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                             A Minor Poet

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                             A Minor Poet
                            And other Verse

                                  by
                               AMY LEVY

                             CAMEO SERIES

                    T.FISHER UNWIN PATERNOSTER SQ.
                         LONDON E.C. MDCCCXCI.

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                           _Second Edition_

This volume is a reprint of that issued in 1884, with the addition of a
sonnet and a translation, from a volume published in Cambridge in 1881,
                         and now out of print.

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_Contents._

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_To a Dead Poet_                                                      11

A MINOR POET                                                          13

XANTIPPE                                                              23

MEDEA                                                                 35

SINFONIA EROICA                                                       58

TO SYLVIA                                                             60

A GREEK GIRL                                                          62

MAGDALEN                                                              65

CHRISTOPHER FOUND                                                     69

A DIRGE                                                               74

THE SICK MAN AND THE NIGHTINGALE                                      76

TO DEATH                                                              77

A JUNE-TIDE ECHO                                                      78

TO LALLIE                                                             80

IN A MINOR KEY                                                        83

A FAREWELL                                                            86

A CROSS-ROAD EPITAPH                                                  87

EPITAPH                                                               88

SONNET                                                                89

TRANSLATED FROM GEIBEL                                                90

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_To a Dead Poet._


    _I knew not if to laugh or weep;_
      _They sat and talked of you--_
    _“’Twas here he sat; ’twas this he said!_
      _’Twas that he used to do._

    _“Here is the book wherein he read,_
      _The room, wherein he dwelt;_
    _And he” (they said) “was such a man,_
      _Such things he thought and felt.”_

    _I sat and sat, I did not stir;_
      _They talked and talked away._
    _I was as mute as any stone,_
      _I had no word to say._

    _They talked and talked; like to a stone_
      _My heart grew in my breast--_
    _I, who had never seen your face_
      _Perhaps I knew you best._

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_A Minor Poet._

          “_What should such fellows as I do,_
    _Crawling between earth and heaven?_”

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    Here is the phial; here I turn the key
    Sharp in the lock. Click!--there’s no doubt it turned.
    This is the third time; there is luck in threes--
    Queen Luck, that rules the world, befriend me now
    And freely I’ll forgive you many wrongs!
    Just as the draught began to work, first time,
    Tom Leigh, my friend (as friends go in the world),
    Burst in, and drew the phial from my hand,
    (Ah, Tom! ah, Tom! that was a sorry turn!)
    And lectured me a lecture, all compact
    Of neatest, newest phrases, freshly culled
    From works of newest culture: “common good;”
    “The world’s great harmonies;” “must be content
    With knowing God works all things for the best,
    And Nature never stumbles.” Then again,
    “The common good,” and still, “the common, good;”
    And what a small thing was our joy or grief
    When weigh’d with that of thousands. Gentle Tom,
    But you might wag your philosophic tongue
    From morn till eve, and still the thing’s the same:
    I am myself, as each man is himself--
    Feels his own pain, joys his own joy, and loves
    With his own love, no other’s. Friend, the world
    Is but one man; one man is but the world.
    And I am I, and you are Tom, that bleeds
    When needles prick your flesh (mark, yours, not mine).
    I must confess it; I can feel the pulse
    A-beating at my heart, yet never knew
    The throb of cosmic pulses. I lament
    The death of youth’s ideal in my heart;
    And, to be honest, never yet rejoiced
    In the world’s progress--scarce, indeed, discerned;
    (For still it seems that God’s a Sisyphus
    With the world for stone).
                  You shake your head. I’m base,
    Ignoble? Who is noble--you or I?
    _I was not once thus?_ Ah, my friend, we are
    As the Fates make us.
                          This time is the third;
    The second time the flask fell from my hand,
    Its drowsy juices spilt upon the board;
    And there my face fell flat, and all the life
    Crept from my limbs, and hand and foot were bound
    With mighty chains, subtle, intangible;
    While still the mind held to its wonted use,
    Or rather grew intense and keen with dread,
    An awful dread--I thought I was in Hell.
    In Hell, in Hell! Was ever Hell conceived
    By mortal brain, by brain Divine devised,
    Darker, more fraught with torment, than the world
    For such as I? A creature maimed and marr’d
    From very birth. A blot, a blur, a note
    All out of tune in this world’s instrument.
    A base thing, yet not knowing to fulfil
    Base functions. A high thing, yet all unmeet
    For work that’s high. A dweller on the earth,
    Yet not content to dig with other men
    Because of certain sudden sights and sounds
    (Bars of broke music; furtive, fleeting glimpse
    Of angel faces ’thwart the grating seen)
    Perceived in Heaven. Yet when I approach
    To catch the sound’s completeness, to absorb
    The faces’ full perfection, Heaven’s gate,
    Which then had stood ajar, sudden falls to,
    And I, a-shiver in the dark and cold,
    Scarce hear afar the mocking tones of men:
    “He would not dig, forsooth; but he must strive
    For higher fruits than what our tillage yields;
    Behold what comes, my brothers, of vain pride!”
    Why play with figures? trifle prettily
    With this my grief which very simply ’s said,
    “There is no place for me in all the world”?
    The world’s a rock, and I will beat no more
    A breast of flesh and blood against a rock....
    A stride across the planks for old time’s sake.
    Ah, bare, small room that I have sorrowed in;
    Ay, and on sunny days, haply, rejoiced;
    We know some things together, you and I!
    Hold there, you rangèd row of books! In vain
    You beckon from your shelf. You’ve stood my friends
    Where all things else were foes; yet now I’ll turn
    My back upon you, even as the world
    Turns it on me. And yet--farewell, farewell!
    You, lofty Shakespere, with the tattered leaves
    And fathomless great heart, your binding’s bruised
    Yet did I love you less? Goethe, farewell;
    Farewell, triumphant smile and tragic eyes,
    And pitiless world-wisdom!
                                  For all men
    These two. And ’tis farewell with you, my friends,
    More dear because more near: Theokritus;
    Heine that stings and smiles; Prometheus’ bard;
    (I’ve grown too coarse for Shelley latterly:)
    And one wild singer of to-day, whose song
    Is all aflame with passionate bard’s blood
    Lash’d into foam by pain and the world’s wrong.
    At least, he has a voice to cry his pain;
    For him, no silent writhing in the dark,
    No muttering of mute lips, no straining out
    Of a weak throat a-choke with pent-up sound,
    A-throb with pent-up passion....
                                Ah, my sun!
    That’s you, then, at the window, looking in
    To beam farewell on one who’s loved you long
    And very truly. Up, you creaking thing,
    You squinting, cobwebbed casement!
                                        So, at last,
    I can drink in the sunlight. How it falls
    Across that endless sea of London roofs,
    Weaving such golden wonders on the grey,
    That almost, for the moment, we forget
    The world of woe beneath them.
                                  Underneath,
    For all the sunset glory, Pain is king.
    Yet, the sun’s there, and very sweet withal;
    And I’ll not grumble that it’s only sun,
    But open wide my lips--thus--drink it in;
    Turn up my face to the sweet evening sky
    (What royal wealth of scarlet on the blue
    So tender toned, you’d almost think it green)
    And stretch my hands out--so--to grasp it tight.
    Ha, ha! ’tis sweet awhile to cheat the Fates,
    And be as happy as another man.
    The sun works in my veins like wine, like wine!
    ’Tis a fair world: if dark, indeed, with woe,
    Yet having hope and hint of such a joy,
    That a man, winning, well might turn aside,
    Careless of Heaven....
                              O enough; I turn
    From the sun’s light, or haply I shall hope.
    I have hoped enough; I would not hope again:
    ’Tis hope that is most cruel.
                                  Tom, my friend,
    You very sorry philosophic fool;
    ’Tis you, I think, that bid me be resign’d,
    Trust, and be thankful.
                            Out on you! Resign’d?
    I’m not resign’d, not patient, not school’d in
    To take my starveling’s portion and pretend
    I’m grateful for it. I want all, all, all;
    I’ve appetite for all. I want the best:
    Love, beauty, sunlight, nameless joy of life.
    There’s too much patience in the world, I think.
    We have grown base with crooking of the knee.
    Mankind--say--God has bidden to a feast;
    The board is spread, and groans with cates and drinks;
    In troop the guests; each man with appetite
    Keen-whetted with expectance.
                                    In they troop,
    Struggle for seats, jostle and push and seize.
    What’s this? what’s this? There are not seats for all!
    Some men must stand without the gates; and some
    Must linger by the table, ill-supplied
    With broken meats. One man gets meat for two,
    The while another hungers. If I stand
    Without the portals, seeing others eat
    Where I had thought to satiate the pangs
    Of mine own hunger; shall I then come forth
    When all is done, and drink my Lord’s good health
    In my Lord’s water? Shall I not rather turn
    And curse him, curse him for a niggard host?
    O, I have hungered, hungered, through the years,
    Till appetite grows craving, then disease;
    I am starved, wither’d, shrivelled.
                                      Peace, O peace!
    This rage is idle; what avails to curse
    The nameless forces, the vast silences
    That work in all things.
                            This time is the third,
    I wrought before in heat, stung mad with pain,
    Blind, scarcely understanding; now I know
    What thing I do.
                      There was a woman once;
    Deep eyes she had, white hands, a subtle smile,
    Soft speaking tones: she did not break my heart,
    Yet haply had her heart been otherwise
    Mine had not now been broken. Yet, who knows?
    My life was jarring discord from the first:
    Tho’ here and there brief hints of melody,
    Of melody unutterable, clove the air.
    From this bleak world, into the heart of night,
    The dim, deep bosom of the universe,
    I cast myself. I only crave for rest;
    Too heavy is the load. I fling it down.


