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MY MEMOIRS

[Illustration: MADAME STEINHEIL

_Photo by Claude Harris, London_]




MY MEMOIRS

BY
MARGUERITE STEINHEIL

ILLUSTRATED

New York
STURGIS & WALTON
COMPANY
1912

Copyright 1912
By STURGIS & WALTON COMPANY

Set up and electrotyped. Published April, 1912




CONTENTS


CHAPTER                                                             PAGE

I CHILDHOOD                                                            1

II YOUTH--MY FATHER'S DEATH--MY MARRIAGE                              15

III ARRIVAL IN PARIS. A SEPARATION. MARTHE. PARISIAN LIFE             29

IV MY SALON                                                           38

V MY SALON (_continued_)                                              54

VI FELIX FAURE                                                        68

VII THE DREYFUS AFFAIR--FASHODA                                       84

VIII THE MYSTERIOUS PEARL NECKLACE--THE DEATH OF FELIX FAURE         106

IX AFTER PRESIDENT FAURE'S DEATH: THE DOCUMENTS--THE NECKLACE        116

X 1899-1908                                                          127

XI EVENTS THAT PRECEDED THE CRIME                                    135

XII MAY 1908                                                         149

XIII THE FATAL NIGHT                                                 160

XIV AFTER THE MURDER                                                 173

XV THE BLACK GOWNS                                                   195

XVI INVESTIGATIONS                                                   208

XVII THE THRONE-ROOM                                                 221

XVIII M. CHARLES SAUERWEIN AND THE ROSSIGNOL AFFAIR                  236

XIX The Pearl in the Pocket-book                                     249

XX THE SO-CALLED "NIGHT OF THE CONFESSION" (NOVEMBER 25-26, 1908)    269

XXI MY ARREST                                                        286

XXII THE THREE CELLS                                                 294

XXIII ALBA GHIRELLI, MARGUERITE ROSSELLI AND THE "MATIN"             310

XXIV SAINT-LAZARE                                                    330

XXV THE "INSTRUCTION"                                                342

XXVI THE LAST "INSTRUCTION"                                          362

XXVII THREE HUNDRED AND FIFTY-THREE DAYS IN PRISON                   374

XXVIII THREE HUNDRED AND FIFTY-THREE DAYS IN PRISON (_continued_)    398

XXIX THE TRIAL                                                       416

XXX THE SPEECH FOR THE PROSECUTION--THE SPEECH FOR THE DEFENCE       437

XXXI AFTER THE VERDICT                                               456

XXXII CONCLUSION                                                     474




ILLUSTRATIONS


Madame Steinheil                                           _Frontispiece_

FACING PAGE

Writing my Memoirs                                                     1

My Father                                                             16

My Mother                                                             16

Bonnat--by Himself                                                    44

My Daughter and Myself in 1901                                        60

President Felix Faure                                                 72

A Letter sent me by Felix Faure                                       78

The Felix Faure Talisman                                              82

The Gold Box in which President Faure sent me the Pearl Necklace     110

Invitation to the Felix Faure "In Memoriam Service"                  116

My Husband, M. Steinheil, in 1898                                    122

A letter sent me by Massenet in 1907                                 132

Facsimile of the letter I sent to my Mother at Beaucourt a
  few days before the Crime                                          150

A view of the verandah of the house in the Impasse Ronsin            162

The Bed on which I was bound during the "Fatal Night"                166

The Desk in the Boudoir from which the Money and the
  dummy-parcel of Documents were stolen on May 30-31                 182

A view of the House in the Impasse Ronsin                            224

M. de Balincourt and Remy Couillard                                  252

Alexandre Wolff and his Mother, Mariette Wolff                       262

M. Andre, my Examining Magistrate                                    348

My Cell, showing Juliette, my fellow prisoner, seated on her bed     382

In the prison yard at Saint-Lazare                                   386

Objects I used in Prison                                             410

My Counsel, Maitre A. Aubin; The Judge, M. de Valles;
  and the Advocate General, M. Trouard Riolle                        450

Plan of the first floor of the house in the Impasse Ronsin           479

[Illustration:

_Photo. by Claude Harris, London_

WRITING MY MEMOIRS]




CHAPTER I

CHILDHOOD

(_"Monsieur et Madame Edouard Japy have the honour to inform you of the
birth of a daughter." Beaucourt, April, 16th, 1869._)


Beaucourt is a village in the "Belfort Territory," not far from the
Swiss and German frontiers. It was in that village, at the "Chateau
Edouard"--all large mansions in that region are called "chateaux," and
the name of the owner is added to the word--that I was born some forty
years ago.

Beaucourt and nearly all of the surrounding country belongs to, or is
dependent upon, the Japy family, whose vast factories and mills give a
living to thousands of workmen.

After a family quarrel, my father, Edouard Japy, had severed his
connection with "Japy Bros." some time before my birth. Having resigned
his directorship of the Company, he busied himself exclusively with his
huge estate, devoting his days to the farm and woods, to his beloved
park and the picturesque cascades which he had designed himself, to his
flowers and orchards, to his family and to music.

My mother was the daughter of the innkeeper of the Red Lion, the chief
inn of Montbeliard in those already distant days. Edouard Japy had
married Mlle. Emilie Rau in spite of the opposition of his family, who
had declared that such a marriage would be a _mesalliance_. He had
married her--as he often told me when, as a young girl, I became more
than his child: his friend and confidante--because "she was very
beautiful and very good." My mother had dark eyes, large and very
tender, and her raven-black hair, when loosed, streamed down to her
feet. She was of a quiet and sunny nature, kind, serene, and smiling.
She ignored evil, was exquisitely artless, and never understood a great
deal of the realities of life, because she did not see them. She gave
away and spent without counting, was indulgent in a manner as touching
as it was unconscious, and went through life a simple and happy being,
knowing neither great exultation nor deep depression, incapable of
sustained effort or serious worry. Edouard adored Emilie, Emilie adored
Edouard, and all was for the best in the best of all possible worlds.

The man who was to be my father having decided--and he had both will and
charm--that Mlle. Rau should be his wife, managed to have her sent to a
boarding-school at Stuttgart, so that she might complete her education.
Mlle. Rau was then fourteen years old. Two years later she became Madame
Japy. Her husband was then twenty-five.

I do not intend to sketch here the history of the Japys of Beaucourt;
but after having given a few details about my parents, I may add a few
about my grandparents, if only to satisfy the curiosity of those who
believe as much in atavism as in heredity.

The first Japys who "matter" were two brothers, the grandfather and
great-uncle of my father. The one, an inventor of genius, at first
turned his attention to clocks and then to all kinds of machine
tools--screwing, planing, riveting, bolting, boring, and so on. He
created; his brother organised. The first had ideas; the second rendered
them practical and profitable. I will not say any more about the
financier and company-promoter, but the following story about the
inventor is well worth telling: He had built for himself a small house,
"on stilts," as it were. Below the floor of the large and only room,
there was nothing but--air, and then the grass of the meadow. The
inventor reached his retreat with the help of a rope ladder, which he
withdrew when he had climbed up to his famous "idea-room." There, safe
from intrusion, he worked, day after day, and for his meals was
satisfied with a little bread and cheese. It was generally dark before
he returned to earth and joined his wife, who, I have been told, was
strikingly beautiful.

Later, the children of those two brothers, developed the already
important undertaking of their fathers, and gradually the firm Japy
Freres became what it is to-day, one of the largest and strongest
industrial concerns in France.

I was educated by resident governesses and professors. One of the
governesses, questioned thirty-five years later, was to declare that at
the age of five, I used to lie a good deal but that I succeeded in being
forgiven, thanks to my "talents as an actress."

At my trial in the Paris Assize Court, the Public Prosecutor made a
great deal out of this evidence, and saw therein a sure sign of my
precocious depravity.

Personally, I believe that all normal children tell fibs, more or less,
and I am delighted to think that I was a normal little girl. As for my
talent as an actress, I have since seen too many little girls of five to
believe seriously in it. I smile, and I proceed....

My father looked after my education with charming care. My brother and
my sisters were brought up in boarding-schools, but my school was at
home, in a large room on the first floor. I still see that light and
beautiful room, overlooking our park, the trees of which, alive with
birds, were so often the cause of much inattention to my work. I see the
two blackboards, the one covered at regular intervals with detested
figures and the other written over with words and sentences or the names
of places and people. My father, wearing a stern expression, kept
entering the room to see "how the little one was getting on," and
invariably had some recommendation to make: "Since you are telling her
about the Odyssey, make her follow Ulysses' travels on a map," or "I see
you are reading the Iliad, pray insist on Andromache, Hector, Achilles,
but skip whenever you come to Nestor; he was a fool and a bore."...
"Promise to take her to Domremy if she learns to love Joan of Arc."...
"You are studying Napoleon.... Wait one moment, I'll fetch an album of
Raffet's drawings for her."... "What, you are drawing in this room, in
this weather! Run down into the garden: that's the ideal place where to
draw"... and I always thought my father was absolutely right.

There was a large globe in my schoolroom, and quite a library of
travel-books. Ah! the tropics, the flowers, the birds! Ah! to see the
birds of Paradise in Borneo, or humming-birds in Brazil! To gather
orchids in Central Africa or in Queensland... I adore two rivers: the
Orinoco and the Brahmaputra, and two mountains: Kilimanjaro and
Popocatapetl, because of their extraordinary names! My favourite heroes
were Hannibal and--Napoleon, of course.

My father began to teach me the violin when I was four, and the piano
and the organ the following year. He had his own ideas on the education
of girls, but applied them to me only. When I was a mere child, he
taught me to bow, to arrange flowers, and to recognise and appreciate
things beautiful, ancient or rare--old furniture, old tapestries, old
china, old pewter. He showed me the hall-marks on silver, he made me
caress cameos and enamel-work and touch embroideries and old lace
reverently. He made me go up and down a staircase ten, twenty times in
succession: "You see, darling, any one can go down steps without being
ridiculous, but to go up a staircase, that's another matter. Now then,
come down--that's it--raise your head--go slowly--like a queen in books
of long ago. Look as though you came down from Heaven and had wings, and
didn't press upon the carpet!" And he added gaily, "when I go down a
staircase, I feel as if I were an emperor descending towards his loving
people! You ought to imagine a long train behind you, held by two little
eighteenth-century <DW64>s, twenty steps above." And the lessons went on
again: "Now walk upstairs. Lightly, lightly, little one! Don't move your
arms. Now turn your head round... Ah! there's a pretty picture! By the
way, you must dress your hair in another way. And what is that gold
bracelet round your wrist! A flower, that's the only jewel you may wear
at present, Mademoiselle!"

He designed my dresses, and later on he insisted that I should learn to
make them myself. He gave me a riding-master, a violin teacher and a
piano teacher, besides the various governesses who taught me the "other
things," but it was with him and through him that I learned the little I
have learned. His was a beautiful life, and there sang in my young heart
those words which my father often whispered in my ear: "I love you every
day more than yesterday and less than to-morrow." I looked upon my
father as a kind of marvellously beneficent Deity. Sometimes I heard it
said that he was "not practical," but I pitied those who criticised him.
If he hated to calculate, that was his own affair, after all! Though
warned of the catastrophe which never befell him, he remained cheerful,
kind and generous. Our house was known as "_La Maison du Bon Dieu_."
Every one was welcome there, and my father, who was a gourmet, and had a
remarkable chef, treated his guests to feasts worthy of Lucullus, and to
the best wines in his cellars--under one condition, invariably the same:
that they should listen to the concert in the drawing-room, afterwards.

My father kept my mother's whole family, paid the debts of his friends,
and did his utmost to assist any one and every one. Whenever he passed
through a village round Beaucourt, men, women, and children would appear
at the windows or doors of their cottages, and greet him with a sign, a
word, or a smile of gratitude. And I used to sit as close to him as
possible, in the trap; I was proud and happy and felt like shouting to
the good villagers: "You know, he is my daddy!"

Dear father! they were to slander him, too, at my trial. A member of his
own family asserted that he was a brute and a drunkard. And when I
revolted against such an abominable statement, my counsel tried to
appease me. "Don't take any notice," he muttered. "The statement, it
seems, has been made to save you at any cost. Being the daughter of a
drunkard, you could be considered, to some extent, as irresponsible. It
was tactics, not an insult!"

In my memory I can see next to my father the lovable figure of M.
Doriand, my parents' "old" and my "great" friend.

M. Doriand was a professor in the Empress's College for girls at Moscow,
and his conversation was a rare delight. He came every year to spend
his holidays with us. He remained three months at Beaucourt, and during
the rest of the year sent us a long letter every week. In the summer,
when he was with us, he made me read over again all the lessons I had
taken since the previous summer, and he discussed them so wittily and
opened up to me such new horizons, retold me history in such a
fascinating and personal manner, and managed to render mathematics so
interesting, that I never thought of complaining of the unusual way of
making me spend my holidays.

Then he painted very well, and gave me lessons in watercolours. He
developed in me such a keen taste for art that later on my father
decided I should attend an art school.

My "great friend" or my "grandpapa from Russia," as I often called him,
had exquisite manners. When, many years later, I became what is called a
"woman of the world," and even a Paris "Society Queen," if I may quote a
term so often applied to me, I was able to judge the various types of
people who composed that Society and their manners, and I realised then
that M. Doriand did not belong to his time. He had the exquisite
politeness of the "honest" people of the _grand siecle_. I still see him
bowing with easy grace whenever he met my mother, my sisters or me.
Never did a vulgar or trivial word pass from his lips. He loved what he
called, not "beautiful" French, but "good" French. He had for the most
humble the same little attentions and the same gentle and old-time
courteousness as for his peers. He addressed his aged sister, who
resided near Beaucourt, as he would have a queen, for he believed that
nowhere more than in the home were perfect manners and courteous speech
more becoming, and that to no one more than to his own people did a man
owe respect. He took off his hat when he met the women about the farm,
and never kept it on in a shop. He spoke slowly and softly, and
cultivated the _mot propre_ (the exact word). It was a joy to hear him,
as much to the ear as to the mind. As long as I remained under his
influence, I tried to speak as he did; but destiny took me to Paris,
where, alas! they speak Parisian, not French.

My grandpapa from Russia seemed to know everything and to be able to do
anything. He would, for instance, talk to me for an hour about a
tragedy of Voltaire, which he afterwards compared with a tragedy of his
beloved Racine; or perhaps a book by some little known Russian author,
whom he placed far above the work of many celebrated writers--German,
French or English. Then he would suddenly tell me the life of a plant at
our feet or the story of the stone on which he sat. Afterwards, we would
go to the kitchen, and there he taught me how to prepare some kind of
soup or sweet dish _a la Russe_. When this was over we would go to the
music-room and there I had to sing or play to him an air by Mozart,
Glueck, Lulli, or Rameau. He used to say: "You will play the music of
Beethoven and Wagner (he, like my father, had already recognised
Wagner's genius) when you are older. One must have suffered and loved to
understand these geniuses." He taught me to sculpture, to bind books, to
solder....

My father joined us and said: "My dear Doriand, you are monopolising my
daughter. You have had her to yourself the whole morning."

"How dare you complain," the other retorted; "you have her the whole of
the year."

How delightfully they spoiled me, those two dear souls, and how
coquettish they made me! I recall them sitting on an old rustic bench in
the large avenue of chestnut-trees. I felt that they were talking about
me, and I ran into the house to put on my most becoming dress, and then
went out and walked up and down slowly, with a book in my hand, and not
too far from them, and knowing all the while that their eyes were
following me! There did not seem to be any harm in this, but one day, my
mother catching me at my little game, scolded me and my father and his
old friend much more.... As a rule, when my dear mother scolded them, my
father went to the organ and improvised a war-march and M. Doriand,
standing near him, turned imaginary pages. My mother could not help
laughing and we guilty three did the same, of course.

I had two sisters, Juliette, the eldest--who, when I was a little girl,
became the wife of M. Herr, an engineer then residing in Bayonne, where,
later, I met M. Steinheil--and Mimi, younger than I by four years, who
was my mother's favourite, just as I was my father's. I had also a
brother, Julien, who enlisted in an infantry regiment at Belfort and
became there the friend of M. Sheffer, who was to be my _fiance_ of a
few months.

We rose early at Beaucourt. After a quick breakfast and an hour given to
recreation in the park, or to the care of my flowers--like my parents, I
had a passion for flowers, especially hydrangea and roses--I went to the
schoolroom for my lessons. The afternoon was divided between study,
games and household duties. In the evening, after dinner, we had music
in the large _salon_, the very one which during the war, the Germans
sacked and threw into confusion.... Ah! it was awe-inspiring to hear my
father describe their stay at the "castle" and tell us how this splendid
drawing-room had been turned by those "Prussians" into a kitchen, the
grand piano into a larder and the precious curtains of antique red
damask into horse blankets and dish-cloths....

There was always a large number of guests at home. The three-storied
house had forty rooms and they were more often occupied than empty. Our
evening concerts were my father's great joy. He sat at the organ, the
enormous and rubicund Mme. Koger, my piano teacher, settled down at the
piano, I took my violin and three or four musicians from Belfort,
violinists and 'cellists, completed our little orchestra.

During the winter--and the winter is extremely sharp in that part of
France--we used to skate on the Rhone-Rhine Canal, or we went for long
rides in a sleigh, on the roads deep in snow. And then, we tobogganned.
A "train" of tobogganners was formed at the top of a hill with a
"captain" at its head; we rushed at break-neck speed down the hill-side,
the train broke up, the toboggans overturned and hurled us into the
snow, when a free fight ensued over the responsibility for the accident.
I generally triumphed over my cousins, both boys and girls, and was
rather proud of it!

Had the examining magistrate in charge of my case known this detail, he
would no doubt have come to the conclusion that, since, as a child, I
was strong enough to be victorious, with snowballs, over my playmates,
it was clear that, as a woman, I must have been strong enough to commit
the horrible crimes of which he accused me!

Winter also brought with it an increased number of visits, to the sick
and poor, and as my mother never allowed me to give them anything that I
had not worked at myself, not a day passed without our devoting at least
one or two hours to preparing warm clothes for the needy. As for my
father, he had a wonderful knack of saying and doing the right thing
whenever he called on the people he looked after, and this made it one
of my happiest occupations to accompany him on this round of mercy.

Christmas was a great day to us. The Christmas tree, which my father
always uprooted himself--it was almost a ceremony with him--was first
lit up for the family, then for the servants and farmhands, and a third
time for the poor people who came in crowds from the neighbouring
villages, and whom my parents received one after another with a word of
welcome and a pleasant personal remark which at once put them at their
ease.

On January 1 we paid "morning" calls until 2 P.M. In all the houses
where we went, the hosts and hostesses wished to detain my father for
"at least an hour," for he was gay and charming, good to look upon and
his kindness was proverbial... but he refused: "No, no--I must go, my
dear friends; I have still so many visits to pay--for instance, I must
call on this rascal here (and he laughingly dealt a blow at a friend
close to him) whom I have already passed three times on the road and met
in five drawing-rooms this morning. But there you are, I must, mustn't
I, you rogue, express my good wishes for a happy New Year to him in his
own house--and to think that afterwards I shall meet him again in half a
dozen places and that, to cap it all, I will have to go home to receive
him, so that he may return my good wishes. Ah! the old traditions!..."

Then came the family dinner, which lasted till the evening and the day
ended with... music, of course. While we played, my mother slumbered
peacefully in a fine old arm-chair, where once had sat my
great-grandmother, the beautiful wife of the inventor.... But we went
to bed early, for on the previous night we had hardly slept at all.

In fact, a few minutes before midnight, on December 31, songs rose under
the windows of the "castle"--beautiful songs, simple, broad-winged, with
words which varied a little from year to year, but with music centuries
old, and always the same, for it could not have been improved upon.
Then, surrounded by their children and their servants, my parents
received the singers on the threshold of their house. The singers shook
the snow from their coats and their fur caps, took off their wooden
shoes, shook hands with us all, and the feast began. My father
distributed among them baskets of apples and walnuts, whole hams,
strings of sausages, sacks of potatoes, and Alsatian cakes. And when the
good people had gone and their voices could no longer be heard--my
father wrapped me up in furs and we went together to look at the snow.
And somehow, it always seemed more wonderful and more blue to us on New
Year's night. My father told me marvellous tales and I did not feel
sleepy at all. But an hour later, assuming a gruff voice, he exclaimed:
"What does this mean, Mademoiselle? Still up at three in the morning at
your age." When he had gently carried me in his arms to my room, he
said: "Go quickly to sleep, 'Puppele' (an Alsatian expression meaning
'little doll'), mother would be angry if she knew."

Mother knew perfectly well, for she had been waiting by the fireside in
the dining-room and she never retired without having seen me in my bed
and kissed me. But she was not angry on this occasion, and with her
sweet, indulgent philosophy she said: "After all, there is but one First
of January in the year."

On Sundays we attended service in the Temple of Beaucourt. The district
is a Protestant one, a very Protestant one indeed. My first pastor was
old M. Cuvier, a descendant of the great naturalist Baron Cuvier, who
died in 1832.

He was very handsome and impressive, was Pastor Cuvier, with his mane of
white hair and his gleaming eyes under the bushy eyebrows. My father
used to tell me that he looked like Liszt, whom he had met on several
occasions in Germany and Hungary, and in Paris. The old clergyman was a
great orator, and although I did not always understand what he said, I
loved to listen to him. He often called on us, and, in order to tease
him, my father, a staunch Huguenot but broad-minded and endowed with a
sense of humour, made him sit at the table next to the Catholic priest
of Beaucourt. At the beginning of the dinner the two men hardly dared
look at one another, and could hardly eat, much to my mother's alarm....
M. Cuvier said, "Let us not talk religion," and the priest added, "Nor
politics." My father remarked, "You are both quite right"... and
forthwith he started eulogising Darwin's theories and explaining to his
two guests the law of natural selection and how it was quite evident
that "each species was not independently created."... But all ended
well, thanks to the good-humour of my father, the smiling grace of my
mother, and the excellent wines and liqueurs in our cellars.

Old Pastor Cuvier was very kind to me. He often received me at his
house, which stood opposite the wood in our estate. He had in his
library all the works of his illustrious ancestor, and writing down the
names on a slip of paper, which I have kept through all these years, he
made me promise that I would read, when I was grown-up, the "Tableau
Elementaire de l'Histoire Naturelle des Animaux" and the "Regne Animal
distribue d'apres son Organisation." I promised, of course, but did not
keep my promise. May the two Cuviers, the naturalist and the pastor,
forgive me!

M. Cuvier was fond of relating some episodes--within my
understanding--of the Revolution and the First Empire. He talked about
the Terror as though he had lived through those dreadful days, and about
Napoleon as though he had known him intimately. We went several times to
Montbeliard together to visit the Cuvier Museum there, and he would
stand in contemplation before the great man's enormous and very dirty
cap. And my pastor would exclaim: "What a head! What a head!"

He so often talked to me about a certain book by Cuvier on elephants
that the thought of elephants haunted me and I begged my father to show
me one. And so it was that I went, when I was a little girl, to Paris.
The elephant I saw there pleased me very much, although I would have
liked it to have been more savage; and, in spite of a ride on the back
of the great beast, I was somewhat disappointed.

My pastor was very, very old, and his son came to assist him in his
work, but both left Beaucourt after a short time. The son, like
thousands of Protestants in the Jura and Switzerland at the time, was a
Monodist, and believed that Monod, the great preacher and revivalist,
was Christ himself.... M. Cuvier died in Switzerland. A new pastor came
to Beaucourt, M. Bach, and I became in time the organist of his church
and the leader of the choir.

Three times a week the band organised by my father came to rehearse at
our house. Chamber-music did not quite satisfy him, and he had founded
this band, which numbered forty-five musicians. Ah! those rehearsals.
When the weather was fair they took place under the chestnut trees, but
if it rained or snowed the "forty-five" and their conductor would gather
in the main drawing-room of the "castle," where two hundred people could
have been seated comfortably, or in the dining-room, to the pathetic
despair of my mother, who would ask my father: "Don't you think,
Edouard, that your band is just a little too noisy?" My father kissed
her laughingly, flourished the baton, and the rehearsal began.

One of my father's greatest delights, and mine, too, was to travel
together. After my fourteenth birthday he took me to Italy, to Germany,
and to Switzerland, where we went round the Leman (he forbade me to say
Lake of Geneva); and, of course, we continued to pay our periodical
visits to Belfort, Nancy and Bale.

It was in Belfort that I heard an opera for the first time. This was
_Faust_. My father, who was a friend of Gounod, had told me all kinds of
things about Gounod's "nice" music, but I was not half as impressed as I
thought I should be. Perhaps it was because Faust was too stout, because
Valentine sang too loudly as he died, because Mephistopheles was not
diabolical enough, and perhaps, too, owing to the fact that Marguerite's
spinning-wheel, having been mislaid, had been replaced at the eleventh
hour by a--sewing-machine. And to think that they could have found a
spinning-wheel in almost any house of the neighbourhood!

It was also at Belfort that I met M. Thiers, with whom my father was
well acquainted. This "meeting" took place, I believe, in 1877. I had to
hand a huge bouquet to M. Thiers. Every one was calling him "The
Liberator and the Saviour of France," and those words so fixed
themselves in my mind that I quite forgot the little speech I had
learned by heart; and when M. Thiers stepped from his carriage, I handed
him the bouquet and said, "There you are, Mr. Saviour" (_Monsieur le
Sauveur_). The little fat and ugly man with the round head, the beady
eyes, and the spectacles, took the bouquet, lifted me up and kissed me.
Later on he spent an evening at our house, and naturally I asked for a
story. Thereupon, describing some wonderful ceremony, he mentioned
Napoleon, sixteen horses drawing a funeral car, and a magnificent palace
with a golden cupola, near the Seine, in Paris.... And years later, I
realised that Thiers had been telling me about the translation of
Napoleon's ashes to the Invalids, in the days of King Louis-Philippe,
when he was Prime Minister.

We used to go for long walks or rides, my father and I. We both loved to
feel the wind in our faces, and we took joy in the smell of the earth,
the smell of grass, the voice of the trees. Often he went out without
me, but as soon as I was free from my work I went in search of him,
fastening the ribbons of my big straw hat as I ran over hill and dale.
Instinct led me in the right direction, and in time I found him, and
rushing up, rested in his arms, which was ever my way of greeting him.
We returned home together, and on the way never failed to admire our
favourite old trees, to linger by the lakes we liked best, to gather
ferns and foxglove, and to go at least once round the greenhouses.

And we had endless surprises, and we laughed at everything, often for no
reason at all. A word, a common thought, the shape of a leaf or of a
cloud, sent us into fits of ecstasy or laughter. And my father would
kiss me and whisper: "We get on well together, we two, don't we,
Puppele;" and I would answer: "I love you, _my_ daddy."

"Quite right, too," he would say. "Try to love me as long as you
possibly can. A father like the one you own is worth all the husbands in
the world."

What happy days! What a lovely life! How everything smiled on me, how
everything seemed good and simple.... Alas! a few years later
disenchantment was to begin, bringing in its wake, temptations,
weaknesses, struggles and sorrows; and finally the whole fabric of my
life was to be brought crashing down in a terrible, "sensational"
drama....

I fear that this note of poignant sadness and regret will sound again
and again in these pages like a melancholy and distressing
_leit-motiv_.... But how could it be otherwise? How could I fail to
realise, in an intensely painful and bitter manner, all that I have lost
and all that I have suffered unjustly, when I recall my childhood and my
radiant youth, and the days spent in Beaucourt with a mother infinitely
loving and a father passionately devoted, and when I compare those years
of happiness with the feverish, tangled years that followed and that
resulted, after the appalling catastrophe in which I lost my husband and
my mother, both foully done to death, in my being tried and imprisoned
in Paris on a double charge of murder.




CHAPTER II

YOUTH--MY FATHER'S DEATH--MY MARRIAGE


I made my debut in society at seventeen. The circle was quite small, for
there were Japys and ramifications of the Japys wherever we went, and,
of course, as I knew them all, they were nothing new to me. It was only
in Belfort that I met people whom I did not know. They were, however,
for the most part only passing acquaintances that I made, for my parents
guarded their "Puppele" most jealously....

I remember my first ball at Belfort. I wore a very simple gown, made of
tulle in three shades of blue, and had a spray of apple-blossom in my
hair and another at my waist. My father, taking a seat where he could
survey the whole room, said gaily to me: "Meg (an affectionate
diminutive for Marguerite), I distrust all these young men. Your
entrance has caused a sensation, and all the officers of the garrison
are staring at you. I hate it, but, on the other hand, I would have been
furious if my daughter had passed unnoticed.... I allow you to dance...
with your brother."

Julien was now a second lieutenant, having left the military school of
Saint-Maixent, where he had passed brilliantly through his examinations.
I admired him very much in his new uniform, and, besides, I had a deep
affection for this big brother of mine, who was bright, witty, a little
irresponsible, and very much of a _mauvais sujet_.

During the whole of the evening we danced together, under the amused
eyes of my father, who, surrounded by a small crowd of officers of all
ranks who were anxious to dance with me, said to them: "Gentlemen, you
may sit down by my side. I will not forbid you to look at my daughter
and I am even willing to introduce you to her; but she absolutely
refuses to dance with any one but her brother, and you know the proverb:
'_Ce que femme veut, Dieu le veut_'" (Woman's will, God's will).

I asked my father later on: "What have you against dancing, and why am I
allowed to dance only with my brother? Did you, in your time, dance only
with your sister?"

He did not reply directly to my question, but said: "I only care for
slow, graceful, stately dances--dances from a distance, such as the
minuet, the gavotte, or the pavane, in which the partners only touch
fingers."

"But, father," I said, mischievously, "have you never danced modern
dances--polka, mazurkas, valses?"

He assumed the expression of a child "caught in the act," and, with head
bent down, whispered, as though he were making a confession: "The truth
is I have loved, and still love dancing, any dancing, and I have spent
whole nights dancing!" Then, raising his head, he added: "Only, you see,
when one loves, one is illogical, and you don't know, my 'Puppele,' how
I love you."

My mother said that my father's attitude was not fair to me, and that it
was not right to close our door, as he seemed to wish to do, to all men
under forty. We entertained more than ever, and at our evenings I played
and sang... with my father. I saw a new meaning in our love-duets; I was
a little intoxicated, my imagination ran loose, I sang with more feeling
than I had done before.... And my parents were overwhelmed with suitors
for my hand. My father consulted me, although he had quite made up his
mind to do as _he_ pleased in the matter. I always said "no," and he
exclaimed: "Ah! how right you are.... It is really wonderful what a
sensible daughter I have!... When you are twenty we will talk of
marriage. Meanwhile, think a little of your father."

"A little!" When I thought of no one but of him! The following year he
said the same thing to me, but with a slight alteration: "When you are
twenty-_one_..." And I gently pinched his ear, as Napoleon did to his
grenadiers.

[Illustration: MY FATHER]

[Illustration: MY MOTHER]

And I did listen, the more readily because it would have been
impossible for me to have caused this father whom I worshipped the
slightest pain.

It was about this time that I noticed that my father, in spite of his
good humour, was not so happy as he pretended to be. He had long hours
of despondency. Perhaps this was nothing new, but I had not noticed it
before. Heedless childhood observes things rather than people. His
nature knew revolts and disappointments of which I was dimly aware,
although I did not understand them. I believe that, intensely artistic
and imaginative as he was, he had formed an ideal which became more and
more unattainable. Besides, he was a man of great enthusiasm and strong
emotions, a man who put all his force and feeling into everything he
did. His joys were ecstatic, his sorrows abysmal. The slightest trouble
became, in his sensitive heart, unbearable grief, but on the other hand,
music, a gallop over the countryside, the strong, pure light of heaven,
a favourite book, a kind word, a colour-scheme... these things
intoxicated him like wine. My mother, calm and sweet, knew no such
emotion and was incapable of passion. My father told her that nothing
could be great without passion, but she shook her head and said in her
quiet way: "I have no temperament. I shall never be an artist or a poet.
I like the earth and feel comfortable on it... and please don't be angry
with me, _mon ami_." And with much common sense she would add: "You love
to suffer... that's your trouble."

Sometimes, my father would improvise on the organ in order to forget his
troubles and to relieve his sorrow--the worst of all sorrows because it
was without cause--and his music was so inexpressibly mournful that it
wrung my heart. Or he would strike the ivory keys fiercely, almost
viciously, as though he were trying to crush his grief. I always tried
to console him and often succeeded.

Between those fits of depression, he was merry as ever, and fairly
radiated vitality around him, so much so that I could feel in an empty
room whether he had just been there or not.

In the summer-time there was a constant going to and fro of people, and
we made up many large parties of relations and friends. Often the
officers of the neighbouring garrisons joined us and organised games and
rallies (a kind of paper chase on horseback). And at other times we made
excursions to the beauty spots of that beautiful part of France, to the
Ballon d'Alsace, the Saut du Doubs.... My father and my brother were of
course present, and my dogs, two big Danes and two Saint Bernards,
followed me everywhere. In the winter, we hunted the boar near
Mulhausen.

       *       *       *       *       *

It was when I was seventeen that I had my first love-affair. As I have
stated, my brother's best comrade was M. Sheffer, now, like Julien, a
lieutenant at Belfort. I had known M. Sheffer for several years, and he
often came to Beaucourt. My parents thought him charming and clever, and
I thought the same--gradually there grew between us a kind of poetical
intimacy. He wrote verses for me, and I learned them by heart; we read
together under an oak-tree or by the cascade in the park, and, one
evening, between two songs, Edouard--his name was Edouard, like my
father--told me that he loved me.

His mother, a widow, came from Geneva, where she lived, to see us. My
parents and I were at once drawn to this modest and gifted lady, with
her silvery hair and her smooth pure brow. My father, who had a sincere
affection for Lieut. Sheffer, would not make any promises, however, and
when I told him that I was fond of "Edouard" he uttered vague words....
But he allowed him to come to see me, and he even promised that we
should write to each other, from time to time.

A year later, my father quite unexpectedly told me that I must "try to
forget young Sheffer." He could not consent to the marriage.... I was
too young, he was too poor.... And the thought that I should marry an
officer, who might be called upon, at any moment, to move from one
garrison to another, did not please my father. And he concluded, gently:
"Believe me, 'Puppele,' it will be wiser to part as soon as possible.
You'll soon forget this little idyl. You are still but a babe; your
whole life lies before you.... In order that you may forget the more
easily, I will send you on a holiday to Bayonne with my son-in-law (M.
Heir, my eldest sister's husband, who was then spending a few days at
Beaucourt)." I was broken-hearted.

A few days later, I went with my brother-in-law to Lieut. Sheffer, and
handed back to him whom I had for a year considered my fiance, the
letters he had sent me, and received in return those I had written to
him.

I saw Lieut. Sheffer once again, and it was in the following terms that
he described that final meeting, to the examining magistrate in January
1909: "Wishing to see Marguerite once more, I drove to Montbeliard
[where the train was to pass that would take M. Herr and me to the
South]. I wore civilian clothes and had a marguerite in my button
hole.... It is a childish detail, but I haven't forgotten it. I was able
to exchange one last glance with her. I never saw her again...."

Thus ended this pretty romance, so tender and so pure, but one which,
like every page of the book of my life, like every one of my actions and
words, was to be interpreted in an unfavourable way, during my
examination and at my trial. My past was searched, pried into, ransacked
and misconstrued, and even this naive and delightful romance, with my
first emotions and my first dreams, was not spared, and failed to find
grace in the sight of my tormentors. As my counsel declared in court:
"They tried to find out, not only whether there had been intimate
relations between Mlle. Japy and Lieut. Sheffer, but even whether, such
relations being proved, a child was not born, who, having years later
become an _Apache_, committed the double murder of the Impasse Ronsin,
and spared his own mother!"

Nothing, however, it need hardly be said, was found against M. Sheffer
or myself... except one thing! It appeared that I had once spent six
days in Bale, and this was at once construed into an elopement with M.
Sheffer. But exhaustive investigations established the fact that the
lieutenant was away at the time attending manoeuvres, and it was
finally discovered that the elopement to Bale was nothing more serious
than the visit of my mother and myself to the dentist, there being none
in Beaucourt!

It was at the Paris Court of Assize, in November 1909, more than twenty
years after the end of my short-lived engagement, that I met once more
the man who had been the hero of my first love-dream. I was sitting in
the dock, on the "bench of infamy," as barristers call it, accused of
having murdered my mother and my husband, and Major Sheffer came to the
witness's "bar" in the well of the court and told our innocent little
romance of long ago.

My dream was broken. Life did not seem worth living.... But youth soon
forgets. "We are not even capable of being unhappy a long time," Pascal
said.

I spent two months in Bayonne and Biarritz, wrote every week to my
parents, and received nearly every day long and delightful letters from
my father.

Then, suddenly, I heard that my father had died. While drinking a glass
of icy water he had fallen stone dead... of heart failure. It was on
November 14th, 1888. I was nineteen years old. I thought I should lose
my reason. They put me in the train and I reached Beaucourt, too late,
alas, to see once more the beloved face of my father. He had already
been laid in his coffin.

My father had been loved by all, and the Beaucourt temple was crowded at
his funeral. All the musical societies of the neighbourhood came to pay
him a last honour, and, massed together, they played Chopin's funeral
march.... My poor mother was so prostrated with grief that she was
unable to attend the funeral.... I will not say any more about a day
which was one of the most painful in my life.... Besides, I was so numb
with grief that my memory of it is blurred.

During the days that followed, everything at home was thrown into such
confusion, and the sight of all that my father had touched or loved was
so distressing to me, that I begged my mother to let me leave Beaucourt
for a while.... She raised her tear-stained face and said pitifully:
"And I?" I felt ashamed of my selfishness, and we fell into each other's
arms... and, of course, I thought no more of going away....

Mimi, my younger sister, was ill, and I should have fallen ill too, had
I not had to nurse her and my mother. When they recovered, I spent
whole days in the woods and by the lakes in our estate, in all those
hallowed spots where my father and I spent so many unforgettable hours
together.

For a year I was unable to take my violin from its case, or to open the
piano. Everything was changed, and I felt like a lost soul.

Towards the end of the summer of 1889, I went to Paris with my sisters,
to visit the Exhibition. Mme. Herr, who had come to Beaucourt to fetch
me, had spoken a great deal to my mother about a great friend of hers, a
certain M. Steinheil, a nephew of Meissonier, and I had been asked to go
to Bayonne later on with the Herrs.

We stayed six weeks in Paris and as true "Provincials," anxious to see
everything, we entered the Exhibition as soon as the gates were thrown
open and left it at night only when we found ourselves almost too tired
to stand. This lasted for a month, and then it occurred to me that there
was something else to see in Paris besides the Exhibition.

I had not been in Paris since the time when I had gone there with my
father to see a live elephant, and I drank in the beauties of the
capital with avidity, under the happy guidance of a friend who was both
an artist and antiquarian.

We went, on a certain Sunday, to a concert, and I heard for the first
time Beethoven's Ninth Symphony, of which my father used to say: "If the
whole of music were to be destroyed and forgotten, and only one work
left, that work ought to be the 'Ninth.'"

When I returned to Beaucourt I found my mother had started on the
building of large, sumptuous and extremely expensive greenhouses. We
begged her in vain to have the work stopped. My mother loved building,
and, as she said herself: "Every human being has his disease. Your
father's was loving to suffer. I have the 'stone' disease. I love
bricks, cement, sand, stone. To build has become my passion and at my
age, you don't get cured of your passions."

A few days later, my mother, somewhat anxious about my health, suggested
that I should go to Bayonne with the Herrs, and spend a few weeks in the
South.

During the journey, they told me all kinds of wonderful things about M.
Steinheil, to whom, they admitted, they had often spoken of me, and who
was now in Bayonne, decorating the cathedral there.

At my sister's I was shown the photograph of the painter, a shortish man
of at least forty, thin, with small eyes, a dark moustache, and a
pointed beard. "No, thank you!" I exclaimed, "I'd never dream of
marrying a man like that. Why, I'd look as though I were his daughter!"

I was, however, persuaded to meet him. One day, my sister said to me:
"To-morrow, we'll go to Biarritz to have tea with some friends."

"All right," I replied, "while you are with your friends, I will play
with my nieces on the sands."

The next day, just as we were going to board the narrow-gauge train
which connects Bayonne with Biarritz, I saw my brother-in-law walk up to
a small man, clean-shaven save for his moustache, and wearing a
frock-coat that was far too long for him. I did not recognise him as the
painter of the photographs. The two men came towards me and M. Herr
introduced M. Steinheil to me. At that time I was still as frank and as
impulsive as a child, and could not help remarking on the artist's
changed appearance. Quite confused, he explained: "My beard was getting
grey and I decided to shave it--yesterday."

In the train, my sister scolded me. "You have laughed at this poor M.
Steinheil, and you have hurt his feelings. He is abnormally shy, but he
is a charming fellow, a great artist, and the pupil of his uncle
Meissonier whose talent you admire so much."

I rose and walked straight to M. Steinheil: "It appears I have hurt
you," I said quite simply. "Please forgive me. You must not be angry. I
always say what I think, and after all, what do I care whether you wear
a beard or not!"

My sister, in despair, tugged at my skirt, but the painter said: "I
admire your sincerity, Mademoiselle. Frank and impulsive people are
becoming so rare nowadays."

He didn't please me at all.

I saw M. Steinheil very often after this first, uneventful meeting. And
then, one day, I was persuaded to go to the Cathedral to see him at
work. His conversation interested me very much, but I could not help
teasing him.

I had pictured him wearing a black velvet coat or in ordinary attire,
but this is what I saw when I entered the Cathedral: a tiny man lost in
a white smock, like a house-painter, holding a gigantic palette, and
perched on the top of a huge scaffolding.

I burst out laughing in spite of the solemnity of the place. M.
Steinheil wheeled round, saw us, dropped his brushes and his palette,
which fell noisily on to the flagstones beneath, came down from the
scaffolding at top speed, and, when he reached the ground, greeted me
with a number of quick, jerky little bows, all of the same depth, just
as I had seen President Carnot bow in Paris a few weeks before.
Meanwhile, my little nieces and I were forcing our handkerchiefs in our
mouths.

Disconcerted, M. Steinheil took off his smock... and we had a fresh
surprise. I thought that underneath that smock he was dressed like any
man, but no, he wore a thick knitted brown sweater over his waistcoat,
and that sweater reached down to his knees and gave him a most comical
appearance.

We went slowly round the Cathedral, and the painter described to me all
the frescoes, those that were the work of his father and those he had
himself just completed. He spoke about his father with such feeling
that, remembering my own father, I became quite serious, and thenceforth
listened with keen attention to all that M. Steinheil said.

Afterwards, we examined the stained glass windows. "That is a branch of
art," he said, "to which I have devoted many months. My father was
master of it, and handed me his secrets. There is, for instance, a
certain antique red which he alone knew how to produce--and now I am the
only person who knows. It was my father who restored the windows of
Strasburg Cathedral and of that Gothic gem, the Sainte Chapelle in
Paris." And with obvious joy he added: "The great Ruskin himself wrote
about my father's windows in the Sainte Chapelle where the whole story
of the Bible is painted: 'So well has M. Steinheil matched the colours
that it is not easy to distinguish between the modern glass and the
little that still remains of the thirteenth century.'"

I began gradually to be interested in the artist.... He came and dined
with my sister and I tried to be more kind to him and promised I would
never tease him when he spoke to me on art.... A few days later, M.
Steinheil added himself to my list of suitors, which already included
two officers, a barrister, a wealthy nobleman, a lecturer, and a stout
manufacturer. I felt no affection for any of them, but it was
undoubtedly with M. Steinheil that I preferred to talk. We chatted not
only of art and of Paris, but of Beaucourt and my mother. He told me the
story of his life, of his career.... I heard he had "brought up" his
sisters, and soon found that his timidity and reserve did not mean--far
from it--a lack of intelligence and generous feelings.

He gave me painting lessons and spent more time at my sister's house
than at the Cathedral. He became smarter in his dress: changed his
necktie every day and shortened his frock-coat.

I was given to understand that he had intended to leave Bayonne for his
home--at No. 6, Impasse Ronsin in Paris--eight days after my arrival. I
remained six weeks in Bayonne, and he did not leave the town until the
day after my departure. His friends chaffed him about this constantly
protracted delay, but he replied with his usual far-away voice: "There
is a fold in the cloak of my Saint Martin which is not yet finished."
That never-completed fold almost became a proverb afterwards.

I returned to Beaucourt with my brother-in-law, and was overjoyed at
being once more near my mother.... Alas, during my absence, she had not
only gone on with the building of the great greenhouses, but had started
upon a luxurious piggery, large enough for hundreds of pigs, and I heard
she had been with an architect to an estate near Mulhausen, where she
had inspected the famous model farm of a German prince, an exact replica
of which she wanted to have built at Beaucourt.

Twice a week I received painting lessons by post. I sent my work to M.
Steinheil, in Paris, and he returned it to me duly corrected and with
pages of comment, which I eagerly read. The "Parisian painter," as my
mother said, "had already a place in my thoughts."

Then, without warning, his letters ceased... after one in which he had
mentioned that he was unwell.

In January 1890, my mother was visited by my aunt, Mme. Octave Japy, who
brought a letter from M. Boch, an intimate friend of the Steinheils and
the Meissoniers. In his letter M. Boch said, that after having seen how
ill Adolphe (Steinheil) was, he had talked with the Steinheil family and
had discovered that the painter "had no longer any desire to live," that
he was desperately in love with Mlle. Japy, but dared not ask for her
hand, as he knew only too well "that she would receive such a proposal
with a shout of laughter." M. Boch's letter--which was handed to
me--contained warm eulogies of M. Steinheil and ended as follows: "I
should be glad to know whether Mlle. Japy might, some day, consent to
become the wife of my old friend, or whether he must give up such
hopes."

I was moved, but frankly told my mother that I had never seriously
thought of M. Steinheil as a husband. Thereupon my aunt offered to go to
Paris "to investigate things."

When she returned, she spoke of M. Steinheil, of his house, his
position. Then, gaily, she confessed that she had been rather
disconcerted when she had arrived at the villa in the Impasse Ronsin. "I
found M. Steinheil," she exclaimed, "wearing a blue sweater and...
wooden shoes. It was raining and he was about to walk across the garden
to the studio of his brother-in-law who makes stained glass.... He was
most sympathetic, however.... Of course he is furious that his little
secret has been discovered. He loves you with all his heart and says he
would do anything to make you happy.... I promised to talk to you and
plead in his favour. I have done so."

I had several long talks with my mother and my aunt.... They both
declared that happiness was far safer and lasting with a man of mature
years than with the average young man.... And then, I wondered what my
father would have thought of such a marriage, and it seemed to me that
he would have approved of it.... M. Steinheil seemed grave and kind, two
qualities which my father thought essential, and he was a talented
artist, to which my father would certainly not have objected. Again, he
used to tell me that an ideal married life is only possible when the
husband and wife can be a good deal together.... Now M. Steinheil being
a painter would spend much of his time at home, in his studio.... And
then, the prospect of living in Paris appealed to me, as it did to every
girl in our distant province. Finally, every one seemed in favour of
that marriage....

Gradually, I saw this projected union in a new light; I grew used to the
idea that I _might_ become Mme. Steinheil, and at length I consented to
meet the painter in Beaucourt.

He arrived a few days later, put up at my grandmother's, called on us
every day and made the acquaintance of the whole family. He pleased
every one, and his slow, serene and dignified ways, were in such perfect
accord with my mother's character that she asked me how I could hesitate
to marry such an ideal man. M. Steinheil's timidity was taken as the
delightful sign of a deep love.

He was most attentive to me, spoke so convincingly, though without any
passion--of the happiness that would be ours, and seemed so desperately
anxious to hear me say "yes" after he had proposed, that I had not the
heart to say "no."

Our engagement lasted four months, during which we exchanged letters
that became longer and more frequent as the weeks passed by. Such noble
feelings were expressed in his letters that I grew more and more happy
at the thought of becoming the wife of Adolphe Steinheil.

Towards the end of June my fiance reached Beaucourt with his family,
whom I had met in Paris a few weeks before, when I had gone there with
my mother to purchase my trousseau. M. Steinheil at once set to work on
a portrait of me--a small oil-painting on wood--_a la_ Meissonier, which
was never to be completed. I was to discover later on, that my husband
seldom went to the end of an idea or a plan, and was possessed of an
unconquerable dread of all final decisions.

Our marriage took place in July at the Beaucourt Temple--the dear temple
where I had spent so many hours, including the most tragic one of my
short life.

M. Steinheil was a Catholic, but had consented to our marriage being
celebrated in a Protestant church and had also agreed that our children,
if we had any, were to be brought up in the Protestant faith. The Japy
family--all staunch Huguenots--had been most strict on this point.

Two days before the wedding, I received the following letter, which is
worth mentioning, for it recalls a pretty tradition, which, like most
pretty traditions, is on the wane or has already disappeared.

      "BEAUCOURT, _July 9, 1890_.

     "MADEMOISELLE,--On the occasion of your marriage, we have decided
     to meet you at the church-door in order to pay to you our
     compliments, according to custom.

     "Pray accept, Mademoiselle, our heartiest good wishes, and believe
     in our most respectful feelings.

     "For the Young People of Beaucourt, and by the request of the
     Organising Committee.

      "EUGENE POMMIER."

On the day of my marriage, all the youths and maidens in the
neighbourhood formed an aisle outside the church, and they held garlands
of roses and ribbons to which turtle-doves were lightly attached. As I
proceeded I broke the garlands and the flowers dropped on my white dress
and were scattered on the ground, and the severed ribbons allowed the
doves to escape, one after another, over my head. On the threshold of
the church, one of the young men made a pretty speech and then,
according to the old tradition stopped M. Steinheil and made him dash a
glass to pieces--which is supposed to show that he renounces the joys of
bachelordom. Next, the "head" of the delegation delivered a speech in
which my future husband was duly told what a great honour Beaucourt
conferred upon him in giving him as a bride one of its own demoiselles.
Would he please bear this in mind, and also remember that they all
relied upon him to make me "infinitely happy."...

The Temple was decorated with foliage and flowers, and the floor was
strewn with roses. These, I was told later on, were a present from the
poor of the neighbourhood, who had wished to give a surprise--and I was
not only surprised, but touched--to "her who had for many years helped
her father to relieve their misery," and "who after the death of her
beloved father, had done her best to continue his work of mercy." Those
roses were indeed the most beautiful wedding-present I received.

The young ladies of Beaucourt sang a chorus. The words had been
specially written by a local poet, young and full of excellent
intentions, and the music composed by my father, years ago. My pastor,
M. Bach, was so eloquent that I burst into sobs like every one else; and
as we left the Temple, my husband and I were greeted by the strains of a
warlike march played by the Beaucourt band, and we shook hands with the
forty-five musicians whom for so many years, I had seen at home, at the
rehearsals conducted by my father.

A reception followed, and I saw once more all the dear faces I loved,
except, alas, that of my grand-papa from Russia... M. Doriand had been
unable to leave Moscow, and I never heard from him or saw him again.

In my mother's brougham, my husband and I drove to the station where we
entrained for Besancon, and thence we went on to Italy.

We were to remain there a month, but at the end of ten days, I felt so
home-sick and depressed that we returned to Beaucourt, where I ran into
my mother's arms and begged her to let me stay with her--for ever. My
husband entreated me to come with him to Paris, and I followed him....




CHAPTER III

ARRIVAL IN PARIS. A SEPARATION. MARTHE. PARISIAN LIFE.


I shall never forget that arrival in Paris. It was on a Sunday morning,
M. Steinheil had warned his sister when to expect us. He talked awhile
with the concierge in the lodge, then joined me in the garden, where I
was patiently waiting in the pouring rain, and said: "I am extremely
sorry. My sister, I hear, has gone to mass, and she has the keys of the
house...."

I spent half an hour in the lodge, distressed by the smell of fried
onions which came from the kitchen. At last, Mlle. Marguerite Steinheil
returned from church. She wore a morning dress which I would not have
allowed my maid to wear. It was 9 A.M., and I felt hungry--in spite of
the fried onions--but breakfast was not mentioned. I had a painful
impression when I entered the house--my home.... The hall was very
dusty; there was no carpet, and nothing was ready for the arrival of a
young wife. I asked the way to my bedroom, and burst into tears.

Very tenderly, my husband tried to console me. Then he fetched the
wedding-presents sent by his friends, dried my tears with his
handkerchief, as one does to a crying child, and I partly forgot my
sorrow.

Mlle. Steinheil lived with us. She was very affectionate, in her way,
but abnormally old-fashioned. My husband was entirely under her
domination and under that of all the other members of his family.

The next day I resolved to re-arrange the drawing-room, which was cold,
dreary, and as unattractive as could be. I transformed the curtains,
changed the position of the furniture, put flowers everywhere, placed
here a _bergere_, there a pretty _chiffonnier_, there a Louis Seize
arm-chair taken from the furniture which had been sent to me from
Beaucourt, and everything I disliked I removed to my husband's vast
studio.

Delighted at having arranged the salon to my taste I went and fetched
Adolphe to show him what I had done. He was quite upset, and began by
telling me: "It is rather awkward, all this furniture you have sent up
to my studio, and curiously enough you have taken from the studio the
very things I need for my pictures, as backgrounds, as ornaments."

At that moment my sister-in-law entered. She glanced around her, looked
at her brother, and then, turning to me: "My dear little girl," she
said, with an air of outraged piety, "never, you understand me, never
has the furniture in this room been touched since the death of our
venerated father." Her tone froze me to the marrow, and somewhat
incensed me. At the same time I regretted that I had hurt the feelings
of my sister-in-law and upset the backgrounds for my husband's
paintings....

I had to put everything back in its place. It was painful. I had
succeeded in turning that old, solemn and utterly inhospitable room into
a pretty and cosy salon, in which there reigned an attractive harmony of
lines and colours. Alas, I had to rehang the paintings by Daubigny,
Corot and Meissonier where I had found them, close to the frieze, where
it was impossible to enjoy their beauty. I had to replace the pieces of
furniture one beside the other along the walls, all in a row, and move
back the piano into its dark corner. I had draped it with a marvellous
and genuine Doge's gown, made of red velvet, which I had discovered in
the studio. I took the gown back to the studio, and had to reinstate in
their former places all the horrible things I had triumphantly relegated
there. And I had to remove from the salon my pretty Louis XVI. furniture
and replace the chairs that had been there, stiff, heavy, ungraceful
chairs, with such high seats that one had to climb in order to sit on
them, and to jump in order to come down.

With a sad heart I undid all my work. I took away the vases and their
flowers, the cushions and embroideries I had strewn here and there to
give touches of colour and a little life to this gloomy place. Evening
was falling; I wanted to light the gas, but my sister-in-law gently but
firmly decreed: "It's still light enough... and gas is expensive."

I sought a refuge in my room, and my husband followed me there. I begged
him to allow me at least to furnish and decorate my own room as I
pleased. He gladly consented. He was really grieved by what had taken
place. "Be patient," he said; "everything will be all right later on.
The main thing is not to be in a hurry."

He was forty; I was twenty. He was quiet, indifferent, easily satisfied,
compared life to a disagreeable pill which every one must swallow.... My
husband's philosophy did not appeal to me in the least.

And yet I loved him and believed in happiness.... And then, there were
my mother's letters. She wrote to me almost every day at that time; and
later, and until her tragic end, some twenty years after my marriage,
not a week elapsed without my receiving from her, when she was not with
me, one of those tenderly maternal letters which strengthen the mind,
palliate sorrow, and rekindle the flame of hope in one's soul.

After a few days, when I realised that I had not to deal with deliberate
opposition, but that, on the contrary, my husband and his sister were
anxious to see me happy, although, being old-fashioned, they were in
nature, habits and ideas far removed from me, I thought that with a
great deal of affection and persuasion I would succeed in improving my
husband. But the problem of Mlle. Steinheil looked to me more difficult.

I asked Adolphe: "How long do you think she will remain with us?"

"She has always lived near me," he replied timidly. "But I hope she will
marry some day."

This reply made me leap with hope, and I thought: "I will find her a
husband." I applied myself to the search with such goodwill that my
efforts were crowned with success. Six months after my arrival in Paris,
Mlle. Steinheil became the wife of a government official who made her
perfectly happy. And when, later, I told her about my little ruse, she
saw the humour of it and laughed, and expressed her gratitude in a
manner both charming and sincere.

On the very day of her wedding, I celebrated what I called "my victory"
by altering everything, not only in the drawing-room, but throughout the
house, and turning it at last into the beautiful and comfortable nest I
had so long dreamed of.

As a wedding-gift I presented my sister-in-law with the dear old
furniture which she had forbidden me to touch, and I also sent her a
collection of rococo-clocks and a group of wax flowers under glass
shades, which she held sacred. But, as my father had once told me, "Love
is illogical," and my sister-in-law carefully removed the dreary
furniture, the elaborate clocks and the wax flowers... to the attic of
her new home!

       *       *       *       *       *

I loved my husband, and although I soon found out that his timidity,
which I had taken for a lover's diffidence, was really the key-note of
his character--that his restraint was weakness, that he had neither
ambition nor courage, and that his ideal was tranquillity--I refused to
believe that my love, my energy, my vitality, which every one said was
contagious, would not in time conquer all obstacles, and that our
married life was doomed and happiness impossible. I set to work and did
all that an active wife can do for the husband she loves; and my task
was the easier because it was the very essence of my nature to spend and
devote myself to the service of others, and also because Adolphe, though
he lacked will-power, was endowed with many admirable qualities both of
the heart and mind.

I reorganised our home, tried to breathe ambition into my husband,
cheered him when he was depressed, surrounded him with comfort and
assisted him in his work, made the historical costumes which he needed
for his models and sat for him myself. But I failed to rouse him from
his apathy or to give him the love of effort.... And yet, to whom is
effort more necessary than to the artist?

It was indeed pitiful, for Adolphe had genuine talent and could have
made a great name for himself. But, besides working hard, he would have
had to pay certain visits, take certain steps, and he would leave his
studies only to take me to the houses of his friends or to hear me sing.

He often spoke to me about his uncle and master, Meissonier, but had
ceased to call on him, after a little family misunderstanding, and
Meissonier died without my having seen him.

Certain paintings by my husband looked so much like the work of his
celebrated uncle that in America a number of "Steinheils" have been sold
as "Meissoniers." Adolphe, like his master, painted miniatures in oil
and used much the same kind of "subjects." He told me many anecdotes
about his uncle, and here is one of them in his own words; "Meissonier
was very small, smaller even than I am, and his diminutive stature was
quite a trial to him. He came often to my studios and I believe he liked
me chiefly because I am small. He would sit on my stool, examine a
picture on which I was working, glance at my model, caress his long
white beard and say, 'It's fine... but somehow, I don't see things as
you do. There seems to be something wrong with the perspective.... Oh! I
have it. I forgot you are so very small. I must stoop in order to see
like you. Give me a lower stool....' And he chuckled with glee."

In days gone by Meissonier and Louis Steinheil (my husband's father) had
worked and struggled together. Then Geoffrey Dechaume, who was to
sculpture so many wonderful statues for Notre-Dame in Paris and the
Strasburg Cathedral, joined the two friends, and the trio toiled and
lived together in one room. Meissonier married the sister of Louis
Steinheil. Louis Steinheil became the father of a large family and
devoted his attention chiefly to stained-glass painting, which was then
very well paid for--a special branch of art which my husband also took
up for a time.

I soon became acquainted with the majority of well-known painters and
sculptors in France. Among others, I often visited Bartholdi in his
studio. The sculptor of the colossal statue of "Liberty illuminating the
World," on Bedloe's Island in New York Harbour, was an old friend of my
husband. He was a man of keen intellect and had much originality of
thought, but his conceit was as colossal as his famous statue. Showing
me once the small model of "Liberty," he said quietly: "The Americans
believe that it is Liberty that illumines the world, but, in reality, it
is my genius."

I never met a man quite as naturally and unconsciously conceited,
excepting perhaps a certain Orientalist, who was as learned as he was
celebrated. I remember meeting him once at the _Institut_. He wore the
green uniform and the sword of a member of the _Institut_, and on his
breast there shone a mass of orders. He pointed one out to me with his
parchment-like forefinger, "You see this little thing here," he
whispered. "There are but three Europeans who have the right to wear
it--one emperor, one king and--myself.... I don't attach the slightest
importance to it." And, leaving me, he went off to tell exactly the same
thing to all who stopped to listen to him.

I met Gounod, who came several times to the Impasse Ronsin, and I sang
with the old composer a duet of his of which he was very fond, entitled
"D'un coeur qui t'aime." Once he played to me many pages of his
"Redemption," the sacred trilogy which he had dedicated to Queen
Victoria. I did not know him very long, for he died in 1893 at Saint
Cloud, where, two years later, another great man, Pasteur, was to die.

I also met Ferdinand de Lesseps, _le grand Francais_. He was
eighty-seven then and very weak. I never knew a man whose kindness and
modesty equalled that of this giant, who had given the world the Suez
Canal.

       *       *       *       *       *

Eleven months after my marriage my daughter was born and I nearly lost
my life. The birth of my child was a source of pure delight to me, and I
forgot all my worries and bitter disappointments. My happiness, however,
was short-lived. For a reason which I will not reveal, and at which I
will not even hint, I determined to divorce. I consulted on the matter
M. B., my husband's closest friend, a famous barrister and
Attorney-General. He advised me to go to Beaucourt with my baby, and not
to make an irrevocable decision. Twice a week during the many months I
spent at Beaucourt with my mother, I received letters from the
Attorney-General, and their burden was always the same: "Come back to
Paris and to him. Forgive.... We will all do our best to make your life
a happy one. Don't divorce, for your child's sake...." My mother, who
was indulgence incarnate and had a holy terror of divorce, gave me
similar advice, and one day I returned home, had a long and painful
conversation with my husband, in which it was agreed that, for the love
of little Marthe, we wouldn't divorce, and would henceforth be
"friends," each living in his or her own way. M. Steinheil, later on,
said to an intimate friend, who repeated the remark at my trial, "My
wife is only a friend to me; she has full liberty, and I don't control
her actions...." It was further agreed that when we would have to
discuss some matter of importance we would do so in writing. Thanks to
this method, no one ever guessed that, although living under one roof,
my husband and I were separated. Indeed, this way of discussing by
letter had many advantages, and even the most united couples should
adopt it. It helps you to avoid bitter, hurtful words, prevents
quarrelling, and servants cannot overhear.... Moreover, it often happens
that while reading over a letter you have just written, you grow calm
and realise the futility and uselessness of what you said. The letter is
torn to pieces, and common sense comes, smiling, on the scene....

Notwithstanding the separation, I continued to do all that I could for
my husband. I looked after the house and assisted him in his work just
as I had done before. But need I say that my dream of love and happiness
was hopelessly shattered, and that had it not been for my little Marthe
my life would have been almost unbearable.

It has often been said that an unsuitable match or the failure of her
conjugal happiness urges any intelligent or sensitive woman on towards
adventures and new interests, and leads her to live on illusions. I do
not believe that I ever deluded myself with chimeras, except, perhaps,
in the days when my father built up around me a real and yet fairy world
of ideal joys, but there is no doubt that after I had shaken off the
dejection which weighed upon me like a heavy and unbearable cloak, I
realised that in order to live at all I would have to occupy my mind,
find an outlet for my energy, and seek new interests everywhere. I was
quite incapable of dumb resignation. With me, to strive and accomplish
has always been a necessity. I clearly saw that I should live only if I
lived intensely, ardently, even feverishly, and had more to do every day
than I possibly could do. I took a passionate interest in people, in
things, in events; I studied music, art, even politics; and my life from
that time belonged to my daughter and to society.

Without clearly realising what was taking place in me and in my home, my
friends instinctively showed me renewed sympathy, especially M. B., the
Attorney-General. He called almost every day, read to me, filled my mind
with new ideas, introduced all kinds of interesting people to me, and
created around me an atmosphere which, although artificial, had a
wonderful fascination, and made me almost forget all that I wanted so
much to forget.

My husband and I often spent evenings in his salon, where scores of
magistrates and famous barristers gathered. It was there that I met an
extremely beautiful and elegant woman, surrounded by an eager circle of
admirers, and her husband, who paid me many commonplace compliments. I
afterwards met them in many drawing-rooms. The man was M. Trouard
Riolle, and was to be, years afterwards, the Public Prosecutor at my
trial. He struck me as an extremely well-groomed and boring _poseur_,
who seemed to think that every woman at once fell in love with him, and
that directly he was introduced any glance or remark of his would
fascinate her. I soon saw that he was an ambitious and scheming man. His
wife, the daughter of the head of the Havas Agency, was as wealthy as
she was beautiful.

From one drawing-room I went to another, and very soon I knew what is
usually called _le Tout-Paris._

Among the many able men I met who paid their addresses to me none was
more sympathetic to me than M. B., and I was gradually conquered by this
Attorney-General's eloquence, his refinement, which reminded me of M.
Doriand's exquisite courtesy, his self-control, and his capable and
masterly way of dealing with affairs, which contrasted so impressively
with the attitude of too many of the men whom I saw around me, lounging
lazily and carelessly through life. He was tall and fair, wore side
whiskers, and had small, shrewd, and sensuous eyes; he was a witty
_causeur_, on whose words every one hung fascinated. People were anxious
to be admitted to his salon, and he was a great favourite, especially
with women, for although he was inevitably _blase_, he had still that
natural and romantic charm which very soon wins a woman to its owner.

I entertained a great deal, gave parties, concerts, dinners. I held a
reception once a week, and between two and seven three to four hundred
persons would pass through the salons of the villa in the Impasse
Ronsin. There came statesmen and diplomatists, famous authors and famous
composers, generals and admirals, scientists and officials, business
magnates and great financiers, State-councillors, explorers, men with
historic names, men who were making names for themselves, and judges, a
whole body of judges....

And there were the opera, charity bazaars, visits to the poor of my
district, chamber music, private theatricals, hunting, the Salons, the
_grande semaine_, first nights, concerts, receptions at various
Embassies and at the Elysee.... And there came every year a stay at
Biarritz or on the Riviera, a month or two at the seaside.... And there
was my husband's work, and the work I did with him... and music... and,
above all, my daughter, my little Marthe....




CHAPTER IV

MY SALON


My drawing-room was a room about 60 feet by 80, and 18 feet high. One
entered it from the verandah by doors which, when folded back, made one
room of the two. At the far end there was a monumental and ancient
chimney-piece of carved wood; on either side of it were cabinets filled
with cameos, rare china and silver. The furniture was chiefly Louis XV.
and XVI. On the left stood an organ and various stringed instruments,
and on the right a grand piano. On the walls hung huge seventeenth-century
Gobelins illustrating the story of Judith, Ashuerus and Holofernes, and
framed with the classic fruit-and-flower border. I need hardly say that
palms and flowers were everywhere in evidence. The salon communicated
with the dining-room by a wide opening, so that several hundred persons
could easily be entertained.

The Parisian life, brilliant and exhausting, strenuous and artificial,
was above all intoxicating, and I needed such intoxication.... The wit,
the culture, the taste, the flights of fancy of so many men and women
around me, their enthusiasms, their sympathy, their conversations, their
qualities, and even their defects, became necessary to me.

Life could not be dull with these companions, whatever their ideas and
their habits or their hobbies.

There was, for instance, old M. H., a distinguished author and a man of
the world, who had lived under three kings, one Emperor, and two
Republics, and whom my mother called "a living encyclopaedia." He was
small, a dandy, whose love of detail in attire would have excited the
envy of a D'Orsay or a Brummell. He was as careful of his appearance as
a professional beauty, in spite of his age. His curly white hair was
extremely well kept. He wore spotless white spats all the year round,
and always had a flower in his button-hole: Parma violets in winter and
a pale pink carnation in summer. He had one curious mania--he visited
cemeteries. We frequently went together to the Pere Lachaise and to his
favourite Montmartre cemetery.

"The Pere Lachaise," he exclaimed, "possesses the tombs of Musset,
Balzac, Chopin, La Fontaine, Bizet, of your 'friends' Cuvier and Thiers,
and others, but it is too fashionable, too showy.... In Montmartre there
is more intimacy: one seems to recall, to see the dear dead better. We
have Muerger and Offenbach here, Renan and Gautier, Lannes--which means
Austerlitz, Jena, Friedland--and Berlioz and Greuze, Madame, the
exquisite Greuze who had a wretched wife, but how beautiful she was!...
And they represent what is best in France, those men--heroism and wit,
subtle art, deep thought and clear language, logic and method,
inspiration and recklessness.... And that is typically French, Madame,
or I am an old fool!"

M. H. had known intimately Victor Hugo and Berlioz, "the Victor Hugo of
music." But whom had he not known, this artistic and lettered old man!
He had met Madame Recamier, a year or two before her death. "She was
ill, old, and wagged her head. The Vicomte de Chateaubriand--who had
only a few weeks more to live--sat near her in an arm-chair, his knees
wrapped in a huge rug. He talked to her about himself. That was ever his
favourite topic of conversation. He was, at the same time, wearied of
everything and almost of himself. Madame Recamier was still good to look
upon and had a noble bearing. The oval of her face was pure and her
shoulders had retained their beautiful curve. I was twenty then; she was
seventy and nearly blind, and although she spoke very little, I could
have loved to spend long hours in the company of this woman who had once
held the sceptre of perfect loveliness."

As a child, he had witnessed the first performance of Victor Hugo's
_Hernani_. "We were all frantic.... Mlle. Mars took the part of Dona
Sol. I have seen scores of actresses in the _role_ since, but none,
save Sarah Bernhardt, ever equalled Mlle. Mars in that romantic
part...." Old M.H. had been on the best of terms with Mlle. Rachel. "It
was a delirious and... expensive friendship," he explained. "Rachel
loved love, and loved gold."

There had been many strange romances in M.H.'s adventurous career, but
he had remained an optimist and fondly hugged all his memories; and as
he sometimes put it, in his flowery language, after a good dinner: "I
have gathered as many roses as possible, Madame, in the gardens of
Cypris."

There was the Comte de B. who, like M.H., loved life, but thought that
France had lost the secret of the art of living. He had been young in
the days of Napoleon the Third and was never tired of describing the
dazzling days of the Second Empire. He had known them all: the Duke de
Morny, the Duchess de Talleyrand, the Princesse de Metternich, Lafitte
the banker, Marie Sasse the opera singer, D'Orsay the dandy, La Paiva
and other ladies fair and frail. He described fantastic parties, games
at lansquenet when fortunes were made, and lost, the expedition to Rome,
the Italian campaign, the war in Mexico; and he would rhapsodise
delightfully on the beauty of the Empress Eugenie, the fascinations of
her Court, and the unparalleled festivities at Saint Cloud and at the
"Chateau," as the Tuileries were then called.

Among the people I received there were frivolous and worthless men who
were at the same time witty, refined, and highly cultivated. Paris is
the home of paradox. There were, for instance, M.X., an apparently
sedate and worthy Minister of State, not without ability, who did not
hesitate to disguise himself, even donning wigs and false moustaches, on
his nocturnal expeditions to cheap haunts of so-called pleasure; M.T., a
famous banker, who had his house so built that he could entertain fifty
friends to a bacchanalian orgy without his wife knowing, although she
was only on the other side of the wall.

There were women who were fascinating without being either beautiful or
clever, and able women whose superior nature, talent, or even genius, it
took weeks to realise.

Of the men, some cared only for costly things and extravagant
pleasures; others, of a keener sensibility, saw deeper into life, but
they too often spoke too little. And now and again there would come to
the house a prophet, a self-styled magician, or a real intellectual
giant.

Among the hosts of women I knew, there were many whose sole ambition
seemed to be of becoming a queen of _colifichets_, as though their ideal
model was Pauline Borghese. I knew two ladies, for instance, one the
elderly wife of an eminent magistrate, and the other a wealthy society
belle, who spent at least ten out of the fourteen hours during which
they were awake in enhancing their beauty... and yet both were indeed
beautiful!

A remarkable number of those who came to my house unburdened their
hearts to me, whether I wished it or not. I heard dreadful secrets from
excited ladies, and also confessions that were merely laughable,
although the fair sinners thought otherwise, and seemed to enjoy the
artificial atmosphere of danger, adventure, and terror into which they
thought they had plunged with sublime recklessness, in order to satisfy
their craving for new sensations.

A man of fifty, otherwise sane, clever, and reasonable, once spent three
months in besieging my drawing-room, in the hope of finding me alone. At
length he asked me, with the greatest secrecy... what he should do in
order to become a member of the _Cercle de l'Union_, the aristocratic
club which in former days had been adorned by the presence of the great
Talleyrand. I confessed to him in the same trusted and secret tones that
I did not move in exalted and exclusive circles! He had no sense of
humour, at the time, and proceeded to ask me whether I thought he had
any chances of being made a member of the "Jockey." And he kindly
informed me that de Morny, Napoleon III.'s "right-hand" man, had
belonged to that club.... He left my drawing-room in despair, and a few
weeks later, I heard he had become a member of the _Nouveau Cercle_, the
favourite haunt of the _jeunesse doree_, and of the Automobile Club de
France. Perhaps he thought that two accessible clubs were as good as one
exclusive club.

Many foreigners came to the Impasse Ronsin, but I found that the French
had the most enthusiasm, spontaneity and originality of thought. My
friends said what they meant and meant what they said, and what is more,
they had ideas and knew how to think things out and express themselves.
I encouraged the explorer to speak of his travels, the officer of the
army or of his men, the artist of art, the lawyer to talk of interesting
cases, the scientist to describe his latest researches or discoveries.

A white-haired English lady once explained to me, somewhat severely, the
meaning of "talking shop." She was bewildered when I ventured to remark
that I liked people to talk about what they knew and to keep as much as
possible from generalities and commonplace topics. A young _attache_ of
the British Embassy who had introduced the lady to me remarked: "You
would hold other views if you lived in England, Madame. The atmosphere
there is so different." Just to tease him, and in order to change the
conversation, I begged him to give me a definition of that handy
expression, "atmosphere." He remained silent, and I thought he
acknowledged his defeat. But he cleverly proved to me that I was
mistaken and that Englishmen do not give in so readily. While his
lady-friend and I were examining some Bartolozzi prints, he glanced at
the contents of my music cabinet, found an album of songs which had been
sent to me by a friend in London and begged me to play one of them,
which he chose himself.

He asked with such charming insistence that I gladly consented to play
while he hummed the words. When it was over, he quietly said: "There is
a great deal of the atmosphere of England in that song, Madame. You see
it often takes a poet and a musician to give certain definitions...."

There came to my house unknown geniuses and famous mediocrities, and I
gently urged the former to make use of the latter; there came people who
were aggressively biassed and prejudiced, and I gently waged war on
them, declaring that impartiality was blindness or weakness, or both;
and to those who were hopelessly impartial, I hinted discreetly that a
person who has no opinion must lead a very tedious existence.

Among the men and women who visited my villa, there were, inevitably, a
few persons who were a trifle _fele_ ("cracked"). I have known three
young men who wished to create a new religion, and a professor of
chemistry who said he would found the United States of Europe "within
ten years." That was fifteen years ago. I met a man who had made a vast
fortune in the manufacture of combs, and whose palatial country-house
was daintily called "Peignefin," in one word (a small-toothed comb). He
looked very thoughtful one day, and I asked what ailed him. His reply
was superb: "Madame, I have just made up my mind to spend the rest of my
life, and my fortune, in searching for the Absolute."

I knew a sportsman who, having been crossed in love, devoted his life to
the study of certain minerals, and a gentleman, otherwise sane, who
decorated his house from roof to cellar, with the shells of the oysters
he had eaten and the corks of the champagne bottles he had emptied,
after having scrupulously inscribed on these gastronomic mementoes the
dates of the merry feasts they recalled to him!

       *       *       *       *       *

Three men stand out from this mixed crowd of acquaintances as my
faithful and trusted friends--three men wonderfully gifted and yet
wonderfully modest, three men with golden hearts and lofty minds:
Bonnat, the painter; Massenet, the composer; and Coppee, the poet.

I knew Bonnat for nearly twenty years. He used to sign his letters to me
"your old and devoted grand-father," or, more briefly, "Your...
Methuselah." The great painter to whom the world owes amongst other
masterpieces a powerful "Saint Vincent de Paul," and those gems of
psychology, the "Portrait of Renan," and the "Portrait of My Mother,"
loved classic music, and what is better, understood it. During the
twenty years of our friendship only a few times did he fail to attend
the concerts given at my house. Like my father he had a special weakness
for classic music, and I believe he would have loved to listen to
Beethoven's Septett every day of his life. It was M. B., the
Attorney-General, who first introduced him to me. I called on M. Bonnat
at his house, which had been built by Bernier, the architect of the
Opera Comique. On the ground floor were the apartments of his sister
and his mother. A monumental staircase decorated with frescoes painted
by Puvis de Chavannes led to the artist's rooms, and above, to the
studio crowded with old carved wood, magnificent bronzes by Barye, and a
number of fine paintings--including one by his beloved Botticelli--on
the walls.

Bonnat--above all a portrait painter--had a curious way of working. He
hardly worked at his model--directly. He preferred to watch him, or her,
in a round hand-mirror which he held in his left hand--the hand which
also held the palette. At the back of the studio stood a small
cheval-glass, placed in such a position that it reflected the portrait.
He watched both images, and... worked. Another curious method of his was
to turn the canvas when he retouched this or that detail.

Bonnat worked in silence. He did not think it necessary to make his
model talk so as to get at his, or her, "psychology," but was satisfied
with painting what he saw. In this, he reminded me of Rodin, the
greatest sculptor since Michel-Angelo, whom I once heard say: "The
artist cannot improve upon nature, and Life is Beauty."

Bonnat, energetic and wiry, believed in work, work, work--which, by the
way, is also Rodin's motto--and achieved wonderful portraits, although I
am aware that the pointillists, the cubists, the post-impressionists,
and the post-post-impressionists hold other views!

He had "his" arm-chair in my drawing-room, and would sit there for
hours, listening to the music or watching my guests, and rarely opening
his lips. He was fond of Marthe, always had his pockets full of
"surprises" for her, and often took her to his studio, where she loved
to gaze at his beautiful collection of butterflies, with which she held
long, mysterious conversations.

[Illustration: BONNAT, BY HIMSELF

"Your Old, Devoted 'Grand-Father'"]

One day, when I came to sit for my portrait, Marthe, who had taken a
long walk with me in the Bois, and whose cheeks, rosy from the outside
air, threw into relief her dark brown eyes, sat down on the blue satin
gown which I wore in the picture, and which my maid had just brought.
Bonnat saw Marthe, and said to her, "Don't move, little one, I must
paint you just as you are." In a few seconds, there was a canvas on his
easel, his hand held the usual mirror, and--he was at work. In less
than an hour, he had painted Marthe, and the likeness was so perfect and
speaking, that I cried: "Stop! Don't touch your work. Don't alter or add
anything! Not a stroke more!"

Alas, Bonnat persisted in perfecting his work. Then he found that the
canvas was not large enough.... Marthe was "cut" across the middle of
her skirt.... There was too much "air" above the head, and too little at
the sides.... He would have the canvas enlarged.

But when it was returned to him, he did not like the seams, and
precipitately painted out the picture.

I came with my mother and Marthe to see my child's masterful portrait
and to sit for mine. When we found that the picture had been destroyed,
my mother cried with rage; I shed tears of disappointment. And when I
told my old friend that he might have kept the bust only, and cut the
picture in a suitable oval, he was as sorry as we all were. That day I
had not the heart to sit, nor did Bonnat have the heart to paint!

I spent many delightful hours in that studio. Bonnat asked me to
decorate and arrange it to my taste, for he knew full well the intense
joy I had in handling beautiful or rare things, and how keen was my love
of proportion, harmony, and colour-schemes....

The painter, who was my husband's friend as well as mine, was one of the
few men aware that we were not as happy as we appeared or pretended to
be. He knew that often in Society, masks, more or less transparent, are
worn by husbands and wives, and he did his best to give us those joys
and interests which add so much to life, especially when the mainspring
is broken and the machine has to be kept going as best it can.

Bonnat was kind to all, especially to poor artists. I once spoke to him
about a young and unsuccessful painter who believed in his genius and,
what is worse, had made another share his delusions; a poor little girl
to whom he gave his unknown name and who gave him her love and--several
children. I did my utmost to relieve their misery, and then wrote and
asked Bonnat to examine the young man's work.

I went to the studio in the Rue Bassano shortly afterwards.

"Well, what is it like?" I asked.

"Nothing in it so far," Bonnat replied. "Why on earth does the fellow
paint? The only way of saving him is to make him give up Art and adopt
some other profession. Will you send him to me one of these days?"

"He's downstairs, waiting...." And I ran away before my old friend could
exclaim his usual "Just like you!"

Bonnat questioned the young painter about his parents and heard that
they were farmers. In his entertaining way he spoke of Nature,
country-life, the simple life.... "And do you really think," he
exclaimed in conclusion, "that if it were not for the Institute, the
Council of the Legion d'Honneur, the Ecole des Beaux Arts, of which I am
the director, and a score of other Societies and Committees to which I
belong, I would remain here one single hour longer. No, sir! And you
should consider yourself as a lucky dog. If I were free, as you are, I
would go and live in my dear Saint-Jean-de-Luz, near the sea and near
the Pyrenees, and breathe, and work.... As for painting, it is a
wonderful thing, fascinating, ideal, sublime and all that, and I am
rather fond of it myself, but there's no living in it unless you made a
name for yourself forty years ago, as I did, for people liked good and
beautiful things in those days, and paid for them.... If I were you, I'd
paint what I pleased--in my leisure, and adopt some simple profession to
earn my living. Ask your father to let you help him on his farm, and if
you send me a picture every year and it's good enough, I'll try to get
it accepted at the Salon.... By the way, do you care for a good cigar?"

"Rather," said the young painter, who although born in the country had
spent several years in Montmartre.

"Well, then, my lad, take this box with you." And Bonnat dismissed him
in the blunt manner which he assumed whenever he did a good action.

I saw the young man a few days later, before his departure for the
country, where he was to become a prosperous farmer, though he never
gave up painting, and he told me, with big tears in his eyes, that he
had found in the box, besides the cigars, ten hundred-franc notes, and
Bonnat's card with these words, "Good Luck."

"How shall I thank M. Bonnat," he kept repeating, after I had filled him
with tea and cakes so that he might recover.

"I'll tell you," I replied. "By, not thanking him at all. He loathes
gratitude."

       *       *       *       *       *

Massenet, the composer of _Manon_, _Thais_, _Sapho_, _Werther_, and so
many other delightful operas, did me, for many years, the great honour
of calling himself my "respectful, obedient, and faithful accompanist."
I always found him whimsical, enthusiastic, mischievous, and fond of
jokes. As he entered my salon, at some crowded reception, he would wave
aside the valet about to announce his name, and shout in a stentorian
voice: "Massenet!"... Once, he added, "Grand officer of the legion of
honour, author of a score of operas, member of several academies!" And
as soon as he had greeted me and shaken hands with a few friends, he
started his favourite sport: pun-making. He had a knack of ending the
most serious arguments, even about music, with a _bon mot_, and I
sincerely believe that he enjoyed the successes of his witticisms quite
as much as the success of his operas. He said himself: "I am a composer,
that's true and I can't help it, but at the same time I love fun and
youth, and boys of sixty are incorrigible."

Once, some foreigners called on me, and Massenet begged me to mumble his
name when I should introduce him. A little later, he was talking music
to the newcomers, and in time mentioned Massenet, whose music he lightly
disparaged, with the result that they agreed with him, as he seemed to
know all about music, and even went further and declared Massenet's
music quite unbearable. Thereupon the composer sat at the piano and
played some of his own music as he alone could play it, and Massenet's
critics went into ecstasies. "Ah, that's what one may call real music,"
they said. "Who wrote it?"

"A friend of mine," Massenet replied airily, and he played again, saying
when he had concluded, "That was my own."

"It's perfectly sweet. You ought to have your music printed."

"I occasionally do."

"Really! Would you mind repeating your name, we didn't quite catch it!"

"Massenet," and with infinite good grace the composer handed his card,
and left the room in order to have his laugh outside.

His letters were most amusing. They were interspersed with bars of music
and "sketches" to emphasise or illustrate his meaning. And they
invariably contained some welcome remark about his work: "I have just
left the Opera Comique. I am quite done up, but the interpretation at
this rehearsal was splendid; singers, orchestra, everything. And Calve!
She's divine.... Ah! The fourth act, you will see what she makes of
it!..." But long before his letters reached me, Massenet came himself,
although "done up," and played to me that fourth act, and made me sing
it... under the eyes of my mother and of Marthe, wrapped in ecstasy!
Massenet worshipped my daughter and always perched the darling on the
top of the piano, where he played.

In order that Marthe might accompany me, he had the charming idea of
composing a few songs for me, the accompaniments of which were very
simple and easy and without octaves, which were as yet beyond her reach.
On the day when she played the first of these "Do not give thy heart,"
Massenet indulged in an orgy of puns and jokes, which was a sign of
perfect contentment.

       *       *       *       *       *

Francois Coppee, an old comrade of my husband's and one of my
"faithful," as he called himself, lived close to us and often came in to
have a chat, to look at the flowers in my "winter garden" or to listen
to music.

One day, when Reyer, the composer of _Sigurd_ was present, he remarked
that music was not only the most sociological and popular of arts, it
was also the easiest. "I could not play a chord, but I feel sure that it
is easier to express one's self in music than in written words...."

Reyer decreed: "It is quite as difficult to frame a melody as to frame a
sonnet." But Coppee refused to believe it, and going to the piano, he
struck a note mightily. "That's a war-cry," he exclaimed; then touched
the same note gently, "And that's melancholy," and playing it once more
as softly as possible, "And that's reverie: Music is above all wonderful
because it is so simple!" It was a mere sally on his part, and Reyer
laughed heartily.

Coppee was kind, tender-hearted, and sociable, the very type of the
popular and sentimental _Parnassien_. He spoke in an artless manner, as
much like a Christian as a poet, and the modesty of this _Academicien_,
this "immortal" loaded with honours, was delightful.

He found me one evening reading some verses of Heredia. "You are
unfaithful to me, dear friend," he said.

"I like all good poets," I replied, "and this one opens wide horizons to
me. He seems very far...."

"You are right. I merely try to see what is near me," said Coppee with a
smile.

Little Marthe was very proud of the poet, but this did not prevent her
from making use of him. She made him gather shells for her, one summer,
on a small beach in Normandy, and told him to store them in his large
felt hat. It was there that he once took us to a huge rock in a secret
hole of which he showed me a large box of cigarettes.

"The doctor strictly forbids me to smoke," he explained, "and my sister
(Coppee was a bachelor and lived with his sister, who was the most
devoted person one could well conceive) sees to it that the doctor's
instructions are carried out. Therefore, I come here secretly to smoke.
Life without tobacco, you know...." Then taking me to the other side of
the rock, he pointed to the sand which was strewn with hundreds of
cigarette ends, and cheerfully exclaimed: "What a cemetery!"

Marthe, who was then seven years old, had often heard that Coppee was a
great man, and that all which came from a great man was worth keeping.
While we walked on, Coppee and I, she gathered all the cigarette ends,
hid them, and the next day, put them in a box which she would not let
out of her hands. Coppee, later on questioned her about the precious
contents of the box.... He believed, as I did, that it contained
sea-shells, and he was very much tickled when she opened the box, and in
her little fluty voice, declared: "I too want to have a keepsake from
you, and I have it!"

In Paris I often saw Coppee as I passed by the Cafe des Vosges, his
favourite haunt, a few hundred yards away from the Impasse Ronsin. He
saluted me, quickly paid the waiter, overtook me, and together we walked
to my house, talking of books.

He himself organised a performance at my villa of his _Passant_, the
charming one-act play which had made him famous when he was
twenty-seven, and still a clerk in the Ministry of War.

During the Dreyfus affair, in which he took a leading part as one of the
founders of the Patrie Francaise League, I saw him less and less.
Meeting him one morning in the gardens of the Luxembourg, I asked him
why he neglected me.

"Ah! my friend," he said hesitatingly, "I'd love to call on you as in
the past, but the trouble is there are too many Dreyfusards in your
salon!"

By an amusing coincidence, Zola called that very day, but he only
remained a little while.

"To my great regret, I must go, Madame." And he added in a low,
confidential voice: "The fact is there are too many Anti-Dreyfusards
here."

       *       *       *       *       *

The author of the Roujon-Macquarts was manly and brave besides being an
able if unsympathetic novelist, but he had, to my knowledge, one little
failing: he disliked talent in others, and one weakness: he was a
gourmet. Therefore on the two or three occasions when he dined with us,
I arranged a menu which Brillat Savarin would have endorsed and took
care not to invite any other writer.

Zola lacked in conversation what he lacked in his writing: delicacy,
refinement, lightness. He was heavy, ponderous and rather aggressive.

I teased him one day: "How is the chase after human documents going on?"
I asked.

"Quite well, Madame. I hunt my quarry everywhere, and all day long.
Human documents, slices of life, searching character-studies, that is
all there is in literature."

"But what of the writer's personality? Is that of no account whatever?"

"It shouldn't be. I try to eliminate my personality from my books...."

"And don't you succeed?" I asked.

"I have the misfortune of being possessed of a temperament which I
cannot altogether get rid of, alas!" came the pompous reply.

Another time, after re-reading "La Terre," I told him "You are a
pessimist, M. Zola! You see only one side of life, the ugly and animal
side; and but one kind of people... the bad kind. And to cap it all, you
exaggerate. You believe yourself a 'realist,' but as a matter of fact,
you are an idealist... with an ugly ideal!"

It was very evident that Zola was not pleased. Without relenting,
however, I went on: "I have lived in the country for many, many years. I
assure you that our peasants round Beaucourt and Belfort bear very
little likeness to the brutes you describe. I have loved the
peasants...."

"And I, Madame," Zola retorted severely, "I have observed them."

That night, after my guest's departure, I did not go on with "La Terre,"
but refreshed my mind by reading, for the twentieth time, "Le Crime de
Sylvestre Bonnard" and felt extremely thankful to Anatole France.

I remember an Argentine mine-owner whose ambition was to meet
celebrities. He saw Zola and said to me: "What! Is this the man who
wrote 'L'Assommoir,' 'Nana,' 'Germinal'... this little insignificant
person! I had fancied him looking somewhat like Beethoven, clean-shaven,
with a powerful face, a tremendous brow, glowing eyes and a mane...."

Zola overheard the remark and smiled. He rightly appreciated that kind
of indirect compliment.

I happened to meet Zola on a day following one of his defeats at the
election of the French Academy. A young man, pallid and very nervous but
full of good intentions, said to the great writer as if to console him:
"Maitre, what does it matter?... After all, not even Pascal or Moliere
or Balzac was made a member of the Academy."

Zola did not reply, but a little later, when cups of tea and
"petits-fours" were being handed round, he began to describe the Morgue
in an even more realistic and harrowing manner than in "Therese
Raquin"!... And as he spoke, his eyes were riveted on the tactless young
man, who turned livid and trembled.

Had Zola taken into account the importance of political influence in the
Academical elections--as in everything else in France--he would probably
have become an "Immortal." At any rate, few writers were even more
worthy of a seat under the _Coupole_.

I spent pleasant hours at the Institute. I was present at the receptions
of Anatole France who obtained the seat of M. de Lesseps and of Edmond
Rostand, by M. de Vogue, and at a few more of these ceremonies which
play such an important part in the literary and social life of Paris. I
have always felt a deep sympathy with the _recipiendaires_, whatever
their degree of literary merit. For even though a man may have written
books which the world will hasten to forget, that is no reason why he
should be compelled to listen in public, and for an hour, to a
colleague's eulogies. What an ordeal and excessive cruelty when the
_recipiendaire_ happens really to deserve the panegyric!... It is
positively painful to the least sensitive onlooker. The ladies, however,
suffer the least, for their attention is naturally divided between the
speeches and the display of new frocks and hats... an Academical
Reception having long been a recognised occasion for the exhibition of
the "latest creations."

Pierre Loti once described to me the mixed feelings of a _recipiendaire_
in a way that would have made any nervous writer almost tremble at the
thought that the Academy might some day elect him against his will.

Our conversation took place at the wedding of one of my cousins, the
bridegroom being a relation of Loti's. The melancholy author of so many
evocations, of so many exotic idyls, spoke well, but in a hollow,
monotonous voice.

A concert was given after the wedding and a Breton sang several of his
pieces: sailor-songs, excessively strong and free.

Loti, the naval officer, and Loti, the author of "Pecheurs d'Islande,"
was carried away, and turning to me, he said: "Isn't my friend
wonderful! As you listen to him, you can see the swelling ocean, you can
feel the sea-breeze in your face...."

"Yes, and you can even taste the brine, smell the musty fish and... feel
sea-sick!" I added, for some of the details in the song really gave one
qualms.

Loti was not pleased, and to make amends I spoke about those books of
his which I preferred, the "Roman d'un Spahi," "Mon Frere Yves," and
"Propos d'Exil." And, as we talked, we travelled together to the Far
East, and landed on an island in the South Seas, whereupon, using that
gift that perhaps he alone among living men possesses, he began to
describe the music and colour and even the fragrance of tropical nature
with such magical power and subtlety that my senses were dazzled and
bewitched....




CHAPTER V

MY SALON (_continued_)


Amongst the "faithful," I must not forget to mention Henner, "the great
painter of the flesh," as he called himself in one of his rare poetical
moments.

Henner was dumpy, coarse-featured, and almost bald; had a shaggy grey
beard, and ever-begrimed hands, and wore the shabbiest and greasiest of
clothes. And it came as a shock to hear this old man, unspeakably
unkempt and slovenly, talk with the worst Alsatian accent about the
Beauty of the Nude, and the splendour of woman, which he did in a very
matter-of-fact and unpoetical manner. But besides being a great artist,
he was kind, honest and simple-hearted, like his old friend Bonnat.

The painter of "Chaste Susanna," "The Magdalene," and "The Levite of the
Tribe of Ephraim," enjoyed nothing better than a good dinner and old
Burgundy.

I was a little apprehensive when he called, for the spoilt old child
could not help speaking his mind bluntly. I was once begged by an
acquaintance to use my influence to make the painter accept an
invitation which had been extended to him several times. The aged
bachelor, who disliked all functions save good dinners in congenial and
familiar surroundings, accepted, after a great deal of coaxing. He
arrived late, as usual, and unkempt, as usual. He had broken his stud,
after having fidgeted with it for a long time, for there were very
evident marks of a struggle in the centre of his shirt front. He saw me
at once and instead of going straight to the hostess he rushed up to me
and exclaimed: "Why didn't you tell me you were coming too; I should
never have hesitated to accept?" Then, turning to the host, he said:
"Well, well, and so you are the famous M. H.... who made your fortune
years ago by selling shirts. I suppose if I made a sketch of you, you'd
pay me with a dozen collars. I am told you own a fine art gallery here.
I daresay you got all those modern pictures in exchange for shirts and
hosiery, eh?" And he burst out laughing.

The tactless surmise happened to be correct. As a matter of fact, M. H.
had once called on my husband and abruptly proposed to supply him for
life with shirts and collars in exchange for a certain painting which he
fancied. I tried not to be angry. "My husband," I said, "wears only the
very best shirts...."

"I quite understand that."

"And he gives them away when he has worn them once...."

M. H. saw his mistake and withdrew the offer.

I never knew Henner to be embarrassed. We treated him like a member of
the family, and, one day, wishing to make him understand that his nails
were really too grimy, I asked him whether he wished to wash his hands
before dinner.

He looked at his nails, understood, and quietly said: "I am in mourning
for Alsace and Lorraine."

But if he were never embarrassed, he had embarrassing habits, the worst
of which was that of examining the shoulders and arms of ladies in
_decollete_ with unperturbed insistence. And not infrequently he would
say: "Allow me, just one second; I want to feel the grain, the quality
of your skin." And before the victim had time to move he would press
down his hairy and grimy forefinger on her bare arm, or even on her
neck.

Withdrawing his fingers, he would pass some such remark as this: "It's
really wonderful. I never grow tired of feeling flesh.... It is all made
of little dots--blue, white, green, pink, purple, yellow... that is what
flesh is."

Countess S., a handsome lady of the Hungarian aristocracy, who had come
to Paris on her honeymoon, raved about Henner's art. Meeting him one day
in my house, she offered to sit for the painter. Her French was not
fluent, and she meant, of course, that Henner should paint her portrait.
He readily accepted, for her complexion was milky and transparent, and
her hair had that glowing copper tint which he loved so much.

A few days later I met the fair Hungarian Countess.

"How is the portrait?"

"Don't speak about it," she replied. "Your Henner is a wretch. I went to
his studio with my husband. Henner said to me quickly: 'Please undress.'
Then, as if he were talking to himself, he added: 'Her body stretched on
the black velvet of this couch, her hair loose... and a dark
background.... It's going to be a masterpiece!' My husband was mad with
rage.... At last M. Henner saw his mistake. He had only seen my hair and
my complexion, and had not stopped to think whether I were a lady or a
model. He apologised profusely, and offered to paint my portrait in any
dress I chose, but my husband would not listen to him...."

He made a joke once of which he was very proud. Having been asked who
were his favourite composers, he replied: "There are two, and they have
the same name. When I want serious music I ask for some Sebastian Bach,
and when I want gay music I ask for some Offen-bach!"

Henner adored music. He said so, at least. But music is usually played
after dinner, and after dinner, Henner retired to the smoking room in
the company of a glass of brandy, and soon went to sleep. The noise of
the instruments being tuned woke him up, and he came rushing into the
drawing-room shouting: "Bravo, bravo; Ach.... What a nice piece that
was." And he added: "And now that I have heard this masterpiece, I must
retire. I have had a good dinner, I have heard excellent music, I have
met charming people, and I am going away very pleased...." And the dear
old man disappeared.

I often compare him to my friend Julius Oppert, the world famous
Assyriologist, a bent, thin, old man, with an endless nose, who wore a
threadbare coat with numberless pockets, each of which contained one or
several manuscripts or books. What a good, dear man he was, and what a
character! He was full of sweet little attentions to my daughter,
although she never missed an opportunity of playing tricks on the old
savant. He had a curious habit of filling the tail-pockets of his coat
with sandwiches, and my mischievous Marthe one day put some cream puffs
among some sandwiches on a plate. Oppert did not look when, according to
his custom, he filled his pocket, and in went the puffs with the
sandwiches, with the result that presently the cream was oozing out from
his coat-tails, much to Marthe's glee.

Did he guess who was responsible for this little joke! I could not
tell.... All I know is that at Christmas that year he sent Marthe,
instead of a doll or a toy, a Sanskrit grammar, and on New Year's day,
to me, whom he perhaps thought my daughter's accomplice, instead of
flowers or marrons-glaces, his huge work on "The People and the Language
of the Medes."

Assyriology leads me to mention M. and Mme. Dieulafoy, well known for
their excavations at Suse, and their books. Every one knows that Mme.
Dieulafoy is one of the three or four women in France who are authorised
to wear men's clothes. This brings back an amusing incident to me.

Mme. Dieulafoy was kindly helping me to dress, one evening, for a
theatrical performance in her salons. My maid, a country girl quite new
to Paris, was nowhere to be found. When I returned home, I asked her why
she had left the Dieulafoys' house when she knew I wanted her. She
blushed, spluttered, and finally said: "Forgive me, Madame, but I was
late, and when I opened the door of your dressing-room, I saw a
gentleman at your feet fastening your costume.... So I ran away, feeling
that I was not needed at all!"

I laughed at the incident, just as I had laughed a few years before,
when, in the Forest of Fontainebleau, I saw a short, white-haired man,
wearing a smock, and painting, whom I congratulated. The "man" was Rosa
Bonheur, the celebrated animal painter.

Being the wife of a well-known artist, I made the acquaintance not only
of sculptors and painters, but of art lovers and collectors, amongst
them Chauchard and Groult.

