saw before--a
Lord William like my father; but fortunately they called him Lord Will.’

‘Lord William!’ cried the Rector, ‘a Pakenham--a son of the Marquis! Did
he come to see you, or--for--for anything special?’

‘I don’t know what he wanted,’ said Mab. ‘To see us, I suppose. The
funny thing is, he is like me. From this you may imagine he is not a
beautiful young man, Uncle James.’

‘I don’t know why I should imagine that; I like your looks very well, my
dear.’

‘Thank you, Uncle James,’ said Mab, with a laugh. ‘He is staying at the
Hall, and I think he said that he would come back this morning, so, of
course, if he comes I cannot send him away.’

‘I understand,’ said the Rector, with a countenance somewhat troubled.
And he went into the little drawing-room, where Lady William rose up to
meet him looking a little anxious. ‘You, James!’ she said. ‘I did not
expect, especially at this hour, to see you.’

‘I can’t see why you should not have expected me, Emily; our last
interview was serious enough,’ he said, shutting the door carefully
behind him: and then he went across the room to the window, which was
open. Being so nearly on a level with the garden it would, of course,
have been easy enough for any one to hear from outside whatever
conversation was going on within.

‘You frighten me with these precautions, James.’

‘There is nothing to be frightened about. You may imagine I have been
thinking a great deal of what you told me the other day.’

‘Yes: and I heard Mab tell you the new incident.’

‘The appearance of the cousin? What is the signification of that, I
wonder? But let us take the other, which is more important, first. Did
you know my father kept a diary, Emily?’

‘I have seen him making little notes in various little books: but it is
so long ago.’

‘And you were not here, of course, when we came into the Rectory. I
found a quantity of these little books in the study, little calendars
and almanacs, and so forth. I didn’t pay much attention to them--that
is, I looked into one or two and they didn’t seem interesting. Queer,
when people might really make such a record important, and they put in
the merest trifles instead.’

‘“Chronicle small beer,”’ she said, with a faint smile; but she was pale
with an interest much deeper than any record of public events could have
commanded.

‘Eh?’ said the Rector, who was not literary; ‘but I thought it might be
just possible--so I have been making a hunt through them, and I came
upon something that might--that must help us.’

‘Thank God!’ she said, clasping her hands instinctively together.

‘We must not be too sanguine: and yet, of course, a dead man’s diary is
evidence itself in a way.’

‘Tell me,’ she cried, with excitement, ‘tell me what papa said.’

‘Nearly twenty years ago,’ said the Rector, with a little emotion. ‘It’s
like hearing the old man talk--with abrupt sentences, don’t you
know--just as he spoke.’

‘What does he say? What does he say, James?’

‘This is the one, I think; no, it’s the next--no. I hope I haven’t
brought the wrong ones after all.’

Lady William sat very quietly with her hands on her knee, only her
fingers, which clasped and unclasped each other, showing a little the
excitement of the suspense in which she was, as he drew forth one little
book after another from the ample pockets of his coat. At last the right
one was found, and then a minute or two elapsed before the Rector with
his spectacles could find the entry of which he was in search. Lady
William made no attempt to snatch it from his hand. She sat quite still
with a self-enforced patience which was belied by the glitter in her
eyes.

‘Here it is at last--October 23rd. Would that be the date?’

She bowed her head quickly, and her brother began to divine that she
could not speak. He gave her a keen look, and then returned to the book.

‘“October 23rd.--Very agitating and extraordinary night. Em. came home
after midnight accompanied by woman M., and Lord W. Extraordinary
explanations. Marriage immediately or not at all. Leaving England. Gave
consent.” Is that right?’

Lady William moved impatiently in her chair. ‘If you find it in the
book, it must be right.’

‘Ah, well, that is true, no doubt. Then comes another--“25th.--Emily
married. Old Gepps. Gave her away. They left train, Paris.”’

‘Is that all?’

‘It is all. I suppose old Gepps is the man who performed the ceremony.
Did you ever hear my father speak of any one of that name? Do you
remember the man?’

‘I recollect an old man with a white beard. I think I have a vague
recollection even of the name.’

‘It is most extraordinary,’ cried the Rector, getting up from his chair,
‘that on an occasion of such importance you should not have remembered
both place and name!’

‘Ah! it was just because it was an occasion of such importance, and
everything so dreadful and so strange.’

‘Emily, I have hesitated to ask you: why in heaven’s name were you
married like that? What was the cause?’

She pointed towards the book with a hand that trembled. ‘Papa has put it
down there.’

‘He has put down the fact, but no explanation. The explanation
apparently was given to him, but not recorded. But you--why should you
not tell me? A sudden marriage like that, in such headlong haste--why
was it? What did it mean?’

Lady William was silent for some time, clasping her fingers and
unclasping them, gazing into the vacant air. At last she said: ‘James,
you will think me too great a fool if I say that I did not know, at the
time.’

‘Emily,’ he said, with a tone so sharp and keen that it went through her
like a knife, ‘it is a long time since, and I have a right to know. Was
it--was it through any fault of yours?’

She turned her eyes to him with a look of the utmost amazement. ‘Fault
of mine!’ she said. ‘What could that have had to do with it--any fault
of mine?’

She was a mature woman, and was supposed to know the world; but Mab
herself could not have given him a more limpid look, could not have
received his questions with more surprise. The Rector, quite confused,
stepped back a pace, and said, ‘I beg your pardon,’ with a humility
which was entirely out of his habits. He had grown quite pale, and
glanced at her with a sort of fright, terrified lest perhaps it might
dawn upon her what he meant.

‘I was bewildered,’ she said. ‘I was taken altogether by surprise. It
was the romance that dazzled me--what seemed the romance--and all that
they told me: that he had to leave England, must go, would be in danger
of I know not what, yet would not go without me. And poor papa thought
of--oh the folly, the pettiness of it!--the title, perhaps, and what he
thought the connection. My poor father thought a great deal of
connection.’ She smiled a little sadly, looking back with a sort of
tenderness upon the weakness and folly of a time so long past. Then she
drew herself up unconsciously, holding her head high. ‘I discovered the
real meaning, but not till after. It was very bitter and terrible; but
after all it is Mab’s father of whom we are speaking. James, let us
return to the question of most importance. What is gained by this I
don’t see. I don’t understand things of that kind.’

It was very conciliating and satisfactory to Mr. Plowden that she did
not understand. ‘It gives a clue,’ he said. ‘We must look up Gepps. He
must have been a friend of my father’s, and he must, of course, be in
the “Clergy List.” I have been looking up what old ones I have, but I
cannot find him. I have not got that year, but it can be got, it can be
got. He was an old man, you say, and he must have died, I suppose, but
he cannot have taken his church and his registers with him. We must
ascertain what was his church.’

‘It was a little old-fashioned place, very dingy, with heavy pews; a
small place with an old-fashioned pulpit and canopy. I remember the
look of it--and the clergyman, an old man, with a white beard.’

‘In the City, most likely?’

Lady William shook her head. ‘I knew nothing of the City--nor anywhere
except the parks and the streets round about that in which the Swinfords
had a house. We went seldom, very seldom, to town in those days; I
never, except with them.’

‘It must have been in the City,’ said Mr. Plowden. ‘What you describe
settles the question. Well, then, I think now, Emily, there need be very
little difficulty. Gepps must be in the “Clergy List.” If he is living,
so much the better; he may have retired somewhere. But at all events the
register must exist. I will go up to town to-morrow, and find the list
for ‘sixty-five, and after that it will be plain sailing. All the same,
how my father and you, but especially my father, could be such a fool!’

Lady William made no reply. To have her mind so thrown back upon that
wonderful tragic moment of her life: to think of herself, the bewildered
romantic girl, with all the wonderful tales poured into her ear by the
flatterer by her side--that flatterer who was not the silent, disturbed
bridegroom who himself said so little to explain the hot haste, the
desperation of the strange wedding--was of itself painful enough and
exciting. She had herself broached the subject to her brother when the
question opened up by Mrs. Swinford had burst upon her, but she had not
then entered into it so fully as now, and her mind was shaken by all
those recollections. She seemed to see the shabby old church already,
even so long ago, an anachronism among churches, with its heavy pulpit
and pews and small round-headed windows, and the old clergyman with his
white beard, and the complete absence of all those prettinesses with
which a girl’s imagination surrounds her bridal--prettinesses, however,
made up for by the thrilling romance which, when the moment came, had
begun to yield a little to the natural pain of the position. She
remembered with what a start of alarm she had found herself consigned to
the husband of whom she knew so little, who was so little like the
romantic hero of such a marriage, and who--as she only began to see when
the step was irrevocable--showed so little of any sentiment for her
which could justify the impetuous impatience of the proceedings. She
remembered the awful sensation in her mind when she looked back from the
window of the railway carriage upon her father’s smiling, complacent old
face, enchanted by the consciousness that his daughter was now Lady
William, sister-in-law to the Marquis of Portcullis, and on the mocking
smile and exaggerated courtesies of Artémise: and felt everything she
loved sliding from her, and nothing left to her but the saturnine
countenance opposite--the almost strange man, who if he loved her hotly
had, as yet at least, shown no signs of it to herself. She did not hear
her brother’s voice speaking to her in the heat and hurry of her
thoughts. Oh, what recollections were these! So much more real than
anything that occurred to her now, so much more potent in their terror
and excitement than anything that could happen. She had known nothing in
all her experience, read nothing, so tragical and terrible as the
feelings of that poor little bride of nineteen, as she woke up from her
romantic dream, and saw her father’s foolish old face so fresh and
ruddy, so innocent and unconscious, just before it finally dropped out
of sight to be seen no more. Perhaps it was her brother’s question,
though she was scarcely aware that she heard it, how could my father be
such a fool? that gave the impression of foolishness, of strange,
cheerful imbecility to her last view of that rosy old face.

‘I repeat, Emily,’ said the Rector, with a little heat, ‘how could my
father be such a fool? A girl of your age, of course, could not be
expected to think of such things--but my father!--And I suppose he knew
that the man you married was not--a model of every virtue.’

‘He was Mab’s father, James, and he was at least quite honourable, so
far as I was concerned; he took no advantage--in respect to me.’

‘He could scarcely have been such a brute as that,’ the Rector said.
‘Well, I’ll go, Emily. To-morrow I’ll go to town and see if I can bring
back all the papers square. Hush, what is that? Who is Mab talking to?
We’ve done our talk, however, and it’s no matter being interrupted now.’

‘Good morning, Lord William,’ Mab’s voice was heard saying, perhaps a
little louder than was necessary, to give her uncle the warning she had
promised.

Lady William started violently at the sound of the name. She put her
hand upon her breast where her heart had begun to beat loudly. ‘All
those old recollections have upset my nerves,’ she said, with a little
piteous smile. ‘Forgive me, James; it is the young man that Mab told you
of, the cousin with the same name.’

‘Poor Emily!’ he said, taking her hand in both of his. ‘You have, I
fear, no pleasant memories connected with it: but why, then, in the name
of heaven, or the other place perhaps----’

‘The other place,’ she said, bursting into a faint hysterical laugh.
‘But wait a moment, the boy is coming in.’

‘I thought you were going away this morning,’ said Mab, evidently
leading the way into the house. ‘You need not think of shaking hands,
for I am always muddy when I am working in the garden. Yes, I do a great
deal of work in the garden--indeed, I’m the gardener. Patty’s father
gives me a hand for the heavier things, but do you imagine I would trust
any one else with my flowers? Ah, it’s a little too early, but if you
came here in June, then you should see! It’s not very big, to be sure.
Mr. Leo has a great deal more space at the Hall, and I don’t know how
many men, but----’ Mab said, ending abruptly with a little grimace
(which, of course, could not be seen indoors) which said more than
words.

‘I daresay it’s great fun working in the garden,’ said Lord Will, with a
very serious face.

‘A garden is no fun at all when you don’t work in it,’ said Mab, ‘and,
so far as I’ve seen, most other things are just the same. They become
fun if you take an interest in them, and not in any other way.’

‘But then Miss Mab was always a philosopher,’ said Leo’s voice, with the
faint sound in it that was not English.

‘Oh, Swinford’s there, too,’ said the Rector to his sister inside.
‘Don’t you think, Emily, you have him a little too often here?’

‘The other is staying with him,’ Lady William said, which was no doubt a
subterfuge: but then it was very evident that she had no time to say any
more.




XXXII


It was Leo who led the way, but the Rector was quite uninterested in
Leo. His eyes followed to the other young man behind, who came in with
something like diffidence, though that is not a common aspect for a
young man of fashion to bear. He came in, indeed, with the air of a most
unwilling visitor. He would have greatly preferred to go away without
repeating his visit in the changed circumstances in which he found
himself, but Leo had insisted that the visit should be paid. He shook
hands with Lady William, and was presented to her brother, with the air
of a man who wished himself a hundred miles away.

‘I’ve just come, don’t you know, to take my leave,’ said Lord Will. ‘I’m
summoned to town. I thought that you would understand; but Swinford here
said I ought to come--that is to say, I was glad to take the opportunity
of saying good-bye.’

‘Yes,’ said Lady William, looking from one to another; ‘I should have
understood, I think. It is a pity, Leo, that you gave your friend the
trouble.’

‘Oh! delighted, of course,’ said Lord Will.

‘I have been telling my brother,’ said Lady William, ‘about your visit:
and to see one of Mab’s relations is a pleasure--so unlooked-for.’

‘I will not say unlooked-for. I have always looked forward,’ said the
Rector, ‘to making the acquaintance of the family. How do you do? And,
of course, at once I perceive the likeness you spoke of, Emily. You are
here on a very brief visit, it appears, Lord----.’ It seemed to Mr.
Plowden that to say Will would be too familiar, and to say William would
affect his sister’s nerves; therefore he stopped short there, and said
no name at all. ‘You have scarcely had time to make your cousin’s
acquaintance,’ he said.

Lord Will had been quite unprepared for a man and a brother taking the
part of the poor lady about whom he had been holding so many
discussions. He was a little taken aback. ‘As a point of fact, a fellow
has so little time,’ he said, hesitating a little. ‘I came down to see
Swinford--dine and sleep, don’t you know--that sort of thing. Swinford’s
such a capital fellow to know in Paris--takes you everywhere--shows you
all the swells, and that sort of thing.’

Mr. Plowden had not, perhaps, very much acquaintance with the highest
order of society, at least in its young and fashionable branches. To
hear Lord Will Pakenham talk of swells took away his breath. He smiled,
however, paternally upon the young man who was Mab’s cousin and Lord
Portcullis’s son. He was unwilling to believe that a young man of such a
family could make any pretext or tell any fibs about the plain duty of
paying his respects to his near relations. ‘I hope,’ he said, ‘that we
shall have other opportunities of seeing a little more of you. My
sister, Lady William, has been for a long time established here, and all
the neighbourhood would receive with pleasure any--any relation--any
connection--I mean any member of such a family as yours.’

Lord Will stared a little, as is the manner of his kind, but made no
reply. What reply could the poor young man make? It was so bewildering
to be offered an enthusiastic welcome from the society of a village
because of being related to the little gardening girl in the muddy
gloves outside, that all his self-possession, which was sufficient for
ordinary uses, was taken away. He gave a glance at Lady William, and
espied a gleam in her eye which gave him a little comfort. There was
agitation in her face, yet she saw the absurdity as well as he did.
Decidedly, under other circumstances, this widow, real or fictitious, of
his disreputable uncle would have been a woman not to be despised.

‘But I hear,’ said the Rector, ‘that you are the bearer of bad news.
Another relation, my sister tells me, has joined the majority. I had
once the pleasure, many years ago, of meeting Lord John--before there
was any connection between the families. And he is gone! Well, we must
all follow--we have here no abiding city. It is almost fortunate for Mab
that, not having known her uncle, the shock of his loss will affect her
less than it would otherwise have done.’

‘My dear James,’ said Lady William, ‘Lord Will will excuse you from all
condolence, I am sure. There can be no shock to Mab, who has scarcely
heard her uncle’s name: and to the other members of the family the shock
is also softened by, I believe, the joys of inheritance. For he has not
carried his money with him, which is always a good thing.’

‘I did not think to hear, Emily, any such cynical speech from you.’

‘But it is true,’ said Leo Swinford, ‘and my friend has come for the
reason of communicating this intelligence, _n’est-ce pas_, Will?--which
Lady William did not understand, I am sure, yesterday. Lord John has
died without any will: his fortune, which is all personal, is therefore
divided--is not that so?--between the nearest relations: therefore, Miss
Mab, on account of her father, will become----’

‘Bless me!’ said the Rector. He had seated himself in order to do
justice to the new acquaintance who was at the same time a connection,
but now he sprang to his feet. ‘Bless me!’ he said, ‘an heiress! I must
congratulate Mab. Emily, my dear----’

‘An heiress is a big word,’ said Lord Will, who had sucked his cane with
anything but a countenance of delight while Leo was speaking. ‘There’s
money,’ said the young man, ‘but it would be a pity to make the mistake
of thinking it’s a big fortune. I told you,’ he said, turning to Lady
William, ‘last night. I said there was no will.’

Lady William had grown very pale. ‘I did not understand,’ she said
faintly. ‘I was not aware--and that my Mab would come in----’ The news
had rather a painful than exhilarating effect upon her. She gave her
brother an anxious look, then turned to the young man whose explanations
were so disjointed. ‘It was kind, very kind,’ she said, with a troublous
smile, ‘to come and hunt us up--strangers to you--to tell us this.’

‘Oh! as for that----’ said Lord Will.

‘You have no idea, dear lady,’ said Leo, ‘how disinterested, how
high-minded are the golden youth in England. They will go any distance
to make such an announcement, never thinking that what is given to
another diminishes their own share.’

‘Shut up, Swinford,’ growled Lord Will over his cane.

‘I hope,’ said the Rector, smiling, ‘that Mr. Swinford does not think
this is any information to us, Emily? I hope I know what the instinct of
an English gentleman is. To a lady in my sister’s position, living out
of the world, who might never have heard even of the death, let alone
the inheritance, that feeling is the best protection--as I hope we both
know.’

‘Oh, sh----,’ murmured Lord Will. He could not say ‘shut up’ to the
Rector, but a more crestfallen and abashed young man did not exist. He
sat with the head of his cane to his lips, but evidently deriving no
consolation from it, when Mab, who had taken off her gardening apron and
washed her hands, came in. Mab had her curiosities like other girls. She
wanted to know what they were all talking of, and what was being done in
the room where there were so many interesting people met together. She
was by no means sure that it was not her own fate that was being
decided. After all that had been said about her father’s family, the
sudden appearance of her cousin was too curiously well-timed to be a
mere accident, and she could not help fearing that while she was busy
over her carnations they might be settling the course of her future
life. Mab had no idea that this should be done without her own
concurrence, or the utterance of her opinion, and accordingly, after
turning it over in her mind for a few minutes, she left her flowers and
hurried upstairs to make herself presentable. Such a conjunction as that
of her uncle, so rare a visitor, her new unknown cousin, and Leo
Swinford, her mother’s counsellor, could not, she thought, have happened
for nothing. But when Mab went into the room the first thing she saw was
Lord Will--in whom she took a natural interest as resembling herself,
and as being a relation, and a new-comer--seated in the middle of the
group with a depressed and sullen countenance, his eyes cast down, and
his lips resting upon the head of his cane.

‘Mother,’ said Mab, ‘what have you been doing to Lord Will?’

No one had thought of Mab’s appearance at this particular crisis of
fate, and the mere sight of her as she opened the door sent a little
thrill through the party, who were all aware of troublous circumstances
involving Mab, of which she herself was entirely unconscious, and of
prospects utterly strange to her, which were opening before her feet.
They all turned to look at her as she stood there with the fresh morning
air about her, not beautiful, certainly, but honest and fresh as the
morning, and so free from all embarrassment, so unaware either of
troubles or hopes which could affect her beyond the wholesome round of
every day, that even the Rector, the most ignorant of the party, felt
something like a conspirator. Mab came forward quite unconscious of
breaking into the middle of a strained situation. ‘What,’ she repeated,
‘have you been doing to Lord Will? Has he done anything wrong that you
are all round about him, sitting on him like this? I’m glad I’ve come to
see fair play.’

‘My dear,’ said the Rector, who was the only one who could speak, ‘you
are quite mistaken. Your cousin is receiving on the contrary all our
thanks for bringing some news which will be of the greatest importance
to you, I hope, and will make your future more suitable, my child, to
your rank.’

‘Oh, I thought that was how it must be!’ cried Mab, in a tone of
disgust. ‘Rank! I have no rank; and if it is this idea of recommending
me to Lady Portcullis, and getting her to take me to Court and all that,
which has brought Lord Will here---- Mother, let me speak; I am not a
little child. I want to judge for myself. I don’t wish it, you must all
know. I care not the least in the world for going to Court. I am quite
happy as I am--a country girl. Lord Will is very kind if he came about
that. I shall always remember it of him, that he is the only one of my
father’s family that has been kind; though why you should sit upon him
for it--for you were all sitting upon him--I’m sure I don’t know.’

‘I think I’d better go,’ said Lord Will, rising from his chair. ‘It’s
true they have been sitting upon me, though what for I can’t tell--any
more than I can tell why this’--he paused a little with the impulse to
say little girl, but thought better of it--‘this young lady should be
grateful to me; for I have done neither good nor harm that I know of.
But now I think I’d better go.’

‘Have I said anything wrong? Is it I that have broken up the talk?’
cried Mab in consternation, coming to her mother’s side.

‘Well,’ said the Rector cheerfully, ‘perhaps we can scarcely go on with
a business matter just now; but if Lord William Pakenham will do me the
pleasure to come to the Rectory, which is close by----’

‘I’m not a business man,’ said Lord Will. ‘Swinford, you brought me into
it, can’t you get me out of it?--and be hanged to you,’ he said in an
undertone.

‘I am afraid you have broken up the consultation, Mab: but perhaps it is
as well.’ Lady William held out her hand to the young man, who stood
dangling his cane, and eager to get away. ‘I think we must have
something to thank you for,’ she said, with a smile. ‘Of course, a piece
of business is not settled by a friendly visit. I shall hear, no doubt,
from the lawyers about what you have told me, or my brother will
communicate with them for me. Thank you for the information, and for
bringing it yourself. Good-bye.’

He had been standing ready to tell her, as he took his leave, with a
tone that might convey some of the suspicions that were in his mind,
that the lawyers would communicate with her further. But in taking the
words out of his mouth, Lady William took all the courage out of his
mind. He stared at her for a moment with those heavy blue eyes, which
she did not now think were so like Mab’s, and touched the hand she held
out with a cold momentary touch, as if he were afraid it might sting
him. Mab stood by looking on with an astonishment which slowly grew into
consternation, and which burst forth as her cousin made her a stiff and
slight bow.

‘What is the matter?’ she said, following him out. ‘Are you not my
cousin after all? Why, you were very nice last night, and I was
delighted to know somebody that belonged to me on my father’s side. And
they all said we were so like each other. What has gone wrong? Are you
not my cousin after all?’

She went out after him as she spoke into the garden, where a little
while before she had greeted him so heartily, filled with astonishment
and dismay, yet with a sense of absurdity also. And the young man, who
had made so abrupt an exit, was in fact rather sore in heart, feeling
that he had not done himself any credit, and that he had been snubbed
and ‘sat upon,’ as Mab said. Her frank surprise and regret gave him a
little consolation. He turned round when they both came out into the
garden from the narrow doorway. ‘I am just the same,’ he said, still
somewhat sullenly, but melting, ‘as I was last night.’

‘But then,’ cried Mab, ‘why did you call me “this young lady”? and why
did you look at mother so, and let her hand drop as if it had been a
frog, and do like this to me?’ Mab was not a mimic, like her cousin
Florence, but the imitation she made of his stiff and angry bow was so
ludicrous that he could not but laugh--stiffly. And Mab, who did not
know what it was to be stiff, laughed out with all her heart, with a
half childish cordial crow, which sounded into the fresh air with the
most genuine tone of innocent mirth. ‘You had better shake hands with me
after that, Cousin Will,’ she said.

‘You are making peace, Miss Mab,’ said Leo Swinford, who had followed
them out.

‘No, I am not making peace, for we never made war,’ said Mab, who had
given her cousin a warm grasp of the hand. And she stood at the gate
looking after them with some regret. For Lord Will was young, and they
were of the same blood, and he was a great novelty, something far more
new than even Leo Swinford. She was unfeignedly sorry that he was going
away. And she could not understand why, nor how it was that the young
man who was so cordial yesterday should be so cold again now.

Lady William stood as she had done when young Pakenham dropped her hand
until Leo Swinford, following his friend, had closed the door of the
little drawing-room. I think she heard through the open window all that
Mab said--at all events, the laugh so full of merriment and spontaneity
bursting out into the pleasant air. Then she suddenly sank into the
chair, and covering her face with her hands fell into a sudden burst of
silent weeping. There was no sound, but her shoulder heaved with the
effort to control and subdue the sudden emotion. Mr. Plowden had been
standing, too, perplexed and disappointed by the stranger’s sudden
withdrawal, but a little consoled by the laugh which seemed to prove
that there was at all events a good understanding between Mab and her
cousin. He did not perceive for a moment the effect upon his sister, and
it was only after the young man had gone out of the garden gate, that,
turning to speak to her, he perceived the attitude of abandonment, the
restrained but almost irrestrainable passion by which she had been
seized. He was not so much afraid of seeing women cry as men less
experienced are. But Emily had never been of the weeping kind, and the
Rector was startled and touched by the sight of the paroxysm with which
she was struggling, to keep it down.

‘Emily,’ he cried, ‘Emily, my dear, what is it? You’re not breaking
down?’

‘James,’ she cried, but very low, suddenly lifting to him a face full of
anguish and exceedingly pale, ‘if we should not be able to prove it; if
we can’t get the evidence! Oh James, my Mab, my child!’

‘Why shouldn’t we be able to prove it?’ he said, with half-angry calm.
‘Where is the difficulty of proving it? and what has that to do with it?
Why, Emily, I never knew your good sense fail you before.’

‘My good sense!’ she said, with a miserable smile.

‘To be sure! Why, what is there to cry about? Such an unexpected
windfall to Mab--a fortune, no doubt, though he did not tell us how
much. You cut the young man short, Emily. I can’t see why. He seemed a
very civil young man.’

Lady William raised herself up and dried her wet eyes.

‘You are quite right,’ she said, ‘it is my common sense that is failing
me, James.’

‘Failed you for a moment,’ he said, indulgently patting her on the
shoulder. For to be a man with a wife and daughters of his own he was
very fond of his sister; and he was also agreeably excited by the sight
of the second Lord William, actually one of the Portcullis family,
Mab’s own cousin, about whom the ladies of the Rectory, when they heard,
would be so deeply excited. Mr. Plowden was anxious to convey that
wonderful intelligence to them as quickly as was possible. ‘Well, my
dear Emily,’ he said, ‘I must go. I have no doubt you’ve been a good
deal excited this morning, and I should advise you to lie down and rest
a little. And to-morrow--well, no, perhaps not to-morrow, for now I
remember, I have some churchings and various other things to attend to,
but the very first free day I have----’

She put her hands together beseechingly. ‘Oh, go at once--don’t keep me
in this suspense.’

‘My dear girl! you are frightening yourself in the most absurd way.
After to-morrow, the very earliest minute that I can get away.’

Lady William did not lie down and rest when her brother left her, but
she went upstairs and took refuge in her own room, very thankful that
Mab had returned to her gardening. That Mab was an heiress and that ‘the
family’ were seeking her acquaintance was the news Mr. Plowden longed to
tell. But Mab’s mother was filled with another thought. If it could be
that the search should fail! She believed more in failure than success
with her experience. If it should fail, if there should fall upon Mab
any cloud, any shadow of possible shame! She wrung her hands till they
hurt her, but her heart was wrung more sorely still. It was a view she
had not thought of before. Shame for herself would be bad enough. But
for Mab! And even the possibility that Mab should turn astonished eyes
upon her, should ask even with those eyes alone a question--should have
such a thought suggested even for a moment, to her mind! Lady William
had borne many miseries in her not yet very long life, but in that there
would be the crown of all.




XXXIII


It will be recollected that Mr. Osborne, the curate, ended very
suddenly, and with no small amount of heat and displeasure, that walk
with Florence Plowden which had so nearly decided the whole colour of
his life. He had fallen in love (as people say--and, indeed, it is as
good a phrase as any, for it is often by no means a voluntary action)
with the Rector’s daughter in spite of himself. It was so perfectly
_banal_ and commonplace a thing to do; the sort of thing looked for by
everybody; so suitable, that bugbear of youth; so exactly what
might--except by his own ambitious relations, who thought him worthy of
a loftier fate--have been expected, that the young man had resisted
almost fiercely the tide of being which led him to that commonplace
conclusion. But yet, when there is fate in it, what is the use of
struggling? Florence Plowden was, Mr. Osborne thought, the prettiest,
the most delightful and attractive of all the girls in Watcham--more
than that, of all the girls he had ever seen. I do not know that this
idea was justified by universal consent. Many people gave the palm in
respect to good looks to Emmy, and, indeed, neither of them was at all
up to the level of many of the girls from London who came down during
the boating season, or of Dora Wade, for example, who was the belle of
the county. However, the fact that this opinion was by no means
universal did not affect the certainty of the curate, who had a very
high idea of his own judgment, and, in fact, was better pleased that it
should not chime in with other people’s, which was the last thing in the
world he wished to do. He was a young man who was very well connected,
and to lift his eyes even to Dora Wade would scarcely have been beyond
his pretensions. But the mere fact that she was the acknowledged beauty
was enough to make that pursuit unlikely to Edward Osborne. The
_banalité_ of falling in love with his Rector’s daughter was bad enough,
but it would have been nothing in comparison with the downright
vulgarity of falling in love with the beauty who had, as it were,
signposts put up all round her to indicate her position as the Queen of
Hearts. Edward Osborne would have died rather than follow these
indications. They convinced him instead that she was not fair at all,
but a most matter-of-fact and commonplace Blowsibella, whose radiant
complexion was of the mere dairymaid order, and meant nothing but high
health and good digestion--good enough things in their way, but
altogether devoid of romance, and of any attraction which could dominate
a highly trained and fastidious spirit like himself. At first, when he
came to Watcham, he would have also said that the attributes of a
Rector’s daughter, the delightful good young woman of the parish,
acquainted with all the poor people and their wants, and occupied with
clothing clubs, penny banks, sewing classes, and mothers’ meetings, were
also the very last things that would attract a young philanthropist of
the higher order like himself, who proposed to get at the people in a
loftier way, to convince them by reason and argument of their foolish
ways of living, and to inaugurate some large movement among them which
would have little to do with the petty methods of feminine supervision.
Florence Plowden, by universal consent, was made to be a clergyman’s
wife, which was almost as strong an argument against her as if she had
been an acknowledged beauty. But, as a matter of fact, there is no rule
which tells in those mysterious ways of mutual attraction which draw the
most unlikely or, which is worse, the most likely people together. And
it had grown a certainty with Mr. Osborne that he had never met any one
like Florence before her attention had been directed to him at all, and
before even it had occurred to himself as possible that he could ever
get over the dreadful obstacle of all that there was in her favour, and
think of her as in possible relationship to himself. He represented it
to himself as a thing that could affect him in no possible way, but yet
a certain thing--that Florence Plowden was as a swan among the ducklings
about her, that there was no one at all equal to her far and near, and
that it was one of the mysteries of humanity how such a creature could
spring and blossom from such a root, and among such surroundings. But I
will not attempt to follow the matter from that first germ--obstinately
held against all the force of the general idea that Florence was a nice
girl and a very good girl (praises both calculated to drive an idealist
mad), but nothing very particular--just like other girls, in fact, and a
little like her mother. ‘When she is Mrs. Plowden’s age, Florence,
indeed, will, I think, be very much like her mother,’ the General had
once said, without the slightest idea that the curate, who was an
athletic young person, would have liked to knock him down for saying it.
And why shouldn’t Florence Plowden resemble her mother? But it was
blasphemy to Mr. Osborne’s ears.

I will not, I repeat, attempt to follow all that happened from that
first impression to the moment when he had made up his mind that without
the companionship of Florence life would be, if not unworthy living, yet
so diminished in everything that was fair and sweet that all its glory
and hope would be over. Many notions about life had been in this young
man’s head. He had once thought that there was no institution in the
world so great as that of a celibate clergy, and that it would be his
highest duty to tread that austere and lofty path. I don’t know whether
Florence could be justly chargeable with the destruction of that ideal.
He had come to see at last that it could not be made a general rule of,
or universally enforced, before he arrived at the sudden conviction that
he was not himself adapted for that form of self-abnegation. I am
obliged to confess that all the different steps in Mr. Osborne’s
progress had been made suddenly, as with a bound, surprising himself as
much as any one else. And perhaps he had no certain idea upon that
morning when he found himself engaged in a discussion with his fast
friend, Miss Grey, and opposed by the object of his affections--that
these affections were to burst all the restraints with which he had
bound them, and pour themselves forth in a burst of enthusiasm at
Florry’s feet. And then, to think that when the flood could scarcely be
restrained--when despite her opposition, despite all her naughty ways,
he was about to tell her that there was nobody like her in the world (a
statement which would have been as astounding and incredible to Florry
as any miracle)--that she should have stopped him, by contradicting all
his theories, by finding fault with what he felt to be, in its way, a
small martyrdom, and by suggesting something quite different--she a
girl, a nobody--to him, a priest and consecrated person set apart to
instruct and lead mankind, as the better way!

Edward Osborne would not pause to refute, to reprove, to pour down the
thunders of his wrath upon the girl whom in another moment he would have
asked to be his wife. He did what was the only thing possible in the
circumstances, turned and left her, flinging her image and her counsel
behind him in the fury of his indignation. He walked from that spot to
his lodgings, which was about a mile off, in three minutes or
thereabouts, his long steps skimming over the soil, his mind in a
turmoil scarcely to be described, boiling with anger, with indignation,
with resentment against this interference with his superior rights of
manhood and of priesthood, as well as with the strong revulsion of
thoughts thrown back upon himself and disappointed feeling. It would
scarcely be too much to say that for the moment he would have liked
something dreadful to happen to Florence, and if there had been a
thunderbolt handy, which happily is not a missile within ready reach, he
would probably have blackened the face of the whole country in order to
dumb and to frighten (for I don’t think he would have gone so far as to
blind) the girl he loved. When he got home he shut himself into his
sitting-room, giving a stern order that no one was to be admitted, and
betook himself to the writing of a sermon, which seemed the best way to
_sfogarsi_, as the Italians say, to blow off the pernicious excitement
which made his veins throb and his heart beat. But he soon threw that
aside, finding it quite inadequate to the occasion, and wrote a letter
to the newspapers, which was so fierce that it frightened the editor to
whom it was addressed. I need scarcely say that it was on the subject of
temperance.

After the vehemence of the first shock was over, which, however, took
some time, Mr. Osborne made a distinct but insufficient effort to cure
himself altogether of Florence. He never entered the Rectory, contriving
to settle any question he might have with the Rector either when they
met in church or by letter. He refused all invitations lest perhaps she
might be there--for where, indeed, could a man go in the parish, to
dinner or tea or evening solemnity, without the chance of encountering
the family of the Rector? Of course Mr. Osborne was unaware that for a
somewhat similar reason Florence refused the same invitations at this
crisis, and, indeed, awakened the curiosity of her mother and Emmy--to
whom, even to Emmy, she had said nothing--by her disinclination to go
‘out.’ ‘I’d rather stay and keep Jim company,’ she was forced to say on
several occasions--though, alas! with very little hope that the
temptation of her company would have much effect in keeping Jim indoors.
It did, however, once or twice, and that was both reward and
justification.

But it is not to be supposed that this curious incident passed over the
head of the Rev. Edward Osborne without a certain effect. His heart
began to long after Florry long before the smart of the wound she had
given him was healed. And what she had said rankled in his mind even
before that. Was there any truth in what she had said? Was it, perhaps,
a better way, to win a young man who was his equal--_i.e._, whom no
missionary effort was likely to be brought to bear upon, a man quite
beyond the blandishments of district visitors, Bible readers, temperance
lecturers, or even, in a general way, of the curate--to the paths of
virtue, than to persuade an old lady to relinquish her poor little glass
of beer by the sacrifice of his own very moderate glass of wine? The
latter sacrifice had been mentioned in one or two papers, and held up as
an example to other men. He had been applauded, but with reproof which
was another kind of praise, by his own people and others. ‘Remember,’
his mother had written, ‘that Timothy was bidden by St. Paul to take a
little wine for his stomach’s sake: and I am sure you are not such a
giant of strength that you can afford to do without the little you take:
though I quite appreciate the sacrifices you think it your duty to make,
my dear boy.’ Sacrifice! It was no sacrifice. Osborne did not care in
the least for the beer, which he took as a matter of habit, or the wine
which was served to him at other people’s tables when he dined out. He
rather liked, if truth must be told, to gently, tacitly snub his hosts
by taking nothing. And it seemed to him, on the whole, an achievement
which partook of the nature of the sublime to get old Mrs. Lloyd to give
up her beer--not that it did her a great deal of harm, poor soul! But if
she took none herself she would be strengthened to refuse it to her
husband, and it would be an example to her sons and to the rest of the
world--that small, dingy unenlightened world which it was so difficult
to teach, which had so little to brighten or cheer it, and which pays so
dearly for its indulgences in that sordid, dreadful way.

But Jim Plowden! that was a very different thing from Mrs. Lloyd. I do
not for a moment believe that Mr. Osborne would have hesitated to take
the pledge for and with Jim: but that was not at all what Florence had
suggested. She had suggested that he should admit him to his society,
take him for a companion, induce him to share in his pursuits--that last
above all. She did not know, of course, that among the drawbacks to
herself, of all of which Mr. Osborne was so conscious, her brother and
her family took the first place. He would need to be friendly, or even
more than friendly, with all the Plowdens. Nothing but the fact that
Florence was unique in the world, that there was none like her, none,
could make up for that. And now she demanded of him that he should take
her brother into his bosom, so to speak, not as a consequence of being
accepted by her, but as a matter of duty in his capacity as a priest, as
a better way than that of taking the pledge along with old Mrs. Lloyd.
That lout! he repeated to himself: that fellow to whom had been given
all the same advantages as other people, even as Mr. Edward Osborne, and
who had thrown, or was throwing, them away: the brother, who frequented
the ‘Blue Boar,’ who was the friend of the schoolmistress, who shunned
all the ordinary assemblages of his kind; and yet it was suggested to
him that to take up this rowdy undergraduate, sent down from Oxford,
would be the better way!

Is it to be wondered at if Mr. Osborne was angry?--if, whenever it came
into his head, for as long a time as a fortnight after, he flung down
whatever he was doing and turned aside to something else that would be
more exciting, to forget the exasperations to which he had been exposed?
But this did not effectually chase the suggestion, it appeared, out of
his mind. It recurred to him at times when he could not chase it away;
in the middle of the night, for instance, when he could not jump out of
bed and write a letter to a temperance newspaper, and when it bored in
quietly to his brain, like some fine, delicate instrument used by a
cunning, persistent hand. It was not the hand of Florence, it was that
of some demon, or some angel, or his own.

Had he, after all, perhaps as much responsibility for Jim Plowden as for
Mrs. Lloyd? Was Jim Plowden, perhaps, in his youth, and with certain
faculties that might be of use in the world, of as much, nay, even of
more importance, than the old washer-woman? Strange questions for a
young idealist, a young man deeply compassionate of the poor, deeply
indignant as concerns those who throw their own advantages, their own
education, and other good gifts away.

These wonderful convolutions of thought--returns upon itself of the
disturbed mind, bubblings up of a suggestion not to be got rid of,
however trampled upon and thrown aside--brought Osborne to the day on
which the Rector had gone up to town, and Jim was left free of that
controlling influence of his father’s presence which kept him within
certain limits. But the curate knew nothing of this incident of the day;
indeed, save in so far as concerned the church and ‘duty’ he had known
nothing of the movements of his chief since the day when Florence
stopped the words on his lips which might have made him a son of her
father’s house.

Mr. Plowden went up to town by a morning train, and it was Jim’s duty,
of course, to go to his Sophocles, however unwillingly, as on other
days. He was always unwilling, but his father being present, went
grumbling to his work, as a tired horse goes into the shafts, knowing
there is nothing else to be done. The morning, however, was bright, and
when he got into the little room which was called his study--vain
title!--the sunshine came in and called him, almost as if it had been a
comrade at his door. The window was open, and the air could not have
been more fresh and sweet (as far as we can tell) had it blown out of
heaven. The breath of the first lilacs was upon it, and other celestial
things of spring. The leaves waved above in all the first new greenness
of spring leaves. The book lay open on a table before the window. It was
not green nor bright, nor did it smell of the spring. A great lexicon
was open beside it, and other books with prodigious notes to them, and
notebooks lying ready to the hand. He was expected to construe into such
halting English as he could manage that great page, and search into its
difficulties by the help of the notes of a dreadful German worker (who
no doubt liked that sort of thing), and some English ones. Unfortunate
Jim--and the sunshine outside! and the soft air blowing in through the
window! and the green leaves fluttering! and the silvery river flowing!
And the Rector out of reach in London, after some private business of
his own.