EPILOGUE.

    We knocked and knocked; at last, burst in the door,
    And found him as you know--the outstretched arms
    Propping the hidden face. The sun had set,
    And all the place was dim with lurking shade.
    There was no written word to say farewell,
    Or make more clear the deed.
                            I search’d and search’d;
    The room held little: just a row of books
    Much scrawl’d and noted; sketches on the wall,
    Done rough in charcoal; the old instrument
    (A violin, no Stradivarius)
    He played so ill on; in the table drawer
    Large schemes of undone work. Poems half-writ;
    Wild drafts of symphonies; big plans of fugues;
    Some scraps of writing in a woman’s hand:
    No more--the scattered pages of a tale,
    A sorry tale that no man cared to read.
    Alas, my friend, I lov’d him well, tho’ he
    Held me a cold and stagnant-blooded fool,
    Because I am content to watch, and wait
    With a calm mind the issue of all things.
    Certain it is my blood’s no turbid stream;
    Yet, for all that, haply I understood
    More than he ever deem’d; nor held so light
    The poet in him. Nay, I sometimes doubt
    If they have not, indeed, the better part--
    These poets, who get drunk with sun, and weep
    Because the night or a woman’s face is fair.
    Meantime there is much talk about my friend.
    The women say, of course, he died for love;
    The men, for lack of gold, or cavilling
    Of carping critics. I, Tom Leigh, his friend
    I have no word at all to say of this.
    Nay, I had deem’d him more philosopher;
    For did he think by this one paltry deed
    To cut the knot of circumstance, and snap
    The chain which binds all being?




_Xantippe._

(A FRAGMENT.)

_“Xantippe” has appeared in the_ University Magazine, _and in a
collection of Verse published at Cambridge._