Of Chauchard, the millionaire founder of the Louvre stores, the
philanthropist and grand-cross of the Legion of Honour, there is little
to say. Camille Groult, on the other hand, was interesting because he
had no false pride and really loved his pictures. He had an estate near
Paris close to my summer villa, and I often met him. He had made a
fortune as a manufacturer of _pates alimentaires_ (farinaceous foods)
and was proud of it. He was the only man I ever met who could talk
romantically of tapioca, rice, spices or sago. I remember how once he
told the story of his sago business. It was an epic. He made us--we were
a few friends listening to him--travel to Borneo, to Ceram and other
isles of the Pacific, described the sago palm and its mature trunks
gorged with precious food-starch, the marshy and unhealthy river-banks
where the palm grows, the life of the native packers, the price of the
gunnybags in which sago travels, the competition between European,
Chinese and Eurasian traders and what not.... After that I really did
keenly relish Groult's sago-flour and see the romantic side of what I
had always considered a prosaic business.

Groult once took my husband and me to his old "hotel" in the Avenue
Malakoff, to show us his famous collection, which was quite a favour,
for he guarded his pictures jealously and rarely let them be seen.

He showed us not only his pictures, but also his collection of Gobelins,
and the way in which he spoke, for instance, of the Birth of Bacchus--a
wonderful tapestry copied from a cartoon by Boucher--was a sheer
delight. He possessed exquisite "Aubussons" with the most delicate
pastel hues, old Chinese porcelains, a collection of snuff-boxes, unique
pieces of antique furniture (which he caressed as one caresses a lover),
a series of fans, the folds of which were as light as the wings of the
rare butterflies in the cabinet hard by. And the paintings....

There was a room the walls of which were covered with works by Watteau;
another, the gem of which was the portrait of La Guimard by Fragonard,
Boucher's pupil and friend. And there were pastels by La Tour, the
portrait of a woman in blue by Nattier, that of Chardin by himself,
several Goyas--to say nothing of a whole gallery of Hubert Roberts.

Groult's collection of English masters was almost as wonderful. It
contained masterpieces by Gainsborough, Reynolds, Hoppner, Raeburn and
Lawrence, and a gallery of Turners, though Turner would perhaps have
disowned a number of them. Groult's collection of paintings of the
British School was well worth seeing, and, as my husband remarked: "One
cannot say as much of that possessed by the Louvre, most of the pictures
in which could not have been painted by the master to whom they are
attributed. Gainsborough, for instance, is represented at the Louvre by
two landscapes in the Italian style, the sight of which would have
revolted the painter of _Mrs. Siddons_, the _Blue Boy_ and _Little Miss
Haverfield_ if he had seen them."

       *       *       *       *       *

To deal at length with all the politicians, functionaries and diplomats
I have known is beyond the scope of this book of "Memoirs," the
essential portion of which must be that devoted to the mystery of the
Impasse Ronsin--the events which preceded and followed the crime, my
arrest, my life in prison and my trial.

Besides, very few among those holders of important offices really did
"matter" or did achieve anything beyond their ambition--which was, of
course, money and promotion, till they could reach no higher in their
particular sphere of activity, when their only thought became that of
"retaining office"!

       *       *       *       *       *

I met King Edward VII., then Prince of Wales, several times.

He asked me one day, quite unexpectedly, what I thought of his French.
"Your Highness," I replied, "speaks our language unusually well...."

"For one who is not French!"

"For one who is not always in France. But, perhaps, your Highness speaks
it too grammatically."

"I see," said the Prince cheerfully, "my French is too perfect to be...
perfect."

His power of observation and his memory were amazing. He once recalled
every detail about the dress which I had worn at a certain performance
at the opera, where I had been seated exactly opposite his box, and then
proceeded to describe the diadem of a friend of mine who had sat near me
at the same gala performance. He explained that he so much admired the
original design that he had had a similar one made for a wedding
present. He then spoke of music, knowing how I loved music, and further
astounded me by naming, during the conversation, nearly all the items of
the programme on that night.

He had a charming sense of humour, and I remember his saying: "In
France, I enjoy myself, look round and talk; in Germany, I observe and
let others talk; in England... I shan't tell you what I do in England. I
should be divulging State Secrets!"...

       *       *       *       *       *

Among those that at one time or other came frequently to my salon, I
must mention Admiral Gervais, whose visit to Kronstadt with the French
squadron marked the first stage of what was to become the alliance with
Russia, that counterpoise against the Triple Alliance; M. Sadi Carnot,
son of the President, and great-grandson of the great Lazare Carnot, the
"organizer of victory"; M. Dujardin-Beaumetz, the sympathetic, obliging,
and apparently _inamovible_ Under-Secretary of State for Fine Arts, who
dined at my house only a month before the tragic night, and my old
friend Poubelle, Prefect of the Seine and afterwards Ambassador at Rome,
who just before he issued the famous and wise regulation which made it
compulsory for every householder to have dust-bins, the contents of
which are removed every morning by the city scavengers, sent me a mass
of orchids in one of these bins which, as he designed them, are called
_poubelles_ by the ever-facetious Parisian to this day. My maid was
furious and said it was a gross insult to "Madame" to have sent her
flowers in a dust-bin!

[Illustration: MY DAUGHTER AND I, IN 1901]

Many foreigners came to my house.... I remember a Spanish family--the
P. L.--who, dreading the icy winds which blow from the Guadarrama, left
Madrid every year to spend the winter in Paris, up north. The mother had
a passion for hot chocolate and for "Grand Guignol" thrills... and her
eldest daughter never tired of admiring the old gargoyles on Notre Dame
which, like Victor Hugo, she called a "symphony in stone." She was
bitterly disappointed when, having introduced her to M. Viollet-le-Duc,
I told her that it was this gentleman's father who was responsible for a
very considerable portion of her beloved mediaeval chimeras.

I had several Dutch friends. The ladies dressed simply, though clearly,
and were somewhat narrow-minded; and, apparently, their one great care
was to be _deftig_, that is, _comme il faut_, "good form" with just a
touch of culture. They talked constantly of their homes at the Hague or
Amsterdam, with such pride and even fire, that I wondered how they could
have left Holland at all. I knew some Swiss folk who talked of Eugene
Rambert as of a very great poet, and of Secretan as the Last
Metaphysician. I knew Rou-[I think hyphen should be removed]manians who
all talked about oil and wheat, who described Sinaia, Carmen Sylva's
summer residence, as the most beautiful mountain-home in the world, and
who acquainted me with their country's songs and popular ballads, which
have delightful names: _Stellele_, _Sarutatul_, _Doina_, and which took
not only me, but my mother and my little Marthe, right out of the world.
I received several Germans, whom I learned to know at once, and many
English people whom it took months to make out... but it was often worth
it.

I met a young Bolivian couple, who before leaving Paris kindly invited
me to spend a few days with them, any time I chose, at La Paz... only a
five or six weeks' journey. And there was a very distinguished Chinaman
who had become my friend because, as he put it; "You are one of the few
women who have never stared at me with wonder or curiosity, who have
never asked me indiscreet questions, and who have never begged me to
sign my name and title in an auto-graph-book... 'and in Chinese,
please.'"

As a matter of fact, I never possessed an autograph-book, and that is
probably the reason why I have so many letters from great men and
"celebrities."

I have been on excellent terms with many Russians, including a young
princess, tall, green-eyed, and white-skinned, who had the soft graceful
movements of a cat, and smoked cigarettes from morn till night; whose
dresses seemed always about to slip off her shoulders and whose
favourite poet was Baudelaire... and who, in spite of her many weird and
morbid eccentricities, managed to be a most devoted wife, a most loving
mother, and a most faithful friend.

What extraordinary people there are amongst the Russians! They seem to
have twice as much vitality as the average person, their nerves are
always highly strung, and yet never seem to snap; they have a tremendous
capacity for work and equally tremendous capacity for wasting time, and
are altogether greater "living paradoxes" than the French themselves!

I remember a great Muscovite official, who one evening left the
drawing-room to return into the dining-room, where he rapidly emptied
not only every bottle and decanter but also the glasses of my forty
guests, even those glasses which contained only a few drops of wine. He
fell dead drunk, and had to be carried to the garden, where a railway
director and the Minister of Public Instruction played the hose on his
head.

Fifteen minutes later, he was back in the drawing-room, and captivating
us all by his sober, vivid, and extremely clear-sighted account of the
political situation of Europe from the Russian Government's standpoint!

A pretty incident occurred one afternoon at my house, in which another
distinguished Russian was concerned. He was my friend, General Eletz,
who could be called "the bravest of the brave."

My uncle, General Japy, often said to him in his blunt manner: "What a
pity you are a Russian. You are the very kind of officer we like in the
French Army!" General Eletz had written a book on the "Hussars of the
Imperial Guard," and he had hardly been in the room a few minutes,
before there entered the French General de Chalandar, who had written
on the "Hussards de Chamboran." Now, each had sent the other a copy of
his book, and so the two had become great friends, by post, but this was
their first meeting.

The two men stood face to face, both very tall and athletic.

"General de Chalandar, General Eletz," I said, introducing them.

"What... Hussar of the Guard?" asked the one.

"What... Hussar of Chamboran?" asked the other, and the two delighted
giants shook hands for fully ten minutes in the most ardent and
energetic manner.... Then suddenly, General Eletz turned pale,
staggered, and collapsed. My mother and I attended to him, and when he
had sufficiently recovered, he drove away, without telling us the cause
of his collapse.

I found it out afterwards. He had stopped a runaway horse half an hour
before calling on me, and had been dragged along for some distance. His
shoulders and his knees had been badly injured, but he had promised to
come, and after brushing off the dust, he came.... But the ten minutes
hand-shaking had been too much for him.

Of all these foreigners, my sympathy went out, above all, to the
Russians, because I found them brave, intelligent, and kind; to the
Americans on account of their straightforwardness, and their delightful
disregard of conventionalities; and to the English, because of their
healthy minds and their stolidity, which was often refreshing and
soothing to me in my restless life.

       *       *       *       *       *

For over fifteen years, then, from my marriage to the fatal date of May
30th-31st, 1908, I experienced that peculiar sensation which you cannot
easily do without when once you have known it, the sensation which comes
from being always surrounded by many people, from having near you scores
of friends (and a few enemies too), day after day, until solitude
becomes unthinkable--as distant and fanciful a notion as that of life on
a desert isle--from hearing every day something fresh or unexpected,
from constantly renewing your little stock of knowledge, the sensation
of unending giving and taking.

Whether you wish it or not, you wear your mind, your nerves, your heart
and your vitality; and you receive in return thoughts, suggestions,
ideas, and often genuine sympathy. You belong less and less to yourself
and more and more to others, to what is called _le monde_.... Sometimes
you receive less than you give, and you return home exhausted from a
soiree at which you have talked, struggled, conquered, advised,
persuaded, consoled--and also sung and played, and listened; and if you
are not too tired to think about it all, you say to yourself: I am the
dupe, not only of life, but of my own heart. I wear myself away for
others, and when I come back and cry out to my heart for admittance, I
find that I cannot enter and be alone with myself. You must be selfish
to live happily--or even to live--at all....

But the next day, after all too short a night, how eagerly you take up
and open the letters the maid brings you--often a whole tray full of
them--and how your heart thrills once more to the world as you read....

Three invitations to dinner... and one of them says, "Please bring some
songs with you, the great So and So will accompany you."... A lady
friend begs me to come to tea that very afternoon, she needs my advice,
something dreadful has happened.... A member of my family, a
functionary, has lost his temper; will I see his Minister and save
him.... Mme. Z. gambled and lost... heavily; what is she to do?... My
dear mother feels lonely. Will I come to Beaucourt for a few days?...
Marthe's governess is ill; will I find some one to replace her for a
week or two?... I am reminded that there is a reception at the English
Embassy, I must not forget to come.... My friend Mustel relies on me to
come and listen to his new organ, an orchestra, a marvel.... The Duchess
of Y. is impatiently waiting for those fifty children's dresses I said I
would send for her "_ouvroir_."... My dressmaker will come at four....
Mme. C. writes she'll call at two to take me to the Geographical
Society, where her husband, who has recently returned from a perilous
expedition, will lecture. She'll never forgive me if I don't come....
And here are letters from poor people I know.... A mother's appeal for
her starving children, an old workman who has lost his job... he hails
from Beaucourt, and years ago worked on my father's estate.... Two poor
girls to whom I often give some sewing to do, are dangerously ill....
And there is the rehearsal of an oratorio at the Temple, and a sale of
old silver which I have promised to attend with the newly-married
Countess de M. who knows nothing about old silver, and wants to learn,
because her husband collects.... And here comes my darling Marthe:
"Mother, do spend the whole day with your little girl... please!"...

How I would love to!

What a life! I feel like the owner and captain of a ship. I have built
it; I have launched it on unknown seas, and have started upon an
expedition to the land of Nowhere.... Society-life has no object since
it has itself as object.... And yet I feel I cannot desert my ship, if
only because I sometimes pick up a shipwrecked sister or a drowning
brother, and because I have lost my bearings....

What a life! You sigh, you complain, and then comes the reaction.... I
have wasted a precious half-hour dreaming, lamenting. "Quick! Clotilde!
my tailor-made dress, the navy-blue one, my toque and a pair of gloves.
It is already ten o'clock. I shall never manage to do all I must do
to-day!"

Of course, they are not real duties these "Society" duties but you do
them more or less conscientiously and always with energy--for you are in
a hurry! And meanwhile you neglect the other duties, the real ones,
including the duties to yourself.... That is Parisian life. And when you
have tasted its exquisite poison you cannot do without it, no more than
a "Society queen" (Oh! the emptiness of such a title) can do without
elegance, chocolates, scent, cosmetics, compliments, and other
indispensable things!

I have been criticised because I sometimes received men and women whose
standard of morality was not of the highest.... But in Paris, if you
were to receive only paragons of virtue, you would indeed, receive very
few people.... Yes, there came to my house men whose talk went a little
further than I could have wished, and ladies whose minds were not so
pure as the transparent gems they wore in profusion.... There came to
the villa in the Impasse Ronsin people who were ingeniously romantic,
wickedly childish and recklessly unconventional; but whatever their
moral shortcomings, they were never dull. And that is a great deal.

And what pleasant and brilliant conversations, even when the _causeurs_
were too short-sighted or too far-sighted in their views. Thus I had
friends who wished all music was destroyed and forgotten except the
works of Richard Strauss, others who would have given their lives for
Maeterlinck, and quite a number of men who wanted to _save_ France
(there is an amazing number of people in France who believe that the
country is irretrievably lost unless their advice is followed). All
these persons may have been rather foolish, but they never bored; their
ideas were often wrong but never absurd.... And there always happened to
be present some one who made them agree--with themselves.

I have been further criticised for "doing everything myself."
"Everything" is an exaggeration, but I certainly did a great deal in my
house, and I am proud of it. At Beaucourt my father made me do as many
things as possible in our home, although he was wealthy. I then made at
least half my dresses and hats, and fulfilled a thousand and one
household duties. I thought my father was right, and marriage did not
change my views on the matter.

Should I have given up my salons and my receptions, the pleasant and
interesting relations with men and women of the world, with men of
talent and men of genius, just because my husband and I had not an
unlimited account at the bank? Should I have deprived myself of those
intellectual and artistic joys which add so much to life because I could
not entertain as lavishly as did some of my wealthier friends?

Yes, I helped with the household work in the morning, and when I thought
that a room would be improved by changing the position of a piece of
furniture, I helped the servants to move it.... I may here mention that
all this was carefully noted, after my arrest, and the examining
magistrate, M. Andre made the following argument in all seriousness: "A
woman who is strong enough to assist in moving a cupboard or a sideboard
is strong enough to strangle one or two persons with her own hands."...

Although I loved that "mundane" life, it was not on account of its
"brilliant" side, but because I found there satisfactions of the mind
which to some extent made up for my unfortunate married life, and also
because I was able to make some use of my numberless acquaintances--those
especially who held high office--to help in their careers my husband's
relatives or mine, or any friend.

But there were hours of bitter dejection, when it seemed to me that of
the crowd of people I knew who proclaimed themselves my devoted friends,
there were not ten men and women on whom I could absolutely rely and who
fully deserved the beautiful name of "friend"; hours when the
compliments with which I was overwhelmed rang formal and untrue, when
sympathy was hypocrisy or calculation; hours when I loathed the
artificiality of Parisian life!...

I sought then a refuge in long conversations with my husband in his
studio, where I helped him in his work, and in the tender love of my
mother. Or I pressed my little Marthe to my heart and a fierce craving
would seize me to flee with her to Beaucourt, to beautiful Beaucourt,
the home of my happy youth, and lead there a modest, normal life with my
child! But Paris does not let go of its victims....




CHAPTER VI

FELIX FAURE


Beyond the hours of depression and the every-day troubles that fall to
the lot of all human beings: disappointed dreams, thwarted ambitions,
shattered illusions, financial cares and family worries, there happened
nothing particularly eventful in my life until the day when I became the
friend and confidante of Felix Faure, elected President of the Republic
in January 1895.

The political and other events of general interest which took place in
France during the years immediately preceding that date, may be summed
up in a few words.

After the Panama scandal and the vanishing of the "two hundred and fifty
million francs," cabinets were formed and cabinets fell with symptomatic
and alarming rapidity. For instance, in January 1898, Ribot becomes
Premier, but already in March Dupuy succeeds him. The general election
reveals nothing... except the nation's apathy. The election of fifty
Socialists as deputies, however, is worth noting. Later Casimir Perier
becomes Prime Minister. He has a revered name, is capable, and he is
wealthy, but his Ministry does not last six months, and in May 1894,
Dupuy returns to power. The next month an Italian anarchist murders
President Carnot, the noblest of men and an able statesman, worthy
grandson of the victor of Wattignies, of Lazare Carnot, the "Organiser
of Victory." Four days later, the Congress sitting at Versailles, elects
Casimir Perier to the highest office in the Republic, but in January
1905, tired of being slandered, fettered, and insulted, and for private
reasons, too, Casimir Perier resigns and Felix Faure becomes President.

He had rapidly reached the supreme rank. Under-Secretary for the
Colonies from 1882 to 1885 in Jules Ferry's Cabinet, he was elected
vice-president of the Chamber in 1893, became Minister for the Navy in
1894, and President of the Republic in 1895.

That very year he received the Lord Mayor of London, Sir Joseph Renals,
and the following year, in October, the Czar and the Czaritza. I
attended the gala performance at the Opera, the laying of the first
stone of the Alexander III. bridge, which was to illustrate in stone and
bronze the Franco-Russian Alliance, and even went to Chalons to see the
military review held there. I had left Beaucourt for the purpose of
attending these ceremonies in the company of an important official. The
Czar struck me as more unassuming than the President, and the rather
pathetic beauty of the Empress of all the Russians made a deep
impression upon me. France went Russia mad, and Felix Faure became
extremely popular.

The Alliance which had been marked by the visit of a French squadron
commanded by Admiral Gervais to Kronstadt (1891), the mission of General
Boisdeffre to St. Petersburg in the following year, and the visit of the
Russian Admiral Avelan to Toulon and Paris in 1893, was to become a
_fait accompli_ during the return visit of Felix Faure to the Czar in
August 1897.

Three months before this momentous visit there occurred in Paris the
terrible catastrophe of the _Bazar de la Charite_ which claimed some
hundred and fifty victims. I miraculously escaped death that day. I was
one of the ladies in charge of the buffet, and was serving tea, when I
felt suddenly unwell, so much so that, reluctantly, I had to leave the
Bazaar. The carriage in which I drove home had hardly turned the corner
of the Rue Jean Goujon when the fire broke out.

My mother arrived at my house in a state of mad terror, for she had
accompanied me a few hours before as far as the doors of the Bazaar, and
when she had heard of the fire, had feared that I was one of the
victims. I was safe but, alas, lost my dear friends in the catastrophe.

A few weeks later the second jubilee of Queen Victoria was celebrated,
and with a few English friends staying in Paris, I attended the great
garden-party given at the British Embassy by Sir Edmund Monson. Mme.
Faure and her daughter, M. Hanotaux, Minister of Foreign Affairs, and
the whole literary, artistic, and political _elite_ of France were
present.

I heartily congratulated an eminent English personage on the splendour
of the reception and the atmosphere of pleasant mirth which permeated
the Embassy.

"Of course, Madame," he remarked, "the Embassy has not always this
bright animation! But you must not believe that we English are as sedate
and stolid and gloomy as some people say. And I may inform you, by the
way, that this house was once the residence of the notorious Pauline
Borghese, whose only ambition was to be pretty and to... to be loved."
He then told us a number of lively anecdotes about the ravishing sister
of Napoleon--and concluded; "Don't you think there is something piquant
in the fact that the Ambassador of stern and solemn Old England lives in
a house which once belonged to a famous crowned courtesan!"

On July 14th--the day of the _fete nationale_--the usual review took
place at Longchamps, and I took my six-year-old daughter to see "the
soldiers," but, instead of watching them, she kept staring at the Rajah
of Kapurthala, who was close to us, and asking endless questions which
brought smiles to the lips of all those who overheard her, but
embarrassed me very much.

I spent the rest of July and the whole month of August in the Alps, with
my husband, who had to work "on the spot," for a vast "panorama of the
Alpine Club," which was intended for the Exhibition of 1900. The Alpine
manoeuvres were in progress at the beginning of August, and President
Faure, who had been to Valence and Orange, came to witness them. Just
before a sham fight by the Chasseurs Alpins near the Vanoise Pass, my
husband took up a position whence he could survey the coming scene, and
I, further down and camera in hand, was preparing to take snap-shots
from the top of a rock, when I heard some voices. There, below me, was
a group of men, and one of them, wearing a red shirt, a brown suit,
yellowish gaiters, and a white _beret_, looked up at me and said
something I could not hear. I believe he asked whether he should stop to
be photographed. I failed to recognise the President of the Republic and
his suite. But shortly afterwards an officer came to ask whether M. and
Mme. Steinheil would lunch with the President. I declined, thinking the
invitation too sudden and too formal, but my husband accepted and told
me he would ask the President for permission to paint the forthcoming
"distribution of decorations" at La Traversette.

Needless to say, I had met the President before. For several years I had
regularly attended functions at the Elysee, and had made the
acquaintance of Felix Faure, as I had made that of Carnot and of Casimir
Perier. I had even spoken at length with him on two or three occasions
when he was Minister for the Navy.

That same day, in the village which at the time was my husband's
headquarters, I saw the President once more. A group of little girls,
wearing the quaint old dresses of Savoy, were offering flowers to
him.... Felix Faure saw me, bowed deeply, and afterwards there came an
invitation to dinner--which I declined. The next morning yet another
invitation came, this time to lunch, near Bourg Saint-Maurice, at the
redoubt which overlooks the Petit Saint Bernard. My husband accepted,
but I declined again, under the first pretext that occurred to me....
The truth was that I was far too busy collecting native buckles,
bracelets and crosses, the wooden birds in which the Savoy peasants keep
salt, and all the headdresses I could buy, to care to lunch with the
"first magistrate" in the land and his suite! I much preferred the milk,
cheese, and brown bread of the mountaineers to all the dainties and
wines of the presidential table. When at night my husband returned with
his companions--a judge and a mayor--I was told the President repeatedly
alluded to my absence. My husband made his sketches of the distribution
by President Faure of "decorations" to Alpine soldiers at La
Traversette, and joined me again. The Chief of the State left for Annecy
and Paris, and later, while my husband and I were leading the simple
life in the mountains of Savoy, the President was in Russia with the
Czar, enjoying the banquets given in his honour at Kronstadt, St.
Petersburg and Peterhof.

My husband's painting of the Traversette scene included, of course,
portraits of the various members of the President's suite and
they--ministers and officers--came during the autumn to the studio in
the Impasse Ronsin to sit for their portraits. The President gave a
sitting to M. Steinheil at the Elysee. An exchange of letters followed.
Felix Faure was anxious to see the "historic" painting, and I was told
that he wished to visit our house, which had been described to him by
his _entourage_, in which I numbered several friends. I was overwhelmed
with invitations to the Elysee.... At the beginning of 1898 the picture
was completed, and the President called one morning to see it.

My uncle, General Japy, was with my husband and me to receive him. My
garden was one huge bouquet, and as soon as he had entered, with General
Bailloud and a young officer, the President expressed his delight.
Marthe offered him a sheaf of flowers that was almost as big as herself,
but absolutely refused to be kissed. Her obstinacy amused Felix Faure,
who asked:

"What is the toy you like best?"

"A doll."

"What is your name?"

"Marthe."

"Well, little Marthe, I will give instructions for a perfect doll with a
complete trousseau to be made and sent to you, exactly the same as I am
sending to the Czar's daughter."

"Thank you," said Marthe quietly, but nevertheless refused to be kissed.

[Illustration: PRESIDENT FELIX FAURE]

Felix Faure admired the drawing-room and the "winter-garden," examined
closely as a connoisseur a few pieces of antique furniture, and then
stopping near the piano: "Ah! It is no fun to be a President," he
sighed. "I am deprived of music.... Of course the band of the
Republican Guard plays at the dinner-parties at the Elysee, and there is
the Opera, and... the Marseillaise, wherever I go, but I seldom, if
ever, hear the music I love, chamber music, or a simple song, sung at
the piano!"

He told me that he had heard about the musical parties at my house, and
that his friend Massenet was also my friend, and finally asked whether I
would sing, just for once, at the Elysee.

"No, M. le President," I replied. "I don't believe I could sing
there.... It seems to me that everything official is necessarily
inartistic, and I should not care to sing in surroundings that were
uncongenial."

He walked to my husband's studio. The President was delighted with the
picture.

"Do you know," he asked me, "that they are singing a song on the
boulevards about the white _beret_ I wore at the Alpine manoeuvres?"

"I suppose they are comparing it to Henri IV.'s famous white plume, M.
le President," a young officer suggested.

"No,... I wish they did.... There's nothing historical about the song.
Still, it is an advertisement, and even Presidents need _reclame_.... It
is a very caustic but still very jolly song."

Marthe exclaimed: "Please sing it to me!"

"I will if you will give me that kiss!"

Marthe ran away.

The President looked at the pictures in the studio. He paused before a
small painting by my husband, representing a woman of Bourg
Saint-Maurice, wearing the pretty mediaeval cap still in use in certain
parts of Savoy. It is like a round helmet of brilliantly 
material, with a point above the forehead. The hair tightly plaited is
twisted round with black tape, which forms part of the helmet (a three
hours' process which the women at Bourg Saint-Maurice told me they only
went through twice a month), and from that strange but becoming headgear
hangs a loose chain made of black and golden beads.

Felix Faure was so delighted with this little portrait that he insisted
on buying it.... Needless to say, it was gladly offered to him as a
souvenir of his brief stay in the Alps.

He then insisted on inviting my husband and me to lunch at the
Elysee.... "And don't refuse, this time," he added, turning to me.

From that day flowers and invitations rained upon me from the Elysee.

A month or two afterwards, the _vernissage_ (opening day) of the Salon,
which the President of the Republic attends each year, took place, and
Felix Faure was present with Meline, the Premier, Hanotaux, Minister of
Foreign Affairs, and a large array of prominent functionaries. My friend
Bonnat, Director of the Ecole des Beaux-Arts and "Painter of
Presidents," conducted Felix Faure through the rooms.

Suddenly, Bonnat came to me and said gaily: "The President has been
asking for you ever since he arrived here. I believe he is fond of you,
as we all are, even I, your dear 'Methuselah!' Please come and meet him;
I have left him with your husband; they are both expecting you."

I gave him a gentle tap with my catalogue; he ran back to fulfil his
official duties, and five minutes later, the Army, in the shape of a
colonel, came to fetch me.

"I am delighted," said Felix Faure, "to be at last able to congratulate
you, Madame."

"You forget I did not paint the picture," I said in a low voice.

"The State," he went on, "desires to acquire it."

"You forget the picture belongs to my husband."

"You know most painters, Madame; will you consent to act as my guide?"

"Yes, with M. Bonnat's indispensable assistance."

I took the President quickly past the works of famous painters--those
loaded with honours and wealth--and made him stop before the paintings
of little-known and talented artists who needed--and deserved--recognition;
and I had the satisfaction of seeing Felix Faure and a few members of
his suite make a note of the names of certain young but promising
painters....

"I am taking advantage of your kindness, Madame, but I am the President
of the Republic, and I am sure you are a patriot.... You hail from the
Eastern frontier?..."

"My birth-place is only half an hour from Alsace... but one may be a
patriot without being attached to the Republic, M. le President. Who
knows but that I am a Bonapartist?"

Felix Faure promptly replied: "I should understand if there were still a
Bonaparte!"

We parted, and with a few close friends, I went round the various rooms.
Just as I was about to leave, M. Roujon, Director at the Ministry of
Fine Arts, rushed towards me....

"The President," he began breathlessly.

"What! Again the President."

"Yes, still the President, Madame.... He has requested me to tell you
that he doesn't wish the State to buy your husband's picture. He has
acquired it for himself."

Aggravated, I went to Bonnat, who had already heard the news.

"You can do nothing," he said. "How can you prevent the President from
ranking above the State... in such a matter!"

I appreciated Felix Faure's kindly intentions, but thought his methods
rather too impulsive and embarrassing.

My husband wrote to the President to thank him. We called on him several
times at the Elysee, and a warm friendship formed.

One afternoon, I had a long conversation with Felix Faure, in his study.
We had often talked of art, music, travel and politics, but never going
much beyond the surface of things.... This time, he was extremely
earnest and spoke to me about the hopeless political situation in France
and the ever increasing difficulties he had to face. He spoke about the
general elections which had just taken place.... The Socialists had
polled an extraordinary number of votes; the Radical deputies elected
exceeded the Moderates in number.... A new party had risen: the
Nationalists. What these meant was not quite clear but they certainly
meant mischief. Every one was dissatisfied.... Anarchy was rampant....
The _Chambre_ was an incoherent assembly and there was the Dreyfus
Affair to tackle.... Thank Heaven, the elections had shown that the
Republican majority was against Dreyfus and his supporters.... But
trouble was brewing.

"I know all this," I said, "but how can I help you? I am not a Cabinet
Minister!"

"Quite so... but I am sure you could help me a great deal, if only to
discover the truth...." he remarked seriously, then, changing his tone
he added whimsically: "Do you know I have heard a great deal about you,
of late? It appears that you have unusual powers of persuasion. In the
various Ministries, when I wish to secure this or that post for a
_protege_, I am invariably told that it has already been promised to one
of your friends. Your candidates pass before mine...."

We talked about his career and about my life.... Then he took me round
the place. He showed me the hall where Napoleon had held receptions and
the room where he had last slept in Paris after the battle of Waterloo,
the "Hall of Sovereigns" where Napoleon had abdicated and where Queen
Victoria had stayed in 1855.

After walking round the gardens we returned to the President's study.

Thenceforth, I met him almost every day, either in the Bois de Boulogne,
where he rode in the morning, or at the Elysee. He would telephone to me
at any hour of the day. There was always something to do, some one to
sound. Felix Faure had fullest confidence in me and I went, for him,
when he could not go himself, to the sittings of the Chamber of Deputies
or of the Senate, to certain receptions and parties. He was surrounded
by enemies, and he knew it. He made use of my intuition, of my knowledge
of people. I met him after all the Cabinet Councils, and he told me what
had been discussed and decided.

A new life began for me; my _role_ of confidante had its difficulties
and even its dangers, but it had a wonderful fascination. My salon was
now more crowded than ever before. Invitations were showered upon me
both from quarters friendly with the Government and from quarters in
league with the Opposition. My "friends" were legion, and my
enemies--you cannot possess influence or power without making
enemies--were greater flatterers than the others.

Then, there were men who tried to persuade me of this, that or the
other, so that I should in my turn persuade the President, and those who
laid traps for me, men whose entreaties were disguised threats, who
tried to know what I knew, and who did not seem to realise that their
very attitude revealed quite plainly their shameless scheme....

How often I was able to warn the President in time against a dangerous
mistake. How often I prevented him from appointing to some responsible
position a man who perhaps had an interesting career behind him, and a
stainless reputation, but under whose mask of impassiveness I had been
able to detect a man without scruples or principles, an _arriviste_,
ready to sell everything and even himself to achieve his ambition.... No
man is inscrutable to a woman, especially when that woman is devoted to
one whom she has decided to help, and when she is supposed to care for
nothing more essential than music, flowers, dress, or success.

And I hasten to add that I sided no more with one party than with
another.

At the time when the whole French nation was divided into two parties,
there were among my best friends, among the men whom I most respected
and admired, staunch Dreyfusards and also staunch anti-Dreyfusards.

I believed then, as I believe to-day, in tolerance, liberty, and
legality. I never took part in one single political discussion, not even
in my own drawing-room. What I heard I remembered, and when I thought
that a piece of what I would call "psychological information" could
assist the President I retold it to him.

It goes without saying that I was very much sought after, if only
because I had some influence in most ministries and at the Elysee. And
it was a source of real joy to me to be able to render services to so
many people who seemed to need them. I remember, for instance, a
Minister, who after some unlucky speculations had so many debts, just at
the time when one Cabinet fell, that he was lost unless he obtained a
portfolio--and the salary attached to it--in the next. His friends
implored me to intercede with the President on his behalf.

"He has rendered poor services as a Minister," said Felix Faure when I
approached him, "but I will see that he is appointed to a post for which
he is better suited, although I am sure he is not worth bothering about.
The post will be less conspicuous, but quite as lucrative... and that
seems to be the great point."

Need I add that the ex-Minister became my enemy afterwards? The greater
the services, as a rule, the greater the ingratitude.

The number of incidents of all kinds--strange, tragic, heroic,
harrowing, comical, or revolting--which I witnessed during the year
1898, is truly amazing. I recall a leader of society, a noblewoman, who
sacrificed her fortune, her reputation, and her happiness for the sake
of a man implicated in the Dreyfus affair, in whom she had absolute
faith, and who made a political blunder that plunged him into a tragedy
for which he certainly was only indirectly responsible. I remember a
prominent and really able citizen who, in a moment of patriotic frenzy,
made such a fool of himself that he and all his family, for whose sake
he made a daring but absurd move, was crushed under that almighty and
often unjust power--Ridicule. I recall a pigmy, in size and brains, who
through sheer luck and a sly use of his opportunities, became famous for
a while, and made a fortune out of other men's thoughts. And I could
tell the abject story of a personage of very high standing in whom Felix
Faure had complete confidence. Somehow I distrusted that man, and
succeeded in preventing the President from accepting his statements as
"gospel" truth at a time when, owing to the electional atmosphere of the
political world, the slightest errors of judgment became unpardonable
faults, and even treachery.... After the death of the President, and
in most unexpected circumstances, I found out that the exalted personage
had had, for years, as mistress, a woman who was a spy in the service of
the German Embassy. He was that woman's tool, but she loved him, and
when he forsook her, Fate brought her to me, in search of a living. I
discovered the whole truth about her and her friend, and realised then,
and only then, how well-inspired I had been when I warned Felix Faure
against the man.

[Illustration: A LETTER FROM FELIX FAURE TO MME. STEINHEIL]

It would be only too easy to quote scores of such facts, but the others,
however vaguely I might describe them would still be too transparent,
and I do not write these Memoirs out of spite, ill-feeling, or revenge
against any one. In this chapter I merely wish to convey some idea of
the part I played in President Faure's life.

       *       *       *       *       *

Felix Faure, having noticed that some of my letters did not reach him,
we agreed that in the future when we were unable to meet freely, and
when we had some important communication to make to one another, our
letters would be sealed with white wax in "urgent," and with blue wax in
all other cases; also that my valet would take my messages to the
President, and his messages would be handed to the same man, summoned by
a private telephone call.

I entered the Elysee--whither a private detective, who had been selected
by the President himself, always accompanied me--by a small door in the
gardens, at the corner of the Rue du Colisee and the Avenue des Champs
Elysees, and through the grounds to the small "blue salon," where the
President awaited me for "our task."

That task, as the reader may have already guessed, was the "Memoirs" of
the President.

Felix Faure, who, in spite of the many things that satisfied his
self-esteem--the brilliant side of his exalted function, the relative
importance of it, and, above all, the fact that it placed him on an
equal footing with kings and emperors--was looking forward to the end of
his _septennat_ and was anxious to explain some day his conduct in the
political and diplomatic events in which he had been and was so
intimately concerned. These "Memoirs" were to form a secret history of
France since the Franco-Prussian War. To these "Memoirs" I was
contributing a mass of notes and comments throwing some light on certain
personalities, on certain facts. Sometimes we worked apart, sometimes
together, and more than once I spent a whole afternoon examining and
classifying documents whilst the President in the next room was granting
audiences.

We wrote the "Memoirs" on foolscap which I brought myself, for the
President knew that his stationery was counted!

Everything went into these "Memoirs," which were already assuming bulky
proportions: the evolution of the internal and the foreign policy of
France; the Franco-Russian Alliance; the secret story of the Dreyfus
Affair; the schemes of the various Pretenders to the throne of France.
There were details on financial problems, colonial expansion, armaments,
electoral systems, Administration, the Army and the Navy....

Certainly, if a general and critical survey, conscientious, impartial,
sober, and packed with first-hand information of all the events that
made the history of the Third Republic, were worth writing--and how can
one deny it?--then Felix Faure did well to spend daily long hours of his
time, and of mine, in writing his "Memoirs," though had they been
published, say, within ten or fifteen years a great number of so-called
"prominent" men would have had to disappear in order to escape the scorn
of the whole world as well as the execration of their own people.

The "Memoirs" were locked up in an iron box, which was opened only when
new material had to be added to the great mass already collected. Then,
one day, the President begged me to take these important and secret
documents home with me for safety. The iron box was left in his study,
and partly filled with blank sheets--for the box might be shaken! I took
the contents home, little by little and day by day, until the box was
empty.

Many times it seemed to me that I was being shadowed, but my faithful
"agent" watched over me, and I was able to store all the papers safely
away in my house. Felix Faure had told me to keep them (and had given me
a letter which said so) and to have them published if I thought fit in
the case of his death, for, as he said more than once to me: "I
sometimes fear I shall end like Carnot...."

       *       *       *       *       *

The President had a very high notion of his office, but frequently
complained of his limited powers.

"And yet," I once told him, "you appoint your Ministers, the nomination
of all officials rests with you, and you control the Army and the
Navy...."

"Yes, but to what extent?... You say I control the Navy! But I know for
a fact that nearly all the powder in the magazines of our battleships is
defective, that the armour-plating of those battleships has not the
thickness that was ordered--which, of course, means thousands of pounds
to the swindlers!--and that the boilers are almost worthless!... I have
lost my temper and more than once come down on them all like a ton of
bricks, but things have not been altered. A President is but a
figure-head! And yet you know with what passion I love the Navy. I was
born at Le Havre, I have always loved all that concerns the sea, and
when I entered Parliament my great ambition was to become Minister of
the Navy.... Even now the Navy is one of my chief interests--my 'hobby,'
if you like to call it so; and there is my note-paper with the initials
'F.F.' entwined by a symbolic anchor...."

He loved to talk of naval matters. "I share Delcasse's views," he said
once (the conversation took place on the day when he heard that one of
our ships had been wrecked on the coast of Madagascar). "England is the
great enemy, because England is the great naval power and is so close to
our shores and our harbours. Unless we make friends with England, we
must find the best way to harass her, in case of war. And I can see
nothing better than reviving the old right of privateering and building
small but extremely fast craft, large enough to carry a great deal of
fuel, so as to be able to remain a long time at sea without replenishing
their bunkers. We must be able to destroy the commerce of England, to
starve her. To avoid important naval engagements and vanquish the enemy
in numberless skirmishes, that should be our aim. We have neither the
means nor the ability England possesses of building extensively and
rapidly."

"But privateering," I suggested, remembering my father's long chat on
what he rightly called "the most fascinating period of French history,"
"was a total failure during the Revolution and the Napoleonic wars."

"Quite so," said Felix Faure; "but as my friend Admiral Fournier says,
the only way to make France powerful from a naval standpoint is to
supply her with an unique fleet, as regards efficiency and number, of
torpedo-boats, destroyers, and submarines."

The President was quite enthusiastic about the Navy. He would explain to
me for a whole hour that ships spent far too much time in harbour, that
gun-practice was far too limited; he would quote off-hand the gunnery
records of certain British and American battleships. And at the end of
his talk he would telephone to Lockroy, the Minister of the Navy, and
beg him to investigate this or that point, or perhaps suggest that he or
some member of his staff should visit this or that station or dockyard.

Felix Faure was less a statesman than a business man. He greatly admired
the way in which the English managed their Colonies: "Theirs pay; ours
don't. We laugh, alas! at the ideas and customs of the natives. Why
don't we imitate the English or the Dutch? But there, we never had any
respect for other people's notions or convictions."

The various evils he complained of all came from the same source:
politicians in France are not the _elite_ of the nation. The best
brains, the most able men do not care for politics, and have no ambition
to be in office.

[Illustration: THE FELIX FAURE "TALISMAN"]

The Alliance with Russia, the first move towards which had been made
under President Carnot, but for which Faure had done so much, was,
naturally enough, a cause of much gratification to him. He would explain
at length the utility of the Alliance, and he did so with the gusto of a
business man who has made a wonderful deal, and who, in order to
flatter his self-esteem, keeps on finding fresh indications, direct or
indirect, of the importance of his bargain.

"Napoleon," he would say, for instance, "was never so powerful as when
he was allied to Alexander the First. Again, one may safely assert that
France, in 1815, would have been dismembered had it not been for
Alexander. Sixty years later it was his nephew, Alexander II., who saved
France from a German invasion five years after the Franco-Prussian War.

"And who knew but that that disastrous war might not have been avoided
had Napoleon III. not ignored the friendly advances of Gortschakoff!"
More than once President Faure showed strong leanings towards a
_rapprochement_ with England... before the Fashoda affair, and this was
chiefly due to the influence of the Prince of Wales (later King Edward
VII.), for whom he felt the greatest personal regard, and whose
diplomatic ability he much admired. What would President Faure have said
had he lived a few years longer, and seen that, in spite of the Fashoda
incident and in spite of the aggressively anglophobic attitude of France
during the Boer War, King Edward VII. succeeded, by reason of his
charming manner, his diplomacy (so subtle and yet so simple), and his
sincere love for France, in making the whole French people extend to
England the warm sympathy they felt for him.




CHAPTER VII

THE DREYFUS AFFAIR--FASHODA


It was during the Presidency of Felix Faure that the chief phase of the
Dreyfus affair, and that the Fashoda "incident" took place.

Captain Alfred Dreyfus, accused of having sold military secrets to
Germany, was sentenced and degraded in January 1895. Shortly afterwards
the officer was conveyed to Devil's Island, north of the Guiana coast.

It was in 1896 that the head of the Intelligence Department of the War
Office, Colonel Picquart--whom I had often met at the Elysee--declared
that the _bordereau_ (the famous covering letter containing a list of
documents which Dreyfus had been accused of communicating to Germany)
had been written by Major Esterhazy. Colonel Picquart was replaced in
his delicate post by Colonel Henry. In 1897, Senator Scheurer-Kestner
attempted to have the Dreyfus case reopened, but President Faure
objected strongly, and Meline, then Prime Minister, declared that the
Dreyfus affair was _classee_ (ended for good and all).

From that time a bitter war between Dreyfusards and anti-Dreyfusards was
raged, and the most scurrilous slanders, the worst insults, became
weapons of almost universal use. My salon was neutral ground, but I was
soon unable to prevent these impassioned duels of words, in which there
showed hardly a sign of tolerance or of human sympathy. And these
constant duels took place between men who had been the closest friends
all their lives, between brothers, between husband and wife, between
father and son.... I gently pushed the worst disputants away into the
conservatory, but the noise of their quarrels--the word discussion would
be totally inadequate--reached the drawing-room where a few friends and
I tried to play, as an antidote to the raging storm, a page of calm and
pure music, by Haydn or Mozart!

To give an example of the strange happenings during that troubled
period, I may mention the case of Mme. Z., the wife of an eminent judge,
and the high priestess of a famous salon where one met everybody and
anybody, the aristocratic "Faubourg Saint-Germain," and also ladies fair
and frail such as a certain Mlle. Chichette, whose claim to immortality
was based on the fact that she had been the first Parisienne to display
on her corsage a tiny tortoise, set with precious stones and--alive.

Mme. Z., who was a rabid Dreyfusard--her husband, of course, being a
rabid Anti-Dreyfusard--wore deep mourning during all the time Dreyfus
was a prisoner, and appeared in a gaudy blue gown on the day of his
liberation. Her mourning had at last come to an end.... It is only fair
to add that mourning weeds suited her fair hair. There are limits to the
noblest heroism.

Major Esterhazy, who had been arrested, was acquitted by the
court-martial. Zola, whose famous letter "I accuse..." had appeared
January 13th, 1898, in the _Aurore_--a journal founded by
Clemenceau--was condemned the next month, but the sentence was quashed
by the Cour de Cassation (court of supreme appeal), which ordered a new
trial. Colonel Picquart was arrested for having made himself an earnest
defender of a condemned officer.

Zola went to England, and only returned to France to witness the
relative cause he had so ardently supported. Zola died in 1902.

       *       *       *       *       *

I will now briefly state what I know of the event that took place in
France from June 1898 (after the general elections), to February 16th,
1899, the date of Felix Faure's death. It was during that stormy period
that I assisted President Faure in gathering documents and writing his
memoirs. As I have stated, all his papers were, week after week,
carefully put away in my house, and the reader will perhaps agree, when
I come to deal with the mysterious murder in the Impasse Ronsin, that
those papers had some connection with the murder.

In June, Felix Faure began to wonder whether Captain Marchand had
reached Fashoda. When Minister for the Colonies, Delcasse had decided
and organised the mission of M. Liotard to the Upper Ubanghi. M. Liotard
and M. Cureau had successfully fulfilled their mission and had reached
the western end of the Bahr-el-Ghazal. Early in 1897 Captain Marchand
had left Brazzaville in the French Congo to join the Liotard Mission,
but his orders were to reach the Bahr-el-Ghazal and to go up the White
Nile as far as Fashoda, which he was to occupy. The scheme was a vast
and well-conceived one. If it were successfully carried out France would
possess a transcontinental African Empire reaching from Senegal to the
Gulf of Aden, from the Atlantic to the Red Sea. President Faure went
further; he already "saw" a trans-Saharan railroad crossing that immense
Empire, and France so powerful in the region of the Upper Nile that she
could regain some, perhaps even the greater part, of the influence she
had lost in 1882 when Egypt was occupied by the English; France having
declined to co-operate in suppressing the anti-Turkish and anti-European
rebellion.

The time was opportune. The Egyptian frontier had been set back as far
north as Wadi-Halfa. The Bahr-el-Ghazal was in the hands of the Khalifa
and the Dervishes. Belgium coveted that rich province as much as France.
It would belong to whoever settled there first.... And Marchand had
almost reached Fashoda. Perhaps he was there already with his few white
companions and his Senegalese soldiers. At any rate, his family had
received from him _via_ the Congo.

The Captain had completed half of his mission, and had started down the
Sueh, a tributary of the White Nile, on the boat which the "mission" had
carried in sections right in the heart of Africa.

"But what if Marchand has lost most of his men during his long and
difficult journey?" I ask the President. The reply comes readily: "At
Fashoda, a French expedition, which includes a number of Abyssinian
soldiers lent by the Emperor Menelik, will join Marchand with ammunition
and provisions."

On June 15th, the Meline Cabinet resigns. The President asks Meline to
form a new Cabinet.... Meline tried, but failed. Next Ribot, the able
and learned statesman, who has been Premier twice before, is requested
to form a Ministry. He refuses. Sarrien, in his turn, declines to
attempt the difficult task.... The President now turns to Peytral, who
sets to work.... The days go by. Meline and his colleagues resigned on
the 15th. It is now the 25th... and still no Cabinet. The horizon is
dark with threatening clouds. There is chaos everywhere.... What is
needed, say some, is a Ministry of Concentration; others prefer a
Cabinet of Conciliation.... Labels have a great importance in France.

On the 26th, Peytral informs the President of--his failure. Brisson, the
gloomy and aged President of the Chamber of Deputies (he was born 1835)
is now called by Faure.... At last, on the 28th, France possesses a
Cabinet once more. Brisson is Premier and Minister of the Interior;
Cavaignac, who is as strongly against a revision of the Dreyfus case as
the President himself, is Minister of War, and the wily, secretive and
bold Delcasse succeeds Hanotaux at the Foreign Office.

Meanwhile the Marquis de Beauchamp has arrived in Paris. He is back from
Abyssinia, where, alas, he has been unable to join Captain Marchand. His
men were exhausted and had run short of supplies. Where exactly is
Marchand? When shall we hear from him?

On July 7th, I attended the sitting of the Chamber of Deputies.
Cavaignac--whom I often met at the Elysee, and at the house of M. Bw.,
an intimate friend of my husband's, asserts vehemently that there is no
doubt whatever about Dreyfus's guilt.

On the 12th, Hamard, Chief of the Surete (Criminal Investigation
Department) arrests Major Esterhazy and his friend, Mme. Pays.

On the 17th, a letter from Zola to Brisson is published. The letter may
be summed up in these words: France is in a hopeless way, and no
Ministry will last so long as the Dreyfus affair is not legally dealt
with. The President tells me: "If the affair is reopened, we shall never
see the end of it; a revision would bring chaos and perhaps even civil
war in its wake. Dreyfus was found guilty. If we are firm all this
agitation in his favour will subside; order will be restored, and France
will breathe again."

Felix Faure meant well, but lacked foresight.

July 27th, my friend Laferriere is appointed Governor-General of Algeria
and replaces Lepine.... The epidemic of duels is raging through
Paris.... M. de Pressense, of the _Temps_, the poet Bouchor and others
return their Legion of Honour to the Council of the Order because Zola
has been struck off the list of Members of the Order.... The Duke of
Orleans proclaims everywhere the guilt of Dreyfus and his love for the
army.... Esterhazy and his lady friend are released!...

On August 14th, the President goes to Havre, where he intends to spend a
few weeks. I have a villa there, where I stay with my mother and my
younger sister. A naval review is held... in my honour, I am told. The
President is with his suite and Lockroy, the very active Minister of the
Marine, on board the _Cassini_. I am with Mlle. Lucie Faure on a
steamer. We all spend very happy days at Havre. We make charming
excursions; there are parties, concerts, a ball at the town hall....
There is one cloud, however.... Clemenceau publishes a letter sent some
time ago to him by General Billot, Minister of War in the Meline
Cabinet, in which the General declares Dreyfus is guilty, but that
General Mercier--president of the court-martial which tried Dreyfus,
bungled matters....

"Clemenceau," says the President, "is the most dangerous man in the
land, and, what is worse, he knows it. I thought we should have some
peace when he ceased to be a deputy, five years ago... but ever since
then he has made himself a champion of Dreyfus and founded _l'Aurore_,
and I see I am mistaken.... His pen is as sharp as his tongue."

An event far more serious, far more fraught with consequences than the
most vehement attack of Clemenceau, takes place at the end of the
month--the arrest of Colonel Henry, who confesses that he forged the
fresh proofs of Dreyfus's guilt, which, in July, Cavaignac submitted to
the Chamber.

The news of Colonel Henry's arrest and incarceration in the fortress on
Mount Valerien, outside Paris, reached the President on August 30th, in
the evening. The next day we hear that Colonel has committed suicide.
Cavaignac, the Minister of War, resigns. The President, at his "_villa
de la cote_," has a long conversation on the telephone with the
Premier....

The blow is terrible... and in spite of his fortitude and of his
optimism--Felix Faure was the luckiest and most fortunate of men--the
President feels its full force. It unsettles, it crushes him. He keeps
repeating, "Everything is changed!" He is disgusted and indignant. "How
can I get at the truth, the real truth. I have had under my very eyes,
and more than once, absolute proofs of Dreyfus's guilt. And now it
appears that some of those proofs, at any rate, were forged. I can trust
no one. Everywhere I stumble against contradictions, reticences,
suspicious schemes, double-dealing, deceit. It is impossible to reach
the truth in this maze, which is daily becoming vaster and more
complicated. I feel desperate and ashamed. There is but one thing for me
to do; I must resign the Presidency."

The next day he invites me, with my sister and his great friend Prince
P. to a sea-trip. When far from shore he takes me aside: "It is all
over, my dear friend. Even after this suicide of Henry, contradictory
reports are made to me. It seems impossible to get at the entire truth.
I am standing on a quagmire. Every one seems to shield some one else, or
himself!

"There are supplies and coal on this vessel for many days. We are going
to cruise for a week or so. Let those who are responsible for the
present state of affairs extricate themselves as best they can from the
disgraceful position in which they have placed themselves--and me....
When I return, I shall resign.... Honest men will understand me!"

The President is blind with anger, and will listen to no advice. Prince
P. and I, greatly alarmed, spent two hours in pacifying him, in showing
him what an unspeakable scandal such a move would mean. A President
cannot _disappear_ for a week.... I show him the terrible consequences
to the Government, to Order and Authority, and to himself, it would
entail; the cowardice of such an action.... Finally, the President
yields and gives the order to return to harbour. I breathe once more,
but my alarm has been great.

On September 3rd, the President has another long conversation with the
Prime Minister, on the telephone, and early on the 4th he leaves for
Paris, where, at the station, Delcasse, who ever keeps a cool head, and
General Zurlinden, Governor of Paris, are waiting for him. At the Elysee
he is joined by Brisson; President and Premier discuss together the
difficult situation created by the confession and suicide of Colonel
Henry.

September 5th, 6th, 7th. Momentous news from the Sudan. The victory of
Omdurman! Kitchener's army (25,000 men--one-third of whom are English)
has won a decisive victory over the Khalifa; the British flag flies at
Khartum... and Khartum is only a few hundred miles from Fashoda, where,
no doubt, Marchand is entrenched! How rapidly events have succeeded one
another. In April, near the Atbara, the Sirdar had put the Dervishes to
flight.... Then the railways which kept bringing up reinforcements from
Cairo, was pushed on across the Atbara.... On September 1st Omdurman had
been bombarded; on the 2nd the Khalifa's army cut to pieces, most of his
enemies killed.... On the 4th, the Sirdar had reached Khartum.... And
now the crisis is nearing. What are Kitchener's orders? If Captain
Marchand is at Fashoda, and Kitchener hears of it, what will he do?...

September 7th, Felix Faure tells me he has asked General Zurlinden to be
War Minister. The post is undoubtedly the most difficult in the
Cabinet, but the General bravely accepts. He is convinced of Dreyfus's
guilt, and as he says: "The confession of Colonel Henry and all the
suspicions and equivocal manoeuvres of a number of Anti-Dreyfusards do
not prove that the Court Martial, in 1895, condemned an innocent man."
Felix Faure nevertheless realises that the Government will have soon to
decide for or against the "Revision," and I express the hope, much to
his amazement, that they will decide in favour of it. It seems the only
legal way to settle the question.

September the 10th, the Empress of Austria has been murdered! After
sending a message of condolence to the Emperor Francis-Joseph, the
President and I talk for a long time about the Fashoda problem. The
other day we wondered: Would Kitchener go further South than Khartum?
Now we know.

He has left Khartum and gone up the White Nile, with four gun-boats,
some artillery, Sudanese troops, and Highlanders.

September 12th, doubt is no longer possible; Marchand is at Fashoda! It
appears that shortly before the battle of Omdurman, the Khalifa heard of
the presence of "white men" at Fashoda. The boat he sent there was
riddled with bullets and returned northward. The President is highly
elated. The occupation of Fashoda gives France a basis whereon to deal
with the Egyptian question. Still, the Sirdar is strong and Marchand is
not get-at-able....

There has been six hours of Cabinet-Council to-day. Internal affairs are
growing worse every day, and there are bitter disagreements among the
various Ministers.

Brisson and Sarrien are in favour of the "Revision"; but the mere
mention of the word "revision" sends General Zurlinden mad with fury.

Meanwhile, the war between the various parties to whom the defence of
Dreyfus or the fight against him and his supporters is a mere political
pretext, a means and not an end, is daily increasing in fierceness. What
a nightmare!

September 14th and 15th. A brief respite. I have followed the President
to Moulins. My mother is with me. She has never witnessed military
manoeuvres before. I make the acquaintance of several foreign
officers. General de Negrier is Director of the Manoeuvres. The Duke
of Connaught is present.

September 16th. The Press in France and England is already devoting long
columns to Fashoda. The President has had several consultations with
Delcasse and is very confident.

"And why not?" he asks. "In the Anglo-Italian agreement of '91, the
Upper-Nile Valley is not even mentioned, the Khedive had nothing to do
with the Anglo-Belgian arrangement of '94; Nubar Pasha abandoned the
Sudan; England declared she had nothing to do there; besides, did not
England promise to evacuate Egypt after the Khedive had been restored to
power!... If we have taken Fashoda, we have taken it not from England or
Egypt but from the Dervishes. The British Government is reasonable and
not impulsive.... Lord Salisbury who is at the same time Premier and
Foreign Secretary is a statesman who would not act arbitrarily, I
believe.... Sir Herbert Kitchener served in the French Army during the
war with Germany; he is known for his great self-control and will do
nothing rash.... And then, the Duke of Connaught, at the Manoeuvres,
has been extremely courteous and pleasant, and the crowd
enthusiastically cheered the son of Queen Victoria.... All will be
well."

September 17th. General Zurlinden has sent his resignation to Brisson
this morning. He is already replaced. General Chanoine becomes War
Minister.

At the afternoon sitting of the Cabinet Council, the appointment of a
"Commission de Revision" has been decided upon. Whilst Felix Faure
explains all this to me, we hear shouting outside the Elysee.... I have
a number of guests to dinner at home and must rush away. I do not leave
the Elysee as usual through the garden and "my" little door, but by the
main entrance to see what is happening. Merely a crowd shouting "Vive
Brisson" or "A bas Brisson."

On the nineteenth, at an early hour, the telephone bell rings. It is the
President.

"Did you read the _Temps_ last night?" he asks.

"No. I had a holiday.... I played hide and seek with Marthe who would
not go to bed, much to the amusement of my mother who has just come from
Beaucourt to spend a few days with my sister and me. What was there in
the _Temps_?"

"Listen. It said exactly what I think about Fashoda. We will consider
any act threatening Marchand--that is, the flag which he guards--as
carrying with it all the consequences usual in such incidents."

"Splendid!"

"No, have you read the manifesto of the Pretender?"

"Which one?"

"The Duke of Orleans."

"No, but I suppose he tells all Frenchmen that their most sacred rights
are being trampled on, that the army is being ruined, and that France
can rely on him. Is that it?"

"Yes.... You don't take him seriously?..."

"Do you?"

September 21st. The "Commission de Revision" meets. Colonel Picquart
accused of forgery--he, of all men!--appears before his judges.

September 25th. At last! News from the Sudan. The Sirdar is back in
Khartum from Fashoda, where he met Marchand. There has evidently been no
conflict. Diplomacy will now take the matter in hand. "We have no
Talleyrand," says the President, "but we have Delcasse, and he possesses
both subtlety and audacity, besides a good amount of useful cynicism and
sound judgment. And he is as cool-headed as he is cautious."

September 27th. After the Cabinet Council, the President tells me that
yesterday Sir Edmund Monson, the British Ambassador, read to Delcasse a
message from the Sirdar. It appears that the latter reached Fashoda
eight days ago. Marchand has been there since July 10th with a few
companions and some 120 Senegalese. From other sources come further
details. Kitchener congratulated Captain Marchand on his great journey,
then requested him to haul down the French flag. Marchand refused, of
course, to comply with such a demand without instructions from his
Government. The Sirdar quietly left him and hoisted the British flag and
the Egyptian flag, side by side, south of Marchand's fortified camp.
Then he returned to Khartum, leaving a strong garrison at Fashoda, in
charge of a colonel.

"All we can do now," says the President, "is to await Marchand's
report.... The trouble is if it comes through the Bahr-el-Ghazal and the
Congo, months will elapse before it reaches us. Meanwhile Delcasse is
communicating with Sir Edmund Monson. We stand firm. We will not
evacuate Fashoda, come what may!"

October 1st-7th. A number of English newspapers have already sent France
an ultimatum, but the English Government is calmer, so far. A most
amazing event is the publication in England of a blue-book on the
Fashoda question, at a time when the negotiations have already begun,
but the President informs me that "Delcasse has found a very simple
counter-move; we will publish a yellow-book in reply," and he adds: "The
letters which Delcasse and the British Ambassador exchange already show
that war is brewing.... But whatever England's hostility--and it is
clear that England does not wish to negotiate until Marchand has
evacuated Fashoda--we will not yield."

"And what about Marchand?"

"Delcasse has suggested that Marchand's report be sent _via_ Khartum and
Cairo. It will soon reach Paris that way.... By the way, I dine with
Count Witte to-morrow, the 8th, at Rambouillet...."

October 10th. "Well, any result?" I ask the President.

"No. Witte spoke little about Russia. But he said France should avoid
all wars, just now, and above all, a war with England; and I knew what
he meant. However, we shall see whether Russia will assist us or
not...."

Baratier, Marchand's companion, is on his way to Cairo with the famous
report.

Fashoda does not monopolise public attention. The Dreyfus dispute waxes
hotter than ever. Most of the newspapers contain nothing but scurrility
and abuse. Some deliberately confuse the Fashoda affair and the Dreyfus
affair.... Rochefort writes in the _Intransigeant_: "I should not be
surprised if the English took advantage of the cowardice of our
Government in order to seize Devil's Isle and free the traitor Dreyfus,
whom they love so much!"

The air of Paris is thick with ominous symptoms. The various "parties"
which battle together employ the same despicable methods, use the same
vocabulary, a vocabulary wherein the word "traitor" is almost mild and
courteous compared with some of the expressions used. There is a general
orgy of vile abuse, in which Dreyfusards and Anti-Dreyfusards alike join
hysterically. Alas! That worthy men--the so-called "intellectuals" and
those just and clear-headed persons who advocate Revision because the
law has been transgressed--are so few and far between.

October 16th. Felix Faure, during the last week, has been unusually
mysterious in his ways. I know what he calls his "great scheme," but I
have hardly thought him to be quite in earnest about it. Judging by his
character I thought he would reconnoitre before attempting to achieve
his aim. He has completely failed at the outset and he now admits it.
Convinced that the French nation as a whole is thoroughly tired of the
Dreyfus agitation, and that the hopelessly perturbed state of the
country is a national calamity, he thought the only remedy to be a kind
of _coup d'etat_. His plan is, or rather was, this: With the assistance
of the army--for he would obtain, or rely upon, the support of many
prominent generals--Felix Faure wanted to make the Presidency
independent of the Parliament, and establish a military Government.... A
bold scheme, but one which was doomed to failure, for Felix Faure has
not the necessary qualities, and there is no Augereau amongst his
military friends, the present Parliament is quite unlike the Corps
Legislatif of 1797, and the army cannot be compared in any way with the
omnipotent soldiery of Bonaparte's days.

Indiscretions have been committed, and certain journals here and abroad
are mentioning the _coup_, but they dismiss it as a further tale to be
added to the abnormal mass of political legends, exaggerations, and
gossip, which for a year past has been growing up in the overheated
atmosphere that is stifling France.

And this is perhaps the best thing that could possibly happen. A _coup
d'etat_ is only excusable when it succeeds.

An aged and intimate friend comes to the President and comforts him:
"You are a foolhardy patriot; you mean and you meant well, and your
scheme was not selfish like the plots which the 'Pretenders' are daily
hatching. There is one consolation for you at least: there is no man
capable of a _coup d'etat_ just now. The Duke of Orleans has the poorest
of advisers, and Prince Victor has no confidence in himself!"

October 20th. Count Muravieff has been in Paris during the past few
days. The Count had a long conversation with Delcasse three days ago,
and dined with the President last night. Russia, it appears, thinks that
war would be against the interests of France. "If there is to be a war
between France and England, we cannot rely on Russia. The Government in
St. Petersburg thinks that we should be ill-advised in allowing
ourselves to be dragged into an absurd war with England, especially over
that Sudanese swamp, Fashoda...." Moreover, Count Muravieff tactfully
hinted at the lukewarmness of France towards Russia. "To-day," he
remarked cheerfully, and at the same time pointedly, "Russia has only
two zealous friends in France: yourself and M. Delcasse."

And it was Muravieff, the Russian Foreign Secretary, and Hanotaux,
French Minister of Foreign Affairs, who before Felix Faure signed the
Franco-Russian Alliance in St. Petersburg on August 24th last year!

"And how are the negotiations with England proceeding?" I ask.

"They are practically at a standstill. England will discuss nothing more
until Marchand has left Fashoda.... Meanwhile, feverish activity
prevails in our dockyards; our fleet is coaling and being supplied with
everything necessary. Our admirals have secret instructions. We are
preparing to face all contingencies. Lockroy, the Minister for the Navy,
is wonderfully busy...."

A large map of the world is unfolded on the President's table. He
irritably wipes out the pencil mark he made a few days ago at the spot
on the Indian border where he thought Russia might perhaps attack India.
There are other blue marks on either side of the Channel, in the
Mediterranean, in Africa.... For a long time we bend over the map and
talk. But as the probabilities become clearer, more tangible, as it
were, I realise that we are almost forgetting Fashoda, and Marchand on
whom our attention should be riveted. What can be done for him? How can
France go to his assistance? And would a war be worth while for the sake
of that spot in Africa? Is a war ever worth while? What benefits would
France derive from a war with England? And would France win? Where?
How?...

I beg the President to see things in their right proportions, and I
advise him to avoid war. War or no war does not depend upon him, of
course, but there are so many ways of precipitating events, of rousing
public feeling... and so many ways of smoothing matters out and of
calming a nation....

October 21st. Delcasse has received an abridged report from Marchand
cabled by Captain Baratier, his brave companion across Africa, who has
reached Cairo from Khartum....

October 23rd. A mounted municipal guardsman brings me a large envelope
from the President. It is a copy of _Punch_, the famous London satirical
journal. On the cover, Felix Faure has written: "_Ma chere amie_, please
look at this shameful insult to France on the Fashoda question." I open
the paper and see a cartoon by Sir John Tenniel. Yes, it makes one's
blood boil. I reply to the President: "You are right. It is vulgar and
despicable. The French are refined and witty; the English are blunt and
have merely what they call a 'sense of humour.' Count Muravieff told you
that an African swamp is not worth a war; I wish to add: 'Still less a
cartoon.'"

The cartoon was indeed unbearably insolent and unworthy of an
enlightened nation.... But a year later, when England was at war with
the Boers, to whom the French spontaneously--and emphatically--gave
their sympathy, our artists produced cartoons in which Queen Victoria
was treated in an equally improper manner. This only proves that the
most civilised and refined nation in the world sometimes forgets the
most elementary notions of breeding, and fails to see that one degrades
himself when he tries to degrade his enemies.

October 25th. Delcasse's Yellow Book has appeared. It contains most of
the documents relating to the Fashoda, or rather the "White Nile"
problem, from December 1897, to October 1898. It reveals beyond argument
the truly remarkable powers of Delcasse as a shrewd yet "direct"
diplomatist.

The tension between England and France is at breaking-point. Sir Edmund
has sent, in the name of the British Government, what amounts to an
ultimatum. The President says: "We may give up Fashoda, but we must have
an outlet on the Nile. If there can be no longer any question of
conquest, we must at least be enabled to facilitate our '_penetration
commerciale_.'... Surely, some kind of compromise is possible."

In the afternoon I go to the _Chambre des Deputes_. A storm is brewing.
As I reach the Palais Bourbon by the Boulevard Saint Germain I can see,
and hear, on the Place de la Concorde, an immense, and howling, crowd.

The sitting cannot be considered as an historic one, but it certainly is
noisy and sensational. Deroulede opens fire. Deroulede, who has more
than once been called a modern Don Quixote, is an eminently sympathetic
figure. One likes him because, first of all... he is typically French--a
brave soldier, a poet, an ardent patriot, and a delightful madman to
boot. He is by nature unable to do anything quietly. He would be a
leader of men if he were not anxious to write a patriotic and popular
epic, and he would be a great poet if he were not so keen on saving the
country. He has been one of the very first advocates of an alliance with
Russia, he has assisted the cause of Boulanger; he was elected a deputy
at the elections last May. It seems hardly necessary to add that he is a
Nationalist and a staunch Anti-Dreyfusard.

Deroulede speaks, and what he says may be reduced to these words: The
Government is... rotten.

And now comes the turn of Chanoine, the Minister of War. He may be a
first-class general, but he certainly is a third-rate orator and
politician. In a stern manner, with a knitted brow and a sweeping
gesture, he asserts that he has the same opinion as his predecessor in
the Dreyfus case. The House applauds.... Then, he adds, with a wonderful
instinct for doing the wrong thing: "I resign!"

The Prime Minister, the unfortunate and exhausted Brisson, declares that
the "Government wishes to deliberate...." He returns with his
colleagues--less Chanoine, of course--and tells the Chambre that a
provisional War Minister will be appointed. A general discussion
ensues.... Two-thirds of the House are obviously hostile to the
Government. Brisson asks for the usual but often dangerous vote of
confidence. The majority is against it and... the Cabinet falls.

I rush to the Elysee and give Felix Faure my impressions of an eventful
sitting.... He tells me that General Chanoine, after announcing his
resignation in the Chambre, came to hand it to him.

"Of course, I refused to receive him. He might at least have known that
he should have sent in his resignation to the Prime Minister.... Between
ourselves, I am rather pleased to be rid of Brisson. He makes an
excellent President of the Chambre, for he is impartial, impressive and
venerable, but as a Premier, or even as a Minister, he is quite
hopeless, in spite of his integrity and his general knowledge of
politics.... So here I am, looking once more for a man able to form a
Cabinet. Four months ago I was doing the identical thing. To-morrow I
shall summon the President and Vice-Presidents of the Chambre and the
Senate. In any case I shall retain Delcasse for the portfolio of Foreign
Affairs. We must at least have _one_ man who knows his business in the
Cabinet."

The mention of Delcasse inevitably leads back to Fashoda.

"The _Senegal_ has reached Marseilles, the President tells me. Sir
Herbert Kitchener and Captain Baratier are on board!"

October 27th. "What about Baratier... and Marchand?" I ask Felix Faure.

"Baratier is closeted with Delcasse. Marchand will leave Fashoda for
Cairo, where he will await the instructions of the Government. England
is more impatient than ever."

October 28th-30th. The game is up.... Monson's attitude and words leave
no room for hope of a conciliatory settlement.... Unless, of course, we
evacuate Fashoda....

I have never seen Felix Faure so bitterly dejected. That vast African
Empire was one of his most cherished dreams....

France will lose none of her prestige, but it is clear that she will
give way.... Silently, we put together various documents, and work at
the "Memoirs."

Dupuy, once a professor of philosophy, who has twice before been Prime
Minister, has consented to form a Cabinet. De Freycinet, a civilian,
becomes Minister of War. Dupuy is strongly in favour of the
"Revision."... And Dupuy was Prime Minister when Dreyfus was condemned!
Fate has strange whims.

November 1st-4th. Marchand has reached Cairo from Fashoda, Baratier has
reached Cairo from Paris. France has "officially" given up Fashoda. The
long-drawn-out crisis, during which war with England has been so near,
is at an end.... The humiliation brings tears to Felix Faure's eyes....
"And yet, it was inevitable that we should yield. Our fleet is too
inefficient, the White Nile is too far, our position at Fashoda was
untenable, alas.... Delcasse has acted wisely. War is averted... are you
satisfied?"

"You know I am; but I cannot help thinking of Marchand and his brave
companions. What must be their feelings!"

November 12th. Marchand and Baratier leave Cairo for Fashoda. From
there, they will go south to Sobat, and then travel eastward, through
Abyssinia, to Jibuti, whence they will sail for France. At least, the
humiliation of retreating through Egypt will be spared them. The
relations between England and France are gradually becoming more
normal. Monson and Delcasse met three days ago... after a separation
which had lasted nearly two weeks!

November 15-30. The attention of France is entirely focussed on the
Dreyfus affair and the Picquart trial. How General Zurlinden can
seriously accuse the Colonel of being a forger and a traitor passes my
understanding.

December 7th. Last night Sir Edmund Monson spoke at the Annual Banquet
of the British Chamber of Commerce, held at the Hotel Continental.

Just as I am reading a report of the speech, the insolence of which is
phenomenal, the President telephones:

"Have you ever heard of anything more arrogant, more improper, than
Monson's speech? The Fashoda incident is closed, but because the
Government intend organising some schools in the Sudan, Monson gives it
an impudent lesson, and tells our Ministers what they must do.... And
that... on French soil, in Paris! And he is an Ambassador!..."

"Yes, the Marquis of Dufferin was a different man."

We then talked about the political situation. Felix Faure still
repudiates the thought of "Revision," though far less strongly than
before the Henry tragedy.

In the evening we meet at the Opera Comique. 'A _spectacle de gala_ is
given, as this was the opening night of the new building (the former
Opera Comique had been burned down several years before). The programme
entirely devoted to French music, includes one act of Gounod's
"Mireille," one of "Carmen," and one of Massenet's "Manon."

December 15th-31st. The news has come that Marchand left Fashoda on the
eleventh. So the last scene of that poignant drama has been played....

The "Revision" is being discussed in the Chamber. The Cour de Cassation
has telegraphed to a magistrate at Cayenne a list of questions which he
is to put to Dreyfus.

January 1st, 1899-February 10th. The President puts in order a number of
documents and notes relating to the Dreyfus and Fashoda affairs and
sends them to me. I am laid up with peritonitis. My mother is staying
with me. The Beaucourt estate was sold nearly two years ago, and she
came to live in Paris, but I have had a villa built for my mother, close
to the old home, and when I am better she will go back there and live
once more in her dear Beaucourt. The President telephones to me two or
three times a day.

Delcasse, on January 23rd, makes a remarkable speech in the Chamber on
the Fashoda affair, in which he accepted full responsibility for all
that took place, explaining that the Marchand "Mission" was the direct
outcome of the Liotard expedition which he had himself organised when
Minister of the colonies. The chief points of the speech are: Marchand
started on his mission long before the Anglo-Egyptian army entered upon
the conquest of the Sudan--France years before had made it clear that
she did not recognise the "White Nile" valley as being in the sphere of
British influence--France could not expose her fleet, army and prestige,
in what would appear to the majority of nations as an "inexplicable
adventure."

At the beginning of February, my younger sister marries. I am still very
weak, but manage to attend the wedding. A day or two afterwards, I drive
to the Elysee, where I remain a few minutes with Felix Faure. He shows
me a letter from the Czar which Prince Urusoff handed to him an hour
ago, and two paintings representing the arrival of the President at
Kronstadt, also sent by the Russian Emperor.

The Dreyfus affair is proceeding in the same more or less illegal
manner. The great struggle, however, is no longer between Dreyfusards
and Anti-Dreyfusards, but between the Republic and the enemies of the
Republic, between Radicals and Socialists on the one hand, and the
"reactionaries, Royalists" and "Anti-Semites" on the other. All kinds of
leagues are springing up. Early in January, Francois Coppee with
Brunetiere, the editor of _La Revue des Deux Mondes_, and others, found
the _Patrie Francaise_ league, which staunchly upholds the Army against
all Dreyfusards.... There are constant rumours of military plots....

       *       *       *       *       *

Here may be briefly stated the end of the Dreyfus affair. Brisson had
remitted the case to the Cour de Cassation--which comprises three
divisions (criminal court, civil court, and court of petitions). But
when it became known that the criminal division which had charge of the
appeal had found that there had been a gross miscarriage of justice, and
would decide in favour of Revision, Dupuy proposed and made the Chamber
accept a law by which the momentous decision was to be left to the three
divisions. This was, of course, in the hope that in the whole court a
majority would be found against Dreyfus.

February 10th, 1899. (President Faure died February 16th). The Cour de
Cassation decided for a fresh trial by court-martial. Dupuy resigned
(June). Dreyfus was brought back from Devil's Isle, was tried at Rennes,
found guilty but with "extenuating circumstances," sentenced to ten
years' imprisonment and recommended to mercy. A fantastic verdict.
Captain Dreyfus was pardoned, set free and at last fully rehabilitated
after having suffered so long for crimes evidently committed by others.

The _Affaire Dreyfus_ was used by all parties to achieve their
particular aims. Some used it to wage war against Semitism, some war
against the Republic, others against Socialism, others against the Army,
and yet others against Clericalism.... Hundreds of men found in it a way
of achieving notoriety, or of satisfying their private ambitions.
Thousands fished in troubled waters. The Duke of Orleans, heir to King
Louis-Philippe, inundated the country with manifestoes, and Prince
Victor Napoleon, with the faithful Marquis de Girardin, tried to work up
some Bonapartist enthusiasm. Perhaps the strangest phenomenon of all in
that strange time was the Anti-Dreyfusard attitude of the Jewish
_elite_.... As for President Faure, it can only be said that he was
absolutely sincere in his conviction of Dreyfus's guilt, in his belief
that the court-martial which condemned the Captain had passed judgment
according to their conscience, and had not exceeded their rights, and
finally that France would be much worse for a "Revision" of the case.
Events proved that he was wrong and that France is able to recover from
blows and agitation which would <DW36> other nations less endowed with
vitality, elasticity, and idealism.

The Dreyfus affair was President Faure's "nightmare," the Fashoda
incident his "shattered dream." Before closing this chapter, the only
one in the book dealing with politics, I must mention the treaty with
Lord Salisbury wherein were defined the English and the French "sphere
of influence" in the Niger region, and in which France gave up the Nile
(March 1899).

And now, as I have reviewed the chief episodes of the Fashoda affair, a
few words may be deemed necessary about the man who piloted the vessel
of French Foreign Policy during that dangerous crisis, and who since
then has revealed himself, on many other occasions, as a very able
diplomatist and organiser.

Delcasse was Minister for Foreign Affairs for seven years, from 1898
till 1905--a momentous period in the history of modern France. In the
most difficult and dangerous circumstances, Delcasse was always cool and
collected, and no one could ever "read" this little dark, round-eyed
man, with a moustache bristling out on either side like a cat's
whiskers, who makes few gestures, never loses his temper, forces his
interrogators to ask their question twice, and speaks only when he
chooses... which is seldom. Felix Faure, who fully appreciated his great
merits, used to say: "He is too trenchant and too secretive for my
taste. His coolness is highly provoking. I cordially dislike him, and I
am aware that he is not very fond of me; but I have the utmost
confidence in his judgment, although this man of mystery is too much of
an autocratic ruler. When he speaks in the Chamber, the deputies listen
to him in religious silence, and he is the Minister who is questioned
least. He has succeeded in making it generally understood that he does
the right thing, in his own way, and that he must be left alone. He
guides the destiny of the country, and he is--almost--the only one to
know when France is on the brink of war.... But I cannot deny that he is
a born diplomatist. Had Talleyrand or Metternich brought him up he would
no doubt be rather more refined in manner and method, and have learned a
little more subtlety, but I do not think he would have acquired much
more authority or ability."

When, in 1905, he fell, because the German Emperor, who had just been
dazzling Tangiers with Imperial pomp, and making France uneasy about the
Moroccan problem, demanded the resignation of the one man whom he feared
in France--the one man who did not fear him--no insult was spared
Delcasse, who had rendered so many services to the country, had worked
for the development of our colonies and the improvement of our navy, and
had restored France to her rightful place in European diplomacy.
Delcasse was now considered as a bellicose maniac who had twice
humiliated the nation, at Fashoda, and in Morocco.

When, however, Delcasse became Minister of the Navy, his return to power
was hailed with as much satisfaction as his fall. His pleasure at being
back in office must have been heightened by his sense of humour, which
is great.




CHAPTER VIII

THE MYSTERIOUS PEARL NECKLACE--THE DEATH OF FELIX FAURE


President Faure, during the summer of 1898, presented me with a pearl
necklace, which afterwards played such a strange part in my life that I
will relate the story of the gift and of what followed, with as many
details as my memory can recall, for probably the necklace, as well as
the President's papers, had something to do with the mysterious tragedy
of the Impasse Ronsin.

On several occasions the President expressed the wish that I should
accept a token of his warm friendship. He had already given me a brooch,
made by Lalique, in the three French colours--a cornflower, a
marguerite, and a poppy--and a comb by Lalique, which was a work of art,
but so heavy that I seldom wore it. Felix Faure said one day: "Since
that comb is of no use to you, you must allow me to offer you some
pearls. I know a certain pearl necklace which is unique, and by
purchasing it I shall be rendering a friend a very great service. You
must promise to accept it, if only for that reason!"

The President gave me no further information about the necklace or his
friend. Two or three days afterwards I was dining at the Elysee. Bonnat
was among the President's guests, also M. Le Gall, "general secretary of
the Elysee," and Major Lamy, a distinguished officer who was about to
start on a dangerous mission in Africa. After dinner, I sang a number of
songs, accompanying myself at the piano. Whilst turning the pages of the
music, Felix Faure again mentioned the "surprise" he had in store for
me. The next day, Major Lamy, whom I knew well, and who had often
called on me, came to bid me good-bye. He was leaving France.... He
carried a large bouquet, which he said the President begged me to
accept. I undid the white wrapper, and found, amongst the orchids, a
green jewel-case lined with white satin, and containing a large gold
box. I had some trouble in unfastening the lid, and when at last it came
open, the "surprise" fell on the floor; it was a marvellous necklace of
five rows of pearls.

After Lamy had gone I wrote to the President that I could on no account
accept such a sumptuous gift, and although the next day, when I called
on him at the Elysee, he beseeched me with almost painful insistence to
keep the pearls, I said I would return the necklace on my next visit to
the Elysee.

Two days later the President sent for me. He was pale and perturbed, and
restlessly paced his study.... It was clear that he had something of the
highest importance to tell me, but could not make up his mind to speak.
At last he began: "I am more distressed than you can imagine,...
Something dreadful has happened.... It is about that necklace. I bought
it from a friend, a man of the highest rank. I wished to help him out of
a difficulty, and now I hear that, against my will, I am mixed up in a
scandal which, if it were disclosed, would utterly ruin me.... I should
have instantly to resign and even to leave the country. It is a most
complicated and unheard-of affair. And yet, I bought the pearls to
oblige that friend, who, of course, was no more aware than myself of the
sudden complications which have arisen. He has been deceived... and I am
lost if anything leaks out. I can tell you nothing more. I have not the
right to discuss this terrible affair. No one must even know of it.... I
entreat you to keep the necklace in your house. No one can ever suspect
that you possess it. But you must not wear it at present, or show it to
any one.... Has any of your friends or a member of your family seen it?"

"No... for as you know, I decided to return it to you; I could not wear
it; it is too valuable. People would wonder where it came from....
Besides, there are not many such necklaces in the world. The pearls are
so perfect and large...."

"Has any one asked you any questions?"

"Yes.... After a dinner yesterday, M. B., the Attorney-General, asked me
casually if it were true that 'I had been presented with a L20,000
necklace.'... The figure startled me, also the fact that M. B. should
have heard about the pearls. But I replied that I was not young enough
to listen to fairy tales, and the Attorney-General remarked: 'I thought
the tale was not true.'... And now," I added, "I shall drive home and
return the pearls to you. I intended to do so in any case, but after
what you have just told me, it is impossible for me to keep them an hour
longer. I only wish I had brought them with me."

Felix Faure turned ghastly pale: "Do you wish to ruin me? Must I be
dragged into a scandal that may lead to calamities such as I cannot even
bear to think of? I beseech you to keep them. You risk absolutely
nothing. When I am no longer President things may alter in time, and I
may find a way out of the difficulty.... The pearls are yours, keep
them, but if you ever wish to get rid of them, sell them one by one...."

"You frighten me.... Can I not know the story of the necklace?"

"It is impossible. Don't ask me any questions...."

I was angry. I longed to know the truth. I wanted to know who had laid a
trap for the President and his friend "of the highest rank." I suggested
that the necklace had belonged to some lady, who, in need of a large sum
of money, had sold it, and that her husband, an important personage,
noticing the disappearance of the pearls had threatened to make a
scandal....

The President smiled bitterly...: "Would that that were the truth! For
in that case, I should have at once told you everything, asked you for
the pearls, and returned them to the lady.... And you would have allowed
me to replace the necklace by some other jewel.... No, alas, it is not
that. The friend in question is a man.... And the secret is his more
than it is mine."

"Perhaps," I went on, "the necklace was stolen! The important personage,
your friend, acquired it without knowing that. Then he gambled, lost
heavily, and sold the pearls to you? Perhaps they are blackmailing
him...!"

"No, no.... In that case, too, the simplest thing would be to hand back
the pearls...."

"Is it a royal jewel?" I asked. "Would the scandal be a diplomatic
one?..."

Felix Faure replied: "You are utterly wrong, and I swear that I cannot,
must not, tell you the truth.... I am a man of the world and ever since
I discovered what I did, I have been looking for a way out of this
unspeakable catastrophe that threatens my friend, myself, and... others,
perhaps others, if the story of the necklace becomes known. There is but
one way of avoiding all trouble, you must keep these pearls."

"And if I refuse?"

The President looked me straight in the eyes. His lips were trembling
and his face was distorted. "For God's sake, don't do that!" he said.

His distress was so evident that I ceased to question him. For an hour I
tried to forget the necklace, and I sorted various papers that might be
useful for the "Memoirs." Before leaving the Elysee, however, I could
not refrain from talking once more about the pearls.

"I cannot solve this problem, and it irritates me beyond expression. I
know you are incapable of anything dishonest, and I am sure you would
never drag me into anything that might harm me. Still, why could you not
entrust the necklace to some one else?"

"Because I trust no one else as much as I do you."

"Why not hide it here?"

"It might be found."

"Why not destroy it, bury it, throw it in the Seine?"...

"I might be seen. Any one doing such a thing might be seen. Besides, why
throw away a small fortune, when in a few months' time the storm may
have blown over, matters may have been adjusted in some miraculous way,
and you can wear the necklace, or sell it. I have paid for it; it is
yours now. There is nothing irregular.... Only, it so happened that
there would be a great scandal--even something worse than scandal--if it
were known that I, President of the Republic, and the 'personage' I have
told you of, were concerned in this necklace affair, though only in a
perfectly innocent manner. And now, I beg you, do please let the pearls
rest in safety in your house, and if you can, never mention them to me
again until I am able to tell you that all danger is over."

All this was spoken with such earnestness and gravity that I gave up
trying to solve the mystery... that day.

Many and many a time afterwards, I asked the President if he would take
the necklace from me. I told him what anxiety it caused me, not so much
on account of its value as because of the mystery attached to it.... But
his reply was ever the same: "Forget that necklace. It is yours. If you
have any friendship for me, don't speak to me about it.... You run no
risks whatever.... All will soon be well...."

Shortly after the President's death I found out that that was not so.

       *       *       *       *       *

During the morning of February 16th, 1899, M. Le Gall, "general
secretary" at the Elysee, telephoned to me to say that the President was
most anxious to see me. I replied that I would call the next day,
because I was not very well, and, besides, I had promised Bonnat to sit
for my portrait, during the afternoon. Bonnat had given up all his
appointments in order to get on with the portrait which, owing to my
illness, had not been touched for many weeks. I did not intend to call
at the Elysee afterwards, because sitting to a painter is rather
fatiguing, especially when one has only just recovered from a serious
illness.

[Illustration: THE GOLD BOX IN WHICH PRESIDENT FAURE SENT ME THE PEARL
NECKLACE]

I lunched at home. Just as I was about to sit at the table the telephone
bell rang, and I was told that the President himself wished to speak to
me. Would I kindly hang on? A few seconds after I heard the voice of
Felix Faure: "I must see you at all costs to-day; I wish to hand you
something.... I don't feel quite myself.... By the way, I have noticed,
these past few days, that you were quite right in your suspicions. Some
one has been rummaging amongst my private papers. It is essential that
you should fetch those I have had to write without you lately."

He stopped to catch his breath, and then continued: "I thought you
looked very pale when you last came here.... But if you can manage to
sit for your portrait at Bonnat's, you ought to try to give me a few
minutes."

I replied: "If I don't feel too tired I will come, just for a moment, to
take the papers you talk about and to beseech you to look more seriously
after your health. You, too, looked quite out of sorts at the
Elysee...."

His voice was different from his usual voice; it was weak, lacked
clearness. I told him so, and he remarked: "You are right; this
_affaire_ is killing me. I have more enemies than ever before, and then,
during your absence, I have lived too well, perhaps...."

He seemed to hesitate, and finally repeated: "Do come this afternoon, I
entreat you...."

After lunch I went to Bonnat. During the afternoon the telephone bell
rang, and I was told that the President absolutely insisted that I
should call on him soon without fail.... I am sure he must have been at
the Elysee at the time, and I cannot see, therefore, how the President
could have become suddenly ill at the house of a friend, that afternoon,
and have been hurriedly driven back to the Elysee in a landau, as
certain papers declared afterwards. At any rate, if Felix Faure went out
that afternoon, he never told me, when I met him....

After the sitting I felt tired, and made up my mind not to go to the
Elysee. Outside, however, I remembered the insistence of the President
and drove to the Palace. I entered by the door in the Rue du Colisee. I
saw the President standing at the open window near the little
waiting-room. Blondel, his private secretary, was with him. I was very
much struck by the President's pallor. It was not dark yet; it must have
been about five o'clock.

As soon as I entered, he said to me, whilst Blondel politely withdrew:
"There is something wrong with me. Ah! why have you not been around me
all these days? I have lost control of myself.... I am so tired of all
these intrigues and hopeless complications in the Dreyfus case. I have
tried to forget my worries, and have been taking a great deal of that
drug... which I ought never to touch. I have done so even this
afternoon."

He seemed to conceal something from me, probably a visit which he dared
not confess to me.

The blue _petit salon_, where he usually received me, and where we
always wrote his memoirs, was in the hands of the decorators. So he took
me to a room where I had never been before, close to M. Le Gall's study.
To my great surprise, M. Le Gall was not in, but the faithful Blondel
was sitting in the study. The door leading to it was open, for the
President complained that he could not breathe easily, and wanted as
much air as possible. I was not too alarmed, for, though unusually pale,
the President did not look worse than I had seen him look on other
occasions, a few hours after he had been indulging in that
favourite--and dangerous--drug of his.

"I really must look after my health," he said, "and give up this
'poison.'... And then, I must try to be fit for the great ball we are so
soon to have here."

I asked him how he had used his time that day, and he told me that he
had received a few important personages... and also a lady friend who
had done her utmost to influence him in regard to the Dreyfus affair. I
knew her well, and the President had told me more than once that this
lady was most anxious that her husband should become a Minister.

Suddenly the President exclaimed: "I am stifling.... I feel dizzy." I
called Blondel. After a while the President said: "It will be all
right.... I shall be all right in a minute."

Blondel and I helped him to walk to the door of his study. The President
looked a little better now. Turning to me he said: "The trouble is over;
I am going to rest a little.... I'll take no more of that wretched drug,
I promise you--I swear it.... Make yourself beautiful for the ball; I
have sent you the tickets you asked for. I'll telephone to you to-morrow
morning. Promise me to come to-morrow morning to the Bois with Marthe if
the weather is as splendid as it is to-day." Then, seeing I was not
carrying the bundle of documents he had asked me to take home, he added:
"Don't forget the parcel... _au revoir_...."

Thereupon he entered his study, unassisted.

I walked to the little waiting-room with Blondel and took the parcel of
papers. Blondel accompanied me to the door. But as I did not wish the
President to remain alone on account of his ill-health, and because M.
Le Gall was not there, I said to Blondel: "Don't trouble to let me out.
I will leave the Elysee by the main door. Please hurry back to the
President, for he seems far from well. It would be wise, perhaps, to
send for a doctor...."

I left the Palace by the main gate in the Rue Saint Honore. As soon as I
was outside I realised that I was being shadowed as I had been so often
before. But my faithful "agent" was there. I walked along the Avenue
Marigny, reached the Champs Elysee, and called a _fiacre_. It was about
six o'clock when I reached the Impasse Ronsin.

       *       *       *       *       *

Towards midnight (I had been in bed for some time), I was awakened by
the bell of the telephone in my room. It was M. Bordelongue, a director
in the Ministry of _Postes et Telegraphes_, and an old friend.

"What's the matter?" I asked.

And then I heard the news, the dreadful news: "The President is dead."

I could not believe what I heard. "It's impossible," I exclaimed. "I saw
him to-day. He was tired, weak, upset, but there seemed to be nothing
particularly wrong with his health." I asked Bordelongue all kinds of
questions, but he merely replied: "Nothing is known. They say the
President died of an apoplectic stroke."

The next morning at six o'clock I was told that my faithful "agent"
wished to see me on a matter of importance. This "agent" did not belong
to the _Surete_, or to the Ministry of the Interior, but was a private
detective who had been specially selected and appointed by Felix Faure
to keep guard over me wherever I went, and see that no harm befell me.
(It should be remembered that during the Dreyfus affair Paris was in
such a state of blind excitement and mad passion that in order to know
the doings of certain persons, detectives were everywhere engaged.
Indeed, before Felix Faure's mysterious death, France lived in
conditions which reminded one to some extent of those that prevailed in
Venice in the dreaded days of the Council of Ten.)

I guessed what the man came about, so I hastily dressed and met him.

"Ah! Madame, I see you know the news.... There's some mystery in the
President's death. They say he died of congestion of the brain, but I
hear his agony lasted several hours. Madame Faure and her daughter only
came at the last moment.... I am myself being shadowed, and it will be
better if I do not call again.... But you know my address and if at any
time I can be of some use to you I beseech you to apply to me."

The man was deeply moved, and so was I. I had lost my best friend; he
had lost a good master.... I never saw him again except on one occasion.
That was ten years later, a few days after the murder of my husband and
my mother. I was lying dangerously ill in bed at Count d'Arlon's house,
when a card was brought to me with a name which I did not know, and I
was about to refuse to see the person who had sent up the card when I
recognised the handwriting of a few hastily scribbled words which begged
me to receive the writer. The "agent" of Felix Faure's days entered my
room, but I almost failed to recognise him, so cleverly had he disguised
himself.

"Forgive me for intruding, Madame," he muttered, "but I thought it was
my duty to tell you this. As soon as you are well enough to travel,
leave Paris. Go anywhere in the country and try to forget the awful
tragedy. At any rate, move not a finger, whatever happens. Somehow, I
think the murderers will never be found. I daresay you will have no
peace until they are arrested. But I beseech you to do nothing... for,
whatever you may do, those who killed your mother and your husband will
not be arrested. The death of M. Steinheil and Mme. Japy will remain as
mysterious as that of President Faure."




CHAPTER IX

AFTER PRESIDENT FAURE'S DEATH: THE DOCUMENTS--THE NECKLACE


I had been seriously ill for six weeks and had only just recovered when
the death of Felix Faure occurred. The shock caused a relapse, and I was
unable to attend the President's funeral, which took place on Thursday,
February 23rd.

I had lost a great friend, and France a great patriot. It was said that
President Faure was a lighthearted optimist, that he had no control
worth speaking of over the various political parties striving around
him, and finally that he was a mere figure-head, a chief of State, but
not a statesman--an ornamental President rather than a man of great
ideas or a man of action.

It cannot be denied that Felix Faure was astoundingly fortunate and that
when he saw that things always "went well" with him, he became almost
irritatingly self-confident and was perhaps inclined to be fastidious in
the performance of his Presidential duties. He loved pageantry, and he
revelled in the pomp and circumstance of his office, especially when he
came in close contest with a King or an Emperor. He looked the part of
"The First Magistrate of the Country" to perfection, being tall,
handsome, refined in manner, and dignified to the verge of aloofness.
But he had many worthy qualities: he was endowed with much common
sense--a quality which too many lacked in France during the time of the
_Affaire Dreyfus_--and he was an ardent--a zealous, patriot. He had a
rare gift of sympathy, and there can be no doubt that he considerably
increased the prestige of France during his Presidency, in spite of
his inexplicable attitude in the Dreyfus affair, in spite of the Fashoda
humiliation, and in spite of Zola's letter, "I accuse," and the fierce
attacks of Clemenceau, Reinach, Jaures, and many others. He had more
enemies than any President ever had, including Declasse, himself another
staunch Dreyfusard, in whose talents as a diplomatist he had such
confidence. Felix Faure had bitter enemies not only in the Cabinets
which succeeded one another with such "eloquent" rapidity during his
Presidency, but even in his own _entourage_ at the Elysee.

[Illustration: INVITATION TO THE FELIX FAURE "IN MEMORIAM" SERVICE]

He loved the army. He had fought bravely during the war with Germany; he
believed in the absolute righteousness of the court-martial which tried
Dreyfus, and he did his utmost to prevent a "Revision" of the trial. He
was a downright honest and sincere man, and believed he was working for
the greatness of the country he loved so ardently.

       *       *       *       *       *

Human malignity knows no limit or pity. Less than twenty-four hours
after the death of the President, a number of newspapers coolly
suggested that Felix Faure had been poisoned by a certain Protestant
friend of his, a Mme. S. Others said by an actress whose name began with
S, and others by a Jewish lady. But they mostly pointed to me as the
murderess of Felix Faure, although in very cautious and veiled terms,
and without ever giving my name. I had called at the Elysee during the
afternoon of February 16th. The whole tragedy seemed quite clear... to
certain people. I had been appointed by some secret committee of
Dreyfusards, on account of the President's sympathy for me, to
"suppress" the man who was supposed to be the great stumbling block in
the way of the "Revision." Being ill and worn, I had no inclination to
read the newspapers during those days, and might always have ignored
those shameless rumours, but hundreds of kind souls sent me the cuttings
containing the venomous allusions, and at the same time, shoals of
anonymous letters reached me, in which assassin, poisoner, Lucretia, and
Brinvilliers were perhaps the least cruel and offensive epithets hurled
at me. Certain writers declared that if I had not killed the President,
at least I knew when he died and who had killed him, and that dire
calamities would befall me unless I revealed the name. A few letters
mentioned the papers of Felix Faure, and said that if I knew where they
were and could obtain possession of them, I ought to publish them,
because their publication would serve the purposes of the
Anti-Dreyfusards to which party I no doubt belonged, since my great
friend the President had never shown any sympathy with the champions of
the "traitor." Other letters entreated me to serve the Dreyfusards by
burning such documents as might compromise their cause, whilst others,
also originating from Dreyfusards, suggested that I should hand the
papers to "So-and-so," who would examine them and decide which ought to
be published.... And each letter ended with vile threats if I did not
follow the anonymous writer's advice!...

In those painful hours, the trust and sympathy of a number of friends,
Bonnat the chief amongst them, helped me to overcome the shame which
oppressed me. I received tactful messages of sincere sympathy from
hundreds of persons who had been revolted by this infamous press
campaign. There also came a charming letter from Mlle. Lucie Faure, to
whom I had sent my condolences on the death of her beloved father, at
the same time promising to assist her, as in the past, in her charitable
works, especially the "Fraternal Legion of the Children of France."

But all these messages of sympathy did not put an end to the
insinuations in certain journals. The very horror of them gave me
strength. I forgot my physical sufferings and went from one magistrate
to another among my acquaintances. All told me that since my name was
not mentioned it would be impossible to prosecute the offending papers,
and that since the letters I received were anonymous, and written either
in capitals or with the left hand, it would be most difficult to trace
those who had sent them to me. True, one newspaper had mentioned the
"wife of a painter," but there were scores of married painters whose
name began with the letter S. The only wise policy was for me to ignore
all insults and threats. The absurd rumours would soon die out, and the
anonymous letters would soon cease to reach me. Besides it was, all of
it, simply an indirect result of the Dreyfus agitation which aroused the
worst passions and caused some men to stop at nothing.

I consulted M. P., a "State Councillor," and an old friend of mine about
the documents. Should I keep them, send them to Mme. Faure, or destroy
them?

M. P. hesitated, and at last replied: "If the papers were in my
possession and had been entrusted to me by the late President, I do not
think I should venture to destroy them. They might be useful.... But I
should certainly hide them in a safe place at home.... By the way, who,
besides me, knows that you wrote those memoirs with the President, and
that they are in your possession?"

"It is difficult to answer. There are a few persons who saw Felix Faure
writing with me at the Elysee, and on a few occasions I have been
followed when leaving the Palace with a bundle of papers under my
arm...."

"Evidently some indiscretion has been committed. But I should not take
any notice. The President was perfectly free to write the more or less
'secret' story of the Third Republic, and with whomsoever he chose. He
was at liberty to entrust those papers to your care or to give them to
you, and you are fully entitled to keep them.... At any rate, I should
keep them if I were you."