He made a little fight, be it said to his credit; but what virtue
faintly said in favour of the Sophocles was boldly contradicted by
something else, not virtue, and yet not vice either, which asked, ‘What
good is there in Sophocles? I am not to go back to Oxford; I am to go to
a ranche in America, or else I am to go to a merchant’s office in town.
What good will Greek, or all the finest poetry in the world, do me
there? If I were learning bookkeeping by double entry (whatever that may
be), it might do me some good--or something about cows; but Sophocles!’
One note of admiration was not half enough to express Jim’s indignant
sense of a folly which could not be defended from any point of view.
Sophocles! Slaughter, the butcher, who had greasy books to keep, could
have shown him a mystery more worth knowing, if he went to an office;
and the vet., with all his experience of animals, was a professor worth
(to Jim if he went to a ranche) more than Sophocles, Eschylus, and the
rest, with the German notes and the English dons all thrown into one.
Fancy construing a hard chorus when you should be out after the cows!
Fancy spending your time over a disputed passage when you have a batch
of letters to write for the mail--much good Sophocles would do a man in
either of these circumstances! And to fancy that father, who had such
sense in an ordinary way (the day was so bright that Jim felt quite just
and amiable even towards his father), should be so bigoted, so
ridiculous in this!

It may be imagined that after such a self-argument, the sunshine,
calling him exactly as one of his comrades used to do, drumming on his
window, soon had the best of it. Jim--poor Jim--learned in clandestine
movements by the very fact of the anxiety of all about him, listened a
little to make sure that the coast was clear. He heard his mother go
upstairs, and the voices of the girls in a room they had for their work
at the back of the house. All the exits of the house were therefore open
to him--not a jealous eye about, not an anxious ear. He strolled out
whistling softly, with his hands in his pockets--whistling, thereby
convincing himself that he was afraid of nobody; that there was nothing
clandestine, or stealthy, or wrong in the whole proceeding, but only
that natural inclination towards the fresh air which everybody feels on
such a day. When he had got beyond the bounds of the Rectory, and was
quite free and at his ease on the public road, with nobody to make him
afraid, and Sophocles as much out of the question as if he had never
existed, Jim strolled on for a little, enjoying the air, and then paused
to think what he should do. That, after all, was not so easy a question
to decide. Everybody about was busy with something. No possibility of
dropping in upon Mrs. Brown at this hour. There was the river, to be
sure: but to go and get a boat, and then to toil up-stream by himself,
which either coming or going he would have been obliged to do, seemed
too much trouble on this sweet, indolent morning. It occurred to him
that if he dropped in at the ‘Blue Boar’ to see the papers he might very
probably meet the vet., and acquire from him some useful information; or
something else might turn up; so he turned his steps that way with a
delightful sense of freedom. There was nobody about, and he was
responsible to nobody. For this once he would take his own way.

But Jim met Mr. Osborne before he reached the ‘Blue Boar.’




XXXIV


Jim was not in any way afraid of Osborne, the curate--that is, he was
not afraid of being stopped by him, or interrupted in any way in his
career. He could not, indeed, go into the ‘Blue Boar’ while the curate
was about; that would be giving an occasion to the adversary to
blaspheme. But Jim did not dislike Osborne. He was quite willing to walk
along with him so long as their ways ran together, turning back when the
curate turned the first corner. It would always be something to do; and
whether he arrived at that undesirable destination half an hour earlier
or later was of importance to nobody. He did not notice that the
curate’s salutation was anything more than usual, or that he came up to
him with a distinct purpose, instead of the usual cool nod with which
the two young men passed each other by on ordinary occasions.

‘Oh, Plowden,’ Mr. Osborne said, ‘have you got work over early, or are
you taking holiday?’

Few people in Watcham took Jim’s work seriously. Most of them, having
the advantage over him of having known him all his life, were disposed
to be a little admonitory, and shook their heads when they met him out.
‘No work to-day, Jim?’ the General would say: and most people shared the
same feeling. But Osborne, probably because he also was young, never
took a mean advantage. He spoke as if it were quite natural that Jim
should have a holiday now and then.

‘Well, yes,’ said Jim, moved to confidence, and to take the matter
easily, too. ‘The Rector has gone to town, and I have half a day to
myself. If I had been wise no doubt I should have taken it in the
afternoon,’ he added, with ingratiating frankness; ‘but then, who knows,
it may rain this afternoon, and it’s too fine this morning to work.’

‘Then you’d better come with me,’ said Osborne quickly. ‘I’m going to
walk into Winwick to see if I can pick up some musicians for my
entertainment. There never was a finer morning for a walk. It is not too
hot, and what with the shower this morning there will be no dust. Will
you come? We can look in upon Ormerod for a bit of bread and cheese if
we’re kept late for lunch.’

Jim hesitated a moment, but all the same there mounted up into his cheek
a pleasant colour and into his heart a certain warmth of gratification.
He had always entertained a certain admiration for Osborne, a fellow who
had played for the University! On the other hand, it was agreeable to
lounge into the ‘Blue Boar,’ where everybody was so very civil to him,
and where he anticipated meeting the vet. Thus it was with a mixture of
pleasure and reluctance that he received the unlooked-for invitation. To
look in upon Ormerod, who was another parson in Winwick, was not without
its temptations too, for that gentleman was a fine cricketer, known over
all the county. Jim was not often led into such society--his usual
cronies admired Mr. Ormerod at a distance, talking big of having seen
him do this and that feat. A fear of being _de trop_, of being looked
down upon by these men, of having to act the part of an undesired third,
checked, however, his pleasure in that thought. Poor Jim was proud,
though he had not very much reason for it, and his pride had received
some severe blows, and was always on the watch for more. For a moment
its whisper that he would be nobody between these two, and that he was
always somebody at the ‘Blue Boar,’ had almost turned him back. But then
‘Come along,’ said Osborne, ‘come along, don’t let us lose the best of
the day!’

If Jim had known that Florry was at the bottom of it all--Florry, only a
girl, one of the home police who kept that insufferable watch upon him,
his sister! But, fortunately, no such idea could by any chance have
crossed his mind. Florry! what could she have had to do with it? And he
was moved by the cheerful call of the curate, who was not in general a
very cheerful man, and who rather preferred in an ordinary way to tramp
through the slush and cold than to take advantage of a beautiful morning
for a walk. He said, ‘I suppose you will not be very late,’ hesitating
at the corner.

‘Late! You know how far it is to Winwick,’ said Mr. Osborne, ‘a matter
of three miles--not much that to you and me.’

‘No, it’s not much,’ said Jim. ‘I think I’ll risk it,’ he added, when
the turn was actually taken, and the Winwick Road stretched before them.
‘I’m on an easy bit to-day. I’ll have time to get it all up when we get
back.’

‘A good walk always clears a man’s head,’ said Osborne; and he resumed
after a pause, ‘What are you reading now?’

‘Oh, it’s Sophocles. Seven against Thebes, don’t you know, with all
those hard choruses.’

‘Oh, for Greats?’

‘I wish I only knew what it was for,’ cried Jim. ‘You know I haven’t
been lucky, Osborne. I got into a scrape, don’t you know. I suppose
everybody knows: though we think at the Rectory that if we make-believe
strong enough nobody need know.’

‘A great many men get into scrapes,’ said the curate oracularly.

‘Don’t they, now?’ cried Jim, with eagerness; ‘that’s what my people
won’t see.’

‘The only thing is to get out of them as fast as possible,’ added Mr.
Osborne.

‘Ah,’ said Jim, a little crestfallen. He went on after a pause: ‘If you
knew what your governor meant, don’t you know. He wants me to read, and
yet he says I’m to go out to a ranche or into an office in the city. Why
doesn’t he make up his mind? And what good will Greek do me on a ranche?
Morris the vet. could teach me what would be more use for that than all
the Sophocles in the world.’

‘But then you see,’ said the curate, ‘Morris is not just the kind of
tutor for a gentleman.’

‘Oh,’ said Jim again. His pride was of the kind that could not bear to
desert his friends, however undesirable. ‘He’s a decent fellow enough.’

‘In his own sphere--I suppose so,’ said Osborne; ‘and clever, they tell
me, in his way; but not our kind.’ He added: ‘I believe, from what I’ve
heard, if you are going to a ranche, the best way of learning is
just--to go.’

‘If any one he minds would only tell my father that,’ said Jim,
gratified by the pronoun, and that Osborne had said ‘our’ instead of
‘your.’ He was aware that Osborne’s ‘kind’ was different from his own,
and that his kind would not have been, perhaps, very desirable for one
of the curate’s cloth. Thank God, there was no question of Jim going
into the Church, though it had been his mother’s desire. ‘That’s the
chief thing I complain of,’ he said; ‘let them tell me straight out what
I’m to do. Whether it’s one thing or the other I don’t mind. If it’s to
be Oxford over again, well, then the Greek’s good for something; but if
it’s the ranche----’

‘That is reasonable,’ said the curate, ‘and if you put it to the Rector
like that, surely----’

‘Poor father!’ said Jim, moved to unusual sympathy, ‘I don’t believe he
knows himself. First he thinks one thing and then he thinks another. And
chiefly, I suppose, he thinks that I am not good for very much, any
way.’

‘That’s an idea that you must get him out of, Plowden.’

‘It’s easy to say so, but how am I to do it? When people lose their
confidence in you----’ said Jim. And then he hesitated and drew back.
‘What did you say you were going to Winwick for?’ he added hastily.
‘Musicians for your--what did you say?’

‘Musicians for my entertainment--to amuse my temperance people. Your
sisters are going to sing: and I hear you recite, Plowden.’

‘No, I don’t--not good enough for you. I used sometimes to do things at
penny readings; but that was before I went to Oxford,’ said Jim, with a
sudden flush, which seemed to envelop him from head to foot--a flush
half of unexpected pleasure, half of overwhelming shame.

‘Well,’ said the curate, ‘you had better begin again: unless you
disapprove of my temperance meetings, like’--he paused a little and said
fiercely--‘your sister.’

‘My sister!’ cried Jim with amazement; and then he laughed. ‘I don’t
suppose you mind very much. Which was it? Emmy? She’s dreadfully serious
about everything that God has given us being meant for use. I think that
myself, you know,’ he said.

‘But perhaps you haven’t seen, as I have, the terrible misery it has
brought,’ said the curate, watching secretly with great interest to see
what the result would be.

Now Jim knew a great deal about himself, more than anybody else knew:
but he did not accuse himself in this respect. He had not realised the
danger here. In other ways he was aware that there was danger; but in
this, for himself, no.

‘I’m not such a novice as you think,’ he said. ‘I’ve known fellows at
Oxford--Good God! if one was to think of it, it’s enough to make your
brain go round--nice fellows, men that there was no harm in, and yet----
’

Jim walked on very soberly for a few minutes, thinking of tragic scenes
he had seen. Even though he was so young, Heaven help him, he had seen
tragic scenes. He had beheld with his own eyes the tribute of youth,
which the infernal powers demand and receive wherever youth abounds. He
knew it well enough. But for himself there was no question of that; for
himself there was only a little escape from paternal coercion--a place
to lounge in when he had nothing to do, a set of people obsequious,
admiring him whenever he opened his mouth. Danger in the ‘Blue Boar!’ He
could have laughed at the thought; and so had the nice fellows by whose
example he was not warned. He did not say anything at all for a few
minutes, being deeply moved by things he remembered, though not by any
trouble for himself.

‘Plowden,’ said the curate, ‘that’s one thing I wanted to speak to you
about. I don’t know how you feel, but to think upon those men makes me
so sick at heart that I don’t know what to do. They’re so often nice
fellows: and how are we to get hold of them? How are we to stop them?
You’re freshly out of it, you’re of the present generation. What is a
man that wants to stop them to do?’

Jim gave him a frightened half-glance, then lowered his eyes. ‘Good
Heavens,’ he said, ‘what a question to ask! How am I to know?’

‘How is one to get at them? How is one to get hold of them?’ said the
curate. ‘There’s always some way of getting at the young fellows in the
slums. You may not do any good, but yet you can say out what you’ve got
to say. There’s the river men, the boatmen, and all those. I don’t say
that usually they pay a bit of attention, but now and then there’s a
chance of getting hold of them and speaking one’s mind. They can’t help
listening to you, and they know what you say is true. But the gentlemen
are different. You can’t get at them, and they wouldn’t believe it if
you did; they don’t know the result. They think they can stop when they
please, and there will always be some one who will stick to them. How
are we to get hold of them, Plowden?--our own very brothers, men of our
own kind. They’re all our brothers, every one, to be sure; but think,
Plowden, those fellows at Oxford, in London, everywhere. God help us!
all the harm isn’t in the slums. There must be some way of getting at
them too!’

Jim Plowden looked at the curate with an interest he had never felt
before. He was moved by this earnestness, almost passion, that was in
him. ‘The poor beggar must have a brother that’s gone to the bad,’ he
said to himself. That it should be he himself about whom the curate was
concerned, or that there was any reason why anybody should be so
concerned for him, never entered into Jim’s head.

‘I see what you mean,’ he said, ‘but I couldn’t answer your question if
you were to give me a fortune for it. They know fast enough. They see
other men going to the dogs every day. I suppose that ought to be better
than sermons or any other kind of missionary work, or what a parson
could do. I’m sure I can’t tell you, or how you’re to get hold of them.
It won’t be with any teetotal stuff, if I must say what I think.’

A shade of anger crossed the curate’s face, and he looked at Jim with a
wondering gaze, which awoke that young man’s surprise in return. ‘What
do you look at me like that for?’ he said, half irritated in his turn.

‘Like what? I beg your pardon. I didn’t mean anything--particular. I
suppose I thought I saw the others, the men I want to get hold of,
through you, or behind you,’ he said. This was not a speech which was
very agreeable to Jim, who did not see any reason why he should be
chosen as a type of the young man of whom the curate wanted to get hold.
But Mr. Osborne here made a diversion by another reference to Jim’s
suspended power of recitation or reading, and by entering with him into
a discussion of what would be suitable for the occasion, which
distracted Jim’s attention. Before they got to Winwick Jim had proposed
to read something--unwillingly, yet not without a little gratification
too.

When they had accomplished their business, and secured the aid of two or
three amateurs all very willing to exhibit themselves and their
accomplishments, the two young men made their way to the lodgings of Mr.
Ormerod, who was one of the curates of the place, and who produced for
them the bread and cheese demanded in the shape of a beef-steak, round
which they were all mildly merry as befitted the character of the party,
and talked cricket and music, and other matters in which Jim felt
himself quite able to take his share, and did so, to the surprise of his
host, who had heard the usual derogatory murmurs which breathe into the
air concerning every such young defaulter--and of his companion, who had
given poor Jim the credit of being a fool as well as other troublesome
things. The entertainment took solid shape in the hands of the two
curates, and poor Jim felt a certain elation in feeling himself one of
them--taking a part with those who were of ‘one’s own kind,’ as Osborne
had said. A passing reflection even glanced through his mind that it
would not have been nearly so comfortable had he been leaving the ‘Blue
Boar,’ a little heated by the refreshment which it was necessary to take
there, after an hour or two’s talk with Morris the vet., and the
landlord, even on a subject so instructive as cows. He knew exactly what
would have happened in that case. He would have been very late for
lunch, for which meal the ladies would have waited till he came in; and
his feeling that his morning had not been very profitably employed, as
well as the refreshment that had been necessary, would have made him
irritable. He would have answered his mother (who of course would have
said something brutal to him) insolently, and then there would have
followed a hush at table, no one saying anything, since all were angry,
for the sake of the servant who waited. And his sisters would have
looked as if they would like to cry, and his mother would have been red
with wrath, and as soon as the meal was over he would have strolled
off--to his study in the first place, where he would have opened his
books, and then sat down to think how hard it was upon a fellow never to
be left to himself, never to have funds for anything, to get angry words
and tearful looks whatever he did. And then, after half an hour’s
indignant musing, he would have strolled out again. Now how different
everything was, as he walked through the hilly street of Winwick,
keeping up with his companion’s long strides, fresh and good-humoured,
feeling that he had done himself credit, with Mr. Ormerod’s wholesome
beer, light upon both mind and stomach, and the three miles’ stretch of
leafy road before him. To be sure there would be a little rush at the
Rectory to meet him, a cry of ‘Jim, where have you been?’ But he was not
afraid of that cry. If there were tearful looks they would be looks of
pleasure. If his mother met him red with anxiety, she would soon be
bubbling a hundred questions full of satisfaction. ‘Walked into Winwick
with Osborne. I know I ought not to have done it, but don’t be
frightened, I’ve time to do the Sophocles before father comes back. And
we lunched with Ormerod at Winwick, who gave us a capital beef-steak.’
What a secret thrill of pleasure would run through the faded
drawing-room at this explanation! There was no virtue in having gone off
to Winwick instead of doing his work. To tell the truth, it was not a
whit more virtuous than strolling into the ‘Blue Boar.’ But oh, the
difference! the difference! The difference to himself, walking home with
a calm conscience and a light heart! And the difference to them, whose
trembling would all at once in a moment be turned into joy, though he
did not doubt that for the moment they were unhappy enough now!

‘Come over, will you, in the evening, and try over that “Ride from
Ghent,”’ said Mr. Osborne, when they parted.

‘I will, with pleasure,’ said Jim. They parted, though neither was aware
of it, in sight of Florry, who had come out very wretched to see whether
in her perambulations about the village she could catch a glimpse of
Jim, and who came up to him a few moments after he had left the curate,
in a state of curious commotion which Jim found it very difficult to
understand.

‘Oh, Jim,’ she cried, ‘where have you been?’--the usual phrase. But then
she added, ‘Have you been somewhere with Mr. Osborne?’ in a voice that
fluttered like a bird.

‘I have been to Winwick with Osborne, and we lunched with Ormerod off an
excellent beef-steak,’ said the complacent Jim.

But Florence answered not a word. She put down her veil, which was
unnecessary, and struggled with it a little to draw it over her face,
turning away her head.




XXXV


Jim was very busy about the book-shelves that evening, taking out and
putting back various books, until, at last, his movements called forth
the observations of his anxious family. The Rector, who had come home
moody and troubled, and who had made no inquiry into Sophocles, neither
had shown the interest that was expected in Jim’s expedition to Winwick
with the curate, looked up fretfully and begged his son to have a little
respect for other people’s occupations if he had none of his own. Mr.
Plowden was doing nothing more serious than reading the evening paper,
so that the gravity of this address was a little uncalled-for; but he
was put out about something, as all the family was aware.

‘What are you looking for?’ said his mother, who had boundless patience
with Jim.

‘I want to take two or three things over to Osborne,’ said Jim, ‘to let
him choose. I’m to read something for him at his entertainment.’

‘What?’ said the Rector, looking over the top of his paper with angry
eyes.

Upon which Jim repeated his announcement a little louder and with a
slight air of defiance; or, at least, the air of a man ready to be
defiant, as--when there is nothing but virtue in his mind, a man feels
that he has a right to be.

‘His entertainment! His teetotal entertainment! Stuff and
nonsense--cramming the fellows’ heads with pride and folly, as if they
were better than their neighbours.’

‘Oh, James!’ said his wife, ‘let them be as silly as they like. What
does that matter in comparison with ruining their families by drink?’

‘They’ll ruin their families by something else,’ said the Rector; ‘if
not in one way they’ll get it out in another--politics, most likely, and
socialism, and that sort of thing. What Osborne will do is to make them
all a set of insufferable, narrow-minded prigs.’

‘Even that, James----’ began Mrs. Plowden.

‘Don’t tell me,’ said the Rector, ‘that you’ll make men Christians by
teaching them that there’s a curse on one of the gifts of God. You may
abuse any and all of the gifts of God; but to make a young ass think he
is superior to his honest father, because he abstains, forsooth, and the
old man likes his honest glass of beer!’

‘Mr. Osborne doesn’t teach them that, papa,’ said Florry from the
further corner of the room, in which, her eyes, she said, being a little
weak, she had established herself. Mr. Plowden turned upon her like a
tempest.

‘Who are you?’ he said; ‘a little chit of a girl, to tell me what
Osborne teaches them or doesn’t teach them! I should hope I am still
able to judge for myself--at least, in such a question as this.’

‘Hush, Florry!’ said her mother, with a little nod at Florence. They
were all aware that in certain conjunctures it was inexpedient to
contradict the Rector. As for Jim, he held up two books to his mother
behind backs over Mr. Plowden’s head and disappeared with them, shutting
the door softly behind him. He was too much in the habit of closing
doors softly and stealing out; but Mrs. Plowden’s mind being otherwise
occupied, she did not think of this to-night.

If there had been anything wanted to throw Jim into the arms of the
curate, that tirade did it. Had his father sent him forth to Mr.
Osborne’s company with a blessing, it would have spoiled all; but to
escape for all the world as if he were going to spend the evening with
Mrs. Brown, put things at once on a right footing. Jim walked through
the village, not in his usual lounging way, but with a long stride and
head high. He glanced at the ‘Blue Boar,’ with the cheerful light
shining through its red curtains, and thought with a little contempt of
the fellows who were seated, he knew, in a cloud of smoke within, and
with talk as smoky as the air, he thought to himself lightly. It was a
place where a man might go to pass the time when he had nothing else to
do; but he had never entertained any illusion on the subject of its
dulness, Jim said to himself.

It is doubtful whether Mr. Osborne heard Jim’s step coming through the
little garden of the cottage in which he lodged with the same
exhilaration. The curate, indeed, had been of opinion that Jim was not
at all likely to come, and had settled himself to his evening’s
occupation with that view. He had not found much pleasure in the young
man’s companionship during their long walk. He had caught the look of
surprise, the lifting of the eyebrows, with which the people of Winwick
testified their amazement to see such a superior person as Mr. Osborne
accompanied by that unlucky Jim--and Mr. Osborne had not liked it. The
fact that he did not like it, however, was the one good thing in the
matter, for it gave him the conviction that since he did not like it, it
must be the right thing. He had liked that little glorification of
taking the pledge to induce old Mrs. Lloyd to do it; and this sensation
had made him much less strong than he might have been as to the absolute
virtue of the act. Mr. Osborne, as will be perceived, was really a very
superior young man. When Mr. Ormerod had taken him aside, with again a
lifting of the eyebrows, and asked him whether that young cub of
Plowden’s had turned over a new leaf as he (Osborne) had taken him in
tow, the curate of Watcham had been angry. ‘Don’t you think it might be
perhaps my duty to help him to turn over a new leaf?’ he had said, with
some asperity, at which the Winwick curate had lifted his eyebrows more
and more. They had all thought that to consort with Jim was rather a
token that Mr. Osborne himself was acquiring a relish for indifferent
society, than that it was his duty to endeavour to reclaim that species
of lost sheep. This naturally and beneficially excited the temper of
Edward Osborne, which was a fine, animated, vigorous sort of temper,
capable of doing a great deal to encourage him in an unpopular way. If
it had been a young boatman on Riverside there would have been no
lifting of eyebrows. So much the more was it evident that this
particular thing was his duty, and that he was bound to pursue what
these asses took upon them to disapprove of. A man may be a very good
man, and yet feel his virtuous determination strengthened by the
consciousness that those who are against him are asses. And just as Jim
was encouraged by his father’s angry opposition, so was Mr. Osborne by
the surprise, whether put in words or not, of his Winwick friends. They
had all been greatly complimentary and touched to the heart by the
episode of old Mrs. Lloyd.

But he had thought that his reformatory effort was over for the day. The
invitation he had given Jim for the evening had been a sudden and
passing impulse, and he had never suspected that it would be accepted.
Even when it was accepted in word, he still thought nothing more would
come of it. The young fellow would not be able to pass the ‘Blue Boar,’
or he would be caught at the schoolhouse by Mrs. Brown. Having done his
duty amply, as he felt he had done, it was almost with relief that the
curate concluded that Jim would never manage to pass the ‘Blue Boar.’
When he heard, on the contrary, a footstep ring upon the little line of
pavement which divided in two the cottage garden where his lodgings
were, Mr. Osborne was much startled, and it cannot be said that his
start was one of pleasure. ‘Oh! here’s this confounded fellow again.’ I
am afraid that was the thought that passed through his mind: and he
pushed away his work with impatience, clearing away several books which
he had been consulting. He wanted to make a conquest, a convert of Jim.
He had a hundred reasons for wishing it. First, the conviction that on
the whole it was a far more difficult task than administering the pledge
to Mrs. Lloyd: second, that Jim Plowden, after all, would be a more
considerable prize than the old woman, that lie was at least worth as
much trouble as a young waterman on Riverside; third, that perhaps it
might be allowed that an Oxford man and a gentleman has a peculiar duty
towards another Oxford man and gentleman who is going astray, even
though that duty is very little acknowledged. Fourthly---- No! there was
nothing at all about Florence Plowden in the matter, nothing but an
undying resentment against the girl who had presumed to teach him his
duty! She might be right. I presume he felt in his heart that she was
right, or he would not have taken the measures he had done. But he also
felt in his heart that he could never forgive her for her temerity, for
departing from the woman’s part so much as to venture to suggest to one
of the priests of her parish what he should do. No, Florence Plowden
told for nothing in the effort he was making. When her name floated up
it awakened nothing but feelings of anger in his breast.

Poor Florry! She sat half in the dark with her knitting, pretending she
felt her eyes weak, in order that she might not betray the melting mist
of happiness that was in her face, the soft dew that kept coming into
her eyes. If anybody had seen how near she was to crying, they would
have thought her unhappy: whereas she was almost too happy to think,
certainly too glad--except in a momentary impulse like that which had
called upon her the reproof of both parents--to speak.

Jim put his books before Osborne, who grinned at the sight. It was
intended for a smile, but it was a poor version of a smile. ‘Oh, yes,’
he said, ‘Browning, the “Ride to Aix.” Isn’t it just a little hackneyed?
Oh, no, not the poem itself. I don’t mean that: but everybody does it.
What’s the other? Ingoldsby. O--oh. I don’t know, if you ask me my
opinion, that I care so very much for Ingoldsby, myself.’

‘Perhaps not,’ said Jim, who for this once was wiser than his leader,
‘but _they_ do, you know. He’s always the most popular of all.’

‘Eh--oh--ah,’ said Mr. Osborne, putting his head on one side as though
to see in that way the virtues which were visible to the people in
general. ‘Now, I should have thought,’ he said, ‘that this sort of stuff
was too--too conventional, too fictitious, in the wrong sense of the
word, to please these sort of rough intelligences; that they would like
something more--more straightforward, don’t you know.’

‘Like the “Ride to Aix”? But then they’re awfully anxious to know,’ said
Jim, ‘what it was for, what the news was, and when it was, and all that;
and I’ve never found yet any one that knew.’

Mr. Osborne discreetly turned that question aside, for on this point he
had no more information than other people. ‘Suppose you read it and let
me hear,’ he said. It was very good-humoured and kind of him. He
expected nothing, if truth must be told, and he was really very full of
occupation and had a great many things to do. But Jim, as it turned out,
did not read badly at all. And there came a note of emotion in his voice
as the gallop rang on; that sort of sympathy with the excitement of the
strain, and climbing passion in the throat, which only a few readers are
moved by. The curate listened in amaze while this high note of poetic
sympathy thrilled through the lines, which Jim read with a pause or two
and strain of breath to overcome himself. He could not understand what
it meant to feel thus, and yet to drift into the parlour of the ‘Blue
Boar’; to tremble and flush with the poetry, and then listen to
Slaughter and White maundering about politics, or sit with the
schoolmistress. There came over the curate for the first time in a great
many years a sense of humility, a sudden conviction that there were more
things in heaven and earth than were dreamt of in his philosophy.

‘By Jove,’ said Jim, ‘I got through it pretty well this time. The worst
is my voice always breaks at that line: “And into the square Roland
staggered and stood.” One gets wound up so, don’t you know. After that I
can always manage the rest.’

‘Give me the book,’ said Osborne; and he, too, read the last verses, but
his voice did not break at all, the water did not come into his eyes. He
read it all as if it were one of his own sermons. Decidedly there were
things in heaven and earth--perhaps he acknowledged it a little
grudgingly: ‘Evidently, Plowden, you have the knack of it much better
than I.’

‘Nonsense,’ said Jim, with a good-humoured laugh. ‘You read so well.
I’ve got no knack. It is only that a few of these things get over me
somehow. Because--because they are mere stories and of no consequence.’

‘Plowden,’ said the curate.

‘Yes?’

‘I wonder if you’d be dreadfully offended if I asked you one thing?’

‘I am not very peppery,’ said Jim; ‘fire away?’

‘Well,’ he said, ‘I will, but you will be angry, I fear. It is just
this. When you feel these things so, more than most people--more,’ he
added, with a naïve surprise, ‘than I do myself; how is it, you
know--that--I don’t want to offend you--how is it that----’

Jim’s countenance grew deeply red, a cloud came over it for a moment;
then he shook his head as if to shake off any consideration of such
questions. ‘I say, don’t ask me that kind of conundrum. I’m not good at
guessing things,’ he said. ‘Will the “Ride” do?’

‘The “Ride” will do capitally,’ said the curate. He too shook off with a
flush the questions which had risen involuntarily to his lips. He was
grateful to Jim for passing it over, for neither taking offence in words
nor jumping up and breaking off the conference. ‘What sort of people do
you think will come,’ he said, ‘since you seem to have experience of
these things?’

‘Oh!’ said Jim, ‘a number of the village people will come--the daughters
of the tradespeople, and those shifting folks that live in Pleasant
Place, and a number of the “gentry”--the General----’

Mr. Osborne made a sign of impatience and dissatisfaction.

‘Don’t you want the gentry to come? But the others like it. I assure you
they do. Mrs. White and Mrs. Slaughter will not come, they are too
grand. They’re able to pay for their pleasure when they make up their
minds to go out.’

Jim said this with a gleam of Florry’s mimicry, which discomposed the
curate more than he could say. ‘You seem to know all about it,’ he
cried, a little sharply. ‘But I want the men from Riverside, the fellows
from the boats. I don’t want ladies and gentlemen. What I want is to
keep the men from the public-house. Do you mean to say the same sort of
thing has been done here before?’

‘Oh, yes,’ said Jim, ‘we have done it before; but I don’t think we got
any of the Riverside men. The people who come generally are--well, just
the village people, Osborne, the people you know, particularly the women
and the Sunday School lads, those that my sisters teach carving to, and
so forth; and the ones that come to the night-school.’

‘Ah!’ said the curate, ‘that is always something,’ with a sigh of
relief.

‘And all that my mother calls the nice, respectable people,’ said Jim,
with a laugh, destroying the momentary good effect he had produced.

The curate put his face in his hands, and was silent for a minute. ‘So
that I have been taking all this trouble,’ he said, ‘and getting people
to come over from Winwick, and laying myself under obligations--to amuse
the old women--and the gentry, as you call them.’

‘Well, yes; there will be old Mrs. Lloyd, and some more of her kind,’
Jim said.

Mr. Osborne looked at his visitor for a moment, with as deep a colour as
that which Jim had shown when he was being questioned--as much heat of
embarrassment, and an air of offence much more marked. Mrs. Lloyd! The
curate felt that the name of this old woman was a missile that any one
was now at liberty to fling at him, to turn him into ridicule. Strange!
when a very short time ago it appeared to him the finest feather in his
cap.

‘We must do something about this, Plowden,’ he said. ‘We must lay hold
on some of these fellows, and get them to come. I’ve pledged myself it’s
for them. I’ve meant it all along for them. What can we do to get hold
of them? You’ve been here all your life; you must have known half of
them as boys. Can’t we do something? can’t we find some way of
attracting them? Think for yourself. Do you want to read that “Ride,”
which, you do so well, to---- Mrs. Lloyd?’ It would be impossible to
express the tone of disgust with which Mr. Osborne said this name.

‘I don’t suppose she would understand much of it, poor old body. But she
will like to hear the girls sing,’ said Jim, more charitable, after all,
to the old lady than was the instrument of her conversion from beer.
‘About the men, I don’t know; they’re very hard to fetch. Yes, I used to
know a lot of the young ones as boys; but I haven’t seen anything of
them for a long time.’

‘I tell you what, Plowden,’ said the curate, ‘we’ll go down there some
evening when the fellows are about. You can talk to them, for old
acquaintance’ sake, while I---- Put your shoulder to the wheel! Of
course, you could do a great deal if you chose. Don’t, for the credit of
the parish, let those fellows say we bring them over here to play to the
old women. I can’t stand it. I may have been a fool,’ Mr. Osborne said.
He said it with a force and bitterness which Jim could not
understand--not to Jim, that was clear, but to some unknown adversary.
‘But stand by me,’ he said, putting his hand on Jim’s shoulder, ‘and
we’ll tell another tale.’

‘Stand by me!’ Was it the curate that spoke, and was this Jim to whom he
appealed?




XXXVI


Jim was hurrying home to the Rectory full of the plans that had been
settled between him and his new friend, full of the unusual excitement
of something to do which was novel at least, and might be amusing, and
was voluntary, exacted from him by no one. It was the loveliest spring
night, the first of May, but full of a softness which is little to be
depended upon at that season, the stars shining sweetly in a sky which
was fresh and luminous, with nothing of the sparkle of frost in it, but
a prophecy, almost a realisation, of summer. The village was quiet, as
it usually was at that hour; the window of the ‘Blue Boar’ still shining
with light, for it was not yet the closing hour: but all except the
_habitués_ of that respectable place, where general drinking was not
encouraged, had left. Jim did not feel the drawing to-night of those
invisible links which drew him to the ‘Blue Boar,’ and he was hurrying
along towards home, when he encountered a wrapped-up figure which paused
as he approached, but which he did not at first recognise. Indeed, to
tell the truth, he thought for a moment with a quick movement of anger,
that it was one of his own belongings, mother or sister, who had taken
the liberty of coming out thus, veiled and covered up, to look for him,
which was a thing that the young man in his greatness of superiority
would not very readily have forgiven. But it was not anything so
innocent as poor Mrs. Plowden with her shawl over her head, strolling
forth, as she would have explained, because it was such a beautiful
night, just to breathe the air; not anything nearly so innocent. The
dark figure stopped as Jim came up, and with a little cough to call his
attention, said: ‘Is this Mr. Jim?’

‘Oh!’ he said, coming to a sudden pause, ‘Mrs. Brown!’ but not with any
delight in his tone.

‘I fear,’ said Mrs. Brown, ‘there is not much pleasure in seeing me in
that exclamation; but then, of course, you can’t see me, which takes
from it all the uncomplimentary meaning. And where are you coming from
at this hour--some of your smart parties?’

‘You know as well as I do,’ he said, aggrieved, ‘that there are no smart
parties here.’

‘What do you call Mrs. FitzStephen’s ball?’ she said, with her laugh of
mockery. ‘I have heard that it was very smart--the young ladies’ dresses
beautiful, and diamonds upon some of the old ones. I call that very
smart. Unfortunately, I hear, there were no Royal Highnesses--unless it
was yourself, Mr. Jim.’

‘How fond you are of laughing at people!’ said Jim.

‘I--the most innocent woman in the world! I will be very civil, now, if
you will walk as far as my house with me. I don’t mind the road up to
the Hall, but here in the village, where a tipsy man might run up
against me----’

‘Oh, I don’t think you need be afraid,’ said Jim; but he could not
refuse so small a request, though he did not like it--neither the
interruption nor the fact, indeed, of escorting the schoolmistress, who
was exceedingly amusing, and knew how to make herself agreeable in her
own place; but here, outside, where he might be recognised by any one!
Jim was half disgusted with himself for this feeling, yet felt it all
the same, and turned back with a little reluctance, which he concealed,
indeed, but which, from his companion’s quick eyes, was not altogether
to be concealed.

‘You have been somewhere to-night where you ought to have been,’ said
Mrs. Brown. ‘One soon gets to know the ways of young men. Sometimes you
are not proud of the place in which you have been spending your evening,
but to-night it’s different. You are going home in a hurry to tell them
all about it before they go to bed. What a pity that I should have met
you just to-night!’

‘It can never be a pity that I should have met you,’ said Jim, a little
sulkily, ‘if I can be of any use.’

‘Poor boy,’ she said, with a half laugh, and then she added: ‘I have
been among naughty people to-night, who have been putting naughty
schemes in my head. Tell me what nice, good society you have been
having, to put it out of my mind.’

‘Where are those naughty people to be found?’ said Jim.

‘Ah, you would rather know that than tell me your news! But they are not
naughty people of your kind; they wouldn’t amuse you at all. There is no
fun in their naughtiness, but rather the reverse: envy and malice and
all uncharitableness, not the folly that pleases you poor boys. Poor
boys! for the one often leads to the other, don’t you know, when you
outgrow the fun and yet love the naughtiness, and get out of the way of
all that’s good----’

‘You are in a very serious humour to-night.’

‘No,’ she said, ‘not more than usual. I’m a very serious woman, though
you may not have found it out. You have not found it out, have you?’ she
said, with a sudden laugh, apparently overcome by the absurdity of the
situation, which, however, Jim did not feel at all. He saw no fun in it:
all that he was afraid of was that with her laugh, though it was very
soft, she might attract the observation of some one whom they met.

‘No,’ he said, ‘I--I haven’t thought about the subject, I never tried
to----’

‘Understand, did you?’ she said quickly; ‘took me as you found me? Of
course you did. And you were quite right. Don’t be afraid that any one
will find you with me. In the first place, there is nobody to be seen,
and in the second place----’

‘I am not at all afraid of any one seeing me. I am not responsible to
any one. I hope I am of an age to choose my own friends.’

‘Well spoken, Mr. Jim, and very manly of you; and I am glad you would
stand by me like that, as one of your own friends. Now, there is
something I would like you to do for me. It is a great secret, and you
must tell nobody of the request I am going to make.’

‘Well,’ he said, with a laugh, ‘I hope I don’t want much cautioning on
that subject. The moment one is told that a matter is private, it is
sacred--at least, to a man.’

‘Ah! you think more sacred to a man than a woman, Mr. Jim? I don’t agree
with you; but still, I’m glad that it’s your view. If you should find
out---- You know of all that is going on in the family, don’t you?’

‘In the family,’ cried Jim, astonished; ‘in what family?’

‘You may well be surprised. What should I have to do with your
respectable family?’ cried Mrs. Brown, laughing again. It was not like
other people’s laughter; it was a thin little sound, which, if it
conveyed mockery of other people, seemed in some indescribable way to
mock herself too. ‘But yet,’ she added, ‘it is really your respectable
family I mean. If your aunt should be hard pressed by those people, and
felt as if she might be crushed altogether--now, mind what I say--felt
as if she might be crushed altogether----’

‘Do you mean my aunt Emily, Lady William? Why, who in the name of wonder
wants to crush her altogether? You have got some joke in your mind that
I don’t understand.’

‘Felt,’ repeated Mrs. Brown with emphasis, ‘as if she might be crushed
altogether. I will make you say it after me to impress it on your
memory, if you don’t mind. Felt as if she might be crushed
altogether--you understand?’

‘I understand the words: but what they mean, or what you mean----’

‘That is quite enough, so long as you know the words. Keep them fast,
and in such a case let me know; not until you see there is very grave
trouble, mind--not if you hear that she sees her way out of it.’

‘You are speaking Hebrew, I think,’ said Jim.

‘No, I am speaking English. You will see, even if they don’t tell you,
by your people’s looks, or you will get it out of one of your sisters.
Mind! if you find that they are all in the dumps, and she feels herself
beaten--you’ll see it in their looks--let me know. If I should not be
here I will let you know where I am.’

‘Are you going away?’ said Jim.

She did not make him any immediate answer, but turned round upon him, in
the light of a lamp which they were approaching, putting back her veil a
little, with a mischievous look. ‘Should you be very sorry? No, I’m
afraid you would not be very sorry,’ she said.

‘Yes, I should,’ said Jim, with an impetuosity which alarmed him next
moment, as he suddenly realised that somebody passing (but there was no
one passing), or somebody unseen at a door or window, might hear what he
said. ‘I should be very sorry indeed to think I should not see you any
more,’ he added, in a lower tone.

‘But that dreadful fate need not come, even if I were to leave Watcham,’
she said, in her mocking tone. ‘We met before I came here, which is the
origin of all our acquaintance, and we may meet after I leave here. The
world is a wide place. I shall let you know, somehow, where I am: and in
the case I have so impressed upon you----’

‘The case in which Aunt Emily (of all people in the world!) should find
herself crushed altogether.’

‘You are a good scholar. You have learned your lesson. In that case you
will take care--but only when there is no other hope--to let me know.
Now I’ll release you, Mr. Jim. I won’t exact that you should come to my
very door. No harm can happen to me between this and my door.’

‘It is the only part of the way where anything could happen,’ said Jim.
‘It’s the middle of the town.’

‘A wonderful town, and a wonderful middle,’ she said, laughing. ‘No,
nothing will happen. Good night, and I am more obliged to you than I can
say.’

Jim stood irresolute, and watched her as she drew down her veil over her
face, and hurried along to the door of the schoolhouse. He was, on the
whole, well pleased to get rid of her, but he did not like the idea of
being thus dismissed at the moment it occurred to her to do so--a
sensation which roused his pride and kept him, accordingly, standing
where she left him until he saw that she had reached her own door. She
turned round there and made a slight gesture of farewell, or dismissal.
It was just at that moment that the _convives_ at the ‘Blue Boar’ began
to stream out, with a little noise of voices and feet, the last jokes of
the little convivial club. Jim turned and hurried homeward, not without
an uncomfortable feeling that his return would correspond unpleasingly
with the dispersion of that assembly. But yet it was not his fault.

