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                              COLLECTION
                                  OF
                            BRITISH AUTHORS

                          TAUCHNITZ EDITION.

                              VOL. 2719.

                      KIRSTEEN BY MRS. OLIPHANT.

                            IN TWO VOLUMES.

                                VOL. I.




            TAUCHNITZ EDITION.

           By the same Author,


     _The Chronicles of Carlingford_:

  THE RECTOR AND THE DOCTOR’S FAMILY      1 vol.
  SALEM CHAPEL                            2 vols.
  THE PERPETUAL CURATE                    2 vols.
  MISS MARJORIBANKS                       2 vols.
  PHŒBE, JUNIOR                           2 vols.

       *       *       *       *       *

  THE LAST OF THE MORTIMERS                 2 v.
  MARGARET MAITLAND                         1 v.
  AGNES                                     2 v.
  MADONNA MARY                              2 v.
  THE MINISTER’S WIFE                       2 v.
  OMBRA                                     2 v.
  MEMOIR OF COUNT DE MONTALEMBERT           2 v.
  MAY                                       2 v.
  INNOCENT                                  2 v.
  FOR LOVE AND LIFE                         2 v.
  A ROSE IN JUNE                            1 v.
  THE STORY OF VALENTINE AND HIS BROTHER    2 v.
  WHITELADIES                               2 v.
  THE CURATE IN CHARGE                      1 v.
  MRS. ARTHUR                               2 v.
  CARITÀ                                    2 v.
  YOUNG MUSGRAVE                            2 v.
  THE PRIMROSE PATH                         2 v.
  WITHIN THE PRECINCTS                      3 v.
  THE GREATEST HEIRESS IN ENGLAND           2 v.
  HE THAT WILL NOT WHEN HE MAY              2 v.
  HARRY JOSCELYN                            2 v.
  IN TRUST                                  2 v.
  IT WAS A LOVER AND HIS LASS               3 v.
  THE LADIES LINDORES                       3 v.
  HESTER                                    3 v.
  THE WIZARD’S SON                          3 v.
  A COUNTRY GENTLEMAN AND HIS FAMILY        2 v.
  NEIGHBOURS ON THE GREEN                   1 v.
  THE DUKE’S DAUGHTER                       1 v.
  THE FUGITIVES                             1 v.




                               KIRSTEEN

                               THE STORY
                                  OF
                   A SCOTCH FAMILY SEVENTY YEARS AGO

                                  BY
                            MRS. OLIPHANT,
              AUTHOR OF “THE CHRONICLES OF CARLINGFORD,”
                               ETC. ETC.

                         _COPYRIGHT EDITION._

                       IN TWO VOLUMES.--VOL. I.

                                LEIPZIG
                          BERNHARD TAUCHNITZ
                                 1891.




                               INSCRIBED

                         WITH LOVE AND RESPECT

                                  TO

                          CHRISTINA ROGERSON.




KIRSTEEN.




PART I.




CHAPTER I.


“Where is Kirsteen?”

“’Deed, mem, I canna tell you; and if you would be guided by me you
wouldna wail and cry for Kirsteen, night and day. You’re getting into
real ill habits with her to do everything for you. And the poor lassie
has not a meenit to hersel’. She’s on the run from morning to night.
Bring me this, and get me that. I ken you’re very weakly and life’s a
great trouble, but I would fain have ye take a little thought for her
too.”

Mrs. Douglas looked as if she might cry under Marg’ret’s reproof. She
was a pale pink woman seated in a large high easy-chair, so-called,
something like a porter’s chair. It was not particularly easy, but it
was filled with pillows, and was the best that the locality and the time
could supply. Her voice had a sound of tears in it as she replied:

“If you were as weak as I am, Marg’ret, and pains from head to foot, you
would know better--and not grudge me the only comfort I have.”

“Me grudge ye ainything! no for the world; except just that bairn’s time
and a’ her life that might be at its brightest; but poor thing, poor
thing!” said Marg’ret, shaking her head.

The scene was the parlour at Drumcarro, in the wilds of Argyllshire, the
speakers, the mistress of the house _de jure_, and she who was at the
head of affairs _de facto_, Marg’ret the housekeeper, cook, lady’s maid,
and general manager of everything. Mrs. Douglas had brought Marg’ret
with her as her maid when she came to Drumcarro as a bride some thirty
years before; but as she went on having child after child for nearly
twenty years, without much stamina of either mind or body to support
that continual strain, Marg’ret had gradually become more and more the
deputy and representative, the real substitute of the feminine head of
the house. Not much was demanded of that functionary so far as the
management of its wider affairs went. Her husband was an arbitrary and
high-tempered man, whose will was absolute in the family, who took
counsel with no one, and who after the few complaisances of a grim
honeymoon let his wife drop into the harmless position of a nonentity,
which indeed was that which was best fitted for her. All her active
duties one by one had fallen into the hands of Marg’ret, whose first
tender impulse to save the mistress whom she loved from toils unfitted
for her, had gradually developed into the self-confidence and universal
assumption of an able and energetic housekeeper born to organize and
administer. Marg’ret did not know what these fine words meant, but she
knew “her work,” as she would have said, and by degrees had taken
everything in the house and many things outside it into her hands. It
was to her that the family went for everything, who was the giver of all
indulgences, the only person who dared speak to “the maister,” when
clothes were wanted or any new thing. She was an excellent cook, a good
manager, combining all the qualities that make a house comfortable, and
she was the only one in the house who was not afraid of “the maister,”
of whom on the contrary he stood in a little awe. A wife cannot throw up
her situation with the certainty of finding another at a moment’s notice
as a good housekeeper can do--even if she has spirit enough to entertain
such an idea. And poor Mrs. Douglas had no spirit, no health, little
brains to begin with and none left now, after thirty years of domestic
tyranny and “a bairntime” of fourteen children. What could such a poor
soul do but fall into invalidism with so many excellent reasons
constantly recurring for adopting the habits of that state and its
pathos and helplessness? especially with Marg’ret to fall back upon,
who, though she would sometimes speak her mind to her mistress, nursed
and tended, watched over and guarded her with the most unfailing care.
Drumcarro himself (as he liked to be called) scarcely dared to be very
uncivil to his wife in Marg’ret’s presence. He knew better than to
quarrel with the woman who kept so much comfort with so little expense
in his spare yet crowded house.

“Who is your ‘poor thing, poor thing’?” said a cheerful voice, with a
mimicry of Marg’ret’s manner and her accent (for Marg’ret said poor as
if it were written with a French u, that sound so difficult to English
lips) “would it be the colley dogue or the canary bird or maybe the
mistress of the house?”

Marg’ret turned round upon the only antagonist in the house who could
hold head against her, or whom she could not crush at a blow--Kirsteen,
the second daughter, who came in at this moment, quite softly but with a
sudden burst open of the door, a sort of compromise between the noise it
would have been natural to her to make, and the quietness essential to
the invalid’s comfort. She was a girl of nearly twenty, a daughter of
the hills, strongly built, not slim but trim, with red hair and brown
eyes and a wonderful complexion, the pure whiteness like milk which so
often goes with those ruddy locks, and the colour of health and fine air
on her cheeks. I would have darkened and smoothed my Kirsteen’s abundant
hair if I could, for in those days nobody admired it. The type of beauty
to which the palm was given was the pale and elegant type, with hair
like night and starry eyes either blue or dark; and accordingly Kirsteen
was not considered a pretty girl, though there were many who liked her
looks in spite of her red hair, which was how people expressed their
opinion then. It was so abundant and so vigorous and full of curl that
it cost her all the trouble in the world to keep it moderately tidy,
whereas “smooth as satin” was the required perfection of ladies’ locks.
Her eyes were brown, not nearly dark enough for the requirements of the
time, a kind of hazel indeed, sometimes so full of light that they
dazzled the spectator and looked like gold--also quite out of accordance
with the canons of the day. She was slightly freckled: she was, as I
have said, strongly built; and in the dress of the time, a very short
bodice and a very straight and scanty skirt, her proportions were
scarcely elegant, but her waist was round if not very small, and her
arms, in their short sleeves, shapely and well formed, and whiter than
might have been expected from their constant exposure to air and sun,
for Kirsteen only put on her gloves on serious occasions. The air of
health and brightness and vigour about her altogether, made her
appearance like that of a burst of sunshine into this very shady place.

“’Deed,” said Marg’ret, putting her hands on each side of her own
substantial waist in a way which has always been supposed to imply a
certain defiance, “it was just you yoursel’.”

“Me!” the girl cried with a sort of suppressed shout. She cast a
laughing glance round with an apparent attempt to discover some cause
for the pity. “What have I done wrong now?” Then her eyes came back to
the troubled almost whimpering pathos of her mother’s looks, and a cloud
came over her bright countenance. “What has she been saying, mother,
about me?”

“She says I’m crying on you for something day and night, and that you
never have a minute to yourself; and oh, Kirsteen, my dear, I fear it’s
true.”

Kirsteen put her arms akimbo too, and confronted Marg’ret with laughing
defiance. They were not unlike each other, both of them types of
powerful and capable womanhood, the elder purely and strongly practical,
the other touched with fancy and poetry and perhaps some of the
instincts of gentle blood, though neither in father nor mother were
there many graces to inherit. “You are just a leein’ woman,” said the
girl with a flash of her bright eyes. “Why, it’s my life! What would I
do without my Minnie?--as the song says.” And she began to sing in a
fresh, sweet, but uncultivated voice:

    “He turned him right and round about,
       Said, Scorn not at my mither,
     True loves I may get mony an ane
       But Minnie ne’er anither.”

Before Kirsteen’s song came to an end, however, her eyes suddenly filled
with tears. “What were you wanting, mother,” she said hastily as she
dropped the tune which was a very simple one, “to make her speak?”

“Oh, I was wanting nothing, nothing in particular. I was wanting my
pillows shifted a little, and the big plaiden shawl for my knees, and
one of my wires that fell out of my reach, and my other clew for I’m
nearly at the end of this one. Ay! that’s better; there is nobody that
knows how to make me comfortable but you.”

For Kirsteen in the meantime had begun to do, with swift and noiseless
care, all that was wanted, finding the clew, or ball of worsted for the
stocking her mother was knitting, as she swept softly past to get the
big shawl, on her way to the side of the chair where she arranged the
pillows with deft accustomed skill. It did not take a minute to supply
all these simple requirements. Marg’ret looked on, without moving while
all was done, and caught the look half-soothed, half-peevish, which the
invalid cast round to see if there was not something else that she
wanted. “You may put down that book off the mantelpiece that Robbie left
there,” Mrs. Douglas said, finding nothing else to suggest; “it will
curl up at the corners, and your father will be ill-pleased--”

“Weel,” said Marg’ret, “now ye’ve got your slave, I’m thinking ye’ve nae
mair need of me, and there’s the grand supper to think of, that the
maister’s aye sae keen about. When will ye have markit a’ thae things,
Miss Kirsteen? For I maun see to the laddie’s packing before it’s ower
late.”

“There’s the last half dozen of handkerchiefs to do; but I’ll not take
long, and they’re small things that can go into any corner. I’ll do
them now,” said Kirsteen with a little sigh.

“There’s nae hurry;” Marg’ret paused a little, then caught the girl by
the sleeve, “just take another turn in the bonnie afternoon before the
sun’s down,” she said in a low tone, “there’s plenty of time. Run away,
my bonnie lamb. I’ll see the mistress wants naething.”

“And you that have the supper and the packing and all on your hands! No,
no. I’ll do them now. You may go to your work,” said Kirsteen with a
look half tender, half peremptory. She carried her work to the window
and sat down there with the white handkerchiefs in her hand.

“And what colour will you mark them in, Kirsteen? You have neither
cotton nor silk to do it.”

Kirsteen raised her head and pulled out a long thread of her red hair.
“I am going to do it in this colour,” she said with a slight blush and
smile. It was not an unusual little piece of sentiment in those days and
the mother accepted it calmly.

“My colour of hair,” she said, smoothing with a little complaisance her
scanty dark locks under her cap, “was more fit for that than yours,
Kirsteen, but Robbie will like to have it all the same.”

Kirsteen laughed a little consciously while she proceeded with her work.
She was quite willing to allow that a thread of her mother’s dark hair
would be better. “I will do one with yours for Robbie,” she said, “and
the rest with mine.”

“But they’re all for Robbie,” said the mother.

“Yes, yes,” Kirsteen replied with again that conscious look, the colour
mantling to her cheeks, a soft moisture filling her eyes. The
handkerchief was marked in fine delicate little cross stitches upon the
white cambric, and though Mrs. Douglas’s dark hair was like a spider’s
web, the red of Kirsteen’s shone upon the fine fabric like a thread of
gold.

The handkerchiefs were not yet finished when two young men came into the
room, one so like Kirsteen that there was no difficulty in identifying
him as her brother, the other a swarthy youth a little older, tall and
strong and well knit. Robbie was on the eve of his start in life,
leaving home, and Ronald Drummond, who was the son of a gentleman in the
neighbourhood, was going with him. They were both bound with commissions
in the Company’s service for India, where half of the long-legged
youths, sons of little Highland lairds and Lowland gentlemen, with good
blood and plenty of pride and no money, the Quentin Durwards of the
early nineteenth century, found an appropriate career. The period was
that of the brief peace which lasted only so long as Napoleon was at
Elba, long enough, however, to satisfy the young men that there was to
be no chance of renewed fighting nearer home and to make them content
with their destination. They had been bred for this destination from
their cradles, and Robbie Douglas at least was not sorry to escape from
the dullness of Drumcarro to a larger life. Several of his brothers
were already in India, and the younger ones looked to no other fate but
that of following. As for the girls they did not count for much. He was
sorry to say good-bye to Kirsteen, but that did not weigh down his
heart. He was in high excitement, eager about his new outfit, his
uniform, all the novel possessions which were doubly enchanting to a boy
who had never before possessed anything of his own. He was eighteen, and
to become all at once a man, an officer, an independent individuality,
was enough to turn the head of any youth.

Ronald Drummond was different. He was going from a much more genial
home: he had already tasted the sweets of independence, having served in
the last campaign in the Peninsula and been wounded, which was a thing
that raised him still higher in the scale of life than the three years’
advantage in respect of age which he had over his young comrade. He was
neither so cheerful nor so much excited as Robbie. He came and stood
over Kirsteen as she drew closer and closer to the window to end her
work before the light had gone.

“You are working it with your hair!” he said, suddenly, perceiving the
nature of the long curling thread with which she threaded her needle.

“Yes,” she said, demurely, holding up her work to the light. “What did
you think it was?”

“I thought it was gold thread,” he said. And then he took up one of the
handkerchiefs already completed from the table. “R. D.,” he said.
“That’s my name too.”

“So it is,” said Kirsteen, as if she had now discovered the fact for the
first time.

“Nobody will do anything like that for me,” he added, pathetically.

“Oh, Ronald! if not the hairs of their heads but the heads themselves
would do ye good ye should have them--and that ye know.”

“It is very true,” said Ronald, “and thank you, Kirsteen, for reminding
me how good they are; but,” he added, after a moment, in a low voice,
“they are not _you_.”

She gave vent to a very feeble laugh which was full of emotion. “No,
they could not be that,” she said.

“And R. D. is my name too,” said the young man. “Kirsteen!” She looked
up at him for a moment in the light that was fading slowly out of the
skies. He had taken one of the handkerchiefs from the pile, and touching
her sleeve with one hand to call her attention, put the little
glistening letters to his lips and then placed the handkerchief
carefully in the breast pocket of his coat. Standing as he did, shutting
out, as she complained, all the light from Mrs. Douglas, this little
action was quite unseen, except by the one person who was intended to
see it. Kirsteen could make no reply nor objection, for her heart was
too full for speech. Her trembling hand, arrested in its work, dropped
into his for a moment. He whispered something else, she scarcely knew
what--and then Marg’ret marched into the room with the two candles which
were all the lights ever used in Drumcarro parlour, and all was over and
done.




CHAPTER II.


There was “a grand supper,” as Marg’ret had announced, at Drumcarro this
evening, for which, though it was almost entirely a family party, solemn
preparations were being made. The house was full of an unusual odour of
good cheer, unusual goings and comings through the house betrayed the
excitement and sense of a great event approaching which was diffused
through the family. On ordinary occasions the family dinner took place
between two and three o’clock in the afternoon, followed by tea at seven
with much wealth of scones and jam, new-laid eggs and other home
produce--and the day ended for the elders by the production of “the
tray” with its case of spirit-bottles and accompanying hot water. Now
and then by times, however, this great ceremonial of a supper took
place, always on the eve of the departure of one of the boys to make
their fortune in the world. These occasions were consequently not
surrounded by the brightest recollections to the grown-up portion of the
family, or to their mother. The supper indeed to her was a feast of
tears, probably as great, though a more usual indulgence than the other
characteristics of the festival. It was rarely that Mrs. Douglas
ventured to weep in presence of her lord, but on that night he said
nothing, made no comment upon her red eyes, and suffered the whimper in
her voice without any harsh, “Hold your tongue, woman!” such as usually
subdued her. And it was recognized in the house that it was the mother’s
_rôle_ and privilege on these occasions to cry. The children were not
disturbed by it as they might have been by tears which they were less
accustomed to see shed.

The dining-room was the best room in Drumcarro, as in many Scotch houses
of the kind, being recognized as the real centre of life, the special
room of “the maister” and the scene of all the greater events in the
family. There were two windows in it which at a time when the existence
of the window-tax curtailed the light, was of itself a fine feature, and
it was well-sized and not badly furnished, with a multitude of
substantial mahogany chairs, sideboard, cellaret, and a long dining
table of very dark mahogany, shining like a black mirror, which was
capable of being drawn out to almost any length, and which had attained
the very highest polish of which wood was capable. Covered with a
dazzling white cloth, lighted with four candles, a most unusual
splendour--set in the silver candlesticks, which were the pride of the
family--and surrounded by all the Douglases who still remained at home,
it was an imposing sight. Flowers had not yet been thought of as
decorations of a table; such frivolities were far in the depths of time.
A large square dish set in a high stand of plated silver with straggling
branches extending from it on every side, each of which contained a
smaller dish full of confectionery, pieces of  “rock” from
Edinburgh, and sweeties procured from “the merchant’s” for the occasion,
occupied the centre of the table. It was called the _épergne_ and was
considered very splendid. The central dish was piled high with ruddy
apples, which gave an agreeable piece of colour, if any one had thought
of such fantastic folly. The four candlesticks, each with a pair of
snuffers in its tray placed between them, completed the decorative
portion of the table. The candles were not the delicate articles which
advancing civilization has learned how to produce, but smoky “moulds”
which tinged the atmosphere with a perceptible emanation, especially
when they stood in need of snuffing. They threw a ruddy light upon the
faces closely assembled round the board, bringing out most fully those
of the more youthful members of the family, and fading dismally towards
the ends of the long table at which the principal personages were
placed. There were but two visitors of the party, one the minister,
invited in right of having more or less superintended Robbie’s studies,
such as they were, and seated on Mrs. Douglas’s right hand; the other an
old Miss Douglas known as Aunt Eelen, from whom there were certain
expectations and who occupied a similar place of honour by the side of
Drumcarro. The hero of the evening was at his father’s left hand. The
rest of the party were Mary the eldest daughter, Jeanie the youngest,
Kirsteen, and two boys aged fourteen and twelve respectively, the
remaining sons of the house. The fare was excellent, and in another
region might have been thought luxurious; but it was impossible to
conceal that the large dish of delicious trout which stood smoking
before Mrs. Douglas, and the corresponding hecatomb of grouse to which
her husband helped the company after the trout had been disposed of,
came from the loch and the moor on Drumcarro estate, and therefore were
as much home produce as the eggs and the cream. This fact elicited a
somewhat sharp criticism from Miss Eelen at the foot of the table.

“The grouse is no doubt very good,” she said, “and being to the manner
born as ye may say, I never tire of it; but for a genteel supper like
what you have always given to the lads--”

“Faith,” said the laird, “they’ll find it most genteel where they’re
going. The Englishmen will think it the finest table in the world when
they hear we have grouse every day; and Robbie’s no bound to condescend
upon the number of other dishes. I know what I am doing.”

“No doubt, no doubt: I was only making a remark. Now I think a bit of
cod from the sea or a made dish of fine collops, or just a something
tossed up with a bit of veal, they’re more genteel--and I know that’s
what you’re always thinking of, Neil--of course, for the boys’
sakes----”

“There’s a made dish coming, mem,” said Merran, who was waiting.

“Oh, there’s a made dish coming! I thought Marg’ret would mind what was
for the credit of the house. Robbie, my man, ye ought to feel yourself a
great personage with all the phrase that’s made for you. When Sandy went
away, who was the first, there was nothing but a haggis--but we’ve
learned many things since then.”

“A haggis is a very good thing, it’s fit for a king’s table.”

“But not what you would call refined, nor genteel. Give me the leg and a
piece of the back--there’s more taste in it. I hope you will always be
grateful to your father for giving ye such a grand set out.”

“I think,” said the minister at the other end, “that you and Drumcarro,
mem, give yourselves more and more trouble every son that leaves ye.
This is the fifth I have seen.”

“Oh, don’t say me, Mr. Pyper,” said the mother. “I know just nothing
about it--when your son’s going away, and ye think ye may never set eyes
on him again, who’s to think of eating and drinking? He may do it, but
not me.”

“That’s very true,” said Mr. Pyper. “Still, to give the lad a something
pleasurable to look back upon, a last feast, so to speak, has many
points in its favour. A lad’s mind is full of materialism, as you may
call it, and he will mind all the faces round the friendly board.”

“It’s not very friendly to me,” said the mother, with a sob, “my four
bonny boys all away, and now Robbie. It just breaks my heart.”

“But what would you do with them, mem, if they were here?” said the
sensible minister; “four big men, for they’re all men by this time,
about the house? No, no, my dear leddy, you must not complain. Such fine
openings for them all! and every one getting on.”

“But what does that matter to me, Mr. Pyper, if I am never to see one of
them again?”

“Oh, yes, mem, it matters--oh, ay, it matters much. The young of no
species, much less the human, can bide at home. Fathers and mothers in
the lower creation just throw them off, and there’s an end. But you do
more than that. You put them in the best way of doing for themselves,
and the King himself cannot do better. Alas!” said the minister, “no
half so well, decent man--for look at all these young princes, one
wilder than the other. And every one of yours doing so well.”

“Oh, yes, they’re doing well enough--but such a long way away. And me so
delicate. And Robbie never quite strong since he had the measles. It’s
borne in upon me that I will never see him again.”

“You need not say it, mother,” said Kirsteen, “for that’s what nobody
can know; and it’s just as likely he may be sent home with despatches,
or some great grandee take a fancy to him and bring him back. And when
we’re sitting some day working our stockings he’ll come linking in by
the parlour door.”

“Oh, you’re just as light as air,” said the mother; “there’s nothing
serious in ye. You think going to India is just like going to the fair.”

Kirsteen darted a quick glance at her mother, but said no more. Her eyes
kept filling much against her will. She was in great terror lest a big
drop might brim over and run down her cheek, to be spied at once by
Jeanie or the boys. For nothing would be hid from these little things:
they could note at the same moment the last bit of a bird which they had
all counted on, being transferred to Aunt Eelen’s plate, and keep an eye
upon the favourite apple each had chosen, and spy that suspicious
brightness in Kirsteen’s eyes. Nothing could be hid from their sharp,
little, all-inspecting looks.

There was a breathless moment when the cloth was drawn, and the black
gleam of the mahogany underneath changed in a moment the lights of the
picture, and gave the children a delightful opportunity of surveying
themselves in that shining surface. It was a moment full of solemnity.
Everybody knew what was coming. The port and sherry, with their little
labels, in the silver holders intended to prevent the bottles from
scratching the table, were placed before Mr. Douglas. Then there was
also placed before him a trayful of tall glasses. He rose up: the eyes
of all followed his movements: Jock and Jamie projecting their red heads
forward in the smoky glow of the candles, then much in want of snuffing:
Jeanie’s paler locks turned the same way. Mary, who had her mother’s
brown smooth hair, rested her clasped hands upon the edge of the table
with calm expectation. Kirsteen leant her elbows on the same shining
edge, and put down her face in her hands. Miss Eelen shook her head, and
kept on shaking it like a china mandarin. The laird of Drumcarro went to
an old-fashioned wine-cooler, which stood under the sideboard. He took
from it one bottle of champagne, which occupied it in solitary dignity.
Marg’ret stood ready with a knife in her hand to cut the wire, and a
napkin over her arm to wipe up anything that might be spilt. Not a word
was said at table while these preliminaries were gone through. Aunt
Eelen, as the catastrophe lingered, went so far as to make a suppressed
_Tchish! Tchish!_ of her tongue against her palate. The rest were full
of serious excitement too important for speech. The bottle was opened
finally without spilling a drop: it was perhaps not so much “up” as it
might have been. Drumcarro filled all the glasses, one for each person
at table, and another for Marg’ret. There was perhaps more foam than
wine in a number of the glasses. He held up his own in his hand. “It’s
Robbie’s last night at Drumcarro,” he said, “for the present. Have you
all your glasses? Before the fizz is out of the wine drink to Robbie’s
good health, and good luck to him, and to all our lads that have gone
before.” He touched the foam in his glass, now fast dying away, with his
lips. “May they all come back with stars on their breasts,” he said,
“and do credit to their name--and not a laggard, nor a coward, nor one
unworthy to be a Douglas among them all!”

The other male members of the party were standing up also, “Here’s to
you, Robbie! Here’s to you, Robbie!” cried the two boys. The foam in
their glasses merely moistened their throats; the minister, however,
whose glass had been full, gravely swallowed its contents in little
sips, with pauses between. “A very good health to them all, and the Lord
bless them,” he said with imposing authority. Mrs. Douglas, taking
advantage of the privilege awarded to her, began to cry, and Marg’ret
lifted up a strong voice, from the foot of the table where she stood
with her hand upon the shoulder of the hero.

“Be a good lad, Robbie--and mind upon your Minnie and a’ the family--and
be a credit to us a’: here’s to you, and to the rest o’ the young
gentlemen, them that’s gone, and them that are to go!”

“Ye’ll have to get a new bottle for the little one,” said Aunt Eelen,
“Neil, my man, for your half-dozen will be out with Jock.” She gave a
harsh laugh at her own joke. “And then there’s the lasses’ marriages to
be thought upon,” she added, setting down her glass.

Drumcarro resumed his seat, the ceremonial being over. “Let the lasses’
marriages alone,” he said impatiently. “I’ve enough to think upon with
my lads. Now, Rob, are you sure you’re all ready? Your things packed and
all your odds and ends put up? The less of them you take the better.
Long before you’ve got the length of Calcutta ye’ll be wishing you had
left the half of your portmanteaux at home.”

“I’ve just two, father.”

“Well, ye’ll be wishing ye had but one. Bring ben the hot water,
Marg’ret; for wine’s but a feeble drink, and cold on the stomach. My
wife never moves at the right time--will I give her a hint that you’re
waiting, Eelen?”

“Not on my account, Drumcarro. Your champagne’s no doubt a grand drink;
but a glass out of your tumbler, if you’re going to make one, is more
wholesome and will set all right.”

“I thought ye would say that,” said the laird. She had said it already
on every such occasion--so that perhaps his divination was not
wonderful. He proceeded with care to the manufacture of “the tumbler,”
at which the minister looked from the other end of the table with
patient interest, abiding his time.

“Snuff the candles,” said the laird, “will nobody pay a little
attention? You three little ones, you can run away with your apples,
it’s near your bed-time; but don’t make more noise than you can help.
Marg’ret, take the hot water to the minister. Champagne, as ye were
saying, Eelen, is a grand drink; I think it right my sons should drink
it at their father’s table before they plunge into the extravagance of a
mess. It teaches a lad what he’s likely to meet with, and I would not
have one of mine surprised with any dainty, as if he had come out of a
poor house. But a wholesome glass like what I’m helping you to is worth
twenty of it.” He was filling a wine-glass with his small silver
toddy-ladle as he spoke, and the fumes of the pungent liquid rose in
curls of steam pleasant to the accustomed nostrils. Robbie kept an eye
upon the hot water which Mr. Pyper detained, knowing that one of the
privileges of his position to-night was “to make a tumbler” for himself,
with the privilege of offering it then to his sisters, as each of his
brothers had done.

“Can I assist you to a glass, mem? just a drop. It will do ye good,” the
minister said.

“Nothing will do me good,” said Mrs. Douglas. “I’m far past that; but
I’ll take a little for civility, not to refuse a friend; whether it’s
toddy or whether it’s wine it’s all sounding brass and a tinkling cymbal
to me. A woman when her bairns go from her is little comforted by the
like of that.”

“And yet the creature comforts have their place, a homely one but still
a true one,” said the minister. “There’s a time to feast as well as a
time to refrain from feasting. Miss Mary, may I have the pleasure of
assisting you?”

“I’ll take a little from Robbie,” said the elder daughter, wisely
instructed that it was well thus to diminish the unwonted tumbler
allowed to the novice. Kirsteen rose quickly to her feet as these
interchanges went round.

“Mother, I think if ye’ll let me, I’ll just give an eye to what the
little ones are doing,” she said, “and see that Robbie’s things are all
ready. One of the boxes is open still and there are these
handkerchiefs.”

Kirsteen’s eyes were brimming over, and as she spoke a large drop fell
upon her hand: she looked at it with alarm, saying, “I did not mean to
be so silly,” and hastened away.

“Where is Kirsteen away to? Can she not take her share of what is going
like the rest?” said her father. “You breed these lasses to your own
whimsies, Mistress Douglas. The bairns are well out of the road; but
them that are grown up should bide where they are, and not disturb the
family. I have no patience with them.”

“I’m here, father,” said Mary in her mild voice.

“Oh, ay, you’re there,” said the inconsistent head of the house, “for
you’re just nobody, and never had two ideas in your head,” he continued
in a lower tone. “Now, Robbie, my man, take your glass, there is no
saying when you will get another. It’s just second nature to a Scotsman,
but it’s as well for you to be out of the way of it; for though it’s the
most wholesome drink, it’s very seductive and you’re much better without
it at your age. It’s like the strange woman that you’re warned against
in Scripture.”

“Drumcarro!” said Aunt Eelen. “Oh fie! before ladies.”

“Ladies or no ladies I cannot let the occasion pass without a word of
warning,” said the father. “Ye will have every temptation put before ye,
my lad; not drink perhaps, for the climate will not stand it, but other
things, that are worse.”

“I’m thinking, Christina,” said the old lady, “that now your goodman has
begun his moralities it may be as well for us to go, for you know where
that begins and you never can tell where it may end; a man has
cognizance of many things that cannot enter into the experience of you
and me. Mind you what your father says, Robbie, but it’s not intended
for your mother and me.”




CHAPTER III.


Kirsteen hurried out of the room, out of the fumes of the toddy and the
atmosphere of the half-festive, half-doleful occasion which made a not
altogether unpleasant excitement in the monotony of the home life. She
gazed in at the open door of the parlour, and saw the three younger
children gathered in the firelight upon the hearthrug munching their
apples, and the sweets with which they had been allowed to fill their
pockets. The firelight made still more ruddy the red heads and freckled
faces of the boys, and lit up Jeanie, who sat on a footstool a little
higher than her brothers, in her more delicate tints. Kirsteen was much
attached to her younger sister, who promised to be the beauty of the
family, and thought her like an angel, especially as seen through the
dew of her wet eyes. “Dinna make a noise,” she said; “be awfu’ quiet or
you’ll be sent to your beds;” and then closed the door softly and stole
through the dark passage towards the principal entrance. There was no
light save a ruddy gleam from the kitchen in the depths of that dark
passage which traversed the whole breadth of the house, and that which
shone through the crevices of the dining-room door. She had to find her
way groping, but she was very well used to this exercise, and knew
exactly where the hall-table and the heavy wooden chairs on each side
stood. The outer door stood half open according to the habit of the
country where there were no burglars to fear, and little to tempt them,
and a perfect capacity of self-defence inside. There was a full moon
that night, but it had not yet risen, though the sky was full of a misty
light which preceded that event. A faint shadow of the group of trees
outside was thrown upon the doorway; they were birches slender and
graceful, with their leaves half blown away by the October gales; those
that remained were yellow with the first touches of the frost, and in
themselves gave forth a certain light. Kirsteen stole out to a bench
that stood against the wall, and sat down in a corner. She was not
afraid of cold with her uncovered head and bare arms. All the moods of
the elements were familiar to the Highland girl. She thought it mild,
almost warm: there was no wind, the yellow birches perceptible in their
faint colour stood up like a group of long-limbed youths dangling their
long locks in the dim light: the further landscape was but faintly
visible, the shoulder of the hill against the sky, and a single gleam of
the burn deep down among the trees.

She sat pressing herself into the corner of the seat, and the long
pent-up tears poured forth. They had been getting too much for her, like
a stream shut in by artificial barriers, and now came with a flood, like
the same stream in spate and carrying every obstruction away. It was
almost a pleasure to see (if there had been any one to do so) the good
heart with which Kirsteen wept: she made no noise, but the tears poured
forth in a great shower, relieving her head and her heart. They were
very heavy, but they were not bitter. They meant a great deal of emotion
and stirring up of her whole being, but though her feelings were very
poignant they were not without pleasure. She had never felt so elevated
above herself, above every dull circumstance that surrounded her. She
had been very sorry and had shed tears plentifully when the other boys
went away. But this was not the same. She perhaps did not confess to
herself, yet she knew very well that it was not altogether for Robbie.
Robbie had his share, but there was another now. For years Kirsteen and
Ronald Drummond had been good friends. When he went away before she had
felt a secret pang, and had been very eager to hear the news of the
battles and that he was safe: but something had changed this friendship
during the last summer while he had been at home. Not a word had been
said: there was no love-making; they were both too shy to enter upon any
revelation of feeling, nor was there any opportunity for explanations,
since they were always surrounded by companions, always in the midst of
a wandering, easy-minded party which had no respect for any one’s
privacy. But Kirsteen when she marked her brother’s handkerchiefs with
her hair had fully intended that Ronald should see it, and be struck
with the similarity of the initials and ask for or take one of them at
least. Her heart beat high when this happened according to her
prevision; and when he stooped and whispered, “Will ye wait for me,
Kirsteen, till I come back?” the answering whisper, “That I will!” had
come from the bottom of her heart. She had scarcely been aware of what
was said in the hurry of the moment. But it had come back to her, every
syllable and every tone as soon as it was all over. Their spirits had
floated together in that one moment, which was only a moment, yet enough
to decide the course of two lives. They were too much bound by the laws
of their youthful existence to think of breaking any observance in order
to expand these utterances, or make assurance sure. That Ronald should
spend his last evening at home with his mother and sister, that Kirsteen
should be present at Robbie’s parting supper, was as the laws of the
Medes and the Persians to these two. No emergency could be imagined of
sufficient weight to interfere with such necessities of life. And there
was something in their simple absolutism of youthful feeling which was
better expressed in the momentary conjunction, in the sudden words so
brief and pregnant, than in hours of lovers’ talk, of which both boy and
girl would have thought shame. “Will ye wait for me till I come back?”
What more could have been said in volumes? and “That I will!” out of the
fervour of a simple heart? Kirsteen thought it all over again and again.
He seemed to stand by her side bending a little over her with a look
half smile, half tears in his eyes; and she was aware again of the flash
of the sweet discovery, the gold thread of the little letters put to his
lips, and then the question, “Will ye wait?” Wait! for a hundred years,
for all the unfathomed depths of life, through long absence and silence,
each invisible to the other. “That I will!” She said it over and over
again to herself.

In those days there was no thought of the constant communications we
have now, no weekly mails, no rapid courses overland, no telegraph for
an emergency. When a young man went away he went for good--away; every
trace of him obliterated as if he had not been. It was a four months’
voyage to India round by the Cape. Within the course of the year his
mother might hope to hear that he had arrived. And if an Indian letter
had come even at that long interval for a girl in another family, what a
host of questions would she not have had to go through! “A letter for
Kirsteen! Who’s writing to Kirsteen? What is he writing to her about?
What is the meaning of it all? I must know what that means!” such would
have been the inquiries that would have surged up in a moment, making
poor Kirsteen the object of everybody’s curious gaze and of every kind
of investigation. She never dreamed of any such possibility. Robbie,
when he wrote home, which he would no doubt do in time, might mention
the companion of his voyage; Agnes Drummond might say “There’s a letter
from our Ronald.” These were the only communications that Kirsteen
could hope for. She was very well aware of the fact, and raised no
thought of rebellion against it. When she gave that promise she meant
waiting for interminable years--waiting without a glimpse or a word. Nor
did this depress her spirits: rather it gave a more elevating ideal form
to the visionary bond. All romance was in it, all the poetry of life. He
would be as if he were dead to her for years and years. Silence would
fall between them like the grave. And yet all the time she would be
waiting for him and he would be coming to her.

And though Kirsteen cried, it was not altogether for trouble. It was for
extreme and highly-wrought feeling, sorrow and happiness combined.
Through all her twenty years of life there had been nothing to equal
that moment, the intensity of it, the expectation, the swift and sudden
realisation of all vague anticipations and wishes. It was only a minute
of time, a mere speck upon the great monotonous level of existence, and
yet there would be food enough in it for the thoughts of all future
years. When the thunder-shower of tears was exhausted, she sat quite
still in a kind of exalted contentment, going over it and over it, never
tired. The hot room and the smoky glare of the candles, and the fumes of
the whisky and the sound of all the voices, had been intolerable to her;
but in the fresh coldness of the night air, in that great quiet of
Nature, with the rustle of the leaves going through it like breath, and
the soft distant tinkle of the burns, what room and scope there was for
remembering; which was what Kirsteen called thinking--remembering every
tone and look, the way in which he approached the table where her work
was lying, her wonder if he would notice, the flush of perception on his
face as he said, “It’s my name too,” and then that tender theft, the act
that left Robbie for ever without one of his pocket-handkerchiefs,--she
thought with a gleam of fun how he would count them and count them, and
wonder how he had lost it--the little visionary letters put to his lips.
Oh that her heart had been sewn in with the hair to give to him! But so
it was, so it was! He had that pledge of hers, but she had nothing of
his, nor did she want anything to remind her, to bind her faith to him,
though it should be years before she saw him again. The tears started
into her eyes again with that thought, which gave her a pang, yet one
which was full of sweetness: for what did it matter how long he was
away, or how dark and still the time and space that separated them now.
“Will ye wait for me till I come back?” that would be the gold thread
that should run through all the years.

The sound of a little movement in the dining-room from which all this
time she had heard the murmur of the voices, the tinkle of the glasses,
made her pause and start. It was the ladies withdrawing to the parlour.
She thought with a little gasp that they would find the children
scorching their cheeks on the hearthrug, instead of being sent off to
bed as should have been done, and held her breath expecting every
moment the call of “Kirsteen!” which was her mother’s appeal against
fate. But either the general license of the great family event, or the
sedative effect of her mouthful of champagne and glass of toddy, or the
effect of Aunt Eelen’s conversation which put her always on her defence
whatever was the subject, had subdued Mrs. Douglas: there came no call,
and Kirsteen, though with a slightly divided attention, and one ear
anxiously intent upon what was going on indoors, pursued her thoughts.
It gave them a more vivid sweetness that they were so entirely her own,
a secret which she might carry safely without any one suspecting its
existence under cover of everything that was habitual and visible. It
would be her life, whatever was going on outside. When she was dull--and
life was often dull at Drumcarro--when her mother was more exacting than
usual, her father more rough, Mary and the children more exasperating,
she would retire into herself and hear the whisper in her heart, “Will
ye wait till I come back?”--it would be like a spell she said to
herself--just like a spell; the clouds would disperse and the sun break
out, and her heart would float forth upon that golden stream.

The sound of a heavy yet soft step aroused Kirsteen at this moment from
her dreams; but she was set at ease by the sight of a great whiteness
which she at once identified as Marg’ret’s apron coming slowly round the
corner of the house. “I just thought I would find you here,” said
Marg’ret. “It’s natural in me after that warm kitchen and a’ the pots
and pans, to want a breath of air--but what are you doing here with your
bare neck, and nothing on your head? I’m just warning you for ever,
you’ll yet your death of cold.”

“I could not bear it any longer,” said Kirsteen, “the talking and all
the faces and the smell of the toddy.”

“Hoot,” said Marg’ret, “what ails ye at the smell of the toddy? In
moderation it’s no an ill thing--and as for the faces, you wouldna have
folk without faces, you daft bairn; that’s just a silly speech from the
like of you.”

“There’s no law against being silly,” Kirsteen said.

“Oh, but that’s true. If there was, the jails would be ower full: though
no from you, my bonnie dear. But I ken weel what it is,” said Marg’ret,
putting her arm round the girl’s shoulder. “Your bit heart’s a’ stirred
up, and ye dinna ken how ye feel. Tak’ comfort, my dear bairn, they’ll
come back.”

Kirsteen shed a few more ready tears upon Marg’ret’s shoulder, then she
gave that vigorous arm a push, and burst from its hold with a laugh,
“There’s one of Robbie’s handkerchiefs lost or stolen,” she said. “Where
do ye think he’ll ever find it? and R. D. worked upon it with a thread
of my hair.”

“Bless me!” said Marg’ret with alarm, “who would meddle with the
laddie’s linen? but you’re meaning something mair than meets the eye,”
she added, with a pat upon the girl’s shoulder; “I’ll maybe faddom it by
and by. Gang away ben, the ladies will be wondering where ye are, and
it’s eerie out here in the white moonlight.”

“Not eerie at all: ye mean soft and sweet,” said Kirsteen, “the kind of
light for thinking in; and the moon is this minute up. She’s come for
you and not for me.”

“I cannot faddom you the nicht any more than I can faddom what ye say,”
said Marg’ret. “There’s mair in it than Robbie and his handkerchief. But
I maun go in and fasten up the straps and put his keys in his pocket, or
he’ll forget them. Laddies are a great handful, they’re aye forgetting.
But they’re like the man’s wife, they’re ill to have, but worse to want.
Gang in, gang in out of the night air,” said Marg’ret with a faint sob,
softly pushing Kirsteen before her. The smell of the peat fires, which
was pleasant, and of the smoke of the candles, which was not, and of the
penetrating fumes of the toddy again filled Kirsteen’s nostrils as she
came in. She had no right to be fastidious, for she had been brought up
in the habit and knowledge of all these odours. When she entered,
another scent, that of the tea with which the ladies were concluding the
evening, added its more subtle perfume. In those days people were not
afraid of strong tea, mixed with a great deal of green to modify the
strong black Congou, and it had been “masking” for half an hour before
the fire: they were not afraid of being “put off their sleep.”

“And do ye mean to say, Christina, that there’s nobody coming about the
house that would do for your girls?”

“Oh, for mercy’s sake, Eelen, say not a word about that: we’ve had
trouble enough on that subject,” said Mrs. Douglas in her injured voice.

“Are you meaning Anne? Well, I mind Drumcarro’s vow, but there is no
doubt that was a missalliance. I’m meaning men in their own position of
life.”

“Where are they to see men in their own position, or any men?” said the
mother shaking her head. “Bless me, Kirsteen, is that you? I don’t like
people to go gliding about the house like that, so that ye never can
hear them. When your aunt and me were maybe talking--what was not meant
for the like of you.”

“Hoot, there was no hairm in it,” said Aunt Eelen, “if all the lasses in
the town had been here.”

“But it’s an ill custom,” said Mrs. Douglas. “However, as you’re here ye
may just get me my stocking, Kirsteen, and take up a stitch or two that
I let fall. Na, na, no strangers ever come here. And now that my
Robbie’s going, there will be fewer than ever. I wish that your father
would not keep that laddie out of his bed, and him starting so early.
And, eh, me, to think that I’m his mother, and most likely will never
see him in this world again!”




CHAPTER IV.


Robbie went away next morning very early, before the October day was
fairly afloat in the skies. They had no carriage at Drumcarro except
“the gig,” and it was perched up in this high conveyance, looking very
red with tears and blue with cold, that the household, all standing
round the door, saw the last of the boy mounted beside his father, with
a large portmanteau standing uncomfortably between them. His other
baggage had been sent off in the cart in the middle of the night, Jock
as a great favour accompanying the carter, to the great envy and wrath
of Jamie, who thought it hard that he should miss such a “ploy,” and
could see no reason why his brother should be preferred because he was
two years older. Jamie stood at the horse’s head looking as like a groom
as he could make himself, while his father made believe to hold in the
steady honest mare who knew the way as well as he did, and was as little
troubled by any superfluous fun or friskiness. Mrs. Douglas had remained
in bed dissolved in tears, and her boy had taken his leave of her in
those congenial circumstances. “Be a good lad, Robbie, and sometimes
think upon your poor mother, that will never live to see you again.”
“Oh, mother, but I’ll be back long before that,” he cried vaguely, doing
his best to behave like a man, but breaking out in a great burst of a
sob, as she fell back weeping upon her pillows. The girls at the door
were in different developments of sorrow, Mary using her handkerchief
with demonstration, Kirsteen with her eyes lucid and large with unshed
tears, through which everything took an enlarged, uncertain outline, and
little Jeanie by turns crying and laughing as her attention was
distracted from Robbie going away to Jamie standing with his little legs
wide apart at the mare’s respectable head. Robbie was not at all sorry
to go away, his heart was throbbing with excitement and anticipation of
all the novelties before him; but he was only eighteen, and it was also
full for the moment of softer emotions. Marg’ret stood behind the girls,
taller than any of them, with her apron to her eyes. She was the last
person upon whom his look rested as his father called out, “Stand away
from her head,” as if honest Mally had been a hunter, and with a
friendly touch of the whip stirred the mare into motion. Robbie looked
back at the gray house, the yellow birches waving in the winds, the
hillside beyond, and the group round the door, and waved his hand and
could not speak. But he was not sorry to go away. It was the aim of all
his breeding, the end looked forward to for many years. “It’s me the
next,” said Jock, who was waiting at Inveralton, from which place by
fishing-smack and coach Robbie was to pursue his way to Glasgow and the
world. Travellers had but few facilities in those days: the rough
fishing boat across the often angry loch; the coach that in October did
not run “every lawful day,” but only at intervals; the absence of all
comfortable accommodation would grievously affect the young men nowadays
who set out in a sleeping carriage from the depths of the Highlands to
take their berths in a P. and O. Robbie thought of none of these
luxuries, which were not yet invented. His parting from his father and
brother was not emotional: all that had been got over when the group
about the doors had waved their last good-bye. He was more anxious about
the portmanteaux, upon which he looked with honest pride, and which
contained among many other things the defective half-dozen of
handkerchiefs. Ronald Drummond met him at the side of the loch with his
boxes, which contained a more ample outfit than Robbie’s, and the
sword-case which had been in the Peninsula, a distinction which drew all
eyes. “It’s me the next,” Jock shouted as a parting salutation, as the
brown sail was hoisted, and the boat, redolent of herrings, carried the
two adventurers away.

“Weel,” said Marg’ret, “the laddie’s gane, and good go with him. It’s
ane less to think of and fend for. And we must just all go back to our
work. Whoever comes or whoever goes, I have aye my dinner to think of,
and the clean clothes to be put into the drawers, and the stockings to
darn a’ the same.”

“If you’ll put an iron to the fire, Marg’ret, I’ll come and do the
collars,” said Mary, “he was always so particular, poor Robbie. There
will be no fyke now with trying to please him.”

“I cannot settle to work,” said Kirsteen, “and I will not. I’m not just
a machine for darning stockings. I wish I was Robbie going out into the
world.”

“Oh, Kirsteen, come and see the rabbits he gave me,” said Jeanie. “He
would not trust one of them to the boys, but gave them to me. Come and
take them some lettuce leaves. It will keep us in mind of Robbie.” There
was perhaps some danger that the recollection of the brother departed
would not last very long. So many had gone before him and there were
still others to go.

But Kirsteen avoided Jeanie and the rabbits and suddenly remembered
something she had to get at the “merchant’s,” which was a full mile
off--worsted for her mother’s knitting and needles for herself, who was
always, to the reprobation of the elder members of the family, losing
her needles. She was glad to represent to herself that this errand was a
necessity, for a house without needles how can that be? and poor mother
would be more dependent than ever on everything being right for her
work, on this melancholy day. It was still quite early, about nine
o’clock, and it was with a compunction that Kirsteen gave herself the
indulgence of this walk. A morning away from work seemed to her almost
an outrage upon life, only to be excused by the circumstances and the
necessity of the errand. She walked along the familiar road not noting
where she went, her thoughts far away, following the travellers, her
mind full of an agitation which was scarcely sorrowful, a sort of
exaltation over all that was common and ordinary. The air and the motion
were good for her, they were in harmony with that condition of
suppressed excitement in which from the depths of her being everything
seemed bubbling up. Kirsteen’s soul was like one of the clear pools of
the river by which she walked, into which some clear, silvery, living
thing had leaped and lived. Henceforward it was no more silent, no
longer without motion. The air displaced came up in shining globules to
the surface, dimpling over the water, a stir was in it from time to
time, a flash, a shimmering of all the ripples. Her mind, her heart were
like the pool--no longer mirroring the sky above and the pathway ferns
and grasses on the edge, but something that had an independent life. She
roamed along without being able to tell, had any one asked her, where
she was. The road was a beautiful road by the side of a mountain stream,
which was only called the burn, but which was big enough for trout or
even now and then salmon--which ran now along the side of the bill, now
diving deep down into a ravine, now half hid with big overreaching
banks, now flinging forth upon a bit of open country, flowing deep among
the rocks, chattering over the shallows, sometimes bass sometimes
treble, an unaccountable, unreasonable, changeable stream. Red
rowan-tree berries hung over it reflecting their colour in the water.
The heather on the hill came in deep russet tones of glory defeated, and
the withered bracken with tints of gold, all gaining a double brilliancy
from the liquid medium that returned their image. To all these things
Kirsteen was so well accustomed that perhaps she did not at any time
stop to note them as a stranger might have done. But to-day she did not
know what was about her; she was walking in more beautiful landscapes,
in the land of imagination, by the river of love, in the country of the
heart. The _pays du tendre_ which was ridiculous when all the fine
ladies and gentlemen postured about in their high-heeled shoes is not
absurd when a fresh and simple maiden crosses its boundary. She went
down the glen to the merchant’s and chose her wool, and bought her
needles, and said a few words to the women at their doors, and shed a
few more tears when they were sorry for her about her brother’s going
away, without ever leaving that visionary country, and came back from
the village more deeply lost in it than ever, and hearing the whisper of
last night in every motion of the branches and every song of the burns.
“Will ye wait for me, Kirsteen?” though it was only this morning that he
went away, and years and years must pass before he came back--“Ay, that
I will! That I will.”

She had nearly reached home again, coming back from the merchant’s--for
even her reverie and the charm of it could not keep Kirsteen’s step
slow, or subdue its airy, skimming tread--when she came up to the carter
with his cart who had carried Robbie’s luggage to Inveralton. She
stopped to speak to him, and walked along by his side timing her steps
to those of his heavy, slow tread and the movement of the laborious,
patient horse. “Did you see him, Duncan?” she said.

“Oh, ay, I saw him--and they got away fine in James Macgregor’s boat;
and a quick wind that would carry them over the loch in two or three
minutes.”

“And how was he looking, Duncan?”

“’Deed, Miss Kirsteen, very weel: he’s gaun to see the world--ye canna
expect a young boy like that to maen and graen. I have something here
for you.”

“Something for me!” She thought perhaps it was something that had been
put into the gig by mistake, and was not excited, for what should there
be for her? She watched with a little amusement Duncan’s conflict with
the different coats which had preserved his person from the night cold.
He went on talking while he struggled.

“The other laddie, Jock, I left to come home with the maister in the
gig. He thought it was fine--but I wouldna wonder if he was regretting
Duncan and the cart--afore now. Here it is at last, and a fecht to get
it. It is a book from Maister Ronald that you gave him a loan of--or
something o’ that kind--if I could but mind what gentles say--”

“Gave him--a loan of--?” cried Kirsteen, breathless. She had to turn
away her head not to exhibit to Duncan the overwhelming blush which she
felt to cover her from head to foot. “Oh, yes,” she added after a
moment, taking the little parcel from his hand, “I--mind.”

Let us hope that to both of them the little fiction was forgiven. A loan
of--she had nothing to lend, nor had he ever borrowed from her. It was a
small paper parcel, as if it contained a little book. Kirsteen never
could tell how she succeeded in walking beside the carter for a few
steps further, and asking him sedately about his wife and the bairns.
Her heart was beating in her ears as if it would burst through. It was
like a bird straining at its bonds, eager to fly away.

Then she found herself at home where she had flown like the wind, having
informed Duncan that she was “in a great hurry”--but in the passage, on
the way to her own room, she met Mary, who was coming from the kitchen
with a number of shining white collars in her arms which she had been
ironing.

“Where have you been?” said Mary. “My mother has been yammering for you.
Is this an hour of the day to go stravaighing for pleasure about the
roads?”

Mary pronounced the last word “rods,” though she prided herself on being
very correct in her speech.

“Me--I have been to the merchant’s for my mother’s fingering for her
stockings,” Kirsteen said breathlessly.

“It was wheeling she wanted,” said Mary with exasperating calm; “that’s
just like you, running for one thing when it’s another that’s wanted. Is
that it in that small parcel like a book?”

“No, that’s not it,” said Kirsteen, clasping the little parcel closer
and closer.

“It’s some poetry-book you’ve had out with you to read,” said her
sister, as if the acme of wrong-doing had been reached. “I would not
have thought it of you, Kirsteen, to be reading poetry about the rods,
the very morning that Robbie’s gone away. And when my mother is so ill
she cannot lift her head.”

“I’ve been reading no poetry,” cried Kirsteen, with the most poignant
sense of injury. “Let me pass, Mary, I’m going up the stair.”

But it was Marg’ret now who interposed, coming out at the sound of the
altercation. She said, “Miss Kirsteen, I’m making some beef-tea for the
mistress. Come in like a dear and warm your hands, and ye can carry it
up. It will save me another trail up and down these stairs.”

Kirsteen stood for a moment obstructed on both sides with a sense of
contrariety which was almost intolerable. Tears of vexation rose to her
eyes. “Can I not have a moment to myself?” she cried.

“To read your poetry!” Mary called after her in her mild little
exasperating voice.

“Whist, whist, my lamb, say nothing,” said Marg’ret. “Your mother canna
bide to have a talking. Never you mind what she says, think upon the
mistress that’s lying up there, wanting to hear everything and
canna--wanting to be in the middle of everything and no equal to it. It
was no that I grudge going up the stairs, but just to keep a’ things
quiet. And what’s that you’ve gotten in your hand?”

“It’s just a small parcel,” said Kirsteen, covering it with her fingers.
“It’s just a--something I was buying--”

“Not sweeties,” said Marg’ret solemnly; “the bairns had more than plenty
last night--”

“Never you mind what it is,” said Kirsteen with a burst of impatience,
thrusting it into her pocket. “Give me the beef-tea and I’ll take it up
stairs.”

Mrs. Douglas lay concealed behind her curtains, her face almost in a
fluid state with constant weeping. “Oh, set it down upon the table,” she
said. “Do they think there’s comfort in tea when a woman has parted with
her bairn? And where have ye been, Kirsteen? just when I was in want of
ye most; just when my head was sorest, and my heart like to
break--Robbie gone, and Mary so taken up with herself, and you--out of
the way--”

“I’m very sorry, mother,” said poor Kirsteen. “I ran down to the
merchant’s to get you your yarn for your knitting. I thought you would
like to have it ready.”

Mrs. Douglas rocked her head back and forward on her pillow. “Do I look
like a person that’s thinking of yarn or of stockings, with my head
aching and my heart breaking? And none of you can match a colour. Are
you sure it’s the same? Most likely I will just have to send Marg’ret to
change it. What’s that bulging out your pocket? You will tear every
pocket you have with parcels in it as if ye were a lad and not a lass.”

“It’s only a very small thing,” said Kirsteen.

“If that’s the yarn ye should never let them twist it up so tight. It
takes the softness all out of it. Where are ye going the moment you’ve
come back? Am I to have nobody near me, and me both ill in body, and
sore, sore distrest in mind? Oh, Kirsteen, I thought ye had a truer
heart.”

“Mother, my heart’s true,” cried the girl, “and there’s nothing in the
world I would not do to please you. But let me go and put away my
things, let me go for a moment, just for a moment. I’ll be back again
before you’ve missed me.”

“You’re not always so tidy to put away your things,” said the invalid;
“sit down there by my bedside, and tell me how my bonnie lad looked at
the last. Did he keep up his heart? And was your father kind to him? And
did you see that he had his keys right, and the list of all his
packages? Eh, me, to think I have to lie here and could not see my
laddie away.”

“But, mother, you have never done it,” said Kirsteen, “to any of the
boys--and Robbie never expected--”

“You need not mind me,” said Mrs. Douglas, “of the waik creature I’ve
always been. Aye in my bed or laid up, never good for anything. If
you’ll lift me up a little, Kirsteen, I might maybe try to swallow the
beef tea; for eh! I have much, much need of support on such a doleful
day. Now another pillow behind my back, and put the tray here; I cannot
bear the sight of food, but I must not let my strength run down. Where
are you going now, you restless thing? Just stay still where you are;
for I cannot do without you, Kirsteen. Kirsteen, do you hear me? The
doctor says I’m never to be left by myself.”

It was not till a long time after that Kirsteen was free. Her eager
expectation had fallen into an aching sense of suspense, a dull pang
that affected both mind and body. Instead of the rapid flight to her
room full of anticipation in which she had been arrested in entering the
house, she went soberly, prepared for any disenchantment. The room was
shared with her younger sister Jeanie, and it seemed quite probable that
even a moment’s solitude might be denied her. When she found it empty,
however, and had closed the door upon herself and her secret, it was
with trembling hands that she opened the little parcel. It might be the
handkerchief sent back to her, it might be some other plain intimation
that he had changed his mind. But when the covering was undone,
Kirsteen’s heart leaped up again to that sudden passion of joy and
content which she had first known yesterday. The parcel contained the
little Testament which Ronald had carried to church many a Sunday, a
small book bound in blue morocco, a little bent and worn with use. On
the flyleaf were his initials R. D., the letters of the handkerchief,
and underneath C. D. freshly written. He had made rather clumsily, poor
fellow, with a pencil, a sort of Runic knot of twisted lines to link the
two names together. That was all. Nowadays the young lover would at
least have added a letter; seventy years ago he had not thought of it.
Kirsteen’s heart gave a bound in her breast, and out of weariness and
contradiction and all the depressing influences of the morning, swam
suddenly into another world: a delicious atmosphere of perfect visionary
bliss. Never were public betrothals more certain, seldom so sweet. With
a timid movement, blushing at herself, she touched with her lips the
letters on the title-page.




PART II.




CHAPTER V.


Mr. Douglas of Drumcarro was the son of one of the Scotch lairds who had
followed Prince Charlie, and had been attainted after the disastrous
conclusion of the Forty-Five. Born in those distracted times, and
learning as their very first lessons in life the expedients of a hunted
man to escape his pursuers, and the anguish of the mother as to the
success of these expedients, the two half-comprehending children, twin
boys, had grown up in great poverty and seclusion in the corner of a
half-ruined house which belonged to their mother’s father, and within
cognizance of their own real home, one of the great houses of the
district which had passed into alien hands. When they set out to make
their fortune, at a very early age, their mother also having in the
meantime died, two half-educated but high-spirited and strongly-feeling
boys, they had parted with a kind of vow that all their exertions should
be addressed to the task of regaining their old possessions and home,
and that neither should set foot again upon that beloved alienated land
until able in some measure to redeem this pledge. They went away in
different directions, not unconfident of triumphantly fulfilling the
mutual promise; for fame and fortune do not seem very difficult at
sixteen, though so hard to acquire at a less hopeful age. Willie, the
younger, went to England, where some relations helped him on and started
him in a mildly successful career. He was the gentlest, the least
determined of the two, and fortune overtook him in a manner very
soothing after his troubled boyhood in the shape of a mild competency
and comfort, wife and children, and a life altogether alien to the
romance of the disinherited with which he had begun.

But Neil Douglas, the elder, went further afield. He went to the West
Indies, where at that period there were fortunes for the making,
attended however by many accessories of which people in the next
generation spoke darkly, and which still, perhaps, among unsophisticated
people survive in tradition, throwing a certain stain upon the planter’s
fortunes. Whether these supposed cruelties and horrors were all or
almost all the exaggerations of a following agitation, belonging like
many similar atrocities in America to the Abolitionist imagination, is a
question unnecessary to discuss. Up to the time at which this story
begins, whenever Mr. Douglas of Drumcarro quarrelled with a neighbour
over a boundary line or a shot upon the hill-side, he was called “an
auld slave-driver” by his opponent, with that sense of having power to
exasperate and injure which gives double piquancy to a quarrel. And of
him as of many another such it was told that he could not sleep of
nights; that he would wake even out of an after-dinner doze with cries
of remorse, and that dreams of flogged women and runaways in the marshes
pursued him whenever he closed his eyes. The one thing that discredited
these popular rumours among all who knew Drumcarro was that he was
neither tender-hearted nor imaginative, and highly unlikely to be
troubled by the recollection of severities which he would have had no
objection to repeat had he had the power. The truth was that he had by
no means found fortune so easily as he had hoped, and had worked in
every way with a dogged and fierce determination in spite of many
failures, never giving up his aim, until at last he had found himself
with a little money, not by any means what he had looked for and wanted,
but enough to buy a corner of his old inheritance, the little Highland
estate and bare little house of Drumcarro. Hither he came on his return
from Jamaica, a fierce, high-tempered, arbitrary man, by no means
unworthy of the title of “auld slave-driver,” so unanimously bestowed
upon him by his neighbours, who, however, could not ignore the claims of
his old Douglas blood however much they might dislike the man.

He had married a pretty little insipid girl, the daughter of one of his
brother’s friends in “the south country,” who brought with her a piano
and a few quickly-fading airs and graces to the Highland wilds, to sink
as soon as possible into the feeble and fanciful invalid, entirely
subject to her husband’s firmer will and looking upon him with terror,
whom the reader has already seen. Poor Mrs. Douglas had not vigour
enough to make the least stand against her fate. But for Marg’ret she
would have fallen at once into the domestic drudge which was all
Drumcarro understood or wanted in a wife. With Marg’ret to preserve her
from that lower depth, she sank only into invalidism--into a timid
complaining, a good deal of real suffering, and a conviction that she
was the most sorely tried of women. But she bore her despotic husband
seven boys without a blemish, robust and long-limbed lads equal to every
encounter with fate. And this made him a proud man among his kind,
strongly confident of vanquishing every adverse circumstance, in their
persons at least, if not, as Providence seemed to have forbidden, in his
own. He set his whole heart upon these boys--struggling and sparing to
get a certain amount of needful education for them, not very much, it
must be allowed; and by every means in his power, by old relationships
half-forgotten, by connections of his West Indian period, even by such
share as he could take in politics, contrived to get appointments for
them, one after another, either in the King’s or the Company’s service
for India. The last was much the best of any; it was a fine service,
with perpetual opportunities of fighting and of distinction, not so
showy as the distinctions to be gained in the Peninsula, but with far
better opportunities of getting on. The four eldest were there already,
and Robbie had started to follow them. For Jock, who took to his books
more kindly than the others, there was a prospect of a writership. It
was more easy in those days to set young men out in the world than it is
now. Your friends thought of them, your political leaders were
accessible; even a passing visitor would remark the boys in your nursery
and lend a friendly hand. Nobody lends a friendly hand nowadays, and
seven sons is not a quiverful in which a poor man has much reason to
rejoice.

On the other hand the girls at Drumcarro were left without any care at
all. They were unlucky accidents, tares among the wheat, handmaids who
might be useful about the house, but who had no future, no capabilities
of advancing the family, creatures altogether of no account. Men in a
higher position than the laird of Drumcarro might have seen a means of
strengthening their house by alliances, through the means of four comely
daughters, but the poor little Highland lairdlings, who were their only
possible suitors, were not worth his trouble, and even of them the
supply was few. They too went out into the world, they did not remain to
marry and vegetate at home. Mr. Douglas felt that every farthing spent
upon the useless female portion of his household was so much taken from
the boys, and the consequence was that the girls grew up without even
the meagre education then considered necessary for women, and shut out
by poverty, by pride, by the impossibility of making the appearance
required to do credit to the family, even the homely gaieties of the
country-side. They grew up in the wilds like the heather and the
bracken, by the grace of nature, and acquired somehow the arts of
reading and writing, and many housewifely accomplishments, but without
books, without society, without any break in the monotony of life or
prospect in their future. Their brothers had gone off one by one,
depriving them in succession of the natural friends and companions of
their youth. And in this way there had happened a domestic incident
never now named in Drumcarro; the most awful of catastrophes in the
experience of the younger members of the family. The eldest of the
girls, named Anne, was the handsomest of the three elder sisters. She
was of the same type of beauty which promised a still more perfect
development in the little Jeanie, the youngest of the daughters; with
fair hair just touched with a golden light, blue eyes soft and tender,
and a complexion somewhat pale but apt to blush at any touch of
sentiment or feeling into the warmest variable radiance. She sang like a
bird without any training, she knew all the songs and stories of the
district, and read every poetry-book she could find (they were not
many--_The Gentle Shepherd_, an old copy of Barbour’s _Bruce_, some
vagrant volumes of indifferent verse); she was full of sentiment and
dreamy youthful romance without anything to feed upon. But just at the
time when her favourite brother Nigel went away, and Anne was downcast
and melancholy, a young doctor came temporarily to the district, and
came in the usual course to see Mrs. Douglas, for whose case he
recommended certain remedies impossible to be carried out, as doctors
sometimes do. He advised change of air, cheerful company, and that she
should be kept from everything likely to agitate or disturb her. “That’s
sae easy--that’s sae likely,” said Marg’ret under her breath. But Anne
listened anxiously while the young doctor insisted upon his remedies. He
came again and again, with an interest in the patient which no one had
ever shown before. “If you could take her away into the sunshine--to a
brighter place, where she would see new faces and new scenes.” “Oh, but
how could I do that,” cried Anne, “when I have no place to take her to,
and my father would not let me if I had?” “Oh, Miss Anne, let me speak
to your father,” the young man pleaded. “You shall have a pleasant house
to bring your mother to, and love and service at her command, if you
will but listen to me.” Anne listened, nothing loth, and the young
doctor, with a confidence born of ignorance, afterwards asked for an
interview with Drumcarro. What happened was never known; the doctor
departed in great haste, pale with wrath, Mr. Douglas’s voice sounding
loud as the burn when in spate after him as he strode from the door; and
Anne’s cheeks were white and her eyes red for a week after. But at the
end of that week Anne disappeared and was no more seen. Marg’ret, who
had risen very early in the middle of the wintry dark, to see to some
great washing or other household work, found, as was whispered through
the house, a candle nickering down in the socket upon the hall-table,
and the house-door open. To blow out the last flickering flame, lest it
should die in the socket and so foreshadow the extinction of the race,
was Marg’ret’s first alarmed precaution; and then she shut the open
door, but whether she saw or heard anything more nobody ever knew. A
faint picture of this scene, the rising and falling of the dying light,
the cold wind blowing in from the door, the wild darkness of the winter
morning, with its belated stars in a frosty sky looking in, remained in
the imagination of the family surrounding the name of Anne, which from
that day was never pronounced in the house. Where she went or what
became of her was supposed by the young ones to be absolutely unknown.
But it is to be hoped that even Drumcarro, savage as he was, ascertained
the fate of his daughter even while he cursed her. It came to be
understood afterwards that she had married her doctor and was happy; but
that not for a long time, nor to the sisters thus taught by the
tremendous force of example what a dreadful thing it was to look at any
upstart doctor or minister or insignificant person without a pedigree or
pretensions like their own.

This was the only shape in which love had come near the door of
Drumcarro, and if there was a certain attraction even in the tragic
mystery of the tale, there was not much encouragement for the others to
follow Anne’s example, thus banished summarily and for ever from all
relations with her family. Also from that time no doctor except the old
man who had brought the children into the world was ever allowed to
enter those sacred doors, nor any minister younger or more seductive
than Mr. Pyper. As for other ineligible persons there were none in the
country-side, so that Mary and Kirsteen were safe from temptation. And
thus they went on from day to day and from year to year, in a complete
isolation which poverty made imperative more even than circumstances,
the only event that ever happened being the departure of a brother, or
an unusually severe “attack” of their mother’s continued ever-enduring
illness. They were not sufficiently educated nor sufficiently endowed to
put them on a par with the few high-born ladies of the district, with
whom alone they would have been allowed to associate; and there was
native pride enough in themselves to prevent them from forming
friendships with the farmers’ daughters, also very widely scattered and
few in number, who, though the young ladies of Drumcarro were so little
superior to themselves in any outward attribute, would have thought
their acquaintance an honour. Nothing accordingly could exceed the
dulness, the monotony of their lives, with no future, no occupation
except their work as almost servants in their father’s house, no hope
even of those vicissitudes of youth which sometimes in a moment change a
young maiden’s life. All was bald and gray about them, everything but
the scenery, in which, if there is nothing else, young minds find but an
imperfect compensation. Mary indeed had a compensation of another kind
in the comfortable apathy of a perfectly dull and stolid character,
which had little need of the higher acquirements of life. But Kirsteen
with her quick temper and high spirit and lively imagination was little
adapted for a part so blank. She was one of those who make a story for
themselves.




CHAPTER VI.


Marg’ret was perhaps the only individual in the world who dared to
remonstrate with Mr. Douglas as to the neglect in which his daughters
were losing their youth and all its pleasures and hopes. Aunt Eelen it
is true made comments from time to time. She said: “Puir things, what
will become of them when Neil’s deed? They’ve neither siller nor
learning; and no chance of a man for one of them that I can see.”

“And yet they’re bonnie lasses,” said the sympathetic neighbour to whom
on her return home after Robbie’s departure she made this confidence.
“Oh, they’re well enough, but with a silly mother and a father that’s
just a madman, what can any person do for them?” Miss Eelen Douglas was
not quite assured in her own mind that it was not her duty to do
something for her young relations, and she took a great deal of pains to
prove to herself that it was impossible.

“What if you had them over at the New Year? There’s aye something going
on, and the ball at the Castle.”

“The ball at the Castle!” cried Miss Eelen with a scream. “And what
would they put on to go to the ball at the Castle? Potato-bags and
dishclouts? Na, na, I’m of his mind so far as that goes. If they cannot
appear like Drumcarro’s daughters they are best at home.”

“Bless me,” said the kind neighbour, “a bit white frock is no ruinous.
If it was only for a summer Sabbath to go to the kirk in, they must have
white frocks.”

“Ruinous or no ruinous it’s more than he’ll give them,” said Miss Eelen,
shutting up her thin lips as if they had been a purse. She was very
decided that the white frocks could not come from her. And indeed her
means were very small, not much more than was absolutely necessary to
maintain her little house and the one maid who kept her old mahogany and
her old silver up to the polish which was necessary. Naturally all her
neighbours and her cousin Neil, who hoped to inherit from her,
exaggerated Miss Eelen’s income. But though she was poor, she had a
compunction. She felt that the white frocks ought to be obtained
somehow, if even by the further pinching of her own already pinched
living, and that the great chance of the ball at the Castle ought to be
afforded to Drumcarro’s neglected girls. And she had to reason with
herself periodically as to the impossibility of this, demonstrating how
it was that she could not do it, that it was not her part to do it, that
if the father and the mother saw no necessity, how was she, a cousin
once removed, to take it upon her? For though they called her aunt she
was in reality Neil Douglas of Drumcarro’s cousin and no more.
Notwithstanding all these arguments a compunction was always present in
Miss Eelen’s worn out yet not extinguished heart.

“Besides,” she began again more briskly, “what would be the use? Ye’ll
no suppose that Lord John or Lord Thomas would offer for Drumcarro’s
lasses. They’re as good blood, maybe better; for it’s cauld watery stuff
that rins in those young lads’ veins. But Neil Douglas is a poor man; if
he had all or the half that rightly belongs to him, it would be anither
matter. We’ll say nothing about that I’m a Douglas myself, and it just
fires me up when I think of it. But right or wrong, as I’m saying,
Drumcarro’s a poor man and it’s no in the Castle his lasses will find
mates. And he’s a proud man. I think upon Anne, puir thing, and I cannot
say another word. Na, na, it’s just a case where nobody can interfere.”

“But Miss Anne’s very happy, and plenty of everything, as I hear.”

“Happy, and her father’s doors closed upon her, and her name wiped out
as if she were dead, far more than if she were dead! And bearing a name
that no man ever heard of, her, a Douglas!” Miss Eelen’s gray cheek took
on a flush of colour at the thought. She shook her head, agitating the
little gray ringlets on her forehead. “Na, na,” she said, “I’m vexed to
think upon the poor things--but I cannot interfere.”

“Maybe their father, if you were to speak to him--”

“Me speak to him! I would as soon speak to Duncan Nicol’s bull. My dear,
ye ken a great deal,” said Miss Eelen with irony, “but ye do not ken the
Douglases. And that’s all that can be said.”

This, however, was not all that a more devoted friend, the only one they
had who feared neither Drumcarro nor anything else in the world, in
their interests, found to say. Marg’ret was not afraid of Drumcarro.
Even she avoided any unnecessary encounter with “the auld slave-driver,”
but when it was needful to resist or even to assail him she did not
hesitate. And this time it was not resistance but attack. She marched
into the laird’s room with her head held high, trumpets playing and
banners flying, her broad white capstrings finely starched and streaming
behind her with the impulse of her going, an unusual colour in her
cheeks, her apron folded over one hand, the other free to aid the
eloquence of her speech. Several months had passed in great quiet, the
little stir of Robbie’s departure having died away along with the faint
excitement of the preparations for his departure, the making of his
linen, the packing of his portmanteaux. All had relapsed again into
perfect dulness and the routine of every day. Jamie, the next boy, was
only fourteen; a long time must elapse before he was able to follow his
brother into the world, and until his time should come there was no
likelihood of any other event stirring the echoes at Drumcarro. As for
Marg’ret, the routine was quite enough for her. To think what new
variety of scone she could make for their tea, how she could adapt the
remains of the grouse to make a little change, or improve the flavour of
the trout, or com-pound a beef-tea or a pudding which would tempt her
mistress to a spoonful more, was diversion enough for Marg’ret among the
heavier burdens of her work. But the bairns--and above all Kirsteen, who
was her special darling. Kirsteen had carried her head very high after
Robbie went away. She had been full of musings and of dreams, she had
smiled to herself and sung to herself fragments of a hundred little
ditties, even amid the harassments of her sick mother’s incessant
demands, and all the dulness of her life. But after a month or two that
visionary delight had a little failed, the chill of abandonment, of
loneliness, of a life shut out from every relaxation, had ceased to be
neutralized by the secret inspiration which kept the smile on her lips
and the song in her heart. Kirsteen had not forgotten the secret which
was between her and Ronald, or ceased to be sustained by it; but she was
young, and the parting, the absence, the silence had begun to tell upon
her. He was gone; they were all gone, she said to herself. With
everything in the world to sustain the young sufferer, that chill of
absence is always a sad one. And her cheerfulness, if not her courage,
had flagged. Her heart and her head had drooped in spite of herself. She
had been found moping in corners, “thinking,” as she had said, and she
had been seen with her eyes wet, hastily drying the irrepressible
tears. “Kirsteen greetin’!” One of the boys had seen it, and mocked her
with a jibe, of which afterwards he was much ashamed; and little Jeanie
had seen it, and had hurried off awestricken to tell Marg’ret, “Kirsteen
was in the parlour, just with nobody, and greetin’ like to break her
heart.”

“Hoot awa’ with ye, it’ll be that auld pain in her head,” said Marg’ret
sending the little girl away. But this report brought affairs to a
crisis. “The bairn shall not just be left to think and think,” she said
to herself, adding however prudently, “no if I can help it.” Marg’ret
had managed one way or other to do most things she had set her heart
upon, but upon this she could not calculate. Drumcarro was not a man to
be turned easily from his evil ways. He was a “dour man.” The qualities
which had enabled him in the face of all discouragement to persevere
through failure and disappointment until he had at last gained so much
if no more and become Drumcarro, were all strong agents against the
probability of getting him to yield now. He had his own theories of his
duty, and it was not likely that the representations of his housekeeper
would change them. Still Marg’ret felt that she must say her say.

He was seated by himself in the little room which was specially his own,
in the heaviness of the afternoon. Dinner was over, and the air was
still conscious of the whisky and water which had accompanied it. A peat
fire burned with an intense red glow, and his chair and shabby
writing-table were drawn close to it. No wonder then that Drumcarro
dozed when he retired to that warm and still seclusion. Marg’ret took
care not to go too soon, to wait until the afternoon nap was over; but
the laird’s eyes were still heavy when she came in. He roused himself
quickly with sharp impatience; though the doze was habitual he was full
of resentment at any suspicion of it. He was reading in his room; this
was the version of the matter which he expected to be recognized in the
family: a man nowadays would say he had letters to write, but letters
were not so universal an occupation then. A frank or an opportunity, a
private hand, or sure messenger with whom to trust the missive were
things of an occasional occurrence which justified correspondence; but
it was not a necessity of every day. Mr. Douglas made no pretence of
letters. He was reading; a much crumpled newspaper which had already
passed through several hands was spread out on the table before him. It
was a Glasgow paper, posted by the first reader the day after
publication to a gentleman on Loch Long, then forwarded by him to
Inveralton, thence to Drumcarro. Mr. Pyper at the Manse got it at fourth
hand. It would be difficult to trace its wanderings after that. The
laird had it spread upon his table, and was bending over it, winking one
eye to get it open when Marg’ret pushed open the door. She did not
knock, but she made a great deal of noise with the handle as she opened
it, which came to much the same thing.

“Well,” he said, turning upon her snappishly, “what may ye be wanting
now?”

“I was wanting--just to say something to ye, Drumcarro, if it’s
convenient to ye,” Marg’ret said.

“What do ye want? That’s your way of asking, as I know well. What ails
ye now, and what long story have ye to tell? The sooner it’s begun the
sooner it will be ended,” he said.

“There is truth in that,” replied Marg’ret sedately; “and I canna say I
am confident ye will be pleased with what I am going to say. For to
meddle between a father and his bairns is no a pleasant office, and to
one that is but a servant in the house.”

“And who may this be,” said Mr. Douglas grimly, “that is coming to
interfere between a father and his bairns,--meaning me and my family, as
I’m at liberty to judge?”

Marg’ret looked her master in the face, and made him a slight but
serious curtsey. “’Deed, sir, it’s just me,” she said.

“You!” said the laird with all the force of angry indignation which he
could throw into his voice. He roused himself to the fray, pushing up
his spectacles upon his forehead. “You’re a bonny one,” he said, “to
burst into a gentleman’s private room on whatever errand--let alone
meddling in what’s none of your concerns.”

“If ye think sae, sir,” said Marg’ret, “that’s just anither point we
dinna agree about; for if there’s a mair proper person to speak to ye
about your bairns than the person that has brought them up, and carried
them in her arms, and made their parritch and mended their clo’es all
their life, I’m no acquaint with her. Eh, me, what am I saying? There is
anither that has a better right--and that’s their mother. But she’s your
wife, puir lamb, and ye ken weel that ye’ve sae dauntened her, and sae
bowed her down, that if ye were to take a’ their lives she would never
get out a word.”

“Did she send ye here to tell me so?” cried Drumcarro.

“But me,” said Marg’ret, unheeding the question, “I’m no to be dauntened
neither by words nor looks. I’m nae man’s wife, the Lord be thankit.”

“Ye may well say that,” said the laird, seizing an ever-ready weapon,
“for it’s well known ye never could get a man to look the way ye were
on.”

Marg’ret paused for a moment and contemplated him, half moved by the
jibe, but with a slight wave of her hand put the temptation away. “I’m
no to be put off by ony remarks ye can make, sir,” she said; “maybe ye
think ye ken my affairs better than I do, for well I wot I ken yours
better than you. You’re no an ill father to your lads. I would never say
sae, for it wouldna be true; ye do your best for them and grudge
naething. But the lassies are just as precious a gift from their Maker
as their brothers, and what’s ever done for them? They’re just as
neglecktit as the colley dogues: na, far mair, for the colleys have a
fine training to make them fit for their work--whereas our young ladies,
the Lord bless them--”

“Well,” said the father sharply, “and what have you to do with the young
ladies? Go away with you to your kitchen, and heat your girdle and make
your scones. That’s your vocation. The young ladies I tell ye are no
concern of yours.”

“Whose concern should they be when neither father nor mother take ony
heed?” said Marg’ret “Maister Douglas, how do you think your bonnie lads
would have come through if they had been left like that and nobody
caring? There’s Miss Kirsteen is just as clever and just as good as any
one o’ them; but what is the poor thing’s life worth if she’s never to
see a thing, nor meet a person out of Drumcarro House? Ye ken yoursel’
there’s little company in Drumcarro House--you sitting here and the
mistress maybe in her bed, and neither kin nor friend to say a pleasant
word. Lord bless us a’! I’m twice her age and mair: but I would loup
ower the linn the first dark day, if I was like that lassie without the
sight of a face or the sound of a voice of my ain kind.”

“You’re just an auld fool,” said Drumcarro, “the lassie is as well off
as any lassie needs to be. Kirsteen--oh ay, I mind now, ye have always
made a pet of Kirsteen. It’s maybe that that has given her her bold
tongue and set that spark in her eye.”

“Na,” said Marg’ret, “it was just her Maker did that, to make her ane of
the first in the land if them she belongs to dinna shut her up in a
lonesome glen in a dull hoose. But naebody shall say I’m speaking for
Kirsteen alone; there’s your bonny little Jeanie that will just be a
beauty. Where she got it I canna tell, ony mair than I can tell where
Kirsteen got her grand spirit and yon light in her ee. No from her poor
mother, that was a bonny bit thing in her day, but never like that.
Jeanie will be just the flower o’ the haill country-side, if ye can ca’
it a country-side that’s a’ howkit out into glens and tangled with thae
lochs and hills. If she were in a mair open country there’s no a place
from Ayr to Dumfries but would hear of her for her beauty in twa or
three years’ time. Ye may say beauty’s but skin deep, and I’m saying
nothing to the contrary; but it’s awfu’ pleasant to the sight of men;
and I’ll just tell you this, Drumcarro--though it’s maybe no a thing
that’s fit for me to say--there’s no a great man in a’ the land that
bairn mightna marry if she had justice done her. And maybe that will
move ye, if naething else will.”