The next morning my valet came to say that M. Blondel (Felix Faure's
private secretary) wished to see me. I had just received a further batch
of anonymous letters and felt greatly depressed. M. Blondel, who had
been so devoted to the President and so kind to me, tried to calm me,
and then said: "Let me tell you what happened after your departure from
the Elysee on the fatal day, and give the President's final message to
you.... The President sat in his study and felt much better. I sent,
however, as I had promised you, for a doctor.... There was one at the
Elysee. He came, and found the President very weak, but not, he thought,
in any danger. After the doctor had left the room, the President, to my
intense surprise, said: 'If I feel worse, or if, as Dr. Potain has
often warned me, I die suddenly, I want you to see that the talisman,
which she gave me and which I always wear, be handed back to Mme.
Steinheil.' Shortly afterwards he began to feel bad again, and a priest
was sent for. It was then about seven o'clock, I think. After he had
received the priest he handed me the talisman and whispered: 'I think I
am lost.... Let all those who cared for me forgive my enemies as I
forgive them myself....' Other doctors came; then Mme. Faure and her
daughters.... Forgive me if I give you no more details. It would be too
painful for you--and for me."

I had designed the talisman myself at the request of Felix Faure. It was
a gold locket bearing the initials F. F. upon a diamond anchor, and was
set with tiny pearls, rubies and sapphires to recall the tricolour. The
word engraved upon the anchor, a friendly term, was in Russian, because
the President liked everything that recalled his visit to St. Petersburg
and the Alliance with Russia.

Having placed the locket in a drawer, I returned to M. Blondel and said:
"Tell me the truth. You know what tragic rumours were abroad in Paris
like wild-fire, soon after the death of the President. How is it then,
that, if there was any suspicion of foul play, there was no autopsy? The
_Journal Officiel_ said: 'The President of the Republic died yesterday
at 10 P.M., struck down with _apoplexie foudroyante_.' How could you
reconcile that official statement of sudden death with what you have
just told me; at seven o'clock the President already thought himself
dying and sent for a priest. Why was there no autopsy?..."

"Because it was the wish of Mme. Faure, and the Premier himself agreed."

M. Blondel was deeply moved, and I shared his emotion. I realised that
he could not say anything more, or had nothing more to say.... And we
parted....

The mystery of Felix Faure's death thus remained unsolved. I have more
than once tried to solve it, but in vain. My opinion, however, is this:
The President, as he himself admitted on the last time I saw him, had
taken, or was given, that afternoon, and long before my flying visit to
him, a large dose of his dangerous "remedy." He had often been warned
that it might one day prove fatal--and it did.

It is a terrible thing to have to say, but when, a few months after the
murder of my husband and my mother, I was arrested and imprisoned, the
infamous accusations against me concerning the President's death were
again circulated. When my counsel told me so I insisted upon a full
inquiry into the matter, and M. Albanel, the judge, was appointed.... He
made the fullest possible investigations and, I need hardly add, I was
completely exonerated.

       *       *       *       *       *

On the evening of the day after the funeral of President Faure, my
husband came into my room, and closed the door carefully. He was
trembling and pale. "You know," he began, "that we agreed, years ago,
that, although living under the same roof, you and I should be entirely
free to act as we pleased. We further agreed to discuss all matters of
importance by letter.... But this time, I must speak to you. Something
terrible has happened to-day, and we must talk about it and see how to
save ourselves from disaster.... A man called on me and was with me for
two hours in the studio.... Now, tell me, is it true that you possess a
mass of important papers written by the late President, and is it true
that you possess a most valuable pearl necklace? I know that Felix Faure
presented you with a comb and a brooch, but what of those pearls? And
what is the truth about the documents?"

I remained silent. My husband went on:

"The man, who talks French with a strong German accent, states that a
number of times he saw you leave the Elysee with bundles of papers in
your hands. On one occasion the President accompanied you to the
garden-door, and before closing it said to you: 'Be careful with the
documents.' As for the necklace, he has given me an exact description of
it, he has told me the number of the pearls, their size and weight....
He says he must and will have the documents and the necklace, but he
wants the necklace first. He knows its origin and history. If you keep
it, you and I and Marthe will be ruined, he says. All kinds of dangers
are threatening us. He knows the scandal in which Felix Faure was
unwittingly involved, and says you must know that the matter is of the
greatest gravity. If you give up the necklace, no harm will befall us,
and the horrible insinuations in the newspapers will at once cease.
Otherwise our position will become untenable.... He has said enough to
make me realise that he speaks the truth. The man is no impostor.
Indeed, the whole affair is so dreadful that if you don't hand me the
pearls, I give you my word of honour that I shall commit suicide!"

I was dumfounded. Still, I managed to say: "That German is a rogue. He
has discovered some facts about the friendship between the late
President and me, and he wants to blackmail us... and obtain the
necklace, the documents, which may be turned into money, and everything
we possess."

"No," my husband replied, "he is not anxious to blackmail us, if he can
obtain what he wants otherwise. As a matter of fact he is willing to buy
the pearls row by row, or even pearl by pearl. But he demanded that the
necklace shall never be shown or mentioned. He does not want it to be
recognised, and therefore will buy at once a number of the pearls and
the clasp. But the necklace must be unstrung."

"It is all very strange," I said. "The whole affair sounds like
blackmail and at the same time the man seems anxious to shield some
one...."

"Yes, it is strange.... But if you don't yield to him to-morrow, and
hand him at least some of the pearls and swear that he shall have the
others, in time, he will do his worst, and I know enough to realise what
the worst would be.... Now, what do you decide?"

I did not hesitate very long. I remembered the President's fear when he
besought me to keep the necklace. Also I had had but little peace since
those fatal pearls were in my possession....

"I will talk to the man myself, and hand him some of the pearls...."

[Illustration: MY HUSBAND, M. STEINHEIL, IN 1898]

"You will not see him. He came this morning only because he knew you
were ill in bed; otherwise he would have made some appointment with
me.... He will be here to-morrow. What shall I tell him?"

I fetched the necklace, unstrung the pearls--selected ten amongst the
largest--and handed my husband the others.

"Do as you please with these," I said. "And tell that German that I
shall keep these ten pearls.... Some day I may want the money that they
will fetch."

The next day I heard that the man "allowed" me to keep the ten pearls,
but first my husband had to swear in my name that if I ever decided to
sell them, it should be to him, the German. One out of the five rows of
pearls was "sold" to that mysterious individual, and the veiled libels
in the newspapers ceased as if by enchantment!

Was it mere coincidence, or had the man really some power? Or had that
scandalous press campaign been more or less directly his own work? Had
he used it to intimidate me?

At any rate, the enigmatical German kept his promises. My husband, who
had an abject fear of him, kept the pearls in his studio, and the
German, who came every three or four months, insisted on seeing the
pearls and then bought a few of them. He always managed to call when I
was not at home, but once or twice I saw him leave the villa in the
Impasse just as I entered it. He was small and dark, and had a very
Jewish nose. It was winter when I saw him, and the collar of his
overcoat was turned up to his ears. It was quite evident that he did not
wish his face to be seen.

My husband corresponded secretly with the man, and sold, through the
latter's agency, a number of pictures to various persons in Germany. The
whole matter was so strange that I repeatedly attempted to drag from my
husband all that he knew. I had an impression that he was aware of the
origin of the necklace, and that there were some clauses in his compact
with the man of which he had not acquainted me. But whenever I mentioned
the German he at once ran away and shut himself up in his studio.

Two or three years after the death of Felix Faure I looked into the
drawer in which the pearls were kept and found they had all gone,
except, of course, the ten which I had put aside.

A few days later my husband said to me: "The 'German' has been again.
His attitude has changed for the worse. He now demands the ten large
pearls you have kept, and also the papers of President Faure."

I refused point blank. The pearls I kept in reserve, for some unforeseen
emergency. As for the documents, I would sooner have burned them, in
spite of their importance and of the memories attached to them, than
hand them to that German who might have used them for Heaven knew what
dangerous purpose.

"What did he say when you gave him my reply?" I asked my husband after
the man had called.

"He said he could afford to wait... but he would gain his ends, 'in
time.'"

A few weeks later, having finished some work I had been doing on a
historical costume which my husband needed for a painting, representing
a sixteenth-century nobleman reading by a window--the picture was
intended for the salon--I went up to the studio. An old Italian model, a
man called Giganti, was there.

"Monsieur went out for a while, and told me to wait for him, Madame....
He seemed rather upset...."

"What about?"

"Oh! He said he had lost a 'political paper.'..."

It then occurred to me that during the past few days my husband had been
somewhat strange and embarrassed in his manner. We had a conversation
about the "political paper," and he finally admitted that he "had
mislaid a letter of President Faure...."

"I can guess what has happened," I said. "That man came again and
demanded from you a proof that the documents were still in our
possession. You had to show them to him, and one dropped... which the
man promptly seized, no doubt, and as the letters are numbered you
discovered when examining them that one had disappeared. Those papers
are not safe in your studio. Give them back to me."

He readily consented, and I hid it in the "secret" drawer of my
writing-table, after having carefully looked through the documents and
found that none was missing, except the "mislaid" letter, which was,
however, written in a cypher known only to the President and myself.

During the years that followed, the mysterious foreigner continued to
call, and, as the reader will learn, did so until a few weeks before the
murder of my husband and my mother in 1908. I am inclined to believe
that the necklace was a crown jewel which, by a series of strange
events, came into the possession of President Faure. That the "German"
should have spent so much time in exacting the pearls seems strange, but
it has occurred to me that the man was playing a double game,
blackmailing not only us--I doubt if M. Steinheil was ever paid for the
pearls--but also the personage who was so anxious to recover them. By
giving them up a few at a time, he naturally kept that personage longer
in his power.

As for the way in which the necklace came into the President's
possession, I take it that some foreign... Prince, with whom perhaps,
for political reasons, he ought not to have been on intimate terms, had
very probably lost heavily to him at a secret gambling party. Felix
Faure was paid with the necklace instead of in cash, owing to the
temporary financial embarrassment of his illustrious friend. The latter
then, to his horror, found out the origin of the necklace and that it
had been stolen--for it seemed to me that there had probably been a
robbery. If the truth had leaked out, both the President and his friend
would have been involved in a scandal of such far-reaching political
consequences that perhaps a war might have resulted. In their
consternation, they agreed to deny all knowledge of the necklace, hence
the agitation of the President, who had already given me the pearls and
who two days later begged me to hide them and on no account to wear
them.

The "foreigner" was probably a professional blackmailer, and when he
found that nothing more was to be done with the pearls and that his
livelihood from that source was gone, sought to turn to his advantage
the knowledge which he had gained from my husband (always too ready to
give his confidence to any one who posed as his friend) of Felix Faure's
documents.

I earnestly hope that some day the mystery will be solved. My theory may
then be found wanting in certain particulars, but I believe that, on the
whole, it will seem, to the reader, the most plausible.




CHAPTER X

1899-1908


M. Emile Loubet, President of the Senate, followed Felix Faure as
President of the Republic on February 18th, 1899. As every one knows,
stones were showered upon the new President as he passed on his way from
Versailles, where the "Congress" had elected him, to the station where
he entrained for Paris. He was called "Panama the First"--though he had
had nothing to do with the Panama frauds--insulted and besmirched as few
men have been. I was only a few yards from M. Loubet at the Auteuil
Steeplechase Meeting (June), when young Baron Christiani smashed the top
hat of the President and almost hit with his stick the wife of the
Italian Ambassador, Countess Tornielli. But M. Loubet never flinched,
and he weathered the storm till it abated. Some have called this
cowardice; I would rather call it heroism--of a kind.

Besides the highly important and final developments in the Dreyfus
affair--which have been summed up in another chapter--and its truly
amazing epilogue, that is, the complete and rapid way in which France
recovered from the terrible crisis and emerged serene and vigorous,
there happened little worth referring to during the year 1899. There
were, however, a few amazing interludes. The poet Deroulede seized the
bridle of the horse of General Roget, a staunch Anti-Dreyfusard, on the
day of President Faure's funeral, and ordered him to march with his
troops on to the Elysee--another _coup_ that failed. Deroulede was
arrested, but the Court of Assize acquitted him on May 31st. There were
many comical conspiracies and many comical trials of conspirators; there
were constant riots in Paris and elsewhere, all more noisy than
alarming; there were thousands of Socialists with red button-holes in
search of Royalists with white button-holes... and they never met. And
there was the farce of the "Fort" Chabrol (a house in the Rue Chabrol,
where the Anti-Semitic League had offices), which garrisoned by Jules
Guerin, the secretary of the League, and a few friends, held five
thousand soldiers at bay for nearly two months. Guerin and other heroes
of the fort, and also Deroulede, were tried by the Senate transformed
into "High Court," and were sentenced to ten years' banishment....

Afterwards things gradually quieted down. Dupuy had fallen and
Waldeck-Rousseau had succeeded him as Premier. He was an able barrister
and authoritive statesman who had held office in the strenuous days of
Gambetta and Jules Ferry.

In May 1900, however, there was one more amusing incident. At the Paris
Municipal Elections a huge majority of Nationalists and "Anti-Semites"
were returned.... But then Paris was ever "in the opposition" and
Parisians have ever been _frondeurs_.

The 1900 Exhibition brilliantly terminated the century. La Belle France,
who was thoroughly tired of riots, "leagues," and agitations, had once
more become quite peaceful and "respectable," as befitted a lady who was
about to receive a number of sovereigns (including the Czar and his
Empress, who came in 1901).

France is logical, although fond of Paradox--and practical--although,
hasty, violent, quixotic, and ever in search of the truth.... And France
respects Authority, although she tries to call herself socialistic,
whereas she is merely democratic.

       *       *       *       *       *

King Edward VII. came to France at the beginning of May 1908, that is,
not quite a year after the end of the Boer War, and he was greeted in
such a way that he might have been entitled to say: "I am the most
popular man in France."

This was partly due to his almost abnormal gift of sympathy and partly
to the well-known French readiness to swing round to a new opinion. Boer
victories had been hailed with shouts of mad exultation, and English
successes with groans of agony and fury, but the French became
pro-English the instant King Edward landed in France. There was a dinner
at the British Embassy, and President Loubet and several celebrities,
including my friend Bonnat, attended. The Entente Cordiale was already
talked of.

King Edward came to France exactly two years later, in May 1905, and for
the first time there were cries in Paris of "Vive l'Angleterre" and
"Vive le Roi." To shout "Long live the King" is just the sort of thing
that Republicans of France love to do!

In March 1906 King Edward came once more to France, incognito this time,
and travelling as the Duke of Lancaster. Fallieres had then succeeded
Loubet as President of the Republic. That year Paris received visits
from a number of Members of Parliament, from members of the London
County Council, and from the Lord Mayor, whose gilded coach and portly
coachman took the Parisians by storm.... And the Entente Cordiale
gradually increased in vitality and sincerity until it became an
important factor in the equilibrium of Europe.

During those years the "separation" of Church and State was carried out
and afterwards Anti-Clericalism subsided. A mention must also be made of
the "Confederation Generale du Travail"--a kind of federation of trade
unions--born in January 1908. This C.G.T., a child of Socialism, very
soon broke from the parent, cultivated strikes, and showed from the
first that its aim is social revolution, though it is not clear what the
C.G.T. dictators would do after the social revolution had taken place.
Syndicalism, so far, can hardly be called "popular."

In January 1906 M. Fallieres--simple, solid, and safe--succeeded Loubet
as President of the Republic, and the same year Clemenceau, unscrupulous
but extremely able and so intensely picturesque, became Prime Minister.
Whatever may be thought of him as a statesman, he, at any rate, did one
great thing. He gave France confidence in herself at a critical moment.
That was in November 1908. In 1905 Declasse had had to go because the
German Emperor wished it. That was after the "Imperial" landing in
Morocco. In November 1908 Clemenceau refused to obey Germany, who had
asked for an apology in regard to the Casablanca incident. Ever since
that France has seemed to be once more sure of her strength, and,
without embarking upon any very great adventure, has shown much firmness
and purpose in her foreign policy.

       *       *       *       *       *

As soon as I was well enough after my illness and shock I threw open the
doors of my salon.

I went through a difficult time. The great majority of my acquaintances
had read what the papers said, and knowing that my husband and I
frequently went to the Elysee, they had no difficulty in guessing who
was meant by "Madame S.," or "the wife of the well-known painter."...
Not one of them, of course, was so tactless as to refer to the matter...
but my friends had friends who insisted upon being introduced to me. And
so to my receptions there came scores of amiable persons of both sexes,
who gazed at me, looked me up and down, and studied me as if I were an
object of great curiosity. I had the courage to take no notice whatever
of this, and I faced it unflinchingly, although the ordeal was painful;
for I knew well enough that these good people had not come with any
goodwill towards me in their hearts, but rather to see one whom they
looked upon as the latest "fatal woman," as a Delilah or Judith
up-to-date. I smiled on them all, as I had in the past, and sang and
played to them in the old way.

The ordeal was worse when I went to other houses. When I entered a
crowded drawing-room all eyes were turned on me and a sudden hush fell,
wrapping me as in my cloak. Then, as host and hostess greeted me, a
strange murmur arose and went up and down the room in little gusts, that
broke now from this brilliant group of men and women and now from that,
and I felt that all this whispering was about me. There were many
healthy-minded women and honest men who took my part and defended me,
but I soon realised that it was beyond them to convince my enemies, and
still less the sceptics and the cynics.... In Paris scepticism and
cynicism are a fashionable pose, under which people too often hide the
noble principles and generous thoughts which would more truly express
their nature and true characters. I, therefore, determined to conquer
one by one, not only my enemies, but also those in whose eyes I could
read a poor opinion of me. It was an ardent, almost a titanic task, but
in time I succeeded. And many of those who had spoken lightly of me, or
had thought me a "fatal" person, became my most devoted friends.... It
was a trying time, but I lived through it and won in the end--thanks, of
course, to the fact that not a word of those calumnies was true, and
also to my mother's devotion and to my little Marthe's tender love. My
mother looked after me in that pretty way that children often have; and,
on the other hand, my little daughter, now a tiny mite of eight, was
almost maternal in her solicitude for me.

Why was I so anxious to return to my old position among the men and
women of Paris?... Because my reputation was at stake. Whether I liked
it or not, whether the task was feasible or almost impossible, I had to
battle and conquer. And I did conquer. Calumny, the most elusive and
dangerous enemy that woman may have to face, was routed... and some six
months after the death of President Faure my receptions were more
largely attended than ever. I had tested all those who claimed to be my
friends, and found they were sincere. In official circles my influence
had not waned, and I was able to render service to many as in the past.

My mother had settled down for good in her pretty chalet at Beaucourt,
but she frequently came to Paris and stayed either at the house of my
younger sister, or with me in the Impasse Ronsin.

My relations with my husband were what they had been for years. We were
good comrades, and I did my utmost to make his life a pleasant and
comfortable one. I spent much of my time in the studio. He felt much
older than his fifty years and needed much coaxing and encouraging to
work. His technique as a painter had marvellously improved, but more and
more he lacked imagination, and time after time I suggested to him
subjects for his pictures, and advised him in matters of "composition"
and "grouping," of backgrounds and atmosphere. Our life, after all, was
not abnormal. There are thousands of married couples in Paris who live
apart, and yet remain the best of partners and friends....

From 1899 to 1908 my husband painted many portraits--delicate miniatures
in oils which were not only works of art, but subtle, psychological
studies; although I believe he never realised this himself. Several
persons came from Germany to visit the studios and buy pictures, and my
husband told me they had been sent by the mysterious foreigner.

But they always came when I was not at home. The pictures disappeared
from the studio, however, and I know that my husband had received
payment for them. He obviously did not care to talk about these clients,
and I was not in the least anxious to find out details about them. I had
for many months spared no effort in attempting to solve the mystery of
the pearl necklace, and of the "German," but my efforts had been in
vain.

In 1906 I hired a villa at Bellevue, a delightful wooded village
overlooking the Seine, near Paris. It was M. Ch., my great friend, who
had discovered this charming summer residence nestling under the heavy
foliage of beautiful old trees....

We are now nearing the tragic time of my life, but before I go into that
long story of horror and agony--the murder of my husband and my mother,
my struggles to find the murderers, the terrifying scenes at the Impasse
Ronsin, my arrest, my life in prison, and my trial--I should like to
recall a pretty incident which occurred at Bellevue.... There is nothing
wonderful or unusually amusing about it, but perhaps the reader will
welcome it as a sustaining draught of pure and fragrant air, before
being plunged into the dark abyss of grief and terror where I suffered
and struggled for so long.

[Illustration: A LETTER SENT ME BY MASSENET IN 1907, AND SIGNED

"... Your Devoted, Faithful, Obedient, Respectful and Punctual
Accompanist"]

"Vert-Logis" (green cottage), my Bellevue villa, stood at a short
distance from the Meudon Observatory, the director of which was M.
Janssen, the famous astronomer. The observatory was surrounded by a vast
and splendid park, everywhere enclosed off. Through the bars of one of
the gates Marthe and I saw, one fine summer's day, a large field that
was one mass of marguerites. Marthe was longing to gather great bunches
of them. We hailed a keeper, who was passing by, and asked him whether
he would pick some of the flowers for us and pass them through the
gate.... Or perhaps he would open the gate to us for a few minutes?

"Oh! Madame, all that is strictly forbidden," said the man.

"What a pity!"

I must have looked very disappointed, for hesitatingly he said: "Well,
perhaps you might come in the morning, say at eight, before there are
people about. I'll open the gate and you can gather a few flowers."

The next day Marthe and I returned from the observatory garden with so
many flowers that we could hardly carry them.

The old keeper scratched his head, and remarked: "I thought you only
wanted a few! You must be really fond of flowers, Madame."

Soon afterwards I met M. Janssen. We had many friends in common, and the
savant gave orders that the gates of the park should always be opened to
me and allowed me to gather as many of the flowers as I pleased. Then,
with a typical courtesy, the aged astronomer--he was then over eighty
years old--said to me: "Madame, since you love flowers so well, would
you care to see the flowers of heaven?"

I accepted, of course, and one clear night I experienced the unique joy
of watching a star through a powerful telescope. With a feeling of
rapture and enchantment that was wholly new to me, I saw the star
scintillate, change colour, and shine forth in all the exquisite hues of
the rainbow.... And thoughts of the Infinite whirled through my dazzled
brain.... I would go to clutch that star, I longed to grasp it; I wanted
to know, to understand, the meaning of space and matter, of Eternity and
the Infinite--and of Life.... And on my way home, as I looked up
towards the star-studded sky, I was thrilled as I had never been before,
and forgetting what the old savant had told me about the endless and
intricate calculations which are the chief occupations of the star-gazer
("a living algebraical machine") I felt that the astronomer, who
constantly watches mysterious and unconceivably distant worlds in the
depths of space, is devoting his life to the grandest, the most sublime
and lofty science of all. And I thought of my father, who so often, at
Beaucourt, had talked to me about the stars, the moon-world, the comets,
the milky way.... And I recalled those words of Kant, which he more than
once quoted to me: "There are two things which ever fill me with new and
growing admiration: the moral law within me, and the starry heavens
above me."




CHAPTER XI

EVENTS THAT PRECEDED THE CRIME


At the beginning of the year 1908, my little Marthe became engaged to
young Pierre Buisson, son of an intimate friend of mine. Shortly
afterwards she renounced the Protestant faith and joined the Catholic
Church. This suited her somewhat mystical nature. She loved the
immensity of cathedrals, the light through stained-glass windows, the
beautiful services, the incense and the little bells, the plain-chant
and the vestments of the priests. She loved to be guided; she shirked
responsibilities; she liked to be able to enter "her" church at any time
of the day and any day. She thought it was "restful" to be a Catholic.
Perhaps religion to her was more a matter of sensations and feelings
than of the mind; perhaps more a question of art, poesy and comforting
illusion than of thought. Dogma was nothing to her; atmosphere a great
deal.... She thought she could pray better in the semi-darkness and
immensity of an ancient cathedral than within the plain white walls of a
small Protestant temple. She prayed for the man she loved, and he was a
Catholic....

I neither opposed nor encouraged this change of religion. Marthe was
seventeen, extremely "wise" for her age and never acted rashly. I did
not question whether she was right or wrong; I merely asked her
carefully to examine her heart and search her conscience, and when later
she told me: "Mother, I feel I shall be happier if I become a Catholic,"
I raised no further objection.

       *       *       *       *       *

In March 1908--about two months before the tragedy, I all but fainted
one afternoon in the "Metropolitan" (the Paris Underground). I had not
quite recovered from a dangerous illness, and this had been my first
outing. I must have looked very pale and ill, for several persons rushed
to my assistance. A gentleman kindly helped me up the staircase leading
to the street and offered to accompany me as far as my house, which was
only a short distance away. I gladly accepted. The fresh air did me much
good. As we neared the Impasse Ronsin he asked: "Do you happen to know
M. Steinheil the painter? He lives somewhere near here."

"I am Mme. Steinheil," I replied.

The gentleman asked permission to call and inquire after my health. He
handed me his card and I read "Comte de Balincourt."

       *       *       *       *       *

Before relating all I have to say about M. de Balincourt, I wish to
state that I have no intention whatever of accusing him of any
complicity.

I shall merely describe the part he played in the lives of my husband
and myself a few weeks before the crime, and why my suspicions against
him were aroused then; and again when, in prison, I found in the
_Dossier_ of my case a number of documents concerning M. de Balincourt's
life, I did not speak of my suspicions except to my counsel and two or
three persons who visited me when I was a prisoner at Saint-Lazare.

Remy Couillard--my man-servant--and Alexandra Wolff--the son of my cook,
I did accuse of the murder in circumstances and for reasons which I will
fully explain in due time. The Law found Couillard and Wolff absolutely
innocent and I bowed--and bow--to the Law.

But since I have had, at a time, the gravest suspicions against them
both and against M. de Balincourt, I must--and will--say why with utmost
sincerity, although let it be thoroughly understood that I have long
ceased to accuse them of having had any part whatsoever, directly or
indirectly, in the mystery of the Impasse Ronsin.

I made grave errors and paid dearly for them. But as in these "Memoirs"
I take the reader into my confidence and disclose my life and my
thoughts, it is only right that I should, without hesitation though
without any _arriere-pensee_, explain the reasons which led me to
believe, for a short time, my man-servant, the son of my cook, and M. de
Balincourt to have some part in the tragedy of May 30th-31st, 1908.

       *       *       *       *       *

The day after our first encounter M. de Balincourt called. After a few
polite inquiries he asked to see M. Steinheil. In the studio he examined
the pictures, made himself very pleasant, congratulated my husband on
his talent, and asked him whether he would paint his portrait in
hunting-costume.

M. de Balincourt, hearing that my husband intended shortly to hold an
important exhibition of his pictures, said he had had some experience in
organising shows of that kind.

"My paintings will probably be exhibited at the 'Georges Petit
Gallery,'" said M. Steinheil.

"It will be expensive," M. de Balincourt suggested. "Why not have the
exhibition here, in this vast studio. When I was organising an
exhibition some time ago I made some notes, which I have kept, about
art-collectors and lists of addresses of people likely to buy paintings.
I could help you a great deal. We could fit up the studio specially for
that exhibition. I am sure it would be a great success."

He came three days later, and again offered to assist us: "I shall
require no payment...." he added, "but perhaps M. Steinheil will charge
me less for my portrait."

Shortly afterwards the Count came to sit. He proved full of life and
energy--"the very man to push the sale of my pictures when the show
takes place," said my husband. At first M. de Balincourt came only to
sit for his portrait, but soon he arrived in time for lunch, and
remained until after tea-time. I began to be a trifle suspicious, but my
husband, who talked a great deal with him, warmly took his part.

One day I overheard a few words of conversation between them, in which,
to my intense surprise, the word "documents" and the name "Felix Faure"
occurred several times.

I was somewhat alarmed, for a month or so before, the mysterious and
dreaded "German" had once more appeared on the scene, and afterwards my
husband had told me that he again demanded the ten large pearls and also
the famous papers and memoirs. I refused to part with them and said:
"Tell the man that I have burnt them."

This strange conversation between my husband and M. de Balincourt, who
had only known us a few days, puzzled and irritated me a great deal, and
after the Count's departure I asked Adolphe for an explanation. He
merely replied that I was mistaken....

M. de Balincourt came more and more frequently, and ingratiated himself
with the Buisson family, who were almost constantly with us. He was,
above all, on good terms with my husband. I need hardly say that he was
extremely attentive to me, and as I was most anxious to find out what
was in his mind, and of what it was that he talked with my husband, I
pretended to be pleased with his praise and flattery.

M. de Balincourt called on me one evening at Bellevue. Before his
arrival I had had a brief conversation with Mariette Wolff, my old cook,
who had been in my service, first as an occasional help, and afterwards
as cook, for many years.

I had noticed that, in Paris, the Count often went to the kitchen....
Mariette seemed to know a great deal about him, and I asked her how it
was.

"Well, Madame," she said, "M. de Balincourt often comes into the kitchen
to have his boots cleaned, and also the hunting knife he wears for the
portrait which Monsieur is painting. He is very chatty and
communicative. I hear that he divorced his wife two years ago, and that
he takes a great interest in racing. You know my son, Alexandre, often
goes to race meetings. The Count and Alexandre know one another...."

M. de Balincourt arrived and I encouraged him to tell me all about
himself. He described his adventurous life to me, his worries, the
various "crises" he had gone through, his family affairs. He told me
that he had taken an active part in revictualling the famous Fort
Chabrol in 1899, and that he often gambled and lost....

He drank wine freely, and talked and talked....

"If you are so often in financial difficulties," I asked, "how are you
able to give my husband a commission for a portrait?"

"Oh! I always manage to get out of trouble. Nothing worries me... I have
tried my hand at many games, including little political side-games...."

Now was the moment to find out what his conversation with my husband had
been about. M. de Balincourt told me that M. Steinheil had talked to him
about Felix Faure and the talisman. "He even showed me a very
interesting letter written by the late President, on the margin of which
there were several notes in your handwriting...."

"You lie," I cried boldly, for I wanted to force him to tell me more....

For a moment M. de Balincourt was taken aback, but he soon pulled
himself together, and began to give me such details that it was
impossible to doubt his word. "Your husband," he concluded, "tells me
everything.... For instance, he told me only yesterday that he does not
like to leave the house because he fears burglars; he has received many
letters, the contents of which he keeps secret.... He also said the
house had been broken into on one occasion...." (That was quite
correct.)

It became clearer and clearer that my husband was concealing something
from me. I had a further proof of this several months after the tragedy,
when Couillard confessed to the examining magistrate that his master had
kept up a secret correspondence, and that he, Couillard, had received
orders from M. Steinheil, even on May 30th (that is a few hours before
the murders were committed) to hide any letter that might come for him
under the cloth on the hall-table, and that, above all, Madame must not
know anything about them. Two mysterious messages did come by express,
and Couillard concealed them as he had been told. These two letters were
never traced. Who knows but that if they had been found they might have
given some useful clue as to the authors of the murders?

After my conversation with M. de Balincourt I remained at Bellevue for a
few days. A mystery yet unsolved is merely irritating, but a mystery
which you feel others are determined to prevent you from
solving--although you know you must--has a disastrous effect upon the
spirit. It is possible to face open danger without flinching, but the
bravest of hearts quails before an indefinite peril lurking in the dark
and likely to reveal itself you cannot tell when. Imagination inevitably
runs amuck and pictures the worst of horrors with a distracting
facility.

I spent miserable days at Bellevue, wondering what to do. Sometimes I
thought that my anxieties were childish and unfounded, but at other
moments, danger seemed as near and real that I half believed that I
should touch it if I put out my hand. It was there before me, though I
could not see it and could not give a name to it. I thought of President
Faure's necklace, of the documents, of the mysterious "German," of my
husband's reticence and also of his sudden and inconceivable bursts of
confidence in total strangers.... He was nearly sixty now, and on
several occasions I had heard him speak to certain of his models as he
would have to old and intimate friends. He was both imprudent and
nervous, easy-going and suspicious.... What was there at the bottom of
this relation with that German? Why were those secret meetings with my
husband so carefully arranged that not once had I been able to come face
to face with him! Why was not one single letter of his shown to me? And
why would my husband never give me any details about his transactions
and his conversations with the man?

And now M. de Balincourt had gained M. Steinheil's confidence. He had
gained mine, too, but not for long, for, after I had seen him two or
three times, I read through him!

I had so little to go by that in spite of every effort to concentrate my
whole mind on it I could not solve the problem, and at last gave up all
hope of doing so. I was in despair. Years ago I had dismissed the whole
matter from my thoughts, but now the mystery had returned with renewed
perils. It held me in its tentacles, and I felt that not only was I
threatened by it, but also my mother, my husband and my only child,
whose lives were so intimately bound up in mine.

Thank Heaven, my little Marthe was with me, and we took long walks with
her _fiance_ and his parents in the Meudon Park. And in the evening we
played and sang together....

One morning my husband, whom I had asked to join me at Bellevue,
telephoned from Paris, where he had remained to put the finishing
touches to a number of paintings destined for the proposed exhibition of
his works. He informed me that a very wealthy foreigner had called to
order a small portrait of President Fallieres, which he wanted for a
magnificent album containing drawings by great painters and also a few
bars of music by celebrated composers.... He knew a great number of
prominent Germans who were coming to Paris for the Horse Show, and whom
he would bring to the studio....

"I cannot come to Bellevue," my husband concluded, "for I must do this
portrait at once. The foreign gentleman says he is to be received at the
Elysee very soon, and he wants to ask the President to sign his name at
the foot of my picture.... I should, of course, paint the portrait from
a photograph which the gentleman has brought...."

To me all this sounded suspicious, and I told my husband so. "I don't
like the idea of President Fallieres' autograph under your drawing....
Why don't you tell this wealthy collector to apply to our friend
Bonnat?"

The telephone worked indifferently that day, and I could not quite catch
the meaning of my husband's reply, so I said: "Please refuse to draw
that portrait. At any rate, let the matter stand over for a day or two.
Find some pretext and come to see me here."

He came.... The Buisson family were present when he explained to me that
the foreigner was quite reliable and that he had promised to bring to
the studio two German Princes....

I asked him whether the wealthy foreigner was a German, and he replied
in the affirmative. Then, reading a question in my eyes, he said
hastily: "No, no... he is not the same man as the German you are
thinking of!"

My husband spoke so well of the stranger that I felt almost ashamed of
being so suspicious.

He returned to Paris and I remained with my daughter and the Buissons at
Bellevue; but, try as I might, I could not keep the mysterious German
out of my thoughts, and, becoming anxious about the safety of the Felix
Faure documents, I returned to Paris twenty-four hours after my husband
had left Bellevue.

At lunch my husband said: "I really must finish that portrait to-day,
for this evening a messenger from the 'Grand Hotel' will come to fetch
it. So please see that no one disturbs me this afternoon. The gentleman
who ordered the Fallieres portrait is dining to-night with the German
Princes I told you about, and with several other personages, and he
wishes to show the picture to them all."

He then asked me several times whether I would go out or remain at home,
and it was quite clear that, for some reason which I could not guess, he
was most anxious that I should not be in that afternoon. I had a
presentiment that it would be better for me to remain at home, and that
by doing so I might, perhaps, find out something about this strange
commission.

Besides, my dressmaker was there, and I was expecting a few friends. My
time was, therefore, fully occupied, and I did not go up to my husband's
studio.

In the evening, at about seven-thirty, I told Remy Couillard to have
dinner served. He said: "... Monsieur is not ready.... He is upstairs
with the gentleman who brought a large photograph of the President.
(Couillard had himself opened the parcel for his master.) The gentleman
called this afternoon, and he is still in the studio."

"When did he come?"

"At tea-time, Madame."

I went up to the dressmaker, who was still at work.

"Oh! Monsieur Steinheil was looking for you a little time ago, to show
you the portrait of M. Fallieres. I saw it--it is very nice...."

It was clear that my husband had come down to find where I was, so that
he might let the "foreigner" out of the house without my seeing him.

I was about to go up the stairs leading to the studio when I heard steps
coming down in the dark. I was at the door of the sewing-room in the
corridor on the first floor. To my intense surprise I saw a man lift
the tapestry shutting off the corridor from the landing. The man walked
straight on, my husband following him. When he saw me, the man exclaimed
in French, but with a pronounced German accent: "Oh! excuse me,
Mademoiselle."

"No, no," said my husband, "that is not my daughter, but my wife."

"You are not on the ground floor, Sir," I said coldly, "but on the first
floor where the private apartments are."

(It had struck me that he seemed to know his way to the corridor, and
perhaps to the boudoir where the documents were kept. The tapestry hid
the entrance to the passage so well that it could not possibly occur to
any one not familiar with the topography of the house to raise the heavy
drapery--in the thought that it led to the hall--for it looked for all
the world as if it were hung against the wall of the landing.)

"Ach!" said the German, apologetically... "I have made a mistake. As a
matter of fact, I passed through here this morning when M. Steinheil
wanted to show me some old bibelots and prints in a small sitting-room
you have up here... I came here quite accidentally, and we were going
down, your husband and I...."

He stammered and looked most embarrassed. "It is really most
extraordinary," I said to him in German, "that you should have found
your way in here, especially in the dark. There is a light in the hall,
whilst there is none in the staircase at present." Then, as I wished to
see this person in a full light, for the passage where we stood was only
faintly lit by the light coming from the sewing-room, I added: "If you
are fond of old prints, I can show you some downstairs."

I ran and told Couillard to turn the lights on in the drawing-room.

When I was, at last, able to see the man clearly, I was amazed and
disgusted. The "wealthy foreigner" was a small man of about fifty with a
long Jewish nose, with scanty hair and moustache that were dyed black,
small beady eyes, sly and shifty, and a sallow complexion. His
dress-suit was shabby and even greasy. The shirtfront was not clean and
was adorned with two large paste-diamond studs. The man's ill-shaped
hands wanted washing and were certainly not the hands of a gentleman.
His whole figure inspired me with repulsion, even with fear.

"It appears," I told him, "that to-night you are attending an important
dinner with some princes to whom you wish to show the portrait of
Fallieres which my husband made for you.... Could I see that portrait?"

The Jew brought out an album of medium size, from which he took a
portrait which my husband had drawn of Fallieres. As he replaced it in
the album I could see that there were other drawings at which he
evidently did not want me to look. The haste with which he shut up the
album aroused my suspicions once more.

"Still," I remarked, "I cannot understand why you asked M. Steinheil for
a portrait of the President. M. Steinheil seldom paints portraits. Like
Meissonier, his master, his speciality is miniatures in oils,
representing historic scenes, and _genre_ pictures. You should have gone
to M. Bonnat, who is the official painter of Presidents."

The man's looks grew almost threatening, and something of a snarl came
into his voice: "You forget, Madame, that your husband has painted
President Faure!"

"Quite so, but the picture you are referring to could hardly be called a
portrait. The right thing to ask M. Steinheil for your album of
celebrities would have been a sketch for a stained-glass window, a study
of some medieval personage or a _seigneur_ of the Renaissance
period...."

The German collected himself. "Perhaps you are right, Madame.... At any
rate, I am very thankful to M. Steinheil, and I will try to repay him
for this portrait by bringing here some rich clients."

"But," I exclaimed, "I suppose you have paid for the portrait of M.
Fallieres?"

A quick questioning glance passed between my husband and the Jew. "It is
quite all right," said the former.... "I promised this gentleman to do
the drawing free of charge, for he will sell a number of my paintings to
his friends, and will help us with the forthcoming exhibition of my
works. He has taken a whole pack of invitation cards and will send them
to the right kind of people."

On the piano stood the box with the comb which President Faure had given
me. Wishing to find out whether this strange man knew it, I said: "Since
you are fond of beautiful things, what do you think of this?"

The man took the comb and said: "Yes, this is one of the finest works of
art Lalique has ever turned out.... You sometimes wore this comb in
years gone by, in the days when Felix Faure was President!"

The tone in which the last words were spoken told me more than the words
themselves. I left the drawing-room followed by the Jew, who hastily
left the house.

"That man," I said to my husband when we were alone, "is the mysterious
German of whom you have often spoken to me, the man you have met every
few months for the past nine years, the man who first came here shortly
after the death of President Faure, the man who 'bought' the pearls and
wanted the documents!..."

My husband at first tried to deny, but soon admitted the truth of what I
said. However, he kept absolutely silent when I entreated him to give me
some details about the man, to tell me the truth at last, to explain the
secret of this Fallieres portrait and of this "wealthy foreigner," who
did not pay for what he ordered, who knew his way about our house even
in the dark, and who dined with princes in a shabby shotted coat!

And here, let the reader allow me to state, that I fully realised--and
still realise--that had I not consented to keep the necklace for Felix
Faure's sake, all these troubles would probably never have occurred. But
what woman would have acted otherwise than I did, after the words the
President had spoken? And on the other hand is it not evident that, had
my husband fully taken me into his confidence as regards that
enigmatical personage whom he called "the German Jew" (his nationality
may have been anything, but he was undoubtedly a Jew, and spoke German
most fluently), matters might have taken another course, and many
terrible anxieties have been spared us?

That very night, fearing for the safety of the documents, I took them
from the writing-table in my boudoir, and made, with a newspaper and
large envelopes, a dummy parcel of papers, as like the genuine one as
possible. On the top I wrote as I had written on the real parcel, my
name and these words: "Private papers. To be burnt after my death." The
dummy was fastened and sealed in exactly the same way and, as in the
model, one could see here and there, when the wrapper was torn, corners
of large envelopes, duplicates of those in which I had enclosed Felix
Faure's papers and the Memoirs which we had partly written in
collaboration. The dummy I put in the drawer where the genuine documents
had been, and these latter I hid in a place of safety the next day.

The reader may wonder why I was so anxious to keep these papers. I can
only say that they reminded me of a most interesting portion of my life,
that they contained most enlightening information on many events of
national and international importance.... And perhaps there was in me
that vague, well-nigh unconscious and yet unconquerable sentiment which
makes you loth to part with anything that, you have kept for a long
time, for if you live long enough with things, they become, as it were,
part and parcel of your existence.

       *       *       *       *       *

My husband's exhibition was drawing near the date of opening. As the
days passed by we saw less and less of M. de Balincourt, although he had
so faithfully promised to come and help in the organisation. Several
telegrams sent to him by my husband remained unanswered. It then
occurred to me to invite him to dinner, together with the Buissons and
Count and Countess d'Arlon. We received a note from M. de Balincourt
explaining that he had been ill, and away on a journey, but that he
accepted the invitation. He arrived at 8.30--an hour late. "You take
many liberties with old French politeness," I said to him. "Neither my
guests nor I have been used to such treatment. How is it that the three
messages my husband sent you to the three different addresses you gave
him have all remained unanswered?..."

"There must be some mistake..."

"I agree with you. No, listen, M. de Balincourt. Last Sunday some
friends came to take me with them for a motor drive and lunch in the
country. They were M. V.--the motor manufacturer--and his wife, whom you
met here once. I was told that you called on the V.s afterwards. They
wrote to you, but the letter was returned with the mention 'name unknown
at this address.' Your life does not concern us, but you might at least
give us your proper address! Hearing this from the V.s, I suggested that
we should drive to the various addresses you had given my husband. We
had the greatest difficulty in discovering the first one. We went to
Boulogne (near Paris) and were directed to a narrow, evil-smelling,
cut-throat place where rag-and bone-pickers lived. I thought we had made
a mistake, and we were about to turn back when M. V. knocked at the
worm-eaten door of the house. An evil-looking man appeared, and answered
our inquiries: 'M. de Balincourt?... I don't know him, but I believe he
sometimes has letters addressed here, and a friend of his, a M. Delpit,
has asked us to send his letters on to an address which I will give you,
if you like.'

"M. and Mme. V., who were as nonplussed as I was myself, which is saying
a great deal, proposed that we should drive to that address. There, our
suspicions became greater than ever, for we found ourselves in a worse
place than the first. An old woman said: 'M. de Balincourt? He lives
yonder, in that house.' We went there and made fresh inquiries. At last
a man in tatters shouts from a window: 'He has just left'... I need
hardly tell you that we all had the impression that you were there."

M. de Balincourt turned very pale and stammered: "That was not my
address... a friend of mine, a very poor artist, lives there.... He
forwards my letters to me."

After dinner he apologised profusely, gave me all kinds of possible
explanations, talked to my husband before me about the "exhibition," and
later addressed a great number of invitation cards... to show his
goodwill.

A week elapsed, and M. de Balincourt did not appear. I organised
everything myself. I decided to hold the exhibition in the vast "winter
garden."

On the opening day, April 7th, 1908, some five hundred persons called,
including several Ministers and scores of prominent officials. During
the afternoon M. de Balincourt arrived. He came every day while the
exhibition lasted, and had long chats with M. Steinheil, through whom, I
noticed, he contrived to get introduced to as many important persons as
possible. He had a small note-book, in which he jotted down the pictures
that were sold and the prices. Several times I saw suspicious-looking
characters enter the house. They had invitation cards. Once or twice, in
order to test whether my suspicions were well founded or not, I walked
straight up to these strange intruders and said severely: "I am sorry;
the room is full. We cannot admit any more people." And they at once
withdrew without a word.

On the last day of the show I spoke my mind to M. de Balincourt. And I
never saw him again, except at my trial, where he gave evidence.




CHAPTER XII

MAY 1908


In April I made the acquaintance of M. Bdl.... through a common friend,
the Director of the Paris Mont de Piete. Mr. Bdl. was a widower with
several children, and although his residence was in the Ardennes, he
frequently came to Paris. We met at a time when I was greatly depressed,
and also vaguely alarmed. I felt myself surrounded by invisible dangers,
and life had become almost unbearable. M. Bdl. was a strong,
straightforward, very intelligent and very refined man. He had a great
regard for me, and we became intimate friends. Afterwards, however, he
showed himself to be so violent and domineering that our acquaintance
came very soon to an end, although we parted in the best of terms, and
occasionally wrote to each other. I should not even have mentioned this
episode of my life, if it were not that M. Bdl. played a relatively
important part in that long and complex drama called the "Steinheil
Affair," on account of certain declarations which I am supposed to have
made on the so-called "night of the confession" (November 26th, 1908), a
"confession" which was greatly responsible for my arrest.

On May 18th, I went to Bellevue, to settle down there, as I did every
spring. My mother, who was at Beaucourt, wrote saying that she would
come to Paris. I no longer have that letter, but the letter which I sent
to my mother in reply was found, and is here reproduced. Its importance
will not escape the reader, after I state that I was accused of having
enticed my mother to my house in Paris in order to murder her together
with my husband! As for the reason which it was supposed had led me to
murder my mother it was as follows: If I killed my husband only, I might
be suspected of the crime, for I was not on very good terms with him,
and probably I wished to be free to marry some wealthy and more
congenial man. But, if I also killed my mother, then (according to the
logic with which the prosecution kindly credited me), I should not be
suspected, for people would say: she might have murdered her husband,
but she would never have murdered her mother. Therefore, since both were
murdered, she cannot be guilty.

My letter to my mother, dated May 21st, 1908, runs as follows:

     "DARLING,--I will _then_ await you at the station, on Tuesday. Let
     me know the hour of your arrival, for I shall come straight from
     the country (Bellevue) to the station (in Paris). I have invited
     'Ju' (my elder sister, Mme. Herr) and Madon (one of her daughters)
     to dinner on Tuesday night, and we shall all work hard to make
     things pleasant for you during your stay in Paris (meaning, of
     course, Paris and Bellevue), so that we may all enjoy one another's
     company as much as possible! Don't tire yourself too much in this
     terrible heat! How many things we shall have to tell each other! I
     have written to Dennery, to urge him to do something for Jules (my
     brother). I clasp you to my heart.

      Your little,

      MEG."


My mother changed her mind--because she did not feel well--and wired she
would come on the Friday evening (May 29th) instead of on the Tuesday
(May 26th).

       *       *       *       *       *

The incidents which took place from the moment of my mother's arrival in
Paris, till the fatal night--that is, from Friday evening, May 29th,
till the night of May 30th-31st (1908)--must here be described at
length. If they do not throw much light on the crime itself, they will,
at any rate, allow the reader to judge whether any sane mind could have
found in them reasons for suspecting me of being the criminal!

[Illustration: FAC-SIMILE OF THE LETTER I SENT TO MY MOTHER, AT
BEAUCOURT A FEW DAYS BEFORE THE CRIME]

I quote from the _dossier_ of my case, questions asked by M. Andre, the
examining magistrate (in December 1908, and January to March 1909), and
the replies I made.

... "My mother informed me that she would come on the Friday, May 29th,
she suffered greatly from articular rheumatism in her legs. At any rate,
it was agreed between us that she should put up at my house, that she
should sleep there, from the very first night after her arrival."

_Question._ "Oh! these points are in absolute contradiction to the
declaration made by Mme. Herr [my elder sister, who for many years now
had been residing in Paris] on June 22nd, 1908. From that, it appears
that Mme. Herr, at the end of May, received two letters from your
mother; one in which your mother told her of her arrival and added that
she would spend the night at her (Mme. Herr's) house, the other wherein
she said that you 'claimed' your mother, and that, for that reason, she
would put up at your house, on her arrival."

_Answer._ "I am not at all surprised. My mother may very well have
written that.... She may have wanted my sister to believe that I
'claimed' her, so that my sister might not reproach her for putting up
with me, thus giving me the preference.... I did not claim, and had no
need to 'claim' my mother, that time, since it had already been agreed
upon at the beginning of May that she would stay with _me_.... My mother
was to stay until the Sunday, 31st, or the Monday, June 1st. She was
coming over to help me in making applications on my brother's behalf....
'She spent the night of Friday (29th) and Saturday (30th) at the Impasse
Ronsin, for our intention was to start together the next morning on a
round of calls with the object of assisting my brother. That night my
mother slept, as she always did, in my room. In the house, there also
slept my husband and Remy Couillard."

_In reply to a Question._ "There were three keys to the gate of the door
separating the small garden from the Impasse Ronsin. One was in the
hands of my husband; Mariette (the cook) had the second, and Remy
Couillard (the valet) had the third. Three months before the murder,
Couillard lost his key. Two months before the murder I asked my husband
to have the lock of the gate changed, for I feared that some one might
enter at night. After the murder I had doubts concerning Couillard, on
account of that lost key.... I several times begged my husband to have
the lock changed, and Mariette did the same, but he would not consent.
He said it meant nothing at all, that thieves that wanted to enter would
do so in spite of a locked gate.... I even remember that at Bellevue on
May 21st, and in the presence of Count and Countess d'Arlon, M.
Maillard, and M. Boeswilwald, I again asked my husband about that lock,
pointed out his carelessness, and reminded him of my anxieties."

_Question._ "How is it that, being so nervous on the matter, and being
aware of M. Steinheil's lack of initiative, you did not have the lock
changed yourself?"

_Answer._ "I didn't--I yielded to my husband's remark that thieves were
not hindered by a locked gate...."

_In reply to a Question._ "On the eighteenth of May I went to Bellevue
intending to stay there for at least a month. In 1906 and 1907 I had
similar stays there. In May 1908, I settled down at Bellevue with the
two youngest of the six children of the Buissons, and with Marthe. The
only servant there was Mariette. M. Buisson and his son Pierre (the
_fiance_ of Marthe) were in Paris, but came frequently, of course. My
husband spent part of his time in Paris, and part of his time at
Bellevue. He slept sometimes in Paris, but when he came to sleep at
'Vert-Logis' (the name of our Bellevue villa), he usually let me know by
telephone.... Before settling down at Vert-Logis, we concealed in a
secret place in the dining-room (a hole in the wall hidden by furniture)
the silver plate and also certain jewels...."

_In reply to a Question._ "To enter the house from the garden there are
two doors, one opening on to the butler's pantry, the other on to the
verandah. Both these doors were always locked at night, but in order to
allow any of us who might come home late to enter, the key of the one
door was not left in the lock. The key of the pantry door was then left
on a small stand, and that of the main door on a table in the verandah.
The one who entered last when he--or she--knew that every one was at
home, would leave the key in the door."

_In reply to a Question._ "After May 18th, my husband slept at Bellevue,
or in Paris according to his work. He spent two or three nights a week
at the Impasse Ronsin. On such occasions Remy Couillard slept in his
usual room, near the entrance to the attic, above the studio (third
floor). But when my husband slept at Vert-Logis, the valet slept in the
verandah, on a couch. He had a revolver, which on such occasions my
husband handed to him. When my husband returned to the Impasse,
Couillard returned the revolver to him--I could not assert that it was
regularly returned, for I was at Bellevue at the time, but I have every
reason to believe it was, for I have always seen a revolver on my
husband's table, whenever he slept in Paris."

_In reply to a Question._ "I did not go once to Paris between May 18th
and Friday, May 29th. I was kept at Bellevue looking after the little
Buissons, who were unwell and whom I nursed. I went to Paris on Friday,
May 29th, only on account of my mother's arrival. On the previous day,
my husband had lunched with us at Bellevue, and had spent the rest of
the day and the night there. He told us that day, that Couillard, who
was extremely nervous, had replaced 'Dick,' our watch-dog which, as in
other years, had come with us to Bellevue, by a dog called 'Turk,' which
belonged to M. and Mme. Geoffroy (daughter and son-in-law of Mariette,
my cook). My husband said he was furious about it, because the dog had
ruined, with its paws, the sketch for a stained-glass window he had just
completed. And he added: 'To-morrow morning I shall send that dog back!'
On the Friday, May 29th, early in the morning, my husband returned to
Paris together with Marthe, who had to attend a lecture that morning,
and who was to lunch with her father and, I believe, with Pierre
Buisson, at the Impasse Ronsin. It was agreed that I should await
Marthe's return before leaving Bellevue to go and meet my mother at the
station in Paris. During my absence, Marthe would watch over the little
Buissons whom I did not wish to be left alone. During the afternoon,
after I had given the children their tea, Marthe returned to
Vert-Logis. As had been arranged, Pierre Buisson had come with her, and
was to spend the night there, so that the children should be less lonely
in the night. My husband was to spend the night in Paris, as he did not
wish to let my mother and me be left alone in town. On that Friday, I
reached Paris (Montparnasse Station) towards 5 P.M., and went straight,
by the Underground, to the Gare de l'Est, where my mother was due at
six." When I left Bellevue (the journey to Paris takes twenty minutes by
rail) I wore three rings.... (Later on, I will fully explain what has
been called "the mystery of the jewels," of which so much was made
against me.)

The programme for that evening and the following day was this: My mother
was to spend the night at the Impasse Ronsin. My sister, Mme. Herr,
would dine with us--but she did not come to the station, and afterwards
I heard she was unable to come. At the station, therefore, I was alone
to receive my mother. It had been arranged that even in the case of my
sister and her family dining on the Saturday evening with us, my mother,
my husband, and I would go afterwards to Bellevue to join Marthe and her
friends; unless, of course, my mother's state of health would not allow
it. On the Friday evening--or the Saturday morning--I received a note
from my sister saying she could not come to lunch or to dinner, that she
was going to a concert on the Saturday evening, but that she relied on
my mother calling on her in the afternoon.

"On the Friday, May 29th, as soon as my mother and I reached home, I
told Couillard to return the Geoffreys their dog, and scolded him for
having borrowed it without permission, and also because the dog, by
ruining one of M. Steinheil's drawings, had made the latter lose a whole
week's work."

_Question._ "Why such haste in returning that dog?"

(The judge's idea was quite obvious. Convinced that I was guilty, even
before he ever examined me, he thought the fact that I had got rid of
the dog a proof of my guilt. I had, "of course," done it in order that
the dog might not bark at my accomplices or bark while the murders were
being committed!)

_Answer._ "My husband had told me the day before that the dog would
have to go the moment he reached home, and Couillard had not yet
returned the dog to its owners."

_Question._ "What witnesses have you to prove that your husband wished
to get rid of the dog _at once_?"

_Answer._ "I believe Marthe and Mariette the cook heard my husband make
the remark."

_Question._ "Why deprive your house so soon of a watch-dog when it was
deprived of its usual guardian--the dog, Dick?"

_Answer._ "What importance did it have?... As a matter of fact, Turk
hardly barked and was useless; besides, not belonging to the house, the
dog was up to all kinds of mischief."

_Question._ "How can one admit that Couillard, in order to be protected,
should borrow a dog that did not bark?"

_Answer._ "I don't know.... All I can say is that Couillard, just as he
was about to take the dog back to the Geoffroys, told me that his idea
in having the dog with him was that he would feel less lonely and more
safe with 'something living' near him."

_Question._ "How did you know that the dog did not bark?"

_Answer._ "Madame Geoffroy, the daughter of my cook, frequently came to
the house, accompanied by her dog, and I noticed that it never barked."

_Question._ "A number of your statements on this point contradict those
you made on June 20th (less than a month after the murder). From the
latter, it appears that Couillard borrowed the dog with M. Steinheil's
permission, and that it was after M. Steinheil himself had ordered him
to return the dog to its owners that the valet did so on the Friday
evening."

_Answer._ "The statement you have just read to me I made when I was
still seriously ill, so ill indeed that I had not the strength to listen
to the reading of my statements after I had made them. Besides, what
contradiction is there between the declarations I have just made and
those I made then?"

_Question._ "From the statements of Remy Couillard on May 31st (a few
hours after the murder) to the commissary of police, it appears that
the dog was returned to the Geoffroys, not on the day you say (Friday)
but only on the following day, Saturday, May 30th."

_Answer._ "I can only say that it was on Friday evening that I told
Couillard to return the dog."

_In reply to a Question._ "It was later on, after investigations had
been made, that I learned that my husband had on Saturday, May 30th,
withdrawn L40 from the Credit Lyonnais. I did not hear of the fact at
the time, but I am certain that my husband must have gone in the
afternoon [Banks in France do not close at 1 P.M., as in England, on
Saturdays], for when I left the Impasse Ronsin at about 11.30 to go to
lunch with Marthe and the Buissons at Bellevue, my husband had not left
the house. I also heard, after the police investigations had been made,
that my husband had paid a few bills, including the bill of the
carpenter."

_Question._ "Besides what may have remained of the L40, what amount of
money do you think there was in the house?"

_Answer._ "On that day, there must have been in the writing-table of the
boudoir, about L300." (Here I explained how that money was there, and
where it had come from.)

_Question._ "But, on November 26th, 1908, you said there was about L120
in that desk?"

_Answer._ "On the 26th November, 1908" (I beg the reader carefully to
remember that date, for it is one of the most dramatic in my eventful
life), "I was out of my mind, and was not responsible for what I did or
said, and forgot for a moment the L200 in a separate envelope."

_Question._ "Are you sure that envelope with the L200 ever existed?"

_Answer._ "It did exist. My husband was chairman of the 'Boulogne
Ceramics Co.' Early in 1908 he told me that it would shortly ask for an
increase of capital--an appeal which I knew he, and also M. Buisson and
his brother would answer. I don't know when my husband intended to pay
the money in, but he had told me he would contribute L200. At any rate,
I had not yet given my consent, for I had my doubts about the prospects
of the company." (Here I may add that the examining magistrate himself
informed me that M. Buisson and his brother had made their payments to
the company in June.)

_In reply to a Question._ "On the Saturday morning, early, (Saturday,
May 30th, 1908), finding my mother very tired and being somewhat anxious
about her health, I sent for Dr. Acheray, who prescribed for her,
ordered her to stay in bed, and strictly forbade her to go out. After
the doctor's departure, my mother absolutely insisted on calling, in the
afternoon, on Mme. Herr and on making another call, about which she gave
me no explanations. It was agreed between us that I should lunch at
Bellevue and that when I returned at 5 or 6 P.M., we should see whether
her state of health would allow her to travel to Bellevue, or she would
have to remain at the Impasse Ronsin. I left the house at about 11.30
A.M. to take the train to Bellevue."

_Question._ "Then you did not make the call or calls you had planned to
make, in your brother's interests?"

_Answer._ "No. My mother's indifferent health did not allow her to come
with me and we had postponed these visits till the following Monday."

_Question._ "What were those steps you were to take?"

_Answer._ "M. Dennery, Secretary to the Under-Secretary of State for
'Postes et Telegraphes' protected my brother, and it was on him that my
mother and I intended to call."

_In reply to a Question._ "My mother having said she would spend most of
the afternoon with Mme. Herr, I only returned to the Impasse Ronsin
towards 5.30 P.M. My mother was at home and so was my husband. My mother
was lying down on the sofa in the verandah; she suffered a great deal in
her legs. She told me she had been to my sister's and that going up and
coming down the stairs had been most trying.... My mother still hoped,
however, to be able to travel with us to Bellevue. 'We will put off our
decision till after dinner,' she said, 'I will see how I feel then, and
find whether I can go to Bellevue or not.' Had my mother felt better
later on, we would have caught the 8.30 P.M. train. My mother told me
some details about her visit to my sister. She said they had talked
together about a marriage planned for my brother Julien."

_In reply to a Question._ "I had reached Bellevue that day towards noon.
I lunched at Vert-Logis with the children, and then went for a drive
through the woods with them. After the children's tea, I went with
Marthe to the Bellevue station. I reached the Gare Montparnasse at about
5.30 P.M. and on foot I went straight home (a ten minutes' walk). On the
way I called at the druggist's for my mother's medicine and also at
Potin's (the grocer's stores)."

_Question._ "At what time that day did you telephone to M. Bdl.?"

_Answer._ "At ten in the morning. I 'phoned to him from my room, where
my mother was lying in bed, and she heard what I said. M. Bdl. and I had
parted in the middle of May, but I occasionally wrote or telephoned to
him. I began by telling M. Bdl. that I was quite well, but that my
mother (whom he knew) was ill. I remember that I could not hear a word
of what M. Bdl. said, and finally I broke out laughing and put the
receiver back in its place."

_In reply to a Question._ "It was only after dinner, at about 8 P.M.
that I asked my mother if she felt well enough to go to Bellevue... I
had to ask her, in order to know whether I should ask M. Buisson to go
and sleep there or not."

_Question._ "Thus, you had warned M. Buisson that he might have to go to
Bellevue and spend the night there?"

_Answer._ "Yes. This is what happened. Whilst I was at Vert-Logis, M.
Buisson telephoned to me after lunch at about 1.30 or 2 P.M., just as I
was about to go for a drive with the children. He wanted to ask me how
his children were. Afterwards I told him that my mother--of whose
arrival he had heard on the previous day--was not well, and did not know
whether she would be able to come to Bellevue to sleep; and I asked him
if, in case she would not come, he would mind running down to Bellevue
and spending the night with his little children. He replied he would
come to Bellevue at about 10.30 P.M. in any case, whether we could or
could not be there ourselves. I had told my daughter during the
afternoon that if we came to Bellevue in the evening I would warn her on
the telephone. As a matter of fact, I considered it as unlikely, owing
to my mother's health."

      (Quoted from _Dossier_, Cote 3213-3218.)




CHAPTER XIII

THE FATAL NIGHT


Continuing my story, I shall still quote the more important passages
from the evidence I gave to M. Andre concerning the fatal night of May
30th-31st, 1908, and various facts more or less connected with the
murder. That will enable the reader to see clearly how it all happened,
but also, incidentally, to get some idea of the methods of a French
examining magistrate.

_Question._ "Since your last interrogation, a number of letters have
been handed to us: twenty-four letters from your mother to your brother
Julien, dated from January 4th, 1908, to May 30th, 1908. Those letters,
_on the whole_, tally with your statements, especially as regards your
illness at the beginning of 1908, the plans for your brother's marriage,
and the intention to help him by calling on M. Dennery, and the fact
that you called in Dr. Acheray to see your mother on the morning of May
30th. On the other hand, they contain remarks which contradict certain
of your statements. For instance, on May 19th your mother wrote to your
brother that during her forthcoming stay in Paris she would put up at M.
Herr's, but the following day she mentioned that you had written and
'phoned to her, with the result that she would put up at your house for
one night at least. This proves that your mother only decided to put up
at the house in the Impasse Ronsin after you had pressed her?"

_Answer._ "I can only tell you that when my mother was staying with me,
at the beginning of May, it was agreed between us that she would put up
at my house when she returned to Paris later on. Towards May 20th she
wrote to me that she felt very ill, and at the same time gave me to
understand that, yielding to Mme. Herr's wishes, she would put up at her
house. I told her that if she came to me I would nurse her and that she
would be attended by an excellent doctor--M. Acheray, who lived almost
next door to us. I added that matters would be easier as regarded the
call on M. Dennery if she were staying with me. I very much wanted to
have my mother at home because at my sister's house she would have to
climb five flights of stairs, and, further, because I wished Dr. Acheray
to examine her, as he knew her well, having on other occasions acted as
her doctor."

_Question._ "In any case, there is a most striking coincidence here. It
is just about May 18th--that is, at the time when you settled down at
Bellevue with the young Buissons, who seem to need your permanent
presence at the time when your Paris home is disorganised--that you
compel your mother to promise to stay with you during the forthcoming
visit!"

_Answer._ "The Buisson children were not so ill that I had to be
constantly near them at Vert-Logis. The main object in having them at
Bellevue was that they should enjoy the fresh air of the country; and
when I was away my daughter was perfectly capable of looking after them.
As for my Paris home, how could it be 'disorganised' when my husband, my
daughter and myself were there frequently!"

_In reply to a Question._ "When, on the Saturday, May 30th, I returned
from Bellevue, I stopped, as I have said, at the chemist's to fetch the
various medicines Dr. Acheray had prescribed for my mother. At Potin's I
bought a lobster, a pot of mayonnaise sauce, some cakes and some fruit.
Then I walked straight home. My husband and I ate lobster, but my mother
ate only a bit of it; she preferred coffee and milk and a slice of
buttered toast. At Vert-Logis that evening my daughter Marthe was alone
with the two little Buissons and Mariette, the old cook. The children
usually went to bed at nine, and Mariette, as a rule, retired
afterwards. But that night she had of course to await M. Buisson's
arrival.

"At the Impasse Ronsin we dined that day at 7.30. Before dinner my
mother and I had had a long chat about family affairs and plans, whilst
my husband remained in his studio. The dinner was merry. My husband was
unusually cheerful and content. He talked about various schemes to
improve matters at the Boulogne Ceramics Company, and said he would go
to Italy to copy some old _faience_. My husband drank some wine and
water. After dinner none of us took any liqueurs. I went round the
garden with my husband, and then we joined my mother, who was resting in
the verandah. She suffered more and more in her legs; I took her shoes
and stockings off and rubbed her with some vaseline. Towards 9 P.M. we
all three went upstairs to bed. Before that, my husband had locked the
doors--or rather the door, for he had only to close the verandah door.
The door of the pantry, which it was the valet's duty to close, must, I
suppose, have been closed by Couillard after we had retired. At the time
when we went upstairs Couillard was washing up.

"According to the rule in force whenever we were at home, and which he
had observed the previous night, Couillard was to sleep in his room on
the third floor, near the attic. I supposed that, also according to
custom, he had already handed back the revolver to my husband on the
previous day (May 29th). But, after the drama, during the judicial
investigation, I found that Couillard had not returned the revolver, for
when questioned by M. Hamard (Chief of the Criminal Investigation
Department) about the revolver, he, in my sight, took it from the pocket
of his blue apron. I had told M. Hamard that my husband usually kept his
revolver by him in his room, in the drawer of his bedside table, and it
was because M. Hamard had been unable to find it that he had been led to
ask Couillard some questions about it."

_In reply to a Question._ "I don't know at what time Remy Couillard went
to bed on the 30th May. That night my husband occupied his own bedroom.
I was in my daughter's room, for I had given my bedroom to my mother so
that she might be more comfortable, my daughter's bed being smaller than
mine and my mother a little stout. Besides, whenever my mother stayed
with us she occupied my bedroom. She slept in my daughter's room only
when I was seriously ill in bed--in 1907 and 1908."

[Illustration: A VIEW OF THE VERANDA OF THE HOUSE IN THE IMPASSE RONSIN]

_In reply to a Question._ "On May 30th, my mother herself placed my
rings, as we went to bed, in her room (my bed-room). I had taken them
off downstairs on the verandah, when I rubbed my mother with vaseline.
Just as we went upstairs, my husband told Couillard to bring up some
'grogs.'"

_Question._ "Was it a habit in your house to take 'grogs' at night?"

_Answer._ "No, it was not a habit. When I was tired, I took some hot
water with rum, and in the evening of May 30th I was very tired. After
dinner, when we chatted on the verandah, I had said I would drink a hot
'grog' before going to bed, and my husband and my mother said they would
do the same. That was why my husband or I told Couillard to bring up
some hot water, sugar, the bottle of rum, and three glasses. Why didn't
we drink the 'grogs' downstairs? Because I wanted my mother to take hers
while in bed. Remy Couillard came up with a tray which he placed on a
small table in the bath-room, and then he withdrew. When Remy brought
the tray, I was in the bath-room; my mother was in her room and already
in bed. My husband was in his room, but not yet in bed. I called him. He
put water and sugar in two glasses and I poured out the rum. Then my
husband and I went together to my mother. She drank a little and placed
the glass back on her bedside table. Before taking the 'grog' to my
mother, I tasted the one my husband had prepared for himself. I thought
it was too strong, and my husband added some hot water."

_Question._ "It was you who wanted a 'grog,' and now I find that no
'grog' was prepared for you, and of your husband's grog you only had a
sip!"

(My counsel explained to me afterwards that the judge's idea was that I
had put poison or some sleeping draught in those two grogs!)

_Answer._ "I intended preparing mine a little later, just as I was about
to get into bed, so as to drink it quite hot. As a matter of fact, when
I was in bed, I called my husband and he brought me my grog. He made me
drink, then placed the glass--I don't remember where.

"After my mother had emptied her glass, I had sat down on her bed and we
had chatted for a quarter of an hour. But as she and I were very tired
and sleepy, I went to my room, and I was in bed when my husband brought
me the grog."

_Question._ "Couillard has stated that your husband was already in bed
when he brought up the tray. He saw that through the door of your
husband's room, which was open."

_Answer._ "Couillard made a mistake. Besides, how could he have seen my
husband in bed! There was no light in my husband's room."

_Question._ "There was a light in the bath-room where the valet placed
the tray, and since the door of the bedroom was open, that bedroom must
have been light enough."

_Answer._ "No, for the gas in the bath-room was only half turned on."

_In reply to a Question._ "At the end of my chat with my mother, I
kissed her and said: 'Till to-morrow!' And when my husband brought me
the grog, I bade him good-night and asked him to leave the door open, so
that, if my mother felt ill during the night, she might easily be heard
by us, I was dead tired and went to sleep almost at once."

_Question._ "Describe what you know of the crime."

_Answer._ "I started up out of my sleep, and felt something on my face.
I then heard a man's voice saying: 'Tell us where your parents' money
is....' Now, before I go any further, I would like to say that I cannot
promise you to describe that terrible night in exactly the same words as
I used when I described it on May 31st, a few hours after the crime....
I pulled the cloth off my head and face. There was a light in the room,
and I saw three men and a woman: a dark man standing near me; a dark man
by the door of the boudoir; a red-bearded man on the other side, that
is, near the mantelpiece, and a red-haired woman near my bed.

"They repeated: 'Where is your parents' money?' Frightened, trembling,
and seeing that the woman was pointing a revolver at my right temple, I
said 'There'... and pointed to the boudoir; the woman remained near me,
still holding the revolver against my head, and with her other hand she
held my arm tightly.... I was terrified... I heard my mother cry out to
me 'Meg, Meg!'... That gave me a little courage. Then the woman said,
'Come on, girl, be good. Tell us where the jewels are.' I was afraid to
say they were in my mother's room (really my room), in the drawer of the
wardrobe.... I said to them all 'Don't kill me! Say you won't kill any
one....' Then they bound me and put a cloth on my face.... And that is
all. I don't remember anything else...."

_Question._ "Have you really no other recollections?"

_Answer._ "I remember the appearance of those people. They had
lanterns.... The man near the chimney had one, also the man near my bed.
The man near the door of the boudoir held a revolver.... After they had
bound me to the bed, one man climbed on me, stood on my body, and hurt
me terribly. I could not cry because I was already gagged. They bound my
hands.... At a certain moment, I don't remember when, I heard the twelve
strokes of midnight.... I say midnight, but it was perhaps eleven
o'clock. There were many, many strokes, that is all I can say. It was
the big grandfather's clock in the hall... on the ground floor."

_Question._ "And that is all?"

_Answer._ "I can tell you what those people were like. The man near me
had a long black beard. He was very pale, had dark eyes and a big nose.
The man near the boudoir was also very dark, and his eyes were terrible.
The one with the red beard looked rather stupid, bewildered, scared....
As for the red-haired woman, she was fearfully ugly, had black eyes,
frizzy hair and a wicked mouth."

_Question._ "Is that all?"

_Answer._ "That is all I remember now."

_Question._ "What else?"

_Answer._ "Oh! their clothes, of course! They all wore long black gowns,
even the woman. M. Hamard asked me if they wore smocks or ecclesiastical
habits, gaberdines. I said the sleeves were flat, and the gowns were
long, straight, all one piece, as it were. I saw no collars, no hands,
only those black gaberdines... and then, the light of their lanterns
dazzled me, and there were all those looking-glasses in the room,
Marthe's room... and it all went so rapidly... I also received a blow on
my head. It came from the side where the woman stood, but I could not
tell if it was the woman that struck the blow.... I also heard a voice
say: 'Finish her off!' They spoke.... One man said: 'No, leave the girl
(_la petite_) alone. It was the woman who wanted to kill me.'"

_Question._ "Which of the men was it who spared you?"

_Answer._ "I don't know. My head was covered at the time. The man had a
foreign accent. He had spoken before.... It was the man who had said:
'Tell us where your parents' money is.'"

_In reply to a Question._ "I felt them seize both my hands. They
fastened them above and behind my head to the bars of the bed.... They
bound my hands, separately, that is, my arms apart.... I felt a rope
round my neck and there was a cloth on my head. They also bound my feet.
I did not feel them bind me round the body; it was later on that I heard
I had been bound round the body."

_Question._ "Did the ropes with which your hands were tied hurt you?"

_Answer._. "My hands were not tightly bound. They did not hurt me mch."

_Question._ "Did the rope round the neck hurt?"

_Answer._ "No... I don't know. I was terrified. I thought that I had
been blinded, that I was dead, that it was all over...."

_Question._ "Did the ropes round your feet hurt you?"

_Answer._ "Yes, very much. But I did not feel it at the time. It was
only when I came back to my senses several times, and that was
terrible."

[Illustration: THE BED ON WHICH I WAS BOUND DURING THE "FATAL NIGHT."]

_In reply to a Question._ "They gagged me with cottonwool, but I don't
remember at what precise moment. The cottonwool was forced down my
mouth. It nearly choked me and I thought I was dying. When I came back
to my senses, I had an awful sensation of agony. I was stifling... I
moved my arms, but felt that by doing so I was strangling myself; I felt
that when I moved my arms either to the right or to the left, they acted
upon the rope round my neck and I felt then a terrible pressure on my
throat.... But when I did not move at all, the rope round my neck did
not hurt. The cottonwool made breathing almost impossible. So I began to
push it forward with my tongue. It was very difficult to remove the
gag... I moved my tongue; I moved my jaw... I turned and twisted the
cottonwool in my mouth and it was a long time before I could remove it.
I even think I had not got rid of it all when the ropes were cut. The
ropes round my hands were cut by Remy Couillard, I believe. Whilst I
moved the wadding with my tongue, my mouth was quite dry... I breathed
as best I could.... No, I don't know whether I breathed with my nose
only. I cannot remember things quite clearly. I came back to my senses
several times, but it was only at daybreak, when I recovered a little,
that I was able to remove the gag...."

_Question._ "When you moved your head, you say that those movements
tightened the rope round your neck?"

_Answer._ "I felt I was strangling myself; but I tried to be brave.... I
also tried to free my hands, but found it was impossible, for when I
moved them the ropes tightened round my neck.... I did not know if the
men were still there.... My mind was in a whirl.... But I had courage,
for they had said they would not kill any one."

_Question._ "At what moment?"

_Answer._ "When they asked where the jewels were I had beseeched them to
kill no one."

_Question._ "And they said they would not kill any one?"

_Answer._ "No, they didn't reply; but as they did not kill me I thought
they had spared the lives of the others. I had heard no noise, and I did
not think that either my husband or my mother was dead. I thought they
had been gagged and bound like myself.... I called them I don't know how
many times. They did not answer, and I waited for some one to come, and
I was almost mad.... When did I call them? I don't know.... As soon as
I could breathe, as soon as I began to realise that I was there, that I
was alive... I had no strength left... I called as best I could...."

_Question._ "How did Remy Couillard come to you in the morning?"

_Answer._ "I don't remember having called him.... When I saw him I was
afraid of him.... When I saw him come near my bed I thought he was going
to strangle me, and I don't remember having talked to him.... All I
remember is that I saw him go to the window and shout '_Au voleur!_'
('Thief, thief!')."

_Question._ "In what way do you suppose people might have entered your
house on the night of May 30th-31st, 1908?"

_Answer._ "I suppose they entered by the gate in the Impasse, perhaps
with the key which Couillard had lost. Then they must have passed
through the pantry door. I suppose so, as I have since been told that
that door had not been locked that night (for when M. Lecoq, a
neighbour, heard Couillard's cries in the morning and came to the
rescue, he had only to push that door to enter the house!); or perhaps
they passed through the little kitchen window, for Couillard stated--and
this also I heard later on--that he merely pulled that window to,
without closing it, a thing he should never have done.... I have also
been struck by the fact that a ladder was seen against the kitchen. None
of us had seen that ladder there on May 30th."

_Question._ "Explain to us why there were hardly any traces of acts of
violence on the bodies of the victims--that is, of your mother and your
husband?"

_Answer._ "I cannot tell... I heard no struggle, no noise, that
night...."

_Question._ "How do you explain that your husband was found with his
legs bent under his thighs, in a kneeling position, and his arms
stretched along his body, and that your mother had her arms resting on
her breast--that is, in an attitude quite contrary to an attitude of
defence?"

_Answer._ "How can I explain all this?... So much the better if they
have not suffered too much...."

_Question._ "How do you explain that you were not made to share the fate
of your mother and your husband?"

_Answer._ "Ah! I cannot understand that. In any case, I regret with all
my heart that I was not killed.... My mother did not suffer much, it
appears.... But I have been through constant agonies; and then there was
that awful night of the tragedy, when I felt I was dying.... And all the
time I was wondering what had happened to my mother and my husband....
Perhaps those people thought I would pull on the ropes and strangle
myself... I don't know...."

_Question._ "How do you explain the fact that they could spare you when
you were a dangerous witness--one who would be the more formidable, more
implacable and relentless because the victims were your own mother and
husband?"

_Answer._ "I don't know that they wanted me to live.... The way they had
bound me meant death to me at the slightest movement. It needed a woman
with my strong will--I was thinking of my Marthe--and also with my good
health, to stand what I went through and live...."

_Question._ "On May 31st, at 6 A.M., Remy Couillard saw that you were
bound, but the ropes were tied in so indifferent a manner that they left
on your wrists and ankles only superficial marks, marks that were not
lasting. It was also found that the rope round your neck was rather
loose."

_Answer._ "There is nothing extraordinary in the fact, since I did not
move...."

      (Quoted from _Dossier_, Cote 3239.)

_In reply to a Question._ "Marthe had wished to send a little present to
Lucie Ch.--on the occasion of her marriage which took place at the
beginning of June (1908) (Lucie was the daughter of M. Ch., who had been
for several years my most intimate friend). During the evening of May
30th (a few hours before the crime) either before or after dinner, I
sent Couillard to M. Cher., with a card of Marthe's and a little Sevres
vase which I had in the cabinet of the drawing-room. I went upstairs to
my room and packed the vase in some cottonwool. As a rule, I kept
cottonwool in a small cabinet opposite the bed. I used all the
cottonwool, then finding there was not enough to wrap up the vase
properly, I fetched some more which was in a large boxroom on the same
first floor. I had a great deal of cottonwool at home, on account of the
fancy-work I did, especially small cushions...."

_Question._ "What was that cottonwool which on May 31st was found on the
floor in the room where you were in bed?"

_Answer._ "I don't know.... I saw no cottonwool that morning. I only saw
many people around me. In any case, there was no cottonwool in my room
when I went to bed...."

_In reply to a Question._ "On the evening of May 30th, I don't remember
who served out the soup, whether it was Couillard or myself.... Usually
it was Couillard who did so."

_Question._ "In his report, Dr. Balthazard (the Home Office medical
expert) has demonstrated that the gag was taken from the sheet of
cottonwool which was found near the mantelpiece, in the room where you
spent the night!"

_Answer._ "I have nothing to say on that point. It was only long after
the drama that I was told that some cottonwool had been found in the
room."

_Question._ "Dr. Balthazard further demonstrated by 'physical' and
chemical processes, that the gag could not have been in your mouth not
even for a few seconds, for it contained no traces of saliva!"

_Answer._ "Then the gag which Dr. Balthazard examined was not the one
which had been so long in my mouth."

      (Quoted from _Dossier_, Cotes 3308-3310.)

       *       *       *       *       *

(And here I would quote a passage from the speech made by my counsel,
Maitre Antony Aubin, at my trial):

"In order to demonstrate that Mme. Steinheil was never gagged at all and
that she lies, this is the argument used: There never was in Mme.
Steinheil's room but one piece of cottonwool that might have been a gag,
the piece that was on the pillow, on the right side of it. Now this gag
was at once put under seal, on the spot, without any possible mistake.
Handed later on to Dr. Balthazard, he found that it had never been
wetted with saliva; therefore, the 'gag' on the pillow had never been in
Mme. Steinheil's mouth.

"But an important question now arises. How many pieces of cottonwool
were placed under seal, on the Sunday morning (May 31st)? Four. There
was cottonwool everywhere, so much so that some one present remarked:
'One seems to walk on cottonwool.'

"Seal number one containing the gag '_which the criminals forced into
Mme. Steinheil's mouth_,' for those were the words written on the label
attached to it--was put together without it being known by whom it (the
gag) was picked up, who handed it to the Police Commissary, without its
identity being ascertained if only by a question asked of Mme.
Steinheil. No precaution was taken, there was no supervision--so that it
is impossible to say whether the piece of cottonwool, placed under the
seal, as '_having been forced into Mme. Steinheil's mouth_,' is really
the one which had been seen on her pillow, and which she herself pointed
out.

"To demonstrate that the piece of cottonwool from the pillow and the one
examined by Dr. Balthazard are not the same one is easy enough.

"The gag, which was seen by one or two witnesses near the pillow, was
also seen by three or four other witnesses in various places--on the
floor, on a chiffonier, on a small table! The gag wanders about. But how
can one wonder that, in the excitement which upset everybody--and
everything--some mistake as to all those pieces of cottonwool occurred?

"There is another point. In what terms do the witnesses describe the
wandering gag? As _a gag made of one single piece (pear-shaped), as big
as the fist_. If then the one examined by the expert contains _one
single piece_ and answers to the description given, one will be able to
admit that this gag, _pear-shaped, and in one piece_, is really the
piece of wadding found on the pillow. But Doctor Balthazard himself
described the piece of cottonwool he examined as follows: 'This gag is
made of two pieces, one _rectangular_, the other _triangular_ and almost
equilateral.'

"How disastrous for the Prosecution.... Besides, gentlemen, if the
whole thing had been a sham, Mme. Steinheil, knowing of course the
difference in appearance between dry cottonwool and moistened
cottonwool, would not have failed to wet it, if only for a few seconds,
especially as it was she who drew attention to the gag!"




CHAPTER XIV

AFTER THE MURDER


I need hardly say that on Sunday, May 31st, I was in a terrible state of
mind, and even on the verge of utter collapse.

At 6 A.M., it appears, Remy Couillard came down, saw what had happened,
went to the window and cried for help, and M. Lecoq, a neighbour, then
joined him. Then the police came, also Dr. Acheray, and many others....

I was in bed, after that night of horror and what I had gone through. I
could hardly move or breathe. Everything seemed to whirl around me, and
yet I had two thoughts. One was: "What had happened to my mother and my
husband, and how are they?" (I did not know, of course, that they had
both been strangled.) Couillard--so I heard afterwards--after untying
the ropes which held me to the bed, had gone with M. Lecoq to the other
rooms, and seen the bodies of my husband and my mother, but they had
said nothing to me about it.

       *       *       *       *       *

I hereafter quote the evidence given by this M. Lecoq, so that the
reader may be present, as it were, at the discovery of the crime.

This day, June 23rd, 1908, before us, Leydet, examining magistrate...
has appeared, Lecoq, Maurice--twenty six years old--an engineer residing
in the Impasse Ronsin, No. 6--who has stated:

On Sunday, May 31st, a little before 6 A.M., I heard shouts of "Thief!
Thief!... My mistress is ill...." I hastily left my room which overlooks
the yard of M. Bonnot's house. Rapidly I passed through a gate, which
is never closed (separating the Bonnot and the Steinheil grounds) and
entered the garden of the Steinheil villa. I cut across the lawn, and
went and stood under the window from which Couillard was crying for
help. He shouted, "Come, be quick!" I tried in vain to open the doors of
the verandah and the drawing-room, which opened on to the garden.
Finding I could not enter, I returned to the place under the window, and
Couillard said to me: "Open the street door and pass through the
kitchen." I went to the door in the Impasse Ronsin, and opened it by
lifting up the lower latch. Then I walked to the pantry door, which I
opened by merely turning the knob. I went through the hall, where I
noticed nothing unusual, then walked up to the first floor. At the end
of the staircase I saw the door of Mme. Steinheil's room, whom I had
never seen, although she is a neighbour of mine. She was on her bed. At
the same time Couillard left the window and went near the bed.

Mme. Steinheil then exclaimed: "We are saved, my poor Remy!" and the
latter said: "Look at my poor mistress...." Mme. Steinheil was in a
state of extreme agitation, and kept swinging her arms one way and
another. Her wrists and her head were free.... There were cords round
her neck, not tight, and over her nightshirt. Her feet were still
strongly fastened to the rails of the bed, but the cords did not press
very tightly on the articulations. Remy and I undid the cords (Couillard
had before undone the other cords), and then Mme. Steinheil, panting,
with haggard eyes, said in broken words--and she had several times the
vision of the scenes which she was describing--that she had been
assailed and ill-treated by three men and a horrible woman who took her
for her daughter, and who had asked for her money. She also said that
the woman wanted her to be killed. She said she suffered from her head,
and wailed: "My head, my head, they have struck me." I touched her hair,
but found no wound. Mme. Steinheil also said: "My husband... why does he
not come?" I replied to calm her, "He is in the next room." Later, she
asked for her daughter. She was a prey to constant terror, and all the
time she lived through the scene of the night. Several times she cried:
"I am afraid, I am afraid...." And when I told her: "Don't fear
anything, I am here; I will go for assistance," she kept saying, "I
don't fear you, but oh! that fierce woman, and those men, and those two
lanterns." I left her for a short while, to go and find out what had
happened in the house. The door of M. Steinheil's room was open, and I
saw the body of a man, wearing only a shirt, in the space between two
rooms (M. Steinheil's room and the bath-room). I returned to Mme.
Steinheil's room, and taking the valet aside, I said to him: "There is a
dead man, who is he?" Overwhelmed, Couillard replied: "It is perhaps my
master." Since then, Couillard has told me that when he went through the
rooms he had passed over the body of his master without noticing it was
a corpse. I then returned to that body, and Couillard followed me at a
distance. I bent forward, and placing my hand on his thigh, I found it
was icy cold. I at once undid the cord round the neck, however, whilst
realising that M. Steinheil had ceased to live. I then returned to Mme.
Steinheil who had remained alone during those brief moments. A little
later I took Couillard aside. He was all the time walking up and down
the room, as if he were mad, and did nothing, although his mistress was
asking, with great insistence, for Dr. Acheray.

I asked Remy: "How many are you in the house?" He replied: "Three,
without counting me." I then said: "Where is the third person?" He
pointed to the door opposite that of M. Steinheil's room, and said:
"There!" I found that the door was locked and that I could not open it.
When I had asked for the way into the room, Couillard pointed, with a
vague gesture to the end of the corridor; he was quite distracted, and a
sudden suspicion flashed through my mind. I took him by the arms, and
looking him straight in the eyes, said: "You must come with me."
Couillard, who did not realise my suspicions, showed that he was quite
ready to follow me, and my suspicions vanished entirely. At that moment
there arrived, at the top of the staircase, the first policeman, and M.
Geoffroy (son-in-law of Mariette Wolff, my cook--and a neighbour). I
rapidly told the policeman all I knew, and together we walked to the end
of the corridor. The policeman opened the door indicated by Couillard,
and from the threshold we saw the body of Mme. Japy lying across her bed
in the position where you (M. Leydet) found it.

Then other persons arrived. I remained some time near Mme. Steinheil,
who was still in a state of great agitation, but whose terror was
gradually diminishing. Doctor Puech arrived on the scene, but Mme.
Steinheil asked for her own doctor, M. Acheray, whom Couillard had now
gone to fetch.

_Question._ "What impression did Mme. Steinheil, whom you had never seen
before, make on you as regards her age?"

_Answer._ "I had two strong impressions. _When I entered the room where
Mme. Steinheil was lying I thought I stood before a young lady of about
twenty: but when she talked about her husband and her daughter and when
I observed her more closely she appeared to me as a woman of
twenty-six._ I don't know the Steinheils, and did not even know their
names."

      Signed LECOQ
                 LEYDET.

      (_Dossier_, Cote 71.)

       *       *       *       *       *

In spite of this statement--and although it must seem evident to any one
that if, after such a night of terror and agony, M. Lecoq took me for a
girl of twenty, the murderers, who saw me in a dimmer light and when I
was quietly resting, may easily have taken me for my daughter--the
Prosecution declared (I quote from the Indictment itself) that: "She
thought she was spared because the assassins, taking her for Marthe,
took pity on her youth. Such a confusion is most unlikely, for Mme.
Steinheil could not be taken for a young lady barely seventeen."

While the reader has still fresh in his--or her--mind the details of the
crime, I will give all explanations on the matter of the "binding," as I
have given those about the "gag."

The Indictment said: "The inquiries of medical experts have revealed
quite early the contradictions and lies of Mme. Steinheil. She claimed
that a cord had been fastened round her neck--but there were no traces
of it." Elsewhere the same extraordinary Indictment declares: "Mme.
Steinheil did her best to make the law believe that she had really been
bound; but the traces left by the cords disappeared too rapidly to allow
any one to believe in her statement."

How was I bound?

M. Lecoq declared that the cords round my feet were "securely fastened"
to the bed. Couillard stated that "the cord went round the feet seven or
eight times," and also that "the wrists were fastened over one another
to the rails of the top of the bed, the arms being raised above and
behind the head." (_Dossier_, Cote 3257.) Couillard further stated "the
head was held by a cord fastened to the railings of the bed." True, on
another occasion Couillard declared he "had unfastened the cords by
pulling on one end, as one undoes the knot of bootlaces." But on the
morning of May 31st he made some statements to one of the policemen, M.
Debacq, who declared afterwards: "The valet told me and my colleagues
that he had found his mistress _entirely secured_ with cords, and that
he had _cut_ the cords with which she was bound." The expert, Doctor
Balthazard, made a special report in which he asserted that one of the
cords had a knot of a kind called "galley-knot" (_noeud de galere_)
which it is most difficult to make and which is only used in certain
professions (sailors, horse-dealers, &c.). Dr. Courtois-Suffit mentioned
"grooves on the feet and hands, corresponding to the diameter of the
cords." Dr. Lefevre, who had made the remark, so dangerous to my cause:
"It is all a sham" (_c'est de la frime_), explained at my trial what he
had exactly meant. His idea was that the way I had been bound could not
be a source of great pain to me. Dr. Acheray found on my wrists and
ankles "very clear and marked traces." In his report, dated June 23rd,
1908, Dr. Lefevre stated: "I found on the wrists and the ankles parallel
lineal ecchymoses."

Finally, as regards the cord round my neck which the prosecution said
left no traces and was quite loose, I will merely say that I myself
stated that "the cord did not hurt when I did not move my head," and
further that it was wound round my neck _over_ the cloth which covered
my head. When that cloth, which formed a kind of pad at the neck, was
removed, the cord of course slipped down and became loose.

       *       *       *       *       *

As I have stated, my first thoughts on that dreadful morning of May
31st, 1908, was for my mother and my husband.

My next thought was: What has been stolen during the night?--for, I
repeat it, I could not guess that a murder had been committed.

Here I must hasten to state a most important point in the events of that
fatal night....

_One of the men of black gaberdines, the dark, tall man who stood near
my bed when I was started out of my sleep, the only man who spoke--he
had, or pretended to have, a foreign accent--the man who had asked for
the money when he came near me a second time_ (for I had been left alone
at one time with the horrible red-haired woman who pointed a revolver at
my head), _that man, after the woman had said: "Now then, girl, tell us
where the jewels are," asked me in a peremptory tone_. "AND WHERE ARE
THE PEARLS AND THE PAPERS?" And I thought the man _knew_ who I was,
although from his first question ("Where is your parents' money?") it
was clear he took me for my daughter. I was more terrified than ever. I
thought of the mysterious German, of my husband's reticence, and also of
his indiscretions.... The man _knew_ I had those pearls, and knew about
the documents!

When asked where the money was, I had pointed to the boudoir, close to
the room where my mother slept. Afterwards the red-haired woman asked me
where the jewels were. As I have stated before, quoting from the
evidence I gave seven months after the murder to M. Andre, examining
magistrate, "I dreaded to say that the jewels were in my mother's room
(that is, in _my_ bedroom, where my mother slept), and that they were in
the drawer of the wardrobe...." But, fearing to be killed, I said it,
adding: "Don't kill me, and promise to kill no one." When the tall, dark
man, with the foreign accent, asked me about "the pearls and the
papers:" I said the pearls were with the other jewels, and the papers
in the secret drawer of the desk....

I was told, later on, that the drawers, on May 31st, were found in a
state of great disorder, and that all the jewel-cases were empty. Three
rings had been stolen, and a diamond crescent, and a few other jewels.
The pearls had also disappeared from the case in which I kept them. I
found this out when all the cases were shown to me.

(As for the talisman, the gold locket which the President had worn, it
was in the drawer of a cupboard in the studio, and was not stolen.)

As I have already stated, after the conversation with M. de Balincourt
about my husband's indiscretion, I had removed the "papers" from the
drawer of the writing-table in the boudoir, where I had so long kept
them, and had put them in a place of safety.

The money, the jewels, and the pearls disappeared that night, and also
the documents. Not the genuine bundle, of course, but the dummy, on
which I had written: "Private papers. To be burned after my death."

Early in the morning, the police-commissary of the district, M.
Bouchotte, asked me all kinds of questions. I replied to them all, but I
did not speak the whole truth: I said that I had been asked for the
money and the jewels, but I did not add that I had further been asked
for the pearls and the papers.

Why I did not must have already occurred to the reader.

I knew that my real friends had always refused to believe in anything
that had been said against me as regards my past life and my private
affairs. And I did not want them to alter their views about me, and know
that I had not been faithful to my husband. And above all, there was
Marthe, my only child, my beloved daughter! She was engaged to Pierre
Buisson. If I mentioned the pearls and the documents, the truth about my
"friendship" with the late President Felix Faure was sure to be
discovered and disclosed, not only to my friends who had always taken my
part, but even to my own child, and to her betrothed. There would be a
terrible scandal, my daughter's marriage would be broken off....
Although I was at the time almost out of my mind, after the pain I had
endured, and the terror of the night, I fully realised the danger of
mentioning the pearls and the documents, and so I held my tongue.

Not only the police-commissary, but M. Leydet, the examining magistrate,
and other officials came that morning and asked a number of questions.

I was pleased--if one can be pleased in such tragic circumstances!--to
see that M. Leydet was the judge in charge of the case. I had known him
for several years; he was a great friend of both my husband and myself
and came frequently to the house. I made up my mind that I would tell
him the whole truth, if the three men and the red-haired woman could not
be traced.

But for the moment I was haunted by thoughts of my mother and my
husband, and ill though I was, I would go to them and attend to them. I
had repeatedly asked how they were, and I had been told they were
"better."

It was during the afternoon that the horrible news that they had both
been murdered was gradually broken to me. My whole being reeled under
this overwhelming blow. I wanted to rush to my dear dead, to look upon
them, guard them, close their eyes--but they would not let me.... They
said I was too weak, too ill.... They said it was impossible....
(Several weeks later, I heard that the two bodies had been taken to the
Morgue for the autopsy during the morning of May 31st).... And all the
time, I had to reply to endless questions.... They wanted to know what
had been taken, and so I asked that the drawers and all the jewel-cases
should be brought to me. Detectives brought them in and put them on my
bed. I then saw that all the jewels which President Faure had given me
had been stolen, and the pearls too.... M. Leydet seeing how upset I
was, did his best to calm me.... I said to him: "There is a secret
recess in the drawing-room wall, behind the dresser.... If you will
bring to me what you find in there, I shall be better able to tell you
what has been stolen during the night...."

I besought M. Leydet to send for my daughter, who was at Bellevue. I
thought: "As this has no importance, what does it matter whether the
jewels are found or not? I need my daughter and she needs me to give her
courage after the awful shock of losing her father and her grandmother.
She worshipped them both...." Alas! how ill the poor darling looked when
she arrived in the evening with the Buissons. (Mariette had come from
Bellevue in the morning, having been summoned by Dr. Acheray. She had
left Marthe with the Buissons, and it was they who broke the dreadful
news to the child during the afternoon.)

It was Dr. Acheray who told me that Marthe had come, and at the same
time he said there was a motor-ambulance downstairs to take me away....
He did not want me to stay in the house where the ghastly murders had
been committed. "You must go," he said, "and stay with the Buissons" (in
Paris).

"If you will not let me see my mother and my husband," I replied, "allow
me at least the consolation of remaining near them".... I insisted so
much that the ambulance was sent back, and my poor little Marthe, after
spending some time with me, went away--with M. Buisson, I believe.

I passed a terrible night.... I longed to sleep, to forget the harrowing
drama, if only for an hour, but I could not. And minute after minute
hundreds of thoughts flashed through my mind.... I lived through the
fatal night again and again; I thought of the dead, of my daughter, of
the future.... And then I wondered who were the three men in black
gaberdines and soft felt hats? Who was the red-haired woman? Why had
they killed my mother and my husband? Why had I been spared?... I
thought of the mysterious "German," of his threatening look... he knew
his way about the house.... And a key had been lost.... I thought of
many officials who hated me because I knew their secrets. I thought of
the documents which one of the men had demanded.... Perhaps they had
killed my husband before awaking me?... Not my mother, for she had cried
"Meg, Meg!"... I had heard her.... Sometimes, it seemed to me that the
fatal night had only been a nightmare? Nothing had happened. I was mad,
I imagined things.... Of course, my husband was now quietly sleeping in
his room, and if I called my mother she would hear and come to me at
once.... And then, the acute pain from the blow I had received on the
head, and feeling that there had been ropes round my neck, my feet, my
hands, and wadding in my mouth, that I had been bound and gagged.... And
once more I lived through the night of terror, and it was worse than
before, for I knew now that my husband and my mother had been killed....

Later, I was told that Dr. Acheray, M. Buisson and his wife, and the
elder M. Boeswilwald had attended me during that night of agony. I heard
that the doctor had to give me morphia injections two or three times,
and that I was very near to death....

On the Monday, thanks to my doctor's care and devotion, I came back to
life, as it were.... And I can frankly say that I have regretted it
since, more than once.

Many people visited the house. A magistrate came to "affix the seals."
Detectives and policemen came... and journalists.... I was still so ill,
however, that the doctor insisted that I should be taken to some nursing
home or to the house of friends. Count and Countess d'Arlon offered me
their hospitality, and so did M. and Mme. Buisson. I accepted the offer
of the d'Arlons, who, unlike the Buissons, had no children.

Letters and telegrams of condolence arrived in piles, from every part of
France and from people in every walk of life. This I only knew because I
was told. I had not the strength to read the messages.

On June 2nd I was told that my mother's body had been removed to a
Protestant, and my husband's to a Catholic, church. (They dared not tell
me the bodies were at the Morgue.) It was then, and only then, that I
yielded to the pressing entreaties of the d'Arlons. I was taken to their
house in an ambulance. It was terrible to me to leave that house where
less than forty-eight hours before I had been chatting with my husband
about our summer.... In the garden I saw the rose-trees laden with
white roses, which my mother had so much admired only two days ago!...