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    What, have I waked again? I never thought
    To see the rosy dawn, or ev’n this grey,
    Dull, solemn stillness, ere the dawn has come.
    The lamp burns low; low burns the lamp of life:
    The still morn stays expectant, and my soul,
    All weighted with a passive wonderment,
    Waiteth and watcheth, waiteth for the dawn.
    Come hither, maids; too soundly have ye slept
    That should have watched me; nay, I would not chide--
    Oft have I chidden, yet I would not chide
    In this last hour;--now all should be at peace.
    I have been dreaming in a troubled sleep
    Of weary days I thought not to recall;
    Of stormy days, whose storms are hushed long since;
    Of gladsome days, of sunny days; alas
    In dreaming, all their sunshine seem’d so sad,
    As though the current of the dark To-Be
    Had flow’d, prophetic, through the happy hours.
    And yet, full well, I know it was not thus;
    I mind me sweetly of the summer days,
    When, leaning from the lattice, I have caught
    The fair, far glimpses of a shining sea;
    And, nearer, of tall ships which thronged the bay,
    And stood out blackly from a tender sky
    All flecked with sulphur, azure, and bright gold;
    And in the still, clear air have heard the hum
    Of distant voices; and methinks there rose
    No darker fount to mar or stain the joy
    Which sprang ecstatic in my maiden breast
    Than just those vague desires, those hopes and fears,
    Those eager longings, strong, though undefined,
    Whose very sadness makes them seem so sweet.
    What cared I for the merry mockeries
    Of other maidens sitting at the loom?
    Or for sharp voices, bidding me return
    To maiden labour? Were we not apart--
    I and my high thoughts, and my golden dreams,
    My soul which yearned for knowledge, for a tongue
    That should proclaim the stately mysteries
    Of this fair world, and of the holy gods?
    Then followed days of sadness, as I grew
    To learn my woman-mind had gone astray,
    And I was sinning in those very thoughts--
    For maidens, mark, such are not woman’s thoughts--
    (And yet, ’tis strange, the gods who fashion us
    Have given us such promptings)....
                                      Fled the years,
    Till seventeen had found me tall and strong,
    And fairer, runs it, than Athenian maids
    Are wont to seem; I had not learnt it well--
    My lesson of dumb patience--and I stood
    At Life’s great threshold with a beating heart,
    And soul resolved to conquer and attain....
    Once, walking ’thwart the crowded market-place,
    With other maidens, bearing in the twigs
    White doves for Aphrodite’s sacrifice,
    I saw him, all ungainly and uncouth,
    Yet many gathered round to hear his words,
    Tall youths and stranger-maidens--Sokrates--
    I saw his face and marked it, half with awe,
    Half with a quick repulsion at the shape....
    The richest gem lies hidden furthest down,
    And is the dearer for the weary search;
    We grasp the shining shells which strew the shore,
    Yet swift we fling them from us; but the gem
    We keep for aye and cherish. So a soul,
    Found after weary searching in the flesh
    Which half repelled our senses, is more dear,
    For that same seeking, than the sunny mind
    Which lavish Nature marks with thousand hints
    Upon a brow of beauty. We are prone
    To overweigh such subtle hints, then deem,
    In after disappointment, we are fooled....
    And when, at length, my father told me all,
    That I should wed me with great Sokrates,
    I, foolish, wept to see at once cast down
    The maiden image of a future love,
    Where perfect body matched the perfect soul.
    But slowly, softly did I cease to weep;
    Slowly I ’gan to mark the magic flash
    Leap to the eyes, to watch the sudden smile
    Break round the mouth, and linger in the eyes;
    To listen for the voice’s lightest tone--
    Great voice, whose cunning modulations seemed
    Like to the notes of some sweet instrument.
    So did I reach and strain, until at last
    I caught the soul athwart the grosser flesh.
    Again of thee, sweet Hope, my spirit dreamed!
    I, guided by his wisdom and his love,
    Led by his words, and counselled by his care,
    Should lift the shrouding veil from things which be,
    And at the flowing fountain of his soul
    Refresh my thirsting spirit....
                                  And indeed,
    In those long days which followed that strange day
    When rites and song, and sacrifice and flow’rs,
    Proclaimed that we were wedded, did I learn,
    In sooth, a-many lessons; bitter ones
    Which sorrow taught me, and not love inspired,
    Which deeper knowledge of my kind impressed
    With dark insistence on reluctant brain;--
    But that great wisdom, deeper, which dispels
    Narrowed conclusions of a half-grown mind,
    And sees athwart the littleness of life
    Nature’s divineness and her harmony,
    Was never poor Xantippe’s....
                                I would pause
    And would recall no more, no more of life,
    Than just the incomplete, imperfect dream
    Of early summers, with their light and shade,
    Their blossom-hopes, whose fruit was never ripe;
    But something strong within me, some sad chord
    Which loudly echoes to the later life,
    Me to unfold the after-misery
    Urges, with plaintive wailing in my heart.
    Yet, maidens, mark; I would not that ye thought
    I blame my lord departed, for he meant
    No evil, so I take it, to his wife.
    ’Twas only that the high philosopher,
    Pregnant with noble theories and great thoughts,
    Deigned not to stoop to touch so slight a thing
    As the fine fabric of a woman’s brain--
    So subtle as a passionate woman’s soul.
    I think, if he had stooped a little, and cared,
    I might have risen nearer to his height,
    And not lain shattered, neither fit for use
    As goodly household vessel, nor for that
    Far finer thing which I had hoped to be....
    Death, holding high his retrospective lamp,
    Shows me those first, far years of wedded life,
    Ere I had learnt to grasp the barren shape
    Of what the Fates had destined for my life
    Then, as all youthful spirits are, was I
    Wholly incredulous that Nature meant
    So little, who had promised me so much.
    At first I fought my fate with gentle words,
    With high endeavours after greater things;
    Striving to win the soul of Sokrates,
    Like some slight bird, who sings her burning love
    To human master, till at length she finds
    Her tender language wholly misconceived,
    And that same hand whose kind caress she sought,
    With fingers flippant flings the careless corn....
    I do remember how, one summer’s eve,
    He, seated in an arbour’s leafy shade,
    Had bade me bring fresh wine-skins....
                                          As I stood
    Ling’ring upon the threshold, half concealed
    By tender foliage, and my spirit light
    With draughts of sunny weather, did I mark
    An instant the gay group before mine eyes.
    Deepest in shade, and facing where I stood,
    Sat Plato, with his calm face and low brows
    Which met above the narrow Grecian eyes,
    The pale, thin lips just parted to the smile,
    Which dimpled that smooth olive of his cheek.
    His head a little bent, sat Sokrates,
    With one swart finger raised admonishing,
    And on the air were borne his changing tones.
    Low lounging at his feet, one fair arm thrown
    Around his knee (the other, high in air
    Brandish’d a brazen amphor, which yet rained
    Bright drops of ruby on the golden locks
    And temples with their fillets of the vine),
    Lay Alkibiades the beautiful.
    And thus, with solemn tone, spake Sokrates:
    “This fair Aspasia, which our Perikles
    Hath brought from realms afar, and set on high
    In our Athenian city, hath a mind,
    I doubt not, of a strength beyond her race;
    And makes employ of it, beyond the way
    Of women nobly gifted: woman’s frail--
    Her body rarely stands the test of soul;
    She grows intoxicate with knowledge; throws
    The laws of custom, order,’neath her feet,
    Feasting at life’s great banquet with wide throat.”
    Then sudden, stepping from my leafy screen,
    Holding the swelling wine-skin o’er my head,
    With breast that heaved, and eyes and cheeks aflame,
    Lit by a fury and a thought, I spake:
    “By all great powers around us! can it be
    That we poor women are empirical?
    That gods who fashioned us did strive to make
    Beings too fine, too subtly delicate,
    With sense that thrilled response to ev’ry touch
    Of nature’s, and their task is not complete?
    That they have sent their half-completed work
    To bleed and quiver here upon the earth?
    To bleed and quiver, and to weep and weep,
    To beat its soul against the marble walls
    Of men’s cold hearts, and then at last to sin!”
    I ceased, the first hot passion stayed and stemmed
    And frighted by the silence: I could see,
    Framed by the arbour foliage, which the sun
    In setting softly gilded with rich gold,
    Those upturned faces, and those placid limbs;
    Saw Plato’s narrow eyes and niggard mouth,
    Which half did smile and half did criticise,
    One hand held up, the shapely fingers framed
    To gesture of entreaty--“Hush, I pray,
    Do not disturb her; let us hear the rest;
    Follow her mood, for here’s another phase
    Of your black-browed Xantippe....”
                                      Then I saw
    Young Alkibiades, with laughing lips
    And half-shut eyes, contemptuous shrugging up
    Soft, snowy shoulders, till he brought the gold
    Of flowing ringlets round about his breasts.
    But Sokrates, all slow and solemnly,
    Raised, calm, his face to mine, and sudden spake:
    “I thank thee for the wisdom which thy lips
    Have thus let fall among us: prythee tell
    From what high source, from what philosophies
    Didst cull the sapient notion of thy words?”
    Then stood I straight and silent for a breath,
    Dumb, crushed with all that weight of cold contempt;
    But swiftly in my bosom there uprose
    A sudden flame, a merciful fury sent
    To save me; with both angry hands I flung
    The skin upon the marble, where it lay
    Spouting red rills and fountains on the white;
    Then, all unheeding faces, voices, eyes,
    I fled across the threshold, hair unbound--
    White garment stained to redness--beating heart
    Flooded with all the flowing tide of hopes
    Which once had gushed out golden, now sent back
    Swift to their sources, never more to rise....
    I think I could have borne the weary life,
    The narrow life within the narrow walls,
    If he had loved me; but he kept his love
    For this Athenian city and her sons;
    And, haply, for some stranger-woman, bold
    With freedom, thought, and glib philosophy....
    Ah me! the long, long weeping through the nights,
    The weary watching for the pale-eyed dawn
    Which only brought fresh grieving: then I grew
    Fiercer, and cursed from out my inmost heart
    The Fates which marked me an Athenian maid.
    Then faded that vain fury; hope died out;
    A huge despair was stealing on my soul,
    A sort of fierce acceptance of my fate,--
    He wished a household vessel--well ’twas good,
    For he should have it! He should have no more
    The yearning treasure of a woman’s love,
    But just the baser treasure which he sought.
    I called my maidens, ordered out the loom,
    And spun unceasing from the morn till eve;
    Watching all keenly over warp and woof,
    Weighing the white wool with a jealous hand.
    I spun until, methinks, I spun away
    The soul from out my body, the high thoughts
    From out my spirit; till at last I grew
    As ye have known me,--eye exact to mark
    The texture of the spinning; ear all keen
    For aimless talking when the moon is up,
    And ye should be a-sleeping; tongue to cut
    With quick incision, ’thwart the merry words
    Of idle maidens....
                        Only yesterday
    My hands did cease from spinning; I have wrought
    My dreary duties, patient till the last.
    The gods reward me! Nay, I will not tell
    The after years of sorrow; wretched strife
    With grimmest foes--sad Want and Poverty;--
    Nor yet the time of horror, when they bore
    My husband from the threshold; nay, nor when
    The subtle weed had wrought its deadly work.
    Alas! alas! I was not there to soothe
    The last great moment; never any thought
    Of her that loved him--save at least the charge,
    All earthly, that her body should not starve....
    You weep, you weep; I would not that ye wept;
    Such tears are idle; with the young, such grief
    Soon grows to gratulation, as, “her love
    Was withered by misfortune; mine shall grow
    All nurtured by the loving,” or, “her life
    Was wrecked and shattered--mine shall smoothly sail.”
    Enough, enough. In vain, in vain, in vain!
    The gods forgive me! Sorely have I sinned
    In all my life. A fairer fate befall
    You all that stand there....
                          Ha! the dawn has come;
    I see a rosy glimmer--nay! it grows dark;
    Why stand ye so in silence? throw it wide,
    The casement, quick; why tarry?--give me air--
    O fling it wide, I say, and give me light!




_Medea._

(A FRAGMENT IN DRAMA FORM, AFTER EURIPIDES.)

    πάντων δ’ ὅσ’ ἔστ’ ἔμψυχα καὶ
     γνώμην ἔχει γυναῖκές ἐσμεν
     ἀθλιώτατον φυτόν:

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PERSONS.

    MEDEA.}
    ÆGEUS.} Citizens of Corinth.
    JASON.}
    NIKIAS.}


_Scene_: _Before_ MEDEA’S _House_.

[_Enter_ MEDEA.]

MEDEA.

