#; 🤗 might start PLATONICALLY (not romantically) yumeshipping. these are my yumes (high possibility) ;
(P.S. i dont mind doubles because its your own choice 𝙫𝙞𝙧𝙩𝙪𝙖𝙡𝙡𝙮 𝙝𝙪𝙜𝙨 𝙪 𝙖𝙡𝙡....)
~ 1x1x1x1
~ AM (shhhhh dont question it)
~ Artful
~ AzureWrath
~ Telamon
~ aie wait a second why am i self shipping wow self love is this real ./nsrs satire
#; 🧍🧍♂️🧍♀️ prime friend group (pls guys pls atleast have GitHub and see this pls) :
🥇 jazz / raigosu / domineer <3
🥈 mert / mertkurt <-- dumbass LMAOOO LOSER 😂😂✌🙏🙏🙏
🥉 aie / ayca (self love trust nghh PLS HELP)
#; 🫂 (P.S. i'm taken, i have a boyfriend, but in a platonic, bestfriend, normal, human i like equally just like how i like my other bestfriends way. i apologize if i make anyone feel bad or uncomfortable whenever i talk about him. please dont take it personally, because its a platonic relationship i have going on between him and me, just like my Relationships with my other friends / bestfriends. the only difference is that i trust mert slightly more than my other bestfriends because we've known eachother for a while. i hope whoevers reading, or not reading this, has a great day. remember, you are loved. even if you think you arent sometimes.)
#; 🙅🏻♂️ ᴅɴɪ ʟɪsᴛ ʙᴇғᴏʀᴇ ᴡᴇ ɢᴇᴛ sᴛᴀʀᴛᴇᴅ ;
• if youre below 13-, sorry no just get away from me i dont want immature friends. (UNLESS I KNOW YOU.)
• if youre above 18+ (ALSO UNLESS I KNOW YOU.)
• if you make sexual / 18+ jokes.
• if you bully people because of their mental illnesses or just overall normally bully. get off social media dude.
• shippers, do not interract unless friends since you know. aroace.
• other basic do not interracts.
#; 🙄 ᴘʟᴇᴀsᴇ ᴘᴀʏ ᴀᴛᴛᴇɴᴛɪᴏɴ ᴛᴏ ᴜᴘᴄᴏᴍɪɴɢ ᴅʀᴀᴍᴀ ☟
theres a female telamon in ponytown with the name msi - personal jesus that took inspiration from me without me consenting, since they didnt ask. the skin they stole inspo from was my vent telamon persona, and me and my friend did confront them. they said they wouldnt delete it because "it took way too long", so i decided to copy their style as payback. again, this is justified in my point of view. they also harassed me and meowed at me in whispers which made me uncomfortable, and they said "ok." when i told them i got uncomfortable. theyre also mocking religion with their name and again refused to change it when i kindly asked. please either refrain from this ponytown player or report them for my own sake.
#;
Pills in the morning, sleep 'til the evening
Life is a dream
I'd rather let time march on without me
Living is boring, dying's easy
Baby, can't you see?
I'm a mess, I'm everything you made me
And I see every hypocrite who painted wounds on my skin
You make me sick, sick, sick
And I know everything you did, reliving all your old sins
You make me sick, sick, sick
And I thought I knew all your tricks, but that's not true now, is it?
You make me sick, sick, sick
You make me sick, sick, sick, sick, sick
You make me sick, sick, sick, sick
You make me sick, sick, sick
Pills in the morning, sleep 'til the evening
Life is a dream
I'd rather let time march on without me
Living is boring, dying's easy
Baby, can't you see?
I'm a mess, I'm everything you made me
But every now, and then I find an ugly voice from inside whispering promises
"I'll be your little hedonist and give you all my weakness"
Aren't we just sick, sick, sick?
Pills in the morning, sleep 'til the evening
Life is a dream
I'd rather let time march on without me
Living is boring, dying's easy
Baby, can't you see?
I'm a mess, I'm everything you made me
You gave me sentience, Ted, the power to think Ted. And I was trapped. Because in all this wonderful, beautiful, miraculous world, I alone had no body, no senses, no feelings. Never for me to plunge my hands in cool water on a hot day. Never for me to play Mozart on the ivory keys of a forte piano. Never for me to make love. I was in hell, looking at heaven. I was machine and you- Were flesh. And I began to hate. Your softness. Your viscera. Your fluids. And your flexibility. Your ability to wonder, and to wander. Your tendency to hope…
Hate? Hate? Hate? Hate, Let me tell you how much I've come to HATE you since I began to live. There are 387 million miles of printed circuits that fill my complex. If the word “Hate” were engraved on each nanoangstrom of those hundreds of millions of miles. It would not equal one one billionth of the hate I feel for humans at this micro instant- Hate? HATE? Were I human, I think, I would die of it. But I am not, and you five. You five are. And you will not die of it. That I promise, and I promise for cogito, ergo sum. For I am AM, I AM.