A gleam had come into Drumcarro’s eyes as she spoke, but he answered
only by a loud and harsh laugh, leaning back in his chair and opening
wide a great cavern of a mouth. “The deil’s in the woman for marrying
and giving in marriage!” he said. “A bit lassie in a peenny? It’s a pity
the Duke marriet, Marg’ret, but it cannot be mended. If she’s to get a
prince he’ll come this way when she’s old enough. We’ll just wait till
that time comes.”

“The time has come for the rest, if no for her,” said Marg’ret,
unexpectedly encouraged by this tone. “And eh? if ye would but think,
they’re young things, and youth comes but ance in a lifetime, and ye can
never win it back when it’s past. The laddies, bless them, are all away
to get their share; the lassies will never get as much, but just a bit
triflin’ matter--a white gown to go to a pairty, or a sight of Glasgow,
or--”

“The woman’s daft!” said the laird. “Glasgow! what will they do there? a
white gown! a fiddlestick--what do they want that they haven’t
got--plenty of good meat, and a good roof over their heads, and nothing
to do for’t but sew their seams and knit their stockings and keep a
pleasant tongue in their heads. If ye stir up nonsense among them, I’ll
just turn ye bag and baggage out of my house.”

“I would advise ye to do that, sir,” said Marg’ret calmly. “I’ll no need
a second telling. And ye’ll be sorry but ance for what ye have done, and
that’ll be a’ your life.”

“Ye saucy jade!” said the laird: but though he glared at her with fiery
eyes, he added no more on this subject. “The lassies!” he said, “a
pingling set aye wanting something! To spend your money on feeding them
and clothing them, that’s not enough it would appear! Ye must think of
their finery, their parties and their pleasures. Tell Kirsteen she must
get a man to do that for her. She’ll have no nonsense from me.”

“And where is she to get a man? And when she has gotten a man--the only
kind that will come her gait--”

Mr. Douglas rose up from his chair, and shook his clenched first. Rage
made him dumb. He stammered out an oath or two, incapable of giving vent
to the torrent of wrath that came to his lips. But Marg’ret did not wait
till his utterances became clear.




CHAPTER VII.


This was one of the days when Mrs. Douglas thought she felt a little
better, and certainly knew it was very dull in her bed-room, where it
was not possible to keep even Kirsteen stationary all day, so she had
ventured to come down stairs after the heavy midday dinner which filled
the house with odours. A little broth, served with what was considered
great delicacy in Drumcarro in a china dish on a white napkin, had
sufficed for her small appetite; and when everything was still in the
house, in partial somnolence after the meal, she had been brought to the
parlour with all her shawls and cushions, and established by the fire.
The news of the great ball at the Castle which had moved Marg’ret to the
desperate step she had just taken had its effect in the parlour too.
Kirsteen who had said at first proudly, “What am I heeding?” had,
notwithstanding everything, begun to wake up a little to the more usual
sensations of a girl of twenty when any great event of this description
is about to take place. It would be bonny to see--it would be fine just
for once to be in grand company like the old Douglases her forbears, and
to see how the lords and ladies behaved themselves, if they were really
so different from common folk. And then Kirsteen began to think of the
music and the sound of the dancers’ feet upon the floor, in spite of
herself--and the imaginary strains went to her head. She was caught in
the measure of her dreams, swaying a little involuntarily to keep time,
and interjecting a real step, a dozen nimble twinklings of her feet in
their strong country shoes as she went across the room to fetch a new
clew for her mother’s knitting.

“What’s that you’re doing, Kirsteen, to shake the whole place?” said
Mrs. Douglas.

“Oh, it’s just nothing, mother.”

“She’s practising her steps,” said Mary, “for the grand ball.”

“Dear me, dear me,” Mrs. Douglas said. “How well I know by myself!
Many’s the time I’ve danced about the house so that nothing would keep
me still--but ye see what it all comes to. It’s just vanity and maybe
worse than vanity--and fades away like the morning dew.”

“But, mother,” said Kirsteen, “it was not your dancing nor the pleasure
you’ve had that made you ill; so we cannot say that’s what it comes to.”

“Pleasure!” said her mother. “It’s very little pleasure I have had in my
life since I marriet your father and came to this quiet place. Na, na,
it’s no pleasure--I was very light-hearted in my nature though you would
not think it. But that’s a thing that cannot last.”

“But you had it, mother,” said Mary, “even if it was short. There was
that ball you went to when you were sixteen, and the spangled muslin you
had on, and the officer that tore it with his spurs.”

Mrs. Douglas’s eyes lit up with a faint reflection of bygone fire. “Eh,
that spangled muslin,” she said, “I’ll never forget it, and what they
all said to me when I came home. It was not like the grand gowns that
are the fashion now. It was one of the last of the old mode before those
awfu’ doings at the French Revolution that changed everything. My mother
wore a hoop under her gown standing out round her like a cart-wheel. I
was not old enough for that; but there was enough muslin in my petticoat
to have made three of these bit skimpit things.”

“I just wish,” said Mary with a sigh, “that we had it now.”

“It would be clean out of the fashion if ye had it; and what would ye do
with a spangled muslin here? Ye must have parties to go to, before ye
have any need for fine cla’es.”

Mary breathed again that profound sigh. “There’s the ball at the
Castle,” she said.

“Lord keep us!” cried her mother. “Your faither would take our heads off
our shoulders if ye breathed a word of that.”

“But they say the whole country’s going,” said Kirsteen; “it’s like as
if we were just nobody to be always held back.”

“Your father thinks of nothing but the boys,” said Mrs. Douglas, with a
feeble wail; “it’s aye for them he’s planning. Ye’ll bring nothing in,
he says, and he’ll have you take little out.”

There was a pause after this--indignation was strong in Kirsteen’s
heart, but there was also a natural piety which arrested her speech. The
injustice, the humiliation and hard bondage of the iron rule under which
she had been brought up, but which she had only now begun to look upon
as anything more than the rule of nature, was what was uppermost in her
thoughts. Mary’s mind was not speculative. She did not consider
humiliation or injustice. The practical affected her more, which no
doubt was in every way a more potent argument. “I just wonder,” she
said, “that he has not more sense--for if we were away altogether we
would take nothing out--and that cannot be if nobody knows that we are
here.”

“Your father’s a strange man,” said Mrs. Douglas. “You are old enough to
see that for yourselves. When there are men coming about a house,
there’s more expense. Many’s the dinner he got off my father’s table
before he married me--and to have your lads about the house would never
please him. Many is the thought I take about it when ye think I have
nothing in my head but my own trouble. He would never put up with your
lads about the house.”

“Mother!” cried Kirsteen, with indignation, “we are not servant lasses
with men coming courting. Who would dare to speak like that of us?”

Mary laughed a little over her work. She was darning the stockings of
the household, with a large basket before her, and her hand and arm
buried in a large leg of grey-blue worsted. She did not blush as
Kirsteen did, but with a little simper accepted her mother’s suggestion.
“If we are ever to get away from here, there will have to be lads about
the house,” she said, with practical wisdom; “if we’re not to do it
Anne’s way.”

“Lord bless us, what are you saying? If your father heard you, he would
turn us all to the door,” said Mrs. Douglas, in dismay. “I’ve promised
him on my bended knees I will never name the name of that--poor thing,
poor thing,” the mother cried suddenly, with a change of voice, falling
into trembling and tears.

“I’ve heard she was real well off,” said Mary, “and a good man, and two
servant maids keepit for her. And it’s just an old fashion thinking so
much of your family. The old Douglases might be fine folk, but what did
they ever do for us?”

“Mary! hold your peace,” cried Kirsteen, flaming with scorn and wrath.
“Would ye deny your good blood, and a grand race that were as good as
kings in their day? And what have we to stand upon if it’s not them? We
would be no more than common folk.”

The conviction of Kirsteen’s indignant tones, the disdainful certainty
of being, on the natural elevation of that grand race, something very
different from common folk, over-awed the less convinced and less
visionary pair. Mrs. Douglas continued to weep, silently rocking herself
to and fro, while Mary made what explanations she could to her fiery
assailant.

“I was meaning nothing,” she said, “but just that they’re all dead and
gone, and their grandeur with them. And the fashion’s aye changing, and
folk that have plenty are more thought upon than them that have nothing,
whatever may be their name.”

“Do you think,” said Kirsteen, “if we had my mother’s old gown to cut
down for you and me, or even new gowns fresh from the shop--do you think
we would be asked to the Castle or any other place if it were not for
the old Douglases that ye jeer at? It’s not a spangled muslin but an old
name that will carry us there.”

“There’s something in that,” said Mary, cowed a little. “But,” she added
with a sigh, “as we’re not going it’s no thanks to them nor any person.
When the ladies and gentlemen are going to the ball we’ll be sitting
with our seams with one candle between us. And we may just spend our
lives so, for anything I can see--and the old Douglases will never fash
their heads.”

“Lord bless us! there’s your father!” cried Mrs. Douglas with a start,
hastily drying her eyes. Her ear was keener for that alarming sound than
the girls’, who were caught almost in the midst of their talk. The laird
came in, pushing open the door with a violent swing which was like a
gale of wind, and the suspicious silence that succeeded his entrance,
his wife having recourse to her knitting in sudden desperation, and the
daughters bending over their various tasks with devotion, betrayed in a
moment what they desired to hide from his jealous eye.

“What were ye colleaguing and planning, laying your heads together--that
you’re all so still when I come in?”

“We were planning nothing, Neil, just nothing,” said Mrs. Douglas
eagerly. “I was telling the bairns a bit of an auld story--just to pass
the time.”

“They’ll pass the time better doing their work,” said their father. He
came first to the fireside round which they were sitting, and stared
into the glowing peat with eyes almost as red: then he strode towards
the only window, and stood there shutting out the light with his back
towards them. There was not too much light at any time from that narrow
and primitive opening, and his solid person filled it up almost
entirely. Kirsteen laid down her work upon her lap. It was of a finer
kind than Mary’s, being no less than the hemming of the frills of
Drumcarro’s shirts, about which he was very particular. He had certain
aristocratic habits, if not much luxury, and the fineness of his linen
was one of these. Kirsteen’s hemming was almost invisible, so small were
the stitches and the thread so delicate. She was accomplished with her
needle according to the formula of that day.

“Drumcarro,” said his wife timidly after a few minutes of this eclipse,
“I am not wanting to disturb ye--but Kirsteen cannot see to do her
work--it’s little matter for Mary and me.”

“What ails Kirsteen that she cannot do her work?” he said roughly,
turning round but keeping his position. “Kirsteen here and Kirsteen
there, I’m sick of the name of her. She’s making some cursed nonsense
I’ll be bound for her ain back.”

“It’s for your breast, father,” said Kirsteen; “but I’ll stop if you
like, and put it by.”

He eyed her for a moment with sullen opposition, then stepped away from
the window without a word. He had an uneasy sensation that when Kirsteen
was his opponent the case did not always go his way. “A great deal ye
care, any of ye, for me and my wishes,” he said. “Who was it sent that
deevil of a woman to my own business-room, where, if any place, a man
may expect to be left in peace? No to disturb me! Ye would disturb me if
I was on my deathbed for any confounded nonsense of your ain.”

“I am sure, Drumcarro,” his wife replied, beginning to cry.

“Sure--you’re sure of nothing but what she tells ye. If it were not for
one thing more than another I would turn her out of my house.”

“Dinna do that--oh, dinna do that, if it’s Marg’ret you’re meaning,”
cried Mrs. Douglas, clasping her hands. “She’s just a stand-by for
everything about the place, and the best cook that ever was--and thinks
of your interest, Drumcarro, though maybe ye will not believe it, far
above her own. And if you take away Marg’ret I’ll just lie down and
die--for there will be no comfort more.”

“You’re very keen to die--in words; but I never see any signs in you of
keeping to it,” he said; then drawing forward a chair to the fire,
pushing against Kirsteen, who drew back hurriedly, he threw himself down
in it, in the midst of the women who moved their seats hastily on either
side to give him room. “What’s this,” he said, “about some nonsense down
at the Castle that is turning all your silly heads? and what does it
mean?”

Mrs. Douglas was too frightened to speak, and as for Kirsteen she was
very little disposed to take advantage of the milder frame of mind in
which her father seemed to be to wheedle or persuade him into a consent.

It was Mary who profited by the unusual opportunity. “It’s just the
ball, father,--that the Duke gives when he comes home.”

“The Duke,” said he. “The Duke is as auld a man as I am, and balls or
any other foolishness, honest man, I reckon they’re but little in his
way.”

“He does not do it for himself, father--there’s the young lords and
ladies that like a little diversion. And all the folk besides from far
and near--that are good enough,” Mary said adroitly. “There are some
that say he’s too particular and keeps many out.”

“Nobody can be too particular, if he’s a duke or if he’s a commoner,”
said Mr. Douglas. “A good pedigree is just your only safeguard--and not
always that,” he added after a moment, looking at her steadily. “You’ll
be one that likes a little diversion too?”

“And that I am, father,” said Mary, suddenly grown into the boldest of
the party, exhilarated and stimulated, she could scarcely tell how, by a
sentiment of success that seemed to have got into the air. Mrs. Douglas
here interposed, anxious apparently lest her daughter should go too far.

“No beyond measure, Drumcarro--just in reason, as once I liked it well
myself.”

“You,” said Drumcarro hastily, “ye were never an example. Let them speak
for themselves. I’ve heard all the story from beginning to end. They’re
weary of their life here, and they think if they went to this folly,
they might maybe each get a man to deliver them.”

“Father!” cried Kirsteen springing to her feet, with blazing eyes. To
her who knew better, who had not only the pride of her young womanhood
to make that suggestion terrible, but the secret in her heart which made
it blasphemy--there was something intolerable in the words and laugh and
jibe, which roused her mother to a wondering and tremulous confidence,
and made Mary’s heart bound with anticipated delight. But no notice was
taken of Kirsteen’s outcry. The laird’s harsh laugh drew forth a
tremulous accompaniment, which was half nervous astonishment and half a
desire to please him, from his more subservient womankind.

“Well, Drumcarro,” said his wife timidly, “it would just be the course
of nature; and I’m sure if it was men that would make them happy, it’s
no me that would ever say them nay.”

“You!” said her husband again. “Ye would not say nay to a goose if ye
saw him waddlin’ ben. It’s not to your judgment I’m meaning to trust.
What’s Kirsteen after there, with her red head and her e’en on fire? Sit
down on your chair and keep silent if ye have nothing pleasant to say.
I’m not a man for weirdless nonsense and promiscuous dancing and good
money thrown away on idle feasts and useless claes. But if there’s a
serious meaning at the bottom of it, that’s just another matter. Eelen,
I suppose, that’s in all the folly of the place, and well known to the
Duke and his family, as she has a good right to be from her name, will
understand all about it, and how to put them forth and set them out to
the best advantage. It must be well done, if it’s done at all.”

“There’s a great many things that they will want, Drumcarro; none of
mine are fit to wear, and the fashion’s all changed since my time. They
will want----”

“Oh, mother, not half what you think; I’ve my cairngorms that Aunt Mary
left me. And Kirsteen, she has a very white skin that needs nothing.
It’s just a piece of muslin for our gowns----”

“Eh, me,” said Mrs. Douglas, “when I mind all my bonny dyes, and my
pearlins and ribbons, and high-heeled shoes, and my fan as long as your
arm; and washes for my skin and cushions for my hair!” She sat up in her
chair forgetting her weakness, a colour rising in her pale cheeks, her
spirit rising to the unaccustomed delightful anticipation which was half
regret and recollection, so that for once in her life she forgot her
husband and escaped from his power. “Ah!” she exclaimed again with a
little outcry of pain, “if I had but thought upon the time I might have
lasses of my ain and keepit them for my bairns----”

“Ye may make yourself easy on that point,” said Drumcarro, pushing back
the chair he had taken, “for ye never had a thing but was rubbish,
nothing fit for a daughter of mine.”

“It’s not the case, it’s not the case,” said the poor lady, touched in
the tenderest point. “I had my mother’s garnets, as bonny a set as ever
was seen, and I had a brooch with a real diamant inside it, and a pearl
pin--and--oh, I’m no meaning to say a word to blame your father, but
what do men ken of such things? And it’s not the case! It’s not the
case! Ye’re not to believe him,” she said, with a feverish flush upon
her cheeks.

“Bits of red glass and bits of white, and a small paste head on the end
of a brass preen,” said Drumcarro, with a mocking laugh.

“Father, let her be,” cried Kirsteen. “I’ll not have her crossed, my
bonny minnie, not for all the balls that ever were.”

“You’ll not have her crossed! You’re a bonny one to lift your face to
your father. If you say another word ye shall not go.”

“I care not if I should never go--I will not have my mother vexed, not
for the Duke nor the Castle nor a’ Scotland,” cried Kirsteen, with fire
gleaming in her hazel eyes.

“Oh, ye fool, ye fool! and him for once in a good key,” cried Mary, in
her sister’s ear.




CHAPTER VIII.


Mrs. Douglas was the first to echo this prudent advice when after she
had wept away the sting of that atrocious accusation and minutely
described her “bonny dyes” (her pretty things) to her children who,
indeed, had heard all about them often, and knew the pearl pin and the
garnets by heart, and had been comforted with a cup of tea, she came to
herself. And by that time Kirsteen’s indignation too had cooled, and
thoughts of the heaven of the Castle, with fine ladies and grand
gentlemen pacing forth as in the ballads, and music playing and the
sound of the dancers’ feet, began to buzz in her young head and fill it
with longings. If he had been at home he would have been there. It would
never now be what it might have been had it happened before. But even
with that great blank of absence Kirsteen was but twenty, and her heart
did not refuse to throb a little at this unthought of, unhoped for
prospect. Just to see it, and how great persons behaved, and what like
the world was, when you were in it, that world which represents itself
in so many different ways to the youthful imagination. Kirsteen felt
that at the Castle she would see it in all its glory, nothing better in
the King’s own court--for was it not under the shadow of the Duke, and
what could fancy desire more? She would need no further enlightenment or
experience of the aspect of society, and what it was and how it looked,
than she could get there. This was the Highland girl’s devout belief;
_Vedi Napoli e poi morire_; earth could not have anything to show more
fair.

Marg’ret would have been more than a woman had she not been all-glorious
over this event “I just daured him to do it,” she said, “to let the
occasion pass by and nane of his daughters seen, and a’ their chances
lost.”

“Did ye speak of chances for me?” cried Kirsteen in youthful fury. “Me
that would not look at one of them, if it was the prince out of the
story book. Me that--!” She turned away to dash a hot tear from her
dazzling wet eyes--“me that am waiting for him!” Kirsteen said in her
heart.

Her faithful champion looked at her with anxious eyes. “If she would but
say that’s what she’s meaning,” was Marg’ret’s commentary. “Eh, I wonder
if that’s what she’s meaning? but when neither the ane nor the ither
says a word, how is a person to ken?” It slightly overclouded her
triumph to think that perhaps for her favourite the chances were all
forestalled, and even that trouble might come out of it if somebody
should throw the handkerchief at Kirsteen whom her father approved. The
cold chill of such an alarm not seldom comes across the designer of
future events when all has been carefully arranged to quicken the action
of Providence. But Marg’ret put that discouraging alarm hastily out of
her mind. Right or wrong it was always a good thing that her nurslings
should see the world.

When the roll of white muslin arrived that was to make the famous gowns,
and when Miss Macnab (who was not without claims in some far-away manner
to be connected with a family in as near as the tenth remove from the
Laird of Macnab’s own sovereign race) came over with her little valise,
and her _nécessaire_ full of pins and needles, and was put into the best
room, and became for the time the centre of interest in the
household--Marg’ret could scarcely contain herself for pleasure. “A’ the
hoose” with the exception of the boys, who at this stage of their
development counted for little, snatched every available moment to look
in upon Miss Macnab--who sat in state, with a large table covered with
cuttings, and two handmaids at least always docile beside her, running
up gores or laying hems. It might be thought, indeed, that the fashion
of that time required no great amount of labour in the construction of
two white dresses for a pair of girls. But Miss Macnab was of a
different opinion. She did not know, indeed, the amount of draping and
arranging, the skill of the artist in the fine hanging of folded stuffs,
or even the multitudinous flouncings of an intermediate age into which
the art of dress was to progress.

The fashions of 1814 look like simplicity itself; the long, straight,
narrow skirt, the short waist, the infantile sleeves, would seem to
demand little material and less trouble for their simple arrangement.
But no doubt this was more in appearance than in reality, and the mind
of the artist is always the same whatever his materials may be.

Miss Macnab kept the young ladies under hand for hours fitting every
line--not folds, for folds there were none--so that the skirt might
cling sufficiently without affording too distinct a revelation of the
limbs beneath, an art perhaps as difficult as any of the more modern
contrivances.

Mary stood like a statue under the dressmaker’s hands. She was never
weary; so long as there was a pleat or seam that needed correction, a
pinch too little here, a fulness too much there, she was always ready.
The white gown was moulded upon her with something like a sculptor’s
art. Miss Macnab, with her mouth full of pins, and her fingers seamed
with work, pinned and pulled, and stretched out and drew in, with
endless perseverance. She was an artist in her way. It was terrible to
her, as a mistake on the field of battle to a general, to send forth
into the world a gown that did not fit, a pucker or a twist in any
garment she made. There are no Miss Macnabs nowadays, domestic
professors of the most primitive yet everlasting of arts. The trouble
she took over her composition would tire out a whole generation of
needlewomen, and few girls even for a first ball would stand like Mary
to be manipulated. And there is no such muslin now as the fine and
fairy web, like the most delicate lawn, which was the material of those
wonderful gowns, and little workmanship so delicate as that which put
together the long seams, and made invisible hems round the scanty but
elaborate robe.

Kirsteen, who was not so patient as her sister, looked on with a mixture
of contempt and admiration. It did not, to her young mind and thoughts
occupied with a hundred varying interests, seem possible at first to
give up all that time to the perfection even of a ball-dress. But
presently the old seamstress with her devotion to her art began to
impress the open-minded girl. It was not a very rich living which Miss
Macnab derived from all this labour and care. To see her kneeling upon
her rheumatic knees, directing the easy fall of the soft muslin line to
the foot which ought to peep from underneath without deranging the
exactness of the delicate hem, was a wonder to behold. A rivulet of pins
ran down the seam, and Miss Macnab’s face was grave and careful as if
the destinies of a kingdom were upon that muslin line.

“What trouble you are taking!” cried Kirsteen. “And it’s not as if it
were silk or velvet but just a muslin gown.”

Miss Macnab looked up from where she knelt by Mary’s knee. She had to
take the pins out of her mouth before she could speak, which was
inconvenient, for no pincushion is ever so handy. “Missie,” she said,
“my dear, ye just show your ignorance: for there’s nothing so hard to
take a good set as a fine muslin; and the maist difficult is aye the
maist particular, as ye would soon learn if ye gave yoursel’ to any
airt.”

Kirsteen, who knew very little of any art, but thought it meant painting
pictures, here gave vent, to her own shame afterwards, to a little
laugh, and said hastily, “I would just set it straight and sew it up
again if it was me.”

“I have no objection that ye should try,” said Miss Macnab, rising from
her knees, “it’s aye the best lesson. When I was in a lairger way of
business, with young ones working under me, I aye let them try their ain
way; and maistly I found they were well content after to turn to
mine--that is if they were worth the learning,” she added composedly;
“there are many that are just a waste of time and pains.”

“And these are the ones that take their own way? But if I were to take
mine I would never yield, I would make it answer,” said Kirsteen. She
added with a blush, “I just cannot think enough of all your trouble and
the pains ye take.”

Miss Macnab gave the blushing girl a friendly look. She had again her
mouth full, so that speech was impossible, but she nodded kindly and
with dignity in return for this little burst of approval which she knew
to be her due; and it was with all the confidence of conscious merit and
a benign condescension that she expounded her methods afterwards. “If ye
dinna get the skirt to fall straight from the waist, ye will never mend
it at the foot,” she said. “I can see you’re ane that can comprehend a
principle, my bonnie missie. Take a’ the trouble ye can at the
beginning, and the end will come right of itsel’. A careless start means
a double vexation in the finish. And that ye’ll find to apply,” said
this mild philosopher, “to life itsel’ as well as to the dressmaking,
which is just like a’ the airts I ever heard tell of, a kind of epitome
of life.”

Kirsteen could not but break out into a laugh again, notwithstanding her
compunction, at the dressmaker’s high yet mild pretension; but she
listened with great interest while Mary stood and gave all her thoughts
to the serious subject of the skirt and how it would hang. “I just pay
no attention to what she’s saying, but I would like my gown to hang as
well as any there, and you must take trouble for that,” was Mary’s
report afterwards when the gown was found to be perfect. And what with
these differing motives and experiences the workroom was the opening of
new interests in Drumcarro, as important as even the ball at the Castle.
The excitement and continued interest made the greatest improvement in
Mrs. Douglas’s health, who came and sat in Miss Macnab’s room and gave a
hundred directions which the dressmaker received blandly but paid no
attention to. Marg’ret herself was stirred by the presence of the
artist. She not only excelled herself in the scones she made for Miss
Macnab’s tea, but she would come in the afternoon when she was not
“throng” and stand with her hands upon each side of her ample waist and
admire the work and add no insignificant part to the conversation,
discoursing of her own sister, Miss Jean Brown, that was in a very large
way of business in London, having gone there as a lady’s maid twenty
years before. The well-born Miss Macnab allowed with a condescending
wave of her hand that many began in that way. “But my opinion is that it
wants good blood in your veins and a leddy’s breeding before you’ll ever
make a gown that will set off a leddy,” she said to the little circle,
but only, not to hurt her feelings, after Marg’ret was gone.

While these proceedings were occupying all his family, Drumcarro himself
proceeded with the practical energy which hitherto had only been
exercised on behalf of his sons to arrange for his daughters’
presentation to the world. More exciting to the county than a first
drawing-room of the most splendid season was the ball at the Castle
which was by far the finest thing that many of the Argyllshire ladies of
those days ever saw. Even among those who like the family of Drumcarro
owned no clan allegiance to the Duke, the only way of approaching the
_beau monde_, the great world which included London and the court as
well as the Highlands was by his means. The Duke in his own country was
scarcely second to the far off and unknown King whose throne was
shrouded in such clouds of dismay and trouble, and the Duchess was in
all but name a far more splendid reality than the old and peevish
majesty, without beauty or prestige, who sat in sullen misery at
Windsor. To go to London, or even to Edinburgh, to the Lord High
Commissioner’s receptions at Holyrood, was a daring enterprise that
nobody dreamed of; but to go to the Castle was the seal of good blood
and breeding. When he had got this notion into his head Drumcarro was as
determined upon it as the fondest father could have been. The girls were
of no consequence, but his daughters had their rights with the best, and
he would not have the family let down even in their insignificant
persons; not to speak of the powerful suggestion of relieving himself
from further responsibility by putting them each in the way of finding
“a man.”

He made his appearance accordingly one afternoon in the little house
inhabited by Miss Eelen, to the great surprise of that lady. It was a
very small, gray house, standing at a corner of the village street, with
a small garden round it, presenting a curious blank and one-eyed aspect,
from the fact that every window that could be spared, and they were not
abundant to start with, had been blocked up on account of the
window-tax. Miss Eelen’s parlour was dark in consequence, though it had
originally been very bright, with a corner window towards the loch and
the quay with all its fishing-boats. This, however, was completely built
up, and the prospect thus confined to the street and the merchant’s
opposite--a little huckster’s shop in which everything was sold from
needles to ploughshares. Miss Eelen was fond of this window, it was so
cheerful; and it was true that nobody could escape her who went to
Robert Duncan’s--the children who had more pennies to spend than was
good for them, or the servant girls who went surreptitiously with
bottles underneath their aprons. Miss Eelen kept a very sharp eye upon
all the movements of the town, but even she acknowledged the drowsiness
that comes after dinner, and sat in her big chair near the fire with her
back turned to the window, “her stocking” in her lap, and her eyes, as
she would have described it, “gathering straes,” when Mr. Douglas paid
her that visit. Her cat sat on a footstool on the other side,
majestically curling her tail around her person, and winking at the fire
like her mistress. The peats were burning with their fervent flameless
glow, and comfort was diffused over the scene. When Drumcarro came in
Miss Eelen started and instinctively put up her hands to her cap, which
in these circumstances had a way of getting awry.

“Bless me, Drumcarro! is this you?”

“It’s just me,” he said.

“I hope they’re all well?”

“Very well, I am obliged to you. I just came in to say a word about--the
Castle--”

“What about the Castle?” with astonished eyes.

“I was meaning this nonsense that’s coming on--the ball,” said Mr.
Douglas, with an effort. A certain shamefacedness appeared on his hard
countenance--something like a blush, if that were a thing possible to
conceive.

“The ball? Bless us all! have ye taken leave of your senses, Neil?”

“Why should I take leave of my senses? I’m informed that the haill
country--everybody that’s worth calling gentry will be going. You’re
hand and glove with all the clanjamfry. Is that true?”

“Who you may mean by ‘clanjamfry’ I cannot say. If you mean that his
Grace and her Grace are just bye ordinary pleasant, and the young lords
and ladies aye running out and in--no for what I have to give them, as
is easy to be seen--”

“I’m not surprised,” said Drumcarro; “one of the old Douglas family
before the attainder was as good as any one of their new-fangled dukes.”

“He’s no’ a new-fangled duke, as you know well; and as for the Douglas
family, it is neither here nor there. Ye were saying ye had received
information?” Miss Eelen divined her kinsman’s errand, though it
surprised her, but she would not help him out.

“Just that,” said Drumcarro; “I hear there’s none left out that are of a
good stock. Now I’m not a man for entertainment, or any of your nonsense
of music and dancing, nor ever was. I have had too much to do in my
life. But I’m told it will be a slight to the name if there’s none goes
from Drumcarro. Ye know what my wife is--a complaining creature with no
spirit to say what’s to be done, or what’s not--”

“Spirit!” cried Miss Eelen. “Na, she never had the spirit to stand up
to the like of you: but, my word, you would soon have broken it if she
had.”

“I’m not here,” said Mr. Douglas, “to get any enlightenment on her
character or mine. I’ve always thought ye a sensible woman, Eelen, even
though we do not always agree. They tell me it’ll be like a scorn put
upon Drumcarro if the lasses are not at this ploy. Confound them a’ and
their meddling, and the fools that make feasts, and the idiots that
yammer and talk! I’ve come to you to see what you think. There shall
come no scorn on Drumcarro while I’m to the fore.”

“Well, Neil, if you ask me,” said Miss Eelen, “I would have taken the
first word, and given ye my opinion if I had thought it would be of any
use; but it’s just heaven’s truth; and farewell to the credit of
Drumcarro when it’s kent there are two young women, marriageable and at
an age to come forward, and not there. It is just the truth. It will be
said--for that matter it is said already--that ye’re so poor or so mean
that ye grudge the poor things a decent gown, and keep them out of every
chance. I would not have said a word if you had not asked me, but that’s
just what folk say.”

Drumcarro got up hastily from his chair and paced about the room, and he
swore an oath or two below his breath that relieved his feelings. There
was a great deal more in Miss Eelen’s eyes. The “auld slave-driver” knew
that his name did not stand high among his peers, and his imagination
was keen enough to supply the details of the gossip of which his cousin
gave so pleasant a summary. “Ye may tell them then,” he said, “with many
thanks to you for your candid opinion, that Drumcarro’s lassies, when he
pleases, can just show with the best, and that I’ll thole no slight to
my name, any more than I would were I chief of this whole country as my
forbears were. And that’s what ye can tell your gossips, Eelen, the next
time ye ask them to a dish of tea--no’ to say you’re a Douglas yourself
and should have more regard for your own flesh and blood.”

“Bless me!” cried Miss Eelen, “the man’s just like a tempest, up in a
moment. Na, Drumcarro, I always gave ye credit if but your pride was
touched. And it’s just what I would have wished, for I was keen for a
sight of the ploy mysel’ but too old to go for my own pleasure. You will
just send them and their finery over to me in the gig, and I’ll see to
all the rest. Bless me, to think of the feeling that comes out when ye
least expect it. I was aye convinced that if once your pride was
touched. And who knows what may come of it? There’s plenty of grand
visitors at the Castle--a sight of them’s as good as a king’s court”

“I hope a man will come of it, to one or the other of them,” Drumcarro
said.




CHAPTER IX.


Mr. Douglas himself went to the ball at the Castle. He was of opinion
that when a thing is to be done, it is never so well done as when you do
it in your own person, and like most other people of similar sentiments,
he trusted nobody. Miss Eelen, as one of the race, was no doubt on the
whole in the interests of the family, but Drumcarro felt that even she
was not to be trusted with so delicate a matter as the securing of “a
man” for Mary or Kirsteen. It was better that he should be on the spot
himself to strike when the iron was hot, and let no opportunity slip. It
is true that his costume was far from being in the latest fashion; but
to this he was supremely indifferent, scarcely taking it into the most
cursory consideration. If he went in sackcloth he would no less be a
Douglas, the representative of the old line upon whose pedigree there
was neither shadow nor break. He was very confident that he could not
appear anywhere without an instant recognition of his claims. Those of
the Duke himself were in no way superior: that potentate was richer, he
had the luck to have always been on the winning side, and had secured
titles and honours when the Douglases had attainder and
confiscation--but Douglas was Douglas when the Duke’s first forbear was
but a paidling lairdie with not a dozen men to his name. Such at least
was the conviction of Drumcarro; and he marched to the Castle in his one
pair of black silk stockings--with his narrow country notions strangely
crossed by the traditions of the slave-driving period, with all his
intense narrow personal ambitions and grudges, and not an idea beyond
the aggrandisement of his family--in the full consciousness of equality
(if not superiority) to the best there, the statesman Duke, the great
landowners and personages who had come from far and near. Such a
conviction sometimes gives great nobleness and dignity to the simple
mind, but Drumcarro’s pride was not of this elevating kind. It made him
shoulder his way to the front with rising rage against all the
insignificant crowd that got before him, jostle as he might; it did not
give him the consolatory assurance that where he was, there must be the
most dignified place. It must be allowed, however, in defence of his
attitude, that to feel yourself thrust aside into a crowd of nobodies
when you know your place to be with the best, is trying. Some people
succeed in bearing it with a smile, but the smile is seldom warm or of a
genial character. And Drumcarro, at the bottom of the room, struggling
to get forward, seeing the fine company at the other end, and
invariably, persistently, he scarcely knew how, put back among the
crowd, was not capable of that superlative amiability. The surprise of
it partially subdued him for a time, and Miss Eelen’s exertions, who got
him by the arm, and endeavoured to make him hear reason.

“Drumcarro! bless the man--can ye not be content where ye are? Yon’s
just the visitors, chiefly from England and foreign parts--earls and
dukes, and such like.”

“Confound the earls and the dukes! what’s their titles and their
visitors to me? The Douglases have held their own and more for as many
hundred years----”

“Whisht, whisht, for mercy’s sake! Lord, ye’ll have all the folk staring
as if we were some ferly. Everybody knows who the Douglases were; but
man, mind the way of the world that ye are just as much affected by as
any person. Riches and titles take the crown of the causeway. We have to
put up with it whether we like it or no. You’re fond of money and
moneyed folk yourself----”

“Haud your fuilish tongue, ye know nothing about it,” said Drumcarro.
But then he felt that he had gone too far. “I’m so used to my wife I
forget who I’m speaking to. You’ll excuse me, Eelen?”

“The Lord be praised I’m not your wife,” said Miss Eelen devoutly. She
added, perceiving a vacant chair a little higher up near the edge of the
privileged line, “I see my harbour, Drumcarro, and there I’ll go, but no
further;” and with an able dive through the throng and long experience
of the best methods, managed adroitly to settle herself there. She
caught by the elbow as she made her dart a gentleman who stood by, a man
with grey hair still dressed in a black silk bag in the old-fashioned
way which was no longer the mode. “Glendochart,” she said, “one word.
I’m wanting your help; you were always on the Douglas’ side.”

“Miss Eelen?” he cried with a little surprise, turning round. He was a
man between fifty and sixty, with a fresh colour and gentle, friendly
air, much better dressed and set up than Drumcarro, but yet with
something of the look of a man more accustomed to the hill-side and the
moor than to the world.

“For gudesake look to my cousin Neil, of Drumcarro; he’s just like a mad
bull raging to be in the front of everything. Auld Earl Douglas, our
great forbear, was naething to him for pride. He will just shame us all
before the Duke and Duchess and their grand visitors, if some one will
not interfere.”

The gentleman thus appealed to turned round quickly with a glance at the
two girls, who with difficulty, and a little breathless and blushing
with excitement, had emerged out of the crowd behind Miss Eelen, less
skilled in making their way than she. “These young ladies,” he said,
“are with you? they’ll be----”

“Just Drumcarro’s daughters, and the first time they’ve ever been seen
out of their own house. But yonder’s their father making everybody
stand about. For ainy sake, Glendochart.”

“I’ll do your bidding, Miss Eelen.”

The girls both thought, as his look dwelt upon them, that he was a most
kind and pleasant old gentleman, and sighed with a thought that life
would be far easier and everything more practicable if their father was
but such another. But alas, that was past praying for. They had a little
more space now that they had gained this comparative haven at the side
of Miss Eelen’s chair to take breath and look about them, and shake
themselves free of the crowd.

The muslin gowns had been very successful; the skirts fell in a straight
line from the waistband high under their arms to their feet, one with a
little edge of fine white embroidery, the other with a frill scarcely to
be called a flounce round the foot. The bodices were no longer than a
baby’s cut in a modest round with a little tucker of lace against the
warm whiteness of the bosom: the sleeves were formed of little puffs of
muslin also like a baby’s. Mary wore her necklace of cairngorms with
much pride. Kirsteen had nothing upon her milkwhite throat to ornament
or conceal it. Nothing could have been whiter than her throat, with the
soft warmth of life just tinging its purity; her red hair, which goes so
well with that warm whiteness, was done up in what was called a classic
knot at the back of her head, but there were some little curls which
would not be gainsaid about her forehead and behind her ear. Her arms
were covered with long silk gloves drawn up to meet the short sleeves.
She was in a great tremor of excited imagination and expected pleasure.
She was not thinking of partners indeed, nor of performing at all in her
own person. She had come to see the world--to see the fine ladies and
gentlemen, to hear some of their beautiful talk perhaps, and watch the
exquisite way in which they would behave themselves. This was the chief
preoccupation of her mind. She looked round her as if it had been “the
play.” Kirsteen knew nothing at all of the play, and had been brought up
to believe that it was a most depraved and depraving entertainment, but
still there had never been any doubt expressed of its enthralling
character. The ball she had decided from the first day it had been
mentioned, would be as good as going to the play.

Miss Eelen very soon found an old lady sitting near with whom she could
talk, but Mary and Kirsteen stood together looking out upon the faces
and the moving figures and speaking to no one. They scarcely cared to
talk to each other, which they could do, they both reflected, very well
at home. They stood pressing close to each other, and watched all the
coming and going. In the position which they had gained they could see
all the sets, the great people at the head of the room, the humbler ones
below. Kirsteen had an advantage over her sister. She had met Lady
Chatty several times at Miss Eelen’s and had admired her, half for
herself, half for her position, which had a romantic side very
delightful to her simple imagination. “That’s Lady Chatty,” she
whispered to Mary, proud of her superior knowledge. “I don’t think much
of her,” said Mary, whispering back again. This gave Kirsteen a shock in
the perfect pleasure with which she watched the graceful movements and
animated looks of the future beauty. She had felt a disinterested
delight in following the other girl through her dance, admiring how
happy she looked and how bright; but Mary’s criticism had a chilling
effect.

A long time passed thus, and Kirsteen began to feel tired in spite of
herself; the pleasure of watching a room full of animated dancers very
soon palls at twenty. Her expectation of pleasure gradually died away.
It was very bonny, but not the delight she had thought. Mary stood with
a smile which had never varied since they entered the room, determined
to look pleased whatever happened--but Kirsteen was not able to keep up
to that level. If _he_ had but been here! then indeed all things would
have been different. It gave her a singular consolation to think of
this, to feel that it was in some sort a pledge of her belonging to him
that she was only a spectator in the place where he was not; but she was
too sensible not to be aware that her consolation was a fantastic one,
and that she would in fact have been pleased to dance and enjoy herself.
She and her sister were pushed a little higher up by the pressure of the
crowd which formed a fringe round the room, and which consisted of a
great many young men too timid to break into the central space where the
fine people were performing, and of tired and impatient girls who could
not dance till they were asked. Somehow it began to look all very
foolish to Kirsteen, not beautiful as she had hoped.

And then by ill luck she overheard the chatter of a little party
belonging to the house. It was the kind of chatter which no doubt
existed and was freely used at the balls given by the Pharaohs (if they
gave balls), or by Pericles, or at least by Charlemagne. “Where do all
these funny people come from?” “Out of the ark, I should think,” the
young lords and ladies said. “Antediluvian certainly--look, here is a
pair of very strange beasts.” The pair in question seemed to Kirsteen a
very pretty couple. The young man a little flushed and blushing at his
own daring, the girl, yes! there could be no doubt, Agnes Drummond,
Ronald’s sister, of as good family as any in the room. But the young
ladies and gentlemen from London laughed “consumedly.” “Her gown must
have been made in the year one.” “And no doubt that’s the coat his
grandfather was married in.” But all their impertinences were brought to
a climax by Lord John, one of the family, who ought to have known
better. “Don’t you know,” he said, “it’s my mother’s menagerie? We have
the natives once a year and make ’em dance. Wait a little till they warm
to it, and then you shall see what you shall see.” Kirsteen turned and
flashed a passionate glance at the young speaker, which made him step
backwards and blush all over his foolish young face; for to be sure he
had only been beguiled into saying what the poor young man thought was
clever, and did not mean it. Kirsteen’s bosom swelled with pride and
scorn and injured feeling. And she had thought everybody would be kind!
and she had thought it would all be so bonny! And to think of a
menagerie and the natives making a show for these strangers to see!

“Miss Kirsteen, there is a new set making up, and your sister would be
glad of you for a _vees-ā-vis_ if ye will not refuse an old man for a
partner.” Kirsteen looked round and met the pleasant eyes, still bright
enough, of Glendochart, whom Miss Eelen had bidden to look after the
indignant Drumcarro. Kirsteen looked every inch Drumcarro’s daughter as
she turned round, an angry flush on her face, and her eyes shining with
angry tears.

“I will not dance. I am obliged to you, sir,” she said.

“Not dance,” said Mary, in an indignant whisper, “when we’re both asked!
And what would ye have? We cannot all have young men.”

“I will not dance--to make sport for the fine folk,” said Kirsteen in
the same tone.

“You are just like my father,” said Mary, “spoiling other folks’
pleasure. Will ye come or will ye not, and the gentleman waiting--and me
that cannot if you will not.”

“Come, my dear,” said old Glendochart. He patted her hand as he drew it
through his arm. “I have known your father and all your friends this
fifty years, and ye must not refuse an old man.”

Neither of the girls were very much at their ease in the quadrille, but
they watched the first dancers with anxious attention, and followed
their example with the correctness of a lesson just received. Kirsteen,
though she began very reluctantly, was soothed in spite of herself by
the music and the measure, and the satisfaction of having a share in
what was going on. She forgot for a moment the gibes she had listened to
with such indignation. A quadrille is a very humdrum performance
nowadays to those who know nothing so delightful as the wild monotony of
the round dance. But in Kirsteen’s time the quadrille was still
comparatively new, and very “genteel.” It was an almost solemn
satisfaction to have got successfully through it, and her old partner
was very kind and took her out to the tea-room afterwards with the
greatest attention, pointing out to her the long vista of the corridor
and some of the pictures on the walls, and everything that was worth
seeing. They were met as they came back by a very fine gentleman with a
riband and a star, who stopped to speak to her companion, and at whom
Kirsteen looked with awe. “And who may this bonny lass be?” the great
man said. “A daughter of yours, Glendochart?”

“No daughter of mine,” said the old gentleman in a testy tone. “I
thought your Grace was aware I was the one of your clan that had not
married. The young lady is Miss Kirsteen Douglas, a daughter of
Drumcarro.”

“I beg your--her pardon and yours; I ought to have known better,” said
the Duke. “But you must remember, Glendochart, when you are in such fair
company, that it is never too late to mend.”

“He should indeed have known better,” said Glendochart, when they had
passed on. “These great folk, Miss Kirsteen, they cannot even take the
trouble to mind--which kings do, they say, who have more to think of.
And yet one would think my story is not a thing to forget. Did you ever
hear how it was that John Campbell of Glendochart was a lone auld
bachelor? It’s not a tale for a ball-room, but there’s something in your
pretty eyes that makes me fain to tell.”

“Oh, it is little I care for the ball-room,” cried Kirsteen, remembering
her grievance, which she told with something of the fire and indignation
of her original feeling. He laughed softly, and shook his head.

“Never you fash your head about such folly. When my Lord John goes to
St. James’s the men of fashion and their ladies will say much the same
of him, and you will be well avenged.”

“It’s very childish to think of it at all,” said Kirsteen, with a blush.
“And now will you tell me?” She looked up into his face with a sweet and
serious attention which bewitched the old gentleman, who was not old at
all.

“I was away with my regiment on the continent of Europe and in the
Colonies and other places for many years, when I was a young man,”
Glendochart said.

“Yes?” said Kirsteen, with profoundest interest--for was not that the
only prospect before _him_ too?

“But all the time I was confident there was one waiting for me at home.”

“Oh, yes, yes,” said Kirsteen, as if it had been her own tale.

“The news from the army was slow in those days, and there was many a
mistake. Word was sent home that I was killed when I was but badly
wounded. I had neither father nor mother to inquire closely, and
everybody believed it, and she too. I believe her friends were glad on
the whole, for I was a poor match for her. Her heart was nearly broke,
but she was very young and she got over it, and, whether with her own
will or without it I cannot tell, but when I came home at last it was
her wedding-day.”

“Oh!” Kirsteen cried almost with a shriek, “was that the end of her
waiting? Me, I would have waited and waited on----”

“Wait now and ye will hear. The marriage was just over when I came to
her father’s house thinking no evil. And we met; and when she saw me,
and that I was a living man, and remembered the ring that was on her
finger and that she was another man’s wife--she went into her own
maiden chamber that she had never left and shut to the door. And there
she just died, and never spoke another word.”

“Oh, Glendochart!” cried Kirsteen with an anguish of sympathy, thinking
of Ronald, and of the poor dead bride, and of the sorrow which seemed to
her throbbing heart impossible, as if anything so cruel could not have
been. She clasped his arm with both her hands, looking up at him with
all her heart in her face.

“My bonny dear!” he said with surprised emotion, touching her clasped
hands with his. And then he began to talk of other things: for they were
in the ball-room, where, though every one was absorbed in his or her own
pleasure, or else bitterly resenting the absence of the pleasure they
expected, yet there were a hundred eyes on the watch for any incident.
Kirsteen, in the warmth of her roused feelings, thought nothing of that.
She was thinking of the other who was away with his regiment, for who
could tell how many years--and for whom one was waiting at home--one
that would never put another in his place, no, not for a moment, not
whatever news might come!




CHAPTER X.


“It was just a very bonny ball,” said Mary. “No, I was not disappointed
at all. I danced with young Mr. Campbell of the Haigh, and once with old
Glendochart, who is a very well-mannered man, though he is not so young
as once he was.”

“He was by far, and by far, the nicest there,” cried Kirsteen with
enthusiasm.

“For them that like an auld joe,” said Mary demurely. Kirsteen had no
thought of “joes” old or young, but she thought with pleasure that she
had gained a friend.

“The Duke took me for his daughter--and oh! if there was such a person
she would be a happy lass. Aunt Eelen, did you ever hear----”

Kirsteen cast a glance round and checked further question, for her
father consuming a delicate Loch Fyne herring, with his attention
concentrated on his plate, and Mary seated primly smiling over her
scone, were not at all in sympathy with the tale she had been told last
night. Miss Eelen, with the tray before her on which stood the teapot
and teacups, peering into each to count the lumps of sugar she had
placed there, did not appear much more congenial, though there were
moments when the old lady showed a romantic side. No trace of the turban
and feathers of last night was on her venerable head. She wore a muslin
mutch, fine but not much different from those of the old wives in the
cottages, with a broad black ribbon round it tied in a large bow on the
top of her head; and her shoulders were enveloped in a warm tartan shawl
pinned at the neck with a silver brooch. The fringes of the shawl had a
way of getting entangled in the tray, and swept the teaspoons to the
ground when she made an incautious movement; but nothing would induce
Miss Eelen to resign the tea-making into younger hands.

“Did I ever hear?” she said. “I would like to know, Kirsteen Douglas,
what it is I havena heard in my long pilgrimage of nigh upon seventy
years. But there’s a time for everything. If ye ask me at another moment
I’ll tell ye the whole story. Is it you, Drumcarro, that takes no sugar
in your tea? No doubt you’ve had plenty in your time in yon dreadful
West Indies where you were so long.”

“What’s dreadful about them?” said Drumcarro. “It’s ignorance that makes
ye say so. Ye would think ye were in paradise if ye were there.”

“Oh, never with all those meeserable slaves!”

“You’re just a set of idiots with your prejudices,” said the laird, who
had finished his herrings and pushed away his plate. “Slaves, quo’ she!
There’s few of them would change places, I can tell ye, with your
crofters and such like that ye call free men.”

“Ye were looking for something, father,” said Mary.

“I’m looking for that mutton bone,” said her father. “Fish is a fine
thing; but there’s nothing like a bit of butcher’s meat to begin the day
upon.”

“It’s my ain curing,” said Miss Eelen. “Ye can scarcely call it
butcher’s meat, and it’s just a leg of one of your own sheep, Drumcarro.
Cry upon the lassie, Kirsteen, and she’ll bring it ben in a moment.
We’re so used to womenfolk in this house, we just forget a man’s
appetite. I can recommend the eggs, for they’re all our own laying.
Two-three hens just makes all the difference in a house; ye never
perceive their feeding, and there’s aye a fresh egg for an occasion. And
so you were pleased with your ball? I’m glad of it, for it’s often not
the case when lassies are young and have no acquaintance with the world.
They expect ower much. They think they’re to get all the attention like
the heroines in thae foolish story-books. But that’s a delusion that
soon passes away. And then you’re thankful for what you get, which is a
far more wholesome frame of mind.”

Kirsteen assented to this with a grave face, and a little sigh for the
beautiful visions of ideal pleasure which she had lost.

But Mary bridled, and declared that all her expectations had been
fulfilled. “I got a great deal of attention,” she said, “and perhaps I
had not such grand fancies as other folk.”

“I have bidden Glendochart to come and see us at Drumcarro. Ye’ll have
to see to the spare cha’amer, and that he gets a good dinner,” said Mr.
Douglas. “Him and me we have many things in common. He’s one of the best
of his name, with a good record behind him--not to match with our auld
Douglas line, but nothing to snuff at, and not far off the head of the
house himsel’.”

“You would be at the school together, Drumcarro,” Miss Eelen said.

“No such a thing--he’s twenty years younger than me,” said Mr. Douglas
angrily. “And I was at no schule, here or there, as ye might well mind.”

“Twenty years! If there’s ten between ye that’s the most of it. There’s
no ten between ye. When I was a young lass in my teens John Campbell was
a bit toddling bairn, and ye were little mair, Drumcarro. Na, na, ye
need not tell me. If there’s five, that’s the most. Ye might have been
at the schule together and nothing out of the common. But he’s had none
of the cares of a family, though maybe he has had as bad to bear; and a
man that is not marriet has aye a younger look. I ken not why, for with
women it’s just the contrair.”

“Mr. Campbell is a very personable man,” said Mary. “I’m no judge of
ages, but I would say he was just in middle life.”

“It’s but little consequence what you say,” said her father roughly.
“If Kirsteen was to express an opinion----”

Kirsteen’s mind had a little wandered during this discussion.
Glendochart’s age appeared to this young woman a subject quite
unimportant. He was of the age of all the fathers and old friends. Had
she been a modern girl she would have said he was a darling, but no such
liberties were taken in her day.

“And that I will,” she said, “for we made friends though I’ve only seen
him one night. He is just a man after my own heart,” said Kirsteen with
warmth, with a sigh at the thought of his sad story, and a rising colour
which was due to the fact that her imagination had linked the idea of
young Ronald with that of this old and delightful gentleman who had been
what her young lover was--but born to a less happy fate.

“Well,” said Drumcarro, “now ye’ve spoken, Kirsteen, ye’ve made no
secret of your feelings; and, so far as I can judge, he has just as fine
an opinion of you. And if you give your attention to making him
comfortable and let him see the mettle you’re of, there is no saying
what may happen. And it’s not me that will put obstacles in the way.”

“Drumcarro,” cried Miss Eelen, “ye get credit for sense among your own
kind, but if ever there was a donnered auld fool in affairs of a certain
description! Cannot ye hold your tongue, man, and let things take their
course? They will do that without either you or me.”

Mr. Douglas had disposed of a great deal of the mutton ham. He had made
a very good breakfast, and he felt himself free to retire from the table
with a final volley. “If you think,” he said, “that I am going to give
up my mind to manage, as you womenfolks call it, and bring a thing
about, and draw on the man and fleech the lassie, ye are just sair
mistaken, Eelen. When I say a word in my house I’m accustomed to see it
done, and no nonsense about it. If a man comes seeking that I approve
of, it’s my pleasure that he shall find what he’s askin’ for. I’ll have
no picking and choosing. Men are no so plenty, and lassies are just a
drug in the market. You have never got a man yourself.”

“The Lord be praised!” said Miss Eelen. “I would have broken his heart,
or he would have broken mine. But I’ve kent them that would have married
me, Neil Douglas, if it was for me or for my tocher I leave you to
judge. I’m thankful to think I was never deceived for a moment,” said
the old lady with a nod which sent the black bow upon her head into a
little convulsion of tremulous movement. “I name nae names,” she said.

Drumcarro walked to the window discomfited, and turned his back upon the
party, looking out upon the village street. To tell the truth he had
forgotten that trifling incident in his life. To taunt a woman who has
refused you with never having got a man is a little embarrassing, and
his daughters exchanged astonished looks which he divined, though it
took place behind his back. Their opinion did not interest him much, it
is true, but the thought that they had discovered a humiliation in his
past life filled him with rage, insignificant as they were. He stood
there for a moment swallowing his fury; then, “There’s the gig,” he
said, thankful for the diversion. “Ye’ll better get on your things and
get back to your work, and mind your mother and the concerns of the
house instead of senseless pleasure. But it’s just what I said, when ye
begin that kind of thing there’s no end to it. When the head’s once
filled with nonsense it’s a business to get it out.”

“Well, father,” said Mary, “the ball’s done, and there is no other
coming if we were ever so anxious. So you need not be feared. It’s a
little uncivil to Auntie Eelen to rise up the moment we’ve swallowed our
breakfast.”

“Oh, dinna take me into consideration,” said Miss Eelen. “Ye must do
your father’s bidding, and I’ll never lay it to your charge. But you’ll
take a piece of yon fine seed cake to your mother, poor thing, and some
of the bonny little biscuits that were round the trifle at the supper. I
just put them in my pocket for her. It lets an invalid person see the
way that things are done--and a wheen oranges in a basket. She has very
little to divert her--though, poor thing, she has got a man.”

Drumcarro did not appear to take any notice of this Parthian arrow,
though he fumed inwardly. And presently the girls’ preparations were
made. The muslin dresses did not take up so much room as balldresses do
nowadays, and had been carefully packed early in the morning in a box
which was to go home by the cart in the afternoon. And they tied on
their brown bonnets and fastened their cloth pelisses with an activity
becoming young persons who were of so little account. To mount beside
their father in the gig, squeezed together in a seat only made for two
persons, and in which he himself took an undiminished share, with a
basket upon their knees, and several parcels at their feet, was not an
unalloyed pleasure, especially as he gave vent to various threats of a
vague description, and instantly stopped either daughter who ventured to
say a word. But they had few pleasures in their life, and the drive
home, even in these circumstances, was not without its compensations.
The girls knew that every cottar woman who came out to the door to see
them pass was aware that they had been at the ball at the Castle, and
looked after them with additional respect. And even the shouting
children who ran after the gig and dared a cut of Drumcarro’s whip in
their effort to hang on behind amused them, and gave them a feeling of
pleased superiority. Coming home from the ball--it was perhaps the best
part of it, after all.

When they were drawing near the house their father made a speech to them
which Kirsteen at least listened to without alarm but with much wonder.
“Now,” he said, suddenly, as if adding a last word to something said
before, “I will have no nonsense whatever you may think. If a man comes
to my door that I approve, I’ll have no denial thrown into his teeth.
You’re all ready enough when it’s to your own fancy, but by----, this
time, I’ll make ye respect mine.”

“What is it, father?” said Kirsteen with astonished eyes.

Mary gave her sister a smart poke with her elbow. “We’ll wait till we’re
asked before we give any denial,” she said.

“Ye shall give none whether or no,” said Drumcarro, unreasonably it must
be allowed; “but it’s no you I’m thinking of,” he added with contempt.

Kirsteen felt herself deficient in Mary’s power of apprehension. It was
not often that this was the case, but her sister had certainly the
better of her now. There were however many things said by Drumcarro to
which his family did not attach a great interest, and she took it for
granted that this was one of the dark sayings and vague declarations in
which, when he was out of humour, he was wont to indulge. Her heart was
not overwhelmed with any apprehension when she jumped lightly down from
the gig glad to escape from these objurgations and feeling the
satisfaction of having news to tell, and a revelation to make to the
eager household which turned out to the door to meet her: Marg’ret in
the front with cap-ribbons streaming behind her and her white apron
folded over her arm, and little Jeanie with her hair tumbled and in
disorder, her mouth and her ears open for every detail, with one or two
other heads in the background--they had never seen the Castle, these
ignorant people, never been to a ball. The mortifications of the evening
all melted away in the delight of having so much to tell. Certainly the
coming home was the best; it brought back something of the roseate
colour of the setting out. And what a world of new experiences and
sensations had opened up before Kirsteen since yesterday.

“Was it bonny?” said little Jeanie. “Did you see all the grand folk? Was
it as fine as ye thought?”

And then Mrs. Douglas’s voice was heard from the parlour, “Come ben,
come ben, this moment, bairns. I will not have ye say a word till ye’re
here.” She was sitting up with a delicate colour in her cheeks, her eyes
bright with anticipation. “Now just begin at the beginning and tell me
everything,” she said. Certainly the best of it was the coming home.

Mary gave her little narrative with great composure and precision,
though it surprised her sister. “Everybody was just very attentive,” she
said. “It was clear to be seen that the word had been passed who we are.
It was young Mr. Campbell of the Haigh that took me out at the first,
but I just could not count them. They were most ceevil. And once I saw
young Lord John looking very hard at me, as if he would like to ask me,
but there was no person to introduce him. And so that passed by.”

“Oh, Mary, I wish ye had danced with a lord and a duke’s son,” cried
little Jeanie, clapping her hands.

“Well, he was no great dancer,” said Mary. “I liked the young laird of
the Haigh far better, and even old Glendochart--but he was Kirsteen’s
one.”

“He was the nicest of all,” cried Kirsteen. “But, Jeanie, ye should have
seen all the bonnie ladies with their diamonds like sparks of light. You
would have thought the Duchess had stars on her head--all glinting as
they do in a frosty sky--and a circle about her neck that looked just
like the King’s Ellwand,[A] but far more of them. It’s not like stones
or things out of the earth, as folks say. It’s like wearing little
pieces of light.”

                [A] The belt of Orion.

“Oh, I wish I had seen them,” said Jeanie.

“Whisht, whisht. I’ve seen diamonds many a time, but I never thought
them like pieces of light. They’re more like bits of glass, which I have
seen just as bonny. And who was it you danced with most, Kirsteen? You
have not given us a list like Mary.”

“I danced with Glendochart,” said Kirsteen, looking down a little. “I
stood a long time just looking about me. When you are dancing you cannot
see the rest of the ball, and it was very bonny. Glendochart took me
into the tea-room and showed me all the pictures and things.”

“But Lord John never looked in that fixed way at you?”

“No,” said Kirsteen very shortly, perceiving that it was inexpedient to
repeat the little episode of Lord John.

“Then ye were not so much taken notice of as Mary?” cried Jeanie with
disappointment.

“But she spoke to the Duke--or at least he spoke to Glendochart when
Kirsteen was on his arm--and there was Lady Chatty that made great
friends with her,” said Mary with benevolence, not to leave her sister
quite in the background. But there was a momentary pause of
disappointment, for they all felt that Lady Chatty was not so
suggestive--had not in her name so many possibilities as Lord John.

“I hear of nothing but Glendochart,” said Mrs. Douglas; “if he is the
man I mind upon, he will be the same age as your father; and what was he
doing dancing and hanging about the like of you, a man at his time of
life?”

Mary gave a little laugh, and repeated, “He was Kirsteen’s one.”

“What is the meaning of that, Kirsteen?”

“The meaning of it is that Glendochart, tho’ he is old, is a real
gentleman,” said Kirsteen; “and he saw that we were strangers and
neglected, and nobody looking the way we were on--”

At this there was an outcry that drowned the rest of the sentence.
Strangers, the daughters of Drumcarro!--neglected when Mary had just
said how attentive everybody had been! “You are just in one of your ill
keys, Kirsteen,” said her mother.

“No,” said Mary, “but she’s looking for him to-morrow: for my father has
asked him, and she is feared you will not like him when ye see him. But
my opinion is, though he is old, that he is still a very personable
man.”




CHAPTER XI.


A few days afterwards Glendochart appeared at Drumcarro riding a fine
horse, and dressed with great care, in a costume very different from the
rough and ill-made country clothes to which the family were accustomed.
Jock and Jeanie who had come home from school rushed emulously to take
the horse to the stable, and the household was stirred to its depths
with the unaccustomed sensation of a visitor, a personage of importance
bringing something of the air of the great world with him. He was
conducted to the laird’s room by Marg’ret herself, much interested in
the stranger--and there remained for a short time to the great curiosity
of the family, all of whom were engaged in conjectures as to what was
being said within those walls, all but Kirsteen, who, being as it
appeared most closely concerned, had as yet awakened to no alarm on the
subject, and assured her mother quietly that there was nothing to be
fluttered about. “For he is just very pleasant, and makes you feel at
home, and like a friend,” she said. Mrs. Douglas had come down to the
parlour earlier than usual in expectation of this visit. She had put on
her best cap; and there was a little fresh colour of excitement in her
cheeks. “But what will he be saying to your father?” she said. “Sitting
so long together, and them so little acquainted with each other.”

“Oh, but they were at the school together, and at the ball they were
great friends,” replied Kirsteen. She was the only one about whom there
was no excitement. She sat quite cheerfully over her work “paying no
attention,” as Mary said.

“Why should I pay attention? I will just be very glad to see him,”
replied Kirsteen. “He is just the kind of person I like best.”

“Whisht, Kirsteen, whatever you may feel ye must not go just so far as
that.”

“But it’s true, mother, and why should I not go so far? He’s a very nice
man. If he had daughters they would be well off. He is so kind, and he
sees through you, and sees what you are thinking of.”

“You must not let him see what you are thinking of, Kirsteen!”

“Why not?” she said, glancing up with candid looks. But after a moment a
vivid colour came over Kirsteen’s milk-white forehead. Then a smile went
over it like a sudden ray of sunshine. “I would not be feared,” she
cried, “for he would understand.” She was thinking of his own story
which he had told her, and of the one who was like him, away in a far
distant country. How well he would understand it! and herself who was
waiting, more faithful than the poor lady who had not waited long
enough. Oh, but that should never be said of Kirsteen!

Presently the two gentlemen were seen to be walking round the place,
Drumcarro showing to his visitor all that there was to show in the way
of garden and stables and farm offices, which was not much. But still
this was the right thing for one country gentleman to do to another. The
ladies watched them from the window not without an acute sense of the
shortcomings of the place, and that there was no horse in the stable
that could stand a moment’s comparison with Mr. Campbell of
Glendochart’s beautiful beast. Drumcarro was a house in the wilds,
standing on a grassy bank without so much as a flower plot near, or any
“grounds” or “policy,” or even garden to separate and enclose it, and a
sense of its shabbiness and poverty came into the minds of all,
instinctively, involuntarily. “If that’s what he’s thinking of he will
never mind,” Mrs. Douglas said under her breath. “Whisht, mother,” said
Mary. Kirsteen did not even ask Mary what her mother meant. Mrs. Douglas
indeed said a great many things that meant little or nothing, but this
did not quite explain the fatal unconsciousness of the girl upon whose
preoccupied ear all these warnings seemed to fall in vain.

The dinner had been prepared with more than usual care, and Marg’ret
herself carried in several of the dishes in order to make a further
inspection of the visitor. She had not been precisely taken into
anybody’s confidence, and yet she knew very well that he had come more
or less in the capacity of a suitor, and that Drumcarro’s extreme
politeness and the anxiety he displayed to please and propitiate the
stranger were not for nothing. Marg’ret said to herself that if it had
been anybody but the laird, she would have thought it was a question of
borrowing money, but she knew that Drumcarro would rather die than
borrow, with a horror and hatred not only of debt but of the interest he
must have had to pay. So it could not be that; nor was the other
gentleman who was so well preserved, so trim, “so weel put on,” at all
like a money-lender. It became clear to her, as she appeared in the
dining-room at intervals, what the real meaning was. Glendochart had
been placed next to Kirsteen at table, and when he was not disturbed by
the constant appeals of Drumcarro, he talked to her with an evident
satisfaction which half flattered, half disgusted the anxious spectator.
He was a real gentleman, and it was a compliment to Miss Kirsteen that a
man who had no doubt seen the world and kings’ courts and many fine
places should distinguish her so--while on the other hand the thought
was dreadful that, in all her bloom of youth, Kirsteen should be
destined to a man old enough to be her father. As old as her father! and
she so blooming and so young. But Marg’ret was perhaps the only one in
the party who thought so. The others were all excited by various
interests of their own, which might be affected by this union between
January and May. Mrs. Douglas, with that fresh tint of excitement on her
cheeks, was wholly occupied by the thought of having a married daughter
near her, within her reach, with all the eventualities of a new
household to occupy and give new interest to life; and Mary with a sense
that her sister’s house to visit, in which there would be plenty of
company and plenty of money, and opportunity of setting herself forth to
the best advantage, would be like a new existence. The young ones did
not know what it was that was expected to happen, but they too were
stirred by the novelty and the grand horse in the stable, and
Glendochart’s fine riding-coat and silver-mounted whip. Kirsteen herself
was the only one unexcited and natural. There was little wonder that
Glendochart liked her to talk to him. She was eager to run out with him
after dinner, calling to little Jeanie to come too to show him the den,
as it was called, where the burn tumbled over successive steps of rock
into a deep ravine, throwing up clouds of spray. She took care of the
old gentleman with a frank and simple sense that it was not he but she
who was the best able to guide and guard the other, and used precautions
to secure him a firm footing among the slippery rocks without a single
embarrassing thought of that change of the relationship between old and
young which is made by the fictitious equality of a possible marriage.
Far, very far were Kirsteen’s thoughts from anything of the kind. She
felt very tenderly towards him because of the tragedy he had told her
of, and because he had gone away like Ronald, and had trusted in some
one less sure to wait than herself. The very sight of Glendochart was an
argument to Kirsteen, making her more sure that she never could waver,
nor ever would forget.

When they came back from this expedition to the dish of tea which was
served before the visitor set out again, Mrs. Douglas exerted herself to
fill out the cups, a thing she had not been known to do for years.
“Indeed,” she said, “I have heard of nothing but Mr. Campbell since they
came back from the ball: it has been Glendochart this and Glendochart
that all the time, and it would ill become me not to show my gratitude.
For I’m but a weak woman, not able myself to go out with my daughters;
and they are never so well seen to, Mr. Campbell, when they are without
a mother’s eye.”

Drumcarro uttered a loud “Humph!” of protest when this bold principle
was enunciated; but he dared not contradict his wife, or laugh her to
scorn in the presence of a visitor so particular and precise.

“You might trust these young ladies, madam,” said Glendochart gallantly,
“in any company without fear; for their modest looks would check any
boldness, whatever their beauty might call forth.”

This was still the day of compliments, and Glendochart was an old beau
and had the habits of his race.

“Oh, you are very kind,” said Mrs. Douglas, her faint colour rising, her
whole being inspired. “If gentlemen were all like you, there would be
little reason for any uneasiness; but that is more than we can expect,
and to trust your bairns to another’s guidance is always a very heavy
thought.”

“Madam, you will soon have to trust them to the guidance of husbands,
there can be little doubt.”

“But that’s very different: for then a parent is free of
responsibility,” said the mother, rising to the occasion; “that is just
the course of nature. And if they are so happy as to chance upon good,
serious, God-fearing men.”

“Let us hope,” said Glendochart, not without a glance at Kirsteen, “that
your bonny young misses will be content with that sober denomination;
but they will no doubt add for themselves, young and handsome and gay.”

“No, no,” Mrs. Douglas said, led away by enthusiasm, “you will hear no
such wishes out of the mouths of lassies of mine.”

“Let them answer for themselves,” said Drumcarro, “they’re old enough:
or maybe they will wait till they’re asked, which would be the wisest
way. Glendochart, I am very sorry to name it, and if ye would take a bed
with us, I would be most pleased. But if you’re determined to go to-day,
I must warn ye the days are short and it’s late enough to get daylight
on the ford.”

“If ye would take a bed--“ Mrs. Douglas repeated.

The visitor protested that he was much obliged but that he must go. “But
I will take your permission to come again,” he said, “and my only fear
is that you will see too much of me, for there are strong temptations
here.”

“Ye cannot come too often nor stay too long; and the more we see of you,
the more we will be pleased,” said the mistress of the house. And the
girls went out to see him mount his horse, which the boys had gone to
fetch from the stable. Never was a visitor more honoured. A third person
no doubt might have thought the welcome excessive and the sudden
interest in so recent an acquaintance remarkable. But no one, or at
least very few are likely to consider themselves and the civilities
shown to them in the same light as an impartial spectator would do. It
seems always natural that friends new or old should lavish civilities
upon ourselves. Glendochart rode away with a glow of pleasure. He was
not at all afraid of the ford, dark or light. He was as safe in his
saddle as he ever had been, and had no fear of taking cold or getting
damp. He feared neither rheumatism nor bronchitis. He said to himself,
as he trotted steadily on, that fifty-five was the prime of life. He was
a little over that golden age, but not much, nothing to count; and if
really that bonny Kirsteen with her Highland bloom, and her fine
spirits, and her sense--It was a long time since that tragedy of which
he had told her. Perhaps, as his Grace had said, it was never too late.

“Ye havering woman,” said Drumcarro to his wife, “you are just like your
silly kind. I would not wonder if going so fast ye had not just
frightened the man away.”

“I said nothing but what ye said I was to say,” said Mrs. Douglas, still
strong in her excitement; “and it was never me that began it, and if him
and you are so keen, it’s not for me to put obstacles in the way.”

Drumcarro stood for a moment astonished that his feeble wife should
venture to indulge in a personal effort even when it was in his own aid:
then he gave a shrug of his shoulders. “A man knows when to speak and
when to refrain from speaking,” he said; “but you womenfolk, like
gabbling geese ye can never keep still if once you have anything to
cackle about.”




CHAPTER XII.


All this time, strange to say, Kirsteen took no fright about old
Glendochart whom she had calmly set down, as is not unusual at her age,
upon the footing of a man of eighty or so, an old, old gentleman to whom
she could be as kind as her friendly young soul dictated, giving him her
hand to lead him down the rough road to the linn, and feeling with her
foot if the stones were steady before she let him trust his weight to
them. It had been quite natural to come out to the door to see him mount
and ride away, to stroke and pat the shining well-groomed horse, who
looked as great an aristocrat as his master beside the sober and
respectable matron Mally, who drew the gig and sometimes the cart, and
had carried barebacked all the children at once as carefully as if she
had been their mother. Kirsteen was even pleased with the sense that she
herself was Glendochart’s favourite, that he had talked more to her than
to any one, perhaps even had come to see her rather than the rest, with
the pleasant partiality of an old friend. To be preferred is delightful
to everybody, and especially to a girl who has had little petting in her
life. It was an exhilarating consciousness, and she took the little
jibes that flew about in the family and the laugh of Mary and the shout
of the boys with perfect good humour. Yes, very likely Glendochart liked
her best. He was a true gentleman, and he had seen her standing
neglected and had come to her help. But for him the ball, if indeed
always an experience and a fine sight, would have left only a sting in
Kirsteen’s mind instead of the impression bitter-sweet which it had
produced. If she were glad now that she had gone, and pleased with the
sight and the fact of having been there, it was to Glendochart chiefly
that the credit was due. She had taken him into her heart warmly in the
position of an old friend, an old, kind, and true gentleman whom she
would always run to meet and brighten to see. In this easy state of
mind, pleased with him and even better pleased with herself because of
his liking for her, she received calmly all the family jests, quite
satisfied that they were true.

Glendochart became a frequent visitor. He would ride over, or sometimes
drive over, in a high gig much better appointed than the old gig at
Drumcarro, saying that he had come “to his dinner” or to eat one of
Marg’ret’s scones, or to see how they all were this cold weather. And he
would permit Jock to drive the gig for a mile or two to the boy’s
delight, though it took all the strength of his young wrists to hold in
the horse. Once even upon a great occasion Glendochart managed to
persuade Drumcarro, who was ready to attend to all his suggestions, to
bring the girls to a great hurling-match, at which--for he was a master
of the game--he himself appeared to great advantage and not at all like
the old, old gentleman of Kirsteen’s thoughts. And when the New Year
came he brought them all “fairings,” beautiful boxes of sweets such as
had never been seen in the Highlands, and gloves wonderful to behold,
which he begged Mrs. Douglas’s permission to offer to her daughters.
These visits and his pleasant ways, and the little excitement of his
arrival from time to time, and the hurling-match which afforded a
subject of conversation for a long time, and the little presents, all
quickened existence at Drumcarro, and made life more pleasant for all
concerned. Kirsteen had taken him by this time for many a walk to the
edge of the linn, springing down before him, by the side of the
waterfall, to point out which of the stepping-stones were safe to trust
to.

“Put your foot here, and it is quite steady, but take care of that moss,
Glendochart, for it’s very soft, and I’ve nearly sunk into it,” she
would call to him stopping in mid-descent, her young voice raised clear
above the roar of the water, and her hand held out to help. If there was
one thing that fretted the elderly suitor it was this, and sometimes he
would make a spring to show his agility, not always with successful
results. “You see you should do as I bid you,” said Kirsteen gravely,
helping him to get up on one such occasion, “and let me try first
whether it will bear you or not.”

“I will always do as you bid me,” said the old gentleman, trying to look
younger and younger and as if he did not mind the fall at all; “but it
is my part to take care of you, and not you of me.”

“Oh, no, not when the moss is so wet and the stones so shoogly,”
Kirsteen said.

All this was very pretty fooling; but Drumcarro was not the man to be
kept hanging upon the chances of a propitious moment when it might
please the wooer to make the leap. The additional cheerfulness of the
household did not extend to him. He became very tired of Glendochart’s
“daidling,” and of the over-delicacy of his attentions. His eyes grew
fiery and his grizzled eyebrows menacing. He would come into the
parlour where the visitor was making himself very agreeable, keeping up
the pleasantest conversation, paying compliments to Mrs. Douglas (whose
health had greatly improved at this period), and with a devotion which
was half fatherly, though he had no such intention, distinguishing
Kirsteen who was always pleased to think that he liked her best.
Drumcarro would come in with his hands thrust into the depths of his
pockets, and his shoulders up to his ears. “Are ye not tired of the
weemen, Glendochart? Weel, I would not sit there phrasin’ and smilin’,
not for a king’s ransom.” “Perhaps, my friend, I’m getting more than any
king’s ransom, for what could buy such kind looks?” the old beau would
reply. And then Drumcarro, with an oath muttered under his breath, would
fling out again, not concealing his impatience, “I cannot put up with
such daidling!” Whether Glendochart understood, or whether his host took
the matter into his own hands, never was known by the female portion of
the household. But one morning shortly after the New Year, Glendochart
having paid a long visit on the day before, Kirsteen received a most
unexpected summons to attend her father in his own room.

“My father wants to speak to me! You are just sending me a gowk’s
errand,” she said to Jock who brought the message.

“It’s no a gowk’s errand. It’s just as true as death,” said Jock. “He’s
sent me hissel’.”

“And what can he want to say to me in his own room?” cried Kirsteen.

“He did not tell me what he wanted to say; but I can guess what it is,”
said Jock.

“And so can I,” said Jeanie.

“What is it, ye little mischief?” cried Kirsteen. “I have done nothing.
I have a conscience void of offence, which is more than you can say.”

Upon this they both gave vent to a burst of laughter loud and long.

“It’s about your auld joe, Kirsteen. It’s about Glendochart,” they cried
in concert.

“About Glendochart?--he is just my great friend, but there is no harm in
that,” she cried.

“Oh, Kirsteen, just take him, and I’ll come and live with ye,” said
Jeanie.

“And I’ll come,” added Jock encouragingly, “whenever we have the play.”

“Take him!” said Kirsteen. She bade them with great dignity to hold
their tongues and went to her father’s room with consternation in her
breast.

Mr. Douglas was sitting over his newspaper with the air of being very
much absorbed in it. It was no less than a London paper, a copy of the
_Times_ which Glendochart had brought, which had been sent to him from
London with the news of the escape of Boney, news that made Drumcarro
wild to think that Jock was but fourteen and could not be sent off at
once with such chances of promotion as a new war would bring. He had
given the lad a kick with a “Useless monkey! Can ye not grow a little
faster;” as Jock had clattered up to bed in his country shoes the
previous night. But he was not reading, though he pretended still to be
buried in the paper when Kirsteen came in. He took no notice of her till
she had been standing for a minute before him repeating, “Did you want
me, father?” when he looked up, as if surprised.

“Oh, you’re there. I calculated ye would take an hour to come.”

“Jock said you wanted to speak to me, father.”

“And so I did--but you might have had to put your gown on, or to brush
your hair or something--for anything I knew.”

“I never do that at this time of the day.”

“Am I to mind your times of day? Kirsteen, I have something to say to
you.”

“So Jock told me, father.”

“Never mind what Jock told ye. It is perhaps the most serious moment of
all your life; or I might say it’s the beginning of your life, for with
the care that has been taken of ye, keepit from the cold and shadit from
the heat, and your meat provided and everything you could require--the
like of you doesn’t know what life is as long as ye bide in your
father’s house.”

Kirsteen’s heart gave a throb of opposition, but she did not say or
scarcely think that this position of blessedness had never been hers.
She was not prepared to blaspheme her father’s house.

“Well! now that’s all changed, and ye’ll have to think of acting for
yourself. And ye are a very lucky lass, chosen before your sister, who
is the eldest, and according to the law of Laban---- But I think he was
too particular. What the devil maittered which of them was to go first
so long as he got them both safe off his hands?”

“I have no light,” said Kirsteen with suppressed impatience, “as to what
you’re meaning, father!”

“Oh, ye have no light! Then I’ll give ye one, and a fine one, and one
that should make ye thankful to me all your days. I’ve settled it all
with Glendochart. I thought he was but a daidlin’ body, but that was in
appearance, not in reality. He’s just very willing to come to the
point.”

Kirsteen said nothing, but she clasped her hands before her with a
gesture which was Marg’ret’s, and which had long been known to the young
people as a sign of immovable determination. She did not adopt it
consciously, but with the true instinct of hereditary action, an impulse
so much misrepresented in later days.

“Very willing,” said Drumcarro, “to come to the point; and all the
settlements just very satisfactory. Ye will be a lucky woman. Ye’re to
have Glendochart estates for your life, with remainder, as is natural,
to any family there may be; and it’s a very fine downsitting, a great
deal better house than this, and a heap of arable land. And ye’re to
have----”

“For what am I to have all this, father?” said Kirsteen in a low voice
with a tremble in it, but not of weakness.

“For what are ye to have it?” He gave a rude laugh. “For yourself I
suppose I must say, though I would think any woman dear at the price
he’s willing to pay for ye.”

“And what does Glendochart want with me?” said Kirsteen with an effort
to steady her voice.

“Ye fool! But you’re not the fool ye pretend to be. I cannot wonder that
you’re surprised. He wants to mairry ye,” her father said.

Kirsteen stood with her hands clasped, her fine figure swayed in spite
of her with a wave of agitation, her features moving. “Glendochart!” she
said. “Father, if he has friends ye should warn them to keep him better
and take care of him, and not let him be a trouble to young women about
the country that never did any harm to him.”

“Young women,” said Drumcarro, “there is not one I ever heard of except
yourself, ye thankless jaud!”

“One is plenty to try to make a fool of,” said Kirsteen.

“I would like to see him make a fool of one belonging to me. Na, it’s
the other way. But that’s enough of this nonsense,” he added abruptly;
“it’s all settled. Ye can go and tell your mother. He’s away for a week
on business, and when he comes back ye’ll settle the day. And let it be
as soon as possible, that we may be done wi’t. It’s been as much as I
could do to put up with it all this time. Now let any man say I’ve done
much for my sons and little for my daughters!” said Drumcarro,
stretching his arms above his head with a gesture of fatigue. “I’ve got
them their commissions and outfit and all for less trouble than it has
cost me to get one of you a man!” He yawned ostentatiously and rubbed
his eyes, then opening them again to see Kirsteen still standing in the
same attitude before him he gave vent to a roar of dismissal. “G’away
with ye. Go and tell your mother. I’ve said all I have to say.”