    To-day, to-day, I know not why it is,
    I do bethink me of my Colchian home.
    To-day, that I am lone and weary and sad,
    I fain would call back days of pride and hope;
    Of pride in strength, when strength was all unprov’d,
    Of hope too high, too sweet, to be confined
    In limits of conception.
                              I am sad
    Here in this gracious city, whose white walls
    Gleam snow-like in the sunlight; whose fair shrines
    Are filled with wondrous images of gods;
    Upon whose harbour’s bosom ride tall ships,
    Black-masted, fraught with fragrant merchandise;
    Whose straight-limbed people, in fair stuffs arrayed,
    Do throng from morn till eve the sunny streets.
    For what avail fair shrines and images?
    What, cunning workmanship and purple robes?
    Light of sweet sunlight, play and spray of waves?
    When all around the air is charged and chill,
    And all the place is drear and dark with hate?
    Alas, alas, this people loves me not!
    This strong, fair people, marble-cold and smooth
    As modelled marble. I, an alien here,
    That well can speak the language of their lips,
    The language of their souls may never learn.
    And in their hands, I, that did know myself
    Ere now, a creature in whose veins ran blood
    Redder, more rapid, than flows round most hearts,
    Do seem a creature reft of life and soul.
    If they would only teach the subtle trick
    By which their hearts are melted into love,
    I’d strive to learn it. I am very meek.
    They think me proud, but I am very meek,
    Ready to do their bidding. Hear me, friends!
    Friends, I am very hungry, give me love!
    ’Tis all I ask! is it so hard to give?
    You stand and front me with your hostile eyes;
    You only give me hatred?
                            Yet I know
    Ye are not all unloving. Oft I see
    The men and women walking in the ways,
    Hand within hand, and tender-bated breath,
    On summer evenings when the sky is fair.
    O men and women, are ye then so hard?
    Will ye not give a little of your love
    To me that am so hungry?

     [_Enter_ ÆGEUS _and_ NIKIAS, _on the opposite side_. MEDEA _steps
     back on the threshold and pauses_.]

                            Ha, that word!
    ’Tis Jason’s name they bandy to and fro.
    I know not why, whene’er his name is spoke,
    Once name of joy and ever name of love,
    I wax white and do tremble; sudden seized
    With shadowy apprehension. May’t forbode
    No evil unto him I hold so dear;
    And ever dearer with the waxing years:--
    For this indeed is woman’s chiefest curse,
    That still her constant heart clings to its love
    Through all time and all chances; while the man
    Is caught with newness; coldly calculates,
    And measures pain and pleasure, loss and gain;
    And ever grows to look with the world’s eye
    Upon a woman, tho’ his, body and soul.

    [_She goes within._]

[_The two citizens come forward._]

NIKIAS.

    I, in this thing, do hold our Jason wise;
    Kreon is mighty; Glaukê very fair.

ÆGEUS.

    An ’twere for that--the Colchian’s fair enough.

NIKIAS.

    I like not your swart skins and purple hair;
    Your black, fierce eyes where the brows meet across.
    By all the gods! when yonder Colchian
    Fixes me with her strange and sudden gaze,
    Each hair upon my body stands erect!
    Zeus, ’tis a very tiger, and as mute!

ÆGEUS.

    ’Tis certain that the woman’s something strange.

NIKIAS.

    Gods, spare me your strange women, so say I.
    Give me gold hair, lithe limbs and gracious smiles,
    And spare the strangeness.

ÆGEUS.

                            I do marvel much
    How she will bear the tidings.

NIKIAS.

                            Lo, behold!
    Here comes our Jason striding ’thwart the streets.
    Gods! what a gracious presence!

ÆGEUS.

                          I perceive
    The Colchian on the threshold. By her looks,
    Our idle talk has reached her listening ears.

[_Enter_ JASON. MEDEA _reappears on the threshold_.]

NIKIAS.

    Let’s draw aside and mark them; lo, they meet.

[_The two citizens withdraw, unperceived, to a further corner of the
stage._]

MEDEA.

    ’Tis false, ’tis false. O Jason, they speak false!

JASON.

    Your looks are wild, Medea; you bring shame
    Upon this house, that stand with hair unbound
    Beyond the threshold. Get you in the house.

MEDEA.

    But not till you have answered me this thing.

JASON.

    What is this thing that you would know of me?

MEDEA.

    O I have heard strange rumours--horrible!

JASON.

    Oft lies the horror of a tale in the ear
    Of him that hears it. What is ’t you have heard?

MEDEA.

    Almost, for fear, I dare not give it tongue.
    But tell me this? Love, you have not forgot
    The long years passed in this Corinthian home?
    The great love I have borne you through the years?
    Nor that far time when, in your mighty craft,
    You came, a stranger, to the Colchian shore?
    O strong you were; but not of such a strength
    To have escaped the doom of horrid death,
    Had not I, counting neither loss nor gain,
    Shown you the way to triumph and renown.

JASON.

    And better had I then, a thousand times,
    Have fought with my good sword and fall’n or stood
    As the high Fates directed; than been caught
    In the close meshes of the magic web
    Wrought by your hand, dark-thoughted sorceress.

NIKIAS.

    Did you mark that? Jason speaks low and smooth;
    Yet there is that within his level tones,
    And in the icy drooping of his lids
    (More than his words, tho’ they are harsh enough),
    Tells me he hates her.

ÆGEUS.

    Hush! Medea speaks.

MEDEA.

    O gods, gods; ye have cursed me in this gift!
    Is it for this, for this that I have striven?
    Have wrestled in the darkness? wept my tears?
    Have fought with sweet desires and hopes and thoughts?
    Have watched when men were sleeping? for long days
    Have shunned the sunlight and the breaths of Heaven?
    Is it for this, for this that I have prayed
    Long prayers, poured out with blood and cries and tears?
    Lo, I who strove for strength have grown more weak
    Than is the weakest. I have poured the sap
    Of all my being, my life’s very life,
    Before a thankless godhead; and am grown
    No woman, but a monster. What avail
    Charms, spells and potions, all my hard-won arts,
    My mystic workings, seeing they cannot win
    One little common spark of human love?
    O gods, gods, ye have cursed me in this gift!
    More should ye have withheld or more have giv’n;
    Have fashioned me more weak or else more strong.
    Behold me now, your work, a thing of fear--
    From natural human fellowship cut off,
    And yet a woman--sick and sore with pain;
    Hungry for love and music of men’s praise,
    But walled about as with a mighty wall,
    Far from men’s reach and sight, alone, alone.

NIKIAS.

    Behold her, how she waves about her arms
    And casts her eyes to Heaven.

ÆGEUS.

                            Ay, ’tis strange--
    Not as our women do, yet scarce unmeet.

NIKIAS.

    Unmeet, unmeet? But Jason holds it so!
    Mark you his white cheeks and his knitted brows,
    What wrath and hate and scorn upon his face!

JASON.

    Hear me, Medea, if you still can hear
    That seem so strangely lifted from yourself:
    But I, that know you long, do know you well,
    A thing of moods and passions; so I bear
    Once more with your wild words and savage gests,
    Ay, and for all your fury speak you fair.
    You say you love me. Can I deem it so,
    When what does most advantage me and mine
    You shrink to hear of? For I make no doubt,
    Fleet-footed rumour did anticipate
    The tidings I was hastening to bear,
    When you, wide-eyed, unveiled, unfilleted,
    Rushed out upon me.
                    Know then this once more:
    That I have sworn to take as wedded wife
    Glaukê, the daughter of our mighty king,
    In this, in nowise hurting you and yours.
    For you all fair provision I have made,
    So but you get beyond the city walls
    Before the night comes on. Our little ones--
    They too shall journey with you. I have said.
    And had I found you in a mood more mild,
    Less swayed by savage passion, I had told
    How this thing, which mayhap seems a thing hard,
    Is but a blessing, wrapped and cloaked about
    In harsh disguisements. For tho’ Kreon rule
    To-day within the city; Kreon dead,
    Who else shall rule there saving I alone,
    The king’s son loved of him and other men?
    And in those days Medea’s sons and mine
    Shall stand at my right hand, grown great in power.
    Medea, too, if she do but control
    Her fiery spirit, may yet reign a queen
    Above this land of Corinth. I have said.

NIKIAS.

    Well said.

ÆGEUS.

    But none the better that ’twas false.

NIKIAS.

    I’d sooner speak, for my part, fair than true.
    Mark Jason there; how firm his lithe, straight limbs;
    How high his gold-curled head, crisped like a girl’s.
    And yet for all his curled locks and smooth tones
    Jason is very strong. I never knew
    A man of such a strange and subtle strength.

ÆGEUS.