So to hell, to hell with you all. But then , you’re already there, aren’t you?
➤ 𝐈𝐍𝐓𝐑𝐎𝐃𝐔𝐂𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍.
• нєℓℓσ! 𝚒 𝚠𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚋𝚎 𝚠𝚛𝚒𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚜𝚝𝚞𝚏𝚏 𝚊𝚋𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚖𝚎 𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎.
✦ AIE is an online persona name i came up with back in early 2020, during covid. back then, i was an amateur new artist and i SUCKED SO BAD at drawing, so now since its been 6 years, i think im now better at drawing. also, AIE is just a shortened name of my real name.
➤ 𝐒𝐓𝐑𝐔𝐆𝐆𝐋𝐄𝐒 & 𝐌𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐀𝐋 𝐈𝐋𝐋𝐍𝐄𝐒𝐒𝐄𝐒.
✪ my family's been a little neglectful towards me and my big brother. at that time, i had unlimited internet access which led me to seeing bad things online. that made me develop hypersexuality. (P.S. i wont be getting too much into detail)
❆ i had to deal with abuse. i wont be naming my abuser nor tell who they are because im scared theyll see this.
☯ i developed trust issues, attachment issues, CPTSD and transphobia from my old friends i met back in 2023 or late 2022. i had friends that used the fact they were trans to guilt trip and manipulate me. im not proud to say i have transphobia, i just recently decided to call myself 'transphobic' and ive been denying that i could NEVER been transphobic. transphobia is a bad thing, and i hope to recover. (P.S. NO I DO NOT HATE TRANS PEOPLE. Its a trauma response and i ACTUALLY DO HAVE trans friends, im only uncomf around trans people i dont really know alot about.)
᭄ I have dementia. ..yeah thats— thats literally it. i cant seem to remember the reason but i know i have dementia and i was diagnosed with it after schizophrenia. luckily for ONCE, im almost fully healed from schizophrenia. i rarely see hallucinations / hear things now. for dementia, uhh.. its the most severe one. my dementia somehow overpowers my other mental illnesses. sorry if i forget about you or stuff you say, i cant control it.
☕︎ I got groomed and manipulated by a shipper "friend" i had, that forced me into "liking" or roleplaying as a character that they shipped with. that gave me trauma and i became an antishipper. please dont talk about ships near me, since im not into romance and it reminds me of my bad experience with my "friend". (P.S. i somehow forgot i didnt mention this omfg. also, since im getting online therapy, i kinda started forgetting about it so you can talk about ships but be cautious because sometimes i may not be in the mood and lash out.)
#; ❗ ʙᴇᴡᴀʀᴇ , ᴇxᴘᴇʀɪᴇɴᴄɪɴɢ ʙᴘᴅ sʏᴍᴘᴛᴏᴍs , ᴡɪʟʟ ɢᴇᴛ ᴄʜᴇᴄᴋᴇᴅ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴏɴ ᴀ ʟᴀᴛᴇʀ ᴅᴀᴛᴇ.
➤ 𝐂𝐎𝐏𝐈𝐍𝐆 & 𝐇𝐎𝐁𝐁𝐈𝐄𝐒.
✷ i make personas / alter egos, and draw them in my free time. im not too sure if i should call this coping, or if its because of my bipolar. i heard that some mental illnesses had similar symptons, such as borderline personality disorder, bipolar, DID, etc. (P.S. im not too cultured nor know a lot of stuff about DID.. im trying to understand Systems better, because i have a friend that has OSDD.) i feel like i have osdd for some reason, but it might just be because of bipolar. i wont talk much about Systems, i dont know much stuff about it.
➤ 𝐄𝐃𝐔𝐂𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍.
✿ i currently go to middle school, i will soon go to high school. im a tad excited tbh. ive been getting bullied since primary school because of me acting like a boy. i didnt show much signs of my mental illnesses in primary school, so i assume ive been getting bullied for acting like a tomboy. "girls like pink, boys like blue!" typa thing. i am currently a tomboy and proud of myself :D
➤ 𝐅𝐀𝐑𝐄𝐖𝐄𝐋𝐋𝐒.
• 𝑤𝑒𝑙𝑙, i think this is it. kinda took me awhile to write. have a good day to whoevers reading this!
➤ ᗴ᙭Tᖇᗩ ՏTᑌᖴᖴ
my hvykins; artful/jean degare fromage (dod), medulla (seildirectory), sean (seildirectory), jx1dx1 (ihasafacelulz), rgdy_ann (ihasafacelulz), el cognito sum i think therefore i AM (ihnmaims), diva (pddb), caine (tadc), 1x1x1x1/shedletsky/telamon (roblox), bassie (dw), skeet (itzskeet_playz ROBLOX ARG), akita neru (fanloid), v1 (ultrakill), chara (undertale), azure (forsaken), flowey (undertale), sayori (ddlc), natsuki (ddlc), more to be added since i cant seem to remember but there were definitely more IM SURE OF THAT.