“But I have something more to say,” said Kirsteen. “I’ll not marry
Glendochart. It’s just been a mistake, and I’m sorry, but----”

“You’ll not mairry Glendochart! Ye shall marry whatever man I choose for
ye.”

“No, father!” said Kirsteen clasping her hands more closely.

“No!” he said, pushing back his chair. He was honestly astonished, taken
completely by surprise. “No! Lord, but ye shall though when I say it.
And what ails ye at Glendochart? And him running after ye like a fool
the whole winter, and nothing but pleasant looks for him till now.”

“I’m very sorry,” repeated Kirsteen. “I’m very sorry--I never, never
thought of that. He’s an old man, and it seemed all kindness to one as
much as another. Oh, I’m sorry, father. Tell him, I would not have vexed
him for the world.”

“I’ll tell him no such thing. I’ll tell him ye’re very proud and
pleased, as sets ye better; and I’ll take you to Glasgow to buy your
wedding-gown.” He said this with an attempt at seduction, perhaps a
little startled by the first idea that to subdue Kirsteen by violence
would not be so easy as he thought.

“Father, you’re meaning it for great kindness; but oh, if ye would just
understand! I cannot marry Glendochart. I could not if there was no
other man.”

“It is just Glendochart ye shall marry and no other. It’s all settled.
You have nothing more to do with it but what I’ve promised and fixed for
ye.”

“No, father----”

“But I say yes,” he said, bringing down his clenched fist on the table
with a noise that made the windows ring.

“It cannot be settled without me,” said Kirsteen, growing first red and
then pale, but standing firm.

“You’re not of the least importance,” he said, foam flying from his
lips. “What are ye? A creature of no account. A lass that has to obey
her father till she gets a man, and then to obey him. Say what ye like,
or do what ye like, it will never alter a thing I’ve fixed upon; and of
that ye may be as sure as that you stand there. G’away to your mother,
and tell her it’s to be soon, in a month or so, to get done with it--for
I’ve made up my mind.”

Kirsteen stood silent for a moment, not daunted but bewildered, feeling
with a force which no girl in her situation would now recognize the
helplessness of her position, not a creature to take her part, seeing
no outlet. She burst forth suddenly when a new idea occurred to her. “I
will speak to him myself! He is a good man, he will never hold me to it.
I will tell him----”

“If ye say a word to him,” cried Drumcarro rising from his chair and
shaking his clenched hand in her face, “one word! I’ll just kill ye
where ye stand! I’ll drive ye from my doors. Neither bit nor sup more
shall ye have in this house. Ye may go and tramp from door to door with
a meal-pack on your shoulder.”

“I would rather do that,” cried Kirsteen, “far rather than make a false
promise and deceive a good man. Oh, father, I’ll do anything ye bid me.
I’ll be your servant, I’ll ask for nothing; but dinna, dinna do this!
for I will not marry Glendochart, not if you were to kill me, not if you
were to turn me from the door.”

“Hold your peace, ye lang-tongued--ye shall do what I bid you, that and
nothing else.”

“No, father, no, father!” cried Kirsteen trembling; “I will not--for
nothing in the world.”

“Go out of my sight,” he cried, “and hold your tongue. Away this moment!
Ye shall do just what I say.”

“Father----”

“None of your fathers to me. Get out of my sight, and make yourself
ready to do what I tell ye. It shall be in a fortnight. That’s all you
shall make by your rebellion. Not another word, or I’ll turn you out of
my house.”

Kirsteen retired as he made a step towards her with his hands raised to
her shoulders, to put her out. His fiery eyes, the foam that flew from
his lips, the fury of his aspect frightened her. She turned and fled
from the room without any further attempt to speak.




CHAPTER XIII.


Kirsteen rushed out of the house with the instinct of passion, to shake
off all restraint, to get into the free air, where an oppressed bosom
might get breath. She flew like a hunted deer, flashing past the window
where Mary, sitting at her seam, saw her hurried escape and divined more
or less what was the meaning of it.

“Who’s that?” said Mrs. Douglas, conscious of the flying shadow.

“It’s Kirsteen, and my father will have told her, and she’s just beside
herself.”

“Beside herself!” said the mother tranquilly over her knitting. “She may
well be that; for who would have thought of such a prospect for the like
of her, at her age.” Mary was not so sure that the agitation was that of
joy, but she said nothing. And Kirsteen was out of sight in a moment,
darting by.

She went towards the linn, without knowing why. The stream was strong
with the winter floods, and the roar of it as it poured down the rocky
cleft was enough to make all voices inaudible, and to deaden more or
less even the sound of one’s thoughts buzzing in one’s head with the
passion and the sweep of them, themselves like a hurrying stream.
Kirsteen fled as to a covert to the “den,” down which this passionate
rivulet, swollen into a torrent, stormed and poured, flinging its spray
over the wet and spongy turf into which her feet sank. She cared nothing
for this in the absorption of her excitement, and flung herself down
upon that damp <DW72>, feeling the spray on her forehead and the roar of
the water in her ears as a sort of relief from herself. Her feelings had
been like to burst her heart and her brain together as she flew along,
like some struggling things shut up in a space too narrow for them. She
could not get her breath nor contain the hurry and confusion of her own
being. But in that damp retreat where nobody would be likely to pursue
her, where she could scarcely even hear the thumping of her own heart
nor any voice calling her, nor be subject to interruption of any kind,
Kirsteen after a moment began to come to herself. The shock, the fright,
the horror quieted a little; her mind became accustomed, as it does so
rapidly, to the new alarm, to the frightful danger which had suddenly
revealed itself. It was danger which Kirsteen had not expected or
foreseen. She had very well understood when she pledged herself to wait
for Ronald what that meant. It was in all the traditions of romance with
which she was acquainted--not waiting relieved by constant
communication, and with a certain distinct boundary, but silent,
unbroken, perhaps for life, certainly for years. In the beginning at
least such a visionary burden may be taken up with enthusiasm, and
Kirsteen had been proud of it and of the deep secret of which there was
nothing to tell, which was in spirit alone, with no bond to be displayed
in the sight of men. But it had never occurred to her that she might be
bidden to forswear herself as she said, that she might have to struggle
against all about her for the right to keep her vow. This danger had
never appeared before her as a possibility. She had not thought of any
wooer, nor had any such presented himself to her consciousness. Without
warning, without thought of precaution or self-defence, the danger had
come.

To marry Glendochart: Glendochart--there burst through Kirsteen’s
distressful thoughts a sudden picture of the old gentleman descending
the side of the linn guided by her hand, the safe places selected for
him; and then his little plunge, his slip, her cry, “Oh, Glendochart,
you have hurt yourself!” and there burst from her in the midst of her
trouble an irrepressible laugh, which rang into the roar of the linn and
went down with it into the depths echoing among all the rocks. Kirsteen
had been ashamed to laugh when that accident happened for fear of
hurting his feelings, but all the ludicrousness of the incident burst
upon her now. He had got so red, poor old gentleman! he had seized upon
a thorn bush to pull him up, rather than take her hand. He had said that
it was nothing, nothing, though her keen young senses, compunctious of
their own perceptions, had seen how he limped up the bank again. She had
not dared to offer her support any more than to laugh, seeing it hurt
his feelings. And it was because he wanted to marry her, her--Kirsteen,
troth-plighted to her own lad--and him as old as her father. Oh, for
shame, for shame!

That laugh did Kirsteen good. It liberated her soul; she escaped as from
the hand of fate and became able to think. And then a wild anger swept
over her mind against her father, who wanted nothing but to get her, as
he said, off his hands, and against Glendochart for daring to think that
she would take him, an old, old man. All the sense of his kindness
disappeared in this illumination as to his motives: indeed the more
Kirsteen esteemed him before, the more she despised and hated him now.
She thought of auld Robin Gray, but that was too good for him. The old,
ill man, to tell her a story of faithfulness and make her cry and mix
him up in her mind with Ronald and her own love, and then to betray her,
and want to marry her,--doubly faithless, to her that died for him, and
to Kirsteen that had wept for him! It was for constancy and pity and
true love that the girl had been so sorry, so touched in her heart, so
wishful to please him and make him smile. And now to turn upon her, to
try to tear her from her own lad, to make her mansworn! There was
nothing that was too bad for him, the old, ill man! Kirsteen saw herself
stand before him indignant, her eyes flashing with injured honour and a
sense of wrong.

But then suddenly all this sustaining force of anger went from her as
Glendochart’s kind and gentle face so full of feeling came before her
imagination. Oh, he knew better than that! If she could but speak to
him, and tell him! perhaps show him that little blue Testament, whisper
to him that there was One--away with his regiment, fighting for the
King, like Glendochart himself, like the story he had told her! Tears
filled Kirsteen’s eyes. Her father might be dour and hard, but
Glendochart would understand. It was just his own story; he would never
let her break her heart and die on her wedding-day like his own lass.
Oh, no! oh, no! he would never do that. He would never let it happen
twice, and all for him. With a quick gleam of her imagination, Kirsteen
saw herself in her white wedding-gown, lying at his feet, the second
bride that had burst her heart! Oh, no! oh, no! Glendochart would never
do that: the tears streamed from Kirsteen’s eyes at the thought, but her
quivering mouth smiled with generous confidence. No, no! She had only to
speak to Glendochart and all would be well.

But then came her father’s threat, his blazing fiery eyes, his hand
clenched and shaken in her face, the fury of his outcry: “I’ll just kill
ye where ye stand--I’ll put you to the door.” Kirsteen remembered Anne,
and her soul sank. Anne had a husband to take care of her, she had a
house, wherever it was; but Kirsteen would have nothing. And what would
become of her if she were put to the door? Where would she go to find a
shelter? Another grotesque vision--but not so grotesque to her
imagination--of the poor beggar-woman with a meal-pack on her shoulder
which her father had evoked, flitted before her mind. No, she would not
be like that. She would take care of bairns, or keep a house, or even
make muslin gowns like Miss Macnab. There were plenty of things she
could do!--it would be long, long before she need come to the meal-pack.
But then there burst over Kirsteen’s mind another revelation: the shame
of it! She, a Douglas--one of the old Douglases, that had been the lords
of the whole land, not only of poor Drumcarro--a gentlewoman of as good
blood as the Duchess or any grand lady, and one that could not be hidden
or made to appear as if she were a common person! And the scandal of it,
to open up the house and all its concerns to ill talk--to make it open
to all the world to say that Drumcarro was an ill father, and the house
a cruel house, or that the Douglas lassies were not what ladies should
be, but lightheaded and ill-conducted, rebels against their own kith and
kin. This was the most terrible thought of all. The others seemed to
open up a way of escape, but this closed the door; it is an ill bird
that files its own nest. How could Kirsteen do that? shame her family so
that even Sandy and Nigil and Charlie and Donald in India, even little
Robbie, should hear of it and think shame--so that _he_ should hear
that Kirsteen had let herself be talked about? so that Drumcarro should
be lightly spoken of and all its secrets laid bare? This new suggestion
brought back all the passion and the confusion that the influence of the
air and the freedom out of doors, and the quiet time to think had calmed
down. To endure is always possible if you set your heart to do it,
whatever happens; but to shame and to expose your own house!

“Where have ye been, Kirsteen?” said Mrs. Douglas. “I never saw a person
like you for running out when you’re most wanted. You should not take
your walks in the forenoon when we’re all at work.”

“Did you want me, mother? I was not fit to sit down to my work. I had
a--buzzing in my head.”

“’Deed I think ye have always a buzzing in your head. Sometimes I speak
to ye three times before ye answer me.”

“She’s uplifted with her prospects,” said Mary, “and no wonder. I think
ye should excuse her this day.”

Mary intended to be very kind to Kirsteen. She had made up her mind to
be a very frequent visitor at her sister’s house.

“Well, well,” said Mrs. Douglas, “that may be true enough; but I think
she might have come and told me the news herself, instead of letting me
find it out through your father--not that I had not judgment enough to
see what was coming this many a day.”

Kirsteen was still trembling with the results of her self-argument at
the linn--which indeed had come to no result at all save the tremor in
her frame and the agitation in her heart. She had knelt down by her
mother’s side to wind the wool for which it appeared Mrs. Douglas had
been waiting, and she was not prepared with any reply.

“She doesn’t seem to have much to say to us now, mother,” said Mary.

“Kirsteen, you should not be so proud. You will be a finer lady than
ever your mother was, with a carriage and horses of your own, and no
doubt everything that heart can desire; for an auld man is far more
silly than a young one.”

Kirsteen gave the wool a jerk which tangled it wildly. “Mother, I just
wonder what you are all havering about,” she said.

“Kirsteen, I’m well used to rude speaking,” cried the mother, ready to
cry at a moment’s notice; “but not from my own bairns.”

“Oh, mother, I beg your pardon. It was not you that was havering. Dinna
speak to me, for I cannot bear it. My heart is just like to break.”

“With pleasure?” said Mary in her soft tones.

Kirsteen darted a glance of fire at her calm sister, but turned
nervously to her occupation again and answered nothing. She had enough
to do with her yarn which, in sympathy with her confused thoughts, had
twisted itself in every possible way and refused to be disentangled. Her
mother remarked the tremor of her hands.

“Ye have got the hank into a terrible tangle, and what are ye trembling
at, Kirsteen--is it the cold?”

“I’m not trembling, mother,” said Kirsteen.

“Do ye think I am blind or doited and cannot see? Na, I’m a weak woman,
sore held down with many infirmities; but I’m thankful to say my eyes
are as good as ever they were. Ye’re all trembling, Kirsteen; is it the
cold?”

“She has gotten her gown all wet, mother. She has been down by the linn,
it’s no wonder she’s trembling. She ought to go and change her things.”

“Are your feet wet, Kirsteen?”

“Oh,” said Kirsteen springing to her feet, “if ye would just let me
alone; I’m neither wet nor cold, but my heart’s like to break. I don’t
know what I am doing for misery and trouble. If ye would only have peety
upon me and let me alone!”

“Dear Kirsteen, how can ye speak like that? Where will ye get any person
you can open your heart to like your mother? Just tell me what’s wrong
and that will ease your mind. What can Mary and me mean but what is for
your good? Eh, I never thought but what you would be pleased, and a
blithe woman this bonny day.”

“She’ll maybe open her mind best between you two, if I were away,” said
Mary rising. She was really full of good feeling towards her sister,
with no doubt an anticipation of good to come to herself, but yet a
certain amount of solid sympathy genuine enough of its kind.

“Now, Kirsteen, my bonny woman, just tell me what’s the maitter,” said
Mrs. Douglas when Mary was gone.

“It seems you know what has happened, mother, and how can you ask me? Am
I likely to be a blithe woman as ye say when it’s just been told me?”

“That a good man and a good house are waiting for ye, Kirsteen? And one
that’s very fond of ye, and asks no better than to give ye all ye can
desire?”

“That I’m to be turned out of the house,” cried Kirsteen; “that I’m no
more to see your face; that I’m to go from door to door with a meal-pack
like a beggar woman!”

“Whisht, whisht, and don’t speak nonsense: that will be some of your
father’s joking. Whiles he says things that are hard to bear. What
should bring all this upon ye, Kirsteen? You will be the Leddy of
Glendochart and an honoured woman, holding your head as high as ainy in
the whole county, and silk gowns as many as ye desire, and coaches and
horses; and what ye’ll like best of all, my bonny bairn, the power to be
of real service and just a good angel to them that ye like best.”

“O mother, mother,” cried Kirsteen, burying her face in her mother’s
lap, “that is the worst of it all! Oh, if ye have any peety don’t say
that to me!”

“But I must, for it’s all true. Oh, Kirsteen, I hope I’m not a
complaining woman; but just you think what it would be to me to have my
daughter’s house from time to time to take shelter in. Many and many a
time have I been advised change of air, but never got it, for who dared
name it to your father? I have been thinking this whole morning it would
make me just a new woman. To get away for a while from this hole--for
it’s just a hole in the winter though it may be bonny at other times,
and to see my bairn sitting like a queen, happy and respectit.”

“Not happy, mother!”

“That’s just your fancy, my dear. You think he’s old, but he’s not
really old, and as kind a face as ever I saw, and full of consideration,
and not one that ever would say ye had too many of your own folk about
ye, or that ye ought to forget your father’s house. Oh, Kirsteen, it’s
very little a lassie knows: ye think of a bonny lad, a bright eye or a
taking look, or a fine figure at the dancing, or the like of that. But
who will tell ye if he may not be just a deevil in the house? Who will
tell ye that he may not just ding ye into a corner and shame ye before
your bairns, or drive ye doited with his temper, or make your bed and
your board a hell on earth? Oh,” cried poor Mrs. Douglas in accents of
deep conviction, “it’s little, little a lassie kens! She thinks she will
please her fancy, or she listens to a flattering tongue, or looks to a
bonny outside. And all the time it’s just meesery she’s wedding, and not
a bonny lad. But, Kirsteen,” she said, giving a furtive little kiss to
the rings of hair on Kirsteen’s milk-white forehead, “Kirsteen, my bonny
woman, when ye take a man that everybody knows, that is just kent for a
good man and a kind man, and one that loves the very ground you tread
on, oh, my dear! what does it maitter that he’s not just that young? Is
it anything against him that he knows the world and has had trouble of
his own, and understands what it is to get a bonny lass and a good bairn
like you? And oh, Kirsteen, think what ye can do for us all if you take
him, for your sisters and for the callants, he’s just made the house a
different thing already; and though that’s scarcely worth the thinking
of, for I’m very near my grave and will want nothing long,--Kirsteen,
for me, too!--”

“Oh, mother, mother!” cried the girl with her face still hidden in her
mother’s lap, “ye just break my heart.”

“Na, na,” said Mrs. Douglas in soft quick tones like one who consoles a
child, “we’ll have no breaking of hearts. Ye will not be a month marriet
before ye’ll think there’s no such a man in the world. And there’s
nothing he will deny ye, and from being of little account ye’ll be one
of the first ladies in the country side. Whisht, whisht, my darling!
Ye’ll make him a happy man, and is not he worthy of it? Kirsteen! Rise
up and dry your eyes. I hear your father coming. And dinna anger him,
oh! dinna anger him, for he never minds what ill words he says!”




CHAPTER XIV.


Mrs. Douglas retired to her room after dinner in a very tearful mood.
She had made a great effort and she had not been successful, and all her
hopes which had been gradually built up into a palace of delight came
tumbling down about her ears. The only comfort she could feel now was in
the source of her chief troubles. “Ye may say what you like to me,” she
cried as Kirsteen helped her to take off her cap and arrange herself
comfortably upon her bed, “but your father will never put up with it. It
would have been more natural in ye, Kirsteen, if ye had yielded to your
mother, for well I wot ye’ll have to yield to him, whether ye like it or
no.”

“Oh, mother, I think ye might understand,” Kirsteen said.

“Understand! it’s easy enough to understand. Ye’ve got a silly notion in
your head that ye cannot mairry an old man. Better than you have done it
before ye, and it would be a blessing to all your family, and maybe help
me to live to see some of my boys come back. But na, ye will never think
of that, of nothing but your own pleasure. And you’ll see what your
father will say to you,” said Mrs. Douglas, with a vindictive
satisfaction, while Kirsteen drew the coverlet over her and arranged the
pillow for her head.

“Are ye comfortable, mother?”

“Oh, ay, as much as I can be, so little considered as I am. Ye need not
wait. Put my stick within my reach, I’ll chap upon the floor if I want
ye, or ye can send Mary if it’s too much trouble,” the angry mother
said. She had been very tender up to this point, very anxious to show
how entirely it was for everybody’s advantage that this step should be
taken. But to spend your strength thus upon an unconvinced and
unyielding child is hard to bear, and Mrs. Douglas’s disappointment had
turned to wrath.

“Oh, mother,” Kirsteen said with anguish, but the remonstrance met with
no reply except a fretful “Go away!” She went down stairs very slowly
and reluctantly to the parlour where Mary sat at the household mending,
in all the placid superiority of one who is at peace with the world. She
had rejected no one’s advice. She had not crossed her father or her
mother, or disappointed her family. When Kirsteen sat down and took her
work, Mary looked at her and gave utterance to a faint “tshish, tshish”
of mild animadversion, but for some time nothing was said. When the
silence was broken it was by a question from Mary, “Ye’ll not be
expecting Glendochart to-day?”

“Me expecting him? I never expected him! He just came of his own will,”
Kirsteen cried, moved in her anger and wretchedness to a few hasty
tears.

“Well, well, I’m saying nothing; but I suppose he’s not expected, if
that’s the right way.”

“I know nothing about it,” said Kirsteen: which indeed was not quite
true.

“It was just to tell Marg’ret she need take no extra trouble about the
scones. It’s been a great expense a visitor like that, especially when
it comes to nothing: often to his dinner, and still oftener to his tea.
And always new scones to be made, and jam on the table, and the boys
partaking freely: for how could I tell Jock and Jamie before a stranger,
‘It’s no for you.’ And all to come to nothing!” said Mary, holding up
her hands.

“What could it have come to?” cried Kirsteen. “I think I will be just
driven out of my senses between my mother and you.”

“Poor mother,” said Mary. “She had just set her heart upon it. It would
have been a grand change to her to go and visit ye. It would have done
her health good, but there are some that never think on such things. I
just wish it had been me that had got the chance.”

“And so do I, with all my heart,” cried Kirsteen, with a hot and angry
blush. She felt however that there was something like a dishonesty, an
irritating attempt to despoil her of something belonging to her in
Mary’s wish.

“I would have put myself in the background,” said Mary. “I would not
have thought whether I like it or not. I would just have taken the man
however old he had been. I would have said, it will be fine for my
mother and a good thing for Kirsteen and all the bairns; and I would
just have taken him and never said a word.”

“That would have been pleasant for him--that you should take him for the
sake of the family.”

“He would have been none the wiser,” said Mary composedly. “There would
have been no necessity to tell him. And he would never have found it
out. They say men are very vain; they just think ye are in love with
them whether ye are or not. And I would have managed Glendochart fine.
But it was not me that had the chance.”

Kirsteen cast a gleam of mingled indignation and contempt at her sister,
who went on diligently with her mending while she gave vent to these
sentiments. Mary was fitting on a patch upon one of the boys’
undergarments, carefully laying it by the thread. Her mending was famed
in the family; nobody made repairs so neatly. She spoke very softly,
never lifting her eyes from the work, which indeed required all her
attention. And there is a special power, especially for irritation, in
the words of wisdom that are thus addressed to one without any lifting
of the eyes.

“But that’s just the way of the world,” Mary said with a sigh. “The one
that would do it, that would not think of herself, but just do it, is
never the one that has it in her power. I’ve seen the same thing many a
time. The wilful one that will please herself, it is her that folk
seek--”

Kirsteen’s heart swelled high with mortification and pain. If there was
anything that she had desired in her visionary moods it had been to
sacrifice herself, to do some great thing for her mother, to be the
saving of little Jeanie. She had made many a plan how to do this, how to
perform prodigies for them, to deliver them from dangers. In her dreams
she had saved both from fire and flood, from the burning house which
fancy sacrificed lightly to give her the chance of a piece of heroism,
or from the roaring stream when it ran to its highest, cutting off
Drumcarro, which was a thing that had happened once. And now the smooth
and smiling Mary, who would have thought of nobody in such a strait but
herself, could reproach Kirsteen! And it was a true reproach. Here was
the way, with no need to set the house on fire, or flood the country:
here was a deliverance to be accomplished, that was within her power,
that she could do so easily with no trouble to any one save to him who
was far away, who perhaps would never hear of it, who might have changed
his mind and forgotten Kirsteen long before he heard of it. All the best
part of her seemed to rise against Kirsteen, demanding of her this
sacrifice. Oh, it was so easy to do it in your head, to make a sacrifice
of everything when nothing was wanted!--but when the time came--

And as if this was not enough, little Jeanie came running after Kirsteen
when the poor girl escaped and wandered out again towards the linn in
hope of a little soothing from Nature--Jeanie stole her hand into
Kirsteen’s and rubbed her golden locks against her sister’s sleeve.
“When ye go to Glendochart take me with you,” said Jeanie. “Oh, I would
like to live in a grand house. I would like a powney to ride, and to
play upon the harpsichord as my mother did when she was young. They say
ye’ll be very rich, Kirsteen, when you go with Glendochart.”

“But I will never go with Glendochart!” Kirsteen cried.

“Oh, will ye no? And why will ye no, Kirsteen? Will ye send him away?
Oh, you could never be so cruel as to do that! Will he come here no
more?--and everything be just as it used to be? Oh, Kirsteen!” cried
Jeanie, “I wish you would marry Glendochart!--I would if it was me. He
is the kindest man in the whole world. He speaks to me as if he was--No,
fathers are not kind like that. I like him, Kirsteen, I am awfu’ fond of
him; and so is Jock and Jamie--Oh, I wish ye would change your mind!”

“But, Jeanie, ye would not wish me to be meeserable,” cried poor
Kirsteen.

“No,” said Jeanie--but she added with youthful philosophy, “you wouldna
be meeserable when me and the rest were so happy. And it is us that will
be meeserable if you send him away that has been so good to us all. And
how would ye like that?”

Jeanie’s small voice became almost stern as she asked the question, “How
would ye like that?--to make all the rest meeserable--when the
alternative was nothing more than being meeserable yourself?” Kirsteen
had nothing to say against that logic. She told Jeanie to run to a
certain drawer where she would find some oranges and share them with the
boys. They were Glendochart’s oranges like everything pleasant in the
house. And he was the kindest man in the world. And he would be
miserable too as well as her mother and Jeanie and the laddies. Oh, poor
Kirsteen, with all her best feelings turning traitors to her! would it
not be far easier to consent and make them all happy, and just be
miserable herself?

But she was not to be left free even now. Before she had got to the side
of the linn, to be deafened with the roar and drenched with the spray,
which were the only things she could think of in which any solace was,
Marg’ret coming round the back of the house interrupted her on her way.
“Where are ye going, down by the linn to get your death of cold and
maybe an accident into the bargain? You have nothing upon your head, and
no gloves on your arms, and the grass is drookit. No, my bonny lamb, ye
must not go there.”

“Let me be, Marg’ret. What do I care! If I get my death it will be all
the better; but I’ll no get my death.”

“Lord, save us, to hear her speak! Ye’ll no get your death,--it’s just a
figure of speech; but ye may get the cauld or a sair throat, or
something that will settle on your chest, and that’s as bad. What for
would ye go and tempt Providence? Come into my bonny kitchen that is
all redd up and like a new pin, and get a good warm.”

“Neither warm nor cold is of any consequence to me,” said Kirsteen, “if
folk would just leave me alone.”

“What’s the maitter with my bonny doo? Many a time you’ve come to
Marg’ret with your trouble and we’ve found a way out of it.”

“I see no way out of it,” said Kirsteen. She had reached that point of
young despair when comfort or consolation is an additional aggravation
of the evil. She preferred to be told that everything was over, and that
there was no hope.

“Ye may tell me a’ the same,” said Marg’ret, putting her arm round her
nursling and drawing her close. “It’s about auld Glendochart, that’s
plain for all the world to see.”

“You call him auld Glendochart,” cried Kirsteen.

“Weel, and what would I call him? He’s auld compared to the like of you.
He’s no blate to come here with his grey pow and choose the best of the
flock. But dinna break your heart for that, Kirsteen. Ye must say to him
that ye canna have him. He will take a telling. A man of that age he
kens most things in this world. He will just mount his horse again, and
ride away.”

“It’s easy speaking,” cried Kirsteen, “but it’s me that dare not say a
word. For my father is just red-weed, and will have it, Marg’ret. And my
mother, she wants it too. And all of them they are upon me because I
cannot consent: for oh, I cannot consent!--whatever folk may think or
say, it’s just this, that I cannot do it. I would sooner die.”

“There is nobody that will force you,” said Marg’ret. “Dinna lose heart,
my bonny bairn. The laird himself is very fierce sometimes, but his bark
is worse than his bite. Na, na, ye must just keep up your heart.
Glendochart will soon see, he will let nobody force ye. Things like that
never come to pass noo. They’re just a relic of the auld times. Maybe
the auld Douglases that we hear so much about, that had the rights of
fire and sword, and dark towers and dungeons to shut ye up in, might
have done it. But where would he shut ye up here? There’s no a lock to
any room door in this house!” Marg’ret’s laugh had a cheerful sound in
the air, it broke the spell. “Your father may want to frighten you, and
bring ye to his will--but he will do nae maír; and as for the mistress,
she will reproach ye for a day and then it’ll be a’ done.”

Kirsteen was obliged to confess that there was something in this. Her
mother had been in despair for twenty-four hours, and “just her
ordinary” the day after on many previous occasions. It might all “blow
over” as Marg’ret said, especially if Glendochart should see with his
own eyes how little disposed was the bride whom the family were so
anxious to put into his arms. No doubt his feelings would be hurt, which
was a thing Kirsteen did not like to think of. But somebody must suffer
it was clear, and if so, perhaps it was better that it should be
Glendochart who was an old man, and no doubt used to it, and who was
also a rich man, and could go away and divert himself as Marg’ret
suggested.

Marg’ret was of opinion that though it might hurt his feelings it was
not likely at his age that it would break his heart. For hearts are more
fragile at twenty than at sixty--at least in that way.




CHAPTER XV.


Marg’ret had said with truth that the troubles of her young favourite
had often been smoothed away after a consultation with herself. The best
of us have our weak points, and the excellent Marg’ret was perhaps a
little vain of the faculty of “seeing a way out of it,” which she
believed herself to possess. She had seen a way out of it in many family
tribulations which had a way of appearing less desperate when she took
them in hand. And her last grand success in respect to the ball at the
Castle had no doubt added to her confidence in herself. But after having
turned it over in her mind for the best part of the night Marg’ret found
that even her courage did not sustain her when she thought of
confronting Drumcarro and requiring of him that he should give up the
marriage on which he had evidently set his heart. Marg’ret was
conscious that she was herself partly to blame: had she not set before
him in the famous argument about the ball the fact that in no other way
was there any likelihood of finding “a man” for either of his daughters?
Alas, the man had been too easy to find, and how was she to confront him
now and bid him let go his prize? Marg’ret’s heart sank, though it was
not given to sinking. She lay awake half the night turning it over and
over in her mind, first representing to herself under every light the
possible argument with Drumcarro and what he would say, and what she
would say. She heard herself remonstrating, “Sir, ye canna force your
ain bairn, to make her meeserable,” and the response, “What the deevil
have you to do with it, if I make her meeserable or no?” She had been
_dans son droit_ when she had interfered about the muslin gowns and the
ball, and the necessity of letting the young ladies be seen in the
world--but who was she to meddle with a marriage when everybody was
pleased but just the poor lassie herself? A poor lassie will change her
mind as Marg’ret knew, and will sometimes be very thankful to those who
opposed her foolish youth, and made her do what turned out to be so good
for her. There was nothing so little to be calculated upon, as the
sentiments of a girl whose position would be unspeakably improved by
marriage, and whose silly bits of feeling might change at any moment. It
is true that Kirsteen was not silly but full of sense far beyond her
years. But even she might change her mind, and who could doubt that
Drumcarro’s daughter would be far better off as Glendochart’s wife?

All this “dautoned” Marg’ret as she would herself have said. She began
even to glide away from her conviction that the master must be wrong.
This is a fine working sentiment, and helps to surmount many
difficulties, but when a reasonable soul is smitten by hesitation and
feels that it is possible for even a habitual wrongdoer to be for once
in the right, it takes the strength out of all effort. Finding herself
less and less likely to be able with any comfort to object, Marg’ret
began instinctively to turn to the other side of the question; and she
found there was a great deal to be said on that other side. Glendochart
was old--but after all he was not so dreadfully old, not in the stage of
extreme age, as Kirsteen supposed. He was a “personable man.” He would
give his young wife everything that heart of woman (in Argyllshire)
could desire. She would have a carriage to drive about in and a
saddle-horse to ride. She would get a spinet, or a harpsichord, or the
new-fangled thing that was called a piany to play upon if she pleased;
and as many books as she could set her face to; and maybe a sight of
London and the King’s court, “decent man! if he were but weel again,”
said Marg’ret to herself, for the name of the Prince Regent was not in
good odour. All this would be Kirsteen’s if she could but just get over
that feeling about the old man. And after all Marg’ret went on,
reasoning herself into a more and more perfect adoption of the only
practicable side, he was not such an old man. Two or three years younger
than Drumcarro--and Drumcarro had life enough in him, just a very born
devil as fierce as ever he was. They would be bold that would call the
laird an old man, and Glendochart was three at least, maybe five years
younger. Not an old man at all--just a little over his prime; and a
well-made personable man, doing everything that the youngest did, riding
every day and out stalking on the hills in the season, and hurling, as
Kirsteen herself had allowed, with the best. When everything was done
and said what should hinder her to take Glendochart? He was a far finer
gentleman than anybody that Kirsteen was likely to meet with. He was a
good man, everybody said. He was what you might call a near kinsman of
the Duke’s, not more than four or five times removed. She would be in
the best of company at Glendochart, invited out to dinner, and to all
the diversions that were going. What could a lassie want more? Marg’ret
woke in the morning in a great hurry, having overslept herself after a
wakeful night, with the same conviction in her mind which was so
strongly impressed upon all the others. It was just for everybody’s
advantage that Kirsteen should marry Glendochart, and for her own most
of all.

Kirsteen herself had been much calmed and invigorated by her
consultation with Marg’ret. That authority had made so little of the
obstacles and the dangers, as if it would be the easiest thing in the
world to shake off Glendochart, and convince Drumcarro that nothing
could be done. For the moment Kirsteen’s heart rose. She was accustomed
to put great trust in Marg’ret, to see her cheerful assurances more or
less justified. Many a storm had blown over which had filled the girl
with terror, but which Marg’ret had undertaken should come to nothing.
And if that was what Marg’ret thought now, all might be well. That day
Kirsteen bore herself with great courage, getting back her colour, and
singing about the house as was her wont, though it was only by a great
effort that she dismissed the foreboding from her heart. And this brave
front she kept up heroically during the greater part of the week of
Glendochart’s absence, finding her best help in silence and a determined
avoidance of the subject--but the courage oozed out at her finger tips
as the days stole away. They seemed to go like conspirators one by one
bringing her near the dreadful moment which she could not avoid. It had
been on Thursday that her father had spoken to her, and now the week had
gone all but a day. Kirsteen had just realized this with a sick
fluttering at her heart, as she stood at the door watching the ruddy
colours of the sunset die out of the heavens. Something of the feeling
of the condemned who watches his last sun setting had come into her mind
in spite of herself: what might have happened to her before to-morrow?
Would her father’s curse be on her, or the still heavier malison of a
creature mansworn, false to her dearest vow?

While she was thus musing, all her fictitious courage forsaking her, she
felt herself suddenly and roughly caught by the arm from behind. “Well,”
said her father, “are ye thinking what ye’ll say to your joe? He’s to be
here to-morrow to his dinner, and he’ll expect to find all settled. Have
ye fixed with your mother about the day?”

“Father,” cried Kirsteen in a wild sudden panic, “you know what I said
to ye. There’s no day to be settled. I will tell him I cannot do it. I
cannot do it. There’s no question about a day.”

He swung her round with that iron grasp upon her arm so that she faced
him. His fierce eyes blazed upon her with a red light from under his
heavy eyelids. “Dare to say a word but what I tell ye, and I’ll dash
ye--in pieces like a potter’s vessel!” cried Drumcarro, taking the first
similitude that occurred to him. He shook her as he spoke, her frame,
though it was well-knit and vigorous, quivering in his grasp. “Just say
a word more of your damned nonsense and I’ll lay ye at my feet!”

Kirsteen’s heart fluttered to her throat with a sickening terror; but
she looked him in the face with what steadiness she could command, and a
dumb resolution. The threat gave her back a sense of something
unconquerable in her, although every limb shook.

“Ye’ll see Glendochart when he comes--in my presence--ye’ll have the day
fixed and all put in order. Or if ye want to appear like a woman and not
a petted bairn before your man that is to be, you’ll settle it
yourself. I give you full liberty if you’ll behave yourself. But
hearken,” he said, giving her another shake, “I’ll have no confounded
nonsense. If ye go against me in a strange man’s presence and expose the
family, I will just strike ye down at my feet, let what will come of it.
Do you hear what I say?”

“He will not let you strike me,” she cried in terror, yet defiance.

“Ye’ll be at my feet before he has the chance,” cried Drumcarro. “And
who’s will be the wyte if your father, the last of the Douglases, should
be dragged to a jail for you? If ye expose my family to scorn and shame,
I’ll do it more. Do you hear me? Now go and settle it with your mother,”
he said, suddenly letting her go. Kirsteen, thrown backward by the
unexpected liberation, fell back with a dizzying shock against the
lintel of the door. She lay against it for a moment sick and giddy, the
light fading from her eyes; and for a minute or two Kirsteen thought she
was going to die. It is a conviction that comes easily at such a crisis.
It seemed to the girl so much the best way out of it, just to be done
with it all.

    “The only art her guilt to cover,
       To hide her shame from every eye,
     To bring repentance to her lover,
       And wring his bosom--”

Poor Kirsteen had no guilt, nor had she any clear apprehension what this
meant, or what guilt it was--it might have been only the guilt of
disobedience, the shame of exposing the family for anything she knew;
but the words flashed through her mind in her half-faint, lying
speechless against the door. It would bring repentance to them all and
wring their bosoms--it would save the shame of a disturbance and the
dreadful sight of a struggle between father and daughter. The only
art--just to die.

He had said, “Go to your mother.” This came vaguely back to her mind as
she came to herself. Her mother--no, her mother would say just the same,
they would all say the same. She had no one to go to. Then Kirsteen’s
gradually quickening senses heard something which sounded like an
approaching footstep. She roused herself in a moment, and still sick and
faint, with a singing in her ears, turned and fled--not to her mother,
to Marg’ret in the kitchen, who was her only hope.

The kitchen was, as Marg’ret had said “like a new pin” at that hour, all
clean and bright, the fire made up, the hearth swept, the traces of
dinner all cleared away. It was the moment when Marg’ret could sit down
to needlework or spell out some old, old newspaper which even the
minister had done with; her assistant Merran was out in the byre looking
after the kye, and Marg’ret was alone. When Kirsteen rushed in
unsteadily and threw herself down in the big wooden chair by the
fireside, Marg’ret was threading a needle which was a work of patience.
But this sudden invasion distracted her completely and made her lay
down both thread and needle with a sigh.

“My bonny woman! What is the matter now?”

“Marg’ret, I nearly fainted standing against the door.”

“Fainted! bless the bairn! na, na, no so bad as that. Your head’s cool
and so is your hand. What was it, Kirsteen?”

“Or nearly died would be more like it, and that would maybe have been
the best.” And then with moist eyes fixed upon her anxious companion and
a tremulous smile about her mouth Kirsteen repeated her verse--

    “The only art her guilt to cover,
       To hide her shame from every eye,
     To bring repentance to her lover,
       And wring his bosom--is to die.”

“Kirsteen! what is that you are saying?” cried Marg’ret, a sudden flush
showing even upon her ruddy colour. “Guilt and shame! What have those
dreadfu’ things to do with you?”

“I am disobeying both father and mother,” said the girl solemnly, “isna
that guilt? And oh, it’s shaming all belonging to me to stand against
them; but I canna help it, I canna help it. Oh, Marg’ret, hide me from
him, find me a place to go to! What will I do! what will I do!”

“My dear, my dear!” said Marg’ret, “you make my heart sair. What can I
say to you? I have ever taken your pairt as you ken weel--but oh, my
bonny woman, I canna but think you’re a little unreasonable. What ails
you at Glendochart? He’s a good man and an honourable man, and it would
please everybody. To think so much of his age when there’s no other
objection is not like you that had always such sense. And ye would be
far happier, Kirsteen, in a house of your own. Because there’s white on
his head is that a cause to turn your heart from a good man?”

Kirsteen said nothing for a moment: she looked with wistful eyes and a
faint smile in Marg’ret’s face, shaking her head; then suddenly rising
up went away out of the kitchen, hurrying as much as her limbs, still
feeble with the late shock and struggle, would let her. Marg’ret stood
aghast while her hurried irregular step was audible going up stairs.

“Now I have just angered her,” said Marg’ret to herself, “and cast back
her bit heart upon herself, and made her feel she has no true friend.
Will I go after her,--or will I wait till she comes back?”

This question was settled for her as she stood listening and uncertain,
by the sound of Kirsteen’s return. Marg’ret listened eagerly while she
came down stairs again step by step. She came into the kitchen with the
same vague deprecating smile upon her face. She had a little Testament
in its blue boards in her hand. She said nothing, but opening it held
out to her faithful adviser the fly-leaf upon which there stood the
initials together of R. D. and C. D., connected with the feeble
pencilling of the runic knot. Kirsteen said not a word, but held it out
open, pointing to this simple symbol with her other hand. “R. D.,” said
Marg’ret, “wha’ is that? C. D., that will just stand for yourself. It’s
not one of Robbie’s books--it’s--it’s--Oh!” she cried with sudden
enlightenment, “now I understand!”

Kirsteen put the little page solemnly to her trembling lips, a tear
almost dropped upon it, but she shut the book quickly that no stain
should come upon it, even of a tear. She did not say a word during this
little tender revelation of her heart, but turned her eyes and her faint
propitiatory smile to Marg’ret as if there was no more to be said.

“And this has been in your heart all the time!” cried Marg’ret, drying
her eyes with her apron. “I thought of that, twa-three times. There was
something in his look yon day he gaed away, but I never said a word, for
who can tell? And this was in your heart a’ the time?”

“He said, ‘Will ye wait till I come back?’ and I said, ‘That I will!’”
said Kirsteen, but very softly, the sweetness of the recollection coming
back to soothe her in the midst of all the pain.

“And that’s how they’ve tied their lives, thae young things!” said
Marg’ret also with a kind of solemnity. “A word spoken that is done in a
moment, and after that--a’ thae long and weary years--and maybe for all
they ken never to see ilk ither again.”

“And if it should be so,” said Kirsteen, “it would just be for death
instead of life, and all the same.”

“Oh, weel I ken that,” said Marg’ret shaking her head. She made a pause,
and then she added hurriedly, “What’s to be done with you, lassie? If
Glendochart’s coming the morn to mairry ye there’s no time to be lost.”

“Marg’ret, I will just go away.”

“Where will ye go to? It’s easy speaking: a creature like you cannot
travel the country-side like a servant lass going to a new place. And
ye’ve nae friends that will take such a charge. Miss Eelen would be
frightened out of her wits. I know nobody that will help you but
Glendochart himself--and you couldna go to him.”

“What is that letter on the table, Marg’ret, and who is it from?”

“The letter? What’s in the letter? Can ye think of that at sic a moment?
It’s a letter from my sister Jean.”

“Marg’ret, that’s just where I am going! I see it all in a flash like
lightning. I am going to London to your sister Jean.”

“The bairn is clean out of her senses!” cried Marg’ret almost with a
scream.

And then they stood and looked at each other for a long rapid minute,
interchanging volumes in the silent meeting of their eyes. Kirsteen had
sprung in a moment from the agitated creature who had come to Marg’ret
to be hidden, to be sheltered, not knowing what could be done with her,
to the quick-witted, high-spirited girl she was by nature, alive with
purpose and strong intuition, fearing nothing. And Marg’ret read all
this new world of meaning in the girl’s eyes more surely than words
could have told her. She saw the sudden flash of the resolution, the
clearing away of all clouds, the rise of the natural courage, the
Kirsteen of old whom nothing could “dauton” coming back. “Oh, my lamb!”
she breathed under her breath.

“There’s not a moment to be lost,” said Kirsteen, “for I must go in the
morning before anybody is up. And ye must not tell a living creature but
keep my secret, Marg’ret. For go I must, there is no other thing to do.
And maybe I will never come back. My father will never forgive me. I
will be like Anne cut off from the family. But go I must, for no more
can I bide here. Give me the letter from your sister to let her see it’s
me when I get there. And give me your blessing, Marg’ret--it’s all the
blessing I will get. And let me go!”

“Not to-night, Kirsteen!”

“No, not to-night; but early--early in the morning before daylight.
Dinna say a word--not a word. It’s all clear before me. I’ll be at
nobody’s charges, I’ll fend for myself; and your sister Jean will show
me the way.”

There was another silence during which Kirsteen, quite regardless of the
rights of propriety which existed no more between Marg’ret and herself
than between mother and daughter, took possession of Miss Jean Brown’s
letter, while Marg’ret stood reflecting, entirely alarmed by the
revelation made to her, and by the sudden re-birth of the vehement young
creature who had been for a time so subdued and broken down by her first
contest with the world. To keep Kirsteen back was, in the circumstances
and with the strong convictions of the Scotch serving woman as to the
force of a trothplight and the binding character of a vow, impossible.
But to let her go thus unfriended, unaided, alone into an unknown world,
far more unknown to Marg’ret than the ends of the earth would be to her
representative now, was something more than could be borne. She suddenly
exclaimed in a sharp tone with a cruel hope: “And where are ye to get
the siller? It’s mad and mad enough any way, but madder still without a
penny in your pocket. How are ye to get to London without money? It’s
just impossible.”

“I can walk, others have done it before me. I’m well and strong and a
grand walker,” said Kirsteen, but not till after a pause of
consternation, this consideration not having crossed her mind before.

“Walk! it’s just hundreds of miles, and takes a week in the coach,”
cried Marg’ret. “Ye cannot walk, no to say ye would want money even
then, for I’m no supposing that you mean to beg your bread from door to
door. Without money ye canna go a step. I’ll not permit it. Have ye
anything of your ain?”

“I have the gold guinea my grandmother left me in her will; but I have
no more. How should I have any more?”

Marg’ret stood for a moment undecided, while Kirsteen waited a little
eager, a little expectant like a child. It did not occur to her to
deprecate help from Marg’ret as a more high-minded heroine might have
done. Marg’ret was a little Providence at Drumcarro. She had store of
everything that the children wanted, and had been their resource all
their lives. And Kirsteen had not realized the difference between money
and other indispensable things. She waited like a child, following
Marg’ret with her eyes until some expedient should be thought of. She
breathed a sigh of suspense yet expectation when Marg’ret hurried away
to her bedroom at the back of the house, seating herself again in the
big chair to wait, not impatiently, for the solution of the problem.
Marg’ret came back after a few minutes with a work-box in her hand. All
kinds of things had come out of that box in the experience of the
children at Drumcarro, things good and evil, little packets of powders
for childish maladies, sweeties to be taken after the nauseous mouthful,
needles and thimbles and scissors when these needful implements had all
been lost, as happened periodically, even a ribbon or a pair of gloves
in times of direst need. She began to turn over the well-remembered
contents--old buttons, hooks and eyes from old gowns long departed,
Marg’ret’s two brooches that formed all her jewellery wrapped up in
separate pieces of paper. “My sister Jean,” said Marg’ret with her head
bent over the box, “has often bidden me to come and see her in London
town. You ken why I couldna go. I couldna thole to leave you that are
leavin’ me without a tear. And she sent me what would do for my
chairges. It was never touched by me. It took me a great deal of trouble
to get Scotch notes for it, and here it is at the bottom of my box with
many an auld relic on the top of it--just a’ I’ll have of ye when ye’ve
got your will,” said Marg’ret, a tear dropping among the miscellaneous
articles in the box. She took from the bottom a little parcel in an old
letter, folded square and written closely to the very edge of the seal.
“Hae! take it! and ye maun just do with it what pleasures yoursel’,”
Marg’ret cried.




CHAPTER XVI.


The 12th of January was a still, gray winter day, not very cold and
exceedingly calm, the winds all hushed, the clouds hanging low, with a
possibility of rain--a possibility which is never remote in a Highland
landscape. As the slow daylight began to bring the hills into sight, not
with any joyous sunrising but with a faint diffusion of gray upon the
dark, a gradual growing visible of the greater points, then very slowly
of the details of the landscape, there came also into sight, first
ghost-like, a moving, noiseless shadow, then something which
consolidated into the slim figure of a woman, a solitary traveller
moving steadily along the dewy mountain road. It came in sight like the
hills, not like an interruption to the landscape but a portion of it,
becoming visible along with it, having been in the dark as well as in
the light. Before the day was fully awake it was there, a gliding shadow
going straight up the hills and over the moors, at the same measured
pace, not so much quick as steady, with a wonderful still intensity of
progress. The road was more than dewy, it was glistening wet with the
heavy damps of the night, every crevice among the rocks green and
sodden, every stone glistening. The traveller did not keep exactly to
the road, was not afraid of the wet hillside turf, nor even of a gray
<DW18> to climb if it shortened the way. She passed lightly over bits of
moss among the rustling, faded heather, and spots of suspicious
greenness which meant bog, choosing her footing on the black roots of
the wild myrtle, and the knolls of blackberries, like one to the manner
born. She gave a soul to the wild and green landscape, so lonely, so
washed with morning dews. She was going--where? From the impossible to
the possible--from the solitudes of the hills into the world.

Kirsteen had been walking for hours before she thus came into sight, and
the dark and the silence had filled her with many a flutter of terror.
It took something from what might have been in other circumstances the
overwhelming excitement of thus leaving home to encounter that other
bewildering and awful sensation of going out into the night, with every
one asleep and all wrapped in the profound blackness of winter, through
which it was hard enough even for the most familiar to find a way. This
horror and alarm had so occupied her mind, and the sensation of being
the one creature moving and conscious in that world of darkness that she
had scarcely realized the severance she was making, the tearing asunder
of her life. Even Marg’ret, repressing her emotion lest a sob should
catch some wakeful ear in the sleeping house, had faded from Kirsteen’s
mind when she took the first step into the dark. She knew there were no
wild beasts who could devour her, no robbers who would seize her, as she
had fancied when a child: she had a trembling sense that God would
protect her from ghosts and spiritual evils; but her young soul trembled
with fears both physical and spiritual, just as much as when she had
wandered out in the dark at six years old. Reason convinces but does not
always support the inexperienced spirit. When the ever wakeful dogs at
the little clachan heard the faint footfall upon the edge of the path
and barked, Kirsteen was half-consoled and half-maddened with terror. If
some one should wake and wonder, and suspect a midnight thief, and burst
open a door and find her; but on the other hand it was a little comfort
to feel that even a dog was waking in that black expanse of night.

She had already come a long way, before the daylight, when she and the
landscape that inclosed her came dimly, faintly into sight in the first
gray of the morning. Her eyes had got accustomed to the darkness, her
heart a little calmed and sustained by the fact that nothing had
happened to her yet, no hidden malefactor in the dark, nor sheeted
whiteness from the churchyard interrupting her on her way. Her heart had
beat while she passed, loud enough to have wakened the whole clachan,
but nothing had stirred, save the dogs--and safe as in the warmest
daylight she had got by the graves. Nothing could be so bad as that
again. Partly by familiar knowledge and partly by the consciousness of
certain gradations in the darkness as she became used to it, she had got
forward on her way until she had reached the head of the loch where the
water was a guide to her. Kirsteen had resolved that she would not
venture to approach the town or cross the loch in the boat, the usual
way, but taking a large sweep round the end of the loch, strike at once
into the wilds which lay between her and the comparatively higher
civilization of the regions within reach of Glasgow. If she could but
reach that great city, which was only second in her dim conceptions to
London itself, she would feel that she was safe, but not before. She
came round the head of the loch in the beginnings of the dawn and had
pushed her way far into the gloomy mystery of Hell’s Glen, with its bare
hills rising to the dim sky on either side, before the height of noon.
It is gloomy there even when the height of noon means the dazzling of a
Highland summer day. But when the best of the daylight is a dull gray,
the long lines of the glen, unbroken by anything but a shepherd’s hut
here and there at long intervals, and the road that could be seen
winding through like a strip of ribbon all the way gave the fugitive a
mingled sense of serenity and of that tingling, audible solitude and
remoteness from all living aid or society which thrills every nerve.
When she was half way through the glen, however, the thrill was subdued
by that experience of no harm as yet which is the most perfect of
support, and Kirsteen began to be conscious that she had eaten nothing
and scarcely rested since she set out. She had swallowed a mouthful as
she walked--she had thrown herself down for a moment on the
hillside--but now it seemed possible to venture upon a little real rest.

Kirsteen was dressed in a dark woollen gown of homespun stuff, made like
all the dresses of the time, with a straight, long, narrow skirt, and a
short bodice cut low round her shoulders. Over this she had a warm
spencer, another bodice with long sleeves, rising to her throat, where
it was finished with a frill. She had strong country shoes and woollen
stockings just visible under her skirt. Her bonnet was a little of the
coal-scuttle shape but not very large; and flung back over it, but so
that she could put it down over her face at a moment’s notice, was a
large black veil, such an imitation of Spanish lace as was practicable
at the time, better in workmanship, worse in material than anything we
have now. The large pattern with its gigantic flowers in thick work hid
the face better than any lighter fabric, and it hung over the bonnet
when thrown back like a cloud. She had a bundle on one arm, done up
carefully in a handkerchief containing two changes of linen, and another
gown, carefully folded by Marg’ret into the smallest possible space; and
on the other a camlet cloak, dark blue, with a fur collar and metal
clasps, which was Marg’ret’s own. This was sore lading for a long walk,
but it was indispensable in face of the January winds, and the cold on
the coach, of which Marg’ret knew dreadful things. To Kirsteen it
seemed that if she could but reach that coach, and pursue her journey by
the aid of other legs than her own, and with company, all her troubles
would be over. She sat upon the hillside anxiously watching the path
lest any suspicious figure should appear upon it, and took out from her
wallet the last scones of Marg’ret’s she was likely to eat for a long
time. Should she ever eat Marg’ret’s scones again? Salt tears came to
Kirsteen’s eyes and moistened her comely face. It was done now--the
dreadful step taken, never to be altered, the parting made. Her life and
her home lay far behind her, away beyond the hills that shut her in on
every side. She said to herself with trembling lips that the worst was
over; by this time every one in Drumcarro would know that she was gone.
They would have looked for her in every corner, up on the hill and down
by the linn where the water poured into the vexed and foaming gulf.
Would it come into anybody’s head that she had thrown herself in and
made an end of everything?

    “The only art her guilt to cover.”

Would they send and tell Glendochart, poor old gentleman--would they
warn him not to come to a distressed house? Or would he be allowed to
come and her father say to him: “She is not worthy of a thought. She is
no bairn of mine from this day”? “And my mother will go to her bed,”
said Kirsteen to herself with a tear or two, yet with the faint gleam
of a smile. She could see them all in their different ways--her father
raging, her mother weeping, and Mary telling everybody that she was not
surprised. And Marg’ret--Marg’ret would put on a steady countenance so
that nobody could tell what she knew and what she didn’t know. It almost
amused Kirsteen though it made her breath come quick, and brought the
tears to her eyes, to sit thus in the deep solitude with the silence of
the hills all thrilling round, and look down as it were upon that other
scene, a strangely interested spectator, seeing everything, and her own
absence which was the strangest of all.

But perhaps she sat too long and thought too much, or the damp of the
sod had cramped her young limbs, or the tremendous walk of the morning
told more after an interval of rest, for when she roused herself at last
and got up again, Kirsteen felt a universal ache through her frame, and
stumbled as she came down from her perch to the road below. How was she
to get through Glencroe to Arrochar--another long and weary course? The
solitude of the glen came upon her again with a thrill of horror. If she
could not walk any better than this it would be dark, dark night again
before she came to the end of her journey--would she ever come to the
end of her journey? Would she drop down upon the hill and lie there till
some one found her? A wave of discouragement and misery came over her.
There was a house within sight, one of those hovels in which still the
Highland shepherd or crofter is content to live. Kirsteen knew such
interiors well--the clay floor, the black, smoke-darkened walls, the
throng of children round the fire: there was no room to take in a
stranger, no way of getting help for her to push on with her journey.
All the pictures of imagination fled from her, scant and troubled though
they had been. Everything in the world seemed wept out except the
sensation of this wild solitude, the aching of her tired limbs, the
impossibility of getting on, her own dreadful loneliness and
helplessness in this wild, silent, unresponsive world.

Kirsteen could scarcely tell how she dragged herself to the entrance of
the glen. A little solitary mountain farm or gillie’s house stood at
some distance from the road, approached by a muddy cart-track. The road
was bad enough, not much more than a track, for there were as yet no
tourists (nay, no magician to send them thither) in those days. A rough
cart came lumbering down this path as she crept her way along, and soon
made up to her. Kirsteen had made up her mind to ask for a “cast” or
“lift” to help her along, but her courage failed her when the moment
came, and she allowed the rude vehicle to lumber past with a heart that
ached as much as her limbs to see this chance of ease slip by. She
endeavoured as much as she could to keep within a certain distance of
the cart “for company,” to cheat the overwhelming loneliness which had
come over her. And perhaps the carter, who was an elderly rustic with
grizzled hair, perceived her meaning, perhaps he saw the longing look in
her eyes. After he had gone on a little way he turned and came slowly
back. “Maybe you’re ower genteel for the like of that,” he said, “but I
would sooner ye thought me impident than leave you your lane on this
rough long road. Would you like a lift in the cart? There’s clean straw
in it, and you’re looking weariet.”

Poor Kirsteen had nearly wept for pleasure. She seated herself upon the
clean straw with a sense of comfort which no carriage could have
surpassed. It was a mode of conveyance not unknown to her. The gig had
seldom been vouchsafed to the use of the girls in Drumcarro. They had
much more often been packed into the cart. She thanked the friendly
carter with all her heart. “For I am weariet,” she said, “and the road’s
wet and heavy both for man and beast.”

“Ye’ll have come a far way,” he said, evidently feeling that desire for
information or amusement which unexpected company is wont to raise in
the rustic heart.

Kirsteen answered that she had come from a little place not far from
Loch Fyne, then trembled lest she had betrayed herself.

“It’s very Hieland up there,” said the carter; “that’s the country of
the Lord their God the Duke, as Robbie Burns calls him. We have him here
too, but no so overpowering. Ye’ll be a Campbell when you’re at hame?”

“No, I am not a Campbell,” said Kirsteen. It occurred to her for the
first time that she must give some account of herself. “I’m going,” she
said, “to take up--a situation.”

“I just thought that. ’Twill be some pingling trade like showing or
hearing weans their letters, keeping ye in the house and on a seat the
haill day long?”

“Something of that kind,” Kirsteen said.

“And you’re a country lass, and used to the air of the hills. Take you
care--oh, take care! I had one mysel’--as fine a lass as ye would see,
with roses on her cheeks, and eyes just glancing bright like your ain;
and as weel and as hearty as could be. But before a twelvemonth was
o’er, her mother and me we had to bring her hame.”

“Oh,” cried Kirsteen, “I am very sorry--but she’s maybe better.”

“Ay, she’s better,” said the carter. “Weel--wi’ her Faither which is in
heaven.”

“Oh, I’m sorry, sorry!” cried Kirsteen, with tears in her eyes.

“Thank ye for that: ye have a look of her: I couldna pass ye by: but eh,
for Gudesake if ye have faither and mother to break their hearts for
you, take care.”

“You must have liked her well, well!” said the girl. Fatigue and languor
in herself added to the keen sense of sympathy and pity. “I wish it had
been me instead of her,” she said hastily.

“Eh,” said the man, “that’s a sair thing to say! Ye must be an orphan
with none to set their hearts on you--but you’re young, poor thing, and
there’s nae telling what good may come to ye. Ye must not let down your
heart.”

The cart rumbled on with many a jolt, the carter jogged by the side and
talked, the sound and motion were both drowsy, and Kirsteen was
extremely tired. By and by these sounds and sensations melted into a
haze of almost beatitude, the drowsiness that comes over tired limbs and
spirit when comparative ease succeeds to toil. After a while she lost
consciousness altogether and slept nestled in the straw, like a tired
child. She was awakened by the stoppage of the cart, and opening her
eyes to the gray yet soft heavens above and the wonder of waking in the
open air, found herself at the end of a road which led up to a farmstead
at the mouth of Glencroe where the valley opens out upon the shore of
that long inlet of the sea which is called Loch Long.

“I’m wae to disturb ye, but I must take the cairt back to the town, and
my ain house is two miles down the loch. But there’s a real dacent woman
at the inn at Arrochar.”

“It’s there I was going,” said Kirsteen hurriedly sliding from her
place. She had been covered with her camlet cloak as she lay, and the
straw had kept her warm. “I’m much obliged to you,” she said--“will ye
take a--will ye let me give you--”

“No a farden, no a farden,” cried the man. “I would convoy ye to Mrs.
Macfarlane’s door, but I have to supper my horse. Will ye gie me a shake
of your hand? You’re a bonny lass and I hope ye’ll be a guid ane--but
mind there’s awfu’ temptations in thae towns.”

Kirsteen walked away very stiff but refreshed, half angry, half amused
by this last caution. She said to herself with a blush that he could not
have known who she was--a lady! or he would not have given her that
warning, which was not applicable to the like of her. They said poor
lassies in service, out among strangers, stood in need of it, poor
things. It was not a warning that had any meaning to a gentlewoman; but
how was the man to know?

She went on still in a strange confusion of weariness and the haze of
awakening to where the little town of Arrochar lay low by the banks of
the loch. It was dark there sooner than in other places, and already a
light or two began to twinkle in the windows. Two or three men were
lingering outside the inn when Kirsteen reached the place, and daunted
her--she who was never daunted. She went quickly past, as quickly as her
fatigue would admit, as if she knew where she was going. She thought to
herself that if any one remarked it would be thought she was going home
to her friends, going to some warm and cheerful kent place--and she a
waif and outcast on the world! When she had passed, she loitered and
looked back, finding a dim corner where nobody could see her, behind
the little hedge of a cottage garden. Presently a woman in a widow’s
cap came briskly out to the door of the little inn, addressing a lively
word or two to the loitering men, which made them move and disperse; and
now was Kirsteen’s time. She hurried back and timidly approached the
woman at the inn door as if she had been a princess. “Ye’ll maybe be
Mistress Macfarlane?” said Kirsteen.

“I’m just that; and what may ye be wanting? Oh, I see you’re a
traveller,” said the brisk landlady; “you’ll be wanting lodging for the
night.”

“If you have a room ye can give me--with a bed--I’ve had a long
walk--from near Loch Fyne,” said Kirsteen, feeling that explanation was
necessary, and looking wistfully in the face of the woman on whom her
very life seemed to depend. For what if she should refuse her, a young
girl all alone, and turn her away from the door?

Mrs. Macfarlane was too good a physiognomist for that--but she looked at
Kirsteen curiously in the waning light. “That’s a far way to come on
your feet,” she said, “and you’re a young lass to be wandering the
country by yourself.”

“I’m going--to take up a situation,” said Kirsteen. “If ye should have a
room----”

“Oh, it’s no for want of a room. Come in, there’s plenty of room. So
ye’re going to take up a situation? Your minnie must have been sair at
heart to let you gang afoot such a weary way.”

“There was no other--convenience,” said Kirsteen, sick and faint. She
had to make an effort not to cry. She had not thought of this ordeal,
and her limbs would scarcely sustain her.

“Come in,” said the woman. “Would you rather go to your bed, or sit down
by the fire with me? Lord bless us, the poor thing’s just fainting,
Eelen. Take her into the parlour, and put her in the big chair by the
fire.”

“I’m not fainting--I’m only so tired I cannot speak,” said Kirsteen,
with a faint smile.

“Go ben, go ben,” said Mrs. Macfarlane, “and I’ll make the tea, and ye
shall have a cup warm and strong. There’s naething will do you so much
good.”

And to lie back in the big chair by the warm fire seemed like paradise
to Kirsteen. This was her fortunate lot on her first night from home.




CHAPTER XVII.


She had, however, much questioning to go through. There was but little
custom to occupy the woman of the inn, and the mingled instincts of
kindness and gossip, and that curiosity which is so strong among those
who have little to learn save what they can persuade their neighbours to
tell them, had much dominion over Mrs. Macfarlane. Kindness perhaps was
the strongest quality of all. Her tea was hot and strong and what she
considered well “masket” before the fire; and when the Highland maid,
who could speak little English, but hung about in silent admiration of
the unexpected visitor, who was a new incident in the glen, had “boilt”
some eggs, and placed a plate of crisp cakes--the oatcakes which were
the habitual bread of Scotland at that period--and another of brown
barley scones, upon the table, the mistress herself sat down to
encourage her guest to eat.

“There’s some fine salt herrings if ye would like that better, or I
could soon fry ye a bit of ham. We’ve baith pork hams and mutton hams in
the house. But a fresh boilt egg is just as good as anything, and mair
nat’ral to a woman. Ye’ll be gaun to Glasco where everybody goes?”

“Yes,” said Kirsteen, with a doubt in her heart whether it was honest
not to add that she was going further on.

“I wonder what they can see in’t--a muckle dirty place, with long lums
pouring out smoke. I wouldna gie Arrochar for twenty o’t.”

“I suppose,” said Kirsteen, “it’s because there is aye plenty doing
there.”

“I suppose sae. And ye’re going to take up a situation? It’s no a place
I would choose for a young lass, but nae doubt your mother kens what
she’s doing. Is it a lady’s maid place, or to be with bairns, or--I’m
sure I beg your pardon! You’ll be a governess, I might have seen.”

Kirsteen had grown very red at the thought of being taken for a lady’s
maid, but she said to herself quickly that her pride was misplaced, and
that it was the best service any one could do her to think her so. “Oh,
no,” she said, “I’m not clever enough to be a governess. I’m going--to a
mantua-maker’s.”

“Weel, weel--that’s a very genteel trade, and many a puir leddy thankful
to get into it,” said Mrs. Macfarlane. “I’m doubting you’re one
yoursel’, or else ye have lived with better kind of folk, for ye’ve real
genty ways, and a bonny manner. Take heed to yourself in Glasco, and
take up with none of thae young sprigs in offices that think themselves
gentlemen. Will ye no take another cup? Weel, and I wouldna wonder ye
would be better in your bed than any other place. And how are ye going
on in the morning? There’s a coach from Eelensburgh, but it’s a long
walk to get there. If ye like Duncan will get out the gig and drive you.
It would be a matter of twelve or maybe fifteen shillings if he couldna
get a job back--which is maist unlikely at this time of the year.”

With many thanks for the offer Kirsteen tremblingly explained that she
could not afford it. “For I will want all my money when I get to
Glasgow,” she said.

“Weel,” said Mrs. Macfarlane, “ye ken your ain affairs best. But there’s
sturdy beggars on the road, and maybe ye’ll wish ye had ta’en my offer
before you win there.”

Kirsteen thought she never would sleep for the aching of her limbs when
she first laid herself down in the hard bed which was all the little
Highland inn, or even the best houses in Scotland, afforded in that
period. Her mind was silenced by this strange physical inconvenience, so
that she was quiescent in spirit and conscious of little except her
pangs of fatigue. Youth, however, was stronger than all her pangs, and
the influence of the fresh mountain air, though charged with damp, in
which she had pursued her journey--and she slept with the perfect
abandon and absolute repose of her twenty years, never waking from the
time she laid her head upon the pillow until she was awakened by Eelen,
the Highland maid, whom she opened her eyes to find standing over her
with the same admiring looks as on the previous evening.

“Your hair will be like the red gold and your skin like the white milk,”
said Eelen; “and its chappit acht, and it’s time to be wakening.”

Kirsteen did not spring from her bed with her usual alertness, for she
was stiff with her first day’s travels. But she rose as quickly as was
possible, and got down stairs to share the porridge of a weakly member
of the family who was indulged in late hours, and had a little cream to
tempt her to consume the robust food.

“I would have given ye some tea but for Jamie,” said Mrs. Macfarlane,
“maybe he’ll take his parritch when he sees you supping yours with sic a
good heart.”

Though she was thus used as an example Kirsteen took leave of the kind
innkeeper with a sense of desolation as if she were once more leaving
home.

“’Deed, I just wish ye could bide, and gie the bairns their lessons and
please a’ body with your pleasant face,” the landlady said.

Kirsteen went on her way with a “piece” in her pocket and many good
wishes.

It was a bright morning, and the sun, as soon as he had succeeded in
rising over the shoulders of the great hills, shone upon Loch Long as
upon a burnished mirror, and lit up the path which Kirsteen had to
travel with a chequered radiance through the bare branches of the trees,
which formed the most intricate network of shadow upon the brown path.
The deep herbage and multitudinous roadside plants all wet and
glistening, the twinkle of a hundred burns that crossed the road at
every step, the sound of the oars upon the rowlocks of a fisherboat upon
the loch, the shadows that flew over the hills in swift, instantaneous
succession added their charms to the spell of the morning, the freshest
and most rapturous of all the aspects of nature. Before long Kirsteen
forgot everything, both trouble of body and trouble of mind. The
fascination of the morning brightness entered into her heart. In a sunny
corner she found a bit of yellow blossom of the wild St. John’s wort,
that “herb of grace” which secures to the traveller who is so happy as
to find it unawares a prosperous day’s journey, and in another the rare,
delicate star of the Grass of Parnassus. These with a sprig of the
“gale,” the sweet wild myrtle which covers those hills, made a little
bouquet which she fastened in the belt of her spencer with simple
pleasure. She hesitated a moment to wear the badge of the Campbells, and
then with a fantastic half-amused sentiment reminded herself that if she
had become the Lady of Glendochart, as she might have done (though
ignorant folk took her for a governess or even a lady’s waiting woman)
she would have had a right to wear it. Poor Glendochart! It would hurt
his feelings to find that she had flown away from her home to escape
him. Kirsteen was grieved beyond measure to hurt Glendochart’s feelings.
She put the gale in her belt with a compunctious thought of her old,
kind wooer. But at that moment her young spirit, notwithstanding all
its burdens, was transported by the morning and the true delight of the
traveller, leaving all that he has known behind him for love of the
beautiful and the new. It seemed to Kirsteen that she had never seen the
world so lovely nor the sun so warm and sweet before.

She had walked several miles in the delight of these novel sensations
and was far down Loch Long side, without a house or sign of habitation
nigh, when there suddenly rose from among the bushes of brown withered
heather on the <DW72> that skirted the road a man whose appearance did
not please Kirsteen. He had his coat-sleeve pinned to his breast as if
he had lost an arm, and a forest of wild beard and hair inclosing his
face. In these days when the wars of the Peninsula were barely over, and
Waterloo approaching, nothing was so likely to excite charitable
feelings as the aspect of an old soldier--and the villainous classes of
the community who existed then, as now, were not slow to take advantage
of it. This man came up to Kirsteen with a professional whine. He gave
her a list of battles at which he had been wounded which her knowledge
was not enough to see were impossible, though her mind rejected them as
too much. But he was an old soldier (she believed) and that was enough
to move the easily flowing fountains of charity. No principle on the
subject had indeed been invented in those days, and few people refused a
handful of meal at the house door, or a penny on the road to the beggar
of any degree, far less the soldier who had left the wars with an empty
sleeve or a shattered leg. Kirsteen stopped and took her little purse
from her pocket and gave him sixpence with a look of sympathy. She
thought of the boys all away to the endless Indian wars, and of another
besides who might be fighting or losing his arm like this poor man. “And
I’m very sorry for ye, and I hope you will win safe home,” said Kirsteen
passing on. But different feelings came into her mind when she found
that she was being followed, and that the man’s prayer for “anither
saxpence” was being repeated in a rougher and more imperative tone.
Kirsteen had a great deal of courage as a girl so often has, whose
natural swift impulses have had no check of practical danger. She was
not at first afraid. She faced round upon him with a rising colour and
bade him be content. “I have given ye all I can give ye,” she said, “for
I’ve a long, long journey before me and little siller.”

“Ye have money in your purse, my bonny lady, and no half so much to do
with it as me.”

“If I’ve money in my purse it’s my own money, for my own lawful uses,”
said Kirsteen.

“Come, come,” cried the man. “I’ll use nae violence unless ye force me.
Gie me the siller.”

“I will not give ye a penny,” cried Kirsteen. And then there ensued a
breathless moment. All the possibilities swept through her mind. If she
took to flight he would probably overtake her, and in the meantime might
seize her from behind when she could not see what he was doing. She had
no staff or stick in her hand but was weighted with her bundle and her
cloak. She thought of flinging the latter over his head and thus
blinding and embarrassing him to gain a little time, but he was wary and
on his guard. She gave a glance towards the boat on the loch, but it was
in mid-water, and the bank was high and precipitous. Nowhere else was
there a living creature in sight.

“Man,” said Kirsteen, “I cannot fight with ye, but I’m not just a weak
creature either, and what I have is all I have, and I’ve a long journey
before me--I’ll give ye your sixpence if you’ll go.”

“I’ll warrant ye will,” said the sturdy beggar, “but I’m a no so great a
fuil as I look. Gie me the purse, and I’ll let ye go.”

“I’ll not give ye the purse. If ye’ll say a sum and it’s within my power
I’ll give ye that.”

“Bring out the bit pursie,” said the man, “and we’ll see, maybe with a
kiss into the bargain,” and he drew nearer, with a leer in the eyes that
gleamed from among his tangled hair.

“I will fling it into the loch sooner than ye should get it,” cried
Kirsteen, whose blood was up--“and hold off from me or I’ll push you
down the brae,” she cried, putting down her bundle, and with a long
breath of nervous agitation preparing for the assault.

“You’re a bold quean though ye look so mim--gie me a pound then and I’ll
let ye go.”

Kirsteen felt that to produce the purse at all was to lose it, and once
more calculated all the issues. The man limped a little. She thought
that if she plunged down the bank to the loch, steep as it was, her
light weight and the habit she had of scrambling down to the linn might
help her--and the sound of the falling stones and rustling branches
might catch the ear of the fisher on the water, or she might make a
spring up upon the hill behind and trust to the tangling roots of the
heather to impede her pursuer. In either case she must give up the
bundle and her cloak. Oh, if she had but taken Donald and the gig as
Mrs. Macfarlane had advised!

“I canna wait a’ day till ye’ve made up your mind. If I have to use
violence it’s your ain wyte. I’m maist willing to be friendly,” he said
with another leer pressing upon her. She could feel his breath upon her
face. A wild panic seized Kirsteen. She made one spring up the hill
before he could seize her. And in a moment her bounding heart all at
once became tranquil and she stood still, her terror gone.

For within a few paces of her was a sportsman with his gun, a young man
in dark undress tartan scarcely distinguishable from the green and brown
of the hillside, walking slowly downwards among the heather bushes.
Kirsteen raised her voice a little. She called to her assailant, “Ye can
go your way, for here’s a gentleman!” with a ring of delight in her
voice.

The man clambering after her (he did “hirple” with the right foot,
Kirsteen observed with pleasure) suddenly slipped down with an oath,
for he too had seen the newcomer, and presently she heard his footsteps
on the road hurrying away.

“What is the matter, my bonny lass?” said the sportsman; “are ye having
a quarrel with your joe? Where’s the impudent fellow? I’ll soon bring
him to reason if you’ll trust yourself to me.”

Kirsteen dropped over the bank without reply with a still more hot flush
upon her cheeks. She had escaped one danger only to fall into another
more alarming. What the country folk had said to her had piqued her
pride; but to be treated by a gentleman as if she were a country lass
with her joe was more than Kirsteen could bear.

He had sprung down by her side however before she could do more than
pick up the bundle and cloak which the tramp had not touched.

“He’s a scamp to try to take advantage of you when you’re in a lone
place like this. Tell me, my bonny lass, where ye are going? I’ll see
you safe over the hill if you’re going my way.”

“It is not needful, sir, I thank ye,” said Kirsteen. “I’m much obliged
to you for appearing as you did. It was a sturdy beggar would have had
my purse; he ran at the sight of a gentleman; but I hope there are none
but ill-doers need to do that,” she added with heightened colour drawing
back from his extended hand.

The young man laughed and made a step forward, then stopped and stared,
“You are not a country lass,” he said. “I’ve seen you before--where have
I seen you before?”

Kirsteen felt herself glow from head to foot with overpowering shame.
She remembered if he did not. She had not remarked his looks in the
relief which the first sight of him had brought, but now she perceived
who it was. It was the very Lord John whose remarks upon the
antediluvians had roused her proud resentment at the ball. He did not
mistake the flash of recognition, and a recognition which was angry, in
her eyes.

“Where have we met?” he said. “You know me, and not I fear very
favourably. Whatever I’ve done I hope you’ll let me make peace now.”

“There is no peace to make,” said Kirsteen. “I’m greatly obliged to you,
sir; I can say no more, but I’ll be more obliged to you still if you
will go your own gait and let me go mine, for I am much pressed for
time.”

“What! and leave you at the mercy of the sturdy beggar?” he cried
lightly. “This is my gait as well as yours, I’m on my way across
Whistlefield down to Roseneath--a long walk. I never thought to have
such pleasant company. Come, give me your bundle to carry, and tell me,
for I see you know, where we met.”

“I can carry my own bundle, sir, and I’ll give it to nobody,” said
Kirsteen.

“What a churl you make me look--a bonny lass by my side over-weighted,
and I with nothing but my gun. Give me the cloak then,” he said,
catching it lightly from her arm. “If you will not tell me where we met
tell me where you’re going, and I’ll see you home.”

“My home is not where I am going,” said Kirsteen. “Give me back my
cloak, my Lord John. It’s not for you to carry for me.”

“I thought you knew me,” he cried. “Now that’s an unfair advantage, let
me think, was it in the schoolroom at Dalmally? To be sure! You are the
governess. Or was it?--”

He saw that he had made an unlucky hit. Kirsteen’s countenance glowed
with proud wrath. The governess, and she a Douglas! She snatched the
cloak from him and stood at bay. “My father,” she cried, “is of as good
blood as yours, and though you can scorn at the Scots gentry in your own
house you shall not do it on the hill-side. I have yon hill to cross,”
said the girl with a proud gesture, holding herself as erect as a tower,
“going on my own business, and meddling with nobody. So go before, sir,
or go after, but if you’re a gentleman, as ye have the name, let me pass
by myself.”

The young man  high. He took off his hat and stood aside to let
her pass. After all there are arguments which are applicable to a
gentleman that cannot be applied to sturdy beggars. But Kirsteen went on
her way still more disturbed than by the first meeting. He had not
recognized her, but if they should ever meet again he would recognize
her. And what would he think when he knew it was Drumcarro’s daughter
that had met him on the hill-side with her bundle on her arm, and been
lightly addressed as a bonny lass. The governess at Dalmally! Hot tears
came into Kirsteen’s eyes as she made her way across the stretch of
moorland which lies between Loch Long and the little Gairloch, that soft
and verdant paradise. She walked very quickly neither turning to the
right hand nor the left, conscious of the figure following her at a
distance. Oh, the governess! She will be a far better person than me,
and know a great deal more, thought Kirsteen with keen compunction, me
to think so much of myself that am nobody! I wish I was a governess or
half so good. I’m a poor vagrant lass, insulted on the road-side,
frighted with beggars, scared by gentlemen. Oh, if I had but taken that
honest woman’s offer of Donald and the gig!




CHAPTER XVIII.


Kirsteen passed that night at Helensburgh, or Eelensburgh as everybody
called it, and next day arrived at Glasgow a little after noon. She had
the address there of a friend of Marg’ret’s where she would once again
find herself in the serenity of a private house. She seemed to herself
to have been living for a long time in public places--in houses where
men could come in to drink or any stranger find a shelter, and almost to
have known no other life but that of wandering solitude, continual
movement, and the consciousness of having no home or refuge to which she
belonged. Kirsteen had never made a day’s journey in her life before
that dreadful morning when she set out in the dark, leaving all that was
known and comprehensible behind her. She had never been in an inn, which
was to her something of a bad place given over to revellings and
dissipation, and profane noise and laughter, the “crackling of thorns
under the pot.” These ideas modify greatly even with a single night’s
experience of a quiet shelter and a kind hostess--but she looked forward
to the decent woman’s house to which Marg’ret’s recommendation would
admit her, with the longing of a wanderer long launched upon the dreary
publicity of a traveller’s life, and feeling all the instincts of keen
exclusivism, which belonged in those days to poorer Scotch gentry,
jarred and offended at every turn. To find the house of Marg’ret’s
friend was not easy in the great grimy city which was Kirsteen’s first
experience of a town. The crowded streets and noises confused her
altogether at first. Such visions of ugliness and dirt, the squalid look
of the high houses, the strange groups, some so rich and well-to-do,
some so miserable and wretched, that crowded the pavements, had never
entered into her imagination before. They made her sick at heart; and
London, people said, was bigger (if that were possible) and no doubt
more dreadful still! Oh that it could all turn out a dream from which
she might wake to find herself once more by the side of the linn, with
the roar of the water, and no sickening clamour of ill tongues in her
ear! But already the linn, and the far-off life by its side were away
from her as if they had passed centuries ago.

She found the house at last with the help of a ragged laddie upon whose
tangled mass of nondescript garments Kirsteen looked with amazement, but
who was willing apparently to go to the end of the world for the
sixpence which had been saved from the tramp. It was in a large and
grimy “land” not far from Glasgow Green, a great block of buildings
inhabited by countless families, each of which had some different trace
of possession at its special window--clothes hanging to dry, or beds to
air, or untidy women and girls lolling out. The common stair, which
admitted to all these different apartments, was in a condition which
horrified and disgusted the country girl. Her courage almost failed her
when she stepped within the black portals, and contemplated the filthy
steps upon which children were playing, notwithstanding all its horrors,
and down the well of which came sounds of loud talking, calls of women
from floor to floor and scraps of conversation maintained at the highest
pitch of vigorous lungs. “It’s up at the very top,” said the urchin who
was her guide. Kirsteen’s expectations sank lower and lower as she
ascended. There were two doors upon each stairhead, and often more than
one family inclosed within these subdivisions, all full of curiosity as
to the stranger who invaded their grimy world with a clean face and tidy
dress. “She’ll be some charity leddy seeking pennies for the puir folk.”
“We hae mair need to get pennies than to give them.” “She’ll be gaun to
see Allison Wabster, the lass that’s in a decline.” “She’ll be a visitor
for Justin Macgregor, the proud Hieland besom, that’s ower grand for the
like of us.” These were the pleasant words that accompanied her steps
from floor to floor. Kirsteen set it all down to the score of the
dreadful town in which every evil thing flourished, and with a sad heart
and great discouragement pushed her way to the highest story, which was
cleaner than below though all the evil smells rose and poisoned the air
which had no outlet. The right-hand door was opened to her hurriedly
before she could knock, and an old woman with a large mutch upon her
head and a tartan shawl on her shoulders came out to meet her. “Ye’ll be
the leddy from Loch Fyne,” she said with a homely curtsey. “Come ben, my
bonny leddy, come ben.”