    The Colchian speaks no word; and her swart hands,
    Which waved, a moment since, and beat the air
    In mad entreaty, are together clasped
    Before her white robe in an iron clasp.
    And her wild eyes, which erst did seek the heav’ns,
    And now her lord and now again the earth,
    Are set on space and move not. The tall shape
    Stands there erect and still. This calm, I think,
    Is filled with strangest portent.

NIKIAS.

                                O ye gods,
    She is a pregnant horror as she stands.

ÆGEUS.

    She speaks; her voice sounds as a sound far off.

MEDEA.

    As you have said, O Jason, let it be.
    I for my part am nothing loth to break
    A compact never in fair justice framed,
    Seeing how much one gave and one how much.
    For you, you thought: This maid has served me well,
    And yet may serve me. When I touch her palm
    The blood is set a-tingle in my veins;
    For these things I will make her body mine.
    And I, I stood before you, clean and straight,
    A woman some deemed fair and all deemed wise;
    A woman, yet no simple thing nor slight,
    By nature fashioned in no niggard mould;
    And looked into your eyes with eyes that spake:
    Lo, utterly, for ever, I am yours.
    And since that you, this gift I lavish laid
    Low at your feet, have lightly held and spurned--
    I in my two arms, thus, shall gather it up
    So that your feet may not encounter it
    Which is not worthy for your feet to tread!
    Yet pause a moment, Jason. Haply now
    In some such wise as this your thoughts run on:
    I loved this woman for a little space;
    Alas, poor soul, she loved me but too well--
    It is the way with women! Some, I think,
    Did deem her fierce; gods! she was meek enough,
    Content with what I gave; when I gave not
    Nothing importunate.
                        Ah, Jason, pause.
    You never knew Medea. You forget,
    Because so long she bends the knee to you,
    She was not born to serfdom.
                              I have knelt
    Too long before you. I have stood too long
    Suppliant before this people. You forget
    A redder stream flows in my Colchian veins
    Than the slow flood which courses round your hearts,
    O cold Corinthians, with whom I long have dwelt
    And never ere this day have known myself.
    Nor have ye known me. Now behold me free,
    Ungyved by any chains of this man wrought;
    Nothing desiring at your hands nor his.
    Free, freer than the air or winged birds;
    Strong, stronger than the blast of wintry storms;
    And lifted up into an awful realm
    Where is nor love, nor pity, nor remorse,
    Nor dread, but only purpose.
                                There shall be
    A horror and a horror in this land;
    Woe upon woe, red blood and biting flame;
    Most horrid death and anguish worse than death;
    Deeds that shall make the shores of Hades sound
    With murmured terror; with an awful dread
    Shall move the generations yet unborn;
    A horror and a horror in the land.

JASON.

    Shrew, triple-linked with Hell, get you within.
    Shame not my house! ’Tis your own harm you work.

     [MEDEA _goes within_. JASON _moves off slowly_. ÆGEUS _and_ NIKIAS
     _go off conferring in whispers_.]


SCENE II.

     [Time--_After an interval; the evening of the same day._ Scene--_A
     street. A crowd of people running to and fro._]

NIKIAS.

    O horror, horror, have ye heard the tale?

ÆGEUS.

    Alas, a bloody rumour reached mine ears
    Of awful purport: that the king lies dead--

NIKIAS.

    And by his side, his daughter; both caught up
    In sudden toils of torment. With his grief
    Jason is all distraught; behold her deed,
    The swift and subtle tigress!

ÆGEUS.

                                Woe! Alas!
    Woe for the state, woe for our Kreon slain,
    For hapless Glaukê, for our Jason, woe!
    But three times woe for her that did the deed--
    Her womanhood sham’d; her children basely wrong’d.

NIKIAS.

    Hold back your pity till the tale be told,
    For never was there horror like to this.
    Ere now in Corinth, haply, you have heard
    How she did use for her crime’s instruments
    The tender boys sprung from great Jason’s loins;
    Bidding them bear the garments wrought in Hell
    As bridal gifts to grace the marriage morn
    Of gold-hair’d Glaukê. Serpent! Sorceress!

ÆGEUS.

    Alas, consider; so the tigress springs
    When that her cubs are menaced. ’Twas her love
    That wrought the deed--evil, yet wrought for love.

NIKIAS.

    Spare me such love. I never yet could deem,
    Ev’n ere the horror, that Medea held
    The love of human mothers in her breast.
    For I have seen her, when her children played
    Their innocent, aimless sports about her knees,
    Or held her gown across the market-place,
    Move all unheeding with her swart brows knit
    And fierce eyes fixed; not, as is mothers’ wont,
    Eager to note the winning infant ways,
    A-strain to catch the babbling treble tones
    Of soft lips clamouring for a kiss or smile.
    And once I marked her (’twas a summer’s morn)
    Turn suddenly and, stooping, catch and strain
    One tender infant to her breast. She held
    Her lips to his and looked into his eyes,
    Not gladly, as a mother with her child,
    But stirred by some strange passion; then the boy
    Cried out with terror, and Medea wept.

ÆGEUS.

    Your tale is strange.

NIKIAS.

                      Stranger is yet to come.
    How that the Colchian did send forth her sons,
    Innocent doers of most deadly deed,
    Has reached your knowledge. When the deed was done,
    And the dead king lay stretched upon the floor
    Clutching his daughter in a last embrace,
    Arose great clamour in the palace halls;
    Wailing and cries of terror; women’s screams;
    A rush of flying feet from hall to hall;
    The clanging fall of brazen instruments
    Upon the marble.
                    The two tender boys,
    Half apprehending what thing had befallen,
    Fled forth unmarked, and all affrighted reached
    The house of Jason, where Medea stood
    Erect upon the threshold. From afar
    Sounded and surged the fiercely frighted roar
    Of the roused city, and, like waves of the sea,
    Grew nearer ev’ry beating of the pulse.
    Forth from the inmost chambers fled the slaves,
    Made fleet with sudden fear; the little ones
    With arms outspread rushed to the Colchian,
    And clung about her limbs and caught her robe,
    Hiding their faces.
                      And Medea stood
    Calm as a carven image. As the sound
    Of wrath and lamentation drew more near,
    The pale lips seemed to smile. But when she saw
    Her children clinging round her, she stretched forth
    One strong, swart hand and put the twain away,
    And gathered up the trailing of her robe.
    I saw the deed, I, Nikias, with these eyes!
    Then spake she (Zeus! grant that I may not hear
    Such tones once more from human lips!). She spake:
    “I will not have ye, for I love ye not!”
    Then all her face grew alien. Those around
    Stood still, not knowing what she planned.
                                          Then she
    Forth from her gathered garment swiftly drew
    A thing that gleamed and glinted; in the air
    She held it poised an instant; then--O gods!
    How shall I speak it?--on the marble floor
    Was blood that streamed and spurted; blood that flow’d
    From two slain, innocent babes!

ÆGEUS.

    O woful day!

NIKIAS.

    Then brake a cry from all about: a wail
    Of lamentation. But above the sound
    A fierce long shriek, that froze the blood i’ the veins,
    Rang out and rose, cleaving the topmost cloud.

ÆGEUS.

    O evil deed! O essence of all evil
    Stealing the shape of woman!

NIKIAS.

                                    After that
    All is confusion; from all sides surged up
    The people, cursing, weeping. ’Thwart the din
    Each other moment the strained ear might catch
    Medea’s name, or Jason’s, or the King’s;
    And women wailed out “Glaukê” through their tears.
    Then sudden came a pause; the angry roar
    Died down into a murmur; and the throng
    Grew still, and rolled aside like a clov’n sea.
    And Jason strode between them till he reached
    His own home’s threshold where the twain lay dead,
    Long gazed he on their faces; then he turned
    To the hush’d people; turned to them and spake:
    (His face was whiter than the dead’s, his eyes
    Like to a creature’s that has looked on Hell)
    “Where is the woman?” Lo, and when they sought
    Medea, no eye beheld her. And no man
    Had looked upon her since that moment’s space
    When steel had flashed and blood foamed in the air.
    Then Jason stood erect and spake again:
    “Let no man seek this woman; blood enough
    Has stained our city. Let the furies rend
    Her guilty soul; nor we pollute our hands
    With her accursèd body....”

ÆGEUS.