[Illustration: THE DESK (WITH SEALS AFFIXED) IN THE BOUDOIR, FROM WHICH
THE MONEY AND THE DUMMY PARCEL OF DOCUMENTS WERE STOLEN ON MAY 30-31ST.
1906]

In the Impasse there was an immense crowd, and another near the _Ecole
Militaire_, near which the d'Arlons lived. The crowd were hostile. What
did it mean?... I could not understand.... Again I thought of the
documents, of the pearls.... Mme. Buisson, who was with me in the
ambulance, trembled with fear.... Later I was told that we had been
escorted by detectives, to protect me!...

At last I arrived at the d'Arlons. Marthe was there. She was so very
tender and affectionate, and I realised that she knew nothing about my
life, about Felix Faure.... There was no semblance of reproach in her
pure little face, no question in her big brown eyes.... I breathed
again.

On the Wednesday (June 3rd), Dr. Acheray, finding I was worse, ordered a
nurse. He also told me that I should soon be interrogated by M. Hamard
and M. Leydet. "Tell them everything you know," he recommended; "the
public seems to suspect you...."

I spent hours of torture. I wondered what I should say. I had already
been asked about the jewels that had disappeared on the night of May
30th-31st. Was I to speak of those given me by M. B., the
Attorney-General, and years later by President Faure (which had been
stolen), and most of which were exactly copied from those my husband had
given me, but set with more valuable stones?... But if I did, my
reputation would be ruined in the eyes of my daughter, who worshipped
her mother and who was engaged to be married, and of many friends who
believed implicitly in me.... No, no, since the jewels had been stolen I
would describe them without saying whence they came, and I would alter
the duplicates I had at Bellevue.

Here a clear explanation becomes necessary, inasmuch as the prosecution
tried to prove that _no jewels had been stolen_ and that I was the
murderer. The jewel problem (_la question des bijoux_) was perhaps the
most complex of all in that mysterious affair; and, although I spoke the
whole truth to M. Andre, who became my examining magistrate after M.
Leydet, I was not believed, and there were inevitably such
contradictions between the statements I made on the matter at various
times that my case became prejudiced. And yet this jewel problem was no
problem at all, as the reader will no doubt agree after the following
explanation:

Besides the money and the ten large pearls and my mother's jewels, there
were stolen on the night of the double murder a diamond crescent, a few
minor jewels of no great value, a gold chain and three valuable rings.

The diamond crescent which was stolen had been given me by President
Faure, but I had a similar one at Bellevue, given me by my husband, from
which it had been copied (only with better stones, as I stated before).
I had thus been able in the days of Felix Faure to wear his crescent
(worn as a brooch or in the hair) without my husband being able to make
remarks. True, the President had given me a brooch with the three
colours of France, and a Lalique comb, but he had done so at the
beginning of our acquaintance and in the presence of my husband. I may
at once say that the comb was in a cabinet in the drawing-room, and was
not stolen. The cornflower-marguerite-poppy brooch was stolen, but I did
not mention it, because it would have led to questions about my
friendship with Felix Faure.

The three rings I possessed in triplicate: Firstly the three given me by
my husband; secondly, three exact copies of them given me--two by the
Attorney-General, one by the President--and thirdly, three exact copies
in paste.

Why this last set? Because at one time of financial difficulties, my
husband had asked me to let him pledge the three rings he had given me,
and I consented, after he had had those rings cheaply copied in paste,
so that our friends might not notice that my rings were gone. For how
could I at that time wear the other three real rings without my husband
noticing it at once? Afterwards, the pledged rings were redeemed, and so
it happened that I possessed, before the night of May 30th-31st, three
sets of similar rings.

I may add here that there are hundreds of ladies in Paris--even among
the very wealthy--who have paste copies of their jewels, if only for
safety's sake.

At Bellevue, I always had the real rings given me by my husband, and the
_paste_ ones. I wore the real ones at home and the paste ones when I
went out for walks in the woods or on business.

Where were all these rings at the time of the crime? The three _real_
rings (given me by M. B. and Felix Faure) were in the drawer of the
wardrobe at my house in the Impasse Ronsin. The three _real_ rings
(given me by my husband) were at Vert-Logis. When I left Bellevue to
come to Paris and fetch my mother at the station, I had put on the three
_false_ rings, leaving the three rings (given me by my husband) at
Vert-Logis. When I massaged my mother I took those rings off, and took
them upstairs when we retired. Those three false rings were therefore
stolen by the murderers, together with the three _real_ rings (given me
by friends), the diamond crescent (the President's), a gold chain, and
the tricolour brooch.

Fearing the consequences--to my daughter's future and to my
reputation--which would follow the discovery that I had received jewels
from "friends," I did not mention these, and when I gave the list of
what had been stolen, I merely described the rings, without adding that
I had possessed three sets of them.

The three rings given me by my husband, I intended to have altered,
having some of the stones made up with new by M. Souloy, for Marthe,
with whom, I may add, I had several times talked over the matter and
discussed designs. For obvious reasons of elementary delicacy, I did not
want to use for these presents to my daughter stones taken from the
rings given me by "friends."

I also mentioned as having been stolen a "new art" ring (gold and
pearl). That was on the morning of May 31st, when, surely after what I
had gone through my thoughts would not be quite clear or my statements
strictly accurate. I believed that I had worn that ring on the previous
day, and that it had been stolen. I said so to M. Bouchotte, who made a
note of it. Later, it suddenly occurred to me that I had left the "new
art" ring at Bellevue, and that, consequently, if could not have been
stolen. But I thought it was a matter of trifling importance, and I did
not mention it. Then, at the d'Arlons, Doctor Acheray told me that the
public seemed to suspect me! Here was a new dilemma. What was I to do?
If I mentioned my mistake about the "new art" ring, people would say:
"She alters her statements, she lies...." Fearing that such a simple
declaration might lead to more investigations that would reveal certain
chapters of my life which I was anxious should not be disclosed, and
remembering also that this "new art" ring had been given me by an
admirer, whose name would of course become known if I drew attention to
that ring, I dared not mention it now. It was a sad mistake, and I paid
a heavy penalty for it, just as it was a sad mistake not to state that I
possessed duplicates of the three valuable rings.

When, however, I did say, not that I possessed another set of _real_
rings, but that I had had the three rings in paste, and that these had
been stolen--(which was absolutely true) the prosecution denied it.
According to them, I had never had duplicates in paste of the three
valuable rings given me by my husband. I gave the address of the firms
where I had bought them and even the dates, but my statements in this
matter were not even verified. And yet, it simply meant sending a
detective to a jeweller in the Boulevard des Italiens, to another in the
Boulevard des Capucines, and to a shop in the Rue de la Paix... that is,
in the very heart of Paris. But the prosecution did not fail to send
some one to Briancon, in the Alps (where my husband and I had been, as I
have told, in 1897) in search of a merchant of alpenstocks, because an
alpenstock with the name "Briancon" engraved on it had been found near
the body of my husband on May 31st, 1908!

One more fact before leaving, for the present, this important "jewel
problem." I had declared that a solid gold chain had been stolen, a
"dull gold chain with large links." Now, M. Hamard had found, among
other things in the secret recess behind the dresser, in the wall of the
dining-room--a recess where I had myself told the police to look--"a
chain, yellow metal." The Prosecution hoped to show that this chain was
the one which I had said had been stolen. That would have been a
material and unexceptional proof that I lied, a proof of my guilt!

On March 11th, 1909, I spent an hour explaining to the examining
magistrate that I had possessed two chains, one that had been stolen and
one that had been found in the recess. I lost patience.... The expert
appointed to assist the law was present, and held the chain. I said to
him:

"Since you believe that the chain of yellow metal found in the recess is
the same as the 'dull gold chain with large links' mentioned in the list
of stolen jewels which I gave, kindly reply to these two questions:
Firstly, has the chain which you are holding in your hands 'large
links'?"...

"No," said the expert.

"Is it made of gold?"

"I could not tell."

I was almost beside myself with anger when I heard this reply. The
expert had written a long report, but had not even troubled to ascertain
whether the chain found by M. Hamard in the recess was made of "solid
gold" or not.

M. Souloy, who was present, was sent to test the "yellow metal" on a
touchstone. I need hardly say that the surprise of all--save myself--was
extreme. If the chain were made of gold, then I was lost, and that, of
course, was what the judge wanted.... An hour elapsed. Then, M. Souloy
returned.

"Well?" asked M. Andre, the judge.

"The chain is not made of gold. It is merely a gold-plated one."

The judge and the expert looked at one another in dismay, and my
examination was proceeded with....

M. Leydet came to the d'Arlons a few days after I had been taken there.
He was extremely pale. He seized my hand and said: "Hamard is coming....
It is not the judge in charge of the Impasse Ronsin case who stands
before you, but your old friend.... It is dreadful. The whole population
is against you.... You must collect yourself, you must be calm... and
help us to find the murderers."

I was ill in bed and his words startled me. "Then," I said, "I must tell
you everything--everything about the jewels, the papers.... I must tell
you about Felix Faure...."

"No, no..." said M. Leydet, "don't speak about that.... We will find the
murderers... but not a word about that...."

The door opened, and M. Hamard, head of the Criminal Investigation
Department, came in. He had come to the Impasse Ronsin after the murder,
but I did not know who he was at the time, so many people had been in my
room then. I said to him as I had said to M. Leydet: "I must tell you
about my past life, about the President...."

He, too, stopped me there, and said: "Don't speak about that.... We
know.... We know.... We promise to find the murderers.... Have courage,
we will find them...."

I felt immensely relieved. It was as if a huge weight had been lifted
off my breast. I felt full confidence in these two men. I thought: They
will find the murderers and they will not speak about the documents and
the pearls, about my past life; and Marthe will not look down upon her
mother.... I felt that they knew everything. M. Leydet was a friend of
M. B., the Attorney-General, and it seemed evident to me that M. Hamard,
because of his office, knew all about the life of the late President....

M. Leydet said: "Let us lose no time. I must still tell you this: Engage
a counsel--it is always wiser.... Take my friend Aubin; he knows all
about the case; he will be useful to you...." (I knew Maitre Antony
Aubin, and he had attended a few of my receptions.)

Thereupon a detective was ushered into the room. He wore a black
gaberdine and a large hat with a turned-down brim. The man walked to and
fro before me, and I was asked whether his attire was similar to that
worn by the murderers. Then he put on a false beard, and again I was
asked what remarks this performance suggested to me.

I said there was a great similarity between the detective's attire and
that of the murderers, and gave various details about the gowns and hats
of those murderers.

After M. Leydet and M. Hamard had gone, my daughter told me that my
friend Mme. Darracq (wife of the motor-car manufacturer) wished to see
me. I received her, of course, and she said she had come to beg me take
Maitre Aubin as counsel. As M. Leydet had just told me the same thing, I
said I would.

At the same time I was at a loss to understand why I needed a counsel!

"Oh," said Mme. Darracq, "it is the usual thing. It is for the 'civil'
proceedings against the criminals. You need assistance, legal advice."

All this was quite new to me.... Soon afterwards, Maitre Aubin arrived,
keen, full of life and fire and endowed with an amiable simplicity of
character--as I was to find him all through my time of trouble. We had
only a brief talk, for I felt very weak, and M. Aubin concluded: "Leydet
is a very able magistrate; all will be well." And he added those words
which I was to hear, week after week, for months and months: "We will
find the murderers. Be patient.... We will find them!"

I remained about a fortnight with Count and Countess d'Arlon.
Journalists came to me.... Doctor Acheray, hearing that the _Matin_
"demanded" an interview, and knowing the almost unlimited power of
certain newspapers for good--or evil--hastily handed the _Matin_ a
letter which I had written to him on the day before the murder, in which
I asked him to examine my mother before her departure for Bellevue....

The letter duly appeared in the _Matin_, who, having thus received some
exclusive information, had the generosity to publish a "favourable"
article!

Ah! had my beloved father only been alive then! How he would have swept
away this army of men who henceforth dogged my steps, hung pitilessly on
my heels and hounded me down--and this not because they thought me
guilty or innocent, not because they wished to assist me in finding the
murderers--as they one and all proclaimed, in spoken and in written
words (I possess all their letters in which I was naive enough to
believe)--but because I represented, in this age of sensation, that
priceless asset, "good copy." They did not stop to think whether they
were ruining me, sapping my health and my reason; it was nothing to them
that by causing me for nearly two years what they called, with supreme
jubilation, "The most talked of woman in the world," they inevitably
paved the way for exaggerations and misrepresentations, and excited
public opinion against me, for the world exaggerates what is bad rather
than what is good, and scandal and murder have an exciting smack and
flavour which noble qualities can never hope to possess. My intense love
for my mother, the help I had given my husband in his work, the long
weeks I had spent nursing him, the numberless services I had rendered
not only to the needy and the poor, not only to my family and my
husband's, but to friends, to important personages even, the
difficulties I had surmounted by sheer will-power and devotion, the good
side of my life, in short--all that was carefully ignored. Who wanted to
hear about such trifles!... No, no, what every man and every woman
wanted to find in the papers as soon as he or she got up in the morning
and whilst enjoying their breakfast was, "What has _she_ said? What has
she done?" And the public had to be catered for according to its taste.
Whether I had said or done nothing of the slightest importance did not
matter. Nothing was without importance. The most common-place remark can
be turned by a writer who knows his trade into a sensational, exclusive
and lengthy article!... And when no journalist could approach
me--well... they did not consider themselves beaten by such a trifle as
that: they turned, twisted, triturated the statements I had made
before--or was supposed to have made--until they could extract some
fresh substance, some further sensation, to throw to their hungry
readers.

The newspapers which showed themselves my worst and most unjust enemies
did not do so at all times; that I readily admit. And there were a few,
very few, journals who were impartial and fair to the end, among them
the _Liberte_ and the _Temps_. But what is one to think of a country
where newspapers are allowed to make almost any statements, whether only
partly true, or even not true at all, when _before and even during_ a
trial for murder they can, without being interfered with, deliberately
rouse public opinion against the accused person; call him or her an
assassin, discuss, analyse and comment, and make it difficult for a
jury, who leaves the court after each sitting and go home and read the
papers, to judge according to their conscience, however honest and
clear-minded they may be!

During those days of unspeakable grief and pain, whilst I slowly
recovered at the d'Arlons, my daughter was with me with her little
friend Marguerite Buisson; and several friends came to see and console
me, thank heaven!

The police came constantly. M. Pouce, one of the detectives, especially
asked me details about the jewels. A list of the stolen ones had to be
made, and I sent Marthe to the Impasse Ronsin to fetch all the
jewel-cases and whatever jewelry she could find in the secret recess in
the dining-room wall, so as to be able to make out the required list. I
had already enumerated the stolen jewels on May 31st, but only
approximately, of course.

On June 10th, Mariette came from Bellevue with a number of things which
I needed, and she also brought a small box containing the three rings
given me by my husband, a diamond crescent, and the "new art" ring. I
wanted these jewels to be safe in my keeping, for otherwise Marthe might
have found them, and knowing about the rings which I said had been
stolen, she would have asked questions which it would have been
difficult for me to answer without arousing her suspicions about one
side of my past life.

Two days later (June 12th) I sent for M. Souloy, the jeweller whom in
the old days I had entrusted with the work of making the talisman. I
wanted the rings to be altered, not only, of course, because I wanted to
give "new" jewels to my daughter, but chiefly now because having given
the list of the jewels without, for reasons I have explained, stating
that there were duplicates of them, it was indispensable that the rings
just brought from Bellevue should be made unrecognisable.

I did not realise at the time the danger of such a move and the serious
consequences it might--and did--entail. I had been told that public
opinion was against me; I did not quite understand what it meant. It did
not occur to me that people could believe I had strangled my mother and
my husband. How could such a monstrous idea have come into my head!...
My haunting thought was the love and esteem of my daughter, and,
therefore, it was urgent that the jewels should be transformed.

Oh! I know that all the troubles which ensued, that all the
complications and accusations about "the jewels" would have been avoided
if only I had said on the morning after the crime: "They have stolen my
mother's jewels--eleven in number." But no, I spoke the truth, never
realising until afterwards how involved and even dangerous matters would
become--I had spoken the truth. I said, after seeing the empty cases:
"They stole my jewels...." As I have explained, I did not know then that
murder had been committed. I thought the men in black gowns and the
red-haired woman had only come to steal; and it was no pleasant surprise
to find that these had disappeared, besides my mother's eleven jewels,
seven jewels of mine including three rings worth at least L60 each, and
a splendid diamond crescent worth quite L400.

M. Souloy came. I was ill, so ill that the doctors kept giving me
sea-water injections, but there was no time to lose. I handed M. Souloy
the jewels that Mariette had brought from Bellevue, and instructed him
to use the stones to make some rings for my daughter.

"I will, Madame," said M. Souloy. "Only, you understand that the
alterations will be shown in my books."

"Why, of course," I replied. "When I am better, I intend going to my
villa at Bellevue, and when the jewels are in their new form and ready,
you can send them to me there."

       *       *       *       *       *

I talked frequently with those around me about the mysterious tragedy.
Some suggested that M. de Balincourt might possibly know who the
culprits were; others told me that my valet probably knew a great deal
more than I thought about the fatal night. I heard all kinds of
arguments.... But I merely said: "If you have any proofs, if you are
convinced of this one's or that one's participation in the crime, go and
say so to the police...." Would that I had always been so circumspect!

Pierre Buisson came every day, but was not allowed to see Marthe, and my
poor child was bitterly grieved.... It was clear that the Buissons,
however devoted to me, were annoyed by my increasing notoriety--and how
could I blame them, although I certainly was not to blame for that
notoriety--and thought it wise that the engagement between their son and
my daughter should not be insisted upon until the murderers were
arrested, and the "Impasse Ronsin Mystery" solved and forgotten.

This separation, though merely temporary, was a new source of grief to
me; I had lost my mother whom I adored, my husband who had been a good
friend for nearly twenty years and for whom Marthe had a profound
affection, several newspapers were publishing articles on the "Murder
Mystery" which were full of almost transparent accusations against
me.... And now I had to watch my only child, my little Marthe, suffer in
her love, that pure and charming romance of hers, which reminded me of
my own short-lived engagement to Lieutenant Sheffer, in dear Beaucourt,
when I was Marthe's age!...

I begged Dr. Acheray to take me to Bellevue. It seemed to me that there,
in the country, away from Paris and alone with my daughter, I should
suffer less.... He agreed, and in the middle of June, that is, a
fortnight after the crime, I was taken in an ambulance to Vert-Logis.
There I stayed with Marthe, a nurse, and Mariette Wolff, the old cook.
At my request, two detectives lived and slept at Vert-Logis. I was
frightened, not without good reason, and wanted to feel protected. Also,
I wished those men to observe every one who came to see me. It might
prove useful....

Mariette loathed the police, and did not hesitate to say so. I myself
did not like to have those men in the house, but I thought that Marthe
and I were safer while they lived with us.

Meanwhile, the house in the Impasse Ronsin was in the care of the
_concierges_, and two detectives.

Every day, although I was far from well and still needed sea-water
injections, the detectives at work on the mystery came to me for further
information.

I did not feel happier at Bellevue. There can be no question of any
degree of happiness when one lives through such days as those I went
through at the time, but I certainly felt very hopeful, and I will now
say why.




CHAPTER XV

THE BLACK GOWNS


"An extraordinary event has taken place, a series of facts have been
discovered, every one of them of such importance in the 'Impasse Ronsin
Affair,' that the mystery is bound very soon to be cleared, and the
three men in the black gowns and the red-haired woman you saw that night
will be found and arrested.... We hold the clue of clues!"

These words were spoken to me at Bellevue on June 19th, 1908, three
weeks after the crime, by one of the inspectors who almost daily called
on me.

"What have you discovered, M. Pouce," I eagerly asked.

"I cannot, I must not tell you now. All I can say is that it is about
the black gowns worn by the murderers...."

"Have they been found? Have their owners been traced?..." I was frantic
with excitement.

"Madame, I am not allowed to speak on the matter. But I can tell you
this: Your troubles will soon cease and the murderers will be in our
hands.... Don't ask me any more questions. I cannot answer them. And now
will you kindly look at this photograph, and tell me if you see any one
there who reminds you... of some one."

The photograph represented a group of three persons: two men and a
woman. I seemed to recognise one of the men, a bearded person with sharp
shaped features and keen eyes.

"There is a striking likeness," I said, "between this man and the
red-bearded individual who on the night of May 30th-31st, stood near the
door of the corridor, in the room, and who never spoke."

M. Pouce showed his delight: "We are on the right track, madame," he
said in tones of great satisfaction. "I thought that was one of the
men." And once more he repeated: "We shall run the murderers down."

Inspector Pouce was mistaken and so was I--as I realised months
afterwards--the bearded man of the photograph was not one of the
murderers. He was Mr. Burlingham, an American journalist, and I will
deal in another chapter with the story of this false scent.

It was several weeks after the day when Inspector Pouce showed me the
photograph, that I learned all about the "extraordinary facts" which he
had not been at liberty to reveal to me before, the facts which had made
him assert that "the mystery would soon be unravelled."

When the reader has heard what those facts were he will not fail to
admit that Inspector Pouce was right to call them "extraordinary"; they
were indeed more than that; they were conclusive. Here they are:

_On Sunday_, _May 31st_, 1908, at about 10 P.M. a _controleur_ of the
Paris _Metropolitain_ (Underground) called Villemant, picked up in a
carriage of that railway two documents which had some connection the one
with the other.

One was a visiting card bearing the name of Mme. Mazeline, on which were
written the address of two wig-makers and of a _theatrical costumier
called Guilbert_, and a card of invitation to the exhibition of M.
Steinheil's paintings, in the Impasse Ronsin. The two were together on
the floor of the compartment, and had undoubtedly been lost by the same
individual.

M. Villemant also stated that the seat where he had found the two
documents "had just been left by a young man, wearing a smock; that he
appeared to be intoxicated, that he was playing with gold pieces, in his
purse, and that the carriage was a 'first-class' one!"

_Now, on May 30th, 1908, six hours before the murder, three black gowns
and a long black cloak similar in all ways to those worn by the three
men and the red-haired woman, which I had fully described, were stolen
from the "Hebrew Theatre" in Paris, and it was from the very M.
Guilbert whose name and address were scribbled on the card found in the
Underground together with the invitation card to M. Steinheil's
exhibition, that the three black gowns and the long black cloak had been
hired by the "Hebrew Theatre!_"

Why was I not told about all these important facts at once? Why did I
only hear of them weeks and weeks after they had taken place?... That
passes my understanding.

I grant that they could not be disclosed to the newspapers, for though
the Press is often very useful to the police--in giving the description,
for instance, or publishing the portrait of some wanted person--it must
be admitted that the publication of a clue which can be followed to a
successful issue only if the criminals are unaware of what is going
forward, is likely to defeat the object of the police.

Why this sensational discovery of the theft of the gaberdines, a few
hours before the murder, was not revealed to the newspapers, although
many published attacks--veiled and indirect but none the less
transparent--against me, such a revelation would of course have proved
my absolute innocence beyond all doubt. It seems to me an unpardonable
act of cruelty not to have informed me of this most essential
development in the mystery of the Impasse Ronsin. It might have been
necessary to swear me to secrecy, but was it not enough, in order to
ensure my complete discretion, to tell me that the clue would lose all
its value if I were in the least indiscreet! It might be objected that
the conduct of the police was no business of mine. But my circumstances
were unusual. Many newspapers were publishing articles which more or
less roused public opinion against me. My narrative of the fatal night
made thousands shrug their shoulders. It was "incredible" that men would
disguise themselves in the manner I had described... I had "invented"
this "fantastic account"... and so forth. Now, the discovery of the
theft--a few hours before the crime--of three black gowns which tallied
in every way with that which I had given of the costumes worn by the
murderers, completely vindicated me. And if the police did not wish to
inform the public of this startling fact, they ought at least to have
informed _me_, if only to give me the courage to withstand the dreadful
insinuations of certain journals; to bear with equanimity the ordeal of
all those suspicions in which I felt myself more and more enveloped. For
then I should have felt that the time would soon come when it would be
no longer against the interests of the public to let the whole world
know that I had spoken the truth, to acquaint the public with the
discovery of the theft at the Hebrew Theatre, and thus to proclaim my
innocence and put an end to all attacks and suspicions.

       *       *       *       *       *

Of the two cards so miraculously found by the Underground _controleur_
and handed by him to the police, one, as I have stated, was a card of
invitation to my husband's exhibition, and the other bore the name of a
certain Mme. Mazeline, and the addresses of two wig-makers and that of
M. Guilbert, a theatrical costumier.

Mme. Mazeline, a painter of repute, was then sixty-two, I had known her
well in the days of President Faure. She had resided many years at Le
Havre, Felix Faure's birth-place, and had been on terms of friendship
with Felix Faure and his family. She had begun painting a portrait of
the President in his studio at the Elysee, shortly before his death and
had to complete the portrait from memory. The portrait was shown at the
Salon.

Mme. Mazeline and I have never met since the death of the President.

Questioned about her card found in a carriage on the Underground, she
suggested that it might possibly be a card which many years before she
had given to some model, man or woman, who had kept it to use it as a
means of introduction to other artists. (She had written her address on
the card herself, in pencil.)

The other addresses on the card were those of the two wig-makers and
that of M. Guilbert. The investigations at the wig-makers yielded no
result. But when the inspector called on M. Guilbert his researches were
rewarded.

I had described the mysterious men and the woman first on the morning
of May 31st, 1908, a few hours after they had left my house--on June 1st
and again June 5th, when a detective wearing a black gown and hat was
paraded before me at Count d'Arlons, and I had described their attire as
follows: "The three men wore long black gowns, and the woman wore a
man's cloak, long and dark. The long black gowns with their flat, tight
sleeves reminded me of the _soutanes_ worn by Catholic priests; the hats
were felt hats with high crowns." As regards these hats--and the reader,
a little later, will realise the importance of the statement I made--the
report of the _Surete_ (Criminal Investigation Department) drawn up on
June 5th, contained this:

"_Concerning the hats, it is useful to recall that, on Monday, June 1st,
when Mme. Steinheil gave a description of the individuals whom she saw
on the night of May 30th-31st, she specified that the men did not wear
hats such as those usually worn by priests, but hats of black felt, the
brims of which, bent down, had appeared to her as wide and the crowns
higher and more pointed than the hats of ecclesiastics._"

And now that my description of the gowns and hats worn by the murderers
stands quite clearly before the reader's eyes, let us follow Inspector
Pouce to M. Guilbert, the costumier on the Boulevard St. Martin, where
he had gone in the hope of discovering a connection between the card and
the murder.

The Inspector found Mlle. Rallet, one of M. Guilbert's assistants.

What did Mlle. Rallet--to whose accurate book keeping and absolute
reliability, her employer paid a glowing tribute--have to say?

I can do no better than quote the evidence she gave, not only to the
Inspector, but to M. Hamard himself.

"This Wednesday, June 10, 1908, we, Gustave Hamard, Knight of the Legion
of Honour, head of the Criminal Investigation Department, continuing our
investigations, have heard, on oath, Mlle. Georgette Rallet... who has
declared:

'I have been employed since September 1907 by M. Guilbert.... My duties
are to receive customers and to record the despatch and return of all
goods. It goes without saying that I examine the goods when they are
returned as well as when they leave our premises. Our customers are
chiefly actors and actresses, and among them there is a Russian society,
which has its headquarters at the Eden Theatre (or Hebrew Theatre), 133
Rue Saint Denis. The orders of the society are given by M. Goldstein and
Feinberg, who are usually accompanied by Mlle. Jankel....

'The last time M. Goldstein, M. Feinberg, and Mlle. Jankel called was on
Wednesday, May 27th, the day before Ascension Day. They arrived between
3 and 4 P.M. It was Goldstein who addressed me, as usual, for Feinberg
only speaks German, Russian, and English. He ordered, for a play
entitled _Le Vice-Roi_ which was to be performed the following day, a
few Roman and Spanish costumes, and two gowns for priests.

'Between 7 and 8 P.M. the messenger delivered the costumes.... I
generally send, on the day after the performance, for the costumes we
have lent, but on May 29th I was too busy to do so. Besides, I intended
to have the costumes fetched back on the Monday, June 1st, together with
others which had been hired for the performance of Sunday, May 31st. For
M. Goldstein after giving his order for the _Vice-Roi_, which was to be
performed on the following day, had ordered four costumes for Jewish
priests for a play entitled _Cain and Abel_, which would be performed on
Sunday, May 31st.

'Now, on Saturday, May 30th, at 5.30 P.M., the messenger only took to
the Eden Theatre three gowns for Jewish priests, for Goldstein had
already received two previously....

'To sum up, on the evening of May 30th, the Eden Theatre had received
from us--by two deliveries--five black gowns, including another black
gown specially ordered by an actor, the other five being for supers. I
must add that on May 30th, at 4 P.M., Mlle. Jankel and an actor called
Hamburger came to order a black _soutane_ and a black _redingote_ which
were needed for the performance on that very evening.... After five
applications, I managed on the following Wednesday to have returned to
me, not all the costumes we had let, but only three of the gowns, the
_soutane_ and the _redingote_.

'There remains, therefore, in the hands of the Russian Society, three
black gowns belonging to us....'

      Signed           GEORGETTE RALLET.
                       O. HAMARD."

      (Extract from _Dossier_, Cote 662.)

Later, Mlle. Rallet gave further details to M. Hamard.

"... M. Goldstein, M. Feinberg, and Mlle. Jankel, on May 27th, tried on
a few of the costumes just ordered....

"There were twenty-seven parcels.... The costumes in those parcels had
been handed to me for checking before being packed, by M. Guilbert and
Riegel, a clerk.... Fremat, the messenger, placed the parcels in two
large baskets. In _another basket_, he placed the thirteen hats which
completed some of the costumes. After having filled the baskets and
secured them with rope, Fremat hired a barrow... loaded up, and left the
shop at about 8 P.M.

"On May 30th, M. Guilbert and Riegel packed eighteen costumes ordered
for the performance of May 31st. I checked the costumes which were
spread before me on the counter....

"On the following Wednesday, June 3rd, Fremat recovered possession of
the costumes ordered on the 27th. When I counted them, in the afternoon,
I found that _four were missing: the large black cloak and three
costumes of Jewish priests_...."

      (Quoted from _Dossier_, Cote 669.)

The Inspector, having discovered that three black gowns and a black
cloak had been let out by M. Guilbert to the Hebrew Theatre and not
returned to him, went, of course, straight to that theatre. I can
imagine the Inspector's feelings, and his thoughts. Would he find the
missing garments there? Had they merely been mislaid? Or had they been
_stolen_! And _when_? If they had been stolen on the 30th, a few hours
before the double murder, then, as he had said, he held the clue of
clues!

What did he hear at the theatre?--That the three black gowns and the
black cloak had been _stolen_.

Here again, I can do no better than quote from the _Dossier_, the
evidence given either to M. Hamard, Chief of the _Surete_, or to M.
Andre, the examining magistrate in charge of my case, _after_ I had been
arrested.

After confirming on every point the statements made by Mme. Rallet, M.
Goldstein stated, among other facts:

"None of the artists were told off to check the deliveries of costumes
made by the firm Guilbert, and the messenger was in the habit of placing
the baskets of costumes in the vestibule, near the box-office of the
Hebrew Theatre. Any one could easily make his way into the theatre, for
the door, opening inwards, had only to be pushed, and is never closed...

"For the performance of May 28th, all the costumes were there... But
things were different on May 31st. On that day at about 7 P.M., I opened
the basket which had been put down in the vestibule the day before, by
the messenger from Guilbert's. _The ropes of the basket were undone._ I
also found at once that, contrary to custom, _the costumes were in
disorder_. Feinberg, who was standing near me, told me that he had
noticed the same thing on the previous evening (May 30th)... At the
moment when every one had to put on his costume, we found that _the
gowns of the Jewish priests were missing_... M. Feinberg sent Gabriel,
the watchman of the theatre, to Guilbert's. But the shop was closed...

"... In spite of all our searches, throughout the theatre, it has been
impossible to trace the four missing costumes..."

      (_Dossier_, Cote 677.)

And M. Goldstein added, on another occasion, when asked for further
details:

"... The baskets were undone, and the lids were 'free.' The baskets
delivered by Guilbert's were always fastened with rope..."

      (_Dossier_, Cote 683.)

Finally, on March 2nd, 1909, M. Goldstein, once more interrogated, said
among other things:

"... Feinberg told me that on Saturday, May 30th, at 6.30 P.M., when he
looked for the various parts of the Hamlet costume, which he was to wear
at the matinee performance the next day, in the play _Queen Isabella_
and which he thought he would find in the basket, he had found what he
wanted, but had noticed that the basket was undone and that the contents
were overturned and in great disorder.

"It would be quite easy for any one to steal the gowns since the basket
was left in the corridor of the theatre at a time when we were all in
the _cafe_, and since the door had only to be pushed...."

      (_Dossier_, Cote 724.)

M. Feinberg corroborated all these statements; but the exact words he
used concerning the state of the basket from which the three black gowns
undoubtedly worn by the three murderers, and the long black cloak
undoubtedly worn by the red-haired woman, were stolen a few hours before
the crime, are worth quoting:

"I found that the contents of the basket were in disorder; the parcels,
which are usually packed with the greatest care by M. Guilbert's, were
undone and the various parts of the costumes were all mixed together. On
May 31st we were unable to find the three Jewish priests' gowns and the
garment which Guilbert's call a Russian cloak, and which we call a
'Pastor costume.'"

(_Dossier_, Cote 676.)

The three gowns and the dark cloak were never found again. And Mlle.
Rallet, basing her claim _on the entries in her books_, sent a
registered letter (on June 9th, 1908) demanding the return of those
garments or the payment of a sum of money--which she duly
quoted--representing their value.

Thus three black gowns and one black cloak had really been stolen in the
corridor of the Hebrew Theatre on May 30th, 1908. And the times when
those costumes were stolen is easy to calculate. The basket which
contained them was delivered at 6 P.M. M. Feinberg found it "undone and
in great disorder" at 8.30 P.M. There had been no one present when the
messenger had put down the basket. There had been no one in the corridor
of the theatre between 6 and 8.30 P.M.--the whole staff was "at the
_cafe_," chatting, or dining... And the door needed only to be pushed!

Does it require a great stretch of imagination--not to believe in the
theft, for it is impossible not to believe in it--to admit that the
gowns worn by the four persons whom I saw in my room on the fatal night
were the identical ones that had been stolen from the Hebrew Theatre?

If coincidence be called upon to explain things, let the sceptics turn
to my description of the appearance of those persons--the criminals.

Let us suppose I had said, for instance, that the gowns had collars or
that the sleeves were wide and loose... Then my description would not
have exactly tallied with that of the stolen gowns. But no; I did not
mention collars. I _did_ say that the sleeves were tight-fitting, and in
every detail my description corresponded to that which M. Guilbert
himself would have given of the gown and the cloak he sent to the Hebrew
Theatre for the performance of May 31st. Better than that, when Mlle.
Rallet, on December 26th, 1908, was once more asked to describe the
stolen gown, she declared--as I had done in the case of the gowns worn
by the murderers--that those supplied by her firm had "flat and tight
sleeves"!

If I had invented the amazing scene, I might have said that there were
four men in black gowns, but no. I declared that there had been three
men in black gowns and one woman in a dark cloak. And three gowns and
one cloak had been stolen!

I will go even further to meet the doubts and questions of the sceptic.

Had I invented this "tale," as M. Andre called it, how could I have
imagined that the three men wearing black ecclesiastical gowns, had
_not_ worn black ecclesiastical hats? Surely coincidences have limits. I
said that the men wore "felt hats with high, pointed crowns"--not
ecclesiastical hats. And the ecclesiastical hats which belonged to the
stolen gowns were found in their separate baskets--a small basket; and
M. Goldstein declared: "We generally put the hats aside; we hide them so
as to prevent the performers from choosing among them just as they
please."

There can be no longer any question of coincidence. There cannot exist
one single human being endowed with the most ordinary amount of common
sense who could or would deny, after the fact which I have quoted from
evidence given to the head of the _Surete_ and to the magistrate in
charge of my case, that suspicions or attacks against me should not have
been allowed to go on, and that it was quite unpardonable to dare accuse
me of having murdered my husband and my mother.

Among the thousand and one anonymous letters I received later on, there
was one written by some one who had realised the whole importance of the
stolen gowns as a proof of my complete innocence. But in his--or
her--desire to prove to me that I was a murderess, the anonymous writer
explained: "You stole the gowns yourself or had them stolen by some
one!" The prosecution possibly thought the same, but never expressed the
thought, for its absurdity was, of course, obvious.

The prosecution, however, wanted to find me guilty even on the fact of
such an overwhelming proof of my innocence.

Will the reader now hear how the prosecution dealt with this _affaire
des levites_, as it was called? Here are the very words used in the
indictment on this matter:

"_A strange circumstance_ revealed by the witness Villemant _had made it
possible to believe for one moment that the narrative of the 'accused'
concerning the men in the black gowns could have some character of
likelihood_...."

After a rapid survey of the evidence given by M. Villemant, Mme.
Mazeline, and M. Guilbert... the indictment says:

"The evidence thus gathered seemed likely to throw some doubt on the
judicial _instruction_, and to lend some truth to Mme. Steinheil's
narrative. But... firstly, it is certain that the disappearance of the
ecclesiastical gowns was only noticed on the evening of May 31st--that
is, several hours after the crime. Secondly, the ecclesiastical hats
were never lost and have been found. Now, Mme. Steinheil has stated that
the criminals wore hats which harmonised with their costumes.... It is,
therefore, necessary to wave aside that fable and to note an unimportant
coincidence between the thefts of the gowns and the crime of May
31st...."

Could anything be more revolting in its absolute lack of good faith! For
surely the prosecution had read the evidence of the various witnesses
and was bound to know, firstly, that the black gowns were stolen, _not
after_ the crime, _but before_ the crime, on May 30th, as the evidence
of M. Feinberg and Goldstein established beyond discussion; secondly,
that the report of the Criminal Investigation Department itself, dated
June 5th, 1908, contained this sentence, which I have already quoted:

"Concerning the hats, it is useful to recall that on Monday, June 1st,
when Mme. Steinheil gave a description of the individuals whom she saw
on the night of May 30th-31st, she specified that:

"'The men did not wear hats such as those usually worn by priests, but
hats of black felt, the brims of which, bent down, had appeared to her
as wide and the crowns higher and more pointed than the hats of
ecclesiastics.'"

      (_Dossier_, Cote 914.)

In spite of the prosecution and its wilful blindness to all the proofs
of my innocence, the jury of the Paris Assize Court, in November 1909,
after I had spent a whole year in prison, saw the truth and acquitted
me.

In my heart I have often blessed the honest and zealous Underground
_employe_ who handed the cards he had found to the police. There can be
no doubt that the "stolen black gowns" helped the jurors to understand
that I had spoken the truth, and could not have murdered my husband and
my mother. And I have often blessed the memory of my father, too. For
had he not taught me to observe and see at a glance the main lines, the
striking or essential parts of a person or object? And how without that
training of the eye and mind could I have noticed and remembered on that
night of terror the principal points of the murderers' attire?




CHAPTER XVI

INVESTIGATIONS


A curious thing happened while I was at Bellevue. I received from my
notary, who had received it from the judicial authorities, a package
which contained a number of things found at my house: a few letters from
President Faure, some letters from M. B., and the President's talisman!
If these objects are returned to me, I thought, it is evidently because
it is not desired that anything concerning the late President of the
Republic and the Attorney-General be brought up in the "Affair of the
Impasse Ronsin." This impression was right, as will be fully realised
later on. Every phase of my past life, from my earliest years to the
date of the mysterious murder, was investigated, _except_ my relations
with magistrates and with President Faure.

The circle of my friends was daily growing smaller, which was perhaps
only human, since I was in trouble. I still received many letters from
friends and acquaintances, but they were every day fewer in number. And
their tone grew less sympathetic, their style more formal.... Soon no
letters reached me at all. No one seemed to remember me, not even the
few friends in whom I had absolute confidence, and I painfully repeated
to myself a saying of my mother's: "A friend who ceases to be a friend
never was a friend."

Letters, however, kept pouring into the letter-box of Vert-Logis. But
they were all anonymous letters, a few threatening me or calling me a
criminal, the others denouncing as the authors of the double-murder, my
cook, Mariette, her son, Alexandre Wolff, my valet, Remy Couillard and
others. The letters gave me all kinds of "information" about their past
life and doings, suggested theories of the crime that were so crowded
with details that one might have thought the writers had been present
when it was committed. I burnt them all, except a few, which, when I was
not too ill, I read and re-read, with an interest that became almost
morbid.... They haunted me, some of those letters, and I lived in an
atmosphere of suspicion that was painful and distractful.

Couillard was at Bellevue. Naturally enough he had not wanted to remain
at the house in the Impasse Ronsin. He was nervous, trembling,
frightened of everybody and everything, and was a pitiful object to look
at.... I pitied him... and I pitied myself.

Marthe was with me, and her presence, her solicitude, her love, enabled
me to bear my cross. At the same time, I remembered the Inspector's
startling promises, and the words spoken both by M. Leydet and M.
Hamard: "Be patient... we will find them...."

Doctor Regal--appointed by the authorities--came on June 26th with
Inspector Pouce to see if I were strong enough to bear the journey from
Bellevue to Boulogne (on the Seine). It appeared that M. Leydet was
compelled, on account of the public feeling against me, to ask me
further questions, in the presence this time of M. Grandjean,
_substitut_ of the _Procureur de la Republique_. The new examination
would take place at the house of M. Brouard, the husband of M.
Steinheil's sister Marguerite, whom the reader perhaps remembers as the
lady who received me in Paris, when I returned from my wedding-trip.

I was only too anxious to assist the law in its investigations, and I
consented to go to Boulogne--where I was to be kept from 1 P.M. till
late in the evening! The nurse, who had accompanied us, of course, had
to give me occasional doses of ether to enable me to breathe, and to
reply to the questions I was asked. Marthe and M. Boeswilwald were in
the next room, for serious fears were entertained that I might utterly
collapse. I spent several long hours lying full length on a stretcher
placed on the floor. The nurse remained near me.

I was asked the most fantastic questions by M. Leydet and M.
Grandjean.... But here again I will quote from the _dossier_ the
questions and my answers.

I pass over the questions about the gate and the doors of the Impasse
Ronsin, the story of the key lost by Couillard, and of the return of the
dog he had borrowed, the story of my husband's revolver which Couillard
did not hand back to M. Steinheil, and which was found in his apron, and
of our delayed departure for Boulogne on account of my mother's
ill-health.... These points have already been dealt with. I had nothing
to add to my first statements. But here are some new questions, and my
replies.

_Question._ "According to what you told us on the morning after the
crime, the criminals appearing suddenly before you, in the middle of the
night, in your daughter's room, which you were occupying, took you for
your daughter. There is no doubt that you were then in a room which was
evidently that of a young girl, and that you were in your daughter's
bed, but we cannot conceal from you that the criminals' mistake is open
to scepticism."

_Answer._ "I can only repeat the words that were spoken to me and which
implied that mistake. I may add that my face was in repose, that my hair
was loose, and merely held by a ribbon of blue satin, and was spread
around my head. I wore no jewels, no rings, no wedding-ring. All these
were left in the dressing-room--and were stolen. I wore a plain
night-dress of pale blue _linon_. It has frequently happened in society
that I was taken for my daughter's elder sister. Believe me, there is no
question of coquetry in this. If I tell you all this, it is merely
because you ask me to reply to those who are sceptical. I am slender, I
lost much weight last winter, about thirty pounds, during my
illness--gastro-enteritis. Although the criminals had two dark-lanterns,
the scene lasted so short a time that they certainly had not much time
to examine me carefully. Everything took place with fantastic
rapidity...."

_Question._ "Whatever the acts of violence you had to suffer that night
(blows, gags, and ropes round neck, hands and feet) it may appear
possible that the criminals spared your life. This has given rise to
various rumours. It seems difficult to admit that the criminals allowed
a young lady--or rather the person whom they took for a
seventeen-year-old young lady--that is, a most dangerous witness, to
survive. Unless the chief of the gang yielded to a feeling of pity,
which, by the way, is sometimes met with among hardened criminals, then
another explanation must be found. Here is one which has been
suggested--and it compels me to ask you a 'delicate' question. Suppose
that in a moment of weakness you had relations with a man of doubtful
morality, who, at some time might be capable of burglary and 'plunder
and violence,' in order to obtain money. Suppose that man entering at
night into your house, finding it inhabited contrary to his
expectations; suppose that man, suddenly finding himself in your
presence and, as far as you are concerned, not daring to go as far as
murder, because of 'the past'--would you not have hesitated to denounce
him?"

_Answer._ "I swear to you by all that I hold most sacred, on my poor
dead mother and husband, on the head of my little Marthe, that I never
had the 'weakness' you refer to in your most painful question. Even
though I had been deceived by appearances, I should not hesitate,
however painful it might be, to denounce the man."

_Question._ "The cord--three metres in length--with which your husband
was strangled has been compared with and found similar to a ball of cord
which was found in a basket in the cupboard of the pantry. Have you any
interesting remarks to make on that matter?"

_Answer._ "All I can say is that the ball you mention was blind-cord and
was used for various purposes in the house. Some was used at the time of
the exhibition of paintings which took place in the 'winter garden.' I
have no recollection of any piece of cord that might have been left
somewhere in the rooms."

      (_Dossier_, Cote 79.)

This _Cote_ 79 contained only sixteen foolscap pages, and they represent
the gist of an examination which lasted several hours! There were
frequent interruptions, when I felt so ill that the woman had to come
and give me ether.... Part of the examination was what I can only call
conversation. I did my best to call the attention of M. Leydet to M. de
Balincourt, to the "mysterious German," to the various men who had come
into my husband's life during the weeks immediately preceding the crime.

I remember the judge telling me: "You don't mention Couillard. It looks
as if you were protecting him...." And I replied: "Some tell me
Couillard 'must know something,' others assert that he is absolutely
innocent... I have nothing to say. Let the law make investigations,
discover the truth and arrest the murderers...."

I was greatly surprised when Couillard was sent for. I admit the
anonymous letters had had some influence on me, and that I had certain
suspicions against Couillard, but of late they had vanished. I thought
only of the "clue of clues," of the man whose photographs had been shown
me (Mr. Burlingham).

When I returned to Bellevue it was very late. Couillard had left for
Boulogne. He returned at 1.30 A.M.

During the following days the detectives came just as often as before.
They did not seem, however, to make much progress in the "case."

Mariette was still with me, and was as devoted as ever, to say the
least. Her son, Alexandre, a horse-dealer, whom I had known when he was
a mere lad, came twice to Bellevue. He was better dressed than usual and
seemed to roll in money. I mention the two details because they were
also mentioned in the anonymous letters I received, and because, five
months later, and in circumstances which I will fully describe, I
accused Alexandre Wolff.

As for Couillard, I no longer required his services now that my life was
so completely changed, and I sent him to a motor-car garage to learn to
be a chauffeur.

M. Souloy brought me the altered jewels. I gave one of the "new" rings
(sapphire and diamonds) to Marthe, and kept the others.

The Inspector continued his assurances that they would soon arrest the
murderers. They had fresh clues, they were on the right track.... All
would soon be well.... But nothing happened, and I hoped and waited in
vain....

Towards the end of July I felt a little stronger and could walk about. I
asked a doctor to allow me to go to Normandy with Marthe. He said a
change would do me much good. I left Bellevue and went to stay at
Louvieres (Calvados) with some friends who ran their own farm. Their
daughter was an intimate friend of Marthe, who was, of course, with me.
For a whole month we led the simple life. There were no detectives
around me. I avoided reading the newspapers. The country people, who
knew who I was, were kind and sympathetic, and Marthe and I breathed
again. It was as if we were at last allowed to live, to be like all
other human beings, and we blessed those good friends who had invited us
to spend a few weeks with them in happy and beautiful Normandy.

After a time, however, when the meadows seemed less green, the sky less
blue and the air less exhilarating than during the first days after our
arrival at Louvieres, the nightmare once more beset me.... Once more I
thought of the night of terror, of the murderers... who were at large. I
wanted to avenge the dead, and I wanted to put an end once and for all
to all the dreadful suspicions against me which had sprung up everywhere
because... the murderers had spared me. My unpardonable sin was to be
alive! If I was not a murderess, why did I not prove it?... That is what
I had heard, and read, alas!...

And I wondered, wondered, wondered what the police were doing! I
received letters in which I was told that the _Affaire of the Impasse
Ronsin_ was being "_classee_," that is put aside, abandoned, given
up.... And at the same time I heard public opinion was still against me.
One letter written in vulgar slang and forwarded from Paris, said "You
are the assassin; only, as you are highly connected (_comme vous
connaissez des gens de la haute_) the police are not doing what they
would do in the case of any poor wretch.... You coward, you have gone
and hidden yourself in the country!..." Even the two or three "former"
friends who occasionally wrote to me, gave me to understand that the
pleasant relations, the friendship of the old days, would be impossible
"until the murderers had been arrested." As if I knew where they were!
As if I had only to call them or point to them and have them arrested!
As if I were not more anxious than any one on earth to know who were the
murderers of my husband and my mother!...

There are mental pains which are almost unbearable, and none greater
perhaps than to see the being one loves best in all the world suffer
near you.... Marthe, brave little girl that she was, tried to smile so
as to give me courage to live. We spent long hours, under a tree or in
the fields... in silence. I watched her, so worn, so pale, her pallor
heightened by her mourning dress, her head bent down, her eyes filled
with tears which she dared not shed. She knew my thoughts, and I knew
hers. Her mind was in Paris.... She thought of her father, of her
grandmother... and of Pierre, her _fiance_, her lover, who no longer
wrote... who would never write to her again, until the murderers were
arrested. Not that he believed I was guilty, but probably because, like
his parents, he dreaded Public Opinion....

And as I turned and turned these thoughts over in my distracted mind, I
grew more and more resolute.... Public Opinion, indeed! Well, I would
face it! I would go to the bitter end--and the end was bitter, my
God!--I would look for those assassins, who after making two victims
were now claiming two more, my child and myself, I would hunt them down,
and if the Law were reluctant or disheartened, if the Law refused to go
on with the search, I would force the Law to do its duty....

A letter came, at that moment, a letter from M. Marcel Hutin, a
journalist on the staff of the _Echo de Paris_ and the friend of a
friend of mine. He told me that most people were still against me, and
that he had placed himself entirely at my disposal.

I wrote a long letter to Maitre Antony Aubin, entreating him to reproach
the authorities for their apathy....

A little pacified, I tried to forget my trial, and, knowing that the
best antidote to haunting thoughts and fixed ideas is work, I started
with Marthe's assistance to decorate the whole house of our host and
hostess.... We painted ornaments, huge decorative flowers, altered the
appearance of the rooms, and even improved the gardens....

Sometimes we went to the seaside, or made an excursion to some beauty
spot in Normandy. Once again I began to "forget." This country life was
beautiful and simple. I thought of Beaucourt, and, as I watched Marthe,
I said to myself: "How my father would have loved her!" The sorrow
written in such pathetic lines on her sweet face--so young and fresh
that it should not as yet have shown care or pain--made me ashamed to
think of my own overwhelming grief. Seeing that the simple healthy life
we led did us much good, our friends suggested that we should take half
their house, and settle down permanently in Normandy....

But Marthe shook her little head. She longed to return to Paris, to see
Pierre at all costs, to hear his voice.... And I was more than anxious
to go on with the Impasse Ronsin affair--to press inquiries, to trace
the murderers, to solve that mystery which was ruining my child's
happiness, and which made me the most miserable and most unjustly abused
creature in the world....

With all my heart I thanked our friends. Our stay with them if it had
not cured our minds, had strengthened our bodies, and Marthe and I had
both known many an hour of comforting peace.

At the end of August we left Louvieres and returned to Bellevue. We
would not go to the Impasse Ronsin yet, for the house was in the hands
of the builders, who were dividing it, so that I could let a part of it,
as well as the vast studio.

M. and Mme. Buisson came to Vert-Logis, but not often, and Marthe saw
her Pierre....

The visits of Inspectors began again. It was chiefly Inspector Pouce who
came to see me. I had been keenly interested in the "Burlingham" clue,
and I asked what had been discovered during the month I had been away.
The Inspector replied that all was well, that matters were very
hopeful... and it was then that the all-important facts of the two
cards in the Underground, and of the stolen gowns, were revealed to me.

The "Burlingham" clue had been arrived at in this way:

On May 27th, when M. Goldstein, M. Feinberg and Mlle. Jankel had called
at Guilbert's to order a number of costumes for the Hebrew Theatre,
there had been present in the shop some fifteen to twenty persons, among
whom was Mr. Burlingham with some of his friends. It was M. Goldstein
and Mlle. Jankel who said this. I may add that M. Goldstein also said
that he believed that later he had seen Burlingham leaving the
Underground, at the _Gare du Nord_, and that he had followed the
red-bearded man early in June, but had lost sight of him. "The man
carried a football bag," M. Goldstein added.

The Inspector procured a photograph which represented Mr. Burlingham, a
friend of his, and a woman. He showed it to me at Bellevue on June 19th,
and I remarked that the bearded man in that photograph looked very much
like the red-bearded man I had seen on the night of the crime.

The Inspector gave me many curious details about Mr. Burlingham and his
friends: they mixed with all kinds of strange people, they walked about
wearing sandals, and used long sticks very much like the alpenstock
found near my husband's body!

The apparently very interesting Burlingham clue had no value whatever.

I hasten to add that it was afterwards established beyond a shadow of
doubt that at the time of the crime Mr. Burlingham, who had left Paris
on May 22nd on a tramp to Switzerland with a friend, was at Montbard, in
Burgundy, a small city which he left for Dijon the next morning.

But this entirely convincing alibi had not been established when
Inspector Pouce--who, I really admit, did his utmost in this case and
spared no effort to trace the murderers--explained to me the importance
of the Burlingham clue.

I did not start these investigations about Mr. Burlingham. I was shown a
photograph in which he appeared, and I merely said: "This bearded man
looks very much like the red-bearded man I saw on the fatal night!" I
was told that the clue was a conclusive one, and I was, naturally
enough, inclined to believe it.

At the _Surete_ when the photograph of Mr. Burlingham was shown to me
once more, and I was asked: "Is that the man?" I replied (I quote the
very words I used): "If my assertion alone was to bring about the arrest
of the man whose photograph you are showing me, and whom otherwise I
don't know, I would certainly never dare make such an assertion.... But
I am very much struck by the likeness."

_I was asked_ to disguise myself, and to accompany the detectives, who
would show me Mr. Burlingham without my being recognised by him. Once I
wrapped myself in an ample cloak; another time I had to put on a short
skirt that considerably changed my appearance. We followed Mr.
Burlingham on foot and in a carriage....

We went several times to Paris for the purpose of my identifying him. I
remember seeing him leaving his house near the Gare Montparnasse, I
believe, and I found that he was very like the red-bearded man I had
seen on the night of the double murder "near the door, frightened and
dumb." On another occasion we saw him, from our carriage, in front of
the School of Fine Arts. At that time I still had my full reason and was
incapable of accusing any one without absolute proofs of their guilt....

But my mind was at work.

Mr. Burlingham was "shown" to me again.... Later, the _Matin_ arranged
that I should see him at their offices in the Boulevard Poissonniere....
Through a door left slightly open for the purpose I saw the
"red-bearded" man. I "recognised" him, but not absolutely.

Then, once more, I was called to the _Surete_, and there, after so many
meetings with the red-bearded man, I said that I unhesitatingly
recognised him as one of the men I had seen on the fatal night.... Is it
really very much to be wondered at that I did...?

The most wonderful thing about this, as my able counsel Maitre Antony
Aubin exclaimed at my trial, "is not that Mme. Steinheil _then_
'recognised' Mr. Burlingham, but that she did not 'recognise' him
before."

       *       *       *       *       *

I returned to Bellevue. The inspectors and detectives all told me: "Be
brave! We are nearing the goal!" And I believed them. We are always so
ready to believe what we long for.

Whilst firmly believing in the Burlingham clue, I was utterly bewildered
by the contents of the anonymous letters I received. Most of them
mentioned Couillard, Mariette, and Wolff. A few denounced M. de
Balincourt, and, I need hardly add, several denounced... me. A large
proportion of these letters were actually brought by hand to Bellevue
and dropped, probably by the writers themselves, into my letter-box. The
average number was twelve to fifteen a day.... In Paris, a few weeks
later, the number rose to thirty or forty.

I read every one of these letters. In any one of them I might find a
clue, a useful suggestion, perhaps the whole truth, and I could not
afford to neglect this correspondence, disheartening though it was....

Day after day the detectives came and told me of what was going on.
Journalists called... and each had his theory, which he propounded with
the confidence and eloquence of those who deal in theories only. Had I
listened to everybody I should have denounced at least one hundred
persons as being the murderers! The majority mentioned Couillard and
Wolff, and as the days went by these two names became more and more
deeply engraven on my mind. Alas! all these suggestions were, a few
weeks later, to hypnotise me to such an extent that, without more proofs
than mere circumstantial evidence, and the denunciations anonymous
writers afforded, I accused first Couillard and then Wolff of being the
criminal.

Mme. Buisson rarely came to Bellevue now. Pierre came to see Marthe,
secretly, from time to time, and held a pistol to my head when he told
me in his usual weak, timid and despondent manner, that the murderers
would have to be found, or else it would be impossible for him to marry
Marthe! An extraordinary dilemma!... This absurd condition revolted my
daughter so much that her love for Pierre received a decisive blow, and,
burying her head against my breast she cried: "Is that real love?" and
burst into sobs.

       *       *       *       *       *

Meanwhile, the inspectors were at war with each other, as most
inspectors are, or so I have since been told. Each had _his_ clue, and
derided the clues of his colleagues. But what was worse than that, some
were for, and some against me!

One morning, an able investigator who knew exactly what was going on at
the _Surete_, and in whom I had the greatest confidence, entered the
room at Vert-Logis, where I was sitting with Marthe by my side. He was
as white as a sheet.... "Madame," he stammered, "I don't know what
underlies this affair, but it seems quite hopeless, things are at an
absolute standstill.... The Burlingham clue is given up. It has been
established that Mr. Burlingham was far away from Paris at the time of
the murder. The 'stolen gowns' remains, of course, as undeniable proof
of your innocence, and I still believe that some day the murderers may
be arrested, but the case is all over so far as the _Surete_ is
concerned.... Ah! If only the 'stolen gowns' clue had been fully
investigated _at once_!... It is so obvious that it provided the only
way to the solution of the mystery.... The Impasse Ronsin murder case is
_classe_!"

I had more than once complained of the apparent lack of activity and
zeal on the part of the authorities, but I could not believe that it had
been decided to abandon the whole affair.... I was amazed and pained....
Naturally, I asked the reason for this sudden breaking off of the
investigations. No doubt my imagination erred, but in these pages I
describe all my thoughts, and it seemed to me that in some way it had
been discovered that the main object of the criminals was to get
possession of the documents. Perhaps only one of the three men in the
black gowns knew about them, and he had let the others steal the money
and the jewels.... That one of the men had known of the documents could
not be doubted, for he had demanded them, and I believe that the
authorities having at last somehow discovered that there was what one
may call a political side to the Impasse Ronsin mystery, were not
anxious to go on with the investigations, which, if the whole affair was
unravelled, might eventually prove a source of much unpleasantness and
embarrassment to certain officials.... Or perhaps--for I went as far as
that in my eagerness to solve the problem--the authorities knew all the
time the secret of the strange affair, and had made some inquiries,
reluctantly, and only for the sake of appearances.... But now, they had
had enough and they wished to drop the matter altogether.... A rather
wild surmise.... Perhaps they seriously thought that I was guilty, but
being unable to establish a strong enough case against me, wanted to
give up the whole affair, rather than waste time on investigations which
would necessarily be fruitless, since, in their minds I had committed
the murder! (That is, had strangled my mother and my husband, concealed
the jewels and the money, ransacked the drawers, put everything into
confusion, splashed ink on the floor, and then gagged and bound myself,
hands, feet and body!)...

The truth is I did not know what to think.... But one thing I knew, and
it was this: Three men in black gowns and a red-haired woman had been in
my house on the night of May 30th-31st, 1908; they had stolen my money
and jewels, and they had murdered my husband and my mother.

Those four persons were somewhere in the world, and, for my daughter's
sake and my own, as well as in vindication of the law, I would find
them.




CHAPTER XVII

THE THRONE-ROOM


At the end of October--on the 25th, I believe--we left Bellevue, Marthe
and I, and returned to Paris, to the house in the Impasse Ronsin. The
chief alterations were completed, but there was still a great deal to do
in the way of decoration, plumbing, and so on, and the workmen came
every day.

I had been told the only way to stimulate investigations was to let the
Press take the matter in hand.... But before I did that I wished to make
one more attempt at interesting the law in the Impasse Ronsin case.

I called on the _Procureur de la Republique_, who was then M. Monnier,
at the Palace of Justice. Marthe accompanied me, and was present at the
interview, which I will relate with _absolute_ accuracy. M. Monnier, a
very small man, with an expressionless face, and eyes that seemed to
avoid meeting the eyes of those who addressed him, asked me what I
wished.

"I have come," I began, "to entreat you to give orders for the various
clues not to be abandoned, but followed up with the utmost vigour...."

The _Procureur_ seemed quite surprised. Then, without hesitation, and in
a lordly and lazy tone which clearly meant, "This affair does not
interest me in the least," he replied: "Madame, we are following up some
clues.... There's the Noretti clue--a friend of Mr. Burlingham--for
instance.... That person is in Nice.... If you want us to go on with
that clue it would be better for you to go to Nice yourself... and pay
your expenses, of course...."

I started and said: "What! I should pay to assist the law in tracing
the murderers!... Why! I have spent enough money as it is.... Even when
I was asked to go to Boulogne for that examination--which you know I
might have refused to go through, because of the state of my health--I
had to pay about one hundred francs out of my own pocket for the
motor-ambulance which took me!"...

The _Procureur_ then said: "I should not mention Boulogne, if I were
you.... Do you know that I prevented your arrest that day?"...

I could hardly believe what I heard. His cold hard words and tone stung
me into revolt, and I exclaimed: "I wish I had been arrested. There was
and there is nothing against me. You would have had to release me almost
immediately. I should have been vindicated, and all attacks would have
ceased.... You know there exists nothing against me!"...

"That's just why I prevented your arrest, Madame."

What could I reply to that. I shrugged my shoulders and waited. The
_Procureur_ pursued: "Really, why don't you keep quiet.... I fail to see
what you expect of life!... You have your daughter, you have still a few
friends.... What more do you want!... Also I read in the _New York
Herald_ that you are going to let part of your house--to wealthy
Americans, I presume?"...

"Do you waste your time, then, reading 'apartment' advertisements,
_Monsieur le Procureur_?" I remarked.... "As a matter of fact, I am
trying to let part of my house, but I have found no tenant yet.... There
are other people I am more anxious to find: the murderers.... Public
rumours, as you are well aware, give out that I am the guilty person,
and this must cease. The law must do its duty...."

Once again M. Monnier's eyebrows went up in surprise. He sighed, and
then, looking not at me but at my daughter, he replied, in the same
hopelessly slow and bored tone: "We do our very best, Madame, I assure
you.... I can only say you have the affection of your daughter, a few
friends, a pretty house, enough to live upon.... What more do you
want?... Really, really, you should never expect too much of life."

Indignant, I arose and, followed by Marthe, I walked to the door. There
I turned and retorted: "No, I am not satisfied. I do expect more of
life--above all, more justice. My daughter's life, my own, are being
ruined because you don't care to find the murderers. I shall go on
trying to trace them, even though the law, for some reason that I
ignore, is not inclined to search for them. You cannot deny, sir, that
certain clues have not been followed up as rapidly and as thoroughly as
they should have been."

Thereupon I left the room with my daughter.

My first remark applied, as the reader has no doubt guessed, to the
"stolen gowns." Who could deny that had something been done _at once_,
there would have been a great chance of tracing and arresting the
criminals? I do not say that it would have been an easy matter to watch
every person connected with the Hebrew Theatre, or to find out all who
were sufficiently conversant with the ways of the theatre to have been
likely to steal the three gowns and the cloak which a few hours later
were worn by the three men and the red-haired woman! But, whether an
easy or a difficult task, it ought at least to have been attempted--and
_at once_. The crime took place on May 30th-31st, 1908; the two cards
which led to the discovery that three gowns and one cloak had been
stolen from the Hebrew Theatre, were found in the Underground on the
next day, May 31st. Only on the 10th of June were M. Guilbert, and Mlle.
Rallet, M. Goldstein, M. Feinberg and others connected with the Hebrew
Theatre interrogated.... After that, nothing was done--except following
the Burlingham and Noretti clues which were an indirect outcome of the
affair of the stolen gowns--although one would think that any normal
mind would have thought that those stolen gowns held the key to the
whole mystery! It was only _after_ my arrest, in December 1908, and
during the early months of 1909, that, obviously in the hope of
destroying the importance of the "stolen gowns" affair, the various
witnesses connected with it were re-examined!... But what was the use of
these investigations, seven to ten months _after_ the discovery of the
theft--a discovery which exhibited beyond a shadow of doubt that my
account of the tragedy was accurate? The three men and the red-haired
woman were, of course, by that time out of reach.

Here let me quote some remarks made by Maitre Antony Aubin at the trial,
on the subject of the law's unpardonable lack of enterprise in the
matter of the stolen gowns: "What I regret is that, during the first
days which followed the crime, the police did not make full
investigations--by order of the judge in charge of the murder
case--among those chorists of all nationalities in this cosmopolitan
group. What I regret is that this group, the most international one
conceivable--and therefore the most elusive was not carefully 'sifted,'
what I regret is that these nomads were allowed, during the first days
of June, to scatter themselves abroad without interference. What I
regret above all is that after so slight a search--nay, no search at
all, at a time when the mystery could have been cleared up, the
unfortunate woman was mercilessly tortured.... How she is to be pitied,
this poor woman, borne down under the weight of so many suspicions when
_thorough_ and _immediate_ investigations might have led to the
discovery of those who murdered her husband and her mother. Had it then
been forgotten that, not only did she give an exact description of the
stolen costumes, but that she had even mentioned the foreign accent of
one of the assassins and the Italian accent of the woman! Now, go and
try, throughout the world, to trace the wretches!"

And Maitre Aubin, with relentless logic, added: "It would be rash to
assert that the criminals should not have been looked for outside the
staff of the Hebrew Theatre. Could they not have been amongst the group
of fifteen to twenty persons--artists' models, Montmartre types--who,
according to Mlle. Rallet, were at Guilbert's on the day when the
costumes were hired, on May 27th? Could not the order given that day
have been overheard, the messenger followed on the Saturday to the
theatre, where you (gentlemen of the jury) know how robbery, undeniably
the preface to the crime, was easy for any one. And could not this 'any
one' be found amongst the mixed crowd, chiefly composed of foreigners,
attending the performances at the Hebrew Theatre?"

[Illustration: A VIEW OF THE HOUSE IN THE IMPASSE RONSIN

The ten-foot windows of the studio only visible]

After the interview with M. Monnier, the Attorney-General, I returned
home, to the Impasse Ronsin, with Marthe. For many hours I turned the
problem over and over in my mind, and all the time I heard the words of
the _Procureur_: "You have your daughter, a few friends, a nice house...
what more do you want!"... Oh, that attitude of bored superiority and
indifference! Oh, the condescending _blase_, supercilious manner in
which I had been told: "We do our very best, I assure you!"...

Meanwhile, life was made quite unbearable to both Marthe and me.
Insulting letters reached me day after day. Certain journals had begun
to tear away the almost transparent veil which so far had covered their
attacks of me, and the murderers were at large, undisturbed!... I should
hardly have been worthy to be called human if I had not been in a state
of rebellion against this intolerable position.

I had gone from Bellevue to see M. Hamard, but nothing had come from the
visit, and after my interview with M. Monnier, I went once more to the
head of the Criminal Investigation Department. Marthe was with me. The
darling insisted on following me everywhere, for two reasons which may
seem contradictory, but which nevertheless often go together: first,
because she dreaded to be alone, and was frightened to the verge of
collapse whenever I was away from her; and secondly, because she wanted
to give me courage.

M. Hamard seemed very much annoyed at seeing me, although he did not
make me wait. M. Chabrier, a cousin of my husband, had joined my
daughter and me, but they both had to remain in another room, for M.
Hamard received me alone. I explained to him the object of my visit,
urged him to give up half-hearted methods, and to see that no efforts
were spared in the search of the murderers. And I insisted on the
importance of the "Underground cards" clue.

M. Hamard spoke the same words as the _Procureur_: "Madame, I assure you
that we do our best...." He added a few, vague, common-place remarks,
but concluded in a different tone, and with genuine sincerity. "I will
look for the murderers until I find them!"

In spite of this last remark, I got a clear impression that the _Affaire
de l'Impasse Ronsin_, as I had been told, was _classee_.

On the way home I remained silent, but as we entered the garden, I took
my daughter in my arms, and said: "Marthe, I will fight to the end, come
what may. I owe it to you, to your father and your grandmother, and to
myself." She gave me a long kiss, and big tears rolled down her cheeks
as she whispered: "You are right, maman, the murderers will be found,
and... Pierre, perhaps, will come back to me!" She had not yet quite
forgotten him....

During the last days of October, I saw M. Marcel Hutin, who had often
told me that the Press was almighty, and that he placed himself at my
disposal. If the newspapers took up my case, the assassins would soon
fall into the hands of the police. I believed him. I would at that time
have believed any one who promised to help me to get at the truth.
Marthe, my few remaining friends, every member of my family,
inspectors--all advised me to go on with the case.... My mind was
irrevocably made up.

With M. Hutin's assistance, I wrote a letter to his newspaper, the _Echo
de Paris_. In that letter, which was published on October 31st, 1908, I
mentioned the lukewarmness and lethargy of those in charge of the case,
and solemnly asserted my intention of continuing investigations, and
avenging the dead. The letter created a deep sensation, and was
everywhere reproduced. My house was assailed by journalists; I was in
the hands of the Press.

       *       *       *       *       *

On the day when the letter appeared, we went, Marthe and I, to the
cemetery at L'Hay, a little village in the neighbourhood of Paris, where
M. Steinheil was buried. Together we arranged the tomb, and decorated it
with flowers, and--prayed....

       *       *       *       *       *

When we reached the Impasse in the afternoon, we found it invaded by a
score of journalists, who rushed to us and overwhelmed me with
questions... but I firmly declared that I had nothing to add, for the
present, to what I had said in my letter to the _Echo de Paris_.

Shortly afterwards, Marthe and I went by train to Breteuil, where my
brother Julien lived. We arrived there in the evening and had a long
conversation about the mystery. Like so many others, Julien thought a
campaign in the newspapers the only means of getting at the truth. "Tell
them what you know, what you think. Let them assist you in the search
for the murderers.... In less than a month our mother and your husband
will be avenged, and you will be triumphantly vindicated of all these
vile insinuations...."

Poor Julien--and poor me. In less than a month, I was... in prison!

The next morning--All Saints' Day--we ran through the newspapers--my
brother, Marthe, and I... and were astounded. In every one of them whole
columns were devoted to the murder mystery, to my letter published in
the _Echo de Paris_. Some approved; others criticised. Some praised my
courage; others made it clear that they considered this daring, reckless
move of mine a sign of my guilt! One journal--one which always knows
everything--probably irritated because my letter, re-opening the case,
as it were, had appeared elsewhere, described my visit to the cemetery
at L'Hay, and did not hesitate to say that I had driven there in a
closed carriage with drawn blinds, like a guilty person.... As a matter
of fact, as the weather was splendid, and I thought that the country air
would do both Marthe and me much good, we had driven to the cemetery in
an open carriage.

Is it difficult to realise the harm such an untruthful comment in a
newspaper, read by hundreds of thousands of persons, did to my case?

Marthe sobbed; my brother was furious, and I, profoundly hurt, wondered
what to do.

"Go and see Maitre Aubin," Julien suggested, "and the sooner the
better...."

Marthe and I returned to Paris. I called on Maitre Aubin, who I found
was reading the newspapers.

"I am bewildered," he began. "Why did you not tell me you were writing
to M. Hutin?"...

"I was told that the Press would help me.... My conscience is clear. I
fear nothing, and no one. We will succeed...."

"I have no doubt about it," said Maitre Aubin.

"Until now, I have refused to talk to journalists, but in future I will
reply to all their questions, if only they will help me. And if certain
papers attack me, or publish false statements, you will have to put a
stop to it. The die is cast; I will go to the end of this mystery, and
reach the truth."

Maitre Aubin was somewhat bewildered. At the same time I could see that
he was glad to find me so determined.

Shortly afterwards I went to the Palace of Justice to see M. Leydet and
M. Grandjean the _Procureur's Substitut_. Maitre Aubin had written to
them that, dissatisfied with the apparent sluggishness and indifference
with which the Impasse Ronsin case had been conducted, I had decided to
take him, Aubin, as _avocat-conseil_.

I entreated M. Grandjean to see things as they were: "Try to understand
my position," I said. "You are a friend of M. Buisson. You know exactly
what my circumstances are, and you, M. Leydet, have known me for
years.... Are you not both aware that the marriage of my daughter to M.
Buisson's son will be broken off unless we get at the truth? M. Buisson,
like every one else, is convinced that the affair has been abandoned....
_You_ can deny this... if it is wrong; you can declare that the
detectives are at work... if they are! You know that I am innocent.
Well, say so; do something.... It is your duty."

M. Grandjean, instead of replying to my question, stammered: "But,
Madame, it is appalling.... You have raised the newspapers; things are
in such a state that we cannot leave the Palace without being pestered
and mobbed by an army of reporters. Life for us has become an
inferno...."

"And what of _my_ life?" I exclaimed.

M. Grandjean did not seem to hear, and pursued: "The clues are now being
followed not only by our inspectors, but by the journalists, who take
it upon themselves to act as detectives!"...

I interrupted again: "That is what you hate; what frightens you.... You
are fully aware that you attached no importance to a great deal of
information I gave you on various suspicious persons who came to the
Impasse Ronsin, a few weeks before the crime, and about other facts and
clues. If you, at the time, did make a move in any direction, it was
because the attitude of the newspapers forced you to do so.... But it is
too late now, after five or six months, to ask for alibis from those
whom you suspect.... You shrug your shoulders. You look upon the matter
in the same way as your chief.... I am more and more convinced that the
case has been given up; I am even led to believe that it was given up
very shortly after the crime! Well then, M. Grandjean, if you refuse to
do what I have asked, I shall take the newspapers into my confidence,
and they will help me...."

Then, turning to M. Leydet, I added: "Will you kindly draw up a document
by which Maitre Aubin becomes my _avocat-conseil_?"

M. Leydet, deeply moved, exclaimed: "I beg you to reflect, to wait...
before putting this affront on us.... I have spared no effort.... I am
an honest man...."

"I know that, M. Leydet," I replied. "But you have one great fault: you
are a friend of mine. It would have been better for the public if the
judge in charge of this case had been some one I did not know at all. I
have been told that there was some thought of arresting me after your
examination at Boulogne. If you had anything to do with preventing my
arrest, I am sorry, for you would have had to release me at once, and
then public opinion, satisfied that there was no case against me
whatever, would have taken my part instead of accusing me."

The paper making Maitre Aubin my _avocat-conseil_ was duly signed.

       *       *       *       *       *

A new life began for me, a life of indescribable activity, of feverish,
unending rushing to and fro, a nerve-racking life of hopes and fears,
of constant surprise and anxieties.... I received every day from fifty
to eighty visits from journalists belonging not only to the Parisian,
but to provincial and foreign newspapers as well. Each had his clue and
his theory; each had made some startling discovery and wanted my views
on it, each told me that his journal was the only one which was really
on my side, and each craved exclusive information.... I received them in
a house crowded with workmen who every few minutes came to ask for
instructions! Shoals of letters and telegrams reached me, from
journalists who assured me of their devotion, or wanted an immediate
reply to an "all-important" question. Anonymous letters came in greater
numbers than ever, some threatening my life and others denouncing
Couillard, Wolff, or Balincourt--as usual. And there were letters from
relations and acquaintances who spurred me on--as if I needed it!--and
assured me the murderers would be found, that the newspapers would
discover them, no matter what it cost to do so. Yet other letters,
thrown over my garden wall, and anonymous of course, dotted the lawns
and hung in the trees!... And I read them all eagerly....

Journalists arrived at the house as early as half-past seven in the
morning. Some called three or four times a day, and before returning
home late at night they would call once more to hear if anything had
happened that they would still have time to telephone before the papers
went to press.... I was most grateful to them all, for they were working
for me, and probably many of them were not responsible for the attacks
against me in the journals to which they belonged. "I supply facts,
Madame," one confessed to me, "but they are turned into anything that
suits the editor or his employers."

I went round to all the Parisian newspaper offices and spoke my mind,
and I thought that after this things would improve, and that fair and
truthful statements would be the rule in the future.

In the evening, when I returned home exhausted, I was dumbfounded when
M. Chabrier (a cousin of my husband and a post-office sorter, to whom I
had let an apartment in my house) told me: "Don't be too angry with the
_Matin_. Two of the journalists on the staff, M. de Labruyere and M.
Barby, are waiting to see you. They have been here the whole afternoon.
Be calm.... I believe they are well-disposed, they will help you....
Don't turn them out...."

I entered the house with Marthe. The table was laid for us in the
dining-room. I found these two men seated and waiting. I told them that
since I had said I would not be back till the evening, they should not
have presumed to spend the afternoon in my house, especially as the
journal to which they belonged was my bitterest foe. M. de Labruyere,
extolled the _Matin_, explained that it was only a matter of
misunderstanding, that M. Bunau-Varilla (the proprietor of the _Matin_)
was extremely sorry.... He showed me a letter of M. Marcel Hutin of the
_Echo de Paris_, in which the latter begged me to receive his friend and
advised me not to decline the assistance of the _Matin_.

I was rather surprised, for it is unusual for Parisian journalists on
the staff of rival newspapers to help one another in what they call a
"big story." True, M. de Labruyere and M. Hutin were great friends, but
I had seen so many instances of fierce rivalry amongst journalists
during the past few days, that I could hardly believe what I read.

At the time, however, I had full confidence in M. Hutin, who was on
excellent terms with a sculptor friend of mine, and, turning to the two
journalists, I said: "I am quite ready to believe in the goodwill of the
_Matin_. I shall continue reading the articles on my case which appear
in its columns, and shall judge from them whether that goodwill is
genuine."

M. de Labruyere then said: "Madame, M. Bunau-Varilla places at your
disposal as much money as you may want to follow all the clues that you
may suggest, and if you disbelieve me, please ask for an audience from
M. Bunau-Varilla."

Although I was tired out and in no mood to laugh, I could not help
smiling at the pompous, yet hushed tone of M. de Labruyere, when he
mentioned "an audience" with his almighty chief.

"I will think of it later on," I replied. "I wish first of all to see
how the _Matin_ will deal with the Impasse Ronsin affair and with me."

M. de Labruyere was about to leave when I was suddenly startled by the
flare and click of a flash-light. M. Barby had taken a flash-light
photograph of my daughter and myself. I was angry, but the wary M. de
Labruyere explained: "Believe me, Madame, nothing could be more useful
to your cause than the publication in our journal of a photograph of you
and Mdlle. Steinheil quietly dining together in this house where the
crime took place. People will think: if Mme. Steinheil can eat in the
place where her husband and her mother were murdered, then she must be
innocent." I shrugged my shoulders, and bade the two journalists
good-bye.

For awhile, I readily admit, the _Matin_ carried on a vigorous campaign,
which was in my favour, since it aimed at the truth, at the solution of
the mystery. The articles of M. de Labruyere had undoubtedly much to do
with the renewed activity of the police.

Meanwhile, the strain of my abnormal life, the constant excitement and
strife around me, the ceaseless questions of journalists and visits of
would-be advisers, the accumulation of clues, arguments, and
suggestions, lack of sleep, and the almost complete loss of appetite,
gradually brought me to a state of physical lassitude and mental
agitation that bordered on madness. I still wonder to this day if it was
that my distracted, tortured mind did not become unhinged sooner than
November 26th (1908), the date of what has been called in this harrowing
affair the "Night of the Confession," so easy was it for any one to
persuade me into believing or saying anything, anywhere, and at any
time.

When I left my house a crowd followed me and sometimes I heard a man or
woman shout: "There she is, the murderess!..." Some said: "No, no, leave
her alone!" I did not mind, I did not understand.... Nothing mattered.
There was but one thought in my mind: "_They_ will soon be found, and
Marthe and I will breathe again; we will be allowed to live--like all
other human beings...."

Journalists followed me wherever I went. I liked them, I smiled on
them, they were helping me, they were working with me, for me and
Marthe. I always did my best now to collect my thoughts and answer their
questions. M. de Labruyere begged me daily to come to the _Matin_
offices, and I went, half-heartedly, to tell him what he wanted to know.
When I did not go he came to fetch me, accompanied me in a motor-car, on
my errands, to my notary, to Maitre Aubin, and on the way he
interrogated me, and wrote down every word I said, and probably much
else besides.... Sometimes I was quite normal, but these spells of
lucidity were daily growing scarcer....

One day, at the _Matin_ offices, M. de Labruyere telephoned directly to
the Minister of Justice to ask him for an "urgent audience" about me. I
was surprised, and said so, but he replied airily: "The Minister is an
old friend of ours. We do as we please, here, with the Government."

I felt there was something not quite clear in this, and I may say that
since the "Night of the Confession" I have been convinced that the
direct telephoning to the Minister of Justice was a put-up comedy to
impress me with the importance of the _Matin_--and I said to M. de
Labruyere: "I think it far simpler that I should call on the Minister.
He is sure to receive me, in the circumstances."

"No, no," came the hasty reply. "Let _us_ arrange it. Let Bunau-Varilla
arrange it. You must understand that Ministers must bow their heads
before us. Surely you know that we end Cabinets as easily as we make
them...."

Thereupon, he once more begged me to meet M. Bunau-Varilla. "He has been
rather vexed because you declined to see him.... But I am sure he will
at once grant you an audience, if you wish it."

I consented. After all, I might as well see this man with unlimited
powers, this Bunau-Varilla who "granted audiences" like a sovereign or a
Cabinet Minister.

I went down three steps which led from a vestibule to the
"audience-chamber." I found myself in a room of huge proportions, with
only a long, seemingly endless table and the chairs around it for
furniture. At the further end of the table stood a white-haired man,
white-bearded, in evening dress (it was 5 P.M.), erect, solemn,
gloomy--but not awe-inspiring. There was something in his attitude that
reminded me of the "Statue of the Commander" in Moliere's "Don Juan."

We were alone. There was a long moment of silence. M. Bunau-Varilla
watched me with very keen eyes, and then remembering that I was a lady,
he pointed to a chair, with a would-be royal gesture, and uttered a few
words of welcome in an icy tone.

"I have just heard from M. de Labruyere," I said, "that you are sorry
not to have seen me before, but I have been attacked, defended,
re-attacked and re-defended by your journal, and before coming to you I
wished to find out what your final attitude was to be."

"The _Matin_, Madame," he replied, less icily, "is entirely at your
disposal. As you are no doubt aware, I am the master of public opinion.
I change it as I please, I play with it.... Your letter to the _Echo de
Paris_ proved to me that you are a woman with brains and character; it
pleased me. But I wish to tell you that I know a great deal about you
and your past life--more, indeed, than you suppose, and I must tell you
at once quite frankly that if you wish to find in me a real
defender--which I am anxious to be--I shall expect greater frankness
from you, fuller details--even confessions--about all you know that
might help us to trace the murderers."

As he spoke he looked me intently in the eyes, as if to intimidate me. I
thought, of course, that he was alluding to Felix Faure, to his death,
to all that I knew about the President and other prominent men, but
later I found out he had something else on his mind--the Rossignol
affair, with which I will deal in the next chapter.

In my turn I looked him straight in the eyes, and replied firmly:
"Monsieur Bunau-Varilla, if you expect great frankness of me, I expect
the same of you. You have just spoken as if you knew things which you
really do not know, but are anxious to know. Why are you not
plain-spoken and sincere, why don't you tell me what you do know; or
think you know?"

In the tone which Napoleon must have used when he congratulated one of
his generals, after a brilliant move on a battle-field, M. Bunau-Varilla
condescended to say: "Your firmness pleases me." Then he added, very
gently and soothingly: "But you are only a woman, and, in spite of your
courage, you need guidance. Let the _Matin_ be your guide. If you place
yourself in our hands you need fear nothing, and you are bound to reach
the goal you have in view."

Finding that the interview had lasted long enough, I rose, bowed
slightly, and left the Throne-Room.




CHAPTER XVIII

M. CHARLES SAUERWEIN AND THE ROSSIGNOL AFFAIR


The next day M. de Labruyere came with a gentleman I had never seen
before. "This is M. Charles Sauerwein, who is a relation of yours and
who knows you very well...."

M. Sauerwein, whom I did not know at all, interrupted his colleague: "I
have often met you in Society, Madame. I married Mlle. K., who is a
cousin of yours." He spoke in a tone which very much displeased me.

I told him he was mistaken: "Mlle. K. is not my cousin; she is only a
close friend of my sister, Mme. Seyrig."

"Had I not been ill recently," said M. Sauerwein, "I would have called
on you sooner to tell you all I know about the so-called mystery of the
Impasse Ronsin."

"I have seen many journalists," I said, "but I never saw you before. So
you have left the Prince of Monaco, whose orderly officer you were, I
have been told. You are now on the staff of the _Matin_.... Will you
tell me in what way the Impasse Ronsin mystery interests you?"

M. Sauerwein told me that he had been "passionately interested in the
Steinheil affair" from the outset, that he had spoken to M.
Bunau-Varilla about the mystery....

To my great surprise, M. de Labruyere said to me: "I prefer to leave you
together. What M. Sauerwein has to tell you is no concern of mine."

I refused to let him go. "I beg you to remember, M. de Labruyere, that I
have nothing to conceal. Whether M. Sauerwein has made some startling
discovery or has merely an interesting fact to disclose, let him speak
before you."

I had seldom seen any one look so scornful as M. Sauerwein did then. I
pointed out a chair to him, and, sitting down, he began in a
melodramatic tone, which, I suppose, was intended to frighten me.

"Since you wish it, let M. de Labruyere remain in the room, but you will
regret it when you have heard what I have to say, Madame."

"Come to the point."

"Just as you please. What I have to say is this. I know the murderers of
your husband and mother." Then, looking me straight in the eyes, he
added: "And you know them too."

"My position is rather awkward," said M. de Labruyere, but M. Sauerwein
silenced him with a gesture, and went on:

"I'm sorry if I hurt your feelings, but I must say what I have to say
without mincing matters. One of the assassins has fully confessed to me.
He is your lover."

I was so indignant and dumbfounded that I could not speak. M. Sauerwein
continued: "Two or three years ago, there was an attempt at burglary in
this very house. You don't deny it, do you?"

"No!... Were I a man," I exclaimed angrily, "I would treat you as you
deserve, for daring to say to me things which are false and which you
know are false."

Taken aback, but still insolent, he said: "We will still get the whole
truth out of you. Your husband went to the police commissary of this
district, and an inspector was sent here to guard the house for a
fortnight. The inspector was a tall, handsome and intelligent man. His
name is Rossignol. After a good meal, he has confessed to me that he had
relations with you, but they lasted only a short time. He was dismissed
from the force for various reasons. It is no use denying that he was
your lover. Rossignol is in our hands. If you confess the truth, we'll
manage to arrest the two men and the woman who assisted him. They're all
in Paris, and I know the haunt where they meet. Come now, admit the
truth...."

I could not move, I could hardly breathe... I clutched my chair so as
not to fall.... All I could do then was to listen, to listen intently.
And the words M. Sauerwein spoke engraved themselves deeply on my mind.
They are still there, and I repeat them to-day with _absolute_ accuracy.
M. de Labruyere himself will not contradict me.

The man went on: "Confess, I tell you!... You are safe enough.... Those
men will never mention you. We will arrange everything. The two men and
the woman, who did not know you, will be sentenced. Rossignol will go to
prison, but as a reward for his discretion, we will see that he is not
kept there very long."

Once more, I ordered the man to leave my house.... It was all in vain.
He defied me, and remained.

"It is useless for you to deny anything," he continued, relentlessly. "I
know you well.... I know everything about the murder, I tell you....
Don't attempt to deny anything. Listen: I followed you from Bellevue;
when you went to meet your lover Rossignol, I saw you. You took the
train and reached the Saint-Lazare Station. I was in the same train; I
did not lose sight of you; I watched you at the station while you walked
about, in the 'Hall of the Lost Steps.'

"Rossignol arrived, saw you, rushed to you and you kissed him. Together
you went to a restaurant in the Rue du Havre, outside the station. You
talked very softly, but I sat at the table just behind you, and I
overheard the conversation. You two were talking about the crime. Then
you gave each other a _rendez-vous_.... Is that enough? Do you realise
now the futility of a denial? Speak, speak...!"

I summoned whatever strength I had left, and said: "I have nothing to
tell you, Monsieur." I turned to M. de Labruyere: "You must tell M.
Bunau-Varilla that I insist upon his sending one of his men here
to-morrow morning, to go with me to the Police Commissary of this
district.... And then this infamous plot will recoil on the heads of
those who have conceived it."

M. de Labruyere did his best to calm me, and kept on saying in the most
apologetic and kindly manner: "Don't be angry.... I don't know anything
about this fantastic affair.... I am sure now there must be some awful
mistake."

M. Sauerwein had not done yet: "I have spoken the truth. The facts I
stated are undeniable."... Then abruptly changing his tone, he remarked
with hypocritical sympathy: "Oh! I quite understand how painful it is
for you to confess.... It must be hard for a society woman to admit that
she once had a 'weakness' for a man of low origin."

This was more than I could stand. I walked up to M. Sauerwein: "If you
do not leave this house instantly, I shall send for the police."

The two journalists beat a hasty retreat.

Hardly had I heard the gate shut behind them, than Mariette came to tell
me that M. de Labruyere had returned. Before I could say that I refused
to see him again, he came in himself.

"Madame," he began, "I beg you not to mention this painful incident to
any one; above all, not a word to other newspapers. You know I have
always done my best for you. Surely you have some confidence in me....
Well, tell _me_ the truth. Will you not admit that this Sauerwein story
is true?"

"What, you too!" I exclaimed, bitterly hurt, for I trusted M. de
Labruyere, and believed him incapable of insulting a woman, wantonly or
otherwise. "How can you place the least credence in that vile story!"

M. de Labruyere murmured, reluctantly: "Sauerwein, I understand, has
_all_ the proofs. M. Bunau-Varilla knows all about this affair, but he
may help you, if you tell us everything. Briand (the Minister of
Justice) will help us... the whole matter will be arranged. Those men
and the woman will not mention you. Certain promises will be made to
them.... Remember the _Matin_ is almighty...."

I stopped M. de Labruyere: "I have heard enough. I have no one and
nothing to fear. The _Matin_ does not frighten me in the least. I shall
come to the office and demand apologies for your colleague's vile
insults, and, if necessary, I shall speak to M. Bunau-Varilla himself.
Now, go, and remember that to-morrow morning some one on the staff of
your journal will accompany me to the Police Commissary."

Need I say that after this new shock I passed such a night of anguish
that my weary, harassed brain tottered one step further towards the
brink of madness.

The next morning, quite early, M. Barby, of the _Matin_, called and
said: "We are all indignant, Madame, at the way M. Sauerwein has treated
you. I am ready to go with you to prove the absurdity of that
accusation."

With Marthe and M. Barby I went to the Police Commissary. I told him
what had happened, and he said: "This accusation against you is
shameful...." He remembered the attempted burglary and the fact that M.
Steinheil had requested him to have his house guarded by an inspector,
but that his wife was to know nothing about it. The inspector had
watched the house for about a fortnight, from outside, in the Impasse.

As a matter of fact, I had only heard of this attempted burglary by
accident. A man came from the police to inform me that the house would
no longer be watched. As I knew nothing more about the matter, I
expressed surprise and asked a few questions, and it was then that I
heard of the attempt. (Men had been seen climbing over the wall of our
garden, by some compositors at the printing works at the end of the
Impasse Ronsin, and an alarm being raised, the burglars hurriedly
escaped.) I spoke to my husband on the matter, and asked why he had not
warned me. Somewhat embarrassed, he replied: "I did not want to alarm
you, and gave orders that you should not be told about it."

       *       *       *       *       *

Meanwhile, newspapers published articles in which it was said that a
former police inspector was suspected of being the author of the Impasse
Ronsin murders, and that it was rumoured that he had been my lover!...
The reader can imagine the sensation such "revelations" caused, and the
amount of harm it did me, with the public! Anonymous letters reached me
in greater numbers than ever, I was dragged in the mire, and when I left
or entered the Impasse, there were loud cries of: "Death to her" or
"Look at the murderess." It was enough to drive any one mad--and it did
drive me mad.

I went to the _Matin_ offices, and M. Sauerwein apologised. Then he and
M. de Labruyere begged me to accompany them both, with some detectives
in the pay of the journal, to some awful cut-throat place, at one in the
morning, where they would show me the two men and the woman they had
mentioned, so that I might state whether they looked like the persons I
had seen on the fatal night.

I refused: "Since," I said, "those men have confessed their guilt, as
you have said, and that Rossignol, the 'chief' murderer is in your
hands, all you have to do is to inform the Law, and have them arrested.
When they stand before M. Leydet, or before M. Hamard, I will come and
identify them."

I heard no more of this sensational story, and the _Matin_ turned to
other clues and theories. "Confess," I was told one day, "confess that
it is a political crime.... Don't think we are fools! If the Rossignol
clue is worth nothing, then there are other clues!... Help us...."

I had not quite lost my reason yet, but I was blind enough not to
realise that to the _Matin_, I was merely a useful, nay, a capital
sensation-purveyor, a news-supplying machine that meant a valuable
increase in the circulation of the paper. They only had one idea; to
make as much as possible out of the "Steinheil Affair" and its wretched
heroine, whether she had any news to give them or not!

True, most newspapers looked upon me in very much the same manner, but a
great number of them were fair and human, and drew the line at certain
"methods."

I called on Maitre Aubin, to whom I told all that had taken place. He
shook his head, and said, "Be careful.... Don't make an enemy of the
_Matin_.... At the same time, I am sorry you sought the assistance of
the Press.... The newspapers are exasperating the authorities."

I was stupefied. Whom was I to trust? Whom was I to believe?... Here was
I become the sport of every wind that blew....

       *       *       *       *       *

_Not a word_ about the Rossignol affair was said at my trial. But, in
prison, when the _Dossier_ of the "Steinheil Affair" was at last handed
to me, I discovered among the 4500 documents and the 15,000 pages
composing it, some sixty pages dealing with the Rossignol clue. Below, I
give the essential parts of those sixty pages, quoting accurately from
the _Dossier_:

[Report]

      PARIS, _November_ 14, 1908.

Yesterday and to-day certain newspapers have indicated as having
possibly taken a part in the crime of the Impasse Ronsin, M. Rossignol,
a former police inspector. It is true that a M. Rossignol was inspector
in the Saint Lambert district, and that he had a bad reputation. I
believe he was dismissed in May last.... I was told that Rossignol is
now a traveller for a firm that sells coffee.... The examining
magistrate will be at liberty to decide whether it would be useful to
make an inquiry, in order to establish how the man spent his time on the
night of May 30-31, 1908.

      The Chief of the _Surete_
      (Signed) HAMARD.

(_Dossier_ Cote 909)

[Official Report.]

      _November 23rd_, 1908.

We, Octave Hamard, Chief of the _Surete_, &c., have this day summoned to
our Cabinet M. Rossignol... thirty-eight years old... who made the
following statements:

"It is difficult for me to say exactly how I spent my time in May last.
I left the police at the beginning of that month and remained without
occupation till June 1st.... On May 30th, in the evening, I met my
friend Thiret, a chauffeur; with him and another chauffeur we dined at
Zimmer's, in the rue Blondel. We left the restaurant towards 10.30 P.M.,
and went to various cafes.... In one of the places where we called (the
address was given), people are sure to remember my presence that night.
At 2.30 A.M. we were in the Faubourg Montmartre. It was 4 A.M. when I
returned home to my wife and children.... On June 1st, I was engaged as
a broker by a coffee firm. Later I was sent to Arras (in the North)....
Then, I was suddenly called back to Paris. Certain newspapers,
principally the _Matin_, were shown to me.... I was told that I was
suspected of being one of the authors or the instigator of the Steinheil
Affair, and that I had refused to be confronted with the widow of the
painter, I was then dismissed from the firm....

      (Signed) ROSSIGNOL
                   HAMARD."

(_Dossier_, Cote 910)

      PARIS, _December 5th, 1908_.

Report from the Commissary of Police, Chief of the "Mobile brigade" to
the Chief of the _Surete_:

In reply to your demand for details concerning a certain Cavellier (a
friend of Rossignol), who once belonged to the "Mobile Brigade" as
inspector, I have the honour to supply the following information:

"Cavellier was appointed Inspector on January 1st, 1906, and was ordered
to resign on August 31st of the same year... (on account of various
robberies, mentioned in this document).

      The Commissary of Police.
      (Signed) VALLET.

(_Dossier_ Cote 921)

[Report.]

      PARIS, _December 15th, 1908_.

...The inquiry made among the _entourage_ of Mme. Steinheil about
Rossignol has established that the latter _is unknown in the house, that
he has never been seen here, even at the time when he was inspector in
this district_....

      (Signed) INSPECTOR DECHET.

(_Dossier_ Cote 911)

      _January 4th, 1909._

Before us, Andre, examining magistrate &c.,... at the Palace of
Justice... has appeared... M. Maurey, thirty-seven years old, Inspector,
of the _Surete_.

_Question._ "We have heard a rumour according to which you are supposed
to know of several meetings between the ex-inspector Rossignol and Mme.
Steinheil, before and since May 31st, 1908?"

_Answer._ "I can tell you of a number of facts which may explain the
murder. Rossignol, whom I only met in circumstances which I may
describe, was an Inspector, attached first to the Vaugirard, then to the
Epinettes 'commissariat' of police. In March and April 1908, I tried to
trace a gang of burglars, but did not succeed.... In April 1908, I
became convinced that Rossignol was connected, most suspiciously, with
this gang of burglars, and whilst searching for them, I came across
Rossignol. In the middle of April 1908, one evening, towards seven
o'clock, I saw Rossignol, after visiting a bar in the Avenue de Clichy,
join at a bus station, opposite the Saint-Lazare Station, an elegantly
dressed woman, of about thirty, tall and stout, with a long face.
Rossignol and the woman went to dine in a restaurant opposite that
station.... They parted, after kissing, at the corner of the Rue de Rome
and the Boulevard des Batignolles, at about 11 P.M. That was the only
time I saw the woman with Rossignol.

"Later, Inspector Dechet having heard that Rossignol might have had
something to do with the Affair, it was agreed that when Mme. Steinheil
returned--she was then at the seaside (Louvieres, in Normandy)--she
should be pointed out to me so that I might say whether she was or was
not the woman whom I had seen dining with Rossignol, near the
Saint-Lazare Station. This was agreed, not only with Inspector Dechet,
but also with Chief-Inspector Dol.

"Now, between that time and the time I was able to see Mme. Steinheil
this is what happened.

"In August 1908, being in the company of a colleague, I met several
times a certain Cavellier, who for a year, a few years ago, was my
colleague, though I did not know that he was an Inspector. I believe he
is attached, officially at least, to the detective department of the
Ministry of the Interior.

"In August, during our first meetings, Cavellier spoke to me about the
Steinheil affair.... _He told me that he was working in that affair for
M. Sauerwein, adding that this gentleman was a Special Police Commissary
at the Ministry of the Interior._ He also said he was shadowing
Rossignol, that he believed Rossignol was Mme. Steinheil's lover, that
he thought she might have 'done the deed' (_fait le coup_), and that, in
any case, he was certain that Rossignol and Mme. Steinheil had met,
once before May 30th, 1908, and once since then, and both times in a
restaurant or a hotel close to the Saint-Lazare Station.... Cavellier
told me all this at the end of August....