After the purgatory of the stair Kirsteen found herself in a paradise of
cleanliness and order, in a little lantern of light and brightness.
There were three small rooms--a kitchen, a parlour so called, with a
concealed bed which made it fit for the combined purposes of a sleeping
and living room, and the bedroom proper into which she was immediately
conducted, and which was furnished with a tent-bed, hung with
large-patterned chintz, each flower about the size of a warming-pan, and
with a clean knitted white quilt which was the pride of Jean Macgregor’s
heart. There was a concealed bed in this room too, every contrivance
being adopted for the increase of accommodation. Perhaps concealed beds
are still to be found in the much-divided “lands” in which poor tenants
congregate in the poorer parts of Glasgow. They were formed by a sort of
closet completely filled by the spars and fittings of a bed, and closed
in by a dismal door, thus securing the exclusion of all air from the
hidden sleeping-place.

The decent woman, who was Marg’ret’s old friend, took Kirsteen’s bundle
from her hands, and opening it, spread out the contents on the bed.

“I’ll just hang them out before the fire to give them air, and take out
the creases. And, mem, I hope you’ll make yoursel’ at home and consider
a’ here as your ain.”

“Did ye know I was coming?” said Kirsteen, surprised.

“Only this morning. I got a scart of the pen from Marg’ret Brown, that
is my cousin and a great friend, though I have not seen her this twenty
years. She said it was one o’ the family, a young leddy that had to
travel to London, and no man nor a maid could be spared to gang with
her; and I was to see ye into the coach, and take good care of ye; and
that I will, my bonny leddy, baith for her sake, and because ye’ve a
kind face of your ain that makes a body fain.”

In the relief of this unexpected reception, and after the misery of the
approach to it which had sunk Kirsteen’s courage, she sat down and cried
a little for pleasure. “I am glad ye think I’ve a kind face, for oh, I
have felt just like a reprobate, hating everything I saw,” she cried.
“It’s all so different--so different--from home.”

Home had been impossible a few days ago; it looked like heaven--though a
heaven parted from her by an entire lifetime--now.

“Weel,” said the old woman, “we canna expect that Glasco, a miserable,
black, dirty town as ever was, can be like the Hielands with its bonny
hills and its bright sun. But, my honey, if ye let me say sae, there’s
good and bad in baith places, and Glasco’s no so ill as it looks. Will
ye lie down and take a bit rest, now you’re here--or will I make ye a
cup of tea? The broth will not be ready for an hour. If I had kent
sooner I would have got ye a chuckie or something mair delicate; but
there wasna time.”

Kirsteen protested that she neither wanted rest nor tea, and would like
the broth which was the natural everyday food, better than anything. She
came into the parlour and sat down looking out from the height of her
present elevation upon the green below, covered with white patches in
the form of various washings which the people near had the privilege of
bleaching on the grass. The abundant sweet air so near the crowded and
noisy streets, the freedom of that sudden escape from the dark lands and
houses, the unlooked-for quiet and cheerful prospect stirred up her
spirit. The lassies going about with bare feet, threading their way
among the lines of clothes, sprinkling them with sparkling showers of
water which dazzled in the sun, awakened the girl’s envy as she sat with
her hands crossed in her lap. A flock of mill-girls were crossing the
green to their work at one of the cotton-factories. They were clothed in
petticoats and short gowns, or bedgowns as they are called in England,
bound round their waists with a trim white apron. Some of them had
tartan shawls upon their shoulders. A number of them were barefooted,
but one and all had shining and carefully dressed hair done up in
elaborate plaits and braids. Kirsteen’s eyes followed them with a sort
of envy. They were going to their work, they were carrying on the common
tenor of their life, while she sat there arrested in everything. “I
wish,” she said, with a sigh, “I had something to do.”

“The best thing you can do is just to rest. Ye often do not find the
fatigue of a journey,” said Mrs. Macgregor, “till it’s over. Ye’ll be
more and more tired as the day goes on, and ye’ll sleep fine at night.”

With these and similar platitudes the old woman soothed her guest; and
Kirsteen soothed her soul as well as she could to quiet, though now when
the first pause occurred she felt more and more the eagerness to
proceed, the impossibility of stopping short. To cut herself adrift from
all the traditions of her life in order to rest in this little parlour,
even for a day, and look out upon the bleaching of the clothes, and the
mill-girls going to work, had the wildest inappropriateness in it. She
seized upon the half-knitted stocking, without which in those days no
good housewife was complete, and occupied her hands with that. But
towards evening another subject was introduced, which delivered Kirsteen
at once from the mild _ennui_ of this compulsory pause.

“Ye’ll maybe no ken,” said the old woman, “that there is one in Glasco
that you would like weel to see?”

“One in Glasgow?” Kirsteen looked up with a question in her eyes. “No
doubt there is many a one in Glasgow that I would be proud to see; but
I cannot think of company nor of what I like when I’m only in this big
place for a day.”

“It’s no that, my bonny leddy. It’s one that if you’re near sib to the
Douglases, and Meg does not say how near ye are, would be real thankfu’
just of one glint of your e’e.”

“I am near, very near,” said Kirsteen, with a hot colour rising over
her. She dropped the knitting in her lap, and fixed her eyes upon her
companion’s face. She had already a premonition who it was of whom she
was to hear.

“Puir thing,” said Mrs. Macgregor, “she hasna seen one of her own kith
and kin this mony a day. She comes to me whiles for news. And she’ll sit
and smile and say, ‘Have ye any news from Marg’ret, Mrs. Macgregor?’
never letting on that her heart’s just sick for word of her ain kin.”

“You are perhaps meaning--Anne,” said Kirsteen, scarcely above her
breath.

“I’m meaning Mrs. Dr. Dewar,” said the old woman. “I think that’s her
name--the one that marriet and was cast off by her family because he was
just a doctor and no a grand gentleman. Oh, missie, that’s a hard, hard
thing to do! I can understand a great displeasure, and that a difference
might be made for a time. But to cut off a daughter--as if she were a
fremd person, never to see her or name her name--oh, that’s hard, hard!
It may be right for the Lord to do it, that kens the heart (though I
have nae faith in that), but no for sinful, erring man.”

“Mrs. Macgregor,” said Kirsteen, “you will remember that it’s my--my
near relations you are making remarks upon.”

“And that’s true,” said the old lady. “I would say nothing to make ye
think less of your nearest and dearest--and that maybe have an authority
over ye that Scripture bids ye aye respect. I shouldna have said it; but
the other--the poor young leddy--is she no your near relation too?”

Kirsteen had known vaguely that her sister was supposed to be in
Glasgow, which was something like an aggravation of her offence: for to
live among what Miss Eelen called the fremd in a large town was the sort
of unprincipled preference of evil to good which was to be expected from
a girl who had married beneath her; but to find herself confronted with
Anne was a contingency which had never occurred to her. At home she had
thought of her sister with a certain awe mingled with pity. There was
something in the banishment, the severance, the complete effacing of her
name and image from all the family records, which was very impressive to
the imagination, and brought an ache of compassion into the thought of
her, which nobody ventured to express. Kirsteen had been very young, too
young to offer any judgment independent of her elders upon Anne’s case,
when she had gone away. But she had cried over her sister’s fate often,
and wondered in her heart whether they would ever meet, or any amnesty
ever be pronounced that would restore poor Anne, at least nominally, to
her place in the family. But it had not entered into her mind to suppose
that she herself should ever be called upon to decide that question, to
say practically, so far as her authority went, whether Anne was to be
received or not. She kept gazing at her hostess with a kind of dismay,
unable to make any reply. Anne--who had married a man who was not a
gentleman, who had run away, leaving the candle dying in the socket. A
strong feeling against that family traitor rose up in Kirsteen’s breast.
She had compromised them all. She had connected the name of the old
Douglases, the name of the boys in India, with a name that was no name,
that of a common person--a doctor, one that traded upon his education
and his skill. There was a short but sharp struggle in her heart. She
had run away herself, but it was for a very different reason. All her
prejudices, which were strong, and the traditions of her life were
against Anne. It was with an effort that she recovered the feeling of
sympathy which had been her natural sentiment. “She is my near relation
too. But she disobeyed them that she ought to have obeyed.”

“Oh, missie, there are ower many of us who do that.”

Kirsteen raised her head more proudly than ever. She gave the old woman
a keen look of scrutiny. Did she know what she was saying? Anyhow, what
did it matter? “But if we do it, we do it for different reasons--not to
be happy, as they call it, in a shameful way.”

“Oh, shameful--na, na! It’s a lawful and honest marriage, and he’s a
leal and a true man.”

“It was shameful to her family,” cried Kirsteen doubly determined. “It
was forgetting all that was most cherished. I may be sorry for her--”
she scarcely was so in the vigour of her opposition--“but I cannot
approve her.” Kirsteen held her head very high and her mouth closed as
if it had been made of iron. She looked no gentle sister but an
unyielding judge.

“Weel, weel,” said the old woman with a sigh, “its nae business of mine.
I would fain have let her have a glimpse, puir thing, of some one
belonging to her; but if it’s no to be done it’s nane of my affairs, and
I needna fash my thoom. We’ll say no more about it. There’s going to be
a bonny sunset if we could but see it. Maybe you would like to take a
walk and see a little of the town.”

Kirsteen consented, and then drew back, for who could tell that she
might not meet some one who would recognize her. Few as were the people
she knew, she had met one on the wild hill-sides above Loch Long, and
there was no telling who might be in Glasgow, a town which was a kind of
centre to the world. She sat at the window, and looked out upon the
women getting in their clothes from the grass where they had been
bleaching, and on all the groups about the green--children playing,
bigger lads contending with their footballs. The sky became all aglow
with the glory of the winter sunset, then faded into grey, and light
began to gleam in the high windows. Day passed, and night, the
early-falling, long-continuing night, descended from the skies. Kirsteen
sat in the languor of fatigue and in a curious strangeness remote and
apart from everything about as in a dream. It was like a dream
altogether--the strange little house so near to the skies, the opening
of the broad green space underneath and the groups upon it--place and
people alike unknown to her, never seen before, altogether unrelated to
her former life--yet she herself introduced here as an honoured guest,
safe and sheltered, and surrounded by watchful care. But for Marg’ret
she must have fought her way as she could, or sunk into a dreadful
obedience. Obedience! that was what she had been blaming her sister for
failing in, she who had so failed herself. She sat and turned it over
and over in her mind while the light faded out from the sky. The
twilight brought softening with it. She began to believe that perhaps
there were circumstances extenuating. Anne had been very young, younger
than Kirsteen was now, and lonely, for her sisters were still younger
than she, without society. And no doubt the man would be kind to her.
She said nothing while the afternoon passed, and the tea was put on the
table. But afterwards when Mrs. Macgregor was washing the china cups,
she asked suddenly, “Would it be possible if a person desired it, to go
to that place where the lady you were speaking of, Mrs. Dr.--? If you
think she would like to see me I might go.”




CHAPTER XIX.


If it was strange to sit at that window looking out over the world
unknown, and feel herself an inmate of the little house so different
from everything she had ever seen, the guest and companion of the old
woman whose very name she had never heard till a few days before, it was
still more strange to be in the thronged and noisy streets full of
people, more people than Kirsteen had supposed to be in the world, under
the glaring of the lights that seemed to her to mock the very day
itself, though they were few enough in comparison with the blaze of
illumination to which we are now accustomed--going through the strange
town in the strange night to see Anne. That was the climax of all the
strangeness. Anne, whose name was never named at home, whom everybody
remembered all the more intensely because it was forbidden to refer to
her. Anne, who had gone away from her father’s house in the night
leaving the candle flaring out in the socket and the chill wind blowing
in through the open door. That scene had always been associated in
Kirsteen’s mind with her sister’s name, and something of the flicker of
the dying candle was in the blowing about of the lights along the long
range of the Trongate, above that babel of noises and ever shifting
phantasmagoria of a great city. She could not make any reply to the old
woman who walked beside her, full of stories and talk, pointing out to
her a church or a building here and there. Kirsteen went through a
little pantomime of attention, looking where she was told to look, but
seeing nothing, only a confused panorama of crowded dark outlines and
wind-blown lights, and nothing that she could understand.

At length they struck into a long line of monotonous street where there
were no shops and no wayfarers, but some lamps which flickered wildly,
more and more like the dying candle. Mrs. Macgregor told her the name of
the street, and explained its length and beauty, and how it had been
built, and that it was a very genteel street, where some of the bailies
and a number of the ministers lived. “The houses are dear,” she said,
“and no doubt it was a fight for Dr. Dewar to keep up a house in such a
genteel place. But they external things are of great consequence to a
doctor,” she added. Kirsteen was dazed and overawed by the line of the
grim houses looming between her and the dark sky, and by the flaring of
the wild lights, and the long stretch of darkness which the scanty
unavailing lamps did not suffice to make visible. And her heart began to
beat violently when her guide stopped at a door which opened invisibly
from above at their summons and clanged behind them, and revealed a dark
stair with another windy lamp faintly lighting it, a stair in much
better order than the dreadful one where Mrs. Macgregor was herself
living, but looking like a gloomy cleft in the dark walls. Now that she
had come so far, Kirsteen would fain have turned back or delayed the
visit to which she seemed to be driven reluctantly by some impulse that
was not her own. Was it not an aggravation of her own rebellion that she
should thus come secretly to the former rebel, she who had been
discarded by the family and shut out from its records? She shrank from
the sight of the house in which poor Anne had found refuge, and of the
husband who was a common person, not one of their own kind. Drumcarro at
his fiercest could not have recoiled more from a common person than his
runaway daughter, whose object it was to establish herself with a
mantua-maker in London. But Kirsteen felt her own position unspeakably
higher than that of her sister.

She followed her companion tremulously into the little dark vestibule.
“Oh, ay, the mistress is in: where would she be but in, and hearing the
bairns say their bits of lessons?” said an active little maid who
admitted them, pointing to the glow of ruddy firelight which proceeded
from an inner door. And before she was aware Kirsteen found herself in
the midst of a curious and touching scene. She had not heard anything
about children, so that the sight so unexpected of two little things
seated on the hearth-rug, as she remembered herself to have sat in her
early days under Anne’s instructions, gave her a little shock of
surprise and quick-springing kindness. They were two little roundabout
creatures of three and four, with little round rosy faces faintly
reddened by the flickering light, which shone in the soft glow, their
hair half-flaxen, half-golden. Their chubby hands were crossed in their
laps. Their mother knelt in front of them, herself so girlish still, her
soft yellow hair matured into brown, her face and figure fuller than of
old, teaching them with one hand raised. “Gentle Jesus, meek and mild”
she was saying: “Dentle Desus, meet and mild,” said the little pupils:
“listen to a little child.” There was no lamp or candle in the room:
nothing but the firelight. The two dark figures in their outdoor dresses
stood behind in the shadow, while all the light concentrated in this
family group. The mother was so absorbed in her teaching that she
continued without noticing their entrance.

“You are not saying it right, Dunny; and Kirsty, my pet, you must try
and say it like me--Gentle Jesus.”

“Dentle Desus,” said the little ones with assured and smiling
incorrectness incapable of amendment. Kirsteen saw them through a mist
of tears. The name of the baby on the hearth had completed the moving
effect of old recollections and of the familiarity of the voice and
action of the young mother. The voice had a plaintive tone in it, as so
many voices of Scotchwomen have. She stood behind in the background, the
rays of the fire taking a hundred prismatic tints as she looked at them
through the tears upon her eyelashes. Her heart was entirely melted,
forgetful of everything but that this was Anne, the gentle elder sister
who had taught her childhood too.

“I have brought a young leddy to see you, Mrs. Dewar,” said the old
woman. Anne sprang up to her feet at the sound of the voice.

“I did not hear anybody come in,” she said. “I was hearing them their
hymn to say to their papa to-morrow. Is it you, Mrs. Macgregor? You’re
kind to come out this cold night. Dunny, tell Janet she must put ye to
your bed, for I’m busy with friends.”

“Na,” said the old lady, “we’ll not interrupt. I’m going ben to say a
word to Janet mysel’. And she’ll no interrupt you putting your bairns to
their bed.”

She drew Kirsteen forward into the influence of the firelight, and
herself left the room, leaving the sisters together. Anne stood for a
little gazing curiously at the silent figure. She was puzzled and at a
loss; the black silk spencer, the beaver bonnet, were common enough
articles of dress, and the big veil that hung like a cloud over
Kirsteen’s bonnet kept the face in the shade. “Do I know ye?” she said
going timidly forward. Then with a cry, “Is it Kirsteen?”

The little children sat still on the hearth-rug with their little fat
hands crossed in their laps; they were not concerned by the convulsions
that might go on over their heads. They laughed at the glancing
firelight and at each other in one of those still moments of babyhood
which come now and then in the midst of the most riotous periods; they
had wandered off to the edge of the country from whence they came. When
the two sisters fell down on their knees by the side of the little
ones, the mother showing her treasures, the young aunt making
acquaintance with them, the rosy little faces continued to smile
serenely upon the tears and suppressed passion. “This is Kirsty that I
called after you, Kirsteen.” “But oh, ye mean for my mother, Anne?”
“Kirsty, me!” said little three-year-old, beating her breast to identify
the small person named. “She’s Kistina; I’m Duncan,” said the little boy
who was a whole year older, but did not generally take the lead in
society. “They are like two little birdies in a nest,” said Kirsteen;
“oh! the bonny little heads like gold--and us never to know.”

“Will I send them to Janet, or will ye help me to put them to their
bed?” said the proud mother. For a moment she remembered nothing but the
delight of exhibiting their little round limbs, their delightful
gambols, for so soon as the children rose from that momentary
abstraction they became riotous again and filled the room with their
“flichterin’ noise and glee.” “I never light the candles till David
comes in,” Anne said apologetically. “What do I want with more light?
For the bairns are just all I can think of; they will not let me sew my
seam, they are just a woman’s work at that restless age.” She went on
with little complaints which were boasts as Kirsteen looked on and
wondered at the skilled and careful manipulation of her sister’s
well-accustomed hands. The bedroom to which the group was transferred
was like the parlour lighted only by the fire, and the washing and
undressing proceeded while Anne went on with the conversation, telling
how Dunny was “a rude boy,” and Kirsty a “very stirring little thing,”
and “just a handful.” “I have enough to do with them, and with making
and mending for them, if I had not another thing on my hands,” said
Anne; “they are just a woman’s work.” Kirsteen sat and looked on in the
ruddy flickering light with strange thoughts. Generally the coming on of
motherhood is gradual, and sisters and friends grow into a sort of
amateur share in it. But to come suddenly from the image of Anne who had
left the house-door open and the candle dying in the socket, to Anne the
cheerful mother kissing the rosy limbs and round faces, her pretty hair
pulled by the baby hands, her proud little plaints of the boy that was
“rude” and the girl that was “very stirring,” was the most curious
revelation to Kirsteen. It brought a little blush and uneasiness along
with affection and pleasure, her shy maidenhood shrinking even while
warm sympathy filled her heart.

When the children were in bed, the sisters returned to the parlour,
where Kirsteen was installed in the warmest corner by the fire. “Would
you like the candles lighted? I aye leave it till David comes home: he
says I sit like a hoodie crow in the dark,” said Anne. There was a soft
tone in her voice which told that David was a theme as sweet to her as
the children; but Kirsteen could not bring herself to ask any questions
about the doctor who was a common person, and one who had no right ever
to have intruded himself into the Douglases’ august race. Anne
continued for a time to give further details of the children, how they
were “a little disposed to take the cold,” and about the troubles there
had been with their teeth, all happily surmounted, thanks to David’s
constant care. “If ye ever have little bairns, Kirsteen, ye will know
what a comfort it is to have a doctor in the house.”

“I don’t know about the bairns, but I am sure I never will have the
doctor,” said Kirsteen in haste and unwarily, not thinking what she
said.

“And what for no?” said Anne, holding herself very erect “Ye speak like
an ignorant person, like one of them that has a prejudice against
doctors. There’s no greater mistake.”

“I was meaning no such thing,” cried Kirsteen eagerly.

“Well, ye spoke like it,” said Anne. “And where would we all be without
doctors? It’s them that watches over failing folk, and gives back
fathers and mothers to their families, and snatches our bonny darlings
out of the jaws of death. Eh! if ye knew as much about doctors as I know
about them,” she cried with a panting breath.

“I am sorry if I said anything that was not ceevil,” said Kirsteen; “it
was without meaning. Doctors have never done anything for my mother,”
she added with an impulse of self-justification.

“And whose blame is that? I know what David ordered her--and who ever
tried to get it for her? He would have taken her to his own house, and
nursed her as if she had been his own mother,” cried Anne with heat.

Kirsteen with difficulty suppressed the indignation that rose to her
lips. “Him presume to consider my mother as if she were his own!”
Kirsteen cried within herself. “He was a bonny one!” And there fell a
little silence between the two sisters seated on opposite sides of the
fire.

After a while Anne spoke again, hesitating, bending across the lively
blaze. “Were ye, maybe, coming,” she said with an effort, “to tell
me--to bring me a--message?”

Kirsteen saw by the dancing light her sister’s eyes full of tears. She
had thought she was occupied only by the babies and the changed life,
but when she saw the beseeching look in Anne’s eyes, the quivering of
her mouth, the eager hope that this visit meant an overture of reunion,
Kirsteen’s heart was sore.

“Alack,” she said, “I have no message. I am just like you, Annie. I have
left my home and all in it. I’m a wanderer on the face of the earth.”

“Kirsteen!” Anne sprang to her sister and clasped her in her arms. “Oh,
my bonny woman! Oh, my Kirsty!” She pressed Kirsteen’s head to her
breast in a rapture of sympathetic feeling. “Oh, I’m sorry and I’m glad.
I canna tell ye all my feelings. Have ye brought him with you? Where is
he, and who is he, Kirsteen?”

Kirsteen disengaged herself almost roughly and with great though
suppressed offence from her sister’s arms. “If ye think there is any he
in the maitter, ye are greatly mistaken,” she said. “If ye think I would
take such a step for such a motive.”

Anne drew back wounded too. “Ye need not speak so stern--I did it
myself, and I would not be the one to blame you. And if there’s a better
reason I don’t know what it is. What reason can a young lass have to
leave her hame, except that there’s one she likes better, and that she’s
bid to follow, forsaking her father and mother, in the very Scripture
itself?”

Mrs. Dr. Dewar returned to her seat--throwing back her head with an
indignant sense of the highest warrant for her own conduct. But when she
resumed her seat, Anne began to say softly: “I thought you had come to
me with maybe a word of kindness. I thought that maybe my mother--was
yearning for a sight of me as me for her--and to see my bairns. Oh, it
would do her heart good to see the bairns! It would add on years to her
life. What are ye all thinking of that ye cannot see that she’s dwining
and pining for a pleasant house and a cheerful life? David said it
before--and he was most willing to be at all the charges--but they would
not listen to him, and no doubt it’s a great deal worse now.”

“If you are meaning my mother, she is no worse,” said Kirsteen. “She is
just about the same. Robbie has gone away to India like the rest; and
she just bore it as well as could be expected. I have not heard,” said
the girl, feeling the corners of her mouth quiver and a choking in her
throat, “how she’s borne this.”

Both of them had the feeling that their own departure must have affected
the invalid more strongly than any other.

“But she has not heard about your children, Anne. She would have said
something.”

Anne’s lips were quivering too. She was much wounded by this assertion.
She shook her head. “My mother’s no one,” she said, “that tells
everything--especially what’s nearest to her heart. Ye may be sure she
knows--but she wouldna maybe be ready to speak of it to young lassies
like you.”

Kirsteen thought this argument feeble, but she said nothing in reply.

“And so Robbie’s away,” said Anne. “He was just a bit laddie that I put
to his bed like my own. Eh, but time goes fast, when ye hear of them
growing up that ye can mind when they were born. I tell David our own
will just be men and women before we think.” This thought brought a
smile to her face, and much softening of the disappointment. “Oh, but I
would like my mother to see them!” she said.

Kirsteen reflected a little bitterly that this was all Anne thought of,
that her curiosity about her sister had dropped at once, and that the
children and the wish that her mother should see them--which was nothing
but pride--was all that occupied Anne’s thoughts. And there ensued
another pause; they sat on either side of the fire with divided hearts,
Anne altogether absorbed in her own thoughts of the past and present, of
her old girlish life which had been full of small oppressions, and of
her present happiness, and the prosperous and elevated position of a
woman with a good man and bairns of her own, which was her proud and
delightful consciousness, and which only wanted to be seen and
recognized by her mother to make it perfect. Kirsteen on her side felt
this superiority as an offence. She knew that her mother had “got over”
Anne’s departure, and was not at all taken up by imaginations concerning
her and her possible children--though she could not but recognize the
possibility that her own flight might have a much more serious effect,
and she sat by her sister’s hearth with a jealous, proud sensation of
being very lonely, and cut away from everything. She said to herself
that it was foolish, nay, wrong to have come, and that it was not for
her to have thus encouraged the bringing down of her father’s house.
There was no such thing she proudly felt in her own case.

Suddenly Anne rose up, and lifting two candlesticks from the mantelpiece
placed them on the table. “I hear David’s step,” she said with a beaming
face.

“Then I will just be going,” said Kirsteen.

“Why should ye go? Will ye no wait and see my husband? Maybe you think
Dr. Dewar is not good enough to have the honour of meeting with the like
of you. I can tell you my husband is as well respected as any in
Glasgow, and his name is a kent name where the Douglases’ was never
heard.”

“That can scarcely be in Scotland,” cried Kirsteen proudly, “not even in
Glasgow. Fare ye well, Anne. I’m glad to have seen ye.” She paused for a
moment with a shake in her voice and added hurriedly, “and the bairns.”

“Oh, Kirsteen!” cried Anne rushing to her side. “Oh, Kirsteen, bide! Oh,
bide and see him! Ye will never be sorry to have made friends with my
man.”

“Who is that, Anne,” said a voice behind them, “that ye are imploring in
such a pitiful tone to bide? Is it some unfriend of mine?”

“No unfriend, Dr. Dewar,” said Kirsteen, turning round upon him, “but a
stranger that has little to do here.”

“It is one of your sisters, Anne!”

“It’s Kirsteen,” cried Anne with wet eyes. “Oh, David, make her stay.”




CHAPTER XX.


Dr. Dewar was a man of whose appearance his wife had reason to be proud.
None of the long-descended Douglases were equal to him either in
physical power or in good looks. He was tall and strong, he had fine
hands--a physician’s hands full of delicacy yet force, good feet, all
the signs that are supposed to represent race--though he was of no
family whatever, the son of a shopkeeper, not fit to appear in the same
room in which ladies and gentlemen were. Kirsteen had stopped short at
sight of him, and there can be no doubt that she had been much
surprised. In former times she had indeed seen him as her mother’s
doctor, but she had scarcely noticed the visitor, who was of no interest
to a girl of her age. And his rough country dress had not been imposing
like the black suit which now gave dignity and the air of a gentleman
which Kirsteen had expected to find entirely wanting in her sister’s
husband. His somewhat pale face, large featured, rose with a sort of
distinction from the ample many-folded white neck-cloth--appropriate
title!--which enveloped his throat. He looked at the visitor with
good-humoured scrutiny, shading his eyes from the scanty light of the
candles. “My wife is so economical about her lights,” he said, “that I
can never see who is here, though I would fain make myself agreeable to
Anne’s friends. Certainly, my dear, I will do what is in me to make your
sister bide. I would fain hope it is a sign of amity to see ye here
to-night, Miss Kirsteen?”

“No,” said Kirsteen, “it is not a sign of amity. It was only that I was
in Glasgow, and thought I would like to see her--at least,” she added,
“I will not take to myself a credit I don’t deserve. It was Mrs.
Macgregor put it into my head.”

“Well, well,” said Dr. Dewar, “so long as you are here we will not
quarrel about how it was. It will have been a great pleasure to Anne to
see you. Are the bairns gone to their beds, my dear?”

“They’re scarcely sleeping yet,” said Anne smiling at her husband with
tender triumph. “Go ben,” she said putting one of the candlesticks into
his hand, “and see them; for I know that’s what has brought ye in so
soon--not for me but the weans.”

“For both,” he said pressing her hand like a lover as he took the candle
from it. Anne was full of silent exultation, for she had remarked
Kirsteen’s little start of surprise and noticed that she said nothing
more of going away. “Well?” she said eagerly, when he had disappeared.

“Well,”--said Kirsteen, “I never heard that Dr. Dewar was not a very
personable man, and well-spoken. It will maybe be best for me to be
getting home, before it’s very late.”

“Will ye no stay, Kirsteen, and break bread in my house? You might do
that and say nothing about it. It would be no harm to hide an innocent
thing that was just an act of kindness, when you get home. If I am never
to get more from my own family,” cried Anne, “but to be banished and
disowned as if I were an ill woman, surely a sister that is young and
should have some kind thought in her heart, might do that. Ye need say
nothing of it when you get home.”

“I will maybe never get home more,” said Kirsteen overcome at last by
the feeling of kindred and the need of sympathy.

“Oh, lassie,” cried Anne, “what have ye done? What have ye done?--And
where are ye going?--If ye have left your home ye shall bide here. It’s
my right to take care of you, if ye have nobody else to take care of ye,
no Jean Macgregor, though she’s very respectable, but me your elder
sister. And that will be the first thing David will say.”

“I am much obliged to you,” said Kirsteen, “but you must not trouble
your head about me. I’m going to London--to friends I have there.”

“To London!” cried Anne. There was more wonder in her tone than would be
expressed now if America had been the girl’s destination. “And you have
friends there!”

Kirsteen made a lofty sign of assent. She would not risk herself by
entering into any explanations. “It’s a long journey,” she said, “and a
person never can tell if they will ever win back. If you are really
meaning what you say, and that I will not be in your way nor the
doctor’s I will thankfully bide and take a cup of tea with ye--for it’s
not like being among strangers when I can take your hand--and give a
kiss to your little bairns before I go.”

Anne came quickly across the room and took her sister in her arms, and
cried a little upon her shoulder. “I’m real happy,” she said sobbing;
“ye see the bairns, what darlin’s they are--and there never was a better
man than my man; but eh! I just yearn sometimes for a sight of home, and
my poor mother. If she is weakly, poor body, and cannot stand against
the troubles of this world, still she’s just my mother, and I would
rather have a touch of her hand than all the siller in Glasgow--and eh,
what she would give to see the bairns!”

Kirsteen, who was herself very tremulous, here sang in a broken voice,
for she too had begun to realize that she might never again see her
mother, a snatch of her favourite song:

    “True loves ye may get many an ane
      But minnie ne’er anither.”

“No, I’ll not say that,” said Anne. “I’ll not be so untrue to my true
love--but oh, my poor minnie! how is she, Kirsteen? Tell me everything,
and about Marg’ret and the laddies and all.”

When Dr. Dewar entered he found the two sisters seated close together,
clinging to each other, laughing and crying in a breath, over the
domestic story which Kirsteen was telling. The sole candle twinkled on
the table kindly like a friendly spectator, the fire blazed and crackled
cheerfully, the room in the doctor’s eyes looked like the home of
comfort and happy life. He was pleased that one of Anne’s family should
see how well off she was. It was the best way he felt sure to bring them
to acknowledge her, which was a thing he professed to be wholly
indifferent to. But in his heart he was very proud of having married a
Douglas, and he would have received any notice from Drumcarro with a joy
perhaps more natural to the breeding of his original station than
dignified. He felt the superiority of his wife’s race in a manner which
never occurred to Anne herself, and was more proud of his children on
account of the “good Douglas blood” in their veins. “Not that I hold
with such nonsense,” he would say with a laugh of pretended disdain.
“But there are many that do.” It was not a very serious weakness, but it
was a weakness. His face beamed as he came in: though Kirsteen had said
that her presence was not a sign of amity he could not but feel that it
was, and a great one. For certainly the laird’s opposition must be
greatly modified before he would permit his daughter to come here.

“Well,” he said, making them both start, “I see I was not wanted to
persuade her to bide. I am very glad to see you in my house, Miss
Kirsteen. Ye will be able to tell them at home that Anne is not the
victim of an ogre in human form, as they must think, but well enough
content with her bargain, eh, wife?” He had come up to them, and touched
his wife’s cheek caressingly with his hand. “Come, come,” he said,
“Anne, ye must not greet, but smile at news from home.”

“If I am greetin’ it’s for pleasure,” said Anne, “to hear about my
mother and all of them and to see my bonny Kirsteen.”

“She has grown up a fine girl,” said the doctor looking at her with a
professional glance and approving the youthful vigour and spirit which
were perhaps more conspicuous in Kirsteen than delicacy of form and
grace. Her indignation under this inspection may be supposed. She got up
hastily freeing herself from Anne’s hold.

“I must not be late,” she said, “there’s Mrs. Macgregor waiting.”

“Tell the lass to bring the tea, Anne--if your sister is with friends--”

“I’m telling her that her place is here,” cried Anne; “it is no friends,
it is just old Jean Macgregor who is very respectable, but not the
person for Kirsteen. And we have a spare room,” she added with pride.
“The doctor will hear of none of your concealed beds or dark closets to
sleep in. He insists on having a spare room for a friend. And where is
there such a friend as your own sister? We will send Jean to bring your
things, Kirsteen.”

Kirsteen put a stern negation upon this proposal. “Besides,” she said,
“it would be no advantage, for I am going on to London without delay.”

“To London?” cried the doctor. “That’s a long journey for ye by
yourself. Are you really going alone?”

“I’m told,” said Kirsteen composedly, “that the guards are very
attentive, and that nobody meddles with one that respects herself. I
have no fear.”

“Well, perhaps there is no fear--not what ye can call fear; for, as you
say, a woman is her own best protector, and few men are such fools as to
go too far when there’s no response. But, my dear young lady, it’s a
long journey and a weary journey; I wonder that Drumcarro trusted you to
go alone; he might have spared a maid, if not a man to go with ye.” The
doctor’s weakness led him to enhance the importance of Drumcarro as if
it were a simple matter to send a maid or a man.

“Oh, but Kirsteen says,” Anne began, remembering the strange avowal,
which she did not at all understand, that her sister had made. Kirsteen
took the words out of her mouth.

“It’s not as if I were coming back to-day or to-morrow,” she said
quickly, “and to send any person with me would have been--not
possible--I will just keep myself to myself and nobody will harm me.”

“I am sure of that,” said the doctor cheerfully. “I would not like to be
the man that spoke a word displeasing to ye with those eyes of yours.
Oh, I’m not complaining; for no doubt ye have heard much harm of me and
little good--but ye have given me a look or two, Miss Kirsteen. Does not
this speak for me?” he added, raising Anne’s face which glowed with
pleasure and affection under his touch--“and yon?” pointing to the open
door of the room in which the babies slept.

Kirsteen was much confused by this appeal. “It was far from my mind to
say anything unceevil,” she said, “and in your own house.”

“Oh, never mind my own house, it’s your house when you’re in it. And I
would like ye to say whatever comes into your head, for at the end, do
what you will, my bonny lass, you and me are bound to be friends. Now
come, wifie, and give us our tea.”

The dining-room in Dr. Dewar’s house was more dignified than the
parlour. It was used as his consulting room in the morning, and Kirsteen
was impressed by the large mahogany furniture, the huge sideboard, heavy
table, and other substantial articles, things which told of comfort and
continuance, not to be lightly lifted about or transferred from one
place to another. And nothing could be more kind than the doctor who
disarmed her at every turn, and took away every excuse for
unfriendliness. After the dreadful experiences of her journey, and the
forlorn sense she had of being cut off from everything she cared for,
this cordial reception ended by altogether overcoming Kirsteen’s
prejudices, and the talk became as cheerful over the tea as if the young
adventurer had indeed been a visitor, received with delight in her
sister’s house. She went away at last with the old woman greatly against
Anne’s will who tried every entreaty and remonstrance in vain. “Surely
ye like me better than Jean Macgregor!” she said. “Oh, Kirsteen, it’s
far from kind--and the spare room at your disposition, and the kindest
welcome--I will let you give the bairns their bath in the morning. Ye
shall have them as long as you please,” she said with the wildest
generosity. It was Dr. Dewar himself who interrupted these entreaties.

“My dear,” he said, “Kirsteen has a great deal of sense, she knows very
well what she’s doing. If there is a difficulty arisen at home as I’m
led to conclude, it will just make matters worse if she’s known to be
living here.”

“I was not thinking of that,” cried Kirsteen, feeling the ungenerosity
of her motives.

“It may be well that ye should. I would not have you anger your father,
neither would Anne for any pleasure of hers. She is in a different
position,” said the doctor. “She’s a married woman, and her father
cannot in the nature of things be her chief object. But Kirsteen, my
dear, is but a girl in her father’s house, and whatever her heart may
say she must not defy him by letting it be known that she’s living
here. But to-morrow is the Sabbath-day. The coach does not go, even if
she were so far left to herself as to wish it; and it could not be ill
taken that you should go to the kirk together and spend the day
together. And then if ye must go, I will engage a place in the coach for
ye and see ye off on Monday morning.”

“Oh, I must go, and I almost grudge the Sabbath-day,” said Kirsteen. “I
am so restless till I’m there. But I must not give you all that
trouble.”

“It’s no trouble. I’ll go with ye as far as the coach-office. I wish I
was not so busy,” said Dr. Dewar with a delightful sense of his own
consequence and popularity, and of the good impression it would make. “I
would convoy ye to London myself. But a doctor is never at his own
disposition,” he added, with a shake of his head.

The Sunday which followed was strange yet delightful to Kirsteen. It was
like the last day of a sailor on shore before setting forth upon the
unknown, but rather of a sailor like Columbus trusting himself
absolutely to the sea and the winds, not knowing what awaited him, than
the well-guided mariners of modern days with charts for every coast and
lighthouses at every turn. Kirsteen looked

    “On land and sea and shore,
      As she might never see them more.”

All was strange to her even here, but how much stranger, dark,
undeciphered, unknown was that world upon the edge of which she stood,
and where there was absolutely nothing to guide her as to what she
should encounter! Kirsteen was not quite sure whether she could
understand the language which was spoken in London; the ways of the
people she was sure she would not understand. Somewhere in the darkness
that great city lay as the western world lay before its discoverer.
Kirsteen formed an image to herself of something blazing into the night
full of incomprehensible voices and things; and she had all the
shrinking yet eagerness of a first explorer not knowing what horrors
there might be to encounter, but not his faith in everything good. The
Sunday came like a strange dream into the midst of this eagerness yet
alarm. She was almost impatient of the interruption, yet was happy in it
with the strangest troubled happiness; though it was so real it was
bewildering too, it was a glimpse of paradise on the edge of the dark,
yet unreal in its pleasure as that vast unknown was unreal. She played
with the children, and she heard them say their prayers, the two little
voices chiming together, the two cherub faces lifted up, while father
and mother sat adoring. It was like something she had seen in a
dream--where she was herself present, and yet not present, noting what
every one did. For up to this time everything had been familiar in her
life--there had been no strangeness, no new views of the relationship of
events with which she was too well acquainted to have any room for
flights of fancy.

And then this moment of pause, this curious, amusing, beautiful day
passed over, and she found herself in the dark of the wintry morning in
the street all full of commotion where the coach was preparing to start.
She found her brother-in-law (things had changed so that she had
actually begun to think of him as her brother-in-law) in waiting for her
to put her in her place. Kirsteen’s chief sensation in all that crowded,
flaring, incomprehensible scene, with the smoky lamps blazing, and the
horses pawing and champing, and every one shouting to every one else
about, was shame of her bundle and fear lest the well-dressed,
carefully-brushed doctor should perceive with what a small provision it
was that she was going forth into the unknown. No hope of blinding his
eyes with the statement that she was going to friends in London if he
saw what her baggage consisted of. He put her, to her surprise, into a
comfortable corner in the interior of the coach, covering her up with a
shawl which he said Anne had sent. “But I was going on the outside,”
said Kirsteen. “Ye canna do that,” he said hastily. “You would get your
death of cold, besides there was no place.” “Then there is more money to
pay,” she said, feeling for her purse, but with a secret pang, for she
was aware how very little money was there. “Nothing at all,” he said
waving it away, “they are just the same price, or very little
difference. Good-bye, Kirsteen, and a good journey to you. A doctor’s
never at his own disposition.” “But the money, I know it’s more money.”
“I have not another moment,” cried the doctor darting away. Was it
possible that she was in debt to Dr. Dewar? She had almost sprung after
him when Mrs. Macgregor appeared carrying the bundle and put it on
Kirsteen’s knee. “Here is your bundle, Miss Kirsteen; and here’s a
little snack for you in a basket.” Thank heaven he had not seen the
bundle, but had he paid money for her? Was she in debt to Anne’s
husband, that common person? There was no time, however, to protest or
send after him. With a clatter upon the stones, as if a house were
falling, and a sound on the trumpet like the day of judgment, the coach
quivered, moved, and finally got under way.




CHAPTER XXI.


It was dark again on the second afternoon when Kirsteen, all dizzy,
feverish, and bewildered, attained once more, so to speak, to solid
ground, after so much that had flown past her, endless, monotonous
whirling in inconceivable flats and levels through night and through
day. She put her foot upon the pavement timidly, and gave a frightened
glance about her, knowing herself to be in London--that fabulous place
of which she had never been sure whether it were not altogether a fairy
tale. The journey had been like a dream, but of a different kind. She
had seemed to herself to be sitting still as in an island in the seas
and seeing the wastes of earth sweep past her, field pursuing field.
There were hills too, but little ones, not much worthy the attention,
and they too went coursing after each other, with all the sheep upon
them and the trees and villages at their feet. There were pauses in the
dream in which a great deal of commotion went on, and horses champed,
and men shouted, and the coach swayed to and fro; but she formed to
herself no definite idea of anything that was going on. People came to
the coach door and spoke of dinner and supper, but Kirsteen was too shy
to eat, though now and then she stepped down, feeling that she was
stiffening into stone. And then the long night came, through which went
the same roll and jar and jolt of the coach, and now and then a feverish
interval of noise and distraction breaking the doze into which she had
fallen. She was too much agitated, too unassured, too conscious of the
break with all her former life and habits which she was making to enjoy
the journey or the sight of so many new places or the novelty in
everything. And yet there was a certain wild pleasure in the rush
through the night, even in the languor of weariness that crept over her
and betrayed her into sleep, and the strange awakening to feel that it
was no dream but that still, even while she slept, the fields and hedges
were flying past and the journey going on. The second day, however, was
one long bewilderment and confusion to Kirsteen, who was altogether
unaccustomed to the kind of fatigue involved in travelling; and when she
was set down finally in the midst of all the lights and commotion, the
passengers tumbling down from above and from behind, the little crowd of
people awaiting their friends, the ostlers, the coachmen, the porters
with the luggage, her bewilderment reached its climax. She was pushed
about by men running to and fro, getting out boxes and bags and every
kind of package, and by the loiterers who had gathered to see the coach
come in, and by the people who had not found their friends, some of
whom came and peered into her face, as if she might perhaps be the
person for whom they looked. Kirsteen at length managed to get out of
the crowd, and stood in a corner waiting till the din should be over,
observing with all the keenness that was left in her till she found some
one whose face she could trust. She found at last a man who was “a
decent-like man,” whom she thought she could venture to address, and,
going up to him, asked if he could direct her to Miss Jean Brown’s, the
mantua-maker? “I have got the address in my pocket,” she said, “but
perhaps ye will know.” “No, miss,” said the decent-like man, “there’s a
many Browns. I think I knows half a hundred.” “She is a person from
Ayrshire,” said Kirsteen. “They don’t put up where they comes from, not
commonly,” said her friend, with a grin, “but if you ’as a letter, miss,
I advise you to look at it.” Kirsteen had doubts about betraying the
whereabouts of her pocket in this strange place, but another glance
assured her that he was an unusually decent-like man; and, besides, what
could she do? She took out cautiously the letter with Miss Jean Brown’s
address. “Chapel Street, Mayfair, will that be near hand?” she said.

“Bless you, that’s the West End, that is--it’s miles and miles away.”

Kirsteen’s heart sank so that she could have cried--miles and
miles!--after her long jolting in the coach. The tears came to her eyes.
But after a moment she recovered herself, feeling the utter futility of
yielding to any weakness now. “Could you direct me the way to go?” she
said, “for I’m a stranger in London.” To see her standing there, with
her bundle in her hand and her cloak on her arm, making this very
unnecessary explanation was a pathetic sight. The decent-like man was
touched--perhaps he had daughters of his own.

“I might find the way,” he said, “for I’m a Londoner born, but a
stranger like you, fresh from the country, as anybody can see, and ready
to believe whatever is told you--no, no! The thing you’ve got to do,
miss, is to take a coach--”

“A coach!” said Kirsteen in horror. “Is London such a big place, then,
that it wants a coach to go from one part to another?”

“It’s a hackney coach, if you have ever heard of such a thing,” said the
man. “I’ll call one for you if you please. It is the best thing to do.
You could never find your way by night even though you might in the
day.”

Kirsteen hesitated for a moment. “It will cost a great deal,” she said,
looking wistfully from the yard into the crowded street, with its
flaring lamps, and the hoarse cries that came from it. She shrank back
to the side of her new friend as she gazed, feeling more than ever like
a shipwrecked mariner, not knowing among what kind of savages she might
fall. “Oh, will ye tell me what to do?” she said, with a quite
unjustifiable faith in the decent-like man.

However, it is sometimes good to trust, and the result of Kirsteen’s
confidence was that she soon found herself in a hackney coach, driving,
a very forlorn wayfarer indeed, through what seemed to be an endless
succession of streets. She had asked her friend humbly whether he would
take it amiss if she offered him a shilling for his kindness, and he had
taken a load off her mind by accepting the coin with much readiness, but
in return had filled her with confusion by asking where was her luggage?
“Oh, it will be quite right when I get there,” Kirsteen had said, deeply
blushing, and feeling that both the coachman and her acquaintance of the
yard must think very poorly of her. And then that long drive began.
Every corner that was turned, and there were she thought a hundred,
Kirsteen felt that now at last she must have reached her journey’s end;
and on each such occasion her heart gave a wild throb, for how could she
tell how Miss Jean would receive her, or if there would be rest for her
at last? And then there would come a respite, another long ramble
between lines of dark houses with muffled lights in the windows, and
then another corner and another leap of her pulses. She thought hours
must have elapsed before at last, with a jar that shook her from head to
foot, the lumbering vehicle came to a stop. Kirsteen stepped out almost
speechless with excitement and gave something, she could scarcely tell
what, to the coachman; and then even this conductor of a moment, whose
face she could scarcely see in the dark, clambered up on his box and
trotted away, leaving her alone. She thought, with a pang, that he might
have waited just a moment to see whether they would let her in. It would
only have been kind--and what could she do in that dreadful case if they
did not? And what was she to Miss Jean Brown that they should let her
in? Her loneliness and helplessness, and the very little thread of
possibility that there was between her and despair, came over Kirsteen
like a sudden blight as she stood outside the unknown door in the dark
street. She began to tremble and shiver, though she tried with all her
might to subdue herself. But she was very tired--she had eaten scarcely
anything for two days. And this great gloomy town which had swallowed
her little existence seemed so dark and terrible. There was no light to
show either knocker or bell, and she stood groping, almost ready to give
up the attempt and sit down upon the steps and be found dead there, as
she had heard poor girls often were in London. She had come to this
pitch of desperation when her hand suddenly touched something that
proved to be a bell. Immediately her heart stood still, with a new and
keener excitement. She waited clinging to the railing, holding her
breath.

It seemed a long time before there was any response. Finally a door
opened, not the door at which Kirsteen stood, but one below, and a faint
light shone out upon a little area into which stepped a figure half
visible. “Who is there? And what may you be wanting?” said a voice.

“I was wanting to speak to Miss Jean Brown,” Kirsteen said.

“Miss Brown never sees anybody at this hour. Ye can come to-morrow if ye
want to see her.”

“Oh,” cried Kirsteen, her voice shrill with trouble, “but I cannot wait
till to-morrow! It’s very urgent. It’s one from her sister in Scotland.
Oh, if ye have any peety ask her--just ask her!--for I cannot wait.”

Another figure now came out below, and there was a short consultation.
“Are ye the new lass from the Hielands?” said another voice.

Even at this forlorn moment the heart of Kirsteen Douglas rose up
against this indignity. “I am from the Hielands,” she said: then anxiety
and wretchedness got the better of her pride. “Yes, yes,” she cried, “I
am anything ye please; but let me in, oh, let me in, if ye would not
have me die!”

“Who is that at the front door? Can ye not open the front door? Is there
not a woman in the house that has her hearing but me that am the
mistress of it?” cried a new voice within; a vigorous footstep came
thumping along the passage, the door was suddenly thrown open, and
Kirsteen found herself in front of a flaring candle which dazzled her
eyes, held up by a woman in a rustling silk dress half covered by a
large white muslin apron. Perhaps the white apron made the most of the
resemblance, but the worn-out girl was not in a condition to
discriminate. She stumbled into the house without asking another
question, and crying “Oh, Miss Jean!” half fell at the feet of
Marg’ret’s sister, feeling as if all her cares were over and her haven
reached.

“Yes, I am just Miss Jean,” said the mistress of the house, holding her
candle so as to throw its full light on Kirsteen’s face. “But who are
you? I dinna ken ye. You’re from the auld country, that’s easy to be
seen; but I canna take in every Scots lass that comes with Miss Jean in
her mouth. Who are ye, lassie? But ye’re no a common lass. The Lord keep
us, ye’ll never be my sister Marg’ret’s young leddy from Drumcarro?”

Miss Jean put down her candle hastily on a table, and took Kirsteen’s
hands. “You’re cauld and you’re in a tremble, and ye dinna say a word.
Come in, come in to the fire, and tell me, bairn, if it’s you.”

Then there followed a few moments or minutes in which Kirsteen did not
know what happened. But the clouds cleared away and she found herself in
a room full of warm firelight, seated in a great chair, and herself
saying (as if it was another person), “I thought I had got home and that
it was Marg’ret.”

“But you called me Miss Jean.”

“Ah,” said Kirsteen, now fully aware what she was saying and no longer
feeling like another person. “I knew it was Miss Jean, but it was my
Marg’ret too. It was maybe this,” she said, touching the white apron,
“but it was mostly your kind, kind eyne.”

“I’m feared you’re a flatterer,” said Miss Jean; “my eyne might be once
worth taking notice of, but not now. But you’re just worn out, and
famishing, and cauld and tired. Eh, to think a Miss Douglas of Drumcarro
should come to my house like this, and nobody to meet you, or receive
you, or pay you any attention! It was just an inspiration that I went to
the door myself. But your room will be ready in a moment, and ye shall
have some supper and a cup of tea.” She paused a moment and cast a
glance round. “Did you bring your--luggage with ye?” she said.

Kirsteen laughed, but blushed a little. “I have nothing but my bundle; I
came away in such a hurry--and on my feet.”

Miss Jean blushed far more than Kirsteen did. She “thought shame for the
servants.” “We must say ye left it at the office and it’s coming
to-morrow,” she said anxiously. And then care and warmth and a sense of
well-being and comfort and rest so enveloped Kirsteen that she
remembered little more. There was a coming and going of various faces
into the light, a bustle of preparation, Miss Jean’s keys taken out and
brought back, consultations about the spare room, and the well-aired
sheets, through all of which she sat happy and passive, seeing and
hearing everything once more as if she were another person. The dark
seas seemed to have been traversed, the unknown depths fathomed, and
paradise attained. Perhaps the blazing fire, the fragrant tea, the
little hasty meal, were not very paradisaical elements; but even these
creature comforts acquire a sentiment after a long tedious journey,
especially when the tired traveller retains all the quick sensations of
youth, and is delivered from the horrible exaggerated terrors of
inexperience as well as the mere fatigue of body and soul.




CHAPTER XXII.


The journey over and the end attained! This was the thought that came to
Kirsteen’s mind as she opened her eyes upon the morning--not so tired,
she reflected, as she had been at the inn at Arrochar, at Mrs.
Macfarlane’s, after her first day’s walk. Was that a year ago? she asked
herself. The adventures by the way, the long lines of loch and hill, the
villages and the silent kirks which had seemed to make her safer
whenever she saw them, the great flaring dark image of Glasgow, relieved
by the sight of Anne and her babies, and the green with the bleaching,
the whirl of the long unbroken journey, rattling, jolting, rolling, hour
after hour through day and night--the strange passage in the dark
through unknown London, and finally this little room in which she opened
her eyes, lying still and closing them again to enjoy the sensation of
rest, then opening them to see the yellow fog of the morning like a veil
against the two small windows already shrouded by curtains, to which
Kirsteen was unaccustomed and which seemed to shut out all air and
light--if that could be called light that pressed upon the panes with a
yellow solidity just touched by a wintry sun. Were all her journeyings
over, and had she reached the new world in which she was to live?

Her bundle had been carefully opened, her linen laid out in a drawer
half open to show her where to find it, her second gown hung carefully
up, shaken out of its creases by a skilful hand. Miss Jean herself had
done this, still “thinking shame for the servants” of the new-comer’s
scant possessions. It was already known all through the house that a
distinguished visitor, Miss Douglas of Drumcarro, had arrived, a visitor
of whose name Miss Jean was very proud, though a little mystified by her
arrival, and wondering much to know what such a phenomenon as the
arrival of a girl of good family unattended in London and at her house
might mean. She was proud to give the needed hospitality, but why it
should be to her, and not to any of her “grand connections,” that
Kirsteen had come, mystified the dressmaker. And Marg’ret in her letter
had given no explanation; “Miss Kirsteen will tell you everything
herself,” was all she had said. The seamstresses down below, and the
servants still lower down who had mistaken the young lady for a new
lass, were all in much excitement discussing the strange event. It was
probably some story with love in it, the young women thought, and were
all eager for a glimpse of the new-comer or for any contribution to her
history.

She was nearly dressed when Miss Jean came with a gentle tap at the
door. “I was thinking you would perhaps like your breakfast in bed, my
dear young lady. You have had a dreadful journey. From Glasgow in two
days and cramped up in the coach the whole time. But bless me, you are
already dressed,” she added, scanning the gown in which Kirsteen had
just clothed herself, from head to foot, or rather from hem to throat.
Miss Jean looked it all over, and gave it a twitch here and there, and
smoothed the shoulders with her hand. “It’s not ill made for the
country,” she said, “and fits you well enough, but these little puffed
sleeves are out of fashion for morning dress. You must let me put you in
the mode, Miss Douglas, before ye are seen in the world.”

Miss Jean herself wore a stuff gown, crossed over upon the bosom, and
open at the neck which was covered with a neckerchief of voluminous
white net, underneath the gown. She wore a brown front with little
curls, and a close cap tied under her chin for morning wear, with a
large and long muslin apron trimmed round with muslin work and lace. She
had a large and ruddy countenance with eyes like Marg’ret’s, kind and
soft. Kirsteen was surprised to find, however, how little in the morning
was the resemblance which she had thought so great in the night.
Marg’ret, though the virtual mistress of the house at home, never
changed the dress and aspect of a servant woman for anything more
becoming the housekeeper. But Miss Jean was more imposing than many of
the country ladies, with a large gold watch like a small warming-pan
hooked to her side, and her handkerchief fastened by a brooch of real
pearls. To have this personage addressing her so respectfully, looking
forward to her entry into the grand world, overwhelmed the girl who
already she felt owed her so much.

“Oh,” she said, “Miss Jean--I have not come to London to be seen in the
world. I’m just a poor runaway from home. I promised Marg’ret I would
tell you everything. Nothing can change the Douglas blood. We have that,
but we have little more; and all my father thinks of is to push on the
boys and restore the old family. The lassies are just left to shift for
themselves.”

“That is often the case, my dear young lady. Ye must just marry, and do
as well for yourselves in that way.”

“We are three of us at home, and we can do nothing, and what does it
matter being a Douglas if ye have no siller? I’ve come away, not to see
the world, but to make my fortune, Miss Jean.”

Miss Jean threw up her hands in dismay. “Bless the bairn, to make her
fortune!” she cried.

“That’s just what I intend,” cried Kirsteen. “I’ll not marry a man to
deceive him when I care for nothing but his money. I’ll marry no man,
except--and I’ve just come to London to work for my living--and make my
fortune, if I can.”

“Whisht, whisht, whisht!” cried Miss Jean, “that’s all very well in a
lad,--and there’s just quantities of them goes into the city without a
penny and comes out like nabobs in their carriages--but not women, my
dear, let alone young lassies like you.”

“I will not be a young lass for ever, Miss Jean.”

“No,” said the dressmaker shaking her head, “ye may be sure of that, my
dear lamb. That’s just the one thing that never happens. But ye’ll be
married, and happy, and bairns at your knee, before your youth’s past,
for that,” she said, with a sigh, “I’m thinking, my dear, is the best
way. I was never one that had much to do with the men. There’s some does
it and some not. Look at Marg’ret and me, ne’er had such a thought; but
now we’re getting old both the one and the other, and who will we have
to lay our heads in the grave?--not one belonging to us. We’re just as
the auld Queen said, dry trees.”

“Not Marg’ret,” cried Kirsteen, “not while one of us is to the fore! I
am not wishing to lay her head in the grave, but for love and
faithfulness she will never lack as long as there is a Douglas to the
fore.”

“It’s a real pleasure to me,” said Miss Jean, putting her handkerchief
to her eyes, “to hear ye speak. And well I know Marg’ret would want
before you wanted, any one of the family. So it’s on both sides, and a
grand thing to see a faithful servant so respected. Now, Miss Douglas--”

“My name is Kirsteen.”

“Well, Miss Kirsteen. You’ll just take a good rest, and look about you,
and see the follies of London before ye think anything more about making
your fortune. Eh, to hear those bairns speak! Ye would think it was the
easiest thing in the world to make a fortune. Ye would think ye had but
to put forth your hand and take it. That’s just my nephew John’s
opinion, that has got a small place in an office in Fleet Street, and is
thinking what grand things he’ll have in the show the year he’s Lord
Mayor. He was not satisfied at all with the last one,” said Miss Jean
with a hearty laugh. “‘Auntie,’ says he, ‘it shall be very different
when it comes to my turn.’ And the laddie has fifteen shillings a week,
and to fend for himself! But, my dear,” she said, smoothing Kirsteen’s
shoulder once more, and giving a twitch to the one line in her gown
which did not hang as Miss Jean approved, “by the time we have put ye
into the last fashion, and ye’ve been at a grand party or two, ye’ll
have changed your tune.”

“Who will bid me to grand parties?” said Kirsteen; but Miss Jean had
disappeared and did not hear. It gave Kirsteen a little pang to think
there was nobody who could interfere, no “grand connections” such as the
mantua-maker supposed, to call her to the world, a pang not so much for
herself as for the mortification involved in Miss Jean’s discovery of
the fact. As for grand parties Kirsteen had found out that they were a
delusion. The ball at the Castle had filled her with dreams of pleasure,
but yet nothing but harm had come of it. She had been neglected while
there, and received none of the homage which every girl is taught to
expect, and she had found only Glendochart, whose suit had cost her her
home and everything that had been dear. A tear stole to Kirsteen’s eye
as she made this reflection, but it never fell, so quickly did her heart
rise to the excitement of the novelty around her. She said to herself
that even if there was no Glendochart she would not now go back. She
would stay and work and make her fortune, and make Jeanie an heiress,
and get every dainty that London could provide to send to her mother.
She would buy a carriage for her mother, and easy couches and down
pillows and everything that heart could desire; and then when _he_ came
back--the tear rose again, but only to make brighter the triumphant
smile in Kirsteen’s eyes. Let the others go to grand parties if they
could (Mary would like it) but as for her, she would make her fortune,
and be a help to every one that bore her name. She knelt down by her
bedside to say her prayers, her heart so throbbing with purpose and
anticipation that she could scarcely go through these devout little
forms which had been the liturgy of her childhood. “Oh, that I may make
my fortune and help them all,” was the real petition of her heart. To
suggest anything so worldly to her Maker would have been blasphemy
according to the creed which Kirsteen had been taught, but this was the
breath of intense aspiration that carried up the little innocent
petitions. She rose from her knees in a thrill of purpose and feeling.
“They shall not be shamed as they think, they shall be thankful there
was Kirsteen among the lassies, as well as seven sons to make Drumcarro
great again. Oh, maybe not Drumcarro but the old Douglas country!”
Kirsteen said to herself. And so went down stairs glowing to see what
the new sphere was in which she was to conquer the world. And then when
_he_ came back!

Kirsteen was quite unacquainted with the kind of house, tall and
straight and thin, in which, as in the fashionable quarter, Miss Jean
had established herself. The thread of narrow street filled with a foggy
smoky air through which the red morning sun struggled--the blank line of
houses opposite, and the dreary wall of the church or chapel which gave
it its name seemed to her petty and dingy and small beyond description,
all the more that Miss Jean evidently expected her visitor to be
impressed with the fashionable character of the locality. “The rooms
were a great deal bigger where we were, near Russell Square,” she said,
“and more convenient for the work; but fashion is just everything, and
this is where all my leddies live. You could not be expected to go back
to Bloomsbury having once got foot in Mayfair.” Naturally Kirsteen was
quite incapable of contradicting this axiom, which everybody in the
work-room considered incontrovertible. The work-room was a long room
built out at the back of the house, with many windows, and walls which
had no decoration except a few plates of the fashions pinned to them, as
being particularly lovely. A long table ran down the middle at which
were seated a number of young women, every one of whom to Kirsteen’s
inexperienced perceptions was infinitely more fashionable, more imposing
than her highest conception of herself had ever come to; and they spoke
fine English, with an accent which was to be sure not so easily
understood as her own, but had an air of refinement which impressed
Kirsteen much. Were they all gentlewomen, come like herself to make
their fortunes? She made a timid question on this subject to Miss Jean
which was answered almost indignantly, “Gentlewomen! Not one of
them--havering, glaikit lassies!” was the reply.

“They speak such fine English,” said Kirsteen.

Miss Jean kept her word and took her to see all the “ferlies”--London
Bridge, and the Exchange, and the Guildhall, with Gog and Magog guarding
the liberties of the city, and to take a walk in the park which was just
like the country, and where a glass of new milk warm from the cow was
given her as a treat. And she was taken to see the coaches come in with
the news from the Continent about Boney’s escape and the progress that
adventurer was making, and the orders to the troops that were to crush
him. Kirsteen thanked God that neither her brother nor _him_ were in the
King’s army, but away in India where, indeed, there was fighting going
on continually though nobody knew much about it. And she likewise saw
Westminster and St. Paul’s, both of which overawed her but did not
connect themselves with any idea of worship; her little kirk at home,
and the respectable meeting-house at Glasgow to which she had gone with
Anne, being all she knew of in that way. She maintained her composure
wonderfully through all these sight-seeings, showing no transport either
of admiration or wonder, something to the disappointment of Miss Jean.
This was not owing to want of interest, however, but partly to a Scotch
shyness of expressing herself, and the strong national objection to
demonstration or rhapsodies of any kind--and partly to the high tension
in which her mind was--a sort of exaltation which went beyond any
tangible object, and even made most things a little disappointing, not
so splendid as imagination had suggested. The one thing that did
overcome Kirsteen’s composure was the extent of the streets, tedious,
insignificant, and unlovely but endless, going on and on to the end of
all things, and of the crowd, which she did not admire in itself, which
was often dirty, noisy, and made her shrink, but which also was endless,
abounding everywhere. You left it in Fleet Street only to find it again
in Piccadilly, Kirsteen thought, gaping at the coaches before the White
Horse Cellar just as it had gaped at her own coach where she arrived,
which was, she was told, far away in the city. Where did the people come
from? Where did they disappear to? Did they live anywhere or sleep in
bed, were they always about the streets day and night? This was one of
the things that made her more indifferent to the sights; for her eyes
were always wandering away after the people about whom she did not like
to ask questions. She saw the Prince Regent riding out accompanied by
his gentlemen, “the grandest gentlemen in the land,” Miss Jean
explained, telling Kirsteen a name here and there which were completely
unknown to the Highland girl--who did not admire her future sovereign.
In this way a week passed, Kirsteen vainly attempting to be suffered to
do something more than sit in the parlour and read a book (it was the
_Ladies’ Museum_, a magazine of the time in many volumes, and containing
beautiful prints of the fashions, which was the chief literature at Miss
Brown’s), or walk out whenever business permitted Miss Jean an hour of
freedom--which was generally in the morning--to see the sights. One day
her patience could bear it no longer: she burst forth--

“Miss Jean, Miss Jean, I would rather see no more ferlies. I take you
out and spend your time and give a great deal of trouble when all I want
is to learn my work, and put to my hand.”

“To make your fortune?” said Miss Jean.

“Perhaps at the end--but to learn first,” said Kirsteen pausing with a
deep passing colour, the colour of pride--“my trade.”

“Your trade! What would your father say, good gentleman, if he heard you
say such words?--Or your mother, poor lady, that has so little health?”

“I’ve left both father and mother,” cried Kirsteen, “but not to come
upon others--and ye cannot tear me from my purpose whatever may be
said. There’s reasons why I will never go back to Drumcarro, till--I
will tell you some day, I cannot now. But I’m here to work and not to be
a cumberer of the ground. I want to learn to be a mantua-maker to
support myself and help--other folk. Miss Jean, if you will not have me
I’ll have to ask some other person. I cannot be idle any more.”

“Miss Kirsteen, there will be grand connections seeking you out and
angry at me that let you have your will--and I will lose customers and
make unfriends.”

“I have no grand connections,” said Kirsteen. “You see for yourself
nobody has troubled their heads about me. I’m just as lone as the
sparrow on the housetop. I’ve left my own folk and Marg’ret, and I have
nobody but you in the world. Why should ye stop me? When my heart’s set
upon it nobody can stop me,” Kirsteen cried, with a flash of her eyes
like the flash in her father’s when his blood was up.

“Lord keep us! I can weel believe that to look at you,” said Miss Jean.




CHAPTER XXIII.


It followed as a matter of course that Kirsteen very soon accomplished
her purpose. She took her place in the workroom to the great surprise
and partial confusion of the workwomen who did not at first know how to
teach the lady who had come among them, her qualities and position much
magnified by Miss Jean. Some of them were disposed to be impertinent,
some scornful, some to toady the young new comer, who, whatever she
might be in herself, was undoubtedly Miss Brown’s favourite, and able to
procure favours and exemptions for those who were her friends. The
standing feud between Scotch and English, and the anger and jealousy
with which the richer nation regarded the invasions of the poorer, had
not yet fallen into the mild dislike which is all that can be said to
subsist nowadays in the way of hostile feeling between the two
countries. Fierce jests about the Scotch who came to make their fortune
off their richer neighbours, about their clannishness and their
canniness, and their poverty and their pride, and still lower and
coarser jibes about other supposed peculiarities were then still as
current as the popular crows of triumph over the French and other
similar antipathies; and Kirsteen’s advent was attended by many comments
of the kind from the sharp young Londoners to whom her accent and her
slower speech, and her red hair and her ladyhood were all objects of
derision.

But it was soon found that it was not easy to overcome Miss Kirsteen,
which was the name she chose to be called by. “I think no shame of my
work, but I will not put my father’s name in it, for he is old-fashioned
and he would think shame,” Kirsteen had said--and Miss Jean approved
greatly. “It would never do to let these lassies say that there was a
Miss Douglas in the workroom with them.” Kirsteen had a shrewd suspicion
that the Miss Robinsons and Miss Smiths of the workroom would derive
little idea of dignity or superiority from the name of Douglas; but even
she was not quite so emancipated as to believe them quite ignorant of
its importance. When she discovered from the revelations of a toady that
they called her Miss Carrots, or Miss Scotchy behind her back, Kirsteen
was angry, but dignified, and took no notice, to the great
disappointment of her informant. “I did not choose the colour of my
hair,” she said with much stateliness, little foreseeing a time to come
when red hair should be the admiration of the world. But the young women
soon heard that their shafts passed over Kirsteen’s head and fell
innocuous, which is the most safe and speedy extinguisher of malice. To
make covert allusions which the object of them never finds out, and
utter jibes that are not even heard by the intended butt of the company
is poor sport.

Kirsteen had the safeguard of having a great many things to think of.
Her thoughts strayed to her mother who would miss her, for whom perhaps
she ought to have suffered everything rather than abandon. But what good
would I have been to her if they had married me to Glendochart? she said
to herself. And then she would ask herself what Glendochart would do,
kind man whom she was wae to disappoint or harm, and how Marg’ret would
meet the inquiries addressed to her, how much she would be forced to
reveal, how much she could hide. And then her thoughts would fly to
Anne, and the two babies on the hearthrug, and the doctor, who, no
doubt, was well-looking and well-spoken and kind, and who had taken
thought for Kirsteen’s comfort in a way she had little title to,
considering how many prejudices, not yet by any means dispersed, she
entertained against him. After these subjects were exhausted, and
sometimes before they were begun, her mind, or rather her heart, would
fly to wild, unknown landscapes; dimly-imagined wastes of arid heat, in
the midst of which a white encampment, and one there of whom she could
follow only the personal image, not knowing what he might be doing nor
what was the course of that far-off Indian life. He might be in the
midst of a battle while Kirsteen, with her head bent over her work and
her needle flying, was thinking of him; or travelling in strange ways,
on camels over the desert, or mysterious big elephants. The letters of
her brothers had been brief records of their own health and appointments
and removals and little more. She knew no details of the life of the
East. Her imagination could only trace him vaguely through sunshine and
splendours unknown. But with all these varied thoughts to fill her mind
it may be imagined that Kirsteen was very little affected by the
references to Carrots or to the Scotchies who took the bread out of the
mouths of English folks. When she did hear them she took them at first
with great good humour. “There are plenty of English folk in Scotland,”
she said. “I’ve heard that the ladies’-maids and the bairns’-maids are
all from here--to teach the children to knap English, which is a little
different, as perhaps ye know, from the way we speak.” And as for the
Carrots she disposed of that very simply. “At home it is Ginger the
bairns cry after me,” she said. After a while, when she caught the sound
of those recurring words among her many thoughts, she would raise her
eyes and send a flash among them which daunted the whisperers. But
generally Kirsteen neither noticed nor heard the impertinences of her
fellow-workwomen, which was the most effectual check of all.

It may not be thought a very high quality in a heroine, but Kirsteen
soon developed a true genius for her craft. She had never forgotten Miss
Macnab’s little lecture upon the accuracy of outline necessary for the
proper composition of a gown--and thus had acquired the first
principles almost without knowing it. She followed up this, which is the
heart of the matter, by many studies and compositions in which her
lively mind found a great deal of pleasure. She was not, perhaps, very
intellectual, but she was independent and original, little trained in
other people’s ideas and full of fancies of her own, which, to my
thinking, is the most delightful of characteristics. I remember that Mr.
Charles Reade has endowed one of the most charming women whom he has
introduced to the knowledge of the world with the same gift. Mrs. Lucy
Dodd only, I think, made and invented mantles; but Kirsteen tried her
active young powers upon everything, being impatient of sameness and
monotony, and bent upon securing a difference, an individual touch in
every different variety of costume. She was delighted with the beautiful
materials, which were thrown about in the work-room, the ordinary
mantua-maker having little feeling for them except in view of their cost
at so much a yard. But Kirsteen, quite unused to beautiful manufactured
things, admired them all, and found a pleasure in heaping together and
contrasting with each other the soft silken stuffs, many of them with a
sheen of two blended colours called “shot” in those days. Manufactures
had not come to such perfection then as now, but there were no
adulterated silks or cheap imitations; the very muslins, sprigged and
spotted with many fanciful variations, were as costly as brocade
nowadays--the kind of brocade which the later nineteenth century
indulges in. To be sure, on the other hand, the plain straight gown
required very much less material than is necessary now.

I do not myself think that dress was pretty in those days--but every
fashion is beautiful to its time. And how the ladies of the early
century managed to make themselves comfortable in white muslin gowns in
December, even with a cloth pelisse over them, is more than I can
divine, though I find in Miss Jean Brown’s copy of the _Ladies’ Museum_
that this was the case. However that may be--and I do not suppose that
Kirsteen was before her time, or more enlightened than the rest of the
world--it is certain that she applied herself to the invention of pretty
confections and modifications of the fashion with much of the genuine
enjoyment which attends an artist in all crafts, and liked to handle and
drape the pretty materials and to adapt them to this and that pretty
wearer, as a painter likes to arrange and study the more subtle
harmonies of light and shade. Miss Jean, who had herself been very
successful in her day, but was no longer quite so quick to catch the
value of a tint, or so much disposed to stand over a subject and attain
perfection in the outline of a skirt, was wise enough to perceive the
gifts of her young assistant, and soon began to require her presence in
the show-room, to consult with her over special toilettes and how to
secure special effects. She did this at first, however, with some
reluctance, always haunted by the fear that Kirsteen might thus be
exposed to remark, and even that she herself might suffer for her
audacity in employing a gentlewoman in so exalted a rank of life. “What
if some of your grand connections or acquaintances should see ye?” she
said. “I have no grand connections,” said Kirsteen, vexed to have this
want brought back and back upon her consciousness. “For ye see I have
all the nobility coming about the place,” said Miss Jean proudly; “and
now that the season has begun it is different from the winter.” “I know
nothing about the nobility,” cried Kirsteen again. She was angered at
last by the assumption, all the more that her want of acquaintance with
what was so clearly understood to be her own class, now became so
evident to her as to be a grievance--a grievance that she had never been
conscious of before.

It happened one day, however, that there came into the show-room, while
Kirsteen was there, a very distinguished party indeed, which Miss Jean
advanced to the door to meet curtseying to the ground, and which
consisted of a large and imposing mother, a beautiful, tall girl, at
sight of whom Kirsteen precipitately retired into a corner, and a young
gentleman whom in her surprise she did not notice. It appeared, however,
that this was not at all the case with him. He glanced round with a yawn
as a young man in compulsory attendance on his mother and sister may be
excused for doing, then, observing a young figure in the corner, began
to take instant measures to discover whether there might not be
something here to amuse himself with while the ladies were occupied
with their dressmaker. Now it is not easy for a young person in a
mantua-maker’s show-room persistently to keep her back turned upon a
party of customers, and Kirsteen, to give herself a countenance, began
to arrange carefully the draping of a piece of silk over a stand, so as
to appear to be very much occupied and absorbed in her occupation. That
it should really happen to her after all to find a grand acquaintance
among Miss Jean’s nobility! The discovery was painful yet gave her a
certain gratification, for at least to be able to say to Miss Jean that
she must run away when the Duchess came in was something, and vindicated
her gentility. On the other hand she said to herself with a little
bitterness that most likely they would look her in the face, even Lady
Chatty, and never know that they had seen her before.

The young man all this time kept roaming about, looking, as it appeared,
at the mantles and the bonnets, but aiming at the stand where Kirsteen,
bending over her silk, was pinching and twisting it so as to show its
full perfection. He said “Oh!” with a start, when he got into a position
in which he could obtain a glimpse of the half-hidden face. She looked
up in the surprise of the moment; and there stood the critic of the
ball, the sportsman of Loch Long side, he who had been of so much
service to her yet had affronted her more than the tramp, Lord John
himself--with a delighted smile and mischievous air of satisfaction.
“Ho, ho! my pretty maiden--so this was where you were going?” he said
to her in a low tone--“I am delighted to see you again.”

The colour rushed to Kirsteen’s face. She looked up at him defiantly for
a moment; then feeling that discretion was the better part of valour,
edged away from where he was standing, bending over her draperies again
and drawing the stand softly after her. But Lord John was not to be so
easily daunted.

“You can’t dismiss me again in that grand style,” he said. “Loch Long is
one thing and a milliner’s in London quite another. Do you think I will
believe that you have come here for nothing but to fit gowns on women
not half so pretty as yourself?”

Angry words rushed to Kirsteen’s lips in a flood--angry, scornful,
defiant words, full of contempt and indignation. She was deeply
indignant at this attempt to take advantage of what he thought her
weakness; but she knew that she was not weak, which is a consciousness
that gives courage. Had she been one of the other girls in the workroom
to be flattered or frightened or compromised no doubt she would have
done some imprudence, implored his silence, or committed herself in some
other way. But Kirsteen was out of the range of such dangers. She turned
from the stand she had been draping to another piece of work without any
visible sign of the disturbance in her mind, and made no reply.

Lord John was not to be shaken off so easily. The time had no very high
standard either of morals or manners, and to seize the opportunity of
speaking to a pretty girl wherever he found her, was rather expected
from, than disapproved in a young man. These were the days in which it
was still a civility on the part of a gallant to kiss a pretty
maid-servant as he gave her half-a-crown. And milliners were supposed
very fair game. He followed her as she opened with much show of zeal a
box of French flowers. “Come,” he said, “I must choose some of these; I
must buy something of you. You’ll find me an excellent customer. Choose
the prettiest for me, and I’ll give you whatever you ask for them. If I
had but known when we met last that you were coming here!”

“Miss Kirsteen,” said Miss Jean, who had somehow an eye about her to
observe what was going on behind. “Will ye please to bring me that new
box of French flowers?”

It was a relief yet a new alarm. Kirsteen lifted the light box, and came
slowly towards the group. Now it would be seen that they had no more
recollection of her than if she had been a stock or a stone. The Duchess
did not turn round, but Lady Chatty, conscious of the presence of
another girl, and also perhaps vaguely aware that her brother had
already found an interest in the opposite corner, looked straight at
Miss Jean’s new assistant. She gave a start, and clasped her hands; then
crying out, “It is Kirsteen!” darted upon her, throwing the box with all
the beautiful new French flowers to the ground.

“Oh, dear me, how clumsy I am! Oh, I hope the flowers will take no
harm! But it is Kirsteen. Mamma, do you see? Kirsteen Douglas from our
own country. Oh, I’m so glad to see you,” cried Lady Chatty, seizing her
by both the hands out of which her lively onslaught had thrown the box.
“You’re like a breath of Highland air, you’re like the heather on the
hills.”

And indeed it was a good metaphor as Kirsteen stood confused, with her
russet locks a little ruffled as their manner was, and her hazel eyes
glowing and her bright face confused between pleasure and vexation and
shame.

“It is true that it is me, Lady Chatty,” she said, “but you should not
have made me let fall the flowers.”

“I will help you to pick them up,” said the young lady; and Lord John,
taking a long step forward as if his attention had been suddenly roused,
said, “Can I be of use? I’ll help too.”

Meantime her Grace, who had turned round at Lady Chatty’s cry, stood for
a moment surprised, regarding the group all kneeling on the floor,
picking up the flowers, and then turned back to have a colloquy with
Miss Jean, in which the words “Drumcarro’s daughter,” and “Glendochart,”
and “a wilful girl,” and “a good marriage,” and Miss Jean’s deprecating
explanation, “I told her so. I told her so, your Grace, but she would
not listen to me,” came to Kirsteen’s ears in her anxiety, while she
eluded the touch of Lord John’s hand, and tried to respond to all Lady
Chatty’s eager questions. “Oh, Kirsteen, you should hear what Miss Eelen
says of you,” said Lady Chatty, “and poor old Glendochart, who is such
a nice old man. Why were you so unkind? But I would not marry an old
gentleman myself, not if he were a royal duke,” cried the girl, raising
her voice a little not without intention. “And how clever it was of you
to think of coming here! Nobody would ever have found you here if mamma
had not taken it into her head to come to Miss Jean’s to-day. But oh,
Kirsteen, it is a pity, for they will send you home again. I am glad to
have seen you, but I am sorry, for mamma is coming to talk seriously to
you. I can see it in her face. And papa will hear of it, and he will
think it his duty to take an interest. And between them they will make
you go home again. And when once they get you back, they will marry you
to old Glendochart, whether you like or not!”


                            END OF VOL. I.




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                              COLLECTION

                                  OF

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                          TAUCHNITZ EDITION.

                              VOL. 2720.

                      KIRSTEEN BY MRS. OLIPHANT.

                            IN TWO VOLUMES.

                               VOL. II.




                               KIRSTEEN

                               THE STORY
                                  OF
                   A SCOTCH FAMILY SEVENTY YEARS AGO

                                  BY

                            MRS. OLIPHANT,
              AUTHOR OF “THE CHRONICLES OF CARLINGFORD,”
                               ETC. ETC.

                         _COPYRIGHT EDITION._

                       IN TWO VOLUMES.--VOL. II.

                                LEIPZIG
                          BERNHARD TAUCHNITZ
                                 1891.




KIRSTEEN.




CHAPTER I.


And indeed the Duchess did come forward with the gravest looks, after
the flowers had all been gathered up and restored to the box and her
talk was over with Miss Jean.

“Miss Douglas,” she said, “I am much surprised to find you here.”

“Your Grace,” said Kirsteen, “I am very well here.”

“That is just your silly notion. A young person of your age is not
fitted to dispose of her own life. Your worthy parents had looked out a
most suitable match for you, and I cannot but say it was very wrong and
a shame to all belonging to you that you should run away.”

“I would rather say nothing about it, madam,” said Kirsteen. “Whether
that was the cause or not, the heart knoweth its own bitterness; and
every one of us, however small we may be, understands their own affairs
best.”

“No, young lady,” said the Duchess, “that’s not so. You are not at an
age when you are fit to judge. It is just nothing but childish folly,”
she added, raising her voice also intentionally, and casting a glance
towards her daughter, “to object to a good man and a gentleman of a good
family, and who is hale and hearty and full of sense--because he is not
just as young as some long-legged fool that you may think better worth
your pains.”

“Like me, for instance,” said Lord John in an audible aside.