                            Cease, my friend;
    It is enough. You judged this thing aright;
    This woman was dark and evil in her soul;
    Black to her fiend-heart’s root; a festering plague
    In our fair city’s midst.

NIKIAS.

    Spake I not true?

[_Night; outside the city._ MEDEA _leaning against a rock_.]

    Here let me rest; beyond men’s eyes, beyond
    The city’s hissing hate. Why am I here?
    Why have I fled from death? There’s sun on the earth,
    And in the shades no sun;--thus much I know;
    And sunlight’s good.
                        Wake I, or do I sleep?
    I’m weary, weary; once I dream’d a dream
    Of one that strove and wept and yearned for love
    In a fair city. She was blind indeed.
    They say the woman had a fiend at heart,
    And afterwards--Hush, hush, I dream’d a dream.
    How cold the air blows; how the night grows dark,
    Wrapping me round in blackness. Darker too
    Grows the deep night within. I cannot see;
    I grope with weary hands; my hands are sore
    With fruitless striving. I have fought with the Fates
    And I am vanquished utterly. The Fates
    Yield not to strife; nay, nor to many prayers.
    Their ways are dark.
                    One climbs the tree and grasps
    A handful of dead leaves; another walks,
    Heedless, beneath the branches, and the fruit
    Falls mellow at his feet.
                          This is the end:
    I have dash’d my heart against a rock; the blood
    Is drain’d and flows no more; and all my breast
    Is emptied of its tears.
                            Thus go I forth
    Into the deep, dense heart of the night--alone.




_Sinfonia Eroica._

(TO SYLVIA.)

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    My Love, my Love, it was a day in June,
    A mellow, drowsy, golden afternoon;
    And all the eager people thronging came
    To that great hall, drawn by the magic name
    Of one, a high magician, who can raise
    The spirits of the past and future days,
    And draw the dreams from out the secret breast,
    Giving them life and shape.
                              I, with the rest,
    Sat there athirst, atremble for the sound;
    And as my aimless glances wandered round,
    Far off, across the hush’d, expectant throng,
    I saw your face that fac’d mine.
                            Clear and strong
    Rush’d forth the sound, a mighty mountain stream;
    Across the clust’ring heads mine eyes did seem
    By subtle forces drawn, your eyes to meet.
    Then you, the melody, the summer heat,
    Mingled in all my blood and made it wine.
    Straight I forgot the world’s great woe and mine;
    My spirit’s murky lead grew molten fire;
    Despair itself was rapture.
                                  Ever higher,
    Stronger and clearer rose the mighty strain;
    Then sudden fell; then all was still again,
    And I sank back, quivering as one in pain.
    Brief was the pause; then, ’mid a hush profound,
    Slow on the waiting air swell’d forth a sound
    So wondrous sweet that each man held his breath;
    A measur’d, mystic melody of death.
    Then back you lean’d your head, and I could note
    The upward outline of your perfect throat;
    And ever, as the music smote the air,
    Mine eyes from far held fast your body fair.
    And in that wondrous moment seem’d to fade
    My life’s great woe, and grow an empty shade
    Which had not been, nor was not.
                                And I knew
    Not which was sound, and which, O Love, was you.




_To Sylvia._

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    “O Love, lean thou thy cheek to mine,
     And let the tears together flow”--
     Such was the song you sang to me
                   Once, long ago.

     Such was the song you sang; and yet
     (O be not wroth!) I scarcely knew
     What sounds flow’d forth; I only felt
                   That you were you.

     I scarcely knew your hair was gold,
     Nor of the heavens’ own blue your eyes.
     Sylvia and song, divinely mixt,
                   Made Paradise.

     These things I scarcely knew; to-day,
     When love is lost and hope is fled,
     The song you sang so long ago
                   Rings in my head.

     Clear comes each note and true; to-day,
     As in a picture I behold
     Your turn’d-up chin, and small, sweet head
                   Misty with gold.

     I see how your dear eyes grew deep,
     How your lithe body thrilled and swayed,
     And how were whiter than the keys
                   Your hands that played....

     Ah, sweetest! cruel have you been,
     And robbed my life of many things.
     I will not chide; ere this I knew
                   That Love had wings.

     You’ve robbed my life of many things--
     Of love and hope, of fame and pow’r.
     So be it, sweet. You cannot steal
                   _One_ golden hour.




_A Greek Girl._

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    I may not weep, not weep, and he is dead.
    A weary, weary weight of tears unshed
    Through the long day in my sad heart I bear;
    The horrid sun with all unpitying glare
    Shines down into the dreary weaving-room,
    Where clangs the ceaseless clatter of the loom,
    And ceaselessly deft maiden-fingers weave
    The fine-wrought web; and I from morn till eve
    Work with the rest, and when folk speak to me
    I smile hard smiles; while still continually
    The silly stream of maiden speech flows on:--
    And now at length they talk of him that’s gone,
    Lightly lamenting that he died so soon--
    Ah me! ere yet his life’s sun stood at noon.
    Some praise his eyes, some deem his body fair,
    And some mislike the colour of his hair!
    Sweet life, sweet shape, sweet eyes, and sweetest hair,
    What form, what hue, save Love’s own, did ye wear?
    I may not weep, not weep, for very shame.
    He loved me not. One summer’s eve he came
    To these our halls, my father’s honoured guest,
    And seeing me, saw not. If his lips had prest
    My lips, but once, in love; his eyes had sent
    One love-glance into mine, I had been content,
    And deemed it great joy for one little life;
    Nor envied other maids the crown of wife:
    The long sure years, the merry children-band--
    Alas, alas, I never touched his hand!
    And now my love is dead that loved not me.

    Thrice-blest, thrice-crowned, of gods thrice-lovèd she--
    That other, fairer maid, who tombward brings
    Her gold, shorn locks and piled-up offerings
    Of fragrant fruits, rich wines, and spices rare,
    And cakes with honey sweet, with saffron fair;
    And who, unchecked by any thought of shame,
    May weep her tears, and call upon his name,
    With burning bosom prest to the cold ground,
    Knowing, indeed, that all her life is crown’d,
    Thrice-crowned, thrice honoured, with that love of his;--
    No dearer crown on earth is there, I wis.

    While yet the sweet life lived, more light to bear
    Was my heart’s hunger; when the morn was fair,
    And I with other maidens in a line
    Passed singing through the city to the shrine,
    Oft in the streets or crowded market-place
    I caught swift glimpses of the dear-known face;
    Or marked a stalwart shoulder in the throng;
    Or heard stray speeches as we passed along,
    In tones more dear to me than any song.
    These, hoarded up with care, and kept apart,
    Did serve as meat and drink my hungry heart.

    And now for ever has my sweet love gone;
    And weary, empty days I must drag on,
    Till all the days of all my life be sped,
    By no thought cheered, by no hope comforted.
    For if indeed we meet among the shades,
    How shall he know me from the other maids?--
    Me, that had died to save his body pain!

    Alas, alas, such idle thoughts are vain!
    O cruel, cruel sunlight, get thee gone!
    O dear, dim shades of eve, come swiftly on!
    That when quick lips, keen eyes, are closed in sleep,
    Through the long night till dawn I then may weep.




_Magdalen._

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    All things I can endure, save one.
    The bare, blank room where is no sun;
    The parcelled hours; the pallet hard;
    The dreary faces here within;
    The outer women’s cold regard;
    The Pastor’s iterated “sin”;--
    These things could I endure, and count
    No overstrain’d, unjust amount;
    No undue payment for such bliss--
    Yea, all things bear, save only this:
    That you, who knew what thing would be,
    Have wrought this evil unto me.
    It is so strange to think on still--
    That you, that _you_ should do me ill!
    Not as one ignorant or blind,
    But seeing clearly in your mind
    How this must be which now has been,
    Nothing aghast at what was seen.
    Now that the tale is told and done,
    It is so strange to think upon.

    You were so tender with me, too!
    One summer’s night a cold blast blew,
    Closer about my throat you drew
    The half-slipt shawl of dusky blue.
    And once my hand, on a summer’s morn,
    I stretched to pluck a rose; a thorn
    Struck through the flesh and made it bleed
    (A little drop of blood indeed!)
    Pale grew your cheek; you stoopt and bound
    Your handkerchief about the wound;
    Your voice came with a broken sound;
    With the deep breath your breast was riven;
    I wonder, did God laugh in Heaven?