"Cavellier has always impressed me as a man who, having discovered--I
don't know how--that I had been concerned with Rossignol, was trying to
'bait' me in order to find out what I knew about Rossignol. _I have
never believed one word of what he told me about Madame Steinheil and
Rossignol._ I told Chief-Inspector Dol, however, of my conversations
with Cavellier. Chief-Inspector Dol gave no more credence than I did to
Cavellier's statements.

"In September or October, I went to Bellevue with Inspector Dechet.... I
saw Mme. Steinheil. I then found that Mme. Steinheil had far more
refined features and a much rounder face than the woman whom I had seen
with Rossignol, in April 1908, and further that Mme. Steinheil was far
slimmer and not so tall as the other woman. To make quite clear my
absolute conviction that Mme. Steinheil and the other woman were not the
same person, I told all this to Inspector Dechet, the moment we left
Vert-Logis.

"A fortnight later, I told Cavellier, whom I happened to meet, of my
conviction. He made no remark.

"Since then I have met Cavellier once or twice, but we never talked
again about the Steinheil Affair.

      (Signed) MAIRET, The Inspector.
               ANDRE, The Examining Magistrate.
               SIMON, His Clerk."

(_Dossier_ Cote 918)

[Report.]

      PARIS, _January 5th, 1909_.

In the absence of M. Cape, Chief of staff at the _Surete Generale_, M.
Sebille, Director of the Investigations Department, declared that M.
Sauerwein was unknown as a special Police Commissary, and had never
belonged in any capacity whatever to the _Surete Generale_.

      (Signed) INSPECTOR MAIREY.

      (_Dossier_ Cote 920)

And here is the report of the examination, by M. Andre, of "Cavellier,
31 years old, private detective."

_Question._ "Do you know Mme. Steinheil by sight? If so, when did you
first see her?"

_Answer._ "I knew her by sight. I met her for the first time in August
1908, at Bellevue, near Vert-Logis. I recognised her with the help of a
description which I possessed. I have never spoken to her."

_Question._ "Do you know Rossignol?"

_Answer._ "Two or three days after my encounter with Mme. Steinheil, I
met him at the Saint-Lazare Station. Mme. Steinheil (whom I then saw for
the second time) was there and talked with him and another gentleman.
She lunched at Scossa's. During the early days of November 1908, an
inquiry which I was making brought me into contact with Rossignol, who
was then at Avesnes-le-Comte (in the North of France). I then recognised
in Rossignol the unknown man whom I had seen in August talking to Madame
Steinheil at the Saint-Lazare Station, and afterwards lunching with her
at Scossa's. I could not absolutely identify Rossignol; but I had the
impression, although Rossignol seemed to me about 20 livres (sic)
lighter, that he was the unknown man I had seen."

_Question._ "Tell us in what circumstances you came to make
investigations about Madame Steinheil and Rossignol?"

_Answer._ "I make personal inquiries for people.... As regards this
particular case, _I would rather not tell you the name of the person for
whom I made the investigations_, as I consider myself bound by
'professional secrecy.' _At first, the object of my inquiries was to
find out all that Madame Steinheil did--that is, in August 1908._ That
is how I took the necessary steps to see her, and did see her, at
Bellevue. It was also in these circumstances that I watched her two or
three days later at the Saint-Lazare Station, and saw her talk, then
lunch with the man I told you of. I found out nothing in particular
about Madame Steinheil's doings. In November I made inquiries about
Rossignol. This was after the publication in the Petit Parisien which
stated that Madame Steinheil had special relations with an
inspector--afterwards dismissed--who had had to make inquiries at her
house on the occasion of a burglary, which took place two years ago, I
believe. I found out that the only Inspector in the Vaugirard district
who had been recently dismissed was called Rossignol. I heard Rossignol
was at Avesnes-le-Comte, and I went there. I had made inquiries, and had
discovered that the man had a bad reputation, and had been connected
with burglars. At Avesnes-le-Comte.... I talked to Rossignol about the
article in the _Petit Parisien_; he said he had not seen it; I made him
read it, and he said afterwards: 'No, I don't believe they mean me in
that article, especially as _I have never known Mme. Steinheil, have
never seen her, and have only heard of her through the newspapers_.' I
then asked him whether he thought the murder in the Impasse Ronsin had
been committed by one of the Vaugirard gang. To this he replied: 'No;
there are no heads strong enough in Vaugirard to-day, to carry out such
a crime.' I concluded our interview by telling him: 'I am returning to
Paris to render an account of my mission to the person who sent me, and
it is possible that that person will contradict the article in the Petit
Parisien.' The contradiction appeared in the _Matin_ on November 17, but
I must tell you that it was not for this newspaper that I went to
Avesnes-le-Comte. Since my interview with Rossignol in that city, I have
seen him--the last time at Dijon, towards December 10. I went to Dijon
for the same person who had sent me to Avesnes-le-Comte. There Rossignol
merely confirmed what he had told me before.... I am not sure that the
woman whom I saw at the Saint-Lazare Station was really Mme. Steinheil.
Two or three days before I had seen her, or rather the person I thought
was Mme. Steinheil--for all I had was a description--near Vert-Logis,
without a hat, in ordinary dress. The woman I saw at the station wore a
full mourning and a thick veil, and it is quite possible I made a
mistake. Also when I saw Rossignol at Avesnes-le-Comte, I was not
absolutely certain that I was standing before the man I had seen at the
station with the lady I have just mentioned."

_Question._ "_To sum up your explanations, it appears that you are
unable to assert that in August last, at the Saint-Lazare Station and
at Scossa's, you really saw Rossignol and Mme. Steinheil._"

_Answer._ "_No, I cannot be positive on the point; besides that is
exactly what I have always told to the person for whom I made those
investigations._"...

(_Dossier_ Cote 923)

       *       *       *       *       *

And it was on the strength of such "discoveries" that M. Sauerwein
thought fit to insult an unfortunate and innocent woman, and fiercely
accuse her, to her own face, of a ghastly crime!




CHAPTER XIX

THE PEARL IN THE POCKET-BOOK


Maitre Aubin grew daily more alarmed at the turn events were taking. He
read a number of the anonymous letters I received, went carefully
through every newspaper, felt the pulse of the Public, and shook his
head in dismay. One morning he said to me: "Go to my friend Goron, the
ex-Chief of the _Surete_. He has founded a private agency, and he may be
able to assist you. I have the greatest confidence in his ability and
his _flair_."

I followed this advice. M. Goron, a small, smart man, with white hair
and moustache, searching eyes, a keen, intelligent expression, received
me at once.

I may mention here that I am firmly convinced that, like M. Leydet, M.
Hamard, the successor of M. Goron at the _Surete_, always believed in my
absolute innocence, and I readily recognise that he treated me not only
with the utmost fairness, but with dignified courtesy.... But I felt
that, whenever he promised to spare no efforts in the search for the
murderers, he was not quite sincere. My impression has ever been that M.
Hamard, for reasons which I have never fully fathomed, had his hands
tied, as it were....

M. Goron went straight to the point, in a persuasive though very blunt
manner: "I have my views on this mystery, and I will tell you what they
are.... I may possibly hurt your feelings, but--I always speak my mind.
The Affair is quite clear to me. It is _not_ a 'low crime' (_un crime
crapuleux_). The Burlingham clue?... Nonsense, farce, absurdity. The
case is more serious. Between ourselves--you have never spoken about
your close relations with Felix Faure.... You did wisely; the law
doesn't want to know about that portion of your life, however important
it may be in connection with the murder.... But my opinion is this: that
the murder is a direct sequel to your friendship with the late
President. You have been brave and discreet, and I congratulate you. As
a matter of fact, you know too many things, and that kind of knowledge
is always dangerous.... I know all about your friendship with Felix
Faure, of course; I also know that you had nothing to do with his
strange death, and I further know that you have nothing to do with the
assassination of your mother and your husband. Your husband had too much
confidence in various persons who were not worthy of it, and he paid
dearly for his grave mistake...."

I was conquered by the evident sincerity and the business-like ways of
M. Goron, and without hesitation I told him about the pearl necklace,
the documents, and the "mysterious German."

He then said, quite simply: "Exactly. I had guessed something of the
sort. The Impasse Ronsin affair is not unique of its kind. There is
nothing absolutely new in it. I believe that what took place is this.
Some man or men--who did it for the money the documents might represent,
or out of _fanfaronade_ or some kind of morbidness--heard that you
possessed most interesting papers. They managed to become close friends
of your husband. They found out, somehow, that the house would be empty
that day, since you had decided to go to Bellevue. You know the rest."

I told M. Goron about the letters I was constantly receiving.

"Yes, yes," he said. "All this may be interesting. I have a good mind to
lend you some of my men. There are workmen in your house just now. Well,
my men will disguise themselves as workmen, and they will observe
everything and everybody. I have never seen your house. Will you receive
me and my son? I will look the place over. My son will assist me. We
will come as foreigners who wish to visit the studio...."

I consented, of course. M. Goron came to the Impasse Ronsin the next day
and examined everything with his son. Before going he said to me:
"Persevere in your endeavours to solve the problem, but take care of
yourself. Leave the Press alone. Tell the journalists you are exhausted,
done for.... You are in a terrible state; you will lose your reason, if
you go on with this kind of life. I have known even the strongest men
come to such a state, in their desire to work out a murder mystery that
the Law had given up, that they have had to be put in an asylum, or they
have been seeing the murderers everywhere. I could quote to you the
example of two men, both of superior intellect, who committed two
dreadful crimes, convinced that they were killing the assassins they had
so long been searching for; one of them is a convict now; the other died
in prison--he was one of my friends--and all the members of his family
were ruined and disgraced.... Look here, I will give you some sound
advice: Think of your daughter. Go with her to Bellevue or to the
Riviera, where it is bright and sunny. Try to forget. Send me all the
letters you receive, even those from the people you trust, from your
friends.... Everybody seems to have an influence over you.... That is
bad, bad."...

"No," I said. "I must fight to the end. You will see I shall win yet,
and the whole world will know...."

He interrupted me: "Leave the world alone. Think of yourself, think of
your child, and let me act for you. You are in a fever, your eyes have
an unhealthy glow, you look worn out. At this rate, in a week's time you
will be seriously ill. If I were your doctor, I should lock you up for a
time in a nursing home.... Meanwhile, I will send you some of my men who
will carry out my instructions. But promise me to do nothing, and to go
away and rest soon, very soon!..."

I promised, and shook M. Goron warmly by the hand. Then I went home,
very much pacified and fully determined to follow his excellent advice.

When I reached home, I found a journalist waiting for me. He was M. D.,
an eighteen-year-old reporter. He came frequently and always had
extraordinary things to say against Couillard--things which, curiously
enough, tallied with the remarks about my valet contained in a large
number of the anonymous letters I received. (Couillard was now once more
in my service. He had not found a situation as a chauffeur and had
returned to me.)

"Madame," explained the young journalist; "you can go and tell M. Hamard
about Couillard. I know all about him!"

I was truly amazed at the number of people I met who dramatically
declared to me that they knew all about me and every one else!... Still
I listened to M. D. intently, as he gave me extraordinary information
about Couillard, his family, his past, his habits and what not.

"To be quite on the safe side," M. D. concluded, "I would like to know
the name of Couillard's birth-place. I want to know why he left his
village to come to Paris.... Did you know, Madame, that your valet, who
you told me said he had never been in Paris and could not find his way
about, had been in Paris for two years as a navvy!"

I was amazed. "You must be mistaken!" I exclaimed, but the journalist
gave me all kinds of convincing details, and I began to remember the
denunciations in the anonymous letters.... A few untruths spoken by my
valet did not prove that he was a murderer, but I was not in a normal
state of mind, and M. D. spoke with such passion that I began to think
he was right. I had been in the past months so often swung from clue to
clue that I was ready to admit almost everything. He told me about the
private life of Couillard, gave me details about his "friends."... "He
probably possesses an 'identity-card,' I should very much like to see
it. But if we ask him for it, he will guess something if he is guilty or
if he knows things about the murder which he does not dare to say....
How could we arrange to get at the information I need, without alarming
him?"

[Illustration: I. M. DE BALINCOURT II. REMY COUILLARD

Sketches by Mme. Steinheil]

I went to Mariette, and asked her about Couillard. The old cook said to
me, in her usual rough but not unpleasant manner: "Madame, I don't know
anything. He comes from a village.... Are they going to worry Couillard
now? Are they going to ask me questions again? I am tired of all
journalists, and I am tired of the police."

"Mariette," I said. "Do you know the name of Couillard's village, yes or
no. I am told it is essential to know it."

"Ah! Well, if that's all you ask, it is a simple matter. His overcoat is
here. You will find the name you want in one of his pockets, in his
pocket-book."

I returned to M. D. and said: "I don't know what to do. What you want is
in Couillard's coat."

"What does it matter, Madame? There is no harm in examining his
pocket-book. All I need, after all, is an address."

Mariette brought the pocket-book. M. D. opened it, found in it the
address he wanted, when, suddenly, I noticed in the pocket-book an
envelope with Marthe's handwriting, and addressed to her fiance, Pierre
Buisson. My daughter, who was present, took the letter and exclaimed:
"Mother, that is the letter I wrote to Pierre on the eve of All Saints'
Day!"

"What! Has Couillard kept the letter all this time!"

M.D. rubbed his hands: "You see, I was right about Couillard. A letter
written by your daughter is found in your valet's pocket-book, that is
most suspicious. He surely did not take the letter just for the sake of
the stamp, which has been cut off, by the way. He would have destroyed
the letter." He hesitated, then, suddenly exclaimed: "That letter was
written--and stolen--at the very time you had decided to take up the
Affair again. I suppose Couillard wanted to know what you and your
daughter intended doing.... Let me go and examine his bag. We may
discover something more important and more conclusive." M.D. went up to
the attic with Marthe. Couillard was not in the house at the time. I had
engaged him again at the end of October, to please my daughter; she
thought, very justly, that if Couillard had been unable to find a
situation, it was on account of the Impasse Ronsin drama, and owing to
the fact that after his examination at Boulogne, there had been rumours
of his arrest. Couillard worked in the house all day, but did not sleep
there. He had asked me, however, to let him leave his bag in the attic,
and he frequently went up there.

M.D. returned and said: "The bag is locked, and so I cannot open it. But
we are nearing the solution of the mystery!"

When the young journalist had gone, I had a long conversation with my
daughter. Marthe was amazed. She could not believe what she had seen.
She had always had the greatest confidence in Couillard. We both tried
to find out why he had stolen that letter. It could not have been for
the sake of a penny stamp! What was the real reason, then?... (Later
another stolen letter was found, in Couillard's bag this time, a letter
written by me to an old friend, Mlle. Lefevre.)

Since that dreadful month of November 1908, I have fully realised my
mistake. I asked my former valet's forgiveness at my trial, as I have
already stated, and I do so now, unhesitatingly, in these Memoirs.
Moreover, I have gladly offered him, recently, some financial
compensation. I did a dreadful thing when I accused him without proofs
of his guilt. But the reader should try to bear in mind the state I was
in--a state of mind which made me see as proofs the untruths he had told
me about his past, and the letters he had stolen.

All night long I lay awake, and worked myself up against Couillard.... I
remembered and re-read the anonymous letters... in which he was stated
to be the murderer, or, at any rate, a "man who knew," and others
telling me: "What Public Opinion does not understand is why you should
have been spared, whilst your husband and your mother were killed." And
he was still alive, like myself! I was told over and over again that the
murder must have been committed by some one who lived in the house.
Well, there were only Couillard and myself besides the victims, in the
house. Since it was not I, it must be Couillard!... Then there was the
key that he had lost shortly before the fatal night.... Then, he had
kept the revolver, instead of handing it back to my husband.... I
thought, too, of another crime, the murder of M. Remy, a banker, a week
or so after the Impasse Tragedy. M. Remy had been killed by his valet, a
young man... who was not suspected for a long time, and it suddenly
occurred to me that Couillard had been out on Saturday, May 30, in the
evening. I had sent him to take a wedding present--the Sevres vase--to
M. Ch.'s daughter.... On his way Couillard had perhaps met his
accomplices. During the night he had left his room above the studio, and
gone down to receive the other men. The red-haired woman was perhaps his
mistress, and he had let her come so that she might get some of the
jewels.... Couillard was rather timid and nervous. Perhaps he was the
one man who remained motionless, near the door of my room, and whose
eyes had looked so frightened.... I did not recognise him because of the
black gown, the long felt hat, and the false beard. It must have been a
false beard.... How my imagination ran riot, how the most insignificant
facts that I had observed began to fit in with the theory with which I
became more and more obsessed. Madness had begun. Henceforth, I was
almost irresponsible. I had had so many shocks, gone through so many
crises, been played with, insulted, threatened, accused, and tortured so
relentlessly during the past weeks that I ceased to distinguish between
what was right and what was wrong, what good and what bad, what criminal
and what legitimate.... I was in the hands of several journalists, who
forced my door open when I refused to receive them, who treated my house
as their own, and wrote almost anything they pleased about me. So many
clues had been taken up and abandoned, that I clung desperately to this
one. Yes, Couillard would have to confess, and then it would all be
over. I should have the right to live, to breathe, to sleep.... I had no
friends.... My beloved Marthe was as ill as I was, and wept day after
day. She had lost her father, her grandmother, her fiance.... Winter had
come, with howling winds, chill, driving rain, and days of gloom.... It
was dark and it was cold.... An effort, and I should win. Yes, M. D. was
right; Couillard was the man. Of course he was the criminal... of
course....

The next morning there came more letters, still more letters, and
Couillard's name was mentioned in most of them....

I went to M. Goron, the ex-chief of the _Surete_, in whose judgment I
had the greatest confidence, and told him all about the discovery of the
stolen letter.

He was greatly surprised: "Of course," he explained, "there may be
nothing in it, but it certainly looks suspicious. Your valet will have
to be carefully watched. Now, don't do anything without the Chief of the
_Surete_. Write to Hamard about this new development or send some one to
him. Ask for two inspectors, who will witness the discovery of the
letter in the pocket-book. Do everything to-day. Couillard might destroy
the letter, if he suspected anything."

"And if M. Hamard attaches no importance to the discovery, and refuses?"

"He will not refuse."

I returned home in a taxi. M. Chabrier--a cousin of my late husband--was
there, and after lunch I sent him to M. Hamard.

M. Chabrier was soon back, and told me that M. Hamard's reply was, that
"the facts complained of against Couillard were no doubt contrary to
honesty, but not to a punishable misdemeanour...."

      (_Dossier_, Cote 1)

My friend the Countess de Toulgoet and her son, Marthe and M. Barby of
the _Matin_, were with me, and we all started to discuss the situation.

I remembered the words of M. Goron: "Do everything to-day." He was
right. There was no time to waste. Couillard might escape. I had firmly
believed that M. Hamard would see the gravity of the stolen-letter
incident, and now I was told that he attached no importance to it! It
was necessary to act at once, to open the pocket-book of Couillard
before witnesses, and to see what his attitude would be....

I will quote M. Barby's own description to M. Leydet, the examining
magistrate, of the scene which took place (on Friday November 20th,
1908).

"... At the request of Mme. Steinheil, the Countess de Toulgoet, her
son, M. Chabrier and I consented to be witnesses. It was agreed that
Couillard would be told there was a situation as chauffeur offered him,
and that we would get him to reproduce his licence. We went first to
see whether the letter was still in his pocket-book: Couillard's
overcoat was in Mariette's room. The pocket-book was found and examined;
the letter was still there....

"Remy Couillard was then called in. I asked him if he would accept a
situation as chauffeur, and whether he could show me his licence. He
replied that his licence was in his pocket-book. But, as had been
agreed, Mlle. Steinheil went to Mariette's room, fetched the
pocket-book, and handed it to Couillard. I rose and watched the valet
while he fingered various documents and looked for the licence. Seeing a
black-bordered letter, I said to him: 'What's this? Are you in
mourning?' Without replying, Couillard went on looking for the
licence.... Madame Steinheil then said: 'That is one of our letters.'
She took the pocket-book from Couillard's hands, placed it on the table,
and drew out her daughter's black-bordered letter. Couillard, obviously
perturbed, said (in answer to a question) that he had found the letter
on the edge of a table. Mme. Steinheil then drew from the portfolio the
envelope addressed to M. Pierre Buisson; that envelope was open and had
been deprived of its stamp.

"Couillard lost all self-control. Mme. Steinheil asked him why he had
stolen the letter, and what excuse he had to make.

"Panting and with his face distorted, Remy Couillard cried 'I am
caught!... I will talk only when I am before M. Hamard....'

"I then said to M. Chabrier that after this scene, the only thing for
him to do was to return with the pocket-book to M. Hamard. I also told
him to call first, at the _Matin_, to fetch M. de Labruyere, so that
they might go together to the _Surete_...."

      (_Dossier_ Cote 43)

To me in my abnormal, almost morbid state of mind, those words: "I am
caught!... I will talk only before M. Hamard!" came as a revelation.
Couillard was livid and sank into his chair like a man who had been
found out or who had given up fighting.... "I am caught!" That was a
confession obviously! At last the truth would come out. I did not think
Couillard guilty, but felt sure that he knew a great deal about the
murder, and now he would have to speak.... Then suddenly a thought
occurred to me: Would Couillard speak? M. Hamard had declared to M.
Chabrier that he did not consider the stealing of a letter a serious
offence.... If Couillard was to speak, to confess what he knew,
something more was needed than the stolen letter.... Whilst the others
discussed the "next move," I went into my room. I was frantic with
excitement and thought: What shall I do to make him speak? I could not
see then that those words, "I am caught," might have had no meaning and
merely refer to the stealing of the stamp, and I kept muttering: "I am
caught! I am caught!... What does he mean by that!" And I recalled a
conversation between Couillard and Alexandre Wolff a few days before.
Mariette was away at the time and I was able to enter the pantry, when I
heard the two men talking together. (Alexandre Wolff had come to see his
mother and had remained to dinner.) Wolff was saying: "You fool, why did
you not do as I told you? Have you taken it away from the attic?" And
Couillard replied, "She won't give me the key; it is not difficult to
get in." Thereupon I heard Mariette returning, and I withdrew.

As I recalled that dialogue, I could not imagine that it merely referred
to Couillard's bag, but found in it new grounds for my suspicions.

I had Couillard's pocket-book in my hand. I took from a drawer a pearl
which came from the "new-art" ring I have already mentioned, wrapped it
in tissue paper, and slipped it into the pocket-book.

Now, I thought, they will arrest him. He will be frightened, and if he
knows anything, as I am sure he does, he will make a confession. If he
is really quite innocent, I will tell my friend M. Leydet that I placed
the pearl in the pocket-book, and I will explain why. After that I
returned to the dining-room, and handed the pocket-book to M. Chabrier,
who put it in his pocket and walked away.

I will now continue quoting from the evidence given by M. Barby.

"... Whilst M. Chabrier was carrying out his mission, Couillard remained
seated in the dining-room, and did not utter a word. After a time, he
said he wished to write a letter. I told Mariette to bring some
note-paper, and he started writing. I saw that his letter began with the
words: 'My dear mother....' and the first lines expressed regrets. When
he had finished, and just as he was about to place his letter in an
envelope, I told him: 'You read Mlle. Steinheil's letter; why should I
not read yours?' He hastily put the letter in his pocket and remarked
that I was not an examining magistrate, but only a journalist.

"Couillard remained in the dining-room until M. Chabrier's return. It
was then about 8 P.M....."

      (_Dossier_ Cote 48)

What M. Chabrier had done can best be described in his own words
(evidence given before M. Leydet and M. Hamard on November 21st, 1908,
the day after the incident here related). "... Having placed the
pocket-book in the pocket of my overcoat, I went to the _Matin_ offices.

"M. de Labruyere joined me, and together we went to the _Surete_ where
we were both received by M. Hamard. I placed the pocket-book on his
table, but he refused to take possession of it or to take any steps
against Couillard without formal instructions from you (M. Leydet).

"I replaced the pocket-book--which had not been opened--in my overcoat,
and I went to your _Cabinet_. You were not in, so I left a note, and
afterwards, went with M. de Labruyere, to the _Matin_ offices. Then, for
the first time, the pocket-book was opened; its contents were examined
by M. de Labruyere, myself, and a third person (on the staff of the
_Matin_), and the tissue paper with the pearl, was found by M. de
Labruyere....

"The third person said the pearl was worth L16, but, seeing that it was
pierced at both ends, he remarked the value might be about L10....

"Everything was replaced in the pocket-book and with it I returned to
the Impasse Ronsin...."

      (_Dossier_ Cote 24 and 11)

M. Barby's description of the scene on the afternoon (evidence given
before M. Leydet, on November 24, 1908) concluded as follows:

"Madame Steinheil was called outside the dining-room by M. Chabrier.
Shortly afterwards, she returned and said: 'Couillard, you may go. You
can ask M. Leydet for your pocket-book to-morrow.'

"Couillard rose, and when Mme. Steinheil asked him if he had any excuses
to make, he replied: 'If I have anything to tell you, I shall say it
only before M. Hamard or M. Leydet.'

"(After Couillard's departure) M. Chabrier told us: 'We found a pearl
worth a few hundred francs in Couillard's pocket-book, at the _Matin_.'

"Then, before Mme. Steinheil, before Mme. de Toulgoet and her son,
before M. Chabrier and myself, the pocket-book was opened, and the pearl
produced. I took it and handed it to Mme. Steinheil who said: 'It is a
pearl from one of my stolen rings!'

"We were all greatly excited. I advised Mme. Steinheil to go at once to
the Police Commissary... and accompanied by Mlle. Marthe and M.
Chabrier, she drove there with me in my motor-car...."

      (_Dossier_ Cote 43.)

The Police Commissary was not in, and I said: "The simplest thing to do
is to go straight to M. Hamard."

That very night, detectives arrested Couillard.

In spite of the whirl and confusion of my thoughts, I realised to some
extent during the night, when I had rested a little, the gravity of what
I had done. I decided to gather all possible proofs that the ring from
which the pearl had been taken had _not_ been stolen, proofs which I
would reveal as soon as Couillard had made some sort of confession.

The next morning, I went to the _Surete_, and asked for a detective to
accompany me to the Rue de la Boetie. It was Inspector Dechet who came,
and together we went to M. Gaillard, the jeweller who had made, from a
sketch by the donor and with a pearl brought from Dufayel's, the
"new-art" ring given me by M. Ch. M. Gaillard was able to find in his
books the exact description of the ring, the weight and shape of the
pearl, &c.... I told him that the pearl found in my valet's pocket-book
(he had, of course read about this incident which was dealt with in all
the newspapers) was the one in the "new-art" ring.

Later, I saw M. Souloy. "Have you still in your possession," I asked
him, "the mounting of the 'new-art' ring I asked you, in June last, to
alter? You set the pearl on a new ring, but have you kept the old
mounting?"

"No, Madame, it was melted down with the gold of the other jewels you
asked me to alter."

"I regret this," I said, "for it might have been useful to me. You see,
we may perhaps at any moment have to go to M. Hamard and give some
explanation about that ring."

I knew now that I could prove at any time that the pearl could not have
been stolen on the night of May 30th-31st, 1908. All I had to do now was
to await events and hear whether Couillard had made a confession.

The _Matin_ asked me for a design of the "new-art" ring. I gave the
address of M. Gaillard, and the design was published.

At my request, a search was made in Couillard's rooms and also one in my
own house. I wanted to know whether Couillard had concealed anything in
the attic or elsewhere. The Press and Public Opinion were very much
roused against Couillard, and I anxiously awaited the reports which
inspectors brought me of the progress of my former valet's examination.
I heard that he had spoken about a woman who had called on my husband on
Friday, May 29th--two days before the crime. Couillard was at the
kitchen window when the bell rang, and was about to go and open the door
when he saw M. Steinheil hurry out into the garden and have a brief
conversation at the gate with a woman. I was also told that Couillard
had made this strange statement: "Alexandra Wolff knows more about the
whole affair than I do!" To me all this appeared of paramount
importance. Couillard would soon make a clean breast of everything.
Victory was at hand at last--and with it peace. At the same time I
thought of Alexandre Wolff. The son of my cook was on most friendly
terms with my valet.... I remembered that shortly after the crime, Wolff
had been much better dressed and, as some one remarked, "rolled in
money." He was tall and very strong, knew the house well.... Was he one
of those men in the black gowns? Through his mother he could know
everything about our movements.... I wondered.

Then, one night, a day or two after the arrest of Couillard, an incident
took place which filled me with new suspicions and fears. Each hour,
indeed, brought its shocks and alarms that completely unhinged my mind,
and, as if some cruel demon drove me, I rushed, blind and unheeding, to
my doom.

I was sitting in my room (which was on the ground floor now that the
alterations had been made in the house), and reading, once more, the
letters against Couillard and Wolff.

It was late, and I supposed that everybody was in bed. Suddenly, I saw a
point of light moving through the hall towards the staircase. (My room
was separated from the hall by the dining-room, which had large windows
opening upon it, and as there was as yet no door to my room--the workmen
not having completed their work--but merely a piece of tapestry which
was drawn aside at the time, I could see from my room through the
dining-room windows, any light moving in the hall.) I was astonished: I
walked stealthily to the dining-room window and saw Mariette and her
son. What were they doing there at this late hour? It was about
midnight.... They went upstairs as softly as possible. I had not yet
undressed and I followed. When I reached the foot of the staircase, I
heard Mariette tell Alexandre: "Don't make the least noise." I tried to
follow them upstairs, but my legs shook under me, and I remained on the
lower steps.

[Illustration: ALEXANDRE WOLFF AND HIS MOTHER, MARIETTE WOLFF

Sketches by Mme. Steinheil]

The two went up, up.... I heard them open the door of the attic and
enter.... How long they remained there I could not tell.... I shook with
fear and cold; the blood throbbed painfully through in my temples....
I heard them again and jumped up. They came down, stopped on the second
floor at the entrance of the studio, and went in there.... I ran out in
the garden to see whether there was any light in the studio. There was
none. They evidently held their candle quite low, and away from the
windows. I rushed back to the foot of the staircase. They came down.
Just as I was about to go back to my room, so as not to be seen, I heard
Wolff say ill-temperedly to his mother: "I tell you that three are
missing," and Mariette replied: "Well, I can't help that!..." Wolff then
said: "Now that he is locked up, we shan't know anything. Ah! Why
couldn't she leave things alone: everything was quiet. Why could not you
shut her mouth!... But be careful. She is wide awake. I saw that the
other evening when I had dinner here. She was kind as usual, but her
eyes were not the same...." They had stopped on the first-floor
landing.... I feared that I should not have the strength to reach my
room, but I managed somehow to get there. Marthe was sleeping
peacefully. The night-light fell on the letters scattered about the
table, and cast a soft glow on my daughter's face. The sight of her gave
me courage. I looked at the clock. It was 12.40 A.M. I went back to the
dining-room window, and saw Mariette and her son creep noiselessly
through the hall. I ran to the door and, hearing no noise, went two or
three steps into the hall. I then heard the voice of Mariette saying:
"Give me a light.... I can't see." The voice came from the staircase
leading to the cellar, and the door at the top of the staircase was
ajar. What were they doing there?... I hid again, and soon the two came
up.

Alexandre Wolff looked wild.... "Hush!" said Mariette, and they went to
the _concierge's_ lodge, through the kitchen. (Mariette acted at that
time as cook and doorkeeper.) The doors were closed, and I could hear
nothing. I waited. The hall being almost entirely of glass, I could not
help seeing Wolff leaving the house. My feelings during all this time
may be surmised. At last I saw the door of the lodge open, and then
Wolff walked stealthily to the gate, opened it, and disappeared. I went
back to my room to see Marthe. She had slept soundly. I looked at the
clock; it was 1.30 _A.M._ I wondered what I should do. For the first
time I was afraid of Mariette, who had always been the most devoted
servant any one could wish to have, in spite of her rather blunt ways.
Mme. Chabrier was upstairs, in her little apartment. Should I go up and
ask her for assistance?... I hesitated, then made up my mind. I lit a
candle and went straight to the lodge. The opening on to the garden,
near the gate into the street, was still open. I found Mariette sitting
near her bed in a state of stupor. She started when she saw me, and she
seemed at once to realise that my feelings towards her were changed.

"What are you doing there, at this time of night?" I asked her. "I have
just heard the gate of the Impasse being shut. Has some one gone out,
then? And why is your door wide open? What is happening?..."

"Nothing, Madame, I opened the door to have more air.... I don't feel
well.... All these stories, these new investigations.... I don't like
them. Everything will go wrong. Couillard will perhaps give us no end of
trouble. Who knows!... He will perhaps accuse me or my son.... Ah! I can
swear to you that if they touch my son... you know me.... I shan't be
afraid of any one!"

She had a terrifying appearance, the old Mariette, with her eyes that
flashed angrily, her threatening jaw, and her big clenched fists. She
rose, came close to me, and said: "Well, and what about you? Why aren't
you in bed at this time?"

I was afraid, but summoning what little strength was left in me, I said:
"Because I have been awake...."

"Since when?"

"For over two hours; since eleven o'clock.... Why do you look so
frightened?"

Mariette came still closer to me, until her face almost touched mine. I
had not even hinted that I had seen her and her son, and yet she said
suspiciously and threateningly: "Well, and then?..."

"And then... Mariette? It is for you to explain to me what you did with
your son in the attic, in the studio, and then in the cellar.... Answer
me."

She stared at me, hesitated, and then replied: "What did I do in the
attic?... That's no business of yours. I am free to do as I please.
There are things of mine in the attic. If I like, I can give things to
my son to take with him, can't I?"

"No, Mariette, your son has taken nothing with him. He carried no parcel
when I saw him go... or else, what he took must have been very small."

She seized my hands: "Look here, Madame, I have had enough of all this.
Leave me alone. I am not in a mood to give explanations. You had better
return to Marthe and go to bed.... Do you hear?"

Her attitude and her tone frightened me so much that I hurried away. I
spent the rest of the night on a chair, watching over Marthe, listening
to every noise. I seriously thought of calling M. Hamard's attention to
the events of that night, but Mariette had been an exemplary servant for
many, many years. I suspected her son, who, I had been told, was
extremely violent and had had several encounters with the police, but I
could not believe that old Mariette had had anything to do with the
crime. And I thought of her daughter and her son-in-law, Mme. and M.
Geoffrey, who had both always been most devoted. The wife constantly
came to my house to do odd jobs, and the husband was ever ready to help.
They kept the house when we were away on a holiday, and I could rely on
them implicitly.... If I accused Mariette and her son in any way, they
would all suffer, alas!... I thought, too, that possibly there was
nothing evil in that midnight visit to the attic and the cellar.
Perhaps, after all, Mariette had wished to have a private conversation
with her son, and had wanted to show or give him various things of
hers.... Perhaps her angry attitude towards me could be explained by the
fact that she feared lest I should suspect her son, as I had done
Couillard. Perhaps she was as distracted as I was myself, and almost
irresponsible for what she did or said!...

At the same time, I was trembling with fear, and wondering.... At
daybreak, I fell asleep out of sheer exhaustion, but was soon awakened
by the banging of the doors. I went out to see what the matter was.

M. Hamard had arrived with a whole troop of detectives to carry out
investigations throughout my house. The workmen came as usual, and also
a small crowd of journalists. Mariette was furious, and swore like a
trooper.

Suddenly, a man rushed in through the gate. He came to me and said: "I
hear that M. Hamard, the Chief of the _Surete_, is here. Please
Mademoiselle, tell him I absolutely must speak to him!"

"Well, and what have you to tell him?" said M. Hamard. He turned to me,
and whispered: "You see, people still take you for your daughter!" Then,
addressing the man, whose name was Wagner, he added: "You can talk
before this lady. She is Mme. Steinheil herself, and I am M. Hamard."

He waved the journalists away, for all had, of course, eagerly pressed
around us. The man then breathlessly declared that he could give most
valuable information about Alexandre Wolff; that Wolff, on the day after
the crime, had a great deal of money in his possession.... M. Hamard
asked me to leave him alone with the man; and I withdrew.

For practically the whole of the day, the detectives searched the house.
They examined everything in Mariette's lodge, searched the cellar, and
also the attic. I helped them. I felt sure that they would discover
something that would lead to the complete solution of the problem which
was driving me crazy. But the detectives found nothing, and I grew
desperate.

The attic was a vast one, and encumbered with boxes, furniture, models'
costumes and what not.... I went up to watch the detectives at work. I
wondered what had happened during the night, when Mariette and her son
had been there! Those words: "There are three missing...." haunted me. I
was care-worn and ill. I had not slept for forty-eight hours and I had
gone through a thousand maddening anxieties.... I wanted the men to find
something.... It seemed to me that they were not keen enough, that they
did not search as thoroughly as they should.... I rushed to my room,
took a tiny diamond in a box, rushed back to the attic, and dropped it
in the dust. Yes! that was a good idea. They would renew their efforts,
now.... I called their attention to the glittering speck, and one of the
detectives picked up the small diamond. M. Hamard, who was present,
quickly pocketed the stone, and remarked: "We will have to find out
whether it is a real diamond or mere paste."

The detectives left the house at the end of the afternoon. The
journalists were at liberty to come in now, and they did come in! Fifty
or sixty of them. They scampered in like wild beasts! They asked
questions of every one in the house. Even those I had thought ponderous
and dignified lost all control of themselves.... A shower of questions
rained upon me. "Write anything you please," I said wearily, "but do
leave me alone, I must sleep, I must forget all this...." I locked
myself up in a room and snatched an hour's sleep, and it was Marthe's
turn to watch over her mother....

A noise like the voice of an angry sea roused me. I went to the garden
gate, and through the small wicket I saw a great crowd of men and
women--women especially--who howled fearfully. Marthe held my hand and
trembled. "Mother, mother, what is it?" she kept asking. A sedate
English--or American--journalist, who was with us at the time, said,
"Don't pay any attention, Madame. Leave this gate. Some side with you,
but others loathe you--and neither the one nor the other knows why." And
he added in a murmur, "The great enemy of reason, the Multitude...."
Words spoken at a dramatic moment often engrave themselves on the mind,
and that last sentence often came back to me. I have since found that
the journalist was quoting Sir Thomas Brown.

Mme. Chabrier, who had gone out early in the afternoon, had the greatest
difficulty in reaching the house, and so had the messengers and the
postman, who brought shoals of letters which I read more eagerly than
before.... At last, late in the evening, policemen cleared the Impasse
Ronsin and the storm died away. We sat down to dinner, Marthe and I, but
couldn't eat....

In the middle of the night--it must have been 1.30 A.M.--the door-bell
rang persistently. I rose, and dressed hastily, Mariette was already at
the gate. "Who is it?" I cried; "what is it?" There were half a dozen
journalists outside, who wanted to know if it were true that I had
committed suicide! Mariette shouted, "No, of course not! Go away!" and
banged the wicket to. That night again I was unable to sleep. I thought
that I could not live through another day such as I had just passed,
another night such as was now slowly dragging away. I was convinced that
I had reached the limit of human endurance, but events were to prove to
me, very soon--within the next twenty-four hours in fact!--that I was
wrong. My calvary had only begun.... There is perhaps no limit to the
human capacity for suffering, physically and mentally.

I thought of Couillard. What was he doing? Saying? Were my suspicions,
were all the anonymous letters, quite wrong? Would he confess? Had he
anything to confess?

An inspector had called and told me during the afternoon that Couillard
had said that M. Steinheil, on the Saturday, May 30th, less than twelve
hours before the crime, had told him that he expected some important
letters, and had ordered him to hide them under the table-cover in the
hall, when they came. Two messages had come, and Couillard had hidden
them as he had been told.... These were important facts. It was not yet
time to go to M. Hamard and tell him the truth about the pearl....
Couillard was making new and highly interesting statements, and might
know and say much more.... If Couillard was quite innocent, and knew
absolutely nothing that could throw some light on the crime, it was
wicked of me to leave him in prison when, by stating that I had placed
the pearl in his pocket-book merely in order to make the valet speak, he
would have been at once set free. But at that time I did sincerely
believe that he was not quite innocent, and was convinced that at any
moment I might hear that he had revealed the great secret and the names
of the assassins. And, therefore, I waited still a little longer....




CHAPTER XX

THE SO-CALLED "NIGHT OF THE CONFESSION" (NOVEMBER 25-26, 1908)


Early in the morning, journalists came as usual to "find out the
latest," and as usual they followed the workmen into the house.

At 10 A.M. detectives arrived to continue their searching, and once
more, I hoped that they would make some discovery that would lead to
"the truth." Mariette was in a state of frenzy and said to me, the
moment she saw me: "The crowd is against you. Couillard is arrested.
They will arrest my son and me, next, I bet. You're going to tell the
_Surete_ what happened the other night, when you saw me and
Alexandre.... Let all this fuss be stopped.... Life isn't worth
living.... Send the police away from here. They are driving me mad with
their endless investigations. If all this goes on much longer, I don't
know what may happen. At any rate, I shan't stop at anything! After all,
if there is any one who knows something about the murder, it must be M.
Bdl."

Mariette knew of my brief friendship with M. Bdl, and was fully aware
that my relations with him had long ceased, but, for some reason, she
wanted to intimidate me, and she hurled that name at me as a weapon, for
she realised how anxious I was that Marthe should not know about that
indiscretion.

Mariette went on, more fiercely than ever: "If the police don't leave
this house, if you say a word against Alexandre or me, I shall say all I
know about M. Ch. and M. Bdl., and then we shall see! Ah! you say you
love your daughter.... Well, I love my son.... We shall see, we shall
see...." Then, abruptly, her tone changed, and she said desperately:
"There is only one thing for me to do; I must get drunk."...

There was a constant buzzing in my ears, my whole body was on fire, as
it were, and it seemed to me as if my heart, which beat so terribly
fast, would suddenly stop.... I looked at Mariette, and with all the
resolution I could summon, I said to her: "I shall go to the end of this
affair. I shall speak all the truth, I shall say all I know."...

Mariette was no longer listening. She held her poor head and mumbled: "I
must get drunk, drunk... that's the only thing to do." I pitied her and
walked away.

M. Hamard arrived, saw his men, and then came to me and said: "We can
find nothing.... True, many months have elapsed since the murder.... By
the way, M. Leydet would like to see you at the Palace of Justice.
Inspector Pouce will come here and accompany you.... The crowd is rather
hostile."

"Very well, M. Hamard," I replied.

At that very moment, a whole band of journalists literally burst into
the house.... Some of them actually entered through the windows on the
ground floor. They surrounded me, and such was the babel they made that
I could hear only fragments of sentences: "Have you heard.... A jeweller
has said that... there is an incident... Couillard... the ring...."
Flashlight explosions startled me at every moment.... A thousand
questions were hurled at me.... One journalist on the staff of the
_Gaulois_ asked to photograph my hand because there was a "ring-story"
coming out....

I was ill and I was bewildered. There have been many days in my life
when shock has followed shock and emotion emotion, as if some pitiless
fate were trying to crush me, but that day, November 25, 1908, was
undoubtedly the most painful, the most harrowing in my whole existence.

Whilst I tried to answer the questions of the journalists, since they
would not leave me alone until I did, various people came to visit the
apartments which were to let. (I had already let the vast studio, with
its antique furniture, to a foreign artist for L320 a year. The
three-years' lease was signed, but my arrest altered everything, and the
lease was made null and void.)

After the journalists had gone, I tried to draw up an inventory of the
silver, furniture, and linen in the apartments I wished to let, but the
pen shook in my hand and I had to give up the attempt.

Lunch-time came. It was impossible for me to eat. I had lost all
appetite, and besides, journalists once more invaded the house. Why did
I not barricade my door? For the simple reason that the workmen, who
were now nearing the end of their task, came and went constantly. Some
brought rolls of wall-paper; others took away boards, ladders, tools....
And whenever the gate was open to a workman, one or several reporters
would rush in behind him. Besides, I have no doubt that had everything
been barricaded against them, they would have jumped over the wall, as I
had seen at least one do....

Inspector Pouce came and said to me: "Take your jewels with you; they
will be wanted."

I fetched them, and with the inspector drove to the Palace of Justice in
a taxi. On the way I noticed that Inspector Pouce looked extremely sad.
I told him so.

"Oh, Madame," he said, "if I were in your place, I should probably have
lost my reason long ago. How those who, thinking they were doing the
right thing, urged you to seek the assistance of the Press, and to make
fresh endeavours to trace the murderers, must regret it now that they
realise what martyrdom you have endured... a martyrdom which has not yet
come to an end."

I listened to Inspector Pouce, but did not understand him. I was too
numb and broken. How I should have loved to sleep.... I said so to my
companion. My head felt so heavy.... I almost fell asleep in the taxi.

At the Palace of Justice I was received by Maitre Aubin and M.
Steinhardt, his secretary. The former looked very pleased: "Things are
going on very well," he exclaimed. "Couillard has made several
interesting statements already.... By the way, there is something that
worries me for your sake. Are you sure you have not two pearls alike? If
so, you had better say it."

I did not reply, but went alone into M. Leydet's _Cabinet_. Through an
open door, I saw him, in the next room, walking up and down.

He came in and bowed to me, as usual, but I noticed he was extremely
pale.

"Bring in Couillard," M. Leydet ordered, "his counsel, M. Bouin, the
jewel-expert, M. Gaillard, and M. Souloy."

When they had all come and sat down, M. Leydet, in a voice that shook
with emotion, explained to me that M. Souloy had made a statement....

I was dumbfounded. I did not mind the fact that M. Souloy had made a
statement, evidently about the pearl. What upset me was the fact that he
had done so too soon, before Couillard had made a full confession of all
he knew. "So, that is what you have done, M. Souloy," I exclaimed. "And
this after I had called on you and told you we should have to go to M.
Hamard, one day."...

"Madame," said the jeweller, "my conscience..."

I suddenly found myself unable to think clearly, unable to realise
things.... M. Souloy had made the _talisman_ years ago.... He knew me
well. Surely he could not believe me capable of a wicked action. Why had
he come spontaneously to M. Leydet to "make a statement." Did he take me
for a criminal? What did it all mean?...

M. Leydet and the others gave all kinds of explanations. I was unable to
follow them.... Then, M. Leydet said to me: "You had _two_ 'new-art'
rings, had you not? One stolen by Couillard and the other handed to M.
Souloy?"

I could have replied just the word "Yes," and Couillard was lost, but
although everything was blurred in my mind, I saw that it would be
criminal to do such a thing, and that whatever Couillard might have
done, I had no right to tell falsehoods, and I replied, "no, only one."

M. Leydet looked at me, with almost haggard eyes, I repeated, "Only
one."

"But do you realise the gravity of what you are saying?"

Thereupon one of Souloy's employees came in, and looked at me fixedly
and in a way that terrified me. And I thought of certain words spoken by
M. Sauerwein, of the _Matin_.

After Couillard's arrest, M. Sauerwein, no doubt in order to make me
forget his insults and his fantastic accusations in connection with the
Rossignol "clue," had come to tell me, "I know the jeweller who bought
the jewels stolen on the night of the murder. He is a receiver of stolen
goods.... I must not tell you his name.... He has a wife and children.
He is afraid of being lynched, if he were discovered.... But he is in my
power...." And I was mad enough to believe M. Sauerwein.

When I saw M. Souloy's clerk, I felt sure he was the man M. Sauerwein
had spoken of. I thought that he could be employed and at the same time
be a "receiver." For several hours I was questioned, but I replied in a
vague manner....

Later, I felt so faint that Maitre Aubin was called in.... M. Leydet
watched me in a strange manner, and said many things which I did not
understand.... And then, with Maitre Aubin, I left the room. He asked me
to meet him the next morning; he wanted to have a serious talk with me,
and afterwards we could call together on M. Leydet.

"Why not talk things over to-night?" I suggested.

"No, no; I am not free now."

Had Maitre Aubin been "free" that night, I should probably not have been
a prisoner the next day. Then he added, "Above all, don't receive a
single journalist."

But when I went home with Marthe, who had come to fetch me, it was in
the company of a journalist, and in the house I found two more, one
belonging to the _Gaulois_, and the other to the _Petit Journal_, who
had been waiting for me!

Both, however, were extremely polite, and when I told them that I was
dead beat, and that I would perhaps see them the next morning, they
bowed and walked away.

A representative of the _Temps_ also came, and asked: "What is all this
trouble about your jewels, your rings?... Can we do anything for
you?"... He spoke softly, courteously, and I was thankful to him, but I
had nothing to say.

I sank into an arm-chair. Marthe, near me, sobbed. She said she had been
told at the Palace of Justice that I would be arrested.... It was
heartrending to see her tears.

At about nine o'clock, just as I was about to return to my room, for,
even on the day after the crime, I had not felt so utterly broken down,
Mariette came to say that M. Barby had arrived. The _Matin_ again! Then
M. Hutin, of the _Echo de Paris_, entered the room.

Before I could utter a single word M. Hutin exclaimed angrily, almost
coarsely, just as if he had every right to invade my home and speak to
me as he pleased: "Ah! that's the way you go on! And I was stupid enough
to take up your case! So you have been making a fool of me! What have
you been up to, eh?... The black gowns: that's a fable! Your jewels:
none have been stolen! The money: there was none! You will have to tell
me the truth...."

"Leave this house," I said; "I haven't the strength to argue with
you."...

He gave a wicked little laugh, and went on, "Everybody is against you
now. It is not Couillard they should have arrested. It is your lover..."

My lover! I thought of M. Bdl., whom I had not seen for months, and I
said to myself, "What! they are going to arrest him! What is the
matter?... What do they want?"...

The door was flung open. M. de Labruyere rushed in. He gesticulated
frantically, and looked even more angry and threatening than M.
Hutin....

"You are a wretch, nothing but a wretch," he began. "It's dreadful.
Couillard is innocent; he never stole the pearl."...

I interrupted him. "Have pity on me. I have not slept for four days.
Leave me in peace. I have nothing to tell to either of you. I am ill,
can't you see I am ill?"

They shrugged their shoulders. M. de Labruyere went on: "I have just
left the Minister of Justice. There is only the _Matin_ and the _Echo de
Paris_ who can save you. You will do as you are told. If you don't, then
you, your daughter, your brother, your lover, the Chabriers, you will
all be arrested.... Your cousin Meissonier has already been arrested. A
whole squadron of cuirassiers has surrounded his house at Poissy to save
him from the fury of mob.... The Impasse is blocked with people. Your
house is surrounded. There is an immense crowd outside, and they want to
set the house on fire, want to lynch you."...

I listened to all this, but I did not understand. I listened so intently
that every word spoken that night left an indelible mark in my mind. Had
I understood, I would have realised that they were recklessly lying in
order to wrench from me a confession, which I could not make since I was
innocent, and that, however ill and distracted I was, I ought somehow to
have summoned up enough authority to have made them leave the house.

Then, the tune changed. Intimidation had achieved its aim. I was before
the two men, trembling, incapable of defending myself. They could now
try another method: the sympathetic. After strong drama, pathos.

"Poor woman, tell us the truth. We are your best, your only friends....
Confess, if not for your sake, then for the sake of your daughter, the
unfortunate little Marthe, who is there sobbing, in that room. Speak to
us, and you are saved. We are the only people who can save you both! Be
quick, be quick. Listen to the mob outside. Can you hear it?"...

I could hear a wild surging in my ears, but I had heard that noise very
often of late, when I was ill and worn.... These men were putting me on
the rack. What did they want of me? What had I done to be treated in
this way?... Had they made up their minds to make me lose my reason
completely?...

Then, suddenly, I saw a face through the window of the dining-room....
It was the face of an ugly old woman with wild eyes, and the old woman
was shaking her fist at me....

I cried, "Look out! look out! Mariette is there!"...

"All right... never mind," said M. Hutin. "Now, listen to us. You are
lost, and not only you but every one in the house unless you confess."

"Bunau-Varilla is rich," said M. de Labruyere. "He'll save you. They are
coming to arrest you all, you and Marthe. You understand, your little
Marthe, first of all. But we can just save you, if you will be quick....
We are in a hurry."...

Yes, they were in a hurry: their sensational copy had to go to press in
time. I had said nothing yet, and they had still to write what I would
say, what they felt sure they _would make me say_!

M. de Labruyere went on, in a coaxing, pathetic manner, "All we want is
to save you, in spite of yourself! I tell you Bunau-Varilla will do
anything. We will smuggle you abroad and you will forget all your
troubles."...

He came quite close to me and added: "Think of your poor dead mother.
She called you 'Meg, Meg...' that night.... Well, Meg, Meg, tell us
everything."

I faltered. Everything seemed to turn around me.

"What do you want me to say?" I asked.

M. Hutin seized my hands: "Everything: only, you know, don't talk to us
about black gowns. Nobody believes in them; it is of no use insisting
any longer upon them. Don't talk about the jewels either, that's played
out, too. You had better begin by telling us the truth about that pearl,
and also tell us the name of the man who was your 'friend.'..."

I replied: "It was I who put the pearl in Couillard's pocket-book, it
was I who put the diamond in the attic; the name of my friend was Bdl."

Mariette was again making signs at the window, and I thought once more
of Alexandre Wolff....

The two journalists kept asking me questions. They both spoke at the
same time. I had sunk from my chair on to the floor. I would not, I
could not, reply.... They grew angry. _I fell on to the floor._ I
besought them to go; they seized me by the wrists and shouted: "Confess,
confess!..."

Then seeing that I did not speak, M. de Labruyere whispered: "I will
tell you the whole truth. I have seen Briand this afternoon. You must
speak. But above all, don't say what you have said before. Public
Opinion doesn't believe in the story you told. Tell another! Tell us the
names of the murderers."

My blood ran cold. I no longer had any capacity for thinking. Those men
had killed my mind, my reason. They wanted names, any names.

I spoke, one, two, three names. I said "Salvator" (one of my late
husband's models). They were not satisfied! I then said: "It's not
Salvator, it's his brother!" That would not do either.... Then I thought
of Alexandre Wolff, who had been so much in my mind lately....

"Alexandre Wolff," I cried. "He is the murderer."

This suited them. They began to scribble. They made suggestions as to
things that had taken place.... They had evidently (as I realised
afterwards) received anonymous letters, like myself.... I replied: "Yes,
yes."...

Then, their faces suddenly brightened up. They had won! The most
sensational article for many years would appear in a few hours' time
under their signature. The greatest day in their career had come!

Then, they felt grateful though in a great hurry, for it was after
midnight, and they spoke a few words of encouragement.

"Everything will be all right. We will send you a motor-car. You will go
to a hotel, so as to avoid being lynched, you and your daughter. And
afterwards you will go abroad, and forget everything." (My daughter
heard them speak these words.)

They shook hands with me, in the heartiest manner, and said: "Remember,
we are all your friends, your best, your only friends. You can always
rely on us. Briand, Bunau-Varilla, will defend you. With such
protectors, you are absolutely safe, and your little Marthe too. The law
cannot touch you, in these circumstances."...

They went to the door. Then M. Hutin came back. He had forgotten
something of considerable importance:

"Whatever happens, don't change anything of what you have told us....
You and your daughter are lost if you do!"...

They went at last. I had been racked and tortured _for four hours_; I
was bruised, and broken, and bleeding; and in the agony of my pain I
sank to the floor, and lay there, wishing with all my heart for the
relief of death. Then, mercifully, everything went blank....

       *       *       *       *       *

I could not better compare that "Night of the Confession" than to a
terrible nightmare. In a nightmare appear the people one has seen or has
been talking about during the preceding hours.... Twice that day, I had
been asked about M. Bdl.; twenty times I had been spoken to about
Alexandre Wolff. And there were the anonymous letters. I quoted a whole
passage of one of those letters, to my tormentors, as in a trance, and
that made up part of my "confession." "Wolff had come to steal.... He
had threatened to declare that I ordered him to murder my husband and my
mother, if I denounced him...." This theory of the crime had been time
after time suggested to me in letters. And thus, I spoke about M.
Borderel and accused Wolff. And when I saw Mariette at the window making
signs to me, I felt sure the letters were right and that Wolff was the
murderer....

Perhaps, alas, the poor woman realised that those men were making me say
what they pleased, and she trembled for the son she loved.

A nightmare indeed!... But after a nightmare, one comes back to life,
peace, and even happiness, and exclaims: "Thank Heaven, it is not true;
it was only an awful dream!"... But after my nightmare, I awoke to
worse tortures: I awoke to find myself torn away from my child,
arrested, and thrown into prison. The ghastly drama was not ended; it
had only just begun.

Would to God that I could forget that nightmare, but, alas! I remember
it in every painful detail, as I set it down here. I hardly understood
what I was told or what I said; I was clay in the hands of the two men
who in their professional zeal stopped at nothing to wrench from me
matter for sensational copy--but clay retains impressions. They made me
lose my reason for a time, but not my memory, and after three years, the
details of that awful night of agony are still so cruelly vivid in my
mind that my hand trembles as I write. My whole being shudders, I hear
the men's harsh voices, I feel their hands close upon my wrists--and the
pen falls from my nerveless fingers....

       *       *       *       *       *

I will now quote--in all fairness--the narrative of the "night of the
confession" as M. Hutin made it to M. Andre--the judge who replaced M.
Leydet--on November 27, 1908 (two days later):

"I wish first of all to state that in this affair I merely acted as a
journalist, and that I have never in any way confused such a _role_ with
that of the Law."

Then, after a few remarks about my letter addressed to the _Echo de
Paris_, and published on October 31, M. Hutin proceeds: "I arrived (at
the house in the Impasse Ronsin) at about 9.30 P.M. As soon as M.
Chabrier saw me, he exclaimed: 'Ah! you come as a saviour,' or at least
he said, 'You are welcome.' (The bitter irony of it.)

"Mme. Steinheil herself received me with much sympathy. I noticed she
was _profoundly depressed_ (affaissee). She received me in the
dining-room.... I told her that to my mind the best thing she could do
was to free her conscience by telling me the whole truth. I told her
that the next day, the Law, by its own methods, would extract the truth
from her, and that she had better make a clean breast of everything.

"At about 10 P.M. M. de Labruyere arrived.

"He, too, strongly insisted that Mme. Steinheil should tell the truth.
At one moment, Mme. Steinheil exclaimed: 'What do you want to know from
me?'

"We said that she had certainly placed the pearl in Couillard's
pocket-book herself, she admitted it, and we asked her why she had done
it. She hesitated for a long time... then, finally declared that she had
wished to divert the investigations of the Law from another person. It
was quite clear that Mme. Steinheil was trying to escape the interview.
Answering our questions she said she detested her husband, that they
'were poor,' that they 'had nothing.' _I started raising false issues to
get at the truth_.... Then she declared that the criminal was Salvator
(one of M. Steinheil's models). She retracted her words and said: 'No,
I am losing my head. It is not Salvator, it is his brother.' Then she
stated that she was fond of a man, M. Bdl., and that all she had done of
late was in order to prove to him that she was still actively pursuing
the affair.

"We asked her again why she had directed suspicion against Remy
Couillard. She replied: 'I have always had suspicions of him.' We told
her that, in any case, she knew what had taken place on the night of May
30th-31st, that she knew who was the real criminal. And both M. de
Labruyere and I declared to her that: 'We will not go until you tell us
the name.' She exclaimed: 'I cannot tell you his name, because there is
some one whom it would kill.' We asked her: 'Who? His wife? a sister?'
She said: 'No, his mother... his mother would die of grief or would kill
herself.'

"We asked her whether she referred to some one in the _entourage_, and
finally she said: 'It is Alexandre Wolff, Mariette's son.' Then she
begged us to let Wolff know very quickly so that he might get away. We
asked her if Mariette knew about all this, and she replied: 'Oh!
Mariette is there, watching us! She must not know anything. Yes,
Mariette has known everything since... who knows how long?... Mariette
will now probably turn against me.' Then narrating the crime, she told
us: 'I did not ask Wolff to come. He came to steal the money.... There
were no jewels. He terrorised me. He told me that if I spoke, he could
assert that I had summoned him so that he might rid me of my husband.'
She added that since then and even recently Alexandre Wolff had
threatened to kill her and her daughter.

"I asked her if she were very sure that she was not again accusing an
innocent person, if she spoke the truth, and she replied: 'Oh! the
moment is too tragic for me not to tell the truth.' She added: 'My life
is over,' and she talked about killing herself. I gave her the advice
not to do such a thing, and to go in the morning and talk to the
examining magistrate, and tell him the whole truth.

"At a certain moment, she rose.... She walked like an automaton, and
her arms raised....

"M. de Labruyere and I left at about 12.50 A.M. expecting her to tell
the whole truth in the morning, and expressing our sympathy with her.

"She was then very much depressed.

"During the whole evening we were alone with Mme. Steinheil. The two
Chabriers and Mme. Steinheil's daughter were in a room near by."...

      (_Signed_) ANDRE.
                      SIMON (_Clerk_).
                      HUTIN.

      (_Dossier_ Cote 3260)

M. Barby, of the _Matin_, remained with Marthe and the Chabriers,
evidently to prevent any one from coming to my assistance. The plans of
these men were well laid.

The evidence given on December 29, 1908, by M. Barby to M. Andre runs as
follows:

"At about 8.30 P.M., on November 25, I arrived at the house in the
Impasse Ronsin. I found Mme. Steinheil very depressed. She complained
about Souloy, the jeweller, saying he owed a great deal to her and that
she could not understand why he had made 'such a statement.' At 9.30 M.
Hutin arrived, soon followed by M. de Labruyere. Between them and Mme.
Steinheil a long conversation took place in the sitting-room, whilst I
remained in the _next_ room with the Chabriers and Mlle. Marthe
Steinheil.

"Several times M. de Labruyere came to talk to me, and briefly told me
what was going on. Towards midnight, he came and said: 'Mme. Steinheil
is confessing to us.'

"M. de Labruyere and M. Hutin went away at about 1 A.M. As they went, M.
de Labruyere rapidly explained the confession made by Mme. Steinheil....
He recommended me to remain, and, as far as I could, prevent Mme.
Steinheil from talking with Mariette Wolff and check any act of violence
on the part of Mariette against Mme. Steinheil.

"After the two men had gone, I remained about half an hour in the
dining-room with Mme. Steinheil. She was then very much depressed. She
wept, wrung her hands, and cried: 'My poor mother! How I wished I had
died like her!'

"_She said to me: 'What have I been doing? What have I confessed? What
is going to happen to me?'_...

"... At a certain moment, she said: 'I am not sure that Alexandre Wolff
acted alone, for I heard noises in the hall and on the staircase.... I
have only seen him.'...

"Then she added: 'I shan't be able to prove what I have said about
Wolff.... I must die....'

"She asked me to kill her. She besought me to give her the means of
killing herself, she asked for strychnine and told me that if I had
nothing I must go and fetch the doctor, who could surely find something
for her.

"I did my best to calm her.

"The Chabriers and I pressed her to go to bed, but she would not. Then
we thought of drinking tea. To prevent Mariette from talking to Mme.
Steinheil, I told her to pass the tray through one of the hall windows.
She did so, but I saw her exchange a long look with Mme. Steinheil. That
look lasted about one minute. Mariette muttered: 'What's the matter?'
Mme. Steinheil was dumb. Mariette then walked round and entered the
dining-room. She threw herself into Mme. Steinheil's arms.... I did not
hear them say anything and then Mariette went away....

"Mme. Steinheil told us that she intended calling on the judge in the
morning. She was quiet now, and asked M. Chabrier to go and warn her
counsel, Maitre Aubin, whilst she went to M. Leydet. She spoke in a
calm, precise way. At last, she consented to go to bed.

"Afterwards she asked for Mariette. She said, 'I can't go without seeing
Mariette; if I did she would guess something.' Mariette came. M.
Chabrier and I were in the room, a few yards from the bed.

"The two women spoke in whispers. We could not hear anything. The scene
lasted two or three minutes. When I tried to put an end to it, Mariette,
who is usually polite to me, exclaimed angrily: 'Leave me alone'
(_Foutez-moi la paix_).

"At last Mariette went back to her lodge.

"I tried to make Mme. Steinheil repeat what she had said to Mariette,
and after much hesitation she told me she had asked Mariette: 'If they
arrest me, and the truth is discovered, what will you do?' and that
Mariette had replied: 'I'll deny everything.'

"After a while--Mme. Chabrier was then upstairs, and I was in the
dining-room with M. Chabrier--we heard a door being opened on the ground
floor, and M. Chabrier saw that 'Champagne'--the dog--was in the garden.
We thought that Mariette had gone to warn her son. Mme. Chabrier (who
had come down) was exceedingly alarmed, and said that Alexandre Wolff
would perhaps come and kill them. M. Chabrier then went upstairs to
fetch a revolver. The dog was still in the garden. Following my advice,
M. Chabrier went to fill a decanter with water in the kitchen, to see
whether Mariette was in her lodge. When he returned, he said she was
there.

"Soon afterwards Mariette came to us in the dining-room. At that very
moment Mme. Steinheil called to me from her room. I went to her, and she
again besought me to kill her, because she would be unable to prove what
she had said about Alexandre Wolff. She again asked me to give her
strychnine, and to fetch the doctor.

"Meanwhile, Mariette had returned to her lodge. Mme. Chabrier went
there, and when she returned she told us: 'I found Mariette with a
revolver in her hand, and she said, "That's my last hope."' Mme.
Chabrier added that Mariette had declared that she had already tried to
commit suicide with the gas-pipe, and that she had let the dog into the
garden so that it should not be asphyxiated.... That had happened at
about the time when M. Chabrier had gone to fetch the water.

"Mme. Chabrier fetched Mariette. The latter was tottering, and her face
was livid.

"Addressing herself to me, Mariette said: 'Tell me what has happened. I
prefer anything rather than to be like this in the dark.' We told her
that there was nothing the matter, and spoke some kind words to her.

"It was then about 4 A.M.

"At that time, M. Bourse, a colleague of mine on the staff of the
_Matin_, arrived.

"He said to M. Chabrier: 'The newspapers are about to appear and render
public Mme. Steinheil's confession. The crowd, since yesterday, is very
hostile; it is to be feared that the mob may proceed to acts of violence
against Mme. Steinheil and those who live in this house. Mme. Steinheil
had better leave the place and go to some friends or to a hotel to await
the time when she can see M. Leydet.

"M. Chabrier agreed to this but remarked that it would be better to go
straight to the _Surete_. M. Chabrier told Mme. Steinheil and Mlle.
Marthe this, and both accepted the suggestion.

"Mme. Steinheil prepared to start. She was then quite calm, so calm that
she gave instructions about the house, said that the dog should be
looked after and that the covers should be put on the furniture. Then
she handed a hundred franc note to Mme. Chabrier 'for the household.'

"Towards 4.15 A.M. she drove away with her daughter and M. Chabrier. She
had kissed every one, even Mariette, and had been continually repeating:
'Courage, have courage' or some similar words.

"M. Bourse and I remained with Mme. Chabrier at her husband's request.
Mariette joined us and again questioned us to find out what had
happened. I merely replied: 'We have advised Mme. Steinheil to go and
spend a few days with some friends of hers, in order to avoid the
hostility of the crowd.'"

      (Signed)  BARBY.
                SIMON.
                ANDRE.

      (_Dossier_ Cote 3282)

Mme. Chabrier, called upon to give evidence before M. Andre on December
16th, 1908, made statements which were almost the same as those made by
M. Barby. Her evidence, however, contained a few additional remarks:

"After the departure of the two journalists, M. Barby remained with us.
Mme. Steinheil drank some tea. She walked like an automaton. Her eyes
were haggard and gazed into space. I had never seen her in such a state.
She did not speak. Marthe and I took her to her room and undressed
her.... At 3.30 A.M., M. Bourse of the _Matin_ arrived in an
automobile.... My husband and I went and told Mme. Steinheil that she
should get up and go.... She said 'yes.' My husband added that he was
going to take her to the _Surete_ to M. Hamard.... She answered: 'Yes, I
will feel safer there than anywhere else.'"....

(_Dossier_ Cote 3251)




CHAPTER XXI

MY ARREST


To resume my own recital.

Marthe rested in my arms during the hour of sleep which we snatched out
of the mad turmoil of that night. When I was awakened everything came
back to me. It was decided that I should go to M. Hamard, and I kept
repeating to myself: "I must tell him exactly what the journalists told
me, I must not change a word. Otherwise, they have said, I shall be lost
and Marthe too." I had suffered so much that I was numb, and had hardly
any feeling in my body. I was calm. Nothing mattered.... Still I had one
fear, the terrible mob outside, the mob that wanted to kill us all, to
set fire to the house. I kissed Mme. Chabrier and gave her some money to
look after Marthe, in case anything happened to me.... I had been told
so many times during the night that I should be arrested!... I said to
Mariette: "Now, you must speak the truth...." She replied: "I will deny
everything."... The fresh air in the garden did me good. When I stepped
out into the Impasse with Marthe and M. Chabrier, I was surprised to see
that no one was there, not even a policeman! Those two men had lied
then.... A taxi from the _Matin_ was waiting outside the gate.

"Where are we going?" the driver asked.

"To the _Surete_," I replied.

M. Hamard was not yet up, of course. It was then about 4.20.... We
waited awhile; then he arrived, hastily dressed, his hair unbrushed,
wearing a night-shirt under his coat, and a pair of black slippers.
Utter bewilderment was written on his face.

Some one told me: "M. Hamard is going to write down everything you
say."

I said, or rather repeated, everything I had been made to say during the
night: no men in black gowns; no stolen jewels; M. Bdl., my friend;
Alexandre Wolff, the murderer.

M. Hamard said to me: "You and Wolff will be confronted."

M. Leydet arrived. "You have made a laughing-stock of me," he exclaimed;
"why did you not tell me the truth?"... I said: "Forgive me."

Why did he weep?... I wondered, and said to myself: "If he had had
greater tenacity, if he had searched with greater diligence, he would
have found the three men and the woman...."

Then Maitre Aubin arrived. "What do I hear!" he exclaimed wildly. "You
have accused Wolff!"

Wolff was then brought in. (He had been arrested at seven in the
morning.) My declaration was read to him. He turned pale with anger and
vehemently denied everything. I certainly had serious suspicions against
Wolff, but, of course, my declaration, the new story of the crime, had
been directly inspired by the anonymous letters and also by the two
journalists, who had told me to "drop" the men in the black gowns and
the stolen jewels--and to find something else. I did not know what to
say, and thought that the only thing to do was to repeat the so-called
"Confession" I had made during the night.

Mariette was present, and she spoke of her devotion to me. Wolff now
explained his movements on the night of May 30th. He had sold a mare in
the morning, and taken her to the Eastern Station in the afternoon. He
had had a few "drinks" with the buyer, dined with his partner, and spent
the evening with him in a cafe. The two men parted at 11.30 P.M. On the
way home Wolff met a friend or two and had other "drinks," and went to
bed at 1.30 or 2 A.M. On the 31st, he had sold a horse in a small place
outside Paris, and had not heard of the murder until June 1st.

When first interrogated by M. Hamard--M. Leydet being present--I had
firmly declared before Mariette: "It is your son Alexandre, whom I saw
enter my room on the night of the crime. He gagged and bound me...." and
now, after Wolff's explanations, I repeated: "It was Wolff who came
into my room.... _Or else it was some one whose figure and face are just
like his._"

Later in the day, before M. Leydet and in the presence of Wolff, I said:
"I can say nothing more than what I have said to you.... I have no
material proofs to corroborate my statements," and I added: "Alexandre,
since you were in my room on the night of the crime, _you might help us
to discover the criminal_." And I apologised to him.

I quote these three different statements of mine, made at intervals, on
that 26th day of November, from the _Dossier_, Cote 65 and Cote 70.

All day long questions were asked me and confrontations took place....
And I had had less than two hours rest during the past five days.

Wolff called me a "mad and hysterical woman...." He was not far from the
truth, alas. But I remembered the warning, "This time don't change a
word of what you have told us, or else you and Marthe are lost."

I thought: If I am arrested, Wolff and Couillard are arrested too. And
since they know something, they will speak. Couillard has already made a
few revelations. Now it will be Wolff's turn. The whole truth will come
out. I did not know that that very day Couillard would be released and
that Wolff was only in custody for a few hours.

Maitre Aubin once or twice took me to another room and entreated me not
to accuse Wolff.... Then both he and M. Hamard besought me to reflect:
"You have lost your reason," they said. "Retract your accusation against
Wolff...." They spoke kindly, and I thought: "They want to arrange
matters to stop this whole affair, because of the political mystery in
it. But I must resist to the end. The three men and the woman must be
found. I have gone too far, suffered too much, to give up the fight and
the search."

Some one told me: "If you persist in your accusations, they will arrest
both you and your daughter!"

My poor Marthe again. Journalists, the Law... everybody thought to
silence me by making use of my love for my child! I was indignant. Let
them arrest me! What did it matter! What did anything matter so long as
the murderers were sought--and found! She was innocent; they could but
recognise that at once. And as for me, what had I done? I had accused
Couillard and placed a pearl in his pocket-book to have him arrested, to
make him say what he knew.... I deserved to be punished for that. But
since I had been urged in every conceivable way to denounce the valet,
they would understand and soon forgive me.... Besides, he and Wolff
would perhaps speak. The letters were unanimous: they knew--and the
truth would at last be revealed.

And now Marthe arrived, accompanied by M. Chabrier. How pale she was!
How tear-stained and frightened her dear eyes! She sank on my breast,
clutched my arms, and sobbed. "Mother, mother," she cried, "they want to
put us in prison.... Can nothing be done? Say everything you know, if
you know everything!"....

Then M. Grandjean, _Substitut_ of the _Procureur_, tore my daughter away
from me and said: "Ah! you love your daughter! Well, we shall make her
suffer in order to make you talk!"

Since then, my daughter has told me that during the afternoon of that
dreadful day the same M. Grandjean had threatened to arrest her, and
also M. Chabrier, who had burst into tears.

From 4.30 A.M. till 7 P.M., with brief intervals, and one hour (2 P.M.)
during which I was allowed to talk with Marthe and have some tea, I was
subjected to endless examinations, in M. Hamard's _Cabinet_, by him, and
by M. Grandjean and M. Leydet.

It was towards 5 P.M. when it was decided that I should be arrested.
But, before that, I was once more interrogated by M. Leydet. We went
from the _Surete_ to the Palace of Justice, through a long chain of
staircases and passages. I was accompanied by inspectors, the judge, the
chief of the _Surete_, Maitre Aubin, his two secretaries, and others. We
hurried along, for there were swarms of journalists everywhere, whom the
inspectors had to repel.

Alexandre Wolff, brought in by two municipal guards, was again
confronted with me, and it was then that I ceased to accuse him as
firmly as before, and asked him to "help me discover the murderer."

"Well, it was time you spoke like that," Wolff exclaimed. "I wasn't
going to be guillotined just to please you!"

Many things were said to me or before me; but I did not hear them. I had
no longer the strength or will to hear, or the power to reason....

M. Leydet said to me: "You are arrested." I did not mind at all. I could
not understand the terrible meaning of those three words.

I left the room. Maitre Aubin was outside, in the corridor, with Marthe.
I saw that she was crying.

"Are you arrested too?" I asked her.

"No, no," said my counsel. "She is free."

I dried Marthe's tears, and said to her (she told me all this
afterwards, when she visited me in prison, and that is how I am able to
complete this narrative): "You must not weep. You know very well I am
not the only one.... Marie Antoinette was arrested, and others...."

My daughter embraced me and we parted. She has told me that I smiled,
and that my eyes were no longer like "living" eyes.

I followed Maitre Aubin back to the _Surete_, where we entered the
_Cabinet_ of M. Hamard, and my counsel has told me since that I sat down
quietly and waited. M. Hamard, it appears, asked me whether I would like
to eat something. It was past nine o'clock then. "Oh, yes," I replied.
"Some ham and tea, please." When the tray was brought in, I settled down
before a little table, and said to the Chief of the _Surete_, "Surely
you are not going to let me eat by myself? Won't you have some tea with
me?" M. Hamard said gently, "I have too much to do...."

Then I heard some one sob behind me. It was an inspector, a good man,
who for months had done all he could to help me trace the murderers of
my husband and my mother.

When I had finished eating, M. Hamard said, "Madame, it is time to go
now. _Bon courage!_..."

My counsel's last words were, "In a week's time you will be back in your
daughter's arms."

I went down the staircase between the inspectors, whom I knew so well.

"Where are we going?" I asked.

"To Saint-Lazare."

I had never heard of Saint-Lazare before. I only knew of the station of
that name. I supposed they referred to a kind of home for women, a kind
of infirmary. We entered a taxi and drove away. We passed by the
Chatelet. I recognised it.... The inspectors looked very sad. They spoke
kind words to me....

"Is it very far, Saint-Lazare?" I asked.

I looked through the window. Paris seemed a new, a different city....

We reached Saint-Lazare. I glanced at the big building; it reminded me
of a convent.... And there were so many doors. We passed through a yard,
a passage. Then we came to a small room.

"Your name," said some one.

"Why?"

"You must write it, here...."

"Yes, Madame," said one of the inspectors, kindly. "Write your name,
your age...."

A bell rang. The inspectors, deeply moved, said, "We must bid you
good-bye, Madame...."

They went as far as a door with me. I shook hands with them and said,
"Courage, courage; we shall all know the truth soon."

Then I was taken to another room. There was green furniture in it; the
ceiling was low. It was not a beautiful room, but it was most
comfortable. I saw a small man of about forty-five, with a strong face,
blue eyes, fair hair, and a pointed beard, and some one said, "That is
_Monsieur le Directeur_."

"So it is you who are putting me here?"... I said. "That is a nice old
arm-chair...." I was convinced that I should be given a room like this
one.

The director spoke softly, in gentle tones. He rang a bell. A _gardien_
came with a "sister." She wore a black dress, and a great white cornette
encircled her kind, strong face. She looked about fifty. Afterwards I
learned her name; Soeur Leonide, and it was one of the names I learned
at Saint-Lazare which I shall never forget and which I bless day after
day.

She has since told me that the first words I said to her, when she
entered the director's room, were: "It is I, _ma soeur_; it is
strange, is it not, that it should be I?"...

I followed her, I began to be surprised, almost alarmed. She took me
through a long, long passage. At the end, there was a bed in an angle. A
man was there, he took up some large keys, and opened the door. The
sister took me by the hand and said: "It is a little dark...."

"How ugly and damp it is here, _ma soeur_".... I held the bannister:
"It reminds me," I said, "of those in the old houses at Montbeliard,
near my dear Beaucourt."

We came to another door. There I saw a sister sitting at a small desk in
a room where the windows had big iron bars. I felt frightened. We went
down another long passage, and came to a high gate which the sister
opened.

"Where are we going, _ma soeur_? Everything is so dirty and dark. Are
we going the right way?"

"Yes. You must come and fetch your sheets." She shut the gate behind
her, and I noticed for the first time a bunch of large heavy keys
hanging at her waist.

She opened the door with one of the keys and said: "I will choose some
nice sheets... you must be very tired."

"Oh no, _ma soeur_, I am not tired.... I hope Marthe is not unhappy. I
am glad she did not come here with me...."

The sister muttered: "Hush! You must not talk here.... Take these
sheets."

I looked at them. I had seen soldiers' sheets, but these were much
coarser.

The sister looked at me and said: "Yes... you are not used to them...."

I carried the sheets, and followed the sister along a filthy,
evil-smelling corridor.

"Where are you going after this?" I asked.

"My poor child, I am taking you to your cell."

Another sister arrived, turned a big key in a lock twice, and drew a
bolt. A heavy door was opened before me. The sister held a lantern, and
I was told to go in.

I saw two women's faces looking at me from two little beds against the
black walls, two barred windows, and three other beds that were empty.

"Make your bed, there...."

The foot of "my" bed touched that of a bed in which I saw a dark, pale,
fierce-looking woman, the sight of whom made me shiver....

There was a tiny unlighted stove with three legs and a long chimney in
the middle of the cell. The floor was made of slabs. Many were missing,
most of them were broken, and there was dirty water in the holes. It was
very cold.

One of the sisters pointed to a shelf above the bed and said: "You can
put your things there.... Give me your hat, your hatpins, your gloves.
You are only entitled to keep your dress."

I lay down, almost entirely dressed, on the bed. I heard a clock strike
midnight. I still wondered where I was. This is not an infirmary, I
thought.... And why am I not alone in a room?... The sisters went
silently away. I heard the key turned in the lock, the bolt pushed back.
The women at once started eagerly talking to me.... I could not
understand them. I thought of Marthe. I cried, cried... and then fell,
suddenly, into the great void of a sleep almost as deep as death.




CHAPTER XXII

THE THREE CELLS


I awoke the next morning--in a cell. The women were still there. I felt
as if I had been beaten all over my body and my head. At first I did not
realise where I was, or what I was doing there.... I saw the slabs of
the floor, the dirt, the door with the peep-hole, through which, after
lifting a small wooden shutter, people from the outside could see what
was going on in the cell, the iron bedstead with the rough straw
mattresses, the pillow filled with dried sea-weed, and the sheets made
of some yellowish material that looked like sail-cloth. I saw the boards
fastened into the wall above each bed, the small stove, the heap of coal
in a corner, a few yellowish earthen-ware bowls and jugs, and blunt
knives on a rickety table. I saw the walls covered with tar, vermin
crawling about the cracks and hollows in the slabs, around the little
puddles of muddy, evil-smelling water, the rough-hewn, uneven joists of
the dark ceiling, from which hung thick webs. (Saint-Lazare, I heard
afterwards, is one of the oldest and most dilapidated prisons in
France.) I saw the two windows, with their heavy iron bars, and thick
wire-gauze--through which, later on, I found it so difficult to give
some of my bread to the scores of sparrows and pigeons which nest in the
old roofs of Saint-Lazare--and I knew that I was a prisoner.

But what did it matter! In less than a week everything would be arranged
and definitely settled, the real murderers would be arrested, and I
would be once more with my daughter! Meanwhile, it was horrible to be
here, to be in prison! I thought of Marthe, of my father... and I cried.

The women watched me eagerly. They addressed me by my name.... How did
they know who I was?

"Oh!" said one, "we know all we want. Newspapers are not allowed here,
but when you have a nice counsel, he hands some to you secretly....
Besides, new batches of women arrive every day, women who have just been
arrested.... They know the latest news, and when they walk round the
yard you can hear them talk."

The noise of steps outside, of the key being turned twice, and of the
bolts being drawn--a noise which I was to hear so many times a day
during a whole year, but which always jarred painfully on my
nerves--interrupted the woman's explanations.

The man with the fair, pointed beard and the stern expression whom I had
seen on my arrival at Saint-Lazare, entered, followed by the Sister who
had given me the sheets, and whom I will henceforth call by her name,
Sister Leonide. The two women jumped up and said: "Good morning,
_Monsieur le Directeur_."

He turned to me, and in a matter-of-fact tone asked: "Are you satisfied?
Is there anything you want, Madame?"

"Oh, yes!... I want to see my daughter."

He made no answer to that, but said: "Your counsel will no doubt come to
see you to-day," and walked away.

"How stupid of you," said one of the women to me; "you might have
obtained anything. For the Director to call on you like that, early in
the morning, it must be a political crime." (This remark amazed me.)
"You should have asked for another stove, this one draws badly, or for
an extra blanket...." And both started telling me what I should ask for
the next time the Director came, so that our cell should be comfortable.

The door opened again. A young Sister, with a healthy glow on her round
cheeks, came in.

"What do you want to-day, Madame?" she asked.

I could not understand. "She is Sister Ange," I was told; "she is the
Canteen Sister." Still I did not understand.

One of the women explained: "Sister Ange fetches what the prisoner
orders at the canteen.... You can ask for bread, for a pennyworth of
milk, or two pennyworth of coffee--anything."

"What shall I prepare the coffee in?" I asked.

"They bring it up already prepared, of course!" and my two companions
burst into endless and noisy laughter.

"Excuse me, forgive me," I said; "I didn't know...."

The Sister gently explained; "Yes, the coffee is already prepared.... It
is not very good, but you can warm it up on the little stove here...."

I gave her some coppers and asked for some coffee and milk.

"Do you want a large or a small jug?" I did not answer. Everything
seemed so strange, so abnormal. Sister Ange continued: "I will bring you
a small stone bowl--you can eat everything in that--and a spoon.... No,
no, forks are not allowed in prison. But you can have a small knife,
blunt, of course...."

I asked if I could buy some bread.

"You are entitled to bread, Madame. You will receive half a _boule_ of
brown bread every day." When I tried a piece of the prison bread that
day, I found two black beetles in it and gave a cry... much to the two
women's amusement. They told me that was quite a usual thing.

I duly received the coffee, but it was well-nigh undrinkable. Four
months later, after M. Andre had completed the _Instruction_
(examination of the accused and all the witnesses: M. Andre replaced M.
Leydet as magistrate in charge of my case, for the latter, ill and worn,
had asked to be relieved of the painful duty of interrogating a lady
whom he had known for many years), I begged to be allowed to prepare my
own coffee, for it was almost the only thing I managed to take. Ground
coffee was supplied to me, and I made a strainer with two bits of
firewood sticks, some wire taken from my hat (during the drives to the
Palace of Justice for the _Instruction_), and a piece from one of my
handkerchiefs.

My companions cleaned the cell, and I helped them. We lit the fire,
arranged our beds, and breakfasted. Then they began to chat, and I heard
who they were.

One was Alba Ghirelli, a dark woman of about forty, stout, with bulging
eyes and thick lips, who had been recently sentenced at Versailles to
six months' imprisonment, but had appealed, and had been brought to
Paris pending a new trial.

The name of the other was Rosselli. She was much younger and
kinder-looking, and had blue eyes and light brown hair. She had been
accused of fraud, and was awaiting her trial. (I may add that three
weeks afterwards she was sentenced to one year's imprisonment, but was
almost immediately released.) At the end of December the appeal of Alba
Ghirelli was heard, and she, too, was released.--I mention these facts
because, as the reader will realise a little later, they have an
important and pitiful connection with my own case.

A gong rang three times. Ghirelli and Rosselli exclaimed: "That's Sister
Leonide.... She is in charge of the 'reserved' cells" (_pistoles_).

"What are they?" I asked.

They laughed again. "Why, this is a reserved cell. You have to pay 7
francs 50 (six shillings) a month to be in a cell like this. They are
the best to be had. In each of the others there are twelve prisoners. In
these there are only five beds."

Sister Leonide came in.

"Your counsel is downstairs," she announced. "Come, please." On the way
she said: "In future, you will be known as 'Number 16170,' but as it is
difficult to remember, we will call you '61.' When you hear the gong
strike once and you hear some one shout '61,' that will mean that you
are wanted; then I, or another sister, will open the door of your cell
and take you to your counsel, or to the Director...."

She spoke very firmly, but there was a glow of warmth and kindness in
her eyes.

"_Ma Soeur_," I said, "must I remain with those women? It is dreadful
for me. Can't I be alone in a cell?"

"My poor child," she replied, in her big, gruff voice that sounded just
like that of a man, "you must not think of that. They will never leave
you by yourself. It is against the rules.... In a fit of despondency you
might.... Well, well, don't look so disappointed. I will talk the matter
over with the Sister Superior and the Director, and see what can be
done."

Sister Leonide walked near me. She was probably old, but had a very
young face and rosy cheeks.... We went through the long passages which
had frightened me the night before. The place was filthy and
dilapidated. It looked worse than ever in the daylight.... Women, we met
here and there, stopped to watch me, and they whispered: "That's the
Steinheil woman!" My heart beat so fast that it hurt me, and I had a
lump in my throat. Oh! The horror, the strain of being here. I thought
of Marthe....

At the top of a flight of steps, Sister Leonide said: "Go down. You will
come to a door. Knock and a gaoler will open it for you."

The word gaoler made me shudder. I thought: "I am a prisoner... a
prisoner! But Couillard and Wolff are in prison too; perhaps they are
not guilty, but they know something, and they will have to confess."

The gaoler bluntly asked: "Who are you?"

I remembered my lesson: "I am '61,'" I replied.

The man looked like an old soldier, with his rough, wrinkled, and tanned
face, and his martial appearance. "Ah! yes"... he mumbled, "I know,
'61.' It is your counsel who has come."

I entered the parlour. What a dreary place, dark and cold.... There was
a huge wide table there, with chairs all round it. On one side I saw
Maitre Aubin, and M. Steinhardt, his secretary. The gaoler pointed out a
chair to me, opposite my counsel, and said: "Sit down there."

The two counsel were very pale.

"Ah! why did you not follow my advice!" Aubin began.... "If only you had
not written that letter to the Press, if only you had not started the
case again!..." Every sentence began with the word "if."

"Have Couillard and Wolff spoken? Is the truth discovered yet?" I asked.

"Spoken!... They are doing nothing but speaking. People carry them about
shoulder high; they are the heroes of the day. The newspapers are
singing their praises!..."

I was dumbfounded: "What do you say!... It is impossible. Are they not
in prison?"

"They were both set free yesterday...."

"Then they are going to release me too. You said I would be with Marthe
in a week's time. They don't want me anymore, do they?... But now we
shall never know the truth!... When can I go away from here?"

The two men looked at each other. They hesitated.... I could read in
their faces that some terrible news was coming.

I could not wait.... "What is the matter? Speak, Maitre Aubin." The poor
man halted, and then at last said: "You must be brave.... You must
remain here.... Oh! why did you put that pearl in your valet's
pocket-book. You don't know the anger of the Public against you.... You
would be torn to pieces if you walked through a street."

"How long shall I have to remain in prison? You said a week. Will it be
two weeks? Three weeks?"...

"I don't know...."

"What! A whole month?"

"More."

"Surely not! Two months?... Three whole months?"

"I don't know. I swear to you that I don't know. I would rather tell you
the worst at once than slowly torture you, but I simply cannot. You will
have to be examined by a judge; it will take a long time. Weeks, months,
may elapse.... But you longed to know the truth.... Well, there will be
a thorough investigation now; you will know everything. I will help
you...."

It was as though I had received a stunning blow on the head.... I
reeled. Several weeks, several months, perhaps!...

My head fell forward, and I sobbed.

They made me promise to try to eat. They called the gaoler, and said
"She must eat," and the man went to the canteen and fetched a plateful
of boiled potatoes.... Maitre Aubin's last words were: "We shall have to
talk together, to work, a great deal... but you may rely upon it: the
murderers will be found."

I returned to my cell. There, Ghirelli and Rosselli overwhelmed me with
questions, and showed much irritation when I declined to answer.... I
had bought from the canteen some paper and ink, and I started writing to
my relatives.

The gong! Once! Then a voice shouted "Sixty One." It was for me. Sister
Leonide entered and said: "Your daughter is here."

My daughter!... My God! Marthe was going to see me! I must not look so
unhappy.... "_Ma Soeur_, tell me, can one see that I have cried?"

I was led to the Director's study. The Director was there, seated near a
window.... Then I saw Marthe, with M. Chabrier.... She rushed into my
arms, and for a long while, we wept and were both unable to speak. The
Director, M. Pons, said: "You can only be together for a quarter of an
hour."

I asked Marthe what had happened to her since the previous evening.

"After leaving you, mother, I drove home, and found there a journalist
from the _Paris-Journal_, who when I had told him that I was exhausted
and that he should have pity on me, shook me by my hand and went away
without a word.

"At ten o'clock, three _Matin_ men arrived, de Labruyere, Barby and
Bourse. They were less considerate. They refused to go, and started
making me all kinds of offers. One said to me: 'The _Matin_ will give
you 30,000 francs (L1200), will give even more than that if you will
tell us all you know!' I said I knew nothing and had nothing to say.
They then began to ask me questions: 'Confess it is your mother who
committed the double murder! Come, confess it. You know everything; tell
us the truth'... I grew so angry that they tried something else: 'Who is
it, then?' they asked. 'M. Buisson? Mariette? Wolff? Geoffroy?
Couillard, after all?' They mentioned the name of every person we know
who comes to our house.... I was alone with de Labruyere and Barby.
Bourse was in the next room keeping the Chabriers from joining me. I did
not answer their idiotic questions. I repeated that I knew nothing....
Then they grew reckless, and gave their ugly scheme away: 'Well, beware:
You are going to see your mother at Saint-Lazare; we shall be waiting
there, and we shall take you in a motor-car to a place in the country.
We shall keep you there until you speak. You will see.... To-morrow....'
They went away banging the doors.

"I have come, mother, with M. Chabrier and M. Hutin, who said he would
protect me. I didn't see any one, but I wonder how I shall reach home."

At that moment some one came to say that there was a great crowd
outside, that the police were powerless, that he didn't see how they
would get Mlle. Steinheil away.

The prison-treasurer (_econome_), who was present, said: "She will have
to leave by the door through which she came. There is no other way out."

"You don't want this child to be mobbed, do you?" said the Director; and
he gave some instructions.

(I heard afterwards that there had been a serious altercation, passing
from words to blows, between M. Hutin and M. Barby of the _Matin_,
because the former's taxi had been allowed to enter the prison, to the
unspeakable rage of the latter, who had the _Matin_ car in readiness,
and hoped to kidnap Marthe. M. Hutin's taxi, with my daughter in it, was
taken through various courtyards inside the prison to the alley leading
to the so-called _porte des condamnes_ (the door through which prisoners
sentenced to death were taken to the guillotine). The old gate had not
been opened for a long time, and it was difficult to open it; but at
last it was thrown open, and the taxi, carrying Marthe, M. Chabrier, and
M. Hutin, sped out of the prison into the square.... The crowd was
surging outside the main entrance. When they saw the taxi, and realised
that Marthe was in it, it was too late. Marthe reached the Impasse
Ronsin safely, thanks to M. Hutin, whom, when I heard of his kindness to
my daughter, I almost forgave his conduct towards me on the so-called
"Night of the Confession.")

From that day the _Matin_ hardly ever troubled my daughter.

       *       *       *       *       *

I thanked the Director for what he had done for my child, and also for
having allowed me to see her, not in the parlour, but in his study.

"Yes," he said, in his usual earnest manner, "you ought to be satisfied.
Think of the unfortunate women here who have to see their children, not
even in the parlour across a table, but through two gates, between which
a gaoler is sitting!... By the way, the doctor will see you often, and
you must tell him if you are ill. There are remedies in our dispensary."

I always found M. Pons a very strict but admirably just director.

I was led back to my cell; I could hardly walk and when I reached it I
sank on my bed.

The thought of having to remain in prison three months perhaps, drove me
mad. Ghirelli and Rosselli spoke to me. They wanted to know what had
happened.... Poor women! News, whatever it is, however sad, breaks the
monotony of life in a prison cell.... But I was more dead than alive,
and remained on my bed, crying and thinking of Marthe.

Towards the evening some one came to tell me that a pastor had come to
see me. I put on my jacket. Outside the Boulevard des Pistoles--"the
boulevard of the cells"--a hand touched my arm, and a kind voice said:
"My poor friend. I don't know you, but I know your family. I have read
the newspapers, I heard you were here.... I am Pastor Arboux. I visit
regularly the Protestant prisoners here and in other prisons. I have
done so for the past twenty years.... How you must have suffered. Come
with me! we will talk together, and we will pray."

I followed him up a few steps to a small chapel which contained a few
chairs, a kind of desk with a Bible on it. I looked at the pastor, and
found him a tall, strong man of about sixty, with a small grey beard,
large kind eyes and refined features.

"You have seen your daughter," said M. Arboux. "That must have given you
much courage. What a brave little girl she must be.... I hope you have a
good counsel."... Then he asked me a few questions. I answered them, and
he concluded: "I feel you are innocent. I have always thought so."

"Innocent of what?" I said.... "I am not innocent; don't you know that I
put the pearl in Couillard's pocket-book?"

"The pearl? The pearl?..." He looked almost frightened.... "The pearl?
You mean to say your counsel has told you that you are here on account
of that!"

"No, Maitre Aubin has told me nothing. He only said that I would be kept
here for two or three months; he didn't know."

Deeply affected, M. Arboux then said: "Let us pray! Kneel down, my poor
woman!"

He knelt beside me and he prayed: "Oh God, Thou who hast allowed my
sister here to lose her reason and do an act of injustice, forgive her,
and give her the courage to bear everything, even the awful truth...."

He stopped, and I waited for some dreadful revelation....

The pastor, making a great effort, then added in a broken voice: "Give
her the strength to hear... that she is accused of a terrible crime."

"A crime! What crime!..." I seized his hands.... "tell me everything....
I am accused of having..."

"Yes, of having..."

I interrupted him: "Don't say it! Good God!..." And then I said it
myself: "They believe I have strangled my mother and my husband...." And
I fell forward, rocking and moaning in my grief and horror.

The pastor lifted me on to a chair: "Yes... that is why I came here
to-night. I half thought that you might not know, and I thought you
would suffer a little less if it were an old pastor who broke the awful
news to you.... I have witnessed so much misery."

After a long while, when there were no more tears left to shed, he again
tried to comfort me: "Be brave, perhaps the criminals will be found.
There will be a thorough, a searching _Instruction_. The truth will out,
sooner or later.... It will be a terrible trial to you, to be in this
prison, awaiting the decision of the judges, but you must not lose
heart. You must expiate past faults.... Try to forget the brilliant
world where you have lived all these years.... Every week I will come to
you, and we will pray to Him who has all powers. Believe me: it is not
human beings who will give you the courage to remain here and to live,
and to hope."

He took the Bible on the desk, placed it in my hands, saying: "Here is
the old, old book; it has consoled the worst afflicted. I will see you
every week, as often as my other duties will allow."

Pastor Arboux kept his promise, in a sublime manner. He gave me the
courage to live, and reconciled me to this world. During the endless
year of mental and physical agony, he came to see me twice a week, every
Thursday and every Sunday, and remained each time at least one hour. He
came even when he was ill or overwhelmed with work. During the summer of
1909, he took a well-earned three weeks' holiday, but even then, he came
to Paris to give me the consolation which he knew I so sorely needed.

M. Arboux asked me: "What sort of women are those two in your cell?"

"It is terrible for me to be with them; they quarrel constantly, and
they keep asking me questions. I refuse to speak to them, but sometimes,
they are so pressing that I reply, but I am so ill, so tired, so
miserable...."

"Try not to reply at all," said M. Arboux. "I will talk to the
Director."

In spite of the pastor's kind words, I spent the night weeping and
lamenting. I, Marguerite Steinheil-Japy, to be accused of murder,
accused of having strangled my husband and my mother! How could such a
monstrous charge have been brought against me! It was maddening....

The next day, Saturday, November 26th--no one came to see me, and the
day seemed endless.

Another sleepless night followed, and then another day began, a Sunday!
Seated on my bed, I wept bitterly. The two women again asked me
questions, but during the afternoon, Sister Leonide entered and said to
me: "Take your things. You are going into another cell." Later, in
January, when the _Matin_ published statements made by Ghirelli and
Rosselli concerning a "full confession" which I was supposed to have
made in their cell, the Director of the Saint-Lazare prison, sent a
report to Judge Andre, in which he says, concerning my change of cell:

"... That Mme. Steinheil was taken from cell No. 15, and placed in cell
No. 11.... On Sunday November 29th, 1908, in the afternoon, because of
a paragraph in the _Matin_ of November 28th, which gave the number of
Mme. Steinheil's cell and the names of her companions. The indiscretion,
it appears from the newspapers, was made by Maitre Camille Dreyfus,
counsel of the prisoner called Rosselli."

(_Dossier_ Cote 3021)

       *       *       *       *       *

Soeur Leonide led me to a cell much larger and lighter than the other,
but in the same dirty dilapidated state. It contained seven beds, and
had two windows, not only heavily barred, but also fitted with iron
trellis-work. The windows were of ground glass, so that it was
impossible to see outside, except when they were open. One had to listen
to the rain and to "guess" if the sun shone, when they were shut.

I sank on to an old chair. Soeur Leonide comforted me, and, trying to
be cheerful, "Do you know that everybody is spoiling you!" she said.
"Look at this fine, big cell, and you will be almost alone here."

She opened one of the windows. It was raining, and what I could see of
the sky, through the bars and the trellis, was dull and grey. The sister
pointed to the courtyard below: "Look," she said; "there are a few trees
there. In the centre of the yard you can see the basin where the
prisoners do their washing. And look at all the pigeons on the roofs.
During the summer it is very nice here, you will see...."

I looked at the good sister. She understood... and added hastily: "Of
course, of course, you won't be here then; I was only telling you...."

It was very cold and I shivered. Still, to look out of the windows was a
change from gazing at four black walls, and wearily, unendingly,
counting the tiles at my feet.