His mother was in the drawing-room still, waiting for him, or at least
pretending not to wait for him, but to be very busy with something she
had to do. And Jim had by this time remembered again the great news he
had been carrying home so eagerly when he met Mrs. Brown. Though Jim
detested the ‘parish’ in the official sense of the word, he was not
without a natural feeling for his own side; and it pleased him almost as
much as if he had been a Rector’s son of the more orthodox description
to find that the new curate, with his immense commotion as of a new
broom, found it necessary after all to have recourse to the old rulers
and their ways for help. He had, I need not say, not the faintest idea
of the curate’s benevolent intentions towards himself; but Mr. Osborne
had been a little superior in the morning--it was his nature to be a
little superior--and his final appeal for help to Jim, who of all the
Rectory family was the only one whom nobody else would have thought of
appealing to, was a triumph which Jim could not but be sensible of. His
mother looked up at him from her sewing with those curves about her eyes
which he had grown accustomed to, and did not at this present moment
take any notice of, notwithstanding the keen inspection of him which she
made instantly, an inspection so keen that it seemed to cut below the
surface and see what never can be seen. Jim was more or less aware of
this inspection when he had anything to conceal, but on this occasion,
having nothing to conceal, it did not occur to him. ‘Have the girls gone
to bed?’ he said, in a disappointed tone. He had brought in with him no
heavy odour of tobacco or other scent inharmonious with the place, but a
whole atmosphere of fresh air, cool and pure, to which the haste of his
arrival gave an impetus, and which seemed to fill and refresh the whole
room, which was half dark, with only Mrs. Plowden’s solitary lamp
shining on the round table. ‘They’ve gone upstairs,’ she said, rising to
meet him with that sudden sweetness of relief which fills an anxious
heart when its anxiety is found unnecessary. ‘Do you want them? Shall I
call them? Oh, Jim, they will be too happy to come.’

‘I’ll call them myself,’ he said, then paused--‘unless it will disturb
my father! He looked a little worried at dinner.’

‘It is like you to think of your father.’ Mrs. Plowden could not but
caress her son’s shoulder as she passed him. ‘You can always see farther
than any one--with your heart, my dear. Yes, he was worried. But never
mind that; I’ll call the girls.’

They came at the call like two birds flitting noiselessly down the
staircase, and came into the room with a faint rustle as of wings.

‘Jim has something he wants to tell you,’ the mother said, and there
went a quick glance round the three like an electrical flash; oh! of
such ease, joy, consolation to themselves; of such admiration,
enthusiasm for him! That there should be nothing to lament over, nothing
to find fault with, meant whole litanies of honour and praise to Jim.

He told them his story with a pleasure which found an immediate echo and
reflection from his mother and Emmy. Florence, of whose sympathy he had
felt most sure, had turned a little away.

‘He seemed struck all of a heap,’ said Jim, not pausing to choose his
language, ‘when he heard we’d had those sort of things before. He thinks
he’s the first to do everything; and when I told him it was the
respectable folks that came and the FitzStephens and so forth, and the
old women--Mrs. Lloyd and the rest----’

‘Jim,’ cried Florence, seizing his arm, ‘it was ungenerous to mention
Mrs. Lloyd.’

‘Why?’ cried Jim, opening his eyes; and Florry made no reply. ‘Well,’ he
continued, ‘Osborne was taken all aback, as I tell you. He says it is
the men he wants to catch--the fellows down by the river, that sort.
When I told him he might as soon look for the Prince of Wales, I never
saw a man so broken down. He said, “How are we to catch hold of ’em,
Plowden? What are we to do to fetch ’em? Come down with me,” he said.
“You must have known some of them from boys. Come down, you and me
together, and let’s see what we can do.” I said to myself, “Oho, my fine
fellow! for all so grand as you think yourself, you can’t get on without
the oldest inhabitant after all.”’

‘But, Jim, you’ll help him,’ cried Emmy; ‘so will I, I am sure, with all
my heart. We have always wanted to get hold of them; and you could do
something, Jim, if you were working with him.’

‘Oh yes, I shall help him,’ said Jim in a magisterial way, ‘fast enough.
He isn’t a bad sort of fellow when you know him. I said I’d go down with
him when the fellows were at home in the evening whenever he liked. Of
course, as he said, I know them all; half of them I’ve licked or they’ve
licked me. He has sense to see the advantage of that, and, of course,
now he’s asked me I’ll do whatever I can for him; and see if I don’t
have them up to hear all the tootle-te-tooting and you girls singing and
all the rest.’

‘If your father approves, Jim,’ said Mrs. Plowden. ‘We cannot make quite
sure that your father approves.’

‘Oh, papa will approve,’ cried Emmy. ‘I am sure he really knows how much
good there is in Mr. Osborne. He only does not like his little---- Well,
I don’t like to call it conceit.’

‘Excellent opinion of himself; but that’s so common with young men,’
said the Hector’s wife.

And Florence--Florence who was the lively one, who on any ordinary
occasion would have been in the heat of the discussion, talking now in
the tones of Mr. Osborne, now like old Mrs. Lloyd, now like all the
‘fellows’ at Riverside--Florence said nothing at all! That is, nothing
to speak of--nothing for her. She kept her face away from the light, and
threw in a monosyllable now and then; and when Mr. Osborne’s conceit was
spoken of, threw up her head with an indignation which happily nobody
perceived. To think they should discuss him so, who was doing all this,
giving up his pride in his superior management, for their
sake--appealing to Jim! It seemed to Florry that the force of noble
self-abnegation could not further go.




XXXVII


The Rector, when he came home upon that day, when Jim’s alliance with
Mr. Osborne began, did not show any such pleasure in the circumstances
as his wife expected. He mumbled and coughed, and with a lowering brow
said that anything was an excuse that kept the boy from his work, and
that if Jim picked up Osborne’s fads in addition to his own faults they
would make a pretty hash of it altogether. Mrs. Plowden, however, made
the less of this that the Rector was evidently in but an indifferent
state of temper and spirits generally. ‘He has been put out about
something,’ his interpreter said to the girls; ‘something has gone wrong
with him in town; he has not got his business done as he wished.’ But
what that business was, his wife was obliged to allow that she did not
know. ‘I can’t help thinking,’ she said, ‘that it’s something about your
uncle Reginald. What else could Emily have come over in such hot haste
about? And then your father going up to town in this wild way without
giving any reason. I can’t imagine what can be the cause unless it was
something about Reginald. They are dreadful for sticking to each other,
the Plowdens; they would think, perhaps, that I would make a remark, and
I am sure that there are plenty of remarks I might make, for if ever
there was a man who was utterly unbearable in a house it was Reginald
Plowden, and nothing in the world would make me consent to have him here
again, nothing! Your father has had something on his mind for some time
back. Don’t you remember he burst in one day as if he were full of
something to tell us, and then stopped short all at once?’

‘But that looked as if it was good news, mamma. He had met Mr. Swinford
and he was just going to tell us.’

‘What good news could come to us through Leo Swinford?’ cried Mrs.
Plowden scornfully: which was to poor Emmy as if somebody had given her
a blow in the face. She fell back quite suddenly behind her sister, and
attempted no reply.

‘It did look at first as if it was something good,’ Mrs. Plowden
allowed; ‘but when I tried to draw it out of him he only got into a fuss
you know, as he does so often, and told me I’d hear it all in good time.
I am sure ever since he has had something on his mind; and when he came
back from town last night he could have torn us all in pieces. If it is
not about Reginald I am sure I can’t imagine what it can be.’

‘It may be something about Aunt Emily, mamma.’

‘What could there be about Emily? No, she has heard from Reginald, that
is what it is, and he has told her he was sending back her money, or
something of that sort, and your father has gone up to town to see if it
was true. And he has found out, of course, that it was not true, as I
could have told him before he went a step on such an errand. And now he
can’t contain himself for rage and disappointment, and if I’m not
mistaken, he has gone over to tell your aunt Emily that she is not to
think of it any more.’

‘He did walk over to the cottage,’ one of the girls said; and the other
added:

‘How do you find out things, mamma? Now I am sure I never should have
thought of anything of that kind.’

‘My dears,’ said Mrs. Plowden with a certain complaisance, ‘you never
knew Reginald Plowden. And I do. You cannot gather grapes off thorns, or
figs off thistles; and if there ever was thorns and thistles in flesh
and blood, Reginald Plowden is the man. That your Aunt Emily should
still expect to get her money back from him, just shows what a thing
family affection is; but she might as well expect it to drop down from
those lilac-trees.’

The girls did not say anything in reply; but Emmy, for her part, thought
of quite a different explanation. She believed that Leo Swinford, whose
proceedings had been so great an object of interest, and of whom she
knew both by her own observation and by common report that he was
‘always at the cottage,’ had offered himself and his fortune to Lady
William. Proposed to Aunt Emily!--that was how poor Emmy put it. A girl
cannot but think such a proposal wholly ridiculous, if not an absolute
infatuation. Her respect for her aunt made her still believe and hope
that the proposal had been rejected; but this wonderful event would
quite account for the ‘something on his mind,’ which it was very clear
the Rector had. What he had gone to town about, however, and whether
his mission could have any bearing upon this disquieting question, Emmy
could not say. Florence was so preoccupied with other matters that upon
this, even though it cost her sister so much disquietude, she expressed
no opinion at all.

The Rector, as had been perceived, had gone towards the cottage when he
went out with care upon his brow. He had not, after all, as the reader
will understand, proclaimed the wonderful news about Mab when he went
home after his meeting with Lord Will. He reflected to himself that it
might be some time before he could set his sister’s position quite
straight, and that in the meantime the report of Mab’s heiress-ship
would flash all over the parish, and that any question, any hesitation,
any delay, on the subject would attract the curiosity and interest of
the village folks. Mab an heiress! It would go from one end of the
county to the other, and questions as to when she would come into her
fortune would come from all sides; very likely that last horror of
impertinent gossip which reveals what everybody leaves behind him to the
admiration of the public, would communicate the news in spite of all
precautions. Lord John’s death intestate and the amount of his fortune
would be in all the papers, with a list of the kindred concerned. But at
all events, the Rector said to himself, he would say nothing till the
matter was more assured. It was not an easy thing to do. He felt it
bursting from his lips during the first day when he allowed himself to
mention Lord Will simply to relieve his mind, but by main force kept the
other communication back. And to say that it was not with the most
dreadful difficulty that he kept his mouth shut on those many occasions
when it is so natural to let slip to your wife the secret that is in
your heart, would be to do Mr. Plowden great injustice. He was not in
the habit of keeping things to himself. Even the secrets of the parish,
it must be allowed, sometimes slipped--things that ought to have been
kept rigorously inviolate. He had not, perhaps, the most exalted opinion
of his wife’s discretion, and yet she was his other self--a being
indivisible, inseparable, with whom he could not be on his guard. But
she had shown great discrimination when she said that the Plowdens stuck
to each other. Nothing would have made him confess to his wife that
there was any insecurity in the position of his sister. Emily was a
thing beyond remark, a creature not to be criticised. He would have
nothing said about her--not a word of compassion. There are a great many
men who deliver over their sisters and mothers without hesitation to be
cut in small pieces by their wives, but here and there occurs an
exception. Emily was James Plowden’s ideal and the impersonation of the
family honour and credit. He could not have a word on that subject, and
thus he was strengthened in his resolution to say nothing of Mab’s
prospects--until, at least, they were established beyond any kind of
doubt.

This did not by any means look like the position in which they were now.
Mr. Plowden went into the cottage almost with a little secrecy--looking
round him before he opened the little garden gate--for the gossips in
the parish were quite capable of reporting that there was something odd
and unusual in the Rector’s constant visits to his sister, and that
certainly something must be ‘up.’ To be sure it was only his second
business visit--but even so much as that was unlike his usual habits,
and he was extremely anxious that no question should be raised on the
subject. He found her in the drawing-room, at her usual sewing. Mab was
out, which was a thing of which the Rector was glad. She looked up
hastily at the sight of him, reading his face, as women do with their
eyes, before he had time to say a word.

‘You have not succeeded, James?’

‘How do you know I have not succeeded?’ he asked crossly. ‘I have not,
perhaps, done all that I hoped to do--but Rome was not built in a day.
It was absurd to expect that I had only to go up to London--an hour in
the train--and walk into old Gepps’ parsonage and find him still there.’

‘You did not find him at all?’

‘No, I didn’t find him at all. I never expected to find him, considering
that he was an older man than my father, and that my father has been
dead for sixteen years.’

‘To be sure,’ said Lady William faintly.

‘I found his name, however, all right, and the place--not quite in the
City, as I thought--St. Alban’s proprietary chapel, Marylebone.’

‘Ah!’

‘Do you remember the name?’

‘No,’ said Lady William; ‘I’m afraid I don’t remember even the name.’

‘Well, never mind; Gepps was incumbent then. And a very good place, too,
for anything that was to be kept quiet--hidden away in a labyrinth of
little streets; not so noticeable as the City, where an old church in
the midst of warehouses is often something to see. Lady Somebody or
other’s proprietary chapel; incumbent, the Rev. T. I. Gepps. No doubt
that was the one.’

‘Was it like my description? But, to be sure, it may have been changed,
or restored, or something.’

‘I can tell nothing about that. It has been changed with a vengeance.
Emily, the chapel has been burned down----’

She gave a little scream of annoyance, but more because of the face he
had put on, than from any perception in her own mind of the significance
of the words.

‘A few of the things were saved--the books, I mean--but not all, not
all, by any means: and all those between 1860 and 1870 perished.’

‘What do you say, James?’

She began to awaken to a little consciousness that this concerned her,
which she had not at first understood. ‘The books?’--she took it up but
vaguely now--‘the books? What--what does that mean, James?’

‘It means that of the period of your marriage there is no record
at all. Do you understand me, Emily? No record, no certificate
possible--nothing. It is as if you had planned it all. A clergyman who
is dead; a chapel which is burned down; a registry which is destroyed.
That is what it might be made to look by skilful hands--as if you had
invented the whole.’

She sat half stupefied looking at him, the work still in her hands, her
needle in her fingers, looking up at him more astonished than was
compatible with speech. ‘The clergyman dead, the chapel burnt down, the
registry destroyed!’ She said these words in a kind of half-conscious
tone--repeating them after him, yet not knowing what she had said.

‘That is about the state of the case; if you had meant to deceive, you
couldn’t have done better all round.’

Lady William looked at him with a curious half smile, yet wistful wonder
in her eyes. ‘But,’ she said, ‘I did not want to deceive.’ There was a
sort of startled amusement in her tone, mingling with something of
reality, a question half rising, a faint feeling of the possibility, and
that even, perhaps, her brother----‘James,’ she cried, ‘you do not
imagine that I--I----’

The words failed her; the colour forsook her face, and she sat looking
up at him dismayed; her work fallen into her lap, but the needle still
in her hand.

‘Of course I do not imagine that you--nor, did I doubt that, could I
doubt for a moment when there’s my father’s hand and date upon it. And I
suppose that would be evidence in a court of justice,’ the Rector said,
knitting his brows--‘I’m rather ignorant on such subjects, and I don’t
know. But I suppose it would be evidence. I could prove my father’s
handwriting, and that I found his notebooks, and produce the rest of
them, and so forth. But it’s touch and go to rely upon a thing so close
as that.’

‘The books destroyed!’ she said, repeating the words, ‘the church burned
down, the clergyman dead. Do such things happen? all to overcome a poor
woman? If it was in a book one would say how impossible--how absurd----
’

‘Emily,’ said the Rector, ‘you must forgive me for saying it, but that’s
just what your whole story is--impossible and absurd. It has been so
from the beginning; people have no right to launch themselves on such a
career. You had it always in your power not to take the first step. I
blame my father almost more than you--he ought not to have allowed you
to do it: but I blame you too. For even a girl of nineteen is old enough
to know what’s possible and what’s impossible. You ought not to have
allowed yourself to be launched upon such a bad way. After your
ridiculous marriage you might have expected everything else that was
ridiculous to follow. It is all of a piece. Nobody would believe one
word of it from the beginning to the end--if it was, as you say, in a
book.’

Lady William listened to this tirade with a curious piteous look, almost
like a child’s; a look that was on the verge of tears and yet had a
faint appealing smile in it, an appeal against judgment. Oh what a
foolish girl that had been, that girl of nineteen, that ought to have
known better! and what a good thing for her if she had known better; if
she had been able by her own good sense and judgment to overcome those
about her: the foolish old father, the false friend who led her into the
net. Listening to her brother’s voice so long, long after the event, and
looking back upon the thing that was so impossible, the thing which
between them these foolish people had done--she could see very well how
preposterous it was, and how it could have been resisted. Mab (all these
thoughts flew through her mind while the Rector was speaking) would not
have done it. But Mab’s mother had done it, and could not even now see
what else she could have done among these three people surrounding her,
arranging everything for her. And there was a sort of whimsical,
ridiculous humour in the idea that all these complications must have
followed from that foolish beginning. What could she expect but that the
clergyman should die, the church be burned down, and the books
destroyed? To the disturbed and disappointed Rector, thoroughly put out,
touched in mind and in temper by a _contretemps_ so painful and
disconcerting, there was nothing whatever ludicrous in the thought. But
to her, whose whole life hung upon it, her child’s fortune, her own good
name, everything that was worth thinking of in the world, there was an
absurdity which had almost made her laugh in the midst of her despair.

‘I am very sensible of the folly of it now,’ she said, commanding her
voice, ‘and I know all the misery that has been involved better than any
one can tell me--but it is too late now to think of that. We must think
in these dreadful circumstances what is now to be done.’

‘You see, Emily,’ said Mr. Plowden, ‘I never knew the rights of it till
the other day. I knew there was something queer and hasty about it, a
sort of running away; but you know that till you came back here a widow
with your little girl I had heard actually nothing--and, indeed, not
very much until you came to the Rectory the other day.’

‘That is quite true; and I am very sorry, James.’

‘I don’t say it to upbraid you, my dear. My father was much more to
blame than you were. I would not like to have any of my daughters
exposed to such a temptation, even at their age. And Florence is
twenty-three. And you were always a spoiled child, getting everything
your own way.’ The Rector had gradually worked out his impatience and
had gone round the circle to tenderness and indulgence again. He put his
hand on her shoulder, and patted it as he might have done a child. ‘My
poor girl,’ he said, ‘my poor Emily!’ with the voice of one who brings
tidings of death, and a face as long as a day without bread, as the
French say.

She looked up at him with a gaze of alarm.

‘James!’ she cried, ‘do you think it is all over with us? Don’t say so,
for Heaven’s sake! I’ll find Artémise if I seek her through all the
country; I’ll find evidence somehow. Don’t condemn us with that dreadful
tone.’

‘Condemn you!’ said Mr. Plowden, ‘never will I condemn you, Emily. Even
if you had done something wrong instead of only something very foolish,
you may be sure I should have stood by you through thick and thin. No,
my poor dear, you shall get no condemnation from me; and Jane, I am
sure, has far too much sense and too good a heart----’

Here the Rector’s voice broke a little. The idea that his wife would
have to be made the judge of his sister, and might almost, indeed, hold
Emily’s reputation in her hands, was more than he could bear.

‘Jane!’ said Lady William, with a ring in her voice as sharp and keen as
that of her brother’s was lachrymose; but, happily, she had sufficient
command of herself not to express the exasperation which this suggestion
of being at Jane’s mercy caused her. She said, however, with a painful
smile, ‘You are throwing down your arms too soon; I don’t intend to be
discouraged so easily. Now I know that the fight will be desperate I can
rouse myself to it. It is evident that the one thing that is
indispensable is to find Artémise.’

‘Who is Artémise? Some French maid or other?’ said the Rector, with a
tinge of disdain.

‘Artémise is Miss Mansfield, who was with us--a cousin, or some people
thought a half-sister, of Mrs. Swinford. Their father was a strange man,
more French than English, and that is the reason of their names,
and--many other odd things. She is a strange woman, and has a strange
history. She was at the Hall, a sort of governess--when---- And she was
sent with me that night. And without her I don’t think--but we need not
enter into those old stories now. One thing I know is that she is
living, and that Leo Swinford has seen her--not very long ago.’

‘A disreputable witness,’ said Mr. Plowden, shaking his head, ‘is not
much better than no witness at all.’

He was in a despondent mood, and ready to throw discouragement upon
every hope.

‘I don’t know that she is disreputable; and at all events she was
present,’ said Lady William. ‘That must always tell--in a court of
justice, as you say: though God grant that it may never come there.’

‘I suppose you can lay your hand upon her without any difficulty,
through Mr. Swinford,’ the Rector said, suddenly adopting an indifferent
tone as if with the rest of the business he had nothing to do.

‘That is, perhaps, too much to say; but at least she may be found--or I
hope so,’ Lady William replied.

‘And now I must go,’ said Mr. Plowden. ‘Of course, anything and
everything I can do, Emily--when you have tried what is to be
accomplished in your own way----’ He turned towards the door, and then
returned again, with a still more cloudy face. ‘My dear sister,’ he
said, in a tone of solemnity and tenderness adapted to the words, ‘you
may have to seek his help for this; but for all our sakes do not, any
more than you can help, have young Mr. Swinford here.’

Lady William looked up quickly with a half-defiant glance.

‘Above all’ said the Rector impressively, ‘while there is any sort of
doubt, any sort of cloud, and when every step you take will be
remarked---- Don’t make me enter into explanations, but, for all our
sakes, don’t have Mr. Swinford always here.’




XXXVIII


It is almost needless to say that the Rector left his sister in a state
of mind in which exasperation healthily and beneficially contended with
despair. She might have been crushed altogether by his discovery; but he
had managed to mingle with that so many other sentiments that Lady
William felt herself no broken-down and miserable woman, but a creature
all full of fight and resistance--tingling, indeed, with pain, and
scorched with a fire of injury, feeling insulted and outraged to the
depths of her being, but all the same full of angry strength and force,
determined that nothing as yet was lost, and that sooner than yield
herself to the tolerance of her sister-in-law and indulgent
interpretations of her friends, who would pity and assure each other
that whatever dreadful thing had really happened, poor Emily, a mere
child at the time, was innocent--there was nothing she was not capable
of doing. To change from Lady William--in a sort, the head of the little
community--to poor Emily, was a thought which fired her blood. For that,
as well as for her child, the small motive thrusting in in the immediate
present into the foreground--there was nothing she would not do. To find
Artémise was a trifle to her roused and indignant soul. If she went out
herself on foot with a lanthorn, she said to herself with a vehemence
which soon turned into an angry laugh, she would find her. The lanthorn
and the search on foot turned it all into stormy ridicule, as the
Rector’s suggestion that the little, dingy, dark private chapel had been
burned and the books destroyed as a natural consequence of her folly in
being married there, had done. Lady William felt the laughter burst out
in the middle of the bitter pain. For the pain was bitter enough down in
the breast from which that stormy humour burst, so sharp that she could
not sit still, but went raging about like--as she said to herself--a
wild beast, pushing the crowded furniture aside, holding her hands
together as if to keep down the anguish by physical torture. A
thumbscrew or a deadly boot to crush her flesh would have been something
of a relief to her in the active anguish of her soul. Mab to hear that
her mother was---- Oh no; never that her mother was---- but only that
there was a doubt, a horrible peradventure, a failure of proof.

Lady William paused in her movement to and fro and tried to look at it
for a moment through Mab’s eyes. That is often a very good thing to do,
but a difficult. We forget nature when the question is one so
all-important as this, what a child will think of its mother. Often we
believe in an opinion too favourable, without inquiry, forgetting what a
formidable criticism is that which our children make of us from their
cradles, learning our habitual ways so much better than we know them
ourselves. But there are some ways in which the natural judgment of
candid and clear-sighted youth may give any who is unjustly accused
comfort. In the light of Mab’s eyes (though they were neither bright nor
beautiful) Lady William felt for a moment that her trouble melted away.
Mab might not see the fun--that she should see fun at such a crisis of
her life!--of James’s suggestion of the connection between the burning
of the church and the folly of the marriage: but she would be utterly
stolid like a block of stone to any idea of shame. No one could cast
suspicion upon her mother’s honour to Mab. Lady William thought she
could see the girl’s look of utter disdain on any one who could suggest
such a suspicion even by a glance. There was once a lady known to fame
who, moved by a hot fit of jealous pain and misery, left the house in
which she was being entertained, and walked home alone at night up the
long length of Piccadilly. A man who met her, moved, I suppose, by her
solitude and the unusual sight, followed, and at last addressed her.
When her attention was attracted she turned round upon him, looked at
him, and uttering the one word ‘Idiot!’ walked on, as secure as if she
had been surrounded by a bodyguard of chivalry. Somehow that incident
floated into Lady William’s memory. That was what Mab would do. She
would think, if she did not say ‘Idiot!’ and pass by, too contemptuous
almost to be angry, feeling it unnecessary to answer a word to the depth
of imbecility which was capable of such a thought.

Yes; it made her quieter, it calmed her down, it delivered her from that
worst and deepest horror, to look at it through Mab’s sensible, quiet
eyes. But when Lady William remembered that James would tolerate her,
and be kind, and that everybody else would say, ‘Poor Emily!’ the
intolerableness of the catastrophe caught her once more--and the
advantage which even her brother even James, who loved her in his way,
who would spare no trouble for her, had taken of it already. While there
was a shade, while there was a shadow of a doubt upon her, she must not
admit Leo Swinford ‘for all our sakes.’ Women do not habitually swear,
or I think Lady William would have used bad words, had she known any,
when this intolerable recollection came into her mind, just as, if she
had not been bound by the inevitable bonds of education and natural
self-control, she might have broken the china or the furniture to
relieve herself. A gentlewoman cannot do either of these things,
fortunately, or unfortunately, for her, and they are outlets which must
sometimes be of use. But the quick movement with which she dashed her
hands together when that last thought came into her mind, upset a little
table upon which was a plant, one of Mab’s especial nurslings just
shaping for flower, as well as various other nicknacks of less
importance. The sense of guilt and shame with which she saw what she had
done, the compunction with which she stooped over the broken flower-pot,
and gathered up the fortunately uninjured plant, and the specially
prepared soil in which it had been placed, and which was but dirt to
Patty, who came dashing in at the sound of the crash to set matters
right--did Lady William as much good as smashing a window or two might
have done to a poor woman out of Society. She was very penitent and much
ashamed of herself, and horribly amused all the same. To express her
rage, her injured feelings, her pride and desperation, by breaking a
flower-pot, was again where bathos and ridicule came in.

‘I’ll sweep it all up, my lady,’ cried Patty, ‘and there won’t be no
harm.’

‘Miss Mab’s leaf-mould? No, you shan’t do anything of the kind. Find me
another flower-pot, and let us gather it all up carefully, and put it
back.’

‘Miss Mab’s full of fads,’ said Patty, under her breath.

But Lady William did not allow herself such freedom of criticism, and
she had scarcely gathered up the mould and built it securely round the
plant in the new pot before Mab came in. ‘Oh, are you filling it up with
fresh mould, mother?. My poor auricula! It will never produce a prize
bloom now, and I had such hopes.’

‘You ungrateful child! when I have gathered up every scrap of your
famous mould with my own dirty hands!’

‘Poor mother,’ cried Mab, ‘that can never bear to dirty her hands! let
me see them.’

Mab kissed the fingers which Lady William held out, smiling. ‘After all
it is clean dirt, nice mould carefully made, and with everything nice in
it both for the colour and the health. Mother, your hands are a little
like the auriculas, velvety and soft.’

‘And brown, and purple,’ said Lady William, laughing. Who is it that
says that if we would not cry we must laugh? Heaven knows how true it
is.

‘It must have been Patty that did it,’ said Mab. ‘That child will never
learn to take care. And, oh! the little Dresden shoe is broken that I
got off the Christmas tree, and the silver things all scattered. I wish
Patty might get a whipping; it is the only thing that would make her
take care.’

‘Whip me, then, Mab, for it was I. I was vexed and angry----’

‘You! angry, mother?’

‘It is not a thing that never happens, Mab.’

‘No, said Mab judicially; ‘it is not a thing that never happens: but it
only happens when you are put out. And I should like to know what had
put you out.’

‘Nothing,’ said Lady William, with a smile.

‘Oh! mother; you may say that to other people--but to me! Of course, I
shall find out.’

‘It was something your uncle James said to me, Mab.’

‘Oh!’ said Mab, satisfied; ‘I am not surprised if he was in it. He does
say such strange things. But he means well enough. Come out, then,
mother, for a walk. That always does you more good than anything.’

‘It is too early; it is not noon yet. It is dissipated going away from
one’s work at this time of the day.’

But the conclusion was that the two ladies did go out, and went to the
river-side, where Lady William sat down on a bench by the landing-place,
while Mab made certain investigations in respect to the boats. It was a
fine morning, but not over bright--one of those gray days in the
beginning of May, when Nature seems to veil herself capriciously by way
of making the after-glory more glorious. The day was gray, with breaks
of quiet light, not bright enough to be called sunshine, through the
clouds, and all the new foliage tempered and softened in its fresh
greenness of spring by the neutral tints that enveloped everything. The
river flowed quietly upon its way, stopping for nothing, indifferent
whether overhead there was sunshine or clouds, working away at the tall
growing reeds on the edge, and sweeping round them, pushing them back
out of its way, sapping the camp-shedding on the other side, hollowing
out the bank that intruded into the current. The soft, strong flowing
carries one’s thoughts with it, whatever they may be, and Lady William
gradually gave way to that silent coercion, and let her more painful
reflections escape her, and the thoughts she could not get rid of swell
round and round her mind like the circles of the stream. The scenery was
not remarkable at that point. From the river, indeed, the pretty little
landing-place, with its bit of green bank, its marshalled boats, and the
old red-and-white houses behind, made a delightful touch of life and
colour: but to the spectators on the bank there was nothing exciting to
be seen, only the grassy shore opposite, the trees, a brown cow or two
coming down to the river, or a passing boat full of travellers, or of
merrymakers, as the chance might be. How softening, pacifying, composing
it was! Mab’s voice talking to the boatman on the river’s edge came
softly through the harmonious air. Who can think, in the mild calm of
such a day, of confusion, or trouble, or shame?

‘I am in much luck,’ said Leo Swinford’s voice behind her, ‘to find you
here; you are not usually to be found out in the morning.’

‘No,’ said Lady William, telling him the reason with a burst of assumed
cheerfulness. ‘It is possible that all Mab’s hopes of her auricula are
spoiled by my fault; yet she forgives me,’ she said. Then suddenly she
put forth her hand and gripped his arm, with a change on her face--‘Leo,
where is Artémise? Find me Artémise!’

‘What is the matter, dear lady?’ he said.

‘Ah! it is of no importance what is the matter. I will tell you
afterwards. It is only this, that I must find Artémise--if I take a
lanthorn myself and go out and search for her.’

‘Ah! you laugh,’ he said, ‘and I am relieved. It is Mrs. Mansfield you
mean--is she Mansfield now?--I think not, nor can I tell what her name
is. Certainly I can find her. I saw her once, as I told you--twice--here
in this village, as if she were living here; and then she came to see my
mother. I am sure she has been with my mother since; but I have not seen
her again.’

‘With your mother is not the question. Your mother, I fear, Leo, would
rather I did not see her. She likes no one to meddle with those she
cares for.’

‘Does she really care for this woman?’

‘Can you ask me? They are near relations, and dear friends, and love
each other.’

‘Are you sure of all that?’ he said; ‘from my mother I have never
heard----’

‘But it is true.’

‘The last I suppose is true,’ said Leo reluctantly. ‘My mother is fond
of her--though why----’

Lady William gave him a look, as if there might be two sides to the
question; then she said: ‘It is of the utmost importance to me to see
her, Leo--and soon. Will you give me your attention, and remember it is
no mere wish--for an old friend.’

‘An old friend! I cannot conceive that she should ever have been a
friend of yours.’

‘Yet, more than that; I desire to see her more than the dearest friend I
have in the world.’

‘Your bidding shall be done, dear lady: should I go myself and take the
lanthorn--as you say. But that will not be necessary. I shall find her;
I hope, more easily--or whatever else you are pleased to wish for,’ he
added in a lower tone. ‘That is too easy. Set me some task that will
prove what I can do.’

Lady William cast at him a keen look from under her eyelids. She
remembered her brother’s adjuration, ‘for all our sakes.’ ‘A romantic
task,’ she said, ‘that would prove what you could do is quite different.
I ask my friend to help me in a way I really want; but no one ever
wanted a white cat that would go through a ring--or was it a shawl? I
forget.’

‘I never thought,’ he said, with an uneasy laugh, ‘that you would send
me off in search of a white cat.’

‘I might, though,’ she said, ‘if the white cat would turn out an
enchanted princess and make you happy all your life after--which I hope
is what will happen one of these days. And my gracious nephew, Leo, did
he leave you as he said?’

Leo replied with another question: ‘How does Miss Mab like it that she
is to be an heiress? I have not seen her to ask her.’

‘You can see her at once. She is there, you see, with her friends the
boatmen; but you must not ask her, please, for she knows nothing of
heiress-ship as yet.’

‘Ah!’ he said, ‘you are afraid to turn her head.’

‘I am not at all afraid of her head, but I am afraid of other things.
Tell me, why did he come here? The Pakenhams are not generous people,
and they are not rich, and I should have known nothing of Lord John’s
fortune. Was it out of kindness to his cousin, whom he did not know,
that he came here?’

‘Ah, who can tell?’ said Leo. ‘He thought, perhaps, that you were sure
to see it in the papers.’

‘But even then I should not have known that Mab had any right.’

‘Who can tell?’ said Leo again, shaking his head, ‘what are the motives
of these people who are above rule, who do not require to behave like
ordinary mortals? He thought, perhaps, yes, of his little cousin--he
thought, perhaps, most likely of himself. He might have thought with all
that fortune that it might be well if Miss Mab, perhaps, should--what do
you call it?--take a fancy to him, and return it all to his pocket,
which is not too full. How can you tell what any one’s motives are, not
to speak of a Lord Will?’

‘It is true,’ said Lady William, with a sigh; ‘but I suppose my best
course now is to wait--to take no steps till I hear from the lawyers.’

‘Perhaps, instead, your own lawyer----’

‘Ah, I have had so little need of one--of course there is a man of
business who used to manage my father’s affairs. One does not seem to
care,’ she said, with a faint laugh, ‘we poor people, who have nothing
but our poverty--to confide all our affairs even to such a man.’

‘Ah, but they are not men--they are like priests. There is a seal as of
the confessional upon their lips. I should not have thought you, who are
so transparent, so open, would have had such a scruple.’

This was a little duel, though neither suspected the object of the
other. Lady William was eager to find out from Leo what ‘the family’ had
intended to do by sending that messenger, and Leo was eager to persuade
Lady William to confide in him, to show him what her difficulty was, and
how far the broken revelations of his mother’s attack upon her were
true. But neither ventured to unravel the motive which was foremost in
their minds. Both endeavoured to extract the information which the other
had no intention of revealing. But to the spectators who were looking
on, the two people on the bench, who were in reality thus resisting and
eluding each other, had an air of great and tender intimacy as they sat
together, each turned towards the other, pursuing their mutual
investigations by the study, not only of what was said, but what was
looked, by the betrayals of the eyes as well as of the tongue. Even Mab,
returning from her long talk with old George the boatman, was a little
struck by the absorbed attention of Leo to her mother, and of her mother
to Leo. With what interest they were talking; seeing no one else that
was near; paying no attention to anything that passed! Lady William was
not wont to lose herself thus in conversation. She had always an eye for
what was going on; for the passing boats on the river, or even for the
clouds and brightness of the sky--and much more for her little girl who
was hanging about anxious to join her, yet daunted a little by this too
animated, too eager talk. Mab had heard a stray word here and there on
the subject of Leo Swinford and his visits, to which she had paid no
attention, but such words will sometimes linger without any desire of
hers in a little girl’s ear.




XXXIX


‘I asked old George to go to your fandango, Jim, and he said he would,
and take another man or two. He said he’d like to hear the young ladies
sing, if they’d sing something as an old man could understand; and he
wouldn’t mind hearing Mr. Jim if he said somethin’ as was funny and
would make a man laugh. Lord, you didn’t want to cry when you went out
for something as pretended to be pleasuring. The old woman can do that
fast enough at home. And as for Mr. Osborne, old George said as he
draw’d the line at him.’

‘What a horrid old man!’ said Florence.

‘No, he’s not at all a horrid old man. He is a great friend of mine; but
he doesn’t like, as he says, and I agree with him, to have some one
always a-nagging at him. When one’s mother does it, it’s horrid: and the
curate would be worse. Jim, do you really like Mr. Osborne that you have
grown such friends?’

‘Well,’ said Jim, with much innocence and a touch of complaisance
besides, ‘it’s him that looks as if he liked me.’

‘What excellent grammar, and what still more excellent humility!’ cried
Florence. Florence was, it must be allowed, a little bitter. Jim’s
acquaintance with the curate had gone on increasing daily. It had done
him a great deal of good--in one way. The doors of the ‘Blue Boar’ were
closed to him: he went there no longer. He thought of the vet. and
Simpkinson, the landlord, with a sort of horror, asking himself whether
it was true that he had actually sought their society. It had been in
pure vacancy he knew now, and because there was no other to be had. But
yet he had persuaded himself that they were very good fellows, and that
to make acquaintance with their ways of thinking was a good thing, and
expanded his knowledge of life and the world. He had all the fervour now
of a new convert in respect to the superiority of his present
surroundings, but still was pleased with the thought that it was Mr.
Osborne who had sought him, and not he who had sought Mr. Osborne. The
curate had thus fulfilled towards him all, and more than all, that
Florence had ventured to suggest. In making Jim believe that it was pure
liking that attracted him, Mr. Osborne had bettered the prayer that had
been made to him. Had he done it for her sake?--who could tell? If it
was so, it was a transfer complete and thorough, for he had never
approached Florence, never spoken to her when he could avoid it, never
looked at her since that day. He said, ‘How do you do, Miss Plowden?’ as
if he had never known more of them than from a chance meeting in the
village street, when he met the sisters. Not even his anxiety about his
entertainment broke down the barrier he had raised between himself and
the girl to whom he had all but offered his heart and life. ‘What is the
matter with Mr. Osborne?’ Emmy had asked of her sister, in
consternation, for it is needless to say that Florry’s sister and
constant companion had been well enough aware of the previous state of
affairs. Florence had not answered the question, but she had preserved
her composure, which was a great thing, and had thus led her sister to
believe that, whatever the matter was, it was a temporary one. Mrs.
Plowden, too, had put a similar question, but had herself answered it in
the most satisfactory way. ‘What has become of Mr. Osborne?’ she said,
and then replied to herself, ‘I suppose since he sees so much of Jim at
his own place, he doesn’t think it worth his while to come here. It
isn’t perhaps very civil to the rest of us; but what does it matter to
any of us? and it is quite an advantage to Jim. I am sure he may be as
rude to me as he likes; if he is nice to Jim, what do I care?’

This did not perhaps make Florence feel less sore. She could not help
feeling that all her own prospects might come to nothing, and so long as
it was well for Jim her mother would not care or any one. To tell the
truth, Mrs. Plowden was of opinion that the curate’s apparent admiration
of Florence had been only a cover for his desire to secure the
friendship of her son, so wonderfully had her mind changed since the
evening when she had bemoaned the use that Mr. Osborne might, but would
not, be to Jim, and when Florence had formed the heroic resolution of
setting that duty before her lover, if he should ever become her lover.
The poor girl had carried out that vow, and had achieved that purpose.
She said to herself that she had nothing to regret. It was far more
important that he should tide Jim over this dangerous period, that he
should restore him to better aims and hopes, than that he should ‘pay
attention,’ as the gossips said, to herself. Florry said to herself
proudly that she wanted no ‘attentions,’ from Mr. Osborne. If he had
loved her, as she once thought, that would have been a very different
matter. But it was apparent enough now that this had never been the
case; and what did she want with him and his attentions? He had been
angry, furious with her for the suggestion she had made to him.
Evidently he was one of the men who think that women should never open
their mouths, should see only what they are told to see. But he was a
man with a conscience, and even the suggestion of a despised girl had
borne fruit. He had been able to put her out of his mind, but not to put
the thing she had said out of his mind. So much the better! He had held
out a rescuing hand to Jim. He was doing the work of a Christian knight
towards her brother. And as for any little delusion of hers, what did it
matter? It was far better so, so long as nobody suspected--as nobody
should suspect, did it cost her her life!--the pang that was in poor
Florry’s heart.