    How strange, that _you_ should work my woe!
    How strange! I wonder, do you know
    How gladly, gladly I had died
    (And life was very sweet that tide)
    To save you from the least, light ill?
    How gladly I had borne your pain.
    With one great pulse we seem’d to thrill,--
    Nay, but we thrill’d with pulses twain.

    Even if one had told me this,
    “A poison lurks within your kiss,
    Gall that shall turn to night his day:”
    Thereon I straight had turned away--
    Ay, tho’ my heart had crack’d with pain--And
    never kiss’d your lips again.

    At night, or when the daylight nears,
    I hear the other women weep;
    My own heart’s anguish lies too deep
    For the soft rain and pain of tears.
    I think my heart has turn’d to stone,
    A dull, dead weight that hurts my breast;
    Here, on my pallet-bed alone,
    I keep apart from all the rest.
    Wide-eyed I lie upon my bed,
    I often cannot sleep all night;
    The future and the past are dead,
    There is no thought can bring delight.
    All night I lie and think and think;
    If my heart were not made of stone,
    But flesh and blood, it needs must shrink
    Before such thoughts. Was ever known
    A woman with a heart of stone?

    The doctor says that I shall die.
    It may be so, yet what care I?
    Endless reposing from the strife?
    Death do I trust no more than life.
    For one thing is like one arrayed,
    And there is neither false nor true;
    But in a hideous masquerade
    All things dance on, the ages through.
    And good is evil, evil good;
    Nothing is known or understood
    Save only Pain. I have no faith
    In God or Devil, Life or Death.

    The doctor says that I shall die.
    You, that I knew in days gone by,
    I fain would see your face once more,
    Con well its features o’er and o’er;
    And touch your hand and feel your kiss,
    Look in your eyes and tell you this:
    That all is done, that I am free;
    That you, through all eternity,
    Have neither part nor lot in me.




_Christopher Found._

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I.

    At last; so this is you, my dear!
    How should I guess to find you here?
    So long, so long, I sought in vain
    In many cities, many lands,
    With straining eyes and groping hands;
    The people marvelled at my pain.
    They said: “But sure, the woman’s mad;
    What ails her, we should like to know,
    That she should be so wan and sad,
    And silent through the revels go?”
    They clacked with such a sorry stir!
    Was I to tell? were they to know
    That I had lost you, Christopher?
    Will you forgive me for one thing?
    Whiles, when a stranger came my way,
    My heart would beat and I would say:
    “Here’s Christopher!”--then lingering
    With longer gaze, would turn away
    Cold, sick at heart. My dear, I know
    You will forgive me for this thing.
    It is so very long ago
    Since I have seen your face--till now;
    Now that I see it--lip and brow,
    Eyes, nostril, chin, alive and clear;
    Last time was long ago; I know
    This thing you will forgive me, dear.


II.

    There is no Heaven--this is the best;
    O hold me closer to your breast;
    Let your face lean upon my face,
    That there no longer shall be space
    Between our lips, between our eyes.
    I feel your bosom’s fall and rise.
    O hold me near and yet more near;
    Ah sweet; I wonder do you know
    How lone and cold, how sad and drear,
    Was I a little while ago;
    Sick of the stress, the strife, the stir;
    But I have found you, Christopher.


III.

    If only you had come before!
    (This is the thing I most deplore)
    A seemlier woman you had found,
    More calm, by courtesies more bound,
    Less quick to greet you, more subdued
    Of appetite; of slower mood.
    But ah! you come so late, so late!
    This time of day I can’t pretend
    With slight, sweet things to satiate
    The hunger-cravings. Nay, my friend,
    I cannot blush and turn and tremble,
    Wax loth as younger maidens do.
    Ah, Christopher, with you, with you,
    You would not wish me to dissemble?


IV.

    So long have all the days been meagre,
    With empty platter, empty cup,
    No meats nor sweets to do me pleasure,
    That if I crave--is it over-eager,
    The deepest draught, the fullest measure,
    The beaker to the brim poured up?


V.

    Shelley, that sprite from the spheres above,
    Says, and would make the matter clear,
    That love divided is larger love;--
    We’ll leave those things to the bards, my dear.
    For you never wrote a verse, you see;
    And I--my verse is not fair nor new.
    Till the world be dead, you shall love but me,
    Till the stars have ceased, I shall love but you.


EPILOGUE.

    Thus ran the words; or rather, thus did run
    Their purport. Idly seeking in the chest
    (You see it yonder), I had found them there:
    Some blotted sheets of paper in a case,
    With a woman’s name writ on it: “Adelaide.”
    Twice on the writing there was scored the date
    Of ten years back; and where the words had end
    Was left a space, a dash, a half-writ word,
    As tho’ the writer minded, presently
    The matter to pursue.
                          I questioned her,
    That worthy, worthy soul, my châtelaine,
    Who, nothing loth, made answer.
                                    There had been
    Another lodger ere I had the rooms,
    Three months gone by--a woman.
                              “Young, sir? No.
    Must have seen forty if she’d seen a day!
    A lonesome woman; hadn’t many friends;
    Wrote books, I think, and things for newspapers.
    Short in her temper--eyes would flash and flame
    At times, till I was frightened. Paid her rent
    Most regular, like a lady.
                          Ten years back,
    They say (at least Ann Brown says), ten years back
    The lady had a lover. Even then
    She must have been no chicken.
                                Three months since
    She died. Well, well, the Lord is kind and just.
    I did my best to tend her, yet indeed
    It’s bad for trade to have a lodger die.
    Her brother came, a week before she died:
    Buried her, took her things, threw in the fire
    The littered heaps of paper.
                              Yes, the sheets,
    They must have been forgotten in the chest;--
    I never knew her name was Adelaide.”




_A Dirge._

    “_Mein Herz, mein Herz ist traurig_
     _Doch lustig leuchtet der Mai._”

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    There’s May amid the meadows,
      There’s May amid the trees;
    Her May-time note the cuckoo
      Sends forth upon the breeze.

    Above the rippling river
      May swallows skim and dart;
    November and December
      Keep watch within my heart.

    The spring breathes in the breezes,
      The woods with wood-notes ring,
    And all the budding hedgerows
      Are fragrant of the spring.

    In secret, silent places
      The live green things upstart;
    Ice-bound, ice-crown’d dwells winter
      For ever in my heart.

    Upon the bridge I linger,
      Near where the lime-trees grow;
    Above, swart birds are circling,
      Beneath, the stream runs slow.

    A stripling and a maiden
      Come wand’ring up the way;
    His eyes are glad with springtime,
      Her face is fair with May.

    Of warmth and sun and sweetness
      All nature takes a part;
    The ice of all the ages
      Weighs down upon my heart.




_The Sick Man and the Nightingale._

(FROM LENAU.)


    So late, and yet a nightingale?
    Long since have dropp’d the blossoms pale,
    The summer fields are ripening,
            And yet a sound of spring?

    O tell me, didst thou come to hear,
    Sweet Spring, that I should die this year;
    And call’st across from the far shore
            To me one greeting more?

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_To Death._

(FROM LENAU.)


    If within my heart there’s mould,
    If the flame of Poesy
    And the flame of Love grow cold,
    Slay my body utterly.

    Swiftly, pause not nor delay;
    Let not my life’s field be spread
    With the ash of feelings dead,
    Let thy singer soar away.

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_A June-Tide Echo._

(AFTER A RICHTER CONCERT.)

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    In the long, sad time, when the sky was grey,
      And the keen blast blew through the city drear,
    When delight had fled from the night and the day,
      My chill heart whispered, “June will be here!

    “June with its roses a-sway in the sun,
      Its glory of green on mead and tree.”
    Lo, now the sweet June-tide is nearly done,
      June-tide, and never a joy for me!

    Is it so much of the gods that I pray?
      Sure craved man never so slight a boon!
    To be glad and glad in my heart one day--
      One perfect day of the perfect June.

    Sweet sounds to-night rose up, wave upon wave;
      Sweet dreams were afloat in the balmy air.
    This is the boon of the gods that I crave--
      To be glad, as the music and night were fair.