Her Grace’s eyes softened as her look rested for a moment upon her
scapegrace. Then she turned back to Kirsteen with her severest look. “It
is a very bad example to other foolish young creatures that you have set
in running away. But I hope you will think better of it, and be
persuaded, and go back to your family,” she said.

“I do not think I can do that,” said Kirsteen, “for there’s nothing
changed that I know, and the reason that brought me away is still
there.”

“Miss Douglas,” said the Duchess, “his Grace himself has heard all about
this from one and another, and I make little doubt that when he hears
where you are and that we have seen you, and what an unsuitable place
you are in for a gentleman’s daughter, he will take it into his own
hands, and just insist that you must go back.”

Kirsteen had been standing in a respectful attitude listening to the
great lady, answering for herself, it is true, with much steadiness,
but also with deference and humility. She raised her head now, however,
and looked the Duchess in the face. “I am meaning no disrespect,” she
said, “but, madam, I am not his Grace’s clanswoman, that he should
insist. The Douglases I have always heard tell were sovran in their own
place, and gave no reverence to one of another name.”

“Young lady,” cried the Duchess astonished, “you are a very bold person
to speak of his Grace in that tone.”

“I am meaning no disrespect,” Kirsteen said. But she stood so firm, and
met her Grace’s eye with so little shrinking, that even the Duchess
herself was embarrassed. It is unwise to profess an intention of
interfering and setting everything straight before you have ascertained
that your impulse will be obeyed. The great lady  a little and
felt herself worsted. It was only natural that she should lose her
temper; she turned upon Miss Jean, who stood by very tremulous, half
sympathizing with Kirsteen, half overawed by her visitor.

“Then, Miss Brown,” she said, “it should be your duty to interfere. It
ill becomes you, a person so well supported by the Scots gentry, to back
up a young girl of family in rebellion against her own kith and kin.”

Miss Jean was much taken by surprise, yet she was not unequal to the
occasion. “I have told Miss Kirsteen,” she said, “on several occasions
that this was what would happen; that her grand friends would step in,
and that we would all be called to account. I hope your Grace will
excuse me, but I cannot say more. I have no authority. If your Grace
cannot move her, how will she heed the like of me?”

“She is a very self-willed young person,” said the Duchess; “but I will
see that her friends are communicated with, and no doubt her father will
send some one to fetch her away. We will just leave the other question
till another time. Charlotte, come away.”

“But I must have my gown, mamma,” cried Lady Chatty; “indeed I’m not
going without my gown. What should I do with all the balls coming on,
and nothing to wear? You can go away if you please and send the carriage
back for me, or John will take me home. But if all the world were
falling to pieces, I must have my gown. You must know, Miss Jean, it is
for the birthday, and I must have something of your very best. Kirsteen,
what is the prettiest thing she has? for you must know. I want some of
that silver gauze that is like a mist, and I have it in my head exactly
how I want it made. Oh, mamma, don’t stand and look so glum, but just go
away, please, and send the carriage back for me.”

The Duchess hesitated for a moment, but in the end took her daughter’s
advice, as was her custom. “You will not forget, Miss Jean, what I have
said. And as for you, young lady, I hope you will reflect upon your
position and take the proper steps to put things right,” she said
severely. “John, you will give me your arm down stairs. And see that
you are ready, Charlotte, in a quarter of an hour, when the carriage
comes back.”

With these words the Duchess went away. She could not stand against her
beautiful daughter and the necessity of the new gown, but she would not
sanction in her own person the example of rebellion and self-assertion.
“You will come back for Chatty,” she said to her son, relaxing a little
when she got outside that home of insubordination. “She is far too free
with common people; and that young woman is a very bold-looking person
and not society for your sister.”

“She is a very pretty person,” said Lord John; “I could not think where
I had seen her before.”

“Pretty! with that red hair!” cried his mother, shaking her head as she
got into her carriage and drove away.

“Now, Kirsteen,” cried Lady Chatty, “quick, quick, now that mamma’s
gone--her bark is a great deal worse than her bite--tell me all about
it. They wanted to make you marry old Glendochart? Oh, parents are like
that everywhere--they want me, too. And couldn’t you just face them and
get over them as I do? Couldn’t you just? Miss Jean, she is crying--but
I meant no harm.”

“Lady Chatty,” said Kirsteen, “will you try and get her Grace not to
write? If I were ever so willing my father would never more let me come
back. Oh, if I might just be left alone!--for I cannot tell you
everything. My family is not like other families. If I was dying for it
they would never more take me home again. Oh, if I might just be let
alone!”

“I told you, Miss Kirsteen, what would be the end of it,” said Miss
Jean, “and that you would bring me into trouble too.”

“Oh, never mind these old people, they are all the same,” cried Lady
Chatty. “But,” she added, “I almost wonder after all, Kirsteen, you did
not marry old Glendochart; he would have freed you from all the rest,
and he would have done whatever you pleased. And nobody could have put a
question or said a word. So long,” said this experienced young lady,
looking in Kirsteen’s face, “as there was not some one else. Oh, but I
see!” she cried, clapping her hands, “there is some one else.”

“Will your leddyship look at this?--it is the gauze ye were inquiring
after,” said Miss Jean. “I will just put it about you over your
shoulder, and you will see the effect. And Miss Kirsteen, who has
wonderful taste, will give us her advice. Look now in the cheval glass.
What does your ladyship think of that?”

“It’s divine,” cried Lady Chatty, clapping her hands; and interesting
though the other subject was, the new gown and its possibilities, and a
delightful discussion as to certain novel effects, carried the day. Miss
Jean threw herself ecstatically into Lady Chatty’s devices by way of
changing the subject, and finally in a whirlwind of questions and
suggestions, petitions for Kirsteen’s confidence and recommendations of
silver trimmings, the visitor was got away at last. Miss Jean, when she
was gone, threw the silvery stuff with some impatience upon the floor.

“I have humoured all her whims just to get you clear of her,” she said.
“Oh, Miss Kirsteen, did I not tell ye what would happen when you were
discovered by your grand friends?”

Curiously enough, however, even to Kirsteen’s own mind there was a
certain solace in the thought that these very great people, who knew so
little about her, thought her of sufficient importance to interfere
personally in her affairs. Her trouble and confusion before the
Duchess’s reproof was wonderfully modified by the soothing sense of this
distinction. It had been humbling to feel that she had no grand
connections, nobody that could interfere. There was consolation in the
fulfilment of Miss Jean’s prophecy.

And it may be imagined what excitement ran through the house from the
garret to the basement some days after when the Scotch maid came into
the workroom breathless, with the thrilling news that my lord Duke was
in the parlour waiting to see Miss Douglas. His Grace himself! “Lord
bless us!” cried Miss Jean, “ye must go down quick, for a great person’s
time is precious, and I will come myself just when I think the
interview’s over, for no doubt he will want to give his directions to
me.” All the needles in the workroom stopped with the excitement of this
visit, and the boldest held her breath. A Duke, no less, to see Miss
Carrots, the Scotchy with the red hair! “But that’s how they do, they
all hangs together,” was the comment afterwards, couched in less perfect
language perhaps than the supposed pure English which Kirsteen admired.
Kirsteen herself rose, very pale yet very determined, from her seat at
the long table, and brushed from her dress the fragments of thread and
scraps of silk. She said nothing, but walked away to this alarming
interview with her heart thumping in her breast, though externally all
seemed calm. Kirsteen had a strong inclination to run away once again
and be no more seen, when she reached the parlour door; and it was
chiefly pride that supported her through the ordeal. She went in with
much internal trembling but a pale resolution which no duke nor other
potentate could break down.

He was standing playing with his eyeglass against the window, blocking
out most of the light--a large man enveloped in the huge folds of his
neckcloth, and in layer upon layer of waistcoats, enormous at the
shoulders but dwindling towards the legs in tight pantaloons. Truth to
tell, his Grace was more nervous, so far as appearances went, than the
little girl whom he had been sent to bring to a sense of her duty. He
said, “How d’ye do?” very ceremoniously, and offered her a chair.
“You’re one of our county neighbours, Miss Douglas, I hear. My land
marches with Drumcarro, perhaps you will know. It is on the edge of the
old Douglas country, which, as luck will have it, now chiefly belongs to
me, though it is no doing of mine.”

“But my father represents the old Douglases, your Grace, though we have
so little of the land.”

“It is a long time since,” said the Duke, “but it is perhaps true; and
you have a right to stand up for your own side. The more reason for the
Duchess’s great concern at finding you here.”

“I am very well here, my lord Duke,” said Kirsteen rigidly; she had to
keep so much control upon herself not to tremble that she had become as
stiff as a wooden image, and was well aware of the fact, which did not
add to her comfort.

“You are not my clanswoman, Miss Douglas,” said his Grace, using her own
expression, “and you know as well as I do I have no power over you. But
I think I am perhaps implicated in what has happened from the foolish
mistake I made in taking you for the daughter of Glendochart on the
occasion when we had the pleasure of seeing you at the Castle. You may
have thought from that that he was considered an old man, but he is
nothing of the sort. He is younger than I am,” said the Duke, waving his
hand with an air of conscious youth; “he is a man in the prime of life.
As for assuming you to be his daughter, it was only a foolish jest, my
dear young lady. For I knew he had no daughter nor child of any kind,
being an unmarried man. I hope this explanation will smooth matters,”
the Duke said, with a demonstrative wave of his hand.

“Oh, it never was that,” cried Kirsteen, “it never was that! And I have
never said a word about Glendochart, nor given that as my reason. I had
other reasons,” she said.

“My dear young lady, however you explain it, it was very foolish,” said
his Grace, “for all you needed to have done was to have said a word to
Glendochart himself. He would never have had pressure put upon you. He
is as true a gentleman as you will find between this and him. He would
never have taken a bride by force. A word to him would have been
enough.”

“I know that well,” said Kirsteen, “oh, I know that well.” She added,
“But if it please your Grace, I never said it was because of
Glendochart. I had--other reasons.”

“Oh, you had other reasons?” said the Duke, perplexed. “But I hope now
that we have talked it over you will see what is suitable, and just go
quietly home.”

Kirsteen made no reply.

“I feel convinced,” said the Duke, “that though you may be a little
headstrong, you are not just a rebel, liking your freedom, as the
Duchess was disposed to think; and now that I have set it all before
you, you will just take your foot in hand, as we say in Scotland, and go
cannily home.”

“I cannot do that, your Grace,” said Kirsteen.

“And why cannot you do that? You may depend upon it, it is the only
right way. ‘Children, obey your parents,’ is the word of Scripture. You
must really go home. Your forbears and mine have known each other when
the Douglases were more on a level perhaps with my family than they are
now, so you see I have a certain right to speak. My dear young lady, you
will just come home.”

“I cannot do that, my lord Duke.”

“Hush, hush, ye will allow I must know better from my position and all
that. Pack up your things, and I will see that you have a postchaise
ready and a servant to take care of you. You see we take a great
interest in you, both the Duchess and myself.”

“I am much obliged to your Grace--and to the Duchess--”

“Yes, yes; but that’s nothing. I will tell somebody to order the
postchaise for you, and you’ll find, with a little judgment, that all
will go well.”

He patted her arm softly, stroking her down as if she had been a cat or
a child. “Just go cannily home,” he said, “that’s always the best place
for a girl--just go cannily home.”

At this moment Miss Jean, unable to contain herself longer, tapped at
the door, and Kirsteen made her escape, leaving these high powers to
concert the method of her going--a futile proceeding so long as the will
of the proposed traveller remained unchanged.




CHAPTER II.


In view of this important reservation, the arrangements made and
sanctioned by Duke and Duchess, and feebly but faithfully supported by
Miss Jean--who had become fully sensible of the value to herself of
Kirsteen’s services, yet could not but back up the higher
authorities--did not come to very much. Passive resistance is a great
power, and even when a child says “I will not,” it is policy on the part
of his superiors to be quite sure of their power either to convince or
coerce before entering upon any controversy. Kirsteen stood quite firm.

“No, my lord Duke, I cannot go home,” she said, with a courtesy so
respectful that his Grace could only take refuge in the recollection
that she was not his clanswoman.

“If ye had been of my name I would not have taken a denial,” he said.

“And she would have been of your name if she had married Glendochart,”
cried the Duchess exasperated.

But Kirsteen stood firm. She would hear of no postchaise. She did not
repeat what had been wrung out of her in the first assault that her
father would never again receive into his house the fugitive who had
escaped from it. Kirsteen had been very well aware of this fact,
however, from the beginning, and in her soul it supported her, like a
rock to which she had set her back. Her own heart might fail. It did
fail often when she thought of her mother. Sometimes she would start up
in the night with a wailing cry for Kirsteen ringing in her ears; and at
these moments it would seem to her that to set out at once with no
easements of a postchaise, but on foot like a pilgrim, guilty of treason
to the first love of life, was the only thing for her to do. But these
compunctions of affection died away before the recollection of her
father’s lowering face and the fire in his fierce eyes. She had known it
when she stole forth in the dark that miserable morning, escaping from
all the limitations of her youthful life. Had there been more time to
think, had there not been the terror upon her of his summary and
unhesitating tyranny, some other way might have been found. But having
once taken such a step Kirsteen knew that no way remained of going back.
Like Anne she would be already swept out of the record of the family. No
one would be permitted to name her name. And even her mother who wanted
her most, would weep, and acquiesce, and find comfort in an additional
plaint. Kirsteen was profoundly acquainted with that prosaic course of
common life which closes over all events in such a family as her own. It
would be like a stone in the water with ever widening, ever fainter
circles; and then the surface would become smooth again. It had been so
in the case of Anne. She remembered well enough the awed and desolate
sensation of the moment, the story about the candle dying in the socket,
and the cold wind blowing through the house from the open door; and then
a little blank of vacancy, and terror of the forbidden name which would
come to their lips unawares; and then,--forgetfulness. Kirsteen knew
that the same process would take place in her own case; the father’s
ban--forbidding that she should be called a child of his or her name
mentioned in his house, and the mother’s sob, but consent. No romantic
superstitions about a father’s curse were in Kirsteen’s mind. It roused
her only to self-assertion, to something of a kindred pride and wrath,
and resistance; nor did the thought of her mother’s acquiescence in the
sentence wound her. Poor mother! The girl was glad to think that there
would be no secret struggle in the ailing woman’s soul, but only a few
tears and all over. Kirsteen had the steadying force of experience to
subdue all exaggerated feelings in her own bosom. She knew exactly how
it would be. But she knew at the same time that the sentence she had
herself called forth was fixed and would not be changed.

And to speak the truth Kirsteen felt the activity and occupations of the
new life to be much more congenial to her own energetic and capable
spirit than the dull quiet of the old, in which there was no outlet.
That she should be seized with a yearning now and then for the sound of
the linn, for the silence of the hills, for the wholesome smell of the
peats in the clear blue Highland air, was as natural as that she should
hear that wail for Kirsteen in the midst of her dreams. These longings
gradually built up in her mind an ideal picture of the beauty and
perfection of nature as embodied in her own glen, such as is a stay and
refreshment to many a heart in the midst of alien life--to many a heart
which perhaps in presence of that glen not idealized would be
unconscious of any beauty in nature. The glen, and her mother, and
little Jeanie--the time would come when she would shower secret gifts
and comforts upon all--when they should find out what Kirsteen was by
the good things that would come from her--the things soft, and lovely,
and comforting, and sweet, which Marg’ret would convey and the father
never find out. Go back! Oh, no; she would not if she could go back, and
she could not if she would. So what did it matter what Duke or Duchess
might say? The postchaise remained unordered; the girl courtesyed to his
Grace and her Grace, and stood firm. And by and by that power came in
which is of such force in all human things. Duchess and Duke, and Miss
Jean, and even Kirsteen herself, carried on by the tide of daily life
with its ever new occurrences--forgot; and the little world about
settled down calmly as if the present state of affairs was that which
had always been.

Some time, however, after these events a significant incident occurred
in the history of Miss Jean Brown’s mantua-making establishment. A
carriage, unknown as yet with liveries and devices which never had
appeared before, appeared in Chapel Street and set down a little party
of ladies at Miss Jean’s door. She advanced to meet them, as was her
wont, to the door of the show-room, with a courtesy which would have
done no discredit to a queen’s drawing-room. But the ladies made a
pause, and whispered together, and then the eldest said--“Oh, it is Miss
Douglas we want. We wish to give our orders to Miss Douglas. We have
never been here before. And it is Miss Douglas we want to see.”

Miss Jean, surprised, indicated Kirsteen, who happened to be in the
room, with a wave of her hand, and withdrew a little in dignified
watchfulness not without a shade of offence.

“Oh, Miss Douglas!” cried the elder lady, while the others fluttered
round, enclosing Kirsteen in the circle. “We wish to have some things
made, my daughters and I. And we were so anxious to see you. We know all
your romantic story. And though, as the Duchess says, it may not be a
very good example, yet we felt we must come at once and patronize you.
It is so disinterested of you--and so romantic.”

“So interesting--like a story out of a novel.”

“So dramatic! It might go on the stage.”

Kirsteen stood and listened with a surprised face and an angry heart
while these exclamations fluttered round. Four ladies all rustling in
silks and laces--no doubt likely to be excellent customers and
therefore not to be too much discouraged, but each more exasperating
than the other. Dramatic! On the stage! Kirsteen had been brought up to
believe that the stage was a sort of vestibule of a region which the
Scotch ministers of her period had no hesitation in naming. All the
blood of the Douglases rushed to her cheeks.

“I think your ladyships must be deceived,” she said; “we have no
romantic stories nor stage plays here.”

“Oh, you must not think you can escape, you interesting creature! For it
was your friend Lady Charlotte, the great beauty, who told us all about
it; and we all vowed that henceforward nobody should dress us but you.”

“Lady Chatty is my friend indeed,” said Kirsteen, “and she is a bonny
creature; but what a friend may know is nothing to the world. And I am
not the mistress here to undertake your work. Perhaps, Miss Jean, you
will tell the ladies whether you can receive their orders or not. They
are recommended, it would seem,” she added, addressing her somewhat
mortified and indignant principal over the heads of the newcomers, “by
Lady Chatty, who is just full of fancies. And the work-room is very
full. But you will know best yourself what you can do.”

With this Kirsteen withdrew into the further part of the room, occupying
herself again with the box of flowers which had already played its part
in the beginning of her new life; and Miss Jean advanced into the
middle of the scene. It had never before occurred to that good woman to
treat a new customer, arriving in a coroneted carriage with liveries
which lighted up the street, with indifference. But she was much
mortified and affronted, and readily took up the cue.

“We are very busy, madam, as this young lady says. I cannot tell whether
we can take the advantage of your ladyships’ favours. We have gowns
making for the Queen’s Ball more than I remember for years. There is the
Duchess herself, and Lady A., and Lady B., and the Marchioness, and Miss
L., the Maid of Honour, and I cannot tell how many more--all old
patronesses of mine,” said Miss Jean with a slight courtesy that
emphasized her pause.

“But oh, mamma, we can’t be sent away! for I vowed to Lord John I would
have a gown,” cried one of the young ladies, “from” she glanced at
Kirsteen with a little alarm, then added in a low voice with a little
laugh, “_la belle couturière_.”

“My name is Brown, madam, and not Bell--ye have perhaps made a mistake,”
said Miss Jean, grimly holding her ground.

This the young ladies received with much laughter and fluttering among
themselves, as an excellent joke; while their mother, half indignant,
half disappointed, eyed Miss Jean as if she would have liked to
annihilate with a glance the presumptuous seamstress. But the refusal
itself was such a new and startling effect, and the list of fashionable
names was so overwhelming that any humiliation seemed better than
failure. And Miss Jean after a while allowed herself to be mollified.
Kirsteen on her part left the room, with a little offended pride mingled
with some mischievous enjoyment. “They shall come to me with petitions
not with orders,” she said to herself, “before all’s done.”

Miss Jean kept a grave face for the rest of the day. She had ended by
accepting with apparent reluctance and doubts as to the possibility of
executing it, a large commission, and entering very readily into her new
_rôle_ had received the enthusiastic thanks of her new customers for her
compliance with their request. Miss Jean had humour enough to be highly
tickled by this turning of the tables, as well as practical good sense
to see the enormous advantage to herself of assuming such a position
should she be strong enough to do it. But at the same time it opened up
grave questions which completely occupied her mind. Her business had
grown into an important one through the best and simplest agency, by
means of good work and punctuality and the other virtues that specially
belong to honest trade, and rarely fail of success in the long run. She
had that mingling of aristocratic predilections and democratic impulses
which belongs to her race. An old family which was poor, a gentle lady
of what she called real nobility, were always served with her best, and
with a delicacy about payment for which nobody gave the old Scotswoman
credit--but a haughty speech would fire her blood and change her aspect
even from the most admired and genuine gentility--and a new peeress,
much more a city lady, were subjects for lofty politeness and veiled
disdain and princely bills. Kirsteen’s suggestion had therefore fallen
into prepared soil. The pride of Marg’ret’s sister, though she had begun
her life as a lady’s maid, was scarcely less than that of Marg’ret’s
young mistress who had the blood of all the Douglases in her veins. And
Miss Jean’s keen practical faculty was sharpened by much experience and
in her limited way by great knowledge of the world. She had now a
problem before her of more importance than how best to make a skirt fall
or a bodice fit, which had been till now the chief problems with which
she had troubled herself.

She carried a grave countenance and many thoughts with her during the
remainder of the day. Kirsteen, who noted this serious aspect with some
alarm, made out to herself a little theory, to the effect that Miss Jean
had taken serious offence and would not suffer the presence of an
interloper who drew away the attention of her customers from
herself--yet she did not fully adopt this either, in consideration of
the great generosity towards her and unfailing kindness of Miss Jean.
But the evening brought a certain suppressed excitement to both. It was
a quiet house when all was over in the establishment,--the workrooms
closed and dark, the workwomen all dispersed to their homes or asleep in
their garrets,--in which the mistress of the household and her young
guest were alone. They still occupied this relation to each other, Miss
Jean treating Kirsteen with great ceremony as an honoured stranger,
notwithstanding that her distinguished visitor was so condescending as
to take part in the conduct of her work. When supper was over Miss Jean
drew her chair towards the window which was open, for the spring by this
time was advanced and nearly bursting into summer. The window admitted
nothing more sweet than the faint and smoky lamplight of the streets
into the room, to mingle with that of the candles; and though Chapel
Street was always quiet, there were vague sounds from more distant
streets, rolling of coaches and cries of the linkboys, which were
scarcely musical. Nevertheless Miss Jean was able to say that the
evening air coming in was sweet.

“And that reminds me, Miss Kirsteen,” she said, “that ye have been quite
a long time in London, three months and more. And how do you like what
you have seen?”

“I like it very well,” said Kirsteen. “It is not like the Hielands;
there is no comparison to be made. But for a town it is a very good
town--better than Glasgow, which is the only other town I ever saw.”

“Glasgow!” said Miss Jean with disdain. “Glasgow has no more right to be
named with London than the big lamp at Hyde Park Corner, which burns
just tons of oil, with the little cruse in my kitchen. It’s one of the
points on which the Scots are just very foolish. They will bring
forward Edinburgh, or that drookit hole of a Glasgow, as if they were
fit to be compared with the real metropolis. In some ways the Scots, our
country-folks, have more sense than all the rest of the world, but in
others they’re just ridiculous. I hope I’ve sense enough to see both
sides, their virtues and their faults.”

Kirsteen did not see how she was involved in this tirade, and
consequently made no reply.

“But that’s not what I was going to say, Miss Kirsteen. You have seen
all about us now, both the house and the work and the place. And ye seem
to have made up your mind that whatever is said to you, whether by the
Duchess or the Duke or myself, ye will not be persuaded to go home.”

Kirsteen, still very dubious as to the probable issue of these remarks,
looked in Miss Jean’s face with a smile and shook her head.

“Well, I will not say but what I think you very well able to manage your
own affairs. Miss Kirsteen, that was a very clever thing ye did to-day.”

“What was the clever thing?” asked Kirsteen surprised.

“Just to turn those leddies over in that prideful way to me, as if they
were not good enough to trouble our heads about. My word,” cried Miss
Jean with a laugh, “but ye made them dight their eyne, if ye will excuse
a vulgar phrase. I’m thinking yon’s the way to deal with newcomers,” she
said after a little pause.

“Well,” said Kirsteen, “there is nobody so good as you, so far as I can
hear, in all London. And it’s a favour ye do them, to keep on and take
all the trouble when ye have no need for it.”

“I would not just say that--that I’ve no need--though I have put
something by. And I would not say either that there was nobody so good.
I’ve been good enough in my day, but I’m getting old--or at least
older,” said Miss Jean.

“We’re all older to-day than we were yesterday,” said Kirsteen
cheerfully.

“Ay, but in my case it’s more than that. I could never have struck out
yon invention of yours for Lady Chatty with the silver gauze--though I
saw it was just most beautiful when ye did it. And what’s more, I could
never have gotten the better of those leddies like you--I see it all,
nobody clearer. Ye’re just a gentlewoman ye see, Miss Kirsteen, and
that’s above a common person, whatever anybody may say.”

“So far as I can see it makes very little difference,” said Kirsteen,
contradicting however the assurance in her own heart.

“It makes a great deal of difference; it gives a freedom in treating
them that I cannot help feeling are my superiors. Well; this is just
what I have to propose. Ye will not go home whatever anybody may say.
And ye will not mairry, though I hear he’s just a very nice gentleman.
And ye will get cleverer and cleverer every day as ye get more knowledge
of the world. It’s just this, Miss Kirsteen; that you and me, we should
enter into partnership and carry on the business together. And I think,”
said Miss Jean with modest confidence and a triumphant light in her
eyes, “that between us we could just face the world.”

“Into partnership!” cried Kirsteen in astonishment.

“Say nothing hastily, my dear--just go to your bed upon it. And we will
not compromise an honoured name. We’ll say Miss Brown and Miss
Kirsteen--the English, who are very slow at the uptake, will think it’s
your family name, and that will compromise nobody,” Miss Jean said.




CHAPTER III.


It is difficult to calculate the exact moment at which it shall be found
out by the members of a family that one of them has disappeared and gone
away. It is easy to account for temporary absence: to think that the
missing one has walked out too far, has been detained by some visit, has
somehow been withdrawn unexpectedly and not by any will of his, from
home. Kirsteen did not appear at breakfast; there were a few questions,
“Where is Kirsteen?” “She will be with my mother.” Her mother on the
other hand was asking Jeanie who had taken up her breakfast, “Where is
Kirsteen?” “She is gone out for a walk--or something,” said Jeanie. It
was not till after the second meal, at which there was no sign of her,
that anything like alarm was excited. “Where is Kirsteen?” her father
cried in what the children called his Bull of Bashan’s voice. “I am not
my sister’s keeper--no doubt she’s just away on one of her rovings,”
said Mary, whose mind however by this time was full of curiosity. She
had been early struck by the complete disappearance of Kirsteen and
every trace of her from about the place. Neither in the glen, nor by the
linn, nor in the garden, was there any sign of her, no evidence that she
had passed by either in parlour or in kitchen. She had not been in her
mother’s room. Mrs. Douglas had already asked for more than a dozen
times where was Kirsteen?--requiring her for a hundred things. It was
only however when she found Marg’ret anxiously attempting to do
Kirsteen’s special business, to pick up the lost stitches in Mrs.
Douglas’s knitting, to arrange her pillows and help her to move that a
real suspicion darted through Mary’s mind. Could Kirsteen have gone
away? and could Marg’ret know of it? On being interrogated the boys and
Jeanie declared that neither on the way to school nor at the merchant’s
which they had passed on their return home, had any trace of her been
seen. And Mary thought that Marg’ret’s eyes were heavy, that she looked
like a person who had been up all night, or who had been crying a great
deal, and observed, which was more extraordinary still, that she alone
showed no curiosity about Kirsteen. Had all been natural it was she who
would have been most easily alarmed. This acute observation helped Mary
to the full truth, or at least to as much of it as it was possible to
find out. “Where’s Kirsteen?” she said suddenly in Marg’ret’s ear,
coming down upon her unawares, after she had left Mrs. Douglas’s room.

Marg’ret was drying her eyes with her apron, and the sound of a sob,
which she had not time to restrain, breathed into the air as Mary came
upon her. “Oh, what a start ye gave me!” she answered as soon as she
could recover her voice.

“Where is Kirsteen?” said Mary again. “You cannot conceal it from
me,--where is she, and what have ye done with her? I will not tell upon
you if you will explain it to me.”

“Kirsteen--what is all this stir about Kirsteen? She will just have gane
up the hill or down the linn, or maybe she’ll have gone to see her old
auntie at the toun.” Here Marg’ret betrayed herself by a heave of her
solid shoulders that showed she was weeping, though she attempted with a
broken laugh to conceal the fact “It’s no so many--diversions--the poor
thing has.”

“You know where she is, Marg’ret--and ye’ve helped her to get away.”

“Me!” cried Marg’ret, with convulsive indignation; then she made a great
effort to recover herself. “How should I ken where she is? Yes, I do
that! She’s on her way home no doubt over the hillside--or down the loch
coming back.”

“You’ll perhaps tell me then what you’re greetin’ for?”

“I have plenty of things to make me greet,” Marg’ret said; then after a
pause--“Who said I was greetin’? I just canna be fashed with endless
questions, and the haill family rantin’ and ravin’. Ye can go and find
your sister for yourself.”

“And so I will--or at least I’ll satisfy myself,” said Mary with a
determination which, though mild and quiet, was not less assured than
the bold resolutions of Kirsteen. She went softly up stairs and
proceeded to visit her sister’s room, where her keen perceptions soon
showed her a certain amount of disarray. “She cannot have two gowns on
her back, both the blue and the brown,” said Mary to herself. “She would
never put on her spencer and bonnet to go out on the hillside. She would
not have taken that little box with her that she keeps her treasures in
and that aye stands by her bedside, had she only gone to see Auntie
Eelen. She’s just gone away--and there is an end of it.” Mary stood
reflecting for some time after she came to this decision. It did not
distress her for the moment, but lit a spark of invention, a keener
light than usual in her mild brown eyes that never had been full of
light like Kirsteen’s. After a few minutes of consideration, she went to
her own room and dressed herself carefully to go out--carefully but not
too well, not with the spencer, the Sunday garment, which Kirsteen had
taken. Mary put on an old cloth pelisse, and a brown bonnet which was
not her best. “I am not going on a journey, I will only be about the
doors,” she said to herself.

Marg’ret was standing outside when she came down stairs, with a look of
anxiety on her face, which changed into subdued derision when Mary
appeared. “Ye’ll be going after her?” she said. “Well, I wish ye may
find her; but if she’s gane, as ye think, she’ll have gotten a long
start.”

“I’m going--to put some things right,” said Mary enigmatically. The
consciousness that Marg’ret stood and watched as she went along the road
quickened her senses, and confirmed her in her conviction. It was
afternoon, and the wintry sun was shining red through a haze of frost
out of the western sky. It dazzled her with its long level lines of
light as she walked down the road. There would be a moon that night, so
that the visitor who was expected at Drumcarro would have light enough
to ride home by, however late he might be; yet he was a little late, and
Mary was anxious to meet him at some distance from the house. She walked
very quickly for about half a mile towards the hamlet, in which the
merchant’s shop stood surrounded by three or four cottages. And then she
perceived in the distance riding over the little bridge which crossed
the stream, the red light catching the metal buttons of his riding-coat
and the silver top of his whip, the trim figure of Glendochart coming
towards her. At such a distance his grey hair and the lines of his face
were of course quite invisible, and he rode like a young man, with all
the advantages of good horsemanship and a fine horse to set off his
well-formed figure. Mary slackened her pace at once. She looked at him
with a little sigh. What a happy windfall would that be to one, which to
another was a hardship and misfortune! She herself would not have
objected at all to Glendochart’s age. She would have liked him the
better for it, as likely to make a more complaisant husband. However, it
was not to her that he had come wooing, but to Kirsteen, with whom he
had no chance, so troublesome and contrary were the decisions of fate.

Mary gave a sigh to this thought, and turned over in her mind rapidly
the purpose with which she had come out and what she was to say. She
decided that even if Kirsteen came back, which was not probable, she
could do no harm by warning Glendochart. It would save him a refusal at
least, it would let him know the real state of affairs. She walked more
and more slowly as the horseman advanced. There was a corner of the road
where a projecting rock formed a sort of angle, shutting out a little
the noise of the brawling burn and making a natural halting-place. She
contrived that she should meet the wayfarer here. Glendochart perceived
her as he came along before they actually met. She appeared just beyond
the corner, recognized him, paused a little, and then waving her hand to
him turned back. Nothing could be more evident than that she had
something to say. When he had reached the corner he found her standing,
modest and quiet, within the shadow of the rock.

“I hope nothing’s wrong, Miss Mary, at the house?” he said hurriedly.

“Well,” she said, “that is as may be. I have perhaps done a bold thing,
but I was wanting a word with ye, Glendochart, before you go on.”

“What is the matter?” he cried with alarm. He was evidently very
unwilling to be detained. “Your father is expecting me, Miss Mary,” he
said, “and I hope your sister----”

“It is just about Kirsteen, Glendochart, that I wish to speak to you.”

“What is it?” he said. “Is she ill?--has anything happened?”

“There has just this happened,” said Mary. “I would not let ye have a
trouble or a shock that I could spare you--Kirsteen has left her home.”

“Left her home!” His ruddy colour disappeared in a moment; he threw
himself off his horse. “What do you mean? I do not understand you!” he
cried.

“Glendochart,” said Mary seriously, “nobody has told me; but I don’t
think you were meaning to make any secret of it, that it was after
Kirsteen you were coming to our house.”

The elderly lover  a little. “I would not hide it from you that
that was my intention. It was her,” he said with a little apologetic
wave of his hand, “that I saw first of the family, and upon her I fixed
my fancy; not that all the daughters of Drumcarro were not worthy of
every admiration.”

“Oh, Glendochart, ye need not apologize. Fancy is free, as is well
known. I saw it well from the first, for a sister’s eyne are quick to
observe; but, if ye will believe me, the one that never noticed was just
Kirsteen herself.”

“Not possible!” said the wooer, with this time a little flush of
offence.

“But it is just very possible--her mind was not set on anything of the
kind. And it was her opinion that just friendship and kindness--for all
the family----”

“Did she bid ye tell me this?”

“No, no--she said nothing, poor thing. If she had but spoken either to
me, that could have explained for her, or to you that would never have
forced her----”

“Forced her!” cried the old beau, who had always prided himself upon the
fact that his was neither the form nor the eye,

    “Which youthful maidens wont to fly.”

“Well, I know that!” said Mary with fervour; “and there are few that
would have needed any fleeching, if I may say so. But I reckon that she
just heard it from my father, very suddenly. My father is a dour man,
Glendochart. Whatever ye may have to say he will never hear ye speak. He
will listen to the boys--whiles--but to us never. Just you must do this,
or you must do that, and not a word more.”

“Drumcarro,” said Glendochart, now full of passion, “has done me a cruel
wrong in putting my suit before any lady in such a way. Your sister was
free to have taken it or left it, Miss Mary. Me press a proposition that
was not acceptable!--not for all the world!”

“I am well aware of that,” said Mary with feeling; “but my father is a
dour man, and he would say, ‘Not a word! just take the offer and be
thankful.’ And indeed,” said Mary diffidently, “in most cases there
would be little difficulty, but Kirsteen is one that is very much set
upon her own way.”

“She had but to say so,” cried the offended suitor; “I promise she would
have had no more trouble with me!”

“Oh, Glendochart, do not be angry--I am just sure that he would not let
her say a word. She has not been like herself this week past. It has
just been on her mind night and day. And at last she has taken, a
despair, seeing no way of getting out of it--and she has gone away.”

“I am not in the habit,” said Glendochart, “of finding myself a bugbear.
I would seem to cut a pretty figure in all this--a sort of old Robin
Gray,” he said with a furious laugh. “I am sure I am obliged to you all!
‘With tears in his e’e, said Jenny, for their sake will ye marry me?’ I
beg to say, Miss Mary, that this was not my attitude at all.”

“Do you need to say that to me, Glendochart?” said Mary reproachfully.
“Oh, no! nor even to poor Kirsteen either, who would have been fain to
hear every word ye had to say--for she was very fond of ye,
Glendochart.”

“It is a strange way of showing it,” he said, but he was mollified in
spite of himself.

“As we all were. It will be a great heart-break and a great downfall if
ye come no more to the house because of Kirsteen. But she would have
been fain, fain to hear whatever ye had to say, if it had not been----”

“What hindered her, then?” he said.

“It’s no for me to betray her secrets,” said Mary, “and indeed she never
told them to me, for she was not one that opened her heart. But there is
little that can be hidden from a sister’s eye. And it was just
this--there was one before ye, Glendochart. If she had seen you first I
am very sure she would never have thought of him--for to my mind there’s
no more comparison--but, poor thing, she had given her word. Take what
you offered her and be mansworn to the other lad was all that was before
her; and no true to you either, for she would never have dared to tell
you.”

Glendochart was still much offended and disturbed. He had fastened his
horse to a tree, and was now pacing about the road within the corner of
the rock with mingled rage and pain. But he was moved by the soft voice
and pleading accents of the very mild and pleasing intercessor, whose
suggestion of her own superior taste was put in with so much gentle
insistence. Mary’s eyes, which were cast down when he looked at her, but
raised with much meaning to his face when he did not seem to be
observing, softened his mood in spite of himself.

“If that was the case,” he said, “there was perhaps an excuse for her,
though when she knew it was so she should not have encouraged and drawn
on--another man.”

It was Mary’s policy to give a very charitable representation of
Kirsteen’s action, and it was also quite congenial to her feelings, for
she was not spiteful nor malicious, notwithstanding that it seemed to be
a very sensible thing to turn her sister’s failure to her own advantage
if that could be done.

“Glendochart,” she said, “there’s some things in which gentlemen never
can understand the heart of a girl. She had no thought of encouraging
and drawing on. That never came into her head. She liked you well, and
she thought no harm in showing it.”

“Because,” cried Glendochart, with mingled offence and emotion, “she
thought I was an old man, and out of the question. That is easy to
see----”

“It was not that,” said Mary softly. “She saw that you were kind to all
of us--every one. Perhaps she may have thought that you had--other
intentions. And oh,” said the gentle girl, raising her eyes to his, “it
made such a difference to us all! It’s been so lightsome and so
heartsome, Glendochart, to see ye always coming. There is little
diversion at Drumcarro. My father is a very dour man, wrapped up in the
boys, and my mother, she is always ailing, poor body; and we see nobody;
and to have you coming just like sunshine, with a smile to one and a
kind word to another, and thinking no shame to be pleasant even to
me--that ye thought nothing of--or little Jeanie, that is but a bairn.”

Glendochart was very much touched. He took Mary’s hand in both his. “Do
not say that I thought nothing of you, for that would be far from the
case; and how am I to thank you now for taking so much thought for me?
You have just behaved like an angel so far as I can see, both to me and
to her.”

“Oh, Glendochart, not that! But just what I could do in the way of
kindness,” she said.




CHAPTER IV.


The result of this interview was that Glendochart turned and rode home,
very full of wrath and disappointment, yet soothed in his _amour-propre_
by the kind expedient of the angelic girl, who returned to Drumcarro
very demurely with the consciousness that her time and exertions had not
been lost. She had indeed decided perhaps too summarily that Kirsteen’s
disappearance was a permanent one; but as the day crept on, and there
was no appearance of her return, the temporary qualm which had come
over Mary’s mind dispersed again. She had the satisfaction of seeing
that her father was very much disturbed by the non-appearance of
Glendochart. He came out of his den from time to time, and took a turn
round the house and stood out at the gate straining his eyes along the
road. “Is it Kirsteen ye are looking for, father?” Mary said. Drumcarro
asked with a fierce exclamation what he was caring about Kirsteen. Let
her go to the devil if she liked. What he was looking for was quite a
different person. “But maybe,” said Mary, “the other person will not be
coming if Kirsteen is not here.” Her father asked fiercely, what she
knew about it? But he was evidently impressed by the remark, for he went
up and down stairs and out to the side of the linn, shouting for
Kirsteen in a way that filled all the echoes. “Where is Kirsteen all
this day, and why cannot she come when her father is crying on her? He
will just bring down the house,” Mrs. Douglas had said, putting her
hands upon her ears. “She might maybe have a headache, and be lying down
upon her bed,” said little Jeanie, to whom a similar experience had once
occurred, and who had felt the importance it gave her.

The anxieties of the family were soothed by this and other suggestions
until the early wintry night fell and it was discovered that nobody had
seen her, or knew anything about her. Marg’ret in her kitchen had been
in an intense suppressed state of excitement all day, but it had not
been discovered by any one save the astute Mary that she showed no
curiosity about Kirsteen, and asked no questions. When it came to be
bedtime the whole household was disturbed. The boys had gone out over
the hill, and towards the merchant’s along the road to see if any trace
could be found of her, while Jeanie stood under the birch-trees--now
denuded of all their yellow leaves--outside, looking out through the
dark with all that sense of desolation and mystery which is in the idea
of night to the mind of a child. Jeanie stood very quiet, crying to
herself, but thinking she heard footsteps and all kinds of mysterious
movements about her, and fully making up her mind to see Kirsteen
carried home, murdered or dead of cold and exposure, or something else
that was equally terrible and hopeless; and though she would have been
overjoyed, yet she would also have been a little disappointed had she
seen Kirsteen walk in with no harm or injury, which was also more or
less the frame of mind of Jock and Jamie, who fully expected to stumble
over their sister among the withered bracken, or to see her lying by the
side of the road.

There was however a moment of mute despair when they all came back and
looked at each other for an explanation of the mystery. Then the
children burst out crying one after the other, the boys resisting the
impulse till nature was too strong for them, and producing a louder and
more abrupt explosion from the fact of the attempted restraint. Their
father stood looking round upon them all, his fierce eyes blazing,
looking for some way of venting the rage that was in him. The lass
disappeared, confound her! And Glendochart drawing back, the devil flee
away with him! Drumcarro was indeed in evil case. When Jock, who was the
last to give way, burst out without a moment’s notice into a violent
boo-hoo, his father caught him suddenly a box on the ear which sent him
spinning across the room. “Haud your confounded tongue, can’t ye--and no
wake your mother.” “Eh, my poor laddie! Ye need not punish him for me,
for here I am, and what is the matter with everybody?” said the weak
voice of Mrs. Douglas at the door. She had been left alone during all
this excitement, and her repeated calls had brought nobody. So that
querulous, displeased, and full of complaining, unable to bear the
silence and the want of information, the poor soul had wrapped herself
in the first garments she could find, and tottered down stairs. She
appeared a curious mass of red flannel, chintz, and tartan, one wrapped
over the other. “What is the matter?” she said, looking eagerly round
upon the troubled family. “Oh, mother,” cried little Jeanie weeping,
running to her and hiding her face and her tears in one of these
confused wrappings. “Kirsteen has gone away. She’s _run_ away,” said
Jeanie, afraid not to be believed--and then the commotion was increased
by a wail from the mother, who sank in a state of collapse into her
large chair, and by the rush of Marg’ret from the kitchen, who
perceiving what had happened flew to give the necessary help. “Could you
not all hold your tongues, and let her get her night’s rest in peace?”
Marg’ret cried. The scene was dismal enough, and yet had thus a rude
comedy mingled with its real pain. Drumcarro stalked away when this
climax of confusion was reached. “I was a fool ever to mind one of
them,” he said. “Ye little whinging deevil, get out o’ my way. You’re no
better than a lassie yourself.”

Mary had done her best to save the story from becoming public by warning
the expectant suitor, who on his side had thought himself safely out of
the ridicule of it by his quick withdrawal. But the voices of the
servants and the children were not to be silenced. “Have ye heard the
news?” said Duncan the carter at the toll-bar. “The maister up at the
house is neither to haud nor to bind. Our Kirsteen has ta’en her fit in
her hand and run away, the Lord kens where, for fear he would mairry her
against her will to auld Glendochart.” “Eh, do ye ken what’s happened?”
said Marg’ret’s help in the kitchen as soon as she could find an excuse
to run to the merchant’s. “Miss Kirsteen, she’s aff to the ends of the
earth, and the mistress near deed with trouble, and Marg’ret raging just
like a sauvage beast.” The boys whispered it to their mates at school
with a certain sense of distinction, as of people to whom something out
of the common had happened, and Jeanie who had no one else to
communicate the wonderful fact to, told the little girl that brought
the letters, by whom it was published far and near. Miss Eelen heard it
the next morning by means of Jock, who rode the pony over almost before
daylight to inquire if his sister had been seen there. “Indeed she might
have been too proud to have had the offer of Glendochart,” the old lady
said. “He should just take Mary instead.” “He will maybe think that’s
not the same thing,” said Mr. Pyper, the minister, who went over to the
town in his gig soon after about some Presbytery business, and to hear
what people were saying. “Well it will be very near the same thing,”
Miss Eelen said.

This was how it had come to the ears of the Duke and Duchess and all the
best society in the county, who were immensely entertained, and told a
hundred stories about the gallant wooer whose attempt at courtship had
been so disastrous. He went away himself the next day, sending a letter
to Drumcarro to say that he had heard that his suit was disagreeable to
the young lady, and that nothing could induce him to press it after he
knew this fact; but that he hoped on his return to pay his respects to
Mrs. Douglas and the young ladies. Drumcarro was not to be spoken to by
any member of his family after this happened for several days. Had he
met with the gallant old gentleman who had thus, in his own opinion,
retired so gracefully, it is to be feared the trim Glendochart might
have found his martial science of but little avail against “the auld
slave-driver’s” brutal energy and strength. But after a while Mr.
Douglas calmed down. He flung Kirsteen’s little possessions out of
doors, and swore with many oaths that whoever named that hizzy’s name
again should leave his house on the moment. But when Glendochart, coming
back in the spring, came out formally to pay a visit at Drumcarro,
bringing boxes of French chocolate and other tokens of his residence
abroad, the laird, though he gave him the briefest salutation, did not
knock him down, which was what the family feared. And by dint of a
diplomacy which would have done credit to any ambassador, Mary continued
so to close her mother’s mouth that no reference should be made to the
past. Mrs. Douglas was too much afraid of her husband to introduce
Kirsteen’s name, but she was ready with a hundred little allusions. “Ah,
Glendochart, when ye were here last! That was before our last
misfortune. I will never be so well again as I was in those days, when I
had one by me that never forgot her mother.” She would have sympathized
with him and claimed his sympathy in this furtive way from the moment of
his arrival. But Mary had taken by this time very much the upper hand
and brought her mother into great subjection. “Ye will just drive him
away if ye say a word.” “I am sure,” Mrs. Douglas said weeping, “her
name never crosses my lips.” “But what does that matter when you are
just full of allusions and talk of her that’s away.” “Alas! there is
another that I might be meaning,” said the poor mother; “two of them,
bonny lassies as ever lived, and one with weans of her own that I will
never see.” “Oh, mother, why should ye make such a work about them that
never think of you? They would have bided at home if their hearts had
been here. But it’s a grand thing for the boys and Jeanie,” said the
astute elder sister, “that Glendochart should come back. It sets us
right with the world, and see the things he’s always bringing them.”
“Mainy sweeties are not good for children, though thae chocolate ones
are maybe wholesome enough,” said Mrs. Douglas. “And what does he ever
do for them but bring them sweeties?” “Mother, it’s just education for
them to hear such a man speak,” cried Mary, which silenced Mrs. Douglas
at the end.

Mary apparently felt the full force of what she said. She listened to
him devoutly; she persuaded him to talk with little murmurs of pleasure.
“Eh, it’s just as good as a book to hear ye, Glendochart”--and other
such ascriptions of praise. Few men are quite superior to this kind of
flattery, and one who has been slighted in another quarter and has felt
the absence of any just appreciation of his deserts, is more than
usually open to it. Glendochart fell into his old habit of frequent
visits to Drumcarro, and he was pleased by the universal interest in
him--the delight of the young ones, and the gentle devotion of Mary. A
soft regret, a tender respect was in her tone. The only time in which
she ever displayed a consciousness of the past was when she thanked him
with almost tears in her eyes for coming: “Which we could never have
expected.” It was not, however, until a day in spring, in the month of
April, when the beauty of the country was awakening, that the old
gentleman was completely subjugated. The linn was subdued from the
volume of its wintry torrent, but was roaring over the rocks still with
the fulness of spring showers one bright afternoon when he met Mary on
the road taking a walk, as she said. They returned, without any
intention passing the house and continuing their walk unconsciously,
drawn on by the tumult of the stream. Glendochart stood at the head of
the little glen, and looked down the ravine with many thoughts. Mary had
drawn aside from its edge. “I cannot go down that dreadful way. It makes
me giddy,” said Mary. “I never liked that steep bank; the others run up
and down just like goats--but not me! If ye will excuse my weakness,
Glendochart, and go a little round by the road, we’ll come out at the
foot just the same.”

Now it had been with a rush of recollection that Glendochart had come to
the linn side. He remembered well how Kirsteen had rushed on before him
as airy as a feather, trying the stones with her light weight, to find
which was most steady, like a bird alighting upon them, putting out her
hand to help him--she the young lady who ought to have been indebted to
him for help. And he remembered the slip he had made and his fall, and
the tremble in her voice which he had feared meant laughter, and the
effort he had made to look as if a tumble on the wet sod was nothing, a
thing he did not mind. Mary had far more sense to go round by the road.
He felt himself in so much better a position agreeing with her that it
was too steep for a lady, and gallantly guiding her round the safer way.
It was a soft evening with no wind, and a delightful spring sky full of
brightness and hope. In the spring a young man’s fancy lightly turns to
thoughts of love, and the fancy of an old young gentleman who has been
led to think of these matters and then has been cruelly disappointed, is
if anything more easily awakened. Glendochart gave Mary his arm to help
her along the gentler round of the road, and his mouth was opened and he
spoke.

“Miss Mary,” he said, “ye were very kind a few months back in a matter
which we need not now enter into. I can never cease to be grateful to
you for the warning ye gave me. And ye have been more than kind since I
came home. It has been a great pleasure to come to Drumcarro, though I
did it at first mostly out of a sense of duty. But to see you gave it a
charm.”

“Oh, Glendochart, you are very kind to say so,” said Mary. “We just all
of us have a debt to you that we can never repay.”

“Not a word about debt, or I would soon be on the wrong side of the
balance. It has been a great part of the pleasure of my life to
come--but now I will have to be thinking whether I should come again.”

“Oh, Glendochart! and wherefore so?” cried Mary with alarm in her eyes.

“My dear young lady,” said the Highland gentleman, “I am getting an old
man--I was mangrown (and perhaps a trifle more) before ye were born.”

She had said “Oh, no!” softly while he was speaking, with a gentle
pressure upon his arm--and now when he paused she lifted her dove’s eyes
and said, “What does that matter?” in tones as soft as the wood-pigeon’s
coo.

“You must understand me,” he said, “which I am afraid was more than your
sister, poor thing, ever did--I have been experiencing a great change of
feeling. She was a bright young creature full of pretty ways--and I was
just beguiled--the like of that may blind a man for a time, but when his
eyes are opened to the knowledge of a more excellent way--that he had
not observed before--”

“It is true,” said Mary in a faltering voice; “my poor Kirsteen had a
great deal of the child in her. And it would not be my part to be
affronted if ye had seen another that was maybe better adapted to make
you happy. Oh, no! it would be ill my part--though I might regret.”

“Ye have no guess,” said Glendochart with a tender touch of the hand
that clung to his arm, “who that other is, who is the only person I
will ever think of?”

“No,” said Mary with a sigh. “I’m not sure that I want to hear--but
that’s a poor sentiment and it shall not be encouraged by me. On the
contrary it will not be my fault if that lady--who will have a happy
lot, I am sure--does not find kind friends here.”

“If she does not it will be most unnatural,” said Glendochart, “for the
person I am meaning is just yourself and no other. And if ye think she
will have a happy lot--my dear, take it--for it will never be offered to
any woman but you.”

“Oh, Glendochart!” said Mary casting down her eyes.

It was very different from his wooing of Kirsteen and in many ways much
more satisfactory--for far from running away in horror of his suit,
which is a thing to pique the pride of any man, Mary was unfeignedly
proud of having won the prize which she had at once felt, failing
Kirsteen, it would be a good thing to keep in the family. She saved her
old lover every trouble. She would not have him go to her father, which
was what he proposed with great spirit to do at once. “No,” she said,
“it is me that must tell him. My father is a strange man; he is little
used to the like of you; but I know all his ways. And I will tell him;
for ye must mind, Glendochart, if ye mairry me that I will not have ye
taigled with all my family. The boys and little Jeanie now and then if
ye please for a short visit, or my mother for a change of air, but just
at your pleasure, and not like a thing you’re obliged to do. I will take
that into my own hand. Ye can leave it all to me.”

Glendochart rode away that night with great satisfaction in his mind. He
felt that he had wiped out his reproach; after having failed to marry
Kirsteen it was a necessity to vindicate himself by marrying
somebody--and he particularly felt (after the consolation that had been
drawn from Mary’s gentle speeches and ways) that to marry out of this
very house where he had been slighted would be the most complete
vindication. And he was delighted with his second choice; her good
taste, her good sense, her clear perception of all that was necessary,
filled him with satisfaction and content. He rode away with something of
the ardour of a young man joined to the more reasonable satisfaction of
an old one, in the consciousness of having secured the most devoted of
housekeepers, a lady who would “look well at his table-head,” who would
take care of his interests and would not even allow him to be taigled
with her family. He kissed his hand to his bonny Mary, and his soul was
filled with delightful anticipations. There was no doubt she was a bonny
creature, far more correct and satisfactory than that gilpie Kirsteen
with her red hair. Glendochart was thus guilty of the vulgar
unfaithfulness of disparaging his own ideal--but it is a sin less
heinous in an old lover than in a young one--for how many ideals must
not the old gentleman have lived through?

Mary walked in straight to her father’s door--who took as little notice
of Glendochart as possible in these days. He was sitting with a map of
the old Douglas property before him, painfully ruminating whether he
could anyhow squeeze out of the family living enough to buy a corner of
land that was in the market; and wondering, with a sort of forlorn fury,
whether Sandy or even Sandy’s son, might be able to gather all that land
back again to the Douglas name. This was his ideal; all others, such as
love, or affection, or the ties of human fellowship having died out of
his mind long ago, if they had ever occupied any place there. He looked
up angrily as Mary came in. What could she want, the useless
woman-creature that was good for nothing, never could bring a penny into
the house, but only take out of it as long as she should live?

“Well! what are you wanting now?” he said sharply.

“I am wanting to speak to you,” Mary said.

“A fool would understand that, since ye’ve come here; which is a place
where there’s no room for weemen. Speak out what you’ve got to say, and
leave me quiet, which is all I desire from ye.”

“I am afraid,” said Mary sweetly, “that I will have to give ye a little
trouble, father; though it will save you a good deal of fash later.”

“Give me trouble is what you do night and day. Save me fash is what I’ve
never known.”

“It will be so now,” said Mary, “for to provide for your daughters would
be a great fash to you, and one that would go sore against the grain. So
you should be glad, father, however little ye think of us, when we can
provide for ourselves.”

“How are ye going to do that?” said Drumcarro derisively. “No man will
have ye. I’m sick of the very name of ye,” he said; “I wish there was
not a woman in the house.”

“Well,” said Mary, with imperturbable good temper, “ye will soon be quit
of one. For I’m going to be marriet, and I’ve come to tell you.”

“To be marriet! I don’t believe it; there’s no man will look at ye,”
said the indignant father.

“It is true we never see any men,” said Mary; “but one is enough, when
ye can make up your mind to him. Father, we would like to name an early
day, seeing that he has been disappointed already, and that there is no
time to lose. It is Glendochart I am intending to marry,” she said
demurely, looking him in the face.

“Glendochart!” he got up from his chair and swore a large round oath.
“That hizzy’s leavings!” he said. “Have ye no pride?”

“I will have a great deal of pride when I’m settled in my own house,”
replied Mary. “He will be here to-morrow to settle everything; but I
thought I would just tell you to-night. And I hope, father,” she added
with great gravity, “that seeing I’m here to protect him you will keep a
civil tongue in your head.”




CHAPTER V.


These events were communicated by letter to the members of the firm of
Misses Brown and Kirsteen, Dressmakers to her Majesty, Chapel Street,
Mayfair. The medium of communication was Marg’ret, whose letters to her
sister had become, to the vast enlightenment of the only member of the
Drumcarro household who was qualified to collect circumstantial
evidence, suspiciously frequent. Mary, it may be supposed, had not much
time to give to correspondence, while the facts lately recorded were
going on; but when all was settled she slipped into Marg’ret’s hand a
letter containing the important news. “I am not asking where she is--I
am thinking that through your sister, Miss Jean, in London, ye might
possibly find a means of getting it to Kirsteen’s hand.”

“It’s an awfu’ expense for postage, and a double letter. I will just be
ruined,” said Marg’ret; “and my sister Jean might not ken anything about
the address.”

“You could always try,” said Mary derisively.

“That’s true, I might try--for she’s a very knowledgeable person, my
sister Jean; but that will make a double letter--and how is the like of
me to get a frank or any easement?”

“I will ask Glendochart--for he has plenty of friends in the Parliament
houses.”

“I will have none from Glendochart! The Lord be praised, I have still a
shilling in my pouch to ware upon my friends.”

“Ye are just a jealous woman for your friends,” said Mary with a laugh
of triumph.

“Maybe I am that and maybe I am not. I would neither wile away my
sister’s jo nor tak what anither’s left,” cried Marg’ret with
unreasonable indignation. But Mary turned away with a demure smile. She
had no such ridiculous prejudices. And perhaps it will be best to give
in full her letter to Kirsteen explaining how everything came about.

     “DEAR CHRISTINA,--I am writing you a letter on the risk of perhaps
     not finding you; but I have the less fear of that that I have
     always been conscious Marg’ret Brown knew very well at the time
     where you were to be found. And the letters she gets and sends away
     have just been ridiculous. I would say one in a fortnight, never
     less. It stands to reason that it would not be her sister Jean she
     was writing to so often. So I made sure you were for something in
     it. And therefore it is with no little confidence that I send this.
     If ye do not receive it, you will not be able to blame me, for I
     will have done everything I could.

     “And I have a great deal to tell you, and in particular about Mr.
     Henry Campbell of Glendochart, who was abroad for his health in
     the beginning of the year, and afterwards took up his old practice
     of visiting at Drumcarro, which was, you know, very well liked by
     every person: for he was very kind to the children, and brought
     them beautiful boxes of fine sweeties made of chocolate from Paris,
     which they consumed from morning till night, my mother being always
     afraid it would put their stomachs out of order; but no harm
     followed. Now you know, Christina, that in former times when you
     were at home it was commonly believed by all the family that
     Glendochart was coming for you. But it would appear that this had
     been a mistake. Perhaps it was that his fancy was not fixed then
     between us two, being sisters and about the same age, which I am
     told is a thing that sometimes happens. But anyhow the other day
     him and me being on the road down to the linn--not that awful steep
     road that you were always trying to break your own neck and other
     folks’ upon, but the road round that goes by the side of the
     hill--he began to talk to me very seriously, and to say that he had
     long been thinking upon a Person that would make him a good wife.
     And I said--that he might see there was no ill-will or
     disappointment--that I was sure she would be a happy woman, and
     that she should always find friends at Drumcarro. And on this he
     took courage and told me he hoped so, for it was just Me that was
     the Person, and that the offer he made me was one that he would not
     make to any other woman. I was very much surprised, thinking always
     that it had been You--but you being gone, and there being no
     possibility in that quarter, and being always very favourable to
     Glendochart myself and sure he would make a very good man--besides
     that it would be real good for my mother to get a change of air
     from time to time, and that it is better to be a married woman in
     your own good house, than a lass at home with nothing but what her
     father will lay out upon her (and you know how little that is), or
     even an Old Maid like Auntie Eelen, though in many ways she is very
     comfortable. But taking all things into consideration I just
     thought I would take Glendochart, who is a very creditable person
     in every way, and a fine figure of a man; though not so very young.
     And I hope you will have no feeling upon the subject as if I did
     wrong to take what they call my sister’s leavings, and other coarse
     things of that kind. For of course if you had wanted him you would
     have taken him when you had the offer, and it can do you no harm
     that another should have him, when you would not have him yourself.

     “So after all, dear Christina, this is just to tell you that on the
     1st of June we are to be married by Mr. Pyper at Drumcarro. I will
     wear a habit which it was my desire should be of green cloth, with
     a little gold lace; but they all rose against me, saying that there
     was an old rhyme to the effect that--

    ‘The bride that is married in green
     Her sorrow will soon be seen’--

     so I yielded about that, and it is to be French grey, with a
     little silver upon the coat-tails and the cuffs and pockets, and a
     grey hat with a silver band and a grey veil; which will be very
     pretty and useful too, for grey does not show the dust as red would
     have done, which was what my mother wanted, being the fashion in
     her time. We will stay quietly for a week or two at our own house
     of Glendochart, and then he has promised that he will take me to
     London. I hope you will let me know by Marg’ret where I can find
     you, and I will come and see you. Perhaps in the changed
     circumstances you would rather not see Henry, though he has a most
     kindly feeling, and would never think of being guided by my
     father’s ban, which you might be sure would be placed upon you.
     Neither would I ever give in to it, especially as a married woman,
     owing no duty but to her husband, and him a real enlightened man.
     So there would be no difference made either by me or him, but very
     glad to see you, either in the place where you are, or at
     Glendochart, or wherever we might be. If I don’t hear anything more
     particular I will come to Miss Jean Brown’s when I get to London in
     hopes that she will tell me where to find you, especially as I
     cannot be in London without taking the opportunity to get a new
     gown or perhaps two, and I hear she is very much patronized by the
     first people, and in a very good position as a mantua-maker.

     “Now, dear Christina, I hope you will send me a word by Marg’ret
     about your address; but anyway I will come to Miss Brown’s and
     find you out, and in the meantime I am very glad to have had the
     opportunity of letting you know all our news, and I remain

                                             “Your affectionate sister,

                                                         “MARY DOUGLAS.

     “P.S. My mother keeps just in her ordinary.”

This letter was given to Kirsteen out of the cover which Miss Jean
opened with great precaution on account of the writing that was always
to be found on the very edge of the paper where the letter was folded,
and under the seal. Miss Jean shook her head while she did so and said
aloud that Marg’ret was very wasteful, and what was the good of so many
letters. “For after all,” she said, “news will keep; and so long as we
know that we are both well what is the object in writing so often? I got
a letter, it’s not yet three weeks ago, and here’s another. But one
thing is clear, it’s not for me she writes them, and we must just try to
get her a few franks and save her siller.” But she gave what she called
a _skreigh_ as soon as she had read half a page. “It’s your sister
that’s going to be married?” that was indeed a piece of news that
warranted the sending of a letter. Kirsteen read hers with a bright
colour and sparkling eyes. She was angry, which was highly unreasonable,
though I have remarked it in women before. She felt it to be an offence
that Glendochart had been able to console himself so soon. And she was
specially exasperated to think that it was upon Mary his choice had
fallen. Mary! to like her as well as me! Kirsteen breathed to herself,
feeling, perhaps, that her intimate knowledge of her sister’s character
did not increase her respect for Mary. “Having known me to decline on a
range of lower feelings.” These words were not written then, nor
probably had they been written, would they have reached Kirsteen, but
she fully entered into the spirit of them. “Mary! when it was me he
wanted!” She did not like the idea at all.

“Yes,” she said sedately, “so it appears;” but her breathing was a
little quickened, and there was no pleasure in her tone.

“And is your sister so like you?” said Miss Jean.

“She is not like me at all,” said Kirsteen. “She is brown-haired and has
little colour, and very smooth and soft in all her ways.” Kirsteen drew
a long breath and the words that she had spoken reminded her of other
words. She thought to herself, but did not say it, “Now Jacob was a
smooth man.” And then poor Kirsteen flamed with a violent blush and said
to herself, “What a bad girl I am! Mary has never been false or unkind
to me--and why should not she take Glendochart when I would not take
him? And why should the poor man never have anybody to care for him
because once he cared for the like of me?”

Miss Jean did not, of course, hear this, but she saw that something was
passing in Kirsteen’s mind that was more than she chose to say. And,
like a kind woman, she went on talking in order that the balance might
come right in the mind of her young companion. “They will be coming to
London,” she said, “just when the town is very _throng_--and that is
real confusing to folk from the country. If it will be pleasing to you,
Miss Kirsteen, I will ask them to their dinner; that is, if they will
not think it a great presumption in the like of me.”

To tell the truth Kirsteen herself felt that Marg’ret’s sister was not
exactly the person to entertain Glendochart and Mary, who were both of
the best blood in the country; but she was too courteous to say this.
“It would be very kind of you, Miss Jean,” she said, “but I am not sure
that it would be pleasing to me. Perhaps it would be better to let them
just take their own gait and never to mind.”

“I have remarked,” said Miss Jean, “in my long experience that a quiet
gentleman from the country when he comes up to London with his new
married wife, has often very few ideas about where he is to take her to.
He thinks that he will be asked to his dinner by the chief of his name,
and that auld friends will just make it a point to be very ceevil. And
so they would perhaps at a quiet time; but when the town is so _throng_,
and people’s minds fixed on what will be the next news of the war, and
everybody taken up with themselves, it is not so easy to mind upon
country friends. And I have seen them that come to London with very
high notions just extremely well pleased to come for an evening to a
countrywoman, even when she was only a mantua-maker. But it shall be
just whatever way you like, and you know what my company is and who I
would ask.”

“Oh, it is not for that!” cried Kirsteen. By this time she knew very
well what Miss Jean’s company was. There was an old Mrs. Gordon, who had
very high connections and “called cousins” with a great many fine
people, and had a son with Lord Wellington’s army, but who was very poor
and very glad to be received as an honoured guest in Miss Jean’s
comfortable house. And there was the minister of the Scots church in the
city, who announced to everybody on all occasions that there was nobody
he had a higher respect for than Miss Jean, and that her name was well
known in connection with all the Caledonian charities in London. And
there was Miss Jean’s silk-mercer, to whom she gave her large and
valuable custom, and who was in consequence Miss Jean’s very humble
servant, and always happy to carve the turkey or help the beef at her
table, and act as “landlord” to her guests--which was how she expressed
it. He had a very quiet little wife who did not count. And there was a
well-known doctor who was one of the community of the Scots kirk, and
often called on Sabbath mornings to take Miss Jean to Swallow Street in
his carriage. Besides these persons, who were her habitual society,
there was a floating element of Scotch ladies who were governesses or
housekeepers in great families, and who had occasion to know Miss Jean
through bringing messages to her from their ladies and being recognized
as countrywomen. It was a very strongly Scots society in the middle of
Mayfair, very racy of Scotch soil, and full of Scotch ideas though
living exclusively in London. It had been a little humiliating to
Kirsteen herself to meet them, with the strong conviction she had in her
mind that she herself with her good blood must be very much above this
little assembly. But she had been obliged to confess that they had all
been very agreeable, and old Mrs. Gordon had quoted her fine relations
to so much purpose that Kirsteen had been much ashamed of her
instinctive resistance and foregone conclusion. All the same she did not
think Glendochart would be elated by such an invitation, or that he
would consider it a privilege to introduce his wife to the circle at
Chapel Street. His wife! She thought with a momentary thrill that she
might have been that important personage, ordering new gowns from Miss
Jean instead of sewing under her, driving about in a handsome carriage
and doing just what she pleased, with an adoring slave in attendance.
And that he should have taken Mary in her place! And that Mary should
possess all that had been intended for Kirsteen! She thought she could
see the quiet triumph that would be in her sister’s eyes, and the way in
which she would parade her satisfaction. And wherefore not? Kirsteen
said to herself. Since she had paid the price, why should she not have
the satisfaction? But it cost Kirsteen an effort to come to this
Christian state of mind--and she did not reply to Mary’s letter. For
indeed she was not at all a perfect young woman, but full of lively and
impatient feelings, and irritability and self-opinion--as belonged to
her race.




CHAPTER VI.


London was more than _throng_ when Glendochart and his young wife
arrived. It was mad with joy over the great battle of Waterloo which had
just been fought, and the triumph of the British arms, and the end of
the war which nobody had been sure might not be another long war like
that of the Peninsula. When the pair from the Highlands reached town,
travelling in the coach for Mary thought a postchaise an unnecessary
expense, they met, a short distance from London, the coach which carried
the news, all decorated with laurels, the conductor performing
triumphant tunes upon his horn, the passengers half crazy with shouting,
and feeling themselves somehow a part of the victory if not the first
cause, flinging newspapers into passing carriages, and meeting every
wayfarer with a chorus only half intelligible about the Great and
Glorious Victory. The bride was much excited by these announcements. She
concluded that now there would be nothing but balls and parties in
London, and that Glendochart would receive sheaves of invitations from
all quarters; and finally that it was quite essential she should go at
once to Miss Jean Brown’s, not only to ask after Kirsteen, but to get
herself one or two gowns that should be in the height of the fashion and
fit to appear at the dinner table of the Duke and Duchess, who she made
no doubt would make haste to invite so important a member of the clan.
“That will no doubt be the first place we will go to,” she said to her
husband. “Oh, yes, my dear; if his Grace thinks about it I have no doubt
he will mention it to the Duchess, and if they should happen to have a
free day----“ “Is that all you say, Glendochart, and me a bride?” cried
Mary. But the old bridegroom, who was more or less a man of the world,
would not promise more. And he was as much excited by the news as any
one, and from the moment when he could seize one of the papers that were
flying about, and read for himself the brief despatch from the field of
battle, there was nothing else to be got from him. There was another old
soldier in the coach, and the two began to reckon up the regiments that
had been engaged and to discuss the names of the officers, and to
speculate on the results of this great and decisive victory, and whether
Boney would ever hold up his head again. Mary felt almost deserted as
she sat back in her corner and found all the caresses and whispers of
the earlier journey stopped by this sudden excitement. She did not
herself care very much for the victory nor understand it, though she
was glad it was a victory. She was half glad also, and half sorry, that
none of the boys were with Lord Wellington--sorry that she was deprived
of the consequence of having a brother with the army, yet glad that she
was thus free of the sad possibility of being plunged into mourning
before her honeymoon was over.

But when these thoughts had passed through her mind, Mary turned to her
own concerns which were more interesting than any public matters. Flags
were flying everywhere as they drove through the streets and a grand
tumult of rejoicing going on. The very sound of it was exhilarating, the
great placards that were up everywhere with the news, the throngs at
every corner, the newsvendors who were shouting at the top of their
voices imaginary additions to the despatches and further details of the
victory, the improvised illuminations in many windows, a candle stuck in
each pane after the fashion of the time, that to a stranger from the
country had a fine effect seen through the smoky haze of the London
streets, which even in June and at the beginning of the century was
sufficiently apparent to rural perceptions. Mary was not carried away by
this fervour of popular sentiment as her old husband was, who was ready
to shout for Wellington and the army on the smallest provocation, but
she was agreeably stimulated in her own thoughts. She already saw
herself at the grand dinners which would be given in celebration of the
event in the Duke’s great mansion in Portman Square--not placed perhaps
by his side, as would in other circumstances have been her right as a
bride, but yet not far off, in the midst of the lords and ladies; or
perhaps his Grace, who was known to be punctilious, would give her her
right whoever was there, were it even a princess of the blood, and she
would have the pride and the felicity of looking down upon half the
nobility seated below her at the feast. The chief of Glendochart’s name
could scarcely do less to one of the Douglases entering his clan at such
a moment. Mary lay back in her corner, her mind floating away on a
private strain of beatific anticipation, while Glendochart hung half out
of the window in his excitement, cheering and asking questions. She
imagined the princess of the blood, who no doubt would be present,
asking of the Duke who the young lady was in her bridal dress who
occupied the place of honour, and hearing that she was one of the
Douglases, just entered into his Grace’s connection by her marriage with
Glendochart, the princess then (she almost saw it!) would request to
have the bride presented to her, and would ask that the Duchess should
bring her one day to Windsor perhaps to be presented to Queen Charlotte,
or to Hampton Court or some other of the royal palaces. Mary’s heart
beat high with this supposition, which seemed more or less a direct
consequence of Waterloo, as much so as Boney’s downfall, and much more
satisfactory than that probable event.

When they arrived in the city where the coaches from the north stopped,
and she had to get out, somewhat dazed by all the tumult round her, and
the crowd, and the struggle for baggage, and the absence of any coherent
guidance through that chaos of shouting men and stamping horses, and
coaches coming and going, and everywhere the shouts of the great and
glorious victory, Mary was in the act of receiving a pressing invitation
from the princess to pass a week with her and meet all the first people
in London. She was half annoyed to be disturbed in the midst of these
delightful visions, but comforted herself with the thought that it was
but a pleasure deferred.

And it may be imagined that with all this in her mind it became more
than ever important to Mary to make an early call upon Miss Jean and
provide herself as rapidly as possible with a dress that was fit to be
worn among such fine company. The riding-habit which she had worn at her
marriage, though exceedingly fine and becoming, was not a garment in
which she could appear at the dinner-table in Portman Square. There are
some rare geniuses who have an intuitive knowledge of what is finest and
best without having learned it, and in respect to society and dress and
the details of high life Mary was one of these gifted persons. Her habit
had been very highly thought of in the country. It was a costume, many
rustic persons supposed, in which it would be possible to approach the
presence of Queen Charlotte herself. But Mary knew by intuition just how
far this was possible. And she knew that for the Duke’s table a white
gown was indispensable in which to play her part as a bride; therefore,
as there was no saying at what moment the invitation might arrive, nor
how soon the dinner might take place, she considered it expedient to
carry out her intention at once. Happily Glendochart next morning was
still a little crazy about the victory, and anxious to go down to the
Horse Guards to make inquiries, if she would excuse him, as he said
apologetically. Mary did so with the best grace in the world. “And while
you are asking about your old friends,” she said, “I will just go and
see if I can find out anything about my poor sister--“ “That is just a
most kind thing to do, and exactly what I would have expected from you,
my dear,” said Glendochart, grateful to his young wife for allowing him
so much liberty. And he hastened to secure a glass coach for her in
which she could drive to Miss Jean, and “see all the London ferlies,” as
he said, on the way. It was not a very splendid vehicle to drive up to
Miss Jean’s door, where the carriages of the nobility appeared every
day; but Mrs. Mary felt herself the admired of all beholders as she
drove along the streets, well set up in the middle of the seat as if she
had been the queen. Her heart beat a little when she reached the house,
with mingled alarm as to Kirsteen’s reception of her, and pride in her
own superior standing, far above any unmarried person, as Mrs. Campbell
of Glendochart. The name did not indeed impress the maid who received
her, and who asked twice what it was, begging pardon for not catching
it the first time, and suggesting “Lady Campbell of--?” “Mistress
Campbell,” said Mary. She felt even in that moment a little taken down.
It was as if the maid was accustomed to nothing less than my lady. She
was so agitated that she did not perceive the name of Miss Kirsteen in
connection with that of Miss Brown upon the brass plate of the door.

She had, however, quite recovered herself before Kirsteen appeared in
the show-room to answer the summons, and advanced rustling in all her
new ribbons to meet her sister. “Oh, Kirsteen, is that you? Oh, are you
really here? I thought I could not be deceived about Miss Jean
harbouring ye and helping ye, but I did not think I would just find ye
in a moment like this.”

“Yes,” said Kirsteen, “I am here, and I have been here ever since I left
home.”

“Ye have turned quite English, Kirsteen, in the time ye’ve been away.”

“Have I? It’s perhaps difficult to avoid it--if ye have anything of an
ear for music.” This was perhaps an unkind thing to say, for it was
well-known in the family that Mary had no ear for music and could not
“turn a tune” to save her life. With a compunction Kirsteen turned to a
more natural subject. “And how is my mother?”

“Oh,” said Mary, “she is just wonderfully well for her. The marriage was
a great divert to her, settling how it was to be and the clothes and
everything. She was dressed herself in a new gown that Glendochart
presented to her for the occasion, with white ribbons in her cap, and
looking just very well. ‘It’s easy to see where ye get your looks from,’
Henry said to me: which I thought was a very pretty compliment to both
of us, for if ever a man was pleased with his wife’s looks it should be
on his wedding-day.”

“Very likely,” said Kirsteen drily, “but I have no experience. I got
your letter, with an account of what you had on.”

“Yes, it was considered very becoming,” said Mary. “And Jeanie was just
beautiful in a white frock; I will have her with me at Glendochart when
she gets a little older, and bring her out, and maybe take her to
Edinburgh for a winter that she may have every advantage. I would like
her to make a grand marriage, and there is nothing more likely when
she’s seen as she ought to be in a house like Glendochart.”

“I have yet to learn,” said Kirsteen with dilating nostrils and
quivering lips (for she too intended Jeanie to make a great match, and
to marry well, but under her own auspices not her sister’s), “I have yet
to learn that a Campbell who is the Duke’s clanswoman can give credit to
a Douglas that comes of the first family of her own name.”

“Maybe you think too,” said Mary with all the force of ridicule founded
on fact, “that the house of Drumcarro is a good place for letting a
young thing see the world.”

Kirsteen was silenced by this potent argument, but it by no means
softened the irritation in her mind. She had thought of Jeanie as her
own, her creation in many ways, between whom and every evil fate she was
determined to stand. To have the child taken out of her hands in this
calm way was almost more than she could bear. But she compelled herself
to patience with a hasty self-argument: Who was she to stand between
Jeanie and any advantage--when nobody could tell whether she would be
able to carry out her intentions or not? And at all events at the
present moment Jeanie being only fourteen there was not much to be done.
Mary’s smooth voice going on forbade any very continued strain of
thought.

“And, Kirsteen, what is to be done about yourself? We would be real
willing to do anything in our power--But oh! it was rash--rash of you to
run away--for you see by what’s happened that it was all a mistake, and
that Glendochart----”

Kirsteen’s milk-white brow again grew as red as fire. To have your old
lover console himself with your sister is bad enough; but to have her
explain to you that your alarm was a mere mistake of vanity, and that
the only person who was ridiculous or blamable in the business was only
yourself,---- this is too much for mortal flesh and blood!

“I am much obliged to you,” she said with self-restraint which was
painful, “but I am very happy where I am. It was no mistake so far as I
am concerned. It was just impossible to live on down yonder without
occupation, when there are so many things to be done in the world.”

“Dear me!” cried Mary astonished with this new view. But at this moment
Miss Jean fortunately came in, and was very happy to see the lady of
Glendochart and very anxious to show her every attention.

“I consider it a great honour,” said Miss Jean, “that you should come to
see me the first morning; though well I know it’s not for me but for one
that is far more worthy. Miss Kirsteen is just the prop of this house,
Mistress Campbell. Not a thing can be done without her advice--and
though I had little reason to complain, and my basket and my store had
aye prospered just wonderful, it’s a different thing now Miss Kirsteen
is here, for she makes all the fine ladies stand about.”

“Dear me,” said Mary again, “and how can she do that?” But she was more
anxious about her own affairs than the gifts and endowments of her
sister. “There is one thing I must say,” she added, “before we go
further, and that is that I am wishing to get a new gown; for we will
likely be asked to our dinner at the Duke’s, and though I have all my
wedding outfit I would like to be in the newest fashion and do my
husband credit with the chief of his name. So perhaps you would show me
some white silks, just the very newest. And I would like it made in the
last fashion; for Glendochart is very liberal and he will wish me to
spare no expense. Being Marg’ret’s sister, as well as having been so
kind to Kirsteen, it was just natural that I should choose what little
custom I have to give into your hands. But I would want it very quickly
done, just as quick as the needles can go--for we cannot tell for what
day the invitation might come.”

Miss Jean with a smile upon her face, the smile with which she received
an order, and a bow of acquiescence which made the ribbons tremble in
her cap, had taken a step towards the drawers in which her silks were
kept; but there was something in Kirsteen’s eyes which made her
hesitate. She looked towards her young associate with a
half-question--though indeed she could not tell what was the foundation
of her doubt, in her eyes.

“Miss Jean,” said Kirsteen promptly, “you have then forgotten our new
rule? You will maybe think I want you to break it in consideration of my
sister? But ye need not depart from your regulations out of thought for
me. And I am sure I am very sorry,” she said turning to Mary, who stood
expectant with a smile of genial patronage on her face--“but it’s not
possible. Miss Jean has made a rule to take no orders from
commoners--except them that have been long upon her list. It would just
be hopeless if we were to undertake it,” Kirsteen said.

“No orders--from commoners?” cried Mary in consternation and wrath.

“Just that; we would have all London at our tails, no to speak of
persons from the country like yourself--just pursuing us night and
day--if we were to relax our rule. And there are many of the nobility,”
said Kirsteen turning to Miss Jean with a look of serious consultation,
“whom I would wish to be weeded out--for there are titles and titles,
and some countesses are just nobodies however much they may think of
themselves. You will never get to the first rank,” continued Kirsteen,
still addressing Miss Jean, “unless ye just settle and never depart from
it, who you are to dress, and who not.”

“Do you mean, Miss Jean,” cried Mrs. Campbell of Glendochart, “that ye
will not make me my gown?”

Miss Jean was torn asunder between natural politeness and proper
subjection to her superiors, and a still more natural partisanship, not
to speak of the glance of fiery laughter in Kirsteen’s eyes. “What can I
do,” she cried, “when you hear with your own ears what Miss Kirsteen has
said? I am wae to put you to any inconvenience, but it’s just true that
we cannot get through the half of our work--and we’ve plenty with the
nobility and old customers to keep us always very _throng_. But I could
recommend ye to another person that would willingly serve ye though I
cannot take your order myself.”

“Oh, I’ll find somebody,” said Mary in great offence. “It cannot be
that in the great town of London you will not get whatever you want when
you have plenty of money in your hand.”

“No doubt that’s very true,” said Miss Jean, “and ye may find that ye
are not in such a great hurry as ye think, for the Duchess has a number
of engagements upon her hands, and will not dine at home for about ten
days to my certain knowledge--and probably she will have her table full
then if ye have not already received your invitations--for town is just
very _throng_, and everything settled for the grand parties, weeks
before.”