It had been suspected, however--nay, more, divined--by one person, who
was one of the group, coming down the street of Watcham together from
the practice which had been held in the schoolroom on the morning of Mr.
Osborne’s entertainment. Emmy and Florence had gone through their song,
with some applause from the other performers, but not a word from the
curate, who seemed not to make even a pretence of listening, and whose
indifferent aspect was actually rudeness to the two young ladies, his
Rector’s daughters, who had the greatest call upon his attention. He
made himself, on the other hand, very agreeable to the two young London
ladies who abode in one of the villas at Riverbank, and whose
performance upon the piano was not remarkable. Miss Grey, who was
present in her capacity of lay or feminine curate, the official best
known and most fully recognised in the parish, could not help but see
this; and, indeed, there were plenty of other people who remarked it,
wondering whether Mr. Osborne had quarrelled with the Rectory family, a
supposition, however, which was untenable in sight of his intimacy with
Jim. Jim’s reading had the curate’s warmest applause. He referred to Jim
on everything, sent him off to arrange matters, consulted him about the
programme, and the succession of the performances; in short, conducted
himself as if Jim Plowden were his other self and as much the giver of
the entertainment as he was. The last thing he did after the practice
was over, was to call to Jim that he should expect him at five to look
up the fellows at Riverside. In the meantime Mr. Osborne had to
entertain the Winwick contingent. But all this was so strange, so
marked, so unlike Mr. Osborne’s former behaviour, that little Miss Grey,
between consternation and amusement, did not know what to think. She was
an experienced little woman, and she saw very well what was coming when
Florence and the curate left her house together, three weeks before. She
had expected that very day to have another visit from one or both of
them to tell her the great news. And, instead, there was to all
appearance a total disruption between them; and not only so, but
Jim--Jim!--received into the curate’s heart as closest friend and first
favourite apparently, in his sister’s place.

Miss Grey felt that there must be an explanation of this, though she
could not make it out as yet; and, above all, she was very sure that Mr.
Osborne’s rudeness to the Plowdens did not come from nothing. There must
be a reason for it. Whatever it meant, indifference was certainly the
last thing it could mean. And Jim’s complaisance in respect to his new
friendship with the curate made the whole question still more
complicated. ‘It’s him that looks as if he liked me.’ Looks as if he
liked Jim, and looks as if he disliked Florence! But that was more than
Miss Grey, with all her knowledge of man, and even of curate-kind, could
understand. And the slight sharpness in the tone of Florence threw an
additional cloud upon the whole matter. Nobody but must feel that it was
good for Jim to be engaged in the curate’s schemes instead of talking
second-hand politics at the ‘Blue Boar.’ But Florence’s voice had a
sharp tone in it, and in Florence’s self there was a sort of thrill of
offended dignity, which Miss Grey was quick to see. The girl was
wounded, and not much wonder. Her part of the performance was precisely
the one in which Mr. Osborne seemed to take no interest. To be sure,
Miss Grey was not aware that since that fated morning Florence and he
had not exchanged one word that was not indispensable to the
preservation of appearances. And yet she had not refused Mr. Osborne,
which would have explained everything--at least, there was no reason to
suppose that she had refused him. Had she done so it would somehow have
oozed out. Birds of the air carry these matters. It shows upon the
aspect of the rejected more surely than does the delight of acceptance.
And besides, Florence Plowden had not intended to reject--there was no
appearance of that purpose in her. The matter became more and more
mysterious the longer Miss Grey thought it over. She could get no light
upon this mysterious question.

They were all walking along together--a bevy of young people with Miss
Grey in the midst, with a little excitement consequent upon the
performances past and the performance to come, making a good deal of
cheerful noise in the cheerful road. Two or three were always talking at
the same time, and nobody was listening, though Jim found it possible to
hear what Mab was saying to him, and Florence could not help but remark
upon every word that concerned Mr. Osborne. The rest were discussing
their own share in the performance and what the violinists from Winwick
and the rest of the people were going to do. ‘Fiddlers are thought
everything of nowadays,’ said the pianists, ‘and yet where would they be
without an accompanist?’ They thought the same thing of the singers more
or less, and the singers, who were aware that they were themselves the
most popular part of the entertainment, returned that feeling. As for
those who were merely to read, the musical part of the performers had a
sort of impartial and indifferent contempt for them, as for people who
were merely making a little exhibition of themselves--not rivals at all.
Shakespeare or Ingoldsby, the young ladies from Riverbank did not think
it mattered a bit which it was. And even Mab asked, more from civility
than with interest, what Jim was going to do.

‘The “Ride to Ghent”? We have had the “Ride to Ghent” so often. If you
had wanted a ride, you might have taken that other one from Browning,
where the man thought “Perhaps the world will end to-night.”’

‘Do you think the boatmen would care about that?’ said Florence. ‘Oh no,
you don’t know it, Jim. It is a man who is going to have a last ride
with a girl who does not care for him. At all events, he thinks this is
their last ride. And then perhaps he thinks the world may come to an
end.’

‘I don’t see much meaning in that,’ said Jim. ‘I suppose there will
always be plenty other girls in the world. Browning is always so
far-fetched, except----’

‘When he isn’t,’ said Mab, laughing. ‘The “Ride to Ghent,” is not
far-fetched.’

‘But what is it about?’ said Jim. ‘I’ve been asking Osborne, who did
something tremendous in history, in Greats--and he can’t tell me. Now,
if I could say before I begin, “This was after a great fight between
the--what? the Spanish and the Dutch, or something----”’

‘You can say,’ said Mab, ‘that it was a starving time, and if they
didn’t hear the good news they would have to give in--after holding out
till they were nearly dead: though I can’t make out,’ added that young
lady, ‘if the country was so free as that, and Loris and the other two
could ride a whole day without any one disturbing them, why the town
should be starving? But you are not called upon to explain. They would
like the “Pied Piper” still better, you know,’ she continued
reflectively. ‘It’s easier to understand. They want a story, and they
want it to go quick, without reflections--like this,’ said the
experienced little woman of the parish, striking her hands together,
which startled them all.

‘There are nothing but vulgar stories that do that--claptrap things,
things that ladies and gentlemen could not listen to,’ said Emmy
Plowden.

‘Oh, what does it matter about the ladies and gentlemen? I should not
care a bit for them. There is that new Indian man, that writes the
stories--a man with a curious name; but, then, they are not _good_
stories at all. The soldiers drink and swear, and that would never do.
Is it necessary to drink and swear in order to have “go” in you?’ said
Mab. ‘As for your old Ingoldsby, they see it’s meant to be fun, and they
laugh. But they don’t care.’

‘I fear,’ said Florence, always with that little sharp tone in her
voice, ‘that Jim will have to take what he has got, instead of waiting
till the right thing comes.’

‘Is the new schoolmistress going to do something?’ said Miss Grey. ‘I
heard a report---- I don’t like the looks of that woman, but she is as
clever as ever she can be. She could do Lady Macbeth, or--anything she
likes. And she knows--quantities of things, far too much for a village
schoolmistress. I have seen her somewhere before, I am certain, and she
is quite out of her place here. But why doesn’t Mr. Osborne get hold of
her, and see what she could do? She’d make them attend, I’ll warrant
you! There wouldn’t be much wandering attention if she were there.’

‘It’s a pity,’ said Jim stiffly, ‘that she could not hear you, Miss
Grey: for she said the ladies would not like it if she appeared.’

‘She thinks she could throw us all into the shade,’ said Florence--‘we
should be jealous of her, I suppose.’

‘Yes,’ said Jim, ‘of course she would; she would throw everybody here
into the shade.’

He spoke with a little fervour, forgetting, unhappy boy! that he had no
right to know anything whatever of Mrs. Brown.

‘Jim, how should you know?’ said Emmy, mildly; and then, to make bad
worse, Jim stumbled into an explanation how he had gone to her from Mr.
Osborne, and how she had laughed, and ‘said’ something to him, ‘a piece
of poetry,’ Jim called it, which made his hair stand upright on his
head; but after that, she had refused, saying, ‘No, no; the ladies would
not have it, the ladies would not like it.’

‘As if we should care!’ said Florence, with a little sneer. ‘You can go
and tell her if you like, that the ladies have no objection. We are not
jealous, are we--of Mrs. Brown?’

This was not poor Florry’s natural tone, and the sharpness of it went to
one heart at least--that of Miss Grey, who discovered what it meant: and
startled the rest, who did not understand any meaning in it at all.

‘Don’t send Jim,’ said Mab, ‘let me go. I’ll tell her we should all like
her to do--Lady Macbeth or whatever she pleases--and that none of the
ladies would mind--not you, Miss Grey, I may tell her--for perhaps she
thinks the young ones don’t count.’

‘Don’t bother, Mab,’ said Jim hastily, ‘It is too late; even if she were
willing we cannot change the programme now.’

‘Oh, but I am going! I have a fancy for Mrs. Brown,’ said Mab, waving
her hand.




XL


Mab left the others separating on every side towards their homes, and
ran back to the schoolhouse, from which the children had all dispersed a
little while before. She was full of her errand, in which there was a
little sense of mischief as well as of pleasure, the one giving piquancy
to the other. No doubt it was quite true that the ladies were not
jealous of Mrs. Brown. It was to Mab the most amusing thing in the world
that anybody should think so. Florence and Emmy, for instance,
jealous--of a woman twice as old as they were, if she were the most
beautiful and attractive woman in the world! How absurd it was! Youth
has confidence in youth, in a manner as astonishing to the rest of the
world as is the futility of that confidence in so many cases. And to a
girl of seventeen a woman of forty is so entirely out of any sort of
competition with herself that the suggestion is too ridiculous to be
taken into the mind at all. Mrs. FitzStephen, perhaps, or Aunt Jane
might be jealous of Mrs. Brown, but then they had nothing to do with it:
and it was still more absurd to think that these good ladies could have
anything in hand that would make it possible for jealousy to come in.
All this ran through Mab’s cheerful mind as she went back, not noting
the half-alarmed, half-displeased look which Jim threw after her, and
his hesitating step in advance, as if he would have gone too. It was an
exceedingly good joke to Mab, for though, of course, the ladies were not
jealous, they would no doubt be much surprised to see Mrs. Brown
appear--surprised, and perhaps not quite pleased. It was not that they
habitually looked down upon the schoolmistress--even Mab in her short
memory knew of some who had been much petted by the gentry in Watcham.
There was one girl, who was delicate, and who was as much thought of as
if she had been a princess in disguise, all ‘the best people’ uniting to
spoil her, Mab thought, who, being more on this young woman’s level,
saw things with a clear eye. But Mrs. Brown was not a favourite though
nobody could tell why. She had seen better days, which was nothing
against her; but then she had none of that genteel decay about her,
which ought to be characteristic of those who had seen better days. She
appeared, indeed, to make a joke of it all, rather than to lament her
fallen estate. There was always a twinkle in those eyes, which were so
bright, so bold, and so all-seeing. Mab had felt, like all the rest, an
instinctive revulsion against her. But this had died off in that
appreciation of cheerfulness and courage, which was deep in Mab’s
nature. To be less well off than you used to be, and yet take it, not
with a moan, but with a jest, or even a gibe, laughing at yourself,
seemed to Mab a much more attractive thing than the melancholy of
decayed gentility; but this was not the aspect in which the other ladies
regarded it. They would all have been sorry for Mrs. Brown had she taken
her humiliation sadly. What they did not understand was the joke she
made of it, which, to them, seemed impudence and defiance. Perhaps, Mab
thought to herself in the abundance of her thoughts as she ran along,
this feeling on the part of the ladies was what the gentlemen called
jealousy. It was not so bad a guess for a little girl.

It may be added here that Lady William had not made acquaintance with
the schoolmistress from the fact that Lady William, probably by right of
having been herself the Rector’s daughter and born to that work, refused
determinedly to have anything to do with the parish. She did not keep
Mab back from that inevitable work, but she would not herself take any
part. District visiting, schools, mothers’ or girls’ meetings, penny
banks, clothing clubs, all the machinery of the parish, Lady William
kept religiously apart from them all. She had a recipe for beef tea
which was known far and near, the strongest and the most quickly made,
everybody knew, that had ever been heard of, and would go to the kitchen
and make it herself, if old Anne, who was the sovereign there, was out
of the way or out of temper: and puddings came from her house for the
sick people which would have tempted an anchorite to eat: and if warm
things were wanted for the winter there was no end to the flannel
petticoats, the children’s frocks, and the knitted comforters and
stockings which Lady William could turn out. But that was all. She said
lightly that there were plenty of people to manage the parish, and that
it was not her rôle. She took no responsibility, and had not entered the
schools since she was Emily Plowden aiding and abetting all manner of
little rebellions in a way not at all becoming for the Rector’s
daughter. This was one reason she gave for taking no supervision of the
schools now. ‘I should always be on the children’s side,’ she said, and
thus it happened, which was so strange, that she had never even seen
Mrs. Brown.

But Mab knew her very well, and burst into her little house at this hour
which was Mrs. Brown’s own hour, in which the parish had no right to
interfere with her, with an absence of regard which the girl did not
realise, and which no doubt was an unthought-of result of the inferior
position in which the schoolmistress was, though quite unintentional on
the part of the young intruder. She gave the lightest little tap at the
door of Mrs. Brown’s sitting-room, and burst in without waiting for any
reply. Mab was, however, a little taken aback when she found Mrs. Brown
seated at a little meal, which was not only very agreeable to the smell,
but extremely dainty in appearance, much more so, Mab felt
instinctively, than any table she was herself accustomed to. Perhaps it
was the sight of this, so very different from the usual slovenly repast
of the schoolmistresses, which brought Mab up suddenly with a little
start, and cry: ‘Oh, I beg your pardon!’ which she gave forth in spite
of herself.

‘Why should you beg my pardon?’ said Mrs. Brown. She had what seemed a
little silver dish before her--some dainty little twists and loaves of
French bread--a cover on her table of exquisite linen, white and fresh.
Mab knew how it feels when the table-cloth is not in its first freshness
when any one comes, and how frequently that little domestic incident
happens; but Mrs. Brown’s table-cloth shone like white satin, and was
fresh in all its folds. ‘Why should you beg my pardon?’ she said. ‘Do
you think I do not know, Miss Pakenham, that I belong to the parish,
body and soul? I must eat, to be sure, in order to live, but I ought to
know better than to expect that I am to eat undisturbed.’

‘Oh, I beg your pardon,’ said Mab again, crimson with shame; ‘it was so
silly of me not to think: but as it is so early----’

‘I must take my food when the children do so,’ said the schoolmistress;
‘pray sit down. I am not much of a sight when I feed, but still----’

‘I hope you don’t think I came on purpose to disturb you at
your--lunch,’ said Mab. To the schoolmistress of the old _régime_ she
would have said dinner. ‘I came--to ask you if you wouldn’t say
something--I mean recite something, or act something, at the
entertainment to-night. We all think you would do it much better than
any one here.’

‘Do what? How kind of you--almost as if I were on an equality: though,
perhaps it is because of some one having failed that the schoolmistress
may come in? Who has failed, Miss Pakenham, at the eleventh hour? I see,
of course, that in these circumstances to apply to a dependent was the
only way.’

‘Mrs. Brown,’ said Mab, ‘I have always thought you were a lady; but if
you are so ready to think that we are not ladies, I shan’t think so any
more.’

‘Well said!’ said the schoolmistress, laying down her fork. ‘Will you
have a little of my ragout? I have taught my little maid to make it, and
I think it’s very successful. I am fond of good cooking--that is one of
the remnants, though, perhaps, at your age you will not think it a very
romantic one--of my better days.’

‘I should have thought,’ said Mab, ‘if you were like most of the people
who have seen better days, that you would not have cared what you eat.’

‘Ah, yes!’ said Mrs. Brown, ‘that is very true: but I am not like most
of those people. I am not so sure that I regret my better days--or that
if I liked I might not have them back.’

‘Then in the name of wonder,’ said Mab, ‘why do you stay here?--don’t
they often drive you half-mad, those little things that never will learn
to spell, and that can’t remember anything if you were to say it to them
twenty times in an hour? I would not be a schoolmistress a moment longer
than I could help it, if it were me.’

‘Then let us hope it will never be you,’ said Mrs. Brown. ‘The little
girls are not alone in driving one half-mad, as you say. There are
hundreds of things in the world that would drive you much madder if you
knew them as I do.’

‘I suppose you have known--all kinds of things?’ said Mab, looking with
curiosity at her companion, whose eyes were full of knowledge too
strange for the little girl. Mab had forgotten all about her object in
coming, in the interest with which she looked at this curious human
creature, who was like an undiscovered country, a world unrealised to
her young imagination. She felt like an explorer coasting about in a
little skiff to discover unknown headlands and bays of some quaint
island far at sea.

‘Yes, I have known a good many kinds of things,’ said Mrs. Brown,
‘things that would make the hair of the ladies in Watcham stand on end.
I have been in a great many places--and, I am sorry to say, in a great
many wrong places. I am not, to tell the truth, a sort of a woman for
you to associate with, my dear young lady. You ought to draw your
petticoats close round you in case they should touch anything of mine.’

‘I don’t understand you,’ said Mat, greatly startled.

‘No; I did not suppose you would. You would be a capital confessor, for
that reason; for I might pour all my sins into an innocent little ear
like yours, and you would never understand them. Will you really refuse
my ragout? It is very good, I assure you. Then have one of those _pommes
au sucre_; I rather pride myself on them.’

‘They are like apples of gold,’ said Mab, who was so young that a
sweetmeat was a great temptation to her.

‘I wish they were in a dish of silver--for your sake; but here is a
little Dresden plate, which is quite as pretty. And there is a little
pot of cream. This is friendly, now, and gives me pleasure. Your cousin,
Mr. Jim----’

‘Do you know Jim?’ cried Mab, looking up from her apple, which was very
good, with great surprise.

‘Ah, I have known a great many people,’ said Mrs. Brown, ‘your father
among others, and old Lord John, who died the other day. You never saw
your uncle John? Well, you had no great loss; but his money will do you
just as much good as if he had been the greatest hero in the world.’

‘I do not know what you mean about my uncle John and money. Do you mean
to say that you knew my father?’

‘Ah!’ said Mrs. Brown, ‘they have not told you--and I don’t doubt that
was wise enough until all is settled. It was the right thing not to do.’

‘Did you know my father, Mrs. Brown?’

‘My dear, I told you I have known all sorts of people. I knew them all,
more or less, in Paris. There was always plenty going on; and I love to
be where a great many things are going on. I will tell you how I know
your cousin Jim. I am in a very frank humour to-day--in a coming on mood
like Rosalind. I had met him in Oxford, when I was not as I am now, at a
very gay, noisy party indeed, where I was with some people--whom I would
not name in your hearing. I spoke to him here out of prudence, thinking
he might say to his father, the Rector, or his mother, the Rectoress--I
have seen that woman before, and she is not fit to have charge of your
school. So for a selfish motive I made friends with him. It took away
his breath at first; but he is a lamb, poor innocent, like yourself, and
was very sorry to think I should have so come down in the world.’

‘Mrs. Brown!’ cried Mab. She was put at a dreadful disadvantage by that
apple, which was very good, especially with the little pot of cream
poured over it in the most lavish hospitable way. When you have once
accepted such a thing, and are in the middle of it with the spoon in
your hand, and the sweetness melting in your mouth, it is very difficult
to express your consternation, or indignation, or dismay.

‘And my opinion is,’ said the schoolmistress, ‘that he can be stopped
and brought back, if anybody will take the trouble--judiciously--not in
the driving and nagging way. I’m glad to see the curate has stepped in,
though he is no friend of mine. Well! but you would like to hear a
little more of my history. Do you know what a Bohemian is? You must have
seen the word in books. Well, then, I was a Bohemian born. We were both
so; but the other, who was the great lady, settled, as great ladies do,
and had her irregularities about her, in her own kingdom, don’t you
know; but I went out to seek mine. I never did very much harm, however,
or I would not talk to a little girl like you about it. I looked on at
other people’s fun, and that was fun enough for me. There is always mud
about it in the end, and it sticks. I like best to look on----’

Mab had finished her apple by dint of taking large mouthfuls. She had
felt that it would be something dreadful, ungrateful, uncivil beyond
description to put it down and run away. So, though she was much
troubled, she only hurried the more over the consumption of what was on
her plate. When it was finished she put down the plate, thankful to have
it over, yet feeling that even now she could not be so beggarly as to
jump up at once and go away. ‘I wish,’ she said, faltering, ‘please,
Mrs. Brown--that you would not tell me any more----’

‘Oh, don’t be afraid,’ cried Mrs. Brown, with a laugh; ‘I shall not
bring a blush upon that cheek. I have always been in mischief, but I
have not done much harm. I go wherever the whim takes me. I am sometimes
in the heart of the _demi-monde_--though you don’t know where that
is--and sometimes in a great lady’s boudoir, and sometimes in a girls’
school. You may wonder how I got here; but my certificates were
perfectly good, and no one had a word to say against me. The
_demi-monde_, you know, either in London or Paris, has no connection
with Watcham School.’

‘Oh, I wish you would not tell me any more--please don’t tell me any
more!’ cried Mab, rising up (though still deeply sensible that it was
too abrupt after the apple), ‘for,’ she added, in her trouble, ‘I don’t
know at all what you mean.’

‘But my dear young lady,’ said Mrs. Brown, ‘you have neither told me how
you liked my apple, nor what you wanted me to do.’

‘Oh,’ cried Mab, arrested and feeling all the weight of that sin against
the hospitality she had accepted. Her honest little face grew
crimson-red, and her eyes sank for the moment before those bold and keen
ones that seemed to read her very soul. ‘The apple was very nice, thank
you,’ she said, faltering, ‘I--never tasted any like it: but--mother
will be waiting for me for her dinner--I--think I must go.’

‘Tell me first,’ said Mrs. Brown, ‘what you wanted me to do.’

Mab had very seldom been silenced or daunted in her life, or kept from
saying out what was in her mind. For once she had been overcome--chiefly
by the apple and its effects, the sense of familiarity and obligation
thus brought into her embarrassed mind--but such an embarrassment could
not last, nor was she cowed except for a moment by Mrs. Brown’s
personality--potent though it was.

‘I wish,’ she cried, ‘you had not told me these things. You put a weight
upon my mind, for, of course, I cannot tell them to anybody, and I shall
have to carry them all about as if they were secrets of mine. It was not
just or fair to tell me--when I can’t tell them again or free myself
from knowing, or forget for a long time what you have said. And as for
what we wanted you to do--it was when we thought you were only Mrs.
Brown, a lady that was poor, and obliged to put up with the school to
get her living. Which did not matter to anybody--but now--now----’

‘You are disappointed in me,’ said Mrs. Brown. ‘You think I am not a
lady, or obliged to get my living--and you think you had better say no
more about it. You are quite right, for I should not have done it
whatever you had said to me. I have a great curiosity, however, I
confess, to know what it was to be.’

‘Please!’ said Mab, ‘of course I know you are a lady, but it is all
different; they thought you might have done--Lady Macbeth--or something.
But all that doesn’t matter now.’

‘Lady Macbeth--or something. What other thing did their wisdom think
could go beside Lady Macbeth? No, my dear Miss Pakenham, I will not do
Lady Macbeth--or anything. Tell the ladies I make my courtesy down to
the ground,’ she did so as she spoke with the greatest gravity, while
Mab followed her every movement fascinated, ‘for their kindness and for
their thought that I was good enough to exhibit myself among them. You
know now that I am not good enough. I am not a decayed gentlewoman that
has known better days; but don’t hesitate on my account to clear your
bosom of that perilous stuff. Tell it out, my dear, run home and tell it
all to my lady, your mamma.’

She stopped short suddenly, but as if she would have said a great deal
more. Mab seemed to stop short, too, in the hot tide of her interest as
the schoolmistress paused. It was as if some swift career and progress
of horse or man had been drawn up and cut short in their midst. Mab’s
breath, which she had held in the great fever of her interest, burst
from her with a kind of gasp. She seemed to herself to have been stopped
short on the edge of some precipice.

‘Did you know,’ she said, hesitating, and thinking over every word,
‘my--mother--_too_?’

Mrs. Brown apparently did not expect this question. She stared at her
for a moment, and then burst into an uneasy laugh and turned away.

‘Sarah, Sarah,’ she cried, clapping her hands, ‘it is almost time for
school; come and clear these things away.’




XLI


Mab went home from her visit to Mrs. Brown a very different girl from
that little person who had run off from the group of her friends to ask
the co-operation of the schoolmistress--which had seemed to her a very
amusing mission. She had wondered much how it would be taken--with
satire or with pleasure. Mrs. Brown’s tongue was one which could sting,
Mab knew; but a tongue is all the more amusing for that, when its sting
is not for one’s self. Mab rather liked to hear her sending her arrows
from right to left. She had thought that probably it was misfortune that
caused this, and the sense which people who have seen better days are
apt to entertain that it is somehow a wrong to themselves that other
people should be prosperous. We are all, unfortunately, too apt to feel
so. Blatant prosperity, smiling and smooth, how hard it is for the rest
of us not to hate its superior well-being, even if we do not think that
it is something taken from ourselves. But that was a very different
thing from the dreadful confidences which Mab had received, and which
made of her, even herself, who had certainly nothing to do with Mrs.
Brown’s sin, a heavy-laden and burdened spirit. Little Mab, who had run
down to the schoolhouse as light as a feather--though she was not, as
the reader is aware, one of your thread-paper girls--came back from it
as if she had carried that pack upon her back which Christian had in the
_Pilgrim’s Progress_. The pack belonged to Christian himself, and he had
a right to bear it; but, I repeat, Mab had nothing to do with Mrs.
Brown’s sins. And I am not at all sure what Mab conceived these sins to
be; she knew nothing about them: they were something vaguely terrible,
vaguely yet frightfully guilty to her childish sense of purity and
rectitude. And yet Mrs. Brown was the schoolmistress, the woman who had
all the Watcham girls in her hands; and Mab alone, of all the parish,
knew that she was not fit to be trusted with that charge. She walked
home with the tread and the air of a woman of fifty, her soft brow lined
with prodigious scores of thought, her spiritual back bent under this
burden. Mab knew, while all the parish lay in darkness. And Mab, the
Rector’s niece, and a district visitor, and Lady Bountiful from her
cradle, had a duty to the parish which a person less bound with ties of
duty might not have thought of. There was her duty to the parish, and,
on the other hand, there was her duty to her penitent; for, though she
had not asked to have that high office, still Mab felt that she had been
adopted as the confessor of the sinner. Sinner was a better name for her
than penitent, for she was not penitent; but yet she had trusted Mab.
And what was the person so trusted to do?--betray it to the parish, or
to any one in the parish? Oh, no, no! And yet was not that to betray the
parish and its trust and confidence in herself? If you can imagine any
subject more likely to score with wrinkles a brow of seventeen, such a
divination is beyond my powers. Mab thought and thought, turning the
question over and over in her mind with more curiosity than if she had
been a philosopher in search of a new theory. What it is right to do
between two conflicting duties is a question for a moralist more than a
philosopher, if there is, indeed, any difference between the two. It was
a tremendous question. She did not see her friend, the General, though
he took off his hat and waved it in cordial greeting as she passed his
garden hedge; nor Miss Grey, who had run after her, but finally gave up
the chase, unable to make Mab hear her call. Lady William was waiting,
though not impatiently, for the mid-day meal, which was the chief repast
in the cottage, when Mab reached home: her mother called out to her to
make haste, for Anne in the kitchen was apt to lose her temper when her
ladies were unpunctual. But Mab was too much confused to make haste. She
did not come down for a quarter of an hour, until Anne was half-wild,
and Patty in the highest agitation. The dinner had already been sent in,
which should have pacified Anne, but she was something of an artiste, in
feeling at least, and could not bear her dishes to be spoiled. Mab heard
her voice from the depths of the kitchen intoning comminations, and saw
that Patty had tears in her eyes, though they sent out pretty sparks of
satisfaction at sight of the laggard.

‘Oh, Miss Mab, the soup’s cold,’ she ventured to say, even Patty thus
raising a protest.

But Lady William was not very severe. ‘You little sluggish thing,’ she
said. ‘What have you been doing? Patty and I have been suffering much
from Anne. And I fear the soup will be quite cold.’

‘Oh, that’s all the better,’ said Mab, trying to pluck up a spirit, ‘for
it’s a very warm day.’

‘I am glad you find it so,’ said Lady William, with a shiver. ‘May is
seldom so hot in England as to make cold soup desirable. And how did the
practice go off, and where have you been? for I saw Emmy and Florry go
home a long time ago.’

‘I have been to Mrs. Brown. They wanted her to act something. She is a
very funny woman. She was at her lunch, or dinner, or whatever she calls
it. She gave me an apple, which she called _Pomme au sucre_, and I never
tasted anything so nice.’

‘Oh, she is like that, is she?’ said Lady William; ‘the woman who has
seen better days.’

‘Yes, mother, she is like that,’ said Mab; even to say so much as this
relieved her mind a little, though she had no idea what was meant by the
question or reply.

‘And is she going to--act? To act, did you say?--that will be an odd
thing for the schoolmistress to do.’

‘They thought--she might do Lady Macbeth--or something.’

‘Or something!’ said Lady William, just as Mrs. Brown had done: ‘that
will be still more odd,’ she added, with a laugh. ‘And is she going to
do it, Mab? I shall see this woman, then, at last.’

‘No, she is not going to do it, mother. She laughed at the idea. She
said, “Lady Macbeth--or something,” just as you did. She is a very
strange woman, but I don’t think that you would like her.’

‘Probably not,’ said Lady William. ‘It is, perhaps, unkind to say it,
but I am not very fond of the decayed gentlewoman in general. It would
serve me right,’ she said, with half a smile and half a sigh, ‘to end
like that myself.’

‘But how could that be?’ said Mab. It was one of those questions to
which there is no answer possible. Nor did she expect an answer. But it
brought a little cloud over Lady William’s brow. Indeed, it was all Lady
William could do to keep her face tolerably unclouded, and her
conversation as cheerful as usual for Mab’s sake. And this struggle on
her mother’s part kept Mab’s unusually serious face from being noticed
as it otherwise must have been. After that there were no further
questions asked about Mrs. Brown, and Mab went out to her gardening and
the many other occupations which filled up her time. But whatever she
was doing this heavy question hung upon her mind, and she carried with
her the burden that was like Christian’s, yet which she had not, like
him, any right to bear. Her duty to the parish was to denounce the woman
who ought not, with her mysterious guiltiness, to have the training of
the girls of Watcham. And her duty to her penitent was to keep
everything jealously within her own breast which had been confided to
her, so to speak, under the seal of confession. Mab had, as was natural,
a tremendous sense of her responsibility to both, but how she was to
reconcile the two was more than she could think of. She determined at
last upon a compromise, which was not indeed half sufficient to meet the
case, but which was the only thing she could think of. She herself, she
concluded, would for the future go constantly to the school, and thus
neutralise any evil that might be produced by Mrs. Brown. She would go
and watch over the girls, and see that their morals were all right, and
that nothing was said or done to lead them astray. By dint of thinking
it over the whole afternoon, shutting herself up alone to wrestle with
it, refraining even from tea in order that her deliberations might be
unbroken--this was the middle course to which Mab attained. She could
not betray Mrs. Brown. That was out of the question: and it was also
dreadful to think of betraying the parish, which, alas! if it knew what
Mab knew, would not continue Mrs. Brown in her place for a single day;
but if Mab took it upon herself--her little innocent self--to watch over
the girls, to be there early and late, guarding them from every
allusion, from every lesson that could hurt them--would not that make up
for the silence? She would watch the children as nobody else could
watch. She would have eyes like the lynx and ears like those who heard
the grass growing. This was what Mab determined upon in the anxiety of
her soul.

She had persuaded her mother to go to the entertainment, though it was a
dissipation to which Lady William was noways inclined. But Mab,
notwithstanding the sad check that had been put upon her by the
forenoon’s proceedings, was very anxious about the delights of the
evening, which were of a kind unusual in Watcham, where there was so
very little going on. A concert was of the rarest occurrence. A little
comedy had once been known to be played in the large room of the ‘Blue
Boar’ by a strolling company, and, as we are aware, there had been a
dance at General FitzStephen’s. But the occasions that occurred in
Watcham of putting on a best cap or a flower in your hair and sallying
forth in the evening without your bonnet, to meet other persons under
the same beatific conditions, were so very rare that nobody wished to
miss the curate’s entertainment. There had been very grave and serious
questions among the ladies as to the point of costume, some being of
opinion that as the entertainment was primarily for the working people,
it would be ‘better taste’ on the part of the ladies and gentlemen not
to go in evening dress, or at all events to shroud their glories in
bonnets on one side, and great-coats on the other. This, however, had
been boldly combated by Mrs. Plowden, who maintained that it would be
much better for ‘the poor things’ to have the exhilarating spectacle for
once in a way of ladies in their evening toilettes, and gentlemen with
shirt-fronts that could be seen half a mile off. It would do them good,
the Rector’s wife said, to see that the best people were ready to mingle
with them thus on a sort of equal terms, coming to enjoy themselves just
as the boatmen did. And it was absolutely necessary that the young
ladies who were to perform should be arrayed and made to look their
best; it would have been very hard upon them to step down from the
platform amongst a mass of bonnets, and thus be made conspicuous in the
assembly even when they had finished their exertions in its behalf. I
don’t think that Mrs. Plowden had the least difficulty in bringing the
others to her opinion, and accordingly the front seats in the schoolroom
where the performance was to take place, were peopled by a small, and
select, but distinguished audience, which rather over-shadowed, it must
be allowed, and put out the homely ranks behind, and made the curate
gnash his teeth when he saw immediately in front of his presiding chair
all the shining shirt-fronts and frizzed or smooth locks, or
lace-covered heads of the familiar little society of Watcham. Poor
higher classes! They wanted a little amusement to the full as much, or
perhaps more, than the boatmen and their wives from Riverside. And,
perhaps, had they been at the back and the others in front, Mr. Osborne
would not have minded. As it was, perhaps in this as in greater matters
all was for the best--for General FitzStephen’s high head prevented the
curate from seeing how old George from the landing yawned over the
quartette of the violinists from Winwick. Breeding is everything in such
cases, for the General was quite as much bored as old George; yet he
applauded when it was over (partly in thankfulness for that fact) as if
he had never heard anything so beautiful before.

As for Mab, she was able to forget for the moment her interview with
Mrs. Brown. Not only was it pleasant to be out in the evening--though
only in a white frock high up to the neck, which was in reality a
morning dress, but quite enough in Lady William’s opinion for such an
entertainment; but the excitement of feeling that she had really a part
in the performance through the songs of Emmy and Florence, and the
recitation of Jim, enlivened her spirits and raised her courage. The
Rectory girls sang two duets, far better in Mab’s opinion than all the
other performers, and she felt sure that if Florence, whose voice was so
much the strongest, had but had the courage to sing alone--! But this
was a suggestion that Florence had crushed at once. It was bad enough to
stand up there in face of all these people with Emmy to support her: but
alone!

‘Don’t you think it was rather silly of Florry to be so particular,’
whispered Mab, ‘when they have all known her--almost since she was
born?’

‘No. I don’t think it was silly,’ said Miss Grey decisively.

‘Oh! but you never think any one silly,’ said Mab.

‘Don’t I!’ said Miss Grey, with a truculence which left all the swearing
roughs of Riverside far behind. ‘I know who I think silly,’ said that
enraged dove.

Mab’s eyes ranged over all the people on the platform in astonishment,
to see who could be the object of this outburst.

‘Not poor Jim?’ she said, faltering.

‘Jim is worth a dozen of him,’ said Miss Grey.

There was only one face that was not friendly and bright. And that was,
Mab supposed, because Mr. Osborne was so anxious that everything should
go off well. Florence, the duet just over, was standing within three
steps of him, with a little group about her congratulating her on her
success, and the sound of the applause behind was still riotous in the
room. Old George was very audibly exclaiming at the top of his gruff
voice: ‘That’s your sort now! that’s somethin’ as a man can understand;’
while some of the Riverside lads, the people Mr. Osborne had been so
anxious about, kept on clapping their big rough hands persistently, when
everybody else had stopped, not daring to cry encore to the young
ladies, but signifying their wishes very clearly in that way. The two
girls hesitated and lingered, kept by their friends from retiring while
this noisy but timid call went on, which presently was joined in by all
the front benches, under the leadership of the General, who was not at
all shy, and cried ‘encore’ lustily. Mr. Osborne grew more gloomy than
ever, and called imperiously for the next performers. ‘We must stick to
the programme,’ he cried; ‘we shall never get done at this rate,’ and
the Winwick amateurs came up again with their fiddles, while Emmy and
Florry stole away, escaping abashed from their friends, who were
discomfited too. It was then that Miss Grey said between her closed
teeth, ‘I know who I think is silly;’ as if she would have liked to
crush that person in her little hand which (in a very ill-fitting glove)
she clenched as she spoke. If he had been a butterfly he would have had
no chance in that clenched fist of Miss Grey.

And then Jim came up smiling and delivered his ‘Ride,’ and was applauded
till the roof rang, chiefly, however, because he was Jim, and there was
something about racing horses in what he had read. ‘That’s your sort,’
old George said again, but more doubtfully; ‘though I’d like to have
known a little more about them horses,’ he added; and shortly after the
entertainment came to an end. There was no doubt it had been a great
success. While the common people streamed out, not sorry to be able to
stretch their limbs and let loose their opinion, and indemnify
themselves for having been silent so long, the audience in the front
benches lingered to pay their respects and congratulations, and to
assure the curate that everything had gone off beautifully. ‘I hope the
Riverside people enjoyed it. I am sure _I_ did,’ said General
FitzStephen. Mr. Osborne looked at that gallant officer as if he would
have liked to knock him down. He could not have shown a more angry and
clouded face had the entertainment been a failure. ‘Oh yes. I suppose it
has done well enough,’ he said. Mab, who did not know what all this
meant, but who was able to perceive that something was wrong, was fixing
her wits upon this mystery, and very anxious to know what it meant, when
she suddenly heard a little cry from her mother, whose eyes were fixed
upon the last stragglers of the crowd going out, and who suddenly broke
off in the midst of a conversation, and with every appearance of
excitement suddenly rushed out after some one--Mab could not tell whom.
Mab rushed after her mother full of astonishment and eager curiosity,
but only to find Lady William standing outside looking vaguely round her
with an anxious, bewildered look upon her face. ‘What is it, mother? Who
is it?’ Mab cried. ‘Do you want to speak to somebody?’ ‘I am certain,’
cried Lady William, ‘I saw her in the crowd. She turned round for a
moment and I saw her face.’ ‘Who is it, mother? Who is it, mother?’
cried Mab. But Lady William did not make any reply to her. She turned
round to another who had rushed after her (‘_That_ Leo Swinford, of
course,’ Mab said to herself) and put out her hand to him, as if he,
and not her child, could help her. ‘I have seen her, I am sure I have
seen her!’ she cried--and she repeated in a tone of rising excitement
what she had said before--‘with a black veil over her head. She turned
round as she went out of the door; and there was Artémise. Oh, find her
for me; find her, Leo!’ Lady William cried.




XLII


Next morning, however, there came a crisis which drove all thought of
anything else for the moment out of Lady William’s mind.

It came in the shape of a letter laid upon her innocent breakfast table,
along with the little bunch of correspondence, very small, and very
unimportant, which was all that the post generally brought to that
peaceable house. Lady William had, of course, a friend or two with whom
occasionally she exchanged those utterly unimportant letters which form
so large a portion in the lives of some unoccupied women. It would be
hard to grudge these poor ladies so innocent a pleasure, but their
letters were not exciting enough to make a woman like Lady William, who
felt that she had herself a great deal to do, and did not want that
gentle stimulant, very impatient for the arrival of the post: and her
mild correspondence waited for her quite contentedly on both sides till
she had performed various little morning duties, and was ready to sit
down to breakfast. The long blue envelope, however, alarmed her a little
whenever she saw it, and yet there was nothing so very alarming in it,
for it was a similar envelope, directed in the same writing, as that
which brought her the cheque for her quarterly allowance, which, as it
happened, was now a little overdue. She lingered, however, over the
letter--though it did enclose a cheque, which she took out and laid upon
the table--much longer than she was wont to linger over the letters of
Messrs. Fox and Round. She read it carefully over, and then she folded
it up, put it in its envelope, and poured out the coffee. But before she
touched her own cup, returned to the letter; took it once more from its
envelope, read it all over again, and put it back once more. Mab had a
little letter of her own to read, all about nothing, from a girl of her
own age, so that she did not for a minute or so observe these
proceedings of her mother. But she very soon did so, and divined not
only from them, but from the manner in which Lady William swallowed her
coffee and pushed away the innocent rolls on the table as if they had
done her some harm, that all was not as usual. When Lady William spoke,
however, it was in a voice elaborately calm.

‘Are you going out this morning, Mab?’

‘Yes, mother--I am going----’ Mab paused a moment. She had got up that
morning with her mind full of the weighty determination of last night;
but it seemed to her that if she said she was going to the school it
might partly betray the secret which was not hers, but which lay so
heavy on her soul. ‘I think,’ she went on, correcting herself, ‘I will
run over and see how they feel at the Rectory, now it’s over, about last
night. And I will probably look in at the school,’ she added, for to
have a secret from her mother was dreadful to her, ‘before I come back.’

‘If you are going to the Rectory,’ said Lady William, ‘tell your Uncle
James that I should like to see him, Mab.’

‘Yes, mother;’ but Mab could not help glancing aside at the letter with
an awakened interest, and wondering what Uncle James, so infrequent a
visitor on ordinary occasions, could be wanted for--again.

‘You are right, Mab,’ said her mother, ‘it is about business and about
this letter in particular. And if you can give him my message without
anybody else knowing, I shall be all the better pleased.’

‘Is it about--Uncle Reginald, mother?’

‘About Reginald! Oh no, you may make your mind easy. It is not about
Reginald. It is,’ she said, with a sudden desire for sympathy,
‘something much more important to you and me; but I cannot tell you
now,’ she added, remembering herself, ‘you will know of it all in time.’