    For once, for one fleeting hour, to hold
      The fair shape the music that rose and fell
    Revealed and concealed like a veiling fold;
      To catch for an instant the sweet June spell.

    For once, for one hour, to catch and keep
      The sweet June secret that mocks my heart;
    Now lurking calm, like a thing asleep,
      Now hither and thither with start and dart.

    Then the sick, slow grief of the weary years,
      The slow, sick grief and the sudden pain;
    The long days of labour, the nights of tears--
      No more these things would I hold in vain.

    I would hold my life as a thing of worth;
      Pour praise to the gods for a precious thing.
    Lo, June in her fairness is on the earth,
      And never a joy does the niggard bring.




_To Lallie._

(OUTSIDE THE BRITISH MUSEUM.)

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    Up those Museum steps you came,
    And straightway all my blood was flame,
                O Lallie, Lallie!

    The world (I had been feeling low)
    In one short moment’s space did grow
                A happy valley.

    There was a friend, my friend, with you;
    A meagre dame, in peacock blue
                Apparelled quaintly:

    This poet-heart went pit-a-pat;
    I bowed and smiled and raised my hat;
                You nodded--faintly.

    My heart was full as full could be;
    You had not got a word for me,
                Not one short greeting;

    That nonchalant small nod you gave
    (The tyrant’s motion to the slave)
                      Sole mark’d our meeting.

    Is it so long? Do you forget
    That first and last time that we met?
                      The time was summer;

    The trees were green; the sky was blue;
    Our host presented me to you--
                      A tardy comer.

    You look’d demure, but when you spoke
    You made a little, funny joke,
                      Yet half pathetic.

    Your gown was grey, I recollect,
    I think you patronized the sect
                      They call “æsthetic.”

    I brought you strawberries and cream,
    I plied you long about a stream
                      With duckweed laden;

    We solemnly discussed the--heat.
    I found you shy and very sweet,
                      A rosebud maiden.

    Ah me, to-day! You passed inside
    To where the marble gods abide:
                      Hermes, Apollo,

    Sweet Aphrodite, Pan; and where,
    For aye reclined, a headless fair
                      Beats all fairs hollow.

    And I, I went upon my way,
    Well--rather sadder, let us say;
                      The world looked flatter.

    I had been sad enough before,
    A little less, a little more,
                      What _does_ it matter?




_In a Minor Key._

(AN ECHO FROM A LARGER LYRE.)

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    That was love that I had before,
      Years ago, when my heart was young;
    Ev’ry smile was a gem you wore,
      Ev’ry word was a sweet song sung.

    You came--all my pulses burn’d and beat.
      (O sweet wild throbs of an early day!)
    You went--with the last dear sound of your feet
      The light wax’d dim and the place grew grey.

    And I us’d to pace with a stealthy tread
      By a certain house which is under a hill;
    A cottage stands near, wall’d white, roof’d red--
      Tall trees grow thick--I can see it still!

    How I us’d to watch with a hope that was fear
      For the least swift glimpse of your gown’s dear fold!
    (You wore blue gowns in those days, my dear--
      One light for summer, one dark for cold.)

    Tears and verses I shed for you in show’rs;
      I would have staked my soul for a kiss;
    Tribute daily I brought you of flow’rs,
      Rose, lily, your favourite eucharis.

    There came a day we were doomed to part;
      There’s a queer, small gate at the foot of a <DW72>:
    We parted there--and I thought my heart
      Had parted for ever from love and hope.

       *       *       *       *       *

    Is it love that I have to-day?
      Love, that bloom’d early, has it bloom’d late
    For me, that, clothed in my spirit’s grey,
      Sit in the stillness and stare at Fate?

    Song nor sonnet for you I’ve penned,
      Nor passionate paced by your home’s wide wall;
    I have brought you never a flow’r, my friend,
      Never a tear for your sake let fall.

    And yet--and yet--ah, who understands?
      We men and women are complex things!
    A hundred tunes Fate’s inexorable hands
      May play on the sensitive soul-strings.

    Webs of strange patterns we weave (each owns)
      From colour and sound; and like unto these,
    Soul has its tones and its semitones,
      Mind has its major and minor keys.

    Your face (men pass it without a word)
      It haunts my dreams like an odd, sweet strain;
    When your name is spoken my soul is stirr’d
      In its deepest depths with a dull, dim pain.

    I paced, in the damp grey mist, last night
      In the streets (an hour) to see you pass:
    Yet I do not think that I love you--quite;
      What’s felt so finely ’twere coarse to class.

    And yet--and yet--I scarce can tell why
      (As I said, we are riddles and hard to read),
    If the world went ill with you, and I
      Could help with a hidden hand your need;

    But, ere I could reach you where you lay,
      Must strength and substance and honour spend;
    Journey long journeys by night and day--
      Somehow, I think I should come, my friend!




_A Farewell._

(AFTER HEINE.)


    The sad rain falls from Heaven,
      A sad bird pipes and sings;
    I am sitting here at my window
      And watching the spires of “King’s.”

    O fairest of all fair places,
      Sweetest of all sweet towns!
    With the birds, and the greyness and greenness,
      And the men in caps and gowns.

    All they that dwell within thee,
      To leave are ever loth,
    For one man gets friends, and another
      Gets honour, and one gets both.

    The sad rain falls from Heaven;
      My heart is great with woe--
    I have neither a friend nor honour,
      Yet I am sorry to go.

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_A Cross-Road Epitaph._

    “_Am Kreuzweg wird begraben_
     _Wer selber brachte sich um._”


    When first the world grew dark to me
    I call’d on God, yet came not he.
    Whereon, as wearier wax’d my lot,
    On Love I call’d, but Love came not.
    When a worse evil did befall,
    Death, on thee only did I call.

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_Epitaph._

(ON A COMMONPLACE PERSON WHO DIED IN BED.)


    This is the end of him, here he lies:
    The dust in his throat, the worm in his eyes,
    The mould in his mouth, the turf on his breast;
    This is the end of him, this is best.
    He will never lie on his couch awake,
    Wide-eyed, tearless, till dim daybreak.
    Never again will he smile and smile
    When his heart is breaking all the while.
    He will never stretch out his hands in vain
    Groping and groping--never again.
    Never ask for bread, get a stone instead,
    Never pretend that the stone is bread.
    Never sway and sway ’twixt the false and true,
    Weighing and noting the long hours through.
    Never ache and ache with the chok’d-up sighs;
    This is the end of him, here he lies.

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_Sonnet._


    Most wonderful and strange it seems, that I
    Who but a little time ago was tost
    High on the waves of passion and of pain,
    With aching heart and wildly throbbing brain,
    Who peered into the darkness, deeming vain
    All things there found if but One thing were lost,
    Thus calm and still and silent here should lie,
    Watching and waiting,--waiting passively.

    The dark has faded, and before mine eyes
    Have long, grey flats expanded, dim and bare;
    And through the changing guises all things wear
    Inevitable Law I recognise:
    Yet in my heart a hint of feeling lies
    Which half a hope and half is a despair.

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_Translated from Geibel._

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    O say, thou wild, thou oft-deceived heart,
    What mean these noisy throbbings in my breast?
    After thy long, unutterable woe
                              Wouldst thou not rest?

    Fall’n from Life’s tree the sweet rose-blossom lies,
    And fragrant youth has fled. What made to seem
    This earth as fair to thee as Paradise,
                              Was all a dream.

    The blossom fell, the thorn was left to me;
    Deep from the wound the blood-drops ever flow,
    All that I have are yearnings, wild desires,
                              And wrath and woe.

    They brought me Lethe’s water, saying, “Drink!”
    “Drink, for the draught is sweet,” I heard them say,
    “Shalt learn how soft a thing forgetting is.”
                              I answered: “Nay.”

    What tho’ indeed it were an idle cheat,
    Nathless to me ’twas very fair and blest:
    With every breath I draw I know that love
                            Reigns in my breast.

    Let me go forth,--and thou, my heart, bleed on:
    A lonely spot I seek by night and day,
    That love and sorrow I may there breathe forth
                            In a last lay.


                          The Gresham Press,

                            UNWIN BROTHERS,

                         CHILWORTH AND LONDON.





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