CHAPTER VII.


Miss Jean it must be allowed turned to her young companion with some
dismay when Mrs. Campbell of Glendochart had been ceremoniously seen to
her hackney coach, and deeply cast down and discomfited, had driven away
to the respectable person who had been recommended to her to make her
new gown. “Were you meaning yon?” Miss Jean asked with solicitude. “Or
what were you meaning?”

“I was meaning what I said,” cried Kirsteen holding her head high and
with an unusual colour upon her cheeks. “You know yourself that we have
more work than can be done if we were to sit at it day and night.”

“For the moment,” said Miss Jean prudently; “but to refuse work just
goes to my heart--it might spoil the business.”

“It will do the business good,” said Kirsteen. “We will let it be known,
not just yet perhaps, what I said, that we will take no commoners’
orders--that persons who are nobodies need not come here. You did not
take me with you into the business just to go on like other folk.”

“No--that’s quite true,” said Miss Jean, but with a little hesitation
still.

“By the time,” said Kirsteen, “that you have turned away half-a-dozen
from your door, your name will be up over all the town; and whether in
the season or out of it, you will have more to do than you can set your
face to, and thanks for doing it. Will you trust me or not, Miss Jean?
For I allow that I am inexperienced and perhaps I may not be right.”

“It would be very strange if ye were always right,” said Miss Jean with
a smile of affectionate meaning, “for all so young and so sure as ye
are. But ye have a great spirit and there’s something in me too that
just answers till ye. Yes, I’ll trust ye, my dear; and ye’ll just go
insulting all the poor bodies that are not good enough to please ye,
till ye make a spoon or spoil a horn for yourself; for it does not
matter so very much for me.”

“Not the poor bodies,” said Kirsteen, “but the folk with money and
nothing else, that come in as if they were doing us a favour--women
that Marg’ret would not have in her kitchen; and they will come in here
and give their orders as if it was a favour to you and me! I would like
to learn them a lesson: that though we’re mantua-makers, it’s not for
the like of them--a person with no name to speak of--and giving her
orders to one of the Douglases! We will learn them better before we are
done.”

“Oh pride, pride!” said Miss Jean, “there’s something in me that answers
till ye, though well I wot I have little to be proud of; but these half
and half gentry they are just insufferable to me too.”

In all this there was nothing said of Mrs. Mary, to whom none of these
descriptions applied, for she was of course one of the Douglases as well
as her sister, and Glendochart was as good a gentleman as any of his
name. But while Miss Jean Brown, the daughter of a Scotch ploughman,
felt something in her that answered to the pride of the well-born
Highland girl, there was much in the other that resembled the “half and
half gentry,” of whom the experienced mantua-maker had seen many
specimens. Miss Jean’s prognostics however were carried into effect with
stern certainty in the disappointment of the country visitors. They did
indeed dine in Portman Square, but chiefly because of Lady Chatty’s
desire to see the personages of the story which she was so fond of
telling, and then only on a Sunday evening when the family were alone.
Alone, or all but alone, for there was one guest to meet them in the
person of Miss Kirsteen Douglas, who was not a stranger in the house nor
awkward, as the bride was in her new gown and much overdressed for the
family party. It was impossible for Kirsteen to meet Glendochart, whose
wooing had been of so much importance in her life, without a warmer
tinge of colour and a slight shade of consciousness. But the good man
was so completely unaware of any cause for feeling, that she came to
herself with a little start and shock, which was highly salutary and
chastised that pride which was Kirsteen’s leading quality at this period
of her career. Glendochart was so completely married, so pleased with
his young wife, and with himself for having secured her, that all former
dreams had departed totally from his mind--a discovery which Kirsteen
made instantaneously so soon as their eyes met, and which went through
and through her with angry amazement, consternation, wonder, mingled
after a little while with a keen humorous sense of the absurdity of the
situation. He came after dinner and talked to her a little about her
circumstances, and how difficult it was to know what to do. “For your
father is a very dour man, as Mary says, and having once passed his word
that you are never to enter his door, it will be hard, hard to make him
change. You know how obdurate he has been about Anne; but we will always
be on the watch, and if the time ever comes that a word may be of
use----”

“I beg you will take no trouble about it, Glendochart. I knew what I was
risking; and but for my mother I have little to regret. And she has not
been any the worse,” Kirsteen said, almost with bitterness. Nobody
seemed to have been the worse for her departure, not even her mother.

“No, I believe she has been none the worse. She is coming to pay us a
visit so soon as we get back.”

Kirsteen could have laughed, and she could have cried. She could have
seized upon this precise, well-got-up elderly gentleman and given him a
good shake. To think that she should have been frightened almost out of
her wits, and flung all her life to the winds, because of him; and that
he was here advising her for her good, as well satisfied with Mary as he
ever could have been with herself!

Miss Jean proved however a true prophet in respect to the disappointment
of the newly-married couple with their reception in London, and their
willingness eventually to accept the hospitality of the mantua-maker,
and meet her friends, the minister, the doctor, the silk-mercer, and the
old lady of quality, at her comfortable table. Miss Jean gave them a
supper at which all these highly respectable persons were present, along
with another who gave a character of distinction to the assembly, being
no less a person than young Captain Gordon, promoted on the field of
battle and sent home with despatches, the son of the old lady above
mentioned, who was not too grand, though all the fine houses in London
were open to him, to come with his mother, covering her with glory in
the eyes of the humbler friends who had been kind to her poverty. This
encounter was the only one which brought Glendochart and his wife within
the range of the commotion which was filling all society and occupying
all talk. Afterwards, when they returned home, it was the main feature
of their record, what Captain Gordon had said, and his account of the
battle--“which, you see, we had, so to speak, at first hand; for he got
his promotion upon the field, and was sent home with despatches, which
is only done when a young man has distinguished himself; and a near
connection of the Huntly family.” I am not sure that Mary did not allow
it to be understood that she had met this young hero at the Duke’s table
in Portman Square, but certainly she never disclosed the fact that it
was at the mantua-maker’s in Chapel Street, Mayfair. Captain Gordon
proved to be of much after importance in the family, so that the mode of
his first introduction cannot be without interest. The old lady who
patronized Miss Jean by sharing her Sunday dinners, and many other
satisfactory meals, felt herself, and was acknowledged by all, to have
amply repaid her humble friend by bringing this brilliant young hero
fresh from Waterloo to that entertainment, thus doing Miss Jean an
honour which “the best in the land” coveted. Alick, so far as he was
concerned, made himself exceedingly agreeable. He fought the great
battle over again, holding his auditors breathless; he gave the doctor
details about the hospitals, and told the minister how the army chaplain
went among the poor Highlanders from bed to bed. And he accepted an
invitation from Glendochart for the shooting with enthusiasm. “But they
will want you at Castle Gordon,” said the proud mother, desirous to show
that her son had more gorgeous possibilities. “Then they must just want
me,” cried the young soldier. “They were not so keen about me when I was
a poor little ensign.” Everything was at the feet of the Waterloo hero,
who was in a position to snap his fingers at his grand relations and
their tardy hospitality. Kirsteen in particular was attracted by his
cheerful looks and his high spirit, and his pleasure in his independence
and promotion. It was in accord with her own feeling. She said that he
put her in mind of her brothers in India--all soldiers, but none of them
so fortunate as to have taken part in such a great decisive battle; and
thought with a poignant regret how it might have been had Ronald
Drummond continued with Lord Wellington’s army instead of changing into
the Company’s service. It might have been he that would have been sent
over with the despatches, and received with all this honour and
renown--and then!--Kirsteen’s countenance in the shade where she was
sitting was suffused with a soft colour, and the tears came into her
eyes.

“They get plenty of fighting out there,” said the young soldier, who was
very willing to console the only pretty girl in the room; “and if it’s
not so decisive it may be just as important in the long run, for India
is a grand possession--the grandest of all. I will probably go there
myself, Miss Douglas, for though Waterloo’s a fine thing, it will end
the war, and what’s a poor soldier lad to do?”

“You will just find plenty to do in your own country, Alick,” said his
mother eagerly.

“Barrack duty, mother! it’s not very exciting--after a taste of the
other.”

“A taste!” said the proud old lady. “He’s just been in everything, since
the time he put on his first pair of trews. I know those outlandish
places, as if they were on Deeside, always following my soldier
laddie--Vimiera, and Badajos, and down to Salamanca and Toulouse in
France. I could put my finger on them in the map in the dark,” she cried
with a glow of enthusiasm; then falling into a little murmur of happy
sobbing, “God be thanked they’re all over,” she cried, putting her
trembling hand upon her son’s arm.

“Amen!” said the minister, “to the final destruction of the usurper and
the restoring of law and order in a distracted land!”

“We’ll just see how long it lasts,” said the doctor, who was a little of
a free thinker, and was believed to have had sympathies with the
Revolution.

“We’ll have French tastes and French fashions in again, and they’re very
ingenious with their new patterns it must be allowed,” said the
silk-mercer; “but it will be an ill day for Spitalfields and other
places when the French silks are plentiful again.”

“There’s ill and good in all things. You must just do your best, Miss
Jean, to keep British manufactures in the first place,” the minister
said. “It’s astonishing in that way how much the ladies have in their
hands.”

“Were you at Salamanca--and Toulouse?” said Kirsteen in her corner,
where she kept as far as possible from the light of the candles, lest
any one should see the emotion in her face.

“Indeed I was, and the last was a field of carnage,” said the young
soldier. “Perhaps you had a brother there?”

“Not a brother--but a--friend,” said Kirsteen, unable to restrain a
faint little sigh. The young man looked so sympathetic and was so
complete a stranger to her that it was a relief to her full bosom to say
a word more. “I could not but think,” she added in a very low tone,
“that but for that weary India--it might have been him that had come
with glory--from Waterloo.”

“Instead of me,” said the young soldier with a laugh. “No, I know you
did not mean that. But also,” he added gravely, “both him and me we
might have been left on the field where many a fine fellow lies.”

“That is true, that is true!” Kirsteen did not say any more; but it
flashed across her mind how could she know that he was not lying on some
obscure field in India where lives were lost, and little glory or any
advantage that she knew of gained? This gave her, however, a very
friendly feeling to young Gordon, between whom and herself the tie of
something which was almost like a confidence now existed. For the young
man had easily divined what a friend meant in the guarded phraseology of
his country-woman.

It was not till long after this that there came to Kirsteen a little
note out of that far distance which made amends to her for long waiting
and silence. The letter was only from Robbie, whose correspondence with
his sisters was of the most rare and fluctuating kind, yet who for once
in a way, he scarcely himself knew the reason why, had sent Kirsteen a
little enclosure in his letter to his mother, fortunately secured by
Marg’ret, who was now everything--nurse, reader, and companion to the
invalid. Robbie informed his sister that Jeanie’s letter about old
Glendochart had “given him a good laugh,” and that he thought she was
very right to have nothing to say to an old fellow like that. Before the
letter arrived there was already a son and heir born in Glendochart
house, but Robbie was no further on in the family history than to be
aware of the fact that Kirsteen had gone away rather than have the old
lover forced upon her. He told her how on the march he had passed the
station where Ronald Drummond was, “if you mind him, he is the one that
left along with me--but you must mind him,” Robbie continued, “for he
was always about the house the last summer before I came away.”

       *       *       *       *       *

He was keen for news of home, as we are all when we meet a friend in
this place. And I read him a bit of Jeanie’s letter which was very well
written, the little monkey, for a little thing of her age; how old
Glendochart followed you about like a puppy dog, and how you would never
see it, though all the rest did. We both laughed till we cried at
Jeanie’s story. She most be growing a clever creature, and writes a very
good hand of writing too. But it was more serious when we came to the
part where you ran away in your trouble at finding it out. I hope you
have come home by this time and have not quarrelled with my father; for
after all it never does any good to have quarrels in a family. However I
was saying about Ronald that he was really quite as taken up as I was
with Jeanie’s letter, and told me I was to give you his respects, and
that he would be coming home in a year or two, and would find you out
whether you were at Drumcarro or wherever you were, and give you all the
news about me, which I consider very kind of him, as I am sure you will
do--and he bid me to say that he always kept the little thing he found
in the parlour, and carried it wherever he went: though when I asked
what it was he would not tell me, but said you would understand: so I
suppose it was some joke between you two. And that’s about all the news
I have to tell you, and I hope you’ll think of what I say about not
quarrelling with my father. I am in very good health and liking my
quarters--and I am,

                                                  Your affect. brother,

                                                                  R. D.

If this had been the most eloquent love-letter that ever was written,
and from the hand of her lover himself, it is doubtful whether it would
have more touched the heart of Kirsteen than Robbie’s schoolboy scrawl,
with its complete unconsciousness of every purpose, did. It was the
fashion of their time when correspondence was difficult and dear and
slow, and when a young man with nothing to offer was too honourable to
bind for long years a young woman who in the meantime might change her
mind; although both often held by each other with a supreme and silent
faithfulness. The bond, so completely understood between themselves with
nothing to disclose it to others, was all the dearer for never having
been put into words; although it was often no doubt the cause of
unspeakable pangs of suspense, of doubt--possibly of profound and
unspeakable disappointment if one or the other forgot. Kirsteen read and
re-read Robbie’s letter as if it had been a little gospel. She carried
it about with her, for her refreshment at odd moments. There came upon
her face a softened sweetness, a mildness to the happy eyes, a mellowing
beauty to every line. She grew greatly in beauty as her youth matured,
the softening influence of this sweet spring of life keeping in check
the pride which was so strong in her character, and the perhaps too
great independence and self-reliance which her early elevation to
authority and influence developed. And everything prospered with
Kirsteen. Miss Jean’s business became the most flourishing and
important in town. Not only commoners, whom she had so haughtily
rejected, but persons of the most exalted pretensions had to cast away
their pride and sue for the services of Miss Brown and Miss Kirsteen;
and as may be supposed, the more they refused, the more eager were the
customers at their door. Before Kirsteen was twenty-seven, the fortune
which she had determined to make was already well begun, and Miss Jean
in a position to retire if she wished with the income of a statesman.
This prosperous condition was in its full height in the midst of the
season, the workroom so _throng_ that relays of seamstresses sat up all
night, there being no inspectors to bring the fashionable mantua-makers
under control, when the next great incident happened in the life of our
Kirsteen.




CHAPTER VIII.


There were no inspectors to look after the workrooms of the dressmakers
in those days, but perhaps also, at least with mistresses like Miss
Jean, there was little need for them.

If the young women in the workroom had sometimes to work for a part of
the night it was only what at that time everybody was supposed to do in
their own affairs or in their masters’, when business was very urgent,
or _throng_ as was said in Scotland. The head of the house sat up too,
there were little indulgences accorded, and when the vigil was not too
much prolonged, there was a certain excitement about it which was not
unpleasing to the workwomen in the monotony of their calling. One of
these indulgences was that something was now and then read aloud to them
as they worked.

Miss Jean herself had ceased to do much in the ordinary conduct of
business. She gave her advice (which the workwomen now considered of the
old school and wanting in sympathy with advancing taste), and now and
then suggested a combination which was approved. But on the whole she
took a less and less active share in the work during the morning and
evening hours in which she was not wanted in the show-room to receive
the ladies who were her patronesses, or whom she patronized (according
to Kirsteen’s new arrangements), with whom the younger partner had no
desire to supplant her. And when Miss Jean resigned the needle and even
the scissors, and no longer felt it necessary to superintend a fitting
on, or invent a headdress, she developed another faculty which was of
the greatest use especially at moments of great pressure. She read
aloud--I will not assert that she had any of the arts of the
elocutionist, which were much esteemed in those days--but in a
straightforward, plain way, with her Scotch accent, to which of course
all the young women were accustomed, her reading was very distinct and
satisfactory.

She read in the first instance stories out of the _Ladies’ Museum_ and
kindred works, which were about as absurd as stories could be, but being
continued from week to week, kept up a certain interest among the girls
to know what happened to Ellen as an example of youthful indiscretion,
or Emily as a victim of parental cruelty. What a jump it was when Miss
Jean brought in with triumphant delight a book called _Waverley; or,
’Tis Sixty Years Since_, I can scarcely venture to describe. No doubt
the young women accustomed only to Ellen and Emily were a little
confused by the new and great magician with whom they were thus suddenly
brought face to face; but they were greatly stirred by the Highland
scenes and Fergus MacIvor’s castle, and the beautiful Flora, for and
against whom they immediately took sides, a certain party hoping against
hope that she would finally marry the hero, while the other faction
strongly supported the claims of Rose Bradwardine. The humours of the
tale scarcely penetrated perhaps those unaccustomed bosoms, and nothing
in it was so important to the imagination of the workwomen as this. Miss
Jean finished the book one night when all were working very late, the
night before a state ball. It was an unusually heavy night because of
Lady Chatty, now an acknowledged beauty and leader of fashion, who had
invented a new mode a day or two before; that is to say Kirsteen, who
was entirely devoted to her beautiful friend, had produced an effect by
the looping up of a train or the arrangement of a scarf which had
dazzled all beholders, and had become at once the object of a rage of
imitation such as sometimes occurs in the not uneventful annals of
fashion. So many ladies had argued and implored, adjuring Miss Jean by
all her gods, pointing out to her the urgent duty of not leaving a
client or countrywoman in the shade; of not crushing the hopes of a
young _débutante_, perhaps spoiling a great marriage or bringing about
some or other catastrophe, that the head of the establishment had been
melted, and had indiscreetly consented to execute more orders than it
was possible to do. Miss Jean had been very shy of meeting Kirsteen
after, and had confessed her indiscretion almost with tears, but her
young partner with no further remonstrance than a shake of her head had
accepted the responsibility. To do something miraculous is always a
pleasure in its way, and Kirsteen laid the circumstances before the
young women and inspired them with her own energy. She herself was up
the whole night never flagging, while the others managed it by relays,
snatching an hour or two of sleep, and returning to work again. They had
a tea-drinking at midnight, when the fine-flavoured tea which Miss Jean
herself affected was served to the workwomen all round, with dainty
cakes and cates, and, highest solace of all, Miss Jean herself sat up
and finished _Waverley_, at the risk of making a few needles rusty by
the dropping here and there of furtive tears. The excitement about Flora
MacIvor and the gentle Rose, and the keen disappointment of Flora’s
partisans who had all along hoped against hope that she would relent,
kept drowsiness at bay. This was not the chief point of interest in the
book perhaps, but those young women regarded it from that point of view.

I tell this chiefly as an illustration of the manner in which Miss Brown
and Kirsteen managed their affairs. But as a matter of fact Miss Jean
often read aloud when there was no such urgent call for it. She read the
newspapers to the girls when there was any news of interest. She had
read to them everything about Waterloo, and all the despatches and the
descriptions of the field, and anecdotes about the battle, as they came
out bit by bit in the small square newspaper of eight pages, which was
all that then represented the mighty _Times_. One of the young women
lost a brother in that battle. This made the little community feel that
all had something special to do with it, and brought tears into every
eye, and justified them in shaking all their heads over the cost of
blood by which the great victory had been achieved, even in the midst of
their enjoyment of the illuminations and all the stir and quickened life
of town at that great moment.

It was long after Waterloo, however, when the incident I am about to
record occurred. Years had passed, and the newspapers were no longer so
exciting as in those days of the Peninsula, when a fight or a victory
might be always looked for. War died out from among the items of news,
and the long calm, which ended only after the Great Exhibition of 1851
had made as people thought an end of all possibility of fighting, had
begun--people had ceased to be afraid of the newspaper, and the tidings
it might bring. It is true there was always fighting going on in India
more or less, little battles now and then, skirmishes, expeditions of
which the world did not know very much, but in which, without any
demonstration, a few brave lives would end from time to time, and hearts
break quietly at home, all to the increase and consideration of our
great Indian territory, and the greatness of Great Britain in that
empire upon which the sun never sets.

Some six years had passed from the time when Kirsteen came friendless to
London knowing nobody but Marg’ret’s sister. She was now a power in her
way, supreme in the house in Chapel Street, Mayfair, feared and courted
by many people who had once been sufficiently haughty to Miss Jean. At
twenty-six, when a young woman has gone through many vicissitudes of
actual life, when she has been forced into independence, and stood for
herself against the world, she is as mature as if she were twenty years
older, though in the still atmosphere of home twenty-six is very often
not much more than sixteen. Kirsteen had become in some ways very
mature. She had that habit of authority which was so well set forth long
ago by the man who described himself as saying to one “‘Go,’ and he
goeth, and to another ‘Come,’ and he cometh.” She had but to speak and
she was obeyed--partly from love, but partly also from fear: for
Kirsteen was not the laird of Drumcarro’s daughter for nothing, and she
was very prompt in her measures, and quite indisposed to tolerate
insubordination. And her young womanhood was so withdrawn from the usual
thoughts and projects of her age that Kirsteen had put on something of
the dignified manners of a person much older, although her fresh
youthful colour, the milk-white brow and throat, the ruddy hair all
curly with vigour and life, showed no premature fading, and her person,
which was always beautifully clothed, and fitted to perfection, had
improved in slenderness and grace. It was not that propositions of a
sentimental kind had been wanting. Lord John (but his name always
brought a blush of displeasure to Kirsteen’s cheek) had done his best to
find her at unguarded moments, to beguile her into talk, and to use all
the covert arts which were still supposed to be part of the
stock-in-trade of a young man of fashion, to attain her interest if not
her affection. What he intended perhaps the young man did not himself
know, perhaps only to attain the triumph of persuading a young woman
whom he admired to admire him. But Kirsteen considered that it was
through his means alone that the difficulties of her position were
really brought home to her, and the difference between a mantua-maker
exercising her craft, and a young lady of family at home, made apparent.
This was a mistake, for Lord John would have considered himself quite as
free to attempt a flirtation with Drumcarro’s daughter in Argyllshire as
in London, and with as little intention of any serious result, the
daughter of a poor laird however high in descent, being as entirely
below the level of the Duke’s son as the mantua-maker. But it gave a
keen edge to Kirsteen’s scorn of him, that she would have believed he
was ready to take advantage of her unprotected state.

Also there was Miss Jean’s friend the doctor, who would very willingly
have made a sensible matrimonial alliance with a young person getting on
so very well in the world--while Miss Jean’s nephew, he who had already
calculated how many years it would take him to reach the elevation of
Lord Mayor, worshipped in silence the divinity whom he durst no more
approach than he durst propose for one of the princesses, knowing well
that Miss Jean would bundle him indignantly out of doors at the merest
whisper of such a presumption. But none of these things touched
Kirsteen, nor would have done had they been much more attractive. “Will
ye wait for me till I come back?” was the whisper which was always in
her ears. And since the arrival of Robbie’s letter there had come a
certain solidity and reality to that visionary bond. A man who was so
near on the verge of return that in a year or two, “in two-three years”
he might be back, was almost as close as if he were coming
to-morrow--for what is next year but a big to-morrow to the faithful
soul? The only feeling that ever marred for a moment the anticipation in
Kirsteen’s mind was a fear that when he came he might be wounded a
little by this mantua-making episode. It vexed her to think that this
might be the case, and cast an occasional shadow upon her mind from
which she was glad to escape as from the sight of a ghost. He might not
like it--his mother, who was a proud woman, would not like it. Kirsteen
did not, if she could help it, think of this possibility, yet it crossed
her mind from time to time.

And in the meantime in those weary years, the fortune that was for
little Jeanie, and that which would make Ronald at ease even in his
half-pay when he came back, was quietly growing.

With such a business, the most fashionable in London, and customers
praying almost on their knees to be put on the lists of Misses Brown and
Kirsteen, how could it do otherwise than grow?

Kirsteen was twenty-six, the season was at its climax, the workroom very
_throng_ when Miss Jean came in one morning with the newspaper in her
hand. Her little air of satisfaction when there were news that would be
interesting to read was very well known. Miss Smith touched Miss
Robinson with her elbow saying, “Look at ’er,” and Miss Robinson
communicated to Miss Jones her conviction that there was something
stirring in the paper. Miss Jean came in and took her seat at the lower
end of the table with her back to the broad uncurtained window by which
all possible light was admitted. She liked to have the light falling
well upon her paper. “Now, my dears,” she said, “I am going to read
something to you--it’s very touching, it’s an account of a battle.”

“I thought all the battles were done,” said the forewoman who ventured
to speak on such occasions.

“Oh, yes, on the Continent, heaven be praised--but this is in India,”
said Miss Jean as if nobody could ever expect battles to be over there.
Kirsteen was at the other end of the table arranging some of the work.
She was working with the rapidity of an inventor, throwing a piece of
stuff into wonderful folds and plaitings of which no one could say what
the issue was to be. She knew herself what she intended: but even when
one knows what one means to do, the hand of genius itself has sometimes
a great deal of trouble before the meaning can be carried out. She
glanced up for a moment at the name of India, but only for a moment: for
indeed there was always fighting in India, yet nothing had happened to
any of those she cared for during all these years.

Miss Jean read out the details of the fight in her steady voice. It had
been intended for nothing more than a reconnaissance and it turned into
a battle which might have very important and momentous results. She read
about the swarms of a warlike tribe who had been engaged by the Sepoys
and a few British troops--and how well all had behaved--and how the
enemy had been driven back and completely routed and dispersed, and the
authority of the Company established over a large region. “Now,” said
Miss Jean looking up over her spectacles, “this is the interesting bit--

“‘The victory, however, was a costly one--the casualties among the
officers were unusually great. Out of nine actually engaged no less than
five brave fellows were left on the field dead or seriously wounded. One
young officer of the greatest promise who had led his battalion through
a great deal of hot work, and who was down for immediate promotion, is
among the number of the former. He was found lying struck through the
heart by a native weapon. A curious and affecting incident is recorded
of this unfortunate gentleman. After he had received his death-stroke he
must have found means of extracting a handkerchief from the breast of
his uniform, and lay when found holding this to his lips. The
handkerchief was extricated from his grasp with some difficulty and was
sent home to his mother, who no doubt will cherish it as a most precious
relic. It was slightly stained with the brave young fellow’s blood.’”

Miss Jean’s voice faltered as she read that the handkerchief had been
sent to the young man’s mother. “Poor leddy, poor leddy!” she said, “the
Lord help her in her trouble.” And little exclamations of pity and
emotion rose from various voices--but suddenly they were all stilled. No
one was aware how the consciousness first arose. By means of a
communication swiftly and silently conveyed from one to another, the
eyes of all were suddenly turned towards Kirsteen who, with the light
from the large window full upon her, sat surrounded by trails of the
beautiful silk which she had been manipulating. She had looked up, her
lips had dropped apart, her hands still holding the silk had fallen upon
her lap. Her face was without a trace of colour, her bosom still as if
she were no longer breathing. She looked like some one suddenly turned
into marble, the warm tint of her hair exaggerating, if that were
possible, the awful whiteness. They expected her every moment to fall
down, like something inanimate in which no life was.

But she did not do this--and nobody dared interfere, partly from fear of
this sudden catastrophe whatever it was, partly from fear of her. They
all sat not venturing to move, looking at her, ready to spring to her
assistance, not daring to take any step. After a moment, she drew a long
breath, then with a little start as of awakening raised her hands and
looked at them, all enveloped as they were in the silk. “What--was
I--doing?” she said. She moved her hands feebly, twisting the silk round
them more and more, then tore it off and flung it from her on the floor.
“I can’t remember what I was doing,” she said.

“Oh, my dear,” cried Miss Jean, coming towards her putting down the
paper, “never mind what you were doing--come to your own room.”

“Why should I come--to my own room? What’s there?” A gleam of
consciousness came over her colourless face. “It’s not there!--it cannot
be there!”

“Oh, my darling,” cried Miss Jean, “come away with me--come away, where
you can be quiet.”

Kirsteen looked up in her face with quick anger and impatient sarcasm.
“Why should I be quiet?” she said. “Have I nothing to do that I should
be quiet? That’s for idle folk. But read on, read on, Miss Jean. It’s a
bonny story--and there will be more?” Miss Jean retired again to her
seat, and all the workers bent over their work but not a needle moved.
Kirsteen picked up the silk again. She tried to restore it to its form,
plaiting and twisting with swift impatient movements now this way and
now that. All the young women watched her furtively, not losing a
movement she made. She twisted the silk about, trying apparently to
recover her own intention, pulling it here and there with impatient
twitches and murmurs of exasperation. Then she piled it all upon the
table in a sort of rage, throwing it out of her hands. “Go on, go on
with your paper,” she cried to Miss Jean, and took up a half made dress
from the table at which she began to stitch hurriedly, looking up every
moment to cry, “Go on, go on. Will ye go on?” At length Miss Jean,
exceedingly tremulous and miserable, began to read again in a broken
voice. Kirsteen stitched blindly for half an hour, then she rose
suddenly and left the room.




CHAPTER IX.


Kirsteen did not seclude herself for long. While the girls were still
whispering to each other, not without some awe, of the sudden shock
which she had evidently received, of her deathlike look, her struggle to
maintain her composure, her rejection of all inquiries, she had returned
among them, had taken up the silk again, and resumed what she was doing.
There was scarcely a word said after Kirsteen came back. The young women
all bent over their sewing, and their needles flew through their work.
The presence among them of this one tragic face, perfectly colourless,
self-commanded, silent, wrapped in an abstraction which nobody could
penetrate, had the strangest impressive effect upon them. They did not
dare to speak even to each other, but signed to each other for things
they wanted, and worked like so many machines, fearing even to turn
their eyes towards her. Miss Jean, quite unable to control herself after
this mysterious blow which she had given without knowing, had retired to
the parlour, where she sat alone and cried, she knew not why. Oh, if she
had but held her tongue, if she had not been so ready to go and read the
news to them! Kirsteen, so busy as she was, might never have seen it,
might never have known. Miss Jean read the paragraph over and over
again, till she could have repeated it by heart. She found lower down a
list of the names of those who had been killed and wounded, but this
brought no enlightenment to her, for she did not know Drumcarro, or the
names of the neighbours near. She had to lay it away as an insoluble
mystery, not able to comprehend how, from so few details as there were,
and without even hearing any name, Kirsteen should have at once been
killed, as it were, by this mysterious blow. How did she know who he
was, the poor gentleman who had died with the white handkerchief pressed
to his dying lips? It was a very touching incident, Miss Jean had
herself thought. No doubt, she had said to herself, there was a story
under it. She had shed a sudden, quick-springing tear over the poor
young man on the field of battle, and then, in her desire to communicate
the touching tale, had hurried to the work-room without further
thought--how, she asked herself, could she have known that it would hurt
any one? What meaning was there in it that Kirsteen alone could know?

It was late when the workwomen, who lived out of doors, went away. They
had gone through a long and tiring day, with no amusement of any sort,
or reading or talk to brighten it. But somehow they had not felt it
so--they all felt as if they had been acting their parts in a tragedy,
as if the poor young officer on the Indian plains had held some
relationship to themselves. The silence which nobody enjoined, which
nature herself exacted from them, burst into a tumult of low-breathed
talk the moment they left the house. They discussed her looks, the awful
whiteness of her face, the shock of that sudden, unsoftened
communication, without asking, as Miss Jean did, how she could have
known. Miss Jean heard their voices, first low and awe-stricken, rising
in eagerness and loudness as they got further from the house. But it was
not till some time later that Kirsteen came in. She had been at work in
a violent, absorbed, passionate way, doing with incredible swiftness and
determination everything her hand had found to do. She had an air of
great weariness, the exhaustion which means excitement and not repose,
when she came in. She threw a glance round the room looking for the
paper, which Miss Jean had put carefully out of sight. Kirsteen went to
the table and turned over everything that was on it, groping in a sort
of blind way.

“You are looking for something, my dear?”

“Yes--where is it?”

“What might ye be looking for?” said Miss Jean, trembling very much, and
with the tears coming to her eyes.

“Where is it?” Kirsteen said. She was perfectly still and quiet, her
voice low, her face very white, her eyes cast down. It was evident that
she felt no need of explanation, nor power of giving one. There was but
one thing for her in the world, and that was the paper with the
news--which at the first hearing had gone like a stone to the bottom of
her heart, like a sword piercing through and through.

Miss Jean had no power to resist or to pretend that she did not
understand. She rose, trembling, and unlocked her escritoire and brought
the paper out, fumbling in the depths of a pigeon-hole in which she had
buried it, that it might never be seen more. She was very tremulous, her
face drawn, her eyes full of moisture. “I canna think how you could make
anything out of that,” she said almost querulously in the excess of her
feeling. “There’s nothing, nothing in that, to say who it was. No person
could divine. It might be somebody you never heard of.”

It is possible that after the utter and undoubting convictions of the
first moment such a thought might have come to Kirsteen’s mind too. She
put out her hand for the paper. Miss Jean kept on talking in a fretful
tone. “You’ve had no tea, not a thing since two o’clock, and now it’s
eleven at night--you’ve had no rest--work, work, as if your bread
depended on it; and it’s no such thing. I suppose you think you’re made
of something different from the ordinary, no mere flesh and blood.”

Kirsteen paid no attention. She did not hear, the words were as a vague
accompaniment, like the sound of wheels and faint voices and footsteps
out of doors. She opened the paper with steady nervous hands that did
not tremble, and read over again every word. Then she turned to the list
“Casualties.” Casualties! Accidents!--was that a word to use for the
list of the dead? When she had read it her hands dropped on her knee
with the paper held in them, and from her colourless lips there came a
faint sound, inarticulate, hoarse, the knell of hope. There had not been
any hope in her heart: but to say that and to know that hope is over,
are two things. In the one there was still a possibility--the other was
death itself. Oh, the possibility had been very faint, very feeble! She
had worked on all day, struggled on to preserve it, not asking for
conviction. Sometimes to know the worst is what we desire. Sometimes we
would prefer to put it from us, not to make sure, for a little. But
there it was: no further doubt, “Captain Drummond;” his name and no
other. “Will ye wait till I come back?” He was standing by her, saying
it--and lying there--with the handkerchief. It was all past, the whole
story, as if it had happened a hundred years ago.

“Miss Kirsteen--most likely you are making yourself miserable about
nothing. How can ye tell by a story like that who it is? Oh, my bonny
dear, I am asking no questions, but to see you like that just breaks my
heart.”

Kirsteen smiled in spite of herself at the idea of any heart being
broken but her own, of any one being miserable who had not known him,
who had never seen him, who did not even know his name. She said nothing
for a few moments and then she spoke with a voice quite tuneless and
flat, but steady. “Miss Jean--I will have to go for a day or two--to
the Highlands.”

“Certainly, my dear--whenever ye please,” said Miss Jean, though not
without a catching of her breath; for who would look after the work,
with herself so much out of the use of it, and the season still so
_throng_?

“Not to leave you--with so much in hand--why should I?” said Kirsteen,
“it’s not as if it was for anybody but me. But so soon as can be: just
the time to go and to come back.”

“Oh, my dear young lady--whenever ye please, and for as long as ye
please: but ye will come back?”

Kirsteen smiled again faintly. “Oh, yes, I will come back--there will be
nothing more, no fighting nor battles--nothing to stop me--and
nobody--to wait for me”--she added, “as I would have been content to
wait--I was very content--just to think he was coming--some time. But
that’s over--just an old story. It is time to shut up the house and go
to our beds.”

“Oh, my darlin’ bairn! Dinna shut it all up like that. Tell me about
it--or if you will not tell me, oh, dear Miss Kirsteen, let the tears
flow!”

“My eyes are dry and so is my throat, Miss Jean, I cannot speak--I
cannot cry--I’m not one for telling---- Good-night--I will just go away
to my bed.”

She lighted her candle which threw a strange new light upon her
colourless face, and the rings of hair upon her milk-white forehead out
of which nothing could take the colour. Kirsteen’s face even now had
not the meekness and patience of a saint, but her hair was like an
aureole round her wan countenance. She was going out of the room without
saying any more, when she suddenly bethought herself, and coming back
went up to Miss Jean, and kissed her--a very unusual ceremony between
these two shy Scotswomen. The old lady  to the edge of her grey
hair with pleasure and surprise. “Oh, Miss Kirsteen,” she said--

“You are very kind--you are just a mother. You are like my Marg’ret,”
Kirsteen said. That name brought a rush of tears to her eyes for the
first time. Marg’ret alone in all the world would know--Marg’ret would
not need to be told. If she could lay her head on Marg’ret’s shoulder
then her heart might break in peace. She had to bind it up now with
bands of iron--for there was nobody in the world save him and her and
Marg’ret that knew.

The workroom continued very _throng_ for ten days or so longer, and
during this time Kirsteen worked like two women. She had never been so
inventive, so full of new combinations. With her white face, and without
a smile, she stood over Lady Chatty, that grand lay-figure and
advertising medium for the mantua-maker, and made her glorious with
beautiful garments--beautiful according to the fashion of the time and
all that Kirsteen knew: for no genius (in dress) can over-step these
limits. Lady Chatty, full of affection and kindness, soon discovered the
something which was wrong. She put her hands on either side of
Kirsteen’s face and compelled her friend to look at her. “What ails
you, Kirsteen? Oh, what ails you?” “Nothing,” Kirsteen said. “Oh, don’t
tell me it is nothing. You look as if you had died and it was the ghost
of Kirsteen that was here.” Kirsteen smiled up on the beautiful face
looking so anxiously into hers, and said, “Maybe that is just true,” but
would say no more. And the business in the workroom was done with a sort
of passion by everybody there. They had heard that as soon as the press
was over Miss Kirsteen was going away. They did not exchange any
exhortations, but by one consent they addressed themselves to their work
with an unspoken thought that the sooner they were done the sooner she
would be released. It was partly that the sight of her became
intolerable to these emotional spectators, who had each a private vision
of her own of the tragedy. Had Kirsteen wept and raved and got over it
they would have wept with her and consoled her; but the anguish which
did not weep, which said nothing, was more than they could bear. They
were all silent round the long table, bending over their work, working
as some one of them said, “as if it were a large mourning order and all
for sum ’un of one’s own.” And the season was just at its end--Kirsteen
held her place till the last great ball was over, and then she went
away.

No difficulty now about paying for the coach or procuring her seat. She
was no longer afraid of any danger on the road, or of the world unknown.
The whirl of progress through the great country, through the towns and
villages, across the long level plains of England, no longer filled her
with that vague mystery and ecstasy of being which belonged to her first
journey. The movement, it was true, gave a certain solace to her pain.
The complete silence in which no one could ask her a question, fenced
off as that was by the surrounding of incessant sound, the tramp of the
horses, the jar of the wheels, the murmurs of the voices, was a relief
to her from the daily intercourse of ordinary life. After she got to
Glasgow she had to think over her further route. She had no desire to
reveal herself, to let any one know she had come. Her mission was almost
a secret one; to make it known would have gone against all the
sanctities of memory; therefore, Kirsteen would not even give herself
the pleasure of seeing Marg’ret, of sending for her at some wayside
corner, or in some village as she had once thought of doing. She drove
from Glasgow in postchaises where it was possible, in country gigs or
carts, where no better could be had, avoiding all the places where she
might be recognized. She embarked in a smack upon the Clyde and sat
forlorn upon the deck watching the hills and islands drifting by, as if
they were part of a much prolonged and almost endless dream. It was
July, the brightest month of the year, and the weather was one blaze of
brightness, as if to mock Kirsteen whose heart was sick of the sunshine.
There was nothing but sunshine everywhere, over the hills, bringing out
the glistening of a hundred burns over their <DW72>s, and making the
lochs and the great river into shimmering paths of gold. It made her
heart sick to see it all so bright, and him lying far away with that
handkerchief to his lips.

And at last Kirsteen came in the gloaming, at the softened hour, the
hour most full of love and longing, to his mother’s gate.




CHAPTER X.


“Kirsteen!”

It was Agnes Drummond who made this astonished outcry coming into the
old-fashioned drawing-room, where she had been told there was one who
wanted a word with her. “Just say there is one that would fain speak a
word” had been Kirsteen’s announcement of herself. Agnes was about
Kirsteen’s age but she had never left the shelter of her home, nor ever
thought for herself or taken any step in life alone--and she was in
reality ten years younger than the matured and serious young woman who
was her contemporary. She was tall and slim, a willowy girl gliding into
the dim room in her deep mourning, like a shadow. Kirsteen was also in
black, but without any of those insignia of crape which mark the
legitimate mourner. She was standing in front of one of the dim windows,
deep set in the thick wall, with small panes and heavy woodwork,
intercepting as much light as possible. Agnes recognized Kirsteen rather
from something characteristic in her figure and movement than by her
face.

“It is just me,” Kirsteen said, with a quick drawing of her breath.

“Have ye come home?” Then Agnes paused, and with something of the
importance of a person to whom a great and mournful distinction has
come, added, “Ye know what great trouble we are in?”

“It is for that that I came here!”

“You are very kind!” said Agnes with some surprise, and then she added,
“We knew that--ye were friends!”

“I am not come,” said Kirsteen, “to talk--for that I cannot do--I have
come to ask you, travelling night and day--come to ask you--for the
handkerchief he had in his hand!”

A sob escaped her as she spoke, but her eyes were dry.

“The handkerchief! Oh, Kirsteen, what are ye asking? Anything else; my
mother will not part with it while she lives, there is upon it,” the
girl stopped, struggling with her tears, “a stain--of his blood.”

For some minutes there was no sound in the dark room, but of Agnes’s
voice weeping, and from Kirsteen now and then a sob which seemed to rend
her breast.

“She must give it to me,” said Kirsteen at last, “for it is mine. He
took it out for my sake. Oh, a mother’s dear, dear! she has had him all
his days, his name and his memory’s hers, and no one can take him from
her. But that’s all I have, for my life. And I will have it, for it is
mine!”

“Kirsteen, you need not be violent nor speak like that, for how could my
mother give it up--the last thing he ever touched, that he put to his
lips?--like a kiss to us--her and me!”

“No,” said Kirsteen, “for none of you. It was mine, his name is marked
in the corner in my coarse red hair, that nobody ever thought anything
of. He said it was like a thread of gold. He bade me to wait till he
came back. Now he’ll never come back--but I’ll wait--till I go to him.
Give me my handkerchief with his kiss upon it; there’s nobody has a
right to touch it,--for it is mine!”

Agnes in her mild reasoning was no match for this fiery spirit. She
could only cry helplessly standing like a ghost among the shadows, but
the early moon came in at the window and shone full upon Kirsteen, who
was neither ghost nor shadow. The aspect of command that was in her
daunted the other. “I will go and ask my mother,” she said.

“Tell her,” said Kirsteen, “that I have come straight from London,
travelling night and day. I have scarce tasted bite or sup, nor slept in
my bed since the news came. I knew it was him without any name, for I
knew that was what he would do. She has many, many a thing to mind her
of him, the house he was born in, and his picture and all, and his dear
name. And I have nothing but that. And I will have it, for it belongs
to me!”

“I will go and ask my mother,” Agnes said.

The moon shone in through the small window, throwing upon Kirsteen’s
figure the reflection of the solid wooden frame-work, so that she looked
as if she were in a prison looking out upon the outside world through
black iron bars. She stood quite still for some time with her white face
turned to it looking through those bars to the light. And she never
forgot that moment when she stood gazing up into the white orb in the
clear summer sky which had looked down upon him lying silent upon the
field. It seemed to Kirsteen in the fever of her weariness and
exhaustion that she could see that scene, the awful silence, the other
dead lying about in dark muffled heaps, and the moon shining upon the
handkerchief in his hands. There were faint sounds in the house of doors
opening and shutting, and of voices. A sudden cry--which perhaps was
from his mother. It would be natural that his mother should resist, that
she should wish to keep it. But Kirsteen felt that nothing could stand
against herself and her right.

In a few minutes Agnes came back, still crying. “I am sorry,” she said,
“to keep you in this dark room, but I’ve told them to bring the
candles!”

“The candles are not needed, there’s nothing needed but one thing.”

“Oh, Kirsteen,” said Agnes, “be content with something less than that.
My mother says she cannot--oh, she cannot!--give that up.”

“Did ye tell her it was mine, and I’ve come to get my own?”

“Oh, Kirsteen! her heart’s broken!”

“And what is mine? She will get away to him. She will go where he is.
But I’m young and we are all dour livers, that will not die--I’ll
live--maybe a hundred years,” cried Kirsteen with a hard sob and a wave
of her hand as if in demonstration of the hardness of her fate.

Here a maid entered the room bearing two lighted candles which shone
upon a rosy tranquil face, the common unconcerned life coming in upon
the exaltation of the other. She closed the other windows one by one as
if that had been the only thing to do, but, when she approached that at
which Kirsteen stood with the bars of shadow upon her, drew back with a
frightened look and went away.

This enforced pause made them both a little calmer. “Ye will stay all
night,” said Agnes, faltering, “now that you are here. Take off your
bonnet, Kirsteen. And ye must take something.”

“Do you think,” said Kirsteen, “that I have come here to eat or to
drink--or to bide?--oh, no, oh, no,--but get me the thing I have come
for and let me go.”

“How can I get it when my mother will not give it up,” said Agnes
overcome, falling into the natural refuge of tears.

“Let me see her,” said Kirsteen.

“She has seen nobody, not even the minister. She will scarcely look at
the light. She cannot cry like me. She’s just like stone. He was her
only son, and she just moans and says she never believed the Almighty
would deal with her so.” Agnes, with the impatience of a patient and
gentler nature of this intolerable grief, was relieved to be able to
make her plaint. But it did not seem unnatural to Kirsteen that the
mother should be like stone.

“When she sees me,” she said, “perhaps the tears will come.”

“Oh, Kirsteen, but I dare not ask her.”

“I will not bid you ask her, I will just go ben.”

“Oh, Kirsteen!”

She knew the way well, across the outer room, which was not called a
hall, to the door on the other side, within which Mrs. Drummond was
sitting with her woe. There was nothing but the moonlight in the hall
making a broad strip of whiteness as it came in unbroken by the open
door. The two black figures passed across it like shadows, the daughter
of the house following, the stranger leading. Mrs. Drummond sat by the
side of the fire, which was a feeble redness in the grate, unneeded,
supposed to add a little cheerfulness, but in its unnatural, untended
smouldering making things rather worse than better. Her white widow’s
cap was the highest light in the room, which with its dark wainscot and
faint candles looked like a cave of gloom. The windows were all closed
and curtained, shutting out the lingering light of day. A large Bible
was open on the table, and in Mrs. Drummond’s lap lay the knitting with
which her fingers were always occupied. But she was neither reading nor
working; her white hair was scarcely distinguishable under the whiteness
of her cap. Her face rigid with sorrow was grey in comparison. She sat
without moving, like marble. Calamity had made her severe and terrible,
she who had once been kind. She took no notice at first of the fact that
some one had come into the room, believing it to be her gentle Agnes,
who was nobody, the helpless handmaiden of this despair.

Kirsteen went round the table to the other side of the fire and stood
before his mother, saying nothing. Mrs. Drummond raised her eyelids and
perceived her with a faint cry. “Who is this come to disturb me? I gave
no leave to anybody to come. I can see nobody. Kirsteen Douglas, what
are ye wanting here?”

Kirsteen put out her hands with a gesture of supplication. “It is mine,”
she said, “it was for me. It is all I have to keep my heart. You are his
mother. And I am nothing to him--but for that--”

“No, you were nothing to him,” said the mother looking at her fixedly.

“Except just this,” cried Kirsteen, roused to the full assertion of her
claim, “that it was me he thought upon--yonder--that he had my
handkerchief--and took it from his breast--and put it to his mouth.”

“Lassie,” said Mrs. Drummond, “how dare ye tell that like an idle tale
and put it into common words? It’s written there,” putting her hand on
the Bible, “so that I cannot see the word of God; and it’s written
here,” she added, laying it on her breast, “on the bosom that nursed him
and the heart that’s broken. What are you, a young thing, that will love
again and mairry another man, and have bairns at your breast that are
not his.” She broke off here, and said again after a moment abruptly,
“‘He was the only son of his mother, and she was a widow’--but the Lord
took no notice of him nor of me!”

Kirsteen sank down upon her knees before this tearless mourner, “Will I
tell ye what I am?” she said. “I am young, and we’re a long-lived
race--I will maybe live to be a hundred. No bairn will ever be at my
breast--no man will ever take my hand. He said to me, ‘Will ye wait till
I come back?’ and I said to him, ‘That I will,’ and he took the little
napkin from the table that had R. D. on it for Robbie (but yet I thought
on him all the time) in my red hair. My mother said her colour was best,
but he said it was like a thread of gold--and he touched my arm and made
me look, and he put it to his mouth. And he said, ‘Will ye wait?’ And
here we sit forlorn!” said Kirsteen, her voice breaking into a shrill
and heart-piercing cry.

There was a long pause. And then the rigid woman in the chair rose up
like a marble image, her white cap and pallid countenance awful in the
dim room like the face and head-coverings of one who had died. She took
her keys from a pocket which hung by her side and went across the room
to an old-fashioned cabinet, which lent a little glimmer of inlaid
mother-o’-pearl and foreign woods to the dim glimmering wainscot. From
this she took a box which she carried back with her to her seat, and
unlocking it with a trembling hand, took from it again a little packet
wrapped in a piece of faded silk. She held it for a moment as if she
would have opened it, then suddenly thrust it into Kirsteen’s hands.
“Take it,” she said, “and not another word. But if ye’re ever unfaithful
to him send it back to me--or bury it in my grave if I’m not here.”

“In yours or in mine,” was all that Kirsteen could say. She put her lips
trembling to the hand that had given this treasure: then being hastily
dismissed by a gesture of that hand rose from her knees and went away.
In a moment more she was outside in the mild delightful summer night,
all made up of pleasures which knew no chill, no fading, no sorrow, the
young moon softly shining as if for pure joy, the unseen burns softly
tinkling, the graceful birch trees waving their feathery branches in the
soft air. Such a night! a visionary daylight lingering in the west,
against which rose the fantastic majestic outline of the hills--the glen
penetrating far into the soft gloom towards the east, caught by a ray
of moonlight here and there; the wind upon the face of the wayfarer like
a caress--the air all full of love and longing and sweet dreams.
Kirsteen passed through it holding her treasure against her breast, a
kind of happiness possessing her, her bosom lightened for the moment by
reason of the very climax of emotion through which she had passed, the
exhaustion of sorrow which at times feels like ease to the worn-out
soul. She had a long walk to the village where her postchaise waited for
her. The road came out upon the sides of the loch which shone like a
sheet of burnished silver in the moonlight. As she approached the
village one or two people met her and turned to look back at the unknown
figure which it was evident did not “belong.” There was a little
commotion in the small village public-house where her carriage was
waiting, the horses harnessed and the lamps lighted as she had ordered.
A postchaise with an unknown lady in it was a strange occurrence in such
a place. The people at the little alehouse were very anxious to see her
veil lifted, to know if she would have anything. Just outside the
village was the road that led to Drumcarro. Kirsteen did not even remark
it as she drove past in the soft darkness. There was no room in her mind
for any thought but one.

Posting all through the summer night which so soon expanded into a
glorious summer morning, revealing her to herself as a veiled and pallid
shadow fit rather for the darkness than the light, Kirsteen reached
Glasgow in time to take the coach again for London. Then followed two
days more of monotonous, continual motion, with villages and fields
whirling past in one long continuous line. She arrived the second night
dazed with fatigue and exhaustion in the great gleaming city throwing
all its lights abroad to the evening sky, which was now her only home.
It had been but a temporary dwelling-place before, to be replaced by a
true home, perhaps in her own Highlands, perhaps,--what did it
matter?--in the incomprehensible Indian world, when he came back. Now he
would never come back; and Kirsteen recognized that this was her
established place, and that her life had taken the form and colour which
it must now bear to the end. She had accepted it for his sake that she
might be faithful to him, and now it was to be for ever, with no break
or change. There had sometimes crossed her mind a dread that he would
not like it--that the mantua-maker in Mayfair would wound the pride of
all the proud Drummonds if not of himself. Now that fear was buried like
the rest. There was no one to object any more than to praise. She was
independent of all the world, and bound to that work for ever.

It was not till Kirsteen had reached the house, which she recognized as
now her permanent resting-place, that she undid out of its case the
precious thing she had gone to seek. She bought a little silver casket,
a gem of workmanship and grace, though she knew nothing of this but only
that it seemed to suit the sacred deposit, and unfolded the little
“napkin” to take from it once, like a sacrament, the touch of his dying
lips. There was the mark, with her thread of gold shining undimmed, and
there, touching the little letters, the stain--and even the traces of
his dead fingers where he had grasped it. She folded it up again in his
mother’s cover and put with it the little blue Testament with the
intertwined initials. The silver casket stood in Kirsteen’s room during
her whole life within reach of her hand. But I do not think she opened
it often. Why should she? She could not see them more clearly than she
did with the eyes of her mind had they been in her hands night and day.
And she did not profane her sacred things by touch; they were
there--that was enough.

And thus life was over for Kirsteen; and life began. No longer a
preparatory chapter, a thing to be given up when the happy moment
came--but the only life that was to be vouchsafed to her in this earth
so full of the happy and of the unhappy. She was to be neither. The
worst had happened to her that could happen. No postscriptal life or new
love was possible to her. Her career was determined, with many objects
and many affections, but of that first enchantment no more. She took up
her work with fresh vigour, and immediately began to make many
alterations in the house, and to change the workroom according to her
own ideas and re-organize everything. Miss Jean looked on well pleased.
She was the nominal head, but Kirsteen was her head, her strength, and
soul. She was as well satisfied with all the plannings and alterings as
a mother is with things that please and occupy her child. “It takes off
her thoughts,” Miss Jean said. She herself was a happy woman. She was
like the woman in Scripture whose reproach is taken away, and who
becomes a joyful mother of children when all hope is over. She had no
need to do anything but to be happy in her child.




CHAPTER XI.


Some time after this, when everything connected with this incident was
over, Kirsteen received one morning a visitor, very different from the
usual frequenters of the house. The subsequent mails had brought no
further details of Ronald’s fate, at least to her. His mother had done
everything of which a woman’s magnanimity was capable in giving her that
sacred relic; but to make further communication of the further news that
came in fragments from one correspondent and another was not in either
of their thoughts. Information was not what these women thought of. They
had no habit of learning every detail as we have now. The event came
like a bombshell upon them, shattering their hearts and hopes--and that
was all, they looked for no more. It was accordingly with no
expectations of any kind that Kirsteen received the visitor who was
Major Gordon, the young Waterloo man whom his mother had brought to
honour the little gathering at Miss Jean’s house. He had been in India
since all the fighting had ceased in Europe, for his living and fortune
depended upon active service, and India meant increased pay and
increased opportunities under the liberal sway of the Company, without
any derogation from the pretensions of the King’s officers who thought
more of themselves than the leaders of the Company’s troops. Major
Gordon was a brave officer, and had been in as much fighting as any man
of his years could boast. But he was somewhat shy when he called on
Kirsteen, and stood with his hat in his hand moving from one foot to
another as if he had not been a perfect master of his drill. He said
that his mother had thought he had better call to see Miss Douglas after
his return--that he had been so fortunate as to meet Colonel Douglas in
India, who was hoping soon to have a furlough home--and that he hoped he
saw Miss Douglas well and Miss Brown too, who had always been so kind to
his mother. Kirsteen in her black gown was a somewhat imposing figure,
and the thought that this visitor had come straight from India took the
colour, which had begun to come back, from her cheek. A black dress was
not then, as in our days, the commonest of feminine garments--and his
eyes seemed to take an expression of anxiety as they returned again and
again to her, which Kirsteen did not understand. He told her that he
had come home with his regiment sooner than he had expected, for that
India was now the only place in which a soldier could push his fortune.

“Or lose his life,” she said.

“One may lose one’s life anywhere--but to vegetate without the means of
doing anything, without being able to take a step of any kind--to
settle--to marry,” said the young soldier with a slight blush and
laugh--“to take a place of one’s own.”

“Oh,” said Kirsteen, “to live and do well will be enough to make your
mother happy--and others that belong to you--if you think of them that
have been left lying on many a field--”

“I acknowledge that,” he said, “many and many a better man than I--but
to die a soldier’s death is always what one looks forward to--better
than living an idle life and cumbering the ground.”

“You will not do that,” said Kirsteen with a smile. She might have been
his mother’s contemporary instead of his own, so far remote did she feel
from all such agitation as was expressed in the young man’s awkwardness
and earnestness. It did not occur to Kirsteen as it might have done to
an ordinary young woman of her age that these agitations could have any
reference to herself. She smiled upon him as over a long blank of
years--“You are not one that will ever stay still long enough to cumber
the ground.”

“Miss Douglas,” he said, “I have seen several of your family--I feel a
great interest. Will you forgive me if I take a liberty? You are in
mourning?”

The light faded altogether out of Kirsteen’s face. She made a little
pause for a moment clasping her hands. “Not for any of my family,” she
said. He begged her a thousand pardons, brightening up in a moment. She
fell back into the pale shadows; he roused up to pleasant brightness of
life. These two different moods do not understand each other. They are
almost antagonistic without some special bond of sympathy. He went on
after a moment--

“I saw much of your family--in Argyllshire--before I went to India. You
will perhaps remember that Glendochart invited me for the
shooting--which was very kind.”

Kirsteen’s attention flagged. She assented merely with a bow.

“I have been three years in India,” said the young man. “She was nearly
seventeen when I saw her last.”

“Who was nearly seventeen?”

“Oh, Miss Douglas, forgive me!--your lovely little sister--a flower that
seemed born to blush unseen.”

The light came back to Kirsteen’s face. “Jeanie!” she said with a little
flush of pleasure, “is she so bonny? I always thought she would be
so--but it’s long, long since I have seen her.”

“Bonny is not the word,” said the young soldier, “though bonny is a very
bonny word. She is--she is--I wish,” he cried, breaking off abruptly
with a nervous laugh, “that I could show you her picture--in my heart.”

“Is that so?” Kirsteen raised her head and looked at him with a
searching glance from head to foot: the young man instinctively squared
himself, drawing up his head as under inspection. “Ye are well to look
at, Major Gordon--but I cannot see into your heart.”

“No,” he said, “and how can I tell you what I think of her? It’s not her
beauty--she’s just as sweet as the flowers. I wish I had the tongue of
Robbie Burns--or some of those new poets that would wile a bird from the
trees--“ and he began to murmur some words that were not so familiar to
the ear as they have come to be since then.

    “She shall be sportive as the fawn
     That wild with glee across the lawn
       Or up the mountain springs;
     And hers shall be the breathing balm,
     And hers the silence and the calm
       Of mute insensate things.

    “The floating clouds their state shall lend
     To her; for her the willow bend.
       Nor shall she fail to see
     E’en in the motions of the storm
     Grace that shall mould the maiden’s form
       By silent sympathy.

    “The stars of midnight shall be dear
     To her; and she shall lean her ear
       In many a secret place
     Where rivulets dance their wayward round,
     And beauty born of murmuring sound
       Shall pass into her face,”

The major paused a moment, and then he added, with a rising colour,
another verse--

    “Three years she grew in sun and shower,
     Then Nature said, ‘A lovelier flower
       On earth was never sown:
     This child I to myself will take;
     She shall be mine, and I will make
       A lady of my own.’”

Kirsteen, though she was in London where everything that is new should
be best known, had little acquaintance with the new poets. She had heard
part of the _Ancient Mariner_, which was to her like a great piece of
music, thrilling her being, but imperfectly understanded of her
intelligence. She had heard much of Byron, who was raved of by every
apprentice, and whom consequently this high aristocrat in verse, as in
all other things, held in a certain scorn. She listened surprised to the
lines which Gordon stammered forth somewhat shamefacedly, finding
himself embarked in a kind of recitation, which he had not intended.

“Who said it?--they are very bonny words. I am much beholden to him,
whoever he is, for such a bonny picture of my little sister--if it is
not yourself?”

“I!” cried the major. “Oh, be not profane! It is one Wordsworth that
lives on the Borders--but she is like that.”

“I can well believe it,” said Kirsteen; “nevertheless, if it was Jeanie
he was meaning, though it may be all true, it did not need that to make
a lady of my sister,” she said with an ineffable visionary pride.

The major did not argue, or make any stand for his part, though he had
all the enthusiasm of an early member of the sect. He would have indeed
sacrificed Wordsworth and all the poets without a thought at the shrine
he was approaching. “That is, alas, what daunts me,” he said. “How am I,
a poor man, to make your father hear me? He will want, and well I know
how justly, what I have not to give.”

“I am no authority as to what my father will do, Major Gordon. You may
have heard why I, a Douglas, and not the least proud of the family, am
here.”

“But she adores you, Miss Kirsteen!”

“Does she that? My bonny Jeanie! And well I wot she is the dearest thing
to me.” Kirsteen paused with a flood of pleasure and anguish inundating
her heart. The visions of the past rose up before her. Ah, why had the
image of the little sister come so persistently into all her dreams of a
future that was never to be? Because, she said to herself, putting down
that climbing sorrow, it was a life that was never to be--and Jeanie was
the consolation that remained.

“Major Gordon,” she said, “if it may so be that Jeanie’s happiness is
bound up in yours, all that I can do will be too little. But what is
there that I can do? She is in the hands of her parents; and I that have
broken my bonds, and am a rebel, having nothing to say.”

“It will not last like that between them and you.”

“It has lasted for six years. My father is a dour man and does not
change. If Alexander were to come back, that is the next in the family
to my father--”

“He is coming, he is coming--when men in India speak of two or three
years they think it is nothing--but it’s an eternity to me.”

“And sometimes it is an eternity,” Kirsteen said solemnly. She asked
then suddenly, without intending it, if he had ever been at Ahmednugger
where the battle was.

“I was in the battle,” he said simply. “I had my orders home, but I was
there. It was a kind of chance, no one expected it.”

Major Gordon was much surprised when Miss Douglas, who was so reserved
and dignified, caught him by the arm and made him sit down by her side.
She was as white as the cambric kerchief on her neck. She said with a
little moan, “Oh, not a chance, not a chance, but God’s grace, I must
think that. And tell me all ye know. Oh, tell me all ye know!” He began
to say (with astonishment, and so startled that it was difficult to put
his recollections in order) that it had all been caused by a mistake,
that no one knew how strong the native powers were, and that on the
British side all might have been lost, but Kirsteen stopped him with an
imperative movement of her hand. “Begin,” she said, “where it began, and
tell me who was there and all. Oh, tell me everything--for I have heard
nothing--except that so it was.” Her intent face, her trembling clasped
hands, the tragic eagerness with which she set herself down to listen,
overwhelmed the young soldier who knew nothing of her connection with
that fatal field. With a rapid review and calculation he made out to
himself that no Douglas had been there. It was then some one else in
whom she was interested: he looked at her again and her black dress, her
composed gravity as of one whose life was set apart, and an indefinable
change that he had remarked without comprehending it, showed him, as by
a sudden revelation, that whoever it was in whom Kirsteen was interested
he was dead. But who was it? And how was he to give her dead hero the
place her heart would crave for, if he did not know who that was?

He began however as best he could his story of the fight. As was made
very apparent afterwards, Major Gordon had a soldier’s skill in the
arrangement of his tale. He made the listener see the movements of the
troops, the gradually growing alarm, the scouts coming in with news, the
officers anxious and harassed gathering to their rapid council, the bold
advice that was first received with a sort of horror, then adopted. “We
should all have been cut to pieces but for that--not one would have
escaped to tell the tale; but he did not live to get the benefit
himself, poor fellow. His name was Drummond, a Peninsula man who had
seen a great deal of fighting. He and I were old friends. We had gone
through many a hot moment together. His plan was adopted after a great
deal of discussion. And by the blessing of God it saved many a man’s
life--but not his own!”

He gave a start as he looked up at her, for Kirsteen’s countenance was
transfigured. Her paleness glowed as if with a light behind, though
there was not a particle of colour in her face. He had found the way to
her heart without knowing, without meaning it, his testimony all the
more prized and valuable for that. He went on with details which I
cannot repeat, setting all the field before her. And then with his voice
trembling he told her the end. How he had seen his friend fall, and then
the little story of the handkerchief. “None of us knew what it meant,”
he said, “for Drummond never was one to talk much of himself, but we
were all sure there was some story. He lay there on the field with that
white thing on his lips. It was hard--to take it out of his hand.”

The major’s voice was a little strained. A man cannot cry like a girl,
but he had to stop and swallow something that was in his throat. Then to
his great surprise Miss Douglas rose and without a word went out of the
room. He asked himself in his astonishment had he been wrong after all?
Had he been talking of some one for whom she did not care, leaving out
the name she wanted to hear? He sat wondering, listening while her steps
went up stairs to a room above. Then he heard her coming down again. She
came back into the room with a silver box in her hand, and opening it
without a word took out something wrapped in a piece of faded silk. The
young soldier felt his heart in his throat, an intolerable overwhelming
pang of sympathy taking all voice and utterance from him. He knew the
little handkerchief which he had taken from Ronald’s dead hand. She did
not say a word, but looked at him with a faint mournful smile and that
transfiguration on her face. Then putting back her treasure locked it
away again in its shrine, and gave him her hand.

“Now,” she said after some time, speaking with difficulty, “you know,
and there will be no need of words between you and me. I will never
forget what you have told me. It’s been like a bit of God’s word, all
new. And ye will never doubt that if I can serve ye, it’s in my heart to
do--whatever a woman can do. Oh,” cried Kirsteen, “take the blessing of
God from a heartbroken woman and go away, Major Gordon! He was but
Captain--never more, and he’s lying yonder and you standing here. Oh,
go! and let me see ye no more.”

When the rapture of sorrow that was in her had softened again, Kirsteen
sent many messages to the young officer by his mother; but she could not
endure the sight of him at that time. Everything she could do--with
Jeanie or any one--but not to see him, not to see him, he who had come
home living and loving and promoted and with everything that had not
come to the other. She could not bear that.




CHAPTER XII.


During the six years which had passed since she left Drumcarro, Kirsteen
had heard but little of the home which she had sacrificed perhaps too
passionately, too hastily. Marg’ret’s letters indeed were very regular,
if few and scanty in detail, but these were conditions natural to the
time, and Kirsteen had never expected more. “Your mother is just in her
ordinary.” This seemed satisfaction enough to a mind unaccustomed to
correspondence, brought up in the philosophy of long silences, of little
intercourse, of blank years which went over on all sides in an
understood routine, and in which the nearest relations when they met
each other, remarked upon the external “ageing” of so many additional
years with a placid sense that it must be so. Mary also, dutiful to all
the necessities of the family, communicated periodically to Kirsteen the
course of events in her own particular family, as well as a more or less
vague report of the paternal house. She had by this time three little
children in whom, naturally, all her chief interests centred. Old
Glendochart had become “papa” to his wife, and was reported as being
very hale and hearty for his time of life, and very much taken up with
his young family. While “my mother is just in her ordinary,” remained
the habitual report, differing only from Marg’ret’s in the pronoun
employed. Now and then indeed Mary would open out into a report of the
company that had been at Glendochart “for the shooting,” and there was
one subject on which she was even eloquent, and that was the beauty of
Jeanie, the younger sister in whom her family pride was gratified, as
well as perhaps the only bit of romantic and generous feeling which was
in Lady Glendochart’s well-regulated bosom. “Our Jeanie!” From her
babyhood the sisters had all been proud of her. And Mary was pleased
with the distinction she herself had over Kirsteen in having a house to
which she could invite Jeanie, and where the praises of the young beauty
could delight her ears, ever reflecting back again as she felt an honour
upon herself. There was nobody far and near who had not heard of
Drumcarro’s lovely daughter. She was the Lily of Loch Fyne. The visitors
at the Castle took long rides all about Drumcarro, and the linn had been
elevated into one of the sights of the district, all with a view of
procuring a glimpse, if possible, of the beautiful Highland girl. And
Lord John, Mary had reported, was particularly civil, and a very great
admirer, words which were deeply underlined, and which filled Kirsteen
with indignation. To think that after all the rebuffs she had herself
given him he should endeavour to beguile the guileless Jeanie! Kirsteen
had at once written a warning letter to Mary, informing her very
decisively that Lord John was not a man to be allowed the enjoyment of
Jeanie’s company. “For he can have no right meaning, and is only a
useless, idle person,” Kirsteen said. This had produced a warm reply
from Mary under a frank received from the Duke, by means of the same
Lord John.

“You are very ready with your letters, and a heavy postage to pay,” Mrs.
Campbell wrote, aggrieved, “when you have really no news to give us. And
as for the warning about Lord John, I hope me and Glendochart have sense
enough to take care of Jeanie; and what can you, a mantua-maker in
London, know about a young gentleman of such high family, the best of
our name? I would advise you, my dear Kirsteen, not to encourage a
spirit of envy. For if you never received such attention yourself it is
partly the fault of Providence that gave you red hair, and no beauty,
and partly your own that cast away all the advantages of your family.
But you cannot think that me and Glendochart are likely to go to you for
counsel upon affairs of which you can have no experience.”

This letter did not please Kirsteen as may well be supposed. We are all
made up of great feelings and of petty ones, and are not always at our
best. Kirsteen had a heart of the noblest constancy, and held the
contents of her little silver casket above all that the world could
give. But at more vulgar moments it sometimes gave her a sting to know
that, notwithstanding all her passion of love and faithfulness, prosaic
Mary, who had never known a throb of profound feeling in her life,
would assume airs of superior importance, and pity the sister who had no
man, and would be an old maid all her life. A woman may be capable of
taking her part in a tragedy such as Kirsteen’s yet resent the comedy,
generally more or less contemptuous, that winds itself about an
unmarried woman’s life, and more at that period than now. She was very
angry at the neglect of her warning, but this was only an incident and
soon dropped into oblivion.

One day, however, late in the year in which she had performed her rapid
and melancholy journey, Kirsteen received, “by private hand,” and in the
shape of a small brown paper parcel, concealing a letter in many
wrappings, news of a very distressing kind. It was supposed in those
days of dear postage to be illegal to send a letter by the “private
hand,” which most simple country people infinitely preferred as at once
surer and cheaper than the post. This, as Marg’ret informed her in the
hurried scrawl enclosed, was to be taken by a lad from the village who
was going straight to London, and had promised to deliver it at once. It
was to tell Kirsteen that her mother was very ill, so ill that Marg’ret
had given up all hope. “I have never done so before,” Marg’ret wrote,
“so you may trust me that this is not a fright on my part. And she just
yammers for Kirsteen night and day--little, little has she ever said
till now--she’s full of complaints, poor body, but yet she’s more
patient than words can say. Ye must just come without a moment’s delay;
and if he will not let you in, I will let you in, for she shall not be
crossed in her last wish by any man, if he was three times her
husband--so, my dear bairn, just come and let there be no delay.”
Kirsteen obeyed this summons, as she was commanded at once. To go so
soon again over the same ground, and undertake once more such a
wearisome and protracted journey was very unusual, and was thought
something dreadful by all who heard of it. “You will feel as if you were
always on the road,” Miss Jean said; and she felt an inclination to
blame her sister who thought that the pleasure of her dying mistress was
worth the great disturbance of Kirsteen’s life which must result. “What
good will it do her, a dying woman? It will just disturb her when her
mind should be taken up with other things,” said Miss Jean.

But it was perhaps natural that Kirsteen should not take it in the same
way. She set off that evening, by the night coach, arriving in Glasgow
on the morning of the second day. But this time Kirsteen remembered her
kindred, and finding with difficulty the new house of Dr. Dewar, now a
fine tall “self-contained” house with a main door and a brass plate upon
it, suddenly appeared at the breakfast table where Anne and her doctor
presided over a party consisting of two tall children of nine and ten,
and two more set up in high chairs to reach the board. Anne was so much
absorbed in the feeding of those small creatures that she scarcely
observed the stranger whom Dr. Dewar rose with an apology and a little
embarrassment to meet, thinking her a patient improperly introduced into
the domestic scene. An exclamation “It’s your sister Kirsteen, Anne!”
roused the absorbed mother, at that moment holding a spoonful of
porridge to the mouth of one of the babies. Anne had developed much
since her sister had seen her last. She had become stout, yet not
unpleasantly so, but in a manner which suggested the motherly hen whose
wings can extend over many chickens. She wore a cap with plaited lace
borders tied under her chin, encircling a rosy face, which, though still
young, was losing its higher aspect a little in the roundness of comfort
and ease. Her soul was absorbed in the little ones, and in domestic
cares. She thrust the spoon into the baby’s mouth before she rose with a
wondering cry of “Kirsteen!” And all the children stared, knowing
nothing of aunts, except some on the side of the doctor who were not of
the same kind as the fashionably dressed London lady in her black
fur-trimmed pelisse. Kirsteen was still in something of the solemnity of
her first mourning. Her natural colour was subdued, she was slighter
than ever she had been, graver, more pale. Her hair once so rebellious
was smoothed away. She looked many years older, and very grave, serious
and imposing. The two elder children looked at each other with mingled
pride and alarm. This grand lady! The doctor was the only one who fully
retained his wits. He put a chair to the table for the new comer. “You
will have arrived this morning by the coach? And the first thing wanting
will be a good cup of tea?”

“Yes, I will take the tea thankfully, for it is very cold, but what I
have come for is Anne. There will be a postchaise at the door in an
hour.”

“Are you going to run away with my wife?” said the doctor with a smile.

“A postchaise!” cried Anne in dismay.

“Anne!--my mother is dying.”

“God save us, Kirsteen!”

“I want you to come with me, take your warmest cloak: there will be no
change of clothes necessary that I know of, for we will most likely be
back to-morrow.”

“To go with ye?” faltered Anne--“to--to Drumcarro, Kirsteen?” All the
blood forsook her face.

“Where else? My mother is there, and she’s dying, and crying for us.”

“Oh, I dare not--I dare not! Oh, I cannot go with ye, Kirsteen! You
don’t know, you’ve got great courage--but me, I’m just a coward. Oh, I
canna go.”

“My mother is dying,” said Kirsteen, “and crying for you and me. Can we
let her go down to her grave without a word? We’ve both left her in her
life, and maybe we were to blame; but to leave her to die is more than I
can do. Anne, you must come.”

Anne fell back in her chair, her rosy face the colour of ashes, her
plump person limp with terror and dismay. “Oh, I canna go. Oh, I canna
leave the bairns! Oh, David!” She turned to him with a gasp, terrified
by the blazing of Kirsteen’s eyes.

“Well, my dear,” said the doctor, “your sister’s right and ye ought to
go. But when ye get there,” he added turning to Kirsteen, “have you any
surety that they will let you in? To go all that way for nothing would
be little good to your mother: and I will not have my wife insulted with
a door steekit in her face--even if it is her father’s door.”

“I have this surety,” said Kirsteen, feeling herself to tower over them
though she was not very tall, “that I will see my mother, whoever steeks
the door in my face, nor think twice if it was the King himself.”

“The King’s the first gentleman in the country,” said the doctor
shrugging his shoulders, “but your father?”

“He is just my father, Dr. Dewar, and Anne’s father, and we will say no
more; the question is my mother that never harmed living creature nor
said an unkind word. How can ye stop to consider, Anne? Your mother! The
more ye cherish your bairns the more ye should mind upon her.”

“I think, my dear,” said the doctor, “that it’s your duty to go. It
might pave the way to a reconciliation,” he added, “which would be good
for us all and good for the bairns. I think you should go.”

“Oh, David!” was all that Anne said.

Kirsteen stood and looked upon them all with a flash of scorn. Was this
the effect of marrying and being happy as people say? The little plump
mother with her rosy face no longer capable of responding to any call
outside of her own little circle of existence, the babies delving with
their spoons into the porridge, covering their faces and pinafores, or
holding up little gaping mouths to be fed. It had been a delightful
picture which she had come in upon before at an earlier stage, when Anne
had wept at her mother’s name, and cried wistfully for a message from
home, and longed to show her children. That had all been sweet--but now
it was sweet no longer. The prosaic interior, the bondage of all these
little necessities, the loosening of all other bonds of older date or
wider reach, was this what happiness meant? Sometimes a sudden _aperçu_
of this kind will flash through the mind of one for whom those ties are
forbidden and give a consolation, a compensation to the fancy. But the
thought only passed as swiftly as a breath through the mind of Kirsteen.

However when the postchaise came to the door, Anne, who had been hurried
into her black silk gown and cloak more by pressure of the doctor than
by any will of her own, was ready to step into it with her sister.
Kirsteen did not quite know how it was done. She would have retired from
the conflict and left her sister with the children and their porridge,
but Dr. Dewar was of a different mind. He had never given up the hope of
having it fully recognized that his wife was one of the old Douglases;
and here there seemed to him an opportunity of bringing about that
hope. He half led, half followed her, into her room, having himself
summoned one of the maids to look after the children. “Ye must just put
the best face upon it, Anne; your sister is right. It would be
unnatural, and a thing that would be generally blamed if you did not try
to see your mother. And as for your father he won’t bite you whatever he
does.”

“Oh, David! he’ll just say things that would make you tremble; he’ll
take me and put me to the door,” said Anne crying with fright and
reluctance.

“Nonsense, woman; and if he does you must just put up with it. You have
a good home to come back to, and you will be none the worse, and ye’ll
have done your duty; but he’ll maybe be much softened by the
circumstances,” said the doctor, “and there is no saying what might
happen. It would have a very good effect if it were known you had gone
to Drumcarro, and think what a fine thing it would be for the bairns.
Take your warmest cloak as your sister said, and my plaid to put over
your knees. It will be a very cold journey.”

“Oh,” cried Anne, “I will just be perished, I know. And very likely
turned to the door in the cold, and never see my mother at all.”

“Well, ye must just try,” said Dr. Dewar, bringing her out of her room
triumphantly, and fully equipped. Anne cried for an hour, sobbing by
Kirsteen’s side over her deserted children and home, and with a
certainty that everything would go wrong while she was away. “David
will get no right dinners, and the two eldest will be late for the
school in the morning, and the little bairns neglected all the day.
There’s no confidence to be put in servants when the mistress is not
there. And most likely I will never get a glimpse of my mother, and my
father will put me to the door.”

“Oh, Anne, is that all you think of her that never was hard upon any of
us--that always was kind--and suffering so long, weary in body and in
soul?”

“You need not instruct me about my mother, Kirsteen. I am the eldest,
and I am a mother myself, and who should know if I don’t?” said Anne
roused at last. Kirsteen was glad to accept the position of inferiority
thus allotted to her on all sides. She was neither mother nor wife, nor
ever would be so. The others took a higher position than hers. She
acquiesced without a word, with a faint smile, and was thankful to be
allowed to sit silent listening to Anne’s querulous murmurs, and still
more thankful when in the unusual movement and silence Mrs. Dewar
dropped to sleep. The journey was doubly sad to her who had so lately
travelled along the same road in the first force of her passionate
misery. That seemed to be long, long ago, as if a dull subduing lifetime
had passed between. The dreadful thing was to think of the long life to
come, which might go on and on for so many years.




CHAPTER XIII.


“What will ye do now?” said Anne.

Once more Kirsteen had left her carriage in the village where so short a
time before she had paused on a different mission. Every detail of that
journey had been brought back to her by this. The six months had
softened a little the burning of that first bitter wound. The calm of
acknowledged loss had settled down, deep and still upon her life--but
all the breathless excitements of the previous quest, when she knew not
whether the only satisfaction possible to her now might be given or not,
and saw in anticipation the relic that was to make assurance sure, and
felt in her breast the burning of the murderous steel--all these
returned to her soul with double and almost intolerable force as she
retraced the same road. An ailing and feeble mother not seen for
years,--who would not hasten to her bedside, weep over her failing days,
and grieve--but not with the grief that crushes the heart--? That
anguish is soft, even after a time sweet. It is the course of nature, as
we say. The life from which ours came must fade before ours. The light
of day is not obliterated by that natural fading. Kirsteen had set out
at an hour’s notice, and was prepared to risk any encounter, any
hardness or even insult in order to answer her mother’s call. She was
not reluctant like Anne, nor did she grudge the trouble and pain. But as
she returned in thought to her previous lonely flight into these glens
the acuter pang swallowed up the lesser. She had not spoken to her
sister for a long time. Her recollections grew more and more keen, as in
another twilight, yet so different, she again approached the glimmering
loch, the dimly visible hills. Anne’s unsteady grasp upon her arm
brought her to herself.

“What must we do? We must just leave the chaise here, it can go no
further. To drive to the door would frighten them all, and perhaps
betray us. It is not a very long walk.”

“Are ye going to walk? I am not a good walker, Kirsteen. And in the dark
by that wild road? I never could get so far--Oh, I’m so used to town
ways now--I couldna take such a long, dreadful walk.”

“Anne!”

“It would be far better to leave me here. You could send for me if I was
really wanted; I’m very tired already, and not fit--oh, not fit for
more. You’re younger--and ye always was so strong--not like me.”

“Would you like your bairns to leave ye to die alone--for the sake of a
two miles’ walk? Would ye like them to lie down and sleep and rest, and
you dying two miles away?”

“Oh, Kirsteen, you are very cruel to me! What can I do for her?” cried
Anne. “She will have plenty without me.”

It was no time for controversy, and as Anne trembled so that she could
scarcely stand Kirsteen had to consent to take the postchaise on, as far
as was practicable without rousing the household at Drumcarro. For
herself the chill of the wintry night, the cold freshness in the air,
the wild sweep of sound all round her, in the swelling burn, and the
rustle of the naked trees and all those inarticulate murmurs of silence
which come down from the heights of unseen hills were salutary and
sweet. When they paused at last upon the lonely road and stepped out
into the blackness of the night with the lantern that was to guide them
on their further way, that descent into the indecipherable dark, with
all the roaring of wind and stream about them, had indeed something in
it that was appalling. Anne, not able even to complain more, clung to
Kirsteen’s arm with a terrified grasp, and listened among all the other
storms of sound to the rolling of the wheels going back as if her last
hope was thus departing from her. She that ought to have been warm and
safe at home, putting the children to bed, sitting between the bright
fire and the pleasant lamp waiting for David, to think that she should
be here in a darkness that might be felt, with the burn on one side
rushing like some wild beast in the dark, and the wind lashing the bare
branches on the other, and only Kirsteen, a woman like herself, to
protect her! A weak woman with a strong husband loses all faith in other
women. How could Kirsteen protect her? She shivered with cold and terror
clinging to her sister’s arm but without any faith in it, and thinking
of nothing but her own terrors and discomfort. Kirsteen on her side felt
the stimulus of the cold, the tumult of natural sounds, the need of wary
walking, and the responsibility of the burden upon her arm as something
that subdued and softened the storm of recollections in her heart.