‘Is it from Mr. Leo, mother?’ said Mab, growing very pale, and towering
over the table as she looked at her mother, with severity, yet terror,
as if she had suddenly grown a foot in stature. Lady William, altogether
engrossed in other thoughts, gave her a look of astonishment which was
balm to Mab’s soul.

‘From Leo!’ she said, amazed. ‘Why should it be from Leo? I told you,’
she said, with a little impatience, ‘that it was a letter of importance,
which none of his little communications could be. Tell your uncle,’ she
continued, falling into her usual tone, ‘that I have received a letter
on which I wish to consult him. Remember that I have no secrets,’ she
said, suddenly looking up; ‘I don’t want you to make a mystery; but if
you could see him--by himself, to give him my message----’

‘Oh yes, I can do that easily,’ said Mab, in the relief of her mind. ‘I
want to say something to him about Mrs. Brown.’

‘I must see this Mrs. Brown,’ said Lady William, with a smile. ‘She
seems to have a fascination for you, Mab.’

At this unexpected and most unintentional carrying of the war into her
own country Mab flushed crimson, and cried quickly: ‘Oh no, nothing of
the sort. I don’t even _like_ her. She is not like any one else I ever
saw.’

‘I must see her--one of these days,’ said Lady William vaguely: and then
the faint smile died off her face, and she turned to contemplate the
long blue letter which lay by her plate. It looked a dangerous thing
among the little inoffensive white and gray envelopes. Lady William’s
letters were chiefly gray, written upon that ugly paper which people,
and especially ladies, use out of economy, and which is one of the
additional (small) miseries of life.

Mab felt much ashamed of her foolish question as she went out, but hoped
her mother had forgotten, or had not attached any meaning to it. It was
all the fault of the horrid people who talked--as if there was anything
strange in Mr. Swinford’s visits. ‘Where else should he go?’ Mab said
indignantly to herself. ‘To the FitzStephens or the Kendalls, who are
six times as old as he is? or to the Rectory, where Aunt Jane would talk
to him all the time, and the girls never could get in a word? How
different mother is! I don’t think I have ever seen any one so nice as
mother! Well, of course, she is mother, which is a great thing in her
favour; but not, perhaps, in the way of society. Emmy and Florry are
very fond of Aunt Jane. She is very nice and kind if you are ill, and
all that; but I am sure they would rather talk a little themselves
sometimes, rather than just listen to her, especially when it is Mr.
Leo.’ This was the result of Mab’s unprejudiced observation, and she was
much ashamed of herself for having been moved to ask the very
inappropriate question which her mother had not paid any attention to,
thank heaven. Mab, as good luck would have it, met the Rector at his own
door, and conveyed her message in the most natural way in the world.
‘Mother would like to see you, Uncle James. Would you go into the
cottage as you pass? She has got a letter.’

‘Oh, she has got a letter?’ said the Rector.

Mab longed to say, ‘Not a letter from Leo Swinford, an important letter,
a letter about business,’ but she restrained her inclination. Probably
Uncle James had never thought upon that other subject. She went on
quickly to the Rectory, in order to carry out her own programme which
she had in a way bound herself to by announcing it to her mother. But
she did not find the girls at the Rectory very anxious to talk over the
events of the previous night. Mrs. Plowden, indeed, had no objection to
discuss it fully; but it was in its connection with Jim that she thought
of it most.

‘If it had not been for Jim,’ Mrs. Plowden said, ‘Mr. Osborne might just
have kept all his music and his things to himself. Oh yes, I daresay,
the FitzStephens, and Kendalls, and ourselves, and those people from the
villas would have come; but, as for the men from Riverside, they came
for Jim, not for him. And did you hear, Mab, what a noise they made with
their cheers and their clappings after Jim’s piece? They thought that
the gem of the whole evening. They came chiefly to hear that. As for Mr.
Osborne, with his little speeches and his fiddles from Winwick----’

‘Oh, mamma,’ cried Emmy, ‘the violins were a great treat. We have not
heard any music like that in Watcham for ever so long.’

‘Well, you may say what you like about fiddles,’ said the Rector’s wife,
‘but there’s always something a little like a village fair in them to
me. And the poor people were bored beyond anything. They liked your
songs, girls, and wanted to encore them if Mr. Osborne would have
allowed it; and they liked that piano bit, with the tunes from the
_Pinafore_. They understood that, and so do I, I allow; but what do they
care for a classical quartette? I don’t myself, and I know more about
music than they can be supposed to do. But a fine, stirring thing like
Jim’s “Ride to Aix”----’

‘It was Mr. Browning’s “Ride to Aix,” mamma.’

‘As if I did not know that! But, all the same, it was Jim’s ride to me.
Don’t you think he did it great justice, Mab? I never heard it come off
so well. The people were so attentive. That and the duets were certainly
the success of the evening; and what it would have been without them I
can’t tell.’

‘It would have been much more satisfactory without them, mamma,’ cried
Florry, half turning a shadowed countenance towards her mother. ‘Mr.
Osborne did not want mere amusement for the people--he wanted them to
take pledges, and turn from drinking. That was his object, don’t you
know--and a far better object than hearing two poor little country birds
like Emmy and me sing. And I approve of it,’ said Florence a little
loudly, as if she would have liked all the world to hear.

Mrs. Plowden looked at Mab and shrugged her shoulders behind her
daughter. ‘I can’t think what has come over Florry,’ she said. ‘She has
grown so domineering of late--I dare not say a word.’

What Mab thought was that poor Florry looked dark, and pale, and out of
heart--she seemed to be losing her good looks and her merry ways. It was
rare, very rare, when she put forth any of her old arts of mimicry which
the elders laughed yet pretended to frown at, and which all the young
ones delighted in; but I will not have it supposed that Mab was so
precocious as to divine what was the matter with Florence--for this, to
tell the truth, never came into her unconscious thoughts.

The Rector hurried along to see his sister after he had received Mab’s
message. He was anxious and disturbed about the state of affairs, and
very desirous to find some way of setting his poor Emily straight, and
making her independent, as she would be gloriously, did this great
fortune come to Mab. If, perhaps, he was at the same time not quite
sorry that she had been brought to see she was not so able to do
everything for herself as she supposed, and had it proved to her in the
most effectual way that to have respectable relatives to fall back upon
was the greatest blessing a woman could have, it was no more than
natural: and certainly above all, his desire was to be able to help her,
and ‘pull her through:’ but it would be uphill work he felt, and require
all the efforts that he himself could make. His brow was full of care
when he went into the room in which she sat expecting him; not, indeed,
looking so serious as he did, but, still, with work enough for all her
thoughts.

‘Well?’ he said, as he drew a chair opposite to her, and sat down on the
other side of the table at which she sat at her work. He bent forward
across this little table, fixing upon her a look of such solemnity that
Lady William’s first impulse (though, heaven knows, she was not in a
merry mood) was to laugh at his portentous looks, which would have been
very inappropriate and improper, and would have shocked Mr. Plowden more
than words could say. As she checked herself in this impulse there burst
from her instead something which was half a sob and half also a chuckle:
but he took it as a sob, which was much the best.

‘My dear,’ he said, ‘my dear!’ putting his hand upon hers, ‘it can’t be
so bad as that you should cry about it. We will stick to you, whatever
happens. Come, Emily, take heart, take heart!’

‘I am not losing heart,’ she said. ‘I have expected it, you know. It is
a distinct demand for my certificates. And now the moment is come when I
must decide what to do.’

‘Is this the letter?’ he said. It was lying on the table between them,
and Mr. Plowden took it up and read it over with great care, making
little comments of distress with his tongue against his palate, ‘Tchich,
tchuch,’ as he did so. Lady William went on with her work, raising her
eyes to him from time to time as he read. His arrival and his tragic
looks had amused her for the moment, but those distressful, inarticulate
remarks acted after a while on her imagination and nerves.

‘You think it a very bad business, James? How I wish,’ she said, ‘that
John, who never was a friend of mine, could have lived for ever, or
carried his dirty money with him to the grave!’

‘I don’t think that is a very Christian wish, Emily.’

‘What, to wish him alive and in enjoyment of all he ever possessed?’

‘Oh, well, perhaps that is one way of looking at it,’ said the Rector,
‘but, my dear, the noble family to which in fact you belong----’

‘And which show their belief in me so nobly,’ said Lady William, this
time permitting herself to laugh.

‘The noble family to which you belong,’ repeated Mr. Plowden with a
little irritation, ‘will be very much benefited by this money. That nice
young Lord Will as good as said so: and your own daughter, Emily, if all
goes well, and we are able to establish your rights----’

‘If!----’ she cried, with a flash of her eyes which seemed for the
moment to set the room aflame.

‘You know what I mean. I at least have no doubt what your rights are:
the question now is what is the best thing to do.’

‘Yes,’ said Lady William, ‘we are in front of something definite at
last. I have done little but think about it, as you may suppose, ever
since you brought me that crushing news: and it seems to me that there
are several ways that are open to us: the first----’

‘Emily,’ said the Rector, ‘by far the best, and first step to take, in
my opinion, is to consult Perowne--which we should have done long ago.’

‘What could Mr. Perowne do? He could not rebuild the chapel and restore
the books and bring back poor Mr. Gepps to life again. He might put my
answer into formal words, but that is quite unnecessary. I have not the
least inclination to consult Mr. Perowne----’

‘Still, he must know how such things are managed better than we can do,’
murmured the Rector.

‘Such things--what things? You speak as if this was a common case.’

‘No, no, Emily, no, no----’

‘When it is, perhaps, such a case as never occurred before,’ she said.
‘I can answer these men formally to their questions, but to him I should
have to go into the whole matter, explaining everything from the first
step to the last. No, I will not ask Mr. Perowne for his opinion,’ she
said. Her countenance, naturally so soft in colour, was suffused with a
sudden flush. ‘Anything but that,’ she repeated, in almost an angry
tone.

It is so difficult to be purely business-like in matters where men and
women are concerned. Mr. Perowne, the ‘man of business’ employed by the
old Rector of Watcham, the father of Emily Plowden--had taken upon him
to admire that young lady, and to make certain overtures which were not
received graciously in the days that were gone. Lady William would
rather have died than disclose all the circumstances of her marriage, as
well as the possible doubt that might be thrown upon it, to her former
lover. It was no figure of speech to say this; she would rather have
died. But to her brother it all seemed very foolish, and to show an
arrogant confidence in her own judgment which he did not share.

‘Well,’ he said, ‘of course, it is your own business, and I cannot
interfere with you, Emily: but that lawyer should meet lawyer is surely
a much better way than that you should think you could encounter Messrs.
Fox and Round--who are, of course, experienced in all sorts of
villainy--in your own strength.’

‘It is a mere simple statement of fact that has to be made to them,’ she
said. ‘I will write and say I have no certificates, but that one person
is still alive who was present at my marriage if she can be found: and
that my father----’

‘For goodness’ sake!’ cried the Rector. ‘What, what do you mean--you are
going to show your hand at once to these men, and let them see that you
have no proof at all?’

‘My father’s diary is the best of evidence,’ she said. ‘The law is not
such a bugbear as you make it out to be. There must be some sense and
justice in it: my father’s word, a clergyman, and a man of honour----’

‘They may say it is a got-up thing, and what so easy as for me to write
that entry in an old book? I write very like my father.’

‘What folly, James! You! as little likely to cheat as my father, a
clergyman, and a man of honour too!’

‘We might say,’ said the Rector, ‘for I have been thinking it over too,
my dear Emily--that you were married at St. Alban’s Proprietary Chapel,
Backwood Street, Marylebone, on such a day and year, by the incumbent,
the Reverend T. I. Gepps: and leave it to them to got a copy of the
register for themselves--if they can,’ he added grimly. ‘The books, of
course, ought to have been saved, and perhaps some of them may be. It is
their business to find all that out.’

This specious suggestion staggered Lady William for the moment. ‘But
when they find out that the church is burnt, the book destroyed, and the
clergyman dead--which is a catastrophe almost too complete for the
theatre--they may think we have chosen the place on that account, and
that we mean fraud and nothing else.’

‘I,’ cried the Rector, ‘meaning fraud--and you! It would be just as easy
to suppose that I had forged the entry in my father’s diary. I hope we
are two honourable people.’

Lady William shook her head.

‘I hope so too: but I could not send them on such a wildgoose chase,
which would certainly harm us in the end, without letting them know the
truth.’

‘Oh, the truth,’ cried the Rector. ‘Isn’t it all the truth, both one
thing and the other? The truth is all very well and can’t be altered
were you to harp upon it for ever, but what they want and what we want
is the proof.’




XLIII


Leo Swinford had been during all these proceedings haunted with a sense
of a visitor about the house, whose comings and goings were kept secret
from him. Those who were concerned were much too clever to permit this
to be known or suspected by the risks of absolute meeting, by sudden
withdrawal into corners, whisking past of clandestine shadows in the
dark. It was not that he ever met Mrs. Brown on the stairs or in the
hall, or just missed meeting her, as is generally the case under such
circumstances. She had, as has been said, an entrance kept for herself,
which opened upon the back part of the house, where there was a thick
shrubbery, and where it would have been as impossible to find a fugitive
in the dark as to find the proverbial needle in a bottle of hay. And
Artémise was far too deeply learned in all the lore of evasion to be
caught within the house. Nevertheless, he was well aware that the place
was haunted by a personality very, perhaps unjustly, disagreeable to
him, and with which he associated all those vague suspicions and
troubles which haunt the mind of a child brought up among family secrets
and discoveries. He had been accustomed all his life to this
uncomfortable sense of some one about who was not seen, who had
presumably unacknowledged errands of mischief-making, and whose
presence, whose very existence, was inimical to family peace. That Leo’s
thoughts went a great deal too far, and that this curious secret agent
and confidante exercised, in fact, no evil influence, but had in many
cases held the side of honour and justice, was a fact that Leo was not
only quite unaware of, but totally incapable of believing in. It had
always been, indeed, a sort of consolation when there was anything
equivocal in Mrs. Swinford’s proceedings, to be able to think that it
was not his mother who was to blame, but that wretched Artémise. Leo’s
father, so long as he lived, had laid that flattering unction to his
soul, and during his lifetime the appearance of Artémise had always
been the occasion of domestic trouble. It was natural that Leo in his
youth should have had no such right or reason to object or interfere;
and he had not even been of his father’s faction in the house until that
father was dead, and a natural compunction towards a man not happy in
his life nor lamented in his death, awoke his sense of reason, and of
right and wrong in this matter. But he had always had an instinctive
dislike to Artémise. She had teased and sneered at him as a child, which
is a recollection seldom altogether forgotten, and she was his mother’s
evil genius in life--or so it gave him a certain relief to believe.

The commission given him by Lady William to find this woman, so strange
and incomprehensible a commission, and which was not explained in any
way, roused all the indefinite feelings of disgust, and a kind of
despair which had filled his mind from the moment of her reappearance
(after a long interval, in which he had been of opinion that she was
permanently shaken off) in the house. He had expressed to his mother so
distinctly his objection to her presence, that it was difficult for him
to reopen the subject, and still more difficult to suggest, as he was
tempted to do, that since Mrs. Swinford could not live without her, it
would be better on the whole that she should come to live in the house
than haunt it clandestinely. Difficult, however, as these overtures
were, he felt the necessity of making them, as soon as he understood
that the finding of Artémise was necessary to his friend. What would not
he have done to serve her, to please her? The laugh with which she had
turned off his offer of service, the suggestion that such offers
belonged to the regions of fairy tales, had scarcely been necessary to
show Leo how futile, so far as she was concerned, was his devotion. But
this conviction rarely puts an end to devotion, and it must be said that
as there is fashion in all things, it was not disagreeable to Leo’s
fashion of man to entertain a devotion of this kind, however hopeless,
for an older woman, whom it was, in the nature of things, impossible
that he could ever marry. In the nature of things as seen by her, that
is to say, and which he clearly divined. His double breeding as
Frenchman and Englishman did him service in this complication of fate.
As an Englishman he was aware that such relationships as are possible to
a Frenchman’s ideal, without apparently injuring it in his standard of
honour, were here as impossible as that the sky should fall: while as
Frenchman he was not so determined on that strong step of marriage which
seems the foregone conclusion of love in an Englishman’s eyes. He was
willing to be utterly devoted to this lady of dreams who was not for
him, and to ask no more, seeing that more could not be--but that her
wishes should be obeyed and her commissions executed at whatever cost,
was the thing most certain to his mind.

‘Mother,’ he said, on the first occasion when he had the possibility of
an interview, for Mrs. Swinford, after the little controversy over Lord
Will, had exercised her usual caprice, appearing only when she pleased
at the common table, and ‘was not well enough’ to receive even her own
son in her boudoir, ‘you have, I think, a very frequent visitor.’

‘I--have very frequent visitors! Where do I find them? I should be glad
if you would tell me, Leo.’

‘I have no desire to be disagreeable, mother--you have Artémise.’

‘Ah, Artémise! Yes, fate for once has been a little favourable to me. To
keep me from dying of England, and your village, and all the exciting
circumstances of my life. I have Artémise--that is occasionally. You
know that I am not permitted to have her here.’

‘Mother!’ he said; then subduing himself, ‘You are very much attached to
this woman, who has never done anything but harm, so far as I know.’

‘Well,’ said Mrs. Swinford, ‘and what then? Is it not permitted to me to
love as well as to hate? Artémise is the nearest to me in blood of any
one in the world.’

‘You forget your son, it appears.’

‘My son--ah, that is a different matter. Sons have a way of being in
opposition to their mothers. Besides, isn’t there a high authority which
says that a mother is no relation, so to speak--an accident? It is so in
English law.’

‘English law has little to do with you and me, or any law. Mother, if
you prefer this Artémise to every one, why have her pay you visits
clandestinely like----’

‘Like a lover!’ she said, with her tinkling laugh. ‘Well, say she is my
lover and I like it; have it so.’

‘Such a simile is insulting,’ he said. ‘I resent for you that you should
even yourself say it.’

‘Ah, but I do not resent; I like the simile. The thing itself might not
be so impossible. But you are a Puritan, Leo, like your father. I have
tried to prevent it, but one cannot stop the course of nature.
Fortunately, my own constitution is not so.’

He rose in impatience, as was generally the result of these
conversations, and paced the long dining-room from end to end. Then he
returned to where she sat with her back to the fire, which she still
insisted on, though it was now May. He stood half behind her, leaning on
the mantelpiece. It was better, perhaps, than being face to face.

‘What I mean,’ he said, ‘is, that if your comfort so depends upon this
woman--whom I don’t pretend to like, as you know; but that does not
matter: if your comfort depends upon her, mother, or if she is some
pleasure to you, it would certainly be better to have her here, living
with you, than skulking to and fro like a----’

‘Lover!’ she said again, with a laugh to madden him. Then she turned
round upon him, as he stood with his head bent regarding the glow of the
fire. ‘I don’t say that you’ve made your offer an insult, Leo, which
would be the truth--but what is the cause of such a change? You have a
motive. Ah! I think I see it!’

He looked up with a more profoundly clouded brow than had ever been seen
in Leo before.

‘What do you see?’ he said.

She laughed again. Any one who has ever listened to the dreadful endless
tinkling of an electric bell at a foreign railway station will
understand how Mrs. Swinford laughed, and how it affected the nerves of
those who listened.

‘Ah! I think I see!’ she repeated.

Perhaps it was because he was used to these _agaceries_ that he bore it
so well. What tempests of impatience were in his heart! He did not move.
He remained as still as if he had been made in bronze, leaning against
the mantelpiece till the laugh ceased. Then he said coldly:

‘I have expressed myself willing to give up what may be my own prejudice
on your account, mother. I think it would be more dignified, more fit
and becoming for you that your visitor did not come by stealth. What
motive you credit me with I can’t tell. If you do not think fit to adopt
my suggestion, so be it; but at least let her come openly, not by
stealth.’

The tinkling began again with that supreme power of exasperation, and
she said amid her laughing, every word coming tinkling out:

‘That you may have her at hand and within reach when she is wanted, eh?
I divine you, my Leo. What is becoming for the mother who is so little
capable of understanding that for herself, is a beautiful pretext--what
is convenient for some one else----’

‘Who is the person,’ he said, suddenly lifting his eyes, ‘to whom it
will be so convenient to know where this woman is?’ He did not shrink
or show any consciousness as he thus carried the war into the enemy’s
country. Leo, after all, was a man of the world, and his mother’s son.

‘Ah!’ she cried, stopping in her laugh, which was always a gain. ‘I
congratulate you, my son, upon your _aplomb_. But don’t you know you
take away all grace from your offer, if there were any in it, when you
say _this woman_? How dare you speak of your mother’s dear friend and
relation as _this woman_? It is an affront I will not bear.’

‘Mother, this is a subterfuge,’ said Leo indignantly.

‘And is not your proposal a subterfuge? Understand that I will manage
things in my own way, Leo. Artémise shall come to me how she and I
please. She shall stay with me if I wish it, and she consents to it, as
would have been the case whatever you had felt on the subject. I am not
here, you understand, as your housekeeper,’ she laughed scornfully, ‘or
your dependent; I am, while I am here, the mistress of the house: and
shall invite whom I please. If you think your order to shut her out
affected me, any more than your order to admit her does now--I think we
have said enough on this subject. You can give me your arm upstairs.’

She held out her arm, imperiously rising from the table, and Leo obeyed.
They presented a group full of natural grace, as he led her carefully
upstairs, subduing his steps to hers. She, wonderful in all her laces
and draperies, a _marquise_, a lady of the old _régime_, exacting every
sign of devotion; he, not made of velvet or brocade, as her cavalier
ought to have been, but in the spare and reserved costume of modern
days, with a manner very grave, very self-controlled, full of care, and
attention, and duty. There was nothing in it of that pretty gallantry,
so charming from a son to a mother, of which Leo for years of his life
had been an example, but a serious care of guidance and protection,
which was as different as night from day. They went upstairs thus, she
leaning all her weight upon him, he careful above measure to keep her
foot from stumbling even upon her own too ample skirts. When he had
placed her in her favourite chair, and seen that she had everything she
liked near her, he stood gravely by her side.

‘Is this your last word, mother?’ he said.

‘It is quite my last word. Should Artémise come here, I shall expect you
to be civil to her. Should she not come, you will be careful to let her
alone.’

‘I must act in that matter according to my own judgment,’ he said.

He could hear the tinkle of the laugh as he went away. That laugh!--it
had been compared to silver bells _dans les temps_. It was not that now,
but an electric jar or vibration that got on the nerves. Mrs. Swinford’s
son did not think of this, or feel any pity for the woman who had
descended thus from the poetic state of compliment and adulation. Sons,
perhaps, rarely consider that downfall with any sympathy. And Leo was
too angry to make any sentiment possible for the moment. He was all the
more angry because of his own undisclosed motive, which his mother had
been so quick to discover. Had he been quite single-minded, desiring
only his mother’s comfort and honour, things might perhaps have gone
better; but he was not single-minded. And now the question was, not how
to justify his mother, but to discover for Lady William the woman she
wanted--to secure her, wherever she was, and whatever might be the
motive for which she was sought. He did not very clearly know what that
was, nor was he sure as to the previous connection of Artémise with Lady
William’s history. But his mother’s revelations to Lord Will had helped
the vague recollections in his own mind, and he divined something of her
possible importance--importance most probably (he thought) more fancied
than real, for it would be in the nature of a woman to give weight to a
personal witness of the marriage, above all papers and records.
Importance or not, however, real or fancied as might be the need of her,
it was enough that Lady William wanted her to make Leo’s action certain.
She must be found, he said to himself, as he went downstairs.

He questioned Morris that evening carelessly: ‘Do you remember a lady,
Morris, who came here one evening in the dusk? A lady--who insisted on
disturbing Mrs. Swinford. Don’t you remember? And by dint of insisting
was allowed to go in?’

‘Remember ‘er, sir!’ said Morris, with much emphasis. ‘I should just
think I did--as well as I remember my own name.’

‘She has never,’ said Leo, carelessly aiming at a ball on the billiard
table, ‘been here again?’

He spoke in so artificially careless a tone to convey no suspicion of
any special meaning in the question, that Morris would not have been a
man and a butler had he not been put upon the alert.

‘Oh, ‘asn’t she, sir!’ said Morris. ‘I should say, sir, as she’s here
most days, is that lady; as if the house was her own----’

‘I have never seen her,’ said Leo, with as natural an expression of
surprise as he could put on.

‘No more haven’t I,’ said Morris. ‘Never; and how she gets in and goes
out is more nor I can say; but she’s favoured, sir, of course, in the
‘igher suckles; that we know.’

‘Morris, my man,’ said Leo briskly, ‘you forget yourself, I think. I
asked you if a lady, who is a friend of my mother’s, had been here
again: and you take it upon you to talk of how she comes into the house
without attracting your intelligent attention, which was not the
question at all.’

‘I ‘umbly beg your pardon, sir,’ said Morris; and here the conversation
stayed. Leo felt that he had done as much as in the meantime it was
possible to do. His own faculties alone must arrange the rest. Those
faculties, thoroughly awakened and put to the sharpest usage that was in
them, were, however, of but little use to Leo for a day or two. There
could be no doubt, he felt sure, that Artémise was continually in the
house. But it was impossible for him to storm his mother’s apartments in
search of her, and equally impossible to show himself to a keen-eyed
houseful of servants as in waiting to trap her near his mother’s door.
The situation was one of the utmost difficulty, and demanded extreme
caution, and the only result he attained after twenty-four hours’
sustained observation was that it was possible from Mrs. Swinford’s
rooms to reach, without going near the formal entrance, a servants’
door, apparently little used, and which opened at an unfrequented angle
of the house, quite apart from the noisy and populous kitchen entrance.
He had made up his mind to post himself in the shrubbery close to this
door at the hour of dinner, when his mother would imagine him to be
occupied with his meal. She had sent down word that she herself was not
coming to dinner, and the opportunity seemed propitious. Leo was
pondering upon this resolution, and how to carry it out, as he returned
from the village, where Lady William had told him that the need for
finding Artémise was greater than ever. It was a hazy, rainy evening,
not dark, but growing towards dusk, as he walked home soberly under his
umbrella, full of this intention. And he had just passed the glimmer of
the lake, all dimpled with the circlets of the falling rain, when a
movement in the shrubbery behind caught his eye. The bushes were thick
there, a heavy _bosquet_ of all the flowering shrubs that make spring
delicious, a thicket of lilac and syringa, which extended along the
further side of the pretty piece of water. Leo scarcely paused to think,
but, putting down his umbrella, and pulling himself together, started at
full speed for the house to intercept the visitor who, on whatsoever
errand, was making her way towards the back entrance: probably only a
servant using the legitimate way. He was not near enough, nor was there
light enough to make out absolutely who it was, or, indeed, more than
that the figure was that of a woman, covered from head to foot with one
of the shapeless garments, ulster or waterproof, which are the habitual
wear of a humble class of the community. He managed so well that he
reached the neighbourhood of the house sooner than this gliding figure,
who was more a movement than a being, and whom, in a less excited state
of his nerves, he would probably not have noticed at all. He made for
the little entrance which he had discovered and arrived there before
her. Would he be convicted of spying by the astonished eyes of some
innocent maidservant? Or would he----? What was that? Certainly the
movement had been there for a moment in the bushes, and there had been a
pause--a pause was it of consternation to see him on the watch? A moment
after, he perceived that the almost imperceptible quiver of the pale
lilac, washed almost white with the rain, had gone further off; the
visitor had retreated. He hurried along in the track, his heart beating.
Certainly it was retreating. Down again along the edge of the little
lake he followed, cautious, tracking the faint swaying in the branches.
If the evening had not been perfectly still, he could not have noted any
progress at all, the path of the fugitive was so judiciously chosen.
Then he gave almost a shout of satisfaction; skirting among the bushes
became no longer practicable, and, trusting to the dark and the rain, an
indistinct form suddenly appeared in the open, moving like a shadow, but
with great speed, over the grass. He uttered a cry, almost without
knowing it, and launched himself forth in pursuit.




XLIV


He had almost stumbled in his haste and perplexity upon another figure
all cloaked in waterproof and sheltered under an umbrella near the
Rectory gate. By this time it was quite dark, and the rain, small and
soft but persistent, had increased so much as to be almost blinding. A
faint exclamation--‘Oh, Mr. Swinford!’--greeted him as he was passing.

‘Miss Plowden,’ he said, ‘I beg your pardon,’ and then he added,
breathlessly, ‘I am running after a lady--don’t laugh--an old friend of
whom I had a sudden glimpse. I have pursued her all the way from the
lake, and thought I had kept her well in sight, but at last I have lost
the track. Have you met any one? Excuse me for keeping you in the rain.’

‘A lady?’ said Emmy. ‘No, I have seen no one--that is, no one that is
not well known in Watcham. I suppose it was a stranger?’

‘How can I tell?’ said Leo in his perplexity; ‘a slight woman,
exceedingly swift and energetic--witness, I have not been able to make
up with her all this way--in a cloak--impermeable--what do you call
it?--like what you wear.’

‘In a waterproof!’ said Emmy. ‘No one has passed me but the
schoolmistress. It could not be the schoolmistress?’

The idea was so ludicrous to Leo that he burst into a laugh in the midst
of his wretchedness and perplexity.

‘That does not seem likely,’ he said.

‘No one else has passed,’ said Emmy; ‘but there are some lanes, if the
lady had wanted a short cut to the station, for instance.’

‘That is exactly what I should expect.’

‘Then if you will turn down to the right the first opening you come to,
and afterwards to the left, and then---- The quickest way,’ she said
suddenly, with a blush and a laugh, ‘would be to show you; for I fear I
am not clever enough to describe it.’

‘Not in this rain?’

‘Oh, I don’t care for the rain. We are out in all weathers; it will not
take ten minutes.’ She had already turned and was hastening on in the
direction she had indicated with a friendly desire to serve him, at
which Leo admired and wondered. ‘Besides, I don’t call this bad rain,’
said Emmy cheerfully, ‘it is so soft and warm. But for habit I should
prefer to have no umbrella. But you, perhaps, would like a share of
mine?’

‘Thanks, it would do me no good and hamper you. I am as wet as I can
be.’

‘Yes, you are very wet I see. Well, there is one good thing, you cannot
be any worse now, and you must change as soon as you get in. When one is
only a little wet one does not see the need, but when it is as bad as
that you must. This way: I am afraid it is a little dirty, Mr.
Swinford,’ said Emmy, with a tone of apology, as if it were somehow her
fault.

‘It is not very clean,’ he said, with a laugh, ‘but it is worse for you
than for me. I have an object, but you have none, save kindness,’ he
added, with a grateful look that pleased Emmy.

‘If it were kindness,’ she said, ‘that is the best object of all. But I
can’t claim that, for it is a pleasure to help a--friend if one can, in
such a very little thing.’

‘You hesitated, Miss Plowden, before you said a friend.’

‘Yes,’ she said, with the faint little laugh of embarrassment, ‘I was
not sure that I knew you enough to use that name.’

‘I hope,’ cried Leo, ‘you will never doubt that again after all the rain
and mud you have faced to help me.’

‘Oh,’ said Emmy, ‘I would do as much for any one--if I had never seen
them before: I should be a poor creature indeed if I took credit for
this. Is that your lady, Mr. Swinford, running down the lane to the
station? I am afraid she will be late for her train. Run on,
please--never mind me--I’ll follow and see if you find her, though,’ she
called after him cheerfully.

It was the pleasantest little excitement to Emmy, even had it not been
Leo Swinford about whom she had once entertained so many romantic
dreams. These dreams had faded away in the most wonderful manner in the
light of reality--though they still kept a little atmosphere of romance
about him. But it was perfectly true that she would have done this
little service for any one, and would have felt the exhilaration of a
small adventure in doing it, and the same curiosity to see how it ended.
She went on accordingly smiling under her umbrella: her hair was
touched here and there by the raindrops, and shone in the light of the
lamps, and her walk and the little excitement had given her a pretty
colour. All the likeness to Lady William, of which Emmy was so proud,
came out in the pleasant commotion in which she stood on the opposite
side of the platform to look if Mr. Swinford had found his friend. But
his friend, as the reader knows, was not bound for the station, and was,
indeed, at that moment secure in the last place in the world where he
was likely to look for her, shaking the rain from her cloak, and
changing her shoes with the sensation of warmth and comfort which dry
garments give after a drenching. Mrs. Brown had on the whole rather
enjoyed the stern-chase, in which she felt herself quite safe: for she
knew that she could elude her pursuer one way or the other--either by
allowing him to overtake her, in which case she was confident that her
own wits were quite equal to any encounter with Leo--or by vanishing
into some side way by which she could gain her schoolhouse--the last
place where he would seek her. Artémise was quite invigorated by the
incident, which kept up, perhaps, an interest which was slightly
flagging in her continued visits to Mrs. Swinford. If she were to be
pursued every time, it would give to these visits a wonderful zest.

Leo came across the railway with a sensation of pleasure, for which he
was quite unprepared, to give his guide the information that he had
failed in his search. Emmy had always been pensive and stony when he had
seen her before, a pale resemblance, like a half-faded photograph, of
her aunt. Now her bright interest and readiness to listen and sympathise
warmed him almost as much as the dry shoes which Artémise was
luxuriously putting on by her little kitchen fire.

‘No,’ he said, ‘she is not there. Perhaps she felt that I was likely to
go to the railway, and so avoided me--to take, perhaps, a later train.’

‘Oh,’ said Emmy, ‘did she want then _not_ to be found?’

There was a slight unconscious tone of suspicion in this which was very
flattering to the young man.

‘She wanted to avoid me--yes,’ said Leo. ‘She knows that I don’t love to
have her in my house. She is an old friend,’ he added, ‘I am not sure
what--but a sort of relation of my mother.’

‘Oh,’ said Emmy.

This very English exclamation, which is so often laughed at, has,
according to the intention--or sometimes contrary to the intention--of
the speaker, a wonderful deal of meaning in it. In the present case it
meant surprise, mingled with a sort of disapproval, and almost reproof.
An old friend, a relation, and yet you don’t like to have her in your
house! This was all expressed in Emmy’s tone. She would not--I need
scarcely say--have put such a sentiment in words for the world, and had
not the least intention of expressing it even in her astonished ‘Oh!’

‘You think that strange?’ said Leo.

‘Oh--no,’ said Emmy, hesitating slightly. ‘I--don’t know any of the
circumstances,’ she added hastily, with a sudden blush. ‘Please, don’t
think for a moment, if I knew them all, that I would set up myself for a
judge.’

‘Why not?’ he said. ‘You are as well qualified to judge as any one I
know; and even your surprise throws a little new light for me on the
situation. It is always good to see a thing through another pair of
eyes. However, what I want to find this lady for, is to prevent a wrong
thing being done--which she could set right, but I fear does not want to
set right. So I must find her.’

‘Certainly in that case----’ said Emmy. She added, ‘I wonder if I could
help you--if there was any place here where you think she might have
gone!’

‘She may, perhaps,’ said Leo, with a laugh, ‘have doubled like a hare,
and got safely into my mother’s room after all, while I have been
hunting her here.’

‘Into--your----!’ Emmy was so bewildered that she could not keep in
these astonished words, which were out of her mouth before she felt that
here was some complicated matter with which she had no right to
interfere. ‘Oh, never mind,’ she cried, ‘never mind! I did not mean to
be so impertinent as to make any remark.’

‘Well,’ said Leo, ‘perhaps I did not mean to say so much: but I must
tell you now, Miss Plowden----’

‘Oh, nothing, nothing, please,’ said Emmy in distress.

‘That my mother and I don’t look on the matter in the same light. She
takes one view, I another. We need not enter into the question, but that
is the fact. It is permitted to a man to differ with his mother in
judgment when he is as old as I am.’

‘One cannot help it sometimes,’ said Emmy, in a low tone, with a slight
bowing of her head. ‘It is very painful, but I suppose God never meant
that we were not to exercise the faculties. He has given us. We may keep
the commandment all the same. It says “honour.” It does not say always
agree. The Bible is always so reasonable, don’t you think?’

‘Oh! I don’t know that I have very much considered that question, Miss
Plowden.’

‘Never anything excessive that would be a burden,’ said Emmy, with the
grave simplicity of assurance. ‘Perhaps if you could give me any
indication, Mr. Swinford, I might think of a place to look for her,
being on the spot, and knowing all the people.

‘Indeed you must go in at once out of the rain--with my most grateful
thanks for what you have done.’

‘To be sure,’ said Emmy, ‘no lady would be likely to stay out in such a
wet night--but there are two or three people who keep lodgings in
Watcham where I could inquire for you--or I could go to the early train
and see if she goes by that. But you must describe her--what she looks
like, and what I should say----’

‘And you would really take all this trouble for me?’

‘Oh, for any one!’ cried Emmy. Then she laughed, and added: ‘That does
not sound very civil. Of course I should do everything I could--a great
deal more--for you, who are a--friend. But I mean I would do that
much--or any of us would do it--for any one. You know my father is the
Rector. It is in a kind of way our business to be of any use we
can--especially,’ she added, ‘when it is a question of right and wrong.’

‘You are too good,’ said Leo. ‘You are too systematically good. I don’t
want to be helped merely because I am a fellow-creature, which I fear is
what it comes to. I should like--very much--to be helped--because it was
me----’

‘And it would be because it was you,’ said Emmy. These words were far
more pleasant to hear, on both sides, than it is to be feared they were
intended to be--but they were even upon Leo’s part perfectly sincere. He
wanted to be more than merely any one, to be helped and served for his
own sake, and perhaps it did not occur to him that to an unsophisticated
girl like Emmy (of whose romance, to be sure, he was profoundly
ignorant) such words as those meant more than they did to him.

‘You are very wet,’ she said suddenly; ‘will you come into the Rectory
and get dried? Perhaps you could wear some of Jim’s things. You ought
not to be so long in your damp clothes.’

This motherly solicitude amused Leo much, and, to tell the truth, he
began to forget the annoyance of his unsuccessful quest and to feel very
uncomfortable in his wetness, and disposed towards a little light and
warmth. He hesitated for a moment. ‘It would be wise to go home at
once,’ he said, ‘and change my wet things there.’

‘Oh!’ said Emmy, who had indeed expected no favourable answer to her
invitation, ‘I am sure mamma would be very sorry if you went away that
long walk without resting. She would ask you to share our dinner and go
home in the fly--for it means to rain on, I am sure, all night.’

‘Do you think Mrs. Plowden would be so very good?’ Leo said.

I do not deny that dreadful questions ran through Emmy’s mind about the
dinner. She did not know in the first place what it was, for Mrs.
Plowden was severely determined on the point of retaining the
housekeeping in her own hands: nor was she quite sure that she would
escape a lecture for bringing him in upon them like this without notice,
a man accustomed to a French cook. But Leo was town-bred--Paris-bred,
and not accustomed to long expeditions in all weathers, and it was clear
that he was beginning to shiver in the persistent though softly falling
rain.

‘I am quite sure mamma would never forgive me if I let you pass the
door,’ she said, leading him in through the damp garden, where already
the rain began to form little pools.

Emmy felt no cold as she went in by the side door, which was always on
the latch, leading her captive. Her cheeks had never glowed with such a
rosy colour; her eyes had never shown so like two stars. She slid off
her cloak in the passage, and stood dry and trim underneath in her
little gray dress as if she had come straight from her toilette. When
she pushed open the drawing-room door the light flashed about her in a
sudden warm dazzle, shining in her eyes, and in those raindrops that
were like pearls in her hair.

‘Mamma,’ said Emmy, in a voice that had never before sounded so soft, ‘I
have made Mr. Swinford come in with me, he is so wet; and I have told
him you will make him stay to dinner; and that he must put on some of
Jim’s clothes.’

‘Which will be much too long for me,’ said Leo; ‘but if you will really
be so charitable as Miss Plowden says----’

What a sudden sensation it made in the drawing-room! Mrs. Plowden sent
Florence upstairs flying, to put a match to the fire in Jim’s room.

‘It is all laid ready; it is no trouble,’ she explained breathlessly;
‘but Florry will do it so much quicker than ringing the bell. And Emmy,
call Jim--he is in the study with your papa--to get everything
comfortable for Mr. Swinford. You are wet indeed. I will not even keep
you downstairs to give you some tea.’

‘Perhaps,’ said Emmy modestly, ‘a little wine or something, mamma, to
keep him from catching cold----’

‘And what do you take to keep you from catching cold?’ he said. ‘Am I
supposed to be more delicate than you?’

‘Oh,’ said Mrs. Plowden, sending Emmy off with a look, ‘they are used to
it; they are accustomed to our climate. How glad I am you came! This is
the way, Mr. Swinford; let me show you the way. You must excuse me if I
don’t take you to one of the best rooms, but only to Jim’s, which will
be the most homely; for I think comfort is the thing to think of when
one is wet and cold. Oh, here you are, Jim. I will just go with you to
see that the fire is burning--and you must get out dry things to make
Mr. Swinford comfortable. Have you lighted the candles, Florry? And is
the fire burning up? Oh, well, then I will leave you with Jim.’