But Soeur Leonide gently pulled me back, and closed the window: "It is
not wise for you to remain there. Some of the women below might see you,
and they would insult you. Everybody in the prison knows you are here."

A sister entered the cell, pushing before her a young woman of about
twenty-five, down whose sunken cheeks tears were streaming.

"She is going to be your companion," said Soeur Leonide, "she is a
much nicer little woman than the others, and she is very unhappy; so,
she will know how to console you."

"Why is she so unhappy? What has she done?..."

The girl herself replied. "I am here because I tried to steal three
blouses from a shop. I wanted to make myself beautiful for my
sweetheart. But, Madame, what do you think they have done? They have
given me four months! Four months in prison, for three blouses. I shall
never live here four months, and 'he' will have gone."

Poor girl! She was small and delicate; she had big brown eyes. She
reminded me a little of Marthe.

"What is your name?" I asked her.

"Firmin."

"Well, Firmin, we must try to comfort each other."

Sister Leonide left us together. The dreadful noise of the key and bolt,
again.

Firmin was sobbing, and, seeing her in that state, I forgot my grief,
for a while.... She told me all the horrible things the other
women-prisoners said among themselves, and she said: "I am so thankful
to M. Desmoulin for having sent me to this cell."

"Who is M. Desmoulin?" I asked.

"He is a man who visits prisoners, but not a priest or a pastor.... They
say he is a painter.... He goes about the prison as he pleases. He is
here to-day. I'd have died long ago, if it had not been for him. Ah!
think of it, I am in prison! What will my parents say? They don't know
anything yet...." And she burst out sobbing. Poor Firmin!

We heard a noise, voices, and then a gentleman came in, fairly tall,
with a grey beard and moustache, and the appearance of an artist. He
must have been about fifty-five.

He chatted with Firmin for a short while, near the door. I heard him
say: "You must do all you can for her." He looked in my direction and
said: "Have courage, Madame," then went away.

"That was M. Desmoulin," said Firmin.

Night fell early.

"I am going to light the fire," said my companion. "And then, the Sister
told me I was to make you eat something."

Firmin lit the fire, helped me to undress, for I was terribly weak, put
me to bed and forced me to swallow some milk.

But I could not sleep. Firmin then exclaimed, "I have a bit of candle!"

"Are there no lamps, then?"

"No, Madame, but I have a candle. I bought it. I have no money, but I
sew, I work to make money. You must sew all day to earn very little, and
of course, to work at night you need a candle, don't you!"

She started to sew, near my bed, and I helped her.... Then suddenly, I
heard the masculine voice of Sister Leonide shouting: "Will you be
quiet, all of you? I shall call the warders.... I tell you she is not
here!"

Heavy objects, by the score, were thrown against the door of my cell;
and the most abominable insults were hurled at me. There rose hysterical
screams of "Murderess! assassin! The guillotine is too good for you! We
know you are there! Death to you! The guillotine!"

Firmin held both my hands and trembled like a leaf. "It is dreadful,
Madame, don't listen!"

"What are they throwing at the door?"

"Their wooden shoes, and anything they can lay their hands on, I
suppose...."

Then, abruptly, the noise outside the door ceased, but it started again
almost immediately, behind one of the walls, where apparently a whole
gang of prisoners were lodged. For a while, they shouted obscenities,
and the vilest insults were once more hurled at me: "Murderess! You
strangled your own mother, you killed your own husband.... If we had you
here, we would gouge your eyes out, tear you to shreds, you
assassin!"....

And all the time those demons hit the wall and tried to smash it, piece
by piece.

Cold perspiration bathed my temples. Firmin was livid, and fell near me,
on my bed. We held each other's hands. Firmin said: "Don't pay any
attention, Madame. I have heard much worse than that. Here, upstairs,
they are almost quiet; the women are awaiting their trial, but
downstairs, where I was, there are the condemned women. If you knew how
they insulted and beat me when they heard I was going upstairs, to this
cell, and when they found out, somehow, that I would be with you!"

I could hardly hear what she said, so terrific was the noise in the next
cell.

Then the noise ceased.... The Sisters were coming.... But as soon as the
round had passed, the din began afresh, and the insults and the threats
were even worse than before.... Firmin and I, in despair, forced paper
into our ears, and getting into our beds, we covered our heads not only
with our blankets, but with our clothes. Still I could hear those
women.... Yet another sleepless night, yet another night of terror and
agony!

The next day I heard the gong, and then a voice shouted that number
"Sixty-one," to which I was already getting used. It was Marthe. For
half an hour we remained together and every second new life returned to
my bruised body, and hope to my aching heart. How brave the darling was,
how she tried to keep back her tears so as not to make me more miserable
than I already was.... And then my counsel came, and the pastor....

I begged the latter to intercede in my favour. It was impossible for me
to go on like this. I felt, especially after all the shocks I had
suffered during the past few months, that I would go mad if I had to go
through many more such nights as the last.

"I'll see," said M. Arboux. "But it would not be fair if an exception
were made in your favour."

I spent three more days and three more nights in Cell No. 11, and night
and day I heard insults. When, for some cause or other, the women went
through the corridor, they raised the shutter of the peep-hole in my
door and let loose a torrent of abuse. Then Firmin and I would stand
against the wall on one side of the door, so that we could not be seen.

At night another prisoner joined us. She was Marie Jacq, a Breton woman
of forty, who had been recently sentenced to two years, and had before
that served seven terms of imprisonment. Jacq was employed all day as a
kind of charwoman; she entered the cell at 8 P.M. to sleep, and left it
at 6 A.M. She seemed to have but one craving, the poor wretch--drink.

At night, since sleep was out of the question, I had no option but to
think and think, and wearily through the long hours I tried to thrash
out and see clearly all the details of the strange and terrible drama
which had claimed two victims, and was like to soon claim a third, for I
felt that life was ebbing from my limbs.

Then one morning dear Sister Leonide came and told me, "You are going to
change your cell once more. I have instructions to take you to No. 12.
There you will have on one side your former cell, and on the other a
lumber room. You will at last be able to breathe--and sleep."

Firmin shared this new cell with me, and Jacq, who had spent the nights
in Cell No. 13, then in Cell No. 11 when I was there, joined us at night
in No. 12. She had instructions to assist me--and watch over me.




CHAPTER XXIII

ALBA GHIRELLI, MARGUERITE ROSSELLI AND THE "MATIN"


Judge Andre's _Instruction_ began in December 1908. But before dealing
with it, I wish to acquaint the reader with a series of amazing and
painful incidents, in which the two prisoners Ghirelli and Rosselli,
Marie Anne Jacq--whose cell I shared for two days and three nights--and
M. Charles Sauerwein of the _Matin_, were the chief actors, whilst, as
usual, alas, I was the powerless central figure, the victim.

Maitre Aubin, my counsel, came to me on two or three occasions in a
state of great consternation. His first sentence was: "What have you
done?" and his last sentence, after he had explained to me the new
incident, was "All that is printed in the _Matin_." So, that newspaper,
thinking that it had not made me suffer enough yet, continued its
virulent attacks while I was in prison!

What did those articles in the _Matin_ say? Merely trifles of this kind:
According to one of my fellow prisoners, I had spoken of suicide, had
accused Alexandre Wolff again, declared that before placing the pearl in
Couillard's pocket-book, I had first placed it in that of my "cousin" M.
Chabrier (whom I called cousin though he was no relation of mine, but a
cousin of my husband). I had entrusted a secret mission to the care of
Ghirelli and last but not least I had confessed to having committed the
murder!

These various "statements," only dramatised and adorned by the _Matin_
for the sole purpose of several columns of the most sensational copy,
were published at intervals during January 1909.

I will now quote part of the most damaging and most fantastic "story"
published by _Le Matin_, in its issue of Sunday, January 17th, 1909 (I
was in prison at the time and undergoing my _Instruction i.e._ the
preliminary examination by a magistrate):

        THE STEINHEIL AFFAIR

            EVERYTHING

    EXCEPT THE NAME OF THE ACCOMPLICE.

    MADAME STEINHEIL DENOUNCES HERSELF.

    "MY MOTHER ... SHE WAS THE ALIBI."

"... We were able to see yesterday a person who has received fresh
confessions from Mme. Steinheil. At a time when, having been already in
prison a few days, entangled in the meshes of proofs which the examining
magistrate was weaving around her slowly but surely, the painter's widow
felt irremediably lost.

"In the course of an evening when despair came upon her, and with tears
and sobs and resentment, and whilst calling upon death with all her
heart, Mme. Steinheil told a new version of the crime, more tragic
still, SINCE THIS TIME, SHE ACCUSED HERSELF NOT ONLY AS AN ACCOMPLICE
BUT AS THE GUILTY PERSON, TOGETHER WITH ANOTHER.

"SHE NAMED HER ACCOMPLICE....

"He is neither Remy Couillard, nor Alexandre Wolff, nor any one whose
name has so far been mentioned. This accomplice, who is one of her
friends (_familiers_) our interlocutor would not assume the
responsibility of giving his name to public opinion.

"If Mme. Steinheil has once more lied, it is not right that an innocent
person should share with her the heavy burden of that double murder. If
Mme. Steinheil has spoken the truth, _he will recognise himself_.

       *       *       *       *       *

"All we can do to-day is to tell how, according to the painter's widow's
latest disclosures, the crime was committed.

"In tragic horror, it outdoes everything that one might, so far, have
conceived.

"The double murder was decided upon, planned and premeditated.

"For the past two years, it haunted Mme. Steinheil's mind. For two
years, she had, on various occasions, postponed its carrying out.

"'I WANTED TO BE FREE,' she said.

"When, unable to restrain herself any longer, when resolved to do
anything to get rid of her husband and to marry the rich man she
coveted, she made her final preparations, she thought that, alone, she
would not be able to carry out such a dreadful deed successfully, and
confided her plans to one of her friends (_familiers_).

"'I WANTED AN ASSISTANT, I FOUND HIM!'

"The latter accepted without too many objections. Had she not promised
him a golden future?

"Then, plans were laid.

"To kill only the husband was to give herself away immediately, for
everybody knew how the wife hated her husband. And the public rumour,
implacable and revengeful, would at once have named the guilty person.

"An alibi was necessary.

"And coldly, resolutely, Mme. Steinheil wired to her mother, inviting
her to the Impasse Ronsin.

"'MY MOTHER, SHE WAS THE ALIBI.'

"No one would dare accuse a daughter of having killed her mother, or of
having had her killed.

       *       *       *       *       *

"Her daughter is sent to Bellevue, Mariette Wolff is sent away, Remy
Couillard had gone up to his room. Mme. Steinheil, during the evening of
May 30th, remains alone with the two intended victims. She is gay; she
speaks with unusual tenderness to her husband; she is very attentive to
her mother.

"'Would you like a grog, maman?' she asks Mme. Japy. Then caressingly
turning to her husband: 'You will have some too, won't you? It will do
you good.'

"The grog is prepared, Mme. Steinheil adds a narcotic to it.

"With her own hand she gives the grogs.

"Mme. Japy and Mme. Steinheil (_M._ Steinheil is evidently meant, but
the author of this monstrous story had evidently lost all self-control,
and was unable to read it over carefully when he had written it) half an
hour later went to their room (_rooms_ is evidently meant) and soon an
unconquerable drowsiness, a death-like sleep (_sommeil de plomb_), glued
them to their bed.

"Listening keenly, Mme. Steinheil hears the gate swing softly on its
hinges. It is half-past twelve; she goes down quickly, takes the key of
the pantry where Couillard had placed it and half-opens the door.

"A moment later, the accomplice is in the house.

"Stealthily, Mme. Steinheil and her accomplice, who has taken off his
boots, go up to the first-floor, and there in Marthe's room, they
deliberate for two long hours. What was this deliberation? Mme.
Steinheil, overwhelmed with shame and grief, has not yet said....

"At 3 A.M. their resolution was taken. M. Steinheil and Mme. Japy were
going to die.

"'I MYSELF SLIPPED THE CORD AROUND MY HUSBAND'S NECK AND TUGGED,' said
Mme. Steinheil in a hoarse voice.

"'THEN CAME MY MOTHER'S TURN.

"'FOR IT IS I WHO DID EVERYTHING, WHO HAD DETERMINED ON EVERYTHING. MY
ACCOMPLICE MERELY ASSISTED ME IN ORGANISING THE SHAM BURGLARY WHICH
FOLLOWED.

"'IT WAS I WHO STOPPED THE CLOCK AT THE MOMENT WHEN HE CAME IN, IT WAS I
WHO UPSET THE INKSTAND.

"'THIS WHOLE TRAGEDY TOOK PLACE WITHOUT A CRY, WITHOUT A HITCH. LESS
THAN TEN MINUTES SUFFICED TO CARRY OUT THE GHASTLY TASK.

"'Then, after I had gone back to bed, my accomplice bound me.

"'The day was breaking. He left.'

"After finishing the terrifying narrative the painter's widow appeared
relieved of a great burden.

"For a few minutes she seemed deep in thought, and suddenly she realised
what a frightful secret she had just disclosed in a moment of despair
and abandonment.

"She looked her interlocutor straight in the face.

"'_Swear to me_,' she said, '_swear on the head of your children that
you will never say a word of what I have told you to-night._'

"The oath was given, but, last night, thinking of the innocent persons
whom fatal coincidences might ruin, and frightened by the terrible
responsibility of keeping silent, Mme. Steinheil's interlocutor confided
the secret to us.

"We have faithfully repeated the narrative of the interlocutor without
naming the culprit.

"It was our duty.

"Now let the law do its duty."

       *       *       *       *       *

Can any reader wonder, after this, that public opinion was fearfully
excited against me!

I need hardly add that not one of those statements was true, but the
harm they did me may well be realised! There is unfortunately no Law for
Contempt of Court in France.... And now, for the edification of the
reader, and in accordance with my plan of submitting the actual evidence
given by the witnesses, I will quote from the Dossier the various facts
about this scandalous Ghirelli-Rosselli-Sauerwein affair....

       *       *       *       *       *

"January 19th, 1909; before us, Andre, examining magistrate, &c.... has
appeared Mme. Alphonsi, born Alba Ghirelli, thirty-six years of age....

_Question._ "We have summoned you here on account of a letter dated
January 12th, 1909, which reached us two days later, on the 14th, and
_which the day before had appeared in the_ Matin."

_Answer._ "My counsel advised me to send you the letter. Mme. Steinheil
entered our cell (Ghirelli's and Rosselli's) on Thursday, November 26th,
1908, late at night.... She declared 'I am here because I have told
untruths, but it will be nothing. It will all be arranged in a few days'
time.' She went to bed. All night she seemed very restless; she
cried.... The next morning she wrote letters. At 10.30 A.M. she said she
had been maddened by the necessity of finding proof of guilt against
some one, that she had first placed the pearl in her cousin's
pocket-book, that she had then had a violent 'scene' with her cousin's
wife... and that she had afterwards placed the pearl in her valet's
pocket-book.... She also spoke about a M. Bdl. of whom she was fond....
During the following night, she was again very restless and cried. She
sat on her bed and spoke in an incoherent way. She mentioned a certain
Wolff, and I asked her whether she was sure she had recognised him.
'Yes,' she replied, 'I thought I recognised him!'... During the night of
Saturday-Sunday, I heard her wailing.... She said: 'I suffer so much, I
am losing my reason.' She sighed and wept.... On the next morning, she
was very weak. At 11 A.M. she seized my hands and said: 'The only thing
is suicide; that suicide must and shall take place....' In the
afternoon, she was taken to another cell. Before leaving, she said to
me: 'Swear that we two shall meet again.' Her last words were '_a
bientot_' (so long).... A few days later I met her on the Boulevard of
the Cells and she said: 'I miss you so much. I have asked the Director
to allow us to be in the same cell. He may grant me that favour....'"(!)

_Question._ "We ask the witness about certain newspaper articles
published from January 5th, in which are related declarations attributed
to the witness."

_Answer._ "My statements have often been misinterpreted by the Press....
I remember that the day of my release (Dec. 28th, 1908), Mme. Steinheil
asked me to send her regards to a gentleman friend of hers...."

_Question._ "Tell us his name."

_Answer._ "I tore up his name and address, and I have forgotten
them.... Mme. Steinheil never asked me to take a letter to any one....
According to the newspapers, I took a letter to Mme. Prevost, by
motor-car, in great secrecy. _That is wild romance.... As regards the
confession of her guilt, which according to the_ Matin _of Sunday
January 17th, Madame Steinheil had made since her imprisonment, I know
nothing whatever about it. I have not spoken a word to the Matin about
that.... I have myself read the article in the Matin to which you refer
and have found it fantastic...._"

(_Dossier_ Cote 3010)

       *       *       *       *       *

Marguerite Rosselli made statements very similar to those of Alba
Ghirelli, but concerning the pearl, she merely said: "She spoke about a
cousin that lived in the house, she said something about that pearl,
either that she had thought of putting it in the cousin's pocket-book or
that she had done so...." She also stated: "On January 15th or 16th,
Marie Jacq, who at night shares Mme. Steinheil's cell... came and told
me that Mme. Steinheil had spent an awful night and that she had written
to the Director so that the latter might send for me and recommend me
not to repeat anything of what she had said in her moments of
frenzy...."

(_Dossier_ Cote 3011)

       *       *       *       *       *

Marie Anne Jacq (_Dossier_ Cote 3026) made statements to the same
effect, but with fewer details.

And now we come to two curious documents, which will no doubt enlighten
the reader.

On January 23rd, Alba Ghirelli was again summoned before M. Andre.

"I maintain my previous statements, made on January 19th," she said at
once, after having taken the oath.

_Question._ "There is a contradiction between those statements and the
contents of the facsimile of a letter, which appears to be in your
handwriting, is dated January 19th, and which was published by the
_Matin_ on the 20th--we hand you the facsimile."

_Answer._ "The letter of which this is a facsimile was written by me,
but _was extorted from me_. When, on January 19th, I left this room, I
was literally besieged by journalists, then taken in a motor-car to a
cafe where numerous newspaper men were gathered who wanted to hear from
me the statements I had made to you. I answered vaguely, declaring that
I considered myself as morally unable to supply them with the requested
information.

"I was then invited to dinner at Maire's by M. Charles Sauerwein, whose
card I hand to you. M. Sauerwein insisted that I should confirm a
fictitious mission--to Mme. Prevost--with which I was supposed to have
been entrusted by Mme. Steinheil, and which I was supposed to have
carried out; he also asked me to confirm the letter from Mme. Steinheil
which I was supposed to have handed to Mme. Prevost. I told him that
there was nothing true in all that.

"In the cafe and during the dinner at Maire's Mme. Sellier--who lives
with me--was with me.

"After the dinner, M. Sauerwein persuaded that lady to leave me, and he
asked me to come with him to the _Matin_ offices. There, M. Vallier and
M. Bourse joined M. Sauerwein, and I was literally laid siege to. I
wanted to withdraw, but they opposed that.

"These gentlemen then explained to me that since my mission to Mme.
Prevost was going to be contradicted by the whole Press the next
morning, they would find themselves in a false position with their
Director, M. Bunau-Varilla, that they wanted at all costs to put
themselves right with the Director, and that I could easily get them out
of their trouble by handing to them a letter for him. They added that
this would not compromise me in any way, that they would merely show my
letter to their Director--who was in the next room--and that immediately
afterwards they would hand the letter back to me.

"I did not think I could refuse, and, under the dictation of M.
Sauerwein and M. Bourse, I wrote the letter.

"When it was written, M. Sauerwein took it, and walked away, saying that
he was going to show it to M. Bunau-Varilla.

"One hour elapsed without M. Sauerwein reappearing. M. Vallier and M.
Bourse were still with me.

"When M. Sauerwein returned, he held in his hands scraps of paper, and
he said: 'That is all that remains of your letter. We tore it up, you
can feel quite safe.'

"The next day, I was greatly surprised to see in the _Matin_ the
facsimile of the letter which you show me.

"I realised that M. Sauerwein had had the letter photographed during the
hour that he was away.

"In the morning, I went to the _Matin_ offices, where, protesting
against such methods, I made a great scene.

"M. Sauerwein, and then M. Bourse, tried to calm me.

"Previously M. Sauerwein had promised to publish my '_Memoirs_' in the
_Matin_, and I was to be paid L200 for them; but during the scene at the
_Matin_ offices, on Wednesday January 20th, I demanded that the
manuscript of my memoirs should be handed back to me, and, after raising
some objections, M. Sauerwein returned the manuscript to me.

"Besides, I sent you by an express letter (_pneumatique_), dated January
21st, a denial of the articles published in the _Matin_ about me."

_Question._ "Since we received the _pneumatique_, the _Matin_ in its
issue of January 22nd, has published another letter from you, still
bearing the date of January 19th, 1909, and in its issue of this very
day, the same newspaper speaks of persons who exercise a certain
pressure on you. Give us some explanation about this."

_Answer._ "During the evening of January 19th, at the _Matin_ offices,
M. Sauerwein and M. Bourse, in the presence of M. Vallier, made me write
(still under the pretext of putting themselves right with their
Director, M. Bunau-Varilla)--besides the letter published the next
morning in facsimile--two other letters:

"Firstly: the letter published in the _Matin_ of January 22nd.

"Secondly: a letter declaring that I had, on December 31st, 1908, taken
a letter written by Mme. Steinheil, to M. Leydet, examining magistrate.

"I was made to write those two last letters about one and a half or two
hours after my first letter. It was in any case after M. Sauerwein had
returned with the so-called fragments of my first letter.

"When I had written the two other letters, I was told that as M.
Bunau-Varilla had left the offices of the _Matin_, they would be able to
restore them to me only in the morning, and that, meanwhile, M.
Sauerwein would keep them in his pocket-book.

"The next morning, during the 'scene' I went to make at the _Matin_
office, I claimed from M. Sauerwein the two letters, but he refused to
restore them to me. M. Sauerwein said: 'They won't be published, but I
want to keep them.' I declared to M. Sauerwein that I was going to
demand their restitution through a bailiff. He retorted: 'That will have
no other result than having the two letters authenticated.'

"I assert in the most absolute manner that Mme. Steinheil never
entrusted me with any letter or mission, no more for M. Leydet than for
any one else.

"Besides, at the time of my release--December 28th, 1908--I had not met
Mme. Steinheil, in the corridor, for several days, and when on December
28th, after my acquittal, I had to go back to Saint-Lazare for the
various formalities in connection with my departure from prison, I was
not taken to my cell, but waited downstairs, in the office, where my
belongings were brought to me. It would therefore have been impossible
for Mme. Steinheil to have given me any letter or to have asked me to do
anything for her.

"The letter published by the _Matin_ on January 22nd alludes to a M.
Boune, who takes his meals in the same restaurant as myself. Talking to
me there, he advised me, as a matter of elementary prudence, not to mix
myself up in any way with the Steinheil Affair.... These days, several
journalists and barristers have given me at the restaurant the same
advice as M. Boune. It is probably to this that the _Matin_ of to-day
alludes when it mentions 'pressure.' It is most likely that there are
now reporters of the _Matin_ constantly at that restaurant, and that
they watch everything I do.

      "(Signed) GHIRELLI.
                REDMOND, Clerk.
                ANDRE, Judge."

(_Dossier_ Cote 3029)

       *       *       *       *       *

This retraction was complete, absolute, but the harm had been done,
alas, and the public believed all these dreadful lies published in the
_Matin_ and attributed to Ghirelli. Besides, who heard of the
retraction, except the judge... and I, months afterwards, when the
Dossier was handed to my counsel and me?

And now, for the sake of the truth, I will quote from the evidences
given by "M. Sauerwein, Charles, 32 years old, journalist"... to M.
Andre, the examining magistrate, on February 4, 1909:

... "I wish to specify the conditions on which we obtained those
interviews (with Alba Ghirelli). At the end of December 1908... we
discovered the address of Ghirelli. She was very annoyed when we called
on her, and said that before making any statements she wished to consult
a few friends. She promised to call on me the next day at the _Matin_. I
received an express letter from her, and joined her at the Restaurant de
la Feria. I was accompanied by another member of the _Matin_ staff. A
first interview took place, which appeared in the _Matin_ dated January
14th. This interview was entirely written under her dictation, and she
signed it.... It concerned the statements made by Mme. Steinheil and
collected by Ghirelli, about the guilt of Alexandra Wolff, the pearl
placed first in M. Chabrier's pocket-book, but taken away from it after
Mme. Chabrier's violent interventions, and about the 'necessary'
suicide.

"The next day we gathered from Ghirelli a few other details about the
visit of Pastor Arboux and plans for the future made by Mme. Steinheil.
This second interview appeared in the _Matin_ on January 16th.

"Between the first and the second interviews, Ghirelli told us that on
the eve of the day when she was to appear before the Court of Appeal,
where she thought she would be acquitted, Mme. Steinheil had given her
two letters, one for Mme. Prevost, the other for a magistrate, and had
asked her to telephone to one of her former friends. We have never
mentioned the last two facts in our articles, but the Prevost story
interested us. Ghirelli begged us not to attribute to her the revelation
of the Prevost affair....

... (On January 19th) "When Ghirelli left your rooms, one of our
reporters accompanied her to the cafe Ducastaing... where she was joined
by many journalists... thereupon one of our colleagues brought a note
(the source of which I ignore) that Ghirelli had confirmed certain of
the details published by us, but had denied two or three of the other
points, and particularly the letter taken to Mme. Prevost.

"I was there. I told Ghirelli that in the face of those official denials
we were simply going to publish the note brought by the colleague I have
mentioned. She begged me to remain with her and to send for a third
party, whose name I cannot give on account of 'professional secrecy.' I
summoned the third party on the telephone. We were to have dinner at
Maire's, the 'Countess' (Ghirelli), one of her lady friends called 'La
Generale,' and I. The dinner was not altogether pleasant, for I was in
the presence of a person who had just denied what she had stated on the
previous day. The third person arrived.

("Personally, I have no doubt that he was M. Camille Dreyfus, Rosselli's
counsel, to whose 'indiscretion' the Director of Saint-Lazare alluded in
his report of January 21st, 1909 [_Dossier_ Cote 3021]).

"The third person had a long chat with the 'Countess' in the next room.
I was sent for, and the third person told me that the 'Countess' had a
confession to make to me. She then declared: 'All that I have told you
from the very first moment, and that you have published, is false, and
is due to my imagination, except the details I confirmed before the
examining magistrate.' I told the 'Countess' how much I regretted that
she should have so sought her pleasure in lying, and she said that the
_Matin_ would publish the next day the note which I have mentioned to
you.

"I was about to leave, but the 'Countess' detained me. The third person
had just gone, and the 'Countess' said: 'I swear to you on the head of
my children that all of what I have told you from the first to the last,
is the exact truth. If I have denied it, it is because eight or nine
persons whom I didn't know before have influenced me, intimidated me.
People have gone so far as to tell me that they would have me
arrested!'...

"... Whilst the 'Countess' made to me, in private, the statements I have
just repeated, the third person was waiting in the passage. I joined
him, and told him what had happened.... He then left me and went back to
the 'Countess,' whilst I went to the _Matin_ and at once related all
these incidents to the Editor. Five minutes later, the 'Countess' and
the third person arrived at the _Matin_. In the presence of my
colleague, M. Bourse, Ghirelli repeated that she had spoken the truth
and that she hid part of the truth from you only because of the pressure
put upon her. I said to her: 'Your word has no longer any value for me.
You must write down what you say and sign it!' The 'Countess' showed
some hesitation.

"I must tell you that on the very day when she gave us the interview
which we published, I paid her 500 francs (L20) as a reward, and I
promised her further sums of money--thinking of handing her--little by
little, 2000 francs (L80) if the information which she might be able to
supply, seemed interesting to us.

"Besides, I had it in my mind that the L80 were also to represent the
price of her Memoirs....

"To return to our conversation with the 'Countess' on January 19th...
She suggested a document according to her ideas, but written by me, and
merely dated and signed by her. I said I wanted the document to be
written by her.... She consented, and wrote exactly four documents
without being dictated to, but on lines that we suggested. (She thought
them in accordance with the truth.) The first was published in
facsimile in the _Matin_ on January 20th; the second refers to the
letter taken by the 'Countess' to a magistrate; the third tells the fact
that Rosselli was beseeched by Mme. Steinheil not to repeat to the
examining magistrate the revelations she might have made, and the fourth
concerning the intimidations to which 'Countess' Ghirelli was submitted
by various persons. We published this last letter too. When all was
written and signed by her, she asked me for the rest of the L80, and I
told her to come the next morning. She came... and asked me for the
money. I consulted the Director of the _Matin_, and, returning to
Ghirelli, I said to her: 'Madame, so long as you are a witness in the
Affair, the _Matin_ won't pay you anything, for I don't want it to be
said that the _Matin_ gave money to a witness in the Affair, so that she
would confirm what she had said before...'

"Furious, she asked me to return her the manuscript of her Memoirs. The
same evening she telephoned... and asked me to dine with her. I
accepted... M. Bourse and M. Vallier were with me. She remained with one
of the two others till 10.30 P.M., and afterwards went to the offices of
the _Eclair_. And a day or two afterwards she told me that it was there,
in the office of M. Montorgueil... that she wrote to you the letter of
rectification which you must have received from her. Since then,
Ghirelli has often asked me for money.... Last night, she again asked me
for money, and again I told her: 'No, your being a witness makes it
impossible for us to give you money... I only gave evidence in order to
re-establish the reality of the facts _in all its exactness_.

      "(Signed) SAUERWEIN.
                    SIMON.
                    ANDRE."

(_Dossier_ Cote 3035)

       *       *       *       *       *

Comment is unnecessary.

In regard to the mission to Mme. Prevost with which I was alleged to
have entrusted Ghirelli, who was described in the _Matin_ as having
mysteriously journeyed to Mme. Prevost's by motor-car, several persons
residing in the street where the motor-car was said to have
stopped--who had been mentioned by the newspaper as having made
statements that were quoted, of course--were interrogated on the matter
by the Law:

"Mme. Kaufman, aged 41, doorkeeper at No. 11 Rue du Cher, consulted
about the _Matin_ article... declared: I have not made the statements
attributed to me. I have never noticed an automobile at the corner of
the street, nor did I see Mme. Prevost go and talk to some one hidden in
a motor-car. _I absolutely confute everything that I have been made to
say in the_ Matin. It is not accurate, and, what is more, it is
untrue.'"

"Mlle. Leveque, aged 23... No. 11 Rue du Cher... consulted on the same
matter, declared: I have seen nothing of the facts described in the
_Matin_ article, and have made _no declaration whatever to any one_, for
the simple reason that I know nothing (about the matter), and that at
the time when it is said a motor-car stopped near my shop I was not
there.... I also wish to state that I don't know at all Mme. Prevost,
and I don't like having been mixed up in that affair."

"M. and Mme. Thomas, doorkeepers, 9 Rue du Cher, also consulted,
declared they had not seen the motor-car mentioned in the _Matin_, and
they added that Mme. Prevost, their tenant, had not come down from her
apartment on that day--December 31st--for she was unwell and could not
leave her room.

"Mme. Prevost herself, asked whether she had received any letter from
Mme. Steinheil on that date, and in the circumstances related by the
_Matin_, declared that she had received nothing whatever from her since
the last summer.

      "(Signed) INSPECTOR DECHET."

(_Dossier_ Cote 3017)

       *       *       *       *       *

There remains one point to elucidate in the Ghirelli-Sauerwein
interviews: the question of the pearl which I was said to have placed in
M. Chabrier's pocket-book, and then to have placed it in Couillard's,
only after a violent scene with Mme. Chabrier.

Here again I will quote from the Dossier, and the reader will have a
further opportunity of looking into the methods of the newspaper which
did so much to ruin me in the eyes of public opinion--as much while I
was in prison as before my arrest:

"This January 21st, 1909, before us, Andre", &c.... has appeared M.
Chabrier... who states:

"... I have never had any knowledge that Mme. Steinheil tried to put, or
did put in my pocket-book the pearl which was afterwards found in that
of Couillard. I had never seen that pearl, and had never heard of it
until the moment... when at the _Matin_ offices, and before me, M. de
Labruyere opened Couillard's pocket-book and made an inventory of its
contents--which brought about the discovery of the pearl.

"With respect to this discovery--and as _one of the instances of the
methods of intimidation adopted by journalists in November 1908, against
the various inhabitants of No. 6 bis Impasse Ronsin_--I wish to draw
your attention to the following fact:

"On November 24th (the day before the Night of the Confession) M. de
Labruyere came to the house and talked to me about an article in the
_Journal_, which stated that it was he who had opened Remy Couillard's
pocket-book. He added that since the statement was not correct, he
wanted to prove to M. Bunau-Varilla that he, de Labruyere, had not
opened the pocket-book. He asked me therefore to write a letter in which
I would certify that I (Chabrier) had myself opened the pocket-book.

"Since it was M. de Labruyere who had opened it--as I stated when I gave
evidence on November 21st, 1908--I protested, and so did my wife.

"M. de Labruyere insisted, saying that such an attestation was the more
necessary to them (the _Matin_) and that my intervention as Mme.
Steinheil's representative would be easier to explain than his own, and
he added that if I did not write that letter, I might be ruining Mme.
Steinheil's cause, for then M. Bunau-Varilla would abandon that cause
and _would turn against her_.

"Mme. Steinheil was present. Struck by that argument, she advised me to
write the letter. And I wrote the letter, after submitting a rough copy
of it to M. de Labruyere.

"'To M. de Labruyere, at the _Matin_: In contradiction of a statement
published by a morning newspaper, it was not you who opened Couillard's
pocket-book, but I, acting as Mme. Steinheil's representative.'

"Taking advantage of a moment when my head was turned, my wife seized
the letter and tore it. M. de Labruyere again began to intimidate me,
and I consented to write a second letter absolutely the same as the
first....

"I believe it my duty to add that on November 24th, 1908, it was not
only the argument that I would ruin Mme. Steinheil's cause if I did not
write the letter which made me write it, but also the following threat:
M. de Labruyere said to me: _If you refuse to write the letter I am
asking for, I will publish in the_ Matin, _a semi-official report
declaring that it was you who opened Couillard's pocket-book, and
bearing the signature of M. Lecondimer, who was a witness, and my own.
There will be mentioned your surname and Christian names and your
position as travelling postal sorter_. And he added: You can guess the
effects that will make on your administration....

      "(Signed) CHABRIER.
                    ANDRE.
                    SIMON."

(_Dossier_ Cote 3014)

       *       *       *       *       *

Needless to say, Mme. Chabrier fully corroborated these statements by
her husband adding this typical remark: "She was so exasperated to hear
M. de Labruyere declaring that he would make trouble for M. Chabrier at
the Post Office, unless he wrote the letter, that she said to him: 'If
my husband gets into trouble, you will have to deal with me. I'll blow
your brains out!'"

      (_Dossier_ Cote 3025)

       *       *       *       *       *

Two other persons were called upon to give evidence concerning the
Ghirelli-Rosselli-Jacq revelations. One was poor Firmin, who, called
before M. Andre on January 22, 1909, declared:

"I have been Mme. Steinheil's companion first in Cell 11, then in Cell
12, which we still share. All I have noticed is that at night, as a
rule, she does not sleep, but calls for her daughter, and opens the
window at times, saying that her head hurts, that she is stifling.

"During the day she constantly talks to me about her daughter....

"She has several times told me that from the time she returned from
Bellevue her house was invaded by journalists... I have heard her say
how grieved she was to have accused Wolff, and to have hurt her old
Mariette. She constantly repeats that she is innocent... to me... to M.
Desmoulin, to Pastor Arboux...."

_Question._ "Have you any knowledge that, when Alba Ghirelli was
released, Mme. Steinheil may have given her a letter or entrusted her
with a mission?"

_Answer._ "I have no knowledge of such a thing. Now, ever since Mme.
Steinheil has been in the same cell with me, I have never left her one
moment alone. Besides, such a thing seems to me the more impossible
since Mme. Steinheil and I have only heard of Alba Ghirelli's release,
several days after the release had taken place.

      "(Signed) SIMON.
                    ANDRE.
                    FIRMIN."

(_Dossier_ Cote 3027)

       *       *       *       *       *

The other witness was M. Desmoulin, who on January 20 declared before M.
Andre:

"For many years past I have been visiting the poor, the patients in
hospitals, and also prisoners. About a year ago the Minister of the
Interior gave me permission to visit the prisons of the Seine
Department, allowing me free access to my proteges. One of these, at
Saint-Lazare, is a girl called Firmin. I visited her early in December
1908, and found that she had been placed in Cell 12, and having entered
that cell I saw near Firmin a woman in mourning, and guessed that she
was Mme. Steinheil.... Since then I have seen both several times. Of
Mme. Steinheil I have always asked, 'And you, Madame, do you feel well?'
And she has always replied, 'Oh, yes, Monsieur, my conscience always
keeps me up!' Every time she has emphatically asserted her innocence in
convincing tones. She has always expressed her great grief at being
separated from her daughter. That throughout has seemed to me the most
noticeable point about her mental state. Sometimes, I have seen her cry,
especially when she talked about her daughter.

      "(Signed) SIMON.
                    DESMOULIN.
                    ANDRE."

(_Dossier_ Cote 3014)

       *       *       *       *       *

There is one side to this "Ghirelli Affair," as it has been called,
which the reader has probably not realised. Not only did those
revelations published by the _Matin_ still further exasperate public
opinion against me, but they added many days, perhaps even weeks, to my
imprisonment. Judge Andre's investigations into the absurd matter took a
long time to make--they represent 112 pages added to the already
voluminous Dossier; I have read, re-read... and counted them!--and
meanwhile the _Instruction_ was delayed, and therefore my imprisonment
made longer... And I counted the days, the hours, at Saint-Lazare!

To sum up: Ghirelli denied, on oath, all her damaging statements, and
other witnesses proved that they could never have been made; Firmin and
M. Desmoulin gave evidence which fully vindicated me; there remained
Marie Anne Jacq, who spoke against me and clung to her statements.

Well, I will give the end of Jacq's story:

She remained in cell No. 12 for several weeks. One day--the
_Instruction_ was over then--Jacq spontaneously came to me, burst into
tears, and said: "Forgive me, Madame... You are too kind to me. To think
that you know all I have spoken against you, and that you have not
reproached me once. You give me your coffee, the eggs that your daughter
brings... I can't stand it any longer. Listen. Ghirelli and Rosselli
gave me wine, and I love wine, for life is hard here, Madame, and they
told me what to say if I was called before the judge about you. I hated
you, at the time; those two women said you had murdered your mother,
that they knew it... and I promised anything they asked me.... And then,
I thought: If I am called by the judge, it will mean leaving this
wretched prison for a few hours, and that's a change.... It was dreadful
of me to lie as I have done.... Look here, you must let me scrub the
cell for you, in future, I will light your fire, help you in every way,
only, forgive me, Madame...."

Of course, I forgave her.

When she returned from the cell, that day, she looked greatly depressed.
I asked her what had happened: "Ah!" she sighed, "they are sending me to
the prison at Rennes.... Please, please, do something, speak to some
one.... I want to remain near you, I want to stop here...."

But poor Jacq had to go. When she was about to leave the cell, she
looked round, slowly, sadly. Then she came to me and said: "I heard you
say to Sister Leonide, 'It must be nice to see a flower....' Well,
Madame, I picked one up in the chapel, when I swept there to-day." And
she gave me a tiny branch of mimosa.... "You won't think too harshly of
me, will you? Good-bye, Madame...."

We were both weeping, she kissed my hand, and tottered away.

I kept the little branch of mimosa for four months. It became smaller
and smaller, but it still looked like a flower, and the little gold
pearls were the only beautiful things in that horrible cell.

The mimosa stood in an empty penny ink bottle, before a small frame
containing a photograph of my mother, and one of Marthe when she was a
baby.




CHAPTER XXIV

SAINT-LAZARE


Towards the end of December 1907, after I had been about one month in
prison, I had a long conversation with Maitre Aubin and also with M.
Desmoulin. I told them all I knew about the dreadful mystery.

When M. Desmoulin heard all the details concerning the mysterious
personage whom my late husband and I had always called the "German," the
pearl necklace given me by President Faure, and about the "documents,"
he eagerly said to me: "I will speak to the Prime Minister about this,
and within a few days you will be a free woman again!"

Days went by. M. Desmoulin came frequently, but alas! instead of good
tidings he gradually broke the news to me that an immediate release was
out of the question!

I questioned my counsel. He, too, saw clearly that the pearls and the
documents were the keys to the mystery, or, at any rate, one of the
keys, but he hesitated as to the advisability of drawing attention to
these facts.... "The whole affair is already so complicated," he
explained, "it would perhaps be unwise to add new difficulties to... You
have not spoken about the necklace and Faure's Memoirs to M. Leydet,--at
any rate, not explicitly--you have not mentioned them so far to M.
Andre... It is always dangerous and even suspicious to come forward with
new statements.... And then, you must realise that the Government, the
Law, will be rather displeased if those facts are brought forth, if the
private life of a former President of the Republic has to be searched
and discussed.... And it is never wise to upset the Government or to
displease the Law.... After all, I will do what you decide but I am here
to advise you; I am here, above all, to get you out of prison, to
restore you to your Marthe.... Again, you have not sufficient proofs
about those pearls. You don't know their exact origin, there is a
mystery about them, the President told you so himself. It will probably
cause a great deal of unpleasantness, and probably lead to no definite
result.... _A quoi bon!_"

"I had thought that a counsel was a man who feared nothing and no one,
who, with a strong conscience, indomitable will, and unconquerable
logic, eliminated all obstacles and--at all costs--made truth triumphant
in the end."

"Truth is a two-edged tool, Madame. The first duty of a counsel is to
save his client, and I shall save you easily enough, for there are no
charges against you whatever, but you must leave everything to me, and
not complicate matters unnecessarily."

Time after time, during the twelve months I spent at Saint-Lazare, I
revolted against such half-hearted, unsatisfactory and even compromising
methods which made it possible for the prosecution to say that my
evidence was incomplete, not clear, that I kept back too much... But
Maitre Aubin remained obdurate, and I feel sure that he meant well, and
did the right thing.

Thanks to his all-conquering logic and fiery eloquence, the jury
realised that I had done nothing to deserve being charged with a ghastly
double murder, and I was acquitted. I thank him and his two
secretaries--M. Steinhardt and M. Landowsky--with all my heart for their
splendid devotion, but I know they will forgive me if I say that I
regret that the whole truth did not come out at my trial.

Besides, Maitre Aubin himself, time after time, told me: "I'll see that
you are acquitted, Madame. Afterwards, you can and you should, tell the
whole world all that I thought wiser not to reveal at the trial, for
your own sake!"

I have followed Maitre Aubin's advice: I am doing so now.

       *       *       *       *       *

Saint-Lazare! How many times have I been asked, since I left that
prison, to describe it, to describe the life I led there!

It was atrocious for a poor young woman "of the people" like Firmin,
for instance, to live in a cell, but my fellow-prisoner would perhaps
agree herself, that for a leader of society, for a woman of the world,
it was almost worse. She had been used to a small shabby room or even a
garret, to misery... and I to a vast house, servants, comfort, luxury
even. Intellectual and artistic joys were unknown to her, but they had
been the best part of my life. She was used to insults and vulgar
language; they made me ill. She did not mind very much what she ate...
nor did I, if only it were clean, but food was not, could not, be clean
at Saint-Lazare, where elementary cleanliness and hygiene were quite
unknown.

It would be difficult to conceive a prison more hopelessly dilapidated
and insanitary than Saint-Lazare. The walls are cracked; the passages
and staircases are evil-smelling; vermin abounds everywhere; light and
air are worse than scant; the stoves of the cells are inefficient and
even dangerous, as I learned at my own expense, for twice I nearly lost
my life owing to escaping fumes. All the walls are damp and clammy;
saltpetre oozes from them; they are hastily covered with a coat of black
paint, but the saltpetre comes through again and they look as if they
had been stuck over with some repulsive, viscous substance; the ceilings
are low, except on the ground floor, where are situated the Director's
apartments and various offices. It is cold everywhere.... The steps of
the staircase are mostly broken; each step has a rotten, crumbling
wooden edge, and there is filth in every corner. I could supply
other--and worse--details, but will merely mention the baths. They are
in the vaults of the prison, and on the way to them, one passes along
the awe-inspiring dungeons where State-prisoners were kept in ancient
days. Water runs down the rough-hewn walls. The atmosphere in that cave
is icy cold all the year round. It is only lit by small air-holes. Each
"bath room" is separated from the other by low walls, and one gains
admittance to those "stalls"--for that is what they remind one of--by
lifting a curtain. There are about ten of these stalls, and when I
bathed, Firmin used to stand before the curtain to prevent the other
women from coming to see--and insult--me. The baths were so unspeakably
filthy that I was allowed to place a thick sheet inside and round the
bath, so as to avoid contagion....

The prison is in such a state that for years there have been rumours
that it would be pulled down. It will tumble down, in a few years' time.
It is a place of dirt and sloth, of abject misery and ignoble and
degrading atmosphere, a hotbed of infection for the body, as well as for
the mind.... Such is Saint-Lazare, where I spent _one whole
year_--waiting for an ever-postponed trial!--Saint-Lazare, the woman's
prison in the very heart of Paris, the City of Light!

       *       *       *       *       *

Firmin worked, in order to earn a few pence. I did like her, in order to
be occupied, to kill time, and also to live like Firmin and the other
prisoners. We made sheets, towels, pillow-slips, napkins.... A part of
this was for use in the prison itself, the other--the finer work--was
sold to large Parisian stores. The days were short, and it was never
very light in the cells with the ground-glass windows, the iron-bars and
the wire-trellis. Besides the windows overlooked a yard, with high walls
all round it and we were in winter.... So we worked mostly by the light
of a candle stuck in the neck of a bottle. It was most trying to the
eyes. The tiles were so cold that we always sat with our feet on the
bars of our chairs, and our knees necessarily high up. Several times a
day, we tried, with an old rag, to get rid of some of the water which
accumulated in the crevices between the broken tiles and in all the
places where the tiles _had_ been. On rainy days, water somehow dropped
through the rotten ceiling, and trickled down the walls, and there were
small pools of water here and there around us. The walls, painted black
except for a narrow band immediately below the ceiling, were so damp
that after a few nights in prison, I felt such pains in the side of my
body nearest the wall when I lay down that I applied for permission to
pull my pallet a short distance from the wall.... I thus avoided the
dampness of the wall and... the vermin which crawled on it. Mice were
scarce, but ugh! the cockroaches!... One evening, I and Firmin, with
hands trembling with disgust, killed over a hundred each in a very
short time. At night, they ran about everywhere, climbing on our table,
on our beds.... When one crawled on my skin I had nervous fits and
screamed.... I wrapped my head up in a towel, and drew the sheet and
blanket up over it, but I could still hear the cockroaches and feel them
crawl over me.... "This woman will go mad," said the prison doctor one
day, and I obtained permission to drag my bed, at night, into the very
centre of the cell. Every day, I rubbed the legs and frame of my
wretched bed with paraffin, and then I could rest in comparative
peace... especially as Sister Leonide, by order of the doctor, gave me
every night--and until the last day of my imprisonment--a sleeping
draught, thanks to which I generally slept two or three hours.... But
when one got up during the night, it was dreadful. One literally walked
on cockroaches, and the horrible, crackling noise as their bodies were
crushed underfoot, was enough to jar any one's nerves....

I can fancy some reader saying: "Pools of water in a cell, broken tiles,
mice, cockroaches by the hundred!... She exaggerates.... She is
describing a cell in some prison of another century...." I am _not_
exaggerating; "Saint-Lazare" does not belong to another century. It is
so old and tumble-down that, more than once, when looking into some dark
room on my way to the parlour or the Director's office, I almost
expected to see the heavy chains, the thumb-screws, the rack, the
bilboes and other instruments of a torture-chamber!

Jacq left our cell at half-past six in the morning, and soon afterwards
Firmin and I rose. We first of all lit the small stove. I had to pay for
the wood and coal, of course. The coal was stacked in a corner of the
cell, and I placed the wood on my only shelf, to keep it as dry as
possible. Then we swept and cleaned the room. The door was opened to
allow us to carry the dust away and fetch some water to wash--and to
make coffee. We had to handle the coal with our hands, for a shovel
might have been used as a weapon!

It was not easy to dress. All I had at my disposal was a very small
stone basin, a jug--bought from the prison for fourpence--a brush and
comb, a tooth brush, a piece of mottled soap, a penny looking glass
less than three inches in diameter, and a hard rough towel. There was no
bucket or pail, and we had to leave the cell--on the two or three
occasions when the door was opened for a few minutes--to empty the
basin. I had to do my washing-up in the very basin in which I used to
wash... my face!

My daughter several times brought proper soap and toothpaste for me, but
the warder near the parlour invariably decreed: "You can't take these
in; they are luxuries, and luxuries are prohibited here."

I wore a plain black dress, which I made myself in one afternoon in
prison, and when I left my cell I threw a black hood over my shoulders.
I wore my hair parted in the centre and fastened at the back with a
piece of ribbon and a few hair-pins. That was the simplest coiffure, and
the lightest to my ever-aching head.

I only wore the dress in which I had come to Saint-Lazare when I went to
the Palace of Justice for the _Instruction_, and, of course, when, a
year later, I was tried in the Assize Court.

Owing to illness and the complete lack of exercise--I was entitled to go
round the yard for an hour every day, but when I did so, once, the other
prisoners insulted and even hit me, and I had to give up that hour of
exercise--I became very weak. Shoes hurt my feet, and I made a pair of
slippers for myself with bits of cardboard, velvet, and fur given me by
the sisters.

I also made a basket with plaited paper, to keep my bread clean.

After breakfast--coffee and bread--I usually opened the window to air
the room and to look outside.

Below was the yard, with its few trees and its basin. I saw women
washing or walking. Many of these prisoners were mothers, and held
babies in their arms. Many had two or three children. There were little
boys and girls--the oldest being about five--and they played with the
rubbish on the ground, cried, fought, or hung to their mother's skirts.
All were terribly unkempt and slovenly, and all were in tatters. The
majority of these mothers ill-treated their children and abused them in
the vilest language.

Foul and obscene language, indeed, is the rule at Saint-Lazare, when the
scum of the feminine population of Paris, the lowest and most degraded
of "gay women," the vilest viragoes of the slums, and thieves and
vagabonds are brought day after day, the majority for a short time only.

How they loathed one another, and how they fought!... The Sisters hardly
dared interfere, and it was only on rare occasions that the male warders
were called upon to put an end to fierce quarrels and free fights. On
one occasion I saw, through the bars of my window, two women literally
tearing one another to pieces. They were gipsies, known at Saint-Lazare
as "_les noires_" ("the black ones"). Their hair was loose, their
clothes in shreds; they ploughed each other's face with their nails.
Their mouths were torn and blood streamed over their cheeks and chins,
giving them the appearance of demons. One had picked up a piece of sharp
flint, and with it slashed the face of her enemy. Other women watched
the fight and yelled with joy. The Sisters were powerless, and at last a
warder was sent for.... He came, quietly. He was an old man who knew....
In each hand he held a bowlful of thick yellowish soup. Without a word,
he handed one to each combatant.... Like beasts, they instantaneously
forgot their battle, and eagerly started gulping down the soup, spooning
it out with their hands.

I never dared remain very long at the window, for when the prisoners saw
me, they invariably hurled at me shouts of execration.

I helped Firmin with the sewing, and by sewing all day and a great part
of the night, managed to earn seven or eight francs a _month_. The work
was paid for at the rate of one halfpenny per towel, napkin, or slip
(one franc for two dozen), twopence per tablecloth and threepence for
large sheets, but you had to pay for your cotton and needles, and when
the work was not "perfect," it was refused, or no more work was given to
you! With what I earned, I bought food from the canteen for Firmin, and
my poor companion repaid me with such real devotion, such touching
attentions as I had never received from any one, except from my Mother
and Marthe.

The Sisters were so pleased with my work that they gave me the more
difficult sewing to do--piles of fine napkins and tablecloths for the
Spring sale at the _Printemps_ and the _Bon Marche_.... No wonder those
vast stores can sell beautiful table-linen at low prices which make
purchasers exclaim, as I had so often done myself: "How can they do it!"

After a few months, my fingers became sore, and bled constantly--for
besides the sewing, I had to scrub the cell, to prepare the fire, to
wash up, to iron my own things (which I did by pressing them against the
stove-pipe!) and all this soon ruins hands which have been used chiefly
to play the piano, to embroider, or to write... Firmin, and later Jacq,
wanted to do all the rough work for me, but that would not have been
fair, and I insisted on taking my turn at it.

Sister Leonide then kindly taught me to make the "_frivolite_"
(tatting), for which no needle was required, and for a time, I did no
other work.

I have often thought of the sarcastic remarks certain newspapers and
probably the Prosecution would have made, had they known that in prison
I spent weeks making "_frivolite_!"... Did they not think it an
extremely funny and eloquent omen that in the days of my childhood, I
rode a mare called "_Cleopatre_"!

There was a library at Saint-Lazare, but I could not read, for reading
gave me neuralgia. Firmin read to me sometimes, very slowly and
monotonously, of course, but I was very thankful to her.

Marthe came twice a week, and later, after I had been very ill for a
time, she was allowed to come to the prison three times a week. Those
visits were, need I say it, the one great solace in my misery. Poor
little Marthe, how courageous she was, and how well she found the words
that would comfort me and help me to live on until her next visit....
And to think that after my trial, after I had been acquitted, she was
kept away from me for nearly two years, by kind souls who, thinking that
I had not yet suffered enough, told her such fearful things about her
mother and threatened her with so many calamities if she dared to come
to me, that the poor child, who suffered as much as I did, alas, found
it impossible to disobey those strict and inhuman orders, until, having
married the man she loved, a young Italian painter, poor, but with a
noble heart, she craved my forgiveness--as though I had anything to
forgive her!--and came to me at last.

Maitre Aubin also came two or three times a week, and not only gave me
excellent legal advice, but did his utmost to comfort me in my awful
predicament. His devotion, and that of his two secretaries, was truly
admirable. And there were the visits of M. Desmoulin and of Pastor
Arboux. I saw my notary, Maitre Jousselin, several times, for I had to
"emancipate" my daughter to enable her to sign certain documents and
"represent" me in various circumstances.

The hours I liked best in the day were eight in the morning and
half-past seven at night. Those were the hours of the Sisters' Service,
in their own little chapel, which was exactly opposite my window. That
chapel had been the cell of St. Vincent de Paul, and the spot where the
altar stood was the very spot where the great man had died in 1660. I
loved to hear the Sisters sing their beautiful Latin hymns, and Sister
Leonide, who knew this, and who stood at the back of that chapel, that
is, close to the window, opened the window just a little, so that I
might hear the singing better.... And Sister Emmanuel, who was
seventy-eight years old, and had been at Saint-Lazare for over fifty
years, one day whispered in my ear: "You know, I have not sung in chapel
for years. I am so old, but I sing now... for you, my poor child!"... I
was so unhappy and so sensitive that this simple and sublime remark made
me cry with emotion and gratitude. I could have knelt before her. I
asked Sister Leonide what I could do for Sister Emmanuel, and she said:
"Make her slippers. I'll give you everything to make them. It is so cold
in this prison."... I never did anything in my life with so great and so
radiant a joy.

What a wonderful person, this old, old Sister Emmanuel! When a woman who
was being put into a strait-jacket screamed hysterically the presence
of Sister Emmanuel was enough to calm her. She called all the prisoners
"_mesdames_" or "_mes petites_" ("my little ones"). In the sewing-room
she read aloud to the prisoners at work, but frequently her strength
failed, the book fell from her hands, and she went to sleep. There
reigned absolute silence then in the vast room, for the women respected
her sleep. When Sister Emmanuel awoke she shouted from habit: "Now then,
_mesdames_, silence, please!" And every one laughed....

She gave courage to all, took an interest in every prisoner, and
invariably advised them to "appeal," without even knowing whether the
woman had yet been tried! Nothing disheartened or wearied her; her
temper was always even. She was Serenity itself, ever smiling and
comforting.

She was full of quaint expressions. Once when a prisoner stared at her
she gaily said: "I am very plain, am I not, with my nose like a potato!
Well, I've always been like that!" Another time, when I had just seen
her preventing a woman--a new arrival--who had vilely abused her, from
being punished, I could not help exclaiming: "Oh! _ma Soeur_, you are
sure to go straight to heaven!" She laughed and replied: "Well, if I go
there, it will really not have been difficult!"

"I love 'my women,'" she once said to me, in her tremulous voice, "and
the worse they are the more they need love, and the more I love them."
The prisoners all worshipped her like a Saint, and even the fiercest and
most degraded woman would obey her, whatever the order was and at once.
Sister Emmanuel had only to look at the woman.... I often wondered how
it was that everybody bowed to and gladly obeyed this aged, bent Sister
of Mercy with the emaciated and trembling body, so small that when she
was sitting her feet were off the ground, until one day I looked into
her eyes.... There was the Holy Spirit in those eyes.

The Sister Superior, _Ma Mere_--My Mother--as every one called her, a
tall, strong woman of about fifty, with large blue eyes shining with
kindness, came from time to time to see me--which was a very great
favour. At first, she was cold and almost distant, but gradually she
changed and became more and more affectionate, and remained a little
longer in my cell.

Sisters Superior from all parts of France came to see her when they were
in Paris and they always visited me, not out of curiosity but out of
sympathy, for My Mother had evidently spoken to them about me.

I remember the Sister Superior of a prison at Rouen. She came from time
to time to Paris, and always spent a long while with me. This sainted
woman spoke to me with so much profound sympathy that I once said to
her: "But, Ma Mere, I am sure you must despise me.... I have not been a
faithful wife; I have accused a man without having absolute proofs that
he was guilty...." She took my hands in hers and replied: "No creature
on earth is despicable; we don't know what a being is, has been, or
might have been."

       *       *       *       *       *

There were four small tables in our cell--three feet by one and a
half--and Sister Leonide on a day when I was more profoundly dejected
than usual gave them names to try to make me laugh: the _drawing-room
table_ (also called _dressing-table_) on which stood the mimosa in its
ink-bottle and the photographs of my daughter and my mother; the
_dining-room table_ used for our meals; the _library table_ on which we
wrote our letters and the _work-table_ for our sewing. Marthe once
brought me some material to repair a petticoat, but there was more than
necessary, and with the extra material I made a cover for the
drawing-room table; and Sister Leonide occasionally gave us some sheets
of white or brown paper to lay on the "dining-room" table.

After each meal we opened the window, whatever the weather might be, and
gave crumbs of bread to the sparrows and the pigeons. When for some
reason or other, we were late in doing so, the birds would knock at the
window with their beaks through the wire-trellis.

At night, besides the cockroaches, there were the cats to prevent one
from sleeping. Saint-Lazare is so infested with rats that scores of cats
are kept to destroy them. Moreover, almost every Sister has a cat as a
companion.

In the evening before the cells were locked and bolted for the
night--after the prisoners had emptied their basins and filled their
jugs with water--one or the other of the Sisters, and sometimes two or
three of them, came to spend five minutes, at most, with me.... I looked
forward all day to those five minutes.

After that, I used to go to the end of the Boulevard of the Cells, to
watch the Sisters go to evening prayer. I loved those Sisters. Their
life was like that of the prisoners; they lived in similar cells, ate
the same food, were insulted by the women just as I and others were, but
they remained quite unruffled and patient.... The mere sight of them did
me good.

I watched the night procession through the bars of the gate.... The
_abbe_ came first, followed by the Sister Superior and then all the
Sisters.... They went in single file, their heads bent down, their arms
hanging by their sides, slowly, silently. The only noise was the soft
jingling of the bunches of keys hanging from their waists, of their
large ebony crosses, and of the beads of their rosaries....

In the shadow I could not see their black gowns; I only saw their white
cornettes, which looked like the white wings of birds, and under each
cornette there was a serene face, beautiful because the eyes were pure
and the soul was filled with charity and the love of God.

Sixty Sisters passed thus, and as they went by the heavy iron gate
through which I was watching, each Sister raised her head and faintly,
divinely smiled at me as if to say: "I will pray for you in the
chapel...."

I forgot my misery; I forgot that I was accused of murder;... I returned
to my cell and from behind the bars of my open window, I listened to the
songs and prayers.... Then I lit my candle, went to bed and read a page
of the Bible....

Firmin, afterwards, would talk with me. We whispered.... But sometimes
we forgot, and spoke too loudly... and in the night we heard the voice
of the Sister on duty in the Boulevard of the Cells, saying slowly,
monotonously: "Silence... silence... silence...."




CHAPTER XXV.

THE "INSTRUCTION"


From December 5th, 1907, to March 13th, 1909, my "Instruction" took
place in the Palace of Justice, in the Cabinet of M. Andre, the
Examining Magistrate.... I am not superstitious, but I state for the
sake of those interested in such coincidences, that the cell to which I
was taken after my arrest was cell No. 13, that my _Instruction_ lasted
13 weeks, that my final interrogatory took place on March 13, and that
the jury returned to decide my fate on November 13 (1909).

As I have already explained, what is called the "Instruction" in France
is the preliminary but exhaustive, definite inquiry into a crime.

Before my first appearance at the Palace of Justice, Maitre Aubin came
to Saint-Lazare.

"The _Instruction_ will begin to-day, Madame. Summon to your assistance
all the courage you possess. Andre is no genius; but he is a relentless,
pertinacious judge who will do his utmost to make you contradict
yourself and draw terrible conclusions against you from those
contradictions. You are innocent, but he will make you feel that you are
guilty; every hesitation, every slip, however unconscious or
unimportant, every reticence will become formidable weapons in his
hands. Don't accuse any one--Couillard or Wolff, or Balincourt. Even
though he examines your private life--and he is sure to do that--don't
mention your 'friendship' with M. B., the Attorney-General, or your
intimacy with President Faure. They would only irritate him. Besides, if
you did, he would only change the subject of 'conversation.' You must
forget that you have received in your Salon, Ministers of State and
Diplomatists, eminent politicians and eminent judges, even though you
are asked who came to your house. Just reply to Andre's question and
nothing else. Say merely 'Yes,' or 'No,' whenever possible, for he will
twist your replies as often as he can do it 'legally,' into something
damaging to your case. I know that he is absolutely convinced that you
are guilty and he will do his best to make even you believe it! It is
scandalous, infamous, and everything else you like to call it, Madame,
but I can't help it!"

I was bewildered!

Marthe came that same morning to give me courage, and also Pastor
Arboux, Soeur Leonide and one or two other Sisters accompanied me, on
my way to the prison door, as far as they could, and they, too, spoke
many kind words to me.

Downstairs, under the porch, I saw three of the inspectors I knew so
well, waiting for me. I was told to enter a taxi. One of the inspectors
sat near the driver and the other two men inside with me. They were
armed with revolvers, and looked anxiously through the windows.... They
feared the crowd, but our journey was uneventful.

"Have you discovered anything?" I asked them. "Have you found any new
clue? Are you on the tracks of the murderers, at last?..."

"Alas, no, Madame."

"Will the _Instruction_ be very long?"

"Most likely it will. Ah! that judge! He is making all kinds of
investigations. He sends us to all kinds of places. We don't get a rest.
M. Andre is killing us!..."

"So much the better!" I replied in my eagerness.

The two inspectors laughed.... That was the first laughter I had heard
since Ghirelli and Rosselli had burst into endless laughter because I
did not know that the coffee was sold ready prepared.

We reached the _Depot_ near the Sainte Chapelle, the stained windows of
which I saw from a distance; and I thought of the day when I took Marthe
to that marvellous Gothic jewel to admire her grandfather's work. The
inspectors, after wishing me "good luck," entrusted me to the care of
the _portier_ who in his turn led me to the Sisters' gate. The
_portier_, too, was kind and polite. A man of middle age with clean-cut
features and grey hair, he saluted me in the military fashion.... Every
time I came to the _Depot_, he had a good word for me, and these little
attentions were a source of great comfort to me, who, at Saint-Lazare,
heard day after day the foulest and vilest insults.

A Sister took me to a small cell, and locked the door on me. But it was
soon opened again, and I heard a voice say, "The Sister Superior." I
looked up and was transfixed. I have seen many beautiful women, both in
life and in art, but none could have compared in divine loveliness with
the woman who entered my cell at that _Depot_. The oval of her face was
perfect, her eyes, which seemed like liquid and transparent turquoises,
neither blue nor green, were exquisite.... Her voice was the most
musical I had ever heard. Her refined and shapely hands were poems of
loveliness. But her supreme charm was her expression. It was not of this
world; it was too noble, too lofty, and, above all, too serene....

Later, when we had often spoken together, I begged her, discreetly,
hesitatingly, to tell me about herself. She merely said, "I am the
Sister Superior of the _Depot_... and I have suffered a great deal in
the past...." I never dared ask her another question, but I have often
wondered what great lady she was... and to what great sorrow she
referred....

My cell at the _Depot_ was even worse than my cell at Saint-Lazare. It
was small and low, and had only an air-hole for window; there was a bed,
a board fastened into the wall, used as a table, and a three-legged
stool held to the floor by a chain.... But when the Sister Superior
entered the cell, everything seemed radiant and beautiful.

She coaxed me into eating a little, asked me a few questions about my
daughter, and comforted me.

Then the Director of the _Depot_ entered, a tall, well-dressed,
stern-faced man, with the look of the officer about him. He, too,
compelled me to eat: "The _Instruction_ will exhaust you. You will need
a great deal of physical as well as moral strength." After he had gone,
the Sister Superior advised me to lie down on the bed until I was sent
for, and I did as she told me.

A sister came to fetch me, and led me to a door where two soldiers of
the Municipal Guard were waiting for me. It was an awful blow to me. I
did not mind the inspectors. I knew and liked them, and they had long
worked with and for me... but a soldier on either side of me!...

They saluted me, however, and later, when I asked one of them why he
always saluted me, a prisoner accused of murder, as he would an officer,
he replied: "I don't know myself, I'm sure, Madame... but there, I can't
help it."

The two guards took me along a passage. We passed before a row of cages,
inside which were men with horrid faces. They shouted at me through the
bars, and the guards told me to hasten.... I learned afterwards that the
official name of this passage lined with cages is "_La Souriciere_"--the
"mouse-trap."

We reached another building. The authorities were so afraid of
enterprising journalists that guards had been posted at every door, a
precaution, however, which did not prevent a photographer--on the
_Matin_ staff, of course--who had climbed up to a carved-stone ledge
above a door at the top of a staircase, from taking a snapshot of me as
I walked up the steps between the guards!... I confess, however, that I
was so frightened for the man's safety in his perilous position, that I
forgot to be angry.

I entered a room where I found my three counsel. After a few words of
encouragement, Maitre Aubin took me to Judge Andre's Cabinet.

I felt miserable, ashamed, and indignant.

I saw M. Andre. He wore a frock-coat and a black tie. He seemed a man of
about fifty, was very stout, with a red, congested face, and a greyish
beard. His hair was dark and spare. His eyes seemed to jump about behind
the pince-nez, and they seldom looked straight at any one.

"Sit down!" he ordered. His voice was even more vulgar and aggressive
than his appearance.

He sat at a long table, with my counsel behind him; opposite him sat his
clerk, M. Simon, who wrote down the main questions and answers. I sat at
one end of the table, with the two municipal guards behind me, and
opposite, at the other end of the table, was the window, so that the
light struck me straight in the face.

M. Simon, the _greffier_, was middle-aged, slim, and had a shrewd,
pleasant face. He was calm, methodical, and kind. How many times, during
that bewildering and painful _Instruction_, did he give me a glance of
sympathy! How many times did he stealthily wipe away a tear!... How
often, when I made a triumphant reply, did he half-mischievously wink at
me, like a _gamin de Paris_, as if to say: "You got home all right that
time."

Behind me the guards sometimes whispered, after some fierce battle of
words between M. Andre and me: "Well done!"... and in their own simple,
spontaneous way, they added:... "little woman!"

That "Well done, little woman" of the guards, and the winks of
encouragement from the clerk, more than once gave me renewed strength at
moments when, worn by my ceaseless efforts, I was about to give up the
awful struggle, not in despair, but through sheer physical and mental
exhaustion.

       *       *       *       *       *

M. Andre's first move was a dramatic one, and one which he evidently
thought would crush me outright. He handed me a letter--written by
myself to my husband, in a rather angry tone--and asked impressively:
"Was this written by you?"

"Yes, Monsieur."

"To whom was this letter addressed?"

"To my husband."

"At what date?"

"I don't remember!..." I then explained that M. Steinheil and I always
wrote to each other when we did not agree on some point, 'so as to avoid
discussions and scenes....' And M. Andre thus led me to state that my
husband and I were not on the best of terms, and that I did not love
him.

I meant, of course, that there was no question of passion between us;
but the sentence was written... "I did not love my husband," and these
words became one of the greatest arguments against me, one of the
proofs of my guilt.... You did not love your husband, therefore you
killed him!

Having achieved this momentous victory, M. Andre proceeded, in the most
aggressive tone, to interrogate me about my "friends," but took good
care not to question me about the Attorney-General or President Faure.
And as Maitre Aubin made signs to remind me of his warnings, I did not
mention them.

After that, the examining magistrate put to me endless questions about
my jewels.... I have explained at length all about them to the reader,
and need not go into the matter again. Nor need I reproduce here the
whole of the _Instruction_. Several parts of it have already been
quoted, and I intend quoting the last episode of this atrocious
martyrdom in full.

       *       *       *       *       *

From time to time M. Andre ceased questioning me, and tried by little
dramatic interludes to throw me off my balance.

During the very first hour of the first _Instruction_ he abruptly turned
to me and exclaimed fiercely: "Your veil is down; why is your veil
down?... It is down because you want to hide your face, it is down
because you are guilty!... Raise that veil at once, raise it, I say!..."

Another time, he rose, bent forward towards me, and shouted: "You are
the assassin!"... I rose in my turn, and, completely losing control of
myself, I cried back: "It is you who are the assassin! You are murdering
my daughter and me!"

He was furious. "I'll have you arrested!" he shouted.

"I'm arrested already," was my obvious reply. He made a violent gesture,
went into the next room, and banged the door.

M. Andre invariably sought refuge in the next room, whenever I had the
better of him.

He smoked cigarette after cigarette during my _Instruction_, and blew
the smoke in my direction. It was so obvious an impertinence, and he
showed such satisfaction at my impatience, that one day I did not reply
to his question.

"Why don't you answer?" he exclaimed triumphantly. "Is it that you
realise that it is no longer any use struggling against all the evidence
that reveals your guilt?"

I merely replied: "I cannot speak on account of the smoke, _Monsieur_."

M. Andre continued smoking, but henceforth blew the smoke in a different
direction.

"It is really amazing..." he said to me one day. "Can't you see that, if
you were not guilty, you would ask your whole family, your friends, to
visit you at Saint-Lazare! You are ashamed, because you are a criminal!"

Such words hurt beyond description, but I managed to reply:

"Monsieur, Marguerite Japy does not receive her friends in a
prison-parlour."

M. Simon, my three counsel and the guards, nearly clapped their hands.

Another time, he suddenly placed under my eyes photographs of the bodies
of my husband and my mother, as they had been found on the morning after
the crime.... I have been told that all I said was: "Poor mother, poor
Adolphe; at any rate, they probably did not suffer much, they must have
died very quickly... there is no expression of agony on their faces. I
wish I too had died that night."

M. Andre tore the photographs from my hands; his dramatic move had not
had the result he expected.

The most extraordinary incident--I could say comical, had the
circumstances not been so tragic--during that eventful and harrowing
period, took place towards the end of the _Instruction_.

M. Andre, haunted by the thought of my guilt or rather by the thought
that he must find me guilty, stood up and suddenly exclaimed in his
usual hoarse and angry voice, and underlining, as it were, his every
word with threatening gestures: "Yes, you are guilty! I tell you that
you have strangled your own husband and your own mother, with your own
hands, your powerful assassin's hands!"

[Illustration: M. ANDRE, MY EXAMINING MAGISTRATE

"You are the Assassin!"]

Now I have unusually small hands, and scores of times Bonnat and Henner
have sketched or painted them, and made amusing remarks about "those
ridiculously tiny hands." I stretched out my arms, and placed my hands
under the very eyes of the examining magistrate.

In spite of his blind fury, he was able to realise their size, but he
was not going to allow himself to be thwarted by such a trifling matter.

He caught his breath, then, coming nearer to me, he exclaimed: "Yes, all
murderers have long arms and enormous hands.... Well, you are different,
you are an exception, that's all.... And the very smallness of your
hands proves that you are guilty. Even in your physique you deceive, you
lie.... And those little hands which look so innocent are the more
criminal, since they look so innocent. There!"

And he concluded this frenzied outburst by dealing a terrific blow on
the table with his clenched fist.

I looked at him, I watched _his_ hands....

"What's the matter! Why do you look at me like that!"

I looked fixedly at the hands of the examining magistrate, enormous,
red, hairy hands, and then let my gaze wander over his long arms, until
my eyes met his....

I was trembling with pain and anger. This man had treated me like a
murderess from the very first minute of the _Instruction_, and had
tortured me as those two journalists had one night, only more
relentlessly, and with greater persistence.... They had an excuse--they
were after copy--but this judge had none. He was supposed to be seeking
light, and truth, and justice. And no judge should take it for granted
that the person he is interrogating has committed the crime of which
he--or she--is suspected.

"What are you looking at?" M. Andre asked.

"I was examining your hands, _Monsieur le Juge_."...

"Well...?"

"... And I was thinking what a fortunate thing it was for you that you
are not accused of any murder, for even though you were as innocent as I
am, the size and look of your hands would unmistakably denounce you as a
murderer--if you had to deal with a judge after your own heart!"

M. Simon, the _greffier_, had ceased writing, Maitre Aubin was smiling.
I could hear the two guards chuckle, and M. Andre, utterly routed, left
the Cabinet, and for a long while we heard him walking up and down in
the next room.

Each _Instruction_ lasted from noon until seven or eight in the evening.
I was then taken back to the _Depot_, where I waited one hour and often
much longer before being escorted to Saint-Lazare by two or three
inspectors. It was sometimes ten or eleven, when, thoroughly exhausted,
and having had no food for twelve hours or so, I entered my cell where
Firmin and Jacq were waiting for me. Firmin never went to bed until I
was back.

Sister Leonide, too, awaited me.... After the third or fourth
_Instruction_, she was so alarmed at my appearance that she thenceforth
always had some kind of surprise in store for me when I returned from
the Palace of Justice. On one occasion she gave me a little plate, an
ordinary, coarse, penny white plate, but what a luxury!... Then she
presented me with three parcels wrapped in tissue paper, and in them I
found a little salt, a small piece of butter, and... three hot potatoes
in their jackets. It seemed to me that I was hungry, that I must be
hungry, after those _Instructions_, but somehow I could not eat. On that
occasion, however, I was overjoyed to see food _on a plate_, and Sister
Leonide fed me with a spoon, as one feeds a child. After that she
brought me three baked potatoes every evening.

She asked me one day how it was that I was so fond of them, and I told
her that it was my father's favourite dish. Potatoes "in their jackets"
are called in French _pommes de terre "en robe de chambre"_ (in their
dressing-gowns), but my father said, far more prettily: "_en robe des
champs_," which sounds alike, but means in their country clothes, in
nature's garb.

In spite of Sister Leonide's care, of my daughter's solicitude, and of
the devotion of my three counsel, that _Instruction_ was using up the
little vitality and strength I still possessed. It was dreadful to have
to reply to all kinds of insidious and perfidious questions, for seven
or eight hours at a time, especially as the questioner never once ceased
to make it perfectly obvious that he considered me a murderess, a
murderess without even an accomplice... until the very end, when, after
reading the various experts' reports, he admitted that I had probably
been assisted.

M. Andre was convinced that I was guilty, but in view of the long report
which he would have to draw up at the end of the _Instruction_, and
which would go to the _Chambre des Mises en Accusations_, he had to
accumulate at least as many proofs as possible of my guilt, and as there
were none, his task was arduous! And it was the very difficulty of his
task which made him so aggressive, threatening, and palpably unjust.

There was not a method, there was not a trick, that he did not think
permissible. In order to put me off my guard, as it were, he would jump
from one question to another, question me, for instance, about a detail
of my life at Bellevue, then abruptly ask me the exact figures of the
various sums of money that I said were to be found in the drawer of the
desk of my boudoir, on the night of the crime. After bewildering me with
questions about the exact origin of such amounts (six months after the
money had been stolen) he would ask me a list of the contents of our
medicine-chest at the time of the murder!

At every _Instruction_ he dealt with everything--at once....

And when I hesitated, faltered, made a slight mistake or did not exactly
repeat the answers I had made on other occasions to the same questions,
he jumped up with glee: "I've got you!"...

Another of the examining magistrate's favourite methods was to ask me a
question of such a length that when written down, it covered quite two
large pages.... And woe betide me if I missed a single one of the
numberless points included in that one question! When, on a few
occasions, I ventured to ask that some portion of the endless question
be repeated to me, I was told, in a melodramatic tone, that I wanted
time to reflect, and that I should not need to reflect if I were
innocent, that the truth never hesitated, but burst forth at once.

When I collected myself by a truly superhuman effort and appeared calm,
I was cleverly concealing my hand, and therefore I was guilty.

When my nerves failed me, and I broke down, or sobbed; my weakness, my
grief, were due to remorse; therefore I was guilty.

When I cried that I was innocent, I was playing a comedy, but he was not
to be taken in by my grimaces! I was acting; therefore I was guilty.

When I did not mention my innocence, I was overwhelmed with shame, and
did not even dare to say that I was not guilty; therefore I was guilty!

Whilst I was thus being slowly tortured, the three men and the woman who
that night entered my house in the Impasse Ronsin, who committed the
double murder, who robbed, who bound and gagged me... were free,
somewhere in the world, in Paris, perhaps, and possibly reading the
latest details of my _Instruction_ in the newspapers, for after each
"sitting" a resume of the proceedings was handed to the Press, in which,
as the reader may surmise, I appeared more and more guilty!

Eight months after the end of the _Instruction_, at my trial, the Judge,
M. de Valles, was to declare: "I feel the shudder of a judicial error,"
and the jury acquitted me. Eight months! Why did not M. Andre feel that
"shudder of the judicial error"? Because, and this is his only excuse,
he was obsessed by the firm conviction that I was guilty, and, more or
less unconsciously, he made nearly everything fit in with that
conviction, and, at the same time, ignored or passed rapidly over almost
anything that he could not. A few instances taken from the Dossier of
the _Instruction_--signed by M. Andre, M. Simon, and myself--will
illustrate my assertions:

(M. Andre had been asking me endless details about a ring and a pearl,
when he pointed out to me some contradictions in my past statements.)

_Answer._ "You are speaking to me about statements I made at a time when
I was half mad. At that time the question of my jewels was quite
indifferent to me. I had but one tormenting thought, the loss of my
mother."...

(M. Andre interrupted me with the following triumphant exclamation:)

_Question._ "Then you felt no sorrow at having lost your husband!"

_Answer._ "But yes, of course."...

Another instance:

_Question._ "It can hardly be admitted that robbery was the motive of
the crime, for one cannot very well conceive that the thieves, _after
committing a double crime in order to act at their ease_, would neglect
to rob, and should leave on the spot, the following booty: (1) In your
mother's room, three rings on a tray; (2) One diamond brooch, two
valuable pendants, two pins with small stones--which your mother had
brought to your house when she put up there in May.... (3) In your
husband's room, the latter's clothes were not searched, and yet they
were placed, conspicuously, on a chair, and they contained a gold watch,
a purse containing eighty francs (L3 4s.); (4) In the boudoir, a bank
note of fifty francs (L2) was left, although it was conspicuous; (5)
From the statements you made just now, some of your daughter's jewels,
which were then in her room, where you slept, were not stolen!"

_Answer._ "What can I answer you... anything may be found strange....
People who had just committed a murder would not perhaps be as calm as
you think and so would not steal everything."

(I then explained that my mother's bag was on the floor in a box-room,
that night.)

_Question._ "That explanation is hardly satisfactory."

_Answer._ "All I can say is that people, after committing two such
ghastly murders, and after believing they had made a third victim of me,
may have lost their heads, and only have had one thought: to disappear
as rapidly as possible."

(_Dossier_ Cote 3239)

       *       *       *       *       *

What likelihood was there that the men had come to kill? M. Andre took
it for granted, and made the extraordinary remark that they had "killed"
_in order to act at their ease_! Personally, and it has been the
opinion of every person I have met who has carefully studied the case,
that the men came to steal, and were disturbed in their work, by the
sudden appearance of my husband, armed with an alpenstock, and by the
cries of my mother, and that it was then, and only then, that the
murders took place?

As for the robbery, did not the men steal several hundred pounds, and
some twenty pieces of jewellery, belonging to me and my mother?

_Question._ "Since your last examination, we have compared the recital
of the drama as you made it then with the one you made at the beginning
of the investigations (May 31st and June, 1908). We find that whilst you
merely mentioned to us, as the acts of violence you suffered at the
hands of the criminals, one blow on the head and the trampling on your
stomach, you had previously mentioned other acts of violence: on May
31st, 1908, to the police-commissary, you said that you had received
blows with a stick, on your head; on May, 31st, to the police-commissary,
and then to M. Leydet, you said you had been seized by the throat at the
beginning of the scene; on May 31st and on June 5th, to M. Leydet, you
said that one of the men had clasped your wrist, and finally, on June
26th, to M. Leydet--to whom you never mentioned more than 'one blow on
the head'--you declared with precision that the blow had been like one
dealt with a club, or with a hard body, and that it had evidently been
meant by the criminals to be the finishing stroke. How do you explain so
many _variations_ in your successive recitals?"

_Answer._ "You should not take into account the statements I made on May
31st (shortly after the fatal night); I did not know what I was saying
then, I was out of my mind, I was frightened of everything. One of the
men did seize my wrist.... If I spoke with more precision on June 26th,
about the blow on my head, it is because, since the drama, I had been
trying to recall every detail of it."

_Question._ "On November 26th (1908), you stated that you had invented
the whole story of the men with the beards, etc., and the red-haired
woman and the black gowns."

_Answer._ "That was the result of the work of the journalists. They led
me to distraction, madness."

_Question._ "In any case, _the tale of the black gowns_ is full of
material impossibilities. Why should the criminals, at the beginning of
the scene, have thrown a cloth on your head, since they did not keep it
there, and since you were able to get rid of it immediately afterwards?
How can you explain this: those dark lanterns threw a great light on
you, and yet, the criminals made the mistake and persisted in it, of
thinking they were in the presence of a young lady, of a child? They
were in the shadow, and yet you distinguished them so perfectly that you
were able to observe thoroughly every one of the actors of that scene,
to notice the absence of a collar from their special costumes, and the
ugliness of the red-haired woman, and to read clearly the expression on
the face of that red-haired woman. How can one explain that all the
doors being open, you did not hear your husband leave his bed and take
his alpenstock, nor hear either your husband or your mother scream
whilst they were being strangled?"

_Answer._ "A cloth _was_ thrown over my head. I don't know whether the
lanterns were dark lanterns or not. All I know is that their light was
the greater because it was reflected by the five mirrors in the room....
There is nothing extraordinary in the fact that the criminals took me
for my daughter. I look older now, but at that time I had quite a
youthful appearance, so much so that I was most of the time taken not
for my husband's wife, but for his daughter. As for the doors--which
were open when we all went to bed--I don't know whether the criminals
left them open. All I heard, I repeat it, was the word 'Meg,' spoken by
my mother at the moment I said."

(The next question, asked without any transition, was):

"Did you put a pearl in Couillard's pocket-book on November 20th?"

(_Dossier_ Cote 3249)

       *       *       *       *       *

(The reader will probably agree that my answers, especially for a woman
tortured as I had been for so many months, were fairly clear, precise,
and satisfactory. The Examining Magistrate thought differently:)

_Question._"... Your cleverness at dissimulating before the Law has
become such that in the course of our interrogations we have rarely
obtained from you a clear and convincing explanation, such that, every
time we have asked you to reply in a precise manner to our questions
concerning the dominating facts of the case, you have, as a rule, tried
to avoid replying, often by saying you did not remember, or even that
you did not understand. _You have even gone so far as to let the fear
that your face might betray you in our presence, make you hide it behind
the black veil with the wide thick edge which you are still wearing, and
which, in spite of the exhortations we addressed to you during one of
our first interrogations, you have never raised above your forehead.
Your face has no more revealed itself than, willingly, you have revealed
the bottom of your thoughts._"

(_Dossier_ Cote 3240)

       *       *       *       *       *

(I had been told not to speak about President Faure, even when asked
about my friends, nor about the famous pearl necklace, even when
questioned about the stolen jewels. The necklace was mentioned, however,
but not by me. And I realised then the truth of Maitre Aubin's words,
when he had said that neither the Government nor the Law wished to have
anything to do with my relations with Felix Faure and the mysterious
necklace affair. M. Andre, who, when I hesitated, compelled me to reply
in no half-hearted manner, made a striking exception on that occasion,
as the reader may see from the following quotations from the Dossier.)

(It appeared that M. Andre had recently interrogated, amongst other
people, a man called Brun, a decorator, who had long been one of my
husband's acquaintances, and who years ago, at M. Steinheil's request,
pledged some jewels of ours at the Mont-de-Piete. The "pearl necklace"
affair came out quite accidentally. M. Andre asked me about Brun and the
pledged jewels, and I replied that I only remembered Brun having been
once to the Mont-de-Piete for my husband, and that, ten years ago.)

The Judge asked: "Don't you know that it was a pearl necklace Brun
pledged?"

I hesitated to reply, and finally said (I quote from the Dossier):

"Allow me not to talk about that. It was a necklace I received as a
present; it had five rows of pearls. I gave it to my husband, and told
him he could do what he liked with it, that he could sell it when he
pleased."...

(_Dossier_ Cote 8308)

       *       *       *       *       *

I explained that my husband and I lived quite apart, but that I allowed
him to make use of my jewels when he was short of money. When I had
finished, M. Andre made no remark at all about the pearl necklace, and
proceeded with his interrogating as if that jewel had had no importance
whatever.

Two days later, however, during the next _Instruction_, M. Andre,
wanting, perhaps, to make sure that the necklace Brun had spoken of was
really the mysterious and all-important necklace given by President
Faure, asked me a few details about it. I replied:

"The five-row pearl necklace, of which I spoke to you the day before
yesterday, was sold during the past ten years little by little, that is,
pearl by pearl or in series of pearls, by my husband. I did not have
anything to do with those sales.... All I know is that at the time of
the drama there still remained some pearls from that necklace.... Those
pearls were then in the lower drawer of the wardrobe where I usually
placed my jewel-cases. I had seen, towards May 5th or 6th, about ten
pearls. I had not taken them to Bellevue, and since the drama I have not
seen them again. They have therefore been stolen, unless my husband had
sold them between May 5th and May 30th, but that would surprise me...."

_Question._ "Why have you not spoken about those pearls?"...

_Answer._ "On account of my daughter. I wished to keep silent about the
origin, that is, the giver, of those pearls."

_Question._ "By mentioning their disappearance, nothing compelled you to
indicate their origin?"

_Answer._ "I did not wish to speak about that necklace"....

(_Dossier_ Cote 3310)

       *       *       *       *       *

Once again M. Andre did not insist.

During another _Instruction_, one month later (_Dossier_ Cote 3389), M.
Andre tried to make me contradict myself about the necklace, stating
that one of my accounts of the occasion when M. Brun consented to pledge
jewels for my husband did not tally with another; he also remarked that
my friend M. Mustel, the piano and organ manufacturer, who had seen the
famous pearls, had described, in quite a different way from that in
which I had described it, a family scene, at my house, about certain
debts of my mother's which I was ready to pay by selling the pearls I
still possessed. But all this had but a very vague connection with the
necklace itself. I may further state that M. Brun stated that he
received only about L6 for the necklace he pledged, so that either he
referred to a necklace of which I know nothing, or he made a huge
mistake. At any rate, I do not know of necklaces with five rows of
pearls that would merely fetch L6 when pledged!

I may quote a few lines from M. Brun's evidence:

"M. Steinheil asked me... to pledge at the Mont-de-Piete a pearl
necklace of several rows... On the same day, at the office in the Rue
des Blancs-Manteaux, I pledged the necklace, in my name, and received, I
believe, 150 francs (L6)."

(_Dossier_ Cote 1929)

       *       *       *       *       *

Now, as every one knows, the Mont-de-Piete is a State Institution, and
its books are kept in the same thorough and methodical manner as that of
all other State "Administrations." The Mont-de-Piete, in reply to
inquiries ordered by M. Andre replied that:

"... The pledging of a pearl necklace (whether by the Steinheils or by
M. Brun) was not mentioned in their books..."

(_Dossier_ Cote 1919)

The pearls were not mentioned in the final report of M. Andre, nor in
the Indictment, nor were they once referred to at my trial. Can any one
blame me if I say I have always thought that "the authorities" _knew_
about the necklace but _did not want_ that mystery to be unravelled, no
more than they wanted to know that some of the jewels stolen on the
night of the crime came from a President, and two, at least, from an
Attorney-General. I have also always thought that "the authorities" knew
that I possessed important documents and the Memoirs of Felix Faure.
True, by order, I never spoke of them except to M. Desmoulin, the
Director of the Prison, my counsel, and Pastor Arboux--and I just
pronounced the word "documents" before M. Leydet and M. Hamard--but
whether the authorities knew about them or not, I can only say that no
mention of them was made to me.

       *       *       *       *       *

At Saint-Lazare, one day--at the time of that long and nerve-racking
_Instruction_--two municipal guards came to take me to the Palace of
Justice.

I said to the gaoler: "Where are 'my' inspectors?"

"Madame," the man replied, "it is no longer M. Hamard who sends for you,
but M. Andre, the judge, and M. Andre, it seems, has given new
instructions."

The non-commissioned officer very politely made me enter a _fiacre_ (a
four-wheeled cab). He then sat down near me, and the other soldier sat
opposite me. Both had revolvers at their side. The carriage started on
its journey.

"Why have not the inspectors come, as usual?" I asked.

"Ah! Madame, we don't know.... Your judge doesn't seem to like you."...

"I hope not; I cannot believe that."...

As we neared the Palace of Justice, I noticed that the driver was not
taking us the usual way. The non-commissioned officer said: "We are
going round to the Boulevard du Palais," and when, seeing that I was not
being driven to the _Depot_, I asked where he was taking me, he replied,
after much hesitation: "To the _Souriciere_ (the Mouse-Trap)."

"What!" I exclaimed in fearful dismay, "you mean to say that I am going
to be shut up in one of those cages, like a beast?... Is the women's
_Souriciere_ like that of the men?"

"Yes. Madame.... You will have to wait there until the Judge is ready to
receive you."... And with great gentleness, the man added: "We have lost
a great deal of time on our way to Saint-Lazare, and fetched you as late
as possible, so that you will not have to wait long."

I thanked the officer, entered through the "new" door, and was taken
through low, damp, cold passages to the _Souriciere_. Saint-Lazare is
bad enough, Heaven knows; the _Depot_ worse, but the _Souriciere_ is an
abomination. Let the reader imagine two rows of cages, one on top of the
other, and with steps to reach the upper row. Opposite, on a kind of
platform, sits a Sister, who can see through the iron bars of each case
the prisoners of both rows of cages.

When she saw me, the Sister on duty, Soeur Berthe, a very old,
sweet-eyed sister, tottered towards me and took me to one of the empty
cages.

When I say cages, I am not exaggerating. Each cage, unspeakably filthy
and foul-smelling, is about seven feet high, five feet long, and three
feet wide. The door forms one wall, as it were; the upper half is a
square hole barred from side to side and from top to bottom. Air enters
through this hole, which has no glass. The door opens from the outside.

I had not been in "my" cage for one minute before I was ill, and I had
to remain there, frozen, dejected and ill, from nine o'clock--for, by a
refinement of cruelty, M. Andre had sent early for me at
Saint-Lazare--until noon. Women in other cages, near me and above me,
shouted at me. They could not see one another, but they had all
witnessed my arrival through the bars of their "windows"; somehow, they
knew who I was and the insults I heard at Saint-Lazare were hurled at me
again! Sometimes, one woman just to contradict the others, would take my
part and scream at the top of her voice: "I tell you she is a kid (_une
gosse_), and kids haven't what's needed to strangle a man and a woman!
Shut up, you fools!" Fierce quarrels ensued, from cage to cage. Every
woman shouted and thumped on "her" walls. The whole flimsy structure of
the "Mouse-Trap" shook ominously... and Sister Berthe on her platform
went on knitting quietly, without raising her head. She had witnessed
such scenes ever since she had been on duty at the _Souriciere_, and did
not even take notice. After a time, the women quieted down, and I heard
them say to the Sister: "I am hungry.... Give me a cigarette. That
deceives hunger.... We all know you have cigarettes!" And the kind old
Sister sometimes handed them cigarettes through the bars!

I heard afterwards that those wretched women often had to wait in those
foul cages for eight or nine hours for the Examining-Magistrate or the
prison van--which they call the _panier a salade_ (salad-basket).

Eight or nine hours in a cage!... I thought of an examining-magistrate,
M. L., whom I had known years ago. He was a great admirer of mine, and
frequently forsook his duties to come and pay me compliments or to
listen to some music in my salon.... And I thought him a charming man!

Now, I realised that whenever he wasted time at my house the woman,
perhaps several women, had had to wait in a cage, hour after hour, until
his return, and I felt bitterly ashamed of myself for not having guessed
that a magistrate, like a doctor, has patients who cannot, who must not,
wait.

I waited only three hours in my cage! But when I entered M. Andre's
Cabinet, I felt more dead than alive, and I said to him: "You will not
see me again. You sent for me at Saint-Lazare hours too soon. I have
spent three hours at the _Souriciere_, and I understand that it was
owing to an order given by you. How can you expect me to answer your
questions, after what I have just passed through?"

On three occasions, before _Instructions_, I was locked up in a cage at
the "Mouse-Trap," and from nine in the morning till seven or eight at
night I had to go without any kind of food. But after those three times
I looked so weak and haggard, I have been told, that M. Andre cancelled
his order, and once more I was placed in a cell at the _Depot_, pending
the _Instruction_, and once more the Sister Superior with the Madonna
face wrapped me about with her radiant kindness, comforting me with her
sweet, wise words, and the divine light that shone in her eyes.




CHAPTER XXVI

THE LAST "INSTRUCTION"


I will now quote almost in full the final _Instruction_, which took
place on March 13th, 1909. I cannot well conceive a more intensely
poignant and dramatic document, and after over two years, when I re-read
it, I can hardly believe that those _Questions_ were put to me, and that
the _Answers_ were those I made, in the room of an Examining Magistrate,
who accused me of having murdered my husband and my mother.

"On March 13th, 1909, before us, Andre, has been brought the widow
Steinheil."

_Question._ "With the reservations and the restrictions with which we
acquainted you during your previous interrogatory, Dr. Balthazard has
expressed the opinion that the _crime cannot have been committed by one
person alone_. In any case, the evidence, as a whole, seems to establish
the fact of your personal participation in the crime, and we have,
to-day, in an interrogatory which we consider as being the final one, to
recall to your mind, the various presumptions and charges which have
been brought against you."

_Answer._ "I protest to you with all my soul that I am innocent, and
that you have in your dossier the proof of my innocence."

_Question._ "In what can you protest that we have any proof?"

_Answer._ "People do not kill without some compelling reason; now, you
are aware that I adored my mother, and that I have lived on quite good
terms with my husband for eighteen years."

_Question._ "On November 26th, at the time of the proceedings against
Remy Couillard, you attributed the crime to Alexandre Wolff, whilst on
the same day, when describing the circumstances in which Wolff acted,
you have made different and contradictory statements, then, you have
made a retractation. Besides, the investigations that have been made
about Alexandre Wolff did not justify the suspicions against him."

_Answer._ "As I have explained, I imagined, under the influence of
journalists who had unhinged my mind, all that I said about Wolff. I
repeat once more that Wolff is innocent."

_Question._ "From the outset until November 26th, then constantly ever
since, you have attributed the crime to four individuals--three men and
one red-haired woman--all four dressed in long black gowns, and the men
wearing hats with high crowns and wide brims."

_Answer._ "I change nothing in my statements on this point."

_Question._ "At the beginning of the investigations, two different facts
seemed to corroborate your narrative. On June 2nd, a letter bearing the
signature of a certain 'Arthur Rewer' whose identity it has been
impossible to establish, was sent to the _Surete_. It asserted that on
the night of May 30-31st, about 12.45 A.M., four men and a red-haired
woman left the Impasse Ronsin. Also, the discovery in a carriage of the
_Metropolitan_, on the evening of May 31st, of an invitation card to the
recent exhibition of your husband's paintings together with a visiting
card torn in two pieces, which bore a few addresses, took the _Surete_
to Guilbert the costumier, and led one to believe that the black gowns
you said were worn by the assassins, might have been stolen from a
basket of costumes supplied by this Guilbert to the Hebrew Theatre
during the afternoon of May 30th.

"But the Rewer letter has lost most of its importance on account of a
second letter, obviously written by the same person and dated January
6th, 1909, in which it is stated that the five persons mentioned in the
letter of June 2nd, might just as well have been coming from a house
close to the Impasse Ronsin. Besides nothing has ever proved that Arthur
Rewer did not merely see some peaceful passers by. Now, as regards the
gowns stolen at the Hebrew Theatre, this is the last stage of the
investigations: the disappearance of the black gowns was discovered with
certainty only on May 31st, for there are contradictions between the
evidence of Finberg on December 28th, and that of Sumart on March 2nd,
concerning the state of the costume basket, and _it has not been proved
at all that the theft took place on Nov. 30th_ (!) Besides, even if the
theft took place on that same day, there were only two black gowns
stolen--according to Riegel's evidence on February 25th, and it is
certain that no hats with wide brims were stolen (!) Finally, the fact
could be _the better considered as a mere coincidence_, _without
connection with the crime_, since disappearances of costumes seem to
have often taken place at the Hebrew Theatre, especially in 1908.

"During our investigations, however, we have--under the influence of the
very grave signs of your personal guilt--wondered whether the theft at
the Hebrew Theatre--admitting its reality from May 31st--and the leaving
in the underground of the documents we have mentioned, had not been
_arranged at your instigation_, or at that of any other accomplice in
the crime _in order to give some likelihood to the description you were
going to make of the crime_." (!)

_Answer._ "I maintain all my statements. I have always drawn--I still
draw--from my conscience, the strength to bear all this mystery. It has
always seemed to me as if, thanks to that card of invitation to the
exhibition of his works, my husband himself were telling me from his
tomb: 'All that you have said is true. Have the courage to discover the
murderers.'"

_Question._ "Your story of the four personages in the black gowns
retains all its _romantic unlikeliness and incredibility_ emphasised by
the _fantastic_ idea of criminals, who, in their inexplicable plan to
mask their clothes and not their faces, decided to entangle themselves,
when carrying out the most delicate criminal operations, in the
pampering folds of gowns, the sleeves of which fell over their hands (!)
We have, none the less, constantly, and to the end, allowed an open
field for your investigations, even as regards the reality and the
identity of the four persons you described. All _your_ efforts in this
line have been no more successful than those which were made during the
first months of the inquiries."

(Which amounted to nothing more or less than telling me: _you_ have been
unable to find _who_ these assassins were, therefore, you are the
assassin.)

_Answer._ "I can only repeat what I said at the very start to M. Hamard,
in all sincerity, about the men and the red-haired woman I saw, and saw
well, around my bed in the circumstances I have described.

"You think it unlikely that the men would have put on hampering gowns in
order to steal. Yet, in the murder of M. Remi, which happened eight days
after the double murder in the Impasse Ronsin, the murderers were stark
naked. That is not more extraordinary than the men in the black gowns.
Yet, had I said the assassins were entirely naked, you no doubt would
have called me a mad and hysterical woman!"