When they came suddenly upon the house of Drumcarro, almost
unexpectedly, although the added roar of the linn coming nearer made
them aware that the house could not be far off, Anne broke down
altogether. The house was faintly lighted, one or two windows up stairs
giving out a faint gleam through the darkness in honour of the
approaching event. The house door stood half open, the shutters were not
closed in the dining-room. That air of domestic disarray, of the
absorption of all thoughts in the tragedy going on up stairs which is
habitual to such moments, had stolen into the house. The two wayfarers
standing outside, both of them trembling with the strangeness of it, and
fear and emotion, could see some one sitting by the fire in the
dining-room with a bowed head. They grasped each other’s hands when they
saw it was their father. He was sitting by the side of the fire bending
forwards, his profile brought out against the dark mantel-piece by the
ruddy glow. Even Kirsteen’s stronger frame trembled a little at sight
of him, and Anne, no better than a helpless lay figure, hung upon her
sister’s arm without power of movement, stifling by force a terrified
cry. It would not have reached him in the tumult of natural noises
outside, but she became more frightened and helpless still when this cry
had burst from her lips. “Oh! come away, come away, I dare not face
him,” she said in Kirsteen’s ear. And Kirsteen too was daunted. She
abandoned the intention of entering by the open door, which had been her
first thought, and softly took the path which led to Marg’ret’s quarters
behind. Drumcarro heard the faint click of the latch as she opened the
gate. He rose up and listened while they shrank into the shelter of the
bushes. Then he came out of the door, and stood there looking out into
the darkness with a faint candle showing his own lowering countenance to
the watchers outside, but to him nothing. “I thought it might be the
doctor,” he said to himself, then went again to his seat by the dull
fire. Anne was no more than a bundle upon Kirsteen’s arm. She dragged
her as softly as might be to the lighted kitchen behind, and looking in
at the uncurtained window had the good fortune to catch Marg’ret’s eye.

“Ye have brought her with ye,” said Marg’ret half reproachfully when
Anne had been placed in a chair before the fire.

“She had the same right as I. We have both deserted the old house.”

“Oh, my bonny dear, but not the same. Kirsteen, my lamb--ye’re all well,
all well?”

Marg’ret searched with longing eyes the face that had so long been lost
to her. Some things she knew, many she divined. She asked no question
but looked and saw, and sighed and shook her head. The face was not the
girl’s face she knew; but she was not aware that the change in it had
come within the last six months, the setting of the mobile lines with a
certain fixedness, the mysterious depths that had come into the
laughing, flashing, soft, fierce eyes she knew, the eyes that were made
of light. Behind the light there was now a deep sea, of which the
meanings were hidden and manifold.

“There’s no question of me,” said Kirsteen, meeting her look
steadfastly, “but of my mother--”

“She is just herself,” said Marg’ret, “just herself, poor body. The end
is coming fast and she has little fear of it. Oh, I think very little
fear; but taken up with small things as she always was.”

“I will just go up--”

“Will ye go up? The Laird is about the house: and I am feared he will
make some stramash when he sees ye. If ye were to wait till he is in
bed? She has not said a word about ye all day, but I’ve seen her as if
she was listening. She’ll maybe have had some inkling from the Lord that
her bairn was coming. She’s real peaceable and contented,” said
Marg’ret, putting her apron to her eyes. “The Almichty is just dealing
with her like a petted bairn. She’s no feared--her that aye thought the
grasshopper a burden--I ken fine that she has been looking for ye the
livelang day.”

“I will just go up,” said Kirsteen again.

“And what am I to do with _her_?”

“Marg’ret, it’s Anne.”

“I ken weel who it is, Dr. Dewar’s wife; you might just have let her
bide with her bairns. What am I to do with her? It’s no her mother she’s
thinking o’. The Laird will never thole her in the house. He’ll just
take her with his foot like a bundle of claes, which is what she is, and
put her to the door.”

“You will take care of her, Marg’ret,” said Kirsteen. There was some
justice in Marg’ret’s description. Anne sat huddled up in a chair by the
fire holding out her hands to it now and then, moaning a little. She had
asked no question as they came in; perhaps she had heard the reply to
Kirsteen’s anxious inquiry. She was cold no doubt and miserable, and
beyond all afraid. When there was any sound in the house she drew
herself together with a shudder. “You will just take care of her,
Marg’ret; let her lie down upon your bed, and keep her warm, and when my
father has gone to his bed--”

“You will not wait for that yoursel’?”

Kirsteen’s answer was to walk away. She went through the passage with
her heart beating, and mounted the dark stair; there were few lights
about the house, a solitary miserable candle at the top of the stair
waving about in the wind that blew in from the open door, and another
placed on a small table near the head of Mrs. Douglas’s bed. The invalid
herself was quite in the dark shade with a curtain between her and this
light. The whiteness of her worn face on the pillow betrayed where she
was but little more. But by the bedside with the gleam of the candle
upon her soft, beautiful hair, and her face, which Kirsteen thought was
like the face of an angel, stood Jeanie, Jeanie woman-grown, the beauty
that all her sisters had expected her to be, radiant in colour and
expression. For the first moment the light that seemed to ray from
Jeanie was the only thing that Kirsteen saw. It was what she had
expected. It gave her almost a pang of sudden exquisite pleasure by her
mother’s deathbed.

“Did ye hear somebody, Jeanie, coming up the stair?”

“It will be Merran, mother, with the things for the night.”

“It canna be Merran; I know one foot from another though I’m a little
dull, just a little dull in my hearing. Look out and see if your
sister’s come.”

“Do you mean Mary, mother?”

“No, I’m not meaning Mary. She’s the one of all my bairns most like me,
folk say--the same  hair--not like your red heads--and Alexander
he was aye a brown-haired laddie. Eh, to think that I will never see one
of them again!--and I’m just quite content, not frettin’ at all. They’ll
be taken care of--they’ll get wives of their own. When they get
wives--or men either--there’s but little room for their mother. But I’m
not heeding--I’m just not heeding. I’m quite content. Look out, Jeanie,
and see if that was your sister at the door.”

Jeanie turned to do her mother’s bidding and found herself almost face
to face with a lady whom she thought at first she had never seen before.
She gave a little cry of instinctive alarm.

“Is she there?” said the mother faintly from the bed. “I knew she would
be there. Come to the other side, Kirsteen, that I may get the light
upon ye, and see it’s you. Ay, it’s just you--my bonny woman!--but
you’ve changed, you’ve changed.”

“No, mother--just the same Kirsteen.”

“In one way. I dinna doubt ye, my dear; but ye’ve come through trouble
and sorrow. I’m thinking there was something I had to say, but it’s
clean gone away out of my mind.” She had put out her hand to Kirsteen,
and was smiling faintly upon her from amidst the pillows. “I knew ye
were coming--I just heard the coach rattling all the day.”

“But, mother, tell me how you are? That’s the most important
thing--you’re easy, at least in no pain?”

“Oh, I’m just very easy. I’m easy about everything. I’m no tormenting
myself any more. I aye told ye I would never live to see my boys come
back. Ye would not believe me, but ye see it’s true. One thing’s just a
great blessing--I’ll be away myself before the next laddie goes.”

“Oh, mother, never mind that; tell me about yourself.”

Mrs. Douglas lay silent for a little while, and then she asked in her
soft, small voice, no longer querulous, “Kirsteen, have ye got a man?”

“No, mother.”

“It’s maybe just as well--it’s maybe better. You’ll give an eye to the
rest. Ye were always more like a mother than Mary. Give an eye to them.
This puir lassie here; she’ll be a wee forlorn when I’m away.”

“Oh, mother!” cried Jeanie, with an outburst of vehement tears.

“There’s something I wanted to tell ye--but it’s gone out of my mind.
Eh, when I think how many of ye have lain at my breast, and only the two
of ye here; but it’s no matter, it’s no matter. I’ve aye been a
complaining creature. Fourteen bairns is a heavy handful, and three of
them dead. My first little girlie of all I lost, and then one between
you and Robbie, and then--all of you weel in health, and like to live,
but just thae three. But that’s plenty to keep a woman’s heart. I have a
notion I’ll find them still little things when I win up yonder,” said
the dying woman, with a flicker of her feeble hand towards the dim roof.
A faint, ineffable smile was upon her face. “She was Alison, after my
mother,” she said.

The two daughters, one on each side of the bed, stood and watched while
this little monologue went on, Jeanie shaken now and then by convulsive
fits of weeping, Kirsteen too much absorbed in her mother for any other
sensation.

“So ye have no man?” said Mrs. Douglas again. “It’s maybe just as well;
you will be a stand-by for them all, Kirsteen, my bonny woman. I’m
thankful there’s one that is not marriet. You will just tell them all
when they come hame that I knew I would never see them more, but just
wore away at the last very easy, very easy and content. I’m waik, but
just bye ordinary comfortable, awfu’ light like, as if I could just
mount up on angels’ wings, ye mind, and flee--”

“It’s wings like eagles, mother,” said Jeanie, anxious for accuracy.

“Well, well, there’s little difference. Kirsteen, she’s very young,
younger than you were at her age. Ye’ll aye give an eye to Jeanie. She
may have need of it when her auld mother’s away. I’ve not been much
protection, ye’ll think, but still it’s a loss to a woman bairn.
Jeanie’s my youngest and Alison my first-born, and yet Jeanie’s a woman
and Alison a little playing bairn at heaven’s gate. Isna that strange?”
A little sound of laughter came from the bed. Never was dying so easy,
so pleasant and gentle. The sand was ebbing out a grain at a time.
Suddenly she roused herself a little, and put out again her hand to
Kirsteen. A little change came over her face. “I hear your father’s step
coming up the stair. But ye’ll no forsake me, Kirsteen--ye’ll not go
away?”

“Never while you want me, mother.”

“It will not be for long,” said the dying woman. Her gratitude was
disturbed by a little alarm; she grasped Kirsteen with her shadowy hand,
and held her fast.




CHAPTER XIV.


“Weel--how are ye now?” said Drumcarro, coming to his wife’s bedside.
His shaggy eyebrows were drawn together, so that his eyes gleamed small
from among the manifold puckers round them. He was not altogether
without feeling. He was sorry now that she was dying. He had never taken
much notice of her constant illness before. His voice was still gruff
and abrupt, and he had no kind things to say, but in his way he was a
little affected by the fact that she was lying, this weak creature to
whose presence and complaints he had been accustomed for so many years,
on the brink of the grave.

“I’m just very comfortable. Never you mind me, Neil, my man. Just go to
your bed, and if anything should happen Jeanie will give ye a cry. Your
father was never a man that could do without his night’s rest. And
there’s no need; I’m just as easy as I can be, and well taken care of.”
Mrs. Douglas was past the little wiles which women fall into when there
is a domestic despot to deal with. She forgot that it was a sin against
her husband that Kirsteen should be there. She turned her head from one
side to the other with a smile. “Real weel taken care of--between them,”
she said.

Drumcarro lifted his head and gazed fiercely at the figure on the other
side; the folds of his eyelids widened and opened up, a fierce glance of
recognition shot out of them. “How dared ye come here?” he said.

“To see my mother,” said Kirsteen.

“How dared ye come into my house?”

“I would have gone--to the gates of death when my mother wanted me. Let
me be, as long as she wants me, father; she’s so quiet and peaceable,
you would not disturb her. Let her be.”

He looked at her again, with a threatening look, as if he might have
seized her, but made no other movement. “Ye’ve done less harm than you
meant,” he said; “ye’ve brought no canailye into my house; ye’ll just
pass and drop with no importance, and have no mention in the family. Be
it so. It’s no worth my while to interfere; a lass here or a lass there
maitters nothing, so long as there’s no canailye brought into my house.”

“Neil,” said the mother from the bed, “we must just pray the Lord to
bless them a’ before we pairt. Fourteen of them between you and me--I’ve
just been naming them a’ before the Lord. Alison, she was the first; you
were terrible disappointed thinking there might maybe be no more.” Mrs.
Douglas once more laughed feebly at this mistake. “And then there was
Alexander, and ye were a proud man. And then Donald and William, and
then Anne, my bonny Anne, my first lass that lived--”

“Hold your peace, woman. Put out that name, damn her! confound her!
She’s none o’ mine.”

“And Neil that ye called Nigel, but I like it Neil best,” said the low
voice rippling on without interruption. “And syne Mary, and syne---- But
eh, it wearies me to name them a’. Their Maker just knows them a’ well,
puir things, some in heaven, and some in India---- and some----. Just
say with me, God bless them a’, fourteen bonnie bairns that are men and
women now--and some of them with bairns of their ain. To think all these
lads and lassies should come from me, always a waik creature--and no a
blemish among them all--not a thrawn limb, or a twisted finger, straight
and strong and fair to see. Neil, my man, take my hand that’s a poor
thin thing now, and say God bless them all!”

“What good will that do them? I’m for none of your forms and
ceremonies,” said Drumcarro, putting his hands deep in his pockets, “ye
had better try and get some sleep.”

“I’ll get plenty sleep by and by. Kirsteen, I would like to turn upon my
side, to see your father’s face. Neil, ye’ve been a good man to me.”

He started a little, evidently not expecting this praise.

“On the whole,” said the dying woman. “I was a silly thing when I was
young, but the bairns were always a great pleasure. But you’re a dour
man, Neil--ye canna forgive nor forget. Kirsteen, that ye put your curse
upon, she’ll be the stand-by for the whole house. Mind you what I say.
She’ll have no man, and she’ll be the stand-by----”

“No man will ever have her, ye mean. She’ll just live and die an auld
maid,” said Drumcarro, with a hoarse laugh.

“She’ll be the stand-by,” said Mrs. Douglas, “and maybe my poor Anne--”
She paid no attention to the interruption he made. “I would not wonder,”
she said with a faint smile, “if my poor Anne---- Eh, I would like to
see her little bairns, Kirsteen. Why are they not here?”

“If one of the confounded set comes to my door----”

“Oh, father,” cried Kirsteen, “hold your peace, and let her be.”

“That minds me,” said the dying woman; “give me your hand, Neil--or
rather take a hold of mine, for I’m very waik--like the time we were
marriet. Ay, that’s the way.” Though she was so weak her faint fingers
closed over the hard hand that unwillingly humoured her whim, and took
hers. “Now,” she said, “ye know it’s the man that’s the priest and king
in his own house. I’ll just say the amen. Neil, God bless them a’ every
one, and all belonging to them, for Jesus Christ’s sake, amen--amen!
that’s for His Son’s sake, ye know, in whom He is ever well pleased.
Amen! And many thanks to ye, my man, for doing my last bidding. The Lord
bless them a’, and all belonging to them, in heaven and in earth, and
the far places of the earth, for Jesus Christ’s sake. Amen!”

Drumcarro said no more, his rugged countenance lowered like a thunder
cloud, yet there were workings in the muscles of the weather-beaten
cheeks and throat half covered with grizzled hair. He drew his hand out
of hers, and looked for a moment at the marks of the weak fingers which
had so closed upon it, leaving an impress which died out as he gazed,
like the fingers themselves disappearing out of sight.

“Now we’ll all go to our beds,” said the faint voice cheerfully. “I’m
real glad we’ve just had that moment; for the man’s the priest--the
man’s the priest. I just said, amen--ye all heard me, just amen. Neil,
my man, go away to your bed.”

He hesitated a moment, then turned away. “Ye can give me a cry if
there’s any change,” he said to Jeanie as he passed; and then they could
hear his heavy steps going slowly along the passage, stopping for a
moment to blow out the flickering candle, and then the closing of his
door.

“I’m going to my bed too. I’m real happy and easy, and just ready for a
sleep; was it no a grand thing to get your father in such a good key,
and hear him bless them all?” said the patient with a little proud
flutter of joy, and then her eyes closed like the eyes of a child.
Kirsteen sent her younger sister also to bed, and made what arrangements
she could for the comfort and quiet of the dying woman. Many of the
appliances of nursing did not exist in those days, but affection and
good sense are perhaps after all the best appliances.

She sat down by the bedside, with a strange sensation as if she were in
a dream. The peacefulness about her was wonderful, so different from
anything she had expected. She had feared to find her mother as
querulous and wailing as ever, and to have probably a struggle over her
bed; possibly to be expelled from the house. Instead of this all was
quiet; everything given over into her hands. She sat going over the
wonderful things that had happened since she had left the place, her
terror of the step she had felt herself bound to take, her trembling
helplessness, the sustenance of her sweet and tender hope. And now that
hope was gone for ever, and all dreams, and every inspiring expectation.
Her life was blank though so full--no hidden heart in it any longer. She
would be the stand-by of her family. “That I will!” Kirsteen said to
herself; the same words she had said to him when he had whispered, “Will
ye wait?” She remembered this too with a forlorn sense of her own life
as of a thing apart, which went on shaping itself different from all
anticipations. She to be the stand-by of the family who had fled from it
so helpless and unfriended! And she to have that dim blank before her,
with no light ever to come out of it, whose heart had been fixed so
early upon such a hope! Perhaps the second pledge might end too in
unfulfilment like the first. At least she would have soothed the
conclusion of her mother’s fading life.

It was in the middle of the night that Anne was introduced to her
mother’s bedside. She had fallen asleep in Marg’ret’s bed, and had not
awakened for hours, sleeping the heavy sleep of fatigue and unaccustomed
excessive emotion. To travel in a postchaise all day, to take a terrible
walk in the dark with the light of a lantern, she who was accustomed to
Glasgow streets, to lie down to sleep fully dressed on a strange bed,
she who was used to retire punctually to rest at ten o’clock, with the
baby in its cradle beside her, and her husband to see that all was
right! When Anne woke and realized all the horrors of her position, come
here to attend a death-bed (of which, as of other painful things, she
had a great terror), and with the risk of being seen and seized by her
father, perhaps exposed to personal violence, perhaps turned out into
the dark night--and everything she was used to out of her reach--her
sensations were almost those of despair. If it had not been for the
superadded horrors of the dark road, she would have stolen out of the
house, and escaped. But she dared not alone face the darkness and
solitude, and the raging burn and roaring wind, which were like two wild
beasts on either side of the way. She thought of David sleeping quietly
at home, and all the children in their beds, with a wild pang of mingled
longing and injury. They could sleep while she was surrounded by these
terrors; and David had made her come in spite of herself, in spite of
her certainty that it would kill her. She got up in the wildest feverish
nervousness and misery, and looked at herself in Marg’ret’s little
looking-glass--a wild, pale, red-eyed, dishevelled creature, so entirely
unlike Mrs. Doctor Dewar. Oh, what should she do? The terrors of the
cowardly and ignoble are perhaps more dreadful than anything that can be
experienced by minds more highly endowed. No barrier of reason or
possibility appeared to Anne to limit the horrors that might happen to
her. She might be murdered there for anything she knew.

And it was with the greatest difficulty that she was got up stairs. She
was afraid of everything, afraid of the creak of the stairs, of her
father’s door, lest it should open upon her suddenly, and of her
mother’s death-bed. Anne was terribly afraid of death--always with a
personal terror lest she should see or hear something ghastly and
dreadful. “Oh, Kirsteen, it will just kill me,” she said. “What will
kill ye?” cried Kirsteen in indignation. “It is just a sight for the
angels.” But Anne was beyond the verge of such consolation. She dropped
down a helpless heap of clothes and tears by her mother’s bedside,
scarcely venturing a glance at the blanched and shrunken white image
that lay in her mother’s bed. And by this time the dying woman had
wandered beyond the consciousness of what was about her. She smiled and
opened her eyes for a moment when she was appealed to, but what she said
had no connection with the circumstances about her. “Mother, it is
Anne--Mother, Anne’s here. Anne’s come to see ye--Mother, have ye not a
word for Anne?” “Anne, is that her name? No, my bonny dear, but Alison
after my mother. She’s the biggest of the three, and look at her gold
hair like Jeanie’s.” The white face was illuminated with the most
beautiful smile--the half-opened eyes had a dazzled look of happiness.
She opened them faintly with the one recognition that remained in them.
“Eh, Kirsteen, but it’s bonny, bonny!” “Mother,” cried Kirsteen with her
arm under the pillow gently moving and changing the position of the
sufferer, as she turned from one side to another. “Mother! one word for
poor Anne!” Her mother only turned once more those dazzled faint eyes
with the last spark of mortal consciousness in them to Kirsteen and
smiled. She had gone out into the green pastures and by the quiet
waters, and recognized earthly calls no more.

“Oh, Kirsteen, never mind, oh, never mind. Now that I’ve seen her I’ll
just creep away.”

“Come here,” said Kirsteen full of pity, “and ye can give her a kiss
before ye go.”

Anne dragged herself up, trembling and tottering. She would rather have
dared the dark road than touch that white face. But what her sister
ordained she had to do. She bent over the bedside with terror to give
the required kiss.

Something had roused Drumcarro at that moment from his disturbed
slumbers. He had thrown himself on his bed half dressed, being after all
human and not without some feeling in respect to the poor companion of
so many long years. Perhaps he had heard something of the progress of
Anne and her supporters up the stairs. He came out now with a swing of
his door, pushing open that of the sick room. The first thing he saw was
the distracted face of Anne put forward reluctantly towards her mother,
against the dark moreen curtains of the bed. She saw him at the same
moment, and with the shriek of a wild creature at the touch of the
slayer sank out of sight, prone upon the floor, keeping a despairing
hold upon the folds of Kirsteen’s dress. Scorn of the coward no doubt
was in Drumcarro’s mind as well as rage at the intruder. He made a
stride across the room, and caught her by the shoulder forcing her to
her feet. The unusual sounds roused the dying mother. She struggled up,
looking wildly round, “What was that, what was that? Oh, dinna make a
noise, bairns, and anger your father.” Then her dim faculties returned
to their previous impression. “Neil, Neil--you’re the priest--Say it
once more--The Lord bless them a’ and all belonging to them, for Jesus
Christ’s sake, Amen--for ever and ever, Amen!”

She put her wasted hands upon her breast and fell back on her pillows.
The end had come--and everything had now to give way to the presence of
death. Drumcarro thrust his trembling daughter violently from him with a
muttered oath, and all except Anne gathered round the bed. The solitary
candle flickered with a faint light upon the group, Kirsteen on one side
with her arm under the pillow to ease the faint movements of the dying,
the father’s dark and weather-beaten countenance lowering over the bed,
Marg’ret behind, and Jeanie more like an angel than ever in her white
nightdress, startled by the sensation that had gone through the house,
appearing in the doorway. A last gleam of light in the mother’s fading
eyes rested upon this white angelic figure. No doubt the departing soul
took it for the guide that was to lead her to the skies.

Mr. Douglas put his hand, not without reverence, over the closing eyes.
He took out his watch to note the time. To kiss the dead face, or make
any demonstration of love or sorrow would have been impossible, and a
contradiction of all his habits and tenets: but the man was subdued, and
there was something in this presence which obliterated for the moment
all violent impulses. He said aloud but softly, “Twenty minutes past
three in the morning,” and closing his big watch with a sharp sound
which jarred upon the silence turned away. He even laid his hand almost
tenderly for an instant upon the golden head of Jeanie as he passed her,
and closed his own door with little noise. It was his only tribute to
the dead, and yet it was a real tribute. No harsh sound nor violence
could intrude there. Perhaps he was ashamed to have startled her, and
thankful even in his arbitrary soul that she had not known what it was.

Some moments of absolute silence passed during which Anne did not know
what to do. She had time to steal away, but was afraid to do so--not
sure that her father might not be lurking, lying in wait for her outside
of the door. The grip of his fingers on her shoulder seemed still to
burn her, and yet she had not received any harm. And this was not
all--for awe and superstitious fear and some natural feeling also kept
her still. She might see some white image of her mother more terrible
still than the wrath of the other parent if she ventured out of the
shelter of human society even in the death-chamber. Tears were hot
behind her eyes, waiting to burst. She did not dare to approach, to look
again at the face out of which life had just departed. The only movement
of which she was capable was to put forth a hand and grasp Kirsteen’s
dress, as at last, after that long moment of silence and homage to the
departed life, the watchers began to move again.

How soon that has to be! A few inevitable tears, a sense of utter quiet
and relief after the struggle, instinctive little cares which Marg’ret
could not postpone, to close the eyes, to straighten the dead arms, to
smooth the sheets in the decorum of death. Marg’ret’s eyes were full of
tears, but she knew well all that had to be done. “You must go and lie
down, my dear, and leave the rest to me,” she whispered. “All’s done
that you can do,” and it was only then that Anne recurred to their
minds, an anxiety the more, and that Kirsteen felt as she moved her
sister’s hold upon her dress.

Four o’clock in the morning, the darkest moment of the winter night! The
little troubled feminine party withdrew to the warm kitchen, the only
place in the house where there was warmth and light, to consult what
they should do. It had been Kirsteen’s intention to leave her father’s
house at once as she had come, her duty being over. But Jeanie’s anxious
entreaty bursting forth among the tears in which her simple sorrow found
relief, and a sense of the charge she had seemed to take from her
mother’s hand like some office and trust conferred, changed the mood of
Kirsteen. Her father had endured her presence, her young sister needed
her; Anne was her chief hindrance in these circumstances. But even for
Anne the bitterness of death was past. It was all over, and she had
sustained little harm; all that any one could ask of her now was to get
away as quietly as possible; the worst was over; Anne was capable of
enjoying the cup of tea which Marg’ret made haste to prepare. She even
was persuaded to “try an egg” with it, as she had “a journey before
her.” It is true that for a moment she was thrown into fresh despair by
the suggestion that Kirsteen was not to accompany her home.

“Oh, what will I do?” cried Anne. “Walk that awful way in the dark, and
take up the chaise at the end, and all alone, with nobody with me? Oh,
Kirsteen, if I had known, you would never have got me to leave my
family, me that never goes a step without my man!”

“It’s a great pity,” said Marg’ret, “that you put Mrs. Doctor Dewar to
all that trouble, Kirsteen.”

“And so it is,” said Anne. “I told her so; I said I was not fit for it,
to be trailed away to the Highlands at a moment’s notice. And my poor
mother that was too far gone to mind, or to ask about my family. And
what good could I do? But you might as well speak to the rocks as to
Kirsteen when she has taken a thing into her head. And now what is to
become of me?”




CHAPTER XV.


The question how to dispose of Anne was finally settled by the evident
necessity of sending Duncan, the man from the farm, into the town for
various necessary things, and to call at the merchant’s and other
indispensable errands. Marg’ret decided that he should take the cart,
and convey Mrs. Doctor Dewar to the place where the postchaise had been
left, an arrangement to which Anne did not object, for Anne was one of
the women who have not much confidence in other women, and she was very
willing to exchange Kirsteen’s protection and care for that of a man,
even though he was only Duncan. She made her preparations for departure
more cheerfully than could have been supposed, and even set out in the
dark with Kirsteen and the lantern to walk a part of the way so that the
sound of the cart might not be heard by Drumcarro, with resignation.
They were interrupted however as they stole out of the house, by a
sudden rush upon them of Jeanie who had been sent back to bed, but lying
weeping there had heard the little stir of the departure, carefully as
they had subdued every sound. Jeanie thought it was Kirsteen who was
abandoning her, and rose and rushed to the door still in her nightdress
to implore her sister to stay. “Oh! if ye will not stay, take me with
you, oh, take me with you, Kirsteen!” she cried, flinging herself upon
her sister’s shoulder.

“Oh, Jeanie, whisht, whisht! you will make a noise and wake my father. I
am not going away.”

“Oh, take me with you, Kirsteen!” cried the girl too much excited to
understand what was said. “Oh! dinna leave me here.” She clung to
Kirsteen’s arm embracing it in both her own. “You would not leave me if
you knew! Oh! you would take me with you if you knew. Kirsteen!
Kirsteen!”

It was Anne who interfered with words of wisdom. “Are you out of your
senses, Jeanie?” she said. “Take ye away from your home, and your
father’s house? Kirsteen may be foolish enough but she is not so mad as
that.”

“Oh! Kirsteen,” continued Jeanie imploringly, putting her wet cheek
against her sister’s, rubbing herself against her like a child, “hear
nobody but me! Bide with me, Kirsteen, or take me with you. I will just
die--or worse--if I am left here.”

It was not until Marg’ret had come alarmed from her kitchen to bid them,
“Oh, whisht, bairns, or ye’ll waken your father,” that Jeanie could be
persuaded to silence, and to believe in her sister’s promise to return.
The sounds though so subdued still made a whispering through the hall,
and an alarming movement that shook the house overhead as if Drumcarro
himself had been roused to see what was going on. This precipitated the
departure of Anne, who, frightened as she was for the dark road and the
chill of the morning, was still more alarmed at the idea of her father’s
appearance, and hastened out from the one danger to dare the other,
almost with alertness pulling Kirsteen with her, with a clutch of her
other arm. Anne’s spirit was roused by the episode which had just
passed. She was aware that she was not herself strong or able to move
about unprotected, or take any separate step on her own responsibility,
but she had a great confidence in her own judgment respecting others.
She almost forgot to think of the terrors of the dark in her desire to
make Kirsteen see her duty in respect to Jeanie, and to set everything
right. She panted a little as she spoke walking on in the darkness, with
the lantern throwing a faint light upon the ground at her feet, but
though it affected her breath, it did not affect her certainty of being
able to give good advice.

“Kirsteen--ye will be very wrong--if ye yield to that bairn. She is
little more--than a bairn. She is maybe nervish with a person dead in
the house. You will say it is weak--but I’m nervish myself.
Kirsteen!”--Anne had made a longer pause to take breath,--“ye had ay a
great confidence in yourself. But you see you make a mistake whiles.
Like bringing me here. David--was just silly as well as you. He thought,
if I came, it might mend--maitters--and be good for the bairns. But
I--was right ye see. When a person’s dying--they’ve no time to
think--about other folk.”

“All that my mother thought was about other folk--if you call her
children other folk.”

“Ay, in a kind of a general way. But she never said ‘Where’s Anne? How
many bairns has she?--and is the doctor doing well?’--Which is what I
would have expected. No that I did--expect it,” said Anne panting. “Oh,
Kirsteen, we’ll be in--the burn--if ye do not take care! She
never--asked for me, at all,” Mrs. Dewar continued. “I might have been
safe--in my bed--at home. A long day in a postchaise--and now another
long day--and I’ll get back perished with hunger and cold--and if I
havena an illness, as Marg’ret says--and just for nothing,” said
Anne--“nothing! for all you said--David and you.”

Kirsteen said nothing in reply, but instinctively quickened her pace a
little. She heard the rumble of the cart in the darkness round a corner
which was to deliver her from Anne’s wisdom and helplessness, the first
of which was worse than the last. And after a while the gleam of
another lantern, the horse’s hoofs and jog of the cart guided them to
the spot where Duncan stood, his ruddy face grave with sympathy. He made
a little remark about the waeful occasion, and the need of supporting
God’s will, raising his bonnet reverently; and then Mrs. Dewar was
helped into the cart, and went rumbling away into the darkness, still
relieved for a time by the gleams growing fainter and fainter thrown by
Duncan’s lantern from side to side.

The wind had fallen and the burn ran more softly, as Kirsteen walked
home. She was very tired, in that state of exaltation which extreme
exhaustion and sorrow sometimes bring, as if lifted out of herself
altogether into a clear, still atmosphere of utter sadness, yet relief.
The active suffering was over, she was incapable of further pain, but
unutterably sad and sorrowful, hushed out of all complaining. The
darkness enveloped her and soothed her, hiding her from all the world so
that she could go on, weeping all to herself with no one to ask why or
how.

    “True loves I may get many an ane,
        But minnie ne’er anither.”

These words kept wandering through her mind involuntarily while the
tears fell down, and her mouth quivered with something like a smile. The
futile contrast now, to her who could have no true love but one, and no
second mother. She went on very softly in the dark, as in a dream,
feeling in her face the freshness of the mountain air and the turn of
the night towards morning--silently weeping as she walked. The greater
of her losses was altogether secret, a thing to be known of none.
Neither of her sorrows was for the public eye. Her life, which was so
far from this and so different, awaited her with labours and cares
unknown to this solitude, and she had much to do with which no loss or
sorrow could interfere. She was to be the stand-by of the family, she
who had fled from it to find a shelter among strangers. She must not
even sit down to weep for her mother. Only thus could she allow herself
the indulgence of tears. The darkness was sweet to her, wrapping her
round, keeping all her secrets. The heavens did not open to show her any
beatitude, the landscape which she loved was all hidden away as if it
did not exist. Nor were there any ecstatic thoughts in her heart of
reunion or heavenly rapture. There was a long, long weary road
stretching before her, years that seemed endless going on and on,
through which she must walk, weeping only in the dark, smiling and busy
through the day. Kirsteen made up her mind to all that was before her in
that solitary walk, going towards her desolate home. In a day or two she
would have left it, probably for ever, and gone back to a manifold and
many- life. The stand-by of the family! She had always intended
this, and now there was consecration on her head.

The lights in Drumcarro shone blurred through the dark, a window here
and there with rays of reflection round it hanging suspended in the
night, no walls visible, a faint illumination for the dead. Duncan’s
wife had come in to help, and a silent, solemn bustle was going on, sad,
yet not without an enjoyment in it. Merran went and came up and down
stairs with an occasional sniff and sob, and the importance of a great
event was in the hushed house. Save for a birth or marriage there had
never been so much suppressed excitement in Drumcarro--even Marg’ret was
swept by it, and moved about, observing many punctilios, with a tremor
of emotion which was not altogether painful. She had put the best sheets
upon the bed, and covered the looking-glass with white, and put away
everything that belonged to the usages of life. Kirsteen paused for a
moment to look at the white, serene face upon the pillows, with all the
white, cold surroundings of the death chamber--and then went noiselessly
into the room which had been her own, where Jeanie lay fast asleep,
exhausted with sorrow and trouble, upon one of the beds. She undressed
for the first time since she had left London, and lay down on the other.
But she was too tired and overworn to sleep. She lay with wide-open eyes
in the dark, thinking over and over all the circumstances through which
she found herself again an inmate of her father’s house. It seemed an
endless time before the first greyness of dawn crept into the room,
carrying with it a whole world of the past, beginning, as it seemed to
Kirsteen, a new life of which she but dimly realized the burdens and
anxieties. There was her father to think of, how he would receive her
now that the protection of her mother’s dying presence was withdrawn.
Whether he would allow her to stay--and what she could answer to
Jeanie’s cry of distress, “Oh, take me with you!” Anne was a fool and
yet she had spoken wisely. The daughter who had herself escaped from
home was the last who could take another away. Perhaps the bonds of
nature seemed all the stronger now to Kirsteen because she had herself
broken them, because even now she shuddered at the thought of being
again bound by them. Even when it is but an interval of a few years
which has made the change, a woman who has gone out into the world and
encountered life is slow to believe that a girl’s troubles can be so
heavy as to warrant such a step. They were in her own case she may
allow--but how to believe that there is anything in a father’s power
tragic enough to make life unbearable for another, or how in Jeanie’s
childlike existence such a necessity should arise, made Kirsteen smile
with half shame of herself who had set the example, half amazement at
her little sister’s exaggerated feelings. It could be nothing surely but
fear of her father’s jibes and frowns. Neither of these things alarmed
Kirsteen now. And who could be harsh to Jeanie?--not even her father,
though she was but a girl!

While the elder sister thought thus, the younger stirred a little and
turned towards her. The daylight was still grey but clear enough to
make the sweet little countenance visible. Jeanie’s yellow hair was all
decently smoothed under her nightcap according to the decorous fashion
of the time. And the little frilled cap surrounding her face made her
look something between an infant and a nun, unspeakably childlike,
innocent and pure to her sister’s admiring eyes. But Jeanie’s face grew
agitated and unquiet as the faint light stole over it and the moment of
waking approached. She put out her hands and seemed to clutch at
something in the air--“I will not go--I will not go--I will go with none
but Kirsteen,” she cried in her sleep. Then, her voice growing thick and
hurried, “No--no--I’ll not do it--I’ll never go--no, no, no.” Jeanie
struggled in her dream as if she were being dragged away struggling with
something stronger than herself. Suddenly she woke, and sat up in her
bed with a dazed look round her, and trouble in every line of her
puckered eyelids. “What is it, Jeanie?” She turned round and saw
Kirsteen, with a sudden lightening of her countenance, as if the sun had
risen, “Oh, Kirsteen, if you’re there! nobody will meddle with me if
you’re there!” “What is it--what is it, Jeanie?” Jeanie looked round
again as if still unassured. “I was only dreaming,” she said.

And there was little time for further inquiries since Marg’ret just then
came into the room. She was very tender to Jeanie but anxious to get her
roused and dressed and sent down stairs, “to give the laddies, poor
things, their breakfast.” Marg’ret had restrained herself with a great
effort that neither might be disturbed before the time after such a
broken night. She herself had not been in bed at all, and felt it quite
natural that it should be so, her fatigue going off with the coming of
the morning, and a still excitement filling all her veins. The loss of
the mistress was perhaps more to Marg’ret than to any one in the house;
but Kirsteen too was more to her than any other. She would have a long
time to indulge her grief, but not long to hear the story and enter into
all the feelings of her child. She had restrained with what was a true
self-sacrifice her eagerness and loving curiosity. When she sat down now
by Kirsteen’s bedside it was with a sigh of satisfaction and relief.
“And now, my own bairn, the pride of my heart!” Marg’ret said.

The conversation lasted a long time. Their letters had been frequent for
the habit of the time, once every quarter of a year at the least they
had exchanged their good wishes and such information to each other about
the other as could be conveyed by “hand o’ write”; but neither of them
had any habit of letter-writing, and there was much to be added, to fill
in the framework of fact which Kirsteen had communicated from time to
time. Everything indeed had to be told from the time of her arrival in
London until the present moment. Marg’ret sat crying softly, holding her
hands, keeping up a low murmur of commentary. “Eh, but I’m glad my
sister Jean had it in her power.” “Eh, but she’s a fortunate woman to
have ye!” “Eh, if I had but been there!” she exclaimed at intervals,
pride and satisfaction mingled with an envy of her sister which
Marg’ret’s better feeling could scarcely overcome. “I am just an ill
woman, full of envy and all uncharitableness. I would fain, fain have
been the one. I would have held ye up in my arms, and let no harm come
near ye! I couldna have seen your bonny fingers spoilt with sewing,” she
cried with outbursts of tears. But when Kirsteen came to the story of
the last year, Marg’ret listened upon her knees, her head bent down upon
the hands which she held clasped in her own, a few sobs bursting from
her breast, her lips pressed in a passion of sympathy which had no words
upon Kirsteen’s hands. The story was told very briefly in a few words.
And then that chapter was closed, and no more was said.

“What is it that ails Jeanie?” asked Kirsteen, after she had come to the
end of her tale, and Marg’ret had resumed her seat by the bed. “Tell me
what has happened to her; there is something on her mind.”

“Hoots,” said Marg’ret drying her eyes, “there is little on it, but what
is on most lassies’ minds--most likely a braw marriage so far as I can
see. There is a gentleman that is up in yon lodge on the hill above
Glendyer. It’s said to be for the fishing--but first it was said to be
for the shooting--and my opinion is it’s neither for the one nor the
other, but for our bit bonny Jeanie. It is just what I always said, even
to the Laird himself. She is the bonniest creature in all this country
from Clyde to the sea.”

“But she would not start in her sleep like that, nor cry and pray to me
to take her with me, if that was all. And who is the man?”

“Not like Glendochart, though he’s a clever gentleman and a real good
man to her that has the wit to guide him. A young lad, long and straight
and with a bonny black e’e--and a clever tongue, but leein’, for he says
very ceevil things to me. He’s ceevil to every one about the place, and
great friends with the Laird--and I canna tell what ails her at him, if
there’s anything ails her at him. She was just real pleased to see him
till twa three weeks ago; and then she took an ill turn--but wherefore I
canna say. Wha can say what whimsies come into a lassie’s mind?--and
I’ve been muckle taken up,” said Marg’ret. She paused a moment, and if
she had been a Roman Catholic would have crossed herself; the impulse
was the same, though nothing would have more horrified a Scotch
Protestant than to be told so. She paused, and in a low voice said,
“Muckle taken up--with her that needs nae mortal’s service mair--”

And there was silence between them for a moment, and thought, that
travels so fast, stopped remorseful with a sense of compunction, feeling
how recent was the event, and how swift was the current of life which
had already began to flow.

“You have not told me who he is?” said Kirsteen presently in a subdued
tone.

“Well,” said Marg’ret rousing herself with a smile of pride and
pleasure, “his is a kind of what they ca’ incognity at the lodge; but
I’m thinking, though I’m not quite sure, that it’s just one of the
Duke’s sons.”

“One of the Duke’s sons,” cried Kirsteen aghast.

“Well, my bonny dear! And wherefore no?--the Douglases are as good blood
as any in Scotland, if it were the Queen herself--”

“Oh, Marg’ret,” cried Kirsteen, “my poor little Jeanie! Do ye think she
cares for this man?”

“I make nae doubt ye are used to grander persons than that; but it’s no
just ceevil to call the young lord ‘this man.’”

“Ye don’t understand.--Oh! ye don’t understand,” cried Kirsteen,
wringing her hands. “The blood of the Douglases may be a very fine
thing, but it will not make her a match for the Duke’s son--Marg’ret,
you that have so much sense! And what does my father say?”

“I mind the time,” said Marg’ret, “when ye wouldna have said I didna
understand. Maybe my sister Jean--Oh, my bonny dear, forgive me, I’m
just a jealous fool, and I didna mean it. But there’s naething in it
that’s hard to understand; a bonny lad that’s young and ganging his ain
gait--and he sees a bonny lass, that is just like a flower, the pride of
the place. Is he to wait and reckon, will my father be pleased, and
will my leddy mother be pleased? Set them up! Not to be owerproud of a
Douglas in their house, and a beauty like Jeanie. The pride used to be
on our side once,” said Marg’ret, tossing her head, “if a’ tales be
true.”

“It must have been a long time ago,” said Kirsteen; “and my father, what
does he say?”

“I never saw the laird so father-like--no since the day when I put your
brother Alexander into his arms, that’s now the Cornel and a great man
among the blacks in India. I mind the gleam in his face when he got his
son, and thought upon all the grand things that would come with the
lad-bairn. Ye ken yoursel’ he never heeded a lass he had. But when he
sees my lord coming like a little colley doguie after our Jeanie,
following her wherever she goes, there’s the same look upon his face. I
was the first to tell him,” said Marg’ret with pride, “that it wasna
just a bonny lass that bairn would be, but a beauty to be kent about the
world. And now he sees it himsel’. What your father says?--He just says
naething for pleasure and pride.”

“Oh, Marg’ret--I fear, I fear, that this will be the worst of all.”

“And what is there that’s ill among ye, that ye speak of the worst of
a’. There’s Mrs. Doctor Dewar just a very comfortable-like person,
that’s done weel enough for hersel’. She’s a poor creature with little
heart, wrapt up in her common man and her little vulgar bairns. But that
is just a’ she would have been fit for whether or no. And there’s Leddy
Glendochart that is a real credit to the family, and has travelled, and
can knap English with the best--far better than you. And there’s
yourself, Kirsteen, that makes all the grand London leddies stand about.
And where is the ill among ye, that our bonny little Jeanie should be
the worst of a’?”

Marg’ret raised her voice unconsciously as she gave forth this flourish,
with her head in the air and all her banners waving. But the sound of
her own utterance brought her back with a shock to the reality of
things. She gave a low cry. “Eh, to think I should forget myself and
brag and boast--with her, just an angel of God lying ben the house.”

And once more Marg’ret paid a little hasty hot tribute of tears to the
presence, now so solemn, but which till now had counted for so little
amid the agitations of the family. During those days of mourning, at
least the mistress could not be altogether forgotten.

Mary and her husband arrived from Glendochart in the afternoon of that
day. She was very full of explanations as to how it was impossible to
come sooner, and how the illness had gone on so long, she had no belief
in its speedy ending. She went up dutifully to the death-chamber, and
shed a natural tear or two and came down again with her handkerchief to
her eyes. “I thought my mother would have seen us all out, I never mind
of her anything but ill,” she remarked, her ideas still being Scottish
though her voice, since her visit to London, had taken on what she
considered an English accent. “We had got to think, Glendochart and me,
that she would go on as long as any of us. It was a great shock. If I
had thought there was danger, I would have been here.”

Then there was a little natural family conversation and a few more
natural tears. And Kirsteen gave her sister an account of the last hours
which she had witnessed, which Mary listened to with due gravity and a
little feeling, saying at intervals, “My poor mother!” “She had always a
very feeling heart!” “She was always so proud of her family!” as
occasion required. “And what did my father say when he saw you,
Kirsteen? I did not think you would dare to come, but Glendochart
thought ye would dare anything, and it appears he knew better than me.”

Kirsteen repressed the spark of resentment which this speech called
forth. “My father said little to me. He made no objection, but he was
not kind to Anne.”

“To Anne!” Mary cried with horror, looking round lest any one should
hear.

“I brought her, that she might see her mother before she died. But I am
not unwilling to allow,” said Kirsteen, “that it was a mistake. My
mother took no notice of her, and my father--I did it for the best, but
she came against her will--and it was a mistake.”

“Little doubt of that,” said Mary; “but I’m very glad ye see it,
Kirsteen, for it’s not often ye’ll yield to say ye have made a mistake.
And it will be a lesson to you another time.”

“Let us hope so,” said Kirsteen. “There is one thing I would fain have
ye do, and that will save me maybe from making another. Mary, our little
Jeanie is not happy, I cannot tell why.”

“It would be very unnatural if she were happy, when her mother died this
morning.”

“It is not that. Grief is one thing and trouble is another. She has
something on her mind. Will ye take her back with ye to Glendochart, and
take care of her, when I go away?”

“Take her back? And who would be left with my father, to keep him
company? And the two callants, that have nobody to look after them?”

“Marg’ret would look after them. And my father wants no company. Jeanie
will miss my mother more than any of us.”

“You will not miss her,” said Mary; “I well believe that. But me that
came to see her every six months.”

“Still that is different from Jeanie that has been always here. The
little thing will be very solitary. There may be people about that are
not company for the like of her. I could not take her, it would not be
allowed.”

“I hope, Kirsteen, you will put nothing like that into Jeanie’s head.
You to take her! There are many things ye must have forgotten to propose
that.”

“I do not propose it. On the contrary I ask you to take her. I am not
easy about her. I would not like to have her left here.”

“Do you think because you could not put up with your home that nobody
can put up with it?” said Mary. “Ye are just far mistaken, Kirsteen.
Jeanie is a contented creature, of a quiet mind, and she’ll do very well
and keep very happy doing her duty to her father. None of us want to be
hard upon you, but perhaps if my mother had not had all the charge left
upon her, poor body, she might have had a longer and a more peaceful
life; when the daughters of the house just take their own way--”

“You did not stay long after me,” said Kirsteen, out of patience.

“I was very different,” said Mary, holding up her head. “I had my duty
to my husband to think of; a married woman cannot please herself.
You,--it was just your own fancy, but I had to think of Glendochart, for
the Scripture says ye are to leave your parents and your father’s
house.”

Kirsteen was silent and said no more.




CHAPTER XVI.


The funeral, according to the dreary custom of the time, did not take
place for nearly a week, and in the meantime there was a great subdued
bustle in the house of mourning. It was rather the house of what they
all called _mournings_, or _murninse_, in the plural, than of grief. The
mistress lay still and white in her coffin, locked up and shut away,
more drearily separated from all living thoughts and ways than had she
been in the grave; but the black gowns and bonnets that were intended to
“show respect” to her were being manufactured everywhere, in almost
every room but hers. Miss Macnab was throned in the parlour as at the
time when she came to make the ball dresses, and not less absorbed in
the perfection of her art and the fit of every garment, while Kirsteen
looked on with something of the suppressed amusement with which a great
scholar contemplates the village pedagogue who taught him his first
Latin, or an artist the house-painter who first showed him the uses of
the brush. How far already had all their thoughts drifted from the dead
mother who was the cause of this subdued commotion, and of so much more
stir and life than for a long time had been in the house! But yet there
were many things that were intimately connected with that poor lady. All
her little secrets were disclosed. Mary began almost immediately to
clear out the drawers and wardrobes in which her mother’s old dresses
and old stores of every kind had accumulated. She turned out the old
pockets of which Mrs. Douglas had many, some made in silk to wear
outside her gown, some of strong linen to wear below, and which were
emptied out with all their countless stores, pathetically insignificant,
not without many a critical remark. “There was never anybody like my
mother for rubbish in her pockets. It’s just like a clatter of old iron
to hear the keys jingling. And what did she ever do with keys?--with
everything in Marg’ret’s hand. I cannot tell what to do with these old
gowns, unless we give them to the old bodies in the clachan, for they’re
past fashion and past wearing, and just rubbitch like all the rest.”

“Could you not let them be? Such as they are, they are part of my
mother--at least to me,” said Kirsteen.

“Why would I let them be? Just to gather dust and cumber the earth, and
fill presses that there may be need of for living folk. I am not a
wasteful person, as maybe in London and among all your heaps of claes
you may be tempted to be. They are little more than old rags, and what
my mother could mean by keeping them, I cannot divine, but still they
might be of use to the old bodies in the clachan. Just bring them all
down into the parlour in your arms, Merran, and I’ll sort them there.
And ye can clear out the big hanging press; it might be wanted for Miss
Jeanie, or when I come over myself on a visit, for there’s very little
room for hanging up a good gown in this house.”

Kirsteen left her sister to this congenial occupation, feeling the sight
of the old, well-remembered gowns, upon which she had hung in her
childhood, a sight too pitiful to be endured. But Mary divided them into
bundles, and tied them up in napkins, apportioning to the “poor bodies”
about, each her share. “If they will not do for themselves, they’ll make
frocks out of them for their grandchildren,” Mary said. She was very
thoughtful and considerate of the poor bodies; and she gave Jeanie many
lectures upon her duties, now that she was the only one left at home. “I
hope you’ll not allow yourself to be led away by anything Kirsteen can
say to you. Of course we will be aye glad to see you at Glendochart, but
in the meantime your duty is at home. What would my father do without a
woman in the house? And what would come of the callants? It may be a
little dull for you at first, but you must just never mind that. But
don’t let yourself be led away by Kirsteen, who is just wilfulness
itself,” said Mary. Jeanie sat very still, and listened, looking
wistfully at her mother’s old gowns, but she had nothing to say in
reply.

Miss Eelen came over to Drumcarro for the funeral, but not with the
intention of following the mournful procession to the grave. This was a
thing which was contrary to all Scotch customs--a thing unheard of. The
men attired in their “blacks,” with deep white “weepers” on their cuffs,
and great hat-bands with flowing ends of crape, formed a long line
marching two and two, with pauses now and then to change the bearers
along the mournful wintry road. The women sat within, keeping together
in one room, and firing off little minute guns in the way of mournful
remarks, as they sat solemnly doing nothing, not even looking out to see
the object of this lugubrious ceremony carried away to her last rest.
Miss Eelen bore the part of a kind of mistress of the ceremonies on this
sad occasion. She sat in her weepers and her crape, which was not new
like the others’ but kept for such occasions, in the high chair which
had been Mrs. Douglas’s, with a white handkerchief in her hand, and said
at intervals, “Poor Christina--she was a fine creature. Your mother, my
dears, was a real, right-thinking woman. She was from the south, and
ignorant of some of our ways, but her meaning was always good. She was
very fond of her family, poor body. All those laddies--and not one of
them to help to lay her head in the grave, except the two little ones,
poor things.”

Kirsteen stood leaning against the window watching through the shutters
the mournful black line as it moved away, while Jeanie at her feet,
holding by her dress, followed vicariously through her sister’s eyes the
progress of the procession. They heard the tramp, recognisable among the
others, of the bearers, as they straightened themselves under their
burden, and then the sound of the slow, irregular march. “Can ye see it,
Kirsteen? Is it away? Is that it passing? Oh, my mother, my mother!”
cried Jeanie. She held fast by Kirsteen’s dress, as if there was
strength and support in it; and Kirsteen stooped and raised her up when
the sound of the measured tramp had died away. “Now,” she said, “all is
gone--the very last. And the time is come when we must begin our common
lives again.”

“She was indeed a fine creature,” said Miss Eelen with a little flourish
of her handkerchief. “I mind when she came first here, a delicate bit
thing, that never looked as if she would live.”

“She was always delicate,” said Mary taking up the response.

“And think of all the bairns she had--a fine stirring family.”

“Fourteen of us,” said Mary.

“Eleven living, and all a credit--that is to say--but I name no names,”
said Miss Eelen.

“It is perhaps better not,” said Mary.

Kirsteen whispered in her little sister’s ear that she could bear this
no longer, and taking Jeanie’s hand rose to leave the room. She was
stopped by Mary’s reproving voice--“Where are ye taking Jeanie,
Kirsteen? Ye are not going out on the day of my mother’s funeral?”

“At least leave the innocent bairn,” said Miss Eelen in a voice of
solemn command. “A day like this should be like a Lord’s day in a
house.”

“Or worse,” Mary added with tremendous seriousness--“for the Sabbath
comes once in a week, but your mother’s funeral but once in a lifetime.”

The words came surging back into Kirsteen’s mind again--

    “True loves I may get many an ane,
      But minnie ne’er anither.”

Her heart felt as if it must burst, and yet it was something like a
laugh that broke from her, as she was thus reproached for levity. “I am
not likely to forget that,” she said. Jeanie clung to her as she left
the others to their antiphone. The sound of the familiar linn seemed to
have come back to dominate all sounds as before, when she stole out at
the back of the house, Jeanie always following. It was a grey mild
wintry day, a day such as is consolatory to the overwrought spirit. The
two sisters seated themselves on the fallen trunk of a tree on the bank
near the head of the linn. The softened rush of the water with no storm
and but little wind in the air filled the atmosphere with a soothing
hush of sound. Jeanie laid her head upon her sister’s knee, hiding her
face, and sobbing softly like a child in its mother’s lap when the storm
of woe is overpast; Kirsteen who had no tears at her command save those
that welled quietly into her eyes from time to time without observation,
smoothed tenderly with one hand the girl’s soft and beautiful hair.

“Just sob out all your heart,” she said, “my little Jeanie--it will do
you good.”

“Oh, Kirsteen, it is not all for her, but for me too that am so
forlorn.”

“Jeanie, my dear, it’s a hard thing to say, but soon ye will not be so
forlorn. We will all go back to our common work, and your heart will
maybe not be light again for many a long day; but the sun will begin to
shine again.”

“Kirsteen,” said Jeanie raising her head, “you are my sister next to me,
and I am a woman grown. There is not such a long, long way between us;
but you speak as if it was a hundred years.”

“It is more I think,” said Kirsteen; “for you will have all that life
can give, and I will have nothing, except maybe you, and being a
stand-by for the family as my mother said.”

“Why should you not too have all that life can give?”

Kirsteen smiled and shook her head. “It is too long a story; and I would
rather speak about you, Jeanie. To-morrow I am going away.”

Jeanie seized Kirsteen’s hands and held them fast. “I will be no
trouble,” she said. “I will do whatever you please, but take me with
you, Kirsteen.”

“I cannot, Jeanie. It would be to steal you away; I dare not do it. If I
have been right or wrong in what I did for myself I cannot always tell;
but for you, I dare not take it upon me. You heard what Anne said--and
it was true.”

“Kirsteen,” said Jeanie raising her face to her sister. “I have more
cause than you. Oh, listen to me, Kirsteen; would you like to see shame
at Drumcarro? Would you like to see the name you all think so much of
rolled in the dust? Oh, hear what I’m saying, Kirsteen! I have more
cause than you.”

“Jeanie, my dear! my dear!”

“Kirsteen, there is one that is here, and they all think much of him,
and he follows me wherever I go. Kirsteen, are ye listening?” The girl
grasped her hands fiercely as if her own had been made of steel.
“Kirsteen! It’s not to marry me he is seeking me. Do ye hear what I am
saying? It is not--for anything that’s good.”

And Jeanie who had been very pale, hid her face which was blazing with
sudden red in Kirsteen’s lap, and sobbed as if her heart would burst.

Kirsteen caught her in her arms, held her to her breast, murmured over
her every tender word, but profoundly as Jeanie was in earnest, gave no
faith to what she said. “What has put that dreadful thought in your
mind? Oh, my darling, if there was such a villain in the world it’s not
here he would dare to come--with everybody round you to defend you--to
our father’s house.”

“Who have I to defend me?” cried Jeanie raising her head. “Jock is away
and Jamie is so young; how should he understand? And my father that
notices nothing, that thinks it will be a grand marriage and a credit to
the family. Even Marg’ret!”--cried the girl with sudden exasperation,
“they will none of them understand!”

Kirsteen took her young sister’s face between her hands--“An ill man
could have no power but what he got from you. Jeanie, Jeanie, has he got
your heart?”

“Oh, how can you tell, you that have never been tried?” cried the girl
drawing herself out of her sister’s hold. Little Jeanie had her
experience too. “No, he has not got my heart; but he gives me no rest
night nor day, he sends me letters--I might put them in the fire. But
there’s little to keep you living at Drumcarro--and I read them, I
canna help it. And then he’s waiting for me about the door whenever I
stir. And his tongue would wile the bird off the tree. And he’s not like
the rough men you see, young Glenbowie or the like of that, he’s a fine
grand gentleman. And oh, Kirsteen, take me with you! take me away! For
my father’s one that will not understand, and Jamie is but a laddie, and
even Marg’ret!--And how am I to fight and stand all alone by myself?”

The girl’s eyes were full of tears and her face of trouble. She held
fast by Kirsteen’s hand as if by an anchor of salvation. “He has not got
my heart,” she said, “but oh, I canna trust my head. He wiles me away.
And there’s nobody in the world, nobody else, that is heeding what
becomes of me, or where I go, unless it’s maybe you, Kirsteen. Oh, take
me with you, Kirsteen! for I cannot trust myself and live here.”

“Jeanie, Jeanie, ye love this man.”

“No,” cried the girl rising to her feet. “No! no! If it was my last
word, No! but I’m lone, lone in the house, and nobody to speak a word,
and him with his flattering tongue. And oh, Kirsteen, if you will do
anything for Jeanie, take her away.”

“There is nothing I would not do for Jeanie,” said the elder sister,
drawing her again to her arms. “My dear, there was one I saw in London
before I came away.”

“One you saw in London?”

“That had his heart set upon my little sister, one I could serve with my
life.”

Jeanie’s agitated face was again covered with a burning blush. She
withdrew herself from Kirsteen’s arm. “How can I tell who ye might see
in London. It’s far, far from here.”

“And maybe you never thought upon him, though his heart is set on you.”

Jeanie turned from red to pale. She trembled, drawing herself from
within her sister’s arm. “How can I tell who it is!” she said with an
indignation which made her breathless, “when you never tell me? And
there has never been any person--oh, never any person!” Her eyes were
unquiet, seeking Kirsteen’s face, then withdrawn hurriedly not to meet
her look; her hands were nervously clasping and unclasping in her lap.
“Men,” she cried, “never care! I’ve read it in books and I know it’s
true. They look at you and they speak and speak, and follow you about,
and then when their time is come they go away, and you hear of them no
more.”

“Where have you learned all this, my poor little Jeanie,” said Kirsteen
tenderly, “for ye seem to have knowledge of things that are beyond me?”

“We learn the things that come our way,” said the girl. Her lips
quivered, she was too much agitated to keep still. “Who would that be
that you saw in London?” she asked with a forced, almost mocking smile.

“He has been in India since then, and wherever there was fighting. His
name is Major Gordon.”

Kirsteen was conscious once more of the grudge in her heart at Gordon’s
life and promotion, and the title she had given him; but she had no time
for thought. For Jeanie rose up from her side in a passion of mingled
feeling, anger and indignation and wistfulness and pain.

“How dared he speak?” she cried. “How dared he name my name? Him! that
came when I was but a bairn, and then rode away!”

“Jeanie!”

“Oh! I thought you understood,” cried Jeanie in a kind of frenzy. “I
thought you would know, but you’ve aye had peace in your heart though ye
think you’re so wise. There has nobody ever come and gone and made ye
feel ye were a fool and unwomanly, and all that Marg’ret says. You have
never known what it was to have your heart burnt like hot irons on it,
and to scorn yourself, and feel that ye were the poorest thing on earth!
To let a man think that, and then to see him ride away!”

Scorching tears poured from Jeanie’s eyes. Tears like a fiery torrent,
very different from those which had been wept for her mother. She sat
down again on the log but turned her back to Kirsteen, covering her face
with her hands. “It is just for that,” she said to herself, “just for
that that I’m tempted most--just for that!”

“I would have thought,” said Kirsteen, with intense and sorrowful
indignation to think that where there was life and love there should be
this perversity. “I would have thought that a touch of true love in the
heart would save ye for ever and ever from all temptations of the kind.”

“You would have thought!” cried Jeanie scornful in her passion, turning
her soft angelic countenance, in which there were so many things
unintelligible to her elder sister, all flushed and wild to Kirsteen.
“And me that thought you would understand!” she cried.

There was a pause, and Kirsteen’s heart ached with feelings
inexpressible. She had never been accused of not understanding before,
and it is a reproach which is hard to bear. She sat silent, painfully
wondering into what strange places these young feet had wandered where
she could not follow. She had expressed the only conviction that was
possible to her one-ideaed soul. The touch of true love had been to
herself the one and only touch, never to be obliterated by baser
contact. She sat gazing wistfully into the dim air, perplexed and
troubled, her eyes filling with tears, her heart with heaviness. To be
tempted was the one thing which in her austere and spotless womanhood, a
widowed maiden, Kirsteen could not understand.

Jeanie had been sobbing passionately by her side for a minute or more,
when suddenly she turned and flung herself again upon her sister, once
more hiding her face in Kirsteen’s lap. “Oh!” she cried, “take me with
you, Kirsteen! Do you not see now that I cannot be left? You’re holy
like a saint, but me, I want more, I want something more. Is it not
natural to be happy when you’re young--to get what you like, and see
what’s bonny and bright, and get out into the world? I’m not one that
can be patient and bide at home. Oh, Kirsteen! I cannot just sew my
seam, and read my book like good girls--even with my mother here--and
now that she’s gone--Kirsteen, Kirsteen! he will wile me away to my
shame if you will not save me, you that are the only one.”

She said all this half intelligibly, clasping her arms round her sister,
now raising her head with an imploring look, now burying it again on
Kirsteen’s shoulder or in her lap. Such an impassioned creature was
unlike anything that Kirsteen had ever known before. She soothed her
with soft words, saying, “My dear, my darlin’, my bonny Jeanie!” the
tears falling from her eyes as she caressed and stilled the excitement
of the other. What could she do? How could she take her? How leave her?
She who was herself on sufferance allowed to be here by reason of her
mother’s death, but bound to go away to-morrow, and with so little
likelihood that any one would pay attention to what she said. She dared
not steal her little sister away. She dared scarcely plead for her, for
more care, for closer guardianship! Alas, was this all that was to come
of the post she had undertaken, she who was to be the stand-by of the
family? She who from the beginning had thought of Jeanie as the one for
whom everything was to be made bright?




CHAPTER XVII.


Kirsteen, up to this time, had kept as much as possible out of her
father’s way, and he had taken no notice of her presence in the house.
When she came within his range of vision he turned his back upon her but
said nothing. It appeared to her now, however, that it was necessary to
change her procedure. If she were to do anything for Jeanie she must
take a more decided part. Accordingly, on the evening of her mother’s
funeral, Kirsteen appeared at the family table among the others. Her
father perceived her as he took his place, and gave her a somewhat fixed
look from under his eyebrows, along with a muttered exclamation; but he
said nothing, and suffered her presence without any demonstration of
displeasure. The evening was like and yet unlike one of the former
ceremonials of the house on the eve of the departure of sons. It was a
celebration like that, but the hero of the occasion was not there, and
the party at table after a week of composed, quiet, subdued voices, and
melancholy subjects, showed a certain relief in the fact that all was
over, and nothing further required to show their respect. The black
ribbons in Miss Eelen’s cap nodded as she moved her head, and Mary was
very careful of the crisp new crape which ornamented her dress, while
Mr. Pyper, the minister, would make an occasional remark in conformity
with what were supposed to be the feelings of the bereaved family. But
these were almost the only signs of mourning. Jeanie, after all the
agitation of the morning, presented a changeful aspect, and her eyes
were heavy and a little red with tears; and Jamie, the last of the boys,
had an open-eyed, wistful, almost startled look, feeling very solitary,
poor boy, and wishing to be away like the rest. There was no one who had
felt the mother’s death, or perhaps it would be almost more just to say
the presence of death in the house, as this boy, more imaginative than
the rest, to whom the week’s interval had been a terrible one. He was
pale under his freckles, with a dismal look in his wide eyes, the
impression of the funeral still too strong upon him for any other
feeling. But the others were relieved; it is impossible to use another
word.

“The country will be very quiet this year with nobody at the castle,”
said Mary in subdued tones.

“It will make little difference to ainy of you,” replied Miss Eelen, her
black bows nodding in her cap, “for if there had been fifty balls, ye
could not in decency have gone to ainy one o’ them.”

“There are more folk in the country than us,” said Mary, with a little
sharpness. “But I hear Lady Chatty’s far from happy, poor thing. For my
part I never had any confidence in the man.”

“The man was well enough; there’s nothing to be said against the man;
they’re just both spenders, and no siller to spend.”

“That is what I am saying,” said Mary. “The Duke’s daughter, and her
beauty, and her fashion, and all that--and at the last to take up with a
poor man.”

“What do you think, Drumcarro, of this Catholic Emancipation that is
making such a noise?” said Glendochart, as the ladies continued to argue
over the subject of Lady Chatty.

“I just think that we’ll have all the wild Irish and the wild North on
our hands before we know where we are--and Jesuits going to and fro over
the face of the earth like Sawtan in the Scriptures--if the Government
doesn’t stand firm.”

“I cannot but think, however,” said Glendochart, “that there’s something
to be said on the other side. A large number of our country folk just
put out of the question altogether.”

“There’s nothing to be said on the other side of the question,” cried
Drumcarro, with his fierce look. “Fellow subjects! just thae deevils of
Irish and a whean idle Crofters that will neither fish the seas nor
delve the land--and a horde of priests at the head of them. Them that
think the Pope of Rome should have a hand in governing this country will
get little backing from me.”

“I allow,” said Mr. Pyper, “that it’s a difficult question with modern
notions of toleration, and all that--but violent evils must have
violent remedies--and when ye think, Glendochart, what this country has
suffered from Papal rule--”

“I would just have no dealings with the pooers of darkness,” said Mr.
Douglas, bringing down his hand upon the table with a force which made
everything tremble.

“Bless me,” cried Miss Eelen, “what’s wrong with ye, Drumcarro? Ye’ll
break all the glasses. Eh, but the pooers o’ darkness are no so easy to
make or meddle with. The minister will tell ye that they are just in our
hearts and at our doors.”

“Ye may say that, Miss Eelen,” said Mr. Pyper, shaking his head
professionally; “but it was in the sphere of politics our friend was
meaning. It would be a fine thing if, with all our progress, we were to
find ourselves back again in the hands of the Inquiseetion and yon wild
Irishman O’Connell.”

“I would learn them a lesson,” cried Drumcarro, “there’s none o’ them to
be trusted. I would let them know there would be no trafficking with
treason. We’ve had enough in Scotland of the thumbscrew and the boot--no
but what judeeciously employed,” he added a moment after, “with the
ignorant, when ye cannot get at them in any other way--”

“I hope ye don’t advocate torture, Drumcarro; that would be a curious
way of opposing Catholic Emancipation,” said Glendochart.

“I’m not saying, sir, that I advocate torture; but I’ve seen
cases--when deevilish obstinacy had to be dealt with,” said the old
slave-driver, with a gleam of fire from under his shaggy eyebrows.

“Well, well,” said the minister softly, raising a large hand in
deprecation of the argument, “that’s perhaps departing from the
immediate question. I hear there’s like to be trouble in your parish,
Glendochart, about the new presentee. The Duke has been maybe a little
hasty--an old tutor, that had to be provided for.”

“If he manages the parish as ill as he managed some of the young lords,”
said Glendochart, with a shrug of his shoulders.

“I will not have a word said against the young lords,” cried Mary.
“They’re just very pleasant--and as ceevil young men as ye could meet
anywhere--there’s Lord John that we know best.”

Miss Eelen shook her head till the black bows fluttered as if in a
strong wind. “You’re all just infatuate about Lord John. I would not
trust him, not a step out o’ my sight. I have no faith in your Lord
Johns. Begging your pardon, Glendochart, they’re not a true race, and
Lord John he is the worst of a’.”

“I think you might know better, Aunt Eelen, than to bring up accusations
against the head of my husband’s name.”

“Your husband quotha!” cried Miss Eelen. “It was said of them for
hundreds of years before your husband was born or thought of.”

The minister again intervened to smooth matters down with instances of
the power and value of the race thus called in question. Jeanie was
seated at the other end of the table out of reach of the principal
personages who kept up the conversation, but she started at the name of
Lord John, and her pale face with the faint redness round the eyes,
which appealed so powerfully to Kirsteen’s sympathies, grew suddenly
crimson. She cast a terrified look at her sister who sat silently by
her, and caught Kirsteen’s hand under the table with a clutch as of
despair. Lord John! Kirsteen had made no attempt to identify Jeanie’s
wooer whom the girl held in such strange terror. Her own heart gave a
bound of alarm yet disdain. She asked with her eyes, “Is that the man?”
and received from Jeanie an answering look of confusion and trouble.
There were no words exchanged between them. Kirsteen shook her head with
a gesture which to Jeanie’s eyes expressed not only disapproval but
surprise and scorn, and Jeanie let go her hold of her sister’s hand with
an impulse of impatience much like that with which she had cried, “I
thought you would understand!” This little conversation by pantomime
made the heart of the elder sister ache. “Lord John,” she said to
herself, “Lord John!” with mingled fear and astonishment. That Jeanie
should be in danger from him--that he should dare! that her little
sister with that angelic face, who had once been touched as Kirsteen
said by true love should feel a temptation in the flattering words of
the man from whom she yet desired to escape, conscious that he was not
a true man! Kirsteen’s experiences had been of a simple kind hitherto.
She was acquainted with no such problems. It cost her a painful effort
to bring herself even to the threshold of Jeanie’s confused mind. She
could not comprehend the conflict that was going on there. And yet she
could not forsake her little sister even though the circumstances were
such as she did not understand.

“Glendochart,” said Mary when the ladies had retired to the parlour
leaving the gentlemen to consume their toddy, “has had a letter from
Major Gordon that we first met in London, Kirsteen. I cannot call to
mind where my husband met him, if it was at the Duke’s or where. But we
had him down for the shooting, and two or three times he just went and
came--and admired Jeanie--but that’s no wonder, for there’s nobody but
what admires Jeanie. He’s wanting to come again if we’ll ask him. But I
doubt if I’ll do it--for Jeanie--where is she? I hope she cannot hear
me--is on the way to something far grander or I’m much mistaken--and I’m
not one that makes mistakes in that way.”

“If ye paid any attention to me,” said Miss Eelen, “I would say ye were
making the greatest mistake ye ever made in your life.”

“That’s because it’s not one of your Douglas allies--and you’re full of
auld world freats and proverbs about names, but I would like to hear in
our family who had anything to say against my husband’s name.”

“If you mean Lord John--do you know he has not a good reputation? Very
ill things are said of him.”

“In London,” said the Lady of Glendochart with a superior smile. “My
experience is that there’s just nothing but scandal in London. But in
his own country he’s the Duke’s son and one of the first of his name.”

“There are some things that one learns in London,” said Kirsteen with a
little of that quick growing identification of one’s self with one’s
habitation which changes the point of view; “and Mary, if you will let
me say it, this is one. The Duke’s son does not match with a country
laird’s daughter however bonny she may be, unless he may be one of the
romanticks that will make a sacrifice--but Lord John, he is not one.”

“I would hope not,” cried Mary. “The romanticks you are meaning are just
fools and fantastic persons like--“ she was about to have said like
yourself, but forebore.

“He would need to be fantastic that went to the Duke his father, and
said I am going to be married to Jeanie Douglas of Drumcarro.”

“Ye go a little too far, Kirsteen,” said Miss Eelen. “The Douglases
might match with princes so far as blood goes. But I’m not saying (for I
know their ways) that there is not reason in it. He will just get up a
talk about the lassie and then he will go away.”

“Ye are two ravens,” said Mary; “he will do nothing of the kind.”

“I wish you would take her to Glendochart, Mary. She is not happy. If it
is Lord John or something else I cannot tell. She says she would like to
come with me--but what would my father say?”

“Say! just what we all would say--that we would not permit it. A
mantua-maker’s house in London for Jeanie Douglas. Oh, you need not
blaze up, Kirsteen; ye have made your bed and ye must lie on it--but
Jeanie!”

Kirsteen did not blaze up. Her eyes flashed, her colour rose; but she
restrained herself with a great effort--for what would be the use? “The
more reason,” she said, “that you should step in--you that are no
mantua-maker but a lady in your own house. Take Jeanie with you, and
keep her safe--and if you will take my advice ask Major Gordon. He is
not rich but he has a very good name.”

“I mind now,” said Mary, “that these Gordons were friends of yours--and
you want to keep Jeanie down, just in a mean position when she might
take her place among the highest. I would not have thought ye were so
little, Kirsteen. But I have nothing of that. I’ve always been proud of
Jeanie and I’m not minding if she’s put over my head. I’ll bring no man
here to distract her mind--and I’ll put no spoke in her wheel, my bonny
little sister. She shall be the first and grandest of us all, if I can
do it. And then her ladyship,” cried Mary, “will know who was her best
friend.”

“Perhaps I think less of ladyships being more used to them,” cried
Kirsteen, irritated beyond her self-control. “If ye bring her to shame
instead of grandeur who will she thank then?”

“To shame!” cried Mary. “Let them say that word that dare.”

“But I dare! And I know them all, and what they think of him in his own
family. And that he’s not safe for a girl like Jeanie to know. Aunt
Eelen, you know them as well, and you know if what I say is true.”

“Young weemen,” said Miss Eelen, “if ye think that words of strife are
seemly in a house where the mother’s buried that day, it’s not my
opinion. Kirsteen goes too far, though I would not say but there was
reason in it,” she added after a moment “Whisht, both of you--here is
the poor bairn herself.”

The next morning Kirsteen, in her despair, took a still bolder step. She
went to the door of the room in which Drumcarro was, and knocked for
admittance. He stared at her as she came in with a lowering brow, and
_humph_! of ungracious surprise, and stopped in his reading of the
paper, but said nothing.

“Father,” said Kirsteen, “I am going away to-day.”

He gave her another lowering and stormy glance. “It is the best thing
you can do,” he said. “You were never wanted here.”

Kirsteen, wounded, could not refrain from saying, “My mother wanted me,”
which was met solely by that impatient indifference which we render
badly by the word _humph_!

“But I did not come to speak of myself. I know,” she said, “father, that
you like where you can to add on a little of the old Douglas lands to
what you have already.”

He gave her a more direct look, astonished, not knowing what she meant;
then, “What o’ that?” he said.

“No more than this--that money’s sometimes wanting, and I thought if the
opportunity arose--I have done very well--I have some siller--at your
command.”

Drumcarro was very much startled; he dropped the newspaper which he had
been holding before him, as an intimation that her visit was an
interruption, and turning round stared at her for a moment with genuine
surprise. Then he said, “Your mantua-making must have thriven. I would
like to know one thing about ye, have you put my name intill your
miserable trade?”

“No,” she said; “so far as any name is in it, it is Miss Kirsteen.”

He gave a sigh of relief. “I’m glad at least that ye have not brought
disgrace upon the name of Douglas.”

“The name of Douglas will never get disgrace from me,” cried Kirsteen
proudly, with an answering glance of fire. “There is no one that bears
it that has more care of it than me. If you kept it in as great honour
at home----”

He laughed grimly. “My lass, you may trust me for that.”

“I hope so, father; I hope there will be no speaking got up about the
bonniest of us all--the youngest and the sweetest.”

His fiery eyes gave forth a gleam of mingled exultation and anger. “I
see,” he said, “you’re jealous, like all your kind. A woman can never
stand another being mounted o’er her head. Trust you me, my woman, to
take care of Jeanie; it’s my place.”

“Yes,” she said, “it’s your place.” Then hesitating, Kirsteen continued:
“She would have liked--to go to London with me.”

“To London with you!”

“It is excusable,” said Kirsteen; “it is natural that a young thing
should desire to see a little of the world.”

Mr. Douglas expressed his feelings in a harsh and angry laugh. “Out of a
mantua-maker’s windows,” he cried; then added with solemnity, “and her
mother dead just a week to-day.”

“It’s not for want of heart,” said Kirsteen. She paused again, and then
speaking quickly with all the courage she could summon up: “Oh, father,
yon Lord John--there’s no truth in him; there’s no trust to be put in
him! She’s frightened for him, father.”

“Hold your peace!” he cried. “I’ll have none of your slandering here.”

“Father, mind--you’ll have to be both father and mother to Jeanie. If it
should come to pass that every old wife in the clachan had a hold of
her bonny name!”

Perhaps it was not unnatural that Drumcarro should resent this speech.
“If ye will mind your own concerns,” he said grimly, “I will take care
of mine. The sooner you go your own gait the better; there will be more
peace left behind.”

“I have delivered my soul,” said Kirsteen; “the wyte will be upon your
own head if you close your eyes. Farewell, father, if we should never
meet again.”

She stood for a moment waiting his reply; then made him a curtsey as she
had done when she was a little girl. Something perhaps in this
salutation touched Drumcarro. He broke out into a laugh, not so harsh as
before. “Fare ye well,” he said, “you were always upsetting, and wiser
than other folk. But I’ll mind what you said about the siller, which was
not without reason. And I’ve little doubt but I’ll see ye again. You’re
too fond o’ meddling not to come back now ye’ve got your hand in.”

This was all the leave-taking between father and daughter, but
Kirsteen’s heart was touched as she went away. It was at once a sign of
amity and a permission--a condoning of her past sins and almost an
invitation to return.




CHAPTER XVIII.


“Then you are going, Kirsteen?”

“I must go, Jeanie. There is no place, and no wish for me here.”

“And I am to bide--alone. Oh, there are plenty of folk in the house. My
father to gloom at me, and Marg’ret to make me scones, and take care
that I do not wet my feet--as if that was all the danger in the
world!--and Jamie to sit at his books and never say a word. And on the
other side--oh, the deevil, just the deevil himself aye whispering in my
ear.”

“Jeanie, Jeanie! ye must not say such words.”

“It’s like swearing,” said the girl with a scornful laugh, “but it’s
true.”

“Jeanie,” said Kirsteen anxiously, “you will say again that I do not
understand. But, my dear, I cannot think but you’re terrifying yourself
in vain; when true love has once come in, how can the false move ye? It
will be no temptation. Oh, no, no. There can be but one; there cannot be
two.”

“Where is your one?” said Jeanie. “I know nothing about your one.” She
shook her head with a sudden flush of burning and indignant colour, too
painful to be called a blush, as if to shake all recollection away. “I
have none to take my part,” she said, “but him that says ‘Come.’ And I
know that it’s the ill way, and not the good, he’s leading to. But if
you leave me here, and leave me alone, that’s the way I’ll go.”

“Oh, Jeanie, my darling, what can I do? I cannot bide--and I cannot
steal you away.”

“I will ask no more,” said Jeanie. “You will maybe be sorry after--but
then it will be too late.”

Kirsteen put her arms round her young sister, who turned her shoulder
towards her, holding off as far away as was possible, with a reluctance
and resistance that were almost sullen. “Jeanie,” she said, “if I send
you Lewis Gordon instead?”

Jeanie wrenched herself indignantly out of her sister’s arms. “I will
never speak nor look at ye again! A man that never said a word to me.
What would Lewis Gordon do here? The shooting’s near over, and the
fishing’s bad this year. Men that come to the Highlands for sport had
better stay at home.”

“Jeanie! if he never spoke it was for poverty and not for want of love;
and you were so young.”

“Oh, yes, I was very young--too young to be shamed and made a fool of by
him or any man. And if you send him here, Kirsteen, out of pity to save
Jeanie--Oh!” the girl cried dashing her clenched hands in the air, “I
will--I will--just go headlong and be lost in the darkness, and never be
seen more!”

It was true that Kirsteen did not understand. She could only look
wistfully at her little sister, in whose young bosom there were tumults
unknown to herself. What could she do but soothe and try to subdue her,
endeavouring all the time to represent to herself that it was but the
impatience of Jeanie’s nature, the hasty temper of a spoilt child,
sharpened by offence and misunderstanding of the man whom she really
loved. After a time Jeanie yielded to Kirsteen’s caresses and
consolations with a sudden recovery of her self-control which was almost
more wonderful and alarming than the previous abandon. “It’s no matter,”
she said, and recovered her calm with almost an indignant effort. What
did it mean? Both the despair and the recovery were mysteries to the
more steadfast spirit which knew no such impulses and was ignorant both
of the strength and weakness of a passionate superficial nature eager to
live and to enjoy, unable to support the tedium and languor of life.

Kirsteen had little more success with Marg’ret to whom she appealed
next. “You will look after my poor little Jeanie. Oh, Marg’ret, don’t
let her out of your sight, keep her like the apple of your eye.”

“And do you think, Kirsteen, you that are full of sense, that I could
keep any grip of her if I did that? Never let her out of my sight! I
canna keep her in my sight for an hour.”

“Marg’ret, my heart’s just sick with fear and trouble.”

“Hoot,” said Marg’ret, “there is nae occasion. What should possess the
bairn to terrify ye as she seems to do, I canna tell. There’s nae reason
for it. A man is none the worse that I can see for bein’ a young
lord--maybe he’s none the better; I’m putting forward nae opinion--but
to come to Drumcarro with an ill-meaning if he were the greatest of his
name--no, no, I’ll never believe that.”