Thus the whole family ministered to Leo, who, half-horrified,
half-amused to see the two girls sent flying in different directions for
his comfort, and Jim much puzzled and flurried, extracted from the
dreadful depths of the study--submitted himself to these attentions with
the best grace in the world. If he had fathomed Jim’s dreadful
perplexity as to whether he should offer the brand-new coat which he had
got for the FitzStephens’ ball, or his old one, which he believed in his
heart would be a better fit, he could not have spoken more wisely than
he did on this subject.

‘Give me an old coat,’ he said, ‘one you had before you had grown so
big. You are a head taller than I am.’

The whole house was stirred by this unexpected visitor. Mrs. Plowden
downstairs was eager in her questions to Emmy.

‘Where did you meet him? What made you think of asking him? What a good
thing that we have such a nice dinner--really too nice a dinner to eat
by ourselves to-day. I said so to cook this morning. Those beautiful
chickens Mrs. Barndon sent us, and a piece of salmon, and---- Really, a
dinner for a dinner-party. What a very lucky thing it was to-day!’

Even the Rector came forth from his study to hear what the commotion was
about.

‘Emmy brought in Mr. Swinford to change his wet clothes and dine.’

‘_Emmy_ brought him in? Why, you must be dreaming, Jane!’

‘And why shouldn’t Emmy bring him in?’ cried Mrs. Plowden, triumphant;
‘indeed, what could she do else on such a wet night?’

Thus, instead of dining mournfully alone, with Morris behind his chair,
in the great dark dining-room with the mock marble pillars, Leo sat down
with the cheerful Rectory party around the severe but shabby mahogany,
upon a chair covered with horse-hair, to a dinner cooked by a plain
cook. He was more amused than words could say, and delighted with the
new scene, the kind people, and, above all, the contrast of the family
party with his solitude, and the _bourgeois_ comfort with his own
elegant and fastidious fare. The chickens, carved anxiously by Mrs.
Plowden with ‘Just another little piece of the breast,’ in addition to
the well-developed wing, were so good, and everything was so warm and
bright, so honest and simple, that his amusement soon grew into
pleasure. What a contrast! He told them even his story with judicious
elisions.

‘I cannot think how I lost her,’ he said, ‘even if she did not want me
to find her: and where she disappeared I cannot tell.’

‘I came all through the village,’ Emmy explained, to add to the tale,
‘and no one creature passed me but Mrs. Brown, the schoolmistress,
flying along in a great hurry to get out of the rain.’

Jim looked up at these words with a little start, but took care not to
say anything, as may well be believed.

‘Perhaps,’ said Leo, with a laugh, ‘it might be Mrs. Brown, the
schoolmistress, whom I was pursuing all the time. She might be paying an
innocent visit to some friend in the servants’ hall. In which case she
will think me a dangerous madman, and I owe her an apology.’

‘Oh, she’s not one of that sort!’ cried Jim. He said it under his
breath, and fortunately nobody heard him but Florence, who gave him a
look of inquiry, but no more.

‘So I might have saved myself the trouble--and the wetting,’ Leo said.




XLV


As it happened, however, there were several people much occupied about
Mrs. Brown on the morning after that wonderful chase with all its
consequences. Mab, under one pretext or another, had spent most of the
previous day in the school. She had heard the bigger girls say their
lessons; she had hovered about the classes taught by the schoolmistress;
she had watched over the course of instruction in general with anxious
eyes. Was there any tampering with the morals of the girls of Watcham?
Were the little ones taught their hymns and collects? Were the big ones
kept up to their catechism now that the time for their confirmation
began to approach? Mab had never hitherto felt herself one of the clergy
of the parish, as the Rector’s niece might have been permitted to do.
But now she was torn with those sensations which we may suppose to be
felt by a priest who has received under the seal of confession a new
light upon the proceedings and motives of an important official. This is
a drawback of the priestly office which has rarely struck the general
observer. To know that a man who is largely influential in life, who has
important issues on hand, is using his powers for evil and not for good,
and yet to be powerless to do anything, to prevent anything, to give any
warning on the subject! Many a good priest no doubt has been bowed down
under this unthought-of weight. And so was Mab, whose young shoulders
were quite unfit for the part. Should she tell it all to Lady William,
this knowledge that was too much for her to bear? Should she give her
uncle a hint that she had discovered something which made the
schoolmistress unfit for her place? Mab felt that in all likelihood
Uncle James would laugh at her discovery, and to repeat Mrs. Brown’s
confidences, even to Lady William, would be a breach of trust. Thus the
only thing Mab could do was to come in, in her own person, to hold Mrs.
Brown (perhaps) in awe, to watch over the instruction, to correct what
was wrong, to see how far it might be her bounden duty to interfere. One
wonders how a priest would act in a similar case, or whether the
possession of many secret responsibilities in his consciousness may
perhaps neutralise the weight of each. Nothing neutralised this dreadful
weight in Mab’s case. She watched Mrs. Brown as a cat watches a mouse.
She did not like to let that enigmatical person out of her sight. She
even followed down the ranks of the girls whose heads were bent over
their copybooks, to see that the line so beautifully written in round
hand at the head of each page was orthodox. Mab gave herself a great
deal more to do than if she had herself been the mistress of the school.
She asked the girls all sorts of unexpected questions to test their
views of morality.

‘What would you do if you saw somebody take something out of a shop?
Suppose you saw a very poor person take a loaf from the baker’s?’ said
Mab, with an anxious pucker in her forehead.

‘Oh, miss!’ cried two or three girls together; ‘tell Mr. White that
minute, and if he runned away, catch him up.’

‘But if he were very, very poor--starving?’ said Mab.

There was a pause, for of course all the girls studied her countenance
to know what she wished them to reply; and Mab’s little round,
blunt-featured face, with an anxious cloud upon its childish brow, was
void of all expression that could be taken as guidance.

‘If we knowed the man we could tell after--when he was gone,’ said one
Jesuitical little person.

‘And then ‘e could run after ‘im to ‘is ‘ouse--or send the police,’
cried the rest. The idea of sending the police was the most popular. It
seemed somehow to take off the responsibility. But the girls soon
perceived that this was not the solution required.

‘If you please, miss,’ said a sharp little girl who was well acquainted
with Mab’s ways, ‘if I ‘ad a penny I’d pay instead of ‘im, and then it
wouldn’t be stealing at all.’

This was received, however, by a spontaneous groan from the class. ‘Oh,
Lizzie Jones! that would be cheating as well.’

‘And it ain’t likely as I’d ‘ave the penny,’ said Lizzie meekly. She
drew from Mab’s countenance the consolation that, after all, it was she
who had answered the best.

To describe the delight with which Mrs. Brown looked on and listened to
all this would be difficult. She read little Mab like a book, and her
sense of humour was tickled beyond description. That she was herself
upon her trial, and that the sentiments of her scholars were to be
considered in justification or condemnation--while, at the same time,
Mab was covertly consulting their ignorance and (supposed)
spontaneousness of perception like an oracle, was as clear as daylight
to this clever woman. She had never met anything so funny in her life;
and it delighted her as a good joke delights people who are given that
way, whether it is against themselves or not. But the gravity of her
aspect was equally beyond description. She seemed to take this question
in ethics with the most perfect good faith and all the seriousness in
the world.

‘If the man was starving,’ she said, taking up the argument, ‘and Lizzie
Jones had not a penny, as is most likely, and he was known not to be a
dishonest man, but only driven mad by the poor children hungry at
home----’

‘Yes, teacher,’ said Lizzie Jones, who felt that she herself had thrown
most light on the subject.

‘Well,’ said Mrs. Brown, ‘of course it is never right to shield a wrong
act.’

This was so unlike what the girls expected after her exordium that there
was a little cry of surprise, swiftly modified into one of cordial
assent.

‘But,’ said the schoolmistress, ‘knowing that this is so--which you must
never forget--I’ll tell you what this young lady would do. She would go
after the man to his house--which most likely she would know: and I’m
not sure that she would not stop and buy some things on the way--at the
butcher’s, perhaps----’

At this the girls manifested a little doubt; while one murmured ‘Tea,
teacher,’ and another said ‘Potatoes’ loud out that she might not be
overlooked; at which the class, consulting Mrs. Brown’s face by a
lightning glance, burst into a laugh.

‘Hush!’ said Mrs. Brown. ‘This is a very interesting question that is
set to us--as good as a story; but you mustn’t laugh. The young lady
would go to the man’s house, and she would probably see the children
devouring the bread; and she would ask a number of questions--far more
than she has asked you to-day, though she has asked a great many. She
would discover there was no fire (supposing it to be cold, which it
isn’t to-day) and nothing to eat in the house, and that the man was out
of work and the wife ill and the children starving. She would
immediately send off for all that was wanted----’

‘Please, teacher,’ said Lizzie Jones, holding out her hand, ‘she’d give
’em a coal ticket, and a bread ticket and bid ’em send one of the little
ones up with a basket for the pieces.’

‘Well, perhaps she would do that. And when she had supplied their wants,
she would take the man aside, and she would say to him, “I saw you steal
that loaf at Mr. White’s.”’

There was a long breath and a cry of ‘Oh!’ from the girls, and Lizzie
Jones, who was soft-hearted--or was it only that she was forward?--began
to cry.

‘“Now,” the young lady would say, “come back with me and pay for it.
You’re going to get work again presently, and the children shall not
starve; but you must not have anything against you when you get work.”’

There was another very large round ‘Oh!’ from the girls, who turned
their eyes with one accord from Mrs. Brown’s to Mab’s face.

‘I don’t know if I would do that,’ said Mab.

‘Neither do I,’ said Mrs. Brown; ‘but judging by what I know of your
character, Miss Pakenham, that is what I should expect you to do.’

This happened on the morning of the day after Leo’s chase in the rain.
Mab went home very soberly when the children were dismissed for dinner
and in a very uncertain state of mind. She did not know how to take Mrs.
Brown’s apologue, which already was being circulated through the village
in a dozen different versions as a thing which Miss Mab had actually
done, until it came to the ears of White, the baker, who contradicted it
indignantly, and declared that he’d give a stale loaf as soon as look at
it if the children were starving; but let a man off as stole it because
he come and offered to pay up after was what he wouldn’t never do.

In the meantime Leo had been turning over in his mind that idea of Mrs.
Brown, the schoolmistress. At first it amused him to think that so
harmless a visitor to the servants’ hall might have been the object of
his very unnecessary pursuit, and in this sense he laughed at the
situation, which was so ludicrous, and longed to cross over to the
cottage in the rain, when he left the Rectory, to make Lady William the
partaker of so good a joke. But as he drove home in Jim’s clothes and
the sober Watcham fly, which Mrs. Plowden, in her motherly care, had
ordered for him, a different view suddenly occurred to Leo. The joke was
good, but not good enough to last out that slow drive through the deep
dark and the falling rain. It occurred to him as he thought of it that a
visitor to the servants’ hall might, indeed, be disconcerted by the
curiosity of the master of the house, but would not, unless she had
some very dishonest meaning, turn back and fly. Why should the
schoolmistress, probably acquainted with the housekeeper and
entertaining a very good opinion of herself, fly from Leo? There was no
reason in the world why she should fly. She would probably have
quickened her steps, and arrived at the little side entrance puffing and
blowing, but chiefly with indignation, and given very warmly her opinion
of the young master who spied upon the back-door visitors. But to turn
back at the sight of him and get herself out of the way meant something
more than a respectable visit to the housekeeper. What did it mean? A
village schoolmistress was not one to visit the young maids, or get them
into mischief; but why, why did she turn and flee? It was impossible to
assign a sufficient reason for this to himself.

And then there was suddenly shot into his mind, as our best intuitions
come, suddenly and with a sharp shock--almost a pang--the question, Who
was the schoolmistress? Artémise was nothing if not a woman of variety.
He had himself known her go through the most extraordinary
transformation; one time dazzling in splendour, the next almost a
beggar. Why should not she herself be the schoolmistress? There could be
no such concealment, no such unlikely place to look for her, as in the
parish school of Watcham. There she would be at his mother’s very door,
accessible on every occasion, ever within call. He had thought it
scarcely possible that she could come constantly from London and
disappear again unseen; but if she were in Watcham, at hand, in such a
place, where nobody could think of looking for her, the difficulty would
disappear. And she was an excellent actress; a woman to take anybody in,
not to say an unsophisticated and artless company like the Rector and
his churchwardens. He could scarcely help smiling to himself in the dark
as he suddenly thought of the perfect representation of a model
schoolmistress which Artémise would get up for the edification of the
authorities. No schoolmistress in the world was ever so excellent a type
of the class as Artémise would make herself look--her voice, her
gestures, her demeanour would be all perfect. And she would have the
satisfaction of being perfectly safe, for who would think of looking for
her there?

But then there were the ladies, who were different. Would she take in
the ladies, too? Would not they suspect the representation to be too
complete? And then Lady William--Lady William could not have been
deceived. She must have recognised at once the woman of whom she was in
search. Leo did not know Lady William’s peculiarity about the parish. He
was aware that Mab knew everybody and all their circumstances, and it
did not occur to him that her mother would hold apart. This seemed to
cut the ground from under his feet again. But he determined to see for
himself next day who the schoolmistress was.

Next day, however, was a half-holiday, and he did not reach the school
till the afternoon, when all the children were dispersed and the house
shut up. Mrs. Brown, he was informed at the nearest cottage, where it
appeared her little maid-servant lived, had gone away for the afternoon,
so that his inquiries made no further progress that day. He went to tell
his adventure to Lady William, and, if not to suggest this solution, at
least to ask what she knew of Mrs. Brown. But Lady William also was out
of doors, and nothing more was to be done. He hesitated whether he
should not go to the Rectory to make a call of thanks, and to see
(perhaps) if Emmy Plowden resembled her aunt as much by daylight as she
had done in the unusually favourable circumstances of last night. But
this intention he did not carry out. Unfortunately for romance, Leo was
so ungrateful as to recall what he called the _bourgeois_ dinner, the
drab- comfort, the petty little anxieties and cares (chiefly on
his own account) of the Rectory party, with more amusement than
admiration, though with a compunction, too. Kind excellent people! How
abominable it was to laugh at them! But his laughter was not checked by
the compunction--it only gave a certain piquancy to all that was
ludicrous in the picture.

The third person whose mind was full of Mrs. Brown was Jim Plowden. He
had seen her little of late, partly that the many calls Mr. Osborne made
upon him left him less time for those strolls about the village, which
had ended so often in the ‘Blue Boar,’ but sometimes, to his advantage,
in the schoolhouse; partly because, now that the evenings were so much
lighter, he could not go there unseen. This reason had acted with the
others in the partial reformation of Jim. It was scarcely possible to go
into the ‘Blue Boar’ in the lingering daylight while all the village
folk were about. Had he been altogether uninterrupted in his former
habits, it is possible that by this time he might not have cared. But
Mr. Osborne’s warm and exacting friendship had begun with the
lengthening days, and after an interval, even of a week or two, such a
hindrance told. On this occasion, however, Jim felt that he must risk a
little danger for the sake of a woman who had been kind to him, who had
certainly amused him, and, he sometimes began to think, had done him
good. It could be nothing to her advantage to have a visitor such as he
was. She had done it, he thought vaguely, out of kindness, and now he
would risk something for kindness too; and then he could always say he
had brought a message about the school from his father, or Florence, who
took an interest in the school, or Mab, or somebody. Fortified by his
good intention he walked into the schoolmistress’s house about six
o’clock that evening when all the people were about, several of whom
stared, he could see, at Mrs. Brown’s visitor--in which, however, I need
not say, Jim deceived himself, for the village people were already aware
that he visited Mrs. Brown, as well as that he visited the ‘Blue Boar,’
and held these secrets in store against the time when they might be of
use either for or against the Rector’s son. He went in, however, boldly,
to the surprise of Mrs. Brown, who did not expect him, and who was
engaged in some sort of operation that looked very much like packing.
She invited him to come in, and cleared one of the chairs from a number
of miscellaneous articles with which it was covered, and which she was
putting away.

‘You are not--going on a journey?’ he said, alarmed.

‘Oh no, not that I know of; but you know, Mr. Jim, a woman in such a
humble position as mine, with so many people to please, has but an
uncertain tenure. I am putting some old things in order, so that should
anything untoward happen----’

‘But I hear nothing except praise,’ said Jim; ‘they say no one ever kept
the school in such order, or the children so bright, or----’

‘Do they really say so? How truly good of them!’ said Mrs. Brown, with a
laugh. It was a laugh of so much amusement that Jim, who did not see the
joke, was disposed to be angry, but she ended by shaking her head and
putting on a comically doleful look. ‘But I do not please everybody,’
she said; ‘oh, far from it. Your friend, Mr. Osborne, does not like me:
and your cousin, Miss Mab, is full of suspicions.’

‘Mab,’ said Jim in high disdain, ‘as if it mattered what Mab thought!’

‘Don’t you know,’ said Mrs. Brown, ‘that Miss Mab will probably be an
heiress one of these days, and that it will matter a great deal what she
thinks?’

‘Nonsense,’ cried Jim, ‘as much an heiress as I am! We have no rich
relations, alas! to leave us money.’

‘But she may have,’ said Mrs. Brown, ‘and if you will take my advice you
will go in for your cousin, Mr. Jim; that would make everything straight
if you got a nice little bit of money with your wife.’

‘Nonsense,’ cried Jim, becoming scarlet, and feeling the very tips of
his ears burn. ‘Besides,’ he said, ‘if I ever have a wife I’d rather
keep her than that she should keep me.’

‘A very excellent sentiment,’ said his adviser, ‘but I don’t quite see
how you are going to carry it out.’

‘I shall carry it out by having no wife at all,’ said Jim: and then he
added hastily, ‘that’s not what I came to tell you. Have you any reason
for not wanting Swinford to know that you are here?’

‘For not wanting--Swinford--to know----?’ A little colour seemed to
rise, too, in her dark countenance. ‘This change of subject,’ she cried,
‘takes away my breath. You are too quick for me. Have I any reason----?
It is Leo Swinford you mean, at the Hall?’ As if she did not know who it
was! Even Jim was clever enough to perceive that she was simply gaining
time. ‘No,’ she answered slowly, ‘I have no particular reason. I do not,
perhaps, in a general way wish--to receive--friends who have known me
elsewhere, here----’ She looked round upon her little room, with a
laugh. ‘You may, perhaps, if you think of it, understand why. Have you
come to warn me that I am found out?’

‘Oh no,’ said Jim. ‘And I’m sure I don’t want to interfere; but he was
at the Rectory last night. He said he had caught a glimpse of a lady he
knew, and had followed her all the way down to the village to speak to
her, and she had disappeared. Some one said that no one had passed but
Mrs. Brown. And then he laughed and said, “Perhaps it was Mrs. Brown he
had seen going to pay a visit to some one in the servants’ hall.”’

A sudden flash shot out of Mrs. Brown’s dark eyes. ‘I hope,’ she said,
‘you encouraged the idea that I paid visits in the servants’ hall?’

‘I didn’t say anything--good or bad,’ said Jim.

Which was not strictly true; but then nobody heard him, which came to
the same thing.

‘Good friend,’ said Mrs. Brown, ‘true friend! but you can tell Leo
Swinford when you see him again that one of these days Mrs. Brown is
coming to call on him, with important information, at the Hall, and he
will never need to hunt her through the rain any more!’




XLVI


What a contrast from the little schoolhouse, though it was so much more
decorated than a schoolmistress’s little sitting-room has any right to
be, or from the drab drawing-room at the Rectory! The more one became
acquainted with Mrs. Swinford’s boudoir, the more exquisite it appeared.
Those little water-colours which were hung on the walls were worth a
small fortune, and a crowd of collectors would have appeared like ravens
on the scene if it had been suggested that they could be sold: and the
little Italian cabinets between the windows, with their delicate
inlayings of ivory--not like the untrained beauty of the East, but
fanciful and varied as a dream--were almost as valuable. And then the
tempered, delicious warmth, and the softened, delightful light! Yet I
think (though, of course, she would not have endured them for a day)
that the roughest wooden furniture, and the shabbiest surroundings would
have been a sort of relief--for the moment at least--to Mrs. Swinford.
She surrounded herself with all these beautiful things, and then she
hated them. They never varied, they were lovely and novel for a moment,
and then there they hung for years, and never changed. How tired she was
of them all! To have broken the delicate frames, and torn up a picture
here and there, which was only a piece of paper after all, would have
given her a sensation. And yet that would not have done much good; it
would have left a visible blank on the wall, which it would have been
necessary to fill up, searching far and near through all the studios to
find something that would fill its place--which would keep a little
movement in life for a short time. But it would be ludicrous to tear up
a picture for that reason, and ridicule was more unbearable even than
weariness. On this particular occasion, however, the room looked
brighter even to her than usual. It was again an evening of soft-falling
spring rain. The skies had been one unbroken gray all the afternoon. The
soft small flood fell almost unseen over the country, making the young
foliage, which did not dislike the wetting, glisten, and washing the
colour out of the lilacs, and covering the ground under the fruit-trees
with fallen white petals, almost like snow. A day which the lonely lady
thought, if ever by chance she glanced from her window, was enough to
account for any suicide. And she had been reading the greater part of
the day, reading, save the mark! exciting French novels, in which all
the ways of breaking the seventh commandment were dwelt upon to the
sickening of any appetite. Even Mrs. Swinford, who considered that the
chief occupation of life, was a little sick of one after another. The
delicacy of the analysis of sentiment, etc., palled upon her after hours
of such reading. She would have liked, perhaps, even at her age, if some
gay Lothario had entered her boudoir, and led her, or tried to lead her,
into those paths which relieve the idle soul: but only to look on while
one woman after another was led astray! The books were like the room,
her habitual reading as it was her habitual scene; and she would have
declared it impossible to exist without the one and the other. But even
to her accustomed faculties it became sickening at the last. Was that
life any more than the boudoir was life? It was impossible for any
drudge to have been more sick of her toil and wretchedness than Mrs.
Swinford was of her existence, if this were all.

But at the moment of distraction Artémise arrived, and everything for
the moment became tolerable. She had thrown off her cloak and overshoes
in the other room; that the shock of seeing a damp woman, who had walked
through the rain, might not be given to the delicate lady within. And
Artémise truly enjoyed the difference in the atmosphere, and held her
feet to the fire, and breathed in the warm and balmy air with genuine
pleasure. ‘How comfortable you are!’ she said.

‘Comfortable! I am miserable--always and always!’ the great lady cried.

‘My dear, many people would be very glad to have the half of your
misery,’ said Mrs. Brown, ‘though I confess I agree with you more or
less. It would bore me to death. A fight with Mrs. Jones on the question
whether or not Lizzie is getting on with her lessons as well as she
ought, for the great sum of fourpence a week, is more agreeable to me.’

‘Are you going on with that dreadful work for ever, Artémise?’

‘No, I am afraid not. It is not that I dislike it, however. It is great
fun. You should see little Mab Pakenham, who has conceived some doubts
of me from what I have told her--so it is entirely my own fault--coming
down as grave as a judge to superintend the moral effects of my
teaching. She would not betray me for the world, but she is afraid of me
lest I should teach the girls principles unknown to Watcham.’

‘The little impertinent! She ought to look at home----!’

‘She does look at home, and that is what makes her so staunch. She comes
and superintends, but betrays me, never! However, as my morals might
prove too great a charge for little Mab, and as your son Leo has got on
my track----’

‘What, Leo--has got on your track, Artémise?’

‘Yes, that was rather fun, too. I saw him the other day watching me
through the bushes, and as I did not want to fall into his arms at that
little side door--which is so convenient--I turned and dodged him. His
patience was wonderful; he was resolved to have me. We played an amusing
game through and through the shrubbery, and then I took to the open,
thinking I was lost. But the rain was blinding, I suppose, and the dark
coming on, so I got off safe. Were you aware that he dined at the
Rectory one night?’

‘I heard he did not come in for dinner. I was not downstairs. It did not
concern me. At the Rectory--with that Plowden woman----’

‘And that Plowden girl. Do you know one of them is like her aunt? How
should you like it if Leo----’

‘You insult my son, Artémise.’

‘Ah well! There is never any telling; since he cannot have one, he may
content himself with the other. I have seen more wonderful things before
now.’

‘Who is the one he cannot have?’

‘My dear Cecile, why this tone of surprise? I told you before. Leo
thinks Lady William the most attractive woman he ever saw, and I do not
wonder. She was always attractive, even as a silly girl.’

‘How you insult me, Artémise!--a woman I hate, who has no right to that
name, and will soon be proved the impostor I have always known she was.’

Mrs. Swinford sat upright on her sofa, with a glow of anger on her face.

‘Then I had better hurry off,’ said Mrs. Brown composedly. ‘If she is to
be attacked, it is evident I cannot stay here.’

‘But you said it was the safest place,’ cried Mrs. Swinford in alarm,
‘that nobody would think, of looking for you in Watcham.’

‘It is no longer safe now that Leo is on my track, and little Mab full
of alarm as to my morality. She will not betray me, that little thing;
but some time or other she will make her mother come with her, to judge
if my teaching is all right.’

‘Then you must go, Artémise--you must go at once; though how I am to
live, in this dreadful place, with no one to care whether I am alive or
dead----’

‘Yes,’ said Mrs. Brown solemnly, ‘I have thought of that. You want
somebody to look after you. You will have to make up your mind between
two things, between the two greatest things in the world--love and hate.
If you hate her more than you love me, I will go. But you must remember,
it is not going to come back. I will have to disappear so entirely, that
no one will ever hear of me more. I can’t turn up again when you want
me, even by stealth, as I do now.’

‘Why, why?’ said Mrs. Swinford, who had uttered this question again and
again, while Mrs. Brown was speaking. ‘Why should you disappear
entirely? When it has blown over, when it is forgotten--everything is
forgotten after a while.’

‘Do you think Emily will forget a thing that means her honour, and her
child’s inheritance?--you have not forgotten, and it ought to be nothing
to you.’

‘Nothing! You know what it is to me, Artémise.’

‘Yes, I know what it is to you. It is hate and revenge--and do you think
your motives are stronger than hers? You want to pay off an old score,
but she wants to live respected and to provide for her child. She will
send detectives after me everywhere as soon as she knows. She will have
you watched so that I shall never be able to approach you. It will be
good-bye for ever between you and me, Cecile, if I am to carry out that
rôle----’

‘Artémise, you are too cruel! You know that I cannot live long without
you. You know that seeing you, having you at hand, is my only comfort. I
live only while you are here; for the rest of the time I only exist, I
vegetate, and hate the light----’

‘I know,’ said Mrs. Brown, in a slightly softened tone, ‘that you are
fond of me, Cecile; that I have been more or less necessary to you ever
since I was born. You must make up your mind, however, soon, for it will
certainly be as I say.’

‘No, no!’ said Mrs. Swinford, rising from her sofa, trailing her long
skirts after her from end to end of the beautiful room. ‘No, no! We will
leave this place; we will go to Paris, where we can be secure. There are
places there no detective would think of. Detective--an English
detective’--she laughed her tinkling intolerable laugh. ‘Bunglers all!
what do they ever find out? I tell you, Artémise, we can live there in
perfect safety, you and I together--and see our friends--and amuse
ourselves. All with you! Fancy what a changed life!’

‘On the edge of a volcano--for me.’

‘On the edge of no volcano--what could be done to you? Nothing! It is no
crime--and she would give it up very soon. She could not help herself,
she would have no money. These people will take even her allowance from
her--she will have nothing, nothing--not a penny, not a name; she will
have to work--she will not think much of detectives then; she will not
be able to go to law. No, Artémise; we shall live together, and you will
be safe, safe as a child.’

‘My dear Cecile! In the meantime if all this should come to pass, Leo
will marry Lady William, who will have no alternative but to accept him,
and it will be she who will have the revenge, not you. Stop a bit--and
he has plenty of money, and will never rest till he has found me out. He
will know well enough where to look. All that you know in Paris, and
more, he knows.’

Mrs. Swinford had kept saying ‘No, no, no!’ all the time. Her face
flushed, her eyes shone.

‘He shall not, he shall not! It will be with my curse. He shall never,
never do it,’ she cried. ‘I would rather he were dead.’

‘It does not matter much what you wish--your curse! you have not made
your blessing a thing to be desired, Cecile. Oh, I am not blaming you;
it is not my affair, but I don’t believe in the curse, you know. He will
do it, and the woman whom you have ruined will marry him, for she will
have no other resource. And Leo will find me wherever you hide me: no,
it is for you to choose--between love and hate, Cecile.’

‘I will never,’ she said between her closed teeth, ‘let that woman go.’

‘Then you choose hate? I knew you would,’ said Mrs. Brown, still
perfectly calm; ‘and now, my dear, you must hear me. For I never meant
to serve your hate all the time; I never meant to let Emily be ruined.
If she needs me I shall reappear. Yes, wherever I am. I am going away,
but I shall leave my address with Leo, or with Jim, or with----’

‘Artémise!’ she cried.

It was rarely that the sound of a raised voice was heard out of Mrs.
Swinford’s room. She had nobody there to excite her to anger, but on
this occasion she was no longer the sovereign in her own palace. It was
not rebellion that moved her, for Artémise had always retained her
independence; nor defiance, for nothing could be more quiet than Mrs.
Brown’s tone. It was the impatience of contradiction, the surprise at
opposition which a woman to whom everybody has yielded feels at the
first check, and the sound was so sharp and keen, and raised to such an
unusual pitch of surprised exasperation, that when a knock came
immediately after to the door, and Leo’s voice was heard asking ‘May I
come in?’ it was impossible for his mother to stop him with the languid,
‘No, I do not wish to be disturbed,’ with which she had often closed the
door upon him. Julie, the usual sentinel, had stolen away, believing her
mistress to be too much occupied to miss her--unhappy Julie when the
moment of retribution came.

There was not a word said. Mrs. Swinford had not recovered her composure
when her son opened the door.

‘You do not say anything; so I suppose I may come in,’ he said.

The man’s intrusion was strange in this chamber never intended for him.
A man and a son!--that is something different from a man and a brother.
Mrs. Swinford gave her visitor a sharp and meaning look, and then said:

‘What may you want, Leo, coming upon us in such a sudden way?’

‘Was I sudden? I heard you with some one, and I thought I might venture
also, as you were evidently talking. And here I find precisely the
person I wanted.’

‘Leo, you are very ill-bred. When you come to your mother’s room, which
is not very often, you might pretend, at least, that it was for her you
came.’

‘That surely goes without saying, mother. I was not aware when I came
that there was any one here.’

‘And you may be very well assured, Cecile, that at all events it was not
for the love of me.’

Mrs. Swinford returned to her sofa with an exclamation of impatience.

‘You have all your own objects,’ she said, ‘you are all pursuing your
own ends. There is no one who thinks what is best for me. Leo, we were
talking on private matters, women’s matters. Now that you have seen
Artémise, as you seem to have wished, your good sense will tell you that
it is best to go away.’

‘It was not from any desire to see her,’ said Leo. ‘Madame Artémise
knows very well what I should be likely to wish in that respect: nor to
talk to her, though she is so entertaining, but to know where I may find
her, for the sake of others.’

‘Oh yes, we all know what you mean. It is Emily Plowden you mean--it is
you who have been backing her up all this time against your mother. I
know you, Leo--that it should be against your mother, gives it a zest.
You make her think--poor thing!--that it is for her, while your real
desire is to expose your mother--to build her up in opposition to me.’

‘I think you must be dreaming,’ he said provoked. ‘Madame Artémise, was
it you I saw the other night in the shrubbery? Why did you run away?’

‘Do you call that running away? I wasn’t, however, displeased to have
had a little excitement for once. But you see I was not afraid of you,
for I have come back.’

‘I don’t know wherein the excitement lies,’ said Leo impatiently. ‘I
have a message to give you, that is all.’

‘You will give no message to Madame Artémise in my room.’

‘Are you mad, mother? Why should I not say what I have got to say? There
is nothing so sacred in your room. I respect your seclusion, and never
interfere; but surely when I find you with your chosen companion----’

‘She is my chosen companion. She is the only person who cares for me in
the world. She shall come here and live with me, and comfort me for all
the evil I have had to bear. She knows how I have been treated here, by
those who should have cherished me most. My husband, who never
understood me: my son, who has been beguiled from my side by my enemy.
Artémise knows all my miseries, every one. She has consoled me when I
have been at my worst. She shall come and live with me now, and be my
companion, as you say, or else----’

But then Mrs. Swinford paused. There had been a certain pathos and
dignity in her complaint. And she meant to add a threat, but instead
stopped short and looked her son in the face.

‘Mother,’ he said, ‘you have always been the mistress of your own house,
and chosen your own company. You invite whom you choose here----’

‘Yes, I will invite whom I choose. Artémise shall stay with me, and we
will fill the house. Oh, it is not the time for the country, I know; but
later, later. Thank you, Leo, I will trouble you no longer. Send the
housekeeper here, I will give my orders; or Julie--Julie will give my
orders. You need not take any trouble. And we will not detain you any
longer; you must have affairs of your own that interest you more than
ours.’

Mrs. Swinford waved her hands and all her rings, dismissing her son, who
made a step towards the door.

‘Leo will stay a little longer, please. You are speaking very much at
your ease--mother and son: are you aware that this is a proposal that
has been made before, and that I have never consented to it? No, Cecile,
I will not live in your house--nor will I do your bidding, whatever it
may be, Leo. The schoolmistress of Watcham has her own humble duties to
perform, and she will perform them just as long as she chooses. She is a
woman not bound by rules in general, and who does not care for a
character from her last place, or anything of that sort. But at present
she cannot be spared from her duties, not even for the sake of the best
of friends who dispose of her so sweetly. She is not a woman to be
calculated upon or to be disposed of, except in her own way.’

‘Do you mean to say that you are the schoolmistress, Mrs. Brown?’

Leo had no inclination or desire to thwart her, or to disturb her in her
position. He commented to himself with secret satisfaction on the
inconsequence of the woman who thus gave herself up, so to speak, into
his hands. For all that he wanted he had now discovered, that is, where
she was to be found.

‘Yes; I am the schoolmistress, Mrs. Brown, whom you scared the other
day. Why should I have been scared and fled, and led you such a dance?
Because it amused me, Mr. Swinford: and I am here because it amuses me.
And I shall go away when I please, probably without giving notice. I
think, Cecile, if you will ring your bell, it would probably please Mr.
Morris, your dignified butler, to let me out to-night by the great
door.’

‘It rains,’ said Leo. ‘If you will permit me, Madame Artémise, I will
order the brougham to take you home.’

She made him another curtsey with a merry devil twinkling in her eye.

‘The poor schoolmistress! That will be the best joke of all,’ she said.




XLVII


‘Mother, I want you to come with me to the school,’ said Mab. She had
lost no time in carrying out Mrs. Brown’s previsions, though she was
quite unaware of them.

‘Me--to go with you to the school? You know I have never had anything to
do with the school. There are plenty of ladies to look after the
school.’

‘Yes, I know what you always say, mother: and I never asked you before.
You will never have anything to do with the parish; but this is not the
parish, it is me. Mrs. Brown is a very queer woman. She has them all in
the most excellent order; but--I want you to see with your own eyes and
tell me what you think.’

‘I have a very important letter to write, Mab.’

‘You are always writing important letters now, mother. What is it about?
You never tell me anything now. I used to know all about your letters,
and lately you never tell me anything. You are always conspiring with
Uncle James. You never trust anything to me!’

‘Poor Uncle James! How much perplexity and trouble I have brought
him--and everybody connected with me.’

‘You--mother!’

Mab stood and stared at her with wide-open eyes.

‘No,’ said Lady William, with a blush and a laugh. ‘You do well to
stare, Mab. I suppose that is one of the conventional things that people
say when they are in trouble. No, I have not brought perplexity upon any
one, or trouble, for a great number of years; but it is true that I have
begun again now----’

‘What is it, mother?’ Mab came to the back of her mother’s chair, put
her arms round Lady William’s neck, and rubbed her downy girlish cheek
against the other, which was paler, but not less soft. Then Mab made a
guess at the trouble in the only form that occurred to her. ‘Have we
been spending too much money? Have we got into debt? Has anything
happened about--Uncle Reginald----’

‘Poor Reginald!’ cried Lady William. ‘That is what it is to be the
prodigal of the family--everything is laid upon him. No, it is quite
another matter. It is--why shouldn’t I tell her? It is your father’s
brother, who has died and left a great deal of money. And there are
things to arrange. If I can settle everything, as I wish--you will be a
rich girl. But it is all uncertain, and it has stirred up so much that
was gone and past.’

‘Then it is about money,’ said Mab in a relieved tone. ‘And perhaps we
may be rich! Well, that is nothing to trouble about, mother. I should
like it, on the contrary. Come out, and leave the letter till to-morrow.
Come anyhow--whether you come to the school or not----’

‘What a little pertinacity you are! But, Mab, there is another side to
the question. If it is not settled that you are to be rich--an heiress,
as people call it--we shall, perhaps, be very poor, poorer than you can
imagine: with nothing--less than nothing!’ cried Lady William, thinking
with a pang of the good name and honour--the loss of which Mab never
could understand.

‘Well!’ said Mab, with another rub of her cheek upon her mother’s,
‘that’s nothing so very dreadful either. Most people are poor--far, far
more people than are rich. We shall be no worse than our neighbours. I
daresay we shall be able to do something for our living. We are not
useless people, mother, you and me. And now come out, come out, mother
dear! You will write your letter much better after you have had a walk.
The fresh air puts things into your head, the right things to say----’

‘Ah, Mab,’ cried Lady William, ‘if you only knew how willing I am to be
tempted, how much rather I would put it off--for ever if I could----’

‘Well, mother, putting it off till the afternoon is not putting it off
for ever,’ said sensible Mab.

And when Lady William went to get her hat, Mab, who had always a hundred
things to do within as well as outside the house, in the course of her
moving about as she put things straight upon the table, saw her mother’s
letter upon the blotting-book, which Lady William had left open. Mab had
no idea that she did anything wrong in looking at it. She had had no
hesitation in all her life before, about anything that was her mother’s,
and why now? It began, ‘Gentlemen,’ which was a queer mode of address,
Mab thought, and this was how it went on:

‘I had already heard of Lord John Pakenham’s death, and expected your
letter accordingly. I have no certificates to send you, as it never
occurred to me to provide myself with anything of the kind, and
circumstances, as I hear from my brother, have occurred to make it
somewhat difficult to obtain them but you will perhaps know better how
to act in the matter than I do. I was married on the 13th May, in St.
Alban’s Proprietary Chapel, Stone Street, Marylebone, by the Rev. Mr.
Gepps, who is since dead. And I am informed by my brother that the
Chapel was burnt down some years ago. It seems an unfortunate
concatenation of accidents, but I don’t doubt that you will know how to
proceed in the matter. There is no witness of the marriage still
alive--except----’

Here the writing broke off, and Mab stopped short with a curious
sensation as if she had been pulled up suddenly. It startled her a
little; she could scarcely tell why. What did people mean, inquiring
into matters so long past? Her mother’s marriage! Why, everybody knew
all about her mother’s marriage. ‘Am not I a proof of it? Mab said to
herself. ‘I hope they don’t mean to suggest that I am not my mother’s
child!’ It disturbed her a little, though she could not have told why.
Poor mother! she never liked talking about her marriage. Why should she
be troubled? Mab had long ago made up her mind that it could not have
been a happy marriage, though natural piety (which was strong in her)
prevented her from blaming her father. They did not understand each
other, she supposed. Many married people failed in that: strange to
think how anybody could fail to understand mother, who was so very easy
to get on with, not jealous or touchy, or any of those things! And that
anybody should worry her about her marriage after all this time when she
had been a widow for such years and years! Mab could not bear that her
mother should be worried in this or any other way.

‘Mother,’ she said, when they set out, ‘I want to say something to you.
I read your letter, you know, in the writing-book----’

‘You read my letter, Mab?’

‘Well, you never said I mustn’t; I never thought you could be writing
anything you did not want me to see.’

‘And you are quite right, my dear,’ said Lady William seriously; but all
the same, she asked herself with a shudder, ‘How far she had gone, what
she had said?’

‘And, mother, if they are raking up everything, all those things you
prefer not to talk of, that you have never even told me--because of this
money that might or should come to me--mother, I don’t want their money.
Let them keep it to themselves. I will not have you worried or get that
look over the eyes for anything of the kind. I ought to have a say in
it, if it is for me.’

‘My love, it is very sweet of you to say that--and quite what I might
have expected from my Mab; but unfortunately they, if you mean the
lawyers, won’t keep it to themselves, nor can they keep it from you,
if---- The family would keep it willingly, I have no doubt, but then it
is not in their hands.’

‘If--what, mother?’

To think--among all her mother had said--that this little
straightforward, practical mind should have seized on the one little
word which she had not meant to say! Lady William was pale, besides
having, as Mab remarked, a look over her eyes. ‘If--I can settle it all
as I wish,’ she replied.

Mab gave a dissatisfied look, but said no more on the subject. Lady
William’s tone admitted of no more questioning, and the little girl knew
when to stop. She took her advantage, however, in another direction, and
seizing her mother’s arm as they reached the village street, said: ‘Now,
mother, come with me to the school.’