_Question._ "Above all we must examine the following point: Is there any
real cause to believe that the crime was a _banal_, commonplace one,
committed by vulgar burglars. The answer to this question, it appears to
us, should be in the negative, and we will say why. Had the crime been
the work of ordinary malefactors, it could, logically, have had no other
aim than robbery. Now--even admitting the _reality_ of any theft at your
house, on that night--the malefactors would not have left behind
abundant and conspicuous booty in the rooms they visited... (Here M.
Andre repeated the list of the valuables left in their places by the
murderers.) It is absolutely inadmissible that malefactors who had come
to steal would have left a sum of 130 francs (L5 4s.) and so many
jewels. Besides, it seems that the burglary was merely a sham, as one
may still realise from the photographs in the dossier where one could
see the various objects on the ground, scattered in too good
order--which does not fit in with the great hurry inherent in all
burglaries....

"Further, it was established by the expert ropemaker, M. Chafaroux, on
June 16th, that the cord which was used to strangle your husband was
taken from the ball of cord in the cupboard of your kitchen; and it is
quite evident that the gag of wadding with which your mother was
suffocated, and the one which, according to your statements, was used to
gag you, came from the parcels of cotton-wool which, on January 14th and
16th, you said were in the rooms on the first floor of your house.

"How can one believe that ordinary criminals would have relied on chance
to find (in your house) the instruments for their double homicide and
their attempt on your life! Finally, what reason could they have had to
spare you? To allow you to survive was to allow a dangerous witness to
survive!"

_Answer._ "It is impossible for me to give you explanation of all this.
I can only and simply repeat what I heard and saw. That I was taken for
my daughter is not surprising, although it has made so many people
smile, since I looked young in those days, and was occupying my
daughter's room. Besides, can one say that those murderers really spared
me when one thinks of the way they bound me and of how they struck me on
the head? Innocent, yes, I am innocent. I had no reason whatever to kill
my husband and my mother. I am innocent."

_Question._ "The various reasons which lead one to eliminate the version
of assassins who came to rob constitute as many reasons to believe that
the crime was a 'domestic' one. And _since you have survived the crime
in very peculiar circumstances; since, concerning all the details
connected with the crime, you have accumulated 'unlikelihoods',
contradictions and lies; since you had a personal interest in the crime,
the revelation has gradually been made evident that you took a direct
part in the crime_."

_Answer._ "I have taken no part whatever in the crime. Why, why, should
I have done so?"

_Question._ "Not only did you survive, but you had only the appearance
of a victim. The way you were bound... was quite harmless, quite
_complaisant_. The cords left no trace round your neck, and mere
transient traces on your wrists and ankles.... It is surely not with
such mildness that malefactors capable of committing a double murder
would have bound you to your bed."

_Answer._ "It is impossible for me to explain to you what took place in
the minds of those monsters. Perhaps they thought I was bound tightly
enough. In any case if, as you believe it, I took some part in the crime
and had an accomplice, I should surely have had enough intelligence and
presence of mind to have had myself treated with more severity, since I
am being reproached with the fact that I remained alive!"

(M. Andre then mentioned the various bruises found on my body and
remarked that they were very slight.)

_Answer._ "I have no need to reply to all this. If I bore no external
marks, I suffered internally to such an extent that I was dangerously
ill for two months, as you may find in your own dossier."...

_Question._ "Beside the very significative absence of real violence, the
persistent effort you made to hide facts accuses you. At the very
beginning of, and throughout the inquiry you declared that you had never
seen the alpenstock and the glove found in the boudoir, but our
investigations have made it appear _quite likely_ that the alpenstock
was one of the accessories in your husband's studio. And it has been
proved that the glove (a man's glove) had been given you."...

_Answer._ "I never saw the alpenstock in the studio or elsewhere in the
house; and granting the glove had belonged to M. Ch. I didn't remember
it. (I sometimes asked my friends for their old gloves which I used when
I had to cut flowers, to paint certain objects or do some rough work.)
Had I remembered that alpenstock and that glove, I should have hastened
to say so; I had no reason not to do so."

_Question._ "You said the violence you had suffered at the hands of the
assassins was one of the causes of your illness. We reminded you how
little convincing were the external signs of that violence. As for the
nervous agitation which was evident in you--the fact is
undeniable--after and since the drama, _the moral shock of your
participation in the crime, the very weight of to heavy a 'penal'
responsibility, anxiety on account of the investigations--would be
quite sufficient to explain it_."...

(M. Andre evidently forgot that I felt so little those "anxieties on
account of the investigations" that month after month, I urged the
police to renew their efforts, and even sought the assistance of the
Press, when I heard that the solution of the Impasse Ronsin murder
mystery was being given up! After discussing once more the question of
the gag and the stolen money and jewels, I had once more to explain that
the expert had evidently not examined the piece of wadding which had
been in my mouth, and also why I had five of my jewels altered by M.
Souloy. But M. Andre merely remarked:)

"You have lied always and about everything.... To such an attitude there
is but one explanation: you tried to ward off suspicions, and therefore
you took a direct part in the murder."

_Answer._ "You want to find lies in everything. If I spoke some
untruths, it was solely to conceal certain facts of my private life,
certain 'friendships' I had had."

(The next remark of the examining magistrate was a fantastic one:)

_Question._ "It is interesting to observe, at any rate, as an oddity,
that your story of the crime and the _mise en scene_ appears to bear the
stamp of your own imagination. For the tale of the black gowns sounds
very much like reminiscence of the personages in several of your late
husband's pictures. On the other hand several of the details bear a
striking likeness to the incidents in a famous murder case which took
place at Montbeliard in 1885, when you were sixteen years old, and which
fascinated the population of that district where you were then living."

_Answer._ "I could not have lost my reason to the extent of saying I had
seen men in black gowns if it had not been true. The personages in my
husband's paintings, to which you refer, wear black gowns, which look in
no way like the ecclesiastical gowns, plain, straight, and with
tight-fitting sleeves, which the murderers wore. As for the Montbeliard
murder case you mention, I don't remember it; I have never even heard
of it at all. At home we [the young girls] did not read the newspapers.
Montbeliard is an hour's distance from Beaucourt; I went there for my
piano lessons.... I also learned painting at Montbeliard.... I drove
there or went by rail.... I have never heard of that murder."

(M. Andre then proceeded to "prove" my guilt by the fact that I had got
rid of "Turk," the borrowed dog, and that I had enticed my mother to
come to my house at the end of May, and had prevented her from going to
Bellevue, to which accusation I replied by stating once more the real
facts, fully corroborated by our doctor.)

"... On Saturday, May 30th, it was at the last moment, when I saw that
my mother could not stand on her legs, that we decided not to go to
Bellevue to sleep."

_Question._ "As regards the problem of finding out _why_ you
premeditated the murder, not only of your husband but also of your
mother, and if you had a direct _role_ in those murders: the solution
appears to lie in the 'moral preoccupation' you had at the time...."

(And M. Andre tried to prove that, being financially embarrassed,
disliking my husband, and having constant quarrels with both him and my
mother, I had thought of becoming the wife of M. Bdl., that a divorce
being out of the question on account of M. Bdl.'s ideas, and also on
account of M. Buisson's, on the matter, the "disappearance" of my
husband and my mother had appeared to me as settling all difficulties
and satisfying all my ambitions....)

_Answer._ "You are fiercely persecuting an unfortunate woman! Neither
with my husband nor my mother have I ever had a quarrel or a
disagreement. My husband and I had not lived together as husband and
wife for the past fifteen years, and I enjoyed by his side a liberty
which a divorce could not have increased. M. Bdl. did not wish to marry
again. Besides, I don't think I would have married him, for he was
terribly jealous. Besides, in his evidence, I believe he has said
himself that at the beginning of May 1908 he had already decided not to
see us [my husband and me] any more.... I had no reason whatever to
kill my husband and my mother.... No one will ever believe that when
they see from the letters which are 'under seal' what I was to my
mother, and what she was to me. You say we were financially embarrassed
in 1908, but that year was precisely the one in which my husband earned
the most.... My husband was quite satisfied with everything I did, and
as for me, I didn't interfere with his life, but left him quite free. We
had been for ten years on intimate terms with the Buissons, and both M.
Buisson and his wife could assert that there never was any kind of
quarrel between my husband and me.... At the time of the drama I was
happy, as I had not been for a long time before my husband's return to
health, because of my daughter's happiness on account of her engagement
to Pierre Buisson, and I because of her father's happiness...."

_Question._ "During the three months after the drama, events twice
foiled your plans. Perturbed by the suspicions which existed against you
in so many minds, M. Bdl. and also the Buisson family moved away, and
kept away from you. In those circumstances, not only Marthe's future as
you conceived it, but also your ambitions in regard to M. Bdl. ran
serious risks of being irretrievably compromised. Hence, unless you were
to allow a large portion of the advantages of the double murder to
escape, the urgent necessity of a justification before public opinion.
Hence, on October 30th, the daring move of your letter to the _Echo de
Paris_, that is your claim, made publicly, for a prolongation of the
inquiries, and of the search for the murderers of your husband and your
mother. And since that prolongation has led to the revelations of your
guilt, _your attitude simply shows that you had the temerity to go as
far as you could in your purpose of winning and enjoying, somehow or
other, and at any cost, the fruits of your double crime_."

_Answer._ "No! On the contrary, you have there a proof of my innocence!
If I had had anything on my conscience, I should not have re-started the
case, bravely, without fear of any one. No! If I had been guilty, I
should not have had such temerity! A man would not have dared because
men are cowards, and a woman would not have dared because women are too
weak."

_Question._ "_The result of the proceedings is that you are accused_:

Firstly: _Of having, in Paris, during the night of May 30th-31st, 1908,
voluntarily dealt death to M. Steinheil_;

_And that with premeditation._

Secondly: _Of having, in the same circumstances, time and place,
voluntarily dealt death to Madame Edouard Japy, your legitimate
mother_."

_Answer._ "It is an abominable and monstrous accusation, I protest
against it with all my soul, and I beg with all my heart those who will
be called upon to examine and judge your Dossier, I beg them in the name
of my child to realise, to see, that I could not have murdered either my
husband or my mother. No, I cannot be accused of such an infamous,
abominable crime. There is nothing in my life which could explain such a
deed on my part."...

"The accused cries and sobs."

      (This document has been) "Read--Have signed:
                                      "WIDOW STEINHEIL.
                                      "SIMON.
                                      "ANDRE."

(_Dossier_ Cote 3433)

..."She cries, she sobs," says the report of the final _Instruction_.
Just four little words, but what deep grief and suffering they
represent!

In these reports, the words spoken by the prisoner are very seldom
exactly reproduced, for this reason: the Judge has before him a list of
questions which he has carefully prepared beforehand; he asks the
questions one by one, and dots down rapidly the prisoner's answers, or,
at least, what he considers the essential part of those answers.
Afterwards, using his notes, he dictates both his question and the reply
of the prisoner to his _greffier_... with the result that very often the
whole report seems to have been written by the same person, so similar
in style are the questions and the answers. As a rule, at my
_Instruction_, I did not even listen when the Judge dictated to M.
Simon. During those few minutes of peace, which occurred every ten or
fifteen minutes, I rested and collected my thoughts.... At the final and
momentous _Instruction_, however, when all the _Instructions_ were
reviewed, I tried, although it was the most harrowing of them all, and I
was more exhausted than ever, to listen to the words M. Andre dictated
to M. Simon, and time after time I explained that he was not dictating
the exact words I had used, or that he cut short my replies. I repeated
what I had said, and generously the examining magistrate consented to
alter those "trifling details," as he put it.

In spite of this, however, such a report does not convey the pathos and
the tragic importance of the proceedings.

In spite of all I had said and done, in spite of all facts which proved
my innocence--that innocence which the jury were to realise and proclaim
_eight months later_--M. Andre, who had thought me guilty from the
first, refused to alter his opinion, and coolly and with a faint smile
of self-satisfaction, declared to me that I was accused of having
murdered my husband and my mother!

M. Simon had tears in his eyes. My counsel stood near me fearing that I
should faint. I made a superhuman effort and rose.

I signed my name at the foot of the last page of that terrible
_Instruction_; I handed the pen to M. Simon, and then M. Andre signed.
As I passed out before him, on my way back to the _Depot_, and thence to
Saint-Lazare, the Judge, against whom I had fought for my life for so
many days, quietly said to me: "Au revoir, Madame." He lighted a
cigarette and jauntily left the room, greatly satisfied with himself.

A judge, he apparently did not know that "good faith is the foundation
of Justice."

He had achieved a great piece of work. Although there existed no proofs
of my guilt whatever, he had succeeded--or so he thought--in building up
out of flimsy fragments of circumstantial evidence, out of vague
assertions and vague assumptions, out of childish contradictions, and
above all, out of his own preconceptions, a solid, impregnable charge
of double murder against an unhappy, defenceless, nerve-wracked and
innocent woman.

Decidedly, he felt, life was a grand thing, the _Instruction_ a sublime
institution and an examining magistrate a saviour of society.... And M.
Andre was sure of promotion now!

Like so many judges I have known--and my address-book alone, which was
seized at the time of my arrest but has never been returned to me in
spite of many applications for it, could supply the number of all the
magistrates who eagerly attended my receptions and told me anecdotes
about their careers and their work!--M. Andre suffered from that illness
which Brieux, in "La Robe Rouge" (the Red Robe), has aptly called, "the
fever of promotion, which turns so many honest men into bad Judges."

M. Andre _was_ promoted.




CHAPTER XXVII

THREE HUNDRED AND FIFTY-THREE DAYS IN PRISON

         FROM A PRISON

    The sky is o'er the wall's grey height
    So blue, so clean;
    A tree, above the wall's grey height,
    Waves boughs of green;
    From out the blue that greets my sight,
    A faint bell rings;
    Upon the tree that greets my sight,
    A sweet bird sings.

    O God! O God! dear life is there
    Tranquil and sweet,
    That peaceful soothing murmur there
    Comes from the street.
    What hast thou done in thy despair
    Weeping apart,
    What hast thou done in thy despair
    With thy young heart?

    "D'une Prison," VERLAINE; translated by
    _Touchstone_.


When I returned to "my" cell at the Saint-Lazare prison, I had not lost
all hope. Maitre Aubin, as I was on my way to the _Depot_, declared:
"There is absolutely nothing against you. You may be released at any
time, now. Never mind M. Andre! When the dossier of the _Instruction_ is
read by those who have power to decide whether you are to be set free or
tried in the Court of Assize, they will realise your innocence. The fact
that you did not obtain a favorable reply to your recent petition,
proves nothing."

The petition was a "_demande de liberte provisoire_" (provisional
liberty), which I handed to Judge Andre at the close of the last
_Instruction_ but one.

The exact contents of this petition may interest the reader, inasmuch as
it reveals various facts in connection with the crime, which I have
hardly mentioned so far:

(No. 342) March 8th, 1909. _Monsieur le Juge d'Instruction._

"Following public opinion, which is so terribly against me but which,
when it is better informed, will necessarily become again generous and
just, you have considered me a monstrous criminal. I have endured your
ten interrogatories, your sixty hours of questions, without flinching,
and have always asserted my innocence. You have not believed me--could
not believe me after all the foolish or extravagant things I have said
and done, and have been made to say and do--(this last sentence was
dictated to me by my counsel, who suggested that it would not be wise to
be too aggressive). My narrative of the crime seemed to you, as to other
people, fantastic and unacceptable; I was the only culprit, or I had an
accomplice whom I had influenced, or by whom I had been influenced! The
assassins, _Monsieur le Juge_, were those I said, and their number was
the number I gave. And it is your own experts in their reports, your
dossier in its final state, which prove it. I, the only criminal! To
think that such a gross and abominable idea should be held for one
moment! Why? To make it hang together it has been necessary to introduce
the theory of a sleeping-draught or of some poison! Now, after the
expert, Dr. Ogier, had declared that the bodies of the victims contained
no trace of narcotic or poison, comes Dr. Balthazard, who supplies this
irresistible argument: that my husband and my mother were so little
poisoned, so little under the influence of a narcotic, that the latter
got out of her bed and that the former rose and walked to the bath-room,
both victims having incontrovertibly been killed at the spot and in the
position in which their bodies were found. Thus is destroyed the odious
hypothesis of the 'Tragic Widow,' giver of poison or narcotic, and
slayer, with her own hands and without help, of her husband and mother.

"There remains the hypothesis according to which I am still guilty, but
had the assistance of an accomplice. Without insisting on the
imprudence entailed by the choice of any accomplice--an inadmissible
imprudence as you perceived, since you have continuously and
persistently regarded me as the only culprit--which facts in regard to
this theory has the _Instruction_ brought out? None. And yet it is not
for lack of investigations and clues; your dossiers are full of
inquiries concerning all the persons who knew me, from my most distant
acquaintances to my own brother. That is not all, and here again Reason
and Science supply some information. M. Bertillon and Dr. Balthazard
have succeeded in ascertaining the following facts: the small clock,
surely handled by one of the assassins and thrown into a cupboard, bears
finger-prints which have not been identified; the brandy bottle used a
few hours before the crimes for the grogs, brought up almost full in the
evening and found almost empty on the morning after the crime, bears
numerous unidentified finger-prints, especially around the neck, as if
the murderers had drunk from the bottle. On the carpet a number of
ink-spots were found, which came from the pool of ink in the _boudoir_
(where the murderers knocked over the ink-stand on the desk which
contained the money and the dummy bundle of documents); those spots had
dropped from the edge of some flowing garment, which could not have been
one of mine, since I had undressed on the Saturday night in the
bath-room, and since my clothes were found there on the Sunday morning,
without any ink-spots on them or under the hem. To whom did this long
loose garment, to whom did that gown which left its traces on the
carpet, belong? Was it not to the woman I denounced, or to one of the
murderers dressed as I have said? An ink-spot was found on my knee--was
it not made by one of the men when binding me to the bed?"...

(Then, I showed how the gowns stolen at the Hebrew Theatre must have
been those worn by the murderers, and I mentioned the extraordinary and
all-important discovery of the cards in the Underground, the day after
the crime, cards which pointed to the Hebrew Theatre and to the "stolen
gowns.")

..."Allow me to add that four letters which are in the Dossier
corroborate my narrative: Two letters from a certain Arthur Rewer, one
of which is dated June 2nd, three days after the crime, a letter posted
at Boulogne-sur-Seine, and the fourth written by an Italian woman and
sent from Oporto (Portugal). You have assuredly attached some importance
to them, especially to the two Rewer letters, since you appointed an
expert in handwriting and ordered all kinds of investigations and
inquiries. Now, in his letter of June 2nd, Arthur Rewer declared that on
the night of the crime, he had seen, and even followed (at about 12.30
A.M.), four men (I only saw three men on the fatal night, but the fourth
evidently kept watch downstairs) and a woman who left the Impasse Ronsin
with bags. And the writer gave a description of these people which
tallied with my own! I am endeavouring to submit to your high conscience
proofs of my own innocence taken from your dossier, and how many other
proofs there are which make my guilt impossible! And, reminding you how
much, for my own life and for my daughter I needed my husband, reminding
you of my love for my mother I protest to you once more: I am innocent!

"Besides, what motive could have led me to commit such a ghastly crime?
It was not a desire to be free to marry, since the person you know of,
would not and could not marry again for eight years! (M. Bdl. has often
said, and to others beside me, that he would never give a step-mother to
his children, and that before marrying again, he would wait till they
were all grown up, which meant about eight years.) For financial
reasons? How could one admit it, since, if the death of my mother
brought me a small income, my husband's deprived me of one far larger!
As regards the jewels which I declare to have been stolen, you know
that, contrary to the news spread abroad, it has been impossible to find
a single one, outside the four jewels I myself handed to M. Souloy on
June 12th, as I have already told M. Leydet, and also that not one of my
mother's jewels taken by the murderers, has been discovered.

"That is why, _Monsieur le Juge_, at the present stage of the
_Instruction_, I ask you to give me back my child, and to put an end to
this torture which is now more than useless and for which your
conscience may some day prick you. I have the honour to ask you to grant
me 'provisional liberty,' and I duly promise to remain at your disposal
and to help you with all my power in the search for the Truth.

      "(Signed) MARGUERITE STEINHEIL JAPY."

Four days later, on March 12th, that is on the eve of the final
_Instruction_, my petition, was returned to me--rejected "purely and
simply."

Maitre Aubin had told me that, after the dossier had been carefully
examined, I should probably be released; I believed him and tried to
wait--patiently....

       *       *       *       *       *

I have interrupted the description of my life in prison to deal with the
_Instruction_, but I may now resume my narrative of the year of agony I
spent at Saint-Lazare. That agony was only relieved by the devotion of a
few persons, to some of whom I have already referred. The others I shall
mention in the course of this chapter.

On January 1st, 1909, several Sisters came to give me their good wishes,
but the traditional "A Happy New Year" sounded bitter and ironical to
me, alas!

Pastor Arboux came to see me that day, and gave me a Bible. M. Desmoulin
brought me a few tangerine oranges which Firmin and I thought the most
wonderful fruit we had ever tasted. Sister Leonide gave me her own lamp,
a very small and old lamp which she had treasured for many, many years.
No present could have touched me more, nor have been more useful. It
hardly gave more light than a candle, but the flame did not flicker, and
that meant so much to my eyes, worn out by needlework--and tears. With
the tissue paper and the silver-paper which had been wrapped round the
tangerines, I made a little lamp-shade for "my" lamp--my priceless lamp!
Who would have thought that I, who had always surrounded myself with an
orgy of light, and still never found a room sufficiently lit, would have
been overwhelmed with joy to possess a toy oil-lamp!

On the same day, through the kindness of a Benevolent Society, buns were
distributed among the prisoners, and it was pathetic to watch their
joy... and heartrending to see some of the mothers take the buns given
to the children, and devour them while the little ones screamed with
disappointment. Certain women in prison reach such a state of
degradation that they even lose their motherly instincts!...

After the _Instruction_ was over, Sister Leonide entered my cell one
day, and said: "The Director wishes me to ask you for one of your
boots... M. Hamard has applied for that." I complied with this strange
request, but send a message to my counsel asking him to lodge a
complaint against such arbitrary treatment. The _Instruction_ was over.
I had a right to be left in peace.

A few days later, Maitre Aubin came to the prison. I had never seen him
so jovial or beaming. He laughed so much that he could hardly speak. At
last he spluttered out: "It's too funny, really!... The _Substitut_, the
_Procureur_, and other magistrates, are all studying the dossier of your
case. I suppose they are very much annoyed, since it clearly reveals
your innocence. They probably don't see how they are going to draw up an
indictment with the material at their disposal.... They wondered, and
suddenly they exclaimed: 'The boot: We will catch her by the boot!'...

"You don't understand? Nor did I, at first! well, it appears that on one
of the photographs, taken after the crime, of the floors in your
apartments, one can see a mark left by a heel. The boots of all who were
suspected of having any connection with the crime have been examined--in
vain. Then, they sent for one of your boots. It was at once seen that
the all-important heel-mark could not have been yours. But wait! The end
of the story is the most humorous part of it: they have found, beyond
any doubt, that the mark was made by the heel of the very photographer
who photographed the floor!"

Maitre Aubin checked his hilarity, and in an earnest tone added: "Ah,
Madame, I almost hope the _non-lieu_ (no bill) you expect will not be
granted you. I know it sounds terrible... as it would mean, for you,
several weeks more in this prison. But, believe me, a _non-lieu_ in your
case would amount to the total wreck of your life and of Marthe's too.
If you were suddenly set free, the public would think that there was
some pact between you and the authorities. Suspicions would become
deeper and more general than ever. Your life would be made a misery,
whilst at a trial, people would follow the examination and the evidence,
and after your acquittal, which would be the inevitable conclusion of
the trial if there were one, you would be fully rehabilitated in the
eyes of the whole world."

Maitre Aubin was sincere. I know he was not thinking--and if he had, it
would have been excusable--of the great speech he would make at the
trial, of the fame and glory his _role_ in the final act of the
sensational drama could give him. He merely thought of what was best for
me.... Alas, in spite of my acquittal, many people continued to believe
me guilty, and less than a month after I reached England, I heard a
number of people discuss the Steinheil affair and my personality in a
drawing-room, and most of them agreed that I was a dangerous and fatal
woman, and "very likely, a murderess." No one knew who I was; I had been
invited to that _soiree_ by an acquaintance who advised me to retain my
incognito, and who introduced me under another name. I took part in the
discussion about Mme. Steinheil. Men and women surrounded me because I
"seemed to have studied the case more thoroughly than they had," as one
lady put it, and I went so far as to tell them that I had met Mme.
Steinheil and had found her a typical Parisienne, perhaps a little
"weak" as a woman, but kind-hearted, artistically inclined, a devoted
mother, and altogether a person absolutely incapable of a cowardly or a
base action--still less, of course, of a crime.

"You may have met her, Madame," said an old gentleman, "but you don't
know her! Certain women, especially in your country, which is also the
country of the wretched murderess of whom we are speaking, are inclined
to be 'weak,' as you put it. But such weaknesses are pardonable in
certain circumstances, whilst murdering one's own mother and husband is
unspeakably monstrous."

"Of course it is," I said; "but how do you know she _did_ murder her
husband and her mother?"

"Why! The French newspapers said so. Besides, had she been innocent,
they would not have tried her for her life!"

"But she was acquitted...."

"Yes, yes... quite so!... All the same, beware of this person, Madame,
should you meet her again...."

Since then, I have often been in that drawing-room; the host, the
hostess, and all their friends know now who I am, and I believe that
although I am not a "fatal" woman, they would give their own life for
me. To win them to me, I had merely to be--myself. They knew me, and yet
I have only told them a very small part of my life-story. I hope and
believe that all those who once condemned me without hesitation, and
thought that I was guilty, just because "the French newspapers said so,"
will, after reading this painful account of my life and my "case," learn
at last to forget the "Tragic," or "Red Widow," and to know, and, I
trust, sympathise with, a woman who suffered unjustly the worst of
martyrdoms.

Firmin left Saint-Lazare a short time after my last _Instruction_.

When she heard the great, the wonderful news, Firmin exclaimed: "Oh!
Madame.... And I hoped so much you would be free long before me!" She
was sorry, intensely sorry; not to leave the prison, of course, but to
part from me. She packed her few belongings silently, then, when the
moment of saying good-bye had come, Firmin came to me and said: "Madame,
say you will grant me something... something I want to ask you and yet
don't like to ask."

"Yes, Firmin, I promise."

The poor young woman, with whom, for so many weeks, I had lived in the
same cell, eaten the same food, shared the same thoughts, the same
sorrows and the same hopes, hesitated a long time, and then at last,
turning a little paler, muttered: "I would like to kiss you before I go,
Madame."... She kissed my cheek, and I kissed hers, and then she
hurried away. The heavy door which had been opened was shut; I was
alone in that terrible cell, and I fell on my knees, and sobbed, crying
that word which I repeated day after day: Why?... why?...

Another prisoner took Firmin's place. She was a woman whom misery and an
awful illness had made sour, hypocritical, and treacherous. She remained
only a few weeks with me, but when she left Saint-Lazare I heard that
she went about selling samples of my work--which I had not given
her--and had also tried to sell "stories" about me....

A few hours after that poor woman's departure, Sister Leonide entered my
cell.

"I have good news for you," she began. "Your future companion, whose
name is Juliette, is a kind, able, active woman. She will be here with
you this afternoon. I know Juliette well. She is a good woman, full of
excellent qualities, but she is a thief. I suppose it is in her blood.
She has been here very often, and I can assure you that you will have
never been looked after so well as you will be by Juliette. She was a
teacher once. She can talk, and she is well read and well mannered. And
then, she has plenty of courage. She will not bewail her fate night and
day like our poor little Firmin, but will try to cheer and comfort you.
Juliette was recently sentenced to several years' imprisonment. They put
her downstairs, but the other women hated her and even threatened to
kill her, because she said she was convinced of your innocence. That did
not stop her. Day after day since her arrival here she has asked to
share your cell, and her request has been granted. And now, please,
thank Sister Leonide, Madame!"

She spoke these last words in that loud, deep voice which she assumed
when she wished to make me laugh.

Juliette came in. I had quite a surprise. Jacq and Firmin were small and
slim; Juliette was very tall and stout. One could see at a glance that
she was a clean woman. She looked about thirty-six years old. Her thick
dark hair was perfectly tidy, her nails well kept. Her complexion was
fresh and healthy. She was not beautiful, but there was a pleasant,
winning expression in her face. She exchanged a few remarks with Sister
Leonide, and I at once realised that Juliette had education and even
refinement. How could such a woman have become a thief!...

[Illustration: MY CELL

(Juliette, my fellow-prisoner, seated on her bed)

A sketch by Mme. Steinheil]

She read the question in my eyes, and after the Sister had left the
cell, she said to me: "Madame, don't think too badly of me. You don't
know... you cannot imagine... I was brought up by parents who worshipped
me. They were not rich, but they were able to give me a good, sound
education, and I became a teacher."... She told me the names of a few of
the families by whom she had been employed, and among them was that of a
Director at the Ministry of Finance whom I knew very well.... She had a
daughter of fifteen who was her all in all.

"Living in contact with wealthy people when I was a young governess,"
Juliette explained naively, "and belonging myself to a good family, I
grew used to comfort and luxury, and I wanted comfort and luxury not
only for myself, but also for my husband and my daughter. Then, one day
while I was shopping, I saw a well-dressed woman slip some lace into a
pocket hidden in her wide sleeves.... That lace must have been worth
several pounds a yard.... I told this to a woman I knew, to whom I sold
things when I needed money.... She said at once to me: 'I'll pay you
handsomely for anything you bring me.' I tried; I was successful. In one
week I had earned twenty times the amount I could have earned in one
year as a teacher.... Then there was the joy of lavishing pretty things
on my daughter, and the awful and wonderful fascination, too, of
stealing."...

Juliette read consternation on my face, but went on: "I assure you,
Madame, I am not a bad woman.... And think of the awful risks I have to
take! I have been caught. I am away from those I love, and I shall be
here for years!"

Sister Leonide was right when she said Juliette would prove a most
devoted companion. The _Instruction_ had worn me out, and the prison
doctor was seriously alarmed about my health.... Juliette saw at once
that I was in a bad way, and when, the next morning, I started washing
our cell, she snatched the cloth from my hand, carried me bodily to my
bed, rolled up her sleeves over her mighty arms and, without a word,
started scrubbing the tiles. Then she scrubbed the tables and cleaned
the shelves on the wall. Afterwards, she carried me to another bed,
looked at my sheets, and said: "You can't sleep in these!"

"There are no others in the prison, Juliette."

"Oh! yes there are! Just let me arrange things. I have been here so
often.... I know the place only too well, unfortunately!"

At Sister Leonide's next visit, Juliette asked if she might change my
sheets in the linen-room.

"But all the prison sheets are alike!" said the Sister.

"I know that, _ma soeur_. Only some are new and some are old. I want
to find the oldest pair there is. The older sheets are the thinner and
the smoother they are." And she added mischievously: "I know all about
sheets, I have stolen so many in my life!"...

Juliette soon returned with a pair of sheets that were full of holes.
She mended them, and when I went to bed, later on, she said
triumphantly: "Well, what does it feel like now, Madame?"

The change was indeed wonderful; I told Juliette so, and she clapped her
hands with delight.

Juliette was intelligent, but by living in contact with somewhat
suspicious characters she had acquired a strange personality: she
sometimes spoke like a lady of high intellectual attainments, but as a
rule her remarks were those of a woman without much education or
instruction. She would read aloud a chapter from some book--yellow and
grimy with the marks of hundreds of hands, for it was borrowed from the
prison library--Victor Hugo's "Notre Dame," for instance, and express
original views on life in the Middle Ages; then, for the rest of the
day, she would tell fortunes by cards. She raved about cards, and was
amazingly superstitious.... With bits of paper and a pencil she had made
for herself a pack of "cards," and would spend hours reading her fortune
in them! She grew so feverish over those cards that I smiled sometimes.

"Ah! Madame," she exclaimed: "Don't laugh! Cards know everything and
tell everything.... You look! I'll start over again. Just now they said
there is a fair woman near my husband and that he is going to travel....
Well, watch.... You see, this is my husband.... Now, there is that fair
woman again, with him!... I wonder who the wretch is!"...

She disliked going to mass on Sundays, but loved to listen to Pastor
Arboux when he visited me in my cell.

She talked to me about her daughter, and I told her about my own Marthe,
whom I saw twice a week. I taught Juliette all kinds of needlework, so
that, later on, she might spoil her daughter with pretty things without
stealing them. She was quick and clever, and soon learned not only to do
nice work, but to do it rapidly.

Meanwhile I did "tatting," or painted. The Sisters had supplied me with
some colours and brushes, and I painted for them flowers and landscapes
on scores of handkerchief-cases, cushions, glove-cases, and
lamp-shades.... This was far less of a strain to my eyes, but it seemed
strange to paint flowers in prison, where I never saw any.

The chaplain (Catholic) of the prison came often to see Juliette, whom
he, too, had known for many years. I had seen him before, on one or two
occasions when he had visited Firmin.

He was a man of about seventy-five, tall and handsome, still erect, and
he spoke in a soft, kind voice. "It is not so much what he says that I
like," Juliette once remarked, "as the way he says it." But what the
chaplain, M. Doumergue, said was well worth hearing.

He had travelled in the Near East, and knew Palestine well. Sometimes
after telling Juliette--and me, for I eagerly listened--one of the
parables, he would describe the place where the Son of Man had probably
spoken it.

I talked of music with him, for he had told me that he loved sacred and
classic music. He called J. S. Bach the "father of music," and seemed to
know every oratorio worthy of the name. I told him how much I loved the
singing of the Sisters, and once paid him quite unconsciously a
compliment: I remarked that the organ music on Sunday mornings in the
large Catholic chapel of the prison, though pleasant, was quite
different from the splendid, inspiring music I heard every Sunday
afternoon after vespers. Surely it could not be the same organist.

The old chaplain replied very simply. "The organist, Madame, is the
Sister of the _guichet_ (wicket). She plays while I say Mass, but at the
close of the afternoon I go to the chapel, and all alone there I play,
improvising and letting myself go at the organ."

From that day the kind old chaplain played in the chapel whenever he
could spare a moment, and thus gave me back one, at least, of the joys I
was deprived of in prison--the intense joy of hearing good music.

He talked to me of the Catholic religion sometimes. He knew that my
daughter had become a Catholic, and, in a broad-minded manner, told me
about the greatness, the unity, and the moral power of the Catholic
religion....

Under his influence and M. Arboux's, I gradually found some peace of
mind. Nothing could deaden my grief, but those two men killed all
bitterness in me. I could not resign myself to the awful thought that I
was accused of murder, but I considered it right that I should suffer
for my past weaknesses, and for having denounced men without having real
proof against them.

The wonderful example of the Sisters turned the pity I felt for the
wretched women, who had so long insulted me, into sympathy and almost
affection.... And a miracle--or at least I look upon it as a
miracle--took place: The women soon ceased calling me a murderess, and
shouting "Guillotine, guillotine!" at me.... They felt that I never
returned their insults, and they gradually began to respect me. One day,
one of them, while walking round the yard, cried: "I hope you will soon
be free--you, up there!" Then another made a kind remark, then a
third.... Another day a gypsy woman shouted: "Why don't you come down
into the yard, we won't hurt you! Why should you rot in your cell,
poor woman!" And another added: "We made a mistake about you, that's
all!"...

[Illustration: IN THE PRISON YARD AT SAINT LAZARE]

The trees were budding, the sparrows and the pigeons were more cheerful;
sun sometimes visited my cell. I had never realised so keenly the
extraordinary comfort that Light means. The cell was less cold, the days
were longer.... The women in the yard below came more frequently to do
their washing in the basin, and there was no longer any ice to smash.

The children had learned to know me. Through the iron bars of my window
I sent those little gypsies little paper packets containing tiny bits of
chocolate which Marthe brought me, and they shouted: "Morning, Madame,"
and then threw kisses. Sometimes, on my way to the room where I saw
Marthe or my counsel, I met some of those little bronzed, dark-haired
children... their big eyes looked bigger than ever as they watched me.
They followed me, and touched my dress, and said: "We love you, Madame."

The doctor ordered me to take an hour's exercise in the yard every day.
I trembled a little when I went down. The fresh air intoxicated me and I
faltered, but two or three prisoners rushed to my assistance. They spoke
kindly to me and made me sit on the edge of the basin.... And these were
the women who only a few weeks back had hurled shouts of execration at
me whenever they saw me! After a few days I knew the story of each of
them. One had sung and begged in the streets without a licence, another
had stolen bread for her children, a third had stolen because she had
been ordered to, a fourth had stabbed a policeman in order to save her
"man" and give him a chance to escape....

Sometimes, a woman who had been arrested only a day or two before
started insulting me when she was told who I was, but the others at once
stopped her, and soon afterwards the new prisoner came to me, timidly
apologised, and, to my intense surprise, started telling me the latest
news about my case. She had read the newspapers, she knew what was being
said and rumoured.... And invariably the woman made things out to be
brighter than they really were, just to give me hope and courage!

I must not forget to mention "_Blanc-Blanc_" (white-white), Sister
Leonide's cat. He was quite black save for a spot of white between the
eyes. He followed the Sister everywhere, and when she entered my cell,
he went under my bed. After Sister Leonide had gone, _Blanc-Blanc_ made
his appearance and touched me with his paw. I knew what that meant.
Juliette took our only plate--"our Sevres dinner service," as she called
it--and we gave the cat some milk. When he heard the door being opened,
he took up a place against the wall. Then, before the door was closed
again, he slipped through and disappeared. Sister Leonide knew exactly
where the cat had been, but she exclaimed: "I wonder where Blanc-Blanc
has been spending the afternoon!"...

Juliette was vexed with the appearance of our cell. One morning she
suddenly declared that she had found a way of improving it beyond
description.

"We are going to make a beautiful couch!" she cried, and forthwith she
pulled the straw mattresses off the spare beds--each mattress was just a
bundle of straw inside a sack--and also the three straw bolsters (for
there were five beds in our cell). She placed the mattresses one on top
of another in the centre of the cell and covered the "couch" with a
spare sheet, and in front of it we put the "dressing-room" table, which
was now adorned not only with the photograph of my mother and my child,
but also with one of Juliette's daughter. We sat down, feeling almost
cheerful, on the improvised "_bergere_," and then... we heard the bolt
of the door being drawn and the key being turned. Sister Leonide
entered, followed by "our Mother." The former saw at once the piece of
furniture we had added to our small stock, and it was all that she could
do not to laugh. Then, "Our Mother" saw it too.... I forestalled the
coming reproaches by taking the Sister Superior by the hand and making
her sit on the _bergere_. She had to admit that it was considerably more
comfortable than the hard beds and the rush chairs in the cell.... But
prison rules were prison rules, and gloomily, Juliette and I started
undoing our great work.

Both "Our Mother" and Sister Leonide watched us despondently, and the
former suddenly said: "Don't do it just yet.... Rest a little on the
couch first."

       *       *       *       *       *

On Good Friday, Pastor Arboux came to me and I received the Holy
Communion. He had brought the bread and the wine from his little chapel,
and we knelt down together afterwards on the tiles of the cell.

On Easter Day I felt unusually depressed. It was such a great day at
home. My mother and I hid eggs of all sizes and colours in the garden.
Each of them contained surprises, and Marthe spent most of the day
looking for them. When a child I gave her chicks and ducklings on that
occasion. She very soon learned to know them, and she gave them names.
One Easter Day she came into the drawing-room followed by all her
_proteges_, and her favourite cock, L'Effronte (Bold-face), a bird I had
given her the year before, flew on the grand piano and crowed!

I sang at the Temple of _l'Etoile_ on Easter Day, and in the evening
Marthe, one or two musical friends and I, gave a concert. The whole
family was gathered, and all the little roughnesses of life were
forgotten. My husband gave up painting and came down from his dear
studio, and played with Marthe, whom he adored.

M. Arboux came to Saint-Lazare, early in the morning, and although it
was on one of the busiest days of the year with him, he remained with me
longer than he intended to, for he saw how miserable I felt.

After vespers--Juliette had attended that service and had then gone to
the "parlour"--the Sister Superior entered my cell. I jumped off my bed,
where I was sobbing, and apologised. Gently "Our Mother" scolded me, and
said: "You will wear your eyes out; you must not cry.... I have brought
you some visitors."...

Several Sisters came in one by one, and my cell was lit up by all those
smiling faces and the white _cornettes_.

Sister Leonide gave me some primroses. "They will replace," she said,
"the faded mimosa on your little table. These primroses were sent us by
a poor girl who has not forgotten the little we were able to do for her
when she was a prisoner here.... 'Our Mother' has given me permission to
offer you those few flowers."

There were nine or ten Sisters in my cell now; they all spoke kindly to
me, and every one made me a little present. "Our Mother" handed me a
small photograph of a Raphael Madonna; another, two new-laid eggs sent
her by her parents, farmers near Paris.... One Sister, young, and with
mischievous eyes, gave me a very faded branch of "snow-balls," and said:
"Sister Leonide has told me that you can revive flowers that are almost
dead.... When can I come to see the miracle?"

"In a day's time," I replied. Our Mother asked me what my "secret" was,
and I told her that it merely consisted in nipping off the ends of the
stems and dipping them for a while in warm water, but one had to
instinctively guess how long they must be kept in the water, and how
warm the water must be. Two or three "baths" might be necessary.

The next day, the "snow-balls" looked fresh and beautiful, and the
Sister Superior spoke of "Resurrection."

I almost forgot, on that Sunday evening, that I was in prison, and when
the Sisters left my cell, it seemed to me that a great part of my sorrow
had been taken from me, and flew away on the great white wings of the
Sisters' _cornettes_.

I was no longer alone in my cell. I had the primroses and the
"snow-balls," and I laid them, as on a tomb, before my mother's
portrait.

       *       *       *       *       *

Towards the middle of May, Maitre Aubin came one morning, excited as I
had never seen him before.

He seized both my hands and exclaimed: "You are saved. The murderers
have been found. At least, it is an almost sure thing. At any moment you
may be set free. I have seldom been so happy!"

I had so often been disappointed that I dared not share my counsel's
enthusiasm.

"But, Madame, you must not be sceptical.... Listen!" And he told me that
a man called Allaire, who had already been denounced as one of the
Impasse Ronsin murderers in an anonymous letter received by M. Hamard,
had been arrested at Versailles, where he had been caught stealing at a
fair. Investigations had shown that Allaire had been concerned in a
burglary with a friend of his, called Tardivel, and a red-haired woman
called Batifolier. Allaire had denied his participation in the Steinheil
murder, but had admitted that Tardivel had told him all about that
murder, in which he, Tardivel, had played a leading part!

I was filled with hope, and yet I feared lest this new turn in events
might lead to nothing, as so many others had, and merely mean a
postponement of my release or my trial, a longer stay in prison....

I was right, alas! The Tardivel investigations lasted nearly _two
months_, and merely led to the discovery that Allaire was an epileptic,
that Tardivel was a lunatic, and that although both were burglars, they
had had nothing to do with the Impasse Ronsin drama. Tardivel, to
impress Allaire, had _boasted_ that he was the murderer of M. Steinheil
and Mme. Japy!

The Tardivel Dossier fills 234 pages and contains 36,000 words. That my
counsel had good cause to believe that at last the assassins had been
tracked down, may be gathered from the following extracts from the
Tardivel dossier:

"May 15th, 1909. We, Debauchey, Police-Commissary at Versailles... have
interrogated Allaire, Emmanuel, aged 27... about his alleged
participation in the murders of M. Steinheil and Mme. Japy....

_Answer._ "So far as I am concerned, I know nothing about the Steinheil
affair, except the declarations made to me by my friend Angello
Tardivel.... I knew Angello at the lunatic asylum at Rennes, where I was
placed at the same time as he. I left the asylum a little before he did,
wandered and worked in many places and came to Versailles at the end of
1907. On July 5th, 1908, at the 'Feast of the Work-Yards,' I met
Tardivel, and we had a drink together.... He told me about himself, and
said he was the author of many burglaries. He proposed that I should
join him, and said I would not lose by it, for burglaries paid well. I
met him again a few days later, and it was then that he said he was one
of the authors of the murder in the Impasse Ronsin. The widow Batifolier
was with me at the time, but that did not matter, for he knew that she
was deaf. However, I repeated to the widow, later on, what Tardivel had
told me. Tardivel said there had been four of them in the Steinheil
affair: himself, a man called Pierre Robert, aged 28 or 29, another
whose name he did not give, and a tall red-haired woman called Amelie
Brunot, who was Robert's friend.... Tardivel had lived in the Rue de
Vaugirard, close to the Impasse Ronsin, and he seemed to know the
Steinheil house perfectly well both inside and out. I cannot tell you
whether Tardivel was once a model.... He has long dark curls falling on
his shoulders, and is rather handsome. He speaks several languages,
including Italian, Spanish and English. He also told me that he had
acted as super in various theatres. He did not say how he and his
companions entered the Steinheil house, but I understand that he had
some skeleton keys, a crowbar, a revolver, and an electric lantern.... I
remember his saying that they found a woman in her bed.... The
red-haired woman went first, and the others followed.... They put some
wadding soaked with chloroform on the woman's face... and they bound
her. He said that the rope they used came from the girth of a saddle. He
did not say anything about M. Steinheil or the other lady, but merely
that they had stolen money... candlesticks and other things. When he
told me all this, Tardivel was a little drunk. What I have told you is
absolutely the truth...."

_Question._ "Do you not believe that Tardivel, when he told you all this
in confidence... was only boasting in order to impress you with his
ability, so that you would be led to accept his proposals? Do you
believe he was sincere, and had spoken the truth?"

_Answer._ "Yes, I believe he spoke the truth, and that he was really one
of the murderers...."

(_Dossier_ Cote 4)

The reader may imagine my feelings when I heard all those details from
my counsel!

Tardivel was traced. He proved that he "had had nothing to do with the
Steinheil affair," and that he was "the victim of Allaire's spite."

(_Dossier_ Cote 34)

       *       *       *       *       *

Of course Marthe, too, believed in the Tardivel clue, and when she came
to the prison she told me to be patient "just a little longer." But
nothing happened. It was clearly demonstrated after weeks of
investigations, during which I could hardly eat or sleep, that neither
Allaire nor Tardivel could have had anything to do with the murder.

Meanwhile, journalists were once more besieging the house in the Impasse
Ronsin, and my daughter, finding that they stopped at nothing to gain
admittance, resorted to a very simple and effective method of getting
rid of them. She turned the garden hose on the invaders.

Scores of persons--especially foreigners--came to the house, and when
Marthe was absent the doorkeeper allowed herself to be bribed into
showing the visitors round the apartments!

       *       *       *       *       *

Days went by; weeks, months... endless, weary months, and the Tardivel
clue yielded no results. It was a dreadful blow to me, but a worse was
to fall. Ever since March 30th, 1909, the _Procureur_ had had before him
all the documents of the "Steinheil case." On June 18th five magistrates
of the _Chambre des Mises en Accusation_, found a true bill against me,
and on July 8, nearly eight months after my arrest, I was informed, at
the request of the _Procureur_, that a release was out of the question,
and that I would be tried in the Paris Court of Assize....

The dreadful news was broken to me in the Director's room. M. Desmoulin
was there with M. Pons. They both looked very uneasy, but made merely
commonplace remarks. Then Maitre Aubin rushed in with Maitre Landowski.

"I am delighted, Madame!" he exclaimed. "I will vindicate you, I'll
prove your innocence. Rejoice, Madame, rejoice!"

I believed that I was going to be released. "When do I leave
Saint-Lazare?" I asked eagerly.

"Towards the end of October, I should think. You'll have been tried by
that time, and acquitted, of course."

I understood.... A trial.... Several months in prison.... I heard a
rumbling noise. Everything seemed to whirl around me and I swooned.

When I came back to my senses I saw Sister Leonide by my side. She
signed to me not to speak, and helped me back to my cell.

For several days I was a prey to the deepest despair. Then came the
relief of tears....

When I was well enough to get about again, I received a visit from
Maitre Aubin. Somehow, the mere sight of him made me angry. I told him
that he was responsible for all that had happened; that he should have
allowed and even advised me to tell M. Andre everything about the Faure
documents and the necklace, about M. de Balincourt and the mysterious
"German." I accused him of having sold himself to the Government, of
having merely carried out their instructions....

Maitre Aubin waited until I had flung my last accusation at him. Then,
quietly, he explained that he was an honest and independent man, and
that he feared no one. "You have only suspicions against M. de
Balincourt, just as you had against Wolff and Couillard; and you know
where those suspicions led you.... As for that German, although your
servants, Marthe and others, saw him, it would be well nigh impossible
to trace him. And you could not assert that he had something to do with
the murder.... Treat me as you choose; you have suffered so much that it
would be extraordinary if you had kept your full self-possession. All I
can say is that you will be triumphantly acquitted. There will remain no
trace of suspicion against you, and that is what is needed above all."

He spoke for a long time, and I apologised for my anger. Maitre Aubin
was profoundly devoted, and I should never have turned on him as I had
done.

In spite of the hope my counsel gave me, in spite of Marthe's love, M.
Arboux's and the Sisters' exhortations, I fell seriously ill, and for
over three weeks there were serious fears for my life. After a time,
Marthe was allowed to visit me again, and she besought me to be brave,
to make a supreme effort. I had been eight months in prison, I should
try to grow used to the thought of remaining at Saint-Lazare three or
four months longer, since victory was at the end.

"But the victory," my daughter explained in deep, powerful tones that
contrasted so strongly with her slim, small figure, "can only be won if
you work on the dossier of your case. You will have to ask for that
dossier, and study it most carefully for your own defence. M. Aubin says
so, and he knows."

She compelled me to eat, to take the various remedies ordered by the
doctor and, seeing her so brave, I did my best to recover, and to call
up courage and hope in the ordeal before me.

Soon afterwards, I was told that M. de Valles would be the Chief Judge
at my trial, and M. Trouard-Riolle the Advocate-General (Public
Prosecutor).

I had never met M. de Valles, but I was informed that he was a viscount,
a grandson of Charles d'Hozier, "the last genealogist of France," and a
descendant of another famous genealogist, Pierre d'Hozier, who, at the
beginning of the seventeenth century, founded, with Renaudot and
Richelieu, the _Gazette_, France's first newspaper. I also heard that he
was an able archaeologist, a learned Latinist, whose greatest joy was to
sit in his library in the company of Horace, Lucretius, or the immortal
Virgil, that he was a worthy, able, and extremely fair judge.

About M. Trouard-Riolle I needed no information. I had met him in
various drawing-rooms at intervals for some fifteen years. I had known
his beautiful and fascinating wife quite well, and I knew all about M.
Trouard-Riolle's career, from the days he had left the Lycee at Rouen
and had become a Doctor of Law, to the time when he was made an
Advocate-General.

A few days later I was called down-stairs to the Director's study. When
I entered the little room I knew so well, I saw, near M. Pons, a tall,
well-dressed man of about fifty with clean-cut features, clear eyes,
grey hair and beard, and an expression of great firmness and refinement.

The Director of Saint-Lazare said: "President de Valles."

The latter said: "Sit down, Madame." Those three words were spoken in a
cold yet polite tone, which was in sharp contrast to the coarseness of
another judge whom I had not yet forgotten. A _greffier_ read aloud a
document.... I thanked M. de Valles for having come to the prison, and
then said: "The thought of being tried publicly for a double murder of
which I am innocent is unendurable, but I still hope that light will be
thrown on the mystery. But what difficulties there are, _Monsieur le
President_, for you as well as for me, in such a trial, for I understand
that certain facts must be left in the dark!"...

M. de Valles did not answer my remark, but said: "Public opinion,
Madame, is very much against you... and it is impossible not to
recognise that your husband loved you."

"No, _Monsieur le President_, my husband did not love me, he adored me,
and since he did anything I wished, I obviously had no reason to kill
him. As for my mother, her letters to me and my letters to her ought to
have made it impossible for Judge Andre to maintain his accusation."

It was quite clear that M. de Valles did not care to discuss any point
in my case. He asked me to sign the document which his _greffier_ had
read, and said: "I advise you to be calm, very calm, Madame. I can
realise that the thought of the Court of Assize must be most painful to
you, but, in order that you may get used, as it were, to the atmosphere
of the Court, I intend, when your trial takes place, asking you first of
all a number of questions of no great importance about your childhood
and youth which you will find it easy to answer, however upset and
distraught you may be."

I thanked him and said: "Is it true that my trial will be a kind of
spectacle to which women will eagerly rush--and be admitted--to enjoy
the sight of my grief and pain? If so, I must tell you, _Monsieur Le
President_, that I shall be unable to control my feelings."...

M. de Valles pretended not to have heard, and said: "Maitre Aubin is an
able counsel, with a great heart and a high conscience. Follow the
advice he gives you, and since you say you are innocent, let your
innocence give you the strength and power to convince the jury."

M. de Valles rose and rang a bell. A warder came, and I was escorted to
my cell.




CHAPTER XXVIII

THREE HUNDRED AND FIFTY-THREE DAYS IN PRISON (_continued_)


A few days later, my counsel came and said to me: "We are to receive the
dossier, all the documents of your case, and we shall then be able to
read the evidence of all the witnesses, follow, page by page, the
various clues in their reports, and learn all that has been done--and
not been done.... Only, you will have to pay for that dossier."

"Pay!" I exclaimed. "Pay to know why I am accused of having murdered my
husband and my mother! Pay to be able to defend myself! You must have
lost your reason, Maitre Aubin!"

"You are quite right, Madame: it is an infamous thing that money should
be demanded for your own dossier. It is scandalous, wicked,
unheard-of.... I grant you all that. But still, we must have the
dossier, and pay for it, since payment is demanded."

I shook my head: "Suppose I were a poor woman, should I have to do
without it?"

"Of course not.... But your dossier is enormous. It contains 4000
documents, and 15,000 pages. Think of it! At 150 words a page, it means
two million and a quarter words. They want 1800 francs for it (L72)."

"Can you not plead without it?"

"I could, certainly; I have been present at the whole of your
_Instruction_, and therefore know all about the case.... But one never
can tell, the Prosecution might spring some surprise upon us, at the
eleventh hour; we might not be prepared for it, however absurd or
fantastic it might be.... It would be better if we could study the
dossier in its entirety, and acquaint ourselves with the exact replies
of all the witnesses to the questions M. Hamard, M. Leydet, and M. Andre
put."

"Very well, then; I will defend myself, alone, without the dossier, and
without you, and my innocence shall triumph."

The next day, Marthe came and entreated me to buy the dossier, saying
that I had no right to take any risks. She even threatened to buy it
herself for me, if I did not alter my decision. I had to yield, and
entrusted my solicitor with the care of "purchasing the documents of my
own case," adding that I wished him to "try and obtain a reduction."

My solicitor obtained the dossier after much haggling, for L48, instead
of L72, and I knew then that another unlawful act had been committed...
by the Law!

It was the middle of summer now. It was light soon after three in our
cell, and Juliette pinned a blanket across our window so that we might
sleep a little longer. I still did much sewing for the Sisters, but
devoted several hours a day to the study of the voluminous and amazing
dossier. Twice, and sometimes three times a week, my counsel came, and
we "worked" together.

I discovered many remarkable things in the dossier. I discovered, for
instance, that ninety-nine per cent. of the persons whom I knew
intimately, receiving them again and again at my house, and seeing them
or communicating with them as often as two or three times a week--and
this until a few days before the crime--had declared in their evidence
that they hardly knew me at all!

One gentleman, a bright and thoroughly useless nonentity, who had known
me for several years, and whom for the sake of his charming young wife,
I had greatly helped in his career, stated that he had only met me once
or twice... forgetting that I had possessed, and still possess, a few
scores of his letters in which he beseeched me to help him out of his
difficulties, and to intercede in his favour with this or that Minister
of State! An aged lady, who ruled over a political Salon--whose chief
aim in life was nothing more nor less than the overthrow of the
Republic, and who invited me, though I never accepted, to secret
meetings where political plots were hatched, and who, manifesting the
greatest affection for me and my daughter, came _constantly_ to my
house--after declaring in her evidence that in February 1908, she "was
present at a dinner given by Mme. Steinheil, where she met M.
Dujardin-Beaumetz (Under-Secretary for Fine-Arts), Count and Countess
d'Arlon, the wife of an ex-Minister... altogether some fifteen guests of
incontestable morality." She went on to say that she had visited me, at
the d'Arlons, after the crime, when I told her what had happened on the
fatal night.... "She looked very upset and a prey to a kind of
hallucination, which made her jump from one topic of conversation to
another. To sum up, I had for the first time, the impression that Mme.
Steinheil had not been quite sincere with me, that she had wanted to use
to her advantage the position I hold in Society, and I mentally decided
to have nothing more to do with her!"

       *       *       *       *       *

But perhaps the most "curious" document in the dossier was the evidence
given by the wife of a well-known banker, who stated: "At a reception,
three years ago (1906)... I heard Mme. Steinheil. I congratulated her,
in the usual terms.... I visited her husband's exhibition of paintings.
Mme. Steinheil then came to one of my receptions and promised to sing at
one of my "musicals." A few days later I invited her; she came with her
husband, sang, and was applauded. As I could not consider her as a
professional singer, I went to the Impasse Ronsin and bought one of her
husband's paintings.... I only saw Mme. Japy once, that was at the only
'at home' which I attended at the Steinheils'. This sums up the
relations my husband and I had with the Steinheils, except a mere visit
of condolence we paid to her, at Bellevue, after the crime."

(_Dossier_ Cote 3138)

       *       *       *       *       *

The true facts about those relations are these: this lady during the
three years of our acquaintance came to most of my receptions, and
stayed frequently from three o'clock till past eight. She used my salon
as a means of making and cultivating acquaintances who might be useful
to herself and her husband. People prominent in politics, art, or
society did not attend her receptions, and she frequently sought my help
in her desire to alter this. She brought all her friends to my house,
called on me with her husband, not only in Paris but at Bellevue, where
she came not just once, for a "mere visit of condolence," but a dozen or
fifteen times without being invited, and week after week she sent me
charming letters, all beginning with the words, "My darling Nell,"--a
name she had given me for some reason unknown to me--not every day, but
almost!

As for the close friends who coolly declared they had never met me at
all, their names would make a long list!... I have forgiven them all.
Friends in need are rare indeed; and was a woman ever in greater
need--of sympathy--than I was during those terrible months that followed
the crime! Well, I would rather that "devoted" friends ignored me than
slandered me, as so many did, alas....

As a matter of fact, the only people who did have a kind or just word to
say about me were not Society people, or wealthy or "prominent"
personages, but old servants whom I had nursed when they were ill, and
poor artists--men and women--who were not ashamed to say that I had
helped them.

The dossier, indeed, proved a mine of psychological information. It
revealed in their true light the character of scores of people whom I
had trusted, helped, and liked, and it showed up vividly a side of
Parisian Society which it is perhaps best to ignore.

I experienced another surprise when I found that several persons whom I
had never met, and had never heard of, gave evidence about me--most
damaging evidence, of course.

The most "dramatic" discovery I made in the dossier was that of Comte de
Balincourt's career. The following document, especially, gave me one of
the greatest shocks I ever experienced:

      "Paris, December 9th, 1909. _Report_:

"According to my instructions, I called on the 3rd inst. on M. Sebille,
Principal Commissary of the _Surete Generale_ at the Ministry of the
Interior. This magistrate pointed out to our chief the interest there
might be in consulting a dossier which M. Sebille possesses about Comte
de Balincourt, whose name has been mentioned in connection with the
Steinheil affair.

"M. Sebille first of all made it known that, at the beginning of
December 1907, he had been concerned with de Balincourt. The latter had
been marked out to him as the instigator of a burglary which was to take
place at that time to the detriment of Mme. de Brossard, a lady of
independent means, 23 Rue de l'Orangerie, at Versailles.

"This burglary was to be committed in circumstances which are related in
the dossier which M. Sebille allowed me to consult.

"The facts are these:

"D. H. J. H. Emmanuel Testu, Count de Balincourt, born on August 4th,
1873, was married at Versailles in December 1901.... A divorce was
pronounced against him in January 1907. It is said that while he was
married, Count de Balincourt made long stays at his wife's
grandmother's, Mme. de Brossard, at Versailles. He knew that she had
large sums of money in her safe. Needy, and having recourse to
expedients, de Balincourt planned the burglary mentioned above.

"He told his friend P. L. F. Delpit--who styled himself a man 'of
independent means'--about the scheme. At that time, de Balincourt and
Delpit resided together at Neuilly. It would appear that Delpit, who
mixes with criminal people, took upon himself the task of recruiting the
individuals capable of successfully carrying out that 'operation.'

"Whilst he was being carefully shadowed by M. Sebille's inspectors,
Delpit was followed to the haunts of professional thieves... (two of
these haunts are here quoted). It was thus ascertained that Delpit had
conferred with criminal individuals, the identity of a few of whom was
established:

"(1) A man nicknamed Baptistin, aged 30... who has the reputation of
being a dangerous criminal.... (2) Langon, Marius, nicknamed 'the
Gypsy.'... He is mentioned as possessing a special pneumatic tool for
boring metal.... Five sentences have been passed on him, including one
of five years' imprisonment.... (3) Goirand, aged 30... twice
condemned.... (4) Fontaine, Gustave, aged 30.... (5) _Monstet de
Fonpeyrine, born in 1877, at Santiago de Cuba_, conjurer, arrested in
November last for robberies in Paris hotels.

"Whilst these individuals were being shadowed by the _Surete Generale_,
it was found that Fontaine drove to Versailles in a motor-car, and he
was seen at night trying skeleton keys in the lock of the door of Mme.
de Brossard's mansion.

"It is not known whether some indiscretions were committed; at any rate,
these individuals ceased to meet in their haunts, and abandoned their
plans.

"Finally, during the shadowing of Count de Balincourt, _one of the
inspectors saw him go to the Impasse Ronsin No. 6, and from there, by
the Underground to the station of 'Les Couronnes,' where he (de
Balincourt) had an appointment with the above-mentioned individuals_....

"...At any rate, the fact seems sufficiently established that the
initial steps of the burglary that had been planned were carried out,
since skeleton keys were tried by Fontaine, on the door of Mme. Brossard
(grandmother of de B.'s wife).

"As regards de Balincourt and Delpit, both these individuals are
mentioned in the general report concerning the Steinheil affair. _There
are 'dossiers' about both of them in the archive of the Surete in
reference to burglaries; and further, there are photographs of both of
them at the 'Service of Judicial Identification._'

      "(Signed) INSPECTOR DECHET."

(_Dossier_ Cote 1069)

       *       *       *       *       *

And this Count de Balincourt I received, alas, several times at my house
and once at Bellevue, in circumstances which I have described!

No power on earth could induce me even to suggest that M. de Balincourt
and his friend knew anything about the Impasse Ronsin murder, or were in
any way connected with it. I foolishly accused Couillard and Wolff, and
have bitterly regretted it ever since, but I have often thought what a
fortunate thing it was for me that I was not acquainted with those
details of M. de Balincourt's life, after the crime and _before_ my
arrest. For, in the morbid state of agitation in which I was, and in my
pardonable eagerness to discover the murderers, I should no doubt have
made my own case worse by accusing, not only my valet and the son of my
cook, but also M. de Balincourt, especially as he had gained access to
my house in a rather strange manner, had deceived me about his address,
had done his utmost to gain M. Steinheil's confidence, _and knew about
the Faure documents_.

As it was, I had strong suspicions against him, and they became even
stronger, and surely, after what I read in M. de Balincourt's dossier,
and have partly quoted, the reader will perhaps grant that, although I
had no "real" or "absolute" cause to suspect the man, I had some reason
to... let us say, distrust him.

I must add, however, that in another of Inspector Dechet's reports I
read that: "It has been impossible to ascertain what persons M. de
Balincourt went about with in May 1908.... The only friend he was known
to have at the time was Delpit, who lived with him. It is useful to
mention that M. de Balincourt has always asserted that he had made the
acquaintance of Mme. Steinheil towards February 15th (1908).... It
appears doubtful therefore that at the time when this individual (M. de
B.) was being shadowed by the _Surete Generale_ in December 1907, he
could have been seen going to No. 6 Impasse Ronsin.

"The Inspector:

      "(Signed) DECHET."

(_Dossier_ Cote 1089)

       *       *       *       *       *

M. de Balincourt was several times interrogated, and among other things,
he stated: "On Saturday, May 30, 1908, I returned at about 8 P.M. to the
pavilion where I reside with my friend Delpit (at Courbevoie, a suburb
of Paris).... We dined at 11.30; we parted and went each of us to his
rooms. The next day, May 31st, I rose late and joined my father at the
Neuilly Church, as I did every Sunday. At about one o'clock I was back
home and lunched with my family and Delpit. I spent the afternoon in my
garden, and only went out at seven o'clock to buy the journal _La
Presse_, with Delpit, at the station. After we had deplored our losses,
for we had put some money on a horse which had not won, my attention was
drawn to a heading announcing the murder of the members of the Steinheil
family. As I read the article I was dumfounded and absolutely
distracted. We were surprised, Delpit and I, that Mme. Steinheil had
been spared by the murderers, but I was the first to recognise that
circumstances must have favoured her....

      "(Signed) HAMARD.
                COMTE DE BALINCOURT."

(_Dossier_ Cote 1087)

       *       *       *       *       *

I must also add that it is stated in the _Dossier_ Cote 1089, that it
was not while the gang of thieves previously referred to were being
shadowed that one of them "was seen going to Versailles to try the
skeleton-keys" but that "the fact was revealed by an _indicateur_ whose
name the _Surete Generale_ could not divulge."

I made many other strange discoveries in that most extraordinary of
dossiers. Indeed, it not only contains the absolute proofs of my
innocence, throws much light on Parisian life, and gives an insight into
the psychology of at least two or three "spheres" of Society, but it
also holds a serious condemnation of a number of judicial methods, so
palpably unjust that it seems incredible that they should be allowed to
exist in a land, which by universal consent ranks foremost, not only in
the realms of Art and Science, but also in the domain of
Intellectuality, noble aspirations, and idealism.

The dossier fills 15,000 pages; it is therefore impossible to quote it
in full.... I have, however, submitted to the reader its most essential
parts; but before concluding this rapid review of the surprises that
dossier held in store for me, I should like to mention one or two more
episodes:

I had a lady friend, who was then about fifty, and whom I had known
intimately for nearly fifteen years. This lady knew my life and my
affairs as thoroughly as I knew hers. She came constantly to the Impasse
Ronsin with her husband, a man of about seventy, and her cousin, a
barrister of repute, and also to _Vert-Logis_, at Bellevue, with that
cousin. We corresponded regularly, in the most affectionate of terms.
That she should have virulently criticised my conduct, that she should
have made such acid statements as these: "Mme. Steinheil was most
familiar and very quickly familiar with everybody, with men as well as
with women; she called gentlemen 'my friend, my great friend,' and
ladies 'my dear, my darling!'... She gave me the impression of being
jealous of her lady-friends' wealth. She lied constantly about anything
and everything.... I saw her less and less.... I had heard ugly rumours
about her conduct...." (_Dossier_, Cote 3058)--all this I can realise
and forgive: it is so human, so typical of a certain class of Society
and a certain type of woman.... Besides, I was in prison at the time; I
could not answer or contradict statements. My "friend" was quite safe.

But it appears that at the same time--early in 1909--this lady spoke
about certain anonymous letters and about _poisoned chocolates_, which
she thought I had sent her!

I can imagine the sensation in her drawing-room, and the success of her
"at homes." The Steinheil affair was the one topic of conversation
everywhere, and here was a hostess who had known that wicked woman, the
"Tragic Widow," the "Red Widow," for many, many years! And she had
something new to say, something amazingly sensational: she had once
received a box of poisoned chocolates from the woman who was accused of
having murdered her husband and her mother!...

I can see the ladies forgetting their tea and their _petit-fours_,
pressing eagerly round my "friend" and saying, in hushed tones: "Not
really!... You don't mean to say that.... But what a monster that
creature must have been.... And to think she was here, in this very
room.... My poor dear.... No, no, we shall not mention this to any
one. You can rely on us. But what a dreadful secret!"...

The next day, of course, all the newspapers devoted columns to it.

The mystery ceased to be a mystery: Mme. Steinheil had poisoned the
victims and afterwards strangled them, when they were quite defenceless!
It was quite clear! The riddle was solved, at last!

Once again, Public Opinion was aroused against me. And from these people
who read the newspapers, whose minds were daily being incensed against
me--to such an extent, I have heard since, that it was not safe for any
one to take my part, even in a salon!--from that enraged Public, twelve
men were to be chosen, a few months later, to decide my fate!

I need hardly say that there was not one atom of truth in that atrocious
story. In her evidence given _before M. Andre_, on January 12th, 1909,
my "friend" stated: "Three or four years ago, I received two or three
anonymous letters, teasing rather than nasty. I _supposed_ they came
from Mme. Steinheil, but I never spoke to her about them. On the
occasion of the New Year, at that same period, a box of chocolates,
badly packed, was left with my _concierge_ for me. Without tasting them
or giving any to any one, not even my dog, I sent those chocolates to
the Municipal Laboratory to be analysed. I was told that the chocolates
were absolutely harmless. I had taken the whole thing as a joke, which I
attributed to the author of the anonymous letters, that is, to Mme.
Steinheil. Since then I have found that those chocolates had been sent
me by Doctor C."

(_Dossier_ Cote 3058)

       *       *       *       *       *

A thorough inquiry was made, and its results form a report dated
February 9th, 1909, addressed to M. Hamard by Inspector Laurent, in
which it is stated that:

"... She (Mme. D.) lost or destroyed the written reply sent by the
Laboratory, but remembers that it said the chocolates were harmless....
Dr. C. stated that two or three years ago he had sent to Mme. D. a box
of chocolates, but that he had forgotten to send his card with it, so
that the lady heard of the origin of the chocolates only when he himself
asked her if she had received them. The lady _never_ told him they were
'bad.'

"Inquiries made by the Municipal Laboratory about those chocolates,
yielded no results. _No traces can be found that Mme. D. ever sent
chocolates to be analysed, either in her own name or in any other name
at her address._"

(_Dossier_ Cote 3060)

       *       *       *       *       *

In this way was yet another "story," most damaging to my cause, told,
spread, universally discussed--and finally proved to be entirely false!
Once more I was vindicated, but once more... incalculable harm had been
done me.

This fantastic story of the "poisoned chocolates" had a sequel, whether
direct or indirect, I cannot tell. At any rate, shortly afterwards, the
body of M. Steinheil was exhumed. In December 1908, that of my mother
had been exhumed, and now, my husband's remains were once more examined,
so that a search might be made for any traces of narcotic or poison.

Dr. Courtois-Suffit, had made a thorough "medical" examination,
immediately after the crime, but ten months later, Dr. Balthazard was
requested by M. Andre to make a second autopsy!

Although M. Steinheil was buried in the family vault at L'Hay, Marthe's
consent was not even asked for the exhumation. The tomb was, as it were,
broken into, and the body of her father removed to be examined once
more. (Yet another unlawful act committed by the law!) She--and I--only
heard of the exhumation several days after it had taken place. I can
hardly believe that such an arbitrary and scandalous act could have been
committed in any other civilised country.

The conclusion of Dr. Balthazard's lengthy and most painstaking report
was that "toxicological examination of the viscera... _did not reveal
any traces_ of narcotic or stupefactive.'"

(_Dossier_ Cote 220)

There was no mention whatever of poison. In this same and final report,
Dr. Balthazard went on to say that: "Finally, M. Steinheil died without
a struggle, from strangulation by a cord; it appears that he died at the
spot where he was found... (away from his bed, on the threshold of the
bath-room). Secondly, Mme. Japy died of suffocation owing to the
introduction of a voluminous gag of wadding into her mouth; before she
was dead, a cord was tightened round her neck; Mme. Japy appears to have
died on her bed at the very place where her body was found. There were
no traces of violence to indicate that she struggled against an
aggressor...."

In Cote 197, I read with interest the statements made by M. Rousseau, a
mechanic at the large printing works in the Impasse Ronsin--which employ
some two thousand men and women.

"About three weeks before the crime, I noticed in the Impasse Ronsin, at
noon, or 1 P.M., three men and a woman near the wall of the Steinheils'
house; they were talking together.... The woman rang at the gate. Some
one came and spoke to her for a few moments. Meanwhile, the three men
walked a little away from the gate, but remained on that side of the
Impasse." After describing the four persons (the three men wore "black
felt artists' hats," and the "woman wore a shawl in the Italian style"),
M. Rousseau declared that he "saw those people again several times, near
the gate of my house," and that he was struck by "their hesitating
attitude."

A "M. Godefroy, also employed at the printing works... remembered having
seen those individuals in the Impasse Ronsin...."

       *       *       *       *       *

I was also surprised to find that in this colossal dossier many persons
gave evidence who had only met me once or twice, whilst close friends
whom I had known for years were not questioned about me. Thus the
dossier contained no mention of Bonnat or Massenet, of M.
Viollet-le-Duc, of M. Delalande--French Consul-General in Naples and
recently in London--who had known me from the days when I was only
fourteen; of M. Sadi-Carnot, son of the late President; of M. Duteil
d'Ozanne, Chief of the Secretariat of the "Legion of Honour"; and many
other prominent men. Not one of the generals, admirals, statesmen,
politicians, and important officials who knew me well, were consulted,
nor, of course, President Tassard, President Petit, or any of the
numberless magistrates with whom, and with whose wives, I was on terms
of close friendship.

       *       *       *       *       *

Whilst working on the dossier I became less despondent, and regained
some of the strength I had lost. Reading those documents aroused not
only my indignation, but also my will. I would not be condemned; I would
fight the Prosecution and win; I would say all I knew, happen what
might.... But my counsel begged me to let him conduct my defence, and
warned me, now that my trial was approaching, as he had warned me before
the _Instruction_. "If you attack any one, you are lost," he would say;
"be calm, answer questions, and let _me_ do everything at your trial."

When would that trial take place? When should I be free? I kept asking
those two questions of Maitre Aubin, who, alas! could give me no
definite answer.

The summer had passed; the autumn had come. Through the iron bars of my
window I saw the leaves fall one by one from the trees in the yard, and
the prison and the sky were again grey and dreary, as on that November
day, a year before, when I awoke to find myself for the first time in a
prison cell. I knew every one in the prison now, and every stone. I knew
every cat and many of the pigeons, which I had named.

Marthe came three times a week. The Sisters were more attentive and
devoted than ever. Pastor Arboux and the Catholic Chaplain visited me as
regularly as ever, and Juliette did her utmost to make my life more
bearable; but the end of a journey is always the most trying part to
body and mind, and then I was not sure, in spite of my absolute
innocence, that the end of my terrible journey was at hand. I had been
treated with such injustice, and, as I knew only too well, opinion was
so much against me, that at times I imagined that I should be found
guilty. But I argued with Sister Leonide, or Juliette, or... myself, and
Hope sprang eternal in my frozen heart.

[Illustration:

Photo by Claude Harris, London

OBJECTS I USED IN PRISON

Slippers made by myself.

Penny looking-glass--only kind allowed by the prison authorities.

Blunt knife. Salt Cellar. Jug. Basin.

Coffee Strainer--made by myself with fire-wood sticks, some linen and
wire taken from my hat.

Breadbasket--made by myself with paper.]

I had now been over eleven months in prison. November had come, with its
dull skies and monotonous rains. My cell was dark again, and damper than
ever. Juliette "read" the cards five, eight, ten times a day for me, and
told me every time that my innocence would appear to all, and that I
should be triumphantly acquitted.... It is wonderful what cards can say,
or be made to say.

I knew the dossier by heart now in spite of its two million words. But
the opening day of the trial, although every second brought me nearer to
it, seemed to become more hopelessly distant. I sat on my rush chair by
the open window and tried to take an interest in what I saw, although I
knew it all so well. The drizzling rain drifted in through the wire
trellis and the iron bars, and cooled my burning forehead. I pressed my
hands flat against the trellis to cool them too, and sometimes, in a
gust of frenzy at the thought of my imprisonment, I convulsively
clutched both the bars and the trellis, and shook and shook them as if I
thought I could shake them to pieces.

I heard that my trial was to begin at the Assize Court on Wednesday,
November 3rd (1909), at noon.

Towards the end of October I had had a long talk with my daughter, and
we had agreed that it would be better for me--and her--if she did not
come again to Saint-Lazare. Her visits gave me life, but at the same
time we could not help talking about the impending and momentous trial.
Marthe wept bitterly, and the sight of her tears made me lose the
courage and strength I so much needed to enable me to face the terrible
ordeal.

"I will come at the end of your trial to see you acquitted, mother!" had
been the last words of my beloved daughter.

I had long talks with my counsel. He urged me to be calm and discreet.
Above all, he entreated me not to mention any "new" fact, and not to
speak of President Faure or the judges I had known intimately; in
short, he repeated what he had said to me before the _Instruction_.

I promised everything. I had the greatest confidence in my counsel, and
he had sworn to me that I should be acquitted if only I did as he told
me. I threatened, however, to break all my promises if there were women
at my trial. I was thinking chiefly of _one_ woman, the wife of a most
prominent personage--at the time--the very woman who had visited
President Faure shortly before my arrival at the Elysee on that fatal
February 16th, 1899. I could not bear the idea that _she_ might be in
the court, smiling sarcastically at my misfortune and my shame--she
free, powerful, perhaps even respected, and I a prisoner accused of
murder!... Let not the reader think that there was or could be a
question of jealousy between that woman and me. She hated me in those
days when President Faure honoured me not only with his friendship but
with his confidence, and she had hated me ever since. For my own part, I
had not worried over her, but I had warned the President time after time
against her, for it was she who had urged him to adopt that dangerous
remedy from the abuse of which I have no doubt he died.... I thought of
other women, too: "friends," who after seeing me for fifteen years in my
salon now find it "amusing" to watch me in a Court of Assize.... Ah! Let
not the reader speak of Spite, Jealousy, or Malice! I had but one
thought: to be acquitted, to escape from that Inferno, and to be once
more near my child. But I needed all my reason and all my strength for
that trial, and I felt that if around me I saw women laugh at my misery,
my grief would be greater, the trial more painful, victory more
difficult to achieve!...

Did Maitre Aubin take some steps or not? I cannot say, nor do I wish to
know. But I was shown, shortly before the opening of the trial, a
cutting from _Le Temps_, I believe, which stated that M. de Valles would
not allow any ladies to be present at the Steinheil trial.

On Sunday, October 31, my counsel remained with me most of the day,
giving me his final words of advice and warning.

Personally, I did not know any longer what to do, or say, or think. I
was exhausted, bewildered, worn, a prey to a thousand and one
conflicting thoughts and emotions. For eighteen months my life had been
a martyrdom; no sorrow, no pain, no insult, no trial had been spared me,
and now I longed for peace, for sleep, for oblivion. Nothing else
mattered.

On Monday, November 1, I was told that I should be sent for the next day
at 2 P.M. and taken to the Palace of Justice. Several of the Sisters
remained a long time in my cell. Pastor Arboux called and prayed with
me. The old chaplain, M. Doumergue, played the organ in the chapel, then
he came to my cell and gave me his blessing.... I could not sleep during
the night, and poor Juliette, with her usual kindness, remained, hour
after hour, seated near my bed, talking to me, cheering me, comforting
me....

The next morning--Tuesday, November 2--Sister Leonide brought me my hat,
cloak and gloves; and the Sisters came once more to say that they had
prayed for me and to ask me to trust in the Almighty: I would be
acquitted, they all knew it; my innocence would be victoriously
revealed. They could hardly speak, and I was so moved that words failed
me when I tried to thank them all....

A clock struck two, I had been ready since noon. No one came. Three
o'clock, four, five, six, eight, ten o'clock! Still no one.... Then
Sister Leonide entered my cell and said: "You will not go to-day; they
will come and fetch you to-morrow at five in the morning, my poor
child!"

I had been walking up and down my cell for over ten hours! Sister
Leonide compelled me to eat a little. I went to bed, assisted by
Juliette, and I fell asleep and dreamed of Marthe.

Sister Leonide awoke me at 4 A.M., for, at five, I would be sent for....
And my trial was to begin at noon! I felt very tired and sleepy.
Juliette kissed me good-bye. Sister Leonide asked me to remember
Saint-Lazare--and her--sometimes, and she too gave me a blessing. Then,
after a look round the cell where I had been imprisoned for nearly a
year, and a last hand-shake with Juliette, I walked out into the
"Boulevard of the Cells" and followed Sister Leonide. That the prisoners
might not know of my departure, the gong was not rung. I walked as in a
trance. But all the time, I thought of my arrival at Saint-Lazare a year
before! A year!... I had spent a year within the walls of a prison!...

It was cold, very cold, and the silence was awe-inspiring. I thanked
Sister Leonide for all that she had done for me, but there must have
been more gratitude in my eyes than in my words.... Then, I was led to a
carriage and driven to the _Depot_ before I fully realised that I had
left Saint-Lazare--probably for ever!

On the way, I looked at Paris, that vast city which for me had lost its
meaning.... I counted the lamp-posts we passed, watched the few people I
saw, threw a glance at the Seine, the waters of which seemed to be made
of molten lead, cold and motionless. A fine drizzle struck my face
through my mourning veil as I stepped out of the carriage and entered
the _Depot_....

There, the Sister Superior with the beautiful and pathetic face was
awaiting me. She begged me to lie down on the bed in the cell, and I
gladly obeyed, but at 8.30 A.M., I felt so restless that I rose and
paced my cage. The aged Sister of Mercy came, and I heard that hundreds
of poor wretches had spent the night outside the Palace of Justice in
order to sell their "seats" to persons anxious to be present at my
trial. I was told afterwards that such "seats" fetched from twenty-five
to one hundred francs (L1 to L4), and that a few morbid amateurs of
sensational spectacles paid as much as L10 and even L15 for the
privilege of standing at the back of the court in the small and
overcrowded "public" enclosure, to watch a woman struggling to prove her
innocence.

I was asked to be "quite ready" by 11 A.M. I was ready in every way,
except mentally, for as the hour drew near when I would appear before my
judges, I felt my strength ebb from me. It all seemed so useless, so
utterly absurd, to be innocent and yet to have to prove one's innocence,
to fight for one's life!...

Some one--the Director at the _Depot_ perhaps--told me I should need all
the presence of mind, all the will and all the power of arguing at my
command, and I heard to my unspeakable disgust that recently--yes,
before my trial--the _Matin_ had published _in extenso_ the text of the
_Indictment_ against me!




CHAPTER XXIX

THE TRIAL


I was at last taken to the guards' room, close to the Court of Assize.
Whilst I sat in a corner I heard a municipal guard say to another: "Look
at her dress! The papers are wrong!"

Later, I discovered the meaning of this remark. It appears that some
well-intentioned newspaper had informed its readers that I had had a
wonderful mourning-dress made by Worth or Paquin especially for the
trial! As a matter of fact, I wore the very dress and the same toque in
which I had arrived at Saint-Lazare a year before!

I also heard that, apart from judges, jurymen, witnesses, officials of
the court, barristers, representatives of the press, and a very limited
attendance of the public at the back of the Court (the law stipulates
that trials must be public), no one would be allowed to be present.

A number of persons came to give me all kinds of contradictory advice.
"Don't be haughty," said one, "for that would displease the jury";
"Don't look depressed or ashamed, for that would suggest guilt," said
another; one barrister recommended me not to look "unnatural," and some
one else urged me not to look "natural, for an innocent woman accused of
murder could not possibly look herself at her trial!" M. Desmoulin said:
"I'll be present at the trial and remain to the end, not far from you.
Your agony is nearing its end. Be brave, and, above all, do as your
counsel tells you, and change or add nothing to your previous
statements." Dr. Socquet--whom I had never seen before, but who was most
devoted and useful to me all through that harrowing trial--gave me a
soothing potion to drink. Meanwhile the guards smoked their pipes and
their cigarettes, and watched me--a few in a suspicious and disagreeable
manner, but most of them with kindness and sympathy.

I could hear a great buzz of excitement coming from the Court: the noise
of hundreds of feet and hundreds of voices, exclamations, bursts of
laughter even--exactly like the buzz one hears at a theatre, on a first
night, before the curtain goes up. My heart beat within me like a heavy
hammer. My head throbbed with pain and fever as if it would burst, and
my hands and feet were icy cold.

A voice suddenly said, close to me: "Come, Madame."

I rose automatically and, between two municipal guardsmen, walked along
a short passage. A door was opened before me. I stepped into the Court
of Assize and entered the dock. There were guards near me and behind me.
Absolute silence reigned. Everything was dark... so dark. I shuddered.
Then I heard voices just before and a little below me: my three counsel
were there standing by their bench, talking to me, encouraging me. I
threw my veil back over my hat and shoulders and tried to listen to
Maitre Aubin and his secretaries. Gradually I grew used to the
surroundings. When I raised my head--it seemed ages, but was probably a
few seconds only after I had entered the dock--I saw, first of all, a
group of men wrapped in shadow--the jury--in a dock similar to mine,
just opposite me under large windows through which filtered the dismal
light of a rainy November day. I felt the light on my face. Near the
jury, at a kind of desk, was seated a man in a red robe, whom I knew
well: M. Trouard-Riolle, the Advocate-General, with a hawklike face, a
bald scalp, a receding forehead, a thin long nose, ferrety eyes behind a
pince-nez, a double chin, and a fat neck, knitted brows and sneering
lips under a narrow close-cropped moustache.... Between the jury and me
was the well of the Court, a wide space, empty save for a semi-circular
bar, held on three uprights--the witness-bar--and a table on which I saw
the "exhibits": gags of wadding, an alpenstock, the brandy bottle, coils
of cord too....

On the right, at a few yards from me, on a platform, sits M. de Valles,
with a judge on either side of him. All three wear red robes. M. de
Valles toys with an ivory paper knife. Before him is placed the huge
dossier of my case, that extraordinary dossier which I know by heart. In
the shadow, behind the three judges' arm-chairs are a number of persons,
"guests of honour," I presume. On the left of the dock are scores of
barristers in their black gowns and white rabats, including one or two
women-barristers. Behind them, tightly pressed together, a small army of
journalists, and at the other end of the Court, behind a wooden
partition, the public: "_les cent veinards_" (the "hundred lucky ones"),
as I was told later on, those privileged few were called who had bought
the right to stand there, from the poor wretches who spent night and day
outside the Palace of Justice to sell their place to the highest bidder,
shortly before noon (at which time the doors were thrown open and just
one hundred "members of the public" admitted).

I have no clear recollection of what took place at first. I only
remember a mass of faces floating, as it were, on a dark ocean of black
gowns and clothes. The only touches of colour were the white scarves of
the barristers and the scarlet gowns of the judges.

I seemed to have no strength left, and yet never had I so much needed
physical and moral strength.

A clerk read aloud, in a monotonous voice, the terrible indictment. I
knew it by heart... and so perhaps did everybody else, since it had been
published....

Meanwhile I watched the jury. So these were the men who would, in a few
days, decide whether I had or not murdered my husband and my mother....
I wondered what they thought and who was who--for a list of their names
and occupations had been shown me the day before. It included four
"proprietors," two mechanics, one bricklayer, one baker, two commercial
clerks, one cook and one musician....

I looked at the heavy decorated ceiling with the sunk panels adorned
with the sword and scales of Justice; and my eyes wandered to the wall
behind M. de Valles and the two other judges....

Years ago, I had visited this Court of Assize to admire my friend
Bonnat's great "Christ" on that wall, but the Christ was no longer
there. It had been removed after the Law separating Church and State had
been passed!

Suddenly, I heard M. de Valles' voice ordering me to rise....

The duel began.

I made a supreme effort to stop my distracted mind from whirling round
and round. I had been twelve months in prison; I had been for seventeen
months a prey to every conceivable emotion, and had gone through such
harrowing and nerve-racking experiences that every doctor who had seen
me failed to understand how it was that I had not lost my reason; and
now, after over five hundred days of continuous mental and physical
martyrdom, I had to fight the greatest battle of my existence.

M. de Valles kept his promise: he asked me at first a number of almost
indifferent questions about my childhood and my youth, and I had time to
collect myself to some extent.... But soon, very soon, the remarks I
heard were so revolting that I reeled under them. I had to deny, for
instance, that my father--whom, by now, the reader must have learned to
know and to love--was a drunkard, and to declare that my conduct was
irreproachable and could not have caused his death as was hinted....
Relentlessly, mercilessly, questions were asked me about my relations
with Lieut. Sheffer, at Beaucourt! I fought desperately, and then, worn
out by my own efforts, I almost collapsed, and could not help
sobbing....

An allusion was made to President Faure. I remembered my counsel's
entreaties, and when the Judge suggested that I should not conceal
anything, and that I should have no fear in mentioning names, however
exalted, I merely replied: "No, Monsieur le President, the man we are
thinking of is dead, and I will let the dead rest in peace."

M. de Valles spoke about my reticences, and my many contradictory
statements, and from a report of the trial I find that I replied: "For
hours at the time there were journalists near me, who declared that I
was lost unless I gave up 'my old system of defence' and 'made fresh
statements.' Everybody made different suggestions to me; I ceased to be
a woman and became almost a maniac. But would any woman in my
circumstances have done otherwise? I swear upon the head of my own
daughter, that my first statement about the three men in black gowns,
and the red-haired woman, is the truth."

"Come back to the point," said the judge. "You talk about too many
things at the same time. Be methodical in your replies."

"Methodical!... How can I speak as you would have me speak? At first I
thought I was accused of having lied, but for months I have known I was
accused of having murdered both my husband, whom I respected, and my
mother, whom I loved. And before such an accusation, you quietly ask me
to be methodical. I say things as they come to my mind. I speak with my
very heart, and there can be no question of my method!"...

Then I was interrogated about my "intrigues." The final questions of the
Judge at that first hearing referred to the last days of May 1908, and
it was clear that he wished to form his own opinion about the suggestion
that I had enticed my mother to stay at my house--in order to kill her
as well as my husband....

       *       *       *       *       *

My examination by the Judge took up the first three days of my trial.
Each hearing started at about noon, and ended between 5.30 and 6 P.M. I
may here state the essential points of the French procedure in such
cases.

After the reading of the Indictment by the Clerk of the Court, the
President interrogates the prisoner. After that, he examines the various
witnesses, who are then cross-examined by the Advocate-General, or
Public Prosecutor, and by the Counsel for the Defence, both however,
being only allowed to ask questions of the witnesses through the
President. After the witnesses have been examined and cross-examined
(this cross-examination being, as a rule, very brief), the
Advocate-General makes his speech, in which he asks generally for the
maximum punishment. Then the Counsel for the Defence speaks, at length,
and afterwards the Judge asks the prisoner if he, or she, has any
statement to make. He then tells the jury the question to which they are
requested to reply, and without any summing up by the Judge (or
_resume_, as it used to be called in France, when it was part of the
proceedings, until suppressed because it was found to be seldom
impartial!) the jury retire and deliberate. When the foreman returns,
followed by the eleven jurors, he stands up and renders the verdict
"before God and before men," and the Judge, after rapidly consulting
with his two colleagues, orders the prisoner to be brought in, and
pronounces sentence.

At the second hearing--on Thursday, November 4th, 1909--M. de Valles
dealt with the night of May 30th-31st, 1908. I repeated publicly the
statements I had made to M. Bouchotte, the Police-commissary, and to
Judge Leydet, a few hours after the crime; and to Judge Andre, eight
months later. M. de Valles, however, instead of raising objections,
instead of dismissing my "story" of the crime as a fable, and describing
the men in dark gowns as "black ghosts," was satisfied with questioning
me about certain reticences and contradictions of mine, and firmly, yet
fairly, endeavoured to throw as much light as possible on the baffling
mystery.

Still, the occasion was so intensely dramatic, there was such a terrible
keenness in the jurors' eyes, such bitter scorn on M. Trouard-Riolle's
lips, such strong emotions swayed the whole court, and such an ominous
hush fell over the vast hall where so many people had been tried for
their lives and sentenced to death, year after year, that cold
perspiration streamed from my forehead as I spoke, as I shouted the
truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth, as I cried out that I
was innocent.... I lived through the fatal night once more, and all the
time I saw my darling Marthe before me, standing in the centre of the
well, waiting for me, confidently waiting to see her mother
rehabilitated, acquitted, free.... The effort was superhuman and
poignant... and when I had finished speaking, explaining, struggling, I
sank on to my bench, and the two guards at my side rose and whispered:
"The sitting is adjourned; come outside, and rest, Madame." I could
hardly tear my hands from the wooden partition of the dock on which they
were fiercely clutched....

Doctor Socquet came to my assistance in the guards' room, where I had
been taken, and half an hour later a bell rang. I returned to the Court,
and the duel began once more. It had lasted only a short while, when
suddenly a letter was brought in to my counsel, who, after perusing it,
handed it to the President.

M. de Valles read the letter aloud: "To Maitre Aubin: As I can no longer
bear the weight of my crime, I have come to declare to you that I was an
accomplice in the murder of M. Steinheil. It was I who played the part
of the red-haired woman. I have the wig with me.--Jean Lefevre."

A young man with long dark hair, and a sallow complexion, and wearing a
shabby grey suit, was brought in and guided to the witnesses' bar. In a
dazed, hesitating manner, he declared that his name was Lefevre, that he
was twenty-one.... I eagerly looked at him, but he did not remind me of
any one I had seen on the night of the crime.

In answer to questions put to him by the President, he replied:

"I wrote that letter because I was an accomplice of the assassin. I was
dressed as a woman, and wore this red wig. We burnt the gowns in the
forest of Montmorency.... My friend is dead.... I dressed as a woman in
a dark street. My friend had a key.... I was like a madman, and followed
my friend, who said there was money.... We went upstairs with electric
pocket-lamps. I remained near the door of Mme. Steinheil's room. My
friend asked her where the money and the jewels were.... He disappeared
and came back.... Then we rushed down-stairs. Outside he told me that he
had found 8000 francs (L310). My friend went away without giving me
anything...."

It was clear that the young man was either a lunatic or a strange
impostor.

My examination was continued. There was a long argument about the
ink-stains found on the carpet and on my knee, and about the way in
which I was bound....

Tortured by the necessity of having to reply--satisfactorily--to
searching questions which to me, innocent as I was, seemed useless and
incomprehensible, rendered quite ill by the long and gruesome discussion
about the fatal night, I once more sank back, exhausted, on my bench,
and burst into a violent fit of weeping.... And that was only the end of
the second hearing of my trial which my counsel told me was to last at
least ten days!

Directly he had taken his seat the next day (Friday, November 5th), the
President turned to the jury, and said: "I owe you an explanation,
gentlemen, about the stupid incident which made us waste so much
valuable time yesterday. The young man whom you saw is not called
Lefevre; his real name is Rene Collard. He made up his mind to see Mme.
Steinheil. I thought I had taken all possible precautions to guard the
doors, but I had forgotten this extraordinary means of invasion. It has
been found that Collard wrote to M. Hamard, to M. Andre.... This young
man longed to see Mme. Steinheil. The incident is now closed."

After this, my ordeal began again.

The President questioned me about the "grandfather"-clock, in the hall,
which stopped at 12.12 on the night of the crime. After mentioning that
I said I had heard my mother cry: "Meg, Meg..." just after the last
stroke of the hour, he expressed his surprise that the murderers could
have killed two persons, gagged and bound a third, and ransacked
drawers--in twelve minutes.

I could have replied that possibly my husband had been murdered before I
heard my mother cry, that the murderers, as they left the house, might
have put the clock back, that they acted, no doubt, as quickly as
possible, especially if, as I have always been convinced, they came to
steal, not to kill.... But I had only one thought: I, Marguerite
Steinheil-Japy, am accused of murder!

And I kept repeating: "It is horrible! I have killed neither my husband
nor my mother." The President grew impatient, and I remembered crying
out: "Ah! you don't want me to protest. You don't want me to shout my
innocence. But what would be _your_ attitude if _you_ were accused of
having murdered your wife and your father? I protest, not against you,
Monsieur de Valles, but against the Law."

I apologised the next day to the President for this outburst, and I may
here state that since I have read the full report of that terrible
trial, of which, alas, I was the heroine, I have been struck even more
than at the trial itself--when I was too ill and too distraught to see
things in quite their proper light--by the absolute impartiality of M.
de Valles. He paid a tribute to my disinterestedness, to my activity and
qualities as a housewife, and when, later on, Couillard gave evidence,
he declared that he would not ask my valet to give his opinion about me,
adding: "I do not see the necessity of repeating the mere gossip and
twaddle of the servants' hall."

Only once did M. de Valles really deviate from his usual fair and
irreproachable attitude: he was questioning me about placing the pearl
in Couillard's pocket-book, and finding my answers were not
satisfactory, finding that I hesitated and sobbed, he exclaimed: "I
thought so!" Then turning to the jury, he added: "Gentlemen, watch this
clever woman. She collapses whenever I ask a question that she cannot
answer--watch her faint! The fainting scene is coming!" As a matter of
fact, I faltered and sobbed many, many times, but not once did I faint.

There were many fierce encounters between the President and me during
that third hearing, especially about the famous pearl, and I can do no
better than quote from a report of the trial:

"MADAME S. I had my suspicions against Couillard. He had stolen a letter
which my daughter had sent to her fiance, I was told dreadful things
about him. Also, I had almost lost my mind. I had no peace. I thought
Couillard knew something, and in order to make him speak, I placed the
pearl in his pocket-book."

"The Judge interrupts the prisoner, but she clamours entreatingly:
'Gentlemen of the jury, hear me, hear me!'

"She is sobbing as she speaks, and holds her head between her hands as
if she feared that it would bunt with the pain that she is enduring.
'If Couillard is not guilty and can say nothing, I thought, I will
confess to having placed the pearl in the pocket-book and he will be
released. Besides, when the letter was found on him, he exclaimed: "I am
caught. I shall not speak except before the judge." Was not this
suspicious, and was it not natural that in my anxiety to discover the
murderers, I should jump hastily to conclusions? I am speaking the
truth; I fear nothing.'

"THE PRESIDENT. 'You had no right to act as you did.'

"MADAME S. 'Does not the law use similar methods? I know something about
it.'

"THE PRESIDENT. 'I forbid you to insult the Law. You are here in
Court.'... (General uproar; M. Trouard-Riolle, M. de Valles and Maitre
Aubin all speak at the same time.)

"MADAME S. 'I know, I tell you I know. Examining magistrates torture
their prisoners, whether there exist proofs of their guilt or not, and
are ready to do anything to tear a confession from their victims.'

"THE PRESIDENT. 'You are speaking foolishly, Madame. For the honour of
the Law, I protest.'

"MADAME S. 'I have spoken the truth. I ought to know something about
examining magistrates....'"

Then the Advocate-General attacked me, and said that I was lying. My
counsel jumped up and shouted excitedly: "Sir, I forbid you to insult my
client!" There was another uproar, and when it had subsided, I explained
at length why I had accused Couillard and Wolff....

A few moments afterwards, the hearing came to an end, and I found myself
in my little cell at the _Depot_, surrounded by the kind Sisters of
_Marie Joseph_ and their _cornettes_ and wimples, and their long
pale-blue veils.

M. Desmoulin came to see me, and also Pastor Arboux, who, alas! through
some inconceivable injustice, was not allowed to be present in Court!
One of the Sisters gave me a special potion to soothe my nerves and to
help me to sleep. But at about 2 A.M. batches of street women were
brought in, and their cries, their insults to the Sisters, awoke me as I
lay restless, sleepless, on my straw-bed, for the rest of the night,
thinking of Marthe and wondering when the end of this terrible nightmare
would come. I wrote to my counsel, giving him further explanations,
beseeching him to say this or that.... And then I went to the chapel of
the Sisters. Not far from this pretty little chapel were the cells in
which Bailly, Danton, Camille Desmoulins, Madame Roland, and other great
figures of the Revolution had awaited execution.

With the fifth hearing--on Saturday, November 7th--began the examination
of the various witnesses. The first on the list was Remy Couillard, my
former valet. He walked quickly to the witness bar, a spare figure, with
slit-like eyes, a long nose, hollow cheeks, hair cut very short, large
awkward hands, and wearing the uniform of a dragoon--for he was serving
his term in the army now.

Couillard took the oath amid an impressive silence--for, as I had been
told, he was generally considered as the "pivot of the accusation." He
began to tell quickly, the story of how he heard me, on May 30th, 1908,
at 5.45 A.M., cry "Remy, Remy!" and how he found me bound on the bed in
my daughter's room. To every one's amazement, my former valet made
statements entirely different from those he made on the morning after
the night of the crime. He said, for instance, that he had first undone
the cords binding my feet to the bed-posts, and then those with which my
wrists were secured; that a blanket and a sheet covered me entirely;
that my hands were placed "over one another and resting on the stomach,"
and that there was no rope round my body....