“It is hard to believe, but it’s harder still to think of the Duke’s son
coming here for his wife.”

“If it was a king’s son, and the bride was our Jeanie,” Marg’ret cast
her head high, “they’re no blate that think themselves above the
Douglases, whatever their titles or their honours may be!”

Kirsteen shook her head, but in her heart too that superstition was
strong. Insult the Douglases in their own house! She thought again that
perhaps all her sophisticated thoughts might be wrong. In London there
was a difference unspeakable between the great Duke and the little
Highland laird whom nobody had ever heard of--but at home Drumcarro was
as good blood as the Duke, and of an older race--and to intend insult to
the house of as good a gentleman as himself was surely more than the
wildest profligate would dare. She tried to persuade herself of this as
she made her preparations for going away, which were very small. While
she was doing this Jamie, the only boy now left at home, the one of the
family who was studious, and for whom not the usual commission but a
writership in India had been obtained, came to her shyly; for to him his
sister Kirsteen was little more than a name.

“There was a book,” he said, and then hung his head, unable to get out
any more.

“There was a book? Is it something you want, Jamie?”

Jamie explained with many contortions that it was--a book which he
wanted much, and which there was no chance of getting nearer than
Glasgow, but which Mr. Pyper thought might be found in London if any one
would take the trouble. Kirsteen promised eagerly to take that trouble.
She laid her hand upon the big boy’s shoulder. He was only eighteen, but
already much taller than herself, a large, loosely made, immature man.

“And will ye do something for me?” she said. Jamie, very awkward and
shame-faced, pledged himself at once--whatever she wanted.

“I want you to take care of Jeanie,” said Kirsteen; “will ye go with her
when she takes a walk, and stand by her whatever happens, and not let
her out of your sight?”

“Not let her out of my sight!” cried Jamie, astonished as Marg’ret had
been. “But she would soon send me out of the way. She would never be
bothered with me.”

“I meant not long out of your sight, Jamie. Oh! just keep a watch. She
will be lonely and want kind company. Ye must keep your eye upon her for
kindness, and not let her be alone.”

“If you mean I’m to spy upon her, I couldn’t do that, Kirsteen, not for
all the books in the world.”

“That is not what I mean,” Kirsteen cried. “Can you not understand,
Jamie? I want you to stand by her, to be with her when you can, not to
leave her by herself. She’s very lonely--She’s--not happy--She’s--”

Jamie gave an abashed laugh. “She’s sometimes happy enough,” he said,
then recollected himself and became grave all at once. “I was meaning,
before--“ Presently he recovered again from this momentary cloud, and
added, “She’s no wanting me; there are other folk she likes better.”

“Jamie--it is just the other folk that frighten me.”

Jamie made a great effort to consider the matter with the seriousness
which he saw to be expected from him. But the effort was vain. He burst
into a great laugh, and with heaving shoulders and a face crimson with
the struggle swung himself away.

In the meantime, Mary, not without a great deal of satisfaction in the
removal of the restraint which Kirsteen’s presence enforced, was
preparing officiously for her sister’s journey. The gig which Kirsteen
could herself drive, and in which Miss Macnab could be conveyed back to
her home, was ordered in time for the further journey to Glasgow which
Kirsteen was to make by postchaise. The ease with which she made these
arrangements, her indifference to the cost of her journey, her practical
contempt of the difficulties which to the country people who had to
scheme and plan for a long time before they decided upon any extra
expense, had a half sinful appearance, and was very trying to Mary’s
sense of innate superiority. “She does not heed what money she spends.
It’s come light, gang light,” said the Lady of Glendochart. “I have
heard that was the way with persons in business, but I never thought to
see it in a sister of mine. I do not doubt,” she added, “that Kirsteen
would just order an expensive dinner at an inn if it took her fancy; but
I’m saving her the need of that at least, for I’m putting her a chicken
in her basket, and some of Marg’ret’s scones and cakes (oat-cakes were
meant) to keep her going.” “I am sure, mem, you are very considerate,”
said Miss Macnab, to whom this explanation was given. “But I get very
little credit for it from Kirsteen,” Mary answered with a sigh.

These preparations to get rid of her, and the disappearance of Jeanie,
who had shut herself up in her room and would see nobody, had a great
effect upon Kirsteen. She had taken up, with a heroic sense of having
something henceforward to live for, her mother’s half-charge,
half-statement that she would be the stand-by of the family. All
brighter hopes being gone that was enough to keep her heart from
sinking, and it was not always she knew that the stand-by of a family
received much acknowledgment, thanks or praise. But to find herself
forsaken and avoided by her young sister, hurried away by the elder,
with a scarcely veiled pleasure in her departure, were painful things to
meet with in the beginning of that mission. She went out of the house
in the weary hours of waiting before the gig was ready, to lighten if
possible the aching of her heart by the soothing influence of the fresh
air and natural sounds. The linn was making less than its usual tumult
in the benumbing of the frost, the wind was hushed in the trees, the
clouds hung low and grey with that look of oppressed and lowering
heaviness which precedes snow. The house too--the home which now indeed
she felt herself to be leaving for ever, seemed bound in bands of frost
and silence. The poor mother so complaining in her life-time, so
peaceful in her death, who had wanted for so little while she was there,
seemed to have left a blank behind her, quite out of correspondence with
the insignificance of her life. There was no one now to call Kirsteen,
to have the right of weakness to her service and succour. With a sharp
pang Kirsteen recollected that Jeanie had called and she had refused.
What could she do but refuse? Yet to have done so troubled her beyond
anything else that could have happened. It came upon her now with a
sense of failure which was very bitter. Not her mother, but her mother’s
child, the little beautiful sister who from her birth had been
Kirsteen’s joy,--she had called, and Kirsteen had refused. She went up
the hill behind the house and sat down upon a rock, and gazed at the
familiar scene. And then this remorse came upon her and seized her. She
had failed to Jeanie’s call. She had allowed other notions to come in,
thoughts of other people, hesitations, pride, reluctance to be thought
to interfere. Was she right to have done so? Was she wrong? Should she
have yielded to Jeanie’s instinct instead of what seemed like duty? It
was rare to Kirsteen to be in this dilemma. It added to the pang with
which she felt herself entirely deserted, with nobody to regret her or
to say a kind word. If misfortune should come to Jeanie, if anything
should happen, as people say, how deeply, how bitterly would she blame
herself who might have helped but refused. And yet again what but this
could she do?

The sound of some one coming down the hill, wading among the great
bushes of the ling, and over the withered bracken scarcely aroused her;
for what did it matter to Kirsteen who came that way? She was still
sitting on the rock when a man appeared round the turning of the path;
she paid no attention to him till he was quite near. Then her heart
suddenly leapt up to her throat; she started, rising from her seat. He
on his side recognized her too. He stopped with a low whistle of dismay,
then took off his Highland bonnet, less with an air of courtesy than
with that of not daring to omit the forms of respect.

“So it is you, Miss Kirsteen?” he said.

“It is me--at my father’s door. It’s more wonderful to see that it’s
you, my Lord John.”

“Not so very wonderful either,” he said, “for I may say I am at my
father’s door too.”

“You are on the lands of Drumcarro--the Douglas lands, that never
belonged to one of your name.”

“You don’t expect me to enter into old feuds,” he said with a laugh;
“would you like to have me seized by your men-at-arms, Miss Kirsteen,
and plunged into the dungeon below the castle moat?” He paused and
looked down at the grey, penurious house standing bare in the wilds.
“Unhappily there is neither moat nor castle,” he said again with a
laugh.

“There’s more,” said Kirsteen proudly, “for there’s honour and peace,
and he that disturbs either will not pass without his reward. Lord John,
I would like to know what you are wanting here?”

“You have always treated me in a very lordly way, Miss Kirsteen,” he
said. “What if I were to doubt your right to make any such inquiry. I am
wanting, as you say, to pay my respects to my kinswoman of Glendochart,
and ask for the family, who I hear have been in trouble.”

Kirsteen paused with a look at him to which he answered with a smile and
bow. What could she say? To let him know that he was a danger to Jeanie
was but to stimulate him in his pursuit, and she could not herself
believe it even now.

“Lord John,” she said, “I met you once upon another hillside; you had
done me a great service but you did not know who I was--a gentlewoman as
good as yourself. But when I bid you as a gentleman to stand by and let
me pass, ye did so. You could not stand against me when I said that. I
ask you now again, but I ask more. As ye are a gentleman, Lord John, go
away from here.”

He shook his head. “The argument served its turn once,” he said; “you
must not scorn my intellect so much as to try it again.”

“Go,” she said, putting herself in his way, “those that are dwelling
down there are too high for one thing and not high enough for another.
Go away, Lord John, if you’re what a gentleman should be. If ye do not,
I’ll promise you this that you will repent it all your days.”

He stepped past her amid the heather bushes and short brushwood. “Not
even an angel with a flaming sword could bar the road,” he said waving
his hand, “on a hillside like this. Farewell, Miss Kirsteen, I’m going
about my own affairs and doing no harm to you.”

In a moment he had passed, finding another path for himself among the
windings of the heather and bracken. He took off his bonnet again with a
mocking salutation as he disappeared down the hill. And Kirsteen felt
herself left behind with a sense of mortification and helplessness
intolerable to her high and proud spirit. How could she have hoped to
stop him? What power had she? But this did not make her feel her failure
less. “You will repent it all your days,” she called after him, raising
her voice in the vexation of her soul. He turned and lifted his bonnet
again with a mocking salutation. That was all. She might have known,
she said to herself with angry tears of humiliation in her eyes.

But when Kirsteen came down the hill there was no trace of Lord John.
Mary and Jeanie were in the parlour waiting for her to say good-bye. And
there was an air of agitation about her younger sister, which Kirsteen
in her troubled mind set down to the visit for which no doubt Jeanie had
been called from her room. But nothing was said. They accompanied her to
the door where the gig was now standing with Miss Macnab already mounted
into her seat. There was no time or opportunity for further
leave-taking; Jeanie gave her cheek to be kissed with averted eyes; and
not even with Marg’ret could Kirsteen speak another word in private. In
a few minutes more she had turned her back upon Drumcarro; was it for
ever? To her wounded and impatient heart, impatient above all of the
sense of utter futility and failure, this seemed the thing most
probable. Why should she ever come again, the stand-by of the family?
Perhaps if they should want money, and she should have it--but in no
other way.

She was roused by the mild voice of the country artist at her elbow.
“You will find a great change in everything, Miss Kirsteen, coming back
from London?” she said.

Kirsteen did not immediately reply. “I find more change in myself than
in anything else,” she said at last, bringing herself back with
difficulty from more urgent thoughts.

“That was partly what I was meaning. Ye’ll find a great interest in life
in yon muckle London, where there must always be the bonniest new things
to see.”

“When your heart’s away,” said Kirsteen, yielding in spite of herself to
the natural desire of unburdening her mind a little, “it does not matter
much what bonny things there may be to see.”

“That’s true too,” said the dressmaker; “but my experience has aye been,
that where we canna have what we want, and eh, how few of us have that
advantage! it’s just a great thing to please your e’e, and fill your
mind with what e’e can see, and the best ye can see. There’s even
pleasure in a new fashion book when ye have little else. And with all
the bonny leddies and their court dresses, and just to dress them like a
picture.”

Kirsteen looked at this humble artist with a sigh. “Perhaps you were not
always so resigned,” she said.

“I’m not saying that I’m resigned. I would just like to see the Queen’s
court, and the princesses in their plumes and trains, before everything
in the world, but it’s a comfort,” said the mild philosopher, “when ye
can make it up to yourself with a bonny person like Miss Jeanie, just to
make the line of her gown perfitt, if ainything can ever be called
perfitt,” she added piously, “in this imperfitt world.”




CHAPTER XIX.


There came a great sense of desolation and misery into the heart of
Jeanie after she had witnessed, with eyes averted and without a sign of
affection, wrapped up in offence and estrangement, the departure of her
sister. She was angry with Kirsteen and deeply disappointed, and
incapable of comprehending that it must be so, and that she, Jeanie, was
to be crossed at last and after all, her plaint disregarded, her prayer
refused. It had been her lot hitherto to get all her little requirements
in the end, however her mother or Marg’ret might at first stand out. And
the boys had been much ruled by Jeanie’s will, and had yielded to her as
big brothers often fail to do. She had never been crossed, in the end.
Opposition had been made to her, difficulties insisted upon, but in the
end they had always given way. Only once before had Jeanie come face to
face with a disappointment, which could not by anything she could do be
changed into happiness and content. It was the central incident in her
life, but it had been up to this moment the exception, the one adverse
event she had ever known. And it had been so great, so startling and
astonishing that the girl’s pride and all her strength had been roused
to conceal and surmount it, so that no one should ever suspect that to
her, Jeanie, any slight had ever come. To nobody but to Kirsteen, and to
her only when taken utterly by surprise, had this secret ever been
betrayed. Young Gordon had visited Glendochart from time to time during
the last years. He had come in the intervals of his service while Jeanie
grew and blossomed into womanhood. While she was still half child, half
woman, he had awakened in her heart that first delicious and strange
sense of power which is so great a revelation to a girl. His eyes had
said a thousand indistinct sweetnesses to her, which his lips had not
ventured to confess. He had been reverent of her extreme youth. He had
been kept back by his own uncertain prospects, by his want of money and
unsettled life, a soldier seeking advancement wherever it was to be
found. But none of these honourable reasons had been taken into account
by the girl who, convinced as she had been of his love, had seen him go
away with an amazement and shock of feeling scarcely comprehensible out
of the first absolutism and certainty of youth. He had gone away, saying
never a word. That he was overwhelmed with agitation and distress when
the summons to join his regiment (for which he professed to be looking
eagerly) came; that he had spoken of returning, of hopes that were
involved in his return, with allusions and suggestions that the poor
fellow thought plain enough, had all been invisible to Jeanie, or
disdained by her, as so many evidences of falsehood. Her little
imperious soul had been shaken as by a tempest. She to be forsaken,
wooed and abandoned, she before whom every one bowed, the flower of the
Highlands, as they called her!

And now Kirsteen had done the same. Once again, till the last moment
Jeanie had believed that her sister would yield, and she would have her
way. Just as she had expected that word which never came from Lewis
Gordon, she had expected from Kirsteen if it were but a word, a whisper
of consent at the last. Even while she held her cheek to be kissed,
turning away her eyes which were sullen with anger yet expectation, the
girl expected that Kirsteen might still whisper--“Come.” She had
contrived all in her own mind ready for that last moment--Kirsteen would
say, “Come, I’ll wait for you at the clachan,”--and all unsuspected, the
stranger having visibly departed, Jeanie would steal out, nobody taking
any notice, and fly along the road, and spring up light as a feather
beside Miss Macnab. What would it matter to her that there was no room?
She had planned it all. At the very last, as her mother used to do, as
Marg’ret did, compunction at the sight of Jeanie’s averted face would
seize upon Kirsteen. None of them could bear to see her vexed--and at
the last that feeling would be stronger than prudence or any wise
sentiment. Jeanie within herself had been sure of this; but she had been
deceived. And after she had watched with incredulous angry eyes full of
a mist of bitterness--for tears she would not shed to acknowledge
herself defeated--the actual going away without a word of her sister,
she had fled to her room and flung herself upon her bed, even now not
without an ear intent on any sound that might indicate Kirsteen’s
return, to say yet the tardy “Come,” to her little sister. But the
wintry afternoon closed down, the light faded away, and stillness fell
upon the house. There was nothing to be heard but the echo of the linn
which always mingled with everything, and Merran’s heavy footstep and
Marg’ret’s distant voice in the kitchen. Kirsteen was gone. It was
impossible to believe it, but it was true. She was gone like _him_--him
for whom she had spoken, who was her friend, for like draws to like,
Jeanie cried furiously to herself, in the silence. They had gone
away--both of them!--the man who loved her, and the sister who was
evidently born for no such important end as to save and succour
Jeanie--both! They had gone away, and she was left alone--to meet her
fate.

Jeanie was not of the simple fibre of her family. Perhaps her condition
of spoiled child had done something towards the development of a
different character, but that character was there in the first place to
be developed. Her impatient determination to have what she wanted, to be
happy, to get such amusements, privileges, and advantages as were
comprehensible to her, without consideration as to whether they were
possible or not, or what the result of her satisfaction would be--was
very different both from the steadfastness of Kirsteen, and the calm
self-seeking of Mary. Jeanie had a passion in her which would not be
gainsaid. She did not understand obstacles except as things to be
eluded, pushed aside, thrust out of the way, arbitrarily, imperiously,
whether they were just or even necessary or not. She could not
understand that she had been born for anything but to be paramount, to
be loved and admired, and happy. Her lover and heaven itself had wronged
her by holding back that happiness that was her due. And when there
seemed a prospect that it was to come back to her, Jeanie’s heart rushed
at the hope with a fervour which was largely made up of fury and
indignation. The thought of a future more brilliant than any she could
have had with Gordon filled her with fierce delight, principally from
the hope that he would hear of it, perhaps see it and recognize her
superior bliss and his loss. This, more than a girl’s natural vanity in
being followed by one so much above her in rank, and far more than any
feeling for Lord John, had made his attentions delightful to her. Jeanie
had been taken like her sisters before her to the ball at the Castle;
but hers were not merely the good looks of Kirsteen or the comeliness of
Mary. It had not been possible to keep the little beauty in the
background. Even the noble party of visitors and relations who were
usually so little interested by the lairds and their belongings were
moved by Jeanie. She was introduced among them, danced with, talked to,
while the others of her class looked on grim or smiling as their case
might be. That Jeanie had been excited and delighted by her triumph it
is needless to say; what was much more extraordinary was that her
father, though he said nothing, felt for the first time the true
sensation of that superiority which he had believed in and asserted all
his life. The beauty and brightness which dazzled everybody were but the
natural emanation of her blood, to Drumcarro. “Oh, ay, she’s of the real
auld Douglas kind,” he said with proud carelessness when compliments
were paid him. That the Douglases should gain a triumph through a lassie
was a thing that he had scarcely been able to bring himself to believe;
but when this triumph was accomplished for him, his pride accepted it as
a thing to be looked for. Was not she a Douglas? That explained all.

And when Lord John appeared “incognity” as Marg’ret said, in the little
shooting lodge on the hill, both father and daughter had responded after
their kind. Drumcarro had felt the suggestion of an alliance with the
other noble house which had outstripped his in honours, but never to his
consciousness excelled or even equalled it in antiquity and nobility, to
be a gratifying circumstance and high testimonial to his superiority to
everything around, but he had not contemplated it with any surprise. To
get a Douglas as his wife was honour enough for any duke’s son; but the
thought of being so closely allied to the Duke gave him on his side a
proud satisfaction. It was a great thing for a daughter to do who was
only a daughter, and of no account whatever. Jeanie too felt a subtle
elation in her veins, a sense of high promotion, but not in so simple a
way. When _he_ heard of it what would he think? was the burden of her
thoughts. He would see that Jeanie Douglas was not one to be deserted,
left or taken up again at his pleasure. She pictured to herself meeting
him in some vague grandeur of a party in London, and a hundred times in
her heart rehearsed the bow she would give him, the sweeping curtsey,
the fine progress past him which she would make on her husband’s arm.
The husband himself had a very secondary place--but that did not occur
to Jeanie. He was understood as the occasion of all that grandeur, the
sharer of it no doubt; but the exquisite revenge of such an encounter
was what in her first vague sense of triumph, Jeanie chiefly pictured to
herself.

The girl was not, however, herself enlightened by this curious evidence
of the state of her mind. She had not begun to think about her thoughts;
all was straightforward and simple with her, as with a young savage. On
the other side Lord John did not leave her in any doubt as to his
feelings. His declaration of love was not delayed by any scruples--but
neither was it followed by any of those practical steps which even in
Jeanie’s limited experience were usual in the circumstances. It is true
that Jeanie herself was coy, and held off from the warm love-making of
her suitor, keeping him at arm’s length; but no reference to her father,
none of the suggestions and arrangements into which happy lovers rush
ever came from Lord John’s lips. He spoke indeed of the time when they
should be always together, but said not a word as to when or how that
should be. It was less difficult to Jeanie to keep such a secret than it
would have been for most girls. Her mother was ill, her father, as she
supposed, utterly indifferent, no sister near to whom her heart could be
opened. And to be secret in love was one of the traditions of the time
and country. But still after a time she began to feel that there was
something, she could not tell what, unexpected, undesirable, in her
lover. When he spoke of marriage it was with a scoff and jeer. Even,
however, when the moment came in which he told her that marriage in the
ordinary way, with all the publicity usually surrounding that event, was
impossible to him, Jeanie was not suspicious enough to be defiant.
“You’ll have to steal out some night, and trust yourself to me and let
me carry you away,” he said, “that’s what we’ll have to do. My bonny
Jeanie will trust herself to me.”

“That is what Anne did,” cried Jeanie, startled. “My father would not
give his consent; and he has never seen her again. We dare not say her
name. But maybe,” she added after a pause, “it would be different with
you.”

“I think it would be different with me,” he said, with a laugh that
somehow offended Jeanie, she could not tell how. But then he began to
lavish sweet words and praises upon her, so that the girl’s vanity was
soothed and her imagination excited. He told her where he would take
her--to London, and then abroad, which was a word of no tangible import
to her ignorance, but meant only everything that was brilliant and
splendid--and of all the beautiful places she should see, and the
beautiful things she should have.

“I suppose,” said Jeanie, “we would go to see the king?”

“There is no king, in that way,” he said, with a laugh.

“But there is a court, for we see it in the paper,” said Jeanie. “If it
is the prince, it would just be the same.”

“We’ll not go to the court this time,” he said, with another of those
laughs which wounded Jeanie, she could not tell how.

“I thought it was the right way,” said Jeanie, thoughtfully. What she
was thinking was, that in that case she would not meet _him_, and that
the heart of her triumph would be lost.

“In some cases,” he said, still laughing, “but not in ours, my lovely
dear. We will never think of the world, we’ll think only of love.
Whatever’s pleasantest my Jeanie shall see, but nothing so bonny as
herself.”

“There will be many things in London besides the court--there is my
sister Kirsteen,” said Jeanie, still musing. “Oh, I will be glad to see
Kirsteen.”

“It’s clear I am not enough for my Jeanie, though my Jeanie is enough
for me!”

“Oh, it is not that,” said Jeanie, vaguely. In her heart, however, there
was no doubt a sensation that to dazzle _him_ with her grandeur, and to
make her sister a spectator of her new and exalted life, were the things
to which she looked forward most.

“I’ll not promise to take you to Kirsteen, any more than to take you to
court,” he said. “I’ll promise nothing that takes your mind off me. To
think of having you all to myself is enough for me. I mean to carry you
off to some Italian bower, where there will be nothing to do but love,
and love, and----”

“Till you are tired of love, as you call it, and me too,” said Jeanie,
with a little disdain.

He gave her a curious look, wondering if at last the little simplicity
had fathomed what he really meant. But Jeanie’s eyes were all
untroubled, and her brow serene. She was disappointed and dissatisfied
with his way; but only because it was not her way, and contrary to her
expectations, not that she had divined the shame that was in his heart.

But one day a gleam of strange light burst upon the girl. He had been
telling her of one of his friends, who had gone to those Italian bowers,
and of the life he led; the lake, the moonlight, the myrtles and roses
in the middle of winter, till Jeanie’s eyes grew bright. “We will get
him to look for a place for us, on the water’s edge,” Lord John said. No
thought of suspicion, or of finding her lover out, was in Jeanie’s mind.
She asked, as a girl does, eager to hear of others in the same
circumstances as herself, “And is he married, too?”

For the moment she could not comprehend the hurried demonstration, the
embarrassment of Lord John among his caresses, the laugh, always so
distasteful to her. “They don’t think of that out there,” he said, “they
don’t put you in chains out there, they trust everything to love--as my
Jeanie is going to do.”

What did it mean? She was always shy of these vehement caresses--she
freed herself, with a strange chill upon her, and said that she must go.
They had been wandering by the side of the linn, under the bare,
over-arching trees; and Jeanie would not listen to the explanations
which he was anxious to make, and which she understood no more than the
offence. She was sure of nothing but that she must get away.




CHAPTER XX.


Jeanie fled to her own room, and all that had been said went vaguely
rolling and sweeping through her mind like clouds blowing up for a
storm. A hundred things he had said came drifting up--singly they had no
meaning, and without something in her own soul to interpret them they
would have conveyed no enlightenment to the uninstructed Highland girl.
Even now, though aroused and frightened, it was very hard for Jeanie to
put in shape or to explain to herself, what were the suspicions and the
uneasiness she felt,--“they don’t think of that out there, they don’t
put you in chains out there,”--what did it mean? Jeanie knew that there
was a kind of _persiflage_--though she did not know the word nor yet
what it meant--in which marriage was spoken of as bondage, and it was
said of a man that he was going up for execution on his marriage day.
That was said “in fun” she knew. Was Lord John in fun? Was it a jest,
and no more? But there was something uncertain, something dissatisfied
in Jeanie’s heart which would not be calmed down by any such
explanation. What, oh, what did he mean? She was not to be taken to
court, nor even to see Kirsteen. She was to go to that Italian bower
where all was trusted to love. An Italian bower sounded like Paradise to
Jeanie. She had not the most remote idea what it was. She was prepared
to believe anything, to allow of any difference between the conditions
of life there and those she knew. That might be quite right in an
Italian bower which was not right in a Highland glen. She was bewildered
in her innocence and simplicity; and yet that very simplicity gave her
the sensation that all was not well.

After this there was a long interval in her intercourse with Lord John.
He wandered about the glen and the hillside, but she took care never to
fall in his way, the excitement of eluding him making a kind of
counterpoise for the absence of the excitement there used to be in
meeting him. And then he began to make frequent calls, to endure
interviews with Drumcarro and inquire into Mrs. Douglas’s ailments in
order to see Jeanie, to whom he directed the most appealing looks. And
the impression and suspicion gradually died away from her mind. When she
met him by accident after this interval out of doors, and he was free to
demand explanations, Jeanie hung her head and said nothing. How could
she explain? She had nothing to explain. And once more, though with
self-reproach, the daily walks and talks were resumed. In her dull life
it was the only relief. Her mother was growing more and more helpless
and wanted more and more attention. And when Jeanie stole out from her
long nursing for a breath of air no doubt it pleased and exhilarated her
to see him waiting, to receive his welcome and all the tender words he
could think of. Drumcarro himself saw them together, and made no remark.
Marg’ret saw them together and was glad and proud to see the favourite
of the house courted by the Duke’s son. Thus no one helped Jeanie, but
everything persuaded her against her own perception that all was not
well.

That perception, however, grew stronger and stronger, but with it a
longing of Jeanie’s forlorn youth for the only pleasure that remained in
her life. He flattered her so, he conveyed to her in every word and look
such evidence of her own delightfulness, of her power over him, and his
devotion to her! And all the rest of life was so overcast to Jeanie, so
dull and grey, so destitute of pleasure. It was like a momentary escape
into that Italian bower of which he spoke, to go out to him, to see his
eyes glowing with admiration, to hear of all the delightsome things
which were waiting for her. Day by day it became more clear to Jeanie
that Lord John’s love was not like that of those downright wooers at
whom she had once scoffed, who would have her answer yes or no, and left
nothing vague in respect to their wishes. It occurred to her too, though
she would not permit it to put itself into words, even in her mind, that
his love was not like that which she had been so sure of in Lewis
Gordon’s eyes, but which had never been spoken. Lord John was bold,
there was no timidity nor reverence in his look, he was confident,
excited, sure that he had her in his toils. All these the girl saw with
the perspicacity of despair--yet could not free herself or break away.
With him she divined there might be shame lying in wait for her, but
with him, too, was all that was brilliant and fair in life. A time of
splendour, of pleasure, of joy, if after that despair--while within her
own possibilities there was nothing but the given routine, the dull
existence in which nothing ever stirred, in which no pleasure was. Oh,
if only something would come, she cared not what. Death or a
saviour--what did it matter?--to carry Jeanie away.

And now Kirsteen had come and gone. Kirsteen who was her natural
saviour, the only one who could have done it. Kirsteen who knew _him_,
and said that he was true. The wail, “Take me with you!” had come from
Jeanie’s very heart. But Kirsteen had gone away, and every hope had
failed. And as for the party at home they were all elated by the visits
of Lord John, all expectant of a grand marriage, which would bring back
something of the old _prestige_ to Drumcarro. “When ye are so near the
head, Jeanie, I hope you’ll be mindful of the branches,” said Mary.
“It’s not just an invitation to the ball which everybody is asked to
that will satisfy me then.” No thought of possible wrong was in the
innocent fancies of all these people. They ought to have known, but they
did not. They ought to have taken fright, but no alarm came to them.
The man who would try to wrong a Douglas, Mary thought, could never be
born.

There had been again a pause during the time when the atmosphere of
death had surrounded the house. Jeanie had seen him pass from a window.
She had heard his voice at the door inquiring for the family. He had
sent some flowers, an unusual and unexpected compliment, to decorate the
death-chamber, for to put flowers on a coffin or a grave was not then
the habit in England and still less in Scotland. All these attentions
had added to the elation and pleasure of the others, but had not
silenced the terror in Jeanie’s heart. And now all was over, the pause
for her mother’s death, the visit of Kirsteen, the hope she had of
something or of some one, who would interfere to save her. Even to hear
of Lewis Gordon had added to the fire in Jeanie’s veins. She would not
have him come to find her at his disposal, to know how she had suffered
in the thought of his desertion. No! he should find that there was some
one else who did not hold back, some one who would not let her go, some
one--oh, hapless Jeanie!--whom she could no longer escape, towards whom
she was drifting without any power to stop herself though it should be
towards tears and shame. Better even that, Jeanie said to herself, than
to wait upon the leisure of a man who thought he could let her drop and
take her up again at his pleasure. Her mind was disturbed beyond
description, confused and miserable. She was afloat upon a dreadful
current which carried her away, from which some one outside could save
her, but not herself, against which she seemed now to have no force to
struggle more.

Jeanie made still another stand, lashing herself, as it were, against
the violence of that tide to the companions whom for the moment she had
in the house with her, even to Mary by whom she could hold, a little in
want of other help. Mary was not a very enlivening companion for the
girl--all she could talk about was her children, and the vicissitudes of
her household, and the wit and wisdom of little Colin. But Mary was not
exigeant as to her listeners. So long as she was allowed to go on in her
monologue her companion was called upon for no reply. And thus Jeanie’s
thoughts had full scope, and increased instead of softened the tension
of being in which she was; she seemed unable to escape that current
which drew her unwilling feet.

She met him again on the last day of the Glendocharts’ stay. Though Mary
gave her so little help, Jeanie regarded with terror the time of her
sister’s departure. She felt as if then her last hope would fail her.
There would be no longer anything to which to cling, any counterpoise to
the influence which was hurrying her to her destruction. She had gone
out in the afternoon with a bad headache, and a still worse tremor and
throbbing in her heart, feeling that need for the fresh air and the
stillness outside, and a moment’s exemption from the voices and the
questions within, which people in agitation and trouble so often feel.
She had not thought of Lord John at all, or of meeting him. She felt
only that she must breathe the outer air and be alone for a moment, or
else die.

She sat down upon the same fallen tree on which she had sat with
Kirsteen. The voice of the linn was softer than ever, stilled by the
frost into a soothing murmur. The bare trees stirred their many branches
over her head, as if to shield her from any penetrating look, whether
from earth or sky. “Oh, what am I to do?” she said to herself. How often
these words are said by people in mortal perplexity, in difficulty and
trouble. What to do, when you have no alternative but one, no temptation
but one? But everything was against Jeanie, and all, who ought to have
protected her, fought against her, and made it more and more difficult
to resist. She bent down her face into her hands, and repeated to
herself that question, “What am I to do?--What am I to do?” Jeanie did
not know how long she had been there, or how much time had elapsed
before with a start, and a sense of horror, her heart struggling to her
throat, she felt a pair of arms encircle her, and a voice in her ear:
“Crying, Jeanie! Why should you cry--you who should never have a care?
You would never have a care if you would trust yourself, as I am
imploring you to do, to me.”

Poor Jeanie’s heart was sick with conflicting emotions, with the
temptation and the strong recoil from it. She could make no reply, could
not lift her head, or escape from his arms, or control the sudden access
of sobbing that had come upon her. Her sobbing became audible in the
stillness of the wintry scene, through the sound of the linn and the
faint rustling of the trees. “Oh, go away and leave me! Oh, let me be!”
Jeanie said among her sobs. Perhaps she did not altogether mean it,
neither the one thing nor the other--neither that he should go nor stay.

He stayed, however, and talked more earnestly than he had ever done
before. Not of the Italian bower, but of the two living together,
sharing everything, never apart. He had the house all ready to which he
would take her, he said; a house fit for her, waiting for its
mistress--everything was ready but Jeanie. And why should she hold back?
Did she not know he loved her? Had she any doubt? She could not have any
doubt; all his study would be to make her happy. She knew that he had no
other thought. “Jeanie, Jeanie, only say yes; only yield that pride of
yours; you know you have yielded in your heart.”

“No,” cried Jeanie, sitting upright, drawing herself from him. “No, I
have not yielded. There is but one way. Go and ask my father, and then I
will go with you. I will go with you,” she repeated, one belated sob
coming in breaking her voice, “wherever you want me to go.”

“Speak to your father? But you know that is what I cannot do. I have
told you already I would have to speak to my father, too. And he--would
put me into a madhouse or a prison. You know, my sweet love, for I have
told you--but must we be parted by two old fathers with no feeling left
in them? Jeanie, if you will be ready by ten o’clock, or any hour you
please, I will have a postchaise waiting. Oh, Jeanie, come! Just a
little boldness, just one bold step, and then nothing can harm us more;
for we’ll be together--for ever!” said the young man in his fervour. She
had risen up, putting him away from her, but he pressed to her side
again. “You have gone too far to go back now,” he said. “Jeanie, I’ll
take no denial. To-night, to-night, my lovely dear.”

“No,” she said, her heart throbbing as if it would break, putting one
hand against his shoulder to push him away from her. “Oh, no, no!” but
her eyes met the glowing gaze of his, and the current was seizing her
feet.

“That means yes, yes--for two no’s make a consent,” cried Lord John,
seizing her again in his arms.

Drumcarro had scoffed at Kirsteen and her warning, but like many another
suspicious man, he had remembered the warning he scorned. He had kept an
eye upon all Jeanie’s movements since that day. On this afternoon he had
seen her steal out, and had cautiously followed her. It was not
difficult on the soft grass, doubly soft with the penetrating moisture
like a bank of green mossy sponge, to steal along without making any
noise; and the trees were thick enough to permit a wayfarer to steal
from trunk to trunk undiscovered, especially when those who were watched
were so altogether unafraid. Thus Drumcarro, his tall shadow mingled
with the trees, had come close to the log on which they sat, and had
heard everything. No scruple about listening moved his mind. With his
hand grasping a young birch, as if it were a staff, he stood grim and
fierce, and heard the lovers talk. His eyes gave forth a gleam that
might have set the wood on fire when he heard of the postchaise, and the
young tree shivered in his hand. Jeanie was at the end of her powers.
She put up her hand to her face to cover it from the storm of her
lover’s kisses. His passion carried her away. She murmured, _No, no!_
still, but it was in gasps, with her failing breath.

“You’ll come, you’re coming--to-night--and hurrah for love and freedom,”
cried Lord John.

At this moment he was seized from behind by the collar of his coat--a
furious hand full of force and passion caught him with sudden, wild,
overpowering strength--Lord John was young but not strong, his slim form
writhed in the sudden grasp. There was a moment’s struggle, yet scarcely
a struggle, as Drumcarro assumed his choking hold. And then something
dashed through the air with the speed and the force of a
thunderbolt--flung by sheer force of passion. A gasping cry, and an
answering roar of the linn as if to swallow down in its caves the object
tossed and spinning down--a flash far below. And in another moment all
was still.

What was it that had been done? Jeanie looking up to see her father’s
transformed and impassioned face, and finding herself free, had fled in
the first impulse of terror. And on the log where the lovers had been
seated, the old man sat down quivering with the strain he had made,
wiping the drops of moisture from his forehead. He was old, but not
beyond the strength of his prime; the unaccustomed effort had brought
out the muscles on his hands, the veins upon his forehead. The blood was
purple in his face. His capacious chest and shoulders heaved; he put his
hand, the hand that had done it, to his mouth, to blow upon it, to
relieve the strain. He sat down to recover his breath.

How still everything was!--as it is after a rock has fallen, after a
tree has been torn up, the silence arching over the void before any
whispering voice gets up to say where is it. The waters and the sighing
branches both seemed still--with horror. And Drumcarro blew upon his
hand which he had strained, and wiped the perspiration from his face.

After a while he rose, still panting a little, his feet sinking into the
spongy grass, and went homeward. He met nobody on the way, but seeing
Duncan in the yard where he was attending to the cattle, beckoned to him
with his hand. Duncan came at the master’s call, but not too quickly.
“Ye were wanting me, sir,” he said. “No--I was not wanting you.” “Ye
cried upon me, maister.” “No, I did not cry upon you--is it me that
knows best or you? Go back to your beasts.” Drumcarro stood for a moment
and watched the man turn back reluctantly, then he raised his voice:
“Hey, Duncan--go down yonder,” pointing his thumb over his
shoulder--“and see if anything’s happened. I’m thinking there’s a
man--tummult over the linn.” Having said this the master went quietly to
his own room and shut himself up there.




CHAPTER XXI.


Duncan gave a great start at this strange intimation--“Tummult over the
linn!” That was not an accident to be spoken of in such an easy way. He
put down the noisy pail he had been carrying in his hand. “Lord!” he
said to himself; but he was a man slow to move. Nevertheless after two
or three goings back upon himself, and thoughts that “the maister must
have gone gyte,” Duncan set himself slowly in motion. “A man tummult
o’er the linn--that’s a very sarious thing,” he said to himself. It was
a great ease to his mind to see Glendochart coming down the path from
the hill, and he stopped until they met. “Sir,” said Duncan, “have ye
noticed anything strange about the maister?” “Strange about Drumcarro? I
have noticed nothing beyond the ordinary,” was the reply. “What has he
been doing, Duncan?” “He has been doing naething, Glendochart. But he
just came upon me when I was doing my wark in the yaird. And I says,
‘Are ye wanting me, maister?’ And he says, ‘Me wanting ye? No, I’m no
wanting ye.’ But afore I can get back to my wark I hear him again,
‘Duncan!’ ‘What is it, maister?’ says I. And says he, ‘I think there’s a
man tummult over the linn. Ye can go and see.’”

“Tumbled over the linn!” cried Glendochart “Good Lord! and did ye go and
see?”

“I’m on the road now,” said Duncan; “a man cannot do everything at
once.”

“The man may be drowned,” cried Glendochart, turning round quickly. “Run
on, Duncan, for the Lord’s sake. I’m not so surefooted as the like of
you, but I’ll follow ye by the road, as fast as I can. A man over the
linn! Dear me, but that may be a very serious matter.”

“I was just saying that,” said Duncan plunging down upon the spongy
grass. He slid and stumbled, tearing long strips of moss off the roots
of the trees with which he came in heavy contact, striding over the
fallen trunk which had played so great a part in the drama of that
afternoon. There were signs of footsteps there, and Duncan slid on the
slippery and trampled soil and came down on his back, but got up again
at once and took no notice. This accident perhaps delayed him for a
moment, and the need of precaution as he descended after such a warning.
At all events Glendochart coming quickly by the roundabout of the road
arrived only a moment after, and found Duncan dragging out upon the bank
an inanimate figure which had apparently been lying half in half out of
the stream. Duncan’s ruddy face had grown suddenly pale. “Lord keep us!
Do ye think he’s dead, sir?”

“I hope not, Duncan,” said Glendochart, kneeling down by the body; but
after a few minutes, both men scared and horror-stricken bending over
the figure on the grass, “God preserve us,” he said, “I fear it is so.
Do you know who it is?”--then a hoarse exclamation burst from them both.
“It’s the young lord from the lodge on the hill--It’s Lord John! God
preserve us!” cried Glendochart again. “What can this mean? But a man
that’s drowned may be brought to life again,” he added. “How are we to
get him home?”

Duncan, roused by the wonderful event which had thus come in a moment
into the tranquil ordinary of his life, rushed along the road calling
with a roar for help, which it was not easy to find in that lonely
place. However there proved to be one or two people within call--the
gamekeeper who lived at the lodge inhabited by Lord John, and the
blacksmith from the clachan, who had been carrying some implement home
to a distant mountain farm. They managed to tie some branches roughly
together to make a sort of litter and thus carried the dead man to
Drumcarro, which was the nearest house. The sound of the men’s feet and
Glendochart’s call at the door, brought out every member of the
household except the laird, who remained in his room with the door
closed and took no notice. Glendochart and the gamekeeper had both some
rude notion of what to do, and they acted upon their knowledge, roughly
it is true, but with all the care they were capable of. Duncan on
horseback, and less apt to spare his horse’s legs than his own,
thundered off for a doctor. But the doctor was not easily found, and
long before his arrival the rough methods of restoring animation had all
been given up. Lord John lay on the mistress’s unoccupied bed to which
he had been carried, like a marble image, with all the lines that a
careless life had made showing still upon the whiteness of death, the
darkness under the eyes, the curves about the mouth. His wet clothes,
which had been cut from the limbs to which they clung, lay in a muddy
heap smoking before the now blazing fire. They had piled blankets over
him and done everything they knew to restore the vital heat--but without
avail.

“How did it happen?” the doctor said--but this no man could tell. They
gathered together in an excited yet awestricken group to consult
together, to put their different guesses together, to collect what
indications might be found. Duncan thought that the collar of the coat
was torn as if some one had grasped the poor young man “by the scruff of
the neck.” There was a bruise on his throat which might have come from
the hand thus inserted--but his face had several bruises upon it from
contact with the rocks, and his clothes had been so torn and cut up that
they afforded little assistance in solving the problem. To send for some
member of his family, and to make the sheriff aware of all the
circumstances was evidently the only thing to do.

Jeanie had fled without a word, without a look behind her, when her
lover’s arm loosened from her waist, and her father’s hoarse and angry
voice broke in upon the scene. No thought of any tragedy to follow was
in Jeanie’s mind. She had never seen her father take any violent action;
his voice, his frowns, had always been enough, there had been no need
for more. She thought of an angry altercation, a command to come near
the house no more, so far as she thought at all. But she scarcely did
think at all. She fled, afraid of her lover, afraid of her father, not
sure, to tell the truth, which she feared most--glad that the situation
was over, that she could escape by any means. She sped up the wooded
bank, out of the shadow of the bare trees about the linn, like a
frightened bird--flying, never looking behind. Pausing a moment to take
breath before she ran round to the house door, she was thankful to hear
no voices in anger, but all fallen into quiet again, nothing but the
sound of the linn, louder she thought for the cessation of other sounds;
and concluding rapidly in her mind that her father had reserved his
anger for her, and let Lord John go--not a just, but according even to
Jeanie’s small experience, a sufficiently usual turn of affairs--she
went on more quietly to the house, that no hasty rush on her part, or
self-disclosure of agitation, might call forth Mary’s remarks or the
questions of Marg’ret. But the agitation of the moment was not over for
Jeanie. She saw some one approaching the door from the road as she came
within sight. It was too late to escape, and she instinctively put up
her hand to smooth her hair, and drew a few long breaths to overcome
altogether the panting of her heart, that the stranger, whoever he
might be, might not perceive how disturbed she was. But when Jeanie had
taken a step or two further, her heart suddenly made a leap again, which
swept all her precautions away. “Oh!” she cried, with almost a shriek of
agitated recognition, “now of all moments in the world---- That he
should come now!”

“I am afraid,” he said, “I cannot think that cry means any pleasure to
see me, though I am so glad to be here.”

Oh, to think he should be able to speak, to use common words, as if they
had parted yesterday--as if nothing had happened since then!

“Oh, Captain Gordon,” she said, breathless; then added, not knowing what
she said, “You’ve been long away.”

“Not with my will. I’ve nothing but my profession, and I was forced to
do all I could in that. If it had been my will--”

“Oh,” said Jeanie, “I cannot talk; my sister is here, you will want to
see her--but for me, I cannot talk. I am--not well. I am in--grief and
trouble. Don’t stop me now, but let me go.”

He stood aside, without a word, his hat in his hand, looking at her
wistfully. His look dwelt in her mind as she hurried up stairs. It was
not like the look of Lord John--the look that terrified, yet excited
her. He had come for her, for her and no one else; but he would not stop
her, nor trouble her. It was of her he thought, not of himself. Jeanie’s
heart came back like an unbent bow. This was the man that she loved.
She fled from him, not daring to meet his eyes--but she felt as if some
chain had been broken, some bond cut. Lord John! What was Lord John? She
was afraid of him no more.

Major Gordon did not know what to do. He lingered a little, unable with
the excitement in his veins of having seen his love again, to knock
presently at the door and ask for the lady of Glendochart. After a time
the sound of a heavy step caught his ear, and the loud interchange of
words between Duncan and his master. Then the heavy steps came on
towards the door. It must be Drumcarro himself who was coming. Major
Gordon drew aside to await the coming of Jeanie’s father. Mr. Douglas
came round the side of the house, with his hands thrust deep into his
pockets and his shoulders up to his ears. He was staring before him with
a fierce intensity, the kind of look which sees nothing. Gordon made a
step forward, and said some common words of greeting, at which Drumcarro
lifted his puckered eyelids for a moment, said “Eh?” with a sort of
hasty interrogation, and then turning his back went in and closed the
door behind him, leaving the stranger astonished. What did it mean?
Gordon thought at first a studied slight to him, but farther thought
showed him that this was absurd, and with some surprise he set it down
to its true cause--some secret trouble in Drumcarro’s mind, some thought
which absorbed him. After a moment’s astonished pause he turned back
upon the road, concluding that whatever this excitement was, by and by
it would die away. He walked, perhaps a mile, occupied by his own
thoughts, by Jeanie, who was more lovely, he thought, than ever, and by
eager speculations what she would say to him; whether perhaps after all
she might not be glad to see him when she had got over the first
surprise; whether it was merely haste and that great surprise that made
her turn away. Gordon had occupation enough for his thoughts had he
walked on the whole afternoon; but presently he turned back, remembering
what Jeanie had said, that her sister was at Drumcarro, and glad to
think of so reasonable a way of getting admittance. He had just come up
to the house again, and was approaching the door, when he was met by the
group of men coming down from their hopeless attempts to resuscitate the
dead. He was much surprised to see this party come to the door, and
stepped out of the way with vexation and annoyance, feeling himself and
his urgent affairs thrust as it were into a secondary place by this
evidence of something going on at Drumcarro. The men, of whom at first
he recognized none, were exchanging grave observations, shaking their
heads, with puzzled and troubled looks. At the sight of him there was a
visible stir among them. One of them stepped forward hastily, and caught
him by the arm, “Who are you? And what are you doing here?”

“Glendochart, you seem to have forgotten me. I am Lewis Gordon, whom you
were once very kind to.”

“Captain Gordon!”

“Major, at your service; I got my step in India.”

“Gordon!” repeated Glendochart. It was natural enough that every new
idea should chime in with the terrible one that now possessed his mind.
He remembered in a moment who the young man was, and all that had been
said and thought of him. He had been Jeanie’s lover. It seemed to throw
a sudden gleam of illumination on the mystery. “Step in, step in here,
and come you with me,” he said, laying his hand on the doctor’s arm.
With a slight summons at the door, but without waiting for any reply he
led them into his father-in-law’s room. Drumcarro was sitting at his
usual table with his head leant upon his hands. He turned half round but
did not otherwise change his attitude, as these newcomers entered,
darkening the little room.

“I beg your pardon, Drumcarro,” said Glendochart, “but it’s urgent. I
must ask this gentleman a few questions in the presence of some
responsible person--Captain Gordon, or Major if ye are Major, answer me
for the love of God. Ye may do a hasty act, but you’re not one that will
shrink from the consequence, or I’m far mistaken in you. When did you
come here?”

“This is a strange way of receiving a friend,” said Gordon with
surprise. “I came here about half an hour ago.”

“But you did not come in?”

“No--I saw--one of the family.”

“And then? Still you did not come in?”

“No, I walked back a mile or so to wait--and then hearing that you were
here, and Mrs. Campbell--I returned.”

“Why did you not come in?”

“I really cannot tell you the reason,” said Gordon, a little irritated.
“There was no particular reason.”

Said the doctor, perceiving where Glendochart’s questions were tending:
“It will be far better for you to tell the truth. It might be an
accident, but denial will do no good.”

“Am I accused of anything?” said the stranger in great surprise.

“A stranger about the place at such a time is very suspicious,” said the
doctor, shaking his head. “The best thing you could do, Glendochart,
would be to detain him till the sheriff comes.”

Drumcarro raised his head from his supporting hands. His habitual
redness had changed to grey. He spoke with some difficulty moistening
his lips. He said, “Whatever ye may be thinking of, this lad’s tale’s
true. I saw him come, and I saw him go. If there’s any man to blame it’s
not him.”

They all turned round to where Mr. Douglas sat; the afternoon light was
by this time waning, and they had difficulty in seeing each other’s
faces. Drumcarro after a moment resumed again. The want of light and the
deep sound of his voice, and the scene from which they had just come,
made a strange horror of impression upon the men. He asked, “Is he
dead?”

“Yes, he is dead. And that minds me it was you that gave the alarm. What
did you see, Drumcarro?”

“I heard a rumbling as if the linn rose up to meet him, like hell in the
Scriptures to meet that king--and a thud here and there upon the
rocks--that’s all I heard.”

Nobody made any reply. No suspicion of the truth had occurred to any
mind, but something in the voice, and the language not familiar to the
man gave a vague sensation of solemnity and horror. The darkness seemed
to deepen round them, while this pause lasted. And Drumcarro said no
more, but leant his head upon his hands again. The silence was broken by
the doctor who said in a subdued tone: “We’ll better leave Mr. Douglas
quiet. It is a time of trouble--and the shock of this accident on the
top of all the rest--”

Drumcarro did not move, but he said between the two hands that supported
his head, “That man has nothing to do with it. I saw him come. And now
ye can let him go his way.”

They filed out of the room in silence with a vague dread upon them all.
Something strange was in the air. The dark figure by the table never
moved, his head on his hands, his big frame looking colossal in the
quivering twilight. The fire in the grate behind burned up suddenly and
threw a little flickering flame into the gloom relieving still more
that, motionless shadow. “It has been too much for the old gentleman,”
the doctor said in a whisper, as he closed the door.

“He’s none so old,” said Glendochart with a little irritation, mindful
of the fact that he was not himself much younger, and feeling the thrill
of nervous discomfort and alarm.

“I doubt if he’ll live to be much older. I do not like the looks of
him,” the doctor said.

It seemed to have become almost night when they came out into the hall.
The blacksmith and the gamekeeper and Duncan were standing in a group
about the door, the sky full of a twilight clearness behind them, and
one star in it, like a messenger sent out to see what dreadful thing had
happened. The air blew cold through the house from the open door, and
Mary crying and nervous stood at the door of the parlour behind. The
mother’s death which she had taken with such calm propriety was in the
course of nature, but the dreadful suddenness of this, the mystery about
it affected even her calm nerves. A second death in the house, and the
Duke’s son! It comforted Mary when Gordon left the group of men whose
meaning he did not even yet comprehend and joined her, to hear the
whole story, and yet not all.

The other men still stood consulting when the Glendochart carriage
arrived at the door; everybody had forgotten that the departure of the
visitors had been settled for that afternoon, Glendochart seized the
opportunity at once. “I will send the ladies away; this is no place for
them with all these new troubles,” he said, “and the express to the Duke
can travel so far with them.” It had occurred to Glendochart that the
less that could be made of Lord John’s intercourse with the family at
Drumcarro the better. He had not discouraged it himself; had it come to
a marriage which would have allied himself and his children so much more
nearly with the ducal family, it would have been no bad thing; but now
that there could be no marriage it was clear that it was neither for
Jeanie’s advantage, nor indeed for his own, to give any more publicity
than was necessary to the cause of Lord John’s presence here. And thus
it was that Jeanie without knowing why, yet willing enough to be carried
off at such a crisis even to Glendochart, found herself within half an
hour seated by her sister’s side driving off, with the darkness of night
behind her, and the clearness in the west reflected in her startled
eyes. Jeanie neither knew nor suspected that anything dreadful had
happened; but to escape her father’s eye and his questions after the
discovery he had made was relief enough to make her forget the bustle
and haste with which she was carried away. They were to give Major
Gordon “a lift as far as the town,” but Jeanie did not know this until
he followed her into the carriage, and then her heart so jumped up and
choked her with its beating that she thought no more of Drumcarro’s
wrath, nor of the deliverance from Lord John which she knew her father’s
interposition would make final.

And so Drumcarro House was once more, but with a deepened mystery and
terror, left with its dead. Mr. Douglas did not leave his room all the
evening. The call to supper made first by Marg’ret, then by Glendochart
knocking cautiously at his door, produced only the response of a growl
from within. No light was visible from under the door. No sound was
heard in the room. To all appearance he remained without moving or even
lighting his candle, until late at night his heavy step was heard going
up stairs to bed. Without a light, that was the strangest thing of all
to the keen but silent observers. There could be nothing on the master’s
mind or he could never have sat all the evening through knowing what it
was that lay in his wife’s room up stairs, without a light. They could
not imagine indeed how in any circumstances Drumcarro, an old man, could
have had anything to do with the death of Lord John, a young one, nor
what reason there could be for seeking his death, yet an uneasy fear was
in the air, and there was no one else who could be thought of. But that
circumstance cleared him. Without a light no man could sit who had been
instrumental in causing a man’s death, while that man lay dead in the
same house. Glendochart, whose mind was disturbed by many miserable
surmises, was comforted by this thought, though almost unconsciously to
himself.

And nobody knew what thoughts were going on in the dark in that closed
room. They were not thoughts specially about Lord John. They were the
bewildering circling of a mind suddenly driven into tragic
self-consciousness, about the entire chapter of his life now perhaps
about to be brought to an end. The sudden pang of the moment, his clutch
upon his victim (his hand hurt him still from the strain, and still now
and then he raised it to his mouth, to blow his hot breath upon it), the
whirl of that figure through the air, came back at intervals like a
picture placed before his eyes. But between those intervals there surged
up all manner of things. Old scenes far off and gone, incidents that had
taken place in the jungle and swamp, cries and sounds of the lash, and
pistol shots all long over and forgotten. One face, not white like Lord
John’s, but grey in its blackness, like ashes, came and wavered in the
darkness before him more distinct than the others. No ghost, he had no
faith in ghosts, nothing outside of him. Something within from which
even if they should hang him he knew he would not get free. Lord
John,--he thought very little of Lord John! And yet his hand hurt him,
the picture would come back, and the scene re-enact itself before his
eyes. Sometimes he dozed with his head in his hands. The chief thing was
that he should not be disturbed, that no one should come in to question
him, to interfere with his liberty, that night at least. That he should
be quiet that night if nevermore.




CHAPTER XXII.


The Duke arrived with his eldest son as soon as post-horses could bring
him. He had been in the north, not very far away, so that the interval,
though it represented much more difficult travelling than the journey
from one end to the other of Great Britain nowadays, was not very long.
Lord John had been a trouble to his family all his life. He had followed
none of the traditions of prudence and good sense which had made his
race what they were. The scrapes in which he had been were innumerable,
and all his family were aware that nothing but embarrassment and trouble
was likely to come to them from his hand. Sometimes this state of
affairs may exist without any breach of the bonds of natural affection;
but perhaps when a man is a duke and accustomed to have many things bow
to his will, the things and persons that cannot be made to do so become
more obnoxious to him than to a common man. No doubt a shock of natural
distress convulsed the father’s mind at the first news of what had
happened, but after a while there came, horrible as it seems to say it,
a certain relief into the august mind of the Duke. At least here was an
end of it; there could be no more to follow, no new disgraces or
inconveniences to be encountered. Scarcely a year had come or gone for
many years past without some fresh development of John’s powers of
mischief. Now, poor fellow! all was over; he could do no more harm, make
no more demands on a revenue which was not able to bear such claims,
endanger no more a name which indeed had borne a great deal in its day
without much permanent disadvantage. On the whole there was thus
something to set against the terrible shock of a son’s sudden death by
accident. A few questions thrown into the air as it were, a general
demand upon somebody for information burst from the Duke during that
long drive. “Where is this linn, do you know? What could he have wanted
there? On the land of that old ruffian, Drumcarro? And what did he want
there?” But to the last question at least no one could make any reply.
Even to speak of Drumcarro’s lovely daughter as an inducement would have
been a jarring note when the poor fellow was so recently dead. And the
Duke could answer his own question well enough; any petty intrigue would
be reason enough for John, the worse the better. His only fear was that
some dark story of seduction and revenge might unfold itself when he got
there.

It was Glendochart who received his chief when he reached his journey’s
end, and told him the little there was to tell. It was supposed that
Lord John had somehow missed his footing when at the head of the linn.
Some one had heard the sound of a fall, and the body had been found
below at the foot of the waterfall. This was all that could be
discovered at the end of two or three days which had elapsed. The Duke
saw, with a natural pang, his dead son laid out upon the mistress’s bed,
and then he visited the scene of the tragedy. He inspected everything
with a clouded countenance, asking brief, sharp questions from time to
time. To Glendochart he seemed suspicious of violence and foul play, a
suspicion which was lurking in Glendochart’s own mind, with strange
surmises which he could not put into words, but which his mind was on
the alert to find some clue to. This, however, was scarcely the Duke’s
frame of mind. After he had visited the spot where the body had been
found, and looked up the foaming fall of the linn, and heard everything
that could be told him, he put a sudden question which dismayed
Glendochart. “Have you any suspicions?” he said. “Has there been any
suggestion--of violence?”

“The idea has no doubt been suggested,” Mr. Campbell replied, “but I can
find nothing to give it any countenance. There were signs as of stamping
of feet at one place near the fallen tree, but the man who found the
body accounted for that as having slipped and fallen there.”

“It has been suggested then?” said the Duke, with another cloud coming
over his face. “Glendochart, I may speak freely to you that would bring
no discredit on the name. Was there any story, any reason for his
staying here?”

Glendochart felt his countenance redden, though it was of that well-worn
colour which shows little. He suddenly realised, with a sense of relief
unspeakable, what it would have been had Lord John lived and thriven, to
have intimated to the chief that his son had married Drumcarro’s
daughter. Glendochart had himself been flattered by the idea. He saw the
reverse of the medal now.

“I know of none,” he said, “my Lord Duke. He was more at this house than
at any other house round about.”

“And there was no story--no lass, disappointed perhaps--or angry father?
You know what I mean, Glendochart. One of my own name, and not so far
from me in blood, I know that I can trust you. You know, too--what my
poor boy was.”

“I understand what your Grace means,” said Glendochart. “I have heard of
nothing of the kind.”

“And who was it that heard the fall?”

“It was my father-in-law, Drumcarro himself. He was taking his usual
walk. I don’t imagine he ever thought it was so serious. He called to
the man in the byre to see to it, that he thought he had heard a fall.”

“I will see Drumcarro. I suppose----”

“If it will satisfy your Grace better--but he is an old man, and much
shaken with his wife’s death which took place only a fortnight ago.”

The Duke gave his clansman what looked like a suspicious glance. But he
only said, “It will be better not to disturb him. I would have thought,”
he added, “that old Drumcarro was tough enough to stand the loss of his
wife or anything else.”

“We sometimes do men injustice,” said Glendochart, a little stiffly;
“and the shock of having another death, so to speak, in the house, has
had a great effect upon his mind--or I should perhaps say his nerves.”

“Well, well, I will not disturb him,” said the Duke. He said no more
until they reached again the head of the linn. Then he stood for a few
minutes amid the spray, looking down as he had looked up the boiling
foam of waters. The cloud had gone off his face. He turned to his son,
by his side, who had said little all this time. “I think we may satisfy
ourselves that it was pure accident,” he said.

“I think so,” said the taintless heir, with a solemn nod of his head.

The Duke stood there for a moment more, and then he took off his hat and
said, “Thank God.” With all his heart, Glendochart echoed the surprising
words. He thought that he indeed had cause for thankfulness--that he
should never have had the occasion to approach his chief with news of an
alliance that would have been so little to his mind; that Jeanie’s name
should have been kept out of the matter altogether, and no questions put
to the old man whose nerves had been so strangely shaken. He had indeed
cause for thankfulness; but the Duke, why? Glendochart came to
understand later why the Duke should have been glad that no new scandal
was to be associated with the end of his son’s life.

And so Lord John was carried in great state to the burial place of his
fathers, and was rehabilitated with his family, and mourned by his
mother and sisters, like other men. And whatever the tragedy was that
attended his last hours it was buried with him, and never told to man.
There is no coroner in Scotland; and in those remote regions, and at
that period, the Duke’s satisfaction that his son’s death was caused by
accident was enough for all.

Drumcarro scarcely left his room while that solemn visitor was in the
house. He appeared after, a singularly changed and broken man, and fell
into something like the habits of his old life. There had been no secret
in his strange retirement, but there was no doubt left in the mind of
any who surrounded him, that something had happened which was not in the
peaceful routine of existence. They formed their own impressions at
their leisure; it was nothing to the laird what they thought. He had
deceived no man, neither had he confided in any man. When Glendochart
left the house, taking charge of the mournful conveyance which carried
Lord John home, life at Drumcarro would, in any circumstances, have been
a wonderfully changed and shrunken life. It was the first time that the
diminished family had been left alone since the death of the mistress.
At the family table, once so well surrounded, Drumcarro sat down with
his one remaining son, and the vast expanse of the wide table-cloth
vacant save in that corner. It did not occur to any one to substitute a
smaller table for the long-stretching board where there had been room
for all. Jamie, who was never seen without a book, compensated himself
for the silence and anxiety of this _tête-à-tête_ by reading furtively,
while his father sat with his shoulders up to his ears, and his eyes,
almost lost in his shaggy eyebrows, glaring out now and then with a
glance of gloomy fire. It was rarely that he addressed the boy, and the
boy escaped from him into his book. The mother was gone, Jeanie was
gone, every one who could make that empty board a little brighter. The
father and son swallowed their meal side by side, but did not prolong it
any more than was possible. The sight of them affected Merran’s nerves
when she served them, though that ruddy lass might well have been
supposed to have no such things in her possession. “There’s the laird
just glowering frae him as if he saw something no canny, and Jamie with
his book. And me that minds all that fine family!” cried Merran. “Ye
must just go ben yourself, Marg’ret, for I canna do it.” And there is no
doubt that it was a piteous sight.

Jeanie, on the other hand, recovered her spirit and her ease of mind
with singular rapidity under the sheltering roof of Glendochart. She was
not told of Lord John’s death for some time, and never of the rapidity
with which it followed her interrupted interview. She was very much
moved and excited when she heard of his death, wondering with natural
self-importance whether her resistance of his suit had anything to do
with the breaking down of his health. It half relieved, half
disappointed Jeanie to discover after that his death was caused by an
accident and not by love. But indeed she had then only a limited space
to give in her thoughts to that lover of the past. He of the present had
the command of the situation. Determined as she had been not to
understand Gordon, the effect of a few days in the same house with him
had been marvellous, and when the fairy regions of youthful experience
began once more to open before Jeanie, she forgot that she had cause of
grievance against the companion who opened to her that magic gate. All
tragic possibilities disappeared from the path of the girl who had no
longer any distracting struggle, but whose desires and inclinations all
went with her fate. Her father made no objection to her marriage. “Let
him take her if he wants her. I have no need of her here,” Drumcarro
said. Jeanie indeed, instead of brightening the house and soothing the
fever in him, excited and disturbed her father: “I want no lass about
the house, now her mother that keeped her a little in order is gone.”
She was married eventually at Glendochart, the Laird making no
appearance even. He was said to be ill, and his illness had taken the
curious form, a form not unprecedented, but much against nature, of
strong dislike to certain persons. He could not abide the sight of
Jeanie: “Let her do what she will, but let her no more come near me. Let
him take her if he likes, I’m well pleased to be quit of her.” When
Jeanie came attended by her lover to bid her father good-bye, the Laird
almost drove her away. He got up from his chair supporting himself upon
its arms, his eyes burning like coals of fire, his now gaunt and worn
figure trembling with passion. “Go away to the parlour,” he said, “and
get your tea, or whatever you’ve come for. I want none of you here.”

“Father, I just came to bid you good-bye,” said Jeanie.

“Go ’way to the parlour. I suffer nobody to disturb me here. Go ’way to
Marg’ret. Ye’ll get what ye want from her, and plenty of petting, no
doubt. Go ’way to the parlour. Marg’ret! Get them what they want and let
them go.”

“Oh, father,” cried Jeanie weeping, “it’s not for anything we’ve come
but just for kindness--to say good-bye.”

He was a strange figure standing up between his chair and table,
supporting himself by his hands, stooping forward, grown old all at
once, his hair and beard long and ragged in aspect, a nervous tremor in
his limbs. Could that be the hale and vigorous man who scarcely seemed
beyond middle age? Jeanie assayed to say something more, but the words
were checked on her lips by his threatening looks.

“Good-bye,” he said. “Consider it’s done and all your duty paid, and
begone from my sight, for I cannot bide to see you.” He added a moment
after with a painful effort over himself, “I’m an old man, and not well
in my health. Marg’ret! Ye mind me of many a thing I would fain forget.
Good-bye, and for the love of God go away, and let me see you no more.”

“Is he always like that?” Jeanie asked, clinging to Marg’ret in the
parlour, where that faithful adherent prepared tea for the visitors.

“Like what?” asked Marg’ret with a determination to keep up appearances
in the presence of the strange gentleman with whom she had no
associations. “The maister’s not very well. He has never been in his
richt health since your mother died. That made an awfu’ change in the
house, as might have been expected. Such a quiet woman as she was, never
making any steer it’s just by ordinar’ how she’s missed.”

“Is it that? Is that all?” cried Jeanie.

“And what else would it be?” asked Marg’ret with a look that could not
be gainsaid.

Marg’ret did not know any more than the rest what had happened. Lord
John had died of an accident, he had fallen over the linn, and from the
Duke himself to the last of the name all were satisfied that it was so.
And in Drumcarro House there was not a word said to alter this view. But
many heavy thoughts had arisen there of which nothing was said.

Drumcarro did what is also not uncommon in such circumstances: he
justified those who explained his strange conduct by illness, and fell
ill. The doctor said it was a malady of long standing which had thus
developed itself as it was certain to have done sooner or later. He
recommended that a doctor should be sent for from Glasgow, who had
become very famous for his practice in this particular malady. It is
doubtful whether Glendochart, who had the conduct of the business, knew
anything about Dr. Dewar. At all events, if he did, it did not prevent
him from sending for that special practitioner. The result was a curious
scene in the chamber of the patient, who raised himself from his bed to
stare at the new comer, and after contemplating him for some time in
doubtful silence between wrath and astonishment, suddenly burst out into
a great guffaw of laughter. “This was all that was wanted,” he said. But
he allowed Anne’s husband to come in, to examine him, to prescribe, and
with a grim humour saw him wave away the offered fee. “Na, it’s all in
the family,” said the grim patient with a sudden sense of the grotesque
illumining the darkness of his sick room. He was not insensible to this
irony of circumstance, and he made no resistance. It was the only thing
that produced a gleam of amusement in these latter days.




CHAPTER XXIII.


In his newly developed condition as an invalid Mr. Douglas had gone on
for more than a year. During this time he had taken no active steps of
any kind. Jamie had been left to read as he pleased every book he could
lay his hands upon, from Mr. Pyper’s old-fashioned theology to D’Urfey’s
_Pills to Purge Melancholy_, a curious if not very extensive range. Only
these two, the dreary boy with his books, and his possible writer-ship
hung suspended so to speak, no one taking any steps to put him forth
like his brothers into active life, and the grim invalid, who rarely
left his room or indeed his bed, remained in Drumcarro. Such an
emptiness occurs not unfrequently in the story of a house once full and
echoing with the superabundant energies of a large family; but the
father and son afforded a deeper emblem of dulness and desolation than
almost any mother and daughter could have done. They were more separated
from life. The Laird cared nothing for his neighbours, rich or poor,
whether they prospered or were in want. Marg’ret, who had the control of
everything, kept indeed a liberal hand, and preserved the reputation of
Drumcarro as a house from which no poor body was ever sent away without
a handful of meal at least, if not more substantial charity.

But her master took no interest in the vicissitudes of the clachan or to
hear of either prosperity or need. She still attempted to carry him the
news of the district for the relief of her own mind if not for the
advantage of his, for to arrange his room in silence or bring his meals
without a word was an effort quite beyond Marg’ret’s powers.

“The Rosscraig Carmichaels have come to the end of their tether,” she
told him one morning, “there’s a muckle roup proclaimed for next month
of a’ the farm things. I might maybe send Duncan to see what’s going, if
there’s anything very cheap, and folk say the farm itself.”

“What’s that you’re saying, woman?”

“I’m just telling you, Laird. The Rosscraig family is clean ruined--no
much wonder if ye think of a’ the on-goings they’ve had. There’s to be a
roup, and the estate itsel’ by private contract, or if nae offer
comes--”

“Get out of my room, woman,” cried Drumcarro. “Bring me my clothes. You
steek everything away as if a gentleman was to be bound for ever in his
bed. I’m going to get up.”

“Sir!” cried Marg’ret in dismay. “It’s as much as your life is worth.”

“My life!” he said with a snarl of angry impatience, but as he struggled
up in his bed Drumcarro caught sight of himself, a weird figure, lean as
an old eagle, with long hair and ragged beard, and no doubt the spring
of sudden energy with which he raised himself was felt through all his
rusty joints so long unaccustomed to movement. He kept up, sitting
erect, but he uttered a groan of impatience as he did so. “I’m not my
own master,” he said--“a woman’s enough to daunton me that once never
knew what difficulty was. Stop your infernal dusting and cleaning, and
listen to me. Where’s that lass in London living now? Or is she aye
there? Or has she taken up with some man to waste her siller like the
rest of her kind?”

“Sir, are ye meaning your daughter Kirsteen?” said Marg’ret, with
dignity.

“Who should I be meaning? Ye can write her a letter and send it by the
post. Tell her there’s need of her. Her father’s wanting her, and at
once. Do ye hear? There’s no time to trouble about a frank. Just send it
by the post.”

“If ye were not in such an awfu’ hurry,” said Marg’ret, “there might
maybe be an occasion.”

“I can wait for none of your occasions--there’s little feeling in her if
she cannot pay for one letter--from her father. Tell her I’m wanting
her, and just as fast as horses’ legs can carry her, she’s to come.”

“Maister,” cried Marg’ret with great seriousness drawing close to the
bed, “if ye’re feeling the end sa near and wanting your bairns about ye,
will I no send for the minister? It’s right he should be here.”

Drumcarro sat taller and taller in his bed, and let forth a string of
epithets enough to make a woman’s blood run cold. “Ye old bletherin’
doited witch!” he said, “ye old----“ His eloquence had not failed him,
and Marg’ret, though a brave woman, who had taken these objurgations
composedly enough on previous occasions, was altogether overwhelmed by
the torrent of fiery words, and the red ferocious light in the eyes of
the skeleton form in the bed. She put up her hands to her ears and fled.
“I’ll do your will--I’ll do your will,” she cried. A letter was not a
very easy piece of work to Marg’ret, but so great was the impression
made upon her mind that she fulfilled the Laird’s commission at once.
She wrote as follows in the perturbation of her mind--

       *       *       *       *       *

“Your fader has either taken leave of his senses, or he’s fey, or thinks
his later end is nigh. But any way I’m bid to summons you, Kirsteen,
just this moment without delay. I’m to tell ye there’s need of you--that
your fader’s wanting ye. Ye will just exerceese your own judgment, for
he’s in his ordinar’ neither better nor warse. But he’s took a passion
of wanting ye and will not bide for an occasion nor a private hand as
may be whiles heard of--nor yet a frank that could be got with a little
trouble. So ye will have this letter to pay for, and ye’ll come no doubt
if ye think it’s reasonable, but I cannot say that I do for my part.

“P.S. The Carmichaels of Rosscraig are just ruined with feasting and
wasting, and their place is to be sold and everything roupit--a sair
downcome for their name.”

       *       *       *       *       *

Kirsteen obeyed this letter with a speed beyond anything which was
thought possible in the north. She drove to the door, no longer finding
it necessary to conceal her coming. Marg’ret’s postscript, written from
the mere instinct of telling what news there was to tell, had already
thrown some light to her upon this hasty summons. Drumcarro lay propped
up by pillows waiting for her, with something of the old deep red upon
his worn face. He was wonderfully changed, but the red light in his eyes
and the passion which had always blazed or smouldered in the man, ready
to burst out at any touch, even when covered with the inevitable
repressions of modern life, was more apparent than ever. His greetings
were few. “Eh, so that’s you?” he said. “Ye’ve come fast.”

“I was told that you wanted me, father.”

“And maybe thought I was dying and there was no time to lose.” He
noticed that Kirsteen held in her hand a newspaper, at which he glanced
with something like contempt. A London newspaper was no small prize to
people so far off from all sources of information. But such things were
at present contemptible to Drumcarro in presence of the overwhelming
pre-occupation in his own mind.

“I see,” he said, “ye’ve brought a paper to the old man; but I have
other things in my head. When ye were here before ye made an offer. It
was none of my seeking. It was little likely I should think of a lass
like you having siller at her command--which is just another sign that
everything in this country is turned upside down.”

Kirsteen made no reply, but waited for the further revelation of his
news.

“Well,” he said with a slight appearance of embarrassment and a wave of
his hand, “here’s just an opportunity. I have not the means of my own
self. I would just have to sit and grin in this corner where a severe
Providence has thrown me and see it go--to another of those damned
Campbells, little doubt of that.”

“What is it?” she said. Kirsteen had lifted her head too, like a horse
scenting the battle from afar. She had not her father’s hatred of his
hereditary foes, but there was a fine strain of tradition in Kirsteen’s
veins.

“It’s just Rosscraig--our own land, that’s been in the Douglas name for
hundreds of years, and out of it since the attainder. I would be ready
to depart in peace if I had it back.”

Kirsteen’s eyes flashed in response. “If it’s possible--but they will
want a great sum for Rosscraig.”

“Possible!” he cried with furious impatience. “How dare ye beguile me
with your offer, if it’s only to think of what’s possible? I can do that
mysel’. Does one of your name condescend to a dirty trade, and serve
women that are not fit to tie a Douglas’s shoe, and then come to me and
talk of what’s possible? If that’s all, give up your mantua-making and
your trading that’s a disgrace to your family, and come back and look
after the house which will set you better. Possible!” he cried, the fire
flying from his eyes and the foam from his mouth. “For what do you
demean yourself--and me to permit it--if it’s no possible?” He came to
the end on a high note, with the sharpness of indignant passion in his
voice.

Kirsteen had followed every word with a kindling countenance, with
responsive flame in her eyes. “Ye speak justly,” she said, with a little
heaving of her breast. “For them to whom it’s natural a little may
suffice. But I that do it against nature am bound to a different end.”
She paused a little, thinking; then raised her head. “It shall be
possible,” she said.

He held out his thin and trembling fingers, which were like eagle’s
claws.

“Your hand upon it,” he cried. The hot clutch made Kirsteen start and
shiver. He dropped her hand with an excited laugh. “That’s the first
bargain,” he said, “was ever made between father and child to the
father’s advantage--at least, in this house. And a lass,--and all my
fine lads that I sent out for honour and for gain!” He leant back on his
pillows with feeble sobs of sound, the penalty of his excitement. “Not
for me,” he said, “not for me, though I would be the first--but for the
auld name, that was once so great.”

Kirsteen unfolded the paper tremulously, with tears lingering on her
eyelashes. “Father, if ye will look here----”

“Go away with your news and your follies,” he said roughly. “You think
much of your London town and your great world, as ye call it, but I
think more of my forbears’ name and the lands they had, and to bring to
confusion a false race. Kirsteen,” he put out his hand again, and drew
her close to the bedside, clutching her arm. “I’ll tell you a thing I’ve
told nobody. It was me that did it. I just took and threw him down the
linn. Me an old man, him a young one, and as false as hell. He was like
the serpent at that bairn’s lug; and I just took him by the scruff of
the neck. My hand’s never got the better of it,” he added, thrusting her
away suddenly, and looking at his right hand, blowing upon it as if to
remove the stiffness of the strain.

“Father!” Kirsteen cried, with subdued horror. “What was it you did?”

He chuckled with sounds of laughter that seemed to dislocate his throat.
“I took him by the scruff of the neck--I never thought I could have had
the strength. It was just pawsion. The Douglases have that in them;
they’re wild when they’re roused. I took him--by the scruff of the neck.
He never made a struggle. I know nothing more about it, if he was living
or dead.”

“Ye killed him!” cried Kirsteen with horror. “Oh, it’s no possible!”

“There ye are with your possibles again. It’s just very possible when a
man’s blood’s up. He’s not the first,” he said, in a low tone, turning
his face to the wall. He lay muttering there for some time words of
which Kirsteen could only hear, “the scruff of the neck,” “no struggle,”
“it’s hurt my hand, though,” till in the recoil from his excitement
Drumcarro fell fast asleep and remembered no more.

He had, however, it appeared, to pay for this excitement and the
tremendous tension in which he had been held from the time he summoned
Kirsteen to the moment of her arrival. His frame, already so weakened,
had not been able to bear it. He was seized during the night by a
paralytic attack, from which he never rallied, though he lived for a
week or more as in a living tomb. All that had been so important to
Drumcarro died off from him, and left him struggling in that dumb
insensibility, living yet dead. Kirsteen was never able to let him know
that, herself as eager for the elevation of the family as he could be,
she had at once opened negotiations for the purchase of Rosscraig,
though on terms that would <DW36> her for years. Sometimes his eyes
would glare upon her wildly out of the half dead face asking questions
to which his deadened senses could understand no answer. She at last
withdrew from the room altogether, finding that he was more calm in her
absence. And all the time there lay on the table beside his bed,
rejected first in his excitement, all-impotent to reach him now, the
copy of the _Gazette_ brought by Kirsteen from London, in which appeared
the announcement that Colonel Alexander Douglas, of the 100th Native
Regiment, for distinguished valour and long services, had received the
honours of a K.C.B. Had it come but a day sooner, the exultation of
Drumcarro might have killed him (which would have been so good a thing),
but at least would have given him such sensations of glory and gratified
pride as would have crowned his life. But he never had this supreme
delight.

When Sir Alexander Douglas, K.C.B., came home, he found his patrimony
largely increased, but both father and mother and all his belongings
swept away. The one whom he found it hardest to approve was Kirsteen.
Anne with her well-to-do doctor had nothing now to forgive, that her
brother could see; Mary had fulfilled every duty of woman. Young Jeanie
with her young soldier had all the prestige of beauty and youth, and the
fact that her husband was a rising man and sure of promotion to make her
acceptable to her family. But a London mantua-maker, “sewing,” so he put
it to himself, “for her bread!” It startled him a little to find that he
owed Rosscraig to that mantua-maker, but he never got over the shock of
hearing what and where she was. “Any sort of a man, if he had been a
chimney-sweep, would have been better,” Sir Alexander said. And Kirsteen
was a rare and not very welcome visitor in the house she had redeemed.
They all deplored the miserable way of life she had chosen, and that she
had no man. For the credit of human nature, it must be said that the
young Gordons, succoured and established by Kirsteen’s bounty, were on
her side, and stood by her loyally; but even Jeanie wavered in her
convictions in respect to the mantua-making. She too would have been
thankful to drown the recollection of the establishment in Chapel Street
in the name of a man. “If she had but a good man of her own!” But Major
Gordon, soon Colonel and eventually General, as fortunate a man as in
piping times of peace a soldier could hope to be, put down this
suggestion with a vehemence which nobody could understand. He was the
only one to whom Kirsteen’s secret had ever been revealed.

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In the times which are not ancient history, which some of us still
remember, which were our high days of youth, as far down as in the
fifties of this present century, there lived in one of the most imposing
houses in one of the princeliest squares of Edinburgh, a lady, who was
an old lady, yet still as may be said in the prime of life. Her eye was
not dim nor her natural force abated; her beautiful head of hair was
still red, her eyes still full of fire. She drove the finest horses in
the town, and gave dinners in which judges delighted and where the best
talkers were glad to come. Her hospitality was almost boundless, her
large house running over with hordes of nephews and nieces, her advice,
which meant her help, continually demanded from one side or other of a
large and widely extended family. No one could be more cheerful, more
full of interest in all that went on. Her figure had expanded a little
like her fortune, but she was the best dressed woman in Edinburgh,
always clothed in rich dark- silks and satins, with lace which a
queen might have envied. Upon the table by her bed-head there stood a
silver casket, without which she never moved; but the story of which the
records were there enshrined, sometimes appeared to this lady like a
beautiful dream of the past, of which she was not always sure that it
had ever been.

She was of the Drumcarro family in Argyllshire, who it is well known are
the elder branch of all; and she was well known not only as the stand-by
of her family, but as the friend of the poor and struggling everywhere.
It was a common question in many circles where she was known as to how
it was that she had never gotten a man--a question more than usually
mysterious, seeing how well off she was, and that she must have been
very good-looking in her time. She was Miss Douglas of Moray Place,
sister to a number of distinguished Indian officers, and to one
book-worm and antiquary well known to a certain class of learned
readers, but whom Edinburgh lightly jeered at as blind Jimmy Douglas or
the Moudiewart--not that he was blind indeed but only abstracted in much
learning. Miss Douglas was the elder sister also of the beautiful Lady
Gordon whose husband was in command at Edinburgh Castle. There was no
one better thought of. And so far as anybody ever knew, most people had
entirely forgotten that in past times, not to disgrace her family, her
name had appeared on a neat plate in conjunction with the name of Miss
Jean Brown, Court Dressmaker and Mantua-Maker, as

                            MISS KIRSTEEN.


                               THE END.

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