Lady William laughed, and consented. A laugh, an escape from present
anxiety, a run with a little coaxing, not-to-be-denied girl through the
morning air and sunshine--how pleasant these things are! She had been a
little vexed about the letter, and had checked Mab’s inquiries in a
manner which does not at all show in print, but which was very
effectual, and now she could not fail to make up for all this by giving
in to Mab. When they reached the schoolroom, however, it did not present
the same aspect of quiet without and occupation within which it
generally did. There was a little crowd round the door, in the midst of
which were some of the elder girls talking volubly. And at the moment
when Lady William and her daughter appeared upon the scene, Mr. Osborne
was visible coming towards them on one side and Leo Swinford on the
other. What was the matter? Mab, whom everybody knew, pushed into the
midst of the agitated group.

‘Oh, Miss, teacher’s gone,’ the girls cried, hurrying round as to a new
listener.

‘Gone! Mrs. Brown!’ cried Mab, with almost a shriek of dismay: and then
the story was told by half-a-dozen eager voices at once. Mrs. Brown had
returned last evening in a grand carriage--the carriage from the
Hall--to the wonder and awe of the nearest neighbours who were witnesses
of the event; but whether she went away again late that night or by the
first train in the morning no one knew. What was certain was that when
the children came to school in the morning the schoolroom (oh, joy!) was
locked up, and no trace to be found of Mrs. Brown. Later, when the
schoolmaster decided upon the strong step of breaking open the doors, it
was found that Mrs. Brown’s trunks were fastened, her house stripped of
all its embellishments, and no sign of her left anywhere. The boxes were
addressed to a railway station in London to be left till called for.
There was no letter, no statement of any excuse. She was gone, that was
all that could be said.

This, of course, was by no means all that was said as the schoolgirls
chattered and the women compared notes. A number of them had perceived
as something was up. Some had seen from the first as she wasn’t the kind
of woman for our school, and it wouldn’t answer long; though several
acknowledged as it must be allowed she pushed the girls on.

‘There’s my Lizzie,’ said an admiring mother, ‘passed all the standards
and done with schooling, and she but twelve; and the help it is to have
her at home!’

‘But teacher was allays fond of me, mother,’ said Lizzie, ‘and pushed me
on.’

Then a great many had burst in to declare that teacher was very fond of
them individually, and had pushed them all on. A little Babel of talk
arose at the schoolroom door, which was only partially stayed when Mr.
Osborne arrived, to whom the whole story had to be told over again. And
then Mr. Swinford came up breathless, who received the news with more
excitement than any one.

‘Gone!’ he cried, ‘gone!’ as if he could not believe his ears. ‘Have
they searched the house?’ he inquired anxiously.

‘Well, sir, what’s the good o’ searching the house? She can’t be hiding
upstairs,’ the women said.

Leo was not satisfied with this, however, but ran into the
schoolmistress’s house with a very white and anxious face, making his
way upstairs to her bedroom and into the little kitchen and every
corner. He came down again and took Lady William by the arm, leading her
aside. He did not even observe the scrutiny of Mab, who, full of
curiosity which she herself did not understand, watched and followed
them.

‘Did you see her?’ he asked anxiously.

‘See her?’ cried Lady William--‘the schoolmistress? Mrs. Brown?’

‘Then you had not found out,’ he said, ‘that she was Artémise?’

And then Mab thought that her mother would have fainted. She threw up
her arms and cried: ‘Artémise!’ almost with a shriek. ‘And she has been
here at my door--here--and I never knew!’

‘Mr. Leo,’ said Mab, ‘mother has been worried until she is almost ill.
She has had business and all sorts of things to worry her. Why did you
tell her this, whatever it means, to make her worse?’ She had drawn Lady
William into a chair and stood behind her, supporting her head upon her
own breast, with her arms over her mother’s shoulders like the wings of
some homely angel half-fledged and not in full heavenly state.

‘Somebody must go after her,’ Lady William cried hurriedly. ‘She must
not, she must not escape. Here! do you mean to say _here_, at my very
door? And I had been told to go and see her, and Mab, my wise Mab, had
made me come at last. Oh, child, why was it not yesterday--why was it
not----? And Leo, to think you should never have told me. The woman that
can make all right, that can save Mab’s fortune, and my---- Leo, Leo,
why didn’t you tell me? Oh, Mab, why did you not make me come before
to-day?’

‘I only made the discovery last night,’ he said, while she sat wringing
her hands, ‘and that she should fly like this never came into my mind. I
was on my way to tell you, to bring you here.’

‘Mab did that. Mab, though she knows nothing, understands. And who is to
follow that woman and secure her now? Some one must go at once, before
the scent is cold, before--before----’

‘Dear lady, I am ready to go--wherever you please to send me. I am here
only for your service. I will go to where the address is and wait, wait
till she comes. It is easy. I will never forgive myself for letting her
go last night.’

Lady William had been slowly coming to herself, the giddiness going out
of her head, and the dimness from her eyes. When she recovered her
composure, she saw that a little crowd had gathered round her--some of
the women from outside, one of whom held a glass of water, while another
had rolled forward Mrs. Brown’s sofa and was entreating her ladyship to
lie down; while behind stood two tall figures looking on, Mr. Osborne
and Jim. The curate had on that mask of disapproval which he was too
apt to show to any weakness. Why Lady William should get up a little
faint because this schoolmistress, of whom he himself had never
approved, had gone, he found it impossible to divine. A faint! As if it
were anything to her--the schoolmistress! of whom she had never taken
any notice. It was like the folly of women, making a fuss upon every
possible occasion. Mr. Osborne did not pause to consider that Lady
William was not the woman to faint in order to make a fuss, or even to
remember that she had not fainted at all. Such considerations interfere
sadly with the solid foundations of tradition. Jim stood beside his
friend with a very different expression upon his face. It was anxious,
full of sympathy, and of something more than sympathy, eager to
interfere, to speak; but nobody took any notice of Jim.

‘Mother, do you think you could walk home now?’ said Mab in her ear.
‘Please, please, mother, come away if you can.’

‘I ought to go after her, Mab.’

‘Dear lady, I will go,’ cried Leo. ‘Surely you can trust me?’

‘Oh, mother,’ cried Mab, more and more impatient, ‘come home now, come
home.’

Mab could scarcely tell why it was that she was so anxious for her
mother to come away. Other people were arriving from moment to moment.
Miss Grey, on one of her parochial rounds, startled by the commotion and
the sight of so many children about during school hours: and General
FitzStephen, who, seeing that something had happened (always such a
godsend in a village), had walked over to inquire into it. Mab could not
bear that her mother’s agitation should be seen by so many curious pairs
of eyes. And by Mr. Osborne above all, looking disapproval over the
heads of the little crowd.

‘There is no train,’ she said, ‘till the afternoon; and if the things
are not sent off, how can she come to claim them? And you could not hang
about a railway station waiting. Oh, mother, come home.’

‘Mab,’ said Jim, making his way to her, ‘I’ll do anything. You can send
me anywhere. And let me take Aunt Emily home.’

Lady William rose from among the attendants, recalled to herself by
these offers of aid.

‘Mab has always the most sense of all of us,’ she said with a smile. Of
course nobody can go when there is no train. Thanks; but I don’t think I
need your arm, Jim. No, no; I am not ill at all. I was only much
startled to find that Mrs. Brown, who has just gone away so hastily, was
an old friend whom I had many reasons for wishing to see: and I never
knew she was here.’

‘Do you know,’ cried Miss Grey, ‘I always thought her face was familiar
to me; but I could not put a name to it. Who was she? I ought to have
known her, too.’

‘And she has gone away--without any notice!’ said the General. ‘I never
heard of such a thing. The schoolmistress! And what is to be done to
fill her place?’

Lady William, under cover of this discussion, which was immediately
taken up by the curate and Miss Grey, left the house, which had never
before, perhaps, been so invaded by the crowd. The released children
were in full _émeute_ outside--those who had not already been secured by
their mothers--filling the village street with commotion, and sorely
trying the patience of the boys on the other side, who heard but could
not understand those sounds of jubilee. To think that there were no
means of checking the riot, and that half of the children in the parish
had thus an unexpected holiday, was grievous to the soul of Mr. Osborne,
who formed a sort of committee instantly in the abandoned house over
Mrs. Brown’s boxes. Miss Grey called to Mab that she would come in the
afternoon and tell them how things were arranged, as they went away.
That little lay-curate could not imagine, sympathetic as she was, that
there could be any question so interesting as this.

And, indeed, nothing had happened in Watcham for years that had been so
exciting. The schoolmistress! without a word of warning, without a
thought, apparently, of the embarrassment or trouble it would cause to
the parish, without any consideration even of her own interest--for how
could she ever obtain another situation, having left her charge like
this? People came out to their doors to ask, as Lady William passed,
could it be true? and groups stood discussing the strange event all
along the street. The schoolmistress! that functionary of all others in
an English parish is the least apt to be revolutionary. What could this
portent mean?




XLVIII


It was very hard to get rid of Leo Swinford, but Mab succeeded at last.
He insisted on walking with Lady William to the cottage, full of
apologies and excuses all the way.

‘I thought this morning,’ he said, ‘when I was told she was gone, that
it was a dose of chloral. All women like her take chloral, and all women
like her are apt to take a sudden disgust with life.’

‘Poor Artémise?’ said Lady William, who was always fair and rarely
unkind. ‘Do any of us know what kind of woman she was? She has never had
justice all her life, and with all that power and independence and
spirit, she would have made a better man than a woman. I cannot think if
she had known how much I wanted her that she would have gone away.’

To this Leo made no reply. He thought he knew a great deal better. He
thought it was because of a cruel plot with his mother that Artémise had
disappeared. But he would not destroy Lady William’s confidence, nor did
he dare betray how much more he knew about the matter, and the cause of
her anxiety to see Artémise than had ever been confided to him. But he
walked on by her side repeating what he would do. He would go to London
and take the boxes with him. He would wait at the station she had
indicated till she came. But she might not come. She might send a
stranger.

‘_Bien!_’ said Leo. ‘I will be there. I will follow, whoever it may be.
I will not lose sight of her property, her boxes, till I have found her
or some clue to her. Dear lady, the boxes--that is the best of guides:
for what is a woman without her “things”? Is it not so?’

‘You are always safe to have a theory about women to fall back upon,’
said Lady William, beguiled into a laugh; and then they reached the door
of the cottage, and Leo, who was not invited to cross the threshold,
had nothing for it but to go away.

The ladies, however, had another attendant, who was more pertinacious,
who waited for no invitation, but stalked in after them as he had
stalked along by Mab’s side, with a much-troubled countenance but few
words, all the way. Jim found himself in the midst of this imbroglio,
which he did not in the least understand, not as a spectator only, but
as a potential agent with something to say if he could but secure the
means of saying it. What the message with which he was charged meant he
knew as little as he could comprehend what possible or impossible link
there could be between Mrs. Brown and Lady William, the one the symbol
of dignity and modest greatness to Jim, the other---- He thought no evil
of Mrs. Brown: he thought she was ‘queer’ though kind: that a woman so
old and so clever should be on the terms of a _bon camarade_ with
himself was astounding to him, but agreeable. There was no harm in
anything she had either said or done in his knowledge. But he had known
that the ladies of the parish, at whom she laughed so much, would have
very little approval of Mrs. Brown had they known more of her--and Lady
William was ‘a cut above’ the ladies of the parish: that she should be
so much distressed by Mrs. Brown’s sudden departure as to faint, or
almost faint, when she discovered it, was incredible to him. But things
being so, Mrs. Brown’s message, which he had thought at the time to be a
kind of insanity, began to have meaning in it--meaning still dark to
him, but which, perhaps, Lady William would understand. He went into the
cottage after them, accordingly, indifferent to Mab’s looks, who frowned
him back: but Jim was not to be kept back by Mab. When he appeared in
the drawing-room, Lady William had thrown herself into a chair, and was
leaning back with an air of anxiety and trouble, yet relief to be at
rest and unobserved for the moment. Jim’s entrance made her start, with
a little exclamation of annoyance.

‘Jim,’ said Mab, ‘oh, do go away, there’s a good fellow; don’t you see
that mother’s overdone?’

‘Yes, I see,’ said Jim, ‘but I’ve got something to say to Aunt Emily.’

‘Oh, what can you have to say? Something about going up to town. There’s
a hundred people ready to go up to town--if that would do any good.
Please, Jim, please, go away!’

‘I have something to say to Aunt Emily,’ said Jim, standing first on one
foot and then on the other in his embarrassment, but with a dogged look
of determination that had never been seen upon his face before.

‘Get me a glass of water, Mab,’ said Lady William, ‘and let Jim alone.
It is very kind of him to be so ready to help.’

It did not occur to her, indeed, that Jim could have very much real help
to give; but she saw the anxiety in the young man’s face, and even (as
she was always a person who could be amused at the most unlikely
moments) the attitude of her little Mab, determined to sweep this big
and obstinate encumbrance out of the way, stirred her with that sense of
the humorous which gives so much solace to life. When Mab had most
unwillingly gone out of the room, Jim came up, red and eager, and much
flustered, to Lady William’s chair.

‘Aunt Emily,’ he said, breathless; ‘I know Mrs. Brown. She told me to
tell you----’

‘What, Jim! she told you--_you_!’

‘Never mind that now,’ he cried, ‘I’ll explain after. She said: “If
there is any chance of harm to Lady William--it sounds like madness, but
I must say it--if she is likely to be overwhelmed, tell her not to be
afraid, I’ll come.” That’s what she said, Aunt Emily. I thought she was
mad--but then I thought I must tell you----’

‘She was not mad. Thank you, thank you, Jim. Don’t say anything--to any
one. She said she would come?’

‘I was to tell you she would stand by you--not to be afraid--if you were
likely to be overwhelmed----’

‘Here is Mab coming back. Thank you, Jim, I understand, and I believe
her--I believe her! You’ve given me great comfort. Thank you, thank you,
Jim!’

Jim did not know why he was thanked any more than he knew what the
meaning of his communication was; but he was greatly elated all the
same, and felt the clearing up of Lady William’s countenance--which was,
he said to himself, exactly like the clearing of the clouds from the
sky--to be his doing, with the warmest sense of beneficence and
pleasure.

‘She is ever so much better; she is almost quite right,’ he said to Mab,
who came hurrying in with a glass of water, and who could not help
feeling a little annoyance to be thus assured by Jim of her mother’s
recovery. By Jim!--with a smirk as if he had been instrumental in the
improvement. He went away with that look of complacence and
gratification on his face for which Mab would fain have boxed his ears;
but at all events he did take himself away, and that was always
something gained.

‘Now, mother, you will have a little peace,’ said Mab. ‘Lie down a
little on the sofa, and close your eyes. That always does Aunt Jane
good, and perhaps it may you. But I don’t know what will do you good;
you never give me the chance to know.’

‘I don’t think closing my eyes will do me any good,’ said Lady William.
‘Give me that work of yours to set right, which you got into such a
muddle last night. I am much better; I am almost all right, as poor Jim
said.’

‘He seemed to think he had something to do with it,’ said Mab, with a
snort of disdain.

‘Poor Jim! and perhaps he had. He brought me a message. You never told
me much about Mrs. Brown, Mab.’

‘Oh, mother! I told you till I was tired telling you. I told you she was
a lady. Well, what business had a lady in our school? But what does all
that matter now? Who was she, mother? It is your turn to tell me.’

‘An old friend, Mab.’

‘Oh, that I know! But something more, surely? or you would not have been
so startled to-day, or so distressed to miss her.’

‘The distress was selfish,’ said Lady William. ‘She was with me once, at
a most important moment of my life; and she can help me better than any
one to settle that question with the lawyers about your money, Mab.’

‘Oh!’ said Mab, ‘She told me she knew my father, and old John, as she
called him, and----’

‘And you never told me, Mab.’

‘It was in a kind of confidence. And she did not say she knew you; and
it was all so mixed up with things--that made me think she oughtn’t to
be there, mother, in our school. And yet how could I tell any one, and
make her lose her place? And that is why I wanted you to go this
morning, to see what you thought; for you would have known in a moment
if there was anything wrong.’

‘And that is why you have been so often at the school of late, my little
girl?’

Mab nodded her head, slightly abashed, but yet not shaken in her
confidence that it was the right thing.

Lady William drew her child into her arms and kissed her. ‘My little
girl!’ she repeated, with a soft burst of laughter. And then she put her
handkerchief to her eyes, and pushed Mab away and took the tangled work
of last night, in which Mab had come to great grief, into her clever
hands.

No doubt, whatever it was that had done it--even were it Jim--Jim, of
all people in the world!--mother was better, brighter, happier, Mab
concluded, half comforted, half perplexed. For that Jim should have had
the power to do that--_Jim!_--transcended Mab’s powers of imagination.
Lady William retained her cheerfulness until the afternoon, when she sat
down to finish that letter which had been left in her blotting-book. But
she made small speed over it, and it appeared to Mab that ‘the look over
her eyes’ came back. If it could be imagined that Mab was capable of
being glad at the overclouding of her mother’s face, I would say she was
at least not displeased when this occurred, so that such a ridiculous
instrumentality as that of Jim might be proved insufficient for the
change it seemed to have caused. But this was a feeling of which Mab was
ashamed after the first moment when it flashed upon her. Lady William
sat for a long time over the letter, but she did not add anything to it.
She held her pen in her hand, and on several occasions bent over the
paper as if she were about to write, but always stopped short. What had
she more to say? She knew now that when these words were written the
all-important witness had been within her reach; but now she was as much
out of it as Lady William had then supposed her to be--lost in that big
world of London where the most anxious parent cannot find his child. And
who could tell whether Artémise would ever hear how things went, or
whether she was wanted? The promise Jim brought had consoled her for a
moment. It had been like a revelation of comfort to hear that at least
Artémise was on her side. But this did not outlast the depressing effect
of the afternoon--that puller-down of hopes. Artémise might be on her
side, but how, now that she had disappeared again, was she to find her
when that moment arrived at which her word was indispensable? And then
Lady William felt that this promise of help only in the moment of
uttermost need had something humiliating in it. To keep her in suspense
to the last, trembling with the sword suspended over her head, and then
to step in--no sooner. This was not surely the act of a friend. And why
should Artémise be her friend when Mrs. Swinford was her enemy? Her
heart sank. The little flush of satisfaction faded. She threw down her
pen, and left her letter unfinished, as before.

And then Leo Swinford came with his eager proposals to go to town, to
find the runaway at all hazards, until Lady William, exhausted by many
emotions and by that sickening revulsion of fresh despair after a rising
of hope, became impatient, and more than half resentful of his
importunities, which were more ardent than the occasion required--or
seemed so to this fastidious lady, who in the failure of her own
confidence was disposed to take umbrage at his--which rested upon the
certainty of being able to do himself by his unassisted exertions now,
what it would have been so easy, so simple, to do yesterday, and so
entirely within his power.

‘It scarcely seems to me worth the while,’ she said, with a weary look.
‘Why should you make a sentry of yourself at that railway? She will send
some one for her boxes and elude you, as she has done before.’

This was hard upon poor Leo, who, indeed, had done his best. He was
still there when the Rector appeared, who interrupted one of those
protestations and entreaties to be trusted, from which Lady William
turned so coldly. And the Rector was still more cold.

‘If we had but known in time,’ Mr. Plowden said. ‘I had never seen the
lady. If any of those who must have known her had but given us a hint in
time.’

It could only be Leo to whom this reproach was addressed, and the Rector
did not notice his protest that he had never associated his mother’s
visitor with the school. Even Lady William was unjust. She said: ‘You
must have suspected that she had some haunt or shelter at Watcham.’ Leo
had to fall back upon some of his own general theories about women, that
they are always unjust. But he did not go away, which made the Rector
more angry still: for Mr. Plowden had come on business. Some days had
elapsed since the lawyer’s letter was received, and yet it had not been
answered, nor had any decision been come to as to what was or was not to
be said in the reply. He had come again to-day with the intention of
pressing for Mr. Perowne--Mr. Perowne and his firm had known all the
secrets of the Plowden family for generations, why should not he be
entrusted with this? But Lady William would only look at him with a
silent resistance. She would not accept Mr. Perowne, nor would she tell
him why.

‘I have begun my letter,’ she said, ‘I will finish it to-night; it is
merely to tell them the facts----’

‘For Heaven’s sake,’ said the Rector solemnly, ‘don’t send it away at
least without letting me see it--without taking my opinion at least.’

‘There is as much as I have written,’ she said, handing him the letter,
‘you are welcome to see it, but whatever comes of it I must do it my own
way.’

And Leo had the bad taste to sit through this discussion, to remain
even while the Rector read the half-written letter, vehemently shaking
his head and saying ‘no--no--no’ as he went on. It is true that Mr.
Swinford went to the other side of the room and talked to Mab, whose
presence there her uncle also felt to be _de trop_. For the room was so
small that being at the other end of it only meant that those other two
people were some two or three yards away.

‘No,’ he said, ‘I would admit nothing, Emily. You are wrong--you are
wrong. You are making no stand for yourself at all. Why tell them about
the chapel being burnt down, and why say you don’t know where she
is----. It is wrong, I say; it is betraying everything. When they see
this, they will have no mercy.’

‘You think I should go away?’ said Leo to Mab. ‘But I have not yet
received my orders. Have patience with me a little, and I will go.’

And then, as if there were not already too many, Miss Grey came in, to
fulfil her volunteer promise to bring them news of how things were
settled.

‘Oh, Mr. Plowden, how glad I am to see you,’ she said, ‘for I am very
anxious to know whether you will sanction our arrangement. Mr. Osborne
seemed to think it was all right because Florry--though, as I said to
him, Florry is a darling, but she is not the Rector. What an
extraordinary business it was, to be sure!’

‘Do you mean Mrs. Brown?’ the Rector asked, very impatiently: and yet
incivility was not possible to Miss Grey.

‘What a wonderful thing to do, to shake the dust from her feet, as the
Bible says. But we never did anything unkind. I should have laid myself
out to be friendly if she would have responded. But I always felt she
was a most unlikely person to hold that position. Did you happen to keep
her testimonials, Mr. Plowden, or do you remember who they came from?
There should be some inquiry made; and the people who recommended her
should be warned of the way she treated us. Not that there was a word to
say against her management of the school. Everybody seems to say she did
very well there.’

‘I don’t remember,’ said the Rector, more affronted than ever. ‘anything
about her appointment, Miss Grey.’

‘Ah, well! but you remember something about her, Emily. Didn’t you say
you knew her--under some other name? If it was here, I must surely
remember her, too. I always felt that I had seen her face somewhere
before. The first time I saw her it made quite an impression on me. I
kept asking myself where have I seen that face? But, you know,
familiarity breeds---- that is to say, when you get used to a face, you
no longer think. Was it in Watcham you knew her, Lady William, my dear?’

‘She did not live actually in Watcham,’ Lady William replied, with
hesitation. ‘I saw her--that is, she was present--at my marriage.’

The Rector (for what reason I cannot tell) looked at his sister angrily,
shaking his head as if this had somehow been a betrayal of weakness too.

As for Miss Grey, she threw up her hands as if a sudden light had
flashed upon her, and cried: ‘Ah, to be sure! now I remember--at your
marriage! I recollect all about her now: that was where I saw her--and
often in Mrs. Swinford’s carriage before.’

‘That was where you saw her?’

Lady William’s bosom heaved with a quick breath; her colour changed from
pale to red; she bent forward as if her hearing had failed her. As for
Miss Grey, she gave her friend a sudden apologetic look, put up her
hands as if to cover her face, and burst into a deprecating laugh.

‘Didn’t you know?’ she said. ‘No, of course you didn’t know. I kept it
to myself, for I had no business to be there. And I was a little huffy
that you had not asked me. Yes, my dear, I saw you married,’ said little
Miss Grey.

Lady William fell back in her chair, and covered her face with her
hands. The Rector, for his part, got up and walked to the window, where
he stood looking out, ‘to see if it rained,’ he muttered; though a
brighter sky could not be than that which shone in upon the startled
group. Mab and Leo, looking on, were as much startled as little Miss
Grey herself, by the sensation she had evidently produced.

‘You don’t mean to say that you’re angry,’ she said, ‘Emily, after
nearly twenty years?’

Lady William uncovered her face, from which the blood had receded again,
leaving her perfectly pale. She rose up tremulously, and cast herself
upon the neck of her old friend.

‘Angry?’ she said. ‘Oh, glad, thankful beyond measure. Why didn’t I know
it before?’

‘Well, my dear, I suppose I was ashamed to confess the liberty I had
taken,’ said Miss Grey, who was much surprised, and yet pleased by the
impression made. ‘I may as well make a clean breast of it now, since
you’re not displeased. I was going up to town that day. I do assure you
I was going up on my own business to town. And I saw you at the
station, the dear old Rector, and you in a little white bonnet, and
another lady. Bless me, to think that should have been Mrs. Brown! You
were looking like a lily flower--paler even than you are now. Ah! you
are not pale now, you are like a rose. Did ever any one see the mother
of a big girl like Mab change colour like that before? I saw you all
three get into a cab--and then my curiosity got the better of me. I
daresay it was very dreadful. I was too much ashamed ever to tell
anybody. I took another cab and followed you. And I crept in behind to
the very back of that nasty ugly little chapel, quite furious with the
Rector and everybody that you should have had such a wedding. To think
how things come out all of a sudden after one has bottled them up for
twenty years!’




XLIX


When Mr. Osborne found himself alone--the impromptu committee which had
hastily discussed the emergency having melted away, with the
understanding that nothing could be done for this morning, that the
holiday must be permitted, and a more formal meeting held in the
afternoon at which some expedient might be settled upon--he stood for a
moment at the door of the schoolhouse looking out upon the emancipated
children, and making up his mind what to do. There was one thing very
clear, and that was that the Rector ought to know. The curate stood and
meditated with many things in his mind. He had not gone to the Rectory
for some weeks, not since that disastrous moment when Florence had
spoken her mind. His heart leaped up in his bosom, and began to beat in
a most wild, unclerical, and unjustifiable way, when he saw that it was
his duty to go now, and that there was no one else to do it for him. Jim
had gone off in attendance upon Lady William, which was wholly
unnecessary, seeing she had already her daughter and Swinford with her;
but the fact that he had gone was evident, and more immediately
important than to decide whether he had any right to go. And there was
nobody but the curate to fulfil this necessary duty. Miss Grey even, the
feminine curate, who ought to have been the first to undertake that
mission, had melted away with the rest, going off to her district--as if
her district for once could not wait! Mr. Osborne looked round him for
help, but found none. At last he buttoned up his coat, which was the
same as the Scriptural preparation of girding his loins, and went forth,
hesitating no longer, but walking with a firm foot, light and swift, up
the village street, resolved to do his duty. His duty was clearly to
beard the lion in his den: no, not the Rector--the Rector was no lion to
this critical young man: the lion whom he felt himself called upon to
beard was a person of very different appearance from that of the
respectable middle-aged clergyman who was Mr. Osborne’s ecclesiastical
superior, and whom, with the instinct of the new generation, the curate
was disposed to estimate lightly. It was a very different kind of lion
indeed--a lion probably in a white gown, with pretty brown locks a
little astray on her forehead, with a pair of mild brown eyes, that
could indeed shine with sacred fire, as when she dared to discourse to a
consecrated priest upon his duty--his duty! which was, first of all, by
all laws, both of Nature and the Church, to hold her in subjection and
ordain for her what she was to do--a case which she had taken upon
herself to reverse. It would be difficult to say why Mr. Osborne should
have concluded that this dangerous animal was the one he would see at
the Rectory and not the true spiritual ruler of the parish himself, or
even the ruler-ess, at whose pretensions the curate would have snapped
his fingers. No, curiously enough, it was of neither of these that he
thought. He felt absolutely certain, by what means I cannot tell, that
it was Florence he would see--Florence, who had so offended him that he
had all but insulted her sister and herself in the sight of the whole
parish about their duet: and now he would have to face her--probably
alone. To all ordinary calculations nothing could be more improbable
than this--that circumstances should conjoin in such a concatenation
accordingly as that nobody should be in the Rectory to receive Mr.
Osborne but Florence; that her father should be out--a man always in his
study till luncheon; and her mother out--a woman devoted to housekeeping
and the cares of her family; and even Emmy out, with whom Mr. Osborne
had no controversy. Only that spitfire, that little dictator, that
feminine meddler, who had taken upon her to give advice to a priest!
Such a contingency was not to be looked for by any of the laws of
probability; and yet Mr. Osborne felt certain this was how it would be.
His heart would not have beat so, his cheek taken such a colour, his
head been held so high, if it had been the Rector he expected to see. He
knew he should see _her_, and no one else; and he strode along
accordingly, with sensations which were somewhere between those which
moved David when he went out to meet Goliath and those which might be
supposed to inspire a Forlorn Hope.

He did, however, everything he could to persuade himself that, after
all, this was an ordinary visit upon parish business to the Rector. He
went in by the parish door, which, as has been said, was a swinging
door, always open in case any shy and shame-faced parishioner should
wish to communicate with the spiritual authorities; but Mr. Plowden was
not in his study, as Mr. Osborne foresaw. As he came out of that room,
pretending to himself that he was disappointed--which he was not--he met
one of the servants, who informed him (what he had discovered without
her aid) that her master was out, and missis was out, and Mr. Jim was
out, but she thought there was some one in the drawing-room, one of the
young ladies, if that would do. Mr. Osborne could not say to Mary Jane
_that_ that would not do, that it was the last thing he wished, though
he had been sure of it all along. All that he did was to nod his head
rather impatiently in reply, and push past Mary Jane. No, he would not
have himself announced by the maid, as if it were quite a usual matter.
He waved her away, and went on by himself and opened the drawing-room
door. How his heart beat, and what a wrathful shining was in his eyes!

And of course his previsions were quite true, true in every particular:
there she sat, looking as if--as if, according to the old wives, butter
would not melt in her mouth. Not with the air of a lion to be boarded in
his den. Oh no! much more like a lamb--in the white dress which (even
that detail!) the unfortunate curate had foreseen, looking so peaceable
and innocent, so--so--sweet, confound her! Oh no, the curate did not say
that. It is I who say it, in the impossibility of finding words to
express his sentiments. It all surged upon him now--much worse even than
he had expected! the abominable impertinence and presumption of her, the
sweetness of her, the everything he liked best, conjoined with that
intolerable something which he could not endure. Poor curate! He had
foreseen it all--but not so bad, not quite so bad as it turned out. She
was seated close by the window, at one side of the large table which had
been thrust into a corner, but not put away, as being so convenient for
work--with a good deal of white stuff about, cotton from which she was
cutting out various shapes, of which I do not pretend that Mr. Osborne
recognised more than the purpose of them, which was for the sewing class
evidently in the first place, and the comfort of its members after that.
A clergyman--if not celibate, which, perhaps, is the best--but Mr.
Osborne had regretfully allowed the difficulties of it some months
before this--could not well behold in visions a wife more suitably
employed. Florence was so busy that it did not occur to her to turn
round when the door opened. She was singing to herself in a sort of
undertone as she planned out, and pinned, and cut, not thinking of any
visitor. It piqued Mr. Osborne extremely, as if it were a special little
defiance thrown out at himself, that she should be singing at her work.

‘Miss Plowden,’ he said.

Oh, then he was revenged for the moment! Florence started so that she
nearly jumped from her chair, and the scissors with which she was
cutting out so carefully gave a long and jagged gash into the cotton
like a wound, and the cheeks and pretty white throat which were under
his gaze suddenly turned red to the edge of the white dress as if with
some relay dye.

‘Mr. Osborne!’ she said, with a half-terrified look.

‘I am afraid I startled you. I came to see the Rector--to tell him of a
most extraordinary incident.’

Florence uttered a quavering, troubled ‘O--oh!’ and then she said,
dropping her scissors, ‘I hope it is not bad news.’

‘Oh, not to any of us,’ said the curate hurriedly, ‘to the parish,
perhaps; but I am not even sure of that.’

When Florence heard it was only the parish that was threatened, she
calmed down immediately; her ‘O--oh!’ repeated, was in quite a different
tone. ‘My father is out,’ she said, ‘and so, I am afraid, are mamma and
Emmy. It is very seldom,’ said Florence, feeling herself almost on her
defence, ‘that I am the only one at home; but I can tell
papa--anything----’

Anything? How was it that it occurred to both of them instinctively that
there might be things which Florry could not tell papa--which it would
be Mr. Osborne’s duty to say in his own person? If there is anything
that it is specially embarrassing to think of, at any given moment,
that, one may be sure, is the thing that comes into one’s head.
Anything? If the curate wanted to ask Mr. Plowden for his daughter, for
example, which was a thing that did not seem unlikely some time ago,
though not now--oh, certainly, not now! This thought in all its
ramifications went like lightning through the minds of both, and made
each--thinking nothing could be further from the ideas of the
other--more confused than words can say.

‘It is to ask,’ said the curate, recovering himself, ‘that the Rector
would call together the education committee at once, if he does not
mind. A wonderful thing has occurred. The schoolmistress, without giving
any notice or warning, without a word to any one, has gone away. When
the children went to school this morning the door was locked, and she
was gone.’

‘The schoolmistress? Mrs. Brown?’

‘I don’t know how she was appointed,’ said the curate; ‘I was away at
the time for my holiday; nor who is responsible for her, nor what
recommendations she had. I had never any confidence in her, for my own
part. She did not at all seem fitted for such a sphere.’

Florence felt that this was an assault upon her father’s judgment, and
immediately stood to her guns.

‘She was an excellent teacher; the girls would do anything for her, and
the inspector said there was such an improvement.’

‘She was not a woman to have charge of the moral training of all those
girls.’

‘Oh, their moral training! But it was for the standards that she was
there.’

‘We need not quarrel over that,’ said the curate, as who should say, we
have plenty of subjects to quarrel upon, ‘the thing is that she is gone.
I was going to say bag and baggage; but that would not be correct, for
her boxes are left all fastened up--directed to a distant railway
station. She has not even left an address.’

‘How very odd!’ Florence said. And then there was a little pause: there
is nothing so dangerous as a pause in certain positions of affairs.

Mr. Osborne stood in front of the window, and when he came to the end of
a sentence looked out upon the garden. Florence, except when she was
speaking and was obliged to raise her eyes to him now and then, kept
them upon her work. She had not asked him to sit down--partly from
inadvertence, partly from embarrassment--and both of them cast furtive
glances at the gate, longing for somebody to come. Did they long for
somebody to come? At last the silence became so very appalling that
Florence rushed into it, not knowing what might come of that too
eloquent pause.

‘I am to tell papa that there is to be a meeting of the education----’

‘I hope you don’t think I would send my Rector a message like that?
That, if he thinks well, there ought, perhaps, to be a meeting--for
something must be done at once; the children are all about’--Mr. Osborne
added, sinking into a more confidential tone--‘we cannot keep the girls’
school shut.’

‘No,’ said Florence, ‘oh no; do you know of any one? There is Anderson’s
wife, the schoolmaster. He wanted her to get it, but now she has the
infant school. At the worst, don’t you think for a day or two we ladies,
perhaps? If you can’t hear of any one, I could take the reading and
spelling, and perhaps the writing. Having the copylines makes that easy,
though, of course, I don’t write well enough myself.’

‘You might do it, Miss Plowden; you don’t mind what trouble you put
yourself to--’ He had to pull up sharply, or he did not know what he
might have said. His voice began to grow rather soft in spite of
himself, which was a thing that could not be permitted to be. ‘We might
think of Mrs. Anderson,’ he said; ‘as for the other ladies, I don’t
think it would do. It is useless trusting to amateurs.’

‘Yes,’ said Florence, with humility. ‘I never thought, of course, that I
could be much good, or any of us, only for a stop-gap for the moment.
Mrs. Anderson would be the most hopeful thing, perhaps.’

‘I did not mean to imply that you would be no good. Quite the reverse. I
meant----’

‘Oh! I know, I know, Mr. Osborne,’ said Florry. ‘We need not stand upon
compliments; we are only trying to think what’s best for the children.’

That was all--what was best for the children--nothing more.

He stood looking out of the window, and Florence pinned her paper
patterns to new folds of the white cotton. And there was again a
pause--which Florry this time did not try to break. It was he who began.
‘Your brother,’ he said, suddenly but harshly, ‘was so good about that
ridiculous entertainment of mine; I should never have got those men to
come but for him.’

‘Jim?’ said Florence. ‘I am very glad; he liked to help; but I don’t see
why you should call it a ridiculous entertainment.’

‘I felt it so,’ cried the curate fiercely. ‘What is the good of such
attempts? Perhaps if they went on, like the public-house, every night, a
warm bright place, with ladies to sing, and----’

‘Dance!’ said Florry, with unsteady laughter, ‘as Miss Grey said. Well,
then, you must start a working-man’s club, Mr. Osborne, and then you can
have it every night, and there will always be a nice bright, light place
to sit in, and games, you know, and papers----’

‘And beer?’

‘I have heard people say,’ said Florence, ‘that it is best to let them
have whatever they would have if it was natural. But I am rather on your
side about that, and so is mamma.’

‘On my side?’ said the curate, with a faintness in his voice.

‘About the temperance. But, on the other hand, papa says it is not
having no beer, but having just as much as is good, that is temperance.’

‘None is good,’ cried Mr. Osborne impulsively.

‘Well,’ said Florence, with judicial calm, ‘I have said that I think I
am on your side.’

A pause again, and Florence went on with her work steadily. Nobody
came--the May sunshine fell over the lawn without a shadow to break it.
Would they never come back, Florry asked herself? And yet the present
situation was not without its charm. All his displeasure was oozing out
of his fingers’ ends, all his unwillingness to be dictated to by a girl.
He thought he would like it if she would dictate to him again, and tell
him what was his duty. No; he did not think this, he only felt it
vaguely--touched, he could not tell why, by her avowal of being on his
side. Was he not her spiritual superior, and was it not her duty, as
soon as she heard his sentiments on the subject, to be on his side? But
somehow he did not feel so sure of that position, and rather wanted to
hear her unbiassed opinion and what she would say.

‘Your brother has been a great help to me,’ he said again.

He would not for the world have reminded her of what she had said that
day. And, of course, she had said nothing in so many words about her
brother. He was by no means sure that it was not a mean thing thrusting
this forward to make her think she was obliged to him, but yet--when a
man is at his wits’ end, what can he say?

‘We have all been so glad to see that Jim was beginning--to take an
interest----’

‘And he knows so much,’ pursued the curate, ‘more than I do. If we were
to get up a club, he might do almost anything he pleased with the men. I
have to thank you, Miss Florence,’ he went on, finding as he proceeded
that it was necessary to be definite if he was to make any impression,
‘for giving me a hint----’

‘I don’t think I gave you any hint,’ said Florence, dropping her
scissors; while she stooped for them she went on, saying quickly: ‘We
know what we owe to you; we all feel it. One can’t talk of such things,
Mr. Osborne, and I was very bold and disagreeable once; but if you think
I don’t thank you from my heart----’

‘Florence!’ said the curate.

‘Oh, I don’t mind, call me whatever you like. You had a good right to be
angry, and I took a great deal, a very great deal upon me--but if you
knew how we all thanked you from the bottom of our hearts.’

‘Florence!’ the curate said again; he had got down on his knee on the
carpet to look for the scissors too--they were strange scissors to
disappear like that--scissors are not round things like a ring or a reel
of cotton to run into a corner; yet they eluded both these people who
were looking for them, and who, not finding them, suddenly somehow
looked at each other, probably for the first time since that day.

I think it highly probable that these young people forgot from that
moment that there was a girls’ school in Watcham at all, much more that
the mistress had ran away from it, or that there was any occasion for
moving heaven and earth, as Mr. Osborne had intended when he entered the
Rectory, to get a substitute for Mrs. Brown.




L


Mr. Osborne went off and had a long walk after this little scene, and
Florence retreated to her own room. Neither of them for that first hour
felt at all disposed to face the looks and possible inquiries of those
ridiculously composed and commonplace persons to whom nothing had
happened. The presence of these people surrounding them on every side,
prying at them, laughing or wondering, or making investigation into
their feelings, is at once a trouble and an astonishment to the hero and
heroine. On a day which is the beginning of a new life to them, to think
there should be so many in the world to whom it was only the fifteenth
of May. How grotesque it seems! Only a day like another to be written
down quite calmly as the date of their letters, and never thought of
more, just the same as the sixteenth or the twenty-second! There are so
many stupidities, so much that is dull and common in this life.

And in the afternoon there was that other event, so much less important,
but yet meaning much, in Lady William’s cottage. That the Rector, after
spending all the morning out of doors, should have gone out again in the
afternoon was a contrariety which Mr. Osborne for one could scarcely
believe. When he came back in the afternoon to see his chief and to tell
his tale, the curate’s face, on hearing that once more that chief was
out, was a study. Astonishment, annoyance, even displeasure were written
on it, as well as a subduing consciousness that Florence would laugh,
which Florence did accordingly with a strong inclination partially
mastered to mimic the curate to his face: an inclination which,
perhaps--who can tell?--if indulged in might have been too much for that
gentleman, though he was very much in love. She laughed, and explained
that poor papa could not mean any offence, seeing he was quite unaware
what great intimation was about to be made to him.

‘I tried to keep him,’ she said, ‘but he had business with Aunt Emily,
and frowned upon me when I tried to insinuate that there might be more
important business at home.’

Florence had come out to meet her curate at the gate. She put her hand
within his arm as they came together across the lawn, and as she said
these words she looked up into his face with so exact a representation
of the Rector’s frown, and his ‘Go away, child, don’t worry me with
nonsense,’ that Mr. Osborne, all grave, provoked, and half offended as
he was, could not help but laugh.