Maitre Aubin, of course, reminded Couillard that he had stated, on May
31st, 1908, that my clothes had slipped up round my neck, that my hands
were tied behind and above my head to the bed-posts, that a rope was
passed over my body and under the bed, and that after he had first of
all undone the cords fastening the wrists, he had with M. Lecoq's
assistance undone those round my feet.

Intense excitement prevailed in Court, as Couillard swore he had just
spoken the truth, and as my counsel read to him the document written on
the morning after the crime under Couillard's dictation, as it were, and
_signed_ by him.

These complete contradictions in my former valet's statements were
naturally most favourable to me.

Indeed, it is not the least strange fact about that extraordinary trial,
which was crowded with incidents, that the evidence given by most of the
"witnesses for the Prosecution" was so obviously malicious and partial
or clashed to such an extent with evidence previously given by these
witnesses that it greatly told in my favour and proved my innocence,
whilst, on the other hand, a number of so-called "witnesses for the
defence" in their anxiety to serve me, went too far, and by their
exaggerations, rather harmed than helped my cause!

As for Remy Couillard, he had been five days in Prison because I had
accused him and had placed a pearl in his pocket-book. I owed him a
public apology, and I made it in all sincerity. "I know how I wronged
you. You hate me, but I have suffered terribly. I repeat I regret what I
did to you. Forgive me." My former valet turned to me and replied: "It's
all right, Madame, I have nothing against you."...

After the written evidence of M. Lecoq had been read--for this engineer
who had first heard Couillard's calls for help, was then travelling in
America--there walked to the witnesses' bar, M. Albert Bonnot, a painter
of nearly sixty, who in 1880 had married one of M. Steinheil's sisters.
His studio was only separated from our garden by a small wall.

M. Bonnot explained that at one time his wife and he had been on
affectionate terms with me, until some ten years before, when they
severed their relations, but he remained the friend and collaborator of
his brother-in-law. He then went on to state that "M. Steinheil, a few
months before the crime, was profoundly depressed," and added that "when
her husband was ill, Mme. Steinheil never looked after him but went
away, anywhere, for three or four months at a time."

This was more than I could stand and, jumping up, under the sting of
this false accusation obviously uttered to ruin me in the eyes of the
jury, I exclaimed vehemently: "When my husband was ill, _Monsieur_, I
nursed him with a devotion to which doctors and others will no doubt
pay a tribute in this court, when the time comes."

M. Bonnot continued: "I saw my poor brother-in-law kneeling and his head
hanging back. He was cold and stiff.... His clothes were neatly folded
on a chair. Everything was in perfect order. There was no blood and no
traces of steps.... I also saw the body of Mme. Japy. Then I left the
place."

THE PRESIDENT. "You saw those two corpses and left without going to Mme.
Steinheil?"

M. BONNOT. "I disliked her."

M. Bonnot forgot to say to the Judge that on that very day (May 31st,
1908), he had angrily exclaimed, in the veranda before a number of
witnesses--who all repeated it to me: "There's no mistake about it; that
wretched woman upstairs did the deed!" M. Buisson, M. Boeswilwald and
several other persons who heard this shameful remark were so disgusted,
that, losing their temper, they threatened to throw M. Bonnot bodily out
of the house.

The next witness was M. Adolphe Geoffroy, a sculptor, who had also
married a sister of M. Steinheil. He too made a bitter attack on me.

That painful hearing, during which I had been insulted by members of my
late husband's own family, ended with the depositions of M. Bertillon,
the world-famous anthropometrical expert, who declared that it had been
impossible to identify several of the finger-prints on the
brandy-bottle, and of Dr. Lefevre who denied having ever said, "It is
all a sham," concerning the way in which I was bound, but that he
thought I had been securely bound.

After the hearing had been adjourned, barristers, doctors, officers, and
guards eagerly pressed around me and congratulated me. "It is going
splendidly; you'll win; there's nothing against you; the Prosecution
will never recover from the blows it has received."... They all seemed
to speak about some wrestling bout or boxing match.... I could not
understand. To me it seemed so obvious that the Prosecution could not
help realising the truth: my complete innocence.... And at the same
time I thought of M. Andre, who, months ago, had heard the same
evidence, and yet had not hesitated one second to conclude that I was
guilty of having murdered my husband and my mother! And the awful
thought entered my head that possibly the jury would share in his
blindness, and that, in spite of my evident innocence, I would be
condemned to death... or to lifelong imprisonment!...

I shuddered, hastily thanked all these unknown friends, all these
sympathisers around me, and hastened to my cell, where the Sister
Superior joined me and comforted me.

The Director of the _Depot_ also stayed a short time in my dreary cell
and spoke very kindly to me, and later I listened to the Sisters singing
in the chapel of the _Conciergerie_, just as I had listened for a whole
year, night after night, to the Sisters at Saint-Lazare.

The next morning, as every morning, came Pastor Arboux. Afterwards I saw
the Sister Superior, but most of that endless Sunday I was left alone
and walked about in one of the yards... in order to warm myself, the
cell being bitterly cold.

The next day, Monday, November 8th, after M. Arboux's visit, I went to
the chapel as usual, until I was told that "my" two guards were waiting
for me.

When the Judge and his colleagues entered after the usher had shouted
"_La Cour, Messieurs_" (The Court, Gentlemen!), everybody rose and then
sat down again, but I remained standing--and I did so all through the
trial--in order to hear M. de Valles tell me: "Sit down, _Madame_." That
one word "Madame," instead of the word "Accused," usual in such cases,
was a source of great joy to me. It almost reconciled me with the world
and with my terrible position.

"Madame," only a little word, but it seemed to show that in the eyes of
my Judge I was not yet found guilty, that the dreadful accusation had
not yet been proved, and that to him at least I was still a woman--and a
lady.... And day after day I waited for those welcome, refreshing words,
"_Asseyez vous, Madame_."

A number of witnesses came and gave evidence, including my doctor, M.
Acheray, who contradicted himself once or twice, and thus roused the
anger of the Advocate-General, who exclaimed: "You are constantly
contradicting yourself. It is really amazing, and (here, a wild
gesture)... you can go!"

A great uproar ensued; there were exclamations of protest, and M.
Trouard-Riolle, turning to the public, cried with a sneer: "I do as I
please, and laugh at your comments!" which remark only increased the
uproar....

I wondered how it would all end. What did it all mean? Everybody was
talking at the same time; I could hear and see men speak excitedly and
even laugh. Why those personal discussions between the prosecution and
witnesses?... And all the time I was enduring an unspeakable agony,
which increased with each hearing. Did everybody then, except myself,
forget that I was accused of a ghastly murder?...

I wept.... And then doctors and experts succeeded one another at the
witnesses' bar.... It was horrible to listen to those gruesome
details.... Dr. Courtois-Suffit declared that he believed my mother had
been killed before my husband, and that there was more than one
murderer. Dr. Augier stated that he utterly failed to find any trace of
poison or narcotic in the bodies of the victims, and Dr. Balthazard made
a lengthy lecture about the autopsy, the spots found on the carpet, the
cotton wool gags and what not.... It was all technical, so far-fetched,
so useless, that I tried not to listen, and for once my eyes wandered to
the left of the Court, where barristers, journalists and the public were
densely packed.

I saw M. Renouard, M. Scott, M. Sem and other artists making sketches,
and various photographers furtively taking snapshots. There was M.
Claretie, Director of the _Theatre Francais_; M. Bernstein, the
well-known playwright; M. Paul Adam, the gifted author.... I saw several
of the Inspectors who, for months, had followed clues and done their
best to assist me.... I saw the white-haired Rochefort, the famous
journalist whose inexhaustible fund of combativeness was allowed, decade
after decade, to attack anybody and everybody. In the days of Napoleon
III he was attacking M. de Morny and the Imperial Government in the
_Figaro_; later, he attacked the Republic. He had been a frenzied
Boulangist and a frenzied Anti-Dreyfusard; now he was a frenzied
Anti-Steinheilist, if I may invent this word. _Day after day, during my
trial_, he published an article against me. Later, I saw some of these
articles, and found they were written in the most abusive, rankling and
savage style. There was hardly an insult that was not hurled at me in
those exasperated--and exasperating--onslaughts, and the irrepressible
"Rochefort," the Marquis of Rochefort-Lucay, after exhausting his usual
vocabulary of scorn, defamation and scurrility, found a wonderful name
for me, an elegant, refined, picturesque name, which he repeated in all
his articles; he called me "the Black Panther"!...

After the hearing--and between the brief adjournments which the Judge
granted when I was too exhausted or too ill--batches of letters were
handed me.... Among them were love-letters, including daily messages
from an important personage in the Court, and an "ardent admirer."...
The bitter irony of it all!...

I was so excited and demoralised that the next day, finding that I was
being once more tortured with questions, to which I had already answered
again and again, I exclaimed: "Do not exasperate me any more.... So far,
I have shown complete discretion, but if I am driven to it, I shall
cease to be discrete!" My counsel jumped up from his bench in front of
me and beseeched me to be calm, I even think he threatened to leave the
court if I talked that way again.... Poor Maitre Aubin! How glad he must
have been when the trial was over!...

At that sixth hearing, a number of minor witnesses were heard; M.
Souloy, the jeweller, from whose evidence the fact stood out that of the
twelve jewels belonging to me and the eleven belonging to my mother,
eighteen were never found; M. Boin who admitted that in some cases, at
least, I possessed double sets of identical jewels; M. and Mme.
Chabrier, and others.... But the chief depositions were those of M.
Hutin and M. de Labruyere of "Night of the Confession" fame!

M. de Labruyere spoke in a doleful way, but M. Hutin made an attempt at
cheap humour. He said, for instance: "Madame Steinheil was in a
terrible state of depression--so was I," and "One may be a journalist
and still be a man, especially in the presence of a woman."

After he had politely bowed in my direction, M. de Labruyere gave
evidence and made a narrative of the "Night of the Confession" which was
transferred, as it were, from M. Hutin's speech, and of course he denied
that he or his colleague had in the least bullied me.

I may state here that the whole "audience"--excepting, naturally, the
magistrates--gave vent to unmistakable expressions of indignation at the
conduct of certain "enterprising" journalists in my case.

The next day, my cook, Mariette Wolff, was called to the witnesses' bar.
It is said that one cannot easily describe the persons one knows best,
and I will therefore quote the word-sketch of Mariette made by a writer
present at the trial, and the resume of her evidence.

"Mariette looks an old peasant woman from one of Balzac's novels. She is
small and round. Her few grey hairs are brushed back from her wrinkled
forehead. Her nose is strong, and her eyes are terrible--but when she
wants to, she can soften their expression. There is hardly any interval
between the nose and the stubborn little chin, which reminds one of a
dried-up crabapple. She gives one an extraordinary impression of
strength, shrewdness, and obstinacy. One can clearly see that she will
not say more than she wants, and that no power on earth can make her
speak against her will. She wears an old black dress, a piece of fur,
and a modest black bonnet. Quite firmly, she takes up her position at
the witnesses' bar, and raising her big yellow hands, she takes the oath
in a gruff voice, without a shade of hesitation or nervousness.

"Mme. Steinheil, on whose features the long hours of the trial are
telling, follows the movement of her former cook with great
intentness....

"In answer to the President's questions, Mariette declares that she was
born in 1854, and has been a widow for over fifteen years. She first
knew the Steinheils sixteen years ago.

"THE PRESIDENT. 'Was Mme. Steinheil on good terms with your children?'

"'Yes; she knew them all.'

"M. de Valles begins to ask Mariette a number of insidious questions,
but the old woman is wonderfully sharp. She has a knack of not
committing herself which causes amusement and admiration.

"It is quite obvious from the outset that she will do her utmost to
shield her former mistress.

"'Mme. Steinheil was a good housewife, wasn't she?' asks the President
gently.

"'Yes, M. le President.'

"'And she helped you with the work?'

"'She did.'

"'Even with the heavy work?'

"'Yes.'

"'And she was strong, wasn't she? She could raise pieces of furniture,
couldn't she?'

"But the old woman had seen the trap. She realises--as well as we all
do--in spite of her apparent simplicity, that the Judge, if she replies
to this question in the affirmative, will deduce that a person who can
displace heavy furniture would have strength enough to strangle some one
and drag a dead body about. Mariette quietly replied: 'My mistress did
what she could, like anybody else.'

"M. de Valles nibbles his paper-cutter, raises his eyebrows, and sighs.

"His interrogatory now deals with the _Vert-Logis_, the Steinheils'
villa at Bellevue, near Paris. 'Mme. Steinheil had many lovers,' he
says. Maitre Aubin rectifies: 'Many visitors you mean.'

"THE PRESIDENT. 'Mme. Wolff, I want you to tell the jury whether you
remember having heard Mme. Steinheil exclaim shortly after the murder:
"At last, I am free!" You have admitted it during the inquiry.'

"'She was ill at the time and she certainly did not mean that she
rejoiced at being a widow. Women say a lot of things when they are ill.
She probably meant that she was glad her nurse had left the room, for
she cared little for her.'

"Mariette never commits herself. She reminds one forcibly of the Norman
peasant who being asked for his opinion on the apple crop replied: 'You
can't say there are apples, because there are no apples, but you can't
say there are no apples, because there are apples.'

"The President continues his interrogations: 'Did Mme. Steinheil love
her husband? You ought to know, for no one knows more about people than
their servants.'

"'Servants see everything but should say nothing.'

"'It has been established that Mme. Steinheil once sent her husband to
his studio....'

"'Well, what does that prove? Even the most devoted of wives lose their
temper at times....'

"'Did Mme. Steinheil love her mother?'

"'When Mme. Japy came, she was welcomed...."

"'Then how do you explain that Mme. Steinheil once said: "Mother
again"?'

"'Even the best of daughters can say a thing like that.'

"'Mme. Steinheil sent you some time after the crime to Vert-Logis to
fetch a little box which we believed contained her jewels. What was
there in that box?'

"'I don't know. Servants are not supposed to know what such parcels
contain.'

"'You are a model servant,' says the President ironically.

"'I am not a model, thank you.'

"'Did you take your mistress' dressing-gown to the dyers after the
crime?'

"'I don't remember. It is possible'....

"'Did you know anything about the tapestries which disappeared from the
studio on the night of the crime?'

"'I have never seen them.'

"'Then you are in contradiction with Mme. Steinheil?'

"'I have nothing to do with the studio; I very seldom venture in... I am
a cook and my place is in the kitchen.'

"The President then asks very quickly, in order to catch her, a number
of questions about the facts which immediately preceded and followed the
eventful night, but it is a case of amnesia... Mariette remembers
nothing. 'After all those horrors,' she says, 'our minds have become
blanks.'

"The President now deals with what happened on the other fatal night,
the 'Night of the Confession.'

"'What happened on November 25th, in the evening?'

"Three journalists who were continually pestering us, Messrs. de
Labruyere, Hutin and Barby, arrived at seven-thirty. Madame only came at
nine.'...

"'Did you listen at the door? Witnesses have asserted it.'

"'It is false. Let them come and say it to me.' Mariette is quite angry.

"'When your mistress went to bed, you had a long talk with her?'

"'Is not that natural? The poor woman, she looked like a corpse; she
asked me for strychnine. She wanted to die and I kept on repeating:
"It's all right... be calm." And then, when I saw M. Barby listening
behind, I told him: "You have no business here. Clear out."'

"Mariette uses the strongest expression in the French language to order
a rapid exit. She speaks so vehemently, and, it must be added,
convincingly, that every one in the Court is impressed. Once more there
is a general murmur of disapproval at the conduct of certain
journalists."

       *       *       *       *       *

M. de Balincourt made a brief appearance. He stammered a few words, and
went away.

M. Bdl. was the next witness, and disclosed that he had never
entertained the idea of marrying. He concluded his evidence with the
words: "I am convinced of Mme. Steinheil's absolute innocence." He was
followed at the witnesses' bar by one of his friends, M. Martin, who,
after stating that there had never been any question of marriage between
M. Bdl. and me, turned towards me and said: "Madame, you have been
shockingly abandoned by all, but you have my full esteem."

_Thursday, November 11._ The trial enters upon its final stage. A few
witnesses come and give evidence, all of them favourable to me.... One
of them, Inspector Pouce, bravely exclaims: "If Mme. Steinheil had told
me she was guilty, I would not have believed her."...

Then there enters a man with military bearing, whom I can hardly
recognise, but whose voice, when he takes the oath, sends a thrill
through my broken frame. I recognise him now.... It is Sheffer, the
friend of my youth, my _fiance_ for a few months, my first love... over
twenty years ago!... Tears come into my eyes, and I hide my head between
my hands....

Beaucourt!... My beloved father.... The avenue of chestnut trees... our
meetings... our charming, innocent idyll....

M. Sheffer, softly, sadly, tells the story of our beautiful, our sweet
romance.... I was eighteen then, and the happiest girl on earth, with a
devoted mother and the best of all fathers.... And the young lieutenant
loved me, and I loved him.... Life was beautiful, and the future smiled
on me....

And there stands my fiance.... I have not seen him for over twenty
years. He stands there at the bar. I can feel his eyes resting on me in
a kindly way, from time to time, as he recalls the past.... "She was a
charming young girl, refined, modest, artistically inclined.... She
worshipped her father and her mother.... Marguerite is incapable of
having committed the monstrous crime imputed to her...." My God! My God!
And I am that Marguerite Japy, and I sit in a prisoner's dock, and I am
being tried for murder.... Is there no justice in this world! How much
longer shall I be wrongly accused? How much longer am I to suffer? Has
my martyrdom not lasted enough, then....

M. Sheffer ceases speaking.... I hear him turn round to leave the Court.
I raise my head, and our eyes meet.... There is tender pity in his eyes;
there are tears in mine.... Oh! when will it all end?

The worst is coming. The Advocate-General rises, and throws back his red
sleeves. The most tragic hour has come.... What horrible accusations
will he make? What punishment will he ask for the crime I have never
committed!...




CHAPTER XXX

THE SPEECH FOR THE PROSECUTION--THE SPEECH FOR THE DEFENCE


Dusk has fallen. An attendant clicks the switches on, one after the
other, with a sharp, dry sound of rattling bones, and the Court is
flooded with light. That little noise and the sudden light jar my nerves
and hurt me.... I am no longer a normal human being. I do not know, at
times, who I am or where I am, or what is going on around me.... Still,
I know this tall man opposite, and I can read in his bloodshot eyes that
he means to do me all the harm he can. I hold tight to the wooden
partition before me; if I let go, I feel I shall fall.... And I must
not, I will not, fall, at this supreme hour. I think of Marthe....

In a deep, harsh voice, M. Trouard-Riolle begins:

"Gentlemen of the jury, you have sat throughout eight hearings with the
utmost patience. You have heard eighty witnesses. You have heard the
experts. The voluminous dossier has been gone through by the President
exhaustively.... The work and the strain have been truly terrible...."

Now he reviews my life story.... Every fact, every incident, from the
days when I was a little girl of five, is turned and twisted into
something damaging to my cause. Murmurs of disapproval punctuate this
monstrous speech by the Public Prosecutor, but he goes on, implacably;
and as he flings out his accusations as if they were personal attacks,
as if he loathed me and wished the whole world to know it, his eyes
blaze more and more fiercely....

There exist _no proofs whatever_ of my guilt, but, like M. Andre, M.
Trouard-Riolle is convinced that I am guilty, and this is enough. He is
there to prosecute, to accuse, to call for the heaviest sentence, and he
does so relentlessly, scornfully, wildly. And he seems to enjoy his
"great" task.

He has not spoken for five minutes before he brands me--he is dealing
with my childhood--as a consummate coquette, and a liar!

According to him, the parents of M. Sheffer must have had good reasons
to object to the union of their son with the dangerous Marguerite!...
According to him, I married M. Steinheil because he had distinguished
connections and resided in Paris, and because I was anxious to shine in
society.... "To shine, indeed, has ever been her great ambition, and she
did not stop at anything to achieve her ends!"... Now he deals with my
love-affairs. I am not only a _comedienne_ and a dangerous _liar_, I am
not only an immoral, but a _mercenary_ woman! M. Trouard-Riolle quite
forgets that M. de Valles paid a glowing tribute, a day or two ago, to
my "absolute disinterestedness," and thunders forth that I am a low,
shrewd, calculating business-woman!...

While M. Trouard-Riolle goes on criticising my home-life, I wonder how
_he_ dare judge _me_!... I want to speak, to cry out what I feel, but my
three counsel entreat me once more to be calm, and Maitre Aubin, with
that shrewd _bonhomie_ so typical of him, whispers to me: "Let him
blindly accuse you... he is merely making my task easier!"

M. Trouard-Riolle explains that there are two women in "that creature!":
the woman with the musical, enchanting, caressing voice, who conquers
and deceives, and the woman who threatens, attacks, and stops at
nothing.

"The motive of the crime was the anxiety of Mme. Steinheil to make a
rich marriage, because she hated her husband and was in financial
distress," and then comes this dramatic and unexpected declaration:
"Mme. Steinheil has murdered her husband with or without the assistance
of an accomplice. _But that the accusation of matricide it not
sufficiently established...._

_Friday, November 12._ M. Trouard-Riolle continues his speech for the
Prosecution. I have reached the extreme limit of physical and mental
endurance. I breathe with the greatest difficulty, and can hardly open
my eyes. During the night, I have suffered from a terrible nervous
attack, and time after time, doctors have come to my assistance. I
clutch the partition in front of me, but cannot feel it. My senses are
numb, all except my hearing, alas....

M. Trouard-Riolle, speaks, speaks, speaks--his speech lasts altogether
for nearly seven hours.

...There was no struggle, no violence; the whole affair was a sham... he
explains. The lock of the door was not tampered with, and a false key
could not have been used since the real key was found in the lock on the
inside.... Therefore, Mme. Steinheil herself opened the door to admit
her accomplice!... Pay no attention to M. Bdl's. attitude, gentlemen of
the jury... you cannot expect a man who has been a lover of a woman to
give evidence against her.... To clear herself, she accuses people right
and left, anybody and everybody.... Why did she resuscitate a case which
was almost forgotten? On account of M. Bdl's. attitude. Her husband
objected to divorce. She was in financial difficulties. M. Bdl. was
rich.... She killed her husband.... When she accused others of the crime
she committed, she was in a nervous state, and it was the paroxysms of
frenzy due to the pitiless and maddening questions of some journalists
which, she says, caused her to make false accusations.... And yet in
this Court, gentlemen of the jury, you have seen her self-controlled,
fearless, impudent, answering all questions readily, unhesitatingly....
Remember that this woman lies as she breathes....

"... The men in black gowns, the red-haired woman? A fable!... A
political side to the mystery? Nonsense!... Burglary? There was none!...
Why did those who killed M. Steinheil and Mme. Japy not murder Mme.
Steinheil as well? She claims that it is because they took her for her
daughter.... But I say that murderers can be as well recognised by a
girl of sixteen as by a woman of thirty-nine.... In either case they
would have had no pity.... The fact that she was spared proves that she
took part in the crime....

"She was bound so loosely that she could easily have freed herself,
rushed to the window, and shouted for help.... But she had to play a
part, and she did so.... She was ill when they found her the next
morning? Of course she was! Any woman would be upset after having
murdered her husband and witnessed the death of her mother....

"... What extraordinary burglars, gentlemen of the jury. They had
revolvers, but committed the crime with cords and wadding!...

"How did the crime take place? It is quite clear:

"Mme. Steinheil hates her husband and wants to get rid of him because,
on the one hand, there is a husband whom she despises, and, on the
other, a wealthy lover whose wife she aspires to become. She tells
herself that if she is found one night bound, near the body of her
husband, everybody will believe her guilty. Then, with her perfidious
temperament, she summons her mother to Paris to the house in the Impasse
Ronsin, not to kill her, but to have her there as a witness of the
simulated attack. She devises that both her mother and herself are to be
bound.

"Mme. Steinheil goes down and opens the door to a man or woman, but
probably a woman.

"We had not sufficient proof to effect an arrest.... Then Mme. Steinheil
and that woman, or Mme. Steinheil and that man, go upstairs after having
taken the cord in the kitchen. It was not intended to murder Mme. Japy,
but an unforeseen event occurs while she is being fastened and the
wadding forced into her mouth.... M. Steinheil is awakened by her cries,
and the two women, or the woman and the man, rush at him. One holds his
body, the other strangles him. The painter falls dead....

"Meanwhile, Mme. Japy's false teeth have become unfastened, and she died
by suffocation; but, to make sure of her death, they strangled her. At
first I did not believe that Mme. Steinheil was guilty. But now my
conviction is established. If I had had the slightest doubt I would have
told you so, but, on the contrary, I say that the work betrays its
author, and the author is there."

I looked up at M. Trouard-Riolle and see him pointing to me. An
extraordinary incident then occurs: the Advocate-General, turning to the
jury, adds: "She was the author of the crime; and finding some one,
rather a woman than a man, in her more or less immediate _entourage_,
she summoned that woman, or she summoned that man, relying on his or her
silence. If it had been possible for the law to seize the one or the
other, we should have had them arrested. But we do not think we had
enough proofs to know and to say: 'It is this, or that one....'
Gentlemen, you must accept the responsibility of a sentence as I accept
that of accusing, I hand you the sword of justice, trusting that you
will return a verdict both wise and firm."

I am bewildered.... There is a general uproar. The whole court rises....
I can see Mariette gesticulating frantically, at one end of the room. It
is clear that the Advocate-General meant Mariette and Alexandra, her
son.... But both have been called as witnesses, both have been fully
exonerated by M. Leydet and afterwards by M. Andre. Is all this a
ghastly farce, then!

Maitre Aubin rises as if shot up by a spring, and thunders: "You are too
honest, _Monsieur l'Avocat-General_, not to reply to the question I am
now going to ask you: I wish to know whether in the suggestions you have
just made, you were hinting at Mariette Wolff or her son?"

The court rings with applause; barristers and journalists climb on the
benches and tables. I look at M. Trouard-Riolle.... He does not reply to
my counsel, but makes a wide, evasive gesture, and turns to the
President, who adjourns the sitting....

Hands seize my arms, and helped by the guards, I leave the Court.

_Saturday, November 13th_, 1909, Noon. The final hearing, the end of my
trial; at least, I hope so, as I stumble into the dock assisted by the
guards who softly whisper words of encouragement. The atmosphere is
stifling. I can hardly see, but I can feel that the Court contains far
more people than usual. I sink on to my bench. The President notices
that the foreman of the jury, M. Poupard, is not there, and inquires as
to the cause of his absence. One of the jurors says he has heard that
the foreman is ill. The sitting is adjourned.

1 P.M. I am led back to my bench. M. de Valles reads a telegram from the
absent foreman: "I am ill. Have me replaced. Poupard." Doctor Socquet is
sent to see whether the foreman will soon be well enough to come, and
once more the sitting is adjourned.

2.30 P.M. The bell again. For the third time I enter the dock. The
judges appear. Doctor Socquet says that the foreman was taken ill on the
previous night and is suffering from bronchitis, he is unable to serve
on the jury. A new juror who has been present at all hearings is sworn.

And now dead silence pervades the Court. Mariette walks to the
witnesses' bar: "I have heard," she says, in a loud blunt manner, "that
my son and I have been called murderers.... I demand an apology."

The President answers that she has not been formally designated by the
Advocate-General, declares the incident closed, and tells Mariette to
withdraw.

Maitre Aubin rises and begins his speech for the defence.

"Gentlemen of the Court, gentlemen of the jury, after long hesitation,
after scruples and doubts which yesterday he admitted to you, the
Advocate-General has hardened in his conviction of Mme. Steinheil's
guilt."

This is all I hear. There is not one atom of strength left in me. I fall
forward with my head on my hands, which rest on the wooden partition...
and I wait. Three times my counsel's speech is interrupted by
adjournments; three times I am dragged away from my seat to the guards'
room; three times I am dragged back to it, wondering when the
unspeakable agony will end....

As I write, I have before me, the _Plaidoirie_ of Maitre Antony Aubin,
extracted from the "Review of Great Contemporary Trials," and I will
quote from it a few pages, those dealing with facts which have not yet
been fully explained to the reader, and also certain passages containing
remarks, which, for reasons that will no doubt appear obvious, I could
not have made myself....

"... I am only seeking the truth. Mme. Steinheil does not altogether
deserve praise; but still less does she deserve the severe way in which
you have been treating her. No pedestal, no pillory!... The
Advocate-General exhausted himself during the past five months in the
study of the dossier, but he has passed by Mme. Steinheil. He has not
studied her.... To speak plainly he knows nothing about her.

"Mme. Steinheil was kind, obliging, attentive, devoted to all... and
what is most important of all: to her husband himself.

"Let us prove it.

"To show that she was goodness itself to her family--to Mme. Seyrig, to
her brother Julien, and to Mme. Herr--nothing is easier. As regards Mme.
Seyrig, one example will be sufficient--the following letter which Mme.
Seyrig sent to her sister from Bizerte on September 23rd, 1903.

     "'MY DEAR MEG,--I hope that you are better.... My husband has been
     foolish enough to place money in real estate.... I am sorry to
     trouble you when you are ill, but I think that you will not
     hesitate, you who saved Julien, to save us. I don't know how I
     shall go on. I feel I shall be ill if Henri has not those 20,000
     francs.'...

"The money was sent to Mme. Seyrig....

"Here is a recent letter from Mme. Japy to her daughter:

     "'MY DARLING LITTLE MEG,--How you must need a less tiring life, my
     dear child, and how I should love to see you have the strength to
     give up other people, and to think a little more of yourself and of
     the care which your health absolutely demands. Try to learn, my
     adored one, to think of yourself, and to forget wanting always to
     please others....'

"What does the Prosecution think of this? This woman, always so
devoted--nay, too devoted--who knew her? Ignoring the reality,
welcoming the most terribly untruthful rumours, never hesitating before
inexcusable calumnies, and carried away by the frenzy of writing...
journalists have printed the statement that 'Mme. Steinheil detested,
abominated her mother.'... I have read and re-read this atrocious libel!
And I, who knew the horror of it, have remained silent; yes, during that
long _Instruction_ I have allowed the mud to flow, I said nothing. I
didn't protest, not even by a gesture, because, not to speak of the
professional rule which imposed silence on me, I knew that a solemn hour
would come when at last I should have the right to speak to you--the joy
to speak to you and to convince you. And it is for such a woman that the
penalty of death is tacitly, implicitly, evasively demanded. The penalty
of death! What supreme irony! Perhaps you think that the Prosecution
wanted to put it on one side by talking to you of the prisoner rather as
an accomplice than as the chief author of the crime. Don't be misled: an
affirmative verdict on either of these questions means death. Death?
But, Monsieur l'Avocat-General, if you had proposed it to the jury,
every one in this Court would have revolted....

"To return to this unfortunate and tortured woman. Opinion, which has
been misled, has raised a barrier between Mme. Steinheil and the poor
and humble. Well, let this barrier be broken down. The prisoner was only
too anxious to assist them. Who says so? Marie Boucard, who was her maid
for ten years, declared at the _Instruction_ on December 12th, 1908:
'Mme. Steinheil was devoted to the poor.' A former valet, Duclerc,
stated: 'She was extremely kind to her servants and all those around
her, rendered services to all, and nursed the poor of the district!...
In Cote 3040 it is said that: 'Of her old dresses she made with her own
hands clothes which were sent afterwards to a charity organisation in
Beaucourt.'

"... In the painter's studio the able Mme. Steinheil is ever active. Are
costumes needed for her husband's models? As an expert needlewoman she
cuts and sews, and under her deft fingers the various materials soon
become doublets and hose in the Henry IV. or Louis XIII. style. She
works without respite. Sometimes she replaces a model, and for long
hours she sits for her husband. Sometimes when a painting has to be
completed she handles the brushes, for she is an able artist.... She is
the useful collaborator who is ever assisting and completing her
husband--that timid, easily depressed, and weak-willed husband....

"But what you wish to know is not only whether the husband was helped as
an artist--although that has some importance--but also, and above all,
whether as a man and a husband he was abandoned, left aside, and
despised. You have heard on this point Mme. Steinheil's two
brothers-in-law, M. Geoffroy, and Monsieur Bonnot.... You have at once
felt that those witnesses, bitter and hostile, spoke with animosity, and
violently took part against their sister-in-law. It was they who stated
that she took no care whatever of her husband and left him for three or
four months at a time: 'To go on one knows where,' taking no interest
whatever in his life or his health. Every word an inaccuracy! It was
Mme. Steinheil who bought everything for the house, and even her
husband's clothes. That three or four months' journey? It was only an
absence of a few weeks in 1907, when Mme. Steinheil went to England with
her daughter and the Buisson family. 'To go no one knows where!' Could
any words be more misleading? When people don't know, they should remain
silent. Messieurs Geoffroy et Bonnot! The way of living and the health
of her husband were indifferent to her? True, Steinheil lived as he
pleased, but it cannot possibly be said that until his last hour he
wasn't cared for by his wife. Doctor Acheray has strongly denied the
statements of the brother-in-law, and M. Courtois-Suffit himself told
you that at the end of 1907 he was summoned by Mme. Steinheil to examine
M. Steinheil.... As for Mme. Buisson, a witness who surely cannot be
called partial, she stated that: 'Mme. Steinheil was extremely kind and
attentive to her husband, and cared about his health, seeing to it that
he followed the diet prescribed for him.'

"... When Mme. Steinheil sang, it was an unforgettable delight. Oh!
those hours of artistic beauty which have vanished!... The emotion, the
genius of the composer possessed her, overwhelmed her--and carried away
by her temperament, she was moved to tears, to anguish.... The guests
have lost her salon. They have hardly turned the corner of the street,
and she has hardly dried her tears before the poor nervous woman buries
her head in her hands and thinks. Of what? Of her power? Of the
magnetism of her voice? Her success must make her believe that people
are easily conquered by her! Alas! However great her fascination, it is
really she, after all, who is dominated by mysterious and invisible
forces. How easily it is when one sees how quickly she is
self-hypnotised, to realise how easily others may hypnotise her.... Is
it possible then that this woman, who has been represented as so strong,
was after all but a toy of men and events!

"... The Indictment said to Mme. Steinheil: 'You wanted to get rid of
your husband in order to marry M. Bdl.' And M. Bdl. replied: 'There was
no thought in me of marrying again, and these are the reasons why: I had
a daughter of twelve, and I wish to bring her up before thinking of
marriage--and even then it isn't certain that I should have thought of
it. Besides, I had absolutely decided not to give a step-mother to my
daughter, aged eighteen, who might marry soon....'

"... I wished M. Bdl. to let you hear the whole truth, and M. Bdl.,
asked by me in this Court whether he had given Mme. Steinheil reasons to
hope that he would marry her, told you that she could not possibly have
conceived any. I pressed the question, and he was firm in his reply:
'Mme. Steinheil on this matter of marriage did not and could not have
had any illusion.'

"... Let us then put aside the so-called motive of the crime.

"... The accusation of matricide has been abandoned; the prosecution
rightly feared your common sense; but, for a whole year public opinion
believed her guilty because the newspapers printed these atrocious
words, borrowed from the _Instruction_: 'She hated her mother.' And now
that the unfortunate Mme. Steinheil, represented as an unnatural
daughter, has been despised and loathed; now that, under the cover of
this monstrous accusation of matricide, has grown up that other
accusation, that of the murder of her husband, your conviction and your
sense of justice, Monsieur l'Avocat General, make a curtsey to her and
depart. It is all very well for you, but it isn't enough for her. No, it
is not enough for this poor woman, yesterday accused of two murders, to
be accused to-day of one only--and I may say that later on, when people
think over this trial, they will pity her profoundly, and feel indignant
at the accumulation of errors against her....

... "Ceasing to regard Mme. Japy as a 'victim,' the Advocate-General has
imagined her as a 'witness.'... I have my own version, quite a new one,
concerning the death of Mme. Japy, the Advocate-General gravely
declares. I have studied, I have searched, and doubted; then, finally, I
have reached an explanation, a version....

... "And here is this strange version: the husband alone was to die; his
death was premeditated. He was to be killed by two persons--the
accomplice, Alexandre Wolff perhaps, but more likely Mariette Wolff....
As for Mme. Japy, she was to live to see, and later on be a 'witness'
who would confirm the breaking in of the murderers. Only, by forcing a
gag into her mouth, the aggressors acted too brutally; they only aimed
at a 'sham,' but they went as far as reality--that is, suffocation,
asphyxia. Instead of a living witness: a corpse.

... "Why have I called this version a strange one? Merely because it
supposes that the criminals wanted to let Mme. Japy live. Now,
investigations show that, on the contrary, the death of Mme. Japy was a
decided thing, and that almost certainly the murderers began by killing
her. In order to kill her, the miscreants did not only force into her
mouth a large gag with such violence that one false tooth, pushed back
into the throat, was broken; they strangled her with a cord fastened
twice round her neck. Thus with this death, wilfully caused by
strangulation, it is impossible to speak of a 'witness' whom Mme.
Steinheil and her accomplice needed for their scheme. And then would not
Mme. Steinheil really have been compromising and giving herself away if
she had thus prepared, as it were, the evidence of her mother against
Mariette or her son? But the Advocate-General means that Mme. Japy
would have remained silent! But in that case, instead of a 'witness,'
she would have become an accomplice herself. As you see, gentlemen of
the jury, this version is but one more fable to add to all the fables in
this affair. And would you like to know whence it comes? It is very
simple. There is a newspaper, the _Matin_, of which we must speak here
without complacency or fear. It was in the _Matin_, Monsieur l'Avocat
General, that you found this gruesome remark: '_My mother, the was the
alibi._' A pitiful joke that you have twisted in a different but no more
successful form. For in the _Matin_ this sentence, 'My mother, that was
the alibi,' meant that Mme. Steinheil, in order not to have been accused
of having killed her husband, had thought it necessary to kill her
mother. Nothing more or less! Only, the _Matin_ was too precise. It
stated that Mme. Steinheil had made that statement to some one who, to
relieve her conscience, had rushed to the newspaper's office. It was
easy to annihilate that tale. I went to the prison and showed the
_Matin_ article to Mme. Steinheil. Without hesitation she wrote at once
to Judge Andre, asking to be confronted with the person who it was said
had heard the confession. Then came a difficulty: it was impossible to
find that person; she had vanished into space."...

My counsel proceeded to refute the theory of the Prosecution, who stated
that there were no burglars, because entrance had not been _forced_ into
the house, because no weapons had been brought in from outside... and
for other reasons which have already been discussed at length such as:
No jewels stolen, no money taken, no real disorder, &c.

Maitre Aubin had no difficulty in showing that the burglars needed no
skeleton keys since the doors were open. They had placed a ladder near a
window of the kitchen, but finding that the kitchen door was open, they
entered that way. As for the statement that no "instruments of the
crime" were brought in from outside, how did the prosecution know that?
All that was known was that the murderers used cords and wadding gags.
It was proved that the cord with which M. Steinheil was strangled came
from the kitchen cupboard, open, and opposite the door. But the cords
with which Mme. Japy was strangled and Mme. Steinheil bound did not
come from the house. As for the gags, what could be more natural than
that the murderers would use some of the wadding which they found in my
mother's room.

My counsel's next task was to answer the statements that there had been
no serious binding, no gag in my mouth, and that I had never been
seriously ill.

Concerning the last point I may mention that it was chiefly based on the
statement made by Mlle. Vogler, who from June 5th to July 5th, 1908,
nursed me first at the d'Arlon's and afterwards at my Bellevue villa.
Although I was kept alive by sea-water and morphia injections, this
nurse did not hesitate to state that my illness was "pure comedy," that
my temperature was always normal, and further that "every night at the
same hour--between midnight and 1 A.M. Mme. Steinheil used to jump out
of bed and wail: 'I am afraid.' Her eyes were dry. I felt her pulse and
found it as steady as my own."

(_Dossier_ Cote 3225-3250)

       *       *       *       *       *

My counsel merely remarked: "One cannot think of everything: Mlle.
Vogler forgot this letter sent by her to Mme. Steinheil.

      "Friday, _November 6th_.

     "DEAR MADAM,--What martyrdom you are still enduring! Have they not
     made you suffer enough! This morning I read in the _Matin_ of the
     dreadful day you spent at Boulogne. How you must suffer when you
     think of that awful day of torture. _If, however, it is ever
     necessary to prove how much you have suffered through fever and
     what horrible nights of delirium you went through_, don't forget
     that I am at your disposal to testify to it. I follow your affair
     daily. How glad I should be for your sake if the murderers were
     found. If you have enemies, dear Madame, remember that there are
     also persons who share your sorrow. Accept, dear Madame, all my
     wishes for a speedy recovery and my sincere greetings.

      "Your Nurse,

      "MARGUERITE."


This letter was written on November 6th, 1908. The evidence from which I
have quoted was given before M. Andre on December 8th, 1908, and on
January 18th, 1909. I was in prison at the time, and Mlle. Vogler
evidently feared no contradiction....

I must in all fairness add here that this most important letter was
handed, at the time of the trial, by M. de Labruyere to my counsel, and
it does him great credit.

M. de Labruyere happened to be with me when the letter reached me, and,
having read it, he realised its importance and asked for it, saying he
would have it published in the _Matin_. This was never done, and later,
when I asked M. de Labruyere to return the letter to me, he was unable
to find it. He discovered it, however, in time, and, as I have just
stated, loyally handed it to Maitre Aubin at my trial.

Three more brief quotations from Maitre Aubin's speech:

"... Ah, how many errors and shufflings would have been avoided if this
fact, ascertained by Dr. Balthazard had been better interpreted: The
mother was killed first and the husband afterwards; they both left their
beds of their own free will, and the husband was undoubtedly strangled
whilst he went to the assistance of his mother-in-law.

"How in such circumstances, can one imagine that Mme. Steinheil is
guilty? If she had premeditated committing the crime alone or with an
accomplice, would she not have been on the watch in those bed-rooms
where she could have easily moved about without arousing suspicions?
Would she not have acted with perfidy and trickery in order to deal
death or to have death dealt, so that it might be the more certain and
the more rapid? Would she not have gone treacherously to the bed of her
mother or of her husband in order to make sure that they were asleep and
to take advantage of the fact?... But they were both killed, not only
when awake, but when out of their beds? Well, then, I say that according
to this it is impossible to eliminate the miscreants, for, cannot you
see that if Mme. Steinheil were guilty of the murder of her husband
alone, as it is said to-day, or of the murder of her husband and mother
as it was thought before, they would not have gone to meet death, but
rather death would have come to them."

[Illustration:

I. MY COUNSEL, MAITRE A. AUBIN
II. THE JUDGE, M. DE VALLES
III. THE ADVOCATE-GENERAL, M. TROUARD RIOLLE

Sketches by Mme. Steinheil]

Maitre Aubin then fully explained the all-importance of the "stolen
black gowns," and the part certain journalists had played in the Impasse
Ronsin affair. His last words referred to my love for my Marthe.

"... I call to my side this pure and noble child; I want her close to
me, stretching her arms appealingly towards you and defending her
mother! These two unfortunate beings, how many tears they have already
shed, how many tears they will still shed! Ah, gentlemen of the jury,
give them the means to console one another and to forget together...
whilst blessing your justice."

       *       *       *       *       *

My counsel has ceased speaking. There is a moment of silence, and that
silence drags me out of my torpor. I raised my head with a last effort,
and I see hundreds of eager faces all turned towards the judge... M. de
Valles is now speaking. I can hardly hear, but from a few words: "did
the prisoner... on May 30th-31st, 1908... murder...." I realise that he
is reading to the jury the question to which they will have to reply.

I do not understand, I do not know... the Judge rises, the jurors file
out... I am sobbing, sobbing....

I am carried away from the dock. The cooler air in the guards' room
refreshes me. I am made to drink some tea and all kinds of men stand
before me speaking words of encouragement... I have been told that I
laughed and chatted.... Everything is possible....

I remember that the guards handed me post-card after post-card of
myself--begging me to sign them. I could hardly hold the pen, and the
number of cards was endless. Poor soldiers; they had been good to me in
their own simple way, and they said that they could get quite a deal of
money for cards with my autograph.... How happy they all looked.

Everybody says I shall be acquitted in a moment. Doctor Socquet tells
me: "When the jury give their verdict, I will listen and then rush to
you. If you see me, that'll mean that you are acquitted; if I don't
come, well, you will know. If things go wrong, I shall not have the
courage to come."

Some one tells me that it is eleven o'clock. The jury has been away
fifteen minutes already. Fifteen minutes, and they have not yet found
that I am innocent. How is it possible?

A bell rings.

I rise as if electrified.... And then some one tells me that the jury
have summoned the President and Maitre Aubin. They want to be
enlightened on some point.... The guards were whispering, and suddenly
an unspeakable terror seizes me. They have talked aloud and cheerfully
until now; they do not want me to hear the dreadful truth....

A quarter past eleven. Half-past eleven. A quarter to twelve.
Midnight.... Still nothing!

Will this martyrdom never end? What right has any one to make me suffer
so? And where is Marthe, my own child. If she were only here, perhaps I
could bear this agony.... How she must suffer, if she knows....

More people enter the guards' room. The two old ushers, who have seen
many, many such trials, come to see me. One hails from my own province,
the other acts at night as _maitre d'hotel_ and has seen me at many
important dinners. One of them mutters in my ear: "Madame, don't you
worry about anything. I am used to all this. Those jurors are all right;
as sure as I stand here you will be acquitted, they can't help knowing
that you are innocent.... Look here! The minute the verdict is known,
I'll come to the door there and say, 'Hoo!' Then raise your head, enter
bravely in the dock, for the last time and show them all who you are."

Then I hear two men discussing in the corridor: "I tell you," says one
of them, "that she is done for. If the jury wanted to acquit her, they
would not summon the President, and the whole thing would have been over
long ago!"

A guard tells me: "It's no longer the 13th of November now, but the
14th. There's luck for you!" and he hands me a few more cards to
sign....

A quarter past twelve.... Half-past twelve. The bell again.

No, the time has not yet come. The jurors want more explanations. This
second shock has a merciful effect. It takes out of me the last spark of
vitality. Everything is blank. I wait for hours, for days, now, for I no
longer know what I am waiting for. There is a small crowd around me, and
they all say, "Courage, have courage." Of course, I have courage. I have
had courage for the past eighteen months; what does anything matter!

A quarter to one.... One o'clock.... A quarter past one. Now I feel it.
Something is going to happen!...

The bell rings twice.

I see Doctor Socquet, quite pale; I hear some one cry, "Hoo!" and then I
hear the most terrible, the most awe-inspiring, the most maddening storm
I have ever heard.... I realised afterwards that what I heard at that
unforgettable moment were the screams of enthusiasm and the frantic
applause of hundreds of people who had heard the verdict: I was
acquitted.... But I did not know. How could I understand anything!...

Guards rushed to me and carried me to the Court. The light dazzled me,
and the storm rose again, more overwhelming than before. I vaguely saw
hundreds of hands raised towards me... I saw hundreds of radiant faces
shouting: "Bravo... Bravo... Acquitted... Acquitted...." Still I didn't
understand. I took those cries for threats, and believed all those hands
wanted to seize me, to tear me to pieces.... And then I looked at the
jury, and among all those faces I saw one smiling, and then at last, I
understood, and fell back.

Alas, alas. The one face in the world I had so longed to see was not
there....

       *       *       *       *       *

A room.... People are pressing my hand, kissing it, and I see tears in
many eyes... and I hear the words, repeated over and over again: "What a
trial. What a trial...."

A triumph! Good God!... Marthe is not there.

       *       *       *       *       *

Never mind what happened afterwards. Doctor Socquet helped me once more,
and others too. There were discussions, endless discussions as to how I
was to be smuggled away. And there were journalists clambering for my
"impressions...." I asked for my daughter to every one... then I begged
to be taken home, but was told it was impossible.... The daughter of the
Director of the _Depot_ most generously consented to "escape" in a
motor-car, and thus to "draw" the journalists, whilst in another
motor-car I was taken, with Maitre Steinhardt, and I believe a Press
photographer, to a hotel I have been told that I was extremely bright
and gay on the way.... At the hotel, I was told to sit whilst my
photograph was being taken, hurriedly, and then I lay on a bed for a
short time.... Early in the morning I was taken by motor-car to a
nursing home at Le Vesinet, and on the way, I was bright and gay again,
and I was photographed again!

I have heard that the photographer was well paid for his work, and that
he even sold for a substantial sum a series of articles--to the _Matin_,
of course--about that drive from the Palace of Justice to the Terminus
Hotel, and the drive from the Terminus Hotel to Le Vesinet, in which he
described at length and in fluent and sensational style, all the bright
and gay things he imagined I had said and done....

But why, God of Mercy, was not my Marthe near me?

       *       *       *       *       *

The reader must wonder, as I have long done myself, what exactly took
place during the two hundred minutes that the jury deliberated.

In a quite indirect way, which, for obvious reasons I cannot divulge
here, I have been able to ascertain the details of the long-drawn
deliberation. These details are irrefutable:

An overwhelming majority of the jurors had decided that I was guilty,
but the two or three who were in favour of an acquittal fought so
strongly that long discussions ensued.

When the foreman rang the bell to summon the President, it was to ask
questions about the murder of Mme. Japy, for the majority was of opinion
that I had strangled not only my husband, but had also done my mother to
death!... And this although the Advocate General himself, in his speech
for the Prosecution, had withdrawn the charge of matricide.

Another discussion ensued, and one or two jurors wavered. Then, after an
hour, the President, M. Trouard-Riolle and Maitre Aubin were once more
summoned about the eventual wording of the verdict. After a fierce
discussion, in which the stolen black gowns were the chief subject, my
innocence appeared evident to one or two more jurors, and finally there
were seven for an acquittal and five for a conviction. And thus I was
acquitted after being for so long, without knowing it, so near to...
the scaffold!




CHAPTER XXXI

AFTER THE VERDICT


The nursing home to which I had been taken was that of Dr. Raffegeau and
Dr. Mignon. My sister, Mme. Seyrig, had been there as a patient during a
period of complete nervous prostration.

In despair and anguish, I asked Dr. Raffegeau where my daughter was, but
he could not tell me, alas; he merely said: "Your brother-in-law
telegraphed to me asking that I should reserve a room for you here where
you would be able to recover. I am going to put you up in a pretty
little pavilion, in the park of my establishment, and my wife and Mme.
Mignon will keep you company."

"But Marthe?..."

"She will no doubt be here soon...."

I spent that Sunday sitting at the window, watching the road and waiting
for my daughter. Who was keeping her away from me? How she must be
suffering, and how I suffered!... The noise of every motor-car that
passed made my heart beat faster and more painfully, but Marthe did not
come.

An automobile stopped near the house. My younger sister and my brother
entered the room.

"My daughter?"

"Courage. She will come... but we cannot find her; we don't know where
she is. Chabrier is not at the Impasse Ronsin either... the house is
shut up...."

I rose and said: "Then, _I_ will find her. I start at once!" They
compelled me to sit down: "You cannot go out, you are too weak and you
will be followed; you will come to grief...."

I read in their faces what they meant. In spite of my acquittal, people
still hated me.--I heard afterwards that whilst the verdict was greeted
with shouts of triumph in the Court, where people had learned to know me
and had realised my innocence, the crowd outside the Palace of Justice,
when they heard of my acquittal, grew angry and shouted "Death!" and
"Guillotine!"--and I understood that the absence of my daughter at the
close of the trial, the fact that she had not joined her mother, was
interpreted as a sign of my guilt. "If Mme. Steinheil were really
innocent, her daughter would have rushed into her arms. Instead of that,
Marthe avoids her mother, therefore that mother is a criminal!"... How
many times I have heard that terrible piece of "logic"!

I beseeched my brother and my sister to find Marthe, and they promised
to help me. Then, the "photographer" and his wife said they would search
for Marthe and bring her to me....

The Press succeeded in discovering my retreat, and on the Sunday evening
Dr. Raffegeau said to me: "I'll take you, in a roundabout way, through
the park, to my house, and from there we'll go to the house of my
colleague."

I dined at the house of the Mignons with their three charming and
beautiful children, a boy of about ten, a girl of nine or eight, and an
adorable little girl of three, who all began calling me "auntie," and
were all so caressing and affectionate that I forgot my sorrow a little.

The next day Maitre Aubin came with a large bag full of letters and
telegrams for me, and he, too, promised to find my daughter. Drs.
Raffegeau and Mignon nursed me with great devotion. Mme. Seyrig returned
to say that Marthe had no doubt gone to the country, and that it was
impossible to trace her. It suddenly occurred to me that she had
probably been taken to Nogent-sur-Seine, near Troyes, to the country
seat of the B's. (The latter are not "members of the family," but are
considered as such. A son of M. B. married a daughter of one of M.
Steinheil's sisters.)

I was ill, in bed, wringing my hands in despair, for I had thought that
after my acquittal all would be bright and happy, and I now found out my
sad mistake--when Dr. Raffegeau came in with Mme. Mignon, who said: "A
lady, your elder sister, has just arrived. She wants to see you. She is
in tears, and keeps repeating: 'My poor Meg! How I long to be with her!
How she must suffer!'... She is in full mourning, and says she comes
from Beaucourt, where she prayed on her--and your--mother's tomb. She
has beseeched me to speak to you; she must see you.... What am I to
do?"...

I replied: "No, no... I cannot believe my sister, Mme. Herr, would
come.... We are not on very good terms.... Perhaps that woman is sent by
some newspaper?"...

"Oh, no," said Dr. Raffegeau. "She has been saying: 'I dread the Press,
I hope I have not been followed.' She looks so alarmed and grieved. She
asks if your hair has turned white, whether you are very ill... she
seems very concerned. I really believe she is your sister.... She wants
to see you alone."

"Never!" I exclaimed. "I refuse to be left alone, Doctor... Mme. Mignon
must remain with me."...

Mme. Mignon's baby-daughter was sitting on my bed. The door opened and
my "sister" was ushered in. She wore a wide cloak; a thick veil fell
over her face. She rushed to me and wailed: "Oh, my poor Meg, my poor
darling!" and kissed me.... I did not recognise the voice of Mme. Herr,
yet I said: "It is you, Juliette?..."

"Yes, dear; I have come.... I couldn't remain away from you any
longer."...

I tore my "sister's" veil from her head and saw the face of a woman whom
I had never seen before. "Madame," I cried, "you are not my sister! What
are you doing here? Leave this room at once!"

The little girl on my bed was frightened; Madame Mignon was staring in
amazement.

The woman turned to her and said in deeply grieved tones: "How terrible!
Meg is so ill she cannot recognise her own sister! She has lost her
reason!"... Then, bending over my bed, she whispered to me: "Not a word!
Be calm.... I am sent by the _Matin_; I am bringing you a fortune....
Only listen to me."...

"The _Matin_!... Have they not done me enough harm yet! Go, Madame....
Mme. Mignon, please show this woman out."...

The impostor played her part well. She sobbed, looked pitifully at me,
and kept saying as she withdrew: "My poor sister! How terrible! She has
gone mad!"... It appears that she continued her lamentations until the
moment she stepped into the motor-car that had brought her, and so
convincing was her simulated grief that Mme. Mignon, who accompanied her
to the door, asked me, when she came back, if I were sure that the lady
was not my sister!

A long report of that brief "interview" appeared, of course, in the
_Matin_ the next morning. The article was laudatory and almost kind....
The author had probably some conscience left. And the _Matin_ took care
to explain that the sensational interview had been brought to them.

Dr. Raffegeau, after this, had to arrange a sham removal. Some one was
dressed in my clothes and taken away in an automobile to make the spying
journalists believe that I left the house.... And after that I had some
peace.

       *       *       *       *       *

Maitre Aubin came frequently, carrying hundreds of letters and telegrams
for me from all parts of the world. Several contained the worst possible
threats and insults, and many were fantastic offers by music-hall
managers--from every part of France and Europe, from the United States
and South America! Some writers stated that they had a sketch or a play
ready, and asked me to play the part of the heroine (a woman accused of
murder, of course!), and others asked me merely to "show" myself for ten
minutes on the stage. There were scores of proposals that I should sing,
and offers from cinematograph and talking-machine firms. A number of
unknown authors asked me to sign their books with my name: it would sell
the books at once, and they would let me have a fair proportion of the
profits.... And there were dozens of offers of marriage; from the
inevitable Russian "prince," the Peruvian mine-owner, and the great
Spanish nobleman--poor, but with so many famous ancestors, to the
equally inevitable American magnate and the romantic youth--of any
country--anxious to devote his life to avenging me....

There were letters of hotel proprietors in various lands explaining the
great benefit which my health would derive from a stay in their
establishments; price-lists from wine-merchants, patent-medicine makers
and travelling agencies who swore that their wines, their drugs or a
journey would be my salvation. There were letters from autograph-hunters;
letters asking me to allow the writer to give my name to some product he
manufactured: a soap, a potato-peeler, a varnish, a patent food, a
scent... two letters written in Latin verse, and one in Greek
iambics!...

But the overwhelming majority came from persons who had followed my case
and expressed their heartfelt sympathy. They were in a dozen different
languages, but chiefly in French, English, and German. Of the letters
that reached me, I have kept a few score. They include several kind
messages signed by groups of officers and non-commissioned officers, by
a whole "class" of students, by all the employees of a firm, a bank or a
factory: letters from clergymen quoting the Bible, and from priests
quoting the "Imitation"; letters from old men and women, and letters
from mere children.... A little girl wrote from Manchester: "My parents
don't know of this letter, but when I am grown up--in six years--I will
come to you and comfort you, and I will play the piano for you, for I
have heard that you are fond of music...." From Kansas City, U. S. A.,
came a long message of congratulations signed by a large number of
workmen; a similar one reached me from Rome and another from Moscow.
Many letters and telegrams came from people in the Beaucourt district
who had known me or my father and mother; and there came many messages
like the following, which is dated "Paris, November 14th, 1909":
"Madame, we are sitting in a cafe, the whole family gathered, and we
read that you are free. We are only simple people and can only say that
we breathe again.... The jury has recognised your innocence, at last. We
salute you, Madame, for your pluck, and we feel how terribly you have
suffered. We are all so happy for you and your dear daughter! Signed: A
family of honest people."

I thank all those friends, far and near. Their messages, French and
foreign, no doubt helped me to bear my heavy cross.

Maitre Aubin came often to see me and naturally we talked of what was
now "the past."... With him I wrote a letter of apology to Mr.
Burlingham. I had also many affairs to settle with Maitre Jousselin, my
devoted solicitor.

The "photographer" who had promised to find my daughter told me that he
was on her tracks and would bring her to me. He suggested that a
portrait of mine, taken now, would be a happy surprise for Marthe, and
begged me to sit for my portrait, at the window, in Mme. Mignon's
room....

The next day--I was in bed, by order of Dr. Raffegeau--when I was told,
at about 4 P.M. that Marthe was there!

The doctor said: "I would have liked you to see your daughter alone, but
M. Chabrier who is with her as well as Mme. Seyrig, has told me and my
wife, in a most offensive tone: 'Mlle. Marthe shall see her mother only
in _my_ presence, otherwise she will not see her at all.'"

I said that under such conditions I would rather not see my child, and
that M. Chabrier had no authority whatever over her.... My mind was in a
whirl.... Dr. Raffegeau begged me to admit M. Chabrier and take no
notice.

I heard slow weary steps on the staircase.... Was Marthe ill?... She
entered, pale, haggard, almost unrecognisable, the poor darling. My
sister held her on one side; M. Chabrier on the other. Marthe was led to
my bed, and then I saw in her face a strange expression which I had
never before seen there. I stretched out my arms to her, but, pulled
back by M. Chabrier, she retreated from me.... I lost all courage, all
strength, all hope....

"What is the matter?... You are coming back to me, Marthe?"

My child tried to speak.

"She is ill, she cannot talk..." said Mme. Seyrig. "She has come to tell
you.... Tell her yourself, Marthe... Try."...

"Yes," I said, "tell me yourself... everything... the whole truth."...

Marthe turned her tear-bedimmed eyes on M. Chabrier, who was standing
near my bed facing her, and then in a hardly audible voice, she said, as
though she were trying to repeat a lesson: "After all that has
happened... you understand."... She stopped, muttered "I am stifling,"
caught her breath and added: "I have come to say good-bye to you for
ever."...

For nearly two years I have heard those words, day after day, night
after night, echoing in my mind, but at the time when they were spoken,
I did not realise all that they meant.

"Are you going into a convent, then?" I asked.

"No."

"Where are you going to?"

"I cannot tell you."

"But it cannot be, Marthe.... I will not let you go."

"She is her own mistress," said some one. "She must forget you as you
must try to forget her."

"Is it Pierre, your fiance, who demands this?" I asked.

Marthe eagerly seized this pretext. The horrible scene was as painful to
her as to me.

"Yes... It is for Pierre."...

"He is going to marry you, after all, if you don't see me again, is that
it?"... I was in tears now.... I added: "Marthe, if you wish it, _I_
will enter a convent. All I long for is your happiness."...

My child looked at me and it was clear that she longed to rush into my
arms....

"We had better go now," said some one. Marthe bent forward to kiss me.
"Good-bye," I said. "You have always been my all in all... Remember, if
ever you are abandoned by everybody, or unhappy, that you will still and
always have your _maman_."

I fell back on the bed. When I recovered consciousness Mme. Mignon and
her dear children were around me, but _my_ child had gone away, and for
nearly two years, in spite of letters and entreaties, she never came to
me.

Recently, my daughter joined me, at last, of her own free will, after
craving my forgiveness--as if it had been necessary! She is living with
me and the young Italian painter whose wife she became, in Paris, long
after her engagement to the young Buisson had been broken off. For many
weeks, we have spoken of the past and I know the truth now, the whole
truth about that farewell meeting and those endless months of separation
which all but cost me my life, and which made my child the most
miserable of beings.

I will quote my daughter's own words, taken from a long letter which she
sent me during the summer of 1911--and at a time when I had given up all
hope of ever seeing her again, alas--when she became once more my own
Marthe:

"...At the end of October, after we agreed that I should no longer visit
you at Saint-Lazare, I was taken to Nogent by the B's. I was kept in
strict seclusion, was never allowed to go out or to read a newspaper. I
knew nothing of what was going on at your trial, and yet, how I longed
to know! All the time, I was being told the most horrible things about
you, and given to understand that I should be ruined in every way if I
ever saw you again. I was not well, we two had gone through so much,
beloved mother, and all that I heard hurt me, and influenced me, though
I did not believe it, of course. On Sunday morning, November 14th,
Marie-Louise, my dear friend (a daughter of the B's) rushed into my room
and shouted: 'Your mother is acquitted!' We both cried with joy for a
long, long time. M. B., who always came from Saturday to Monday, said
nothing. I have sometimes heard him take your part.... But some one else
said furiously: 'The wretched woman; they have let her off. I wish she
had been sentenced and guillotined!' I rushed to my room and sobbed
bitterly.

"At about midnight, I and Marie-Louise heard the bell ring repeatedly.
We dressed and went downstairs. Mme. B. looked through a window and
said: 'The station 'bus is there. It is Chabrier.'

"Edouard (Chabrier) came in. He had seen Aubin in the morning and also
'the family'--all the uncles and aunts (on the Steinheil side). He said
to me: 'Your mother is a wretch; I have heard she threatens to kill
everybody unless you go to her!'... I was happy, for I longed so much to
be with you.... There was a long discussion to decide whether I should
be _allowed_ to see you! Then Edouard drew a paper from his pocket and
said: 'Copy this, just as it is, sign, and put the date. It is a letter
to the Attorney-General, asking for protection. Your mother threatens
all of us, even you.' Every one read the letter which I understood had
been drawn up by 'the family' in Paris. I was ordered to copy it. The
worst calamities would befall me and them all, if I didn't. I obeyed but
was so upset that I dated the letter 'September' instead of 'November.'
Edouard pocketed the letter, which, he said, he intended sending to the
Attorney-General, through Uncle L. (a magistrate and brother-in-law of
M. Steinheil) and I was allowed to go to bed. It was nearly perhaps on
account of the wrong date, perhaps because it was all a trick to
frighten me and make me believe that you were really threatening
people's lives! You can understand, _maman_, in what state I was. I did
believe much of what I was told, and began to think you had lost your
reason, and really wanted to harm us all. Forgive me.

"The next morning, Edouard left for Paris. In the evening M. B.
unexpectedly arrived, and said to me: 'Aunt Mimi (Mme. Seyrig) came to
me in Paris to ask where you were. I had to admit that you were with us,
and I have promised to let you go and see your mother.'

"I was taken to Paris to the B.'s house and thence to Uncle L., where a
family council was held. The uncles and aunts and their children were
there.... They warned me against you, terrorised me to such an extent,
that I asked that I might not see you at all. I was so frightened and so
ill. They made me swear to tell you that I would never see you again.
'If she insists,' they said, 'tell her you are "emancipated" and she
has no right over you. You cannot be too severe with your mother, she
wants to kill us all. We are all lost unless you talk to her. But make
it clear to her that it is all over between you.'

"I saw Aunt Mimi, who told me you were going on the stage, and that the
'honour of the family' would be ruined. The next day she went to Le
Vesinet by motor, and M. Chabrier followed by train; we got out at Le
Pecq in order to escape the journalists, and walked to Le Vesinet. On
the way M. Chabrier kept telling me what I was to tell you. I felt more
dead than alive when I entered your room.... You know the rest, my poor
darling _maman_.

"Afterwards I was taken back to Nogent, where for days I remained in
bed, ill and miserable."...

       *       *       *       *       *

During the days that followed my daughter's departure I was kept alive
only by the devoted care of Dr. Raffegeau and Dr. Mignon, and by the
tender devotion of their wives.

Some one said to me: "Your daughter is a Catholic; the priests have
taken her from you." I at once thought of becoming a Catholic myself. My
conversion would perhaps mean that my child would return to me. I
summoned the Catholic priest of Le Vesinet, and had a long talk with
him; but very honestly he told me: "Do not become a Catholic without
absolute convictions. As for your daughter, I can only say that no
priest has the right to take her away from you."

I had many conversations with my counsel. He and others gave me to
understand that I should be happier and safer abroad than in France.
Gradually I grew used to the idea of going to England. I had a few
friends there. England was a land of liberty and order. Perhaps I should
find there the rest my body so much needed, and the peace for which my
mind was thirsting....

Maitre Aubin introduced M. Jacques Dhur, the well-known writer and
journalist, to me--a sincere, forcible, fearless man, and it was agreed
that I should write a few brief chapters telling of my long calvary....
The money would be most useful to me. M. Dhur assisted me. The articles
were for the _Journal_, but for some reason they were not published.

At the beginning of December (1909) I was ready to go to England. Dr.
Mignon, on account of my very indifferent health, had offered to
accompany me to London, where he would place me under the care of a
doctor whom he knew. I bade good-bye to Dr. Raffegeau and his wife, then
to Mme. Mignon and her charming children, who had all been so admirably
devoted to me.

At night--I was to take the 9 P.M. train for Charing Cross--I drove to
Paris in a motor-car with M. Dhur and Dr. Mignon. They took me to a
fashionable restaurant where we were met by one or two of M. Dhur's
colleagues. I was bewildered.... I had not been in a restaurant for
over a year and a half. We sat at a table in a small room decorated with
orchids and roses. These friends wished to lessen the feelings of
sadness which they knew must hang over one who was about to go into
exile.

"In order that the waiters may not guess who you are, and to avoid the
restaurant being besieged, we will suppose that you are Mme.---- the
air-woman," said one; and gaily they began asking me questions about my
impressions in the air, the motor I preferred, the make of my aeroplane
propeller.

We went to the Gare du Nord. I was tired, nervous and so sad.... I was
about to leave Paris, where I had lived twenty years, Paris, which I
loved in spite of all that I had suffered there.... I went to buy a
newspaper but saw my name in a large heading, and hurried away. M. Dhur
told me: "Be careful; I believe there are two English journalists in the
train." A whistle blew; hands grasped mine; the train started, and we
went into the night....

On the way, the shrewd English newspaper-men spoke to Dr. Mignon and
very politely asked for the privilege of a brief interview with me, and
said the journal to which they belonged was ready to pay anything for a
series of articles signed by me. Dr. Mignon said he could not allow them
to speak to me.

On the Channel boat, I felt more despondent than ever. It was cold, the
wind was so keen, and the shores of France were disappearing.

The train stopped in London at a station before Charing Cross, and one
of the English journalists rushed in and said: "Madame, I know there are
scores of photographers and newspaper people awaiting you at Charing
Cross. Believe me, you had better step out here." It was true, and it
was kind, but, alas, before Dr. Mignon and I--we were both rather numb
and bewildered--could follow this good advice, the train started again.

I had hardly set my foot on the platform at Charing Cross when
flashlight explosions resounded all around me and some forty journalists
pressed eagerly, violently even, about me. Some spoke French--they were
the London correspondents of Parisian newspapers; others spoke English
or in broken French. I pushed Dr. Mignon into a cab and jumped in after
him. Motor-cars followed us. I said to the driver: "Hotel... Find!...."

It was now about 6 A.M. We tried to get rooms at one hotel but were
turned away on account of the journalists. We tried another, were again
refused; then yet another. The journalists still followed. Desperate, I
walked up to them and begged for pity.

I snatched two hours rest and then I had to leave the hotel. The manager
was courteous and generously allowed Dr. Mignon and me one hour more,
and said he would help us to hoodwink the Press. A friend of my counsel,
an English solicitor, was summoned to my assistance by telephone. He
came and I left with him whilst the Doctor made his exit by another door
after making an appointment. Alas, we were seen and followed, and it was
by sheer luck, owing to a block in the traffic, that I was able to elude
my pursuers.

What a day! We drove and then walked. Rain poured down. It was dark when
at last Dr. Mignon found us.

We walked through narrow, ill-lit streets and reached a small
boarding-house kept by a German, where I was well received. I was
tired, dispirited, ill. Our luggage had been left at the station. I
dined with Dr. Mignon at the D.'s, where, after spending two nights at
the German boarding-house, I stayed for a few weeks until I found a
small house for myself.

Three or four days after my arrival in London and when I had somewhat
recovered from so many successive shocks, Dr. Mignon returned to France.

My life in England can be briefly described. I found a few trusty
English friends who were not aware of my identity at first, but who,
when I disclosed it, became only the more devoted. I found the rest and
the peace of mind I so sorely needed.... I made my little home as
beautiful as I could, and found in music, in reading, and in long walks
about the country the relaxation and consolation without which I could
not have lived. I have learned to love England and the English. Perhaps
as regards conversation, enthusiasm, imagination and artistic
inclination I have found my few English friends--both men and
women--somewhat different from the people who flocked to my Parisian
salon. But I have found them far superior in other and more important
qualities. They are perhaps less unconventional, less brilliant and
witty, but they are more reliable and trustworthy; less versatile and
assimilative, but more genuine, earnest and steady.

Towards the end of December, the furniture at the Impasse Ronsin was
sold, at my request, after I had ordered part of it to be sent to
England. I had before written to my daughter offering her to keep
everything she desired. The letter, however, was _never_ shown to her,
and, later on, I discovered why. As a matter of fact, not a single one
of the numerous letters I sent to my child was ever handed to her.

Certain newspapers seized the opportunity of that sale to attack me once
more as "an ignoble mother, ruining her child." When I saw, however, the
list of the few things that had been sold, I thought that Marthe must
have kept a great many things, and felt somewhat relieved. At the same
time, I received from the person who represented me in Paris at the
sale, a note: "Please hand back to Mme. Steinheil the enclosed letter,
which no doubt comes from her. I shall likewise return anything she may
send me, as I wish to have nothing to do with her. Signed: Chabrier."

In March 1910 I had to go to Paris to settle various business matters,
and I remained there three days with my hair powdered to change my
appearance. I saw my solicitor and settled various matters with him. I
wrote to my daughter beseeching her to meet me a few hours before my
departure, at Maitre Aubin's. There, I found that Marthe had not come...
and I also found, outside, a number of journalists and photographers who
had been warned of my arrival by a kind soul.

I was broken-hearted at not seeing my child. I remained for many hours
at my counsel's, and, at night, managed to hoodwink the journalists and
to reach the Gare du Nord, where I entrained for London.

I was desperate. I wrote a long letter to Marthe. M. Chabrier read it,
told my daughter that it contained threats and _compelled her to write
and sign the following letter, from a copy he himself prepared_:

      Paris, _March 12th, 1910_.

Maitre J. has handed me a letter from you to which I must reply telling
you for the last time what you refuse to understand. The irrevocable
decision I have taken of not seeing you again has not been dictated to
me by any one. I have no advisers. My conduct and my actions arise
solely from my conscience. I cannot forget the long sufferings and the
ruin of my poor father, and I think that certain cruel recollections can
break certain bonds. You refuse the only proof of disinterestedness I
had asked you--the gift of the house in the Impasse Ronsin, and you
accuse my imaginary adviser of that refusal, and then you offer me your
help to bear the difficulties of life, a life which you created for me
by your will and acts, a life very painful and sad and for ever broken.
I repeat that I have taken my decision alone. You will never see me
again. I must even ask you not to write to me any more, for there can be
nothing between us except the absolute silence which separates two
beings who ignore one another for ever.

      "M. STEINHEIL."

It was of course easy for me to see at once that this ungrammatical and
absurd letter had _not_ been written by my daughter! She had not, thank
Heaven, that kind of style, and I readily guessed who was the instigator
of the letter. But I did not pay much attention to all this; I only saw
that Marthe was in need, and although she had refused--or rather, I had
been told she had refused--everything I so gladly offered her, I went to
the French Consul-General in London and signed a paper by which I
renounced the ownership of my Paris house and made it over to my
daughter.

A month later, being terribly anxious about her, so anxious indeed that
I once more fell seriously ill and had to be visited three times a day
by a doctor, for several weeks, I persuaded a devoted friend to go to
Paris and talk to my daughter. My friend went to the Impasse Ronsin and
was received by M. Chabrier, who said he was very sorry but Mlle. Marthe
was away in the country. My friend insisted, explained the gravity of my
illness and begged for my daughter's address. It was in vain.

Since then, Marthe has told me that she was in the house that day, that
she had insisted upon seeing the person I had sent to her, but that M.
Chabrier, in whom she still had the greatest confidence, had locked her
up in her room during the interview.

Again I sent letters to Marthe, but still no reply came. I tried to
forget my only child, but a mother never forgets. I travelled through
Holland, Belgium, Switzerland, Italy--never France--and I recovered, but
later despair seized me once more and for the second time in one year, I
suffered from severe illness.

_New Year_ 1911. I spent the day writing a long letter to Marthe, and
afterwards, I wrote my will, for, in spite of my few devoted friends, in
spite of music and good books, life didn't seem worth living--without
my daughter--and when one has such thoughts, the end soon comes. In my
case I longed to die.

Day after day, week after week, month after month, I waited and waited
for news from my daughter.... Once, French newspapers declared that she
was about to enter a convent of Carmelites, and later a description of
how my daughter took the veil was even published.... Then the whole
story was denied. From time to time, a kind-hearted woman in Paris wrote
to me words like these: "I saw Mlle. Marthe passing in a street,
yesterday... she looked pale but otherwise well...."

Then in June 1911, on a day which I shall never forget--the happiest day
of my life since the day when in her childhood, Marthe recovered from a
grave illness--I received a letter from my daughter, and it seemed, as I
read each word, as though happiness ran through my very blood, as though
life had a new meaning, a marvellous, divine, undreamed of, meaning.

She asked to be forgiven. She had been influenced against me; she had
been made to dread me. For over a year and a half, she had been a toy in
the hands of a few unscrupulous persons, and had been made to suffer
endlessly--and yet she had felt almost grateful to these false
guardians, because considering herself abandoned by nearly all, and even
by me, she was glad to think that at least these two or three persons
did not quite treat her as a pariah. My heart bled as I read her long
letter and without reading it to the end, I hastened to write to her
that I adored her, that I had always adored her, and that whatever
happened, she could rely on me.

Afterwards, I received many other letters from Marthe. I read with
amazement and despair that she was all alone in the world, alone to
fight the great battle of life.... And she so young, so frail!

I read that she had been abjectly deceived, that she had been made to
sign all kind of papers, blindly. I read that she had starved, in her
own house, although she paid for her board. I read that no sarcasm, no
insults had been spared the poor child. She had been advised to enter a
convent, and had been told: "That is the wisest thing you could do. You
will be happy there; as for the house, you can give it us before you
become a nun."... When "the family" saw that Marthe had no leaning
towards convent life, they found a would-be husband for her, a young
nonentity, who resided in far-away California, and who was staying in
Paris at the time.... If she followed him to America, she could still
leave the house to her protectors.

But although she was worn and miserable, although she had actually to do
the washing-up and clean the house; although she spent fourteen to
sixteen hours out of every twenty-four in sewing and embroidering, in
order to earn her living; although when she returned a little late at
night after running through the streets of Paris to deliver her work,
she found only a little chocolate in front of her door--instead of the
dinner for which she paid--or _nothing at all_, Marthe, the brave little
creature, did not lose heart, and still trusted her so-called guardians.
She still allowed herself to be led astray, did not see the truth, or
understand why she was prevented from seeing her mother, or even
corresponding with her.

The large house in the Impasse Ronsin which, after the murder I had had
divided into a number of apartments, was let to various persons--and
that was Marthe's chief source of income--but she was not even allowed
to see the different contracts and leases. She was merely asked to sign
at the foot of documents which she had not even read. Then, when serious
difficulties arose, her protectors left her.

It was only when she was near me--when, for instance, I showed her
certain documents--that the scales quite fell from her eyes.

Marthe, who had met a young Italian painter called R. del Perugia, was
gradually drawn to the young man's straightforward and attractive
nature, and both of them soon wrote asking for my consent to their
marriage. I granted it, of course.

At the marriage of these two children, in Paris, journalists and
photographers again harassed them. There was a free fight on the very
steps of the church, and another almost before the altar itself, where
snapshotters made a sudden appearance. Two or three persons were knocked
down, and Marthe faltered. After the ceremony the poor child had to be
comforted by the priests, and smuggled away by them.

I exchanged many letters with Marthe and her young husband, and then
they came to spend a few months with me.

Not even the greatest of poets could ever describe my meeting with
Marthe, after those months of agony, nor could the greatest composer
express in music our feelings of heavenly joy! All that I and Marthe had
gone through--and the reader knows by now what those experiences have
been--vanished at the moment when we held each other in a fond
embrace....




CHAPTER XXXII

CONCLUSION


My Memoirs have come to an end.

I have tried not to be bitter or revengeful, and it is only when I have
had to justify myself or vindicate my daughter that I have mentioned
certain facts, certain documents, or certain names; and I have no doubt
that the reader will agree with me that I have done this only when it
has been absolutely necessary.

       *       *       *       *       *

I have been asked, time after time, for my theory of the crime. I have
turned that terrible problem over and over in my mind ever since the
awful night of May 30th-31st, 1908, until at times I have well nigh lost
my reason--and I have no theory.

Sometimes, it seems to me that the murderers were models who knew my
husband. Sometimes, I think the crime was committed by persons who were
in still closer touch with my husband and myself, or with one of us.
Sometimes, I fancy that the instigator of the crime was a man who was in
love with me. And finally, I sometimes fancy that the drama must have
taken place as follows:

A man, a suspicious character, a _declasse_, hears or discovers that
there are important political documents in my house. Perhaps he knows my
husband, perhaps he knows me, more or less. He goes to some official--I
say official for the lack of a more adequate word--and tells him he can
secure certain political papers of much importance, papers that would,
if they were divulged, cause much embarrassment, to say the least, to
many prominent persons. He wants money, and possibly demands a document
that seals the bargain as it were. Being a professional malefactor, he
decides to steal something else besides the Faure documents. He knows
that I possess pearls and handsome jewels.... Possibly, he is acquainted
with the mysterious foreign personage, whom my husband befriended, the
Jew, who, perhaps, occasionally attends the performances at the Hebrew
Theatre, and knows that baskets of costumes are left unattended in the
corridor of that theatre. Being a professional malefactor, he is a
coward, and since there may be "some trouble," he decides that he had
better not do the work alone. He and his friends to whom he has merely
spoken of jewels and money--not of documents, for that he reserves for
himself--examine the house; and possibly they are the men whom
neighbours have seen lurking in the Impasse Ronsin. They have secured
cards of invitation to the exhibition of M. Steinheil's works, and one
of them lost his card in the Underground on the day of the crime. That
exhibition made it possible for them to enter the house at a time when
it was crowded, and when, therefore, their movements would not be
observed. Besides, one and possibly two of the gang, know the house
well, already.

Plans are carefully laid. We are in May. They have discovered that the
Steinheils almost invariably spend the week-ends at Bellevue at this
time of the year. It will be quite easy to commit the burglary.

On May 30th one of the gang steals the black gowns from the Hebrew
Theatre early in the evening. Towards midnight the three men, carrying
bags containing their disguises enter the Impasse. Possibly there are
four of them; the fourth remained on watch in the garden. There is also
a red-haired woman with them, probably the mistress of one of the
miscreants, who decided to accompany her "man" because there might be
some trinkets to gather for herself.

They enter the garden--the gate has only to be pushed. They place a
ladder against the wall, but one of them finds that the pantry door is
not locked. They enter, light their lanterns, and don their disguises,
which they have brought _in case_ some one is about who might recognise
one, two, or possibly all three of them. They notice an open cupboard,
and seize the cord they see there. It may be handy to fasten parcels of
stolen goods. Then they stealthily creep upstairs. They probably expect
to find the place empty, though I suppose they knew Couillard slept near
the attic on the third floor, which explains perhaps why they did not go
to the studio, from which they might have been heard. Nor did they
ransack the ground-floor, where besides the kitchen, the offices, the
winter-garden, and the hall, the only rooms were the dining-room, and
the drawing-room. As a rule, people do not keep their valuables in such
places, but rather in their bedrooms.

The first room they see as they reach the first floor, is the one in
which I am sleeping. For one moment, the men are taken aback; they
mistake me for my daughter, in whose room I am resting. I am startled
out of my sleep, and a revolver is pointed at me: "Where is the
money?..." They have come to steal, not to kill. I point to the boudoir,
the door of which is open. They find the money and take it. They return
and ask for the jewels. The chief of the gang, who evidently knows me,
asks for the documents.... Whilst the others enter the room where my
mother is sleeping, the chief ransacks the boudoir, and finds the dummy
parcel of documents, reads the words written on it and is satisfied.
Meanwhile, the others--possibly soon joined by the chief--ransack the
wardrobe in my mother's room. She cries "Meg, Meg," and tries to jump
out of bed.... They pick up some wadding and force it into her mouth.
She is stifled.... M. Steinheil has heard the noise, rushes out of his
bedroom, but as he reaches the threshold of the bath-room, the men, who
have heard him, spring on him, and he is strangled.

They have come to steal, not to kill.... They are anxious to escape. As
they pass through my poor mother's room they fasten a cord round her
neck, to "make sure." Perhaps they did this before murdering my husband.
Hastily, they bind me to my bed, and gag me with wadding. One of the men
had knocked over the inkstand in the boudoir; the end of his gown
dragged through the pool on the floor, and as he came to my room, left a
trail of ink behind him.

The woman wants me to be killed, but the chief of the gang says no. Two
murders are quite enough.... All the same, they give me a heavy blow on
the head. Then they disappear.

The murder is discovered; my husband's card is found in the Underground;
the black gowns are missed....

Is it madness to suppose that if this theory is true, the head of the
gang saw the official who probably was wildly alarmed, and that he said
to him: "If I am arrested, I shall prove by the paper I possess, that I
was ordered to get hold of those documents, and the whole world will say
that the Impasse Ronsin affair was a political crime"?

The police make investigations, in vain; the case is dropped; but I
recklessly take it up again, convinced that the murderers will be found
and resolve to find them. The reader knows the rest.

Possibly, I may even say probably, all this is hopelessly wrong, or
contains only a small element of truth. Who knows?

I have a few conclusions to draw from the unusual and tragic experiences
I have gone through.

I cannot doubt that by now my innocence is established in the eyes of
the reader; I even venture to believe that I may have won his, or her,
sympathy. In this long statement of facts I have all through based my
remarks on documents, and those documents are, of course, undeniable.

But my own vindication and full rehabilitation were not my sole objects.
Others have suffered, and are suffering, as I have suffered; others may
suffer and will suffer so long as certain methods remain in use in
France, so long as certain French prisons remain what they are, and
certain examining magistrates are allowed to deal with prisoners as one
of them did with me; so long as the procedure at trials for murder
remains what it is; lastly, so long as a law making Contempt of Court a
grave offence is not passed in the country from which I come, and which
I love passionately.

I have described Saint-Lazare: the sooner that dilapidated, insanitary
prison, with its poisoned atmosphere--poisoned in every sense of the
term--is pulled down, the better.

I have described my _Instruction_: the sooner such "examinations"
become _public_; the sooner examining magistrates are forbidden to have
preconceived ideas about the guilt of the accused persons who are
brought before them, and the sooner they are forbidden to threaten,
intimidate, bully, and torture them to gain their doubtful ends--the
better.

I have described at length my 353 days in prison: the sooner the French
law realises that it has no right to keep a human being who is
_supposed_ to have or is _suspected_ of having committed a crime, within
the four walls of a cell for months and months, awaiting his or her
trial--the better.

I have described my eleven days' trial--my eleven days' agony--for after
nearly a year in prison a human being is nothing but a lump of suffering
flesh and nerves: the sooner the procedure is altered, the sooner the
judge's interrogatory--inevitably partial and misleading--is
suppressed, the sooner an overwhelmingly more important part is given to
the cross-examination of the prisoner and all the witnesses, and the
sooner the jury at a trial for murder is kept together and prevented, as
it is in England, from having any communication with the outside
world--the better.

I have described the amazing part the French Press--or rather a section
of it--played in the "Impasse Ronsin affair," how it roused Public
Opinion against me, and used the worst conceivable methods of coercion
and intimidation, how it made my life and that of my daughter an
unendurable martyrdom: the sooner the French Press is forbidden to
assume the role of so-called Justice, to publish the most
indiscriminating, arbitrary, imaginary, and damaging articles against
beings who are merely "accused," and this not only before, but actually
during the trial of those beings--the better.

Let the reader ponder, if only for one moment, over these facts, for
instance: day after day, _during my trial_, a number of newspapers
published long articles in which I was clearly and emphatically treated
as a murderess, as a "Red Widow," as a "Black Panther"! Day by day, the
twelve men who were to decide my fate--and indirectly that of my
daughter--went home after the hearings in the Court of Assize: they
discussed the trial, my attitude, the evidence of the witnesses, the
questions asked of me, and the answers I made to those questions, with
their wives and their friends; they went to their cafes, where they
talked and listened; they read the newspapers, and the next morning,
before going into Court they talked and listened again, read the morning
papers, and were once more exposed to influences.

I do not for one moment believe that French jurors allow their
consciences to be misled in matters of life and death--and I have had a
splendid proof of this, since the jury acquitted me--but, is it
stretching probabilities to admit that, among the twelve members of a
jury, one _may_ be influenced by what he hears or reads, and in his turn
influence his colleagues at the solemn pregnant hour, when they are sent
to a room to deliberate over the fate of a human being?

       *       *       *       *       *

That this book may prove useful to others is my most fervent wish.

I have forgiven my enemies, and I trust those whom I have wronged may
forgive me.

As I write these lines, my daughter is resting near me, lying on a
couch. She sleeps, and her young husband is painting by the window.
There reigns ideal peace and serenity in this room, which overlooks a
great English meadow, so fresh, so green.... It seems almost
unbelievable after the years of maddening turmoil I have lived
through....

My little Marthe will be a mother in a few months' time.... Her child
will one day read these Memoirs. May he, when that time comes,
learn--like all other readers of this book, I trust--to understand my
life, to forgive whatever weaknesses have been mine, and to love his
mother's mother, a woman who has made mistakes in life, but who, God
knows, has paid all too dearly for them.

[Illustration: Plan of the first floor of the house in the Impasse
Ronsin, where the double murder was committed. Dotted line shows
probable movements of the assassins.]




INDEX


Abyssinia, 87, 100

Adam, Paul, 428

Aden, Gulf of, 86

Africa, 86, 97

Alexandre I., 83

Alexandre II., 83

Alexandre III., 69

Algeria, 88

Alsace, 55, 75

Amsterdam, 61

Annecy, 7

Atbara, 90

Atlantic, 86

Aubusson, 58

Augereau, 95

Austerlitz, 39

Auteuil Steeplechase, 127

Automobile Club, 41

Avelan, Admiral, 69


Bach, J. S., 56, 385

Bahr-el-Ghazal, 86, 94

Bailloud, General, 72

Bailly, 426

Bale, 12, 19

Ballon d'Alsace, 18

Balzac, 39, 52

Baratier, Captain, 94, 97, 100

Barrye, 44

Bartholdi, 33

Bartolozzi, 42

Bayonne, 7, 20, 21, 22, 24

Baudelaire, 62

_Bazar de la Charite_, 69

Beauchamp, Marquis de, 87

Beethoven, 7, 21, 43, 51

Bedloe's Isle, 33

Belfort, 1, 8, 12, 15, 51

Belgium, 86, 470

Berlioz, 39

Bernhardt, Sarah, 40

Bernier, 43

Bernstein, 430

Besancon, 28

Biarritz, 20, 22, 37

Billot, General, 88

Bizet, 39

Blondel, 112, 113, 119, 120

Boer War, 83, 97, 128

Boisdeffre, General, 69

Bonheur, Rosa, 57

Bonnat, 43, 44, 45, 46, 54, 74, 75, 106, 110, 111, 118, 141, 409

Bordelongue, 113

Borghese, Pauline, 41, 70

Borneo, 4, 58

Botticelli, 44

Boucher, 58

Bouchor, 88

Boulanger, General, 98, 430

Bourg Saint-Maurice, 71, 73

Brazzaville, 86

Brazil, 4

Briand, 276

Brillat Savarin, 50

Brinvilliers, Mme. de, 117

Brisson, 87, 91, 92, 99, 103

Brown, Sir Thomas, 267

Brummell, 39

Brunetiere, 102


Cairo, 97, 100

Carnot, Lazare, 60, 68

Carnot, President, 23, 60, 68, 71, 81, 82

Casablanca, 130

Casimir-Perier, President, 68, 71

Cavaignac, General, 87, 89

Cayenne, 101

Ceram, 58

_Cercle de l'Union_, 41

Chabrol, Fort, 128, 138

Chalandar, General de, 62

Chalons, 69

Christiani, Baron, 127

_Chambre des Deputes_, 76, 87, 98, 99, 101

Chanoine, General, 92, 99

Chardin, 59

Chateaubriand, Vicomte de, 39

Chauchard, 57, 58

Chopin, 20, 39

Claretie, Jules, 430

Clemenceau, 85, 88, 117, 129, 130

C.G.T. (_Confederation Generale du Travail_), 129

Congo, 86

Coppee, Francois, 43, 48, 49, 50, 102

Connaught, Duke of, 9, 92

Corot, 30

_Corps Legislatif_, 95

Council of the Ten, 114

Cureau, 86

Cuvier, 10, 11, 39


Danton, 426

Daubigny, 30

Declasse, 81, 86, 87, 90, 92, 93, 94, 96, 97, 98, 99, 100, 102, 104,
105, 117

Deroulede, 98, 127, 128

Desmoulins, 426

Devil's Island, 84, 94, 103

Dieulafoy, M. and Mme., 57

Domremy, 3

Don Quixote, 98

Dreyfus (Captain), 50, 84, 85, 87, 88, 89, 91, 101, 103, 117

Dreyfus Affair, 80, 84, 88, 94, 99, 102, 103, 112, 114, 116, 117, 127

Dufferin, Marquess of, 101

Dujardin-Beaumetz, 60, 400

Dupuy, Charles, 68, 100, 103, 128


Edward VII, 59, 83, 128, 129

Egypt, 86, 92, 100

Eletz, General, 62

Elisabeth, Empress of Austria, 91

Elysee, 37, 73, 74, 75, 76, 78, 79, 92, 99, 102, 106, 107, 110, 111,
113, 117, 121, 130

England, 81, 83, 91, 92, 94, 96, 100, 459, 462

_Entente Cordiale_, 129

Esterhazy, Major, 84, 85, 87, 88

Eugenie, Empress, 40


Faure, President, 18, 19, 70-97, 99-103, 106-127, 131, 137, 149, 234,
250, 342, 357, 404

Faure, Mlle. Lucie, 88, 118

Fashoda, 83, 84, 86, 87, 90-95, 96-100, 104, 105, 117

Fallieres, President, 129, 141, 142, 144

Ferry, Jules, 68, 128

Fontainebleau, 57

Fournier, Admiral, 82

Fragonard, 58

France, Anatole, 51, 52

Franco-Prussian War, 8, 80, 92

Franco-Russian Alliance, 69, 80, 82, 96, 120

Freycinet, de, 100

Friedland, 39


Gainsborough, 59

Gambetta, 128

Gautier, Theophile, 39

Gervais, Admiral, 60, 69

Girardin, Marquis de, 103

Glueck, 7

Gobelins, 38

Goron, 249-251

Gortschakoff, 83

Gounod, 12, 34, 101

Goya, 59

Grand Guignol, 60

Greuze, 39

Groult, 57-59

Guerin, Jules, 128

Guyana, 84


Hague, the, 61

Hannibal, 4

Hanotaux, 70, 74, 87, 96

Havre, 81, 88

Haydn, 85

Henner, 54-56

Henry, Colonel, 84, 89, 91

Heredia, J. M. de, 49

Holland, 61, 470

Hoppner, 59

Hugo, Victor, 39


India, 97

Italy, 28, 470

_Institut_, 33, 52


Janssen, 133

Japy, General, 62, 72

Jaures, 117

Jena, 39

Jibuti, 100

Joan of Arc, 3

Jockey Club, 40

_Journal Officiel_, 120


Kant, 134

Kapurthala, 70

Khartum, 90-94, 97

Kilimanjaro, 4

Kitchener, Sir Herbert, 90, 91, 93, 100

Kronstadt, 60, 69, 72, 102


Lafitte, 40

Laferriere, 88

La Fontaine, 39

Lalique, 106, 145

Lamy, Major, 106, 107

Lannes, Marechal, 39

La Paz, 61

La Tour, 58

La Traversette, 71, 72

Lawrence, 59

Lepine, 88

Lesseps, F. de, 34

Le Gall, 106, 110, 112, 113

Legion d'Honneur, 88

Liotard, 86, 102

Liszt, 10

Lockroy, 88, 96

London County Council, 129

Longchamps, 70

Lorraine, 55

Loti, Pierre, 52, 53

Loubet, President, 128, 129

Louis-Philippe, 13, 103

Louvre, Museum, 59

Lucretia Borgia, 117

Lucullus, 5

Lulli, 7

_L'Aurore_, 85, 89

_L'Echo de Paris_, 214, 226, 231, 234, 274, 279, 370

_L'Eclair_, 323

_Le Figaro_, 430

_Le Gaulois_, 269, 273

_L'Intransigeant_, 95

_Le Journal_, 466

_Le Petit Journal_, 273

_Le Petit Parisien_, 247

_La Presse_, 405

_Paris-Journal_, 300

_Le Temps_, 88, 93, 273, 412

_Le Matin_, 189, 217, 231-235, 239-241, 256, 259-261, 274, 284-286, 300,
301, 310, 316, 317, 318-326, 343, 415


Madagascar, 81

Madrid, 60

Maeterlinck, 66

Marchand, Major, 86, 87, 90, 91, 93, 94, 96, 97, 100-102

Mars, Mlle., 39, 40

Massenet, 43, 47, 48, 73, 101, 409

Mediterranean, 97

Meissonier, 21, 25, 30, 33

Meline, 74, 84, 87, 88

Menelik, Emperor, 87

Mercier, General, 88

Metternich, Prince, 104

Metternich, Princess, 40

Meudon Observatory, 132

Mexico, 40

Michelangelo, 44

Moliere, 52

Monaco, 236

Monod, 12

Monson, Sir Edmund, 93, 94, 98-101

Montmartre, 39, 46

Mont Valerien, 89

Morgue, 52

Morny, Duc de, 40, 41, 430

Morocco, 102, 105

Moscow, 5, 28

Mozart, 7, 85

Mulhausen, 18, 24

Muravieff, Count, 96, 97

Muerger, 39

Musset, A. de, 39


Napoleon I., 3, 4, 11, 13, 16, 70, 75, 76, 83, 235

Napoleon III., 40, 41, 83, 430

Nancy, 12

Nattier, 59

Negrier, General de, 92

New York, 33

Nicholas II. (Czar), 67, 72, 102, 128

Niger, 104

Nile, 86, 91, 92, 98, 100, 104

Notre Dame (Paris), 33, 61

_Nouveau Cercle_, 41

Nubar Pasha, 92


Offenbach, 39, 56

Omdurman, 90, 91

Opera, 37, 69, 73

Opera Comique, 48, 101

Oppert, Julius, 56

Orinoco, 4

Orleans, Duke of, 88, 93, 96, 103

Orsay, d', 38, 40


Pacific, 58

Paiva, La, 40

Panama, 68, 127

Pascal, 20, 52

Pasteur, 34

_Patrie Francaise_, League, 50, 102

Pays, Mme., 87

Pere Lachaise, 39

Peterhof, 72

Petit Saint Bernard, 71

Peytral, 87

Picquart, Colonel, 84, 85, 93

Popocatapetl, 4

Poubelle, 60

Pressense, de, 88

_Punch_, 97

Puvis de Chavannes, 14

Pyrenees, 46


Rachel, Mlle., 40

Racine, 7

Raeburn, 59

Raffet, 3

Rambert, Eugene, 61

Rameau, 7

Red Sea, 86

Recamier, Mme., 39

Reinach, J., 117

Roland, Mme., 426

Rennes, 103

Renan, 39, 43

_Revue des Deux Mondes_, 102

Reyer, 48, 49

Renals, Sir Joseph, 69

Reynolds, 59

Ribot, 68, 87

Robert, Hubert, 59

Rochefort, 95, 430, 431

Rodin, 44

Roget, General, 127

Rostand, E., 52

Roujon, 75

Ruskin, 23

Russia, 6, 28, 60, 69, 72, 94, 96, 98


Salisbury, Lord, 92, 104

Salon, 74

Sarrien, 87, 91

Sasse, Marie, 40

Saut du Doubs, 18

Savoy, 71-73

Sainte Chapelle, 23, 343

Saint Cloud, 34, 40

Saint Jean de Luz, 46

Saint Petersburg, 69, 72, 96, 120

Saint Vincent de Paul, 43

Scheurer Kestner, 84

Sem, 430

Senegal, 86

Sinaia, 61

Secretan, 61

Sobat, 100

Strasburg, 23, 33

Strauss, Richard, 66

Sudan, 90, 92

Sueh, 86

Suez Canal, 34

Sylva, Carmen, 61


Talleyrand, 40, 41, 93, 104

Tangiers, 105

Tenniel, Sir John, 97

Thiers, 13, 39

Tornielli, 127

Tuileries, 40

Turner, 59


Ubanghi, Upper, 86

Urusoff, Prince, 102


Venice, 114

Verlaine, 374

Versailles, 68, 127

Victor, Prince Napoleon, 96, 103

Victoria, Queen, 34, 69, 76, 92

Viollet, le Duc, 6

Vogue, de, 52

Voltaire, 52


Wadi-Halfa, 86

Wagner, 7

Waldeck-Rousseau, 128

Waterloo, 76

Watteau, 58

Wattignies, 68

Witte, Count, 94


Zola, 50-52, 85, 87, 88

Zurlinden, General, 90-92

The following changes/corrections have been made in the text: (note of
etext transcriber)

Louise-Philippe=>Louis-Philippe

huband=>husband

the Felix Faure=>then Felix Faure

politicans=>politicians

to be left to the three decisions=>to be left to the three divisions

if he can obtain what we wants otherwise=>if he can obtain what he wants
otherwise

abandoned, give up=>abandoned, given up

Then caressingly turing to her husband=>Then caressingly turning to her
husband

Sisters go to evening payer=>Sisters go to evening prayer

iron gate though which=>iron gate through which

a bientot=>a bientot

Your cousin Meissonnier=>Your cousin Meissonier





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