‘Florry, darling,’ he said, pressing her arm to his side, ‘it is very
funny--but when you are a clergyman’s wife, you know----’ Poor Florry
had not had the heart to mimic anybody since that April day: but now she
only laughed at the reproof: she was ready to have ‘taken off’ the
Archbishop of Canterbury had His Grace come in her way.

I need scarcely say that the sight of Florry coming across the lawn with
her arm within that of the curate, laughing and looking up at him, while
he looked down, and shook his head, and had the air of reproving, though
with a smile on his face, had the greatest effect upon the people in the
drawing-room who saw that scene from the windows.

‘Emmy--_Emmy!_’ cried Mrs. Plowden to her daughter, who was coming in
calmly with the basket of stockings to be darned--and as soon as Emmy
was within reach, her mother seized her by the skirts and pulled her
forward to the window. ‘What does that mean?’ cried the Rector’s wife.
Mrs. Plowden’s heart had leaped up into her throat, beating almost as
fast and as tumultuously as the curate’s heart had done when he stooped
down in that very spot to look for the scissors. ‘Tell me, _what_ does
_that_ mean?’ she said imperiously, while Emmy in consternation gazed
out, not knowing what to say.

‘Well, mamma, you are not angry, are you?’ said Emmy, with a sympathetic
jump of her heart, too.

‘Angry!’ said Mrs. Plowden, and began forthwith to cry; for though she
was fussy, and perhaps commonplace, she was a very devoted mother. And
there was not a word to be said against Mr. Osborne--he was tolerably
well off, well connected, likely to ‘get on,’ and an excellent young
man--almost too good, if a fault might be hinted; and Florry liked him;
and, crowning virtue of all, he had been kind to Jim. Afterwards, when
the little épanchement was over which followed on the entry of these two
evident lovers, after she had cried a good deal and laughed a little,
and given her consent and blessed them, and retired to see whether Mr.
Plowden had returned, followed by Emmy, who thought it would be well to
tell the cook to have some sally-luns for tea--Mrs. Plowden expressed
her sentiments more freely. ‘I should not like to marry him myself,’ she
said, ‘but since Florry likes it, and everything is so suitable, I feel
quite sure your father will be pleased.’

‘No,’ said Emmy thoughtfully, ‘he is very nice, but I should not like to
marry him.’ Which was just as well, probably, since there was no
possibility of anything of the kind. Emmy thought of Another, with whom
she thought Mr. Osborne could not bear comparison. But, alas! that
Other, it is to be feared, was quite as little likely to fall in Emmy’s
way.

The young pair walked over to Lady William’s cottage after a while, with
that satisfaction in communicating the fact of their happiness which is
natural to well-conditioned friendly young pairs. I am not myself sure
that Mr. Osborne, indeed, liked to be led, in triumph even to the house
of so near a relation, for he had a secret dread of ridicule, which gave
this young man a great deal of trouble. They met Mr. Swinford walking
away from the cottage with a grave face, accompanied by little Miss
Grey, who was full of excitement. I need not say that by this time, as
they walked along in full view of the village, Florence no longer hung
on the curate’s arm, as she had done while crossing the lawn at the
Rectory. On the contrary, they were walking very demurely side by side,
with the air of people who had met accidentally in the street and could
not help but walk together, little as they liked it, as they were going
the same way. Miss Grey’s chatter was audible almost before they came in
sight of her. Her countenance was wreathed in smiles, her old-fashioned
broad hat had got a little to one side, and looked more jaunty and
‘fast’ than the most fashionable headgear.

‘I could have told her years ago if I had thought it would be of any
consequence,’ Miss Grey was saying; and so much preoccupied was she,
that the unusual spectacle of the curate and Florence walking together,
although in the most austere manner, which would have excited her so
much on another occasion, did not even attract her observation now.

‘Has anything happened, Miss Grey?’ Florence asked demurely, with a
secret consciousness which made her heart dance, of all she had herself
to tell, and of the very great thing which had certainly happened, far
greater than anything else which could possibly have taken place in
Watcham. And Miss Grey remarked nothing! The young people gave a glance
of amazement at each other, and Miss Grey fell in the opinion of
both--but most in that of the curate, who had been so great a friend of
hers, and who felt that she ought to have divined him at the first
glance.

‘I should think, indeed, something has happened,’ cried Miss Grey. ‘I
have just been telling your dear aunt Emily, Lady William, that I was at
her marriage. And she is so pleased, it has been quite a little _fête_
for me. Think of Lady William, the darling, being so pleased that I was
there, and I always frightened she should find out, fearing she would
think it a liberty! I am sure I might have told her years ago if I had
thought she would have liked it. It made quite a little sensation, Mr.
Swinford can tell you. It agitated her a little, poor darling, to think
of that time at all; and yet she was so pleased.’

‘She never speaks of her marriage,’ said Florence carelessly. Oh! what
waste of sentiment to think of people making a fuss about a marriage of
twenty years ago when they might hear at first hand of one that was
going to be now!

‘No, she never speaks of it; and I had taken it into my head that she
did not like to go back upon it. We never knew him, and I don’t know why
people should have taken an unfavourable impression; but to see her
agitation and her change of colour when I spoke! Ah, my dear Florry,
there are many things in this world that are never thought of in our
philosophy! She must have been thinking of him many and many a day when
we thought there was no such thing in her mind.’

It surprised Miss Grey a little, it must be allowed, to see that the
curate stood by all this time, and did not stalk on about his business,
leaving Florry to go also her own way; and afterwards she thought of it
with a little surprise and a question to herself. But, in the meantime,
she was much more taken up with what was in her own mind.

‘I thought,’ cried Florry when they had passed on, ‘that we carried it
written all over us; and yet she never found out anything! Miss Grey,
too, who knows so many things.’

‘It proves,’ said the curate loftily, ‘how much more largely the most
trivial incident in our own experience bulks in our eyes than the
greatest event in another’s. I must say I am surprised that Miss Grey
should be so obtuse--Miss Grey, of all people in the world.’

He was perhaps, to tell the truth, a little offended, too.

They went into the cottage, where Lady William was in the course of
writing a letter, for which the Rector seemed to be waiting to give it
his approval. Lady William was writing hurriedly, sometimes pausing to
listen to something he said, but, I fear, not giving him the devoted
attention which the Rector felt that he merited. Mr. Osborne was not a
very common visitor at the cottage, and Lady William stopped her writing
to give him a reception a little more ceremonious than usual.

‘Will you excuse me for a moment,’ she said, ‘while I finish a letter?
It is an important one, which must be ready for this post, and my
brother must see it before it goes.’

And then there ensued a curious pause. Mab did her best to entertain the
visitors, discoursing to them on what she in her innocence still
believed to be the principal event of the day--for Miss Grey’s
revelation did not strike Mab as particularly exciting, and she had
thought her mother’s interest in it quite out of proportion with the
importance of the subject. And she felt the appearance of Florence and
the curate together to be another proof of the momentous nature of the
morning’s event; for what could have brought them here but a desire to
settle about Mrs. Brown’s successor? So Mab began, thinking, no doubt,
this was the chief matter in their thoughts, to talk of Mrs. Brown.

‘I was there yesterday,’ she said, ‘she might have given me a hint. I
was there almost all the morning; the afternoon was a half-holiday. She
might have said she was going away.’

‘My dear,’ cried Florry, a little impatient, ‘if she had intended to
tell, there were other people whom she was more likely to tell than
you.’

‘She told me a great many things,’ said Mab, ‘and I was interested in
her. But, Mr. Osborne, there is a very nice girl, who was a pupil
teacher, in one of the houses down by Riverside. She would do very well
till you can get somebody, if you like to try her. I meant to have told
Uncle James, but Uncle James is so full of that business of mother’s.’

‘Just as you are about the schoolmistress, Mab,’ said Florence, with a
laugh.

Mr. Osborne did not make any remark, but he, too, thought--to fuss about
Lady William’s business, whatever it might be, to make a commotion about
the very ordinary and commonplace fact that Miss Grey had been present
at a certain wedding twenty years ago--what a waste of emotion, what
folly it was, when there was here, waiting for the telling, a piece of
news so much more interesting! He exchanged a glance with Florence, and
they both laughed at human absurdity and the blindness even of fathers
and aunts, the latter especially, who are supposed to have an eye for
events of the kind of which these two were so conscious. And then that
everlasting affair about the schoolmistress! To be sure, somebody must
be found and something done; but to thrust it upon them now!

Lady William had finished the letter, which was the one she had begun in
the morning with the admission which Mr. Plowden thought so rash of the
burning down of the chapel. She had struck out the line in which she
said ‘one witness of my marriage is alive, but----.’ What she wrote was
as follows:

‘There are two witnesses of my marriage alive, one Miss Grey, The Nook,
Watcham, who will make an affidavit, or see anybody you may send to take
her evidence; the other, Mrs. Artémise Mansfield. I do not know at this
present moment where to find the latter, but she will appear if
necessary. There is also a record in a diary of my father’s which I am
told would hold good in law----’

‘Yes,’ said Mr. Plowden doubtfully, ‘I suppose that is all right, Emily;
Miss Grey’s evidence, of course, makes all the difference. Still, I
can’t see why you should be so anxious to confess to them that the
chapel is burnt down.’

‘They would discover that fact themselves: and they might think we knew
it all the time, and had chosen that place on purpose to have a good
excuse.’

‘Who is thinking ill of her fellow-creatures now?’ said the Rector.
‘Yes, yes, I suppose it will do--with my father’s diary and Miss Grey to
back you up, you may say anything you please. Yes, I think you may send
it, and I think I may congratulate Mab now. Yes, I believe we may allow
ourselves to think that it is all right now.’ He watched while Lady
William folded up and put the letter into its envelope. ‘Yes, yes,’ he
said, so as to be heard by all, ‘this has been a very interesting day.
There was first that untoward act of the schoolmistress going
away--which indeed I must not call untoward, for she was not the sort of
person for the place: but that also had to do with you, Emily: and then
the quite unhoped-for, unthought-of discovery that Miss Grey had gone to
see you married in such an easy, natural way; and then the great fact,
to be announced to-day for the first time, that little Mab is an
heiress. Do you hear, Florry? Could you have believed such a thing? The
finest piece of news! that our little Mab is an heiress. She has come
into a great deal of money. She will be able to take her proper
position, which is far better than anything we can give her in Watcham.
Mab,’ said the Rector, rising up and looking round him, as he had a way
of doing when addressing a much larger audience, ‘has come into a
fortune of fifty thousand pounds--as to-day.’

A little shriek broke from Florence--it came against her will. It was
not wonder and sympathy, as might have been expected from her, but an
intolerable sense of the contrariety and distraction of things. ‘Oh,
papa!’ There was a protest in it against Mab, Mab’s mother, and all that
could happen to those secondary persons. What did anything matter in
comparison with what she herself had to tell? And they were all in a
conspiracy against her to prevent her from getting it out!

At last, however, there arrived a crisis, as the Rector got his hat and
prepared to go away. The curate rose, too.

‘I’ll go with you, if you will permit me. There is something I want to
talk to you about,’ said Mr. Osborne, with a visible blush, which Lady
William, looking suddenly up, caught, and started a little to behold,
feeling for the first time some thrill in the air of the new thing.

‘Oh yes, to be sure, the schoolmistress,’ the Rector said. He gave a
little sigh of impatience. ‘To be sure, that is a thing that must be
attended to,’ he said.

‘No, it is not the schoolmistress. It is something much more important,’
said Mr. Osborne, at the end of his patience. There was something in the
tone of his voice this time which made them all look up.

‘Ah?’ said Mr. Plowden, half alarmed.

‘Oh!’ said Lady William, sitting upright, bending forward to catch the
new light. Mab did not say anything, but her eyes turned upon Florence
with a certain illumination too. Florence, excited, exasperated, and
worn out with the suspense which had been so little expected, was on the
point of bursting into tears. Mr. Osborne took her hand, and pressed it
so that she gave another little shriek of excitement and almost pain, as
he followed the Rector out; and there was Florence left half sobbing,
angry, full of the news which was so much greater than any of the
others--even Mab’s fortune, which she did not in the least believe
in--which nobody would take the trouble to understand.

‘Florry, dear child, what is this?’ cried Lady William, while the big
steps of the gentlemen were heard, one following the other, from the
door.

‘Oh, what does it matter?’ cried Florry, ‘you are all so full of your
own affairs. We came to tell you, thinking you would be interested; but
you would not let us speak; and to see papa standing there talking about
the finest piece of news! “Mab, our little Mab, is an heiress,”’ cried
the irreverent girl, getting up and looting round exactly as he had
done, and with all his solemnity, ‘“Mab has come into a fortune.”’

‘Florry, Florry, spare your father!’ cried Lady William, with an
irrepressible laugh.

And then Florry, who, notwithstanding her white frock, and her agitated
heart, and her girl’s face, had been the Rev. James Plowden in person
for one malicious, humorous, angry moment, dropped into her chair and
fell a-crying in her own character and no other.

‘Oh,’ she cried, ‘to think that you should be so stupid, Aunt Emily, you
that always see everything. When we came expressly to tell you! Good
gracious, what are fortunes, or schoolmistresses, or Miss Greys, or
anything, in comparison with it being all right, all right and
everything settled between Edward and me?’




LI


Notwithstanding Miss Grey’s testimony and all that had happened to make
her quite sure of her position, it cannot be denied that Lady William
awaited the lawyers’ reply to her letter with some anxiety. How does an
uninstructed woman know what lawyers may do? They may find the clearest
evidence wanting in something, some formality which may invalidate the
whole. Had she not heard a hundred times of the difference between moral
certainty and legal evidence? They might allege something of this sort,
and perhaps, for anything she could tell, insist upon a trial, and the
public appearance of witnesses, and the discussion of her marriage in
the papers, a possibility which made Lady William’s heart sick. I am not
at all sure (but then I know little more about law than Lady William
did) that had Messrs. Fox and Round been pettifogging lawyers, and their
clients petty and unknown people, they might not have attempted
something of the kind; but, as a matter of fact, they had never advised
their clients to do anything in the matter, and Lord Portcullis, who
remembered his sister-in-law very well, and all the circumstances of
Lord William’s death, had never entertained a doubt on the subject.

‘Certificates?’ he said, ‘why, I have seen the woman!’ as if that was
more than certificates; and Lord Portcullis was not a man who was
ignorant of the evil that exists in the world, or who was at all in a
general way an optimist about women. It had been the Marchioness, more
hasty, and more disposed to think that by a bold coup anything could be
done, who hoped to secure the whole of Lord John’s fortune in that way.
When she found that this was impossible (though she always retained a
secret conviction that Lady William was ‘just as much Lady William as my
old housekeeper is!’) my Lady Portcullis thought of another way--a way,
indeed, which had been one of the two things she had thought of in
sending her son Will to see into the affair.

‘If we can’t have it in any other way we might at least marry it’, she
said to her husband. ‘If Will got it in the end it would not be
altogether lost.’ And this was how it happened that the gay Guardsman,
cursing his luck, was sent down again to Watcham to pay a visit ‘at that
hole of an old Hall, with that dreadful witch of an old woman,’ as he
expressed it to his friends, in the first burst of the opening season,
when everything had a special zest, and all was delightful, fresh, and
new. Lord Will’s petition to be received so soon again was the first
thing which revealed, to the Swinfords at least, that against Lady
William there was now no further word to say.

‘Why don’t you come up to town?’ that young gentleman said at dinner,
where Mrs. Swinford was not present. ‘What good can it do, Swinford, to
bury yourself down here? Why, man alive! it’s not even the country; it’s
not much better than a suburban villa. Fine place, I allow, and all
that; curious old relic of grandpapa, don’t you know; but grandpapa is
such a very recent relation, it is not much worth your while keeping
this up.’

‘Thanks for your kindness,’ said Leo; ‘I may say, also, if that is not
too much, that, had I not been here, it would, my dear Will, have been
less convenient for you.’

‘Ah yes,’ said the young man, ‘less convenient, but much nicer, if the
truth must be told; for to come down here a-fortune-hunting, don’t you
know, is about the last thing in the world to please me.’

‘Oh, that is it!’ said Leo.

‘That’s it, to be sure,’ said the other. ‘A cousin, too; and it is not
such a heavy price to put oneself up for. There’s half-a-dozen little
Americans about town, or Australians, or whatever you like to call them,
that are much better worth than that, if a man is to make a sacrifice of
himself,’ said poor Lord Will.

‘But so long as your brother Pontoon is well and strong, the Americans
don’t care much, do they, for a courtesy title?’

‘They’re getting awfully well up,’ confessed the other in a doleful
tone, ‘got their peerage at their fingers’ ends, and care nothing for
younger brothers, that’s the truth; and I’m sure I don’t want to marry
any of them, nor any girl that I know of. I say, Swinford, you don’t
know how well off you are, you lucky beggar, to be all there is of your
family. I don’t mean to say that I’m not a bore to Pontoon, and all
that, having to be provided for somehow--as much as he is to me,
standing in my way.’

‘You think it would be a better arrangement having only one son?’

‘One child, that’s what I should recommend; like the French do,’ said
this victim of English prejudices. He was not aware that his grammar was
bad, and would not have cared had he known. There are some people who
are above grammar, just as there are many who are below it. He sighed,
and added, as if that was a dreadful fact that needed no comment: ‘There
are four girls, and none of them married.’ A second sigh after he had
made this announcement was something like a groan.

‘They are almost too young for that, as yet,’ said Leo, with good
nature.

‘Too young! This will be Addie’s third season, and not so much as a
nibble. If you don’t think that serious, by Jove, I do--and Betty
treading on her heels, and the little ones beginning to perk their heads
out of the schoolroom. The poor old mother, it’s enough to turn her
gray. And when she bids me up and do something for myself, I can’t turn
on her, Swinford, I can’t indeed, though it’s hard on a fellow all the
same. It ought all to have come to us, it ought indeed--without any
encumbrance, the advertisements say.’

‘The encumbrance,’ said Leo, who was half angry and half amused, ‘is not
a thing you will find it so easy to reckon with, my poor Will. She has
her own ways of thinking, and a will of her own.’

‘Ah!’ said Lord Will, with much calm. He was not afraid, it would
appear, of Mab. He thought of the little roundabout thing whom he had
seen on his previous visit, not, certainly, with much alarm, but with a
sense that if she resisted his advances (which was so very unlikely) he
would not be inconsolable. Anyhow, he would have done what duty and his
parents required of him. It was very satisfactory to him that Mrs.
Swinford did not come downstairs that evening, for the recollection of
his last interview with her was not agreeable to him in the present
changed circumstances. How he was to explain to her the _motif_ of his
conduct now, and how the failure of all her information--her hints and
prophecies of evil--was to be got over, did there ever again ensue a
_tête-à-tête_ between the hostess and her visitor, he could not tell.
Mrs. Swinford was much more alarming to Lord Will than the little cousin
whom he came to woo.

The first assurance received by Lady William that all was well was thus
conveyed to her by the second visit of the young man who bore her
husband’s name, who came stalking into the cottage alone on the morning
after his arrival as if he had been one of the intimates there, and
addressed her as Aunt William, to her great surprise and agitation. Not
a word did Lord Will say of his uncle’s money or the proceedings of
Messrs. Fox and Round. Watcham was so handy for town, was what the young
man said. It was so easy to run down for a breath of fresh air: and
boxed up in town, as it was his hard fate to be, nobody could think what
a pleasure it was to get into the country from time to time.

‘I had no idea that you were such a lover of the country,’ Lady William
said.

‘Not the country in the abstract,’ said Lord Will; ‘but a pleasant
little place like this within an hour’s ride--with such a pleasant
fellow as Swinford always throwing open his doors--a man with really a
nice place, and the best _chef_ I’ve met with, out of the very best
houses, don’t you know.’

‘Yes, I see,’ said Lady William; ‘I should not think of asking you to
meet _my_ cook after that.’

‘Oh, delighted,’ said Lord Will. ‘I don’t demand a _chef_ like
Swinford’s everywhere; besides, there’s not a dozen of his quality in
the world--brought him from Paris with them, don’t you know. Women don’t
often care much for what they eat--but when they do----!’

‘Yes,’ said Lady William, with great gravity, ‘when women are bad, as
people say, they are worse than men; which is a compliment or not,
according as we receive it.’

‘There is nothing bad, my dear aunt, in being particular about what you
eat.’

‘Nothing in the world, or I should be a great sinner. We both like nice
things, both Mab and I.’

‘Oh,’ said Lord Will--‘but I am not surprised,’ he added--‘not even that
my cousin should show so much sense: for when she has had the advantage
of being trained by such a mother----’

Lady William burst into a laugh. His compliments pleased her, as showing
how complete was her own victory; but he amused her still more.

‘Let us hope that Mab will continue to show that she has profited by
that training,’ she said.

‘Oh, ah,’ said Lord Will; ‘now, of course, you will take her to town. My
mother, indeed, wanted to know if she could do anything for you about
that--look out for a house, or see after rooms, or that sort of thing?’

‘Lady Portcullis is very kind. I am not sure if I shall make any move
this year. Mab is only seventeen; there is plenty of time.’

‘That is just what my mother thought,’ said Lord Will.

Lady William could not restrain another laugh. The kindness of Lady
Portcullis, and her desire to be useful, were profoundly amusing to her.

‘Your mother is too kind to take my plans into consideration,’ she said.

‘Well, you see, the mother has girls of her own, and knows all the fuss
about introducing them and all that. A girl is ever so much more trouble
than sons. We are tossed into the world to sink or swim; but there’s all
sorts of fuss about invitations and things for them--the right sort of
invitations, don’t you know, to meet the right sort of people. My
mother’s deeply up in all that. She could give you a great many
wrinkles. That’s one reason, I suppose, why women are so pleased when
they get their girls off their hands.’

‘Is it the result of your personal observation, my dear Lord Will, that
women are so pleased to get their girls, as you say, off their hands?’

‘Oh, Lord, yes,’ cried the Guardsman, with warm conviction; ‘to marry
them off in their first season is the very best thing that can happen,
especially if there’s money in the case. You get a lot of fellows
dangling about that think of nothing else; and the poor things get
ticketed, you know, with their values, and if a man thinks he can let
himself go at that price----’

‘What a terrible prospect for the girls with money--and their mothers!’

‘So it is. And if a decent fellow turns up beforehand who can take care
of the girl, don’t you know----’

‘I see,’ said Lady William. ‘How good you are to come and give me these
hints--to be a guide to my ignorance!’

He gave her a doubtful look; but seeing her perfect gravity was
encouraged.

‘Well,’ said Lord Will, ‘some people would think it wasn’t my place; but
when I see a nice woman like you, Aunt William----’

‘Thank you, Lord Will.’

‘Oh, you need not thank me; it is a pleasure. When I see you just
starting out of this nice quiet place upon the world, and think what a
horrid wicked deceitful place it is----’

‘My dear Lord Will, you almost make me cry over you in the character of
youthful prophet, and myself in that of the inexperienced novice. You
are a Daniel come to judgment; but surely you have too bad an opinion of
the poor world.’

‘I hope you will think so when you come to try it,’ he said. And then
looking up suddenly he was caught by the gleam of fun in Lady William’s
eye.

‘I believe,’ he said, ‘you are laughing at me and my advice all the
time.’

‘I shall not perhaps require to take advantage of it,’ she said
evasively, ‘till next year: and one can never tell what wonderful things
may happen before that time.’

It was Lord Will’s decision as he went away that his dear aunt was much
‘deeper’ than he had given her credit for being, and that perhaps to be
chary of advice might be better on the whole. But he came back in the
afternoon, and also next morning before he went away, and was very
anxious to be permitted to be of use to the ladies when they came to
town--if they should come.

‘I suppose you’ll come up--for the pictures or something,’ he said, ‘or
to go to the opera, or that sort of thing?--when a fellow that knows his
way about might be of use. Drop me a line, Aunt William. There is
nothing I like so much as being of use.’

‘I like a day in town,’ said Mab, who this time was present. ‘Don’t you
think, mother, it’s a good idea? There are a number of things I want to
see. I should like to go to the Row with somebody who could tell me who
everybody was. And if Cousin Will can spare the time----’

‘I shall take care to spare the time, Cousin Mab.’

‘And you can tell me who everybody is?’

‘Oh! I know a few of the swells,’ the young man responded modestly; and
an appointment was accordingly made. But in the evening, when they were
alone together, Mab made inquiries into the sudden cordiality of her
cousin. ‘Why should he have come back again so soon? I am sure you did
not wish him to come back: and why should he be so kind? He was not kind
like this when he was here before. And you look either as if you were
very happy about it, or as if it were a capital joke.’

‘It is a capital joke--as it has turned out, Mab; but I don’t know what
it might have been if Lucy Grey, devoured by curiosity, had not gone to
my marriage without being asked, as she told us the other day.’

Mab opened her eyes very wide.

‘What could it matter whether Miss Grey was there or not?’

‘I will tell you, Mab--I can’t keep secrets. I was married in a great
hurry, and got no--certificates, or things of that sort. The church has
been burnt down; the clergyman is dead--accidents which your uncle James
thinks have been partly my fault for being married there--and I might
have had difficulty in proving my marriage----’

‘Why, mother?’

‘Well, Mab---- Why, because I had no evidence, don’t you see?’

‘You had me,’ said Mab calmly; ‘surely I am evidence. If you had not
been married how could you account for me?’

Lady William kept an expression of perfect gravity, though not without
some trouble.

‘That is an unquestionable proof, to be sure,’ she said, bending her
head; ‘but,’ she added, in a lighter tone, ‘I could not send you by post
to show the lawyers, as I could have done a certificate.’

‘A certificate!’ cried Mab, with mild disdain, ‘as if people would ever
ask for certificates from you! But that,’ she added, ‘anyhow has nothing
to do with Cousin Will. Why should he have come back so soon? and why
should he be so kind? and why are we asked to lunch with the
Marchioness, and all that? I think there must be more in this than meets
the eye.’

‘You know that you have just come into a fortune----’

‘Oh, mother, don’t say it is for that,’ Mab said, in tones of disgust.

‘No, it’s not exactly for that. But perhaps your cousin thinks that he
might help you--to spend it, or take care of it----’

‘Oh!’ said Mab. She did not blush, nor was she excited, but a faint
movement swept over her round face which indicated that she knew what
his visit meant. And not only did she know what it meant, but it gave
her a certain satisfaction as clearing up for her a question which had
been very puzzling to her little sober brain.

‘Oh,’ she said again, ‘is that what it means?’

‘No one can speak quite certainly on such a subject,’ said Lady William,
‘but I think that is what it means.’

It was some time before Mab spoke again.

‘Is it then,’ she said, ‘a very large fortune, mother?’

‘It is fifty thousand pounds.’

‘And how much does that mean a year?’

Lady William had a woman’s limited understanding of interest, that is, a
woman’s view who has never had money to invest. She thought it meant
something about five per cent, a little more or a little less, and
replied accordingly that it meant a little more than two thousand pounds
a year.

‘That’s not so much, is it, for a man like Cousin Will?’

‘No, it is not so very much----’

‘And a cousin--that would be no fun. If I were to marry a cousin, I
think I would much rather have Jim----’

‘Jim!’ cried Lady William, with a start. ‘Not for the world, Mab! an
idle young man, with bad habits--you would never be so mad as that!’

‘Everybody is not made exactly alike, mother,’ said Mab gravely. ‘Jim is
idle, it is true, and he always will be idle, should all the Rectory
people go on at him till doomsday. The more reason that he should be
married (if he is ever married) to some one who is very steady, and has
money enough to live on, and can keep him straight.’

‘But, Mab,’ her mother said, with a gasp, ‘what reasoning is this? To
put a premium on idleness, and save a man from himself.’

‘Well, mother, I’ve heard you say what a pity it was that people were so
afraid of responsibility. I am not afraid of it. If I were to marry my
cousin--which would be no fun at all, in the first place--I should
certainly rather have Cousin Jim, whom I could be of most use to, than
Cousin Will.’




LII


‘So that is all finished and settled and done with,’ said Leo Swinford,
with no great expression of delight on his face.

‘You don’t seem to see the great happiness and satisfaction of it,’ said
Lady William.

‘No, perhaps I do not. I had always the hope that I might have been of
some use, of some service to you, something more both in importance and
use than a mere friend.’

‘Is there anything more than a true friend?’ said Lady William, holding
out her hand.

He took her hand, which was so cool and soft and white--and kind--and
indifferent. As kind as could be, ready to soothe him, help him, do
anything for him that he needed; and perfectly indifferent, as if he had
been the little boy of ten whom Emily Plowden had been so fond of in his
ingenuous childish days.

‘Yes,’ said Leo, ‘there is something more----’

‘Not according to my understanding of life. Perhaps my experience has
not been a very favourable one. I like a friend--one who understands me
and whom I understand--who would stand by me in any need as I would
stand by him--with a nice wife and children whom I could love.’

‘Ah!’ said Leo, dropping the hand he had held. After a moment he said,
in a different tone: ‘My mother has finally made up her mind that she
can endure this hermitage no more.’

‘And you are going to town? It will be better for you in every way.’

‘She is going back to Paris. I have done all I could to persuade her to
gather friends about her here--or in London better still. But she will
not hear me. Her opinion is that Paris, even out of season, is better
than London at its gayest. She will go, perhaps, to some _ville de mer_,
and then back in October to her old apartment and her old friends.’

‘And you, Leo?’

‘I am an Englishman,’ he said, with a little air half of pride, half of
self-abnegation, which created in his friend a profane inclination to
laugh.

    ‘In spite of all temptations
     To belong to other nations,’

she said.

Leo laughed, too, but not with the best grace in the world.

‘It is true that I perceive drawbacks in it,’ he said. ‘The life is
not--gay.’

‘No, it is not gay. You must go to town when your mother goes to her
_ville de mer_. And in autumn you must fill the house. And then--you
must marry, Leo.’

He gave her a wistful, lingering look.

‘Whom?’ he said, and then he went away.

He went away, going down the village, turning many things over in his
mind. It occurred to him to remember that rush down this same street in
the rain in pursuit of Mrs. Brown, while he was still fully of the mind
that much was in his power to do for the woman who occupied his
thoughts--and with the possibility at the end that he might rescue her
from undeserved humiliation by the offer of his home and name. And then
he remembered the girl whom he had met, who had entered so warmly into
his search, and of her eyes shining in the lamplight and the raindrops
upon her hair. The raindrops upon Emmy’s hair were certainly not moral
qualifications like the unfeigned kindness of her look, the instant
sympathy with which she had responded to his call, her concern about his
condition of damp and discomfort. He thought of her with a rush of kind
and almost tender feeling. Certainly she never looked so pretty as on
that evening. And she was very like Lady William. When her mind was
roused to interest, and what he in his modesty called kindness, there
was nothing in Emmy of the vulgarity of her surroundings. Nor was it
vulgarity, properly speaking. Mrs. Plowden, good woman, was
_bourgeoise_, that was all. And how kind she had been! How she had
stirred the whole house to attend to his comfort! Leo saw all the family
running this way and that to wait upon him, and Jim turning out his
wardrobe to give him whatever he liked. How kind they all were! He had
never been in the smallest degree civil to them. None of the
entertainments to which Mrs. Plowden had looked forward had been given
at the Hall. There had not been so much as a dinner to the neighbours.
Mrs. Swinford had put her veto upon anything of the kind, and Leo had
felt it impossible to do anything without his mother. And yet how kind,
how anxious to serve him they had all been! Leo laughed within himself
at the race of civility--every one trying to be agreeable to him. And
then his thoughts turned upon Emmy, who, after introducing him to the
Rectory, had done nothing--had stood aloof a little from all these
attentions. Why did she stand aloof? Perhaps if she had been the kindest
and most active of all, doing everything for him, his vanity would have
profited by that. It did still serve when he remembered that she was the
only one who stood aloof. Why? Was it because Emmy felt the inclination
to be a little more than kind which he had felt for Lady William? A very
small matter is enough for a complacent imagination to build upon. He
hesitated, with a half intention of going to the Rectory, of making a
call upon--whom? His call could not be upon Emily. It would be upon her
mother, who would receive it as a piece of ordinary civility. He paused,
lingering at the corner where the road to the Rectory crossed the
high-road in which stood the great gates and chief entrance to the Hall.

It was at this moment that Jim, feeling himself much ‘out of it,’
suddenly loomed in view. Very much out of it was poor Jim once more. Mr.
Osborne was so much engrossed with Florry that he had clean forgotten
that Workman’s Club which he and his future brother-in-law were about to
begin to organise. And Jim was aware that to go to the curate’s rooms
was unnecessary, seeing he was much more likely to be found near or
about the Rectory. And Mrs. Brown was gone. There was no longer the
alternative of dropping in at the schoolhouse. What was he to do with
himself these late afternoons when the time for work was over, and there
was nothing to do? Did he think of the ‘Blue Boar’ again? I hope Jim had
no hankering after the ‘Blue Boar’; but he wanted a little variety--a
change, somebody to speak to who did not belong to him, who would not
tell him over again the same things he had heard at breakfast and
luncheon and tea. He, too, was wavering, not certain which way to
go--the road that led out to the country, where he could take a walk--a
very doubtful kind of pleasure--or the road that led to the ‘Blue Boar.’

No one had ever told Leo Swinford to put forth a hand to this youth, who
was still lingering between good and evil. No Florence had taken upon
herself to preach to him upon this text. It was no business of his; he
had no responsibility in respect to Jim; but he suddenly remembered
certain things he had heard, and good-nature and a good heart, which
are sometimes even more efficacious, being more spontaneous, than a
sense of duty prompted him. It was more self-denying than the curate’s
interposition, for Leo had no Florry to please; and it was less
self-denying, for he had no feeling of repulsion to the careless young
fellow wavering between good and evil. He waved his hand to Jim, who was
coming slowly towards him, and waited at that corner of the road.

‘You are the very man,’ said Leo, ‘whom I wished to see. Come and dine
with me to-night at the Hall, will you, Plowden? It will be an act of
charity, for I shall be quite alone.’

‘At the Hall!’ said Jim, startled.

‘It is far to go for a charitable object,’ said Leo, with a laugh.

‘Oh, I didn’t mean that!’ cried Jim, confused. And thus once more the
‘Blue Boar’ (which was, indeed, quite an innocent beast, and rather
relieved than otherwise that the Rector’s son entered its jaws no more)
was cheated of its prey.

But whether Jim, unconscious Jim, may be the means of bringing together
Leo Swinford and the good Emmy, who was so like, and yet so unlike, the
other Emily Plowden of the past, is a fact which lies still undiscovered
in the womb of time--where also it remains as yet unknown whether the
dispositions of Mab in his favour (conditionally) will ever be
understood by him or carried out. Should they be, the reader may be sure
that the strenuous opposition of Lady William will be a difficulty hard
to surmount in the experiences of this young pair.

Mab and her mother, however, spent more than one day in town during that
summer--it being decided that the young lady’s introduction to society
was not to take place till she was eighteen--under the escort of Lord
Will: and they went to luncheon with the family, and were most benignly
received by the Marchioness, who regretted warmly that she had never up
to this time made the acquaintance of her sister-in-law.

‘But you see how my time is taken up,’ she said, with a significant
glance at the four tall girls (all taking after her ladyship’s family,
and not a Pakenham among them, thank Heaven! she was apt to say) who
assembled at luncheon, the two who were still in the schoolroom looking
quite as mature as the two who were ‘out.’ Mab was the only one who was
like Lord Portcullis, ridiculously like, all the family agreed. And one
day they went to the Row together, where Lord Will and his sister, who
accompanied the party, pointed out everybody who was anybody to Mab.
They pointed out to her many people whose names she knew, and whom she
looked upon with admiration and interest, and a great many who were to
her quite unknown.

‘I never heard of them before,’ said little Mab, ready to yawn after a
list of such names. ‘Who are they? What have they done?’

‘Oh, you little simpleton,’ said Lady Betty, ‘they are the very smartest
people in town,’ for that odious adjective had just come into use at the
time.

As for Lord Will, he was at that moment engaged in communicating a piece
of modern history to the charming aunt, whom that young man much
preferred to her daughter.

‘You know the Swinford woman’s gone off,’ he said. ‘What a release for
that poor Leo who was never allowed to stir from her apron-strings!’

‘I don’t know,’ said Lady William, ‘that he will think it such a
release.’

‘And, of course, you know why she’s going,’ said the young man of
fashion. ‘The old witch thought everybody had forgotten her naughty
ways. Well, she’s old enough, she might be allowed benefit of clergy:
and she meant to go to the Drawing Room and get whitewashed, don’t you
know. But H.M. has a long memory--wouldn’t have her at any price--asked
what they meant by insulting her Court, bringing such a Person there.
When Her Most Gracious calls a woman a Person there’s an end of _her_.
So town don’t agree with that old lady’s health, no more does the
Hall--and she’s off to her beloved France, she says, where there’s
something like society--society, don’t you know, where there’s nobody
that has any right to interfere.’

‘Is that the reason?’ said Lady William--her heart was touched, though
she was aware that she had little cause to love Mrs. Swinford. ‘I have
not been very much in charity with her lately, but she was once very
kind. I am sorry this should have happened. Everything that is naughty,
as you say, must have been over long ago.’

‘Oh, don’t you be too sure of that,’ said Lord Will. ‘The old hag, made
up for a burlesque, would have flirted with me the other day, between
the showers of the venom she was shooting out upon you.’

‘Did she shoot out venom upon me?’ said Lady William. Her face lighted
up for a moment with a gleam of angry indignation. And then, ‘Poor old
woman!’ she said.

I am afraid Lord Will had no comprehension whatever of this misplaced
pity. He stared; and he made up his mind that his handsome aunt
overestimated his simplicity, and intended to take him in by that show
of feeling--which was the most unlikely undertaking, seeing that Lord
Will was a young man about town, and up, as he himself would have said,
to all the dodges. It was trouble altogether thrown away in his case.

‘What did Will mean by H.M. having a long memory?’ said Mab, who had
overheard part of this talk.

‘He means that Her Majesty remembers all about everybody--it is a point
of Royal politeness--and that the Queen will not receive anybody at
Court with a stain upon her name.’

‘But that is the very thing she ought to do!’ cried Mab.

She was not aware that it was improper to use vulgar pronouns in
speaking of the greatest lady in the land.

Lady William made no reply. She was thinking of the long life of
self-indulgence, of luxury and pleasure, a life in which no wish had
been allowed to remain unfulfilled, of the woman who had sentenced
herself in her youth, remorselessly, to a horrible fate--to deception
and undeception, one more dreadful than the other--in order to save her
own reputation: and then had turned upon her and endeavoured to ruin her
for having been thus deceived. Mrs. Swinford had suffered little
outwardly for all those indulgences which she had insisted upon securing
for herself, and for all the wrong she had done to others. But here, at
last, her lovers, her victims, her husband whom she had deceived, her
friend whom she had sacrificed, were avenged. By what?--by the Lord
Chamberlain’s wand across that doorway forbidding entrance to one of the
most tiresome ceremonials in the world.

‘Poor old woman!’ Lady William said.

‘I don’t know who is the poor old woman,’ said Mab, ‘nor what she has
done; but it’s grand of the Queen, if she is a wicked old woman, not to
let her in. So, say poor woman as much as you like, mother; I approve of
the Queen.’

‘I hope Her Majesty may be duly grateful, Mab,’ her mother replied.

I will not say that Mr. Francis Osborne’s family were quite satisfied
that he had done as well for himself as he ought by marrying his
Rector’s daughter. With his connections and prospects he might, as they
said, have married anybody. But, at the same time, for a curate to marry
his Rector’s daughter is a thing that is always on the cards, and the
Plowdens in their way were unexceptionable; and then there was that
connection with the Portcullis family, which was always something. So
the Osbornes and the kindred in general exerted themselves, as they had
always intended to do on fit occasion, and provided the living which was
always understood to be waiting until Francis should have gained a
little experience. There was the prettiest wedding in Watcham Church,
which became a bower of flowers, all the old lines of its arches and
pillars traced out with lilies and roses, and the dim building made
bright with a festal company of old and young, which filled it as if for
an Easter or a Christmas service. The procession walked from the Rectory
through the little private gate to the church, with all Watcham looking
on outside the hedge of the garden. Fortunately, it was very dry as well
as bright, and the most delicate dresses got no harm, and the sight
afforded the truest gratification to all the parishioners, great and
small. When Florence had changed her wedding robes for the pretty gray
gown in which she was to travel, she lingered in the old room which she
had shared for nearly all her life with her sister, and kissed her
inseparable Emmy with a few tears.

‘If it had not been me, it would have been you,’ Florry said. ‘One of us
was bound to go the first. And it will soon be your turn, too.’

‘No,’ said Emmy, ‘I do not think I shall ever marry.’

‘Oh, what nonsense!’ Florence said. ‘He has kept beside you all day.’

Emmy disengaged herself from her sister with a gravity beyond
description.

‘That will never be,’ she said. ‘You know it was only a girl’s fancy,
and never, never meant anything.’

‘I know nothing of the sort,’ Florence said, ‘and I think it never meant
so much as now.’

‘Florry!’ cried Emily, in sudden alarm, ‘if you ever tell, if you ever
breathe a syllable----!’

‘No, I never will!’ said Florence, pursing up her lips as if to prevent
any treacherous word from coming out.

And, though she had many temptations and struggles with herself, she
never did--until there came a time----

                                THE END

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